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diff --git a/21249.txt b/21249.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..688e4a5 --- /dev/null +++ b/21249.txt @@ -0,0 +1,22355 @@ +The Project Gutenberg EBook of Clayhanger, by Arnold Bennett + +This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere at no cost and with +almost no restrictions whatsoever. You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: Clayhanger + +Author: Arnold Bennett + +Release Date: April 28, 2007 [EBook #21249] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ASCII + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK CLAYHANGER *** + + + + +Produced by Nick Hodson of London, England + + + + + +Clayhanger, by Arnold Bennett +_______________________________________________________________________ +This book is one of several written by Bennett about life in the +Staffordshire Potteries in the last quarter of the nineteenth century. +The hero is Edwin Clayhanger, and we see him through his childhood, +adolescence, early working life, when he was working for his martinet +old father, and to the point where he inherits the business, which is +printing. + +Bennett comes from that area of industrial Britain, and the book rings +true on every page. +NH +_______________________________________________________________________ + +CLAYHANGER + +BY ARNOLD BENNETT + + + +VOLUME ONE, CHAPTER ONE. + +BOOK ONE--HIS VOCATION. + +THE LAST OF A SCHOOLBOY. + +Edwin Clayhanger stood on the steep-sloping, red-bricked canal bridge, +in the valley between Bursley and its suburb Hillport. In that +neighbourhood the Knype and Mersey canal formed the western boundary of +the industrialism of the Five Towns. To the east rose pitheads, +chimneys, and kilns, tier above tier, dim in their own mists. To the +west, Hillport Fields, grimed but possessing authentic hedgerows and +winding paths, mounted broadly up to the sharp ridge on which stood +Hillport Church, a landmark. Beyond the ridge, and partly protected by +it from the driving smoke of the Five Towns, lay the fine and ancient +Tory borough of Oldcastle, from whose historic Middle School Edwin +Clayhanger was now walking home. The fine and ancient Tory borough +provided education for the whole of the Five Towns, but the relentless +ignorance of its prejudices had blighted the district. A hundred years +earlier the canal had only been obtained after a vicious Parliamentary +fight between industry and the fine and ancient borough, which saw in +canals a menace to its importance as a centre of traffic. Fifty years +earlier the fine and ancient borough had succeeded in forcing the +greatest railway line in England to run through unpopulated country five +miles off instead of through the Five Towns, because it loathed the mere +conception of a railway. And now, people are inquiring why the Five +Towns, with a railway system special to itself, is characterised by a +perhaps excessive provincialism. These interesting details have +everything to do with the history of Edwin Clayhanger, as they have +everything to do with the history of each of the two hundred thousand +souls in the Five Towns. Oldcastle guessed not the vast influences of +its sublime stupidity. + +It was a breezy Friday in July 1872. The canal, which ran north and +south, reflected a blue and white sky. Towards the bridge, from the +north came a long narrow canal-boat roofed with tarpaulins; and towards +the bridge, from the south came a similar craft, sluggishly creeping. +The towing-path was a morass of sticky brown mud, for, in the way of +rain, that year was breaking the records of a century and a half. +Thirty yards in front of each boat an unhappy skeleton of a horse +floundered its best in the quagmire. The honest endeavour of one of the +animals received a frequent tonic from a bare-legged girl of seven who +heartily curled a whip about its crooked large-jointed legs. The ragged +and filthy child danced in the rich mud round the horse's flanks with +the simple joy of one who had been rewarded for good behaviour by the +unrestricted use of a whip for the first time. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +Edwin, with his elbows on the stone parapet of the bridge, stared +uninterested at the spectacle of the child, the whip, and the skeleton. +He was not insensible to the piquancy of the pageant of life, but his +mind was preoccupied with grave and heavy matters. He had left school +that day, and what his eyes saw as he leaned on the bridge was not a +willing beast and a gladdened infant, but the puzzling world and the +advance guard of its problems bearing down on him. Slim, gawky, untidy, +fair, with his worn black-braided clothes, and slung over his shoulders +in a bursting satchel the last load of his schoolbooks, and on his +bright, rough hair a shapeless cap whose lining protruded behind, he had +the extraordinary wistful look of innocence and simplicity which marks +most boys of sixteen. It seemed rather a shame, it seemed even tragic, +that this naive, simple creature, with his straightforward and friendly +eyes so eager to believe appearances, this creature immaculate of +worldly experience, must soon be transformed into a man, wary, +incredulous, detracting. Older eyes might have wept at the simplicity +of those eyes. + +This picture of Edwin as a wistful innocent would have made Edwin laugh. +He had been seven years at school, and considered himself a hardened +sort of brute, free of illusions. And he sometimes thought that he +could judge the world better than most neighbouring mortals. + +"Hello! The Sunday!" he murmured, without turning his eyes. + +Another boy, a little younger and shorter, and clothed in a superior +untidiness, had somehow got on to the bridge, and was leaning with his +back against the parapet which supported Edwin's elbows. His eyes were +franker and simpler even than the eyes of Edwin, and his lips seemed to +be permanently parted in a good-humoured smile. His name was Charlie +Orgreave, but at school he was invariably called "the Sunday"--not +"Sunday," but "the Sunday"--and nobody could authoritatively explain how +he had come by the nickname. Its origin was lost in the prehistoric +ages of his childhood. He and Edwin had been chums for several years. +They had not sworn fearful oaths of loyalty; they did not constitute a +secret society; they had not even pricked forearms and written certain +words in blood; for these rites are only performed at Harrow, and +possibly at the Oldcastle High School, which imitates Harrow. Their +fellowship meant chiefly that they spent a great deal of time together, +instinctively and unconsciously enjoying each other's mere presence, and +that in public arguments they always reinforced each other, whatever the +degree of intellectual dishonesty thereby necessitated. + +"I'll bet you mine gets to the bridge first," said the Sunday. With an +ingenious movement of the shoulders he arranged himself so that the +parapet should bear the weight of his satchel. + +Edwin Clayhanger slowly turned round, and perceived that the object +which the Sunday had appropriated as "his" was the other canal-boat, +advancing from the south. + +"Horse or boat?" asked Edwin. + +"Boat's nose, of course," said the Sunday. + +"Well," said Edwin, having surveyed the unconscious competitors, and +counting on the aid of the whipping child, "I don't mind laying you +five." + +"That be damned for a tale!" protested the Sunday. "We said we'd never +bet less than ten--you know that." + +"Yes, but--" Edwin hesitatingly drawled. + +"But what?" + +"All right. Ten," Edwin agreed. "But it's not fair. You've got a rare +start on me." + +"Rats!" said the Sunday, with finality. In the pronunciation of this +word the difference between his accent and Edwin's came out clear. The +Sunday's accent was less local; there was a hint of a short "e" sound in +the "a," and a briskness about the consonants, that Edwin could never +have compassed. The Sunday's accent was as carelessly superior as his +clothes. Evidently the Sunday had some one at home who had not learnt +the art of speech in the Five Towns. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +He began to outline a scheme, in which perpendicular expectoration +figured, for accurately deciding the winner, and a complicated argument +might have ensued about this, had it not soon become apparent that +Edwin's boat was going to be handsomely beaten, despite the joyous +efforts of the little child. The horse that would die but would not +give up, was only saved from total subsidence at every step by his +indomitable if aged spirit. Edwin handed over the ten marbles even +before the other boat had arrived at the bridge. + +"Here," he said. "And you may as well have these, too," adding five +more to the ten, all he possessed. They were not the paltry marble of +to-day, plaything of infants, but the majestic "rinker," black with +white spots, the king of marbles in an era when whole populations +practised the game. Edwin looked at them half regretfully as they lay +in the Sunday's hands. They seemed prodigious wealth in those hands, +and he felt somewhat as a condemned man might feel who bequeaths his +jewels on the scaffold. Then there was a rattle, and a tumour grew out +larger on the Sunday's thigh. + +The winning boat, long preceded by its horse, crawled under the bridge +and passed northwards to the sea, laden with crates of earthenware. And +then the loser, with the little girl's father and mother and her +brothers and sisters, and her kitchen, drawing-room, and bedroom, and +her smoking chimney and her memories and all that was hers, in the stern +of it, slid beneath the boys' down-turned faces while the whip cracked +away beyond the bridge. They could see, between the whitened +tarpaulins, that the deep belly of the craft was filled with clay. + +"Where does that there clay come from?" asked Edwin. For not merely was +he honestly struck by a sudden new curiosity, but it was meet for him to +behave like a man now, and to ask manly questions. + +"Runcorn," said the Sunday scornfully. "Can't you see it painted all +over the boat?" + +"Why do they bring clay all the way from Runcorn?" + +"They don't bring it from Runcorn. They bring it from Cornwall. It +comes round by sea--see?" He laughed. + +"Who told you?" Edwin roughly demanded. + +"Anybody knows that!" said the Sunday grandly, but always maintaining +his gay smile. + +"Seems devilish funny to me," Edwin murmured, after reflection, "that +they should bring clay all that roundabout way just to make crocks of it +here. Why should they choose just this place to make crocks in? I +always understood--" + +"Oh! Come on!" the Sunday cut him short. "It's blessed well one +o'clock and after!" + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +They climbed the long bank from the canal up to the Manor Farm, at which +high point their roads diverged, one path leading direct to Bleakridge +where Orgreave lived, and the other zigzagging down through neglected +pasturage into Bursley proper. Usually they parted here without a word, +taking pride in such Spartan taciturnity, and they would doubtless have +done the same this morning also, though it were fifty-fold their last +walk together as two schoolboys. But an incident intervened. + +"Hold on!" cried the Sunday. + +To the south of them, a mile and a half off, in the wreathing mist of +the Cauldon Bar Ironworks, there was a yellow gleam that even the +capricious sunlight could not kill, and then two rivers of fire sprang +from the gleam and ran in a thousand delicate and lovely hues down the +side of a mountain of refuse. They were emptying a few tons of molten +slag at the Cauldon Bar Ironworks. The two rivers hung slowly dying in +the mists of smoke. They reddened and faded, and you thought they had +vanished, and you could see them yet, and then they escaped the baffled +eye, unless a cloud aided them for a moment against the sun; and their +ephemeral but enchanting beauty had expired for ever. + +"Now!" said Edwin sharply. + +"One minute ten seconds," said the Sunday, who had snatched out his +watch, an inestimable contrivance with a centre-seconds hand. "By Jove! +That was a good 'un." + +A moment later two smaller boys, both laden with satchels, appeared over +the brow from the canal. + +"Let's wait a jiff," said the Sunday to Edwin, and as the smaller boys +showed no hurry he bawled out to them across the intervening +cinder-waste: "Run!" They ran. They were his younger brothers, Johnnie +and Jimmie. "Take this and hook it!" he commanded, passing the strap of +his satchel over his head as they came up. In fatalistic silence they +obeyed the smiling tyrant. + +"What are you going to do?" Edwin asked. + +"I'm coming down your way a bit." + +"But I thought you said you were peckish." + +"I shall eat three slices of beef instead of my usual brace," said the +Sunday carelessly. + +Edwin was touched. And the Sunday was touched, because he knew he had +touched Edwin. After all, this was a solemn occasion. But neither +would overtly admit that its solemnity had affected him. Hence, first +one and then the other began to skim stones with vicious force over the +surface of the largest of the three ponds that gave interest to the +Manor Farm. When they had thus proved to themselves that the day +differed in no manner from any other breaking-up day, they went forward. + +On their left were two pitheads whose double wheels revolved rapidly in +smooth silence, and the puffing engine-house and all the trucks and gear +of a large ironstone mine. On their right was the astonishing farm, +with barns and ricks and cornfields complete, seemingly quite unaware of +its forlorn oddness in that foul arena of manufacture. In front, on a +little hill in the vast valley, was spread out the Indian-red +architecture of Bursley--tall chimneys and rounded ovens, schools, the +new scarlet market, the grey tower of the old church, the high spire of +the evangelical church, the low spire of the church of genuflexions, and +the crimson chapels, and rows of little red houses with amber +chimney-pots, and the gold angel of the blackened Town Hall topping the +whole. The sedate reddish browns and reds of the composition, all +netted in flowing scarves of smoke, harmonised exquisitely with the +chill blues of the chequered sky. Beauty was achieved, and none saw it. + +The boys descended without a word through the brick-strewn pastures, +where a horse or two cropped the short grass. At the railway bridge, +which carried a branch mineral line over the path, they exchanged a +brief volley of words with the working-lads who always played +pitch-and-toss there in the dinner-hour; and the Sunday added to the +collection of shawds and stones lodged on the under ledges of the low +iron girders. A strange boy, he had sworn to put ten thousand stones on +those ledges before he died, or perish in the attempt. Hence Edwin +sometimes called him "Old Perish-in-the-attempt." A little farther on +the open gates of a manufactory disclosed six men playing the noble game +of rinkers on a smooth patch of ground near the weighing machine. These +six men were Messieurs Ford, Carter, and Udall, the three partners +owning the works, and three of their employees. They were celebrated +marble-players, and the boys stayed to watch them as, bending with one +knee almost touching the earth, they shot the rinkers from their stubby +thumbs with a canon-like force and precision that no boy could ever hope +to equal. "By gum!" mumbled Edwin involuntarily, when an impossible +shot was accomplished; and the bearded shooter, pleased by this tribute +from youth, twisted his white apron into a still narrower ring round his +waist. Yet Edwin was not thinking about the game. He was thinking +about a battle that lay before him, and how he would be weakened in the +fight by the fact that in the last school examination, Charlie Orgreave, +younger than himself by a year, had ousted him from the second place in +the school. The report in his pocket said: "Position in class next +term: third;" whereas he had been second since the beginning of the +year. There would of course be no "next term" for him, but the report +remained. A youth who has come to grips with that powerful enemy, his +father, cannot afford to be handicapped by even such a trifle as a +report entirely irrelevant to the struggle. + +Suddenly Charlie Orgreave gave a curt nod, and departed, in nonchalant +good-humour, doubtless considering that to accompany his chum any +farther would be to be guilty of girlish sentimentality. And Edwin +nodded with equal curtness and made off slowly into the maze of Bursley. +The thought in his heart was: "I'm on my own, now. I've got to face it +now, by myself." And he felt that not merely his father, but the +leagued universe, was against him. + + + +VOLUME ONE, CHAPTER TWO. + +THE FLAME. + +The various agencies which society has placed at the disposal of a +parent had been at work on Edwin in one way or another for at least a +decade, in order to equip him for just this very day when he should step +into the world. The moment must therefore be regarded as dramatic, the +first crucial moment of an experiment long and elaborately prepared. +Knowledge was admittedly the armour and the weapon of one about to try +conclusions with the world, and many people for many years had been +engaged in providing Edwin with knowledge. He had received, in fact, "a +good education"--or even, as some said, "a thoroughly sound education;" +assuredly as complete an equipment of knowledge as could be obtained in +the county, for the curriculum of the Oldcastle High School was less in +accord with common sense than that of the Middle School. + +He knew, however, nothing of natural history, and in particular of +himself, of the mechanism of the body and mind, through which his soul +had to express and fulfil itself. Not one word of information about +either physiology or psychology had ever been breathed to him, nor had +it ever occurred to any one around him that such information was +needful. And as no one had tried to explain to him the mysteries which +he carried about with him inside that fair skin of his, so no one had +tried to explain to him the mysteries by which he was hemmed in, either +mystically through religion, or rationally through philosophy. Never in +chapel or at Sunday school had a difficulty been genuinely faced. And +as for philosophy, he had not the slightest conception of what it meant. +He imagined that a philosopher was one who made the best of a bad job, +and he had never heard the word used in any other sense. He had great +potential intellectual curiosity, but nobody had thought to stimulate it +by even casually telling him that the finest minds of humanity had been +trying to systematise the mysteries for quite twenty-five centuries. Of +physical science he had been taught nothing, save a grotesque perversion +to the effect that gravity was a force which drew things towards the +centre of the earth. In the matter of chemistry it had been practically +demonstrated to him scores of times, so that he should never forget this +grand basic truth, that sodium and potassium may be relied upon to fizz +flamingly about on a surface of water. Of geology he was perfectly +ignorant, though he lived in a district whose whole livelihood depended +on the scientific use of geological knowledge, and though the existence +of Oldcastle itself was due to a freak of the earth's crust which +geologists call a "fault." + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +Geography had been one of his strong points. He was aware of the rivers +of Asia in their order, and of the principal products of Uruguay; and he +could name the capitals of nearly all the United States. But he had +never been instructed for five minutes in the geography of his native +county, of which he knew neither the boundaries nor the rivers nor the +terrene characteristics. He could have drawn a map of the Orinoco, but +he could not have found the Trent in a day's march; he did not even know +where his drinking-water came from. That geographical considerations +are the cause of all history had never been hinted to him, nor that +history bears immediately upon modern life and bore on his own life. +For him history hung unsupported and unsupporting in the air. In the +course of his school career he had several times approached the +nineteenth century, but it seemed to him that for administrative reasons +he was always being dragged back again to the Middle Ages. Once his +form had "got" as far as the infancy of his own father, and concerning +this period he had learnt that "great dissatisfaction prevailed among +the labouring classes, who were led to believe by mischievous +demagogues," etcetera. But the next term he was recoiling round Henry +the Eighth, who "was a skilful warrior and politician," but "unfortunate +in his domestic relations;" and so to Elizabeth, than whom "few +sovereigns have been so much belied, but her character comes out +unscathed after the closest examination." History indeed resolved +itself into a series of more or less sanguinary events arbitrarily +grouped under the names of persons who had to be identified with the +assistance of numbers. Neither of the development of national life, nor +of the clash of nations, did he really know anything that was not +inessential and anecdotic. He could not remember the clauses of Magna +Charta, but he knew eternally that it was signed at a place amusingly +called Runnymede. And the one fact engraved on his memory about the +battle of Waterloo was that it was fought on a Sunday. + +And as he had acquired absolutely nothing about political economy or +about logic, and was therefore at the mercy of the first agreeable +sophistry that might take his fancy by storm, his unfitness to commence +the business of being a citizen almost reached perfection. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +For his personal enjoyment of the earth and air and sun and stars, and +of society and solitude, no preparation had been made, or dreamt of. +The sentiment of nature had never been encouraged in him, or even +mentioned. He knew not how to look at a landscape nor at a sky. Of +plants and trees he was as exquisitely ignorant as of astronomy. It had +not occurred to him to wonder why the days are longer in summer, and he +vaguely supposed that the cold of winter was due to an increased +distance of the earth from the sun. Still, he had learnt that Saturn +had a ring, and sometimes he unconsciously looked for it in the +firmament, as for a tea-tray. + +Of art, and the arts, he had been taught nothing. He had never seen a +great picture or statue, nor heard great orchestral or solo music; and +he had no idea that architecture was an art and emotional, though it +moved him in a very peculiar fashion. Of the art of English literature, +or of any other literature, he had likewise been taught nothing. But he +knew the meaning of a few obsolete words in a few plays of Shakespeare. +He had not learnt how to express himself orally in any language, but +through hard drilling he was so genuinely erudite in accidence and +syntax that he could parse and analyse with superb assurance the most +magnificent sentences of Milton, Virgil, and Racine. This skill, +together with an equal skill in utilising the elementary properties of +numbers and geometrical figures, was the most brilliant achievement of +his long apprenticeship. + +And now his education was finished. It had cost his father twenty-eight +shillings a term, or four guineas a year, and no trouble. In younger +days his father had spent more money and far more personal attention on +the upbringing of a dog. His father had enjoyed success with dogs +through treating them as individuals. But it had not happened to him, +nor to anybody in authority, to treat Edwin as an individual. +Nevertheless it must not be assumed that Edwin's father was a callous +and conscienceless brute, and Edwin a martyr of neglect. Old Clayhanger +was, on the contrary, an average upright and respectable parent who had +given his son a thoroughly sound education, and Edwin had had the good +fortune to receive that thoroughly sound education, as a preliminary to +entering the world. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +He was very far from realising the imperfections of his equipment for +the grand entry; but still he was not without uneasiness. In particular +the conversation incident to the canal-boat wager was disturbing him. +It amazed him, as he reflected, that he should have remained, to such an +advanced age, in a state of ignorance concerning the origin of the clay +from which the crocks of his native district were manufactured. That +the Sunday should have been able to inform him did not cause him any +shame, for he guessed from the peculiar eager tone of voice in which the +facts had been delivered, that the Sunday was merely retailing some +knowledge recently acquired by chance. He knew all the Sunday's tones +of voice; and he also was well aware that the Sunday's brain was not on +the whole better stored than his own. Further, the Sunday was satisfied +with his bit of accidental knowledge. Edwin was not. Edwin wanted to +know why, if the clay for making earthenware was not got in the Five +Towns, the Five Towns had become the great seat of the manufacture. Why +were not pots made in the South, where the clay came from? He could not +think of any answer to this enigma, nor of any means of arriving by +himself at an answer. The feeling was that he ought to have been able +to arrive at the answer as at the answer to an equation. + +He did not definitely blame his education; he did not think clearly +about the thing at all. But, as a woman with a vague discomfort dimly +fears cancer, so he dimly feared that there might be something +fundamentally unsound in this sound education of his. And he had +remorse for all the shirking that he had been guilty of during all his +years at school. He shook his head solemnly at the immense and nearly +universal shirking that continually went on. He could only acquit three +or four boys, among the hundreds he had known, of the shameful sin. And +all that he could say in favour of himself was that there were many +worse than Edwin Clayhanger. Not merely the boys, but the masters, were +sinners. Only two masters could he unreservedly respect as having acted +conscientiously up to their pretensions, and one of these was an +unpleasant brute. All the cleverness, the ingenuities, the fakes, the +insincerities, the incapacitaties, the vanities, and the dishonesties of +the rest stood revealed to him, and he judged them by the mere essential +force of character alone. A schoolmaster might as well attempt to +deceive God as a boy who is watching him every day with the inhuman eye +of youth. + +"All this must end now!" he said to himself, meaning all that could be +included in the word "shirk." + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +He was splendidly serious. He was as splendidly serious as a reformer. +By a single urgent act of thought he would have made himself a man, and +changed imperfection into perfection. He desired--and there was real +passion in his desire--to do his best, to exhaust himself in doing his +best, in living according to his conscience. He did not know of what he +was capable, nor what he could achieve. Achievement was not the matter +of his desire; but endeavour, honest and terrific endeavour. He +admitted to himself his shortcomings, and he did not under-estimate the +difficulties that lay before him; but he said, thinking of his father: +"Surely he'll see I mean business! Surely he's bound to give in when he +sees how much in earnest I am!" He was convinced, almost, that +passionate faith could move mountainous fathers. + +"I'll show 'em!" he muttered. + +And he meant that he would show the world... He was honouring the +world; he was paying the finest homage to it. In that head of his a +flame burnt that was like an altar-fire, a miraculous and beautiful +phenomenon, than which nothing is more miraculous nor more beautiful +over the whole earth. Whence had it suddenly sprung, that flame? After +years of muddy inefficiency, of contentedness with the second-rate and +the dishonest, that flame astoundingly bursts forth, from a hidden, +unheeded spark that none had ever thought to blow upon. It bursts forth +out of a damp jungle of careless habits and negligence that could not +possibly have fed it. There is little to encourage it. The very +architecture of the streets shows that environment has done naught for +it: ragged brickwork, walls finished anyhow with saggars and slag; +narrow uneven alleys leading to higgledy-piggledy workshops and kilns; +cottages transformed into factories and factories into cottages, +clumsily, hastily, because nothing matters so long as "it will do;" +everywhere something forced to fulfil, badly, the function of something +else; in brief, the reign of the slovenly makeshift, shameless, filthy, +and picturesque. Edwin himself seemed no tabernacle for that singular +flame. He was not merely untidy and dirty--at his age such defects +might have excited in a sane observer uneasiness by their absence; but +his gestures and his gait were untidy. He did not mind how he walked. +All his sprawling limbs were saying: "What does it matter, so long as we +get there?" The angle of the slatternly bag across his shoulders was an +insult to the flame. And yet the flame burned with serene and terrible +pureness. + +It was surprising that no one saw it passing along the mean, black, +smoke-palled streets that huddle about Saint Luke's Church. Sundry +experienced and fat old women were standing or sitting at their cottage +doors, one or two smoking cutties. But even they, who in child-bed and +at gravesides had been at the very core of life for long years, they, +who saw more than most, could only see a fresh lad passing along, with +fair hair and a clear complexion, and gawky knees and elbows, a fierce, +rapt expression on his straightforward, good-natured face. Some knew +that it was "Clayhanger's lad," a nice-behaved young gentleman, and the +spitten image of his poor mother. They all knew what a lad is--the feel +of his young skin under his "duds," the capricious freedom of his +movements, his sudden madnesses and shoutings and tendernesses, and the +exceeding power of his unconscious wistful charm. They could divine all +that in a glance. But they could not see the mysterious and holy flame +of the desire for self-perfection blazing within that tousled head. And +if Edwin had suspected that anybody could indeed perceive it, he would +have whipped it out for shame, though the repudiation had meant +everlasting death. Such is youth in the Five Towns, if not elsewhere. + + + +VOLUME ONE, CHAPTER THREE. + +ENTRY INTO THE WORLD. + +Edwin came steeply out of the cinder-strewn back streets by Woodisun +Bank [hill] into Duck Square, nearly at the junction of Trafalgar Road +and Wedgwood Street. A few yards down Woodisun Bank, cocks and hens +were scurrying, with necks horizontal, from all quarters, and were even +flying, to the call of a little old woman who threw grain from the top +step of her porch. On the level of the narrow pavement stood an immense +constable, clad in white trousers, with a gun under his arm for the +killing of mad dogs; he was talking to the woman, and their two heads +were exactly at the same height. On a pair of small double gates near +the old woman's cottage were painted the words, "Steam Printing Works. +No admittance except on business." And from as far as Duck Square could +be heard the puff-puff which proved the use of steam in this works to +which idlers and mere pleasure-seekers were forbidden access. + +Duck Square was one of the oldest, if the least imposing, of all the +public places in Bursley. It had no traffic across it, being only a +sloping rectangle, like a vacant lot, with Trafalgar Road and Wedgwood +Street for its exterior sides, and no outlet on its inner sides. The +buildings on those inner sides were low and humble and, as it were, +withdrawn from the world, the chief of them being the ancient Duck Inn, +where the hand-bell ringers used to meet. But Duck Square looked out +upon the very birth of Trafalgar Road, that wide, straight thoroughfare, +whose name dates it, which had been invented, in the lifetime of a few +then living, to unite Bursley with Hanbridge. It also looked out upon +the birth of several old pack-horse roads which Trafalgar Road had +supplanted. One of these was Woodisun Bank, that wound slowly up hill +and down dale, apparently always choosing the longest and hardest route, +to Hanbridge; and another was Aboukir Street, formerly known as Warm +Lane, that reached Hanbridge in a manner equally difficult and +unhurried. At the junction of Trafalgar Road and Aboukir Street stood +the Dragon Hotel, once the great posting-house of the town, from which +all roads started. Duck Square had watched coaches and waggons stop at +and start from the Dragon Hotel for hundreds of years. It had seen the +Dragon rebuilt in brick and stone, with fine bay windows on each storey, +in early Georgian times, and it had seen even the new structure become +old and assume the dignity of age. Duck Square could remember strings +of pack-mules driven by women, `trapesing' in zigzags down Woodisun Bank +and Warm Lane, and occasionally falling, with awful smashes of the +crockery they carried, in the deep, slippery, scarce passable mire of +the first slants into the valley. Duck Square had witnessed the slow +declension of these roads into mere streets, and slum streets at that, +and the death of all mules, and the disappearance of all coaches and all +neighing and prancing and whipcracking romance; while Trafalgar Road, +simply because it was straight and broad and easily graded, flourished +with toll-bars and a couple of pair-horsed trams that ran on lines. And +many people were proud of those cushioned trams; but perhaps they had +never known that coach-drivers used to tell each other about the state +of the turn at the bottom of Warm Lane (since absurdly renamed in honour +of an Egyptian battle), and that Woodisun Bank (now unnoticed save by +doubtful characters, policemen, and schoolboys) was once regularly +`taken' by four horses at a canter. The history of human manners is +crunched and embedded in the very macadam of that part of the borough, +and the burgesses unheedingly tread it down every day and talk gloomily +about the ugly smoky prose of industrial manufacture. And yet the +Dragon Hotel, safely surviving all revolutions by the mighty virtue and +attraction of ale, stands before them to remind them of the +interestingness of existence. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +At the southern corner of Trafalgar Road and Wedgwood Street, with Duck +Square facing it, the Dragon Hotel and Warm Lane to its right, and +Woodisun Bank creeping inconspicuously down to its left, stood a +three-storey building consisting of house and shop, the frontage being +in Wedgwood Street. Over the double-windowed shop was a discreet +signboard in gilt letters, "D. Clayhanger, Printer and Stationer," but +above the first floor was a later and much larger sign, with the single +word, "Steam-printing." All the brickwork of the facade was painted +yellow, and had obviously been painted yellow many times; the woodwork +of the plate-glass windows was a very dark green approaching black. The +upper windows were stumpy, almost square, some dirty and some clean and +curtained, with prominent sills and architraves. The line of the +projecting spouting at the base of the roof was slightly curved through +subsidence; at either end of the roof-ridge rose twin chimneys each with +three salmon-coloured chimney-pots. The gigantic word `Steam-printing' +could be seen from the windows of the Dragon, from the porch of the big +Wesleyan chapel higher up the slope, from the Conservative Club and the +playground at the top of the slope; and as for Duck Square itself, it +could see little else. The left-hand shop window was alluringly set out +with the lighter apparatus of writing and reading, and showed +incidentally several rosy pictures of ideal English maidens; that to the +right was grim and heavy with ledgers, inks, and variegated specimens of +steam-printing. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +In the wedge-shaped doorway between the windows stood two men, one +middle-aged and one old, one bareheaded and the other with a beaver hat, +engaged in conversation. They were talking easily, pleasantly, with +free gestures, the younger looking down in deferential smiles at the +elder, and the elder looking up benignantly at the younger. You could +see that, having begun with a business matter, they had quitted it for a +topic of the hour. But business none the less went forward, the shop +functioned, the presses behind the shop were being driven by steam as +advertised; a customer emerged, and was curtly nodded at by the +proprietor as he squeezed past; a girl with a small flannel apron over a +large cotton apron went timidly into the shop. The trickling, calm +commerce of a provincial town was proceeding, bit being added to bit and +item to item, until at the week's end a series of apparent nothings had +swollen into the livelihood of near half a score of people. And nobody +perceived how interesting it was, this interchange of activities, this +ebb and flow of money, this sluggish rise and fall of reputations and +fortunes, stretching out of one century into another and towards a +third! Printing had been done at that corner, though not by steam, +since the time of the French Revolution. Bibles and illustrated herbals +had been laboriously produced by hand at that corner, and hawked on the +backs of asses all over the county; and nobody heard romance in the +puffing of the hidden steam-engine multiplying catalogues and billheads +on the self-same spot at the rate of hundreds an hour. + +The younger and bigger of the two men chatting in the doorway was Darius +Clayhanger, Edwin's father, and the first printer to introduce steam +into Bursley. His age was then under forty-five, but he looked more. +He was dressed in black, with an ample shirt-front and a narrow black +cravat tied in an angular bow; the wristbands were almost tight on the +wrists, and, owing to the shortness of the alpaca coat-sleeves, they +were very visible even as Darius Clayhanger stood, with his two hands +deep in the horizontal pockets of his `full-fall' trousers. They were +not precisely dirty, these wristbands, nor was the shirt-front, nor the +turned-down pointed collar, but all the linen looked as though it would +scarcely be wearable the next day. Clayhanger's linen invariably looked +like that, not dirty and not clean; and further, he appeared to wear +eternally the same suit, ever on the point of being done for and never +being done for. The trousers always had marked transverse creases; the +waistcoat always showed shiningly the outline of every article in the +pockets thereof, and it always had a few stains down the front (and +never more than a few), and the lowest button insecure. The coat, +faintly discoloured round the collar and fretted at the cuffs, fitted +him easily and loosely like the character of an old crony; it was as if +it had grown up with him, and had expanded with his girth. His head was +a little bald on the top, but there was still a great deal of mixed +brown and greyish hair at the back and the sides, and the moustache, +hanging straight down with an effect recalling the mouth of a seal, was +plenteous and defiant--a moustache of character, contradicting the full +placidity of the badly shaved chin. Darius Clayhanger had a habit, when +reflective or fierce, of biting with his upper teeth as far down as he +could on the lower lip; this trick added emphasis to the moustache. He +stood, his feet in their clumsy boots planted firmly about sixteen +inches apart, his elbows sticking out, and his head bent sideways, +listening to and answering his companion with mien now eager, now +roguish, now distinctly respectful. + +The older man, Mr Shushions, was apparently very old. He was one of +those men of whom one says in conclusion that they are very old. He +seemed to be so fully occupied all the time in conducting those physical +operations which we perform without thinking of them, that each in his +case became a feat. He balanced himself on his legs with conscious +craft; he directed carefully his shaking and gnarled hand to his beard +in order to stroke it. When he collected his thoughts into a sentence +and uttered it in his weak, quavering voice, he did something wonderful; +he listened closely, as though to an imperfectly acquired foreign +language; and when he was not otherwise employed, he gave attention to +the serious business of breathing. He wore a black silk stock, in a +style even more antique than his remarkable headgear, and his trousers +were very tight. He had survived into another and a more fortunate age +than his own. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +Edwin, his heavy bag on his shoulders, found the doorway blocked by +these two. He hesitated with a diffident charming smile, feeling, as he +often did in front of his father, that he ought to apologise for his +existence, and yet fiercely calling himself an ass for such a sentiment. +Darius Clayhanger nodded at him carelessly, but not without a +surprising benevolence, over his shoulder. + +"This is him," said Darius briefly. + +Edwin was startled to catch a note of pride in his father's voice. + +Little Mr Shushions turned slowly and looked up at Edwin's face (for he +was shorter even than the boy), and gradually acquainted himself with +the fact that Edwin was the son of his father. + +"Is this thy son, Darius?" he asked; and his ancient eyes were shining. + +Edwin had scarcely ever heard any one address his father by his +Christian name. + +Darius nodded; and then, seeing the old man's hand creeping out towards +him, Edwin pulled off his cap and took the hand, and was struck by the +hot smooth brittleness of the skin and the earnest tremulous weakness of +the caressing grasp. Edwin had never seen Mr Shushions before. + +"Nay, nay, my boy," trembled the old man, "don't bare thy head to me ... +not to me! I'm one o' th' ould sort. Eh, I'm rare glad to see thee!" +He kept Edwin's hand, and stared long at him, with his withered face +transfigured by solemn emotion. Slowly he turned towards Darius, and +pulled himself together. "Thou'st begotten a fine lad, Darius! ... a +fine, honest lad!" + +"So-so!" said Darius gruffly, whom Edwin was amazed to see in a state of +agitation similar to that of Mr Shushions. + +The men gazed at each other; Edwin looked at the ground and other +unresponsive objects. + +"Edwin," his father said abruptly, "run and ask Big James for th' proof +of that Primitive Methodist hymn-paper; there's a good lad." + +And Edwin hastened through the shadowy shop as if loosed from a +captivity, and in passing threw his satchel down on a bale of goods. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +He comprehended nothing of the encounter; neither as to the origin of +the old man's status in his father's esteem, nor as to the cause of his +father's strange emotion. He regarded the old man impatiently as an +aged simpleton, probably over pious, certainly connected with the +Primitive Methodists. His father had said `There's a good lad' almost +cajolingly. And this was odd; for, though nobody could be more +persuasively agreeable than his father when he chose, the occasions when +he cared to exert his charm, especially over his children, were +infrequent, and getting more so. Edwin also saw something symbolically +ominous in his being sent direct to the printing office. It was no +affair of his to go to the printing office. He particularly did not +want to go to the printing office. + +However, he met Big James, with flowing beard and flowing apron, +crossing the yard. Big James was brushing crumbs from the beard. + +"Father wants the proof of some hymn-paper--I don't know what," he said. +"I was just coming--" + +"So was I, Mister Edwin," replied Big James in his magnificent voice, +and with his curious humorous smile. And he held up a sheet of paper in +his immense hand, and strode majestically on towards the shop. + +Here was another detail that struck the boy. Always Big James had +addressed him as `Master Edwin' or `Master Clayhanger.' Now it was +`Mister.' He had left school. Big James was, of course, aware of that, +and Big James had enough finesse and enough gentle malice to change +instantly the `master' to `mister.' Edwin was scarcely sure if Big +James was not laughing at him. He could not help thinking that Big +James had begun so promptly to call him `mister' because the foreman +compositor expected that the son of the house would at once begin to +take a share in the business. He could not help thinking that his +father must have so informed Big James. And all this vaguely disturbed +Edwin, and reminded him of his impending battle and of the complex +forces marshalled against him. And his hand, wandering in his pockets, +touched that unfortunate report which stated that he had lost one place +during the term. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +SIX. + +He lingered in the blue-paved yard, across which cloud-shadows swept +continually, and then Big James came back and spectacularly ascended the +flight of wooden steps to the printing office, and disappeared. Edwin +knew that he must return to the shop to remove his bag, for his father +would assuredly reprimand him if he found it where it had been untidily +left. He sidled, just like an animal, to the doorway, and then slipped +up to the counter, behind the great mahogany case of `artists' +materials.' His father and the old man were within the shop now, and +Edwin overheard that they were discussing a topic that had lately been +rife in religious circles, namely, Sir Henry Thompson's ingenious device +for scientifically testing the efficacy of prayer, known as the `Prayer +Gauge.' The scheme was to take certain hospitals and to pray for the +patients in particular wards, leaving other wards unprayed for, and then +to tabulate and issue the results. + +Mr Shushions profoundly resented the employment of such a dodge; the +mere idea of it shocked him, as being blasphemous; and Darius Clayhanger +deferentially and feelingly agreed with him, though Edwin had at least +once heard his father refer to the topic with the amused and +non-committal impartiality of a man who only went to chapel when he +specially felt like going. + +"I've preached in the pulpits o' our Connexion," said Mr Shushions with +solemn, quavering emotion, "for over fifty year, as you know. But I'd +ne'er gi' out another text if Primitives had ought to do wi' such a +flouting o' th' Almighty. Nay, I'd go down to my grave dumb afore God!" + +He had already been upset by news of a movement that was on foot for +deferring Anniversary Sermons from August to September, so that people +should be more free to go away for a holiday, and collections be more +fruitful. What! Put off God's ordinance, to enable chapel-members to +go `a-wakesing'! Monstrous! Yet September was tried, in spite of Mr +Shushions, and when even September would not work satisfactorily, God's +ordinance was shifted boldly to May, in order to catch people, and their +pockets well before the demoralisation incident to holidays. + +Edwin thought that his father and the mysterious old man would talk for +ever, and timorously he exposed himself to obtain possession of his +satchel, hoping to escape unseen. But Mr Shushions saw him, and called +him, and took his hand again. + +"Eh, my boy," he said, feebly shaking the hand, "I do pray as you'll +grow up to be worthy o' your father. That's all as I pray for." + +Edwin had never considered his father as an exemplar. He was a just and +unmerciful judge of his father, against whom he had a thousand +grievances. And in his heart he resentfully despised Mr Shushions, and +decided again that he was a simpleton, and not a very tactful one. But +then he saw a round yellow tear slowly form in the red rim of the old +man's eye and run crookedly down that wrinkled cheek. And his impatient +scorn expired. The mere sight of him, Edwin, had brought the old man to +weeping! And the tear was so genuine, so convincing, so majestic that +it induced in Edwin a blank humility. He was astounded, mystified; but +he was also humbled. He himself was never told, and he never learnt, +the explanation of that epic tear. + + + +VOLUME ONE, CHAPTER FOUR. + +THE CHILD-MAN. + +The origin of the tear on the aged cheek of Mr Shushions went back +about forty years, and was embedded in the infancy of Darius Clayhanger. + +The earliest memory of Darius Clayhanger had to do with the capital +letters Q W and S. Even as the first steam-printer in Bursley, even as +the father of a son who had received a thoroughly sound middle-class +education, he never noticed a capital Q W or S without recalling the +Widow Susan's school, where he had wonderingly learnt the significance +of those complicated characters. The school consisted of the entire +ground floor of her cottage, namely, one room, of which the far corner +was occupied by a tiny winding staircase that led to the ancient widow's +bedchamber. The furniture comprised a few low forms for scholars, a +table, and a chair; and there were some brilliant coloured prints on the +whitewashed walls. At this school Darius acquired a knowledge of the +alphabet, and from the alphabet passed to Reading-Made-Easy, and then to +the Bible. He made such progress that the widow soon singled him out +for honour. He was allowed the high and envied privilege of raking the +ashes from under the fire-place and carrying them to the ash-pit, which +ash-pit was vast and lofty, being the joint production of many cottages. +To reach the summit of the ash-pit, and thence to fling backwards down +its steep sides all assailants who challenged your supremacy, was a +precious joy. The battles of the ash-pit, however, were not battles of +giants, as no children had leisure for ash-carrying after the age of +seven. A still greater honour accorded to Darius was permission to sit, +during lessons, on the topmost visible step of the winding stair. The +widow Susan, having taught Darius to read brilliantly, taught him to +knit, and he would knit stockings for his father, mother, and sister. + +At the age of seven, his education being complete, he was summoned into +the world. It is true that he could neither write nor deal with the +multiplication table; but there were always night-schools which studious +adults of seven and upwards might attend if business permitted. +Further, there was the Sunday school, which Darius had joyously +frequented since the age of three, and which he had no intention of +leaving. As he grew older the Sunday school became more and more +enchanting to him. Sunday morning was the morning which he lived for +during six days; it was the morning when his hair was brushed and +combed, and perfumed with a delightful oil, whose particular fragrance +he remembered throughout his life. At Sunday school he was petted and +caressed. His success at Sunday school was shining. He passed over the +heads of bigger boys, and at the age of six he was in a Bible class. + +Upon hearing that Darius was going out into the world, the +superintendent of the Sunday school, a grave whiskered young man of +perhaps thirty, led him one morning out of the body of the Primitive +Methodist Chapel which served as schoolroom before and after chapel +service, up into the deserted gallery of the chapel, and there seated +him on a stair, and knelt on the stair below him, and caressed his head, +and called him a good boy, and presented him with an old battered Bible. +This volume was the most valuable thing that Darius had ever possessed. +He ran all the way home with it, half suffocated by his triumph. +Sunday school prizes had not then been invented. The young +superintendent of the Sunday school was Mr Shushions. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +The man Darius was first taken to work by his mother. It was the winter +of 1835, January. They passed through the marketplace of the town of +Turnhill where they lived. Turnhill lies a couple of miles north of +Bursley. One side of the market-place was barricaded with stacks of +coal, and the other with loaves of a species of rye and straw bread. +This coal and these loaves were being served out by meticulous and +haughty officials, all invisibly, braided with red-tape, to a crowd of +shivering, moaning, and weeping wretches, men, women and children--the +basis of the population of Turnhill. Although they were all +endeavouring to make a noise they made scarcely any noise, from mere +lack of strength. Nothing could be heard, under the implacable bright +sky, but faint ghosts of sound, as though people were sighing and crying +from within the vacuum of a huge glass bell. + +The next morning, at half-past five, Darius began his career in earnest. +He was `mould-runner' to a `muffin-maker,' a muffin being not a +comestible but a small plate, fashioned by its maker on a mould. The +business of Darius was to run as hard as he could with the mould, and a +newly, created plate adhering thereto, into the drying-stove. This +`stove' was a room lined with shelves, and having a red-hot stove and +stove-pipe in the middle. As no man of seven could reach the upper +shelves, a pair of steps was provided for Darius, and up these he had to +scamper. Each mould with its plate had to be leaned carefully against +the wall and if the soft clay of a new-born plate was damaged, Darius +was knocked down. The atmosphere outside the stove was chill, but owing +to the heat of the stove, Darius was obliged to work half naked. His +sweat ran down his cheeks, and down his chest, and down his back, making +white channels, and lastly it soaked his hair. + +When there were no moulds to be sprinted into the drying-stove, and no +moulds to be carried less rapidly out, Darius was engaged in +clay-wedging. That is to say, he took a piece of raw clay weighing more +than himself, cut it in two with a wire, raised one half above his head +and crashed it down with all his force upon the other half, and he +repeated the process until the clay was thoroughly soft and even in +texture. At a later period it was discovered that hydraulic machinery +could perform this operation more easily and more effectually than the +brawny arms of a man of seven. At eight o'clock in the evening Darius +was told that he had done enough for that day, and that he must arrive +at five sharp the next morning to light the fire, before his master the +muffin-maker began to work. When he inquired how he was to light the +fire his master kicked him jovially on the thigh and suggested that he +should ask another mould-runner. His master was not a bad man at heart, +it was said, but on Tuesdays, after Sunday, and Saint Monday, masters +were apt to be capricious. + +Darius reached home at a quarter to nine, having eaten nothing but bread +all day. Somehow he had lapsed into the child again. His mother took +him on her knee, and wrapped her sacking apron round his ragged clothes, +and cried over him and cried into his supper of porridge, and undressed +him and put him to bed. But he could not sleep easily because he was +afraid of being late the next morning. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +And the next morning wandering about the yards of the manufactory in a +storm of icy sleet a little before five o'clock, he learnt from a more +experienced companion that nobody would provide him with kindling for +his fire, that on the contrary everybody who happened to be on the place +at that hour would unite to prevent him from getting kindling, and that +he must steal it or expect to be thrashed before six o'clock. Near them +a vast kiln of ware in process of firing showed a white flaming glow at +each of its mouths in the black winter darkness. Darius's mentor crept +up to the archway of the great hovel which protected the kiln, and +pointed like a conspirator to the figure of the guardian fireman dozing +near his monster. The boy had the handle-less remains of an old spade, +and with it he crept into the hovel, dangerously abstracted fire from +one of the scorching mouths, and fled therewith, and the fireman never +stirred. Then Darius, to whom the mentor kindly lent his spade, +attempted to do the same, but being inexpert woke the fireman, who held +him spellbound by his roaring voice and then flung him like a sack of +potatoes bodily into the slush of the yard, and the spade after him. +Happily the mentor, whose stove was now alight, lent fire to Darius, so +that Darius's stove too was cheerfully burning when his master came. +And Darius was too excited to feel fatigue. + +By six o'clock on Saturday night Darius had earned a shilling for his +week's work. But he could only possess himself of the shilling by going +to a magnificent public-house with his master the muffin-maker. This +was the first time that he had ever been inside a public-house. The +place was crowded with men, women, and children eating the most lovely, +hot rolls and drinking beer, in an atmosphere exquisitely warm. And +behind a high counter a stout jolly man was counting piles and piles and +piles of silver. Darius's master, in company, with other boys' masters, +gave this stout man four sovereigns to change, and it was an hour before +he changed them. Meanwhile Darius was instructed that he must eat a +roll like the rest, together with cheese. Never had he tasted anything +so luscious. He had a match with his mentor, as to which of them could +spin out his roll the longer, honestly chewing all the time; and he won. +Some one gave him half a glass of beer. At half-past seven he received +his shilling which consisted of a sixpenny-piece and four pennies; and +leaving the gay, public-house, pushed his way through a crowd of tearful +women with babies in their arms at the doors, and went home. And such +was the attraction of the Sunday school that he was there the next +morning, with scented hair, two minutes before the opening. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +In about a year Darius's increasing knowledge of the world enabled him +to rise in it. He became a handle-maker in another manufactory, and +also he went about with the pride of one who could form the letters of +the alphabet with a pen. In his new work he had to put a bit of clay +between two moulds, and then force the top mould on to the bottom one by +means of his stomach which it was necessary to press downwards and at +the same time to wriggle with a peculiar movement. The workman to whom +he was assigned, his new `master,' attached these handles, with strange +rapid skill, to beer-mugs. For Darius the labour was much lighter than +that of mould-running and clay-wedging, and the pay was somewhat higher. +But there were minor disadvantages. He descended by twenty steps to +his toil, and worked in a long cellar which never received any air +except by way of the steps and a passage, and never any daylight at all. +Its sole illumination was a stove used for drying. The `throwers'' and +the `turners'' rooms were also subterranean dungeons. When in full +activity all these stinking cellars were full of men, boys, and young +women, working close together in a hot twilight. Certain boys were +trained contrabandists of beer, and beer came as steadily into the +dungeons as though it had been laid on by a main pipe. It was not +honourable even on the part of a young woman, to refuse beer, +particularly when the beer happened to arrive in the late afternoon. On +such occasions young men and women would often entirely omit to go home +of a night, and seasoned men of the world aged eight, on descending into +the dungeons early the next morning, would have a full view of +pandemonium, and they would witness during the day salutary scenes of +remorse, and proofs of the existence of a profound belief in the +homeopathic properties of beer. + +But perhaps the worst drawback of Darius's new position was the long and +irregular hours, due partly to the influences of Saint Monday and of the +scenes above indicated but not described, and partly to the fact that +the employes were on piece-work and entirely unhampered by grandmotherly +legislation. The result was that six days' work was generally done in +four. And as the younger the workman the earlier he had to start in the +morning, Darius saw scarcely enough of his bed. It was not of course to +be expected that a self-supporting man of the world should rigorously +confine himself to an eight-hour day or even a twelve-hour day, but +Darius's day would sometimes stretch to eighteen and nineteen hours: +which on hygienic grounds could not be unreservedly defended. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +One Tuesday evening his master, after three days of debauch, ordered him +to be at work at three o'clock the next morning. He quickly and even +eagerly agreed, for he was already intimate with his master's rope-lash. +He reached home at ten o'clock on an autumn night, and went to bed and +to sleep. He woke up with a start, in the dark. There was no watch or +clock in the house, from which nearly all the furniture had gradually +vanished, but he knew it must be already after three o'clock; and he +sprang up and rushed out. Of course he had not undressed; his life was +too strenuous for mere formalities. The stars shone above him as he ran +along, wondering whether after all, though late, he could by +unprecedented effort make the ordained number of handles before his +master tumbled into the cellar at five o'clock. + +When he had run a mile he met some sewage men on their rounds, who in +reply, to his question told him that the hour was half after midnight. +He dared not risk a return to home and bed, for within two and a half +hours he must be at work. He wandered aimlessly over the surface of the +earth until he came to a tile-works, more or less unenclosed, whose +primitive ovens showed a glare. He ventured within, and in spite of +himself sat down on the ground near one of those heavenly ovens. And +then he wanted to get up again, for he could feel the strong breath of +his enemy, sleep. But he could not get up. In a state of terror he +yielded himself to his enemy. Shameful cowardice on the part of a man +now aged nine! God, however, is merciful, and sent to him an angel in +the guise of a night-watchman, who kicked him into wakefulness and off +the place. He ran on limping, beneath the stellar systems, and reached +his work at half-past four o'clock. + +Although he had never felt so exhausted in his long life, he set to work +with fury. Useless! When his master arrived he had scarcely got +through the preliminaries. He dully faced his master in the narrow +stifling cellar, lit by candles impaled on nails and already peopled by +the dim figures of boys, girls, and a few men. His master was of +taciturn habit and merely told him to kneel down. He knelt. Two bigger +boys turned hastily from their work to snatch a glimpse of the affair. +The master moved to the back of the cellar and took from a box a piece +of rope an inch thick and clogged with clay. At the same moment a +companion offered him, in silence, a tin with a slim neck, out of which +he drank deep; it contained a pint of porter owing on loan from the +previous day. When the master came in due course with the rope to do +justice upon the sluggard he found the lad fallen forward and breathing +heavily and regularly. Darius had gone to sleep. He was awakened with +some violence, but the public opinion of the dungeon saved him from a +torn shirt and a bloody back. + +This was Darius's last day on a pot-bank. The next morning he and his +went in procession to the Bastille, as the place was called. His +father, having been too prominent and too independent in a strike, had +been black-listed by every manufacturer in the district; and Darius, +though nine, could not keep the family. + + + +VOLUME ONE, CHAPTER FIVE. + +MR. SHUSHIONS'S TEAR EXPLAINED. + +The Bastille was on the top of a hill about a couple of miles long, and +the journey thither was much lengthened by the desire of the family to +avoid the main road. They were all intensely ashamed; Darius was +ashamed to tears, and did not know why; even his little sister wept and +had to be carried, not because she was shoeless and had had nothing to +eat, but because she was going to the Ba-ba-bastille; she had no notion +what the place was. It proved to be the largest building that Darius +had ever seen; and indeed it was the largest in the district; they stood +against its steep sides like flies against a kennel. Then there was +rattling of key-bunches, and the rasping voices of sour officials, who +did not inquire if they would like a meal after their stroll. And they +were put into a cellar and stripped and washed and dressed in other +people's clothes, and then separated, amid tears. And Darius was +pitched into a large crowd of other boys, all clothed like himself. He +now understood the reason for shame; it was because he could have no +distinctive clothes of his own, because he had somehow lost his identity. +All the boys had a sullen, furtive glance, and when they spoke it was in +whispers. + +In the low room where the boys were assembled there fell a silence, and +Darius heard some one whisper that the celebrated boy who had run away +and been caught would be flogged before supper. Down the long room ran +a long table. Some one brought in three candles in tin candlesticks and +set them near the end of this table. Then somebody else brought in a +pickled birch-rod, dripping with the salt water from which it had been +taken, and also a small square table. Then came some officials, and a +clergyman, and then, surpassing the rest in majesty, the governor of the +Bastille, a terrible man. The governor made a speech about the crime of +running away from the Bastille, and when he had spoken for a fair time, +the clergyman talked in the same sense; and then a captured tiger, +dressed like a boy, with darting fierce eyes, was dragged in by two men, +and laid face down on the square table, and four boys were commanded to +step forward and hold tightly the four members of this tiger. And, his +clothes having previously been removed as far as his waist, his breeches +were next pulled down his legs. Then the rod was raised and it +descended swishing, and blood began to flow; but far more startling than +the blood were the shrill screams of the tiger; they were so loud and +deafening that the spectators could safely converse under their shelter. +The boys in charge of the victim had to cling hard and grind their +teeth in the effort to keep him prone. As the blows succeeded each +other, Darius became more and more ashamed. The physical spectacle did +not sicken nor horrify him, for he was a man of wide experience; but he +had never before seen flogging by lawful authority. Flogging in the +workshop was different, a private if sanguinary affair between free +human beings. This ritualistic and cold-blooded torture was infinitely +more appalling in its humiliation. The screaming grew feebler, then +ceased; then the blows ceased, and the unconscious infant (cured of +being a tiger) was carried away leaving a trail of red drops along the +floor. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +After this, supper was prepared on the long table, and the clergyman +called down upon it the blessing of God, and enjoined the boys to be +thankful, and departed in company with the governor. Darius, who had +not tasted all day, could not eat. The flogging had not nauseated him, +but the bread and the skilly revolted his pampered tastes. Never had +he, with all his experience, seen nor smelt anything so foully +disgusting. When supper was completed, a minor official interceded with +the Almighty in various ways for ten minutes, and at last the boys were +marched upstairs to bed. They all slept in one room. The night also +could be set down in words, but must not be, lest the setting-down +should be disastrous... + +Darius knew that he was ruined; he knew that he was a workhouse boy for +evermore, and that the bright freedom of sixteen hours a day in a cellar +was lost to him for evermore. He was now a prisoner, branded, hopeless. +He would never be able to withstand the influences that had closed +around him and upon him. He supposed that he should become desperate, +become a tiger, and then... + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +But the following afternoon he was forcibly reclothed in his own +beautiful and beloved rags, and was pushed out of the Bastille, and +there he saw his pale father and his mother, and his little sister, and +another man. And his mother was on her knees in the cold autumn +sunshine, and hysterically clasping the knees of the man, and weeping; +and the man was trying to raise her, and the man was weeping too. +Darius wept. The man was Mr Shushions. Somehow, in a way that Darius +comprehended not, Mr Shushions had saved them. Mr Shushions, in a +beaver tall-hat and with an apron rolled round his waist under his coat, +escorted them back to their house, into which some fresh furniture had +been brought. And Darius knew that a situation was waiting for his +father. And further, Mr Shushions, by his immense mysterious power, +found a superb situation for Darius himself as a printer's devil. All +this because Mr Shushions, as superintendent of a Sunday school, was +emotionally interested in the queer, harsh boy who had there picked up +the art of writing so quickly. + +Such was the origin of the tear that ran down Mr Shushions's cheek when +he beheld Edwin, well-nourished, well-dressed and intelligent, the son +of Darius the successful steam-printer. Mr Shushions's tear was the +tear of the creator looking upon his creation and marvelling at it. Mr +Shushions loved Darius as only the benefactor can love the benefited. +He had been out of the district for over thirty years, and, having +returned there to die, the wonder of what he had accomplished by merely +saving a lad from the certain perdition of a prolonged stay in the +workhouse, struck him blindingly in the face and dazzled him. + +Darius had never spoken to a soul of his night in the Bastille. All his +infancy was his own fearful secret. His life, seen whole, had been a +miracle. But none knew that except himself and Mr Shushions. +Assuredly Edwin never even faintly suspected it. To Edwin Mr Shushions +was nothing but a feeble and tedious old man. + + + +VOLUME ONE, CHAPTER SIX. + +IN THE HOUSE. + +To return to Edwin. On that Friday afternoon of the breaking-up he was, +in the local phrase, at a loose end. That is, he had no task, no +programme, and no definite desires. Not knowing, when he started out in +the morning, whether school would formally end before or after the +dinner-hour, he had taken his dinner with him, as usual, and had eaten +it at Oldcastle. Thus, though the family dinner had not begun when he +reached home, he had no share in it, partly because he was not hungry, +and partly because he was shy about having left school. The fact that +he had left school affected him as he was affected by the wearing of a +new suit for the first time, or by the cutting of his hair after a +prolonged neglect of the barber. It inspired him with a wish to avoid +his kind, and especially his sisters, Maggie and Clara. Clara might +make some facetious remark. Edwin could never forget the Red Indian +glee with which Clara had danced round him when for the first time--and +quite unprepared for the exquisite shock--she had seen him in long +trousers. There was also his father. He wanted to have a plain talk +with his father--he knew that he would not be at peace until he had had +that talk--and yet in spite of himself he had carefully kept out of his +father's way during all the afternoon, save for a moment when, strolling +with affected nonchalance up to Darius's private desk in the shop, he +had dropped thereon his school report, and strolled off again. + +Towards six o'clock he was in his bedroom, an attic with a floor very +much more spacious than its ceiling, and a window that commanded the +slope of Trafalgar Road towards Bleakridge. It had been his room, his +castle, his sanctuary, for at least ten years, since before his mother's +death of cancer. He did not know that he loved it, with all its +inconveniences and makeshifts; but he did love it, and he was jealous +for it; no one should lay a hand on it to rearrange what he had once +arranged. His sisters knew this; the middle-aged servant knew it; even +his father, with a curt laugh, would humorously acquiesce in the theory +of the sacredness of Edwin's bedroom. As for Edwin, he saw nothing +extraordinary in his attitude concerning his bedroom; and he could not +understand, and he somewhat resented, that the household should perceive +anything comic in it. He never went near his sisters' bedroom, never +wished to go near it, never thought about it. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +Now he sat idly on the patchwork counterpane of his bed and gazed at the +sky. He was feeling a little happier, a little less unsettled, for his +stomach was empty and his mind had begun to fix itself with pleasure on +the images of hot toast and jam. He `wanted his tea:' the manner in +which he glanced at his old silver watch proved that. He wished only +that before six o'clock struck he could settle upon the necessary +changes in his bedroom. A beautiful schooner, which for over a year, +with all sails spread, had awaited the breeze in a low dark corner to +the right of the window, would assuredly have to be dismissed to the +small, empty attic. Once that schooner had thrilled him; the slight +rake of its masts and the knotted reality of its rigging had thrilled +him; and to navigate it had promised the most delicious sensations +conceivable. Now, one moment it was a toy as silly as a doll, and the +next moment it thrilled him once more, and he could believe again its +promises of bliss--and then he knew that it was for ever a vain toy, and +he was sad, and his sadness was pleasure. He had already stacked most +of his school-books in the other attic. He would need a table and a +lamp; he knew not for what precise purpose; but a table and a lamp were +necessary to the continuance of his self-respect. The only question +was, Should he remodel his bedroom, or should he demand the other attic, +and plant his flag in it and rule over it in addition to his bedroom? +Had he the initiative and the energy to carry out such an enterprise? +He was not able to make up his mind. And, moreover, he could not decide +anything until after that plain talk with his father. + +His sister Clara's high voice sounded outside, on the landing, or +half-way up the attic stairs. + +"Ed-_win_! Ed-_win_!" + +"What's up?" he called in answer, rising with a nervous start. The door +of the room was unlatched. + +"You're mighty mysterious in your bedroom," said Clara's voice behind +the door. + +"Come in! Come in! Why don't you come in?" he replied, with +good-natured impatience. But somehow he could not speak in a natural +tone. The mere fact that he had left school that day and that the world +awaited him, and that everybody in the house knew this, rendered him +self-conscious. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +Clara entered, with a curious sidelong movement, half-winning and +half-serpentine. She was aged fourteen, a very fair and very slight +girl, with a thin face and thin lips, and extraordinarily slender hands; +in general appearance fragile. She wore a semi-circular comb on the +crown of her head, and her abundant hair hung over her shoulders in two +tight pigtails. Edwin considered that Clara was harsh and capricious; +he had much fault to find with her; but nevertheless the sight of her +usually affected him pleasurably (of course without his knowing it), and +he never for long sat definitely in adverse judgement upon her. Her +gestures had a charm for him which he felt but did not realise. And +this charm was similar to his own charm. But nothing would have so +surprised him as to learn that he himself had any charm at all. He +would have laughed, and been ashamed--to hear that his gestures and the +play of his features had an ingratiating, awkward, and wistful grace; he +would have tried to cure that. + +"Father wants you," said Clara, her hand on the handle of the thin +attic-door hung with odd garments. + +Edwin's heart fell instantly, and all the agreeable images of tea +vanished from his mind. His father must have read the school report and +perceived that Edwin had been beaten by Charlie Orgreave, a boy younger +than himself! + +"Did he send you up for me?" Edwin asked. + +"No," said Clara, frowning. "But I heard him calling out for you all +over. So Maggie told me to run up. Not that I expect any _thanks_." She +put her head forward a little. + +The episode, and Clara's tone, showed clearly the nature and force of +the paternal authority in the house. It was an authority with the gift +of getting its commands anticipated. + +"All right! I'm coming," said Edwin superiorly. + +"I know what you want," Clara said teasingly as she turned towards the +passage. + +"What do I want?" + +"You want the empty attic all to yourself, and a fine state it would be +in in a month, my word!" + +"How do you know I want the empty attic?" Edwin repelled the onslaught; +but he was considerably taken aback. It was a mystery to him how those +girls, and Clara in particular, got wind of his ideas before he had even +formulated them definitely to himself. It was also a mystery to him how +they could be so tremendously interested in matters which did not +concern them. + +"You never mind!" Clara gibed, with a smile that was malicious, but +charmingly malicious. "I know!" + +She had merely seen him staring into the empty attic, and from that +brief spectacle she had by divination constructed all his plans. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +The Clayhanger sitting-room, which served as both dining-room and +drawing-room, according to the more primitive practices of those days, +was over one half of the shop, and looked on Duck Square. Owing to its +northern aspect it scarcely ever saw the sun. The furniture followed +the universal fashion of horse-hair, mahogany, and wool embroidery. +There was a piano, with a high back-fretted wood over silk pleated in +rays from the centre; a bookcase whose lower part was a cupboard; a +sofa; and a large leather easy-chair which did not match the rest of the +room. This easy-chair had its back to the window and its front legs a +little towards the fireplace, so that Mr Clayhanger could read his +newspaper with facility in daytime. At night the light fell a little +awkwardly from the central chandelier, and Mr Clayhanger, if he +happened to be reading, would continually shift his chair an inch or two +to left or right, backwards or forwards, and would also continually +glance up at the chandelier, as if accusing it of not doing its best. A +common sight in the sitting-room was Mr Clayhanger balanced on a chair, +the table having been pushed away, screwing the newest burner into the +chandelier. When he was seated in his easy-chair the piano could not be +played, because there was not sufficient space for the stool between the +piano and his chair; nor could the fire be made up without disturbing +him, because the japanned coal-box was on the same side of the +hearth-rug as the chair. Thus, when the fire languished and Mr +Clayhanger neglected it, the children had either to ask permission to +step over his legs, or suggest that he should attend to the fire +himself. Occasionally, when he was in one of his gay moods, he would +humorously impede the efforts of the fire-maker with his feet, and if +the fire-maker was Clara or Edwin, the child would tickle him, which +brought him to his senses and forced him to shout: "None o' that! None +o' that!" + +The position of Mr Clayhanger's easy-chair--a detail apparently +trifling--was in reality a strongly influencing factor in the family +life, for it meant that the father's presence obsessed the room. And it +could not be altered, for it depended on the window; the window was too +small to be quite efficient. When the children reflected upon the +history of their childhood they saw one important aspect of it as a long +series of detached hours spent in the sitting-room, in a state of desire +to do something that could not be done without disturbing father, and in +a state of indecision whether or not to disturb him. If by chance, as +sometimes occurred, he chose to sit on the sofa, which was unobtrusive +in the corner away from the window, between the fireplace and the door, +the room was instantly changed into something larger, freer, and less +inconvenient. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +As the hour was approaching six, Edwin, on the way downstairs, looked in +at the sitting-room for his father; but Darius was not there. + +"Where's father?" he demanded. + +"I don't know, I'm sure," said Maggie, at the sewing-machine. Maggie +was aged twenty; dark, rather stout, with an expression at once +benevolent and worried. She rarely seemed to belong to the same +generation as her brother and sister. She consorted on equal terms with +married women, and talked seriously of the same things as they did. Mr +Clayhanger treated her somewhat differently from the other two. Yet, +though he would often bid them accept her authority, he would now and +then impair that authority by roughly `dressing her down' at the +meal-table. She was a capable girl; she had much less firmness, and +much more good-nature, than she seemed to have. She could not assert +herself adequately. She `managed' very well; indeed she had `done +wonders' in filling the place of the mother who had died when Clara was +four and Edwin six, and she herself only ten. Responsibility, +apprehension, and strained effort had printed their marks on her +features. But the majority of acquaintances were more impressed by her +good intention than by her capacity; they would call her `a nice thing.' +The discerning minority, while saying with admiring conviction that she +was `a very fine girl,' would regret that somehow she had not the +faculty of `making the best of herself,' of `putting her best foot +foremost.' And would they not heartily stand up for her with the +superficial majority! + +A thin, grey-haired, dreamy-eyed woman hurried into the room, bearing a +noisy tray and followed by Clara with a white cloth. This was Mrs +Nixon, the domestic staff of the Clayhanger household for years. Clara +and Mrs Nixon swept Maggie's sewing materials from the corner of the +table on to a chair, put Maggie's flower-glasses on to the ledge of the +bookcase, folded up the green cloth, and began rapidly to lay the tea. +Simultaneously Maggie, glancing at the clock, closed up her +sewing-machine, and deposited her work in a basket. Clara, leaving the +table, stooped to pick up the bits of cotton and white stuff that +littered the carpet. The clock struck six. + +"Now, sharpy!" she exclaimed curtly to Edwin, who stood hesitatingly +with his hands in his pockets. "Can't you help Maggie to push that +sewing-machine into the corner?" + +"What on earth's up?" he inquired vaguely, but starting forward to help +Maggie. + +"_She'll_ be here in a minute," said Maggie, almost under her breath, as +she fitted on the cover of the sewing-machine. + +"Who?" asked Edwin. "Oh! Auntie! I'd forgotten it was her night." + +"As if anyone could forget!" murmured Clara, with sarcastic unbelief. + +By this time the table was completely set. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +SIX. + +Edwin wondered mildly, as he often wondered, at the extremely bitter +tone in which Clara always referred to their Aunt Clara Hamps,--when +Mrs Hamps was not there. Even Maggie's private attitude to Auntie +Clara was scarcely more Christian. Mrs Hamps was the widowed younger +sister of their mother, and she had taken a certain share in the +supervision of Darius Clayhanger's domestic affairs after the death of +Mrs Clayhanger. This latter fact might account, partially but not +wholly, for the intense and steady dislike in which she was held by +Maggie, Clara, and Mrs Nixon. Clara hated her own name because she had +been `called after' her auntie. Mr Clayhanger `got on' excellently +with his sister-in-law. He `thought highly' of her, and was indeed +proud to have her for a relative. In their father's presence the girls +never showed their dislike of Mrs Hamps; it was a secret pleasure +shared between them and Mrs Nixon, and only disclosed to Edwin because +the girls were indifferent to what Edwin might think. They casually +despised him for somehow liking his auntie, for not seeing through her +wiles; but they could count on his loyalty to themselves. + +"Are you ready for tea, or aren't you?" Clara asked him. She +frequently spoke to him as if she was the elder instead of the younger. + +"Yes," he said. "But I must find father." + +He went off, but he did not find his father in the shop, and after a few +futile minutes he returned upstairs. Mrs Nixon preceded him, carrying +the tea-urn, and she told him that his father had sent word into the +kitchen that they were not to `wait tea' for him. + + + +VOLUME ONE, CHAPTER SEVEN. + +AUNTIE HAMPS. + +Mrs Hamps had splendidly arrived. The atmosphere of the sitting-room +was changed. Maggie, smiling, wore her second-best black silk apron. +Clara, smiling and laughing, wore a clean long white pinafore. Mrs +Nixon, with her dreamy eyes less vacant than usual, greeted Mrs Hamps +effusively, and effusively gave humble thanks for kind inquiries after +her health. A stranger might have thought that these women were +strongly attached to one another by ties of affection and respect. +Edwin never understood how his sisters, especially Maggie, could +practise such vast and eternal hypocrisy with his aunt. As for him, his +aunt acted on him now, as generally, like a tonic. Some effluence from +her quickened him. He put away the worry in connection with his father, +and gave himself up to the physical pleasures of tea. + +Aunt Clara was a handsome woman. She had been called--but not by men +whose manners and code she would have approved--`a damned fine woman.' +Her age was about forty, which at that period, in a woman's habit of +mind, was the equivalent of about fifty to-day. Her latest photograph +was considered to be very successful. It showed her standing behind a +velvet chair and leaning her large but still shapely bust slightly over +the chair. Her forearms, ruffled and braceleted, lay along the fringed +back of the chair, and from one negligent hand depended a rose. A heavy +curtain came downwards out of nothing into the picture, and the end of +it lay coiled and draped on the seat of the chair. The great dress was +of slate-coloured silk, with sleeves tight to the elbow, and thence, +from a ribbon-bow, broadening to a wide, triangular climax that revealed +quantities of lace at the wrists. The pointed ends of the sleeves were +picked out with squares of velvet. A short and highly ornamental +fringed and looped flounce waved grandly out behind from the waist to +the level of the knees; and the stomacher recalled the ornamentation of +the flounce; and both the stomacher and flounce gave contrasting value +to the severe plainness of the skirt, designed to emphasise the quality +of the silk. Round the neck was a lace collarette to match the +furniture of the wrists, and the broad ends of the collarette were +crossed on the bosom and held by a large jet brooch. Above that you saw +a fine regular face, with a firm hard mouth and a very straight nose and +dark eyebrows; small ears weighted with heavy jet ear-rings. + +The photograph could not render the clear perfection of Aunt Clara's +rosy skin; she had the colour and the flashing eye of a girl. But it +did justice to her really magnificent black hair. This hair was all her +own, and the coiffure seemed as ample as a judge's wig. From the low +forehead the hair was parted exactly in the middle for about two inches; +then plaited bands crossed and recrossed the scalp in profusion, forming +behind a pattern exceedingly complicated, and down either side of the +head, now behind the ear, now hiding it, now resting on the shoulders, +now hanging clear of them, fell long multitudinous glossy curls. These +curls--one of them in the photograph reached as far as the stomacher-- +could not have been surpassed in Bursley. + +She was a woman of terrific vitality. Her dead sister had been nothing +in comparison with her. She had a glorious digestion, and was the envy +of her brother-in-law--who suffered much from biliousness--because she +could eat with perfect impunity hot buttered toast and raw celery in +large quantities. Further, she had independent means, and no children +to cause anxieties. Yet she was always, as the phrase went, `bearing +up,' or, as another phrase went, `leaning hard.' Frances Ridley +Havergal was her favourite author, and Frances Ridley Havergal's little +book _Lean Hard_, was kept on her dressing-table. (The girls, however, +averred that she never opened it.) Aunt Clara's spiritual life must be +imagined as a continual, almost physical leaning on Christ. +Nevertheless she never complained, and she was seldom depressed. Her +desire, and her achievement, was to be bright, to take everything +cheerfully, to look obstinately on the best side of things, and to +instil this religion into others. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +Thus, when it was announced that father had been called out +unexpectedly, leaving an order that they were not to wait for him, she +said gaily that they had better be obedient and begin, though it would +have been more agreeable to wait for father. And she said how beautiful +the tea was, and how beautiful the toast, and how beautiful the +strawberry-jam, and how beautiful the pikelets. She would herself pour +some hot water into the slop basin, and put a pikelet on a plate +thereon, covered, to keep warm for father. She would not hear a word +about the toast being a little hard, and when Maggie in her curious +quiet way `stuck her out' that the toast was in fact hard, she said that +that precise degree of hardness was the degree which she, for herself, +preferred. Then she talked of jams, and mentioned gooseberry-jam, +whereupon Clara privately put her tongue out, with the quickness of a +snake, to signal to Maggie. + +"Ours isn't good this year," said Maggie. + +"I told auntie we weren't so set up with it, a fortnight ago," said +Clara simply, like a little angel. + +"Did you, dear?" Mrs Hamps exclaimed, with great surprise, almost with +shocked surprise. "I'm sure it's beautiful. I was quite looking +forward to tasting it; quite! I know what your gooseberry-jam is." + +"Would you like to try it now?" Maggie suggested. "But we've warned +you." + +"Oh, I don't want to trouble you _now_. We're all so cosy here. Any +time--" + +"No trouble, auntie," said Clara, with her most captivating and innocent +smile. + +"Well, if you talk about `warning' me, of course I must insist on having +some," said Auntie Clara. + +Clara jumped up, passed behind Mrs Hamps, making a contemptuous face at +those curls as she did so, and ran gracefully down to the kitchen. + +"Here," she said crossly to Mrs Nixon. "A pot of that gooseberry, +please. A small one will do. She knows it's short of sugar, and so +she's determined to try it, just out of spite; and nothing will stop +her." + +Clara returned smiling to the tea-table, and Maggie neatly unsealed the +jam; and Auntie Clara, with a face beaming with pleasurable +anticipation, helped herself circumspectly to a spoonful. + +"Beautiful!" she murmured. + +"Don't you think it's a bit tart?" Maggie asked. + +"Oh no!" protestingly. + +"_Don't_ you?" asked Clara, with an air of delighted deferential +astonishment. + +"Oh _no_!" Mrs Hamps repeated. "It's beautiful!" She did not smack her +lips over it, because she would have considered it unladylike to smack +her lips, but by less offensive gestures she sought to convey her +unbounded pleasure in the jam. "How much sugar did you put in?" she +inquired after a while. "Half and half?" + +"Yes," said Maggie. + +"They do say gooseberries were a tiny bit sour this year, owing to the +weather," said Mrs Hamps reflectively. + +Clara kicked Edwin under the table, as it were viciously, but her +delightful innocent smile, directed vaguely upon Mrs Hamps, did not +relax. Such duplicity passed Edwin's comprehension; it seemed to him +purposeless. Yet he could not quite deny that there might be a certain +sting, a certain insinuation, in his auntie's last remark. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +Then Mr Clayhanger entered, blowing forth a long breath as if trying to +repulse the oppressive heat of the July afternoon. He came straight to +the table, with a slightly preoccupied air, quickly, his arms motionless +at his sides, and slanting a little outwards. Mr Clayhanger always +walked like this, with motionless arms so that in spite of a rather +clumsy and heavy step, the upper part of him appeared to glide along. +He shook hands genially with Auntie Clara, greeting her almost as +grandiosely as she greeted him, putting on for a moment the grand +manner, not without dignity. Each admired the other. Each often said +that the other was `wonderful.' Each undoubtedly flattered the other, +made a fuss of the other. Mr Clayhanger's admiration was the greater. +The bitterest thing that Edwin had ever heard Maggie say was: "It's +something to be thankful for that she's his deceased wife's sister!" +And she had said the bitter thing with such quiet bitterness! Edwin had +not instantly perceived the point of it. + +Darius Clayhanger then sat down, with a thud, snatched at the cup of tea +which Maggie had placed before him, and drank half of it with a +considerable in-drawing noise. No one asked where or why he had been +detained; it was not etiquette to do so. If father had been `called +away,' or had `had to go away,' or was `kept somewhere,' the details +were out of deference allowed to remain in mystery, respected by +curiosity ... `Father-business.' ... All business was sacred. He +himself had inculcated this attitude. + +In a short silence the sound of the bell that the carman rang before the +tram started for Hanbridge floated in through the open window. + +"There's the tram!" observed Auntie Clara, apparently with warm and +special interest in the phenomena of the tram. Then another little +silence. + +"Auntie," said Clara, writhing about youthfully on her chair. + +"Can't ye sit still a bit?" the father asked, interrupting her roughly, +but with good humour. "Ye'll be falling off th' chair in a minute." + +Clara blushed swiftly, and stopped. + +"Yes, love?" Auntie Clara encouraged her. It was as if Auntie Clara +had said: "Your dear father is of course quite right, more than right, +to insist on your sitting properly at table. However, do not take the +correction too much to heart. I sympathise with all your difficulties." + +"I was only going to ask you," Clara went on, in a weaker, stammering +voice, "if you knew that Edwin's left school to-day." Her archness had +deserted her. + +"Mischievous little thing!" thought Edwin. "Why must she deliberately +go and draw attention to that?" And he too blushed, feeling as if he +owed an apology to the company for having left school. + +"Oh yes!" said Auntie Clara with eager benevolence. "I've got something +to say about that to my nephew." + +Mr Clayhanger searched in a pocket of his alpaca, and drew forth an +open envelope. + +"Here's the lad's report, auntie," said he. "Happen ye'd like to look +at it." + +"I should indeed!" she replied fervently. "I'm sure it's a very good +one." + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +She took the paper, and assumed her spectacles. + +"Conduct--Excellent," she read, poring with enthusiasm over the +document. And she read again: "Conduct--Excellent." Then she went down +the list of subjects, declaiming the number of marks for each; and at +the end she read: "Position in class next term: Third. Splendid, Eddy!" +she exclaimed. + +"I thought you were second," said Clara, in her sharp manner. + +Edwin blushed again, and hesitated. + +"Eh? What's that? What's that?" his father demanded. "I didn't notice +that. Third?" + +"Charlie Orgreave beat me in the examination," Edwin muttered. + +"Well, that's a pretty how d'ye do!" said his father. "Going down one! +Ye ought to ha' been first instead o' third. And would ha' been, +happen, if ye'd pegged at it." + +"Now I won't have that! I won't have it!" Auntie Clara protested, +laughingly showing her fine teeth and gazing first at Darius, and then +at Edwin, from under her spectacles, her head being thrown back and the +curls hanging far behind. "No one shall say that Edwin doesn't work, +not even his father, while his auntie's about! Because I know he does +work! And besides, he hasn't gone down. It says, `position _next +term_'--not this term. You were still second to-day, weren't you, my +boy?" + +"I suppose so. Yes," Edwin answered, pulling himself together. + +"Well! There you are!" Auntie Clara's voice rang triumphantly. She +was opening her purse. "And _there_ you are!" she repeated, popping half +a sovereign down in front of him. "That's a little present from your +auntie on your leaving school." + +"Oh, auntie!" he cried feebly. + +"Oh!" cried Clara, genuinely startled. + +Mrs Hamps was sometimes thus astoundingly munificent. It was she who +had given the schooner to Edwin. And her presents of elaborately +enveloped and costly toilet soap on the birthdays of the children, and +at Christmas, were massive. Yet Clara always maintained that she was +the meanest old thing imaginable. And Maggie had once said that she +knew that Auntie Clara made her servant eat dripping instead of butter. +To give inferior food to a servant was to Maggie the unforgivable in +parsimony. + +"Well," Mr Clayhanger warningly inquired, "what do you say to your +aunt?" + +"Thank you, auntie," Edwin sheepishly responded, fingering the coin. + +It was a princely sum. And she had stuck up for him famously in the +matter of the report. Strange that his father should not have read the +report with sufficient attention to remark the fall to third place! +Anyway, that aspect of the affair was now safely over, and it seemed to +him that he had not lost much prestige by it. He would still be able to +argue with his father on terms not too unequal, he hoped. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +As the tea drew to an end, and the plates of toast, bread and butter, +and tea-cake grew emptier, and the slop-basin filled, and only Maggie's +flowers remained fresh and immaculate amid the untidy debris of the +meal; and as Edwin and Clara became gradually indifferent to jam, and +then inimical to it; and as the sounds of the street took on the softer +quality of summer evening, and the first filmy shades of twilight +gathered imperceptibly in the corners of the room, and Mr Clayhanger +performed the eructations which signified that he had had enough; so +Mrs Hamps prepared herself for one of her classic outbursts of feeling. + +"Well!" she said at last, putting her spoon to the left of her cup as a +final indication that seriously she would drink no more. And she gave a +great sigh. "School over! And the only son going out into the world! +How time flies!" And she gave another great sigh, implying an immense +melancholy due to this vision of the reality of things. Then she +remembered her courage, and the device of leaning hard, and all her +philosophy. + +"But it's all for the best!" she broke forth in a new brave tone. +"Everything is ordered for the best. We must never forget that! And +I'm quite sure that Edwin will be a very great credit to us all, with +help from above." + +She proceeded powerfully in this strain. She brought in God, Christ, +and even the Holy Spirit. She mentioned the dangers of the world, and +the disguises of the devil, and the unspeakable advantages of a good +home, and the special goodness of Mr Clayhanger and of Maggie, yes, and +of her little Clara; and the pride which they all had in Edwin, and the +unique opportunities which he had of doing good, by example, and also, +soon, by precept, for others younger than himself would begin to look up +to him; and again her personal pride in him, and her sure faith in him; +and what a solemn hour it was... + +Nothing could stop her. The girls loathed these exhibitions. Maggie +always looked at the table during their progress, and she felt as though +she had done something wrong and was ashamed of it. Clara not merely +felt like a criminal--she felt like an unrepentant criminal; she +blushed, she glanced nervously about the room, and all the time she +repeated steadily in her heart a highly obscene word which she had heard +at school. This unspoken word, hurled soundlessly but savagely at her +aunt in that innocent heart, afforded much comfort to Clara in the +affliction. Even Edwin, who was more lenient in all ways than his +sisters, profoundly deplored these moralisings of his aunt. They filled +him with a desire to run fast and far, to be alone at sea, or to be deep +somewhere in the bosom of the earth. He could not understand this side +of his auntie's individuality. But there was no delivery from Mrs +Hamps. The only person who could possibly have delivered them seemed to +enjoy the sinister thraldom. Mr Clayhanger listened with appreciative +and admiring nods; he appeared to be quite sincere. And Edwin could not +understand his father either. "How simple father must be!" he thought +vaguely. Whereas Clara fatalistically dismissed her father's attitude +as only one more of the preposterously unreasonable phenomena which she +was constantly meeting in life; and she persevered grimly with her +obscene word. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +SIX. + +"Eh!" said Mrs Hamps enthusiastically, after a trifling pause. "It +does me good when I think what a _help_ you'll be to your father in the +business, with that clever head of yours." + +She gazed at him fondly. + +Now this was Edwin's chance. He did not wish to be any help at all to +his father in the business. He had other plans for himself. He had never +mentioned them before, because his father had never talked to him about +his future career, apparently assuming that he would go into the +business. He had been waiting for his father to begin. "Surely," he +had said to himself "father's bound to speak to me sometime about what +I'm going to do, and when he does I shall just tell him." But his +father never had begun; and by timidity, negligence, and perhaps +ill-luck, Edwin had thus arrived at his last day at school with the +supreme question not merely unsolved but unattacked. Oh he blamed +himself! Any ordinary boy (he thought) would have discussed such a +question naturally long ago. After all, it was not a crime, it was no +cause for shame, to wish not to be a printer. Yet he was ashamed! +Absurd! He blamed himself. But he also blamed his father. Now, +however, in responding to his auntie's remark, he could remedy all the +past by simply and boldly stating that he did not want to follow his +father. It would be unpleasant, of course, but the worst shock would be +over in a moment, like the drawing of a tooth. He had merely to utter +certain words. He must utter them. They were perfectly easy to say, +and they were also of the greatest urgency. "I don't want to be a +printer." He mumbled them over in his mind. "I don't want to be a +printer." What could it matter to his father whether he was a printer +or not? Seconds, minutes, seemed to pass. He knew that if he was so +inconceivably craven as to remain silent, his self-respect would never +recover from the blow. Then, in response to Mrs Hamps's prediction +about his usefulness to his father in the business, he said, with a +false-jaunty, unconvinced, unconvincing air-- + +"Well, that remains to be seen." + +This was all he could accomplish. It seemed as if he had looked death +itself in the face, and drawn away. + +"Remains to be _seen_?" Auntie Clara repeated, with a hint of startled +pain, due to this levity. + +He was mute. No one suspected, as he sat there, so boyish, wistful, and +uneasily squirming, that he was agonised to the very centre of his +being. All the time, in his sweating soul, he kept trying to persuade +himself: "I've given them a hint, anyhow! I've given them a hint, +anyhow!" + +"Them" included everybody at the table. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +SEVEN. + +Mr Clayhanger, completely ignoring Edwin's reply to his aunt and her +somewhat shocked repetition of it, turned suddenly towards his son and +said, in a manner friendly but serious, a manner that assumed +everything, a manner that begged the question, unconscious even that +there was a question-- + +"I shall be out the better part o' to-morrow. I want ye to be sure to +be in the shop all afternoon--I'll tell you what for downstairs." It +was characteristic of him thus to make a mystery of business in front of +the women. + +Edwin felt the net closing about him. Then he thought of one of those +`posers' which often present themselves to youths of his age. + +"But to-morrow's Saturday," he said, perhaps perkily. "What about the +Bible class?" + +Six months previously a young minister of the Wesleyan Circuit, to whom +Heaven had denied both a sense of humour and a sense of honour, had +committed the infamy of starting a Bible class for big boys on Saturday +afternoons. This outrage had appalled and disgusted the boyhood of +Wesleyanism in Bursley. Their afternoon for games, their only fair +afternoon in the desert of the week, to be filched from them and used +against them for such an odious purpose as a Bible class! Not only +Sunday school on Sunday afternoon, but a Bible class on Saturday +afternoon! It was incredible. It was unbearable. It was gross +tyranny, and nothing else. Nevertheless the young minister had his way, +by dint of meanly calling upon parents and invoking their help. The +scurvy worm actually got together a class of twelve to fifteen boys, to +the end of securing their eternal welfare. And they had to attend the +class, though they swore they never would, and they had to sing hymns, +and they had to kneel and listen to prayers, and they had to listen to +the most intolerable tedium, and to take notes of it. All this, while +the sun was shining, or the rain was raining, on fields and streets and +open spaces and ponds! + +Edwin had been trapped in the snare. His father, after only three words +from the young minister, had yielded up his son like a burnt sacrifice-- +and with a casual nonchalance that utterly confounded Edwin. In vain +Edwin had pointed out to his elders that a Saturday afternoon of +confinement must be bad for his health. His attention had been directed +to his eternal health. In vain he had pointed out that on wet Saturday +afternoons he frequently worked at his home-lessons, which therefore +might suffer under the regime of a Bible class. His attention had been +directed to the peace which passeth understanding. So he had been +beaten, and was secretly twitted by Clara as an abject victim. Hence it +was with a keen and peculiar feeling of triumph, of hopelessly cornering +the inscrutable generation which a few months ago had cornered him, that +he demanded, perhaps perkily: "What about the Bible class?" + +"There'll be no more Bible classing," said his father, with a mild but +slightly sardonic smile, as who should say: "I'm ready to make all +allowances for youth; but I must get you to understand, as gently as I +can, that you can't keep on going to Bible classes for ever and ever." + +Mrs Hamps said-- + +"It won't be as if you were at school. But I do hope you won't neglect +to study your Bible. Eh, but I do hope you'll always find time for +that, to your dying day!" + +"Oh--but I say--" Edwin began, and stopped. + +He was beaten by the mere effrontery of the replies. His father and his +aunt (the latter of whom at any rate was a firm and confessed +religionist, who had been responsible for converting Mr Clayhanger from +Primitive Methodism to Wesleyan Methodism) did not trouble to defend +their new position by argument. They made no effort to reconcile it +with their position of a few months back, when the importance of +heavenly welfare far exceeded the importance of any conceivable earthly +welfare. The fact was that they had no argument. If God took +precedence of knowledge and of health, he took precedence of a peddling +shop! That was unanswerable. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +EIGHT. + +Edwin was dashed. His faith in humanity was dashed. These elders were +not sincere. And as Mrs Hamps continued to embroider the original +theme of her exhortation about the Bible, Edwin looked at her +stealthily, and the doubt crossed his mind whether that majestic and +vital woman was ever sincere about anything, even to herself--whether +the whole of her daily existence, from her getting-up to her down-lying, +was not a grandiose pretence. + +Not that he had the least desire to cling to the Bible class, even as an +alternative to the shop! No! He was much relieved to be rid of the +Bible class. What overset him was the crude illogicality of the new +decree, and the shameless tacit admission of previous insincerity. + +Two hours later, as he stood idly at the window of his bedroom, watching +the gas lamps of Trafalgar Road wax brighter in the last glooms of +twilight, he was still occupied with the sham and the unreason and the +lack of scruple suddenly revealed in the life of the elder generation. +Unconsciously imitating a trick of his father's when annoyed but calm, +he nodded his head several times, and with his tongue against his teeth +made the noise which in writing is represented by `tut-tut.' Yet +somehow he had always known that it would be so. At bottom, he was only +pretending to himself to be shocked and outraged. + +His plans were no further advanced; indeed they were put back, for this +Saturday afternoon vigil in the shop would be in some sort a symbolic +temporary defeat for him. Why had he not spoken out clearly? Why was +he always like a baby in presence of his father? The future was all +askew for him. He had forgotten his tremendous serious resolves. The +touch of the half-sovereign in his pocket, however, was comforting in a +universe of discomfort. + + + +VOLUME ONE, CHAPTER EIGHT. + +IN THE SHOP. + +"Here, lad!" said his father to Edwin, as soon as he had scraped up the +last crumbs of cheese from his plate at the end of dinner on the +following day. + +Edwin rose obediently and followed him out of the room. Having waited +at the top of the stairs until his father had reached the foot, he +leaned forward as far as he could with one hand on the rail and the +other pressing against the wall, swooped down to the mat at the bottom, +without touching a single step on the way, and made a rocket-like noise +with his mouth. He had no other manner of descending the staircase, +unless he happened to be in disgrace. His father went straight to the +desk in the corner behind the account-book window, assumed his +spectacles, and lifted the lid of the desk. + +"Here!" he said, in a low voice. "Mr Enoch Peake is stepping in this +afternoon to look at this here." He displayed the proof--an unusually +elaborate wedding card, which announced the marriage of Mr Enoch Peake +with Mrs Louisa Loggerheads. "Ye know him as I mean?" + +"Yes," said Edwin, "The stout man. The Cocknage Gardens man." + +"That's him. Well ye'll tell him I've been called away. Tell him who +ye are. Not but what he'll know. Tell him I think it might be +better"--Darius's thick finger ran along a line of print--"if we +put--`widow of the late Simon Loggerheads Esquire,' instead of--`Esq.' +See? Otherwise it's all right. Tell him I say as otherwise it's all +right. And ask him if he'll have it printed in silver, and how many he +wants, and show him this sample envelope. Now, d'ye understand?" + +"Yes," said Edwin, in a tone to convey, not disrespectfully, that there +was nothing to understand. Curious, how his father had the air of +bracing all his intellect as if to a problem! + +"Then ye'll take it to Big James, and he can start Chawner on it. Th' +job's promised for Monday forenoon." + +"Will Big James be working?" asked Edwin, for it was Saturday afternoon, +when, though the shop remained open, the printing office was closed. + +"They're all on overtime," said Mr Clayhanger; and then he added, in a +voice still lower, and with a surreptitious glance at Miss Ingamells, +the shop-woman, who was stolidly enfolding newspapers in wrappers at the +opposite counter, "See to it yourself, now. He won't want to talk to +_her_ about a thing like that. Tell him I told you specially. Just let +me see how well ye can do it." + +"Right!" said Edwin; and to himself, superciliously: "It might be life +and death." + +"We ought to be doing a lot o' business wi' Enoch Peake, later on," Mr +Clayhanger finished, in a whisper. + +"I see," said Edwin, impressed, perceiving that he had perhaps been +supercilious too soon. + +Mr Clayhanger returned his spectacles to their case, and taking his hat +from its customary hook behind him, over the job-files, consulted his +watch and passed round the counter to go. Then he stopped. + +"I'm going to Manchester," he murmured confidentially. "To see if I can +pick up a machine as I've heard of." + +Edwin was flattered. At the dinner-table Mr Clayhanger had only +vouchsafed that he had a train to catch, and would probably not be in +till late at night. + +The next moment he glimpsed Darius through the window, his arms +motionless by his sides and sticking slightly out; hurrying in the +sunshine along Wedgwood Street in the direction of Shawport station. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +So this was business! It was not the business he desired and meant to +have; and he was uneasy at the extent to which he was already entangled +in it; but it was rather amusing, and his father had really been very +friendly. He felt a sense of importance. + +Soon afterwards Clara ran into the shop to speak to Miss Ingamells. The +two chatted and giggled together. + +"Father's gone to Manchester," he found opportunity to say to Clara as +she was leaving. + +"Why aren't you doing those prizes he told you to do?" retorted Clara, +and vanished, She wanted none of Edwin's superior airs. + +During dinner Mr Clayhanger had instructed his son to go through the +Sunday school prize stock and make an in_ven_tory of it. + +This injunction from the child Clara, which Miss Ingamells had certainly +overheard, prevented him, as an independent man, from beginning his work +for at least ten minutes. He whistled, opened his father's desk and +stared vacantly into it, examined the pen-nib case in detail, and tore +off two leaves from the date calendar so that it should be ready for +Monday. He had a great scorn for Miss Ingamells, who was a personable +if somewhat heavy creature of twenty-eight, because she kept company +with a young man. He had caught them arm-in-arm and practically hugging +each other, one Sunday afternoon in the street. He could see naught but +silliness in that kind of thing. + +The entrance of a customer caused him to turn abruptly to the high +shelves where the books were kept. He was glad that the customer was +not Mr Enoch Peake, the expectation of whose arrival made him curiously +nervous. He placed the step-ladder against the shelves, climbed up, and +began to finger volumes and parcels of volumes. The dust was +incredible. The disorder filled him with contempt. It was astounding +that his father could tolerate such disorder; no doubt the whole shop +was in the same condition. "Thirteen Archie's Old Desk," he read on a +parcel, but when he opened the parcel he found seven "From Jest to +Earnest." Hence he had to undo every parcel. However, the work was +easy. He first wrote the inventory in pencil, then he copied it in ink; +then he folded it, and wrote very carefully on the back, because his +father had a mania for endorsing documents in the legal manner: +"Inventory of Sunday school prize stock." And after an instant's +hesitation he added his own initials. Then he began to tie up and +restore the parcels and the single volumes. None of all this literature +had any charm for him. He possessed five or six such books, all gilt +and chromatic, which had been awarded to him at Sunday school, `suitably +inscribed,' for doing nothing in particular; and he regarded them +without exception as frauds upon boyhood. However, Clara had always +enjoyed reading them. But lying flat on one of the top shelves he +discovered, nearly at the end of his task, an oblong tome which did +interest him: "Cazenove's Architectural Views of European Capitals, with +descriptive letterpress." It had an old-fashioned look, and was +probably some relic of his father's predecessor in the establishment. +Another example of the lack of order which prevailed! + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +He took the volume to the retreat of the desk, and there turned over its +pages of coloured illustrations. At first his interest in them, and in +the letterpress, was less instinctive than deliberate. He said to +himself: "Now, if there is anything in me, I ought really to be +interested in this, and I must be interested in it." And he was. He +glanced carelessly at the clock, which was hung above the shelves of +exercise-books and notebooks, exactly opposite the door. A quarter past +four. The afternoon was quietly passing, and he had not found it too +tedious. In the background of the task which (he considered) he had +accomplished with extraordinary efficiency, his senses noted faintly the +continual trickle of customers, all of whom were infallibly drawn to +Miss Ingamells's counter by her mere watchful and receptive appearance. +He had heard phrases and ends of phrases, such as: "No, we haven't +anything smaller," "A camel-hair brush," "Gum but not glue," "Very +sorry, sir. I'll speak firmly to the paper boy," and the sound of coins +dragged along the counter, the sound of the testing of half a sovereign, +the opening and shutting of the till-drawer; and occasionally Miss +Ingamells exclaiming to herself upon the stupidity of customers after a +customer had gone; and once Miss Ingamells crossing angrily to fix the +door ajar which some heedless customer had closed: "Did they suppose +that people didn't want air like other people?" And now it was a +quarter past four. Undoubtedly he had a peculiar, and pleasant, feeling +of importance. In another half-minute he glanced at the clock again, +and it was a quarter to five. + +What hypnotism attracted him towards the artists' materials cabinet +which stood magnificent, complicated, and complete in the middle of the +shop, like a monument? His father, after one infantile disastrous raid, +had absolutely forbidden any visitation of that cabinet, with its glass +case of assorted paints, crayons, brushes and pencils, and its +innumerable long drawers full of paper and cards and wondrous perfectly +equipped boxes, and T-squares and set-squares, with a hundred other +contrivances. But of course the order had now ceased to have force. +Edwin had left school; and, if he was not a man, he was certainly not a +boy. He began to open the drawers, at first gingerly, then boldly; +after all it was no business of Miss Ingamells's! And, to be just, Miss +Ingamells made no sort of pretence that it was any business of hers. +She proceeded with her own business. Edwin opened a rather large wooden +water-colour box. It was marked five and sixpence. It seemed to +comprise everything needed for the production of the most entrancing and +majestic architectural views, and as Edwin took out its upper case and +discovered still further marvellous devices and apparatus in its +basement beneath, he dimly but passionately saw, in his heart, bright +masterpieces that ought to be the fruit of that box. There was a key to +it. He must have it. He would have given all that he possessed for it, +if necessary. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +"Miss Ingamells," he said: and, as she did not look up immediately, "I +say, Miss Ingamells! How much does father take off in the shilling to +auntie when she buys anything?" + +"Don't ask _me_, Master Edwin," said Miss Ingamells; "_I_ don't know. How +should I know?" + +"Well, then," he muttered, "I shall pay full price for it--that's all." +He could not wait, and he wanted to be on the safe side. + +Miss Ingamells gave him change for his half-sovereign in a strictly +impartial manner, to indicate that she accepted no responsibility. And +the squaring of Edwin's shoulders conveyed to Miss Ingamells that he +advised her to keep carefully within her own sphere, and not to make +impertinent inquiries about the origin of the half-sovereign, which he +could see intrigued her acutely. He now owned the box; it was not a box +of colours, but a box of enchantment. He had had colour-boxes before, +but nothing to compare with this, nothing that could have seemed magical +to anybody wiser than a very small boy. Then he bought some +cartridge-paper; he considered that cartridge-paper would be good enough +for preliminary experiments. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +It was while he was paying for the cartridge-paper--he being, as was +indeed proper, on the customers' side of the counter--that a heavy +loutish boy in an apron entered the shop, blushing. Edwin turned away. +This was Miss Ingamells's affair. + +"If ye please, Mester Peake's sent me. He canna come in this +afternoon--he's got a bit o' ratting on--and will Mester Clayhanger step +across to th' Dragon to-night after eight, with that there peeper +[paper] as he knows on?" + +At the name of Peake, Edwin started. He had utterly forgotten the +matter. + +"Master Edwin," said Miss Ingamells drily. "You know all about that, +don't you?" Clearly she resented that he knew all about that while she +didn't. + +"Oh! Yes," Edwin stammered. "What did you say?" It was his first +piece of real business. + +"If you please, Mester Peake sent me." The messenger blundered through +his message again word for word. + +"Very well. I'll attend to it," said Edwin, as nonchalantly as he +could. + +Nevertheless he was at a loss what to do, simple though the situation +might have seemed to a person with an experience of business longer than +Edwin's. Just as three hours previously his father had appeared to be +bracing all his intellect to a problem that struck Edwin as entirely +simple, so now Edwin seemed to be bracing all his intellect to another +aspect of the same problem. Time, revenging his father! ... What! Go +across to the Dragon and in cold blood demand Mr Enoch Peake, and then +parley with Mr Enoch Peake as one man with another! He had never been +inside the Dragon. He had been brought up in the belief that the Dragon +was a place of sin. The Dragon was included in the generic +term--`gin-palace,' and quite probably in the Siamese-twin +term--`gaming-saloon.' Moreover, to discuss business with Mr Enoch +Peake... Mr Enoch Peake was as mysterious to Edwin as, say, a Chinese +mandarin! Still, business was business, and something would have to be +done. He did not know what. Ought he to go to the Dragon? His father +had not foreseen the possibility of this development. He instantly +decided one fundamental: he would not consult Miss Ingamells; no, nor +even Maggie! There remained only Big James. He went across to see Big +James, who was calmly smoking a pipe on the little landing at the top of +the steps leading to the printing office. + +Big James showed no astonishment. + +"You come along o' me to the Dragon to-night, young sir, at eight +o'clock, or as soon after as makes no matter, and I'll see as you see +Mr Enoch Peake. I shall be coming up Woodisun Bank at eight o'clock, +or as soon after as makes no matter. You be waiting for me at the back +gates there, and I'll see as you see Mr Enoch Peake." + +"Are you going to the Dragon?" + +"Am I going to the Dragon, young sir!" exclaimed Big James, in his +majestic voice. + + + +VOLUME ONE, CHAPTER NINE. + +THE TOWN. + +James Yarlett was worthy of his nickname. He stood six feet four and a +half inches in height, and his girth was proportionate; he had enormous +hands and feet, large features, and a magnificent long dark brown beard; +owing to this beard his necktie was never seen. But the most +magnificent thing about him was his bass voice, acknowledged to be the +finest bass in the town, and one of the finest even in Hanbridge, where, +in his earlier prime, James had lived as a `news comp' on the +"Staffordshire Signal." He was now a `jobbing comp' in Bursley, because +Bursley was his native town and because he preferred jobbing. He made +the fourth and heaviest member of the celebrated Bursley Male Glee +Party, the other three being Arthur Smallrice, an old man with a +striking falsetto voice, Abraham Harracles, and Jos Rawnpike (pronounced +Rampick). These men were accustomed to fame, and Big James was the king +of them, though the mildest. They sang at dinners, free-and-easies, +concerts, and Martinmas tea-meetings. They sang for the glory, and when +there was no demand for their services, they sang to themselves, for the +sake of singing. Each of them was a star in some church or chapel +choir. And except Arthur Smallrice, they all shared a certain +elasticity of religious opinion. Big James, for example, had varied in +ten years from Wesleyan, through Old Church, to Roman Catholic up at +Bleakridge. It all depended on niceties in the treatment accorded to +him, and on the choice of anthems. Moreover, he liked a change. + +He was what his superiors called `a very superior man.' Owing to the +more careful enunciation required in singing, he had lost a great deal +of the Five Towns accent, and one cannot be a compositor for a quarter +of a century without insensibly acquiring an education and a store of +knowledge far excelling the ordinary. His manner was gentle, and +perhaps somewhat pompous, as is common with very big men; but you could +never be sure whether an extremely subdued humour did not underlie his +pomposity. He was a bachelor, aged forty-five, and lived quietly with a +married sister at the bottom of Woodisun Bank, near the National +Schools. The wonder was that, with all his advantages, he had not more +deeply impressed himself upon Bursley as an individuality, and not +merely as a voice. But he seemed never to seek to do so. He was +without ambition; and, though curiously careful sometimes about +preserving his own dignity, and beyond question sensitive by +temperament, he showed marked respect, and even humility, to the +worldly-successful. Despite his bigness and simplicity there was +something small about him which came out in odd trifling details. Thus +it was characteristic of Big James to ask Edwin to be waiting for him at +the back gates in Woodisun Bank when he might just as easily have met +him at the side door by the closed shop in Wedgwood Street. + +Edwin, who from mere pride had said nothing to his sisters about the +impending visit to the Dragon, was a little surprised and dashed to see +Big James in broadcloth and a high hat; for he had not dreamed of +changing his own everyday suit, nor had it occurred to him that the +Dragon was a temple of ceremoniousness. Big James looked enormous. The +wide lapel of his shining frock-coat was buttoned high up under his +beard and curved downwards for a distance of considerably more than a +yard to his knees: it was a heroic frock-coat. The sleeves were wide, +but narrowing at the wrists, and the white wristbands were very tight. +The trousers fell in ample folds on the uppers of the gigantic boots. +Big James had a way of sticking out his chest and throwing his head back +which would have projected the tip of his beard ten inches forth from +his body, had the beard been stiff; but the soft silkiness of the beard +frustrated this spectacular phenomenon, which would have been very +interesting to witness. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +The pair stepped across Trafalgar Road together, Edwin, though he tried +to be sedate, nothing but a frisking morsel by the side of the vast +monument. Compared with the architectural grandeur of Mr Varlett, his +thin, supple, free-moving limbs had an almost pathetic appearance of +ephemeral fragility. + +Big James directed himself to the archway leading to the Dragon stables, +and there he saw an ostler or oddman. Edwin, feeling the imminence of +an ordeal, surreptitiously explored a pocket to be sure that the proof +of the wedding-card was safely there. + +The ostler raised his reddish eyebrows to Big James. Big James jerked +his head to one side, indicating apparently the entire Dragon, and +simultaneously conveying a query. The ostler paused immobile an instant +and then shook his insignificant turnip-pate. Big James turned away. +No word had been spoken; nevertheless, the men had exchanged a dialogue +which might be thus put into words-- + +"I wasn't thinking to see ye so soon," from the ostler. + +"Then nobody of any importance has yet gone into the assembly room?" +from Big James. + +"Nobody worth speaking of, and won't, for a while," from the other. + +"Then I'll take a turn," from Big James. + +The latter now looked down at Edwin, and addressed him in words-- + +"Seemingly we're too soon, Mr Edwin. What do you say to a turn round +the town--playground way? I doubted we should be too soon." + +Edwin showed alacrity. As a schoolboy it had been definitely forbidden +to him to go out at night; and unless sent on a special and hurried +errand, he had scarcely seen the physiognomy of the streets after eight +o'clock. He had never seen the playground in the evening. And this +evening the town did not seem like the same town; it had become a new +and mysterious town of adventure. And yet Edwin was not fifty yards +away from his own bedroom. + +They ascended Duck Bank together, Edwin proud to be with a celebrity of +the calibre of Big James, and Big James calmly satisfied to show himself +thus formally with his master's son. It appeared almost incredible that +those two immortals, so diverse, had issued from the womb practically +alike; that a few brief years on the earth had given Big James such a +tremendous physical advantage. Several hours' daily submission to the +exact regularities of lines of type and to the unvarying demands of +minutely adjusted machines in motion had stamped Big James's body and +mind with the delicate and quasi-finicking preciseness which +characterises all compositors and printers; and the continual monotonous +performance of similar tasks that employed his faculties while never +absorbing or straining them, had soothed and dulled the fever of life in +him to a beneficent calm, a calm refined and beautified by the +pleasurable exercise of song. Big James had seldom known a violent +emotion. He had craved nothing, sought for nothing, and lost nothing. + +Edwin, like Big James in progress from everlasting to everlasting, was +all inchoate, unformed, undisciplined, and burning with capricious +fires; all expectant, eager, reluctant, tingling, timid, innocently and +wistfully audacious. By taking the boy's hand, Big James might have +poetically symbolised their relation. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +"Are you going to sing to-night at the Dragon, Mr Yarlett?" asked +Edwin. He lengthened his step to Big James's, controlled his ardent +body, and tried to remember that he was a man with a man. + +"I am, young sir," said Big James. "There is a party of us." + +"Is it the Male Glee Party?" Edwin pursued. + +"Yes, Mr Edwin." + +"Then Mr Smallrice will be there?" + +"He will, Mr Edwin." + +"Why can Mr Smallrice sing such high notes?" + +Big James slowly shook his head, as Edwin looked up at him. "I tell you +what it is, young sir. It's a gift, that's what it is, same as I can +sing low." + +"But Mr Smallrice is very old, isn't he?" + +"There's a parrot in a cage over at the Duck, there, as is eighty-five +years old, and that's proved by record kept, young sir." + +"No!" protested Edwin's incredulity politely. + +"By record kept," said Big James. + +"Do you often sing at the Dragon, Mr Yarlett?" + +"Time was," said Big James, "when some of us used to sing there every +night, Sundays excepted, and concerts and whatnot excepted. Aye! For +hours and hours every night. And still do sometimes." + +"After your work?" + +"After our work. Aye! And often till dawn in summer. One o'clock, two +o'clock, half-past two o'clock, every night. But now they say that this +new Licensing Act will close every public-house in this town at eleven +o'clock, and a straight-up eleven at that!" + +"But what do you do it for?" + +"What do we do it for? We do it to pass the time and the glass, young +sir. Not as I should like you to think as I ever drank, Mr Edwin. One +quart of ale I take every night, and have ever done; no more, no less." + +"But"--Edwin's rapid, breaking voice interrupted eagerly the deep +majestic tones--"aren't you tired the next day? _I_ should be!" + +"Never," said Big James. "I get up from my bed as fresh as a daisy at +six sharp. And I've known the nights when my bed ne'er saw me." + +"You must be strong, Mr Yarlett, my word!" Edwin exclaimed. These +revelations of the habits and prowess of Big James astounded him. He +had never suspected that such things went on in the town. + +"Aye! Middling!" + +"I suppose it's a free-and-easy at the Dragon, to-night, Mr Yarlett?" + +"In a manner of speaking," said Big James. + +"I wish I could stay for it." + +"And why not?" Big James suggested, and looked down at Edwin with +half-humorous incertitude. + +Edwin shrugged his shoulders superiorly, indicating by instinct, in +spite of himself, that possibly Big James was trespassing over the +social line that divided them. And yet Big James's father would have +condescended to Edwin's grandfather. Only, Edwin now belonged to the +employing class, whilst Big James belonged to the employed. Already +Edwin, whose father had been thrashed by workmen whom a compositor would +hesitate to call skilled--already Edwin had the mien natural to a ruler, +and Big James, with dignified deference, would submit unresentingly to +his attitude. It was the subtlest thing. It was not that Edwin +obscurely objected to the suggestion of his being present at the +free-and-easy; it was that he objected (but nicely, and with good +nature) to any assumption of Big James's right to influence him towards +an act that his father would not approve. Instead of saying, "Why not?" +Big James ought to have said: "Nobody but you can decide that, as your +father's away." James ought to have been strictly impartial. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +"Well," said Big James, when they arrived at the playground, which lay +north of the covered Meat Market or Shambles, "it looks as if they +hadn't been able to make a start yet at the Blood Tub." His tone was +marked by a calm, grand disdain, as of one entertainer talking about +another. + +The Blood Tub, otherwise known as Snaggs's, was the centre of nocturnal +pleasure in Bursley. It stood almost on the very spot where the jawbone +of a whale had once lain, as a supreme natural curiosity. It +represented the softened manners which had developed out of the old +medievalism of the century. It had supplanted the bear-pit and the +cock-pit. It corresponded somewhat with the ideals symbolised by the +new Town Hall. In the tiny odorous beer-houses of all the undulating, +twisting, reddish streets that surrounded the contiguous open spaces of +Duck Bank, the playground, the market-place, and Saint Luke's Square, +the folk no longer discussed eagerly what chance on Sunday morning the +municipal bear would have against five dogs. They had progressed as far +as a free library, boxing-gloves, rabbit-coursing, and the Blood Tub. + +This last was a theatre with wooden sides and a canvas roof, and it +would hold quite a crowd of people. In front of it was a platform, and +an orchestra, lighted by oil flares that, as Big James and Edwin +approached, were gaining strength in the twilight. Leaning against the +platform was a blackboard on which was chalked the announcement of two +plays: "The Forty Thieves" (author unstated) and Cruikshank's "The +Bottle." The orchestra, after terrific concussions, fell silent, and +then a troupe of players in costume, cramped on the narrow trestle +boards, performed a sample scene from "The Forty Thieves," just to give +the crowd in front an idea of the wonders of this powerful work. And +four thieves passed and repassed behind the screen hiding the doors, and +reappeared nine times as four fresh thieves until the tale of forty was +complete. And then old Hammerad, the beloved clown who played the drum +(and whose wife kept a barber's shop in Buck Row and shaved for a +penny), left his drum and did two minutes' stiff clowning, and then the +orchestra burst forth again, and the brazen voice of old Snaggs (in his +moleskin waistcoat) easily rode the storm, adjuring the folk to walk up +and walk up: which some of the folk did do. And lastly the band played +"God Save the Queen," and the players, followed by old Snaggs, +processionally entered the booth. + +"I lay they come out again," said Big James, with grim blandness. + +"Why?" asked Edwin. He was absolutely new to the scene. + +"I lay they haven't got twenty couple inside," said Big James. + +And in less than a minute the troupe did indeed emerge, and old Snaggs +expostulated with a dilatory public, respectfully but firmly. It had +been a queer year for Mr Snaggs. Rain had ruined the Wakes; rain had +ruined everything; rain had nearly ruined him. July was obviously not a +month in which a self-respecting theatre ought to be open, but Mr +Snaggs had got to the point of catching at straws. He stated that in +order to prove his absolute _bona fides_ the troupe would now give a scene +from that world-renowned and unique drama, "The Bottle," after which the +performance really would commence, since he could not as a gentleman +keep his kind patrons within waiting any longer. His habit, which +emphasised itself as he grew older, was to treat the staring crowd in +front of his booth like a family of nephews and nieces. The device was +quite useless, for the public's stolidity was impregnable. It touched +the heroic. No more granitic and crass stolidity could have been +discovered in England. The crowd stood; it exercised no other function +of existence. It just stood, and there it would stand until convinced +that the gratis part of the spectacle was positively at an end. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +With a ceremonious gesture signifying that he assumed the young sir's +consent, Big James turned away. He had displayed to Edwin the poverty +and the futility of the Blood Tub. Edwin would perhaps have liked to +stay. The scenes enacted on the outer platform were certainly tinged +with the ridiculous, but they were the first histrionics that he had +ever witnessed; and he could not help thinking, hoping, in spite of his +common sense, that within the booth all was different, miraculously +transformed into the grand and the impressive. Left to himself, he +would surely have preferred an evening at the Blood Tub to a business +interview with Mr Enoch Peake at the Dragon. But naturally he had to +scorn the Blood Tub with a scorn equal to the massive and silent scorn +of Big James. And on the whole he considered that he was behaving as a +man with another man rather well. He sought by depreciatory remarks to +keep the conversation at its proper adult level. + +Big James led him through the market-place, where a few vegetable, +tripe, and gingerbread stalls--relics of the day's market--were still +attracting customers in the twilight. These slatternly and picturesque +groups, beneath their flickering yellow flares, were encamped at the +gigantic foot of the Town Hall porch as at the foot of a precipice. The +monstrous black walls of the Town Hall rose and were merged in gloom; +and the spire of the Town Hall, on whose summit stood a gold angel +holding a gold crown, rose right into the heavens and was there lost. +It was marvellous that this town, by adding stone to stone, had upreared +this monument which, in expressing the secret nobility of its ideals, +dwarfed the town. On every side of it the beer-houses, full of a +dulled, savage ecstasy of life, gleamed brighter than the shops. Big +James led Edwin down through the mysteries of the Cock Yard and up along +Bugg's Gutter, and so back to the Dragon. + + + +VOLUME ONE, CHAPTER TEN. + +FREE AND EASY. + +When Edwin, shyly, followed Big James into the assembly room of the +Dragon, it already held a fair sprinkling of men, and newcomers +continued to drop in. They were soberly and respectably clothed, though +a few had knotted handkerchiefs round their necks instead of collars and +ties. The occasion was a jollity of the Bursley Mutual Burial Club. +This Club, a singular example of that dogged private co-operative +enterprise which so sharply distinguishes English corporate life from +the corporate life of other European countries, had lustily survived +from a period when men were far less sure of a decent burial than they +were then, in the very prosperous early seventies. It had helped to +maintain the barbaric fashion of ostentatiously expensive funerals, out +of which undertakers and beer-sellers made vast sums; but it had also +provided a basis of common endeavour and of fellowship. And its +respectability was intense, and at the same time broad-minded. To be an +established subscriber to the Burial Club was evidence of good character +and of social spirit. The periodic jollities of this company of men +whose professed aim was to bury each other, had a high reputation for +excellence. Up till a year previously they had always been held at the +Duck, in Duck Square, opposite; but Mr Enoch Peake, Chairman of the +Club, had by persistent and relentless chicane, triumphing over immense +influences, changed their venue to the Dragon, whose landlady, Mrs +Louisa Loggerheads, he was then courting. (It must be stated that Mrs +Louisa's name contained no slur of cantankerousness; it is merely the +local word for a harmless plant, the knapweed.) He had now won Mrs +Loggerheads, after being a widower thrice, and with her the second best +`house' in the town. + +There were long benches down the room, with forms on either side of +them. Big James, not without pomp, escorted a blushing Edwin to the end +of one of these tables, near a small raised platform that occupied the +extremity of the room. Over this platform was printed a legend: "As a +bird is known by its note--"; and over the legend was a full-rigged ship +in a glass case, and a pair of antlers. The walls of the room were dark +brown, the ceiling grey with soot of various sorts, and the floor tiled +red-and-black and sanded. Smoke rose in spirals from about a score of +churchwarden pipes and as many cutties, which were charged from tin +pouches, and lighted by spills of newspaper from the three double +gas-jets that hung down over the benches. Two middle-aged women, one in +black and the other checked, served beer, porter, and stout in mugs, and +gin in glasses, passing in and out through a side door. The company +talked little, and it had not yet begun seriously to drink; but, +sprawled about in attitudes of restful abeyance, it was smoking +religiously, and the flat noise of solemn expectorations punctuated the +minutes. Edwin was easily the youngest person present--the average age +appeared to be about fifty--but nobody's curiosity seemed to be much +stirred by his odd arrival, and he ceased gradually to blush. When, +however, one of the women paused before him in silent question, and he +had to explain that he required no drink because he had only called for +a moment about a matter of business, he blushed again vigorously. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +Then Mr Enoch Peake appeared. He was a short, stout old man, with fat +hands, a red, minutely wrinkled face, and very small eyes. Greeted with +the respect due to the owner of Cocknage Gardens, a sporting resort +where all the best foot-racing and rabbit-coursing took place, he +accepted it in somnolent indifference, and immediately took off his coat +and sat down in cotton shirt-sleeves. Then he pulled out a red +handkerchief and his tobacco-box, and set them on the table. Big James +motioned to Edwin. + +"Evening, Mr Peake," said Big James, crossing the floor, "and here's a +young gent wishful for two words with you." + +Mr Peake stared vacantly. + +"Young Mr Clayhanger," explained Big James. + +"It's about this card," Edwin began, in a whisper, drawing the +wedding-card sheepishly from his pocket. "Father had to go to +Manchester," he added, when he had finished. + +Mr Enoch Peake seized the card in both hands, and examined it; and +Edwin could hear his heavy breathing. + +Mrs Louisa Loggerheads, a comfortable, smiling administrative woman of +fifty, showed herself at the service-door, and nodded with dignity to a +few of the habitues. + +"Missis is at door," said Big James to Mr Peake. + +"Is her?" muttered Mr Peake, not interrupting his examination of the +card. + +One of the serving-women, having removed Mr Peake's coat, brought a new +church warden, filled it, and carefully directed the tip towards his +tight little mouth: the lips closed on it. Then she lighted a spill and +applied it to the distant bowl, and the mouth puffed; and then the woman +deposited the bowl cautiously on the bench. Lastly, she came with a +small glass of sloe gin. Mr Peake did not move. + +At length Mr Peake withdrew the pipe from his mouth, and after an +interval said-- + +"Aye!" + +He continued to stare at the card, now held in one hand. + +"And is it to be printed in silver?" Edwin asked. + +Mr Peake took a few more puffs. + +"Aye!" + +When he had stared further for a long time at the card, his hand moved +slowly with it towards Edwin, and Edwin resumed possession of it. + +Mrs Louisa Loggerheads had now vanished. + +"Missis has gone," said Big James. + +"Has her?" muttered Mr Peake. + +Edwin rose to leave, though unwillingly; but Big James asked him in +polite reproach whether he should not stay for the first song. He +nodded, encouraged; and sat down. He did not know that the uppermost +idea in Big James's mind for an hour past had been that Edwin would hear +him sing. + +Mr Peake lifted his glass, held it from him, approached his lips +towards it, and emptied it at a draught. He then glanced round and said +thickly-- + +"Gentlemen all, Mester Smallrice, Mester Harracles, Mester Rampick, and +Mester Yarlett will now oblige with one o' th' ould favourites." + +There was some applause, a few coats were removed, and Mr Peake fixed +himself in a contemplative attitude. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +Messrs. Arthur Smallrice, Abraham Harracles, Jos Rawnpike, and James +Yarlett rose, stepped heavily on to the little platform, and stood in a +line with their hands in their pockets. "As a bird is known by its +note--" was hidden by the rampart of their shoulders. They had no +music. They knew the music; they had sung it a thousand times. They +knew precisely the effects which they wished to produce, and the means +of production. They worked together like an inspired machine. Mr +Arthur Smallrice gave a rapid glance into a corner, and from that corner +a concertina spoke--one short note. Then began, with no hesitating +shuffling preliminaries nor mute consultations, the singing of that +classic quartet, justly celebrated from Hull to Wigan and from +Northallerton to Lichfield, "Loud Ocean's Roar." The thing was +performed with absolute assurance and perfection. Mr Arthur Smallrice +did the yapping of the short waves on the foam-veiled rocks, and Big +James in fullest grandeur did the long and mighty rolling of the deep. +It was majestic, terrific, and overwhelming. Many bars before the close +Edwin was thrilled, as by an exquisite and vast revelation. He tingled +from head to foot. He had never heard any singing like it, or any +singing in any way comparable to it. He had never guessed that song +held such possibilities of emotion. The pure and fine essential +qualities of the voices, the dizzying harmonies, the fugal calls and +responses, the strange relief of the unisons, and above all the free, +natural mien of the singers, proudly aware that they were producing +something beautiful that could not be produced more beautifully, +conscious of unchallenged supremacy,--all this enfevered him to an +unprecedented and self-astonished enthusiasm. + +He murmured under his breath, as "Loud Ocean's Roar" died away and the +little voices of the street supervened: "By Gad! By Gad!" + +The applause was generous. Edwin stamped and clapped with childlike +violence and fury. Mr Peake slowly and regularly thumped one fist on +the bench, puffing the while. Glasses and mugs could be seen, but not +heard, dancing. Mr Arthur Smallrice, Mr Abraham Harracles, Mr Jos +Rawnpike, and Mr James Yarlett, entirely inattentive to the +acclamations, stepped heavily from the platform and sat down. When +Edwin caught Big James's eye he clapped again, reanimating the general +approval, and Big James gazed at him with bland satisfaction. Mr Enoch +Peake was now, save for the rise and fall of his great chest, as +immobile and brooding as an Indian god. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +Edwin did not depart. He reflected that, even if his father should come +home earlier than the last train and prove curious, it would be +impossible for him to know the exact moment at which his son had been +able to have speech with Mr Enoch Peake on the important matter of +business. For aught his father could ever guess he might have been +prevented from obtaining the attention of the chairman of the +proceedings until, say, eleven o'clock. Also, he meant to present his +conduct to his father in the light of an enterprising and fearless +action showing a marked aptitude for affairs. Mr Enoch Peake, whom his +father was anxious to flatter, had desired his father's company at the +Dragon, and, to save the situation, Edwin had courageously gone instead: +that was it. + +Besides, he would have stayed in any case. His mind was elevated above +the fear of consequences. + +There was some concertina-playing, with a realistic imitation of church +bells borne on the wind from a distance; and then the Bursley Prize +Handbell Ringers (or Campanologists) produced a whole family of real +bells from under a form, and the ostler and the two women arranged a +special table, and the campanologists fixed their bells on it and +themselves round it, and performed a selection of Scotch and Irish airs, +without once deceiving themselves as to the precise note which a chosen +bell would emit when duly shaken. + +Singular as was this feat, it was far less so than a young man's +performance of the ophicleide, a serpentine instrument that coiled round +and about its player, and when breathed into persuasively gave forth +prodigious brassy sounds that resembled the night-noises of beasts of +prey. This item roused the Indian god from his umbilical +contemplations, and as the young ophicleide player, somewhat breathless, +passed down the room with his brazen creature in his arms, Mr Enoch +Peake pulled him by the jacket-tail. + +"Eh!" said Mr Enoch Peake. "Is that the ophicleide as thy father used +to play at th' owd church?" + +"Yes, Mr Peake," said the young man, with bright respect. + +Mr Peake dropped his eyes again, and when the young man had gone, he +murmured, to his stomach-- + +"I well knowed it were th' ophicleide as his father used to play at th' +owd church!" And suddenly starting up, he continued hoarsely, +"Gentlemen all, Mr James Yarlett will now kindly oblige with `The +Miller of the Dee.'" And one of the women relighted his pipe and served +him with beer. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +Big James's rendering of "The Miller of the Dee" had been renowned in +the Five Towns since 1852. It was classical, hallowed. It was the only +possible rendering of "The Miller of the Dee." If the greatest bass in +the world had come incognito to Bursley and sung "The Miller of the +Dee," people would have said, "Ah! But ye should hear Big James sing +it!" It suited Big James. The sentiments of the song were his +sentiments; he expressed them with natural simplicity; but at the same +time they underwent a certain refinement at his hands; for even when he +sang at his loudest Big James was refined, natty, and restrained. His +instinctive gentlemanliness was invincible and all-pervading. And the +real beauty and enormous power of his magnificent voice saved him by its +mere distinction from the charge of being finicking. The simple sound +of the voice gave pleasure. And the simple production of that sound was +Big James's deepest joy. Amid all the expected loud applause the giant +looked naively for Edwin's boyish mad enthusiasm, and felt it; and was +thrilled, and very glad that he had brought Edwin. As for Edwin, Edwin +was humbled that he should have been so blind to what Big James was. He +had always regarded Big James as a dull, decent, somewhat peculiar +fellow in a dirty apron, who was his father's foreman. He had actually +talked once to Big James of the wonderful way in which Maggie and Clara +sang, and Big James had been properly respectful. But the singing of +Maggie and Clara was less than nothing, the crudest amateurism, compared +to these public performances of Big James's. Even the accompanying +concertina was far more cleverly handled than the Clayhanger piano had +ever been handled. Yes, Edwin was humbled. And he had a great wish to +be able to do something brilliantly himself--he knew not what. The +intoxication of the desire for glory was upon him as he sat amid those +shirt-sleeved men, near the brooding Indian god, under a crawling bluish +canopy of smoke, gazing absently at the legend: "As a bird is known by +its note--" + +After an interval, during which Mr Enoch Peake was roused more than +once, a man with a Lancashire accent recited a poem entitled "The Patent +Hairbrushing Machine," the rotary hairbrush being at that time an +exceedingly piquant novelty that had only been heard of in the barbers' +shops of the Five Towns, though travellers to Manchester could boast +that they had sat under it. As the principle of the new machine was +easily grasped, and the sensations induced by it easily imagined, the +recitation had a success which was indicated by slappings of thighs and +great blowings-off of mirth. But Mr Enoch Peake preserved his +tranquillity throughout it, and immediately it was over he announced +with haste-- + +"Gentlemen all, Miss Florence Simcox--or shall us say Mrs Offlow, wife +of the gentleman who has just obliged--the champion female clog-dancer +of the Midlands, will now oblige." + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +SIX. + +These words put every man whom they surprised into a state of unusual +animation; and they surprised most of the company. It may be doubted +whether a female clog-dancer had ever footed it in Bursley. Several +public-houses possessed local champions--of a street, of a village--but +these were emphatically not women. Enoch Peake had arranged this daring +item in the course of his afternoon's business at Cocknage Gardens, Mr +Offlow being an expert in ratting terriers, and Mrs Offlow happening to +be on a tour with her husband through the realms of her championship, a +tour which mingled the varying advantages derivable from terriers, +recitations, and clogs. The affair was therefore respectable beyond +cavil. + +Nevertheless when Florence shone suddenly at the service-door, the +shortness of her red-and-black velvet skirts, and the undeniable +complete visibility of her rounded calves produced an uneasy and +agreeable impression that Enoch Peake, for a chairman of the Mutual +Burial Club, had gone rather far, superbly far, and that his moral +ascendancy over Louisa Loggerheads must indeed be truly astonishing. +Louisa now stood gravely behind the dancer, in the shadow of the +doorway, and the contrast between her and Florence was in every way +striking enough to prove what a wonderful and mysterious man Enoch Peake +was. Florence was accustomed to audiences. She was a pretty, doll-like +woman, if inclined to amplitude; but the smile between those shaking +golden ringlets had neither the modesty nor the false modesty nor the +docility that Bursley was accustomed to think proper to the face of +woman. It could have stared down any man in the place, except perhaps +Mr Peake. + +The gestures of Mr Offlow, and her gestures, as he arranged and +prepared the surface of the little square dancing-board that was her +throne, showed that he was the husband of Florence Simcox rather than +she the wife of Offlow the reciter and dog-fancier. Further, it was his +role to play the concertina to her: he had had to learn the concertina-- +possibly a secret humiliation for one whose judgement in terriers was +not excelled in many public-houses. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +SEVEN. + +She danced; and the service-doorway showed a vista of open-mouthed +scullions. There was no sound in the room, save the concertina and the +champion clogs. Every eye was fixed on those clogs; even the little +eyes of Mr Peake quitted the button of his waistcoat and burned like +diamond points on those clogs. Florence herself chiefly gazed on those +clogs, but occasionally her nonchalant petulant gaze would wander up and +down her bare arms and across her bosom. At intervals, with her ringed +fingers she would lift the short skirt--a nothing, an imperceptibility, +half an inch, with glance downcast; and the effect was profound, +recondite, inexplicable. Her style was not that of a male clog-dancer, +but it was indubitably clog-dancing, full of marvels to the connoisseur, +and to the profane naught but a highly complicated series of wooden +noises. Florence's face began to perspire. Then the concertina ceased +playing, so that an undistracted attention might be given to the +supremely difficult final figures of the dance. + +And thus was rendered back to the people in the charming form of beauty +that which the instinct of the artist had taken from the sordid ugliness +of the people. The clog, the very emblem of the servitude and the +squalor of brutalised populations, was changed, on the light feet of +this favourite, into the medium of grace. Few of these men but at some +time of their lives had worn the clog, had clattered in it through +winter's slush, and through the freezing darkness before dawn, to the +manufactory and the mill and the mine, whence after a day of labour +under discipline more than military, they had clattered back to their +little candle-lighted homes. One of the slatterns behind the doorway +actually stood in clogs to watch the dancer. The clog meant everything +that was harsh, foul, and desolating; it summoned images of misery and +disgust. Yet on those feet that had never worn it seriously, it became +the magic instrument of pleasure, waking dulled wits and forgotten +aspirations, putting upon everybody an enchantment... And then, +suddenly, the dancer threw up one foot as high as her head and brought +two clogs down together like a double mallet on the board, and stood +still. It was over. + +Mrs Louisa Loggerheads turned nervously away, pushing her servants in +front of her. And when the society of mutual buriers had recovered from +the startling shameless insolence of that last high kick, it gave the +rein to its panting excitement, and roared and stamped. Edwin was +staggered. The blood swept into his face, a hot tide. He was ravished, +but he was also staggered. He did not know what to think of Florence, +the champion female clog-dancer. He felt that she was wondrous; he felt +that he could have gazed at her all night; but he felt that she had put +him under the necessity of reconsidering some of his fundamental +opinions. For example, he was obliged to admit within himself a +lessening of scorn for the attitude toward each other of Miss Ingamells +and her young man. He saw those things in a new light. And he +reflected, dazzled by the unforeseen chances of existence: "Yesterday I +was at school--and to-day I see this!" He was so preoccupied by his own +intimate sensations that the idea of applauding never occurred to him, +until he perceived his conspicuousness in not applauding, whereupon he +clapped self-consciously. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +EIGHT. + +Miss Florence Simcox, somewhat breathless, tripped away, with simulated +coyness and many curtseys. She had done her task, and as a woman she +had to go: this was a gathering of members of the Mutual Burial Club, a +masculine company, and not meet for females. The men pulled themselves +together, remembering that their proudest quality was a stoic +callousness that nothing could overthrow. They refilled pipes, ordered +more beer, and resumed the mask of invulnerable solemnity. + +"Aye!" muttered Mr Enoch Peake. + +Edwin, with a great effort, rose and walked out. He would have liked to +say good night to Big James; he did not deny that he ought to have done +so; but he dared not complicate his exit. On the pavement outside, in +the warm damp night, a few loitering listeners stood doggedly before an +open window, hearkening, their hands deep in their pockets, motionless. +And Edwin could hear Mr Enoch Peake: "Gentlemen all, Mester Arthur +Smallrice, Mester Abraham Harracles, Mester Jos Rampick, and Mester +James Yarlett--" + + + +VOLUME ONE, CHAPTER ELEVEN. + +SON AND FATHER. + +Later that evening, Edwin sat at a small deal table in the embrasure of +the dormer window of the empty attic next to his bedroom. During the +interval between tea and the rendezvous with Big James he had formally +planted his flag in that room. He had swept it out with a long-brush, +while Clara stood at the door giggling at the spectacle and telling him +that he had no right thus to annex territory in the absence of the +overlord. He had mounted a pair of steps, and put a lot of lumber +through a trap at the head of the stairs into the loft. And he had got +a table, a lamp, and a chair. That was all that he needed for the +moment. He had gone out to meet Big James with his head quite half-full +of this vague attic-project, but the night sights of Bursley, and +especially the music at the Dragon, and still more especially the +dancing at the Dragon, had almost expelled the attic-project from his +head. When he returned unobtrusively into the house and learnt from a +disturbed Mrs Nixon, who was sewing in the kitchen, that he was +understood to be in his new attic, and that his sisters had gone to bed, +the enchantment of the attic had instantly resumed much of its power +over him, and he had hurried upstairs fortified with a slice of bread +and half a cold sausage. He had eaten the food absently in gulps while +staring at the cover of "Cazenove's Architectural Views of European +Capitals," abstracted from the shop without payment. Then he had pinned +part of a sheet of cartridge-paper on an old drawing-board which he +possessed, and had sat down. For his purpose the paper ought to have +been soaked and stretched on the board with paste, but that would have +meant a delay of seven or eight hours, and he was not willing to wait. +Though he could not concentrate his mind to begin, his mind could not be +reconciled to waiting. So he had decided to draw his picture in pencil +outline, and then stretch the paper early on Sunday morning; it would +dry during chapel. His new box of paints, a cracked T-square, and some +india-rubber also lay on the table. + +He had chosen "View of the Cathedral of Notre-Dame Paris, from the Pont +des Arts." It pleased him by the coloration of the old houses in front +of Notre-Dame, and the reflections in the water of the Seine, and the +elusive blueness of the twin towers amid the pale grey clouds of a +Parisian sky. A romantic scene! He wanted to copy it exactly, to +recreate it from beginning to end, to feel the thrill of producing each +wonderful effect himself. Yet he sat inactive. He sat and vaguely +gazed at the slope of Trafalgar Road with its double row of yellow +jewels, beautifully ascending in fire to the ridge of the horizon and +there losing itself in the deep and solemn purple of the summer night; +and he thought how ugly and commonplace all that was, and how different +from all that were the noble capitals of Europe. Scarcely a sound came +through the open window; song doubtless still gushed forth at the +Dragon, and revellers would not for hours awake the street on their way +to the exacerbating atmosphere of home. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +He had no resolution to take up the pencil. Yet after the Male Glee +Party had sung "Loud Ocean's Roar," he remembered that he had had a most +clear and distinct impulse to begin drawing architecture at once, and to +do something grand and fine, as grand and fine as the singing, something +that would thrill people as the singing thrilled. If he had not rushed +home instantly it was solely because he had been held back by the +stronger desire to hear more music and by the hope of further novel and +exciting sensations. But Florence the clog-dancer had easily diverted +the seeming-powerful current of his mind. He wanted as much as ever to +do wondrous things, and to do them soon, but it appeared to him that he +must think out first the enigmatic subject of Florence. Never had he +seen any female creature as he saw her, and ephemeral images of her were +continually forming and dissolving before him. He could come to no +conclusion at all about the subject of Florence. Only his boyish pride +was gradually being beaten back by an oncoming idea that up to that very +evening he had been a sort of rather silly kid with no eyes in his head. + +It was in order to ignore for a time this unsettling and humiliating +idea that, finally, he began to copy the outlines of the Parisian scene +on his cartridge-paper. He was in no way a skilled draughtsman, but he +had dabbled in pencils and colours, and he had lately picked up from a +handbook the hint that in blocking out a drawing the first thing to do +was to observe what points were vertically under what points, and what +points horizontal with what points. He seemed to see the whole secret +of draughtsmanship in this priceless counsel, which, indeed, with an +elementary knowledge of geometry acquired at school, and the familiarity +of his fingers with a pencil, constituted the whole of his technical +equipment. All the rest was mere desire. Happily the architectural +nature of the subject made it more amenable than, say, a rural landscape +to the use of a T-square and common sense. And Edwin considered that he +was doing rather well until, quitting measurements and rulings, he +arrived at the stage of drawing the detail of the towers. Then at once +the dream of perfect accomplishment began to fade at the edges, and the +crust of faith to yield ominously. Each stroke was a falling-away from +the ideal, a blow to hope. + +And suddenly a yawn surprised him, and recalled him to the existence of +his body. He thought: "I can't really be tired. It would be absurd to +go to bed." For his theory had long been that the notions of parents +about bedtime were indeed absurd, and that he would be just as +thoroughly reposed after three hours sleep as after ten. And now that +he was a man he meant to practise his theory so far as circumstances +allowed. He looked at his watch. It was turned half-past eleven. A +delicious wave of joy and of satisfaction animated him. He had never +been up so late, within his recollection, save on a few occasions when +even infants were allowed to be up late. He was alone, secreted, master +of his time and his activity, his mind charged with novel impressions, +and a congenial work in progress. Alone? ... It was as if he was +spiritually alone in the vast solitude of the night. It was as if he +could behold the unconscious forms of all humanity, sleeping. This +feeling that only he had preserved consciousness and energy, that he was +the sole active possessor of the mysterious night, affected him in the +most exquisite manner. He had not been so nobly happy in his life. And +at the same time he was proud, in a childlike way, of being up so late. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +He heard the door being pushed open, and he gave a jump and turned his +head. His father stood in the entrance to the attic. + +"Hello, father!" he said weakly, ingratiatingly. + +"What art doing at this time o' night, lad?" Darius Clayhanger +demanded. + +Strange to say, the autocrat was not angered by the remarkable sight in +front of him. Edwin knew that his father would probably come home from +Manchester on the mail train, which would stop to set down a passenger +at Shawport by suitable arrangement. And he had expected that his +father would go to bed, as usual on such evenings, after having eaten +the supper left for him in the sitting-room. His father's bedroom was +next door to the sitting-room. Save for Mrs Nixon in a distant nook, +Edwin had the attic floor to himself. He ought to have been as safe +from intrusion there as in the farthest capital of Europe. His father +did not climb the attic stairs once in six months. So that he had +regarded himself as secure. Still, he must have positively forgotten +the very existence of his father; he must have been `lost,' otherwise he +could not but have heard the footsteps on the stairs. + +"I was just drawing," said Edwin, with a little more confidence. + +He looked at his father and saw an old man, a man who for him had always +been old, generally harsh, often truculent, and seldom indulgent. He +saw an ugly, undistinguished, and somewhat vulgar man (far less +dignified, for instance, than Big James); a man who had his way by force +and scarcely ever by argument; a man whose arguments for or against a +given course were simply pitiable, if not despicable. He sometimes +indeed thought that there must be a peculiar twist in his father's brain +which prevented him from appreciating an adverse point in a debate; he +had ceased to expect that his father would listen to reason. Latterly +he was always surprised when, as to-night, he caught a glance of mild +benevolence on that face; yet he would never fail to respond to such a +mood eagerly, without resentment. It might be said that he regarded his +father as he regarded the weather, fatalistically. No more than against +the weather would he have dreamed of bearing malice against his father, +even had such a plan not been unwise and dangerous. He was convinced +that his father's interest in him was about the same as the sun's +interest in him. His father was nearly always wrapped in business +affairs, and seemed to come to the trifling affairs of Edwin with +difficulty, as out of an absorbing engrossment. + +Assuredly he would have been amazed to know that his father had been +thinking of him all the afternoon and evening. But it was so. Darius +Clayhanger had been nervous as to the manner in which the boy would +acquit himself in the bit of business which had been confided to him. +It was the boy's first bit of business. Straightforward as it was, the +boy might muddle it, might omit a portion of it, might say the wrong +thing, might forget. Darius hoped for the best, but he was afraid. He +saw in his son an amiable irresponsible fool. He compared Edwin at +sixteen with himself at the same age. Edwin had never had a care, never +suffered a privation, never been forced to think for himself. (Darius +might more justly have put it--never been allowed to think for himself.) +Edwin had lived in cotton-wool, and knew less of the world than his +father had known at half his years; much less. Darius was sure that +Edwin had never even come near suspecting the miracles which his father +had accomplished: this was true, and not merely was Edwin stupendously +ignorant, and even pettily scornful, of realities, but he was ignorant +of his own ignorance. Education! ... Darius snorted. To Darius it +seemed that Edwin's education was like lying down in an orchard in +lovely summer and having ripe fruit dropped into your mouth... A cocky +infant! A girl! And yet there was something about Edwin that his +father admired, even respected and envied ... an occasional gesture, an +attitude in walking, an intonation, a smile. Edwin, his own son, had a +personal distinction that he himself could never compass. Edwin talked +more correctly than his father. He thought differently from his father. +He had an original grace. In the essence of his being he was superior +to both his father and his sisters. Sometimes when his father saw him +walking along the street, or coming into a room, or uttering some simple +phrase, or shrugging his shoulders, Darius was aware of a faint thrill. +Pride? Perhaps; but he would never have admitted it. An agreeable +perplexity rather--a state of being puzzled how he, so common, had +begotten a creature so subtly aristocratic ... aristocratic was the +word. And Edwin seemed so young, fragile, innocent, and defenceless! + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +Darius advanced into the attic. + +"What about that matter of Enoch Peake's?" he asked, hoping and fearing, +really anxious for his son. He defended himself against probable +disappointment by preparing to lapse into savage paternal pessimism and +disgust at the futility of an offspring nursed in luxury. + +"Oh! It's all right," said Edwin eagerly. "Mr Peake sent word he +couldn't come, and he wanted you to go across to the Dragon this +evening. So I went instead." It sounded dashingly capable. + +He finished the recital, and added that of course Big James had not been +able to proceed with the job. + +"And where's the proof?" demanded Darius. His relief expressed itself +in a superficial surliness; but Edwin was not deceived. As his father +gazed mechanically at the proof that Edwin produced hurriedly from his +pocket, he added with a negligent air-- + +"There was a free-and-easy on at the Dragon, father." + +"Was there?" muttered Darius. + +Edwin saw that whatever danger had existed was now over. + +"And I suppose," said Darius, with assumed grimness, "if I hadn't +happened to ha' seen a light from th' bottom o' th' attic stairs I +should never have known aught about all this here?" He indicated the +cleansed attic, the table, the lamp, and the apparatus of art. + +"Oh yes, you would, father!" Edwin reassured him. + +Darius came nearer. They were close together, Edwin twisted on the +cane-chair, and his father almost over him. The lamp smelt, and gave +off a stuffy warmth; the open window, through which came a wandering +air, was a black oblong; the triangular side walls of the dormer shut +them intimately in; the house slept. + +"What art up to?" + +The tone was benignant. Edwin had not been ordered abruptly off to bed, +with a reprimand for late hours and silly proceedings generally. He +sought the reason in vain. One reason was that Darius Clayhanger had +made a grand bargain at Manchester in the purchase of a second-hand +printing machine. + +"I'm copying this," he replied slowly, and then all the details tumbled +rashly out of his mouth, one after the other. "Oh, father! I found +this book in the shop, packed away on a top shelf, and I want to borrow +it. I only want to borrow it. And I've bought this paint-box, out of +auntie's half-sovereign. I paid Miss Ingamells the full price... I +thought I'd have a go at some of these architecture things." + +Darius glared at the copy. + +"Humph!" + +"It's only just started, you know." + +"Them prize books--have ye done all that?" + +"Yes, father." + +"And put all the prices down, as I told ye?" + +"Yes, father." + +Then a pause. Edwin's heart was beating hard. + +"I want to do some of these architecture things," he repeated. No +remark from his father. Then he said, fastening his gaze intensely on +the table: "You know, father, what I should really like to be--I should +like to be an architect." + +It was out. He had said it. + +"Should ye?" said his father, who attached no importance of any kind to +this avowal of a preference. "Well, what you want is a bit o' business +training for a start, I'm thinking." + +"Oh, of course!" Edwin concurred, with pathetic eagerness, and added a +piece of information for his father: "I'm only sixteen, aren't I?" + +"Sixteen ought to ha' been in bed this two hours and more. Off with +ye!" + +Edwin retired in an extraordinary state of relief and happiness. + + + +VOLUME ONE, CHAPTER TWELVE. + +MACHINERY. + +Rather more than a week later, Edwin had so far entered into the life of +his father's business that he could fully share the excitement caused by +an impending solemnity in the printing office. He was somewhat pleased +with himself, and especially with his seriousness. The memory of school +was slipping away from him in the most extraordinary manner. His only +school-friend, Charlie Orgreave, had departed, with all the +multitudinous Orgreaves, for a month in Wales. He might have written to +the Sunday; the Sunday might have written to him: but the idea of +writing did not occur to either of them; they were both still +sufficiently childlike to accept with fatalism all the consequences of +parental caprice. Orgreave senior had taken his family to Wales; the +boys were thus separated, and there was an end of it. Edwin regretted +this, because Orgreave senior happened to be a very successful +architect, and hence there were possibilities of getting into an +architectural atmosphere. He had never been inside the home of the +Sunday, nor the Sunday in his--a schoolboy friendship can flourish in +perfect independence of home--but he nervously hoped that on the return +of the Orgreave regiment from Wales, something favourable to his +ambitions--he knew not what--would come to pass. In the meantime he was +conscientiously doing his best to acquire a business training, as his +father had suggested. He gave himself with an enthusiasm almost +religious to the study of business methods. All the force of his +resolve to perfect himself went for the moment into this immediate +enterprise, and he was sorry that business methods were not more +complex, mysterious, and original than they seemed to be: he was also +sorry that his father did not show a greater interest in his industry +and progress. + +He no longer wanted to `play' now. He despised play. His unique wish +was to work. It struck him as curious and delightful that he really +enjoyed work. Work had indeed become play. He could not do enough work +to satisfy his appetite. And after the work of the day, scorning all +silly notions about exercise and relaxation, he would spend the evening +in his beautiful new attic, copying designs, which he would sometimes +rise early to finish. He thought he had conquered the gross body, and +that it was of no account. Even the desolating failures which his +copies invariably proved did not much discourage him; besides, one of +them had impressed both Maggie and Clara. He copied with laborious +ardour undiminished. And further, he masterfully appropriated Maggie's +ticket for the Free Library, pending the preliminaries to the possession +of a ticket of his own, to procure a volume on architecture. From +timidity, from a singular false shame, he kept this volume in the attic, +like a crime; nobody knew what the volume was. Evidence of a strange +trait in his character; a trait perhaps not defensible! He argued with +himself that having told his father plainly that he wanted to be an +architect, he need do nothing else aggressive for the present. He had +agreed to the suggestion about business training, and he must be loyal +to his agreement. He pointed out to himself how right his father was. +At sixteen one could scarcely begin to be an architect; it was too soon; +and a good business training would not be out of place in any career or +profession. + +He was so wrapped up in his days and his nights that he forgot to +inquire why earthenware was made in just the Five Towns. He had grown +too serious for trifles--and all in about a week! True, he was feeling +the temporary excitement of the printing office, which was perhaps +expressed boyishly by the printing staff; but he reckoned that his share +of it was quite adult, frowningly superior, and in a strictly business +sense justifiable and even proper. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +Darius Clayhanger's printing office was a fine example of the policy of +makeshift which governed and still governs the commercial activity of +the Five Towns. It consisted of the first floor of a nondescript +building which stood at the bottom of the irregularly shaped yard behind +the house and shop, and which formed the southern boundary of the +Clayhanger premises. The antique building had once been part of an +old-fashioned pot-works, but that must have been in the eighteenth +century. Kilns and chimneys of all ages, sizes, and tints rose behind +it to prove that this part of the town was one of the old manufacturing +quarters. The ground-floor of the building, entirely inaccessible from +Clayhanger's yard, had a separate entrance of its own in an alley that +branched off from Woodisun Bank, ran parallel to Wedgwood Street, and +stopped abruptly at the back gate of a saddler's workshop. In the +narrow entry you were like a creeping animal amid the undergrowth of a +forest of chimneys, ovens, and high blank walls. This ground-floor had +been a stable for many years; it was now, however, a baker's storeroom. +Once there had been an interior staircase leading from the ground-floor +to the first-floor, but it had been suppressed in order to save floor +space, and an exterior staircase constructed with its foot in +Clayhanger's yard. To meet the requirement of the staircase, one of the +first-floor windows had been transformed into a door. Further, as the +staircase came against one of the ground-floor windows, and as +Clayhanger's predecessor had objected to those alien windows overlooking +his yard, and as numerous windows were anyhow unnecessary to a stable, +all the ground-floor windows had been closed up with oddments of brick +and tile, giving to the wall a very variegated and chequered appearance. +Thus the ground-floor and the first-floor were absolutely divorced, the +former having its entrance and light from the public alley, the latter +from the private yard. + +The first-floor had been a printing office for over seventy years. All +the machinery in it had had to be manoeuvred up the rickety stairs, or +put through one of the windows on either side of the window that had +been turned into a door. When Darius Clayhanger, in his audacity, +decided to print by steam, many people imagined that he would at last be +compelled to rent the ground-floor or to take other premises. But no! +The elasticity of the makeshift policy was not yet fully stretched. +Darius, in consultation with a jobbing builder, came happily to the +conclusion that he could `manage,' that he could `make things do,' by +adding to the top of his stairs a little landing for an engine-shed. +This was done, and the engine and boiler perched in the air; the shaft +of the engine went through the wall; the chimney-pipe of the boiler ran +up straight to the level of the roof-ridge, and was stayed with pieces +of wire. A new chimney had also been pierced in the middle of the roof, +for the uses of a heating stove. The original chimneys had been allowed +to fall into decay. Finally, a new large skylight added interest to the +roof. In a general way, the building resembled a suit of clothes that +had been worn, during four of the seven ages of man, by an untidy +husband with a tidy and economical wife, and then given by the wife to a +poor relation of a somewhat different figure to finish. All that could +be said of it was that it survived and served. + +But these considerations occurred to nobody. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +Edwin, quite unaware that he was an instrument in the hands of his +Auntie Clara's Providence, left the shop without due excuse and passed +down the long blue-paved yard towards the printing office. He imagined +that he was being drawn thither simply by his own curiosity--a +curiosity, however, which he considered to be justifiable, and even +laudable. The yard showed signs that the unusual had lately been +happening there. Its brick pavement, in the narrow branch of it that +led to the double gates in Woodisun Bank (those gates which said to the +casual visitor, `No Admittance except on Business'), was muddy, +littered, and damaged, as though a Juggernaut had passed that way. +Ladders reclined against the walls. Moreover, one of the windows of the +office had been taken out of its frame, leaving naught but an oblong +aperture. Through this aperture Edwin could see the busy, eager forms +of his father, Big James, and Chawner. Through this aperture had been +lifted, in parts and by the employment of every possible combination of +lever and pulley, the printing machine which Darius Clayhanger had so +successfully purchased in Manchester on the day of the free-and-easy at +the Dragon. + +At the top of the flight of steps two apprentices, one nearly `out of +his time,' were ministering to the engine, which that morning did not +happen to be running. The engine, giving glory to the entire +establishment by virtue of the imposing word `steam', was a crotchety +and capricious thing, constant only in its tendency to break down. No +more reliance could be placed on it than on a pampered donkey. +Sometimes it would run, and sometimes it would not run, but nobody could +safely prophesy its moods. Of the several machines it drove but one, +the grand cylinder, the last triumph of the ingenuity of man, and even +that had to be started by hand before the engine would consent to work +it. The staff hated the engine, except during those rare hours when one +of its willing moods coincided with a pressure of business. Then, when +the steam was sputtering and the smoke smoking and the piston throbbing, +and the leathern belt travelling round and round and the complete +building a-tremble and a-clatter, and an attendant with clean hands was +feeding the sheets at one end of the machine and another attendant with +clean hands taking them off at the other, all at the rate of twenty +copies per sixty seconds--then the staff loved the engine and meditated +upon the wonders of their modern civilisation. The engine had been +known to do its five thousand in an afternoon, and its horse-power was +only one. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +Edwin could not keep out of the printing office. He went +inconspicuously and, as it were, by accident up the stone steps, and +disappeared into the interior. When you entered the office you were +first of all impressed by the multiplicity of odours competing for your +attention, the chief among them being those of ink, oil, and paraffin. +Despite the fact that the door was open and one window gone, the smell +and heat in the office on that warm morning were notable. Old sheets of +the "Manchester Examiner" had been pinned over the skylight to keep out +the sun, but, as these were torn and rent, the sun was not kept out. +Nobody, however, seemed to suffer inconvenience. After the odours, the +remarkable feature of the place was the quantity of machinery on its +uneven floor. Timid employes had occasionally suggested to Darius that +the floor might yield one day and add themselves and all the machinery +to the baker's stores below; but Darius knew that floors never did +yield. + +In the middle of the floor was a huge and heavy heating stove, whose +pipe ran straight upwards to the visible roof. The mighty cylinder +machine stood to the left hand. Behind was a small rough-and-ready +binding department with a guillotine cutting machine, a +cardboard-cutting machine, and a perforating machine, trifles by the +side of the cylinder, but still each of them formidable masses of metal +heavy enough to crush a horse; the cutting machines might have served to +illustrate the French Revolution, and the perforating machine the Holy +Inquisition. + +Then there was what was called in the office the `old machine,' a relic +of Clayhanger's predecessor, and at least eighty years old. It was one +of those machines whose worn physiognomies, full of character, show at +once that they have a history. In construction it carried solidity to +an absurd degree. Its pillars were like the piles of a pier. Once, in +a historic rat-catching, a rat had got up one of them, and a piece of +smouldering brown paper had done what a terrier could not do. The +machine at one period of its career had been enlarged, and the neat +seaming of the metal was an ecstasy to the eye of a good workman. Long +ago, it was known, this machine had printed a Reform newspaper at +Stockport. Now, after thus participating in the violent politics of an +age heroic and unhappy, it had been put to printing small posters of +auctions and tea-meetings. Its movement was double: first that of a +handle to bring the bed under the platen, and second, a lever pulled +over to make contact between the type and the paper. It still worked +perfectly. It was so solid, and it had been so honestly made, that it +could never get out of order nor wear away. And, indeed, the +conscientiousness and skill of artificers in the eighteenth century are +still, through that resistless machine, producing their effect in the +twentieth. But it needed a strong hand to bestir its smooth +plum-coloured limbs of metal, and a speed of a hundred an hour meant +gentle perspiration. The machine was loved like an animal. + +Near this honourable and lumbering survival stood pertly an Empire +treadle-machine for printing envelopes and similar trifles. It was new, +and full of natty little devices. It worked with the lightness of +something unsubstantial. A child could actuate it, and it would print +delicately a thousand envelopes an hour. This machine, with the latest +purchase, which was away at the other end of the room near the large +double-pointed case-rack, completed the tale of machines. That +case-rack alone held fifty different founts of type, and there were +other case-racks. The lead-rack was nearly as large, and beneath the +lead-rack was a rack containing all those "furnitures" which help to +hold a forme of type together without betraying themselves to the reader +of the printed sheet. And under the furniture rack was the `random,' +full of galleys. Then there was a table with a top of solid stone, upon +which the formes were bolted up. And there was the ink-slab, another +solidity, upon which the ink-rollers were inked. Rollers of various +weightiness lay about, and large heavy cans, and many bottles, and metal +galleys, and nameless fragments of metal. Everything contributed to the +impression of immense ponderosity exceeding the imagination. The fancy +of being pinned down by even the lightest of these constructions was +excruciating. You moved about in narrow alleys among upstanding, +unyielding metallic enormities, and you felt fragile and perilously +soft. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +The only unintimidating phenomena in the crowded place were the +lye-brushes, the dusty job-files that hung from the great transverse +beams, and the proof-sheets that were scattered about. These printed +things showed to what extent Darius Clayhanger's establishment was a +channel through which the life of the town had somehow to pass. +Auctions, meetings, concerts, sermons, improving lectures, miscellaneous +entertainments, programmes, catalogues, deaths, births, marriages, +specifications, municipal notices, summonses, demands, receipts, +subscription-lists, accounts, rate-forms, lists of voters, jury-lists, +inaugurations, closures, bill-heads, handbills, addresses, +visiting-cards, society rules, bargain-sales, lost and found notices: +traces of all these matters, and more, were to be found in that office; +it was impregnated with the human interest; it was dusty with the human +interest; its hot smell seemed to you to come off life itself, if the +real sentiment and love of life were sufficiently in you. A grand, +stuffy, living, seething place, with all its metallic immobility! + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +SIX. + +Edwin sidled towards the centre of interest, the new machine, which, +however, was not a new machine. Darius Clayhanger did not buy more new +things than he could help. His delight was to `pick up' articles that +were supposed to be `as good as new'; occasionally he would even assert +that an object bought second-hand was `better than new,' because it had +been `broken in,' as if it were a horse. Nevertheless, the latest +machine was, for a printing machine, nearly new: its age was four years +only. It was a Demy Columbian Press, similar in conception and movement +to the historic `old machine' that had been through the Reform +agitation; but how much lighter, how much handier, how much more +ingenious and precise in the detail of its working! A beautiful +edifice, as it stood there, gazed on admiringly by the expert eyes of +Darius, in his shirt-sleeves, Big James, in his royally flowing apron, +and Chawner, the journeyman compositor, who, with the two apprentices +outside, completed the staff! Aided by no mechanic more skilled than a +day-labourer, those men had got the machine piecemeal into the office, +and had duly erected it. At that day a foreman had to be equal to +anything. + +The machine appeared so majestic there, so solid and immovable, that it +might ever have existed where it then was. Who could credit that, less +than a fortnight earlier, it had stood equally majestic, solid, and +immovable in Manchester? There remained nothing to show how the miracle +had been accomplished, except a bandage of ropes round the lower pillars +and some pulley-tackle hanging from one of the transverse beams exactly +overhead. The situation of the machine in the workshop had been fixed +partly by that beam above and partly by the run of the beams that +supported the floor. The stout roof-beam enabled the artificers to +handle the great masses by means of the tackle; and as for the +floor-beams, Darius had so far listened to warnings as to take them into +account. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +SEVEN. + +"Take another impress, James," said Darius. And when he saw Edwin, +instead of asking the youth what he was wasting his time there for, he +good-humouredly added: "Just watch this, my lad." Darius was pleased +with himself, his men, and his acquisition. He was in one of his moods +when he could charm; he was jolly, and he held up his chin. Two days +before, so interested had he been in the Demy Columbian, he had actually +gone through a bilious attack while scarcely noticing it! And now the +whole complex operation had been brought to a triumphant conclusion. + +Big James inserted the sheet of paper, with gentle and fine movements. +The journeyman turned the handle, and the bed of the machine slid +horizontally forward in frictionless, stately silence. And then Big +James seized the lever with his hairy arm bared to the elbow, and pulled +it over. The delicate process was done with minute and level +exactitude; adjusted to the thirty-second of an inch, the great masses +of metal had brought the paper and the type together and separated them +again. In another moment Big James drew out the sheet, and the three +men inspected it, each leaning over it. A perfect impression! + +"Well," said Darius, glowing, "we've had a bit o' luck in getting that +up! Never had less trouble! Shows we can do better without those +Foundry chaps than with 'em! James, ye can have a quart brought in, if +ye'n a mind, but I won't have them apprentices drinking! No, I won't! +Mrs Nixon'll give 'em some nettle-beer if they fancy it." + +He was benignant. The inauguration of a new machine deserved solemn +recognition, especially on a hot day. It was an event. + +"An infant in arms could turn this here," murmured the journeyman, +toying with the handle that moved the bed. It was an exaggeration, but +an excusable, poetical exaggeration. + +Big James wiped his wrists on his apron. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +EIGHT. + +Then there was a queer sound of cracking somewhere, vague, faint, and +yet formidable. Darius was standing between the machines and the +dismantled window, his back to the latter. Big James and the journeyman +rushed instinctively from the centre of the floor towards him. In a +second the journeyman was on the window sill. + +"What art doing?" Darius demanded roughly; but there was no sincerity +in his voice. + +"Th' floor!" the journeyman excitedly exclaimed. + +Big James stood close to the wall. + +"And what about th' floor?" Darius challenged him obstinately. + +"One o' them beams is a-going," stammered the journeyman. + +"Rubbish!" shouted Darius. But simultaneously he motioned to Edwin to +move from the middle of the room, and Edwin obeyed. All four listened, +with nerves stretched to the tightest. Darius was biting his lower lip +with his upper teeth. His humour had swiftly changed to the savage. +Every warning that had been uttered for years past concerning that floor +was remembered with startling distinctness. Every impatient reassurance +offered by Darius for years past suddenly seemed fatuous and perverse. +How could any man in his senses expect the old floor to withstand such a +terrific strain as that to which Darius had at last dared to subject it? +The floor ought by rights to have given way years ago! His men ought +to have declined to obey instructions that were obviously insane. These +and similar thoughts visited the minds of Big James and the journeyman. + +As for Edwin, his excitement was, on balance, pleasurable. In truth, he +could not kill in his mind the hope that the floor would yield. The +greatness of the resulting catastrophe fascinated him. He knew that he +should be disappointed if the catastrophe did not occur. That it would +mean ruinous damage to the extent of hundreds of pounds, and enormous +worry, did not influence him. His reason did not influence him, nor his +personal danger. He saw a large hook in the wall to which he could +cling when the exquisite crash came, and pictured a welter of broken +machinery and timber ten feet below him, and the immense pother that the +affair would create in the town. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +NINE. + +Darius would not loose his belief in his floor. He hugged it in mute +fury. He would not climb on to the window sill, nor tell Big James to +do so, nor even Edwin. On the subject of the floor he was religious; he +was above the appeal of the intelligence. He had always held +passionately that the floor was immovable, and he always would. He had +finally convinced himself of its omnipotent strength by the long process +of assertion and reassertion. When a voice within him murmured that his +belief in the floor had no scientific basis, he strangled the voice. So +he remained, motionless, between the window and the machine. + +No sound! No slightest sound! No tremor of the machine! But Darius's +breathing could be heard after a moment. + +He guffawed sneeringly. + +"And what next?" he defiantly asked, scowling. "What's amiss wi' ye +all?" He put his hands in his pockets. "Dun ye mean to tell me as--" + +The younger apprentice entered from the engine-shed. + +"Get back there!" rolled and thundered the voice of Big James. It was +the first word he had spoken, and he did not speak it in frantic, +hysteric command, but with a terrible and convincing mildness. The +phrase fell on the apprentice like a sandbag, and he vanished. + +Darius said nothing. There was another cracking sound, louder, and +unmistakably beneath the bed of the machine. And at the same instant a +flake of grimy plaster detached itself from the opposite wall and +dropped into pale dust on the floor. And still Darius religiously did +not move, and Big James would not move. They might have been under a +spell. The journeyman jumped down incautiously into the yard. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TEN. + +And then Edwin, hardly knowing what he did, and certainly not knowing +why he did it, walked quickly out on to the floor, seized the huge hook +attached to the lower pulley of the tackle that hung from the roof-beam, +pulled up the slack of the rope-bandage on the hind part of the machine, +and stuck the hook into it, then walked quickly back. The hauling-rope +of the tackle had been carried to the iron ring of a trap-door in the +corner near Big James; this trap-door, once the outlet of the interior +staircase from the ground floor, had been nailed down many years +previously. Big James dropped to his knees and tightened and knotted +the rope. Another and much louder noise of cracking followed, the floor +visibly yielded, and the hindpart of the machine visibly sank about a +quarter of an inch. But no more. The tackle held. The strain was +distributed between the beam above and the beam below, and equilibrium +established. + +"Out! Lad! Out!" cried Darius feebly, in the wreck, not of his +workshop, but of his religion. And Edwin fled down the steps, pushing +the mystified apprentices before him, and followed by the men. In the +yard the journeyman, entirely self-centred, was hopping about on one leg +and cursing. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +ELEVEN. + +Darius, Big James, and Edwin stared in the morning sunshine at the +aperture of the window and listened. + +"Nay!" said Big James, after an eternity. "He's saved it! He's saved +th' old shop! But by gum--by gum--" + +Darius turned to Edwin, and tried to say something; and then Edwin saw +his father's face working into monstrous angular shapes, and saw the +tears spurt out of his eyes, and was clutched convulsively in his +father's shirt-sleeved arms. He was very proud, very pleased, but he +did not like this embrace; it made him feel ashamed. He thought how +Clara would have sniggered about it and caricatured it afterwards, had +she witnessed it. And although he had incontestably done something +which was very wonderful and very heroic, and which proved in him the +most extraordinary presence of mind, he could not honestly glorify +himself in his own heart, because it appeared to him that he had acted +exactly like an automaton. He blankly marvelled, and thought the +situation agreeably thrilling, if somewhat awkward. His father let him +go. Then all Edwin's feelings gave place to an immense stupefaction at +his father's truly remarkable behaviour. What! His father emotional! +He had to begin to revise again his settled views. + + + +VOLUME ONE, CHAPTER THIRTEEN. + +ONE RESULT OF COURAGE. + +By the next morning a certain tranquillity was restored. + +It was only in this relative calm that the Clayhanger family and its +dependants began to realise the intensity of the experience through +which they had passed, and, in particular, the strain of waiting for +events after the printing office had been abandoned by its denizens. The +rumour of what had happened, and of what might have happened, had spread +about the premises in an instant, and in another instant all the women +had collected in the yard; even Miss Ingamells had betrayed the sacred +charge of the shop. Ten people were in the yard, staring at the window +aperture on the first-floor and listening for ruin. Some time had +elapsed before Darius would allow anybody even to mount the steps. Then +the baker, the tenant of the ground-floor, had had to be fetched. A +pleasant, bland man, he had consented in advance to every suggestion; he +had practically made Darius a present of the ground-floor, if Darius +possessed the courage to go into it, or to send others into it. The seat +of deliberation had then been transferred to the alley behind. And the +jobbing builder and carpenters had been fetched, and there was a palaver +of tremendous length and solemnity. For hours nothing definite seemed +to happen; no one ate or drank, and the current of life at the corner of +Trafalgar Road and Wedgwood Street ceased to flow. Boys and men who had +heard of the affair, and who had the divine gift of curiosity, gazed in +rapture at the `No Admittance' notice on the ramshackle double gates in +Woodisun Bank. It seemed that they might never be rewarded, but their +great faith was justified when a hand-cart, bearing several beams three +yards long, halted at the gates and was, after a pause, laboriously +pushed past them and round the corner into the alley and up the alley. +The alley had been crammed to witness the taking of the beams into the +baker's storeroom. If the floor above had decided to yield, the noble, +negligent carpenters would have been crushed beneath tons of machinery. +At length a forest of pillars stood planted on the ground-floor amid the +baker's lumber; every beam was duly supported, and the experts +pronounced that calamity was now inconceivable. Lastly, the tackle on +the Demy Columbian had been loosed, and the machine, slightly askew, +permitted gently to sink to full rest on the floor: and the result +justified the experts. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +By this time people had started to eat, but informally, as it were +apologetically--Passover meals. Evening was at hand. The Clayhangers, +later, had met at table. A strange repast! A strange father! The +children had difficulty in speaking naturally. And then Mrs Hamps had +come, ebulliently thanking God, and conveying the fact that the town was +thrilled and standing utterly amazed in admiration before her heroical +nephew. And yet she had said ardently that she was in no way amazed at +her nephew's coolness; she would have been surprised if he had shown +himself even one degree less cool. From a long study of his character +she had foreknown infallibly that in such a crisis as had supervened he +would behave precisely as he had behaved. This attitude of Auntie +Hamps, however, though it reduced the miraculous to the +ordinary-expected, did not diminish Clara's ingenuous awe of Edwin. +From a mocker, the child had been temporarily transformed into an +unwilling hero-worshipper. Mrs Hamps having departed, all the family, +including Darius, had retired earlier than usual. + +And now, on meeting his father and Big James and Miss Ingamells in the +queer peace of the morning, in the relaxation after tension, and in the +complete realisation of the occurrence, Edwin perceived from the +demeanour of all that, by an instinctive action extending over perhaps +five seconds of time, he had procured for himself a wondrous and +apparently permanent respect. Miss Ingamells, when he went vaguely into +the freshly watered shop before breakfast, greeted him in a new tone, +and with startling deference asked him what he thought she had better do +in regard to the addressing of a certain parcel. Edwin considered this +odd; he considered it illogical; and one consequence of Miss Ingamells's +quite sincere attitude was that he despised Miss Ingamells for a moral +weakling. He knew that he himself was a moral weakling, but he was sure +that he could never bend, never crouch, to such a posture as Miss +Ingamells's; that she was obviously sincere only increased his secret +scorn. + +But his father resembled Miss Ingamells. Edwin had not dreamt that +mankind, and especially his father, was characterised by such +simplicity. And yet, on reflection, had he not always found in his +father a peculiar ingenuousness, which he could not but look down upon? +His father, whom he met crossing the yard, spoke to him almost as he +might have spoken to a junior partner. It was more than odd; it was +against nature, as Edwin had conceived nature. + +He was so superior and lofty, yet without intending it, that he made no +attempt to put himself in his father's place. He, in the exciting +moments between the first cracking sound and the second, had had a +vision of wrecked machinery and timber in an abyss at his feet. His +father had had a vision far more realistic and terrifying. His father +had seen the whole course of his printing business brought to a +standstill, and all his savings dragged out of him to pay for +reconstruction and for new machinery. His father had seen loss of life +which might be accounted to his negligence. His father had seen, with +that pessimism which may overtake anybody in a crisis, the ruin of a +career, the final frustration of his lifelong daring and obstinacy, and +the end of everything. And then he had seen his son suddenly walk forth +and save the frightful situation. He had always looked down upon that +son as helpless, coddled, incapable of initiative or of boldness. He +believed himself to be a highly remarkable man, and existence had taught +him that remarkable men seldom or never have remarkable sons. Again and +again had he noted the tendency of remarkable men to beget gaping and +idle fools. Nevertheless, he had intensely desired to be able to be +proud of his son. He had intensely desired to be able, when +acquaintances should be sincerely enthusiastic about the merits of his +son, to pretend, insincerely and with pride only half concealed, that +his son was quite an ordinary youth. + +Now his desire had been fulfilled; it had been more than fulfilled. The +town would chatter about Edwin's presence of mind for a week. Edwin's +act would become historic; it already was historic. And not only was +the act in itself wonderful and admirable and epoch-making; but it +proved that Edwin, despite his blondness, his finickingness, his +hesitations, had grit. That was the point: the lad had grit; there was +material in the lad of which much could be made. Add to this, the +father's mere instinctive gratitude--a gratitude of such unguessed depth +that it had prevented him even from being ashamed of having publicly and +impulsively embraced his son on the previous morning. + +Edwin, in his unconscious egoism, ignored all that. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +"I've just seen Barlow," said Darius confidentially to Edwin. Barlow +was the baker. "He's been here afore his rounds. He's willing to +sublet me his storeroom--so that'll be all right! Eh?" + +"Yes," said Edwin, seeing that his approval was being sought for. + +"We must fix that machine plumb again." + +"I suppose the floor's as firm as rocks now?" Edwin suggested. + +"Eh! Bless ye! Yes!" said his father, with a trace of kindly +impatience. + +The policy of makeshift was to continue. The floor having been stayed +with oak, the easiest thing and the least immediately expensive thing +was to leave matters as they were. When the baker's stores were cleared +from his warehouse, Darius could use the spaces between the pillars for +lumber of his own; and he could either knock an entrance-way through the +wall in the yard, or he could open the nailed-down trap door and patch +the ancient stairway within; or he could do nothing--it would only mean +walking out into Woodisun Bank and up the alley each time he wanted +access to his lumber! + +And yet, after the second cracking sound on the previous day, he had +been ready to vow to rent an entirely new and common-sense printing +office somewhere else--if only he should be saved from disaster that +once! But he had not quite vowed. And, in any case, a vow to oneself +is not a vow to the Virgin. He had escaped from a danger, and the +recurrence of the particular danger was impossible. Why then commit +follies of prudence, when the existing arrangement of things `would do'? + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +That afternoon Darius Clayhanger, with his most mysterious air of +business, told Edwin to follow him into the shop. Several hours of +miscellaneous consultative pottering had passed between Darius and his +compositors round and about the new printing machine, which was once +more plumb and ready for action. For considerably over a week Edwin had +been on his father's general staff without any definite task or +occupation having been assigned to him. His father had been too +excitedly preoccupied with the arrival and erection of the machine to +bestow due thought upon the activities proper to Edwin in the complex +dailiness of the business. Now he meant at any rate to begin to put the +boy into a suitable niche. The boy had deserved at least that. + +At the desk he opened before him the daily and weekly newspaper-book, +and explained its system. + +"Let's take the `British Mechanic,'" he said. + +And he turned to the page where the title `British Mechanic' was written +in red ink. Underneath that title were written the names and addresses +of fifteen subscribers to the paper. To the right of the names were +thirteen columns, representing a quarter of the year. With his +customary laboriousness, Darius described the entire process of +distribution. The parcel of papers arrived and was counted, and the +name of a subscriber scribbled in an abbreviated form on each copy. +Some copies had to be delivered by the errand boy; these were handed to +the errand boy, and a tick made against each subscriber in the column +for the week: other copies were called for by the subscriber, and as +each of these was taken away, similarly a tick had to be made against +the name of its subscriber. Some copies were paid for in cash in the +shop, some were paid in cash to the office boy, some were paid for +monthly, some were paid for quarterly, and some, as Darius said grimly, +were never paid for at all. No matter what the method of paying, when a +copy was paid for, or thirteen copies were paid for, a crossing tick had +to be made in the book for each copy. Thus, for a single quarter of +"British Mechanic" nearly two hundred ticks and nearly two hundred +crossing ticks had to be made in the book, if the work was properly +done. However, it was never properly done--Miss Ingamells being short +of leisure and the errand boy utterly unreliable--and Darius wanted it +properly done. The total gross profit on a quarter of "British +Mechanics" was less than five shillings, and no customers were more +exigent and cantankerous than those who bought one pennyworth of goods +per week, and had them delivered free, and received three months' +credit. Still, that could not be helped. A printer and stationer was +compelled by usage to supply papers; and besides, paper subscribers +served a purpose as a nucleus of general business. + +As with the "British Mechanics," so with seventeen other weeklies. The +daily papers were fewer, but the accountancy they caused was even more +elaborate. For monthly magazines there was a separate book with a +separate system; here the sums involved were vaster, ranging as high as +half a crown. + +Darius led Edwin with patient minuteness through the whole labyrinth. + +"Now," he said, "you're going to have sole charge of all this." + +And he said it benevolently, in the conviction that he was awarding a +deserved recompense, with the mien of one who was giving dominion to a +faithful steward over ten cities. + +"Just look into it carefully yerself, lad," he said at last, and left +Edwin with a mixed parcel of journals upon which to practise. + +Before Edwin's eyes flickered hundreds of names, thousands of figures, +and tens of thousands of ticks. His heart protested; it protested with +loathing. The prospect stretching far in front of him made him feel +sick. But something weak and good-natured in him forced him to smile, +and to simulate a subdued ecstasy at receiving this overwhelming proof +of his father's confidence in him. As for Darius, Darius was delighted +with himself and with his son, and he felt that he was behaving as a +benignant father should. Edwin had proved his grit, proved that he had +that uncommunicable quality, `character,' and had well deserved +encouragement. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +The next morning, in the printing office, Edwin came upon Big James +giving a lesson in composing to the younger apprentice, who in theory +had `learned his cases.' Big James held the composing stick in his +great left hand, like a match-box, and with his great right thumb and +index picked letter after letter from the case, very slowly in order to +display the movement, and dropped them into the stick. In his mild, +resonant tones he explained that each letter must be picked up +unfalteringly in a particular way, so that it would drop face upward +into the stick without any intermediate manipulation. And he explained +also that the left hand must be held so that the right hand would have +to travel to and fro as little as possible. He was revealing the basic +mysteries of his craft, and was happy, making the while the broad series +of stock pleasantries which have probably been current in composing +rooms since printing was invented. Then he was silent, working more and +more quickly, till his right hand could scarcely be followed in its +twinklings, and the face of the apprentice duly spread in marvel, When +the line was finished he drew out the rule, clapped it down on the top +of the last row of letters, and gave the composing stick to the +apprentice to essay. + +The apprentice began to compose with his feet, his shoulders, his mouth, +his eyebrows--with all his body except his hands, which nevertheless +travelled spaciously far and wide. + +"It's not in seven year, nor in seventy, as you'll learn, young son of a +gun!" said Big James. + +And, having unsettled the youth to his foundations with a bland thwack +across the head, he resumed the composing stick and began again the +exposition of the unique smooth movement which is the root of rapid +type-setting. + +"Here!" said Big James, when the apprentice had behaved worse than ever. +"Us'll ask Mr Edwin to have a go. Us'll see what _he_'ll do." + +And Edwin, sheepish, had to comply. He was in pride bound to surpass +the apprentice, and did so. + +"There!" said Big James. "What did I tell ye?" He seemed to imply a +prophecy that, because Edwin had saved the printing office from +destruction two days previously, he would necessarily prove to be a born +compositor. + +The apprentice deferentially sniggered, and Edwin smiled modestly and +awkwardly and departed without having accomplished what he had come to +do. + +By his own act of cool, nonchalant, unconsidered courage in a crisis, he +had, it seemed, definitely proved himself to possess a special aptitude +in all branches of the business of printer and stationer. Everybody +assumed it. Everybody was pleased. Everybody saw that Providence had +been kind to Darius and to his son. The fathers of the town, and the +mothers, who liked Edwin's complexion and fair hair, told each other +that not every parent was so fortunate as Mr Clayhanger, and what a +blessing it was that the old breed was not after all dying out in those +newfangled days. Edwin could not escape from the universal assumption. +He felt it round him as a net which somehow he had to cut. + + + +VOLUME ONE, CHAPTER FOURTEEN. + +THE ARCHITECT. + +One morning Edwin was busy in the shop with his own private minion, the +paper boy, who went in awe of him. But this was not the same Edwin, +though people who could only judge by features, and by the length of +trousers and sleeves on legs and arms, might have thought that it was +the same Edwin enlarged and corrected. Half a year had passed. The +month was February, cold. Mr Enoch Peake had not merely married Mrs +Louisa Loggerheads, but had died of an apoplexy, leaving behind him +Cocknage Gardens, a widow, and his name painted in large letters over +the word `Loggerheads' on the lintel of the Dragon. The steam-printer +had done the funeral cards, and had gone to the burial of his hopes of +business in that quarter. Many funeral cards had come out of the same +printing office during the winter, including that of Mr Udall, the +great marble-player. It seemed uncanny to Edwin that a marble-player +whom he had actually seen playing marbles should do anything so solemn +as expire. However, Edwin had perfectly lost all interest in marbles; +only once in six months had he thought of them, and that once through a +funeral card. Also he was growing used to funeral cards. He would +enter an order for funeral cards as nonchalantly as an order for +butterscotch labels. But it was not deaths and the spectacle of life as +seen from the shop that had made another Edwin of him. + +What had changed him was the slow daily influence of a large number of +trifling habitual duties none of which fully strained his faculties, and +the monotony of them, and the constant watchful conventionality of his +deportment with customers. He was still a youth, very youthful, but you +had to keep an eye open for his youthfulness if you wished to find it +beneath the little man that he had been transformed into. He now took +his watch out of his pocket with an absent gesture and look exactly like +his father's; and his tones would be a reflection of those of the last +important full-sized man with whom he had happened to have been in +contact. And though he had not developed into a dandy (finance +forbidding), he kept his hair unnaturally straight, and amiably grumbled +to Maggie about his collars every fortnight or so. Yes, another Edwin! +Yet it must not be assumed that he was growing in discontent, either +chronic or acute. On the contrary, the malady of discontent troubled +him less and less. + +To the paper boy he was a real man. The paper boy accepted him with +unreserved fatalism, as Edwin accepted his father. Thus the boy stood +passive while Edwin brought business to a standstill by privately +perusing the "Manchester Examiner." It was Saturday morning, the +morning on which the "Examiner" published its renowned Literary +Supplement. All the children read eagerly the Literary Supplement; but +Edwin, in virtue of his office, got it first. On the first and second +pages was the serial story, by George MacDonald, W. Clark Russell, or +Mrs Lynn Linton; then followed readable extracts from new books, and on +the fourth page were selected jokes from "Punch." Edwin somehow always +began with the jokes, and in so doing was rather ashamed of his levity. +He would skim the jokes, glance at the titles of the new books, and look +at the dialogue parts of the serial, while business and the boy waited. +There was no hurry then, even though the year had reached 1873 and +people were saying that they would soon be at the middle of the +seventies; even though the Licensing Act had come into force and +publicans were predicting the end of the world. Morning papers were not +delivered till ten, eleven, or twelve o'clock in Bursley, and on +Saturdays, owing to Edwin's laudable interest in the best periodical +literature, they were apt to be delivered later than usual. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +On this particular morning Edwin was disturbed in his studies by a +greater than the paper boy, a greater even than his father. Mr Osmond +Orgreave came stamping his cold feet into the shop, the floor of which +was still a little damp from the watering that preceded its sweeping. +Mr Orgreave, though as far as Edwin knew he had never been in the shop +before, went straight to the coke-stove, bent his knees, and began to +warm his hands. In this position he opened an interview with Edwin, who +dropped the Literary Supplement. Miss Ingamells was momentarily absent. + +"Father in?" + +"No, sir." + +Edwin did not say where his father was, because he had received general +instructions never to `volunteer information' on that point. + +"Where is he?" + +"He's out, sir." + +"Oh! Well! Has he left any instructions about those specifications for +the Shawport Board School?" + +"No, sir. I'm afraid he hasn't. But I can ask in the printing office." + +Mr Orgreave approached the counter, smiling. His face was angular, +rather stout, and harsh, with a grey moustache and a short grey beard, +and yet his demeanour and his voice had a jocular, youthful quality. +And this was not the only contradiction about him. His clothes were +extremely elegant and nice in detail--the whiteness of his linen would +have struck the most casual observer--but he seemed to be perfectly +oblivious of his clothes, indeed, to show carelessness concerning them. +His finger-nails were marvellously tended. But he scribbled in pencil +on his cuff, and apparently was not offended by a grey mark on his hand +due to touching the top of the stove. The idea in Edwin's head was that +Mr Orgreave must put on a new suit of clothes once a week, and new +linen every day, and take a bath about once an hour. The man had no +ceremoniousness. Thus, though he had never previously spoken to Edwin, +he made no preliminary pretence of not being sure who Edwin was; he +chatted with him as though they were old friends and had parted only the +day before; he also chatted with him as though they were equals in age, +eminence, and wealth. A strange man! + +"Now look here!" he said, as the conversation proceeded, "those +specifications are at the Sytch Chapel. If you could come along with me +now--I mean _now_--I could give them to you and point out one or two +things to you, and perhaps Big James could make a start on them this +morning. You see it's urgent." + +So he was familiar with Big James. + +"Certainly," said Edwin, excited. + +And when he had curtly told the paper boy to do portions of the +newspaper job which he had always held the paper boy was absolutely +incapable of doing, he sent the boy to find Miss Ingamells, informed her +where he was going, and followed Mr Orgreave out of the shop. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +"Of course you know Charlie's at school in France," said Mr Orgreave, +as they passed along Wedgwood Street in the direction of Saint Luke's +Square. He was really very companionable. + +"Er--yes!" Edwin replied, nervously explosive, and buttoning up his +tight overcoat with an important business air. + +"At least it isn't a school--it's a university. Besancon, you know. +They take university students much younger there. Oh! He has a rare +time--a rare time. Never writes to you, I suppose?" + +"No." Edwin gave a short laugh. + +Mr Orgreave laughed aloud. "And he wouldn't to us either, if his +mother didn't make a fuss about it. But when he does write, we gather +there's no place like Besancon." + +"It must be splendid," Edwin said thoughtfully. + +"You and he were great chums, weren't you? I know we used to hear about +you every day. His mother used to say that we had Clayhanger with every +meal." Mr Orgreave again laughed heartily. + +Edwin blushed. He was quite startled, and immensely flattered. What on +earth could the Sunday have found to tell them every day about _him_? He, +Edwin Clayhanger, a subject of conversation in the household of the +Orgreaves, that mysterious household which he had never entered but +which he had always pictured to himself as being so finely superior! +Less than a year ago Charlie Orgreave had been `the Sunday,' had been +`old Perish-in-the-attempt,' and now he was a student in Besancon +University, unapproachable, extraordinarily romantic; and he, Edwin, +remained in his father's shop! He had been aware that Charlie had gone +to Besancon University, but he had not realised it effectively till this +moment. The realisation blew discontent into a flame, which fed on the +further perception that evidently the Orgreave family were a gay, jolly +crowd of cronies together, not in the least like parents and children; +their home life must be something fundamentally different from his. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +When they had crossed the windy space of Saint Luke's Square and reached +the top of the Sytch Bank, Mr Orgreave stopped an instant in front of +the Sytch Pottery, and pointed to a large window at the south end that +was in process of being boarded up. + +"At last!" he murmured with disgust. Then he said: "That's the most +beautiful window in Bursley, and perhaps in the Five Towns; and you see +what's happening to it." + +Edwin had never heard the word `beautiful' uttered in quite that tone, +except by women, such as Auntie Hamps, about a baby or a valentine or a +sermon. But Mr Orgreave was not a woman; he was a man of the world, he +was almost _the_ man of the world; and the subject of his adjective was a +window! + +"Why are they boarding it up, Mr Orgreave?" Edwin asked. + +"Oh! Ancient lights! Ancient lights!" + +Edwin began to snigger. He thought for an instant that Mr Orgreave was +being jocular over his head, for he could only connect the phrase +`ancient lights' with the meaner organs of a dead animal, exposed, for +example, in tripe shops. However, he saw his ineptitude almost +simultaneously with the commission of it, and smothered the snigger in +becoming gravity. It was clear that he had something to learn in the +phraseology employed by architects. + +"I should think," said Mr Orgreave, "I should think they've been at law +about that window for thirty years, if not more. Well, it's over now, +seemingly." He gazed at the disappearing window. "What a shame!" + +"It is," said Edwin politely. + +Mr Orgreave crossed the road and then stood still to gaze at the facade +of the Sytch Pottery. It was a long two-storey building, purest +Georgian, of red brick with very elaborate stone facings which +contrasted admirably with the austere simplicity of the walls. The +porch was lofty, with a majestic flight of steps narrowing to the doors. +The ironwork of the basement railings was unusually rich and +impressive. + +"Ever seen another pot-works like that?" demanded Mr Orgreave, +enthusiastically musing. + +"No," said Edwin. Now that the question was put to him, he never _had_ +seen another pot-works like that. + +"There are one or two pretty fine works in the Five Towns," said Mr +Orgreave. "But there's nothing elsewhere to touch this. I nearly +always stop and look at it if I'm passing. Just look at the pointing! +The pointing alone--" + +Edwin had to readjust his ideas. It had never occurred to him to search +for anything fine in Bursley. The fact was, he had never opened his +eyes at Bursley. Dozens of times he must have passed the Sytch Pottery, +and yet not noticed, not suspected, that it differed from any other +pot-works: he who dreamed of being an architect! + +"You don't think much of it?" said Mr Orgreave, moving on. "People +don't." + +"Oh yes! I _do_!" Edwin protested, and with such an air of eager +sincerity that Mr Orgreave turned to glance at him. And in truth he +did think that the Sytch Pottery was beautiful. He never would have +thought so but for the accident of the walk with Mr Orgreave; he might +have spent his whole life in the town, and never troubled himself a +moment about the Sytch Pottery. Nevertheless he now, by an act of sheer +faith, suddenly, miraculously and genuinely regarded it as an +exquisitely beautiful edifice, on a plane with the edifices of the +capitals of Europe, and as a feast for discerning eyes. "I like +architecture very much," he added. And this too was said with such +feverish conviction that Mr Orgreave was quite moved. + +"I must show you my new Sytch Chapel," said Mr Orgreave gaily. + +"Oh! I should like you to show it me," said Edwin. + +But he was exceedingly perturbed by misgivings. Here was he wanting to +be an architect, and he had never observed the Sytch Pottery! Surely +that was an absolute proof that he had no vocation for architecture! +And yet now he did most passionately admire the Sytch Pottery. And he +was proud to be sharing the admiration of the fine, joyous, superior, +luxurious, companionable man, Mr Orgreave. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +They went down the Sytch Bank to the new chapel of which Mr Orgreave, +though a churchman, was the architect, in that vague quarter of the +world between Bursley and Turnhill. The roof was not on; the +scaffolding was extraordinarily interesting and confusing; they bent +their heads to pass under low portals; Edwin had the delicious smell of +new mortar; they stumbled through sand, mud, cinders and little pools; +they climbed a ladder and stepped over a large block of dressed stone, +and Mr Orgreave said-- + +"This is the gallery we're in, here. You see the scheme of the place +now... That hole--only a flue. Now you see what that arch carries-- +they didn't like it in the plans because they thought it might be +mistaken for a church--" + +Edwin was receptive. + +"Of course it's a very small affair, but it'll cost less per sitting +than any other chapel in your circuit, and I fancy it'll look less like +a box of bricks." Mr Orgreave subtly smiled, and Edwin tried to equal +his subtlety. "I must show you the elevation some other time--a bit +later. What I've been after in it, is to keep it in character with the +street... Hi! Dan, there!" Now, Mr Orgreave was calling across the +hollow of the chapel to a fat man in corduroys. "Have you remembered +about those blue bricks?" + +Perhaps the most captivating phenomenon of all was a little lean-to shed +with a real door evidently taken from somewhere else, and a little +stove, and a table and a chair. Here Mr Orgreave had a confabulation +with the corduroyed man, who was the builder, and they pored over +immense sheets of coloured plans that lay on the table, and Mr Orgreave +made marks and even sketches on the plans, and the fat man objected to +his instructions, and Mr Orgreave insisted, "Yes, _yes_!" And it seemed +to Edwin as though the building of the chapel stood still while Mr +Orgreave cogitated and explained; it seemed to Edwin that he was in the +creating-chamber. The atmosphere of the shed was inexpressibly romantic +to him. After the fat man had gone Mr Orgreave took a clothes-brush +off a plank that had been roughly nailed on two brackets to the wall, +and brushed Edwin's clothes, and Edwin brushed Mr Orgreave, and then +Mr Orgreave, having run his hand through the brush, lightly brushed his +hair with it. All this was part of Edwin's joy. + +"Yes," he said, "I think the idea of that arch is splendid." + +"You do?" said Mr Orgreave quite simply and ingenuously pleased and +interested. "You see--with the lie of the ground as it is--" + +That was another point that Edwin ought to have thought of by himself-- +the lie of the ground--but he had not thought of it. Mr Orgreave went +on talking. In the shop he had conveyed the idea that he was +tremendously pressed for time; now he had apparently forgotten time. + +"I'm afraid I shall have to be off," said Edwin timidly. And he made a +preliminary movement as if to depart. + +"And what about those specifications, young man?" asked Mr Orgreave, +drily twinkling. He unlocked a drawer in the rickety table. Edwin had +forgotten the specifications as successfully as Mr Orgreave had +forgotten time. Throughout the remainder of the day he smelt imaginary +mortar. + + + +VOLUME ONE, CHAPTER FIFTEEN. + +A DECISION. + +The next day being the day of rest, Mrs Nixon arose from her nook at +5:30 a.m. and woke Edwin. She did this from good-nature, and because +she could refuse him nothing, and not under any sort of compulsion. +Edwin got up at the first call, though he was in no way remarkable for +his triumphs over the pillow. Twenty-five minutes later he was crossing +Trafalgar Road and entering the school-yard of the Wesleyan Chapel. And +from various quarters of the town, other young men, of ages varying from +sixteen to fifty, were converging upon the same point. Black night +still reigned above the lamplights that flickered in the wind which +precedes the dawn, and the mud was frozen. Not merely had these young +men to be afoot and abroad, but they had to be ceremoniously dressed. +They could not issue forth in flannels and sweater, with a towel round +the neck, as for a morning plunge in the river. The day was Sunday, +though Sunday had not dawned, and the plunge was into the river of +intellectual life. Moreover, they were bound by conscience to be +prompt. To have arrived late, even five minutes late, would have spoilt +the whole effect. It had to be six o'clock or nothing. + +The Young Men's Debating Society was a newly formed branch of the +multifarous activity of the Wesleyan Methodist Chapel. It met on Sunday +because Sunday was the only day that would suit everybody; and at six in +the morning for two reasons. The obvious reason was that at any other +hour its meetings would clash either with other activities or with the +solemnity of Sabbath meals. This obvious reason could not have stood by +itself; it was secretly supported by the recondite reason that the +preposterous hour of 6 a.m. appealed powerfully to something youthful, +perverse, silly, fanatical, and fine in the youths. They discovered the +ascetic's joy in robbing themselves of sleep and in catching chills, and +in disturbing households and chapel-keepers. They thought it was a +great thing to be discussing intellectual topics at an hour when a town +that ignorantly scorned intellectuality was snoring in all its heavy +brutishness. And it was a great thing. They considered themselves the +salt of the earth, or of that part of the earth. And I have an idea +that they were. + +Edwin had joined this Society partly because he did not possess the art +of refusing, partly because the notion of it appealed spectacularly to +the martyr in him, and partly because it gave him an excuse for ceasing +to attend the afternoon Sunday school, which he loathed. Without such +an excuse he could never have told his father that he meant to give up +Sunday school. He could never have dared to do so. His father had what +Edwin deemed to be a superstitious and hypocritical regard for the +Sunday school. Darius never went near the Sunday school, and assuredly +in business and in home life he did not practise the precepts inculcated +at the Sunday school, and yet he always spoke of the Sunday school with +what was to Edwin a ridiculous reverence. Another of those problems in +his father's character which Edwin gave up in disgust! + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +The Society met in a small classroom. The secretary, arch ascetic, +arrived at 5:45 and lit the fire which the chapel-keeper (a man with no +enthusiasm whatever for flagellation, the hairshirt, or intellectuality) +had laid but would not get up to light. The chairman of the Society, a +little Welshman named Llewelyn Roberts, aged fifty, but a youth because +a bachelor, sat on a chair at one side of the incipient fire, and some +dozen members sat round the room on forms. A single gas jet flamed from +the ceiling. Everybody wore his overcoat, and within the collars of +overcoats could be seen glimpses of rich neckties; the hats, some +glossy, dotted the hat-rack which ran along two walls. A hymn was sung, +and then all knelt, some spreading handkerchiefs on the dusty floor to +protect fine trousers, and the chairman invoked the blessing of God on +their discussions. The proper mental and emotional atmosphere was now +established. The secretary read the minutes of the last meeting, while +the chairman surreptitiously poked the fire with a piece of wood from +the lower works of a chair, and then the chairman, as he signed the +minutes with a pen dipped in an excise ink-bottle that stood on the +narrow mantelpiece, said in his dry voice-- + +"I call upon our young friend, Mr Edwin Clayhanger, to open the debate, +`Is Bishop Colenso, considered as a Biblical commentator, a force for +good?'" + +"I'm a damned fool!" said Edwin to himself savagely, as he stood on his +feet. But to look at his wistful and nervously smiling face, no one +would have guessed that he was thus blasphemously swearing in the +privacy of his own brain. + +He had been entrapped into the situation in which he found himself. It +was not until after he had joined the Society that he had learnt of a +rule which made it compulsory for every member to speak at every meeting +attended, and for every member to open a debate at least once in a year. +And this was not all; the use of notes while the orator was `up' was +absolutely forbidden. A drastic Society! It had commended itself to +elders by claiming to be a nursery for ready speakers. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +Edwin had chosen the subject of Bishop Colenso--the ultimate wording of +the resolution was not his--because he had been reading about the +intellectually adventurous Bishop in the "Manchester Examiner." And, +although eleven years had passed since the publication of the first part +of "The Pentateuch and the Book of Joshua Critically Examined," the +Colenso question was only just filtering down to the thinking classes of +the Five Towns; it was an actuality in the Five Towns, if in abeyance in +London. Even Hugh Miller's "The Old Red Sandstone, or New Walks in an +Old Field," then over thirty years old, was still being looked upon as +dangerously original in the Five Towns in 1873. However, the effect of +its disturbing geological evidence that the earth could scarcely have +been begun and finished in a little under a week, was happily nullified +by the suicide of its author; that pistol-shot had been a striking proof +of the literal inspiration of the Bible. + +Bishop Colenso had, in Edwin, an ingenuous admirer. Edwin stammeringly +and hesitatingly gave a preliminary sketch of his life; how he had been +censured by Convocation and deposed from his See by his Metropolitan; +how the Privy Council had decided that the deposition was null and void; +how the ecclesiastical authorities had then circumvented the Privy +Council by refusing to pay his salary to the Bishop (which Edwin +considered mean); how the Bishop had circumvented the ecclesiastical +authorities by appealing to the Master of the Rolls, who ordered the +ecclesiastical authorities to pay him his arrears of income with +interest thereon, unless they were ready to bring him to trial for +heresy; how the said authorities would not bring him to trial for heresy +(which Edwin considered to be miserable cowardice on their part); how +the Bishop had then been publicly excommunicated, without authority; and +how his friends, among whom were some very respectable and powerful +people, had made him a present of over three thousand pounds. After +this graphic historical survey, Edwin proceeded to the Pentateuchal +puzzles, and, without pronouncing an opinion thereon, argued that any +commentator who was both learned and sincere must be a force for good, +as the Bible had nothing to fear from honest inquiry, etcetera, +etcetera. Five-sixths of his speech was coloured by phrases and modes +of thought which he had picked up in the Wesleyan community, and the +other sixth belonged to himself. The speech was moderately bad, but not +inferior to many other speeches. It was received in absolute silence. +This rather surprised Edwin, because the tone in which the leading +members of the Society usually spoke to him indicated that (for reasons +which he knew not) they regarded him as a very superior intellect +indeed; and Edwin was not entirely ashamed of the quality of his speech; +in fact, he had feared worse from himself, especially as, since his walk +with Mr Orgreave, he had been quite unable to concentrate his thoughts +on Bishop Colenso at all, and had been exceedingly unhappy and +apprehensive concerning an affair that bore no kind of relation to the +Pentateuch. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +The chairman began to speak at once. His function was to call upon the +speakers in the order arranged, and to sum up before putting the +resolution to the vote. But now he produced surprisingly a speech of +his own. He reminded the meeting that in 1860 Bishop Colenso had +memorialised the Archbishop of Canterbury against compelling natives who +had already more than one wife to renounce polygamy as a condition to +baptism in the Christian religion; he stated that, though there were +young men present who were almost infants in arms at that period, he for +his part could well remember all the episode, and in particular Bishop +Colenso's amazing allegation that he could find no disapproval of +polygamy either in the Bible or in the writings of the Ancient Church. +He also pointed out that in 1861 Bishop Colenso had argued against the +doctrine of Eternal Punishment. He warned the meeting to beware of +youthful indiscretions. Every one there assembled of course meant well, +and believed what it was a duty to believe, but at the same time... + +"I shall write father a letter!" said Edwin to himself. The idea came +to him in a flash like a divine succour; and it seemed to solve all his +difficulties--difficulties unconnected with the subject of debate. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +The chairman went on crossing t's and dotting i's. And soon even Edwin +perceived that the chairman was diplomatically and tactfully, yet very +firmly, bent upon saving the meeting from any possibility of +scandalising itself and the Wesleyan community. Bishop Colenso must not +be approved beneath those roofs. Evidently Edwin had been more +persuasive than he dreamt of; and daring beyond precedent. He had meant +to carry his resolution if he could, whereas, it appeared, he ought to +have meant to be defeated, in the true interests of revealed religion. +The chairman kept referring to his young friend the proposer's brilliant +brains, and to the grave danger that lurked in brilliant brains, and the +inability of brilliant brains to atone for lack of experience. The +meeting had its cue. Young man after young man arose to snub Bishop +Colenso, to hope charitably that Bishop Colenso was sincere, and to +insist that no Bishop Colenso should lead _him_ to the awful abyss of +polygamy, and that no Bishop Colenso should deprive _him_ of that unique +incentive to righteousness--the doctrine of an everlasting burning hell. +Moses was put on his legs again as a serious historian, and the subject +of the resolution utterly lost to view. The Chairman then remarked that +his impartial role forbade him to support either side, and the voting +showed fourteen against one. They all sang the Doxology, and the +Chairman pronounced a benediction. The fourteen forgave the one, as one +who knew not what he did; but their demeanour rather too patently showed +that they were forgiving under difficulty; and that it would be as well +that this kind of youthful temerariousness was not practised too often. +Edwin, in the language of the district, was `sneaped.' Wondering what +on earth he after all _had_ said to raise such an alarm, he nevertheless +did not feel resentful, only very depressed--about the debate and about +other things. He knew in his heart that for him attendance at the +meetings of the Young Men's Debating Society was ridiculous. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +SIX. + +He allowed all the rest to precede him from the room. When he was alone +he smiled sheepishly, and also disdainfully; he knew that the chasm +between himself and the others was a real chasm, and not a figment of +his childish diffidence, as he had sometimes suspected it to be. Then +he turned the gas out. A beautiful faint silver surged through the +window. While the debate was in progress, the sun had been going about +its business of the dawn, unperceived. + +"I shall write a letter!" he kept saying to himself. "He'll never let +me explain myself properly if I start talking. I shall write a letter. +I can write a very good letter, and he'll be bound to take notice of it. +He'll never be able to get over my letter." + +In the school-yard daylight reigned. The debaters had already +disappeared. Trafalgar Road and Duck Bank were empty and silent under +rosy clouds. Instead of going straight home Edwin went past the Town +Hall and through the Market Place to the Sytch Pottery. Astounding that +he had never noticed for himself how beautiful the building was! It was +a simply lovely building! + +"Yes," he said, "I shall write him a letter, and this very day, too! +May I be hung, drawn, and quartered if he doesn't have to read my letter +to-morrow morning!" + + + +VOLUME ONE, CHAPTER SIXTEEN. + +THE LETTER. + +Then there was roast goose for dinner, and Clara amused herself by +making silly facetious faces, furtively, dangerously, under her father's +very eyes. The children feared goose for their father, whose digestion +was usually unequal to this particular bird. Like many fathers of +families in the Five Towns, he had the habit of going forth on Saturday +mornings to the butcher's or the poulterer's and buying Sunday's dinner. +He was a fairly good judge of a joint, but Maggie considered herself to +be his superior in this respect. However, Darius was not prepared to +learn from Maggie, and his purchases had to be accepted without +criticism. At a given meal Darius would never admit that anything +chosen and bought by him was not perfect; but a week afterwards, if the +fact was so, he would of his own accord recall imperfections in that +which he had asserted to be perfect; and he would do this without any +shame, without any apparent sense of inconsistency or weakness. Edwin +noticed a similar trait in other grown-up persons, and it astonished +him. It astonished him especially in his father, who, despite the +faults and vulgarities which his fastidious son could find in him, +always impressed Edwin as a strong man, a man with the heroic quality of +not caring too much what other people thought. + +When Edwin saw his father take a second plateful of goose, with the +deadly stuffing thereof--Darius simply could not resist it, like most +dyspeptics he was somewhat greedy--he foresaw an indisposed and perilous +father for the morrow. Which prevision was supported by Clara's +pantomimic antics, and even by Maggie's grave and restrained sigh. +Still, he had sworn to write and send the letter, and he should do so. +A career, a lifetime, was not to be at the mercy of a bilious attack, +surely! Such a notion offended logic and proportion, and he scorned it +away. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +The meal proceeded in silence. Darius, as in duty bound, mentioned the +sermon, but neither Clara nor Edwin would have anything to do with the +sermon, and Maggie had not been to chapel. Clara and Edwin felt +themselves free of piety till six o'clock at least, and they doggedly +would not respond. And Darius from prudence did not insist, for he had +arrived at chapel unthinkably late--during the second chant--and Clara +was capable of audacious remarks upon occasions. The silence grew +stolid. + +And Edwin wondered what the dinner-table of the Orgreaves was like. And +he could smell fresh mortar. And he dreamed of a romantic life--he knew +not what kind of life, but something different fundamentally from his +own. He suddenly understood, understood with sympathy, the impulse +which had made boys run away to sea. He could feel the open sea; he +could feel the breath of freedom on his cheek. + +He said to himself-- + +"Why shouldn't I break this ghastly silence by telling father out loud +here that he mustn't forget what I told him that night in the attic? +I'm going to be an architect. I'm not going to be any blooming printer. +I'm going to be an architect. Why haven't I mentioned it before? Why +haven't I talked about it all the time? Because I am an ass! Because +there is no word for what I am! Damn it! I suppose I'm the person to +choose what I'm going to be! I suppose it's my business more than his. +Besides, he can't possibly refuse me. If I say flatly that I won't be a +printer--he's done. This idea of writing a letter is just like me! +Coward! Coward! What's my tongue for? Can't I talk? Isn't he bound +to listen? All I have to do is to open my mouth. He's sitting there. +I'm sitting here. He can't eat me. I'm in my rights. Now suppose I +start on it as soon as Mrs Nixon has brought the pudding and pie in?" + +And he waited anxiously to see whether he indeed would be able to make a +start after the departure of Mrs Nixon. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +Hopeless! He could not bring himself to do it. It was strange! It was +disgusting! ... No, he would be compelled to write the letter. +Besides, the letter would be more effective. His father could not +interrupt a letter by some loud illogical remark. Thus he salved his +self-conceit. He also sought relief in reflecting savagely upon the +speeches that had been made against him in the debate. He went through +them all in his mind. There was the slimy idiot from Baines's (it was +in such terms that his thoughts ran) who gloried in never having read a +word of Colenso, and called the assembled company to witness that +nothing should ever induce him to read such a godless author, going +about in the mask of a so-called Bishop. But had any of them read +Colenso, except possibly Llewellyn Roberts, who in his Welsh way would +pretend ignorance and then come out with a quotation and refer you to +the exact page? Edwin himself had read very little of Colenso--and that +little only because a customer had ordered the second part of the +"Pentateuch" and he had stolen it for a night. Colenso was not in the +Free Library... What a world! What a debate! Still, he could not help +dwelling with pleasure on Mr Roberts's insistence on the brilliant +quality of his brains. Astute as Mr Roberts was, the man was clearly +in awe of Edwin's brains! Why? To be honest, Edwin had never been +deeply struck by his own brain power. And yet there must be something +in it! + +"Of course," he reflected sardonically, "father doesn't show the +faintest interest in the debate. Yet he knew all about it, and that I +had to open it." But he was glad that his father showed no interest in +the debate. Clara had mentioned it in the presence of Maggie, with her +usual ironic intent, and Edwin had quickly shut her up. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +In the afternoon, the sitting-room being made uninhabitable by his +father's goose-ridden dozes, he went out for a walk; the weather was +cold and fine. When he returned his father also had gone out; the two +girls were lolling in the sitting-room. An immense fire, built up by +Darius, was just ripe for the beginning of decay, and the room very +warm. Clara was at the window, Maggie in Darius's chair reading a novel +of Charlotte M. Yonge's. On the table, open, was a bound volume of "The +Family Treasury of Sunday Reading," in which Clara had been perusing +"The Chronicles of the Schonberg-Cotta Family" with feverish interest. +Edwin had laughed at her ingenuous absorption in the adventures of the +Schonberg-Cotta family, but the fact was that he had found them rather +interesting, in spite of himself, while pretending the contrary. There +was an atmosphere of high obstinate effort and heroical foreign-ness +about the story which stimulated something secret in him that seldom +responded to the provocation of a book; more easily would this secret +something respond to a calm evening or a distant prospect, or the +silence of early morning when by chance he looked out of his window. + +The volume of "The Family Treasury," though five years old, was a recent +acquisition. It had come into the house through the total disappearance +of a customer who had left the loose numbers to be bound in 1869. Edwin +dropped sideways on to a chair at the table, spread out his feet to the +right, pitched his left elbow a long distance to the left, and, his head +resting on his left hand, turned over the pages with his right hand +idly. His eye caught titles such as: "The Door was Shut," "My Mother's +Voice," "The Heather Mother," "The Only Treasure," "Religion and +Business," "Hope to the End," "The Child of our Sunday School," "Satan's +Devices," and "Studies of Christian Life and Character, Hannah More." +Then he saw an article about some architecture in Rome, and he read: "In +the Sistine picture there is the struggle of a great mind to reduce +within the possibilities of art a subject that transcends it. That mind +would have shown itself to be greater, truer, at least, in its judgement +of the capabilities of art, and more reverent to have let it alone." +The seriousness of the whole magazine intimidated him into accepting +this pronouncement for a moment, though his brief studies in various +encyclopaedias had led him to believe that the Sistine Chapel (shown in +an illustration in Cazenove) was high beyond any human criticism. His +elbow slid on the surface of the table, and in recovering himself he +sent "The Family Treasury" on the floor, wrong side up, with a great +noise. Maggie did not move. Clara turned and protested sharply against +this sacrilege, and Edwin, out of mere caprice, informed her that her +precious magazine was the most stinking silly `pi' [pious] thing that +ever was. With haughty and shocked gestures she gathered up the volume +and took it out of the room. + +"I say, Mag," Edwin muttered, still leaning his head on his hand, and +staring blankly at the wall. + +The fire dropped a little in the grate. + +"What is it?" asked Maggie, without stirring or looking up. + +"Has father said anything to you about me wanting to be an architect?" +He spoke with an affectation of dreaminess. + +"About you wanting to be an architect?" repeated Maggie in surprise. + +"Yes," said Edwin. He knew perfectly well that his father would never +have spoken to Maggie on such a subject. But he wanted to open a +conversation. + +"No fear!" said Maggie. And added in her kindest, most encouraging, +elder-sisterly tone: "Why?" + +"Oh!" He hesitated, drawling, and then he told her a great deal of what +was in his mind. And she carefully put the wool-marker in her book and +shut it, and listened to him. And the fire dropped and dropped, +comfortably. She did not understand him; obviously she thought his +desire to be an architect exceedingly odd; but she sympathised. Her +attitude was soothing and fortifying. After all (he reflected) Maggie's +all right--there's some sense in Maggie. He could `get on' with Maggie. +For a few moments he was happy and hopeful. + +"I thought I'd write him a letter," he said. "You know how he is to +talk to." + +There was a pause. + +"What d'ye think?" he questioned. + +"I should," said Maggie. + +"Then I shall!" he exclaimed. "How d'ye think he'll take it?" + +"Well," said Maggie, "I don't see how he can do aught but take it all +right... Depends how you put it, of course." + +"Oh, you leave that to me!" said Edwin, with eager confidence. "I shall +put it all right. You trust me for that!" + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +Clara danced into the room, flowing over with infantile joy. She had +been listening to part of the conversation behind the door. + +"So he wants to be an architect! Arch-i-tect! Arch-i-tect!" She +half-sang the word in a frenzy of ridicule. She really did dance, and +waved her arms. Her eyes glittered, as if in rapture. These singular +manifestations of her temperament were caused solely by the strangeness +of the idea of Edwin wanting to be an architect. The strange sight of +him with his hair cut short or in a new neck-tie affected her in a +similar manner. + +"Clara, go and put your pinafore on this _instant_!" said Maggie. "You +know you oughtn't to leave it off." + +"You needn't be so hoity-toity, miss," Clara retorted. But she moved to +obey. When she reached the door she turned again and gleefully taunted +Edwin. "And it's all because he went for a walk yesterday with Mr +Orgreave! I know! I know! You needn't think I didn't see you, because +I did! Arch-i-tect! Arch-i-tect!" + +She vanished, on all her springs, spitefully graceful. + +"You might almost think that infernal kid was right bang off her head," +Edwin muttered crossly. (Still, it was extraordinary how that infernal +kid hit on the truth.) + +Maggie began to mend the fire. + +"Oh, well!" murmured Maggie, conveying to Edwin that no importance must +be attached to the chit's chittishness. + +He went up to the next flight of stairs to his attic. Dust on the table +of his work-attic! Shameful dust! He had not used that attic since +Christmas, on the miserable plea that winter was cold and there was no +fireplace! He blamed himself for his effeminacy. Where had flown his +seriousness, his elaborate plans, his high purposes? A touch of winter +had frightened them away. Yes, he blamed himself mercilessly. True it +was--as that infernal kid had chanted--a casual half-hour with Mr +Orgreave was alone responsible for his awakening--at any rate, for his +awakening at this particular moment. Still, he was awake--that was the +great fact. He was tremendously awake. He had not been asleep; he had +only been half-asleep. His intention of becoming an architect had never +left him. But, through weakness before his father, through a cowardly +desire to avoid disturbance and postpone a crisis, he had let the weeks +slide by. Now he was in a groove, in a canyon. He had to get out, and +the sooner the better. + +A piece of paper, soiled, was pinned on his drawing-board; one or two +sketches lay about. He turned the drawing-board over, so that he might +use it for a desk on which to write the letter. But he had no habit of +writing letters. In the attic was to be found neither ink, pen, paper, +nor envelope. He remembered a broken quire of sermon paper in his +bedroom; he had used a few sheets of it for notes on Bishop Colenso. +These notes had been written in the privacy and warmth of bed, in +pencil. But the letter must be done in ink; the letter was too +important for pencil; assuredly his father would take exception to +pencil. He descended to his sister's room and borrowed Maggie's ink and +a pen, and took an envelope, tripping like a thief. Then he sat down to +the composition of the letter; but he was obliged to stop almost +immediately in order to light the lamp. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +SIX. + +This is what he wrote: + +"Dear Father,--I dare say you will think it queer me writing you a +letter like this, but it is the best thing I can do, and I hope you will +excuse me. I dare say you will remember I told you that night when you +came home late from Manchester here in the attic that I wanted to be an +architect. You replied that what I wanted was business experience. If +you say that I have not had enough business experience yet, I agree to +that, but I want it to be understood that later on, when it is the +proper time, I am to be an architect. You know I am very fond of +architecture, and I feel that I must be an architect. I feel I shall +not be happy in the printing business because I want to be an architect. +I am now nearly seventeen. Perhaps it is too soon yet for me to be +apprenticed to an architect, and so I can go on learning business +habits. But I just want it to be understood. I am quite sure you wish +me to be happy in life, and I shan't be happy if I am always regretting +that I have not gone in for being an architect. I know I shall like +architecture.--Your affectionate son, Edwin Clayhanger." + +Then, as an afterthought, he put the date and his address at the top. +He meditated a postscript asking for a reply, but decided that this was +unnecessary. As he was addressing the envelope Mrs Nixon called out to +him from below to come to tea. He was surprised to find that he had +spent over an hour on the letter. He shivered and sneezed. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +SEVEN. + +During tea he felt himself absurdly self-conscious, but nobody seemed to +notice his condition. The whole family went to chapel. The letter lay +in his pocket, and he might easily have slipped away to the post-office +with it, but he had had no opportunity to possess himself of a stamp. +There was no need to send the letter through the post. He might get up +early and put it among the morning's letters. He had decided, however, +that it must arrive formally by the postman, and he would not alter his +decision. Hence, after chapel, he took a match, and, creeping into the +shop, procured a crimson stamp from his father's desk. Then he went +forth, by the back way, alone into the streets. The adventure was not +so hazardous as it seemed and as it felt. Darius was incurious by +nature, though he had brief fevers of curiosity. Thus the life of the +children was a demoralising mixture of rigid discipline and freedom. +They were permitted nothing, but, as the years passed, they might take +nearly anything. There was small chance of Darius discovering his son's +excursion. + +In crossing the road from chapel Edwin had opined to his father that the +frost was breaking. He was now sure of it. The mud, no longer brittle, +yielded to pressure, and there was a trace of dampness in the +interstices of the pavement bricks. A thin raw mist was visible in huge +spheres round the street lamps. The sky was dark. The few people whom +he encountered seemed to be out upon mysterious errands, seemed to +emerge strangely from one gloom and strangely to vanish into another. +In the blind, black facades of the streets the public-houses blazed +invitingly with gas; they alone were alive in the weekly death of the +town; and they gleamed everywhere, at every corner; the town appeared to +consist chiefly of public-houses. He dropped the letter into the box in +the market-place; he heard it fall. His heart beat. The deed was now +irrevocable. He wondered what Monday held for him. The quiescent +melancholy of the town invaded his spirit, and mingled with his own +remorseful sorrow for the unstrenuous past, and his apprehensive +solicitude about the future. It was not unpleasant, this brooding +sadness, half-despondency and half-hope. A man and a woman, arm-in-arm, +went by him as he stood unconscious of his conspicuousness under the +gas-lamp that lit the post-office. They laughed the smothered laugh of +intimacy to see a tall boy standing alone there, with no overcoat, +gazing at naught. Edwin turned to go home. It occurred to him that +nearly all the people he met were couples, arm-in-arm. And he suddenly +thought of Florence, the clog-dancer. He had scarcely thought of her +for months. The complexity of the interests of life, and the +interweaving of its moods, fatigued his mind into an agreeably grave +vacuity. + + + +VOLUME ONE, CHAPTER SEVENTEEN. + +END OF A STRUGGLE. + +It was not one of his official bilious attacks that Darius had on the +following day; he only yielded himself up in the complete grand manner +when nature absolutely compelled. The goose had not formally beaten +him, but neither had he formally beaten the goose. The battle was +drawn, and this meant that Darius had a slight headache, a feeling of +heavy disgust with the entire polity of the universe, and a +disinclination for food. The first and third symptoms he hid as far as +possible, from pride: at breakfast he toyed with bacon, from pride, +hating bacon. The children knew from his eyes and his guilty gestures +that he was not well, but they dared not refer to his condition; they +were bound to pretend that the health of their father flourished in the +highest perfection. And they were glad that things were no worse. + +On the other hand Edwin had a sneezing cold which he could not conceal, +and Darius inimically inquired what foolishness he had committed to have +brought this on himself. Edwin replied that he knew of no cause for it. +A deliberate lie! He knew that he had contracted a chill while writing +a letter to his father in an unwarmed attic, and had intensified the +chill by going forth to post the letter without his overcoat in a raw +evening mist. Obviously, however, he could not have stated the truth. +He was uncomfortable at the breakfast-table, but, after the first few +moments, less so than during the disturbed night he had feared to be. +His father had neither eaten him, nor jumped down his throat, nor +performed any of those unpleasant miraculous feats which fathers usually +do perform when infuriated by filial foolishness. The letter therefore +had not been utterly disastrous; sometimes a letter would ruin a +breakfast, for Mr Clayhanger, with no consideration for the success of +meals, always opened his post before bite or sup. He had had the +letter, and still he was ready to talk to his son in the ordinary grim +tone of a goose-morrow. Which was to the good. Edwin was now convinced +that he had done well to write the letter. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +But as the day passed, Edwin began to ask himself: "Has he had the +letter?" There was no sign of the letter in his father's demeanour, +which, while not such as to make it credible that he ever had moods of +positive gay roguishness, was almost tolerable, considering his headache +and his nausea. Letters occasionally were lost in the post, or delayed. +Edwin thought it would be just his usual bad luck if that particular +letter, that letter of all letters, should be lost. And the strange +thing is that he could not prevent himself from hoping that it indeed +was lost. He would prefer it to be lost rather than delayed. He felt +that if the postman brought it by the afternoon delivery while he and +his father were in the shop together, he should drop down dead. The day +continued to pass, and did pass. And the shop was closed. "He'll speak +to me after supper," said Edwin. But Darius did not speak to him after +supper. Darius put on his hat and overcoat and went out, saying no word +except to advise the children to be getting to bed, all of them. + +As soon as he was gone Edwin took a candle and returned to the shop. He +was convinced now that the letter had not been delivered, but he wished +to make conviction sure. He opened the desk. His letter was nearly the +first document he saw. It looked affrighting, awful. He dared not read +it, to see whether its wording was fortunate or unfortunate. He +departed, mystified. Upstairs in his bedroom he had a new copy of an +English translation of Victor Hugo's "Notre Dame," which had been +ordered by Lawyer Lawton, but would not be called for till the following +week, because Lawyer Lawton only called once a fortnight. He had meant +to read that book, with due precautions, in bed. But he could not fix +attention on it. Impossible for him to follow a single paragraph. He +extinguished the candle. Then he heard his father come home. He +thought that he scarcely slept all night. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +The next morning, Tuesday, the girls, between whom and their whispering +friend Miss Ingamells something feminine was evidently afoot, left the +breakfast-table sooner than usual, not without stifled giggles: upon +occasion Maggie would surprisingly meet Clara and Miss Ingamells on +their own plane; since Sunday afternoon she had shown no further +interest in Edwin's important crisis; she seemed, so far as he could +judge, to have fallen back into her customary state of busy apathy. + +The man and the young man were alone together. Darius, in his +satisfaction at having been delivered so easily from the goose, had +taken an extra slice of bacon. Edwin's cold was now fully developed; +and Maggie had told him to feed it. + +"I suppose you got that letter I wrote you, father, about me going in +for architecture," said Edwin. Then he blew his nose to hide his +confusion. He was rather startled to hear himself saying those bold +words. He thought that he was quite calm and in control of his +impulses; but it was not so; his nerves were stretched to the utmost. + +Darius said nothing. But Edwin could see his face darkening, and his +lower lip heavily falling. He glowered, though not at Edwin. With eyes +fixed on the window he glowered into vacancy. The pride went out of +Edwin's heart. + +"So ye'd leave the printing?" muttered Darius, when he had finished +masticating. He spoke in a menacing voice thick with ferocious emotion. + +"Well--" said Edwin, quaking. + +He thought he had never seen his father so ominously intimidating. He +was terrorised as he looked at that ugly and dark countenance. He could +not say any more. His voice left him. Thus his fear was physical as +well as moral. He reflected: "Well, I expected a row, but I didn't +expect it would be as bad as this!" And once more he was completely +puzzled and baffled by the enigma of his father. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +He did not hold the key, and even had he held it he was too young, too +inexperienced, to have used it. As with gathering passion the eyes of +Darius assaulted the window-pane, Darius had a painful intense vision of +that miracle, his own career. Edwin's grand misfortune was that he was +blind to the miracle. Edwin had never seen the little boy in the +Bastille. But Darius saw him always, the infant who had begun life at a +rope's-end. Every hour of Darius's present existence was really an +astounding marvel to Darius. He could not read the newspaper without +thinking how wonderful it was that he should be able to read the +newspaper. And it was wonderful! It was wonderful that he had three +different suits of clothes, none of them with a single hole. It was +wonderful that he had three children, all with complete outfits of good +clothes. It was wonderful that he never had to think twice about buying +coal, and that he could have more food than he needed. It was wonderful +that he was not living in a two-roomed cottage. He never came into his +house by the side entrance without feeling proud that the door gave on +to a preliminary passage and not direct into a living-room; he would +never lose the idea that a lobby, however narrow, was the great +distinguishing mark of wealth. It was wonderful that he had a piano, +and that his girls could play it and could sing. It was wonderful that +he had paid twenty-eight shillings a term for his son's schooling, in +addition to book-money. Twenty-eight shillings a term! And once a +penny a week was considered enough, and twopence generous! Through +sheer splendid wilful pride he had kept his son at school till the lad +was sixteen, going on seventeen! Seventeen, not seven! He had had the +sort of pride in his son that a man may have in an idle, elegant, and +absurdly expensive woman. It even tickled him to hear his son called +`Master Edwin,' and then `Mister Edwin'; just as the fine ceremonious +manners of his sister-in-law Mrs Hamps tickled him. His marriage! +With all its inevitable disillusions it had been wonderful, incredible. +He looked back on it as a miracle. For he had married far above him, +and had proved equal to the enormously difficult situation. Never had +he made a fool of himself. He often took keen pleasure in speculating +upon the demeanour of his father, his mother, his little sister, could +they have seen him in his purple and in his grandeur. They were all +dead. And those days were fading, fading, gone, with their unutterable, +intolerable shame and sadness, intolerable even in memory. And his wife +dead too! All that remained was Mr Shushions. + +And then his business? Darius's pride in the achievement of his +business was simply indescribable. If he had not built up that +particular connexion he had built up another one whose sale had enabled +him to buy it. And he was waxing yearly. His supremacy as a printer +could not be challenged in Bursley. Steam! A double-windowed shop! A +foreman to whom alone he paid thirty shillings a week! Four other +employees! (Not to mention a domestic servant.) ... How had he done +it? He did not know. Certainly he did not credit himself with +brilliant faculties. He knew he was not brilliant; he knew that once or +twice he had had luck. But he had the greatest confidence in his +rough-hewing common sense. The large curves of his career were +correctly drawn. His common sense, his slow shrewdness, had been richly +justified by events. They had been pitted against foes--and look now at +the little boy from the Bastille! + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +To Darius there was no business quite like his own. He admitted that +there were businesses much bigger, but they lacked the miraculous +quality that his own had. They were not sacred. His was, genuinely. +Once, in his triumphant and vain early manhood he had had a fancy for +bulldogs; he had bred bulldogs; and one day he had sacrificed even that +great delight at the call of his business; and now no one could guess +that he knew the difference between a setter and a mastiff! + +It was this sacred business (perpetually adored at the secret altar in +Darius's heart), this miraculous business, and not another, that Edwin +wanted to abandon, with scarcely a word; just casually! + +True, Edwin had told him one night that he would like to be an +architect. But Darius had attached no importance to the boyish remark. +Darius had never even dreamed that Edwin would not go into the business. +It would not have occurred to him to conceive such a possibility. And +the boy had shown great aptitude. The boy had saved the printing office +from disaster. And Darius had proved his satisfaction therein, not by +words certainly, but beyond mistaking in his general demeanour towards +Edwin. And after all that, a letter--mind you, a letter!--proposing +with the most damnable insolent audacity that he should be an architect, +because he would not be `happy' in the printing business! ... An +architect! Why an architect, specially? What in the name of God was +there to attract in bricks and mortar? He thought the boy had gone off +his head for a space. He could not think of any other explanation. He +had not allowed the letter to upset him. By his armour of thick +callousness, he had protected the tender places in his soul from being +wounded. He had not decided how to phrase his answer to Edwin. He had +not even decided whether he would say anything at all, whether it would +not be more dignified and impressive to make no remark whatever to +Edwin, to let him slowly perceive, by silence, what a lamentable error +he had committed. + +And here was the boy lightly, cheekily, talking at breakfast about +`going in for architecture'! The armour of callousness was pierced. +Darius felt the full force of the letter; and as he suffered, so he +became terrible and tyrannic in his suffering. He meant to save his +business, to put his business before anything. And he would have his +own way. He would impose his will. And he would have treated argument +as a final insult. All the heavy, obstinate, relentless force of his +individuality was now channelled in one tremendous instinct. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +SIX. + +"Well, what?" he growled savagely, as Edwin halted. + +In spite of his advanced age Edwin began to cry. Yes, the tears came +out of his eyes. + +"And now you begin blubbing!" said his father. + +"You say naught for six months--and then you start writing letters!" +said his father. + +"And what's made ye settle on architecting, I'd like to be knowing?" +Darius went on. + +Edwin was not able to answer this question. He had never put it to +himself. Assuredly he could not, at the pistol's point, explain _why_ he +wanted to be an architect. He did not know. He announced this truth +ingenuously-- + +"I don't know--I--" + +"I sh'd think not!" said his father. "D'ye think architecting'll be any +better than this?" `This' meant printing. + +"I don't know--" + +"Ye don't know! Ye don't know!" Darius repeated testily. His +testiness was only like foam on the great wave of his resentment. + +"Mr Orgreave--" Edwin began. It was unfortunate, because Darius had +had a difficulty with Mr Orgreave, who was notoriously somewhat +exacting in the matter of prices. + +"Don't talk to me about Mester Orgreave!" Darius almost shouted. + +Edwin didn't. He said to himself: "I am lost." + +"What's this business o' mine for, if it isna' for you?" asked his +father. "Architecting! There's neither sense nor reason in it! +Neither sense nor reason!" + +He rose and walked out. Edwin was now sobbing. In a moment his father +returned, and stood in the doorway. + +"Ye've been doing well, I'll say that, and I've shown it! I was +beginning to have hopes of ye!" It was a great deal to say. + +He departed. + +"Perhaps if I hadn't stopped his damned old machine from going through +the floor, he'd have let me off!" Edwin muttered bitterly. "I've been +too good, that's what's the matter with me!" + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +SEVEN. + +He saw how fantastic was the whole structure of his hopes. He wondered +that he had ever conceived it even wildly possible that his father would +consent to architecture as a career! To ask it was to ask absurdly too +much of fate. He demolished, with a violent and resentful impulse, the +structure of his hopes; stamped on it angrily. He was beaten. What +could he do? He could do nothing against his father. He could no more +change his father than the course of a river. He was beaten. He saw +his case in its true light. + +Mrs Nixon entered to clear the table. He turned away to hide his face, +and strode passionately off. Two hours elapsed before he appeared in +the shop. Nobody asked for him, but Mrs Nixon knew he was in the +attic. At noon, Maggie, with a peculiar look, told him that Auntie +Hamps had called and that he was to go and have dinner with her at one +o'clock, and that his father consented. Obviously, Maggie knew the +facts of the day. He was perturbed at the prospect of the visit. But +he was glad; he thought he could not have lived through a dinner at the +same table as Clara. He guessed that his auntie had been made aware of +the situation and wished to talk to him. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +EIGHT. + +"Your father came to see me in such a state last night!" said Auntie +Hamps, after she had dealt with his frightful cold. + +Edwin was astonished by the news. Then after all his father had been +afraid! ... After all perhaps he had yielded too soon! If he had held +out... If he had not been a baby! ... But it was too late. The +incident was now closed. + +Mrs Hamps was kind, but unusually firm in her tone; which reached a +sort of benevolent severity. + +"Your father had such high hopes of you. _Has_--I should say. He +couldn't imagine what on earth possessed you to write such a letter. +And I'm sure I can't. I hope you're sorry. If you'd seen your father +last night you would be, I'm sure." + +"But look here, auntie," Edwin defended himself, sneezing and wiping his +nose; and he spoke of his desire. Surely he was entitled to ask, to +suggest! A son could not be expected to be exactly like his father. +And so on. + +No! no! She brushed all that aside. She scarcely listened to it. + +"But think of the business! And just think of your father's feelings!" + +Edwin spoke no more. He saw that she was absolutely incapable of +putting herself in his place. He could not have explained her attitude +by saying that she had the vast unconscious cruelty which always goes +with a perfect lack of imagination; but this was the explanation. He +left her, saddened by the obvious conclusion that his auntie, whom he +had always supported against his sisters, was part author of his +undoing. She had undoubtedly much strengthened his father against him. +He had a gleam of suspicion that his sisters had been right, and he +wrong, about Mrs Hamps. Wonderful, the cruel ruthless insight of +girls--into some things! + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +NINE. + +Not till Saturday did the atmosphere of the Clayhanger household resume +the normal. But earlier than that Edwin had already lost his +resentment. It disappeared with his cold. He could not continue to +bear ill-will. He accepted his destiny of immense disappointment. He +shouldered it. You may call him weak or you may call him strong. +Maggie said nothing to him of the great affair. What could she have +said? And the affair was so great that even Clara did not dare to +exercise upon it her peculiar faculties of ridicule. It abashed her by +its magnitude. + +On Saturday Darius said to his son, good-humouredly-- + +"Canst be trusted to pay wages?" + +Edwin smiled. + +At one o'clock he went across the yard to the printing office with a +little bag of money. The younger apprentice was near the door scrubbing +type with potash to cleanse it. The backs of his hands were horribly +raw and bleeding with chaps, due to the frequent necessity of washing +them in order to serve the machines, and the impossibility of drying +them properly. Still, winter was ending now, and he only worked eleven +hours a day, in an airy room, instead of nineteen hours in a cellar, +like the little boy from the Bastille. He was a fortunate youth. The +journeyman stood idle; as often, on Saturdays, the length of the +journeyman's apron had been reduced by deliberate tearing during the +week from three feet to about a foot--so imperious and sudden was the +need for rags in the processes of printing. Big James was folding up +his apron. They all saw that Edwin had the bag, and their faces +relaxed. + +"You're as good as the master now, Mr Edwin," said Big James with +ceremonious politeness and a fine gesture, when Edwin had finished +paying. + +"Am I?" he rejoined simply. + +Everybody knew of the great affair. Big James's words were his gentle +intimation to Edwin that every one knew the great affair was now +settled. + +That night, for the first time, Edwin could read "Notre Dame" with +understanding and pleasure. He plunged with soft joy into the river of +the gigantic and formidable narrative. He reflected that after all the +sources of happiness were not exhausted. + + + +VOLUME TWO, CHAPTER ONE. + +BOOK TWO--HIS LOVE. + +THE VISIT. + +We now approach the more picturesque part of Edwin's career. Seven +years passed. Towards the end of April 1880, on a Saturday morning, +Janet Orgreave, second daughter of Osmond Orgreave, the architect, +entered the Clayhanger shop. + +All night an April shower lasting ten hours had beaten with persistent +impetuosity against the window-panes of Bursley, and hence half the town +had slept ill. But at breakfast-time the clouds had been mysteriously +drawn away, the winds had expired, and those drenched streets began to +dry under the caressing peace of bright soft sunshine; the sky was pale +blue of a delicacy unknown to the intemperate climes of the south. +Janet Orgreave, entering the Clayhanger shop, brought into it with her +the new morning weather. She also brought into it Edwin's fate, or part +of it, but not precisely in the sense commonly understood when the word +`fate' is mentioned between a young man and a young woman. + +A youth stood at the left-hand or `fancy' counter, very nervous. Miss +Ingamells (that was) was married and the mother of three children, and +had probably forgotten the difference between `demy' and `post' octavos; +and this youth had taken her place and the place of two unsatisfactory +maids in black who had succeeded her. None but males were now employed +in the Clayhanger business, and everybody breathed more freely; round, +sound oaths were heard where never oaths had been heard before. The +young man's name was Stifford, and he was addressed as `Stiff.' He was +a proof of the indiscretion of prophesying about human nature. He had +been the paper boy, the minion of Edwin, and universally regarded as +unreliable and almost worthless. But at sixteen a change had come over +him; he parted his hair in the middle instead of at the side, arrived in +the morning at 7:59 instead of at 8:05, and seemed to see the +earnestness of life. Every one was glad and relieved, but every one +took the change as a matter of course; the attitude of every one to the +youth was: "Well, it's not too soon!" No one saw a romantic miracle. + +"I suppose you haven't got `The Light of Asia' in stock?" began Janet +Orgreave, after she had greeted the youth kindly. + +"I'm afraid we haven't, miss," said Stifford. This was an +understatement. He knew beyond fear that "The Light of Asia" was not in +stock. + +"Oh!" murmured Janet. + +"I think you said `The Light of Asia'?" + +"Yes. `The Light of Asia,' by Edwin Arnold." Janet had a persuasive +humane smile. + +Stifford was anxious to have the air of obliging this smile, and he +turned round to examine a shelf of prize books behind him, well aware +that "The Light of Asia" was not among them. He knew "The Light of +Asia," and was proud of his knowledge; that is to say, he knew by +visible and tactual evidence that such a book existed, for it had been +ordered and supplied as a Christmas present four months previously, soon +after its dazzling apparition in the world. + +"Yes, by Edwin Arnold--Edwin Arnold," he muttered learnedly, running his +finger along gilded backs. + +"It's being talked about a great deal," said Janet as if to encourage +him. + +"Yes, it is... No, I'm very sorry, we haven't it in stock." Stifford +faced her again, and leaned his hands wide apart on the counter. + +"I should like you to order it for me," said Janet Orgreave in a low +voice. + +She asked this exactly as though she were asking a personal favour from +Stifford the private individual. Such was Janet's way. She could not +help it. People often said that her desire to please, and her methods +of pleasing, were unconscious. These people were wrong. She was +perfectly conscious and even deliberate in her actions. She liked to +please. She could please easily and she could please keenly. Therefore +she strove always to please. Sometimes, when she looked in the mirror, +and saw that charming, good-natured face with its rich vermilion lips +eager to part in a nice, warm, sympathetic smile, she could accuse +herself of being too fond of the art of pleasing. For she was a +conscientious girl, and her age being twenty-five her soul was at its +prime, full, bursting with beautiful impulses towards perfection. Yes, +she would accuse herself of being too happy, too content, and would +wonder whether she ought not to seek heaven by some austerity of +scowling. Janet had everything: a kind disposition, some brains, some +beauty, considerable elegance and luxury for her station, fine shoulders +at a ball, universal love and esteem. + +Stifford, as he gazed diffidently at this fashionable, superior, and yet +exquisitely beseeching woman on the other side of the counter, was in a +very unpleasant quandary. She had by her magic transformed him into a +private individual, and he acutely wanted to earn that smile which she +was giving him. But he could not. He was under the obligation to say +`No' to her innocent and delightful request; and yet could he say `No'? +Could he bring himself to desolate her by a refusal? (She had produced +in him the illusion that a refusal would indeed desolate her, though she +would of course bear it with sweet fortitude.) Business was a barbaric +thing at times. + +"The fact is, miss," he said at length, in his best manner, "Mr +Clayhanger has decided to give up the new book business. I'm very +sorry." + +Had it been another than Janet he would have assuredly said with pride: +"We have decided--" + +"Really!" said Janet. "I see!" + +Then Stifford directed his eyes upon a square glazed structure of +ebonised wood that had been insinuated and inserted into the opposite +corner of the shop, behind the ledger-window. And Janet's eyes followed +his. + +"I don't know if--" he hesitated. + +"Is Mr Clayhanger in?" she demanded, as if wishful to help him in the +formulation of his idea, and she added: "Or Mr Edwin?" Deliciously +persuasive! + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +The wooden structure was a lair. It had been constructed to hold Darius +Clayhanger; but in practice it generally held Edwin, as his father's +schemes for the enlargement of the business carried him abroad more and +more. It was a device of Edwin's for privacy; Edwin had planned it and +seen the plan executed. The theory was that a person concealed in the +structure (called `the office') was not technically in the shop and must +not be disturbed by anyone in the shop. Only persons of authority-- +Darius and Edwin--had the privilege of the office, and since its +occupant could hear every whisper in the shop, it was always for the +occupant to decide when events demanded that he should emerge. + +On Janet's entrance, Edwin was writing in the daybook: "April 11th. +Turnhill Oddfellows. 400 Contrib. Cards--" He stopped writing. He held +himself still like a startled mouse. With satisfaction he observed that +the door of the fortress was closed. By putting his nose near the +crystal wall he could see, through the minute transparent portions of +the patterned glass, without being seen. He watched Janet's graceful +gestures, and examined with pleasure the beauties of her half-season +toilet; he discerned the modishness of her umbrella handle. His +sensations were agreeable and yet disagreeable, for he wished both to +remain where he was and to go forth and engage her in brilliant small +talk. He had no small talk, except that of the salesman and the +tradesman; his tongue knew not freedom; but his fancy dreamed of light, +intellectual conversations with fine girls. These dreams of fancy had +of late become almost habitual, for the sole reason that he had raised +his hat several times to Janet, and once had shaken hands with her and +said, "How d'you do, Miss Orgreave?" in response to her "How d'you do, +Mr Clayhanger?" Osmond Orgreave, in whom had originated their +encounter, had cut across the duologue at that point and spoilt it. But +Edwin's fancy had continued it, when he was alone late at night, in a +very diverting and witty manner. And now, he had her at his disposal; +he had only to emerge, and Stiff would deferentially recede, and he +could chat with her at ease, starting comfortably from "The Light of +Asia." And yet he dared not; his faint heart told him in loud beats +that he could only chat cleverly with a fine girl when absolutely alone +in his room, in the dark. + +Still, he surveyed her; he added her up; he pronounced, with a touch of +conventional male patronage (caught possibly from the Liberal Club), +that Janet was indubitably a nice girl and a fine girl. He would not +admit that he was afraid of her, and that despite all theoretical +argufying, he deemed her above him in rank. + +And if he had known the full truth, he might have regretted that he had +not caused the lair to be furnished with a trap-door by means of which +the timid could sink into the earth. + +The truth was that Janet had called purposely to inspect Edwin at +leisure. "The Light of Asia" was a mere poetical pretext. "The Light +of Asia" might as easily have been ordered at Hanbridge, where her +father and brothers ordered all their books--in fact, more easily. +Janet, with all her niceness, with all the reality of her immense +good-nature, loved as well as anybody a bit of chicane where a man was +concerned. Janet's eyes could twinkle as mischievously as her quiet +mother's. Mr Orgreave having in the last eight months been in +professional relations with Darius and Edwin, the Orgreave household had +begun discussing Edwin again. Mr Orgreave spoke of him favourably. +Mrs Orgreave said that he looked the right sort of youth, but that he +had a peculiar manner. Janet said that she should not be surprised if +there was something in him. Janet said also that his sister Clara was +an impossible piece of goods, and that his sister Maggie was born an old +maid. One of her brothers then said that that was just what was the +matter with Edwin too! Mr Orgreave protested that he wasn't so sure of +that, and that occasionally Edwin would say things that were really +rather good. This stimulated Mrs Orgreave's curiosity, and she +suggested that her husband should invite the young man to their house. +Whereupon Mr Orgreave pessimistically admitted that he did not think +Edwin could be enticed. And Janet, piqued, said, "If that's all, I'll +have him here in a week." They were an adventurous family, always ready +for anything, always on the look-out for new sources of pleasure, full +of zest in life. They liked novelties, and hospitality was their chief +hobby. They made fun of nearly every body, but it was not mean fun. + +Such, and not "The Light of Asia," was the cause of Janet's visit. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +Be it said to Edwin's shame that she would have got no further with the +family plot that morning, had it not been for the chivalry of Stifford. +Having allowed his eyes to rest on the lair, Stifford allowed his memory +to forget the rule of the shop, and left the counter for the door of the +lair, determined that Miss Orgreave should see the genuineness of his +anxiety to do his utmost for so sympathetic a woman. Edwin, perceiving +the intention from his lair, had to choose whether he would go out or be +fetched out. Of course he preferred to go out. But he would never have +gone out on his own initiative; he would have hesitated until Janet had +departed, and he would then have called himself a fool. He regretted, +and I too regret, that he was like that; but like that he was. + +He emerged with nervous abruptness. + +"Oh, how d'you do, Miss Orgreave?" he said; "I thought it was your +voice." After this he gave a little laugh, which meant nothing, +certainly not amusement; it was merely a gawky habit that he had +unconsciously adopted. Then he took his handkerchief out of his pocket +and put it back again. Stifford fell back and had to pretend that +nothing interested him less than the interview which he had +precipitated. + +"How d'you do, Mr Clayhanger?" said Janet. + +They shook hands. Edwin wrung Janet's hand; another gawky habit. + +"I was just going to order a book," said Janet. + +"Oh yes! `The Light of Asia,'" said Edwin. + +"Have you read it?" Janet asked. + +"Yes--that is, a lot of it." + +"Have you?" exclaimed Janet. She was impressed, because really the +perusal of verse was not customary in the town. And her delightful +features showed generously the full extent to which she was impressed: +an honest, ungrudging appreciation of Edwin's studiousness. She said to +herself: "Oh! I must certainly get him to the house." And Edwin said +to himself, "No mistake, there's something very genuine about this +girl." + +Edwin said aloud quickly, from an exaggerated apprehensiveness lest she +should be rating him too high-- + +"It was quite an accident that I saw it. I never read that sort of +thing--not as a rule." He laughed again. + +"Is it worth buying?" Now she appealed to him as an authority. She +could not help doing so, and in doing so she was quite honest, for her +good-nature had momentarily persuaded her that he was an authority. + +"I--I don't know," Edwin answered, moving his neck as though his collar +was not comfortable; but it was comfortable, being at least a size too +large. "It depends, you know. If you read a lot of poetry, it's worth +buying. But if you don't, it isn't. It's not Tennyson, you know. See +what I mean?" + +"Yes, quite!" said Janet, smiling with continued and growing +appreciation. The reply struck her as very sagacious. She suddenly saw +in a new light her father's hints that there was something in this young +man not visible to everybody. She had a tremendous respect for her +father's opinion, and now she reproached herself in that she had not +attached due importance to what he had said about Edwin. "How right +father always is!" she thought. Her attitude of respect for Edwin was +now more securely based upon impartial intelligence than before; it owed +less to her weakness for seeing the best in people. As for Edwin, he +was saying to himself: "I wish to the devil I could talk to her without +spluttering! Why can't I be natural? Why can't I be glib? Some chaps +could." And Edwin could be, with some chaps. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +They were standing close together in the shop, Janet and Edwin, near the +cabinet of artists' materials. Janet, after her manner at once frank +and reassuring, examined Edwin; she had come on purpose to examine him. +She had never been able to decide whether or not he was good-looking, +and she could not decide now. But she liked the appeal in his eyes. +She did not say to herself that there was an appeal in his eyes; she +said that there was `something in his eyes.' Also he was moderately +tall and he was slim. She said to herself that he must be very well +shaped. Beginning at the bottom, his boots were clumsy, his trousers +were baggy and even shiny, and they had transverse creases, not to be +seen in the trousers of her own menkind; his waistcoat showed plainly +the forms of every article in the pockets thereof--watch, penknife, +pencil, etcetera, it was obvious that he never emptied his pockets at +night; his collar was bluish-white instead of white, and its size was +monstrous; his jacket had `worked up' at the back of his neck, +completely hiding his collar there; the side-pockets of his jacket were +weighted and bulged with mysterious goods; his fair hair was rough but +not curly; he had a moustache so trifling that one could not be sure +whether it was a moustache or whether he had been too busy to think of +shaving. Janet received all these facts into her brain, and then +carelessly let them all slip out again, in her preoccupation with his +eyes. She said they were sad eyes. The mouth, too, was somewhat sad +(she thought), but there was a drawing down of the corners of it that +seemed to make gentle fun of its sadness. Janet, perhaps out of her +good-nature, liked his restless, awkward movements and the gesture of +his hands, of which the articulations were too prominent, and the +finger-nails too short. + +"Tom reads rather a lot of poetry," said Janet. "That's my eldest +brother." + +"That _might_ justify you," said Edwin doubtfully. + +They both laughed. And as with Janet, so with Edwin, when he laughed, +all the kindest and honestest part of him seemed to rise into his face. + +"But if you don't supply new books any more?" + +"Oh!" Edwin stuttered, blushing slightly. "That's nothing. I shall be +very pleased to get it for you specially, Miss Orgreave. It's father +that decided--only last month--that the new book business was more +trouble than it's worth. It was--in a way; but I'm sorry, myself, we've +given it up, poor as it was. Of course there _are_ no book-buyers in this +town, especially now old Lawton's dead. But still, what with one thing +or another, there was generally some book on order, and I used to see +them. Of course there's no money in it. But still... Father says that +people buy less books than they used to--but he's wrong there." Edwin +spoke with calm certainty. "I've shown him he's wrong by our +order-book, but he wouldn't see it." Edwin smiled, with a general mild +indulgence for fathers. + +"Well," said Janet, "I'll ask Tom first." + +"No trouble whatever to us to order it for you, I assure you. I can get +it down by return of post." + +"It's very good of you," said Janet, genuinely persuading herself for +the moment that Edwin was quite exceeding the usual bounds of +complaisance. + +She moved to depart. + +"Father told me to tell you if I saw you that the glazing will be all +finished this morning," said she. + +"Up yonder?" Edwin jerked his head to indicate the south. + +And Janet delicately confirmed his assumption with a slight declension +of her waving hat. + +"Oh! Good!" Edwin murmured. + +Janet held out her hand, to be wrung again, and assured him of her +gratitude for his offer of taking trouble about the book; and he assured +her that it would not be trouble but pleasure. He accompanied her to +the doorway. + +"I think I must come up and have a look at that glazing this afternoon," +he said, as she stood on the pavement. + +She nodded, smiling benevolence and appreciation, and departed round the +corner in the soft sunshine. + +Edwin put on a stern, casual expression for the benefit of Stifford, as +who should say: "What a trial these frivolous girls are to a man +immersed in affairs!" But Stifford was not deceived. Safe within his +lair, Edwin was conscious of quite a disturbing glow. He smiled to +himself--a little self-consciously, though alone. Then he scribbled +down in pencil "Light of Asia. Miss J. Orgreave." + + + +VOLUME TWO, CHAPTER TWO. + +FATHER AND SON AFTER SEVEN YEARS. + +Darius came heavily, and breathing heavily, into the little office. + +"Now as all this racketing's over," he said crossly--he meant by +`racketing' the general election which had just put the Liberal party +into power--"I'll thank ye to see as all that red and blue ink is +cleaned off the rollers and slabs, and the types cleaned too. I've told +'em ten times if I've told 'em once, but as far as I can make out, +they've done naught to it yet." + +Edwin grunted without looking up. + +His father was now a fattish man, and he had aged quite as much as +Edwin. Some of his scanty hair was white; the rest was grey. White +hair sprouted about his ears; gold gleamed in his mouth; and a pair of +spectacles hung insecurely balanced half-way down his nose; his +waistcoat seemed to be stretched tightly over a perfectly smooth +hemisphere. He had an air of somewhat gross and prosperous untidiness. +Except for the teeth, his bodily frame appeared to have fallen into +disrepair, as though he had ceased to be interested in it, as though he +had been using it for a long time as a mere makeshift lodging. And this +impression was more marked at table; he ate exactly as if throwing food +to a wild animal concealed somewhere within the hemisphere, an animal +which was never seen, but which rumbled threateningly from time to time +in its dark dungeon. + +Of all this, Edwin had definitely noticed nothing save that his father +was `getting stouter.' To Edwin, Darius was exactly the same father, +and for Darius, Edwin was still aged sixteen. They both of them went on +living on the assumption that the world had stood still in those seven +years between 1873 and 1880. If they had been asked what had happened +during those seven years, they would have answered: "Oh, nothing +particular!" + +But the world had been whizzing ceaselessly from one miracle into +another. Board schools had been opened in Bursley, wondrous affairs, +with ventilation; indeed ventilation had been discovered. A Jew had +been made Master of the Rolls: a spectacle at which England shivered, +and then, perceiving no sign of disaster, shrugged its shoulders. Irish +members had taught the House of Commons how to talk for twenty-four +hours without a pause. The wages of the agricultural labourer had +sprung into the air and leaped over the twelve shilling bar into regions +of opulence. Moody and Sankey had found and conquered England for +Christ. Landseer and Livingstone had died, and the provinces could not +decide whether "Dignity and Impudence" or the penetration of Africa was +the more interesting feat. Herbert Spencer had published his "Study of +Sociology"; Matthew Arnold his "Literature and Dogma"; and Frederic +Farrar his Life of his Lord; but here the provinces had no difficulty in +deciding, for they had only heard of the last. Every effort had been +made to explain by persuasion and by force to the working man that trade +unions were inimical to his true welfare, and none had succeeded, so +stupid was he. The British Army had been employed to put reason into +the noddle of a town called Northampton which was furious because an +atheist had not been elected to Parliament. Pullman cars, "The Pirates +of Penzance," Henry Irving's "Hamlet," spelling-bees, and Captain Webb's +channel swim had all proved that there were novelties under the sun. +Bishops, archbishops, and dissenting ministers had met at Lambeth to +inspect the progress of irreligious thought, with intent to arrest it. +Princes and dukes had conspired to inaugurate the most singular scheme +that ever was, the Kyrle Society,--for bringing beauty home to the +people by means of decorative art, gardening, and music. The Bulgarian +Atrocities had served to give new life to all penny gaffs and +blood-tubs. The "Eurydice" and the "Princess Alice" had foundered in +order to demonstrate the uncertainty of existence and the courage of the +island-race. The "Nineteenth Century" had been started, a little late +in the day, and the "Referee." Ireland had all but died of hunger, but +had happily been saved to enjoy the benefits of Coercion. The Young +Men's Christian Association had been born again in the splendour of +Exeter Hall. Bursley itself had entered on a new career as a chartered +borough, with Mayor, alderman, and councillors, all in chains of silver. +And among the latest miracles were Northampton's success in sending the +atheist to Parliament, the infidelity of the Tay Bridge three days after +Christmas, the catastrophe of Majuba Hill, and the discovery that +soldiers objected to being flogged into insensibility for a peccadillo. + +But, in spite of numerous attempts, nobody had contrived to make England +see that her very existence would not be threatened if museums were +opened on Sunday, or that Nonconformists might be buried according to +their own rites without endangering the constitution. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +Darius was possibly a little uneasy in his mind about the world. +Possibly there had just now begun to form in his mind the conviction, in +which most men die, that all was not quite well with the world, and that +in particular his native country had contracted a fatal malady since he +was a boy. + +He was a printer, and yet the General Election had not put sunshine in +his heart. And this was strange, for a general election is the brief +millennium of printers, especially of steam-printers who for dispatch +can beat all rivals. During a general election the question put by a +customer to a printer is not, "How much will it be?" but "How soon can I +have it?" There was no time for haggling about price; and indeed to +haggle about price would have been unworthy, seeing that every customer +(ordinary business being at a standstill), was engaged in the salvation +of England. Darius was a Liberal, but a quiet one, and he was +patronised by both political parties--blue and red. As a fact, neither +party could have done without him. His printing office had clattered +and thundered early and late, and more than once had joined the end of +one day's work to the beginning of another; and more than once had Big +James with his men and his boy (a regiment increased since 1873), stood +like plotters muttering in the yard at five minutes to twelve on Sunday +evening, waiting for midnight to sound, and Big James had unlocked the +door of the office on the new-born Monday, and work had instantly +commenced to continue till Monday was nearly dead of old age. + +Once only had work been interrupted, and that was on a day when, a lot +of `blue jobs' being about, a squad of red fire-eaters had come up the +back alley with intent to answer arguments by thwackings and wreckings; +but the obstinacy of an oak door had fatigued them. The staff had +enjoyed that episode. Every member of it was well paid for overtime. +Darius could afford to pay conscientiously. In the printing trade, +prices were steadier then than they are now. But already the discovery +of competition was following upon the discovery of ventilation. Perhaps +Darius sniffed it from a distance, and was disturbed thereby. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +For though he was a Liberal in addition to being a printer, and he had +voted Liberal, and his party had won, yet the General Election had not +put sunshine in his heart. No! The tendencies of England worried him. +When he read in a paper about the heretical tendencies of Robertson +Smith's Biblical articles in the "Encyclopaedia Britannica," he said to +himself that they were of a piece with the rest, and that such things +were to be expected in those modern days, and that matters must have +come to a pretty pass when even the "Encyclopaedia Britannica" was +infected. (Still, he had sold a copy of the new edition.) He was +exceedingly bitter against Ireland; and also, in secret, behind Big +James's back, against trade unions. When Edwin came home one night and +announced that he had joined the Bursley Liberal Club, Darius lost his +temper. Yet he was a member of the club himself. He gave no reason for +his fury, except that it was foolish for a tradesman to mix himself up +with politics. Edwin, however, had developed a sudden interest in +politics, and had made certain promises of clerical aid, which promises +he kept, saying nothing more to his father. Darius's hero was Sir +Robert Peel, simply because Sir Robert Peel had done away with the Corn +Laws. Darius had known England before and after the repeal of the Corn +Laws, and the difference between the two Englands was so strikingly +dramatic to him that he desired no further change. He had only one +date--1846. His cup had been filled then. Never would he forget the +scenes of anguishing joy that occurred at midnight of the day before the +new Act became operative. From that moment he had finished with +progress... If Edwin could only have seen those memories, shining in +layers deep in his father's heart, and hidden now by all sorts of +Pliocene deposits, he would have understood his father better. But +Edwin did not see into his father's heart at all, nor even into his +head. When he looked at his father he saw nothing but an ugly, +stertorous old man (old, that is, to Edwin), with a peculiar and +incalculable way of regarding things and a temper of growing +capriciousness. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +Darius was breathing and fidgeting all over him as he sat bent at the +desk. His presence overwhelmed every other physical phenomenon. + +"What's this?" asked Darius, picking up the bit of paper on which Edwin +had written the memorandum about "The Light of Asia." + +Edwin explained, self-consciously, lamely. + +When the barometer of Darius's temper was falling rapidly, there was a +sign: a small spot midway on the bridge of his nose turned ivory-white. +Edwin glanced upwards now to see if the sign was there, and it was. He +flushed slightly and resumed his work. + +Then Darius began. + +"What did I tell ye?" he shouted. "What in the name of God's the use o' +me telling ye things? Have I told ye not to take any more orders for +books, or haven't I? Haven't I said over and over again that I want +this shop to be known for wholesale?" He raved. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +Stifford could hear. Any person who might chance to come into the shop +would hear. But Darius cared neither for his own dignity nor for that +of his son. He was in a passion. The real truth was that this celibate +man, who never took alcohol, enjoyed losing his temper; it was his one +outlet; he gave himself up almost luxuriously to a passion; he looked +forward to it as some men look forward to brandy. And Edwin had never +stopped him by some drastic step. At first, years before, Edwin had +said to himself, trembling with resentment in his bedroom, "The next +time, the very next time, he humiliates me like that in front of other +people, I'll walk out of his damned house and shop, and I swear I won't +come back until he's apologised. I'll bring him to his senses. He +can't do without me. Once for all I'll stop it. What! He forces me +into his business, and then insults me!" + +But Edwin had never done it. Always, it was `the very next time'! +Edwin was not capable of doing it. His father had a sort of moral +brute-force, against which he could not stand firm. He soon recognised +this, with his intellectual candour. Then he had tried to argue with +Darius, to `make him see'! Worse than futile! Argument simply put +Darius beside himself. So that in the end Edwin employed silence and +secret scorn, as a weapon and as a defence. And somehow without a word +he conveyed to Stifford and to Big James precisely what his attitude in +these crises was, so that he retained their respect and avoided their +pity. The outbursts still wounded him, but he was wonderfully inured. + +As he sat writing under the onslaught, he said to himself, "By God! If +ever I get the chance, I'll pay you out for this some day!" And he +meant it. A peep into his mind, then, would have startled Janet +Orgreave, Mrs Nixon, and other persons who had a cult for the +wistfulness of his appealing eyes. + +He steadily maintained silence, and the conflagration burnt itself out. + +"Are you going to look after the printing shop, or aren't you?" Darius +growled at length. + +Edwin rose and went. As he passed through the shop, Stifford, who had +in him the raw material of fine manners, glanced down, but not too +ostentatiously, at a drawer under the counter. + +The printing office was more crowded than ever with men and matter. +Some of the composing was now done on the ground-floor. The whole +organism functioned, but under such difficulties as could not be allowed +to continue, even by Darius Clayhanger. Darius had finally recognised +that. + +"Oh!" said Edwin, in a tone of confidential intimacy to Big James, "I +see they're getting on with the cleaning! Good. Father's beginning to +get impatient, you know. It's the bigger cases that had better be done +first." + +"Right it is, Mr Edwin!" said Big James. The giant was unchanged. No +sign of grey in his hair; and his cheek was smooth, apparently his +philosophy put him beyond the touch of time. + +"I say, Mr Edwin," he inquired in his majestic voice. "When are we +going to rearrange all this?" He gazed around. + +Edwin laughed. "Soon," he said. + +"Won't be too soon," said Big James. + + + +VOLUME TWO, CHAPTER THREE. + +THE NEW HOUSE. + +A house stood on a hill. And that hill was Bleakridge, the summit of +the little billow of land between Bursley and Hanbridge. Trafalgar Road +passed over the crest of the billow. Bleakridge was certainly not more +than a hundred feet higher than Bursley; yet people were now talking a +lot about the advantages of living `up' at Bleakridge, `above' the +smoke, and `out' of the town, though it was not more than five minutes +from the Duck Bank. To hear them talking, one might have fancied that +Bleakridge was away in the mountains somewhere. The new steam-cars +would pull you up there in three minutes or so, every quarter of an +hour. It was really the new steam-cars that were to be the making of +Bleakridge as a residential suburb. It had also been predicted that +even Hanbridge men would come to live at Bleakridge now. Land was +changing owners at Bleakridge, and rising in price. Complete streets of +lobbied cottages grew at angles from the main road with the rapidity of +that plant which pushes out strangling branches more quickly than a man +can run. And these lobbied cottages were at once occupied. +Cottage-property in the centre of the town depreciated. + +The land fronting the main road was destined not for cottages, but for +residences, semi-detached or detached. Osmond Orgreave had a good deal +of this land under his control. He did not own it, he hawked it. Like +all provincial, and most London, architects, he was a land-broker in +addition to being an architect. Before obtaining a commission to build +a house, he frequently had to create the commission himself by selling a +convenient plot, and then persuading the purchaser that if he wished to +retain the respect of the community he must put on the plot a house +worthy of the plot. The Orgreave family all had expensive tastes, and +it was Osmond Orgreave's task to find most of the money needed for the +satisfaction of those tastes. He always did find it, because the +necessity was upon him, but he did not always find it easily. Janet +would say sometimes, "We mustn't be so hard on father this month; +really, lately we've never seen him with his cheque-book out of his +hand." Undoubtedly the clothes on Janet's back were partly responsible +for the celerity with which building land at Bleakridge was `developed,' +just after the installation of steam-cars in Trafalgar Road. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +Mr Orgreave sold a corner plot to Darius. He had had his eye on Darius +for a long time before he actually shot him down; but difficulties +connected with the paring of estimates for printing had somewhat +estranged them. Orgreave had had to smooth out these difficulties, +offer to provide a portion of the purchase money on mortgage from +another client, produce a plan for a new house that surpassed all +records of cheapness, produce a plan for the transforming of Darius's +present residence into business premises, talk poetically about the +future of printing in the Five Towns, and lastly, demonstrate by digits +that Darius would actually save money by becoming a property-owner--he +had had to do all this, and more, before Darius would buy. + +The two were regular cronies for about a couple of months--that is to +say, between the payment of the preliminary deposit and the signing of +the contract for building the house. But, the contract signed, their +relations were once more troubled. Orgreave had nothing to fear, then, +and besides, he was using his diplomacy elsewhere. The house went up to +an accompaniment of scenes in which only the proprietor was irate. +Osmond Orgreave could not be ruffled; he could not be deprived of his +air of having done a favour to Darius Clayhanger; his social and moral +superiority, his real aloofness, remained absolutely unimpaired. The +clear image of him as a fine gentleman was never dulled nor distorted +even in the mind of Darius. Nevertheless Darius `hated the sight' of +the house ere the house was roofed in. But this did not diminish his +pride in the house. He wished he had never `set eyes on' Osmond +Orgreave. Yes! But the little boy from the Bastille was immensely +content at the consequences of having set eyes on Osmond Orgreave. The +little boy from the Bastille was achieving the supreme peak of +greatness--he was about to live away from business. Soon he would be +`going down to business' of a morning. Soon he would be receiving two +separate demand-notes for rates. Soon he would be on a plane with the +vainest earthenware manufacturer of them all. Ages ago he had got as +far as a house with a lobby to it. Now, it would be a matter of two +establishments. Beneath all his discontents, moodiness, temper, and +biliousness, lay this profound satisfaction of the little boy from the +Bastille. + +Moreover, in any case, he would have been obliged to do something +heroic, if only to find the room more and more imperiously demanded by +his printing business. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +On the Saturday afternoon of Janet Orgreave's visit to the shop, Edwin +went up to Bleakridge to inspect the house, and in particular the +coloured `lights' in the upper squares of the drawing-room and +dining-room windows. He had a key to the unpainted front door, and +having climbed over various obstacles and ascended an inclined bending +plank, he entered and stood in the square hall of the deserted, damp, +and inchoate structure. + +The house was his father's only in name. In emotional fact it was +Edwin's house, because he alone was capable of possessing it by enjoying +it. To Darius, to Bursley in general, it was just a nice house, of red +brick with terra-cotta facings and red tiles, in the second-Victorian +Style, the style that had broken away from Georgian austerity and +first-Victorian stucco and smugness, and wandered off vaguely into +nothing in particular. To the plebeian in Darius it was of course +grandiose, and vast; to Edwin also, in a less degree. But to Edwin it +was not a house, it was a work of art, it was an epic poem, it was an +emanation of the soul. He did not realise this. He did not realise how +the house had informed his daily existence. All that he knew about +himself in relation to the house was that he could not keep away from +it. He went and had a look at it, nearly every morning before +breakfast, when the workmen were fresh and lyrical. + +When the news came down to the younger generation that Darius had bought +land and meant to build on the land, Edwin had been profoundly moved +between apprehension and hope; his condition had been one of simple but +intense expectant excitement. He wondered what his own status would be +in the great enterprise of house-building. All depended on Mr +Orgreave. Would Mr Orgreave, of whom he had seen scarcely anything in +seven years, remember that he was intelligently interested in +architecture? Or would Mr Orgreave walk right over him and talk +exclusively to his father? He had feared, he had had a suspicion, that +Mr Orgreave was an inconstant man. + +Mr Orgreave had remembered in the handsomest way. When the plans were +being discussed, Mr Orgreave with one word, a tone, a glance, had +raised Edwin to the consultative level of his father. He had let Darius +see that Edwin was in his opinion worthy to take part in discussions, +and quite privately he had let Edwin see that Darius must not be treated +too seriously. Darius, who really had no interest in ten thousand +exquisitely absorbing details, had sometimes even said, with impatience, +"Oh! Settle it how you like, with Edwin." + +Edwin's own suggestions never seemed very brilliant, and Mr Orgreave +was always able to prove to him that they were inadvisable; but they +were never silly, like most of his father's. And he acquired leading +ideas that transformed his whole attitude towards architecture. For +example, he had always looked on a house as a front-wall diversified by +doors and windows, with rooms behind it. But when Mr Orgreave produced +his first notions for the new house Edwin was surprised to find that he +had not even sketched the front. He had said, "We shall be able to see +what the elevation looks like when we've decided the plan a bit." And +Edwin saw in a flash that the front of a house was merely the expression +of the inside of it, merely a result, almost accidental. And he was +astounded and disgusted that he, with his professed love of architecture +and his intermittent study of it, had not perceived this obvious truth +for himself. He never again looked at a house in the old irrational +way. + +Then, when examining the preliminary sketch-plan, he had put his finger +on a square space and asked what room that was. "That isn't a room; +that's the hall," said Mr Orgreave. "But it's square!" Edwin +exclaimed. He thought that in houses (houses to be lived in) the hall +or lobby must necessarily be long and narrow. Now suddenly he saw no +reason why a hall should not be square. Mr Orgreave had made no +further remark about halls at the time, but another day, without any +preface, he re-opened the subject to Edwin, in a tone good-naturedly +informing, and when he had done Edwin could see that the shape of the +hall depended on the shape of the house, and that halls had only been +crushed and pulled into something long and narrow because the +disposition of houses absolutely demanded this ugly negation of the very +idea of a hall. Again, he had to begin to think afresh, to see afresh. +He conceived a real admiration for Osmond Orgreave; not more for his +original and yet common-sense manner of regarding things, than for his +aristocratic deportment, his equality to every situation, and his +extraordinary skill in keeping his dignity and his distance during +encounters with Darius. (At the same time, when Darius would grumble +savagely that Osmond Orgreave `was too clever by half,' Edwin could not +deny that.) Edwin's sisters got a good deal of Mr Orgreave, through +Edwin; he could never keep Mr Orgreave very long to himself. He gave +away a great deal of Mr Orgreave's wisdom without mentioning the origin +of the gift. Thus occasionally Clara would say cuttingly, "I know where +you've picked that up. You've picked that up from Mr Orgreave." The +young man Benbow to whom the infant Clara had been so queerly engaged, +also received from Edwin considerable quantities of Mr Orgreave. But +the fellow was only a decent, dull, pushing, successful ass, and quite +unable to assimilate Mr Orgreave; Edwin could never comprehend how +Clara, so extremely difficult to please, so carping and captious, could +mate herself to a fellow like Benbow. She had done so, however; they +were recently married. Edwin was glad that that was over; for it had +disturbed him in his attentions to the house. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +When the house began to `go up,' Edwin lived in an ecstasy of +contemplation. I say with deliberateness an `ecstasy.' He had seen +houses go up before; he knew that houses were constructed brick by +brick, beam by beam, lath by lath, tile by tile; he knew that they did +not build themselves. And yet, in the vagueness of his mind, he had +never imaginatively realised that a house was made with hands, and hands +that could err. With its exact perpendiculars and horizontals, its +geometric regularities, and its Chinese preciseness of fitting, a house +had always seemed to him--again in the vagueness of his mind--as +something superhuman. The commonest cornice, the most ordinary pillar +of a staircase-balustrade--could that have been accomplished in its +awful perfection of line and contour by a human being? How easy to +believe that it was `not made with hands'! + +But now he saw. He had to see. He saw a hole in the ground, with water +at the bottom, and the next moment that hole was a cellar; not an +amateur cellar, a hole that would do at a pinch for a cellar, but a +professional cellar. He appreciated the brains necessary to put a brick +on another brick, with just the right quantity of mortar in between. He +thought the house would never get itself done--one brick at a time--and +each brick cost a farthing--slow, careful; yes, and even finicking. But +soon the bricklayers had to stand on plank-platforms in order to reach +the raw top of the wall that was ever rising above them. The +measurements, the rulings, the plumbings, the checkings! He was humbled +and he was enlightened. He understood that a miracle is only the result +of miraculous patience, miraculous nicety, miraculous honesty, +miraculous perseverance. He understood that there was no golden and +magic secret of building. It was just putting one brick on another and +against another--but to a hair's breadth. It was just like anything +else. For instance, printing! He saw even printing in a new light. + +And when the first beams were bridged across two walls... + +The funny thing was that the men's fingers were thicky and clumsy. +Never could such fingers pick up a pin! And still they would manoeuvre +a hundredweight of timber to a pin's point. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +He stood at the drawing-room bay-window (of which each large pane had +been marked with the mystic sign of a white circle by triumphant +glaziers), and looked across the enclosed fragment of clayey field that +ultimately would be the garden. The house was at the corner of +Trafalgar Road and a side-street that had lobbied cottages down its +slope. The garden was oblong, with its length parallel to Trafalgar +Road, and separated from the pavement only by a high wall. The upper +end of the garden was blocked by the first of three new houses which +Osmond Orgreave was building in a terrace. These houses had their main +fronts on the street; they were quite as commodious as the Clayhangers', +but much inferior in garden-space; their bits of flower-plots lay behind +them. And away behind their flower-plots, with double entrance-gates in +another side street, stretched the grounds of Osmond Orgreave, his house +in the sheltered middle thereof. He had got, cheaply, one of the older +residential properties of the district, Georgian, of a recognisable +style, relic of the days when manufacturers formed a class entirely +apart from their operatives; even as far back as 1880 any operative +might with luck become an employer. The south-east corner of the +Clayhanger garden touched the north-west corner of the domains of +Orgreave; for a few feet the two gardens were actually contiguous, with +naught but an old untidy thorn hedge between them; this hedge was to be +replaced by a wall that would match the topmost of the lobbied cottages +which bounded the view of the Clayhangers to the east. + +From the bay-window Edwin could see over the hedge, and also through it, +on to the croquet lawn of the Orgreaves. Croquet was then in its first +avatar; nothing was more dashing than croquet. With rag-balls and +home-made mallets the Clayhanger children had imitated croquet in their +yard in the seventies. The Orgreaves played real croquet; one of them +had shone in a tournament at Buxton. Edwin noticed a figure on the +gravel between the lawn and the hedge. He knew it to be Janet, by the +crimson frock. But he had no notion that Janet had stationed herself in +that quarter with intent to waylay him. He could not have credited her +with such a purpose. Nor could his modesty have believed that he was +important enough to employ the talent of the Orgreaves for agreeable +chicane. The fact was that Janet had been espying him for a quarter of +an hour. When at length she waved her hand to him, it did not occur to +him to suppose that she was waving her hand to him; he merely wondered +what peculiar thing she was doing. Then he blushed as she waved again, +and he knew first from the blood in his face that Janet was making a +signal, and that it was to himself that the signal was directed: his +body had told his mind; this was very odd. + +Of course he was obliged to go out; and he went, muttering to himself. + + + +VOLUME TWO, CHAPTER FOUR. + +THE TWO GARDENS. + +In the full beauty of the afternoon they stood together, only the +scraggy hedge between them, he on grass-tufted clay, and she on orderly +gravel. + +"Well," said Janet, earnestly looking at him, "how do you like the +effect of that window, now it's done?" + +"Very nice!" he laughed nervously. "Very nice indeed!" + +"Father said it was," she remarked. "I do hope Mr Clayhanger will like +it too!" And her voice really was charged with sympathetic hope. It +was as if she would be saddened and cast down if Darius did not approve +the window. It was as if she fervently wished that Darius should not be +disappointed with the window. The unskilled spectator might have +assumed that anxiety for the success of the window would endanger her +sleep at nights. She was perfectly sincere. Her power of emotional +sympathy was all-embracing and inexhaustible. If she heard that an +acquaintance of one of her acquaintances had lost a relative or broken a +limb, she would express genuine deep concern, with a tremor of her +honest and kindly voice. And if she heard the next moment that an +acquaintance of one of her acquaintances had come into five thousand +pounds or affianced himself to a sister-spirit, her eyes would sparkle +with heartfelt joy and her hands clasp each other in sheer delight. + +"Oh!" said Edwin, touched. "It'll be all right for the dad. No fear!" + +"I haven't seen it yet," she proceeded. "In fact I haven't been in your +house for such a long time. But I do think it's going to be very nice. +All father's houses are so nice, aren't they?" + +"Yes," said Edwin, with that sideways shake of the head that in the +vocabulary of his gesture signified, not dissent, but emphatic assent. +"You ought to come and have a look at it." He could not say less. + +"Do you think I could scramble through here?" she indicated the sparse +hedge. + +"I-- I--" + +"I know what I'll do. I'll get the steps." She walked off sedately, +and came back with a small pair of steps, which she opened out on the +narrow flower-bed under the hedge. Then she picked up her skirt and +delicately ascended the rocking ladder till her feet were on a level +with the top of the hedge. She smiled charmingly, savouring the +harmless escapade, and gazing at Edwin. She put out her free hand, +Edwin took it, and she jumped. The steps fell backwards, but she was +safe. + +"What a good thing mother didn't see me!" she laughed. Her grave, +sympathetic, almost handsome face was now alive everywhere with a sort +of challenging merriment. She was only pretending that it was a good +thing her mother had not seen her: a delicious make-believe. Why, she +was as motherly as her mother! In an instant her feet were choosing +their way and carrying her with grace and stateliness across the mire of +the unformed garden. She was the woman of the world, and Edwin the raw +boy. The harmony and dignity of her movements charmed and intimidated +Edwin. Compare her to Maggie... That she was hatless added piquancy. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +They went into the echoing bare house, crunching gravel and dry clay on +the dirty, new floors. They were alone together in the house. And all +the time Edwin was thinking: "I've never been through anything like this +before. Never been through anything like this!" And he recalled for a +second the figure of Florence Simcox, the clog-dancer. + +And below these images and reflections in his mind was the thought: "I +haven't known what life _is_! I've been asleep. This is life!" + +The upper squares of the drawing-room window were filled with small +leaded diamond-shaped panes of many colours. It was the latest fashion +in domestic glazing. The effect was at once rich and gorgeous. She +liked it. + +"It will be beautiful on this side in the late afternoon," she murmured. +"What a nice room!" + +Their eyes met, and she transmitted to him her joy in his joy at the +admirableness of the house. + +He nodded. "By Jove!" he thought. "She's a splendid girl. There can't +be many girls knocking about as fine as she is!" + +"And when the garden's full of flowers!" she breathed in rapture. She +was thinking, "Strange, nice boy! He's so romantic. All he wants is +bringing out." + +They wandered to and fro. They went upstairs. They saw the bathroom. +They stood on the landing, and the unseen spaces of the house were busy +with their echoes. They then entered the room that was to be Edwin's. + +"Mine!" he said self-consciously. + +"And I see you're having shelves fixed on both sides of the mantelpiece! +You're very fond of books, aren't you?" she appealed to him. + +"Yes," he said judicially. + +"Aren't they wonderful things?" Her glowing eyes seemed to be +expressing gratitude to Shakespeare and all his successors in the +dynasty of literature. + +"That shelving is between your father and me," said Edwin. "The dad +doesn't know. It'll go in with the house-fittings. I don't expect the +dad will ever notice it." + +"Really!" She laughed, eager to join the innocent conspiracy. "Father +invented an excellent dodge for shelving in the hall at our house," she +added. "I'm sure he'd like you to come and see it. The dear thing's +most absurdly proud of it." + +"I should like to," Edwin answered diffidently. + +"Would you come in some evening and see us? Mother would be delighted. +We all should." + +"Very kind of you." In his diffidence he was now standing on one leg. + +"Could you come to-night? ... Or to-morrow night?" + +"I'm afraid I couldn't come to-night, _or_ to-morrow night," he answered +with firmness. A statement entirely untrue! He had no engagement; he +never did have an engagement. But he was frightened, and his spirit +sprang away from the idea, like a fawn at a sudden noise in the brake, +and stood still. + +He did not suspect that the unconscious gruffness of his tone had +repulsed her. She blamed herself for a too brusque advance. + +"Well, I hope some other time," she said, mild and benignant. + +"Thanks! I'd like to," he replied more boldly, reassured now that he +had heard again the same noise but indefinitely farther off. + +She departed, but by the front door, and hatless and dignified up +Trafalgar Road in the delicate sunshine to the next turning. She was +less vivacious. + +He hoped he had not offended her, because he wanted very much--not to go +in cold blood to the famed mansion of the Orgreaves--but by some magic +to find himself within it one night, at his ease, sharing in brilliant +conversation. "Oh no!" he said to himself. "She's not offended. A +fine girl like that isn't offended for nothing at all!" He had been +invited to visit the Orgreaves! He wondered what his father would say, +or think. The unexpressed basic idea of the Clayhangers was that the +Clayhangers were as good as other folks, be they _who_ they might. Still, +the Orgreaves were the Orgreaves... In sheer absence of mind he +remounted the muddy stairs. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +He regarded the shabbiness of his clothes; he had been preoccupied by +their defects for about a quarter of an hour; now he examined them in +detail, and said to himself disgusted, that really it was ridiculous for +a man about to occupy a house like that to be wearing garments like +those. Could he call on the Orgreaves in garments like those? His +Sunday suit was not, he felt, in fact much better. It was newer, less +tumbled, but scarcely better. His suits did not cost enough. Finance +was at the root of the crying scandal of his career as a dandy. The +financial question must be reopened and settled anew. He should attack +his father. His father was extremely dependent on him now, and must be +brought to see reason. (His father who had never seen reason!) But the +attack must not be made with the weapon of clothes, for on that subject +Darius was utterly unapproachable. Whenever Darius found himself in a +conversation about clothes, he gave forth the antique and well-tried +witticism that as for him he didn't mind what he wore, because if he was +at home everybody knew him and it didn't matter, and if he was away from +home nobody knew him and it didn't matter. And he always repeated the +saying with gusto, as if it was brand-new and none could possibly have +heard it before. + +No, Edwin decided that he would have to found his attack on the +principle of abstract justice; he would never be able to persuade his +father that he lacked any detail truly needful to his happiness. To go +into details would be to invite defeat. + +Of course it would be a bad season in which to raise the financial +question. His father would talk savagely in reply about the enormous +expenses of house-building, house-furnishing, and removing,--and +architects' and lawyers' fees; he would be sure to mention the rapacity +of architects and lawyers. Nevertheless Edwin felt that at just this +season, and no other, must the attack be offered. + +Because the inauguration of the new house was to be for Edwin, in a very +deep and spiritual sense, the beginning of the new life! He had settled +that. The new house inspired him. It was not paradise. But it was a +temple. + +You of the younger generation cannot understand that--without +imagination. I say that the hot-water system of the new house, simple +and primitive as it was, affected and inspired Edwin like a poem. There +was a cistern-room, actually a room devoted to nothing but cisterns, and +the main cistern was so big that the builders had had to install it +before the roof was put on, for it would never have gone through a door. +This cistern, by means of a ball-tap, filled itself from the main +nearly as quickly as it was emptied. Out of it grew pipes, creeping in +secret downwards between inner walls of the house, penetrating +everywhere. One went down to a boiler behind the kitchen-range and +filled it, and as the fire that was roasting the joint heated the +boiler, the water mounted again magically to the cistern-room and filled +another cistern, spherical and sealed, and thence descended, on a third +journeying, to the bath and to the lavatory basin in the bathroom. All +this was marvellous to Edwin; it was romantic. What! A room solely for +baths! And a huge painted zinc bath! Edwin had never seen such a +thing. And a vast porcelain basin, with tiles all round it, in which +you could splash! An endless supply of water on the first floor! + +At the shop-house, every drop of water on the first floor had to be +carried upstairs in jugs and buckets; and every drop of it had to be +carried down again. No hot water could be obtained until it had been +boiled in a vessel on the fire. Hot water had the value of champagne. +To take a warm hip-bath was an immense enterprise of heating, fetching, +decanting, and general derangement of the entire house; and at best the +bath was not hot; it always lost its virtue on the stairs and landing. +And to splash--one of the most voluptuous pleasures in life--was +forbidden by the code. Mrs Nixon would actually weep at a splashing. +Splashing was immoral. It was as wicked as amorous dalliance in a +monastery. In the shop-house godliness was child's play compared to +cleanliness. + +And the shop-house was so dark! Edwin had never noticed how dark it was +until the new house approached completion. The new house was radiant +with light. It had always, for Edwin, the somewhat blinding brilliance +which filled the sitting-room of the shop-house only when Duck Bank +happened to be covered with fresh snow. And there was a dining-room, +solely for eating, and a drawing-room. Both these names seemed `grand' +to Edwin, who had never sat in any but a sitting-room. Edwin had never +dined; he had merely had dinner. And, having dined, to walk +ceremoniously into another room! (Odd! After all, his father was a man +of tremendous initiative.) Would he and Maggie be able to do the thing +naturally? Then there was the square hall--positively a room! That +alone impelled him to a new life. When he thought of it all, the +reception-rooms, the scientific kitchen, the vast scullery, the four +large bedrooms, the bathroom, the three attics, the cistern-room +murmurous with water, and the water tirelessly, inexhaustibly coursing +up and down behind walls--he thrilled to fine impulses. + +He took courage. He braced himself. The seriousness which he had felt +on the day of leaving school revisited him. He looked back across the +seven years of his life in the world, and condemned them unsparingly. +He blamed no one but Edwin. He had forgiven his father for having +thwarted his supreme ambition; long ago he had forgiven his father; +though, curiously, he had never quite forgiven Mrs Hamps for her share +in the catastrophe. He honestly thought he had recovered from the +catastrophe undisfigured, even unmarked. He knew not that he would +never be the same man again, and that his lightest gesture and his +lightest glance were touched with the wistfulness of resignation. He +had frankly accepted the fate of a printer. And in business he was +convinced, despite his father's capricious complaints, that he had +acquitted himself well. In all the details of the business he +considered himself superior to his father. And Big James would +invariably act on his secret instructions given afterwards to counteract +some misguided hasty order of the old man's. + +It was the emptiness of the record of his private life that he +condemned. What had he done for himself? Nothing large! Nothing +heroic and imposing! He had meant to pursue certain definite courses of +study, to become the possessor of certain definite groups of books, to +continue his drawing and painting, to practise this, that and the other, +to map out all his spare time, to make rules and to keep them,--all to +the great end of self-perfecting. He had said: "What does it matter +whether I am an architect or a printer, so long as I improve myself to +the best of my powers?" He hated young men who talked about improving +themselves. He spurned the Young Men's Mutual Improvement Society +(which had succeeded the Debating Society--defunct through +over-indulgence in early rising). Nevertheless in his heart he was far +more enamoured of the idea of improvement than the worst prig of them +all. He could never for long escape from the dominance of the idea. He +might violently push it away, arguing that it could lead to nothing and +was futile and tedious; back it would come! It had always worried him. + +And yet he had accomplished nothing. His systems of reading never +worked for more than a month at a time. And for several months at a +time he simply squandered his spare hours, the hours that were his very +own, in a sort of coma of crass stupidity, in which he seemed to be +thinking of nothing whatever. He had not made any friends whom he could +esteem. He had not won any sort of notice. He was remarkable for +nothing. He was not happy. He was not content. He had the +consciousness of being a spendthrift of time and of years... A fair +quantity of miscellaneous reading--that was all he had done. He was not +a student. He knew nothing about anything. He had stood still. + +Thus he upbraided himself. And against this futility was his courage +now braced by the inspiration of the new house, and tightened to a +smarting tension by the brief interview with Janet Orgreave. He was +going to do several feats at once: tackle his father, develop into a +right expert on _some_ subject, pursue his painting, and--for the moment +this had the chief importance--`come out of his shell.' He meant to be +social, to impress himself on others, to move about, to form +connections, to be Edwin Clayhanger, an individuality in the town,--to +live. Why had he refused Janet's invitation? Mere silliness. The old +self nauseated the new. But the next instant he sought excuses for the +old self... Wait a bit! There was time yet. + +He was happy in the stress of one immense and complex resolve. + + + +VOLUME TWO, CHAPTER FIVE. + +CLOTHES. + +He heard voices below. And his soul seemed to shrink back, as if into +the recesses of the shell from which it had been peeping. His soul was +tremendous, in solitude; but even the rumour of society intimidated it. +His father and another were walking about the ground floor; the rough +voice of his father echoed upwards in all its crudity. He listened for +the other voice; it was his Auntie Clara's. Darius too had taken his +Saturday afternoon for a leisurely visit to the house, and somehow he +must have encountered Mrs Hamps, and brought her with him to view. + +Without giving himself time to dissipate his courage in reflection, he +walked to the landing, and called down the stairs, "Hello, Auntie!" + +Why should his tone have been self-conscious, forced? He was engaged in +no crime. He had told his father where he was going, and his father had +not contradicted his remark that even if both of them happened to be out +together, the shop would take no harm under the sole care of Stifford +for an hour in the quiet of Saturday afternoon. + +Mrs Hamps replied, in her coaxing, sweet manner. + +"What did ye leave th' front door open for?" his father demanded curtly, +and every room in the house heard the question. + +"Was it open?" he said lamely. + +"Was it open! All Trafalgar Road could have walked in and made +themselves at home." + +Edwin stood leaning with his arms on the rail of the landing. Presently +the visitors appeared at the foot of the stairs, and Darius climbed +carefully, having first shaken the balustrade to make sure that it was +genuine, stout, and well-founded. Mrs Hamps followed, the fripperies +of her elegant bonnet trembling, and her black gown rustling. Edwin +smiled at her, and she returned his smile with usurious interest. There +was now a mist of grey in her fine hair. + +"Oh, Edwin!" she began, breathing relief on the top stair. "What a +beautiful house! Beautiful! Quite perfect! The latest of everything! +Do you know what I've been thinking while your dear father has been +showing me all this. So that's the bathroom! Bless us! Hot! Cold! +Waste! That cupboard under the lavatory is very handy, but what a snare +for a careless servant! Maggie will have to look at it every day, or +it'll be used for anything and everything. You tell her what her auntie +says... I was thinking--if but your mother could have seen it all!" + +Father and son said nothing. Auntie Hamps sighed. She was the only +person who ever referred to the late Mrs Clayhanger. + +The procession moved on from room to room, Darius fingering and +grunting, Mrs Hamps discovering in each detail the fine flower of utter +perfection, and Edwin strolling loosely in the wake of her curls, her +mantle, and her abundant black petticoats. He could detect the odour of +her kid gloves; it was a peculiar odour that never escaped him, and it +reminded him inevitably of his mother's funeral. + +He was glad that they had not arrived during the visit of Janet +Orgreave. + +In due course Edwin's bedroom was reached, and here Auntie Clara's +ecstasy was redoubled. + +"I'm sure you're very grateful to your father, aren't you, Edwin?" she +majestically assumed, when she had admired passionately the window, the +door, the pattern of the hearth-tiles, and the spaciousness. + +Edwin could not speak. Inquiries of this nature from Mrs Hamps +paralysed the tongues of the children. They left nothing to be said. A +sheepish grin, preceded by an inward mute curse, was all that Edwin +could accomplish. How in heaven's name could the woman talk in that +strain? His attitude towards his auntie was assuredly hardening with +years. + +"What's all this?" questioned his father suddenly, pointing to upright +boards that had been fastened to the walls on either side of the +mantelpiece, to a height of about three feet. + +Then Edwin perceived the clumsiness of his tactics in remaining +upstairs. He ought to have gone downstairs to meet his father and +auntie, and left them to go up alone. His father was in an inquisitive +mood. + +"It's for shelves," he said. + +"Shelves?" + +"For my books. It's Mr Orgreave's idea. He says it'll cost less." + +"Cost less! Mr Orgreave's got too many ideas--that's what's the matter +with him. He'll idea me into the bankruptcy court if he keeps on." + +Edwin would have liked to protest against the savagery of the tone, to +inquire firmly why, since shelves were necessary for books and he had +books, there need be such a display of ill-temper about a few feet of +deal plank. The words were ready, the sentences framed in his mind. +But he was silent. The door was locked on these words, but it was not +Edwin who had turned the key; it was some force within him, over which +he had no control. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +"Now, now, father!" intervened Mrs Hamps. "You know you've said over +and over again how glad you are he's so fond of books, and never goes +out. There isn't a better boy in Bursley. That I will say, and to his +face." She smiled like an angel at both of them. + +"_You_ say! _You_ say!" Darius remarked curtly, trying to control +himself. A few years ago he would never have used such violent demeanour +in her presence. + +"And how much easier these shelves will be to keep clean than a +bookcase! No polishing. Just a rub, and a wipe with a damp cloth now +and then. And no dirt underneath. They will do away with four corners, +anyhow. That's what I think of--eh, poor Maggie! Keeping all this +clean. There'll be work for two women night and day, early and late, +and even then--But it's a great blessing to have water on every floor, +that it is! And people aren't so particular nowadays as they used to +be, I fancy. I fancy that more and more." Mrs Hamps sighed, +cheerfully bearing up. + +Without a pause she stepped quickly across to Edwin. He wondered what +she was at. She merely straightened down the collar of his coat, which, +unknown to him, had treacherously allowed itself to remain turned up +behind. It had probably been thus misbehaving itself since before +dinner, when he had washed. + +"Now, I do like my nephew to be tidy," said Mrs Hamps affectionately. +"I'm very jealous for my nephew." She caressed the shoulders of the +coat, and Edwin had to stand still and submit. "Let me see, it's your +birthday next month, isn't it?" + +"Yes, auntie." + +"Well, I know he hasn't got a lot of money. And I know his father +hasn't any money to spare just now--what with all these expenses--the +house--" + +"Ye may well say it, sister!" Darius growled. + +"I saw you the day before yesterday. My nephew didn't see me, but his +auntie saw him. Oh, never mind where. And I said to myself; `I should +like my only nephew to have a suit a little better than that when he +goes up and down on his father's business. What a change it would be if +his old auntie gave him a new suit for a birthday present this year!'" + +"Oh, auntie." + +She spoke in a lower voice. "You come and see me to-morrow, and I shall +have a little piece of paper in an envelope waiting for you. And you +must choose something really good. You've got excellent taste, we all +know that. And this will be a new start for you. A new year, and a new +start, and we shall see how neat and spruce you'll keep yourself in +future, eh?" + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +It was insufferable. But it was fine. Who could deny that Auntie Clara +was not an extraordinary, an original, and a generous woman? What a +masterly reproof to both father and son! Perhaps not delicately +administered. Yet Auntie Clara had lavished all the delicacy of her +nature on the administering! + +To Edwin, it seemed like an act of God in his favour. It seemed to set +a divine seal on his resolutions. It was the most astonishing and +apposite piece of luck that had ever happened to him. When he had +lamely thanked the benefactor, he slipped away as soon as he could. +Already he could feel the crinkling of the five-pound note in his hand. +Five pounds! He had never had a suit that cost more than fifty +shillings. He slipped away. A great resolve was upon him. Shillitoe +closed at four o'clock on Saturday afternoons. There was just time. He +hurried down Trafalgar Road in a dream. And when he had climbed Duck +Bank he turned to the left, and without stopping he burst into +Shillitoe's. Not from eagerness to enter Shillitoe's, but because if he +had hesitated he might never have entered at all: he might have slunk +away to the old undistinguished tailor in Saint Luke's Square. +Shillitoe was the stylish tailor. Shillitoe made no display of goods, +scorning such paltry devices. Shillitoe had wire blinds across the +lower part of his window, and on the blinds, in gold, "Gentlemen's +tailor and outfitter. Breeches-maker." Above the blind could be seen a +few green cardboard boxes. Shillitoe made breeches for men who hunted. +Shillitoe's lowest price for a suit was notoriously four guineas. +Shillitoe's was the resort of the fashionable youth of the town and +district. It was a terrific adventure for Edwin to enter Shillitoe's. +His nervousness was painful. He seemed to have a vague idea that +Shillitoe might sneer at him. However, he went in. The shop was empty. +He closed the door, as he might have closed the door of a dentist's. +He said to himself; "Well, I'm here!" He wondered what his father would +say on hearing that he had been to Shillitoe's. And what would Clara +have said, had she been at home? Then Shillitoe in person came forward +from the cutting-out room and Shillitoe's tone and demeanour reassured +him. + + + +VOLUME TWO, CHAPTER SIX. + +JANET LOSES HER BET. + +Accident--that is to say, a chance somewhat more fortuitous than the +common hazards which we group together and call existence--pushed Edwin +into the next stage of his career. As, on one afternoon in late June, +he was turning the corner of Trafalgar Road to enter the shop, he +surprisingly encountered Charlie Orgreave, whom he had not seen for +several years. And when he saw this figure, at once fashionably and +carelessly dressed, his first thought was one of deep satisfaction that +he was wearing his new Shillitoe suit of clothes. He had scarcely worn +the suit at all, but that afternoon his father had sent him over to +Hanbridge about a large order from Bostocks, the recently established +drapers there whose extravagant advertising had shocked and pained the +commerce of the Five Towns. Darius had told him to `titivate himself,' +a most startling injunction from Darius, and thus the new costly suit +had been, as it were, officially blessed and henceforth could not be +condemned. + +"How do, Teddy?" Charlie greeted him. "I've just been in to see you at +your shop." + +Edwin paused. + +"Hello! The Sunday!" he said quietly. And he kept thinking, as his +eyes noted details of Charlie's raiment, "It's a bit of luck I've got +these clothes on." And he was in fact rather sorry that Charlie +probably paid no real attention to clothes. The new suit had caused +Edwin to look at everybody's clothes, had caused him to walk +differently, and to put his shoulders back, and to change the style of +his collars; had made a different man of Edwin. + +"Come in, will you?" Edwin suggested. + +They went into the shop together. Stifford smiled at them both, as if +to felicitate them on the chance which had brought them together. + +"Come in here," said Edwin, indicating the small office. + +"The lion's den, eh?" observed the Sunday. + +He, as much as Edwin, was a little tongue-tied and nervous. + +"Sit down, will you?" said Edwin, shutting the door. "No, take the +arm-chair. I'll absquatulate on the desk. I'd no idea you were down. +When did you come?" + +"Last night, last train. Just a freak, you know." + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +They were within a foot of each other in the ebonised cubicle. Edwin's +legs were swinging a few inches away from the arm-chair. His hat was at +the back of his head, and Charlie's hat was at the back of Charlie's +head. This was their sole point of resemblance. As Edwin +surreptitiously examined the youth who had once been his intimate +friend, he experienced the half-sneering awe of the provincial for the +provincial who has become a Londoner. Charlie was changed; even his +accent was changed. He and Edwin belonged to utterly different worlds +now. They seldom saw the same scenes or thought the same things. But +of course they were obliged by loyalty to the past to pretend that +nothing was changed. + +"You've not altered much," said Edwin. + +And indeed, when Charlie smiled, he was almost precisely the old Sunday, +despite his metropolitan mannerisms. And there was nothing whatever in +his figure or deportment to show that he had lived for several years in +France and could chatter in a language whose verbs had four +conjugations. After all, he was less formidable than Edwin might have +anticipated. + +"_You_ have, anyhow," said Charlie. + +Edwin grinned self-consciously. + +"I suppose you've got this place practically in your own hands now," +said Charlie. "I wish _I_ was on my own, I can tell you that." + +An instinctive gesture from Edwin made Charlie lower his voice in the +middle of a sentence. The cubicle had the appearance, but not the +reality, of being private. + +"Don't you make any mistake," Edwin murmured. He, who depended on his +aunt's generosity for clothes, the practical ruler of the place! Still +he was glad that Charlie supposed that he ruled, even though the +supposition might be mere small-talk. "You're in that hospital, aren't +you?" + +"Bart's." + +"Bart's, is it? Yes, I remember. I expect you aren't thinking of +settling down here?" + +Charlie was about to reply in accents of disdain: "Not me!" But his +natural politeness stayed his tongue. "I hardly think so," he said. +"Too much competition here. So there is everywhere, for the matter of +that." The disillusions of the young doctor were already upon Charlie. +And yet people may be found who will assert that in those days there was +no competition, that competition has been invented during the past ten +years. + +"_You_ needn't worry about competition," said Edwin. + +"Why not?" + +"Why not, man! Nothing could ever stop you from getting patients--with +that smile! You'll simply walk straight into anything you want." + +"You think so?" Charlie affected an ironic incredulity, but he was +pleased. He had met the same theory in London. + +"Well, you didn't suppose degrees and things had anything to do with it, +did you?" said Edwin, smiling a little superiorly. He felt, with +pleasure, that he was still older than the Sunday; and it pleased him +also to be able thus to utilise ideas which he had formed from +observation but which by diffidence and lack of opportunity he had never +expressed. "All a patient wants is to be smiled at in the right way," +he continued, growing bolder. "Just look at 'em!" + +"Look at who?" + +"The doctors here." He dropped his voice further. "Do you know why the +dad's gone to Heve?" + +"Gone to Heve, has he? Left old Who-is-it?" + +"Yes. I don't say Heve isn't clever, but it's his look that does the +trick for him." + +"You seem to go about noticing things. Any charge?" + +Edwin blushed and laughed. Their nervousness was dissipated. Each was +reassured of the old basis of `decency' in the other. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +"Look here," said Charlie. "I can't stop now." + +"Hold on a bit." + +"I only called to tell you that you've simply _got_ to come up to-night." + +"Come up where?" + +"To our place. You've simply _got_ to." + +The secret fact was that Edwin had once more been under discussion in +the house of the Orgreaves. And Osmond Orgreave had lent Janet a +shilling so that she might bet Charlie a shilling that he would not +succeed in bringing Edwin to the house. The understanding was that if +Janet won, her father was to take sixpence of the gain. Janet herself +had failed to lure Edwin into the house. He was so easy to approach and +so difficult to catch. Janet was slightly piqued. + +As for Edwin, he was postponing the execution of all his good +resolutions until he should be installed in the new house. He could not +achieve highly difficult tasks under conditions of expectancy and +derangement. The whole Clayhanger premises were in a suppressed state +of being packed up. In a week the removal would occur. Until the +removal was over and the new order was established Edwin felt that he +could still conscientiously allow his timidity to govern him, and so he +had remained in his shell. The sole herald of the new order was the new +suit. + +"Oh! I can't come--not to-night." + +"Why not?" + +"We're so busy." + +"Bosh to that!" + +"Some other night." + +"No. I'm going back to-morrow. Must. Now look here, old man, come on. +I shall be very disappointed if you don't." + +Edwin wondered why he could not accept and be done with it, instead of +persisting in a sequence of insincere and even lying hesitations. But +he could not. + +"That's all right," said Charlie, as if clinching the affair. Then he +lowered his voice to a scarce audible confidential whisper. "Fine girl +staying up there just now!" His eyes sparkled. + +"Oh! At your place?" Edwin adopted the same cautious tone. Stifford, +outside, strained his ears--in vain. The magic word `girl' had in an +instant thrown the shop into agitation. The shop was no longer +provincial; it became a part of the universal. + +"Yes. Haven't you seen her about?" + +"No. Who is she?" + +"Oh! Friend of Janet's. Hilda Lessways, her name is. I don't know +much of her myself." + +"Bit of all right, is she?" Edwin tried in a whisper to be a man of +vast experience and settled views. He tried to whisper as though he +whispered about women every day of his life. He thought that these +Londoners were terrific on the subject of women, and he did his best to +reach their level. He succeeded so well that Charlie, who, as a man, +knew more of London than of the provinces, thought that after all London +was nothing in comparison to the seeming-quiet provinces. Charlie +leaned back in his chair, drew down the corners of his mouth, nodded his +head knowingly, and then quite spoiled the desired effect of doggishness +by his delightfully candid smile. Neither of them had the least +intention of disrespect towards the fine girl who was on their lips. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +Edwin said to himself: "Is it possible that he has come down specially +to see this Hilda?" He thought enviously of Charlie as a free bird of +the air. + +"What's she like?" Edwin inquired. + +"You come up and see," Charlie retorted. + +"Not to-night," said the fawn, in spite of Edwin. + +"You come to-night, or I perish in the attempt," said Charlie, in his +natural voice. This phrase from their school-days made them both laugh +again. They were now apparently as intimate as ever they had been. + +"All right," said Edwin. "I'll come." + +"Sure?" + +"Yes." + +"Come for a sort of supper at eight." + +"Oh!" Edwin drew back. "Supper? I didn't--Suppose I come after supper +for a bit?" + +"Suppose you don't!" Charlie snorted, sticking his chin out. "I'm off +now. Must." + +They stood a moment together at the door of the shop, in the declining +warmth of the summer afternoon, mutually satisfied. + +"So-long!" + +"So-long!" + +The Sunday elegantly departed. Edwin had given his word, and he felt as +he might have felt had surgeons just tied him to the operating-table. +Nevertheless he was not ill-pleased with his own demeanour in front of +Charlie. And he liked Charlie as much as ever. He should rely on +Charlie as a support during this adventure into the worldly regions +peopled by fine girls. He pictured this Hilda as being more romantic +and strange than Janet Orgreave; he pictured her as mysteriously +superior. And he was afraid of his own image of her. + +At tea in the dismantled sitting-room, though he was going out to +supper, he ate quite as much tea as usual, from sheer poltroonery. He +said as casually as he could-- + +"By the way, Charlie Orgreave called this afternoon." + +"Did he?" said Maggie. + +"He's off back to London to-morrow. He would have me slip up there +to-night to see him." + +"And shall you?" + +"I think so," said Edwin, with an appearance of indecision. "I may as +well." + +It was the first time that there had ever been question of him visiting +a private house, except his aunt's, at night. To him the moment marked +an epoch, the inception of freedom; but the phlegmatic Maggie showed no +sign of excitement--("Clara would have gone into a fit!" he reflected)-- +and his father only asked a casual question about Charlie. + + + +VOLUME TWO, CHAPTER SEVEN. + +LANE END HOUSE. + +Here was another of those impressive square halls, on the other side of +the suddenly opened door of Lane End House. But Edwin was now getting +accustomed to square halls. Nevertheless he quaked as he stood on the +threshold. An absurd young man! He wondered whether he would ever +experience the sensation of feeling authentically grown-up. Behind him +in the summer twilight lay the large oval lawn, and the gates which once +had doubtless marked the end of Manor Lane--now Oak Street. And +actually he had an impulse to rush back upon his steps, and bring on +himself eternal shame. The servant, however, primly held him with her +eyes alone, and he submitted to her sway. + +"Mr Charles in?" he inquired glumly, affecting nonchalance. + +The servant bowed her head with a certain condescending deference, as +who should say: "Do not let us pretend that they are not expecting you." + +A door to the right opened. Janet was revealed, and, behind her, +Charlie. Both were laughing. There was a sound of a piano. As soon as +Charlie caught sight of Edwin he exclaimed to Janet-- + +"Where's my bob?" + +"Charlie!" she protested, checking her laughter. + +"Why! What have I said?" Charlie inquired, with mock innocence, +perceiving that he had been indiscreet, and trying to remedy his rash +mistake. "Surely I can say `bob'!" + +Edwin understood nothing of this brief passage. Janet, ignoring Charlie +and dismissing the servant with an imperceptible sign, advanced to the +visitor. She was dressed in white, and Edwin considered her to be +extraordinarily graceful, dignified, sweet, and welcoming. There was a +peculiar charm in the way in which her skirts half-reluctantly followed +her along the carpet, causing beautiful curves of drapery from the +waist. And her smile was so warm and so sincere! For the moment she +really felt that Edwin's presence in the house satisfied the keenest of +her desires, and of course her face generously expressed what she felt. + +"Well, Miss Orgreave," Edwin grinned. "Here I am, you see!" + +"And we're delighted," said Janet simply, taking his hand. She might +have amiably teased him about the protracted difficulties of getting +him. She might have hinted an agreeable petulance against the fact that +the brother had succeeded where the sister had failed. Her sisterly +manner to Charlie a little earlier had perhaps shown flashes of such +thoughts in her mind. But no. In the presence of Edwin, Janet's +extreme good-nature forgot everything save that he was there, a stranger +to be received and cherished. + +"Here! Give us that tile," said Charlie. + +"Beautiful evening," Edwin observed. + +"Oh! Isn't it!" breathed Janet, in ecstasy, and gazed from the front +door into the western sky. "We were out on the lawn, but mother said it +was damp. It wasn't," she laughed. "But if you think it's damp, it is +damp, isn't it? Will you come and see mother? Charlie, you can leave +the front door open." + +Edwin said to himself that she had all the attractiveness of a girl and +of a woman. She preceded him towards the door to the right. Charlie +hovered behind, on springs. Edwin, nervously pulling out his +handkerchief and putting it back, had a confused vision of the hall full +of little pictures, plates, stools, rugs, and old sword-sheaths. There +seemed to him to be far more knick-knacks in that hall than in the whole +of his father's house; Mr Orgreave's ingeniously contrived bookshelves +were simply overlaid and smothered in knick-knacks. Janet pushed at the +door, and the sound of the piano suddenly increased in volume. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +There was no cessation of the music as the three entered. As it were +beneath the music, Mrs Orgreave, a stout and faded calm lady, greeted +him kindly: "Mr Edwin!" She was shorter than Janet, but Edwin could +see Janet in her movements and in her full lips. "Well, Edwin!" said +Osmond Orgreave with lazy and distinguished good-nature, shaking hands. +Jimmie and Johnnie, now aged nineteen and eighteen respectively, were in +the room; Johnnie was reading; their blushing awkwardness in salutation +and comic efforts to be curtly benevolent in the manner of clubmen +somewhat eased the tension in Edwin. They addressed him as +`Clayhanger.' The eldest and the youngest child of the family sat at +the piano in the act of performing a duet. Tom, pale, slight, +near-sighted and wearing spectacles, had reached the age of thirty-two, +and was junior partner in a firm of solicitors at Hanbridge; Bursley +seldom saw him. Alicia had the delightful gawkiness of twelve years. +One only of the seven children was missing. Marian, aged thirty, and +married in London, with two little babies; Marian was adored by all her +brothers and sisters, and most by Janet, who, during visits of the +married sister, fell back with worshipping joy into her original +situation of second daughter. + +Edwin, Charles, and Janet sat down on a sofa. It was not until after a +moment that Edwin noticed an ugly young woman who sat behind the players +and turned over the pages of music for them. "Surely that can't be his +wonderful Hilda!" Edwin thought. In the excitement of arrival he had +forgotten the advertised Hilda. Was that she? The girl could be no +other. Edwin made the reflection that all men make: "Well, it's +astonishing what other fellows like!" And, having put down Charlie +several points in his esteem, he forgot Hilda. + +Evidently loud and sustained conversation was not expected nor desired +while the music lasted. And Edwin was glad of this. It enabled him to +get his breath and his bearings in what was to him really a tremendous +ordeal. And in fact he was much more agitated than even he imagined. +The room itself abashed him. + +Everybody, including Mr Orgreave, had said that the Clayhanger +drawing-room with its bay-window was a fine apartment. But the Orgreave +drawing-room had a bay-window and another large window; it was twice as +big as the Clayhangers' and of an interesting irregular shape. Although +there were in it two unoccupied expanses of carpet, it nevertheless +contained what seemed to Edwin immense quantities of furniture of all +sorts. Easy-chairs were common, and everywhere. Several bookcases rose +to the low ceiling; dozens and dozens of pictures hid the walls; each +corner had its little society of objects; cushions and candlesticks +abounded; the piano was a grand, and Edwin was astounded to see another +piano, a small upright, in the farther distance; there were even two +fireplaces, with two mirrors, two clocks, two sets of ornaments, and two +embroidered screens. The general effect was of extraordinary lavish +profusion--of wilful, splendid, careless extravagance. + +Yet the arm of the sofa on which Edwin leaned was threadbare in two +different places. The room was faded and worn, like its mistress. Like +its mistress it seemed to exhale a silent and calm authority, based on +historic tradition. + +And the room was historic; it had been the theatre of history. For +twenty-five years--ever since Tom was seven--it had witnessed the +adventurous domestic career of the Orgreaves, so quiet superficially, so +exciting in reality. It was the drawing-room of a man who had +consistently used immense powers of industry for the satisfaction of his +prodigal instincts; it was the drawing-room of a woman whose placidity +no danger could disturb, and who cared for nothing if only her husband +was amused. Spend and gain! And, for a change, gain and spend! That +was the method. Work till sheer exhaustion beat you. Plan, scheme, +devise! Satisfy your curiosity and your other instincts! Experiment! +Accept risks! Buy first, order first, pledge yourself first; and then +split your head in order to pay and to redeem! When chance aids you to +accumulate, let the pile grow, out of mere perversity, and then scatter +it royally! Play heartily! Play with the same intentness as you work! +Live to the uttermost instant and to the last flicker of energy! Such +was the spirit of Osmond Orgreave, and the spirit which reigned in the +house generally, if not in every room of the house. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +For each child had its room--except Jimmie and Johnnie, who shared one. +And each room was the fortress of an egoism, the theatre of a separate +drama, mysterious, and sacred from the others. Jimmie could not +remember having been in Janet's room--it was forbidden by Alicia, who +was jealous of her sole right of entree--and nobody would have dreamed +of violating the chamber of Jimmie and Johnnie to discover the origin of +peculiar noises that puzzled the household at seven o'clock in the +morning. As for Tom's castle--it was a legend to the younger children; +it was supposed to be wondrous. + +All the children had always cost money, and a great deal of money, until +Marian had left the family in deep gloom for her absence, and Tom, with +a final wrench of a vast sum from the willing but wincing father, had +settled into a remunerative profession. Tom was now keeping himself and +repaying the weakened parent. The rest cost more and more every year as +their minds and bodies budded and flowered. It was endless, it was +staggering, it would not bear thinking about. The long and varied +chronicle of it was somehow written on the drawing-room as well as on +the faces of the father and mother--on the drawing-room which had the +same dignified, childlike, indefatigable, invincible, jolly expression +as its owners. Threadbare in places? And why not? The very identical +Turkey carpet at which Edwin gazed in his self-consciousness--on that +carpet Janet the queenly and mature had sprawled as an infant while her +mother, a fresh previous Janet of less than thirty, had cooed and said +incomprehensible foolishness to her. Tom was patriarchal because he had +vague memories of an earlier drawing-room, misted in far antiquity. +Threadbare? By heaven, its mere survival was magnificent! I say that +it was a miraculous drawing-room. Its chairs were humanised. Its +little cottage piano that nobody ever opened now unless Tom had gone mad +on something for two pianos, because it was so impossibly tinny--the +cottage piano could humanly recall the touch of a perfect baby when +Marian the wife sat down to it. Marian was one of your silly +sentimental nice things; on account of its associations, she really +preferred the cottage piano to the grand. The two carpets were both +resigned, grim old humanities, used to dirty heels, and not caring, or +pretending not to care. What did the curtains know of history? Naught. +They were always new; they could not last. But even the newest +curtains would at once submit to the influence of the room, and take on +something of its physiognomy, and help to express its comfortableness. +You could not hang a week in front of one of those windows without being +subtly informed by the tradition of adventurous happiness that presided +over the room. It was that: a drawing-room in which a man and a woman, +and boys and girls, had been on the whole happy, if often apprehensive. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +The music began to engage Edwin's attention. It was music of a kind +quite novel to him. Most of it had no meaning for him, but at intervals +some fragment detached itself from the mass, and stood out beautiful. +It was as if he were gazing at a stage in gloom, but lighted momentarily +by fleeting rays that revealed a lovely detail and were bafflingly cut +off. Occasionally he thought he noticed a recurrence of the same +fragment. Murmurs came from behind the piano. He looked cautiously. +Alicia was making faces of alarm and annoyance. She whispered: "Oh +dear! ... It's no use! ... We're all wrong, I'm sure!" Tom kept his +eyes on the page in front of him, doggedly playing. Then Edwin was +conscious of dissonances. And then the music stopped. + +"Now, Alicia," her father protested mildly, "you mustn't be nervous." + +"Nervous!" exclaimed Alicia. "Tom's just as nervous as I am! So _he_ +needn't talk." She was as red as a cock's crest. + +Tom was not talking. He pointed several times violently to a place on +Alicia's half of the open book--she was playing the bass part. "There! +There!" The music recommenced. + +"She's always nervous like that," Janet whispered kindly, "when any +one's here. But she doesn't like to be told." + +"She plays splendidly," Edwin responded. "Do you play?" + +Janet shook her head. + +"Yes, she does," Charlie whispered. + +"Keep on, darling. You're at the end now." Edwin heard a low, stern +voice. That must be the voice of Hilda. A second later, he looked +across, and surprised her glance, which was intensely fixed on himself. +She dropped her eyes quickly; he also. + +Then he felt by the nature of the chords that the piece was closing. +The music ceased. Mr Orgreave clapped his hands. "Bravo! Bravo!" + +"Why," cried Charlie to the performers, "you weren't within ten bars of +each other!" And Edwin wondered how Charlie could tell that. As for +him, he did not know enough of music to be able to turn over the pages +for others. He felt himself to be an ignoramus among a company of +brilliant experts. + +"Well," said Mr Orgreave, "I suppose we may talk a bit now. It's more +than our place is worth to breathe aloud while these Rubinsteins are +doing Beethoven!" He looked at Edwin, who grinned. + +"Oh! My word!" smiled Mrs Orgreave, supporting her hand. + +"Beethoven, is it?" Edwin muttered. He was acquainted only with the +name, and had never heard it pronounced as Mr Orgreave pronounced it. + +"One symphony a night!" Mr Orgreave said, with irony. "And we're only +at the second, it seems. Seven more to come. What do you think of that, +Edwin?" + +"Very fine!" + +"Let's have the `Lost Chord,' Janet," Mr Orgreave suggested. + +There was a protesting chorus of "Oh, dad!" + +"Very well! Very well!" the father murmured, acting humility. "I'm +snubbed!" + +Tom had now strolled across the room, smiling to himself, and looking at +the carpet, in an effort to behave as one who had done nothing in +particular. + +"How d'ye do, Clayhanger?" He greeted Edwin, and grasped his hand in a +feverish clutch. "You must excuse us. We aren't used to audiences. +That's the worst of being rotten amateurs." + +Edwin rose. "Oh!" he deprecated. He had never spoken to Tom Orgreave +before, but Tom seemed ready to treat him at once as an established +acquaintance. + +Then Alicia had to come forward and shake hands. She could not get a +word out. + +"Now, baby!" Charlie teased her. + +She tossed her mane, and found refuge by her mother's side. Mrs +Orgreave caressed the mane into order. + +"This is Miss Lessways. Hilda--Mr Edwin Clayhanger." Janet drew the +dark girl towards her as the latter hovered uncertainly in the middle of +the room, her face forced into the look of elaborate negligence +conventionally assumed by every self-respecting person who waits to be +introduced. She took Edwin's hand limply, and failed to meet his +glance. Her features did not soften. Edwin was confirmed in the +impression of her obdurate ugliness. He just noticed her olive skin and +black eyes and hair. She was absolutely different in type from any of +the Clayhangers. The next instant she and Charlie were talking +together. + +Edwin felt the surprised relief of one who has plunged into the sea and +discovers himself fairly buoyant on the threatening waves. + +"Janet," asked Mrs Orgreave, "will supper be ready?" + +In the obscurer corners of the room grey shadows gathered furtively, +waiting their time. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +"Seen my latest, Charlie?" asked Tom, in his thin voice. + +"No, what is it?" Charlie replied. The younger brother was flattered +by this proof of esteem from the elder, but he did his best by +casualness of tone to prevent the fact from transpiring. + +All the youths were now standing in a group in the middle of the +drawing-room. Their faces showed pale and more distinct than their +bodies in the darkening twilight. Mrs Orgreave, her husband, and the +girls had gone into the dining-room. + +Tom Orgreave, with the gestures of a precisian, drew a bunch of keys +from his pocket, and unlocked a rosewood bookcase that stood between the +two windows. Jimmie winked to Johnnie, and included Edwin in the +fellowship of the wink, which meant that Tom was more comic than Tom +thought, with his locked bookcases and his simple vanities of a +collector. Tom collected books. As Edwin gazed at the bookcase he +perceived that it was filled mainly with rich bindings. And suddenly +all his own book-buying seemed to him petty and pitiful. He saw books +in a new aspect. He had need of no instruction, of no explanation. The +amorous care with which Tom drew a volume from the bookcase was enough +in itself to enlighten Edwin completely. He saw that a book might be +more than reading matter, might be a bibelot, a curious jewel, to +satisfy the lust of the eye and of the hand. He instantly condemned his +own few books as being naught; he was ashamed of them. Each book in +that bookcase was a separate treasure. + +"See this, my boy?" said Tom, handing to Charlie a calf-bound volume, +with a crest on the sides. "Six volumes. Picked them up at Stafford-- +Assizes, you know. It's the Wilbraham crest. I never knew they'd been +selling their library." + +Charlie accepted the book with respect. Its edges were gilt, and the +paper thin and soft. Edwin looked over his shoulder, and saw the +title-page of Victor Hugo's "Notre-Dame de Paris," in French. The +volume had a most romantic, foreign, even exotic air. Edwin desired it +fervently, or something that might rank equal with it. + +"How much did they stick you for this lot?" asked Charlie. + +Tom held up one finger. + +"Quid?" Charlie wanted to be sure. Tom nodded. + +"Cheap as dirt, of course!" said Tom. "Binding's worth more than that. +Look at the other volumes. Look at them!" + +"Pity it's only a second edition," said Charlie. + +"Well, damn it, man! One can't have everything." + +Charlie passed the volume to Edwin, who fingered it with the strangest +delight. Was it possible that this exquisitely delicate and uncustomary +treasure, which seemed to exhale all the charm of France and the savour +of her history, had been found at Stafford? He had been to Stafford +himself. He had read "Notre-Dame" himself, but in English, out of a +common book like any common book--not out of a bibelot. + +"You've read it, of course, Clayhanger?" Tom said. + +"Oh!" Edwin answered humbly. "Only in a translation." Yet there was a +certain falseness in his humility, for he was proud of having read the +work. What sort of a duffer would he have appeared had he been obliged +to reply `No'? + +"You ought to read French _in_ French," said Tom, kindly authoritative. + +"Can't," said Edwin. + +"Bosh!" Charlie cried. "You were always spiffing in French. You could +simply knock spots off me." + +"And do you read French in French, the Sunday?" Edwin asked. + +"Well," said Charlie, "I must say it was Thomas put me up to it. You +simply begin to read, that's all. What you don't understand, you miss. +But you soon understand. You can always look at a dictionary if you +feel like it. I usually don't." + +"I'm sure _you_ could read French easily in a month," said Tom. "They +always gave a good grounding at Oldcastle. There's simply nothing in +it." + +"Really!" Edwin murmured, relinquishing the book. "I must have a shot, +I never thought of it." And he never thought of reading French for +pleasure. He had construed Xavier de Maistre's "Voyage autour de ma +Chambre" for marks, assuredly not for pleasure. "Are there any books in +this style to be got on that bookstall in Hanbridge Market?" he inquired +of Tom. + +"Sometimes," said Tom, wiping his spectacles. "Oh yes!" + +It was astounding to Edwin how blind he had been to the romance of +existence in the Five Towns. + +"It's all very well," observed Charlie reflectively, fingering one or +two of the other volumes--"it's all very well, and Victor Hugo is Victor +Hugo; but you can say what you like--there's a lot of this that'll bear +skipping, your worships." + +"Not a line!" said a passionate, vibrating voice. + +The voice so startled and thrilled Edwin that he almost jumped, as he +looked round. To Edwin it was dramatic; it was even dangerous and +threatening. He had never heard a quiet voice so charged with intense +emotion. Hilda Lessways had come back to the room, and she stood near +the door, her face gleaming in the dusk. She stood like an Amazonian +defender of the aged poet. Edwin asked himself, "Can any one be so +excited as that about a book?" The eyes, lips, and nostrils were a +revelation to him. He could feel his heart beating. But the girl +strongly repelled him. Nobody else appeared to be conscious that +anything singular had occurred. Jimmie and Johnnie sidled out of the +room. + +"Oh! Indeed!" Charlie directed his candid and yet faintly ironic smile +upon Hilda Lessways. "Don't _you_ think that some of it's dullish, +Teddy?" + +Edwin blushed. "Well, ye-es," he answered, honestly judicial. + +"Mrs Orgreave wants to know when you're coming to supper," said Hilda, +and left. + +Tom was relocking the bookcase. + + + +VOLUME TWO, CHAPTER EIGHT. + +THE FAMILY SUPPER. + +"Now father, let's have a bottle of wine, eh?" Charlie vociferously +suggested. + +Mr Orgreave hesitated: "You'd better ask your mother." + +"Really, Charlie--" Mrs Orgreave began. + +"Oh yes!" Charlie cut her short. "Right you are, Martha!" + +The servant, who had stood waiting for a definite command during this +brief conflict of wills, glanced interrogatively at Mrs Orgreave and, +perceiving no clear prohibition in her face, departed with a smile to +get the wine. She was a servant of sound prestige, and had the +inexpressible privilege of smiling on duty. In her time she had fought +lively battles of repartee with all the children from Charlie downwards. +Janet humoured Martha, and Martha humoured Mrs Orgreave. + +The whole family (save absent Marian) was now gathered in the +dining-room, another apartment on whose physiognomy were written in +cipher the annals of the vivacious tribe. Here the curtains were drawn, +and all the interest of the room centred on the large white gleaming +table, about which the members stood or sat under the downward radiance +of a chandelier. Beyond the circle illuminated by the shaded chandelier +could be discerned dim forms of furniture and of pictures, with a glint +of high light here and there burning on the corner of some gold frame. +Mr and Mrs Orgreave sat at either end of the table. Alicia stood by +her father, with one arm half round his neck. Tom sat near his mother. +Janet and Hilda sat together, flanked by Jimmie and Johnnie, who stood, +having pushed chairs away. Charlie and Edwin stood opposite. The table +seemed to Edwin to be heaped with food: cold and yet rich remains of +bird and beast; a large fruit pie, opened; another intact; some +puddings; cheese; sandwiches; raw fruit; at Janet's elbow were cups and +saucers and a pot of coffee; a large glass jug of lemonade shone near +by; plates, glasses, and cutlery were strewn about irregularly. The +effect upon Edwin was one of immense and careless prodigality; it +intoxicated him; it made him feel that a grand profuseness was the +finest thing in life. In his own home the supper consisted of cheese, +bread, and water, save on Sundays, when cold sausages were generally +added, to make a feast. But the idea of the price of living as the +Orgreaves lived seriously startled the prudence in him. Imagine that +expense always persisting, day after day, night after night! There were +certainly at least four in the family who bought clothes at Shillitoe's, +and everybody looked elaborately costly, except Hilda Lessways, who did +not flatter the eye. But equally, they all seemed quite unconscious of +their costliness. + +"Now, Charlie darling, you must look after Mr Edwin," said Mrs +Orgreave. + +"She never calls _us_ darling," said Johnnie, affecting disgust. + +"She will, as soon as you've left home," said Janet, ironically +soothing. + +"I _do_, I often do!" Mrs Orgreave asserted. "Much oftener than you +deserve." + +"Sit down, Teddy," Charlie enjoined. + +"Oh! I'm all right, thanks," said Edwin. + +"Sit _down_!" Charlie insisted, using force. + +"Do you talk to your poor patients in that tone?" Alicia inquired, from +the shelter of her father. + +"Here I come down specially to see them," Charlie mused aloud, as he +twisted the corkscrew into the cork of the bottle, unceremoniously +handed to him by Martha, "and not only they don't offer to pay my fares, +but they grudge me a drop of claret! Plupp!" He grimaced as the cork +came out. "And my last night, too! Hilda, this is better than coffee, +as Saint Paul remarked on a famous occasion. Pass your glass." + +"Charlie!" his mother protested. "I'll thank you to leave Saint Paul +out." + +"Charlie! Your mother will be boxing your ears if you don't mind," his +father warned him. + +"I'll not have it!" said his mother, shaking her head in a fashion that +she imagined to be harsh and forbidding. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +Towards the close of the meal, Mr Orgreave said-- + +"Well, Edwin, what does your father say about Bradlaugh?" + +"He doesn't say much," Edwin replied. + +"Let me see, does he call himself a Liberal?" + +"He calls himself a Liberal," said Edwin, shifting on his chair. "Yes, +he calls himself a Liberal. But I'm afraid he's a regular old Tory." + +Edwin blushed, laughing, as half the family gave way to more or less +violent mirth. + +"Father's a regular old Tory too," Charlie grinned. + +"Oh! I'm sorry," said Edwin. + +"Yes, father's a regular old Tory," agreed Mr Orgreave. "Don't +apologise! Don't apologise! I'm used to these attacks. I've been +nearly kicked out of my own house once. But some one has to keep the +flag flying." + +It was plain that Mr Orgreave enjoyed the unloosing of the hurricane +which he had brought about. Mrs Orgreave used to say that he employed +that particular tone from a naughty love of mischief. In a moment all +the boys were upon him, except Jimmie, who, out of sheer intellectual +snobbery, as the rest averred, supported his father. Atheistical +Bradlaugh had been exciting the British public to disputation for a long +time, and the Bradlaugh question happened then to be acute. In that +very week the Northampton member had been committed to custody for +outraging Parliament, and released. And it was known that Gladstone +meant immediately to bring in a resolution for permitting members to +affirm, instead of taking oath by appealing to a God. Than this +complication of theology and politics nothing could have been better +devised to impassion an electorate which had but two genuine interests-- +theology and politics. The rumour of the feverish affair had spread to +the most isolated communities. People talked theology, and people +talked politics, who had till then only felt silently on these subjects. +In loquacious families Bradlaugh caused dissension and division, more +real perhaps than apparent, for not all Bradlaugh's supporters had the +courage to avow themselves such. It was not easy, at any rate it was +not easy in the Five Towns, for a timid man in reply to the question, +"Are you in favour of a professed Freethinker sitting in the House of +Commons?" to reply, "Yes, I am." There was something shameless in that +word `professed.' If the Freethinker had been ashamed of his +freethinking, if he had sought to conceal it in phrases,--the +implication was that the case might not have been so bad. This was what +astonished Edwin: the candour with which Bradlaugh's position was upheld +in the dining-room of the Orgreaves. It was as if he were witnessing +deeds of wilful perilous daring. + +But the conversation was not confined to Bradlaugh, for Bradlaugh was +not a perfect test for separating Liberals and Tories. Nobody in the +room, for example, was quite convinced that Mr Orgreave was +anti-Bradlaugh. To satisfy their instincts for father-baiting, the boys +had to include other topics, such as Ireland and the proposal for Home +Rule. As for Mr Orgreave, he could and did always infuriate them by +refusing to answer seriously. The fact was that this was his device for +maintaining his prestige among the turbulent mob. Dignified and +brilliantly clever as Osmond Orgreave had the reputation of being in the +town, he was somehow outshone in cleverness at home, and he never put +the bar of his dignity between himself and his children. Thus he could +only keep the upper hand by allowing hints to escape from him of the +secret amusement roused in him by the comicality of the spectacle of his +filial enemies. He had one great phrase, which he would drawl out at +them with the accents of a man who is trying politely to hide his +contempt: "You'll learn better as you get older." + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +Edwin, who said little, thought the relationship between father and sons +utterly delightful. He had not conceived that parents and children ever +were or could be on such terms. + +"Now what do you say, Edwin?" Mr Orgreave asked. "Are you a--Charlie, +pass me that bottle." + +Charlie was helping himself to another glass of wine. The father, the +two elder sons, and Edwin alone had drunk of the wine. Edwin had never +tasted wine in his life, and the effect of half a glass on him was very +agreeable and strange. + +"Oh, dad! I just want a--" Charlie objected, holding the bottle in the +air above his glass. + +"Charlie," said his mother, "do you hear your father?" + +"Pass me that bottle," Mr Orgreave repeated. + +Charlie obeyed, proclaiming himself a martyr. Mr Orgreave filled his +own glass, emptying the bottle, and began to sip. + +"This will do me more good than you, young man," he said. Then turning +again to Edwin: "Are you a Bradlaugh man?" + +And Edwin, uplifted, said: "All I say is--you can't help what you +believe. You can't make yourself believe anything. And I don't see why +you should, either. There's no virtue in believing." + +"Hooray," cried the sedate Tom. + +"No virtue in believing! Eh, Mr Edwin! Mr Edwin!" + +This sad expostulation came from Mrs Orgreave. + +"Don't you see what I mean?" he persisted vivaciously, reddening. But +he could not express himself further. + +"Hooray!" repeated Tom. + +Mrs Orgreave shook her head, with grieved good-nature. + +"You mustn't take mother too seriously," said Janet, smiling. "She only +puts on that expression to keep worse things from being said. She's +only pretending to be upset. Nothing could upset her, really. She's +past being upset--she's been through so much--haven't you, you poor +dear?" + +In looking at Janet, Edwin caught the eyes of Hilda blazing on him +fixedly. Her head seemed to tremble, and he glanced away. She had +added nothing to the discussion. And indeed Janet herself had taken no +part in the politics, content merely to advise the combatants upon their +demeanour. + +"So you're against me too, Edwin!" Mr Orgreave sighed with mock +melancholy. "Well, this is no place for me." He rose, lifted Alicia +and put her into his arm-chair, and then went towards the door. + +"You aren't going to work, are you, Osmond?" his wife asked, turning her +head. + +"I am," said he. + +He disappeared amid a wailing chorus of "Oh, dad!" + + + +VOLUME TWO, CHAPTER NINE. + +IN THE PORCH. + +When the front door of the Orgreaves interposed itself that night +between Edwin and a little group of gas-lit faces, he turned away +towards the warm gloom of the garden in a state of happy excitement. He +had left fairly early, despite protests, because he wished to give his +father no excuse for a spectacular display of wrath; Edwin's desire for +a tranquil existence was growing steadily. But now that he was in the +open air, he did not want to go home. He wanted to be in full +possession of himself, at leisure and in freedom, and to examine the +treasure of his sensations. "It's been rather quiet," the Orgreaves had +said. "We generally have people dropping in." Quiet! It was the least +quiet evening he had ever spent. + +He was intoxicated; not with wine, though he had drunk wine. A group of +well-intentioned philanthropists, organised into a powerful society for +combating the fearful evils of alcoholism, had seized Edwin at the age +of twelve and made him bind himself with solemn childish signature and +ceremonies never to taste alcohol save by doctor's orders. He thought +of this pledge in the garden of the Orgreaves. "Damned rot!" he +murmured, and dismissed the pledge from his mind as utterly unimportant, +if not indeed fatuous. No remorse! The whole philosophy of asceticism +inspired him, at that moment, with impatient scorn. It was the hope of +pleasure that intoxicated him, the vision which he had had of the +possibilities of being really interested in life. He saw new avenues +toward joy, and the sight thereof made him tingle, less with the desire +to be immediately at them than with the present ecstasy of contemplating +them. He was conscious of actual physical tremors and agreeable +smartings in his head; electric disturbances. But he did not reason; he +felt. He was passive, not active. He would not even, just then, +attempt to make new plans. He was in a beatitude, his mouth unaware +that it was smiling. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +Behind him was the lighted house; in front the gloom of the lawn ending +in shrubberies and gates, with a street-lamp beyond. And there was +silence, save for the vast furnace-breathings, coming over undulating +miles, which the people of the Five Towns, hearing them always, never +hear. A great deal of diffused light filtered through the cloudy sky. +The warm wandering airs were humid on the cheek. He must return home. +He could not stand dreaming all the night in the garden of the +Orgreaves. To his right uprose the great rectangular mass of his +father's new house, entirely free of scaffolding, having all the aspect +of a house inhabited. It looked enormous. He was proud of it. In such +an abode, and so close to the Orgreaves, what could he not do? + +Why go to gaze on it again? There was no common sense in doing so. And +yet he felt: "I must have another glance at it before I go home." From +his attitude towards it, he might have been the creator of that house. +That house was like one of his more successful drawings. When he had +done a drawing that he esteemed, he was always looking at it. He would +look at it before running down to breakfast; and after breakfast, +instead of going straight to the shop, he would rush upstairs to have +still another look at it. The act of inspection gave him pleasure. So +with the house. Strange, superficially; but the simple explanation was +that for some things he had the eyes of love... Yes, in his dancing and +happy brain the impulse to revisit the house was not to be conquered. + +The few battered yards of hedge between his father's land and that of +Mr Orgreave seemed more passable in the night. He crunched along the +gravel, stepped carefully with noiseless foot on the flower-bed, and +then pushed himself right through the frail bushes, forgetting the +respect due to his suit. The beginning of summer had dried the sticky +clay of the new garden; paths had already been traced on it, and +trenches cut for the draining of the lawn that was to be. Edwin in the +night saw the new garden finished, mellow, blooming with such blossoms +as were sold in Saint Luke's Market; he had scarcely ever seen flowers +growing in the mass. He saw himself reclining in the garden with a rare +and beautiful book in his hand, while the sound of Beethoven's music +came to him through the open window of the drawing-room. In so far as +he saw Maggie at all, he saw her somehow mysteriously elegant and +vivacious. He did not see his father. His fancy had little relation to +reality. But this did not mar his pleasure... Then he saw himself +talking over the hedge, wittily, to amiable and witty persons in the +garden of the Orgreaves. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +He had not his key to the new house, but he knew a way of getting into +it through the cellar. No reason in doing so; nevertheless he must get +into it, must localise his dream in it! He crouched down under the +blank east wall, and, feet foremost, disappeared slowly, as though the +house were swallowing him. He stood on the stillage of the cellar, and +struck a match. Immense and weird, the cellar; and the doorless +doorway, leading to the cellar steps, seemed to lead to affrighting +matters. He was in the earth, in it, with the smells of damp mortar and +of bricks and of the earth itself about him, and above him rose the +house, a room over him, and a room over that and another over that, and +then the chimney-cowl up in the sky. He jumped from the stillage, and +went quickly to the doorway and saw the cellar steps. His heart was +beating. He trembled, he was afraid, exquisitely afraid, acutely +conscious of himself amid the fundamental mysteries of the universe. He +reached the top of the steps as the match expired. After a moment he +could distinguish the forms of things in the hall, even the main +features of the pattern of the tiles. The small panes in the glazed +front door, whose varied tints repeated those of the drawing-room window +in daytime, now showed a uniform dull grey, lifeless. The cellar was +formidable below, and the stairs curved upwards into the formidable. +But he climbed them. The house seemed full of inexplicable noises. +When he stopped to listen he could hear scores of different +infinitesimal sounds. His spine thrilled, as if a hand delicate and +terrible had run down it in a caress. All the unknown of the night and +of the universe was pressing upon him, but it was he alone who had +created the night and the universe. He reached his room, the room in +which he meant to inaugurate the new life and the endeavour towards +perfection. Already, after his manner, he had precisely settled where +the bed was to be, and where the table, and all the other objects of his +world. There he would sit and read rare and beautiful books in the +original French! And there he would sit to draw! And to the right of +the hearth over bookshelves would be such and such a picture, and to the +left of the hearth over bookshelves such and such another picture... +Only, now, he could not dream in the room as he had meant to dream; +because beyond the open door was the empty landing and the well of the +stairs and all the terror of the house. The terror came and mingled +with the delicious sensations that had seized him in the solitude of the +garden of the Orgreaves. No! Never had he been so intensely alive as +then! + +He went cautiously to the window and looked forth. Instantly the terror +of the house was annihilated. It fell away, was gone. He was not alone +in his fancy-created universe. The reassuring illusion of reality came +back like a clap of thunder. He could see a girl insinuating herself +through the gap in the hedge which he had made ten minutes earlier. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +"What the deuce is she after?" he muttered. He wondered whether, if she +happened to glance upwards, she would be able to see him. He stood away +a little from the window, but as in the safer position he could no +longer distinguish her he came again close to the glass. After all, +there could be no risk of her seeing him. And if she did see him,--the +fright would be hers, not his. + +Having passed through the hedge, she stopped, bent down, leaning +backward and to one side, and lifted the hem of her skirt to examine it; +possibly it was torn; then she dropped it. By that black, tight skirt +and by something in her walk he knew she was Hilda; he could not +decipher her features. She moved towards the new house, very slowly, as +if she had emerged for an aimless nocturnal stroll. Strange and +disquieting creature! He peered as far as he could leftwards, to see +the west wall of Lane End House. In a window of the upper floor a light +burned. The family had doubtless gone to bed, or were going... And she +had wandered forth solitary and was trespassing in his garden. "Cheek!" +If ever he got an opportunity he should mysteriously tease her on the +subject of illegal night excursions! Yes, he should be very witty and +ironic. "Nothing but cheek!" He was confirmed in his hostility to her. +She had no charm, and yet the entire Orgreave family was apparently +infatuated about her. Her interruption on behalf of Victor Hugo seemed +to be savage. Girls ought not to use that ruthless tone. And her eyes +were hard, even cruel. She was less feminine than masculine. Her hair +was not like a girl's hair. + +She still came on, until the projecting roof of the bay-window beneath +him hid her from sight. He would have opened his window and leaned out +to glimpse her, could he have done so without noise. Where was she? In +the garden porch? She did not reappear. She might be capable of +getting into the house! She might even then actually be getting into +the house! She was queer, incalculable. Supposing that she was in the +habit of surreptitiously visiting the house, and had found a key to fit +one of the doors, or supposing that she could push up a window,--she +would doubtless mount the stairs and trap him! Absurd, these +speculations; as absurd as a nightmare! But they influenced his +conduct. He felt himself forced to provide against the wildest hazards. +Abruptly he departed from the bedroom and descended the stairs, +stamping, clumping, with all possible noise; in addition he whistled. +This was to warn her to fly. He stopped in the hall until she had had +time to fly, and then he lit a match as a signal which surely no +carelessness could miss. He could have gone direct by the front door +into the street, so leaving her to her odd self; but, instead, he drew +back the slip-catch of the garden door and opened it, self-consciously +humming a tune. + +She was within the porch. She turned deliberately to look at him. He +could feel his heart-beats. His cheeks burned, and yet he was chilled. + +"Who's there?" he asked. But he did not succeed to his own satisfaction +in acting alarmed surprise. + +"Me!" said Hilda, challengingly, rudely. + +"Oh!" he murmured, at a loss. "Did you want me? Did any one want me?" + +"Yes," she said. "I just wanted to ask you something," she paused. He +could not see her scowling, but it seemed to him that she must be. He +remembered that she had rather thick eyebrows, and that when she brought +them nearer together by a frown, they made almost one continuous line, +the effect of which was not attractive. + +"Did you know I was in here?" + +"Yes. That's my bedroom window over there--I've left the gas up--and I +saw you get through the hedge. So I came down. They'd all gone off to +bed except Tom, and I told him I was just going a walk in the garden for +a bit. They never worry me, you know. They let me alone. I knew you'd +got into the house, by the light." + +"But I only struck a match a second ago," he protested. + +"Excuse me," she said coldly; "I saw a light quite five minutes ago." + +"Oh yes!" he apologised. "I remember. When I came up the cellar +steps." + +"I dare say you think it's very queer of me," she continued. + +"Not at all," he said quickly. + +"Yes you do," she bitterly insisted. "But I want to know. Did you mean +it when you said--you know, at supper--that there's no virtue in +believing?" + +"Did I say there was no virtue in believing?" he stammeringly demanded. + +"Of course you did!" she remonstrated. "Do you mean to say you can say +a thing like that and then forget about it? If it's true, it's one of +the most wonderful things that were ever said. And that's why I wanted +to know if you meant it or whether you were only saying it because it +sounded clever. That's what they're always doing in that house, you +know, being clever!" Her tone was invariably harsh. + +"Yes," he said simply, "I meant it. Why?" + +"You did?" Her voice seemed to search for insincerity. "Well, thank +you. That's all. It may mean a new life to me. I'm always trying to +believe; always! Aren't you?" + +"I don't know," he mumbled. "How do you mean?" + +"Well--you know!" she said, as if impatiently smashing his pretence of +not understanding her. "But perhaps you do believe?" + +He thought he detected scorn for a facile believer. "No," he said, "I +don't." + +"And it doesn't worry you? Honestly? Don't be clever! I hate that!" + +"No," he said. + +"Don't you ever think about it?" + +"No. Not often." + +"Charlie does." + +"Has he told you?" ("So she talks to the Sunday too!" he reflected.) + +"Yes; but of course I quite see why it doesn't worry you--if you +honestly think there's no virtue in believing." + +"Well," said Edwin. "_Is_ there?" The more he looked at it through her +eyes, the more wonderful profundities he discovered in that remark of +his, which at the time of uttering it had appeared to him a simple +platitude. It went exceedingly deep in many directions. + +"I hope you are right," she replied. Her voice shook. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +There was silence. To ease the strain of his self-consciousness Edwin +stepped down from the stone floor of the porch to the garden. He felt +rain. And he noticed that the sky was very much darker. + +"By Jove!" he said. "It's beginning to rain, I do believe." + +"I thought it would," she answered. + +A squall of wind suddenly surged rustling through the high trees in the +garden of the Orgreaves, and the next instant threw a handful of wild +raindrops on his cheek. + +"You'd better stand against the other wall," he suggested. "You'll +catch it there, if it keeps on." + +She obeyed. He returned to the porch, but remained in the exposed +portion of it. + +"Better come here," she said, indicating somehow her side. + +"Oh! I'm all right." + +"You needn't be afraid of me," she snapped. + +He grinned awkwardly, but said nothing, for he could not express his +secret resentment. He considered the girl to be of exceedingly +unpleasant manners. + +"Would you mind telling me the time?" she asked. + +He took out his watch, but peer as he might, he could not discern the +position of the hands. + +"Half a second," he said, and struck a match. The match was blown out +before he could look at the dial, but by its momentary flash he saw +Hilda, pressed against the wall. Her lips were tight, her eyes blazing, +her hands clenched. She frowned; she was pale, and especially pale by +contrast with the black of her plain austere dress. + +"If you'll come into the house," he said, "I can get a light there." +The door was ajar. + +"No thanks," she declined. "It doesn't really matter what time it is, +does it? Good night!" + +He divined that she was offering her hand. He clasped it blindly in the +dark. He could not refuse to shake hands. Her hand gave his a feverish +and lingering squeeze, which was like a contradicting message in the +dark night; as though she were sending through her hand a secret denial +of her spoken accents and her frown. He forgot to answer her `good +night.' A trap rattled furiously up the road. (Yes; only six yards +off, on the other side of the boundary wall, was the public road! And +he standing hidden there in the porch with this girl whom he had seen +for the first time that evening!) It was the mail-cart, rushing to +Knype. + +She did not move. She had said `good night' and shaken hands; and yet +she remained. They stood speechless. + +Then without warning, after perhaps a minute that seemed like ten +minutes, she walked away, slowly, into the rain. And as she did so, +Edwin could just see her straightening her spine and throwing back her +shoulders with a proud gesture. + +"I say, Miss Lessways!" he called in a low voice. But he had no notion +of what he wanted to say. Only her departure had unlocked his throat. + +She made no sign. Again he grinned awkwardly, a little ashamed of her +and a little ashamed of himself, because neither had behaved as woman or +man of the world. + +After a short interval he followed in her steps as far as the gap in the +hedge, which he did not find easily. There was no sign of her. The gas +burned serenely in her bedroom, and the window was open. Then he saw +the window close up a little, and an arm in front of the drawn blind. +The rain had apparently ceased. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +SIX. + +"Well, that's an eye-opener, that is!" he murmured, and thereby +expressed the situation. "Of all the damned impudence!" He somewhat +overstated his feelings, because he was posing a little to himself: an +accident that sooner or later happens to every man! "And she'll go back +and make out to Master Tom that she's just had a stroll in the garden! +Garden, indeed! And yet they're all so fearfully stuck on her." + +He nodded his head several times reflectively, as if saying, "Well, +well! What next?" And he murmured aloud: "So that's how they carry on, +is it!" He meant, of course, women... He was very genuinely astounded. + +But the chief of all his acute sensations in that moment was pride: +sheer pride. He thought, what ninety-nine men out of a hundred would +have thought in such circumstances: "She's taken a fancy to me!" +Useless to call him a conceited coxcomb, from disgust that he did not +conform to a sentimentally idealistic standard! He thought: "She's +taken a fancy to me!" And he was not a conceited coxcomb. He exulted +in the thought. Nothing had ever before so startled and uplifted him. +It constituted the supreme experience of his career as a human being. +The delightful and stimulating experience of his evening in the house of +the Orgreaves sank into unimportance by the side of it. The new avenues +towards joy which had been revealed to him appeared now to be quite +unexciting paths; he took them for granted. And he forgot the high and +serious mood of complex emotion in which he had entered the new house. +Music and the exotic flavours of a foreign language seemed a little +thing, in comparison with the feverish hand-clasp of the girl whom he so +peculiarly disliked. The lifeless hand which he had taken in the +drawing-room of the Orgreaves could not be the same hand as that which +had closed intimately on his under the porch. She must have two right +hands! + +And, even more base than his coxcombry, he despised her because it was +he, Edwin, to whom she had taken a fancy. He had not sufficient +self-confidence to justify her fancy in his own eyes. His argument +actually was that no girl worth having could have taken a fancy to him +at sight. Thus he condemned her for her faith in him. As for his +historic remark about belief,--well, there might or might not be +something in that; perhaps there was something in it. One instant he +admired it, and the next he judged it glib and superficial. Moreover, +he had conceivably absorbed it from a book. But even if it were an +original epigrammatic pearl--was that an adequate reason for her +following him to an empty house at dead of night? Of course, an +overwhelming passion _might_ justify such behaviour! He could recall +cases in literature... Yes, he had got so far as to envisage the +possibility of overwhelming passion... Then all these speculations +disconcertingly vanished, and Hilda presented herself to his mind as a +girl intensely religious, who would shrink from no unconventionality in +the pursuit of truth. He did not much care for this theory of Hilda, +nor did it convince him. + +"Imagine marrying a girl like that!" he said to himself disdainfully. +And he made a catalogue of her defects of person and of character. She +was severe, satiric, merciless. "And I suppose--if I were to put my +finger up!" Thus ran on his despicable ideas. "Janet Orgreave, now!" +Janet had every quality that he could desire, that he could even think +of. Janet was balm. + +"You needn't be afraid," that unpleasant girl had said. And he had only +been able to grin in reply! + +Still, pride! Intense masculine pride! + +There was one thing he had liked about her: that straightening of the +spine and setting back of the shoulders as she left him. She had in her +some tinge of the heroic. + +He quitted the garden, and as soon as he was in the street he remembered +that he had not pulled-to the garden door of the house. "Dash the +confounded thing!" he exploded, returning. But he was not really +annoyed. He would not have been really annoyed even if he had had to +return from half-way down Trafalgar Road. Everything was a trifle save +that a girl had run after him under such romantic circumstances. The +circumstances were not strictly romantic, but they so seemed to him. + +Going home, he did not meet a soul; only in the middle distance of one +of the lower side streets he espied a policeman. Trafalgar Road was a +solitude of bright and forlorn gas lamps and dark, excluding facades. + +Suddenly he came to the corner of Wedgwood Street. He had started from +Bleakridge; he had arrived at home: the interval between these two +events was a perfect blank, save for the policeman. He could not recall +having walked all the way down the road. And as he put the key into the +door he was not in the least disturbed by the thought that his father +might not have gone to bed. He went upstairs with a certain swaggering +clatter, as who should say to all sleepers and bullies: "You be damned! +I don't care for any of you! Something's happened to me." + +And he mused: "If anybody had told me this afternoon that before +midnight I should--" + + + +VOLUME TWO, CHAPTER TEN. + +THE CENTENARY. + +It was immediately after this that the "Centenary"--mispronounced in +every manner conceivable--began to obsess the town. Superior and aloof +persons, like the Orgreaves, had for weeks heard a good deal of vague +talk about the Centenary from people whom intellectually they despised, +and had condescended to the Centenary as an amiable and excusable affair +which lacked interest for them. They were wrong. Edwin had gone +further, and had sniffed at the Centenary, to everybody except his +father. And Edwin was especially wrong. On the antepenultimate day of +June he first uneasily suspected that he had committed a fault of +appraisement. That was when his father brusquely announced that by +request of the Mayor all places of business in the town would be closed +in honour of the Centenary. It was the Centenary of the establishment +of Sunday schools. + +Edwin hated Sunday schools. Nay, he venomously resented them, though +they had long ceased to incommode him. They were connected in his +memory with atrocious tedium, pietistic insincerity, and humiliating +contacts. At the bottom of his mind he still regarded them as a +malicious device of parents for wilfully harassing and persecuting +inoffensive, helpless children. And he had a particular grudge against +them because he alone of his father's offspring had been chosen for the +nauseating infliction. Why should his sisters have been spared and he +doomed? He became really impatient when Sunday schools were under +discussion, and from mere irrational annoyance he would not admit that +Sunday schools had any good qualities whatever. He knew nothing of +their history, and wished to know nothing. + +Nevertheless, when the day of the Centenary dawned--and dawned in +splendour--he was compelled, even within himself, to treat Sunday +schools with more consideration. And, in fact, for two or three days +previously the gathering force of public opinion had been changing his +attitude from stern hatred to a sort of half-hearted derision. Now, the +derision was mysteriously transformed into an inimical respect. By +what? By he knew not what. By something without a name in the air +which the mind breathes. He felt it at six o'clock, ere he arose. +Lying in bed he felt it. The day was to be a festival. The shop would +not open, nor the printing office. The work of preparing for the +removal would be suspended. The way of daily life would be quite +changed. He was free--that was, nearly free. He said to himself that +of course his excited father would expect him to witness the +celebrations and to wear his best clothes, and that was a bore. But +therein he was not quite honest. For he secretly wanted to witness the +celebrations and to wear his best clothes. His curiosity was hungry. +He admitted, what many had been asserting for weeks, that the Centenary +was going to be a big thing; and his social instinct wished him to share +in the pride of it. + +"It's a grand day!" exclaimed his father, cheerful and all glossy as he +looked out upon Duck Square before breakfast. "It'll be rare and hot!" +And it was a grand day; one of the dazzling spectacular blue-and-gold +days of early summer. And Maggie was in finery. And Edwin too! +Useless for him to pretend that a big thing was not afoot--and his +father in a white waistcoat! Breakfast was positively talkative, though +the conversation was naught but a repeating and repeating of what the +arrangements were, and of what everybody had decided to do. The three +lingered over breakfast, because there was no reason to hurry. And then +even Maggie left the sitting-room without a care, for though Clara was +coming for dinner Mrs Nixon could be trusted. Mrs Nixon, if she had +time, would snatch half an hour in the afternoon to see what remained to +be seen of the show. Families must eat. And if Mrs Nixon was stopped +by duty from assisting at this Centenary, she must hope to be more at +liberty for the next. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +At nine o'clock, in a most delicious mood of idleness, Edwin strolled +into the shop. His father had taken down one shutter from the doorway, +and slanted it carelessly against another on the pavement. A blind man +or a drunkard might have stumbled against it and knocked it over. The +letters had been hastily opened. Edwin could see them lying in disorder +on the desk in the little office. The dust-sheets thought the day was +Sunday. He stood in the narrow aperture and looked forth. Duck Square +was a shimmer of sunshine. The Dragon and the Duck and the other +public-house at the top corner seemed as usual, stolidly confident in +the thirst of populations. But the Borough Dining Rooms, next door but +one to the corner of Duck Square and Wedgwood Street, were not as usual. +The cart of Doy, the butcher, had halted laden in front of the Borough +Dining Rooms, and the anxious proprietor, attended by his two little +daughters (aproned and sleeved for hard work in imitation of their +stout, perspiring mother), was accepting unusual joints from it. +Ticklish weather for meat--you could see that from the man's gestures. +Even on ordinary days those low-ceiled dining-rooms, stretching far back +from the street in a complicated vista of interiors, were apt to be +crowded; for the quality of the eightpenny dinner could be relied upon. +Edwin imagined what a stifling, deafening inferno of culinary odours and +clatter they would be at one o'clock, at two o'clock. + +Three hokey-pokey ice-cream hand-carts, one after another, turned the +corner of Trafalgar Road and passed in front of him along Wedgwood +Street. Three! The men pushing them, one an Italian, seemed to wear +nothing but shirt and trousers, with a straw hat above and vague +slippers below. The steam-car lumbered up out of the valley of the road +and climbed Duck Bank, throwing its enormous shadow to the left. It was +half full of bright frocks and suits. An irregular current of finery +was setting in to the gates of the Wesleyan School yard at the top of +the Bank. And ceremoniously bedecked individuals of all ages hurried in +this direction and in that, some with white handkerchiefs over flowered +hats, a few beneath parasols. All the town's store of Sunday clothes +was in use. The humblest was crudely gay. Pawnbrokers had full tills +and empty shops, for twenty-four hours. + +Then a procession appeared, out of Moorthorne Road, from behind the +Wesleyan Chapel-keeper's house. And as it appeared it burst into music. +First a purple banner, upheld on crimson poles with gilded +lance-points; then a brass band in full note; and then children, +children, children--little, middling, and big. As the procession curved +down into Trafalgar Road, it grew in stature, until, towards the end of +it, the children were as tall as the adults who walked fussily as hens, +proudly as peacocks, on its flank. And last came a railway lorry on +which dozens of tiny infants had been penned; and the horses of the +lorry were ribboned and their manes and tails tightly plaited; on that +grand day they could not be allowed to protect themselves against flies; +they were sacrificial animals. + +A power not himself drew Edwin to the edge of the pavement. He could +read on the immense banner: "Moorthorne Saint John's Sunday School." +These, then, were church folk. And indeed the next moment he descried a +curate among the peacocks. The procession made another curve into +Wedgwood Street, on its way to the supreme rendezvous in Saint Luke's +Square. The band blared; the crimson cheeks of the trumpeters sucked in +and out; the drummer leaned backwards to balance his burden, and +banged. Every soul of the variegated company, big and little, was in a +perspiration. The staggering bearers of the purple banner, who held the +great poles in leathern sockets slung from the shoulders, and their +acolytes before and behind who kept the banner upright by straining at +crimson halyards, sweated most of all. Every foot was grey with dust, +and the dark trousers of boys and men showed dust. The steamy whiff of +humanity struck Edwin's nostrils. Up hill and down dale the procession +had already walked over two miles. Yet it was alert, joyous, and +expectant: a chattering procession. From the lorry rose a continuous +faint shriek of infantile voices. Edwin was saddened as by pathos. I +believe that as he gazed at the procession waggling away along Wedgwood +Street he saw Sunday schools in a new light. + +And that was the opening of the day. There were to be dozens of such +processions. Some would start only in the town itself; but others were +coming from the villages like Red Cow, five sultry miles off. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +A young woman under a sunshade came slowly along Wedgwood Street. She +was wearing a certain discreet amount of finery, but her clothes did not +fit well, and a thin mantle was arranged so as to lessen as much as +possible the obviousness of the fact that she was about to become a +mother. The expression of her face was discontented and captious. +Edwin did not see her until she was close upon him, and then he +immediately became self-conscious and awkward. + +"Hello, Clara!" he greeted her, with his instinctive warm, transient +smile, holding out his hand sheepishly. It was a most extraordinary and +amazing thing that he could never regard the ceremony of shaking hands +with a relative as other than an affectation of punctilio. Happily he +was not wearing his hat; had it been on his head he would never have +taken it off, and yet would have cursed himself for not doing so. + +"We _are_ grand!" exclaimed Clara, limply taking his hand and dropping it +as an article of no interest. In her voice there was still some echo of +former sprightliness. The old Clara in her had not till that moment +beheld the smart and novel curves of Edwin's Shillitoe suit, and the +satiric cry came unbidden from her heart. + +Edwin gave an uneasy laugh, which was merely the outlet for his disgust. +Not that he was specially disgusted with Clara, for indeed marriage had +assuaged a little the tediousness of some of her mannerisms, even if it +had taken away from her charm. He was disgusted more comprehensively by +the tradition, universal in his class and in most classes, according to +which relatives could not be formally polite to one another. He obeyed +the tradition as slavishly as anyone, but often said to himself that he +would violate the sacred rule if only he could count on a suitable +response; he knew that he could not count on a suitable response; and he +had no mind to be in the excruciating position of one who, having +started "God save the Queen" at a meeting, finds himself alone in the +song. Why could not he and Clara behave together as, for instance, he +and Janet Orgreave would behave together, with dignity, with +worldliness, with mutual deference? But no! It was impossible, and +would ever be so. They had been too brutally intimate, and the result +was irremediable. + +"_She's_ got no room to talk about personal appearance, anyway!" he +thought sardonically. + +There was another extraordinary and amazing thing. He was ashamed of +her condition! He could not help the feeling. In vain he said to +himself that her condition was natural and proper. In vain he +remembered the remark of the sage that a young woman in her condition +was the most beautiful sight in the world. He was ashamed of it. And +he did not think it beautiful; he thought it ugly. It worried him. +What,--his sister? Other men's sisters, yes; but his! He forgot that +he himself had been born. He could scarcely bear to look at Clara. Her +face was thin, and changed in colour; her eyes were unnaturally lustrous +and large, bold and fatigued; she looked ill, really ill; and she was +incredibly unornamental. And this was she whom he could remember as a +graceful child! And it was all perfectly correct and even laudable! So +much so that young Clara undoubtedly looked down, now, as from a +superior height, upon both himself and Maggie! + +"Where's father?" she asked. "Just shut my sunshade." + +"Oh! Somewhere about. I expect he'll be along in a minute. Albert +coming?" He followed her into the shop. + +"Albert!" she protested, shocked. "Albert can't possibly come till one +o'clock. Didn't you know he's one of the principal stewards in Saint +Luke's Square? He says we aren't to wait dinner for him if he isn't +prompt." + +"Oh!" Edwin replied, and put the sunshade on the counter. + +Clara sat down heavily on a chair, and began to fan herself with a +handkerchief. In spite of the heat of exercise her face was of a pallid +yellow. + +"I suppose you're going to stay here all morning?" Edwin inquired. + +"Well," said Clara, "you don't see me walking up and down the streets +all morning, do you? Albert said I was to be sure and go upstairs at +once and not move. He said there'd be plenty to see for a long time yet +from the sitting-room window, and then afterwards I could lie down." + +Albert said! Albert said! Clara's intonation of this frequent phrase +always jarred on Edwin. It implied that Albert was the supreme fount of +wisdom and authority in Bursley. Whereas to Edwin, Albert was in fact a +mere tedious, self-important manufacturer in a small way, with whom he +had no ideas in common. "A decent fellow at bottom," the fastidious +Edwin was bound to admit to himself by reason of slight glimpses which +he had had of Albert's uncouth good-nature; but pietistic, overbearing, +and without humour. + +"Where's Maggie?" Clara demanded. + +"I think she's putting her things on," said Edwin. + +"But didn't she understand I was coming early?" Clara's voice was +querulous, and she frowned. + +"I don't know," said Edwin. + +He felt that if they remained together for hours, he and Clara would +never rise above this plane of conversation--personal, factual, +perfectly devoid of wide interest. They would never reach an exchange +of general ideas; they never had done. He did not think that Clara had +any general ideas. + +"I hear you're getting frightfully thick with the Orgreaves," Clara +observed, with a malicious accent and smile, as if to imply that he was +getting frightfully above himself, and--simultaneously--that the +Orgreaves were after all no better than other people. + +"Who told you that?" He walked towards the doorway uneasily. The worst +was that he could not successfully pretend that these sisterly attacks +were lost on him. + +"Never mind who told me," said Clara. + +Her voice took on a sudden charming roguish quality, and he could hear +again the girl of fourteen. His heart at once softened to her. The +impartial and unmoved spectator that sat somewhere in Edwin, as in +everybody who possesses artistic sensibility, watching his secret life +as from a conning tower, thought how strange this was. He stared out +into the street. And then a face appeared at the aperture left by the +removed shutter. It was Janet Orgreave's, and it hesitated. Edwin gave +a nervous start. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +Janet was all in white again, and her sunshade was white, with regular +circular holes in it to let through spots of sunlight which flecked her +face. Edwin had not recovered from the blow of her apparition just at +that moment, when he saw Hilda Lessways beyond her. Hilda was +slate-coloured, and had a black sunshade. His heart began to thump; it +might have been a dramatic and dangerous crisis that had suddenly come +about. And to Edwin the situation did in fact present itself as +critical: his sister behind, and these two so different girls in front. +Yet there was nothing critical in it whatsoever. He shook hands as in a +dream, wondering what he should do, trying to summon out of himself the +man of the world. + +"Do come in," he urged them, hoping they would refuse. + +"Oh no. We mustn't come in," said Janet, smiling gratefully. Hilda did +not smile; she had not even smiled in shaking hands; and she had shaken +hands without conviction. + +Edwin heard a hurried step in the shop, and then the voice of Maggie, +maternal and protective, in a low exclamation of surprise: "You, dear!" +And then the sound of a smacking kiss, and Clara's voice, thin, weak, +and confiding: "Yes, I've come." "Come upstairs, do!" said Maggie +imploringly. "Come and be comfortable." Then steps, ceasing to be +heard as the sisters left the shop at the back. The solicitude of +Maggie for Clara during the last few months had seemed wonderful to +Edwin, as also Clara's occasional childlike acceptance of it. + +"But you must come in!" he said more boldly to the visitors, asking +himself whether either Janet or Hilda had caught sight of his sisters in +the gloom of the shop. + +They entered, Hilda stiffly. Each with the same gesture closed her +parasol before passing through the slit between the shutters into the +deep shade. But whereas Janet smiled with pleasant anticipation as +though she was going into heaven, Hilda wrinkled her forehead when her +parasol would not subside at the first touch. + +Janet talked of the Centenary; said they had decided only that morning +to come down into the town and see whatever was to be seen; said with an +angelic air of apologising to the Centenary that up at Lane End House +they had certainly been under-estimating its importance and its interest +as a spectacle; said that it was most astonishing to see all the shops +closed. And Edwin interjected vague replies, pulling the chair out of +the little ebonised cubicle so that they could both sit down. And Hilda +remained silent. And Edwin's thoughts were diving darkly beneath +Janet's chatter as in a deep sea beneath light waves. He heard and +answered Janet with a minor part of his being that functioned +automatically. + +"She's a caution!" reflected the main Edwin, obsessed in secret by Hilda +Lessways. Who could have guessed, by looking at her, that only three +evenings before she had followed him in the night to question him, to +squeeze his hand, and to be rude to him? Did Janet know? Did anyone? +No! He felt sure that he and she had the knowledge of that interview to +themselves. She sat down glum, almost glowering. She was no more +worldly than Maggie and Clara were worldly. Than they, she had no more +skill to be sociable. And in appearance she was scarcely more stylish. +But she was not as they, and it was useless vindictively to disparage +her by pretending that she was. She could be passionate concerning +Victor Hugo. She was capable of disturbing herself about the abstract +question of belief. He had not heard her utter a single word in the way +of common girlish conversation. + +The doubt again entered his mind whether indeed her visit to the porch +of the new house had been due to a genuine interest in abstract +questions and not to a fancy for himself. "Yes," he reflected, "that +must have been it." + +In two days his pride in the affair had lost its first acuteness, though +it had continued to brighten every moment of his life, and though he had +not ceased to regret that he had no intimate friend to whom he could +recount it in solemn and delicious intimacy. Now, philosophically, he +stamped on his pride as on a fire. And he affected to be relieved at +the decision that the girl had been moved by naught but a sort of +fanaticism. But he was not relieved by the decision. The decision +itself was not genuine. He still clung to the notion that she had +followed him for himself. He preferred that she should have taken a +fancy to him, even though he discovered no charm in her, no beauty, no +solace, nothing but matter for repulsion. He wanted her to think of +him, in spite of his distaste for her; to think of him hopelessly. "You +are an ass!" murmured the impartial watcher in the conning tower. And +he was. But he did not care. It was agreeable thus to be an ass... +His pride flared up again, and instead of stamping he blew on it. + +"By Jove!" he thought, eyeing her slyly, "I'll make you show your hand-- +you see if I don't! You think you can play with me, but you can't!" He +was as violent against her as if she had done him an injury instead of +having squeezed his hand in the dark. Was it not injurious to have +snapped at him, when he refused her invitation to stand by her against +the wall in the porch, "You needn't be afraid"? Janet would never have +said such a thing. If only she resembled Janet! ... + +During all this private soliloquising, Edwin's mien of mild nervousness +never hardened to betray his ferocity, and he said nothing that might +not have been said by an innocuous idiot. + +The paper boy, arrayed richly, slipped apologetically into the shop. He +had certain packets to take out for delivery, and he was late. Edwin +nodded to him distantly. The conversation languished. + +Then the head of Mr Orgreave appeared in the aperture. The architect +seemed amused. Edwin could not understand how he had ever stood in awe +of Mr Orgreave, who, with all his distinction and expensiveness, was +the most companionable person in the world. + +"Oh! Father!" cried Janet. "What a deceitful thing you are! Do you +know, Mr Edwin, he pooh-poohed us coming down: he said he was far too +busy for such childish things as Centenaries! And look at him!" + +Mr Orgreave, whose suit, hat, and necktie were a harmony of elegant +greys, smiled with paternal ease, and swung his cane. "Come along now! +Don't let's miss anything. Come along. Now, Edwin, you're coming, +aren't you?" + +"Did you ever see such a child?" murmured Janet, adoring him. + +Edwin turned to the paper boy. "Just find my father before you go," he +commanded. "Tell him I've gone, and ask him if you are to put the +shutter up." The paper boy respectfully promised obedience. And Edwin +was glad that the forbidding Hilda was there to witness his authority. + +Janet went out first. Hilda hesitated; and Edwin, having taken his hat +from its hook in the cubicle, stood attending her at the aperture. He +was sorry that he could not run upstairs for a walking-stick. At last +she seemed to decide to leave, yet left with apparent reluctance. Edwin +followed, giving a final glance at the boy, who was tying a parcel +hurriedly. Mr Orgreave and his daughter were ten yards off, +arm-in-arm. Edwin fell into step with Hilda Lessways. Janet looked +round, and smiled and beckoned. "I wonder," said Edwin to himself, +"what the devil's going to happen now? I'll take my oath she stayed +behind on purpose! Well--" This swaggering audacity was within. +Without, even a skilled observer could have seen nothing but a faint, +sheepish smile. And his heart was thumping again. + + + +VOLUME TWO, CHAPTER ELEVEN. + +THE BOTTOM OF THE SQUARE. + +Another procession--that of the Old Church Sunday school--came up, with +standards floating and drums beating, out of the steepness of Woodisun +Bank, and turned into Wedgwood Street, which thenceforward was loosely +thronged by procession and sightseers. The importance of the festival +was now quite manifest, for at the end of the street could be seen Saint +Luke's Square, massed with human beings in movement. Osmond Orgreave +and his daughter were lost to view in the brave crowd; but after a +little, Edwin distinctly saw Janet's sunshade leave Wedgwood Street at +the corner of the Wedgwood Institution and bob slowly into the Cock +Yard, which was a narrow thoroughfare leading to the market-place and +the Town Hall, and so to the top of Saint Luke's Square. He said +nothing, and kept straight on along Wedgwood Street past the Covered +Market. + +"I hope you didn't catch cold in the rain the other night," he +remarked--grimly, as he thought. + +"I should have thought it would have been you who were more likely to +catch cold," Hilda replied, in her curt manner. She looked in front of +her. The words seem to him to carry a double meaning. Suddenly she +moved her head, glanced full at him for an instant, and glanced behind +her. "Where are they?" she inquired. + +"The others? Aren't they in front? They must be some where about." + +Unless she also had marked their deviation into the Cock Yard, why had +she glanced behind her in asking where they were? She knew as well as +he that they had started in front. He could only deduce that she had +been as willing as himself to lose Mr Orgreave and Janet. Just then an +acquaintance raised his hat to Edwin in acknowledgement of the lady's +presence, and he responded with pride. Whatever his private attitude to +Hilda, he was undeniably proud to be seen in the streets with a +disdainful, aloof girl unknown to the town. It was an experience +entirely new to him, and it flattered him. He desired to look long at +her face, to examine her expression, to make up his mind about her; but +he could not, because they were walking side by side. The sole +manifestation of her that he could judge was her voice. It was a +remarkable voice, rather deep, with a sort of chiselled intonation. The +cadences of it fell on the ear softly and yet ruthlessly, and when she +had finished speaking you became aware of silence, as after a solemn +utterance of destiny. What she happened to have been saying seemed to +be immaterial to the effect, which was physical, vibratory. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +At the border of Saint Luke's Square, junction of eight streets, true +centre of the town's traffic, and the sole rectangular open space +enclosed completely by shops, they found a line of constables which +yielded only to processions and to the bearers of special rosettes. +`The Square,' as it was called by those who inhabited it, had been +chosen for the historic scene of the day because of its pre-eminent +claim and suitability; the least of its advantages--its slope, from the +top of which it could be easily dominated by a speaker on a platform-- +would alone have secured for it the honours of the Centenary. + +As the police cordon closed on the procession from the Old Church, +definitely dividing the spectators from the spectacle, it grew clear +that the spectators were in the main a shabby lot; persons without any +social standing: unkempt idlers, good-for-nothings, wastrels, +clay-whitened pot-girls who had to work even on that day, and who had +run out for a few moments in their flannel aprons to stare, and a few +score ragamuffins, whose parents were too poor or too careless to make +them superficially presentable enough to figure in a procession. Nearly +the whole respectability of the town was either fussily marshalling +processions or gazing down at them in comfort from the multitudinous +open windows of the Square. The `leads' over the projecting windows of +Baines's, the chief draper's, were crowded with members of the ruling +caste. + +And even within the Square, it could be seen, between the towering backs +of constables, that the spectacle itself was chiefly made up of +indigence bedecked. The thousands of perspiring children, penned like +sheep, and driven to and fro like sheep by anxious and officious +rosettes, nearly all had the air of poverty decently putting the best +face on itself; they were nearly all, beneath their vague sense of +importance, wistful with the resigned fatalism of the young and of the +governed. They knew not precisely why they were there; but merely that +they had been commanded to be there, and that they were hot and thirsty, +and that for weeks they had been learning hymns by heart for this +occasion, and that the occasion was glorious. Many of the rosettes +themselves had a poor, driven look. None of these bought suits at +Shillitoe's, nor millinery at Baines's. None of them gave orders for +printing, nor had preferences in the form of ledgers, nor held views on +Victor Hugo, nor drank wine, nor yearned for perfection in the art of +social intercourse. To Edwin, who was just beginning to touch the +planes of worldliness and of dilettantism in art, to Edwin, with the +mysterious and haughty creature at his elbow, they seemed to have no +more in common with himself and her than animals had. And he wondered +by virtue of what decree he, in the Shillitoe suit, and the grand house +waiting for him up at Bleakridge, had been lifted up to splendid ease +above the squalid and pitiful human welter. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +Such musings were scarcely more than subconscious in him. He stood now +a few inches behind Hilda, and, above these thoughts, and beneath the +stir and strident glitter and noise of the crawling ant-heap, his mind +was intensely occupied with Hilda's ear and her nostril. He could watch +her now at leisure, for the changeful interest of the scene made +conversation unnecessary and even inept. What a lobe! What a nostril! +Every curve of her features seemed to express a fine arrogant acrimony +and harsh truculence. At any rate she was not half alive; she was alive +in every particle of herself. She gave off antipathies as a liquid +gives off vapour. Moods passed across her intent face like a wind over +a field. Apparently she was so rapt as to be unaware that her sunshade +was not screening her. Sadness prevailed among her moods. + +The mild Edwin said secretly: + +"By Jove! If I had you to myself, my lady, I'd soon teach you a thing +or two!" He was quite sincere, too. + +His glance, roving, discovered Mrs Hamps above him, ten feet over his +head, at the corner of the Baines balcony. He flushed, for he perceived +that she must have been waiting to catch him. She was at her most +stately and most radiant, wonderful in lavender, and she poured out on +him the full opulence of a proud recognition. + +Everybody should be made aware that Mrs Hamps was greeting her adored +nephew, who was with a lady friend of the Orgreaves. + +She leaned slightly from her cane chair. + +"Isn't it a beautiful sight?" she cried. Her voice sounded thin and +weak against the complex din of the Square. + +He nodded, smiling. + +"Oh! I think it's a beautiful sight!" she cried once more, ecstatic. +People turned to see whom she was addressing. + +But though he nodded again he did not think it was a beautiful sight. +He thought it was a disconcerting sight, a sight vexatious and +troublesome. And he was in no way tranquillised by the reflection that +every town in England had the same sight to show at that hour. + +And moreover, anticipating their next interview, he could, in fancy, +plainly hear his Aunt Clara saying, with hopeless, longing benignancy: +"Oh, Edwin, how I _do_ wish I could have seen you in the Square, bearing +your part!" + +Hilda seemed to be oblivious of Mrs Hamps's ejaculations, but +immediately afterwards she straightened her back, with a gesture that +Edwin knew, and staring into his eyes said, as it were resentfully-- + +"Well, they evidently aren't here!" + +And looked with scorn among the sightseers. It was clear that the crowd +contained nobody of the rank and stamp of the Orgreaves. + +"They may have gone up the Cock Yard--if you know where that is," said +Edwin. + +"Well, don't you think we'd better find them somehow?" + + + +VOLUME TWO, CHAPTER TWELVE. + +THE TOP OF THE SQUARE. + +In making the detour through the Cock Yard to reach Saint Luke's Square +again at the top of it, the only members of the Orgreave clan whom they +encountered were Jimmie and Johnnie, who, on hearing of the +disappearance of their father and Janet, merely pointed out that their +father and Janet were notoriously always getting themselves lost, owing +to gross carelessness about whatever they happened to be doing. The +youths then departed, saying that the Bursley show was nothing, and that +they were going to Hanbridge; they conveyed the idea that Hanbridge was +the only place in the world for self-respecting men of fashion. But +before leaving they informed Edwin that a fellow at the corner of the +Square was letting out rather useful barrels on lease. This fellow +proved to be an odd-jobman who had been discharged from the Duke of +Wellington Vaults in the market-place for consistently intemperate +language, but whose tongue was such that he had persuaded the landlord +on this occasion to let him borrow a dozen stout empty barrels, and the +police to let him dispose them on the pavement. Every barrel was +occupied, and, perceiving this, Edwin at once became bold with the +barrel-man. He did not comfortably fancy himself perched prominent on a +barrel with Hilda Lessways by his side, but he could enjoy talking about +it, and he wished to show Hilda that he could be as dashing as those +young sparks, Jimmie and Johnnie. + +"Now, mester!" shouted the barrel-man thickly, in response to Edwin's +airy remark, "these 'ere two chaps'll shunt off for th' price of a +quart!" He indicated a couple of barrel-tenants of his own tribe, who +instantly jumped down, touching their soiled caps. They were part of +the barrel-man's machinery for increasing profits. Edwin could not +withdraw. His very cowardice forced him to be audacious. By the time +he had satisfied the clawing greed of three dirty hands, the two barrels +had cost him a shilling. Hilda's only observation was, as Edwin helped +her to the plateau of the barrel: "I do wish they wouldn't spit on their +money." All barrels being now let to _bona fide_ tenants and paid for, +the three men sidled hastily away in order to drink luck to Sunday +schools in the Duke of Wellington's Entire. And Edwin, mounting the +barrel next to Hilda's, was thinking: "I've been done over that job. I +ought to have got them for sixpence." He saw how expensive it was, +going about with delicately nurtured women. Never would he have offered +a barrel to Maggie, and even had he done so Maggie would assuredly have +said that she could make shift well enough without one. + +"It's simply perfect for seeing," exclaimed Hilda, as he achieved her +altitude. Her tone was almost cordial. He felt surprisingly at ease. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +The whole Square was now suddenly revealed as a swarming mass of heads, +out of which rose banners and pennons that were cruder in tint even than +the frocks and hats of the little girls and the dresses and bonnets of +their teachers; the men, too, by their neckties, scarves, and rosettes, +added colour to colour. All the windows were chromatic with the hues of +bright costumes, and from many windows and from every roof that had a +flagstaff flags waved heavily against the gorgeous sky. At the bottom +of the Square the lorries with infants had been arranged, and each +looked like a bank of variegated flowers. The principal bands--that is +to say, all the bands that could be trusted--were collected round the +red baize platform at the top of the Square, and the vast sun-reflecting +euphoniums, trumpets, and comets made a glittering circle about the +officials and ministers and their wives and women. All denominations, +for one day only, fraternised effusively together on that platform; for +princes of the royal house, and the Archbishop of Canterbury and the +Lord Mayor of London had urged that it should be so. The Primitive +Methodists' parson discovered himself next but one to Father Milton, who +on any other day would have been a Popish priest, and whose wooden +substitute for a wife was the queen on a chessboard. And on all these +the sun blazed torridly. + +And almost in the middle of the Square an immense purple banner bellied +in the dusty breeze, saying in large gold letters, "The Blood of the +Lamb," together with the name of some Sunday school, which Edwin from +his barrel could not decipher. + +Then a hoary white-tied notability on the platform raised his might arm +very high, and a bugle called, and a voice that had filled fields in +exciting times of religious revival floated in thunder across the +enclosed Square, easily dominating it-- + +"Let us sing." + +And the conductor of the eager massed bands set them free with a +gesture, and after they had played a stave, a small stentorian choir at +the back of the platform broke forth, and in a moment the entire +multitude, at first raggedly, but soon in good unison, was singing-- + + Rock of Ages, cleft for me, + Let me hide myself in Thee; + Let the water and the blood, + From Thy riven side which flowed, + Be of sin the double cure: + Cleanse from guilt and make me pure. + +The volume of sound was overwhelming. Its crashing force was enough to +sweep people from barrels. Edwin could feel moisture in his eyes, and +he dared not look at Hilda. "Why the deuce do I want to cry?" he asked +himself angrily, and was ashamed. And at the beginning of the second +verse, when the glittering instruments blared forth anew, and the +innumerable voices, high and loud, infantile and aged, flooded swiftly +over their brassy notes, subduing them, the effect on Edwin was the same +again: a tightening of the throat, and a squeezing down of the eyelids. +Why was it? Through a mist he read the words "The Blood of the Lamb," +and he could picture the riven trunk of a man dying, and a torrent of +blood flowing therefrom, and people like his Auntie Clara and his +brother-in-law Albert plunging ecstatically into the liquid in order to +be white. The picture came again in the third verse,--the red fountains +and the frantic bathers. + +Then the notability raised his arm once more, and took off his hat, and +all the males on the platform took off their hats, and presently every +boy and man in the Square had uncovered his head to the strong sunshine; +and at last Edwin had to do the same, and only the policemen, by virtue +of their high office, could dare to affront the majesty of God. And the +reverberating voice cried-- + +"Oh, most merciful Lord! Have pity upon us. We are brands plucked from +the burning." And continued for several minutes to descant upon the +theme of everlasting torture by incandescence and thirst. Nominally +addressing a deity, but in fact preaching to his audience, he announced +that, even for the veriest infant on a lorry, there was no escape from +the eternal fires save by complete immersion in the blood. And he was +so convinced and convincing that an imaginative nose could have detected +the odour of burnt flesh. And all the while the great purple banner +waved insistently: "The Blood of the Lamb." + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +When the prayer was finished for the benefit of the little ones, another +old and favourite hymn had to be sung. (None but the classical lyrics +of British Christianity had found a place in the programme of the great +day.) Guided by the orchestra, the youth of Bursley and the maturity +thereof chanted with gusto-- + + There is a fountain filled with blood + Drawn from Emmanuel's veins; + And sinners, plunged beneath that flood, + Lose all their guilty stains. + ... + Dear dying Lamb, Thy precious blood-- + +Edwin, like everybody, knew every line of the poem. With the purple +banner waving there a bloody motto, he foresaw each sanguinary detail of +the verse ere it came to him from the shrill childish throats. And a +phrase from another hymn jumped from somewhere in his mind just as +William Cowper's ended and a speech commenced. The phrase was `India's +coral strand.' In thinking upon it he forgot to listen to the speech. +He saw the flags, banners, and pennons floating in the sunshine and in +the heavy breeze; he felt the reverberation of the tropic sun on his +head; he saw the crowded humanity of the Square attired in its crude, +primary colours; he saw the great brass serpentine instruments gleaming; +he saw the red dais; he saw, bursting with infancy, the immense cams to +which were attached the fantastically plaited horses; he saw the +venerable zealots on the dais raving lest after all the institutions +whose centenary they had met to honour should not save these children +from hopeless and excruciating torture for ever and ever; he saw those +majestic purple folds in the centre embroidered with the legend of the +blood of the mystic Paschal Lamb; he saw the meek, stupid, and +superstitious faces, all turned one way, all for the moment under the +empire of one horrible idea, all convinced that the consequences of sins +could be prevented by an act of belief, all gloating over inexhaustible +tides of blood. And it seemed to him that he was not in England any +longer. It seemed to him that in the dim cellars under the shambles +behind the Town Hall, where he had once been, there dwelt, squatting, a +strange and savage god who would blast all those who did not enter his +presence dripping with gore, be they child or grandfather. It seemed to +him that the drums were tom-toms, and Baines's a bazaar. He could fit +every detail of the scene to harmonise with a vision of India's coral +strand. + +There was no mist before his eyes now. His sight was so clear that he +could distinguish his father at a window of the Bank, at the other top +corner of the Square. Part of his mind was so idle that he could wonder +how his father had contrived to get there, and whether Maggie was +staying at home with Clara. But the visualisation of India's coral +strand in Saint Luke's Square persisted. A phrase in the speech loosed +some catch in him and he turned suddenly to Hilda, and in an intimate +half-whisper murmured-- + +"More blood!" + +"What?" she harshly questioned. But he knew that she understood. + +"Well," he said audaciously, "look at it! It only wants the Ganges at +the bottom of the Square!" + +No one heard save she. But she put her hand on his arm protestingly. +"Even if we don't believe," said she--not harshly, but imploringly, "we +needn't make fun." + +"_We_ don't believe!" And that new tone of entreaty! She had +comprehended without explanation. She was a weird woman. Was there +another creature, male or female, to whom he would have dared to say +what he had said to her? He had chosen to say it to her because he +despised her, because he wished to trample on her feelings. She roused +the brute in him, and perhaps no one was more astonished than himself to +witness the brute stirring. Imagine saying to the gentle and sensitive +Janet: "It only wants the Ganges at the bottom of the Square--" He could +not. + +They stood silent, gazing and listening. And the sun went higher in the +sky and blazed down more cruelly. And then the speech ended, and the +speaker wiped his head with an enormous handkerchief. And the +multitude, led by the brazen instruments, which in a moment it +overpowered, was singing to a solemn air-- + + When I survey the wondrous cross + On which the Prince of Glory died, + My richest gain I count but loss, + And pour contempt on all my pride. + +Hilda shook her head. + +"What's the matter?" he asked, leaning towards her from his barrel. + +"That's the most splendid religious verse ever written!" she said +passionately. "You can say what you like. It's worth while believing +anything, if you can sing words like that and mean them!" + +She had an air of restrained fury. + +But fancy exciting herself over a hymn! + +"Yes, it is fine, that is!" he agreed. + +"Do you know who wrote it?" she demanded menacingly. + +"I'm afraid I don't remember," he said. The hymn was one of his +earliest recollections, but it had never occurred to him to be curious +as to its authorship. + +Her lips sneered. "Dr Watts, of course!" she snapped. + +He could hear her, beneath the tremendous chanting from the Square, +repeating the words to herself with her precise and impressive +articulation. + + + +VOLUME TWO, CHAPTER THIRTEEN. + +THE OLDEST SUNDAY-SCHOOL TEACHER. + +From the elevation of his barrel Edwin could survey, in the lordly and +negligent manner of people on a height, all the detail of his immediate +surroundings. Presently, in common with Hilda and the other aristocrats +of barrels, he became aware of the increased vivacity of a scene which +was passing at a little distance, near a hokey-pokey barrow. The chief +actors in the affair appeared to be a young policeman, the owner of the +hokey-pokey barrow, and an old man. It speedily grew into one of those +episodes which, occurring on the outskirts of some episode immensely +greater, draw too much attention to themselves and thereby outrage the +sense of proportion residing in most plain men, and especially in most +policemen. + +"Give him a ha'porth o' hokey," said a derisive voice. "He hasn't got a +tooth in his head, but it wants no chewing, hokey does na'." There was +a general guffaw from the little rabble about the barrow. + +"Aye! Give us some o' that!" said the piping, silly voice of the old +man. "But I mun' get to that there platform, I'm telling ye. I'm +telling all of ye." He made a senile plunge against the body of the +policeman, as against a moveless barricade, and then his hat was awry +and it fell off, and somebody lifted it into the air with a neat kick so +that it dropped on the barrow. All laughed. The old man laughed. + +"Now, old sodger," said the hot policeman curtly. "None o' this! None +o' this! I advise ye civilly to be quiet; that's what I advise ye. You +can't go on th' platform without a ticket." + +"Nay!" piped the old man. "Don't I tell ye I lost it down th' Sytch!" + +"And where's yer rosette?" + +"Never had any rosette," the old man replied. "I'm th' oldest +Sunday-schoo' teacher i' th' Five Towns. Aye! Fifty years and more +since I was Super at Turnhill Primitive Sunday schoo', and all Turnhill +knows on it. And I've got to get on that there platform. I'm th' +oldest Sunday schoo' teacher i' th' Five Towns. And I was Super--" + +Two ribald youngsters intoned `Super, Super,' and another person +unceremoniously jammed the felt hat on the old man's head. + +"It's nowt to me if ye was forty Supers," said the policeman, with +menacing disdain. "I've got my orders, and I'm not here to be knocked +about. Where did ye have yer last drink?" + +"No wine, no beer, nor spirituous liquors have I tasted for sixty-one +years come Martinmas," whimpered the old man. And he gave another lurch +against the policeman. "My name's Shushions!" And he repeated in a +frantic treble, "My name's Shushions!" + +"Go and bury thysen, owd gaffer!" a Herculean young collier advised him. + +"Why," murmured Hilda, with a sharp frown, "that must be poor old Mr +Shushions from Turnhill, and they're guying him! You must stop it. +Something must be done at once." + +She jumped down feverishly, and Edwin had to do likewise. He wondered +how he should conduct himself so as to emerge creditably from the +situation. He felt himself, and had always felt himself, to be the last +man in the world capable of figuring with authority in a public +altercation. He loathed public altercations. The name of Shushions +meant nothing to him; he had forgotten it, if indeed he had ever +wittingly heard it. And he did not at first recognise the old man. +Descended from the barrel, he was merely an item in the loose-packed +crowd. As, in the wake of Hilda, he pushed with false eagerness between +stubborn shoulders, he heard the bands striking up again. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +Approaching, he saw that the old man was very old. And then memory +stirred. He began to surmise that he had met the wizened face before, +that he knew something about it. And the face brought up a picture of +the shop door and of his father standing beside it, a long time ago. He +recalled his last day at school. Yes, of course! This was the old man +named Shushions, some sort of an acquaintance of his father's. This was +the old man who had wept a surprising tear at sight of him, Edwin. The +incident was so far off that it might have been recorded in history +books. He had never seen Mr Shushions since. And the old man was +changed, nearly out of recognition. The old man had lived too long; he +had survived his dignity; he was now nothing but a bundle of capricious +and obstinate instincts set in motion by ancient souvenirs remembered at +hazard. The front of his face seemed to have given way in general +collapse. The lips were in a hollow; the cheeks were concave; the eyes +had receded; and there were pits in the forehead. The pale silvery +straggling hairs might have been counted. The wrinkled skin was of a +curious brown yellow, and the veins, instead of being blue, were +outlined in Indian red. The impression given was that the flesh would +be unpleasant and uncanny to the touch. The body was bent, and the neck +eternally cricked backward in the effort of the eyes to look up. +Moreover the old man was in a state of neglect. His beard alone proved +that. His clothes were dirty and had the air of concealing dirt. And +he was dressed with striking oddness. He wore boots that were not a +pair. His collar was only fastened by one button, behind; the ends +oscillated like wings; he had forgotten to fasten them in front; he had +forgotten to put on a necktie; he had forgotten the use of buttons on +all his garments. He had grown down into a child again, but Providence +had not provided him with a nurse. + +Worse than these merely material phenomena was the mumbling toothless +gibber of his shrill protesting; the glassy look of idiocy from his +fatigued eyes; and the inane smile and impotent frown that alternated on +his features. He was a horrible and offensive old man. He was Time's +obscene victim. Edwin was revolted by the spectacle of the younger men +baiting him. He was astonished that they were so short-sighted as not +to be able to see the image of themselves in the old man, so imprudent +as not to think of their own future, so utterly brutalised. He wanted, +by the simple force of desire, to seclude and shelter the old man, to +protect the old man not only from the insults of stupid and crass +bullies, but from the old man himself, from his own fatuous senility. +He wanted to restore to him, by a benevolent system of pretences, the +dignity and the self-respect which he had innocently lost, and so to +keep him decent to the eye, if not to the ear, until death came to +repair its omission. And it was for his own sake, for the sake of his +own image, as much as for the sake of the old man, that he wanted to do +this. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +All that flashed through his mind and heart in a second. + +"I know this old gentleman, at least I know him by sight," Hilda was +saying to the policeman. "He's very well known in Turnhill as an old +Sunday school teacher, and I'm sure he ought to be on that platform." + +Before her eye, and her precise and haughty voice, which had no trace of +the local accent, the young policeman was secretly abashed, and the +louts fell back sheepishly. + +"Yes, he's a friend of my father's,--Mr Clayhanger, printer," said +Edwin, behind her. + +The old man stood blinking in the glare. + +The policeman, ignoring Hilda, glanced at Edwin, and touched his cap. + +"His friends hadn't ought to let him out like this, sir. Just look at +him." He sneered, and added: "I'm on point duty. If you ask me, I +should say his friends ought to take him home." He said this with a +peculiar mysterious emphasis, and looked furtively at the louts for +moral support in sarcasm. They encouraged him with grins. + +"He must be got on to the platform, somehow," said Hilda, and glanced at +Edwin as if counting absolutely on Edwin. "That's what he's come for. +I'm sure it means everything to him." + +"Aye!" the old man droned. "I was Super when we had to teach 'em their +alphabet and give 'em a crust to start with. Many's the man walking +about in these towns i' purple and fine raiment as I taught his letters +to, and his spellings, aye, and his multiplication table,--in them +days!" + +"That's all very well, miss," said the policeman, "but who's going to +get him to the platform? He'll be dropping in a sunstroke afore ye can +say knife." + +"Can't _we_?" She gazed at Edwin appealingly. + +"Tak' him into a pub!" growled the collier, audacious. + +At the same moment two rosettes bustled up authoritatively. One of them +was the burly Albert Benbow. For the first time Edwin was conscious of +genuine pleasure at the sight of his brother-in-law. Albert was a born +rosette. + +"What's all this? What's this? What is it?" he asked sharply. "Hello! +What? Mr Shushions!" He bent down and looked close at the old man. +"Where you been, old gentleman?" He spoke loud in his ear. +"Everybody's been asking for you. Service is well-nigh over, but ye +must come up." + +The old man did not appear to grasp the significance of Albert's +patronage. Albert turned to Edwin and winked, not only for Edwin's +benefit but for that of the policeman, who smiled in a manner that +infuriated Edwin. + +"Queer old stick!" Albert murmured. "No doing anything with him. He's +quarrelled with everybody at Turnhill. That's why he wanted to come to +us. And of course we weren't going to refuse the oldest Sunday school +teacher in th' Five Towns. He's a catch... Come along, old gentleman!" + +Mr Shushions did not stir. + +"Now, Mr Shushions," Hilda persuaded him in a voice exquisitely mild, +and with a lovely gesture she bent over him. "Let these gentlemen take +you up to the platform. That's what you've come for, you know." + +The transformation in her amazed Edwin, who could see the tears in her +eyes. The tableau of the little, silly old man looking up, and Hilda +looking down at him, with her lips parted in a heavenly invitation, and +one gloved hand caressing his greenish-black shoulder and the other +mechanically holding the parasol aloft,--this tableau was imprinted for +ever on Edwin's mind. It was a vision blended in an instant and in an +instant dissolved, but for Edwin it remained one of the epochal things +of his experience. + +Hilda gave Edwin her parasol and quickly fastened Mr Shushions's +collar, and the old man consented to be led off between the two +rosettes. The bands were playing the Austrian hymn. + +"Like to come up with your young lady friend?" Albert whispered to +Edwin importantly as he went. + +"Oh no, thanks." Edwin hurriedly smiled. + +"Now, old gentleman," he could hear Albert adjuring Mr Shushions, and +he could see him broadly winking to the other rosettes and embracing the +yielding crowd in his wink. + +Thus was the doddering old fool who had given his youth to Sunday +schools when Sunday schools were not patronised by princes, archbishops, +and lord mayors, when Sunday schools were the scorn of the intelligent, +and had sometimes to be held in public-houses for lack of better +accommodation,--thus was he taken off for a show and a museum curiosity +by indulgent and shallow Samaritans who had not even the wit to guess +that he had sown what they were reaping. And Darius Clayhanger stood +oblivious at a high window of the sacred Bank. And Edwin, who, all +unconscious, owed the very fact of his existence to the doting imbecile, +regarded him chiefly as a figure in a tableau, as the chance instrument +of a woman's beautiful revelation. Mr Shushions's sole crime against +society was that he had forgotten to die. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +Hilda Lessways would not return to the barrels. She was taciturn, and +the only remark which she made bore upon the advisability of discovering +Janet and Mr Orgreave. They threaded themselves out of the moving +crowd and away from the hokey-pokey stall and the barrels into the +tranquillity of the market-place, where the shadow of the gold angel at +the top of the Town Hall spire was a mere squat shapeless stain on the +irregular paving-stones. The sound of the Festival came diminished from +the Square. + +"You're very fond of poetry, aren't you?" Edwin asked her, thinking, +among many other things, of her observation upon the verse of Isaac +Watts. + +"Of course," she replied disagreeably. "I can't imagine anybody wanting +to read anything else." She seemed to be ashamed of her kindness to Mr +Shushions, and to wish to efface any impression of amiability that she +might have made on Edwin. But she could not have done so. + +"Well," he said to himself, "there's no getting over it. You're the +biggest caution I've ever come across!" His condition was one of +various agitation. + +Then, just as they were passing the upper end of the Cock Yard, which +was an archway, Mr Orgreave and Janet appeared in the archway. + +"We've been looking for you everywhere." + +"And so have we." + +"What have you been doing?" + +"What have _you_ been doing?" + +Father and daughter were gay. They had not seen much, but they were +gay. Hilda Lessways and Edwin were not gay, and Hilda would +characteristically make no effort to seem that which she was not. +Edwin, therefore, was driven by his own diffidence into a nervous light +loquacity. He began the tale of Mr Shushions, and Hilda punctuated it +with stabs of phrases. + +Mr Orgreave laughed. Janet listened with eager sympathy. + +"Poor old thing! What a shame!" said Janet. + +But to Edwin, with the vision of Hilda's mercifulness in his mind, even +the sympathy of Janet for Mr Shushions had a quality of +uncomprehending, facile condescension which slightly jarred on him. + +The steam-car loitered into view, discharged two passengers, and began +to manoeuvre for the return journey. + +"Oh! Do let's go home by car, father!" cried Janet. "It's too hot for +anything!" + +Edwin took leave of them at the car steps. Janet was the smiling +incarnation of loving-kindness. Hilda shook hands grudgingly. Through +the windows of the car he saw her sternly staring at the advertisements +of the interior. He went down the Cock Yard into Wedgwood Street, +whence he could hear the bands again and see the pennons. He thought, +"This is a funny way of spending a morning!" and wondered what he should +do with himself till dinner-time. It was not yet a quarter past twelve. +Still, the hours had passed with extraordinary speed. He stood aimless +at the corner of the pavement, and people who, having had their fill of +the sun and the spectacle in the Square, were strolling slowly away, saw +a fair young man, in a stylish suit, evidently belonging to the aloof +classes, gazing at nothing whatever, with his hands elegantly in his +pockets. + + + +VOLUME TWO, CHAPTER FOURTEEN. + +MONEY. + +Things sometimes fall out in a surprising way, and the removal of the +Clayhanger household from the corner of Duck Square to the heights of +Bleakridge was diversified by a circumstance which Edwin, the person +whom alone it concerned, had not in the least anticipated. + +It was the Monday morning after the Centenary. Foster's largest +furniture-van, painted all over with fine pictures of the van itself +travelling by road, rail, and sea, stood loaded in front of the shop. +One van had already departed, and this second one, in its crammed +interior, on its crowded roof, on a swinging platform beneath its floor, +and on a posterior ledge supported by rusty chains, contained all that +was left of the furniture and domestic goods which Darius Clayhanger had +collected in half a century of ownership. The moral effect of Foster's +activity was always salutary, in that Foster would prove to any man how +small a space the acquisitions of a lifetime could be made to occupy +when the object was not to display but to pack them. Foster could put +all your pride on to four wheels, and Foster's driver would crack a whip +and be off with the lot of it as though it were no more than a load of +coal. + +The pavement and the road were littered with straw, and the straw +straggled into the shop, and heaped itself at the open side door. One +large brass saucepan lay lorn near the doorstep, a proof that Foster was +human. For everything except that saucepan a place had been found. +That saucepan had witnessed sundry ineffectual efforts to lodge it, and +had also suffered frequent forgetfulness. A tin candlestick had taken +refuge within it, and was trusting for safety to the might of the +obstinate vessel. In the sequel, the candlestick was pitched by Edwin +on to the roof of the van, and Darius Clayhanger, coming fussily out of +the shop, threw a question at Edwin and then picked up the saucepan and +went off to Bleakridge with it, thus making sure that it would not be +forgotten, and demonstrating to the town that he, Darius, was at last +`flitting' into his grand new house. Even weighted by the saucepan, in +which Mrs Nixon had boiled hundredweights of jam, he still managed to +keep his arms slanted outwards and motionless, retaining his appearance +of a rigid body that swam smoothly along on mechanical legs. Darius, +though putting control upon himself, was in a state of high complex +emotion, partly due to apprehensiveness about the violent changing of +the habits of a quarter of a century, and partly due to nervous pride. + +Maggie and Mrs Nixon had gone to the new house half an hour earlier, to +devise encampments therein for the night; for the Clayhangers would +definitely sleep no more at the corner of Duck Square; the rooms in +which they had eaten and slept and lain awake, and learnt what life and +what death was, were to be transformed into workshops and stores for an +increasing business. The premises were not abandoned empty. The shop +had to function as usual on that formidable day, and the printing had to +proceed. This had complicated the affair of the removal; but it had +helped everybody to pretend, in an adult and sedate manner, that nothing +in the least unusual was afoot. + +Edwin loitered on the pavement, with his brain all tingling, and +excitedly incapable of any consecutive thought whatever. It was his +duty to wait. Two of Foster's men were across in the vaults of the +Dragon; the rest were at Bleakridge with the first and smaller van. +Only one of Foster's horses was in the dropped double-shafts, and even +he had his nose towards the van, and in a nosebag; two others were to +come down soon from Bleakridge to assist. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +A tall, thin, grey-bearded man crossed Trafalgar Road from Aboukir +Street. He was very tall and very thin, and the peculiarity of his walk +was that the knees were never quite straightened, so that his height was +really greater even than it seemed. His dark suit and his boots and hat +were extraordinarily neat. You could be sure at once that he was a +person of immutable habits. He stopped when, out of the corner of his +eye, whose gaze was always precisely parallel to the direction of his +feet, he glimpsed Edwin. Deflecting his course, he went close to Edwin, +and, addressing the vacant air immediately over Edwin's pate, he said in +a mysterious, confidential whisper--"when are you coming in for that +money?" + +He spoke as though he was anxious to avoid, by a perfect air of +nonchalance, arousing the suspicions of some concealed emissary of the +Russian secret police. + +Edwin started. "Oh!" he exclaimed. "Is it ready?" + +"Yes. Waiting." + +"Are you going to your office now?" + +"Yes." + +Edwin hesitated. "It won't take a minute, I suppose. I'll slip along +in two jiffs. I'll be there almost as soon as you are." + +"Bring a receipt stamp," said the man, and resumed his way. + +He was the secretary of the Bursley and Turnhill Permanent 50 pounds +Benefit Building Society, one of the most solid institutions of the +district. And he had been its secretary for decades. No stories of the +defalcation of other secretaries of societies, no rumours as to the +perils of the system of the more famous Starr-Bowkett Building +Societies, ever bred a doubt in Bursley or Turnhill of the eternal +soundness of the Bursley and Turnhill Permanent 50 pounds Benefit +Building Society. You could acquire a share in it by an entrance fee of +one shilling, and then you paid eighteen-pence per week for ten years, +making something less than 40 pounds, and then, after an inactive period +of three months, the Society gave you 50 pounds, and you began therewith +to build a house, if you wanted a house, and, if you were prudent, you +instantly took out another share. You could have as many shares as you +chose. Though the Society was chiefly nourished by respectable artisans +with stiff chins, nobody in the district would have considered +membership to be beneath him. The Society was an admirable device for +strengthening an impulse towards thrift, because, once you had put +yourself into its machinery, it would stand no nonsense. Prosperous +tradesmen would push their children into it, and even themselves. This +was what had happened to Edwin in the dark past, before he had left +school. Edwin had regarded the trick with indifference at first, +because, except the opening half crown, his father had paid the +subscriptions for him until he left school and became a wage-earner. +Thereafter he had regarded it as simple parental madness. + +His whole life seemed to be nothing but a vista of Friday evenings on +which he went to the Society's office, between seven and nine, to `pay +the Club.' The social origin of any family in Bursley might have been +decided by the detail whether it referred to the Society as the +`Building Society' or as `the Club.' Artisans called it the Club, +because it did resemble an old-fashioned benefit club. Edwin had +invariably heard it called `Club' at home, and he called it `Club,' and +he did not know why. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +On ten thousand Friday evenings, as it seemed to him, he had gone into +the gas-lit office with the wire-blinds, in the Cock Yard. And the +procedure never varied. Behind a large table sat two gentlemen, the +secretary and a subordinate, who was, however, older than the secretary. +They had enormous ledgers in front of them, and at the lower corners of +the immense pages was a transverse crease, like a mountain range on the +left and like a valley on the right, caused by secretarial thumbs in +turning over. On the table were also large metal inkstands and wooden +money-coffers. The two officials both wore spectacles, and they both +looked above their spectacles when they talked to members across the +table. They spoke in low tones; they smiled with the most scrupulous +politeness; they never wasted words. They counted money with prim and +efficient gestures, ringing gold with the mien of judges inaccessible to +human emotions. They wrote in the ledgers, and on the membership-cards, +in a hand astoundingly regular and discreetly flourished; the pages of +the ledgers had the mystic charm of ancient manuscripts, and the +finality of decrees of fate. Apparently the scribes never made +mistakes, but sometimes they would whisper in colloquy, and one, without +leaning his body, would run a finger across the ledger of the other; +their fingers knew intimately the geography of the ledgers, and moved as +though they could have found a desired name, date, or number, in the +dark. The whole ceremony was impressive. It really did impress Edwin, +as he would wait his turn among the three or four proud and respectable +members that the going and coming seemed always to leave in the room. +The modest blue-yellow gas, the vast table and ledgers, and the two +sober heads behind; the polite murmurings, the rustle of leaves, the +chink of money, the smooth sound of elegant pens: all this made +something not merely impressive, but beautiful; something that had a +true if narrow dignity; something that ministered to an ideal if a low +one. + +But Edwin had regarded the operation as a complete loss of the money +whose payment it involved. Ten years! It was an eternity! And even +then his father would have some preposterous suggestion for rendering +useless the unimaginable fifty pounds! Meanwhile the weekly deduction +of eighteenpence from his miserable income was an exasperating strain. +And then one night the secretary had told him that he was entering on +his last month. If he had possessed any genuine interest in money, he +would have known for himself; but he did not. And then the payments had +ceased. He had said nothing to his father. + +And now the share had matured, and there was the unimaginable sum +waiting for him! He got his hat and a stamp, and hurried to the Cock +Yard. The secretary, in his private room now, gave him five notes as +though the notes had been naught but tissue paper, and he accepted them +in the same inhuman manner. The secretary asked him if he meant to take +out another share, and from sheer moral cowardice he said that he did +mean to do so; and he did so, on the spot. And in less than ten minutes +he was back at the shop. Nothing had happened there. The other horses +had not come down from Bleakridge, and the men had not come out of the +Dragon. But he had fifty pounds in his pocket, and it was lawfully his. +A quarter of an hour earlier he positively could not have conceived the +miracle. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +Two days later, on the Wednesday evening, Edwin was in his new bedroom, +overlooking his father's garden, with a glimpse of the garden of Lane +End House. His chamber, for him, was palatial, and it was at once the +symbol and the scene of his new life. A stranger entering would have +beheld a fair-sized room, a narrow bed, two chairs, an old-fashioned +table, a new wardrobe, an old dressing-table, a curious carpet and +hearthrug, low bookshelves on either side of the fireplace, and a few +prints and drawings, not all of them framed, on the distempered walls. +A stranger might have said in its praise that it was light and airy. +But a stranger could not have had the divine vision that Edwin had. +Edwin looked at it and saw clearly, and with the surest conviction, that +it was wonderful. He stood on the hearthrug, with his back to the +hearth, bending his body concavely and then convexly with the idle easy +sinuousness of youth, and he saw that it was wonderful. As an organic +whole it was wonderful. Its defects were qualities. For instance, it +had no convenience for washing; but with a bathroom a few yards off, who +would encumber his study (it was a study) with washing apparatus? He +had actually presented his old ramshackle washstand to the attic which +was to be occupied by Mrs Nixon's niece, a girl engaged to aid her aunt +in the terrible work of keeping clean a vast mansion. + +And the bedroom could show one or two details that in a bedroom were +luxurious. Chief of these were the carpet, the hearthrug, and the +table. Edwin owed them to a marvellous piece of good fortune. He had +feared, and even Maggie had feared, that their father would impair the +practical value and the charm of the new house by parsimony in the +matter of furniture. The furniture in the domestic portion of the old +dwelling was quite inadequate for the new one, and scarcely fit for it +either. Happily Darius had heard of a houseful of furniture for sale at +Oldcastle by private treaty, and in a wild, adventurous hour he had +purchased it, exceedingly cheap. Edwin had been amazed at his luck (he +accepted the windfall as his own private luck) when he first saw the +bought furniture in the new house, before the removal. Out of it he had +selected the table, the carpet, and the rug for his bedroom, and none +had demurred. He noticed that his father listened to him, in affairs of +the new house, as to an individuality whose views demanded some trifle +of respect. Beyond question his father was proving himself to possess a +mind equal to the grand situation. What with the second servant and the +furniture, Edwin felt that he would not have to blush for the house, no +matter who might enter it to spy it out. As for his own room, he would +not object to the Sunday seeing it. Indeed he would rather like the +Sunday to see it, on his next visit. Already it was in nearly complete +order, for he had shown a singular, callous disregard for the progress +of the rest of the house: against which surprising display of +selfishness both Maggie and Mrs Nixon had glumly protested. The truth +was that he was entirely obsessed by his room; it had disabled his +conscience. + +When he had oscillated on his heels and toes for a few moments with his +gaze on the table, he faced about, and stared in a sort of vacant +beatitude at the bookshelves to the left hand; those to the right hand +were as yet empty. Twilight was deepening. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +He heard his father's heavy and clumsy footstep on the landing. The old +man seemed to wander uncertainly a little, and then he pushed open +Edwin's door with a brusque movement and entered the room. The two +exchanged a look. They seldom addressed each other, save for an +immediate practical purpose, and they did not address each other now. +But Darius ejaculated "Um!" as he glanced around. They had no intimacy. +Darius never showed any interest in his son as an independent human +being with a developing personality, though he might have felt such an +interest; and Edwin was never conscious of a desire to share any of his +ideas or ideals with his father, whom he was content to accept as a +creature of inscrutable motives. Now, he resented his father's +incursion. He considered his room as his castle, whereof his rightful +exclusive dominion ran as far as the door-mat; and to placate his pride +Darius should have indicated by some gesture or word that he admitted +being a visitor on sufferance. It was nothing to Edwin that Darius +owned the room and nearly everything in it. He was generally nervous in +his father's presence, and his submissiveness only hid a spiritual +independence that was not less fierce for being restrained. He thought +Darius a gross fleshly organism, as he indeed was, and he privately +objected to many paternal mannerisms, of eating, drinking, breathing, +eructation, speech, deportment, and garb. Further, he had noted, and +felt, the increasing moroseness of his father's demeanour. He could +remember a period when Darius had moods of grim gaiety, displaying rough +humour; these moods had long ceased to occur. + +"So this is how ye've fixed yerself up!" Darius observed. + +"Yes," Edwin smiled, not moving from the hearthrug, and not ceasing to +oscillate on heels and toes. + +"Well, I'll say this. Ye've got a goodish notion of looking after +yerself. When ye can spare a few minutes to do a bit downstairs--" This +sentence was sarcastic and required no finishing. + +"I was just coming," said Edwin. And to himself, "What on earth does he +want here, making his noises?" + +With youthful lack of imagination and of sympathy, he quite failed to +perceive the patent fact that his father had been drawn into the room by +the very same instinct which had caused Edwin to stand on the hearthrug +in an idle bliss of contemplation. It did not cross his mind that his +father too was during those days going through wondrous mental +experiences, that his father too had begun a new life, that his father +too was intensely proud of the house and found pleasure in merely +looking at it, and looking at it again, and at every corner of it. + +A glint of gold attracted the eye of Darius to the second shelf of the +left-hand bookcase, and he went towards it with the arrogance of an +autocrat whose authority recognises no limit. Fourteen fine calf-backed +volumes stood on that shelf in a row; twelve of them were uniform, the +other two odd. These books were taller and more distinguished than any +of their neighbours. Their sole possible rivals were half a dozen +garishly bound Middle School prizes, machine-tooled, and to be mistaken +for treasures only at a distance of several yards. + +Edwin trembled, and loathed himself for trembling. He walked to the +window. + +"What be these?" Darius inquired. + +"Oh! Some books I've been picking up." + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +SIX. + +That same morning Edwin had been to the Saint Luke's Covered Market to +buy some apples for Maggie, who had not yet perfected the organisation +necessary to a house-mistress who does not live within half a minute of +a large central source of supplies. And, to his astonishment, he had +observed that one of the interior shops was occupied by a second-hand +bookseller with an address at Hanbridge. He had never noticed the shop +before, or, if he had noticed it, he had despised it. But the chat with +Tom Orgreave had awakened in him the alertness of a hunter. The shop +was not formally open--Wednesday's market being only half a market. The +shopkeeper, however, was busy within. Edwin loitered. Behind the piles +of negligible sermons, pietisms, keepsakes, schoolbooks, and +`Aristotles' (tied up in red twine, these last), he could descry, in the +farther gloom, actual folios and quartos. It was like seeing the gleam +of nuggets on the familiar slopes of Mow Cop, which is the Five Towns' +mountain. The proprietor, an extraordinarily grimy man, invited him to +examine. He could not refuse. He found Byron's "Childe Harold" in one +volume and "Don Juan" in another, both royal octavo editions, slightly +stained, but bound in full calf. He bought them. He knew that to keep +his resolutions he must read a lot of poetry. Then he saw Voltaire's +prose tales in four volumes, in French,--an enchanting Didot edition, +with ink as black as Hades and paper as white as snow; also bound in +full calf. He bought them. And then the proprietor showed him, in +eight similar volumes, Voltaire's "Dictionnaire Philosophique." He did +not want it; but it matched the tales and it was impressive to the eye. +And so he bought the other eight volumes. The total cost was seventeen +shillings. He was intoxicated and he was frightened. What a nucleus +for a collection of real books, of treasures! Those volumes would do no +shame even to Tom Orgreave's bookcase. And they had been lying in the +Covered Market, of all places in the universe... Blind! How blind he +had been to the possibilities of existence! Laden with a bag of apples +in one hand and a heavy parcel of books in the other, he had had to go +up to dinner in the car. It was no matter; he possessed riches. The +car stopped specially for him at the portals of the new house. He had +introduced the books into the new house surreptitiously, because he was +in fear, despite his acute joy. He had pushed the parcel under the bed. +After tea, he had passed half an hour in gazing at the volumes, as at +precious contraband. Then he had ranged them on the shelf, and had +gazed at them for perhaps another quarter of an hour. And now his +father, with the infallible nose of fathers for that which is no concern +of theirs, had lighted upon them and was peering into them, and +fingering them with his careless, brutal hands,--hands that could not +differentiate between a ready reckoner and a treasure. As the light +failed, he brought one of them and then another to the window. + +"Um!" he muttered. "Voltaire!" + +"Um! Byron!" + +And: "How much did they ask ye for these?" + +"Fifteen shillings," said Edwin, in a low voice. + +"Here! Take it!" said his father, relinquishing a volume to him. He +spoke in a queer, hard voice; and instantly left the room. Edwin +followed him shortly, and assisted Maggie to hang pictures in that +wilderness, the drawing-room. Supper was eaten in silence; and Maggie +looked askance from her father to her brother, both of whom had a +strained demeanour. + + + +VOLUME TWO, CHAPTER FIFTEEN. + +THE INSULT. + +The cold bath, the early excursion into the oblong of meadow that was +beginning to be a garden, the brisk stimulating walk down Trafalgar Road +to business,--all these novel experiences, which for a year Edwin had +been anticipating with joyous eagerness as bliss final and sure, had +lost their savour on the following morning. He had been ingenuous +enough to believe that he would be happy in the new house--that the new +house somehow meant the rebirth of himself and his family. Strange +delusion! The bath-splashings and the other things gave him no +pleasure, because he was saying to himself all the time, "There's going +to be a row this morning. There's going to be a regular shindy this +morning!" Yet he was accustomed to his father's scenes... Not a word +at breakfast, for which indeed Darius was very late. But a thick cloud +over the breakfast-table! Maggie showed that she felt the cloud. So +did even Mrs Nixon. The niece alone, unskilled in the science of +meteorology, did not notice it, and was pertly bright. Edwin departed +before his father, hurrying. He knew that his father, starting from the +luxurious books, would ask him brutally what he meant by daring to draw +out his share from the Club without mentioning the affair, and +particularly without confiding to his safe custody the whole sum +withdrawn. He knew that his father would persist in regarding the fifty +pounds as sacred, as the ark of the covenant, and on the basis of the +alleged outrage would build one of those cold furies that seemed to give +him so perverse a delight. On the other hand, despite his father's +peculiar intonation of the names of Edwin's authors--Voltaire and +Byron--he did not fear to be upbraided for possessing himself of loose +and poisonous literature. It was a point to his father's credit that he +never attempted any kind of censorship. Edwin never knew whether this +attitude was the result of indifference or due to a grim sporting +instinct. + +There was no sign of trouble in the shop until noon. Darius was very +busy superintending the transformation of the former living-rooms +upstairs into supplementary workshops, and also the jobbing builder was +at work according to the plans of Osmond Orgreave. But at five minutes +past twelve--just before Stifford went out to his dinner--Darius entered +the ebonised cubicle, and said curtly to Edwin, who was writing there-- + +"Show me your book." + +This demand surprised Edwin. `His' book was the shop-sales book. He +was responsible for it, and for the petty cash-book, and for the shop +till. His father's private cash-book was utterly unknown to him, and he +had no trustworthy idea of the financial totality of the business; but +the management of the shop till gave him the air of being in his +father's confidence accustomed him to the discipline of anxiety, and +also somewhat flattered him. + +He produced the book. The last complete page had not been added up. + +"Add this," said his father. + +Darius himself added up the few lines on the incomplete page. + +"Stiff;" he shouted, "bring me the sales-slip." + +The amounts of sales conducted by Stifford himself were written on a +slip of paper from which Edwin transferred the items at frequent +intervals to the book. + +"Go to yer dinner," said Darius to Stifford, when he appeared at the +door of the cubicle with the slip. + +"It's not quite time yet, sir." + +"Go to yer dinner, I tell ye." + +Stifford had three-quarters of an hour for his dinner. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +Darius combined the slip with the book and made a total. + +"Petty cash," he muttered shortly. + +Edwin produced the petty cash-book, a volume of very trifling +importance. + +"Now bring me the till." + +Edwin went out of the cubicle and brought the till, which was a large +and battered japanned cash-box with a lid in two independent parts, from +its well-concealed drawer behind the fancy-counter. Darius counted the +coins in it and made calculations on blotting-paper, breathing +stertorously all the time. + +"What on earth are you trying to get at?" Edwin asked, with innocent +familiarity. He thought that the Club-share crisis had been postponed +by one of his father's swift strange caprices. + +Darius turned on him glaring: "I'm trying to get at where ye got the +brass from to buy them there books as I saw last night. Where _did_ ye +get it from? There's nowt wrong here, unless ye're a mighty lot +cleverer than I take ye for. Where did ye get it from? Ye don't mean +to tell me as ye saved it up!" + +Edwin had had some shocks in his life. This was the greatest. He could +feel his cheeks and his hands growing dully hot, and his eyes smarting; +and he was suddenly animated by an almost murderous hatred and an +inexpressible disgust for his father, who in the grossness of his +perceptions and his notions had imagined his son to be a thief. +"Loathsome beast!" he thought savagely. + +"I'm waiting," said his father. + +"I've drawn my Club money," said Edwin. + +For an instant the old man was at a loss; then he understood. He had +entirely forgotten the maturing of the Club share, and assuredly he had +not dreamed that Edwin would accept and secrete so vast a sum as fifty +pounds without uttering a word. Darius had made a mistake, and a bad +one; but in those days fathers were never wrong; above all they never +apologised. In Edwin's wicked act of concealment Darius could choose +new and effective ground, and he did so. + +"And what dost mean by doing that and saying nowt? Sneaking--" + +"What do you mean by calling me a thief?" Edwin and Darius were equally +startled by this speech. Edwin knew not what had come over him, and +Darius, never having been addressed in such a dangerous tone by his son, +was at a loss. + +"I never called ye a thief." + +"Yes, you did! Yes, you did!" Edwin nearly shouted now. "You starve +me for money, until I haven't got sixpence to bless myself with. You +couldn't get a man to do what I do for twice what you pay me. And then +you call me a thief. And then you jump down my throat because I spend a +bit of money of my own." He snorted. He knew that he was quite mad, +but there was a strange drunken pleasure in this madness. + +"Hold yer tongue, lad!" said Darius, as stiffly as he could. But +Darius, having been unprepared, was intimidated. Darius vaguely +comprehended that a new and disturbing factor had come into his life. +"Make a less row!" he went on more strongly. "D'ye want all th' street +to hear ye?" + +"I won't make a less row. You make as much noise as you want, and I'll +make as much noise as I want!" Edwin cried louder and louder. And then +in bitter scorn, "Thief, indeed!" + +"I never called ye a--" + +"Let me come out!" Edwin shouted. They were very close together. +Darius saw that his son's face was all drawn. Edwin snatched his hat +off its hook, pushed violently past his father and, sticking his hands +deep in his pockets, strode into the street. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +In four minutes he was hammering on the front door of the new house. +Maggie opened, in alarm. Edwin did not see how alarmed she was by his +appearance. + +"What--" + +"Father thinks I've been stealing his damned money!" Edwin snapped, in +a breaking voice. The statement was not quite accurate, but it suited +his boiling anger to put it in the present tense instead of in the past. +He hesitated an instant in the hall, throwing a look behind at Maggie, +who stood entranced with her hand on the latch of the open door. Then +he bounded upstairs, and shut himself in his room with a tremendous bang +that shook the house. He wanted to cry, but he would not. + +Nobody disturbed him till about two o'clock, when Maggie knocked at the +door, and opened it, without entering. + +"Edwin, I've kept your dinner hot." + +"No, thanks." He was standing with his legs wide apart on the hearth +rug. + +"Father's had his dinner and gone." + +"No, thanks." + +She closed the door again. + + + +VOLUME TWO, CHAPTER SIXTEEN. + +THE SEQUEL. + +"I say, Edwin," Maggie called through the door. + +"Well, come in, come in," he replied gruffly. And as he spoke he sped +from the window, where he was drumming on the pane, to the hearthrug, so +that he should have the air of not having moved since Maggie's previous +visit. He knew not why he made this manoeuvre, unless it was that he +thought vaguely that Maggie's impression of the seriousness of the +crisis might thereby be intensified. + +She stood in the doorway, evidently placatory and sympathetic, and +behind her stood Mrs Nixon, in a condition of great mental turmoil. + +"I think you'd better come and have your tea," said Maggie firmly, and +yet gently. She was soft and stout, and incapable of asserting herself +with dignity; but she was his elder, and there were moments when an +unusual, scarce-perceptible quality in her voice would demand from him a +particular attention. + +He shook his head, and looked sternly at his watch, in the manner of one +who could be adamant. He was astonished to see that the hour was a +quarter past six. + +"Where is he?" he asked. + +"Father? He's had his tea and gone back to the shop. Come along." + +"I must wash myself first," said Edwin gloomily. He did not wish to +yield, but he was undeniably very hungry indeed. + +Mrs Nixon could not leave him alone at tea, worrying him with offers of +specialities to tempt him. He wondered who had told the old thing about +the affair. Then he reflected that she had probably heard his outburst +when he entered the house. Possibly the pert, nice niece also had heard +it. Maggie remained sewing at the bow-window of the dining-room while +he ate a plenteous tea. + +"Father said I could tell you that you could pay yourself an extra +half-crown a week wages from next Saturday," said Maggie suddenly, when +she saw he had finished. It was always Edwin who paid wages in the +Clayhanger establishment. + +He was extremely startled by this news, with all that it implied of +surrender and of pacific intentions. But he endeavoured to hide what he +felt, and only snorted. + +"He's been talking, then? What did he say?" + +"Oh! Not much! He told me I could tell you if I liked." + +"It would have looked better of him, if he'd told me himself," said +Edwin, determined to be ruthless. Maggie offered no response. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +After about a quarter of an hour he went into the garden, and kicked +stones in front of him. He could not classify his thoughts. He +considered himself to be perfectly tranquillised now, but he was +mistaken. As he idled in the beautiful August twilight near the +garden-front of the house, catching faintly the conversation of Mrs +Nixon and her niece as it floated through the open window of the +kitchen, round the corner, together with quiet soothing sounds of +washing-up, he heard a sudden noise in the garden-porch, and turned +swiftly. His father stood there. Both of them were off guard. Their +eyes met. + +"Had your tea?" Darius asked, in an unnatural tone. + +"Yes," said Edwin. + +Darius, having saved his face, hurried into the house, and Edwin moved +down the garden, with heart sensibly beating. The encounter renewed his +agitation. + +And at the corner of the garden, over the hedge, which had been +repaired, Janet entrapped him. She seemed to have sprung out of the +ground. He could not avoid greeting her, and in order to do so he had +to dominate himself by force. She was in white. She appeared always to +wear white on fine summer days. Her smile was exquisitely benignant. + +"So you're installed?" she began. + +They talked of the removal, she asking questions and commenting, and he +giving brief replies. + +"I'm all alone to-night," she said, in a pause, "except for Alicia. +Father and mother and the boys are gone to a fete at Longshaw." + +"And Miss Lessways?" he inquired self-consciously. + +"Oh! She's gone," said Janet. "She's gone back to London. Went +yesterday." + +"Rather sudden, isn't it?" + +"Well, she had to go." + +"Does she live in London?" Edwin asked, with an air of indifference. + +"She does just now." + +"I only ask because I thought from something she said she came from +Turnhill way." + +"Her people do," said Janet. "Yes, you may say she's a Turnhill girl." + +"She seems very fond of poetry," said Edwin. + +"You've noticed it!" Janet's face illuminated the dark. "You should +hear her recite!" + +"Recites, does she?" + +"You'd have heard her that night you were here. But when she knew you +were coming, she made us all promise not to ask her." + +"Really!" said Edwin. "But why? She didn't know me. She'd never seen +me." + +"Oh! She might have just seen you in the street. In fact I believe she +had. But that wasn't the reason," Janet laughed. "It was just that you +were a stranger. She's very sensitive, you know." + +"Ye-es," he admitted. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +He took leave of Janet, somehow, and went for a walk up to Toft End, +where the wind blows. His thoughts were more complex than ever in the +darkness. So she had made them all promise not to ask her to recite +while he was at the Orgreaves'! She had seen him, previous to that, in +the street, and had obviously discussed him with Janet... And then, at +nearly midnight, she had followed him to the new house! And on the day +of the Centenary she had manoeuvred to let Janet and Mr Orgreave go in +front... He did not like her. She was too changeable, too dark, and +too light... But it was exciting. It was flattering. He saw again and +again her gesture as she bent to Mr Shushions; and the straightening of +her spine as she left the garden-porch on the night of his visit to the +Orgreaves... Yet he did not like her. Her sudden departure, however, +was a disappointment; it was certainly too abrupt... Probably very +characteristic of her... Strange day! He had been suspected of theft. +He had stood up to his father. He had remained away from the shop. And +his father's only retort was to give him a rise of half a crown a week! + +"The old man must have had a bit of a shock!" he said to himself, grimly +vain. "I lay I don't hear another word about that fifty pounds." + +Yes, amid his profound resentment, there was some ingenuous vanity at +the turn which things had taken. And he was particularly content about +the rise of half a crown a week, because that relieved him from the most +difficult of all the resolutions the carrying out of which was to mark +the beginning of the new life. It settled the financial question, for +the present at any rate. It was not enough, but it was a great deal-- +from his father. He was ashamed that he could not keep his righteous +resentment pure from this gross satisfaction at an increase of income. +The fineness of his nature was thereby hurt. But the gross satisfaction +would well up in his mind. + +And in the night, with the breeze on his cheek, and the lamps of the +Five Towns curving out below him, he was not unhappy, despite what he +had suffered and was still suffering. He had a tingling consciousness +of being unusually alive. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +Later, in his bedroom, shut in, and safe and independent, with the new +blind drawn, and the gas fizzing in its opaline globe, he tried to read +"Don Juan." He could not. He was incapable of fixity of mind. He +could not follow the sense of a single stanza. Images of his father and +of Hilda Lessways mingled with reveries of the insult he had received +and the triumph he had won, and all the confused wonder of the day and +evening engaged his thoughts. He dwelt lovingly on the supreme +disappointment of his career. He fancied what he would have been doing, +and where he would have been then, if his appalling father had not made +it impossible for him to be an architect. He pitied himself. But he +saw the material of happiness ahead, in the faithful execution of his +resolves for self-perfecting. And Hilda had flattered him. Hilda had +given him a new conception of himself... A tiny idea arose in his brain +that there was perhaps some slight excuse for his father's suspicion of +him. After all, he had been secretive. He trampled on that idea, and +it arose again. + +He slept very heavily, and woke with a headache. A week elapsed before +his agitation entirely disappeared, and hence before he could realise +how extreme that agitation had been. He was ashamed of having so madly +and wildly abandoned himself to passion. + + + +VOLUME TWO, CHAPTER SEVENTEEN. + +CHALLENGE AND RESPONSE. + +Time passed, like a ship across a distant horizon, which moves but which +does not seem to move. One Monday evening Edwin said that he was going +round to Lane End House. He had been saying so for weeks, and +hesitating. He thoroughly enjoyed going to Lane End House; there was no +reason why he should not go frequently and regularly, and there were +several reasons why he should. Yet his visitings were capricious +because his nature was irresolute. That night he went, sticking a hat +carelessly on his head, and his hands deep into his pockets. Down the +slope of Trafalgar Road, in the biting November mist, between the two +rows of gas-lamps that flickered feebly into the pale gloom, came a long +straggling band of men who also, to compensate for the absence of +overcoats, stuck hands deep into pockets, and strode quickly. With +reluctance they divided for the passage of the steam-car, and closed +growling together again on its rear. The potters were on strike, and a +Bursley contingent was returning in embittered silence from a mass +meeting at Hanbridge. When the sound of the steam-car subsided, as the +car dipped over the hill-top on its descent towards Hanbridge, nothing +could be heard but the tramp-tramp of the procession on the road. + +Edwin hurried down the side street, and in a moment rang at the front +door of the Orgreaves'. He nodded familiarly to the servant who opened, +stepped on to the mat, and began contorting his legs in order to wipe +the edge of his boot-soles. + +"Quite a stranger, sir!" said Martha, bridling, and respectfully aware +of her attractiveness for this friend of the house. + +"Yes," he laughed. "Anybody in?" + +"Well, sir, I'm afraid Miss Janet and Miss Alicia are out." + +"And Mr Tom?" + +"Mr Tom's out, sir. He pretty nearly always is now, sir." The fact +was that Tom was engaged to be married, and the servant indicated, by a +scarcely perceptible motion of the chin, that fiances were and ever +would be all the same. "And Mr John and Mr James are out too, sir." +They also were usually out. They were both assisting their father in +business, and sought relief from his gigantic conception of a day's work +by evening diversions at Hanbridge. These two former noisy Liberals had +joined the Hanbridge Conservative Club because it was a club, and had a +billiard-table that could only be equalled at the Five Towns Hotel at +Knype. + +"And Mr Orgreave?" + +"He's working upstairs, sir. Mrs Orgreave's got her asthma, and so +he's working upstairs." + +"Well, tell them I've called." Edwin turned to depart. + +"I'm sure Mr Orgreave would like to know you're here, sir," said the +maid firmly. "If you'll just step into the breakfast-room." That maid +did as she chose with visitors for whom she had a fancy. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +She conducted him to the so-called breakfast-room and shut the door on +him. It was a small chamber behind the drawing-room, and shabbier than +the drawing-room. In earlier days the children had used it for their +lessons and hobbies. And now it was used as a sitting-room when mere +cosiness was demanded by a decimated family. Edwin stooped down and +mended the fire. Then he went to the wall and examined a framed +water-colour of the old Sytch Pottery, which was signed with his +initials. He had done it, aided by a photograph, and by Johnnie +Orgreave in details of perspective, and by dint of preprandial +frequentings of the Sytch, as a gift for Mrs Orgreave. It always +seemed to him to be rather good. + +Then he bent to examine bookshelves. Like the hall, the drawing-room, +and the dining-room, this apartment too was plenteously full of +everything, and littered over with the apparatus of various +personalities. Only from habit did Edwin glance at the books. He knew +their backs by heart. And books in quantity no longer intimidated him. +Despite his grave defects as a keeper of resolves, despite his paltry +trick of picking up a newspaper or periodical and reading it all +through, out of sheer vacillation and mental sloth, before starting +serious perusals, despite the human disinclination which he had to +bracing himself, and keeping up the tension, in a manner necessary for +the reading of long and difficult works, and despite sundry ignominious +backslidings into original sluggishness--still he had accomplished +certain literary adventures. He could not enjoy "Don Juan." Expecting +from it a voluptuous and daring grandeur, he had found in it nothing +whatever that even roughly fitted into his idea of what poetry was. But +he had had a passion for "Childe Harold," many stanzas of which thrilled +him again and again, bringing back to his mind what Hilda Lessways had +said about poetry. And further, he had a passion for Voltaire. In +Voltaire, also, he had been deceived, as in Byron. He had expected +something violent, arid, closely argumentative; and he found gaiety, +grace, and really the funniest jokes. He could read "Candide" almost +without a dictionary, and he had intense pride in doing so, and for some +time afterwards "Candide" and "La Princesse de Babylone," and a few +similar witty trifles, were the greatest stories in the world for him. +Only a faint reserve in Tom Orgreave's responsive enthusiasm made him +cautiously reflect. + +He could never be intimate with Tom, because Tom somehow never came out +from behind his spectacles. But he had learnt much from him, and in +especial a familiarity with the less difficult of Bach's preludes and +fugues, which Tom loved to play. Edwin knew not even the notes of +music, and he was not sure that Bach gave him pleasure. Bach affected +him strangely. He would ask for Bach out of a continually renewed +curiosity, so that he could examine once more and yet again the +sensations which the music produced; and the habit grew. As regards the +fugues, there could be no doubt that, the fugue begun, a desire was +thereby set up in him for the resolution of the confusing problem +created in the first few bars, and that he waited, with a pleasant and +yet a trying anxiety, for the indications of that resolution, and that +the final reassuring and utterly tranquillising chords gave him deep +joy. When he innocently said that he was `glad when the end came of a +fugue,' all the Orgreaves laughed heartily, but after laughing, Tom said +that he knew what Edwin meant and quite agreed. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +It was while he was glancing along the untidy and crowded shelves with +sophisticated eye that the door brusquely opened. He looked up mildly, +expecting a face familiar, and saw one that startled him, and heard a +voice that aroused disconcerting vibrations in himself. It was Hilda +Lessways. She had in her hand a copy of the "Signal." Over fifteen +months had gone since their last meeting, but not since he had last +thought of her. Her features seemed strange. His memory of them had +not been reliable. He had formed an image of her in his mind, and had +often looked at it, and he now saw that it did not correspond with the +reality. The souvenir of their brief intimacy swept back upon him. +Incredible that she should be there, in front of him; and yet there she +was! More than once, after reflecting on her, he had laughed, and said +lightly to himself: "Well, the chances are I shall never see _her_ again! +Funny girl!" But the recollection of her gesture with Mr Shushions +prevented him from dismissing her out of his head with quite that +lightness... + +"I'm ordered to tell you that Mr Orgreave will be down in a few +minutes," she said. + +"_Hello!_" he exclaimed. "I'd no idea you were in Bursley!" + +"Came to-day!" she replied. + +"How odd," he thought, "that I should call like this on the very day she +comes!" But he pushed away that instinctive thought with the rational +thought that such a coincidence could not be regarded as in any way +significant. + +They shook hands in the middle of the room, and she pressed his hand, +while looking downwards with a smile. And his mind was suddenly filled +with the idea that during all those months she had been existing +somewhere, under the eye of some one, intimate with some one, and +constantly conducting herself with a familiar freedom that doubtless she +would not use to him. And so she was invested, for him, with +mysteriousness. His interest in her was renewed in a moment, and in a +form much more acute than its first form. Moreover, she presented +herself to his judgement in a different aspect. He could scarcely +comprehend how he had ever deemed her habitual expression to be +forbidding. In fact, he could persuade himself now that she was +beautiful, and even nobly beautiful. From one extreme he flew to the +other. She sat down on an old sofa; he remained standing. And in the +midst of a little conversation about Mrs Orgreave's indisposition, and +the absence of the members of the family (she said she had refused an +invitation to go with Janet and Alicia to Hillport), she broke the +thread, and remarked-- + +"You would have known I was coming if you'd been calling here recently." +She pushed her feet near the fender, and gazed into the fire. + +"Ah! But you see I haven't been calling recently." + +She raised her eyes to his. "I suppose you've never thought about me +once since I left!" she fired at him. An audacious and discomposing +girl! + +"Oh yes, I have," he said weakly. What could you reply to such +speeches? Nevertheless he was flattered. + +"Really? But you've never inquired about me." + +"Yes, I have." + +"Only once." + +"How do you know?" + +"I asked Janet." + +"Damn her!" he said to himself, but pleased with her. And aloud, in a +tone suddenly firm, "That's nothing to go by." + +"What isn't?" + +"The number of _times_ I've inquired." He was blushing. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +In the smallness of the room, sitting as it were at his feet on the +sofa, surrounded and encaged by a hundred domestic objects and by the +glow of the fire and the radiance of the gas, she certainly did seem to +Edwin to be an organism exceedingly mysterious. He could follow with +his eye every fold of her black dress, he could trace the waving of her +hair, and watch the play of light in her eyes. He might have physically +hurt her, he might have killed her, she was beneath his hand--and yet +she was most bafflingly withdrawn, and the essence of her could not be +touched nor got at. Why did she challenge him by her singular attitude? +Why was she always saying such queer things to him? No other girl (he +thought, in the simplicity of his inexperience) would ever talk as she +talked. He wanted to test her by being rude to her. "Damn her!" he +said to himself again. "Supposing I took hold of her and kissed her--I +wonder what sort of a face she'd pull then!" (And a moment ago he had +been appraising her as nobly beautiful! A moment ago he had been +dwelling on the lovely compassion of her gesture with Mr Shushions!) +This quality of daring and naughty enterprise had never before shown +itself in Edwin, and he was surprised to discover in himself such +impulses. But then the girl was so provocative. And somehow the sight +of the girl delivered him from an excessive fear of consequences. He +said to himself, "I'll do something or I'll say something, before I +leave her to-night, just to show her!" He screwed up his resolution to +the point of registering a private oath that he would indeed do or say +something. Without a solemn oath he could not rely upon his valour. He +knew that whatever he said or did in the nature of a bold advance would +be accomplished clumsily. He knew that it would be unpleasant. He knew +that inaction suited much better his instinct for tranquillity. No +matter! All that was naught. She had challenged, and he had to +respond. Besides, she allured... And, after her scene with him in the +porch of the new house, had he not the right? ... A girl who had +behaved as she did that night cannot effectively contradict herself! + +"I was just reading about this strike," she said, rustling the +newspaper. + +"You've soon got into local politics." + +"Well," she said, "I saw a lot of the men as we were driving from the +station. I should think I saw two thousand of them. So of course I was +interested. I made Mr Orgreave tell me all about it. Will they win?" + +"It depends on the weather." He smiled. + +She remained silent, and grave. "I see!" she said, leaning her chin on +her hand. At her tone he ceased smiling. She said "I see," and she +actually had seen. + +"You see," he repeated. "If it was June instead of November! But then +it isn't June. Wages are settled every year in November. So if there +is to be a strike it can only begin in November." + +"But didn't the men ask for the time of year to be changed?" + +"Yes," he said. "But you don't suppose the masters were going to agree +to that, do you?" He sneered masculinely. + +"Why not?" + +"Because it gives them such a pull." + +"What a shame!" Hilda exclaimed passionately. "And what a shame it is +that the masters want to make the wages depend on selling prices! Can't +they see that selling prices ought to depend on wages?" + +Edwin said nothing. She had knocked suddenly out of his head all ideas +of flirting, and he was trying to reassemble them. + +"I suppose you're like all the rest?" she questioned gloomily. + +"How like all the rest?" + +"Against the men. Mr Orgreave is, and he says your father is very +strongly against them." + +"Look here," said Edwin, with an air of resentment as to which he +himself could not have decided whether it was assumed or genuine, "what +earthly right have you to suppose that I'm like all the rest?" + +"I'm very sorry," she surrendered. "I knew all the time you weren't." +With her face still bent downwards, she looked up at him, smiling sadly, +smiling roguishly. + +"Father's against them," he proceeded, somewhat deflated. And he +thought of all his father's violent invective, and of Maggie's bland +acceptance of the assumption that workmen on strike were rascals--how +different the excellent simple Maggie from this feverish creature on the +sofa! "Father's against them, and most people are, because they broke +the last arbitration award. But I'm not my father. If you ask me, I'll +tell you what I think--workmen on strike are always in the right; at +bottom I mean. You've only got to look at them in a crowd together. +They don't starve themselves for fun." + +He was not sure if he was convinced of the truth of these statements; +but she drew them out of him by her strange power. And when he had +uttered them, they appeared fine to him. + +"What does your father say to that?" + +"Oh!" said Edwin uneasily. "Him--and me--we don't argue about these +things." + +"Why not?" + +"Well, we don't." + +"You aren't ashamed of your own opinions, are you?" she demanded, with a +hint in her voice that she was ready to be scornful. + +"You know all the time I'm not." He repeated the phrase of her previous +confession with a certain acrimonious emphasis. "Don't you?" he added +curtly. + +She remained silent. + +"Don't you?" he said more loudly. And as she offered no reply, he went +on, marvelling at what was coming out of his mouth. "I'll tell you what +I am ashamed of. I'm ashamed of seeing my father lose his temper. So +you know!" + +She said-- + +"I never met anybody like you before. No, never!" + +At this he really was astounded, and most exquisitely flattered. + +"I might say the same of you," he replied, sticking his chin out. + +"Oh no!" she said. "I'm nothing." + +The fact was that he could not foretell their conversation even ten +seconds in advance. It was full of the completely unexpected. He +thought to himself, "You never know what a girl like that will say +next." But what would _he_ say next? + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +They were interrupted by Osmond Orgreave, with his, "Well, Edwin," +jolly, welcoming, and yet slightly quizzical. Edwin could not look him +in the face without feeling self-conscious. Nor dared he glance at +Hilda to see what her demeanour was like under the good-natured scrutiny +of her friend's father. + +"We thought you'd forgotten us," said Mr Orgreave. "But that's always +the way with neighbours." He turned to Hilda. "It's true," he +continued, jerking his head at Edwin. "He scarcely ever comes to see +us, except when you're here." + +"Steady on!" Edwin murmured. "Steady on, Mr Orgreave!" And hastily +he asked a question about Mrs Orgreave's asthma; and from that the +conversation passed to the doings of the various absent members of the +family. + +"You've been working, as usual, I suppose," said Edwin. + +"Working!" laughed Mr Orgreave. "I've done what I could, with Hilda +there! Instead of going up to Hillport with Janet, she would stop here +and chatter about strikes." + +Hilda smiled at him benevolently as at one to whom she permitted +everything. + +"Mr Clayhanger agrees with me," she said. + +"Oh! You needn't tell me!" protested Mr Orgreave. "I could see you +were as thick as thieves over it." He looked at Edwin. "Has she told +you she wants to go over a printing works?" + +"No," said Edwin. "But I shall be very pleased to show her over ours, +any time." + +She made no observation. + +"Look here," said Edwin suddenly, "I must be off. I only slipped in for +a minute, really." He did not know why he said this, for his greatest +wish was to probe more deeply into the tantalising psychology of Hilda +Lessways. His tongue, however, had said it, and his tongue reiterated +it when Mr Orgreave urged that Janet and Alicia would be back soon and +that food would then be partaken of. He would not stay. Desiring to +stay, he would not. He wished to be alone, to think. Clearly Hilda had +been talking about him to Mr Orgreave, and to Janet. Did she discuss +him and his affairs with everybody? + +Nor would he, in response to Mr Orgreave's suggestion, promise +definitely to call again on the next evening. He said he would try. +Hilda took leave of him nonchalantly. He departed. + +And as he made the half-circuit of the misty lawn, on his way to the +gates, he muttered in his heart, where even he himself could scarcely +hear: "I swore I'd do something, and I haven't. Well, of course, when +she talked seriously like that, what could I do?" But he was disgusted +with himself and ashamed of his namby-pambiness. + +He strolled thoughtfully up Oak Street, and down Trafalgar Road; and +when he was near home, another wayfarer saw him face right about and go +up Trafalgar Road and disappear at the corner of Oak Street. + +The Orgreave servant was surprised to see him at the front door again +when she answered a discreet ring. + +"I wish you'd tell Miss Lessways I want to speak to her a moment, will +you?" + +"Miss Lessways?" + +"Yes." What an adventure! + +"Certainly, sir. Will you come in?" She shut the door. + +"Ask her to come here," he said, smiling with deliberate confidential +persuasiveness. She nodded, with a brighter smile. + +The servant vanished, and Hilda came. She was as red as fire. He began +hurriedly. + +"When will you come to look over our works? To-morrow? I should like +you to come." He used a tone that said: "Now don't let's have any +nonsense! You know you want to come." + +She frowned frankly. There they were in the hall, like a couple of +conspirators, but she was frowning; she would not meet him half-way. He +wished he had not permitted himself this caprice. What importance had a +private oath? He felt ridiculous. + +"What time?" she demanded, and in an instant transformed his disgust +into delight. + +"Any time." His heart was beating with expectation. + +"Oh no! You must fix the time." + +"Well, after tea. Say between half-past six and a quarter to seven. +That do?" + +She nodded. + +"Good," he murmured. "That's all! Thanks. Good-night!" + +He hastened away, with a delicate photograph of the palm of her hand +printed in minute sensations on the palm of his. + +"I did it, anyhow!" he muttered loudly, in his heart. At any rate he +was not shamed. At any rate he was a man. The man's face was burning, +and the damp noxious chill of the night only caressed him agreeably. + + + +VOLUME TWO, CHAPTER EIGHTEEN. + +CURIOSITY. + +He was afraid that, from some obscure motive of propriety or +self-protection, she would bring Janet with her, or perhaps Alicia. On +the other hand, he was afraid that she would come alone. That she +should come alone seemed to him, in spite of his reason, too brazen. +Moreover, if she came alone would he be equal to the situation? Would +he be able to carry the thing off in a manner adequate? He lacked +confidence. He desired the moment of her arrival, and yet he feared it. +His heart and his brain were all confused together in a turmoil of +emotion which he could not analyse nor define. + +He was in love. Love had caught him, and had affected his vision so +that he no longer saw any phenomenon as it actually was; neither +himself, nor Hilda, nor the circumstances which were uniting them. He +could not follow a train of thought. He could not remain of one opinion +nor in one mind. Within himself he was perpetually discussing Hilda, +and her attitude. She was marvellous! But was she? She admired him! +But did she? She had shown cunning! But was it not simplicity? He did +not even feel sure whether he liked her. He tried to remember what she +looked like, and he positively could not. The one matter upon which he +could be sure was that his curiosity was hotly engaged. If he had had +to state the case in words to another he would not have gone further +than the word `curiosity.' He had no notion that he was in love. He +did not know what love was; he had not had sufficient opportunity of +learning. Nevertheless the processes of love were at work within him. +Silently and magically, by the force of desire and of pride, the +refracting glass was being specially ground which would enable him, +which would compel him, to see an ideal Hilda when he gazed at the real +Hilda. He would not see the real Hilda any more unless some cataclysm +should shatter the glass. And he might be likened to a prisoner on whom +the gate of freedom is shut for ever, or to a stricken sufferer of whom +it is known that he can never rise again and go forth into the fields. +He was as somebody to whom the irrevocable had happened. And he knew it +not. None knew. None guessed. All day he went his ways, striving to +conceal the whirring preoccupation of his curiosity (a curiosity which +he thought showed a fine masculine dash), and succeeded fairly well. +The excellent, simple Maggie alone remarked in secret that he was +slightly nervous and unnatural. But even she, with all her excellent +simplicity, did not divine his victimhood. + +At six o'clock he was back at the shop from his tea. It was a wet, +chill night. On the previous evening he had caught cold, and he was +beginning to sneeze. He said to himself that Hilda could not be +expected to come on such a night. But he expected her. When the shop +clock showed half-past six, he glanced at his watch, which also showed +half-past six. Now at any instant she might arrive. The shop door +opened, and simultaneously his heart ceased to beat. But the person who +came in, puffing and snorting, was his father, who stood within the shop +while shaking his soaked umbrella over the exterior porch. The draught +from the shiny dark street and square struck cold, and Edwin +responsively sneezed; and Darius Clayhanger upbraided him for not having +worn his overcoat, and he replied with foolish unconvincingness that he +had got a cold, that it was nothing. Darius grunted his way into the +cubicle. Edwin remained in busy idleness at the right-hand counter; +Stifford was tidying the contents of drawers behind the fancy-counter. +And the fizzing gas-burners, inevitable accompaniment of night at the +period, kept watch above. Under the heat of the stove, the damp marks +of Darius Clayhanger's entrance disappeared more quickly than the +minutes ran. It grew almost impossible for Edwin to pass the time. At +moments when his father was not stirring in the cubicle, and Stifford +happened to be in repose, he could hear the ticking of the clock, which +he could not remember ever having heard before, except when he mounted +the steps to wind it. + +At a quarter to seven he said to himself that he gave up hope, while +pretending that he never had hoped, and that Hilda's presence was +indifferent to him. If she came not that day she would probably come +some other day. What could it matter? He was very unhappy. He said to +himself that he should have a long night's reading, but the prospect of +reading had no savour. He said: "No, I shan't go in to see them +to-night, I shall stay in and nurse my cold, and read." This was mere +futile bravado, for the impartial spectator in him, though far less +clear-sighted and judicial now than formerly, foresaw with certainty +that if Hilda did not come he would call at the Orgreaves'. At five +minutes to seven he was miserable: he had decided to hope until five +minutes to seven. He made it seven in despair. Then there were signs +of a figure behind the misty glass of the door. The door opened. It +could not be she! Impossible that it should be she! But it was she; +she had the air of being a miracle. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +His feelings were complex and contradictory, flitting about and crossing +each other in his mind with astounding rapidity. He wished she had not +come, because his father was there, and the thought of his father would +intensify his self-consciousness. He wondered why he should care +whether she came or not; after all she was only a young woman who wanted +to see a printing works; at best she was not so agreeable as Janet, at +worst she was appalling, and moreover he knew nothing about her. He had +a glimpse of her face as, with a little tightening of the lips, she shut +her umbrella. What was there in that face judged impartially? Why +should he be to so absurd a degree curious about her? He thought how +exquisitely delicious it would be to be walking with her by the shore of +a lovely lake on a summer evening, pale hills in the distance. He had +this momentary vision by reason of a coloured print of the "Silver +Strand" of a Scottish loch which was leaning in a gilt frame against the +artists' materials cabinet and was marked twelve-and-six. During the +day he had imagined himself with her in all kinds of beautiful spots and +situations. But the chief of his sensations was one of exquisite +relief... She had come. He could wreak his hungry curiosity upon her. + +Yes, she was alone. No Janet! No Alicia! How had she managed it? +What had she said to the Orgreaves? That she should have come alone, +and through the November rain, in the night, affected him deeply. It +gave her the quality of a heroine of high adventure. It was as though +she had set sail unaided, in a frail skiff, on a formidable ocean, to +meet him. It was inexpressibly romantic and touching. She came towards +him, her face sedately composed. She wore a small hat, a veil, and a +mackintosh, and black gloves that were splashed with wet. Certainly she +was a practical woman. She had said she would come, and she had come, +sensibly, but how charmingly, protected against the shocking conditions +of the journey. There is naught charming in a mackintosh. And yet +there was, in this mackintosh! ... Something in the contrast between +its harshness and her fragility... The veil was supremely charming. +She had half lifted it, exposing her mouth; the upper part of her +flushed face was caged behind the bars of the veil; behind those bars +her eyes mysteriously gleamed... Spanish! ... No exaggeration in all +this! He felt every bit of it honestly, as he stood at the counter in +thrilled expectancy. By virtue of his impassioned curiosity, the +terraces of Granada and the mantillas of _senoritas_ were not more +romantic than he had made his father's shop and her dripping mackintosh. +He tried to see her afresh; he tried to see her as though he had never +seen her before; he tried desperately once again to comprehend what it +was in her that piqued him. And he could not. He fell back from the +attempt. Was she the most wondrous? Or was she commonplace? Was she +deceiving him? Or did he alone possess the true insight? ... Useless! +He was baffled. Far from piercing her soul, he could scarcely even see +her at all; that is, with intelligence. And it was always so when he +was with her: he was in a dream, a vapour; he had no helm, his faculties +were not under control. She robbed him of judgement. + +And then the clear tones of her voice fell on the listening shop: "Good +evening, Mr Clayhanger. What a night, isn't it? I hope I'm not too +late." + +Firm, business-like syllables... And she straightened her shoulders. +He suffered. He was not happy. Whatever his feelings, he was not happy +in that instant. He was not happy because he was wrung between hope and +fear, alike divine. But he would not have exchanged his sensations for +the extremest felicity of any other person. + +They shook hands. He suggested that she should remove her mackintosh. +She consented. He had no idea that the effect of the removal of the +mackintosh would be so startling as it was. She stood intimately +revealed in her frock. The mackintosh was formal and defensive; the +frock was intimate and acquiescent. + +Darius blundered out of the cubicle and Edwin had a dreadful moment +introducing her to Darius and explaining their purpose. Why had he not +prepared the ground in advance? His pusillanimous cowardice again! +However, the directing finger of God sent a customer into the shop, and +Edwin escaped with his Hilda through the aperture in the counter. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +The rickety building at the back of the premises, which was still the +main theatre of printing activities, was empty save for Big James, the +hour of seven being past. Big James was just beginning to roll his +apron round his waist, in preparation for departure. This happened to +be one of the habits of his advancing age. Up till a year or two +previously he would have taken off his apron and left it in the +workshop; but now he could not confide it to the workshop; he must carry +it about him until he reached home and a place of safety for it. When +he saw Edwin and a young lady appear in the doorway, he let the apron +fall over his knees again. As the day was only the second of the +industrial week, the apron was almost clean; and even the office towel, +which hung on a roller somewhat conspicuously near the door, was not +offensive. A single gas jet burned. The workshop was in the languor of +repose after toil which had officially commenced at 8 a.m. + +The perfection of Big James's attitude, an attitude symbolised by the +letting down of his apron, helped to put Edwin at ease in the original +and difficult circumstances. "Good evening, Mr Edwin. Good evening, +miss," was all that the man actually said with his tongue, but the +formality of his majestic gestures indicated in the most dignified way +his recognition of a sharp difference of class and his exact +comprehension of his own role in the affair. He stood waiting: he had +been about to depart, but he was entirely at the disposal of the +company. + +"This is Mr Yarlett, our foreman," said Edwin, and to Big James: "Miss +Lessways has just come to look round." + +Hilda smiled. Big James suavely nodded his head. + +"Here are some of the types," said Edwin, because a big case was the +object nearest him, and he glanced at Big James. + +In a moment the foreman was explaining to Hilda, in his superb voice, +the use of the composing-stick, and he accompanied the theory by a +beautiful exposition of the practice; Edwin could stand aside and watch. +Hilda listened and looked with an extraordinary air of sympathetic +interest. And she was so serious, so adult. But it was the quality of +sympathy, he thought, that was her finest, her most attractive. It was +either that or her proud independence, as of a person not accustomed to +bend to the will of others or to go to others for advice. He could not +be sure... No! Her finest quality was her mystery. Even now, as he +gazed at her comfortably, she baffled him; all her exquisite little +movements and intonations baffled him. Of one thing, however, he was +convinced: that she was fundamentally different from other women. There +was she, and there was the rest of the sex. + +For appearance's sake he threw in short phrases now and then, to which +Big James, by his mere deportment, gave the importance of the words of a +master. + +"I suppose you printers did something special among yourselves to +celebrate the four-hundredth anniversary of the invention of printing?" +said Hilda suddenly, glancing from Edwin to Big James. And Big James +and Edwin glanced at one another. Neither had ever heard of the +four-hundredth anniversary of the invention of printing. In a couple of +seconds Big James's downcast eye had made it clear that he regarded this +portion of the episode as master's business. + +"When was that?--let me see," Edwin foolishly blurted out. + +"Oh! Some years ago. Two or three--perhaps four." + +"I'm afraid we didn't," said Edwin, smiling. + +"Oh!" said Hilda slowly. "I think they made a great fuss of it in +London." She relented somewhat. "I don't really know much about it. +But the other day I happened to be reading the new history of printing, +you know--Cranswick's, isn't it?" + +"Oh yes!" Edwin concurred, though he had never heard of Cranswick's new +history of printing either. + +He knew that he was not emerging creditably from this portion of the +episode. But he did not care. The whole of his body went hot and then +cold as his mind presented the simple question: "Why had she been +reading the history of printing?" Could the reason be any other than +her interest in himself? Or was she a prodigy among young women, who +read histories of everything in addition to being passionate about +verse? He said that it was ridiculous to suppose that she would read a +history of printing solely from interest in himself. Nevertheless he +was madly happy for a few moments, and as it were staggered with joy. +He decided to read a history of printing at once. + +Big James came to the end of his expositions of the craft. The stove +was dying out, and the steam-boiler cold. Big James regretted that the +larger machines could not be seen in action, and that the place was +getting chilly. Edwin began to name various objects that were lying +about, with their functions, but it was evident that the interest of the +workshop was now nearly exhausted. Big James suggested that if Miss +could make it convenient to call, say, on the next afternoon, she could +see the large new Columbia in motion. Edwin seized the idea and +beautified it. And on this he wavered towards the door, and she +followed, and Big James in dignity bowed them forth to the elevated +porch, and began to rewind his flowing apron once more. They pattered +down the dark steps (now protected with felt roofing) and ran across six +feet of exposed yard into what had once been Mrs Nixon's holy kitchen. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +After glancing at sundry minor workshops in delicious propinquity and +solitude, they mounted to the first floor, where there was an +account-book ruling and binding shop: the site of the old sitting-room +and the girls' bedroom. In each chamber Edwin had to light a gas, and +the corridors and stairways were traversed by the ray of matches. It +was excitingly intricate. Then they went to the attics, because Edwin +was determined that she should see all. There he found a forgotten +candle. + +"I used to work here," he said, holding high the candle. "There was no +other place for me to work in." + +They were in his old work attic, now piled with stocks of paper wrapped +up in posters. + +"Work? What sort of work?" + +"Well--reading, drawing, you know... At that very table." To be sure, +there the very table was, thick with dust! It had been too rickety to +deserve removal to the heights of Bleakridge. He was touched by the +sight of the table now, though he saw it at least once every week. His +existence at the corner of Duck Square seemed now to have been beautiful +and sad, seemed to be far off and historic. And the attic seemed +unhappy in its present humiliation. + +"But there's no fireplace," murmured Hilda. + +"I know," said Edwin. + +"But how did you do in winter?" + +"I did without." + +He had in fact been less of a martyr than those three telling words +would indicate. Nevertheless it appeared to him that he really had been +a martyr; and he was glad. He could feel her sympathy and her quiet +admiration vibrating through the air towards him. Had she not said that +she had never met anybody like him? He turned and looked at her. Her +eyes glittered in the candle-light with tears too proud to fall. Solemn +and exquisite bliss! Profound anxiety and apprehension! He was an +arena where all the sensations of which a human being is capable +struggled in blind confusion. + +Afterwards, he could recall her visit only in fragments. The next +fragment that he recollected was the last. She stood outside the door +in her mackintosh. The rain had ceased. She was going. Behind them he +could feel his father in the cubicle, and Stifford arranging the +toilette of the shop for the night. + +"Please don't come out here," she enjoined, half in entreaty, half in +command. Her solicitude thrilled him. He was on the step, she was on +the pavement: so that he looked down at her, with the sodden, +light-reflecting slope of Duck Square for a background to her. + +"Oh! I'm all right. Well, you'll come to-morrow afternoon?" + +"No, you aren't all right. You've got a cold and you'll make it worse, +and this isn't the end of winter, it's the beginning; I think you're +very liable to colds." + +"N-no!" he said, enchanted, beside himself in an ecstasy of pleasure. +"I shall expect you to-morrow about three." + +"Thank you," she said simply. "I'll come." + +They shook hands. + +"Now do go in!" + +She vanished round the corner. + +All the evening he neither read nor spoke. + + + +VOLUME TWO, CHAPTER NINETEEN. + +A CATASTROPHE. + +At half-past two on the following afternoon he was waiting for the +future in order to recommence living. During this period, to a greater +extent even than the average individual in average circumstances, he was +incapable of living in the present. Continually he looked either +forward or back. All that he had achieved, or that had been achieved +for him--the new house with its brightness and its apparatus of luxury, +his books, his learning, his friends, his experience: not long since +regarded by him as the precious materials of happiness--all had become +negligible trifles, nothings, devoid of import. The sole condition +precedent to a tolerable existence was now to have sight and speech of +Hilda Lessways. He was intensely unhappy in the long stretches of time +which separated one contact with her from the next. And in the brief +moments of their companionship he was far too distraught, too +apprehensive, too desirous, too puzzled, to be able to call himself +happy. Seeing her apparently did naught to assuage the pain of his +curiosity about her--not his curiosity concerning the details of her +life and of her person, for these scarcely interested him, but his +curiosity concerning the very essence of her being. At seven o'clock on +the previous day, he had esteemed her visit as possessing a decisive +importance which covered the whole field of his wishes. The visit had +occurred, and he was not a whit advanced; indeed he had retrograded, for +he was less content and more confused, and more preoccupied. The +medicine had aggravated the disease. Nevertheless, he awaited a second +dose of it in the undestroyed illusion of its curative property. + +In the interval he had behaved like a very sensible man. Without +appetite, he had still forced himself to eat, lest his relatives should +suspect. Short of sleep, he had been careful to avoid yawning at +breakfast, and had spoken in a casual tone of Hilda's visit. He had +even said to his father: "I suppose the big Columbia will be running off +those overseer notices this afternoon?" And on the old man asking why +he was thus interested, he had answered: "Because that girl, Miss +Lessways, thought of coming down to see it. For some reason or other +she's very keen on printing, and as she's such a friend of the +Orgreaves--" + +Nobody, he considered, could have done that better than he had done it. + +And now that girl, Miss Lessways, was nearly due. He stood behind the +counter again, waiting, waiting. He could not apply himself to +anything; he could scarcely wait. He was in a state that approached +fever, if not agony. To exist from half-past two to three o'clock +equalled in anguish the dreadful inquietude that comes before a surgical +operation. + +He said to himself: "If I keep on like this I shall be in love with her +one of these days." He would not and could not believe that he already +was in love with her, though the possibility presented itself to him. +"No," he said, "you don't fall in love in a couple of days. You mustn't +tell me--" in a wise, superior, slightly scornful manner. "I dare say +there's nothing in it at all," he said uncertainly, after having +strongly denied throughout that there was anything in it. + +The recollection of his original antipathy to Hilda troubled him. She +was the same girl. She was the same girl who had followed him at night +into his father's garden and merited his disdain. She was the same girl +who had been so unpleasant, so sharp, so rudely disconcerting in her +behaviour. And he dared not say that she had altered. And yet now he +could not get her out of his head. And although he would not admit that +he constantly admired her, he did admit that there were moments when he +admired her passionately and deemed her unique and above all women. +Whence the change in himself? How to justify it? The problem was +insoluble, for he was intellectually too honest to say lightly that +originally he had been mistaken. + +He did not pretend to solve the problem. He looked at it with +perturbation, and left it. The consoling thing was that the Orgreaves +had always expressed high esteem for Hilda. He leaned on the Orgreaves. + +He wondered how the affair would end? It could not indefinitely +continue on its present footing. How indeed would it end? Marriage... +He apologised to himself for the thought... But just for the sake of +argument ... supposing... well, supposing the affair went so far that +one day he told her ... men did such things, young men! No! ... +Besides, she wouldn't... It was absurd... No such idea really! ... +And then the frightful worry there would be with his father about money, +and so on... And the telling of Clara, and of everybody. No! He +simply could not imagine himself married, or about to be married. +Marriage might happen to other young men, but not to him. His case was +special, somehow... He shrank from such formidable enterprises. The +mere notion of them made him tremble. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +He brushed all that away impatiently, pettishly. The intense and +terrible longing for her arrival persisted. It was now twenty-five to +three. His father would be down soon from his after-dinner nap. +Suddenly the door opened, and he saw the Orgreaves' servant, with a +cloak over her white apron, and hands red with cold. And also he saw +disaster like a ghostly figure following her. His heart sickeningly +sank. Martha smiled and gave him a note, which he smilingly accepted. +"Miss Lessways asked me to come down with this," she said +confidentially. She was a little breathless, and she had absolutely the +manner of a singing chambermaid in light opera. He opened the note, +which said: "Dear Mr Clayhanger, so sorry I can't come to-day.--Yours, +H.L." Nothing else. It was scrawled. "It's all right, thanks," he +said, with an even brighter smile to the messenger, who nodded and +departed. + +It all occurred in an instant. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +A catastrophe! He suffered then as he had never suffered. + +His was no state approaching agony; it was agony itself, black and +awful. She was not coming. She had not troubled herself to give a +reason, nor to offer an excuse. She merely was not coming. She had +showed no consideration for his feelings. It had not happened to her to +reflect that she would be causing him disappointment. Disappointment +was too mild a word. He had been building a marvellously beautiful +castle, and with a thoughtless, careless stroke of the pen she had +annihilated all his labour; she had almost annihilated him. Surely she +owed him some reason, some explanation! Had she the right to play fast +and loose with him like that? "What a shame!" he sobbed violently in +his heart, with an excessive and righteous resentment. He was innocent; +he was blameless; and she tortured him thus! He supposed that all women +were like her... "What a shame!" He pitied himself for a victim. And +there was no glint of hope anywhere. In half an hour he would have been +near her, with her, guiding her to the workshop, discussing the machine +with her; and savouring her uniqueness; feasting on her delicious and +adorable personality! ... `So sorry I can't come to-day!' "She doesn't +understand. She can't understand!" he said to himself. "No woman, +however cruel, would ever knowingly be so cruel as she has been. It +isn't possible!" Then he sought excuse for her, and then he cast the +excuse away angrily. She was not coming. There was no ground beneath +his feet. He was so exquisitely miserable that he could not face a +future of even ten hours ahead. He could not look at what his existence +would be till bedtime. The blow had deprived him of all force, all +courage. It was a wanton blow. He wished savagely that he had never +seen her... No! no! He could not call on the Orgreaves that night. He +could not do it. She might be out. And then... + +His father entered, and began to grumble. Both Edwin and Maggie had +known since the beginning of dinner that Darius was quaking on the +precipice of a bad bilious attack. Edwin listened to the rising storm +of words. He had to resume the thread of his daily life. He knew what +affliction was. + + + +VOLUME TWO, CHAPTER TWENTY. + +THE MAN. + +But he was young. Indeed to men of fifty, men just twice his age, he +seemed a mere boy and incapable of grief. He was so slim, and his limbs +were so loose, and his hair so fair, and his gestures often so naive, +that few of the mature people who saw him daily striding up and down +Trafalgar Road could have believed him to be acquainted with sorrow like +their sorrows. The next morning, as it were in justification of these +maturer people, his youth arose and fought with the malady in him, and, +if it did not conquer, it was not defeated. On the previous night, +after hours of hesitation, he had suddenly walked forth and gone down +Oak Street, and pushed open the garden gates of the Orgreaves, and gazed +at the facade of the house--not at her window, because that was at the +side--and it was all dark. The Orgreaves had gone to bed: he had +expected it. Even this perfectly futile reconnaissance had calmed him. +While dressing in the bleak sunrise he had looked at the oval lawn of +the Orgreaves' garden, and had seen Johnnie idly kicking a football on +it. Johnnie had probably spent the evening with her; and it was nothing +to Johnnie! She was there, somewhere between him and Johnnie, within +fifty yards of both of them, mysterious and withdrawn as ever, busy at +something or other. And it was naught to Johnnie! By the thought of +all this the woe in him was strengthened and embittered. Nevertheless +his youth, aided by the astringent quality of the clear dawn, still +struggled sturdily against it. And he ate six times more breakfast than +his suffering and insupportable father. + +At half-past one--it was Thursday, and the shop closed at two o'clock-- +he had put on courage like a garment, and decided that he would see her +that afternoon or night, `or perish in the attempt.' And as the +remembered phrase of the Sunday passed through his mind, he inwardly +smiled and thought of school; and felt old and sure. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +At five minutes to two, as he stood behind the eternal counter in his +eternal dream, he had the inexpressible and delectable shock of seeing +her. He was shot by the vision of her as by a bullet. She came in, +hurried and preoccupied, apparently full of purpose. + +"Have you got a Bradshaw?" she inquired, after the briefest greeting, +gazing at him across the counter through her veil, as though imploring +him for Bradshaw. + +"I'm afraid we haven't one left," he said. "You see it's getting on for +the end of the month. I could-- No, I suppose you want it at once?" + +"I want it now," she replied. "I'm going to London by the six express, +and what I want to know is whether I can get on to Brighton to-night. +They actually haven't a Bradshaw up there," half in scorn and half in +levity, "and they said you'd probably have one here. So I ran down." + +"They'd be certain to have one at the Tiger," he murmured, reflecting. + +"The Tiger!" Evidently she did not care for the idea of the Tiger. +"What about the railway station?" + +"Yes, or the railway station. I'll go up there with you now if you +like, and find out for you. I know the head porter. We're just +closing. Father's at home. He's not very well." + +She thanked him, relief in her voice. + +In a minute he had put his hat and coat on and given instructions to +Stifford, and he was climbing Duck Bank with Hilda at his side. He had +forgiven her. Nay, he had forgotten her crime. The disaster, with all +its despair, was sponged clean from his mind like writing off a slate, +and as rapidly. It was effaced. He tried to collect his faculties and +savour the new sensations. But he could not. Within him all was +incoherent, wild, and distracting. Five minutes earlier, and he could +not have conceived the bliss of walking with her to the station. Now he +was walking with her to the station; and assuredly it was bliss, and yet +he did not fully taste it. Though he would not have loosed her for a +million pounds, her presence gave an even crueller edge to his anxiety +and apprehension. London! Brighton! Would she be that night in +Brighton? He felt helpless, and desperate. And beneath all this was +the throbbing of a strange, bitter joy. She asked about his cold and +about his father's indisposition. She said nothing of her failure to +appear on the previous day, and he knew not how to introduce it neatly: +he was not in control of his intelligence. + +They passed Snaggs' Theatre, and from its green, wooden walls came the +obscure sound of humanity in emotion. Before the mean and shabby +portals stood a small crowd of ragged urchins. Posters printed by +Darius Clayhanger made white squares on the front. + +"It's a meeting of the men," said Edwin. + +"They're losing, aren't they?" + +He shrugged his shoulders. "I expect they are." + +She asked what the building was, and he explained. + +"They used to call it the Blood Tub," he said. + +She shivered. "The Blood Tub?" + +"Yes. Melodrama and murder and gore--you know." + +"How horrible!" she exclaimed. "Why are people like that in the Five +Towns?" + +"It's our form of poetry, I suppose," he muttered, smiling at the +pavement, which was surprisingly dry and clean in the feeble sunshine. + +"I suppose it _is!_" she agreed heartily, after a pause. + +"But you belong to the Five Towns, don't you?" he asked. + +"Oh yes! I used to." + +At the station the name of Bradshaw appeared to be quite unknown. But +Hilda's urgency impelled them upwards from the head porter to the ticket +clerk, and from the ticket clerk to the stationmaster; and at length +they discovered, in a stuffy stove-heated room with a fine view of a +shawd-ruck and a pithead, that on Thursday evenings there was a train +from Victoria to Brighton at eleven-thirty. Hilda seemed to sigh +relief, and her demeanour changed. But Edwin's uneasiness was only +intensified. Brighton, which he had never seen, was in another +hemisphere for him. It was mysterious, like her. It was part of her +mystery. What could he do? His curse was that he had no initiative. +Without her relentless force, he would never have penetrated even as far +as the stuffy room where the unique Bradshaw lay. It was she who had +taken him to the station, not he her. How could he hold her back from +Brighton? + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +When they came again to the Blood Tub, she said-- + +"Couldn't we just go and look in? I've got plenty of time, now I know +exactly how I stand." + +She halted, and glanced across the road. He could only agree to the +proposition. For himself, a peculiar sense of delicacy would have made +it impossible for him to intrude his prosperity upon the deliberations +of starving artisans on strike and stricken; and he wondered what the +potters might think or say about the invasion by a woman. But he had to +traverse the street with her and enter, and he had to do so with an air +of masculine protectiveness. The urchins stood apart to let them in. + +Snaggs', dimly lit by a few glazed apertures in the roof, was nearly +crammed by men who sat on the low benches and leaned standing against +the sidewalls. In the small and tawdry proscenium, behind a worn +picture of the Bay of Naples, were silhouetted the figures of the men's +leader and of several other officials. The leader was speaking in a +quiet, mild voice, the other officials were seated on Windsor chairs. +The smell of the place was nauseating, and yet the atmosphere was +bitingly cold. The warm-wrapped visitors could see rows and rows of +discoloured backs and elbows, and caps, and stringy kerchiefs. They +could almost feel the contraction of thousands of muscles in an +involuntary effort to squeeze out the chill from all these bodies; not a +score of overcoats could be discerned in the whole theatre, and many of +the jackets were thin and ragged; but the officials had overcoats. And +the visitors could almost see, as it were in rays, the intense fixed +glances darting from every part of the interior, and piercing the +upright figure in the centre of the stage. + +"Some method of compromise," the leader was saying in his persuasive +tones. + +A young man sprang up furiously from the middle benches. + +"To hell wi' compromise!" he shouted in a tigerish passion. "Haven't us +had forty pound from Ameriky?" + +"Order! Order!" some protested fiercely. But one voice cried: "Pitch +the bastard awt, neck and crop!" + +Hands clawed at the interrupter and dragged him with extreme violence to +the level of the bench, where he muttered like a dying volcano. Angry +growls shot up here and there, snappish, menacing, and bestial. + +"It is quite true," said the leader soothingly, "that our comrades at +Trenton have collected forty pounds for us. But forty pounds would +scarcely pay for a loaf of bread for one man in every ten on strike." + +There was more interruption. The dangerous growls continued in running +explosions along the benches. The leader, ignoring them, turned to +consult with his neighbour, and then faced his audience and called out +more loudly-- + +"The business of the meeting is at an end." + +The entire multitude jumped up, and there was stretching of arms and +stamping of feet. The men nearest to the door now perceived Edwin and +Hilda, who moved backwards as before a flood. Edwin seized Hilda's arm +to hasten her. + +"Lads," bawled an old man's voice from near the stage, "Let's sing `Rock +of Ages.'" + +A frowning and hirsute fellow near the door, with the veins prominent on +his red forehead, shouted hoarsely, "`Rock of Ages' be buggered!" and +shifting his hands into his pockets he plunged for the street, head +foremost and chin sticking out murderously. Edwin and Hilda escaped at +speed and recrossed the road. The crowd came surging out of the narrow +neck of the building and spread over the pavements like a sinister +liquid. But from within the building came the lusty song of "Rock of +Ages." + +"It's terrible!" Hilda murmured, after a silence. "Just to see them is +enough. I shall never forget what you said." + +"What was that?" he inquired. He knew what it was, but he wished to +prolong the taste of her appreciation. + +"That you've only got to see the poor things to know they're in the +right! Oh! I've lost my handkerchief, unless I've left it in your +shop. It must have dropped out of my muff." + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +The shop was closed. As with his latchkey he opened the private door +and then stood on one side for her to precede him into the corridor that +led to the back of the shop, he watched the stream of operatives +scattering across Duck Bank and descending towards the Square. It was +as if he and Hilda, being pursued, were escaping. And as Hilda, +stopping an instant on the step, saw what he saw, her face took a +troubled expression. They both went in and he shut the door. + +"Turn to the left," he said, wondering whether the big Columbia machine +would be running, for her to see if she chose. + +"Oh! This takes you to the shop, does it? How funny to be behind the +counter!" + +He thought she spoke self-consciously, in the way of small talk: which +was contrary to her habit. + +"Here's my handkerchief!" she cried, with pleasure. It was on the +counter, a little white wisp in the grey-sheeted gloom. Stifford must +have found it on the floor and picked it up. + +The idea flashed through Edwin's head: "Did she leave her handkerchief +on purpose, so that we should have to come back here?" + +The only illumination of the shop was from three or four diamond-shaped +holes in the upper part of as many shutters. No object was at first +quite distinct. The corners were very dark. All merchandise not in +drawers or on shelves was hidden in pale dust cloths. A chair wrong +side up was on the fancy-counter, its back hanging over the front of the +counter. Hilda had wandered behind the other counter, and Edwin was in +the middle of the shop. Her face in the twilight had become more +mysterious than ever. He was in a state of emotion, but he did not know +to what category the emotion belonged. They were alone. Stifford had +gone for the half-holiday. Darius, sickly, would certainly not come +near. The printers were working as usual in their place, and the +clanking whirr of a treadle-machine overhead agitated the ceiling. But +nobody would enter the shop. His excitement increased, but did not +define itself. There was a sudden roar in Duck Square, and then cries. + +"What can that be?" Hilda asked, low. + +"Some of the strikers," he answered, and went through the doors to the +letter-hole in the central shutter, lifted the flap, and looked through. + +A struggle was in progress at the entrance to the Duck Inn. One man was +apparently drunk; others were jeering on the skirts of the lean crowd. + +"It's some sort of a fight among them," said Edwin loudly, so that she +could hear in the shop. But at the same instant he felt the wind of the +door swinging behind him, and Hilda was silently at his elbow. + +"Let me look," she said. + +Assuredly her voice was trembling. He moved, as little as possible, and +held the flap up for her. She bent and gazed. He could hear various +noises in the Square, but she described nothing to him. After a long +while she withdrew from the hole. + +"A lot of them have gone into the public-house," she said. "The others +seem to be moving away. There's a policeman. What a shame," she burst +out passionately, "that they have to drink to forget their trouble!" +She made no remark upon the strangeness of starving workmen being able +to pay for beer sufficient to intoxicate themselves. Nor did she +comment, as a woman, on the misery of the wives and children at home in +the slums and the cheap cottage-rows. She merely compassionated the men +in that they were driven to brutishness. Her features showed painful +pity masking disgust. + +She stepped back into the shop. + +"Do you know," she began, in a new tone, "you've quite altered my notion +of poetry--what you said as we were going up to the station." + +"Really!" He smiled nervously. He was very pleased. He would have +been astounded by this speech from her, a professed devotee of poetry, +if in those instants the capacity for astonishment had remained to him. + +"Yes," she said, and continued, frowning and picking at her muff: "But +you _do_ alter my notions, I don't know how it is... So this is your +little office!" + +The door of the cubicle was open. + +"Yes, go in and have a look at it." + +"Shall I?" She went in. + +He followed her. + +And no sooner was she in than she muttered, "I must hurry off now." Yet +a moment before she seemed to have infinite leisure. + +"Shall you be at Brighton long?" he demanded, and scarcely recognised +his own accents. + +"Oh! I can't tell! I've no idea. It depends." + +"How soon shall you be down our way again?" + +She only shook her head. + +"I say--you know--" he protested. + +"Good-bye," she said, quavering. "Thanks very much." She held out her +hand. + +"But--" He took her hand. + +His suffering was intolerable. It was torture of the most exquisite +kind. Her hand pressed his. Something snapped in him. His left hand +hovered shaking over her shoulder, and then touched her shoulder, and he +could feel her left hand on his arm. The embrace was clumsy in its +instinctive and unskilled violence, but its clumsiness was redeemed by +all his sincerity and all hers. His eyes were within six inches of her +eyes, full of delicious shame, anxiety, and surrender. They kissed... +He had amorously kissed a woman. All his past life sank away, and he +began a new life on the impetus of that supreme and final emotion. It +was an emotion that in its freshness, agitating and divine, could never +be renewed. He had felt the virgin answer of her lips on his. She had +told him everything, she had yielded up her mystery, in a second of +time. Her courage in responding to his caress ravished and amazed him. +She was so unaffected, so simple, so heroic. And the cool, delicate +purity of those lips! And the faint feminine odour of her flesh and +even of her stuffs! Dreams and visions were surpassed. He said to +himself, in the flood-tide of masculinity-- + +"My God! She's mine." + +And it seemed incredible. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +She was sitting in the office chair; he on the desk. She said in a +trembling voice-- + +"I should never have come to the Five Towns again, if you hadn't--" + +"Why not?" + +"I couldn't have stood it. I couldn't." She spoke almost bitterly, +with a peculiar smile on her twitching lips. + +To him it seemed that she had resumed her mystery, that he had only +really known her for one instant, that he was bound to a woman +entrancing, noble, but impenetrable. And this, in spite of the fact +that he was close to her, touching her, tingling to her in the confined, +crepuscular intimacy of the cubicle. He could trace every movement of +her breast as she breathed, and yet she escaped the inward searching of +his gaze. But he was happy. He was happy enough to repel all anxieties +and inquietudes about the future. He was steeped in the bliss of the +miracle. This was but the fourth day, and they were vowed. + +"It was only Monday," he began. + +"Monday!" she exclaimed. "I have thought of you for over a year." She +leaned towards him. "Didn't you know? Of course you did! ... You +couldn't bear me at first." + +He denied this, blushing, but she insisted. + +"You don't know how awful it was for me yesterday when you didn't come!" +he murmured. + +"Was it?" she said, under her breath. "I had some very important +letters to write." She clasped his hand. + +There it was again! She spoke just like a man of business, immersed in +secret schemes. + +"It's awfully funny," he said. "I scarcely know anything about you, and +yet--" + +"I'm Janet's friend!" she answered. Perhaps it was the delicatest +reproof of imagined distrust. + +"And I don't want to," he went on. "How old are you?" + +"Twenty-four," she answered sweetly, acknowledging his right to put such +questions. + +"I thought you were." + +"I suppose you know I've got no relatives," she said, as if relenting +from her attitude of reproof. "Fortunately, father left just enough +money for me to live on." + +"Must you go to Brighton?" + +She nodded. + +"Where can I write to?" + +"It will depend," she said. "But I shall send you the address +to-morrow. I shall write you before I go to bed whether it's to-night +or to-morrow morning." + +"I wonder what people will say!" + +"Please tell no one, yet," she pleaded. "Really, I should prefer not! +Later on, it won't seem so sudden; people are so silly." + +"But shan't you tell Janet?" + +She hesitated. "No! Let's keep it to ourselves till I come back." + +"When shall you come back?" + +"Oh! Very soon. I hope in a few days, now. But I must go to this +friend at Brighton. She's relying on me." + +It was enough for him, and indeed he liked the idea of a secret. "Yes, +yes," he agreed eagerly. + +There was the sound of another uproar in Duck Square. It appeared to +roll to and fro thunderously. + +She shivered. The fire was dead out in the stove, and the chill of +night crept in from the street. + +"It's nearly dark," she said. "I must go! I have to pack... Oh dear, +dear--those poor men! Somebody will be hurt!" + +"I'll walk up with you," he whispered, holding her, in owner ship. + +"No. It will be better not. Let me out." + +"Really?" + +"Really!" + +"But who'll take you to Knype Station?" + +"Janet will go with me." + +She rose reluctantly. In the darkness they were now only dim forms to +each other. He struck a match, that blinded them and expired as they +reached the passage... + +When she had gone, he stood hatless at the open side door. Right at the +top of Duck Bank, he could discern, under the big lamp there, a knot of +gesticulating and shouting strikers, menacing two policemen; and farther +off, in the direction of Moorthorne Road, other strikers were running. +The yellow-lit blinds of the Duck Inn across the Square seemed to screen +a house of impenetrable conspiracies and debaucheries. And all that +grim, perilous background only gave to his emotions a further intensity, +troubling them to still stranger ecstasy. He thought: "It has happened +to me, too, now--this thing that is at the bottom of everybody's mind! +I've kissed her! I've got her! She's marvellous, marvellous! I +couldn't have believed it. But is it true? Has it happened?" It +passed his credence... "By Jove! I absolutely forgot about the ring! +That's a nice how d'ye do!" ... He saw himself married. He thought of +Clara's grotesque antics with her tedious babe. And he thought of his +father and of vexations. But that night he was a man. She, Hilda, with +her independence and her mystery, had inspired him with a full pride of +manhood. And he discovered that one of the chief attributes of a man is +an immense tenderness. + + + +VOLUME TWO, CHAPTER TWENTY ONE. + +THE MARRIAGE. + +He was more proud and agitated than happy. The romance of the affair, +and its secrecy, made him proud; the splendid qualities of Hilda made +him proud. It was her mysteriousness that agitated him, and her absence +rendered him unhappy in his triumph. During the whole of Friday he was +thinking: "To-morrow is Saturday and I shall have her address and a +letter from her." He decided that there was no hope of a letter by the +last post on Friday, but as the hour of the last post drew nigh he grew +excited, and was quite appreciably disappointed when it brought nothing. +The fear, which had always existed in little, then waxed into enormous +dread, that Saturday's post also would bring nothing. His manoeuvres in +the early twilight of Saturday morning were complicated by the fact that +it had not been arranged whether she should write to the shop or to the +house. However, he prepared for either event by having his breakfast at +seven o'clock, on the plea of special work in the shop. He had finished +it at half-past seven, and was waiting for the postman, whose route he +commanded from the dining-room window. The postman arrived. Edwin with +false calm walked into the hall, saying to himself that if the letter +was not in the box it would be at the shop. But the letter was in the +box. He recognised her sprawling hand on the envelope through the +wirework. He snatched the letter and slipped upstairs with it like a +fox with a chicken. It had come, then! The letter safely in his hands +he admitted more frankly that he had been very doubtful of its +promptitude. + +"59 Preston Street, Brighton, 1 a.m. + +"Dearest,--This is my address. I love you. Every bit of me is +absolutely yours. Write me.--H.L." + +That was all. It was enough. Its tone enchanted him. Also it startled +him. But it reminded him of her lips. He had begun a letter to her. +He saw now that what he had written was too cold in the expression of +his feelings. Hilda's note suddenly and completely altered his views +upon the composition of love-letters. "Every bit of me is absolutely +yours." How fine, how untrammelled, how like Hilda! What other girl +could or would have written such a phrase? More than ever was he +convinced that she was unique. The thrill divine quickened in him +again, and he rose eagerly to her level of passion. The romance, the +secrecy, the mystery, the fever! He walked down Trafalgar Road with the +letter in his pocket, and once he pulled it out to read it in the +street. His discretion objected to this act, but Edwin was not his own +master. Stifford, hurrying in exactly at eight, was somewhat perturbed +to find his employer's son already installed in the cubicle, writing by +the light of gas, as the shutters were not removed. Edwin had finished +and stamped his first love-letter just as his father entered the +cubicle. Owing to dyspeptic accidents Darius had not set foot in the +cubicle since it had been sanctified by Hilda. Edwin, leaving it, +glanced at the old man's back and thought disdainfully: "Ah! You little +know, you rhinoceros, that less than two days ago, she and I, on that +very spot--" + +As soon as his father had gone to pay the morning visit to the printing +shops, he ran out to post the letter himself. He could not be contented +until it was in the post. Now, when he saw men of about his own class +and age in the street, he would speculate upon their experiences in the +romance of women. And it did genuinely seem to him impossible that +anybody else in a town like Bursley could have passed through an episode +so exquisitely strange and beautiful as that through which he was +passing. Yet his reason told him that he must be wrong there. His +reason, however, left him tranquil in the assurance that no girl in +Bursley had ever written to her affianced: "I love you. Every bit of me +is absolutely yours." + +Hilda's second letter did not arrive till the following Tuesday, by +which time he had become distracted by fears and doubts. Yes, doubts! +No rational being could have been more loyal than Edwin, but these +little doubts would keep shooting up and withering away. He could not +control them. The second letter was nearly as short as the first. It +told him nothing save her love and that she was very worried by her +friend's situation, and that his letters were a joy. She had had a +letter from him each day. In his reply to her second he gently implied, +between two lines, that her letters lacked quantity and frequency. She +answered: "I simply cannot write letters. It isn't in me. Can't you +tell that from my handwriting? Not even to you! You must take me as I +am." She wrote each day for three days. Edwin was one of those who +learn quickly, by the acceptance of facts. And he now learnt that +profound lesson that an individual must be taken or left in entirety, +and that you cannot change an object merely because you love it. Indeed +he saw in her phrase, "You must take me as I am," the accents of +original and fundamental wisdom, springing from the very roots of life. +And he submitted. At intervals he would say resentfully: "But surely +she could find five minutes each day to drop me a line! What's five +minutes?" But he submitted. Submission was made easier when he +co-ordinated with Hilda's idiosyncrasy the fact that Maggie, his own +unromantic sister, could never begin to write a letter with less than +from twelve to twenty-four hours' bracing of herself to the task. +Maggie would be saying and saying: "I really must write that letter... +Dear me! I haven't written that letter yet." + +His whole life seemed to be lived in the post, and postmen were the +angels of the creative spirit. His unhappiness increased with the +deepening of the impression that the loved creature was treating him +with cruelty. Time dragged. At length he had been engaged a fortnight. +On Thursday a letter should have come. It came not. Nor on Friday nor +Saturday. On Sunday it must come. But it did not come on Sunday. He +determined to telegraph to her on the Monday morning. His loyalty, +though valorous, needed aid against all those pricking battalions of +ephemeral doubts. On the Sunday evening he suddenly had the idea of +strengthening himself by a process that resembled boat-burning. He +would speak to his father. His father's mentality was the core of a +difficulty that troubled him exceedingly, and he took it into his head +to attack the difficulty at once, on the spot. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +For years past Darius Clayhanger had not gone to chapel on Sunday +evening. In the morning he still went fairly regularly, but in the +evening he would now sit in the drawing-room, generally alone, to read. +On weekdays he never used the drawing-room, where indeed there was +seldom a fire. He had been accustomed to only one living-room, and save +on Sunday, when he cared to bend the major part of his mind to the +matter, he scorned to complicate existence by utilising all the +resources of the house which he had built. His children might do so; +but not he. He was proud enough to see to it that his house had a +drawing-room, and too proud to employ the drawing-room except on the +ceremonious day. After tea, at about a quarter to six, when +chapel-goers were hurriedly pulling gloves on, he would begin to +establish himself in a saddle-backed, ear-flapped easy-chair with "The +Christian News" and an ivory paper-knife as long and nearly as deadly as +a scimitar. "The Christian News" was a religious weekly of a new type. +It belonged to a Mr James Bott, and it gave to God and to the mysteries +of religious experience a bright and breezy actuality. Darius's +children had damned it for ever on its first issue, in which Clara had +found, in a report of a very important charitable meeting, the following +words: "Among those present were the Prince of Wales and Mr James +Bott." Such is the hasty and unjudicial nature of children that this +single sentence finished the career of "The Christian News" with the +younger generation. But Darius liked it, and continued to like it. He +enjoyed it. He would spend an hour and a half in reading it. And +further, he enjoyed cutting open the morsel. Once when Edwin, in hope +of more laughter, had cut the pages on a Saturday afternoon, and his +father had found himself unable to use the paper-knife on Sunday +evening, there had been a formidable inquiry: "Who's been meddling with +my paper?" Darius saved the paper even from himself until Sunday +evening; not till then would he touch it. This habit had flourished for +several years. It appeared never to lose its charm. And Edwin did not +cease to marvel at his father's pleasure in a tedious monotony. + +It was the hallowed rite of reading "The Christian News" that Edwin +disturbed in his sudden and capricious resolve. Maggie and Mrs Nixon +had gone to chapel, for Mrs Nixon, by reason of her years, bearing, +mantle, and reputation, could walk down Trafalgar Road by the side of her +mistress on a Sunday night without offence to the delicate instincts of +the town. The niece, engaged to be married at an age absurdly youthful, +had been permitted by Mrs Nixon the joy of attending evensong at the +Bleakridge Church on the arm of a male, but under promise to be back at +a quarter to eight to set supper. The house was perfectly still when +Edwin came all on fire out of his bedroom and slid down the stairs. The +gas burnt economically low within its stained-glass cage in the hall. +The drawing-room door was unlatched. He hesitated a moment on the mat, +and he could hear the calm ticking of the clock in the kitchen and see +the red glint of the kitchen fire against the wall. Then he entered, +looking and feeling apologetic. + +His father was all curtained in; his slippered feet on the fender of the +blazing hearth, his head cushioned to a nicety, the long paper-knife +across his knees. And the room was really hot and in a glow of light. +Darius turned and, lowering his face, gazed at Edwin over the top of his +new gold-rimmed spectacles. + +"Not gone to chapel?" he frowned. + +"No! ... I say, father, I just wanted to speak to you." + +Darius made no reply, but shifted his glance from Edwin to the fire, and +maintained his frown. He was displeased at the interruption. Edwin +failed to shut the door at the first attempt, and then banged it in his +nervousness. In spite of himself he felt like a criminal. Coming +forward, he leaned his loose, slim frame against a corner of the old +piano. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +"Well?" Darius growled impatiently, even savagely. They saw each +other, not once a week, but at nearly every hour of every day, and they +were surfeited of the companionship. + +"Supposing I wanted to get married?" This sentence shot out of Edwin's +mouth like a bolt. And as it flew, he blushed very red. In the privacy +of his mind he was horribly swearing. + +"So that's it, is it?" Darius growled again. And he leaned forward and +picked up the poker, not as a menace, but because he too was nervous. +As an opposer of his son he had never had quite the same confidence in +himself since Edwin's historic fury at being suspected of theft, though +apparently their relations had resumed the old basis of bullying and +submission. + +"Well--" Edwin hesitated. He thought, "After all, people do get +married. It won't be a crime." + +"Who'st been running after?" Darius demanded inimically. Instead of +being softened by this rumour of love, by this hint that his son had +been passing through wondrous secret hours, he instinctively and without +any reason hardened himself and transformed the news into an offence. +He felt no sympathy, and it did not occur to him to recall that he too +had once thought of marrying. He was a man whom life had brutalised +about half a century earlier. + +"I was only thinking," said Edwin clumsily--the fool had not sense +enough even to sit down--"I was only thinking, suppose _I did_ want to get +married." + +"Who'st been running after?" + +"Well, I can't rightly say there's anything--what you may call settled. +In fact, nothing was to be said about it at all at present. But it's +Miss Lessways, father--Hilda Lessways, you know." + +"Her as came in the shop the other day?" + +"Yes." + +"How long's this been going on?" + +Edwin thought of what Hilda had said. "Oh! Over a year." He could not +possibly have said "four days." "Mind you this is strictly q.t.! Nobody +knows a word about it, nobody! But of course I thought I'd better tell +you. You'll say nothing." He tried wistfully to appeal as one loyal +man to another. But he failed. There was no ray of response on his +father's gloomy features, and he slipped back insensibly into the boy +whose right to an individual existence had never been formally admitted. + +Something base in him--something of that baseness which occasionally +actuates the oppressed--made him add: "She's got an income of her own. +Her father left money." He conceived that this would placate Darius. + +"I know all about her father," Darius sneered, with a short laugh. "And +her father's father! ... Well, lad, ye'll go your own road." He +appeared to have no further interest in the affair. Edwin was not +surprised, for Darius was seemingly never interested in anything except +his business; but he thought how strange, how nigh to the incredible, +the old man's demeanour was. + +"But about money, I was thinking," he said, uneasily shifting his pose. + +"What about money?" + +"Well," said Edwin, endeavouring, and failing, to find courage to put a +little sharpness into his tone, "I couldn't marry on seventeen-and-six a +week, could I?" + +At the age of twenty-five, at the end of nine years' experience in the +management and the accountancy of a general printing and stationery +business, Edwin was receiving seventeen shillings and sixpence for a +sixty-five-hour week's work, the explanation being that on his father's +death the whole enterprise would be his, and that all money saved was +saved for him. Out of this sum he had to pay ten shillings a week to +Maggie towards the cost of board and lodging, so that three half-crowns +remained for his person and his soul. Thus he could expect no +independence of any kind until his father's death, and he had a direct +and powerful interest in his father's death. Moreover, all his future, +and all unpaid reward of his labours in the past, hung hazardous on his +father's goodwill. If he quarrelled with him, he might lose everything. +Edwin was one of a few odd-minded persons who did not regard this +arrangement as perfectly just, proper, and in accordance with sound +precedent. But he was helpless. His father would tell him, and did +tell him, that he had fought no struggles, suffered no hardship, had no +responsibility, and that he was simply coddled from head to foot in +cotton-wool. + +"I say you must go your own road," said his father. + +"But at this rate I should never be able to marry!" + +"Do you reckon," asked Darius, with mild cold scorn, "as you getting +married will make your services worth one penny more to my business?" +And he waited an answer with the august calm of one who is aware that he +is unanswerable. But he might with equal propriety have tied his son's +hands behind him and then diverted himself by punching his head. + +"I do all I can," said Edwin meekly. + +"And what about getting orders?" Darius questioned grimly. "Didn't I +offer you two and a half per cent on all new customers you got yourself? +And how many have you got? Not one. I give you a chance to make extra +money and you don't take it. Ye'd sooner go running about after girls." + +This was a particular grievance of the father against the son: that the +son brought no grist to the mill in the shape of new orders. + +"But how can I get orders?" Edwin protested. + +"How did I get 'em? How do I get 'em? Somebody has to get 'em." The +old man's lips were pressed together, and he waved "The Christian News" +slightly in his left hand. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +In a few minutes both their voices had risen. Darius, savage, stooped +to replace with the shovel a large burning coal that had dropped on the +tiles and was sending up a column of brown smoke. + +"I tell you what I shall do," he said, controlling himself bitterly. +"It's against my judgement, but I shall put you up to a pound a week at +the New Year, if all goes well, of course. And it's good money, let me +add." + +He was entirely serious, and almost sincere. He loathed paying money +over to his son. He was convinced that in an ideal world sons would +toil gratis for their fathers who lodged and fed them and gifted them +with the reversion of excellent businesses. + +"But what good's a pound a week?" Edwin demanded, with the +querulousness of one who is losing hope. + +"What good's a pound a week!" Darius repeated, hurt and genuinely hurt. +"Let me tell you that in my time young men married on a pound a week, +and glad to! A pound a week!" He finished with a sardonic exclamation. + +"I couldn't marry Miss Lessways on a pound a week," Edwin murmured, in +despair, his lower lip hanging. "I thought you might perhaps be +offering me a partnership by this time!" Possibly in some mad hour a +thought so wild had indeed flitted through his brain. + +"Did you?" rejoined Darius. And in the fearful grimness of the man's +accents was concealed all his intense and egoistic sense of possessing +in absolute ownership the business which the little boy out of the +Bastille had practically created. Edwin did not and could not +understand the fierce strength of his father's emotion concerning the +business. Already in tacitly agreeing to leave Edwin the business after +his own death, Darius imagined himself to be superbly benevolent. + +"And then there would be house-furnishing, and so on," Edwin continued. + +"What about that fifty pounds?" Darius curtly inquired. + +Edwin was startled. Never since the historic scene had Darius made the +slightest reference to the proceeds of the Building Society share. + +"I haven't spent all of it," Edwin muttered. + +Do what he would with his brain, the project of marriage and +house-tenancy and a separate existence obstinately presented itself to +him as fantastic and preposterous. Who was he to ask so much from +destiny? He could not feel that he was a man. In his father's presence +he never could feel that he was a man. He remained a boy, with no +rights, moral or material. + +"And if as ye say she's got money of her own--" Darius remarked, and was +considerably astonished when the boy walked straight out of the room and +closed the door. + +It was his last grain of common sense that took Edwin in silence out of +the room. + +Miserable, despicable baseness! Did the old devil suppose that he would +be capable of asking his wife to find the resources which he himself +could not bring? He was to say to his wife: "I can only supply a pound +a week, but as you've got money it won't matter." The mere notion +outraged him so awfully that if he had stayed in the room there would +have been an altercation and perhaps a permanent estrangement. + +As he stood furious and impotent in the hall, he thought, with his +imagination quickened by the memory of Mr Shushions: "When you're old, +and I've _got_ you"--he clenched his fists and his teeth--"when I've _got_ +you and you can't help yourself, by God it'll be my turn!" + +And he meant it. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +He seized his overcoat and hat, and putting them on anyhow, strode out. +The kitchen clock struck half-past seven as he left. Chapel-goers would +soon be returning in a thin procession of twos and threes up Trafalgar +Road. To avoid meeting acquaintances he turned down the side street, +towards the old road which was a continuation of Aboukir Street. There +he would be safe. Letting his overcoat fly open, he thrust his hands +into the pockets of his trousers. It was a cold night of mist. +Humanity was separated from him by the semi-transparent blinds of the +cottage windows, bright squares in the dark and enigmatic facades of the +street. He was alone. + +All along he had felt and known that this disgusting crisis would come +to pass. He had hoped against it, but not with faith. And he had no +remedy for it. What could he immediately and effectively do? He was +convinced that his father would not yield. There were frequent +occasions when his father was proof against reason, when his father +seemed genuinely unable to admit the claim of justice, and this occasion +was one of them. He could tell by certain peculiarities of tone and +gesture. A pound a week! Assuming that he cut loose from his father, +in a formal and confessed separation, he might not for a long time be in +a position to earn more than a pound a week. A clerk was worth no more. +And, except as responsible manager of a business, he could only go into +the market as a clerk. In the Five Towns how many printing offices were +there that might at some time or another be in need of a manager? +Probably not one. They were all of modest importance, and directed +personally by their proprietary heads. His father's was one of the +largest... No! His father had nurtured and trained, in him, a helpless +slave. + +And how could he discuss such a humiliating question with Hilda? Could +he say to Hilda: "See here, my father won't allow me more than a pound a +week. What are we to do?" In what terms should he telegraph to her +to-morrow? + +He heard the rapid firm footsteps of a wayfarer overtaking him. He had +no apprehension of being disturbed in his bitter rage. But a hand was +slapped on his shoulder, and a jolly voice said-- + +"Now, Edwin, where's this road leading you to on a Sunday night?" + +It was Osmond Orgreave who, having been tramping for exercise in the +high regions beyond the Loop railway line, was just going home. + +"Oh! Nowhere particular," said Edwin feebly. + +"Working off Sunday dinner, eh?" + +"Yes." And Edwin added casually, to prove that there was nothing +singular in his mood: "Nasty night!" + +"You must come in a bit," said Mr Orgreave. + +"Oh no!" He shrank away. + +"Now, now!" said Mr Orgreave masterfully. "You've got to come in, so +you may as well give up first as last. Janet's in. She's like you and +me, she's a bad lot,--hasn't been to church." He took Edwin by the arm, +and they turned into Oak Street at the lower end. + +Edwin continued to object, but Mr Orgreave, unable to scrutinise his +face in the darkness, and not dreaming of an indiscretion, rode over his +weak negatives, horse and foot, and drew him by force into the garden; +and in the hall took his hat away from him and slid his overcoat from +his shoulders. Mr Orgreave, having accomplished a lot of forbidden +labour on that Sabbath, was playful in his hospitality. + +"Prisoner! Take charge of him!" exclaimed Mr Orgreave shortly, as he +pushed Edwin into the breakfast-room and shut the door from the outside. +Janet was there, exquisitely welcoming, unconsciously pouring balm from +her eyes. But he thought she looked graver than usual. Edwin had to +enact the part of a man to whom nothing has happened. He had to behave +as though his father was the kindest and most reasonable of fathers, as +though Hilda wrote fully to him every day, as though he were not even +engaged to Hilda. He must talk, and he scarcely knew what he was +saying. + +"Heard lately from Miss Lessways?" he asked lightly, or as lightly as he +could. It was a splendid effort. Impossible to expect him to start +upon the weather or the strike! He did the best he could. + +Janet's eyes became troubled. Speaking in a low voice she said, with a +glance at the door-- + +"I suppose you've not heard. She's married." + +He did not move. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +SIX. + +"Married?" + +"Yes. It is rather sudden, isn't it?" Janet tried to smile, but she +was exceedingly self-conscious. "To a Mr Cannon. She's known him for +a very long time, I think." + +"When?" + +"Yesterday. I had a note this morning. It's quite a secret yet. I +haven't told father and mother. But she asked me to tell you if I saw +you." + +He thought her eyes were compassionate. + +Mrs Orgreave came smiling into the room. + +"Well, Mr Edwin, it seems we can only get you in here by main force." + +"Are you quite better, Mrs Orgreave?" he rose to greet her. + +He had by some means or other to get out. + +"I must just run in home a second," he said, after a moment. "I'll be +back in three minutes." + +But he had no intention of coming back. He would have told any lie in +order to be free. + +In his bedroom, looking at himself in the glass, he could detect on his +face no sign whatever of suffering or of agitation. It seemed just an +ordinary mild, unmoved face. + +And this, too, he had always felt and known would come to pass: that +Hilda would not be his. All that romance was unreal; it was not true; +it had never happened. Such a thing could not happen to such as he +was... He could not reflect. When he tried to reflect, the top of his +head seemed as though it would fly off... Cannon! She was with Cannon +somewhere at that very instant... She had specially asked that he +should be told. And indeed he had been told before even Mr and Mrs +Orgreave... Cannon! She might at that very instant be in Cannon's +arms. + +It could be said of Edwin that he fully lived that night. Fate had at +any rate roused him from the coma which most men called existence. + +Simple Maggie was upset because, from Edwin's absence and her father's +demeanour at supper, she knew that her menfolk had had another terrible +discussion. And since her father offered no remark as to it, she +guessed that this one must be even more serious that the last. + +There was one thing that Edwin could not fit into any of his theories of +the disaster which had overtaken him, and that was his memory of Hilda's +divine gesture as she bent over Mr Shushions on the morning of the +Centenary. + + + +VOLUME THREE, CHAPTER ONE. + +BOOK THREE--HIS FREEDOM. + +AFTER A FUNERAL. + +Four and a half years later, on a Tuesday night in April 1886, Edwin was +reading in an easy-chair in his bedroom. He made a very image of +solitary comfort. The easy-chair had been taken from the dining-room, +silently, without permission, and Darius had apparently not noticed its +removal. A deep chair designed by some one learned in the poses natural +to the mortal body, it was firm where it ought to be firm, and where it +ought to yield, there it yielded. By its own angles it threw the head +slightly back, and the knees slightly up. Edwin's slippered feet rested +on a hassock, and in front of the hassock was a red-glowing gas-stove. +That stove, like the easy-chair, had been acquired by Edwin at his +father's expense without his father's cognisance. It consumed gas whose +price swelled the quarterly bill three times a year, and Darius observed +nothing. He had not even entered his son's bedroom for several years. +Each month seemed to limit further his interest in surrounding +phenomena, and to centralise more completely all his faculties in his +business. Over Edwin's head the gas jet flamed through one of Darius's +special private burners, lighting the page of a little book, one of +Cassell's "National Library," a new series of sixpenny reprints which +had considerably excited the book-selling and the book-reading worlds, +but which Darius had apparently quite ignored, though confronted in his +house and in his shop by multitudinous examples of it. Sometimes Edwin +would almost be persuaded to think that he might safely indulge any +caprice whatever under his father's nose, and then the old man would +notice some unusual trifle, of no conceivable importance, and go into a +passion about it, and Maggie would say quietly, "I told you what would +be happening one of these days," which would annoy Edwin. His annoyance +was caused less by Maggie's `I told you so,' than by her lack of logic. +If his father had ever overtaken him in some large and desperate +caprice, such as the purchase of the gas-stove on the paternal account, +he would have submitted in meekness to Maggie's triumphant reminder; but +his father never did. It was always upon some perfectly innocent +nothing, which the timidest son might have permitted himself, that the +wrath of Darius overwhelmingly burst. + +Maggie and Edwin understood each other on the whole very well. Only in +minor points did their sympathy fail. And as Edwin would be exasperated +because Maggie's attitude towards argument was that of a woman, so would +Maggie resent a certain mulishness in him characteristic of the +unfathomable stupid sex. Once a week, for example, when his room was +`done out,' there was invariably a skirmish between them, because Edwin +really did hate anybody to `meddle among his things.' The derangement +of even a brush on the dressing-table would rankle in his mind. Also he +was very `crotchety about his meals,' and on the subject of fresh air. +Unless he was sitting in a perceptible draught, he thought he was being +poisoned by nitrogen: but when he could see the curtain or blind +trembling in the wind he was hygienically at ease. His existence was a +series of catarrhal colds, which, however, as he would learnedly explain +to Maggie, could not be connected, in the brain of a reasonable person, +with currents of fresh air. Maggie mutely disdained his science. This, +too, fretted him. Occasionally she would somewhat tartly assert that he +was a regular old maid. The accusation made no impression on him at +all. But when, more than ordinarily exacerbated, she sang out that he +was `exactly like his father,' he felt wounded. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +The appearance of his bedroom, and the fact that he enjoyed being in it +alone, gave some ground for Maggie's first accusation. A screen hid the +bed, and this screen was half covered with written papers of memoranda; +roughly, it divided the room into dormitory and study. The whole +chamber was occupied by Edwin's personal goods, great and small, ranged +in the most careful order; it was full; in the occupation of a young man +who was not precociously an old maid, it would have been littered. It +was a complex and yet practical apparatus for daily use, completely +organised for the production of comfort. Edwin would move about in it +with the loving and assured gestures of a creator; and always he was +improving its perfection. His bedroom was his passion. + +Often, during the wilderness of the day, he would think of his bedroom +as of a refuge, to which in the evening he should hasten. Ascending the +stairs after the meal, his heart would run on in advance of his legs, +and be within the room before his hand had opened the door. And then he +would close the door, as upon the whole tedious world, and turn up the +gas, and light the stove with an explosive _plop_, and settle himself. +And in the first few minutes of reading he would with distinct, +conscious pleasure, allow his attention to circle the room, dwelling +upon piled and serried volumes, and delighting in orderliness and in +convenience. And he would reflect: "This is my life. This is what I +shall always live for. This is the best. And why not?" It seemed to +him when he was alone in his bedroom and in the night, that he had +respectably well solved the problem offered to him by destiny. He +insisted to himself sharply that he was not made for marriage, that he +had always known marriage to be impossible for him, that what had +happened was bound to have happened. For a few weeks he had lived in a +fool's paradise: that was all... Fantastic scheme, mad self-deception! +In such wise he thought of his love-affair. His profound satisfaction +was that none except his father knew of it, and even his father did not +know how far it had gone. He felt that if the town had been aware of +his jilting, he could not have borne the humiliation. To himself he had +been horribly humiliated; but he had recovered in his own esteem. + +It was only by very slow processes, by insensible degrees, that he had +arrived at the stage of being able to say to his mirror, "I've got over +that!" And who could judge better than he? He could trace no mark of +the episode in his face. Save for the detail of a moustache, it seemed +to him that he had looked on precisely the same unchangeable face for a +dozen years. Strange, that suffering had left no sign! Strange, that, +in the months just after Hilda's marriage, no acquaintance had taken him +on one side and said, "What is the tragedy I can read on your features?" + +And indeed the truth was that no one suspected. The vision of his face +would remain with people long after he had passed them in the street, or +spoken to them in the shop. The charm of his sadness persisted in their +memory. But they would easily explain it to themselves by saying that +his face had a naturally melancholy cast--a sort of accident that had +happened to him in the beginning! He had a considerable reputation, of +which he was imperfectly aware, for secretiveness, timidity, gentleness, +and intellectual superiority. Sundry young women thought of him +wistfully when smiling upon quite other young men, and would even kiss +him while kissing them, according to the notorious perversity of love. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +He was reading Swift's "Tale of a Tub" eagerly, tasting with a palate +consciously fastidious and yet catholic, the fine savour of a +masterpiece. By his secret enthusiasm, which would escape from him at +rare intervals in a word to a friend, he was continuing the reputation +of the "Tale of a Tub" from one century towards the next. A classic +remains a classic only because a few hundred Edwins up and down England +enjoy it so heartily that their pleasure becomes religious. Edwin, +according to his programme, had no right to be amusing himself with +Swift at that hour. The portly Hallam, whom he found tedious, ought to +have been in his hands. But Swift had caught him and would not let him +go. Herein was one of the consequences of the pocketableness of +Cassell's new series. Edwin had been obliged to agree with Tom Orgreave +(now a married man) that the books were not volumes for a collector; but +they were so cheap, and they came from the press so often--once a week, +and they could be carried so comfortably over the heart, that he could +not resist most of them. His professed idea was that by their aid he +could read smaller works in odd moments, at any time, thus surpassing +his programme. He had not foreseen that Swift would make a breach in +his programme, which was already in a bad way. + +But he went on reading tranquilly, despite the damage to it; for in the +immediate future shone the hope of the new life, when programmes would +never be neglected. In less than a month he would be thirty years of +age. At twenty, it had seemed a great age, an age of absolute maturity. +Now, he felt as young and as boyish as ever, especially before his +father, and he perceived that his vague early notion about the finality +of such an age as thirty had been infantile. Nevertheless, the entry +into another decade presented itself to him as solemn, and he meant to +signalise it by new and mightier resolutions to execute vaster +programmes. He was intermittently engaged, during these weeks, in the +delicious, the enchanting business of constructing the ideal programme +and scheming the spare hours to ensure its achievement. He lived in a +dream and illusion of ultimate perfection. + +Several times, despite the spell of Swift, he glanced at his watch. The +hand went from nine to ten minutes past ten. And then he thought he +heard the sound for which he had been listening. He jumped up, +abandoned the book with its marker, opened the window wide, and lifting +the blind by its rod, put his head out. Yes, he could hear the yelling +afar off, over the hill, softened by distance into something gentle and +attractive. + +"`Signal!' `Signal!' Special edition! `Signal!'" And then words +incomprehensible. + +It came nearer in the night. + +He drew down the window, and left the room. The mere distant sound of +the newsboys' voices had roused him to a pleasing excitement. He +fumbled in his pockets. He had neither a halfpenny nor a penny--it was +just like him--and those newsboys with their valuable tidings would not +care to halt and weigh out change with a balance. + +"Got a halfpenny? Quick!" he cried, running into the kitchen, where +Maggie and Mrs Nixon were engaged in some calm and endless domestic +occupation amid linen that hung down whitely. + +"What for?" Maggie mechanically asked, feeling the while under her +apron. + +"Paper," he said. + +"At this time of night? You'll never get one at this time of night!" +she said, in her simplicity. + +"Come _on!_" + +He stamped his foot with impatience. It was absolutely astonishing, the +ignorance in which Maggie lived, and lived efficiently and in content. +Edwin filled the house with newspapers, and she never looked at them, +never had the idea of looking at them, unless occasionally at the +`Signal' for an account of a wedding or a bazaar. In which case she +would glance at the world for an instant with mild _naivete_, shocked by +the horrible things that were apparently going on there, and in five +minutes would forget all about it again. Here the whole of England, +Ireland, and Scotland was at its front doors that night waiting for +newsboys, and to her the night was like any other night! Yet she read +many books. + +"Here's a penny," she said. "Don't forget to give it me back." + +He ran out bareheaded. At the corner of the street somebody else was +expectant. He could distinguish all the words now-- + +"`Signal!' Special edition! Mester Gladstone's Home Rule Bill. Full +report. Gladstone's speech. Special!" + +The dark running figures approached, stopping at frequent gates, and +their hoarse voices split the night. The next moment they had gone by, +in a flying column, and Edwin and the other man found themselves with +fluttering paper in their hands, they knew not how! It was the most +unceremonious snatch-and-thrust transaction that could be imagined. +Bleakridge was silent again, and its gates closed, and the shouts were +descending violently into Bursley. + +"Where's father?" Maggie called out when she heard Edwin in the hall. + +"Hasn't he come in yet?" Edwin replied negligently, as he mounted the +stairs with his desire. + +In his room he settled himself once more under the gas, and opened the +flimsy newspaper with joy. Yes, there it was--columns, columns, in +small type! An hour or two previously Gladstone had been speaking in +Parliament, and by magic the whole of his speech, with all the little +convolutions of his intricate sentences, had got into Edwin's bedroom. +Edwin began to read, as it were voluptuously. Not that he had a +peculiar interest in Irish politics! What he had was a passion for +great news, for news long expected. He could thrill responsively to a +fine event. I say that his pleasure had the voluptuousness of an +artistic sensation. + +Moreover, the attraction of politics in general was increasing for him. +Politics occupied his mind, often obsessing it. And this was so in +spite of the fact that he had done almost nothing in the last election, +and that the pillars of the Liberal Club were beginning to suspect him +of being a weakling who might follow his father into the wilderness +between two frontiers. + +As he read the speech, slowly disengaging its significance from the +thicket of words, it seemed incredible. A parliament in Dublin! The +Irish taxing themselves according to their own caprices! The Irish +controlling the Royal Irish Constabulary! The Irish members withdrawn +from Westminster! A separate nation! Surely Gladstone could not mean +it! The project had the same air of unreality as that of his marriage +with Hilda. It did not convince. It was too good to be true. It could +not materialise itself. And yet, as his glance, flitting from left to +right and right to left, eagerly, reached the bottom of one column and +jumped with a crinkling of paper to the top of the next, and then to the +next after that, the sense of unreality did depart. He agreed with the +principles of the Bill, and with all its details. Whatever Gladstone +had proposed would have received his sympathy. He was persuaded in +advance; he concurred in advance. All he lacked was faith. And those +sentences, helped by his image of the aged legislator dominating the +House, and by the wondrous legend of the orator's divine power--those +long stretching, majestic, misty sentences gave him faith. Henceforward +he was an ardent Home Ruler. Reason might or might not have entered +into the affair had the circumstances of it been other; but in fact +reason did not. Faith alone sufficed. For ever afterwards argument +about Home Rule was merely tedious to him, and he had difficulty in +crediting that opponents of it were neither stupid nor insincere. Home +Rule was part of his religion, beyond and above argument. + +He wondered what they were saying at the Liberal Club, and smiled +disdainfully at the thought of the unseemly language that would animate +the luxurious heaviness of the Conservative Club, where prominent +publicans gathered after eleven o'clock to uphold the State and arrange +a few bets with sporting clients. He admitted, as the supreme +importance of the night leaped out at him from the printed page, that, +if only for form's sake, he ought to have been at the Liberal Club that +evening. He had been requested to go, but had refused, because on +Tuesdays, Thursdays, and Saturdays, he always spent the evening in study +or in the semblance of study. He would not break that rule even in +honour of the culmination of the dazzling career of his political idol. +Perhaps another proof of the justice of Maggie's assertion that he was a +regular old maid! + +He knew what his father would say. His father would be furious. His +father in his uncontrolled fury would destroy Gladstone. And such was +his father's empire over him that he was almost ready on Gladstone's +behalf to adopt an apologetic and slightly shamed attitude to his father +concerning this madness of Home Rule--to admit by his self-conscious +blushes that it was madness. He well knew that at breakfast the next +morning, in spite of any effort to the contrary, he would have a guilty +air when his father began to storm. The conception of a separate +parliament in Dublin, and of separate taxation, could not stand before +his father's anger... + +Beneath his window, in the garden, he suddenly heard a faint sound as of +somebody in distress. + +"What the deuce--!" he exclaimed. "If that isn't the old man I'm--" +Startled, he looked at his watch. It was after midnight. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +As he opened the garden door, he saw, in the porch where had passed his +first secret interview with Hilda, the figure of his father as it were +awkwardly rising from the step. The gas had not been turned out in the +hall, and it gave a feeble but sufficient illumination to the porch and +the nearest parts of the garden. Darius stood silent and apparently +irresolute, with a mournful and even despairing face. He wore his best +black suit, and a new silk hat and new black gloves, and in one hand he +carried a copy of "The Signal" that was very crumpled. He ignored +Edwin. + +"Hello, father!" said Edwin persuasively. "Anything wrong?" + +The heavy figure moved itself into the house without a word, and Edwin +shut and bolted the door. + +"Funeral go off all right?" Edwin inquired with as much nonchalance as +he could. (The thought crossed his mind: "I suppose he hasn't been +having a drop too much, for once in a way? Why did he come round into +the garden?") + +Darius loosed a really terrible sigh. "Yes," he answered, expressing +with a single word the most profound melancholy. + +Four days previously Edwin and Maggie had seen their father considerably +agitated by an item of gossip, casually received, to which it seemed to +them he attached an excessive importance. Namely, that old Shushions, +having been found straying and destitute by the authorities appointed to +deal with such matters, had been taken to the workhouse and was dying +there. Darius had heard the news as though it had been a message +brought on horseback in a melodrama. "The Bastille!" he exclaimed, in a +whisper, and had left the house on the instant. Edwin, while the name +of Shushions reminded him of moments when he had most intensely lived, +was disposed to regard the case of Mr Shushions philosophically. Of +course it was a pity that Mr Shushions should be in the workhouse; but +after all, from what Edwin remembered and could surmise, the workhouse +would be very much the same as any other house to that senile mentality. +Thus Edwin had sagely argued, and Maggie had agreed with him. But to +them the workhouse was absolutely nothing but a name. They were no more +afraid of the workhouse than of the Russian secret police; and of their +father's early history they knew naught. + +Mr Shushions had died in the workhouse, and Darius had taken his body +out of the workhouse, and had organised for it a funeral which was to be +rendered impressive by a procession of Turnhill Sunday school teachers. +Edwin's activity in connexion with the funeral had been limited to the +funeral cards, in the preparation of which his father had shown an +irritability more than usually offensive. And now the funeral was over. +Darius had devoted to it the whole of Home Rule Tuesday, and had +returned to his house at a singular hour and in a singular condition. + +And Edwin, loathing sentimentality and full of the wisdom of nearly +thirty years, sedately pitied his father for looking ridiculous and +grotesque. He knew for a fact that his father did not see Mr Shushions +from one year's end to the next: hence they could not have been intimate +friends, or even friends: hence his father's emotion was throughout +exaggerated and sentimental. His acquaintance with history and with +biography told him that tyrants often carried sentimentality to the +absurd, and he was rather pleased with himself for being able thus to +correlate the general past and the particular present. What he did not +suspect was the existence of circumstances which made the death of Mr +Shushions in the workhouse the most distressing tragedy that could by +any possibility have happened to Darius Clayhanger. + +"Shall I put the gas out, or will you?" he asked, with kindly secret +superiority, unaware, with all his omniscience, that the being in front +of him was not a successful steam-printer and tyrannical father, but a +tiny ragged boy who could still taste the Bastille skilly and still see +his mother weeping round the knees of a powerful god named Shushions. + +"I--I don't know," said Darius, with another sigh. + +The next instant he sat down heavily on the stairs and began openly to +blubber. His hat fell off and rolled about undecidedly. + +"By Jove!" said Edwin to himself, "I shall have to treat this man like a +blooming child!" He was rather startled, and interested. He picked up +the hat. + +"Better not sit there," he advised. "Come into the dining-room a bit." + +"What?" Darius asked feebly. + +"Is he deaf?" Edwin thought, and half shouted: "Better not sit there. +It's chilly. Come into the dining-room a bit. Come on." + +Darius held out a hand, with a gesture inexpressibly sad; and Edwin, +almost before he realised what he was doing, took it and assisted his +father to his feet and helped him to the twilit dining-room, where +Darius fell into a chair. Some bread and cheese had been laid for him +on a napkin, and there was a gleam of red in the grate. Edwin turned up +the gas, and Darius blinked. His coarse cheeks were all wet. + +"Better have your overcoat off, hadn't you?" + +Darius shook his head. + +"Well, will you eat something?" + +Darius shook his head again; then hid his face and violently sobbed. + +Edwin was not equal to this situation. It alarmed him, and yet he did +not see why it should alarm him. He left the room very quietly, went +upstairs, and knocked at Maggie's door. He had to knock several times. + +"Who's there?" + +"I say, Mag!" + +"What is it?" + +"Open the door," he said. + +"You can come in." + +He opened the door, and within the darkness of the room he could vaguely +distinguish a white bed. + +"Father's come. He's in a funny state." + +"How?" + +"Well, he's crying all over the place, and he won't eat, or do +anything!" + +"All right," said Maggie--and a figure sat up in the bed. "Perhaps I'd +better come down." + +She descended immediately in an ulster and loose slippers. Edwin waited +for her in the hall. + +"Now, father," she said brusquely, entering the dining-room, "what's +amiss?" + +Darius gazed at her stupidly. "Nothing," he muttered. + +"You're very late, I think. When did you have your last meal?" + +He shook his head. + +"Shall I make you some nice hot tea?" + +He nodded. + +"Very well," she said comfortingly. + +Soon with her hair hanging about her face and hiding it, she was bending +over the gleam of fire, and insinuating a small saucepan into the middle +of it, and encouraging the gleam with a pair of bellows. Meanwhile +Edwin uneasily ranged the room, and Darius sat motionless. + +"Seen Gladstone's speech, I suppose?" Edwin said, daring a fearful +topic in the extraordinary circumstances. + +Darius paid no heed. Edwin and Maggie exchanged a glance. Maggie made +the tea direct into a large cup, which she had previously warmed by +putting it upside down on the saucepan lid. When it was infused and +sweetened, she tasted it, as for a baby, and blew on it, and gave the +cup to her father, who, by degrees, emptied it, though not exclusively +into his mouth. + +"Will you eat something now?" she suggested. + +He would not. + +"Very well, then, Edwin will help you upstairs." + +From her manner Darius might have been a helpless and half-daft invalid +for years. + +The ascent to bed was processional; Maggie hovered behind. But at the +dining-room door Darius, giving no explanation, insisted on turning +back: apparently he tried to speak but could not. He had forgotten his +"Signal." Snatching at it, he held it like a treasure. All three of +them went into the father's bedroom. Maggie turned up the gas. Darius +sat on the bed, looking dully at the carpet. + +"Better see him into bed," Maggie murmured quickly to Edwin, and Edwin +nodded--the nod of capability--as who should say, "Leave all that to +me!" But in fact he was exceedingly diffident about seeing his father +into bed. + +Maggie departed. + +"Now then," Edwin began the business. "Let's get that overcoat off, +eh?" To his surprise Darius was most pliant. When the great clumsy +figure, with its wet cheeks, stood in trousers, shirt, and socks, Edwin +said, "You're all right now, aren't you?" And the figure nodded. + +"Well, good-night." + +Edwin came out on to the landing, shut the door, and walked about a +little in his own room. Then he went back to his father's room. +Maggie's door was closed. Darius was already in bed, but the gas was +blazing at full. + +"You've forgotten the gas," he said lightly and pleasantly, and turned +it down to a blue point. + +"I say, lad," the old man stopped him, as he was finally leaving. + +"Yes?" + +"What about that Home Rule?" + +The voice was weak, infantile. Edwin hesitated. The "Signal" made a +patch of white on the ottoman. + +"Oh!" he answered soothingly, and yet with condescension, "it's much +about what everybody expected. Better leave that till to-morrow." + +He shut the door. The landing received light through the open door of +his bedroom and from the hall below. He went downstairs, bolted the +front door, and extinguished the hall gas. Then he came softly up, and +listened at his father's door. Not a sound! He entered his own room +and began to undress, and then, half clothed, crept back to his father's +door. Now he could hear a heavy, irregular snoring. + +"Devilish odd, all this!" he reflected, as he got into bed. Assuredly +he had disconcerting thoughts, not all unpleasant. His excitement had +even an agreeable, zestful quality. + + + +VOLUME THREE, CHAPTER TWO. + +THE CONCLAVE. + +The next morning Edwin overslept himself. He seldom rose easily from +his bed, and his first passage down Trafalgar Road to business was +notoriously hurried; the whole thoroughfare was acquainted with its +special character. Often his father arrived at the shop before him, but +Edwin's conscience would say that of course if Darius went down early +for his own passion and pleasure, that was Darius's affair. Edwin's +official time for beginning work was half-past eight. And at half-past +eight, on this morning, he was barely out of the bath. His lateness, +however, did not disturb him; there was an excuse for it. He hoped that +his father would be in bed, and decided that he must go and see, and, if +the old man was still sufficiently pliant, advise him to stay where he +was until he had had some food. + +But, looking out of the window over a half-buttoned collar, he saw his +father dressed and in the garden. Darius had resumed the suit of +broadcloth, for some strange reason, and was dragging his feet with +painful, heavy slowness along the gravel at the south end of the garden. +He carried in his left hand the "Signal," crumpled. A cloth cap, +surmounting the ceremonious suit, gave to his head a ridiculous +appearance. He was gazing at the earth with an expression of absorbed +and acute melancholy. When he reached the end of the path, he looked +round, at a loss, then turned, as if on an inefficient pivot, and set +himself in motion again. Edwin was troubled by this singular episode. +And yet his reason argued with his instinct to the effect that he ought +not to be troubled. Evidently the sturdy Darius was not ill. Nothing +serious could be the matter. He had been harrowed and fatigued by the +funeral; no more. In another day, doubtless, he would be again the +harsh employer astoundingly concentrated in affairs and impervious to +the emotional appeal of aught else. Nevertheless he made a strange +sight, parading his excessive sadness there in the garden. + +A knock at Edwin's door! He was startled. "Hold on!" he cried, went to +the door, and cautiously opened it. Maggie was on the mat. + +"Here's Auntie Clara!" she said in a whisper, perturbed. "She's come +about father. Shall you be long?" + +"About father? What about father?" + +"It seems she saw him last night. He called there. And she was +anxious." + +"Oh! I see!" Edwin affected to be relieved. Maggie nodded, also +affecting, somewhat eagerly, to be relieved. But neither of them was +relieved. Auntie Clara calling at half-past eight! Auntie Clara +neglecting that which she never neglected--the unalterable and divinely +appointed rites for the daily cleansing and ordering of her abode! + +"I shall be down in ten secs," said he. "Father's in the garden," he +added, almost kindly. "Seems all right." + +"Yes," said Maggie, with cheerfulness, and went. He closed the door. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +Mrs Hamps was in the drawing-room. She had gone into the drawing-room +because it was more secret, better suited to conversation of an +exquisite privacy than the dining-room--a public resort at that hour. +Edwin perceived at once that she was savouring intensely the strangeness +of the occasion, inflating its import and its importance to the largest +possible. + +"Good morning, dear," she greeted him in a low and significant tone. "I +felt I must come up at once. I couldn't fancy any breakfast till I'd +been up, so I put on my bonnet and mantle and just came. It's no use +fighting against what you feel you must do." + +"But--" + +"Hasn't Maggie told you? Your father called to see me last night just +after I'd gone upstairs. In fact I'd begun to get ready for bed. I +heard the knocking and I came down and lit the gas in the lobby. `Who's +there?' I said. There wasn't any answer, but I made sure I heard some +one crying. And when I opened the door, there was your father. `Oh!' +he said. `Happen you've gone to bed, Clara?' `No,' I said. `Come in, +do!' But he wouldn't. And he looked so queer. I never saw him look +like that before. He's such a strong self-controlled man. I knew he'd +been to poor Mr Shushions's funeral. `I suppose you've been to the +funeral, Darius,' I said. And as soon as I said that he burst out +crying, and half tumbled down the steps, and off he went! I couldn't go +after him, as I was. I didn't know _what_ to do. If anything happened to +your father, I don't know _what_ I should do." + +"What time was that?" Edwin asked, wondering what on earth she +meant--"if anything happened to your father!" + +"Half-past ten or hardly. What time did he come home? Very, very late, +wasn't it?" + +"A little after twelve," he said carelessly. He was sorry that he had +inquired as to the hour of the visit to his aunt. Obviously she was +ready to build vast and terrible conjectures upon the mysterious +interval between half-past ten and midnight. + +"You've cut yourself, my dear," she said, indicating with her gloved +hand Edwin's chin. "And I'm not surprised. How upsetting it is for +you! Of course Maggie's the eldest, and we think a great deal of her, +but you're the son--the only son!" + +"I know," he said, meaning that he knew he had cut himself, and he +pressed his handkerchief to his chin. Within, he was blasphemously +fuming. The sentimental accent with which she had finally murmured `the +only son' irritated him extremely. What in the name of God was she +driving at? The fact was that, enjoying a domestic crisis with positive +sensuality, she was trying to manufacture one! That was it! He knew +her. There were times when he could share all Maggie's hatred of Mrs +Hamps, and this was one of those times. The infernal woman, with her +shaking plumes and her odour of black kid, was enjoying herself! In the +thousandth part of a second he invented horrible and grotesque +punishments for her, as that all the clothes should suddenly fall off +that prim, widowed, odious modesty. Yet, amid the multitude of his +sensations--the smarting of his chin, the tingling of all his body after +the bath, the fresh vivacity of the morning, the increased consciousness +of his own ego, due to insufficient sleep, the queerness of being in the +drawing-room at such an hour in conspiratorial talk, the vague disquiet +caused at midnight, and now intensified despite his angry efforts to +avoid the contagion of Mrs Hamps's mood, and above all the thought of +his father gloomily wandering in the garden--amid these confusing +sensations, it was precisely an idea communicated to him by his annoying +aunt, an obvious idea, an idea not worth uttering, that emerged clear +and dramatic: he was the only son. + +"There's no need to worry," he said as firmly as he could "The funeral +got on his nerves, that's all. He certainly did seem a bit knocked +about last night, and I shouldn't have been surprised if he'd stayed in +bed to-day. But you see he's up and about." Both of them glanced at +the window, which gave on the garden. + +"Yes," murmured Mrs Hamps, unconvinced. "But what about his crying? +Maggie tells me he was--" + +"Oh!" Edwin interrupted her almost roughly. "That's nothing. I've +known him cry before." + +"Have you?" She seemed taken aback. + +"Yes. Years ago. That's nothing fresh." + +"It's true he's very sensitive," Mrs Hamps reflected. "That's what we +don't realise, maybe, sometimes. Of course if you think he's all +right--" + +She approached the window, and, leaning over the tripod which held a +flower-pot enveloped in pink paper, she drew the white curtain aside, +and gazed forth in silence. Darius was still pacing up and down the +short path at the extremity of the garden; his eyes were still on the +ground, and his features expressive of mournful despair, and at the end +of the path he still turned his body round with slow and tedious +hesitations. Edwin also could see him through the window. They both +watched him; it was as if they were spying on him. + +Maggie entered, and said, in an unusual flutter-- + +"Here's Clara and Albert!" + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +Clara and her husband came immediately into the drawing-room. The wife, +dressed with a certain haste and carelessness, was carrying in her arms +her third child, yet unweaned, and she expected a fourth in the early +autumn. Clara had matured, she had grown stronger; and despite the +asperity of her pretty, pale face there was a charm in the free gestures +and the large body of the young and prolific mother. Albert Benbow wore +the rough, clay-dusted attire of the small earthenware manufacturer who +is away from the works for half an hour. Both of them were electrically +charged with importance. + +Amid the general self-consciousness Maggie took the baby, and Clara and +Mrs Hamps kissed each other tenderly, as though saying, "Affliction is +upon us." It was impossible, in the circumstances, to proceed to minute +inquiry about the health of the children, but Mrs Hamps expressed all +her solicitude in a look, a tone, a lingering of lip on lip. The years +were drawing together Mrs Hamps and her namesake. Edwin was often +astonished at the increasing resemblance of Clara to her aunt, with +whom, thanks to the unconscious intermediacy of babies, she was even +indeed quite intimate. The two would discuss with indefatigable gusto +all the most minute physical details of motherhood and infancy: and +Auntie Clara's presents were worthy of her reputation. + +As soon as the kiss was accomplished--no other greeting of any kind +occurred--Clara turned sharply to Edwin-- + +"What's this about father?" + +"Oh! He's had a bit of a shock. He's pretty much all right to-day." + +"Because Albert's just heard--" She looked at Albert. + +Edwin was thunderstruck. Was the tale of his father's indisposition +spread all over the Five Towns? He had thought that the arrival of +Clara and her husband must be due to Auntie Hamps having called at their +house on her way up to Bleakridge. But now he could see, even from his +auntie's affrighted demeanour alone, that the Benbows' visit was an +independent affair. + +"Are you sure he's all right?" Albert questioned, in his superiorly +sagacious manner, which mingled honest bullying with a little +good-nature. + +"Because Albert just heard--" Clara put in again. + +The company then heard what Albert had just heard. At his works before +breakfast an old hollow-ware-presser, who lived at Turnhill, had +casually mentioned that his father-in-law, Mr Clayhanger, had been +cutting a very peculiar figure on the previous evening at Turnhill. The +hollow-ware-presser had seen nothing personally; he had only been told. +He could not or would not particularise. Apparently he possessed in a +high degree the local talent for rousing an apprehension by the offer of +food, and then under ingenious pretexts refusing the food. At any rate, +Albert had been startled, and had communicated his alarm to Clara. +Clara had meant to come up a little later in the morning, but she wanted +Albert to come with her, and Albert, being exceedingly busy, had only +the breakfast half-hour of liberty. Hence they had set out instantly, +although the baby required sustenance; Albert having suggested that +Clara could feed the baby just as well at her father's as at home. + +Before the Benbow story was quite finished it became entangled with the +story of Mrs Hamps, and then with Edwin's story. They were all +speaking at once, except Maggie, who was trying to soothe the baby. + +Holding forth her arms, Clara, without ceasing to talk rapidly and +anxiously to Mrs Hamps, without even regarding what she did, took the +infant from her sister, held it with one hand, and with the other loosed +her tight bodice, and boldly exposed to the greedy mouth the magnificent +source of life. As the infant gurgled itself into silence, she glanced +with a fleeting ecstatic smile at Maggie, who smiled back. It was +strange how Maggie, now midway between thirty and forty, a tall, +large-boned, plump, mature woman, efficient, kindly, and full of common +sense--it was strange how she always failed to assert herself. She +listened now, not seeking notice and assuredly not receiving it. + +Edwin felt again the implication, first rendered by his aunt, and now +emphasised by Clara and Albert, that the responsibility of the situation +was upon him, and that everybody would look to him to discharge it. He +was expected to act, somehow, on his own initiative, and to do +something. + +"But what is there to do?" he exclaimed, in answer to a question. + +"Well, hadn't he better see a doctor?" Clara asked, as if saying +ironically, "Hasn't it occurred to you even yet that a doctor ought to +be fetched?" + +Edwin protested with a movement of impatience-- + +"What on earth for? He's walking about all right." + +They had all been surreptitiously watching Darius from behind the +curtains. + +"Doesn't seem to be much the matter with him now! That I must say!" +agreed Albert, turning from the window. + +Edwin perceived that his brother-in-law was ready to execute one of +those changes of front which lent variety to his positiveness, and he +addressed himself particularly to Albert, with the persuasive tone and +gesture of a man to another man in a company of women-- + +"Of course there doesn't! No doubt he was upset last night. But he's +getting over it. _You_ don't think there's anything in it, do you, +Maggie?" + +"I don't," said Maggie calmly. + +These two words had a great effect. + +"Of course if we're going to listen to every tale that's flying about a +potbank," said Edwin. + +"You're right there, Teddy!" the brother-in-law heartily concurred. +"But Clary thought we'd better--" + +"Certainly," said Edwin pacifically, admitting the entire propriety of +the visit. + +"Why's he wearing his best clothes?" Clara demanded suddenly. And Mrs +Hamps showed a sympathetic appreciation of the importance of the +question. + +"Ask me another!" said Edwin. "But you can't send for a doctor because +a man's wearing his best clothes." + +Maggie smiled, scarce perceptibly. Albert gave a guffaw. Clara was +slightly irritated. + +"Poor little dear!" murmured Mrs Hamps, caressing the baby. "Well, I +must be going," she sighed. + +"We shall see how he goes on," said Edwin, in his role of responsible +person. + +"Perhaps it will be as well if you say nothing about us calling," +whispered Mrs Hamps. "We'll just go quietly away. You can give a hint +to Mrs Nixon. Much better he shouldn't know." + +"Oh! much better!" said Clara. + +Edwin could not deny this. Yet he hated the chicane. He hated to +observe on the face of the young woman and of the old their instinctive +impulses towards chicane, and their pleasure in it. The whole double +visit was subtly offensive to him. Why should they gather like this at +the first hint that his father was not well? A natural affectionate +anxiety... Yes, of course, that motive could not be denied. +Nevertheless, he did not like the tones and the gestures and the +whisperings and oblique glances of their gathering. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +In the middle of a final miscellaneous conversation, Albert said-- + +"We'll better be off." + +"Wait a moment," said Clara, with a nod to indicate the still busy +infant. + +Then the door opened, very slowly and cautiously, and as they all +observed the movement of the door, they all fell into silence. Darius +himself appeared. Unobserved, he had left the garden and come into the +house. He stood in the doorway, motionless, astounded, acutely +apprehensive, and with an expression of the most poignant sadness on his +harsh, coarse, pimpled face. He still wore the ridiculous cap and held +the newspaper. The broadcloth suit was soiled. His eye wandered among +his family, and it said, terrorised, and yet feebly defiant, "What are +they plotting against me? Why are they all here like this?" + +Mrs Hamps spoke first-- + +"Well, father, we just popped in to see how you were after all that +dreadful business yesterday. Of course I quite understand you didn't +want to come in last night. You weren't equal to it." The guilty crude +sweetness of her cajoling voice grated excruciatingly on both Edwin and +Maggie. It would not have deceived even a monarch. + +Darius screwed himself round, and silently went forth again. + +"Where are you going, father?" asked Clara. + +He stopped, but his features did not relax. + +"To the shop," he muttered. His accents were of the most dreadful +melancholy. + +Everybody was profoundly alarmed by his mere tone and look. This was +not the old Darius. Edwin felt intensely the futility and the +hollowness of all those reassurances which he had just been offering. + +"You haven't had your breakfast, father," said Maggie quietly. + +"Please, father! Please don't go like that. You aren't fit," Clara +entreated, and rushed towards him, the baby in her arms, and with one +hand took his sleeve. Mrs Hamps followed, adding persuasions. Albert +said bluffly, "Now, dad! Now, dad!" + +Edwin and Maggie were silent in the background. + +Darius gazed at Clara's face, and then his glance fell, and fixed itself +on her breast and on the head of the powerfully sucking infant, and then +it rose to the plumes of Mrs Hamps. His expression of tragic sorrow +did not alter in the slightest degree under the rain of sugared +remonstrances and cajoleries that the two women directed upon him. And +then, without any warning, he burst into terrible tears, and, +staggering, leaned against the wall. He was half carried to the sofa, +and sat there, ineffably humiliated. One after another looked +reproachfully at Edwin, who had made light of his father's condition. +And Edwin was abashed and frightened. + +"You or I had better fetch th' doctor," Albert muttered. + + + +VOLUME THREE, CHAPTER THREE. + +THE NAME. + +"He mustn't go near business," said Mr Alfred Heve, the doctor, coming +to Edwin, who was waiting in the drawing-room, after a long examination +of Darius. + +Mr Heve was not wearing that gentle and refined smile which was so +important a factor in the treatment of his patients and their families, +and which he seemed to have caught from his elder brother, the vicar of +Saint Peter's. He was a youngish man, only a few years older than Edwin +himself, and Edwin's respect for his ability had limits. There were two +other doctors in the town whom Edwin would have preferred, but Mr Heve +was his father's choice, notable in the successful soothing of querulous +stomachs, and it was inevitably Mr Heve who had been summoned. He had +arrived with an apprehensive, anxious air. There had been a most +distinct nervousness in his voice when, in replying to Edwin's question, +he had said, "Perhaps I'd better see him quite alone." Edwin had +somehow got it into his head that he would be present at the interview. +In shutting the dining-room door upon Edwin, Mr Heve had nodded timidly +in a curious way, highly self-conscious. And that dining-room door had +remained shut for half an hour. And now Mr Heve had emerged with the +same embarrassment. + +"Whether he wants to or not?" Edwin suggested, with a faint smile. + +"On no account whatever!" said the doctor, not answering the smile, +which died. + +They were standing together near the door. Edwin had his fingers on the +handle. He wondered how he would prevent his father from going to +business, if his father should decide to go. + +"But I don't think he'll be very keen on business," the doctor added. + +"You don't?" + +Mr Heve slowly shook his head. One of Mr Heve's qualities that +slightly annoyed Edwin was his extraordinary discretion. But then Edwin +had always regarded the discreetness of doctors as exaggerated. Why +could not Heve tell him at once fully and candidly what was in his mind? +He had surely the right to be told! ... Curious! And yet far more +curious than Mr Heve's unwillingness to tell, was Edwin's unwillingness +to ask. He could not bring himself to demand bluntly of Heve: "Well, +what's the matter with him?" + +"I suppose it's shock," Edwin adventured. + +Mr Heve lifted his chin. "Shock may have had a little to do with it," +he answered doubtfully. + +"And how long must he be kept off business?" + +"I'm afraid there's not much chance of him doing any more business," +said Mr Heve. + +"Really!" Edwin murmured. "Are you sure?" + +"Quite." + +Edwin did not feel the full impact of this prophecy at the moment. +Indeed, it appeared to him that he had known since the previous midnight +of his father's sudden doom; it appeared to him that the first glimpse +of his father after the funeral had informed him of it positively. What +impressed him at the moment was the unusual dignity which characterised +Mr Heve's embarrassment. He was beginning to respect Mr Heve. + +"I wouldn't care to give him more than two years," said Mr Heve, gazing +at the carpet, and then lifting his eyes to Edwin's. + +Edwin flushed. And this time his `Really!' was startled. + +"Of course you may care to get other advice," the doctor went on. "I +shall be delighted to meet a specialist. But I tell you at once my +opinion." This with a gesture of candour. + +"Oh!" said Edwin. "If you're sure--" + +Strange that the doctor would not give a name to the disease! Most +strange that Edwin even now could not demand the name. + +"I suppose he's in his right _mind?_" said Edwin. + +"Yes," said the doctor. "He's in his right _mind_." But he gave the +reply in a tone so peculiar that the affirmative was almost as +disconcerting as a negative would have been. + +"Just rest he wants?" said Edwin. + +"Just rest. And looking after. I'll send up some medicine. He'll like +it." Mr Heve glanced absently at his watch. "I must be going." + +"Well--" Edwin opened the door. + +Then with a sudden movement Mr Heve put out his hand. + +"You'll come in again soon?" + +"Oh yes." + +In the hall they saw Maggie about to enter the dining-room with a +steaming basin. + +"I'm going to give him this," she said simply in a low voice. "It's so +long to dinner-time." + +"By all means," said Mr Heve, with his little formal bow. + +"You've finished seeing him then, doctor?" + +He nodded. + +"I'll be back soon," said Edwin to Maggie, taking his hat from the rack. +"Tell father if he asks I've run down to the shop." + +She nodded and disappeared. + +"I'll walk down a bit of the way with you," said Mr Heve. + +His trap, which was waiting at the corner, followed them down the road. +Edwin could not begin to talk. And Mr Heve kept silence. Behind him, +Edwin could hear the jingling of metal on Mr Heve's sprightly horse. +After a couple of hundred yards the doctor stopped at a house-door. + +"Well--" He shook hands again, and at last smiled with sad sweetness. + +"He'll be a bit difficult to manage, you know," said Edwin. + +"I don't think so," said the doctor. + +"I'll let you know about the specialist. But if you're sure--" + +The doctor waved a deprecating hand. It might have been the hand of his +brother, the Vicar. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +Edwin proceeded towards the town, absorbed in a vision of his father +seated in the dining-room, inexpressibly melancholy, and Maggie with her +white apron bending over him to offer some nice soup. It was a +desolating vision--and yet he wondered why it should be! Whenever he +reasoned he was always inimical to his father. His reason asked harshly +why he should be desolated, as he undoubtedly was. The prospect of +freedom, of release from a horrible and humiliating servitude--this +prospect ought to have dazzled and uplifted him, in the safe, inviolable +privacy of his own heart. But it did not... What a chump the doctor +was, to be so uncommunicative! And he himself! ... By the way, he had +not told Maggie. It was like her to manifest no immediate curiosity, to +be content to wait... He supposed he must call at his aunt's, and even +at Clara's. But what should he say when they asked him why he had not +asked the doctor for a name? + +Suddenly an approaching man whose face was vaguely familiar but with +whom he had no acquaintance whatever, swerved across the footpath and +stopped him. + +"What's amiss with th' old gentleman?" It was astounding how news flew +in the town! + +"He's not very well. Doctor's ordered him a rest." + +"Not in bed, is he?" + +"Oh no!" Edwin lightly scorned the suggestion. + +"Well, I do hope it's nothing serious. Good morning." + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +Edwin was detained a long time in the shop by a sub-manager from +Bostocks in Hanbridge who was waiting, and who had come about an +estimate for a rather considerable order. This man desired a decrease +of the estimate and an increased speed in execution. He was curt. He +was one business firm offering an ultimatum to another business firm. +He asked Edwin whether Edwin could decide at once. Edwin said +`Certainly,' using a tone that he had never used before. He decided. +The man departed, and Edwin saw him spring on to the Hanbridge car as it +swept down the hill. The man would not have been interested in the news +that Darius Clayhanger had been to business for the last time. Edwin +was glad of the incident because it had preserved him from embarrassed +conversation with Stifford. Two hours earlier he had called for a few +moments at the shop, and even then, ere Edwin had spoken, Stifford's +face showed that he knew something sinister had occurred. With a few +words of instruction to Stifford, he now went through towards the +workshops to speak with Big James about the Bostock order. + +All the workmen and apprentices were self-conscious. And Edwin could +not speak naturally to Big James. When he had come to an agreement with +Big James as to the execution of the order, the latter said-- + +"Would you step below a minute, Mr Edwin?" + +Edwin shuffled. But Big James's majestic politeness gave to his +expressed wish the force of a command. Edwin preceded Big James down +the rough wooden stair to the ground floor, which was still pillared +with supporting beams. Big James, with deliberate, careful movements, +drew the trap-door horizontal as he descended. + +"Might I ask, sir, if Master's in a bad way?" he inquired, with solemn +and delicate calm. But he would have inquired about the weather in the +same fashion. + +"I'm afraid he is," said Edwin, glancing nervously about at the litter, +and the cobwebs, and the naked wood, and the naked earth. The vibration +of a treadle-machine above them put the place in a throb. + +Astounding! Everybody knew or guessed everything! How? + +Big James wagged his head and his grandiose beard, now more grey than +black, and he fingered his apron. + +"I believe in herbs myself," said Big James. "But this here softening +of the brain--well--" + +That was it! Softening of the brain! What the doctor had not told him +he had learned from Big James. How it happened that Big James was in a +position to tell him he could not comprehend. But he was ready now to +believe that the whole town had acquired by magic the information which +fate or original stupidity had kept from him alone... Softening of the +brain! + +"Perhaps I'm making too bold, sir," Big James went on. "Perhaps it's +not so bad as that. But I did hear--" + +Edwin nodded confirmingly. + +"You needn't talk about it," he murmured, indicating the first floor by +an upward movement of the head. + +"That I shall not, sir," Big James smoothly replied, and proceeded in +the same bland tone: "And what's more, never will I raise my voice in +song again! James Yarlett has sung his last song." + +There was silence. Edwin, accustomed though he was to the mildness of +Big James's deportment, did not on the instant grasp that the man was +seriously announcing a solemn resolve made under deep emotion. But as +he understood, tears came into Edwin's eyes, and he thrilled at the +swift and dramatic revelation of the compositor's feeling for his +employer. Its impressiveness was overwhelming and it was humbling. Why +this excess of devotion? + +"I don't say but what he had his faults like other folk," said Big +James. "And far be it from me to say that you, Mr Edwin, will not be a +better master than your esteemed father. But for over twenty years I've +worked for him, and now he's gone, never will I lift my voice in song +again!" + +Edwin could not reply. + +"I know what it is," said Big James, after a pause. + +"What what is?" + +"This ce-re-bral softening. You'll have trouble, Mr Edwin." + +"The doctor says not." + +"You'll have trouble, if you'll excuse me saying so. But it's a good +thing he's got you. It's a good thing for Miss Maggie as she isn't +alone with him. It's a providence, Mr Edwin, as you're not a married +man." + +"I very nearly _was_ married once!" Edwin cried, with a sudden +uncontrollable outburst of feeling which staggered while it satisfied +him. Why should he make such a confidence to Big James? Between his +pleasure in the relief, and his extreme astonishment at the confession, +he felt as it were lost and desperate, as if he did not care what might +occur. + +"Were you now!" Big James commented, with an ever intensified +blandness. "Well, sir, I thank you." + + + +VOLUME THREE, CHAPTER FOUR. + +THE VICTIM OF SYMPATHY. + +On the same evening, Edwin, Albert Benbow, and Darius were smoking +Albert's cigarettes in the dining-room. Edwin sat at the end of a +disordered supper-table, Albert was standing, hat in hand, near the +sideboard, and Darius leaned against the mantelpiece. Nobody could have +supposed from his appearance that a doctor had responsibly prophesied +this man's death within two years. Except for a shade of sadness upon +his face, he looked the same as he had looked for a decade. Though +regarded by his children as an old man, he was not old, being in fact +still under sixty. His grey hair was sparse; his spectacles were set +upon his nose with the negligence characteristic of age; but the +down-pointing moustache, which, abetted by his irregular teeth, gave him +that curious facial resemblance to a seal, showed great force, and the +whole of his stiff and sturdy frame showed force. His voice, if not his +mouth, had largely recovered from the weakness of the morning. +Moreover, the fashion in which he smoked a cigarette had somehow the +effect of rejuvenating him. It was Albert who had induced him to smoke +cigarettes occasionally. He was not an habitual smoker, consuming +perhaps half an ounce a week of pipe-tobacco: and assuredly he would +never of his own accord have tried a cigarette. For Darius cigarettes +were aristocratic and finicking; they were an affectation. He smoked a +cigarette with the self-consciousness which usually marks the +consumption of champagne in certain strata of society. His gestures, as +he examined from time to time the end of the cigarette, or audibly blew +forth spreading clouds, seemed to signify that in his opinion he was +going the pace, cutting a dash, and seeing life. This _naivete_ had its +charm. + +The three men, left alone by their women, were discussing politics, +which then meant nothing but the subject of Home Rule. Darius agreed +almost eagerly with everything that Albert Benbow said. Albert was a +calm and utterly sound Conservative. He was one of those politicians +whose conviction of rightness is so strong that they cannot help +condescending towards an opponent. Albert would say persuasively to +Liberal acquaintances: "Now just _think_ a moment!" apparently sure that +the only explanation of their misguided views was that they never had +thought for a moment. Or he would say: "Surely all patriotic +Liberals--" But one day when Edwin had said to him with a peculiar +accent: "Surely all patriotic Conservatives--" he had been politely +offended for the rest of the evening, and Edwin and he had not mentioned +politics to each other for a long time. Albert had had much influence +over his father-in-law. And now Albert said, after Darius had concurred +and concurred-- + +"You're one of the right sort, after all, old gentleman." + +Throughout the evening he had spoken to Darius in an unusually loud +voice, as though it was necessary to shout to a man who had only two +years to live. + +"All I say is," said Darius, "country before party!" + +"Why, of course!" Albert smiled, confident and superior. "Haven't I +been telling you for years you're one of us?" + +Edwin, too, smiled, as superiorly as he could, but unhappily not with +sufficient superiority to wither Albert's smile. He said nothing, +partly from timid discretion, but partly because he was preoccupied with +the thought of the malignant and subtle power working secretly in his +father's brain. How could the doctor tell? What was the process of +softening? Did his father know, in that sick brain of his, that he was +condemned; or did he hope to recover? Now, as he leaned against the +mantelpiece, protruding his body in an easy posture, he might have been +any ordinary man, and not a victim; he might have been a man of business +relaxing after a long day of hard and successful cerebral activity. + +It seemed strange to Edwin that Albert could talk as he did to one whom +destiny had set apart, to one whose being was the theatre of a drama so +mysterious and tragic. Yet it was the proper thing for Albert to do, +and Albert did it perfectly, better than anybody, except possibly +Maggie. + +"Those women take a deuce of a time putting their bonnets on!" Albert +exclaimed. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +The women came downstairs at last. At last, to Edwin's intense relief, +every one was going. Albert went into the hall to meet the women. +Edwin rose and followed him. And Darius came as far as the door of the +dining-room. Less than twenty-four hours had passed since Edwin had +begun even to suspect any sort of disaster to his father. But the +previous night seemed an age away. The day had been interminable, and +the evening exasperating in the highest degree. What an evening! Why +had Albert and Clara and Auntie Hamps all of them come up just at +supper-time? At first they would not be persuaded! No! They had just +called--sheer accident!--nothing abnormal! And yet the whole of the +demeanour of Auntie Hamps and Clara was abnormal. Maggie herself, +catching the infection, had transformed the meal into a kind of abnormal +horrible feast by serving cold beef and pickles--flesh-meat being +unknown to the suppers of the Clayhangers save occasionally on Sundays. + +Edwin could not comprehend why the visitors had come. That is to say, +he understood the reason quite well, but hated to admit it. They had +come from a mere gluttony of curiosity. They knew all that could be +known--but still they must come and gaze and indulge their lamentable +hearts, and repeat the same things again and again, ten million times! +Auntie Hamps, indeed, probably knew more than Edwin did, for she had +thought fit to summon Dr Heve that very afternoon for an ailment of her +own, and Clara, with an infant or so, had by a remarkable coincidence +called at Mrs Hamps's house just after the doctor left. "Odious," +thought Edwin. + +These two had openly treated Darius as a martyr, speaking to him in soft +and pitiful voices, urging him to eat, urging him to drink, caressing +him, soothing him, humouring him; pretending to be brave and cheerful +and optimistic, but with a pretence so poor, so wilfully poor, that it +became an insult. When they said fulsomely, "You'll be perfectly all +right soon if only you'll take care and do as the doctor says," Edwin +could have risen and killed them both with hearty pleasure. They might +just as well have said, "You're practically in your grave." And +assuredly they were not without influence on Maggie's deportment. The +curious thing was that it was impossible to decide whether Darius +loathed, or whether he liked, to be so treated. His face was an enigma. +However, he was less gloomy. + +Then also the evening had necessarily been full of secret conferences. +What would you? Each had to relate privately the things that he or she +knew or had heard or had imagined. And there were questions of urgency +to be discussed. For example the question of the specialist. They were +all positively agreed, Edwin found, that a specialist was unnecessary. +Darius was condemned beyond hope or argument. There he sat, eating and +talking, in the large, fine house that he had created out of naught, +looking not at all like a corpse; but he was condemned. The doctor had +convinced them. Besides, did not everybody know what softening of the +brain was? "Of course, if he thinks he would prefer to have a +specialist, if he has the slightest wish--" This from Auntie Hamps. +There was the question, further, of domestic service. Mrs Nixon's +niece had committed the folly of marriage, and for many months Maggie +and the old servant had been `managing;' but with a crotchety invalid +always in the house, more help would be indispensable. And still +further--should Darius be taken away for a period to the sea, or Buxton, +or somewhere? Maggie said that nothing would make him go, and Clara +agreed with her. All these matters, and others, had to be kept away +from the central figure; they were all full of passionate interest, and +they had to be debated, in tones hushed but excited, in the hall, in the +kitchen, upstairs, or anywhere except in the dining-room. The excuses +invented by the conspiring women for quitting and entering the +dining-room, their fatuous air of innocent simplicity, disgusted Edwin. +And he became curter and curter, as he noticed the new deference which +even Clara practised towards him. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +The adieux were distressing. Clara, with her pale sharp face and +troubled eyes, clasped Darius round the neck, and almost hung on it. +And Edwin thought: "Why doesn't she tell him straight out he's done +for?" Then she retired and sought her husband's arm with the conscious +pride of a wife fruitful up to the limits set by nature. And then +Auntie Hamps shook hands with the victim. These two of course did not +kiss. Auntie Hamps bore herself bravely. "Now _do_ do as the doctor +advises!" she said, patting Darius on the shoulder. "And _do_ be guided +by these dear children!" + +Edwin caught Maggie's eye, and held it grimly. + +"And you, my pet," said Auntie Hamps, turning to Clara, who with Albert +was now at the door. "You must be getting back to your babies! It's a +wonder how you manage to get away! But you're a wonderful arranger! ... +Only don't overdo it. Don't overdo it!" + +Clara gave a fatigued smile, as of one whom circumstances often forced +to overdo it. + +They departed, Albert whistling to the night. Edwin observed again, in +their final glances, the queer, new, ingratiating deference for himself. +He bolted the door savagely. + +Darius was still standing at the entrance to the dining-room. And as he +looked at him Edwin thought of Big James's vow never to lift his voice +in song again. Strange! It was the idea of the secret strangeness of +life that was uppermost in his mind: not grief, not expectancy. In the +afternoon he had been talking again to Big James, who, it appeared, had +known intimately a case of softening of the brain. He did not identify +the case--it was characteristic of him to name no names--but clearly he +was familiar with the course of the disease. + +He had begun revelations which disconcerted Edwin, and had then stopped. +And now as Edwin furtively examined his father, he asked himself: "Will +_that_ happen to him, and _that_, and those still worse things that Big +James did not reveal?" Incredible! There he was, smoking a cigarette, +and the clock striking ten in its daily, matter-of-fact way. + +Darius let fall the cigarette, which Edwin picked up from the mat, and +offered to him. + +"Throw it away," said Darius, with a deep sigh. + +"Going to bed?" Edwin asked. + +Darius shook his head, and Edwin debated what he should do. A moment +later, Maggie came from the kitchen and asked-- + +"Going to bed, father?" + +Again Darius shook his head. He then went slowly into the drawing-room +and lit the gas there. + +"What shall you do? Leave him?" Maggie whispered to Edwin in the +dining-room, as she helped Mrs Nixon to clear the table. + +"I don't know," said Edwin. "I shall see." + +In ten minutes both Maggie and Mrs Nixon had gone to bed. Edwin +hesitated in the dining-room. Then he extinguished the gas there, and +went into the drawing-room. Darius, not having lowered the blinds, was +gazing out of the black window. + +"You needn't wait down here for me," said he, a little sharply. And his +tone was so sane, controlled, firm, and ordinary that Edwin could do +nothing but submit to it. + +"I'm not going to," he answered quietly. + +Impossible to treat a man of such demeanour like a child. + + + +VOLUME THREE, CHAPTER FIVE. + +THE SLAVE'S FEAR. + +Edwin closed the door of his bedroom with a sense of relief and of +pleasure far greater than he would have admitted; or indeed could +honestly have admitted, for it surpassed his consciousness. The feeling +recurred that he was separated from the previous evening by a tremendous +expanse of time. He had been flung out of his daily habits. He had +forgotten to worry over the execution of his private programmes. He had +forgotten even that the solemn thirtieth birthday was close upon him. +It seemed to him as if his own egoism was lying about in scattered +pieces, which he must collect in the calm of this cloister, and +reconstruct. He wanted to resume possession of himself, very slowly, +without violent effort. He wound up his watch; the hour was not yet +half-past ten. The whole exquisite night was his. + +He had brought with him from the shop, almost mechanically, a copy of +"Harper's Magazine," not the copy which regularly once a month he kept +from a customer during the space of twenty-four hours for his own uses, +but a second copy which had been sent down by the wholesale agents in +mistake, and which he could return when he chose. He had already seen +the number, but he could not miss the chance of carefully going through +it at leisure. Despite his genuine aspirations, despite his taste which +was growing more and more fastidious, he found it exceedingly difficult +to proceed with his regular plan of reading while there was an +illustrated magazine unexplored. Besides, the name of "Harper's" was +august. To read "Harper's" was to acquire merit; even the pictures in +"Harper's" were too subtle for the uncultivated. + +He turned over the pages, and they all appeared to promise new and +strange joys. Such preliminary moments were the most ecstatic in his +life, as in the lives of many readers. He had not lost sight of the +situation created by his father's illness, but he could only see it very +dimly through the semi-transparent pages. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +The latch clicked and the door opened slightly. He jumped, supposing +that his father had crept upstairs. And the first thought of the slave +in him was that his father had never seen the gas-stove and would now +infallibly notice it. But Maggie's face showed. She came in very +quietly--she too had caught the conspiratorial manner. + +"I thought you wouldn't be ready for bed just yet," she said, in mild +excuse of her entry. "I didn't knock, for fear he might be wandering +about and hear." + +"Oh!" muttered Edwin. "What's up?" Instinctively he resented the +invasion, and was alarmed for the privacy of his sacred room, although +he knew that Maggie, and Mrs Nixon also, had it at their mercy every +day. Nobody ever came into that room while he was in it. + +Maggie approached the hearth. + +"I think I ought to have a stove too," she said pleasantly. + +"Well, why don't you?" he replied. "I can get it for you any time." If +Clara had envied his stove, she would have envied it with scoffing +rancour, and he would have used sarcasm in response. + +"Oh no!" said Maggie quickly. "I don't really want one." + +"What's up?" he repeated. He could see she was hesitating. + +"Do you know what Clara and auntie are saying?" + +"No! What now? I should have thought they'd both said enough to last +them for a few days at any rate." + +"Did Albert say anything to you?" + +"What about?" + +"Well--both Clara and auntie said I must tell you. Albert says he ought +to make his will--they all think so." + +Edwin's lips curled. + +"How do they know he hasn't made it?" + +"Has he made it?" + +"How do I know? You don't suppose he ever talks to me about his +affairs, do you? Not much!" + +"Well--they meant he ought to be asked." + +"Well, let 'em ask him, then. I shan't." + +"Of course what they say is--you're the--" + +"What do I care for that?" he interrupted her. "So that's what you were +yarning so long about in your room!" + +"I can tell you," said Maggie, "they're both of them very serious about +it. So's Albert, it seems." + +"They disgust me," he said briefly. "Here the thing isn't a day old, +and they begin worrying about his will! They go slobbering all over him +downstairs, and upstairs it's nothing but his will they think about... +You can't rush at a man and talk to him about his will like that. At +least, I can't--it's altogether too thick! I expect some people could. +But I can't. Damn it, you must have some sense of decency!" + +Maggie remained calm and benevolent. After a pause she said-- + +"You see--their point is that later on he mayn't be able to make a +will." + +"Look here," he questioned amicably, meeting her eyes, "what do you +think? What do you think yourself?" + +"Oh!" she said, "I should never dream of bothering about it. I'm only +telling you what--" + +"Of course you wouldn't!" he exclaimed. "No decent person would. Later +on, perhaps, if one could put in a word casually! But not now! ... If +he doesn't make a will he doesn't make one--that's all." + +Maggie leaned against the mantelpiece. + +"Mind your skirt doesn't catch fire," he warned her, in a murmur. + +"I told them what you'd say," she answered his outburst, perfectly +unmoved. "I knew what you'd say. But what they say is--it's all very +well for _you_. You're the son, and it seems that if there isn't a will, +if it's left too late--" + +This aspect of the case had absolutely not presented itself to Edwin. + +"If they think," he muttered, with cold acrimony--"if they think I'm the +sort of person to take the slightest advantage of being the son--well, +they must think it--that's all! Besides, they can always talk to him +themselves--if they're so desperately anxious." + +"You have charge of everything." + +"Have I! ... And I should like to know what it's got to do with +auntie!" + +Maggie lifted her head. "Oh, auntie and Clara, you know--you can't +separate them... Well, I've told you." + +She moved to leave. + +"I say," he stopped her, with a confidential appeal. "Don't you agree +with me?" + +"Yes," she replied simply. "I think it ought to be left for a bit. +Perhaps he's made it, after all. Let's hope so. I'm sure it will save +a lot of trouble if he has." + +"Naturally it ought to be left for a bit! Why--just look at him! ... +He might be on his blooming dying bed, to hear the way some people talk! +Let 'em mention it to me, and I'll tell 'em a thing or two!" + +Maggie raised her eyebrows. She scarcely recognised Edwin. + +"I suppose he'll be all right, downstairs?" + +"Right? Of course he'll be all right!" Then he added, in a tone less +pugnacious--for, after all, it was not Maggie who had outraged his +delicacy, "Don't latch the door. Pull it to. I'll listen out." + +She went silently away. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +Searching with his body for the most comfortable deeps of the +easy-chair, he set himself to savour "Harper's." This monthly +reassurance that nearly all was well with the world, and that what was +wrong was not seriously wrong, waited on his knees to be accepted and to +do its office. Unlike the magazines of his youth, its aim was to soothe +and flatter, not to disconcert and impeach. He looked at the refined +illustrations of South American capitals and of picturesque corners in +Provence, and at the smooth or the rugged portraits of great statesmen +and great bridges; all just as true to reality as the brilliant +letterpress; and he tried to slip into the rectified and softened world +offered by the magazine. He did not criticise the presentment. He did +nothing so subtle as to ask himself whether if he encountered the +reality he would recognise it from the presentment. He wanted the +illusions of "Harper's." He desired the comfort, the distraction, and +the pleasant ideal longings which they aroused. But they were a +medicine which he discovered he was not in a condition to absorb, a +medicine therefore useless. There was no effective medicine for his +trouble. + +His trouble was that he objected to being disturbed. At first he had +been pleasantly excited, but now he shrank away at the call to freedom, +to action, to responsibility. All the slave in him protested against +the knocking off of irons, and the imperative kick into the open air. +He saw suddenly that in the calm of regular habit and of subjection, he +had arrived at something that closely resembled happiness. He wished +not to lose it, knowing that it was already gone. Actually, for his own +sake, and quite apart from his father, he would have been ready, were it +possible, to cancel the previous twenty-four hours. Everything was +ominous, and he wandering about, lost, amid menaces... Why, even his +cherished programmes of reading were smashed... Hallam! ... True, +to-night was not a night appointed for reading, but to-morrow night was. +And would he be able to read to-morrow night? No, a hundred new +complications would have arisen to harass him and to dispossess him of +his tranquillity! + +Destiny was demanding from him a huge effort, unexpected and formidable, +and the whole of his being weakly complained, asking to be exempted, but +asking without any hope of success; for all his faculties and his +desires knew that his conscience was ultimately their master. + +Talk to his father about making a will, eh! Besides being disgusting, +it was laughable. Those people did not know his father as he did. He +foresaw that, even in conducting the routine of business, he would have +difficulties with his father over the simplest details. In particular +there was one indispensable preliminary to the old man's complete +repose, and his first duty on the morrow would be to endeavour to +arrange this preliminary with his father; but he scarcely hoped to +succeed. + +On the portion of the mantelpiece reserved for books in actual use lay +the "Tale of a Tub," last night so enchanting. And now he had +positively forgotten it. He yawned, and prepared for bed. If he could +not read "Harper's," perhaps he could read Swift. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +He lay in bed. The gas was out, the stove was out, and according to his +custom he was reading himself to sleep by the light of a candle in a +sconce attached to the bed's head. His eyes ran along line after line +and down page after page, and transmitted nothing coherent to his brain. + +Then there were steps on the stair. His father was at last coming to +bed. He was a little relieved, though he had been quite prepared to go +to sleep and leave his father below. Why not? The steps died at the +top of the stair, but an irregular creaking continued. After a pause +the door was pushed open; and after another pause the figure of his +father came into view, breathing loudly. + +"Edwin, are you asleep?" Darius asked anxiously. Edwin wondered what +could be the matter, but he answered with lightness, "Nearly." + +"I've not put th' light out down yon! Happen you'd better put it out." +There was in his father's voice a note of dependence upon him, of appeal +to him. + +"Funny!" he thought, and said aloud, "All right." + +He jumped up. His father thudded off deliberately to his own room, +apparently relieved of a fearful oppression, but still fixed in sadness. + +On the previous night Edwin had extinguished the hall-gas and come last +to bed; and again to-night. But to-night with what a different +sentiment of genuine, permanent responsibility! The appealing +feebleness of his father's attitude seemed to give him strength. Surely +a man so weak and fallen from tyranny could not cause much trouble! +Edwin now had some hope that the unavoidable preliminary to the +invalid's retirement might be achieved without too much difficulty. He +braced himself. + + + +VOLUME THREE, CHAPTER SIX. + +KEYS AND CHEQUES. + +Coming up Trafalgar Road at twenty minutes past nine in the bright, +astringent morning, Edwin carried by a string a little round parcel +which for him contained the inspiring symbol of his new life. By mere +accident he had wakened and had risen early, arriving at the shop before +half-past seven. He had deliberately lifted on to his shoulders the +whole burden of the shop and the printing business, and as soon as he +felt its weight securely lodged he became extraordinarily animated and +vigorous; even gay. He had worked with a most agreeable sense of energy +until nearly nine o'clock; and then, having first called at the +ironmonger's, had stepped into the bank at the top of Saint Luke's +Square a moment after its doors opened, and had five minutes' exciting +conversation with the manager. After which, with righteous hunger in +his belly and the symbol in his hand, he had come home to breakfast. +The symbol was such as could be obtained at any ironmonger's: an alarm +clock. Mrs Nixon had grown less reliable than formerly as an alarm +clock; machinery was now supplanting her. + +Dr Heve came out of the house, and Dr Heve too seemed gay with fine +resolutions. The two met on the doorstep, each full of a justifiable +self-satisfaction. The doctor explained that he had come thus early +because Mr Clayhanger was one of those cases upon which he could look +in casually at any time. In the sunshine they talked under the porch of +early rising, as men who understood the value of that art. Edwin could +see that Dr Heve's life was a series of little habits which would never +allow themselves to be interfered with by any large interest, and he +despised the man's womanish smile. Nevertheless his new respect for him +did not weaken; he decided that he was a very decent fellow in his way, +and he was more impressed than he would admit by the amount of work that +the doctor had for years been doing in the morning before his +intellectual superiors had sat up in bed. And he imagined that it might +be even more agreeable to read in the fresh stillness of the morning +than in the solitary night. + +Then they returned to the case of Darius. The doctor was more +communicative, and they were both cheerfully matter-of-fact concerning +it. There it was, to be made the best of! And that Darius could never +handle business again, and that in about two years his doom would be +accomplished--these were basic facts, axiomatic. The doctor had seen +his patient in the garden, and he suggested that if Darius could be +persuaded to interest himself in gardening... They discussed his +medicine, his meals, his digestion, and the great, impossible dream of +`taking him away,' `out of it all.' And every now and then Dr Heve +dropped some little hint as to the management of Darius. + +The ticking parcel drew the discreet attention of the doctor. The +machine was one guaranteed to go in any position, and was much more +difficult to stop than to start. + +"It's only an alarm," said Edwin, not without self-consciousness. + +The doctor went, tripping neatly and optimistically, off towards his own +breakfast. He got up earlier than his horse. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +Darius was still in the garden when Edwin went to him. He had put on +his daily suit, and was leisurely digging in an uncultivated patch of +ground. He stuck the spade into the earth perpendicularly and deep, and +when he tried to prise it up and it would not yield because of a +concealed half-brick, he put his tongue between his teeth and then bit +his lower lip, controlling himself, determined to get the better of the +spade and the brick by persuasively humouring them. He took no notice +whatever of Edwin. + +"I see you aren't losing any time," said Edwin, who felt as though he +were engaging in small-talk with a stranger. + +"Are _you_?" Darius replied, without turning his head. + +"I've just come up for a bit of breakfast. Everything's all right," he +said. He would have liked to add: "I was in the shop before +seven-thirty," but he was too proud. + +After a pause, he ventured, essaying the casual-- + +"I say, father, I shall want the keys of the desk, and all that." + +"Keys o' th' desk!" Darius muttered, leaning on the spade, as though +demanding in stupefaction, "What on earth can you want the keys for?" + +"Well--" Edwin stammered. + +But the proposition was too obvious to be denied. Darius left the spade +to stand up by itself, and stared. + +"Got 'em in your pocket?" Edwin inquired. + +Slowly Darius drew forth a heavy, glittering bunch of keys, one of the +chief insignia of his dominion, and began to fumble at it. + +"You needn't take any of them off. I expect I know which is which," +said Edwin, holding out his hand. + +Darius hesitated, and then yielded up the bunch. + +"Thanks," said Edwin lightly. + +But the old man's reluctance to perform this simple and absolutely +necessary act of surrender, the old man's air of having done something +tremendous--these signs frightened Edwin and shook his courage for the +demand compared to which the demand for the keys was naught. Still, the +affair had to be carried through. + +"And I say," he proceeded, jingling the keys, "about signing and +endorsing cheques. They tell me at the Bank that if you sign a general +authority to me to do it for you, that will be enough." + +He could not avoid looking guilty. He almost felt guilty, almost felt +as if he were plotting against his father's welfare. And as he spoke +his words seemed unreal and his suggestion fantastic. At the Bank the +plan had been simple, easy, and perfectly natural. But there could be +no doubt, that as he had walked up Trafalgar Road, receding from the +Bank and approaching his father, the plan had gradually lost those +attractive qualities. And now in the garden it was merely monstrous. + +Silent, Darius resumed the spade. + +"Well," said Edwin desperately. "What about it?" + +"Do you think"--Darius glowered upon him with heavy, desolating +scorn--"do you think as I'm going to let you sign my cheques for me? +You're taking too much on yourself, my lad." + +"But--" + +"I tell ye you're taking too much on yourself!" he began to shout +menacingly. "Get about your business and don't act the fool! You +needn't think you're going to be God A'mighty because you've got up a +bit earlier for once in a way and been down to th' shop before +breakfast." + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +In all his demeanour there was not the least indication of weakness. He +might never have sat down on the stairs and cried! He might never have +submitted feebly and perhaps gladly to the caresses of Clara and the +soothings of Auntie Hamps! Impossible to convince him that he was cut +off from the world! Impossible even to believe it! Was this the man +that Edwin and the Bank manager and the doctor and all the others had +been disposing of as though he were an automaton accurately responsive +to external suggestion? + +"Look here," Edwin knew that he ought to say. "Let it be clearly +understood once for all--I'm the boss now! I have the authority in my +pocket and you must sign it, and quick too! I shall do my best for you, +but I don't mean to be bullied while I'm doing it!" + +But he could not say it. Nor could his heart emotionally feel it. + +He turned away sheepishly, and then he faced his father again, with a +distressed, apologetic smile. + +"Well then," he asked, "who _is_ going to sign cheques?" + +"I am," said Darius. + +"But you know what the doctor said! You know what you promised him!" + +"What did the doctor say?" + +"He said you weren't to do anything at all. And you said you wouldn't. +What's more, you said you didn't want to." + +Darius sneered. + +"I reckon I can sign cheques," he said. "And I reckon I can endorse +cheques... So it's got to that! I can't sign my own name now. I shall +show some of you whether I can't sign my own name!" + +"You know it isn't simply signing them. You know if I bring cheques up +for you to sign you'll begin worrying about them at once, and--and +there'll be no end to it. You'd much better--" + +"Shut up!" It was like a clap of thunder. + +Edwin hesitated an instant and then went towards the house. He could +hear his father muttering "Whipper-snapper!" + +"And I'll tell you another thing," Darius bawled across the garden-- +assuredly his voice would reach the street. "It was like your impudence +to go to the Bank like that without asking me first! `They tell you at +the Bank!' `They tell you at the Bank!' Anything else they told you at +the Bank?" Then a snort. + +Edwin was humiliated and baffled. He knew not what he could do. The +situation became impossible immediately it was faced. He felt also very +resentful, and resentment was capturing him, when suddenly an idea +seemed to pull him by the sleeve: "All this is part of his disease. +It's part of his disease that he can't see the point of a thing." And +the idea was insistent, and under its insistence Edwin's resentment +changed to melancholy. He said to himself that he must think of his +father as a child. He blamed himself, in a sort of pleasurable luxury +of remorse, for all the anger which during all his life he had felt +against his father. His father's unreasonableness had not been a fault, +but a misfortune. His father had been not a tyrant, but a victim. His +brain must always have been wrong! And now he was doomed, and the worst +part of his doom was that he was unaware of it. And in the thought of +Darius ignorantly blustering within the walled garden, in the spring +sunshine, condemned, cut off, helpless at the last, pitiable at the +last, there was something inexpressibly poignant. And the sunshine +seemed a shame; and Edwin's youth and mental vigour seemed a shame. + +Nevertheless Edwin knew not what to do. + +"Master Edwin," said Mrs Nixon, who was rubbing the balustrade of the +stairs, "you munna' cross him like that." She jerked her head in the +direction of the garden. The garden door stood open. + +If he had not felt solemn and superior, he could have snapped off that +head of hers. + +"Is my breakfast ready?" he asked. He hung up his hat, and absently +took the little parcel which he had left on the marble ledge of the +umbrella-stand. + + + +VOLUME THREE, CHAPTER SEVEN. + +LAID ASIDE. + +The safe, since the abandonment of the business premises by the family, +had stood in a corner of a small nondescript room, sometimes vaguely +called the safe-room, between the shop and what had once been the +kitchen. It was a considerable safe, and it had the room practically to +itself. As Edwin unlocked it, and the prodigious door swung with silent +smoothness to his pull, he was aware of a very romantic feeling of +exploration. He had seen the inside of the safe before; he had even +opened the safe, and taken something from it, under his father's orders. +But he had never had leisure, nor licence, to inspect its interior. +From his boyhood had survived the notion that it must contain many +marvels. In spite of himself his attitude was one of awe. + +The first thing that met his eye was his father's large, black-bound +private cash-book, which constituted the most sacred and mysterious +document in the accountancy of the business. Edwin handled, and kept, +all the books save that. At the beginning of the previous week he and +Stifford had achieved the task of sending out the quarterly accounts, +and of one sort or another there were some seven hundred quarterly +accounts. Edwin was familiar with every detail of the printer's +work-book, the daybook, the combined book colloquially called `invoice +and ledger,' the `bought' ledger, and the shop cash-book. But he could +form no sure idea of the total dimensions and results of the business, +because his father always kept the ultimate castings to himself, and +never displayed his private cash-book under any circumstances. By +ingenuity and perseverance Edwin might have triumphed over Darius's +mania for secrecy; but he did not care to do so; perhaps pride even more +than honour caused him to refrain. + +Now he held the book, and saw that only a portion of it was in the +nature of a cash-book; the rest comprised summaries and general +statements. The statement for the year 1885, so far as he could hastily +decipher its meaning, showed a profit of 821 pounds. He was not +surprised, and yet the sight of the figures in his father's heavy, +scratchy hand was curiously impressive. + +His father could keep nothing from him now. The interior of the safe +was like a city that had capitulated; no law ran in it but his law, and +he was absolute; he could commit infamies in the city and none might +criticise. He turned over piles of dusty cheque-counterfoils, and old +pass-books and other old books of account. He saw a linen bag crammed +with four-shilling pieces (whenever Darius obtained a double florin he +put it aside), and one or two old watches of no value. Also the +title-deeds of the house at Bleakridge, their latest parchment still +white with pounce; the mortgage, then, had been repaid, a fact which +Darius had managed on principle to conceal from his son. Then he came +to the four drawers, and in some of these he discovered a number of +miscellaneous share-certificates with their big seals. He knew that his +father had investments--it was impossible to inhabit the shop-cubicle +with his father and not know that--but he had no conception of their +extent or their value. Always he had regarded all those matters as +foreign to himself, refusing to allow curiosity in regard to them to +awake. Now he was differently minded, owing to the mere physical weight +in his pocket of a bunch of keys! In a hasty examination he gathered +that the stock was chiefly in railways and shipping, and that it +amounted to large sums--anyhow quite a number of thousands. He was +frankly astonished. How had his father's clumsy, slow intellect been +able to cope with the dangerous intricacies of the Stock Exchange? It +seemed incredible; and yet he had known quite well that his father was +an investor! + +"Of course he isn't keen on giving it all up!" Edwin exclaimed aloud +suddenly. "I wonder he even forked out the keys as easily as he did!" + +The view of the safe enabled him to perform a feat which very few +children ever achieve; he put himself in his father's place. And it was +with benevolence, not with exasperation, that he puzzled his head to +invent some device for defeating the old man's obstinacy about +cheque-signing. + +One drawer was evidently not in regular use. Often, in a series of +drawers, one of them falls into the idle habit of being overlooked, +slipping gradually by custom into desuetude, though other drawers may +overflow. This drawer held merely a few scraps of sample paper, and a +map, all dusty. He drew forth the map. It was coloured, and in shaky +Roman characters underneath it ran the legend, "The County of +Staffordshire." He seemed to recognise the map. On the back he read, +in his father's handwriting: "Drawn and coloured without help by my son +Edwin, aged nine." + +He had utterly forgotten it. He could in no detail recall the +circumstances in which he had produced the wonderful map. A childish, +rude effort! ... Still, rather remarkable that at the age of nine +(perhaps even before he had begun to attend the Oldcastle Middle School) +he should have chosen to do a county map instead of a map of that +country beloved by all juvenile map-drawers, Ireland! He must have +copied it from the map in Lewis's Gazetteer of England and Wales... +Twenty-one years ago, nearly! He might, from the peculiar effect on +him, have just discovered the mummy of the boy that once had been +Edwin... And his father had kept the map for over twenty years. The +old cock must have been deuced proud of it once! Not that he ever said +so--Edwin was sure of that! + +"Now you needn't get sentimental!" he told himself. Like Maggie he had +a fearful, an almost morbid, horror of sentimentality. But he could not +arrest the softening of his heart, as he smiled at the _naivete_ of the +map and at his father's parental simplicity. + +As he was closing the safe, Stifford, agitated, hurried into the room. + +"Please, sir, Mr Clayhanger's in the Square. I thought I'd better tell +you." + +"What? Father?" + +"Yes, sir. He's standing opposite the chapel and he keeps looking this +way. I thought you'd like--" + +Edwin turned the key, and ran forth, stumbling, as he entered the shop, +against the step-ladder which, with the paper-boy at the summit of it, +overtopped the doorway. He wondered why he should run, and why +Stifford's face was so obviously apprehensive. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +Darius Clayhanger was standing at the north-east corner of the little +Square, half-way up Duck Bank, at the edge of the pavement. And his +gaze, hesitant and feeble, seemed to be upon the shop. He merely stood +there, moveless, and yet the sight of him was most strangely +disconcerting. Edwin, who kept within the shelter of the doorway, +comprehended now the look on Stifford's face. His father had the air of +ranging round about the shop in a reconnaissance, like an Indian or a +wild animal, or like a domestic animal violently expelled. Edwin almost +expected him to creep round by the Town Hall into Saint Luke's Square, +and then to reappear stealthily at the other end of Wedgwood Street, and +from a western ambush stare again at his own premises. + +A man coming down Duck Bank paused an instant near Darius, and with a +smile spoke to him, holding out his hand. Darius gave a slight nod. +The man, snubbed and confused, walked on, the smile still on his face, +but meaningless now, and foolish. + +At length Darius walked up the hill, his arms stiff and out-pointing, as +of old. Edwin got his hat and ran after him. Instead of turning to the +left along the market-place, Darius kept on farther up the hill, past +the Shambles, towards the old playground and the vague cinder-wastes +where the town ended in a few ancient cottages. It was at the +playground that Edwin, going slowly and cautiously, overtook him. + +"Hello, father!" he began nervously. "Where are you off to?" + +Darius did not seem to be at all startled to see him at his side. +Nevertheless he behaved in a queer fashion. Without saying a word he +suddenly turned at right-angles and apparently aimed himself towards the +market-place, by the back of the Town Hall. When he had walked a few +paces, he stopped and looked round at Edwin, who could not decide what +ought to be done. + +"If ye want to know," said Darius, with overwhelming sadness and +embittered disgust, "I'm going to th' Bank to sign that authority about +cheques." + +"Oh!" Edwin responded. "Good! I'll go with you if you like." + +"Happen it'll be as well," said Darius, resigning himself. + +They walked together in silence. + +The old man was beaten. The old man had surrendered, unconditionally. +Edwin's heart lightened as he perceived more and more clearly what this +surprising victory meant. It meant that always in the future he would +have the upper hand. He knew now, and Darius knew, that his father had +no strength to fight, and that any semblance of fighting could be +treated as bluster. Probably nobody realised as profoundly as Darius +himself, his real and yet mysterious inability to assert his will +against the will of another. The force of his individuality was gone. +He, who had meant to govern tyrannically to his final hour, to die with +a powerful and grim gesture of command, had to accept the ignominy of +submission. Edwin had not even insisted, had used no kind of threat. +He had merely announced his will, and when the first fury had waned +Darius had found his son's will working like a chemical agent in his +defenceless mind, and had yielded. It was astounding. And always it +would be thus, until the time when Edwin would say `Do this' and Darius +would do it, and `Do that' and Darius would do it, meekly, +unreasoningly, anxiously. + +Edwin's relief was so great that it might have been mistaken for +positive ecstatic happiness. His mind ranged exultingly over the future +of the business. In a few years, if he chose, he could sell the +business and spend the whole treasure of his time upon programmes. The +entire world would be his, and he could gather the fruits of every art. +He would utterly belong to himself. It was a formidable thought. The +atmosphere of the marketplace contained too much oxygen to be quite +grateful to his lungs... In the meantime there were things he would do. +He would raise Stifford's wages. Long ago they ought to have been +raised. And he would see that Stifford had for his dinner a full hour; +which in practice Stifford had never had. And he would completely give +up the sale and delivery of newspapers and weeklies, and would train the +paper-boy to the shop, and put Stifford in his own place and perhaps get +another clerk. It struck him hopefully that Stifford might go forth for +orders. Assuredly he himself had not one quality of a commercial +traveller. And, most inviting prospect of all, he would stock new +books. He cared not whether new books were unremunerative. It should +be known throughout the Five Towns that at Clayhanger's in Bursley a +selection of new books could always be seen. And if people would not +buy them people must leave them. But he would have them. And so his +thoughts flew. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +And at the same time he was extremely sad, only less sad than his +father. When he allowed his thoughts to rest for an instant on his +father he was so moved that he could almost have burst into a sob--just +one terrific sob. And he would say in his mind, "What a damned shame! +What a damned shame!" Meaning that destiny had behaved ignobly to his +father, after all. Destiny had no right to deal with a man so +faithlessly. Destiny should do either one thing or the other. It +seemed to him that he was leading his father by a string to his +humiliation. And he was ashamed: ashamed of his own dominance and of +his father's craven submissiveness. Twice they were stopped by hearty +and curious burgesses, and at each encounter Edwin, far more than +Darius, was anxious to pretend that the harsh hand of Darius still +firmly held the sceptre. + +When they entered the shining mahogany interior of the richest Bank in +the Five Towns, hushed save for a discreet shovelling of coins, Edwin +waited for his father to speak, and Darius said not a word, but stood +glumly quiescent, like a victim in a halter. The little wiry dancing +cashier looked; every clerk in the place looked; from behind the third +counter, in the far recesses of the Bank, clerks looked over their +ledgers; and they all looked in the same annoying way, as at a victim in +a halter; in their glance was all the pitiful gloating baseness of human +nature, mingled with a little of its compassion. + +Everybody of course knew that `something had happened' to the successful +steam-printer. + +"Can we see Mr Lovatt?" Edwin demanded curtly. He was abashed and he +was resentful. + +The cashier jumped on all his springs into a sudden activity of +deference. + +Presently the manager emerged from the glazed door of his room, pulling +his long whiskers. + +"Oh, Mr Lovatt," Edwin began nervously. "Father's just come along--" + +They were swallowed up into the manager's parlour. It might have been a +court of justice, or a dentist's surgery, or the cabinet of an insurance +doctor, or the room at Fontainebleau where Napoleon signed his +abdication--anything but the thing it was. Happily Mr Lovatt had a +manner which never varied; he had only one manner for all men and all +occasions. So that Edwin was not distressed either by the deficiencies +of amateur acting or by the exhibition of another's self-conscious +awkwardness. Nevertheless when his father took the pen to write he was +obliged to look studiously at the window and inaudibly hum an air. Had +he not done so, that threatening sob might have burst its way out of +him. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +"I'm going this road," said Darius, when they were safely out of the +Bank, pointing towards the Sytch. + +"What for?" + +"I'm going this road," he repeated, gloomily obstinate. + +"All right," said Edwin cheerfully. "I'll trot round with you." + +He did not know whether he could safely leave his father. The old man's +eyes resented his assiduity and accepted it. + +They passed the Old Sytch Pottery, the smoke of whose kilns now no +longer darkened the sky. The senior partner of the firm which leased it +had died, and his sons had immediately taken advantage of his absence to +build a new and efficient works down by the canal-side at Shawport--a +marvel of everything save architectural dignity. Times changed. Edwin +remarked on the desolation of the place and received no reply. Then the +idea occurred to him that his father was bound for the Liberal Club. It +was so. They both entered. In the large room two young men were +amusing themselves at the billiard-table which formed the chief +attraction of the naked interior, and on the ledges of the table were +two glasses. The steward in an apron watched them. + +"Aye!" grumbled Darius, eyeing the group. "That's Rad, that is! That's +Rad! Not twelve o'clock yet!" + +If Edwin with his father had surprised two young men drinking and +playing billiards before noon in the Conservative Club, he would have +been grimly pleased. He would have taken it for a further proof of the +hollowness of the opposition to the great Home Rule Bill; but the +spectacle of a couple of wastrels in the Liberal Club annoyed and shamed +him. His vague notion was that at such a moment of high crisis the two +wastrels ought to have had the decency to refrain from wasting. + +"Well, Mr Clayhanger," said the steward, in his absurd boniface way, +"you're quite a stranger." + +"I want my name taken off this Club," said Darius shortly. "Ye +understand me! And I reckon I'm not the only one, these days." + +The steward did in fact understand. He protested in a low, amiable +voice, while the billiard-players affected not to hear; but he perfectly +understood. The epidemic of resignations had already set in, and there +had been talk of a Liberal-Unionist Club. The steward saw that the +grand folly of a senile statesman was threatening his own future +prospects. He smiled. But at Edwin, as they were leaving, he smiled in +a quite peculiar way, and that smile clearly meant: "Your father goes +dotty, and the first thing he does is to change his politics." This was +the steward's justifiable revenge. + +"_You_ aren't leaving us?" the steward questioned Edwin in a half-whisper. + +Edwin shook his head. But he could have killed the steward for that +nauseating suggestive smile. The outer door swung to, cutting off the +delicate click of billiard balls. + +At the top of Duck Bank, Darius silently and without warning mounted the +steps of the Conservative Club. Doubtless he knew how to lay his hand +instantly on a proposer and seconder. Edwin did not follow him. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +That evening, conscious of responsibility and of virtue, Edwin walked up +Trafalgar Road with a less gawky and more dignified mien than ever he +had managed to assume before. He had not only dismissed programmes of +culture, he had forgotten them. After twelve hours as head of a +business, they had temporarily ceased to interest him. And when he +passed, or was overtaken by, other men of affairs, he thought to himself +naively in the dark, "I am the equal of these men." And the image of +Florence Simcox, the clog-dancer, floated through his mind. + +He found Darius alone in the drawing-room, in front of an uncustomary +fire, garden-clay still on his boots, and "The Christian News" under his +spectacles. The Sunday before the funeral of Mr Shushions had been so +unusual and so distressing that Darius had fallen into arrear with his +perusals. True, he had never been known to read "The Christian News" on +any day but Sunday, but now every day was Sunday. + +Edwin nodded to him and approached the fire, rubbing his hands. + +"What's this as I hear?" Darius began, with melancholy softness. + +"Eh?" + +"About Albert wanting to borrow a thousand pounds?" Darius gazed at him +over his spectacles. + +"Albert wanting to borrow a thousand pounds!" Edwin repeated, +astounded. + +"Aye! Have they said naught to you?" + +"No," said Edwin. "What is it?" + +"Clara and your aunt have both been at me since tea. Some tale as +Albert can amalgamate into partnership with Hope and Carters if he can +put down a thousand. Then Albert's said naught to ye?" + +"No, he hasn't!" Edwin exclaimed, emphasising each word with a peculiar +fierceness. It was as if he had said, "I should like to catch him +saying anything to me about it!" + +He was extremely indignant. It seemed to him monstrous that those two +women should thus try to snatch an advantage from his father's weakness, +pitifully mean and base. He could not understand how people could bring +themselves to do such things, nor how, having done them, they could ever +look their fellows in the face again. Had they no shame? They would +not let a day pass; but they must settle on the old man instantly, like +flies on a carcass! He could imagine the plottings, the hushed +chatterings; the acting-for-the-best demeanour of that cursed woman +Auntie Hamps (yes, he now cursed her), and the candid greed of his +sister. + +"You wouldn't do it, would ye?" Darius asked, in a tone that expected a +negative answer; but also with a rather plaintive appeal, as though he +were depending on Edwin for moral support against the formidable forces +of attack. + +"I should not," said Edwin stoutly, touched by the strange wistful note +and by the glance. "Unless of course you really want to." + +He did not care in the least whether the money would or would not be +really useful and reasonably safe. He did not care whose enmity he was +risking. His sense of fair play was outraged, and he would salve it at +any cost. He knew that had his father not been struck down and +defenceless, these despicable people would never have dared to demand +money from him. That was the only point that mattered. + +The relief of Darius at Edwin's attitude in the affair was painful. +Hoping for sympathy from Edwin, he yet had feared in him another enemy. +Now he was reassured, and he could hide his feelings no better than a +child. + +"Seemingly they can't wait till my will's opened!" he murmured, with a +scarcely successful affectation of grimness. + +"Made a will, have you?" Edwin remarked, with an elaborate casualness +to imply that he had never till then given a thought to his father's +will, but that, having thought of the question, he was perhaps a very +little surprised that his father had indeed made a will. + +Darius nodded, quite benevolently. He seemed to have forgotten his deep +grievance against Edwin in the matter of cheque-signing. + +"Duncalf's got it," he murmured after a moment. Duncalf was the town +clerk and a solicitor. + +So the will was made! And he had submissively signed away all control +over all monetary transactions. What more could he do, except expire +with the minimum of fuss? Truly Darius, in the local phrase, was now +`laid aside'! And of all the symptoms of his decay the most striking +and the most tragic, to Edwin, was that he showed no curiosity whatever +about business. Not one single word of inquiry had he uttered. + +"You'll want shaving," said Edwin, in a friendly way. + +Darius passed a hand over his face. He had ceased years ago to shave +himself, and had a subscription at Dick Jones's in Aboukir Street, close +by the shop. + +"Aye!" + +"Shall I send the barber up, or shall you let it grow?" + +"What do you think?" + +"Oh!" Edwin drawled, characteristically hesitating. Then he remembered +that he was the responsible head of the family of Clayhanger. "I think +you might let it grow," he decided. + +And when he had issued the verdict, it seemed to him like a sentence of +sequestration and death on his father... `Let it grow! What does it +matter?' Such was the innuendo. + +"You used to grow a full beard once, didn't you?" he asked. + +"Yes," said Darius. + +That made the situation less cruel. + + + +VOLUME THREE, CHAPTER EIGHT. + +A CHANGE OF MIND. + +One evening, a year later, in earliest summer of 1887, Edwin and Mr +Osmond Orgreave were walking home together from Hanbridge. When they +reached the corner of the street leading to Lane End House, Osmond +Orgreave said, stopping-- + +"Now you'll come with us?" And he looked Edwin hard in the eyes, and +there was a most flattering appeal in his voice. It was some time since +their eyes had met frankly, for Edwin had recently been having +experience of Mr Orgreave's methods in financial controversy, and it +had not been agreeable. + +After an instant Edwin said heartily-- + +"Yes, I think I'll come. Of course I should like to. But I'll let you +know." + +"To-night?" + +"Yes, to-night." + +"I shall tell my wife you're coming." + +Mr Orgreave waved a hand, and passed with a certain decorative gaiety +down the street. His hair was now silvern, but it still curled in the +old places, and his gestures had apparently not aged at all. + +Mr and Mrs Orgreave were going to London for the Jubilee celebrations. +So far as their family was concerned, they were going alone, because +Osmond had insisted humorously that he wanted a rest from his children. +But he had urgently invited Edwin to accompany them. At first Edwin had +instinctively replied that it was impossible. He could not leave home. +He had never been to London; a journey to London presented itself to him +as an immense enterprise, almost as a piece of culpable self-indulgence. +And then, under the stimulus of Osmond's energetic and adventurous +temperament, he had said to himself, "Why not? Why shouldn't I?" + +The arguments favoured his going. It was absurd and scandalous that he +had never been to London: he ought for his self-respect to depart +thither at once. The legend of the Jubilee, spectacular, processional, +historic, touched his imagination. Whenever he thought of it, his fancy +saw pennons and corselets and chargers winding through stupendous +streets, and, somewhere in the midst, the majesty of England in the +frail body of a little old lady, who had had many children and one +supreme misfortune. Moreover, he could incidentally see Charlie. +Moreover, he had been suffering from a series of his customary colds, +and from overwork, and Heve had told him that he `would do with a +change.' Moreover, he had a project for buying paper in London: he had +received, from London, overtures which seemed promising. He had never +been able to buy paper quite as cheaply as Darius had bought paper, for +the mere reason that he could not haggle over sixteenths of a penny with +efficient ruthlessness; he simply could not do it, being somehow ashamed +to do it. In Manchester, where Darius had bought paper for thirty +years, they were imperceptibly too brutal for Edwin in the harsh +realities of a bargain; they had no sense of shame. He thought that in +letters from London he detected a softer spirit. + +And above all he desired, by accepting Mr Orgreave's invitation, to +show to the architect that the differences between them were really +expunged from his mind. Among many confusions in his father's +flourishing but disorderly affairs, Edwin had been startled to find the +Orgreave transactions. There were accounts and contra-accounts, and +quantities of strangely contradictory documents. Never had a real +settlement occurred between Darius and Osmond. And Osmond did not seem +to want one. Edwin, however, with his old-maid's passion for putting +and keeping everything in its place, insisted on one. Mr Orgreave had +to meet him on his strongest point, his love of order. The process of +settlement had been painful to Edwin; it had seriously marred some of +his illusions. Nearly the last of the entanglements in his father's +business, the Orgreave matter was straightened and closed now; and the +projected escapade to London would bury it deep, might even restore +agreeable illusions. And Edwin was incapable of nursing malice. + +The best argument of all was that he had a right to go to London. He +had earned London, by honest and severe work, and by bearing firmly the +huge weight of his responsibility. So far he had offered himself no +reward whatever, not even an increase of salary, not even a week of +freedom or the satisfaction of a single caprice. + +"I shall go, and charge it to the business," he said to himself. He +became excited about going. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +As he approached his house, he saw the elder Heve, vicar of Saint +Peter's, coming away from it, a natty clerical figure in a straw hat of +peculiar shape. Recently this man had called once or twice; not +professionally, for Darius was neither a churchman nor a parishioner, +but as a brother of Dr Heve's, as a friendly human being, and Darius +had been flattered. The Vicar would talk about Jesus with quiet +half-humorous enthusiasm. For him at any rate Christianity was grand +fun. He seemed never to be solemn over his religion, like the +Wesleyans. He never, with a shamed, defiant air, said, "I am not +ashamed of Christ," like the Wesleyans. He might have known Christ +slightly at Cambridge. But his relations with Christ did not make him +conceited, nor condescending. And if he was concerned about the welfare +of people who knew not Christ, he hid his concern in the politest +manner. Edwin, after being momentarily impressed by him, was now +convinced of his perfect mediocrity; the Vicar's views on literature had +damned him eternally in the esteem of Edwin, who was still naive enough +to be unable to comprehend how a man who had been to Cambridge could +speak enthusiastically of "Uncle Tom's Cabin." Moreover, Edwin despised +him for his obvious pride in being a bachelor. The Vicar would not say +that a priest should be celibate, but he would, with delicacy, imply as +much. Then also, for Edwin's taste, the parson was somewhat too +childishly interested in the culture of cellar-mushrooms, which was his +hobby. He would recount the tedious details of all his experiments to +Darius, who, flattered by these attentions from the Established Church, +took immense delight in the Vicar and in the sample mushrooms offered to +him from time to time. + +Maggie stood in the porch, which commanded the descent into Bursley; she +was watching the Vicar as he receded. When Edwin appeared at the gate, +she gave a little jump, and he fancied that she also blushed. + +"Look here!" he exclaimed to himself, in a flash of suspicion. "Surely +she's not thinking of the Vicar! Surely Maggie isn't after all!" He +did not conceive it possible that the Vicar, who had been to Cambridge +and had notions about celibacy, was thinking of Maggie. "Women are +queer," he said to himself. (For him, this generalisation from facts +was quite original.) Fancy her staring after the Vicar! She must have +been doing it quite unconsciously! He had supposed that her attitude +towards the Vicar was precisely his own. He took it for granted that +the Vicar's attitude was the same to both of them, based on a polite and +kindly but firm recognition that there could be no genuine sympathy +between him and them. + +"The Vicar's just been," said Maggie. + +"Has he? ... Cheered the old man up at all?" + +"Not much." Maggie shook her head gloomily. + +Edwin's conscience seemed to be getting ready to hint that he ought not +to go to London. + +"I say, Mag," he said quietly, as he inserted his stick in the +umbrella-stand. She stopped on her way upstairs, and then approached +him. + +"Mr Orgreave wants me to go to London with him and Mrs Orgreave." He +explained the whole project to her. + +She said at once, eagerly and benevolently-- + +"Of course you ought to go. It'll do you all the good in the world. I +shall be all right here. Clara and Albert will come for Jubilee Day, +anyhow. But haven't you driven it late? ... The day after to-morrow, +isn't it? Mr Heve was only saying just now that the hotels were all +crammed." + +"Well, you know what Orgreave is! I expect he'll look after all that." + +"You go!" Maggie enjoined him. + +"Won't upset him?" Edwin nodded vaguely to wherever Darius might be. + +"Can't be helped if it does," she replied calmly. + +"Well then, I'm dashed if I don't go! What about my collars?" + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +Those three--Darius, Maggie, and Edwin--sat down to tea in silence. The +window was open, and the weather very warm and gay. During the previous +twelve months they had sat down to hundreds of such meals. Save for a +few brief periods of cheerfulness, Darius had steadily grown more +taciturn, heavy and melancholy. In the winter he had of course +abandoned his attempts to divert himself by gardening--attempts at the +best half-hearted and feeble--and he had not resumed them in the spring. +Less than half a year previously he had often walked across the fields +to Hillport and back, or up the gradual slopes to the height of Toft +End--he never went townwards, had not once visited the Conservative +Club. But now he could not even be persuaded to leave the garden. An +old wicker arm-chair had been placed at the end of the garden, and he +would set out for that arm-chair as upon a journey, and, having reached +it, would sink into it with a huge sigh, and repose before bracing +himself to the effort of return. + +And now it seemed marvellous that he had ever had the legs to get to +Hillport and to Toft End. He existed in a stupor of dull reflection, +from pride pretending to read and not reading, or pretending to listen +and not listening, and occasionally making a remark which was inapposite +but which had to be humoured. And as the weeks passed his children's +manner of humouring him became increasingly perfunctory, and their +movements in putting right the negligence of his attire increasingly +brusque. Vainly they tried to remember in time that he was a victim and +not a criminal; they would remember after the careless remark and after +the curt gesture, when it was too late. His malady obsessed them: it +was in the air of the house, omnipresent; it weighed upon them, +corroding the nerve and exasperating the spirit. Now and then, when +Darius had vented a burst of irrational anger, they would say to each +other with casual bitterness that really he was too annoying. Once, +when his demeanour towards the new servant had strongly suggested that +he thought her name was Bathsheba, Mrs Nixon herself had `flown out' at +him, and there had been a scene which the doctor had soothed by discreet +professional explanations. Maggie's difficulty was that he was always +there, always on the spot. To be free of him she must leave the house; +and Maggie was not fond of leaving the house. + +Edwin meant to inform him briefly of his intention to go to London, but +such was the power of habit that he hesitated; he could not bring +himself to announce directly this audacious and unprecedented act of +freedom, though he knew that his father was as helpless as a child in +his hands. Instead, he began to talk about the renewal of the lease of +the premises in Duck Square, as to which it would be necessary to give +notice to the landlord at the end of the month. + +"I've been thinking I'll have it made out in my own name," he said. +"It'll save you signing, and so on." This in itself was a proposal +sufficiently startling, and he would not have been surprised at a +violent instinctive protest from Darius; but Darius seemed not to heed. + +Then both Edwin and Maggie noticed that he was trying to hold a sausage +firm on his plate with his knife, and to cut it with his fork. + +"No, no, father!" said Maggie gently. "Not like that!" + +He looked up, puzzled, and then bent himself again to the plate. The +whole of his faculties seemed to be absorbed in a great effort to +resolve the complicated problem of the plate, the sausage, the knife and +the fork. + +"You've got your knife in the wrong hand," said Edwin impatiently, as to +a wilful child. + +Darius stared at the knife and at the fork, and he then sighed, and his +sigh meant, "This business is beyond me!" Then he endeavoured to +substitute the knife for the fork, but he could not. + +"See," said Edwin, leaning over. "Like this!" He took the knife, but +Darius would not loose it. "No, leave go!" he ordered. "Leave go! How +can I show you if you don't leave go?" + +Darius dropped both knife and fork with a clatter. Edwin put the knife +into his right hand, and the fork into his left; but in a moment they +were wrong again. At first Edwin could not believe that his father was +not indulging deliberately in naughtiness. + +"Shall I cut it up for you, father?" Maggie asked, in a mild, +persuasive tone. + +Darius pushed the plate towards her. + +When she had cut up the sausage, she said-- + +"There you are! I'll keep the knife. Then you can't get mixed up." + +And Darius ate the sausage with the fork alone. His intelligence had +failed to master the original problem presented to it. He ate steadily +for a few moments, and then the tears began to roll down his cheek, and +he ate no more. + +This incident, so simple, so unexpected, and so dramatic, caused the +most acute distress. And its effect was disconcerting in the highest +degree. It reminded everybody that what Darius suffered from was +softening of the brain. For long he had been a prisoner in the house +and garden. For long he had been almost mute. And now, just after a +visit which usually acted upon him as a tonic, he had begun to lose the +skill to feed himself. Little by little he was demonstrating, by his +slow declension from it, the wonder of the standard of efficiency +maintained by the normal human being. + +Edwin and Maggie avoided one another, even in their glances. Each +affected the philosophical, seeking to diminish the significance of the +episode. But neither succeeded. Of the two years allotted to Darius, +one had gone. What would the second be? + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +In his bedroom, after tea, Edwin fought against the gloomy influence, +but uselessly. The inherent and appalling sadness of existence +enveloped and chilled him. He gazed at the rows of his books. He had +done no regular reading of late. Why read? He gazed at the screen in +front of his bed, covered with neat memoranda. How futile! Why go to +London? He would only have to come back from London! And then he said +resistingly, "I _will_ go to London." But as he said it aloud, he knew +well that he would not go. His conscience would not allow him to +depart. He could not leave Maggie alone with his father. He yielded to +his conscience unkindly, reluctantly, with no warm gust of +unselfishness; he yielded because he could not outrage his abstract +sense of justice. + +From the window he perceived Maggie and Janet Orgreave talking together +over the low separating wall. And he remembered a word of Janet's to +the effect that she and Maggie were becoming quite friendly and that +Maggie was splendid. Suddenly he went downstairs into the garden. They +were talking in attitudes of intimacy; and both were grave and mature, +and both had a little cleft under the chin. Their pale frocks +harmonised in the evening light. As he approached, Maggie burst into a +girlish laugh. "Not really?" she murmured, with the vivacity of a young +girl. He knew not what they were discussing, nor did he care. What +interested him, what startled him, was the youthful gesture and tone of +Maggie. It pleased and touched him to discover another Maggie in the +Maggie of the household. Those two women had put on for a moment the +charming, chattering silliness of schoolgirls. He joined them. On the +lawn of the Orgreaves, Alicia was battling fiercely at tennis with an +elegant young man whose name he did not know. Croquet was deposed; +tennis reigned. + +Even Alicia's occasional shrill cry had a mournful quality in the +languishing beauty of the evening. + +"I wish you'd tell your father I shan't be able to go to-morrow," Edwin +said to Janet. + +"But he's told all of us you _are_ going!" Janet exclaimed. + +"Shan't you go?" Maggie questioned, low. + +"No," he murmured. Glancing at Janet, he added, "It won't do for me to +go." + +"What a pity!" Janet breathed. + +Maggie did not say, "Oh! But you ought to! There's no reason whatever +why you shouldn't!" By her silence she contradicted the philosophic +nonchalance of her demeanour during the latter part of the meal. + + + +VOLUME THREE, CHAPTER NINE. + +THE OX. + +Edwin walked idly down Trafalgar Road in the hot morning sunshine of +Jubilee Day. He had left his father tearfully sentimentalising about +the Queen. `She's a good 'un!' Then a sob. `Never was one like her!' +Another sob. `No, and never will be again!' Then a gush of tears on +the newspaper, which the old man laboriously scanned for details of the +official programme in London. He had not for months read the newspaper +with such a determined effort to understand; indeed, since the beginning +of his illness, no subject, except mushroom-culture, had interested him +so much as the Jubilee. Each time he looked at the sky from his shady +seat in the garden he had thanked God that it was a fine day, as he +might have thanked Him for deliverance from a grave personal disaster. + +Except for a few poor flags, there was no sign of gaiety in Trafalgar +Road. The street, the town, and the hearts of those who remained in it, +were wrapped in that desolating sadness which envelops the provinces +when a supreme spectacular national rejoicing is centralised in London. +All those who possessed the freedom, the energy, and the money had gone +to London to witness a sight that, as every one said to every one, would +be unique, and would remain unique for ever--and yet perhaps less to +witness it than to be able to recount to their grandchildren that they +had witnessed it. Many more were visiting nearer holiday resorts for a +day or two days. Those who remained, the poor, the spiritless, the +afflicted, and the captive, felt with mournful keenness the shame of +their utter provinciality, envying the crowds in London with a bitter +envy, and picturing London as the paradise of fashion and splendour. + +It was from sheer aimless disgust that Edwin went down Trafalgar Road; +he might as easily have gone up. Having arrived in the town, a +wilderness of shut shops, he gazed a moment at his own, and then entered +it by the side door. He had naught else to do. Had he chosen he could +have spent the whole day in reading, or he might have taken again to his +long-neglected water-colours. But it was not in him to put himself to +the trouble of seeking contentment. He preferred to wallow in utter +desolation, thinking of all the unpleasant things that had ever happened +to him, and occasionally conjecturing what he would have been doing at a +given moment had he accompanied the jolly, the distinguished, and the +enterprising Osmond Orgreave to London. + +He passed into the shop, sufficiently illuminated by the white rays that +struck through the diamond holes in the shutters. The morning's +letters--a sparse company--lay forlorn on the floor. He picked them up +and pitched them down in the cubicle. Then he went into the cubicle, +and with the negligent gesture of long habit unlocked a part of the +desk, the part which had once been his father's privacy, and of which he +had demanded the key more than a year ago. It was all now under his +absolute dominion. He could do exactly as he pleased with a commercial +apparatus that brought in some eight hundred pounds a year net. He was +the unquestioned regent, and yet he told himself that he was no happier +than when a slave. + +He drew forth his books of account, and began to piece figures together +on backs of envelopes, using a shorthand of accounts such as a principal +will use when he is impatient and not particular to a few pounds. A +little wasp of curiosity was teasing Edwin, and to quicken it a +comparison was necessary between the result of the first six months of +that year and the first six months of the previous year. True, June had +not quite expired, but most of the quarterly accounts were ready, and he +could form a trustworthy estimate. Was he, with his scorn of his +father, his brains, his orderliness, doing better or worse than his +father in the business? At the election of 1886, there had been +considerably fewer orders than was customary at elections; he had done +nothing whatever for the Tories, but that was a point that affected +neither period of six months. Sundry customers had assuredly been lost; +on the other hand, Stifford's travelling had seemed to be very +satisfactory. Nor could it be argued that money had been dropped on the +new-book business, because he had not yet inaugurated the new-book +business, preferring to wait; he was afraid that his father might after +all astoundingly walk in one day, and see new books on the counter, and +rage. He had stopped the supplying of newspapers, and would deign to +nothing lower than a sixpenny magazine; but the profit on newspapers was +negligible. + +The totals ought surely to compare in a manner favourable to himself, +for he had been extremely and unremittingly conscientious. Nevertheless +he was afraid. He was afraid because he knew, vaguely and still deeply, +that he could neither buy nor sell as well as his father. It was not a +question of brains; it was a question of individuality. A sense of +honour, of fairness, a temperamental generosity, a hatred of meanness, +often prevented him from pushing a bargain to the limit. He could not +bring himself to haggle desperately. And even when price was not the +main difficulty, he could not talk to a customer, or to a person whose +customer he was, with the same rough, gruff, cajoling, bullying skill as +his father. He could not, by taking thought, do what his father had +done naturally, by the mere blind exercise of instinct. His father, +with all his clumsiness, and his unscientific methods, had a certain +quality, unseizable, unanalysable, and Edwin had not that quality. + +He caught himself, in the rapid calculating, giving himself the benefit +of every doubt; somehow he could not help it, childish as it was. And +even so, he could see, or he could feel, that the comparison was not +going to be favourable to the regent. It grew plainer that the volume +of business had barely been maintained, and it was glaringly evident +that the expenses, especially wages, had sensibly increased. He +abandoned the figures not quite finished, partly from weary disgust, and +partly because Big James most astonishingly walked into the shop, from +the back. He was really quite glad to encounter Big James, a +fellow-creature. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +"Seeing the door open, sir," said Big James cheerfully, through the +narrow doorway of the cubicle, "I stepped in to see as it was no one +unlawful." + +"Did I leave the side door open?" Edwin murmured. It was surprising +even to himself, how forgetful he was at times, he with his mania for +orderliness! + +Big James was in his best clothes, and seemed, with his indestructible +blandness, to be perfectly happy. + +"I was just strolling up to have a look at the ox," he added. + +"Oh!" said Edwin. "Are they cooking it?" + +"They should be, sir. But my fear is it may turn, in this weather." + +"I'll come out with you," said Edwin, enlivened. + +He locked the desk, and hurriedly straightened a few things, and then +they went out together, by Wedgwood Street and the Cock Yard up to the +market-place. No breeze moved, and the heat was tremendous. And there +at the foot of the Town Hall tower, and in its scanty shadow, a dead ox, +slung by its legs from an iron construction, was frizzling over a great +primitive fire. The vast flanks of the animal, all rich yellows and +browns, streamed with grease, some of which fell noisily on the almost +invisible flames, while the rest was ingeniously caught in a system of +runnels. The spectacle was obscene, nauseating to the eye, the nose, +and the ear, and it powerfully recalled to Edwin the legends of the +Spanish Inquisition. He speculated whether he would ever be able to +touch beef again. Above the tortured and insulted corpse the air +quivered in large waves. Mr Doy, the leading butcher of Bursley, and +now chief executioner, regarded with anxiety the operation which had +been entrusted to him, and occasionally gave instructions to a myrmidon. +Round about stood a few privileged persons, whom pride helped to bear +the double heat; and farther off on the pavements, a thin scattered +crowd. The sublime spectacle of an ox roasted whole had not sufficed to +keep the townsmen in the town. Even the sages who had conceived and +commanded this peculiar solemnity for celebrating the Jubilee of a Queen +and Empress had not stayed in the borough to see it enacted, though some +of them were to return in time to watch the devouring of the animal by +the aged poor at a ceremonial feast in the evening. + +"It's a grand sight!" said Big James, with simple enthusiasm. "A grand +sight! Real old English! And I wish her well!" He meant the Queen and +Empress. Then suddenly, in a different tone, sniffing the air, "I doubt +it's turned! I'll step across and ask Mr Doy." + +He stepped across, and came back with the news that the greater portion +of the ox, despite every precaution, had in fact very annoyingly +`turned,' and that the remainder of the carcass was in serious danger. + +"What'll the old people say?" he demanded sadly. "But it's a grand +sight, turned or not!" + +Edwin stared and stared, in a sort of sinister fascination. He thought +that he might stare for ever. At length, after ages of ennui, he loosed +himself from the spell with an effort and glanced at Big James. + +"And what are you going to do with yourself to-day, James?" + +Big James smiled. "I'm going to take my walks abroad, sir. It's seldom +as I get about in the town nowadays." + +"Well, I must be off!" + +"I'd like you to give my respects to the old gentleman, sir." + +Edwin nodded and departed, very slowly and idly, towards Trafalgar Road +and Bleakridge. He pulled his straw hat over his forehead to avoid the +sun, and then he pushed it backwards to his neck to avoid the sun. The +odour of the shrivelling ox remained with him; it was in his nostrils +for several days. His heart grew blacker with intense gloom; and the +contentment of Big James at the prospect of just strolling about the +damnable dead town for the rest of the day surpassed his comprehension. +He abandoned himself to misery voluptuously. The afternoon and evening +stretched before him, an arid and appalling Sahara. The Benbows, and +their babes, and Auntie Hamps were coming for dinner and tea, to cheer +up grandfather. He pictured the repasts with savage gloating +detestation--burnt ox, and more burnt ox, and the false odious +brightness of a family determined to be mutually helpful and inspiring. +Since his refusal to abet the project of a loan to Albert, Clara had +been secretly hostile under her superficial sisterliness, and Auntie +Hamps had often assured him, in a manner extraordinarily exasperating, +that she was convinced he had acted conscientiously for the best. +Strange thought, that after eight hours of these people and of his +father, he would be still alive! + + + +VOLUME THREE, CHAPTER TEN. + +MRS. HAMPS AS A YOUNG MAN. + +On the Saturday afternoon of the week following the Jubilee, Edwin and +Mrs Hamps were sunning themselves in the garden, when Janet's face and +shoulders appeared suddenly at the other side of the wall. At the sight +of Mrs Hamps she seemed startled and intimidated, and she bowed +somewhat more ceremoniously than usual. + +"Good afternoon!" + +Then Mrs Hamps returned the bow with superb extravagance, like an +Oriental monarch who is determined to outvie magnificently the gifts of +another. Mrs Hamps became conscious of the whole of her body and of +every article of her summer apparel, and nothing of it all was allowed +to escape from contributing to the completeness of the bow. She +bridled. She tossed proudly as it were against the bit. And the rich +ruins of her handsomeness adopted new and softer lines in the +overpowering sickly blandishment of a smile. Thus she always greeted +any merely formal acquaintance whom she considered to be above herself +in status--provided, of course, that the acquaintance had done nothing +to offend her. + +"Good after_noon_, Miss Orgreave!" + +Reluctantly she permitted her features to relax from the full effort of +the smile; but they might not abandon it entirely. + +"I thought Maggie was there," said Janet. + +"She was, a minute ago," Edwin answered. "She's just gone in to father. +She'll be out directly. Do you want her?" + +"I only wanted to tell her something," said Janet, and then paused. + +She was obviously very excited. She had the little quick movements of a +girl. In her cream-tinted frock she looked like a mere girl. And she +was beautiful in her maturity; a challenge to the world of males. As +she stood there, rising from behind the wall, flushed, quivering, +abandoned to an emotion and yet unconsciously dignified by that peculiar +stateliness that never left her--as she stood there it seemed as if she +really was offering a challenge. + +"I'll fetch Mag, if you like," said Edwin. + +"Well," said Janet, lifting her chin proudly, "it isn't a secret. +Alicia's engaged." And pride was in every detail of her bearing. + +"Well, I never!" Edwin exclaimed. + +Mrs Hamps's features resumed the full smile. + +"Can you imagine it? I can't! It seems only last week that she left +school!" + +And indeed it seemed only last week that Alicia was nothing but legs, +gawkiness, blushes, and screwed-up shoulders. And now she was a +destined bride. She had caught and enchanted a youth by her mysterious +attractiveness. She had been caught and enchanted by the mysterious +attractiveness of the male. She had known the dreadful anxiety that +precedes the triumph, and the ecstasy of surrender. She had kissed as +Janet had never kissed, and gazed as Janet had never gazed. She knew +infinitely more than Janet. She had always been a child to Janet, but +now Janet was the child. No wonder that Janet was excited. + +"Might one ask who is the fortunate young gentleman?" Mrs Hamps +dulcetly inquired. + +"It's Harry Hesketh, from Oldcastle... You've met him here," she added, +glancing at Edwin. + +Mrs Hamps nodded, satisfied, and the approving nod indicated that she +was aware of all the excellences of the Hesketh family. + +"The tennis man!" Edwin murmured. + +"Yes, of course! You aren't surprised, are you?" + +The fact was that Edwin had not given a thought to the possible +relations between Alicia and any particular young man. But Janet's +thrilled air so patently assumed his interest that he felt obliged to +make a certain pretence. + +"I'm not what you'd call staggered," he said roguishly. "I'm keeping my +nerve." And he gave her an intimate smile. + +"Father-in-law and son-in-law have just been talking it over," said +Janet archly, "in the breakfast-room! Alicia thoughtfully went out for +a walk. I'm dying for her to come back." Janet laughed from simple +joyous expectation. "When Harry came out of the breakfast-room he just +put his arms round me and kissed me. Yes! That was how I was told +about it. He's a dear! Don't you think so? I mean really! I felt I +must come and tell some one." + +Edwin had never seen her so moved. Her emotion was touching, it was +beautiful. She need not have said that she had come because she must. +The fact was in her rapt eyes. She was under a spell. + +"Well, I must go!" she said, with a curious brusqueness. Perhaps she +had a dim perception that she was behaving in a manner unusual with her. +"You'll tell your sister." + +Her departing bow to Mrs Hamps had the formality of courts, and was +equalled by Mrs Hamps's bow. Just as Mrs Hamps, having re-created her +elaborate smile, was allowing it finally to expire, she had to bring it +into existence once more, and very suddenly, for Janet returned to the +wall. + +"You won't forget tennis after tea," said Janet shortly. + +Edwin said that he should not. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +"Well, well!" Mrs Hamps commented, and sat down in the wicker-chair of +Darius. + +"I wonder she doesn't get married herself," said Edwin idly, having +nothing in particular to remark. + +"You're a nice one to say such a thing!" Mrs Hamps exclaimed. + +"Why?" + +"Well, you really are!" She raised the structure of her bonnet and +curls, and shook it slowly at him. And her gaze had an extraordinary +quality of fleshly naughtiness that half pleased and half annoyed him. + +"Why?" he repeated. + +"Well," she said again, "you aren't a ninny, and you aren't a simpleton. +At least I hope not. You must know as well as anybody the name of the +young gentleman that _she's_ waiting for." + +In spite of himself, Edwin blushed: he blushed more and more. Then he +scowled. + +"What nonsense!" he muttered viciously. He was entirely sincere. The +notion that Janet was waiting for him had never once crossed his mind. +It seemed to him fantastic, one of those silly ideas that a woman such +as Auntie Hamps would be likely to have, or more accurately would be +likely to pretend to have. Still, it did just happen that on this +occasion his auntie's expression was more convincing than usual. She +seemed more human than usual, to have abandoned, at any rate partially, +the baffling garment of effusive insincerity in which she hid her soul. +The Eve in her seemed to show herself, and, looking forth from her eyes, +to admit that the youthful dalliance of the sexes was alone interesting +in this life of strict piety. The revelation was uncanny. + +"You needn't talk like that," she retorted calmly, "unless you want to +go down in my good opinion. You don't mean to tell me honestly that you +don't know what's been the talk of the town for years and years!" + +"It's ridiculous," said Edwin. "Why--what do you know of her--you don't +know the Orgreaves at all!" + +"I know _that_, anyway," said Auntie Hamps. + +"Oh! Stuff!" He grew impatient. + +And yet, in his extreme astonishment, he was flattered and delighted. + +"Of course," said Auntie Hamps, "you're so difficult to talk to--" + +"Difficult to talk to!--Me?" + +"Otherwise your auntie might have given you a hint long ago. I believe +you are a simpleton after all! I cannot understand what's come over the +young men in these days. Letting a girl like that wait and wait!" She +implied, with a faint scornful smile, that if she were a young man she +would be capable of playing the devil with the maidenhood of the town. +Edwin was rather hurt. And though he felt that he ought not to be +ashamed, yet he was ashamed. He divined that she was asking him how he +had the face to stand there before her, at his age, with his youth +unspilled. After all, she was an astounding woman. He remained silent. + +"Why--look how splendid it would be!" she murmured. "The very thing! +Everybody would be delighted!" + +He still remained silent. + +"But you can't keep on philandering for ever!" she said sharply. +"She'll never see thirty again! ... Why does she ask you to go and play +at tennis? Can you tell me that? ... perhaps I'm saying too much, but +this I _will_ say--" + +She stopped. + +Darius and Maggie appeared at the garden door. Maggie offered her hand +to aid her father, but he repulsed it. Calmly she left him, and came up +the garden, out of the deep shadow into the sunshine. She had learnt +the news of the engagement, and had fully expressed her feelings about +it before Darius arrived at his destination and Mrs Hamps vacated the +wicker-chair. + +"I'll get some chairs," said Edwin gruffly. He could look nobody in the +eyes. As he turned away he heard Mrs Hamps say-- + +"Great news, father! Alicia Orgreave is engaged!" + +The old man made no reply. His mere physical present deprived the +betrothal of all its charm. The news fell utterly flat and lay +unregarded and insignificant. + +Edwin did not get the chairs. He sent the servant out with them. + + + +VOLUME THREE, CHAPTER ELEVEN. + +AN HOUR. + +Janet called out--"Play--no, I think perhaps you'll do better if you +stand a little farther back. Now--play!" + +She brought down her lifted right arm, and smacked the ball into the +net. + +"Double fault!" she cried, lamenting, when she had done this twice. "Oh +dear! Now you go over to the other side of the court." + +Edwin would not have kept the rendezvous could he have found an excuse +satisfactory to himself for staying away. He was a beginner at tennis, +and a very awkward one, having little aptitude for games, and being now +inelastic in the muscles. He possessed no flannels, though for weeks he +had been meaning to get at least a pair of white pants. He was wearing +Jimmie Orgreave's india-rubber pumps, which admirably fitted him. +Moreover, he was aware that he looked better in his jacket than in his +shirt-sleeves. But these reasons against the rendezvous were naught. +The only genuine reason was that he had felt timid about meeting Janet. +Could he meet her without revealing by his mere guilty glance that his +aunt had half convinced him that he had only to ask nicely in order to +receive? Could he meet her without giving her the impression that he +was a conceited ass? He had met her. She was waiting for him in the +garden, and by dint of starting the conversation in loud tones from a +distance, and fumbling a few moments with the tennis balls before +approaching her, he had come through the encounter without too much +foolishness. + +And now he was glad that he had not been so silly as to stay away. She +was alone; Mrs Orgreave was lying down, and all the others were out. +Alicia and her Harry were off together somewhere. She was alone in the +garden, and she was beautiful, and the shaded garden was beautiful, and +the fading afternoon. The soft short grass was delicate to his feet, +and round the oval of the lawn were glimpses of flowers, and behind her +clear-tinted frock was the yellow house laced over with green. A column +of thick smoke rose from a manufactory close behind the house, but the +trees mitigated it. He played perfunctorily, uninterested in the game, +dreaming. + +She was a wondrous girl! She was the perfect girl! Nobody had ever +been able to find any fault with her. He liked her exceedingly. Had it +been necessary, he would have sacrificed his just interests in the +altercation with her father in order to avoid a coolness in which she +might have been involved. She was immensely distinguished and superior. +And she was over thirty and had never been engaged, despite the number +and variety of her acquaintances, despite her challenging readiness to +flirt, and her occasional coquetries. Ten years ago he had almost +regarded her as a madonna on a throne, so high did she seem to be above +him. His ideas had changed, but there could be no doubt that in an +alliance between an Orgreave and a Clayhanger, it would be the +Clayhanger who stood to gain the greater advantage. There she was! If +she was not waiting for him, she was waiting--for some one! Why not for +him as well as for another? + +He said to himself-- + +"Why shouldn't I be happy? That other thing is all over!" + +It was, in fact, years since the name of Hilda had ever been mentioned +between them. Why should he not be happy? There was nothing to prevent +her from being happy. His father's illness could not endure for ever. +One day soon he would be free in theory as well as in practice. With no +tie and no duty (Maggie was negligible) he would have both money and +position. What might his life not be with a woman like Janet, +brilliant, beautiful, elegant, and faithful? He pictured that life, and +even the vision of it dazzled him. Janet his! Janet always there, +presiding over a home which was his home, wearing hats that he had paid +for, appealing constantly to his judgement, and meaning _him_ when she +said, `My husband.' He saw her in the close and tender intimacy of +marriage, acquiescent, exquisite, yielding, calmly accustomed to him, +modest, but with a different modesty! It was a vision surpassing +visions. And there she was on the other side of the net! + +With her he could be his finest self. He would not have to hide his +finest self from ridicule, as often now, among his own family. + +She was a fine woman! He watched the free movement of her waist, and +the curvings and flyings of her short tennis skirt. And there was +something strangely feminine about the neck of her blouse, now that he +examined it. + +"Your game!" she cried. "That's four double faults I've served. I +can't play! I really don't think I can. There's something the matter +with me! Or else it's the net that's too high. Those boys will keep +screwing it up!" + +She had a pouting, capricious air, and it delighted him. Never had he +seen her so enchantingly girlish as, by a curious hazard, he saw her +now. Why should he not he happy? Why should he not wake up out of his +nightmare and begin to live? In a momentary flash he seemed to see his +past in a true perspective, as it really was, as some well-balanced +person not himself would have seen it. Mere morbidity to say, as he had +been saying privately for years, that marriage was not for him! +Marriage emphatically was for him, if only because he had fine ideals of +it. Most people who married were too stupid to get the value of their +adventure. Celibacy was grotesque, cowardly, and pitiful--no matter how +intellectual the celibate--and it was no use pretending the contrary. + +A masculine gesture, an advance, a bracing of the male in him ... +probably nothing else was needed. + +"Well," he said boldly, "if you don't want to play, let's sit down and +rest." And then he gave a nervous little laugh. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +They sat down on the bench that was shaded by the old elderberry tree. +Visually, the situation had all the characteristics of an idyllic +courtship. + +"I suppose it's Alicia's engagement," she said, smiling reflectively, +"that's put me off my game. They do upset you, those things do, and you +don't know why... It isn't as if Alicia was the first--I mean of us +girls. There was Marian; but then, of course, that was so long ago, and +I was only a chit." + +"Yes," he murmured vaguely; and though she seemed to be waiting for him +to say more, he merely repeated, "Yes." + +Such was his sole contribution to this topic, so suitable to the +situation, so promising, so easy of treatment. They were so friendly +that he was under no social obligation to talk for the sake of talking. + +That was it: they were too friendly. She sat within a foot of him, +reclining against the sloping back of the bench, and idly dangling one +white-shod foot; her long hands lay on her knees. She was there in all +her perfection. But by some sinister magic, as she had approached him +and their paths had met at the bench, his vision had faded. Now, she +was no longer a woman and he a man. Now, the curvings of her drapery +from the elegant waistband were no longer a provocation. She was +immediately beneath his eye, and he recognised her again for what she +was--Janet! Precisely Janet--no less and no more! But her beauty, her +charm, her faculty for affection--surely... No! His instinct was deaf +to all `buts.' His instinct did not argue; it cooled. Fancy had +created a vision in an instant out of an idea, and in an instant the +vision had died. He remembered Hilda with painful intensity. He +remembered the feel of her frock under his hand in the cubicle, and the +odour of her flesh that was like fruit. His cursed constancy! ... +Could he not get Hilda out of his bones? Did she sleep in his bones +like a malady that awakes whenever it is disrespectfully treated? + +He grew melancholy. Accustomed to savour the sadness of existence, he +soon accepted the new mood without resentment. + +He resigned himself to the destruction of his dream. He was like a +captive whose cell has been opened in mistake, and who is too gentle to +rave when he sees it shut again. Only in secret he poured an +indifferent, careless scorn upon Auntie Hamps. + +They played a whole interminable set, and then Edwin went home, possibly +marvelling at the variety of experience that a single hour may contain. + + + +VOLUME THREE, CHAPTER TWELVE. + +REVENGE. + +Edwin re-entered his home with a feeling of dismayed resignation. There +was then no escape, and never could be any escape, from the existence to +which he was accustomed; even after his father's death, his existence +would still be essentially the same--incomplete and sterile. He +accepted the destiny, but he was daunted by it. + +He quietly shut the front door, which had been ajar, and as he did so he +heard voices in the drawing-room. + +"I tell ye I'm going to grow mushrooms," Darius was saying. "Can't I +grow mushrooms in my own cellar?" Then a snort. + +"I don't think it'll be a good thing," was Maggie's calm reply. + +"Ye've said that afore. Why won't it be a good thing? And what's it +got to do with you?" The voice of Darius, ordinarily weak and languid, +was rising and becoming strong. + +"Well, you'd be falling up and down the cellar steps. You know how dark +they are. Supposing you hurt yourself?" + +"Ye'd only be too glad if I killed mysen!" said Darius, with a touch of +his ancient grimness. + +There was a pause. + +"And it seems they want a lot of attention, mushrooms do," Maggie went +on with unperturbed placidity. "You'd never be able to do it." + +"Jane could help me," said Darius, in the tone of one who is rather +pleased with an ingenious suggestion. + +"Oh no, she couldn't!" Maggie exclaimed, with a peculiar humorous +dryness which she employed only on the rarest occasions. Jane was the +desired Bathsheba. + +"And I say she could!" the old man shouted with surprising vigour. "Her +does nothing! What does Mrs Nixon do? What do you do? Three great +strapping women in the house and doing nought! I say she shall!" The +voice dropped and snarled. "Who's master here? Is it me, or is it the +cat? D'ye think as I can't turn ye all out of it neck and crop, if I've +a mind? You and Edwin, and the lot of ye! And to-night too! Give me +some money now, and quicker than that! I've got nought but sovereigns +and notes. I'll go down and get the spawn myself--ay! and order the +earth too! I'll make it my business to show my childer--But I mun have +some change for my car fares." He breathed heavily. + +"I'm sure Edwin won't like it," Maggie murmured. + +"Edwin! Hast told Edwin?" Darius also murmured, but it was a murmur of +rage. + +"No, I haven't. Edwin's got quite enough on his hands as it is, without +any other worries." + +There was the noise of a sudden movement, and of a chair falling. + +"Bugger you all!" Darius burst out with a fury whose restraint showed +that he had unsuspected reserves of strength. And then he began to +swear. Edwin, like many timid men, often used forbidden words with much +ferocity in private. Once he had had a long philosophic argument with +Tom Orgreave on the subject of profanity. They had discussed all +aspects of it, from its religious origin to its psychological results, +and Edwin's theory had been that it was only improper by a purely +superstitious convention, and that no man of sense could possibly be +offended, in himself, by the mere sound of words that had been deprived +of meaning. He might be offended on behalf of an unreasoning +fellow-listener, such as a woman, but not personally. Edwin now +discovered that his theory did not hold. He was offended. He was +almost horrified. He had never in his life till that moment heard +Darius swear. He heard him now. He considered himself to be a fairly +first-class authority on swearing; he thought that he was familiar with +all the sacred words and with all the combinations of them. He was +mistaken. His father's profanity was a brilliant and appalling +revelation. It comprised words which were strange to him, and strange +perversions that renewed the vigour of decrepit words. For Edwin, it +was a whole series of fresh formulae, brutal and shameless beyond his +experience, full of images and similes of the most startling candour, +and drawing its inspiration always from the sickening bases of life. +Darius had remembered with ease the vocabulary to which he was hourly +accustomed when he began life as a man of seven. For more than fifty +years he had carried within himself these vestiges of a barbarism which +his children had never even conceived, and now he threw them out in all +their crudity at his daughter. And when she did not blench, he began to +accuse her as men were used to accuse their daughters in the bright days +of the Sailor King. He invented enormities which she had committed, and +there would have been no obscene infamy of which Maggie was not guilty, +if Edwin--more by instinct than by volition--had not pushed open the +door and entered the drawing-room. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +He was angry, and the sight of the flushed meekness of his sister, as +she leaned quietly with her back against an easy-chair, made him +angrier. + +"Enough of this!" he said gruffly and peremptorily. + +Darius, with scarcely a break, continued. + +"I say enough of this!" Edwin cried, with increased harshness. + +The old man paused, half intimidated. With his pimpled face and glaring +eyes, his gleaming gold teeth, his frowziness of a difficult invalid, +his grimaces and gestures which were the result of a lifetime devoted to +gain, he made a loathsome object. Edwin hated him, and there was a +bitter contempt in his hatred. + +"I'm going to have that spawn, and I'm going to have some change! Give +me some money!" Darius positively hissed. + +Edwin grew nearly capable of homicide. All the wrongs that he had +suffered leaped up and yelled. + +"You'll have no money!" he said, with brutal roughness. "And you'll +grow no mushrooms! And let that be understood once for all! You've got +to behave in this house." + +Darius flickered up. + +"Do you hear?" Edwin stamped on the conflagration. + +It was extinguished. Darius, cowed, slowly and clumsily directed +himself towards the door. Once Edwin had looked forward to a moment +when he might have his father at his mercy, when he might revenge +himself for the insults and the bullying that had been his. Once he had +clenched his fist and his teeth, and had said, "When you're old, and +I've _got_ you, and you can't help yourself!" That moment had come, and +it had even enabled and forced him to refuse money to his father--refuse +money to his father! As he looked at the poor figure fumbling towards +the door, he knew the humiliating paltriness of revenge. As his anger +fell, his shame grew. + +Maggie lifted her eyebrows when Darius banged the door. + +"He can't help it," she said. + +"Of course he can't help it," said Edwin, defending himself, less to +Maggie than to himself. "But there must be a limit. He's got to be +kept in order, you know, even if he is an invalid." His heart was +perceptibly beating. + +"Yes, of course." + +"And evidently there's only one way of doing it. How long's he been on +this mushroom tack?" + +"Oh, not long." + +"Well, you ought to have told me," said Edwin, with the air of a master +of the house who is displeased. Maggie accepted the reproof. + +"He'd break his neck in the cellar before he knew where he was," Edwin +resumed. + +"Yes, he would," said Maggie, and left the room. + +Upon her placid features there was not the slightest trace of the +onslaught of profanity. The faint flush had paled away. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +The next morning, Sunday, Edwin came downstairs late, to the sound of +singing. In his soft carpet-slippers he stopped at the foot of the +stairs and tapped the weather-glass, after the manner of his father; and +listened. It was a duet for female voices that was being sung, composed +by Balfe to the words of the good Longfellow's "Excelsior." A pretty +thing, charming in its thin sentimentality; one of the few pieces that +Darius in former days really understood and liked. Maggie and Clara had +not sung it for years. For years they had not sung it at all. + +Edwin went to the doorway of the drawing-room and stood there. Clara, +in Sunday bonnet, was seated at the ancient piano; it had always been +she who had played the accompaniments. Maggie, nursing one of the +babies, sat on another chair, and leaned towards the page in order to +make out the words. She had half-forgotten the words, and Clara was no +longer at ease in the piano part, and their voices were shaky and +unruly, and the piano itself was exceedingly bad. A very indifferent +performance of indifferent music! And yet it touched Edwin. He could +not deny that by its beauty and by the sentiment of old times it touched +him. He moved a little forward in the doorway. Clara glanced at him, +and winked. Now he could see his father. Darius was standing at some +distance behind his daughters and his grandchild, and staring at them. +And the tears rained down from his red eyes, and then his emotion +overcame him and he blubbered, just as the duet finished. + +"Now, father," Clara protested cheerfully, "this won't do. You know you +asked for it. Give me the infant, Maggie." + +Edwin walked away. + + + +VOLUME THREE, CHAPTER THIRTEEN. + +THE JOURNEY UPSTAIRS. + +Late on another Saturday afternoon in the following March, when Darius +had been ill nearly two years, he and Edwin and Albert were sitting +round the remains of high tea together in the dining-room. Clara had +not been able to accompany her husband on what was now the customary +Saturday visit, owing to the illness of her fourth child. Mrs Hamps +was fighting chronic rheumatism at home. And Maggie had left the table +to cosset Mrs Nixon, who of late received more help than she gave. + +Darius sat in dull silence. The younger men were talking about the +Bursley Society for the Prosecution of Felons, of which Albert had just +been made a member. Whatever it might have been in the past, the +Society for the Prosecution of Felons was now a dining-club and little +else. Its annual dinner, admitted to be the chief oratorical event of +the year, was regarded as strictly exclusive, because no member, except +the president, had the right to bring a guest to it. Only `Felons,' as +they humorously named themselves, and the reporters of the "Signal," +might listen to the eloquence of Felons. Albert Benbow, who for years +had been hearing about the brilliant funniness of the American Consul at +these dinners, was so flattered by his Felonry that he would have been +ready to put the letters S P F after his name. + +"Oh, you'll have to join!" said he to Edwin, kindly urgent, like a man +who, recently married, goes about telling all bachelors that they +positively must marry at once. "You ought to get it fixed up before the +next feed." + +Edwin shook his head. Though he, too, dreamed of the Felons' Dinner as +a repast really worth eating, though he wanted to be a Felon, and +considered that he ought to be a Felon, and wondered why he was not +already a Felon, he repeatedly assured Albert that Felonry was not for +him. + +"You're a Felon, aren't you, dad?" Albert shouted at Darius. + +"Oh yes, father's a Felon," said Edwin. "Has been ever since I can +remember." + +"Did ye ever speak there?" asked Albert, with an air of good-humoured +condescension. + +Darius's elbow slipped violently off the tablecloth, and a knife fell to +the floor and a plate after it. Darius went pale. + +"All right! All right! Don't be alarmed, dad!" Albert reassured him, +picking up the things. "I was asking ye, did ye ever speak there--make +a speech?" + +"Yes," said Darius heavily. + +"Did you now!" Albert murmured, staring at Darius. And it was exactly +as if he had said, "Well, it's extraordinary that a foolish physical and +mental wreck such as you are now, should ever have had wit and courage +enough to rise and address the glorious Felons!" + +Darius glanced up at the gas, with a gesture that was among Edwin's +earliest recollections, and then he fixed his eyes dully on the fire, +with head bent and muscles lax. + +"Have a cigarette--that'll cheer ye up," said Albert. + +Darius made a negative sign. + +"He's very tired, seemingly," Albert remarked to Edwin, as if Darius had +not been present. + +"Yes," Edwin muttered, examining his father. Darius appeared ten years +older than his age. His thin hair was white, though the straggling +beard that had been allowed to grow was only grey. His face was sunken +and pale, but even more striking was the extreme pallor of the hands +with their long clean fingernails, those hands that had been red and +rough, tools of all work. His clothes hung somewhat loosely on him, and +a shawl round his shoulders was awry. The comatose melancholy in his +eyes was acutely painful to see--so much so that Edwin could not bear to +look long at them. "Father," Edwin asked him suddenly, "wouldn't you +like to go to bed?" + +And to his surprise Darius said, "Yes." + +"Well, come on then." + +Darius did not move. + +"Come on," Edwin urged. "I'm sure you're overtired, and you'll be +better in bed." + +He took his father by the arm, but there was no responsive movement. +Often Edwin noticed this capricious, obstinate attitude; his father +would express a wish to do a certain thing, and then would make no +effort to do it. "Come!" said Edwin more firmly, pulling at the +lifeless arm. Albert sprang up, and said that he would assist. One on +either side, they got Darius to his feet, and slowly walked him out of +the room. He was very exasperating. His weight and his inertia were +terrible. The spectacle suggested that either Darius was pretending to +be a carcass, or Edwin and Albert were pretending that a carcass was +alive. On the stairs there was not room for the three abreast. One had +to push, another to pull: Darius seemed wilfully to fall backwards if +pressure were released. Edwin restrained his exasperation; but though +he said nothing, his sharp half-vicious pull on that arm seemed to say, +"Confound you! Come up--will you!" The last two steps of the stair had +a peculiar effect on Darius. He appeared to shy at them, and then +finally to jib. It was no longer a reasonable creature that they were +getting upstairs, but an incalculable and mysterious beast. They lifted +him on to the landing, and he stood on the landing as if in his sleep. +Both Edwin and Albert were breathless. This was the man who since the +beginning of his illness had often walked to Hillport and back! It was +incredible that he had ever walked to Hillport and back. He passed more +easily along the landing. And then he was in his bedroom. + +"Father going to bed?" Maggie called out from below. + +"Yes," said Albert. "We've just been getting him upstairs." + +"Oh! That's right," Maggie said cheerfully. "I thought he was looking +very tired to-night." + +"He gave us a doing," said the breathless Albert in a low voice at the +door of the bedroom, smiling, and glancing at his cigarette to see if it +was still alight. + +"He does it on purpose, you know," Edwin whispered casually. "I'll just +get him to bed, and then I'll be down." + +Albert went, with a `good night' to Darius that received no answer. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +In the bedroom, Darius had sunk on to the cushioned ottoman. Edwin shut +the door. + +"Now then!" said Edwin encouragingly, yet commandingly. "I can tell you +one thing--you aren't losing weight." He had recovered from his +annoyance, but he was not disposed to submit to any trifling. For many +months now he had helped Darius to dress, when he came up from the shop +for breakfast, and to undress in the evening. It was not that his +father lacked the strength, but he would somehow lose himself in the +maze of his garments, and apparently he could never remember the proper +order of doffing or donning them. Sometimes he would ask, "Am I +dressing or undressing?" And he would be capable of so involving +himself in a shirt, if Edwin were not there to direct, that much +patience was needed for his extrication. His misapprehensions and +mistakes frequently reached the grotesque. As habit threw them more and +more intimately together, the trusting dependence of Darius on Edwin +increased. At morning and evening the expression of that intensely +mournful visage seemed to be saying as its gaze met Edwin's, "Here is +the one clear-sighted, powerful being who can guide me through this +complex and frightful problem of my clothes." A suit, for Darius, had +become as intricate as a quadratic equation. And, in Edwin, compassion +and irritation fought an interminable guerilla. Now one obtained the +advantage, now the other. His nerves demanded relief from the friction, +but he could offer them no holiday, not one single day's holiday. Twice +every day he had to manoeuvre and persuade that ponderous, irrational +body in his father's bedroom. Maggie helped the body to feed itself at +table. But Maggie apparently had no nerves. + +"I shall never go down them stairs again," said Darius, as if in +fatigued disgust, on the ottoman. + +"Oh, nonsense!" Edwin exclaimed. + +Darius shook his head solemnly, and looked at vacancy. + +"Well, we'll talk about that to-morrow," said Edwin, and with the skill +of regular practice drew out the ends of the bow of his father's +necktie. He had gradually evolved a complete code of rules covering the +entire process of the toilette, and he insisted on their observance. +Every article had its order in the ceremony and its place in the room. +Never had the room been so tidy, nor the rites so expeditious, as in the +final months of Darius's malady. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +The cumbrous body lay in bed. The bed was in an architecturally +contrived recess, sheltered from both the large window and the door. +Over its head was the gas-bracket and the bell-knob. At one side was a +night-table, and at the other a chair. In front of the night-table were +Darius's slippers. On the chair were certain clothes. From a hook near +the night-table, and almost over the slippers, hung his dressing-gown. +Seen from the bed, the dressing-table, at the window, appeared to be a +long way off, and the wardrobe was a long way off in another direction. +The gas was turned low. It threw a pale illumination on the bed, and +gleamed on a curve of mahogany here and there in the distances. + +Edwin looked at his father, to be sure that all was in order, that +nothing had been forgotten. The body seemed monstrous and shapeless +beneath the thickly piled clothes; and from the edge of the eider-down, +making a valley in the pillow, the bearded face projected, in a manner +grotesque and ridiculous. A clock struck seven in another part of the +house. + +"What time's that?" Darius murmured. + +"Seven," said Edwin, standing close to him. + +Darius raised himself slowly and clumsily on one elbow. + +"Here! But look here!" Edwin protested. "I've just fixed you up--" + +The old man ignored him, and one of those unnaturally white hands +stretched forth to the night-table, which was on the side of the bed +opposite to Edwin. Darius's gold watch and chain lay on the +night-table. + +"I've wound it up! I've wound it up!" said Edwin, a little crossly. +"What are you worrying at?" + +But Darius, silent, continued to manoeuvre his flannelled arm so as to +possess the watch. At length he seized the chain, and, shifting his +weight to the other elbow, held out the watch and chain to Edwin, with a +most piteous expression. Edwin could see in the twilight that his +father was ready to weep. + +"I want ye--" the old man began, and then burst into violent sobs; and +the watch dangled dangerously. + +"Come now!" Edwin tried to soothe him, forcing himself to be kindly. +"What is it? I tell you I've wound it up all right. And it's correct +time to a tick." He consulted his own silver watch. + +With a tremendous effort, Darius mastered his sobs, and began once more, +"I want ye--" + +He tried several times, but his emotion overcame him each time before he +could force the message out. It was always too quick for him. Silent, +he could control it, but he could not simultaneously control it and +speak. + +"Never mind," said Edwin. "We'll see about that tomorrow." And he +wondered what bizarre project affecting the watch had entered his +father's mind. Perhaps he wanted it set a quarter of an hour fast. + +Darius dropped the watch on the eider-down, and sighed in despair, and +fell back on the pillow and shut his eyes. Edwin restored the watch to +the night-table. + +Later, he crept into the dim room. Darius was snoring under the +twilight of the gas. Like an unhappy child, he had found refuge in +sleep from the enormous, infantile problems of his existence. And it +was so pathetic, so distressing, that Edwin, as he gazed at that beard +and those gold teeth, could have sobbed too. + + + +VOLUME THREE, CHAPTER FOURTEEN. + +THE WATCH. + +When Edwin the next morning, rather earlier than usual on Sundays, came +forth from his bedroom to go into the bathroom, he was startled by a +voice from his father's bedroom calling him. It was Maggie's. She had +heard him open his door, and she joined him on the landing. + +"I was waiting for you to be getting up," she said in a quiet tone. "I +don't think father's so well, and I was wondering whether I hadn't +better send Jane down for the doctor. It's not certain he'll call +to-day if he isn't specially fetched." + +"Why?" said Edwin. "What's up?" + +"Oh, nothing," Maggie answered. "Nothing particular, but you didn't +hear him ringing in the night?" + +"Ringing? No! What time?" + +"About one o'clock. Jane heard the bell, and she woke me. So I got up +to him. He said he couldn't do with being alone." + +"What did you do?" + +"I made him something hot and stayed with him." + +"What? All night?" + +"Yes," said Maggie. + +"But why didn't you call me?" + +"What was the good?" + +"You ought to have called me," he said with curt displeasure, not really +against Maggie, but against himself for having heard naught of all these +happenings. Maggie had no appearance of having passed the night by her +father's bedside. + +"Oh," she said lightly, "I dozed a bit now and then. And as soon as the +girl was up I got her to come and sit with him while I spruced myself." + +"I'll have a look at him," said Edwin, in another tone. + +"Yes, I wish you would." Now, as often, he was struck by Maggie's +singular deference to him, her submission to his judgement. In the past +her attitude had been different; she had exercised the moral rights of +an elder sister; but latterly she had mysteriously transformed herself +into a younger sister. + +He went towards his father, drawing his dressing-gown more closely round +him. The chamber had an aspect of freshness and tidiness that made it +almost gay--until he looked at the object in the smoothed and rectified +bed. He nodded to his father, who merely gazed at him. There was no +definite, definable change in the old man's face, but his bearing, even +as he lay, was appreciably more melancholy and impotent. The mere sight +of a man so broken and so sad was humiliating to the humanity which +Edwin shared with him. + +"Well, father," he nodded familiarly. "Don't feel like getting up, eh?" +And, remembering that he was the head of the house, the source of +authority and of strength, he tried to be cheerful, casual, and +invigorating, and was disgusted by the futile inefficiency of the +attempt. He had not, like Auntie Hamps, devoted a lifetime to the study +of the trick. + +Darius feebly moved his hopeless head to signify a negative. + +And Edwin thought, with a lancinating pain, of what the old man had +mumbled on the previous evening: "I shall never go down them stairs +again." Perhaps the old man never would go down those stairs again! He +had paid no serious attention to the remark at the moment, but now it +presented itself to him as a solemn and prophetic utterance, of such as +are remembered with awe for years and continue to jut up clear in the +mind when all minor souvenirs of the time have crumbled away. And he +would have given much of his pride to be able to go back and help the +old man upstairs once more, and do it with a more loving patience. + +"I've sent Jane," said Maggie, returning to the bedroom. "You'd better +go and finish dressing." + +On coming out of the bathroom he discovered Albert on the landing, +waiting. + +"The missis would have me come up and see how he was," said Albert. "So +I've run in between school and chapel. When I told her what a doing he +gave us, getting him upstairs, she was quite in a way, and she would +have me come up. The kid's better." He was exceedingly and quite +genuinely fraternal, not having his wife's faculty for nourishing a +feud. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +The spectacular developments were rapid. In the afternoon Auntie Hamps, +Clara, Maggie, and Edwin were grouped around the bed of Darius. A fire +burned in the grate; flowers were on the dressing-table. An extra table +had been placed at the foot of the bed. The room was a sick-room. + +Dr Heve had called, and had said that the patient's desire not to be +left alone was a symptom of gravity. He suggested a nurse, and when +Maggie, startled, said that perhaps they could manage without a nurse, +he inquired how. And as he talked he seemed to be more persuaded that a +nurse was necessary, if only for night duty, and in the end he went +himself to the new Telephone Exchange and ordered a nurse from the +Pirehill Infirmary Nursing Home. And the dramatic thing was that within +two hours and a half the nurse had arrived. And in ten minutes after +that it had been arranged that she should have Maggie's bedroom and that +she should take night duty, and in order that she might be fresh for the +night she had gone straight off to bed. + +Then Clara had arrived, in spite of the illness of her baby, and Auntie +Hamps had forced herself up Trafalgar Road, in spite of her rheumatism. +And a lengthy confabulation between the women had occurred in the +dining-room, not about the invalid, but about what `she' had said, and +about the etiquette of treating `her,' and about what `she' looked like +and shaped like; `her' and `she' being the professional nurse. With a +professional nurse in it, each woman sincerely felt that the house was +no longer itself, that it had become the house of the enemy. + +Darius lay supine before them, physically and spiritually abased, +accepting, like a victim who is too weak even to be ashamed, the cooings +and strokings and prayers and optimistic mendacities of Auntie Hamps, +and the tearful tendernesses of Clara. + +"I've made my will," he whimpered. + +"Yes, yes," said Auntie Hamps. "Of course you have!" + +"Did I tell you I'd made my will?" he feebly insisted. + +"Yes, father," said Clara. "Don't worry about your will." + +"I've left th' business to Edwin, and all th' rest's divided between you +two wenches." He was weeping gently. + +"Don't worry about that, father," Clara repeated. "Why are you thinking +so much about your will?" She tried to speak in a tone that was easy +and matter-of-fact. But she could not. This was the first authentic +information that any of them had had as to the dispositions of the will, +and it was exciting. + +Then Darius began to try to sit up, and there were protests against such +an act. Though he sat up to take his food, the tone of these +apprehensive remonstrances implied that to sit up at any other time was +to endanger his life. Darius, however, with a weak scowl, continued to +lift himself, whereupon Maggie aided him, and Auntie Hamps like +lightning put a shawl round his shoulders. He sighed, and stretched out +his hand to the night-table for his gold watch and chain, which he +dangled towards Edwin. + +"I want ye--" He stopped, controlling the muscles of his face. + +"He wants you to wind it up," said Clara, struck by her own insight. + +"No, he doesn't," said Edwin. "He knows it's wound up." + +"I want ye--" Darius recommenced. But he was defeated again by his +insidious foe. He wept loudly and without restraint for a few moments, +and then suddenly ceased, and endeavoured to speak, and wept anew, +agitating the watch in the direction of Edwin. + +"Take it, Edwin," said Mrs Hamps. "Perhaps he wants it put away," she +added, as Edwin obeyed. + +Darius shook his head furiously. "I want him--" Sobs choked him. + +"I know what he wants," said Auntie Hamps. "He wants to give dear Edwin +the watch, because Edwin's been so kind to him, helping him to dress +every day, and looking after him just like a professional nurse--don't +you, dear?" + +Edwin secretly cursed her in the most horrible fashion. But she was +right. + +"Ye-hes," Darius confirmed her, on a sob. + +"He wants to show his gratitude," said Auntie Hamps. + +"Ye-hes," Darius repeated, and wiped his eyes. + +Edwin stood foolishly holding the watch with its massive Albert chain. +He was very genuinely astonished, and he was profoundly moved. His +father's emotion concerning him must have been gathering force for +months and months, increasing a little and a little every day in those +daily, intimate contacts, until at length gratitude had become, as it +were, a spirit that possessed him, a monstrous demon whose wild +eagerness to escape defeated itself. And Edwin had never guessed, for +Darius had mastered the spirit till the moment when the spirit mastered +him. It was out now, and Darius, delivered, breathed more freely. +Edwin was proud, but his humiliation was greater than his pride. He +suffered humiliation for his father. He would have preferred that +Darius should never have felt gratitude, or, at any rate, that he should +never have shown it. He would have preferred that Darius should have +accepted his help nonchalantly, grimly, thanklessly, as a right. And if +through disease, the old man could not cease to be a tyrant with +dignity, could not become human without this appalling ceremonial +abasement--better that he should have exercised harshness and oppression +to the very end! There was probably no phenomenon of human nature that +offended Edwin's instincts more than an open conversion. + +Maggie turned nervously away and busied herself with the grate. + +"You must put it on," said Auntie Hamps sweetly. "Mustn't he, father?" + +Darius nodded. + +The outrage was complete. Edwin removed his own watch and dropped it +into the pocket of his trousers, substituting for it the gold one. + +"There, father!" exclaimed Auntie Hamps proudly, surveying the curve of +the Albert on her nephew's waistcoat. + +"Ay!" Darius murmured, and sank back on the pillow with a sigh of +relief. + +"Thanks, father," Edwin muttered, reddening. "But there was no +occasion." + +"Now you see what it is to be a good son!" Auntie Hamps observed. + +Darius murmured indistinctly. + +"What is it?" she asked, bending down. + +"I must have his," said Darius. "I must have a watch here." + +"He wants your old one in exchange," Clara explained eagerly. + +Edwin smiled, discovering a certain alleviation in this shrewd demand of +his father's, and he drew out the silver Geneva. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +Shortly afterwards the nurse surprised them all by coming into the room. +She carried a writing-case. Edwin introduced her to Auntie Hamps and +Clara. Clara blushed and became mute. Auntie Hamps adopted a tone of +excessive deference, of which the refrain was "Nurse will know best." +Nurse seemed disinclined to be professional. Explaining that as she was +not able to sleep she thought she might as well get up, she took a seat +near the fire and addressed herself to Maggie. She was a tall and +radiant woman of about thirty. Her aristocratic southern accent proved +that she did not belong to the Five Towns, and to Maggie, in excuse for +certain questions as to the district, she said that she had only been at +Pirehill a few weeks. Her demeanour was extraordinarily cheerful. +Auntie Hamps remarked aside to Clara what a good thing it was that Nurse +was so cheerful; but in reality she considered such cheerfulness +exaggerated in a sick-room, and not quite nice. The nurse asked about +the posts, and said she had a letter to write and would write it there +if she could have pen and ink. Auntie Hamps, telling her eagerly about +the posts, thought that these professional nurses certainly did make +themselves at home in a house. The nurse's accent intimidated all of +them. + +"Well, nurse, I suppose we mustn't tire our patient," said Auntie Hamps +at last, after Edwin had brought ink and paper. + +Edwin, conscious of the glory of a gold watch and chain, and conscious +also of freedom from future personal service on his father, preceded +Auntie Hamps and Clara to the landing, and Nurse herself sped them from +the room, in her quality of mistress of the room. And when she and +Maggie and Darius were alone together she went to the bedside and spoke +softly to her patient. She was so neat and bright and white and +striped, and so perfect in every detail, that she might have been a +model taken straight from a shop-window. Her figure illuminated the +dusk. An incredible luxury for the little boy from the Bastille! But +she was one of the many wonderful things he had earned. + + + +VOLUME THREE, CHAPTER FIFTEEN. + +THE BANQUET. + +It was with a conscience uneasy that Edwin shut the front door one night +a month later, and issued out into Trafalgar Road. Since the arrival of +Nurse Shaw, Darius had not risen from his bed, and the household had +come to accept him as bed-ridden and the nurse as a permanency. The +sick-room was the centre of the house, and Maggie and Edwin and the +servants lived, as it were, in a camp round about it, their days +uncomfortably passing in suspense, in expectation of developments which +tarried. "How is he this morning?" "Much the same." "How is he this +evening?" "Much the same." These phrases had grown familiar and +tedious. But for three days Darius had been noticeably worse, and the +demeanour of Nurse Shaw had altered, and she had taken less sleep and +less exercise. Osmond Orgreave had even called in person to inquire +after the invalid, doubtless moved by Janet to accomplish this +formality, for he could not have been without news. Janet was +constantly in the house, helping Maggie; and Alicia also sometimes. +Since her engagement, Alicia had been striving to prove that she +appreciated the gravity of existence. + +Still, despite the change in the patient's condition, everybody had +insisted that Edwin should go to the annual dinner of the Society for +the Prosecution of Felons, to which he had been duly elected with +flattering dispatch. Why should he not go? Why should he not enjoy +himself? What could he do if he stayed at home? Would not the change +be good for him? At most the absence would be for a few hours, and if +he could absent himself during ten hours for business, surely for +healthful distraction he might absent himself during five hours! Maggie +grew elder-sisterly at the last moment of decision, and told him he must +go, and that if he didn't she should be angry. When he asked her `What +about _her_ health? What about _her_ needing a change?' she said curtly +that that had nothing to do with it. + +He went. The persuaders were helped by his own desire. And in spite of +his conscience, when he was fairly in the street he drew a sigh of +relief, and deliberately turned his heart towards gaiety. It seemed +inexpressibly pathetic that his father was lying behind those +just-lighted blinds above, and would never again breathe the open air, +never again glide along those pavements with his arms fixed and slightly +outwards. But Edwin was determined to listen to reason and not to be +morbid. + +The streets were lively with the red and the blue colours of politics. +The Liberal member for the Parliamentary borough of Hanbridge, which +included Bursley, had died very suddenly, and the seat was being +disputed by the previously defeated Conservative candidate and a new +Labour candidate officially adopted by the Liberal party. The Tories +had sworn not to be beaten again in the defence of the integrity of the +Empire. And though they had the difficult and delicate task of +persuading a large industrial constituency that an industrial +representative would not further industrial interests, and that they +alone were actuated by unselfish love for the people, yet they had made +enormous progress in a very brief period, and publicans were jubilant +and bars sloppy. + +The aspect of the affair that did not quite please the Society for the +Prosecution of Felons was that the polling had been fixed for the day +after its annual dinner instead of the day before. Powerful efforts had +been made `in the proper quarter' to get the date conveniently arranged, +but without success; after all, the seat of authority was Hanbridge and +not Bursley. Hanbridge, sadly failing to appreciate the importance of +Bursley's Felonry, had suggested that the feast might be moved a couple +of days. The Felonry refused. If its dinner clashed with the supreme +night of the campaign, so much the worse for the campaign! Moreover, +the excitement of the campaign would at any rate give zest to the +dinner. + +Ere he reached Duck Bank, the vivacity of the town, loosed after the +day's labour to an evening's orgy of oratory and horseplay and beer, had +communicated itself to Edwin. He was most distinctly aware of pleasure +in the sight of the Tory candidate driving past, at a pace to overtake +steam-cars, in a coach-and-four, with amateur postilions and an +orchestra of horns. The spectacle, and the speed of it, somehow +thrilled him, and for an instant made him want to vote Tory. A +procession of illuminated carts, bearing white potters apparently +engaged in the handicraft which the Labour candidate had practised in +humbler days, also pleased him, but pleased him less. As he passed up +Duck Bank the Labour candidate himself was raising loud enthusiastic +cheers from a railway lorry in Duck Square, and Edwin's spirits went +even higher, and he elbowed through the laughing, joking throng with +fraternal good-humour, feeling that an election was in itself a grand +thing, apart from its result, and apart from the profit which it brought +to steam-printers. + +In the porch of the Town Hall, a man turned from an eagerly-smiling +group of hungry Felons and, straightening his face, asked with quiet +concern, "How's your father?" Edwin shook his head. "Pretty bad," he +answered. "Is he?" murmured the other sadly. And Edwin suddenly saw +his father again behind the blind, irrevocably prone. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +But by the time the speeches were in progress he was uplifted high once +more into the joy of life. He had been welcomed by acquaintances and by +strangers with a deferential warmth that positively startled him. He +realised, as never before, that the town esteemed him as a successful +man. His place was not many removes from the chair. Osmond Orgreave +was on his right, and Albert Benbow on his left. He had introduced an +impressed Albert to his friend Mr Orgreave, recently made a Justice of +the Peace. + +And down the long littered tables stretched the authority and the wealth +of the town-aldermen, councillors, members of the school board, +guardians of the poor, magistrates, solid tradesmen, and solid +manufacturers, together with higher officials of the borough and some +members of the learned professions. Here was the oligarchy which, +behind the appearances of democratic government, effectively managed, +directed, and controlled the town. Here was the handful of people who +settled between them whether rates should go up or down, and to whom it +did not seriously matter whether rates went up or down, provided that +the interests of the common people were not too sharply set in +antagonism to their own interests. Here were the privileged, who did +what they liked on the condition of not offending each other. Here the +populace was honestly and cynically and openly regarded as a restless +child, to be humoured and to be flattered, but also to be ruled firmly, +to be kept in its place, to be ignored when advisable, and to be made to +pay. + +For the feast, the court-room had been transformed into a banqueting +hall, and the magistrates' bench, where habitual criminals were created +and families ruined and order maintained, was hidden in flowers. Osmond +Orgreave was dryly facetious about that bench. He exchanged comments +with other magistrates, and they all agreed, with the same dry +facetiousness, that most of the law was futile and some of it +mischievous; and they all said, `But what can you do?' and by their tone +indicated that you could do nothing. According to Osmond Orgreave's +wit, the only real use of a magistrate was to sign the necessary papers +for persons who had lost pawn-tickets. It appeared that such persons in +distress came to Mr Orgreave every day for the august signature. "I +had an old woman come to me this morning at my office," he said. "I +asked her how it was they were always losing their pawn-tickets. I told +her I never lost mine." Osmond Orgreave was encircled with laughter. +Edwin laughed heartily. It was a good joke. And even mediocre jokes +would convulse the room. + +Jos Curtenty, the renowned card, a jolly old gentleman of sixty, was in +the chair, and therefore jollity was assured in advance. Rising to +inaugurate the oratorical section of the night, he took an enormous red +flower from a bouquet behind him, and sticking it with a studiously +absent air in his button-hole, said blandly, "Gentlemen, no politics, +please!" The uproarious effect was one of his very best. He knew his +audience. He could have taught Edwin a thing or two. For Edwin in his +simplicity was astonished to find the audience almost all of one colour, +frankly and joyously and optimistically Tory. There were not ten +Liberals in the place, and there was not one who was vocal. The cream +of the town, of its brains, its success, its respectability, was +assembled together, and the Liberal party was practically unrepresented. +It seemed as if there was no Liberal party. It seemed impossible that +a Labour candidate could achieve anything but complete disaster at the +polls. It seemed incredible that in the past a Liberal candidate had +ever been returned. Edwin began, even in the privacy of his own heart, +to be apologetic for his Liberalism. All these excellent fellows could +not be wrong. The moral force of numbers intimidated him. He suspected +that there was, after all, more to be said for Conservatism than he had +hitherto allowed himself to suppose. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +And the Felons were so good-humoured and kindly and so free-handed, and, +with it all, so boyish! They burst into praise of one another on the +slenderest excuse. They ordered more champagne as carelessly as though +champagne were ginger-beer (Edwin was glad that by an excess of +precaution he had brought two pounds in his pocket--the scale of +expenditure was staggering); and they nonchalantly smoked cigars that +would have made Edwin sick. They knew all about cigars and about +drinks, and they implied by their demeanour, though they never said, +that a first-class drink and a first-class smoke were the `good things' +of life, the ultimate rewards; the references to women were sly... +Edwin was like a demure cat among a company of splendid curly dogs. + +The toasts, every one of them, called forth enthusiasm. Even in the +early part of the evening much good-nature had bubbled out when, at +intervals, a slim young bachelor of fifty, armed with a violent mallet, +had rapped authoritatively on the table and cried: "Mr President wishes +to take wine with Mr Vice," "Mr President wishes to take wine with the +bachelors on the right," "Mr President wishes to take wine with the +married Felons on the left," and so on till every sort and condition and +geographical situation had been thus distinguished. But the toasts +proper aroused displays of the most affectionate loving-kindness. Each +reference to a Felon was greeted with warm cheers, and each reference +touched the superlative of laudation. Every stroke of humour was +noisily approved, and every exhibition of tender feeling effusively +endorsed. And all the estates of the realm, and all the institutions of +the realm and of the town, and all the services of war and peace, and +all the official castes were handsomely and unreservedly praised, and +their health and prosperity pledged with enthusiastic fervour. The +organism of the Empire was pronounced to be essentially perfect. Nobody +of importance, from the Queen's Majesty to the `ministers of the +Established Church and other denominations,' was omitted from the +certificate of supreme excellence and efficiency. And even when an +alderman, proposing the toast of the `town and trade of Bursley,' +mentioned certain disturbing symptoms in the demeanour of the lower +classes, he immediately added his earnest conviction that the `heart of +the country beat true,' and was comforted with grave applause. + +Towards the end of the toast-list one of the humorous vocal quartets +which were designed to relieve the seriousness of the programme, was +interrupted by the formidable sound of the governed proletariat beyond +the walls of the Town Hall. And Edwin's memory, making him feel very +old, leapt suddenly back into another generation of male glee-singers +that did not disport humorously and that would not have permitted +themselves to be interrupted by the shouting of populations; and he +recalled `Loud Ocean's Roar,' and the figure of Florence Simcox flitted +in front of him. The proletariat was cheering somebody. The cheers +died down. And in another moment the Conservative candidate burst into +the room, and was followed by two of his friends (the latter in +evening-dress), whom he presented to the President. The ceremonious +costume impressed the President himself, for at this period of ancient +history Felons dined in frock-coats or cutaways; it proved that the +wearers were so accustomed to wearing evening-dress of a night that they +put it on by sheer habit and inadvertence even for electioneering. The +candidate only desired to shake hands with a few supporters and to +assure the President that nothing but hard necessity had kept him away +from the dinner. Amid inspiriting bravos and hurrahs he fled, followed +by his friends, and it became known that one of these was a baronet. + +After this the vote of thanks to the President scarcely escaped being an +anticlimax. And several men left, including Albert Benbow, who had once +or twice glanced at his watch. "She won't let you be out after +half-past ten, eh, Benbow?" said jocularly a neighbour. And Albert, +laughing at the joke, nevertheless looked awkward. And the neighbour +perceived that he had been perhaps a trifle clumsy. Edwin, since the +mysterious influence in the background was his own sister, had to share +Albert's confusion. He too would have departed. But Osmond Orgreave +absolutely declined to let him go, and to prevent him from going used +the force which good wine gives. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +The company divided itself into intimate groups, leaving empty white +spaces at the disordered tables. The attendants now served whisky, and +more liqueurs and coffee. Those guests who knew no qualm lighted fresh +cigars; a few produced beloved pipes; the others were content with +cigarettes. Some one ordered a window to be opened, and then, when the +fresh night air began to disturb the curtains and scatter the fumes of +the banquet, some one else crept aside and furtively closed it again. + +Edwin found himself with Jos Curtenty and Osmond Orgreave and a few +others. He felt gay and enheartened; he felt that there was a great +deal of pleasure to be had on earth with very little trouble. Politics +had been broached, and he made a mild joke about the Tory candidate. +And amid the silence that followed it he mistily perceived that the +remainder of the group, instead of becoming more jolly, had grown grave. +For them the political situation was serious. They did not trouble to +argue against the Labour candidate. All their reasoning was based on +the assumption, which nobody denied or questioned, that at any cost the +Labour candidate must be defeated. The success of the Labour candidate +was regarded as a calamity. It would jeopardise the entire social +order. It would deliver into the destroying hands of an ignorant, +capricious, and unscrupulous rabble all that was best in English life. +It would even mean misery for the rabble itself. The tones grew more +solemn. And Edwin, astonished, saw that beneath the egotism of their +success, beneath their unconscious arrogance due to the habit of +authority, there was a profound and genuine patriotism and sense of +duty. And he was abashed. Nevertheless, he had definitely taken sides, +and out of mere self-respect he had gently to remind them of the fact. +Silence would have been cowardly. + +"Then what about `trusting to the people'?" he murmured, smiling. + +"If trusting to the people means being under the thumb of the British +working man, my boy," said Osmond Orgreave, "you can scratch me out, for +one." + +Edwin had never heard him speak so colloquially. + +"I've always found 'em pretty decent," said Edwin, but lamely. + +Jos Curtenty fixed him with a grim eye. + +"How many hands do you employ, Mr Clayhanger?" + +"Fourteen," said Edwin. + +"Do you?" exclaimed another voice, evidently surprised and impressed. + +Jos Curtenty pulled at his cigar. "I wish I could make as much money as +you make out of fourteen hands!" said he. "Well, I've got two hundred +of 'em at my place. And I know 'em! I've known 'em for forty years and +more. There's not ten of 'em as I'd trust to do an honest day's work, +of their own accord... And after the row in '80, when they'd agreed to +arbitration--fifteen thousand of 'em--did they accept the award, or +didn't they? Tell me that, if it isn't troubling ye too much." + +Only in the last phase did the irrepressible humorous card in him assert +itself. + +Edwin mumbled inarticulately. His mind was less occupied by politics +than by the fact that in the view of all these men he had already +finally and definitely taken the place of his father. But for the +inquiries made at intervals during the evening, he might have supposed +that Darius, lying in helpless obscurity up there at Bleak ridge, had +been erased from the memory of the town. + +A crony who had not hitherto spoken began to give sarcastic and +apparently damning details of the early record of the Labour candidate. +Among other delinquencies the fellow had condoned the inexcusable +rejection of the arbitrators' award long ago. And then some one said: + +"Hello! Here's Benbow back again!" + +Albert, in overcoat and cap, beckoned to Edwin, who sprang up, pricked +into an exaggerated activity by his impatient conscience. + +"It's nothing particular," said Albert at the door. "But the missus has +been round to your father's to-night, and it seems the nurse has knocked +up. She thought I'd perhaps better come along and tell you, in case you +hadn't gone." + +"Knocked up, has she?" said Edwin. "Well, it's not to be wondered at. +Nurse or no nurse, she's got no more notion of looking after herself +than anybody else has. I was just going. It's only a little after +eleven." + +The last thing he heard on quitting the precincts of the banqueting +chamber was the violent sound of the mallet. Its wielder seemed to have +developed a slight affection for the senseless block of wood. + + + +VOLUME THREE, CHAPTER SIXTEEN. + +AFTER THE BANQUET. + +"Yes, yes," said Edwin, impatiently, in reply to some anxious remark of +Maggie's, "I shall be all right with him. Don't you worry till +morning." + +They stood at the door of the sick-room, Edwin in an attitude almost +suggesting that he was pushing her out. + +He had hurried home from the festival, and found the doctor just leaving +and the house in a commotion. Dr Heve said mildly that he was glad +Edwin had come, and he hinted that some general calming influence was +needed. Nurse Shaw had developed one of the sudden abscesses in the ear +which troubled her from time to time. This radiant and apparently +strong creature suffered from an affection of the ear. Once her left +ear had kept her in bed for six weeks, and she had arisen with the drum +pierced. Since which episode there had always been the danger, when the +evil recurred, of the region of the brain being contaminated through the +tiny orifice in the drum. Hence, even if the acute pain which she +endured had not forced her to abandon other people's maladies for the +care of her own, the sense of her real peril would have done so. This +masterful, tireless woman, whom no sadness nor abomination of her +habitual environment could depress or daunt, lived under a menace, and +was sometimes laid low, like a child. She rested now in Maggie's room, +with a poultice for a pillow. A few hours previously no one in the +house had guessed that she had any weakness whatever. Her collapse gave +to Maggie an excellent opportunity, such as Maggie loved, to prove that +she was equal to a situation. Maggie would not permit Mrs Hamps to be +sent for. Nor would she permit Mrs Nixon to remain up. She was +excited and very fatigued, and she meant to manage the night with the +sole aid of Jane. It was even part of her plan that Edwin should go to +bed as usual--poor Edwin, with all the anxieties of business upon his +head! But she had not allowed for Edwin's conscience, nor foreseen what +the doctor would say to him privately. Edwin had learnt from the +doctor--a fact which the women had not revealed to him--that his father +during the day had shown symptoms of `Cheyne-Stokes breathing,' the +final and the worst phenomenon of his disease; a phenomenon, too, +interestingly rare. The doctor had done all that could be done by +injections, and there was absolutely nothing else for anybody to do +except watch. + +"I shall come in in the night," Maggie whispered. + +Behind them the patient vaguely stirred and groaned in his recess. + +"You'll do no such thing," said Edwin shortly. "Get all the sleep you +can." + +"But Nurse has to have a fresh poultice every two hours," Maggie +protested. + +"Now, look here!" Edwin was cross. "Do show a little sense. Get-- +all--the--sleep--you--can. We shall be having you ill next, and then +there'll be a nice kettle of fish. I won't have you coming in here. I +shall be perfectly all right. Now!" He gave a gesture that she should +go at once. + +"You won't be fit for the shop to-morrow." + +"Damn the shop!" + +"Well, you know where everything is." She was resigned. "If you want +to make some tea--" + +"All right, all right!" He forced himself to smile. + +She departed, and he shut the door. + +"Confounded nuisance women are!" he thought, half indulgently, as he +turned towards the bed. But it was his conscience that was a confounded +nuisance. He ought never to have allowed himself to be persuaded to go +to the banquet. When his conscience annoyed him, it was usually Maggie +who felt the repercussion. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +Darius was extremely ill. Every part of his physical organism was +deranged and wearied out. His features combined the expression of +intense fatigue with the sinister liveliness of an acute tragic +apprehension. His failing faculties were kept horribly alert by the +fear of what was going to happen to him next. So much that was +appalling had already happened to him! He wanted repose; he wanted +surcease; he wanted nothingness. He was too tired to move, but he was +also too tired to lie still. And thus he writhed faintly on the bed; +his body seemed to have that vague appearance of general movement which +a multitude of insects will give to a piece of decaying matter. His +skin was sick, and his hair, and his pale lips. The bed could not be +kept tidy for five minutes. + +"He's bad, no mistake!" thought Edwin, as he met his father's anxious +and intimidated gaze. He had never seen anyone so ill. He knew now +what disease could do. + +"Where's Nurse?" the old man murmured, with excessive feebleness, his +voice captiously rising to a shrill complaint. + +"She's not well. She's lying down. I'm going to sit with you to-night. +Have a drink?" As Edwin said these words in his ordinary voice, it +seemed to him that in comparison with his father he was a god of +miraculous proud strength and domination. + +Darius nodded. + +"Her's a Tartar!" Darius muttered. "But her's just! Her will have her +own way!" He often spoke thus of the nurse, giving people to understand +that during the long nights, when he was left utterly helpless to the +harsh mercy of the nurse, he had to accept many humiliations. He seemed +to fear and love her as a dog its master. Edwin, using his imagination +to realise the absoluteness of the power which the nurse had over Darius +during ten hours in every twenty-four, was almost frightened by it. "By +Jove!" he thought, "I wouldn't be in his place with any woman on earth!" +The old man's lips closed clumsily round the funnel of the invalid's +cup that Edwin offered. Then he sank back, and shut his eyes, and +appeared calmer. + +Edwin smoothed the clothes, stared at him a long time, and finally sat +down in the arm-chair by the fire. He wound up his watch. It was not +yet midnight. He took off his boots and put on the slippers which now +Darius had not worn for over a week and would not wear again. He yawned +heavily. The yawn surprised him. He perceived that his head was +throbbing and his mouth dry, and that the meats and liquors of the +banquet, having ceased to stimulate, were incommoding him. His mind and +body were in reaction. He reflected cynically upon the facile +self-satisfactions of those successful men in whose company he had been. +The whole dinner grew unreal. Nothing was real except imprisonment on +a bed night and day, day and night for weeks. Every one could have +change and rest save his father. For his father there was no relief, +not a moment's. He was always there, in the same recess, prone, in +subjection, helpless, hopeless, and suffering. Politics! What were +they? + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +He closed his eyes, because it occurred to him that to do so would be +agreeable. And he was awakened from a doze by a formidable stir on the +bed. Darius's breathing was quick and shallow, and growing more so. He +lifted his head from the pillow in order to breathe, and leaned on one +elbow. Edwin sprang up and went to him. + +"Clara! Clara! Don't leave me!" the old man cried in tones of agonised +apprehension. + +"It's all right; I'm here," said Edwin reassuringly. And he took the +sick man's hot, crackling hand and held it. + +Gradually the breathing went slower and deeper, and at length Darius +sighed very deeply as at a danger past, and relaxed his limbs, and Edwin +let go his hand. But he had not been at ease more than a few seconds +when the trouble recommenced, and he was fighting again, and with +appreciably more difficulty, to get air down into his lungs. It entered +in quantities smaller and smaller, until it seemed scarcely to reach his +throat before it was expelled again. The respirations were as rapid as +the ticking of a watch. Despite his feebleness Darius wrenched his +limbs into contortions, and gripped fiercely Edwin's hands. + +"Clara! Clara!" he cried once more. + +"It's all right. You're all right. There's nothing to be afraid of," +said Edwin, soothing him. + +And that paroxysm also passed, and the old man moaned in the melancholy +satisfaction of deep breaths. But the mysterious disturbing force would +not leave him in peace. In another moment yet a fresh struggle was +commencing. And each was worse than the last. And it was always Clara +to whom he turned for succour. Not Maggie, who had spent nearly forty +years in his service, and never spoke ill-naturedly of him; but Clara, +who was officious rather than helpful, who wept for him in his presence, +and said harsh things behind his back, and who had never forgiven him +since the refusal of the loan to Albert. + +After he had passed through a dozen crises of respiration Edwin said to +himself that the next one could not be worse. But it was worse. Darius +breathed like a blown dog that has fallen. He snatched furiously at +breath like a tiger snatching at meat. He accomplished exertions that +would have exhausted an athlete, and when he had saved his life in the +very instant of its loss, calling on Clara as on God, he would look at +Edwin for confirmation of his hope that he had escaped again. The +paroxysms continued, still growing more critical. Edwin was aghast at +his own helplessness. He could do absolutely naught. It was even +useless to hold the hand or to speak sympathy and reassurance. Darius +at the keenest moment of battle was too occupied with his enemy to hear +or feel the presence of a fellow-creature. He was solitary with his +unseen enemy, and if the room had been full of ministering angels he +would still have been alone and unsuccoured. He might have been sealed +up in a cell with his enemy who, incredibly cruel, withheld from him his +breath; and Edwin outside the cell trying foolishly to get in. He asked +for little; he would have been content with very little; but it was +refused him until despair had reached the highest agony. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +"He's dying, I do believe," thought Edwin, and the wonder of this +nocturnal adventure sent tremors down his spine. He faced the +probability that at the next bout his father would be worsted. Should +he fetch Maggie and then go for the doctor? Heve had told him that it +would be `pretty bad,' and that nothing on earth could be done. No! He +would not fetch Maggie, and he would not go for the doctor. What use? +He would see the thing through. In the solemnity of the night he was +glad that an experience tremendous and supreme had been vouchsafed to +him. He knew now what the will to live was. He saw life naked, +stripped of everything unessential. He saw life and death together. +What caused his lip to curl when the thought of the Felons' dinner +flashed through his mind was the damned complacency of the Felons. Did +any of them ever surmise that they had never come within ten miles of +life itself, that they were attaching importance to the most futile +trifles? Let them see a human animal in a crisis of Cheyne-Stokes +breathing, and they would know something about reality! ... So this was +Cheyne-Stokes breathing, that rare and awful affliction! What was it? +What caused it? What controlled its frequency? No answer! Not only +could he do naught, he knew naught! He was equally useless and ignorant +before the affrighting mystery. + +Darius no longer sat up and twisted himself in the agony of the +struggles. He lay flat, resigned but still obstinate, fighting with the +only muscles that could fight now, those of his chest and throat. The +enemy had got him down, but he would not surrender. Time after time he +won a brief armistice in the ruthless altercation, and breathed deep and +long, and sighed as if he would doze, and then his enemy was at him +again, and Darius, aroused afresh to the same terror, summoned Clara in +the extremity of his anguish. + +Edwin moved away, and surveyed the bed from afar. The old man was +perfectly oblivious of him. He looked at his watch, and timed the +crises. They recurred fairly regularly about every hundred seconds. +Thirty-six times an hour Darius, growing feebler, fought unaided and +without hope of aid an enemy growing stronger, and would not yield. He +was dragged to his death thirty-six times every hour, and thirty-six +times managed to scramble back from the edge of the chasm. Occasionally +his voice, demanding that Clara should not desert him, made a shriek +which seemed loud enough to wake the street. Edwin listened for any +noise in the house, but heard nothing. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +A curious instinct drove him out of the room for a space on to the +landing. He shut the door on the human animal in its lonely struggle. +The gas was burning on the landing and also in the hall, for this was +not a night on which to extinguish lights. The clock below ticked +quietly, and then struck three. He had passed more than three hours +with his father. The time had gone quickly. He crept to Maggie's door. +No sound! Utter silence! He crept upstairs to the second storey. No +sound there! Coming down again to the first floor he noticed that the +door of his own bedroom was open. He crept in there, and started +violently to see a dim form on the bed. It was Maggie, dressed, but +fast asleep under a rug. He left her. The whole world was asleep, and +he was awake with his father. + +"What an awful shame!" he thought savagely. "Why couldn't we have let +him grow his mushrooms if he wanted to? What harm would it have done +us? Supposing it _had_ been a nuisance, supposing he _had_ tried to kiss +Jane, supposing he _had_ hurt himself, what then? Why couldn't we let him +do what he wanted?" + +And he passionately resented his own harshness and that of Maggie as he +might have resented the cruelty of some national injustice. + +He listened. Nothing but the ticking of the clock disturbed the calm of +the night. Could his father have expired in one of those frantic bouts +with his enemy? Brusquely, with false valiance, he re-entered the +chamber, and saw again the white square of the blind and the expanse of +carpet and the tables littered with nursing apparatus, and saw the bed +and his father on it, panting in a new and unsurpassable despair, but +still unbeaten, under the thin gas-flame. The crisis eased as he went +in. He picked up the arm-chair and carried it to the bedside and sat +down facing his father, and once more took his father's intolerably +pathetic hand. + +"All right!" he murmured, and never before had he spoken with such +tenderness. "All right! I'm here. I'm not leaving you." + +The victim grew quieter. + +"Is it Edwin?" he whispered, scarcely articulate, out of a bottomless +depth of weakness. + +"Yes," said Edwin cheerfully; "you're a bit better now, aren't you?" + +"Aye!" sighed Darius in hope. + +And almost immediately the rumour of struggle recommenced, and in a +minute the crisis was at its fiercest. + +Edwin became hardened to the spectacle. He reasoned with himself about +suffering. After all, what was its importance? Up to a point it could +be borne, and when it could not be borne it ceased to be suffering. The +characteristic grimness of those latitudes showed itself in him. There +was nothing to be done. They who were destined to suffer had to suffer, +must suffer; and no more could be said. The fight must come to an end +sooner or later. Fortitude alone could meet the situation. +Nevertheless, the night seemed eternal, and at intervals fortitude +lacked. + +"By Jove!" he would mutter aloud, under the old man's constant appeals +to Clara, "I shan't be sorry when this is over." + +Then he would interest himself in the periodicity of the attacks, timing +them by his watch with care. Then he would smooth the bed. Once he +looked at the fire. It was out. He had forgotten it. He immediately +began to feel chilly, and then he put on his father's patched +dressing-gown and went to the window, and, drawing aside the blind, +glanced forth. All was black and utterly silent. He thought with +disdain of Maggie and the others unconscious in sleep. He returned to +the chair. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +SIX. + +He was startled, at a side glance, by something peculiar in the +appearance of the window. It was the first messenger of the dawn. Yes, +a faint greyness, very slowly working in secret against the power of the +gaslight: timid, delicate, but brightening by imperceptible degrees into +strength. + +"Some of them will be getting up soon, now," he said to himself. The +hour was between four and half-past. He looked forward to release. +Maggie was sure to come and release him shortly. And even as he held +the sick man's arm, comforting him, he yawned. + +But no one came. Five o'clock, half-past five! The first car rumbled +down. And still the victim, unbroken, went through his agony every two +minutes or oftener, with the most frightful regularity. + +He extinguished the gas, and lo! there was enough daylight to see +clearly. He pulled up the blind. The night had gone. He had been +through the night. The entire surface of his head was tingling. Now he +would look at the martyrdom of the victim as at a natural curiosity, +having no capacity left for feeling. And now his sympathy would gush +forth anew, and he would cover with attentions his father, who, fiercely +preoccupied with the business of obtaining breath, gave no heed to them. +And now he would stand impressed, staggered, by the magnificence of the +struggle. + +The suspense from six to seven was the longest. When would somebody +come? Had the entire household taken laudanum? He would go and rouse +Maggie. No, he would not. He was too proud. + +At a quarter-past seven the knob of the door clicked softly. He could +scarcely believe his ears. Maggie entered. Darius was easier between +two crises. + +"Well," said she tranquilly, "how is he?" She was tying her apron. + +"Pretty bad," Edwin answered, with affected nonchalance. + +"Nurse is a bit better. I've given her three fresh poultices since +midnight. You'd better go now, hadn't you?" + +"All right. I've let the fire out." + +"I'll tell Jane to light it. She's just making some tea for you." + +He went. He did not need twice telling. As he went, carelessly +throwing off the dressing-gown and picking up his boots, Darius began to +pant afresh, to nerve himself instinctively afresh for another struggle. +Edwin, strong and healthy, having done nothing but watch, was +completely exhausted. But Darius, weakened by disease, having fought a +couple of hundred terrific and excruciating encounters, each a supreme +battle, in the course of a single night, was still drawing upon the +apparently inexhaustible reserves of his volition. + +"I couldn't have stood that much longer," said Edwin, out on the +landing. + + + +VOLUME THREE, CHAPTER SEVENTEEN. + +THE CHAIN BROKEN. + +Shortly after eight o'clock Edwin was walking down Trafalgar Road on his +way to the shop. He had bathed, and drunk some tea, and under the +stimulation he felt the factitious vivacity of excessive fatigue. Rain +had fallen quietly and perseveringly during the night, and though the +weather was now fine the streets were thick with black mire. +Paintresses with their neat gloves and their dinner-baskets and their +thin shoes were trudging to work, and young clerks and shop-assistants +and the upper classes of labour generally. Everybody was in a hurry. +The humbler mass had gone long ago. Miners had been in the earth for +hours. Later, and more leisurely, the magnates would pass by. + +There were carriages about. An elegant wagonette, streaming with red +favours, dashed down the road behind two horses. Its cargo was a +handful of clay-soiled artisans, gleeful in the naive pride of their +situation, wearing red and shouting red, and hurrahing for the +Conservative candidate. + +"Asses!" murmured Edwin, with acrid and savage disdain. "Do you think +he'd drive you anywhere to-morrow?" He walked on a little, and broke +forth again, all to himself: "Of course he's doing it solely in your +interest, isn't he? Why doesn't he pick some of these paintresses out +of the mud and give them a drive?" + +He cultivated an unreasoning anger against the men who had so impressed +him at the banquet. He did not try to find answers to their arguments. +He accused them stoutly of wilful blindness, of cowardice, of bullying, +of Pharisaism, and of other sins. He had no wish to hear their defence. +He condemned them, and as it were ordered them to be taken away and +executed. He had a profound conviction that argument was futile, and +that nothing would serve but a pitched battle, in which each fighting +man should go to the poll and put a cross against a name in grim +silence. Argue with these gross self-satisfied fellows about the +turpitude of the artisans! Why, there was scarcely one of them whose +grandfather had not been an artisan! Curse their patriotism! Then he +would begin bits of argument to himself, and stop them, too impatient to +continue... The shilling cigars of those feasters disgusted him... In +such wise his mind ran. And he was not much kinder to the artisan. If +scorn could have annihilated, there would have been no proletariat left +in the division... Men? Sheep rather! Letting themselves be driven up +and down like that, and believing all the yarns that were spun to them! +Gaping idiots, they would swallow any mortal thing! There was simply +naught that they were not stupid enough to swallow with a glass of beer. +It would serve them right if--However, that could not happen. Idiocy +had limits. At least he presumed it had. + +Early as it was, the number of carriages was already considerable. But +he did not see one with the blue of the Labour candidate. Blue rosettes +there were, but the red rosettes bore them down easily. Even dogs had +been adorned with red rosettes, and nice clean infants! And on all the +hoardings were enormous red posters exhorting the shrewd common-sense +potter not to be misled by paid agitators, but to plump for his true +friend, for the man who was anxious to devote his entire career and +goods to the welfare of the potter and the integrity of the Empire. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +"If you can give me three days off, sir," said Big James, in the +majestic humility of his apron, "I shall take it kindly." + +Edwin had gone into the composing room with the copy for a demy poster, +consisting of four red words to inform the public that the true friend +of the public was `romping in.' A hundred posters were required within +an hour. He had nearly refused the order, in his feverish fatigue and +his disgust, but some remnant of sagacity had asserted itself in him and +saved him from this fatuity. + +"Why?" he asked roughly. "What's up now, James?" + +"My old comrade Abraham Harracles is dead, sir, at Glasgow, and I'm +wishful for to attend the interment, far as it is. He was living with +his daughter, and she's written to me. If you could make it convenient +to spare me--" + +"Of course, of course!" Edwin interrupted him hastily. In his present +mood, it revolted him that a man of between fifty and sixty should be +humbly asking as a favour to be allowed to fulfil a pious duty. + +"I'm very much obliged to you, sir," said Big James simply, quite +unaware that captious Edwin found his gratitude excessive and servile. +"I'm the last now, sir, of the old glee-party," he added. + +"Really!" + +Big James nodded, and said quietly, "And how's the old gentleman, sir?" + +Edwin shook his head. + +"I'm sorry, sir," said Big James. + +"I've been up with him all night," Edwin told him. + +"I wonder if you'd mind dropping me a line to Glasgow, sir, if anything +happens. I can give you the address. If it isn't--" + +"Certainly, if you like." He tried to be nonchalant "When are you +going?" + +"I did think of getting to Crewe before noon, sir. As soon as I've seen +to this--" He cocked his eye at the copy for the poster. + +"Oh, you needn't bother about that," said Edwin carelessly. "Go now if +you want to." + +"I've got time, sir. Mr Curtenty's coming for me at nine o'clock to +drive me to th' polling-booth." + +This was the first time that Edwin had ever heard Big James talk of his +private politics. The fact was that Big James was no more anxious than +Jos Curtenty and Osmond Orgreave to put himself under the iron heel of +his fellow working-man. + +"And what's _your_ colour, James?" His smile was half a sneer. + +"If you'll pardon me saying so, sir, I'm for Her Most Gracious," Big +James answered with grave dignity. + +Three journeymen, pretending to be busy, were listening with all ears +from the other side of a case. + +"Oh!" exclaimed Edwin, dashed. "Well, that's all right!" + +He walked straight out, put on his hat, and went to the Bleakridge +polling-station and voted Labour defiantly, as though with a personal +grievance against the polling-clerk. He had a vote, not as lessee of +the business premises, but as his father's lodger. He despised Labour; +he did not care what happened to Labour. In voting for Labour, he +seemed to have the same satisfaction as if from pique he had voted +against it because its stupidity had incensed him. + +Then, instead of returning him to the shop, his legs took him home and +upstairs, and he lay down in his own room. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +He was awakened by the presence of some one at his bedside, and the +whole of his body protested against the disturbance. + +"I couldn't make you hear with knocking," said Dr Heve, "so I came into +the room." + +"Hello, doctor, is that you?" Edwin sat up, dazed, and with a sensation +of large waves passing in slow succession through his head. "I must +have dropped asleep." + +"I hear you had a pretty bad night with him," the doctor remarked. + +"Yes. It's a mystery to me how he could keep it up." + +"I was afraid you would. Well, he's quieter now. In fact, he's +unconscious." + +"Unconscious, is he?" + +"You'll have no more trouble with the old gentleman," said the doctor. +He was looking at the window, as though at some object of great interest +to be seen thence. His tone was gentle and unaffected. For the +twentieth time Edwin privately admitted that in spite of the weak, +vacuous smile which seemed to delight everybody except himself, there +was a sympathetic quality in this bland doctor. In common moments he +was common, but in the rare moment when a man with such a smile ought to +be at his worst, a certain soft dignity would curiously distinguish his +bearing. + +"Um!" Edwin muttered, also looking at the window. And then, after a +pause, he asked: "Will it last long?" + +"I don't know," said the doctor. "The fact is, this is the first case +of Cheyne-Stokes breathing I've ever had. It may last for days." + +"How's the nurse?" Edwin demanded. + +They talked about the nurse, and then Dr Heve said that, his brother +the Vicar and he having met in the street, they had come in together, as +the Vicar was anxious to have news of his old acquaintance's condition. +It appeared that the Vicar was talking to Maggie and Janet in the +drawing-room. + +"Well," said Edwin, "I shan't come down. Tell him I'm only presentable +enough for doctors." + +With a faint smile and a nod, the doctor departed. As soon as he had +gone, Edwin jumped off the bed and looked at his watch, which showed two +o'clock. No doubt dinner was over. No doubt Maggie had decided that it +would be best to leave him alone to sleep. But that day neither he nor +anybody in the household had the sense of time, the continuous +consciousness of what the hour was. The whole systematised convention +of existence was deranged, and all values transmuted. Edwin was aware +of no feeling whatever except an intensity of curiosity to see again in +tranquillity the being with whom he had passed the night. Pushing his +hand through his hair, he hurried into the sick-room. It was all tidy +and fresh, as though nothing had ever happened in it. Mrs Nixon, +shrivelled and deaf, sat in the arm-chair, watching. No responsibility +now attached to the vigil, and so it could be left to the aged and +almost useless domestic. She gave a gesture which might have meant +anything--despair, authority, pride, grief. + +Edwin stood by the bedside and gazed. Darius lay on his back, with eyes +half-open, motionless, unseeing, unhearing, and he breathed faintly, +with the soft regularity of an infant. The struggle was finished, and +he had emerged from it with the right to breathe. His hair had been +brushed, and his beard combed. It was uncanny, this tidiness, this +calm, this passivity. The memory of the night grew fantastic and +remote. Surely the old man must spring up frantically in a moment, to +beat off his enemy! Surely his agonised cry for Clara must be ringing +through the room! But nothing of him stirred. Air came and went +through those parted and relaxed lips with the perfect efficiency of a +healthy natural function. And yet he was not asleep. His obstinate and +tremendous spirit was now withdrawn somewhere, into some fastness more +recondite than sleep; not far off; not detached, not dethroned; but +undiscoverably hidden, and beyond any summons. Edwin gazed and gazed, +until his heart could hold no more of the emotion which this +mysteriously impressive spectacle, at once majestic and poignant, +distilled into it. Then he silently left the old woman sitting dully by +the spirit concealed in its ruined home. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +In the evening he was resting on the sofa in the drawing-room. Auntie +Hamps was near him, at work on some embroidery. In order that her dear +Edwin might doze a little if he could, she refrained from speech; from +time to time she stopped her needle and looked reflectively at the +morsel of fire, or at the gas. She had been in the house since before +tea. Clara also had passed most of the day there, with a few intervals +at her own home; but now Clara was gone, and Janet too had gone. Darius +was tiring them all out, in his mild and senseless repose. He remained +absolutely still, and the enigma which he so indifferently offered to +them might apparently continue for ever; at any rate the doctor's +statement that he might keep as he was for days and days, beyond help, +hung over the entire household, discouraging and oppressive. The energy +of even Auntie Hamps was baffled. Only Alicia, who had come in, as she +said, to take Janet's place, insisted on being occupied. This was one +of the nights dedicated by family arrangement to her betrothed, but +Alicia had found pleasure in sacrificing herself, and him, to her very +busy sense of duty. + +Suddenly the drawing-room door was pushed open, without a sound, and +Alicia, in all the bursting charm of her youthfulness and the delicious +_naivete_ of her self-importance, stood in the doorway. She made no +gesture; she just looked at Edwin with a peculiar ominous and excited +glance, and Edwin rose quickly and left the room. Auntie Hamps had +noticed nothing. + +"Maggie wants you upstairs," said Alicia to Edwin. + +He made no answer. He did not ask where Maggie was. They went upstairs +together. But at the door of the sick-room Alicia hung back, +intimidated, and Edwin entered and shut the door on that beautiful image +of proud, throbbing life. + +Maggie, standing by the bed under the gas which blazed at full, turned +to him as he approached. + +"Just come and look at him," she said quietly. + +Darius lay in exactly the same position; except that his mouth was open +a little wider, he presented exactly the same appearance as in the +afternoon. His weary features, pitiful and yet grim, had exactly the +same expression. But there was no sign of breathing. Edwin bent and +listened. + +"Oh! He's dead!" he murmured. + +Maggie nodded, her eyes glittering as though set with diamonds. "I +think so," she said. + +"When was it?" + +"Scarcely a minute ago. I was sitting there, by the fire, and I thought +I noticed something--" + +"What did you notice?" + +"I don't know... I must go and tell nurse." + +She went, wiping her eyes. + +Edwin, now alone, looked again at the residue of his father. The +spirit, after hiding within so long, had departed and left no trace. It +had done with that form and was away. The vast and forlorn adventure of +the little boy from the Bastille was over. Edwin did not know that the +little boy from the Bastille was dead. He only knew that his father was +dead. It seemed intolerably tragic that the enfeebled wreck should have +had to bear so much, and yet intolerably tragic also that death should +have relieved him. But Edwin's distress was shot through and +enlightened by his solemn satisfaction at the fact that destiny had +allotted to him, Edwin, an experience of such profound and overwhelming +grandeur. His father was, and lo! he was not. That was all, but it was +ineffable. + +Maggie returned to the room, followed by Nurse Shaw, whose head was +enveloped in various bandages. Edwin began to anticipate all the +tedious formalities, as to which he would have to inform himself, of +registration and interment... + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +Ten o'clock. The news was abroad in the house. Alicia had gone to +spread it. Maggie had startled everybody by deciding to go down and +tell Clara herself, though Albert was bound to call. The nurse had laid +out the corpse. Auntie Hamps and Edwin were again in the drawing-room +together; the ageing lady was making up her mind to go. Edwin, in +search of an occupation, prepared to write letters to one or two distant +relatives of his mother. Then he remembered his promise to Big James, +and decided to write that letter first. + +"What a mercy he passed away peacefully!" Auntie Hamps exclaimed, not +for the first time. + +Edwin, at a rickety fancy desk, began to write: "Dear James, my father +passed peacefully away at--" Then, with an abrupt movement, he tore the +sheet in two and threw it in the fire, and began again: "Dear James, my +father died quietly at eight o'clock to-night." + +Soon afterwards, when Mrs Hamps had departed with her genuine but too +spectacular grief, Edwin heard an immense commotion coming down the road +from Hanbridge: cheers, shouts, squeals, penny whistles, and trumpets. +He opened the gate. + +"Who's in?" he asked a stout, shabby man, who was gesticulating in glee +with a little Tory flag on the edge of the crowd. + +"Who do _you_ think, mister?" replied the man drunkenly. + +"What majority?" + +"Four hundred and thirty-nine." + +The integrity of the empire was assured, and the paid agitator had +received a proper rebuff. + +"Miserable idiots!" Edwin murmured, with the most extraordinary +violence of scorn, as he re-entered the house, and the blare of triumph +receded. He was very much surprised. He had firmly expected his own +side to win, though he was reconciled to a considerable reduction of the +old majority. His lips curled. + +It was in his resentment, in the hard setting of his teeth as he +confirmed himself in the rightness of his own opinions, that he first +began to realise an individual freedom. "I don't care if we're beaten +forty times," his thoughts ran. "I'll be a more out-and-out Radical +than ever! I don't care, and I don't care!" And he felt sturdily that +he was free. The chain was at last broken that had bound together those +two beings so dissimilar, antagonistic, and ill-matched--Edwin +Clayhanger and his father. + + + +VOLUME FOUR, CHAPTER ONE. + +BOOK FOUR--HIS START IN LIFE. + +THE BIRTHDAY VISIT. + +It was Auntie Hamps's birthday. + +"She must be quite fifty-nine," said Maggie. + +"Oh, stuff!" Edwin contradicted her curtly. "She can't be anything +like as much as that." + +Having by this positive and sharp statement disposed of the question of +Mrs Hamps's age, he bent again with eagerness to his newspaper. The +"Manchester Examiner" no longer existing as a Radical organ, he read the +"Manchester Guardian," of which that morning's issue contained a long +and vivid obituary of Charles Stewart Parnell. + +Brother and sister were at breakfast. Edwin had changed the character +of this meal. He went fasting to business at eight o'clock, opened +correspondence, and gave orders to the wonderful Stifford, a person now +of real importance in the firm, and at nine o'clock flew by car back to +the house to eat bacon and eggs and marmalade leisurely, like a +gentleman. It was known that between nine and ten he could not be seen +at the shop. + +"Well," Maggie continued, with her mild persistence, "Aunt Spenser told +me--" + +"Who's Aunt Spenser, in God's name?" + +"You know--mother's and auntie's cousin--the fat old thing!" + +"Oh! Her!" He recalled one of the unfamiliar figures that had bent +over his father's coffin. + +"She told me auntie was either fifty-five or fifty-six, at father's +funeral. And _that's_ nearly three and a half years ago. So she must +be--" + +"Two and a half, you mean." Edwin interrupted with a sort of +savageness. + +"No, I don't. It's nearly three years since Mrs Nixon died." + +Edwin was startled to realise the passage of time. But he said nothing. +Partly he wanted to read in peace, and partly he did not want to admit +his mistake. Bit by bit he was assuming the historic privileges of the +English master of the house. He had the illusion that if only he could +maintain a silence sufficiently august his error of fact and of manner +would cease to be an error. + +"Yes; she must be fifty-nine," Maggie resumed placidly. + +"I don't care if she's a hundred and fifty-nine!" snapped Edwin. "Any +more coffee? Hot, that is." + +Without moving his gaze from the paper, he pushed his cup a little way +across the table. + +Maggie took it, her chin slightly lifting, and her cheeks showing a +touch of red. + +"I hope you didn't forget to order the inkstand, after all," she said +stiffly. "It's not been sent up yet, and I want to take it down to +auntie's myself this morning. You know what a lot she thinks of such +things!" + +It had been arranged that Auntie Hamps should receive that year a +cut-glass double inkstand from her nephew and niece. The shop +occasionally dealt in such articles. Edwin had not willingly assented +to the choice. He considered that a cut-glass double inkstand was a +vicious concession to Mrs Hamps's very vulgar taste in knick-knacks, +and, moreover, he always now discouraged retail trade at the shop. But +still, he had assented, out of indolence. + +"Well, it won't come till to-morrow," he said. + +"But, Edwin, how's that?" + +"How's that? Well, if you want to know, I didn't order it till +yesterday. I can't think of everything." + +"It's very annoying!" said Maggie sincerely. + +Edwin put on the martyr's crown. "Some people seem to think I've +nothing else to do down at my shop but order birthday presents," he +remarked with disagreeable sarcasm. + +"I think you might be a little more polite," said Maggie. + +"Do you!" + +"Yes; I do!" Maggie insisted stoutly. "Sometimes you get positively +unbearable. Everybody notices it." + +"Who's everybody?" + +"You never mind!" + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +Maggie tossed her head, and Edwin knew that when she tossed her head--a +gesture rare with her--she was tossing the tears back from her eyes. He +was more than startled, he was intimidated, by that feminine movement of +the head. She was hurt. It was absurd of her to be so susceptible, but +he had undoubtedly hurt her. He had been clumsy enough to hurt her. +She was nearing forty, and he also was close behind her on the road to +forty; she was a perfectly decent sort, and he reckoned that he, too, +was a perfectly decent sort, and yet they lacked the skill not to +bicker. They no longer had the somewhat noisy altercations of old days +concerning real or fancied interferences with the order and privacy of +Edwin's sacred chamber, but their general demeanour to one another had +dully soured. It was as if they tolerated one another, from motives of +self-interest. Why should this be so? They were, at bottom, +affectionate and mutually respectful. In a crisis they could and would +rely on one another utterly. Why should their demeanour be so false an +index to their real feelings? He supposed it was just the fault of +loose habit. He did not blame her. From mere pride he blamed himself. +He knew himself to be cleverer, more perceptive, wilier, than she; and +he ought to have been able to muster the diplomatic skill necessary for +smooth and felicitous intercourse. Any friction, whether due to her +stupidity or not, was a proof of his incompetence in the art of life... + +"Everybody notices it!" The phrase pricked him. An exaggeration, of +course! Still, a phrase that would not be dismissed by a superior curl +of the lips. Maggie was not Clara, and she did not invent allegations. +His fault! Yes, his fault! Beyond doubt he was occasionally gruff, he +was churlish, he was porcupinish. He did not mean to be so--indeed he +most honestly meant not to be so--but he was. He must change. He must +turn over a new leaf. He wished it had been his own birthday, or, +better still, the New Year, instead of his auntie's birthday, so that he +might have turned over a new leaf at once with due solemnity. He +actually remembered a pious saw uttered over twenty years earlier by +that wretch in a white tie who had damnably devised the Saturday +afternoon Bible-class, a saw which he furiously scorned--"Every day +begins a New Year." Well, every day did begin a New Year! So did every +minute. Why not begin a New Year then, in that minute? He had only to +say in a cajoling, good-natured tone, "All right, all right! Keep your +hair on, my child. I grovel!" He had only to say some such words, and +the excellent, simple, unresentful Maggie would at once be appeased. It +would be a demonstration of his moral strength to say them. + +But he could not say them. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +Nevertheless he did seriously determine to turn over a new leaf at the +very next occasion. His eyes were now following the obituary of Parnell +mechanically, without transmitting any message that his preoccupied +brain would seize. He had been astonished to find that Parnell was only +forty-five. He thought: "Why, at my age Parnell was famous--a great man +and a power!" And there was he, Edwin, eating bacon and eggs opposite +his sister in the humdrum dining-room at Bleakridge. But after all, +what was the matter with the dining-room? It was not the dining-room +that his father had left. He had altered and improved it to suit his +own taste. He was free to do so, and he had done so. He was free in +every way. The division of his father's estate according to the will +had proved unjust to himself; but he had not cared in the least. He had +let Albert do as Albert and Clara pleased. In the settlement Maggie had +taken the house (at a figure too high), and he paid her an adequate rent +for it, while she in turn paid him for her board and lodging. They were +all in clover, thanks to the terrible lifelong obstinacy of the little +boy from the Bastille. And Edwin had had the business unburdened. It +was not growing, but it brought in more than twice as much as he spent. +Soon he would be as rich as either of the girls, and that without undue +servitude. He bought books surpassing those books of Tom Orgreave which +had once seemed so hopelessly beyond his reach. He went to the theatre. +He went to concerts. He took holidays. He had been to London, and +more than once. He had a few good friends. He was his own master. +Nobody dreamed of saying him nay, and no bad habits held him in +subjection. Everywhere he was treated with quite notable respect. Even +when, partly from negligence, and partly to hide recurring pimples, he +had allowed his beard to grow, Clara herself had not dared to titter. +And although he suffered from certain disorders of the blood due to lack +of exercise and to his condition, his health could not be called bad. +The frequency of his colds had somewhat diminished. His career, which +to others probably seemed dull and monotonous, presented itself to him +as almost miraculously romantic in its development. + +And withal he could uneasily ask himself, "Am I happy?" Maggie did not +guess that, as he bent unseeing over his precious "Manchester Guardian," +he was thinking: "I must hold an inquisition upon my whole way of +existence. I must see where I stand. If ever I am to be alive, I ought +to be alive now. And I'm not at all sure whether I am." Maggie never +put such questions to herself. She went on in placidness from hour to +hour, ruffled occasionally. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +An unusual occurrence gave him the opportunity to turn over a new leaf +immediately. The sounds of the front-door bell and of voices in the +hall were followed by the proud entrance of Auntie Hamps herself into +the dining-room. + +"Now don't disturb yourselves, please," Mrs Hamps entreated. She often +began with this phrase. + +Maggie sprang up and kissed her, somewhat effusively for Maggie, and +said in a quiet, restrained tone-- + +"Many happy returns of the day, auntie." + +Then Edwin rose, scraping his arm-chair backwards along the floor, and +shook hands with her, and said with a guilty grin-- + +"A long life and a merry one, auntie!" + +"Eh!" she exclaimed, falling back with a sigh of satisfaction into a +chair by the table. "I'm sure everybody's very kind. Will you believe +me, those darling children of Clara's were round at my house before +eight o'clock this morning!" + +"Is Amy's cough better?" Maggie interjected, as she and Edwin sat down. + +"Bless ye!" cried Auntie Hamps, "I was in such a fluster I forgot to ask +the little toddler. But I didn't hear her cough. I do hope it is. +October's a bad time for coughs to begin. I ought to have asked. But +I'm getting an old woman." + +"We were just arguing whether you were thirty-eight or thirty-nine, +auntie," said Edwin. + +"What a tease he is--with his beard!" she archly retorted. "Well, your +old aunt is sixty this day." + +"Sixty!" the nephew and niece repeated together in astonishment. + +Auntie Hamps nodded. + +"You're the finest sixty I ever saw!" said Edwin, with unaffected +admiration. + +And she was fine. The pride in her eye as she made the avowal--probably +the first frank avowal of her age that had passed those lips for thirty +years--was richly justified. With her clear, rosy complexion, her white +regular teeth, her straight spine, her plump figure, her brilliant gaze, +her rapid gestures, and that authentic hair of hers falling in Victorian +curls, she offered to the world a figure that no one could regard +without a physical pleasure and stimulation. And she was so shiningly +correct in her black silk and black velvet, and in the massive jet at +her throat, and in the slenderness of her shoe! It was useless to +recall her duplicities, her mendacities, her hypocrisies, her +meannesses. At any rate she could be generous at moments, and the +splendour of her vitality sometimes, as now, hid all her faults. She +would confess to aches and pains like other folk, bouts of rheumatism +for example--but the high courage of her body would not deign to ratify +such miserable statements; it haughtily repelled the touch of time; it +kept at least the appearance of victory. If you did not like Auntie +Hamps willingly, in her hours of bodily triumph, you had to like her +unwillingly. Both Edwin and Maggie had innumerable grievances against +her, but she held their allegiance, and even their warm instinctive +affection, on the morning of her sixtieth birthday. She had been a lone +widow ever since Edwin could remember, and yet she had continued to +bloom. Nothing could desiccate nor wither her. Even her sins did not +find her out. God and she remained always on the best terms, and she +thrived on insincerity. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +"There's a little parcel for you, auntie," said Edwin, with a particular +effort to make his voice soft and agreeable. "But it's in Manchester. +It won't be here till to-morrow. My fault entirely! You know how awful +I am for putting off things." + +"We quite expected it would be here to-day," said the loyal Maggie, when +most sisters--and Clara assuredly--would have said in an eager, +sarcastic tone: "Yes, it's just like Edwin, and yet I reminded him I +don't know how many times!" (Edwin felt with satisfaction that the new +leaf was already turned. He was glad that he had said `My fault +entirely.' He now said to himself: "Maggie's all right, and so am I. I +must keep this up. Perfect nonsense, people hinting that she and I +can't get on together!") + +"Please, _please!_" Auntie Hamps entreated. "Don't talk about parcels!" +And yet they knew that if they had not talked about a parcel the ageing +lady would have been seriously wounded. "All I want is your love. You +children are all I have now. And if you knew how proud I am of you all, +seeing you all so nice and good, and respected in the town, and Clara's +little darlings beginning to run about, and such strong little things. +If only your poor mother--!" + +Impossible not to be impressed by those accents! Edwin and Maggie might +writhe under Auntie Hamps's phraseology; they might remember the most +horrible examples of her cant. In vain! They were impressed. They had +to say to themselves: "There's something very decent about her, after +all." + +Auntie Hamps looked from one to the other, and at the quiet opulence of +the breakfast-table, and the spacious solidities of the room. +Admiration and respect were in that eye, always too masculine to weep +under emotion. Undoubtedly she was proud of her nephew and nieces. And +had she not the right to be? The bearded Edwin, one of the chief +tradesmen in the town, and so fond of books, such a reader, and so quiet +in his habits! And the two girls, with nice independent fortunes: Clara +so fruitful and so winning, and Maggie so dependable, so kind! Auntie +Hamps had scarce anything else to wish for. Her ideals were fulfilled. +Undoubtedly since the death of Darius her attitude towards his children +had acquired even a certain humility. + +"Shall you be in to-morrow morning, auntie?" Maggie asked, in the +constrained silence that followed Mrs Hamps's protestations. + +"Yes, I shall," said Mrs Hamps, with assurance. "I shall be mending +curtains." + +"Well, then, I shall call. About eleven." Maggie turned to Edwin +benevolently. "It won't be too soon if I pop in at the shop a little +before eleven?" + +"No," said Edwin with equal benevolence. "It's not often Sutton's +delivery is after ten. That'll be all right. I'll have it unpacked." + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +SIX. + +He lit a cigarette. + +"Have one?" he suggested to Mrs Hamps, holding out the case. + +"I shall give you a rap over the knuckles in a minute," smiled Mrs +Hamps, who was now leaning an elbow on the table in easy intimacy. And +she went on in a peculiar tone, low, mysterious, and yet full of +vivacity: "I can't quite make out who that little nephew is that Janet +Orgreave is taking about." + +"Little nephew that Janet's taking about!" murmured Maggie, in surprise; +and to Edwin, "Do you know?" + +Edwin shook his head. "When?" he asked. + +"Well, this morning," said Mrs Hamps. "I met them as I was coming up. +She was on one side of the road, and the child was on the other--just +opposite Howson's. My belief is she'd lost all control over the little +jockey. Oh! A regular little jockey! You could see that at once. +`Now, George, come along,' she called to him. And then he shouted, `I +want you to come on this side, auntie.' Of course I couldn't stop to +see it out. She was so busy with him she only just moved to me." + +"George? George?" Maggie consulted her memory. "How old was he, +about?" + +"Seven or eight, I should say." + +"Well, it couldn't be one of Tom's children. Nor Alicia's." + +"No," said Auntie Hamps. "And I always understood that the eldest +daughter's--what's her name?" + +"Marian." + +"Marian's were all girls." + +"I believe they are. Aren't they, Edwin?" + +"How can I tell?" said Edwin. It was a marvel to him how his auntie +collected her information. Neither she nor Clara had ever been in the +slightest degree familiar with the Orgreaves, and Maggie, so far as he +knew, was not a gossiper. He thought he perceived, however, the +explanation of Mrs Hamps's visit. She had encountered in the street a +phenomenon which would not harmonise with facts of her own knowledge, +and the discrepancy had disturbed her to such an extent that she had +been obliged to call in search of relief. There was that, and there was +also her natural inclination to show herself off on her triumphant +sixtieth birthday. + +"Charles Orgreave isn't married, is he?" she inquired. + +"No," said Maggie. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +SEVEN. + +Silence fell upon this enigma of Janet's entirely unaccountable nephew. + +"Charlie _may_ be married," said Edwin humorously, at length. "You never +know! It's a funny world! I suppose you've seen," he looked +particularly at his auntie, "that your friend Parnell's dead?" + +She affected to be outraged. + +"I've seen that Parnell is dead," she rebuked him, with solemn +quietness. "I saw it on a poster as I came up. I don't want to be +uncharitable, but it was the best thing he could do. I do hope we've +heard the last of all this Home Rule now!" + +Like many people Mrs Hamps was apparently convinced that the +explanation of Parnell's scandalous fall and of his early death was to +be found in the inherent viciousness of the Home Rule cause, and also +that the circumstances of his end were a proof that Home Rule was cursed +of God. She reasoned with equal power forwards and backwards. And she +was so earnest and so dignified that Edwin was sneaped into silence. +Once more he could not keep from his face a look that seemed to +apologise for his opinions. And all the heroic and passionate grandeur +of Parnell's furious career shrivelled up to mere sordidness before the +inability of one narrow-minded and ignorant but vigorous woman to +appreciate its quality. Not only did Edwin feel apologetic for himself, +but also for Parnell. He wished he had not tried to be funny about +Parnell; he wished he had not mentioned him. The brightness of the +birthday was for an instant clouded. + +"I don't know what's coming over things!" Auntie Hamps murmured sadly, +staring out of the window at the street gay with October sun shine. +"What with that! And what with those terrible baccarat scandals. And +now there's this free education, that we ratepayers have to pay for. +They'll be giving the children of the working classes free meals next!" +she added, with remarkably intelligent anticipation. + +"Oh well! Never mind!" Edwin soothed her. + +She gazed at him in loving reproach. And he felt guilty because he only +went to chapel about once in two months, and even then from sheer moral +cowardice. + +"Can you give me those measurements, Maggie?" Mrs Hamps asked +suddenly. "I'm on my way to Brunt's." + +The women left the room together. Edwin walked idly to the window. +After all, he had been perhaps wrong concerning the motive of her visit. +The next moment he caught sight of Janet and the unaccountable nephew, +breasting the hill from Bursley, hand in hand. + + + +VOLUME FOUR, CHAPTER TWO. + +JANET'S NEPHEW. + +Edwin was a fairly conspicuous object at the dining-room window. As +Janet and the child drew level with the corner her eye accidentally +caught Edwin's. He nodded, smiling, and took the cigarette out of his +mouth and waved it. They were old friends. He was surprised to notice +that Janet blushed and became self-conscious. She returned his smile +awkwardly, and then, giving a gesture to signify her intention, she came +in at the gate. Which action surprised Edwin still more. With all her +little freedoms of manner, Janet was essentially a woman stately and +correct, and time had emphasised these qualities in her. It was not in +the least like her to pay informal, capricious calls at a quarter to ten +in the morning. + +He went to the front door and opened it. She was persuading the child +up the tiled steps. The breeze dashed gaily into the house. + +"Good morning. You're out early." + +"Good morning. Yes. We've just been down to the post-office to send +off a telegram, haven't we, George?" + +She entered the hall, the boy following, and shook hands, meeting +Edwin's gaze fairly. Her esteem for him, her confidence in him, shone +in her troubled, candid eyes. She held herself proudly, mastering her +curious constraint. "Now just see that!" she said, pointing to a fleck +of black mud on the virgin elegance of her pale brown costume. Edwin +thought anew, as he had often thought, that she was a distinguished and +delightful piece of goods. He never ceased to be flattered by her +regard. But with harsh masculine impartiality he would not minimise to +himself the increasing cleft under her chin, nor the deterioration of +her once brilliant complexion. + +"Well, young man!" Edwin greeted the boy with that insolent familiarity +which adults permit themselves to children who are perfect strangers. + +"I thought I'd just run in and introduce my latest nephew to you," said +Janet quickly, adding, "and then that would be over." + +"Oh!" Edwin murmured. "Come into the drawing-room, will you? Maggie's +upstairs." + +They passed into the drawing-room, where a servant in striped print was +languidly caressing the glass of a bookcase with a duster. "You can +leave this a bit," Edwin said curtly to the girl, who obsequiously +acquiesced and fled, forgetting a brush on a chair. + +"Sit down, will you?" Edwin urged awkwardly. "And which particular +nephew is this? I may tell you he's already raised a great deal of +curiosity in the town." + +Janet most unusually blushed again. + +"Has he?" she replied. "Well, he isn't my nephew at all really, but we +pretend he is, don't we, George? It's cosier. This is Master George +Cannon." + +"Cannon? You don't mean--" + +"You remember Mrs Cannon, don't you? Hilda Lessways? Now, Georgie, +come and shake hands with Mr Clayhanger." + +But George would not. + +TWO. + +"Indeed!" Edwin exclaimed, very feebly. He knew not whether his voice +was natural or unnatural. He felt as if he had received a heavy blow +with a sandbag over the heart: not a symbolic, but a real physical blow. +He might, standing innocent in the street, have been staggeringly +assailed by a complete stranger of mild and harmless appearance, who had +then passed tranquilly on. Dizzy astonishment held him, to the +exclusion of any other sentiment. He might have gasped, foolish and +tottering: "Why--what's the meaning of this? What's happened?" He +looked at the child uncomprehendingly, idiotically. Little by little-- +it seemed an age, and was in fact a few seconds--he resumed his +faculties, and remembered that in order to keep a conventional +self-respect he must behave in such a manner as to cause Janet to +believe that her revelation of the child's identity had in no way +disturbed him. To act a friendly indifference seemed to him, then, to +be the most important duty in life. And he knew not why. + +"I thought," he said in a low voice, and then he began again, "I thought +you hadn't been seeing anything of her, of Mrs Cannon, for a long time +now." + +The child was climbing on a chair at the window that gave on the garden, +absorbed in exploration and discovery, quite ignoring the adults. +Either Janet had forgotten him, or she had no hope of controlling him +and was trusting to chance that the young wild stag would do nothing too +dreadful. + +"Well," she admitted, "we haven't." Her constraint recurred. Very +evidently she had to be careful about what she said. There were reasons +why even to Edwin she would not be frank. "I only brought him down from +London yesterday." + +Edwin trembled as he put the question-- + +"Is she here too--Mrs Cannon?" + +Somehow he could only refer to Mrs Cannon as "her" and "she." + +"Oh no!" said Janet, in a tone to indicate that there was no possibility +of Mrs Cannon being in Bursley. + +He was relieved. Yes, he was glad. He felt that he could not have +endured the sensation of her nearness, of her actually being in the next +house. Her presence at the Orgreaves' would have made the +neighbourhood, the whole town, dangerous. It would have subjected him +to the risk of meeting her suddenly at any corner. Nay, he would have +been forced to go in cold blood to encounter her. And he knew that he +could not have borne to look at her. The constraint of such an +interview would have been torture too acute. Strange, that though he +was absolutely innocent, though he had done nought but suffer, he should +feel like a criminal, should have the criminal's shifting downcast +glance! + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +"Auntie!" cried the boy. "Can't I go into this garden? There's a swing +there." + +"Oh no!" said Janet. "This isn't our garden. We must go home. We only +just called in. And big boys who won't shake hands--" + +"Yes, yes!" Edwin dreamily stopped her. "Let him go into the garden +for a minute if he wants to. You can't run off like that! Come along, +my lord." + +He saw an opportunity of speaking to her out of the child's hearing. +Janet consented, perhaps divining his wish. The child turned and stared +deliberately at Edwin, and then plunged forward, too eager to await +guidance, towards the conquest of the garden. + +Standing silent and awkward in the garden porch, they watched him +violently agitating the swing, a contrivance erected by a good-natured +Uncle Edwin for the diversion of Clara's offspring. + +"How old is he?" Edwin demanded, for the sake of saying something. + +"About nine," said Janet. + +"He doesn't look it." + +"No, but he talks it--sometimes." + +George did not in fact look his age. He was slight and small, and he +seemed to have no bones--nothing but articulations that functioned with +equal ease in all possible directions. His skin was pale and unhealthy. +His eyes had an expression of fatigue, or he might have been +ophthalmic. He spoke loudly, his gestures were brusque, and his life +was apparently made up of a series of intense, absolute absorptions. +The general effect of his personality upon Edwin was not quite +agreeable, and Edwin's conclusion was that George, in addition to being +spoiled, was a profound and rather irritating egoist by nature. + +"By the way," he murmured, "what's _Mr_ Cannon?" + +"Oh!" said Janet, hesitating, with emotion, "she's a widow." + +He felt sick. Janet might have been a doctor who had informed him that +he was suffering from an unexpected disease, and that an operation +severe and perilous lay in front of him. The impartial observer in him +asked somewhat disdainfully why he should allow himself to be deranged +in this physical manner, and he could only reply feebly and very meekly +that he did not know. He felt sick. + +Suddenly he said to himself making a discovery-- + +"Of course she won't come to Bursley. She'd be ashamed to meet me." + +"How long?" he demanded of Janet. + +"It was last year, I think," said Janet, with emotion increased, her +voice heavy with the load of its sympathy. When he first knew Janet an +extraordinary quick generous concern for others had been one of her +chief characteristics. But of late years, though her deep universal +kindness had not changed, she seemed to have hardened somewhat on the +surface. Now he found again the earlier Janet. + +"You never told me." + +"The truth is, we didn't know," Janet said, and without giving Edwin +time to put another question, she continued: "The poor thing's had a +great deal of trouble, a very great deal. George's health, now! The +sea air doesn't suit him. And Hilda couldn't possibly leave Brighton." + +"Oh! She's still at Brighton?" + +"Yes." + +"Let me see--she used to be at--what was it?--Preston Street?" + +Janet glanced at him with interest: "What a memory you've got! Why, +it's ten years since she was here!" + +"Nearly!" said Edwin. "It just happened to stick in my mind. You +remember she came down to the shop to ask me about trains and things the +day she left." + +"Did she?" Janet exclaimed, raising her eyebrows. + +Edwin had been suspecting that possibly Hilda had given some hint to +Janet as to the nature of her relations with him. He now ceased to +suspect that. He grew easier. He gathered up the reins again, though +in a rather limp hand. + +"Why is she so bound to stay in Brighton?" he inquired with affected +boldness. + +"She's got a boarding-house." + +"I see. Well, it's a good thing she has a private income of her own." + +"That's just the point," said Janet sadly. "We very much doubt if she +has any private income any longer." + +Edwin waited for further details, but Janet seemed to speak unwilling. +She would follow him, but she would not lead. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +Behind them he could hear the stir of Mrs Hamps's departure. She and +Maggie were coming down the stairs. Guessing not the dramatic arrival +of Janet Orgreave and the mysterious nephew, Mrs Hamps, having peeped +into the empty dining-room, said: "I suppose the dear boy has gone," and +forthwith went herself. Edwin smiled cruelly at the thought of what her +joy would have been actually to inspect the mysterious nephew at close +quarters, and to learn the strange suspicious truth that he was not a +nephew after all. + +"Auntie!" yelled the boy across the garden. + +"Come along, we must go now," Janet retorted. + +"No! I want you to swing me. Make me swing very high." + +"George!" + +"Let him swing a bit," said Edwin. "I'll go and swing him." And +calling loud to the boy: "I'll come and swing you." + +"He's dreadfully spoiled," Janet protested. "You'll make him worse." + +"I don't care," said Edwin carelessly. + +He seemed to understand, better than he had ever done with Clara's +litter, how and why parents came to spoil their children. It was not +because they feared a struggle of wills; but because of the unreasoning +instinctive pleasure to be derived from the conferring of pleasure, +especially when the pleasure thus conferred might involve doubtful +consequences. He had not cared for the boy, did not care for him. In +theory he had the bachelor's factitious horror of a spoiled child. +Nevertheless he would now support the boy against Janet. His instinct +said: "He wants something. I can give it him. Let him have it. Never +mind consequences. He shall have it." + +He crossed the damp grass, and felt the breeze and the sun. The sky was +a moving medley of Chinese white and Prussian blue, that harmonised +admirably with the Indian red architecture which framed it on all sides. +The high trees in the garden of the Orgreaves were turning to rich +yellows and browns, and dead leaves slanted slowly down from their +summits a few reaching even the Clayhanger garden, speckling its +evergreen with ochre. On the other side of the west wall traps and +carts rattled and rumbled and creaked along Trafalgar Road. + +The child had stopped swinging, and greeted him with a most heavenly +persuasive grateful smile. A different child! A sudden angel, with +delicate distinguished gestures! ... A wondrous screwing-up of the eyes +in the sun! Weak eyes, perhaps! The thick eyebrows recalled Hilda's. +Possibly he had Hilda's look! Or was that fancy? Edwin was sure that +he would never have guessed George's parentage. + +"Now!" he warned. "Hold tight." And, going behind the boy, he strongly +clasped his slim little waist in its blue sailor-cloth, and sent the +whole affair--swing-seat and boy and all--flying to the skies. And the +boy shrieked in the violence of his ecstasy, and his cap fell on the +grass. Edwin worked hard without relaxing. + +"Go on! Go on!" The boy shriekingly commanded. + +And amid these violent efforts and brusque delicious physical contacts, +Edwin was calmly penetrated and saturated by the mystic effluence that +is disengaged from young children. He had seen his father dead, and had +thought: "Here is the most majestic and impressive enigma that the earth +can show!" But the child George--aged nine and seeming more like +seven--offered an enigma surpassing in solemnity that of death. This +was Hilda's. This was hers, who had left him a virgin. With a singular +thrilled impassivity he imagined, not bitterly, the history of Hilda. +She who was his by word and by kiss, had given her mortal frame to the +unknown Cannon--yielded it. She had conceived. At some moment when he, +Edwin, was alive and suffering, she had conceived. She had ceased to be +a virgin. Quickly, with an astounding quickness--for was not George +nine years old?--she had passed from virginity to motherhood. And he +imagined all that too; all of it; clearly. And here, swinging and +shrieking, exerting the powerful and unique charm of infancy, was the +miraculous sequel! Another individuality; a new being; definitely +formed, with character and volition of its own; unlike any other +individuality in the universe! Something fresh! Something unimaginably +created! A phenomenon absolutely original of the pride and the tragedy +of life! George! + +Yesterday she was a virgin, and to-day there was this! And this might +have been his, ought to have been his! Yes, he thrilled secretly amid +all those pushings and joltings! The mystery obsessed him. He had no +rancour against Hilda. He was incapable of rancour, except a kind of +wilful, fostered rancour in trifles. Thus he never forgave the inventor +of Saturday afternoon Bible-classes. But rancour against Hilda! No! +Her act had been above rancour, like an act of Heaven! And she existed +yet. On a spot of the earth's surface entitled Brighton, which he could +locate upon a map, she existed: a widow, in difficulty, keeping a +boarding-house. She ate, slept, struggled; she brushed her hair. He +could see her brushing her hair. And she was thirty-four--was it? The +wonder of the world amazed and shook him. And it appeared to him that +his career was more romantic than ever. + +George with dangerous abruptness wriggled his legs downwards and slipped +off the seat of the swing, not waiting for Edwin to stop it. He rolled +on the grass and jumped up in haste. He had had enough. + +"Well, want any more?" Edwin asked, breathing hard. + +The child made a shy, negative sigh, twisting his tousled head down into +his right shoulder. After all he was not really impudent, brazen. He +could show a delicious timidity. Edwin decided that he was an +enchanting child. He wanted to talk to him, but he could not think of +anything natural and reasonable to say by way of opening. + +"You haven't told me your name, you know," he began at length. "How do +I know what your name is? George, yes--but George what? George is +nothing by itself, I know ten million Georges." + +The child smiled. + +"George Edwin Cannon," he replied shyly. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +"Now, George!" came Janet's voice, more firmly than before. After all, +she meant in the end to be obeyed. She was learning her business as +aunt to this new and difficult nephew; but learn it she would, and +thoroughly! + +"Come on!" Edwin counselled the boy. + +They went together to the house. Maggie had found Janet, and the two +were conversing. Soon afterwards aunt and nephew departed. + +"How very odd!" murmured Maggie, with an unusual intonation, in the +hall, as Edwin was putting on his hat to return to the shop. But +whether she was speaking to herself or to him, he knew not. + +"What?" he asked gruffly. + +"Well," she said, "isn't it?" + +She was more like Auntie Hamps, more like Clara, than herself in that +moment. He resented the suspicious implications of her tone. He was +about to give her one of his rude, curt rejoinders, but happily he +remembered in time that scarce half an hour earlier he had turned over a +new leaf; so he kept silence. He walked down to the shop in a deep +dream. + + + +VOLUME FOUR, CHAPTER THREE. + +ADVENTURE. + +It was when Edwin fairly reached the platform at Victoria Station and +saw the grandiose express waiting its own moment to start, that the +strange irrational quality of his journey first fully impressed him and +frightened him--so much that he was almost ready to walk out of the +station again. To come gradually into London from the North, to pass +from the Manchester train half-full of Midlanders through Bloomsbury +into the preoccupied, struggling, and untidy Strand--this gave no shock, +typified nothing definite. But, having spent a night in London, +deliberately to leave it for the South, where he had never been, of +which he was entirely ignorant,--that was like an explicit +self-committal, like turning the back on the last recognisable landmark +in an ill-considered voyage of pure adventure. + +The very character of Victoria Station and of this express was different +from that of any other station and express in his experience. It was +unstrenuous, soft; it had none of the busy harshness of the Midlands; it +spoke of pleasure, relaxation, of spending free from all worry and +humiliation of getting. Everybody who came towards this train came with +an assured air of wealth and of dominion. Everybody was well dressed; +many if not most of the women were in furs; some had expensive and +delicate dogs; some had pale, elegant footmen, being too august even to +speak to porters. All the luggage was luxurious; handbags could be seen +that were worth fifteen or twenty pounds apiece. There was no question +of first, second, or third class; there was no class at all on this +train. Edwin had the apologetic air of the provincial who is determined +to be as good as anybody else. When he sat down in the vast interior of +one of those gilded vehicles he could not dismiss from his face the +consciousness that he was an intruder, that he did not belong to that +world. He was ashamed of his hand-baggage, and his gesture in tipping +the porter lacked carelessness. Of course he pretended a frowning, +absorbed interest in a newspaper--but the very newspaper was strange; he +guessed not that unless he glanced first at the penultimate column of +page one thereof he convicted himself of not knowing his way about. + +He could not think consecutively, not even of his adventure. His brain +was in a maze of anarchy. But at frequent intervals recurred the query: +"What the devil am I up to?" And he would uneasily smile to himself. +When the train rolled with all its majesty out of the station and across +the Thames, he said to himself, fearful, "Well, I've done it now!" + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +On the Thursday he had told Maggie, with affected casualness, that on +the Friday he might have to go to London, about a new machine. Sheer +invention! Fortunately Maggie had been well drilled by her father in +the manner proper to women in accepting announcements connected with +`business.' And Edwin was just as laconic and mysterious as Darius had +been about `business.' It was a word that ended arguments, or prevented +them. On the Friday he had said that he should go in the afternoon. On +being asked whether he should return on the Saturday, he had replied +that he did not know, but that he would telegraph. Whereupon Maggie had +said that if he stayed away for the week-end she should probably have +all the children up for dinner and tea. At the shop, "Stifford," he had +said, "I suppose you don't happen to know a good hotel in Brighton? I +might run down there for the week-end if I don't come back to-morrow. +But you needn't say anything." "No, sir," Stifford had discreetly +concurred in this suggestion. "They say there's really only one hotel +in Brighton, sir--the Royal Sussex. But I've never been there." Edwin +had replied: "Not the Metropole, then?" "Oh _no_, sir!" Stifford had +become a great and wonderful man, and Edwin's constant fear was that he +might lose this indispensable prop to his business. For Stifford, +having done a little irregular commercial travelling in Staffordshire +and the neighbouring counties, had been seised of the romance of +travelling; he frequented the society of real commercial travellers, and +was gradually becoming a marvellous encyclopaedia of information about +hotels, routes, and topography. + +Edwin having been to the Bank himself, instead of sending Stifford, had +departed with the minimum of ostentation. He had in fact crept away. +Since the visit of Janet and the child he had not seen either of them +again, nor had he mentioned the child to anybody at all. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +When, in an astounding short space of time, he stood in the King's Road +at Brighton, it seemed to him that he was in a dream; that he was not +really at Brighton, that town which for so many years had been to him +naught but a romantic name. Had his adventurousness, his foolhardiness, +indeed carried him so far? As for Brighton, it corresponded with no +dream. It was vaster than any imagining of it. Edwin had only seen the +pleasure cities of the poor and of the middling, such as Blackpool and +Llandudno. He had not conceived what wealth would do when it organised +itself for the purposes of distraction. The train had prepared him to a +certain extent, but not sufficiently. He suddenly saw Brighton in its +autumnal pride, Brighton beginning one of its fine week-ends, and he had +to admit that the number of rich and idle people in the world surpassed +his provincial notions. For miles westwards and miles eastwards, +against a formidable background of high, yellow and brown architecture, +persons the luxuriousness of any one of whom would have drawn remarks in +Bursley, walked or drove or rode in thronging multitudes. Edwin could +comprehend lolling by the sea in August, but in late October it seemed +unnatural, fantastic. The air was full of the trot of glossy horses and +the rattle of bits and the roll of swift wheels, and the fall of elegant +soles on endless clean pavements; it was full of the consciousness of +being correct and successful. Many of the faces were monstrously ugly, +most were dissatisfied and querulous; but they were triumphant. Even +the pale beings in enlarged perambulators, pulled solemnly to and fro by +their aged fellow-beings, were triumphant. The scared, the maimed, yes, +and the able-bodied blind trusting to the arms of friends, were +triumphant. And the enormous policemen, respectfully bland, confident +in the system which had chosen them and fattened them, gave as it were +to the scene an official benediction. + +The bricks and stucco which fronted the sea on the long embanked +promenade never sank lower than a four-storey boarding-house, and were +continually rising to the height of some gilt-lettered hotel, and at +intervals rose sheer into the skies--six, eight, ten storeys--where a +hotel, admittedly the grandest on any shore of ocean sent terra-cotta +chimneys to lose themselves amid the pearly clouds. Nearly every +building was a lodgement waiting for the rich, and nearly every great +bow-window, out of tens of thousands of bow-windows bulging forward in +an effort to miss no least glimpse of the full prospect, exhibited the +apparatus and the menials of gourmandise. And the eye, following the +interminable irregular horizontal lines of architecture, was foiled in +the far distances, and, still farther off, after a break of +indistinguishable brown, it would catch again the receding run of roofs, +simplified by atmosphere into featureless rectangles of grey against +sapphire or rose. There were two piers that strode and sprawled into +the sea, and these also were laden with correctness and with domination. +And, between the two, men were walking miraculously on the sea to build +a third, that should stride farther and deeper than the others. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +Amid the crowd, stamping and tapping his way monotonously along with the +assured obstinacy of a mendicant experienced and hardened, came a shabby +man bearing on his breast a large label with these words: "Blind through +boy throwing mortar. Discharged from four hospitals. Incurable." +Edwin's heart seemed to be constricted. He thought of the ragged +snarling touts who had fawned to him at the station, and of the +creatures locked in the cellars whence came beautiful odours of +confectionery and soup through the pavement gratings, and of the +slatternly women who kept thrusting flowers under his nose, and the +half-clad infants who skimmed before the wind yelling the names of +newspapers. All was not triumph! Where triumph was, there also must be +the conquered. + +_She_ was there, she too! Somewhere, close to him. He recalled the exact +tone of Janet's voice as she had said: "The poor thing's had a great +deal of trouble." A widow, trying to run a boarding-house and not +succeeding! Why, there were hundreds upon hundreds of boarding-houses, +all large, all imposing, all busy at the end of October! Where was hers +hidden away, her pathetic little boarding-house? Preston Street! He +knew not where Preston Street was, and he had purposely refrained from +inquiring. But he might encounter it at any moment. He was afraid to +look too closely at the street-signs as he passed them; afraid! + +"What am I doing here?" he asked himself curiously, and sometimes +pettishly. "What's my object? Where's the sense of it? I'm nothing +but a damned fool. I've got no plan. I don't know what I'm going to +do." It was true. He had no plan, and he did not know what he was +going to do. What he did most intimately know was that the idea of her +nearness made him tremble. + +"I'd much better go back at once," he said. + +He walked miles, until he came to immense and silent squares of huge +palatial houses, and wide transversal avenues running far up into the +land and into the dusk. In these vast avenues and across these vast +squares infrequent carriages sped like mechanical toys guided by +mannikins. The sound of the sea waxed. And then he saw the twinkle of +lights, and then fire ran slowly along the promenade: until the whole +map of it was drawn out in flame; and he perceived that though he had +walked a very long way, the high rampart of houses continued still +interminably beyond him. He turned. He was tired. His face caught the +full strength of the rising wind. Foam gleamed on the rising tide. In +the profound violet sky to the east stars shone and were wiped out, in +fields; but to the west, silver tarried. He had not seen Preston +Street, and it was too dark now to decipher the signs. He was glad. He +went on and on, with rapidly increasing fatigue, disgust, impatience. +The thronging multitudes had almost disappeared; but many illuminated +vehicles were flitting to and fro, and the shops were brilliant. He was +so exhausted by the pavements that he could scarcely walk. And Brighton +became for him the most sorrowful city on earth. + +"What am I doing here?" he asked himself savagely. However, by dint of +sticking doggedly to it he did in the end reach the hotel. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +After dinner, and wine, both of which, by their surprising and indeed +unique excellence, fostered the prestige of Stifford as an authority +upon hotels, Edwin was conscious of new strength and cheerfulness. He +left the crowded and rose-lit dining-room early, because he was not at +ease amid its ceremoniousness of attire and of service, and went into +the turkey-carpeted hall, whose porter suddenly sprang into propitiatory +life on seeing him. He produced a cigarette, and with passionate haste +the porter produced a match, and by his method of holding the flame to +the cigarette, deferential and yet firm, proved that his young existence +had not been wasted in idleness. When the cigarette was alight, the +porter surveyed his work with a pleased smile. + +"Another rare storm blowing up, sir," said the porter. + +"Yes," said Edwin. "It's been giving the window of my room a fine +shake." + +The porter glanced at the clock. "High tide in half an hour, sir." + +"I think I'll go out and have a look at it," said Edwin. + +"Yes, sir." + +"By the way," Edwin added, "I suppose you haven't got a map of +Brighton?" + +"Certainly, sir," said the porter, and with a rebirth of passion began +to search among the pile of time-tables and other documents on a table +behind him. + +Edwin wished he had not asked for the map. He had not meant to ask for +it. The words had said themselves. He gazed unseeing at the map for a +few instants. + +"What particular street did you want, sir?" the porter murmured. + +In deciding how to answer, it seemed to Edwin that he was deciding the +hazard of his life. + +"Preston Street." + +"Oh! Preston Street!" the porter repeated in a relieved tone, as if +assuring Edwin that there was nothing very esoteric about Preston +Street. "It's just beyond the Metropole. You know Regency Square. +Well, it's the next street after that. There's a club at the corner." + +In the afternoon, then, Edwin must have walked across the end of Preston +Street twice. This thought made him tremble as at the perception of a +danger past but unperceived at the moment. + +The porter gave his whole soul to the putting of Edwin's overcoat on +Edwin's back; he offered the hat with an obeisance, and having ushered +Edwin into the night so that the illustrious guest might view the storm, +he turned with a sudden new mysterious supply of zeal to other guests +who were now emerging from the dining-room. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +SIX. + +The hotel fronted north on an old sheltered square where no storm raged, +but simultaneously with Edwin's first glimpse of the sea the wind struck +him a tremendous blow, and continued to strike. He had the peculiar +grim joy of the Midlander and Northerner in defying an element. All the +lamps of the promenade were insecurely flickering. Grouped opposite a +small jetty was a crowd of sightseers. The dim extremity of the jetty +was wreathed in spray, and the waves ran along its side, making curved +lines on the masonry like curved lines of a rope shaken from one end. +The wet floor of the jetty shone like a mirror. Edwin approached the +crowd, and, peeping over black shoulders, could see down into the hollow +of the corner between the jetty and the sea-wall, where boys on the +steps dared the spent waves, amid jeering laughter. The crowd had the +air of being a family intimately united. Farther on was another similar +crowd, near an irregular high fountain of spray that glittered in the +dark. On the beach below, at vague distances were curious rows of +apparently tiny people silhouetted like the edge of a black saw against +an excessive whiteness. This whiteness was the sheet of foam that the +sea made. It stretched everywhere, until the eye lost it seawards. +Edwin descended to the beach, adding another tooth to the saw. The tide +ran up absolutely white in wide chords of a circle, and then, to the raw +noise of disturbed shingle, the chord vanished; and in a moment was +re-created. This play went on endlessly, hypnotising the spectators +who, beaten by the wind and deafened by sound, stared and stared, safe, +at the mysterious and menacing world of spray and foam and darkness. +Before, was the open malignant sea. Close behind, on their eminence, +the hotels rose in vast cubes of yellow light, moveless, secure, +strangely confident that nothing sinister could happen to them. + +Edwin was aware of emotion. The feel of his overcoat-collar upturned +against the chin was friendly to him amid that onset of the pathos of +the human world. He climbed back to the promenade. Always at the +bottom of his mind, the foundation of all the shifting structures in his +mind, was the consciousness of his exact geographical relation to +Preston Street. He walked westwards along the promenade. "Why am I +doing this?" he asked himself again and again. "Why don't I go home? I +must be mad to be doing this." Still his legs carried him on, past +lamp-post after lamp-post of the wind-driven promenade, now almost +deserted. And presently the high lighted windows of the grandest hotels +were to be seen, cut like square holes in the sky; and then the pier, +which had flung a string of lanterns over the waves into the storm; and +opposite the pier a dark empty space and a rectangle of gas-lamps: +Regency Square. He crossed over, and passed up the Square, and out of +it by a tiny side street, at hazard, and lo! he was in Preston Street. +He went hot and cold. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +SEVEN. + +Well, and what then? Preston Street was dark and lonely. The wind +charged furiously through it, panting towards the downs. He was in +Preston Street, but what could he do? She was behind the black walls of +one of those houses. But what then? Could he knock at the door in the +night and say: "I've come. I don't know why?" + +He said: "I shall walk up and down this street once, and then I shall go +back to the hotel. That's the only thing to do. I've gone off my head, +that's what's the matter with me! I ought to have written to her. Why +in the name of God didn't I begin by writing to her? ... Of course I +might write to her from the hotel ... send the letter by messenger, +to-night ... or early to-morrow. Yes, that's what I'll do." + +He set himself to make the perambulation of the street. Many of the +numbers were painted on the fanlights over the doors and showed plain +against illumination. Suddenly he saw the large figures `59.' He was +profoundly stirred. He had said that the matter with him was that he +had gone off his head; but now, staring at that number on the opposite +side of the street, he really did not know what was the matter with him. +He might have been dying. The front of the house was dark save for the +fanlight. He crossed over and peered down into the area and at the black +door. A brass plate: "Cannon's Boarding-House," he could read. He +perspired. It seemed to him that he could see her within the house, +mysteriously moving at her feminine tasks. Or did she lie in bed? He +had come from Bursley to London, from London to Brighton, and now he had +found her portal; it existed. The adventure seemed incredible in its +result. Enough for the present! He could stand no more. He walked +away, meaning not to return. + +When he returned, five minutes later, the fanlight was dark. Had _she_, +in the meantime, come into the hall of the house and extinguished the +gas? Strange, that all lights should be out in a boarding establishment +before ten o'clock! He stood hesitant quite near the house, holding +himself against the wind. Then the door opened a little, as it were +stealthily, and a hand and arm crept out and with a cloth polished the +face of the brass plate. He thought, in his excited fancy, that it was +her hand and arm. Within, he seemed to distinguish a dim figure. He +did not move; could not. The door opened wider, and the figure stood +revealed, a woman's. Surely it was she! She gazed at him suspiciously, +duster in hand. + +"What are you standing there for?" she questioned inimically. "We've +had enough of loiterers in this street. Please go away." + +She took him for a knave expectant of some chance to maraud. She was +not fearful, however. It was she. It was her voice. + + + +VOLUME FOUR, CHAPTER FOUR. + +IN PRESTON STREET. + +He said, "I happened to be in Brighton, so I thought I'd just call, +and--I thought I'd just call." + +She stared at him, frowning, in the dim diffused light of the street. + +"I've been seeing your little boy," he said. "I thought perhaps as I +was here you'd like to know how he was getting on." + +"Why," she exclaimed, with seeming bitterness, "you've grown a beard!" + +"Yes," he admitted foolishly, apologetically. + +"We can't stand here in this wind," she said, angry with the wind, which +was indeed blowing her hair about, and her skirts and her duster. + +She did not in words invite him to enter, but she held the door more +widely open and drew back for him to pass. He went in. She closed the +door with a bang and rattle of large old-fashioned latches, locks, and +chains, and the storm was excluded. They were in the dark of the hall. +"Wait till I put my hand on the matches," she said. Then she struck a +match, which revealed a common oil-lamp, with a reservoir of yellow +glass and a paper shade. She raised the chimney and lit the lamp, and +regulated the wick. + +Edwin kept silence. The terrible constraint which had half paralysed +him when Janet first mentioned Hilda, seized him again. He stood near +the woman who without a word of explanation or regret had jilted, +outraged, and ruined him ten years before; this was their first meeting +after their kisses in his father's shop. And yet she was not on her +knees, nor in tears, nor stammering an appeal for forgiveness. It was +rather he who was apologetic, who sought excuses. He felt somehow like +a criminal, or at least like one who commits an enormous indiscretion. + +The harsh curves of her hair were the same. Her thick eyebrows were the +same. Her blazing glance was the same. Her intensely clear intonation +was the same. But she was a profoundly changed woman. Even in his +extreme perturbation he could be sure of that. As, bending under the +lamp-shade to arrange the wick, she exposed her features to the bright +light, Edwin saw a face marred by anxiety and grief and time, the face +of a mature woman, with no lingering pretension to girlishness. She was +thirty-four, and she looked older than Maggie, and much older than +Janet. She was embittered. Her black dress was shabby and untidy, her +finger-nails irregular, discoloured, and damaged. The aspect of her +pained Edwin acutely. It seemed to him a poignant shame that time and +sorrow and misfortune could not pass over a young girl's face and leave +no mark. When he recalled what she had been, comparing the woman with +the delicious wistful freshness of the girl that lived unaltered in his +memory, he was obliged to clear his throat. The contrast was too +pathetic to be dwelt on. Only with the woman before him did he fully +appreciate the exquisite innocent simplicity of the girl. In the day of +his passion Hilda had not seemed to him very young, very simple, very +wistful. On the contrary she had seemed to have much of the knowledge +and the temper of a woman. + +Having at length subjugated the wick, she straightened her back, with a +gesture that he knew, and for one instant she was a girl again. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +"Will you come this way?" she said coldly, holding the lamp in front of +her, and opening a door. + +At the same moment another door opened at the far end of the hall; there +was a heavy footstep; a great hand and arm showed, and then Edwin had a +glimpse of a man's head and shoulders emerging from an oblong flickering +firelight. + +Hilda paused. "All right," she called to the man, who at once +disappeared, shutting the door and leaving darkness where he had been. +The large shadows cast by Hilda's lamp now had the gaunt hall to +themselves again. + +"Don't be alarmed," she laughed harshly. "It's only the broker's man." + +Edwin was tongue-tied. If Hilda were joking, what answer could be made +to such a pleasantry in such a situation? And if she were speaking the +truth, if the bailiffs really were in possession...! His life seemed to +him once again astoundingly romantic. He had loved this woman, +conquered her. And now she was a mere acquaintance, and he was +following her stiffly into the recesses of a strange and sinister abode +peopled by mysterious men. Was this a Brighton boarding-house? It +resembled nothing reputable in his experience. All was +incomprehensible. + +The room into which she led him was evidently the dining-room. Not +spacious, perhaps not quite so large as his own dining-room, it was +nearly filled by one long bare table. Eight or ten monotonous chairs +were ranged round the grey walls. In the embrasure of the window was a +wicker stand with a withered plant on its summit, and at the other end +of the room a walnut sideboard in the most horrible taste. The +mantelpiece was draped with dark knotted and rosetted cloth; within the +fender stood a small paper screen. The walls were hung with ancient and +with fairly modern engravings, some big, others little, some coloured, +others in black-and-white, but all distressing in their fatuous +ugliness. The ceiling seemed black. The whole room fulfilled pretty +accurately the scornful scrupulous housewife's notion of a lodging-house +interior. It was suspect. And in Edwin there was a good deal of the +housewife. He was appalled. Obviously the house was small--he had +known that from the outside--and the entire enterprise insignificant. +This establishment was not in the King's Road, nor on the Marine Parade, +nor at Hove; no doubt hundreds of such little places existed +precariously in a vast town like Brighton. Widows, of course, were +often in straits. And Janet had told him... Nevertheless he was +appalled, and completely at a loss to reconcile Hilda with her +environment. And then--"the broker's man!" + +At her bidding he sat down, in his overcoat, with his hat insecure on +his knee, and observed, under the lamp, the dust on the surface of the +long table. Hilda seated herself opposite, so that the lamp was between +them, hiding him from her by its circle of light. He wondered what +Maggie would have thought, and what Clara would have said, could they +have seen him in that obscurity. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +"So you've seen my boy?" she began, with no softening of tone. + +"Yes, Janet Orgreave brought him in one morning--the other day. He +didn't seem to me to be so ill as all that." + +"Ill!" she exclaimed. "He certainly wasn't ill when he left here. But +he had been. And the doctor said that this air didn't suit him--it +never had suited him. It doesn't suit some folks, you know--people can +say what they like." + +"Anyhow, he's a lively piece--no mistake about that!" + +"When he's well, he's very well," said George's mother. "But he's up +and down in a minute. And on the whole he's been on the poorly side." + +He noticed that, though there was no relapse from the correctness of her +accent, she was using just such phrases as she might have used had she +never quitted her native Turnhill. He looked round the lamp at her +furtively, and seemed to see in her shadowed face a particular local +quality of sincerity and downrightness that appealed strongly to his +admiration. (Yet ten years earlier he had considered her markedly +foreign to the Five Towns.) That this quality should have survived in +her was a proof to him that she was a woman unique. Unique she had +been, and unique she still remained. He did not know that he had long +ago lost for ever the power of seeing her with a normal vision. He +imagined in his simplicity, which disguised itself as chill critical +impartiality, that he was adding her up with clear-sighted shrewdness... +And then she was a mother! That meant a mysterious, a mystic +perfecting! For him, it was as if among all women she alone had been a +mother--so special was his view of the influence of motherhood upon her. +He drew together all the beauty of an experience almost universal, +transcendentalised it, and centred it on one being. And he was +disturbed, baffled, agitated by the effect of the secret workings of his +own unsuspected emotion. He was made sad, and sadder. He wanted to +right wrongs, to efface from hearts the memory of grief, to create +bliss; and he knew that this could never be done. He now saw Hilda +exclusively as a victim, whose misfortunes were innumerable. Imagine +this creature, with her passion for Victor Hugo, obliged by +circumstances to polish a brass door-plate surreptitiously at night! +Imagine her solitary in the awful house--with the broker's man! Imagine +her forced to separate herself from her child! Imagine the succession +of disasters that had soured her and transformed seriousness into +harshness and acridity! ... And within that envelope, what a soul must +be burning! + +"And when he begins to grow--he's scarcely _begun_ to grow yet," Hilda +continued about her offspring, "then he will need all his strength!" + +"Yes, he will," Edwin concurred heartily. + +He wanted to ask her, "Why did you call him Edwin for his second name? +Was it his father's name, or your father's, or did _you_ insist on it +yourself, because--?" But he could not ask. He could ask nothing. He +could not even ask why she had jilted him without a word. He knew +naught, and evidently she was determined to give no information. She +might at any rate have explained how she had come to meet Janet, and +under what circumstances Janet had taken possession of the child. All +was a mystery. Her face, when he avoided the lamp, shone in the midst +of a huge dark cloud of impenetrable mystery. She was too proud to +reveal anything whatever. The grand pride in her forbade her even to +excuse her conduct to himself. A terrific woman! + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +Silence fell. His constraint was excruciating. She too was nervous, +tapping the table and creaking her chair. He could not speak. + +"Shall you be going back to Bursley soon?" she demanded. In her voice +was desperation. + +"Oh yes!" he said, thankfully eager to follow up any subject. "On +Monday, I expect." + +"I wonder if you'd mind giving Janet a little parcel from me--some +things of George's? I meant to send it by post, but if you--" + +"Of course! With pleasure!" He seemed to implore her. + +"It's quite small," she said, rising and going to the sideboard, on +which lay a little brown-paper parcel. + +His eye followed her. She picked up the parcel, glanced at it, and +offered it to him. + +"I'll take it across on Monday night," he said fervently. + +"Thanks." + +She remained standing; he got up. + +"No message or anything?" he suggested. + +"Oh!" she said coldly, "I write, you know." + +"Well--" He made the gesture of departing. There was no alternative. + +"We're having very rough weather, aren't we?" she said, with careless +conventionality, as she took the lamp. + +In the hall, when she held out her hand, he wanted tremendously to +squeeze it, to give her through his hand the message of sympathy which +his tongue, intimidated by her manner, dared not give. But his hand +also refused to obey him. The clasp was strictly ceremonious. As she +was drawing the heavy latch of the door he forced himself to say, "I'm +in Brighton sometimes, off and on. Now I know where you are, I must +look you up." + +She made no answer. She merely said good night as he passed out into +the street and the wind. The door banged. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +Edwin took a long breath. He had seen her! Yes, but the interview had +been worse than his worst expectations. He had surpassed himself in +futility, in fatuous lack of enterprise. He had behaved liked a +schoolboy. Now, as he plunged up the street with the wind, he could +devise easily a dozen ways of animating and guiding and controlling the +interview so that, even if sad, its sadness might have been agreeable. +The interview had been hell, ineffable torture, a perfect crime of +clumsiness. It had resulted in nothing. (Except, of course, that he +had seen her--that fact was indisputable.) He blamed himself. He +cursed himself with really extraordinary savageness. + +"Why did I go near her?" he demanded. "Why couldn't I keep away? I've +simply made myself look a blasted fool! Creeping and crawling round +her! ... After all, she _did_ throw me over! And now she asks me to take +a parcel to her confounded kid! The whole thing's ridiculous! And +what's going to happen to her in that hole? I don't suppose she's got +the least notion of looking after herself. Impossible--the whole thing! +If anybody had told me that I should--that she'd--" Half of which talk +was simple bluster. The parcel was bobbing on its loop against his +side. + +When he reached the top of the street he discovered that he had been +going up it instead of down it. "What am I thinking of?" he grumbled +impatiently. However, he would not turn back. He adventured forward, +climbing into latitudes whose geography was strange to him, and scarcely +seeing a single fellow-wanderer beneath the gas-lamps. Presently, after +a steep hill, he came to a churchyard, and then he redescended, and at +last tumbled into a street alive with people who had emerged from a +theatre, laughing, lighting cigarettes, linking arms. Their existence +seemed shallow, purposeless, infantile, compared to his. He felt +himself superior to them. What did they know about life? He would not +change with any of them. + +Recognising the label on an omnibus, he followed its direction, and +arrived almost immediately in the vast square which contained his hotel, +and which was illuminated by the brilliant facades of several hotels. +The doors of the Royal Sussex were locked, because eleven o'clock had +struck. He could not account for the period of nearly three hours which +had passed since he left the hotel. The zealous porter, observing his +shadow through the bars, had sprung to unfasten the door before he could +ring. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +SIX. + +Within the hotel reigned gaiety, wine, and the dance. Small tables had +been placed in the hall, and at these sat bald-headed men, smoking +cigars and sharing champagne with ladies of every age. A white carpet +had been laid in the large smoking-room, and through the curtained +archway that separated it from the hall, Edwin could see couples +revolving in obedience to the music of a piano and a violin. One of the +Royal Sussex's Saturday Cinderellas was in progress. The self-satisfied +gestures of men inspecting their cigars or lifting glasses, of simpering +women glancing on the sly at their jewels, and of youths pulling +straight their white waistcoats as they strolled about with the air of +Don Juans, invigorated his contempt for the average existence. The +tinkle of the music appeared exquisitely tedious in its superficiality. +He could not remain in the hall because of the incorrectness of his +attire, and the staircase was blocked, to a timid man, by elegant +couples apparently engaged in the act of flirtation. He turned, through +a group of attendant waiters, into the passage leading to the small +smoking-room which adjoined the discreetly situated bar. This +smoking-room, like a club, warm and bright, was empty, but in passing he +had caught sight of two mutually affectionate dandies drinking at the +splendid mahogany of the bar. He lit a cigarette. Seated in the +smoking-room he could hear their conversation; he was forced to hear it. + +"I'm really a very quiet man, old chap, _very_ quiet," said one, with a +wavering drawl, "but when they get at me-- I was at the Club at one +o'clock. I wasn't drunk, but I had a top on." + +"You were just gay and cheerful," the other flatteringly and soothingly +suggested, in an exactly similar wavering drawl. + +"Yes. I felt as if I wanted to go out somewhere and have another drink. +So I went to Willis's Rooms. I was in evening-dress. You know you +have to get a domino for those things. Then, of course, you're a mark +at once. I also got a nose. A girl snatched it off me. I told her +what I thought of _her_, and I got another nose. Then five fellows tried +to snatch my domino off me. Then I _did_ get angry. I landed out with my +right at the nearest chap--right on his heart. Not his face. His +heart. I lowered him. He asked me afterwards, `Was that your right?' +`Yes,' I said, `and my left's worse!' I couldn't use my left because +they were holding it. You see? You _see_?" + +"Yes," said the other impatiently, and suddenly cantankerous. "I see +that all right! Damned awful rot those Willis's Rooms affairs are +getting, if you ask me!" + +"Asses!" Edwin exploded within himself. "Idiots!" He could not +tolerate their crassness. He had a hot prejudice against them because +they were not as near the core of life as he was himself. It appeared +to him that most people died without having lived. Willis's Rooms! +Girls! Nose! Heart! ... Asses! + +He surged again out of the small room, desolating the bar with one +scornful glance as he went by. He braved the staircase, leaving those +scenes of drivelling festivity. In his bedroom, with the wind crashing +against the window, he regarded meditatively the parcel. After all, if +she had meant to have nothing to do with him, she would not have charged +him with the parcel. The parcel was a solid fact. The more he thought +about it, the more significant a fact it seemed to him. His ears sang +with the vibrating intensity of his secret existence, but from the wild +confusion of his heart he could disentangle no constant idea. + + + +VOLUME FOUR, CHAPTER FIVE. + +THE BULLY. + +The next morning he was up early, preternaturally awake. When he +descended the waiters were waiting for him, and the zealous porter stood +ready to offer him a Sunday paper, just as though in the night they had +refreshed themselves magically, without going to bed. No sign nor relic +of the Cinderella remained. He breakfasted in an absent mind, and then +went idly into the lounge, a room with one immense circular window, +giving on the Square. Rain was falling heavily. Already from the +porter, and in the very mien of the waiters, he had learnt that the +Brighton Sunday was ruined. He left the window. On a round table in +the middle of the room were ranged, with religious regularity, all the +most esoteric examples of periodical literature in our language, from +"The Iron-Trades Review" to "The Animals' Guardian." With one careless +movement he destroyed the balanced perfection of a labour into which +some menial had put his soul, and then dropped into a gigantic +easy-chair near the fire, whose thin flames were just rising through the +interstices of great black lumps of coal. + +The housekeeper, stiff with embroidered silk, swam majestically into the +lounge, bowed with a certain frigid and deferential surprise to the +early guest, and proceeded to an inquiry into dust. In a moment she +called, sharp and low-- + +"Arthur!" + +And a page ran eagerly in, to whom, in the difficult corners of +upholstery and of sculptured wood, she pointed out his sins of omission, +lashing him with a restrained voice that Edwin could scarcely hear. +Passing her hand carelessly along the beading of a door panel and then +examining her fingers, she departed. The page fetched a duster. + +"I see why this hotel has such a name," said Edwin to himself. And +suddenly the image of Hilda in that dark and frowzy tenement in Preston +Street, on that wet Sunday morning, filled his heart with a revolt +capricious and violent. He sprang to his feet, unreflecting, wilful, +and strode into the hall. + +"Can I have a cab?" he asked the porter. + +"Certainly, sir," said the porter, as if saying, "You ask me too little. +Why will you not ask for a white elephant so that I may prove my +devotion?" And within five seconds the screech of a whistle sped +through the air to the cab-stand at the corner. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +"Why am I doing this?" he once more asked himself, when he heard the +bell ring, in answer to his pull, within the house in Preston Street. +The desire for a tranquil life had always been one of his strongest +instincts, and of late years the instinct had been satisfied, and so +strengthened. Now he seemed to be obstinately searching for tumult; and +he did not know why. He trembled at the sound of movement behind the +door. "In a moment," he thought, "I shall be right in the thick of it!" + +As he was expecting, she opened the door herself; but only a little, +with the gesture habitual to women who live alone in apprehension, and +she kept her hand on the latch. + +"Good morning," he said curtly. "Can I speak to you?" + +His eye could not blaze like hers, but all his self-respect depended on +his valour now, and with desperation he affronted her. She opened the +door wider, and he stepped in, and at once began to wipe his boots on +the mat with nervous particularity. + +"Frightful morning!" he grinned. + +"Yes," she said. "Is that your cab outside?" + +He admitted that it was. + +"Perhaps if we go upstairs," she suggested. + +Thanking her, he followed her upwards into the gloom at the head of the +narrow stairs, and then along a narrow passage. The house appeared +quite as unfavourably by day as by night. It was shabby. All its tints +had merged by use and by time into one tint, nondescript and unpleasant, +in which yellow prospered. The drawing-room was larger than the +dining-room by the poor width of the hall. It was a heaped, confused +mass of chairs, sofas, small tables, draperies, embroideries, and +valueless knick-knacks. There was no peace in it for the eye, neither +on the walls nor on the floor. The gaze was driven from one ugliness to +another without rest. + +The fireplace was draped; the door was draped; the back of the piano was +draped; and none of the dark suspicious stuffs showed a clear pattern. +The faded chairs were hidden by faded antimacassars; the little futile +tables concealed their rickets under vague needlework, on which were +displayed in straw or tinsel frames pale portraits of dowdy people who +had stood like sheep before fifteenth-rate photographers. The +mantelpiece and the top of the piano were thickly strewn with fragments +of coloured earthenware. At the windows hung heavy dark curtains from +great rings that gleamed gilt near the ceiling; and lest the light which +they admitted should be too powerful it was further screened by greyish +white curtains within them. The carpet was covered in most places by +small rugs or bits of other carpets, and in the deep shadows beneath +sofas and chairs and behind the piano it seemed to slip altogether out +of existence into black nothingness. The room lacked ventilation, but +had the appearance of having been recently dusted. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +Hilda closed the draped door with a mysterious, bitter, cynical smile. + +"Sit down," she said coldly. + +"Last night," Edwin began, without sitting down, "when you mentioned the +broker's man, were you joking, or did you mean it?" + +She was taken aback. + +"Did I say `broker's man'?" + +"Well," said Edwin, "you've not forgotten, I suppose." + +She sat down, with some precision of pose, on the principal sofa. + +"Yes," she said at length. "As you're so curious. The landlords are in +possession." + +"The bailiffs still here?" + +"Yes." + +"But what are you going to do?" + +"I'm expecting them to take the furniture away to-morrow, or Tuesday at +the latest," she replied. + +"And then what?" + +"I don't know." + +"But haven't you got any money?" + +She took a purse from her pocket, and opened it with a show of impartial +curiosity. "Two-and-seven," she said. + +"Any servant in the house?" + +"What do you think?" she replied. "Didn't you see me cleaning the +door-plate last night? I _do_ like that to look nice at any rate!" + +"I don't see much use in that looking nice, when you've got the bailiffs +in, and no servant and no money," Edwin said roughly, and added, still +more roughly: "What should you do if anyone came inquiring for rooms?" +He tried to guess her real mood, but her features would betray nothing. + +"I was expecting three old ladies--sisters--next week," she said. "I'd +been hoping I could hold out till they came. They're horrid women, +though they don't know it; but they've stayed a couple of months in this +house every winter for I don't know how many years, and they're firmly +convinced it's the best house in Brighton. They're quite enough to keep +it going by themselves when they're here. But I shall have to write and +tell them not to come this time." + +"Yes," said Edwin. "But I keep asking you--what then?" + +"And I keep saying I don't know." + +"You must have some plans?" + +"I haven't." She put her lips together, and dimpled her chin, and again +cynically smiled. At any rate she had not resented his inquisition. + +"I suppose you know you're behaving like a perfect fool?" he suggested +angrily. She did not wince. + +"And what if I am? What's that got to do with you?" she asked, as if +pleasantly puzzled. + +"You'll starve. You can't live for ever on two-and-seven." + +"Well?" + +"And the boy? Is he going to starve?" + +"Oh," said Hilda, "Janet will look after him till something turns up. +The fact is, that's one reason why I allowed her to take him." + +"`Something turns up,' `something turns up!'" Edwin repeated +deliberately, letting himself go. "You make me absolutely sick! It's +absolutely incredible how some people will let things slide! What in +the name of God Almighty do you think will turn up?" + +"I don't know," she said, with a certain weakness, still trying to be +placidly bitter, and not now succeeding. + +"Where is the bailiff-johnny?" + +"He's in the kitchen with one of his friends, drinking." + +Edwin with bravado flopped his hat down forcefully on a table, pushed a +chair aside, and strode towards the door. + +"Where are you going?" she asked in alarm, standing up. + +"Where do you suppose I'm going? I'm going to find out from that chap +how much will settle it. If you can't show any common sense for +yourself, other folks must show some for you--that's all. The brokers +in the house! I never heard of such work!" + +And indeed, to a respected and successful tradesman, the entrance of the +bailiffs into a house did really seem to be the very depth of disaster +and shame for the people of that house. Edwin could not remember that +he had ever before seen a bailiff. To him a bailiff was like a bug-- +something heard of, something known to exist, but something not likely +to enter the field of vision of an honest and circumspect man. + +He would deal with the bailiff. He would have a short way with the +bailiff. Secure in the confidence of his bankers, he was ready to bully +the innocent bailiff. He would not reflect, would not pause. He had +heated himself. His steam was up, and he would not let the pressure be +weakened by argumentative hesitations. His emotion was not +disagreeable. + +When he was in the passage he heard the sound of a sob. Prudently, he +had not banged the door after him. He stopped, and listened. Was it a +sob? Then he heard another sob. He went back to the drawing-room. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +Yes! She stood in the middle of the room weeping. Save Clara, and +possibly once or twice Maggie, he had never seen a woman cry--that is, +in circumstances of intimacy; he had seen women crying in the street, +and the spectacle usually pained him. On occasion he had very nearly +made Maggie cry, and had felt exceedingly uncomfortable. But now, as he +looked at the wet eyes and the shaken bosom of Hilda Cannon, he was +aware of acute joy. Exquisite moment! Damn her! He could have taken +her and beaten her in his sudden passion--a passion not of revenge, not +of punishment! He could have made her scream with the pain that his +love would inflict. + +She tried to speak, and failed, in a storm of sobs. He had left the +door open. Half blind with tears she dashed to the door and shut it, +and then turned and fronted him, with her hands hovering near her face. + +"I can't let you do it!" she murmured imploringly, plaintively, and yet +with that still obstinate bitterness in her broken voice. + +"Then who is to do it?" he demanded, less bitterly than she had spoken, +nevertheless not softly. "Who is to keep you if I don't? Have you got +any other friends who'll stand by you?" + +"I've got the Orgreaves," she answered. + +"And do you think it would be better for the Orgreaves to keep you, or +for me?" As she made no response, he continued: "Anybody else besides +the Orgreaves?" + +"No," she muttered sulkily. "I'm not the sort of woman that makes a lot +of friends. I expect people don't like me, as a rule." + +"You're the sort of woman that behaves like a blooming infant!" he said. +"Supposing I don't help you? What then, I keep asking you? How shall +you get money? You can only borrow it--and there's nobody but Janet, +and she'd have to ask her father for it. Of course, if you'd sooner +borrow from Osmond Orgreave than from me--" + +"I don't want to borrow from any one," she protested. + +"Then you want to starve! And you want your boy to starve--or else to +live on charity! Why don't you look facts in the face? You'll have to +look them in the face sooner or later, and the sooner the better. You +think you're doing a fine thing by sitting tight and bearing it, and +saying nothing, and keeping it all a secret, until you get pitched into +the street! Let me tell you you aren't." + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +She dropped into a chair by the piano, and rested her elbows on the +curved lid of the piano. + +"You're frightfully cruel!" she sobbed, hiding her face. + +He fidgeted away to the larger of the two windows, which was bayed, so +that the room could boast a view of the sea. On the floor he noticed an +open book, pages downwards. He picked it up. It was the poems of +Crashaw, an author he had never read but had always been intending to +read. Outside, the driver of his cab was bunching up his head and +shoulders together under a large umbrella, upon which the rain +spattered. The flanks of the resigned horse glistened with rain. + +"You needn't talk about cruelty!" he remarked, staring hard at the +signboard of an optician opposite. He could hear the faint clanging of +church bells. + +After a pause she said, as if apologetically-- + +"Keeping a boarding-house isn't my line. But what could I do? My +sister-in-law had it, and I was with her. And when she died... +Besides, I dare say I can keep a boarding-house as well as plenty of +other people. But--well, it's no use going into that!" + +Edwin abruptly sat down near her. + +"Come, now," he said less harshly, more persuasively. "How much do you +owe?" + +"Oh!" she cried, pouting, and shifting her feet. "It's out of the +question! They've distrained for seventy-five pounds." + +"I don't care if they've distrained for seven hundred and seventy-five +pounds!" She seemed just like a girl to him again now, in spite of her +face and her figure. "If that was cleared off, you could carry on, +couldn't you? This is just the season. Could you get a servant in, in +time for these three sisters?" + +"I could get a charwoman, anyhow," she said unwillingly. + +"Well, do you owe anything else?" + +"There'll be the expenses." + +"Of the distraint?" + +"Yes." + +"That's nothing. I shall lend you a hundred pounds. It just happens +that I've got fifty pounds on me in notes. That and a cheque'll settle +the bailiff person, and the rest of the hundred I'll send you by post. +It'll be a bit of working capital." + +She rose and threaded between chairs and tables to the sofa, several +feet from Edwin. With a vanquished and weary sigh, she threw herself on +to the sofa. + +"I never knew there was anybody like you in the world," she breathed, +flicking away some fluff from her breast. She seemed to be regarding +him, not as a benefactor, but as a natural curiosity. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +SIX. + +He looked at her like a conqueror. He had taught her a thing or two. +He had been a man. He was proud of himself. He was proud of all sorts +of details in his conduct. The fifty pounds in notes, for example, was +not an accident. Since the death of his father, he had formed the habit +of never leaving his base of supplies without a provision far in excess +of what he was likely to need. He was extravagant in nothing, but the +humiliations of his penurious youth and early manhood had implanted in +him a morbid fear of being short of money. He had fantastically +surmised circumstances in which he might need a considerable sum at +Brighton. And lo! the sequel had transformed his morbidity into +prudence. + +"This time yesterday," he reflected, in his triumph, "I hadn't even seen +her, and didn't know where she was. Last night I was a fool. Half an +hour ago she herself hadn't a notion that I was going to get the upper +hand of her... Why, it isn't two days yet since I left home! ... And +look where I am now!" + +With pity and with joy he watched her slowly wiping her eyes. +Thirty-four, perhaps; yet a child--compared to him! But if she did not +give a natural ingenuous smile of relief, it was because she could not. +If she acted foolishly it was because of her tremendous haughtiness. +However, he had lowered that. He had shown her her master. He felt +that she had been profoundly wronged by destiny, and that gentleness +must be lavished upon her. + +In a casual tone he began to talk about the most rapid means of getting +rid of the bailiff. He could not tolerate the incubus of the bailiff a +moment longer than was absolutely unavoidable. At intervals a misgiving +shot like a thin flying needle through the solid satisfaction of his +sensations: "She is a strange and an incalculable woman--why am I doing +this?" Shot, and was gone, almost before perceived! + + + +VOLUME FOUR, CHAPTER SIX. + +THE RENDEZVOUS. + +In the afternoon the weather cleared somewhat. Edwin, vaguely blissful, +but with nothing to occupy him save reflection, sat in the lounge +drinking tea at a Moorish table. An old Jew, who was likewise drinking +tea at a Moorish table, had engaged him in conversation and was relating +the history of a burglary in which he had lost from his flat in Bolton +Street, Piccadilly, nineteen gold cigarette-cases and thirty-seven +jewelled scarf-pins, tokens of esteem and regard offered to him by +friends and colleagues at various crises of his life. The lounge was +crowded, but not with tea-drinkers. Despite the horrid dismalness of +the morning, hope had sent down from London trains full of people whose +determination was to live and to see life in a grandiose manner. And +all about the lounge of the Royal Sussex were groups of elegant youngish +men and flaxen, uneasily stylish women, inviting the assistance of +flattered waiters to decide what liqueurs they should have next. Edwin +was humanly trying to publish in nonchalant gestures the scorn which he +really felt for these nincompoops, but whose free expression was +hindered by a layer of envy. + +The hall-porter appeared, and his eye ranged like a condor's over the +field until it discovered Edwin, whom he approached with a mien of joy +and handed to him a letter. + +Edwin took the letter with an air of custom, as if he was anxious to +convince the company that his stay at the Royal Sussex was frequently +punctuated by the arrival of special missives. + +"Who brought this?" he asked. + +"An oldish man, sir," said the porter, and bowed and departed. + +The handwriting was hers. Probably the broker's man had offered to +bring the letter. In the short colloquy with him in the morning, Edwin +had liked the slatternly, coarse fellow. The bailiff could not, +unauthorised, accept cheques, but his tone in suggesting an immediate +visit to his employers had shown that he had bowels, that he sympathised +with the difficulties of careless tenants in a harsh world of landlords. +It was Hilda who, furnished with notes and cheque, had gone, in Edwin's +cab, to placate the higher powers. She had preferred to go herself, and +to go alone. Edwin had not insisted. He had so mastered her that he +could afford to yield to her in trifles. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +The letter said exactly this: "Everything is all right and settled. I +had no trouble at all. But I should like to speak to you this +afternoon. Will you meet me on the West Pier at six?--H.C." No form of +greeting! No thanks! The bare words necessary to convey a wish! On +leaving her in the morning no arrangement had been made for a further +interview. She had said nothing, and he had been too proud to ask--the +terrible pride of the benefactor! It was only by chance that it had +even occurred to him to say: "By the way, I am staying at the Royal +Sussex." She had shown no curiosity whatever about him, his doings, his +movements. She had not put to him a single question. He had intended +to call at Preston Street on the Monday morning. And now a letter from +her! Her handwriting had scarcely changed. He was to meet her on the +pier. At her own request he now had a rendezvous with her on the pier! +Why not at her house? Perhaps she was afraid of his power over her in +the house. (Curious, how she, and she almost alone, roused the +masculine force in him!) Perhaps she wanted to thank him in +surroundings which would compel both of them to be calm. That would be +like her! Essentially modest, restrained! And did she not know how to +be meek, she who was so headstrong and independent! + +He looked at the clock. The hour was not yet five. Nevertheless he +felt obliged to go out, to bestir himself. On the misty, crowded, +darkening promenade he abandoned himself afresh to indulgence in the +souvenance of the great critical scene of the morning. Yes, he had done +marvels; and fate was astoundingly kind to him also. But there was one +aspect of the affair that intrigued and puzzled him, and weakened his +self-satisfaction. She had been defeated, yet he was baffled by her. +She was a mystery within folds of mysteries. He was no nearer--he +secretly felt--to the essential Her than he had been before the short +struggle and his spectacular triumph. He wanted to reconstruct in his +fancy all her emotional existence; he wanted to get _at_ her,--to possess +her intimate mind,--and lo! he could not even recall the expressions of +her face from minute to minute during the battle. She hid herself from +him. She eluded him... Strange creature! The polishing of the +door-plate in the night! That volume of Crashaw--on the floor! Her +cold, almost daemonic smile! Her sobs! Her sudden retreats! What was +at the back of it all? He remembered her divine gesture over the fond +Shushions. He remembered the ecstatic quality of her surrender in the +shop. He remembered her first love-letter: "Every bit of me is +absolutely yours." And yet the ground seemed to be unsure beneath his +feet, and he wondered whether he had ever in reality known her, ever +grasped firmly the secret of her personality, even for an instant. + +He said to himself that he would be seeing her face to face in an hour, +and that then he would, by the ardour of his gaze, get behind those +enigmatic features to the arcana they concealed. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +Before six o'clock it was quite dark. He thought it a strange notion, +to fix a rendezvous at such an hour, on a day in autumn, in the open +air. But perhaps she was very busy, doing servant's work in the +preparation of her house for visitors. When he reached the pier gates +at five minutes to six, they were closed, and the obscure vista of the +pier as deserted as some northern pier in mid-winter. Naturally it was +closed! There was a notice prominently displayed that the pier would +close that evening at dusk. What did she mean? The truth was, he +decided, that she lived in the clouds, ordering her existence by means +of sudden and capricious decisions in which facts were neglected,--and +herein probably lay the explanation of her misfortunes. He was very +philosophical: rather amused than disturbed, because her house was +scarcely a stone's-throw away: she could not escape him. + +He glanced up and down the lighted promenade, and across the broad muddy +road towards the opening of Preston Street. The crowds had disappeared; +only scattered groups and couples, and now and then a solitary, passed +quickly in the gloom. The hotels were brilliant, and carriages with +their flitting lamps were continually stopping in front of them; but the +blackness of the shop-fronts produced the sensation of melancholy proper +to the day even in Brighton, and the renewed sound of church bells +intensified this arid melancholy. + +Suddenly he saw her, coming not across the road from Preston Street, but +from the direction of Hove. He saw her before she saw him. Under the +multiplicity of lamps her face was white and clear. He had a chance to +read in it. But he could read nothing in it save her sadness, save that +she had suffered. She seemed querulous, preoccupied, worried, and +afflicted. She had the look of one who is never free from apprehension. +Yet for him that look of hers had a quality unique, a quality that he +had never found in another, but which he was completely unable to +define. He wanted acutely to explain to himself what it was, and he +could not. + +"You are frightfully cruel," she had said. And he admitted that he had +been. Yes, he had bullied her, her who, he was convinced, had always +been the victim. In spite of her vigorous individuality she was +destined to be a victim. He was sure that she had never deserved +anything but sympathy and respect and affection. He was sure that she +was the very incarnation of honesty--possibly she was too honest for the +actual world. Did not the Orgreaves worship her? And could he himself +have been deceived in his estimate of her character? + +She recognised him only when she was close upon him. A faint, +transient, wistful smile lightened her brooding face, pale and stern. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +"Oh! There you are!" she exclaimed, in her clear voice. "Did I say +six, or five, in my note?" + +"Six." + +"I was afraid I had done, when I came here at five and didn't find you. +I'm so sorry." + +"No!" he said. "I think _I_ ought to be sorry. It's you who've had the +waiting to do. The pier's closed now." + +"It was just closing at five," she answered. "I ought to have known. +But I didn't. The fact is, I scarcely ever go out. I remembered once +seeing the pier open at night, and I thought it was always open." She +shrugged her shoulders as if stopping a shiver. + +"I hope you haven't caught cold," he said. "Suppose we walk along a +bit." + +They walked westwards in silence. He felt as though he were by the side +of a stranger, so far was he from having pierced the secret of that +face. + +As they approached one of the new glazed shelters, she said-- + +"Can't we sit down a moment. I--I can't talk standing up. I must sit +down." + +They sat down, in an enclosed seat designed to hold four. And Edwin +could feel the wind on his calves, which stretched beyond the screened +side of the structure. Odd people passed dimly to and fro in front of +them, glanced at them with nonchalant curiosity, and glanced away. On +the previous evening he had observed couples in those shelters, and had +wondered what could be the circumstances or the preferences which led +them to accept such a situation. Certainly he could not have dreamed +that within twenty-four hours he would be sitting in one of them with +her, by her appointment, at her request. He thrilled with excitement-- +with delicious anxieties. + +"Janet told you I was a widow," Hilda began, gazing at the ferule of her +umbrella, which gleamed on the ground. + +"Yes." Again she was surprising him. + +"Well, we arranged she should tell every one that. But I think you +ought to know that I'm not." + +"No?" he murmured weakly. And in one small unimportant region of his +mind he reflected with astonishment upon the hesitating but convincing +air with which Janet had lied to him. Janet! + +"After what you've done"--she paused, and went on with unblurred +clearness--"after what you've insisted on doing, I don't want there to +be any misunderstanding. I'm not a widow. My husband's in prison. +He'll be in prison for another six or seven years. That's all I wanted +to tell you." + +"I'm very sorry," he breathed. "I'd no idea you'd had this trouble." +What could he say? What could anybody have said? + +"I ought to have told you at once," she said. "I ought to have told you +last night." Another pause. "Then perhaps you wouldn't have come again +this morning." + +"Yes, I should!" he asserted eagerly. "If you're in a hole, you're in a +hole. What difference could it possibly make whether you were a widow +or not?" + +"Oh!" she said. "The wife of a convict... you know!" He felt that she +was evading the point. + +She went on: "It's a good thing my three old ladies don't know, +anyhow...! I'd no chance to tell you this morning. You were too much +for me." + +"I don't care whose wife you are!" he muttered, as though to himself, as +though resenting something said by some one who had gone away and left +him. "If you're in a hole, you're in a hole." + +She turned and looked at him. His eyes fell before hers. + +"Well," she said. "I've told you. I must go. I haven't a moment. +Good night." She held out her hand. "You don't want me to thank you a +lot, do you?" + +"That I don't!" he exclaimed. + +"Good night." + +"But--" + +"I really must go." + +He rose and gave his hand. The next instant she was gone. + +There was a deafening roar in his head. It was the complete destruction +by earthquake of a city of dreams. A calamity which left nothing--even +to be desired! A tremendous silence reigned after the event. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +On the following evening, when from the windows of the +London-to-Manchester express he saw in the gloom the high-leaping flames +of the blast-furnaces that seem to guard eternally the southern frontier +of the Five Towns, he felt that he had returned into daily reality out +of an impossible world. Waiting for the loop-line train in the familiar +tedium of Knype platform, staring at the bookstall, every item on which +he knew by heart and despised, surrounded once more by local +physiognomies, gestures, and accent, he thought to himself: "_This_ is my +lot. And if I get messing about, it only shows what a damned fool I +am!" He called himself a damned fool because Hilda had proved to have a +husband; because of that he condemned the whole expedition to Brighton +as a piece of idiocy. His dejection was profound and bitter. At first, +after Hilda had quitted him on the Sunday night, he had tried to be +cheerful, had persuaded himself indeed that he was cheerful; but +gradually his spirit had sunk, beaten and miserable. He had not called +at Preston Street again. Pride forbade, and the terror of being +misunderstood. + +And when he sat at his own table, in his own dining-room, and watched +the calm incurious Maggie dispensing to him his elaborate tea-supper +with slightly more fuss and more devotion than usual, his thoughts, had +they been somewhat less vague, might have been summed up thus: "The +right sort of women don't get landed as the wives of convicts. Can you +imagine such a thing happening to Maggie, for instance? Or Janet?" +(And yet Janet was in the secret! This disturbed the flow of his +reflections.) Hilda was too mysterious. Now she had half disclosed yet +another mystery. But what? "Why was her husband a convict? Under what +circumstances? For what crime? Where? Since when?" He knew the +answer to none of these questions. More deeply than ever was that woman +embedded in enigmas. + +"What's this parcel on the sideboard?" Maggie inquired. + +"Oh! I want you to send it in to Janet. It's from her particular +friend, Mrs Cannon--something for the kid, I believe. I ran across her +in Brighton, and she asked me if I'd bring the parcel along." + +The innocence of his manner was perfectly acted. He wondered that he +could do it so well. But really there was no danger. Nobody in +Bursley, or in the world, had the least suspicion of his past relations +with Hilda. The only conceivable danger would have been in hiding the +fact that he had met her in Brighton. + +"Of course," said Maggie, mildly interested. "I was forgetting she +lived at Brighton. Well?" and she put a few casual questions, to which +Edwin casually replied. + +"You look tired," she said later. + +He astonished her by admitting that he was. According to all precedent +her statement ought to have drawn forth a quick contradiction. + +The sad image of Hilda would not be dismissed. He had to carry it about +with him everywhere, and it was heavy enough to fatigue a stronger than +Edwin Clayhanger. The pathos of her situation overwhelmed him, argue as +he might about the immunity of `the right sort of women' from a certain +sort of disaster. On the Tuesday he sent her a post-office order for +twenty pounds. It rather more than made up the agreed sum of a hundred +pounds. She returned it, saying she did not need it. "Little fool!" he +said. He was not surprised. He was, however, very much surprised, a +few weeks later, to receive from Hilda her own cheque for eighty pounds +odd! More mystery! An absolutely incredible woman! Whence had she +obtained that eighty pounds? Needless to say, she offered no +explanation. He abandoned all conjecture. But he could not abandon the +image. And first Auntie Hamps said, and then Clara, and then even +Maggie admitted, that Edwin was sticking too close to business and +needed a change, needed rousing. Auntie Hamps urged openly that a wife +ought to be found for him. But in a few days the great talkers of the +family, Auntie Hamps and Clara, had grown accustomed to Edwin's state, +and some new topic supervened. + + + +VOLUME FOUR, CHAPTER SEVEN. + +THE WALL. + +One morning--towards the end of November--Edwin, attended by Maggie, was +rearranging books in the drawing-room after breakfast, when there came a +startling loud tap at the large central pane of the window. Both of +them jumped. + +"Who's throwing?" Edwin exclaimed. + +"I expect it's that boy," said Maggie, almost angrily. + +"Not Georgie?" + +"Yes. I wish you'd go and stop him. You've no idea what a tiresome +little thing he is. And so rough too!" + +This attitude of Maggie towards the mysterious nephew was a surprise for +Edwin. She had never grumbled about him before. In fact they had seen +little of him. For a fortnight he had not been abroad, and the rumour +ran that he was unwell, that he was `not so strong as he ought to be.' +And now Maggie suddenly charged him with a whole series of misdoings! +But it was Maggie's way to keep unpleasant things from Edwin for a time, +in order to save her important brother from being worried, and then in a +moment of tension to fling them full in his face, like a wet clout. + +"What's he been up to?" Edwin inquired for details. + +"Oh! I don't know," answered Maggie vaguely. At the same instant came +another startling blow on the window. "There!" Maggie cried, in +triumph, as if saying: "That's what he's been up to!" After all, the +windows were Maggie's own windows. + +Edwin left on the sofa a whole pile of books that he was sorting, and +went out into the garden. On the top of the wall separating him from +the Orgreaves a row of damaged earthenware objects--jugs and jars +chiefly--at once caught his eye. He witnessed the smashing of one of +them, and then he ran to the wall, and taking a spring, rested on it +with his arms, his toes pushed into crevices. Young George, with hand +outstretched to throw, in the garden of the Orgreaves, seemed rather +diverted by this apparition. + +"Hello!" said Edwin. "What are you up to?" + +"I'm practising breaking crocks," said the child. That he had acquired +the local word gave Edwin pleasure. + +"Yes, but do you know you're practising breaking my windows too? When +you aim too high you simply can't miss one of my windows." + +George's face was troubled, as he examined the facts, which had hitherto +escaped his attention, that there was a whole world of consequences on +the other side of the wall, and that a missile which did not prove its +existence against either the wall or a crock had not necessarily ceased +to exist. Edwin watched the face with a new joy, as though looking at +some wonder of nature under a microscope. It seemed to him that he now +saw vividly why children were interesting. + +"I can't see any windows from here," said George, in defence. + +"If you climb up here you'll see them all right." + +"Yes, but I can't climb up. I've tried to, a lot of times. Even when I +stood on my toes on this stump I could only just reach to put the crocks +on the top." + +"What did you want to get on the wall for?" + +"I wanted to see that swing of yours." + +"Well," said Edwin, laughing, "if you could remember the swing why +couldn't you remember the windows?" + +George shook his head at Edwin's stupidity, and looked at the ground. +"A swing isn't windows," he said. Then he glanced up with a diffident +smile: "I've often been wanting to come and see you." + +Edwin was tremendously flattered. If he had made a conquest, the child +by this frank admission had made a greater. + +"Then why didn't you come?" + +"I couldn't, by myself. Besides, my back hasn't been well. Did they +tell you?" + +George was so naturally serious that Edwin decided to be serious too. + +"I did hear something about it," he replied, with the grave confidential +tone that he would have used to a man of his own age. This treatment +was evidently appreciated by George, and always afterwards Edwin +conversed with him as with an equal, forbearing from facetiousness. + +Damp though it was, Edwin twisted himself round and sat on the wall next +to the crocks, and bent over the boy beneath, who gazed with upturned +face. + +"Why didn't you ask Auntie Janet to bring you?" + +"I don't generally ask for things that I really want," said the boy, +with a peculiar glance. + +"I see," said Edwin, with an air of comprehension. He did not, however, +comprehend. He only felt that the boy was wonderful. Imagine the boy +saying that! He bent lower. "Come on up," he said. "I'll give you a +hand. Stick your feet into that nick there." + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +In an instant George was standing on the wall, light as fluff. Edwin +held him by the legs, and his hand was on Edwin's cap. The feel of the +boy was delightful; he was so lithe and so yielding, and yet firm; and +his glance was so trustful and admiring. "Rough!" thought Edwin, +remembering Maggie's adjective. "He isn't a bit rough! Unruly? Well, +I dare say he can be unruly if he cares to be. It all depends how you +handle him." Thus Edwin reflected in the pride of conquest, holding +close to the boy, and savouring intimately his charm. Even the boy's +slightness attracted him. Difficult to believe that he was nine years +old! His body was indeed backward. So too, it appeared, was his +education. And yet was there not the wisdom of centuries in, "I don't +generally ask for things that I really want?" + +Suddenly the boy wriggled, and gave a sound of joy that was almost a +yell. "Look!" he cried. + +The covered top of the steam-car could just be seen gliding along above +the high wall that separated Edwin's garden from the street. + +"Yes," Edwin agreed. "Funny, isn't it?" But he considered that such +glee at such a trifle was really more characteristic of six or seven +than of nine years. George's face was transformed by ecstasy. + +"It's when things move like that--horizontal!" George explained, +pronouncing the word carefully. + +Edwin felt that there was no end to the surpassing strangeness of this +boy. One moment he was aged six, and the next he was talking about +horizontality. + +"Why? What do you mean?" + +"I don't know!" George sighed. "But somehow--" Then, with fresh +vivacity: "I tell you--when Auntie Janet comes to wake me up in the +morning the cat comes in too, with its tail up in the air--you know!" +Edwin nodded. "Well, when I'm lying in bed I can't see the cat, but I +can see the top of its tail sailing along the edge of the bed. But if I +sit up I can see all the cat, and that spoils it, so I don't sit up at +first." + +The child was eager for Edwin to understand his pleasure in horizontal +motion that had no apparent cause, like the tip of a cat's tail on the +horizon of a bed, or the roof of a tram-car on the horizon of the wall. +And Edwin was eager to understand, and almost persuaded himself that he +did understand; but he could not be sure. A marvellous child-- +disconcerting! He had a feeling of inferiority to the child, because +the child had seen beauty where he had not dreamed of seeing it. + +"Want a swing," he suggested, "before I have to go off to business?" + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +When it occurred to him that he had had as much violent physical +exercise as was good for his years, and that he had left his books in +disarray, and that his business demanded him, Edwin apologetically +announced that he must depart, and the child admitted that Aunt Janet +was probably waiting to give him his lessons. + +"Are you going back the way you came? You'd better. It's always best," +said Edwin. + +"Is it?" + +"Yes." + +He lifted and pushed the writhing form on to the wall, dislodging a jar, +which crashed dully on the ground. + +"Auntie Janet told me I could have them to do what I liked with. So I +break them," said George, "when they don't break themselves!" + +"I bet she never told you to put them on this wall," said Edwin. + +"No, she didn't. But it was the best place for aiming. And she told me +it didn't matter how many crocks I broke, because they make crocks here. +Do they, really?" + +"Yes." + +"Why?" + +"Because there's clay here," said Edwin glibly. + +"Where?" + +"Oh! Round about." + +"White, like that?" exclaimed George eagerly, handling a teapot without +a spout. He looked at Edwin: "Will you take me to see it? I should +like to see white ground." + +"Well," said Edwin, more cautiously, "the clay they get about here isn't +exactly white." + +"Then do they make it white?" + +"As a matter of fact the white clay comes from a long way off--Cornwall, +for instance." + +"Then why do they make the things here?" George persisted; with the +annoying obstinacy of his years. He had turned the teapot upside down. +"This was made here. It's got `Bursley' on it. Auntie Janet showed +me." + +Edwin was caught. He saw himself punished for that intellectual sloth +which leads adults to fob children off with any kind of a slipshod, +dishonestly simplified explanation of phenomena whose adequate +explanation presents difficulty. He remembered how nearly twenty years +earlier he had puzzled over the same question and for a long time had +not found the answer. + +"I'll tell you how it is," he said, determined to be conscientious. +"It's like this--" He had to pause. Queer, how hard it was to state the +thing coherently! "It's like this. In the old days they used to make +crocks anyhow, very rough, out of any old clay. And crocks were first +made here because the people found common yellow clay, and the coal to +burn it with, lying close together in the ground. You see how handy it +was for them." + +"Then the old crocks were yellow?" + +"More or less. Then people got more particular, you see, and when white +clay was found somewhere else they had it brought here, because +everybody was used to making crocks here, and they had all the works and +the tools they wanted, and the coal too. Very important, the coal! +Much easier to bring the clay to the people and the works, than cart off +all the people--and their families, don't forget--and so on, to the +clay, and build fresh works into the bargain... That's why. Now are +you sure you see?" + +George ignored the question. "I suppose they used up all the yellow +clay there was here, long ago?" + +"Not much!" said Edwin. "And they never will! You don't know what a +sagger is, I reckon?" + +"What is a sagger?" + +"Well, I can't stop to tell you all that now. But I will some time. +They make saggers out of the yellow clay." + +"Will you show me the yellow clay?" + +"Yes, and some saggers too." + +"When?" + +"I don't know. As soon as I can." + +"Will you to-morrow?" + +To-morrow happened to be Thursday. It was not Edwin's free afternoon, +but it was an afternoon to which a sort of licence attached. He yielded +to the ruthless egotism of the child. + +"All right!" he said. + +"You won't forget?" + +"You can rely on me. Ask your auntie if you may go, and if she says you +may, be ready for me to pull you up over the wall here, about three +o'clock." + +"Auntie will have to let me go," said George, in a savage tone, as Edwin +helped him to slip down into the garden of the Orgreaves. Edwin went +off to business with a singular consciousness of virtue, and with pride +in his successful manner of taming wayward children, and with a very +strong new interest in the immediate future. + + + +VOLUME FOUR, CHAPTER EIGHT. + +THE FRIENDSHIP. + +The next afternoon George's invincible energy took both himself and the +great bearded man, Edwin, to a certain spot on the hollow confines of +the town towards Turnhill, where there were several pits of marl and +clay. They stared in silence at a vast ochre's-coloured glistening +cavity in the ground, on the high edges of which grew tufts of grass +amid shards and broken bottles. In the bottom of the pit were laid +planks, and along the planks men with pieces of string tied tight round +their legs beneath the knees drew large barrows full or empty, sometimes +insecurely over pools of yellow water into which the plank sagged under +their weight, and sometimes over little hillocks and through little +defiles formed in the basin of the mine. They seemed to have no aim. +The whole cavity had a sticky look which at first amused George, but on +the whole he was not interested, and Edwin gathered that the clay-pit in +some mysterious way fell short of expectations. A mineral line of +railway which, near by, ambled at random like a pioneer over rough +country, was much more successful than the pit in winning his approval. + +"Can we go and see the saggers now?" he suggested. + +Edwin might have taken him to the manufactory in which Albert Benbow was +a partner, but he preferred not to display to the father of Clara's +offspring his avuncular patronage of George Cannon, and he chose the +works of a customer down at Shawport for whom he was printing a somewhat +ambitious catalogue. He would call at the works and talk about the +catalogue, and then incidentally mention that his young friend desired +to see saggers. + +"I suppose God put that clay there so that people could practise on it +first, before they tried the white clay," George observed, as the pair +descended Oldcastle Street. + +Decidedly he had moments of talking like an infant, like a baby of +three. Edwin recalled that Hilda used to torture herself about +questions of belief when she was not three but twenty-three. The scene +in the garden porch seemed to have happened after all not very long ago. +Yet a new generation, unconceived on that exciting and unforgettable +night, had since been born and had passed through infancy and was now +trotting and arguing and dogmatising by his side. It was strange, but +it was certainly a fact, that George regarded him as a being +immeasurably old. He still felt a boy. + +How ought he to talk to the child concerning God? He was about to make +a conventional response, when he stopped himself. "Confound it! Why +should I?" he thought. + +"If I were you I shouldn't worry about God," he said, aloud, in a casual +and perhaps slightly ironic tone. + +"Oh, I don't!" George answered positively. "But now and then He comes +into your head, doesn't He? I was only just thinking." The boy ceased, +being attracted by the marvellous spectacle of a man perilously balanced +on a crate-float driving a long-tailed pony full tilt down the steep +slope of Oldcastle Street: it was equal to a circus. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +The visit to the works was a particularly brilliant success. By good +fortune an oven was just being `drawn,' and the child had sight of the +finest, the most barbaric picture that the manufacture of earthenware, +from end to end picturesque, offers to the imaginative observer. Within +the dark and sinister bowels of the kiln, illuminated by pale rays that +came down through the upper orifice from the smoke-soiled sky, +half-naked figures moved like ghosts, strenuous and damned, among the +saggers of ware. At rapid intervals they emerged, their hairy torsos +glistening with sweat, carrying the fired ware, which was still too hot +for any but inured fingers to touch: an endless procession of plates and +saucers and cups and mugs and jugs and basins, thousands and thousands! +George stared in an enchanted silence of awe. And presently one of the +Hercules's picked him up, and held him for a moment within the portal of +the torrid kiln, and he gazed at the high curved walls, like the walls +of a gigantic tomb, and at the yellow saggers that held the ware. Now +he knew what a sagger was. + +"I'm glad you took me," he said afterwards, clearly impressed by the +authority of Edwin, who could stroll out and see such terrific goings-on +whenever he chose. During all the walk home he did not speak. + +On the Saturday, nominally in charge of his Auntie Janet, he called upon +his chum with some water-colour drawings that he had done; they showed +naked devils carrying cups and plates amid bright salmon-tinted flames: +designs horrible, and horribly crude, interesting only because a child +had done them. But somehow Edwin was obscurely impressed by them, and +also he was touched by the coincidence that George painted in +water-colours, and he, too, had once painted in water-colours. He was +moreover expected to judge the drawings as an expert. On Monday he +brought up the most complicated box of water-colours that his shop +contained, and presented it to George, who, astounded, dazed, bore it +away to his bedroom without a single word. Their friendship was sealed +and published; it became a fact recognised by the two families. + +THREE. + +About a week later, after a visit of a couple of days to Manchester, +Edwin went out into the garden as usual when breakfast was finished, and +discovered George standing on the wall. The boy had learned how to +climb the wall from his own side of it without help. + +"I say!" George cried, in a loud, rough, angry voice, as soon as he saw +Edwin at the garden door. "I've got to go off in a minute, you know." + +"Go off? Where?" + +"Home. Didn't they tell you in your house? Auntie Janet and I came to +your house yesterday, after I'd waited on the wall for you I don't know +how long, and you never came. We came to tell you, but you weren't in. +So we asked Miss Clayhanger to tell you. Didn't Miss Clayhanger tell +you?" + +"No," said Edwin. "She must have forgot." It occurred to him that even +the simple and placid Maggie had her personal prejudices, and that one +of them might be against this child. For some reason she did not like +the child. She positively could not have forgotten the child's visit +with Janet. She had merely not troubled to tell him: a touch of that +malice which, though it be as rare as radium, nevertheless exists even +in the most benignant natures. Edwin and George exchanged a silent, +puzzled glance. + +"Well, that's a nice thing!" said the boy. It was. + +"When are you going home?" + +"I'm going _now_! Mr Orgreave has to go to London to-day, and mamma +wrote to Auntie Janet yesterday to say that I must go with him, if he'd +let me, and she would meet me at London. She wants me back. So Auntie +Janet is taking me to Knype to meet Mr Orgreave there--he's gone to his +office first. And the gardener has taken my luggage in the barrow up to +Bleakridge Station. Auntie's putting her hat on. Can't you see I've +got my other clothes on?" + +"Yes," said Edwin, "I noticed that." + +"And my other hat?" + +"Yes." + +"I've promised auntie I'll come and put my overcoat on as soon as she +calls me. I say--you wouldn't believe how jammed my trunk is with that +paint box and everything! Auntie Janet had to sit on it like anything! +I say--shall you be coming to Brighton soon?" + +Edwin shook his head. + +"I never go to Brighton." + +"But when I asked you once if you'd been, you said you had." + +"So I have, but that was an accident." + +"Was it long since?" + +"Well," said Edwin, "you ought to know. It was when I brought that +parcel for you." + +"Oh! Of course!" + +Edwin was saying to himself: "She's sent for him on purpose. She's +heard that we're great friends, and she's sent for him! She means to +stop it! That's what it is!" He had no rational basis for this +assumption. It was instinctive. And yet why should she desire to +interfere with the course of the friendship? How could it react +unpleasantly on her? There obviously did not exist between mother and +son one of those passionate attachments which misfortune and sorrow +sometimes engender. She had been able to let him go. And as for +George, he seldom mentioned his mother. He seldom mentioned anybody who +was not actually present, or necessary to the fulfilment of the idea +that happened to be reigning in his heart. He lived a life of +absorption, hypnotised by the idea of the moment. These ideas succeeded +each other like a dynasty of kings, like a series of dynasties, marked +by frequent dynastic quarrels, by depositions and sudden deaths; but +George's loyalty was the same to all of them; it was absolute. + +"Well, anyhow," said he, "I shall come back here. Mother will have to +let me." + +And he jumped down from the wall into Edwin's garden, carelessly, his +hands in his pockets, with a familiar ease of gesture that implied +practice. He had in fact often done it before. But just this time-- +perhaps he was troubled by the unaccustomed clothes--having lighted on +his feet, he failed to maintain his balance and staggered back against +the wall. + +"Now, clumsy!" Edwin commented. + +The boy turned pale, and bit his lip, and then Edwin could see the tears +in his eyes. One of his peculiarities was that he had no shame whatever +about crying. He could not, or he would not, suffer stoically. Now he +put his hands to his back, and writhed. + +"Hurt yourself?" Edwin asked. + +George nodded. He was very white, and startled. At first he could not +command himself sufficiently to be able to articulate. Then he +spluttered, "My back!" He subsided gradually into a sitting posture. + +Edwin ran to him, and picked him up. But he screamed until he was set +down. At the open drawing-room window, Maggie was arranging curtains. +Edwin reluctantly left George for an instant and hurried to the window, +"I say, Maggie, bring a chair or something out, will you? This dashed +kid's fallen and hurt himself." + +"I'm not surprised," said Maggie calmly. "What surprises me is that you +should ever have given him permission to scramble over the wall and +trample all about the flower-beds the way he does!" + +However, she moved at once to obey. + +He returned to George. Then Janet's voice was heard from the other +garden, calling him: "George! Georgie! Nearly time to go!" + +Edwin put his head over the wall. + +"He's fallen and hurt his back," he answered to Janet, without any +prelude. + +"His back!" she repeated in a frightened tone. + +Everybody was afraid of that mysterious back. And George himself was +most afraid of it. + +"I'll get over the wall," said Janet. + +Edwin quitted the wall. Maggie was coming out of the house with a large +cane easy-chair and a large cushion. But George was now standing up, +though still crying. His beautiful best sailor hat lay on the winter +ground. + +"Now," said Maggie to him, "you mustn't be a baby!" + +He glared at her resentfully. She would have dropped down dead on the +spot if his wet and angry glance could have killed her. She was a +powerful woman. She seized him carefully and set him in the chair, and +supported the famous spine with the cushion. + +"I don't think he's much hurt," she decided. "He couldn't make that +noise if he was, and see how his colour's coming back!" + +In another case Edwin would have agreed with her, for the tendency of +both was to minimise an ill and to exaggerate the philosophical attitude +in the first moments of any occurrence that looked serious. But now he +honestly thought that her judgement was being influenced by her +prejudice, and he felt savage against her. The worst was that it was +all his fault. Maggie was odiously right. He ought never to have +encouraged the child to be acrobatic on the wall. It was he who had +even put the idea of the wall as a means of access into the child's +head. + +"Does it hurt?" he inquired, bending down, his hands on his knees. + +"Yes," said George, ceasing to cry. + +"Much?" asked Maggie, dusting the sailor hat and sticking it on his +head. + +"No, not much," George unwillingly admitted. Maggie could not at any +rate say that he did not speak the truth. + +Janet, having obtained steps, stood on the wall in her elaborate +street-array. + +"Who's going to help me down?" she demanded anxiously. She was not so +young and sprightly as once she had been. Edwin obeyed the call. + +Then the three of them stood round the victim's chair, and the victim, +like a god, permitted himself to be contemplated. And Janet had to hear +Edwin's account of the accident, and also Maggie's account of it, as +seen from the window. + +"I don't know what to do!" said Janet. + +"It is annoying, isn't it?" said Maggie. "And just as you were going to +the station too!" + +"I--I think I'm all right," George announced. + +Janet passed a hand down his back, as though expecting to be able to +judge the condition of his spine through the thickness of all his +clothes. + +"Are you?" she questioned doubtfully. + +"It's nothing," said Maggie, with firmness. + +"He'd be all right in the train," said Janet. "It's the walking to the +station that I'm afraid of... You never know." + +"I can carry him," said Edwin quickly. + +"Of course you can't!" Maggie contradicted. "And even if you could +you'd jog him far worse than if he walked himself." + +"There's no time to get a cab, now," said Janet, looking at her watch. +"If we aren't at Knype, father will wonder what on earth's happened, and +I don't know what his mother would say!" + +"Where's that old pram?" Edwin demanded suddenly of Maggie. + +"What? Clara's? It's in the outhouse." + +"I can run him up to the station in two jiffs in that." + +"Oh yes! Do!" said George. "You must. And then lift me into the +carriage!" + +The notion was accepted. + +"I hope it's the best thing to do," said Janet, apprehensive and +doubtful, as she hurried off to the other house in order to get the +boy's overcoat and meet Edwin and the perambulator at the gates. + +"I'm certain it is," said Maggie calmly. "There's nothing really the +matter with that child." + +"Well, it's very good of Edwin, I'm sure," said Janet. + +Edwin had already rushed for the perambulator, an ancient vehicle which +was sometimes used in the garden for infant Benbows. + +In a few moments Trafalgar Road had the spectacle of the bearded and +eminent master-printer, Edwin Clayhanger, steaming up its muddy pavement +behind a perambulator with a grown boy therein. And dozens of persons +who had not till then distinguished the boy from other boys, inquired +about his identity, and gossip was aroused. Maggie was displeased. + +In obedience to the command Edwin lifted George into the train; and the +feel of his little slippery body, and the feel of Edwin's mighty arms, +seemed to make them more intimate than ever. Except for dirty +tear-marks on his cheeks, George's appearance was absolutely normal. + +Edwin expected to receive a letter from him, but none came, and this +negligence wounded Edwin. + + + +VOLUME FOUR, CHAPTER NINE. + +THE ARRIVALS. + +On a Saturday in the early days of the following year, 1892, Edwin by +special request had gone in to take afternoon tea with the Orgreaves. +Osmond Orgreave was just convalescent after an attack of influenza, and +in the opinion of Janet wanted cheering up. The task of enlivening him +had been laid upon Edwin. The guest, and Janet and her father and +mother sat together in a group round the fire in the drawing-room. + +The drawing-room alone had grown younger with years. Money had been +spent on it rather freely. During the previous decade Osmond's family, +scattering, had become very much less costly to him, but his habits of +industry had not changed, nor his faculty for collecting money. Hence +the needs of the drawing-room, which had been pressing for quite twenty +years, had at last been satisfied; indeed Osmond was saving, through +mere lack of that energetic interest in things which is necessary to +spending. Possibly even the drawing-room would have remained +untouched--both Janet and her elder sister Marian sentimentally +preferred it as it was--had not Mrs Orgreave been `positively ashamed' +of it when her married children, including Marian, came to see her. +They were all married now, except Janet and Charlie and Johnnie; and +Alicia at any rate had a finer drawing-room than her mother. So far as +the parents were concerned Charlie might as well have been married, for +he had acquired a partnership in a practice at Ealing and seldom visited +home. Johnnie, too, might as well have been married. Since Jimmie's +wedding he had used the house strictly as a hotel, for sleeping and +eating, and not always for sleeping. He could not be retained at home. +His interests were mysterious, and lay outside it. Janet alone was +faithful to the changed drawing-room, with its new carpets and +wall-papers and upholstery. + +"I've got more grandchildren than children now," said Mrs Orgreave to +Edwin, "and I never thought to have!" + +"Have you really?" Edwin responded. "Let me see--" + +"I've got nine." + +"Ten, mother," Janet corrected. "She's forgetting her own grandchildren +now!" + +"Bless me!" exclaimed Mrs Orgreave, taking off her eyeglasses and +wiping them, "I'd missed Tom's youngest." + +"You'd better not tell Emily that," said Janet. (Emily was the mother +of Tom's children.) "Here, give me those eyeglasses, dear. You'll never +get them right with a linen handkerchief. Where's your bit of chamois?" + +Mrs Orgreave absently and in somewhat stiff silence handed over the +pince-nez! She was now quite an old woman, small, shapeless, and +delightfully easy-going, whose sense of humour had not developed with +age. She could never see a joke which turned upon her relations with +her grandchildren, and in fact the jocular members of the family had +almost ceased to employ this subject of humour. She was undoubtedly +rather foolish about her grandchildren--`fond,' as they say down there. +The parents of the grandchildren did not object to this foolishness-- +that is, they only pretended to object. The task of preventing a +pardonable weakness from degenerating into a tedious and mischievous +mania fell solely upon Janet. Janet was ready to admit that the health +of the grandchildren was a matter which could fairly be left to their +fathers and mothers, and she stood passive when Mrs Orgreave's +grandmotherly indulgences seemed inimical to their health; but Mrs +Orgreave was apt to endanger her own health in her devotion to the +profession of grandmother--for example by sitting up to unchristian +hours with a needle. Then there would be a struggle of wills, in which +of course Mrs Orgreave, being the weaker, was defeated; though her +belief survived that she and she alone, by watchfulness, advice, +sagacity, and energy, kept her children's children out of the grave. On +all other questions the harmony between Janet and her mother was +complete, and Mrs Orgreave undoubtedly considered that no mother had +ever had a daughter who combined so many virtues and charms. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +Mr Orgreave, forgetful of the company, was deciphering the "British +Medical Journal" in the twilight of the afternoon. His doctor had lent +him this esoteric periodical because there was an article therein on +influenza, and Mr Orgreave was very much interested in influenza. + +"You remember the influenza of '89, Edwin?" he asked suddenly, looking +over the top of the paper. + +"Do I?" said Edwin. "Yes, I fancy I do remember a sort of epidemic." + +"I should think so indeed!" Janet murmured. + +"Well," continued Mr Orgreave, "I'm like you. I thought it was an +epidemic. But it seems it wasn't. It was a pandemic. What's a +pandemic, now?" + +"Give it up," said Edwin. + +"You might just look in the dictionary--Ogilvie there," and while Edwin +ferreted in the bookcase, Mr Orgreave proceeded, reading: "`The +pandemic of 1889 has been followed by epidemics, and by endemic +prevalence in some areas!' So you see how many _demics_ there are! I +suppose they'd call it an epidemic we've got in the town now." + +His voice had changed on the last sentence. He had meant to be a little +facetious about the Greek words; but it was the slowly prepared and +rather exasperating facetiousness of an ageing man, and he had dropped +it listlessly, as though he himself had perceived this. Influenza had +weakened and depressed him; he looked worn, and even outworn. But not +influenza alone was responsible for his appearance. The incredible had +happened: Osmond Orgreave was getting older. His bald head was not the +worst sign of his declension, nor the thickened veins in his hands, nor +the deliberation of his gestures, nor even the unsprightliness of his +wit. The worst sign was that he was losing his terrific zest in life; +his palate for the intense savour of it was dulled. In this last attack +of influenza he had not fought against the onset of the disease. He had +been wise; he had obeyed his doctor, and laid down his arms at once; and +he showed no imprudent anxiety to resume them. Yes, a changed Osmond! +He was still one of the most industrious professional men in Bursley; +but he worked from habit, not from passion. + +When Edwin had found `pandemic' in Ogilvie, Mr Orgreave wanted to see +the dictionary for himself, and then he wanted the Greek dictionary, +which could not be discovered, and then he began to quote further from +the "British Medical Journal." + +"`It may be said that there are three well-marked types of the disease, +attacking respectively the respiratory, the digestive, and the nervous +system.' Well, I should say I'd had 'em all three. `As a rule the +attack--'" + +Thus he went on. Janet made a _moue_ at Edwin, who returned the signal. +These youngsters were united in good-natured forbearing condescension +towards Mr Orgreave. The excellent old fellow was prone to be tedious; +they would accept his tediousness, but they would not disguise from each +other their perception of it. + +"I hear the Vicar of Saint Peter's is very ill indeed," said Mrs +Orgreave, blandly interrupting her husband. + +"What? Heve? With influenza?" + +"Yes. I wouldn't tell you before because I thought it might pull you +down again." + +Mr Orgreave, in silence, stared at the immense fire. + +"What about this tea, Janet?" he demanded. + +Janet rang the bell. + +"Oh! I'd have done that!" said Edwin, as soon as she had done it. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +While Janet was pouring out the tea, Edwin restored Ogilvie to his place +in the bookcase, feeling that he had had enough of Ogilvie. + +"Not so many books here now as there used to be!" he said, vacuously +amiable, as he shut the glass door which had once protected the +treasures of Tom Orgreave. + +For a man who had been specially summoned to the task of cheering up, it +was not a felicitous remark. In the first place it recalled the days +when the house, which was now a hushed retreat where settled and precise +habits sheltered themselves from a changing world, had been an arena for +the jolly, exciting combats of outspread individualities. And in the +second place it recalled a slight difficulty between Tom and his father. +Osmond Orgreave was a most reasonable father, but no father is perfect +in reasonableness, and Osmond had quite inexcusably resented that Tom on +his marriage should take away all Tom's precious books. Osmond's +attitude had been that Tom might in decency have left, at any rate, some +of the books. It was not that Osmond had a taste for book-collecting: +it was merely that he did not care to see his house depleted and +bookcases empty. But Tom had shown no compassion. He had removed not +merely every scrap of a book belonging to himself, but also two +bookcases which he happened to have paid for. The weight of public +opinion was decidedly against Mr Orgreave, who had to yield and affect +pleasantness. Nevertheless books had become a topic which was avoided +between father and son. + +"Ah!" muttered Mr Orgreave, satirical, in response to Edwin's +clumsiness. + +"Suppose we have another gas lighted," Janet suggested. The servant had +already lighted several burners and drawn the blinds and curtains. + +Edwin comprehended that he had been a blundering fool, and that Janet's +object was to create a diversion. He lit the extra burner above her +head. She sat there rather straight and rather prim between her +parents, sticking to them, smoothing creases for them, bearing their +weight, living for them. She was the kindliest, the most dignified, the +most capable creature; but she was now an old maid. You saw it even in +the way she poured tea and dropped pieces of sugar into the cups. Her +youth was gone; her complexion was nearly gone. And though in one +aspect she seemed indispensable, in another the chief characteristic of +her existence seemed to be a tragic futility. Whenever she came +seriously into Edwin's thoughts she saddened him. Useless for him to +attempt to be gay and frivolous in that house! + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +With the inevitable passionate egotism of his humanity he almost at once +withdrew his aroused pity from her to himself. Look at himself! Was he +not also to be sympathised with? What was the object or the use of his +being alive? He worked, saved, improved his mind, voted right, +practised philosophy, and was generally benevolent; but to what end? +Was not his existence miserable and his career a respectable fiasco? He +too had lost zest. He had diligently studied both Marcus Aurelius and +Epictetus; he was enthusiastic, to others, about the merit of these two +expert daily philosophers; but what had they done for him? Assuredly +they had not enabled him to keep the one treasure of this world-zest. +The year was scarcely a week old, and he was still young enough to have +begun the year with resolutions and fresh hopes and aspirations, but +already the New Year sensation had left him, and the year might have +been dying in his heart. + +And yet what could he have done that he had not done? With what could +he reproach himself? Ought he to have continued to run after a married +woman? Ought he to have set himself titanically against the conventions +amid which he lived, and devoted himself either to secret intrigue or to +the outraging of the susceptibilities which environed him? There was +only one answer. He could not have acted otherwise than he had acted. +His was not the temperament of a rebel, nor was he the slave of his +desires. He could sympathise with rebels and with slaves, but he could +not join them; he regarded himself as spiritually their superior. + +And then the disaster of Hilda's career! He felt, more than ever, that +he had failed in sympathy with her overwhelming misfortune. In the +secrecy of his heart a full imaginative sympathy had been lacking. He +had not realised, as he seemed to realise then, in front of the fire in +the drawing-room of the Orgreaves, what it must be to be the wife of a +convict. Janet, sitting there as innocent as a doe, knew that Hilda was +the wife of a convict. But did her parents know? And was she aware +that he knew? He wondered, drinking his tea. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +Then the servant--not the Martha who had been privileged to smile on +duty if she felt so inclined--came with a tawny gold telegram on a +silver plate, and hesitated a moment as to where she should bestow it. + +"Give it to me, Selina," said Janet. + +Selina impassively obeyed, imitating as well as she could the deportment +of an automaton; and went away. + +"That's my telegram," said Mr Orgreave. "How is it addressed?" + +"Orgreave, Bleakridge, Bursley." + +"Then it's mine." + +"Oh no, it isn't!" Janet archly protested. "If you have your business +telegrams sent here you must take the consequences. I always open all +telegrams that come here, don't I, mother?" + +Mrs Orgreave made no reply, but waited with candid and fretful +impatience, thinking of her five absent children, and her ten +grandchildren, for the telegram to be opened. + +Janet opened it. + +Her lips parted to speak, and remained so in silent astonishment. "Just +read that!" she said to Edwin, passing the telegram to him; and she +added to her father: "It was for me, after all." + +Edwin read, aloud: "Am sending George down to-day. Please meet 6:30 +train at Knype. Love. Hilda." + +"Well, I never!" exclaimed Mrs Orgreave. "You don't mean to tell me +she's letting that boy travel alone! What next?" + +"Where's the telegram sent from?" asked Mr Orgreave. + +Edwin examined the official indications: "Victoria." + +"Then she's brought him up to London, and she's putting him in a train +at Euston. That's it." + +"Only there is no London train that gets to Knype at half-past six," +Edwin said. "It's 7:12, or 7:14--I forget." + +"Oh! That's near enough for Hilda," Janet smiled, looking at her watch. + +"She doesn't mean any other train?" Mrs Orgreave fearfully suggested. + +"She can't mean any other train. There is no other. Only probably +she's been looking at the wrong time-table," Janet reassured her mother. + +"Because if the poor little thing found no one to meet him at Knype--" + +"Don't worry, dear," said Janet. "The poor little thing would soon be +engaging somebody's attention. Trust him!" + +"But has she been writing to you lately?" Mrs Orgreave questioned. + +"No." + +"Then why--" + +"Don't ask _me_!" said Janet. "No doubt I shall get a letter to-morrow, +after George has come and told us everything! Poor dear, I'm glad she's +doing so much better now." + +"Is she?" Edwin murmured, surprised. + +"Oh yes!" said Janet. "She's got a regular bustling partner, and +they're that busy they scarcely know what to do. But they only keep one +little servant." + +In the ordinary way Janet and Edwin never mentioned Hilda to one +another. Each seemed to be held back by a kind of timid shame and by a +cautious suspicion. Each seemed to be inquiring: "What does _he_ know?" +"What does _she_ know?" + +"If I thought it wasn't too cold, I'd go with you to Knype," said Mr +Orgreave. + +"Now, Osmond!" Mrs Orgreave sat up. + +"Shall I go?" said Edwin. + +"Well," said Janet, with much kindliness, "I'm sure he'd be delighted to +see _you_." + +Mrs Orgreave rang the bell. + +"What do you want, mother?" + +"There'll be the bed--" + +"Don't you trouble with those things, dear," said Janet, very calmly. +"There's heaps of time." + +But Janet was just as excited as her parents. In two minutes the +excitement had spread through the whole house, like a piquant and +agreeable odour. The place was alive again. + +"I'll just step across and ask Maggie to alter supper," said Edwin, "and +then I'll call for you. I suppose we'll go down by train." + +"I'm thankful he's had influenza," observed Mrs Orgreave, implying that +thus there would be less chance of George catching the disease under her +infected roof. + +That George had been down with influenza before Christmas was the sole +information about him that Edwin obtained. Nobody appeared to consider +it worth while to discuss the possible reasons for his sudden arrival. +Hilda's caprices were accepted in that house like the visitations of +heaven. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +SIX. + +Edwin and Janet stood together on the windy and bleak down-platform of +Knype Station, awaiting the express, which had been signalled. Edwin +was undoubtedly very nervous and constrained, and it seemed to him that +Janet's demeanour lacked naturalness. + +"It's just occurred to me how she made that mistake about the time of +the train," said Edwin, chiefly because he found the silence intolerably +irksome. "It stops at Lichfield, and in running her eye across the page +she must have mixed up the Lichfield figures with the Knype figures--you +know how awkward it is in a time-table. As a matter of fact, the train +_does_ stop at Lichfield about 6:30." + +"I see," said Janet reflectively. + +And Edwin was saying to himself-- + +"It's a marvel to me how I can talk to her at all. What made me offer +to come with her? How much does she know about me and Hilda? Hilda may +have told her everything. If she's told her about her husband why +shouldn't she have told her about me? And here we are both pretending +that there's never been anything at all between me and Hilda!" + +Then the train appeared, obscure round the curve, and bore down +formidable and dark upon them, growing at every instant in stature and +in noise until it deafened and seemed to fill the station; and the +platform was suddenly in an uproar. + +And almost opposite Janet and Edwin, leaning forth high above them from +the door of a third-class carriage, the head and the shoulders of George +Cannon were displayed in the gaslight. He seemed to dominate the train +and the platform. At the windows on either side of him were adult +faces, excited by his excitement, of the people who had doubtless been +friendly to him during the journey. He distinguished Janet and Edwin +almost at once, and shouted, and then waved. + +"Hello, young son of a gun!" Edwin greeted him, trying to turn the +handle of the door. But the door was locked, and it was necessary to +call a porter, who tarried. + +"I _made_ mamma let me come!" George cried victoriously. "I told you I +should!" He was far too agitated to think of shaking hands, and seemed +to be in a state of fever. All his gestures were those of a proud, +hysterical conqueror, and like a conqueror he gazed down at Edwin and +Janet, who stood beneath him with upturned faces. He had absolutely +forgotten the existence of his acquaintances in the carriage. "Did you +know I've had the influenza? My temperature was up to 104 once--but it +didn't stay long," he added regretfully. + +When the door was at length opened, he jumped headlong, and Edwin caught +him. He shook hands with Edwin and allowed Janet to kiss him. + +"How hot you are!" Janet murmured. + +The people in the compartment passed down his luggage, and after one of +them had shouted good-bye to him twice, he remembered them, as it were +by an effort, and replied, "Good-bye, good-bye," in a quick, impatient +tone. + +It was not until his anxious and assiduous foster-parents had bestowed +him and his goods in the tranquillity of an empty compartment of the +Loop Line train that they began to appreciate the morbid unusualness of +his condition. His eyes glittered with extraordinary brilliance. He +talked incessantly, not listening to their answers. And his skin was +burning hot. + +"Why, whatever's the matter with you, my dear?" asked Janet, alarmed. +"You're like an oven!" + +"I'm thirsty," said George. "If I don't have something to drink soon, I +don't know what I shall do." + +Janet looked at Edwin. + +"There won't be time to get something at the refreshment room?" + +They both felt heavily responsible. + +"I might--" Edwin said irresolutely. + +But just then the guard whistled. + +"Never mind!" Janet comforted the child. "In twenty minutes we shall +be in the house... No! you must keep your overcoat buttoned." + +"How long have you been like that, George?" Edwin asked. "You weren't +like that when you started, surely?" + +"No," said George judicially. "It came on in the train." + +After this, he appeared to go to sleep. + +"He's certainly not well," Janet whispered. + +Edwin shrugged his shoulders. "Don't you think he's grown?" he +observed. + +"Oh yes!" said Janet. "It's astonishing, isn't it, how children shoot +up in a few weeks!" + +They might have been parents exchanging notes, instead of celibates +playing at parenthood for a hobby. + +"Mamma says I've grown an inch." George opened his eyes. "She says +it's about time I had! I dare say I shall be very tall. Are we nearly +there?" His high, curt, febrile tones were really somewhat alarming. + +When the train threw them out into the sodden waste that surrounds +Bleakridge Station, George could scarcely stand. At any rate he showed +no wish to stand. His protectors took him strongly by either arm, and +thus bore him to Lane End House, with irregular unwilling assistance +from his own feet. A porter followed with the luggage. It was an +extremely distressing passage. Each protector in secret was imagining +for George some terrible fever, of swift onslaught and fatal effect. At +length they entered the garden, thanking their gods. + +"He's not well," said Janet to her mother, who was fussily awaiting them +in the hall. Her voice showed apprehension, and she was not at all +convincing when she added: "But it's nothing serious. I shall put him +straight to bed and let him eat there." + +Instantly George became the centre of the house. The women disappeared +with him, and Edwin had to recount the whole history of the arrival to +Osmond Orgreave in the drawing-room. This recital was interrupted by +Mrs Orgreave. + +"Mr Edwin, Janet thinks if we sent for the doctor, just to be sure. As +Johnnie isn't in, would you mind--" + +"Stirling, I suppose?" said Edwin. + +Stirling was the young Scottish doctor who had recently come into the +town and taken it by storm. + +When Edwin at last went home to a much-delayed meal, he was in a +position to tell Maggie that young George Cannon had thought fit to +catch influenza a second time in a couple of months. And Maggie, +without a clear word, contrived to indicate that it was what she would +have expected from a boy of George's violent temperament. + + + +VOLUME FOUR, CHAPTER TEN. + +GEORGE AND THE VICAR. + +On the Tuesday evening Edwin came home from business at six o'clock, and +found that he was to eat alone. The servant anxiously explained that +Miss Clayhanger had gone across to the Orgreaves' to assist Miss +Orgreave. It was evident that before going Miss Clayhanger had inspired +the servant with a full sense of the importance of Mr Clayhanger's +solitary meal, and of the terrible responsibility lying upon the person +in charge of it. The girl was thrillingly alive; she would have liked +some friend or other of the house to be always seriously ill, so that +Miss Clayhanger might often leave her to the voluptuous savouring of +this responsibility whose formidableness surpassed words. Edwin, as he +went upstairs and as he came down again, was conscious of her excited +presence somewhere near him, half-visible in the warm gas-lit house, +spying upon him in order to divine the precise moment for the final +service of the meal. + +And in the dining-room the table was laid differently, so that he might +be well situated, with regard to the light, for reading. And by the +side of his plate were the newspaper, the magazines, and the book, among +which Maggie had well guessed that he would make his choice for perusal. +He was momentarily touched. He warmed his hands at the splendid fire, +and then he warmed his back, watching the servant as with little +flouncings and perkings she served, and he was touched by the placid and +perfect efficiency of Maggie as a housekeeper. Maggie gave him +something that no money could buy. + +The servant departed and shut the door. + +When he sat down he minutely changed the situation of nearly everything +on the table, so that his magazine might be lodged at exactly the right +distance and angle, and so that each necessary object might be quite +handy. He was in luxury, and he yielded himself to it absolutely. The +sense that unusual events were happening, that the course of social +existence was disturbed while his comfort was not disturbed, that danger +hung cloudy on the horizon--this sense somehow intensified the +appreciation of the hour, and positively contributed to his pleasure. +Moreover, he was agreeably excited by a dismaying anticipation affecting +himself alone. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +Two. + +The door opened again, and Auntie Hamps was shown in by the servant. +Before he could move the old lady had with overwhelming sweet +supplications insisted that he should not move--no, not even to shake +hands! He rose only to shake hands, and then fell back into his +comfort. Auntie Hamps fixed a chair for herself opposite him, and +drummed her black-gloved hands on the white table-cloth. She was +steadily becoming stouter, and those chubby little hands seemed +impossibly small against the vast mountain of fur which was crowned by +her smirking crimson face and the supreme peak of her bonnet. + +"They keep very friendly--those two," she remarked, with a strangely +significant air, when he told her where Maggie was. She had shown no +surprise at finding him alone, for the reason that she had already +learnt everything from the servant in the hall. + +"Janet and Maggie? They're friendly enough when they can be of use to +each other." + +"How _kind_ Miss Janet was when your father was ill! I'm sure Maggie +feels she must do all she can to return her kindness," Mrs Hamps +murmured, with emotion. "I shall always be grateful for her +helpfulness! She's a grand girl, a grand girl!" + +"Yes," said Edwin awkwardly. + +"She's still waiting for you," said Mrs Hamps, not archly, but sadly. + +Edwin restively poohed. At the first instant of her arrival he had been +rather glad to see her, for unusual events create a desire to discuss +them; but if she meant to proceed in that strain unuttered curses would +soon begin to accumulate for her in his heart. + +"I expect the kid must be pretty bad," he said. + +"Yes," sighed Mrs Hamps. "And probably poor Mrs Orgreave is more in +the way than anything else. And Mr Orgreave only just out of bed, as +you may say! ... That young lady must have her hands full! My word! +What a blessing it is she _has_ made such friends with Maggie!" + +Mrs Hamps had the peculiar gift, which developed into ever-increasing +perfection as her hair grew whiter, of being able to express ideas by +means of words which had no relation to them at all. Within three +minutes, by three different remarks whose occult message no stranger +could have understood but which forced itself with unpleasant clearness +upon Edwin, Mrs Hamps had conveyed, "Janet Orgreave only cultivates +Maggie because Maggie is the sister of Edwin Clayhanger." + +"You're all very devoted to that child," she said, meaning, "There is +something mysterious in that quarter which sooner or later is bound to +come out." And the meaning was so clear that Edwin was intimidated. +What did she guess? Did she know anything? To-night Auntie Hamps was +displaying her gift at its highest. + +"I don't know that Maggie's so desperately keen on the infant!" he said. + +"She's not like you about him, that's sure!" Mrs Hamps admitted. And +she went on, in a tone that was only superficially casual, "I wonder the +mother doesn't come down to him!" + +Not `his' mother--`the' mother. Odd, the effect of that trifle! Mrs +Hamps was a great artist in phrasing. + +"Oh!" said Edwin. "It's not serious enough for that." + +"Well, I'm not so sure," Auntie Hamps gravely replied. "_The Vicar is +dead._" + +The emphasis which she put on these words was tremendous. + +"Is he," Edwin stammered. "But what's that got to do with it?" + +He tried to be condescending towards her absurdly superstitious +assumption that the death of the Vicar of Saint Peter's could increase +the seriousness of George's case. And he feebly succeeded in being +condescending. Nevertheless he could not meet his auntie's gaze without +self-consciousness. For her emphasis had been double, and he knew it. +It had implied, secondly, that the death of the Vicar was an event +specially affecting Edwin's household. The rough sketch of a romance +between the Vicar and Maggie had never been completed into a picture, +but on the other hand it had never been destroyed. The Vicar and Maggie +had been supposed to be still interested in each other, despite the +Vicar's priestliness, which latterly had perhaps grown more marked, just +as his church had grown more ritualistic. It was a strange affair, +thin, elusive; but an affair it was. The Vicar and Maggie had seldom +met of recent years, they had never--so far as anyone knew--met alone; +and yet, upon the news of the Vicar's death, the first thought of nearly +everybody was for Maggie Clayhanger. + +Mrs Hamps's eyes, swimming in the satisfaction of several simultaneous +woes, said plainly, "What about poor Maggie?" + +"When did you hear?" Edwin asked. "It isn't in this afternoon's +paper." + +"I've only just heard. He died at four o'clock." + +She had come up immediately with the news as fresh as orchard fruit. + +"And the Duke of Clarence is no better," she said, in a luxurious +sighing gloom. "And I'm afraid it's all over with Cardinal Manning." +She made a peculiar noise in her throat, not quite a sigh; rather a +brave protest against the general fatality of things, stiffened by a +determination to be strong though melancholy in misfortune. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +Three. + +Maggie suddenly entered, hatted, with a jacket over her arm. + +"Hello, auntie, you here!" They had already met that morning. + +"I just called," said Mrs Hamps guiltily. Edwin felt as though Maggie +had surprised them both in some criminal act. They knew that Mr Heve +was dead. She did not know. She had to be told. He wished violently +that Auntie Hamps had been elsewhere. + +"Everything all right?" Maggie asked Edwin, surveying the table. "I +gave particular orders about the eggs." + +"As right as rain," said Edwin, putting into his voice a note of true +appreciation. He saw that her sense of duty towards him had brought her +back to the house. She had taken every precaution to ensure his +well-being, but she could not be content without seeing for herself that +the servant had not betrayed the trust. + +"How are things--across?" he inquired. + +"Well," said Maggie, frowning, "that's one reason why I came back sooner +than I meant. The doctor's just been. His temperature is getting +higher and higher. I wish you'd go over as soon as you've finished. If +you ask me, I think they ought to telegraph to his mother. But Janet +doesn't seem to think so. Of course it's enough when Mrs Orgreave +begins worrying about telegraphing for Janet to say there's no need to +telegraph. She's rather trying, Mrs Orgreave is, I must admit. All +that _I_'ve been doing is to keep her out of the bedroom. Janet has +everything on her shoulders. Mr Orgreave is just about as fidgety as +Mrs. And of course the servants have their own work to do. Naturally +Johnnie isn't in!" Her tone grew sarcastic and bitter. + +"What does Stirling say about telegraphing?" Edwin demanded. He had +intended to say `telegraphing for Mrs Cannon,' but he could not utter +the last words; he could not compel his vocal organs to utter them. He +became aware of the beating of his heart. For twenty-four hours he had +been contemplating the possibility of a summons to Hilda. Now the +possibility had developed into a probability. Nay, a certainty! Maggie +was the very last person to be alarmist. + +Maggie replied: "He says it might be as well to wait till to-morrow. +But then you know he is like that--a bit." + +"So they say," Auntie Hamps agreed. + +"Have you seen the kid?" Edwin asked. + +"About two minutes," said Maggie. "It's pitiable to watch him." + +"Why? Is he in pain?" + +"Not what you'd call pain. No! But he's so upset. Worried about +himself. He's got a terrific fever on him. I'm certain he's delirious +sometimes. Poor little thing!" + +Tears gleamed in her eyes. The plight of the boy had weakened her +prejudices against him. Assuredly he was not `rough' now. + +Astounded and frightened by those shimmering tears, Edwin exclaimed, +"You don't mean to say there's actual danger?" + +"Well--" Maggie hesitated, and stopped. + +There was silence for a moment. Edwin felt that the situation was now +further intensified. + +"I expect you've heard about the poor Vicar," Mrs Hamps funereally +insinuated. Edwin mutely damned her. + +Maggie looked up sharply. "No! ... He's not--" + +Mrs Hamps nodded twice. + +The tears vanished from Maggie's eyes, forced backwards by all the +secret pride that was in her. It was obvious that not the news of the +Vicar had originally caused those tears; but nevertheless there should +be no shadow of misunderstanding. The death of the Vicar must be +associated with no more serious sign of distress in Maggie than in +others. She must be above suspicion. For one acute moment, as he read +her thoughts and as the profound sacrificial tragedy of her entire +existence loomed less indistinctly than usual before him, Edwin ceased +to think about himself and Hilda. + +She made a quick hysterical movement. + +"I wish you'd go across, Edwin," she said harshly. + +"I'll go now," he answered, with softness. And he was glad to go. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +Four. + +It was Osmond Orgreave who opened to him the front door of Lane End +House. Maggie had told the old gentleman that she should send Edwin +over, and he was wandering vaguely about in nervous expectation. In an +instant they were discussing George's case, and the advisability of +telegraphing to Hilda. Mrs Orgreave immediately joined them in the +hall. Both father and mother clearly stood in awe of the gentle but +powerful Janet. And somehow the child was considered as her private +affair, into which others might not thrust themselves save on +sufferance. Perceiving that Edwin was slightly inclined to the course +of telegraphing, they drew him towards them as a reinforcement, but +while Mrs Orgreave frankly displayed her dependence on him, Mr +Orgreave affected to be strong, independent, and judicial. + +"I wish you'd go and speak to her," Mrs Orgreave entreated. + +"Upstairs?" + +"It won't do any harm, anyhow," said Osmond, finely indifferent. + +They went up the stairs in a procession. Edwin did not wish to tell +them about the Vicar. He could see no sense in telling them about the +Vicar. And yet, before they reached the top of the stairs, he heard +himself saying in a concerned whisper-- + +"You know about the Vicar of Saint Peter's?" + +"No." + +"Died at four o'clock." + +"Oh dear me! Dear me!" murmured Mrs Orgreave, agonised. + +Most evidently George's case was aggravated by the Vicar's death--and +not only in the eyes of Mrs Orgreave and her falsely stoic husband, but +in Edwin's eyes too! Useless for him to argue with himself about +idiotic superstitiousness! The death of the Vicar had undoubtedly +influenced his attitude towards George. + +They halted on the landing, outside a door that was ajar. Near them +burned a gas jet, and beneath the bracket was a large framed photograph +of the bridal party at Alicia's wedding. Farther along the landing were +other similar records of the weddings of Marion, Tom, and Jimmie. + +Mr Orgreave pushed the door half open. + +"Janet," said Mr Orgreave conspiratorially. + +"Well?" from within the bedroom. + +"Here's Edwin." + +Janet appeared in the doorway, pale. She was wearing an apron with a +bib. + +"I--I thought I'd just look in and inquire," Edwin said awkwardly, +fiddling with his hat and a pocket of his overcoat. "What's he like +now?" + +Janet gave details. The sick-room lay hidden behind the face of the +door, mysterious and sacred. + +"Mr Edwin thinks you ought to telegraph," said Mrs Orgreave timidly. + +"Do you?" demanded Janet. Her eyes seemed to pierce him. Why did she +gaze at him with such particularity, as though he possessed a special +interest in Hilda? + +"Well--" he muttered. "You might just wire how things are, and leave it +to her to come as she thinks fit." + +"Just so," said Mr Orgreave quickly, as if Edwin had expressed his own +thought. + +"But the telegram couldn't be delivered to-night," Janet objected. +"It's nearly half-past seven now." + +It was true. Yet Edwin was more than ever conscious of a keen desire to +telegraph at once. + +"But it would be delivered first thing in the morning," he said. "So +that she'd have more time to make arrangements if she wanted to." + +"Well, if you think like that," Janet acquiesced. + +The visage of Mrs Orgreave lightened. + +"I'll run down and telegraph myself, if you like," said Edwin. "Of +course you've written to her. She knows--" + +"Oh yes!" + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +Five. + +In a minute he was walking rapidly, with his ungainly, slouching stride, +down Trafalgar Road, his overcoat flying loose. Another crisis was +approaching, he thought. As he came to Duck Square, he met a newspaper +boy shouting shrilly and wearing the contents bill of a special edition +of the "Signal" as an apron: "Duke of Clarence. More serious bulletin." +The scourge and fear of influenza was upon the town, upon the +community, tangible, oppressive, tragic. + +In the evening calm of the shabby, gloomy post-office, holding a stubby +pencil that was chained by a cable to the wall, he stood over a blank +telegraph-form, hesitating how to word the message. Behind the counter +an instrument was ticking unheeded, and far within could be discerned +the vague bodies of men dealing with parcels. He wrote, "Cannon, 59 +Preston Street, Brighton. George's temperature 104." Then he paused, +and added, "Edwin." It was sentimental. He ought to have signed +Janet's name. And, if he was determined to make the telegram personal, +he might at least have put his surname. He knew it was sentimental, and +he loathed sentimentality. But that evening he wanted to be +sentimental. + +He crossed to the counter, and pushed the form under the wire-netting. + +A sleepy girl accepted it, and glanced mechanically at the clock, and +then wrote the hour 7:42. + +"It won't be delivered to-night," she said, looking up, as she counted +the words. + +"No, I know," said Edwin. + +"Sixpence, please." + +As he paid the sixpence he felt as though he had accomplished some +great, critical, agitating deed. And his heart asserted itself again, +thunderously beating. + + + +VOLUME FOUR, CHAPTER ELEVEN. + +BEGINNING OF THE NIGHT. + +The next day was full of strange suspense; it was coloured throughout +with that quality of strangeness which puts a new light on all quotidian +occupations and exposes their fundamental unimportance. Edwin arose to +the fact that a thick grey fog was wrapping the town. When he returned +home to breakfast at nine the fog was certainly more opaque than it had +been an hour earlier. The steam-cars passed like phantoms, with a +continuous clanging of bells. He breakfasted under gas--and alone. +Maggie was invisible, or only to be seen momentarily, flying across the +domestic horizon. She gave out that she was very busy in the attics, +cleaning those shockingly neglected rooms. "Please, sir," said the +servant, "Miss Clayhanger says she's been across to Mr Orgreave's, and +Master George is about the same." Maggie would not come and tell him +herself. On the previous evening he had not seen her after the +reception of the news about the Vicar. She had gone upstairs when he +came back from the post office. Beyond doubt, she was too disturbed, +emotionally, to be able to face him with her customary tranquillity. +She was getting over the shock with brush and duster up in the attics. +He was glad that she had not attempted to be as usual. The ordeal of +attempting to be as usual would have tried him perhaps as severely as +her. + +He went forth again into the fog in a high state of agitation, +constricted with sympathetic distress on Maggie's account, apprehensive +for the boy, and painfully expectant of the end of the day. The whole +day slipped away so, hour after monotonous hour, while people talked +about influenza and about distinguished patients, and doctors hurried +from house to house, and the fog itself seemed to be the visible mantle +of the disease. And the end of the day brought nothing to Edwin save an +acuter expectancy. George varied; on the whole he was worse; not much +worse, but worse. Dr Stirling saw him twice. No message arrived from +Hilda, nor did she come in person. Maggie watched George for five hours +in the late afternoon and evening, while Janet rested. + +At eight o'clock, when there was no further hope of a telegram from +Hilda, everybody pretended to concur in the view that Hilda, knowing her +boy better than anybody else, and having already seen him through an +attack of influenza, had not been unduly alarmed by the telegraphic news +of his temperature, and was content to write. She might probably be +arranging to come on the morrow. After all, George's temperature had +reached 104 in the previous attack. Then there was the fog. The fog +would account for anything. + +Nevertheless, nobody was really satisfied by these explanations of +Hilda's silence and absence. In every heart lay the secret and sinister +thought of the queerness and the incalculableness of Hilda. + +Edwin called several times on the Orgreaves. He finally left their +house about ten o'clock, with some difficulty tracing his way home from +gas lamp to gas lamp through the fog. Mr Orgreave himself had escorted +him with a lantern round the wilderness of the lawn to the gates. "We +shall have a letter in the morning," Mr Orgreave had said. "Bound to!" +Edwin had replied. And they had both superiorly puffed away into the +fog the absurd misgivings of women. + +Knowing that he was in no condition to sleep, Edwin mended the +drawing-room fire, and settled down on the sofa to read. But he could +no more read than sleep. He seemed to lie on the sofa for hours while +his thoughts jigged with fatiguing monotony in his head. He was +extraordinarily wakeful and alive, every sense painfully sharpened. At +last he decided to go to bed. In his bedroom he gazed idly out at the +blank density of the fog. And then his heart leapt as his eye +distinguished a moving glimmer below in the garden of the Orgreaves. He +threw up the window in a tumult of anticipation. The air was absolutely +still. Then he heard a voice say, "Good night." It was undoubtedly Dr +Stirling's voice. The Scotch accent was unmistakable. Was the boy +worse? Not necessarily, for the doctor had said that he might look in +again `last thing,' if chance favoured. And the Scotch significance of +`last thing' was notoriously comprehensive; it might include regions +beyond midnight. Then Edwin heard another voice: "Thanks ever so much!" +At first it puzzled him. He knew it, and yet! Could it be the +Sunday's voice? Assuredly it was not the voice of Mr Orgreave, nor of +any one living in the house. It reminded him of the Sunday's voice. + +He went out of his bedroom, striking a match, and going downstairs lit +the gas in the hall, which he had just extinguished. Then he put on a +cap, found a candlestick in the kitchen, unbolted the garden door as +quietly as he could, and passed into the garden. The flame of the +candle stood upright in the fog. He blundered along to the dividing +wall, placed the candle on the top of it, and managed to climb over. +Leaving the candle on the wall to guide his return, he approached the +house, which showed gleams at several windows, and rang the bell. And +in fact it was Charlie Orgreave himself who opened the door. And a +lantern, stuck carelessly on the edge of a chair, was still burning in +the hall. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +In a moment he had learnt the chief facts. Hilda had gone up to London, +dragged Charlie out of Ealing, and brought him down with her to watch +over her child. Once more she had done something which nobody could +have foreseen. The train--not the London express, but the loop--was +late. The pair had arrived about half-past ten, and a little later Dr +Stirling had fulfilled his promise to look in if he could. The two +doctors had conferred across the child's bed, and had found themselves +substantially in agreement. Moreover, the child was if anything +somewhat better. The Scotsman had gone. Charles and Hilda had eaten. +Hilda meant to sit up, and had insisted that Janet should go to bed; it +appeared that Janet had rested but not slept in the afternoon. + +Charlie took Edwin into the small breakfast-room, where Osmond Orgreave +was waiting, and the three men continued to discuss the situation. They +were all of them too excited to sit down, though Osmond and--in a less +degree--Charlie affected the tranquillity of high philosophers. At +first Edwin knew scarcely what he did. His speech and gestures were not +the result of conscious volition. He seemed suddenly to have two +individualities, and the new one, which was the more intimate one, +watched the other as in a dim-lighted dream... She was there in a room +above! She had come in response to the telegram signed `Edwin!' Last +night she was far away. To-night she was in the very house with him. +Miracle! He asked himself: "Why should I get myself into this state +simply because she is here? It would have been mighty strange if she +had not come. I must take myself in hand better than this. I mustn't +behave like a blooming girl." He frowned and coughed. + +"Well," said Osmond Orgreave to his son, thrusting out his coat-tails +with his hands towards the fire, and swaying slightly to and fro on his +heels and toes, "so you've had your consultation, you eminent +specialists! What's the result?" + +He looked at his elegant son with an air half-quizzical and +half-deferential. + +"I've told you he's evidently a little better, dad," Charlie answered +casually. His London deportment was more marked than ever. The +bracingly correct atmosphere of Ealing had given him a rather obvious +sense of importance. He had developed into a man with a stake in the +country, and he twisted his moustache like such a man, and took out a +cigarette like such a man. + +"Yes, I know," said Osmond, with controlled impatience. "But what sort +of influenza is it? I'm hoping to learn something now you've come. +Stirling will talk about anything except influenza." + +"What sort of influenza is it? What do you mean?" And Charlie's +twinkling glance said condescendingly: "What's the old cock got hold of +now? This is just like him." + +"But is there any real danger?" Edwin murmured. + +"Well," said Osmond, bringing up his regiments, "as I understand it, +there are three types of influenza--the respiratory, the +gastro-intestinal, and the nervous. Which one is it?" + +Charlie laughed, and prodded his father with a forefinger in a soft +region near the shoulder, disturbing his balance. "You've been reading +the `BMJ,'" he said, "and so you needn't pretend you haven't!" + +Osmond paused an instant to consider the meaning of these initials. + +"What if I have?" he demanded, raising his eyebrows, "I say there are +three types--" + +"Thirty; you might be nearer the mark with thirty," Charlie interrupted +him. "The fact is that this division into types is all very well in +theory," he proceeded, with easy disdain. "But in practice it won't +work out. Now for instance, what this kid has won't square with any of +your three types. It's purely febrile, that's what it is. Rare, +decidedly rare, but less rare in children than in adults--at any rate in +my experience--in my experience. If his temperature wasn't so high, I +should say the thing might last for days--weeks even. I've known it. +The first question I put was--has he been in a stupor? He had. It may +recur. That, and headache, _and_ the absence of localised nervous +symptoms--" He stopped, leaving the sentence in the air, grandiose and +formidable, but of no purport. + +Charlie shrugged his shoulders, allowing the beholder to choose his own +interpretation of the gesture. + +"You're a devilish wonderful fellow," said Osmond grimly to his son. +And Charlie winked grimly at Edwin, who grimly smiled. + +"You and your `British Medical Journal'!" Charlie exclaimed, with an +irony from which filial affection was not absent, and again prodded his +father in the same spot. + +"Of course I know I'm an old man," said Osmond, condescendingly +rejecting Charlie's condescension. He thought he did not mean what he +said; nevertheless, it was the expression of the one idea which latterly +beyond all other ideas had possessed him. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +Janet came into the room, and was surprised to see Edwin. She was in a +state of extreme fatigue--pale, with burning eyes, and hair that has +lost the gracefulness of its curves. + +"So you know?" she said. + +Edwin nodded. + +"It seems I've got to go to bed," she went on. "Father, you must go to +bed too. Mother's gone. It's frightfully late. Come along now!" + +She was insistent. She had been worried during the greater part of the +day by her restless parents, and she was determined not to leave either +of them at large. + +"Charlie, you might run upstairs and see that everything's all right +before I go. I shall get up again at four." + +"I'll be off," said Edwin. + +"Here! Hold on a bit," Charlie objected. "Wait till I come down. +Let's have a yarn. You don't want to go to bed yet." + +Edwin agreed to the suggestion, and was left alone in the +breakfast-room. What struck him was that the new situation created by +Hilda's strange caprice had instantly been accepted by everybody, and +had indeed already begun to seem quite natural. He esteemed highly the +demeanour of all the Orgreaves. Neither he himself nor Maggie could +have surpassed them in their determination not to exaggerate the crisis, +in their determination to bear themselves simply and easily, and to +speak with lightness, even with occasional humour. There were few +qualities that he admired more than this. + +And what was her demeanour, up there in the bedroom? + +Suddenly the strangeness of Hilda's caprice presented itself to him as +even more strange. She had merely gone to Ealing and captured Charlie. +Charlie was understood to have a considerable practice. At her whim all +his patients had been abandoned. What an idea, to bring him down like +this! What tremendous faith in him she must have! And Edwin remembered +distinctly that the first person who had ever spoken to him of Hilda was +Charlie! And in what terms of admiration! Was there a long and secret +understanding between these two? They must assuredly be far more +intimate than he had ever suspected. Edwin hated to think that Hilda +would depend more upon Charlie than upon himself in a grave difficulty. +The notion caused him acute discomfort. He was resentful against +Charlie as against a thief who had robbed him of his own, but who could +not be apprehended and put to shame. + +The acute discomfort was jealousy; but this word did not occur to him. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +"I say," Edwin began, in a new intimate tone, when after what seemed a +very long interval Charlie Orgreave returned to the breakfast-room with +the information that for the present all had been done that could be +done. + +"What's up?" said Charlie, responding quite eagerly to the appeal for +intimacy in Edwin's voice. He had brought in a tray with whisky and its +apparatus, and he set this handily on a stool in front of the fire, and +poked the fire, and generally made the usual ritualistic preparations +for a comfortable talkative night. + +"Rather delicate, wasn't it, you coming down and taking Stirling's case +off him?" + +Edwin smiled idly as he lolled far back in an old easy chair. His two +individualities had now merged again into one. + +"My boy," Charlie answered, pausing impressively with his curly head +held forward, before dropping into an arm-chair by the stool, "you may +take it from me that `delicate' is not the word!" + +Edwin nodded sympathetically, perceiving with satisfaction that beneath +his Metropolitan mannerism, and his amusing pomposities, and his +perfectly dandiacal clothes, Charlie still remained the Sunday, possibly +more naive than ever. This _naivete_ of Charlie's was particularly +pleasing to him, for the reason that it gave him a feeling of +superiority to the more brilliant being and persuaded him that the +difference between London and the provinces was inessential and +negligible. Charlie's hair still curled like a boy's, and he had not +outgrown the _naivete_ of boyhood. Against these facts the fact that +Charlie was a partner in a fashionable and dashing practice at Ealing +simply did not weigh. The deference which in thought Edwin had been +slowly acquiring for this Charlie, as to whom impressive news reached +Bursley from time to time, melted almost completely away. In +fundamentals he was convinced that Charlie was an infant compared to +himself. + +"Have a drop?" + +"Well, it's not often I do, but I will to-night. Steady on with the +whisky, old chap." + +Each took a charged glass and sipped. Edwin, by raising his arm, could +just lodge his glass on the mantelpiece. Charlie then opened his large +gun-metal cigarette case, and one match lighted two cigarettes. + +"Yes, my boy," Charlie resumed, as he meditatively blew out the match +and threw it on the fire, "you may well say `delicate.' The truth is +that if I hadn't seen at once that Stirling was a very decent sort of +chap, and very friendly here, I might have funked it. Yes, I might. He +came in just after we'd arrived. So I saw him alone--here. I made a +clean breast of it, and put myself in his hands. Of course he +appreciated the situation at once; and considering he'd never seen _her_, +it was rather clever of him... I suppose people rather like that Scotch +accent of his, down here?" + +"They say he makes over a thousand a year already," Edwin replied. He +was thinking. "Is she likely to be coming downstairs? No." + +"The deuce he does!" Charlie murmured, with ingenuous animation, +foolishly betraying by an instant's lack of self-control the fact that +Ealing was not Utopia. Envy was in his voice as he continued: "It's +astonishing how some chaps can come along and walk straight into +anything they want--whatever it happens to be!" + +"What do you think of him as a doctor?" Edwin questioned. + +"Seems all right," said Charlie, with a fine brief effort to be +patronising. + +"He's got a great reputation down here," Edwin said quietly. + +"Yes, yes. I should say he's quite all right." + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +"How came it that Mrs Cannon came and rummaged _you_ out?" Edwin knew +that he would blush, and so he reached up for his whisky, and drank, +adding: "The old man still clings to his old brand of Scotch." + +"My dear fellow, I know no more than you. I was perfectly staggered--I +can tell you that. I hadn't seen her since before she was married. +Only heard of her again just lately through Janet. I suppose it was +Janet who told her I was at Ealing. It's an absolute fact that just at +the first blush I didn't even recognise her." + +"Didn't you?" Edwin wondered how this could be. + +"I did not. She came into our surgery, as if she'd come out of the next +room and I'd seen her only yesterday, and she just asked me to come away +with her at once to Bursley. I thought she was off her nut, but she +wasn't. She showed me your telegram." + +"The dickens she did!" Edwin was really startled. + +"Yes. I told her there was nothing absolutely fatal in a temperature of +104. It happened in thousands of cases. Then she explained to me +exactly how he'd been ill before, seemingly in the same way, and I could +judge from what she said that he wasn't a boy who would stand a high +temperature for very long." + +"By the way, what's his temperature to-night?" Edwin interrupted. + +"102 point 7," said Charlie. + +"Yes," he resumed, "she did convince me it might be serious. But what +then? I told her I couldn't possibly leave. She asked me why not. She +kept on asking me why not. I said, What about my patients here? She +asked if any of them were dying. I said no, but I couldn't leave them +all to my partner. I don't think she realised, before that, that I was +in partnership. She stuck to it worse than ever then. I asked her why +she wanted just me. I said all we doctors were much about the same, and +so on. But it was no use. The fact is, you know, Hilda always had a +great notion of me as a doctor. Can't imagine why! Kept it to herself +of course, jolly close, as she did most things, but I'd noticed it now +and then. You know--one of those tremendous beliefs she has. You're +another of her beliefs, if you want to know." + +"How do you know? Give us another cigarette." Edwin was exceedingly +uneasy, and yet joyous. One of his fears was that the Sunday might +inquire how it was that he signed telegrams to Hilda with only his +Christian name. The Sunday, however, made no such inquiry. + +"How do I know!" Charlie exclaimed. "I could tell in a second by the +way she showed me your telegram. Oh! And besides, that's an old story, +my young friend. You needn't flatter yourself it wasn't common property +at one time." + +"Oh! Rot!" Edwin muttered. "Well, go on!" + +"Well, then I explained that there was such a thing as medical +etiquette... Ah! you should have heard Hilda on medical etiquette. You +should just have heard her on that lay--medical etiquette versus the +dying child. I simply had to chuck that. I said to her, `But suppose +you hadn't caught me at home? I might have been out for the day--a +hundred things.' It was sheer accident she had caught me. At last she +said: `Look here, Charlie, will you come, or won't you?'" + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +SIX. + +"Well, and what did you say?" + +"I should tell you she went down on her knees. What should you have +said, eh, my boy? What could I say? They've got you when they put it +that way. Especially a woman like she is! I tell you she was simply +terrific. I tell you I wouldn't go through it again--not for +something." + +Edwin responsively shook. + +"I just threw up the sponge and came. I told Huskisson a thundering +lie, to save my face, and away I came, and I've been with her ever +since. Dashed if I haven't!" + +"Who's Huskisson?" + +"My partner. If anybody had told me beforehand that I should do such a +thing I should have laughed. Of course, if you look at it calmly, it's +preposterous. Preposterous--there's no other word--from my point of +view. But when they begin to put it the way she put it--well, you've +got to decide quick whether you'll be sensible and a brute, or whether +you'll sacrifice yourself and be a damned fool... What good am I here? +No more good than anybody else. Supposing there _is_ danger? Well, there +may be. But I've left twenty or thirty influenza cases at Ealing. +Every influenza case is dangerous, if it comes to that." + +"Exactly," breathed Edwin. + +"I wouldn't have done it for any other woman," Charlie recommenced. +"Not much!" + +"Then why did you do it for her?" + +Charlie shrugged his shoulders. "There's something about her... I +don't know--" He lifted his nostrils fastidiously and gazed at the fire. +"There's not many women knocking about like _her_... She gets hold of +you. She's nothing at all for about six months at a stretch, and then +she has one minute of the grand style... That's the sort of woman she +is. Understand? But I expect you don't know her as we do." + +"Oh yes, I understand," said Edwin. "She must be tremendously fond of +the kid." + +"You bet she is! Absolute passion. What sort is he?" + +"Oh! He's all right. But I've never seen them together, and I never +thought she was so particularly keen on him." + +"Don't you make any mistake," said Charlie loftily. "I believe women +often are like that about an only child when they've had a rough time. +And by the look of her she must have had a pretty rough time. I've +never made out why she married that swine, and I don't think anyone else +has either." + +"Did you know him?" Edwin asked, with sudden eagerness. + +"Not a bit. But I've sort of understood he was a regular outsider. Do +you know how long she's been a widow?" + +"No," said Edwin. "I've barely seen her." + +At these words he became so constrained, and so suspicious of the look +on his own face, that he rose abruptly and began to walk about the room. + +"What's the matter?" demanded Charlie. "Got pins and needles?" + +"Only fidgets," said Edwin. + +"I hope this isn't one of your preliminaries for clearing out and +leaving me alone," Charlie complained. "Here--where's that glass of +yours? Have another cigarette." + +There was a sound that seemed to resemble a tap on the door. + +"What's that noise?" said Edwin, startled. The whole of his epidermis +tingled, and he stood still. They both listened. + +The sound was repeated. Yes, it was a tap on the door; but in the +night, and in the repose of the house, it had the character of some +unearthly summons. + +Edwin was near the door. He hesitated for an instant afraid, and then +with an effort brusquely opened the door and looked forth beyond the +shelter of the room. A woman's figure was disappearing down the passage +in the direction of the stairs. It was she. + +"Did you--" he began. But Hilda had gone. Agitated, he said to +Charlie, his hand still on the knob: "It's Mrs Cannon. She just +knocked and ran off. I expect she wants you." + +Charlie jumped up and scurried out of the room exactly like a boy, +despite his tall, mature figure of a man of thirty-five. + + + +VOLUME FOUR, CHAPTER TWELVE. + +END OF THE NIGHT. + +For the second time that night Edwin was left alone for a long period in +the little breakfast-room. Charlie's phrase, `You're another of her +beliefs,' shone like a lamp in his memory, beneficent. And though he +was still jealous of Charlie, with whom Hilda's relations were obviously +very intimate; although he said to himself, `She never made any appeal +to _me_, she would scarcely have _my_ help at any price;' nevertheless he +felt most singularly uplifted and, without any reason, hopeful. So much +so that the fate of the child became with him a matter of secondary +importance. He excused this apparent callousness by making sure in his +own mind that the child was in no real danger. On the other hand he +blamed himself for ever having fancied that Hilda was indifferent to +George. She, indifferent to her own son! What a wretched, stupid +slander! He ought to have known better than that. He ought to have +known that a Hilda would bring to maternity the mightiest passions. All +that Charlie had said confirmed him in his idolisation of her. `One +minute of the grand style.' That was it. Charlie had judged her very +well--damn him! And the one minute was priceless, beyond all +estimation. + +The fire sank, with little sounds of decay; and he stared at it, +prevented as if by a spell from stooping to make it up, prevented even +from looking at his watch. At length he shivered slightly, and the +movement broke the trance. He wandered to the door, which Charlie had +left ajar, and listened. No sign of life! He listened intently, but +his ear could catch nothing whatever. What were those two doing +upstairs with the boy? Cautiously he stepped out into the passage, and +went to the foot of the stairs, where a gas jet was burning. He was +reminded of the nights preceding his father's death. + +Another gas jet showed along the corridor at the head of the stairs. He +put his foot on the first step; it creaked with a noise comparable to +the report of a pistol in the dead silence. But there was no responsive +sound to show that anyone had been alarmed by this explosion. Impelled +by nervous curiosity, and growing careless, he climbed the +reverberating, complaining stairs, and, entering the corridor, stood +exactly in front of the closed door of the sick-room, and listened +again, and heard naught. His heart was obstreperously beating. Part of +the household slept; the other part watched; and he was between the two, +like a thief, like a spy. Should he knock, discreetly, and ask if he +could be of help? The strange romance of his existence, and of all +existence, flowed around him in mysterious currents, obsessing him. + +Suddenly the door opened, and Charlie, barely avoiding a collision, +started back in alarm. Then Charlie recovered his self-possession and +carefully shut the door. + +"I was just wondering whether I could be any use," Edwin stammered in a +whisper. + +Charlie whispered: "It's all right, but I must run round to Stirling's, +and get a drug I want." + +"Is he worse?" + +"Yes. That is--yes. You never know with a child. They're up and down +and all over the place inside of an hour." + +"Can I go?" Edwin suggested. + +"No. I can explain to him quicker than you." + +"You'll never find your way in this fog." + +"Bosh, man! D'you think I don't know the town as well as you? Besides, +it's lifted considerably." + +By a common impulse they tiptoed to the window at the end of the +corridor. Across the lawn could be dimly discerned a gleam through the +trees. + +"I'll come with you," said Edwin. + +"You'd much better stay here--in case." + +"Shall I go into the bedroom?" + +"Certainly." + +Charlie turned to descend the stairs. + +"I say," Edwin called after him in a loud whisper, "when you get to the +gate--you know the house--you go up the side entry. The night bell's +rather high up on the left hand." + +"All right! All right!" Charlie replied impatiently. "Just come and +shut the front door after me. I don't want to bang it." + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +When Edwin crept into the bedroom he was so perturbed by continually +growing excitement that he saw nothing clearly except the central group +of objects: that is to say, a narrow bed, whose burden was screened from +him by its foot, a table, an empty chair, the gas-globe luminous against +a dark-green blind, and Hilda in black, alert and erect beneath the +down-flowing light. The rest of the chamber seemed to stretch obscurely +away into no confines. Not for several seconds did he even notice the +fire. This confusing excitement was not caused by anything external +such as the real or supposed peril of the child; it had its source +within. + +As soon as Hilda identified him her expression changed from the intent +frowning stare of inquiry to a smile. Edwin had never before seen her +smile in that way. The smile was weak, resigned, almost piteous; and it +was extraordinarily sweet. He closed the door quietly, and moved in +silence towards the bed. She nodded an affectionate welcome. He +returned her greeting eagerly, and all his constraint was loosed away, +and he felt at ease, and happy. Her face was very pale indeed against +the glittering blackness of her eyes, and her sombre disordered hair and +untidy dress; but it did not show fatigue nor extreme anxiety; it was a +face of calm meekness. The sleeves of her dress were reversed, showing +the forearms, which gave her an appearance of deshabille, homely, +intimate, confiding. "So it was common property at one time," Edwin +thought, recalling a phrase of Charlie's in the breakfast-room. +Strange: he wanted her in all her disarray, with all her woes, +anxieties, solicitudes; he wanted her, piteous, meek, beaten by destiny, +weakly smiling; he wanted her because she stood so, after the immense, +masterful effort of the day, watching in acquiescence by that bed! + +"Has he gone?" she asked, in a voice ordinarily loud, but, for her, +unusually tender. + +"Yes," said Edwin. "He's gone. He told me I'd better come in here. So +I came." + +She nodded again. "Have that chair." + +Without arguing, he took the chair. She remained standing. + +The condition of George startled him. Evidently the boy was in a heavy +stupor. His body was so feverish that it seemed to give off a +perceptible heat. There was no need to touch the skin in order to know +that it burned: one divined this. The hair was damp. About the pale +lips an irregular rash had formed, purplish, patchy, and the rash seemed +to be the mark and sign of some strange dreadful disease that nobody had +ever named: a plague. Worse than all this was the profound, +comprehensive discomfort of the whole organism, showing itself in the +unnatural pose of the limbs, and in multitudinous faint instinctive ways +of the inert but complaining body. And the child was so slight beneath +the blanket, so young, so helpless, spiritually so alone. How could +even Hilda communicate her sympathy to that spirit, withdrawn and +inaccessible? During the illness of his father Edwin had thought that +he was looking upon the extreme tragic limit of pathos, but this present +spectacle tightened more painfully the heart. It was more shameful: a +more excruciating accusation against the order of the universe. To +think of George in his pride, strong, capricious, and dominant, while +gazing at this victim of malady ... the contrast was intolerable! + +George was very ill. And yet Hilda, despite the violence of her nature, +could stand there calm, sweet, and controlled. What power! Edwin was +humbled. "This is the sort of thing that women of her sort can do," he +said to himself. "Why, Maggie and I are simply nothing to her!" Maggie +and he could be self-possessed in a crisis; they could stand a strain; +but the strain would show itself either in a tense harshness, or in some +unnatural lightness, or even flippancy. Hilda was the very image of +soft caressing sweetness. He felt that he must emulate her. + +"Surely his temperature's gone up?" he said quietly. + +"Yes," Hilda replied, fingering absently the clinical thermometer that +with a lot of other gear lay on the table. "It's nearly 105. It can't +last like this. It won't. I've been through it with him before, but +not quite so bad." + +"I didn't think anyone could have influenza twice, so soon," Edwin +murmured. + +"Neither did I," said she. "Still, he must have been sickening for it +before he came down here." There was a pause. She wiped the boy's +forehead. "This change has come on quite suddenly," she said, in a +different voice. "Two hours ago--less than two hours ago--there was +scarcely a sign of that rash." + +"What is it?" + +"Charlie says it's nothing particular." + +"What's Charlie gone for?" + +"I don't know." She shook her head; then smiled. "_Isn't_ it a good +thing I brought him?" + +Indubitably it was. Her caprice, characterised as preposterous by +males, had been justified. Thus chance often justifies women, setting +at naught the high priests of reason. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +Looking at the unconscious and yet tormented child, Edwin was aware of a +melting protective pity for him, of an immense desire to watch over his +rearing with all insight, sympathy, and help, so that in George's case +none of the mistakes and cruelties and misapprehensions should occur +which had occurred in his own. This feeling was intense to the point of +being painful. + +"I don't know whether you know or not," he said, "but we're great pals, +the infant and I." + +Hilda smiled, and in the very instant of seeing the smile its effect +upon him was such that he humiliated himself before her in secret for +ever having wildly suspected that she was jealous of the attachment. +"Do you think I don't know all about that?" she murmured. "He wouldn't +be here now if it hadn't been for that." After a silence she added: +"You're the only person that he ever has really cared for, and I can +tell you he likes you better than he likes me." + +"How do you know that?" + +"I know by the way he talks and looks." + +"If he takes after his mother, that's no sign," Edwin retorted, without +considering what he said. + +"What do you mean--`if he takes after his mother'?" She seemed puzzled. + +"Could anyone tell _your_ real preferences from the way _you_ talked and +looked?" His audacious rashness astounded him. Nevertheless he stared +her in the eyes, and her glance fell. + +"No one but you could have said a thing like that," she observed mildly, +yieldingly. + +And what he had said suddenly acquired a mysterious and wise +significance and became oracular. She alone had the power of inspiring +him to be profound. He had noticed that before, years ago, and first at +their first meeting. Or was it that she saw in him an oracle, and +caused him to see with her? + +Slowly her face coloured, and she walked away to the fireplace, and +cautiously tended it. Constraint had seized him again, and his heart +was loud. + +"Edwin," she summoned him, from the fireplace. + +He rose, shaking with emotion, and crossed the undiscovered spaces of +the room to where she was. He had the illusion that they were by +themselves not in the room but in the universe. She was leaning with +one hand on the mantelpiece. + +"I must tell you something," she said, "that nobody at all knows except +George's father, and probably nobody ever will know. His sister knew, +but she's dead." + +"Yes!" he muttered, in an exquisite rush of happiness. After all, it +was not with Charlie, nor even with Janet, that she was most intimate; +it was with himself! + +"George's father was put in prison for bigamy. George is illegitimate." +She spoke with her characteristic extreme clearness of enunciation, in +a voice that showed no emotion. + +"You don't mean it!" He gasped foolishly. + +She nodded. "I'm not a married woman. I once thought I was, but I +wasn't. That's all." + +"But--" + +"But what?" + +"You--you said six or seven years, didn't you? Surely they don't give +that long for bigamy?" + +"Oh!" she replied mildly. "That was for something else. When he came +out of prison the first time they arrested him again instantly--so I was +told. It was in Scotland." + +"I see." + +There was a rattle as of hailstones on the window. They both started. + +"That must be Charlie!" she exclaimed, suddenly loosing her excitement +under this pretext. "He doesn't want to ring and wake the house." + +Edwin ran out of the room, sliding and slipping down the deserted stairs +that waited patiently through the night for human feet. + +"Forgot to take a key," said Charlie, appearing, breathless, just as the +door opened. "I meant to take the big key, and then I forgot." He had +a little round box in his hand. He mounted the stairs two and three at +a time. + +Edwin slowly closed the door. He could not bring himself to follow +Charlie and, after a moment's vacillation, he went back into the +breakfast-room. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FOUR. + +Amazing, incalculable woman, wrapped within fold after fold of mystery! +He understood better now, but even now there were things that he did not +understand; and the greatest enigma of all remained unsolved, the +original enigma of her treachery to himself... And she had chosen just +that moment, just that crisis, to reveal to him that sinister secret +which by some unguessed means she had been able to hide from her +acquaintance. Naturally, if she wished to succeed with a boarding-house +in Brighton she would be compelled to conceal somehow the fact that she +was the victim of a bigamist and her child without a lawful name! The +merest prudence would urge her to concealment so long as concealment was +possible; yes, even from Janet! Her other friends deemed her a widow; +Janet thought her the wife of a convict; he alone knew that she was +neither wife nor widow. Through what scathing experience she must have +passed! An unfamiliar and disconcerting mood gradually took complete +possession of him. At first he did not correctly analyse it. It was +sheer, exuberant, instinctive, unreasoning, careless joy. + +Then, after a long period of beatific solitude in the breakfast-room, he +heard stealthy noises in the hall, and his fancy jumped to the idea of +burglary. Excited, unreflecting, he hurried into the hall. Johnnie +Orgreave, who had let himself in with a latchkey, was shutting and +bolting the front door. Johnnie's surprise was the greater. He started +violently on seeing Edwin, and then at once assumed the sang-froid of a +hero of romance. When Edwin informed him that Hilda had come, and +Charlie with her, and that those two were watching by the boy, the rest +of the household being in bed, Johnnie permitted himself a few verbal +symptoms of astonishment. + +"How is Georgie?" he asked with an effort, as if ashamed. + +"He isn't much better," said Edwin evasively. + +Johnnie made a deprecatory sound with his tongue against his lips, and +frowned, determined to take his proper share in the general anxiety. + +With careful, dignified movements, he removed his silk hat and his heavy +ulster, revealing evening-dress, and a coloured scarf that overhung a +crumpled shirt-front. + +"Where've you been?" Edwin asked. + +"Tennis dance. Didn't you know?" + +"No," said Edwin. + +"Really!" Johnnie murmured, with a falsely ingenuous air. After a +pause he said: "They've left you all alone, then?" + +"I was in the breakfast-room," said Edwin, when he had given further +information. + +They walked into the breakfast-room together. Charlie's cigarette-case +lay on the tray. + +"Those your cigarettes?" Johnnie inquired. + +"No. They're Charlie's." + +"Oh! Master Charlie's, are they? I wonder if they're any good." He +took one fastidiously. Between two enormous outblowings of smoke he +said: "Well, I'm dashed! So Charlie's come with her! I hope the kid'll +soon be better... I should have been back long ago, only I took Mrs +Chris Hamson home." + +"Who's Mrs Chris Hamson?" + +"Don't you know her? She's a ripping woman." + +He stood there in all the splendour of thirty years, with more than +Charlie's _naivete_, politely trying to enter into the life of the +household, but failing to do so because of his preoccupation with the +rippingness of Mrs Chris Hamson. The sight of him gave pleasure to +Edwin. It did not occur to him to charge the young man with being +callous. + +When the cigarette was burnt, Johnnie said-- + +"Well, I think I shall leave seeing Charlie till breakfast." + +And he went to bed. On reaching the first-floor corridor he wished that +he had gone to bed half a minute sooner; for in the corridor he +encountered Janet, who had risen and was returning to her post; and +Janet's face, though she meant it not, was an accusation. Four o'clock +had struck. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +FIVE. + +It was nearly half-past seven before Edwin left the house. In the +meantime he had seen Charlie briefly twice, and Janet once, but he had +not revisited the sick-room nor seen Hilda again. The boy's condition +was scarcely altered; if there was any change, it was for the better. + +Dawn had broken. The fog was gone, but a faint mist hung in the trees +over the damp lawn. The air was piercingly chill. Yawning and glancing +idly about him, he perceived a curious object on the dividing wall. It +was the candlestick which he had left there on the previous night. The +candle was entirely consumed. "I may as well get over the wall," he +said to himself, and he scrambled up it with adventurous cheerfulness, +and took the candlestick with him; it was covered with drops of +moisture. He deposited it in the kitchen, where the servant was +cleaning the range. On the oak chest in the hall lay the "Manchester +Guardian," freshly arrived. He opened it with another heavy yawn. At +the head of one column he read, "Death of the Duke of Clarence," and at +the head of another, "Death of Cardinal Manning." The double news +shocked him strangely. He thought of what those days had been to others +beside himself. And he thought: "Supposing after all the kid doesn't +come through?" + + + +VOLUME FOUR, CHAPTER THIRTEEN. + +HER HEART. + +After having been to business and breakfasted as usual, Edwin returned +to the shop at ten o'clock. He did not feel tired, but his manner was +very curt, even with Stifford, and melancholy had taken the place of his +joy. The whole town was gloomy, and seemed to savour its gloom +luxuriously. But Edwin wondered why he should be melancholy. There was +no reason for it. There was less reason for it than there had been for +ten years. Yet he was; and, like the town, he found pleasure in his +state. He had no real desire to change it. At noon he suddenly went +off home, thus upsetting Stifford's arrangements for the dinner-hour. +"I shall lie down for a bit," he said to Maggie. He slept till a little +after one o'clock, and he could have slept longer, but dinner was ready. +He said to himself, with an extraordinary sense of satisfaction, "_I +have had a sleep._" After dinner he lay down again, and slept till +nearly three o'clock. It was with the most agreeable sensations that he +awakened. His melancholy was passing; it had not entirely gone, but he +could foresee the end of it as of an eclipse. He made the discovery +that he had only been tired. Now he was somewhat reposed. And as he +lay in repose he was aware of an intensified perception of himself as a +physical organism. He thought calmly, "_What a fine thing life is!_" + +"I was just going to bring you some tea up," said Maggie, who met him on +the stairs as he came down. "I heard you moving. Will you have some?" + +He rubbed his eyes. His head seemed still to be distended with sleep, +and this was a part of his well-being. "Aye!" he replied, with lazy +satisfaction. "That'll just put me right." + +"George is much better," said Maggie. + +"Good!" he said heartily. + +Joy, wild and exulting, surged through him once more; and it was of such +a turbulent nature that it would not suffer any examination of its +origin. It possessed him by its might. As he drank the admirable tea +he felt that he still needed a lot more sleep. There were two points of +pressure at the top of his head. But he knew that he could sleep, and +sleep well, whenever he chose; and that on the morrow his body would be +perfectly restored. + +He walked briskly back to the shop, intending to work, and he was a +little perturbed to find that he could not work. His head refused. He +sat in the cubicle vaguely staring. Then he was startled by a +tremendous yawn, which seemed to have its inception in the very centre +of his being, and which by the pang of its escape almost broke him in +pieces. "I've never yawned like that before," he thought, apprehensive. +Another yawn of the same seismic kind succeeded immediately, and these +frightful yawns continued one after another for several minutes, each +leaving him weaker than the one before. "I'd better go home while I +can," he thought, intimidated by the suddenness and the mysteriousness +of the attack. He went home. Maggie at once said that he would be +better in bed, and to his own astonishment he agreed. He could not eat +the meal that Maggie brought to his room. + +"There's something the matter with you," said Maggie. + +"No. I'm only tired." He knew it was a lie. + +"You're simply burning," she said, but she refrained from any argument, +and left him. + +He could not sleep. His anticipations in that respect were painfully +falsified. + +Later, Maggie came back. + +"Here's Dr Heve," she said briefly, in the doorway. She was +silhouetted against the light from the landing. The doctor, in +mourning, stood behind her. + +"Dr Heve? What the devil--" But he did not continue the protest. + +Maggie advanced into the room and turned up the gas, and the glare +wounded his eyes. + +"Yes," said Dr Heve, at the end of three minutes. "You've got it. Not +badly, I hope. But you've got it all right." + +Humiliating! For the instinct of the Clayhangers was always to assume +that by virtue of some special prudence, or immunity, or resisting +power, peculiar to them alone, they would escape any popular affliction +such as an epidemic. In the middle of the night, amid feverish tossings +and crises of thirst, and horrible malaise, it was more than +humiliating! Supposing he died? People did die of influenza. The +strangest, the most monstrous things did happen. For the first time in +his life he lay in the genuine fear of death. He had never been ill +before. And now he was ill. He knew what it was to be ill. The +stupid, blundering clumsiness of death aroused his angry resentment. +No! It was impossible that he should die! People did not die of +influenza. + +The next day the doctor laughed. But Edwin said to himself: "He may +have laughed only to cheer me up. They never tell their patients the +truth." And every cell of his body was vitiated, poisoned, inefficient, +profoundly demoralised. Ordinary health seemed the most precious and +the least attainable boon. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +TWO. + +After wildernesses of time that were all but interminable, the attack +was completely over. It had lasted a hundred hours, of which the first +fifty had each been an age. It was a febrile attack similar to +George's, but less serious. Edwin had possibly caught the infection at +Knype Railway Station: yet who could tell? Now he was in the +drawing-room, shaved, clothed, but wearing slippers for a sign that he +was only convalescent, and because the doctor had forbidden him the +street. He sat in front of the fire, in the easy chair that had been +his father's favourite. On his left hand were an accumulation of +newspapers and a book; on his right, some business letters and documents +left by the assiduous Stifford after a visit of sympathy and of affairs. +The declining sun shone with weak goodwill on the garden. + +"Please, sir, there's a lady," said the servant, opening the door. + +He was startled. His first thought naturally was, "It's Hilda!" in +spite of the extreme improbability of it being Hilda. Hilda had never +set foot in his house. Nevertheless, supposing it was Hilda, Maggie +would assuredly come into the drawing-room--she could not do otherwise-- +and the three-cornered interview would, he felt, be very trying. He +knew that Maggie, for some reason inexplicable by argument, was out of +sympathy with Hilda, as with Hilda's son. She had given him regular +news of George, who was now at about the same stage of convalescence as +himself, but she scarcely mentioned the mother, and he had not dared to +inquire. These thoughts flashed through his brain in an instant. + +"Who is it?" he asked gruffly. + +"I--I don't know, sir. Shall I ask?" replied the servant, blushing as +she perceived that once again she had sinned. She had never before been +in a house where aristocratic ceremony was carried to such excess as at +Edwin's. Her unconquerable instinct, upon opening the front door to a +well-dressed stranger, was to rush off and publish the news that +somebody mysterious and grand had come, leaving the noble visitor on the +door-mat. She had been instructed in the ritual proper to these crises, +but with little good result, for the crises took her unawares. + +"Yes. Go and ask the name, and then tell my sister," said Edwin +shortly. + +"Miss Clayhanger is gone out, sir." + +"Well, run along," he told her impatiently. + +He was standing anxiously near the door when she returned to the room. + +"Please, sir, it's a Mrs Cannon, and it's you she wants." + +"Show her in," he said, and to himself: "My God!" + +In the ten seconds that elapsed before Hilda appeared he glanced at +himself in the mantel mirror, fidgeted with his necktie, and walked to +the window and back again to his chair. She had actually called to see +him! ... His agitation was extreme... But how like her it was to call +thus boldly! ... Maggie's absence was providential. + +Hilda entered, to give him a lesson in blandness. She wore a veil, and +carried a muff--outworks of her self-protective, impassive demeanour. +She was pale, and as calm as pale. She would not take the easy chair +which he offered her. Useless to insist--she would not take it. He +brushed away letters and documents from the small chair to his right, +and she took that chair... Having taken it, she insisted that he should +resume the easy chair. + +"I called just to say good-bye," she said. "I knew you couldn't come +out, and I'm going to-night." + +"But surely he isn't fit to travel?" Edwin exclaimed. + +"George? Not yet. I'm leaving him behind. You see I mustn't stay away +longer than's necessary." + +She smiled, and lifted her veil as far as her nose. She had not smiled +before. + +"Charlie's gone back?" + +"Oh yes. Two days ago. He left a message for you." + +"Yes. Maggie gave it me. By the way, I'm sorry she's not in." + +"I've just seen her," said Hilda. + +"Oh!" + +"She came in to see Janet. They're having a cup of tea in George's +bedroom. So I put my things on and walked round here at once." + +As Hilda made this surprising speech she gazed full at Edwin. + +------------------------------------------------------------------------ + +THREE. + +A blush slowly covered his face. They both sat silent. Only the fire +crackled lustily. Edwin thought, as his agitation increased and +entirely confused him, "No other woman was ever like this woman!" He +wanted to rise masterfully, to accomplish some gesture splendid and +decisive, but he was held in the hollow of the easy chair as though by +paralysis. He looked at Hilda; he might have been looking at a +stranger. He tried to read her face, and he could not read it. He +could only see in it vague trouble. He was afraid of her. The idea +even occurred to him that, could he be frank with himself, he would +admit that he hated her. The moments were intensely painful; the +suspense exasperating and excruciating. Ever since their last encounter +he had anticipated this scene; his fancy had been almost continuously +busy in fashioning this scene. And now the reality had swept down upon +him with no warning, and he was overwhelmed. + +She would not speak. She had withdrawn her gaze, but she would not +speak. She would force him to speak. + +"I say," he began gruffly, in a resentful tone, careless as to what he +was saying, "you might have told me earlier what you told me on +Wednesday night. Why didn't you tell me when I was at Brighton?" + +"I wanted to," she said meekly. "But I couldn't. I really couldn't +bring myself to do it." + +"Instead of telling me a lie," he went on. "I think you might have +trusted me more than that." + +"A lie?" she muttered. "I told you the truth. I told you he was in +prison." + +"You told me your husband was in prison," he corrected her, in a voice +meditative and judicial. He knew not in the least why he was talking in +this strain. + +She began to cry. At first he was not sure that she was crying. He +glanced surreptitiously, and glanced away as if guilty. But at the next +glance he was sure. Her eyes glistened behind the veil, and tear-drops +appeared at its edge and vanished under her chin. + +"You don't know how much I wanted to tell you!" she wept. + +She hid her half-veiled face in her hands. And then he was victimised +by the blackest desolation. His one desire was that the scene should +finish, somehow, anyhow. + +"I never wrote to you because there was nothing to say. Nothing!" She +sobbed, still covering her face. + +"Never wrote to me--do you mean--" + +She nodded violently twice. "Yes. _Then!_" He divined that suddenly she +had begun to talk of ten years ago. "I knew you'd know it was because I +couldn't help it." She spoke so indistinctly through her emotion and +her tears, and her hands, that he could not distinguish the words. + +"What do you say?" + +"I say I couldn't help doing what I did. I knew you'd know I couldn't +help it. I couldn't write. It was best for me to be silent. What else +was there for me to do except be silent? I knew you'd know I couldn't +help it. It was a--" Sobs interrupted her. + +"Of course I knew that," he said. He had to control himself very +carefully, or he too would have lost command of his voice. Such was her +power of suggestion over him that her faithlessness seemed now scarcely +to need an excuse. + +(Somewhere within himself he smiled as he reflected that he, in his +father's place, in his father's very chair, was thus under the spell of +a woman whose child was nameless. He smiled grimly at the thought of +Auntie Hamps, of Clara, of the pietistic Albert! They were of a +different race, a different generation! They belonged to a dead world!) + +"I shall tell you," Hilda recommenced mournfully, but in a clear and +steady voice, at last releasing her face, which was shaken like that of +a child in childlike grief. "You'll never understand what I had to go +through, and how I couldn't help myself"--she was tragically +plaintive--"but I shall tell you... You _must_ understand!" + +She raised her eyes. Already for some moments his hands had been +desiring the pale wrists between her sleeve and her glove. They +fascinated his hands, which, hesitatingly, went out towards them. As +soon as she felt his touch, she dropped to her knees, and her chin +almost rested on the arm of his chair. He bent over a face that was +transfigured. + +"My heart never kissed any other man but you!" she cried. "How often +and often and often have I kissed you, and you never knew! ... It was +for a message that I sent George down here--a message to you! I named +him after you... Do you think that if dreams could make him your +child--he wouldn't be yours?" + +Her courage, and the expression of it, seemed to him to be sublime. + +"You don't know me!" she sighed, less convulsively. + +"Don't I!" he said, with lofty confidence. + +After a whole decade his nostrils quivered again to the odour of her +olive skin. Drowning amid the waves of her terrible devotion, he was +recompensed in the hundredth part of a second for all that through her +he had suffered or might hereafter suffer. The many problems and +difficulties which marriage with her would raise seemed trivial in the +light of her heart's magnificent and furious loyalty. He thought of the +younger Edwin whom she had kissed into rapture, as of a boy too +inexperienced in sorrow to appreciate this Hilda. 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