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You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: A Houseful of Girls + +Author: Mrs. George de Horne Vaizey + +Illustrator: Victor Prout + +Release Date: April 17, 2007 [EBook #21121] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ASCII + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK A HOUSEFUL OF GIRLS *** + + + + +Produced by Nick Hodson of London, England + + + + + +A Houseful of Girls + +By Mrs George de Horne Vaizey +________________________________________________________________________ +Another book by Mrs de Horne Vaizey, also known as Jessie Mansergh, +about the lives of five girls in one family, and their friends, in +Edwardian times. Of course every time there is a major event, such as +an engagement, or the cancellation of one, the different girls all have +different takes on the situation. NH +________________________________________________________________________ + +A HOUSEFUL OF GIRLS + +BY MRS GEORGE DE HORNE VAIZEY + + + +CHAPTER ONE. + +HALF A DOZEN DAUGHTERS. + +There were six of them altogether--six great big girls,--and they lived +in a great big house, in the middle of a long high road, one end of +which loses itself in London town, while the other goes stretching away +over the county of Hertford. Years ago, John Gilpin had ridden his +famous race down that very road, and Christabel loved to look out of her +bedroom window and imagine that she saw him flying along, with his poor +bald head bared to the _breeze_, and the bottles swinging on either +side. She had cut a picture of him out of a book and tacked it on her +wall, for, as she explained to Agatha, her special sister, she felt it a +duty to support "local talent," and, so far as she could discover, +Gilpin was the only celebrity who had ever patronised the neighbourhood. + +Christabel was the youngest of the family--a position which, as every +one knows, is only second in importance to that of the eldest, and, in +this instance, Maud was so sweet and unassuming that the haughty young +person of fourteen ruled her with a rod of iron. + +Fair-haired Lilias was a full-fledged young lady, and Nan had had all +her dresses let down, and was supposed to have her hair up; but as a +matter of fact it was more often down than not, for it was heavy and +plentiful, and Nan's ten thumbs could by no chance fasten it securely. +Hair-pins littered the schoolroom floor, hair-pins stood out +aggressively against the white paint on the stairs, hair-pins nestled in +the little creases of velvet chairs: there were hair-pins, hair-pins +everywhere, except just where they should have been--on Nan's dressing- +table; and here there was such a dearth of these useful articles, that +on one memorable occasion she had been compelled to effect a coiffure +with the aid of a piece of string and a broken comb. The effect was +striking for a good ten minutes, and then came the inevitable collapse; +but, "Dear me," as Nan observed, "accidents will happen, and what is the +use of making a fuss about a thing like that, when the world is full of +suffering!" + +Elsie thanked her stars that she was only sixteen, and need not be +"grown-up" for two long years to come; but when her younger sisters grew +obtrusive, she suddenly remembered that she would be seventeen in three +months' time, and would have them know that she was to be treated with +respect; and, in spite of daily discussions, feuds, and battles, the +girls all loved each other dearly, and believed that such a charming and +highly endowed family had never before existed in the annals of +Christendom. + +As a matter of fact, the Rendell girls had claim to one great +distinction--promiscuous accomplishments had been discarded in their +case, and each had been brought up to do some one thing well. Maud was +musical, and practised scales two hours a day as a preliminary before +settling down for another two or three hours of sonatas and fugues. +Elsie locked herself in her bedroom for a like period, and the wails of +her violin came floating downstairs like the lament of a lost soul. Nan +appropriated a chilly attic, carved wood and her fingers at the same +time, and clanged away at copper work, knocking her nails black and blue +with ill-directed strokes of the hammer, as she manufactured the panels +which were fitted into her oak carving with such artistic effect. +Lilias declared sweetly that she was too stupid to do anything, but +privately reflected that at least she had mastered the art of looking +charming; and what did it matter if she _were_ useless, since with her +beauty she would certainly marry a duke on the first opportunity, and be +spirited away to a life of luxury! As for Agatha and Christabel, they +were supposed to devote themselves to the study of languages and the +domestic arts, but in private conclave they had already decided on their +future career. They were to keep a select academy for young ladies, in +which they would correct all those glaring errors of governess and +mother under which they themselves had groaned. + +"I can bear it better when I feel it is for a good end. Our girls shall +never suffer as I am suffering!" said Chrissie, with an air of +martyrdom, when she was ordered to bed at nine o'clock, and +remorselessly roused from slumber at seven a.m. "If grown-ups were +sensible, they would allow a child to follow its own instinct. Nature +must surely know better than mothers; and my nature tells me to sit up +at nights and have breakfast in bed. To be sent off as if one were a +child in arms is really too horribly trying!" + +"And when Mr Barr was there too! So degrading! Last night he was +talking to me about books, and I'm sure he thought I was quite grown up. +The table was between us, you know, so he couldn't see my legs. I was +enjoying myself so much, and saying that I thought Thackeray much over- +rated, when mother came up and said, `Time for bed, Chickie! Run away!' +I assure you, I _blushed_ with mortification." + +"Piteous!" said Christabel, bringing out her pet word with emphasis. +"They never think of our feelings. I shall make it a rule to study the +characters of our young ladies, and avoid wounding their +susceptibilities. I know how it feels!" + +In spite of their many sufferings, however, the Rendells would one and +all have been ready to declare that there never had been, might, could, +would, or should be, such another father and mother as they possessed. +To have a son at college, and yourself carry off a prize at a tennis +tournament, was surely a feat to be proud of on the part of a father; +and what joy to have a tiny little scrap of a mother, who could be +petted like a child and lifted up in the arms of the youngest daughter-- +a mother who had solved the problem of eternal youth, and looked so +pretty and so meek, that it was a constant marvel where on earth she +managed to stow that colossal will-power before which every member of +the household bowed and trembled. + +The Rendells' house was at once the brightest, the airiest, and the +noisiest in the neighbourhood. As there were only six daughters, it can +truthfully be asserted that there were never more than half a dozen +girls talking at the same moment. Strangers passing beneath the +schoolroom window at a moment when the sisters were assembled together, +had indeed been known to estimate the numbers present as from a dozen to +twenty; but such a statement was obviously false, and tended to that +painful habit of exaggeration which it is the duty of all good folk to +deplore. They were girls of strong individuality, and each felt it a +duty to state her own views on any given subject, which she proceeded to +do, undaunted by the fact that her companions were too much engrossed in +talking themselves to be able to listen to a word she said. Maud +talked, pouring out tea and dropping sugar into the cups with tragic +emphasis; Lilias prattled sweetly, waving her white hands to enforce a +point which no one heard; Nan banged the table and upset her cup in +violence of denunciation; Elsie squeaked away in melancholy treble; and +Agatha's "Too bad!" and Christabel's "Horrid shame!" were heard +uninterruptedly in every pause. + +When the door of the Grange opened to admit a stranger, the wail of a +violin, the jingle of the piano, and the clang of Nan's hammer greeted +him on the threshold, and from morn till night the echo of laughter and +of happy voices never died away. There was only one occasion when the +Rendell girls subsided into silence, and that was when Jim--the brother, +the typical man of the race--came home on a visit and shed the lustre of +his presence on his native village. Then the Miss Rendells sat in rows +at his feet, paying obeisance, and, meekly opening their mouths, +swallowed all he said, not even Nan herself daring to raise a question. + + + +CHAPTER TWO. + +A HAPPY THOUGHT. + +Thurston House, the abode of the Rendell family, was one of those +curiously-constructed houses which are only to be met with in old- +fashioned neighbourhoods. It stood directly on the high road, a big +grey building which could boast of no architectural beauty, and which +indeed presented a somewhat cheerless aspect, with its wire blinds and +tall, straight windows. A gaunt, town-like house--such was the +impression made upon the casual passer--by; but appearances are apt to +be deceptive, and that same stranger would have speedily altered his +impression, if he had been taken round the garden to view the other side +of the house. It was almost impossible to believe in such a different +aspect! From one side a busy high road, strings of cyclists, _char a +bancs_ driving past, bearing parties of brawling trippers, clouds of +dust, the echo of the drivers' horns, and the continued whirl of wheels; +and on the other--deep bay windows looking on to a lawn of softest +green, winding paths shaded with grand old trees, and, beyond all, a +meadow stretching down to the riverside, where punt and canoe stood +waiting in happy proximity, and clumps of bamboos flourished in eastern +luxuriance. + +"Our country house," the girls called the rooms facing south, "Our town +house," those at the front; but though they adored the garden, and spent +every available moment out of doors, the busy high road still held an +attraction of its own. Mrs Rendell had her own entertaining rooms at +the back of the house, but the girls were faithful to the little porch +chamber which had been their property since childhood--a quaint little +den built over the doorway, with a window at each of the three sides, +through which an extended view was afforded of the comings and goings of +the neighbourhood. + +"I love this dear little bower," sighed Lilias sentimentally. "There's +something so quaint and old-world about it. I feel like Elaine in her +turret-chamber, looking out upon the great wide world." + +"And it's such sport watching the people pass, especially on rainy days +when the wind is high, and they are trying to hold up their dresses, and +carry an umbrella and half a dozen parcels at the same time!" cried Nan +with a relish. "Last Saturday was the very worst day of the year, and +all the good housewives went past to shop. Chrissie and Agatha and I +offered a prize to go to the one who guessed rightly who would have the +muddiest boots. It was lovely watching them! Old Mrs Rowe, clutching +her dress in front, and showing all her ankles, while at the back it was +trailing on the ground; Mrs Smith, stalking like a grenadier, with a +skimpy skirt and snow-shoes a yard long; dear, sweet little Mrs Bruce, +as neat as ever, with not a single splash; and Mrs Booth, splattered +right up to her waist, with boots as white as that rag. I had her name +on my paper, so I got the prize, and spent it in caramels. I'm getting +rather tired of caramels--I've had such a run on them lately. I must +turn to something else for a change." + +"You are getting too old to eat sweets, Nan," said Lilias severely. +"You ought to set the children a better example. If all the money you +spend at the confectioner's was put together, you would be surprised to +find how much it was. And it's bad for your teeth to eat so much sugar. +Why don't you save up, and put it to some really good use?" + +"Such as frilling, and ribbons, and combs for the hair!" suggested Nan +slily, rolling her eyes at the younger girls, who chuckled in the +consciousness that Lilias had got her answer this time at least, since +every one knew well how her pocket-money went! "What is your idea of +something useful, my dear? We'd be pleased to take into consideration +any scheme which you may have to propose, but in its present form the +suggestion is somewhat vague." + +"My dear child, you know as well as I do that there are a hundred +different ways. The only difficulty is to choose." Lilias stared out +of the window, trying hard to cudgel up one idea out of the specified +hundred, in case she should be pressed still further. That was the +worst of Nan, she always persisted on pushing a subject to the end. +"You--er--you might help the poor of the parish!" + +"Just what we do! I heard the vicar say myself that Mrs Evans was a +striving little woman who ought to be supported. If we took away our +custom--" + +"I mean the really poor. Mrs Evans would not shut up shop for the want +of your threepenny-pieces, but the Mission at Sale is always short of +funds. If you had a collecting-box, you could send in a subscription at +Christmas." + +"`The Misses Margaret, Elsa, Agatha, and Christabel Rendell--four and +sixpence halfpenny,'" quoted Chrissie derisively. She marched across +the room and stationed herself with her back to the fire, her thin face +looking forth from a cloud of hair, an expression of dignified disdain +curling her lips. "How important it sounds, to be sure! It's all very +well talking about saving up, Lilias, but it's not so easy to do with +sixpence a week, and birthdays every month, and Christmas presents, and +pencils and indiarubbers, and always seeing fresh things in the shop- +windows that you want to buy. It's not that I wouldn't like to help: if +I had a sovereign, I'd give it at once, but I won't be put down in the +list for eighteenpence, and that's all I could save, if I tried, from +now to Christmas. I gave a threepenny-bit to old `Chairs to mend' only +last Saturday, and one the week before to a woman who was begging. I am +most charitably disposed!" + +"So am I," agreed Agatha--"especially when it's cold. Rags wouldn't be +so bad in summer, but they must be awfully draughty in winter. And I +spend less in sweets than any of the others, because my teeth ache. +I've often wished we could do something for the Mission; but I'm so +poor, and I sha'n't get any goose-money till autumn. I wish we could +think of some plan by which we could make some more. Chrissie and I are +always talking about it. There seems so few ways in which girls of +fourteen can make money. We thought of writing and asking the editor of +the employment column; but mother laughed at us, and said it was +nonsense. It's not nonsense to us!" + +"If we could only have a sale of work," said Lilias slowly. She was +still staring dreamily out of the window, and hardly realised what she +was saying, but the other four girls turned sharply towards each other, +and a flash of delight passed from one pair of eyes to the other. + +"Ah-ah!" sighed Elsie. + +"Splendiferous!" cried Nan. + +"How simp-lay love-lay!" drawled Christabel, with the languid elegance +of manner for which she was distinguished; and Agatha beamed broadly all +over her good-humoured face, oblivious of the sufferings of the poor in +the prospect of her own amusement. + +"What fun we should have! I'd bake the cakes and manage the refreshment +stall! Tea and coffee, threepence a cup; lemonade, fourpence; fruit +salad, sixpence a plate!" + +"I'd sell toffee in tins, and have a pin-cushion table, and make every +single soul I know give me a contribution." + +"I'd give my new oak bracket. No, it's too big. I couldn't spare that; +but I'd carve something else; and make little brass trays and panels. +`High art stall: Miss Margaret Rendell. Objects of bigotry and virtue +to be handed over to her,' and don't you forget it!" + +"I'll take visitors out in the punt at threepence a head. I'm so stupid +that I can't do any work, but the idea is mine, and that ought to count +for something," said Lilias; and a vision rose before her eyes of a slim +white figure gracefully handling the pole as the punt glided down the +stream. Punting was a most becoming occupation; on the whole she could +not have hit on a pleasanter manner of helping the cause. "I daresay I +shall make quite a lot of money!" she added cheerfully; and her sisters +laughed with the half-indulgent, half-derisive laughter with which they +were accustomed to greet Lilias's sayings. She was so sweetly +unconscious of her own selfishness, and looked so pretty as she turned +her big bewildered eyes from one to the other, that they had not the +heart to disturb her equanimity. + +"The punt is a good idea," admitted Nan, "for people are always pleased +to go on the river, and we must turn our advantages to account. A +garden sale, that's what we must have! Little tables dotted about the +lawn beneath Japanese umbrellas; tea in a tent, and seats under the +trees. We can use all the properties that mother keeps for her garden +parties, and make it just as pretty and attractive as can be. I +shouldn't wonder if we made a lot of money, for we shall be so original +and ingenious. People are so stupid in this world. I always feel I +could do things so much better myself. Who wants to go to a stuffy old +bazaar in the Mission Room? No one does! They go from a sense of duty. +Mother groans and says, `Oh dear, if I could only give a subscription +and be done with it! More cosies and chairbacks! I've a drawerful +already!' And bazaar things are hideous! Father gave me ten shillings +to spend at the Christmas sale, and I wandered round and round like a +lost sheep, and couldn't see a single thing that I wanted. In the end I +bought a cover for _Bradshaw_. It wasn't a bit useful, for I never have +a _Bradshaw_; but it was the nicest thing I saw. Now, let us solemnly +resolve not to have anything on our stalls that will not reflect credit +on our judgment. Nothing ugly, nothing useless, nothing vulgar--" + +"Impossible, my dear! Can't be managed. It's the law of Nature that +the kindest-hearted people have the least taste. I don't know why it +should be so, but it is, and I'll prove it to you. If we announced that +we were going to have a sale of work and asked for contributions, who +would be the first people to respond?" Christabel thrust out her left +hand and began checking off the fingers with dramatic emphasis. "Miss +Ross,--Mrs Hudson,--Mary Field,--old Jane Evans. `So pleased to hear +that the dear children are interesting themselves in the welfare of +their poor brothers and sisters, and I've brought round a few wool mats +as a little expression of sympathy!'--that's Mrs Ross! Then Mary Ann +would hobble up with a parcel wrapped up in a handkerchief, and kiss us +all twice over, and say, `I've brought round a piece of my own fancy +work, lovies, as a contribution for your sale. My sight is not what it +used to be, and it's difficult to get the material one would like in +this little place; but shaded silks always look well, and I made the +fringe myself out of odd pieces of wool.' And _that's_ not the worst! +Mrs Hudson would paint bulrushes on cream-pots, and forget-me-nots on +tambourines, and come round bristling with importance. `I always find +fancy work is overdone at sales, so I thought a little of my hand- +painting would be acceptable! No one needs more than a dozen cosies, +but every one is glad of an extra tambourine!' ... It's easy to talk, +my dear, but what could you do when it came to the point? There's +nothing for it but to smile, and look pleased." + +"I should say politely, but firmly, that I could not find it in my heart +to deprive them of such treasures--that with so many deserving objects +craving support, it would be pure selfishness on our part to monopolise +all the good things! Such munificence was far, far more than we +deserved, and would they kindly send a little cake instead? They would +be delighted, for they are everlastingly giving to some mission or +other, and are always in a rush to get work finished. But I don't +propose to let things reach such a climax. I wouldn't hurt their dear +old feelings for the world. So we will say at once that we want cake +and fruit, and we shall get the very best of its kind. We must fix our +date for the strawberry season; for the human heart is desperately +wicked, and people will gladly pay sixpence to sit under trees and eat +strawberries and cream, when wild horses wouldn't drag twopence out of +them for a pen-wiper. I expect we shall succeed best with punting and +refreshments." + +"If it's fine! But it won't be fine--it will pour!" said Elsie +gloomily, and wagged her head in the hopeless manner of one who has +tasted deeply of the world, and knew its hollowness by heart. If there +was by chance a cheerful _and_ a melancholy view to be taken on any +subject, Elsie invariably chose the melancholy one, and gloated over it +with ghoulish enjoyment. She was never so happy as when she was +miserable,--as an Irishman would have had it,--and hugged the conviction +that she was "unappreciated" by her family, and a victim of fate. She +shed tears over _Misunderstood_ in the solitude of her chamber, and +cultivated an expression of patient martyrdom, as most fitted for her +condition. Occasionally she forgot herself so far as to be cheery and +playful; but her feelings were so ultrasensitive that they were bound to +be wounded by some thoughtlessness on the part of her sisters before +many hours were over, when she would remember her own unhappiness, and +roam away by herself to the other end of the garden to apostrophise the +heavens and pity her hard lot. "It will be sure to pour! It always +does pour when we want to do anything!" she declared; upon which Nan +threw her book into the air and caught it again with a dexterous +movement. + +"Fiddle-de-dee! It's going to be a bright, glorious summer day, with +just enough sun to be warm and not enough to be hot, and just enough +wind to be cool and not enough to be cold. And the grass is going to be +dry and the strawberries ripe; and all the pretty ladies and gentlemen +are going to drive over from miles and miles around, and spend so much +money that they will have none left to take them home. What is the use +of croaking? If things go wrong, it's bad enough to have to bear them +at the time; but until then imagination is our own, and we will make the +most of it. It will not pour, my dear Raven; so don't let me hear you +say so again! Make up your mind that this sale is going to be a +success, and try to bear it as well as you can." + +Elsie looked up at the corner of the ceiling, and arched her eyebrows in +resigned and submissive fashion. When the rain did come,--as of course +it would,--when all the fancy work was drenched and the pretty dresses +spoiled, the girls would remember her prophecy, and be compelled to +acknowledge its correctness; but till then she would suffer in silence, +and refuse to be drawn into vulgar argument. So she determined, at +least; but a fiery temptation assailed her in the form of another +objection, so unanswerable that it was not in human nature to resist +hurling it at the heads of her companions. + +"I hope you are right, I am sure; but, all the same, it is rather early +in the day to make arrangements. You are counting without your host. +How can you tell that mother will consent to let you have the sale at +all?" + +And at that the listeners hung their heads and were silent, for it was +indeed useless to build castles unless they were first assured of this +foundation. + + + +CHAPTER THREE. + +A NEW NEIGHBOUR. + +After dinner that evening the six girls assembled in the drawing-room, +and little Mrs Rendell sat in their midst on a low chair drawn up in +the centre of the fireplace. A grey silk dress fitted closely to the +lines of her tiny figure, two minute little slippers were placed upon +the fender, and the diamonds flashed on her fingers as she held up a fan +to protect her face from the blaze. She looked ridiculously young and +pretty, to be the mother of those six big girls; and a stranger looking +in at the scene would have put her down as a helpless little creature, +too meek and gentle to cope with such heavy responsibilities. But the +stranger would have been mistaken. + +"Mother darling," said Christabel insinuatingly, "granting always that +you are the kindest and most amiable of mothers, do you happen to feel +in an extra specially angelic temper this evening?" + +"An `oh-certainly-my-darlings-do-whatever-you-please' temper!" chimed in +Nan sweetly; "because if you do--" + +"I hope I shall never be so forgetful of my duties as to say anything so +indiscreet," replied Mrs Rendell firmly. "Margaret, your hair is +tumbling down again! Kneel down, and let me fasten it for you at once!" + +Nan knelt down meekly, her roguish face on a level with her mother's, +and the brown coils were twisted and hair-pinned together with swift, +decided fingers. + +"You must do it like this--do you see!--tighter, closer, more firmly!" + +"Yes, mother." + +"It's disgraceful that a big girl like you--a girl nearly eighteen-- +should not be able to do her own hair!" + +"Yes, mother." + +"You wouldn't like to be known as the girl with the untidy hair, I +suppose, or to have a collapse of this sort in church or in the street?" + +"No, mother." + +"Then pray, my dear, be more careful. Don't let me have to speak +again." + +"I'll try, mother. A rough head, but a loving heart! You might kiss me +now and say you're sorry, for you stuck two hair-pins right into my +scalp, and I never winced!" + +Mrs Rendell smiled, and laid a gentle hand on the girl's cheek. For +one moment her dignified airs seemed to vanish, and nothing but motherly +tenderness shone in her eyes, but the next she drew herself up again, +stiff as a little poker, and said lightly-- + +"Nonsense, nonsense! Get up, child, and don't be ridiculous! Sit on +that high chair, and don't stoop! I can't endure to see a young girl +lounging on a couch. What is this new scheme that you wish to ask me +about to-night?" + +"Mother dear, you know you like us to be charitable! You are always +preaching--er, I mean impressing upon us--that we ought to remember the +poah," said Christabel, standing up as stiff as a grenadier, and smiling +at her mother in her most ingratiating manner. Mrs Rendell would have +died rather than acknowledge a special weakness towards any member of +her flock; but as a matter of fact her youngest-born possessed a power +of wheedling favours which none of her sisters could boast, and was +herself agreeably conscious of the fact, and fond of putting it to the +test. "I am sure you will approve of our scheme, and feel pleased with +us for thinking of it. It's for the Mission. We thought of getting up +a little sale among ourselves, and giving the proceeds towards the +funds." + +"It is so little that we can give; but if we devote our time and +strength"--murmured Lilias prettily. + +"It all adds up when you put it together," said practical Agatha; "and +you can stick on such awful prices. Chrissie and I thought we might +have the refreshments and a pin-cushion stall, and set out little tables +on the lawn." + +"Such jolly fun!" gushed Nan. "Every one would come; and we would have +games, and sports, and sails in the boats, and something to pay wherever +they went. The young ones would stay, after the others had gone, to eat +up the strawberries, and we would have pounds and pounds to give to the +secretary." + +"Of strawberries?" queried Mrs Rendell coldly. "Your English, Nan, is +painful to hear. I think I shall write down some of your sentences and +give them to you to parse. Then perhaps you may realise how they sound! +A sale for the Mission! That is an ambitious idea. How do you propose +to get together enough work to fill a single stall, much less three or +four?" + +"There are five months before July, and we would work like niggers all +the time. Nan would carve, we would sew, all our friends would help, +and we would make money by tea and refreshments. Really and truly, we +could do very well, if you would only say `Yes'." + +"And we should so enjoy it! It's horrid having nothing to look forward +to; and if there was this in prospect, we should be busy and occupied, +and the wet days wouldn't seem half so long!" + +"Now, let us understand each other," said Mrs Rendell briskly. "Is +this scheme proposed for your own amusement, or for the good of the +Mission? One says one thing, one another, and I can't make up my mind +whether I am asked to consent to a charity or to a novel form of garden- +party. I should like to have that point settled before we go any +further. Are you thinking of yourselves or your neighbours?" + +Silence. The sisters looked at one another askance. Elsie sighed and +shook her head, Agatha flushed to the roots of her hair, only Nan +retained her composure, and said daringly-- + +"Both, mother. We began by saying that we should like to give a +contribution, but we had so little money that it seemed hardly worth +while sending it; and then the sale was suggested. The first idea was +to help the Mission, but we did think that it would be good fun for +ourselves as well! There is no harm in that, is there? You have said +lots of times that you love cheerful givers, and it must be better to do +a thing willingly than grumbling all the time. Do people who get up +bazaars never think of the fun, and the dresses, and the meeting with +their friends, but only just of the charity for which they are working? +Oh, mother, I don't believe they do! I've heard you say yourself--" + +"Nan, Nan, Nan! I object to be quoted! It is dreadful to have an +audience of six girls swallowing every word, and bringing them up in +judgment on the first convenient opportunity!" Mrs Rendell showed her +pretty teeth in a smile of amusement, and returned to the subject in +hand with suspicious haste. "Well, you are honest, at any rate, and so +long as you keep the idea of helping others to the fore, and don't allow +it to be crowded out by the thought of your own enjoyment, I don't see +anything to object to in your scheme. No; I don't give my consent yet! +You must think it over quietly for a week, and be quite sure of your own +minds. A sale would involve more work than you think; for you will have +to give up time and money and do the thing thoroughly, if you once take +it in hand. I will promise nothing to-night; for I wonder how many +times you have come to me brimming over with enthusiasm about some new +plan, and how often it has collapsed like a bubble in a couple of days! +You are such changeable children!" + +"Oh, Mummy, come! Call things by their nice names," pleaded Nan. "It's +not fickleness--it's fertility of imagination; it's not a collapse--it's +only a fresh beginning! But we really mean it this time, and you mean +to say `Yes,' too. I know you do; so nothing now remains but to talk it +over with Kitty in the morning." + +"Ah, yes! Until Kitty has been consulted nothing can be called +certain," said Mrs Rendell, smiling again; and as she spoke she lifted +her head in a listening gesture, and pushed her stool from the fire. +She had heard the opening of a door, and knew that her husband had +finished his after-dinner cigar and was on his way to the drawing-room; +and the next moment he appeared on the threshold, looked round the group +by the fire, and threw himself in a chair by Nan's side. + +"Well, Mops!" The big hand descended on the girl's head, and ruffled +the locks which had been so carefully put in order, while she turned up +her face with a beaming smile, for there was a special bond of union +between herself and her father, and they aided and abetted each other in +mischief like a couple of merry children. "Well, Mops, how goes it? +What pranks have you been up to to-day?" + +"Oh, father, none at all. I've behaved beautifully--just like a real, +grown-up lady! In the morning I pursued my avocations, and in the +afternoon I went out calling, with light kid gloves and a card-case. +Every one was out but old Mrs Reed, and you would have loved it if you +could have heard us talk! We discussed the weather in all its branches. +Cold--dampy-cold--dry cold; warm--close-warm--breezy warm; hot, +thundery hot, scorching. She told me which of each she liked best, and +which her poor dear mother had liked best; and I lingered on and on, +hoping they would bring in tea, until at last I yawned so much that I +was obliged to come away unfed. Then I had cold tea and scraps in the +schoolroom, and we discussed charitable agencies." + +"Oh, Nan, Nan, this will never do! You are getting altogether too +civilised. I shall have no playmate left at this rate," cried her +father, laughing. "Can't you be satisfied with two grown-up daughters, +mother, and leave Mops to me for a few years longer?" + +Mrs Rendell tried to look shocked, a task which she found somewhat +difficult when her husband was the offender; but if her eyes betrayed +her, the elevated brows and pursed-up lips made a valiant show of +disapproval. + +"At eighteen? She is past eighteen, remember. You don't expect a girl +of eighteen to run about in short skirts, with her hair down her back?" + +"She would look much nicer!" sighed Mr Rendell, looking regretfully +first at the long white skirt, and then at the coiled-up tresses. "They +grow up so quickly, Edith; I live in terror of having no children left-- +nothing but fashionable young ladies. One must give in to custom to a +certain extent, I suppose, but I warn you frankly that Chrissie shall be +the exception. It would break my heart to see Chrissie properly grown +up. Chrissie shall always wear her hair down her back!" + +Christabel screwed up her eyes at him across the fireplace with a smile +of indulgent affection. He was so young, this dear old father! so +ridiculously young, that his vagaries could not be treated with the +severity they deserved. It was truest wisdom to take no notice, and +lead the conversation to wiser topics. + +"Any news in the great world to-day, father?" she inquired airily. "Any +nice little bits of gossip to tell us? We look forward to hearing your +news, you know, as part of the day's excitement." + +"My news, indeed! Gossip, she calls it. If you had to provide for half +a dozen daughters, Miss Christabel, you wouldn't find much time to spend +in `gossip.' I go to town to work, and leave it to you at home to run +round collecting the news of the neighbourhood. I know nothing. I hear +nothing. Men don't trouble themselves with gossip." + +Seven long-drawn gasps of incredulity greeted this utterance; seven +pairs of eyes rolled involuntarily to the ceiling; seven heads wagged in +accusation. + +"Oh, oh, oh! Who goes on 'Change and is told the latest jokes? Who +goes to a _cafe_ after lunch and smokes with his cronies? Who has +afternoon tea, and talks again? Who travels every day with the same men +in the train, and hears everything, every--single--tiny--weeny snap of +news that has happened within ten miles around?" + +"Don't know, I'm sure. I don't!" + +"Oh, oh! Who told us about Evan Bruce, and about Mabel's engagement, +and the robbery at the Priory, and--and--" + +"For pity's sake, stop talking all at once! Take it in turns. Speak in +pairs if you must, but not in a perfect orchestra. I didn't know I had +been the first to hear any of those thrilling incidents, but it was +quite an exception if I did. We generally read reviews, or talk +business. I've no news for you to-night, at any rate." + +"You always say so at first, dear. You're so forgetful. Think again. +Frank Brightwen, now--he told you something?" + +"Gold Reef shares gone up two per cent. Market closed firm, with a +tendency to rise." + +"I shall buy some at once. I like things that are going to rise. Be +sensible now, for I shall have to go to bed in ten minutes, and I do so +want to be amused. Had Mr Keeling nothing interesting to relate?" + +"Bad cold, and feared influenza. Details of his last attack. +Prescriptions from all the other fellows, with accounts of their own +experiences." + +"Deah me, how appalling! Worse than a tea-party! I had no ideah men +could be so dull. Nobody engaged? Nobody married? Nobody going to +give a dance? No new people coming to live in the neighbourhood?" + +"Ha!" Mr Rendell struck an attitude of remembrance, at which the +watching faces brightened with smiles. "Yes, now I come to think of it, +there was one little item of news. I forgot all about it; but you will +be interested, no doubt. The Grange is sold!" + +The expression of curiosity on his daughters' faces was exchanged for +one of blank amazement. Even his wife gave a start of surprise, and +turned towards him with eager inquiry. + +"Let! Really let, Alfred? You don't mean it?" + +"So I am told." + +"We've been told so so often that one grows sceptical. Is it really and +truly sold, and the deeds signed? I sha'n't believe it unless they are, +for difficulties have cropped up so often at the last moment. Are you +quite sure this time?" + +"As sure as it is possible to be about anything in this wicked world. +Braithwaite tells me it's an accomplished fact. The deeds are signed, +and the workmen are to begin putting the house in order next week. You +may take it as settled this time, for the man really means to come. He +is a certain Ernest Vanburgh by name, and has been living abroad for +some years." + +"And is there a Mrs Vanburgh, and has he any children, and are they +young or grown up?" + +"Is he a dull sort of man, or will he be hospitable, and give dinners +and parties and help to make the place lively?" + +"Is he musical, father, because there's that lovely big room where we +could have such charming musical evenings?" + +Mr Rendell shrugged his shoulders with an air of resignation. + +"How like a woman, or rather, I should say, how like half a dozen women +put together! My dears, I know absolutely nothing about the man, except +that he has bought the place. He is in a hurry to get settled, so you +will probably find out all about him for yourselves before many weeks +are over. It's no use asking questions. He was willing to pay down the +money, and that was all that Braithwaite cared about. He may be a +bachelor or a second Bluebeard, for all I know; but I suppose in either +case he will still be better than nobody." + +"Of course he will. Blank windows are so dull. Curtains are much more +interesting. There's so much character in curtains. I can tell the +sort of woman who lives in a house merely by looking at her curtains. +It will be a new interest in life to have the Grange let again." + +"And I have a Feeling that it will be an Epoch in our lives. I have a +Feeling that our Fate and that of the new tenants will be inextricably +woven together. It may be foolish, but these convictions are borne in +upon me; I cannot help them!" cried Elsie, clasping her hands and +opening her blue eyes to the fullest capacity, as she turned a gaze of +mysterious raptness upon the group by the fireplace. "Perhaps in years +to come we may look back upon this evening as a milestone marking out +the past from the future, and realise--" + +A burst of laughter put a stop to further sentimentalising, and Elsie +retired within her shell, aggrieved and dignified; but for once she was +right in her surmises, for her own fate and that of her sisters was +indeed destined to be permanently affected by the coming of the new +tenant of the Grange. + + + +CHAPTER FOUR. + +CASTLES IN THE AIR. + +The news that the Grange was sold was truly of great interest to the +Rendell family, for the house faced their own on the opposite side of +the road, and its uninhabited condition had been a standing grievance. +That one of the handsomest houses of the neighbourhood should remain +empty was a serious matter in a small community, and the younger girls +listened with bated breath to the accounts of the gorgeous +entertainments which had been given by the last tenant, hoping against +hope that the time would soon come when the house would once more be +thrown open, and the great oak-panelled rooms re-echo to the sound of +music and laughter. Like their own house, a portion of the Grange +abutted on to the high road, so that a row of windows lay immediately +open to inspection; but two great wings stretched back to right and +left, and the house was surrounded on three sides by beautiful and +extensive grounds. The late owner had spent lavishly in beautifying the +place, and had asked in return a sum so exorbitant, that though many +would-be tenants had arrived to look over the house, one and all drew +back when the nature of his demands was made known, and the Rendell +girls were not the only people who had despaired of a settlement. But +now at last a delightful certainty had been gained, the deeds were +signed, and the long waiting was at an end! + +The morning after the news had been received, Agatha and Christabel +rushed to the porch-room directly after breakfast, and flattened their +noses against the pane to watch for the first sign of their chosen +companion, that same Kitty of whom mention has already been made, and +who came daily to join the schoolroom party, instead of indulging in the +luxury of a governess of her own. She came at last, a tall lamp-post of +a girl, with blue serge skirt blowing back from long brown legs, a plaid +Tam O'Shanter perched on the top of chestnut locks, and a bundle of +books tucked beneath the arm of a corduroy jacket. Christabel banged an +eager fist upon the window, and rushed downstairs in a whirl of +excitement to meet her friend, and carry her off to the schoolroom. + +"My deah, such news! You'll never guess! It's perfectly charming! +You'll go wild when you hear it!" + +Kitty sat down in a chair and gazed calmly around. Whether she would +"go wild" or not when the news was unfolded remained to be seen; but in +the meantime her composure showed not the slightest sign of being +disturbed. + +"Um!" she ejaculated, and began to divest herself of her outdoor +garments, as if nothing more important engrossed her attention. She +tugged at the fingers of her deerskin gloves, and let them fall +indiscriminately at either side of her chair; she sent her cap flying +across the room, wriggled out of her jacket, kicked her overshoes +beneath the table, then folded her arms and seemed to feel that she had +no further responsibility in the matter. The art of putting away +outdoor clothes was one, indeed, which Miss Kitty seemed powerless to +master. In vain her mother exhausted herself in objurgation, and grew +alternately pitiful and angry; Kitty kissed her fervently and vowed +amendment, but the next day there was the jacket as usual, hanging over +a dining-room chair, and the other garments dropped in as many odd +places about the house. This method of procedure was, no doubt, a +saving of trouble in the first instance, but retribution followed when +it came to starting out again after lunch, when Miss Kitty might have +been seen plunging wildly about the room in search of a missing glove or +tie, while groans of despair attended every movement. + +"Where _can_ it be? Wish my things could be left alone! Always stuck +out of the way! Shall be late again now, and get bad marks. Not my +fault. Horrid old servants! Wish they'd do their own work, and leave +my things alone." So on, and so on, until at last the missing article +was found, folded up in a magazine, or thrust beneath a fern-pot, when +Kitty would seize it resentfully, and stalk down the garden-path on her +long brown legs, puffing and fuming, and feeling herself the most ill- +used of mortals. On the present occasion Elsie and Agatha entered the +room as she finished undressing, and the former immediately set to work +to gather together the scattered possessions and put them away, for she +was tidier-in-general to the household, and could never by any +possibility bring herself to sit down comfortably in a room where a +picture hung awry, or a tablecloth dipped unevenly at the corner. The +while she moved about she cast a pensive glance at the newcomer, and +exclaimed regretfully-- + +"Kitty doesn't approve. I saw it in her face the moment I came into the +room. I knew she wouldn't, and I don't know that I do, either. It's a +great risk!" + +"I haven't heard anything to approve of yet. Chrissie has been too +excited to descend to details. You seem to have been very busy! I +never heard of any news when I was here yesterday." + +There was a tinge of displeasure in the voice in which the last sentence +was spoken, and Agatha, the tenderhearted, was quick to note it, and to +explain away the misconception. + +"There was nothing to hear. It happened later. There are two things we +want to tell you about. One is a piece of news from the outside, and +the other is our own special affair; but of course it's not really +settled, for, as mother said, until you had been consulted, nothing +definite could be decided." + +"Think not, indeed!" said Kitty shortly. She put her hand in her pocket +and drew forth a pair of steel-rimmed spectacles, which she placed, not +on the bridge, but on the extreme tip of her nose. Her curly hair was +roughened over her shoulders, the brown ribbon bow stood up erect at the +top of her head; her arms were folded in deliberate inelegance, and she +gazed over the spectacles with an air of grandmotherly condescension, +comically at variance with her appearance. + +"Let me hear about it at once, or Miss Phelps will arrive, and I shall +burst with curiosity in the middle of lessons. What is it that you want +to do?" + +Elsie, Agatha, and Christabel immediately proceeded to explain the +situation in characteristic Rendell fashion, all speaking together, and +continuing to speak, without being in the least disconcerted by the +babble evoked. Elsie whined, Agatha gurgled, and Chrissie drawled, +while the listener rolled her eyes from one to another, catching a +phrase here, a phrase there, until at length some dawning of the +situation began to make itself known. + +"A sale of work! We are to slave away making pin-cushions from now +until July, and then sell them to some one else! I understand that; but +what is the idea of doing it? Who is going to get the money when it is +made?" + +"The poor and needy!" + +"Thank you so much! Most considerate, I'm sure!" + +"Kittay, be quiet! The Mission, of course; the Mission at Sale. We +thought we ought to help, as it is in debt, and we do no good with our +money as it is. We could collect enough to buy materials if we give up +sweets for the next few months." + +Kitty's face fell gloomily. "I've only three and fourpence in the +world, and it's mother's birthday next month, and Aunt May's and +granny's the month after that, and Agatha's next week." + +"Don't count me! I'm as poor as Job myself, but my old yellow sash will +wash and make into sachets, and I'll cut the crushed parts out of hair +ribbons, and use the ends for needlebooks. If they are a tiny bit +stained, I will embroider flowers over the spots. We shall manage the +work somehow, never fear; and think of the tea and refreshments, and +sails in the punts! We shall simply coin money over them. Lilias is +going to do the punting." + +"Naturally she is!" Kitty's eyes twinkled with humorous enjoyment. +"Easy and profitable! Just the sort of work Lilias likes. Oh yes, I +agree. I'd like to work and feel that I was reforming the world, and it +will be great jokes. I know what I'll do. I'll take snap-shots at the +company with my new Kodak, and take orders for copies. There's an idea +for you! People are so vain that they always think they would like a +photograph--until they see a proof! If they refuse, I shall try another +plan. I will snap them unawares, and say, `I have taken several +photographs of you this afternoon at moments which, perhaps, you would +prefer not to have immortalised. The negative is yours for two and +six.' How do you think that would work as a source of income?" + +"Better not let mother hear you talk like that, my child, or the Kodak +will be forbidden once for all, and it is really a lovely idea! You +could take the punt with the different people on board, and groups +eating refreshments, and talking to each other on the lawn. My deah, +you will amass fortunes! I'm jealous of you. I believe you will make +far more than we shall with our tea." + +"But of course if it's wet"--insinuated Elsie persistently, only to be +frowned down by her companions, who were eager to impart the second and +most exciting piece of intelligence. + +"It won't be wet, Croaky! Don't say that again. That's one piece of +news, then; now for the other! Three guesses, Kitty, for a really +convulsing piece of local gossip." + +"Maud is engaged?" + +"Not yet! You can guess that again later on! This special piece of +news is not about our family at all. Some one else! Guess again!" + +"Some one I know well?" + +"No!" + +"Slightly?" + +"No!" + +"Not at all?" + +"Yes!" + +"Then how on earth can I possibly--" + +"It isn't necessary to know the person. No one knows him yet, but we +soon shall. He is coming to--to--can't you guess? Think of the empty +houses near here!" + +"The Grange!" cried Kit, and clapped her hands with delight. "Some one +has bought the Grange! How sweet of him! Now we shall have something +to look at. He is coming soon, you say--oh, what fun! We can watch the +furniture unload, and the family arrive. Who are they, and how many may +they be? Lots of girls, I hope--the right sort, with plenty of fun in +them, and pony-carriages of their own, in which they can drive us +about!" + +"We don't know a single thing about them, and can't find out. The man +is called Vanburgh, which is all right so far as it goes, but whether he +is married or a bachelor--" + +"Of course he is married! A bachelor would never dare to take a house +like the Grange. It would be downright wicked! He is a married man, +with a grey beard, and a fat wife, and four beauteous daughters. I see +them now before me, as in a mirror!" Kitty shut her eyes behind the +spectacles, and screwed up her face into a grimace which was meant to be +vague and visionary, but fell a long way short of success. She was fond +of indulging in flights of fancy, and her friends waited for her +utterances with smiling delight. + +"Yes, yes, I see them all! Veronique, the eldest, is a stately beauty, +tall and slender, with lustrous Spanish eyes, and locks--" + +"Black as the raven's wing." Chrissie's murmur seemed a fitting climax +to the description, but the Visionary objected to be interrupted, and +turning scornful eyes upon her, said icily-- + +"Quite the contrary. Bright as pure gold! She knows not the meaning of +fear, and rides an Arab charger, who knows every movement of her +mistress's hand. She is betrothed to the scion of a noble house, and +will shortly be led to the hymeneal altar, when we shall attend as maids +of honour, clad in the sheen of satin and glimmer of pearls. Gabriella, +the second, is _mignonne_ in stature, with a wee, winsome face--" + +But at this point in the description Agatha spluttered with laughter, +and Christabel rose from her seat, and began banging down books on the +table with disdainful emphasis. + +"I refuse to listen any longer to such uttah rubbish."--"Wee, winsome +face," repeated Kitty loudly, determined to finish the sentence or +perish in the attempt. "Eyes blue as the summer skies, and a skin of +snow and roses. She has a timorous, shrinking nature, and prefers a +milk-white charger to her sister's untamed steed. Evangeline, the +third, has tawny locks and a dimpling smile, and makes up by charm of +manner for what she lacks in regular beauty. Valentine, the fourth--" + +But the characteristics of Miss Vanburgh number four were fated to +remain in obscurity, for at that moment a step was heard approaching the +schoolroom door, and the historian made a dash forward to collect her +books, and place them on the table, before the entrance of Miss Roberts, +the governess. + + + +CHAPTER FIVE. + +AN UNEXPECTED VISITOR. + +During the next few weeks the workmen took possession of the Grange, and +each morning as Kit made her appearance in the schoolroom Christabel had +some fresh item of intelligence to unfold. + +"A blue paper is going up in the bedroom--pale, pale blue, with loops of +roses tied with lovers' knots--s-imply sweet! ... Nothing but brown +paper in the little room over the door--nasty, common brown paper like +you use for parcels. Hideous! What can they be thinking of?"--and the +girls would stare together through the windows, watching every movement +of painters and paperers with breathless interest. + +Later on a still more exciting period was reached, when vanloads of +furniture arrived, and their contents were spread about on the roadway. +Then the Rendell girls massed themselves in the porch-room, and while +they manufactured needle-books, and scattered bran over the floor in the +wholesale manufacture of pincushions, Lilias played the part of Sister +Anne, sitting with idle hands, reporting progress to the workers, and +sounding a bugle-note of warning when any object appeared which demanded +attention. The numberless packing-cases were baffling to feminine +curiosity, but the furniture itself was so unique that the most prosaic +articles assumed a surprising interest. There were no modern designs to +be seen here, no cream enamelled bedroom suites, no green wood chairs, +nor cosy corners. Everything belonging to the house was of a sombre +grandeur which belonged to another country than our own. Sideboards and +cabinets of carved Indian wood blocked up the roadway, and made black +patches against the oak-panelled walls; overmantels of the same dusky +hue stretched up to the ceilings, and Oriental rugs of priceless value, +but distressing shabbiness, were spread over the floors, while the lower +windows were covered with screens of carved wood, such as are to be seen +over the windows of Turkish harems. + +Lilias, the worldly wise, was pleased to pronounce the equipments of the +house as in "a style of quiet magnificence," but her sisters were less +enthusiastic, and Nan screwed up her saucy nose in open disdain. + +"Very grand and antique-y, and all that sort of thing, but my, how dull! +Fancy sitting in that oak-panelled room, with those black ghosts reared +up against the walls, and the light shut out by those carved screens. I +should go stark, staring mad! Give me something bright and cheerful, +and lots of sunshine. What worries me is that there is so little that +is feminine and frivolous. I haven't seen a single thing as yet that +looks suitable for a girl's room." + +"But think of the cases! All those dozens and dozens of cases. You can +never tell what may be inside them. They may be stored with--" + +"Treasures of buhl and ormolu!" sighed Kit softly. "That's what they +always say in books, though I haven't the slightest idea what it means. +Wouldn't it be a terrific blow if there were no girls after all?" + +But such a possibility the Rendells absolutely refused to admit. The +prospect of finding friends of their own age in the deserted Grange had +taken such firm hold of their imagination, that Veronique, Evangeline, +and Ermyntrude had already become living companions who played a part in +their lives, and whose tastes had to be seriously considered in +arranging the future. They longed for the time to come when doubt would +be put at an end; but the Vanburghs seemed in no hurry to appear, and +meanwhile April was at hand, and, as was their custom, Mr and Mrs +Rendell prepared to leave home on a short holiday, leaving the girls +alone to battle with the terrors of spring-cleaning. + +Mrs Rendell had strong ideas on the subject of domestic education, and +would allow no extra help to be engaged for this yearly upheaval. It +was timed to take place in the Easter holidays, and each girl was +expected to take a special task in hand, and to bring it to a +satisfactory conclusion. She herself frankly confessed that she had +come to a time of life when she was thankful to be spared fatigue and +discomfort; but her husband was not so willing to make the admission, +and talked about his proposed absence in an impersonal fashion, which +vastly amused his hearers. + +"Mother has had to bear the burden of housekeeping for over twenty +years, and I think it quite time that some of you took it off her +shoulders. It is good training for girls to learn everything that has +to be done in connection with a house, so for your sakes as well as hers +I feel it a duty to take her away." So he spoke, and Nan rolled her +eyes at him in mischievous fashion, poking forward her head until her +face was but a few inches from his own. + +"And--er, what about your own? You do not love the smell of soft soap, +do you, dear? I remember last year--" + +Her father waved his arms helplessly. + +"Everything tasted of it! Soup, fish, puddings, everything one ate +seemed saturated with soft soap; and there is something peculiarly +depressing about a house with no carpets on the floors. I feel as if I +were going to be sold up; and if there is one thing more aggravating +than another, it is to be obliged to sit in a fresh room every day, and +have all one's possessions stored carefully out of sight. Now, +remember, whoever dusts the books in the library is only to take out a +few at a time, and put them back--ex-actly where she found them!" + +"Yes, father!" + +"No servant is to touch them! I know what that means--every book piled +on the floor, and stuffed back into the shelves just as they come! You +girls are responsible, and must dust them yourselves." + +"Mine own fair hands shall do the deed--in gloves, however, for I know +those books of old, and shall smother myself in sheets before I begin. +I don't object to a few days' charing for a change," said Nan briskly. +"I love rushing about in an apron, using my muscles instead of my brain, +gathering all the ornaments together, and washing them in a nice soapy +bath--" + +"And watching the water get dirty! Isn't it lovely?" gushed Agatha +enthusiastically. "It isn't a bit interesting when they are only a +little bit soiled. I like figures and things with lots of creases where +the dust gets in, and you have to scrub away with a nail-brush, and the +water gets black--perfectly black! It's lovely!" + +Every one laughed, even Mrs Rendell, though she felt in duty bound to +protest at the idea of anything being "black" in her well-kept house; +and the girls proceeded to sing the joys of spring-cleaning with +youthful fervour. + +"What I like best are the picnic meals," said Chrissie. "We always have +the same things for lunch--a round of cold salt beef and beetroot, and +coffee, and bread and jam. It is all put on the table at once, and we +all carve for ourselves, and march about the room with aprons on, and +behave as badly as we like. Then we have tea about three, and cold meat +again for dinner, and fruit instead of pudding, and are all so stiff +that we can hardly move, and all fighting to have the first hot bath. +The water gets cold after the second, so it's a great thing to be first, +if you can." + +"And there are such amusing _contretemps_!" said Maud, the good-natured. +"There seems to be a special imp of mischief abroad at these times, for +something is bound to go wrong. You can't guard against it, for it is +always the last thing you could expect, and it happens at the worst +moment, and in some extraordinary manner stops all the wheels of the +machinery. It is really excruciatingly funny--" + +"You don't think so at the time! When Agatha knocked a nail into the +gas-pipe on Thursday afternoon, when the shops were closed, and all the +men had gone off to a beanfeast, you didn't think it much of a joke +then!" said Elsie darkly. "We tried leaving the nail in and smearing +the hole with soap, but the gas came out in gusts, and we had to turn it +off, and there were only two candles in the house. ... We sat all +evening in the dark, and undressed together in one room, because we were +obliged to give the servants one of the candles. It wasn't in the least +funny, and you didn't think so either." + +"Oh, I don't know! It gave us a rest, which we wanted badly, and it is +amusing to think of afterwards. I've often thought of it, and laughed +to myself,"--and Maud laughed again, the happy, kindly laugh which was +the outward sign of a sweet-hearted nature. + +Altogether it was a very cheerful little party of workers whom the +parents left behind when the hour for departure arrived. It was a +bright, inspiriting spring morning, just one of the days when it is +delightful to start off on the first holiday of the year, and Mr and +Mrs Rendell looked fully appreciative of the fact. He was attired in a +new suit, while his wife, not to be outdone, had provided herself with a +pretty blue coat and skirt, and a flowered toque which was perhaps a +trifle more summery than the season justified. After twenty-five years +of married life, it was still a delight to this husband and wife to +steal off for a holiday by themselves, and Mrs Rendell took the same +delight in her husband's approval as when she had first become his wife. +Every detail of her attire was daintily correct, and so pretty did she +look, so trig and smart, that her six big daughters stared at her in +admiration. + +"Perfectly s-weet!" was Chrissie's verdict; then her eyes passed on to +her handsome, stalwart father, and a twinkle of amusement showed in her +eyes. "They both do! And so spick and span--everything new from head +to foot. They might be a newly-married couple--a trifle elderly, but +ve-ry well preserved! I shouldn't wonder if people thought they were. +How would it be if we hid a little rice?--" + +"Happy thought! A most delicate attention. Keep them talking for a few +minutes while I pay a visit to the kitchen," cried Nan, deftly nipping +up the roll of umbrellas, and disappearing from the hall, to return with +the meekest of meek faces, and bid a fond adieu to the parents for whose +confusion she had been planning. + +When the carriage drove off, the conspiracy was divulged to the other +girls, who fully appreciated the humour of the position, but were +unanimously eager to disclaim responsibility. + +"I'd give worlds to be there when they open the straps!" cried Agatha. +"It will be too killingly funny. They will both jump and get red in the +face--father from laughter, and mother from rage. Oh-oh, it's lovely; +but I didn't do it, remember! I hadn't a suspicion of it until this +minute!" + +"I couldn't have allowed it, if you had consulted me, but I'm glad you +didn't!" Maud declared. "It will be exciting hearing how it comes off. +They won't need rugs or umbrellas in the train, but crossing the +Channel mother is sure to feel chilly, as she will never sit in the +cabin. Father will settle her comfortably in a chair on deck and +proceed to unfasten the rugs. Every one will look on, for there is +nothing else to do on board ship but stare at your companions. Then +patter, patter, patter, down the rice will fall, and roll along the +deck. I can see it all! And the more they blush, the younger they will +look; and the angrier and more confused they are, the more natural it +will seem. Oh, I do hope and trust it comes off on the steamer!" + +"It would be even better in the train!" said Lilias wisely. "If they +once get settled in the train to Paris, they would be stuck with the +same people for five mortal hours, whether they liked it or not, and +they would stare, and stare, and stare. Whatever father and mother +said, it would make no difference, for they would think they were only +pretending. Oh, Nan, I wouldn't be you! You will catch it!" + +Nan shrugged her shoulders recklessly. "Time works wonders. If they +were coming home to-morrow I should tremble; but after ten days' +galumptious holiday it wouldn't be in human nature to come home and be +cross with a poor, hard-working Cinderella. Besides, why should they be +vexed? When I'm married you can use as much rice as you like. I don't +mind if I scatter it broadcast wherever I go. I shall just smile back +in the people's faces, and hang on to Adolphus for support. If I can +afford a little amusement to my fellow-creatures, I shall not be so +selfish as to object; and I must say that for my own part I do adore +finding out a bride and bridegroom, and staring at them with all my +eyes." + +"I shall never marry; but if I do I shall wear my oldest clothes on my +honeymoon, and snap at my husband every time he opens his mouth. That's +the way to manage!" said Christabel with an air, and the two elder girls +exchanged smiles of amusement. Neither of them volunteered any +information as to how she herself would behave in the circumstances, for +the nearer such a possibility becomes, the less easy it is to discuss it +in indifferent fashion. Lilias dropped her lids in smiling modesty, and +Maud's eyes shone with a happy glow. She was twenty-three now, and for +the last four years a secret hope had dwelt in her heart, and invested +the future with charm. It had begun on a certain holiday time, when Jim +for the second or third time had brought home his friend Ned Talbot for +a visit, and Ned had caught his foot in a rabbit-hole, and sprained it +so severely that he was a prisoner at Thurston House for weeks, instead +of days. Lilias and Nan were away at school at that time, but Maud had +finished her education, and shared with her mother the task of amusing +the invalid. She read aloud to him; played on the piano; was demolished +at Halma; and, above all, talked to him on one topic after another, +growing ever more and more intimate, until at the end of the visit it +had seemed as if there was no secret which was held back from Ned +Talbot's knowledge. He had not said so much in return, but there was no +sense of chill in his reserve. He was naturally silent, and a word from +him meant more than many protestations from another. Maud knew that he +enjoyed her society by a hundred indefinable signs; and when they bade +each other good-bye, the glance of the dark eyes seemed to speak of a +warmer interest than that of friendship. Since then four years had +passed by, and twice a year at least Ned had contrived to pay a visit to +Waybourne. + +Now that the other girls were at home there were no longer opportunities +for uninterrupted converse, for, as the eldest daughter of a large +household, Maud was often compelled to busy herself with household +duties, leaving the charge of entertainment to the younger girls; but +she felt sure that Ned understood, and no trace of dissatisfaction +clouded her gentle spirit. She calculated happily that four months had +passed since his last appearance, and felt her cheeks flush as she +remembered Jim's accounts of a recent prosperous change in his friend's +business. A great step upward had been taken during the last year, and +now, for the first time, Talbot was in a position to keep a wife! This +being so, who could tell what might happen next? The hour to which she +had looked forward to so long, when Ned would give her a right to love +him and to be his helpmeet in life, might be close at hand. Oh, it was +a good world, a beautiful world! Life was in its spring, and every +opening bud and flower in the green world without seemed to typify the +hope in her own heart! + +The next few days witnessed a perfect rush of industry. It was no light +task to complete the cleaning of so large a house in ten days' time, but +many hands make light work; and while the servants scrubbed and scoured, +the girls performed the lighter duties, washing ornaments, polishing +pictures, turning faded draperies, sewing on new lengths of fringe, +until old bottles were, if not exactly converted into new, at least +assured a fresh lease of juvenility. There was always a rush to get the +work finished a day or two before the parents' return, for the time that +was over was legally the girls' own, to be employed in whatsoever manner +seemed most pleasing. Christabel stayed in bed to breakfast; Agatha ate +apples and read novels all day long; Elsie made copious entries in her +diary, and wore her hair in the picturesque confusion which she +considered becoming, and felt it cruel of her mother to forbid; Nan +worked in her studio, and came down to dinner in a flannel shirt; Lilias +wore her best clothes, and went up to town to see and be seen; and Maud +dreamt dreams at her ease, without the disturbing consciousness of work +undone. + +By the end of the week the carpets were cleaned and ready to put down, +and it was decided that the drawing-room felting should be laid first of +all, because in itself it was a more lengthy task than the mere laying +of squares, and also because the after work of arranging pictures and +china would be greater here than elsewhere. The three maids shut +themselves in the room together for an hour or more, and at the end of +the time adjourned in a body to the library, where the young mistresses +were busy arranging books. They looked flushed and discouraged, and +each of the three had her own comments to make upon the situation. Cook +reported that "that there felting wouldn't come right nohow." Mary put +her hand to her heart, and said her inside ached with dragging the +tiresome thing; and bright-eyed Jane smiled cheerfully, and vowed that +"she didn't believe it never would meet no more." The girls adjourned +into the drawing-room to investigate the difficulty, and found the +felting neatly fastened at three sides, but steadily refusing to come +within inches of the fourth wall. + +"Seems as if it's shrunk itself somehow in the cleaning," said cook +dolefully; but Maud only laughed, and went forward to the rescue in her +cheery, capable manner. + +"Oh, nonsense, cook! If the cleaning did anything, it would stretch it +and make it bigger. It is purposely made rather a tight fit, or it +would go into wrinkles, which would never do. It only wants a little +coaxing. Nan and Agatha, you have the strongest arms, go over there and +pull as hard as you can, while Elsie and I push towards you." + +No sooner said than done. Maud and Elsie went down on their knees, and +travelled slowly across the floor, pushing infinitesimal creases before +them, while the others pulled and strained to make the most of the +advantage thus given. It was a lengthy business, and the crawling +operation was repeated several times over before the first ring could be +induced to catch over its nail; but when this was done hope began to +revive, and the pushing and tugging was carried on with such vigour that +presently the last fastening was secured, and the workers rested from +their labours, weary, yet triumphant. + +"My back!" groaned Elsie, straightening herself with a groan; "it's +broken in two. I feel as if I could never stand erect again." + +"My hands!" groaned Agatha, stretching out her arms, and slowly +uncurling ten cramped-up fingers. "They ache. Whew! I never worked so +hard in my life. I shall be more careful about spilling crumbs on this +carpet in the future, now that I know what it means to have it cleaned. +How you ever got it up I can't think. It must have been even more +difficult than putting it down." + +"Broke every nail I 'ave," said cook concisely. "It's not woman's work, +and that's the truth. We 'ad ought to 'ave 'ad a man to do it that 'ad +proper tools; but there, it's done, thank goodness, for another year, +and it's the worst in the house. Them squares is no trouble." + +"No; I think you can manage the squares yourselves; but first of all we +will have the furniture brought in here. The house looks so forlorn +with the hall blocked up, and if we get one room tidy, we shall feel +that we are getting on," said Maud, who as yet had not risen from the +floor, but sat with feet stretched out, gathering resolution to begin +work afresh. She stretched out her hands and drew herself slowly along +towards the farther side of the room; but scarcely had she moved a +couple of feet when she gave an exclamation of dismay, and, stopping +short, passed her hand over the surface of the felting. + +"Whatever is this? Something sticking up through the felting! Sharp +little points, here and there. Dozens of them all about! What can they +be?" + +The others hastened to the spot, and gazed with horror-stricken eyes at +a number of minute molehills showing distinctly in the felting, and each +one presenting a sharp point when investigated by the touch. + +"It's nails!" croaked Elsie deeply; and at that cook gave a groan of +dismay. + +"It is, for sure! Them dratted tacks! Your Mar said we was to put in a +tack here and there between the rings, and there was a saucerful just +there. Somebody has knocked it over, I expect, and scattered them about +the floor." + +Maud looked round with a despairing glance. The accident had happened +in the worst possible position, as such accidents are invariably +supposed to do, the nails being spilt a couple of yards from the wall, +in such a position that two sides of the carpet must be unfastened +before they could be removed. She stared at her sisters, and they +stared back in a long, sullen silence. + +"We can't do it again, and we sha'n't!" said Nan recklessly. "Send for +a man, and let him break his fingers for a change. I need mine for +another purpose." + +"Thursday afternoon, my dear. The shops are shut, and not a man to be +had." + +"Never saw anything like it. It always is Thursday afternoon! Put a +table over the place then, and leave the tacks where they are. No one +will see them." + +"Oh, Nan, as if a table could stay in the same place for a year. +Besides, the nails are bound to come out; if we don't take them away, +they'll work little holes for themselves, and then what would mother +say? There's no use shirking it. The carpet has to come up again, and +we shall have to do it." + +"It's too disgusting! All this time wasted, and now to find ourselves +farther back than when we started. I could cry!" protested Elsie +dolefully; and Maud gave a little flop of impatience. + +"Oh, so could I--howl, if that would do any good; but it won't, so we +might as well stop talking and set to work. Begin at once, Jane, +please; we'll push, and make it as easy as possible." + +The workers crawled wearily back to their posts, while the audience, in +the shape of Lilias and Christabel, stood in the doorway and cheered +them with derisive comments. + +"Amusing _contretemps_, isn't it? Reminds one of Maud's ecstasies the +other evening. Quite pleased, aren't you, Maudie, to have another +illustration of the humours of house-cleaning?" + +"Never mind, darlings, keep cool! You'll think it very funny in six +months' time. If you work hard you'll finish by to-morrow morning!" + +The glances cast upon the miscreants in reply to their witticisms were +so threatening, that they ran back to the library to stifle their +laughter; but five minutes had not elapsed before they were back again, +gasping in consternation. + +"A caller! Some one at the door! Can't see properly, but it's a man! +A young man in a frock coat and a tall hat. What shall we do?" + +"Send him away, of course. Jane, quick! put on a clean apron, and tell +the gentleman that Mrs Rendell is away from home. If he asks for us-- +we are engaged. Sorry you can't ask him in, as the house is upset. +He'll see that for himself," added Maud, in a resigned tone, as Jane +hurried from the room. "The hall looks as if it were in the midst of a +removal, and if he had had any sense he would have known from the look +of the windows that we were not in a fit state to receive callers. +Anyhow, he will have to go away now." + +The visitor, however, refused to go away, for, to the consternation of +the listeners, the parley at the front door was succeeded by the sound +of footsteps picking their way through the piled-up furniture, and +Jane's suggestion of "The library, sir," was apparently neglected, for +the tramp came nearer and nearer to the drawing-room door. Six pairs of +hands were raised to smooth six ruffled heads, Maud twitched down her +sleeves, Lilias stood in an attitude of graceful attention, and the next +moment the door was thrown open, and Ned Talbot's deep voice called out +a greeting. + +"May I come in? I refused to be turned away at the door. How does +everybody do? You look very busy. I am going to stay and help you." + + + +CHAPTER SIX. + +NAN PLAYS HELPER. + +Alas for Maud! Had it been for this that she had lived in dreams since +October last, planning afresh, and yet afresh, every detail of the next +meeting with Ned? Had it been for this that she had mentally arranged +background, occasion, opportunity, sending abroad mother, and sisters +five, and seating herself in solitude to await Ned's arrival? Had it +been for this that she had cherished her dainty new blouse, refusing to +crush it beneath cloak or shawl, and appearing over and over again in +the pink of a bygone age, so that it might appear in its first beauty +for Ned's inspection? Oh, it was hard to have planned so well, and then +to be discovered with ruffled hair, flushed cheeks, and unbecoming +attire! Lilias was only the more picturesque for her working attire, +and was even now shaking hands with the visitor, and welcoming him in +pretty, winsome fashion, as the other girls shook down skirts and +aprons, and took furtive peeps in the looking-glass. + +"Mr Talbot. You! This is a surprise. It is delightful to see you +again, but we are so upset! We are in the throes of spring-cleaning, as +you perceive. Have you come from town? Agatha, Chrissie, bring in a +few chairs! This is the only room that has a pretence of a carpet, but +at any rate we can give you a chair to sit upon." + +"But I don't want one. I have been sitting in the train, and would +rather stand for a change, or, still better, help with some work. +Please don't treat me as a visitor! What were you about when I came in? +Laying a carpet? Six of you! It doesn't take six women to lay one +carpet, surely!" + +Nan groaned dismally. + +"It does indeed, and then they can't do it! It's nasty, horrid, rough, +heavy work, only fit for men, and not for our poor little fingers. We +had just succeeded, with immense labour, in fastening it all round when +we made the cheerful discovery that a boxful of nails are scattered over +the floor beneath. You came in at the ghastly moment when it had dawned +upon us that it had all to come up again!" + +Nan waved her hand with a tragic movement towards the little heap of +nails, then, making a sudden step forward, caught her foot in a loose +piece of braid at the bottom of her skirt, and went rushing forward at a +headlong run, to be caught in Ned Talbot's arms, and so rescued from +destruction against a corner of the wall. + +"Nan, I told you that that braid was torn! I told you to sew it up! I +_told_ you you'd trip and hurt yourself," cried Maud reproachfully; but +the culprit only laid her hand over her heart, and gurgled in impenitent +amusement. + +"But I didn't, you see! I came off all right. It's only a little end-- +not worth talking about!"--and she took a couple of pins from the corner +of her apron and began fastening up the offending loop, while her sister +lifted her hands in disapproval. + +"Pins? They won't hold! Better go upstairs and sew it at once. If you +don't, I warn you, Nan,"--but Maud did not get any further in her +prophecy, for Ned Talbot came over to her side, and looked down at her +with kindly, anxious eyes. + +"Maud, you look so tired! Don't trouble any more about the carpet; I'll +manage it for you. What's the good of a great lumbering six-footer if +he can't manage a little job like that! I'll have it up and down again +before you can say `Jack Robinson,' and then we will have our talk in +comfort." + +"It's more difficult than you think," said Maud dolefully; but Ned only +laughed, then proceeded to take off his coat and go down on his knees to +attack the obstinate rings. The workers took advantage of the +opportunity to adjust hair-pins, and divest themselves of soiled aprons, +while Lilias, having no such defects to remedy, developed sudden +interest in the work on hand, and knelt down on the floor beside him, +holding out first one implement and then another for his use. The +softly-tinted face and cloudy golden hair looked lovelier than ever +about the long white smock which she had adopted as her working costume, +and poor Maud stared at her own heated reflection with increased +disfavour, the while she whispered in Nan's ear-- + +"I suppose he expects to stay for the evening. So awkward! Can we ask +him, do you think, when mother's away?" + +"Mother would be very much annoyed if we sent away an old friend, who +has stayed in the house dozens of times, without even offering him a +meal; especially when he has travelled twenty miles to see us!" + +"But, my dear, what have we got? I can't give him dinner. There's +nothing in the house but cold meat." + +"Cutlets and tinned fruit--the refuge of the destitute! Send Mary +flying to the butcher's!" + +"It's Thursday afternoon!" + +Nan's groan of dismay brought Ned Talbot's head round in inquiry. The +rings were giving way obediently in his strong grasp, and Lilias was +clapping her hands at each fresh success, and chatting away in animated +fashion. The sisters waited until the work was resumed, and then +continued the whispered conference. + +"It always _is_ Thursday when we want anything. People should never be +allowed to shut their shops. Cold meat it must be, then, and nothing +else, I'm afraid. We might manage to manufacture a few made dishes from +the tinned things in the store-room, but _entrees_ and savouries seem +out of place in the middle of spring-cleaning, and the dining-room is +impassable--a perfect block." + +"We might alter that if we put out the things that are needed for this +room. We had better go and do it now, for we don't seem needed here any +longer,"--and Maud cast a wistful look towards the two kneeling figures +in the corner. She envied Lilias her position; but it never entered +into her honest heart to mistrust her sister's loyalty, or to put a +cynical construction upon this sudden show of industry. All the girls +were fond of Ned; it was only natural that Lilias should want to help +him. She held out her poor, roughened hands, and looked appealingly at +Nan as they stood outside the drawing-room door. + +"I might wash them, mightn't I, and put on a pair of cuffs, and a fresh +tie? I won't change my blouse, of course; but he is a man, and wouldn't +notice what I'd done--only perhaps that I looked a little bit nicer!" + +Nan nodded silently, a lump rising in her throat at the sight of the +wistful face. She was the only one of the sisters who had been told the +secret of Maud's heart, and the bond between these two girls was very +strong and tender. She watched Maud until she disappeared from sight, +with her lips screwed tightly together, and her eyebrows meeting in an +ominous frown across her forehead. She felt very fierce and formidable +at that moment, and it was a positive relief to be able to vent some of +her pent-up irritation in work, so for the next ten minutes she dragged +and tugged at the piled-up furniture, making order out of confusion, and +carrying the lighter drawing-room articles into the hall, in readiness +to be put into their proper places. Then Maud reappeared, smartened up +by those subtle touches which every woman knows how to bestow, and no +man is able to understand, though the result is patent to his eyes; and +after a second consultation on the subject of dinner, a return was made +to the drawing-room, to see how the carpet-laying was progressing. Ned +Talbot was still on his knees, but now he was fastening instead of +unfastening the rings, while Lilias was exhibiting a cup full of sharp, +jagged little nails. The dreaded task was almost accomplished, and that +in less time than would have been possible with the united efforts of +the feminine household. + +"Done already?" cried the new-comers; and Agatha shook her mane with a +melancholy air. + +"It's s-imply wondrous! He just pulls, and the thing meets as easy as +winking. It doesn't seem a bit difficult. And to think how we almost +killed ourselves! It's humiliating!" + +"Don't feel it so at all. If I am beaten at carpet-laying all my life, +I'll never repine. It's a woman's duty to do nice things, and pleasant +things, and pretty things, and leave the men to do the hard bits," said +Elsie, standing on one leg to relieve the pain which had come from long +kneeling, and looking with melancholy significance at her thin little +arms. "Look at those compared to his! Nature never intended me--" + +Ned fastened the last hook, and straightened his back with a sigh of +satisfaction. + +"Done! That's all right. I'm glad I came in time, for it's stiffish +work. I am staying in town for a few days, and thought I would chance +it this afternoon, and run down to see you for a few hours." + +He looked at Maud as he spoke, and she hesitated uncertainly, thinking +once again of her mother's absence, the disordered rooms, the prescribed +contents of the larder. + +"It was very good of you, and we are very pleased. Will you--er--will +you be able to stop and dine?" + +"Thank you very much. Your sister has already asked me. If it wouldn't +be giving you too much trouble." + +"Oh, no trouble! I mean, of course, we are very much upset, and I don't +quite know what we can give you, but if you will stay we will do our +best!" + +"Now, Mr Talbot, listen to me!" interrupted Nan decisively. "There are +two alternatives open to you, and you can take your choice. Would you +rather sit here by yourself, looking at albums and illustrated books +while Mary changes her dress, and cook flies into a temper preparing a +proper dinner, and Jane helps to tidy the dining-room, and Maud ransacks +the store--room, and Elsie polishes up silver, and Chrissie cuts +flowers, and I--" + +Ned Talbot threw up his hands in despair. + +"Mercy! What next? Please stop, Nan. You make me feel the most +shocking intruder. If I am to cause such an upset, the sooner I rush +back to the station the better. What is the alternative? Tell it me at +once. You said I had a choice!" + +"The alternative," said Nan slowly, beaming upon him the while, in a +friendly, encouraging fashion, "the alternative is what would happen to +us if we were alone, and you had not arrived. Dinner in the schoolroom, +with the library pictures ranged along the walls, and the books piled on +the floor. No flowers--no fruit--no waiting--no evening dress. +Everything on the table at once, and very little of that. Cold beef-- +very good cold beef! I'll answer for that, for we've had it two days +already--potatoes in their jackets, perhaps one other vegetable..." + +"Nan!" cried Maud protestingly; but Talbot gazed at her with a smile, +shadowed only by a faint anxiety. + +"Pickles?" he queried eagerly. "Put my mind at rest on that point +before we go any further! Surely there are pickles?" + +"Pickles, cer-tainly! As many as you like; but mostly onions, I am +afraid, for we like the cauliflowery bits best, and poke about with the +fork to get them out first. But there are lots of onions. Cold beef +and pickles, then, and something plain and wholesome in the shape of a +pudding, such as stewed prunes and rice; biscuits and cheese to follow; +and a really good cup of coffee made by our own fair hands." + +"It's a feast for the gods! Nothing I should like better. Don't you +know, Nan, that nine out of ten Englishmen would rather be set down +opposite a joint of meat than half a dozen kickshaws! It will be like +old times to have a meal in the schoolroom, and if you will really let +me stay, and treat me exactly like one of yourselves, I shall enjoy it +more than a dozen dinner parties. You will promise faithfully to make +no alteration whatever in the _menu_?" + +"Certainly, if you wish it." + +"And--er--you will not feel it necessary to dress on my behalf! I can +make no change myself, so please don't confound me by your +magnificence." + +Lazy Nan consented readily enough, but once more the thought of the blue +silk blouse sent a pang of disappointment to Maud's heart. She should +not be able to wear it after all, and the long hoarding up had been in +vain. She reflected on the disappointing nature of earthly hopes, with +a melancholy which would have done credit to Elsie herself, as she took +her way downstairs to interview cook on the subject of dinner. It is +one thing to give a promise to make no difference in a _menu_, and +another to keep that promise to the letter, as every housekeeper knows; +and even if circumstances did not allow of any substantial addition to +the meal, there were a dozen little contrivances by which it could be +given an air of elegance and distinction. They took time to arrange, +however, as all such contriving do, and cook was cross at being asked to +undertake fresh duties, and wished to know what people wanted coming +worriting about a house when a child in arms could see he wasn't wanted! +Maud smiled at the reflection that, in this instance, the child would +be vastly mistaken in his views, but did her best to soothe the offended +dignitary; and finally matters were smoothed over by Mary being told off +to help in the kitchen, while Maud herself undertook the arrangement of +the table. + +"Nan will help me," she told herself encouragingly, as she mounted the +staircase and saw through the window a procession of girlish figures +making their way down the garden path, escorting Ned to a survey of the +daffodils and spring bulbs, for which Mr Rendell was famous among +amateur gardeners. Lilias walked first, a dainty figure against the +background of fresh green; slim little Elsie picked her way daintily +over the gravel; Agatha followed, large and beaming; and Christabel +majestically brought up the rear. Maud pressed her face against the +window and watched with a spasm of envy. Oh, to be out, enjoying +herself with the rest--to let everything take care of itself, and take +her place by Ned's side! Too bad to be kept indoors when her +opportunity had come at last, and the sun was shining, and all Nature +seemed bright and gay! No one seemed to have thought of her, or of +offering to help, except Nan--dear, good, thoughtless, and yet most +thoughtful of Nans; and here she came, flying three steps at a time, +upstairs to the rescue. + +"Oh, you are here! I've been searching downstairs. Out you go! If +there's anything to do indoors, I'll do it. Your place is in the +garden." + +"I've been in the kitchen, and cook was so cross that I told off Mary to +help her. I promised to lay the table." + +"I'll do it for you!" + +Maud tried not to smile. Well she knew what would happen if the work +were left in Nan's care. Crooked cloth, forks and spoons looking as if +they had been tossed upon the table; as likely as not, no cruets nor +water-bottles; and a general air of slipshod carelessness, which would +more than defeat all her arrangements. + +"I--er--think I ought to look after it myself," she said apologetically; +"but please help me, dear! If we work together we'll get it done in no +time, and then I can go out and enjoy myself with an easy mind." + +"I want you to go now. If you think I can't manage alone, send in +Chrissie. She's even more particular than you, and I'll do as she tells +me like a lamb!" said Nan, not one whit offended at the implied slight +on her own powers; but Maud shook her head. + +"I couldn't! I never ask help in an ordinary way, and I couldn't do it +to-day!" + +"Too proud?" + +"Much!" + +"Good for you! I'd feel the same. Come on, then; let's set to work and +get it over. He'll be wondering what you are doing. Where are the +things?" + +"Mary has taken up some already, and the rest are in the pantry. I'll +tell you what I want, and you can carry up a trayful at a time while I +set the cloth. I know exactly how I want everything laid, you see!" + +"Don't apologise, my love. I know I'm no good at finnicky work, but +I'll fetch and carry with the best. Knives--yes! Glass--yes! Plates-- +yes! Leave the plates till the last, and bring up the rest first. +Yes'um! I understand! Knives and tumblers for seven. They shall be +yours before you can say `Jack Robinson.'" + +"Not too quick, now!" cried Maud warningly; but Nan was off, leaping +downstairs in a succession of daring bounds, swinging round corners at +break-neck speed, and singing at the pitch of her voice, after the usual +decorous and ladylike manner in which she was wont to descend to the +lower regions. + +Left to herself, Maud took a couple of steps towards the window, turned +back resolutely, spread the cloth over the table, and went back at a run +to peer behind the curtains and see what was going on in the garden. +Chrissie and Agatha were strolling about arm in arm; Elsie walked apart, +bowed in thought; Lilias flitted among the flower--beds, gesticulating +with graceful _abandon_ as she called Ned's attention to the choicest +blooms. Maud could hear her pretty ecstasies as plainly as though she +had been standing by her side. + +"The little dears! Aren't they just _too_ sweet? Don't you love the +first spring flowers? They seem so full of hope and promise!" + +She had heard it all before, every time that a visitor was taken round +the garden; and just for a moment a wish passed through Maud's mind that +her beautiful sister were not quite so fond of acting a part for the +benefit of strangers! As a matter of fact, Lilias took less interest in +the garden than any of the girls, yet she always gushed the most! The +next moment she pulled herself up sharply, abashed to have cherished +such uncharitable sentiments, and went on resolutely with the laying of +the table. Spoons and forks had been neatly laid in their places before +Nan's approaching footsteps could be heard ploughing upstairs to an +accompaniment of jingling glass and steel. She had taken the warning to +heart, apparently, for there was a noticeable pause between each +footstep; but, alas! when the top of the stair was reached, there came a +sudden and violent change in her procedure. Maud heard a gasp, and +then, even as she started forward to investigate the cause, in rushed +Nan, head foremost, the contents of the tray raining on the ground, +while she stumbled helplessly forward, and finally collapsed on the +floor in a nest of knives and broken glass, to lift up her voice in a +wail of anguish. + +"Oh, oh, oh! I caught my foot! That horrid braid tripped me up at the +very last step, and sent me flying forward. What shall I do?" + +"I told you,"--began Maud, but stopped abruptly, knowing by experience +how trying it was to be reminded of past warnings. "Oh dear, the fright +you gave me! To fall down with such a dangerous load. Nan, are you +hurt?" + +"I'm killed!" cried Nan, with a sniff. "Talk of your fright, indeed: +I'm shaking all over. I'll run away and drown myself. Always make a +mess of everything I do! What will mother say?" + +"Don't worry about that, dear. You were trying to help, and being so +good and kind, and half a dozen tumblers are not a deadly thing. That +won't ruin us. It might have been far worse." + +"It is!" sighed Nan. "Two water-bottles--the best ones, too. I thought +they'd look so nice. Oh dear; oh dear; and just when I thought I was +getting on so well! I came up so slowly, stopping at every step. You +might have heard me--" + +"I did; but you know, Nan, I said before--Never mind, it's done now, so +it's no use groaning. You look so white, dear; I am afraid you have had +a shock. Don't try to do anything more, but go to your room and take +some sal volatile, and lie down until dinner." + +But at that Nan rose to her feet with a laugh of derision. + +"I! I act the fine lady, and go to bed for a fall? Not likely. I +shall have to work harder than ever to make up for this. The knives +might as well go in their places first, and then I'll go down and get +something to brush up the glass. Don't you come: it's dangerous walking +over here, and I can do it quite well." + +"Nan, please leave it to me! I am sure you are hurt, though you won't +acknowledge it. Sit down and rest, if it's only for five minutes." + +But Nan would not be persuaded. She picked up the knives and hobbled +round the table, laying them in their places and tossing her head with +an air of triumph, oblivious of the fact that a drop of blood marked +each stage of her progress, leaving a vivid stain on the fresh white +cloth. A groan of dismay from Maud's lips aroused her attention, +whereupon she flushed red with dismay, and stared down at her cut +fingers with an air of shocked surprise. + +It was really too aggravating, and even placid Maud felt aroused to +irritation; but it is difficult to upbraid an offender who is herself +overcome with penitence, and who lavishes such violent reproaches upon +her own head, as Nan now proceeded to do. + +"Oh, mussey me, I thought they felt queer! They are cut all over. +Lockjaw, I suppose. I shall never be able to speak distinctly any more, +but have to push all my food between my teeth, like poor Jane Smith. +Oh, Maud, Maud, I wanted to help, and I've only made things worse than +before! I always do. Do please scold and get cross. Don't look so +wretched. Abuse me as I deserve!" + +"What's the good?" sighed Maud dismally. "You didn't mean to do it, and +it's done, and can't be undone. Come to my room and I'll bandage your +hands. I'm not afraid of lockjaw, but you can't go about any longer +like that. Then we must get a clean cloth, and begin again." + +Poor Maud! She set her lips and went through the new duties without +shirking or skimping, resolutely avoiding a look into the garden. There +was no chance now of being able to join Ned before dinner, and as soon +as the meal was over he would be obliged to hurry off to catch the last +train. After all the longing and expectation, it seemed as though she +were to meet with nothing but disappointment. + + + +CHAPTER SEVEN. + +DOUBT AND DREAD. + +Maud had just time to change her working attire for a dress which was +suitable for the evening, though not sufficiently dressy to break the +compact which had been made with the visitor, before the gong sounded, +and she returned to the schoolroom to join the other members of the +party. Ned was standing beside the fireplace, and greeted her with a +pleasant smile as she entered. + +"You didn't come out and join us in the garden," he said; and when she +replied with a vague murmur, "Ah, well," he added lightly, "perhaps you +were just as wise. There is a decided nip in the air still, and if you +get out of the sun, you are apt to feel chilled." + +Maud's eyes opened with a quick glance of surprise, but she made no +remark. The words had chilled her as no east wind could have done. Did +Ned really believe that she would have stayed indoors and sacrificed an +hour of his society for fear of a slight discomfort? If he thought +this, he was indeed unconscious of the true nature of her feelings +towards him; and though Maud was the last girl in the world to wear her +heart on her sleeve, she had been happy to believe that she and Ned +understood each other, and could count on a mutual affection. She did +not know which hurt the more, the suggestion of her own indifference or +the unruffled serenity with which it was made. As she sat opposite Ned +at dinner, she studied his face, to see if she could find there a +reflection of the depression which was stealing over her own heart, but +looked in vain. Truth compelled her to admit that she had never seen +him brighter, more radiant, more full of life and animation. She tried +her best to throw off the cloud on her own spirits and to enter into the +conversation, but the effort was not a success. The hands of the clock +on the mantelpiece held her in fascinated attention. Every stroke +seemed, to sound the knell of the bright hopes with which she had looked +forward to this meeting, every stroke brought the parting nearer. + +If Maud did not speak, the other girls more than made up for her +silence, talking all together in true Rendell fashion, and telling the +news of the last few months in their usual breathlessly eager fashion. +Until now, conversation had had no chance of becoming general, and each +one had some personal items of information to offer which appeared to +her to be of absorbing interest. Lilias had paid a visit to an old +school friend, where she had had many pleasing adventures, which she +related in characteristic manner. Her sisters often discussed what it +was which gave to Lilias's stories such a suggestive and flattering +atmosphere. It must have been something peculiar in the way in which +they were told; for though she never said such a thing in so many words, +the hearers were yet impressed by the fact that she had played a leading +part, had been surfeited with admiration, and positively oppressed by +the attentions which she had received! This evening was no exception to +the rule; for as she spoke the listeners saw before them a picture of +her own lovely figure moving like a queen through the scenes which she +described, her humble vassals following in her wake. Lilias must be +cleverer than most people supposed, Nan told herself sagely, as she +watched the face of the visitor, to see how he was impressed by the +recitals. Impossible to say! Ned stared fixedly at his plate, and made +no remark. He very seldom looked at Lilias at all, Nan noticed. If it +was not too absurd, she would have thought that he really avoided +looking in her direction, while at every point in the conversation his +eyes turned towards Maud, as if asking her sympathy in his enjoyment. +Nan's spirit rose with a bound, and she burst into the conversation once +more, talking every one down by her high, clear tones. + +"Mr Talbot, do you realise that I've growed up since you saw me last? +I've said good-bye to childish things, and blossomed into a society +dame. I'm a lady growed. Didn't you notice it?" + +Ned's eyes gleamed upon her with the deep, kindly glow which Maud knew +and loved to see. + +"I didn't, Nan; I'm sorry. I thought you looked exactly the same!" + +"Never noticed my long skirts, or my done-up hair?" + +"No!" Ned looked surprised, and tilted slightly back in his chair to +obtain a better view of Nan's head. It was really rather puzzling to +decide whether her curly mop was intended to be up or down; and the +burst of laughter which followed showed how perfectly his uncertainty +was appreciated. Nan made a grimace intended to express reckless +indifference, and waved her bandaged hand in the air. + +"Well, it _is_ up! Don't pay any attention to those silly things. I +ought to know best, for I've three separate hair-pins sticking into my +scalp at the present moment. Jim took me to my first dance when he was +at home for Christmas. It was s-imply lovely! I was awfully nervous, +for I generally manage to make an idiot of myself if I get a chance; but +I got on finely. I fell down full length as I was entering the room, +but that was only because the floor was so beautifully polished. I +danced every single dance--all waltzes, and the most ex-quisite music. +I was introduced to an awfully nice man. He had ears like windmills, +and the biggest mouth I ever saw; but he could dance! We went on, and +on, and on, as long as the music lasted, and never stopped once; and +when it came to an end I was as red as a lobster. It was simply +lovely!" + +Elsie smiled in an elderly and forbearing manner. + +"More than you were, I expect. I can just imagine how you looked, with +your hair all wild, and a crimson face above your white dress. You +never think about your appearance, Nan." + +"Hope I never may. I haven't one to think about, and that's a blessing! +It would be so boring to be pretty, and to have to worry about clothes +and complexion. I'm thankful there's none of that nonsense about me," +cried Nan, beaming; and every one of the listeners thought how pretty +she looked at that moment, as she tossed her saucy head and smiled her +dimpling smile; but they would not for the world have said so, and +spoilt the charm of her unaffected self-depreciation. Christabel seized +the opportunity, and took up the thread of conversation before any one +else had time to come forward. + +"Mr Talbot, I've been waiting to ask you a question. Do you know +anybody called Vanburgh? The Grange is let at last, and the gentleman's +name is Vanburgh. We are simply aching to get to know something about +them. The furniture has arrived, but nobody is in the house yet, except +the servants. We made up our minds that there would be a family of +daughters, but we begin to have qualms." Chrissie was obviously pleased +with the effect of that last expressive word, and repeated it once more +with artistic relish. "Qualms, yes! Decided qualms. The furniture is +so massive. We can't see anything at all that would suit a girl's +room." + +"I can't give you any help on that point, Chrissie. You can judge +better than I; but Vanburgh is an uncommon name, so we ought to be able +to find out something about them. Do you happen to know where they have +been living till now?" + +"Here, and there, and everywhere; wandering over the face of the globe! +A great deal of the furniture comes from India and Egypt; and one of the +workmen came over to ask cook for some hot water one day, and said he +believed the master had been travelling abroad. I wanted cook to pump +him to find out more, but she said mother had forbidden her to gossip +about the neighbours. Such a nuisance! I love gossiping about my +neighbours. I remember when I was a little girl, how I used to adore +being in the drawing-room when callers came and discussed the affairs of +the village. I knew I should be sent away if I appeared to listen, so I +used to sit and pretend to play with a doll or a book, while my ears +were fairly sticking out of my head with curiosity." + +"You little hypocrite! I wouldn't have believed you could have been so +deceitful. But do tell us if you know anything of the Vanburghs, Mr +Talbot. Did you ever meet any one of the name?" + +"I met a man once--a fellow about my own age. He was at Oxford with me, +but not at the same college. I saw very little of him." + +"That could not be the father, of course. He would have to be a son, +and we never arranged for boys. What sort of man was he?" + +"Humph!" + +"I beg your pardon." + +"Humph!" + +"What does that mean? What sort of man is supposed to be represented by +`Humph!' may we ask?" + +Silence! Ned Talbot screwed up his lips and shook his head with +determined obstinacy. The girls stared at him in silence for a good two +minutes. Then Maud spoke again. + +"Do you decline to say anything but `Humph' on the subject, Ned?" + +"Absolutely!" + +"How very interesting!" Nan clasped her hands in delight. "How +mysterious! How gloomy! How frightfully suspicious! I'm sure there's +something very dreadful about him, and in that case he will be even more +interesting than the girls." + +"Nan!" + +"I can't help it. We know so many estimable people that it would be +delightful to meet somebody bloodthirsty, for a change. Everything in +Waybourne is so painfully commonplace that we are simply spoiling for a +mystery, as the Americans would say. Now, Mr Talbot won't commit +himself to a definite charge, but his silence is more impressive than +words. I'm sure there's a mystery: something too gruesome and terrible +to be divulged." + +"You leap to conclusions, Nan. Perhaps I had better state at once that +there is nothing at all mysterious about the man I mentioned--nothing of +the kind, I assure you." + +"Nor bloodthirsty?" + +"Nor in the faintest shadow of a degree bloodthirsty." + +"Nor thrilling, nor gloomy, nor terrible?" + +"The farthest possible remove from such qualities." + +Nan groaned with disappointment. + +"What a blow! Another nonentity! I hope, then, that your Vanburgh has +nothing to do with ours, for he sounds terribly uninteresting. Never +mind; when you come down to see us in the summer, we shall have solved +the mystery for ourselves; and you will be obliged to come down for our +sale, you know. Have you heard anything about our sale?" + +"I--er--yes; I heard something,"--began Ned hesitatingly. He half +turned his head towards Lilias, and then once more stared down at his +plate, while she continued for him, in her sweet flute-like voice-- + +"Oh yes; I told him about it. He has promised to come and help me when +I get tired. I can't manage the punt all alone!" + +Once again was noticed the subtle suggestiveness of Lilias's manner; but +this time it was her pleasure to pose as a martyr--a poor, fragile +martyr, to whom had been deputed a hard and ungrateful task, while her +companions played in the sunshine. Nothing could be said against an +unspoken accusation, especially in the presence of a stranger; but the +sisters exchanged meaning glances across the table, and Nan stamped _so_ +violently upon Elsie's foot that that melancholy young person writhed on +her seat. The best safeguard to the feelings of the family was to +change the subject, which Chrissie at once proceeded to do. + +"But sha'n't we see you again before midsummer?" she inquired eagerly. +"Is this really the only visit you are going to pay us this time? Three +skimpy hours! You generally come and stay over a Sunday at least. +Can't you come again before you go north? Mother and father will be +home on Thursday." + +Ned Talbot flushed suddenly, and bit his lips under his moustache. He +was evidently struggling with a spasm of nervousness; and Maud noticed +as much, and wondered as to its meaning, even as she blessed Christabel +in her heart for her welcome suggestion. Surely, surely Ned would not +refuse! + +"You are very kind," he said slowly. "I had thought of asking if I +might come. I am anxious to talk to Mrs Rendell. If it would not be +inconvenient to have me from Saturday till Monday so soon after her +return, I should very much like to come." He looked inquiringly at Maud +as he spoke, and she smiled a happy assent. + +"I am quite sure it will be convenient; but I'll tell-mother the moment +she returns, and she will write to you herself. You will probably hear +on Friday." + +"Thank you; I hope I may. This afternoon has been all too short, and I +have not had time for anything. Not even a glance of `Kittay.' It's +absurd to pretend to have been to Waybourne when one has not seen +`Kittay'; isn't it, Christabel?" + +Chrissie dropped her eyelids, and twisted her lip with an expression of +supreme disdain. + +"I do not say `Kittay'; I say `Kittee.' You are too sillay. Whatevah I +say you mock me in this ridiculous mannah. I sha'n't speak to you at +all next time." + +Talbot made a gesture as of one heaping ashes on his head, and then, +glancing at the clock, rose hurriedly from the table. + +"I must go! Just time to catch the train. I had no idea it was getting +so late. That comes of enjoying myself so much. I have had a jolly +afternoon. Don't know when I have had such a good time." He held out +his hand to Maud, and she took it, trying hard to smile as brightly as +himself, but it was a difficult task. She would rather he had been less +bright, less complacent. She could have been happier if he had gone +away with a shadow of her own depression upon his brow. Poor Maud! she +turned back from the door with an aching heart. The schoolroom seemed +on a sudden unbearably grey and gloomy. Her former peace had given +place to an aching doubt. + + + +CHAPTER EIGHT. + +THE VANBURGHS ARRIVE. + +The next day, when Kitty arrived at Thurston House, she was informed of +Ned Talbot's visit, and promptly remarked that it was a "mean shame"-- +the shame consisting in the fact of the visit having been so timed that +she herself had been deprived of the pleasure of seeing one who was +honoured by her special approval. All interest in Ned and his doings +was soon wiped away, however, by a piece of intelligence so exciting +that the listeners could only gasp, and hold on to their chairs for +support. + +It was Maud who brought the news to the schoolroom. She had been in the +kitchen interviewing the cook, and had received it straight from the +lips of that authority. + +"Children, children!" she cried breathlessly, "the Vanburghs have +arrived! They came late last night, cook says. She saw the table laid +for breakfast this morning, and the postman said he had taken some +letters to the house." + +"Arrived!" The girls stared at one another in mingled excitement and +disgust. "And we never saw them! How simply disgusting, when we have +been sitting staring out of this window for the last three weeks! Late +at night! What sneaks! Why couldn't they come in the daylight, in a +decent, honest fashion? They might be ashamed of themselves! How many +are there, and what are they like?" + +But Maud knew nothing beyond the mere fact of the arrival, and the +schoolroom party were obliged to control their curiosity as best they +might until lessons were over, and they were free to station themselves +once more in their place of observation. If the Vanburgh family had +ventured out of the house about noon, they would have been slightly +disconcerted to see the row of heads in the window opposite, all craning +forward to watch their slightest movement, and bobbing behind the +curtains when they imagined themselves observed. But, alas! they did +not come out. The nailed door remained closely shut, and the +disappointed watchers tried to console themselves by inventing +satisfactory reasons for their non-appearance. + +"They are busy, you see. There is so much to unpack. Gabrielle is +hanging her ball-dresses in the wardrobe and covering them over with +muslin curtains." + +"She wouldn't unpack for herself, silly! They have a French maid who +does all that sort of thing for them!" + +"I know they have; but Gabrielle is so particular! She can't bear any +one to touch her dresses but herself; besides, Therese has enough to do +attending to the other young ladies. Evangeline has a bad sick +headache. She is lying down in that room where the curtains are drawn. +Travelling always does make her ill!" + +"Ermyntrude is arranging her treasures. Her bedroom looks out on the +garden, and she is nailing up pictures, and draping the mantelpiece. +She has piles and piles of photographs to arrange. They will keep her +busy all day. It's ridiculous to suppose that they would go out the +very first morning after their arrival. You know how it is with us when +we come home after a few weeks' holiday! There are a thousand things to +be done." + +The girls unanimously agreed in this decision. Nevertheless, the hope +that one of the four Miss Vanburghs might appear at the windows kept +them glued to their own posts until it was time to start for the daily +walk. + +The conversation turned exclusively on the subject of the new +neighbours, as the little procession of girls and governess filed +dejectedly down the street, and great ingenuity was exhibited in +expressing disappointment in the language which was the order of the +day. + +"C'est un horrible shame," sighed Kitty sadly. "C'est tout bien pour +vous, parce que vous etes toujours ici; mais moi, je suis chez moi, et +si elles sortez quand je ne suis pas ici, je serais _mad_!" + +"J'expect qu'elles sorteraient quand nous sommes tous loin. C'est +toujours le fashion!" sighed Chrissie, acutely conscious that her French +was superior to that of her friend, but politely ignoring the fact. "Je +demanderai a ma mere--er--er--(how do you say `pay calls'?)--a faire une +visite, aussitot que possible." + +"Moi aussi," assented Kitty. "Et puis vous savez, elle peut dit: +`J'espere, Madame Vanburgh, que vos mademoiselles seraient tres grand +amies avec mes filles. Voulez vous permittez qu'elles venez a the +mercredi prochaine?'" + +"Oui, et puis elles nous inviteraient en retourn." Christabel tossed +her mane over her shoulders and smiled in anticipation. She made up her +mind then and there to decorate her bedroom with her most treasured +nick-nacks on the afternoon of the Vanburghs' visit, and to keep her new +hair ribbon unused for the occasion. + +But no Miss Vanburghs appeared! The next day passed, and the next, and +still another, and still no sign of a feminine presence lightened the +dark windows of the Grange. The solemn butler flitted to and fro; the +figure of a white-haired man could be dimly discerned, stretched upon a +sofa, in the oak-panelled apartment immediately facing the porch-room of +Thurston House; but that was all that the most unremitting scrutiny +could discover. Nan shivered at an attic window for an hour on end, +with no more exciting result than a glimpse of a tablecloth and a row of +silver dishes; and the great nailed door remained persistently closed. + +And then the blow fell! + +There were no Miss Vanburghs! There was not even a Mrs Vanburgh! +Could it be believed there was no woman in the family--no one but an old +invalid gentleman, who spent his days on a sofa, or in a wheeled chair +being slowly driven about the garden? A solitary man as tenant of the +Grange! The finest house in the neighbourhood monopolised by an +invalid! The ball-room, the billiard-room, the music-room, given over +to the possession of one who would never use them; the stables unused; +the gardens deserted! The Rendell girls could not believe it. It was +too horrible to be true. Ermyntrude, Evangeline, and Gabrielle had no +existence. The happy dreams which had been woven about them could never +be fulfilled. It was indeed a cruel and crushing disappointment. + +"What can he want with a house like that, the selfish, horrid creature?" +demanded Agatha, nigh to tears. "If he is an invalid, what is the use +of having a house big enough to hold a regiment of soldiers? There are +hundreds of villas where he might have been as ill as he liked, without +monopolising our only Grange! What is to become of us, if all the best +houses in the country are sold to hermits, and invalids, and white- +haired old patriarchs, with not a single child to boast of! Selfish! +Inconsiderate!" + +"I'm sorry his back is bad; but he had no business to come here," agreed +Chrissie firmly. "We don't want invalids. We want a nice, big, lively +family, with plenty of money and hospitable hearts. Oh dear! I'm +lonely without Gabrielle. I'd taken such a fancy to her! This is worse +than if the place had never been sold at all." + +"But still, you know the old man may be nice!" Kitty suggested +hopefully. "Wouldn't it be lovely if he took a fancy to us, and made us +all his heirs? A million each! I'd buy a pony-cart and a phonograph--a +friend of father has a phonograph at his home, and it's such fun +listening to it. The cornet-solo is fine, and there's a cylinder of a +baby crying which sounds just like a dog barking. The poor little soul +was quite good, but its parents thought it would be nice to preserve its +howls; so they pinched it and made it cry. Mean, I call it! Imagine +her feelings when she is grown up, and this wretched thing is wound up +to amuse strangers. So degrading! Parents ought to consider their +children's feelings. I read an awful story once of a girl who was +looking over old magazines with some friends, and she came upon a +photograph of herself as an advertisement of Infants' Food! If that had +happened to me, I should disown my parents and leave the country. Mr +Vanburgh hasn't any children of his own, but he may like us all the more +for that. It would be an interest in life for him to make us happy, and +we should reward him by our devotion. It sounds like a book, and +perhaps it may turn out for the best, after all. I believe it will!" + +"Don't be so horribly resigned! I hate people who are resigned when I +am miserable!" said Chrissie sharply. "I want some nice girls, and I +don't care a rap about phonographs--silly, squeaky things! There was +one on the parade at the seaside last year, and it irritated me beyond +words! Besides, I don't think it's at all nice to make up to a person +just because he is rich, and might leave you some money. I wouldn't do +it. It's toadying; and if there is one thing I detest above anothah, it +is--" + +"I never said I would `make up' to him. I never hinted at such a thing. +We were not supposed to dream that he would leave us anything until he +was dead, and then we would be overcome with surprise. I should hope I +detest toadying as much as you! Toady, indeed!" and Kitty tossed her +head and curled her lip in disdain. Both girls were upset by the sudden +overthrow of their hopes, and therefore inclined to take offence more +readily than usual. Christabel retired to the window in dignified +displeasure, while Kitty wriggled into the corduroy jacket, stuck the +Tam O'Shanter on her head at a rakish angle, and hitched her books under +her arm in preparation to depart. Agatha's expressive frowns and smiles +were of no avail towards a reconciliation, and the parting took place in +forced and chilly manner. + +"Good by-ee!" + +"Good by-ee!" + +Then the door banged, and Kitty went stalking home, to drown her woes in +afternoon tea, and to have her ruffled feathers smoothed down by her +mother's kindly sympathy. + +Mrs Maitland regarded the disappointment from a personal standpoint, +for the discovery that there was no Mrs Vanburgh was almost as great a +blow to her as the absence of daughters had been to the schoolroom +party. She agreed with Kitty that it was most officious of a solitary +male to monopolise the Grange, and bemoaned the loss to the +neighbourhood in a manner tragic enough to satisfy even her daughter's +requirements. + +"Oh dear! oh dear! and I was looking to her for so many subscriptions! +I had put her down for two five-pound notes, and half a dozen guineas. +I meant her to take half my stall at the hospital bazaar, and to be the +secretary of the Mission. How useful I had made that woman, to be sure! +and now she has vanished into thin air before my eyes. I'm terribly +disappointed, Kit; but we must make the best of it. Poor, lonely old +man! He will be bored to death in that silent house. Lies on his back, +you say, and is wheeled about in a chair? That means paralysis, I +suppose, or very bad rheumatism. It's sad to be old, and ill, and +lonely." Mrs Maitland stared thoughtfully before her, cup in hand, and +her eyes grew suddenly moist. She was thinking how blessedly well off +she was in her cheery, sunny little home, with husband and child to love +her, and good health to enable her to do her work, and to find pleasure +in the doing; and the picture of the strange old man lying on his couch +in the dim oak-panelled halls seemed by comparison gloomier than ever. + +"We'll help him, Kit!" she said briskly. "We'll help him, you and I! +We'll make his life brighter for him, and cheer him in every way we +know!" + +But, as it turned out, Mr Vanburgh was not anxious to be cheered, and +Mrs Maitland found it more difficult than she expected to put her good +resolves into practice. + + + +CHAPTER NINE. + +NED'S MISSION. + +On Thursday evening, Mr and Mrs Rendell returned home from their +Continental trip. The house was spick and span, the girls were blooming +in pretty evening dresses, and the travellers themselves looked +immensely benefited by their holiday, so that the kissings and huggings +of welcome were exchanged under the happiest conditions. + +Nan was thankful to feel that no shade of displeasure lurked behind the +tenderness of her mother's greeting, and before the evening was over +actually screwed up courage to put a question concerning the discovery +of the scattered rice. + +The explanation was disappointingly simple. Mr and Mrs Rendell +exchanged a smiling glance, and appeared much amused by the girls' +discomfiture. + +"Well, my dear, we had the carriage to ourselves as far as Dover, and +your mother suggested in her thoughtful way that it would be wise to get +some wraps ready, as it was often very cold on the pier. Obedient as +ever, I unstrapped the bundle, and discovered your nice little plot. We +lifted the cushions, poured all the loose rice on the seats, shook the +cloaks out of the window, put down the cushions again, and had +everything clear and tidy in ten minutes' time! It was a nice little +diversion, which came just as we had finished reading our papers. Most +thoughtful of you to provide it for us!" + +"And you had no stray pieces left? None that caught in your clothes, +and shook out afterwards?" + +"I had a cloth brush in my bag, and I used it well. I am sorry to +distress you; but we were not once mistaken for Edwin and Angelina. It +was a brilliant inspiration on your part, and I sympathise with your +disappointment. I said at once, `This is Nan's doing!' and wished I was +near, to pay you out for your audacity. I hope your other pranks +afforded you more satisfaction. I expect you have been up to all manner +of mischief while we were away!" + +"I've been most industrious, father, and good, and docile. Ask Maud if +I haven't. I had a few accidents: they _will_ occur, you know! Trays, +for instance, jumping out of my hand, and smashing the glass. It's a +mercy I was not killed." + +"Glass? What glass?" queried Mrs Rendell quickly; and Nan smiled back +at her with infantile candour. + +"Better tell her the first evening, when she can't find it in her heart +to be cross," she had decided diplomatically; and there was certainly no +nervousness apparent in the manner in which she made her confession. + +"Oh, only some tumblers. Not so many. Seven or eight, perhaps. They +were not the best ones; none of the best set were broken except two +little water-bottles. Such a mercy, wasn't it?" She affected not to +hear Mrs Rendell's groan of dismay, and spread out her scarred hands +with an air of thanksgiving. "As for me, I can't imagine how I escaped. +There were knives on the tray, and they fell in showers round me-- +literal showers--and dug into my hands! The blood--oh-oh!" Nan rolled +her eyes to the ceiling, and shuddered dramatically. "Ask Maud! She +wanted me to go to bed, but I struggled on. We were particularly busy +that night, and wanted to help the servants." + +"Ned Talbot was here. He appeared suddenly, when we were laying +carpets, and went down on his knees to help us. He seemed to expect to +stay to dinner, so we gave him a scramble meal, and he left by the 8:30 +train," explained Maud hurriedly. She, like Nan, had decided to give +her own special piece of news on the evening of her parents' return; but +though she appeared to be looking in an opposite direction, she was +acutely conscious of her mother's searching glances. + +"In-deed!" Mrs Rendell said slowly. "He is staying in town, then, I +suppose? Is he to make a long visit? Shall we see him again this +time?" + +"He said of his own accord, mother, that he would like to come from +Saturday until Monday if it would not inconvenience you so soon after +your return. I promised to give you the message, and said you would +probably write yourself." + +"He said he wanted particularly to speak to you and father. I wonder +what about! He doesn't generally care to be with you as much as with +us; but he said it as if he meant it--he really did. I can't imagine +what he wants!" said Agatha the tactless, blurting out her thoughts as +usual, and beaming round the company, unconscious of the consternation +which her words had caused. + +Maud flushed crimson. Elsie and Nan blushed in sympathy for her +confusion, and Chrissie from sheer rage and irritation, and longing to +take the big, blind blunderer by the shoulder and administer a good +shaking. Only Lilias remained cool and self-possessed, and came to the +rescue with a change of subject, for which her sisters blessed her in +their hearts. + +No further reference was made to Ned Talbot that evening, nor was any +letter forwarded to his London address; but next day, as Maud passed the +morning-room on some domestic errand, a voice called her by name, and +she entered, to find her mother seated before an open desk. + +"I am writing to Ned Talbot," she said, "and I wanted to consult you +before finishing. I think the time has come for plain speaking, Maud. +Am I to tell this young fellow that we shall be pleased to see him or +no? It has been easy to see that he has had a special attraction in +this house for some years past; and now that his position is +established, he may have made up his mind to state his wishes. I have +little doubt what they will be, nor, I think, have you, so it lies with +you to decide the question." + +Maud laid down her bundle, and grasped the sides of the table to steady +her trembling hands. + +"Mother, I don't know--I'm not certain! I have only thought at times +that perhaps--perhaps he cared--" + +"Of course, dear. I understand that. He could not show his feelings +too plainly while he was unprepared to speak. That is all right, I'm +sure. What you have to consider is your own attitude. If you do not +care for him, or do not wish to be hurried into a decision, we will +postpone this visit until a future occasion. He himself doubted whether +I could receive him so soon after our return, so that I can easily make +an excuse. On the other hand, Maud, if you would like to see him--" + +She paused significantly, and looked full into Maud's eyes. For a long +silent minute that gaze continued, the mother sitting with raised head, +the girl standing before her, flushed and shy, yet showing no sign of +shrinking before her scrutiny. + +"Yes, mother, I would. I'd rather you let him come!" + +A quiver passed over Mrs Rendell's face, and her eyes dropped. No +mother in the world can hear that her daughter's heart has gone beyond +her keeping, without feeling a pang of pain mingling with the joy; and +this was a peculiarly tender mother, despite her little airs of +severity. There were a few minutes when she dared not trust herself to +speak, then she held out her hand and drew the girl to her side. + +"Bless you, my daughter! My good girl--my dear, kind helper. I'll miss +you sorely; but I am glad of anything that makes for your happiness, now +and always. You know that, don't you, darling?" + +Maud put down her head and shed a few tears of happiness and excitement, +which had in them no trace of bitterness. When the time arrived for +leaving home, that would doubtless be a real trouble; but at present she +could not realise the wrench, while her mother's certainty concerning +Ned's love was the best medicine possible for the doubts which had been +so distressing since the occasion of his last visit. In ten minutes' +time she returned to her work, with no stain of tear-marks to tell of +her recent emotion, but with a quiet illumination in her face which +satisfied the mother that this attachment to Ned Talbot was no mere +girlish fancy, but the deep faithful love which endures for a lifetime. + +The important letter was posted, and the invitation which it contained +accepted by telegram within an hour of its arrival, and half Friday +night Maud lay with wide, bright eyes staring through the darkness, too +excited, too happy, to sleep. + +Ned arrived on Saturday afternoon. It was a glorious spring day, the +sun shining so powerfully that for the first time in the year afternoon +tea was carried out to the summer-house, while the family gathered +around on various garden stools and chairs. They were hardly seated +when Ned came walking across the lawn, a tall, handsome figure, in a +spring-like suit, his dark face lit up with a smile of pleasure. Maud +looked at him, aglow with love and pride; but as he drew nearer she +busied herself with the teacups, and had only a casual word of welcome +to offer. It would not do to appear too glad, she told herself; and +when there were so many, an individual greeting was hardly noticed, nor +was there any opportunity for _tete-a-tete_ conversation. + +When the tea-things had been carried away, however, and the girls began +to wander about the garden in twos and threes, Maud found Ned by her +side, waiting for her, and allowing the others to walk on ahead. She +looked up with a questioning glance, and met a smile of frank affection. + +"Well, have you finished your duties, and got five minutes' leisure for +once? Come along, and have a walk with me. I never met such a girl for +being busy all day long. Don't think I have ever seen you sitting with +idle hands. You remember Jim's old nickname, `Maud of all work'? A +capital title! But he would have missed it badly if he had not had you +to wait upon him. I used to tell him I envied him such a sister!" + +Maud smiled vaguely and turned her head aside. It was all very kind, +very flattering, very friendly, yet somehow it failed to satisfy; and +even as she listened the old ache of uncertainty came back to her heart. +It was difficult to say why, unless perhaps it was that Ned's manner +was a little too friendly to be welcome. In the old days he had not +been so much at his ease; they had talked merrily enough together while +the others were present, but so soon as they had been left alone a +constraint had been wont to fall upon them,--a silence, awkward, +embarrassing, yet in some inexplicable way more eloquent than words. +Maud thought of the past with a quick catching of breath, and through +the whole of that afternoon and evening the vague depression deepened, +and refused to be argued away. Ned, it was true, took advantage of +every opportunity of being near her, yet the time had been when he had +seemed shy of approaching; and she preferred the shyness to this open +friendliness. He talked to her more than to any one of her sisters, +yes! in frank, cheery words with unlowered voice, as a brother might +talk to a sister, or a son to his mother. He looked at her with kindly +affection, and the look chilled her heart. Once again Maud passed a +sleepless night, but the darkness was no longer illumined by rosy +dreams, but black with fear and dread. + +Sunday was a glorious day, and Maud felt it another drop in her cup to +be obliged to wear winter clothes instead of blossoming out in the +pretty spring costume which she had hoped to possess. The dressmaker +had proved faithless, like the rest of her kind, and, being unable to +finish two dresses by the promised time, had followed her usual custom +and sent home the one destined for the younger sister; for, in spite of +her gentle manners, Lilias had "a way with her" which carried infinitely +more weight than Maud's good-natured placidity. + +The sisters were standing in the hall providing themselves with hymn- +books from the pile laid out on the top of the oak bench, when Lilias +came tripping downstairs in her pale grey draperies, a very incarnation +of the beautiful spring morning. Maud looked at her with ungrudging +admiration, then turned instinctively to see how Ned in his turn was +affected by the charming vision. She saw him flash one quick glance at +Lilias, and immediately turn on his heel and walk to the other end of +the hall, and throughout the walk to church she puzzled over the meaning +of such behaviour. Why should the sight of Lilias in her fresh beauty +disturb Ned's equanimity? Was it possible he had taken a dislike to +her, or felt a masculine disdain for her innocent vanity? Maud honestly +hoped not; for, though she desired above all things to possess Ned's +love for herself, it would be still necessary for her happiness that he +should accept as his own her five beloved sisters. + +The day passed without any important developments. Maud went off to +teach her Sunday-school class in the afternoon, trying hard to conquer +the spasm of envy which overcame her at the sight of Lilias seated in +the garden hammock, swinging herself to and fro on the tips of her +little shoes, while Ned mounted guard by her side, and Agatha and +Chrissie paced lazily up and down. Maud was devoted to her "boys," but +on this occasion there was no denying that it was an effort to tear +herself from home, and she would gladly have welcomed a holiday. Her +path led through the garden, and as she approached the gate the hope +flitted through her mind that Ned might offer to accompany her on her +walk. It would be an opportunity for a quiet _tete-a-tete_, which was +rarely to be gained in the midst of such a large family; and if Mrs +Rendell's surmises were correct, surely--surely! But Ned did not even +rise from his seat beside the hammock: he only waved his hand and nodded +an unclouded farewell. The twelve mischievous little boys behaved with +unprecedented decorum that afternoon; for, in spite of their elfish +ways, they were devoted to Maud, and the ringleader sent round an +imperative message to the effect that "Teacher was bad, and must not be +worried." + +It was characteristic of Maud also that she did not allow the lesson to +suffer because of her own depression, but rather put into it more than +the usual earnestness. She had always felt a heavy sense of +responsibility in taking this class, and every week, as she looked at +the eager young faces, she was thrilled with a fresh longing to help +them to grow up into strong, upright men, who would be a power for good +in the world,--"gentlemen of Christ," as the grand old phrase has it. +When they were indifferent or callous, after the manner of boys, she +strengthened herself against disappointment by remembering how words +committed to memory in her own careless youth remained indelibly printed +on the brain, to be a strength and solace in after years. The hymns and +chapters were learnt as lessons now, but in time to come their true +meaning would be revealed; and she loved to combat the suspicion that +the Bible was a dull, uninteresting book, by relating the histories of +its heroes in a manner most calculated to arouse schoolboy enthusiasm. +Brave, lovable David, with his chosen friend Jonathan, the type of +princehood; the gloomy but majestic figure of Saul, trustful Abraham, +and fearless Daniel. It was a joy to make them live in the boys' +imagination, and see the bright interest on the listening faces! + +When Mrs Rendell said good-night to her daughter, she was especially +tender in her manner, for she vaguely felt that all was not going well, +and took herself to task for having forced a confidence. Could it be be +that she had taken too much for granted? that her motherly pride had +given her an exaggerated idea of Ned Talbot's feelings? He had shown no +anxiety to speak to her in private, and at one time it seemed as if he +would go back to town without touching on any but impersonal topics; but +on Monday morning, after wandering restlessly about the house for some +time after breakfast, Ned seemed suddenly to take his courage in both +hands, and, coming up to his hostess as she sat writing notes, begged +the favour of a few minutes' private conversation. + +Mrs Rendell looked up sharply, met an embarrassed yet steadfast glance, +and felt a throb of relief. + +"Certainly!" she said. "In ten minutes from now I shall have finished +my household arrangements, and will meet you in the summer-house. Go +into the garden and enjoy a smoke until I come." + +Ned walked away obediently, and Mrs Rendell thrust the half-finished +note under her desk, too agitated to complete it. She had shown no +signs of surprise to the young man himself, but her heart was beating +quickly, and she bundled away her writing materials in a haphazard +fashion very unlike her usual methodical ways. Her first thought was +for Maud, and most of the ten minutes of Ned's waiting were taken up in +interviewing the girl, and deputing to her a dozen little shopping +commissions which would keep her occupied in the village for an hour to +come. + +"I am going to have a talk with Ned in the summer-house. You will find +us there when you return. Come straight to me, and tell me how you have +succeeded." + +These were her last instructions, and when she had given them she turned +sharply aside, lest her face should betray the meaning that lay behind +her words. + +Ned was waiting for her with an evident nervousness mingling with his +usual kindly courtesy. He made no attempt to open the conversation with +meaningless commonplaces, and, after they were both seated, several +moments passed in silence. Then suddenly the two pairs of eyes met; the +young fellow flushed and paled, and laid a hand on his hostess's chair +with a boy-like pleading gesture. + +"Oh, Mrs Rendell," he cried, "I have a great favour to ask you!" + + + +CHAPTER TEN. + +A TRAGIC SURPRISE. + +Half an hour later, Nan Rendell let herself out of the front door, and +ran hurriedly down the steps. Her sailor hat was perched uncertainly on +the top of her heavy braids, the buttons of her jacket were unfastened, +and she drew on her gloves as she walked, as if she had been in too much +haste to finish dressing before leaving the house. Several +acquaintances saluted her as they passed, but she rushed along +unconscious of their greetings, and presently arrived at the point in +the high road where houses stopped and the little township began. The +shops which Mrs Rendell patronised were indiscriminately situated on +either side of the road, which no doubt accounted for Nan's erratic +dives to and fro. She peered her head round the corner of the draper's +door, dashed across the road and craned through the grocer's window, +stood on tip-toe to investigate the interior of the post office, then +ran back once more, to interview the fishmonger, and ask if Miss Rendell +had yet called to leave the morning order. It was in the confectioner's +that Maud was run to earth at last. She was coming out of the doorway +counting her change into her purse, when suddenly Nan's face confronted +her, and she started back in surprise. + +"You?" + +"Yes, it's me. I've been looking for you everywhere." + +"But I thought your were going to work? I left you hard at it. Got a +headache?" + +"Fer-ightful!" said Nan; and her looks justified the word, for her +cheeks were pale, and her eyes looked worn and strained. "I couldn't +work any longer. I thought a little walk would do me good, so came out +to meet you." + +"But--er,"--Maud hesitated uncertainly. She did not wish to appear +inconsiderate towards her beloved Nan, but, remembering her mother's +instruction, she could not bring herself to stay away from home longer +than was necessary. She looked at her sister appealingly, and slid a +hand through her arm. + +"But--I've finished my shopping, dear, and mother said I was to go +straight back. Wouldn't it do just as well to sit in the garden? You +would get the air without fatigue, and I'd make you so cosy in the deck +chair. You know, Nan, I--I want to go back!" + +Nan turned her head aside, and spoke in a queer, muffled tone. + +"Very well; but we'll go round the back way. It's only five minutes +longer, and it's quiet. I don't want to meet any one. You'll do that +to oblige me, won't you, Maud, as you have finished your shopping?" + +Of course she would. Maud gave a little grip to her sister's arm, and +turned willingly enough up the side street which led off the high road. +As in all small towns, the change from town to country came surprisingly +quickly. Three minutes' walk took the sisters into a pretty lane +running parallel with the High Street, and commanding a sweeping view +over the countryside. Here were no houses, only an avenue of beeches, +with here and there a seat in a position of welcome shade. Maud often +returned home by this quieter route, and seated herself on one of the +benches to make up her accounts and enjoy the view at one and the same +time. It was a favourite spot; but after this morning she could never +pass it without a shrinking of the heart, a sickly remembrance of +misery. At the first seat Nan slackened her pace insinuatingly, while +Maud marched ahead, intentionally obtuse; but at the second a hand was +laid on her arm, and such a trembling voice besought her to stop, that +she forgot herself in sympathetic alarm. + +"Nan, you _do_ look ill! As white as a sheet. Lean forward and put +your head on your knee, as low as you can get it! That is the best +thing to do if you feel faint. Sit still for a minute, and then we will +make another dash for home. You ought to lie down!" + +But Nan sat bolt upright, clasping her fingers in nervous misery. + +"I'm not faint. I'm thinking of you, not myself!--Maud darling; it's +been a mistake--we were all mistaken; but you are so good, you will be +brave for our sakes, if not your own. It would break our hearts to see +you suffer." + +She stopped short with a little sob of agitation, and Maud stared at her +with wondering eyes. + +"Suffer! I? Why should I suffer?" Then the colour rushed in a sudden +wave to her cheeks, and her voice broke in the single, stifled inquiry, +"Ned?" + +"Yes. It is Lilias! He has asked mother for Lilias. She came upstairs +and sent me out to meet you, so that you might not hear it suddenly. +She thought you would rather have it so." + +"How kind of her! That was good of you both!" said Maud calmly. Her +heart had stopped for a moment, and was now beating away at +extraordinary speed; a singing noise was in her ears: it was as if some +one had dealt her a violent blow, and she was as yet too stunned to +realise its nature. She turned her head aside, and _gazed_ vaguely up +and down. A nursemaid wheeled a perambulator on the opposite pavement, +while a little white-robed figure trotted at her side, tossing a ball in +the air. Maud watched her movements with fascinated gaze. It seemed as +though some tremendous issue depended on whether the ball was caught in +those tiny, uncertain fingers. + +"Ned wants to marry Lilias, does he?" Her voice sounded strange and far +away, and she noted as much, and pondered on the peculiarity. "They +will make a handsome couple. Lilias is so fair. She will look well +beside him." + +"Maud, don't! For pity's sake don't take it like that!" + +The tears were raining down Nan's cheeks, and she seized her sister's +hand in a passionate grasp. + +"I know all about it. I am almost as wretched as you are. Don't +pretend to me. Say what you feel to me, at least, and it will help you +to bear it." + +"But I don't feel anything," said Maud dully. "It seems like a dream. +Lilias! He loves Lilias, and not me; he never loved me at all! He has +been thinking of Lilias all this time. It's--very--strange! I think +what I feel most is shame for my own conceit. I have been deceiving +myself all along, and that is a miserable thought! You should not +sympathise with me, Nan: you should scold me, and tell me to be ashamed +of myself." + +She spoke in the same dull, strangled note, and Nan continued to cry and +clasp her hand in distress. + +"I could never do that, or be anything but proud of you, darling! It +was no conceit at all on your part, for we all thought the same. He +always seemed to prefer being with you, and to be so shy and constrained +with Lilias. I suppose that was a sign, but we did not recognise it. +Even mother was sure it was you: every one was, except Lilias." + +Maud gave a quick glance upward. + +"Did Lilias guess? Did she know that this was coming?" + +"I have not seen her; but from what mother said, I imagine she did." + +"And she will--she cares for him too?" + +"Yes!" + +It was a very low little yes, almost a whisper, but at the sound of it +Maud shrank as at a blow, and her face became drawn with pain. For the +first time a realisation of what the news meant, broke upon her, and she +cried aloud in a voice sharp with misery-- + +"They will be engaged; they will be married; and I shall have to stay at +home and look on! I shall have to take part, and pretend that I don't +care. Oh, I can't--I can't do it! If it had been some one at a +distance, some one I need never have seen, I could have borne it; but my +own sister, living in the same house together all day long--that is too +bitter! I'd rather die than face it!" + +"Then I'll die too!" cried Nan hotly. "Whether Ned cares for you or +not, you are all the world to me. You don't know how I love you, Maud! +It would have broken my heart if you had married and gone away, and I +never want to marry myself, if you and I can live together. No man +could make up for you. I hate them all! Wretches! Nothing but misery +wherever they come. I'll never fall in love, and you'll get over this +in a few months, and we will look forward to having our own little +house, and growing old together,--won't we, darling?" + +"Yes, we will," assented Maud meekly. She looked at her sister and +tried hard to smile; but the prospect seemed so dull--oh, so heart- +breakingly dull!--after the rosy dreams of the past, that what was meant +as comfort proved, after all, the last strain which was to break down +her composure. + +She threw up her hands to her face, and rocked to and fro in an +abandonment of distress. + +"Oh--oh, the days, and weeks, and months! They will be so long; I can't +realise it yet, but I know how I shall suffer. Oh, Nan, isn't it hard, +after being so happy--after feeling so sure? I never had a doubt all +these years except just this last week, and then I thought it was my own +foolish imagining;--and now to have it end like this! I can't believe +it! Are you sure, are you quite sure? It seems like a hideous +mistake!" + +Nan shook her head, and her face hardened. + +"There's no mistake on my part, but there's one on his, and a big one +too. He'll find it out, that's one comfort! He'll suffer for it! If +he thinks Lilias is going to be the sort of wife he needs, he'll find +out his mistake. He thinks himself well off because he has a few +hundreds a year, and is as proud as a king because he has a house of his +own in a dull little country town. Lilias's ideas of poverty and his of +wealth will come to much the same thing. She hates the country, and +flies off to town at the least excuse. Ned is quiet and book-wormy; and +she wants some one who is fond of life, and likes gadding about. They +don't suit each other in any one way that I can see, and before a year +is over they will have found it out for themselves. Then he will be +sorry!" + +Maud cut her short with uplifted hand. + +"Don't, Nan; you make it worse! You mean to be kind, but it doesn't +comfort me to think that he will be disappointed. I love him, you see; +and I can't change in a moment because I discover that he doesn't care +for me. I want him to be happy. It would make me more miserable than +ever if I thought it was a mistake. You are too hard on Lilias. She is +very sweet and amiable, and if she really loves him she will not mind +little things like that. We never spoke about him together, she and I, +and she has only done what I did myself. No one is to blame--no one! +It was my own foolish mistake, and I must bear the consequences." + +"You are an angel, and too good to live!" cried Nan, with a gulp. "I +blame everybody, and myself worst of all. Prided myself on being sharp- +sighted, and couldn't save you from a blow like this! ... Maud, you +don't want to go home? You would rather not see him this morning? +Mother said she would give no definite answer before talking to father, +but would let him see Lilias for half an hour, and then pack him off by +the midday train. She was going to tell him that under the +circumstances she would prefer that he did not stay to lunch, so there +would seem nothing strange about it if you and I were not back before he +left." + +"No," agreed Maud softly. She drew her watch from her belt and looked +at the hour. "Perhaps you are right, Nan. It would be better not to +try my strength too much this morning. In a day or two I shall have +gained a little courage, but this morning I--I've had rather a shock, +and feel weak and nervous. We will sit here and wait until he is gone." + +"Wouldn't you rather come for a walk? The time seems so long when you +are sitting still. A nice brisk walk through the woods!" suggested Nan +insinuatingly; but Maud drew back with a quiver of pain. + +"No, no! Not this morning! I should remember it always. Every step of +the path would bring back this wretched day in the future, and I do so +love the woods. Let me keep them free from association, at least. It +will be bad enough to dread this road, as I always shall after this." + +"Just as you like, dear, just as you like; but what will you do? You +can't sit still and think all the time!" + +"I'll make up my accounts," said Maud simply; and, despite her sister's +cry of protest, she insisted on doing as she said. Pencil and note-book +came out of her pocket, and one item after another of the morning's +shopping was jotted down, and the result compared with the change in the +housekeeping purse. + +How could she do it? Nan tried to imagine how she herself would have +acted in similar circumstances, and felt her heart beat fast at the +possibility. Rage, storm, despair; drown herself in the nearest stream; +lie down beneath the express train; bid farewell to the world, and +retire into a nunnery. All these alternatives seemed natural and easy; +she could imagine taking refuge in any one of them. But to go on with +ordinary, everyday work, to take up the "next duty" and perform it in +quiet, conscientious fashion--that was impossible!--the last thing in +the world that she could bring herself to do. + +She did not realise that the bent of a lifetime is not reversed in a +moment, and that even the pangs of slighted love must be borne according +to the temperament of the sufferer. Dear, placid, domesticated Maud +found her best medicine in the "trivial round, the common task." + +Nan, looking over her shoulder, saw that the little rows of figures were +as neat and accurate as ever, and caught a sigh of satisfaction when +they were added together, and the change in the housekeeping purse was +proved correct. Even in the midst of her distress, Maud was conscious +of a distinct sense of satisfaction in balancing her accounts to a +penny. + + + +CHAPTER ELEVEN. + +THE FIRST ENGAGEMENT. + +The remaining hours of that day were the most painful which Maud had +ever known. The sisters returned to find the household in a state of +wild excitement, for such secrets seemed to leak out in the air, so that +the very servants suspected the truth, and walked about the house with +curious smiles. The housemaid confided to the cook that the missis had +come in from the garden all of a tremble; had replied, "Yes! No! +Certainly!" when asked for instructions, and had then sent Miss Lilias +to see Mr Talbot in the drawing-room all by her very own self. What +did that mean, she would like to know? And cook shook her head, and +said it wasn't for nothing she had fallen up the cellar stairs the week +before; and a very good thing too, if one of them did go off! When +there were six of them waiting for their turns, the elders ought to +hurry up and make room. Mary, the waitress, shed tears over her silver +in the pantry, because there was a look about the back of Mr Talbot's +head that reminded her of her young man, who had gone abroad to prepare +a home; and all three flattened their noses against the window when Ned +departed, in the hope of witnessing a tender and affecting farewell. +They were disappointed, however, for Lilias did not leave the drawing- +room, and only Mrs Rendell accompanied the young man to the door. She +had put on her bonnet, and followed him slowly down the road, for +ordinary duties must be attended to, even on the exciting occasion of +the first engagement in the family, and on this particular morning there +happened to be a committee meeting at the vicarage, which she felt bound +to attend. + +When Maud returned, therefore, only her sisters were at home to receive +her, and she had barely entered the house before Agatha rushed forward, +flushed and beaming, and drew her forcibly into the drawing-room. + +"Maud, Maud, such news! Such excitement! Have you heard? Did Nan tell +you? Isn't it lovely? The first engagement! Oh, how I have longed to +have a wedding in the family, and now it's really coming off! It's too +good to be true! Ned Talbot, too! Such a scrumptious brother! I +always hoped he'd ask one of us, but I thought it was you. Funny, +wasn't it? I said to Chrissie--" + +"It was very bold and interfering of you to say anything of the sort, +then; what business have you meddling with other people's love affairs?" +interrupted Elsie sharply; and Maud glanced at her, and turned away +quickly to avoid a look of sympathetic understanding. Elsie was old +beyond her years, and had been quick to understand the true position of +affairs; but Maud hardly knew which was more painful--Agatha's tactless +speeches, or the other's undisguised commiseration. It was a relief to +turn to Lilias and meet her lovely eyes, guilelessly free from any +feeling but her own happiness. Lilias had little natural insight, and +was, besides, so wrapped up in her own interests, that she was as blind +as a bat to what was passing around. She came forward, smiling and +blushing, and Maud kissed her, as was expected, and murmured words of +congratulation, feeling meantime that this very unconsciousness would be +her greatest assistance in the difficult time to come. + +"I've heard all about it, Lilias. I hope you will be very happy. It is +really all settled, and you are engaged?" + +"Yes--no! Not formally, I mean. Mother won't consent to anything +definite until she has consulted with father; but, of course, we,"-- +Lilias dimpled and smiled seraphically over the unaccustomed word--"we +feel that it is settled. We are quite sure of ourselves, at least." + +"Then I'd get married as soon as you could if I were you, in case you +changed," said Agatha darkly. "You do change most awfully, Lilias, you +know. When you bought your last hat you said it was a `simple love,' +and the next month you pulled it all to pieces. And you used to adore +Fanny Newby, and now you go out of the side door when you see her +coming. Get married in summer and have a rose wedding, and we'll all be +bridesmaids. I pine to be a bridesmaid, with everything new from head +to foot, and no nasty old clothes to wear out. That's the worst of +being number five! I never have everything new at once. There's always +a hat, or a jacket, or a blouse that has to be finished off. Let's sit +down and talk about it now! There's half an hour before lunch, and it's +impossible to do any work. Maud, sit down and take off your hat, and +let's be comfy!" + +"No, she can't. I want her! I don't care who is going to be married; +I'm ill, and I want Maud to nurse me. My head is smashing. I believe +it's sunstroke, for I sat out yesterday without a hat. I shall go crazy +in a moment if somebody doesn't do something!" cried Nan loudly; and her +sisters stared in dismay at her flushed, heated face. It was so evident +that she was in pain that even Agatha submitted to a postponement of the +longed-for "talk," and the conclave broke up for the time being, the +sisters separating, to go off in various directions: Lilias to be petted +and cross-questioned by the two schoolgirls; Elsie to indite a +melancholy entry in her diary, beginning, "Yet another example of the +strange intermingling of joy and pain": and Maud to lead Nan to her own +room, and devote herself to the work of nursing, at which she was so +clever. Perhaps Nan's head was really aching, perhaps the morning's +excitement had brought on an attack of neuralgia, but whatever her +ailment, she certainly made the worst of it, groaning and rolling her +eyes to the ceiling as one in mortal agony; for she was wise enough to +realise that nothing would take Maud so much out of herself as the +necessity of waiting upon another. + +When Mrs Rendell entered the room, and recognised the odours of eau-de- +Cologne, menthol, and sal volatile, her first thought was of poor +brokenhearted Maud; but, behold! it was Maud who was playing doctor, and +buxom Nan who lay prone upon the bed. + +A few inquiries and expressions of sympathy were spoken, and then a +gesture bade Maud follow into another room. She went, shrinking from +the ordeal, yet longing to have it over, and for a few minutes mother +and daughter gazed at one another in silence. The girl's face was grave +and set, but self-composed in comparison with that of Mrs Rendell, +which was quivering with distress. + +"My dear child! What can I say to you? I can never forgive myself for +my part in this disappointment. I should not have spoken as I did the +other day, but I thought at the time that it was the right thing to do, +and I had no doubts on the subject. What can I do to help you, dear, +through this difficult time?" + +"Speak as little as possible about it, mother, please," said Maud +softly. She pressed her lips together, wincing with pain, and Mrs +Rendell's eyes flashed a look of approval in reply. + +Of Spartan bravery herself, it delighted her to see her daughter bracing +herself up to bear her trouble without useless outcry and repining. + +"I quite agree, darling," she said warmly. "After to-day we will never +mention the subject; but there are one or two things which must be said +first. To begin with, Ned has no suspicion of our mistake. I took care +of that; and it may help you to know that, after all, we were not so +very far from the truth. He spoke quite openly, and it seems that for +the first two or three years you were the attraction! He said he had +been sincerely attached to you, but that he saw you regarded him simply +as a friend. Then Lilias came home, with her more demonstrative ways; +he turned to her for comfort, and now,"--She stopped with a little +eloquent gesture, while Maud gave a groan of pain. + +"Oh, mother, that is hard--to think that it came so near, and that I +spoiled my life by my own mistake! I suppose my very anxiety not to +show how much I cared made me seem stiff and constrained; but I never +meant him to take it in that way. It makes it worse than ever, and yet +I'm glad too. It's a comfort to feel it was not all imagination." + +"I thought you would feel it so; that is why I told you. But you must +not talk of your life being spoiled, dear. These are early days, and I +hope there are many, many blessings which still remain open to you. It +is a great mistake to think that marriage is the only gate to happiness. +A single woman may have a most full and useful life." + +"Yes, mother!" assented Maud dutifully. Poor Maud! her heart died down +within her as she spoke, and her thoughts flew away to old Mary Robins +in her lodging, and Miss Evans in her stuffy little cottage, and she +wondered if it were really, really possible that she--Maud Rendell-- +could ever grow like them, and feel satisfied with the duties and +pleasures which constituted their lives! "Full and useful!" It sounded +estimable enough; but her young heart hungered for happiness also, and +at the moment that seemed lost for ever. The downcast face was so +pitiful that the tears came into Mrs Rendell's eyes as she watched it. + +"Don't think of the future, dear," she said fondly. "Take each day as +it comes, and try to bear it bravely, and I'll help you in every way I +can. Ned will come down pretty often, for I must consider Lilias as +well as you, and we cannot consent to have a formal engagement until +they know each other more intimately than at present; but it will not be +so hard as you expect. You must be at home sometimes, for the last +thing we want to do is to arouse suspicion; but I will arrange that you +have as many changes as possible; and in any way that I can help I am at +your service, dear, if you will only let me know!" + +"Thank you, mother," said Maud again, and made a little involuntary +movement towards the door, whereupon Mrs Rendell dismissed her, after a +lingering embrace. She saw that it was misery to the girl to discuss +her disappointment, and realised that it would be the truest kindness to +allow the subject to drop. It was only natural that Maud should find it +easier to talk to a friend of her own age, and Nan would be able to help +more than any one else in these first painful days. Later on her own +turn would come; and all day long the mother's mind was busy weaving +plans by which Maud could be shielded from suffering, and her life made +bright and interesting during the months ahead. + +Lessons came off badly that afternoon, for the girls were too much +absorbed in the excitement of the prospective wedding to be able to fix +their attention on the problems of arithmetic and geography. When the +great problem of the hour was to decide the number of bridesmaids and +what kind of frocks they should wear, how could they be expected to feel +any interest in discovering how many yards of paper it would take to +cover the walls of a problematical chamber, or in describing the +eccentricities of the Gulf Stream? Miss Roberts realised the +impossibility of the situation, and shortened the hours in considerate +fashion; and no sooner had she taken her departure than the three girls +rushed to the porch-room, surrounded Lilias in a whirlwind of +excitement, and dragged her to a chair in their midst. + +"At last we can talk! Such a pity Nan is ill, and won't let Maud leave +the room; but we can have it all over again with them to-morrow. Talk! +I feel as if I could talk for ever! Oh, Lilias, how do you feel? If I +were engaged, I don't know what would happen to me! I should go stark, +staring mad with excitement." + +"How nice for him! You would have another person to consider then, +remember," said Lilias prettily. "I am not at all inclined to go mad, +though I am certainly very much excited. It is difficult to describe my +feelings. I can't realise it yet, and feel all--" + +"Jumbled up!" suggested Agatha sympathetically. "Of course you do. I +should myself. Oh, Lil, do have them in yellow! I've been thinking +about it all the afternoon, and I think yellow would be sw-eet! With +bouquets of daffodils! Very few people have yellow, and it would be so +uncommon, and make us look much paler too. I shall have a face like a +beetroot with excitement; I know I shall." + +"I daresay! And how should I look, I'd like to know?" queried +Christabel loftily. "Sea green, my dear. I'm sallow enough as it is, +but imagine my appearance in a yellow dress! I should present a +shocking spectacle! Nothing is so nice as pink: it suits every one, and +is so bright and pretty. Pink silk dresses, with Leghorn hats." + +Elsie grimaced in disapproving fashion. + +"So commonplace! Every one has pink. We must have something altogether +unique and striking. No use deciding now, for we will change our minds +a dozen times before the time arrives. When are you to be married, +Lilias? What is the date?" + +"My dear, I've no notion! I am not even properly engaged yet, so how +could we begin talking about marriage? I believe we are to be put on +probation for some months, so it will certainly not be this year at any +rate." + +"What a bore! I'm longing to stay with you in your own house. It's my +idea of happiness to go and stay with you girls when you are married. +You will ask us all in turns, won't you? I'd like to come with +Chrissie; and then, if you and Ned get too affectionate, we can amuse +ourselves in another room. It will be lovely having no grown-up person +in the house. Oh, well, of course, you are grown-up, if it comes to +that, but only young grown-up, and that makes all the difference. You +won't make us do things because they are `good for us'--send us a walk +when we don't feel inclined, for instance, or to bed early, or make us +eat `good plain food.' When I come to stay with you, I should like +never to go out unless I have something special to do, and to have tea +for lunch, and nice rich cake, and laze about from morning till night, +just as I felt disposed." + +"And you'll ask people to meet us, won't you, Lil, and take us about, +and give us all your old gloves and ribbons? Marie Elder's sister is +engaged, and he won't let her wear any gloves that are the l-east little +bit soiled; so Marie gets them all. I hope Ned will be fussy about your +things, too. What shall you call your house? I hope it's a nice one. +Florrie Elder is going to have a blue drawing-room, and Marie is working +her a cushion of the most ex-quisite ribbon-work you ever did see. +Florrie says she would quarrel with her nearest and dearest if he dared +to lean against it. If you like, I'll ask her for the pattern, and do +one for you. It wouldn't matter having them the same, when you live so +far apart." + +"What will Jim say? Ned and he vowed that they would be bachelors all +their lives, and live together when they were old. Now he will be +obliged to marry himself, in revenge. How I shall detest the girl! She +won't be half nice enough for him, and he will like her better than us, +and that will be horribly exasperating. I don't envy her when he brings +her to see us, that's all! Six sisters all glaring at her in a row, and +saying to themselves, `I don't like her nose!' `I don't like her eyes!' +`What a hat!' `However could he fall in love with her!' And mother +all icy kind, and father smirking behind his moustache. That's what +will happen to you one of these days, Lilias, when you go north, `on +view,' to Ned's people." + +Lilias rolled her eyes, and affected to tear her hair in despair. + +"Oh, don't! I pray you, don't! I shall die with nervousness. Poor +little me! His parents are reserved and undemonstrative, like most +North-country people, he says, but are very tender-hearted at bottom. +That means, I suppose, that they would be stiff and polite all the time +I was there, and begin slowly to unbend just as I was coming away. +Frederica, the girl, goes in for higher education, and doesn't care a +bit about going about with other girls. I know they will be +disappointed with me. Ned is so silly, and he is sure to tell them."-- +She stopped, sweetly simpering, and the hearers had little difficulty in +guessing what it was that Ned would tell his people. He would say that +his _fiancee_ was the loveliest girl in the world; that she had hair +like spun gold, a complexion of milk and roses, and eyes soft and dewy +as a violet. Then Lilias would arrive in person, and his people would +think that he had not said half enough. Each of the three hearers had a +vision of Lilias advancing to meet the new relatives with lifted eyes, +and a smile that would melt a heart of stone; each one saw in +imagination the sudden thaw on the watching faces, and beheld Lilias +installed forthwith as the pride and darling of the household. They +smiled at one another in furtive amusement, but discreetly avoided +putting their thoughts into words, for Lilias fished so transparently +for compliments, that it had become an unspoken law never on any +condition to encourage her by giving the desired assurance. + +Agatha turned aside to hide her amusement, and, the next moment, gave a +jump of astonishment. + +"Keep still! Don't move! For your lives don't look out of the window! +Sit where you are, and go on talking. My dears, he is watching us! The +Vanburgh! I distinctly saw him lean forward and stare across. He is in +the room directly opposite, and he dodged back the moment I looked. +Fancy his being as much interested in us as we are in him! How +exciting!" + +"We must look very ridiculous, sitting here in a row, chattering and +waving our hands as if we were mad. I don't wonder he stared, but I do +want to stare back. Let us take it in turns to peep beneath our +eyelashes, while the others go on talking," suggested Elsie; and the +proposal was carried out forthwith, each girl watching till the coveted +glimpse had been obtained, and informing her companions of her success +by groans and exclamations. + +"I see him, I do! He is staring across. He looks very ill. His hair +is quite white. Poor old man, how dull he must be!" + +When it came to Chrissie's turn she stared across with undisguised +curiosity, and refused to accept her sisters' reproaches when the white +head was hurriedly withdrawn from view. + +"I was the last! You had all had your turns, so I have not deprived you +of anything," she maintained. "I only meant to smile at him in a kind, +neighbourly fashion. He will look out again in a few minutes, never +fear!" + +But Mr Vanburgh's face appeared no more at the window, and it seemed as +if the knowledge that he had been observed had been so unwelcome as to +put an end to his scrutiny. The girls could only comfort themselves +with the remembrance that their mother had promised to call at the +Grange during the next few weeks, when, no doubt, first-hand information +would be forthcoming about its occupant. + + + +CHAPTER TWELVE. + +NOT AT HOME! + +After due consultation, Mr and Mrs Rendell decided to sanction a +private engagement between Lilias and Ned Talbot for a year to come, +with the understanding that if the young people remained of the same +mind, no objection would then be put in the way of their speedy +marriage; and as they would be allowed to correspond, and to meet as +often as opportunity offered, the decision was received with +satisfaction by the lovers. Lilias complacently settled to be married +in fifteen months' time, and was resigned to a probation sweetened by +the receipt of constant letters, presents, and adulation; while Ned, +with characteristic honesty, confessed in his own heart that he had no +very deep acquaintance with his beloved's character, and that he could +not be better employed than in the study of the same. Lilias's +exquisite girlish beauty had so dazzled his senses, that he had been shy +and ill at ease in her presence, and their conversations together had +been of the lightest, most impersonal nature. It would be an entrancing +occupation to discover all the hidden charms possessed by this sweetest +of created beings; for, like most young men, Ned was convinced that a +lovely body must needs be an index to a lovely mind, and that beauty of +face was but a reflection from the soul within. Every month that passed +would draw Lilias and himself more closely together, as each came to +know and understand the depths of the other's nature. So Ned told +himself happily, as he came down to Thurston House for his first visit +in the new character, a week after the all-important interview. + +Lilias met him at the door, and led him into the drawing-room, all +fragrant with spring flowers and plants. She looked like a flower +herself, with her soft pink and white colouring, and to the last day of +his life Ned Talbot could never inhale the fragrance of a narcissus or a +hyacinth without a spasm of painful remembrance. It brought back so +vividly the intoxicating joy of that meeting. They talked together in +lover-like fashion, Lilias alternately shy and reticent, and queening it +over him with absurd little airs of authority, at which he laughed with +a lover's delight, until presently a tap came to the door, and Agatha's +face peeped round the corner to announce that tea had been taken out to +the garden, and to ask if the lovers would rather come out, or, have it +sent to them indoors. + +"Here, please," said Lilias. + +"Oh, we'll come out certainly," cried Ned in the same moment, and then +turned to her with a smile of apology. + +"If you don't mind, dear! I want to see Maud. She was out when I left +the other day, you remember, and I can't feel that I am really received +into the family until Maud has given me her blessing." + +"Just as you wish, of course. It does seem a pity to stay indoors when +the weather is so glorious!" assented Lilias readily. Though inwardly +annoyed that she should have appeared more anxious than Ned for an +extension of their _tete-a-tete_, she was far too proud to show her +vexation. Nothing could have appeared more ready or more natural than +the manner in which she rose from her seat and slipped her hand through +Agatha's arm; but even while she smiled and chatted she was registering +a vow to punish Mr Ned on the first opportunity. + +Out in the garden Maud sat, busying herself with the teacups and nerving +herself to face the dreaded moment, as footsteps approached nearer and +nearer her seat. + +"Maud!" cried Ned, and gripped her hand with affectionate fervour, "I +was longing to see you. It seemed too bad going away without a word +from you the other day. We have so much to say to one another!" + +"Yes, indeed; but meantime I must pour out the tea! Are you going to +make yourself useful and hand round the cups?" replied a laughing, self- +possessed voice, which Maud hardly recognised as her own. It was easier +to play a part than she had expected: the looking forward had been worse +than the reality; and, as she met her mother's smile and Nan's approving +glance, she even began to feel a dreary pride in her own composure. +Lilias had seated herself between two of her sisters, an intentional +revenge for the slight which she considered herself to have received, +and Ned was therefore left free to devote himself to his old friend. + +"Of course you saw--you knew what was coming," he whispered +confidentially, when the general conversation made it possible to +exchange a quiet remark. "I realised that I gave myself away by my +awkwardness and stupidity whenever she was present, but I was powerless +to prevent it. And you were so good to me, Maud, always doing your best +to help and make things easy. I can never be grateful enough for your +friendship. I am so thankful to feel that you are at home still. It +seems an assurance of safety; for you'll look after her, and see that +she gets into no danger through all this long year of waiting." + +He looked at her appealingly, and she gave a forced little laugh. + +"Oh yes, I'll ward off the beasts of prey. There are so many, you know, +roving about this sleepy place. She will meet so many dangers!" + +"Don't laugh at me! I can't help being anxious. She is so young and +child-like, and there are dangers everywhere. Illness, accident, +infection. I shall think of them when I am far away, and worry myself +to death. But you are a bulwark of strength, Maud, and if you will take +her in charge--" + +Maud laughed again. It seemed so ridiculous to think of any of her +sisters promising to take Lilias in charge! Lilias, the most cool- +headed, independent, and self-confident member of the family. She was +infinitely more capable of taking care of the whole family than the +family was of influencing her movements; but Ned could not be expected +to realise as much, and he was obviously wounded by the absence of +expected sympathy. + +An exclamation from Christabel, calling attention to Kitty Maitland's +figure crossing the lawn, came as a welcome interruption, and Ned took +the opportunity to cross to a seat on the other side of the group, while +Maud watched his departure with mingled relief and concern. + +"He thinks I am hard and prosaic, and is disappointed in me. Well, +better so! He won't confide his rhapsodies in my ear any more, and that +would be really more than I could bear. The old days are over, and he +must look elsewhere for sympathy." + +Meantime Kitty had seated herself on the grass, and was proceeding to +account for her appearance. + +"Please I hope you don't object to my coming back so soon! Mummy has +gone with father to call on Mr Vanburgh, and I walked with them to the +Grange, and came in here to wait until she comes out. She put on all +her new things, and looks a perfect duck. I expect he will like her +awfully, and I told her to introduce my name into the conversation as +often as possible. `My daughter likes this'; `My daughter likes that'; +`As my little girl says to me';--that sort of thing, don't you know, +just to attract his attention. Perhaps he will tell her to bring me +with her next time she calls, or even ask me to tea by myself. He may +have nieces or grandchildren who will come to stay, and then it would be +useful to know a girl in the neighbourhood. I think he is certain to +ask me--" + +"Mother!" interrupted Chrissie shrilly; and her voice was so sharp with +distress that every one stopped talking, to listen to what she had to +say. "Mother, Mrs Maitland has gone to see Mr Vanburgh before you! I +asked you to go! I had set my heart on your being the first caller; and +now it's too late, and you can only be second. I told you so! I _said_ +how it would be!" + +Mrs Rendell lifted her brows with the little surprised air of reproof +which Chrissie knew so well. + +"I regret to have disappointed you, my dear," she replied, with +elaborate politeness; "but I fear I should hardly have been the first +caller, even if I had gone the day after my return, and I have been too +much occupied this week to pay outside visits. I am sure you will be +delighted to hear Mrs Maitland's report, and will not grudge Kitty the +pleasure, if she makes Mr Vanburgh's acquaintance before yourself." + +Chrissie collapsed into silence; but, veiled by her thickly-flowing +hair, she grimaced to herself and scowled at her friend, who was +regarding her with that air of enjoyment which it is impossible not to +feel when a companion receives a nice little snub for her pains! + +Agatha and Elsie had already begun to invent forecasts of the news which +Mrs Maitland would have to tell, when, to the amazement of all, who +should appear round the corner of the house but that lady herself! She +carried her card-case in her hand, and waved her hand in greeting; but, +for once in their lives, the girls were too much overcome with surprise +to respond. + +Back already, when she had barely had time to go up to the door and +retrace her steps! What did it mean? Not at home? But Mr Vanburgh +was always at home. According to report, his farthest expedition was +into the garden, where surely he would be able to receive a visitor on a +bright spring afternoon. Surprise held them dumb, until Mrs Maitland +had reached speaking distance, when, with one accord, they deafened her +with inquiries, to which she did her best to reply after the first +greetings were over. + +"How do you do, Mrs Rendell? Good afternoon, Mr Talbot. I am one of +the privileged _few_ who have been told your secret, and I wish you +every happiness, and dear Lilias also. I tell every engaged couple I +meet that I hope they may only be as happy as I am. My dear children, +don't pull me to pieces; this is my very best dress! I'll tell you all +about it in a minute. I am so glad to have this opportunity of seeing +you all together, for I was longing to come over. May I sit here? +Well, then, to begin at the beginning..." + +She put her card-case on her lap, and clasped her hands together in +preparation, and the girls watched her with approving eyes, for Mrs +Maitland was a most satisfactory story-teller. She began at the +beginning--the very smallest possible beginning--instead of halfway +through the narrative, as other grown-up people had a habit of doing, +and went straight through to the end, noticing every detail, and +describing it in racy, picturesque language. + +"Well, we went up to the door and rang the bell. It is not an ordinary +everyday bell, but a quaint, wrought-iron handle, hanging on a chain +from a sort of signpost arrangement, and I could hear it pealing away in +most melodious fashion inside the house. The curtain inside the glass +panels of the door was caught slightly back, and I could get a peep into +the vestibule. The oak has been left untouched, and there are palms on +either side sunk into great pots of copper with snakes and dragons and +all kinds of uncanny animals standing out in relief. I was still +peering through when the inner door was thrown open, and the butler +appeared, upon which I straightened myself at once, and tried to look +stately and dignified. I had just one minute to take in the inner hall, +so cannot tell you much about it, except that it is a perfect museum of +wonderful and beautiful things--pieces of tapestry hung on the walls, +carved oak cabinets full of curios, a figure of a knight in armour, and +curious Eastern-looking lamps burning dimly in the distance; but the +butler looked so very solemn and imposing that I dared not stare as much +as I should have liked. `Is Mr Vanburgh at home?' I asked; and he +inclined his head in a gracious bow. `He is at home, madam, but is not +receiving visitors.' I drew out my cards, and said, `I am sorry to miss +seeing him. I hope he is not more unwell than usual to-day?' He bowed +again, like a mechanical figure, and said, `Mr Vanburgh charges me to +say, madam, that as he is unable to return visits, he must deprive +himself of the pleasure of receiving them while in Waybourne.' I never +felt so small in my life. Dismissed on the doorstep, and sent away like +a child! I don't know how I looked, or what I said. My one idea was to +get out of the man's sight as quickly as possible; and the door had no +sooner closed on him than I began dreading Kit's disappointment. It was +a most trying experience! Father has gone for a walk, and I came in to +break the news to you!" + +She looked appealingly at Kitty as she finished, and met a glance of +blackest gloom. This was indeed a blow. Not only were there no Miss +Vanburghs, but the only Vanburgh who was left refused to open his door +to visitors! + +"Piteous!" cried Chrissie; and Agatha struck her hands together in +despair. + +"There ought to be a law about it--a law to prevent hermits from buying +the best houses in a neighbourhood. Does he mean to say that he will +see nobody?" she cried. "Perhaps he didn't know who you were, Mrs +Maitland. He takes an interest in us, we know, for we have _seen_ him +staring across. Perhaps if he had known you belonged to Kitty, it might +have been different. Mother, you will go all the same, won't you? You +won't give up without trying?" + +Mrs Rendell shrugged her shoulders. + +"I am not particularly anxious to be turned away from the door, and I +see no reason why I should be treated better than Mrs Maitland. The +servant is evidently entrusted with a general message. I think the best +thing will be to send father across on Saturday afternoon, to see if the +rule applies to ladies only. If Mr Vanburgh really wants to be quiet, +we can't force ourselves upon him. I am sorry the Grange is not let to +more interesting people, but we must make the best of it. It has +evidently been chosen as a museum in which to store a collection of art +treasures, and, after all, you must remember it is no more closed to us +now than it has been for years past." + +"Dear me, no! We can live without the Grange, I hope. Let the poor old +dear shut himself up if he likes. He will be the loser, not we!" cried +Mrs Maitland, laughing. That was the worst of grown-up people! They +were so aggravatingly reasonable and resigned! + + + +CHAPTER THIRTEEN. + +DIOGENES AT THE WINDOW. + +After a storm comes a calm. As in Nature, so in the affairs of human +life, and the Rendells found another example of the truth of the old +adage in the month following Lilias's engagement. Nothing seemed to +happen; even the interest which had been taken in the new occupant of +the Grange died away after Mr Rendell's failure to gain admission, and +one day jog--trotted away after another in monotonous fashion. + +They were dreary days to Maud, but at the end of even the longest and +dreariest she acknowledged to herself that the battle was not so +hopeless as she had expected. The trouble was there, the difficult +moments arose, the quick stabs of pain following happy memories, but she +herself was strengthened to bear them in a manner which she could not +have believed possible. Maud was one of the sweet, open characters who +are religious by nature; but though she had asked for God's help every +night of her life, she had never been conscious of its presence in such +abundance as in this hour of trial. It almost awed her at times to +realise her own strength, and this testing of the power of faith was a +ray of light shining out of the darkness. Passages from the Bible which +she had known all her life became suddenly instinct with new and +wonderful meaning; the words of Christ went straight home to her sore +heart and comforted it as no earthly power could do. The new communion +had a joy and a sweetness which she had never known before, and her +character grew daily stronger and deeper under the influence of sorrow +nobly borne. Her mother's tenderness, moreover, manifested itself in a +hundred little schemes for her distraction, and Nan's demonstrative +affection heartened her for the fight. The world was not all lost +because Ned had chosen another; and, so far from neglecting her old +duties, Maud worked away more industriously than ever, finding her best +medicine in a busy, occupied life. + +Ned Talbot had gone back to the North, whence he could not return for +two months to come, and Lilias settled down contentedly to play the +interesting part of the _fiancee_. She did not fret for her lover, but +seemed abundantly content to receive his letters, and pen lengthy +answers; and though the date of her marriage was so far ahead, she began +at once to make preparations for her future home. One rainy afternoon +she shut herself in her bedroom, and rearranged all her belongings, +leaving the lowest drawer in the wardrobe empty, and covered with fresh +white paper. Then she wrote something at her desk, lingered outside the +door for a minute, and finally rejoined her sisters, with a mischievous +smile curving the corners of her pretty lips. + +Presently Chrissie ran upstairs on some trifling errand, and came to a +stand-still on the landing, uttering sharp cries of surprise; then +Agatha followed to discover the cause of the excitement, and guffawed +with laughter, when Nan and Elsie jumped from their chairs and ran +helter-skelter in pursuit. They found the two younger girls leaning up +against the wall, staring at the door of Lilias's room, on the centre of +which was tacked a square of paper, neatly lined and lettered:-- + +NOTICE! + +TO ALL WHOM IT MAY CONCERN. + + Miss Lilias Rendell desires to inform her friends and the public + generally that she has just opened a Bottom Drawer, and that every + description of household goods, useful and ornamental, will be + gratefully accepted towards the furnishing of her future home. + + _NB_--Carved oak articles especially welcome! + +"That's one for me!" cried Nan, grimacing. "What is your especial +fancy, my love--a side-board or a dining-room table? Don't be bashful, +pray! Aim at the sky, and you may succeed in hitting the tree. I +shouldn't wonder if I rose to a milking-stool, if you asked me nicely." + +"And I'll work you a kettle-holder, sweet one, as soon as the sale is +over, and Chrissie a--" + +"Twine bag," said Chrissie, simpering; "but until July you might as well +give up the idea, Lilias. Every moment we have, we must use for sale- +work, and every penny we can save in to the bargain. We can't attend to +you just yet." + +"I thought perhaps you might start me with a few contributions from the +things you have made," said modest Lilias. "The drawer looks lonesome +with nothing in it, and I've made it so tidy! It would be a comfortable +home for that little blue cushion, and the mats with the roses. And you +would never miss them!" + +"Wouldn't we just? The very best things we have! It is a pity your +modesty doesn't equal your taste. I should miss the smallest thing we +have made; and whenever I get low-spirited, I turn them all out of the +box and gloat over the collection--eleven pin-cushions, three sets of +mats, a table centre, three work-bags, two handkerchief sachets, six +babies' shoes, and a nice wool shawl! It's not bad for a start, and +there are lots of things on hand, besides Nan's carving and brass-work. +It would be like tearing my heart out of my body to give anything away, +and I don't think it would be at all a nice idea to start your +collection by stealing from the poor!" + +Lilias looked appalled at the suggestion, but all the same she was not +too much shocked to seize on the chance of future spoils. + +"Agatha, how can you? I am the last person in the world to think of +such a thing. I suggested the sale, remember; you would not have had it +at all but for me; but how could a little thing like a pin-cushion be +called a theft? However, it's all right; don't give them me at present +if you would rather not. After the sale there are sure to be some +things left, and then--You would not mind giving them to me then, I +suppose?" + +"Certainly not. At least I am quite willing if the others are," said +Agatha, looking round inquiringly; upon which Nan and Elsie nodded +assent, and Chrissie bargained, "Unless I am engaged myself by that +time, when, of course, they must be equally divided,"--a contingency so +remote that Lilias congratulated herself on a good morning's work, and +felt that so far as pin-cushions were concerned the future held no +further anxiety. + +Work for the sale had, indeed, been carried forward with great zest; and +now that the days were lengthening, there was a good two hours after +tea, when Kitty could join the party in the porch-room, and stitch away +at some dainty task while carrying on that breathless stream of +conversation which never seemed to run short, despite the daily +meetings. Nan brought down her carving, and worked at a little table of +her own; Elsie cut and planned with delicate, accurate fingers; and the +three younger girls sewed away in characteristic fashion: Agatha bending +double over the seam; Christabel, erect and stately, drawing her thread +to its full length with leisurely, dignified movements; and Kitty, with +her spectacles on the tip of her nose, peering over them from time to +time in grandmotherly concern at the frivolity of her companions. + +Nothing more had been discovered about "Diogenes," as Mr Vanburgh had +been nicknamed since his refusal to receive visitors; but on fine days +his couch was wheeled close to the window, and as he lay looking out, it +was inevitable that the movements of the girls in the sunny porch-room +immediately opposite should attract his wandering attention. When they +glanced across in their turn, he politely turned aside, and appeared +engrossed in his book; but no sooner were they at work again than the +tired eyes would be lifted once more, to dwell with wistful interest on +the bright young faces. One afternoon in especial, as Nan sat bending +over her carving, the conviction strengthened that she was observed. +She peered under her eyelashes, smiled mischievously to herself, and +suddenly leapt from her seat in a manner most startling to the nerves of +her sisters. She hopped on one foot and waved her arms in the air; she +swooped down on Chrissie's work and threw it wildly to the ceiling; she +thrust her face into Elsie's and went off into a peal of maniacal +laughter, which sent that nervous young person flying to the farthest +corner. She seized a bundle of ribbons and danced an impromptu skirt +dance, flourishing them to and fro, while he onlookers scuttled together +like rabbits, and felt that their lives trembled in the balance. +Finally, after succeeding in turning the room topsy-turvy, and raising +the most powerful doubts as to her own sanity, Miss Nan tottered out on +to the landing and collapsed in a breathless heap on the lowest stair, +while her sisters looked on askance from a discreet distance. + +"H-have some sal volatile! I'll get it from my room. Never mind, dear, +you'll be better soon!" stuttered Elsie fearfully; but at that the crazy +creature laughed afresh, though in a more restrained and natural +fashion. + +"Oh no; I am not mad! I did it for a purpose, my dear, as you shall +hear. That poor old Diogenes was lying on his couch, looking across +with such a dull, pathetic face, and I felt so sorry that the poor dear +had nothing more exciting to amuse him. He must be precious dull when +he takes so much interest in girls like us, and I felt grieved to think +how little fun we had given him, sitting sewing day after day like so +many machines. I says to myself, says I, `It is in your power, Margaret +Rendell, to infuse some brightness into the lot of this poor lonely +sufferer, and you are going to do it! He shall have some excitement +before the day is over, bless him!' Therefore, as you perceived, I +executed a new and original war-dance for his benefit, and sent you all +attitudinising about the room. That's the reason of this thusness, and +Diogenes is now, no doubt, full of agitation, believing that one so +young and fair has suddenly lost her wits, and imagining you all +occupied in binding me to the bedpost till help arrives!" + +"I don't know how he feels, but I feel extremely ill!" grumbled Elsie, +her sympathy suddenly changed to resentment. "Sticking your face into +mine and laughing in that crazy fashion. Never do it again! My heart +is right up in my throat, and thumping like a steam-engine. I can't +work any more. I am going to recover my equanimity in the garden!" + +Poor Diogenes! It was baffling to curiosity that all the actors should +have disappeared at the most exciting moment of the play; and the actors +themselves were fully aware of the fact, and with child-like enjoyment +determined to lengthen out the mystery. The porch-room was abandoned +for the afternoon, and such sequestered nooks in the garden as were +invisible from the Grange were chosen as resting-places, while Kitty +willingly consented to walk an extra half-mile on her way home, so as to +avoid going out by the front gate. Such a reversal of the usual comings +and goings would, it was hoped, give the final touch to Mr Vanburgh's +curiosity, and teach him a wholesome lesson on the folly of shutting +himself up and holding no communication with the world. When Agatha +suggested that the poor old dear might lie awake all night from +agitation, Nan cold-bloodedly hoped that he would, since he, on his +part, had been so cruel as to shut the doors of the Grange against his +neighbours. + +She would have been much surprised if she had known how, and for whom, +those doors would first be opened! + + + +CHAPTER FOURTEEN. + +A VISIT OF CEREMONY. + +At the beginning of May the first returning ray of brightness came into +Maud's life. A letter arrived from a friend of the family who had been +living abroad for her daughter's education, and had now reached Paris, +preparatory to returning to England in a month's time. It had been all +work and no play for the girl during the winter, her mother wrote, and +it had been long promised that the month in Paris should be entirely +given over to pleasure-seeking. Mabel had drawn out a programme so +lengthy and varied, that Mrs Nevins doubted whether she herself would +have strength to go through it. One thing at least was certain, that +the girl's enjoyment would be doubled by the presence of a companion of +her own age, who would be able to share her ecstasies, as a tired-out, +middle-aged woman could never do. Therefore, might Maud come? Could +Maud be spared for a month to give Mabel the very great pleasure of her +society? She should have every care, and be brought back to London +early in June. + +Mrs Rendell carried the letter up to Maud as she practised in her room, +and handed it to her with a smile; and Maud flushed and paled, and laid +her hand affectionately on her little mother's shoulder. + +"Mummy! how much from you, and how much from Mrs Nevins? You have had +something to do with this, I'm sure you have. The suggestion came from +you in the first instance!" + +"Pooh! What a child! Such notions as she takes!" cried Mrs Rendell +laughingly. "How it comes about is little matter; you don't need to be +told how truly delighted Mabel will be to have you. You can believe in +that, at least. And Paris! You have always wanted to go to Paris, +dear!" + +"Yes, mother, I have. Oh yes, always!" Maud smiled bravely, trying +hard to appear as pleased and elated as her mother expected. It was not +the first, nor the second, nor the twentieth time that she had +discovered schemes for her own benefit during the last few weeks. +School friends had been invited on visits; books for which she had +wished had opportunely arrived from town; concert tickets had been +purchased with unprecedented frequency. Maud fully appreciated the +kindly purpose of these attentions, and, to a certain extent, enjoyed +the amusements provided; but she was conscious of a dreary regret that +these long-wished-for pleasures should arrive at a time when it was +impossible to throw herself into them with whole-hearted enjoyment. The +regret was particularly keen at this moment, for to her, as to so many +girls, the first trip abroad had been the dream of a lifetime, and a +pang came with the realisation of how different from her expectations +the realisation must be. The ache at her heart would cloud the +brightness of the beautiful city,--she would look at everything, as it +were, through a veil of crape. The tears rose to her eyes despite all +her efforts, and she turned hastily aside, fearing that her mother might +think her ungrateful for receiving the news in such churlish fashion. +Mrs Rendell, however, affected to notice nothing unusual, and talked +away in cheery accents, discussing various practical matters concerning +the proposed visit, in which it was impossible not to feel an interest. +Maud's tears dried gradually; she found herself suggesting amendments to +the plans, and growing momentarily more interested and eager. She was +to be entrusted with a sum of money with which to buy presents for her +sisters, besides a well-filled purse for her own use. She and Mabel +could choose their summer clothes together, amid the bewildering +fascinations of Parisian fashions; and there was absolutely no limit in +the amount of sight-seeing permissible. She could run the whole gamut, +from the Louvre to the Catacombs, and get to know her Paris almost as +well as she knew her London. What girl of twenty-three would not feel +her woes assuaged by such a programme, especially in the company of a +bosom friend to whom she had been devoted from childhood? + +Mr and Mrs Rendell rejoiced to see Maud's brightening face, and to +hear her voice raised to its old happy ring, as she busied herself with +preparations for her journey; and Nan rejoiced as much as they, and +racked her brains to discover how she could best assist in the same +preparations. + +"Let me do some sewing for you! Do let me help!" she pleaded, and +proceeded to stitch up the seams entrusted to her with such +unprecedented care and neatness, that Maud hid the garments at the +bottom of her box, not having the heart to disclose that the seams were +on the wrong side, and must needs be as laboriously unpicked! She upset +a box of tooth-powder over a blue serge skirt; squeezed a bundle of +boots on the top of a chiffon bodice, and went beaming downstairs, +feeling that at last she had learned to be domesticated and to render +efficient service! + +Maud departed smiling and cheery, and all the members of the family drew +a breath of relief as she drove off from the door. The secret +consciousness of her suffering had been a cloud over their spirits for +the past month, and now, as was only natural, a reaction set in, when +restrained spirits found their vent. + +Mr and Mrs Rendell went up to town for a couple of nights to attend a +dinner-party and reception, and the girls discussed how they could best +organise a little festivity on their own account. It was decided to +hold the first picnic of the season, bicycling to a favourite spot in +the woods, where primroses and bluebells were luxuriant, and to invite +Mrs Maitland and Miss Phelps to drive up in a pony cart stored with +provisions for an out-of-door tea. Everything was arranged--cakes were +baked, sandwiches cut, cream and milk corked up in bottles, and a basket +packed with every requisite--when, "of course," as Elsie had it, the +rain descended in sheets, and the project was frustrated. + +The usual scene of grumbling and ejaculating followed, before the girls +could resign themselves to their fate. To settle down to practise and +study seemed unbearably dreary after looking forward to such a charming +excursion; but there was nothing else to be done, so they marched +sulkily to their different occupations, and did not meet again until +after four o'clock. Then the schoolroom party joined Lilias in the +library, and were about to summon Nan from the attic, when Mary entered, +bringing a card on a salver. + +Some one had been brave enough to face the elements, and pay a call in +the midst of a downpour of rain. Whom could it be? Lilias examined the +card with curious eyes, and turned in surprise towards her sisters. + +"Miss Thacker! Don't know her from Adam. Who in the world is Miss +Thacker?" + +"Oh--er--er--Wait a moment and I'll remember!" cried Agatha, ruffling +her hair in reflection. "I've heard the name, I'm sure--I know! She's +the creature who's come to Willow Cottage. She called once before, and +mother said she could not for the life of her decide whether she was +quite mad, or only three-quarters. What can she want?" + +"Have to go and see, I suppose. Or stay, I'll bring her in here, to +have some tea, and then you can help me to entertain her; but whatever +you do, don't laugh! It's awfully bad form to make fun of a visitor." +And Lilias left the room, to return followed by a tall female figure, +which certainly approached perilously near the grotesque in appearance. + +An old-fashioned poke bonnet and a gauze veil shaded a solemn white +face, braids of red hair fell over the cheeks, horn-rimmed spectacles +covered the eyes, while the absence of two front teeth gave a singularly +blank and unpleasant expression to the mouth. A merino shawl was folded +across the shoulders, and a venerable silk skirt dripped with rain upon +the carpet. An extraordinary-looking figure indeed; and it would appear +that eccentricity was not confined to appearance only, for the stranger +returned the girls' salutations with wriggles of the body, and began at +once to talk in a soft guttural voice, running her words together +without any stops, and at such express train speed that every now and +then she was obliged to stop short, and give a deep gasp of exhaustion. + +"S-S-Sorry your mother is from mome me dears quite counted on finding +her rat ome. Said to myself at lunch must go and see Mrs Rendell +s'afternoon such a kind woman full of sympathy for rothers! Hurried out +and thought as had come so far might come in and see Miss Rendell as +servant said at tome and disengaged!" + +The big mouth opened in a gasp for breath, which was heard throughout +the room, and Lilias stammered out a dismayed assent. + +"Certainly--of course. So glad you did. If I can do anything I shall +be most pleased--" + +"Of course, my dear. Your mother's daughter. Knew it by your face. +Not tany tea, thank you, bad for digestion enjoyed bad health for many +years and can only stay a minute. Called at four rouses already to-day +with no result. Breaks your rart to see the callous sardness of the +human race, every luxury and ease themselves and cold as sice to others. +Wouldn't believe it unless you were present to see rebuffs si get. +Ladies not a mile from this souse--could mention names but won't--pay +pounds and pounds for gloves and dats and not talf-a-crown to spare for +crying need, but said to myself all day, Mrs Rendell will help! I'll +get ta welcome there!" + +"Oh yes, I'm sure mother would be pleased," stammered Lilias, more and +more puzzled to understand the drift of the strange woman's remarks. +From the farther end of the room a little squeaky sound was heard, +elaborately turned into a cough. Lilias grew hot with embarrassment, +and Miss Thacker peered suspiciously over her spectacles as she produced +a circular from her satchel and handed it over for inspection. It bore +the heading "Waybourne Home for Incurables," and set forth a plea for +help with which the girl was already familiar. She read it over, +however, once and yet again, puzzling her head meantime as to what to do +next. To refuse to give a donation was to class one's self at once +among those whose "callous sardness" had been denounced, and Lilias's +love of appreciation was so intense, that even before this unlovely +stranger she could not bear to appear in an unfavourable light. She +determined to delay the evil moment, and leave to her mother the +unpleasant task of refusal; for it seemed in the last degree unlikely +that Mrs Rendell would desire to supplement her ordinary subscription +by a gift to an unauthorised collector. + +"I am very sorry you should have had your walk in the rain," she said +sweetly, "but, of course, in mother's absence I can make no promises. +She will be home the day after to-morrow, if you could call again to see +her." + +She flattered herself that she had evaded the difficulty very cleverly, +but Miss Thacker rounded on her in unexpected fashion. + +"Shouldn't dream of asking you my love. Too much respect for your dear +mother but wished to appeal to young and generous sarts like self and +sisters! Any contribution however small! Every little helps. Most +grateful I am sure, subscription or donation?" + +"But--but," Lilias heard three separate gasps of dismay from the window, +and realising that no help was forthcoming from that quarter, nerved +herself to the unpleasant task. + +"We should like to subscribe very much indeed, if we could, but we have +only a small allowance, and at present are doing all we can to assist +another charity. I fear that we cannot spare any more money--" + +Miss Thacker peered at her solemnly through her spectacles, and shook +her head from side to side. + +"Ah, yes, my dear, can if you will! Every luxury and comfort, cup +overflowing, only Will is lacking. Look into your rart and ask yourself +what can I deny myself for rothers? Some worldly bauble, some article +of adornment which you had planned to get, which you could do without, +and reap pa rich reward. What is a hat, a dress, a fan, compared to the +succour rof suffering garts?" + +Now, as it happened, Lilias was bound for town the very next day to buy +a supply of those fineries which her soul loved, so that this suggestion +was so aptly timed as to strike her dumb with confusion. She could have +gushed over the poor incurables for an hour on end; was ready to shed +tears at a recital of their woes; but to give up a new hat in order to +devote the money to their use, this was a flight of generosity to which +Miss Lilias Rendell could never attain! She grew hot with anger at the +inconsiderateness of the stranger in proposing such a sacrifice, hotter +than ever at the thought of the three young sisters agape to hear her +answer. Here was a pretty alternative, to consent and go without some +detail of her summer outfit, or to refuse and be branded as vain and +selfish? Lilias chose a middle course, and, extracting half a crown +from her purse, handed it over with melancholy resignation. + +"I shall be pleased to give you a small donation, but I would rather my +name did not appear in your list. Put it down as from a friend." + +"Or a Giver--a Cheerful Giver!" cried Miss Thacker, with an accent on +the adjective which brought the blood into Lilias's cheeks. The +wretched woman seemed to have fathomed her reluctance, and to be +scoffing at her beneath a pretence of approval; but surely, now that she +had got what she wanted, she would take her departure, and end this most +trying scene. She made a little movement of dismissal, whereupon Miss +Thacker glanced appealingly at the window. + +"And our rother dear young friends," she was beginning, when suddenly +she put her hands up to her face and made a curious spluttering noise, +at sound of which the sisters started in dismay. She recovered herself +at once, and continued her harangue with redoubled energy; but suspicion +had been aroused, and could not easily be allayed. That laugh! It had +been so like, so extraordinarily like; and yet that hair--that +complexion--those missing teeth! It could not be! Chrissie drew nearer +and nearer, staring at the stranger with searching scrutiny, met a +direct glance of the eyes, and straightway flew upon her, wrenching off +bonnet and veil, and twitching the horn-rimmed glasses from her nose. +She squeaked and struggled, and fought the air with her woollen gloves, +but it was of no avail: there she sat, discovered and exposed, with +Nan's dark tresses streaming down behind the auburn front, Nan's +dimpling smile breaking over the whitened face. + +"Such callous sardness! Dragged my hair out by the roots! Is that the +way you treat your visitors, my dear young friends?" she stuttered; but +her dear young friends had no sympathy for her woes, and crowded round +her, breathless with indignation. + +"Wretched, miserable girl, so it was you all the time! What made you do +it?" + +"Wanted to amuse you on a wet day, and couldn't think of anything +better. Did I do it well?" + +"Abominably well! I could never have believed we should have been so +deceived. How you managed to disguise your voice I can't think, and to +make yourself look so awful. You are as white as a clown; and your +teeth, Nan! What has become of your teeth?" + +"Covered them with black sticking-plaster, that's all. Not even for +your benefit, my dears, could I extract my two front molars. I smeared +my face with cold cream, and then rubbed in flour. Sticky, but +efficacious, and sucked a chocolate all the time, to make my voice +thick. I'll swallow it now." Nan gulped, and rolled her eyes in +expressive enjoyment. "When I was dressed, I stole downstairs, let +myself out of the side gate, and rang at the bell as bold as brass. +Mary did not recognise me, so I felt I was safe; but my one terror was +lest you should go upstairs to call me down." + +"And you found all the clothes in the dressing-up box! It is so long +since we used it that I had almost forgotten the dear old things. The +shawl and skirt I recognise, of course, but you have trimmed the bonnet +yourself. I will say for you, my dear, that you made the most appalling +old woman I have ever encountered." + +"But I don't quite approve of making fun of anything so very, very sad +as those dear incurables!" said Lilias solemnly. "Well, perhaps you +didn't make fun of them exactly, but it was not quite a nice subject to +choose for a practical joke. We ought to think of them tenderly.--By +the by, I want that half-crown, Nan. Give it back to me!" + +"N-ay!" drawled Nan, shaking her head, and speaking in broad, North- +country dialect, "N-ay, lass! I'll none give it oop. It mun bide with +me till I dee! I'll give you back good coin of the realm instead, but +this precious piece is mine, and shall be pierced with a hole, and +chained to my side, to commemorate the occasion. It will be good for +you as well as for me. You can look at it, and remember how generous +you were!" + +"Humph!" said Lilias, and turned to the tea-table to pour out the long- +delayed tea. It was too strong to drink; and when Mary appeared in +response to the bell, it was a treat to see her stagger back at the +sight of the dishevelled figure in the arm-chair, and to watch the smile +of benign condescension with which Nan wrinkled up her face and inclined +her red-brown head. + +Mary was an old friend of the family, and on sufficiently intimate terms +to express her opinion in terms unchequered by forms of politeness. She +wished to be informed what Miss Nan would be up to next, and repeated +with unction her own description of the "Hugliest old woman you ever set +eyes on," as given to cook in the kitchen, ten minutes earlier. "We've +been talking about you ever since, and wondering what you were after." + +This was fame indeed! The girls shared in the reflected glory of Nan's +performance, and only regretted that it had not been witnessed by a +larger audience, while Chrissie, in especial, bewailed the absence of +her _alter ego_. + +"Kitty will never forgive us if she doesn't see you," she declared. +"Oh, Nan, do go and call upon Mrs Maitland! Then Kitty would see you, +and you might get some more money from her! It would be the most +splendid fun. Oh, Nan, do! I'll love you for ever, if you will!" + +Elsie and Agatha swelled the chorus by groans of appeal, and Nan visibly +wavered. She could do nothing until she had had tea, she declared, but +after that, if the rain grew less heavy, she would consider the matter; +and hesitation being taken for assent, she was plied with cake and +waited upon with obsequious attention. The elements seemed in favour of +the scheme, for, by the time that tea was finished, the downpour was +exchanged for a gentle drizzle, which could afford no excuse to a +weather-proof creature like Nan Rendell. She was therefore shawled and +bonneted once more, escorted to the front door by a giggling and excited +quartette, and set off forthwith to tramp half a mile of muddy high +road, half abashed at finding herself abroad in such a strange guise, +altogether delighted at the madcap nature of the expedition. + +The visit to Mrs Maitland was a huge success, for Kitty sat staring +solemnly over her spectacles, while her mother had obviously much ado +not to laugh outright at the eccentricities of her visitor. In the +matter of donations she presented a firmer front than Lilias had done, +but Nan would not allow herself to be foiled without a struggle. When +Mrs Maitland said bravely, "I cannot see my way to giving anything more +at present," she bridled as with indignation, and replied-- + +"But you must not consider yourself, you must consider Me! Here am I, +tramping through mud and mire, drenched with rain, and chilled with +cold; here rare you in your comfortable home, surrounded with luxury and +dease, and you turn a deaf ear to the cause si plead, and let me toil in +vain. No! I cannot gaze upon your good, kind face, and believe in such +callous sardness ... The smallest trifle, if it be but half a crown--" + +Well, it seemed a cheap price to pay to get rid of the terrible +creature! Like Lilias, Mrs Maitland meekly handed over the desired +coin, and rose to her feet with an air of determination. + +"And now, if you will excuse me! I am rather busy, and--" + +Nan bowed and smirked, then suddenly swooped across the room to where +Kitty sat, her arms stretched wide in invitation. + +"And will the dear child give me a sweet kiss before ri go?" + +The consternation of the "dear child" and her mother can be imagined; +but discovery came with the next moment, together with such shriekings +of delight, such shakings and scoldings, such questionings and +exclaimings, as were proper to the occasion. Nan returned home in high +glee, chuckling over the success of the afternoon's escapade, and far +from suspecting that the chief adventure still was to come. Such was +the fact, however, and this is the way in which it happened. + +She had passed along the high road in safety, meeting few inhabitants, +owing to the inclemency of the weather, and looking forward with delight +to the welcome which she would receive from her sisters. Presently +Thurston House came in view, and, sure enough, there were four excited +heads bobbing to and fro at the window, four broad beams of amusement to +testify to the grotesqueness of her appearance. Nan lifted a solemn +glance in return, and Chrissie, seized with a sudden demon of mischief, +pointed a forefinger at the door opposite, and gesticulated violently in +its direction. As plainly as words could speak, that forefinger said, +"Call at the Grange! There's an adventure for you, if you like! Beard +the lion in his den. I dare you to do it! You dare not go!" + +It was done on the impulse of the moment, and on the impulse of the +moment Nan turned and skipped obediently across the street. She never +thought of possible consequences; her one idea was to horrify her +sisters by pretending to carry out the suggestion, and the sight of +their agitated faces pressed against the pane was sufficient +encouragement to sustain her courage, as a pull at the bell sent a +pealing chime through the house. The appearance of the old butler in +the doorway did indeed evoke a thrill of nervousness, but then, what +mattered? Visitors were never admitted, and she would certainly be +dismissed, even as the others had been before her! + +She quite prided herself upon the _sang-froid_ with which she made the +usual inquiry-- + +"Mr Vanburgh is at home, I presume? Will he be able to see me this +afternoon?" + +"Certainly, madam. Will you walk in? Mr Vanburgh is quite at +liberty." + +The horror of it seemed to take away all power of resistance. Did the +man drag her in by force, or did she obey him of her own accord? Nan +could not tell. The awful truth remained that the next moment she stood +within the hall, and the door was shut behind her! + + + +CHAPTER FIFTEEN. + +DIOGENES AT HOME. + +"This way, please, ma'am. Will you come up-stairs?" said the butler; +and Nan stumbled blindly forward, past the branching palms, the Indian +cabinets, the knight in his glittering armour, past a hundred treasures, +with never an eye to notice one of them, and a heart beating fast with +agitation. The ascent seemed to last for a year, yet it would be over +far too soon; the dreaded moment of introduction would arrive, and, in +the name of all that was horrifying and perplexing, what should she do +then? By what name should she be announced? What should she state as +the object of her visit? What excuse could she offer for her intrusion? + +"If I ever get out of this alive, I'll first pay out Miss Chrissie, and +then turn over a new leaf for life! No more practical jokes for me!" +said Nan to herself, and pulled her bonnet resolutely over her face. +The butler had paused, and was looking at her inquiringly as he threw +open the door of his master's room, and waited to announce her name. +She croaked at him,--there is no other word to describe the inarticulate +sound which issued from her lips,--then swept forward, and the man +retired, no doubt thinking the stranger's manner on a par with her +appearance. + +Left to herself, Nan took a few steps forward and stopped abruptly, +finding herself in a room which was at once the most beautiful and the +most extraordinary which she had ever beheld. In every direction in +which she turned her eyes, they were greeted by some quaint treasure, +which had been brought from the ends of the earth to be stored against a +background of tapestry and carved oak panel. It was like stepping back +hundreds of years, and finding one's self in an old baronial castle; and +the occupant of the room was in keeping with his surroundings. He lay +on his couch, staring at her with sunken eyes, a picturesque-looking old +man, with a complexion of bleached transparency; a white head, covered +by a velvet skull-cap, and a wasted form, wrapped in a dressing--gown of +embroidered Oriental silk. He looked both sad and suffering, and Nan +recognised as much with a pang of regret for all the hard terms she had +lavished upon his want of hospitality. Yes, indeed! he looked too ill +to receive visitors; too weary to be troubled with the commonplaces. +What could she say to explain her own visit? What in the world should +she find to talk about? + +"Won't you sit down?" said a melodious voice. "Pray take a seat! I +cannot wait upon you myself, as you see, but I can recommend that old +saddle-bag. It is most comfortable." As he spoke, the invalid waved +his hand towards a chair near his own, and Nan seated herself upon it in +silence, glancing timidly in his face. This dumbness was appalling. +She racked her brains to think of something to say, but no ideas were +forthcoming; she could only twist her fingers in embarrassment, and wait +another lead. + +"It is most kind of you to come to see me on such a tempestuous +afternoon," Mr Vanburgh continued politely. "I did not expect any +callers. Ladies, as a rule, are not fond of venturing out in the rain, +unless they have special business on hand." + +Bravo! Here was a lead at last! What could be better than to follow up +the suggestion of a business call? Nan asked herself eagerly. Mrs +Maitland had regretted the loss of subscriptions upon which she had +counted from the wealthy owner of the Grange: would it not be a good +action if she could draw Mr Vanburgh's attention to the needs of the +Incurables, and induce him to promise a subscription? She would not +take the money, but leave the address of the secretary, to whom it could +be forwarded. Oh, it was admirable--an admirable idea! The afternoon's +escapade would lead to good after all. Nan's elastic spirits rose with +a bound, and she smiled upon her companion with restored equanimity. + +"I have a special business. I did not come merely to pay a call, but to +ask your help for a cause in which I am much interested. I hoped that +you might feel inclined to give a subscription, and can assure you that +any sum which you may decide to give--" + +To her dismay, the benevolent expression upon the watching face +disappeared, as she spoke, to give place to one of suspicion and +distrust. Mr Vanburgh moved himself on his pillows, so as to face her +more fully, and stared at her fixedly, beneath frowning brows. + +"You want a subscription! You have come here to beg--to ask for money?" + +"But not for myself!" explained Nan eagerly. The scrutiny bent upon her +was so searching that she felt bound to protest against a personal +interest. "It was for a charity, a local hospital, which is in want of +funds. It was thought--I thought that, as a newcomer to the +neighbourhood, you might like to hear about the various organisations, +and to give some support. There is a large poor population at Sale, a +mile from here, and the committee is always short of funds. Many of the +old residents have left, and the new ones don't--don't always."--Her +remembrance of odd sentences heard at committee meetings came to a +sudden end, and the voice trailed off in inarticulate murmurings. + +"Do not always come forward in their place. Just so! And I am to +understand that you are deputed by these various charities and +organisations to plead their cause and collect subscriptions?" + +Nan cleared her throat vigorously. It was the only way she could think +of by which to gain time, and decide how to evade the question. + +"They are most grateful for all they can get. The committee would send +you an acknowledgment of your subscription. It would be better to send +it direct, instead of giving it to me. I just wish to call your +attention--to tell you particulars and enlist your interest--" + +"Just so!" said Mr Vanburgh again; and Nan fancied that there was a +slight softening in the watching eyes. "Just so. And for what special +charity do you wish to plead to-day?" + +"For the Home for Incurables!" + +"Ah!" The word came with a hiss from between closed teeth. "Indeed! +You choose your object well, madam! I congratulate you on your +discretion. The cause is truly fitting." + +She had made a false move this time, there was no doubt about it, for +the old man's voice was sharp with displeasure; but blundering Nan could +not even now imagine wherein lay the offence. + +She gaped at him, with a stammering-- + +"Fitting! Why fitting? I don't understand what you mean!" + +"Only that being incurable myself, I need your charity every whit as +much as those for whom you come asking help--" + +"Incurable! You won't get better! Never get better until you--" + +"Die? Precisely! That is what it means. I shall spend my life upon +this couch, or being wheeled about in a bath-chair, suffering torments +of pain and weariness until death comes to set me free--the kindliest +friend that could step inside my door!" + +"Oh!" cried Nan sharply. "Oh!" The tears rushed to her eyes, and she +trembled from head to foot. It was terrible to listen to those words, +terrible to her youth and strength to hear death spoken of in those +yearning tones; her heart--Nan's big loving heart--went out in a rush of +sympathy towards the lonely sufferer. She stretched her hand towards +him, and cried brokenly, "I'm sorry! Oh, I'm sorry! We knew, of +course, that you were ill, but we never thought it was as bad as that." + +"We! Who are we?" Mr Vanburgh's fingers closed over her hand, and he +held it firmly in his own, while he gazed at her with a gentleness of +mien before which Nan's resolution died a sudden death. + +"My--my sisters!" she stammered humbly. "Oh, Mr Vanburgh, forgive me. +I'm Nan Rendell. I live in the house just across the road. I'm not an +old woman at all, only a stupid girl dressed up. I never meant to come, +but Chrissie dared me, and I thought I would come to the door and ring, +to give her a fright. I never thought you would let me in. You had +refused to see all other visitors. My father and mother called, and Mr +and Mrs Maitland--" + +"They did, and many others. It was very kind, but I felt too ill to +receive them. With you, however, it was different, for I seemed to know +you already. I had seen so much of your life through `my study +window'--" + +"Saw me! Then you knew all the time who I was? You knew--" + +"I did! Yes. It was very interesting. I wondered how long you could +keep it up." + +"But how--how?" + +Mr Vanburgh smiled quietly. + +"My couch is placed near the window, and during my long lonely days I +devote a good deal of attention to the passers-by. About three o'clock +this afternoon I observed a black robed figure steal out of your side +gate and approach the front door. I saw her admitted by the servant. I +saw her go out once again, and, like her sisters, kept watch for her +return." + +"And you saw Chrissie point across to your door, and heard my ring?" + +"I did. And rang myself, to give orders that you should be admitted. +That is the true and authentic account of the mystery. It is not so +mysterious after all, is it?" + +"It's very embarrassing!" Nan was suddenly overcome by a consciousness +of how ridiculous she must have appeared in her assumed character, and +collapsed into feeble laughter, "What _must_ you think of me?" + +"To tell the truth, I prefer your ordinary appearance. It is difficult +to recognise you in this attire. Would you think it a liberty if I +asked you to resume your ordinary guise? Please!" and he waved his hand +with an appeal which had in it an element of authority, despite all its +courtesy. Nan felt very small, very much like a mischievous child who +has spilt the ink-bottle, and is sent upstairs to be washed and tidied; +but, all the same, she was not sorry to remove the ugly trappings, and +appear in her true guise once more. Bonnet, veil, spectacles, and cloak +came off in succession; her dark hair curled in little rings round her +forehead, and the round young throat rose like a pillar above the +quaintly-cut bodice. If Lilias had been in her sister's place, she +would have reflected that her antique costume was appropriate to her +surroundings, but such thoughts as these never occurred to honest Nan. +She was merely concerned to see that the last remains of powder were +wiped away, and, being satisfied on this point, smiled at Mr Vanburgh +in friendly fashion. + +"That's better!" he said cheerfully. "I begin to recognise you again. +I have seen you only from a distance so far, but I seem to know you very +well. You are `Nan,' you say, and you are what--number three, I +suppose? The young lady who went away the other day is the elder +sister, and after her comes the fair one with the golden locks." + +"Lilias! Yes; she is the beauty of the family; I come next, and then +Elsie, the little one, with big, dark eyes. We call her `Mrs +Gummidge,' because she is melancholy, and feels things `more than +others.' Then comes Agatha; you know Agatha! the great big girl with +the huge feet and the rosy cheeks; and Christabel, the youngest--" + +"Oh yes, I know Christabel!" said Mr Vanburgh, smiling, "and her friend +who comes to lessons every day: the brown-legged stork, with the red cap +and the curly locks. I like that child. She looks honest and +straightforward! Who is she?" + +"Why, that's Kitty!" replied Nan, in a voice of surprised reproof, for +surely every one in Waybourne must know an important personage like +Kitty! "Her name is really Gwendoline Maitland, but everybody calls her +Kitty; and she was longing to know you, and made her mother come to call +in her new spring clothes, with a promise to bring in her name at every +turn of the conversation; and then, after all, you would not receive +her!" + +"That was very sad! I am afraid I must have appeared churlish; but, as +a matter of fact, I came down to Waybourne to avoid old friends, rather +than make new ones. I am too ill to be sociable. It is a trial to me, +nowadays, to meet strangers." + +"And yet--" + +"And yet I wished to see you! That seems rather a contradiction, does +it not? But I have always been fond of young people, and I seemed to +have made your acquaintance in spite of myself. Perhaps you are hardly +aware how plainly one can see into your sitting-room from here." + +Nan smiled and bent forward to look across the street, in response to a +wave of the invalid's hand. + +The porch-room was exactly opposite, and the three-sided windows did +indeed allow an extraordinarily clear view of the interior. The girls +had always believed themselves out of range of vision when they were +seated at the table; but at this moment Nan could distinctly discern +four anxious faces scanning the opposite house, catch Agatha's craning +movements, and Lilias's waving hands. The sight provoked an +irresistible chuckle of amusement, and Mr Vanburgh's eyes turned +towards her in wistful scrutiny. + +"You seem very merry together, you young people. Life is full of +happiness to you!" + +"Oh, we have our trials!" said Nan quickly. "We are awfully happy +together; but still, of course, it isn't all as we should wish. Each +one of us has a grievance, and could talk about it for hours at a time, +if we had a chance. Sometimes we have dreadful fits of dumps. Elsie +has them chronically, but the rest of us are up and down. I'm generally +up myself; but still, I have my moments!" + +"I should think they are very rare! Would it be indiscreet to ask what +is your peculiar cross?" + +Nan pondered with raised brows and an expression which grew more and +more uncertain. + +"It's rather difficult to say straight off, isn't it? There _is_ +something, I know, but I forget what it is. I am always making stupid +mistakes for one thing, and that is so awkward, now that I am supposed +to be grown up. I'm eighteen, so I ought to know better. I went out to +my first dinner-party this winter, and the most awful thing happened. A +stupid male creature took me in, with a collar about a foot high, and +such an affected drawl that I could hardly understand a word he said. +However, I talked away and tried to be pleasant. I have a habit of +waving my hands when I talk; we all have--perhaps you have noticed it! +I was telling a story, and came to a point where it seemed necessary to +lift my hand suddenly, to give emphasis to what I was saying. Well, I +did it, and at that crucial moment if the waiter didn't go and hand a +sauce-bowl over my partner's shoulder! My hand met the bowl, and ... +Maud was sitting opposite, and she said that never in all her life had +she seen anything so appalling! The bowl flew up in the air, turned a +somersault, and the sauce rained down in showers upon his knees! He had +his serviette spread open, of course, but still it was bad enough. +There was silence all round the table. He sat stock still, staring at +his hands, all brown and dripping; then he said, in a very small, +exhausted voice, `I think I had bettaw--go up-sta-ahs!'" + +Mr Vanburgh lay back against his cushions and pressed his hands to his +mouth. His shoulders heaved, and a curious muffled sound emerged from +his lips. He tried to strangle it, tried to frown, to choke the +inclination in his throat, but it was of no avail: laugh he must, and +laugh he did, his slight form shaking with merriment, the tears rising +in the tired eyes and streaming down his cheeks. Nan laughed afresh at +the comical spectacle, and as she looked a door behind the couch was +pushed gently open, and a startled face peered round the corner. It was +the face of the dark-skinned foreigner who was the invalid's attendant, +and his master greeted him with affectionate freedom. + +"Yes, Pedro! Yes! It is quite true! I was laughing! It is a long +time since you have heard such a sound from my lips. No wonder you are +startled. It is this young lady who has wrought the miracle." + +The dark eyes rested on Nan's face with a glow of gratitude which made +the girl's heart beat fast with pleasure. The eloquent Southern glance +conveyed many meanings, but he said simply, "The signorina is welcome! +I hope the signorina comes again!" and left the room in the same quiet, +unobtrusive manner in which he had entered. + + + +CHAPTER SIXTEEN. + +THE CURTAINED PICTURES. + +When Mrs Rendell returned home and heard of Nan's latest escapade, she +was breathless with horror and consternation. + +"I don't know what I am to do with you, child," she cried. "Every time +I go away there is a fresh outbreak, and you seem to grow worse instead +of better. It is useless to warn you!" + +"Oh, mummy dear!" Nan's voice was full of protest, and she stared with +reproachful eyes in her mother's face. "It's not fair to say that! I +always do as you tell me. I never do what you have forbidden. You +can't think of a single instance where I have played a trick the second +time, when you have cautioned me against it!" + +"But what is the good of that, when you immediately hit on something +even worse?" queried her mother despairingly. "What sane woman would +ever dream of forbidding a girl of eighteen to walk about the streets in +disguise, and go begging for subscriptions at strange houses? It takes +away my breath, even to think of it! All sorts of things might have +happened!" + +"But only nice things did happen, dear! I always fall on my feet, you +know, and Mr Vanburgh is an old love. He sent his respects to you, and +hoped you and father would do him the favour of paying a second call, as +he would much like to make the acquaintance of my parents! It was the +first time in my life that I had heard you spoken of as adjuncts of my +noble self, and I can tell you I felt proud. Really and truly, it was a +blessing I went, for you can't think how he enjoyed seeing me. I said +good-bye three times over before he would let me go, and I told him +every single thing about our family!" + +"I've no doubt you did!" Mrs Rendell groaned aloud, and stared +helplessly at the ceiling. "Please add to your list of prohibitions for +the future, my dear, that you are forbidden to go outside the door in an +assumed costume; and do try to behave like a reasonable creature, +instead of a hare-brained schoolboy! I can't make any promise about +calling again until I see what father says." + +Nan was comfortably secure that her father would do as he was told, and +had little difficulty in persuading the good man that, above all things +in the world, he desired to make the acquaintance of his neighbour. +There was little fear that the visit would be deferred too long; for +with five daughters vying with each other to introduce the subject on +every possible opportunity, and to discuss times and seasons at +breakfast, lunch, and dinner, it speedily became an object to get the +call paid as soon as possible. + +On the very next Saturday afternoon, therefore, Mrs Rendell attired +herself in calling array, was carefully surveyed by a critical audience, +pronounced to be a "credit to the family," and despatched to the Grange, +with a score of divergent instructions as to what to do, what to say, +and, above all, how to lay the foundation-stone of a future intimacy. + +Perhaps, if the truth were known, Mrs Rendell was scarcely less excited +than her daughters at the prospect of being admitted into the presence +of the mysterious stranger; but if this were so, she was doomed to +disappointment, for the invalid seemed too weary and dispirited to enter +into conversation, and it was only by a most apparent effort that he +roused himself to reply to her remarks. Mrs Rendell would have felt +repelled by his coldness of manner, had it not been for one redeeming +point--his unaffected interest in her children! The wan face brightened +into a smile at the mention of Nan's name, and he begged that the girl +might be allowed to come over to see him "often--as often as possible," +in a tone of unmistakable sincerity. Mrs Rendell assented graciously; +and, mindful of the reproaches which would be hurled at her head if she +returned without doing her best for every member of the family, +suggested that perhaps Mr Vanburgh would like to make the acquaintance +of the other girls also! He hesitated for a moment, but looked +gratified by the suggestion. + +"If they would not find it too dull. I am fond of young people, but am +always afraid of boring them by my company. Our lives lie so far apart. +Perhaps they would come over at different times, and let me make their +acquaintance by degrees. The two younger ones especially--your own +daughter and the little girl who is her friend." + +On the score of this distinction, Christabel and Kitty were the first +couple to take advantage of the invitation and cross the road to +interview Diogenes in his den. They confided in each other that they +were "simply dying of fright," but contrived to conceal their expiring +condition beneath haughty and dignified exteriors. The manner in which +Chrissie requested the old butler to inform his master of their advent +would have done credit to a princess of the blood, while Kitty stalked +upstairs behind her with majestic gravity. Outside the dreaded door, +however, it was impossible to resist exchanging a grimace of agitation, +and it was another instance of the contrariety of men that the butler +should turn his head at that inopportune moment, and discover them so +employed. Chrissie grew red with mortification, and Kitty spluttered +with laughter; so, after all, it was in the guise of two blushing, +giggling schoolgirls that they made Mr Vanburgh's acquaintance, instead +of that of self-possessed women of the world, as they had fondly hoped +would be the case. He looked from one to the other as they sat before +him--big, bonnie, well-grown girls, with flaming locks and fresh +complexions, and there was a great wistfulness in his gaze. The girls +felt it; and though the meaning thereof was a mystery, they understood +that here was an understanding, sympathetic soul, and immediately lost +their feeling of shyness. + +In ten minutes' time they had confided to him their dream of the "Select +Academy," and he had promised to recommend the school to his friends, +with a seriousness which was balm to their vanity. Nothing is more +annoying to mature women of fourteen than to be treated as if they were +children; and when Mr Vanburgh discussed at length various points of +management on which the future partners were at variance, and gave +valuable suggestions on architectural designs, Christabel screwed up her +eyes at him with her most approving smile, and reflected that seldom, if +ever, had she met a grown-up person with so much common sense! Tea was +brought in for the girls' benefit, and Kitty poured it out, spilling the +milk over the cloth, and covering the wet spot with the muffin dish with +admirable presence of mind. She felt so much at home that she helped +herself to cake a second time without being asked, drank three cups of +tea, and only refrained from a fourth because the pot was drained. +After tea, conversation turned on hobbies, and it being discovered that +one girl had a mania for miniature jugs, and the other for foreign post- +cards, the Italian servant was summoned, and received instructions in +his own tongue, which resulted in an addition being made to each +collection: Kitty returned home hugging "a little d-arling" jug of +Italian pottery, while Chrissie exhibited a Chinese post-card, and +pictures of Mongolian belles printed on transparent rice paper. The +glories of the interview lost nothing from their descriptions; and +Lilias and Elsie sighed continuously until the time came for their own +visit. + +In each heart the thought lay concealed that if Mr Vanburgh had been so +kind to the other girls, he must of a surety extend a still greater +favour to herself. The mirror assured Lilias that she was a sight to +"make an old man young"; while Elsie shook her head over the reflection +that only those who have suffered themselves can sympathise with the +woes of others. But, alas! disappointment awaited them; for, strange to +relate, the invalid found Lilias's fragile charms less attractive to his +eye than the healthful vivacity of her sisters; while condolence was so +distasteful to his ears, that he fairly scowled down Elsie's plaintive +assurances of sympathy. As a matter of fact, it was brightness and +amusement of which the recluse was in need; and as the last visitors +were the least humorous members of the family, it followed that their +presence was least welcome. Awkward silence recurred at intervals; and +when the girls rose to say good-bye, no request was made for a further +visit, though a message was sent to Nan, begging her to come by herself +on the first convenient occasion. Elsie made a public announcement in +the schoolroom that evening that she washed her hands of Mr Vanburgh, +finding in him a cold and unresponsive soul; but Lilias was not so +easily discouraged. It rankled in her mind that she had failed where +others had succeeded, and she determined to break down Mr Vanburgh's +prejudice and win the post of favourite, cost what it might. She had +not had a fair chance when Elsie was present. The members of one's own +family are apt to betray surprise at injudicious moments, to check one's +innocent rhapsodies by counter-assertions, and even to quote words used +on previous occasions, as a proof that conduct does not coincide with +theory. There were a dozen pretty little speeches she had been longing +to make, but it was impossible to deliver them when Elsie was sitting +there, listening with all her ears, ready to repeat them to a schoolroom +audience, or even commit them to the surer testimony of her diary. Some +day she would make excuse to go alone, and then--! Lilias nodded her +head in assured self-confidence, and watched Nan's air of proprietorship +with a smile, convinced that her own triumph was at hand. She was +beginning to realise that a declared understanding was less exciting +than an incipient love affair; the thirst for fresh conquest was upon +her, and in default of any more interesting prey, she determined to turn +her attention to Mr Vanburgh, and raked her silly little head to devise +schemes for subjection. + +Honest Nan had no scheme at all, nothing but the kindliest desire to +cheer a lonely old man, and was so entirely her bright merry self at the +second interview, that again, and yet again, the sound of laughter broke +the silence of the room. She discovered that the old man had a keen +sense of humour, though it had long lain dormant; and as it seemed to +please him to hear her chat away in unconstrained fashion, chat she did, +with such an accompaniment of sparkling eyes, waving hands, and sunny +smiles, as was a positive tonic to behold. She told stories of her own +adventures or misadventures, which Mr Vanburgh capped by remembrances +of his own boyhood; they compared notes as to their mutual sensations at +critical moments, and so sympathetic did they appear, that the girl was +forced into an expression of astonishment. + +"You remember so well! Most old people seem to forget how it feels to +be young, especially people who have not had any children of their own. +How have you managed to remember all these things?" + +The old man looked at her quietly. The smile left his face, and the +lines round his lips and eyes seemed to deepen in sudden, mysterious +fashion. Nan divined that she had touched a hidden wound, and waited +anxiously for his reply. It was a long time in coming, and then it was +altogether a surprise. Mr Vanburgh touched the bell which lay near at +hand, and spoke a word of direction to the Italian, who appeared at the +summons. + +"Take this young lady into the study and show her--my pictures!" he said +slowly; and Nan followed Pedro out of the room in perplexity of spirit. +The man's dark eyes studied her face critically, but no words were said +until the room was reached, and they stood together before a curtained +alcove. + +"It is his sorrow, the sorrow of his life," murmured the soft voice +plaintively, as the curtain was drawn back, and Nan gazed with awed eyes +upon four portraits hung against a fluting of crimson cloth. The rich +frames, the carved table beneath, with its bank of white flowers, gave +the alcove the appearance of a shrine; and a shrine it was indeed, +dedicated to the memory of a lost happiness. + +The first portrait was of a man, the second of a woman, with a beautiful +and gentle face, which bore so strange a likeness to those of a boy and +a girl on either side that it was easy to trace the relationship between +them. + +The girl bade fair to become as lovely as her mother; the boy was a +magnificent fellow, with waving locks, thrown back from a noble brow, +and such an air of pride and candour in the carriage of the head and the +flash of the eyes as would have filled a parent's heart with pride to +behold. Nan's eyes passed by the other two portraits to dwell on this +with wondering admiration; and something in the appearance of the +beautiful young lad seemed strangely familiar. Family likeness is a +marvellous thing, revealing itself in the most unexpected fashions; and +though at first sight no two people could have been more unlike than +this incarnation of youth and strength, and the bleached and weary +invalid in the next room, it was certainly of Mr Vanburgh, and no +other, that Nan was reminded at this moment. The shape of the eyes was +the same, the curve of the lips, the growth of the hair on the forehead. +She looked back at the first picture, and gave a start of recognition. +She had not realised it at first, but yes! that handsome, happy, self- +confident face had once belonged to Mr Vanburgh himself; it was his own +portrait at which she looked. Nan wheeled round to the servant with an +agitated question: + +"It is himself! But why is he here? They are dead, these others, but +he--" + +"He also is dead, signorina," the man replied, and bent his head as if +in obeisance before the picture. "He died with those he loved. +Something lived on, perhaps, but not my master. He lies buried with +them--his wife--his son--his daughter. All that he had. Ah, what a +tragedy! One day all happiness and love; the next it is done, it is +over, his heart is broken! We were out yachting together, and my master +and I have gone on shore on business--to make purchases, to buy +provisions. We should join them again next day; and meantime they went +a little cruise to pass the time--an excursion to a bay which the +signora wished to visit. It was all calm when they started, but those +are treacherous seas; a squall sprang up, and they were driven on the +rocks. The gale lasted two days, and at the end pieces of wood were +washed ashore from the wreck. There was nothing else--no, nothing! We +were like madmen both, searching about, and waiting, always waiting, +year after year. ... They might have been picked up, and landed at some +far-away port; they might for a time have lost their minds and been +unable to remember. Such things have been; and why not again? But at +last hope died away, and strength with it. He took no rest, no care for +himself, and so the illness came which ends as you see. Then I took him +away, for the living must come before the dead, and I had my duty to him +to remember. We have wandered over the world, signorina, in search of +health and peace, but they come not with money. Everything else,"--he +waved his hand round the exquisite room, with its paintings, its +carvings, its china, its treasures of ancient art--"everything else, but +not these. So at last we came home, to rest--and die!" + +Nan trembled and was silent. She had no words in which to express her +passion of pity, but the Italian understood, with the quick insight of +his race, and flashed a grateful glance upon her. + +"It is not every one to whom he shows these pictures. They are covered +with a curtain, so that they are hidden from the stranger; but every +morning we come together, he and I, and put fresh flowers. It is a +great sign of his favour to the signorina that he should have sent her +here. He has opened his heart to her as is not usual with him, and she +can help him if she will." + +"Oh, I will! I will! I long to help him," murmured Nan brokenly. She +stood gazing at the pictures until the curtain dropped once more, and +she found herself being escorted back to her seat. + +Mr Vanburgh looked at her silently. It was not possible for him to be +whiter than usual, but his lips were contracted in a nervous pressure, +and a nerve was throbbing visibly at his temples. Nan stretched out her +hand impetuously and laid it over his; the fingers were icy cold to her +touch, and she rubbed them between her own with tender care. + +"Thank you!" he whispered breathlessly, and looked at her with kindly +eyes. + +"You are a wise child. You understand how to console. Words are too +weak. You judged too quickly, you see, in taking for granted that I had +always been alone. Fifteen years ago--you saw their portraits?" + +"Yes. They are all beautiful; and oh, the boy!" + +"My son!" sighed the father softly. "Yes, if you could have seen my +son. It was not only I, but every one who met him said the same thing: +that they had never seen his equal. All that I did was for him, to +prepare for the time when he should succeed me. He was so strong, so +full of life; it seemed impossible that he could die." + +"Mr Vanburgh, how did you bear it? How can people go through such +trials and live? To lose everything at once, and live on, and keep +one's reason--I can't understand it. You must be very good!" + +The old man smiled sadly. + +"No, child, I am not good. I had my time of madness and rebellion, and +my old self died, never to revive again; but I have kept my faith in +God. I could not afford to lose that, as well as everything else. He +has taken from me all that made life beautiful--first my dear ones, and +then the strength which might have made it possible to find fresh +interests; but such discipline must be for some great end, and I am +growing nearer and nearer to the time when I shall know the reason. +There is an explanation ready for me, and I am waiting to hear it. You +will never have a trouble sent to you in life, child, without the +strength to bear it; and the greater the trial the greater may be the +reward. Even in this life I have had compensations; when the sun of +prosperity is shining we do not realise our need of God, but when the +clouds gather, we turn homewards like tired children, and the help never +fails. In my loneliness I have learned to know Christ, and the peace +which is His gift to those who trust Him!" + +He shut his eyes and remained silent for a long time, while Nan studied +the emaciated face with anxious gaze; but when he looked up again he was +calm and collected, almost smiling. + +"My little friend, I have shown you my Holy of Holies, but we will never +speak of it again. You know my sorrow, and we will understand each +other without words. I have learned to be thankful for the unexpected +blessings which come into my life, of which your companionship is one. +You will always be welcome when you can spare an hour to sit with a +lonely old man; and I am glad to have made the acquaintance of some +young people for another reason. My nephew, my heir,"--he drew his +brows together with a frown of pain,--"is coming next month to pay me a +visit. He will be with me for some time, and if you will be kind enough +to extend your friendship to him I shall be grateful!" + +"We will! We will! But oh, I wish he were a girl! Are you sure you +have no girl nieces that you want to invite as well?" + +"More girls?" Mr Vanburgh smiled faintly. "I should have thought you +had enough, with five sisters of your own. A boy would surely be more +change, though, as far as that, Gervase is more than a boy now. It is +three years since he left Oxford, and he is quite a man of the world by +this time." + +Nan groaned deeply. + +"I know them! I know them well, and I detest them! Really old men are +quite sensible and humble, but the young ones put on as many airs as if +they owned the world, and didn't think much of it at that. I like +schoolboys immensely--mischievous, grubby little schoolboys, who keep +white mice in their bedrooms, and are full of pranks and jokes; but no +young men for me, thank you! Jim, our brother, is the only really nice +one I know, and even he thinks that the world was made for his +convenience. No one dares to contradict him; and it is the most +maddening thing in the world to argue with him, for he never even takes +the trouble to answer, but simply chuckles in condescending fashion, and +chucks you under the chin. We know another very nice man, too--Ned +Talbot; but for a clever man who has taken degrees and scholarships and +appointments above everybody else, you wouldn't believe how stupid and +blundering he is. As blind as a bat. He--but never mind! I didn't +mean to speak about him, only to say that if your nephew is coming down +at all, do have him in June instead of next month! Jim is coming home +then, and Ned will be here, and we have all sorts of plans in the air. +It would be nicer for him when there would be some men to take him +about, and he would have a really good time. Don't you think he could +come in June?" + +"He could probably arrange to stay on a little longer. He will be with +me for some considerable time, as there is a great deal of business +which we must do together. I will tell him what you say when I write, +and impress upon him that June is a period of special attraction!" + +"And then he will be at our sale!" said Nan gleefully to herself; and +the same thought occurred to each of her sisters, when this latest piece +of news was unfolded. + +"How lovely!" gushed Agatha. "Now he can buy my shaving-case! Father +said it was a useless bauble; but a rich young man can afford baubles, +and I feel sure he would like the look of it upon his dressing-table. +I'll mark it `Sold,' and say I kept it specially for him." + +"I don't believe he will come at all. Men detest bazaars; but if he +does, we must make him buy far more than that," said Elsie firmly. "If +we can't sell that veil-case, we will pretend it is for ties, and that +no gentleman's wardrobe is complete without it. And we'll raise all the +prices whenever he comes near!" + +"I don't suppose he'll eat toffee, but he must hand round the tea and +make himself useful. We can keep him busy at our stall," said Chrissie; +while Lilias stared into space, and smiled in a soft, dreamy fashion. +"After all," she said thoughtfully, "after all, I think he had better +help me, instead of Ned! Ned knows quite a number of the people, and +could make himself agreeable going about and talking; but this poor +fellow will know nobody but us. Yes! yes! he shall be my assistant in +the punt!" + + + +CHAPTER SEVENTEEN. + +A BUDGET OF LETTERS. + +One bright May morning Mrs Rendell sat by her desk ostensibly busy with +accounts, but in reality watching the movements of her daughter Lilias, +who lounged on the window seat reading the letters which had just been +delivered by the second post. Mrs Rendell herself had brought these +letters into the room, and consequently knew full well who were her +daughter's correspondents, and which envelope contained the separate +effusions. The dainty grey, with its edging of white, came from +Lilias's bosom friend, a certain Ella Duckworth, whose sayings and +doings were so constantly quoted in the schoolroom that her very name +had become the signal for groans of disapproval; the fat white packet +bore the magic name of the _Bon Marche_, Paris, and contained patterns +of material for the frock in which Lilias intended to array herself at +the garden parties of the coming season; and the narrow envelope, with +its bold, even writing, was a familiar object in the Rendell household, +whose authorship required no explanation. + +Mrs Rendell handed this letter to her daughter with a smiling +remembrance of the days when such letters used to come to herself--of +her eagerness and delight, her insatiable appetite for more. As she +added up her weekly bills and balanced her accounts, soft little trills +of laughter greeted her ears from the other end of the room, and she +smiled again in enjoyment of her child's happiness, and lifted her head +to regard the pretty picture. The sun shone on Lilias's fair head, +transforming it into an aureole of gold; pink and white were the colours +of her morning dress, pink and white was her face, and the blossom on +the hawthorn tree which shaded the window seemed made on purpose to form +a background to the charming figure. Mrs Rendell's eyes softened with +motherly pride; but the next moment her brows contracted and her +expression grew troubled, for there on the seat lay Ned Talbot's letter +unopened, while Lilias smiled and dimpled in enjoyment of her friend's +effusion. It seemed strange that a girl should show so little eagerness +to read a lover's letter; but Mrs Rendell reflected that perhaps Lilias +preferred to leave the greater treat to the last, and comforted herself +thereby. When Ella's letter had been read, then of course Ned's would +be even more eagerly devoured; but no! Lilias regretfully folded away +the sheet in its envelope, regarded the two unopened envelopes with +languid indecision, and finally selected the packet from Paris as more +worthy of attention. If she had looked up at that _moment_ and caught +the flash in the watching eyes, Miss Lilias would have been on her +guard; but, as it was, she complacently settled herself to the study of +patterns, holding up the little squares of gauze to the light, laying +them against her dress, and pleating them in her fingers with an +absorption which rendered her unconscious of her surroundings. Five +minutes passed, ten minutes, and still she turned from one novelty to +another, unable to make a choice among so many temptations; and still +her mother watched from her corner, the pencil stayed in her busy hands. +The irritation had faded from Mrs Rendell's face, and given place to +an expression of anxious tenderness; for Lilias's indifference to Ned's +letter was but another strengthening of the growing conviction that the +girl's feeling for her lover fell short of what it should rightly be. A +dozen signs, too subtle to be put into words, but none the less +eloquent, had attracted Mrs Rendell's attention within the last few +weeks, and sent a chill to her heart. Above all things it was +imperative that Lilias should love her future husband with all the +strength of which she was capable, for Lilias's mother knew that no +other power but love could develop a selfish nature, and make a noble +woman out of a vain and thoughtless girl. Love has wrought this miracle +before, and will again; and through all her grief for Maud's +disappointment, Mrs Rendell had comforted herself by the reflection +that Lilias was the one of all her children who was most in need of a +softening influence, the one to whom the love of a good man might be +most valuable. Dear, sweet Maud could not be selfish if she tried, but +an early engagement might be the only means of saving Lilias from the +injurious effect of flattering and worldly friends. So the mother had +reasoned with herself; but her arguments would lose all their force if +Lilias herself had no love in her heart for her future husband. A +loveless marriage is a catastrophe for any girl, but for Lilias it would +mean moral suicide: a deliberate settling down into a selfish, self- +seeking life! Was it possible that she had accepted Ned for no higher +motive than a love of excitement, and the puny triumph of making the +first marriage in the family? Mrs Rendell would not judge the girl so +harshly without unmistakable proof, but, her suspicions being aroused, +she could not be content until she grasped the true position of affairs. +A broken engagement was the last thing which she desired to have in her +family, but better that, a thousand times over, than that two lives +should be wrecked for ever! + +She waited patiently until, at last, Lilias deigned to read her lover's +letter, watching her face with scrutinising eyes. It was evident that +something in the closely-written sheet did not commend itself to the +girl's approval; for as she read the white forehead grew fretted with +lines, and the lips took a sullen droop. The smiles faded away, and it +was a very blank, dejected edition of Miss Lilias Rendell who looked up +at last, to meet her mother's glance. + +"Well, what is it, dear? You seem troubled. No bad news, I hope?" + +"Oh no--nothing serious, at least. Ned seems worried. Things don't go +smoothly in the new Works, and he has such high-flown ideas. It seems +to me he makes troubles, by expecting every one else to be as quixotic +as himself. He is not likely to find high-flown notions among ordinary +business men!" + +"And since when, my dear, have you become acquainted with the feelings +of business men?" inquired Mrs Rendell sharply; then, in a softer tone, +"My dear child, I implore you not to begin your engagement to Ned by +discouraging his highest motives. Men, as a rule, are not overburdened +with sentiment, and it is the duty of a wife to encourage all that is +good and generous. You would be grieved, I am sure, to feel that your +influence had a sordid or worldly direction!" + +"Oh, mother!" protested Lilias, shocked beyond words at the possibility +of such a charge, as we are all shocked when our secret thoughts are put +into words, and we see them before us in all their naked hideousness. +"Oh, mother, as if I could do anything so dreadful. Ned says I am his +good angel; of course, of course, I want him to be good; but it is +depressing, isn't it, when as soon as one gets engaged business begins +to go wrong, and every letter brings news of some fresh worry or +unpleasantness? It is enough to make one feel melancholy!" + +"Yes, dear, it is, and I'm sorry for you. It is a disappointment to us +all to hear that Ned is so unhappy in his new position, for it seemed to +promise so well six months ago. Father is anxious to have a talk with +him on the subject, and see if he can help to smooth the way, so the +sooner he can come the better it will be. Does he make any suggestion +in his letter as to the date that will suit him best?" + +"Y-es!" said Lilias; and her face clouded once more. "He wants to come +on the twentieth; and it is so awkward, for the Duckworths want me to go +to them for that very week. They are having a tennis party, and their +first day on the river, and several teas and dinners. It would be such +a delightful week! I thought, perhaps, Ned might put off his visit +until June. Maud would be home by that time, and they would both be +sorry to miss each other if he came earlier." + +Mrs Rendell looked at her with a mingling of exasperation and relief-- +relief that she should be so ignorant of Maud's feelings, exasperation +that it should be possible for one sister to be so oblivious to the +sufferings of another. She could not but realise also that Lilias would +prefer a week of gaiety at Richmond to a visit from Ned Talbot; and her +distress at the thought made her voice sound somewhat sharp as she +replied-- + +"There is some one else to be considered besides yourself, my dear. You +forget that your father and I would prefer to see Ned at once, and would +not approve of postponing his visit. It is you, and not Maud, whom he +comes to see; and you would surely not choose to spend the time in +frivolity which might be given to helping and comforting the man you +have promised to marry?" + +"No--no, of course not, mother!" cried Lilias, shocked once more at the +suggestion of her own selfishness. "I'll write at once, and say that +the twentieth will suit us all." She gathered her letters together as +she spoke, and rose to leave the room, holding her head well in the air, +and keeping up an appearance of composure so long as she was in her +mother's sight, but once outside the door the tears of disappointment +rushed to her eyes, and she brought down her foot on the floor with a +stamp of irritation. She felt jarred and disappointed, and thoroughly +ill-used into the bargain. Only two months engaged, and already +involved in trouble and anxiety, and expected to give up her own +pleasure in order to condole with a dejected lover! She had imagined +that it would be Ned's place to console her; and if his fears should +prove well founded, surely it would be she who needed consolation in the +prospect of a long, uncertain engagement. Lilias had known one or two +girls who had waited year after year while their _fiances_ struggled +against adverse circumstances, and she was by no means anxious to follow +their example. They lost their beauty, and grew thin and pale; people +spoke of them with expressions of commiseration; the subject of marriage +was studiously avoided in their presence. Lilias grew hot at the +thought that any one might possibly regard her in such a fashion. When +she had become engaged to Ned Talbot, the future had appeared _couleur +de rose_, and she had sunned herself in the prospect of increased +importance at home, and the honour which would be paid to the beautiful +young bride by her husband's friends and relatives. How miserable, how +humiliating, if all these dreams came to naught, and she found herself +bound to an unsuccessful man, with all her ambitions nipped in the bud! + +Lilias's thoughts roamed back over the past, and a dull resentment +against her _fiance_ grew in her mind; for did it not seem that he had +always been unlucky, that the brief space of prosperity that had +preceded her engagement had been the exception, not the rule, in his +experiences? Old Mr Talbot had died while Ned was still at college, +and the necessity of looking after the business for the benefit of the +family had compelled the young fellow to sacrifice his own hopes of a +profession, and settle down to a commercial life. Mr Talbot had owned +"Works" of some kind; Lilias had the haziest idea of their purport. Ned +manufactured "engines and things," she told her friends vaguely, and +spent his days amidst clanking machinery, in an atmosphere impregnated +with steam and oil. A dozen years before, "the Works" had been a +profitable concern, but it had steadily declined in value, as more +powerful firms monopolised the trade. Ned had struggled hard against +the tide, but his term of management had been far from prosperous, and +when, a year ago, his most formidable rival had come forward with an +offer to take over the smaller firm, and instal him in the position of +manager over the united businesses, he had been thankful to accept, and +to believe that his anxieties were at an end. Six months--scarcely six +months--and already he was beginning to feel uneasy, to suspect trouble +ahead! Lilias tightened her lips, and her eyes gave out an impatient +flash. It requires a noble nature to preserve unswerving confidence in +a man through a period of reverse, and Lilias was not capable of the +effort. It seemed to her that such a want of success must surely be +Ned's own fault, and something startlingly like dislike sprang up in her +heart, as she realised how closely she herself would be involved in his +failure. Her mother had declared that it was her duty to encourage Ned +in his quixotic scruples; but surely, surely, it was also Ned's duty to +consider her interests, and to be ready to sacrifice his scruples, if +they threatened injury to the future which she had agreed to share! + +Lilias was as angry as it was in her nature to be, but her love of +approval made her unwilling to exhibit herself in so unamiable a mood, +and she rushed upstairs to the porch room to recover her composure +before joining her sisters in the garden. The worst of belonging to a +large family, however, is that it is exceedingly difficult to secure +privacy, and, as fate would have it, who should be seated in the porch +room but Nan herself, the very last member of the household whom Lilias +would have wished to meet in the circumstances. Her flushed face and +tearful eyes could not escape attention, but while Maud would have been +tactfully silent, Elsie sympathetic, Agatha gushing, and Christabel +apparently unconscious, Nan must needs stare with all her eyes, whistle +like a schoolboy, and exclaim inelegantly-- + +"Halloa! What's up? What in the world are you in a rage about now?" + +"Now," indeed! As if she were in the habit of flying into rages every +ten minutes of the day! As if it were not universally acknowledged that +she had the sweetest temper in the family! Lilias felt more irritated +than ever, and would have enjoyed nothing so much as taking the big +blundering creature by the shoulders and giving her a good shaking. She +controlled herself, however, and answered with a gallant attempt at +pathos-- + +"Rage is hardly the word, Nan. I am very, very miserable. You don't +understand, and I am not at liberty to explain the reason. I am in +trouble--horrible trouble!" + +"Humph!" quoth Nan sceptically. "Doesn't seem to have a chastening +effect upon you. It affects us all differently, I suppose. I should +have said you were in a savage rage, if you'd asked me!" + +"But I didn't ask you, you see, and it is very wrong of you to judge. +If I could tell you the truth, you would realise your mistake, but I +must keep my own counsel." + +"Of course, of course! Don't tell me, I beseech you; I can't keep a +secret if I'm paid for it," said Nan calmly, and with an absence of +curiosity altogether maddening to the listener. There was nothing +Lilias wanted more than to be coaxed to tell her trouble and pose as a +suffering martyr, for her sister's benefit. She flounced out of the +room in high dudgeon, and Nan stopped her work and looked after her with +thoughtful eyes. + +"This is the beginning," she said tragically to herself--"the beginning +of the end!" + + + +CHAPTER EIGHTEEN. + +NED IN TROUBLE. + +When Ned Talbot arrived a fortnight later, his face showed that his +anxiety had been no imaginary thing. He looked, indeed, so worn and +aged, that his friends were shocked to see him, and tears of +commiseration rose in Lilias's pretty eyes. The consciousness that Ned +looked to her for consolation roused a natural womanly tenderness in her +heart, and nothing could have been sweeter than her behaviour on the day +of his arrival. As for Ned himself, fresh from the grim northern town, +with the everlasting clang of machinery sounding in his ears, it seemed +a very foretaste of paradise to find himself in the fragrant southern +garden, seated beneath the shade of the trees, with Lilias's lovely face +smiling upon him. He told her as much in lover-like fashion, and she +protested modestly, and smiled more angelically than ever for the rest +of the evening, in order to live up to her reputation. + +"We won't talk about disagreeable things to-night! We will just be +happy!" she said coaxingly; and Ned assented, only too thankful to +banish anxiety for a few hours, and to talk sweet nothings among the +flowers. Lilias was the most delightful plaything in the world, and +queened it over him with such amusing little airs of sovereignty, that +he asked nothing better than to play the part of adoring slave. So the +first evening passed happily enough; but the next day brought the lovers +face to face with reality. When a great anxiety is tugging at a man's +heart, it is not possible to banish it for more than a few hours at a +time, and Ned yearned for his sweetheart's sympathy, and felt a +corresponding chilling of heart when she persistently checked his +confidences, and tried to continue the playful banter of the first +interview. He could not respond, could not laugh and jest and pay +compliments; the cloud of coming disaster seemed to blot out the +sunshine, and the light words jarred upon his ears. + +"It is no use, dear; I am sorry to be such a doleful companion, but I +cannot pretend to be cheerful. You must bear with me, for my anxiety is +on your account even more than my own," he told the girl tenderly. "I +cannot bear to think of bringing anxiety upon you, when I had hoped +instead to have shielded you from it all your life; but trouble is said +to draw hearts more closely together, and if we stand shoulder to +shoulder now we may find unexpected sweetness in the midst of our +trial." + +He looked at Lilias entreatingly, and she gave a forced little smile. + +"I should like to know exactly what the trial is, Ned. You have said a +good deal about being unhappy in your letters, but nothing really +definite. I can understand that, after being your own master, it is +trying to accept a subordinate position, and that many little things jar +and fret you, just because it is a new thing to be under subjection. It +is certain to be trying at first, but if you have patience--" + +Ned stopped her with an exclamation, half amused, half irritated. + +"Patience--patience! My dear girl, you don't understand of what you are +talking! You surely don't imagine that it is about my own dignity that +I am anxious! I should not allow any personal slight to disturb my +equanimity, for I did not make this change without counting the cost." + +"But it is so different when it comes to the test. However brave you +have resolved to be, you cannot help being annoyed and fretted. I know! +Oh, I know quite well," declared Lilias, with an elaborate forbearance +which seemed to have an irritating effect upon the hearer. He drew in +his lips, as if struggling against a hasty reply, and when he spoke it +was in a tone of studied moderation. + +"Come and sit down, dear, and let me thrash this out! It is your right +to know exactly how matters stand, and I will try to explain them to +you. What affects me affects you now, so I look to you to advise and +counsel. No one can help me as you can; no one has so much right to +speak; so let me begin at the beginning, and try to make all clear to +your dear little mind. You know that at my father's death I had to give +up my own dream of going into a profession, in order to carry on the +Works for the benefit of the family. It had been decided that Frank, +the second boy, should take this place, but he was still a youngster, +and could not then have taken so responsible a post. It was a blow to +me, for it was anything but the sphere which I should have chosen, and +it was hard to have to give up all my own dreams--" + +"It must have been! I can sympathise with you, for I know the feeling. +Nothing tries me more than to have my plans upset, and it is constantly +happening in a house like this, where there are so many others to +consider. And it must have been bad for the business too, for you knew +nothing about it, and had no experience--" + +Ned coloured, and made an uneasy movement with his shoulders. As a +matter of fact, his early days of authority had been accompanied by +mistakes which he had been glad to forget, though he had mastered the +details of the business in a surprisingly short space of time. It was +not pleasant to hear a reminder of his inexperience from the lips of his +_fiancee_, and he could not stifle a reflection that it would have been +kinder on her part to have spared him even so covert a reproach. He +tried to hide all signs of annoyance, but there was an edge in his voice +as he replied-- + +"I was inexperienced, no doubt, though perhaps not so much so as you +imagine. All my life I had been accustomed to spend a great deal of +time at the Works, and as I grew up my father had taken me into his +confidence about his growing anxieties, for even in his days he was +beginning to feel the strain of competing with the bigger firms. The +day for small men is over, Lilias, and one by one the private +manufacturers go under, ruined by the struggle to compete with the great +firms who are backed by practically unlimited capital. It was a dying +cause which I had to fight, and I became more and more convinced of the +folly of holding on until everything was lost; and then, in the very +nick of time, as it seemed, our most powerful rivals stepped forward and +offered to take over our business and to give me the post of manager. +There could be no doubt about accepting such an offer, and all my +friends rejoiced with me in the belief that the lean days were over, and +that a long lease of prosperity lay ahead." + +"But why did they make you such an offer when your business was so bad +as you say? I can understand that it was a capital thing for you, but +where did they come in? They must have had an idea that it was for +their advantage as well as for yours, or they would not have tried to +get you," said Lilias, with a shrewdness that brought the smiles back to +her lover's face. + +"Why, what a cute little woman!" he cried fondly. "She grasps the +position at once! Yes, of course, they made the offer for their own +advantage, not mine, for, you see, dear, there were a certain number of +good old-fashioned customers who still kept to us, and their business +was well worth having, though not valuable enough to make our Works pay +when the smaller orders dropped off. By taking over our connection they +made a considerable addition to their profits, even allowing for the +handsome salary given to me. Looking at the offer from a business point +of view, I saw no reason to doubt its good faith, but six months' +experience has raised some ugly doubts. More than once of late I have +felt convinced--" + +"Of what? What are your doubts? What do you believe they mean to do?" + +Ned jumped to his feet, and stood facing the girl, with clenched hands +and a face convulsed with emotion. His eyes flashed, the veins stood +out upon his forehead. + +"I believe that they mean to suck my brains,--to get all they can out of +me,--experience, introductions, connections, to suck me dry as they +would an orange, and then throw me on one side! I believe that the +salary was a bait to bribe me to give up my independence, and that it +did not matter to them that it was unusually large, since at the very +moment of offering it they had determined that my lease of office should +be of precious short duration. They cannot, for shame's sake, for their +own reputation's sake, dismiss me already, but in a hundred ways they +are bringing pressure to bear; in a hundred ways which you could not +understand, they are making it impossible for me to go on,--forcing me +into resignation--" + +"Oh, hush, hush! Don't get excited. You frighten me when you are so +fierce. I am sure you are mistaken. You are worn out after all these +years of anxiety, and imagine what is not true. I am sure they do not +want to get rid of you; and if they did, what does it matter, since you +say yourself they dare not dismiss you? Come, be a good boy, and be +happy with me, and forget all about this horrid old business. All men +have worries, but they should try to forget them when they come home! I +give you full notice that I shall forbid business to be mentioned in our +house when we get one." + +The glance which accompanied these words was meant to be irresistibly +coaxing; but, so far from being sobered yet, Ned seemed goaded into +fresh irritation. + +"Worries! Worries! You call it by a contemptible little name like +that, when I am face to face with ruin,--when our whole future is +trembling in the balance? Don't you understand that there are things +that a man may not do, and that orders may be put upon him which he +cannot obey and preserve his self-respect? He may be forced to resign +even when he would gladly work his fingers to the bone, if by any fair +means he could keep his post?" + +"Ah-ah!" cried Lilias, with a deep, indrawn breath, as if now, at last, +she had come to the real pivot on which the question hung. "Ah, yes, +Ned, I understand that if you once get the idea in that romantic head of +yours that you are being coerced to do what is not according to your +lights, there is an end of all peace until you are undeceived! We have +known you so long, remember, and heard all about your college days from +Jim. `Don Quixote,' they called you, because you were always taking up +high-flown notions of duty. It was delightful at Oxford, and such a +good example to the other men; but in business--you can't keep it up in +business, Ned! I am only a girl, but I hear people talk, and I know +quite well how it is. It is impossible to make a living at all, if you +are too particular what you do, and are always stopping to consider +other people besides yourself. You say that you were beaten by the +other firms when you were managing your father's Works, and now you will +let yourself be beaten again, if you give way to these foolish +prejudices and scruples." + +Lilias finished with a breathless gasp, and Ned stood looking down at +her in silence. An expression of absolute horror had grown in his eyes +as he listened to her words, and now he threw himself down on the chair +beside her, and grasped her hands in appeal. + +"Lilias! Lilias!--don't! Don't speak like that, darling! My little +white girl, don't turn pleader against me! You are to be my helpmeet, +my good angel, the inspiration of my life; don't begin by wishing me to +do less than my best! I am not imagining difficulties--you know I am +not--but even if I were, would it not be better to lose something for +conscience' sake, than deliberately to sell myself for gain? I am in +great perplexity, Lilias, and need all my courage. I beseech you not to +discourage me!" + +His words were, in effect, a repetition of Mrs Rendell's on the same +subject, and now, as then, Lilias was shocked into a softer, more +unselfish frame of mind. The ready tears started to her eyes, and her +voice quivered with emotion. + +"Indeed, indeed, I long to help you! I would not hinder you for the +world. I was trying to reconcile you to your position--to save you, if +possible, from worse trouble in the future. I know you will never +consent to do what is wrong, but if you are firm and patient, all may +still be well. It is worth trying, at least, for if you threw up this +post what is to happen next? You would have nothing to do." + +"I could always earn a salary of a few hundreds a year. If they have +done nothing else, these last years have given me a thorough technical +knowledge of my own business, and that has a marketable value nowadays. +With the influence of the old name to back me up, I could find some firm +ready to take me in and give me a subordinate post. If I had only +myself to think of, I should not worry my head, for I have never had any +ambition to be a rich man; and the mater has her private income--I need +not be anxious about her. The change would fall heaviest on you, and it +is of you I think. I meant to give you a home worthy of yourself, with +every luxury and comfort, but that may not be possible now. Can you +forgive me, dear, for bringing all this trouble upon you?" + +He looked wistfully into the lovely face, and Lilias pressed her lips +together, staring fixedly at the ground. At that moment she could not +bring herself to say that she forgave him, or to express any +complaisance at the thought of the future. Imagination ran riot, and +she saw as in a picture a little house in a smoky manufacturing town, +and shrank with distaste from its narrow walls and meagre furnishings. +Yes, indeed! Ned might well declare that she was the greatest sufferer, +and it was only right that he should pity her. If this breakdown had +happened three months before, her parents would not have consented to +her engagement, and it should have been his duty to be well assured of +his position before involving another, as she was now involved. The +swelling of resentment grew so strong, that, against her better +judgment, it forced itself into speech. + +"You seem fated to misfortune! It follows you wherever you go. But +this cannot all have sprung up within the last two months. You must +have known something about it in March,--in April,--before you spoke to +me!" + +From the flash in Ned's eyes she feared that he was about to make some +hot reply, but he checked himself, and answered with gentle forbearance. +Only, if she had had eyes to see it, the shadow had fallen deeper than +ever over his face, and his shoulders bent, as if an additional burden +had fallen upon them. + +"No, Lilias, I knew nothing! I would never have proposed to you if I +had not honestly believed in my good prospects. The difficulty has +arisen since then; but don't be afraid, I shall not urge you to any +sacrifices on my behalf. I will work hard, and you shall stay at home +until I can give you all you desire. I will not ask you to share a +poverty which you dread so much." + +"I wouldn't mind it for myself. It is of you I think!" murmured Lilias +sweetly. "I should love nothing so much as to help you, Ned, but I am +such a useless little thing that I should only be a drag. If it had +been Maud, it would have been different. Maud is cut out for a poor +man's wife, and would be blissfully happy living on twopence-halfpenny a +week, and making it go as far as half a crown, but I am so stupid. My +money seems to fly away, and I could not be economical if my life +depended on it." + +Ned sighed, and looked round the garden with a wistful air. + +"I wish Maud were at home!" he said. "She is always so good and +helpful. It puts new strength in a man to hear her talk. The house +does not seem like itself when Maud is away!" + + + +CHAPTER NINETEEN. + +GERVASE VANBURGH. + +"Humph!" remarked Miss Nan to herself the next afternoon, as she watched +the lovers pacing the garden walk, "Humph! unless my eyes deceive me, +relationships are strained between our dear young friends. The +atmosphere seems charged with--not electricity, but an amount of ice +which is suitable neither to the season nor the occasion. Strikes me, +I'd better be out of the way! I'll do an act of charity to another and +a good turn to myself at one and the same time, and go and have tea with +Diogenes!" + +She spoke with a certainty of welcome, justified by the delight with +which Mr Vanburgh invariably greeted her appearance, for she had +discovered that nothing pleased him so much as to see her running in and +out of the house, popping in for ten minutes' chat on her return from a +walk, or livening a dull afternoon by taking her work across the road, +and stitching by his couch. This latter attention had also brought +about the happy results of interesting the invalid in the coming sale, +and more than one of Nan's efforts was bought before it was completed, +thereby affording that young lady a terrible temptation to scamp the +work which remained. On the present occasion, however, she was in a +lazy mood, and frowned sternly on her conscience, when it suggested that +she should make use of the opportunity to finish a certain table centre. +No, indeed, she decided, she would do nothing of the kind. Unwilling +work was invariably a failure, and she felt no vocation to do anything +more energetic than sit still and eat Mr Vanburgh's delicious cakes, +and drink Mr Vanburgh's excellent tea. + +She stood up then, and, as a preliminary step, regarded herself +critically in the mirror, for among other things which had been borne in +upon her concerning her new neighbour, one was that he was exceedingly +fastidious about appearances, and as sharp as a needle to discover any +discrepancies in her attire. He was too polite to put his criticisms +into words, but his face spoke volumes, and certain historic occasions, +when she had sat smarting beneath the consciousness of a missing button +or a crooked tie, had made a lasting impression on the mind of the +careless young woman. Nowadays, however fleeting might be her visit to +the Grange, she never went without a careful examination of her +appearance. A shop window answered the purpose of a mirror, if nothing +better could be found, and one morning, as Agatha and Christabel walked +along the village street, they had been reduced to a state of speechless +amazement by discovering Nan twisting and turning before the wired +windows of the Bank, with as much concern for her appearance as though +she had been Lilias herself. + +On the present occasion there were only a few stray locks to be pinned +in order, and then the glass reflected a charming picture of happy +girlhood. The pique skirt was fresh and neat; the pink shirt belted in +by a natty white band, and the dark hair curled softly round the fresh +bright face. Nan stared at herself solemnly, contorting her face into +the curious, strained expression with which nine women out of ten regard +themselves in a mirror, twisted round, to be sure that her belt showed +no unsightly gap, pulled her tie accurately into the middle of her +collar, and finally fastened on a sailor hat, and ran gaily across the +street. She did not go to the front door this time, for--unique and +extraordinary sign of favour--to her, and to her alone, had been granted +permission to use the garden gate, enter the house by the side door, and +so make her way upstairs unannounced. Mr Vanburgh had been anxious to +put every facility in his favourite's way, for only an invalid can +appreciate the brightness which had come into his life since this merry- +hearted girl had taken compassion upon his loneliness. To see her +bonnie face peering in at the door, to hear her ringing laugh, and +listen to her voice, was better than any tonic, and seemed to put fresh +strength into his feeble body. + +Up the stairs, then, Nan ran, and made straight for the study where the +invalid spent his afternoons. The door was closed, but to wait to +announce her arrival by a knock was a proceeding far too dignified for +one of her impetuous nature; she merely turned the handle, thrust a +mischievous face round the corner, and announced boldly, "I've come to +tea!" + +There was no answering exclamation of delight, and Nan had just +discovered, with a gasp of surprise, that the couch was empty, when a +tall, fair-haired man rose suddenly and confronted her. + +"Oh," cried Nan, and stood agape with astonishment. + +"I beg your pardon," drawled the stranger, and stared back out of a pair +of handsome, sleepy eyes, "You--er--you expected to see Mr Vanburgh; I +am sorry to say he is not very well--" + +"Not well? Oh dear, I'm sorry! And are you the doctor?--Have you come +from town?" + +"Oh no!" The tall man smiled, as if, for some reason, the idea seemed +quite preposterous to his mind. "I am not the doctor. I am Mr +Vanburgh's nephew. I was coming to visit him shortly in any case, and +as I heard that he was not well, I thought it better to come down and +see for myself exactly how he was." + +"Of course. I am so vexed that I did not know about it, but I have been +so busy this week that I have not seen him since Sunday. He is really +ill? In bed? Not able to get up?" + +"He has kept in bed for two days, but is coming in presently to join me +at tea, so I hope that you--er--you will fulfil the intention with which +you came!" and the speaker smiled at the pretty girl with a sudden +lighting of the sleepy eyes. He was thinking to himself what a +marvellous difference her coming had made in the aspect of the dim, +solemn room. All day long he had roamed about the house and grounds +with the eerie feeling of being alone in an enchanted castle, where a +spell of sleep was laid on the occupants. Wherever the eye lighted, +some rare and costly treasure greeted the sight; the great rooms opened +one into the other, while rare Venetian mirrors reduplicated the +tapestries on the walls and seemed to open out fresh vistas before the +eye. It was a palace among houses, a very storehouse of treasures, but +the want of life chilled the blood in the young man's veins. Not a +human soul to be seen but the silent-footed servant with his foreign +tongue, and the crippled master, dead already to all that makes life +worth living! All day long he had been alone, struggling with a +depression which seemed to close more and more heavily around him; but +here, at last, was a creature like himself, young, radiant, full of +life, with the glow of health and happiness on her rosy cheek. His +glance was so undisguisedly friendly that Nan responded to it with a +smile, and seated herself forthwith on her accustomed chair. Shyness +not being a complaint by which she was troubled, she saw no reason for +refusing the stranger's invitation, or for disguising the keen interest +which she took in his own individuality. + +"Thank you; I'd like to stay," she said frankly. "I am so pleased to +meet you, for I know all about you. `Gervase Farrington Vanburgh',"-- +she checked off each word on uplifted fingers, and nodded her head with +an air of triumph at the completeness of her information. + +"`The Boundaries, Lipton, Devonshire.' I have posted ever so many notes +to you, and once I addressed an envelope. Perhaps you remember my +scrawly writing, with long tails to the letters? We were dreadfully +disappointed that Mr Vanburgh had no daughters, for we have not many +friends of our own age, but he tried to console us by saying that you +were coming to pay him a visit. I asked him especially to arrange it +for June, for we shall have our brother home then, and several things +going on which will make it livelier than usual. We have made all sorts +of plans for your amusement!" + +"That is kind; I appreciate it very much. I have heard of you too, and +of the pleasure which your acquaintance has given my uncle. He was +giving me an account of you all last night, from which I have no +difficulty in recognising you from your sisters. You are Miss Lilias!" + +"Lilias!--I! Good gracious! Whatever made you think that?" gasped Nan, +staring at him with eyes so clear and honest, that, though an adept in +the gentle art of flattery, Gervase Vanburgh found himself incapable of +explaining the reason of his mistake. He could not tell Nan Rendell +that, after hearing Lilias described as the beauty of the family, he had +at once identified her with the charming figure whose presence had +brought sunshine into the gloomy house. He murmured some vague excuse, +while Nan proceeded to expatiate on the difference between herself and +her sister. "Lilias is fair, and I am dark; she has golden hair, and is +quite grown up and staid and proper. I am supposed to be grown up too, +in the afternoons and in the evenings, but the mornings are my own, and +then I am disgracefully young, and behave as badly as if I were a child +again. I wish I were! I shall never be so happy again as I was in the +dear old school-days." Nan's eyes roamed wistfully across the road to +the porch room, where Elsie's sleek head could be seen bent over her +work, with Agatha and Christabel vaguely outlined at the table; then +suddenly her face lit up with mischievous smiles. "If they could only +see me!" she told herself ecstatically. "If the girls could see me +sitting here talking to this strange young man! They'd have a fit! +They'd go crazy with excitement! I must, I must lure him to the window, +and let them see us together! They will never believe me unless I do." +She looked up, to meet Gervase's eyes fixed upon her, and found +inspiration in his first remark. + +"You are looking at your own house, are you not? It is exactly opposite +this, I think. My uncle pointed it out to me last night." + +"Yes, just opposite. It stands on the road, as this one does, but we +have a lovely garden behind. You can see a little bit of it from here!" +and wily Nan led the way to the window, secure of bringing Gervase in +her train, and keeping him in evidence until it pleased her to finish +her explanations. The appearance of her own light dress was sufficient +to attract Elsie's attention; but what of the agitation of the three at +sight of her companion? Elsie fled into the background--"The better to +see you, my dear,"--and Nan's keen eyes could discern the three patches +of white made by the gaping faces, the while she smiled and posed, far +more for their benefit than that of her companion. Presently Elsie +disappeared, and Nan knew as well as if she had heard the words spoken, +that the object of her flight had been to bring the opera-glasses from +the drawing-room, when the three would take turns to stare at the +stranger, and speculate as to his identity. In the first mischievous +enjoyment of the moment she found it impossible to face her companion, +but when at last she did venture to meet his glance she was vastly +impressed by his appearance. A superfine specimen indeed, this Gervase +Vanburgh, with his frock-coat, well-creased trousers, and immaculate +linen. Even Nan, the unnoticing, noted the faultlessness of detail +which characterised his attire, and had an instant perception that Ned +Talbot would look rough and countrified by his side, and even Jim +himself suffer from the contrast. Evidently this was a dandy of the +first water; yet, despite his languid bearing, his face was full of +intelligence, and decision of character was proclaimed in the large nose +and square, clean-cut chin. + +"What a mercy I tidied my hair!" sighed Nan to herself; and at that +moment the door opened, and in came the Italian servant, pushing his +master before him in the wheeled chair in which he was moved from one +room to another. The invalid was looking more death-like than ever, but +his face lighted with pleasure at the sight of Nan, while she ran to the +sofa and arranged his cushions with loving solicitude. When he was +settled she knelt beside him to exchange greetings, putting her hand on +his with a caressing gesture, and he held it firmly while he replied, as +if gaining strength from the contact. Gervase Vanburgh thought he had +never seen so typical a picture of youth and age as that made by his +uncle and the bright-faced girl, and mentally contrasted this welcome +with the one given to himself the day before. His uncle had never shown +such pleasure on his arrival; but he felt no jealousy of the girl who +was so evidently preferred before himself; for, whatever his faults +might be, he was free at least from any tinge of self-seeking. The lazy +smile lingered on his face as he listened to the exchange of question +and answer. + +"This is a pleasant surprise, little woman! When did you come across? +I did not hear of your arrival." + +"Bounced in ten minutes ago, and had such a fright to find a stranger +here instead of you. Why didn't you send at once to tell me that you +were worse?" + +"Because I could not have seen you if you had come. On my bad days I am +best alone; but I am pulling round again, and am glad to have Gervase's +company. You have made each other's acquaintance, I see! I suppose +neither had much difficulty in guessing the identity of the other." + +"He thought I was Lilias!" said Nan, glancing at Gervase with laughing +eyes. "Think of that! He will be surprised when he sees her, won't he? +But I knew who he was in a moment. Now, tell me honestly, would you +rather I went away? I came meaning to stay to tea, but if you don't +feel able to talk to two people at once I'll come again when you are +alone. I won't be a scrap offended!" + +Mr Vanburgh smiled. + +"I am sure you would not, but I should like you to stay, please. We +want you to pour out tea for us; and I won't attempt to talk, but just +lie still and amuse myself listening to you." + +"But I never can be amusing when I try,--can you?" said Nan, appealing +to Gervase with a friendly smile. "The girls at home think I am +amusing, because I generally say the wrong thing at the wrong moment, +which may be entertaining to them, but is very poor fun for me. Maud +says I speak first and think afterwards; but what can I do? I once made +a vow to cure myself of being impetuous by counting twenty slowly before +I began to speak, and I kept it religiously two whole days. They seemed +like a month; and if I had persevered I should have become dumb, for by +the time I had counted twenty the conversation had hopped on to another +subject, and any remark was hopelessly out of date! So now I have gone +back to my old ways, and say my say, and take the consequences." + +"You don't look to me as if you were given to making painful remarks," +Gervase remarked in a conciliatory tone, and Nan straightened her back +in defence of her own behaviour. + +"Wouldn't hurt a fly! That's the worst part of it. For I am so soft- +hearted over other people's woes, that I shed tears regularly every time +I meet a tramp, and he tells me that he is a discharged seaman who has +lost his certificate, and only needs four and sixpence to take him to a +port where he is certain to find fresh work. They always have lost +their certificates and want a railway fare, but I can't help relieving +them and handing-over last Saturday's money. But a tender heart is not +much use if you make awkward remarks and quote people's own doings to +their faces, as capital jokes against somebody else! I got into +terrible trouble in that way with a caller only the other day, and if I +had had any sense I should have stopped in time, for I had plenty of +warning. Her face grew all stiff and rigid, and I wondered what in the +world had given Elsie such a cough all of a sudden. Is there any cure, +do you think, for a habit like this--anything I could do to make myself +careful?" + +There was a pause while the two men looked at the eager face, smiled, +and grew sober, as the question awoke memories from their own past. + +"A practical kindness of heart, Nan, which is not satisfied with facile +tears and offerings, but takes continual thought of the feelings of +others!" + +"Or a severe lesson!" added the younger man thoughtfully. "If you +wounded some one very near and dear, and saw them suffer through your +thoughtlessness, you could never forget it. I learnt that for myself +long ago, when--" + +But Nan heard no more of what he said, for, with a flash, her eager mind +had leapt to the solution of the mystery. More love! That was what was +needed. Love, the cure for every human fault. She applied the test to +her own experience, and found it abundantly proven. Had any word or +deed of hers hurt Maud through the period of ultra-sensitiveness through +which that dear sister had passed? Ten thousand times, no! On the +contrary, she had been quick to ward off blows, to turn dangerous +conversations into new channels, to stand between the sufferer and the +world. Where she loved it was obvious that she could show both care and +tact; it was want of love which lay at the root of her thoughtless acts +and speeches. Gervase looked up at the conclusion of his story, to find +the girl staring blankly across the room, with a glimmer of tears in the +brown eyes, and was at a loss to guess the meaning. + +"I'll begin this instant, and love every one in this world!" Nan was +saying to herself determinedly. "It will be fatiguing, but so good for +my character. I'll think of what they will like, and what I can do for +them, and spend my time in good works. What can I do now for these two +men? It's no credit pouring out tea, for I want some myself; but I +might do something for that poor Gervase to-night, when Mr Vanburgh +goes to bed, and he is left alone. He looked dolefully dull when I came +in, and I believe he would enjoy coming across and seeing us all, as he +has heard so much about us. I'll ask him anyway, and see what he says." + +The idea was so pleasant that the dimples came back to greet it; she +looked across at Gervase with a brilliant smile, and struck amazement to +his heart by inquiring blandly-- + +"Would you like to come to dinner with us tonight?" + +Gervase Vanburgh stared, as well he might, at so informal an invitation. +His uncle also struggled with a smile, and Nan, tardily conscious of +her lack of formality, plunged headlong into explanations-- + +"I meant to say that it will be lonely for you after Mr Vanburgh goes +to bed, and I am sure mother would be delighted to see you. We have Ned +Talbot, a friend of Lil--of my brother Jim staying with us, so that +there would be two other men to keep you company. When father and Jim +are away, we never ask gentlemen to the house, for mother says seven +women at one time are too great a tax on any man's nervous system; but +you wouldn't be afraid of us when there were two other men, would you? +The schoolroom girls don't come down until after dinner, so we are +really only three." + +Gervase Vanburgh laughed aloud, and Nan looked up with a quick flash of +approval, for a laugh has a tell-tale sound, and this one rang +unmistakably honest and true. + +"I am not in the least afraid," he cried boldly. "I'd like to see you +all, school-girls included. It is most kind of you to think of it, and +if Mrs Rendell will really allow me, I shall be delighted to accept +your invitation." + +So Nan ran across the street, and entered the house with the great news +that Gervase Vanburgh had arrived, and--given a formal invitation--was +coming that very evening to make the acquaintance of the family. + + + +CHAPTER TWENTY. + +AMONG THE ROSES. + +By no one was the news of Gervase Vanburgh's advent greeted with more +enthusiasm than by Lilias herself, for, truth to tell, the day had +seemed interminably long in the company of a depressed and anxious +lover. The points of view from which Ned and herself regarded his +position seemed to grow more hopelessly far apart the more it was +discussed, and the consciousness that he was disappointed by her lack of +sympathy did not tend to raise Lilias's spirits. If the question at +stake had not touched the all-important subject of future comfort, she +would have been willing to sacrifice her own wishes in order to preserve +Ned's approval, but in this crisis of their fate she would allow no such +weakness. If her own parents seemed to place Ned's scruples before her +interests, if Ned himself were so ignorant of what was due to his +_fiancee_ as to talk calmly of accepting the position of a clerk on a +few hundreds a year, it behoved her to be firm, and make Ned understand +that she would never be his wife until he could provide something more +than the bare necessaries of life. Nevertheless, the task of opposition +was far from pleasant, and the grave wonder of his glance cut like a +knife into her vain little heart. + +It was a relief to know that the presence of a stranger would prevent +further reference to the subject for this evening at least, while the +Vanburgh nephew and heir was in himself a sufficiently interesting +person. Lilias put on her prettiest dress, and sat trifling with a book +until the company had assembled in the drawing-room, and the time was +ripe for an effective entrance, when she glided into the room, and +smiled sweetly at the stranger, while Nan watched his face with +mischievous enjoyment. He was surprised--there was no mistake about +that! When Lilias raised her face to his, he gave a distinct little +start of surprise, and the sleepy eyes looked for once quite wide-awake +and animated. + +"And the stupid fellow actually mistook me for her!" chuckled Nan to +herself, with that pride in her sister's beauty which the Rendell girls +shared so loyally, looking upon it as a family possession which +reflected credit on one and all. "That's one mistake he will never make +again, however much confused he may get among six sisters!" + +Conversation at the dinner table was of a general character; but every +now and then Nan found an opportunity of exchanging a few quiet remarks +with Gervase Vanburgh, who sat next herself, the result of which was to +assure her that she had found a character as diametrically different +from her own as it was possible to imagine. She was full of energy, he +was languid to the verge of apathy; she had hard and fast opinions to +offer on every topic, known or unknown, while his "Don't know!" and +"Couldn't say!" repeated themselves with wearisome echo. She was afire +with ardour, with enthusiasm, with the burning desire to right all +wrongs, redress all evils, bring peace on earth, and start the +millennium without a moment's delay; judging from appearances, he seemed +incapable of any sort of emotion, and possessed with the conviction that +nothing was really worth taking any trouble about. + +Nan grew irritated beyond measure, wriggled about on her seat, shrugged +her shoulders, and crumbled her bread, unconscious alike of her father's +smiles and her mother's frowns, and, when actions failed to relieve her +feelings, was forced into emphatic speech. + +"Nothing interests you, nothing gives you pleasure! You care for +nothing, you hope for nothing! I wouldn't be like you for the whole +wide world!" she declared; and Gervase Vanburgh fixed his melancholy +eyes upon her, and said tragically-- + +"And I would give the whole wide world if I could once more care and +hope like you!" + +This was disconcerting. Nan had not expected so speedy a concession, +and she followed her mother from the room oppressed by the remembrance +of that melancholy look, and consumed with curiosity as to its cause. +Money anxiety it could not be, seeing that Mr Vanburgh's heir need +never fear want; but a broken home, disappointed love, and faithless +friendship held out wide avenues for speculation. Nan sat and pondered, +listening meekly to her mother's reproofs, while inside the dining-room +Mr Rendell could not resist putting a home question to his visitor. + +"You were amused by my little girl's enthusiasm! I saw her growing hot +and eager, and had a strong suspicion that you were leading her on! She +is a most fervent young person, and cannot understand being less than in +deadly earnest over any question." + +"She is er--refreshingly young!" replied Gervase in his soft, drawling +voice. He took no notice of the charge made against himself, but went +on peeling his fruit with an air of pensive exhaustion, at which the two +elder men exchanged glances of amusement. He looked at once so young, +so healthy, and so prosperous, that this affectation of depression had +somewhat of a ludicrous air to men who knew the world and had +acquaintance with real and pressing anxieties. Ned Talbot looked across +the table at the handsome youngster, and heaved a sigh to the memory of +the good old days when he also was happy enough to invent troubles, and +philosophise darkly concerning unknown woes. He had come south with a +heart heavy with care, yet with an expectation of comfort which had +taken away half the sting, but that hope had been doomed to +disappointment, and on the morrow he must return to his work with an +added fear in his heart. Could it be that he had been mistaken in +Lilias? As a man eating a soft bloomy peach jars his teeth suddenly +against its stone, so had Ned found himself confronted with a hardness +in his _fiancee's_ nature which had brought with it a shock of +disillusionment. Surely, surely, if a girl were ever to be sweet and +sympathetic to the man whom she had promised to marry, it was when he +was threatened by misfortune; but Lilias evidently refused to believe in +his version of affairs, and cherished a grudging conviction that he was +sacrificing her to romantic scruples. He had talked, and pleaded, and +reasoned--it was like hitting one's self against a wall. She never +swerved from her position, her voice never lost its tone of studied +toleration; and now he sat, the poor fellow! listening dreamily to the +conversation between the other two men, too weary and depressed to take +any active share in it himself. + +When a movement was made towards the drawing-room half an hour later, +however, Lilias was discovered leaning against the lintel of the window, +looking so young, so sweet and fragile, that every chivalrous instinct +rose up in her defence. Such a girl was not made to endure hardships, +Ned reflected tenderly. The man who was lucky enough to own her should +be prepared to carry all burdens on his own shoulders. He was ready! +Oh yes; if Lilias would but love him faithfully, he would work for her +with the strength of twenty men. He was eager to tell her so, to +apologise for his harshness of the afternoon; and, stepping past into +the garden, he caught her hand in his, and tried to draw her away. + +"Come, dear, come! Let us walk round the garden. I want to speak to +you alone." + +Lilias laughed, gave a caressing little squeeze to his hand, but stood +firmly in her position. Gervase Vanburgh and her father were +approaching, and a general conversation seemed at the moment more +interesting than a _tete-a-tete_ with her lover. So far she had had +little opportunity of speaking to the stranger, and his appearance both +interested and perplexed her. The air of languid elegance which +provoked Nan, filled her sister with admiration, yet there was something +baffling in the expression of the sleepy eyes. Lilias had an +uncomfortable impression that those eyes might be very keen on +occasions, and would have suspected a quizzical expression at the +present moment, had the idea not been so palpably absurd. Why should +Gervase find anything amusing in her attitude? It was surely a most +natural thing that she, as the eldest daughter at home, should wait for +the gentlemen, while her sisters went out into the garden, and, that +being so, where should she stand, if not by the window? Nevertheless, +the slow, quiet smile which followed his glance around, sent the blood +into her cheeks, and seemed to intimate that he was as well aware as +herself of the appropriateness of the background, and the care which had +devised that seemingly careless pose! So disconcerted was she that she +would have been inclined to retire in Ned's company had he pressed his +request a second time, but he was silenced by the first refusal, and the +little group stood together exchanging commonplaces, until a white dress +appeared among the rose-bushes, and Nan's voice called out an unabashed +summons-- + +"I thought you were never coming! Why don't you come out? It's +perfectly lovely here. The roses smell so delicious in the dusk; and +oh, father, there are two whole flowers on the little pink-belled +saxifrage you brought home from Norway!" + +"No!" cried Mr Rendell in tones of incredulous ecstasy, which stamped +him on the spot as one of the noble army of gardeners. He hurried +forward to inspect the new treasures, while Nan went down on her knees +to hold up their tiny heads and expatiate on their fragile beauty. When +she arose five minutes later, she found two surprises awaiting her, the +first being the presence of Mr Vanburgh by her side, and the second, +alas! two large green stains on her white skirt, in the middle of the +front seam, where she had knelt on the dewy grass. Her face of dismay +as she pointed downwards evoked a laugh from the two men, but Mr +Rendell checked himself, glanced over his shoulder towards where his +wife paced to and fro, and said quickly-- + +"Better run upstairs, dear, and change it. No need to be distressed; +you have plenty more, I suppose, and it will wash." + +Nan groaned in a sepulchral fashion, and shook her head. + +"You don't understand! It's an evening skirt with trimmings, not an +ordinary pique. My very best too! I put it on because Mr Vanburgh was +coming, and now it's spoilt!" + +"Oh, surely not! Don't say that; it makes me feel so horribly guilty. +Let me try if I can rub it off," cried the visitor eagerly; and, before +Nan could protest, out came a superfine hemstitched handkerchief, and +Gervase began rubbing the damaged skirt with such vigour, that the +stains grew larger and larger, and increased their borders so rapidly +that they met and blended in one great whole. His face lengthened with +horror as he withdrew his handkerchief, and gazed upon the results of +his labour; and Nan said dismally-- + +"Thank you so much! It's much worse now! Wish I were old enough to +wear black always, and not be bothered. My life's a burden to me +because of my clothes!" + +"For the mother's pride the child must suffer pain!" cried Mr Rendell, +laughing. "That is what Kitty said, isn't it, when her mother insisted +on pinning down the end of her collar? Better confess at once, Mops, +and get it over! Tell your mother she can send it to the cleaner's, and +I'll stand the racket." + +"Come and tell her yourself. D-oo, ducky darling! Sweetest father in +all the world, come and plead for me!" coaxed Nan, hanging on to his +arm, and rubbing his face with her soft cool cheek, while he affected to +push her away, and in reality allowed himself to be led where she would +take him. + +Mr Vanburgh followed, stroking his moustache to conceal his smile, and +Mrs Rendell's quick eyes saw their approach, and fixed themselves +sternly upon Nan's ruined skirt. + +"Another accident, Edith, worse luck! The grass would get damp, and +Mops and I were so interested in looking at our plant that we forgot +everything else, and--" + +"So I observe! It is a pity, but I am not surprised. What can one +expect from Nan, but destruction!" Mrs Rendell spoke with melancholy +resignation, while the assembled sisters looked on with solemn eyes. +Dainty Lilias, pensive Elsie, kindly Agatha, Christabel the immaculate, +they stood gazing in a solid phalanx of disapproval, while Nan the +culprit hung her head and flushed with embarrassment. A moment later +Mrs Rendell had turned the conversation into another channel, unwilling +to prolong the present discussion in the presence of a stranger, and Nan +seized the opportunity to escape to the far end of the garden. Gervase +Vanburgh stood in her path, and spied the glimmer of tears on the dark +eyelashes as she passed by. Then she disappeared, and Elsie's chin +dropped with amazement as she saw the elegant stranger deliberately mark +a stone on the path, and kick it savagely with the toe of his patent +leather shoe. + +"Bland of exterior, but concealing beneath the surface secret and +violent impulses!" Such was the character given to Gervase Vanburgh in +Miss Elsie Rendell's diary that evening; and perhaps for once the +youthful author was not far wrong in her conclusions! + + + +CHAPTER TWENTY ONE. + +A VOW OF FRIENDSHIP. + +The next morning at ten o'clock the Italian servant was entrusted with a +message from his master which created a wild excitement in the Rendell +family. Mr Vanburgh was restored to his usual health, and wished to +celebrate that fact, and provide at the same time a little entertainment +for his nephew, by giving an _alfresco_ luncheon in the garden, to which +he invited his friends at Thurston House. The meal would be served +under the beech-tree on the lawn, and Mr Vanburgh hoped to welcome his +guests at one o'clock precisely. + +"But not all of us! There are six of us--six women--not to mention Mr +Talbot. Mr Vanburgh cannot mean to include the school-room party! The +elder ones will be delighted to accept, but--" + +"_Mother_!" gasped Christabel. Agatha laid hold of the back of a couch, +and prepared to faint on the spot, and the Italian looked from one to +the other, a gleam of amusement showing in the dusky eyes. + +"My master would be much disappointed, madam. He wishes especially the +young signorinas. I am to bear an invitation also to Mrs Maitland and +to Miss Kitty." + +That settled the matter! If Kitty were going, it would be nothing short +of cruelty to keep her companions at home, so Mrs Rendell sent a +general acceptance to the invitation, and shrugged her shoulders +resignedly as each of the five girls hugged her in turns, and deafened +her with questions. + +"Mother, what shall I wear?" + +"Mother, my pique skirts have not come home from the wash! I wish you +would leave that horrid laundry. It's the third time--" + +"Mother, will my pink blouse do? It's the nicest I have, and it's only +a little bit soiled on the sleeves, and if I wore clean cuffs--" + +"Mother, need I change? Can't I go as I am, and be happy? I might want +to climb over a fence, and it's such spiky work." + +"Mother, I think we should all go dressed alike in white dresses and +blue ties, and march across the road in a crocodile. Do let's! It +would be such fun!" + +Mrs Rendell pressed her hands to her head in distracted fashion. + +"If every single one of you is not out of this room in two minutes from +now, I'll retract, and send a refusal instead! Get away to your work! +I'll see you separately later on, if you want instructions, but surely +girls of your age ought to be able to dress without my assistance! The +only thing I bargain for is that you are _not_ alike, for that would +only accentuate your number, and as it is I feel ashamed to appear with +such a battalion." + +"Lilias, need we go?" Ned Talbot slid his hand through his _fiancee's_ +arm, and drew her into the garden. "If the party is too large, why +should we not reduce it by two, and have a quiet little lunch by +ourselves? I must leave before four o'clock, and if we go to the Grange +it will mean that we have no more time together, for we cannot run away +immediately after lunch. Mr Vanburgh would understand our position if +we sent an excuse." + +"Oh, Ned!" cried Lilias, and the tone of reproach was so eloquent that +there could be no mistaking her wishes on the subject. "Oh, Ned, the +first time we have been asked! Our first invitation! You couldn't +really wish me to refuse it. I should be so dreadfully disappointed. +You don't know how much we have longed to be asked, or what castles in +the air we have built about this day!" + +"Very well, dear; don't trouble yourself. We will do just as you +please," said Ned wearily. He tried to convince himself of the +reasonableness of Lilias's position, and to show no sign of resentment; +but the jar was there all the same, and seemed to set up a barrier +between them in all they did and said. If any one had foretold that he +should feel time drag heavily in Lilias's company, and cast about in his +mind for subjects on which to talk, how he would have derided the idea! +yet, alas, it had come true, for he felt a distinct sense of gratitude +towards Nan when she thrust her head out of a bedroom window and +summoned Lilias to her assistance. When there is no sympathy in the +great principles of life, small talks become increasingly difficult, as +this poor fellow was discovering to his cost. + +Punctually at one o'clock the door of Thurston House was thrown open, +and Mrs Rendell was discovered standing upon the threshold, issuing +final directions to her flock. + +"Stop talking! My dear, good girls, if you insist upon speaking all +together, how am I to make myself heard? Pray calm yourselves, and +behave like reasonable beings. Don't let me have the humiliation of +taking about a crowd of excited children who might never before have +been outside their own gate!" Then she marched majestically ahead, with +the demure Elsie as her companion, while the engaged couple followed, +and each of the three remaining girls fell back in turns to cast a +critical glance at her companions. Half-way across the road Nan's belt +was discovered to have parted company with the skirt, and the most +strategic measures were necessary in order to secure it before her +mother reached the door of the Grange. + +"And remember, all of you, not to put your arms round her waist! The +pin will stick out, whatever I do with it," said Christabel darkly; then +the door was thrown open, and the butler led the way across the hall +towards the entrance to the garden. Each member of the visiting party +was consumed with curiosity to examine the beautiful objects on either +side, but had too much ado to keep her footing on the slippery oak floor +to have any attention to spare. Lilias clung to Ned's arm, Mrs Rendell +and Elsie minced along with tiny footsteps, and Nan waited until no one +was looking, and then gave giant strides from one mat to another, or +clung to a friendly rail to help her round slippery corners. Then at +last the garden was reached, and there, beneath the trees, stood an +enchanted table, laden with everything that was beautiful in the way of +glass and china, and banked up with a wealth of pink roses. + +Mr Vanburgh's couch was drawn up at its head, and Kitty Maitland sat at +his side, bearing herself with that preternatural solemnity of manner +which she invariably adopted along with her best dress and hat. A +moment later Mrs Maitland and Gervase appeared from behind a tree, and +the elders shook hands and murmured the meaningless speeches common to +such occasions, while Kitty took an early opportunity of stepping to +Chrissie's side, and calling her attention to the splendours on the +table in a series of awed and breathless whispers. + +"Gold spoons! Venetian glass! It breaks if you look at it! I daren't +drink a drop out of those tumblers, and I'm so thirsty! Such cream! +Such strawberries!--big as peaches, my love, and such lots of them. I +feel like the Queen of Sheba. There's no spirit left in me, it's all so +grand and gorgeous." + +"I like it. It suits me! I was born to splendour!" said Chrissie, with +an air. "I call it awfully sweet of him to do the thing so well. But +what a dreadful number of knives and forks! I shall never know which to +use. I wish I had asked mother about it before we came, for I do so +detest making mistakes. Before a butler, too--so humiliating! And yet +I don't want to refuse anything I can help!" + +"Don't refuse! Take all that comes, and crumble bread until you see how +other people eat it. That's my dodge when I go out to lunch with +mother. I say, how do you like the nephew? Doesn't he look ex-actly +like the tailor's advertisement that you see in the shop windows? I +have never seen any man look like that before, and want to pinch him, to +see if he is real. Do you suppose it's possible to be so handsome, and +yet as nice as if he were ugly, like Jim?" + +"Jim! Jim ugly!" gasped Jim's outraged sister furiously. "Gwendoline +Maitland, you are raving! Jim is the best-looking man I know, and I'll +tell him the moment that he comes home that you said--" + +"Jim won't mind. I told him so myself last year. He asked how I liked +his moustache, and I said it was `stubbly,' and he said moral worth was +better than brilliantine. There's none of your nasty pride about Jim." + +Chrissie glared, but Kitty refused to be annihilated, and crinkled her +nose in sauciest defiance, whereupon her companion stared into space +with an expression of disdain. An onlooker would have concluded that a +serious quarrel had taken place; but such small interludes were of +common occurrence in the friendship of these two young women, and five +minutes later they were pinching each other in the most amicable manner, +and whispering, "Sit by me! Sit by me!" as if true happiness could not +be enjoyed apart. + +During the meal which followed there was ample opportunity of "crumbling +bread," for the Vanburgh cook had received instructions to eclipse +himself for the young ladies' benefit, and the succession of curious +unknown dishes which he sent to table would have puzzled more +experienced "diners out" than the members of the present party. A +prettier scene could hardly be imagined than the table under the trees, +with the green lawn sweeping away on either side, the foreign servants +flitting to and fro, and the six girlish faces of the guests beaming +with delighted approval. Elsie's eyes grew large and dreamy, as she +mentally rehearsed the most appropriate language in which to chronicle +the event in her diary. Such expressions as "Arabian Nights +entertainment," "Green sward," and "Princely Splendour," figured largely +in the description, which ran to an inordinate length, and still seemed +to have left half the wonders untold. + +Nan spoke little during the meal, but, like the proverbial parrot, +noticed much. She noticed that, though the utmost courtesy was +maintained between uncle and nephew, the elder man was evidently annoyed +by the persistent nonchalance of the younger; and she had a shrewd +suspicion that Gervase knew as much, yet did not trouble himself to +rectify it. She noticed that, while Ned was depressed, Lilias's mood +was of the gayest and sweetest; and she noticed that Gervase noticed as +much, and studied the lovers narrowly from his point of vantage across +the table. She heard dear old Agatha discussing politics with her host, +and quoting her father wholesale in her gallant attempt to be grown up +and important; and she chuckled audibly over the two schoolgirls' +enjoyment of the fare. Then at last the meal was over, and she heaved a +sigh of relief that all had passed off without catastrophe and with +credit to the family. No one had broken the fragile glass, no one had +betrayed a plebeian ignorance of the _convenances_, nor showed ill-bred +surprise. They had examined the _menu_ with an understanding air, as +though every other name was not as Greek to their ears, and had +refrained from any signs of approval more noticeable than pressures of +feet under the table, and occasional sly joltings of elbows. + +The two ladies stayed beside Mr Vanburgh, while the younger members of +the party strolled about the grounds, Gervase Vanburgh first walking +with Lilias, and then making an excuse to cross to Nan's side. He +smiled as he came, and his first words showed that he had grasped the +situation without any need for words. + +"I shall get myself disliked if I stay there any longer! Mr Talbot +leaves in another hour, I think, so it is hardly fair to him to engross +your sister." + +"But how do you know anything about Mr Talbot? I never told you," +cried Nan in amaze; and Gervase smiled in his aggravating, lazy fashion +as he replied-- + +"Oh no, you simply said that `a friend of Lil--a friend of my brother +Jim' was staying with you at present. That was all, I think. You gave +me no information." + +"Which means that I did, of course, and blurted out everything in my +stupid, headlong fashion," sighed Nan dolefully. "It doesn't matter +much in this case, for a good many people know; but mother wishes it +kept as quiet as possible, because--" + +"Just so. But I assure you that even without your hint I should have +discovered for myself that they were at present engaged; so there is no +necessity to blame yourself." + +Nan wheeled round upon him with flashing eyes. + +"Why do you say `at present'?" she demanded; and Gervase smiled in +impenetrable fashion. + +"Did I say so? Foolish slip! They are engaged, of course. I wish Miss +Lilias every happiness, and congratulate Mr Talbot on his good taste. +She is certainly a lovely girl." + +"Oh, isn't she?" cried Lilias's sister gladly. "I knew you would say +so. You see now how absurd it was to mistake me for her, and what a +difference there is between us! I knew quite well you would be +surprised." + +Gervase Vanburgh put back his head, and stared at her with a scrutiny +which was not without a touch of cynicism; but the eager face he met was +at once so frank and so honest, that the sneer faded from his lips and +gave place to a smile. + +"Yes," he said slowly, "there is a great difference. I cannot imagine +two people more unlike. You are complete contrasts in every respect." + +"She is so fair, and I am dark," sighed Nan, a trifle abashed by so +vehement an assent, but striving loyally to conceal her discomfiture. +"Lilias is our beauty, and we are all very proud of her; but you cannot +really know the family until you have met Maud. Maud is the eldest +sister, and the best and sweetest of them all. She isn't pretty, but +she is such a dear that every one loves her. `Maud of all work' Jim +calls her, because she is always helping other people and forgetting +herself." + +"Most exemplary, I'm sure. Excellent example!" drawled Gervase with a +yawn, at the sound of which the last trace of Nan's patience gave way. +She stood still in the path and fixed him with a glittering eye; but the +speech which swelled in her throat was slow in coming, choked back by +very excess of emotion. Gervase, in some alarm, demanded the cause of +her agitation, and received a straighter answer than he expected. + +"I don't care to speak about Maud to a person who only sneers at her +goodness. If you don't mind, I'd rather talk about the weather, and the +garden, and things that don't matter; and then I can keep as indifferent +as you are yourself, and we sha'n't quarrel." + +"I sneer! I beg a hundred pardons, Miss Nan, if I have appeared to +sneer at anything you say; but I assure you that I have never yet +voluntarily sneered at goodness; so that in this instance at least you +are doing me an injustice. You must believe me, please, for I am +thoroughly in earnest." + +"Yes, I see you are. I'm sorry that I misjudged you." + +"And I am sorry too. You are sorry, I am sorry, we are both sorry, so +now suppose we drop this subject and start afresh. I'd like to be +friends with you if you will; for I expect we shall see a good deal of +each other in future, and it would distress my uncle if we disagreed. +Do you think you could sign a treaty of friendship with me?" + +"Well," said Nan slowly--and then paused, too honest to pledge her word +without counting the cost--"I could, but I'm not sure that it would +last. We are so different. Would you mind answering one personal +question?" + +"I'll answer fifty with pleasure if it's in my power." + +"Then have you known some awful trouble? Has something dreadful, heart- +breaking, happened to you, which you are trying to cover up and hide +from the world?" + +Gervase stared at her in amazement, which ended in a laugh. + +"Certainly not! I have had an absolutely smooth life--too smooth, I am +afraid, for the growth of character. Now I wonder what made you take +such an idea into your head!" + +"I thought perhaps your heart was broken, and that was why you took no +interest in anything that was going on." + +"Do I take no interest? I was under the impression that I took a great +deal--sometimes; but I have learned to conceal my feelings. You may not +perhaps be aware that English boys are educated in this fashion, +nowadays. At a public school it is considered `bad form' to be +enthusiastic on any subject. `Not bad' or `pretty decent' are the +superlatives of praise, and anything more emphatic is sure to be +snubbed. Perhaps I have been too apt a disciple in that school." + +"I call it a hateful school! and if I had a hundred sons I would not let +one of them be trained under such an influence. If a boy is not to be +enthusiastic when he is young, when will he be, pray? Youth is the time +for noble dreams, for enthusiasm which carries all before it. It is the +enthusiasm of youth which keeps the world moving. None of your languid +half-measures for me!" declaimed Nan dramatically, backing into a +flower-bed in her earnestness, and trampling half a dozen begonias +beneath her heels. "Life is real--life is earnest!" + +"It is indeed," cried Gervase, laughing; "and so, if you will permit me +to say so, is my uncle's gardener, when he is roused! Begonias, I +fancy, are his special passion. Miss Nan, you will have to be friends +with me whether you will or not, for our natures are so different that +we could be of infinite service to each other. You could inspire me +with your own enthusiasm, and I, in my turn, could curb and restrain +you." + +"But, dear me," cried Nan, "I don't want to be curbed!" Then she looked +at the begonias, and her face fell. "But I suppose, like all +disagreeable things, it would be good for me; so I'll be friends, if you +like, Mr Vanburgh, and take my share of the discipline." + +"I feel much honoured. It shall be my endeavour to be as little +disagreeable as I can," said Gervase Vanburgh, with his courtly bow; and +thus were the deeds signed in a friendship destined to have far-reaching +consequences. + + + +CHAPTER TWENTY TWO. + +LILIAS INTERFERES. + +Nan's compact of friendship with Gervase Vanburgh was announced to the +family, and received with acclamation by the younger sisters, and with +shocked disapproval by grown-up Lilias. + +"Most improper!" she pronounced it. "You ought to remember, Nan, that +you are no longer a child in the schoolroom, and that such an intimacy +with a man of Mr Vanburgh's age is simply another word for flirtation. +It is all very well to call it friendship, but everybody knows perfectly +well what it means!" + +She stopped short with an expressive wave of the hands, and Nan glared +at her with flashing eyes. + +"If there is one thing more than another that I loathe--and detest--and +scorn--and despise," she replied, dropping out each word with vindictive +emphasis, "it is looking upon every man one meets in the light of a +possible husband, and taking for granted that you can't be civil to him +without making a fool of yourself! I don't know quite what you mean by +`flirting,' unless it is giggling and making eyes, as some idiotic girls +do; and I am quite sure that I am in no danger of following their +example!" + +"You know perfectly well, Nan, that it means much more than that; and +Mr Vanburgh is a man of the world, and understands exactly to what you +are lending yourself. Judging by his manner, I should call him an +accomplished flirt!" + +"Very well, then, I will ask him about it on the first opportunity. I +will tell him what you say, and find out what his ideas are, before +things have gone any further." + +A gasp of dismay sounded round the schoolroom, for the listeners knew +that Nan was perfectly capable of putting her threat into words, and, +moreover, that in her present state of indignation it was certain that +she intended to do so. Lilias broke into angry protests, but Nan's icy, +"Don't be alarmed! I shall not mention your name," showed that the true +reason of her discomfiture had been gauged, and she could only hope that +no opportunity would occur for the putting of such a question before +Gervase left the Grange. In this hope, however, she was doomed to be +disappointed; for Mr Vanburgh invited Nan to tea on the following day, +and she departed, primed with determination. It seemed at first that +she would have no opportunity of broaching the all-important subject; +but when tea was over, Gervase proposed a walk round the grounds, and +Nan was no sooner clear of the house than she gave a preliminary little +cough, and said, in sententious accents-- + +"Mr Vanburgh, we have agreed to be friends, but I should like to hear, +as a preliminary measure, exactly your definition of the term. What is +a friend?" + +Gervase's eyes twinkled and his lips twitched beneath his moustache, but +he made a gallant attempt at seriousness, and replied-- + +"A friend is a comrade who is faithful not only in words, but in deeds. +My friend is one who will make personal sacrifices to ensure my welfare; +who will not hear me maligned behind my back, but will reprove me to my +face when I have done wrong. My friend is one who cares for me for +myself, apart from my circumstances, and will be most loyal and loving +in the time of trouble!" + +"Bravo! Bravo!" cried Nan enthusiastically. "That's good! I like +that! Those are exactly my own sentiments, only I could not have put +them into words. I had no idea you were so eloquent. Now, another +definition, please. What is a flirt?" + +"A flirt!" An expression of the most complete amazement passed over +Gervase Vanburgh's face as he echoed the word, for this was, indeed, the +last question which he had expected to hear from Nan Rendell's lips. + +"You want me to define a flirt? That is a little more difficult, but I +will try what I can do. `One who practises the art of flirting,' the +dictionary would tell us, with its usual admirable candour, but that +doesn't seem to give much enlightenment. A flirt, I should say, is the +antithesis of a friend, for he affects more than he feels; he flatters +and makes pretty speeches, while in effect he may be critical and +disparaging. He thinks of himself and his own amusement, and is so much +concerned for the gratification of his own vanity that he often inflicts +serious wounds on the hearts of others." + +"So bad as that? Horrid things, how I despise them! I can't imagine +how people can make themselves so contemptible. Well, whatever may be +my faults, I can honestly say I am not a flirt; but some people are so +suspicious that they are always imagining mischief. Some one said to +me--I mean, I've heard it said--that when a man and a girl like you and +me agree to be friends, it is just another way of beginning a +flirtation. It made me very angry when I heard that; but now that I +have asked you, I am quite satisfied, for it seems impossible to mix the +two things together. You can't flatter a person when you have agreed to +tell him his faults; you can't feign a sentiment which is real. I knew +I was right, though I could not argue it out; but for the future I +sha'n't mind a bit when you say nasty things to me, for I shall feel +they are a proof of friendship; and I shall find fault with you on every +possible occasion, just to show that I am not flirting, and have only +your own good at heart." + +Nan stopped short, quite out of breath with eagerness, and Gervase +looked at her with a scrutinising smile. + +"So!" he was saying to himself, "Somebody said, did she? I wish +Somebody would mind her own business, and not put foolish ideas into +your innocent little head. Somebody has her own hands pretty full, I +imagine, and might be better employed looking after her own affairs;" +but aloud he said simply-- + +"We will make a compact that we will never flirt with each other, but be +the truest and most candid of friends; and, to begin as we mean to go +on, lay your instructions upon me now for my conduct during my absence. +You know my life--an idle one, unfortunately--living in my own place, +among my own tenants, in a sleepy little corner of the earth, which +affords no opportunity for adventure. I fear I shall come back with no +heroic deeds to recount!" + + "`Do the work that's nearest, + Though it's dull at whiles, + Helping, when you meet them, + Lame dogs o'er the stiles!'" + +quoted Nan impressively. "That's one of my pet verses, which I quote to +comfort myself when I am burning to do great deeds, and have to hem +dusters instead. Be thankful you are a man, and have not to hem +dusters; and try to take an interest in your tenants, and help them over +their stiles. I'm sure many of them are lame, and longing for you to +come to their aid; and really and truly it would do you all the good in +the world to think of something beside yourself!" + +"I have never yet found any one who interested me so much; but I will +make the effort. And for yourself--look where you are going, think what +you are doing, be a trifle more circumspect in coming downstairs and +bicycling round corners, and I will hope to meet you again in health and +strength and with as few broken limbs as may be at the end of another +month. Goodbye, little friend! All good be with you!" + +He held out his hand, and smiled upon her in the slow, kindly fashion +which already seemed familiar in her eyes, and Nan felt a sudden warmth +at her heart, as at the realisation of a new joy in life. + +"Good-bye," she cried heartily; "and I'm glad I promised. I'm glad we +are going to be friends." + + + +CHAPTER TWENTY THREE. + +JIM RETURNS. + +"In work, in work, in work alway, let my young days be passed, that I +may fade away and die, as I am doing f-ast!" sighed Kitty Maitland one +afternoon a month later, as she sat in the porch-room, surrounded with a +mountain of needlework, on which she was laboriously stitching labels, +while the elder girls consulted together as to prices, and Elsie plied +an iron at a side-table, smoothing away disfiguring creases and +crumples. It was amazing to see the quantity of work which had been +gathered together, and nobody was more surprised at the amount than the +workers themselves. When the contents of drawers, ottomans, and +cupboards had been gathered together and laid on the table, the girls +had gasped with amazement. Who could have believed that their little +efforts could have achieved such a whole? Who could have credited that +friends would have come forward with such generous and ready help? +During the last few days parcels had arrived by every post, and from the +most unexpected sources; while good, kind Maud had come home from Paris +with a box full of spoils from the Louvre and Bon Marche. Lilias +declared that her heart leapt within her when she reflected that she had +originated the beneficent scheme; but Nan vowed that it made her tired +even to look at the things, and reflect how hard-worked she must have +been; and Kitty, as has been seen, went in absolute fear of her life! + +"I never want to see another pin-cushion so long as I live!" she +announced tragically, as she tacked the label on the last of these +useful articles, and tossed it impatiently to her companions. "If you +charge more than one and six for that beauty, it's a cheat, for it's a +regular museum of odds and ends. Heigho! this grows monotonous. Let me +go out into the garden and begin preparations there. My master mind is +wasted sitting here sewing on labels. I want scope--variety!" + +"You can't get it then, until you have finished the work on hand. It +ought not to matter to you what you do, so long as you are helping +forward," said Lilias severely. "To-morrow morning will be plenty of +time to arrange the tables." + +"If it is fine! I am sorry to discourage you, but it is raining +already. I see five drops on the window-pane," announced Elsie in a +tone of satisfaction, born of the remembrance that she had "told them +so!" months ago, and that they had refused to believe her; but her +triumph was short-lived, for the girls only laughed at her five drops, +called her their "faithful croaker," and altogether played such havoc +with her dignity that she retired within her shell in displeasure. Had +the occasion been less important, she would have flown to her room to +pour out her woes to the ever-sympathetic diary; but no personal slight +could be allowed to interfere with work to-day, for at four o'clock Jim +would arrive, and never should it be said that the Rendell girls were +engaged on their own devices when the one and only brother returned to +his home! The first few hours after Jim's arrival could be spent in no +other way than gazing upon him, in drinking in his words, and hanging +around him in adoring admiration. + +By four o'clock the porch-room was abandoned, and each sister, attired +in her best blouse and freshest skirt, was craning her head out of the +dining-room window, while Kitty Maitland hovered in the background, +scarcely less excited than themselves. He came. He stepped out of the +fly, paid the cabman, and lounged up the path, lifting his head to nod +in patronising fashion to his adorers. He was no Apollo of beauty, no +Samson of strength, but just an ordinary-looking young man in an +ordinary grey suit, with ordinary irregular features redeemed from +plainness by an expression of quizzical good humour; yet each of the +eight beholders gave a gasp of adoration as she beheld him. His +mother's eyes swam with tears as she embraced her boy; Maud felt a ray +of pure, unselfish happiness; even Lilias overlooked the fact that his +collar was of an unfashionable shape in the delight of meeting. As for +the younger girls, they fell upon him, and hugged and kissed, and kissed +and hugged again, until he was obliged to beat them off with his long +grey arms. + +"Now, then! Now, then! Leave a fellow alone! I won't stand being +mauled to death!" cried the ungrateful male, scrubbing his cheek with +his handkerchief, as if contaminated by the touch of so many feminine +lips. "Take it easy, and I'll speak to each in turn, but I can't tackle +the bundle together. Where's Maud? Where's my Maud? Come over here, +Maud, and don't let these youngsters keep you in the background! +Holloa, Nan, what's the matter with your back hair? Done it up, eh? +Doesn't look half so well, you know, but I suppose you take it out in +honour and glory. Best respects, Lilias; how's the young man? You +kiddies are getting too tall--that's what's the matter with you. I +shall feel quite an old man at this rate. Do you mean to say that is +`Cath-er-ine Maitland' I see before me? Kitty, my own! How _large_ you +have grown!" + +"Jim, you rude man! Behave, if you can!" retorted Kitty with admirable +promptitude. It was an old habit of these two to converse in couplets, +though Kitty lived in chronic dread of an hour when she should fail to +invent an appropriate reply. Her present success filled her with +satisfaction, and evoked a burst of laughter from her companions; and +though Jim rolled his eyes at her in threatening manner as he entered +the drawing-room, he refrained from a further effort, and devoted his +attention to the admirable tea provided for his benefit. His sisters +waited upon him obsequiously, while his mother sat with folded hands +gloating over the sight of the tall, masculine figure seated in state on +the centre of the sofa. What joy to behold him again--her only son, her +pride, her darling! How she glorified him, and exulted in him, and +rejoiced in every evidence of his beautiful manhood! The sight of the +thick-soled boots gave her a positive thrill of joy; she looked unmoved +at the mud on the carpet, and did not even wince when he crumpled her +best silk cushion behind his back. + +Jim looked across, caught her glance, and flashed back an answering +message which made her heart swell with joy. Her boy loved her, and had +no fear to meet his mother's eye! That was all she wanted to know, and +she knew it without further questioning. Jim was not given to words; +and even if he wished to speak, how could the poor boy _get_ a chance, +with seven excited girls all talking to him at the same moment? + +Jim listened blankly for some moments before he could understand the +drift of the remarks, but gradually the words "Sale" and "Bazaar" +disentangled themselves from the clamour and awoke a dim remembrance. + +"Oh, the sale for the Mission! You did tell me something about it! +Coming off to-morrow, is it? That's a bore! Why didn't you get it over +before I came?" + +The girls shrieked aloud in dismay, and, under cover of their protests, +Maud whispered an eager-- + +"Take an interest in it, do! They have worked so hard, poor dears, and +they want you to help!"--which had the effect of rousing him to the +importance of the position. + +"All right, girls, I'll see you through!" he announced, with the self- +confidence which a man assumes as if by instinct in discussions with his +womenkind. He had the vaguest ideas of what was expected, no knowledge +at all of the difficulties of the position; but it never occurred to him +to doubt his own ability to overcome these difficulties, and put the +final triumphant touch on the girls' labours. + +"I'll see you through!" he repeated; and his sisters chorused their +thanks and murmured grateful acknowledgments, while Kitty Maitland kept +silent and eyed him askance through her spectacles, registering a vow to +speak faithfully on the subject of masculine vanity on the first +convenient opportunity. + +The next morning each of the six Rendell girls awoke with a start and a +shiver of dismay. What had happened? For a moment they could not tell, +yet a cloud of depression was there; and then, alas! in each case a +glance at the window answered the question. Down fell the rain, +splashing the panes, soaking the trees, turning the paths into pools of +water, weighing down the heads of flowers, and scattering blossoms over +the grass. Alas and alas! it was almost too dreadful to be believed, +that after weeks of fine weather such a downpour should time itself to +arrive on the very day of the long-expected sale. + +"If Elsie says, `I told you so!' I shall do her an injury. I shall--I +know I shall! I sha'n't be able to help it!" protested Nan; but Elsie +made no such statement. To do her justice, she deeply regretted her +prophecy, and felt as much distressed as if she were to blame for its +fulfilment, while her morbid mind had much ado to countenance such +unreasonable behaviour on the part of Providence. + +"I don't understand why it is allowed to rain when so much depended on +good weather! The work won't look half so well cramped up in the house, +and we can make no money on the river, and the people who live at a +distance will think it too wet to turn out, and it will all be a dead, +dismal failure. It seems to me very strange that we should try to do a +good deed only to be frustrated by something over which we have no +control," she lamented; and though the other girls snubbed her promptly, +it was difficult to banish the same thought from their minds. If only, +only it had kept fine, how different it would have been, and with what +glee and zest they would have set about their preparations! As it was, +they were all more or less depressed, and had it not been for Jim's +presence they would have been a sorry company; but Jim rose to the +occasion with such a succession of quips and jests, such schoolboy +tricks and merry whistlings, as could not fail to be infectious. He was +not much use, so far as arranging the work was concerned; but, as he +himself expressed it, he played the part of beast of burden, dragging +tables into the library, fitting them together to take the place of +stalls, and undertaking a dozen onerous duties. With the best will in +the world, however, it was impossible to make the room larger than it +was, or to prevent an amount of crowding which left many precious +treasures hidden from sight, instead of being displayed in the sunshine +of the garden. The girls sighed, and resolutely turned their eyes from +the window; and thus it happened that certain things took place which +they were far from suspecting. Whether the rain had spent its strength, +or was put to shame by the sight of the mischief it had already wrought, +it would be difficult to say; but certain it was that the downpour +changed gradually to a drizzle, the drizzle grew lighter and lighter +until it ceased altogether, the clouds rolled away to the east, and +through the grey of the sky there broke a feeble, struggling light. +Brighter and brighter it grew, stronger and stronger, until of a sudden +a ray of sunshine danced across the floor of the room, and electrified +its occupants in the midst of their work. + +"What's that? What's that? The sun! The sun!" cried every one in +chorus, and a stampede was made to the door to see if the good omen +could possibly be true. The ground was soaking with moisture, but oh, +the freshness, the sweetness, the delightful earthiness of the scent +which greeted their nostrils! + +"Mff!" cried Nan, opening her mouth wide to draw in deep breaths. + +"Ouf!" gasped Agatha rapturously. + +"Do my eyes deceive me? Has it actually stopped raining?" cried +Christabel elegantly; and Jim executed a jig of triumph on the doorstep. + +"It has stopped indeed! The clouds have rolled away, the sun is coming +out; in another hour it will be beaming, and you will have such a day as +you have not had for weeks past. I told you so! If you had only +listened to me, you would have been spared all your misery. I told you +so--" + +"Excuse me! You did nothing of the kind. You remarked to me on my +arrival that it looked `Jolly bad, and that it was going to be a brute +of a day,'" interrupted Kitty severely; but Jim affected a convenient +deafness. + +"Now then," he cried, "all hands to the pumps! I'll set James to work +to mow the lawn, and by the time it is cut and swept and the sun has +shone on it for a couple of hours it will be as dry as tinder. We'll +have the paths swept too, and put a few planks across where the water +has settled, and all will be as right as a trivet. Put on thick boots, +and set to work to undo all you have done this morning. There is no +time to lose!" + +There was not, indeed; but willing hands made light work, and a more +cheery band of workers it would have been difficult to find. To see Nan +rushing in and out of the house, clad in a short bicycling skirt, with +snow-shoes covering her slippers, and Jim's cap stuck on the back of her +head, was a sight funny enough to have cheered the most melancholy of +patients; but when she executed a dance of triumph before her completed +stall, her sisters held their hands to their sides in convulsions of +laughter. A deeper laugh joined in with theirs, a lazy musical laugh, +which could only have come from one person; and Nan, hearing it, wheeled +round fully prepared to see Gervase Vanburgh standing before her. Not +one whit disconcerted did she appear at the sight; but, holding out her +skirt on either side, so as to display the huge cloth boots to the +fullest advantage, she dropped him a curtsey and cried, "Pleased to see +you, sir! I hope you admire me!" + +"I do!" said Gervase in his soft drawl; and there was an accent of +sincerity in his voice which brought Jim's eyes upon him in curious +scrutiny. A word from Lilias had introduced him to this heir of the Mr +Vanburgh of whom he had heard so much, and now he eyed him narrowly, +forming his own swift conclusion. + +"Dandified! Affected! Fine face, though; good expression! Decent +fellow, I should say, if the nonsense were knocked out of him. +Uncommonly pleased to see Nan, too. This must be looked into!" Then he +was obliged to laugh again at the downright fashion in which his sister +demanded the reason of the stranger's sudden appearance. + +"What have I come for?" Gervase raised his hand deprecatingly. "To see +if I could be of any use, of course. My uncle was anxious to know if he +could lend anything in the way of tents or bunting, or if you would like +one of his gardeners to come across and help your man. A hamper of +strawberries is to be sent over presently, with the palms and plants, +and the cook is concocting something very special in the shape of ices, +but you are to ask for anything and everything you want. He is most +anxious to help." + +"Bless him!" cried Nan devoutly. "Give him my love, and say that I +shall thank him on my bended knees the moment the rush is over. The +gardener would be most useful, for James has more than he can do, and we +are all taken up with our own special departments." + +"And for myself? Can I do nothing to help you? I came last night on +purpose for this sale, so I hope you will make me of use." He looked at +Nan as he spoke, but it was Lilias who replied, taking him at his word, +with an assurance which virtually monopolised him for the entire +afternoon. + +"Oh, thank you so much; then will you please help me in the punt? I am +going to take out small parties at sixpence a head, and intended to ask +Jim to help me; but as he knows the people, it would be better if he +were free to walk about, and make himself agreeable. Will you walk down +to the river with me now, and have a little practice? Jim will send +across for the gardener, and we ought to try how we get on together, +oughtn't we?" + +"Certainly we ought. It is most necessary," replied Gervase, and his +face was absolutely devoid of expression. Whether he was disappointed +or pleased, annoyed or elated, it was impossible to guess, but he turned +aside without another word and followed Lilias down the path which led +riverwards. + +By three o'clock preparations were completed, and everything done that +could be thought of to exhibit house and garden in their most favourable +light. In the drawing-room the best cushions and table-covers were +displayed in all their glory; in the dining-room the table was set out +with the precious china tea-service, which saw the light only on festive +occasions, while every silver article was polished up to reflecting +point. Seven girls robed in robes of spotless white flitted to and fro +in the garden, while Japanese umbrellas made picturesque splashes of +colour amongst the green. The visitors were polite enough to declare +that it was well worth paying the admission fee to see so pretty a +scene, and were altogether in such an affable frame of mind that they +were the easiest of preys. Nan's objects of "bigotry and virtue" were +speedily purchased, while Kitty and Christabel did a roaring trade in +toffee and confectionery. Agatha looked wistfully at their empty stalls +while she displayed pinafores and petticoats to the county visitors, +heard them murmur "Very useful!" and rustle on without dropping a +solitary sixpence into her box; but she consoled herself by the +reflection that her turn would come later, when the villagers arrived to +make their purchases, and meantime frequent doses of strawberries and +fruit salad helped to sustain drooping spirits. + +Elsie smiled pensively across a mountain of fancy articles, Maud helped +her mother to receive the newcomers, Jim flirted violently with all the +prettiest girls, and Lilias was a vision of loveliness as she punted +admiring crews up and down the stream. + +Gervase Vanburgh had attired himself for his work in the most immaculate +of flannels, and as he stood behind his companion plying his long pole, +it is safe to say that every feminine beholder remarked to her own heart +that the young people were made for each other, and that it would be a +sin to divide such a beautiful couple! It was true that there was some +talk of an engagement to an old family friend, but as it was not +officially announced it could not be binding, and dear Lilias would do +well to reconsider her position, now that this charming stranger had +appeared upon the scene! + +Dear Lilias smiled back with sweet unconsciousness as she met her +friends' glances, but she was at no difficulty to read their meaning, +and heaved a sigh for the contrariety of fate. If only, only, it had +been Gervase instead of Ned--or rather, if the positions of the two men +could be reversed! It would be delightful to float along the stream of +life as they were even now floating down this sheltered river, a +charming companion by her side, the eyes of friends turned admiringly +upon her. How different from the life before her in the bleak North- +country town, with poverty and anxiety for daily guests, and Ned's worn +face looking sadly at her from across the table! + +Lilias shivered for all the blazing sunshine, and her heart swelled with +anger. It was not fair, it was not right that her future should be +blighted in this fashion. Ned should realise that she was not bound by +a promise given in completely different circumstances! It was some days +since she had heard from him, for his letters had been less frequent of +late; and though at the bottom of her heart she knew that her own chilly +replies were to blame for this diminution of her lover's ardour, she +chose to count his silence as still another offence. He was neglecting +her, and she would not stand it. Like a flash of inspiration it darted +into her head that she would free herself from this entanglement while +there was still time. It would seem unwomanly to desert a man in the +hour of misfortune, but she would act at once, and not wait until the +worst happened. She would tell her mother that she was not happy; and +though Mrs Rendell might disapprove her past promise, she would never +persuade her to keep it in the circumstances. Yes, yes! she would be +free, she must be free, and then--who could say what would happen then? +The long summer lay before her, with its intimate friendship with one of +the richest and most charming of his sex. Lilias raised her head with a +gesture of determination, and met Gervase Vanburgh's eyes fixed steadily +upon her. His glance did not waver as it met hers, and she blushed +beneath it with a new and strange feeling of discomfiture. It was as +though that steady gaze had pierced beneath the surface, and read her +poor, unworthy thoughts. + + + +CHAPTER TWENTY FOUR. + +THE GARDEN SALE. + +"Forty-three pounds seven and twopence, nearly fifty pounds, my +darlings, in solid coin of the realm, and all of our amassing!" cried +Nan three hours later, as the last visitor drove away from the door of +Thurston House, and the contents of the cash-boxes were counted over by +half a dozen eager workers. "Here's a triumph for us, for our hopes +never soared above a modest twenty pounds, and where it has all come +from, I don't know! A great deal of work is left, so that, I fear me, +our friends must have wasted their substance on eating and drinking and +riotous living, as exemplified by sails in the punt. I could have sold +my carvings three times over, and the compliments which were showered +upon me I would blush to repeat! My cheeks ache with smiling polite +acknowledgments, and indeed I'm nothing but a mass of aches from head to +foot. How on earth do poor girls manage to stand behind a counter all +day, and not snap off the customers' heads? My poor feet are in a +lamentable condition!" + +"I'm sorry to hear it; but they look, if you will allow me to say so, +considerably better than they did a few hours ago," said Gervase, +glancing at the white shoes with an approving smile. "Why don't you sit +down, if you are so tired? There is a delightful seat waiting under +that tree, and no more work to do, so that I should say the sooner you +take possession of it the better!" + +"Oh yes, yes. Let's all go!" gushed Agatha, leading the way onward, +unconscious of Gervase's look of dismay. "Let's go and rest, and talk +it all over! The best part of an entertainment is when the people go, +and you can quiz them, and make remarks, and--" + +"Eat up the scraps!" concluded Kitty aptly, seizing a plate of cakes +from a table as she passed, and illustrating her words with the aid of +the daintiest morsel she could select. Christabel ejaculated "Kittay!" +in a tone of dignified remonstrance; but the protest was for form's sake +merely, for hers were the next pair of hands to rob the dish, and it was +neither _one_ macaroon, nor two, which satisfied her appetite. + +"I really think it has been a great success," she said, munching away, +and using an even greater amount of emphasis than usual in her elation +of spirits. "The people behaved splendidly! Miss Shorter's behaviour I +consider simply _noble_! Do you know what she did? Refused to buy +anything at all, my deahs, until every one else had chosen, and then +went about buying up all the old rubbish which no one would have. It +would have made you _weep_ to see her collection of atrocities, and the +old dear beamed away as if she were quite delighted. I call it +Christian to buy straw spill-boxes and cork frames for the good of your +fellow-creatures!" + +"But think of the ni-ice little fire they will make when the weather +turns chilly!" said Jim wickedly, as he jolted Chrissie's elbow, jerked +the plate out of Kitty's hand, and made a snap at Agatha's cake, held +temptingly before him. He could never by any chance sit near the girls +without teasing them in some such schoolboy fashion; and though they +made a great show of indignation, they would in reality have been much +disappointed if he had taken them at their word. In the present +instance all three girls fell upon him at once, and, having reduced him +to a state of submission, continued their song of jubilation. + +"We took five pounds at the refreshment stall alone. It would make a +scandal in the parish if I divulged how many plates of strawberries the +vicar ate. Mrs Bolter bought up all the macaroons. `Home-made, my +dear? X-ellent! I must really beg the recipe.' Mrs Booth asked the +price of everything, and sniffed, and walked away. What a woman! Mrs +Raleigh seemed quite indignant because I had no eggs. `Dear me! I +quite _counted_ on getting fresh eggs!' Mr Vanburgh had only one cup +of tea. I don't call that helping the cause of charity!" + +"I was busy in another direction, and if I neglected the tea, I did my +duty nobly by the lemonade. I am afraid we did not make very much +money, but, considering the low rates, it came to more than I expected. +How much did we take altogether, Miss Lilias?" + +"Two pounds, one and sixpence; and all pure profit, remember! We had no +outlay to deduct," replied Lilias, with the shrewd little air of +business which contrasted so strangely with her child-like looks. +"Looking at it in that light, I think ours was the most profitable of +all the departments." + +"And I made nothing! I feel quite guilty among you all, for I took not +a single coin the whole afternoon," said Maud the modest; but Jim would +not allow his favourite sister to decry herself in his presence, and was +up in arms in a moment in her defence. + +"And why not, pray? Because you were doing the thankless work, as you +always are, and fielding for every one else. That was my task, too; and +let me tell these young people that they have to thank us for their +success. You tackled the dowagers, and put them into a good temper by +asking after their ailments, and I managed the girls. Bless their +pretty hearts, they would do anything for me! You should have heard me +complimenting 'em, and quoting poetry by the yard, and all the while +luring 'em on towards the fancy stall. Then I'd nothing to do but +remark, `See that cosy? I drew the design.' `Observe that cushion? +that's my favourite colour,' and they fairly jostled each other in their +eagerness to buy it. It was our gentle influence behind the scene which +helped you on, young women; and don't you forget it." + +Maud smiled; but the smile flickered out all too quickly, as her smiles +had a habit of doing nowadays, and her brother glanced at her sharply. +Maud was not herself, and he feared that he knew too well the reason of +the change. The news of Ned Talbot's engagement to Lilias had smitten +him dumb with surprise; but as none of the home letters breathed a hint +of a like feeling, he had tried to persuade himself that he had been +mistaken in his earlier surmises. This had been easy to do, for Master +Jim was not given to distressing himself unnecessarily; but since his +return home his fears had sprung into life again in unwelcome fashion. +When Maud returned to the house he rose as if to follow, but, changing +his mind, turned back and took possession of Kitty Maitland instead. + +"What is the matter with my Maud?" he asked her the moment they had +turned a corner and were safely out of hearing. "She hasn't half the +life and go in her that she had last time I was home. What have you +been doing to her, I should like to know?" + +Kitty elevated her eyebrows until they were almost lost to sight beneath +her curling hair. + +"Personally," she said, "personally I have treated her with every +consideration. Maud is Maud, and no one in this neighbourhood would +dare to treat her otherwise. Of course if other people--from a +distance--choose to make lunatics of themselves, and--and--" + +"All right--you need say no more! I thought as much; and as you and I +had discussed the situation together last year, I wanted to see if your +ideas agreed with mine. I could have sworn we were right, and can't +imagine how this muddle has come about. It's a big mistake anyhow, and +some one will find it out before long, or my name's not James Rendell. +It's not my business, I suppose, but I--I should uncommonly like to kick +somebody, just as a small relief to my feelings!" + +"Oh, so should I--badly; but I'm afraid I couldn't kick hard enough," +said Kitty humbly. "The worst of it is you have to be civil, because to +show your suspicions would be the most unkind thing you could do. I +know Nan agrees with us, and I think Elsie too, but the others seem +quite pleased and satisfied." + +"Well, let it be a lesson to you, never to allow yourself to be +influenced by looks. `Appearance is deceitful, and beauty vain,'" +quoted Jim sententiously. "That Vanburgh fellow, for instance, is, I +suppose, better-looking to the casual glance than I am myself, but I +don't need to point out to you the infinite superiority of my character. +Whenever, my estimable Katherine, you meet with a man who is popularly +styled handsome, take my word for it, he is a wolf in sheep's clothing, +and ought to be avoided. People like you and me, with noble hearts and +ugly faces,"--but at this point even Kitty's forbearance came to an end, +and she stalked off to the house in a fume of indignation. Feminine +fourteen does not find the consolation it should in nobility of +character at the cost of plainness of feature! + +Gervase and Nan, left alone on the garden seat, had meantime turned +towards each other with inquiring smiles. It was the first time they +had found themselves alone, and each was anxious to question the other +concerning the time of absence. + +"Well," quoth he, "and how have you been, and what have you been about +all this long month?" + +"Quite well, thank you; and I'm proud to say, slaving like a nigger for +the good of my fellow-creatures. An ignorant man can hardly realise the +amount of work it takes to get up a sale like this, but I shall bear the +marks to my grave. Look at that!" and she held out towards him a pair +of sunburned hands, shapely enough, but disfigured with sundry scars and +bruises inflicted by hammer and chisel. Her look of pride in her wounds +was comically in contrast to her companion's distress, as his glance +wandered from the little hard-worked fingers to his own white hands,-- +almond-nailed, soft-palmed, taper-fingered, the hands of a man who has +lived an idle life, and known little or nothing of the reality of work. +Nan's eyes followed his, and she laughed in amused fashion. "Mine look +like the man's, and yours like the woman's! The contrast makes mine +browner than ever. How do you manage to keep them so white?" + +"Don't!" said Gervase shortly. "I am not at all proud of them, Miss +Nan. They have been useless enough hitherto, and if they find any work +now, it is more your doing than their own. I have tried to turn over a +new leaf since I saw you last, and to remember your axiom--" + +"And did you find them? Did you help them over? Were many lame, and +not able to walk?" + +"Crowds! Dozens! Scores! The whole parish seems hobbling; and I +foresee that that stile will keep me busy, now that I have begun. It +was astonishing how many cripples seemed waiting for my advent, and what +a lot of `helping over' they required. When they had recovered from the +shock of discovering that I was showing some interest in their affairs, +they were not at all bashful about stating their desires. One man +wanted a new roof to his cottage--his wife was rheumatic, and objected +to the rain coming through on her bed. I had previously refused the +request through my agent, but when I went to inspect the place, I could +not deny that repairs were needed. The woman showed me her fingers, +too--most unpleasant! I would rebuild the whole cottage rather than +look at them again!" + +He shrugged his shoulders, with a relapse into his old affectation of +manner, which brought Nan's eyes upon him with a flash of indignation; +but she refrained from remonstrance, as, after all, he had granted her +request; and he continued his story uninterrupted. + +"Another man begged for an extra strip of land where an invalid daughter +might keep chickens, and so contribute towards the family-purse. Three +widows had sons to place, and seemed to think that a word from me would +be sufficient to secure positions with handsome salaries; half a dozen +women demanded letters to hospitals. The school marm wanted an +additional window in her cottage, which is about as gloomy a little hole +as I have had the pleasure of entering; and the vicar, hearing reports +of my new-found generosity, requested a donation towards a new organ, +felt he would be the better for a second curate, and remarked _en +passant_ that he had had a lifelong desire to visit the Holy Land. I +promised to pay the last hundred pounds for the organ when he had made +up the rest of the sum, said that the parish was too small to allow two +whole curates and myself to live together in peace and harmony; and +congratulated him on his good fortune in not having visited Palestine. +I have, and ever since my return have been strenuously striving to +forget, and work back to my old dreams. He went away saddened and +surprised; but as he is neither poor nor hard-worked, I did not consider +that he came within my category. I was beginning to feel a trifle +overworked, and was quite relieved to get away for a rest!" + +"I think you have done splendidly, and am sure you have enjoyed it, in +spite of all you may say. It gives one such a lovely, warm, glowey +feeling to help other people! On the rare occasions when I have +succeeded in doing it, I have just longed to be a philanthropist, for I +felt so deliriously happy and pleased with myself. You can't look me in +the face and deny that you have been far happier this last month, and +far less bored and cynical?" + +Gervase laughed, and shrugged his shoulders. + +"Have it your own way! I deny nothing. I am considerably the loser +both in time and money by the new arrangement, but perhaps that is +wholesome discipline. I don't know that I have experienced much of the +`glow' as yet; which is, I suppose, because I have not your affection +for my fellow-creatures; but I hope it is yet to come, for it sounds an +attractive sensation." + +"Don't laugh at me," said Nan severely. "I said glowey, and I mean +glowey! No other word expresses the sensation. You'll understand some +day when you have it yourself, and be sorry that you made fun of me. As +for liking your people, the more you help them, the more interested you +will feel, until in the end you will positively love them as if they +were your own relatives." + +Gervase looked dubious. + +"If only they would refrain from exhibiting their deformities! I do so +strongly object to looking at disagreeable objects," he sighed +plaintively; then suddenly his face grew grave, and he added in a +different voice, "It will be a long time, I fear, before I can reach +your standard of loving help. So far it is a duty only, and a +distasteful one in to the bargain; but I will persevere, in hope of +better things. There is one person in the parish who has been set in +the right way through your instrumentality. If the other efforts have +failed, this, at least, has been a success, and it was time that some +one took him in hand. An idle, loafing rascal who thought of nothing +but his own comfort, and was the biggest waster in the village. He has +set to work now, and he shall stick to it, or I'll know the reason why! +I'll keep a stern hand on him, Nan, for your sake; for it was you, not +I, who set this ball a-rolling, and I am only the executor of your +orders. It is you who have played the good angel in his life, and he +shall have no chance of slipping back." + +"But you mustn't be too stern with the poor young man. You must make +allowances, and be patient and forbearing. I shall be so interested to +know how he goes on. It is nice to have a _protege_, and feel that one +has had some part in his reformation. Tell me his name, so that I may +know what to call him." + +Gervase looked at her curiously. The eager face was without a suspicion +of embarrassment, but it coloured over with a quick flush of surprise as +she listened to his reply. + +"His name," Gervase said slowly, "you have heard before. His name is +Vanburgh!" + + + +CHAPTER TWENTY FIVE. + +THE BLOW FALLS. + +Two days later, Maud was sitting reading in the drawing-room, when the +door opened, the servant pronounced a name which thrilled her with +surprise, and, looking up, she beheld Ned Talbot standing before her,-- +Ned Talbot, or the wraith of Ned, for so pale did he appear, so worn and +haggard, that it needed no words to tell the nature of his visit. + +Maud had heard about the anxieties of the last few months, and had +grieved for Ned in her tender heart, feeling an added bitterness in the +lot which forbade her the privilege of comforting him; but now it would +appear that Fate had led them to each other, and even her modesty could +not mistake the relief in voice and manner as his eyes rested upon her. + +"Maud," he cried,--"Maud, it is you! Oh, this is good, this is better +than I hoped for, to find you here, and alone! I was longing for your +help; but you are so much away nowadays that I seldom see you. Well, +Maud, it has come--the end has come! I have thrown up my post, and have +to face the world again, and the whole weary fight from the beginning. +All these years have been wasted; the time has gone, and the money, and +the strength, and here I am at the end, stranded and beaten! You may +wonder how I have the audacity to show myself among you. If I had any +pride left, I should have stayed away--" + +He broke off with a hard, unnatural laugh, and Maud laid her hand on his +arm with a soothing gesture, her own trouble forgotten in the necessity +of soothing his. + +"Come and sit down," she said gently. "Sit down, and tell me all about +it. We are not fair-weather friends, Ned, and will only care for you +the more because you need help. If you have lost this post, I am sure +it is from no fault of your own, so you must not be cast down. Tell me +about it--Or stay! Shall I call Lilias? She is at the Grange, but I +could send for her at once." + +She paused, looking inquiringly into Ned's face, and he hesitated +painfully, the colour flushing in his thin cheeks, his eyebrows +twitching nervously. + +"I think--not!" he said slowly at last. "She will hear soon enough, and +she is so young and inexperienced that she cannot understand. Let me +first talk it over with you, Maud, and then--No! It was no fault of +mine, though in the last instance it was I who gave in my resignation. +I could not stay on longer, and keep my self-respect. Positions were +forced upon me impossible to any man of honour. My post was +deliberately made untenable, and to stay on would have been the act of a +coward and a scoundrel. They had got what they wanted out of me, and I +was of no further use. It only remained to get rid of me as quickly as +possible,--and, mark you, by my own doing in the last instance, so that +they might preserve some appearance of honour before their neighbours!" + +"But can such things be?" Maud wondered incredulously. "Is it really +possible that men, calling themselves gentlemen and, I suppose, +Christians, can be so absorbed in the idea of growing rich that they can +be so low, so base? To go to a young fellow who is fighting against +hard odds, to propose a scheme which looks fair and smooth, to suck his +brains and steal his business from him, and then--then--to treat him as +you say, and send him out on the world alone! Oh, Ned, is it possible? +One can hardly believe in such wickedness. Are there many such people +in your business world?" + +"Not many, thank God! but there are a few who are notorious for +absorbing small firms, and treating their owners as I have been treated. +They build up huge fortunes, and we are ruined; they succeed, and we +fail, and the world goes on as usual, and no one sees any difference, or +takes any thought of the poor fellows who have gone to the wall." + +"God does!" said Maud softly. "God doesn't think they have failed! In +His eyes they have succeeded, and are rich, while the others are ruined +and outcast. Don't be cast down, Ned--don't lose hope! God is on your +side, and has some good purpose behind this trouble. The clouds are +dark to-day, and you cannot see it, but in years to come it will be +plain. Keep a brave heart, and don't grieve too much over what is past. +You have the future before you, and you are young and strong. You +would not allow any one else but yourself to call you beaten, and I will +not hear it from your lips." + +"Oh, Maud!" cried Ned brokenly, "you always know what to say, you always +say the right thing! How can I thank you? If girls only understood +what angels they might be to men,--if they would remind us oftener that +this world is not all,--what a help it would be! We are out on the +battlefield, and it is difficult to remember these things, especially +when we are so hard pressed that our thoughts are engrossed with the +struggle. I felt hard and bitter when I came into this room, for it's a +terrible thing to face ruin,--a girl cannot imagine how terrible, for +she is shielded from such trouble,--but you have put fresh life into me +by your sweet words." + +Maud smiled faintly, her brows drawn together in painful fashion. She +was saying to herself that she knew well what it was to see life robbed +of its dearest hope, and realising, as many a girl has done before her, +that one of the sorest features of her trial was that she could neither +ask nor receive sympathy from her friends. The reflection brought her +thoughts back to Lilias, and she was once more about to suggest sending +a message to the Grange, when the door burst open and Lilias herself +danced into the room. What a contrast to the pale and depressed couple +seated on the sofa! Just returned from a delightful visit to the +Grange, love of admiration gratified by Mr Vanburgh's courtesy and +Gervase's elaborate compliments, her hands full of trophies in the shape +of flowers and fruit, she looked the impersonation of happiness and +prosperity, and singularly out of sympathy with her companions. She was +half-way across the room before she recognised Ned, and the sudden +change which then passed over her face was far from flattering to his +vanity. + +"You!" she gasped, in bewilderment. "Is it you? When did you come? +I--I never knew. You said nothing in your letter about coming." + +"No; I wanted to tell you the news myself!" Ned rose and stood beside +her, not attempting any lover-like greetings, but holding her hand +tightly in his own. His face was pathetic in its wistfulness, and dread +of the pain which he was about to inflict, but it was in the tone of a +father speaking to a child that he said gently-- + +"I have bad news for you, Lilias--the news which I have been dreading. +I have sent in my resignation to the heads of the firm, and have +practically said `Goodbye' to the Works. It is a bad business, and very +hard on you; but, as Maud has been reminding me, I am young and strong, +and we must not be cast down by a first failure. If you will have faith +in me, and will wait a few years, all will come right yet." + +He paused, and Lilias stared at him with incredulous eyes. Her glance +wandered from him to Maud, from Maud around the pretty luxurious room, +through the window to the garden beyond, and finally back to his face. +Her lips moved, and the words came out in spasmodic snatches. + +"You have resigned? You threw it up? You did it of your own accord, in +spite of all I could say--of my wishes and entreaties? It is your own +doing?" + +Ned dropped the hand which he held in his, and straightened his +shoulders with a gesture at once proud and determined. His voice took a +sharper edge, and the gentleness died out of his face. + +"Yes, it is my own doing, Lilias, in this last instance, but you know +what has driven me to it. I have told you in what position I was +placed. I could not stay on without sacrificing every sense of honour. +Surely you can understand and sympathise with me in my misfortune?" + +Lilias laughed, a high, hysterical laugh, and threw back her head with a +defiant gesture. + +"Oh, I understand--yes! I have understood all the time. Your +ridiculous quixotic notions have ruined your life, and you don't care if +they ruin mine also. You think of your own feelings, your own +discomforts, but you never think of _met_ If you really loved me, you +would bear a few discomforts for my sake; but no! it must all go, you +must throw it all away. I begged, I implored, I did everything that was +in my power to prevent it coming to this. You can't deny that I did?" + +"No, Lilias, I cannot. I am bitterly grieved to remember that you have +systematically urged me to act against my conscience." It was an +unexpected answer, almost awful in its unflinching sternness, and Lilias +greeted it by a burst of weeping. + +"Oh yes, yes, blame me! blame me! It's not enough that you have brought +this misery upon me, but now you must begin to abuse me to my face! It +is cruel and cowardly to turn against me like this!" + +"Hush, Lilias, oh, hush, hush!" Maud stood before her--Maud's fingers +gripped her arm in remonstrance. + +"Think what you are saying. You are surprised and shocked; but you must +not, you shall not talk so wildly! Ned is in trouble, and it is your +place to comfort him. He has done what is right, and it is harder for +him than for you. He needs your help!" But Lilias only sobbed the +louder, making no attempt to give the desired comfort, and Ned said +sadly-- + +"I ask no more from you at present, Lilias, than a fair judgment. Maud +has given me her sympathy and encouragement, but that seems too much to +hope for from you. Try to believe, if possible, that I was not +indifferent to your interests. Maud would not allow me to say I had +failed because I must suffer temporarily for conscience' sake; she +believes that the day will come when I shall be thankful for this change +in my circumstances. Can't you bring yourself to feel the same; to look +forward to a future when I may meet with success instead of reverse?" + +"No, I can't; how can I? It is contrary to reason. You said yourself +that you could never hope to be master again, and situations are so +difficult to find. I've heard father talking, and I know. Sometimes +men have to wait years and years before they find an opening, and then +it's a wretched thing with a salary of two or three hundred a year. And +you have less chance than many, because your own Works didn't pay, and +you have left these people after such a short time. It will count +against you. People will think it is your own fault." + +"Lilias!" cried Maud again, and this time her voice trembled with anger, +and her eyes sent out such a flash as her sister had never seen before, +"how dare you! How dare you be so cruel! If it were true a hundred +times over, how could you have the heart to say so to Ned in the midst +of his trouble? For pity's sake, think what you are doing!" + +"Don't distress your kind heart, Maud. It is better that I should know +exactly what Lilias has in her mind. She is right in her surmises. The +changes will tell against me in public opinion, and it is quite probable +that I may suffer for them. I would not for one moment deny it, so you +see there is no injustice in the accusation. You are right, Lilias! My +chance of being a rich man is sensibly diminished by this last +misfortune, and it may be years before I can earn even a bare +competency. I have never deceived you about my position, and I shall +not begin now. I knew that my news would be a blow to you, but I could +not have believed that you would receive it as you have, without a word +of kindness or sympathy. Apart from the question of love, I should have +thought any woman would have taken pity on a man in the first sharpness +of his misfortune, and have spared him her reproaches. Maud has been an +angel of kindness, but you have had no thought of my sufferings." + +Lilias gave a gasp of mingled anger and mortification. This was what +she had feared, this was what she had determined to avoid; but once +again Fate had been too strong for her, and had precipitated the +calamity before she had had time to obtain her freedom. Now every one +would call her heartless and unwomanly; her parents would look coldly +upon her, she would be branded before the neighbourhood as a girl who +had forsaken her love when he most needed her devotion. A great wave of +anger swept over her, her heart thumped against her side, and her breath +came fast. She hardly knew what she was saying, but the words rushed +out in a breathless string-- + +"Oh yes, Maud--Maud! Always Maud! I'm sick of hearing Maud quoted, and +held up as a pattern! Maud is always right, and I am wrong. Maud is an +angel, and I am an unwomanly wretch! Why didn't you get engaged to +Maud, when you liked her so much better than me? If I have made a +mistake, so have you, and you have no right to reproach me. I'll go +away and leave you, since I make you so unhappy, and you prefer Maud's +company to mine." + +She was out of the room even as the last word was uttered, and the two +who were left stared at each other with horrified eyes. Maud's face was +crimson, from the tip of her chin to the roots of her hair, but she was +the first to speak and recover some semblance of composure. + +"Oh, don't listen to her! Don't listen to her! She does not know what +she is saying. She is excited, and has lost her self-control. In a few +minutes she will be sorry. Oh yes, I know she will; she will be +wretched, and come to beg you to forgive her. Wait, wait, and don't +judge her hardly. She is so young, as you said, and she didn't know +what she was saying. Try to forget it." + +But Ned sank down in a chair and covered his face with his hands. + +"But it is true!" he moaned. "It is true, and I can't deny it! Oh, how +blind I have been--how blind and foolish! I have ruined my own life as +well as hers." + + + +CHAPTER TWENTY SIX. + +A MILESTONE. + +It was all over. Ned had gone away, and the diamond ring no longer +shone on Lilias's left hand. In a storm of tears and sobs she had +declared to her mother that she neither could nor would keep true to her +engagement, and Ned had received the intelligence with grave composure. + +"She made a mistake!" he said quietly. "We both made a mistake. I +cannot blame her, for I was in fault myself. What we thought was love, +was but the attraction of youth and good spirits, which could not stand +the strain of adversity. Don't be hard on Lilias, Mrs Rendell. I +should be sorry that she should suffer any more on my account. It has +been a painful experience for her." + +But Mrs Rendell closed her lips in a stern silence, and had no word of +pity for her daughter. It shocked her proud heart that one of her girls +should have behaved in a manner so unworthy the precept which she had +endeavoured to teach, for she knew well that Lilias would have felt no +qualms in preparing for her marriage, if Ned's story had been one of +success instead of failure. + +What Mrs Rendell thought she was accustomed to say, and Lilias came +away from the important interview smarting with mortification and +wounded vanity. She tried to think that the worst was over; but the +bitterest moment was yet to come, when she met her father--the gentlest +and most forbearing of men, who was so slow to blame that his children +could count the reproofs of a lifetime on the fingers of one hand--and +he looked at her with a strange, cold glance, in which was no trace of +the old fond admiration. + +"What's this I hear about you, Lilias?" he asked sternly. "I'm not +proud of you, my dear, not proud at all! I did not think that a +daughter of mine could have behaved in such an unwomanly manner. Your +affection seems good only for fair weather. Talbot is well rid of such +a wife!" + +It was not much, and it was the only reference to the broken engagement +which she ever heard from his lips, but it pierced the girl's heart as +no other reproach could have done. The relationship between a father +and a daughter is a very sacred and beautiful one, and the consciousness +of his pride in her, his barely concealed satisfaction in the admiration +she excited, had been one of her most cherished joys. The thought that +her father was ashamed of her made Lilias wince with pain, nor did her +sisters' reception of the news help to restore her composure. + +Maud's principle in life was to say nothing, if it were impossible to +say what was agreeable; but Nan made up for this silence by the candour +of her denunciation. The two girls came face to face at the top of the +stairs, an hour after the great news had circulated through the house, +and mutually stopped to gaze in each other's face. + +"W-ell?" queried Lilias timidly. "You've heard! Mother has told you. +What do you--what do you think about it?" + +Nan closed her eyes, and tilted her chin in the air. + +"Sneak!" she said shortly; and the other started back in astonishment. + +"Wh-what do you say?" + +"Sneak! That's what I called you. It's a mean, sneakish thing to +desert a man just when he is in trouble and needs all the help he can--" + +"It wasn't just then. I had been thinking of it a long time. If he had +stayed away a week longer, I would have spoken to mother all the same. +I had made up my mind. You don't understand what you are talking about, +and you have no right to call me names. It's vulgar and unladylike." + +"I am thankful for that!" cried Nan piously. "If your behaviour is +ladylike, I'll be as vulgar as I can. I'd rather not talk, if you +please, until I have got over it a little. I'm afraid of what I may +say." + +She went stalking downstairs, and Lilias turned into the porch-room and +sat herself down in despair. Elsie was seated at the table engaged in +informing the diary of the latest family event, and she turned a look of +such sympathetic sorrow upon the new-comer, that Lilias felt that here, +at last, she had found a friend in need. + +"My heart is broken, Elsie!" she sobbed tragically. "Every one has +turned against me. Father--mother--Nan--they are all cruel to me. +Their words cut into my heart! I can never forget them--never feel the +same again." + +Elsie drew a sigh so long and fluttering that it was almost worthy to be +ranked as a groan. + +"No--never, never! A blow like this, coming in early youth, will cloud +and darken all your life. You can never be a girl again. The +remembrance of all you have suffered, and of the life you have wrecked, +will haunt your dreams, and make you old before your time. You feel it +now, but you'll feel it more and more, like a leaden weight pressing +upon you, crushing out all your joy..." + +"Dear me, Elsie, how you talk! You might be a penny novel, to prose +away like that. You are a fine Job's comforter for a poor girl to come +to in her trouble! It's hard enough for me as it is, without trying to +make it worse. I shall drown myself, if this sort of thing goes on. +Maud sulking, Nan raving, you croaking! What a prospect! And I shall +have to endure it all my life too, for I shall never marry--now." + +"No," said Elsie judiciously, "I suppose not. Not for love, at least. +Perhaps, by and by, after years and years, when you are middle-aged, you +may make a marriage _de convenance_, to some old man who could give you +a comfortable home. People often do that in books, I notice, when they +have had an unfortunate affair in youth. And look at Mrs Bailey! Her +lover was killed in the Crimea, and when she was fifty-two she married +that nasty old man with the snuff on his beard, and--" + +But the rest of the sentence was spoken to the air, for Lilias had fled. +The prospect of the old man with snuff on his beard was too much for +her composure, and she rushed into the garden, to see if there, at +least, she might find the much-desired solitude. + +No, not yet! for the summer-house towards which she sped had already +been occupied by the three schoolgirls, and there they sat staring at +her with big solemn eyes, as if, forsooth, a girl who had broken off her +engagement was a new and extraordinary freak of humanity. + +Good-natured Agatha made room for the new-comer by her side, and glanced +sympathetically at the tear-stained face, but, as usual, her remarks +were not the most tactful in the world. + +"Was it really your doing, Lilias?" she inquired, "or was Ned tired of +you too? Kitty says he was, and feels sure he will not mind much." + +That opened Lilias's eyes with a flash of anger, but Kitty had the +courage of her opinions, and said stolidly-- + +"I never considered from the beginning that he was really in love. I've +seen lots of engaged people, and he wasn't a bit like them. He used to +ask us to go about with you, and be quite disappointed if we wouldn't, +and most couples like to be alone, and make faces at one another when +they think you are not looking, to say they wish you would run away. +I've had experience, for last summer we stayed two months in a +hydropathic." + +"Perhaps he really did care for you at first, but was disappointed when +he got to know you better!" This from Christabel; while Agatha chimed +in with an eager-- + +"But you are glad, dear, aren't you, to think he is not heart-broken? +It makes it easier for you when he doesn't care!" + +Plainly there was no comfort forthcoming for Miss Lilias from the +members of her own family! + +Meanwhile Jim was seeing his friend off at the railway station, and +administering such sympathy as was deserved for Ned's business reverses, +while eclipsing his sisters in candour on the subject of the broken +engagement. + +"If you would be a fool, you must be prepared to suffer for it. Never +was more surprised in my life than to hear of it, when it first came +off. Thought you had gone off your head. When I was at home with you +last, there was no sign of such nonsense. Can't think what on earth +possessed you!" + +"She was so pretty and charming, and seemed so much interested in all I +did! Vanity was at the bottom of it, I suppose. I was flattered and +interested, just when I was down on my luck, and needed it most. I--I-- +I must make a clean breast of it, Jim, and tell you the truth! Of +course, it was Maud I cared for first; I can see now that I have loved +her all through, but she was so reserved with me, and kept me at such a +distance, that I thought she wanted to show me that I had no chance. +Then Lilias came home, and I was captivated by her lovely face and +pretty ways. She seemed to turn to me for advice and sympathy, to be so +pleased to see me, so sorry when I left, that--that--ah, well, you know +the rest! I was a fool, as I daresay many a man has been before me; and +though I was miserable enough, I never discovered why, until Lilias +herself pointed it out. She accused me of caring for Maud more than for +her--in Maud's presence, too--when we three were alone together!" + +Jim's lips met in a significant whistle. + +"The little wretch! She ought to be shaken! My poor old Maud, that was +rough on her. What did she do or say?" + +"Begged me to take no notice, and pleaded for Lilias, like the angel she +is. But I was knocked completely over, didn't know what I was doing, +and told her straight out that it was true. Perhaps I should not have +done it, but I could not help myself, and she gave me one look, just +one! Oh, Jim, old man, if this crash has shown me the awful mistake I +was making, it will be indeed a blessing in disguise. I will work like +ten men, I will laugh at difficulties, I will do anything and +everything, if only, only I can win Maud in the end. You will be my +friend, won't you? You will help me, and tell her what I hope?" + +"Not if I know it!" returned Jim, with masculine candour. "You have +done quite enough mischief for the time, old chap, and had better lie +low until things have blown over. I've a great deal too much respect +for Maud, to suggest that she should adopt you as her lover the moment +you are dropped by Lilias. Wait a year or two until you have made your +position, and then come down and ask her yourself--" + +"A year or two! And meantime she might think I had changed again, and +had forgotten all about her--That's too much to expect! I don't ask you +to say anything just yet, but in time to come you might drop a hint, or +let her see one of my letters, show her in any indirect way you like +that I know my own mind at last, and am working towards an end. It +isn't much to ask from an old chum--I'd do as much for you if I were in +your place." + +"Humph!" quoth Jim concisely; but his grey eyes sent out a kindly gleam, +and Ned Talbot went away comforted by the knowledge that his friend +would be kinder in deed than in word, and that his message would not +fail to be delivered. + +He had another friend at court to whom he gave less thought, but whose +loyalty was at least as strong as that of her brother. Nan had her own +dreams of the future, of which she breathed no word to a living soul, +but she set herself to work to clear away such difficulties as lay in +Ned's path, with her accustomed energy and daring. + +"If I were a nice old gentleman with heaps of money and nothing to do, I +would give a good situation to a young fellow who was miserable and ill- +treated!" she announced to Mr Vanburgh, at the conclusion of the story +of the broken engagement; and that gentleman chuckled with enjoyment as +he listened. + +"Would you, indeed? And in what capacity? I don't quite see what +situations I have to offer which would meet Mr Talbot's requirements. +There is a good deal of machinery of one sort and another involved in +the work of a house like this, but I fear it is hardly the kind which he +is accustomed to superintend." + +"Don't snub me, please. I'm too reduced. I don't mean in this house, +but somewhere else where there are Works like his own. If you would +just write to the people and say how clever he is, and what a good +manager, and that you are sure they would like him!" + +"But how can I be sure? I know nothing about Mr Talbot's business +capacities, and should hardly recognise him if I met him in the street!" + +"But I tell you! You can trust my word; and every one likes Ned, for he +is so good and noble. He didn't want to go into the Works at all, for +he is one of those quiet, studenty sort of men, who are never so happy +as when they are in the country, alone with their books and their +thoughts. He wanted to be a literary man, but his brother died, and +there was no one else to help his father, so he gave up his own plans +for the sake of the family. That seems to me very hard--to be unselfish +and take up uncongenial work, and then to meet with nothing but failure +and disappointment! I should expect to be rewarded by making piles of +money, but poor old Ned has lost almost all he has. Dear, sweet, kind +Mr Vanburgh, find him another opening--do!" + +The old man smiled, and laid his worn fingers caressingly over the +girl's hand. + +"I would do a great deal to please you, Nan, if I could find the way, +but my word is not so powerful as you imagine. I am afraid the managers +of the great factories would pay very little attention to my +recommendation; but if Mr Talbot is not set on continuing a business +life, it is possible that something else might be found. I have a good +deal of land which will come to Gervase in his turn, and meantime, as he +engages my stewards for me and takes in hand most of the arrangements, +you had better speak to him on the subject." + +"Oh-oh!" cried Nan, and turned towards the young man with hands clasped +together in supplication. "Oh! do you--do you? Then one of them is a +bad steward, isn't he? I am sure he is! You want a new one; I am sure +you do! Ned would make a beauty, for he loves nothing so much as a +country life. He is a splendid shot. Jim saw him knock over twelve +rocketers running, last time they were out together, and he goes in for +all kinds of sport. His father had a beautiful country place when they +were rich, and he is always talking of what he used to do. He looks so +sweet in gaiters, too! He would make a lovely steward!" + +Both men shook with laughter, but Nan's earnestness could not be shaken. +She was pleading for Maud's future, for Maud's happiness, and neither +ignorance nor bashfulness had power to check her. She insisted on the +wickedness of the present steward with such determination, that Gervase +was forced to come to his defence. + +"Indeed, Nan, he is a most capable and clever fellow. I've not a word +to say against him, except that perhaps he is too clever to stay with us +much longer. Lord Edgeworth has been advertising for a steward, and I +think it more than likely that he will get the post. If he should--" + +"He will! He will!" cried Nan excitedly. "I feel a conviction. He +will get it, and you will offer Ned his place. It would be defying +Providence to do anything else. Oh, how happy I am--how pleased he will +be! And is it a pretty house in a garden, big enough for us all to go +down and stay with him? How soon will it be settled, so that I can tell +them at home?" + +So determinedly confident did she appear as to the success of her +scheme, that it seemed an ungenerous act to pour cold water on such +generous enthusiasm, and each man registered a mental vow to satisfy +her, if it were within the bounds of possibility. + +As his custom was, Gervase escorted the visitor on a tour of inspection +round the garden before she took her departure, and took advantage of +the _tete-a-tete_ to express a more ardent sympathy with the home +trouble than he had cared to show in his uncle's presence. The broken +engagement had been no surprise to him, for he had summed up the +character of Miss Lilias too accurately to have any trust in her +stability; but it had evidently come as a shock to Nan's unsuspecting +mind. + +"She says now that she has been thinking of it for some time, and he +says he was dissatisfied; yet neither of them spoke a word, but went +drifting on and on, waiting upon chance. I suppose they would have +married each other if this crash had not come, and regretted it for the +rest of their lives. I can't understand such behaviour. If I feel a +thing, I can't bottle it up, I simply cannot; out it must come, whatever +is the consequence. And when it comes to pretending to love a person +when you don't, and to be happy when you are not, that is worse than +anything else. It's positively wicked!" + +"I agree with you. I have always maintained that absolute honesty +should be practised in these affairs between a man and a woman, and that +far less trouble would arise if each side spoke out plainly as to what +was in their hearts. I go perhaps a little further in my views than +most people, but long ago I made myself a promise that when my own hour +came I would act up to my convictions, and I am not going to draw back +now. Months ago, Nan, you walked into my uncle's room to meet me, and I +knew--I think I knew almost as soon as I met your eyes--that here was a +new specimen of her kind, a woman who would play a great part in my +life. I had never known that feeling before, but it has grown in +strength ever since that day, until now it is difficult to imagine my +life without it. You have engrossed all my thoughts--all my hopes--" + +Nan stood still and stared at him. The colour had left her cheeks, and +her eyes were wide and startled. She laid her hand on her throat and +gave a little choking gasp. + +"Do you mean that you--that you are--in love--with _me_?" + +The amazement in her tone, the incredulity of that "me" was touching in +its humility, and Gervase's smile was very tender as he replied-- + +"I think I am. I am, at least, travelling very fast in that direction. +Does that alarm you so very much? Does it distress you? Have you no +feeling of friendship to offer me in return?" + +"Friendship! Oh yes, but not,"--Nan gulped over the word in wild +embarrassment--"the other thing! It's too soon. I have just left the +schoolroom--I have just put up my hair. I couldn't think of such a +thing for years and years, until I am old, and have got some sense!" + +Gervase laughed softly. + +"You have more sense now than any girl I know; but don't be frightened, +dear, I am not asking for my answer yet. You must have time, but I +wanted you to know from the beginning what my feelings were. As you +grow older and go into society, and meet other men, I want you to +remember that there is one man who has already given his heart to your +keeping, and is waiting in the hope that yours may be given to him in +return. You are not bound-to me in any way. If you meet some one whom +you can care for more than for me, I will wish you God-speed; but until +that day comes I will wait in hope. I will not trouble you by referring +to the subject again at present; for a year to come I will promise not +to allude to it, but by that time you will be twenty, and will have had +twelve whole months to think me over. You will not forbid me to speak +to you again next July, Nan?" + +"N-no!" sighed Nan dubiously, "I suppose not. You are very kind, but I +am--frightened. Suppose I said `Yes,' and then changed my mind like +Lilias! That would be dreadful, yet how can one be sure? I like you +very much, better than any other man, but still--" + +"You must never say `Yes' unless you have no doubt in your heart. No +amount of liking will do. If the day ever comes when you feel that your +whole heart goes out to me, as mine does to you, when you would choose +poverty with me rather than riches with another man, then come to me, +darling, but never till then. You and I are not the sort to be +satisfied with a half-and-half happiness, and we will not risk failure. +I want to make your life beautiful, not to wreck it!" + +The tears rose slowly in Nan's eyes, and her lips trembled. + +"You are very good to me; but I feel as if I must be a hypocrite to have +deceived you so. I'm not worth it. I'm not, indeed. If you only knew +what a wretch I am, you couldn't think of me any more. There are such +lots of nice girls. If you would only choose somebody proper and +sensible and accomplished and clever--" + +"Oh, Nan, I don't want her. Don't force her on me, please. I've met +her such scores and scores of times, and she bored me so unutterably. I +want just you, and no one else; but don't trouble your head about me for +another year. Live your own bright life. I would not for the world +shorten your girlhood or make you old before your time. It won't be a +very depressing thought, dear, will it, that somewhere a hundred miles +away a man is loving you, and trying to live a better life because of +his love?" + +Nan could not answer, could only shake her head in a mute dissent. No; +it was far from depressing--it was beautiful, inspiring--but, oh, what a +responsibility! Gervase might say that he would not willingly shorten +her girlhood, but, alas! had he not already done so? To feel that +another heart leant on her own, another life depended on her for +happiness--was this not a reflection to sober the most careless and most +light-hearted of natures? Nan knew full well that this short interview +was as a milestone in her life, and that at one step she had left behind +the careless days of youth. + + + +CHAPTER TWENTY SEVEN. + +AFTER TWO YEARS. + +Nearly two years had passed by since Lilias had broken off her +engagement with Ned Talbot, and Gervase Vanburgh had told Nan of his +love, and a stranger passing along the village highroad one bright May +day might have discerned an air of unusual excitement and bustle in +Thurston House. The housemaids were hanging clean curtains in every +window from attic to cellar; the gardener was bedding out plants; +message boys besieged the house with trays of provisions, and the Parcel +Delivery van seemed to empty its entire contents at the door. Nor did +the bustle grow less as one entered the house, for the hall was banked +up with plants, and seven girls enveloped in aprons seemed to be chasing +one another up and down stairs, so rapid and unceasing were their +movements. There would have been no difficulty in recognising our old +friends, though the years had not passed without bringing changes in +their wake. Maud's sweet face had lost its look of sadness, and +blossomed into fresh youth; Lilias was still the professional beauty, +whose very apron was donned with an air to effect; while, wonder of +wonders! Nan had grown tidy, possessing hair as daintily coiled and +hands as carefully kept as Lilias's own. In the old days it had been +hazarded as an occasional conjecture that Nan was pretty; but there +could be no doubt on that question now, for the plump face had moulded +into shape, the complexion toned down to a soft pink and white, and the +dark eyes shone with happiness. Happiness, indeed, seemed to radiate +from Nan to-day, as she raced up and down the house, as hard-worked as +any of her sisters, yet in some indefinable way distinguished from the +rest, for she was given the precedence in all that went on, while every +time that she and her mother came together, they embraced with fresh +unction. For the rest, Elsie had reached her ambition, and the age when +she might dress her hair as she chose, and by means of parting it in the +middle and plastering it over her ears had given herself an +appropriately funereal aspect. Even Agatha boasted a coil at the back +of her head, while Christabel and Kitty wore skirts which reached to +their ankles. + +Advancing years had, however, by no means diminished the girls' powers +of conversation; and as they banked up plants in corners of the +staircase, and rearranged furniture in the sitting-rooms, the babel of +voices was as deafening, and seemingly as inexhaustible, as of yore. + +"Children, children, be quiet! Stop talking, for mercy's sake!" pleaded +Mrs Rendell piteously. "I try to ask a question, and cannot make +myself heard. You will make Nan's head ache if you go on like this. Go +up to your room to write your letters, Nan dear. Don't attempt to do it +here, but take the chance of half an hour's quiet when you can get it." + +Nan rose obediently, and carried her writing materials upstairs; but it +was some time before she sat down at her desk, for the dressing-room +door stood open, and therein lay something which exercised an +irresistible attraction, something which lay stretched on a sofa, +swathed in careful wrappings. + +Nan drew back the sheet with reverent fingers, and there it lay in all +its beauty--a gleaming satin dress, the train folded skilfully in and +out, bunches of orange-blossom catching up the lace, which was festooned +with as much lavishness as if it had been modest Nottingham, instead of +precious Brussels, of that rich mellow tint which comes from age alone. +A bride's dress, and a bride's dress fit for a princess, and in the box +beside it a veil of the same old lace, and in the safe in the corner a +diamond necklace and stars which represented a fortune in themselves! + +Could it be, could it really be that all this splendour was for her? +And oh! lucky girl, that she was so happy in love given and received, +that they counted as nothing, and less than nothing, in her rejoicings! +Could it be that to-morrow morning--in twenty-four hours from now--in +less than twenty-four hours, she would be transformed from Nan Rendell +of the coat and skirt--Nan, the third daughter in a large family, in +constant straits for money and anticipation of her dress allowance--into +Nan Vanburgh in satin and diamonds, Mrs Gervase Vanburgh, with her +country seat, her diamonds, her carriages, her expectations of even +greater wealth to come! Oh, wonder of wonders! Oh, fairy tale in real +life! Oh, dear and beautiful prince, to work such marvels in a poor +girl's life! Nan bent down lower and lower until her lips touched the +gleaming folds and her cheek rested lovingly against them, then she drew +the sheet forward once more, and went back to her seat. To think, not +to write, however--to think over the two years that had just passed, and +all the events which they had brought. Had she really loved Gervase +from the beginning, even as he had loved her? It seemed as if she had, +for after that memorable interview in the garden she had known no doubt +nor hesitation. It was right to wait and let time prove the stability +of her feelings, but at the bottom of her heart she had felt no +uncertainty as to her final answer; and oh, how long had seemed the last +three months of the year, with what joy she had hailed July--what a +happy; happy time it had been for all concerned! Mrs Rendell and Maud +had been the only members of the family who had known of the intention +which lay behind Gervase's frequent visits; and if the surprise with +which the engagement was greeted was mingled with some envy and +disappointment from one of the five sisters, the others more than made +up for it by their unaffected delight. + +Gervase had long received the sanction of approval; and once assured of +Nan's happiness, it was impossible for the most unworldly of relatives +to restrain a thrill of satisfaction in the grandeur of the alliance. +The schoolroom party was inflated with pride at the thought of "My +sister Mrs Vanburgh," and even Maud tilted her head and smiled with a +complacent air when congratulated on the engagement. As for the +parents, they were naturally delighted at the prospect of so prosperous +a marriage for their dear girl, while old Mr Vanburgh shed tears of +happiness over the fulfilment of a cherished dream. + +"She will be the making of the boy!" he declared. "He has always been a +good fellow, but too indifferent and lazy to make the most of his +abilities. Nan's energy, Nan's enthusiasm will be his salvation! This +is the best news I have heard for many a long, long year. It puts fresh +life into me in my old age." + +Everybody seemed pleased and approving; and not the least welcome among +the many letters of congratulation was one from Ned Talbot, now some +months settled as steward of the Vanburgh property, and his earnest, +outspoken appreciation of his new employer. + +When the subject of the marriage itself was broached, however, Mr +Rendell obstinately refused to hear of any date within a year. + +"When she is twenty-one--not a moment before," he said firmly. "I have +a parent's right to my Mops until she is of age, and not one day of the +time will I give up for you or any man living." + +"And I've a husband's right to her after that, and not one day longer +will I wait, so we'll fix on her birthday, the twentieth of May!" said +Gervase, equally obstinate; and so it was settled. And the months had +seemed as weeks, so rapidly had they flown past, until here was the day +before the wedding, with Nan's new boxes standing in the corner ready +packed for that wonderful journey to foreign lands of which she had +dreamed all her life long. + +When the gong sounded, Nan looked guiltily at the blank sheet of paper; +but it was too late to begin letters now--she must go downstairs, and +trust to good fortune that the girls would not discover how she had +wasted the time! Lunch was a scramble meal to-day, served in the +morning-room on three different tables, and in the midst of a medley of +boxes and parcels; but that was part of the fun of the occasion, and +added to the general hilarity. A formal meal in the dining-room could +be had any day, but it needed a convulsion of Nature to induce Mrs +Rendell to hold her plate in her lap, and actually--oh, horrors! to help +herself to butter with her own individual knife! The girls chuckled +with delight at the spectacle, and then turned to greet Nan on her +reappearance. + +"Well, `Bride,' finished your notes? Hope you have been a good little +honest girl, and said what was true. `Dear Mrs Webb,--Thank you so +much for the dear little pepperettes. It is so kind of you to think of +me, and as I have already had seven pairs sent, I feel no anxiety +whatever concerning my future happiness.' `Dear Mr Cross,--Thank you +so much for the vases which you have so kindly sent me. They are quite +unique, I am sure, as I have never before seen anything like them. I +shall put them in my drawing-room whenever I know you are coming, and +keep them carefully in a cupboard when you are away.' `Dear Mrs de +Bels,--How kind of you to send me such a sweet little egg-boiler! We +never use such a thing, but it will do charmingly to give away to some +one else, and--'" + +"It's to be hoped no one will send you wedding presents, Kitty, if +that's the way you are going to receive them!" said Nan severely; but +her reproof was received with bursts of derisive laughter. + +"Ho! ho! ho! How innocent we are! how proper all of a sudden! Can you +look us in the face and say you have not said as nearly that as you +dared--that you have not deliberately disguised your true sentiments?" + +"I can! I do! I have not written a single word this morning with which +you could find fault!" cried Nan, with a boldness which betrayed her to +her sharp-witted adversaries, for the cry was immediately raised-- + +"She hasn't written at all! She has been sitting dreaming about _him_ +instead." + +"I think of thee by morn, my love!" chanted Kitty, rolling her eyes to +the ceiling with a ridiculous affectation of sentiment; while Agatha and +Christabel went through a pantomime of rapturous greeting, at which Nan +laughed in unperturbed enjoyment. She had served a long apprenticeship +to her sisters' teasing ways, and was too happy in her engagement to +keep up any pretence of indifference. Nan, indeed, won universal +admiration in the character of an engaged girl, for there was something +inexpressibly winsome in her transparent enjoyment of her own happiness. +She loved her future husband with all her heart, and saw no reason why +she should feign an indifference which she was so far from feeling. + +When Gervase arrived in person shortly after lunch, she went flying to +meet him, and came back hanging on his arm, her face sparkling with +happiness and contentment. + +"He has come! He has come! Here he is!" she cried, in tones of +triumph; and Gervase was promptly surrounded by his sisters-in-law-to- +be, and escorted round the house to see the preparations for to-morrow's +ceremony. + +He said little, for the solemnity of the occasion had already laid its +sobering touch upon him, but his eyes glowed, and every time he looked +at Nan there came an expression into his face so sweet, so true, so +tender, that Maud could not see it and keep back the tears. She was in +a supersensitive mood this afternoon, for not only did the parting with +her beloved sister lie ahead, but also a meeting of even more +importance. Ned Talbot was to be Gervase's best man, and was even now +at the Grange, waiting only to greet his host, before coming to pay his +first visit for nearly two years. The winter before he had received an +invitation to Thurston House, but it had been refused; and even after +that formal intimation that the way was open, he had delayed his coming, +modesty and self-distrust alike combining to make him dread that final +putting to the test which should "win or lose it all." How much Miss +Nan had to do with the choosing of the "best man" is one of those +secrets which are best left alone. But presently there he came, walking +across the lawn towards the spot where the tea-table was laid, just as +he had done on another afternoon years ago; and there sat Maud, once +more busying herself with the tea-cups to hide her confusion, though of +a different and far happier description. + +Not in vain had Jim dropped his words of reminder; not for naught had he +handed over letters received from his old friend for his sister's +perusal! Maud knew, and had known for many a long day, to whom Ned's +heart was given; and Ned knew that she knew, and gathered fresh hope +from her sweet, shy smile. For himself, he was looking a new man, and +Lilias felt a stab of pain as she looked at him and met his calm, +scrutinising glance. She had loved him once, or had come as near loving +him as it was in her nature to do, and she was surprised to find how +much it hurt to realise his disenchantment. She was as pretty as +ever,--prettier, so her mirror told her,--but though admiration was hers +in plenty, no one seemed to love her, or to turn to her for sympathy and +counsel. Nan, her younger sister, was about to be spirited away to a +life of luxury and affluence; Maud would certainly follow suit before +long; and she would be left at home with the younger girls, regarded by +them as a tiresome elderly person, who refused to move on and make room +for her juniors. A pleasant prospect, indeed! yet she could not +complain, for if there was little sympathy between her sisters and +herself, the fault was her own, and in her heart she confessed that it +was so. It is impossible to live a selfish, self-engrossed life without +suffering for it in hours of loneliness, and Lilias was beginning to +learn this lesson to her cost. + +When tea was over, Gervase went back to the Grange to sit with his +uncle, while Nan adjourned upstairs to superintend that last trying-on +of bridesmaids' dresses which the younger girls declared to be +imperative. + +"My dear, you don't know what may be wrong! I slipped on my bodice last +night, and it was two inches too tight. That doesn't matter--I'll have +a slim figure for your wedding, if I die for it; but consider--just +consider--how fe-arful it would have been if it had been too loose!" +cried Agatha tragically; and after that there was plainly no refusal +possible. + +Mrs Rendell wished to interview the cook, Jim had a letter to write-- +every one, it appeared, had some important and pressing matter demanding +attention, save only Maud and Ned, who were left to their own devices, +and presently wandered off towards that portion of the garden most +sheltered from observation. Both knew what was coming, and both were +trembling with hardly suppressed agitation; then presently their eyes +met, Ned held out his hand, and Maud's went out to meet it without a +moment's hesitation. + +"Do you forgive me, Maud? Can you believe in me again? Can you give +yourself to a man who loves you with all his heart, and can never do +enough to show his remorse for his own miserable mistake? I did you a +cruel wrong, but I have suffered for it all these years... Could you +find enough charity in your heart to forgive me, and give me another +chance?" + +"I have nothing to forgive!" said Maud simply. Dear thing! and she +meant it too; for when she loved, she found it impossible to blame, and +Ned had been her hero for so many a long year. "It was quite natural +that you should be fascinated by Lilias, for she is so beautiful and +charming. I did not blame you, even at the time; but oh, Ned, I was +very miserable! I loved you so dearly, I longed so much to help you! +There is nothing in the world which could make me so happy as to be your +wife!" + +Ned's words of love, of gratitude, of almost tearful remorse, are too +sacred to be repeated. He had reached his goal at last, and, looking +back upon the past, felt that all the troubles which had lain in his +path were but a light price to have paid for the treasure he had won! + +Upstairs at the window of the girls' bedroom Kitty Maitland peered +through her spectacles at the flutter of Maud's dress behind the bushes +in the garden, and knitted her brows, in her anxiety to account for the +presence of a dark stain around the waist! Presently the bushes parted +company for a few yards, and the stain was discovered to be neither more +nor less than a coat sleeve belonging to Mr Ned Talbot! Kitty cleared +her throat, and chanted in a high, clear tone-- + +"A marriage has been arranged, and will shortly take place, between Mr +Edward Mortimer Talbot and Maud, eldest daughter of--" + +A stampede towards the window interrupted the conclusion of the +sentence, and the sisters stared at the unconscious couple with eager +scrutiny. They peered to right and left, craned their necks to one side +and then the other, rushed to a second window to obtain a better view, +and finally turned back and faced each other with expressions of awed +conviction. + +"It is--for a ducat! Oh dear, what a nuisance!" cried Agatha pitifully. +"What shall we do without our Maud? First Nan, and then Maud--the +house will be lost without them!" + +"Our loss is their gain. We must be resigned. It is what we must +expect. One bird after another will fly away, and leave the old nest +bare. It is the order of Nature," sighed Elsie sadly. + +"Another wedding! Another bridesmaid's dress. How s-implay lovelay!" +cried Christabel rapturously; but Nan stood apart with clasped hands, +and dark eyes full of tears. + +"The only thing," she sighed to herself--"the only thing I had left to +wish for. Oh, how thankful I am! What a dear world it is! How good +God is to us all!" + +THE END. + + + + + + +End of Project Gutenberg's A Houseful of Girls, by Mrs. George de Horne Vaizey + +*** END OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK A HOUSEFUL OF GIRLS *** + +***** This file should be named 21121.txt or 21121.zip ***** +This and all associated files of various formats will be found in: + http://www.gutenberg.org/2/1/1/2/21121/ + +Produced by Nick Hodson of London, England + +Updated editions will replace the previous one--the old editions +will be renamed. + +Creating the works from public domain print editions means that no +one owns a United States copyright in these works, so the Foundation +(and you!) can copy and distribute it in the United States without +permission and without paying copyright royalties. Special rules, +set forth in the General Terms of Use part of this license, apply to +copying and distributing Project Gutenberg-tm electronic works to +protect the PROJECT GUTENBERG-tm concept and trademark. 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