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diff --git a/23-0.txt b/23-0.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..0341a48 --- /dev/null +++ b/23-0.txt @@ -0,0 +1,4097 @@ +The Project Gutenberg eBook of Narrative of the Life of Frederick Douglass, by Frederick Douglass + +This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere in the United States and +most other parts of the world at no cost and with almost no restrictions +whatsoever. You may copy it, give it away or re-use it under the terms +of the Project Gutenberg License included with this eBook or online at +www.gutenberg.org. If you are not located in the United States, you +will have to check the laws of the country where you are located before +using this eBook. + +Title: Narrative of the Life of Frederick Douglass + An American Slave + +Author: Frederick Douglass + +Release Date: January 1992 [eBook #23] +[Most recently updated: February 28, 2021] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: UTF-8 + +Produced by: An Anonymous Volunteer and David Widger + +*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK NARRATIVE OF THE LIFE OF FREDERICK DOUGLASS *** + + + + +Narrative +of the +Life +of +FREDERICK DOUGLASS + +AN +AMERICAN SLAVE. +WRITTEN BY HIMSELF. + +BOSTON + + PUBLISHED AT THE ANTI-SLAVERY OFFICE, + NO. 25 CORNHILL + 1845 + +ENTERED, ACCORDING TO ACT OF CONGRESS, + IN THE YEAR 1845 + BY FREDERICK DOUGLASS, + IN THE CLERK’S OFFICE OF THE DISTRICT COURT +OF MASSACHUSETTS. + +Note from the original file: This electronic book is being released at +this time to honor the birthday of Martin Luther King Jr. [Born January +15, 1929] [Officially celebrated January 20, 1992] + + +Contents + + PREFACE + LETTER FROM WENDELL PHILLIPS, ESQ. + FREDERICK DOUGLASS. + CHAPTER I + CHAPTER II + CHAPTER III + CHAPTER IV + CHAPTER V + CHAPTER VI + CHAPTER VII + CHAPTER VIII + CHAPTER IX + CHAPTER X + CHAPTER XI + APPENDIX + A PARODY + + + + + PREFACE + + +In the month of August, 1841, I attended an anti-slavery convention in +Nantucket, at which it was my happiness to become acquainted with +_Frederick Douglass_, the writer of the following Narrative. He was a +stranger to nearly every member of that body; but, having recently made +his escape from the southern prison-house of bondage, and feeling his +curiosity excited to ascertain the principles and measures of the +abolitionists,—of whom he had heard a somewhat vague description while +he was a slave,—he was induced to give his attendance, on the occasion +alluded to, though at that time a resident in New Bedford. + +Fortunate, most fortunate occurrence!—fortunate for the millions of his +manacled brethren, yet panting for deliverance from their awful +thraldom!—fortunate for the cause of negro emancipation, and of +universal liberty!—fortunate for the land of his birth, which he has +already done so much to save and bless!—fortunate for a large circle of +friends and acquaintances, whose sympathy and affection he has strongly +secured by the many sufferings he has endured, by his virtuous traits +of character, by his ever-abiding remembrance of those who are in +bonds, as being bound with them!—fortunate for the multitudes, in +various parts of our republic, whose minds he has enlightened on the +subject of slavery, and who have been melted to tears by his pathos, or +roused to virtuous indignation by his stirring eloquence against the +enslavers of men!—fortunate for himself, as it at once brought him into +the field of public usefulness, “gave the world assurance of a MAN,” +quickened the slumbering energies of his soul, and consecrated him to +the great work of breaking the rod of the oppressor, and letting the +oppressed go free! + +I shall never forget his first speech at the convention—the +extraordinary emotion it excited in my own mind—the powerful impression +it created upon a crowded auditory, completely taken by surprise—the +applause which followed from the beginning to the end of his felicitous +remarks. I think I never hated slavery so intensely as at that moment; +certainly, my perception of the enormous outrage which is inflicted by +it, on the godlike nature of its victims, was rendered far more clear +than ever. There stood one, in physical proportion and stature +commanding and exact—in intellect richly endowed—in natural eloquence a +prodigy—in soul manifestly “created but a little lower than the +angels”—yet a slave, ay, a fugitive slave,—trembling for his safety, +hardly daring to believe that on the American soil, a single white +person could be found who would befriend him at all hazards, for the +love of God and humanity! Capable of high attainments as an +intellectual and moral being—needing nothing but a comparatively small +amount of cultivation to make him an ornament to society and a blessing +to his race—by the law of the land, by the voice of the people, by the +terms of the slave code, he was only a piece of property, a beast of +burden, a chattel personal, nevertheless! + +A beloved friend from New Bedford prevailed on Mr. DOUGLASS to address +the convention. He came forward to the platform with a hesitancy and +embarrassment, necessarily the attendants of a sensitive mind in such a +novel position. After apologizing for his ignorance, and reminding the +audience that slavery was a poor school for the human intellect and +heart, he proceeded to narrate some of the facts in his own history as +a slave, and in the course of his speech gave utterance to many noble +thoughts and thrilling reflections. As soon as he had taken his seat, +filled with hope and admiration, I rose, and declared that PATRICK +HENRY, of revolutionary fame, never made a speech more eloquent in the +cause of liberty, than the one we had just listened to from the lips of +that hunted fugitive. So I believed at that time—such is my belief now. +I reminded the audience of the peril which surrounded this +self-emancipated young man at the North,—even in Massachusetts, on the +soil of the Pilgrim Fathers, among the descendants of revolutionary +sires; and I appealed to them, whether they would ever allow him to be +carried back into slavery,—law or no law, constitution or no +constitution. The response was unanimous and in thunder-tones—“NO!” +“Will you succor and protect him as a brother-man—a resident of the old +Bay State?” “YES!” shouted the whole mass, with an energy so startling, +that the ruthless tyrants south of Mason and Dixon’s line might almost +have heard the mighty burst of feeling, and recognized it as the pledge +of an invincible determination, on the part of those who gave it, never +to betray him that wanders, but to hide the outcast, and firmly to +abide the consequences. + +It was at once deeply impressed upon my mind, that, if Mr. DOUGLASS +could be persuaded to consecrate his time and talents to the promotion +of the anti-slavery enterprise, a powerful impetus would be given to +it, and a stunning blow at the same time inflicted on northern +prejudice against a colored complexion. I therefore endeavored to +instil hope and courage into his mind, in order that he might dare to +engage in a vocation so anomalous and responsible for a person in his +situation; and I was seconded in this effort by warm-hearted friends, +especially by the late General Agent of the Massachusetts Anti-Slavery +Society, Mr. JOHN A. COLLINS, whose judgment in this instance entirely +coincided with my own. At first, he could give no encouragement; with +unfeigned diffidence, he expressed his conviction that he was not +adequate to the performance of so great a task; the path marked out was +wholly an untrodden one; he was sincerely apprehensive that he should +do more harm than good. After much deliberation, however, he consented +to make a trial; and ever since that period, he has acted as a +lecturing agent, under the auspices either of the American or the +Massachusetts Anti-Slavery Society. In labors he has been most +abundant; and his success in combating prejudice, in gaining +proselytes, in agitating the public mind, has far surpassed the most +sanguine expectations that were raised at the commencement of his +brilliant career. He has borne himself with gentleness and meekness, +yet with true manliness of character. As a public speaker, he excels in +pathos, wit, comparison, imitation, strength of reasoning, and fluency +of language. There is in him that union of head and heart, which is +indispensable to an enlightenment of the heads and a winning of the +hearts of others. May his strength continue to be equal to his day! May +he continue to “grow in grace, and in the knowledge of God,” that he +may be increasingly serviceable in the cause of bleeding humanity, +whether at home or abroad! + +It is certainly a very remarkable fact, that one of the most efficient +advocates of the slave population, now before the public, is a fugitive +slave, in the person of _Frederick Douglass_; and that the free colored +population of the United States are as ably represented by one of their +own number, in the person of _Charles Lenox Remond_, whose eloquent +appeals have extorted the highest applause of multitudes on both sides +of the Atlantic. Let the calumniators of the colored race despise +themselves for their baseness and illiberality of spirit, and +henceforth cease to talk of the natural inferiority of those who +require nothing but time and opportunity to attain to the highest point +of human excellence. + +It may, perhaps, be fairly questioned, whether any other portion of the +population of the earth could have endured the privations, sufferings +and horrors of slavery, without having become more degraded in the +scale of humanity than the slaves of African descent. Nothing has been +left undone to cripple their intellects, darken their minds, debase +their moral nature, obliterate all traces of their relationship to +mankind; and yet how wonderfully they have sustained the mighty load of +a most frightful bondage, under which they have been groaning for +centuries! To illustrate the effect of slavery on the white man,—to +show that he has no powers of endurance, in such a condition, superior +to those of his black brother,—_Daniel O’Connell_, the distinguished +advocate of universal emancipation, and the mightiest champion of +prostrate but not conquered Ireland, relates the following anecdote in +a speech delivered by him in the Conciliation Hall, Dublin, before the +Loyal National Repeal Association, March 31, 1845. “No matter,” said +_Mr. O’Connell_, “under what specious term it may disguise itself, +slavery is still hideous. _It has a natural, an inevitable tendency to +brutalize every noble faculty of man._ An American sailor, who was cast +away on the shore of Africa, where he was kept in slavery for three +years, was, at the expiration of that period, found to be imbruted and +stultified—he had lost all reasoning power; and having forgotten his +native language, could only utter some savage gibberish between Arabic +and English, which nobody could understand, and which even he himself +found difficulty in pronouncing. So much for the humanizing influence +of _The Domestic Institution_!” Admitting this to have been an +extraordinary case of mental deterioration, it proves at least that the +white slave can sink as low in the scale of humanity as the black one. + +_Mr. Douglass_ has very properly chosen to write his own Narrative, in +his own style, and according to the best of his ability, rather than to +employ some one else. It is, therefore, entirely his own production; +and, considering how long and dark was the career he had to run as a +slave,—how few have been his opportunities to improve his mind since he +broke his iron fetters,—it is, in my judgment, highly creditable to his +head and heart. He who can peruse it without a tearful eye, a heaving +breast, an afflicted spirit,—without being filled with an unutterable +abhorrence of slavery and all its abettors, and animated with a +determination to seek the immediate overthrow of that execrable +system,—without trembling for the fate of this country in the hands of +a righteous God, who is ever on the side of the oppressed, and whose +arm is not shortened that it cannot save,—must have a flinty heart, and +be qualified to act the part of a trafficker “in slaves and the souls +of men.” I am confident that it is essentially true in all its +statements; that nothing has been set down in malice, nothing +exaggerated, nothing drawn from the imagination; that it comes short of +the reality, rather than overstates a single fact in regard to _slavery +as it is_. The experience of _Frederick Douglass_, as a slave, was not +a peculiar one; his lot was not especially a hard one; his case may be +regarded as a very fair specimen of the treatment of slaves in +Maryland, in which State it is conceded that they are better fed and +less cruelly treated than in Georgia, Alabama, or Louisiana. Many have +suffered incomparably more, while very few on the plantations have +suffered less, than himself. Yet how deplorable was his situation! what +terrible chastisements were inflicted upon his person! what still more +shocking outrages were perpetrated upon his mind! with all his noble +powers and sublime aspirations, how like a brute was he treated, even +by those professing to have the same mind in them that was in Christ +Jesus! to what dreadful liabilities was he continually subjected! how +destitute of friendly counsel and aid, even in his greatest +extremities! how heavy was the midnight of woe which shrouded in +blackness the last ray of hope, and filled the future with terror and +gloom! what longings after freedom took possession of his breast, and +how his misery augmented, in proportion as he grew reflective and +intelligent,—thus demonstrating that a happy slave is an extinct man! +how he thought, reasoned, felt, under the lash of the driver, with the +chains upon his limbs! what perils he encountered in his endeavors to +escape from his horrible doom! and how signal have been his deliverance +and preservation in the midst of a nation of pitiless enemies! + +This Narrative contains many affecting incidents, many passages of +great eloquence and power; but I think the most thrilling one of them +all is the description _Douglass_ gives of his feelings, as he stood +soliloquizing respecting his fate, and the chances of his one day being +a freeman, on the banks of the Chesapeake Bay—viewing the receding +vessels as they flew with their white wings before the breeze, and +apostrophizing them as animated by the living spirit of freedom. Who +can read that passage, and be insensible to its pathos and sublimity? +Compressed into it is a whole Alexandrian library of thought, feeling, +and sentiment—all that can, all that need be urged, in the form of +expostulation, entreaty, rebuke, against that crime of crimes,—making +man the property of his fellow-man! O, how accursed is that system, +which entombs the godlike mind of man, defaces the divine image, +reduces those who by creation were crowned with glory and honor to a +level with four-footed beasts, and exalts the dealer in human flesh +above all that is called God! Why should its existence be prolonged one +hour? Is it not evil, only evil, and that continually? What does its +presence imply but the absence of all fear of God, all regard for man, +on the part of the people of the United States? Heaven speed its +eternal overthrow! + +So profoundly ignorant of the nature of slavery are many persons, that +they are stubbornly incredulous whenever they read or listen to any +recital of the cruelties which are daily inflicted on its victims. They +do not deny that the slaves are held as property; but that terrible +fact seems to convey to their minds no idea of injustice, exposure to +outrage, or savage barbarity. Tell them of cruel scourgings, of +mutilations and brandings, of scenes of pollution and blood, of the +banishment of all light and knowledge, and they affect to be greatly +indignant at such enormous exaggerations, such wholesale misstatements, +such abominable libels on the character of the southern planters! As if +all these direful outrages were not the natural results of slavery! As +if it were less cruel to reduce a human being to the condition of a +thing, than to give him a severe flagellation, or to deprive him of +necessary food and clothing! As if whips, chains, thumb-screws, +paddles, blood-hounds, overseers, drivers, patrols, were not all +indispensable to keep the slaves down, and to give protection to their +ruthless oppressors! As if, when the marriage institution is abolished, +concubinage, adultery, and incest, must not necessarily abound; when +all the rights of humanity are annihilated, any barrier remains to +protect the victim from the fury of the spoiler; when absolute power is +assumed over life and liberty, it will not be wielded with destructive +sway! Skeptics of this character abound in society. In some few +instances, their incredulity arises from a want of reflection; but, +generally, it indicates a hatred of the light, a desire to shield +slavery from the assaults of its foes, a contempt of the colored race, +whether bond or free. Such will try to discredit the shocking tales of +slaveholding cruelty which are recorded in this truthful Narrative; but +they will labor in vain. _Mr. Douglass_ has frankly disclosed the place +of his birth, the names of those who claimed ownership in his body and +soul, and the names also of those who committed the crimes which he has +alleged against them. His statements, therefore, may easily be +disproved, if they are untrue. + +In the course of his Narrative, he relates two instances of murderous +cruelty,—in one of which a planter deliberately shot a slave belonging +to a neighboring plantation, who had unintentionally gotten within his +lordly domain in quest of fish; and in the other, an overseer blew out +the brains of a slave who had fled to a stream of water to escape a +bloody scourging. _Mr. Douglass_ states that in neither of these +instances was any thing done by way of legal arrest or judicial +investigation. The Baltimore American, of March 17, 1845, relates a +similar case of atrocity, perpetrated with similar impunity—as +follows:—“_Shooting a slave._—We learn, upon the authority of a letter +from Charles county, Maryland, received by a gentleman of this city, +that a young man, named Matthews, a nephew of General Matthews, and +whose father, it is believed, holds an office at Washington, killed one +of the slaves upon his father’s farm by shooting him. The letter states +that young Matthews had been left in charge of the farm; that he gave +an order to the servant, which was disobeyed, when he proceeded to the +house, _obtained a gun, and, returning, shot the servant._ He +immediately, the letter continues, fled to his father’s residence, +where he still remains unmolested.”—Let it never be forgotten, that no +slaveholder or overseer can be convicted of any outrage perpetrated on +the person of a slave, however diabolical it may be, on the testimony +of colored witnesses, whether bond or free. By the slave code, they are +adjudged to be as incompetent to testify against a white man, as though +they were indeed a part of the brute creation. Hence, there is no legal +protection in fact, whatever there may be in form, for the slave +population; and any amount of cruelty may be inflicted on them with +impunity. Is it possible for the human mind to conceive of a more +horrible state of society? + +The effect of a religious profession on the conduct of southern masters +is vividly described in the following Narrative, and shown to be any +thing but salutary. In the nature of the case, it must be in the +highest degree pernicious. The testimony of _Mr. Douglass_, on this +point, is sustained by a cloud of witnesses, whose veracity is +unimpeachable. “A slaveholder’s profession of Christianity is a +palpable imposture. He is a felon of the highest grade. He is a +man-stealer. It is of no importance what you put in the other scale.” + +Reader! are you with the man-stealers in sympathy and purpose, or on +the side of their down-trodden victims? If with the former, then are +you the foe of God and man. If with the latter, what are you prepared +to do and dare in their behalf? Be faithful, be vigilant, be untiring +in your efforts to break every yoke, and let the oppressed go free. +Come what may—cost what it may—inscribe on the banner which you unfurl +to the breeze, as your religious and political motto—“NO COMPROMISE +WITH SLAVERY! NO UNION WITH SLAVEHOLDERS!” + +WM. LLOYD GARRISON BOSTON, + +_May_ 1, 1845. + + + + + LETTER FROM WENDELL PHILLIPS, ESQ. + + +BOSTON, _April_ 22, 1845. + +My Dear Friend: + +You remember the old fable of “The Man and the Lion,” where the lion +complained that he should not be so misrepresented “when the lions +wrote history.” + +I am glad the time has come when the “lions write history.” We have +been left long enough to gather the character of slavery from the +involuntary evidence of the masters. One might, indeed, rest +sufficiently satisfied with what, it is evident, must be, in general, +the results of such a relation, without seeking farther to find whether +they have followed in every instance. Indeed, those who stare at the +half-peck of corn a week, and love to count the lashes on the slave’s +back, are seldom the “stuff” out of which reformers and abolitionists +are to be made. I remember that, in 1838, many were waiting for the +results of the West India experiment, before they could come into our +ranks. Those “results” have come long ago; but, alas! few of that +number have come with them, as converts. A man must be disposed to +judge of emancipation by other tests than whether it has increased the +produce of sugar,—and to hate slavery for other reasons than because it +starves men and whips women,—before he is ready to lay the first stone +of his anti-slavery life. + +I was glad to learn, in your story, how early the most neglected of +God’s children waken to a sense of their rights, and of the injustice +done them. Experience is a keen teacher; and long before you had +mastered your A B C, or knew where the “white sails” of the Chesapeake +were bound, you began, I see, to gauge the wretchedness of the slave, +not by his hunger and want, not by his lashes and toil, but by the +cruel and blighting death which gathers over his soul. + +In connection with this, there is one circumstance which makes your +recollections peculiarly valuable, and renders your early insight the +more remarkable. You come from that part of the country where we are +told slavery appears with its fairest features. Let us hear, then, what +it is at its best estate—gaze on its bright side, if it has one; and +then imagination may task her powers to add dark lines to the picture, +as she travels southward to that (for the colored man) Valley of the +Shadow of Death, where the Mississippi sweeps along. + +Again, we have known you long, and can put the most entire confidence +in your truth, candor, and sincerity. Every one who has heard you speak +has felt, and, I am confident, every one who reads your book will feel, +persuaded that you give them a fair specimen of the whole truth. No +one-sided portrait,—no wholesale complaints,—but strict justice done, +whenever individual kindliness has neutralized, for a moment, the +deadly system with which it was strangely allied. You have been with +us, too, some years, and can fairly compare the twilight of rights, +which your race enjoy at the North, with that “noon of night” under +which they labor south of Mason and Dixon’s line. Tell us whether, +after all, the half-free colored man of Massachusetts is worse off than +the pampered slave of the rice swamps! + +In reading your life, no one can say that we have unfairly picked out +some rare specimens of cruelty. We know that the bitter drops, which +even you have drained from the cup, are no incidental aggravations, no +individual ills, but such as must mingle always and necessarily in the +lot of every slave. They are the essential ingredients, not the +occasional results, of the system. + +After all, I shall read your book with trembling for you. Some years +ago, when you were beginning to tell me your real name and birthplace, +you may remember I stopped you, and preferred to remain ignorant of +all. With the exception of a vague description, so I continued, till +the other day, when you read me your memoirs. I hardly knew, at the +time, whether to thank you or not for the sight of them, when I +reflected that it was still dangerous, in Massachusetts, for honest men +to tell their names! They say the fathers, in 1776, signed the +Declaration of Independence with the halter about their necks. You, +too, publish your declaration of freedom with danger compassing you +around. In all the broad lands which the Constitution of the United +States overshadows, there is no single spot,—however narrow or +desolate,—where a fugitive slave can plant himself and say, “I am +safe.” The whole armory of Northern Law has no shield for you. I am +free to say that, in your place, I should throw the MS. into the fire. + +You, perhaps, may tell your story in safety, endeared as you are to so +many warm hearts by rare gifts, and a still rarer devotion of them to +the service of others. But it will be owing only to your labors, and +the fearless efforts of those who, trampling the laws and Constitution +of the country under their feet, are determined that they will “hide +the outcast,” and that their hearths shall be, spite of the law, an +asylum for the oppressed, if, some time or other, the humblest may +stand in our streets, and bear witness in safety against the cruelties +of which he has been the victim. + +Yet it is sad to think, that these very throbbing hearts which welcome +your story, and form your best safeguard in telling it, are all beating +contrary to the “statute in such case made and provided.” Go on, my +dear friend, till you, and those who, like you, have been saved, so as +by fire, from the dark prison-house, shall stereotype these free, +illegal pulses into statutes; and New England, cutting loose from a +blood-stained Union, shall glory in being the house of refuge for the +oppressed,—till we no longer merely “_hide_ the outcast,” or make a +merit of standing idly by while he is hunted in our midst; but, +consecrating anew the soil of the Pilgrims as an asylum for the +oppressed, proclaim our _welcome_ to the slave so loudly, that the +tones shall reach every hut in the Carolinas, and make the +broken-hearted bondman leap up at the thought of old Massachusetts. + +God speed the day! +_Till then, and ever,_ +Yours truly, +WENDELL PHILLIPS + + + + + FREDERICK DOUGLASS. + + +Frederick Douglass was born in slavery as Frederick Augustus Washington +Bailey near Easton in Talbot County, Maryland. He was not sure of the +exact year of his birth, but he knew that it was 1817 or 1818. As a +young boy he was sent to Baltimore, to be a house servant, where he +learned to read and write, with the assistance of his master’s wife. In +1838 he escaped from slavery and went to New York City, where he +married Anna Murray, a free colored woman whom he had met in Baltimore. +Soon thereafter he changed his name to Frederick Douglass. In 1841 he +addressed a convention of the Massachusetts Anti-Slavery Society in +Nantucket and so greatly impressed the group that they immediately +employed him as an agent. He was such an impressive orator that +numerous persons doubted if he had ever been a slave, so he wrote +_Narrative Of The Life Of Frederick Douglass_. During the Civil War he +assisted in the recruiting of colored men for the 54th and 55th +Massachusetts Regiments and consistently argued for the emancipation of +slaves. After the war he was active in securing and protecting the +rights of the freemen. In his later years, at different times, he was +secretary of the Santo Domingo Commission, marshall and recorder of +deeds of the District of Columbia, and United States Minister to Haiti. +His other autobiographical works are _My Bondage And My Freedom_ and +_Life And Times Of Frederick Douglass_, published in 1855 and 1881 +respectively. He died in 1895. + + + + + CHAPTER I + + +I was born in Tuckahoe, near Hillsborough, and about twelve miles from +Easton, in Talbot county, Maryland. I have no accurate knowledge of my +age, never having seen any authentic record containing it. By far the +larger part of the slaves know as little of their ages as horses know +of theirs, and it is the wish of most masters within my knowledge to +keep their slaves thus ignorant. I do not remember to have ever met a +slave who could tell of his birthday. They seldom come nearer to it +than planting-time, harvest-time, cherry-time, spring-time, or +fall-time. A want of information concerning my own was a source of +unhappiness to me even during childhood. The white children could tell +their ages. I could not tell why I ought to be deprived of the same +privilege. I was not allowed to make any inquiries of my master +concerning it. He deemed all such inquiries on the part of a slave +improper and impertinent, and evidence of a restless spirit. The +nearest estimate I can give makes me now between twenty-seven and +twenty-eight years of age. I come to this, from hearing my master say, +some time during 1835, I was about seventeen years old. + +My mother was named Harriet Bailey. She was the daughter of Isaac and +Betsey Bailey, both colored, and quite dark. My mother was of a darker +complexion than either my grandmother or grandfather. + +My father was a white man. He was admitted to be such by all I ever +heard speak of my parentage. The opinion was also whispered that my +master was my father; but of the correctness of this opinion, I know +nothing; the means of knowing was withheld from me. My mother and I +were separated when I was but an infant—before I knew her as my mother. +It is a common custom, in the part of Maryland from which I ran away, +to part children from their mothers at a very early age. Frequently, +before the child has reached its twelfth month, its mother is taken +from it, and hired out on some farm a considerable distance off, and +the child is placed under the care of an old woman, too old for field +labor. For what this separation is done, I do not know, unless it be to +hinder the development of the child’s affection toward its mother, and +to blunt and destroy the natural affection of the mother for the child. +This is the inevitable result. + +I never saw my mother, to know her as such, more than four or five +times in my life; and each of these times was very short in duration, +and at night. She was hired by a Mr. Stewart, who lived about twelve +miles from my home. She made her journeys to see me in the night, +travelling the whole distance on foot, after the performance of her +day’s work. She was a field hand, and a whipping is the penalty of not +being in the field at sunrise, unless a slave has special permission +from his or her master to the contrary—a permission which they seldom +get, and one that gives to him that gives it the proud name of being a +kind master. I do not recollect of ever seeing my mother by the light +of day. She was with me in the night. She would lie down with me, and +get me to sleep, but long before I waked she was gone. Very little +communication ever took place between us. Death soon ended what little +we could have while she lived, and with it her hardships and suffering. +She died when I was about seven years old, on one of my master’s farms, +near Lee’s Mill. I was not allowed to be present during her illness, at +her death, or burial. She was gone long before I knew any thing about +it. Never having enjoyed, to any considerable extent, her soothing +presence, her tender and watchful care, I received the tidings of her +death with much the same emotions I should have probably felt at the +death of a stranger. + +Called thus suddenly away, she left me without the slightest intimation +of who my father was. The whisper that my master was my father, may or +may not be true; and, true or false, it is of but little consequence to +my purpose whilst the fact remains, in all its glaring odiousness, that +slaveholders have ordained, and by law established, that the children +of slave women shall in all cases follow the condition of their +mothers; and this is done too obviously to administer to their own +lusts, and make a gratification of their wicked desires profitable as +well as pleasurable; for by this cunning arrangement, the slaveholder, +in cases not a few, sustains to his slaves the double relation of +master and father. + +I know of such cases; and it is worthy of remark that such slaves +invariably suffer greater hardships, and have more to contend with, +than others. They are, in the first place, a constant offence to their +mistress. She is ever disposed to find fault with them; they can seldom +do any thing to please her; she is never better pleased than when she +sees them under the lash, especially when she suspects her husband of +showing to his mulatto children favors which he withholds from his +black slaves. The master is frequently compelled to sell this class of +his slaves, out of deference to the feelings of his white wife; and, +cruel as the deed may strike any one to be, for a man to sell his own +children to human flesh-mongers, it is often the dictate of humanity +for him to do so; for, unless he does this, he must not only whip them +himself, but must stand by and see one white son tie up his brother, of +but few shades darker complexion than himself, and ply the gory lash to +his naked back; and if he lisp one word of disapproval, it is set down +to his parental partiality, and only makes a bad matter worse, both for +himself and the slave whom he would protect and defend. + +Every year brings with it multitudes of this class of slaves. It was +doubtless in consequence of a knowledge of this fact, that one great +statesman of the south predicted the downfall of slavery by the +inevitable laws of population. Whether this prophecy is ever fulfilled +or not, it is nevertheless plain that a very different-looking class of +people are springing up at the south, and are now held in slavery, from +those originally brought to this country from Africa; and if their +increase do no other good, it will do away the force of the argument, +that God cursed Ham, and therefore American slavery is right. If the +lineal descendants of Ham are alone to be scripturally enslaved, it is +certain that slavery at the south must soon become unscriptural; for +thousands are ushered into the world, annually, who, like myself, owe +their existence to white fathers, and those fathers most frequently +their own masters. + +I have had two masters. My first master’s name was Anthony. I do not +remember his first name. He was generally called Captain Anthony—a +title which, I presume, he acquired by sailing a craft on the +Chesapeake Bay. He was not considered a rich slaveholder. He owned two +or three farms, and about thirty slaves. His farms and slaves were +under the care of an overseer. The overseer’s name was Plummer. Mr. +Plummer was a miserable drunkard, a profane swearer, and a savage +monster. He always went armed with a cowskin and a heavy cudgel. I have +known him to cut and slash the women’s heads so horribly, that even +master would be enraged at his cruelty, and would threaten to whip him +if he did not mind himself. Master, however, was not a humane +slaveholder. It required extraordinary barbarity on the part of an +overseer to affect him. He was a cruel man, hardened by a long life of +slaveholding. He would at times seem to take great pleasure in whipping +a slave. I have often been awakened at the dawn of day by the most +heart-rending shrieks of an own aunt of mine, whom he used to tie up to +a joist, and whip upon her naked back till she was literally covered +with blood. No words, no tears, no prayers, from his gory victim, +seemed to move his iron heart from its bloody purpose. The louder she +screamed, the harder he whipped; and where the blood ran fastest, there +he whipped longest. He would whip her to make her scream, and whip her +to make her hush; and not until overcome by fatigue, would he cease to +swing the blood-clotted cowskin. I remember the first time I ever +witnessed this horrible exhibition. I was quite a child, but I well +remember it. I never shall forget it whilst I remember any thing. It +was the first of a long series of such outrages, of which I was doomed +to be a witness and a participant. It struck me with awful force. It +was the blood-stained gate, the entrance to the hell of slavery, +through which I was about to pass. It was a most terrible spectacle. I +wish I could commit to paper the feelings with which I beheld it. + +This occurrence took place very soon after I went to live with my old +master, and under the following circumstances. Aunt Hester went out one +night,—where or for what I do not know,—and happened to be absent when +my master desired her presence. He had ordered her not to go out +evenings, and warned her that she must never let him catch her in +company with a young man, who was paying attention to her belonging to +Colonel Lloyd. The young man’s name was Ned Roberts, generally called +Lloyd’s Ned. Why master was so careful of her, may be safely left to +conjecture. She was a woman of noble form, and of graceful proportions, +having very few equals, and fewer superiors, in personal appearance, +among the colored or white women of our neighborhood. + +Aunt Hester had not only disobeyed his orders in going out, but had +been found in company with Lloyd’s Ned; which circumstance, I found, +from what he said while whipping her, was the chief offence. Had he +been a man of pure morals himself, he might have been thought +interested in protecting the innocence of my aunt; but those who knew +him will not suspect him of any such virtue. Before he commenced +whipping Aunt Hester, he took her into the kitchen, and stripped her +from neck to waist, leaving her neck, shoulders, and back, entirely +naked. He then told her to cross her hands, calling her at the same +time a d——d b—-h. After crossing her hands, he tied them with a strong +rope, and led her to a stool under a large hook in the joist, put in +for the purpose. He made her get upon the stool, and tied her hands to +the hook. She now stood fair for his infernal purpose. Her arms were +stretched up at their full length, so that she stood upon the ends of +her toes. He then said to her, “Now, you d——d b—-h, I’ll learn you how +to disobey my orders!” and after rolling up his sleeves, he commenced +to lay on the heavy cowskin, and soon the warm, red blood (amid +heart-rending shrieks from her, and horrid oaths from him) came +dripping to the floor. I was so terrified and horror-stricken at the +sight, that I hid myself in a closet, and dared not venture out till +long after the bloody transaction was over. I expected it would be my +turn next. It was all new to me. I had never seen any thing like it +before. I had always lived with my grandmother on the outskirts of the +plantation, where she was put to raise the children of the younger +women. I had therefore been, until now, out of the way of the bloody +scenes that often occurred on the plantation. + + + + + CHAPTER II + + +My master’s family consisted of two sons, Andrew and Richard; one +daughter, Lucretia, and her husband, Captain Thomas Auld. They lived in +one house, upon the home plantation of Colonel Edward Lloyd. My master +was Colonel Lloyd’s clerk and superintendent. He was what might be +called the overseer of the overseers. I spent two years of childhood on +this plantation in my old master’s family. It was here that I witnessed +the bloody transaction recorded in the first chapter; and as I received +my first impressions of slavery on this plantation, I will give some +description of it, and of slavery as it there existed. The plantation +is about twelve miles north of Easton, in Talbot county, and is +situated on the border of Miles River. The principal products raised +upon it were tobacco, corn, and wheat. These were raised in great +abundance; so that, with the products of this and the other farms +belonging to him, he was able to keep in almost constant employment a +large sloop, in carrying them to market at Baltimore. This sloop was +named Sally Lloyd, in honor of one of the colonel’s daughters. My +master’s son-in-law, Captain Auld, was master of the vessel; she was +otherwise manned by the colonel’s own slaves. Their names were Peter, +Isaac, Rich, and Jake. These were esteemed very highly by the other +slaves, and looked upon as the privileged ones of the plantation; for +it was no small affair, in the eyes of the slaves, to be allowed to see +Baltimore. + +Colonel Lloyd kept from three to four hundred slaves on his home +plantation, and owned a large number more on the neighboring farms +belonging to him. The names of the farms nearest to the home plantation +were Wye Town and New Design. “Wye Town” was under the overseership of +a man named Noah Willis. New Design was under the overseership of a Mr. +Townsend. The overseers of these, and all the rest of the farms, +numbering over twenty, received advice and direction from the managers +of the home plantation. This was the great business place. It was the +seat of government for the whole twenty farms. All disputes among the +overseers were settled here. If a slave was convicted of any high +misdemeanor, became unmanageable, or evinced a determination to run +away, he was brought immediately here, severely whipped, put on board +the sloop, carried to Baltimore, and sold to Austin Woolfolk, or some +other slave-trader, as a warning to the slaves remaining. + +Here, too, the slaves of all the other farms received their monthly +allowance of food, and their yearly clothing. The men and women slaves +received, as their monthly allowance of food, eight pounds of pork, or +its equivalent in fish, and one bushel of corn meal. Their yearly +clothing consisted of two coarse linen shirts, one pair of linen +trousers, like the shirts, one jacket, one pair of trousers for winter, +made of coarse negro cloth, one pair of stockings, and one pair of +shoes; the whole of which could not have cost more than seven dollars. +The allowance of the slave children was given to their mothers, or the +old women having the care of them. The children unable to work in the +field had neither shoes, stockings, jackets, nor trousers, given to +them; their clothing consisted of two coarse linen shirts per year. +When these failed them, they went naked until the next allowance-day. +Children from seven to ten years old, of both sexes, almost naked, +might be seen at all seasons of the year. + +There were no beds given the slaves, unless one coarse blanket be +considered such, and none but the men and women had these. This, +however, is not considered a very great privation. They find less +difficulty from the want of beds, than from the want of time to sleep; +for when their day’s work in the field is done, the most of them having +their washing, mending, and cooking to do, and having few or none of +the ordinary facilities for doing either of these, very many of their +sleeping hours are consumed in preparing for the field the coming day; +and when this is done, old and young, male and female, married and +single, drop down side by side, on one common bed,—the cold, damp +floor,—each covering himself or herself with their miserable blankets; +and here they sleep till they are summoned to the field by the driver’s +horn. At the sound of this, all must rise, and be off to the field. +There must be no halting; every one must be at his or her post; and woe +betides them who hear not this morning summons to the field; for if +they are not awakened by the sense of hearing, they are by the sense of +feeling: no age nor sex finds any favor. Mr. Severe, the overseer, used +to stand by the door of the quarter, armed with a large hickory stick +and heavy cowskin, ready to whip any one who was so unfortunate as not +to hear, or, from any other cause, was prevented from being ready to +start for the field at the sound of the horn. + +Mr. Severe was rightly named: he was a cruel man. I have seen him whip +a woman, causing the blood to run half an hour at the time; and this, +too, in the midst of her crying children, pleading for their mother’s +release. He seemed to take pleasure in manifesting his fiendish +barbarity. Added to his cruelty, he was a profane swearer. It was +enough to chill the blood and stiffen the hair of an ordinary man to +hear him talk. Scarce a sentence escaped him but that was commenced or +concluded by some horrid oath. The field was the place to witness his +cruelty and profanity. His presence made it both the field of blood and +of blasphemy. From the rising till the going down of the sun, he was +cursing, raving, cutting, and slashing among the slaves of the field, +in the most frightful manner. His career was short. He died very soon +after I went to Colonel Lloyd’s; and he died as he lived, uttering, +with his dying groans, bitter curses and horrid oaths. His death was +regarded by the slaves as the result of a merciful providence. + +Mr. Severe’s place was filled by a Mr. Hopkins. He was a very different +man. He was less cruel, less profane, and made less noise, than Mr. +Severe. His course was characterized by no extraordinary demonstrations +of cruelty. He whipped, but seemed to take no pleasure in it. He was +called by the slaves a good overseer. + +The home plantation of Colonel Lloyd wore the appearance of a country +village. All the mechanical operations for all the farms were performed +here. The shoemaking and mending, the blacksmithing, cartwrighting, +coopering, weaving, and grain-grinding, were all performed by the +slaves on the home plantation. The whole place wore a business-like +aspect very unlike the neighboring farms. The number of houses, too, +conspired to give it advantage over the neighboring farms. It was +called by the slaves the _Great House Farm._ Few privileges were +esteemed higher, by the slaves of the out-farms, than that of being +selected to do errands at the Great House Farm. It was associated in +their minds with greatness. A representative could not be prouder of +his election to a seat in the American Congress, than a slave on one of +the out-farms would be of his election to do errands at the Great House +Farm. They regarded it as evidence of great confidence reposed in them +by their overseers; and it was on this account, as well as a constant +desire to be out of the field from under the driver’s lash, that they +esteemed it a high privilege, one worth careful living for. He was +called the smartest and most trusty fellow, who had this honor +conferred upon him the most frequently. The competitors for this office +sought as diligently to please their overseers, as the office-seekers +in the political parties seek to please and deceive the people. The +same traits of character might be seen in Colonel Lloyd’s slaves, as +are seen in the slaves of the political parties. + +The slaves selected to go to the Great House Farm, for the monthly +allowance for themselves and their fellow-slaves, were peculiarly +enthusiastic. While on their way, they would make the dense old woods, +for miles around, reverberate with their wild songs, revealing at once +the highest joy and the deepest sadness. They would compose and sing as +they went along, consulting neither time nor tune. The thought that +came up, came out—if not in the word, in the sound;—and as frequently +in the one as in the other. They would sometimes sing the most pathetic +sentiment in the most rapturous tone, and the most rapturous sentiment +in the most pathetic tone. Into all of their songs they would manage to +weave something of the Great House Farm. Especially would they do this, +when leaving home. They would then sing most exultingly the following +words:— + +“I am going away to the Great House Farm! +O, yea! O, yea! O!” + + +This they would sing, as a chorus, to words which to many would seem +unmeaning jargon, but which, nevertheless, were full of meaning to +themselves. I have sometimes thought that the mere hearing of those +songs would do more to impress some minds with the horrible character +of slavery, than the reading of whole volumes of philosophy on the +subject could do. + +I did not, when a slave, understand the deep meaning of those rude and +apparently incoherent songs. I was myself within the circle; so that I +neither saw nor heard as those without might see and hear. They told a +tale of woe which was then altogether beyond my feeble comprehension; +they were tones loud, long, and deep; they breathed the prayer and +complaint of souls boiling over with the bitterest anguish. Every tone +was a testimony against slavery, and a prayer to God for deliverance +from chains. The hearing of those wild notes always depressed my +spirit, and filled me with ineffable sadness. I have frequently found +myself in tears while hearing them. The mere recurrence to those songs, +even now, afflicts me; and while I am writing these lines, an +expression of feeling has already found its way down my cheek. To those +songs I trace my first glimmering conception of the dehumanizing +character of slavery. I can never get rid of that conception. Those +songs still follow me, to deepen my hatred of slavery, and quicken my +sympathies for my brethren in bonds. If any one wishes to be impressed +with the soul-killing effects of slavery, let him go to Colonel Lloyd’s +plantation, and, on allowance-day, place himself in the deep pine +woods, and there let him, in silence, analyze the sounds that shall +pass through the chambers of his soul,—and if he is not thus impressed, +it will only be because “there is no flesh in his obdurate heart.” + +I have often been utterly astonished, since I came to the north, to +find persons who could speak of the singing, among slaves, as evidence +of their contentment and happiness. It is impossible to conceive of a +greater mistake. Slaves sing most when they are most unhappy. The songs +of the slave represent the sorrows of his heart; and he is relieved by +them, only as an aching heart is relieved by its tears. At least, such +is my experience. I have often sung to drown my sorrow, but seldom to +express my happiness. Crying for joy, and singing for joy, were alike +uncommon to me while in the jaws of slavery. The singing of a man cast +away upon a desolate island might be as appropriately considered as +evidence of contentment and happiness, as the singing of a slave; the +songs of the one and of the other are prompted by the same emotion. + + + + + CHAPTER III + + +Colonel Lloyd kept a large and finely cultivated garden, which afforded +almost constant employment for four men, besides the chief gardener, +(Mr. M’Durmond.) This garden was probably the greatest attraction of +the place. During the summer months, people came from far and near—from +Baltimore, Easton, and Annapolis—to see it. It abounded in fruits of +almost every description, from the hardy apple of the north to the +delicate orange of the south. This garden was not the least source of +trouble on the plantation. Its excellent fruit was quite a temptation +to the hungry swarms of boys, as well as the older slaves, belonging to +the colonel, few of whom had the virtue or the vice to resist it. +Scarcely a day passed, during the summer, but that some slave had to +take the lash for stealing fruit. The colonel had to resort to all +kinds of stratagems to keep his slaves out of the garden. The last and +most successful one was that of tarring his fence all around; after +which, if a slave was caught with any tar upon his person, it was +deemed sufficient proof that he had either been into the garden, or had +tried to get in. In either case, he was severely whipped by the chief +gardener. This plan worked well; the slaves became as fearful of tar as +of the lash. They seemed to realize the impossibility of touching _tar_ +without being defiled. + +The colonel also kept a splendid riding equipage. His stable and +carriage-house presented the appearance of some of our large city +livery establishments. His horses were of the finest form and noblest +blood. His carriage-house contained three splendid coaches, three or +four gigs, besides dearborns and barouches of the most fashionable +style. + +This establishment was under the care of two slaves—old Barney and +young Barney—father and son. To attend to this establishment was their +sole work. But it was by no means an easy employment; for in nothing +was Colonel Lloyd more particular than in the management of his horses. +The slightest inattention to these was unpardonable, and was visited +upon those, under whose care they were placed, with the severest +punishment; no excuse could shield them, if the colonel only suspected +any want of attention to his horses—a supposition which he frequently +indulged, and one which, of course, made the office of old and young +Barney a very trying one. They never knew when they were safe from +punishment. They were frequently whipped when least deserving, and +escaped whipping when most deserving it. Every thing depended upon the +looks of the horses, and the state of Colonel Lloyd’s own mind when his +horses were brought to him for use. If a horse did not move fast +enough, or hold his head high enough, it was owing to some fault of his +keepers. It was painful to stand near the stable-door, and hear the +various complaints against the keepers when a horse was taken out for +use. “This horse has not had proper attention. He has not been +sufficiently rubbed and curried, or he has not been properly fed; his +food was too wet or too dry; he got it too soon or too late; he was too +hot or too cold; he had too much hay, and not enough of grain; or he +had too much grain, and not enough of hay; instead of old Barney’s +attending to the horse, he had very improperly left it to his son.” To +all these complaints, no matter how unjust, the slave must answer never +a word. Colonel Lloyd could not brook any contradiction from a slave. +When he spoke, a slave must stand, listen, and tremble; and such was +literally the case. I have seen Colonel Lloyd make old Barney, a man +between fifty and sixty years of age, uncover his bald head, kneel down +upon the cold, damp ground, and receive upon his naked and toil-worn +shoulders more than thirty lashes at the time. Colonel Lloyd had three +sons—Edward, Murray, and Daniel,—and three sons-in-law, Mr. Winder, Mr. +Nicholson, and Mr. Lowndes. All of these lived at the Great House Farm, +and enjoyed the luxury of whipping the servants when they pleased, from +old Barney down to William Wilkes, the coach-driver. I have seen Winder +make one of the house-servants stand off from him a suitable distance +to be touched with the end of his whip, and at every stroke raise great +ridges upon his back. + +To describe the wealth of Colonel Lloyd would be almost equal to +describing the riches of Job. He kept from ten to fifteen +house-servants. He was said to own a thousand slaves, and I think this +estimate quite within the truth. Colonel Lloyd owned so many that he +did not know them when he saw them; nor did all the slaves of the +out-farms know him. It is reported of him, that, while riding along the +road one day, he met a colored man, and addressed him in the usual +manner of speaking to colored people on the public highways of the +south: “Well, boy, whom do you belong to?” “To Colonel Lloyd,” replied +the slave. “Well, does the colonel treat you well?” “No, sir,” was the +ready reply. “What, does he work you too hard?” “Yes, sir.” “Well, +don’t he give you enough to eat?” “Yes, sir, he gives me enough, such +as it is.” + +The colonel, after ascertaining where the slave belonged, rode on; the +man also went on about his business, not dreaming that he had been +conversing with his master. He thought, said, and heard nothing more of +the matter, until two or three weeks afterwards. The poor man was then +informed by his overseer that, for having found fault with his master, +he was now to be sold to a Georgia trader. He was immediately chained +and handcuffed; and thus, without a moment’s warning, he was snatched +away, and forever sundered, from his family and friends, by a hand more +unrelenting than death. This is the penalty of telling the truth, of +telling the simple truth, in answer to a series of plain questions. + +It is partly in consequence of such facts, that slaves, when inquired +of as to their condition and the character of their masters, almost +universally say they are contented, and that their masters are kind. +The slaveholders have been known to send in spies among their slaves, +to ascertain their views and feelings in regard to their condition. The +frequency of this has had the effect to establish among the slaves the +maxim, that a still tongue makes a wise head. They suppress the truth +rather than take the consequences of telling it, and in so doing prove +themselves a part of the human family. If they have any thing to say of +their masters, it is generally in their masters’ favor, especially when +speaking to an untried man. I have been frequently asked, when a slave, +if I had a kind master, and do not remember ever to have given a +negative answer; nor did I, in pursuing this course, consider myself as +uttering what was absolutely false; for I always measured the kindness +of my master by the standard of kindness set up among slaveholders +around us. Moreover, slaves are like other people, and imbibe +prejudices quite common to others. They think their own better than +that of others. Many, under the influence of this prejudice, think +their own masters are better than the masters of other slaves; and +this, too, in some cases, when the very reverse is true. Indeed, it is +not uncommon for slaves even to fall out and quarrel among themselves +about the relative goodness of their masters, each contending for the +superior goodness of his own over that of the others. At the very same +time, they mutually execrate their masters when viewed separately. It +was so on our plantation. When Colonel Lloyd’s slaves met the slaves of +Jacob Jepson, they seldom parted without a quarrel about their masters; +Colonel Lloyd’s slaves contending that he was the richest, and Mr. +Jepson’s slaves that he was the smartest, and most of a man. Colonel +Lloyd’s slaves would boast his ability to buy and sell Jacob Jepson. +Mr. Jepson’s slaves would boast his ability to whip Colonel Lloyd. +These quarrels would almost always end in a fight between the parties, +and those that whipped were supposed to have gained the point at issue. +They seemed to think that the greatness of their masters was +transferable to themselves. It was considered as being bad enough to be +a slave; but to be a poor man’s slave was deemed a disgrace indeed! + + + + + CHAPTER IV + + +Mr. Hopkins remained but a short time in the office of overseer. Why +his career was so short, I do not know, but suppose he lacked the +necessary severity to suit Colonel Lloyd. Mr. Hopkins was succeeded by +Mr. Austin Gore, a man possessing, in an eminent degree, all those +traits of character indispensable to what is called a first-rate +overseer. Mr. Gore had served Colonel Lloyd, in the capacity of +overseer, upon one of the out-farms, and had shown himself worthy of +the high station of overseer upon the home or Great House Farm. + +Mr. Gore was proud, ambitious, and persevering. He was artful, cruel, +and obdurate. He was just the man for such a place, and it was just the +place for such a man. It afforded scope for the full exercise of all +his powers, and he seemed to be perfectly at home in it. He was one of +those who could torture the slightest look, word, or gesture, on the +part of the slave, into impudence, and would treat it accordingly. +There must be no answering back to him; no explanation was allowed a +slave, showing himself to have been wrongfully accused. Mr. Gore acted +fully up to the maxim laid down by slaveholders,—“It is better that a +dozen slaves should suffer under the lash, than that the overseer +should be convicted, in the presence of the slaves, of having been at +fault.” No matter how innocent a slave might be—it availed him nothing, +when accused by Mr. Gore of any misdemeanor. To be accused was to be +convicted, and to be convicted was to be punished; the one always +following the other with immutable certainty. To escape punishment was +to escape accusation; and few slaves had the fortune to do either, +under the overseership of Mr. Gore. He was just proud enough to demand +the most debasing homage of the slave, and quite servile enough to +crouch, himself, at the feet of the master. He was ambitious enough to +be contented with nothing short of the highest rank of overseers, and +persevering enough to reach the height of his ambition. He was cruel +enough to inflict the severest punishment, artful enough to descend to +the lowest trickery, and obdurate enough to be insensible to the voice +of a reproving conscience. He was, of all the overseers, the most +dreaded by the slaves. His presence was painful; his eye flashed +confusion; and seldom was his sharp, shrill voice heard, without +producing horror and trembling in their ranks. + +Mr. Gore was a grave man, and, though a young man, he indulged in no +jokes, said no funny words, seldom smiled. His words were in perfect +keeping with his looks, and his looks were in perfect keeping with his +words. Overseers will sometimes indulge in a witty word, even with the +slaves; not so with Mr. Gore. He spoke but to command, and commanded +but to be obeyed; he dealt sparingly with his words, and bountifully +with his whip, never using the former where the latter would answer as +well. When he whipped, he seemed to do so from a sense of duty, and +feared no consequences. He did nothing reluctantly, no matter how +disagreeable; always at his post, never inconsistent. He never promised +but to fulfil. He was, in a word, a man of the most inflexible firmness +and stone-like coolness. + +His savage barbarity was equalled only by the consummate coolness with +which he committed the grossest and most savage deeds upon the slaves +under his charge. Mr. Gore once undertook to whip one of Colonel +Lloyd’s slaves, by the name of Demby. He had given Demby but few +stripes, when, to get rid of the scourging, he ran and plunged himself +into a creek, and stood there at the depth of his shoulders, refusing +to come out. Mr. Gore told him that he would give him three calls, and +that, if he did not come out at the third call, he would shoot him. The +first call was given. Demby made no response, but stood his ground. The +second and third calls were given with the same result. Mr. Gore then, +without consultation or deliberation with any one, not even giving +Demby an additional call, raised his musket to his face, taking deadly +aim at his standing victim, and in an instant poor Demby was no more. +His mangled body sank out of sight, and blood and brains marked the +water where he had stood. + +A thrill of horror flashed through every soul upon the plantation, +excepting Mr. Gore. He alone seemed cool and collected. He was asked by +Colonel Lloyd and my old master, why he resorted to this extraordinary +expedient. His reply was, (as well as I can remember,) that Demby had +become unmanageable. He was setting a dangerous example to the other +slaves,—one which, if suffered to pass without some such demonstration +on his part, would finally lead to the total subversion of all rule and +order upon the plantation. He argued that if one slave refused to be +corrected, and escaped with his life, the other slaves would soon copy +the example; the result of which would be, the freedom of the slaves, +and the enslavement of the whites. Mr. Gore’s defence was satisfactory. +He was continued in his station as overseer upon the home plantation. +His fame as an overseer went abroad. His horrid crime was not even +submitted to judicial investigation. It was committed in the presence +of slaves, and they of course could neither institute a suit, nor +testify against him; and thus the guilty perpetrator of one of the +bloodiest and most foul murders goes unwhipped of justice, and +uncensured by the community in which he lives. Mr. Gore lived in St. +Michael’s, Talbot county, Maryland, when I left there; and if he is +still alive, he very probably lives there now; and if so, he is now, as +he was then, as highly esteemed and as much respected as though his +guilty soul had not been stained with his brother’s blood. + +I speak advisedly when I say this,—that killing a slave, or any colored +person, in Talbot county, Maryland, is not treated as a crime, either +by the courts or the community. Mr. Thomas Lanman, of St. Michael’s, +killed two slaves, one of whom he killed with a hatchet, by knocking +his brains out. He used to boast of the commission of the awful and +bloody deed. I have heard him do so laughingly, saying, among other +things, that he was the only benefactor of his country in the company, +and that when others would do as much as he had done, we should be +relieved of “the d——d niggers.” + +The wife of Mr. Giles Hicks, living but a short distance from where I +used to live, murdered my wife’s cousin, a young girl between fifteen +and sixteen years of age, mangling her person in the most horrible +manner, breaking her nose and breastbone with a stick, so that the poor +girl expired in a few hours afterward. She was immediately buried, but +had not been in her untimely grave but a few hours before she was taken +up and examined by the coroner, who decided that she had come to her +death by severe beating. The offence for which this girl was thus +murdered was this:—She had been set that night to mind Mrs. Hicks’s +baby, and during the night she fell asleep, and the baby cried. She, +having lost her rest for several nights previous, did not hear the +crying. They were both in the room with Mrs. Hicks. Mrs. Hicks, finding +the girl slow to move, jumped from her bed, seized an oak stick of wood +by the fireplace, and with it broke the girl’s nose and breastbone, and +thus ended her life. I will not say that this most horrid murder +produced no sensation in the community. It did produce sensation, but +not enough to bring the murderess to punishment. There was a warrant +issued for her arrest, but it was never served. Thus she escaped not +only punishment, but even the pain of being arraigned before a court +for her horrid crime. + +Whilst I am detailing bloody deeds which took place during my stay on +Colonel Lloyd’s plantation, I will briefly narrate another, which +occurred about the same time as the murder of Demby by Mr. Gore. + +Colonel Lloyd’s slaves were in the habit of spending a part of their +nights and Sundays in fishing for oysters, and in this way made up the +deficiency of their scanty allowance. An old man belonging to Colonel +Lloyd, while thus engaged, happened to get beyond the limits of Colonel +Lloyd’s, and on the premises of Mr. Beal Bondly. At this trespass, Mr. +Bondly took offence, and with his musket came down to the shore, and +blew its deadly contents into the poor old man. + +Mr. Bondly came over to see Colonel Lloyd the next day, whether to pay +him for his property, or to justify himself in what he had done, I know +not. At any rate, this whole fiendish transaction was soon hushed up. +There was very little said about it at all, and nothing done. It was a +common saying, even among little white boys, that it was worth a +half-cent to kill a “nigger,” and a half-cent to bury one. + + + + + CHAPTER V + + +As to my own treatment while I lived on Colonel Lloyd’s plantation, it +was very similar to that of the other slave children. I was not old +enough to work in the field, and there being little else than field +work to do, I had a great deal of leisure time. The most I had to do +was to drive up the cows at evening, keep the fowls out of the garden, +keep the front yard clean, and run of errands for my old master’s +daughter, Mrs. Lucretia Auld. The most of my leisure time I spent in +helping Master Daniel Lloyd in finding his birds, after he had shot +them. My connection with Master Daniel was of some advantage to me. He +became quite attached to me, and was a sort of protector of me. He +would not allow the older boys to impose upon me, and would divide his +cakes with me. + +I was seldom whipped by my old master, and suffered little from any +thing else than hunger and cold. I suffered much from hunger, but much +more from cold. In hottest summer and coldest winter, I was kept almost +naked—no shoes, no stockings, no jacket, no trousers, nothing on but a +coarse tow linen shirt, reaching only to my knees. I had no bed. I must +have perished with cold, but that, the coldest nights, I used to steal +a bag which was used for carrying corn to the mill. I would crawl into +this bag, and there sleep on the cold, damp, clay floor, with my head +in and feet out. My feet have been so cracked with the frost, that the +pen with which I am writing might be laid in the gashes. + +We were not regularly allowanced. Our food was coarse corn meal boiled. +This was called _mush_. It was put into a large wooden tray or trough, +and set down upon the ground. The children were then called, like so +many pigs, and like so many pigs they would come and devour the mush; +some with oyster-shells, others with pieces of shingle, some with naked +hands, and none with spoons. He that ate fastest got most; he that was +strongest secured the best place; and few left the trough satisfied. + +I was probably between seven and eight years old when I left Colonel +Lloyd’s plantation. I left it with joy. I shall never forget the +ecstasy with which I received the intelligence that my old master +(Anthony) had determined to let me go to Baltimore, to live with Mr. +Hugh Auld, brother to my old master’s son-in-law, Captain Thomas Auld. +I received this information about three days before my departure. They +were three of the happiest days I ever enjoyed. I spent the most part +of all these three days in the creek, washing off the plantation scurf, +and preparing myself for my departure. + +The pride of appearance which this would indicate was not my own. I +spent the time in washing, not so much because I wished to, but because +Mrs. Lucretia had told me I must get all the dead skin off my feet and +knees before I could go to Baltimore; for the people in Baltimore were +very cleanly, and would laugh at me if I looked dirty. Besides, she was +going to give me a pair of trousers, which I should not put on unless I +got all the dirt off me. The thought of owning a pair of trousers was +great indeed! It was almost a sufficient motive, not only to make me +take off what would be called by pig-drovers the mange, but the skin +itself. I went at it in good earnest, working for the first time with +the hope of reward. + +The ties that ordinarily bind children to their homes were all +suspended in my case. I found no severe trial in my departure. My home +was charmless; it was not home to me; on parting from it, I could not +feel that I was leaving any thing which I could have enjoyed by +staying. My mother was dead, my grandmother lived far off, so that I +seldom saw her. I had two sisters and one brother, that lived in the +same house with me; but the early separation of us from our mother had +well nigh blotted the fact of our relationship from our memories. I +looked for home elsewhere, and was confident of finding none which I +should relish less than the one which I was leaving. If, however, I +found in my new home hardship, hunger, whipping, and nakedness, I had +the consolation that I should not have escaped any one of them by +staying. Having already had more than a taste of them in the house of +my old master, and having endured them there, I very naturally inferred +my ability to endure them elsewhere, and especially at Baltimore; for I +had something of the feeling about Baltimore that is expressed in the +proverb, that “being hanged in England is preferable to dying a natural +death in Ireland.” I had the strongest desire to see Baltimore. Cousin +Tom, though not fluent in speech, had inspired me with that desire by +his eloquent description of the place. I could never point out any +thing at the Great House, no matter how beautiful or powerful, but that +he had seen something at Baltimore far exceeding, both in beauty and +strength, the object which I pointed out to him. Even the Great House +itself, with all its pictures, was far inferior to many buildings in +Baltimore. So strong was my desire, that I thought a gratification of +it would fully compensate for whatever loss of comforts I should +sustain by the exchange. I left without a regret, and with the highest +hopes of future happiness. + +We sailed out of Miles River for Baltimore on a Saturday morning. I +remember only the day of the week, for at that time I had no knowledge +of the days of the month, nor the months of the year. On setting sail, +I walked aft, and gave to Colonel Lloyd’s plantation what I hoped would +be the last look. I then placed myself in the bows of the sloop, and +there spent the remainder of the day in looking ahead, interesting +myself in what was in the distance rather than in things near by or +behind. + +In the afternoon of that day, we reached Annapolis, the capital of the +State. We stopped but a few moments, so that I had no time to go on +shore. It was the first large town that I had ever seen, and though it +would look small compared with some of our New England factory +villages, I thought it a wonderful place for its size—more imposing +even than the Great House Farm! + +We arrived at Baltimore early on Sunday morning, landing at Smith’s +Wharf, not far from Bowley’s Wharf. We had on board the sloop a large +flock of sheep; and after aiding in driving them to the slaughterhouse +of Mr. Curtis on Louden Slater’s Hill, I was conducted by Rich, one of +the hands belonging on board of the sloop, to my new home in Alliciana +Street, near Mr. Gardner’s ship-yard, on Fells Point. + +Mr. and Mrs. Auld were both at home, and met me at the door with their +little son Thomas, to take care of whom I had been given. And here I +saw what I had never seen before; it was a white face beaming with the +most kindly emotions; it was the face of my new mistress, Sophia Auld. +I wish I could describe the rapture that flashed through my soul as I +beheld it. It was a new and strange sight to me, brightening up my +pathway with the light of happiness. Little Thomas was told, there was +his Freddy,—and I was told to take care of little Thomas; and thus I +entered upon the duties of my new home with the most cheering prospect +ahead. + +I look upon my departure from Colonel Lloyd’s plantation as one of the +most interesting events of my life. It is possible, and even quite +probable, that but for the mere circumstance of being removed from that +plantation to Baltimore, I should have to-day, instead of being here +seated by my own table, in the enjoyment of freedom and the happiness +of home, writing this Narrative, been confined in the galling chains of +slavery. Going to live at Baltimore laid the foundation, and opened the +gateway, to all my subsequent prosperity. I have ever regarded it as +the first plain manifestation of that kind providence which has ever +since attended me, and marked my life with so many favors. I regarded +the selection of myself as being somewhat remarkable. There were a +number of slave children that might have been sent from the plantation +to Baltimore. There were those younger, those older, and those of the +same age. I was chosen from among them all, and was the first, last, +and only choice. + +I may be deemed superstitious, and even egotistical, in regarding this +event as a special interposition of divine Providence in my favor. But +I should be false to the earliest sentiments of my soul, if I +suppressed the opinion. I prefer to be true to myself, even at the +hazard of incurring the ridicule of others, rather than to be false, +and incur my own abhorrence. From my earliest recollection, I date the +entertainment of a deep conviction that slavery would not always be +able to hold me within its foul embrace; and in the darkest hours of my +career in slavery, this living word of faith and spirit of hope +departed not from me, but remained like ministering angels to cheer me +through the gloom. This good spirit was from God, and to him I offer +thanksgiving and praise. + + + + + CHAPTER VI + + +My new mistress proved to be all she appeared when I first met her at +the door,—a woman of the kindest heart and finest feelings. She had +never had a slave under her control previously to myself, and prior to +her marriage she had been dependent upon her own industry for a living. +She was by trade a weaver; and by constant application to her business, +she had been in a good degree preserved from the blighting and +dehumanizing effects of slavery. I was utterly astonished at her +goodness. I scarcely knew how to behave towards her. She was entirely +unlike any other white woman I had ever seen. I could not approach her +as I was accustomed to approach other white ladies. My early +instruction was all out of place. The crouching servility, usually so +acceptable a quality in a slave, did not answer when manifested toward +her. Her favor was not gained by it; she seemed to be disturbed by it. +She did not deem it impudent or unmannerly for a slave to look her in +the face. The meanest slave was put fully at ease in her presence, and +none left without feeling better for having seen her. Her face was made +of heavenly smiles, and her voice of tranquil music. + +But, alas! this kind heart had but a short time to remain such. The +fatal poison of irresponsible power was already in her hands, and soon +commenced its infernal work. That cheerful eye, under the influence of +slavery, soon became red with rage; that voice, made all of sweet +accord, changed to one of harsh and horrid discord; and that angelic +face gave place to that of a demon. + +Very soon after I went to live with Mr. and Mrs. Auld, she very kindly +commenced to teach me the A, B, C. After I had learned this, she +assisted me in learning to spell words of three or four letters. Just +at this point of my progress, Mr. Auld found out what was going on, and +at once forbade Mrs. Auld to instruct me further, telling her, among +other things, that it was unlawful, as well as unsafe, to teach a slave +to read. To use his own words, further, he said, “If you give a nigger +an inch, he will take an ell. A nigger should know nothing but to obey +his master—to do as he is told to do. Learning would _spoil_ the best +nigger in the world. Now,” said he, “if you teach that nigger (speaking +of myself) how to read, there would be no keeping him. It would forever +unfit him to be a slave. He would at once become unmanageable, and of +no value to his master. As to himself, it could do him no good, but a +great deal of harm. It would make him discontented and unhappy.” These +words sank deep into my heart, stirred up sentiments within that lay +slumbering, and called into existence an entirely new train of thought. +It was a new and special revelation, explaining dark and mysterious +things, with which my youthful understanding had struggled, but +struggled in vain. I now understood what had been to me a most +perplexing difficulty—to wit, the white man’s power to enslave the +black man. It was a grand achievement, and I prized it highly. From +that moment, I understood the pathway from slavery to freedom. It was +just what I wanted, and I got it at a time when I the least expected +it. Whilst I was saddened by the thought of losing the aid of my kind +mistress, I was gladdened by the invaluable instruction which, by the +merest accident, I had gained from my master. Though conscious of the +difficulty of learning without a teacher, I set out with high hope, and +a fixed purpose, at whatever cost of trouble, to learn how to read. The +very decided manner with which he spoke, and strove to impress his wife +with the evil consequences of giving me instruction, served to convince +me that he was deeply sensible of the truths he was uttering. It gave +me the best assurance that I might rely with the utmost confidence on +the results which, he said, would flow from teaching me to read. What +he most dreaded, that I most desired. What he most loved, that I most +hated. That which to him was a great evil, to be carefully shunned, was +to me a great good, to be diligently sought; and the argument which he +so warmly urged, against my learning to read, only served to inspire me +with a desire and determination to learn. In learning to read, I owe +almost as much to the bitter opposition of my master, as to the kindly +aid of my mistress. I acknowledge the benefit of both. + +I had resided but a short time in Baltimore before I observed a marked +difference, in the treatment of slaves, from that which I had witnessed +in the country. A city slave is almost a freeman, compared with a slave +on the plantation. He is much better fed and clothed, and enjoys +privileges altogether unknown to the slave on the plantation. There is +a vestige of decency, a sense of shame, that does much to curb and +check those outbreaks of atrocious cruelty so commonly enacted upon the +plantation. He is a desperate slaveholder, who will shock the humanity +of his non-slaveholding neighbors with the cries of his lacerated +slave. Few are willing to incur the odium attaching to the reputation +of being a cruel master; and above all things, they would not be known +as not giving a slave enough to eat. Every city slaveholder is anxious +to have it known of him, that he feeds his slaves well; and it is due +to them to say, that most of them do give their slaves enough to eat. +There are, however, some painful exceptions to this rule. Directly +opposite to us, on Philpot Street, lived Mr. Thomas Hamilton. He owned +two slaves. Their names were Henrietta and Mary. Henrietta was about +twenty-two years of age, Mary was about fourteen; and of all the +mangled and emaciated creatures I ever looked upon, these two were the +most so. His heart must be harder than stone, that could look upon +these unmoved. The head, neck, and shoulders of Mary were literally cut +to pieces. I have frequently felt her head, and found it nearly covered +with festering sores, caused by the lash of her cruel mistress. I do +not know that her master ever whipped her, but I have been an +eye-witness to the cruelty of Mrs. Hamilton. I used to be in Mr. +Hamilton’s house nearly every day. Mrs. Hamilton used to sit in a large +chair in the middle of the room, with a heavy cowskin always by her +side, and scarce an hour passed during the day but was marked by the +blood of one of these slaves. The girls seldom passed her without her +saying, “Move faster, you _black gip!_” at the same time giving them a +blow with the cowskin over the head or shoulders, often drawing the +blood. She would then say, “Take that, you _black gip!_” continuing, +“If you don’t move faster, I’ll move you!” Added to the cruel lashings +to which these slaves were subjected, they were kept nearly +half-starved. They seldom knew what it was to eat a full meal. I have +seen Mary contending with the pigs for the offal thrown into the +street. So much was Mary kicked and cut to pieces, that she was oftener +called “_pecked_” than by her name. + + + + + CHAPTER VII + + +I lived in Master Hugh’s family about seven years. During this time, I +succeeded in learning to read and write. In accomplishing this, I was +compelled to resort to various stratagems. I had no regular teacher. My +mistress, who had kindly commenced to instruct me, had, in compliance +with the advice and direction of her husband, not only ceased to +instruct, but had set her face against my being instructed by any one +else. It is due, however, to my mistress to say of her, that she did +not adopt this course of treatment immediately. She at first lacked the +depravity indispensable to shutting me up in mental darkness. It was at +least necessary for her to have some training in the exercise of +irresponsible power, to make her equal to the task of treating me as +though I were a brute. + +My mistress was, as I have said, a kind and tender-hearted woman; and +in the simplicity of her soul she commenced, when I first went to live +with her, to treat me as she supposed one human being ought to treat +another. In entering upon the duties of a slaveholder, she did not seem +to perceive that I sustained to her the relation of a mere chattel, and +that for her to treat me as a human being was not only wrong, but +dangerously so. Slavery proved as injurious to her as it did to me. +When I went there, she was a pious, warm, and tender-hearted woman. +There was no sorrow or suffering for which she had not a tear. She had +bread for the hungry, clothes for the naked, and comfort for every +mourner that came within her reach. Slavery soon proved its ability to +divest her of these heavenly qualities. Under its influence, the tender +heart became stone, and the lamblike disposition gave way to one of +tiger-like fierceness. The first step in her downward course was in her +ceasing to instruct me. She now commenced to practise her husband’s +precepts. She finally became even more violent in her opposition than +her husband himself. She was not satisfied with simply doing as well as +he had commanded; she seemed anxious to do better. Nothing seemed to +make her more angry than to see me with a newspaper. She seemed to +think that here lay the danger. I have had her rush at me with a face +made all up of fury, and snatch from me a newspaper, in a manner that +fully revealed her apprehension. She was an apt woman; and a little +experience soon demonstrated, to her satisfaction, that education and +slavery were incompatible with each other. + +From this time I was most narrowly watched. If I was in a separate room +any considerable length of time, I was sure to be suspected of having a +book, and was at once called to give an account of myself. All this, +however, was too late. The first step had been taken. Mistress, in +teaching me the alphabet, had given me the _inch,_ and no precaution +could prevent me from taking the _ell._ + +The plan which I adopted, and the one by which I was most successful, +was that of making friends of all the little white boys whom I met in +the street. As many of these as I could, I converted into teachers. +With their kindly aid, obtained at different times and in different +places, I finally succeeded in learning to read. When I was sent of +errands, I always took my book with me, and by going one part of my +errand quickly, I found time to get a lesson before my return. I used +also to carry bread with me, enough of which was always in the house, +and to which I was always welcome; for I was much better off in this +regard than many of the poor white children in our neighborhood. This +bread I used to bestow upon the hungry little urchins, who, in return, +would give me that more valuable bread of knowledge. I am strongly +tempted to give the names of two or three of those little boys, as a +testimonial of the gratitude and affection I bear them; but prudence +forbids;—not that it would injure me, but it might embarrass them; for +it is almost an unpardonable offence to teach slaves to read in this +Christian country. It is enough to say of the dear little fellows, that +they lived on Philpot Street, very near Durgin and Bailey’s ship-yard. +I used to talk this matter of slavery over with them. I would sometimes +say to them, I wished I could be as free as they would be when they got +to be men. “You will be free as soon as you are twenty-one, _but I am a +slave for life!_ Have not I as good a right to be free as you have?” +These words used to trouble them; they would express for me the +liveliest sympathy, and console me with the hope that something would +occur by which I might be free. + +I was now about twelve years old, and the thought of being _a slave for +life_ began to bear heavily upon my heart. Just about this time, I got +hold of a book entitled “The Columbian Orator.” Every opportunity I +got, I used to read this book. Among much of other interesting matter, +I found in it a dialogue between a master and his slave. The slave was +represented as having run away from his master three times. The +dialogue represented the conversation which took place between them, +when the slave was retaken the third time. In this dialogue, the whole +argument in behalf of slavery was brought forward by the master, all of +which was disposed of by the slave. The slave was made to say some very +smart as well as impressive things in reply to his master—things which +had the desired though unexpected effect; for the conversation resulted +in the voluntary emancipation of the slave on the part of the master. + +In the same book, I met with one of Sheridan’s mighty speeches on and +in behalf of Catholic emancipation. These were choice documents to me. +I read them over and over again with unabated interest. They gave +tongue to interesting thoughts of my own soul, which had frequently +flashed through my mind, and died away for want of utterance. The moral +which I gained from the dialogue was the power of truth over the +conscience of even a slaveholder. What I got from Sheridan was a bold +denunciation of slavery, and a powerful vindication of human rights. +The reading of these documents enabled me to utter my thoughts, and to +meet the arguments brought forward to sustain slavery; but while they +relieved me of one difficulty, they brought on another even more +painful than the one of which I was relieved. The more I read, the more +I was led to abhor and detest my enslavers. I could regard them in no +other light than a band of successful robbers, who had left their +homes, and gone to Africa, and stolen us from our homes, and in a +strange land reduced us to slavery. I loathed them as being the meanest +as well as the most wicked of men. As I read and contemplated the +subject, behold! that very discontentment which Master Hugh had +predicted would follow my learning to read had already come, to torment +and sting my soul to unutterable anguish. As I writhed under it, I +would at times feel that learning to read had been a curse rather than +a blessing. It had given me a view of my wretched condition, without +the remedy. It opened my eyes to the horrible pit, but to no ladder +upon which to get out. In moments of agony, I envied my fellow-slaves +for their stupidity. I have often wished myself a beast. I preferred +the condition of the meanest reptile to my own. Any thing, no matter +what, to get rid of thinking! It was this everlasting thinking of my +condition that tormented me. There was no getting rid of it. It was +pressed upon me by every object within sight or hearing, animate or +inanimate. The silver trump of freedom had roused my soul to eternal +wakefulness. Freedom now appeared, to disappear no more forever. It was +heard in every sound, and seen in every thing. It was ever present to +torment me with a sense of my wretched condition. I saw nothing without +seeing it, I heard nothing without hearing it, and felt nothing without +feeling it. It looked from every star, it smiled in every calm, +breathed in every wind, and moved in every storm. + +I often found myself regretting my own existence, and wishing myself +dead; and but for the hope of being free, I have no doubt but that I +should have killed myself, or done something for which I should have +been killed. While in this state of mind, I was eager to hear any one +speak of slavery. I was a ready listener. Every little while, I could +hear something about the abolitionists. It was some time before I found +what the word meant. It was always used in such connections as to make +it an interesting word to me. If a slave ran away and succeeded in +getting clear, or if a slave killed his master, set fire to a barn, or +did any thing very wrong in the mind of a slaveholder, it was spoken of +as the fruit of _abolition._ Hearing the word in this connection very +often, I set about learning what it meant. The dictionary afforded me +little or no help. I found it was “the act of abolishing;” but then I +did not know what was to be abolished. Here I was perplexed. I did not +dare to ask any one about its meaning, for I was satisfied that it was +something they wanted me to know very little about. After a patient +waiting, I got one of our city papers, containing an account of the +number of petitions from the north, praying for the abolition of +slavery in the District of Columbia, and of the slave trade between the +States. From this time I understood the words _abolition_ and +_abolitionist,_ and always drew near when that word was spoken, +expecting to hear something of importance to myself and fellow-slaves. +The light broke in upon me by degrees. I went one day down on the wharf +of Mr. Waters; and seeing two Irishmen unloading a scow of stone, I +went, unasked, and helped them. When we had finished, one of them came +to me and asked me if I were a slave. I told him I was. He asked, “Are +ye a slave for life?” I told him that I was. The good Irishman seemed +to be deeply affected by the statement. He said to the other that it +was a pity so fine a little fellow as myself should be a slave for +life. He said it was a shame to hold me. They both advised me to run +away to the north; that I should find friends there, and that I should +be free. I pretended not to be interested in what they said, and +treated them as if I did not understand them; for I feared they might +be treacherous. White men have been known to encourage slaves to +escape, and then, to get the reward, catch them and return them to +their masters. I was afraid that these seemingly good men might use me +so; but I nevertheless remembered their advice, and from that time I +resolved to run away. I looked forward to a time at which it would be +safe for me to escape. I was too young to think of doing so +immediately; besides, I wished to learn how to write, as I might have +occasion to write my own pass. I consoled myself with the hope that I +should one day find a good chance. Meanwhile, I would learn to write. + +The idea as to how I might learn to write was suggested to me by being +in Durgin and Bailey’s ship-yard, and frequently seeing the ship +carpenters, after hewing, and getting a piece of timber ready for use, +write on the timber the name of that part of the ship for which it was +intended. When a piece of timber was intended for the larboard side, it +would be marked thus—“L.” When a piece was for the starboard side, it +would be marked thus—“S.” A piece for the larboard side forward, would +be marked thus—“L. F.” When a piece was for starboard side forward, it +would be marked thus—“S. F.” For larboard aft, it would be marked +thus—“L. A.” For starboard aft, it would be marked thus—“S. A.” I soon +learned the names of these letters, and for what they were intended +when placed upon a piece of timber in the ship-yard. I immediately +commenced copying them, and in a short time was able to make the four +letters named. After that, when I met with any boy who I knew could +write, I would tell him I could write as well as he. The next word +would be, “I don’t believe you. Let me see you try it.” I would then +make the letters which I had been so fortunate as to learn, and ask him +to beat that. In this way I got a good many lessons in writing, which +it is quite possible I should never have gotten in any other way. +During this time, my copy-book was the board fence, brick wall, and +pavement; my pen and ink was a lump of chalk. With these, I learned +mainly how to write. I then commenced and continued copying the Italics +in Webster’s Spelling Book, until I could make them all without looking +on the book. By this time, my little Master Thomas had gone to school, +and learned how to write, and had written over a number of copy-books. +These had been brought home, and shown to some of our near neighbors, +and then laid aside. My mistress used to go to class meeting at the +Wilk Street meetinghouse every Monday afternoon, and leave me to take +care of the house. When left thus, I used to spend the time in writing +in the spaces left in Master Thomas’s copy-book, copying what he had +written. I continued to do this until I could write a hand very similar +to that of Master Thomas. Thus, after a long, tedious effort for years, +I finally succeeded in learning how to write. + + + + + CHAPTER VIII + + +In a very short time after I went to live at Baltimore, my old master’s +youngest son Richard died; and in about three years and six months +after his death, my old master, Captain Anthony, died, leaving only his +son, Andrew, and daughter, Lucretia, to share his estate. He died while +on a visit to see his daughter at Hillsborough. Cut off thus +unexpectedly, he left no will as to the disposal of his property. It +was therefore necessary to have a valuation of the property, that it +might be equally divided between Mrs. Lucretia and Master Andrew. I was +immediately sent for, to be valued with the other property. Here again +my feelings rose up in detestation of slavery. I had now a new +conception of my degraded condition. Prior to this, I had become, if +not insensible to my lot, at least partly so. I left Baltimore with a +young heart overborne with sadness, and a soul full of apprehension. I +took passage with Captain Rowe, in the schooner Wild Cat, and, after a +sail of about twenty-four hours, I found myself near the place of my +birth. I had now been absent from it almost, if not quite, five years. +I, however, remembered the place very well. I was only about five years +old when I left it, to go and live with my old master on Colonel +Lloyd’s plantation; so that I was now between ten and eleven years old. + +We were all ranked together at the valuation. Men and women, old and +young, married and single, were ranked with horses, sheep, and swine. +There were horses and men, cattle and women, pigs and children, all +holding the same rank in the scale of being, and were all subjected to +the same narrow examination. Silvery-headed age and sprightly youth, +maids and matrons, had to undergo the same indelicate inspection. At +this moment, I saw more clearly than ever the brutalizing effects of +slavery upon both slave and slaveholder. + +After the valuation, then came the division. I have no language to +express the high excitement and deep anxiety which were felt among us +poor slaves during this time. Our fate for life was now to be decided. +We had no more voice in that decision than the brutes among whom we +were ranked. A single word from the white men was enough—against all +our wishes, prayers, and entreaties—to sunder forever the dearest +friends, dearest kindred, and strongest ties known to human beings. In +addition to the pain of separation, there was the horrid dread of +falling into the hands of Master Andrew. He was known to us all as +being a most cruel wretch,—a common drunkard, who had, by his reckless +mismanagement and profligate dissipation, already wasted a large +portion of his father’s property. We all felt that we might as well be +sold at once to the Georgia traders, as to pass into his hands; for we +knew that that would be our inevitable condition,—a condition held by +us all in the utmost horror and dread. + +I suffered more anxiety than most of my fellow-slaves. I had known what +it was to be kindly treated; they had known nothing of the kind. They +had seen little or nothing of the world. They were in very deed men and +women of sorrow, and acquainted with grief. Their backs had been made +familiar with the bloody lash, so that they had become callous; mine +was yet tender; for while at Baltimore I got few whippings, and few +slaves could boast of a kinder master and mistress than myself; and the +thought of passing out of their hands into those of Master Andrew—a man +who, but a few days before, to give me a sample of his bloody +disposition, took my little brother by the throat, threw him on the +ground, and with the heel of his boot stamped upon his head till the +blood gushed from his nose and ears—was well calculated to make me +anxious as to my fate. After he had committed this savage outrage upon +my brother, he turned to me, and said that was the way he meant to +serve me one of these days,—meaning, I suppose, when I came into his +possession. + +Thanks to a kind Providence, I fell to the portion of Mrs. Lucretia, +and was sent immediately back to Baltimore, to live again in the family +of Master Hugh. Their joy at my return equalled their sorrow at my +departure. It was a glad day to me. I had escaped a worse than lion’s +jaws. I was absent from Baltimore, for the purpose of valuation and +division, just about one month, and it seemed to have been six. + +Very soon after my return to Baltimore, my mistress, Lucretia, died, +leaving her husband and one child, Amanda; and in a very short time +after her death, Master Andrew died. Now all the property of my old +master, slaves included, was in the hands of strangers,—strangers who +had had nothing to do with accumulating it. Not a slave was left free. +All remained slaves, from the youngest to the oldest. If any one thing +in my experience, more than another, served to deepen my conviction of +the infernal character of slavery, and to fill me with unutterable +loathing of slaveholders, it was their base ingratitude to my poor old +grandmother. She had served my old master faithfully from youth to old +age. She had been the source of all his wealth; she had peopled his +plantation with slaves; she had become a great grandmother in his +service. She had rocked him in infancy, attended him in childhood, +served him through life, and at his death wiped from his icy brow the +cold death-sweat, and closed his eyes forever. She was nevertheless +left a slave—a slave for life—a slave in the hands of strangers; and in +their hands she saw her children, her grandchildren, and her +great-grandchildren, divided, like so many sheep, without being +gratified with the small privilege of a single word, as to their or her +own destiny. And, to cap the climax of their base ingratitude and +fiendish barbarity, my grandmother, who was now very old, having +outlived my old master and all his children, having seen the beginning +and end of all of them, and her present owners finding she was of but +little value, her frame already racked with the pains of old age, and +complete helplessness fast stealing over her once active limbs, they +took her to the woods, built her a little hut, put up a little +mud-chimney, and then made her welcome to the privilege of supporting +herself there in perfect loneliness; thus virtually turning her out to +die! If my poor old grandmother now lives, she lives to suffer in utter +loneliness; she lives to remember and mourn over the loss of children, +the loss of grandchildren, and the loss of great-grandchildren. They +are, in the language of the slave’s poet, Whittier,— + +“Gone, gone, sold and gone +To the rice swamp dank and lone, +Where the slave-whip ceaseless swings, +Where the noisome insect stings, +Where the fever-demon strews +Poison with the falling dews, +Where the sickly sunbeams glare +Through the hot and misty air:— +Gone, gone, sold and gone +To the rice swamp dank and lone, +From Virginia hills and waters— +Woe is me, my stolen daughters!” + + +The hearth is desolate. The children, the unconscious children, who +once sang and danced in her presence, are gone. She gropes her way, in +the darkness of age, for a drink of water. Instead of the voices of her +children, she hears by day the moans of the dove, and by night the +screams of the hideous owl. All is gloom. The grave is at the door. And +now, when weighed down by the pains and aches of old age, when the head +inclines to the feet, when the beginning and ending of human existence +meet, and helpless infancy and painful old age combine together—at this +time, this most needful time, the time for the exercise of that +tenderness and affection which children only can exercise towards a +declining parent—my poor old grandmother, the devoted mother of twelve +children, is left all alone, in yonder little hut, before a few dim +embers. She stands—she sits—she staggers—she falls—she groans—she +dies—and there are none of her children or grandchildren present, to +wipe from her wrinkled brow the cold sweat of death, or to place +beneath the sod her fallen remains. Will not a righteous God visit for +these things? + +In about two years after the death of Mrs. Lucretia, Master Thomas +married his second wife. Her name was Rowena Hamilton. She was the +eldest daughter of Mr. William Hamilton. Master now lived in St. +Michael’s. Not long after his marriage, a misunderstanding took place +between himself and Master Hugh; and as a means of punishing his +brother, he took me from him to live with himself at St. Michael’s. +Here I underwent another most painful separation. It, however, was not +so severe as the one I dreaded at the division of property; for, during +this interval, a great change had taken place in Master Hugh and his +once kind and affectionate wife. The influence of brandy upon him, and +of slavery upon her, had effected a disastrous change in the characters +of both; so that, as far as they were concerned, I thought I had little +to lose by the change. But it was not to them that I was attached. It +was to those little Baltimore boys that I felt the strongest +attachment. I had received many good lessons from them, and was still +receiving them, and the thought of leaving them was painful indeed. I +was leaving, too, without the hope of ever being allowed to return. +Master Thomas had said he would never let me return again. The barrier +betwixt himself and brother he considered impassable. + +I then had to regret that I did not at least make the attempt to carry +out my resolution to run away; for the chances of success are tenfold +greater from the city than from the country. + +I sailed from Baltimore for St. Michael’s in the sloop Amanda, Captain +Edward Dodson. On my passage, I paid particular attention to the +direction which the steamboats took to go to Philadelphia. I found, +instead of going down, on reaching North Point they went up the bay, in +a north-easterly direction. I deemed this knowledge of the utmost +importance. My determination to run away was again revived. I resolved +to wait only so long as the offering of a favorable opportunity. When +that came, I was determined to be off. + + + + + CHAPTER IX + + +I have now reached a period of my life when I can give dates. I left +Baltimore, and went to live with Master Thomas Auld, at St. Michael’s, +in March, 1832. It was now more than seven years since I lived with him +in the family of my old master, on Colonel Lloyd’s plantation. We of +course were now almost entire strangers to each other. He was to me a +new master, and I to him a new slave. I was ignorant of his temper and +disposition; he was equally so of mine. A very short time, however, +brought us into full acquaintance with each other. I was made +acquainted with his wife not less than with himself. They were well +matched, being equally mean and cruel. I was now, for the first time +during a space of more than seven years, made to feel the painful +gnawings of hunger—a something which I had not experienced before since +I left Colonel Lloyd’s plantation. It went hard enough with me then, +when I could look back to no period at which I had enjoyed a +sufficiency. It was tenfold harder after living in Master Hugh’s +family, where I had always had enough to eat, and of that which was +good. I have said Master Thomas was a mean man. He was so. Not to give +a slave enough to eat, is regarded as the most aggravated development +of meanness even among slaveholders. The rule is, no matter how coarse +the food, only let there be enough of it. This is the theory; and in +the part of Maryland from which I came, it is the general +practice,—though there are many exceptions. Master Thomas gave us +enough of neither coarse nor fine food. There were four slaves of us in +the kitchen—my sister Eliza, my aunt Priscilla, Henny, and myself; and +we were allowed less than a half of a bushel of corn-meal per week, and +very little else, either in the shape of meat or vegetables. It was not +enough for us to subsist upon. We were therefore reduced to the +wretched necessity of living at the expense of our neighbors. This we +did by begging and stealing, whichever came handy in the time of need, +the one being considered as legitimate as the other. A great many times +have we poor creatures been nearly perishing with hunger, when food in +abundance lay mouldering in the safe and smoke-house, and our pious +mistress was aware of the fact; and yet that mistress and her husband +would kneel every morning, and pray that God would bless them in basket +and store! + +Bad as all slaveholders are, we seldom meet one destitute of every +element of character commanding respect. My master was one of this rare +sort. I do not know of one single noble act ever performed by him. The +leading trait in his character was meanness; and if there were any +other element in his nature, it was made subject to this. He was mean; +and, like most other mean men, he lacked the ability to conceal his +meanness. Captain Auld was not born a slaveholder. He had been a poor +man, master only of a Bay craft. He came into possession of all his +slaves by marriage; and of all men, adopted slaveholders are the worst. +He was cruel, but cowardly. He commanded without firmness. In the +enforcement of his rules, he was at times rigid, and at times lax. At +times, he spoke to his slaves with the firmness of Napoleon and the +fury of a demon; at other times, he might well be mistaken for an +inquirer who had lost his way. He did nothing of himself. He might have +passed for a lion, but for his ears. In all things noble which he +attempted, his own meanness shone most conspicuous. His airs, words, +and actions, were the airs, words, and actions of born slaveholders, +and, being assumed, were awkward enough. He was not even a good +imitator. He possessed all the disposition to deceive, but wanted the +power. Having no resources within himself, he was compelled to be the +copyist of many, and being such, he was forever the victim of +inconsistency; and of consequence he was an object of contempt, and was +held as such even by his slaves. The luxury of having slaves of his own +to wait upon him was something new and unprepared for. He was a +slaveholder without the ability to hold slaves. He found himself +incapable of managing his slaves either by force, fear, or fraud. We +seldom called him “master;” we generally called him “Captain Auld,” and +were hardly disposed to title him at all. I doubt not that our conduct +had much to do with making him appear awkward, and of consequence +fretful. Our want of reverence for him must have perplexed him greatly. +He wished to have us call him master, but lacked the firmness necessary +to command us to do so. His wife used to insist upon our calling him +so, but to no purpose. In August, 1832, my master attended a Methodist +camp-meeting held in the Bay-side, Talbot county, and there experienced +religion. I indulged a faint hope that his conversion would lead him to +emancipate his slaves, and that, if he did not do this, it would, at +any rate, make him more kind and humane. I was disappointed in both +these respects. It neither made him to be humane to his slaves, nor to +emancipate them. If it had any effect on his character, it made him +more cruel and hateful in all his ways; for I believe him to have been +a much worse man after his conversion than before. Prior to his +conversion, he relied upon his own depravity to shield and sustain him +in his savage barbarity; but after his conversion, he found religious +sanction and support for his slaveholding cruelty. He made the greatest +pretensions to piety. His house was the house of prayer. He prayed +morning, noon, and night. He very soon distinguished himself among his +brethren, and was soon made a class-leader and exhorter. His activity +in revivals was great, and he proved himself an instrument in the hands +of the church in converting many souls. His house was the preachers’ +home. They used to take great pleasure in coming there to put up; for +while he starved us, he stuffed them. We have had three or four +preachers there at a time. The names of those who used to come most +frequently while I lived there, were Mr. Storks, Mr. Ewery, Mr. +Humphry, and Mr. Hickey. I have also seen Mr. George Cookman at our +house. We slaves loved Mr. Cookman. We believed him to be a good man. +We thought him instrumental in getting Mr. Samuel Harrison, a very rich +slaveholder, to emancipate his slaves; and by some means got the +impression that he was laboring to effect the emancipation of all the +slaves. When he was at our house, we were sure to be called in to +prayers. When the others were there, we were sometimes called in and +sometimes not. Mr. Cookman took more notice of us than either of the +other ministers. He could not come among us without betraying his +sympathy for us, and, stupid as we were, we had the sagacity to see it. + +While I lived with my master in St. Michael’s, there was a white young +man, a Mr. Wilson, who proposed to keep a Sabbath school for the +instruction of such slaves as might be disposed to learn to read the +New Testament. We met but three times, when Mr. West and Mr. Fairbanks, +both class-leaders, with many others, came upon us with sticks and +other missiles, drove us off, and forbade us to meet again. Thus ended +our little Sabbath school in the pious town of St. Michael’s. + +I have said my master found religious sanction for his cruelty. As an +example, I will state one of many facts going to prove the charge. I +have seen him tie up a lame young woman, and whip her with a heavy +cowskin upon her naked shoulders, causing the warm red blood to drip; +and, in justification of the bloody deed, he would quote this passage +of Scripture—“He that knoweth his master’s will, and doeth it not, +shall be beaten with many stripes.” + +Master would keep this lacerated young woman tied up in this horrid +situation four or five hours at a time. I have known him to tie her up +early in the morning, and whip her before breakfast; leave her, go to +his store, return at dinner, and whip her again, cutting her in the +places already made raw with his cruel lash. The secret of master’s +cruelty toward “Henny” is found in the fact of her being almost +helpless. When quite a child, she fell into the fire, and burned +herself horribly. Her hands were so burnt that she never got the use of +them. She could do very little but bear heavy burdens. She was to +master a bill of expense; and as he was a mean man, she was a constant +offence to him. He seemed desirous of getting the poor girl out of +existence. He gave her away once to his sister; but, being a poor gift, +she was not disposed to keep her. Finally, my benevolent master, to use +his own words, “set her adrift to take care of herself.” Here was a +recently-converted man, holding on upon the mother, and at the same +time turning out her helpless child, to starve and die! Master Thomas +was one of the many pious slaveholders who hold slaves for the very +charitable purpose of taking care of them. + +My master and myself had quite a number of differences. He found me +unsuitable to his purpose. My city life, he said, had had a very +pernicious effect upon me. It had almost ruined me for every good +purpose, and fitted me for every thing which was bad. One of my +greatest faults was that of letting his horse run away, and go down to +his father-in-law’s farm, which was about five miles from St. +Michael’s. I would then have to go after it. My reason for this kind of +carelessness, or carefulness, was, that I could always get something to +eat when I went there. Master William Hamilton, my master’s +father-in-law, always gave his slaves enough to eat. I never left there +hungry, no matter how great the need of my speedy return. Master Thomas +at length said he would stand it no longer. I had lived with him nine +months, during which time he had given me a number of severe whippings, +all to no good purpose. He resolved to put me out, as he said, to be +broken; and, for this purpose, he let me for one year to a man named +Edward Covey. Mr. Covey was a poor man, a farm-renter. He rented the +place upon which he lived, as also the hands with which he tilled it. +Mr. Covey had acquired a very high reputation for breaking young +slaves, and this reputation was of immense value to him. It enabled him +to get his farm tilled with much less expense to himself than he could +have had it done without such a reputation. Some slaveholders thought +it not much loss to allow Mr. Covey to have their slaves one year, for +the sake of the training to which they were subjected, without any +other compensation. He could hire young help with great ease, in +consequence of this reputation. Added to the natural good qualities of +Mr. Covey, he was a professor of religion—a pious soul—a member and a +class-leader in the Methodist church. All of this added weight to his +reputation as a “nigger-breaker.” I was aware of all the facts, having +been made acquainted with them by a young man who had lived there. I +nevertheless made the change gladly; for I was sure of getting enough +to eat, which is not the smallest consideration to a hungry man. + + + + + CHAPTER X + + +I had left Master Thomas’s house, and went to live with Mr. Covey, on +the 1st of January, 1833. I was now, for the first time in my life, a +field hand. In my new employment, I found myself even more awkward than +a country boy appeared to be in a large city. I had been at my new home +but one week before Mr. Covey gave me a very severe whipping, cutting +my back, causing the blood to run, and raising ridges on my flesh as +large as my little finger. The details of this affair are as follows: +Mr. Covey sent me, very early in the morning of one of our coldest days +in the month of January, to the woods, to get a load of wood. He gave +me a team of unbroken oxen. He told me which was the in-hand ox, and +which the off-hand one. He then tied the end of a large rope around the +horns of the in-hand ox, and gave me the other end of it, and told me, +if the oxen started to run, that I must hold on upon the rope. I had +never driven oxen before, and of course I was very awkward. I, however, +succeeded in getting to the edge of the woods with little difficulty; +but I had got a very few rods into the woods, when the oxen took +fright, and started full tilt, carrying the cart against trees, and +over stumps, in the most frightful manner. I expected every moment that +my brains would be dashed out against the trees. After running thus for +a considerable distance, they finally upset the cart, dashing it with +great force against a tree, and threw themselves into a dense thicket. +How I escaped death, I do not know. There I was, entirely alone, in a +thick wood, in a place new to me. My cart was upset and shattered, my +oxen were entangled among the young trees, and there was none to help +me. After a long spell of effort, I succeeded in getting my cart +righted, my oxen disentangled, and again yoked to the cart. I now +proceeded with my team to the place where I had, the day before, been +chopping wood, and loaded my cart pretty heavily, thinking in this way +to tame my oxen. I then proceeded on my way home. I had now consumed +one half of the day. I got out of the woods safely, and now felt out of +danger. I stopped my oxen to open the woods gate; and just as I did so, +before I could get hold of my ox-rope, the oxen again started, rushed +through the gate, catching it between the wheel and the body of the +cart, tearing it to pieces, and coming within a few inches of crushing +me against the gate-post. Thus twice, in one short day, I escaped death +by the merest chance. On my return, I told Mr. Covey what had happened, +and how it happened. He ordered me to return to the woods again +immediately. I did so, and he followed on after me. Just as I got into +the woods, he came up and told me to stop my cart, and that he would +teach me how to trifle away my time, and break gates. He then went to a +large gum-tree, and with his axe cut three large switches, and, after +trimming them up neatly with his pocketknife, he ordered me to take off +my clothes. I made him no answer, but stood with my clothes on. He +repeated his order. I still made him no answer, nor did I move to strip +myself. Upon this he rushed at me with the fierceness of a tiger, tore +off my clothes, and lashed me till he had worn out his switches, +cutting me so savagely as to leave the marks visible for a long time +after. This whipping was the first of a number just like it, and for +similar offences. + +I lived with Mr. Covey one year. During the first six months, of that +year, scarce a week passed without his whipping me. I was seldom free +from a sore back. My awkwardness was almost always his excuse for +whipping me. We were worked fully up to the point of endurance. Long +before day we were up, our horses fed, and by the first approach of day +we were off to the field with our hoes and ploughing teams. Mr. Covey +gave us enough to eat, but scarce time to eat it. We were often less +than five minutes taking our meals. We were often in the field from the +first approach of day till its last lingering ray had left us; and at +saving-fodder time, midnight often caught us in the field binding +blades. + +Covey would be out with us. The way he used to stand it, was this. He +would spend the most of his afternoons in bed. He would then come out +fresh in the evening, ready to urge us on with his words, example, and +frequently with the whip. Mr. Covey was one of the few slaveholders who +could and did work with his hands. He was a hard-working man. He knew +by himself just what a man or a boy could do. There was no deceiving +him. His work went on in his absence almost as well as in his presence; +and he had the faculty of making us feel that he was ever present with +us. This he did by surprising us. He seldom approached the spot where +we were at work openly, if he could do it secretly. He always aimed at +taking us by surprise. Such was his cunning, that we used to call him, +among ourselves, “the snake.” When we were at work in the cornfield, he +would sometimes crawl on his hands and knees to avoid detection, and +all at once he would rise nearly in our midst, and scream out, “Ha, ha! +Come, come! Dash on, dash on!” This being his mode of attack, it was +never safe to stop a single minute. His comings were like a thief in +the night. He appeared to us as being ever at hand. He was under every +tree, behind every stump, in every bush, and at every window, on the +plantation. He would sometimes mount his horse, as if bound to St. +Michael’s, a distance of seven miles, and in half an hour afterwards +you would see him coiled up in the corner of the wood-fence, watching +every motion of the slaves. He would, for this purpose, leave his horse +tied up in the woods. Again, he would sometimes walk up to us, and give +us orders as though he was upon the point of starting on a long +journey, turn his back upon us, and make as though he was going to the +house to get ready; and, before he would get half way thither, he would +turn short and crawl into a fence-corner, or behind some tree, and +there watch us till the going down of the sun. + +Mr. Covey’s _forte_ consisted in his power to deceive. His life was +devoted to planning and perpetrating the grossest deceptions. Every +thing he possessed in the shape of learning or religion, he made +conform to his disposition to deceive. He seemed to think himself equal +to deceiving the Almighty. He would make a short prayer in the morning, +and a long prayer at night; and, strange as it may seem, few men would +at times appear more devotional than he. The exercises of his family +devotions were always commenced with singing; and, as he was a very +poor singer himself, the duty of raising the hymn generally came upon +me. He would read his hymn, and nod at me to commence. I would at times +do so; at others, I would not. My non-compliance would almost always +produce much confusion. To show himself independent of me, he would +start and stagger through with his hymn in the most discordant manner. +In this state of mind, he prayed with more than ordinary spirit. Poor +man! such was his disposition, and success at deceiving, I do verily +believe that he sometimes deceived himself into the solemn belief, that +he was a sincere worshipper of the most high God; and this, too, at a +time when he may be said to have been guilty of compelling his woman +slave to commit the sin of adultery. The facts in the case are these: +Mr. Covey was a poor man; he was just commencing in life; he was only +able to buy one slave; and, shocking as is the fact, he bought her, as +he said, for _a breeder_. This woman was named Caroline. Mr. Covey +bought her from Mr. Thomas Lowe, about six miles from St. Michael’s. +She was a large, able-bodied woman, about twenty years old. She had +already given birth to one child, which proved her to be just what he +wanted. After buying her, he hired a married man of Mr. Samuel +Harrison, to live with him one year; and him he used to fasten up with +her every night! The result was, that, at the end of the year, the +miserable woman gave birth to twins. At this result Mr. Covey seemed to +be highly pleased, both with the man and the wretched woman. Such was +his joy, and that of his wife, that nothing they could do for Caroline +during her confinement was too good, or too hard, to be done. The +children were regarded as being quite an addition to his wealth. + +If at any one time of my life more than another, I was made to drink +the bitterest dregs of slavery, that time was during the first six +months of my stay with Mr. Covey. We were worked in all weathers. It +was never too hot or too cold; it could never rain, blow, hail, or +snow, too hard for us to work in the field. Work, work, work, was +scarcely more the order of the day than of the night. The longest days +were too short for him, and the shortest nights too long for him. I was +somewhat unmanageable when I first went there, but a few months of this +discipline tamed me. Mr. Covey succeeded in breaking me. I was broken +in body, soul, and spirit. My natural elasticity was crushed, my +intellect languished, the disposition to read departed, the cheerful +spark that lingered about my eye died; the dark night of slavery closed +in upon me; and behold a man transformed into a brute! + +Sunday was my only leisure time. I spent this in a sort of beast-like +stupor, between sleep and wake, under some large tree. At times I would +rise up, a flash of energetic freedom would dart through my soul, +accompanied with a faint beam of hope, that flickered for a moment, and +then vanished. I sank down again, mourning over my wretched condition. +I was sometimes prompted to take my life, and that of Covey, but was +prevented by a combination of hope and fear. My sufferings on this +plantation seem now like a dream rather than a stern reality. + +Our house stood within a few rods of the Chesapeake Bay, whose broad +bosom was ever white with sails from every quarter of the habitable +globe. Those beautiful vessels, robed in purest white, so delightful to +the eye of freemen, were to me so many shrouded ghosts, to terrify and +torment me with thoughts of my wretched condition. I have often, in the +deep stillness of a summer’s Sabbath, stood all alone upon the lofty +banks of that noble bay, and traced, with saddened heart and tearful +eye, the countless number of sails moving off to the mighty ocean. The +sight of these always affected me powerfully. My thoughts would compel +utterance; and there, with no audience but the Almighty, I would pour +out my soul’s complaint, in my rude way, with an apostrophe to the +moving multitude of ships:— + +“You are loosed from your moorings, and are free; I am fast in my +chains, and am a slave! You move merrily before the gentle gale, and I +sadly before the bloody whip! You are freedom’s swift-winged angels, +that fly round the world; I am confined in bands of iron! O that I were +free! O, that I were on one of your gallant decks, and under your +protecting wing! Alas! betwixt me and you, the turbid waters roll. Go +on, go on. O that I could also go! Could I but swim! If I could fly! O, +why was I born a man, of whom to make a brute! The glad ship is gone; +she hides in the dim distance. I am left in the hottest hell of +unending slavery. O God, save me! God, deliver me! Let me be free! Is +there any God? Why am I a slave? I will run away. I will not stand it. +Get caught, or get clear, I’ll try it. I had as well die with ague as +the fever. I have only one life to lose. I had as well be killed +running as die standing. Only think of it; one hundred miles straight +north, and I am free! Try it? Yes! God helping me, I will. It cannot be +that I shall live and die a slave. I will take to the water. This very +bay shall yet bear me into freedom. The steamboats steered in a +north-east course from North Point. I will do the same; and when I get +to the head of the bay, I will turn my canoe adrift, and walk straight +through Delaware into Pennsylvania. When I get there, I shall not be +required to have a pass; I can travel without being disturbed. Let but +the first opportunity offer, and, come what will, I am off. Meanwhile, +I will try to bear up under the yoke. I am not the only slave in the +world. Why should I fret? I can bear as much as any of them. Besides, I +am but a boy, and all boys are bound to some one. It may be that my +misery in slavery will only increase my happiness when I get free. +There is a better day coming.” + +Thus I used to think, and thus I used to speak to myself; goaded almost +to madness at one moment, and at the next reconciling myself to my +wretched lot. + +I have already intimated that my condition was much worse, during the +first six months of my stay at Mr. Covey’s, than in the last six. The +circumstances leading to the change in Mr. Covey’s course toward me +form an epoch in my humble history. You have seen how a man was made a +slave; you shall see how a slave was made a man. On one of the hottest +days of the month of August, 1833, Bill Smith, William Hughes, a slave +named Eli, and myself, were engaged in fanning wheat. Hughes was +clearing the fanned wheat from before the fan. Eli was turning, Smith +was feeding, and I was carrying wheat to the fan. The work was simple, +requiring strength rather than intellect; yet, to one entirely unused +to such work, it came very hard. About three o’clock of that day, I +broke down; my strength failed me; I was seized with a violent aching +of the head, attended with extreme dizziness; I trembled in every limb. +Finding what was coming, I nerved myself up, feeling it would never do +to stop work. I stood as long as I could stagger to the hopper with +grain. When I could stand no longer, I fell, and felt as if held down +by an immense weight. The fan of course stopped; every one had his own +work to do; and no one could do the work of the other, and have his own +go on at the same time. + +Mr. Covey was at the house, about one hundred yards from the +treading-yard where we were fanning. On hearing the fan stop, he left +immediately, and came to the spot where we were. He hastily inquired +what the matter was. Bill answered that I was sick, and there was no +one to bring wheat to the fan. I had by this time crawled away under +the side of the post and rail-fence by which the yard was enclosed, +hoping to find relief by getting out of the sun. He then asked where I +was. He was told by one of the hands. He came to the spot, and, after +looking at me awhile, asked me what was the matter. I told him as well +as I could, for I scarce had strength to speak. He then gave me a +savage kick in the side, and told me to get up. I tried to do so, but +fell back in the attempt. He gave me another kick, and again told me to +rise. I again tried, and succeeded in gaining my feet; but, stooping to +get the tub with which I was feeding the fan, I again staggered and +fell. While down in this situation, Mr. Covey took up the hickory slat +with which Hughes had been striking off the half-bushel measure, and +with it gave me a heavy blow upon the head, making a large wound, and +the blood ran freely; and with this again told me to get up. I made no +effort to comply, having now made up my mind to let him do his worst. +In a short time after receiving this blow, my head grew better. Mr. +Covey had now left me to my fate. At this moment I resolved, for the +first time, to go to my master, enter a complaint, and ask his +protection. In order to do this, I must that afternoon walk seven +miles; and this, under the circumstances, was truly a severe +undertaking. I was exceedingly feeble; made so as much by the kicks and +blows which I received, as by the severe fit of sickness to which I had +been subjected. I, however, watched my chance, while Covey was looking +in an opposite direction, and started for St. Michael’s. I succeeded in +getting a considerable distance on my way to the woods, when Covey +discovered me, and called after me to come back, threatening what he +would do if I did not come. I disregarded both his calls and his +threats, and made my way to the woods as fast as my feeble state would +allow; and thinking I might be overhauled by him if I kept the road, I +walked through the woods, keeping far enough from the road to avoid +detection, and near enough to prevent losing my way. I had not gone far +before my little strength again failed me. I could go no farther. I +fell down, and lay for a considerable time. The blood was yet oozing +from the wound on my head. For a time I thought I should bleed to +death; and think now that I should have done so, but that the blood so +matted my hair as to stop the wound. After lying there about three +quarters of an hour, I nerved myself up again, and started on my way, +through bogs and briers, barefooted and bareheaded, tearing my feet +sometimes at nearly every step; and after a journey of about seven +miles, occupying some five hours to perform it, I arrived at master’s +store. I then presented an appearance enough to affect any but a heart +of iron. From the crown of my head to my feet, I was covered with +blood. My hair was all clotted with dust and blood; my shirt was stiff +with blood. I suppose I looked like a man who had escaped a den of wild +beasts, and barely escaped them. In this state I appeared before my +master, humbly entreating him to interpose his authority for my +protection. I told him all the circumstances as well as I could, and it +seemed, as I spoke, at times to affect him. He would then walk the +floor, and seek to justify Covey by saying he expected I deserved it. +He asked me what I wanted. I told him, to let me get a new home; that +as sure as I lived with Mr. Covey again, I should live with but to die +with him; that Covey would surely kill me; he was in a fair way for it. +Master Thomas ridiculed the idea that there was any danger of Mr. +Covey’s killing me, and said that he knew Mr. Covey; that he was a good +man, and that he could not think of taking me from him; that, should he +do so, he would lose the whole year’s wages; that I belonged to Mr. +Covey for one year, and that I must go back to him, come what might; +and that I must not trouble him with any more stories, or that he would +himself _get hold of me_. After threatening me thus, he gave me a very +large dose of salts, telling me that I might remain in St. Michael’s +that night, (it being quite late,) but that I must be off back to Mr. +Covey’s early in the morning; and that if I did not, he would _get hold +of me,_ which meant that he would whip me. I remained all night, and, +according to his orders, I started off to Covey’s in the morning, +(Saturday morning,) wearied in body and broken in spirit. I got no +supper that night, or breakfast that morning. I reached Covey’s about +nine o’clock; and just as I was getting over the fence that divided +Mrs. Kemp’s fields from ours, out ran Covey with his cowskin, to give +me another whipping. Before he could reach me, I succeeded in getting +to the cornfield; and as the corn was very high, it afforded me the +means of hiding. He seemed very angry, and searched for me a long time. +My behavior was altogether unaccountable. He finally gave up the chase, +thinking, I suppose, that I must come home for something to eat; he +would give himself no further trouble in looking for me. I spent that +day mostly in the woods, having the alternative before me,—to go home +and be whipped to death, or stay in the woods and be starved to death. +That night, I fell in with Sandy Jenkins, a slave with whom I was +somewhat acquainted. Sandy had a free wife who lived about four miles +from Mr. Covey’s; and it being Saturday, he was on his way to see her. +I told him my circumstances, and he very kindly invited me to go home +with him. I went home with him, and talked this whole matter over, and +got his advice as to what course it was best for me to pursue. I found +Sandy an old adviser. He told me, with great solemnity, I must go back +to Covey; but that before I went, I must go with him into another part +of the woods, where there was a certain _root,_ which, if I would take +some of it with me, carrying it _always on my right side,_ would render +it impossible for Mr. Covey, or any other white man, to whip me. He +said he had carried it for years; and since he had done so, he had +never received a blow, and never expected to while he carried it. I at +first rejected the idea, that the simple carrying of a root in my +pocket would have any such effect as he had said, and was not disposed +to take it; but Sandy impressed the necessity with much earnestness, +telling me it could do no harm, if it did no good. To please him, I at +length took the root, and, according to his direction, carried it upon +my right side. This was Sunday morning. I immediately started for home; +and upon entering the yard gate, out came Mr. Covey on his way to +meeting. He spoke to me very kindly, bade me drive the pigs from a lot +near by, and passed on towards the church. Now, this singular conduct +of Mr. Covey really made me begin to think that there was something in +the _root_ which Sandy had given me; and had it been on any other day +than Sunday, I could have attributed the conduct to no other cause than +the influence of that root; and as it was, I was half inclined to think +the _root_ to be something more than I at first had taken it to be. All +went well till Monday morning. On this morning, the virtue of the +_root_ was fully tested. Long before daylight, I was called to go and +rub, curry, and feed, the horses. I obeyed, and was glad to obey. But +whilst thus engaged, whilst in the act of throwing down some blades +from the loft, Mr. Covey entered the stable with a long rope; and just +as I was half out of the loft, he caught hold of my legs, and was about +tying me. As soon as I found what he was up to, I gave a sudden spring, +and as I did so, he holding to my legs, I was brought sprawling on the +stable floor. Mr. Covey seemed now to think he had me, and could do +what he pleased; but at this moment—from whence came the spirit I don’t +know—I resolved to fight; and, suiting my action to the resolution, I +seized Covey hard by the throat; and as I did so, I rose. He held on to +me, and I to him. My resistance was so entirely unexpected that Covey +seemed taken all aback. He trembled like a leaf. This gave me +assurance, and I held him uneasy, causing the blood to run where I +touched him with the ends of my fingers. Mr. Covey soon called out to +Hughes for help. Hughes came, and, while Covey held me, attempted to +tie my right hand. While he was in the act of doing so, I watched my +chance, and gave him a heavy kick close under the ribs. This kick +fairly sickened Hughes, so that he left me in the hands of Mr. Covey. +This kick had the effect of not only weakening Hughes, but Covey also. +When he saw Hughes bending over with pain, his courage quailed. He +asked me if I meant to persist in my resistance. I told him I did, come +what might; that he had used me like a brute for six months, and that I +was determined to be used so no longer. With that, he strove to drag me +to a stick that was lying just out of the stable door. He meant to +knock me down. But just as he was leaning over to get the stick, I +seized him with both hands by his collar, and brought him by a sudden +snatch to the ground. By this time, Bill came. Covey called upon him +for assistance. Bill wanted to know what he could do. Covey said, “Take +hold of him, take hold of him!” Bill said his master hired him out to +work, and not to help to whip me; so he left Covey and myself to fight +our own battle out. We were at it for nearly two hours. Covey at length +let me go, puffing and blowing at a great rate, saying that if I had +not resisted, he would not have whipped me half so much. The truth was, +that he had not whipped me at all. I considered him as getting entirely +the worst end of the bargain; for he had drawn no blood from me, but I +had from him. The whole six months afterwards, that I spent with Mr. +Covey, he never laid the weight of his finger upon me in anger. He +would occasionally say, he didn’t want to get hold of me again. “No,” +thought I, “you need not; for you will come off worse than you did +before.” + +This battle with Mr. Covey was the turning-point in my career as a +slave. It rekindled the few expiring embers of freedom, and revived +within me a sense of my own manhood. It recalled the departed +self-confidence, and inspired me again with a determination to be free. +The gratification afforded by the triumph was a full compensation for +whatever else might follow, even death itself. He only can understand +the deep satisfaction which I experienced, who has himself repelled by +force the bloody arm of slavery. I felt as I never felt before. It was +a glorious resurrection, from the tomb of slavery, to the heaven of +freedom. My long-crushed spirit rose, cowardice departed, bold defiance +took its place; and I now resolved that, however long I might remain a +slave in form, the day had passed forever when I could be a slave in +fact. I did not hesitate to let it be known of me, that the white man +who expected to succeed in whipping, must also succeed in killing me. + +From this time I was never again what might be called fairly whipped, +though I remained a slave four years afterwards. I had several fights, +but was never whipped. + +It was for a long time a matter of surprise to me why Mr. Covey did not +immediately have me taken by the constable to the whipping-post, and +there regularly whipped for the crime of raising my hand against a +white man in defence of myself. And the only explanation I can now +think of does not entirely satisfy me; but such as it is, I will give +it. Mr. Covey enjoyed the most unbounded reputation for being a +first-rate overseer and negro-breaker. It was of considerable +importance to him. That reputation was at stake; and had he sent me—a +boy about sixteen years old—to the public whipping-post, his reputation +would have been lost; so, to save his reputation, he suffered me to go +unpunished. + +My term of actual service to Mr. Edward Covey ended on Christmas day, +1833. The days between Christmas and New Year’s day are allowed as +holidays; and, accordingly, we were not required to perform any labor, +more than to feed and take care of the stock. This time we regarded as +our own, by the grace of our masters; and we therefore used or abused +it nearly as we pleased. Those of us who had families at a distance, +were generally allowed to spend the whole six days in their society. +This time, however, was spent in various ways. The staid, sober, +thinking and industrious ones of our number would employ themselves in +making corn-brooms, mats, horse-collars, and baskets; and another class +of us would spend the time in hunting opossums, hares, and coons. But +by far the larger part engaged in such sports and merriments as playing +ball, wrestling, running foot-races, fiddling, dancing, and drinking +whisky; and this latter mode of spending the time was by far the most +agreeable to the feelings of our masters. A slave who would work during +the holidays was considered by our masters as scarcely deserving them. +He was regarded as one who rejected the favor of his master. It was +deemed a disgrace not to get drunk at Christmas; and he was regarded as +lazy indeed, who had not provided himself with the necessary means, +during the year, to get whisky enough to last him through Christmas. + +From what I know of the effect of these holidays upon the slave, I +believe them to be among the most effective means in the hands of the +slaveholder in keeping down the spirit of insurrection. Were the +slaveholders at once to abandon this practice, I have not the slightest +doubt it would lead to an immediate insurrection among the slaves. +These holidays serve as conductors, or safety-valves, to carry off the +rebellious spirit of enslaved humanity. But for these, the slave would +be forced up to the wildest desperation; and woe betide the +slaveholder, the day he ventures to remove or hinder the operation of +those conductors! I warn him that, in such an event, a spirit will go +forth in their midst, more to be dreaded than the most appalling +earthquake. + +The holidays are part and parcel of the gross fraud, wrong, and +inhumanity of slavery. They are professedly a custom established by the +benevolence of the slaveholders; but I undertake to say, it is the +result of selfishness, and one of the grossest frauds committed upon +the down-trodden slave. They do not give the slaves this time because +they would not like to have their work during its continuance, but +because they know it would be unsafe to deprive them of it. This will +be seen by the fact, that the slaveholders like to have their slaves +spend those days just in such a manner as to make them as glad of their +ending as of their beginning. Their object seems to be, to disgust +their slaves with freedom, by plunging them into the lowest depths of +dissipation. For instance, the slaveholders not only like to see the +slave drink of his own accord, but will adopt various plans to make him +drunk. One plan is, to make bets on their slaves, as to who can drink +the most whisky without getting drunk; and in this way they succeed in +getting whole multitudes to drink to excess. Thus, when the slave asks +for virtuous freedom, the cunning slaveholder, knowing his ignorance, +cheats him with a dose of vicious dissipation, artfully labelled with +the name of liberty. The most of us used to drink it down, and the +result was just what might be supposed; many of us were led to think +that there was little to choose between liberty and slavery. We felt, +and very properly too, that we had almost as well be slaves to man as +to rum. So, when the holidays ended, we staggered up from the filth of +our wallowing, took a long breath, and marched to the field,—feeling, +upon the whole, rather glad to go, from what our master had deceived us +into a belief was freedom, back to the arms of slavery. + +I have said that this mode of treatment is a part of the whole system +of fraud and inhumanity of slavery. It is so. The mode here adopted to +disgust the slave with freedom, by allowing him to see only the abuse +of it, is carried out in other things. For instance, a slave loves +molasses; he steals some. His master, in many cases, goes off to town, +and buys a large quantity; he returns, takes his whip, and commands the +slave to eat the molasses, until the poor fellow is made sick at the +very mention of it. The same mode is sometimes adopted to make the +slaves refrain from asking for more food than their regular allowance. +A slave runs through his allowance, and applies for more. His master is +enraged at him; but, not willing to send him off without food, gives +him more than is necessary, and compels him to eat it within a given +time. Then, if he complains that he cannot eat it, he is said to be +satisfied neither full nor fasting, and is whipped for being hard to +please! I have an abundance of such illustrations of the same +principle, drawn from my own observation, but think the cases I have +cited sufficient. The practice is a very common one. + +On the first of January, 1834, I left Mr. Covey, and went to live with +Mr. William Freeland, who lived about three miles from St. Michael’s. I +soon found Mr. Freeland a very different man from Mr. Covey. Though not +rich, he was what would be called an educated southern gentleman. Mr. +Covey, as I have shown, was a well-trained negro-breaker and +slave-driver. The former (slaveholder though he was) seemed to possess +some regard for honor, some reverence for justice, and some respect for +humanity. The latter seemed totally insensible to all such sentiments. +Mr. Freeland had many of the faults peculiar to slaveholders, such as +being very passionate and fretful; but I must do him the justice to +say, that he was exceedingly free from those degrading vices to which +Mr. Covey was constantly addicted. The one was open and frank, and we +always knew where to find him. The other was a most artful deceiver, +and could be understood only by such as were skilful enough to detect +his cunningly-devised frauds. Another advantage I gained in my new +master was, he made no pretensions to, or profession of, religion; and +this, in my opinion, was truly a great advantage. I assert most +unhesitatingly, that the religion of the south is a mere covering for +the most horrid crimes,—a justifier of the most appalling barbarity,—a +sanctifier of the most hateful frauds,—and a dark shelter under, which +the darkest, foulest, grossest, and most infernal deeds of slaveholders +find the strongest protection. Were I to be again reduced to the chains +of slavery, next to that enslavement, I should regard being the slave +of a religious master the greatest calamity that could befall me. For +of all slaveholders with whom I have ever met, religious slaveholders +are the worst. I have ever found them the meanest and basest, the most +cruel and cowardly, of all others. It was my unhappy lot not only to +belong to a religious slaveholder, but to live in a community of such +religionists. Very near Mr. Freeland lived the Rev. Daniel Weeden, and +in the same neighborhood lived the Rev. Rigby Hopkins. These were +members and ministers in the Reformed Methodist Church. Mr. Weeden +owned, among others, a woman slave, whose name I have forgotten. This +woman’s back, for weeks, was kept literally raw, made so by the lash of +this merciless, _religious_ wretch. He used to hire hands. His maxim +was, Behave well or behave ill, it is the duty of a master occasionally +to whip a slave, to remind him of his master’s authority. Such was his +theory, and such his practice. + +Mr. Hopkins was even worse than Mr. Weeden. His chief boast was his +ability to manage slaves. The peculiar feature of his government was +that of whipping slaves in advance of deserving it. He always managed +to have one or more of his slaves to whip every Monday morning. He did +this to alarm their fears, and strike terror into those who escaped. +His plan was to whip for the smallest offences, to prevent the +commission of large ones. Mr. Hopkins could always find some excuse for +whipping a slave. It would astonish one, unaccustomed to a slaveholding +life, to see with what wonderful ease a slaveholder can find things, of +which to make occasion to whip a slave. A mere look, word, or motion,—a +mistake, accident, or want of power,—are all matters for which a slave +may be whipped at any time. Does a slave look dissatisfied? It is said, +he has the devil in him, and it must be whipped out. Does he speak +loudly when spoken to by his master? Then he is getting high-minded, +and should be taken down a button-hole lower. Does he forget to pull +off his hat at the approach of a white person? Then he is wanting in +reverence, and should be whipped for it. Does he ever venture to +vindicate his conduct, when censured for it? Then he is guilty of +impudence,—one of the greatest crimes of which a slave can be guilty. +Does he ever venture to suggest a different mode of doing things from +that pointed out by his master? He is indeed presumptuous, and getting +above himself; and nothing less than a flogging will do for him. Does +he, while ploughing, break a plough,—or, while hoeing, break a hoe? It +is owing to his carelessness, and for it a slave must always be +whipped. Mr. Hopkins could always find something of this sort to +justify the use of the lash, and he seldom failed to embrace such +opportunities. There was not a man in the whole county, with whom the +slaves who had the getting their own home, would not prefer to live, +rather than with this Rev. Mr. Hopkins. And yet there was not a man any +where round, who made higher professions of religion, or was more +active in revivals,—more attentive to the class, love-feast, prayer and +preaching meetings, or more devotional in his family,—that prayed +earlier, later, louder, and longer,—than this same reverend +slave-driver, Rigby Hopkins. + +But to return to Mr. Freeland, and to my experience while in his +employment. He, like Mr. Covey, gave us enough to eat; but, unlike Mr. +Covey, he also gave us sufficient time to take our meals. He worked us +hard, but always between sunrise and sunset. He required a good deal of +work to be done, but gave us good tools with which to work. His farm +was large, but he employed hands enough to work it, and with ease, +compared with many of his neighbors. My treatment, while in his +employment, was heavenly, compared with what I experienced at the hands +of Mr. Edward Covey. + +Mr. Freeland was himself the owner of but two slaves. Their names were +Henry Harris and John Harris. The rest of his hands he hired. These +consisted of myself, Sandy Jenkins,[1] and Handy Caldwell. + + [1] This is the same man who gave me the roots to prevent my being + whipped by Mr. Covey. He was “a clever soul.” We used frequently to + talk about the fight with Covey, and as often as we did so, he would + claim my success as the result of the roots which he gave me. This + superstition is very common among the more ignorant slaves. A slave + seldom dies but that his death is attributed to trickery. + + +Henry and John were quite intelligent, and in a very little while after +I went there, I succeeded in creating in them a strong desire to learn +how to read. This desire soon sprang up in the others also. They very +soon mustered up some old spelling-books, and nothing would do but that +I must keep a Sabbath school. I agreed to do so, and accordingly +devoted my Sundays to teaching these my loved fellow-slaves how to +read. Neither of them knew his letters when I went there. Some of the +slaves of the neighboring farms found what was going on, and also +availed themselves of this little opportunity to learn to read. It was +understood, among all who came, that there must be as little display +about it as possible. It was necessary to keep our religious masters at +St. Michael’s unacquainted with the fact, that, instead of spending the +Sabbath in wrestling, boxing, and drinking whisky, we were trying to +learn how to read the will of God; for they had much rather see us +engaged in those degrading sports, than to see us behaving like +intellectual, moral, and accountable beings. My blood boils as I think +of the bloody manner in which Messrs. Wright Fairbanks and Garrison +West, both class-leaders, in connection with many others, rushed in +upon us with sticks and stones, and broke up our virtuous little +Sabbath school, at St. Michael’s—all calling themselves Christians! +humble followers of the Lord Jesus Christ! But I am again digressing. + +I held my Sabbath school at the house of a free colored man, whose name +I deem it imprudent to mention; for should it be known, it might +embarrass him greatly, though the crime of holding the school was +committed ten years ago. I had at one time over forty scholars, and +those of the right sort, ardently desiring to learn. They were of all +ages, though mostly men and women. I look back to those Sundays with an +amount of pleasure not to be expressed. They were great days to my +soul. The work of instructing my dear fellow-slaves was the sweetest +engagement with which I was ever blessed. We loved each other, and to +leave them at the close of the Sabbath was a severe cross indeed. When +I think that these precious souls are to-day shut up in the +prison-house of slavery, my feelings overcome me, and I am almost ready +to ask, “Does a righteous God govern the universe? and for what does he +hold the thunders in his right hand, if not to smite the oppressor, and +deliver the spoiled out of the hand of the spoiler?” These dear souls +came not to Sabbath school because it was popular to do so, nor did I +teach them because it was reputable to be thus engaged. Every moment +they spent in that school, they were liable to be taken up, and given +thirty-nine lashes. They came because they wished to learn. Their minds +had been starved by their cruel masters. They had been shut up in +mental darkness. I taught them, because it was the delight of my soul +to be doing something that looked like bettering the condition of my +race. I kept up my school nearly the whole year I lived with Mr. +Freeland; and, beside my Sabbath school, I devoted three evenings in +the week, during the winter, to teaching the slaves at home. And I have +the happiness to know, that several of those who came to Sabbath school +learned how to read; and that one, at least, is now free through my +agency. + +The year passed off smoothly. It seemed only about half as long as the +year which preceded it. I went through it without receiving a single +blow. I will give Mr. Freeland the credit of being the best master I +ever had, _till I became my own master._ For the ease with which I +passed the year, I was, however, somewhat indebted to the society of my +fellow-slaves. They were noble souls; they not only possessed loving +hearts, but brave ones. We were linked and interlinked with each other. +I loved them with a love stronger than any thing I have experienced +since. It is sometimes said that we slaves do not love and confide in +each other. In answer to this assertion, I can say, I never loved any +or confided in any people more than my fellow-slaves, and especially +those with whom I lived at Mr. Freeland’s. I believe we would have died +for each other. We never undertook to do any thing, of any importance, +without a mutual consultation. We never moved separately. We were one; +and as much so by our tempers and dispositions, as by the mutual +hardships to which we were necessarily subjected by our condition as +slaves. + +At the close of the year 1834, Mr. Freeland again hired me of my +master, for the year 1835. But, by this time, I began to want to live +_upon free land_ as well as _with Freeland;_ and I was no longer +content, therefore, to live with him or any other slaveholder. I began, +with the commencement of the year, to prepare myself for a final +struggle, which should decide my fate one way or the other. My tendency +was upward. I was fast approaching manhood, and year after year had +passed, and I was still a slave. These thoughts roused me—I must do +something. I therefore resolved that 1835 should not pass without +witnessing an attempt, on my part, to secure my liberty. But I was not +willing to cherish this determination alone. My fellow-slaves were dear +to me. I was anxious to have them participate with me in this, my +life-giving determination. I therefore, though with great prudence, +commenced early to ascertain their views and feelings in regard to +their condition, and to imbue their minds with thoughts of freedom. I +bent myself to devising ways and means for our escape, and meanwhile +strove, on all fitting occasions, to impress them with the gross fraud +and inhumanity of slavery. I went first to Henry, next to John, then to +the others. I found, in them all, warm hearts and noble spirits. They +were ready to hear, and ready to act when a feasible plan should be +proposed. This was what I wanted. I talked to them of our want of +manhood, if we submitted to our enslavement without at least one noble +effort to be free. We met often, and consulted frequently, and told our +hopes and fears, recounted the difficulties, real and imagined, which +we should be called on to meet. At times we were almost disposed to +give up, and try to content ourselves with our wretched lot; at others, +we were firm and unbending in our determination to go. Whenever we +suggested any plan, there was shrinking—the odds were fearful. Our path +was beset with the greatest obstacles; and if we succeeded in gaining +the end of it, our right to be free was yet questionable—we were yet +liable to be returned to bondage. We could see no spot, this side of +the ocean, where we could be free. We knew nothing about Canada. Our +knowledge of the north did not extend farther than New York; and to go +there, and be forever harassed with the frightful liability of being +returned to slavery—with the certainty of being treated tenfold worse +than before—the thought was truly a horrible one, and one which it was +not easy to overcome. The case sometimes stood thus: At every gate +through which we were to pass, we saw a watchman—at every ferry a +guard—on every bridge a sentinel—and in every wood a patrol. We were +hemmed in upon every side. Here were the difficulties, real or +imagined—the good to be sought, and the evil to be shunned. On the one +hand, there stood slavery, a stern reality, glaring frightfully upon +us,—its robes already crimsoned with the blood of millions, and even +now feasting itself greedily upon our own flesh. On the other hand, +away back in the dim distance, under the flickering light of the north +star, behind some craggy hill or snow-covered mountain, stood a +doubtful freedom—half frozen—beckoning us to come and share its +hospitality. This in itself was sometimes enough to stagger us; but +when we permitted ourselves to survey the road, we were frequently +appalled. Upon either side we saw grim death, assuming the most horrid +shapes. Now it was starvation, causing us to eat our own flesh;—now we +were contending with the waves, and were drowned;—now we were +overtaken, and torn to pieces by the fangs of the terrible bloodhound. +We were stung by scorpions, chased by wild beasts, bitten by snakes, +and finally, after having nearly reached the desired spot,—after +swimming rivers, encountering wild beasts, sleeping in the woods, +suffering hunger and nakedness,—we were overtaken by our pursuers, and, +in our resistance, we were shot dead upon the spot! I say, this picture +sometimes appalled us, and made us + +“rather bear those ills we had, +Than fly to others, that we knew not of.” + + +In coming to a fixed determination to run away, we did more than +Patrick Henry, when he resolved upon liberty or death. With us it was a +doubtful liberty at most, and almost certain death if we failed. For my +part, I should prefer death to hopeless bondage. + +Sandy, one of our number, gave up the notion, but still encouraged us. +Our company then consisted of Henry Harris, John Harris, Henry Bailey, +Charles Roberts, and myself. Henry Bailey was my uncle, and belonged to +my master. Charles married my aunt: he belonged to my master’s +father-in-law, Mr. William Hamilton. + +The plan we finally concluded upon was, to get a large canoe belonging +to Mr. Hamilton, and upon the Saturday night previous to Easter +holidays, paddle directly up the Chesapeake Bay. On our arrival at the +head of the bay, a distance of seventy or eighty miles from where we +lived, it was our purpose to turn our canoe adrift, and follow the +guidance of the north star till we got beyond the limits of Maryland. +Our reason for taking the water route was, that we were less liable to +be suspected as runaways; we hoped to be regarded as fishermen; +whereas, if we should take the land route, we should be subjected to +interruptions of almost every kind. Any one having a white face, and +being so disposed, could stop us, and subject us to examination. + +The week before our intended start, I wrote several protections, one +for each of us. As well as I can remember, they were in the following +words, to wit:— + +“This is to certify that I, the undersigned, have given the bearer, my +servant, full liberty to go to Baltimore, and spend the Easter +holidays. Written with mine own hand, &c., 1835. + + +“WILLIAM HAMILTON, +“Near St. Michael’s, in Talbot county, Maryland.” + + +We were not going to Baltimore; but, in going up the bay, we went +toward Baltimore, and these protections were only intended to protect +us while on the bay. + +As the time drew near for our departure, our anxiety became more and +more intense. It was truly a matter of life and death with us. The +strength of our determination was about to be fully tested. At this +time, I was very active in explaining every difficulty, removing every +doubt, dispelling every fear, and inspiring all with the firmness +indispensable to success in our undertaking; assuring them that half +was gained the instant we made the move; we had talked long enough; we +were now ready to move; if not now, we never should be; and if we did +not intend to move now, we had as well fold our arms, sit down, and +acknowledge ourselves fit only to be slaves. This, none of us were +prepared to acknowledge. Every man stood firm; and at our last meeting, +we pledged ourselves afresh, in the most solemn manner, that, at the +time appointed, we would certainly start in pursuit of freedom. This +was in the middle of the week, at the end of which we were to be off. +We went, as usual, to our several fields of labor, but with bosoms +highly agitated with thoughts of our truly hazardous undertaking. We +tried to conceal our feelings as much as possible; and I think we +succeeded very well. + +After a painful waiting, the Saturday morning, whose night was to +witness our departure, came. I hailed it with joy, bring what of +sadness it might. Friday night was a sleepless one for me. I probably +felt more anxious than the rest, because I was, by common consent, at +the head of the whole affair. The responsibility of success or failure +lay heavily upon me. The glory of the one, and the confusion of the +other, were alike mine. The first two hours of that morning were such +as I never experienced before, and hope never to again. Early in the +morning, we went, as usual, to the field. We were spreading manure; and +all at once, while thus engaged, I was overwhelmed with an +indescribable feeling, in the fulness of which I turned to Sandy, who +was near by, and said, “We are betrayed!” “Well,” said he, “that +thought has this moment struck me.” We said no more. I was never more +certain of any thing. + +The horn was blown as usual, and we went up from the field to the house +for breakfast. I went for the form, more than for want of any thing to +eat that morning. Just as I got to the house, in looking out at the +lane gate, I saw four white men, with two colored men. The white men +were on horseback, and the colored ones were walking behind, as if +tied. I watched them a few moments till they got up to our lane gate. +Here they halted, and tied the colored men to the gate-post. I was not +yet certain as to what the matter was. In a few moments, in rode Mr. +Hamilton, with a speed betokening great excitement. He came to the +door, and inquired if Master William was in. He was told he was at the +barn. Mr. Hamilton, without dismounting, rode up to the barn with +extraordinary speed. In a few moments, he and Mr. Freeland returned to +the house. By this time, the three constables rode up, and in great +haste dismounted, tied their horses, and met Master William and Mr. +Hamilton returning from the barn; and after talking awhile, they all +walked up to the kitchen door. There was no one in the kitchen but +myself and John. Henry and Sandy were up at the barn. Mr. Freeland put +his head in at the door, and called me by name, saying, there were some +gentlemen at the door who wished to see me. I stepped to the door, and +inquired what they wanted. They at once seized me, and, without giving +me any satisfaction, tied me—lashing my hands closely together. I +insisted upon knowing what the matter was. They at length said, that +they had learned I had been in a “scrape,” and that I was to be +examined before my master; and if their information proved false, I +should not be hurt. + +In a few moments, they succeeded in tying John. They then turned to +Henry, who had by this time returned, and commanded him to cross his +hands. “I won’t!” said Henry, in a firm tone, indicating his readiness +to meet the consequences of his refusal. “Won’t you?” said Tom Graham, +the constable. “No, I won’t!” said Henry, in a still stronger tone. +With this, two of the constables pulled out their shining pistols, and +swore, by their Creator, that they would make him cross his hands or +kill him. Each cocked his pistol, and, with fingers on the trigger, +walked up to Henry, saying, at the same time, if he did not cross his +hands, they would blow his damned heart out. “Shoot me, shoot me!” said +Henry; “you can’t kill me but once. Shoot, shoot,—and be damned! _I +won’t be tied!_” This he said in a tone of loud defiance; and at the +same time, with a motion as quick as lightning, he with one single +stroke dashed the pistols from the hand of each constable. As he did +this, all hands fell upon him, and, after beating him some time, they +finally overpowered him, and got him tied. + +During the scuffle, I managed, I know not how, to get my pass out, and, +without being discovered, put it into the fire. We were all now tied; +and just as we were to leave for Easton jail, Betsy Freeland, mother of +William Freeland, came to the door with her hands full of biscuits, and +divided them between Henry and John. She then delivered herself of a +speech, to the following effect:—addressing herself to me, she said, +“_You devil! You yellow devil!_ it was you that put it into the heads +of Henry and John to run away. But for you, you long-legged mulatto +devil! Henry nor John would never have thought of such a thing.” I made +no reply, and was immediately hurried off towards St. Michael’s. Just a +moment previous to the scuffle with Henry, Mr. Hamilton suggested the +propriety of making a search for the protections which he had +understood Frederick had written for himself and the rest. But, just at +the moment he was about carrying his proposal into effect, his aid was +needed in helping to tie Henry; and the excitement attending the +scuffle caused them either to forget, or to deem it unsafe, under the +circumstances, to search. So we were not yet convicted of the intention +to run away. + +When we got about half way to St. Michael’s, while the constables +having us in charge were looking ahead, Henry inquired of me what he +should do with his pass. I told him to eat it with his biscuit, and own +nothing; and we passed the word around, “_Own nothing;_” and “_Own +nothing!_” said we all. Our confidence in each other was unshaken. We +were resolved to succeed or fail together, after the calamity had +befallen us as much as before. We were now prepared for any thing. We +were to be dragged that morning fifteen miles behind horses, and then +to be placed in the Easton jail. When we reached St. Michael’s, we +underwent a sort of examination. We all denied that we ever intended to +run away. We did this more to bring out the evidence against us, than +from any hope of getting clear of being sold; for, as I have said, we +were ready for that. The fact was, we cared but little where we went, +so we went together. Our greatest concern was about separation. We +dreaded that more than any thing this side of death. We found the +evidence against us to be the testimony of one person; our master would +not tell who it was; but we came to a unanimous decision among +ourselves as to who their informant was. We were sent off to the jail +at Easton. When we got there, we were delivered up to the sheriff, Mr. +Joseph Graham, and by him placed in jail. Henry, John, and myself, were +placed in one room together—Charles, and Henry Bailey, in another. +Their object in separating us was to hinder concert. + +We had been in jail scarcely twenty minutes, when a swarm of slave +traders, and agents for slave traders, flocked into jail to look at us, +and to ascertain if we were for sale. Such a set of beings I never saw +before! I felt myself surrounded by so many fiends from perdition. A +band of pirates never looked more like their father, the devil. They +laughed and grinned over us, saying, “Ah, my boys! we have got you, +haven’t we?” And after taunting us in various ways, they one by one +went into an examination of us, with intent to ascertain our value. +They would impudently ask us if we would not like to have them for our +masters. We would make them no answer, and leave them to find out as +best they could. Then they would curse and swear at us, telling us that +they could take the devil out of us in a very little while, if we were +only in their hands. + +While in jail, we found ourselves in much more comfortable quarters +than we expected when we went there. We did not get much to eat, nor +that which was very good; but we had a good clean room, from the +windows of which we could see what was going on in the street, which +was very much better than though we had been placed in one of the dark, +damp cells. Upon the whole, we got along very well, so far as the jail +and its keeper were concerned. Immediately after the holidays were +over, contrary to all our expectations, Mr. Hamilton and Mr. Freeland +came up to Easton, and took Charles, the two Henrys, and John, out of +jail, and carried them home, leaving me alone. I regarded this +separation as a final one. It caused me more pain than any thing else +in the whole transaction. I was ready for any thing rather than +separation. I supposed that they had consulted together, and had +decided that, as I was the whole cause of the intention of the others +to run away, it was hard to make the innocent suffer with the guilty; +and that they had, therefore, concluded to take the others home, and +sell me, as a warning to the others that remained. It is due to the +noble Henry to say, he seemed almost as reluctant at leaving the prison +as at leaving home to come to the prison. But we knew we should, in all +probability, be separated, if we were sold; and since he was in their +hands, he concluded to go peaceably home. + +I was now left to my fate. I was all alone, and within the walls of a +stone prison. But a few days before, and I was full of hope. I expected +to have been safe in a land of freedom; but now I was covered with +gloom, sunk down to the utmost despair. I thought the possibility of +freedom was gone. I was kept in this way about one week, at the end of +which, Captain Auld, my master, to my surprise and utter astonishment, +came up, and took me out, with the intention of sending me, with a +gentleman of his acquaintance, into Alabama. But, from some cause or +other, he did not send me to Alabama, but concluded to send me back to +Baltimore, to live again with his brother Hugh, and to learn a trade. + +Thus, after an absence of three years and one month, I was once more +permitted to return to my old home at Baltimore. My master sent me +away, because there existed against me a very great prejudice in the +community, and he feared I might be killed. + +In a few weeks after I went to Baltimore, Master Hugh hired me to Mr. +William Gardner, an extensive ship-builder, on Fell’s Point. I was put +there to learn how to calk. It, however, proved a very unfavorable +place for the accomplishment of this object. Mr. Gardner was engaged +that spring in building two large man-of-war brigs, professedly for the +Mexican government. The vessels were to be launched in the July of that +year, and in failure thereof, Mr. Gardner was to lose a considerable +sum; so that when I entered, all was hurry. There was no time to learn +any thing. Every man had to do that which he knew how to do. In +entering the shipyard, my orders from Mr. Gardner were, to do whatever +the carpenters commanded me to do. This was placing me at the beck and +call of about seventy-five men. I was to regard all these as masters. +Their word was to be my law. My situation was a most trying one. At +times I needed a dozen pair of hands. I was called a dozen ways in the +space of a single minute. Three or four voices would strike my ear at +the same moment. It was—“Fred., come help me to cant this timber +here.”—“Fred., come carry this timber yonder.”—“Fred., bring that +roller here.”—“Fred., go get a fresh can of water.”—“Fred., come help +saw off the end of this timber.”—“Fred., go quick, and get the +crowbar.”—“Fred., hold on the end of this fall.”—“Fred., go to the +blacksmith’s shop, and get a new punch.”—“Hurra, Fred! run and bring me +a cold chisel.”—“I say, Fred., bear a hand, and get up a fire as quick +as lightning under that steam-box.”—“Halloo, nigger! come, turn this +grindstone.”—“Come, come! move, move! and _bowse_ this timber +forward.”—“I say, darky, blast your eyes, why don’t you heat up some +pitch?”—“Halloo! halloo! halloo!” (Three voices at the same time.) +“Come here!—Go there!—Hold on where you are! Damn you, if you move, +I’ll knock your brains out!” + +This was my school for eight months; and I might have remained there +longer, but for a most horrid fight I had with four of the white +apprentices, in which my left eye was nearly knocked out, and I was +horribly mangled in other respects. The facts in the case were these: +Until a very little while after I went there, white and black +ship-carpenters worked side by side, and no one seemed to see any +impropriety in it. All hands seemed to be very well satisfied. Many of +the black carpenters were freemen. Things seemed to be going on very +well. All at once, the white carpenters knocked off, and said they +would not work with free colored workmen. Their reason for this, as +alleged, was, that if free colored carpenters were encouraged, they +would soon take the trade into their own hands, and poor white men +would be thrown out of employment. They therefore felt called upon at +once to put a stop to it. And, taking advantage of Mr. Gardner’s +necessities, they broke off, swearing they would work no longer, unless +he would discharge his black carpenters. Now, though this did not +extend to me in form, it did reach me in fact. My fellow-apprentices +very soon began to feel it degrading to them to work with me. They +began to put on airs, and talk about the “niggers” taking the country, +saying we all ought to be killed; and, being encouraged by the +journeymen, they commenced making my condition as hard as they could, +by hectoring me around, and sometimes striking me. I, of course, kept +the vow I made after the fight with Mr. Covey, and struck back again, +regardless of consequences; and while I kept them from combining, I +succeeded very well; for I could whip the whole of them, taking them +separately. They, however, at length combined, and came upon me, armed +with sticks, stones, and heavy handspikes. One came in front with a +half brick. There was one at each side of me, and one behind me. While +I was attending to those in front, and on either side, the one behind +ran up with the handspike, and struck me a heavy blow upon the head. It +stunned me. I fell, and with this they all ran upon me, and fell to +beating me with their fists. I let them lay on for a while, gathering +strength. In an instant, I gave a sudden surge, and rose to my hands +and knees. Just as I did that, one of their number gave me, with his +heavy boot, a powerful kick in the left eye. My eyeball seemed to have +burst. When they saw my eye closed, and badly swollen, they left me. +With this I seized the handspike, and for a time pursued them. But here +the carpenters interfered, and I thought I might as well give it up. It +was impossible to stand my hand against so many. All this took place in +sight of not less than fifty white ship-carpenters, and not one +interposed a friendly word; but some cried, “Kill the damned nigger! +Kill him! kill him! He struck a white person.” I found my only chance +for life was in flight. I succeeded in getting away without an +additional blow, and barely so; for to strike a white man is death by +Lynch law,—and that was the law in Mr. Gardner’s ship-yard; nor is +there much of any other out of Mr. Gardner’s ship-yard. + +I went directly home, and told the story of my wrongs to Master Hugh; +and I am happy to say of him, irreligious as he was, his conduct was +heavenly, compared with that of his brother Thomas under similar +circumstances. He listened attentively to my narration of the +circumstances leading to the savage outrage, and gave many proofs of +his strong indignation at it. The heart of my once overkind mistress +was again melted into pity. My puffed-out eye and blood-covered face +moved her to tears. She took a chair by me, washed the blood from my +face, and, with a mother’s tenderness, bound up my head, covering the +wounded eye with a lean piece of fresh beef. It was almost compensation +for my suffering to witness, once more, a manifestation of kindness +from this, my once affectionate old mistress. Master Hugh was very much +enraged. He gave expression to his feelings by pouring out curses upon +the heads of those who did the deed. As soon as I got a little the +better of my bruises, he took me with him to Esquire Watson’s, on Bond +Street, to see what could be done about the matter. Mr. Watson inquired +who saw the assault committed. Master Hugh told him it was done in Mr. +Gardner’s ship-yard at midday, where there were a large company of men +at work. “As to that,” he said, “the deed was done, and there was no +question as to who did it.” His answer was, he could do nothing in the +case, unless some white man would come forward and testify. He could +issue no warrant on my word. If I had been killed in the presence of a +thousand colored people, their testimony combined would have been +insufficient to have arrested one of the murderers. Master Hugh, for +once, was compelled to say this state of things was too bad. Of course, +it was impossible to get any white man to volunteer his testimony in my +behalf, and against the white young men. Even those who may have +sympathized with me were not prepared to do this. It required a degree +of courage unknown to them to do so; for just at that time, the +slightest manifestation of humanity toward a colored person was +denounced as abolitionism, and that name subjected its bearer to +frightful liabilities. The watchwords of the bloody-minded in that +region, and in those days, were, “Damn the abolitionists!” and “Damn +the niggers!” There was nothing done, and probably nothing would have +been done if I had been killed. Such was, and such remains, the state +of things in the Christian city of Baltimore. + +Master Hugh, finding he could get no redress, refused to let me go back +again to Mr. Gardner. He kept me himself, and his wife dressed my wound +till I was again restored to health. He then took me into the ship-yard +of which he was foreman, in the employment of Mr. Walter Price. There I +was immediately set to calking, and very soon learned the art of using +my mallet and irons. In the course of one year from the time I left Mr. +Gardner’s, I was able to command the highest wages given to the most +experienced calkers. I was now of some importance to my master. I was +bringing him from six to seven dollars per week. I sometimes brought +him nine dollars per week: my wages were a dollar and a half a day. +After learning how to calk, I sought my own employment, made my own +contracts, and collected the money which I earned. My pathway became +much more smooth than before; my condition was now much more +comfortable. When I could get no calking to do, I did nothing. During +these leisure times, those old notions about freedom would steal over +me again. When in Mr. Gardner’s employment, I was kept in such a +perpetual whirl of excitement, I could think of nothing, scarcely, but +my life; and in thinking of my life, I almost forgot my liberty. I have +observed this in my experience of slavery,—that whenever my condition +was improved, instead of its increasing my contentment, it only +increased my desire to be free, and set me to thinking of plans to gain +my freedom. I have found that, to make a contented slave, it is +necessary to make a thoughtless one. It is necessary to darken his +moral and mental vision, and, as far as possible, to annihilate the +power of reason. He must be able to detect no inconsistencies in +slavery; he must be made to feel that slavery is right; and he can be +brought to that only when he ceases to be a man. + +I was now getting, as I have said, one dollar and fifty cents per day. +I contracted for it; I earned it; it was paid to me; it was rightfully +my own; yet, upon each returning Saturday night, I was compelled to +deliver every cent of that money to Master Hugh. And why? Not because +he earned it,—not because he had any hand in earning it,—not because I +owed it to him,—nor because he possessed the slightest shadow of a +right to it; but solely because he had the power to compel me to give +it up. The right of the grim-visaged pirate upon the high seas is +exactly the same. + + + + + CHAPTER XI + + +I now come to that part of my life during which I planned, and finally +succeeded in making, my escape from slavery. But before narrating any +of the peculiar circumstances, I deem it proper to make known my +intention not to state all the facts connected with the transaction. My +reasons for pursuing this course may be understood from the following: +First, were I to give a minute statement of all the facts, it is not +only possible, but quite probable, that others would thereby be +involved in the most embarrassing difficulties. Secondly, such a +statement would most undoubtedly induce greater vigilance on the part +of slaveholders than has existed heretofore among them; which would, of +course, be the means of guarding a door whereby some dear brother +bondman might escape his galling chains. I deeply regret the necessity +that impels me to suppress any thing of importance connected with my +experience in slavery. It would afford me great pleasure indeed, as +well as materially add to the interest of my narrative, were I at +liberty to gratify a curiosity, which I know exists in the minds of +many, by an accurate statement of all the facts pertaining to my most +fortunate escape. But I must deprive myself of this pleasure, and the +curious of the gratification which such a statement would afford. I +would allow myself to suffer under the greatest imputations which +evil-minded men might suggest, rather than exculpate myself, and +thereby run the hazard of closing the slightest avenue by which a +brother slave might clear himself of the chains and fetters of slavery. + +I have never approved of the very public manner in which some of our +western friends have conducted what they call the _underground +railroad,_ but which I think, by their open declarations, has been made +most emphatically the _upperground railroad._ I honor those good men +and women for their noble daring, and applaud them for willingly +subjecting themselves to bloody persecution, by openly avowing their +participation in the escape of slaves. I, however, can see very little +good resulting from such a course, either to themselves or the slaves +escaping; while, upon the other hand, I see and feel assured that those +open declarations are a positive evil to the slaves remaining, who are +seeking to escape. They do nothing towards enlightening the slave, +whilst they do much towards enlightening the master. They stimulate him +to greater watchfulness, and enhance his power to capture his slave. We +owe something to the slave south of the line as well as to those north +of it; and in aiding the latter on their way to freedom, we should be +careful to do nothing which would be likely to hinder the former from +escaping from slavery. I would keep the merciless slaveholder +profoundly ignorant of the means of flight adopted by the slave. I +would leave him to imagine himself surrounded by myriads of invisible +tormentors, ever ready to snatch from his infernal grasp his trembling +prey. Let him be left to feel his way in the dark; let darkness +commensurate with his crime hover over him; and let him feel that at +every step he takes, in pursuit of the flying bondman, he is running +the frightful risk of having his hot brains dashed out by an invisible +agency. Let us render the tyrant no aid; let us not hold the light by +which he can trace the footprints of our flying brother. But enough of +this. I will now proceed to the statement of those facts, connected +with my escape, for which I am alone responsible, and for which no one +can be made to suffer but myself. + +In the early part of the year 1838, I became quite restless. I could +see no reason why I should, at the end of each week, pour the reward of +my toil into the purse of my master. When I carried to him my weekly +wages, he would, after counting the money, look me in the face with a +robber-like fierceness, and ask, “Is this all?” He was satisfied with +nothing less than the last cent. He would, however, when I made him six +dollars, sometimes give me six cents, to encourage me. It had the +opposite effect. I regarded it as a sort of admission of my right to +the whole. The fact that he gave me any part of my wages was proof, to +my mind, that he believed me entitled to the whole of them. I always +felt worse for having received any thing; for I feared that the giving +me a few cents would ease his conscience, and make him feel himself to +be a pretty honorable sort of robber. My discontent grew upon me. I was +ever on the look-out for means of escape; and, finding no direct means, +I determined to try to hire my time, with a view of getting money with +which to make my escape. In the spring of 1838, when Master Thomas came +to Baltimore to purchase his spring goods, I got an opportunity, and +applied to him to allow me to hire my time. He unhesitatingly refused +my request, and told me this was another stratagem by which to escape. +He told me I could go nowhere but that he could get me; and that, in +the event of my running away, he should spare no pains in his efforts +to catch me. He exhorted me to content myself, and be obedient. He told +me, if I would be happy, I must lay out no plans for the future. He +said, if I behaved myself properly, he would take care of me. Indeed, +he advised me to complete thoughtlessness of the future, and taught me +to depend solely upon him for happiness. He seemed to see fully the +pressing necessity of setting aside my intellectual nature, in order to +contentment in slavery. But in spite of him, and even in spite of +myself, I continued to think, and to think about the injustice of my +enslavement, and the means of escape. + +About two months after this, I applied to Master Hugh for the privilege +of hiring my time. He was not acquainted with the fact that I had +applied to Master Thomas, and had been refused. He too, at first, +seemed disposed to refuse; but, after some reflection, he granted me +the privilege, and proposed the following terms: I was to be allowed +all my time, make all contracts with those for whom I worked, and find +my own employment; and, in return for this liberty, I was to pay him +three dollars at the end of each week; find myself in calking tools, +and in board and clothing. My board was two dollars and a half per +week. This, with the wear and tear of clothing and calking tools, made +my regular expenses about six dollars per week. This amount I was +compelled to make up, or relinquish the privilege of hiring my time. +Rain or shine, work or no work, at the end of each week the money must +be forthcoming, or I must give up my privilege. This arrangement, it +will be perceived, was decidedly in my master’s favor. It relieved him +of all need of looking after me. His money was sure. He received all +the benefits of slaveholding without its evils; while I endured all the +evils of a slave, and suffered all the care and anxiety of a freeman. I +found it a hard bargain. But, hard as it was, I thought it better than +the old mode of getting along. It was a step towards freedom to be +allowed to bear the responsibilities of a freeman, and I was determined +to hold on upon it. I bent myself to the work of making money. I was +ready to work at night as well as day, and by the most untiring +perseverance and industry, I made enough to meet my expenses, and lay +up a little money every week. I went on thus from May till August. +Master Hugh then refused to allow me to hire my time longer. The ground +for his refusal was a failure on my part, one Saturday night, to pay +him for my week’s time. This failure was occasioned by my attending a +camp meeting about ten miles from Baltimore. During the week, I had +entered into an engagement with a number of young friends to start from +Baltimore to the camp ground early Saturday evening; and being detained +by my employer, I was unable to get down to Master Hugh’s without +disappointing the company. I knew that Master Hugh was in no special +need of the money that night. I therefore decided to go to camp +meeting, and upon my return pay him the three dollars. I staid at the +camp meeting one day longer than I intended when I left. But as soon as +I returned, I called upon him to pay him what he considered his due. I +found him very angry; he could scarce restrain his wrath. He said he +had a great mind to give me a severe whipping. He wished to know how I +dared go out of the city without asking his permission. I told him I +hired my time and while I paid him the price which he asked for it, I +did not know that I was bound to ask him when and where I should go. +This reply troubled him; and, after reflecting a few moments, he turned +to me, and said I should hire my time no longer; that the next thing he +should know of, I would be running away. Upon the same plea, he told me +to bring my tools and clothing home forthwith. I did so; but instead of +seeking work, as I had been accustomed to do previously to hiring my +time, I spent the whole week without the performance of a single stroke +of work. I did this in retaliation. Saturday night, he called upon me +as usual for my week’s wages. I told him I had no wages; I had done no +work that week. Here we were upon the point of coming to blows. He +raved, and swore his determination to get hold of me. I did not allow +myself a single word; but was resolved, if he laid the weight of his +hand upon me, it should be blow for blow. He did not strike me, but +told me that he would find me in constant employment in future. I +thought the matter over during the next day, Sunday, and finally +resolved upon the third day of September, as the day upon which I would +make a second attempt to secure my freedom. I now had three weeks +during which to prepare for my journey. Early on Monday morning, before +Master Hugh had time to make any engagement for me, I went out and got +employment of Mr. Butler, at his ship-yard near the drawbridge, upon +what is called the City Block, thus making it unnecessary for him to +seek employment for me. At the end of the week, I brought him between +eight and nine dollars. He seemed very well pleased, and asked why I +did not do the same the week before. He little knew what my plans were. +My object in working steadily was to remove any suspicion he might +entertain of my intent to run away; and in this I succeeded admirably. +I suppose he thought I was never better satisfied with my condition +than at the very time during which I was planning my escape. The second +week passed, and again I carried him my full wages; and so well pleased +was he, that he gave me twenty-five cents, (quite a large sum for a +slaveholder to give a slave,) and bade me to make a good use of it. I +told him I would. + +Things went on without very smoothly indeed, but within there was +trouble. It is impossible for me to describe my feelings as the time of +my contemplated start drew near. I had a number of warmhearted friends +in Baltimore,—friends that I loved almost as I did my life,—and the +thought of being separated from them forever was painful beyond +expression. It is my opinion that thousands would escape from slavery, +who now remain, but for the strong cords of affection that bind them to +their friends. The thought of leaving my friends was decidedly the most +painful thought with which I had to contend. The love of them was my +tender point, and shook my decision more than all things else. Besides +the pain of separation, the dread and apprehension of a failure +exceeded what I had experienced at my first attempt. The appalling +defeat I then sustained returned to torment me. I felt assured that, if +I failed in this attempt, my case would be a hopeless one—it would seal +my fate as a slave forever. I could not hope to get off with any thing +less than the severest punishment, and being placed beyond the means of +escape. It required no very vivid imagination to depict the most +frightful scenes through which I should have to pass, in case I failed. +The wretchedness of slavery, and the blessedness of freedom, were +perpetually before me. It was life and death with me. But I remained +firm, and, according to my resolution, on the third day of September, +1838, I left my chains, and succeeded in reaching New York without the +slightest interruption of any kind. How I did so,—what means I +adopted,—what direction I travelled, and by what mode of conveyance,—I +must leave unexplained, for the reasons before mentioned. + +I have been frequently asked how I felt when I found myself in a free +State. I have never been able to answer the question with any +satisfaction to myself. It was a moment of the highest excitement I +ever experienced. I suppose I felt as one may imagine the unarmed +mariner to feel when he is rescued by a friendly man-of-war from the +pursuit of a pirate. In writing to a dear friend, immediately after my +arrival at New York, I said I felt like one who had escaped a den of +hungry lions. This state of mind, however, very soon subsided; and I +was again seized with a feeling of great insecurity and loneliness. I +was yet liable to be taken back, and subjected to all the tortures of +slavery. This in itself was enough to damp the ardor of my enthusiasm. +But the loneliness overcame me. There I was in the midst of thousands, +and yet a perfect stranger; without home and without friends, in the +midst of thousands of my own brethren—children of a common Father, and +yet I dared not to unfold to any one of them my sad condition. I was +afraid to speak to any one for fear of speaking to the wrong one, and +thereby falling into the hands of money-loving kidnappers, whose +business it was to lie in wait for the panting fugitive, as the +ferocious beasts of the forest lie in wait for their prey. The motto +which I adopted when I started from slavery was this—“Trust no man!” I +saw in every white man an enemy, and in almost every colored man cause +for distrust. It was a most painful situation; and, to understand it, +one must needs experience it, or imagine himself in similar +circumstances. Let him be a fugitive slave in a strange land—a land +given up to be the hunting-ground for slaveholders—whose inhabitants +are legalized kidnappers—where he is every moment subjected to the +terrible liability of being seized upon by his fellowmen, as the +hideous crocodile seizes upon his prey!—I say, let him place himself in +my situation—without home or friends—without money or credit—wanting +shelter, and no one to give it—wanting bread, and no money to buy +it,—and at the same time let him feel that he is pursued by merciless +men-hunters, and in total darkness as to what to do, where to go, or +where to stay,—perfectly helpless both as to the means of defence and +means of escape,—in the midst of plenty, yet suffering the terrible +gnawings of hunger,—in the midst of houses, yet having no home,—among +fellow-men, yet feeling as if in the midst of wild beasts, whose +greediness to swallow up the trembling and half-famished fugitive is +only equalled by that with which the monsters of the deep swallow up +the helpless fish upon which they subsist,—I say, let him be placed in +this most trying situation,—the situation in which I was placed,—then, +and not till then, will he fully appreciate the hardships of, and know +how to sympathize with, the toil-worn and whip-scarred fugitive slave. + +Thank Heaven, I remained but a short time in this distressed situation. +I was relieved from it by the humane hand of _Mr. David Ruggles_, whose +vigilance, kindness, and perseverance, I shall never forget. I am glad +of an opportunity to express, as far as words can, the love and +gratitude I bear him. Mr. Ruggles is now afflicted with blindness, and +is himself in need of the same kind offices which he was once so +forward in the performance of toward others. I had been in New York but +a few days, when Mr. Ruggles sought me out, and very kindly took me to +his boarding-house at the corner of Church and Lespenard Streets. Mr. +Ruggles was then very deeply engaged in the memorable _Darg_ case, as +well as attending to a number of other fugitive slaves, devising ways +and means for their successful escape; and, though watched and hemmed +in on almost every side, he seemed to be more than a match for his +enemies. + +Very soon after I went to Mr. Ruggles, he wished to know of me where I +wanted to go; as he deemed it unsafe for me to remain in New York. I +told him I was a calker, and should like to go where I could get work. +I thought of going to Canada; but he decided against it, and in favor +of my going to New Bedford, thinking I should be able to get work there +at my trade. At this time, Anna,[2] my intended wife, came on; for I +wrote to her immediately after my arrival at New York, (notwithstanding +my homeless, houseless, and helpless condition,) informing her of my +successful flight, and wishing her to come on forthwith. In a few days +after her arrival, Mr. Ruggles called in the Rev. J. W. C. Pennington, +who, in the presence of Mr. Ruggles, Mrs. Michaels, and two or three +others, performed the marriage ceremony, and gave us a certificate, of +which the following is an exact copy:— + +“This may certify, that I joined together in holy matrimony Frederick +Johnson[3] and Anna Murray, as man and wife, in the presence of Mr. +David Ruggles and Mrs. Michaels. + + +“JAMES W. C. PENNINGTON +“_New York, Sept_. 15, 1838” + + + [2] She was free. + + + [3] I had changed my name from Frederick _Bailey_ to that of + _Johnson_. + + +Upon receiving this certificate, and a five-dollar bill from Mr. +Ruggles, I shouldered one part of our baggage, and Anna took up the +other, and we set out forthwith to take passage on board of the +steamboat John W. Richmond for Newport, on our way to New Bedford. Mr. +Ruggles gave me a letter to a Mr. Shaw in Newport, and told me, in case +my money did not serve me to New Bedford, to stop in Newport and obtain +further assistance; but upon our arrival at Newport, we were so anxious +to get to a place of safety, that, notwithstanding we lacked the +necessary money to pay our fare, we decided to take seats in the stage, +and promise to pay when we got to New Bedford. We were encouraged to do +this by two excellent gentlemen, residents of New Bedford, whose names +I afterward ascertained to be Joseph Ricketson and William C. Taber. +They seemed at once to understand our circumstances, and gave us such +assurance of their friendliness as put us fully at ease in their +presence. + +It was good indeed to meet with such friends, at such a time. Upon +reaching New Bedford, we were directed to the house of Mr. Nathan +Johnson, by whom we were kindly received, and hospitably provided for. +Both Mr. and Mrs. Johnson took a deep and lively interest in our +welfare. They proved themselves quite worthy of the name of +abolitionists. When the stage-driver found us unable to pay our fare, +he held on upon our baggage as security for the debt. I had but to +mention the fact to Mr. Johnson, and he forthwith advanced the money. + +We now began to feel a degree of safety, and to prepare ourselves for +the duties and responsibilities of a life of freedom. On the morning +after our arrival at New Bedford, while at the breakfast-table, the +question arose as to what name I should be called by. The name given me +by my mother was, “Frederick Augustus Washington Bailey.” I, however, +had dispensed with the two middle names long before I left Maryland so +that I was generally known by the name of “Frederick Bailey.” I started +from Baltimore bearing the name of “Stanley.” When I got to New York, I +again changed my name to “Frederick Johnson,” and thought that would be +the last change. But when I got to New Bedford, I found it necessary +again to change my name. The reason of this necessity was, that there +were so many Johnsons in New Bedford, it was already quite difficult to +distinguish between them. I gave Mr. Johnson the privilege of choosing +me a name, but told him he must not take from me the name of +“Frederick.” I must hold on to that, to preserve a sense of my +identity. Mr. Johnson had just been reading the “Lady of the Lake,” and +at once suggested that my name be “Douglass.” From that time until now +I have been called “Frederick Douglass;” and as I am more widely known +by that name than by either of the others, I shall continue to use it +as my own. + +I was quite disappointed at the general appearance of things in New +Bedford. The impression which I had received respecting the character +and condition of the people of the north, I found to be singularly +erroneous. I had very strangely supposed, while in slavery, that few of +the comforts, and scarcely any of the luxuries, of life were enjoyed at +the north, compared with what were enjoyed by the slaveholders of the +south. I probably came to this conclusion from the fact that northern +people owned no slaves. I supposed that they were about upon a level +with the non-slaveholding population of the south. I knew _they_ were +exceedingly poor, and I had been accustomed to regard their poverty as +the necessary consequence of their being non-slaveholders. I had +somehow imbibed the opinion that, in the absence of slaves, there could +be no wealth, and very little refinement. And upon coming to the north, +I expected to meet with a rough, hard-handed, and uncultivated +population, living in the most Spartan-like simplicity, knowing nothing +of the ease, luxury, pomp, and grandeur of southern slaveholders. Such +being my conjectures, any one acquainted with the appearance of New +Bedford may very readily infer how palpably I must have seen my +mistake. + +In the afternoon of the day when I reached New Bedford, I visited the +wharves, to take a view of the shipping. Here I found myself surrounded +with the strongest proofs of wealth. Lying at the wharves, and riding +in the stream, I saw many ships of the finest model, in the best order, +and of the largest size. Upon the right and left, I was walled in by +granite warehouses of the widest dimensions, stowed to their utmost +capacity with the necessaries and comforts of life. Added to this, +almost every body seemed to be at work, but noiselessly so, compared +with what I had been accustomed to in Baltimore. There were no loud +songs heard from those engaged in loading and unloading ships. I heard +no deep oaths or horrid curses on the laborer. I saw no whipping of +men; but all seemed to go smoothly on. Every man appeared to understand +his work, and went at it with a sober, yet cheerful earnestness, which +betokened the deep interest which he felt in what he was doing, as well +as a sense of his own dignity as a man. To me this looked exceedingly +strange. From the wharves I strolled around and over the town, gazing +with wonder and admiration at the splendid churches, beautiful +dwellings, and finely-cultivated gardens; evincing an amount of wealth, +comfort, taste, and refinement, such as I had never seen in any part of +slaveholding Maryland. + +Every thing looked clean, new, and beautiful. I saw few or no +dilapidated houses, with poverty-stricken inmates; no half-naked +children and barefooted women, such as I had been accustomed to see in +Hillsborough, Easton, St. Michael’s, and Baltimore. The people looked +more able, stronger, healthier, and happier, than those of Maryland. I +was for once made glad by a view of extreme wealth, without being +saddened by seeing extreme poverty. But the most astonishing as well as +the most interesting thing to me was the condition of the colored +people, a great many of whom, like myself, had escaped thither as a +refuge from the hunters of men. I found many, who had not been seven +years out of their chains, living in finer houses, and evidently +enjoying more of the comforts of life, than the average of slaveholders +in Maryland. I will venture to assert, that my friend Mr. Nathan +Johnson (of whom I can say with a grateful heart, “I was hungry, and he +gave me meat; I was thirsty, and he gave me drink; I was a stranger, +and he took me in”) lived in a neater house; dined at a better table; +took, paid for, and read, more newspapers; better understood the moral, +religious, and political character of the nation,—than nine tenths of +the slaveholders in Talbot county Maryland. Yet Mr. Johnson was a +working man. His hands were hardened by toil, and not his alone, but +those also of Mrs. Johnson. I found the colored people much more +spirited than I had supposed they would be. I found among them a +determination to protect each other from the blood-thirsty kidnapper, +at all hazards. Soon after my arrival, I was told of a circumstance +which illustrated their spirit. A colored man and a fugitive slave were +on unfriendly terms. The former was heard to threaten the latter with +informing his master of his whereabouts. Straightway a meeting was +called among the colored people, under the stereotyped notice, +“Business of importance!” The betrayer was invited to attend. The +people came at the appointed hour, and organized the meeting by +appointing a very religious old gentleman as president, who, I believe, +made a prayer, after which he addressed the meeting as follows: +“_Friends, we have got him here, and I would recommend that you young +men just take him outside the door, and kill him!_” With this, a number +of them bolted at him; but they were intercepted by some more timid +than themselves, and the betrayer escaped their vengeance, and has not +been seen in New Bedford since. I believe there have been no more such +threats, and should there be hereafter, I doubt not that death would be +the consequence. + +I found employment, the third day after my arrival, in stowing a sloop +with a load of oil. It was new, dirty, and hard work for me; but I went +at it with a glad heart and a willing hand. I was now my own master. It +was a happy moment, the rapture of which can be understood only by +those who have been slaves. It was the first work, the reward of which +was to be entirely my own. There was no Master Hugh standing ready, the +moment I earned the money, to rob me of it. I worked that day with a +pleasure I had never before experienced. I was at work for myself and +newly-married wife. It was to me the starting-point of a new existence. +When I got through with that job, I went in pursuit of a job of +calking; but such was the strength of prejudice against color, among +the white calkers, that they refused to work with me, and of course I +could get no employment.[4] Finding my trade of no immediate benefit, I +threw off my calking habiliments, and prepared myself to do any kind of +work I could get to do. Mr. Johnson kindly let me have his wood-horse +and saw, and I very soon found myself a plenty of work. There was no +work too hard—none too dirty. I was ready to saw wood, shovel coal, +carry wood, sweep the chimney, or roll oil casks,—all of which I did +for nearly three years in New Bedford, before I became known to the +anti-slavery world. + + [4] I am told that colored persons can now get employment at calking + in New Bedford—a result of anti-slavery effort. + + +In about four months after I went to New Bedford, there came a young +man to me, and inquired if I did not wish to take the “Liberator.” I +told him I did; but, just having made my escape from slavery, I +remarked that I was unable to pay for it then. I, however, finally +became a subscriber to it. The paper came, and I read it from week to +week with such feelings as it would be quite idle for me to attempt to +describe. The paper became my meat and my drink. My soul was set all on +fire. Its sympathy for my brethren in bonds—its scathing denunciations +of slaveholders—its faithful exposures of slavery—and its powerful +attacks upon the upholders of the institution—sent a thrill of joy +through my soul, such as I had never felt before! + +I had not long been a reader of the “Liberator,” before I got a pretty +correct idea of the principles, measures and spirit of the anti-slavery +reform. I took right hold of the cause. I could do but little; but what +I could, I did with a joyful heart, and never felt happier than when in +an anti-slavery meeting. I seldom had much to say at the meetings, +because what I wanted to say was said so much better by others. But, +while attending an anti-slavery convention at Nantucket, on the 11th of +August, 1841, I felt strongly moved to speak, and was at the same time +much urged to do so by Mr. William C. Coffin, a gentleman who had heard +me speak in the colored people’s meeting at New Bedford. It was a +severe cross, and I took it up reluctantly. The truth was, I felt +myself a slave, and the idea of speaking to white people weighed me +down. I spoke but a few moments, when I felt a degree of freedom, and +said what I desired with considerable ease. From that time until now, I +have been engaged in pleading the cause of my brethren—with what +success, and with what devotion, I leave those acquainted with my +labors to decide. + + + + APPENDIX + + +I find, since reading over the foregoing Narrative, that I have, in +several instances, spoken in such a tone and manner, respecting +religion, as may possibly lead those unacquainted with my religious +views to suppose me an opponent of all religion. To remove the +liability of such misapprehension, I deem it proper to append the +following brief explanation. What I have said respecting and against +religion, I mean strictly to apply to the _slaveholding religion_ of +this land, and with no possible reference to Christianity proper; for, +between the Christianity of this land, and the Christianity of Christ, +I recognize the widest possible difference—so wide, that to receive the +one as good, pure, and holy, is of necessity to reject the other as +bad, corrupt, and wicked. To be the friend of the one, is of necessity +to be the enemy of the other. I love the pure, peaceable, and impartial +Christianity of Christ: I therefore hate the corrupt, slaveholding, +women-whipping, cradle-plundering, partial and hypocritical +Christianity of this land. Indeed, I can see no reason, but the most +deceitful one, for calling the religion of this land Christianity. I +look upon it as the climax of all misnomers, the boldest of all frauds, +and the grossest of all libels. Never was there a clearer case of +“stealing the livery of the court of heaven to serve the devil in.” I +am filled with unutterable loathing when I contemplate the religious +pomp and show, together with the horrible inconsistencies, which every +where surround me. We have men-stealers for ministers, women-whippers +for missionaries, and cradle-plunderers for church members. The man who +wields the blood-clotted cowskin during the week fills the pulpit on +Sunday, and claims to be a minister of the meek and lowly Jesus. The +man who robs me of my earnings at the end of each week meets me as a +class-leader on Sunday morning, to show me the way of life, and the +path of salvation. He who sells my sister, for purposes of +prostitution, stands forth as the pious advocate of purity. He who +proclaims it a religious duty to read the Bible denies me the right of +learning to read the name of the God who made me. He who is the +religious advocate of marriage robs whole millions of its sacred +influence, and leaves them to the ravages of wholesale pollution. The +warm defender of the sacredness of the family relation is the same that +scatters whole families,—sundering husbands and wives, parents and +children, sisters and brothers,—leaving the hut vacant, and the hearth +desolate. We see the thief preaching against theft, and the adulterer +against adultery. We have men sold to build churches, women sold to +support the gospel, and babes sold to purchase Bibles for the _Poor +Heathen! All For The Glory Of God And The Good Of Souls!_ The slave +auctioneer’s bell and the church-going bell chime in with each other, +and the bitter cries of the heart-broken slave are drowned in the +religious shouts of his pious master. Revivals of religion and revivals +in the slave-trade go hand in hand together. The slave prison and the +church stand near each other. The clanking of fetters and the rattling +of chains in the prison, and the pious psalm and solemn prayer in the +church, may be heard at the same time. The dealers in the bodies and +souls of men erect their stand in the presence of the pulpit, and they +mutually help each other. The dealer gives his blood-stained gold to +support the pulpit, and the pulpit, in return, covers his infernal +business with the garb of Christianity. Here we have religion and +robbery the allies of each other—devils dressed in angels’ robes, and +hell presenting the semblance of paradise. + +“Just God! and these are they,v Who minister at thine altar, God of +right! +Men who their hands, with prayer and blessing, lay +On Israel’s ark of light. + +“What! preach, and kidnap men? +Give thanks, and rob thy own afflicted poor? +Talk of thy glorious liberty, and then +Bolt hard the captive’s door? + +“What! servants of thy own +Merciful Son, who came to seek and save +The homeless and the outcast, fettering down +The tasked and plundered slave! + +“Pilate and Herod friends! +Chief priests and rulers, as of old, combine! +Just God and holy! is that church which lends +Strength to the spoiler thine?” + + +The Christianity of America is a Christianity, of whose votaries it may +be as truly said, as it was of the ancient scribes and Pharisees, “They +bind heavy burdens, and grievous to be borne, and lay them on men’s +shoulders, but they themselves will not move them with one of their +fingers. All their works they do for to be seen of men.—They love the +uppermost rooms at feasts, and the chief seats in the synagogues, . . . +. . . and to be called of men, Rabbi, Rabbi.—But woe unto you, scribes +and Pharisees, hypocrites! for ye shut up the kingdom of heaven against +men; for ye neither go in yourselves, neither suffer ye them that are +entering to go in. Ye devour widows’ houses, and for a pretence make +long prayers; therefore ye shall receive the greater damnation. Ye +compass sea and land to make one proselyte, and when he is made, ye +make him twofold more the child of hell than yourselves.—Woe unto you, +scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! for ye pay tithe of mint, and anise, +and cumin, and have omitted the weightier matters of the law, judgment, +mercy, and faith; these ought ye to have done, and not to leave the +other undone. Ye blind guides! which strain at a gnat, and swallow a +camel. Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! for ye make +clean the outside of the cup and of the platter; but within, they are +full of extortion and excess.—Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, +hypocrites! for ye are like unto whited sepulchres, which indeed appear +beautiful outward, but are within full of dead men’s bones, and of all +uncleanness. Even so ye also outwardly appear righteous unto men, but +within ye are full of hypocrisy and iniquity.” + +Dark and terrible as is this picture, I hold it to be strictly true of +the overwhelming mass of professed Christians in America. They strain +at a gnat, and swallow a camel. Could any thing be more true of our +churches? They would be shocked at the proposition of fellowshipping a +_sheep_-stealer; and at the same time they hug to their communion a +_man_-stealer, and brand me with being an infidel, if I find fault with +them for it. They attend with Pharisaical strictness to the outward +forms of religion, and at the same time neglect the weightier matters +of the law, judgment, mercy, and faith. They are always ready to +sacrifice, but seldom to show mercy. They are they who are represented +as professing to love God whom they have not seen, whilst they hate +their brother whom they have seen. They love the heathen on the other +side of the globe. They can pray for him, pay money to have the Bible +put into his hand, and missionaries to instruct him; while they despise +and totally neglect the heathen at their own doors. + +Such is, very briefly, my view of the religion of this land; and to +avoid any misunderstanding, growing out of the use of general terms, I +mean by the religion of this land, that which is revealed in the words, +deeds, and actions, of those bodies, north and south, calling +themselves Christian churches, and yet in union with slaveholders. It +is against religion, as presented by these bodies, that I have felt it +my duty to testify. + +I conclude these remarks by copying the following portrait of the +religion of the south, (which is, by communion and fellowship, the +religion of the north,) which I soberly affirm is “true to the life,” +and without caricature or the slightest exaggeration. It is said to +have been drawn, several years before the present anti-slavery +agitation began, by a northern Methodist preacher, who, while residing +at the south, had an opportunity to see slaveholding morals, manners, +and piety, with his own eyes. “Shall I not visit for these things? +saith the Lord. Shall not my soul be avenged on such a nation as this?” + + +A PARODY + + +“Come, saints and sinners, hear me tell +How pious priests whip Jack and Nell, +And women buy and children sell, +And preach all sinners down to hell, +And sing of heavenly union. + +“They’ll bleat and baa, dona like goats, +Gorge down black sheep, and strain at motes, +Array their backs in fine black coats, +Then seize their negroes by their throats, +And choke, for heavenly union. + +“They’ll church you if you sip a dram, +And damn you if you steal a lamb; +Yet rob old Tony, Doll, and Sam, +Of human rights, and bread and ham; +Kidnapper’s heavenly union. + +“They’ll loudly talk of Christ’s reward, +And bind his image with a cord, +And scold, and swing the lash abhorred, +And sell their brother in the Lord +To handcuffed heavenly union. + +“They’ll read and sing a sacred song, +And make a prayer both loud and long, +And teach the right and do the wrong, +Hailing the brother, sister throng, +With words of heavenly union. + +“We wonder how such saints can sing, +Or praise the Lord upon the wing, +Who roar, and scold, and whip, and sting, +And to their slaves and mammon cling, +In guilty conscience union. + +“They’ll raise tobacco, corn, and rye, +And drive, and thieve, and cheat, and lie, +And lay up treasures in the sky, +By making switch and cowskin fly, +In hope of heavenly union. + +“They’ll crack old Tony on the skull, +And preach and roar like Bashan bull, +Or braying ass, of mischief full, +Then seize old Jacob by the wool, +And pull for heavenly union. + +“A roaring, ranting, sleek man-thief, +Who lived on mutton, veal, and beef, +Yet never would afford relief +To needy, sable sons of grief, +Was big with heavenly union. + +“‘Love not the world,’ the preacher said, +And winked his eye, and shook his head; +He seized on Tom, and Dick, and Ned, +Cut short their meat, and clothes, and bread, +Yet still loved heavenly union. + +“Another preacher whining spoke +Of One whose heart for sinners broke: +He tied old Nanny to an oak, +And drew the blood at every stroke, +And prayed for heavenly union. + +“Two others oped their iron jaws, +And waved their children-stealing paws; +There sat their children in gewgaws; +By stinting negroes’ backs and maws, +They kept up heavenly union. + +“All good from Jack another takes, +And entertains their flirts and rakes, +Who dress as sleek as glossy snakes, +And cram their mouths with sweetened cakes; +And this goes down for union.” + + +Sincerely and earnestly hoping that this little book may do something +toward throwing light on the American slave system, and hastening the +glad day of deliverance to the millions of my brethren in +bonds—faithfully relying upon the power of truth, love, and justice, +for success in my humble efforts—and solemnly pledging my self anew to +the sacred cause,—I subscribe myself, + +FREDERICK DOUGLASS. + + +LYNN, _Mass., April_ 28, 1845. + + +THE END + + + + +*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK NARRATIVE OF THE LIFE OF FREDERICK DOUGLASS *** + +***** This file should be named 23-0.txt or 23-0.zip ***** +This and all associated files of various formats will be found in: + https://www.gutenberg.org/2/23/ + +Updated editions will replace the previous one--the old editions will +be renamed. + +Creating the works from print editions not protected by U.S. copyright +law means that no one owns a United States copyright in these works, +so the Foundation (and you!) can copy and distribute it in the +United States without permission and without paying copyright +royalties. 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You may copy it, give it away or -re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included -with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org - - -Title: The Narrative of the Life of Frederick Douglass - An American Slave - -Author: Frederick Douglass - -Release Date: January 10, 2006 [EBook #23] -Last Updated: October 28, 2020 - -Language: English - -Character set encoding: ASCII - -*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK FREDERICK DOUGLASS *** - - - - -Produced by An Anonymous Volunteer and David Widger - - - - - -</pre> - <p> - <br /> <br /> - </p> -<pre xml:space="preserve"> - Note from the original file: This electronic book is being released at - this time to honor the birthday of Martin Luther King Jr. [Born January - 15, 1929] [Officially celebrated January 20, 1992] -</pre> - <p> - <br /> <br /> - </p> - <h2> - NARRATIVE<br /> OF THE<br /> LIFE<br /> OF<br /> - </h2> - <h1> - FREDERICK DOUGLASS - </h1> - <h2> - AN<br /> AMERICAN SLAVE.<br /> WRITTEN BY HIMSELF. - </h2> - <p> - <br /> <br /> - </p> - <h4> - BOSTON<br /><br /> PUBLISHED AT THE ANTI-SLAVERY OFFICE,<br /> NO. 25 - CORNHILL<br /> 1845<br /><br /> - </h4> - <h5> - ENTERED, ACCORDING TO ACT OF CONGRESS,<br /> IN THE YEAR 1845<br /> BY - FREDERICK DOUGLASS,<br /> IN THE CLERK'S OFFICE OF THE DISTRICT COURT<br /> - OF MASSACHUSETTS.<br /> - </h5> - <p> - <br /> <br /> - </p> - <hr /> - <p> - <br /> <br /> - </p> - <blockquote> - <p class="toc"> - <big><b>CONTENTS</b></big> - </p> - <p> - <br /> - </p> - <p class="toc"> - <a href="#link2H_PREF"> PREFACE </a> - </p> - <p class="toc"> - <a href="#link2H_4_0002"> LETTER FROM WENDELL PHILLIPS, ESQ. </a> - </p> - <p class="toc"> - <a href="#link2H_4_0003"> FREDERICK DOUGLASS. </a> - </p> - <p class="toc"> - <a href="#link2HCH0001"> CHAPTER I </a> - </p> - <p class="toc"> - <a href="#link2HCH0002"> CHAPTER II </a> - </p> - <p class="toc"> - <a href="#link2HCH0003"> CHAPTER III </a> - </p> - <p class="toc"> - <a href="#link2HCH0004"> CHAPTER IV </a> - </p> - <p class="toc"> - <a href="#link2HCH0005"> CHAPTER V </a> - </p> - <p class="toc"> - <a href="#link2HCH0006"> CHAPTER VI </a> - </p> - <p class="toc"> - <a href="#link2HCH0007"> CHAPTER VII </a> - </p> - <p class="toc"> - <a href="#link2HCH0008"> CHAPTER VIII </a> - </p> - <p class="toc"> - <a href="#link2HCH0009"> CHAPTER IX </a> - </p> - <p class="toc"> - <a href="#link2HCH0010"> CHAPTER X </a> - </p> - <p class="toc"> - <a href="#link2HCH0011"> CHAPTER XI </a> - </p> - <p class="toc"> - <a href="#link2H_APPE"> APPENDIX </a> - </p> - <p class="toc"> - <a href="#link2H_4_0016"> A PARODY </a> - </p> - </blockquote> - <p> - <br /> <br /> - </p> - <hr /> - <p> - <a name="link2H_PREF" id="link2H_PREF"> - <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> <br /> <br /> - </p> - <h2> - PREFACE - </h2> - <p> - In the month of August, 1841, I attended an anti-slavery convention in - Nantucket, at which it was my happiness to become acquainted with - <i>Frederick Douglass</i>, the writer of the following Narrative. He was a - stranger to nearly every member of that body; but, having recently made - his escape from the southern prison-house of bondage, and feeling his - curiosity excited to ascertain the principles and measures of the - abolitionists,—of whom he had heard a somewhat vague description - while he was a slave,—he was induced to give his attendance, on the - occasion alluded to, though at that time a resident in New Bedford. - </p> - <p> - Fortunate, most fortunate occurrence!—fortunate for the millions of - his manacled brethren, yet panting for deliverance from their awful - thraldom!—fortunate for the cause of negro emancipation, and of - universal liberty!—fortunate for the land of his birth, which he has - already done so much to save and bless!—fortunate for a large circle - of friends and acquaintances, whose sympathy and affection he has strongly - secured by the many sufferings he has endured, by his virtuous traits of - character, by his ever-abiding remembrance of those who are in bonds, as - being bound with them!—fortunate for the multitudes, in various - parts of our republic, whose minds he has enlightened on the subject of - slavery, and who have been melted to tears by his pathos, or roused to - virtuous indignation by his stirring eloquence against the enslavers of - men!—fortunate for himself, as it at once brought him into the field - of public usefulness, "gave the world assurance of a MAN," quickened the - slumbering energies of his soul, and consecrated him to the great work of - breaking the rod of the oppressor, and letting the oppressed go free! - </p> - <p> - I shall never forget his first speech at the convention—the - extraordinary emotion it excited in my own mind—the powerful - impression it created upon a crowded auditory, completely taken by - surprise—the applause which followed from the beginning to the end - of his felicitous remarks. I think I never hated slavery so intensely as - at that moment; certainly, my perception of the enormous outrage which is - inflicted by it, on the godlike nature of its victims, was rendered far - more clear than ever. There stood one, in physical proportion and stature - commanding and exact—in intellect richly endowed—in natural - eloquence a prodigy—in soul manifestly "created but a little lower - than the angels"—yet a slave, ay, a fugitive slave,—trembling - for his safety, hardly daring to believe that on the American soil, a - single white person could be found who would befriend him at all hazards, - for the love of God and humanity! Capable of high attainments as an - intellectual and moral being—needing nothing but a comparatively - small amount of cultivation to make him an ornament to society and a - blessing to his race—by the law of the land, by the voice of the - people, by the terms of the slave code, he was only a piece of property, a - beast of burden, a chattel personal, nevertheless! - </p> - <p> - A beloved friend from New Bedford prevailed on <i>Mr. Douglass</i> to address the - convention. He came forward to the platform with a hesitancy and - embarrassment, necessarily the attendants of a sensitive mind in such a - novel position. After apologizing for his ignorance, and reminding the - audience that slavery was a poor school for the human intellect and heart, - he proceeded to narrate some of the facts in his own history as a slave, - and in the course of his speech gave utterance to many noble thoughts and - thrilling reflections. As soon as he had taken his seat, filled with hope - and admiration, I rose, and declared that <i>Patrick Henry</i>, of revolutionary - fame, never made a speech more eloquent in the cause of liberty, than the - one we had just listened to from the lips of that hunted fugitive. So I - believed at that time—such is my belief now. I reminded the audience - of the peril which surrounded this self-emancipated young man at the - North,—even in Massachusetts, on the soil of the Pilgrim Fathers, - among the descendants of revolutionary sires; and I appealed to them, - whether they would ever allow him to be carried back into slavery,—law - or no law, constitution or no constitution. The response was unanimous and - in thunder-tones—"NO!" "Will you succor and protect him as a - brother-man—a resident of the old Bay State?" "YES!" shouted the - whole mass, with an energy so startling, that the ruthless tyrants south - of Mason and Dixon's line might almost have heard the mighty burst of - feeling, and recognized it as the pledge of an invincible determination, - on the part of those who gave it, never to betray him that wanders, but to - hide the outcast, and firmly to abide the consequences. - </p> - <p> - It was at once deeply impressed upon my mind, that, if <i>Mr. Douglass</i> could - be persuaded to consecrate his time and talents to the promotion of the - anti-slavery enterprise, a powerful impetus would be given to it, and a - stunning blow at the same time inflicted on northern prejudice against a - colored complexion. I therefore endeavored to instil hope and courage into - his mind, in order that he might dare to engage in a vocation so anomalous - and responsible for a person in his situation; and I was seconded in this - effort by warm-hearted friends, especially by the late General Agent of - the Massachusetts Anti-Slavery Society, <i>Mr. John A. Collins</i>, whose - judgment in this instance entirely coincided with my own. At first, he - could give no encouragement; with unfeigned diffidence, he expressed his - conviction that he was not adequate to the performance of so great a task; - the path marked out was wholly an untrodden one; he was sincerely - apprehensive that he should do more harm than good. After much - deliberation, however, he consented to make a trial; and ever since that - period, he has acted as a lecturing agent, under the auspices either of - the American or the Massachusetts Anti-Slavery Society. In labors he has - been most abundant; and his success in combating prejudice, in gaining - proselytes, in agitating the public mind, has far surpassed the most - sanguine expectations that were raised at the commencement of his - brilliant career. He has borne himself with gentleness and meekness, yet - with true manliness of character. As a public speaker, he excels in - pathos, wit, comparison, imitation, strength of reasoning, and fluency of - language. There is in him that union of head and heart, which is - indispensable to an enlightenment of the heads and a winning of the hearts - of others. May his strength continue to be equal to his day! May he - continue to "grow in grace, and in the knowledge of God," that he may be - increasingly serviceable in the cause of bleeding humanity, whether at - home or abroad! - </p> - <p> - It is certainly a very remarkable fact, that one of the most efficient - advocates of the slave population, now before the public, is a fugitive - slave, in the person of <i>Frederick Douglass</i>; and that the free colored - population of the United States are as ably represented by one of their - own number, in the person of <i>Charles Lenox Remond</i>, whose eloquent appeals - have extorted the highest applause of multitudes on both sides of the - Atlantic. Let the calumniators of the colored race despise themselves for - their baseness and illiberality of spirit, and henceforth cease to talk of - the natural inferiority of those who require nothing but time and - opportunity to attain to the highest point of human excellence. - </p> - <p> - It may, perhaps, be fairly questioned, whether any other portion of the - population of the earth could have endured the privations, sufferings and - horrors of slavery, without having become more degraded in the scale of - humanity than the slaves of African descent. Nothing has been left undone - to cripple their intellects, darken their minds, debase their moral - nature, obliterate all traces of their relationship to mankind; and yet - how wonderfully they have sustained the mighty load of a most frightful - bondage, under which they have been groaning for centuries! To illustrate - the effect of slavery on the white man,—to show that he has no - powers of endurance, in such a condition, superior to those of his black - brother,—<i>Daniel O'Connell</i>, the distinguished advocate of universal - emancipation, and the mightiest champion of prostrate but not conquered - Ireland, relates the following anecdote in a speech delivered by him in - the Conciliation Hall, Dublin, before the Loyal National Repeal - Association, March 31, 1845. "No matter," said <i>Mr. O'Connell</i>, "under what - specious term it may disguise itself, slavery is still hideous. <i>It has - a natural, an inevitable tendency to brutalize every noble faculty of man.</i> - An American sailor, who was cast away on the shore of Africa, where he was - kept in slavery for three years, was, at the expiration of that period, - found to be imbruted and stultified—he had lost all reasoning power; - and having forgotten his native language, could only utter some savage - gibberish between Arabic and English, which nobody could understand, and - which even he himself found difficulty in pronouncing. So much for the - humanizing influence of <i>The Domestic Institution</i>!" Admitting this to have - been an extraordinary case of mental deterioration, it proves at least - that the white slave can sink as low in the scale of humanity as the black - one. - </p> - <p> - <i>Mr. Douglass</i> has very properly chosen to write his own Narrative, in his - own style, and according to the best of his ability, rather than to employ - some one else. It is, therefore, entirely his own production; and, - considering how long and dark was the career he had to run as a slave,—how - few have been his opportunities to improve his mind since he broke his - iron fetters,—it is, in my judgment, highly creditable to his head - and heart. He who can peruse it without a tearful eye, a heaving breast, - an afflicted spirit,—without being filled with an unutterable - abhorrence of slavery and all its abettors, and animated with a - determination to seek the immediate overthrow of that execrable system,—without - trembling for the fate of this country in the hands of a righteous God, - who is ever on the side of the oppressed, and whose arm is not shortened - that it cannot save,—must have a flinty heart, and be qualified to - act the part of a trafficker "in slaves and the souls of men." I am - confident that it is essentially true in all its statements; that nothing - has been set down in malice, nothing exaggerated, nothing drawn from the - imagination; that it comes short of the reality, rather than overstates a - single fact in regard to <i>slavery as it is</i>. The experience of <i>Frederick - Douglass</i>, as a slave, was not a peculiar one; his lot was not especially a - hard one; his case may be regarded as a very fair specimen of the - treatment of slaves in Maryland, in which State it is conceded that they - are better fed and less cruelly treated than in Georgia, Alabama, or - Louisiana. Many have suffered incomparably more, while very few on the - plantations have suffered less, than himself. Yet how deplorable was his - situation! what terrible chastisements were inflicted upon his person! - what still more shocking outrages were perpetrated upon his mind! with all - his noble powers and sublime aspirations, how like a brute was he treated, - even by those professing to have the same mind in them that was in Christ - Jesus! to what dreadful liabilities was he continually subjected! how - destitute of friendly counsel and aid, even in his greatest extremities! - how heavy was the midnight of woe which shrouded in blackness the last ray - of hope, and filled the future with terror and gloom! what longings after - freedom took possession of his breast, and how his misery augmented, in - proportion as he grew reflective and intelligent,—thus demonstrating - that a happy slave is an extinct man! how he thought, reasoned, felt, - under the lash of the driver, with the chains upon his limbs! what perils - he encountered in his endeavors to escape from his horrible doom! and how - signal have been his deliverance and preservation in the midst of a nation - of pitiless enemies! - </p> - <p> - This Narrative contains many affecting incidents, many passages of great - eloquence and power; but I think the most thrilling one of them all is the - description <i>Douglass</i> gives of his feelings, as he stood soliloquizing - respecting his fate, and the chances of his one day being a freeman, on - the banks of the Chesapeake Bay—viewing the receding vessels as they - flew with their white wings before the breeze, and apostrophizing them as - animated by the living spirit of freedom. Who can read that passage, and - be insensible to its pathos and sublimity? Compressed into it is a whole - Alexandrian library of thought, feeling, and sentiment—all that can, - all that need be urged, in the form of expostulation, entreaty, rebuke, - against that crime of crimes,—making man the property of his - fellow-man! O, how accursed is that system, which entombs the godlike mind - of man, defaces the divine image, reduces those who by creation were - crowned with glory and honor to a level with four-footed beasts, and - exalts the dealer in human flesh above all that is called God! Why should - its existence be prolonged one hour? Is it not evil, only evil, and that - continually? What does its presence imply but the absence of all fear of - God, all regard for man, on the part of the people of the United States? - Heaven speed its eternal overthrow! - </p> - <p> - So profoundly ignorant of the nature of slavery are many persons, that - they are stubbornly incredulous whenever they read or listen to any - recital of the cruelties which are daily inflicted on its victims. They do - not deny that the slaves are held as property; but that terrible fact - seems to convey to their minds no idea of injustice, exposure to outrage, - or savage barbarity. Tell them of cruel scourgings, of mutilations and - brandings, of scenes of pollution and blood, of the banishment of all - light and knowledge, and they affect to be greatly indignant at such - enormous exaggerations, such wholesale misstatements, such abominable - libels on the character of the southern planters! As if all these direful - outrages were not the natural results of slavery! As if it were less cruel - to reduce a human being to the condition of a thing, than to give him a - severe flagellation, or to deprive him of necessary food and clothing! As - if whips, chains, thumb-screws, paddles, blood-hounds, overseers, drivers, - patrols, were not all indispensable to keep the slaves down, and to give - protection to their ruthless oppressors! As if, when the marriage - institution is abolished, concubinage, adultery, and incest, must not - necessarily abound; when all the rights of humanity are annihilated, any - barrier remains to protect the victim from the fury of the spoiler; when - absolute power is assumed over life and liberty, it will not be wielded - with destructive sway! Skeptics of this character abound in society. In - some few instances, their incredulity arises from a want of reflection; - but, generally, it indicates a hatred of the light, a desire to shield - slavery from the assaults of its foes, a contempt of the colored race, - whether bond or free. Such will try to discredit the shocking tales of - slaveholding cruelty which are recorded in this truthful Narrative; but - they will labor in vain. <i>Mr. Douglass</i> has frankly disclosed the place of - his birth, the names of those who claimed ownership in his body and soul, - and the names also of those who committed the crimes which he has alleged - against them. His statements, therefore, may easily be disproved, if they - are untrue. - </p> - <p> - In the course of his Narrative, he relates two instances of murderous - cruelty,—in one of which a planter deliberately shot a slave - belonging to a neighboring plantation, who had unintentionally gotten - within his lordly domain in quest of fish; and in the other, an overseer - blew out the brains of a slave who had fled to a stream of water to escape - a bloody scourging. <i>Mr. Douglass</i> states that in neither of these instances - was any thing done by way of legal arrest or judicial investigation. The - Baltimore American, of March 17, 1845, relates a similar case of atrocity, - perpetrated with similar impunity—as follows:—"<i>Shooting a - slave.</i>—We learn, upon the authority of a letter from Charles - county, Maryland, received by a gentleman of this city, that a young man, - named Matthews, a nephew of General Matthews, and whose father, it is - believed, holds an office at Washington, killed one of the slaves upon his - father's farm by shooting him. The letter states that young Matthews had - been left in charge of the farm; that he gave an order to the servant, - which was disobeyed, when he proceeded to the house, <i>obtained a gun, - and, returning, shot the servant.</i> He immediately, the letter - continues, fled to his father's residence, where he still remains - unmolested."—Let it never be forgotten, that no slaveholder or - overseer can be convicted of any outrage perpetrated on the person of a - slave, however diabolical it may be, on the testimony of colored - witnesses, whether bond or free. By the slave code, they are adjudged to - be as incompetent to testify against a white man, as though they were - indeed a part of the brute creation. Hence, there is no legal protection - in fact, whatever there may be in form, for the slave population; and any - amount of cruelty may be inflicted on them with impunity. Is it possible - for the human mind to conceive of a more horrible state of society? - </p> - <p> - The effect of a religious profession on the conduct of southern masters is - vividly described in the following Narrative, and shown to be any thing - but salutary. In the nature of the case, it must be in the highest degree - pernicious. The testimony of <i>Mr. Douglass</i>, on this point, is sustained by - a cloud of witnesses, whose veracity is unimpeachable. "A slaveholder's - profession of Christianity is a palpable imposture. He is a felon of the - highest grade. He is a man-stealer. It is of no importance what you put in - the other scale." - </p> - <p> - Reader! are you with the man-stealers in sympathy and purpose, or on the - side of their down-trodden victims? If with the former, then are you the - foe of God and man. If with the latter, what are you prepared to do and - dare in their behalf? Be faithful, be vigilant, be untiring in your - efforts to break every yoke, and let the oppressed go free. Come what may—cost - what it may—inscribe on the banner which you unfurl to the breeze, - as your religious and political motto—"NO COMPROMISE WITH SLAVERY! - NO UNION WITH SLAVEHOLDERS!" - </p> - <p> - WM. LLOYD GARRISON BOSTON,<br /> <i>May</i> 1, 1845. - </p> - <p> - <a name="link2H_4_0002" id="link2H_4_0002"> - <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> - </p> - <div style="height: 4em;"> - <br /><br /><br /><br /> - </div> - <h2> - LETTER FROM WENDELL PHILLIPS, ESQ. - </h2> - <h3> - BOSTON, APRIL 22, 1845. - </h3> - <p> - My Dear Friend: - </p> - <p> - You remember the old fable of "The Man and the Lion," where the lion - complained that he should not be so misrepresented "when the lions wrote - history." - </p> - <p> - I am glad the time has come when the "lions write history." We have been - left long enough to gather the character of slavery from the involuntary - evidence of the masters. One might, indeed, rest sufficiently satisfied - with what, it is evident, must be, in general, the results of such a - relation, without seeking farther to find whether they have followed in - every instance. Indeed, those who stare at the half-peck of corn a week, - and love to count the lashes on the slave's back, are seldom the "stuff" - out of which reformers and abolitionists are to be made. I remember that, - in 1838, many were waiting for the results of the West India experiment, - before they could come into our ranks. Those "results" have come long ago; - but, alas! few of that number have come with them, as converts. A man must - be disposed to judge of emancipation by other tests than whether it has - increased the produce of sugar,—and to hate slavery for other - reasons than because it starves men and whips women,—before he is - ready to lay the first stone of his anti-slavery life. - </p> - <p> - I was glad to learn, in your story, how early the most neglected of God's - children waken to a sense of their rights, and of the injustice done them. - Experience is a keen teacher; and long before you had mastered your A B C, - or knew where the "white sails" of the Chesapeake were bound, you began, I - see, to gauge the wretchedness of the slave, not by his hunger and want, - not by his lashes and toil, but by the cruel and blighting death which - gathers over his soul. - </p> - <p> - In connection with this, there is one circumstance which makes your - recollections peculiarly valuable, and renders your early insight the more - remarkable. You come from that part of the country where we are told - slavery appears with its fairest features. Let us hear, then, what it is - at its best estate—gaze on its bright side, if it has one; and then - imagination may task her powers to add dark lines to the picture, as she - travels southward to that (for the colored man) Valley of the Shadow of - Death, where the Mississippi sweeps along. - </p> - <p> - Again, we have known you long, and can put the most entire confidence in - your truth, candor, and sincerity. Every one who has heard you speak has - felt, and, I am confident, every one who reads your book will feel, - persuaded that you give them a fair specimen of the whole truth. No - one-sided portrait,—no wholesale complaints,—but strict - justice done, whenever individual kindliness has neutralized, for a - moment, the deadly system with which it was strangely allied. You have - been with us, too, some years, and can fairly compare the twilight of - rights, which your race enjoy at the North, with that "noon of night" - under which they labor south of Mason and Dixon's line. Tell us whether, - after all, the half-free colored man of Massachusetts is worse off than - the pampered slave of the rice swamps! - </p> - <p> - In reading your life, no one can say that we have unfairly picked out some - rare specimens of cruelty. We know that the bitter drops, which even you - have drained from the cup, are no incidental aggravations, no individual - ills, but such as must mingle always and necessarily in the lot of every - slave. They are the essential ingredients, not the occasional results, of - the system. - </p> - <p> - After all, I shall read your book with trembling for you. Some years ago, - when you were beginning to tell me your real name and birthplace, you may - remember I stopped you, and preferred to remain ignorant of all. With the - exception of a vague description, so I continued, till the other day, when - you read me your memoirs. I hardly knew, at the time, whether to thank you - or not for the sight of them, when I reflected that it was still - dangerous, in Massachusetts, for honest men to tell their names! They say - the fathers, in 1776, signed the Declaration of Independence with the - halter about their necks. You, too, publish your declaration of freedom - with danger compassing you around. In all the broad lands which the - Constitution of the United States overshadows, there is no single spot,—however - narrow or desolate,—where a fugitive slave can plant himself and - say, "I am safe." The whole armory of Northern Law has no shield for you. - I am free to say that, in your place, I should throw the MS. into the - fire. - </p> - <p> - You, perhaps, may tell your story in safety, endeared as you are to so - many warm hearts by rare gifts, and a still rarer devotion of them to the - service of others. But it will be owing only to your labors, and the - fearless efforts of those who, trampling the laws and Constitution of the - country under their feet, are determined that they will "hide the - outcast," and that their hearths shall be, spite of the law, an asylum for - the oppressed, if, some time or other, the humblest may stand in our - streets, and bear witness in safety against the cruelties of which he has - been the victim. - </p> - <p> - Yet it is sad to think, that these very throbbing hearts which welcome - your story, and form your best safeguard in telling it, are all beating - contrary to the "statute in such case made and provided." Go on, my dear - friend, till you, and those who, like you, have been saved, so as by fire, - from the dark prison-house, shall stereotype these free, illegal pulses - into statutes; and New England, cutting loose from a blood-stained Union, - shall glory in being the house of refuge for the oppressed,—till we - no longer merely "<i>hide</i> the outcast," or make a merit of standing - idly by while he is hunted in our midst; but, consecrating anew the soil - of the Pilgrims as an asylum for the oppressed, proclaim our <i>welcome</i> to - the slave so loudly, that the tones shall reach every hut in the - Carolinas, and make the broken-hearted bondman leap up at the thought of - old Massachusetts. - </p> - <p> - God speed the day! - </p> - <p> - <i>Till then, and ever,</i> <br /> Yours truly, <br /> WENDELL PHILLIPS - </p> - <p> - <a name="link2H_4_0003" id="link2H_4_0003"> - <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> - </p> - <div style="height: 4em;"> - <br /><br /><br /><br /> - </div> - <h1> - FREDERICK DOUGLASS. - </h1> - <p> - Frederick Douglass was born in slavery as Frederick Augustus Washington - Bailey near Easton in Talbot County, Maryland. He was not sure of the - exact year of his birth, but he knew that it was 1817 or 1818. As a young - boy he was sent to Baltimore, to be a house servant, where he learned to - read and write, with the assistance of his master's wife. In 1838 he - escaped from slavery and went to New York City, where he married Anna - Murray, a free colored woman whom he had met in Baltimore. Soon thereafter - he changed his name to Frederick Douglass. In 1841 he addressed a - convention of the Massachusetts Anti-Slavery Society in Nantucket and so - greatly impressed the group that they immediately employed him as an - agent. He was such an impressive orator that numerous persons doubted if - he had ever been a slave, so he wrote <i>Narrative Of The Life Of Frederick - Douglass</i>. During the Civil War he assisted in the recruiting of colored - men for the 54th and 55th Massachusetts Regiments and consistently argued - for the emancipation of slaves. After the war he was active in securing - and protecting the rights of the freemen. In his later years, at different - times, he was secretary of the Santo Domingo Commission, marshall and - recorder of deeds of the District of Columbia, and United States Minister - to Haiti. His other autobiographical works are <i>My Bondage And My Freedom</i> - and <i>Life And Times Of Frederick Douglass</i>, published in 1855 and 1881 - respectively. He died in 1895. - </p> - <p> - <a name="link2HCH0001" id="link2HCH0001"> - <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> - </p> - <div style="height: 4em;"> - <br /><br /><br /><br /> - </div> - <h2> - CHAPTER I - </h2> - <p> - I was born in Tuckahoe, near Hillsborough, and about twelve miles from - Easton, in Talbot county, Maryland. I have no accurate knowledge of my - age, never having seen any authentic record containing it. By far the - larger part of the slaves know as little of their ages as horses know of - theirs, and it is the wish of most masters within my knowledge to keep - their slaves thus ignorant. I do not remember to have ever met a slave who - could tell of his birthday. They seldom come nearer to it than - planting-time, harvest-time, cherry-time, spring-time, or fall-time. A - want of information concerning my own was a source of unhappiness to me - even during childhood. The white children could tell their ages. I could - not tell why I ought to be deprived of the same privilege. I was not - allowed to make any inquiries of my master concerning it. He deemed all - such inquiries on the part of a slave improper and impertinent, and - evidence of a restless spirit. The nearest estimate I can give makes me - now between twenty-seven and twenty-eight years of age. I come to this, - from hearing my master say, some time during 1835, I was about seventeen - years old. - </p> - <p> - My mother was named Harriet Bailey. She was the daughter of Isaac and - Betsey Bailey, both colored, and quite dark. My mother was of a darker - complexion than either my grandmother or grandfather. - </p> - <p> - My father was a white man. He was admitted to be such by all I ever heard - speak of my parentage. The opinion was also whispered that my master was - my father; but of the correctness of this opinion, I know nothing; the - means of knowing was withheld from me. My mother and I were separated when - I was but an infant—before I knew her as my mother. It is a common - custom, in the part of Maryland from which I ran away, to part children - from their mothers at a very early age. Frequently, before the child has - reached its twelfth month, its mother is taken from it, and hired out on - some farm a considerable distance off, and the child is placed under the - care of an old woman, too old for field labor. For what this separation is - done, I do not know, unless it be to hinder the development of the child's - affection toward its mother, and to blunt and destroy the natural - affection of the mother for the child. This is the inevitable result. - </p> - <p> - I never saw my mother, to know her as such, more than four or five times - in my life; and each of these times was very short in duration, and at - night. She was hired by a Mr. Stewart, who lived about twelve miles from - my home. She made her journeys to see me in the night, travelling the - whole distance on foot, after the performance of her day's work. She was a - field hand, and a whipping is the penalty of not being in the field at - sunrise, unless a slave has special permission from his or her master to - the contrary—a permission which they seldom get, and one that gives - to him that gives it the proud name of being a kind master. I do not - recollect of ever seeing my mother by the light of day. She was with me in - the night. She would lie down with me, and get me to sleep, but long - before I waked she was gone. Very little communication ever took place - between us. Death soon ended what little we could have while she lived, - and with it her hardships and suffering. She died when I was about seven - years old, on one of my master's farms, near Lee's Mill. I was not allowed - to be present during her illness, at her death, or burial. She was gone - long before I knew any thing about it. Never having enjoyed, to any - considerable extent, her soothing presence, her tender and watchful care, - I received the tidings of her death with much the same emotions I should - have probably felt at the death of a stranger. - </p> - <p> - Called thus suddenly away, she left me without the slightest intimation of - who my father was. The whisper that my master was my father, may or may - not be true; and, true or false, it is of but little consequence to my - purpose whilst the fact remains, in all its glaring odiousness, that - slaveholders have ordained, and by law established, that the children of - slave women shall in all cases follow the condition of their mothers; and - this is done too obviously to administer to their own lusts, and make a - gratification of their wicked desires profitable as well as pleasurable; - for by this cunning arrangement, the slaveholder, in cases not a few, - sustains to his slaves the double relation of master and father. - </p> - <p> - I know of such cases; and it is worthy of remark that such slaves - invariably suffer greater hardships, and have more to contend with, than - others. They are, in the first place, a constant offence to their - mistress. She is ever disposed to find fault with them; they can seldom do - any thing to please her; she is never better pleased than when she sees - them under the lash, especially when she suspects her husband of showing - to his mulatto children favors which he withholds from his black slaves. - The master is frequently compelled to sell this class of his slaves, out - of deference to the feelings of his white wife; and, cruel as the deed may - strike any one to be, for a man to sell his own children to human - flesh-mongers, it is often the dictate of humanity for him to do so; for, - unless he does this, he must not only whip them himself, but must stand by - and see one white son tie up his brother, of but few shades darker - complexion than himself, and ply the gory lash to his naked back; and if - he lisp one word of disapproval, it is set down to his parental - partiality, and only makes a bad matter worse, both for himself and the - slave whom he would protect and defend. - </p> - <p> - Every year brings with it multitudes of this class of slaves. It was - doubtless in consequence of a knowledge of this fact, that one great - statesman of the south predicted the downfall of slavery by the inevitable - laws of population. Whether this prophecy is ever fulfilled or not, it is - nevertheless plain that a very different-looking class of people are - springing up at the south, and are now held in slavery, from those - originally brought to this country from Africa; and if their increase do - no other good, it will do away the force of the argument, that God cursed - Ham, and therefore American slavery is right. If the lineal descendants of - Ham are alone to be scripturally enslaved, it is certain that slavery at - the south must soon become unscriptural; for thousands are ushered into - the world, annually, who, like myself, owe their existence to white - fathers, and those fathers most frequently their own masters. - </p> - <p> - I have had two masters. My first master's name was Anthony. I do not - remember his first name. He was generally called Captain Anthony—a - title which, I presume, he acquired by sailing a craft on the Chesapeake - Bay. He was not considered a rich slaveholder. He owned two or three - farms, and about thirty slaves. His farms and slaves were under the care - of an overseer. The overseer's name was Plummer. Mr. Plummer was a - miserable drunkard, a profane swearer, and a savage monster. He always - went armed with a cowskin and a heavy cudgel. I have known him to cut and - slash the women's heads so horribly, that even master would be enraged at - his cruelty, and would threaten to whip him if he did not mind himself. - Master, however, was not a humane slaveholder. It required extraordinary - barbarity on the part of an overseer to affect him. He was a cruel man, - hardened by a long life of slaveholding. He would at times seem to take - great pleasure in whipping a slave. I have often been awakened at the dawn - of day by the most heart-rending shrieks of an own aunt of mine, whom he - used to tie up to a joist, and whip upon her naked back till she was - literally covered with blood. No words, no tears, no prayers, from his - gory victim, seemed to move his iron heart from its bloody purpose. The - louder she screamed, the harder he whipped; and where the blood ran - fastest, there he whipped longest. He would whip her to make her scream, - and whip her to make her hush; and not until overcome by fatigue, would he - cease to swing the blood-clotted cowskin. I remember the first time I ever - witnessed this horrible exhibition. I was quite a child, but I well - remember it. I never shall forget it whilst I remember any thing. It was - the first of a long series of such outrages, of which I was doomed to be a - witness and a participant. It struck me with awful force. It was the - blood-stained gate, the entrance to the hell of slavery, through which I - was about to pass. It was a most terrible spectacle. I wish I could commit - to paper the feelings with which I beheld it. - </p> - <p> - This occurrence took place very soon after I went to live with my old - master, and under the following circumstances. Aunt Hester went out one - night,—where or for what I do not know,—and happened to be - absent when my master desired her presence. He had ordered her not to go - out evenings, and warned her that she must never let him catch her in - company with a young man, who was paying attention to her belonging to - Colonel Lloyd. The young man's name was Ned Roberts, generally called - Lloyd's Ned. Why master was so careful of her, may be safely left to - conjecture. She was a woman of noble form, and of graceful proportions, - having very few equals, and fewer superiors, in personal appearance, among - the colored or white women of our neighborhood. - </p> - <p> - Aunt Hester had not only disobeyed his orders in going out, but had been - found in company with Lloyd's Ned; which circumstance, I found, from what - he said while whipping her, was the chief offence. Had he been a man of - pure morals himself, he might have been thought interested in protecting - the innocence of my aunt; but those who knew him will not suspect him of - any such virtue. Before he commenced whipping Aunt Hester, he took her - into the kitchen, and stripped her from neck to waist, leaving her neck, - shoulders, and back, entirely naked. He then told her to cross her hands, - calling her at the same time a d——d b—-h. After crossing - her hands, he tied them with a strong rope, and led her to a stool under a - large hook in the joist, put in for the purpose. He made her get upon the - stool, and tied her hands to the hook. She now stood fair for his infernal - purpose. Her arms were stretched up at their full length, so that she - stood upon the ends of her toes. He then said to her, "Now, you d——d - b—-h, I'll learn you how to disobey my orders!" and after rolling up - his sleeves, he commenced to lay on the heavy cowskin, and soon the warm, - red blood (amid heart-rending shrieks from her, and horrid oaths from him) - came dripping to the floor. I was so terrified and horror-stricken at the - sight, that I hid myself in a closet, and dared not venture out till long - after the bloody transaction was over. I expected it would be my turn - next. It was all new to me. I had never seen any thing like it before. I - had always lived with my grandmother on the outskirts of the plantation, - where she was put to raise the children of the younger women. I had - therefore been, until now, out of the way of the bloody scenes that often - occurred on the plantation. - </p> - <p> - <a name="link2HCH0002" id="link2HCH0002"> - <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> - </p> - <div style="height: 4em;"> - <br /><br /><br /><br /> - </div> - <h2> - CHAPTER II - </h2> - <p> - My master's family consisted of two sons, Andrew and Richard; one - daughter, Lucretia, and her husband, Captain Thomas Auld. They lived in - one house, upon the home plantation of Colonel Edward Lloyd. My master was - Colonel Lloyd's clerk and superintendent. He was what might be called the - overseer of the overseers. I spent two years of childhood on this - plantation in my old master's family. It was here that I witnessed the - bloody transaction recorded in the first chapter; and as I received my - first impressions of slavery on this plantation, I will give some - description of it, and of slavery as it there existed. The plantation is - about twelve miles north of Easton, in Talbot county, and is situated on - the border of Miles River. The principal products raised upon it were - tobacco, corn, and wheat. These were raised in great abundance; so that, - with the products of this and the other farms belonging to him, he was - able to keep in almost constant employment a large sloop, in carrying them - to market at Baltimore. This sloop was named Sally Lloyd, in honor of one - of the colonel's daughters. My master's son-in-law, Captain Auld, was - master of the vessel; she was otherwise manned by the colonel's own - slaves. Their names were Peter, Isaac, Rich, and Jake. These were esteemed - very highly by the other slaves, and looked upon as the privileged ones of - the plantation; for it was no small affair, in the eyes of the slaves, to - be allowed to see Baltimore. - </p> - <p> - Colonel Lloyd kept from three to four hundred slaves on his home - plantation, and owned a large number more on the neighboring farms - belonging to him. The names of the farms nearest to the home plantation - were Wye Town and New Design. "Wye Town" was under the overseership of a - man named Noah Willis. New Design was under the overseership of a Mr. - Townsend. The overseers of these, and all the rest of the farms, numbering - over twenty, received advice and direction from the managers of the home - plantation. This was the great business place. It was the seat of - government for the whole twenty farms. All disputes among the overseers - were settled here. If a slave was convicted of any high misdemeanor, - became unmanageable, or evinced a determination to run away, he was - brought immediately here, severely whipped, put on board the sloop, - carried to Baltimore, and sold to Austin Woolfolk, or some other - slave-trader, as a warning to the slaves remaining. - </p> - <p> - Here, too, the slaves of all the other farms received their monthly - allowance of food, and their yearly clothing. The men and women slaves - received, as their monthly allowance of food, eight pounds of pork, or its - equivalent in fish, and one bushel of corn meal. Their yearly clothing - consisted of two coarse linen shirts, one pair of linen trousers, like the - shirts, one jacket, one pair of trousers for winter, made of coarse negro - cloth, one pair of stockings, and one pair of shoes; the whole of which - could not have cost more than seven dollars. The allowance of the slave - children was given to their mothers, or the old women having the care of - them. The children unable to work in the field had neither shoes, - stockings, jackets, nor trousers, given to them; their clothing consisted - of two coarse linen shirts per year. When these failed them, they went - naked until the next allowance-day. Children from seven to ten years old, - of both sexes, almost naked, might be seen at all seasons of the year. - </p> - <p> - There were no beds given the slaves, unless one coarse blanket be - considered such, and none but the men and women had these. This, however, - is not considered a very great privation. They find less difficulty from - the want of beds, than from the want of time to sleep; for when their - day's work in the field is done, the most of them having their washing, - mending, and cooking to do, and having few or none of the ordinary - facilities for doing either of these, very many of their sleeping hours - are consumed in preparing for the field the coming day; and when this is - done, old and young, male and female, married and single, drop down side - by side, on one common bed,—the cold, damp floor,—each - covering himself or herself with their miserable blankets; and here they - sleep till they are summoned to the field by the driver's horn. At the - sound of this, all must rise, and be off to the field. There must be no - halting; every one must be at his or her post; and woe betides them who - hear not this morning summons to the field; for if they are not awakened - by the sense of hearing, they are by the sense of feeling: no age nor sex - finds any favor. Mr. Severe, the overseer, used to stand by the door of - the quarter, armed with a large hickory stick and heavy cowskin, ready to - whip any one who was so unfortunate as not to hear, or, from any other - cause, was prevented from being ready to start for the field at the sound - of the horn. - </p> - <p> - Mr. Severe was rightly named: he was a cruel man. I have seen him whip a - woman, causing the blood to run half an hour at the time; and this, too, - in the midst of her crying children, pleading for their mother's release. - He seemed to take pleasure in manifesting his fiendish barbarity. Added to - his cruelty, he was a profane swearer. It was enough to chill the blood - and stiffen the hair of an ordinary man to hear him talk. Scarce a - sentence escaped him but that was commenced or concluded by some horrid - oath. The field was the place to witness his cruelty and profanity. His - presence made it both the field of blood and of blasphemy. From the rising - till the going down of the sun, he was cursing, raving, cutting, and - slashing among the slaves of the field, in the most frightful manner. His - career was short. He died very soon after I went to Colonel Lloyd's; and - he died as he lived, uttering, with his dying groans, bitter curses and - horrid oaths. His death was regarded by the slaves as the result of a - merciful providence. - </p> - <p> - Mr. Severe's place was filled by a Mr. Hopkins. He was a very different - man. He was less cruel, less profane, and made less noise, than Mr. - Severe. His course was characterized by no extraordinary demonstrations of - cruelty. He whipped, but seemed to take no pleasure in it. He was called - by the slaves a good overseer. - </p> - <p> - The home plantation of Colonel Lloyd wore the appearance of a country - village. All the mechanical operations for all the farms were performed - here. The shoemaking and mending, the blacksmithing, cartwrighting, - coopering, weaving, and grain-grinding, were all performed by the slaves - on the home plantation. The whole place wore a business-like aspect very - unlike the neighboring farms. The number of houses, too, conspired to give - it advantage over the neighboring farms. It was called by the slaves the - <i>Great House Farm.</i> Few privileges were esteemed higher, by the - slaves of the out-farms, than that of being selected to do errands at the - Great House Farm. It was associated in their minds with greatness. A - representative could not be prouder of his election to a seat in the - American Congress, than a slave on one of the out-farms would be of his - election to do errands at the Great House Farm. They regarded it as - evidence of great confidence reposed in them by their overseers; and it - was on this account, as well as a constant desire to be out of the field - from under the driver's lash, that they esteemed it a high privilege, one - worth careful living for. He was called the smartest and most trusty - fellow, who had this honor conferred upon him the most frequently. The - competitors for this office sought as diligently to please their - overseers, as the office-seekers in the political parties seek to please - and deceive the people. The same traits of character might be seen in - Colonel Lloyd's slaves, as are seen in the slaves of the political - parties. - </p> - <p> - The slaves selected to go to the Great House Farm, for the monthly - allowance for themselves and their fellow-slaves, were peculiarly - enthusiastic. While on their way, they would make the dense old woods, for - miles around, reverberate with their wild songs, revealing at once the - highest joy and the deepest sadness. They would compose and sing as they - went along, consulting neither time nor tune. The thought that came up, - came out—if not in the word, in the sound;—and as frequently - in the one as in the other. They would sometimes sing the most pathetic - sentiment in the most rapturous tone, and the most rapturous sentiment in - the most pathetic tone. Into all of their songs they would manage to weave - something of the Great House Farm. Especially would they do this, when - leaving home. They would then sing most exultingly the following words:— - </p> -<pre xml:space="preserve"> - "I am going away to the Great House Farm! - O, yea! O, yea! O!" -</pre> - <p> - This they would sing, as a chorus, to words which to many would seem - unmeaning jargon, but which, nevertheless, were full of meaning to - themselves. I have sometimes thought that the mere hearing of those songs - would do more to impress some minds with the horrible character of - slavery, than the reading of whole volumes of philosophy on the subject - could do. - </p> - <p> - I did not, when a slave, understand the deep meaning of those rude and - apparently incoherent songs. I was myself within the circle; so that I - neither saw nor heard as those without might see and hear. They told a - tale of woe which was then altogether beyond my feeble comprehension; they - were tones loud, long, and deep; they breathed the prayer and complaint of - souls boiling over with the bitterest anguish. Every tone was a testimony - against slavery, and a prayer to God for deliverance from chains. The - hearing of those wild notes always depressed my spirit, and filled me with - ineffable sadness. I have frequently found myself in tears while hearing - them. The mere recurrence to those songs, even now, afflicts me; and while - I am writing these lines, an expression of feeling has already found its - way down my cheek. To those songs I trace my first glimmering conception - of the dehumanizing character of slavery. I can never get rid of that - conception. Those songs still follow me, to deepen my hatred of slavery, - and quicken my sympathies for my brethren in bonds. If any one wishes to - be impressed with the soul-killing effects of slavery, let him go to - Colonel Lloyd's plantation, and, on allowance-day, place himself in the - deep pine woods, and there let him, in silence, analyze the sounds that - shall pass through the chambers of his soul,—and if he is not thus - impressed, it will only be because "there is no flesh in his obdurate - heart." - </p> - <p> - I have often been utterly astonished, since I came to the north, to find - persons who could speak of the singing, among slaves, as evidence of their - contentment and happiness. It is impossible to conceive of a greater - mistake. Slaves sing most when they are most unhappy. The songs of the - slave represent the sorrows of his heart; and he is relieved by them, only - as an aching heart is relieved by its tears. At least, such is my - experience. I have often sung to drown my sorrow, but seldom to express my - happiness. Crying for joy, and singing for joy, were alike uncommon to me - while in the jaws of slavery. The singing of a man cast away upon a - desolate island might be as appropriately considered as evidence of - contentment and happiness, as the singing of a slave; the songs of the one - and of the other are prompted by the same emotion. - </p> - <p> - <a name="link2HCH0003" id="link2HCH0003"> - <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> - </p> - <div style="height: 4em;"> - <br /><br /><br /><br /> - </div> - <h2> - CHAPTER III - </h2> - <p> - Colonel Lloyd kept a large and finely cultivated garden, which afforded - almost constant employment for four men, besides the chief gardener, (Mr. - M'Durmond.) This garden was probably the greatest attraction of the place. - During the summer months, people came from far and near—from - Baltimore, Easton, and Annapolis—to see it. It abounded in fruits of - almost every description, from the hardy apple of the north to the - delicate orange of the south. This garden was not the least source of - trouble on the plantation. Its excellent fruit was quite a temptation to - the hungry swarms of boys, as well as the older slaves, belonging to the - colonel, few of whom had the virtue or the vice to resist it. Scarcely a - day passed, during the summer, but that some slave had to take the lash - for stealing fruit. The colonel had to resort to all kinds of stratagems - to keep his slaves out of the garden. The last and most successful one was - that of tarring his fence all around; after which, if a slave was caught - with any tar upon his person, it was deemed sufficient proof that he had - either been into the garden, or had tried to get in. In either case, he - was severely whipped by the chief gardener. This plan worked well; the - slaves became as fearful of tar as of the lash. They seemed to realize the - impossibility of touching <i>tar</i> without being defiled. - </p> - <p> - The colonel also kept a splendid riding equipage. His stable and - carriage-house presented the appearance of some of our large city livery - establishments. His horses were of the finest form and noblest blood. His - carriage-house contained three splendid coaches, three or four gigs, - besides dearborns and barouches of the most fashionable style. - </p> - <p> - This establishment was under the care of two slaves—old Barney and - young Barney—father and son. To attend to this establishment was - their sole work. But it was by no means an easy employment; for in nothing - was Colonel Lloyd more particular than in the management of his horses. - The slightest inattention to these was unpardonable, and was visited upon - those, under whose care they were placed, with the severest punishment; no - excuse could shield them, if the colonel only suspected any want of - attention to his horses—a supposition which he frequently indulged, - and one which, of course, made the office of old and young Barney a very - trying one. They never knew when they were safe from punishment. They were - frequently whipped when least deserving, and escaped whipping when most - deserving it. Every thing depended upon the looks of the horses, and the - state of Colonel Lloyd's own mind when his horses were brought to him for - use. If a horse did not move fast enough, or hold his head high enough, it - was owing to some fault of his keepers. It was painful to stand near the - stable-door, and hear the various complaints against the keepers when a - horse was taken out for use. "This horse has not had proper attention. He - has not been sufficiently rubbed and curried, or he has not been properly - fed; his food was too wet or too dry; he got it too soon or too late; he - was too hot or too cold; he had too much hay, and not enough of grain; or - he had too much grain, and not enough of hay; instead of old Barney's - attending to the horse, he had very improperly left it to his son." To all - these complaints, no matter how unjust, the slave must answer never a - word. Colonel Lloyd could not brook any contradiction from a slave. When - he spoke, a slave must stand, listen, and tremble; and such was literally - the case. I have seen Colonel Lloyd make old Barney, a man between fifty - and sixty years of age, uncover his bald head, kneel down upon the cold, - damp ground, and receive upon his naked and toil-worn shoulders more than - thirty lashes at the time. Colonel Lloyd had three sons—Edward, - Murray, and Daniel,—and three sons-in-law, Mr. Winder, Mr. - Nicholson, and Mr. Lowndes. All of these lived at the Great House Farm, - and enjoyed the luxury of whipping the servants when they pleased, from - old Barney down to William Wilkes, the coach-driver. I have seen Winder - make one of the house-servants stand off from him a suitable distance to - be touched with the end of his whip, and at every stroke raise great - ridges upon his back. - </p> - <p> - To describe the wealth of Colonel Lloyd would be almost equal to - describing the riches of Job. He kept from ten to fifteen house-servants. - He was said to own a thousand slaves, and I think this estimate quite - within the truth. Colonel Lloyd owned so many that he did not know them - when he saw them; nor did all the slaves of the out-farms know him. It is - reported of him, that, while riding along the road one day, he met a - colored man, and addressed him in the usual manner of speaking to colored - people on the public highways of the south: "Well, boy, whom do you belong - to?" "To Colonel Lloyd," replied the slave. "Well, does the colonel treat - you well?" "No, sir," was the ready reply. "What, does he work you too - hard?" "Yes, sir." "Well, don't he give you enough to eat?" "Yes, sir, he - gives me enough, such as it is." - </p> - <p> - The colonel, after ascertaining where the slave belonged, rode on; the man - also went on about his business, not dreaming that he had been conversing - with his master. He thought, said, and heard nothing more of the matter, - until two or three weeks afterwards. The poor man was then informed by his - overseer that, for having found fault with his master, he was now to be - sold to a Georgia trader. He was immediately chained and handcuffed; and - thus, without a moment's warning, he was snatched away, and forever - sundered, from his family and friends, by a hand more unrelenting than - death. This is the penalty of telling the truth, of telling the simple - truth, in answer to a series of plain questions. - </p> - <p> - It is partly in consequence of such facts, that slaves, when inquired of - as to their condition and the character of their masters, almost - universally say they are contented, and that their masters are kind. The - slaveholders have been known to send in spies among their slaves, to - ascertain their views and feelings in regard to their condition. The - frequency of this has had the effect to establish among the slaves the - maxim, that a still tongue makes a wise head. They suppress the truth - rather than take the consequences of telling it, and in so doing prove - themselves a part of the human family. If they have any thing to say of - their masters, it is generally in their masters' favor, especially when - speaking to an untried man. I have been frequently asked, when a slave, if - I had a kind master, and do not remember ever to have given a negative - answer; nor did I, in pursuing this course, consider myself as uttering - what was absolutely false; for I always measured the kindness of my master - by the standard of kindness set up among slaveholders around us. Moreover, - slaves are like other people, and imbibe prejudices quite common to - others. They think their own better than that of others. Many, under the - influence of this prejudice, think their own masters are better than the - masters of other slaves; and this, too, in some cases, when the very - reverse is true. Indeed, it is not uncommon for slaves even to fall out - and quarrel among themselves about the relative goodness of their masters, - each contending for the superior goodness of his own over that of the - others. At the very same time, they mutually execrate their masters when - viewed separately. It was so on our plantation. When Colonel Lloyd's - slaves met the slaves of Jacob Jepson, they seldom parted without a - quarrel about their masters; Colonel Lloyd's slaves contending that he was - the richest, and Mr. Jepson's slaves that he was the smartest, and most of - a man. Colonel Lloyd's slaves would boast his ability to buy and sell - Jacob Jepson. Mr. Jepson's slaves would boast his ability to whip Colonel - Lloyd. These quarrels would almost always end in a fight between the - parties, and those that whipped were supposed to have gained the point at - issue. They seemed to think that the greatness of their masters was - transferable to themselves. It was considered as being bad enough to be a - slave; but to be a poor man's slave was deemed a disgrace indeed! - </p> - <p> - <a name="link2HCH0004" id="link2HCH0004"> - <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> - </p> - <div style="height: 4em;"> - <br /><br /><br /><br /> - </div> - <h2> - CHAPTER IV - </h2> - <p> - Mr. Hopkins remained but a short time in the office of overseer. Why his - career was so short, I do not know, but suppose he lacked the necessary - severity to suit Colonel Lloyd. Mr. Hopkins was succeeded by Mr. Austin - Gore, a man possessing, in an eminent degree, all those traits of - character indispensable to what is called a first-rate overseer. Mr. Gore - had served Colonel Lloyd, in the capacity of overseer, upon one of the - out-farms, and had shown himself worthy of the high station of overseer - upon the home or Great House Farm. - </p> - <p> - Mr. Gore was proud, ambitious, and persevering. He was artful, cruel, and - obdurate. He was just the man for such a place, and it was just the place - for such a man. It afforded scope for the full exercise of all his powers, - and he seemed to be perfectly at home in it. He was one of those who could - torture the slightest look, word, or gesture, on the part of the slave, - into impudence, and would treat it accordingly. There must be no answering - back to him; no explanation was allowed a slave, showing himself to have - been wrongfully accused. Mr. Gore acted fully up to the maxim laid down by - slaveholders,—"It is better that a dozen slaves should suffer under - the lash, than that the overseer should be convicted, in the presence of - the slaves, of having been at fault." No matter how innocent a slave might - be—it availed him nothing, when accused by Mr. Gore of any - misdemeanor. To be accused was to be convicted, and to be convicted was to - be punished; the one always following the other with immutable certainty. - To escape punishment was to escape accusation; and few slaves had the - fortune to do either, under the overseership of Mr. Gore. He was just - proud enough to demand the most debasing homage of the slave, and quite - servile enough to crouch, himself, at the feet of the master. He was - ambitious enough to be contented with nothing short of the highest rank of - overseers, and persevering enough to reach the height of his ambition. He - was cruel enough to inflict the severest punishment, artful enough to - descend to the lowest trickery, and obdurate enough to be insensible to - the voice of a reproving conscience. He was, of all the overseers, the - most dreaded by the slaves. His presence was painful; his eye flashed - confusion; and seldom was his sharp, shrill voice heard, without producing - horror and trembling in their ranks. - </p> - <p> - Mr. Gore was a grave man, and, though a young man, he indulged in no - jokes, said no funny words, seldom smiled. His words were in perfect - keeping with his looks, and his looks were in perfect keeping with his - words. Overseers will sometimes indulge in a witty word, even with the - slaves; not so with Mr. Gore. He spoke but to command, and commanded but - to be obeyed; he dealt sparingly with his words, and bountifully with his - whip, never using the former where the latter would answer as well. When - he whipped, he seemed to do so from a sense of duty, and feared no - consequences. He did nothing reluctantly, no matter how disagreeable; - always at his post, never inconsistent. He never promised but to fulfil. - He was, in a word, a man of the most inflexible firmness and stone-like - coolness. - </p> - <p> - His savage barbarity was equalled only by the consummate coolness with - which he committed the grossest and most savage deeds upon the slaves - under his charge. Mr. Gore once undertook to whip one of Colonel Lloyd's - slaves, by the name of Demby. He had given Demby but few stripes, when, to - get rid of the scourging, he ran and plunged himself into a creek, and - stood there at the depth of his shoulders, refusing to come out. Mr. Gore - told him that he would give him three calls, and that, if he did not come - out at the third call, he would shoot him. The first call was given. Demby - made no response, but stood his ground. The second and third calls were - given with the same result. Mr. Gore then, without consultation or - deliberation with any one, not even giving Demby an additional call, - raised his musket to his face, taking deadly aim at his standing victim, - and in an instant poor Demby was no more. His mangled body sank out of - sight, and blood and brains marked the water where he had stood. - </p> - <p> - A thrill of horror flashed through every soul upon the plantation, - excepting Mr. Gore. He alone seemed cool and collected. He was asked by - Colonel Lloyd and my old master, why he resorted to this extraordinary - expedient. His reply was, (as well as I can remember,) that Demby had - become unmanageable. He was setting a dangerous example to the other - slaves,—one which, if suffered to pass without some such - demonstration on his part, would finally lead to the total subversion of - all rule and order upon the plantation. He argued that if one slave - refused to be corrected, and escaped with his life, the other slaves would - soon copy the example; the result of which would be, the freedom of the - slaves, and the enslavement of the whites. Mr. Gore's defence was - satisfactory. He was continued in his station as overseer upon the home - plantation. His fame as an overseer went abroad. His horrid crime was not - even submitted to judicial investigation. It was committed in the presence - of slaves, and they of course could neither institute a suit, nor testify - against him; and thus the guilty perpetrator of one of the bloodiest and - most foul murders goes unwhipped of justice, and uncensured by the - community in which he lives. Mr. Gore lived in St. Michael's, Talbot - county, Maryland, when I left there; and if he is still alive, he very - probably lives there now; and if so, he is now, as he was then, as highly - esteemed and as much respected as though his guilty soul had not been - stained with his brother's blood. - </p> - <p> - I speak advisedly when I say this,—that killing a slave, or any - colored person, in Talbot county, Maryland, is not treated as a crime, - either by the courts or the community. Mr. Thomas Lanman, of St. - Michael's, killed two slaves, one of whom he killed with a hatchet, by - knocking his brains out. He used to boast of the commission of the awful - and bloody deed. I have heard him do so laughingly, saying, among other - things, that he was the only benefactor of his country in the company, and - that when others would do as much as he had done, we should be relieved of - "the d——d niggers." - </p> - <p> - The wife of Mr. Giles Hicks, living but a short distance from where I used - to live, murdered my wife's cousin, a young girl between fifteen and - sixteen years of age, mangling her person in the most horrible manner, - breaking her nose and breastbone with a stick, so that the poor girl - expired in a few hours afterward. She was immediately buried, but had not - been in her untimely grave but a few hours before she was taken up and - examined by the coroner, who decided that she had come to her death by - severe beating. The offence for which this girl was thus murdered was - this:—She had been set that night to mind Mrs. Hicks's baby, and - during the night she fell asleep, and the baby cried. She, having lost her - rest for several nights previous, did not hear the crying. They were both - in the room with Mrs. Hicks. Mrs. Hicks, finding the girl slow to move, - jumped from her bed, seized an oak stick of wood by the fireplace, and - with it broke the girl's nose and breastbone, and thus ended her life. I - will not say that this most horrid murder produced no sensation in the - community. It did produce sensation, but not enough to bring the murderess - to punishment. There was a warrant issued for her arrest, but it was never - served. Thus she escaped not only punishment, but even the pain of being - arraigned before a court for her horrid crime. - </p> - <p> - Whilst I am detailing bloody deeds which took place during my stay on - Colonel Lloyd's plantation, I will briefly narrate another, which occurred - about the same time as the murder of Demby by Mr. Gore. - </p> - <p> - Colonel Lloyd's slaves were in the habit of spending a part of their - nights and Sundays in fishing for oysters, and in this way made up the - deficiency of their scanty allowance. An old man belonging to Colonel - Lloyd, while thus engaged, happened to get beyond the limits of Colonel - Lloyd's, and on the premises of Mr. Beal Bondly. At this trespass, Mr. - Bondly took offence, and with his musket came down to the shore, and blew - its deadly contents into the poor old man. - </p> - <p> - Mr. Bondly came over to see Colonel Lloyd the next day, whether to pay him - for his property, or to justify himself in what he had done, I know not. - At any rate, this whole fiendish transaction was soon hushed up. There was - very little said about it at all, and nothing done. It was a common - saying, even among little white boys, that it was worth a half-cent to - kill a "nigger," and a half-cent to bury one. - </p> - <p> - <a name="link2HCH0005" id="link2HCH0005"> - <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> - </p> - <div style="height: 4em;"> - <br /><br /><br /><br /> - </div> - <h2> - CHAPTER V - </h2> - <p> - As to my own treatment while I lived on Colonel Lloyd's plantation, it was - very similar to that of the other slave children. I was not old enough to - work in the field, and there being little else than field work to do, I - had a great deal of leisure time. The most I had to do was to drive up the - cows at evening, keep the fowls out of the garden, keep the front yard - clean, and run of errands for my old master's daughter, Mrs. Lucretia - Auld. The most of my leisure time I spent in helping Master Daniel Lloyd - in finding his birds, after he had shot them. My connection with Master - Daniel was of some advantage to me. He became quite attached to me, and - was a sort of protector of me. He would not allow the older boys to impose - upon me, and would divide his cakes with me. - </p> - <p> - I was seldom whipped by my old master, and suffered little from any thing - else than hunger and cold. I suffered much from hunger, but much more from - cold. In hottest summer and coldest winter, I was kept almost naked—no - shoes, no stockings, no jacket, no trousers, nothing on but a coarse tow - linen shirt, reaching only to my knees. I had no bed. I must have perished - with cold, but that, the coldest nights, I used to steal a bag which was - used for carrying corn to the mill. I would crawl into this bag, and there - sleep on the cold, damp, clay floor, with my head in and feet out. My feet - have been so cracked with the frost, that the pen with which I am writing - might be laid in the gashes. - </p> - <p> - We were not regularly allowanced. Our food was coarse corn meal boiled. - This was called <i>mush</i>. It was put into a large wooden tray or trough, and - set down upon the ground. The children were then called, like so many - pigs, and like so many pigs they would come and devour the mush; some with - oyster-shells, others with pieces of shingle, some with naked hands, and - none with spoons. He that ate fastest got most; he that was strongest - secured the best place; and few left the trough satisfied. - </p> - <p> - I was probably between seven and eight years old when I left Colonel - Lloyd's plantation. I left it with joy. I shall never forget the ecstasy - with which I received the intelligence that my old master (Anthony) had - determined to let me go to Baltimore, to live with Mr. Hugh Auld, brother - to my old master's son-in-law, Captain Thomas Auld. I received this - information about three days before my departure. They were three of the - happiest days I ever enjoyed. I spent the most part of all these three - days in the creek, washing off the plantation scurf, and preparing myself - for my departure. - </p> - <p> - The pride of appearance which this would indicate was not my own. I spent - the time in washing, not so much because I wished to, but because Mrs. - Lucretia had told me I must get all the dead skin off my feet and knees - before I could go to Baltimore; for the people in Baltimore were very - cleanly, and would laugh at me if I looked dirty. Besides, she was going - to give me a pair of trousers, which I should not put on unless I got all - the dirt off me. The thought of owning a pair of trousers was great - indeed! It was almost a sufficient motive, not only to make me take off - what would be called by pig-drovers the mange, but the skin itself. I went - at it in good earnest, working for the first time with the hope of reward. - </p> - <p> - The ties that ordinarily bind children to their homes were all suspended - in my case. I found no severe trial in my departure. My home was - charmless; it was not home to me; on parting from it, I could not feel - that I was leaving any thing which I could have enjoyed by staying. My - mother was dead, my grandmother lived far off, so that I seldom saw her. I - had two sisters and one brother, that lived in the same house with me; but - the early separation of us from our mother had well nigh blotted the fact - of our relationship from our memories. I looked for home elsewhere, and - was confident of finding none which I should relish less than the one - which I was leaving. If, however, I found in my new home hardship, hunger, - whipping, and nakedness, I had the consolation that I should not have - escaped any one of them by staying. Having already had more than a taste - of them in the house of my old master, and having endured them there, I - very naturally inferred my ability to endure them elsewhere, and - especially at Baltimore; for I had something of the feeling about - Baltimore that is expressed in the proverb, that "being hanged in England - is preferable to dying a natural death in Ireland." I had the strongest - desire to see Baltimore. Cousin Tom, though not fluent in speech, had - inspired me with that desire by his eloquent description of the place. I - could never point out any thing at the Great House, no matter how - beautiful or powerful, but that he had seen something at Baltimore far - exceeding, both in beauty and strength, the object which I pointed out to - him. Even the Great House itself, with all its pictures, was far inferior - to many buildings in Baltimore. So strong was my desire, that I thought a - gratification of it would fully compensate for whatever loss of comforts I - should sustain by the exchange. I left without a regret, and with the - highest hopes of future happiness. - </p> - <p> - We sailed out of Miles River for Baltimore on a Saturday morning. I - remember only the day of the week, for at that time I had no knowledge of - the days of the month, nor the months of the year. On setting sail, I - walked aft, and gave to Colonel Lloyd's plantation what I hoped would be - the last look. I then placed myself in the bows of the sloop, and there - spent the remainder of the day in looking ahead, interesting myself in - what was in the distance rather than in things near by or behind. - </p> - <p> - In the afternoon of that day, we reached Annapolis, the capital of the - State. We stopped but a few moments, so that I had no time to go on shore. - It was the first large town that I had ever seen, and though it would look - small compared with some of our New England factory villages, I thought it - a wonderful place for its size—more imposing even than the Great - House Farm! - </p> - <p> - We arrived at Baltimore early on Sunday morning, landing at Smith's Wharf, - not far from Bowley's Wharf. We had on board the sloop a large flock of - sheep; and after aiding in driving them to the slaughterhouse of Mr. - Curtis on Louden Slater's Hill, I was conducted by Rich, one of the hands - belonging on board of the sloop, to my new home in Alliciana Street, near - Mr. Gardner's ship-yard, on Fells Point. - </p> - <p> - Mr. and Mrs. Auld were both at home, and met me at the door with their - little son Thomas, to take care of whom I had been given. And here I saw - what I had never seen before; it was a white face beaming with the most - kindly emotions; it was the face of my new mistress, Sophia Auld. I wish I - could describe the rapture that flashed through my soul as I beheld it. It - was a new and strange sight to me, brightening up my pathway with the - light of happiness. Little Thomas was told, there was his Freddy,—and - I was told to take care of little Thomas; and thus I entered upon the - duties of my new home with the most cheering prospect ahead. - </p> - <p> - I look upon my departure from Colonel Lloyd's plantation as one of the - most interesting events of my life. It is possible, and even quite - probable, that but for the mere circumstance of being removed from that - plantation to Baltimore, I should have to-day, instead of being here - seated by my own table, in the enjoyment of freedom and the happiness of - home, writing this Narrative, been confined in the galling chains of - slavery. Going to live at Baltimore laid the foundation, and opened the - gateway, to all my subsequent prosperity. I have ever regarded it as the - first plain manifestation of that kind providence which has ever since - attended me, and marked my life with so many favors. I regarded the - selection of myself as being somewhat remarkable. There were a number of - slave children that might have been sent from the plantation to Baltimore. - There were those younger, those older, and those of the same age. I was - chosen from among them all, and was the first, last, and only choice. - </p> - <p> - I may be deemed superstitious, and even egotistical, in regarding this - event as a special interposition of divine Providence in my favor. But I - should be false to the earliest sentiments of my soul, if I suppressed the - opinion. I prefer to be true to myself, even at the hazard of incurring - the ridicule of others, rather than to be false, and incur my own - abhorrence. From my earliest recollection, I date the entertainment of a - deep conviction that slavery would not always be able to hold me within - its foul embrace; and in the darkest hours of my career in slavery, this - living word of faith and spirit of hope departed not from me, but remained - like ministering angels to cheer me through the gloom. This good spirit - was from God, and to him I offer thanksgiving and praise. - </p> - <p> - <a name="link2HCH0006" id="link2HCH0006"> - <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> - </p> - <div style="height: 4em;"> - <br /><br /><br /><br /> - </div> - <h2> - CHAPTER VI - </h2> - <p> - My new mistress proved to be all she appeared when I first met her at the - door,—a woman of the kindest heart and finest feelings. She had - never had a slave under her control previously to myself, and prior to her - marriage she had been dependent upon her own industry for a living. She - was by trade a weaver; and by constant application to her business, she - had been in a good degree preserved from the blighting and dehumanizing - effects of slavery. I was utterly astonished at her goodness. I scarcely - knew how to behave towards her. She was entirely unlike any other white - woman I had ever seen. I could not approach her as I was accustomed to - approach other white ladies. My early instruction was all out of place. - The crouching servility, usually so acceptable a quality in a slave, did - not answer when manifested toward her. Her favor was not gained by it; she - seemed to be disturbed by it. She did not deem it impudent or unmannerly - for a slave to look her in the face. The meanest slave was put fully at - ease in her presence, and none left without feeling better for having seen - her. Her face was made of heavenly smiles, and her voice of tranquil - music. - </p> - <p> - But, alas! this kind heart had but a short time to remain such. The fatal - poison of irresponsible power was already in her hands, and soon commenced - its infernal work. That cheerful eye, under the influence of slavery, soon - became red with rage; that voice, made all of sweet accord, changed to one - of harsh and horrid discord; and that angelic face gave place to that of a - demon. - </p> - <p> - Very soon after I went to live with Mr. and Mrs. Auld, she very kindly - commenced to teach me the A, B, C. After I had learned this, she assisted - me in learning to spell words of three or four letters. Just at this point - of my progress, Mr. Auld found out what was going on, and at once forbade - Mrs. Auld to instruct me further, telling her, among other things, that it - was unlawful, as well as unsafe, to teach a slave to read. To use his own - words, further, he said, "If you give a nigger an inch, he will take an - ell. A nigger should know nothing but to obey his master—to do as he - is told to do. Learning would <i>spoil</i> the best nigger in the world. - Now," said he, "if you teach that nigger (speaking of myself) how to read, - there would be no keeping him. It would forever unfit him to be a slave. - He would at once become unmanageable, and of no value to his master. As to - himself, it could do him no good, but a great deal of harm. It would make - him discontented and unhappy." These words sank deep into my heart, - stirred up sentiments within that lay slumbering, and called into - existence an entirely new train of thought. It was a new and special - revelation, explaining dark and mysterious things, with which my youthful - understanding had struggled, but struggled in vain. I now understood what - had been to me a most perplexing difficulty—to wit, the white man's - power to enslave the black man. It was a grand achievement, and I prized - it highly. From that moment, I understood the pathway from slavery to - freedom. It was just what I wanted, and I got it at a time when I the - least expected it. Whilst I was saddened by the thought of losing the aid - of my kind mistress, I was gladdened by the invaluable instruction which, - by the merest accident, I had gained from my master. Though conscious of - the difficulty of learning without a teacher, I set out with high hope, - and a fixed purpose, at whatever cost of trouble, to learn how to read. - The very decided manner with which he spoke, and strove to impress his - wife with the evil consequences of giving me instruction, served to - convince me that he was deeply sensible of the truths he was uttering. It - gave me the best assurance that I might rely with the utmost confidence on - the results which, he said, would flow from teaching me to read. What he - most dreaded, that I most desired. What he most loved, that I most hated. - That which to him was a great evil, to be carefully shunned, was to me a - great good, to be diligently sought; and the argument which he so warmly - urged, against my learning to read, only served to inspire me with a - desire and determination to learn. In learning to read, I owe almost as - much to the bitter opposition of my master, as to the kindly aid of my - mistress. I acknowledge the benefit of both. - </p> - <p> - I had resided but a short time in Baltimore before I observed a marked - difference, in the treatment of slaves, from that which I had witnessed in - the country. A city slave is almost a freeman, compared with a slave on - the plantation. He is much better fed and clothed, and enjoys privileges - altogether unknown to the slave on the plantation. There is a vestige of - decency, a sense of shame, that does much to curb and check those - outbreaks of atrocious cruelty so commonly enacted upon the plantation. He - is a desperate slaveholder, who will shock the humanity of his - non-slaveholding neighbors with the cries of his lacerated slave. Few are - willing to incur the odium attaching to the reputation of being a cruel - master; and above all things, they would not be known as not giving a - slave enough to eat. Every city slaveholder is anxious to have it known of - him, that he feeds his slaves well; and it is due to them to say, that - most of them do give their slaves enough to eat. There are, however, some - painful exceptions to this rule. Directly opposite to us, on Philpot - Street, lived Mr. Thomas Hamilton. He owned two slaves. Their names were - Henrietta and Mary. Henrietta was about twenty-two years of age, Mary was - about fourteen; and of all the mangled and emaciated creatures I ever - looked upon, these two were the most so. His heart must be harder than - stone, that could look upon these unmoved. The head, neck, and shoulders - of Mary were literally cut to pieces. I have frequently felt her head, and - found it nearly covered with festering sores, caused by the lash of her - cruel mistress. I do not know that her master ever whipped her, but I have - been an eye-witness to the cruelty of Mrs. Hamilton. I used to be in Mr. - Hamilton's house nearly every day. Mrs. Hamilton used to sit in a large - chair in the middle of the room, with a heavy cowskin always by her side, - and scarce an hour passed during the day but was marked by the blood of - one of these slaves. The girls seldom passed her without her saying, "Move - faster, you <i>black gip!</i>" at the same time giving them a blow with - the cowskin over the head or shoulders, often drawing the blood. She would - then say, "Take that, you <i>black gip!</i>" continuing, "If you don't - move faster, I'll move you!" Added to the cruel lashings to which these - slaves were subjected, they were kept nearly half-starved. They seldom - knew what it was to eat a full meal. I have seen Mary contending with the - pigs for the offal thrown into the street. So much was Mary kicked and cut - to pieces, that she was oftener called "<i>pecked</i>" than by her name. - </p> - <p> - <a name="link2HCH0007" id="link2HCH0007"> - <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> - </p> - <div style="height: 4em;"> - <br /><br /><br /><br /> - </div> - <h2> - CHAPTER VII - </h2> - <p> - I lived in Master Hugh's family about seven years. During this time, I - succeeded in learning to read and write. In accomplishing this, I was - compelled to resort to various stratagems. I had no regular teacher. My - mistress, who had kindly commenced to instruct me, had, in compliance with - the advice and direction of her husband, not only ceased to instruct, but - had set her face against my being instructed by any one else. It is due, - however, to my mistress to say of her, that she did not adopt this course - of treatment immediately. She at first lacked the depravity indispensable - to shutting me up in mental darkness. It was at least necessary for her to - have some training in the exercise of irresponsible power, to make her - equal to the task of treating me as though I were a brute. - </p> - <p> - My mistress was, as I have said, a kind and tender-hearted woman; and in - the simplicity of her soul she commenced, when I first went to live with - her, to treat me as she supposed one human being ought to treat another. - In entering upon the duties of a slaveholder, she did not seem to perceive - that I sustained to her the relation of a mere chattel, and that for her - to treat me as a human being was not only wrong, but dangerously so. - Slavery proved as injurious to her as it did to me. When I went there, she - was a pious, warm, and tender-hearted woman. There was no sorrow or - suffering for which she had not a tear. She had bread for the hungry, - clothes for the naked, and comfort for every mourner that came within her - reach. Slavery soon proved its ability to divest her of these heavenly - qualities. Under its influence, the tender heart became stone, and the - lamblike disposition gave way to one of tiger-like fierceness. The first - step in her downward course was in her ceasing to instruct me. She now - commenced to practise her husband's precepts. She finally became even more - violent in her opposition than her husband himself. She was not satisfied - with simply doing as well as he had commanded; she seemed anxious to do - better. Nothing seemed to make her more angry than to see me with a - newspaper. She seemed to think that here lay the danger. I have had her - rush at me with a face made all up of fury, and snatch from me a - newspaper, in a manner that fully revealed her apprehension. She was an - apt woman; and a little experience soon demonstrated, to her satisfaction, - that education and slavery were incompatible with each other. - </p> - <p> - From this time I was most narrowly watched. If I was in a separate room - any considerable length of time, I was sure to be suspected of having a - book, and was at once called to give an account of myself. All this, - however, was too late. The first step had been taken. Mistress, in - teaching me the alphabet, had given me the <i>inch,</i> and no precaution - could prevent me from taking the <i>ell.</i> - </p> - <p> - The plan which I adopted, and the one by which I was most successful, was - that of making friends of all the little white boys whom I met in the - street. As many of these as I could, I converted into teachers. With their - kindly aid, obtained at different times and in different places, I finally - succeeded in learning to read. When I was sent of errands, I always took - my book with me, and by going one part of my errand quickly, I found time - to get a lesson before my return. I used also to carry bread with me, - enough of which was always in the house, and to which I was always - welcome; for I was much better off in this regard than many of the poor - white children in our neighborhood. This bread I used to bestow upon the - hungry little urchins, who, in return, would give me that more valuable - bread of knowledge. I am strongly tempted to give the names of two or - three of those little boys, as a testimonial of the gratitude and - affection I bear them; but prudence forbids;—not that it would - injure me, but it might embarrass them; for it is almost an unpardonable - offence to teach slaves to read in this Christian country. It is enough to - say of the dear little fellows, that they lived on Philpot Street, very - near Durgin and Bailey's ship-yard. I used to talk this matter of slavery - over with them. I would sometimes say to them, I wished I could be as free - as they would be when they got to be men. "You will be free as soon as you - are twenty-one, <i>but I am a slave for life!</i> Have not I as good a - right to be free as you have?" These words used to trouble them; they - would express for me the liveliest sympathy, and console me with the hope - that something would occur by which I might be free. - </p> - <p> - I was now about twelve years old, and the thought of being <i>a slave for - life</i> began to bear heavily upon my heart. Just about this time, I got - hold of a book entitled "The Columbian Orator." Every opportunity I got, I - used to read this book. Among much of other interesting matter, I found in - it a dialogue between a master and his slave. The slave was represented as - having run away from his master three times. The dialogue represented the - conversation which took place between them, when the slave was retaken the - third time. In this dialogue, the whole argument in behalf of slavery was - brought forward by the master, all of which was disposed of by the slave. - The slave was made to say some very smart as well as impressive things in - reply to his master—things which had the desired though unexpected - effect; for the conversation resulted in the voluntary emancipation of the - slave on the part of the master. - </p> - <p> - In the same book, I met with one of Sheridan's mighty speeches on and in - behalf of Catholic emancipation. These were choice documents to me. I read - them over and over again with unabated interest. They gave tongue to - interesting thoughts of my own soul, which had frequently flashed through - my mind, and died away for want of utterance. The moral which I gained - from the dialogue was the power of truth over the conscience of even a - slaveholder. What I got from Sheridan was a bold denunciation of slavery, - and a powerful vindication of human rights. The reading of these documents - enabled me to utter my thoughts, and to meet the arguments brought forward - to sustain slavery; but while they relieved me of one difficulty, they - brought on another even more painful than the one of which I was relieved. - The more I read, the more I was led to abhor and detest my enslavers. I - could regard them in no other light than a band of successful robbers, who - had left their homes, and gone to Africa, and stolen us from our homes, - and in a strange land reduced us to slavery. I loathed them as being the - meanest as well as the most wicked of men. As I read and contemplated the - subject, behold! that very discontentment which Master Hugh had predicted - would follow my learning to read had already come, to torment and sting my - soul to unutterable anguish. As I writhed under it, I would at times feel - that learning to read had been a curse rather than a blessing. It had - given me a view of my wretched condition, without the remedy. It opened my - eyes to the horrible pit, but to no ladder upon which to get out. In - moments of agony, I envied my fellow-slaves for their stupidity. I have - often wished myself a beast. I preferred the condition of the meanest - reptile to my own. Any thing, no matter what, to get rid of thinking! It - was this everlasting thinking of my condition that tormented me. There was - no getting rid of it. It was pressed upon me by every object within sight - or hearing, animate or inanimate. The silver trump of freedom had roused - my soul to eternal wakefulness. Freedom now appeared, to disappear no more - forever. It was heard in every sound, and seen in every thing. It was ever - present to torment me with a sense of my wretched condition. I saw nothing - without seeing it, I heard nothing without hearing it, and felt nothing - without feeling it. It looked from every star, it smiled in every calm, - breathed in every wind, and moved in every storm. - </p> - <p> - I often found myself regretting my own existence, and wishing myself dead; - and but for the hope of being free, I have no doubt but that I should have - killed myself, or done something for which I should have been killed. - While in this state of mind, I was eager to hear any one speak of slavery. - I was a ready listener. Every little while, I could hear something about - the abolitionists. It was some time before I found what the word meant. It - was always used in such connections as to make it an interesting word to - me. If a slave ran away and succeeded in getting clear, or if a slave - killed his master, set fire to a barn, or did any thing very wrong in the - mind of a slaveholder, it was spoken of as the fruit of <i>abolition.</i> - Hearing the word in this connection very often, I set about learning what - it meant. The dictionary afforded me little or no help. I found it was - "the act of abolishing;" but then I did not know what was to be abolished. - Here I was perplexed. I did not dare to ask any one about its meaning, for - I was satisfied that it was something they wanted me to know very little - about. After a patient waiting, I got one of our city papers, containing - an account of the number of petitions from the north, praying for the - abolition of slavery in the District of Columbia, and of the slave trade - between the States. From this time I understood the words <i>abolition</i> - and <i>abolitionist,</i> and always drew near when that word was spoken, - expecting to hear something of importance to myself and fellow-slaves. The - light broke in upon me by degrees. I went one day down on the wharf of Mr. - Waters; and seeing two Irishmen unloading a scow of stone, I went, - unasked, and helped them. When we had finished, one of them came to me and - asked me if I were a slave. I told him I was. He asked, "Are ye a slave - for life?" I told him that I was. The good Irishman seemed to be deeply - affected by the statement. He said to the other that it was a pity so fine - a little fellow as myself should be a slave for life. He said it was a - shame to hold me. They both advised me to run away to the north; that I - should find friends there, and that I should be free. I pretended not to - be interested in what they said, and treated them as if I did not - understand them; for I feared they might be treacherous. White men have - been known to encourage slaves to escape, and then, to get the reward, - catch them and return them to their masters. I was afraid that these - seemingly good men might use me so; but I nevertheless remembered their - advice, and from that time I resolved to run away. I looked forward to a - time at which it would be safe for me to escape. I was too young to think - of doing so immediately; besides, I wished to learn how to write, as I - might have occasion to write my own pass. I consoled myself with the hope - that I should one day find a good chance. Meanwhile, I would learn to - write. - </p> - <p> - The idea as to how I might learn to write was suggested to me by being in - Durgin and Bailey's ship-yard, and frequently seeing the ship carpenters, - after hewing, and getting a piece of timber ready for use, write on the - timber the name of that part of the ship for which it was intended. When a - piece of timber was intended for the larboard side, it would be marked - thus—"L." When a piece was for the starboard side, it would be - marked thus—"S." A piece for the larboard side forward, would be - marked thus—"L. F." When a piece was for starboard side forward, it - would be marked thus—"S. F." For larboard aft, it would be marked - thus—"L. A." For starboard aft, it would be marked thus—"S. - A." I soon learned the names of these letters, and for what they were - intended when placed upon a piece of timber in the ship-yard. I - immediately commenced copying them, and in a short time was able to make - the four letters named. After that, when I met with any boy who I knew - could write, I would tell him I could write as well as he. The next word - would be, "I don't believe you. Let me see you try it." I would then make - the letters which I had been so fortunate as to learn, and ask him to beat - that. In this way I got a good many lessons in writing, which it is quite - possible I should never have gotten in any other way. During this time, my - copy-book was the board fence, brick wall, and pavement; my pen and ink - was a lump of chalk. With these, I learned mainly how to write. I then - commenced and continued copying the Italics in Webster's Spelling Book, - until I could make them all without looking on the book. By this time, my - little Master Thomas had gone to school, and learned how to write, and had - written over a number of copy-books. These had been brought home, and - shown to some of our near neighbors, and then laid aside. My mistress used - to go to class meeting at the Wilk Street meetinghouse every Monday - afternoon, and leave me to take care of the house. When left thus, I used - to spend the time in writing in the spaces left in Master Thomas's - copy-book, copying what he had written. I continued to do this until I - could write a hand very similar to that of Master Thomas. Thus, after a - long, tedious effort for years, I finally succeeded in learning how to - write. - </p> - <p> - <a name="link2HCH0008" id="link2HCH0008"> - <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> - </p> - <div style="height: 4em;"> - <br /><br /><br /><br /> - </div> - <h2> - CHAPTER VIII - </h2> - <p> - In a very short time after I went to live at Baltimore, my old master's - youngest son Richard died; and in about three years and six months after - his death, my old master, Captain Anthony, died, leaving only his son, - Andrew, and daughter, Lucretia, to share his estate. He died while on a - visit to see his daughter at Hillsborough. Cut off thus unexpectedly, he - left no will as to the disposal of his property. It was therefore - necessary to have a valuation of the property, that it might be equally - divided between Mrs. Lucretia and Master Andrew. I was immediately sent - for, to be valued with the other property. Here again my feelings rose up - in detestation of slavery. I had now a new conception of my degraded - condition. Prior to this, I had become, if not insensible to my lot, at - least partly so. I left Baltimore with a young heart overborne with - sadness, and a soul full of apprehension. I took passage with Captain - Rowe, in the schooner Wild Cat, and, after a sail of about twenty-four - hours, I found myself near the place of my birth. I had now been absent - from it almost, if not quite, five years. I, however, remembered the place - very well. I was only about five years old when I left it, to go and live - with my old master on Colonel Lloyd's plantation; so that I was now - between ten and eleven years old. - </p> - <p> - We were all ranked together at the valuation. Men and women, old and - young, married and single, were ranked with horses, sheep, and swine. - There were horses and men, cattle and women, pigs and children, all - holding the same rank in the scale of being, and were all subjected to the - same narrow examination. Silvery-headed age and sprightly youth, maids and - matrons, had to undergo the same indelicate inspection. At this moment, I - saw more clearly than ever the brutalizing effects of slavery upon both - slave and slaveholder. - </p> - <p> - After the valuation, then came the division. I have no language to express - the high excitement and deep anxiety which were felt among us poor slaves - during this time. Our fate for life was now to be decided. We had no more - voice in that decision than the brutes among whom we were ranked. A single - word from the white men was enough—against all our wishes, prayers, - and entreaties—to sunder forever the dearest friends, dearest - kindred, and strongest ties known to human beings. In addition to the pain - of separation, there was the horrid dread of falling into the hands of - Master Andrew. He was known to us all as being a most cruel wretch,—a - common drunkard, who had, by his reckless mismanagement and profligate - dissipation, already wasted a large portion of his father's property. We - all felt that we might as well be sold at once to the Georgia traders, as - to pass into his hands; for we knew that that would be our inevitable - condition,—a condition held by us all in the utmost horror and - dread. - </p> - <p> - I suffered more anxiety than most of my fellow-slaves. I had known what it - was to be kindly treated; they had known nothing of the kind. They had - seen little or nothing of the world. They were in very deed men and women - of sorrow, and acquainted with grief. Their backs had been made familiar - with the bloody lash, so that they had become callous; mine was yet - tender; for while at Baltimore I got few whippings, and few slaves could - boast of a kinder master and mistress than myself; and the thought of - passing out of their hands into those of Master Andrew—a man who, - but a few days before, to give me a sample of his bloody disposition, took - my little brother by the throat, threw him on the ground, and with the - heel of his boot stamped upon his head till the blood gushed from his nose - and ears—was well calculated to make me anxious as to my fate. After - he had committed this savage outrage upon my brother, he turned to me, and - said that was the way he meant to serve me one of these days,—meaning, - I suppose, when I came into his possession. - </p> - <p> - Thanks to a kind Providence, I fell to the portion of Mrs. Lucretia, and - was sent immediately back to Baltimore, to live again in the family of - Master Hugh. Their joy at my return equalled their sorrow at my departure. - It was a glad day to me. I had escaped a worse than lion's jaws. I was - absent from Baltimore, for the purpose of valuation and division, just - about one month, and it seemed to have been six. - </p> - <p> - Very soon after my return to Baltimore, my mistress, Lucretia, died, - leaving her husband and one child, Amanda; and in a very short time after - her death, Master Andrew died. Now all the property of my old master, - slaves included, was in the hands of strangers,—strangers who had - had nothing to do with accumulating it. Not a slave was left free. All - remained slaves, from the youngest to the oldest. If any one thing in my - experience, more than another, served to deepen my conviction of the - infernal character of slavery, and to fill me with unutterable loathing of - slaveholders, it was their base ingratitude to my poor old grandmother. - She had served my old master faithfully from youth to old age. She had - been the source of all his wealth; she had peopled his plantation with - slaves; she had become a great grandmother in his service. She had rocked - him in infancy, attended him in childhood, served him through life, and at - his death wiped from his icy brow the cold death-sweat, and closed his - eyes forever. She was nevertheless left a slave—a slave for life—a - slave in the hands of strangers; and in their hands she saw her children, - her grandchildren, and her great-grandchildren, divided, like so many - sheep, without being gratified with the small privilege of a single word, - as to their or her own destiny. And, to cap the climax of their base - ingratitude and fiendish barbarity, my grandmother, who was now very old, - having outlived my old master and all his children, having seen the - beginning and end of all of them, and her present owners finding she was - of but little value, her frame already racked with the pains of old age, - and complete helplessness fast stealing over her once active limbs, they - took her to the woods, built her a little hut, put up a little - mud-chimney, and then made her welcome to the privilege of supporting - herself there in perfect loneliness; thus virtually turning her out to - die! If my poor old grandmother now lives, she lives to suffer in utter - loneliness; she lives to remember and mourn over the loss of children, the - loss of grandchildren, and the loss of great-grandchildren. They are, in - the language of the slave's poet, Whittier,— - </p> -<pre xml:space="preserve"> - "Gone, gone, sold and gone - To the rice swamp dank and lone, - Where the slave-whip ceaseless swings, - Where the noisome insect stings, - Where the fever-demon strews - Poison with the falling dews, - Where the sickly sunbeams glare - Through the hot and misty air:— - Gone, gone, sold and gone - To the rice swamp dank and lone, - From Virginia hills and waters— - Woe is me, my stolen daughters!" -</pre> - <p> - The hearth is desolate. The children, the unconscious children, who once - sang and danced in her presence, are gone. She gropes her way, in the - darkness of age, for a drink of water. Instead of the voices of her - children, she hears by day the moans of the dove, and by night the screams - of the hideous owl. All is gloom. The grave is at the door. And now, when - weighed down by the pains and aches of old age, when the head inclines to - the feet, when the beginning and ending of human existence meet, and - helpless infancy and painful old age combine together—at this time, - this most needful time, the time for the exercise of that tenderness and - affection which children only can exercise towards a declining parent—my - poor old grandmother, the devoted mother of twelve children, is left all - alone, in yonder little hut, before a few dim embers. She stands—she - sits—she staggers—she falls—she groans—she dies—and - there are none of her children or grandchildren present, to wipe from her - wrinkled brow the cold sweat of death, or to place beneath the sod her - fallen remains. Will not a righteous God visit for these things? - </p> - <p> - In about two years after the death of Mrs. Lucretia, Master Thomas married - his second wife. Her name was Rowena Hamilton. She was the eldest daughter - of Mr. William Hamilton. Master now lived in St. Michael's. Not long after - his marriage, a misunderstanding took place between himself and Master - Hugh; and as a means of punishing his brother, he took me from him to live - with himself at St. Michael's. Here I underwent another most painful - separation. It, however, was not so severe as the one I dreaded at the - division of property; for, during this interval, a great change had taken - place in Master Hugh and his once kind and affectionate wife. The - influence of brandy upon him, and of slavery upon her, had effected a - disastrous change in the characters of both; so that, as far as they were - concerned, I thought I had little to lose by the change. But it was not to - them that I was attached. It was to those little Baltimore boys that I - felt the strongest attachment. I had received many good lessons from them, - and was still receiving them, and the thought of leaving them was painful - indeed. I was leaving, too, without the hope of ever being allowed to - return. Master Thomas had said he would never let me return again. The - barrier betwixt himself and brother he considered impassable. - </p> - <p> - I then had to regret that I did not at least make the attempt to carry out - my resolution to run away; for the chances of success are tenfold greater - from the city than from the country. - </p> - <p> - I sailed from Baltimore for St. Michael's in the sloop Amanda, Captain - Edward Dodson. On my passage, I paid particular attention to the direction - which the steamboats took to go to Philadelphia. I found, instead of going - down, on reaching North Point they went up the bay, in a north-easterly - direction. I deemed this knowledge of the utmost importance. My - determination to run away was again revived. I resolved to wait only so - long as the offering of a favorable opportunity. When that came, I was - determined to be off. - </p> - <p> - <a name="link2HCH0009" id="link2HCH0009"> - <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> - </p> - <div style="height: 4em;"> - <br /><br /><br /><br /> - </div> - <h2> - CHAPTER IX - </h2> - <p> - I have now reached a period of my life when I can give dates. I left - Baltimore, and went to live with Master Thomas Auld, at St. Michael's, in - March, 1832. It was now more than seven years since I lived with him in - the family of my old master, on Colonel Lloyd's plantation. We of course - were now almost entire strangers to each other. He was to me a new master, - and I to him a new slave. I was ignorant of his temper and disposition; he - was equally so of mine. A very short time, however, brought us into full - acquaintance with each other. I was made acquainted with his wife not less - than with himself. They were well matched, being equally mean and cruel. I - was now, for the first time during a space of more than seven years, made - to feel the painful gnawings of hunger—a something which I had not - experienced before since I left Colonel Lloyd's plantation. It went hard - enough with me then, when I could look back to no period at which I had - enjoyed a sufficiency. It was tenfold harder after living in Master Hugh's - family, where I had always had enough to eat, and of that which was good. - I have said Master Thomas was a mean man. He was so. Not to give a slave - enough to eat, is regarded as the most aggravated development of meanness - even among slaveholders. The rule is, no matter how coarse the food, only - let there be enough of it. This is the theory; and in the part of Maryland - from which I came, it is the general practice,—though there are many - exceptions. Master Thomas gave us enough of neither coarse nor fine food. - There were four slaves of us in the kitchen—my sister Eliza, my aunt - Priscilla, Henny, and myself; and we were allowed less than a half of a - bushel of corn-meal per week, and very little else, either in the shape of - meat or vegetables. It was not enough for us to subsist upon. We were - therefore reduced to the wretched necessity of living at the expense of - our neighbors. This we did by begging and stealing, whichever came handy - in the time of need, the one being considered as legitimate as the other. - A great many times have we poor creatures been nearly perishing with - hunger, when food in abundance lay mouldering in the safe and smoke-house, - and our pious mistress was aware of the fact; and yet that mistress and - her husband would kneel every morning, and pray that God would bless them - in basket and store! - </p> - <p> - Bad as all slaveholders are, we seldom meet one destitute of every element - of character commanding respect. My master was one of this rare sort. I do - not know of one single noble act ever performed by him. The leading trait - in his character was meanness; and if there were any other element in his - nature, it was made subject to this. He was mean; and, like most other - mean men, he lacked the ability to conceal his meanness. Captain Auld was - not born a slaveholder. He had been a poor man, master only of a Bay - craft. He came into possession of all his slaves by marriage; and of all - men, adopted slaveholders are the worst. He was cruel, but cowardly. He - commanded without firmness. In the enforcement of his rules, he was at - times rigid, and at times lax. At times, he spoke to his slaves with the - firmness of Napoleon and the fury of a demon; at other times, he might - well be mistaken for an inquirer who had lost his way. He did nothing of - himself. He might have passed for a lion, but for his ears. In all things - noble which he attempted, his own meanness shone most conspicuous. His - airs, words, and actions, were the airs, words, and actions of born - slaveholders, and, being assumed, were awkward enough. He was not even a - good imitator. He possessed all the disposition to deceive, but wanted the - power. Having no resources within himself, he was compelled to be the - copyist of many, and being such, he was forever the victim of - inconsistency; and of consequence he was an object of contempt, and was - held as such even by his slaves. The luxury of having slaves of his own to - wait upon him was something new and unprepared for. He was a slaveholder - without the ability to hold slaves. He found himself incapable of managing - his slaves either by force, fear, or fraud. We seldom called him "master;" - we generally called him "Captain Auld," and were hardly disposed to title - him at all. I doubt not that our conduct had much to do with making him - appear awkward, and of consequence fretful. Our want of reverence for him - must have perplexed him greatly. He wished to have us call him master, but - lacked the firmness necessary to command us to do so. His wife used to - insist upon our calling him so, but to no purpose. In August, 1832, my - master attended a Methodist camp-meeting held in the Bay-side, Talbot - county, and there experienced religion. I indulged a faint hope that his - conversion would lead him to emancipate his slaves, and that, if he did - not do this, it would, at any rate, make him more kind and humane. I was - disappointed in both these respects. It neither made him to be humane to - his slaves, nor to emancipate them. If it had any effect on his character, - it made him more cruel and hateful in all his ways; for I believe him to - have been a much worse man after his conversion than before. Prior to his - conversion, he relied upon his own depravity to shield and sustain him in - his savage barbarity; but after his conversion, he found religious - sanction and support for his slaveholding cruelty. He made the greatest - pretensions to piety. His house was the house of prayer. He prayed - morning, noon, and night. He very soon distinguished himself among his - brethren, and was soon made a class-leader and exhorter. His activity in - revivals was great, and he proved himself an instrument in the hands of - the church in converting many souls. His house was the preachers' home. - They used to take great pleasure in coming there to put up; for while he - starved us, he stuffed them. We have had three or four preachers there at - a time. The names of those who used to come most frequently while I lived - there, were Mr. Storks, Mr. Ewery, Mr. Humphry, and Mr. Hickey. I have - also seen Mr. George Cookman at our house. We slaves loved Mr. Cookman. We - believed him to be a good man. We thought him instrumental in getting Mr. - Samuel Harrison, a very rich slaveholder, to emancipate his slaves; and by - some means got the impression that he was laboring to effect the - emancipation of all the slaves. When he was at our house, we were sure to - be called in to prayers. When the others were there, we were sometimes - called in and sometimes not. Mr. Cookman took more notice of us than - either of the other ministers. He could not come among us without - betraying his sympathy for us, and, stupid as we were, we had the sagacity - to see it. - </p> - <p> - While I lived with my master in St. Michael's, there was a white young - man, a Mr. Wilson, who proposed to keep a Sabbath school for the - instruction of such slaves as might be disposed to learn to read the New - Testament. We met but three times, when Mr. West and Mr. Fairbanks, both - class-leaders, with many others, came upon us with sticks and other - missiles, drove us off, and forbade us to meet again. Thus ended our - little Sabbath school in the pious town of St. Michael's. - </p> - <p> - I have said my master found religious sanction for his cruelty. As an - example, I will state one of many facts going to prove the charge. I have - seen him tie up a lame young woman, and whip her with a heavy cowskin upon - her naked shoulders, causing the warm red blood to drip; and, in - justification of the bloody deed, he would quote this passage of Scripture—"He - that knoweth his master's will, and doeth it not, shall be beaten with - many stripes." - </p> - <p> - Master would keep this lacerated young woman tied up in this horrid - situation four or five hours at a time. I have known him to tie her up - early in the morning, and whip her before breakfast; leave her, go to his - store, return at dinner, and whip her again, cutting her in the places - already made raw with his cruel lash. The secret of master's cruelty - toward "Henny" is found in the fact of her being almost helpless. When - quite a child, she fell into the fire, and burned herself horribly. Her - hands were so burnt that she never got the use of them. She could do very - little but bear heavy burdens. She was to master a bill of expense; and as - he was a mean man, she was a constant offence to him. He seemed desirous - of getting the poor girl out of existence. He gave her away once to his - sister; but, being a poor gift, she was not disposed to keep her. Finally, - my benevolent master, to use his own words, "set her adrift to take care - of herself." Here was a recently-converted man, holding on upon the - mother, and at the same time turning out her helpless child, to starve and - die! Master Thomas was one of the many pious slaveholders who hold slaves - for the very charitable purpose of taking care of them. - </p> - <p> - My master and myself had quite a number of differences. He found me - unsuitable to his purpose. My city life, he said, had had a very - pernicious effect upon me. It had almost ruined me for every good purpose, - and fitted me for every thing which was bad. One of my greatest faults was - that of letting his horse run away, and go down to his father-in-law's - farm, which was about five miles from St. Michael's. I would then have to - go after it. My reason for this kind of carelessness, or carefulness, was, - that I could always get something to eat when I went there. Master William - Hamilton, my master's father-in-law, always gave his slaves enough to eat. - I never left there hungry, no matter how great the need of my speedy - return. Master Thomas at length said he would stand it no longer. I had - lived with him nine months, during which time he had given me a number of - severe whippings, all to no good purpose. He resolved to put me out, as he - said, to be broken; and, for this purpose, he let me for one year to a man - named Edward Covey. Mr. Covey was a poor man, a farm-renter. He rented the - place upon which he lived, as also the hands with which he tilled it. Mr. - Covey had acquired a very high reputation for breaking young slaves, and - this reputation was of immense value to him. It enabled him to get his - farm tilled with much less expense to himself than he could have had it - done without such a reputation. Some slaveholders thought it not much loss - to allow Mr. Covey to have their slaves one year, for the sake of the - training to which they were subjected, without any other compensation. He - could hire young help with great ease, in consequence of this reputation. - Added to the natural good qualities of Mr. Covey, he was a professor of - religion—a pious soul—a member and a class-leader in the - Methodist church. All of this added weight to his reputation as a - "nigger-breaker." I was aware of all the facts, having been made - acquainted with them by a young man who had lived there. I nevertheless - made the change gladly; for I was sure of getting enough to eat, which is - not the smallest consideration to a hungry man. - </p> - <p> - <a name="link2HCH0010" id="link2HCH0010"> - <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> - </p> - <div style="height: 4em;"> - <br /><br /><br /><br /> - </div> - <h2> - CHAPTER X - </h2> - <p> - I had left Master Thomas's house, and went to live with Mr. Covey, on the - 1st of January, 1833. I was now, for the first time in my life, a field - hand. In my new employment, I found myself even more awkward than a - country boy appeared to be in a large city. I had been at my new home but - one week before Mr. Covey gave me a very severe whipping, cutting my back, - causing the blood to run, and raising ridges on my flesh as large as my - little finger. The details of this affair are as follows: Mr. Covey sent - me, very early in the morning of one of our coldest days in the month of - January, to the woods, to get a load of wood. He gave me a team of - unbroken oxen. He told me which was the in-hand ox, and which the off-hand - one. He then tied the end of a large rope around the horns of the in-hand - ox, and gave me the other end of it, and told me, if the oxen started to - run, that I must hold on upon the rope. I had never driven oxen before, - and of course I was very awkward. I, however, succeeded in getting to the - edge of the woods with little difficulty; but I had got a very few rods - into the woods, when the oxen took fright, and started full tilt, carrying - the cart against trees, and over stumps, in the most frightful manner. I - expected every moment that my brains would be dashed out against the - trees. After running thus for a considerable distance, they finally upset - the cart, dashing it with great force against a tree, and threw themselves - into a dense thicket. How I escaped death, I do not know. There I was, - entirely alone, in a thick wood, in a place new to me. My cart was upset - and shattered, my oxen were entangled among the young trees, and there was - none to help me. After a long spell of effort, I succeeded in getting my - cart righted, my oxen disentangled, and again yoked to the cart. I now - proceeded with my team to the place where I had, the day before, been - chopping wood, and loaded my cart pretty heavily, thinking in this way to - tame my oxen. I then proceeded on my way home. I had now consumed one half - of the day. I got out of the woods safely, and now felt out of danger. I - stopped my oxen to open the woods gate; and just as I did so, before I - could get hold of my ox-rope, the oxen again started, rushed through the - gate, catching it between the wheel and the body of the cart, tearing it - to pieces, and coming within a few inches of crushing me against the - gate-post. Thus twice, in one short day, I escaped death by the merest - chance. On my return, I told Mr. Covey what had happened, and how it - happened. He ordered me to return to the woods again immediately. I did - so, and he followed on after me. Just as I got into the woods, he came up - and told me to stop my cart, and that he would teach me how to trifle away - my time, and break gates. He then went to a large gum-tree, and with his - axe cut three large switches, and, after trimming them up neatly with his - pocketknife, he ordered me to take off my clothes. I made him no answer, - but stood with my clothes on. He repeated his order. I still made him no - answer, nor did I move to strip myself. Upon this he rushed at me with the - fierceness of a tiger, tore off my clothes, and lashed me till he had worn - out his switches, cutting me so savagely as to leave the marks visible for - a long time after. This whipping was the first of a number just like it, - and for similar offences. - </p> - <p> - I lived with Mr. Covey one year. During the first six months, of that - year, scarce a week passed without his whipping me. I was seldom free from - a sore back. My awkwardness was almost always his excuse for whipping me. - We were worked fully up to the point of endurance. Long before day we were - up, our horses fed, and by the first approach of day we were off to the - field with our hoes and ploughing teams. Mr. Covey gave us enough to eat, - but scarce time to eat it. We were often less than five minutes taking our - meals. We were often in the field from the first approach of day till its - last lingering ray had left us; and at saving-fodder time, midnight often - caught us in the field binding blades. - </p> - <p> - Covey would be out with us. The way he used to stand it, was this. He - would spend the most of his afternoons in bed. He would then come out - fresh in the evening, ready to urge us on with his words, example, and - frequently with the whip. Mr. Covey was one of the few slaveholders who - could and did work with his hands. He was a hard-working man. He knew by - himself just what a man or a boy could do. There was no deceiving him. His - work went on in his absence almost as well as in his presence; and he had - the faculty of making us feel that he was ever present with us. This he - did by surprising us. He seldom approached the spot where we were at work - openly, if he could do it secretly. He always aimed at taking us by - surprise. Such was his cunning, that we used to call him, among ourselves, - "the snake." When we were at work in the cornfield, he would sometimes - crawl on his hands and knees to avoid detection, and all at once he would - rise nearly in our midst, and scream out, "Ha, ha! Come, come! Dash on, - dash on!" This being his mode of attack, it was never safe to stop a - single minute. His comings were like a thief in the night. He appeared to - us as being ever at hand. He was under every tree, behind every stump, in - every bush, and at every window, on the plantation. He would sometimes - mount his horse, as if bound to St. Michael's, a distance of seven miles, - and in half an hour afterwards you would see him coiled up in the corner - of the wood-fence, watching every motion of the slaves. He would, for this - purpose, leave his horse tied up in the woods. Again, he would sometimes - walk up to us, and give us orders as though he was upon the point of - starting on a long journey, turn his back upon us, and make as though he - was going to the house to get ready; and, before he would get half way - thither, he would turn short and crawl into a fence-corner, or behind some - tree, and there watch us till the going down of the sun. - </p> - <p> - Mr. Covey's <i>forte</i> consisted in his power to deceive. His life was devoted - to planning and perpetrating the grossest deceptions. Every thing he - possessed in the shape of learning or religion, he made conform to his - disposition to deceive. He seemed to think himself equal to deceiving the - Almighty. He would make a short prayer in the morning, and a long prayer - at night; and, strange as it may seem, few men would at times appear more - devotional than he. The exercises of his family devotions were always - commenced with singing; and, as he was a very poor singer himself, the - duty of raising the hymn generally came upon me. He would read his hymn, - and nod at me to commence. I would at times do so; at others, I would not. - My non-compliance would almost always produce much confusion. To show - himself independent of me, he would start and stagger through with his - hymn in the most discordant manner. In this state of mind, he prayed with - more than ordinary spirit. Poor man! such was his disposition, and success - at deceiving, I do verily believe that he sometimes deceived himself into - the solemn belief, that he was a sincere worshipper of the most high God; - and this, too, at a time when he may be said to have been guilty of - compelling his woman slave to commit the sin of adultery. The facts in the - case are these: Mr. Covey was a poor man; he was just commencing in life; - he was only able to buy one slave; and, shocking as is the fact, he bought - her, as he said, for <i>a breeder</i>. This woman was named Caroline. Mr. Covey - bought her from Mr. Thomas Lowe, about six miles from St. Michael's. She - was a large, able-bodied woman, about twenty years old. She had already - given birth to one child, which proved her to be just what he wanted. - After buying her, he hired a married man of Mr. Samuel Harrison, to live - with him one year; and him he used to fasten up with her every night! The - result was, that, at the end of the year, the miserable woman gave birth - to twins. At this result Mr. Covey seemed to be highly pleased, both with - the man and the wretched woman. Such was his joy, and that of his wife, - that nothing they could do for Caroline during her confinement was too - good, or too hard, to be done. The children were regarded as being quite - an addition to his wealth. - </p> - <p> - If at any one time of my life more than another, I was made to drink the - bitterest dregs of slavery, that time was during the first six months of - my stay with Mr. Covey. We were worked in all weathers. It was never too - hot or too cold; it could never rain, blow, hail, or snow, too hard for us - to work in the field. Work, work, work, was scarcely more the order of the - day than of the night. The longest days were too short for him, and the - shortest nights too long for him. I was somewhat unmanageable when I first - went there, but a few months of this discipline tamed me. Mr. Covey - succeeded in breaking me. I was broken in body, soul, and spirit. My - natural elasticity was crushed, my intellect languished, the disposition - to read departed, the cheerful spark that lingered about my eye died; the - dark night of slavery closed in upon me; and behold a man transformed into - a brute! - </p> - <p> - Sunday was my only leisure time. I spent this in a sort of beast-like - stupor, between sleep and wake, under some large tree. At times I would - rise up, a flash of energetic freedom would dart through my soul, - accompanied with a faint beam of hope, that flickered for a moment, and - then vanished. I sank down again, mourning over my wretched condition. I - was sometimes prompted to take my life, and that of Covey, but was - prevented by a combination of hope and fear. My sufferings on this - plantation seem now like a dream rather than a stern reality. - </p> - <p> - Our house stood within a few rods of the Chesapeake Bay, whose broad bosom - was ever white with sails from every quarter of the habitable globe. Those - beautiful vessels, robed in purest white, so delightful to the eye of - freemen, were to me so many shrouded ghosts, to terrify and torment me - with thoughts of my wretched condition. I have often, in the deep - stillness of a summer's Sabbath, stood all alone upon the lofty banks of - that noble bay, and traced, with saddened heart and tearful eye, the - countless number of sails moving off to the mighty ocean. The sight of - these always affected me powerfully. My thoughts would compel utterance; - and there, with no audience but the Almighty, I would pour out my soul's - complaint, in my rude way, with an apostrophe to the moving multitude of - ships:— - </p> - <p> - "You are loosed from your moorings, and are free; I am fast in my chains, - and am a slave! You move merrily before the gentle gale, and I sadly - before the bloody whip! You are freedom's swift-winged angels, that fly - round the world; I am confined in bands of iron! O that I were free! O, - that I were on one of your gallant decks, and under your protecting wing! - Alas! betwixt me and you, the turbid waters roll. Go on, go on. O that I - could also go! Could I but swim! If I could fly! O, why was I born a man, - of whom to make a brute! The glad ship is gone; she hides in the dim - distance. I am left in the hottest hell of unending slavery. O God, save - me! God, deliver me! Let me be free! Is there any God? Why am I a slave? I - will run away. I will not stand it. Get caught, or get clear, I'll try it. - I had as well die with ague as the fever. I have only one life to lose. I - had as well be killed running as die standing. Only think of it; one - hundred miles straight north, and I am free! Try it? Yes! God helping me, - I will. It cannot be that I shall live and die a slave. I will take to the - water. This very bay shall yet bear me into freedom. The steamboats - steered in a north-east course from North Point. I will do the same; and - when I get to the head of the bay, I will turn my canoe adrift, and walk - straight through Delaware into Pennsylvania. When I get there, I shall not - be required to have a pass; I can travel without being disturbed. Let but - the first opportunity offer, and, come what will, I am off. Meanwhile, I - will try to bear up under the yoke. I am not the only slave in the world. - Why should I fret? I can bear as much as any of them. Besides, I am but a - boy, and all boys are bound to some one. It may be that my misery in - slavery will only increase my happiness when I get free. There is a better - day coming." - </p> - <p> - Thus I used to think, and thus I used to speak to myself; goaded almost to - madness at one moment, and at the next reconciling myself to my wretched - lot. - </p> - <p> - I have already intimated that my condition was much worse, during the - first six months of my stay at Mr. Covey's, than in the last six. The - circumstances leading to the change in Mr. Covey's course toward me form - an epoch in my humble history. You have seen how a man was made a slave; - you shall see how a slave was made a man. On one of the hottest days of - the month of August, 1833, Bill Smith, William Hughes, a slave named Eli, - and myself, were engaged in fanning wheat. Hughes was clearing the fanned - wheat from before the fan. Eli was turning, Smith was feeding, and I was - carrying wheat to the fan. The work was simple, requiring strength rather - than intellect; yet, to one entirely unused to such work, it came very - hard. About three o'clock of that day, I broke down; my strength failed - me; I was seized with a violent aching of the head, attended with extreme - dizziness; I trembled in every limb. Finding what was coming, I nerved - myself up, feeling it would never do to stop work. I stood as long as I - could stagger to the hopper with grain. When I could stand no longer, I - fell, and felt as if held down by an immense weight. The fan of course - stopped; every one had his own work to do; and no one could do the work of - the other, and have his own go on at the same time. - </p> - <p> - Mr. Covey was at the house, about one hundred yards from the treading-yard - where we were fanning. On hearing the fan stop, he left immediately, and - came to the spot where we were. He hastily inquired what the matter was. - Bill answered that I was sick, and there was no one to bring wheat to the - fan. I had by this time crawled away under the side of the post and - rail-fence by which the yard was enclosed, hoping to find relief by - getting out of the sun. He then asked where I was. He was told by one of - the hands. He came to the spot, and, after looking at me awhile, asked me - what was the matter. I told him as well as I could, for I scarce had - strength to speak. He then gave me a savage kick in the side, and told me - to get up. I tried to do so, but fell back in the attempt. He gave me - another kick, and again told me to rise. I again tried, and succeeded in - gaining my feet; but, stooping to get the tub with which I was feeding the - fan, I again staggered and fell. While down in this situation, Mr. Covey - took up the hickory slat with which Hughes had been striking off the - half-bushel measure, and with it gave me a heavy blow upon the head, - making a large wound, and the blood ran freely; and with this again told - me to get up. I made no effort to comply, having now made up my mind to - let him do his worst. In a short time after receiving this blow, my head - grew better. Mr. Covey had now left me to my fate. At this moment I - resolved, for the first time, to go to my master, enter a complaint, and - ask his protection. In order to do this, I must that afternoon walk seven - miles; and this, under the circumstances, was truly a severe undertaking. - I was exceedingly feeble; made so as much by the kicks and blows which I - received, as by the severe fit of sickness to which I had been subjected. - I, however, watched my chance, while Covey was looking in an opposite - direction, and started for St. Michael's. I succeeded in getting a - considerable distance on my way to the woods, when Covey discovered me, - and called after me to come back, threatening what he would do if I did - not come. I disregarded both his calls and his threats, and made my way to - the woods as fast as my feeble state would allow; and thinking I might be - overhauled by him if I kept the road, I walked through the woods, keeping - far enough from the road to avoid detection, and near enough to prevent - losing my way. I had not gone far before my little strength again failed - me. I could go no farther. I fell down, and lay for a considerable time. - The blood was yet oozing from the wound on my head. For a time I thought I - should bleed to death; and think now that I should have done so, but that - the blood so matted my hair as to stop the wound. After lying there about - three quarters of an hour, I nerved myself up again, and started on my - way, through bogs and briers, barefooted and bareheaded, tearing my feet - sometimes at nearly every step; and after a journey of about seven miles, - occupying some five hours to perform it, I arrived at master's store. I - then presented an appearance enough to affect any but a heart of iron. - From the crown of my head to my feet, I was covered with blood. My hair - was all clotted with dust and blood; my shirt was stiff with blood. I - suppose I looked like a man who had escaped a den of wild beasts, and - barely escaped them. In this state I appeared before my master, humbly - entreating him to interpose his authority for my protection. I told him - all the circumstances as well as I could, and it seemed, as I spoke, at - times to affect him. He would then walk the floor, and seek to justify - Covey by saying he expected I deserved it. He asked me what I wanted. I - told him, to let me get a new home; that as sure as I lived with Mr. Covey - again, I should live with but to die with him; that Covey would surely - kill me; he was in a fair way for it. Master Thomas ridiculed the idea - that there was any danger of Mr. Covey's killing me, and said that he knew - Mr. Covey; that he was a good man, and that he could not think of taking - me from him; that, should he do so, he would lose the whole year's wages; - that I belonged to Mr. Covey for one year, and that I must go back to him, - come what might; and that I must not trouble him with any more stories, or - that he would himself <i>get hold of me</i>. After threatening me thus, he gave - me a very large dose of salts, telling me that I might remain in St. - Michael's that night, (it being quite late,) but that I must be off back - to Mr. Covey's early in the morning; and that if I did not, he would <i>get - hold of me,</i> which meant that he would whip me. I remained all night, - and, according to his orders, I started off to Covey's in the morning, - (Saturday morning,) wearied in body and broken in spirit. I got no supper - that night, or breakfast that morning. I reached Covey's about nine - o'clock; and just as I was getting over the fence that divided Mrs. Kemp's - fields from ours, out ran Covey with his cowskin, to give me another - whipping. Before he could reach me, I succeeded in getting to the - cornfield; and as the corn was very high, it afforded me the means of - hiding. He seemed very angry, and searched for me a long time. My behavior - was altogether unaccountable. He finally gave up the chase, thinking, I - suppose, that I must come home for something to eat; he would give himself - no further trouble in looking for me. I spent that day mostly in the - woods, having the alternative before me,—to go home and be whipped - to death, or stay in the woods and be starved to death. That night, I fell - in with Sandy Jenkins, a slave with whom I was somewhat acquainted. Sandy - had a free wife who lived about four miles from Mr. Covey's; and it being - Saturday, he was on his way to see her. I told him my circumstances, and - he very kindly invited me to go home with him. I went home with him, and - talked this whole matter over, and got his advice as to what course it was - best for me to pursue. I found Sandy an old adviser. He told me, with - great solemnity, I must go back to Covey; but that before I went, I must - go with him into another part of the woods, where there was a certain <i>root,</i> - which, if I would take some of it with me, carrying it <i>always on my - right side,</i> would render it impossible for Mr. Covey, or any other - white man, to whip me. He said he had carried it for years; and since he - had done so, he had never received a blow, and never expected to while he - carried it. I at first rejected the idea, that the simple carrying of a - root in my pocket would have any such effect as he had said, and was not - disposed to take it; but Sandy impressed the necessity with much - earnestness, telling me it could do no harm, if it did no good. To please - him, I at length took the root, and, according to his direction, carried - it upon my right side. This was Sunday morning. I immediately started for - home; and upon entering the yard gate, out came Mr. Covey on his way to - meeting. He spoke to me very kindly, bade me drive the pigs from a lot - near by, and passed on towards the church. Now, this singular conduct of - Mr. Covey really made me begin to think that there was something in the - <i>root</i> which Sandy had given me; and had it been on any other day than - Sunday, I could have attributed the conduct to no other cause than the - influence of that root; and as it was, I was half inclined to think the <i>root</i> - to be something more than I at first had taken it to be. All went well - till Monday morning. On this morning, the virtue of the <i>root</i> was fully - tested. Long before daylight, I was called to go and rub, curry, and feed, - the horses. I obeyed, and was glad to obey. But whilst thus engaged, - whilst in the act of throwing down some blades from the loft, Mr. Covey - entered the stable with a long rope; and just as I was half out of the - loft, he caught hold of my legs, and was about tying me. As soon as I - found what he was up to, I gave a sudden spring, and as I did so, he - holding to my legs, I was brought sprawling on the stable floor. Mr. Covey - seemed now to think he had me, and could do what he pleased; but at this - moment—from whence came the spirit I don't know—I resolved to - fight; and, suiting my action to the resolution, I seized Covey hard by - the throat; and as I did so, I rose. He held on to me, and I to him. My - resistance was so entirely unexpected that Covey seemed taken all aback. - He trembled like a leaf. This gave me assurance, and I held him uneasy, - causing the blood to run where I touched him with the ends of my fingers. - Mr. Covey soon called out to Hughes for help. Hughes came, and, while - Covey held me, attempted to tie my right hand. While he was in the act of - doing so, I watched my chance, and gave him a heavy kick close under the - ribs. This kick fairly sickened Hughes, so that he left me in the hands of - Mr. Covey. This kick had the effect of not only weakening Hughes, but - Covey also. When he saw Hughes bending over with pain, his courage - quailed. He asked me if I meant to persist in my resistance. I told him I - did, come what might; that he had used me like a brute for six months, and - that I was determined to be used so no longer. With that, he strove to - drag me to a stick that was lying just out of the stable door. He meant to - knock me down. But just as he was leaning over to get the stick, I seized - him with both hands by his collar, and brought him by a sudden snatch to - the ground. By this time, Bill came. Covey called upon him for assistance. - Bill wanted to know what he could do. Covey said, "Take hold of him, take - hold of him!" Bill said his master hired him out to work, and not to help - to whip me; so he left Covey and myself to fight our own battle out. We - were at it for nearly two hours. Covey at length let me go, puffing and - blowing at a great rate, saying that if I had not resisted, he would not - have whipped me half so much. The truth was, that he had not whipped me at - all. I considered him as getting entirely the worst end of the bargain; - for he had drawn no blood from me, but I had from him. The whole six - months afterwards, that I spent with Mr. Covey, he never laid the weight - of his finger upon me in anger. He would occasionally say, he didn't want - to get hold of me again. "No," thought I, "you need not; for you will come - off worse than you did before." - </p> - <p> - This battle with Mr. Covey was the turning-point in my career as a slave. - It rekindled the few expiring embers of freedom, and revived within me a - sense of my own manhood. It recalled the departed self-confidence, and - inspired me again with a determination to be free. The gratification - afforded by the triumph was a full compensation for whatever else might - follow, even death itself. He only can understand the deep satisfaction - which I experienced, who has himself repelled by force the bloody arm of - slavery. I felt as I never felt before. It was a glorious resurrection, - from the tomb of slavery, to the heaven of freedom. My long-crushed spirit - rose, cowardice departed, bold defiance took its place; and I now resolved - that, however long I might remain a slave in form, the day had passed - forever when I could be a slave in fact. I did not hesitate to let it be - known of me, that the white man who expected to succeed in whipping, must - also succeed in killing me. - </p> - <p> - From this time I was never again what might be called fairly whipped, - though I remained a slave four years afterwards. I had several fights, but - was never whipped. - </p> - <p> - It was for a long time a matter of surprise to me why Mr. Covey did not - immediately have me taken by the constable to the whipping-post, and there - regularly whipped for the crime of raising my hand against a white man in - defence of myself. And the only explanation I can now think of does not - entirely satisfy me; but such as it is, I will give it. Mr. Covey enjoyed - the most unbounded reputation for being a first-rate overseer and - negro-breaker. It was of considerable importance to him. That reputation - was at stake; and had he sent me—a boy about sixteen years old—to - the public whipping-post, his reputation would have been lost; so, to save - his reputation, he suffered me to go unpunished. - </p> - <p> - My term of actual service to Mr. Edward Covey ended on Christmas day, - 1833. The days between Christmas and New Year's day are allowed as - holidays; and, accordingly, we were not required to perform any labor, - more than to feed and take care of the stock. This time we regarded as our - own, by the grace of our masters; and we therefore used or abused it - nearly as we pleased. Those of us who had families at a distance, were - generally allowed to spend the whole six days in their society. This time, - however, was spent in various ways. The staid, sober, thinking and - industrious ones of our number would employ themselves in making - corn-brooms, mats, horse-collars, and baskets; and another class of us - would spend the time in hunting opossums, hares, and coons. But by far the - larger part engaged in such sports and merriments as playing ball, - wrestling, running foot-races, fiddling, dancing, and drinking whisky; and - this latter mode of spending the time was by far the most agreeable to the - feelings of our masters. A slave who would work during the holidays was - considered by our masters as scarcely deserving them. He was regarded as - one who rejected the favor of his master. It was deemed a disgrace not to - get drunk at Christmas; and he was regarded as lazy indeed, who had not - provided himself with the necessary means, during the year, to get whisky - enough to last him through Christmas. - </p> - <p> - From what I know of the effect of these holidays upon the slave, I believe - them to be among the most effective means in the hands of the slaveholder - in keeping down the spirit of insurrection. Were the slaveholders at once - to abandon this practice, I have not the slightest doubt it would lead to - an immediate insurrection among the slaves. These holidays serve as - conductors, or safety-valves, to carry off the rebellious spirit of - enslaved humanity. But for these, the slave would be forced up to the - wildest desperation; and woe betide the slaveholder, the day he ventures - to remove or hinder the operation of those conductors! I warn him that, in - such an event, a spirit will go forth in their midst, more to be dreaded - than the most appalling earthquake. - </p> - <p> - The holidays are part and parcel of the gross fraud, wrong, and inhumanity - of slavery. They are professedly a custom established by the benevolence - of the slaveholders; but I undertake to say, it is the result of - selfishness, and one of the grossest frauds committed upon the - down-trodden slave. They do not give the slaves this time because they - would not like to have their work during its continuance, but because they - know it would be unsafe to deprive them of it. This will be seen by the - fact, that the slaveholders like to have their slaves spend those days - just in such a manner as to make them as glad of their ending as of their - beginning. Their object seems to be, to disgust their slaves with freedom, - by plunging them into the lowest depths of dissipation. For instance, the - slaveholders not only like to see the slave drink of his own accord, but - will adopt various plans to make him drunk. One plan is, to make bets on - their slaves, as to who can drink the most whisky without getting drunk; - and in this way they succeed in getting whole multitudes to drink to - excess. Thus, when the slave asks for virtuous freedom, the cunning - slaveholder, knowing his ignorance, cheats him with a dose of vicious - dissipation, artfully labelled with the name of liberty. The most of us - used to drink it down, and the result was just what might be supposed; - many of us were led to think that there was little to choose between - liberty and slavery. We felt, and very properly too, that we had almost as - well be slaves to man as to rum. So, when the holidays ended, we staggered - up from the filth of our wallowing, took a long breath, and marched to the - field,—feeling, upon the whole, rather glad to go, from what our - master had deceived us into a belief was freedom, back to the arms of - slavery. - </p> - <p> - I have said that this mode of treatment is a part of the whole system of - fraud and inhumanity of slavery. It is so. The mode here adopted to - disgust the slave with freedom, by allowing him to see only the abuse of - it, is carried out in other things. For instance, a slave loves molasses; - he steals some. His master, in many cases, goes off to town, and buys a - large quantity; he returns, takes his whip, and commands the slave to eat - the molasses, until the poor fellow is made sick at the very mention of - it. The same mode is sometimes adopted to make the slaves refrain from - asking for more food than their regular allowance. A slave runs through - his allowance, and applies for more. His master is enraged at him; but, - not willing to send him off without food, gives him more than is - necessary, and compels him to eat it within a given time. Then, if he - complains that he cannot eat it, he is said to be satisfied neither full - nor fasting, and is whipped for being hard to please! I have an abundance - of such illustrations of the same principle, drawn from my own - observation, but think the cases I have cited sufficient. The practice is - a very common one. - </p> - <p> - On the first of January, 1834, I left Mr. Covey, and went to live with Mr. - William Freeland, who lived about three miles from St. Michael's. I soon - found Mr. Freeland a very different man from Mr. Covey. Though not rich, - he was what would be called an educated southern gentleman. Mr. Covey, as - I have shown, was a well-trained negro-breaker and slave-driver. The - former (slaveholder though he was) seemed to possess some regard for - honor, some reverence for justice, and some respect for humanity. The - latter seemed totally insensible to all such sentiments. Mr. Freeland had - many of the faults peculiar to slaveholders, such as being very passionate - and fretful; but I must do him the justice to say, that he was exceedingly - free from those degrading vices to which Mr. Covey was constantly - addicted. The one was open and frank, and we always knew where to find - him. The other was a most artful deceiver, and could be understood only by - such as were skilful enough to detect his cunningly-devised frauds. - Another advantage I gained in my new master was, he made no pretensions - to, or profession of, religion; and this, in my opinion, was truly a great - advantage. I assert most unhesitatingly, that the religion of the south is - a mere covering for the most horrid crimes,—a justifier of the most - appalling barbarity,—a sanctifier of the most hateful frauds,—and - a dark shelter under, which the darkest, foulest, grossest, and most - infernal deeds of slaveholders find the strongest protection. Were I to be - again reduced to the chains of slavery, next to that enslavement, I should - regard being the slave of a religious master the greatest calamity that - could befall me. For of all slaveholders with whom I have ever met, - religious slaveholders are the worst. I have ever found them the meanest - and basest, the most cruel and cowardly, of all others. It was my unhappy - lot not only to belong to a religious slaveholder, but to live in a - community of such religionists. Very near Mr. Freeland lived the Rev. - Daniel Weeden, and in the same neighborhood lived the Rev. Rigby Hopkins. - These were members and ministers in the Reformed Methodist Church. Mr. - Weeden owned, among others, a woman slave, whose name I have forgotten. - This woman's back, for weeks, was kept literally raw, made so by the lash - of this merciless, <i>religious</i> wretch. He used to hire hands. His - maxim was, Behave well or behave ill, it is the duty of a master - occasionally to whip a slave, to remind him of his master's authority. - Such was his theory, and such his practice. - </p> - <p> - Mr. Hopkins was even worse than Mr. Weeden. His chief boast was his - ability to manage slaves. The peculiar feature of his government was that - of whipping slaves in advance of deserving it. He always managed to have - one or more of his slaves to whip every Monday morning. He did this to - alarm their fears, and strike terror into those who escaped. His plan was - to whip for the smallest offences, to prevent the commission of large - ones. Mr. Hopkins could always find some excuse for whipping a slave. It - would astonish one, unaccustomed to a slaveholding life, to see with what - wonderful ease a slaveholder can find things, of which to make occasion to - whip a slave. A mere look, word, or motion,—a mistake, accident, or - want of power,—are all matters for which a slave may be whipped at - any time. Does a slave look dissatisfied? It is said, he has the devil in - him, and it must be whipped out. Does he speak loudly when spoken to by - his master? Then he is getting high-minded, and should be taken down a - button-hole lower. Does he forget to pull off his hat at the approach of a - white person? Then he is wanting in reverence, and should be whipped for - it. Does he ever venture to vindicate his conduct, when censured for it? - Then he is guilty of impudence,—one of the greatest crimes of which - a slave can be guilty. Does he ever venture to suggest a different mode of - doing things from that pointed out by his master? He is indeed - presumptuous, and getting above himself; and nothing less than a flogging - will do for him. Does he, while ploughing, break a plough,—or, while - hoeing, break a hoe? It is owing to his carelessness, and for it a slave - must always be whipped. Mr. Hopkins could always find something of this - sort to justify the use of the lash, and he seldom failed to embrace such - opportunities. There was not a man in the whole county, with whom the - slaves who had the getting their own home, would not prefer to live, - rather than with this Rev. Mr. Hopkins. And yet there was not a man any - where round, who made higher professions of religion, or was more active - in revivals,—more attentive to the class, love-feast, prayer and - preaching meetings, or more devotional in his family,—that prayed - earlier, later, louder, and longer,—than this same reverend - slave-driver, Rigby Hopkins. - </p> - <p> - But to return to Mr. Freeland, and to my experience while in his - employment. He, like Mr. Covey, gave us enough to eat; but, unlike Mr. - Covey, he also gave us sufficient time to take our meals. He worked us - hard, but always between sunrise and sunset. He required a good deal of - work to be done, but gave us good tools with which to work. His farm was - large, but he employed hands enough to work it, and with ease, compared - with many of his neighbors. My treatment, while in his employment, was - heavenly, compared with what I experienced at the hands of Mr. Edward - Covey. - </p> - <p> - Mr. Freeland was himself the owner of but two slaves. Their names were - Henry Harris and John Harris. The rest of his hands he hired. These - consisted of myself, Sandy Jenkins,* and Handy Caldwell. - </p> -<pre xml:space="preserve"> - *This is the same man who gave me the roots to prevent my - being whipped by Mr. Covey. He was "a clever soul." We used - frequently to talk about the fight with Covey, and as often - as we did so, he would claim my success as the result of the - roots which he gave me. This superstition is very common - among the more ignorant slaves. A slave seldom dies but that - his death is attributed to trickery. -</pre> - <p> - Henry and John were quite intelligent, and in a very little while after I - went there, I succeeded in creating in them a strong desire to learn how - to read. This desire soon sprang up in the others also. They very soon - mustered up some old spelling-books, and nothing would do but that I must - keep a Sabbath school. I agreed to do so, and accordingly devoted my - Sundays to teaching these my loved fellow-slaves how to read. Neither of - them knew his letters when I went there. Some of the slaves of the - neighboring farms found what was going on, and also availed themselves of - this little opportunity to learn to read. It was understood, among all who - came, that there must be as little display about it as possible. It was - necessary to keep our religious masters at St. Michael's unacquainted with - the fact, that, instead of spending the Sabbath in wrestling, boxing, and - drinking whisky, we were trying to learn how to read the will of God; for - they had much rather see us engaged in those degrading sports, than to see - us behaving like intellectual, moral, and accountable beings. My blood - boils as I think of the bloody manner in which Messrs. Wright Fairbanks - and Garrison West, both class-leaders, in connection with many others, - rushed in upon us with sticks and stones, and broke up our virtuous little - Sabbath school, at St. Michael's—all calling themselves Christians! - humble followers of the Lord Jesus Christ! But I am again digressing. - </p> - <p> - I held my Sabbath school at the house of a free colored man, whose name I - deem it imprudent to mention; for should it be known, it might embarrass - him greatly, though the crime of holding the school was committed ten - years ago. I had at one time over forty scholars, and those of the right - sort, ardently desiring to learn. They were of all ages, though mostly men - and women. I look back to those Sundays with an amount of pleasure not to - be expressed. They were great days to my soul. The work of instructing my - dear fellow-slaves was the sweetest engagement with which I was ever - blessed. We loved each other, and to leave them at the close of the - Sabbath was a severe cross indeed. When I think that these precious souls - are to-day shut up in the prison-house of slavery, my feelings overcome - me, and I am almost ready to ask, "Does a righteous God govern the - universe? and for what does he hold the thunders in his right hand, if not - to smite the oppressor, and deliver the spoiled out of the hand of the - spoiler?" These dear souls came not to Sabbath school because it was - popular to do so, nor did I teach them because it was reputable to be thus - engaged. Every moment they spent in that school, they were liable to be - taken up, and given thirty-nine lashes. They came because they wished to - learn. Their minds had been starved by their cruel masters. They had been - shut up in mental darkness. I taught them, because it was the delight of - my soul to be doing something that looked like bettering the condition of - my race. I kept up my school nearly the whole year I lived with Mr. - Freeland; and, beside my Sabbath school, I devoted three evenings in the - week, during the winter, to teaching the slaves at home. And I have the - happiness to know, that several of those who came to Sabbath school - learned how to read; and that one, at least, is now free through my - agency. - </p> - <p> - The year passed off smoothly. It seemed only about half as long as the - year which preceded it. I went through it without receiving a single blow. - I will give Mr. Freeland the credit of being the best master I ever had, - <i>till I became my own master.</i> For the ease with which I passed the - year, I was, however, somewhat indebted to the society of my - fellow-slaves. They were noble souls; they not only possessed loving - hearts, but brave ones. We were linked and interlinked with each other. I - loved them with a love stronger than any thing I have experienced since. - It is sometimes said that we slaves do not love and confide in each other. - In answer to this assertion, I can say, I never loved any or confided in - any people more than my fellow-slaves, and especially those with whom I - lived at Mr. Freeland's. I believe we would have died for each other. We - never undertook to do any thing, of any importance, without a mutual - consultation. We never moved separately. We were one; and as much so by - our tempers and dispositions, as by the mutual hardships to which we were - necessarily subjected by our condition as slaves. - </p> - <p> - At the close of the year 1834, Mr. Freeland again hired me of my master, - for the year 1835. But, by this time, I began to want to live <i>upon free - land</i> as well as <i>with Freeland;</i> and I was no longer content, - therefore, to live with him or any other slaveholder. I began, with the - commencement of the year, to prepare myself for a final struggle, which - should decide my fate one way or the other. My tendency was upward. I was - fast approaching manhood, and year after year had passed, and I was still - a slave. These thoughts roused me—I must do something. I therefore - resolved that 1835 should not pass without witnessing an attempt, on my - part, to secure my liberty. But I was not willing to cherish this - determination alone. My fellow-slaves were dear to me. I was anxious to - have them participate with me in this, my life-giving determination. I - therefore, though with great prudence, commenced early to ascertain their - views and feelings in regard to their condition, and to imbue their minds - with thoughts of freedom. I bent myself to devising ways and means for our - escape, and meanwhile strove, on all fitting occasions, to impress them - with the gross fraud and inhumanity of slavery. I went first to Henry, - next to John, then to the others. I found, in them all, warm hearts and - noble spirits. They were ready to hear, and ready to act when a feasible - plan should be proposed. This was what I wanted. I talked to them of our - want of manhood, if we submitted to our enslavement without at least one - noble effort to be free. We met often, and consulted frequently, and told - our hopes and fears, recounted the difficulties, real and imagined, which - we should be called on to meet. At times we were almost disposed to give - up, and try to content ourselves with our wretched lot; at others, we were - firm and unbending in our determination to go. Whenever we suggested any - plan, there was shrinking—the odds were fearful. Our path was beset - with the greatest obstacles; and if we succeeded in gaining the end of it, - our right to be free was yet questionable—we were yet liable to be - returned to bondage. We could see no spot, this side of the ocean, where - we could be free. We knew nothing about Canada. Our knowledge of the north - did not extend farther than New York; and to go there, and be forever - harassed with the frightful liability of being returned to slavery—with - the certainty of being treated tenfold worse than before—the thought - was truly a horrible one, and one which it was not easy to overcome. The - case sometimes stood thus: At every gate through which we were to pass, we - saw a watchman—at every ferry a guard—on every bridge a - sentinel—and in every wood a patrol. We were hemmed in upon every - side. Here were the difficulties, real or imagined—the good to be - sought, and the evil to be shunned. On the one hand, there stood slavery, - a stern reality, glaring frightfully upon us,—its robes already - crimsoned with the blood of millions, and even now feasting itself - greedily upon our own flesh. On the other hand, away back in the dim - distance, under the flickering light of the north star, behind some craggy - hill or snow-covered mountain, stood a doubtful freedom—half frozen—beckoning - us to come and share its hospitality. This in itself was sometimes enough - to stagger us; but when we permitted ourselves to survey the road, we were - frequently appalled. Upon either side we saw grim death, assuming the most - horrid shapes. Now it was starvation, causing us to eat our own flesh;—now - we were contending with the waves, and were drowned;—now we were - overtaken, and torn to pieces by the fangs of the terrible bloodhound. We - were stung by scorpions, chased by wild beasts, bitten by snakes, and - finally, after having nearly reached the desired spot,—after - swimming rivers, encountering wild beasts, sleeping in the woods, - suffering hunger and nakedness,—we were overtaken by our pursuers, - and, in our resistance, we were shot dead upon the spot! I say, this - picture sometimes appalled us, and made us - </p> -<pre xml:space="preserve"> - "rather bear those ills we had, - Than fly to others, that we knew not of." -</pre> - <p> - In coming to a fixed determination to run away, we did more than Patrick - Henry, when he resolved upon liberty or death. With us it was a doubtful - liberty at most, and almost certain death if we failed. For my part, I - should prefer death to hopeless bondage. - </p> - <p> - Sandy, one of our number, gave up the notion, but still encouraged us. Our - company then consisted of Henry Harris, John Harris, Henry Bailey, Charles - Roberts, and myself. Henry Bailey was my uncle, and belonged to my master. - Charles married my aunt: he belonged to my master's father-in-law, Mr. - William Hamilton. - </p> - <p> - The plan we finally concluded upon was, to get a large canoe belonging to - Mr. Hamilton, and upon the Saturday night previous to Easter holidays, - paddle directly up the Chesapeake Bay. On our arrival at the head of the - bay, a distance of seventy or eighty miles from where we lived, it was our - purpose to turn our canoe adrift, and follow the guidance of the north - star till we got beyond the limits of Maryland. Our reason for taking the - water route was, that we were less liable to be suspected as runaways; we - hoped to be regarded as fishermen; whereas, if we should take the land - route, we should be subjected to interruptions of almost every kind. Any - one having a white face, and being so disposed, could stop us, and subject - us to examination. - </p> - <p> - The week before our intended start, I wrote several protections, one for - each of us. As well as I can remember, they were in the following words, - to wit:— - </p> -<pre xml:space="preserve"> - "This is to certify that I, the undersigned, have given the bearer, my - servant, full liberty to go to Baltimore, and spend the Easter holidays. - Written with mine own hand, &c., 1835. - - "WILLIAM HAMILTON, - -</pre> - <p> - "Near St. Michael's, in Talbot county, Maryland." - </p> - <p> - We were not going to Baltimore; but, in going up the bay, we went toward - Baltimore, and these protections were only intended to protect us while on - the bay. - </p> - <p> - As the time drew near for our departure, our anxiety became more and more - intense. It was truly a matter of life and death with us. The strength of - our determination was about to be fully tested. At this time, I was very - active in explaining every difficulty, removing every doubt, dispelling - every fear, and inspiring all with the firmness indispensable to success - in our undertaking; assuring them that half was gained the instant we made - the move; we had talked long enough; we were now ready to move; if not - now, we never should be; and if we did not intend to move now, we had as - well fold our arms, sit down, and acknowledge ourselves fit only to be - slaves. This, none of us were prepared to acknowledge. Every man stood - firm; and at our last meeting, we pledged ourselves afresh, in the most - solemn manner, that, at the time appointed, we would certainly start in - pursuit of freedom. This was in the middle of the week, at the end of - which we were to be off. We went, as usual, to our several fields of - labor, but with bosoms highly agitated with thoughts of our truly - hazardous undertaking. We tried to conceal our feelings as much as - possible; and I think we succeeded very well. - </p> - <p> - After a painful waiting, the Saturday morning, whose night was to witness - our departure, came. I hailed it with joy, bring what of sadness it might. - Friday night was a sleepless one for me. I probably felt more anxious than - the rest, because I was, by common consent, at the head of the whole - affair. The responsibility of success or failure lay heavily upon me. The - glory of the one, and the confusion of the other, were alike mine. The - first two hours of that morning were such as I never experienced before, - and hope never to again. Early in the morning, we went, as usual, to the - field. We were spreading manure; and all at once, while thus engaged, I - was overwhelmed with an indescribable feeling, in the fulness of which I - turned to Sandy, who was near by, and said, "We are betrayed!" "Well," - said he, "that thought has this moment struck me." We said no more. I was - never more certain of any thing. - </p> - <p> - The horn was blown as usual, and we went up from the field to the house - for breakfast. I went for the form, more than for want of any thing to eat - that morning. Just as I got to the house, in looking out at the lane gate, - I saw four white men, with two colored men. The white men were on - horseback, and the colored ones were walking behind, as if tied. I watched - them a few moments till they got up to our lane gate. Here they halted, - and tied the colored men to the gate-post. I was not yet certain as to - what the matter was. In a few moments, in rode Mr. Hamilton, with a speed - betokening great excitement. He came to the door, and inquired if Master - William was in. He was told he was at the barn. Mr. Hamilton, without - dismounting, rode up to the barn with extraordinary speed. In a few - moments, he and Mr. Freeland returned to the house. By this time, the - three constables rode up, and in great haste dismounted, tied their - horses, and met Master William and Mr. Hamilton returning from the barn; - and after talking awhile, they all walked up to the kitchen door. There - was no one in the kitchen but myself and John. Henry and Sandy were up at - the barn. Mr. Freeland put his head in at the door, and called me by name, - saying, there were some gentlemen at the door who wished to see me. I - stepped to the door, and inquired what they wanted. They at once seized - me, and, without giving me any satisfaction, tied me—lashing my - hands closely together. I insisted upon knowing what the matter was. They - at length said, that they had learned I had been in a "scrape," and that I - was to be examined before my master; and if their information proved - false, I should not be hurt. - </p> - <p> - In a few moments, they succeeded in tying John. They then turned to Henry, - who had by this time returned, and commanded him to cross his hands. "I - won't!" said Henry, in a firm tone, indicating his readiness to meet the - consequences of his refusal. "Won't you?" said Tom Graham, the constable. - "No, I won't!" said Henry, in a still stronger tone. With this, two of the - constables pulled out their shining pistols, and swore, by their Creator, - that they would make him cross his hands or kill him. Each cocked his - pistol, and, with fingers on the trigger, walked up to Henry, saying, at - the same time, if he did not cross his hands, they would blow his damned - heart out. "Shoot me, shoot me!" said Henry; "you can't kill me but once. - Shoot, shoot,—and be damned! <i>I won't be tied!</i>" This he said - in a tone of loud defiance; and at the same time, with a motion as quick - as lightning, he with one single stroke dashed the pistols from the hand - of each constable. As he did this, all hands fell upon him, and, after - beating him some time, they finally overpowered him, and got him tied. - </p> - <p> - During the scuffle, I managed, I know not how, to get my pass out, and, - without being discovered, put it into the fire. We were all now tied; and - just as we were to leave for Easton jail, Betsy Freeland, mother of - William Freeland, came to the door with her hands full of biscuits, and - divided them between Henry and John. She then delivered herself of a - speech, to the following effect:—addressing herself to me, she said, - "<i>You devil! You yellow devil!</i> it was you that put it into the heads - of Henry and John to run away. But for you, you long-legged mulatto devil! - Henry nor John would never have thought of such a thing." I made no reply, - and was immediately hurried off towards St. Michael's. Just a moment - previous to the scuffle with Henry, Mr. Hamilton suggested the propriety - of making a search for the protections which he had understood Frederick - had written for himself and the rest. But, just at the moment he was about - carrying his proposal into effect, his aid was needed in helping to tie - Henry; and the excitement attending the scuffle caused them either to - forget, or to deem it unsafe, under the circumstances, to search. So we - were not yet convicted of the intention to run away. - </p> - <p> - When we got about half way to St. Michael's, while the constables having - us in charge were looking ahead, Henry inquired of me what he should do - with his pass. I told him to eat it with his biscuit, and own nothing; and - we passed the word around, "<i>Own nothing;</i>" and "<i>Own nothing!</i>" - said we all. Our confidence in each other was unshaken. We were resolved - to succeed or fail together, after the calamity had befallen us as much as - before. We were now prepared for any thing. We were to be dragged that - morning fifteen miles behind horses, and then to be placed in the Easton - jail. When we reached St. Michael's, we underwent a sort of examination. - We all denied that we ever intended to run away. We did this more to bring - out the evidence against us, than from any hope of getting clear of being - sold; for, as I have said, we were ready for that. The fact was, we cared - but little where we went, so we went together. Our greatest concern was - about separation. We dreaded that more than any thing this side of death. - We found the evidence against us to be the testimony of one person; our - master would not tell who it was; but we came to a unanimous decision - among ourselves as to who their informant was. We were sent off to the - jail at Easton. When we got there, we were delivered up to the sheriff, - Mr. Joseph Graham, and by him placed in jail. Henry, John, and myself, - were placed in one room together—Charles, and Henry Bailey, in - another. Their object in separating us was to hinder concert. - </p> - <p> - We had been in jail scarcely twenty minutes, when a swarm of slave - traders, and agents for slave traders, flocked into jail to look at us, - and to ascertain if we were for sale. Such a set of beings I never saw - before! I felt myself surrounded by so many fiends from perdition. A band - of pirates never looked more like their father, the devil. They laughed - and grinned over us, saying, "Ah, my boys! we have got you, haven't we?" - And after taunting us in various ways, they one by one went into an - examination of us, with intent to ascertain our value. They would - impudently ask us if we would not like to have them for our masters. We - would make them no answer, and leave them to find out as best they could. - Then they would curse and swear at us, telling us that they could take the - devil out of us in a very little while, if we were only in their hands. - </p> - <p> - While in jail, we found ourselves in much more comfortable quarters than - we expected when we went there. We did not get much to eat, nor that which - was very good; but we had a good clean room, from the windows of which we - could see what was going on in the street, which was very much better than - though we had been placed in one of the dark, damp cells. Upon the whole, - we got along very well, so far as the jail and its keeper were concerned. - Immediately after the holidays were over, contrary to all our - expectations, Mr. Hamilton and Mr. Freeland came up to Easton, and took - Charles, the two Henrys, and John, out of jail, and carried them home, - leaving me alone. I regarded this separation as a final one. It caused me - more pain than any thing else in the whole transaction. I was ready for - any thing rather than separation. I supposed that they had consulted - together, and had decided that, as I was the whole cause of the intention - of the others to run away, it was hard to make the innocent suffer with - the guilty; and that they had, therefore, concluded to take the others - home, and sell me, as a warning to the others that remained. It is due to - the noble Henry to say, he seemed almost as reluctant at leaving the - prison as at leaving home to come to the prison. But we knew we should, in - all probability, be separated, if we were sold; and since he was in their - hands, he concluded to go peaceably home. - </p> - <p> - I was now left to my fate. I was all alone, and within the walls of a - stone prison. But a few days before, and I was full of hope. I expected to - have been safe in a land of freedom; but now I was covered with gloom, - sunk down to the utmost despair. I thought the possibility of freedom was - gone. I was kept in this way about one week, at the end of which, Captain - Auld, my master, to my surprise and utter astonishment, came up, and took - me out, with the intention of sending me, with a gentleman of his - acquaintance, into Alabama. But, from some cause or other, he did not send - me to Alabama, but concluded to send me back to Baltimore, to live again - with his brother Hugh, and to learn a trade. - </p> - <p> - Thus, after an absence of three years and one month, I was once more - permitted to return to my old home at Baltimore. My master sent me away, - because there existed against me a very great prejudice in the community, - and he feared I might be killed. - </p> - <p> - In a few weeks after I went to Baltimore, Master Hugh hired me to Mr. - William Gardner, an extensive ship-builder, on Fell's Point. I was put - there to learn how to calk. It, however, proved a very unfavorable place - for the accomplishment of this object. Mr. Gardner was engaged that spring - in building two large man-of-war brigs, professedly for the Mexican - government. The vessels were to be launched in the July of that year, and - in failure thereof, Mr. Gardner was to lose a considerable sum; so that - when I entered, all was hurry. There was no time to learn any thing. Every - man had to do that which he knew how to do. In entering the shipyard, my - orders from Mr. Gardner were, to do whatever the carpenters commanded me - to do. This was placing me at the beck and call of about seventy-five men. - I was to regard all these as masters. Their word was to be my law. My - situation was a most trying one. At times I needed a dozen pair of hands. - I was called a dozen ways in the space of a single minute. Three or four - voices would strike my ear at the same moment. It was—"Fred., come - help me to cant this timber here."—"Fred., come carry this timber - yonder."—"Fred., bring that roller here."—"Fred., go get a - fresh can of water."—"Fred., come help saw off the end of this - timber."—"Fred., go quick, and get the crowbar."—"Fred., hold - on the end of this fall."—"Fred., go to the blacksmith's shop, and - get a new punch."—"Hurra, Fred! run and bring me a cold chisel."—"I - say, Fred., bear a hand, and get up a fire as quick as lightning under - that steam-box."—"Halloo, nigger! come, turn this grindstone."—"Come, - come! move, move! and <i>bowse</i> this timber forward."—"I say, darky, - blast your eyes, why don't you heat up some pitch?"—"Halloo! halloo! - halloo!" (Three voices at the same time.) "Come here!—Go there!—Hold - on where you are! Damn you, if you move, I'll knock your brains out!" - </p> - <p> - This was my school for eight months; and I might have remained there - longer, but for a most horrid fight I had with four of the white - apprentices, in which my left eye was nearly knocked out, and I was - horribly mangled in other respects. The facts in the case were these: - Until a very little while after I went there, white and black - ship-carpenters worked side by side, and no one seemed to see any - impropriety in it. All hands seemed to be very well satisfied. Many of the - black carpenters were freemen. Things seemed to be going on very well. All - at once, the white carpenters knocked off, and said they would not work - with free colored workmen. Their reason for this, as alleged, was, that if - free colored carpenters were encouraged, they would soon take the trade - into their own hands, and poor white men would be thrown out of - employment. They therefore felt called upon at once to put a stop to it. - And, taking advantage of Mr. Gardner's necessities, they broke off, - swearing they would work no longer, unless he would discharge his black - carpenters. Now, though this did not extend to me in form, it did reach me - in fact. My fellow-apprentices very soon began to feel it degrading to - them to work with me. They began to put on airs, and talk about the - "niggers" taking the country, saying we all ought to be killed; and, being - encouraged by the journeymen, they commenced making my condition as hard - as they could, by hectoring me around, and sometimes striking me. I, of - course, kept the vow I made after the fight with Mr. Covey, and struck - back again, regardless of consequences; and while I kept them from - combining, I succeeded very well; for I could whip the whole of them, - taking them separately. They, however, at length combined, and came upon - me, armed with sticks, stones, and heavy handspikes. One came in front - with a half brick. There was one at each side of me, and one behind me. - While I was attending to those in front, and on either side, the one - behind ran up with the handspike, and struck me a heavy blow upon the - head. It stunned me. I fell, and with this they all ran upon me, and fell - to beating me with their fists. I let them lay on for a while, gathering - strength. In an instant, I gave a sudden surge, and rose to my hands and - knees. Just as I did that, one of their number gave me, with his heavy - boot, a powerful kick in the left eye. My eyeball seemed to have burst. - When they saw my eye closed, and badly swollen, they left me. With this I - seized the handspike, and for a time pursued them. But here the carpenters - interfered, and I thought I might as well give it up. It was impossible to - stand my hand against so many. All this took place in sight of not less - than fifty white ship-carpenters, and not one interposed a friendly word; - but some cried, "Kill the damned nigger! Kill him! kill him! He struck a - white person." I found my only chance for life was in flight. I succeeded - in getting away without an additional blow, and barely so; for to strike a - white man is death by Lynch law,—and that was the law in Mr. - Gardner's ship-yard; nor is there much of any other out of Mr. Gardner's - ship-yard. - </p> - <p> - I went directly home, and told the story of my wrongs to Master Hugh; and - I am happy to say of him, irreligious as he was, his conduct was heavenly, - compared with that of his brother Thomas under similar circumstances. He - listened attentively to my narration of the circumstances leading to the - savage outrage, and gave many proofs of his strong indignation at it. The - heart of my once overkind mistress was again melted into pity. My - puffed-out eye and blood-covered face moved her to tears. She took a chair - by me, washed the blood from my face, and, with a mother's tenderness, - bound up my head, covering the wounded eye with a lean piece of fresh - beef. It was almost compensation for my suffering to witness, once more, a - manifestation of kindness from this, my once affectionate old mistress. - Master Hugh was very much enraged. He gave expression to his feelings by - pouring out curses upon the heads of those who did the deed. As soon as I - got a little the better of my bruises, he took me with him to Esquire - Watson's, on Bond Street, to see what could be done about the matter. Mr. - Watson inquired who saw the assault committed. Master Hugh told him it was - done in Mr. Gardner's ship-yard at midday, where there were a large - company of men at work. "As to that," he said, "the deed was done, and - there was no question as to who did it." His answer was, he could do - nothing in the case, unless some white man would come forward and testify. - He could issue no warrant on my word. If I had been killed in the presence - of a thousand colored people, their testimony combined would have been - insufficient to have arrested one of the murderers. Master Hugh, for once, - was compelled to say this state of things was too bad. Of course, it was - impossible to get any white man to volunteer his testimony in my behalf, - and against the white young men. Even those who may have sympathized with - me were not prepared to do this. It required a degree of courage unknown - to them to do so; for just at that time, the slightest manifestation of - humanity toward a colored person was denounced as abolitionism, and that - name subjected its bearer to frightful liabilities. The watchwords of the - bloody-minded in that region, and in those days, were, "Damn the - abolitionists!" and "Damn the niggers!" There was nothing done, and - probably nothing would have been done if I had been killed. Such was, and - such remains, the state of things in the Christian city of Baltimore. - </p> - <p> - Master Hugh, finding he could get no redress, refused to let me go back - again to Mr. Gardner. He kept me himself, and his wife dressed my wound - till I was again restored to health. He then took me into the ship-yard of - which he was foreman, in the employment of Mr. Walter Price. There I was - immediately set to calking, and very soon learned the art of using my - mallet and irons. In the course of one year from the time I left Mr. - Gardner's, I was able to command the highest wages given to the most - experienced calkers. I was now of some importance to my master. I was - bringing him from six to seven dollars per week. I sometimes brought him - nine dollars per week: my wages were a dollar and a half a day. After - learning how to calk, I sought my own employment, made my own contracts, - and collected the money which I earned. My pathway became much more smooth - than before; my condition was now much more comfortable. When I could get - no calking to do, I did nothing. During these leisure times, those old - notions about freedom would steal over me again. When in Mr. Gardner's - employment, I was kept in such a perpetual whirl of excitement, I could - think of nothing, scarcely, but my life; and in thinking of my life, I - almost forgot my liberty. I have observed this in my experience of - slavery,—that whenever my condition was improved, instead of its - increasing my contentment, it only increased my desire to be free, and set - me to thinking of plans to gain my freedom. I have found that, to make a - contented slave, it is necessary to make a thoughtless one. It is - necessary to darken his moral and mental vision, and, as far as possible, - to annihilate the power of reason. He must be able to detect no - inconsistencies in slavery; he must be made to feel that slavery is right; - and he can be brought to that only when he ceases to be a man. - </p> - <p> - I was now getting, as I have said, one dollar and fifty cents per day. I - contracted for it; I earned it; it was paid to me; it was rightfully my - own; yet, upon each returning Saturday night, I was compelled to deliver - every cent of that money to Master Hugh. And why? Not because he earned - it,—not because he had any hand in earning it,—not because I - owed it to him,—nor because he possessed the slightest shadow of a - right to it; but solely because he had the power to compel me to give it - up. The right of the grim-visaged pirate upon the high seas is exactly the - same. - </p> - <p> - <a name="link2HCH0011" id="link2HCH0011"> - <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> - </p> - <div style="height: 4em;"> - <br /><br /><br /><br /> - </div> - <h2> - CHAPTER XI - </h2> - <p> - I now come to that part of my life during which I planned, and finally - succeeded in making, my escape from slavery. But before narrating any of - the peculiar circumstances, I deem it proper to make known my intention - not to state all the facts connected with the transaction. My reasons for - pursuing this course may be understood from the following: First, were I - to give a minute statement of all the facts, it is not only possible, but - quite probable, that others would thereby be involved in the most - embarrassing difficulties. Secondly, such a statement would most - undoubtedly induce greater vigilance on the part of slaveholders than has - existed heretofore among them; which would, of course, be the means of - guarding a door whereby some dear brother bondman might escape his galling - chains. I deeply regret the necessity that impels me to suppress any thing - of importance connected with my experience in slavery. It would afford me - great pleasure indeed, as well as materially add to the interest of my - narrative, were I at liberty to gratify a curiosity, which I know exists - in the minds of many, by an accurate statement of all the facts pertaining - to my most fortunate escape. But I must deprive myself of this pleasure, - and the curious of the gratification which such a statement would afford. - I would allow myself to suffer under the greatest imputations which - evil-minded men might suggest, rather than exculpate myself, and thereby - run the hazard of closing the slightest avenue by which a brother slave - might clear himself of the chains and fetters of slavery. - </p> - <p> - I have never approved of the very public manner in which some of our - western friends have conducted what they call the <i>underground railroad,</i> - but which I think, by their open declarations, has been made most - emphatically the <i>upperground railroad.</i> I honor those good men and - women for their noble daring, and applaud them for willingly subjecting - themselves to bloody persecution, by openly avowing their participation in - the escape of slaves. I, however, can see very little good resulting from - such a course, either to themselves or the slaves escaping; while, upon - the other hand, I see and feel assured that those open declarations are a - positive evil to the slaves remaining, who are seeking to escape. They do - nothing towards enlightening the slave, whilst they do much towards - enlightening the master. They stimulate him to greater watchfulness, and - enhance his power to capture his slave. We owe something to the slave - south of the line as well as to those north of it; and in aiding the - latter on their way to freedom, we should be careful to do nothing which - would be likely to hinder the former from escaping from slavery. I would - keep the merciless slaveholder profoundly ignorant of the means of flight - adopted by the slave. I would leave him to imagine himself surrounded by - myriads of invisible tormentors, ever ready to snatch from his infernal - grasp his trembling prey. Let him be left to feel his way in the dark; let - darkness commensurate with his crime hover over him; and let him feel that - at every step he takes, in pursuit of the flying bondman, he is running - the frightful risk of having his hot brains dashed out by an invisible - agency. Let us render the tyrant no aid; let us not hold the light by - which he can trace the footprints of our flying brother. But enough of - this. I will now proceed to the statement of those facts, connected with - my escape, for which I am alone responsible, and for which no one can be - made to suffer but myself. - </p> - <p> - In the early part of the year 1838, I became quite restless. I could see - no reason why I should, at the end of each week, pour the reward of my - toil into the purse of my master. When I carried to him my weekly wages, - he would, after counting the money, look me in the face with a robber-like - fierceness, and ask, "Is this all?" He was satisfied with nothing less - than the last cent. He would, however, when I made him six dollars, - sometimes give me six cents, to encourage me. It had the opposite effect. - I regarded it as a sort of admission of my right to the whole. The fact - that he gave me any part of my wages was proof, to my mind, that he - believed me entitled to the whole of them. I always felt worse for having - received any thing; for I feared that the giving me a few cents would ease - his conscience, and make him feel himself to be a pretty honorable sort of - robber. My discontent grew upon me. I was ever on the look-out for means - of escape; and, finding no direct means, I determined to try to hire my - time, with a view of getting money with which to make my escape. In the - spring of 1838, when Master Thomas came to Baltimore to purchase his - spring goods, I got an opportunity, and applied to him to allow me to hire - my time. He unhesitatingly refused my request, and told me this was - another stratagem by which to escape. He told me I could go nowhere but - that he could get me; and that, in the event of my running away, he should - spare no pains in his efforts to catch me. He exhorted me to content - myself, and be obedient. He told me, if I would be happy, I must lay out - no plans for the future. He said, if I behaved myself properly, he would - take care of me. Indeed, he advised me to complete thoughtlessness of the - future, and taught me to depend solely upon him for happiness. He seemed - to see fully the pressing necessity of setting aside my intellectual - nature, in order to contentment in slavery. But in spite of him, and even - in spite of myself, I continued to think, and to think about the injustice - of my enslavement, and the means of escape. - </p> - <p> - About two months after this, I applied to Master Hugh for the privilege of - hiring my time. He was not acquainted with the fact that I had applied to - Master Thomas, and had been refused. He too, at first, seemed disposed to - refuse; but, after some reflection, he granted me the privilege, and - proposed the following terms: I was to be allowed all my time, make all - contracts with those for whom I worked, and find my own employment; and, - in return for this liberty, I was to pay him three dollars at the end of - each week; find myself in calking tools, and in board and clothing. My - board was two dollars and a half per week. This, with the wear and tear of - clothing and calking tools, made my regular expenses about six dollars per - week. This amount I was compelled to make up, or relinquish the privilege - of hiring my time. Rain or shine, work or no work, at the end of each week - the money must be forthcoming, or I must give up my privilege. This - arrangement, it will be perceived, was decidedly in my master's favor. It - relieved him of all need of looking after me. His money was sure. He - received all the benefits of slaveholding without its evils; while I - endured all the evils of a slave, and suffered all the care and anxiety of - a freeman. I found it a hard bargain. But, hard as it was, I thought it - better than the old mode of getting along. It was a step towards freedom - to be allowed to bear the responsibilities of a freeman, and I was - determined to hold on upon it. I bent myself to the work of making money. - I was ready to work at night as well as day, and by the most untiring - perseverance and industry, I made enough to meet my expenses, and lay up a - little money every week. I went on thus from May till August. Master Hugh - then refused to allow me to hire my time longer. The ground for his - refusal was a failure on my part, one Saturday night, to pay him for my - week's time. This failure was occasioned by my attending a camp meeting - about ten miles from Baltimore. During the week, I had entered into an - engagement with a number of young friends to start from Baltimore to the - camp ground early Saturday evening; and being detained by my employer, I - was unable to get down to Master Hugh's without disappointing the company. - I knew that Master Hugh was in no special need of the money that night. I - therefore decided to go to camp meeting, and upon my return pay him the - three dollars. I staid at the camp meeting one day longer than I intended - when I left. But as soon as I returned, I called upon him to pay him what - he considered his due. I found him very angry; he could scarce restrain - his wrath. He said he had a great mind to give me a severe whipping. He - wished to know how I dared go out of the city without asking his - permission. I told him I hired my time and while I paid him the price - which he asked for it, I did not know that I was bound to ask him when and - where I should go. This reply troubled him; and, after reflecting a few - moments, he turned to me, and said I should hire my time no longer; that - the next thing he should know of, I would be running away. Upon the same - plea, he told me to bring my tools and clothing home forthwith. I did so; - but instead of seeking work, as I had been accustomed to do previously to - hiring my time, I spent the whole week without the performance of a single - stroke of work. I did this in retaliation. Saturday night, he called upon - me as usual for my week's wages. I told him I had no wages; I had done no - work that week. Here we were upon the point of coming to blows. He raved, - and swore his determination to get hold of me. I did not allow myself a - single word; but was resolved, if he laid the weight of his hand upon me, - it should be blow for blow. He did not strike me, but told me that he - would find me in constant employment in future. I thought the matter over - during the next day, Sunday, and finally resolved upon the third day of - September, as the day upon which I would make a second attempt to secure - my freedom. I now had three weeks during which to prepare for my journey. - Early on Monday morning, before Master Hugh had time to make any - engagement for me, I went out and got employment of Mr. Butler, at his - ship-yard near the drawbridge, upon what is called the City Block, thus - making it unnecessary for him to seek employment for me. At the end of the - week, I brought him between eight and nine dollars. He seemed very well - pleased, and asked why I did not do the same the week before. He little - knew what my plans were. My object in working steadily was to remove any - suspicion he might entertain of my intent to run away; and in this I - succeeded admirably. I suppose he thought I was never better satisfied - with my condition than at the very time during which I was planning my - escape. The second week passed, and again I carried him my full wages; and - so well pleased was he, that he gave me twenty-five cents, (quite a large - sum for a slaveholder to give a slave,) and bade me to make a good use of - it. I told him I would. - </p> - <p> - Things went on without very smoothly indeed, but within there was trouble. - It is impossible for me to describe my feelings as the time of my - contemplated start drew near. I had a number of warmhearted friends in - Baltimore,—friends that I loved almost as I did my life,—and - the thought of being separated from them forever was painful beyond - expression. It is my opinion that thousands would escape from slavery, who - now remain, but for the strong cords of affection that bind them to their - friends. The thought of leaving my friends was decidedly the most painful - thought with which I had to contend. The love of them was my tender point, - and shook my decision more than all things else. Besides the pain of - separation, the dread and apprehension of a failure exceeded what I had - experienced at my first attempt. The appalling defeat I then sustained - returned to torment me. I felt assured that, if I failed in this attempt, - my case would be a hopeless one—it would seal my fate as a slave - forever. I could not hope to get off with any thing less than the severest - punishment, and being placed beyond the means of escape. It required no - very vivid imagination to depict the most frightful scenes through which I - should have to pass, in case I failed. The wretchedness of slavery, and - the blessedness of freedom, were perpetually before me. It was life and - death with me. But I remained firm, and, according to my resolution, on - the third day of September, 1838, I left my chains, and succeeded in - reaching New York without the slightest interruption of any kind. How I - did so,—what means I adopted,—what direction I travelled, and - by what mode of conveyance,—I must leave unexplained, for the - reasons before mentioned. - </p> - <p> - I have been frequently asked how I felt when I found myself in a free - State. I have never been able to answer the question with any satisfaction - to myself. It was a moment of the highest excitement I ever experienced. I - suppose I felt as one may imagine the unarmed mariner to feel when he is - rescued by a friendly man-of-war from the pursuit of a pirate. In writing - to a dear friend, immediately after my arrival at New York, I said I felt - like one who had escaped a den of hungry lions. This state of mind, - however, very soon subsided; and I was again seized with a feeling of - great insecurity and loneliness. I was yet liable to be taken back, and - subjected to all the tortures of slavery. This in itself was enough to - damp the ardor of my enthusiasm. But the loneliness overcame me. There I - was in the midst of thousands, and yet a perfect stranger; without home - and without friends, in the midst of thousands of my own brethren—children - of a common Father, and yet I dared not to unfold to any one of them my - sad condition. I was afraid to speak to any one for fear of speaking to - the wrong one, and thereby falling into the hands of money-loving - kidnappers, whose business it was to lie in wait for the panting fugitive, - as the ferocious beasts of the forest lie in wait for their prey. The - motto which I adopted when I started from slavery was this—"Trust no - man!" I saw in every white man an enemy, and in almost every colored man - cause for distrust. It was a most painful situation; and, to understand - it, one must needs experience it, or imagine himself in similar - circumstances. Let him be a fugitive slave in a strange land—a land - given up to be the hunting-ground for slaveholders—whose inhabitants - are legalized kidnappers—where he is every moment subjected to the - terrible liability of being seized upon by his fellowmen, as the hideous - crocodile seizes upon his prey!—I say, let him place himself in my - situation—without home or friends—without money or credit—wanting - shelter, and no one to give it—wanting bread, and no money to buy - it,—and at the same time let him feel that he is pursued by - merciless men-hunters, and in total darkness as to what to do, where to - go, or where to stay,—perfectly helpless both as to the means of - defence and means of escape,—in the midst of plenty, yet suffering - the terrible gnawings of hunger,—in the midst of houses, yet having - no home,—among fellow-men, yet feeling as if in the midst of wild - beasts, whose greediness to swallow up the trembling and half-famished - fugitive is only equalled by that with which the monsters of the deep - swallow up the helpless fish upon which they subsist,—I say, let him - be placed in this most trying situation,—the situation in which I - was placed,—then, and not till then, will he fully appreciate the - hardships of, and know how to sympathize with, the toil-worn and - whip-scarred fugitive slave. - </p> - <p> - Thank Heaven, I remained but a short time in this distressed situation. I - was relieved from it by the humane hand of <i>Mr. David Ruggles</i>, whose - vigilance, kindness, and perseverance, I shall never forget. I am glad of - an opportunity to express, as far as words can, the love and gratitude I - bear him. Mr. Ruggles is now afflicted with blindness, and is himself in - need of the same kind offices which he was once so forward in the - performance of toward others. I had been in New York but a few days, when - Mr. Ruggles sought me out, and very kindly took me to his boarding-house - at the corner of Church and Lespenard Streets. Mr. Ruggles was then very - deeply engaged in the memorable <i>Darg</i> case, as well as attending to - a number of other fugitive slaves, devising ways and means for their - successful escape; and, though watched and hemmed in on almost every side, - he seemed to be more than a match for his enemies. - </p> - <p> - Very soon after I went to Mr. Ruggles, he wished to know of me where I - wanted to go; as he deemed it unsafe for me to remain in New York. I told - him I was a calker, and should like to go where I could get work. I - thought of going to Canada; but he decided against it, and in favor of my - going to New Bedford, thinking I should be able to get work there at my - trade. At this time, Anna,* my intended wife, came on; for I wrote to her - immediately after my arrival at New York, (notwithstanding my homeless, - houseless, and helpless condition,) informing her of my successful flight, - and wishing her to come on forthwith. In a few days after her arrival, Mr. - Ruggles called in the Rev. J. W. C. Pennington, who, in the presence of - Mr. Ruggles, Mrs. Michaels, and two or three others, performed the - marriage ceremony, and gave us a certificate, of which the following is an - exact copy:— - </p> -<pre xml:space="preserve"> -"This may certify, that I joined together in holy matrimony Frederick -Johnson** and Anna Murray, as man and wife, in the presence of Mr. David -Ruggles and Mrs. Michaels. - -"JAMES W. C. PENNINGTON -"<i>New York, Sept. 15, 1838</i>" - - - *She was free. - - **I had changed my name from Frederick <i>Bailey</i> to that of - <i>Johnson</i>. -</pre> - <p> - Upon receiving this certificate, and a five-dollar bill from Mr. Ruggles, - I shouldered one part of our baggage, and Anna took up the other, and we - set out forthwith to take passage on board of the steamboat John W. - Richmond for Newport, on our way to New Bedford. Mr. Ruggles gave me a - letter to a Mr. Shaw in Newport, and told me, in case my money did not - serve me to New Bedford, to stop in Newport and obtain further assistance; - but upon our arrival at Newport, we were so anxious to get to a place of - safety, that, notwithstanding we lacked the necessary money to pay our - fare, we decided to take seats in the stage, and promise to pay when we - got to New Bedford. We were encouraged to do this by two excellent - gentlemen, residents of New Bedford, whose names I afterward ascertained - to be Joseph Ricketson and William C. Taber. They seemed at once to - understand our circumstances, and gave us such assurance of their - friendliness as put us fully at ease in their presence. - </p> - <p> - It was good indeed to meet with such friends, at such a time. Upon - reaching New Bedford, we were directed to the house of Mr. Nathan Johnson, - by whom we were kindly received, and hospitably provided for. Both Mr. and - Mrs. Johnson took a deep and lively interest in our welfare. They proved - themselves quite worthy of the name of abolitionists. When the - stage-driver found us unable to pay our fare, he held on upon our baggage - as security for the debt. I had but to mention the fact to Mr. Johnson, - and he forthwith advanced the money. - </p> - <p> - We now began to feel a degree of safety, and to prepare ourselves for the - duties and responsibilities of a life of freedom. On the morning after our - arrival at New Bedford, while at the breakfast-table, the question arose - as to what name I should be called by. The name given me by my mother was, - "Frederick Augustus Washington Bailey." I, however, had dispensed with the - two middle names long before I left Maryland so that I was generally known - by the name of "Frederick Bailey." I started from Baltimore bearing the - name of "Stanley." When I got to New York, I again changed my name to - "Frederick Johnson," and thought that would be the last change. But when I - got to New Bedford, I found it necessary again to change my name. The - reason of this necessity was, that there were so many Johnsons in New - Bedford, it was already quite difficult to distinguish between them. I - gave Mr. Johnson the privilege of choosing me a name, but told him he must - not take from me the name of "Frederick." I must hold on to that, to - preserve a sense of my identity. Mr. Johnson had just been reading the - "Lady of the Lake," and at once suggested that my name be "Douglass." From - that time until now I have been called "Frederick Douglass;" and as I am - more widely known by that name than by either of the others, I shall - continue to use it as my own. - </p> - <p> - I was quite disappointed at the general appearance of things in New - Bedford. The impression which I had received respecting the character and - condition of the people of the north, I found to be singularly erroneous. - I had very strangely supposed, while in slavery, that few of the comforts, - and scarcely any of the luxuries, of life were enjoyed at the north, - compared with what were enjoyed by the slaveholders of the south. I - probably came to this conclusion from the fact that northern people owned - no slaves. I supposed that they were about upon a level with the - non-slaveholding population of the south. I knew <i>they</i> were - exceedingly poor, and I had been accustomed to regard their poverty as the - necessary consequence of their being non-slaveholders. I had somehow - imbibed the opinion that, in the absence of slaves, there could be no - wealth, and very little refinement. And upon coming to the north, I - expected to meet with a rough, hard-handed, and uncultivated population, - living in the most Spartan-like simplicity, knowing nothing of the ease, - luxury, pomp, and grandeur of southern slaveholders. Such being my - conjectures, any one acquainted with the appearance of New Bedford may - very readily infer how palpably I must have seen my mistake. - </p> - <p> - In the afternoon of the day when I reached New Bedford, I visited the - wharves, to take a view of the shipping. Here I found myself surrounded - with the strongest proofs of wealth. Lying at the wharves, and riding in - the stream, I saw many ships of the finest model, in the best order, and - of the largest size. Upon the right and left, I was walled in by granite - warehouses of the widest dimensions, stowed to their utmost capacity with - the necessaries and comforts of life. Added to this, almost every body - seemed to be at work, but noiselessly so, compared with what I had been - accustomed to in Baltimore. There were no loud songs heard from those - engaged in loading and unloading ships. I heard no deep oaths or horrid - curses on the laborer. I saw no whipping of men; but all seemed to go - smoothly on. Every man appeared to understand his work, and went at it - with a sober, yet cheerful earnestness, which betokened the deep interest - which he felt in what he was doing, as well as a sense of his own dignity - as a man. To me this looked exceedingly strange. From the wharves I - strolled around and over the town, gazing with wonder and admiration at - the splendid churches, beautiful dwellings, and finely-cultivated gardens; - evincing an amount of wealth, comfort, taste, and refinement, such as I - had never seen in any part of slaveholding Maryland. - </p> - <p> - Every thing looked clean, new, and beautiful. I saw few or no dilapidated - houses, with poverty-stricken inmates; no half-naked children and - barefooted women, such as I had been accustomed to see in Hillsborough, - Easton, St. Michael's, and Baltimore. The people looked more able, - stronger, healthier, and happier, than those of Maryland. I was for once - made glad by a view of extreme wealth, without being saddened by seeing - extreme poverty. But the most astonishing as well as the most interesting - thing to me was the condition of the colored people, a great many of whom, - like myself, had escaped thither as a refuge from the hunters of men. I - found many, who had not been seven years out of their chains, living in - finer houses, and evidently enjoying more of the comforts of life, than - the average of slaveholders in Maryland. I will venture to assert, that my - friend Mr. Nathan Johnson (of whom I can say with a grateful heart, "I was - hungry, and he gave me meat; I was thirsty, and he gave me drink; I was a - stranger, and he took me in") lived in a neater house; dined at a better - table; took, paid for, and read, more newspapers; better understood the - moral, religious, and political character of the nation,—than nine - tenths of the slaveholders in Talbot county Maryland. Yet Mr. Johnson was - a working man. His hands were hardened by toil, and not his alone, but - those also of Mrs. Johnson. I found the colored people much more spirited - than I had supposed they would be. I found among them a determination to - protect each other from the blood-thirsty kidnapper, at all hazards. Soon - after my arrival, I was told of a circumstance which illustrated their - spirit. A colored man and a fugitive slave were on unfriendly terms. The - former was heard to threaten the latter with informing his master of his - whereabouts. Straightway a meeting was called among the colored people, - under the stereotyped notice, "Business of importance!" The betrayer was - invited to attend. The people came at the appointed hour, and organized - the meeting by appointing a very religious old gentleman as president, - who, I believe, made a prayer, after which he addressed the meeting as - follows: "<i>Friends, we have got him here, and I would recommend that you - young men just take him outside the door, and kill him!</i>" With this, a - number of them bolted at him; but they were intercepted by some more timid - than themselves, and the betrayer escaped their vengeance, and has not - been seen in New Bedford since. I believe there have been no more such - threats, and should there be hereafter, I doubt not that death would be - the consequence. - </p> - <p> - I found employment, the third day after my arrival, in stowing a sloop - with a load of oil. It was new, dirty, and hard work for me; but I went at - it with a glad heart and a willing hand. I was now my own master. It was a - happy moment, the rapture of which can be understood only by those who - have been slaves. It was the first work, the reward of which was to be - entirely my own. There was no Master Hugh standing ready, the moment I - earned the money, to rob me of it. I worked that day with a pleasure I had - never before experienced. I was at work for myself and newly-married wife. - It was to me the starting-point of a new existence. When I got through - with that job, I went in pursuit of a job of calking; but such was the - strength of prejudice against color, among the white calkers, that they - refused to work with me, and of course I could get no employment.* - </p> -<pre xml:space="preserve"> - * I am told that colored persons can now get employment at - calking in New Bedford—a result of anti-slavery effort. -</pre> - <p> - Finding my trade of no immediate benefit, I threw off my calking - habiliments, and prepared myself to do any kind of work I could get to do. - Mr. Johnson kindly let me have his wood-horse and saw, and I very soon - found myself a plenty of work. There was no work too hard—none too - dirty. I was ready to saw wood, shovel coal, carry wood, sweep the - chimney, or roll oil casks,—all of which I did for nearly three - years in New Bedford, before I became known to the anti-slavery world. - </p> - <p> - In about four months after I went to New Bedford, there came a young man - to me, and inquired if I did not wish to take the "Liberator." I told him - I did; but, just having made my escape from slavery, I remarked that I was - unable to pay for it then. I, however, finally became a subscriber to it. - The paper came, and I read it from week to week with such feelings as it - would be quite idle for me to attempt to describe. The paper became my - meat and my drink. My soul was set all on fire. Its sympathy for my - brethren in bonds—its scathing denunciations of slaveholders—its - faithful exposures of slavery—and its powerful attacks upon the - upholders of the institution—sent a thrill of joy through my soul, - such as I had never felt before! - </p> - <p> - I had not long been a reader of the "Liberator," before I got a pretty - correct idea of the principles, measures and spirit of the anti-slavery - reform. I took right hold of the cause. I could do but little; but what I - could, I did with a joyful heart, and never felt happier than when in an - anti-slavery meeting. I seldom had much to say at the meetings, because - what I wanted to say was said so much better by others. But, while - attending an anti-slavery convention at Nantucket, on the 11th of August, - 1841, I felt strongly moved to speak, and was at the same time much urged - to do so by Mr. William C. Coffin, a gentleman who had heard me speak in - the colored people's meeting at New Bedford. It was a severe cross, and I - took it up reluctantly. The truth was, I felt myself a slave, and the idea - of speaking to white people weighed me down. I spoke but a few moments, - when I felt a degree of freedom, and said what I desired with considerable - ease. From that time until now, I have been engaged in pleading the cause - of my brethren—with what success, and with what devotion, I leave - those acquainted with my labors to decide. - </p> - <p> - <a name="link2H_APPE" id="link2H_APPE"> - <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> - </p> - <div style="height: 4em;"> - <br /><br /><br /><br /> - </div> - <h2> - APPENDIX - </h2> - <p> - I find, since reading over the foregoing Narrative, that I have, in - several instances, spoken in such a tone and manner, respecting religion, - as may possibly lead those unacquainted with my religious views to suppose - me an opponent of all religion. To remove the liability of such - misapprehension, I deem it proper to append the following brief - explanation. What I have said respecting and against religion, I mean - strictly to apply to the <i>slaveholding religion</i> of this land, and - with no possible reference to Christianity proper; for, between the - Christianity of this land, and the Christianity of Christ, I recognize the - widest possible difference—so wide, that to receive the one as good, - pure, and holy, is of necessity to reject the other as bad, corrupt, and - wicked. To be the friend of the one, is of necessity to be the enemy of - the other. I love the pure, peaceable, and impartial Christianity of - Christ: I therefore hate the corrupt, slaveholding, women-whipping, - cradle-plundering, partial and hypocritical Christianity of this land. - Indeed, I can see no reason, but the most deceitful one, for calling the - religion of this land Christianity. I look upon it as the climax of all - misnomers, the boldest of all frauds, and the grossest of all libels. - Never was there a clearer case of "stealing the livery of the court of - heaven to serve the devil in." I am filled with unutterable loathing when - I contemplate the religious pomp and show, together with the horrible - inconsistencies, which every where surround me. We have men-stealers for - ministers, women-whippers for missionaries, and cradle-plunderers for - church members. The man who wields the blood-clotted cowskin during the - week fills the pulpit on Sunday, and claims to be a minister of the meek - and lowly Jesus. The man who robs me of my earnings at the end of each - week meets me as a class-leader on Sunday morning, to show me the way of - life, and the path of salvation. He who sells my sister, for purposes of - prostitution, stands forth as the pious advocate of purity. He who - proclaims it a religious duty to read the Bible denies me the right of - learning to read the name of the God who made me. He who is the religious - advocate of marriage robs whole millions of its sacred influence, and - leaves them to the ravages of wholesale pollution. The warm defender of - the sacredness of the family relation is the same that scatters whole - families,—sundering husbands and wives, parents and children, - sisters and brothers,—leaving the hut vacant, and the hearth - desolate. We see the thief preaching against theft, and the adulterer - against adultery. We have men sold to build churches, women sold to - support the gospel, and babes sold to purchase Bibles for the <i>Poor - Heathen! All For The Glory Of God And The Good Of Souls!</i> The slave - auctioneer's bell and the church-going bell chime in with each other, and - the bitter cries of the heart-broken slave are drowned in the religious - shouts of his pious master. Revivals of religion and revivals in the - slave-trade go hand in hand together. The slave prison and the church - stand near each other. The clanking of fetters and the rattling of chains - in the prison, and the pious psalm and solemn prayer in the church, may be - heard at the same time. The dealers in the bodies and souls of men erect - their stand in the presence of the pulpit, and they mutually help each - other. The dealer gives his blood-stained gold to support the pulpit, and - the pulpit, in return, covers his infernal business with the garb of - Christianity. Here we have religion and robbery the allies of each other—devils - dressed in angels' robes, and hell presenting the semblance of paradise. - </p> -<pre xml:space="preserve"> - "Just God! and these are they, - Who minister at thine altar, God of right! - Men who their hands, with prayer and blessing, lay - On Israel's ark of light. - - "What! preach, and kidnap men? - Give thanks, and rob thy own afflicted poor? - Talk of thy glorious liberty, and then - Bolt hard the captive's door? - - "What! servants of thy own - Merciful Son, who came to seek and save - The homeless and the outcast, fettering down - The tasked and plundered slave! - - "Pilate and Herod friends! - Chief priests and rulers, as of old, combine! - Just God and holy! is that church which lends - Strength to the spoiler thine?" -</pre> - <p> - The Christianity of America is a Christianity, of whose votaries it may be - as truly said, as it was of the ancient scribes and Pharisees, "They bind - heavy burdens, and grievous to be borne, and lay them on men's shoulders, - but they themselves will not move them with one of their fingers. All - their works they do for to be seen of men.—They love the uppermost - rooms at feasts, and the chief seats in the synagogues, . . . . . . and to - be called of men, Rabbi, Rabbi.—But woe unto you, scribes and - Pharisees, hypocrites! for ye shut up the kingdom of heaven against men; - for ye neither go in yourselves, neither suffer ye them that are entering - to go in. Ye devour widows' houses, and for a pretence make long prayers; - therefore ye shall receive the greater damnation. Ye compass sea and land - to make one proselyte, and when he is made, ye make him twofold more the - child of hell than yourselves.—Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, - hypocrites! for ye pay tithe of mint, and anise, and cumin, and have - omitted the weightier matters of the law, judgment, mercy, and faith; - these ought ye to have done, and not to leave the other undone. Ye blind - guides! which strain at a gnat, and swallow a camel. Woe unto you, scribes - and Pharisees, hypocrites! for ye make clean the outside of the cup and of - the platter; but within, they are full of extortion and excess.—Woe - unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! for ye are like unto whited - sepulchres, which indeed appear beautiful outward, but are within full of - dead men's bones, and of all uncleanness. Even so ye also outwardly appear - righteous unto men, but within ye are full of hypocrisy and iniquity." - </p> - <p> - Dark and terrible as is this picture, I hold it to be strictly true of the - overwhelming mass of professed Christians in America. They strain at a - gnat, and swallow a camel. Could any thing be more true of our churches? - They would be shocked at the proposition of fellowshipping a - <i>sheep</i>-stealer; and at the same time they hug to their communion a - <i>man</i>-stealer, and brand me with being an infidel, if I find fault with them - for it. They attend with Pharisaical strictness to the outward forms of - religion, and at the same time neglect the weightier matters of the law, - judgment, mercy, and faith. They are always ready to sacrifice, but seldom - to show mercy. They are they who are represented as professing to love God - whom they have not seen, whilst they hate their brother whom they have - seen. They love the heathen on the other side of the globe. They can pray - for him, pay money to have the Bible put into his hand, and missionaries - to instruct him; while they despise and totally neglect the heathen at - their own doors. - </p> - <p> - Such is, very briefly, my view of the religion of this land; and to avoid - any misunderstanding, growing out of the use of general terms, I mean by - the religion of this land, that which is revealed in the words, deeds, and - actions, of those bodies, north and south, calling themselves Christian - churches, and yet in union with slaveholders. It is against religion, as - presented by these bodies, that I have felt it my duty to testify. - </p> - <p> - I conclude these remarks by copying the following portrait of the religion - of the south, (which is, by communion and fellowship, the religion of the - north,) which I soberly affirm is "true to the life," and without - caricature or the slightest exaggeration. It is said to have been drawn, - several years before the present anti-slavery agitation began, by a - northern Methodist preacher, who, while residing at the south, had an - opportunity to see slaveholding morals, manners, and piety, with his own - eyes. "Shall I not visit for these things? saith the Lord. Shall not my - soul be avenged on such a nation as this?" - </p> - <p> - <a name="link2H_4_0016" id="link2H_4_0016"> - <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> - </p> -<pre xml:space="preserve"> - - <b>A PARODY</b> - - "Come, saints and sinners, hear me tell - How pious priests whip Jack and Nell, - And women buy and children sell, - And preach all sinners down to hell, - And sing of heavenly union. - - "They'll bleat and baa, dona like goats, - Gorge down black sheep, and strain at motes, - Array their backs in fine black coats, - Then seize their negroes by their throats, - And choke, for heavenly union. - - "They'll church you if you sip a dram, - And damn you if you steal a lamb; - Yet rob old Tony, Doll, and Sam, - Of human rights, and bread and ham; - Kidnapper's heavenly union. - - "They'll loudly talk of Christ's reward, - And bind his image with a cord, - And scold, and swing the lash abhorred, - And sell their brother in the Lord - To handcuffed heavenly union. - - "They'll read and sing a sacred song, - And make a prayer both loud and long, - And teach the right and do the wrong, - Hailing the brother, sister throng, - With words of heavenly union. - - "We wonder how such saints can sing, - Or praise the Lord upon the wing, - Who roar, and scold, and whip, and sting, - And to their slaves and mammon cling, - In guilty conscience union. - - "They'll raise tobacco, corn, and rye, - And drive, and thieve, and cheat, and lie, - And lay up treasures in the sky, - By making switch and cowskin fly, - In hope of heavenly union. - - "They'll crack old Tony on the skull, - And preach and roar like Bashan bull, - Or braying ass, of mischief full, - Then seize old Jacob by the wool, - And pull for heavenly union. - - "A roaring, ranting, sleek man-thief, - Who lived on mutton, veal, and beef, - Yet never would afford relief - To needy, sable sons of grief, - Was big with heavenly union. - - "'Love not the world,' the preacher said, - And winked his eye, and shook his head; - He seized on Tom, and Dick, and Ned, - Cut short their meat, and clothes, and bread, - Yet still loved heavenly union. - - "Another preacher whining spoke - Of One whose heart for sinners broke: - He tied old Nanny to an oak, - And drew the blood at every stroke, - And prayed for heavenly union. - - "Two others oped their iron jaws, - And waved their children-stealing paws; - There sat their children in gewgaws; - By stinting negroes' backs and maws, - They kept up heavenly union. - - "All good from Jack another takes, - And entertains their flirts and rakes, - Who dress as sleek as glossy snakes, - And cram their mouths with sweetened cakes; - And this goes down for union." -</pre> - <p> - Sincerely and earnestly hoping that this little book may do something - toward throwing light on the American slave system, and hastening the glad - day of deliverance to the millions of my brethren in bonds—faithfully - relying upon the power of truth, love, and justice, for success in my - humble efforts—and solemnly pledging my self anew to the sacred - cause,—I subscribe myself, - </p> - <p> - FREDERICK DOUGLASS.<br /> LYNN, <i>Mass., April</i> 28, 1845. - </p> - <p> - THE END - </p> - <div style="height: 6em;"> - <br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /> - </div> -<pre xml:space="preserve"> +</head> +<body> +<div style='text-align:center; font-size:1.2em; font-weight:bold;'>The Project Gutenberg eBook of Narrative of the Life of Frederick Douglass, by Frederick Douglass</div> +<div style='display:block; margin:1em 0'> +This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere in the United States and +most other parts of the world at no cost and with almost no restrictions +whatsoever. 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He was a stranger to +nearly every member of that body; but, having recently made his escape from the +southern prison-house of bondage, and feeling his curiosity excited to +ascertain the principles and measures of the abolitionists,—of whom he +had heard a somewhat vague description while he was a slave,—he was +induced to give his attendance, on the occasion alluded to, though at that time +a resident in New Bedford. +</p> + +<p> +Fortunate, most fortunate occurrence!—fortunate for the millions of his +manacled brethren, yet panting for deliverance from their awful +thraldom!—fortunate for the cause of negro emancipation, and of universal +liberty!—fortunate for the land of his birth, which he has already done +so much to save and bless!—fortunate for a large circle of friends and +acquaintances, whose sympathy and affection he has strongly secured by the many +sufferings he has endured, by his virtuous traits of character, by his +ever-abiding remembrance of those who are in bonds, as being bound with +them!—fortunate for the multitudes, in various parts of our republic, +whose minds he has enlightened on the subject of slavery, and who have been +melted to tears by his pathos, or roused to virtuous indignation by his +stirring eloquence against the enslavers of men!—fortunate for himself, +as it at once brought him into the field of public usefulness, “gave the +world assurance of a <small>MAN</small>,” quickened the slumbering +energies of his soul, and consecrated him to the great work of breaking the rod +of the oppressor, and letting the oppressed go free! +</p> + +<p> +I shall never forget his first speech at the convention—the extraordinary +emotion it excited in my own mind—the powerful impression it created upon +a crowded auditory, completely taken by surprise—the applause which +followed from the beginning to the end of his felicitous remarks. I think I +never hated slavery so intensely as at that moment; certainly, my perception of +the enormous outrage which is inflicted by it, on the godlike nature of its +victims, was rendered far more clear than ever. There stood one, in physical +proportion and stature commanding and exact—in intellect richly +endowed—in natural eloquence a prodigy—in soul manifestly +“created but a little lower than the angels”—yet a slave, ay, +a fugitive slave,—trembling for his safety, hardly daring to believe that +on the American soil, a single white person could be found who would befriend +him at all hazards, for the love of God and humanity! Capable of high +attainments as an intellectual and moral being—needing nothing but a +comparatively small amount of cultivation to make him an ornament to society +and a blessing to his race—by the law of the land, by the voice of the +people, by the terms of the slave code, he was only a piece of property, a +beast of burden, a chattel personal, nevertheless! +</p> + +<p> +A beloved friend from New Bedford prevailed on Mr. D<small>OUGLASS</small> to +address the convention. He came forward to the platform with a hesitancy and +embarrassment, necessarily the attendants of a sensitive mind in such a novel +position. After apologizing for his ignorance, and reminding the audience that +slavery was a poor school for the human intellect and heart, he proceeded to +narrate some of the facts in his own history as a slave, and in the course of +his speech gave utterance to many noble thoughts and thrilling reflections. As +soon as he had taken his seat, filled with hope and admiration, I rose, and +declared that P<small>ATRICK</small> H<small>ENRY</small>, of revolutionary +fame, never made a speech more eloquent in the cause of liberty, than the one +we had just listened to from the lips of that hunted fugitive. So I believed at +that time—such is my belief now. I reminded the audience of the peril +which surrounded this self-emancipated young man at the North,—even in +Massachusetts, on the soil of the Pilgrim Fathers, among the descendants of +revolutionary sires; and I appealed to them, whether they would ever allow him +to be carried back into slavery,—law or no law, constitution or no +constitution. The response was unanimous and in +thunder-tones—“NO!” “Will you succor and protect him as +a brother-man—a resident of the old Bay State?” “YES!” +shouted the whole mass, with an energy so startling, that the ruthless tyrants +south of Mason and Dixon’s line might almost have heard the mighty burst +of feeling, and recognized it as the pledge of an invincible determination, on +the part of those who gave it, never to betray him that wanders, but to hide +the outcast, and firmly to abide the consequences. +</p> + +<p> +It was at once deeply impressed upon my mind, that, if Mr. +D<small>OUGLASS</small> could be persuaded to consecrate his time and talents +to the promotion of the anti-slavery enterprise, a powerful impetus would be +given to it, and a stunning blow at the same time inflicted on northern +prejudice against a colored complexion. I therefore endeavored to instil hope +and courage into his mind, in order that he might dare to engage in a vocation +so anomalous and responsible for a person in his situation; and I was seconded +in this effort by warm-hearted friends, especially by the late General Agent of +the Massachusetts Anti-Slavery Society, Mr. J<small>OHN</small> A. +C<small>OLLINS</small>, whose judgment in this instance entirely coincided with +my own. At first, he could give no encouragement; with unfeigned diffidence, he +expressed his conviction that he was not adequate to the performance of so +great a task; the path marked out was wholly an untrodden one; he was sincerely +apprehensive that he should do more harm than good. After much deliberation, +however, he consented to make a trial; and ever since that period, he has acted +as a lecturing agent, under the auspices either of the American or the +Massachusetts Anti-Slavery Society. In labors he has been most abundant; and +his success in combating prejudice, in gaining proselytes, in agitating the +public mind, has far surpassed the most sanguine expectations that were raised +at the commencement of his brilliant career. He has borne himself with +gentleness and meekness, yet with true manliness of character. As a public +speaker, he excels in pathos, wit, comparison, imitation, strength of +reasoning, and fluency of language. There is in him that union of head and +heart, which is indispensable to an enlightenment of the heads and a winning of +the hearts of others. May his strength continue to be equal to his day! May he +continue to “grow in grace, and in the knowledge of God,” that he +may be increasingly serviceable in the cause of bleeding humanity, whether at +home or abroad! +</p> + +<p> +It is certainly a very remarkable fact, that one of the most efficient +advocates of the slave population, now before the public, is a fugitive slave, +in the person of <i>Frederick Douglass</i>; and that the free colored +population of the United States are as ably represented by one of their own +number, in the person of <i>Charles Lenox Remond</i>, whose eloquent appeals +have extorted the highest applause of multitudes on both sides of the Atlantic. +Let the calumniators of the colored race despise themselves for their baseness +and illiberality of spirit, and henceforth cease to talk of the natural +inferiority of those who require nothing but time and opportunity to attain to +the highest point of human excellence. +</p> + +<p> +It may, perhaps, be fairly questioned, whether any other portion of the +population of the earth could have endured the privations, sufferings and +horrors of slavery, without having become more degraded in the scale of +humanity than the slaves of African descent. Nothing has been left undone to +cripple their intellects, darken their minds, debase their moral nature, +obliterate all traces of their relationship to mankind; and yet how wonderfully +they have sustained the mighty load of a most frightful bondage, under which +they have been groaning for centuries! To illustrate the effect of slavery on +the white man,—to show that he has no powers of endurance, in such a +condition, superior to those of his black brother,—<i>Daniel +O’Connell</i>, the distinguished advocate of universal emancipation, and +the mightiest champion of prostrate but not conquered Ireland, relates the +following anecdote in a speech delivered by him in the Conciliation Hall, +Dublin, before the Loyal National Repeal Association, March 31, 1845. “No +matter,” said <i>Mr. O’Connell</i>, “under what specious term +it may disguise itself, slavery is still hideous. <i>It has a natural, an +inevitable tendency to brutalize every noble faculty of man.</i> An American +sailor, who was cast away on the shore of Africa, where he was kept in slavery +for three years, was, at the expiration of that period, found to be imbruted +and stultified—he had lost all reasoning power; and having forgotten his +native language, could only utter some savage gibberish between Arabic and +English, which nobody could understand, and which even he himself found +difficulty in pronouncing. So much for the humanizing influence of <i>The +Domestic Institution</i>!” Admitting this to have been an extraordinary +case of mental deterioration, it proves at least that the white slave can sink +as low in the scale of humanity as the black one. +</p> + +<p> +<i>Mr. Douglass</i> has very properly chosen to write his own Narrative, in his +own style, and according to the best of his ability, rather than to employ some +one else. It is, therefore, entirely his own production; and, considering how +long and dark was the career he had to run as a slave,—how few have been +his opportunities to improve his mind since he broke his iron fetters,—it +is, in my judgment, highly creditable to his head and heart. He who can peruse +it without a tearful eye, a heaving breast, an afflicted spirit,—without +being filled with an unutterable abhorrence of slavery and all its abettors, +and animated with a determination to seek the immediate overthrow of that +execrable system,—without trembling for the fate of this country in the +hands of a righteous God, who is ever on the side of the oppressed, and whose +arm is not shortened that it cannot save,—must have a flinty heart, and +be qualified to act the part of a trafficker “in slaves and the souls of +men.” I am confident that it is essentially true in all its statements; +that nothing has been set down in malice, nothing exaggerated, nothing drawn +from the imagination; that it comes short of the reality, rather than +overstates a single fact in regard to <i>slavery as it is</i>. The experience +of <i>Frederick Douglass</i>, as a slave, was not a peculiar one; his lot was +not especially a hard one; his case may be regarded as a very fair specimen of +the treatment of slaves in Maryland, in which State it is conceded that they +are better fed and less cruelly treated than in Georgia, Alabama, or Louisiana. +Many have suffered incomparably more, while very few on the plantations have +suffered less, than himself. Yet how deplorable was his situation! what +terrible chastisements were inflicted upon his person! what still more shocking +outrages were perpetrated upon his mind! with all his noble powers and sublime +aspirations, how like a brute was he treated, even by those professing to have +the same mind in them that was in Christ Jesus! to what dreadful liabilities +was he continually subjected! how destitute of friendly counsel and aid, even +in his greatest extremities! how heavy was the midnight of woe which shrouded +in blackness the last ray of hope, and filled the future with terror and gloom! +what longings after freedom took possession of his breast, and how his misery +augmented, in proportion as he grew reflective and intelligent,—thus +demonstrating that a happy slave is an extinct man! how he thought, reasoned, +felt, under the lash of the driver, with the chains upon his limbs! what perils +he encountered in his endeavors to escape from his horrible doom! and how +signal have been his deliverance and preservation in the midst of a nation of +pitiless enemies! +</p> + +<p> +This Narrative contains many affecting incidents, many passages of great +eloquence and power; but I think the most thrilling one of them all is the +description <i>Douglass</i> gives of his feelings, as he stood soliloquizing +respecting his fate, and the chances of his one day being a freeman, on the +banks of the Chesapeake Bay—viewing the receding vessels as they flew +with their white wings before the breeze, and apostrophizing them as animated +by the living spirit of freedom. Who can read that passage, and be insensible +to its pathos and sublimity? Compressed into it is a whole Alexandrian library +of thought, feeling, and sentiment—all that can, all that need be urged, +in the form of expostulation, entreaty, rebuke, against that crime of +crimes,—making man the property of his fellow-man! O, how accursed is +that system, which entombs the godlike mind of man, defaces the divine image, +reduces those who by creation were crowned with glory and honor to a level with +four-footed beasts, and exalts the dealer in human flesh above all that is +called God! Why should its existence be prolonged one hour? Is it not evil, +only evil, and that continually? What does its presence imply but the absence +of all fear of God, all regard for man, on the part of the people of the United +States? Heaven speed its eternal overthrow! +</p> + +<p> +So profoundly ignorant of the nature of slavery are many persons, that they are +stubbornly incredulous whenever they read or listen to any recital of the +cruelties which are daily inflicted on its victims. They do not deny that the +slaves are held as property; but that terrible fact seems to convey to their +minds no idea of injustice, exposure to outrage, or savage barbarity. Tell them +of cruel scourgings, of mutilations and brandings, of scenes of pollution and +blood, of the banishment of all light and knowledge, and they affect to be +greatly indignant at such enormous exaggerations, such wholesale misstatements, +such abominable libels on the character of the southern planters! As if all +these direful outrages were not the natural results of slavery! As if it were +less cruel to reduce a human being to the condition of a thing, than to give +him a severe flagellation, or to deprive him of necessary food and clothing! As +if whips, chains, thumb-screws, paddles, blood-hounds, overseers, drivers, +patrols, were not all indispensable to keep the slaves down, and to give +protection to their ruthless oppressors! As if, when the marriage institution +is abolished, concubinage, adultery, and incest, must not necessarily abound; +when all the rights of humanity are annihilated, any barrier remains to protect +the victim from the fury of the spoiler; when absolute power is assumed over +life and liberty, it will not be wielded with destructive sway! Skeptics of +this character abound in society. In some few instances, their incredulity +arises from a want of reflection; but, generally, it indicates a hatred of the +light, a desire to shield slavery from the assaults of its foes, a contempt of +the colored race, whether bond or free. Such will try to discredit the shocking +tales of slaveholding cruelty which are recorded in this truthful Narrative; +but they will labor in vain. <i>Mr. Douglass</i> has frankly disclosed the +place of his birth, the names of those who claimed ownership in his body and +soul, and the names also of those who committed the crimes which he has alleged +against them. His statements, therefore, may easily be disproved, if they are +untrue. +</p> + +<p> +In the course of his Narrative, he relates two instances of murderous +cruelty,—in one of which a planter deliberately shot a slave belonging to +a neighboring plantation, who had unintentionally gotten within his lordly +domain in quest of fish; and in the other, an overseer blew out the brains of a +slave who had fled to a stream of water to escape a bloody scourging. <i>Mr. +Douglass</i> states that in neither of these instances was any thing done by +way of legal arrest or judicial investigation. The Baltimore American, of March +17, 1845, relates a similar case of atrocity, perpetrated with similar +impunity—as follows:—“<i>Shooting a slave.</i>—We +learn, upon the authority of a letter from Charles county, Maryland, received +by a gentleman of this city, that a young man, named Matthews, a nephew of +General Matthews, and whose father, it is believed, holds an office at +Washington, killed one of the slaves upon his father’s farm by shooting +him. The letter states that young Matthews had been left in charge of the farm; +that he gave an order to the servant, which was disobeyed, when he proceeded to +the house, <i>obtained a gun, and, returning, shot the servant.</i> He +immediately, the letter continues, fled to his father’s residence, where +he still remains unmolested.”—Let it never be forgotten, that no +slaveholder or overseer can be convicted of any outrage perpetrated on the +person of a slave, however diabolical it may be, on the testimony of colored +witnesses, whether bond or free. By the slave code, they are adjudged to be as +incompetent to testify against a white man, as though they were indeed a part +of the brute creation. Hence, there is no legal protection in fact, whatever +there may be in form, for the slave population; and any amount of cruelty may +be inflicted on them with impunity. Is it possible for the human mind to +conceive of a more horrible state of society? +</p> + +<p> +The effect of a religious profession on the conduct of southern masters is +vividly described in the following Narrative, and shown to be any thing but +salutary. In the nature of the case, it must be in the highest degree +pernicious. The testimony of <i>Mr. Douglass</i>, on this point, is sustained +by a cloud of witnesses, whose veracity is unimpeachable. “A +slaveholder’s profession of Christianity is a palpable imposture. He is a +felon of the highest grade. He is a man-stealer. It is of no importance what +you put in the other scale.” +</p> + +<p> +Reader! are you with the man-stealers in sympathy and purpose, or on the side +of their down-trodden victims? If with the former, then are you the foe of God +and man. If with the latter, what are you prepared to do and dare in their +behalf? Be faithful, be vigilant, be untiring in your efforts to break every +yoke, and let the oppressed go free. Come what may—cost what it +may—inscribe on the banner which you unfurl to the breeze, as your +religious and political motto—“NO COMPROMISE WITH SLAVERY! NO UNION +WITH SLAVEHOLDERS!” +</p> + +<p class="right"> +WM. LLOYD GARRISON BOSTON, +</p> + +<p class="letter"> +<i>May</i> 1, 1845. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="link2H_4_0002" id="link2H_4_0002"></a> LETTER FROM WENDELL +PHILLIPS, ESQ.</h2> + +<p class="right"> +B<small>OSTON</small>, <i>April</i> 22, 1845. +</p> + +<p> +My Dear Friend: +</p> + +<p> +You remember the old fable of “The Man and the Lion,” where the +lion complained that he should not be so misrepresented “when the lions +wrote history.” +</p> + +<p> +I am glad the time has come when the “lions write history.” We have +been left long enough to gather the character of slavery from the involuntary +evidence of the masters. One might, indeed, rest sufficiently satisfied with +what, it is evident, must be, in general, the results of such a relation, +without seeking farther to find whether they have followed in every instance. +Indeed, those who stare at the half-peck of corn a week, and love to count the +lashes on the slave’s back, are seldom the “stuff” out of +which reformers and abolitionists are to be made. I remember that, in 1838, +many were waiting for the results of the West India experiment, before they +could come into our ranks. Those “results” have come long ago; but, +alas! few of that number have come with them, as converts. A man must be +disposed to judge of emancipation by other tests than whether it has increased +the produce of sugar,—and to hate slavery for other reasons than because +it starves men and whips women,—before he is ready to lay the first stone +of his anti-slavery life. +</p> + +<p> +I was glad to learn, in your story, how early the most neglected of God’s +children waken to a sense of their rights, and of the injustice done them. +Experience is a keen teacher; and long before you had mastered your A B C, or +knew where the “white sails” of the Chesapeake were bound, you +began, I see, to gauge the wretchedness of the slave, not by his hunger and +want, not by his lashes and toil, but by the cruel and blighting death which +gathers over his soul. +</p> + +<p> +In connection with this, there is one circumstance which makes your +recollections peculiarly valuable, and renders your early insight the more +remarkable. You come from that part of the country where we are told slavery +appears with its fairest features. Let us hear, then, what it is at its best +estate—gaze on its bright side, if it has one; and then imagination may +task her powers to add dark lines to the picture, as she travels southward to +that (for the colored man) Valley of the Shadow of Death, where the Mississippi +sweeps along. +</p> + +<p> +Again, we have known you long, and can put the most entire confidence in your +truth, candor, and sincerity. Every one who has heard you speak has felt, and, +I am confident, every one who reads your book will feel, persuaded that you +give them a fair specimen of the whole truth. No one-sided portrait,—no +wholesale complaints,—but strict justice done, whenever individual +kindliness has neutralized, for a moment, the deadly system with which it was +strangely allied. You have been with us, too, some years, and can fairly +compare the twilight of rights, which your race enjoy at the North, with that +“noon of night” under which they labor south of Mason and +Dixon’s line. Tell us whether, after all, the half-free colored man of +Massachusetts is worse off than the pampered slave of the rice swamps! +</p> + +<p> +In reading your life, no one can say that we have unfairly picked out some rare +specimens of cruelty. We know that the bitter drops, which even you have +drained from the cup, are no incidental aggravations, no individual ills, but +such as must mingle always and necessarily in the lot of every slave. They are +the essential ingredients, not the occasional results, of the system. +</p> + +<p> +After all, I shall read your book with trembling for you. Some years ago, when +you were beginning to tell me your real name and birthplace, you may remember I +stopped you, and preferred to remain ignorant of all. With the exception of a +vague description, so I continued, till the other day, when you read me your +memoirs. I hardly knew, at the time, whether to thank you or not for the sight +of them, when I reflected that it was still dangerous, in Massachusetts, for +honest men to tell their names! They say the fathers, in 1776, signed the +Declaration of Independence with the halter about their necks. You, too, +publish your declaration of freedom with danger compassing you around. In all +the broad lands which the Constitution of the United States overshadows, there +is no single spot,—however narrow or desolate,—where a fugitive +slave can plant himself and say, “I am safe.” The whole armory of +Northern Law has no shield for you. I am free to say that, in your place, I +should throw the MS. into the fire. +</p> + +<p> +You, perhaps, may tell your story in safety, endeared as you are to so many +warm hearts by rare gifts, and a still rarer devotion of them to the service of +others. But it will be owing only to your labors, and the fearless efforts of +those who, trampling the laws and Constitution of the country under their feet, +are determined that they will “hide the outcast,” and that their +hearths shall be, spite of the law, an asylum for the oppressed, if, some time +or other, the humblest may stand in our streets, and bear witness in safety +against the cruelties of which he has been the victim. +</p> + +<p> +Yet it is sad to think, that these very throbbing hearts which welcome your +story, and form your best safeguard in telling it, are all beating contrary to +the “statute in such case made and provided.” Go on, my dear +friend, till you, and those who, like you, have been saved, so as by fire, from +the dark prison-house, shall stereotype these free, illegal pulses into +statutes; and New England, cutting loose from a blood-stained Union, shall +glory in being the house of refuge for the oppressed,—till we no longer +merely “<i>hide</i> the outcast,” or make a merit of standing idly +by while he is hunted in our midst; but, consecrating anew the soil of the +Pilgrims as an asylum for the oppressed, proclaim our <i>welcome</i> to the +slave so loudly, that the tones shall reach every hut in the Carolinas, and +make the broken-hearted bondman leap up at the thought of old Massachusetts. +</p> + +<p class="right"> +God speed the day! <br /> +<i>Till then, and ever,</i> <br /> +Yours truly, <br /> +W<small>ENDELL</small> P<small>HILLIPS</small> +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="link2H_4_0003" id="link2H_4_0003"></a> FREDERICK DOUGLASS.</h2> + +<p> +Frederick Douglass was born in slavery as Frederick Augustus Washington Bailey +near Easton in Talbot County, Maryland. He was not sure of the exact year of +his birth, but he knew that it was 1817 or 1818. As a young boy he was sent to +Baltimore, to be a house servant, where he learned to read and write, with the +assistance of his master’s wife. In 1838 he escaped from slavery and went +to New York City, where he married Anna Murray, a free colored woman whom he +had met in Baltimore. Soon thereafter he changed his name to Frederick +Douglass. In 1841 he addressed a convention of the Massachusetts Anti-Slavery +Society in Nantucket and so greatly impressed the group that they immediately +employed him as an agent. He was such an impressive orator that numerous +persons doubted if he had ever been a slave, so he wrote <i>Narrative Of The +Life Of Frederick Douglass</i>. During the Civil War he assisted in the +recruiting of colored men for the 54th and 55th Massachusetts Regiments and +consistently argued for the emancipation of slaves. After the war he was active +in securing and protecting the rights of the freemen. In his later years, at +different times, he was secretary of the Santo Domingo Commission, marshall and +recorder of deeds of the District of Columbia, and United States Minister to +Haiti. His other autobiographical works are <i>My Bondage And My Freedom</i> +and <i>Life And Times Of Frederick Douglass</i>, published in 1855 and 1881 +respectively. He died in 1895. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="link2HCH0001" id="link2HCH0001"></a> CHAPTER I</h2> + +<p> +I was born in Tuckahoe, near Hillsborough, and about twelve miles from Easton, +in Talbot county, Maryland. I have no accurate knowledge of my age, never +having seen any authentic record containing it. By far the larger part of the +slaves know as little of their ages as horses know of theirs, and it is the +wish of most masters within my knowledge to keep their slaves thus ignorant. I +do not remember to have ever met a slave who could tell of his birthday. They +seldom come nearer to it than planting-time, harvest-time, cherry-time, +spring-time, or fall-time. A want of information concerning my own was a source +of unhappiness to me even during childhood. The white children could tell their +ages. I could not tell why I ought to be deprived of the same privilege. I was +not allowed to make any inquiries of my master concerning it. He deemed all +such inquiries on the part of a slave improper and impertinent, and evidence of +a restless spirit. The nearest estimate I can give makes me now between +twenty-seven and twenty-eight years of age. I come to this, from hearing my +master say, some time during 1835, I was about seventeen years old. +</p> + +<p> +My mother was named Harriet Bailey. She was the daughter of Isaac and Betsey +Bailey, both colored, and quite dark. My mother was of a darker complexion than +either my grandmother or grandfather. +</p> + +<p> +My father was a white man. He was admitted to be such by all I ever heard speak +of my parentage. The opinion was also whispered that my master was my father; +but of the correctness of this opinion, I know nothing; the means of knowing +was withheld from me. My mother and I were separated when I was but an +infant—before I knew her as my mother. It is a common custom, in the part +of Maryland from which I ran away, to part children from their mothers at a +very early age. Frequently, before the child has reached its twelfth month, its +mother is taken from it, and hired out on some farm a considerable distance +off, and the child is placed under the care of an old woman, too old for field +labor. For what this separation is done, I do not know, unless it be to hinder +the development of the child’s affection toward its mother, and to blunt +and destroy the natural affection of the mother for the child. This is the +inevitable result. +</p> + +<p> +I never saw my mother, to know her as such, more than four or five times in my +life; and each of these times was very short in duration, and at night. She was +hired by a Mr. Stewart, who lived about twelve miles from my home. She made her +journeys to see me in the night, travelling the whole distance on foot, after +the performance of her day’s work. She was a field hand, and a whipping +is the penalty of not being in the field at sunrise, unless a slave has special +permission from his or her master to the contrary—a permission which they +seldom get, and one that gives to him that gives it the proud name of being a +kind master. I do not recollect of ever seeing my mother by the light of day. +She was with me in the night. She would lie down with me, and get me to sleep, +but long before I waked she was gone. Very little communication ever took place +between us. Death soon ended what little we could have while she lived, and +with it her hardships and suffering. She died when I was about seven years old, +on one of my master’s farms, near Lee’s Mill. I was not allowed to +be present during her illness, at her death, or burial. She was gone long +before I knew any thing about it. Never having enjoyed, to any considerable +extent, her soothing presence, her tender and watchful care, I received the +tidings of her death with much the same emotions I should have probably felt at +the death of a stranger. +</p> + +<p> +Called thus suddenly away, she left me without the slightest intimation of who +my father was. The whisper that my master was my father, may or may not be +true; and, true or false, it is of but little consequence to my purpose whilst +the fact remains, in all its glaring odiousness, that slaveholders have +ordained, and by law established, that the children of slave women shall in all +cases follow the condition of their mothers; and this is done too obviously to +administer to their own lusts, and make a gratification of their wicked desires +profitable as well as pleasurable; for by this cunning arrangement, the +slaveholder, in cases not a few, sustains to his slaves the double relation of +master and father. +</p> + +<p> +I know of such cases; and it is worthy of remark that such slaves invariably +suffer greater hardships, and have more to contend with, than others. They are, +in the first place, a constant offence to their mistress. She is ever disposed +to find fault with them; they can seldom do any thing to please her; she is +never better pleased than when she sees them under the lash, especially when +she suspects her husband of showing to his mulatto children favors which he +withholds from his black slaves. The master is frequently compelled to sell +this class of his slaves, out of deference to the feelings of his white wife; +and, cruel as the deed may strike any one to be, for a man to sell his own +children to human flesh-mongers, it is often the dictate of humanity for him to +do so; for, unless he does this, he must not only whip them himself, but must +stand by and see one white son tie up his brother, of but few shades darker +complexion than himself, and ply the gory lash to his naked back; and if he +lisp one word of disapproval, it is set down to his parental partiality, and +only makes a bad matter worse, both for himself and the slave whom he would +protect and defend. +</p> + +<p> +Every year brings with it multitudes of this class of slaves. It was doubtless +in consequence of a knowledge of this fact, that one great statesman of the +south predicted the downfall of slavery by the inevitable laws of population. +Whether this prophecy is ever fulfilled or not, it is nevertheless plain that a +very different-looking class of people are springing up at the south, and are +now held in slavery, from those originally brought to this country from Africa; +and if their increase do no other good, it will do away the force of the +argument, that God cursed Ham, and therefore American slavery is right. If the +lineal descendants of Ham are alone to be scripturally enslaved, it is certain +that slavery at the south must soon become unscriptural; for thousands are +ushered into the world, annually, who, like myself, owe their existence to +white fathers, and those fathers most frequently their own masters. +</p> + +<p> +I have had two masters. My first master’s name was Anthony. I do not +remember his first name. He was generally called Captain Anthony—a title +which, I presume, he acquired by sailing a craft on the Chesapeake Bay. He was +not considered a rich slaveholder. He owned two or three farms, and about +thirty slaves. His farms and slaves were under the care of an overseer. The +overseer’s name was Plummer. Mr. Plummer was a miserable drunkard, a +profane swearer, and a savage monster. He always went armed with a cowskin and +a heavy cudgel. I have known him to cut and slash the women’s heads so +horribly, that even master would be enraged at his cruelty, and would threaten +to whip him if he did not mind himself. Master, however, was not a humane +slaveholder. It required extraordinary barbarity on the part of an overseer to +affect him. He was a cruel man, hardened by a long life of slaveholding. He +would at times seem to take great pleasure in whipping a slave. I have often +been awakened at the dawn of day by the most heart-rending shrieks of an own +aunt of mine, whom he used to tie up to a joist, and whip upon her naked back +till she was literally covered with blood. No words, no tears, no prayers, from +his gory victim, seemed to move his iron heart from its bloody purpose. The +louder she screamed, the harder he whipped; and where the blood ran fastest, +there he whipped longest. He would whip her to make her scream, and whip her to +make her hush; and not until overcome by fatigue, would he cease to swing the +blood-clotted cowskin. I remember the first time I ever witnessed this horrible +exhibition. I was quite a child, but I well remember it. I never shall forget +it whilst I remember any thing. It was the first of a long series of such +outrages, of which I was doomed to be a witness and a participant. It struck me +with awful force. It was the blood-stained gate, the entrance to the hell of +slavery, through which I was about to pass. It was a most terrible spectacle. I +wish I could commit to paper the feelings with which I beheld it. +</p> + +<p> +This occurrence took place very soon after I went to live with my old master, +and under the following circumstances. Aunt Hester went out one +night,—where or for what I do not know,—and happened to be absent +when my master desired her presence. He had ordered her not to go out evenings, +and warned her that she must never let him catch her in company with a young +man, who was paying attention to her belonging to Colonel Lloyd. The young +man’s name was Ned Roberts, generally called Lloyd’s Ned. Why +master was so careful of her, may be safely left to conjecture. She was a woman +of noble form, and of graceful proportions, having very few equals, and fewer +superiors, in personal appearance, among the colored or white women of our +neighborhood. +</p> + +<p> +Aunt Hester had not only disobeyed his orders in going out, but had been found +in company with Lloyd’s Ned; which circumstance, I found, from what he +said while whipping her, was the chief offence. Had he been a man of pure +morals himself, he might have been thought interested in protecting the +innocence of my aunt; but those who knew him will not suspect him of any such +virtue. Before he commenced whipping Aunt Hester, he took her into the kitchen, +and stripped her from neck to waist, leaving her neck, shoulders, and back, +entirely naked. He then told her to cross her hands, calling her at the same +time a d——d b—-h. After crossing her hands, he tied them with +a strong rope, and led her to a stool under a large hook in the joist, put in +for the purpose. He made her get upon the stool, and tied her hands to the +hook. She now stood fair for his infernal purpose. Her arms were stretched up +at their full length, so that she stood upon the ends of her toes. He then said +to her, “Now, you d——d b—-h, I’ll learn you how +to disobey my orders!” and after rolling up his sleeves, he commenced to +lay on the heavy cowskin, and soon the warm, red blood (amid heart-rending +shrieks from her, and horrid oaths from him) came dripping to the floor. I was +so terrified and horror-stricken at the sight, that I hid myself in a closet, +and dared not venture out till long after the bloody transaction was over. I +expected it would be my turn next. It was all new to me. I had never seen any +thing like it before. I had always lived with my grandmother on the outskirts +of the plantation, where she was put to raise the children of the younger +women. I had therefore been, until now, out of the way of the bloody scenes +that often occurred on the plantation. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="link2HCH0002" id="link2HCH0002"></a> CHAPTER II</h2> + +<p> +My master’s family consisted of two sons, Andrew and Richard; one +daughter, Lucretia, and her husband, Captain Thomas Auld. They lived in one +house, upon the home plantation of Colonel Edward Lloyd. My master was Colonel +Lloyd’s clerk and superintendent. He was what might be called the +overseer of the overseers. I spent two years of childhood on this plantation in +my old master’s family. It was here that I witnessed the bloody +transaction recorded in the first chapter; and as I received my first +impressions of slavery on this plantation, I will give some description of it, +and of slavery as it there existed. The plantation is about twelve miles north +of Easton, in Talbot county, and is situated on the border of Miles River. The +principal products raised upon it were tobacco, corn, and wheat. These were +raised in great abundance; so that, with the products of this and the other +farms belonging to him, he was able to keep in almost constant employment a +large sloop, in carrying them to market at Baltimore. This sloop was named +Sally Lloyd, in honor of one of the colonel’s daughters. My +master’s son-in-law, Captain Auld, was master of the vessel; she was +otherwise manned by the colonel’s own slaves. Their names were Peter, +Isaac, Rich, and Jake. These were esteemed very highly by the other slaves, and +looked upon as the privileged ones of the plantation; for it was no small +affair, in the eyes of the slaves, to be allowed to see Baltimore. +</p> + +<p> +Colonel Lloyd kept from three to four hundred slaves on his home plantation, +and owned a large number more on the neighboring farms belonging to him. The +names of the farms nearest to the home plantation were Wye Town and New Design. +“Wye Town” was under the overseership of a man named Noah Willis. +New Design was under the overseership of a Mr. Townsend. The overseers of +these, and all the rest of the farms, numbering over twenty, received advice +and direction from the managers of the home plantation. This was the great +business place. It was the seat of government for the whole twenty farms. All +disputes among the overseers were settled here. If a slave was convicted of any +high misdemeanor, became unmanageable, or evinced a determination to run away, +he was brought immediately here, severely whipped, put on board the sloop, +carried to Baltimore, and sold to Austin Woolfolk, or some other slave-trader, +as a warning to the slaves remaining. +</p> + +<p> +Here, too, the slaves of all the other farms received their monthly allowance +of food, and their yearly clothing. The men and women slaves received, as their +monthly allowance of food, eight pounds of pork, or its equivalent in fish, and +one bushel of corn meal. Their yearly clothing consisted of two coarse linen +shirts, one pair of linen trousers, like the shirts, one jacket, one pair of +trousers for winter, made of coarse negro cloth, one pair of stockings, and one +pair of shoes; the whole of which could not have cost more than seven dollars. +The allowance of the slave children was given to their mothers, or the old +women having the care of them. The children unable to work in the field had +neither shoes, stockings, jackets, nor trousers, given to them; their clothing +consisted of two coarse linen shirts per year. When these failed them, they +went naked until the next allowance-day. Children from seven to ten years old, +of both sexes, almost naked, might be seen at all seasons of the year. +</p> + +<p> +There were no beds given the slaves, unless one coarse blanket be considered +such, and none but the men and women had these. This, however, is not +considered a very great privation. They find less difficulty from the want of +beds, than from the want of time to sleep; for when their day’s work in +the field is done, the most of them having their washing, mending, and cooking +to do, and having few or none of the ordinary facilities for doing either of +these, very many of their sleeping hours are consumed in preparing for the +field the coming day; and when this is done, old and young, male and female, +married and single, drop down side by side, on one common bed,—the cold, +damp floor,—each covering himself or herself with their miserable +blankets; and here they sleep till they are summoned to the field by the +driver’s horn. At the sound of this, all must rise, and be off to the +field. There must be no halting; every one must be at his or her post; and woe +betides them who hear not this morning summons to the field; for if they are +not awakened by the sense of hearing, they are by the sense of feeling: no age +nor sex finds any favor. Mr. Severe, the overseer, used to stand by the door of +the quarter, armed with a large hickory stick and heavy cowskin, ready to whip +any one who was so unfortunate as not to hear, or, from any other cause, was +prevented from being ready to start for the field at the sound of the horn. +</p> + +<p> +Mr. Severe was rightly named: he was a cruel man. I have seen him whip a woman, +causing the blood to run half an hour at the time; and this, too, in the midst +of her crying children, pleading for their mother’s release. He seemed to +take pleasure in manifesting his fiendish barbarity. Added to his cruelty, he +was a profane swearer. It was enough to chill the blood and stiffen the hair of +an ordinary man to hear him talk. Scarce a sentence escaped him but that was +commenced or concluded by some horrid oath. The field was the place to witness +his cruelty and profanity. His presence made it both the field of blood and of +blasphemy. From the rising till the going down of the sun, he was cursing, +raving, cutting, and slashing among the slaves of the field, in the most +frightful manner. His career was short. He died very soon after I went to +Colonel Lloyd’s; and he died as he lived, uttering, with his dying +groans, bitter curses and horrid oaths. His death was regarded by the slaves as +the result of a merciful providence. +</p> + +<p> +Mr. Severe’s place was filled by a Mr. Hopkins. He was a very different +man. He was less cruel, less profane, and made less noise, than Mr. Severe. His +course was characterized by no extraordinary demonstrations of cruelty. He +whipped, but seemed to take no pleasure in it. He was called by the slaves a +good overseer. +</p> + +<p> +The home plantation of Colonel Lloyd wore the appearance of a country village. +All the mechanical operations for all the farms were performed here. The +shoemaking and mending, the blacksmithing, cartwrighting, coopering, weaving, +and grain-grinding, were all performed by the slaves on the home plantation. +The whole place wore a business-like aspect very unlike the neighboring farms. +The number of houses, too, conspired to give it advantage over the neighboring +farms. It was called by the slaves the <i>Great House Farm.</i> Few privileges +were esteemed higher, by the slaves of the out-farms, than that of being +selected to do errands at the Great House Farm. It was associated in their +minds with greatness. A representative could not be prouder of his election to +a seat in the American Congress, than a slave on one of the out-farms would be +of his election to do errands at the Great House Farm. They regarded it as +evidence of great confidence reposed in them by their overseers; and it was on +this account, as well as a constant desire to be out of the field from under +the driver’s lash, that they esteemed it a high privilege, one worth +careful living for. He was called the smartest and most trusty fellow, who had +this honor conferred upon him the most frequently. The competitors for this +office sought as diligently to please their overseers, as the office-seekers in +the political parties seek to please and deceive the people. The same traits of +character might be seen in Colonel Lloyd’s slaves, as are seen in the +slaves of the political parties. +</p> + +<p> +The slaves selected to go to the Great House Farm, for the monthly allowance +for themselves and their fellow-slaves, were peculiarly enthusiastic. While on +their way, they would make the dense old woods, for miles around, reverberate +with their wild songs, revealing at once the highest joy and the deepest +sadness. They would compose and sing as they went along, consulting neither +time nor tune. The thought that came up, came out—if not in the word, in +the sound;—and as frequently in the one as in the other. They would +sometimes sing the most pathetic sentiment in the most rapturous tone, and the +most rapturous sentiment in the most pathetic tone. Into all of their songs +they would manage to weave something of the Great House Farm. Especially would +they do this, when leaving home. They would then sing most exultingly the +following words:— +</p> + +<p class="poem"> +“I am going away to the Great House Farm!<br /> +O, yea! O, yea! O!” +</p> + +<p class="noindent"> +This they would sing, as a chorus, to words which to many would seem unmeaning +jargon, but which, nevertheless, were full of meaning to themselves. I have +sometimes thought that the mere hearing of those songs would do more to impress +some minds with the horrible character of slavery, than the reading of whole +volumes of philosophy on the subject could do. +</p> + +<p> +I did not, when a slave, understand the deep meaning of those rude and +apparently incoherent songs. I was myself within the circle; so that I neither +saw nor heard as those without might see and hear. They told a tale of woe +which was then altogether beyond my feeble comprehension; they were tones loud, +long, and deep; they breathed the prayer and complaint of souls boiling over +with the bitterest anguish. Every tone was a testimony against slavery, and a +prayer to God for deliverance from chains. The hearing of those wild notes +always depressed my spirit, and filled me with ineffable sadness. I have +frequently found myself in tears while hearing them. The mere recurrence to +those songs, even now, afflicts me; and while I am writing these lines, an +expression of feeling has already found its way down my cheek. To those songs I +trace my first glimmering conception of the dehumanizing character of slavery. +I can never get rid of that conception. Those songs still follow me, to deepen +my hatred of slavery, and quicken my sympathies for my brethren in bonds. If +any one wishes to be impressed with the soul-killing effects of slavery, let +him go to Colonel Lloyd’s plantation, and, on allowance-day, place +himself in the deep pine woods, and there let him, in silence, analyze the +sounds that shall pass through the chambers of his soul,—and if he is not +thus impressed, it will only be because “there is no flesh in his +obdurate heart.” +</p> + +<p> +I have often been utterly astonished, since I came to the north, to find +persons who could speak of the singing, among slaves, as evidence of their +contentment and happiness. It is impossible to conceive of a greater mistake. +Slaves sing most when they are most unhappy. The songs of the slave represent +the sorrows of his heart; and he is relieved by them, only as an aching heart +is relieved by its tears. At least, such is my experience. I have often sung to +drown my sorrow, but seldom to express my happiness. Crying for joy, and +singing for joy, were alike uncommon to me while in the jaws of slavery. The +singing of a man cast away upon a desolate island might be as appropriately +considered as evidence of contentment and happiness, as the singing of a slave; +the songs of the one and of the other are prompted by the same emotion. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="link2HCH0003" id="link2HCH0003"></a> CHAPTER III</h2> + +<p> +Colonel Lloyd kept a large and finely cultivated garden, which afforded almost +constant employment for four men, besides the chief gardener, (Mr. +M’Durmond.) This garden was probably the greatest attraction of the +place. During the summer months, people came from far and near—from +Baltimore, Easton, and Annapolis—to see it. It abounded in fruits of +almost every description, from the hardy apple of the north to the delicate +orange of the south. This garden was not the least source of trouble on the +plantation. Its excellent fruit was quite a temptation to the hungry swarms of +boys, as well as the older slaves, belonging to the colonel, few of whom had +the virtue or the vice to resist it. Scarcely a day passed, during the summer, +but that some slave had to take the lash for stealing fruit. The colonel had to +resort to all kinds of stratagems to keep his slaves out of the garden. The +last and most successful one was that of tarring his fence all around; after +which, if a slave was caught with any tar upon his person, it was deemed +sufficient proof that he had either been into the garden, or had tried to get +in. In either case, he was severely whipped by the chief gardener. This plan +worked well; the slaves became as fearful of tar as of the lash. They seemed to +realize the impossibility of touching <i>tar</i> without being defiled. +</p> + +<p> +The colonel also kept a splendid riding equipage. His stable and carriage-house +presented the appearance of some of our large city livery establishments. His +horses were of the finest form and noblest blood. His carriage-house contained +three splendid coaches, three or four gigs, besides dearborns and barouches of +the most fashionable style. +</p> + +<p> +This establishment was under the care of two slaves—old Barney and young +Barney—father and son. To attend to this establishment was their sole +work. But it was by no means an easy employment; for in nothing was Colonel +Lloyd more particular than in the management of his horses. The slightest +inattention to these was unpardonable, and was visited upon those, under whose +care they were placed, with the severest punishment; no excuse could shield +them, if the colonel only suspected any want of attention to his horses—a +supposition which he frequently indulged, and one which, of course, made the +office of old and young Barney a very trying one. They never knew when they +were safe from punishment. They were frequently whipped when least deserving, +and escaped whipping when most deserving it. Every thing depended upon the +looks of the horses, and the state of Colonel Lloyd’s own mind when his +horses were brought to him for use. If a horse did not move fast enough, or +hold his head high enough, it was owing to some fault of his keepers. It was +painful to stand near the stable-door, and hear the various complaints against +the keepers when a horse was taken out for use. “This horse has not had +proper attention. He has not been sufficiently rubbed and curried, or he has +not been properly fed; his food was too wet or too dry; he got it too soon or +too late; he was too hot or too cold; he had too much hay, and not enough of +grain; or he had too much grain, and not enough of hay; instead of old +Barney’s attending to the horse, he had very improperly left it to his +son.” To all these complaints, no matter how unjust, the slave must +answer never a word. Colonel Lloyd could not brook any contradiction from a +slave. When he spoke, a slave must stand, listen, and tremble; and such was +literally the case. I have seen Colonel Lloyd make old Barney, a man between +fifty and sixty years of age, uncover his bald head, kneel down upon the cold, +damp ground, and receive upon his naked and toil-worn shoulders more than +thirty lashes at the time. Colonel Lloyd had three sons—Edward, Murray, +and Daniel,—and three sons-in-law, Mr. Winder, Mr. Nicholson, and Mr. +Lowndes. All of these lived at the Great House Farm, and enjoyed the luxury of +whipping the servants when they pleased, from old Barney down to William +Wilkes, the coach-driver. I have seen Winder make one of the house-servants +stand off from him a suitable distance to be touched with the end of his whip, +and at every stroke raise great ridges upon his back. +</p> + +<p> +To describe the wealth of Colonel Lloyd would be almost equal to describing the +riches of Job. He kept from ten to fifteen house-servants. He was said to own a +thousand slaves, and I think this estimate quite within the truth. Colonel +Lloyd owned so many that he did not know them when he saw them; nor did all the +slaves of the out-farms know him. It is reported of him, that, while riding +along the road one day, he met a colored man, and addressed him in the usual +manner of speaking to colored people on the public highways of the south: +“Well, boy, whom do you belong to?” “To Colonel Lloyd,” +replied the slave. “Well, does the colonel treat you well?” +“No, sir,” was the ready reply. “What, does he work you too +hard?” “Yes, sir.” “Well, don’t he give you +enough to eat?” “Yes, sir, he gives me enough, such as it +is.” +</p> + +<p> +The colonel, after ascertaining where the slave belonged, rode on; the man also +went on about his business, not dreaming that he had been conversing with his +master. He thought, said, and heard nothing more of the matter, until two or +three weeks afterwards. The poor man was then informed by his overseer that, +for having found fault with his master, he was now to be sold to a Georgia +trader. He was immediately chained and handcuffed; and thus, without a +moment’s warning, he was snatched away, and forever sundered, from his +family and friends, by a hand more unrelenting than death. This is the penalty +of telling the truth, of telling the simple truth, in answer to a series of +plain questions. +</p> + +<p> +It is partly in consequence of such facts, that slaves, when inquired of as to +their condition and the character of their masters, almost universally say they +are contented, and that their masters are kind. The slaveholders have been +known to send in spies among their slaves, to ascertain their views and +feelings in regard to their condition. The frequency of this has had the effect +to establish among the slaves the maxim, that a still tongue makes a wise head. +They suppress the truth rather than take the consequences of telling it, and in +so doing prove themselves a part of the human family. If they have any thing to +say of their masters, it is generally in their masters’ favor, especially +when speaking to an untried man. I have been frequently asked, when a slave, if +I had a kind master, and do not remember ever to have given a negative answer; +nor did I, in pursuing this course, consider myself as uttering what was +absolutely false; for I always measured the kindness of my master by the +standard of kindness set up among slaveholders around us. Moreover, slaves are +like other people, and imbibe prejudices quite common to others. They think +their own better than that of others. Many, under the influence of this +prejudice, think their own masters are better than the masters of other slaves; +and this, too, in some cases, when the very reverse is true. Indeed, it is not +uncommon for slaves even to fall out and quarrel among themselves about the +relative goodness of their masters, each contending for the superior goodness +of his own over that of the others. At the very same time, they mutually +execrate their masters when viewed separately. It was so on our plantation. +When Colonel Lloyd’s slaves met the slaves of Jacob Jepson, they seldom +parted without a quarrel about their masters; Colonel Lloyd’s slaves +contending that he was the richest, and Mr. Jepson’s slaves that he was +the smartest, and most of a man. Colonel Lloyd’s slaves would boast his +ability to buy and sell Jacob Jepson. Mr. Jepson’s slaves would boast his +ability to whip Colonel Lloyd. These quarrels would almost always end in a +fight between the parties, and those that whipped were supposed to have gained +the point at issue. They seemed to think that the greatness of their masters +was transferable to themselves. It was considered as being bad enough to be a +slave; but to be a poor man’s slave was deemed a disgrace indeed! +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="link2HCH0004" id="link2HCH0004"></a> CHAPTER IV</h2> + +<p> +Mr. Hopkins remained but a short time in the office of overseer. Why his career +was so short, I do not know, but suppose he lacked the necessary severity to +suit Colonel Lloyd. Mr. Hopkins was succeeded by Mr. Austin Gore, a man +possessing, in an eminent degree, all those traits of character indispensable +to what is called a first-rate overseer. Mr. Gore had served Colonel Lloyd, in +the capacity of overseer, upon one of the out-farms, and had shown himself +worthy of the high station of overseer upon the home or Great House Farm. +</p> + +<p> +Mr. Gore was proud, ambitious, and persevering. He was artful, cruel, and +obdurate. He was just the man for such a place, and it was just the place for +such a man. It afforded scope for the full exercise of all his powers, and he +seemed to be perfectly at home in it. He was one of those who could torture the +slightest look, word, or gesture, on the part of the slave, into impudence, and +would treat it accordingly. There must be no answering back to him; no +explanation was allowed a slave, showing himself to have been wrongfully +accused. Mr. Gore acted fully up to the maxim laid down by +slaveholders,—“It is better that a dozen slaves should suffer under +the lash, than that the overseer should be convicted, in the presence of the +slaves, of having been at fault.” No matter how innocent a slave might +be—it availed him nothing, when accused by Mr. Gore of any misdemeanor. +To be accused was to be convicted, and to be convicted was to be punished; the +one always following the other with immutable certainty. To escape punishment +was to escape accusation; and few slaves had the fortune to do either, under +the overseership of Mr. Gore. He was just proud enough to demand the most +debasing homage of the slave, and quite servile enough to crouch, himself, at +the feet of the master. He was ambitious enough to be contented with nothing +short of the highest rank of overseers, and persevering enough to reach the +height of his ambition. He was cruel enough to inflict the severest punishment, +artful enough to descend to the lowest trickery, and obdurate enough to be +insensible to the voice of a reproving conscience. He was, of all the +overseers, the most dreaded by the slaves. His presence was painful; his eye +flashed confusion; and seldom was his sharp, shrill voice heard, without +producing horror and trembling in their ranks. +</p> + +<p> +Mr. Gore was a grave man, and, though a young man, he indulged in no jokes, +said no funny words, seldom smiled. His words were in perfect keeping with his +looks, and his looks were in perfect keeping with his words. Overseers will +sometimes indulge in a witty word, even with the slaves; not so with Mr. Gore. +He spoke but to command, and commanded but to be obeyed; he dealt sparingly +with his words, and bountifully with his whip, never using the former where the +latter would answer as well. When he whipped, he seemed to do so from a sense +of duty, and feared no consequences. He did nothing reluctantly, no matter how +disagreeable; always at his post, never inconsistent. He never promised but to +fulfil. He was, in a word, a man of the most inflexible firmness and stone-like +coolness. +</p> + +<p> +His savage barbarity was equalled only by the consummate coolness with which he +committed the grossest and most savage deeds upon the slaves under his charge. +Mr. Gore once undertook to whip one of Colonel Lloyd’s slaves, by the +name of Demby. He had given Demby but few stripes, when, to get rid of the +scourging, he ran and plunged himself into a creek, and stood there at the +depth of his shoulders, refusing to come out. Mr. Gore told him that he would +give him three calls, and that, if he did not come out at the third call, he +would shoot him. The first call was given. Demby made no response, but stood +his ground. The second and third calls were given with the same result. Mr. +Gore then, without consultation or deliberation with any one, not even giving +Demby an additional call, raised his musket to his face, taking deadly aim at +his standing victim, and in an instant poor Demby was no more. His mangled body +sank out of sight, and blood and brains marked the water where he had stood. +</p> + +<p> +A thrill of horror flashed through every soul upon the plantation, excepting +Mr. Gore. He alone seemed cool and collected. He was asked by Colonel Lloyd and +my old master, why he resorted to this extraordinary expedient. His reply was, +(as well as I can remember,) that Demby had become unmanageable. He was setting +a dangerous example to the other slaves,—one which, if suffered to pass +without some such demonstration on his part, would finally lead to the total +subversion of all rule and order upon the plantation. He argued that if one +slave refused to be corrected, and escaped with his life, the other slaves +would soon copy the example; the result of which would be, the freedom of the +slaves, and the enslavement of the whites. Mr. Gore’s defence was +satisfactory. He was continued in his station as overseer upon the home +plantation. His fame as an overseer went abroad. His horrid crime was not even +submitted to judicial investigation. It was committed in the presence of +slaves, and they of course could neither institute a suit, nor testify against +him; and thus the guilty perpetrator of one of the bloodiest and most foul +murders goes unwhipped of justice, and uncensured by the community in which he +lives. Mr. Gore lived in St. Michael’s, Talbot county, Maryland, when I +left there; and if he is still alive, he very probably lives there now; and if +so, he is now, as he was then, as highly esteemed and as much respected as +though his guilty soul had not been stained with his brother’s blood. +</p> + +<p> +I speak advisedly when I say this,—that killing a slave, or any colored +person, in Talbot county, Maryland, is not treated as a crime, either by the +courts or the community. Mr. Thomas Lanman, of St. Michael’s, killed two +slaves, one of whom he killed with a hatchet, by knocking his brains out. He +used to boast of the commission of the awful and bloody deed. I have heard him +do so laughingly, saying, among other things, that he was the only benefactor +of his country in the company, and that when others would do as much as he had +done, we should be relieved of “the d——d niggers.” +</p> + +<p> +The wife of Mr. Giles Hicks, living but a short distance from where I used to +live, murdered my wife’s cousin, a young girl between fifteen and sixteen +years of age, mangling her person in the most horrible manner, breaking her +nose and breastbone with a stick, so that the poor girl expired in a few hours +afterward. She was immediately buried, but had not been in her untimely grave +but a few hours before she was taken up and examined by the coroner, who +decided that she had come to her death by severe beating. The offence for which +this girl was thus murdered was this:—She had been set that night to mind +Mrs. Hicks’s baby, and during the night she fell asleep, and the baby +cried. She, having lost her rest for several nights previous, did not hear the +crying. They were both in the room with Mrs. Hicks. Mrs. Hicks, finding the +girl slow to move, jumped from her bed, seized an oak stick of wood by the +fireplace, and with it broke the girl’s nose and breastbone, and thus +ended her life. I will not say that this most horrid murder produced no +sensation in the community. It did produce sensation, but not enough to bring +the murderess to punishment. There was a warrant issued for her arrest, but it +was never served. Thus she escaped not only punishment, but even the pain of +being arraigned before a court for her horrid crime. +</p> + +<p> +Whilst I am detailing bloody deeds which took place during my stay on Colonel +Lloyd’s plantation, I will briefly narrate another, which occurred about +the same time as the murder of Demby by Mr. Gore. +</p> + +<p> +Colonel Lloyd’s slaves were in the habit of spending a part of their +nights and Sundays in fishing for oysters, and in this way made up the +deficiency of their scanty allowance. An old man belonging to Colonel Lloyd, +while thus engaged, happened to get beyond the limits of Colonel Lloyd’s, +and on the premises of Mr. Beal Bondly. At this trespass, Mr. Bondly took +offence, and with his musket came down to the shore, and blew its deadly +contents into the poor old man. +</p> + +<p> +Mr. Bondly came over to see Colonel Lloyd the next day, whether to pay him for +his property, or to justify himself in what he had done, I know not. At any +rate, this whole fiendish transaction was soon hushed up. There was very little +said about it at all, and nothing done. It was a common saying, even among +little white boys, that it was worth a half-cent to kill a +“nigger,” and a half-cent to bury one. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="link2HCH0005" id="link2HCH0005"></a> CHAPTER V</h2> + +<p> +As to my own treatment while I lived on Colonel Lloyd’s plantation, it +was very similar to that of the other slave children. I was not old enough to +work in the field, and there being little else than field work to do, I had a +great deal of leisure time. The most I had to do was to drive up the cows at +evening, keep the fowls out of the garden, keep the front yard clean, and run +of errands for my old master’s daughter, Mrs. Lucretia Auld. The most of +my leisure time I spent in helping Master Daniel Lloyd in finding his birds, +after he had shot them. My connection with Master Daniel was of some advantage +to me. He became quite attached to me, and was a sort of protector of me. He +would not allow the older boys to impose upon me, and would divide his cakes +with me. +</p> + +<p> +I was seldom whipped by my old master, and suffered little from any thing else +than hunger and cold. I suffered much from hunger, but much more from cold. In +hottest summer and coldest winter, I was kept almost naked—no shoes, no +stockings, no jacket, no trousers, nothing on but a coarse tow linen shirt, +reaching only to my knees. I had no bed. I must have perished with cold, but +that, the coldest nights, I used to steal a bag which was used for carrying +corn to the mill. I would crawl into this bag, and there sleep on the cold, +damp, clay floor, with my head in and feet out. My feet have been so cracked +with the frost, that the pen with which I am writing might be laid in the +gashes. +</p> + +<p> +We were not regularly allowanced. Our food was coarse corn meal boiled. This +was called <i>mush</i>. It was put into a large wooden tray or trough, and set +down upon the ground. The children were then called, like so many pigs, and +like so many pigs they would come and devour the mush; some with oyster-shells, +others with pieces of shingle, some with naked hands, and none with spoons. He +that ate fastest got most; he that was strongest secured the best place; and +few left the trough satisfied. +</p> + +<p> +I was probably between seven and eight years old when I left Colonel +Lloyd’s plantation. I left it with joy. I shall never forget the ecstasy +with which I received the intelligence that my old master (Anthony) had +determined to let me go to Baltimore, to live with Mr. Hugh Auld, brother to my +old master’s son-in-law, Captain Thomas Auld. I received this information +about three days before my departure. They were three of the happiest days I +ever enjoyed. I spent the most part of all these three days in the creek, +washing off the plantation scurf, and preparing myself for my departure. +</p> + +<p> +The pride of appearance which this would indicate was not my own. I spent the +time in washing, not so much because I wished to, but because Mrs. Lucretia had +told me I must get all the dead skin off my feet and knees before I could go to +Baltimore; for the people in Baltimore were very cleanly, and would laugh at me +if I looked dirty. Besides, she was going to give me a pair of trousers, which +I should not put on unless I got all the dirt off me. The thought of owning a +pair of trousers was great indeed! It was almost a sufficient motive, not only +to make me take off what would be called by pig-drovers the mange, but the skin +itself. I went at it in good earnest, working for the first time with the hope +of reward. +</p> + +<p> +The ties that ordinarily bind children to their homes were all suspended in my +case. I found no severe trial in my departure. My home was charmless; it was +not home to me; on parting from it, I could not feel that I was leaving any +thing which I could have enjoyed by staying. My mother was dead, my grandmother +lived far off, so that I seldom saw her. I had two sisters and one brother, +that lived in the same house with me; but the early separation of us from our +mother had well nigh blotted the fact of our relationship from our memories. I +looked for home elsewhere, and was confident of finding none which I should +relish less than the one which I was leaving. If, however, I found in my new +home hardship, hunger, whipping, and nakedness, I had the consolation that I +should not have escaped any one of them by staying. Having already had more +than a taste of them in the house of my old master, and having endured them +there, I very naturally inferred my ability to endure them elsewhere, and +especially at Baltimore; for I had something of the feeling about Baltimore +that is expressed in the proverb, that “being hanged in England is +preferable to dying a natural death in Ireland.” I had the strongest +desire to see Baltimore. Cousin Tom, though not fluent in speech, had inspired +me with that desire by his eloquent description of the place. I could never +point out any thing at the Great House, no matter how beautiful or powerful, +but that he had seen something at Baltimore far exceeding, both in beauty and +strength, the object which I pointed out to him. Even the Great House itself, +with all its pictures, was far inferior to many buildings in Baltimore. So +strong was my desire, that I thought a gratification of it would fully +compensate for whatever loss of comforts I should sustain by the exchange. I +left without a regret, and with the highest hopes of future happiness. +</p> + +<p> +We sailed out of Miles River for Baltimore on a Saturday morning. I remember +only the day of the week, for at that time I had no knowledge of the days of +the month, nor the months of the year. On setting sail, I walked aft, and gave +to Colonel Lloyd’s plantation what I hoped would be the last look. I then +placed myself in the bows of the sloop, and there spent the remainder of the +day in looking ahead, interesting myself in what was in the distance rather +than in things near by or behind. +</p> + +<p> +In the afternoon of that day, we reached Annapolis, the capital of the State. +We stopped but a few moments, so that I had no time to go on shore. It was the +first large town that I had ever seen, and though it would look small compared +with some of our New England factory villages, I thought it a wonderful place +for its size—more imposing even than the Great House Farm! +</p> + +<p> +We arrived at Baltimore early on Sunday morning, landing at Smith’s +Wharf, not far from Bowley’s Wharf. We had on board the sloop a large +flock of sheep; and after aiding in driving them to the slaughterhouse of Mr. +Curtis on Louden Slater’s Hill, I was conducted by Rich, one of the hands +belonging on board of the sloop, to my new home in Alliciana Street, near Mr. +Gardner’s ship-yard, on Fells Point. +</p> + +<p> +Mr. and Mrs. Auld were both at home, and met me at the door with their little +son Thomas, to take care of whom I had been given. And here I saw what I had +never seen before; it was a white face beaming with the most kindly emotions; +it was the face of my new mistress, Sophia Auld. I wish I could describe the +rapture that flashed through my soul as I beheld it. It was a new and strange +sight to me, brightening up my pathway with the light of happiness. Little +Thomas was told, there was his Freddy,—and I was told to take care of +little Thomas; and thus I entered upon the duties of my new home with the most +cheering prospect ahead. +</p> + +<p> +I look upon my departure from Colonel Lloyd’s plantation as one of the +most interesting events of my life. It is possible, and even quite probable, +that but for the mere circumstance of being removed from that plantation to +Baltimore, I should have to-day, instead of being here seated by my own table, +in the enjoyment of freedom and the happiness of home, writing this Narrative, +been confined in the galling chains of slavery. Going to live at Baltimore laid +the foundation, and opened the gateway, to all my subsequent prosperity. I have +ever regarded it as the first plain manifestation of that kind providence which +has ever since attended me, and marked my life with so many favors. I regarded +the selection of myself as being somewhat remarkable. There were a number of +slave children that might have been sent from the plantation to Baltimore. +There were those younger, those older, and those of the same age. I was chosen +from among them all, and was the first, last, and only choice. +</p> + +<p> +I may be deemed superstitious, and even egotistical, in regarding this event as +a special interposition of divine Providence in my favor. But I should be false +to the earliest sentiments of my soul, if I suppressed the opinion. I prefer to +be true to myself, even at the hazard of incurring the ridicule of others, +rather than to be false, and incur my own abhorrence. From my earliest +recollection, I date the entertainment of a deep conviction that slavery would +not always be able to hold me within its foul embrace; and in the darkest hours +of my career in slavery, this living word of faith and spirit of hope departed +not from me, but remained like ministering angels to cheer me through the +gloom. This good spirit was from God, and to him I offer thanksgiving and +praise. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="link2HCH0006" id="link2HCH0006"></a> CHAPTER VI</h2> + +<p> +My new mistress proved to be all she appeared when I first met her at the +door,—a woman of the kindest heart and finest feelings. She had never had +a slave under her control previously to myself, and prior to her marriage she +had been dependent upon her own industry for a living. She was by trade a +weaver; and by constant application to her business, she had been in a good +degree preserved from the blighting and dehumanizing effects of slavery. I was +utterly astonished at her goodness. I scarcely knew how to behave towards her. +She was entirely unlike any other white woman I had ever seen. I could not +approach her as I was accustomed to approach other white ladies. My early +instruction was all out of place. The crouching servility, usually so +acceptable a quality in a slave, did not answer when manifested toward her. Her +favor was not gained by it; she seemed to be disturbed by it. She did not deem +it impudent or unmannerly for a slave to look her in the face. The meanest +slave was put fully at ease in her presence, and none left without feeling +better for having seen her. Her face was made of heavenly smiles, and her voice +of tranquil music. +</p> + +<p> +But, alas! this kind heart had but a short time to remain such. The fatal +poison of irresponsible power was already in her hands, and soon commenced its +infernal work. That cheerful eye, under the influence of slavery, soon became +red with rage; that voice, made all of sweet accord, changed to one of harsh +and horrid discord; and that angelic face gave place to that of a demon. +</p> + +<p> +Very soon after I went to live with Mr. and Mrs. Auld, she very kindly +commenced to teach me the A, B, C. After I had learned this, she assisted me in +learning to spell words of three or four letters. Just at this point of my +progress, Mr. Auld found out what was going on, and at once forbade Mrs. Auld +to instruct me further, telling her, among other things, that it was unlawful, +as well as unsafe, to teach a slave to read. To use his own words, further, he +said, “If you give a nigger an inch, he will take an ell. A nigger should +know nothing but to obey his master—to do as he is told to do. Learning +would <i>spoil</i> the best nigger in the world. Now,” said he, “if +you teach that nigger (speaking of myself) how to read, there would be no +keeping him. It would forever unfit him to be a slave. He would at once become +unmanageable, and of no value to his master. As to himself, it could do him no +good, but a great deal of harm. It would make him discontented and +unhappy.” These words sank deep into my heart, stirred up sentiments +within that lay slumbering, and called into existence an entirely new train of +thought. It was a new and special revelation, explaining dark and mysterious +things, with which my youthful understanding had struggled, but struggled in +vain. I now understood what had been to me a most perplexing +difficulty—to wit, the white man’s power to enslave the black man. +It was a grand achievement, and I prized it highly. From that moment, I +understood the pathway from slavery to freedom. It was just what I wanted, and +I got it at a time when I the least expected it. Whilst I was saddened by the +thought of losing the aid of my kind mistress, I was gladdened by the +invaluable instruction which, by the merest accident, I had gained from my +master. Though conscious of the difficulty of learning without a teacher, I set +out with high hope, and a fixed purpose, at whatever cost of trouble, to learn +how to read. The very decided manner with which he spoke, and strove to impress +his wife with the evil consequences of giving me instruction, served to +convince me that he was deeply sensible of the truths he was uttering. It gave +me the best assurance that I might rely with the utmost confidence on the +results which, he said, would flow from teaching me to read. What he most +dreaded, that I most desired. What he most loved, that I most hated. That which +to him was a great evil, to be carefully shunned, was to me a great good, to be +diligently sought; and the argument which he so warmly urged, against my +learning to read, only served to inspire me with a desire and determination to +learn. In learning to read, I owe almost as much to the bitter opposition of my +master, as to the kindly aid of my mistress. I acknowledge the benefit of both. +</p> + +<p> +I had resided but a short time in Baltimore before I observed a marked +difference, in the treatment of slaves, from that which I had witnessed in the +country. A city slave is almost a freeman, compared with a slave on the +plantation. He is much better fed and clothed, and enjoys privileges altogether +unknown to the slave on the plantation. There is a vestige of decency, a sense +of shame, that does much to curb and check those outbreaks of atrocious cruelty +so commonly enacted upon the plantation. He is a desperate slaveholder, who +will shock the humanity of his non-slaveholding neighbors with the cries of his +lacerated slave. Few are willing to incur the odium attaching to the reputation +of being a cruel master; and above all things, they would not be known as not +giving a slave enough to eat. Every city slaveholder is anxious to have it +known of him, that he feeds his slaves well; and it is due to them to say, that +most of them do give their slaves enough to eat. There are, however, some +painful exceptions to this rule. Directly opposite to us, on Philpot Street, +lived Mr. Thomas Hamilton. He owned two slaves. Their names were Henrietta and +Mary. Henrietta was about twenty-two years of age, Mary was about fourteen; and +of all the mangled and emaciated creatures I ever looked upon, these two were +the most so. His heart must be harder than stone, that could look upon these +unmoved. The head, neck, and shoulders of Mary were literally cut to pieces. I +have frequently felt her head, and found it nearly covered with festering +sores, caused by the lash of her cruel mistress. I do not know that her master +ever whipped her, but I have been an eye-witness to the cruelty of Mrs. +Hamilton. I used to be in Mr. Hamilton’s house nearly every day. Mrs. +Hamilton used to sit in a large chair in the middle of the room, with a heavy +cowskin always by her side, and scarce an hour passed during the day but was +marked by the blood of one of these slaves. The girls seldom passed her without +her saying, “Move faster, you <i>black gip!</i>” at the same time +giving them a blow with the cowskin over the head or shoulders, often drawing +the blood. She would then say, “Take that, you <i>black gip!</i>” +continuing, “If you don’t move faster, I’ll move you!” +Added to the cruel lashings to which these slaves were subjected, they were +kept nearly half-starved. They seldom knew what it was to eat a full meal. I +have seen Mary contending with the pigs for the offal thrown into the street. +So much was Mary kicked and cut to pieces, that she was oftener called +“<i>pecked</i>” than by her name. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="link2HCH0007" id="link2HCH0007"></a> CHAPTER VII</h2> + +<p> +I lived in Master Hugh’s family about seven years. During this time, I +succeeded in learning to read and write. In accomplishing this, I was compelled +to resort to various stratagems. I had no regular teacher. My mistress, who had +kindly commenced to instruct me, had, in compliance with the advice and +direction of her husband, not only ceased to instruct, but had set her face +against my being instructed by any one else. It is due, however, to my mistress +to say of her, that she did not adopt this course of treatment immediately. She +at first lacked the depravity indispensable to shutting me up in mental +darkness. It was at least necessary for her to have some training in the +exercise of irresponsible power, to make her equal to the task of treating me +as though I were a brute. +</p> + +<p> +My mistress was, as I have said, a kind and tender-hearted woman; and in the +simplicity of her soul she commenced, when I first went to live with her, to +treat me as she supposed one human being ought to treat another. In entering +upon the duties of a slaveholder, she did not seem to perceive that I sustained +to her the relation of a mere chattel, and that for her to treat me as a human +being was not only wrong, but dangerously so. Slavery proved as injurious to +her as it did to me. When I went there, she was a pious, warm, and +tender-hearted woman. There was no sorrow or suffering for which she had not a +tear. She had bread for the hungry, clothes for the naked, and comfort for +every mourner that came within her reach. Slavery soon proved its ability to +divest her of these heavenly qualities. Under its influence, the tender heart +became stone, and the lamblike disposition gave way to one of tiger-like +fierceness. The first step in her downward course was in her ceasing to +instruct me. She now commenced to practise her husband’s precepts. She +finally became even more violent in her opposition than her husband himself. +She was not satisfied with simply doing as well as he had commanded; she seemed +anxious to do better. Nothing seemed to make her more angry than to see me with +a newspaper. She seemed to think that here lay the danger. I have had her rush +at me with a face made all up of fury, and snatch from me a newspaper, in a +manner that fully revealed her apprehension. She was an apt woman; and a little +experience soon demonstrated, to her satisfaction, that education and slavery +were incompatible with each other. +</p> + +<p> +From this time I was most narrowly watched. If I was in a separate room any +considerable length of time, I was sure to be suspected of having a book, and +was at once called to give an account of myself. All this, however, was too +late. The first step had been taken. Mistress, in teaching me the alphabet, had +given me the <i>inch,</i> and no precaution could prevent me from taking the +<i>ell.</i> +</p> +<p> +The plan which I adopted, and the one by which I was most successful, was that +of making friends of all the little white boys whom I met in the street. As +many of these as I could, I converted into teachers. With their kindly aid, +obtained at different times and in different places, I finally succeeded in +learning to read. When I was sent of errands, I always took my book with me, +and by going one part of my errand quickly, I found time to get a lesson before +my return. I used also to carry bread with me, enough of which was always in +the house, and to which I was always welcome; for I was much better off in this +regard than many of the poor white children in our neighborhood. This bread I +used to bestow upon the hungry little urchins, who, in return, would give me +that more valuable bread of knowledge. I am strongly tempted to give the names +of two or three of those little boys, as a testimonial of the gratitude and +affection I bear them; but prudence forbids;—not that it would injure me, +but it might embarrass them; for it is almost an unpardonable offence to teach +slaves to read in this Christian country. It is enough to say of the dear +little fellows, that they lived on Philpot Street, very near Durgin and +Bailey’s ship-yard. I used to talk this matter of slavery over with them. +I would sometimes say to them, I wished I could be as free as they would be +when they got to be men. “You will be free as soon as you are twenty-one, +<i>but I am a slave for life!</i> Have not I as good a right to be free as you +have?” These words used to trouble them; they would express for me the +liveliest sympathy, and console me with the hope that something would occur by +which I might be free. +</p> -Section 1. General Terms of Use and Redistributing Project Gutenberg-tm -electronic works +<p> +I was now about twelve years old, and the thought of being <i>a slave for +life</i> began to bear heavily upon my heart. Just about this time, I got hold +of a book entitled “The Columbian Orator.” Every opportunity I got, +I used to read this book. Among much of other interesting matter, I found in it +a dialogue between a master and his slave. The slave was represented as having +run away from his master three times. The dialogue represented the conversation +which took place between them, when the slave was retaken the third time. In +this dialogue, the whole argument in behalf of slavery was brought forward by +the master, all of which was disposed of by the slave. The slave was made to +say some very smart as well as impressive things in reply to his +master—things which had the desired though unexpected effect; for the +conversation resulted in the voluntary emancipation of the slave on the part of +the master. +</p> -1.A. By reading or using any part of this Project Gutenberg-tm +<p> +In the same book, I met with one of Sheridan’s mighty speeches on and in +behalf of Catholic emancipation. These were choice documents to me. I read them +over and over again with unabated interest. They gave tongue to interesting +thoughts of my own soul, which had frequently flashed through my mind, and died +away for want of utterance. The moral which I gained from the dialogue was the +power of truth over the conscience of even a slaveholder. What I got from +Sheridan was a bold denunciation of slavery, and a powerful vindication of +human rights. The reading of these documents enabled me to utter my thoughts, +and to meet the arguments brought forward to sustain slavery; but while they +relieved me of one difficulty, they brought on another even more painful than +the one of which I was relieved. The more I read, the more I was led to abhor +and detest my enslavers. I could regard them in no other light than a band of +successful robbers, who had left their homes, and gone to Africa, and stolen us +from our homes, and in a strange land reduced us to slavery. I loathed them as +being the meanest as well as the most wicked of men. As I read and contemplated +the subject, behold! that very discontentment which Master Hugh had predicted +would follow my learning to read had already come, to torment and sting my soul +to unutterable anguish. As I writhed under it, I would at times feel that +learning to read had been a curse rather than a blessing. It had given me a +view of my wretched condition, without the remedy. It opened my eyes to the +horrible pit, but to no ladder upon which to get out. In moments of agony, I +envied my fellow-slaves for their stupidity. I have often wished myself a +beast. I preferred the condition of the meanest reptile to my own. Any thing, +no matter what, to get rid of thinking! It was this everlasting thinking of my +condition that tormented me. There was no getting rid of it. It was pressed +upon me by every object within sight or hearing, animate or inanimate. The +silver trump of freedom had roused my soul to eternal wakefulness. Freedom now +appeared, to disappear no more forever. It was heard in every sound, and seen +in every thing. It was ever present to torment me with a sense of my wretched +condition. I saw nothing without seeing it, I heard nothing without hearing it, +and felt nothing without feeling it. It looked from every star, it smiled in +every calm, breathed in every wind, and moved in every storm. +</p> + +<p> +I often found myself regretting my own existence, and wishing myself dead; and +but for the hope of being free, I have no doubt but that I should have killed +myself, or done something for which I should have been killed. While in this +state of mind, I was eager to hear any one speak of slavery. I was a ready +listener. Every little while, I could hear something about the abolitionists. +It was some time before I found what the word meant. It was always used in such +connections as to make it an interesting word to me. If a slave ran away and +succeeded in getting clear, or if a slave killed his master, set fire to a +barn, or did any thing very wrong in the mind of a slaveholder, it was spoken +of as the fruit of <i>abolition.</i> Hearing the word in this connection very +often, I set about learning what it meant. The dictionary afforded me little or +no help. I found it was “the act of abolishing;” but then I did not +know what was to be abolished. Here I was perplexed. I did not dare to ask any +one about its meaning, for I was satisfied that it was something they wanted me +to know very little about. After a patient waiting, I got one of our city +papers, containing an account of the number of petitions from the north, +praying for the abolition of slavery in the District of Columbia, and of the +slave trade between the States. From this time I understood the words +<i>abolition</i> and <i>abolitionist,</i> and always drew near when that word +was spoken, expecting to hear something of importance to myself and +fellow-slaves. The light broke in upon me by degrees. I went one day down on +the wharf of Mr. Waters; and seeing two Irishmen unloading a scow of stone, I +went, unasked, and helped them. When we had finished, one of them came to me +and asked me if I were a slave. I told him I was. He asked, “Are ye a +slave for life?” I told him that I was. The good Irishman seemed to be +deeply affected by the statement. He said to the other that it was a pity so +fine a little fellow as myself should be a slave for life. He said it was a +shame to hold me. They both advised me to run away to the north; that I should +find friends there, and that I should be free. I pretended not to be interested +in what they said, and treated them as if I did not understand them; for I +feared they might be treacherous. White men have been known to encourage slaves +to escape, and then, to get the reward, catch them and return them to their +masters. I was afraid that these seemingly good men might use me so; but I +nevertheless remembered their advice, and from that time I resolved to run +away. I looked forward to a time at which it would be safe for me to escape. I +was too young to think of doing so immediately; besides, I wished to learn how +to write, as I might have occasion to write my own pass. I consoled myself with +the hope that I should one day find a good chance. Meanwhile, I would learn to +write. +</p> + +<p> +The idea as to how I might learn to write was suggested to me by being in +Durgin and Bailey’s ship-yard, and frequently seeing the ship carpenters, +after hewing, and getting a piece of timber ready for use, write on the timber +the name of that part of the ship for which it was intended. When a piece of +timber was intended for the larboard side, it would be marked +thus—“L.” When a piece was for the starboard side, it would +be marked thus—“S.” A piece for the larboard side forward, +would be marked thus—“L. F.” When a piece was for starboard +side forward, it would be marked thus—“S. F.” For larboard +aft, it would be marked thus—“L. A.” For starboard aft, it +would be marked thus—“S. A.” I soon learned the names of +these letters, and for what they were intended when placed upon a piece of +timber in the ship-yard. I immediately commenced copying them, and in a short +time was able to make the four letters named. After that, when I met with any +boy who I knew could write, I would tell him I could write as well as he. The +next word would be, “I don’t believe you. Let me see you try +it.” I would then make the letters which I had been so fortunate as to +learn, and ask him to beat that. In this way I got a good many lessons in +writing, which it is quite possible I should never have gotten in any other +way. During this time, my copy-book was the board fence, brick wall, and +pavement; my pen and ink was a lump of chalk. With these, I learned mainly how +to write. I then commenced and continued copying the Italics in Webster’s +Spelling Book, until I could make them all without looking on the book. By this +time, my little Master Thomas had gone to school, and learned how to write, and +had written over a number of copy-books. These had been brought home, and shown +to some of our near neighbors, and then laid aside. My mistress used to go to +class meeting at the Wilk Street meetinghouse every Monday afternoon, and leave +me to take care of the house. When left thus, I used to spend the time in +writing in the spaces left in Master Thomas’s copy-book, copying what he +had written. I continued to do this until I could write a hand very similar to +that of Master Thomas. Thus, after a long, tedious effort for years, I finally +succeeded in learning how to write. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="link2HCH0008" id="link2HCH0008"></a> CHAPTER VIII</h2> + +<p> +In a very short time after I went to live at Baltimore, my old master’s +youngest son Richard died; and in about three years and six months after his +death, my old master, Captain Anthony, died, leaving only his son, Andrew, and +daughter, Lucretia, to share his estate. He died while on a visit to see his +daughter at Hillsborough. Cut off thus unexpectedly, he left no will as to the +disposal of his property. It was therefore necessary to have a valuation of the +property, that it might be equally divided between Mrs. Lucretia and Master +Andrew. I was immediately sent for, to be valued with the other property. Here +again my feelings rose up in detestation of slavery. I had now a new conception +of my degraded condition. Prior to this, I had become, if not insensible to my +lot, at least partly so. I left Baltimore with a young heart overborne with +sadness, and a soul full of apprehension. I took passage with Captain Rowe, in +the schooner Wild Cat, and, after a sail of about twenty-four hours, I found +myself near the place of my birth. I had now been absent from it almost, if not +quite, five years. I, however, remembered the place very well. I was only about +five years old when I left it, to go and live with my old master on Colonel +Lloyd’s plantation; so that I was now between ten and eleven years old. +</p> + +<p> +We were all ranked together at the valuation. Men and women, old and young, +married and single, were ranked with horses, sheep, and swine. There were +horses and men, cattle and women, pigs and children, all holding the same rank +in the scale of being, and were all subjected to the same narrow examination. +Silvery-headed age and sprightly youth, maids and matrons, had to undergo the +same indelicate inspection. At this moment, I saw more clearly than ever the +brutalizing effects of slavery upon both slave and slaveholder. +</p> + +<p> +After the valuation, then came the division. I have no language to express the +high excitement and deep anxiety which were felt among us poor slaves during +this time. Our fate for life was now to be decided. We had no more voice in +that decision than the brutes among whom we were ranked. A single word from the +white men was enough—against all our wishes, prayers, and +entreaties—to sunder forever the dearest friends, dearest kindred, and +strongest ties known to human beings. In addition to the pain of separation, +there was the horrid dread of falling into the hands of Master Andrew. He was +known to us all as being a most cruel wretch,—a common drunkard, who had, +by his reckless mismanagement and profligate dissipation, already wasted a +large portion of his father’s property. We all felt that we might as well +be sold at once to the Georgia traders, as to pass into his hands; for we knew +that that would be our inevitable condition,—a condition held by us all +in the utmost horror and dread. +</p> + +<p> +I suffered more anxiety than most of my fellow-slaves. I had known what it was +to be kindly treated; they had known nothing of the kind. They had seen little +or nothing of the world. They were in very deed men and women of sorrow, and +acquainted with grief. Their backs had been made familiar with the bloody lash, +so that they had become callous; mine was yet tender; for while at Baltimore I +got few whippings, and few slaves could boast of a kinder master and mistress +than myself; and the thought of passing out of their hands into those of Master +Andrew—a man who, but a few days before, to give me a sample of his +bloody disposition, took my little brother by the throat, threw him on the +ground, and with the heel of his boot stamped upon his head till the blood +gushed from his nose and ears—was well calculated to make me anxious as +to my fate. After he had committed this savage outrage upon my brother, he +turned to me, and said that was the way he meant to serve me one of these +days,—meaning, I suppose, when I came into his possession. +</p> + +<p> +Thanks to a kind Providence, I fell to the portion of Mrs. Lucretia, and was +sent immediately back to Baltimore, to live again in the family of Master Hugh. +Their joy at my return equalled their sorrow at my departure. It was a glad day +to me. I had escaped a worse than lion’s jaws. I was absent from +Baltimore, for the purpose of valuation and division, just about one month, and +it seemed to have been six. +</p> + +<p> +Very soon after my return to Baltimore, my mistress, Lucretia, died, leaving +her husband and one child, Amanda; and in a very short time after her death, +Master Andrew died. Now all the property of my old master, slaves included, was +in the hands of strangers,—strangers who had had nothing to do with +accumulating it. Not a slave was left free. All remained slaves, from the +youngest to the oldest. If any one thing in my experience, more than another, +served to deepen my conviction of the infernal character of slavery, and to +fill me with unutterable loathing of slaveholders, it was their base +ingratitude to my poor old grandmother. She had served my old master faithfully +from youth to old age. She had been the source of all his wealth; she had +peopled his plantation with slaves; she had become a great grandmother in his +service. She had rocked him in infancy, attended him in childhood, served him +through life, and at his death wiped from his icy brow the cold death-sweat, +and closed his eyes forever. She was nevertheless left a slave—a slave +for life—a slave in the hands of strangers; and in their hands she saw +her children, her grandchildren, and her great-grandchildren, divided, like so +many sheep, without being gratified with the small privilege of a single word, +as to their or her own destiny. And, to cap the climax of their base +ingratitude and fiendish barbarity, my grandmother, who was now very old, +having outlived my old master and all his children, having seen the beginning +and end of all of them, and her present owners finding she was of but little +value, her frame already racked with the pains of old age, and complete +helplessness fast stealing over her once active limbs, they took her to the +woods, built her a little hut, put up a little mud-chimney, and then made her +welcome to the privilege of supporting herself there in perfect loneliness; +thus virtually turning her out to die! If my poor old grandmother now lives, +she lives to suffer in utter loneliness; she lives to remember and mourn over +the loss of children, the loss of grandchildren, and the loss of +great-grandchildren. They are, in the language of the slave’s poet, +Whittier,— +</p> + +<p class="poem"> +“Gone, gone, sold and gone<br /> +To the rice swamp dank and lone,<br /> +Where the slave-whip ceaseless swings,<br /> +Where the noisome insect stings,<br /> +Where the fever-demon strews<br /> +Poison with the falling dews,<br /> +Where the sickly sunbeams glare<br /> +Through the hot and misty air:—<br /> +Gone, gone, sold and gone<br /> +To the rice swamp dank and lone,<br /> +From Virginia hills and waters—<br /> +Woe is me, my stolen daughters!” +</p> + +<p> +The hearth is desolate. The children, the unconscious children, who once sang +and danced in her presence, are gone. She gropes her way, in the darkness of +age, for a drink of water. Instead of the voices of her children, she hears by +day the moans of the dove, and by night the screams of the hideous owl. All is +gloom. The grave is at the door. And now, when weighed down by the pains and +aches of old age, when the head inclines to the feet, when the beginning and +ending of human existence meet, and helpless infancy and painful old age +combine together—at this time, this most needful time, the time for the +exercise of that tenderness and affection which children only can exercise +towards a declining parent—my poor old grandmother, the devoted mother of +twelve children, is left all alone, in yonder little hut, before a few dim +embers. She stands—she sits—she staggers—she falls—she +groans—she dies—and there are none of her children or grandchildren +present, to wipe from her wrinkled brow the cold sweat of death, or to place +beneath the sod her fallen remains. Will not a righteous God visit for these +things? +</p> + +<p> +In about two years after the death of Mrs. Lucretia, Master Thomas married his +second wife. Her name was Rowena Hamilton. She was the eldest daughter of Mr. +William Hamilton. Master now lived in St. Michael’s. Not long after his +marriage, a misunderstanding took place between himself and Master Hugh; and as +a means of punishing his brother, he took me from him to live with himself at +St. Michael’s. Here I underwent another most painful separation. It, +however, was not so severe as the one I dreaded at the division of property; +for, during this interval, a great change had taken place in Master Hugh and +his once kind and affectionate wife. The influence of brandy upon him, and of +slavery upon her, had effected a disastrous change in the characters of both; +so that, as far as they were concerned, I thought I had little to lose by the +change. But it was not to them that I was attached. It was to those little +Baltimore boys that I felt the strongest attachment. I had received many good +lessons from them, and was still receiving them, and the thought of leaving +them was painful indeed. I was leaving, too, without the hope of ever being +allowed to return. Master Thomas had said he would never let me return again. +The barrier betwixt himself and brother he considered impassable. +</p> + +<p> +I then had to regret that I did not at least make the attempt to carry out my +resolution to run away; for the chances of success are tenfold greater from the +city than from the country. +</p> + +<p> +I sailed from Baltimore for St. Michael’s in the sloop Amanda, Captain +Edward Dodson. On my passage, I paid particular attention to the direction +which the steamboats took to go to Philadelphia. I found, instead of going +down, on reaching North Point they went up the bay, in a north-easterly +direction. I deemed this knowledge of the utmost importance. My determination +to run away was again revived. I resolved to wait only so long as the offering +of a favorable opportunity. When that came, I was determined to be off. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="link2HCH0009" id="link2HCH0009"></a> CHAPTER IX</h2> + +<p> +I have now reached a period of my life when I can give dates. I left Baltimore, +and went to live with Master Thomas Auld, at St. Michael’s, in March, +1832. It was now more than seven years since I lived with him in the family of +my old master, on Colonel Lloyd’s plantation. We of course were now +almost entire strangers to each other. He was to me a new master, and I to him +a new slave. I was ignorant of his temper and disposition; he was equally so of +mine. A very short time, however, brought us into full acquaintance with each +other. I was made acquainted with his wife not less than with himself. They +were well matched, being equally mean and cruel. I was now, for the first time +during a space of more than seven years, made to feel the painful gnawings of +hunger—a something which I had not experienced before since I left +Colonel Lloyd’s plantation. It went hard enough with me then, when I +could look back to no period at which I had enjoyed a sufficiency. It was +tenfold harder after living in Master Hugh’s family, where I had always +had enough to eat, and of that which was good. I have said Master Thomas was a +mean man. He was so. Not to give a slave enough to eat, is regarded as the most +aggravated development of meanness even among slaveholders. The rule is, no +matter how coarse the food, only let there be enough of it. This is the theory; +and in the part of Maryland from which I came, it is the general +practice,—though there are many exceptions. Master Thomas gave us enough +of neither coarse nor fine food. There were four slaves of us in the +kitchen—my sister Eliza, my aunt Priscilla, Henny, and myself; and we +were allowed less than a half of a bushel of corn-meal per week, and very +little else, either in the shape of meat or vegetables. It was not enough for +us to subsist upon. We were therefore reduced to the wretched necessity of +living at the expense of our neighbors. This we did by begging and stealing, +whichever came handy in the time of need, the one being considered as +legitimate as the other. A great many times have we poor creatures been nearly +perishing with hunger, when food in abundance lay mouldering in the safe and +smoke-house, and our pious mistress was aware of the fact; and yet that +mistress and her husband would kneel every morning, and pray that God would +bless them in basket and store! +</p> + +<p> +Bad as all slaveholders are, we seldom meet one destitute of every element of +character commanding respect. My master was one of this rare sort. I do not +know of one single noble act ever performed by him. The leading trait in his +character was meanness; and if there were any other element in his nature, it +was made subject to this. He was mean; and, like most other mean men, he lacked +the ability to conceal his meanness. Captain Auld was not born a slaveholder. +He had been a poor man, master only of a Bay craft. He came into possession of +all his slaves by marriage; and of all men, adopted slaveholders are the worst. +He was cruel, but cowardly. He commanded without firmness. In the enforcement +of his rules, he was at times rigid, and at times lax. At times, he spoke to +his slaves with the firmness of Napoleon and the fury of a demon; at other +times, he might well be mistaken for an inquirer who had lost his way. He did +nothing of himself. He might have passed for a lion, but for his ears. In all +things noble which he attempted, his own meanness shone most conspicuous. His +airs, words, and actions, were the airs, words, and actions of born +slaveholders, and, being assumed, were awkward enough. He was not even a good +imitator. He possessed all the disposition to deceive, but wanted the power. +Having no resources within himself, he was compelled to be the copyist of many, +and being such, he was forever the victim of inconsistency; and of consequence +he was an object of contempt, and was held as such even by his slaves. The +luxury of having slaves of his own to wait upon him was something new and +unprepared for. He was a slaveholder without the ability to hold slaves. He +found himself incapable of managing his slaves either by force, fear, or fraud. +We seldom called him “master;” we generally called him +“Captain Auld,” and were hardly disposed to title him at all. I +doubt not that our conduct had much to do with making him appear awkward, and +of consequence fretful. Our want of reverence for him must have perplexed him +greatly. He wished to have us call him master, but lacked the firmness +necessary to command us to do so. His wife used to insist upon our calling him +so, but to no purpose. In August, 1832, my master attended a Methodist +camp-meeting held in the Bay-side, Talbot county, and there experienced +religion. I indulged a faint hope that his conversion would lead him to +emancipate his slaves, and that, if he did not do this, it would, at any rate, +make him more kind and humane. I was disappointed in both these respects. It +neither made him to be humane to his slaves, nor to emancipate them. If it had +any effect on his character, it made him more cruel and hateful in all his +ways; for I believe him to have been a much worse man after his conversion than +before. Prior to his conversion, he relied upon his own depravity to shield and +sustain him in his savage barbarity; but after his conversion, he found +religious sanction and support for his slaveholding cruelty. He made the +greatest pretensions to piety. His house was the house of prayer. He prayed +morning, noon, and night. He very soon distinguished himself among his +brethren, and was soon made a class-leader and exhorter. His activity in +revivals was great, and he proved himself an instrument in the hands of the +church in converting many souls. His house was the preachers’ home. They +used to take great pleasure in coming there to put up; for while he starved us, +he stuffed them. We have had three or four preachers there at a time. The names +of those who used to come most frequently while I lived there, were Mr. Storks, +Mr. Ewery, Mr. Humphry, and Mr. Hickey. I have also seen Mr. George Cookman at +our house. We slaves loved Mr. Cookman. We believed him to be a good man. We +thought him instrumental in getting Mr. Samuel Harrison, a very rich +slaveholder, to emancipate his slaves; and by some means got the impression +that he was laboring to effect the emancipation of all the slaves. When he was +at our house, we were sure to be called in to prayers. When the others were +there, we were sometimes called in and sometimes not. Mr. Cookman took more +notice of us than either of the other ministers. He could not come among us +without betraying his sympathy for us, and, stupid as we were, we had the +sagacity to see it. +</p> + +<p> +While I lived with my master in St. Michael’s, there was a white young +man, a Mr. Wilson, who proposed to keep a Sabbath school for the instruction of +such slaves as might be disposed to learn to read the New Testament. We met but +three times, when Mr. West and Mr. Fairbanks, both class-leaders, with many +others, came upon us with sticks and other missiles, drove us off, and forbade +us to meet again. Thus ended our little Sabbath school in the pious town of St. +Michael’s. +</p> + +<p> +I have said my master found religious sanction for his cruelty. As an example, +I will state one of many facts going to prove the charge. I have seen him tie +up a lame young woman, and whip her with a heavy cowskin upon her naked +shoulders, causing the warm red blood to drip; and, in justification of the +bloody deed, he would quote this passage of Scripture—“He that +knoweth his master’s will, and doeth it not, shall be beaten with many +stripes.” +</p> + +<p> +Master would keep this lacerated young woman tied up in this horrid situation +four or five hours at a time. I have known him to tie her up early in the +morning, and whip her before breakfast; leave her, go to his store, return at +dinner, and whip her again, cutting her in the places already made raw with his +cruel lash. The secret of master’s cruelty toward “Henny” is +found in the fact of her being almost helpless. When quite a child, she fell +into the fire, and burned herself horribly. Her hands were so burnt that she +never got the use of them. She could do very little but bear heavy burdens. She +was to master a bill of expense; and as he was a mean man, she was a constant +offence to him. He seemed desirous of getting the poor girl out of existence. +He gave her away once to his sister; but, being a poor gift, she was not +disposed to keep her. Finally, my benevolent master, to use his own words, +“set her adrift to take care of herself.” Here was a +recently-converted man, holding on upon the mother, and at the same time +turning out her helpless child, to starve and die! Master Thomas was one of the +many pious slaveholders who hold slaves for the very charitable purpose of +taking care of them. +</p> + +<p> +My master and myself had quite a number of differences. He found me unsuitable +to his purpose. My city life, he said, had had a very pernicious effect upon +me. It had almost ruined me for every good purpose, and fitted me for every +thing which was bad. One of my greatest faults was that of letting his horse +run away, and go down to his father-in-law’s farm, which was about five +miles from St. Michael’s. I would then have to go after it. My reason for +this kind of carelessness, or carefulness, was, that I could always get +something to eat when I went there. Master William Hamilton, my master’s +father-in-law, always gave his slaves enough to eat. I never left there hungry, +no matter how great the need of my speedy return. Master Thomas at length said +he would stand it no longer. I had lived with him nine months, during which +time he had given me a number of severe whippings, all to no good purpose. He +resolved to put me out, as he said, to be broken; and, for this purpose, he let +me for one year to a man named Edward Covey. Mr. Covey was a poor man, a +farm-renter. He rented the place upon which he lived, as also the hands with +which he tilled it. Mr. Covey had acquired a very high reputation for breaking +young slaves, and this reputation was of immense value to him. It enabled him +to get his farm tilled with much less expense to himself than he could have had +it done without such a reputation. Some slaveholders thought it not much loss +to allow Mr. Covey to have their slaves one year, for the sake of the training +to which they were subjected, without any other compensation. He could hire +young help with great ease, in consequence of this reputation. Added to the +natural good qualities of Mr. Covey, he was a professor of religion—a +pious soul—a member and a class-leader in the Methodist church. All of +this added weight to his reputation as a “nigger-breaker.” I was +aware of all the facts, having been made acquainted with them by a young man +who had lived there. I nevertheless made the change gladly; for I was sure of +getting enough to eat, which is not the smallest consideration to a hungry man. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="link2HCH0010" id="link2HCH0010"></a> CHAPTER X</h2> + +<p> +I had left Master Thomas’s house, and went to live with Mr. Covey, on the +1st of January, 1833. I was now, for the first time in my life, a field hand. +In my new employment, I found myself even more awkward than a country boy +appeared to be in a large city. I had been at my new home but one week before +Mr. Covey gave me a very severe whipping, cutting my back, causing the blood to +run, and raising ridges on my flesh as large as my little finger. The details +of this affair are as follows: Mr. Covey sent me, very early in the morning of +one of our coldest days in the month of January, to the woods, to get a load of +wood. He gave me a team of unbroken oxen. He told me which was the in-hand ox, +and which the off-hand one. He then tied the end of a large rope around the +horns of the in-hand ox, and gave me the other end of it, and told me, if the +oxen started to run, that I must hold on upon the rope. I had never driven oxen +before, and of course I was very awkward. I, however, succeeded in getting to +the edge of the woods with little difficulty; but I had got a very few rods +into the woods, when the oxen took fright, and started full tilt, carrying the +cart against trees, and over stumps, in the most frightful manner. I expected +every moment that my brains would be dashed out against the trees. After +running thus for a considerable distance, they finally upset the cart, dashing +it with great force against a tree, and threw themselves into a dense thicket. +How I escaped death, I do not know. There I was, entirely alone, in a thick +wood, in a place new to me. My cart was upset and shattered, my oxen were +entangled among the young trees, and there was none to help me. After a long +spell of effort, I succeeded in getting my cart righted, my oxen disentangled, +and again yoked to the cart. I now proceeded with my team to the place where I +had, the day before, been chopping wood, and loaded my cart pretty heavily, +thinking in this way to tame my oxen. I then proceeded on my way home. I had +now consumed one half of the day. I got out of the woods safely, and now felt +out of danger. I stopped my oxen to open the woods gate; and just as I did so, +before I could get hold of my ox-rope, the oxen again started, rushed through +the gate, catching it between the wheel and the body of the cart, tearing it to +pieces, and coming within a few inches of crushing me against the gate-post. +Thus twice, in one short day, I escaped death by the merest chance. On my +return, I told Mr. Covey what had happened, and how it happened. He ordered me +to return to the woods again immediately. I did so, and he followed on after +me. Just as I got into the woods, he came up and told me to stop my cart, and +that he would teach me how to trifle away my time, and break gates. He then +went to a large gum-tree, and with his axe cut three large switches, and, after +trimming them up neatly with his pocketknife, he ordered me to take off my +clothes. I made him no answer, but stood with my clothes on. He repeated his +order. I still made him no answer, nor did I move to strip myself. Upon this he +rushed at me with the fierceness of a tiger, tore off my clothes, and lashed me +till he had worn out his switches, cutting me so savagely as to leave the marks +visible for a long time after. This whipping was the first of a number just +like it, and for similar offences. +</p> + +<p> +I lived with Mr. Covey one year. During the first six months, of that year, +scarce a week passed without his whipping me. I was seldom free from a sore +back. My awkwardness was almost always his excuse for whipping me. We were +worked fully up to the point of endurance. Long before day we were up, our +horses fed, and by the first approach of day we were off to the field with our +hoes and ploughing teams. Mr. Covey gave us enough to eat, but scarce time to +eat it. We were often less than five minutes taking our meals. We were often in +the field from the first approach of day till its last lingering ray had left +us; and at saving-fodder time, midnight often caught us in the field binding +blades. +</p> + +<p> +Covey would be out with us. The way he used to stand it, was this. He would +spend the most of his afternoons in bed. He would then come out fresh in the +evening, ready to urge us on with his words, example, and frequently with the +whip. Mr. Covey was one of the few slaveholders who could and did work with his +hands. He was a hard-working man. He knew by himself just what a man or a boy +could do. There was no deceiving him. His work went on in his absence almost as +well as in his presence; and he had the faculty of making us feel that he was +ever present with us. This he did by surprising us. He seldom approached the +spot where we were at work openly, if he could do it secretly. He always aimed +at taking us by surprise. Such was his cunning, that we used to call him, among +ourselves, “the snake.” When we were at work in the cornfield, he +would sometimes crawl on his hands and knees to avoid detection, and all at +once he would rise nearly in our midst, and scream out, “Ha, ha! Come, +come! Dash on, dash on!” This being his mode of attack, it was never safe +to stop a single minute. His comings were like a thief in the night. He +appeared to us as being ever at hand. He was under every tree, behind every +stump, in every bush, and at every window, on the plantation. He would +sometimes mount his horse, as if bound to St. Michael’s, a distance of +seven miles, and in half an hour afterwards you would see him coiled up in the +corner of the wood-fence, watching every motion of the slaves. He would, for +this purpose, leave his horse tied up in the woods. Again, he would sometimes +walk up to us, and give us orders as though he was upon the point of starting +on a long journey, turn his back upon us, and make as though he was going to +the house to get ready; and, before he would get half way thither, he would +turn short and crawl into a fence-corner, or behind some tree, and there watch +us till the going down of the sun. +</p> + +<p> +Mr. Covey’s <i>forte</i> consisted in his power to deceive. His life was +devoted to planning and perpetrating the grossest deceptions. Every thing he +possessed in the shape of learning or religion, he made conform to his +disposition to deceive. He seemed to think himself equal to deceiving the +Almighty. He would make a short prayer in the morning, and a long prayer at +night; and, strange as it may seem, few men would at times appear more +devotional than he. The exercises of his family devotions were always commenced +with singing; and, as he was a very poor singer himself, the duty of raising +the hymn generally came upon me. He would read his hymn, and nod at me to +commence. I would at times do so; at others, I would not. My non-compliance +would almost always produce much confusion. To show himself independent of me, +he would start and stagger through with his hymn in the most discordant manner. +In this state of mind, he prayed with more than ordinary spirit. Poor man! such +was his disposition, and success at deceiving, I do verily believe that he +sometimes deceived himself into the solemn belief, that he was a sincere +worshipper of the most high God; and this, too, at a time when he may be said +to have been guilty of compelling his woman slave to commit the sin of +adultery. The facts in the case are these: Mr. Covey was a poor man; he was +just commencing in life; he was only able to buy one slave; and, shocking as is +the fact, he bought her, as he said, for <i>a breeder</i>. This woman was named +Caroline. Mr. Covey bought her from Mr. Thomas Lowe, about six miles from St. +Michael’s. She was a large, able-bodied woman, about twenty years old. +She had already given birth to one child, which proved her to be just what he +wanted. After buying her, he hired a married man of Mr. Samuel Harrison, to +live with him one year; and him he used to fasten up with her every night! The +result was, that, at the end of the year, the miserable woman gave birth to +twins. At this result Mr. Covey seemed to be highly pleased, both with the man +and the wretched woman. Such was his joy, and that of his wife, that nothing +they could do for Caroline during her confinement was too good, or too hard, to +be done. The children were regarded as being quite an addition to his wealth. +</p> + +<p> +If at any one time of my life more than another, I was made to drink the +bitterest dregs of slavery, that time was during the first six months of my +stay with Mr. Covey. We were worked in all weathers. It was never too hot or +too cold; it could never rain, blow, hail, or snow, too hard for us to work in +the field. Work, work, work, was scarcely more the order of the day than of the +night. The longest days were too short for him, and the shortest nights too +long for him. I was somewhat unmanageable when I first went there, but a few +months of this discipline tamed me. Mr. Covey succeeded in breaking me. I was +broken in body, soul, and spirit. My natural elasticity was crushed, my +intellect languished, the disposition to read departed, the cheerful spark that +lingered about my eye died; the dark night of slavery closed in upon me; and +behold a man transformed into a brute! +</p> + +<p> +Sunday was my only leisure time. I spent this in a sort of beast-like stupor, +between sleep and wake, under some large tree. At times I would rise up, a +flash of energetic freedom would dart through my soul, accompanied with a faint +beam of hope, that flickered for a moment, and then vanished. I sank down +again, mourning over my wretched condition. I was sometimes prompted to take my +life, and that of Covey, but was prevented by a combination of hope and fear. +My sufferings on this plantation seem now like a dream rather than a stern +reality. +</p> + +<p> +Our house stood within a few rods of the Chesapeake Bay, whose broad bosom was +ever white with sails from every quarter of the habitable globe. Those +beautiful vessels, robed in purest white, so delightful to the eye of freemen, +were to me so many shrouded ghosts, to terrify and torment me with thoughts of +my wretched condition. I have often, in the deep stillness of a summer’s +Sabbath, stood all alone upon the lofty banks of that noble bay, and traced, +with saddened heart and tearful eye, the countless number of sails moving off +to the mighty ocean. The sight of these always affected me powerfully. My +thoughts would compel utterance; and there, with no audience but the Almighty, +I would pour out my soul’s complaint, in my rude way, with an apostrophe +to the moving multitude of ships:— +</p> + +<p> +“You are loosed from your moorings, and are free; I am fast in my chains, +and am a slave! You move merrily before the gentle gale, and I sadly before the +bloody whip! You are freedom’s swift-winged angels, that fly round the +world; I am confined in bands of iron! O that I were free! O, that I were on +one of your gallant decks, and under your protecting wing! Alas! betwixt me and +you, the turbid waters roll. Go on, go on. O that I could also go! Could I but +swim! If I could fly! O, why was I born a man, of whom to make a brute! The +glad ship is gone; she hides in the dim distance. I am left in the hottest hell +of unending slavery. O God, save me! God, deliver me! Let me be free! Is there +any God? Why am I a slave? I will run away. I will not stand it. Get caught, or +get clear, I’ll try it. I had as well die with ague as the fever. I have +only one life to lose. I had as well be killed running as die standing. Only +think of it; one hundred miles straight north, and I am free! Try it? Yes! God +helping me, I will. It cannot be that I shall live and die a slave. I will take +to the water. This very bay shall yet bear me into freedom. The steamboats +steered in a north-east course from North Point. I will do the same; and when I +get to the head of the bay, I will turn my canoe adrift, and walk straight +through Delaware into Pennsylvania. When I get there, I shall not be required +to have a pass; I can travel without being disturbed. Let but the first +opportunity offer, and, come what will, I am off. Meanwhile, I will try to bear +up under the yoke. I am not the only slave in the world. Why should I fret? I +can bear as much as any of them. Besides, I am but a boy, and all boys are +bound to some one. It may be that my misery in slavery will only increase my +happiness when I get free. There is a better day coming.” +</p> + +<p> +Thus I used to think, and thus I used to speak to myself; goaded almost to +madness at one moment, and at the next reconciling myself to my wretched lot. +</p> + +<p> +I have already intimated that my condition was much worse, during the first six +months of my stay at Mr. Covey’s, than in the last six. The circumstances +leading to the change in Mr. Covey’s course toward me form an epoch in my +humble history. You have seen how a man was made a slave; you shall see how a +slave was made a man. On one of the hottest days of the month of August, 1833, +Bill Smith, William Hughes, a slave named Eli, and myself, were engaged in +fanning wheat. Hughes was clearing the fanned wheat from before the fan. Eli +was turning, Smith was feeding, and I was carrying wheat to the fan. The work +was simple, requiring strength rather than intellect; yet, to one entirely +unused to such work, it came very hard. About three o’clock of that day, +I broke down; my strength failed me; I was seized with a violent aching of the +head, attended with extreme dizziness; I trembled in every limb. Finding what +was coming, I nerved myself up, feeling it would never do to stop work. I stood +as long as I could stagger to the hopper with grain. When I could stand no +longer, I fell, and felt as if held down by an immense weight. The fan of +course stopped; every one had his own work to do; and no one could do the work +of the other, and have his own go on at the same time. +</p> + +<p> +Mr. Covey was at the house, about one hundred yards from the treading-yard +where we were fanning. On hearing the fan stop, he left immediately, and came +to the spot where we were. He hastily inquired what the matter was. Bill +answered that I was sick, and there was no one to bring wheat to the fan. I had +by this time crawled away under the side of the post and rail-fence by which +the yard was enclosed, hoping to find relief by getting out of the sun. He then +asked where I was. He was told by one of the hands. He came to the spot, and, +after looking at me awhile, asked me what was the matter. I told him as well as +I could, for I scarce had strength to speak. He then gave me a savage kick in +the side, and told me to get up. I tried to do so, but fell back in the +attempt. He gave me another kick, and again told me to rise. I again tried, and +succeeded in gaining my feet; but, stooping to get the tub with which I was +feeding the fan, I again staggered and fell. While down in this situation, Mr. +Covey took up the hickory slat with which Hughes had been striking off the +half-bushel measure, and with it gave me a heavy blow upon the head, making a +large wound, and the blood ran freely; and with this again told me to get up. I +made no effort to comply, having now made up my mind to let him do his worst. +In a short time after receiving this blow, my head grew better. Mr. Covey had +now left me to my fate. At this moment I resolved, for the first time, to go to +my master, enter a complaint, and ask his protection. In order to do this, I +must that afternoon walk seven miles; and this, under the circumstances, was +truly a severe undertaking. I was exceedingly feeble; made so as much by the +kicks and blows which I received, as by the severe fit of sickness to which I +had been subjected. I, however, watched my chance, while Covey was looking in +an opposite direction, and started for St. Michael’s. I succeeded in +getting a considerable distance on my way to the woods, when Covey discovered +me, and called after me to come back, threatening what he would do if I did not +come. I disregarded both his calls and his threats, and made my way to the +woods as fast as my feeble state would allow; and thinking I might be +overhauled by him if I kept the road, I walked through the woods, keeping far +enough from the road to avoid detection, and near enough to prevent losing my +way. I had not gone far before my little strength again failed me. I could go +no farther. I fell down, and lay for a considerable time. The blood was yet +oozing from the wound on my head. For a time I thought I should bleed to death; +and think now that I should have done so, but that the blood so matted my hair +as to stop the wound. After lying there about three quarters of an hour, I +nerved myself up again, and started on my way, through bogs and briers, +barefooted and bareheaded, tearing my feet sometimes at nearly every step; and +after a journey of about seven miles, occupying some five hours to perform it, +I arrived at master’s store. I then presented an appearance enough to +affect any but a heart of iron. From the crown of my head to my feet, I was +covered with blood. My hair was all clotted with dust and blood; my shirt was +stiff with blood. I suppose I looked like a man who had escaped a den of wild +beasts, and barely escaped them. In this state I appeared before my master, +humbly entreating him to interpose his authority for my protection. I told him +all the circumstances as well as I could, and it seemed, as I spoke, at times +to affect him. He would then walk the floor, and seek to justify Covey by +saying he expected I deserved it. He asked me what I wanted. I told him, to let +me get a new home; that as sure as I lived with Mr. Covey again, I should live +with but to die with him; that Covey would surely kill me; he was in a fair way +for it. Master Thomas ridiculed the idea that there was any danger of Mr. +Covey’s killing me, and said that he knew Mr. Covey; that he was a good +man, and that he could not think of taking me from him; that, should he do so, +he would lose the whole year’s wages; that I belonged to Mr. Covey for +one year, and that I must go back to him, come what might; and that I must not +trouble him with any more stories, or that he would himself <i>get hold of +me</i>. After threatening me thus, he gave me a very large dose of salts, +telling me that I might remain in St. Michael’s that night, (it being +quite late,) but that I must be off back to Mr. Covey’s early in the +morning; and that if I did not, he would <i>get hold of me,</i> which meant +that he would whip me. I remained all night, and, according to his orders, I +started off to Covey’s in the morning, (Saturday morning,) wearied in +body and broken in spirit. I got no supper that night, or breakfast that +morning. I reached Covey’s about nine o’clock; and just as I was +getting over the fence that divided Mrs. Kemp’s fields from ours, out ran +Covey with his cowskin, to give me another whipping. Before he could reach me, +I succeeded in getting to the cornfield; and as the corn was very high, it +afforded me the means of hiding. He seemed very angry, and searched for me a +long time. My behavior was altogether unaccountable. He finally gave up the +chase, thinking, I suppose, that I must come home for something to eat; he +would give himself no further trouble in looking for me. I spent that day +mostly in the woods, having the alternative before me,—to go home and be +whipped to death, or stay in the woods and be starved to death. That night, I +fell in with Sandy Jenkins, a slave with whom I was somewhat acquainted. Sandy +had a free wife who lived about four miles from Mr. Covey’s; and it being +Saturday, he was on his way to see her. I told him my circumstances, and he +very kindly invited me to go home with him. I went home with him, and talked +this whole matter over, and got his advice as to what course it was best for me +to pursue. I found Sandy an old adviser. He told me, with great solemnity, I +must go back to Covey; but that before I went, I must go with him into another +part of the woods, where there was a certain <i>root,</i> which, if I would +take some of it with me, carrying it <i>always on my right side,</i> would +render it impossible for Mr. Covey, or any other white man, to whip me. He said +he had carried it for years; and since he had done so, he had never received a +blow, and never expected to while he carried it. I at first rejected the idea, +that the simple carrying of a root in my pocket would have any such effect as +he had said, and was not disposed to take it; but Sandy impressed the necessity +with much earnestness, telling me it could do no harm, if it did no good. To +please him, I at length took the root, and, according to his direction, carried +it upon my right side. This was Sunday morning. I immediately started for home; +and upon entering the yard gate, out came Mr. Covey on his way to meeting. He +spoke to me very kindly, bade me drive the pigs from a lot near by, and passed +on towards the church. Now, this singular conduct of Mr. Covey really made me +begin to think that there was something in the <i>root</i> which Sandy had +given me; and had it been on any other day than Sunday, I could have attributed +the conduct to no other cause than the influence of that root; and as it was, I +was half inclined to think the <i>root</i> to be something more than I at first +had taken it to be. All went well till Monday morning. On this morning, the +virtue of the <i>root</i> was fully tested. Long before daylight, I was called +to go and rub, curry, and feed, the horses. I obeyed, and was glad to obey. But +whilst thus engaged, whilst in the act of throwing down some blades from the +loft, Mr. Covey entered the stable with a long rope; and just as I was half out +of the loft, he caught hold of my legs, and was about tying me. As soon as I +found what he was up to, I gave a sudden spring, and as I did so, he holding to +my legs, I was brought sprawling on the stable floor. Mr. Covey seemed now to +think he had me, and could do what he pleased; but at this moment—from +whence came the spirit I don’t know—I resolved to fight; and, +suiting my action to the resolution, I seized Covey hard by the throat; and as +I did so, I rose. He held on to me, and I to him. My resistance was so entirely +unexpected that Covey seemed taken all aback. He trembled like a leaf. This +gave me assurance, and I held him uneasy, causing the blood to run where I +touched him with the ends of my fingers. Mr. Covey soon called out to Hughes +for help. Hughes came, and, while Covey held me, attempted to tie my right +hand. While he was in the act of doing so, I watched my chance, and gave him a +heavy kick close under the ribs. This kick fairly sickened Hughes, so that he +left me in the hands of Mr. Covey. This kick had the effect of not only +weakening Hughes, but Covey also. When he saw Hughes bending over with pain, +his courage quailed. He asked me if I meant to persist in my resistance. I told +him I did, come what might; that he had used me like a brute for six months, +and that I was determined to be used so no longer. With that, he strove to drag +me to a stick that was lying just out of the stable door. He meant to knock me +down. But just as he was leaning over to get the stick, I seized him with both +hands by his collar, and brought him by a sudden snatch to the ground. By this +time, Bill came. Covey called upon him for assistance. Bill wanted to know what +he could do. Covey said, “Take hold of him, take hold of him!” Bill +said his master hired him out to work, and not to help to whip me; so he left +Covey and myself to fight our own battle out. We were at it for nearly two +hours. Covey at length let me go, puffing and blowing at a great rate, saying +that if I had not resisted, he would not have whipped me half so much. The +truth was, that he had not whipped me at all. I considered him as getting +entirely the worst end of the bargain; for he had drawn no blood from me, but I +had from him. The whole six months afterwards, that I spent with Mr. Covey, he +never laid the weight of his finger upon me in anger. He would occasionally +say, he didn’t want to get hold of me again. “No,” thought I, +“you need not; for you will come off worse than you did before.” +</p> + +<p> +This battle with Mr. Covey was the turning-point in my career as a slave. It +rekindled the few expiring embers of freedom, and revived within me a sense of +my own manhood. It recalled the departed self-confidence, and inspired me again +with a determination to be free. The gratification afforded by the triumph was +a full compensation for whatever else might follow, even death itself. He only +can understand the deep satisfaction which I experienced, who has himself +repelled by force the bloody arm of slavery. I felt as I never felt before. It +was a glorious resurrection, from the tomb of slavery, to the heaven of +freedom. My long-crushed spirit rose, cowardice departed, bold defiance took +its place; and I now resolved that, however long I might remain a slave in +form, the day had passed forever when I could be a slave in fact. I did not +hesitate to let it be known of me, that the white man who expected to succeed +in whipping, must also succeed in killing me. +</p> + +<p> +From this time I was never again what might be called fairly whipped, though I +remained a slave four years afterwards. I had several fights, but was never +whipped. +</p> + +<p> +It was for a long time a matter of surprise to me why Mr. Covey did not +immediately have me taken by the constable to the whipping-post, and there +regularly whipped for the crime of raising my hand against a white man in +defence of myself. And the only explanation I can now think of does not +entirely satisfy me; but such as it is, I will give it. Mr. Covey enjoyed the +most unbounded reputation for being a first-rate overseer and negro-breaker. It +was of considerable importance to him. That reputation was at stake; and had he +sent me—a boy about sixteen years old—to the public whipping-post, +his reputation would have been lost; so, to save his reputation, he suffered me +to go unpunished. +</p> + +<p> +My term of actual service to Mr. Edward Covey ended on Christmas day, 1833. The +days between Christmas and New Year’s day are allowed as holidays; and, +accordingly, we were not required to perform any labor, more than to feed and +take care of the stock. This time we regarded as our own, by the grace of our +masters; and we therefore used or abused it nearly as we pleased. Those of us +who had families at a distance, were generally allowed to spend the whole six +days in their society. This time, however, was spent in various ways. The +staid, sober, thinking and industrious ones of our number would employ +themselves in making corn-brooms, mats, horse-collars, and baskets; and another +class of us would spend the time in hunting opossums, hares, and coons. But by +far the larger part engaged in such sports and merriments as playing ball, +wrestling, running foot-races, fiddling, dancing, and drinking whisky; and this +latter mode of spending the time was by far the most agreeable to the feelings +of our masters. A slave who would work during the holidays was considered by +our masters as scarcely deserving them. He was regarded as one who rejected the +favor of his master. It was deemed a disgrace not to get drunk at Christmas; +and he was regarded as lazy indeed, who had not provided himself with the +necessary means, during the year, to get whisky enough to last him through +Christmas. +</p> + +<p> +From what I know of the effect of these holidays upon the slave, I believe them +to be among the most effective means in the hands of the slaveholder in keeping +down the spirit of insurrection. Were the slaveholders at once to abandon this +practice, I have not the slightest doubt it would lead to an immediate +insurrection among the slaves. These holidays serve as conductors, or +safety-valves, to carry off the rebellious spirit of enslaved humanity. But for +these, the slave would be forced up to the wildest desperation; and woe betide +the slaveholder, the day he ventures to remove or hinder the operation of those +conductors! I warn him that, in such an event, a spirit will go forth in their +midst, more to be dreaded than the most appalling earthquake. +</p> + +<p> +The holidays are part and parcel of the gross fraud, wrong, and inhumanity of +slavery. They are professedly a custom established by the benevolence of the +slaveholders; but I undertake to say, it is the result of selfishness, and one +of the grossest frauds committed upon the down-trodden slave. They do not give +the slaves this time because they would not like to have their work during its +continuance, but because they know it would be unsafe to deprive them of it. +This will be seen by the fact, that the slaveholders like to have their slaves +spend those days just in such a manner as to make them as glad of their ending +as of their beginning. Their object seems to be, to disgust their slaves with +freedom, by plunging them into the lowest depths of dissipation. For instance, +the slaveholders not only like to see the slave drink of his own accord, but +will adopt various plans to make him drunk. One plan is, to make bets on their +slaves, as to who can drink the most whisky without getting drunk; and in this +way they succeed in getting whole multitudes to drink to excess. Thus, when the +slave asks for virtuous freedom, the cunning slaveholder, knowing his +ignorance, cheats him with a dose of vicious dissipation, artfully labelled +with the name of liberty. The most of us used to drink it down, and the result +was just what might be supposed; many of us were led to think that there was +little to choose between liberty and slavery. We felt, and very properly too, +that we had almost as well be slaves to man as to rum. So, when the holidays +ended, we staggered up from the filth of our wallowing, took a long breath, and +marched to the field,—feeling, upon the whole, rather glad to go, from +what our master had deceived us into a belief was freedom, back to the arms of +slavery. +</p> + +<p> +I have said that this mode of treatment is a part of the whole system of fraud +and inhumanity of slavery. It is so. The mode here adopted to disgust the slave +with freedom, by allowing him to see only the abuse of it, is carried out in +other things. For instance, a slave loves molasses; he steals some. His master, +in many cases, goes off to town, and buys a large quantity; he returns, takes +his whip, and commands the slave to eat the molasses, until the poor fellow is +made sick at the very mention of it. The same mode is sometimes adopted to make +the slaves refrain from asking for more food than their regular allowance. A +slave runs through his allowance, and applies for more. His master is enraged +at him; but, not willing to send him off without food, gives him more than is +necessary, and compels him to eat it within a given time. Then, if he complains +that he cannot eat it, he is said to be satisfied neither full nor fasting, and +is whipped for being hard to please! I have an abundance of such illustrations +of the same principle, drawn from my own observation, but think the cases I +have cited sufficient. The practice is a very common one. +</p> + +<p> +On the first of January, 1834, I left Mr. Covey, and went to live with Mr. +William Freeland, who lived about three miles from St. Michael’s. I soon +found Mr. Freeland a very different man from Mr. Covey. Though not rich, he was +what would be called an educated southern gentleman. Mr. Covey, as I have +shown, was a well-trained negro-breaker and slave-driver. The former +(slaveholder though he was) seemed to possess some regard for honor, some +reverence for justice, and some respect for humanity. The latter seemed totally +insensible to all such sentiments. Mr. Freeland had many of the faults peculiar +to slaveholders, such as being very passionate and fretful; but I must do him +the justice to say, that he was exceedingly free from those degrading vices to +which Mr. Covey was constantly addicted. The one was open and frank, and we +always knew where to find him. The other was a most artful deceiver, and could +be understood only by such as were skilful enough to detect his +cunningly-devised frauds. Another advantage I gained in my new master was, he +made no pretensions to, or profession of, religion; and this, in my opinion, +was truly a great advantage. I assert most unhesitatingly, that the religion of +the south is a mere covering for the most horrid crimes,—a justifier of +the most appalling barbarity,—a sanctifier of the most hateful +frauds,—and a dark shelter under, which the darkest, foulest, grossest, +and most infernal deeds of slaveholders find the strongest protection. Were I +to be again reduced to the chains of slavery, next to that enslavement, I +should regard being the slave of a religious master the greatest calamity that +could befall me. For of all slaveholders with whom I have ever met, religious +slaveholders are the worst. I have ever found them the meanest and basest, the +most cruel and cowardly, of all others. It was my unhappy lot not only to +belong to a religious slaveholder, but to live in a community of such +religionists. Very near Mr. Freeland lived the Rev. Daniel Weeden, and in the +same neighborhood lived the Rev. Rigby Hopkins. These were members and +ministers in the Reformed Methodist Church. Mr. Weeden owned, among others, a +woman slave, whose name I have forgotten. This woman’s back, for weeks, +was kept literally raw, made so by the lash of this merciless, <i>religious</i> +wretch. He used to hire hands. His maxim was, Behave well or behave ill, it is +the duty of a master occasionally to whip a slave, to remind him of his +master’s authority. Such was his theory, and such his practice. +</p> + +<p> +Mr. Hopkins was even worse than Mr. Weeden. His chief boast was his ability to +manage slaves. The peculiar feature of his government was that of whipping +slaves in advance of deserving it. He always managed to have one or more of his +slaves to whip every Monday morning. He did this to alarm their fears, and +strike terror into those who escaped. His plan was to whip for the smallest +offences, to prevent the commission of large ones. Mr. Hopkins could always +find some excuse for whipping a slave. It would astonish one, unaccustomed to a +slaveholding life, to see with what wonderful ease a slaveholder can find +things, of which to make occasion to whip a slave. A mere look, word, or +motion,—a mistake, accident, or want of power,—are all matters for +which a slave may be whipped at any time. Does a slave look dissatisfied? It is +said, he has the devil in him, and it must be whipped out. Does he speak loudly +when spoken to by his master? Then he is getting high-minded, and should be +taken down a button-hole lower. Does he forget to pull off his hat at the +approach of a white person? Then he is wanting in reverence, and should be +whipped for it. Does he ever venture to vindicate his conduct, when censured +for it? Then he is guilty of impudence,—one of the greatest crimes of +which a slave can be guilty. Does he ever venture to suggest a different mode +of doing things from that pointed out by his master? He is indeed presumptuous, +and getting above himself; and nothing less than a flogging will do for him. +Does he, while ploughing, break a plough,—or, while hoeing, break a hoe? +It is owing to his carelessness, and for it a slave must always be whipped. Mr. +Hopkins could always find something of this sort to justify the use of the +lash, and he seldom failed to embrace such opportunities. There was not a man +in the whole county, with whom the slaves who had the getting their own home, +would not prefer to live, rather than with this Rev. Mr. Hopkins. And yet there +was not a man any where round, who made higher professions of religion, or was +more active in revivals,—more attentive to the class, love-feast, prayer +and preaching meetings, or more devotional in his family,—that prayed +earlier, later, louder, and longer,—than this same reverend slave-driver, +Rigby Hopkins. +</p> + +<p> +But to return to Mr. Freeland, and to my experience while in his employment. +He, like Mr. Covey, gave us enough to eat; but, unlike Mr. Covey, he also gave +us sufficient time to take our meals. He worked us hard, but always between +sunrise and sunset. He required a good deal of work to be done, but gave us +good tools with which to work. His farm was large, but he employed hands enough +to work it, and with ease, compared with many of his neighbors. My treatment, +while in his employment, was heavenly, compared with what I experienced at the +hands of Mr. Edward Covey. +</p> + +<p> +Mr. Freeland was himself the owner of but two slaves. Their names were Henry +Harris and John Harris. The rest of his hands he hired. These consisted of +myself, Sandy Jenkins,<a href="#fn-1" name="fnref-1" id="fnref-1"><sup>[1]</sup></a> +and Handy Caldwell. +</p> + +<p class="footnote"> +<a name="fn-1" id="fn-1"></a> <a href="#fnref-1">[1]</a> +This is the same man who gave me the roots to prevent my being whipped by Mr. +Covey. He was “a clever soul.” We used frequently to talk about the +fight with Covey, and as often as we did so, he would claim my success as the +result of the roots which he gave me. This superstition is very common among +the more ignorant slaves. A slave seldom dies but that his death is attributed +to trickery. +</p> + +<p> +Henry and John were quite intelligent, and in a very little while after I went +there, I succeeded in creating in them a strong desire to learn how to read. +This desire soon sprang up in the others also. They very soon mustered up some +old spelling-books, and nothing would do but that I must keep a Sabbath school. +I agreed to do so, and accordingly devoted my Sundays to teaching these my +loved fellow-slaves how to read. Neither of them knew his letters when I went +there. Some of the slaves of the neighboring farms found what was going on, and +also availed themselves of this little opportunity to learn to read. It was +understood, among all who came, that there must be as little display about it +as possible. It was necessary to keep our religious masters at St. +Michael’s unacquainted with the fact, that, instead of spending the +Sabbath in wrestling, boxing, and drinking whisky, we were trying to learn how +to read the will of God; for they had much rather see us engaged in those +degrading sports, than to see us behaving like intellectual, moral, and +accountable beings. My blood boils as I think of the bloody manner in which +Messrs. Wright Fairbanks and Garrison West, both class-leaders, in connection +with many others, rushed in upon us with sticks and stones, and broke up our +virtuous little Sabbath school, at St. Michael’s—all calling +themselves Christians! humble followers of the Lord Jesus Christ! But I am +again digressing. +</p> + +<p> +I held my Sabbath school at the house of a free colored man, whose name I deem +it imprudent to mention; for should it be known, it might embarrass him +greatly, though the crime of holding the school was committed ten years ago. I +had at one time over forty scholars, and those of the right sort, ardently +desiring to learn. They were of all ages, though mostly men and women. I look +back to those Sundays with an amount of pleasure not to be expressed. They were +great days to my soul. The work of instructing my dear fellow-slaves was the +sweetest engagement with which I was ever blessed. We loved each other, and to +leave them at the close of the Sabbath was a severe cross indeed. When I think +that these precious souls are to-day shut up in the prison-house of slavery, my +feelings overcome me, and I am almost ready to ask, “Does a righteous God +govern the universe? and for what does he hold the thunders in his right hand, +if not to smite the oppressor, and deliver the spoiled out of the hand of the +spoiler?” These dear souls came not to Sabbath school because it was +popular to do so, nor did I teach them because it was reputable to be thus +engaged. Every moment they spent in that school, they were liable to be taken +up, and given thirty-nine lashes. They came because they wished to learn. Their +minds had been starved by their cruel masters. They had been shut up in mental +darkness. I taught them, because it was the delight of my soul to be doing +something that looked like bettering the condition of my race. I kept up my +school nearly the whole year I lived with Mr. Freeland; and, beside my Sabbath +school, I devoted three evenings in the week, during the winter, to teaching +the slaves at home. And I have the happiness to know, that several of those who +came to Sabbath school learned how to read; and that one, at least, is now free +through my agency. +</p> + +<p> +The year passed off smoothly. It seemed only about half as long as the year +which preceded it. I went through it without receiving a single blow. I will +give Mr. Freeland the credit of being the best master I ever had, <i>till I +became my own master.</i> For the ease with which I passed the year, I was, +however, somewhat indebted to the society of my fellow-slaves. They were noble +souls; they not only possessed loving hearts, but brave ones. We were linked +and interlinked with each other. I loved them with a love stronger than any +thing I have experienced since. It is sometimes said that we slaves do not love +and confide in each other. In answer to this assertion, I can say, I never +loved any or confided in any people more than my fellow-slaves, and especially +those with whom I lived at Mr. Freeland’s. I believe we would have died +for each other. We never undertook to do any thing, of any importance, without +a mutual consultation. We never moved separately. We were one; and as much so +by our tempers and dispositions, as by the mutual hardships to which we were +necessarily subjected by our condition as slaves. +</p> + +<p> +At the close of the year 1834, Mr. Freeland again hired me of my master, for +the year 1835. But, by this time, I began to want to live <i>upon free land</i> +as well as <i>with Freeland;</i> and I was no longer content, therefore, to +live with him or any other slaveholder. I began, with the commencement of the +year, to prepare myself for a final struggle, which should decide my fate one +way or the other. My tendency was upward. I was fast approaching manhood, and +year after year had passed, and I was still a slave. These thoughts roused +me—I must do something. I therefore resolved that 1835 should not pass +without witnessing an attempt, on my part, to secure my liberty. But I was not +willing to cherish this determination alone. My fellow-slaves were dear to me. +I was anxious to have them participate with me in this, my life-giving +determination. I therefore, though with great prudence, commenced early to +ascertain their views and feelings in regard to their condition, and to imbue +their minds with thoughts of freedom. I bent myself to devising ways and means +for our escape, and meanwhile strove, on all fitting occasions, to impress them +with the gross fraud and inhumanity of slavery. I went first to Henry, next to +John, then to the others. I found, in them all, warm hearts and noble spirits. +They were ready to hear, and ready to act when a feasible plan should be +proposed. This was what I wanted. I talked to them of our want of manhood, if +we submitted to our enslavement without at least one noble effort to be free. +We met often, and consulted frequently, and told our hopes and fears, recounted +the difficulties, real and imagined, which we should be called on to meet. At +times we were almost disposed to give up, and try to content ourselves with our +wretched lot; at others, we were firm and unbending in our determination to go. +Whenever we suggested any plan, there was shrinking—the odds were +fearful. Our path was beset with the greatest obstacles; and if we succeeded in +gaining the end of it, our right to be free was yet questionable—we were +yet liable to be returned to bondage. We could see no spot, this side of the +ocean, where we could be free. We knew nothing about Canada. Our knowledge of +the north did not extend farther than New York; and to go there, and be forever +harassed with the frightful liability of being returned to slavery—with +the certainty of being treated tenfold worse than before—the thought was +truly a horrible one, and one which it was not easy to overcome. The case +sometimes stood thus: At every gate through which we were to pass, we saw a +watchman—at every ferry a guard—on every bridge a +sentinel—and in every wood a patrol. We were hemmed in upon every side. +Here were the difficulties, real or imagined—the good to be sought, and +the evil to be shunned. On the one hand, there stood slavery, a stern reality, +glaring frightfully upon us,—its robes already crimsoned with the blood +of millions, and even now feasting itself greedily upon our own flesh. On the +other hand, away back in the dim distance, under the flickering light of the +north star, behind some craggy hill or snow-covered mountain, stood a doubtful +freedom—half frozen—beckoning us to come and share its hospitality. +This in itself was sometimes enough to stagger us; but when we permitted +ourselves to survey the road, we were frequently appalled. Upon either side we +saw grim death, assuming the most horrid shapes. Now it was starvation, causing +us to eat our own flesh;—now we were contending with the waves, and were +drowned;—now we were overtaken, and torn to pieces by the fangs of the +terrible bloodhound. We were stung by scorpions, chased by wild beasts, bitten +by snakes, and finally, after having nearly reached the desired +spot,—after swimming rivers, encountering wild beasts, sleeping in the +woods, suffering hunger and nakedness,—we were overtaken by our pursuers, +and, in our resistance, we were shot dead upon the spot! I say, this picture +sometimes appalled us, and made us +</p> + +<p class="poem"> +“rather bear those ills we had,<br /> +Than fly to others, that we knew not of.” +</p> + +<p> +In coming to a fixed determination to run away, we did more than Patrick Henry, +when he resolved upon liberty or death. With us it was a doubtful liberty at +most, and almost certain death if we failed. For my part, I should prefer death +to hopeless bondage. +</p> + +<p> +Sandy, one of our number, gave up the notion, but still encouraged us. Our +company then consisted of Henry Harris, John Harris, Henry Bailey, Charles +Roberts, and myself. Henry Bailey was my uncle, and belonged to my master. +Charles married my aunt: he belonged to my master’s father-in-law, Mr. +William Hamilton. +</p> + +<p> +The plan we finally concluded upon was, to get a large canoe belonging to Mr. +Hamilton, and upon the Saturday night previous to Easter holidays, paddle +directly up the Chesapeake Bay. On our arrival at the head of the bay, a +distance of seventy or eighty miles from where we lived, it was our purpose to +turn our canoe adrift, and follow the guidance of the north star till we got +beyond the limits of Maryland. Our reason for taking the water route was, that +we were less liable to be suspected as runaways; we hoped to be regarded as +fishermen; whereas, if we should take the land route, we should be subjected to +interruptions of almost every kind. Any one having a white face, and being so +disposed, could stop us, and subject us to examination. +</p> + +<p> +The week before our intended start, I wrote several protections, one for each +of us. As well as I can remember, they were in the following words, to +wit:— +</p> + +<p class="letter"> +“This is to certify that I, the undersigned, have given the bearer, my +servant, full liberty to go to Baltimore, and spend the Easter holidays. +Written with mine own hand, &c., 1835. +</p> + +<p class="right"> +“W<small>ILLIAM</small> H<small>AMILTON</small>,<br /> +“Near St. Michael’s, in Talbot county, Maryland.” +</p> + +<p> +We were not going to Baltimore; but, in going up the bay, we went toward +Baltimore, and these protections were only intended to protect us while on the +bay. +</p> + +<p> +As the time drew near for our departure, our anxiety became more and more +intense. It was truly a matter of life and death with us. The strength of our +determination was about to be fully tested. At this time, I was very active in +explaining every difficulty, removing every doubt, dispelling every fear, and +inspiring all with the firmness indispensable to success in our undertaking; +assuring them that half was gained the instant we made the move; we had talked +long enough; we were now ready to move; if not now, we never should be; and if +we did not intend to move now, we had as well fold our arms, sit down, and +acknowledge ourselves fit only to be slaves. This, none of us were prepared to +acknowledge. Every man stood firm; and at our last meeting, we pledged +ourselves afresh, in the most solemn manner, that, at the time appointed, we +would certainly start in pursuit of freedom. This was in the middle of the +week, at the end of which we were to be off. We went, as usual, to our several +fields of labor, but with bosoms highly agitated with thoughts of our truly +hazardous undertaking. We tried to conceal our feelings as much as possible; +and I think we succeeded very well. +</p> + +<p> +After a painful waiting, the Saturday morning, whose night was to witness our +departure, came. I hailed it with joy, bring what of sadness it might. Friday +night was a sleepless one for me. I probably felt more anxious than the rest, +because I was, by common consent, at the head of the whole affair. The +responsibility of success or failure lay heavily upon me. The glory of the one, +and the confusion of the other, were alike mine. The first two hours of that +morning were such as I never experienced before, and hope never to again. Early +in the morning, we went, as usual, to the field. We were spreading manure; and +all at once, while thus engaged, I was overwhelmed with an indescribable +feeling, in the fulness of which I turned to Sandy, who was near by, and said, +“We are betrayed!” “Well,” said he, “that thought +has this moment struck me.” We said no more. I was never more certain of +any thing. +</p> + +<p> +The horn was blown as usual, and we went up from the field to the house for +breakfast. I went for the form, more than for want of any thing to eat that +morning. Just as I got to the house, in looking out at the lane gate, I saw +four white men, with two colored men. The white men were on horseback, and the +colored ones were walking behind, as if tied. I watched them a few moments till +they got up to our lane gate. Here they halted, and tied the colored men to the +gate-post. I was not yet certain as to what the matter was. In a few moments, +in rode Mr. Hamilton, with a speed betokening great excitement. He came to the +door, and inquired if Master William was in. He was told he was at the barn. +Mr. Hamilton, without dismounting, rode up to the barn with extraordinary +speed. In a few moments, he and Mr. Freeland returned to the house. By this +time, the three constables rode up, and in great haste dismounted, tied their +horses, and met Master William and Mr. Hamilton returning from the barn; and +after talking awhile, they all walked up to the kitchen door. There was no one +in the kitchen but myself and John. Henry and Sandy were up at the barn. Mr. +Freeland put his head in at the door, and called me by name, saying, there were +some gentlemen at the door who wished to see me. I stepped to the door, and +inquired what they wanted. They at once seized me, and, without giving me any +satisfaction, tied me—lashing my hands closely together. I insisted upon +knowing what the matter was. They at length said, that they had learned I had +been in a “scrape,” and that I was to be examined before my master; +and if their information proved false, I should not be hurt. +</p> + +<p> +In a few moments, they succeeded in tying John. They then turned to Henry, who +had by this time returned, and commanded him to cross his hands. “I +won’t!” said Henry, in a firm tone, indicating his readiness to +meet the consequences of his refusal. “Won’t you?” said Tom +Graham, the constable. “No, I won’t!” said Henry, in a still +stronger tone. With this, two of the constables pulled out their shining +pistols, and swore, by their Creator, that they would make him cross his hands +or kill him. Each cocked his pistol, and, with fingers on the trigger, walked +up to Henry, saying, at the same time, if he did not cross his hands, they +would blow his damned heart out. “Shoot me, shoot me!” said Henry; +“you can’t kill me but once. Shoot, shoot,—and be damned! +<i>I won’t be tied!</i>” This he said in a tone of loud defiance; +and at the same time, with a motion as quick as lightning, he with one single +stroke dashed the pistols from the hand of each constable. As he did this, all +hands fell upon him, and, after beating him some time, they finally overpowered +him, and got him tied. +</p> + +<p> +During the scuffle, I managed, I know not how, to get my pass out, and, without +being discovered, put it into the fire. We were all now tied; and just as we +were to leave for Easton jail, Betsy Freeland, mother of William Freeland, came +to the door with her hands full of biscuits, and divided them between Henry and +John. She then delivered herself of a speech, to the following +effect:—addressing herself to me, she said, “<i>You devil! You +yellow devil!</i> it was you that put it into the heads of Henry and John to +run away. But for you, you long-legged mulatto devil! Henry nor John would +never have thought of such a thing.” I made no reply, and was immediately +hurried off towards St. Michael’s. Just a moment previous to the scuffle +with Henry, Mr. Hamilton suggested the propriety of making a search for the +protections which he had understood Frederick had written for himself and the +rest. But, just at the moment he was about carrying his proposal into effect, +his aid was needed in helping to tie Henry; and the excitement attending the +scuffle caused them either to forget, or to deem it unsafe, under the +circumstances, to search. So we were not yet convicted of the intention to run +away. +</p> + +<p> +When we got about half way to St. Michael’s, while the constables having +us in charge were looking ahead, Henry inquired of me what he should do with +his pass. I told him to eat it with his biscuit, and own nothing; and we passed +the word around, “<i>Own nothing;</i>” and “<i>Own +nothing!</i>” said we all. Our confidence in each other was unshaken. We +were resolved to succeed or fail together, after the calamity had befallen us +as much as before. We were now prepared for any thing. We were to be dragged +that morning fifteen miles behind horses, and then to be placed in the Easton +jail. When we reached St. Michael’s, we underwent a sort of examination. +We all denied that we ever intended to run away. We did this more to bring out +the evidence against us, than from any hope of getting clear of being sold; +for, as I have said, we were ready for that. The fact was, we cared but little +where we went, so we went together. Our greatest concern was about separation. +We dreaded that more than any thing this side of death. We found the evidence +against us to be the testimony of one person; our master would not tell who it +was; but we came to a unanimous decision among ourselves as to who their +informant was. We were sent off to the jail at Easton. When we got there, we +were delivered up to the sheriff, Mr. Joseph Graham, and by him placed in jail. +Henry, John, and myself, were placed in one room together—Charles, and +Henry Bailey, in another. Their object in separating us was to hinder concert. +</p> + +<p> +We had been in jail scarcely twenty minutes, when a swarm of slave traders, and +agents for slave traders, flocked into jail to look at us, and to ascertain if +we were for sale. Such a set of beings I never saw before! I felt myself +surrounded by so many fiends from perdition. A band of pirates never looked +more like their father, the devil. They laughed and grinned over us, saying, +“Ah, my boys! we have got you, haven’t we?” And after +taunting us in various ways, they one by one went into an examination of us, +with intent to ascertain our value. They would impudently ask us if we would +not like to have them for our masters. We would make them no answer, and leave +them to find out as best they could. Then they would curse and swear at us, +telling us that they could take the devil out of us in a very little while, if +we were only in their hands. +</p> + +<p> +While in jail, we found ourselves in much more comfortable quarters than we +expected when we went there. We did not get much to eat, nor that which was +very good; but we had a good clean room, from the windows of which we could see +what was going on in the street, which was very much better than though we had +been placed in one of the dark, damp cells. Upon the whole, we got along very +well, so far as the jail and its keeper were concerned. Immediately after the +holidays were over, contrary to all our expectations, Mr. Hamilton and Mr. +Freeland came up to Easton, and took Charles, the two Henrys, and John, out of +jail, and carried them home, leaving me alone. I regarded this separation as a +final one. It caused me more pain than any thing else in the whole transaction. +I was ready for any thing rather than separation. I supposed that they had +consulted together, and had decided that, as I was the whole cause of the +intention of the others to run away, it was hard to make the innocent suffer +with the guilty; and that they had, therefore, concluded to take the others +home, and sell me, as a warning to the others that remained. It is due to the +noble Henry to say, he seemed almost as reluctant at leaving the prison as at +leaving home to come to the prison. But we knew we should, in all probability, +be separated, if we were sold; and since he was in their hands, he concluded to +go peaceably home. +</p> + +<p> +I was now left to my fate. I was all alone, and within the walls of a stone +prison. But a few days before, and I was full of hope. I expected to have been +safe in a land of freedom; but now I was covered with gloom, sunk down to the +utmost despair. I thought the possibility of freedom was gone. I was kept in +this way about one week, at the end of which, Captain Auld, my master, to my +surprise and utter astonishment, came up, and took me out, with the intention +of sending me, with a gentleman of his acquaintance, into Alabama. But, from +some cause or other, he did not send me to Alabama, but concluded to send me +back to Baltimore, to live again with his brother Hugh, and to learn a trade. +</p> + +<p> +Thus, after an absence of three years and one month, I was once more permitted +to return to my old home at Baltimore. My master sent me away, because there +existed against me a very great prejudice in the community, and he feared I +might be killed. +</p> + +<p> +In a few weeks after I went to Baltimore, Master Hugh hired me to Mr. William +Gardner, an extensive ship-builder, on Fell’s Point. I was put there to +learn how to calk. It, however, proved a very unfavorable place for the +accomplishment of this object. Mr. Gardner was engaged that spring in building +two large man-of-war brigs, professedly for the Mexican government. The vessels +were to be launched in the July of that year, and in failure thereof, Mr. +Gardner was to lose a considerable sum; so that when I entered, all was hurry. +There was no time to learn any thing. Every man had to do that which he knew +how to do. In entering the shipyard, my orders from Mr. Gardner were, to do +whatever the carpenters commanded me to do. This was placing me at the beck and +call of about seventy-five men. I was to regard all these as masters. Their +word was to be my law. My situation was a most trying one. At times I needed a +dozen pair of hands. I was called a dozen ways in the space of a single minute. +Three or four voices would strike my ear at the same moment. It +was—“Fred., come help me to cant this timber +here.”—“Fred., come carry this timber +yonder.”—“Fred., bring that roller +here.”—“Fred., go get a fresh can of +water.”—“Fred., come help saw off the end of this +timber.”—“Fred., go quick, and get the +crowbar.”—“Fred., hold on the end of this +fall.”—“Fred., go to the blacksmith’s shop, and get a +new punch.”—“Hurra, Fred! run and bring me a cold +chisel.”—“I say, Fred., bear a hand, and get up a fire as +quick as lightning under that steam-box.”—“Halloo, nigger! +come, turn this grindstone.”—“Come, come! move, move! and +<i>bowse</i> this timber forward.”—“I say, darky, blast your +eyes, why don’t you heat up some pitch?”—“Halloo! +halloo! halloo!” (Three voices at the same time.) “Come +here!—Go there!—Hold on where you are! Damn you, if you move, +I’ll knock your brains out!” +</p> + +<p> +This was my school for eight months; and I might have remained there longer, +but for a most horrid fight I had with four of the white apprentices, in which +my left eye was nearly knocked out, and I was horribly mangled in other +respects. The facts in the case were these: Until a very little while after I +went there, white and black ship-carpenters worked side by side, and no one +seemed to see any impropriety in it. All hands seemed to be very well +satisfied. Many of the black carpenters were freemen. Things seemed to be going +on very well. All at once, the white carpenters knocked off, and said they +would not work with free colored workmen. Their reason for this, as alleged, +was, that if free colored carpenters were encouraged, they would soon take the +trade into their own hands, and poor white men would be thrown out of +employment. They therefore felt called upon at once to put a stop to it. And, +taking advantage of Mr. Gardner’s necessities, they broke off, swearing +they would work no longer, unless he would discharge his black carpenters. Now, +though this did not extend to me in form, it did reach me in fact. My +fellow-apprentices very soon began to feel it degrading to them to work with +me. They began to put on airs, and talk about the “niggers” taking +the country, saying we all ought to be killed; and, being encouraged by the +journeymen, they commenced making my condition as hard as they could, by +hectoring me around, and sometimes striking me. I, of course, kept the vow I +made after the fight with Mr. Covey, and struck back again, regardless of +consequences; and while I kept them from combining, I succeeded very well; for +I could whip the whole of them, taking them separately. They, however, at +length combined, and came upon me, armed with sticks, stones, and heavy +handspikes. One came in front with a half brick. There was one at each side of +me, and one behind me. While I was attending to those in front, and on either +side, the one behind ran up with the handspike, and struck me a heavy blow upon +the head. It stunned me. I fell, and with this they all ran upon me, and fell +to beating me with their fists. I let them lay on for a while, gathering +strength. In an instant, I gave a sudden surge, and rose to my hands and knees. +Just as I did that, one of their number gave me, with his heavy boot, a +powerful kick in the left eye. My eyeball seemed to have burst. When they saw +my eye closed, and badly swollen, they left me. With this I seized the +handspike, and for a time pursued them. But here the carpenters interfered, and +I thought I might as well give it up. It was impossible to stand my hand +against so many. All this took place in sight of not less than fifty white +ship-carpenters, and not one interposed a friendly word; but some cried, +“Kill the damned nigger! Kill him! kill him! He struck a white +person.” I found my only chance for life was in flight. I succeeded in +getting away without an additional blow, and barely so; for to strike a white +man is death by Lynch law,—and that was the law in Mr. Gardner’s +ship-yard; nor is there much of any other out of Mr. Gardner’s ship-yard. +</p> + +<p> +I went directly home, and told the story of my wrongs to Master Hugh; and I am +happy to say of him, irreligious as he was, his conduct was heavenly, compared +with that of his brother Thomas under similar circumstances. He listened +attentively to my narration of the circumstances leading to the savage outrage, +and gave many proofs of his strong indignation at it. The heart of my once +overkind mistress was again melted into pity. My puffed-out eye and +blood-covered face moved her to tears. She took a chair by me, washed the blood +from my face, and, with a mother’s tenderness, bound up my head, covering +the wounded eye with a lean piece of fresh beef. It was almost compensation for +my suffering to witness, once more, a manifestation of kindness from this, my +once affectionate old mistress. Master Hugh was very much enraged. He gave +expression to his feelings by pouring out curses upon the heads of those who +did the deed. As soon as I got a little the better of my bruises, he took me +with him to Esquire Watson’s, on Bond Street, to see what could be done +about the matter. Mr. Watson inquired who saw the assault committed. Master +Hugh told him it was done in Mr. Gardner’s ship-yard at midday, where +there were a large company of men at work. “As to that,” he said, +“the deed was done, and there was no question as to who did it.” +His answer was, he could do nothing in the case, unless some white man would +come forward and testify. He could issue no warrant on my word. If I had been +killed in the presence of a thousand colored people, their testimony combined +would have been insufficient to have arrested one of the murderers. Master +Hugh, for once, was compelled to say this state of things was too bad. Of +course, it was impossible to get any white man to volunteer his testimony in my +behalf, and against the white young men. Even those who may have sympathized +with me were not prepared to do this. It required a degree of courage unknown +to them to do so; for just at that time, the slightest manifestation of +humanity toward a colored person was denounced as abolitionism, and that name +subjected its bearer to frightful liabilities. The watchwords of the +bloody-minded in that region, and in those days, were, “Damn the +abolitionists!” and “Damn the niggers!” There was nothing +done, and probably nothing would have been done if I had been killed. Such was, +and such remains, the state of things in the Christian city of Baltimore. +</p> + +<p> +Master Hugh, finding he could get no redress, refused to let me go back again +to Mr. Gardner. He kept me himself, and his wife dressed my wound till I was +again restored to health. He then took me into the ship-yard of which he was +foreman, in the employment of Mr. Walter Price. There I was immediately set to +calking, and very soon learned the art of using my mallet and irons. In the +course of one year from the time I left Mr. Gardner’s, I was able to +command the highest wages given to the most experienced calkers. I was now of +some importance to my master. I was bringing him from six to seven dollars per +week. I sometimes brought him nine dollars per week: my wages were a dollar and +a half a day. After learning how to calk, I sought my own employment, made my +own contracts, and collected the money which I earned. My pathway became much +more smooth than before; my condition was now much more comfortable. When I +could get no calking to do, I did nothing. During these leisure times, those +old notions about freedom would steal over me again. When in Mr. +Gardner’s employment, I was kept in such a perpetual whirl of excitement, +I could think of nothing, scarcely, but my life; and in thinking of my life, I +almost forgot my liberty. I have observed this in my experience of +slavery,—that whenever my condition was improved, instead of its +increasing my contentment, it only increased my desire to be free, and set me +to thinking of plans to gain my freedom. I have found that, to make a contented +slave, it is necessary to make a thoughtless one. It is necessary to darken his +moral and mental vision, and, as far as possible, to annihilate the power of +reason. He must be able to detect no inconsistencies in slavery; he must be +made to feel that slavery is right; and he can be brought to that only when he +ceases to be a man. +</p> + +<p> +I was now getting, as I have said, one dollar and fifty cents per day. I +contracted for it; I earned it; it was paid to me; it was rightfully my own; +yet, upon each returning Saturday night, I was compelled to deliver every cent +of that money to Master Hugh. And why? Not because he earned it,—not +because he had any hand in earning it,—not because I owed it to +him,—nor because he possessed the slightest shadow of a right to it; but +solely because he had the power to compel me to give it up. The right of the +grim-visaged pirate upon the high seas is exactly the same. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="link2HCH0011" id="link2HCH0011"></a> CHAPTER XI</h2> + +<p> +I now come to that part of my life during which I planned, and finally +succeeded in making, my escape from slavery. But before narrating any of the +peculiar circumstances, I deem it proper to make known my intention not to +state all the facts connected with the transaction. My reasons for pursuing +this course may be understood from the following: First, were I to give a +minute statement of all the facts, it is not only possible, but quite probable, +that others would thereby be involved in the most embarrassing difficulties. +Secondly, such a statement would most undoubtedly induce greater vigilance on +the part of slaveholders than has existed heretofore among them; which would, +of course, be the means of guarding a door whereby some dear brother bondman +might escape his galling chains. I deeply regret the necessity that impels me +to suppress any thing of importance connected with my experience in slavery. It +would afford me great pleasure indeed, as well as materially add to the +interest of my narrative, were I at liberty to gratify a curiosity, which I +know exists in the minds of many, by an accurate statement of all the facts +pertaining to my most fortunate escape. But I must deprive myself of this +pleasure, and the curious of the gratification which such a statement would +afford. I would allow myself to suffer under the greatest imputations which +evil-minded men might suggest, rather than exculpate myself, and thereby run +the hazard of closing the slightest avenue by which a brother slave might clear +himself of the chains and fetters of slavery. +</p> + +<p> +I have never approved of the very public manner in which some of our western +friends have conducted what they call the <i>underground railroad,</i> but +which I think, by their open declarations, has been made most emphatically the +<i>upperground railroad.</i> I honor those good men and women for their noble +daring, and applaud them for willingly subjecting themselves to bloody +persecution, by openly avowing their participation in the escape of slaves. I, +however, can see very little good resulting from such a course, either to +themselves or the slaves escaping; while, upon the other hand, I see and feel +assured that those open declarations are a positive evil to the slaves +remaining, who are seeking to escape. They do nothing towards enlightening the +slave, whilst they do much towards enlightening the master. They stimulate him +to greater watchfulness, and enhance his power to capture his slave. We owe +something to the slave south of the line as well as to those north of it; and +in aiding the latter on their way to freedom, we should be careful to do +nothing which would be likely to hinder the former from escaping from slavery. +I would keep the merciless slaveholder profoundly ignorant of the means of +flight adopted by the slave. I would leave him to imagine himself surrounded by +myriads of invisible tormentors, ever ready to snatch from his infernal grasp +his trembling prey. Let him be left to feel his way in the dark; let darkness +commensurate with his crime hover over him; and let him feel that at every step +he takes, in pursuit of the flying bondman, he is running the frightful risk of +having his hot brains dashed out by an invisible agency. Let us render the +tyrant no aid; let us not hold the light by which he can trace the footprints +of our flying brother. But enough of this. I will now proceed to the statement +of those facts, connected with my escape, for which I am alone responsible, and +for which no one can be made to suffer but myself. +</p> + +<p> +In the early part of the year 1838, I became quite restless. I could see no +reason why I should, at the end of each week, pour the reward of my toil into +the purse of my master. When I carried to him my weekly wages, he would, after +counting the money, look me in the face with a robber-like fierceness, and ask, +“Is this all?” He was satisfied with nothing less than the last +cent. He would, however, when I made him six dollars, sometimes give me six +cents, to encourage me. It had the opposite effect. I regarded it as a sort of +admission of my right to the whole. The fact that he gave me any part of my +wages was proof, to my mind, that he believed me entitled to the whole of them. +I always felt worse for having received any thing; for I feared that the giving +me a few cents would ease his conscience, and make him feel himself to be a +pretty honorable sort of robber. My discontent grew upon me. I was ever on the +look-out for means of escape; and, finding no direct means, I determined to try +to hire my time, with a view of getting money with which to make my escape. In +the spring of 1838, when Master Thomas came to Baltimore to purchase his spring +goods, I got an opportunity, and applied to him to allow me to hire my time. He +unhesitatingly refused my request, and told me this was another stratagem by +which to escape. He told me I could go nowhere but that he could get me; and +that, in the event of my running away, he should spare no pains in his efforts +to catch me. He exhorted me to content myself, and be obedient. He told me, if +I would be happy, I must lay out no plans for the future. He said, if I behaved +myself properly, he would take care of me. Indeed, he advised me to complete +thoughtlessness of the future, and taught me to depend solely upon him for +happiness. He seemed to see fully the pressing necessity of setting aside my +intellectual nature, in order to contentment in slavery. But in spite of him, +and even in spite of myself, I continued to think, and to think about the +injustice of my enslavement, and the means of escape. +</p> + +<p> +About two months after this, I applied to Master Hugh for the privilege of +hiring my time. He was not acquainted with the fact that I had applied to +Master Thomas, and had been refused. He too, at first, seemed disposed to +refuse; but, after some reflection, he granted me the privilege, and proposed +the following terms: I was to be allowed all my time, make all contracts with +those for whom I worked, and find my own employment; and, in return for this +liberty, I was to pay him three dollars at the end of each week; find myself in +calking tools, and in board and clothing. My board was two dollars and a half +per week. This, with the wear and tear of clothing and calking tools, made my +regular expenses about six dollars per week. This amount I was compelled to +make up, or relinquish the privilege of hiring my time. Rain or shine, work or +no work, at the end of each week the money must be forthcoming, or I must give +up my privilege. This arrangement, it will be perceived, was decidedly in my +master’s favor. It relieved him of all need of looking after me. His +money was sure. He received all the benefits of slaveholding without its evils; +while I endured all the evils of a slave, and suffered all the care and anxiety +of a freeman. I found it a hard bargain. But, hard as it was, I thought it +better than the old mode of getting along. It was a step towards freedom to be +allowed to bear the responsibilities of a freeman, and I was determined to hold +on upon it. I bent myself to the work of making money. I was ready to work at +night as well as day, and by the most untiring perseverance and industry, I +made enough to meet my expenses, and lay up a little money every week. I went +on thus from May till August. Master Hugh then refused to allow me to hire my +time longer. The ground for his refusal was a failure on my part, one Saturday +night, to pay him for my week’s time. This failure was occasioned by my +attending a camp meeting about ten miles from Baltimore. During the week, I had +entered into an engagement with a number of young friends to start from +Baltimore to the camp ground early Saturday evening; and being detained by my +employer, I was unable to get down to Master Hugh’s without disappointing +the company. I knew that Master Hugh was in no special need of the money that +night. I therefore decided to go to camp meeting, and upon my return pay him +the three dollars. I staid at the camp meeting one day longer than I intended +when I left. But as soon as I returned, I called upon him to pay him what he +considered his due. I found him very angry; he could scarce restrain his wrath. +He said he had a great mind to give me a severe whipping. He wished to know how +I dared go out of the city without asking his permission. I told him I hired my +time and while I paid him the price which he asked for it, I did not know that +I was bound to ask him when and where I should go. This reply troubled him; +and, after reflecting a few moments, he turned to me, and said I should hire my +time no longer; that the next thing he should know of, I would be running away. +Upon the same plea, he told me to bring my tools and clothing home forthwith. I +did so; but instead of seeking work, as I had been accustomed to do previously +to hiring my time, I spent the whole week without the performance of a single +stroke of work. I did this in retaliation. Saturday night, he called upon me as +usual for my week’s wages. I told him I had no wages; I had done no work +that week. Here we were upon the point of coming to blows. He raved, and swore +his determination to get hold of me. I did not allow myself a single word; but +was resolved, if he laid the weight of his hand upon me, it should be blow for +blow. He did not strike me, but told me that he would find me in constant +employment in future. I thought the matter over during the next day, Sunday, +and finally resolved upon the third day of September, as the day upon which I +would make a second attempt to secure my freedom. I now had three weeks during +which to prepare for my journey. Early on Monday morning, before Master Hugh +had time to make any engagement for me, I went out and got employment of Mr. +Butler, at his ship-yard near the drawbridge, upon what is called the City +Block, thus making it unnecessary for him to seek employment for me. At the end +of the week, I brought him between eight and nine dollars. He seemed very well +pleased, and asked why I did not do the same the week before. He little knew +what my plans were. My object in working steadily was to remove any suspicion +he might entertain of my intent to run away; and in this I succeeded admirably. +I suppose he thought I was never better satisfied with my condition than at the +very time during which I was planning my escape. The second week passed, and +again I carried him my full wages; and so well pleased was he, that he gave me +twenty-five cents, (quite a large sum for a slaveholder to give a slave,) and +bade me to make a good use of it. I told him I would. +</p> + +<p> +Things went on without very smoothly indeed, but within there was trouble. It +is impossible for me to describe my feelings as the time of my contemplated +start drew near. I had a number of warmhearted friends in +Baltimore,—friends that I loved almost as I did my life,—and the +thought of being separated from them forever was painful beyond expression. It +is my opinion that thousands would escape from slavery, who now remain, but for +the strong cords of affection that bind them to their friends. The thought of +leaving my friends was decidedly the most painful thought with which I had to +contend. The love of them was my tender point, and shook my decision more than +all things else. Besides the pain of separation, the dread and apprehension of +a failure exceeded what I had experienced at my first attempt. The appalling +defeat I then sustained returned to torment me. I felt assured that, if I +failed in this attempt, my case would be a hopeless one—it would seal my +fate as a slave forever. I could not hope to get off with any thing less than +the severest punishment, and being placed beyond the means of escape. It +required no very vivid imagination to depict the most frightful scenes through +which I should have to pass, in case I failed. The wretchedness of slavery, and +the blessedness of freedom, were perpetually before me. It was life and death +with me. But I remained firm, and, according to my resolution, on the third day +of September, 1838, I left my chains, and succeeded in reaching New York +without the slightest interruption of any kind. How I did so,—what means +I adopted,—what direction I travelled, and by what mode of +conveyance,—I must leave unexplained, for the reasons before mentioned. +</p> + +<p> +I have been frequently asked how I felt when I found myself in a free State. I +have never been able to answer the question with any satisfaction to myself. It +was a moment of the highest excitement I ever experienced. I suppose I felt as +one may imagine the unarmed mariner to feel when he is rescued by a friendly +man-of-war from the pursuit of a pirate. In writing to a dear friend, +immediately after my arrival at New York, I said I felt like one who had +escaped a den of hungry lions. This state of mind, however, very soon subsided; +and I was again seized with a feeling of great insecurity and loneliness. I was +yet liable to be taken back, and subjected to all the tortures of slavery. This +in itself was enough to damp the ardor of my enthusiasm. But the loneliness +overcame me. There I was in the midst of thousands, and yet a perfect stranger; +without home and without friends, in the midst of thousands of my own +brethren—children of a common Father, and yet I dared not to unfold to +any one of them my sad condition. I was afraid to speak to any one for fear of +speaking to the wrong one, and thereby falling into the hands of money-loving +kidnappers, whose business it was to lie in wait for the panting fugitive, as +the ferocious beasts of the forest lie in wait for their prey. The motto which +I adopted when I started from slavery was this—“Trust no +man!” I saw in every white man an enemy, and in almost every colored man +cause for distrust. It was a most painful situation; and, to understand it, one +must needs experience it, or imagine himself in similar circumstances. Let him +be a fugitive slave in a strange land—a land given up to be the +hunting-ground for slaveholders—whose inhabitants are legalized +kidnappers—where he is every moment subjected to the terrible liability +of being seized upon by his fellowmen, as the hideous crocodile seizes upon his +prey!—I say, let him place himself in my situation—without home or +friends—without money or credit—wanting shelter, and no one to give +it—wanting bread, and no money to buy it,—and at the same time let +him feel that he is pursued by merciless men-hunters, and in total darkness as +to what to do, where to go, or where to stay,—perfectly helpless both as +to the means of defence and means of escape,—in the midst of plenty, yet +suffering the terrible gnawings of hunger,—in the midst of houses, yet +having no home,—among fellow-men, yet feeling as if in the midst of wild +beasts, whose greediness to swallow up the trembling and half-famished fugitive +is only equalled by that with which the monsters of the deep swallow up the +helpless fish upon which they subsist,—I say, let him be placed in this +most trying situation,—the situation in which I was placed,—then, +and not till then, will he fully appreciate the hardships of, and know how to +sympathize with, the toil-worn and whip-scarred fugitive slave. +</p> + +<p> +Thank Heaven, I remained but a short time in this distressed situation. I was +relieved from it by the humane hand of <i>Mr. David Ruggles</i>, whose +vigilance, kindness, and perseverance, I shall never forget. I am glad of an +opportunity to express, as far as words can, the love and gratitude I bear him. +Mr. Ruggles is now afflicted with blindness, and is himself in need of the same +kind offices which he was once so forward in the performance of toward others. +I had been in New York but a few days, when Mr. Ruggles sought me out, and very +kindly took me to his boarding-house at the corner of Church and Lespenard +Streets. Mr. Ruggles was then very deeply engaged in the memorable <i>Darg</i> +case, as well as attending to a number of other fugitive slaves, devising ways +and means for their successful escape; and, though watched and hemmed in on +almost every side, he seemed to be more than a match for his enemies. +</p> + +<p> +Very soon after I went to Mr. Ruggles, he wished to know of me where I wanted +to go; as he deemed it unsafe for me to remain in New York. I told him I was a +calker, and should like to go where I could get work. I thought of going to +Canada; but he decided against it, and in favor of my going to New Bedford, +thinking I should be able to get work there at my trade. At this time, +Anna,<a href="#fn-2" name="fnref-2" id="fnref-2"><sup>[2]</sup></a> my intended +wife, came on; for I wrote to her immediately after my arrival at New York, +(notwithstanding my homeless, houseless, and helpless condition,) informing her +of my successful flight, and wishing her to come on forthwith. In a few days +after her arrival, Mr. Ruggles called in the Rev. J. W. C. Pennington, who, in +the presence of Mr. Ruggles, Mrs. Michaels, and two or three others, performed +the marriage ceremony, and gave us a certificate, of which the following is an +exact copy:— +</p> + +<p class="letter"> +“This may certify, that I joined together in holy matrimony Frederick +Johnson<a href="#fn-3" name="fnref-3" id="fnref-3"><sup>[3]</sup></a> and Anna +Murray, as man and wife, in the presence of Mr. David Ruggles and Mrs. Michaels. +</p> + +<p class="right"> +“J<small>AMES</small> W. C. P<small>ENNINGTON</small><br /> +“<i>New York, Sept</i>. 15, 1838” +</p> + +<p class="footnote"> +<a name="fn-2" id="fn-2"></a> <a href="#fnref-2">[2]</a> +She was free. +</p> + +<p class="footnote"> +<a name="fn-3" id="fn-3"></a> <a href="#fnref-3">[3]</a> +I had changed my name from Frederick <i>Bailey</i> to that of <i>Johnson</i>. +</p> + +<p> +Upon receiving this certificate, and a five-dollar bill from Mr. Ruggles, I +shouldered one part of our baggage, and Anna took up the other, and we set out +forthwith to take passage on board of the steamboat John W. Richmond for +Newport, on our way to New Bedford. Mr. Ruggles gave me a letter to a Mr. Shaw +in Newport, and told me, in case my money did not serve me to New Bedford, to +stop in Newport and obtain further assistance; but upon our arrival at Newport, +we were so anxious to get to a place of safety, that, notwithstanding we lacked +the necessary money to pay our fare, we decided to take seats in the stage, and +promise to pay when we got to New Bedford. We were encouraged to do this by two +excellent gentlemen, residents of New Bedford, whose names I afterward +ascertained to be Joseph Ricketson and William C. Taber. They seemed at once to +understand our circumstances, and gave us such assurance of their friendliness +as put us fully at ease in their presence. +</p> + +<p> +It was good indeed to meet with such friends, at such a time. Upon reaching New +Bedford, we were directed to the house of Mr. Nathan Johnson, by whom we were +kindly received, and hospitably provided for. Both Mr. and Mrs. Johnson took a +deep and lively interest in our welfare. They proved themselves quite worthy of +the name of abolitionists. When the stage-driver found us unable to pay our +fare, he held on upon our baggage as security for the debt. I had but to +mention the fact to Mr. Johnson, and he forthwith advanced the money. +</p> + +<p> +We now began to feel a degree of safety, and to prepare ourselves for the +duties and responsibilities of a life of freedom. On the morning after our +arrival at New Bedford, while at the breakfast-table, the question arose as to +what name I should be called by. The name given me by my mother was, +“Frederick Augustus Washington Bailey.” I, however, had dispensed +with the two middle names long before I left Maryland so that I was generally +known by the name of “Frederick Bailey.” I started from Baltimore +bearing the name of “Stanley.” When I got to New York, I again +changed my name to “Frederick Johnson,” and thought that would be +the last change. But when I got to New Bedford, I found it necessary again to +change my name. The reason of this necessity was, that there were so many +Johnsons in New Bedford, it was already quite difficult to distinguish between +them. I gave Mr. Johnson the privilege of choosing me a name, but told him he +must not take from me the name of “Frederick.” I must hold on to +that, to preserve a sense of my identity. Mr. Johnson had just been reading the +“Lady of the Lake,” and at once suggested that my name be +“Douglass.” From that time until now I have been called +“Frederick Douglass;” and as I am more widely known by that name +than by either of the others, I shall continue to use it as my own. +</p> + +<p> +I was quite disappointed at the general appearance of things in New Bedford. +The impression which I had received respecting the character and condition of +the people of the north, I found to be singularly erroneous. I had very +strangely supposed, while in slavery, that few of the comforts, and scarcely +any of the luxuries, of life were enjoyed at the north, compared with what were +enjoyed by the slaveholders of the south. I probably came to this conclusion +from the fact that northern people owned no slaves. I supposed that they were +about upon a level with the non-slaveholding population of the south. I knew +<i>they</i> were exceedingly poor, and I had been accustomed to regard their +poverty as the necessary consequence of their being non-slaveholders. I had +somehow imbibed the opinion that, in the absence of slaves, there could be no +wealth, and very little refinement. And upon coming to the north, I expected to +meet with a rough, hard-handed, and uncultivated population, living in the most +Spartan-like simplicity, knowing nothing of the ease, luxury, pomp, and +grandeur of southern slaveholders. Such being my conjectures, any one +acquainted with the appearance of New Bedford may very readily infer how +palpably I must have seen my mistake. +</p> + +<p> +In the afternoon of the day when I reached New Bedford, I visited the wharves, +to take a view of the shipping. Here I found myself surrounded with the +strongest proofs of wealth. Lying at the wharves, and riding in the stream, I +saw many ships of the finest model, in the best order, and of the largest size. +Upon the right and left, I was walled in by granite warehouses of the widest +dimensions, stowed to their utmost capacity with the necessaries and comforts +of life. Added to this, almost every body seemed to be at work, but noiselessly +so, compared with what I had been accustomed to in Baltimore. There were no +loud songs heard from those engaged in loading and unloading ships. I heard no +deep oaths or horrid curses on the laborer. I saw no whipping of men; but all +seemed to go smoothly on. Every man appeared to understand his work, and went +at it with a sober, yet cheerful earnestness, which betokened the deep interest +which he felt in what he was doing, as well as a sense of his own dignity as a +man. To me this looked exceedingly strange. From the wharves I strolled around +and over the town, gazing with wonder and admiration at the splendid churches, +beautiful dwellings, and finely-cultivated gardens; evincing an amount of +wealth, comfort, taste, and refinement, such as I had never seen in any part of +slaveholding Maryland. +</p> + +<p> +Every thing looked clean, new, and beautiful. I saw few or no dilapidated +houses, with poverty-stricken inmates; no half-naked children and barefooted +women, such as I had been accustomed to see in Hillsborough, Easton, St. +Michael’s, and Baltimore. The people looked more able, stronger, +healthier, and happier, than those of Maryland. I was for once made glad by a +view of extreme wealth, without being saddened by seeing extreme poverty. But +the most astonishing as well as the most interesting thing to me was the +condition of the colored people, a great many of whom, like myself, had escaped +thither as a refuge from the hunters of men. I found many, who had not been +seven years out of their chains, living in finer houses, and evidently enjoying +more of the comforts of life, than the average of slaveholders in Maryland. I +will venture to assert, that my friend Mr. Nathan Johnson (of whom I can say +with a grateful heart, “I was hungry, and he gave me meat; I was thirsty, +and he gave me drink; I was a stranger, and he took me in”) lived in a +neater house; dined at a better table; took, paid for, and read, more +newspapers; better understood the moral, religious, and political character of +the nation,—than nine tenths of the slaveholders in Talbot county +Maryland. Yet Mr. Johnson was a working man. His hands were hardened by toil, +and not his alone, but those also of Mrs. Johnson. I found the colored people +much more spirited than I had supposed they would be. I found among them a +determination to protect each other from the blood-thirsty kidnapper, at all +hazards. Soon after my arrival, I was told of a circumstance which illustrated +their spirit. A colored man and a fugitive slave were on unfriendly terms. The +former was heard to threaten the latter with informing his master of his +whereabouts. Straightway a meeting was called among the colored people, under +the stereotyped notice, “Business of importance!” The betrayer was +invited to attend. The people came at the appointed hour, and organized the +meeting by appointing a very religious old gentleman as president, who, I +believe, made a prayer, after which he addressed the meeting as follows: +“<i>Friends, we have got him here, and I would recommend that you young +men just take him outside the door, and kill him!</i>” With this, a +number of them bolted at him; but they were intercepted by some more timid than +themselves, and the betrayer escaped their vengeance, and has not been seen in +New Bedford since. I believe there have been no more such threats, and should +there be hereafter, I doubt not that death would be the consequence. +</p> + +<p> +I found employment, the third day after my arrival, in stowing a sloop with a +load of oil. It was new, dirty, and hard work for me; but I went at it with a +glad heart and a willing hand. I was now my own master. It was a happy moment, +the rapture of which can be understood only by those who have been slaves. It +was the first work, the reward of which was to be entirely my own. There was no +Master Hugh standing ready, the moment I earned the money, to rob me of it. I +worked that day with a pleasure I had never before experienced. I was at work +for myself and newly-married wife. It was to me the starting-point of a new +existence. When I got through with that job, I went in pursuit of a job of +calking; but such was the strength of prejudice against color, among the white +calkers, that they refused to work with me, and of course I could get no +employment.<a href="#fn-4" name="fnref-4" id="fnref-4"><sup>[4]</sup></a> +Finding my trade of no immediate benefit, I threw off my calking habiliments, +and prepared myself to do any kind of work I could get to do. Mr. Johnson +kindly let me have his wood-horse and saw, and I very soon found myself a +plenty of work. There was no work too hard—none too dirty. I was ready to +saw wood, shovel coal, carry wood, sweep the chimney, or roll oil +casks,—all of which I did for nearly three years in New Bedford, before I +became known to the anti-slavery world. +</p> + +<p class="footnote"> +<a name="fn-4" id="fn-4"></a> <a href="#fnref-4">[4]</a> +I am told that colored persons can now get employment at calking in New +Bedford—a result of anti-slavery effort. +</p> + +<p> +In about four months after I went to New Bedford, there came a young man to me, +and inquired if I did not wish to take the “Liberator.” I told him +I did; but, just having made my escape from slavery, I remarked that I was +unable to pay for it then. I, however, finally became a subscriber to it. The +paper came, and I read it from week to week with such feelings as it would be +quite idle for me to attempt to describe. The paper became my meat and my +drink. My soul was set all on fire. Its sympathy for my brethren in +bonds—its scathing denunciations of slaveholders—its faithful +exposures of slavery—and its powerful attacks upon the upholders of the +institution—sent a thrill of joy through my soul, such as I had never +felt before! +</p> + +<p> +I had not long been a reader of the “Liberator,” before I got a +pretty correct idea of the principles, measures and spirit of the anti-slavery +reform. I took right hold of the cause. I could do but little; but what I +could, I did with a joyful heart, and never felt happier than when in an +anti-slavery meeting. I seldom had much to say at the meetings, because what I +wanted to say was said so much better by others. But, while attending an +anti-slavery convention at Nantucket, on the 11th of August, 1841, I felt +strongly moved to speak, and was at the same time much urged to do so by Mr. +William C. Coffin, a gentleman who had heard me speak in the colored +people’s meeting at New Bedford. It was a severe cross, and I took it up +reluctantly. The truth was, I felt myself a slave, and the idea of speaking to +white people weighed me down. I spoke but a few moments, when I felt a degree +of freedom, and said what I desired with considerable ease. From that time +until now, I have been engaged in pleading the cause of my brethren—with +what success, and with what devotion, I leave those acquainted with my labors +to decide. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="link2H_APPE" id="link2H_APPE"></a> APPENDIX</h2> + +<p> +I find, since reading over the foregoing Narrative, that I have, in several +instances, spoken in such a tone and manner, respecting religion, as may +possibly lead those unacquainted with my religious views to suppose me an +opponent of all religion. To remove the liability of such misapprehension, I +deem it proper to append the following brief explanation. What I have said +respecting and against religion, I mean strictly to apply to the +<i>slaveholding religion</i> of this land, and with no possible reference to +Christianity proper; for, between the Christianity of this land, and the +Christianity of Christ, I recognize the widest possible difference—so +wide, that to receive the one as good, pure, and holy, is of necessity to +reject the other as bad, corrupt, and wicked. To be the friend of the one, is +of necessity to be the enemy of the other. I love the pure, peaceable, and +impartial Christianity of Christ: I therefore hate the corrupt, slaveholding, +women-whipping, cradle-plundering, partial and hypocritical Christianity of +this land. Indeed, I can see no reason, but the most deceitful one, for calling +the religion of this land Christianity. I look upon it as the climax of all +misnomers, the boldest of all frauds, and the grossest of all libels. Never was +there a clearer case of “stealing the livery of the court of heaven to +serve the devil in.” I am filled with unutterable loathing when I +contemplate the religious pomp and show, together with the horrible +inconsistencies, which every where surround me. We have men-stealers for +ministers, women-whippers for missionaries, and cradle-plunderers for church +members. The man who wields the blood-clotted cowskin during the week fills the +pulpit on Sunday, and claims to be a minister of the meek and lowly Jesus. The +man who robs me of my earnings at the end of each week meets me as a +class-leader on Sunday morning, to show me the way of life, and the path of +salvation. He who sells my sister, for purposes of prostitution, stands forth +as the pious advocate of purity. He who proclaims it a religious duty to read +the Bible denies me the right of learning to read the name of the God who made +me. He who is the religious advocate of marriage robs whole millions of its +sacred influence, and leaves them to the ravages of wholesale pollution. The +warm defender of the sacredness of the family relation is the same that +scatters whole families,—sundering husbands and wives, parents and +children, sisters and brothers,—leaving the hut vacant, and the hearth +desolate. We see the thief preaching against theft, and the adulterer against +adultery. We have men sold to build churches, women sold to support the gospel, +and babes sold to purchase Bibles for the <i>Poor Heathen! All For The Glory Of +God And The Good Of Souls!</i> The slave auctioneer’s bell and the +church-going bell chime in with each other, and the bitter cries of the +heart-broken slave are drowned in the religious shouts of his pious master. +Revivals of religion and revivals in the slave-trade go hand in hand together. +The slave prison and the church stand near each other. The clanking of fetters +and the rattling of chains in the prison, and the pious psalm and solemn prayer +in the church, may be heard at the same time. The dealers in the bodies and +souls of men erect their stand in the presence of the pulpit, and they mutually +help each other. The dealer gives his blood-stained gold to support the pulpit, +and the pulpit, in return, covers his infernal business with the garb of +Christianity. Here we have religion and robbery the allies of each +other—devils dressed in angels’ robes, and hell presenting the +semblance of paradise. +</p> + +<p class="poem"> +“Just God! and these are they,v Who minister at thine altar, God of +right!<br /> +Men who their hands, with prayer and blessing, lay<br /> +On Israel’s ark of light.<br /> +<br /> +“What! preach, and kidnap men?<br /> +Give thanks, and rob thy own afflicted poor?<br /> +Talk of thy glorious liberty, and then<br /> +Bolt hard the captive’s door?<br /> +<br /> +“What! servants of thy own<br /> +Merciful Son, who came to seek and save<br /> +The homeless and the outcast, fettering down<br /> +The tasked and plundered slave!<br /> +<br /> +“Pilate and Herod friends!<br /> +Chief priests and rulers, as of old, combine!<br /> +Just God and holy! is that church which lends<br /> +Strength to the spoiler thine?” +</p> + +<p> +The Christianity of America is a Christianity, of whose votaries it may be as +truly said, as it was of the ancient scribes and Pharisees, “They bind +heavy burdens, and grievous to be borne, and lay them on men’s shoulders, +but they themselves will not move them with one of their fingers. All their +works they do for to be seen of men.—They love the uppermost rooms at +feasts, and the chief seats in the synagogues, . . . . . . and to be called of +men, Rabbi, Rabbi.—But woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! +for ye shut up the kingdom of heaven against men; for ye neither go in +yourselves, neither suffer ye them that are entering to go in. Ye devour +widows’ houses, and for a pretence make long prayers; therefore ye shall +receive the greater damnation. Ye compass sea and land to make one proselyte, +and when he is made, ye make him twofold more the child of hell than +yourselves.—Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! for ye pay +tithe of mint, and anise, and cumin, and have omitted the weightier matters of +the law, judgment, mercy, and faith; these ought ye to have done, and not to +leave the other undone. Ye blind guides! which strain at a gnat, and swallow a +camel. Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! for ye make clean the +outside of the cup and of the platter; but within, they are full of extortion +and excess.—Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! for ye are +like unto whited sepulchres, which indeed appear beautiful outward, but are +within full of dead men’s bones, and of all uncleanness. Even so ye also +outwardly appear righteous unto men, but within ye are full of hypocrisy and +iniquity.” +</p> + +<p> +Dark and terrible as is this picture, I hold it to be strictly true of the +overwhelming mass of professed Christians in America. They strain at a gnat, +and swallow a camel. Could any thing be more true of our churches? They would +be shocked at the proposition of fellowshipping a <i>sheep</i>-stealer; and at +the same time they hug to their communion a <i>man</i>-stealer, and brand me +with being an infidel, if I find fault with them for it. They attend with +Pharisaical strictness to the outward forms of religion, and at the same time +neglect the weightier matters of the law, judgment, mercy, and faith. They are +always ready to sacrifice, but seldom to show mercy. They are they who are +represented as professing to love God whom they have not seen, whilst they hate +their brother whom they have seen. They love the heathen on the other side of +the globe. They can pray for him, pay money to have the Bible put into his +hand, and missionaries to instruct him; while they despise and totally neglect +the heathen at their own doors. +</p> + +<p> +Such is, very briefly, my view of the religion of this land; and to avoid any +misunderstanding, growing out of the use of general terms, I mean by the +religion of this land, that which is revealed in the words, deeds, and actions, +of those bodies, north and south, calling themselves Christian churches, and +yet in union with slaveholders. It is against religion, as presented by these +bodies, that I have felt it my duty to testify. +</p> + +<p> +I conclude these remarks by copying the following portrait of the religion of +the south, (which is, by communion and fellowship, the religion of the north,) +which I soberly affirm is “true to the life,” and without +caricature or the slightest exaggeration. It is said to have been drawn, +several years before the present anti-slavery agitation began, by a northern +Methodist preacher, who, while residing at the south, had an opportunity to see +slaveholding morals, manners, and piety, with his own eyes. “Shall I not +visit for these things? saith the Lord. Shall not my soul be avenged on such a +nation as this?” +</p> + + +<p class="center"><a name="link2H_4_0016" id="link2H_4_0016"></a> +<b>A PARODY</b> +</p> + +<p class="poem"> +“Come, saints and sinners, hear me tell<br /> +How pious priests whip Jack and Nell,<br /> +And women buy and children sell,<br /> +And preach all sinners down to hell,<br /> +And sing of heavenly union.<br /> +<br /> +“They’ll bleat and baa, dona like goats,<br /> +Gorge down black sheep, and strain at motes,<br /> +Array their backs in fine black coats,<br /> +Then seize their negroes by their throats,<br /> +And choke, for heavenly union.<br /> +<br /> +“They’ll church you if you sip a dram,<br /> +And damn you if you steal a lamb;<br /> +Yet rob old Tony, Doll, and Sam,<br /> +Of human rights, and bread and ham;<br /> +Kidnapper’s heavenly union.<br /> +<br /> +“They’ll loudly talk of Christ’s reward,<br /> +And bind his image with a cord,<br /> +And scold, and swing the lash abhorred,<br /> +And sell their brother in the Lord<br /> +To handcuffed heavenly union.<br /> +<br /> +“They’ll read and sing a sacred song,<br /> +And make a prayer both loud and long,<br /> +And teach the right and do the wrong,<br /> +Hailing the brother, sister throng,<br /> +With words of heavenly union.<br /> +<br /> +“We wonder how such saints can sing,<br /> +Or praise the Lord upon the wing,<br /> +Who roar, and scold, and whip, and sting,<br /> +And to their slaves and mammon cling,<br /> +In guilty conscience union.<br /> +<br /> +“They’ll raise tobacco, corn, and rye,<br /> +And drive, and thieve, and cheat, and lie,<br /> +And lay up treasures in the sky,<br /> +By making switch and cowskin fly,<br /> +In hope of heavenly union.<br /> +<br /> +“They’ll crack old Tony on the skull,<br /> +And preach and roar like Bashan bull,<br /> +Or braying ass, of mischief full,<br /> +Then seize old Jacob by the wool,<br /> +And pull for heavenly union.<br /> +<br /> +“A roaring, ranting, sleek man-thief,<br /> +Who lived on mutton, veal, and beef,<br /> +Yet never would afford relief<br /> +To needy, sable sons of grief,<br /> +Was big with heavenly union.<br /> +<br /> +“‘Love not the world,’ the preacher said,<br /> +And winked his eye, and shook his head;<br /> +He seized on Tom, and Dick, and Ned,<br /> +Cut short their meat, and clothes, and bread,<br /> +Yet still loved heavenly union.<br /> +<br /> +“Another preacher whining spoke<br /> +Of One whose heart for sinners broke:<br /> +He tied old Nanny to an oak,<br /> +And drew the blood at every stroke,<br /> +And prayed for heavenly union.<br /> +<br /> +“Two others oped their iron jaws,<br /> +And waved their children-stealing paws;<br /> +There sat their children in gewgaws;<br /> +By stinting negroes’ backs and maws,<br /> +They kept up heavenly union.<br /> +<br /> +“All good from Jack another takes,<br /> +And entertains their flirts and rakes,<br /> +Who dress as sleek as glossy snakes,<br /> +And cram their mouths with sweetened cakes;<br /> +And this goes down for union.” +</p> + +<p> +Sincerely and earnestly hoping that this little book may do something toward +throwing light on the American slave system, and hastening the glad day of +deliverance to the millions of my brethren in bonds—faithfully relying +upon the power of truth, love, and justice, for success in my humble +efforts—and solemnly pledging my self anew to the sacred cause,—I +subscribe myself, +</p> + +<p class="right"> +FREDERICK DOUGLASS. +</p> + +<p class="letter"> +L<small>YNN</small>, <i>Mass., April</i> 28, 1845. +</p> + +<p class="center"> +THE END +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div style='display:block;margin-top:4em'>*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK NARRATIVE OF THE LIFE OF FREDERICK DOUGLASS ***</div> +<div style='display:block;margin:1em 0;'>This file should be named 23-h.htm or 23-h.zip</div> +<div style='display:block;margin:1em 0;'>This and all associated files of various formats will be found in https://www.gutenberg.org/2/23/</div> +<div style='display:block; margin:1em 0'> +Updated editions will replace the previous one—the old editions will +be renamed. +</div> + +<div style='display:block; margin:1em 0'> +Creating the works from print editions not protected by U.S. copyright +law means that no one owns a United States copyright in these works, +so the Foundation (and you!) can copy and distribute it in the United +States without permission and without paying copyright +royalties. 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You may copy it, give it away or re-use +it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included with this +eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: The Narrative of the Life of Frederick Douglass + An American Slave + +Author: Frederick Douglass + +Release Date: January 10, 2006 [EBook #23] +Last Updated: October 28, 2020 + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ASCII + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK FREDERICK DOUGLASS *** + + + + +Produced by An Anonymous Volunteer and David Widger + + + + + + + + + + Note from the original file: This electronic book is being released at + this time to honor the birthday of Martin Luther King Jr. [Born January + 15, 1929] [Officially celebrated January 20, 1992] + + + +NARRATIVE OF THE LIFE OF FREDERICK DOUGLASS + +AN AMERICAN SLAVE. WRITTEN BY HIMSELF. + + +BOSTON + +PUBLISHED AT THE ANTI-SLAVERY OFFICE, NO. 25 CORNHILL 1845 + +ENTERED, ACCORDING TO ACT OF CONGRESS, IN THE YEAR 1845 BY FREDERICK +DOUGLASS, IN THE CLERK'S OFFICE OF THE DISTRICT COURT OF MASSACHUSETTS. + + + + + + + CONTENTS + + + + PREFACE + + LETTER FROM WENDELL PHILLIPS, ESQ. + + FREDERICK DOUGLASS. + + CHAPTER I + + CHAPTER II + + CHAPTER III + + CHAPTER IV + + CHAPTER V + + CHAPTER VI + + CHAPTER VII + + CHAPTER VIII + + CHAPTER IX + + CHAPTER X + + CHAPTER XI + + APPENDIX + + A PARODY + + + + + + + + +PREFACE + +In the month of August, 1841, I attended an anti-slavery convention +in Nantucket, at which it was my happiness to become acquainted with +_Frederick Douglass_, the writer of the following Narrative. He was a +stranger to nearly every member of that body; but, having recently made +his escape from the southern prison-house of bondage, and feeling +his curiosity excited to ascertain the principles and measures of the +abolitionists,--of whom he had heard a somewhat vague description while +he was a slave,--he was induced to give his attendance, on the occasion +alluded to, though at that time a resident in New Bedford. + +Fortunate, most fortunate occurrence!--fortunate for the millions of +his manacled brethren, yet panting for deliverance from their awful +thraldom!--fortunate for the cause of negro emancipation, and of +universal liberty!--fortunate for the land of his birth, which he has +already done so much to save and bless!--fortunate for a large circle of +friends and acquaintances, whose sympathy and affection he has strongly +secured by the many sufferings he has endured, by his virtuous traits of +character, by his ever-abiding remembrance of those who are in bonds, as +being bound with them!--fortunate for the multitudes, in various parts of +our republic, whose minds he has enlightened on the subject of slavery, +and who have been melted to tears by his pathos, or roused to virtuous +indignation by his stirring eloquence against the enslavers of +men!--fortunate for himself, as it at once brought him into the field of +public usefulness, "gave the world assurance of a MAN," quickened the +slumbering energies of his soul, and consecrated him to the great work +of breaking the rod of the oppressor, and letting the oppressed go free! + +I shall never forget his first speech at the convention--the +extraordinary emotion it excited in my own mind--the powerful impression +it created upon a crowded auditory, completely taken by surprise--the +applause which followed from the beginning to the end of his felicitous +remarks. I think I never hated slavery so intensely as at that moment; +certainly, my perception of the enormous outrage which is inflicted by +it, on the godlike nature of its victims, was rendered far more +clear than ever. There stood one, in physical proportion and stature +commanding and exact--in intellect richly endowed--in natural eloquence +a prodigy--in soul manifestly "created but a little lower than the +angels"--yet a slave, ay, a fugitive slave,--trembling for his safety, +hardly daring to believe that on the American soil, a single white +person could be found who would befriend him at all hazards, for the +love of God and humanity! Capable of high attainments as an intellectual +and moral being--needing nothing but a comparatively small amount of +cultivation to make him an ornament to society and a blessing to his +race--by the law of the land, by the voice of the people, by the terms +of the slave code, he was only a piece of property, a beast of burden, a +chattel personal, nevertheless! + +A beloved friend from New Bedford prevailed on _Mr. Douglass_ to address +the convention. He came forward to the platform with a hesitancy and +embarrassment, necessarily the attendants of a sensitive mind in such a +novel position. After apologizing for his ignorance, and reminding the +audience that slavery was a poor school for the human intellect and +heart, he proceeded to narrate some of the facts in his own history as +a slave, and in the course of his speech gave utterance to many noble +thoughts and thrilling reflections. As soon as he had taken his seat, +filled with hope and admiration, I rose, and declared that _Patrick +Henry_, of revolutionary fame, never made a speech more eloquent in the +cause of liberty, than the one we had just listened to from the lips of +that hunted fugitive. So I believed at that time--such is my belief +now. I reminded the audience of the peril which surrounded this +self-emancipated young man at the North,--even in Massachusetts, on the +soil of the Pilgrim Fathers, among the descendants of revolutionary +sires; and I appealed to them, whether they would ever allow him to +be carried back into slavery,--law or no law, constitution or no +constitution. The response was unanimous and in thunder-tones--"NO!" +"Will you succor and protect him as a brother-man--a resident of the old +Bay State?" "YES!" shouted the whole mass, with an energy so startling, +that the ruthless tyrants south of Mason and Dixon's line might almost +have heard the mighty burst of feeling, and recognized it as the pledge +of an invincible determination, on the part of those who gave it, never +to betray him that wanders, but to hide the outcast, and firmly to abide +the consequences. + +It was at once deeply impressed upon my mind, that, if _Mr. Douglass_ +could be persuaded to consecrate his time and talents to the promotion +of the anti-slavery enterprise, a powerful impetus would be given to +it, and a stunning blow at the same time inflicted on northern prejudice +against a colored complexion. I therefore endeavored to instil hope +and courage into his mind, in order that he might dare to engage in a +vocation so anomalous and responsible for a person in his situation; and +I was seconded in this effort by warm-hearted friends, especially by the +late General Agent of the Massachusetts Anti-Slavery Society, _Mr. John +A. Collins_, whose judgment in this instance entirely coincided with +my own. At first, he could give no encouragement; with unfeigned +diffidence, he expressed his conviction that he was not adequate to +the performance of so great a task; the path marked out was wholly an +untrodden one; he was sincerely apprehensive that he should do more +harm than good. After much deliberation, however, he consented to make +a trial; and ever since that period, he has acted as a lecturing +agent, under the auspices either of the American or the Massachusetts +Anti-Slavery Society. In labors he has been most abundant; and his +success in combating prejudice, in gaining proselytes, in agitating the +public mind, has far surpassed the most sanguine expectations that were +raised at the commencement of his brilliant career. He has borne himself +with gentleness and meekness, yet with true manliness of character. As +a public speaker, he excels in pathos, wit, comparison, imitation, +strength of reasoning, and fluency of language. There is in him that +union of head and heart, which is indispensable to an enlightenment +of the heads and a winning of the hearts of others. May his strength +continue to be equal to his day! May he continue to "grow in grace, and +in the knowledge of God," that he may be increasingly serviceable in the +cause of bleeding humanity, whether at home or abroad! + +It is certainly a very remarkable fact, that one of the most efficient +advocates of the slave population, now before the public, is a fugitive +slave, in the person of _Frederick Douglass_; and that the free colored +population of the United States are as ably represented by one of their +own number, in the person of _Charles Lenox Remond_, whose eloquent +appeals have extorted the highest applause of multitudes on both sides +of the Atlantic. Let the calumniators of the colored race despise +themselves for their baseness and illiberality of spirit, and henceforth +cease to talk of the natural inferiority of those who require nothing +but time and opportunity to attain to the highest point of human +excellence. + +It may, perhaps, be fairly questioned, whether any other portion of the +population of the earth could have endured the privations, sufferings +and horrors of slavery, without having become more degraded in the scale +of humanity than the slaves of African descent. Nothing has been left +undone to cripple their intellects, darken their minds, debase their +moral nature, obliterate all traces of their relationship to mankind; +and yet how wonderfully they have sustained the mighty load of a most +frightful bondage, under which they have been groaning for centuries! To +illustrate the effect of slavery on the white man,--to show that he has +no powers of endurance, in such a condition, superior to those of +his black brother,--_Daniel O'Connell_, the distinguished advocate of +universal emancipation, and the mightiest champion of prostrate but not +conquered Ireland, relates the following anecdote in a speech delivered +by him in the Conciliation Hall, Dublin, before the Loyal National +Repeal Association, March 31, 1845. "No matter," said _Mr. O'Connell_, +"under what specious term it may disguise itself, slavery is still +hideous. _It has a natural, an inevitable tendency to brutalize every +noble faculty of man._ An American sailor, who was cast away on the +shore of Africa, where he was kept in slavery for three years, was, at +the expiration of that period, found to be imbruted and stultified--he +had lost all reasoning power; and having forgotten his native language, +could only utter some savage gibberish between Arabic and English, which +nobody could understand, and which even he himself found difficulty +in pronouncing. So much for the humanizing influence of _The Domestic +Institution_!" Admitting this to have been an extraordinary case of +mental deterioration, it proves at least that the white slave can sink +as low in the scale of humanity as the black one. + +_Mr. Douglass_ has very properly chosen to write his own Narrative, in +his own style, and according to the best of his ability, rather than +to employ some one else. It is, therefore, entirely his own production; +and, considering how long and dark was the career he had to run as a +slave,--how few have been his opportunities to improve his mind since he +broke his iron fetters,--it is, in my judgment, highly creditable to his +head and heart. He who can peruse it without a tearful eye, a heaving +breast, an afflicted spirit,--without being filled with an unutterable +abhorrence of slavery and all its abettors, and animated with a +determination to seek the immediate overthrow of that execrable +system,--without trembling for the fate of this country in the hands of +a righteous God, who is ever on the side of the oppressed, and whose arm +is not shortened that it cannot save,--must have a flinty heart, and be +qualified to act the part of a trafficker "in slaves and the souls of +men." I am confident that it is essentially true in all its statements; +that nothing has been set down in malice, nothing exaggerated, nothing +drawn from the imagination; that it comes short of the reality, rather +than overstates a single fact in regard to _slavery as it is_. The +experience of _Frederick Douglass_, as a slave, was not a peculiar one; +his lot was not especially a hard one; his case may be regarded as a +very fair specimen of the treatment of slaves in Maryland, in which +State it is conceded that they are better fed and less cruelly treated +than in Georgia, Alabama, or Louisiana. Many have suffered incomparably +more, while very few on the plantations have suffered less, than +himself. Yet how deplorable was his situation! what terrible +chastisements were inflicted upon his person! what still more shocking +outrages were perpetrated upon his mind! with all his noble powers and +sublime aspirations, how like a brute was he treated, even by those +professing to have the same mind in them that was in Christ Jesus! to +what dreadful liabilities was he continually subjected! how destitute +of friendly counsel and aid, even in his greatest extremities! how heavy +was the midnight of woe which shrouded in blackness the last ray of +hope, and filled the future with terror and gloom! what longings after +freedom took possession of his breast, and how his misery augmented, +in proportion as he grew reflective and intelligent,--thus demonstrating +that a happy slave is an extinct man! how he thought, reasoned, felt, +under the lash of the driver, with the chains upon his limbs! what +perils he encountered in his endeavors to escape from his horrible doom! +and how signal have been his deliverance and preservation in the midst +of a nation of pitiless enemies! + +This Narrative contains many affecting incidents, many passages of great +eloquence and power; but I think the most thrilling one of them all +is the description _Douglass_ gives of his feelings, as he stood +soliloquizing respecting his fate, and the chances of his one day being +a freeman, on the banks of the Chesapeake Bay--viewing the receding +vessels as they flew with their white wings before the breeze, and +apostrophizing them as animated by the living spirit of freedom. Who +can read that passage, and be insensible to its pathos and sublimity? +Compressed into it is a whole Alexandrian library of thought, feeling, +and sentiment--all that can, all that need be urged, in the form of +expostulation, entreaty, rebuke, against that crime of crimes,--making +man the property of his fellow-man! O, how accursed is that system, +which entombs the godlike mind of man, defaces the divine image, reduces +those who by creation were crowned with glory and honor to a level with +four-footed beasts, and exalts the dealer in human flesh above all that +is called God! Why should its existence be prolonged one hour? Is it not +evil, only evil, and that continually? What does its presence imply but +the absence of all fear of God, all regard for man, on the part of the +people of the United States? Heaven speed its eternal overthrow! + +So profoundly ignorant of the nature of slavery are many persons, that +they are stubbornly incredulous whenever they read or listen to any +recital of the cruelties which are daily inflicted on its victims. They +do not deny that the slaves are held as property; but that terrible +fact seems to convey to their minds no idea of injustice, exposure +to outrage, or savage barbarity. Tell them of cruel scourgings, of +mutilations and brandings, of scenes of pollution and blood, of the +banishment of all light and knowledge, and they affect to be greatly +indignant at such enormous exaggerations, such wholesale misstatements, +such abominable libels on the character of the southern planters! As if +all these direful outrages were not the natural results of slavery! +As if it were less cruel to reduce a human being to the condition of +a thing, than to give him a severe flagellation, or to deprive him of +necessary food and clothing! As if whips, chains, thumb-screws, paddles, +blood-hounds, overseers, drivers, patrols, were not all indispensable +to keep the slaves down, and to give protection to their ruthless +oppressors! As if, when the marriage institution is abolished, +concubinage, adultery, and incest, must not necessarily abound; when all +the rights of humanity are annihilated, any barrier remains to protect +the victim from the fury of the spoiler; when absolute power is assumed +over life and liberty, it will not be wielded with destructive sway! +Skeptics of this character abound in society. In some few instances, +their incredulity arises from a want of reflection; but, generally, it +indicates a hatred of the light, a desire to shield slavery from the +assaults of its foes, a contempt of the colored race, whether bond or +free. Such will try to discredit the shocking tales of slaveholding +cruelty which are recorded in this truthful Narrative; but they will +labor in vain. _Mr. Douglass_ has frankly disclosed the place of his +birth, the names of those who claimed ownership in his body and soul, +and the names also of those who committed the crimes which he has +alleged against them. His statements, therefore, may easily be +disproved, if they are untrue. + +In the course of his Narrative, he relates two instances of murderous +cruelty,--in one of which a planter deliberately shot a slave belonging +to a neighboring plantation, who had unintentionally gotten within his +lordly domain in quest of fish; and in the other, an overseer blew out +the brains of a slave who had fled to a stream of water to escape +a bloody scourging. _Mr. Douglass_ states that in neither of these +instances was any thing done by way of legal arrest or judicial +investigation. The Baltimore American, of March 17, 1845, relates +a similar case of atrocity, perpetrated with similar impunity--as +follows:--"_Shooting a slave._--We learn, upon the authority of a letter +from Charles county, Maryland, received by a gentleman of this city, +that a young man, named Matthews, a nephew of General Matthews, and +whose father, it is believed, holds an office at Washington, killed one +of the slaves upon his father's farm by shooting him. The letter states +that young Matthews had been left in charge of the farm; that he gave +an order to the servant, which was disobeyed, when he proceeded to +the house, _obtained a gun, and, returning, shot the servant._ He +immediately, the letter continues, fled to his father's residence, +where he still remains unmolested."--Let it never be forgotten, that no +slaveholder or overseer can be convicted of any outrage perpetrated on +the person of a slave, however diabolical it may be, on the testimony +of colored witnesses, whether bond or free. By the slave code, they are +adjudged to be as incompetent to testify against a white man, as though +they were indeed a part of the brute creation. Hence, there is no +legal protection in fact, whatever there may be in form, for the slave +population; and any amount of cruelty may be inflicted on them with +impunity. Is it possible for the human mind to conceive of a more +horrible state of society? + +The effect of a religious profession on the conduct of southern masters +is vividly described in the following Narrative, and shown to be any +thing but salutary. In the nature of the case, it must be in the highest +degree pernicious. The testimony of _Mr. Douglass_, on this point, is +sustained by a cloud of witnesses, whose veracity is unimpeachable. "A +slaveholder's profession of Christianity is a palpable imposture. He +is a felon of the highest grade. He is a man-stealer. It is of no +importance what you put in the other scale." + +Reader! are you with the man-stealers in sympathy and purpose, or on the +side of their down-trodden victims? If with the former, then are you the +foe of God and man. If with the latter, what are you prepared to do +and dare in their behalf? Be faithful, be vigilant, be untiring in your +efforts to break every yoke, and let the oppressed go free. Come what +may--cost what it may--inscribe on the banner which you unfurl to the +breeze, as your religious and political motto--"NO COMPROMISE WITH +SLAVERY! NO UNION WITH SLAVEHOLDERS!" + +WM. LLOYD GARRISON BOSTON, _May_ 1, 1845. + + + + + + +LETTER FROM WENDELL PHILLIPS, ESQ. + +BOSTON, APRIL 22, 1845. + +My Dear Friend: + +You remember the old fable of "The Man and the Lion," where the lion +complained that he should not be so misrepresented "when the lions wrote +history." + +I am glad the time has come when the "lions write history." We have been +left long enough to gather the character of slavery from the involuntary +evidence of the masters. One might, indeed, rest sufficiently satisfied +with what, it is evident, must be, in general, the results of such a +relation, without seeking farther to find whether they have followed in +every instance. Indeed, those who stare at the half-peck of corn a week, +and love to count the lashes on the slave's back, are seldom the "stuff" +out of which reformers and abolitionists are to be made. I remember +that, in 1838, many were waiting for the results of the West India +experiment, before they could come into our ranks. Those "results" have +come long ago; but, alas! few of that number have come with them, as +converts. A man must be disposed to judge of emancipation by other tests +than whether it has increased the produce of sugar,--and to hate slavery +for other reasons than because it starves men and whips women,--before he +is ready to lay the first stone of his anti-slavery life. + +I was glad to learn, in your story, how early the most neglected of +God's children waken to a sense of their rights, and of the injustice +done them. Experience is a keen teacher; and long before you had +mastered your A B C, or knew where the "white sails" of the Chesapeake +were bound, you began, I see, to gauge the wretchedness of the slave, +not by his hunger and want, not by his lashes and toil, but by the cruel +and blighting death which gathers over his soul. + +In connection with this, there is one circumstance which makes your +recollections peculiarly valuable, and renders your early insight the +more remarkable. You come from that part of the country where we are +told slavery appears with its fairest features. Let us hear, then, what +it is at its best estate--gaze on its bright side, if it has one; and +then imagination may task her powers to add dark lines to the picture, +as she travels southward to that (for the colored man) Valley of the +Shadow of Death, where the Mississippi sweeps along. + +Again, we have known you long, and can put the most entire confidence in +your truth, candor, and sincerity. Every one who has heard you speak +has felt, and, I am confident, every one who reads your book will feel, +persuaded that you give them a fair specimen of the whole truth. No +one-sided portrait,--no wholesale complaints,--but strict justice done, +whenever individual kindliness has neutralized, for a moment, the deadly +system with which it was strangely allied. You have been with us, too, +some years, and can fairly compare the twilight of rights, which your +race enjoy at the North, with that "noon of night" under which they +labor south of Mason and Dixon's line. Tell us whether, after all, the +half-free colored man of Massachusetts is worse off than the pampered +slave of the rice swamps! + +In reading your life, no one can say that we have unfairly picked out +some rare specimens of cruelty. We know that the bitter drops, which +even you have drained from the cup, are no incidental aggravations, no +individual ills, but such as must mingle always and necessarily in +the lot of every slave. They are the essential ingredients, not the +occasional results, of the system. + +After all, I shall read your book with trembling for you. Some years +ago, when you were beginning to tell me your real name and birthplace, +you may remember I stopped you, and preferred to remain ignorant of +all. With the exception of a vague description, so I continued, till the +other day, when you read me your memoirs. I hardly knew, at the time, +whether to thank you or not for the sight of them, when I reflected that +it was still dangerous, in Massachusetts, for honest men to tell +their names! They say the fathers, in 1776, signed the Declaration of +Independence with the halter about their necks. You, too, publish your +declaration of freedom with danger compassing you around. In all the +broad lands which the Constitution of the United States overshadows, +there is no single spot,--however narrow or desolate,--where a fugitive +slave can plant himself and say, "I am safe." The whole armory of +Northern Law has no shield for you. I am free to say that, in your +place, I should throw the MS. into the fire. + +You, perhaps, may tell your story in safety, endeared as you are to so +many warm hearts by rare gifts, and a still rarer devotion of them to +the service of others. But it will be owing only to your labors, and the +fearless efforts of those who, trampling the laws and Constitution of +the country under their feet, are determined that they will "hide the +outcast," and that their hearths shall be, spite of the law, an asylum +for the oppressed, if, some time or other, the humblest may stand in our +streets, and bear witness in safety against the cruelties of which he +has been the victim. + +Yet it is sad to think, that these very throbbing hearts which welcome +your story, and form your best safeguard in telling it, are all beating +contrary to the "statute in such case made and provided." Go on, my dear +friend, till you, and those who, like you, have been saved, so as by +fire, from the dark prison-house, shall stereotype these free, +illegal pulses into statutes; and New England, cutting loose from a +blood-stained Union, shall glory in being the house of refuge for the +oppressed,--till we no longer merely "_hide_ the outcast," or make +a merit of standing idly by while he is hunted in our midst; but, +consecrating anew the soil of the Pilgrims as an asylum for the +oppressed, proclaim our _welcome_ to the slave so loudly, that the tones +shall reach every hut in the Carolinas, and make the broken-hearted +bondman leap up at the thought of old Massachusetts. + +God speed the day! + +_Till then, and ever,_ Yours truly, WENDELL PHILLIPS + + + + + + +FREDERICK DOUGLASS. + +Frederick Douglass was born in slavery as Frederick Augustus Washington +Bailey near Easton in Talbot County, Maryland. He was not sure of the +exact year of his birth, but he knew that it was 1817 or 1818. As a +young boy he was sent to Baltimore, to be a house servant, where he +learned to read and write, with the assistance of his master's wife. In +1838 he escaped from slavery and went to New York City, where he married +Anna Murray, a free colored woman whom he had met in Baltimore. Soon +thereafter he changed his name to Frederick Douglass. In 1841 he +addressed a convention of the Massachusetts Anti-Slavery Society in +Nantucket and so greatly impressed the group that they immediately +employed him as an agent. He was such an impressive orator that numerous +persons doubted if he had ever been a slave, so he wrote _Narrative Of +The Life Of Frederick Douglass_. During the Civil War he assisted in the +recruiting of colored men for the 54th and 55th Massachusetts Regiments +and consistently argued for the emancipation of slaves. After the war he +was active in securing and protecting the rights of the freemen. In his +later years, at different times, he was secretary of the Santo Domingo +Commission, marshall and recorder of deeds of the District of Columbia, +and United States Minister to Haiti. His other autobiographical works +are _My Bondage And My Freedom_ and _Life And Times Of Frederick +Douglass_, published in 1855 and 1881 respectively. He died in 1895. + + + + + + +CHAPTER I + +I was born in Tuckahoe, near Hillsborough, and about twelve miles from +Easton, in Talbot county, Maryland. I have no accurate knowledge of my +age, never having seen any authentic record containing it. By far the +larger part of the slaves know as little of their ages as horses know of +theirs, and it is the wish of most masters within my knowledge to keep +their slaves thus ignorant. I do not remember to have ever met a slave +who could tell of his birthday. They seldom come nearer to it than +planting-time, harvest-time, cherry-time, spring-time, or fall-time. A +want of information concerning my own was a source of unhappiness to me +even during childhood. The white children could tell their ages. I could +not tell why I ought to be deprived of the same privilege. I was not +allowed to make any inquiries of my master concerning it. He deemed +all such inquiries on the part of a slave improper and impertinent, and +evidence of a restless spirit. The nearest estimate I can give makes me +now between twenty-seven and twenty-eight years of age. I come to this, +from hearing my master say, some time during 1835, I was about seventeen +years old. + +My mother was named Harriet Bailey. She was the daughter of Isaac and +Betsey Bailey, both colored, and quite dark. My mother was of a darker +complexion than either my grandmother or grandfather. + +My father was a white man. He was admitted to be such by all I ever +heard speak of my parentage. The opinion was also whispered that my +master was my father; but of the correctness of this opinion, I know +nothing; the means of knowing was withheld from me. My mother and I were +separated when I was but an infant--before I knew her as my mother. It is +a common custom, in the part of Maryland from which I ran away, to part +children from their mothers at a very early age. Frequently, before the +child has reached its twelfth month, its mother is taken from it, and +hired out on some farm a considerable distance off, and the child is +placed under the care of an old woman, too old for field labor. For +what this separation is done, I do not know, unless it be to hinder the +development of the child's affection toward its mother, and to blunt and +destroy the natural affection of the mother for the child. This is the +inevitable result. + +I never saw my mother, to know her as such, more than four or five times +in my life; and each of these times was very short in duration, and at +night. She was hired by a Mr. Stewart, who lived about twelve miles from +my home. She made her journeys to see me in the night, travelling the +whole distance on foot, after the performance of her day's work. She was +a field hand, and a whipping is the penalty of not being in the field at +sunrise, unless a slave has special permission from his or her master to +the contrary--a permission which they seldom get, and one that gives +to him that gives it the proud name of being a kind master. I do not +recollect of ever seeing my mother by the light of day. She was with me +in the night. She would lie down with me, and get me to sleep, but long +before I waked she was gone. Very little communication ever took place +between us. Death soon ended what little we could have while she lived, +and with it her hardships and suffering. She died when I was about +seven years old, on one of my master's farms, near Lee's Mill. I was not +allowed to be present during her illness, at her death, or burial. She +was gone long before I knew any thing about it. Never having enjoyed, to +any considerable extent, her soothing presence, her tender and watchful +care, I received the tidings of her death with much the same emotions I +should have probably felt at the death of a stranger. + +Called thus suddenly away, she left me without the slightest intimation +of who my father was. The whisper that my master was my father, may or +may not be true; and, true or false, it is of but little consequence to +my purpose whilst the fact remains, in all its glaring odiousness, that +slaveholders have ordained, and by law established, that the children +of slave women shall in all cases follow the condition of their mothers; +and this is done too obviously to administer to their own lusts, and +make a gratification of their wicked desires profitable as well as +pleasurable; for by this cunning arrangement, the slaveholder, in cases +not a few, sustains to his slaves the double relation of master and +father. + +I know of such cases; and it is worthy of remark that such slaves +invariably suffer greater hardships, and have more to contend with, +than others. They are, in the first place, a constant offence to their +mistress. She is ever disposed to find fault with them; they can seldom +do any thing to please her; she is never better pleased than when she +sees them under the lash, especially when she suspects her husband of +showing to his mulatto children favors which he withholds from his black +slaves. The master is frequently compelled to sell this class of his +slaves, out of deference to the feelings of his white wife; and, cruel +as the deed may strike any one to be, for a man to sell his own children +to human flesh-mongers, it is often the dictate of humanity for him to +do so; for, unless he does this, he must not only whip them himself, +but must stand by and see one white son tie up his brother, of but few +shades darker complexion than himself, and ply the gory lash to his +naked back; and if he lisp one word of disapproval, it is set down to +his parental partiality, and only makes a bad matter worse, both for +himself and the slave whom he would protect and defend. + +Every year brings with it multitudes of this class of slaves. It was +doubtless in consequence of a knowledge of this fact, that one great +statesman of the south predicted the downfall of slavery by the +inevitable laws of population. Whether this prophecy is ever fulfilled +or not, it is nevertheless plain that a very different-looking class of +people are springing up at the south, and are now held in slavery, +from those originally brought to this country from Africa; and if their +increase do no other good, it will do away the force of the argument, +that God cursed Ham, and therefore American slavery is right. If the +lineal descendants of Ham are alone to be scripturally enslaved, it is +certain that slavery at the south must soon become unscriptural; for +thousands are ushered into the world, annually, who, like myself, owe +their existence to white fathers, and those fathers most frequently +their own masters. + +I have had two masters. My first master's name was Anthony. I do not +remember his first name. He was generally called Captain Anthony--a title +which, I presume, he acquired by sailing a craft on the Chesapeake Bay. +He was not considered a rich slaveholder. He owned two or three farms, +and about thirty slaves. His farms and slaves were under the care of an +overseer. The overseer's name was Plummer. Mr. Plummer was a miserable +drunkard, a profane swearer, and a savage monster. He always went armed +with a cowskin and a heavy cudgel. I have known him to cut and slash +the women's heads so horribly, that even master would be enraged at +his cruelty, and would threaten to whip him if he did not mind himself. +Master, however, was not a humane slaveholder. It required extraordinary +barbarity on the part of an overseer to affect him. He was a cruel man, +hardened by a long life of slaveholding. He would at times seem to take +great pleasure in whipping a slave. I have often been awakened at the +dawn of day by the most heart-rending shrieks of an own aunt of mine, +whom he used to tie up to a joist, and whip upon her naked back till she +was literally covered with blood. No words, no tears, no prayers, from +his gory victim, seemed to move his iron heart from its bloody purpose. +The louder she screamed, the harder he whipped; and where the blood ran +fastest, there he whipped longest. He would whip her to make her scream, +and whip her to make her hush; and not until overcome by fatigue, would +he cease to swing the blood-clotted cowskin. I remember the first time I +ever witnessed this horrible exhibition. I was quite a child, but I well +remember it. I never shall forget it whilst I remember any thing. It was +the first of a long series of such outrages, of which I was doomed to be +a witness and a participant. It struck me with awful force. It was the +blood-stained gate, the entrance to the hell of slavery, through which +I was about to pass. It was a most terrible spectacle. I wish I could +commit to paper the feelings with which I beheld it. + +This occurrence took place very soon after I went to live with my old +master, and under the following circumstances. Aunt Hester went out one +night,--where or for what I do not know,--and happened to be absent +when my master desired her presence. He had ordered her not to go +out evenings, and warned her that she must never let him catch her in +company with a young man, who was paying attention to her belonging to +Colonel Lloyd. The young man's name was Ned Roberts, generally called +Lloyd's Ned. Why master was so careful of her, may be safely left to +conjecture. She was a woman of noble form, and of graceful proportions, +having very few equals, and fewer superiors, in personal appearance, +among the colored or white women of our neighborhood. + +Aunt Hester had not only disobeyed his orders in going out, but had been +found in company with Lloyd's Ned; which circumstance, I found, from +what he said while whipping her, was the chief offence. Had he been a +man of pure morals himself, he might have been thought interested in +protecting the innocence of my aunt; but those who knew him will not +suspect him of any such virtue. Before he commenced whipping Aunt +Hester, he took her into the kitchen, and stripped her from neck to +waist, leaving her neck, shoulders, and back, entirely naked. He then +told her to cross her hands, calling her at the same time a d----d b---h. +After crossing her hands, he tied them with a strong rope, and led her +to a stool under a large hook in the joist, put in for the purpose. He +made her get upon the stool, and tied her hands to the hook. She now +stood fair for his infernal purpose. Her arms were stretched up at their +full length, so that she stood upon the ends of her toes. He then said +to her, "Now, you d----d b---h, I'll learn you how to disobey my orders!" +and after rolling up his sleeves, he commenced to lay on the heavy +cowskin, and soon the warm, red blood (amid heart-rending shrieks from +her, and horrid oaths from him) came dripping to the floor. I was so +terrified and horror-stricken at the sight, that I hid myself in a +closet, and dared not venture out till long after the bloody transaction +was over. I expected it would be my turn next. It was all new to me. +I had never seen any thing like it before. I had always lived with my +grandmother on the outskirts of the plantation, where she was put to +raise the children of the younger women. I had therefore been, until +now, out of the way of the bloody scenes that often occurred on the +plantation. + + + + + + +CHAPTER II + +My master's family consisted of two sons, Andrew and Richard; one +daughter, Lucretia, and her husband, Captain Thomas Auld. They lived in +one house, upon the home plantation of Colonel Edward Lloyd. My master +was Colonel Lloyd's clerk and superintendent. He was what might be +called the overseer of the overseers. I spent two years of childhood on +this plantation in my old master's family. It was here that I witnessed +the bloody transaction recorded in the first chapter; and as I received +my first impressions of slavery on this plantation, I will give some +description of it, and of slavery as it there existed. The plantation is +about twelve miles north of Easton, in Talbot county, and is situated +on the border of Miles River. The principal products raised upon it were +tobacco, corn, and wheat. These were raised in great abundance; so that, +with the products of this and the other farms belonging to him, he was +able to keep in almost constant employment a large sloop, in carrying +them to market at Baltimore. This sloop was named Sally Lloyd, in honor +of one of the colonel's daughters. My master's son-in-law, Captain Auld, +was master of the vessel; she was otherwise manned by the colonel's +own slaves. Their names were Peter, Isaac, Rich, and Jake. These +were esteemed very highly by the other slaves, and looked upon as the +privileged ones of the plantation; for it was no small affair, in the +eyes of the slaves, to be allowed to see Baltimore. + +Colonel Lloyd kept from three to four hundred slaves on his home +plantation, and owned a large number more on the neighboring farms +belonging to him. The names of the farms nearest to the home plantation +were Wye Town and New Design. "Wye Town" was under the overseership of +a man named Noah Willis. New Design was under the overseership of a +Mr. Townsend. The overseers of these, and all the rest of the farms, +numbering over twenty, received advice and direction from the managers +of the home plantation. This was the great business place. It was the +seat of government for the whole twenty farms. All disputes among +the overseers were settled here. If a slave was convicted of any high +misdemeanor, became unmanageable, or evinced a determination to run +away, he was brought immediately here, severely whipped, put on board +the sloop, carried to Baltimore, and sold to Austin Woolfolk, or some +other slave-trader, as a warning to the slaves remaining. + +Here, too, the slaves of all the other farms received their monthly +allowance of food, and their yearly clothing. The men and women slaves +received, as their monthly allowance of food, eight pounds of pork, +or its equivalent in fish, and one bushel of corn meal. Their yearly +clothing consisted of two coarse linen shirts, one pair of linen +trousers, like the shirts, one jacket, one pair of trousers for winter, +made of coarse negro cloth, one pair of stockings, and one pair of +shoes; the whole of which could not have cost more than seven dollars. +The allowance of the slave children was given to their mothers, or the +old women having the care of them. The children unable to work in the +field had neither shoes, stockings, jackets, nor trousers, given to +them; their clothing consisted of two coarse linen shirts per year. +When these failed them, they went naked until the next allowance-day. +Children from seven to ten years old, of both sexes, almost naked, might +be seen at all seasons of the year. + +There were no beds given the slaves, unless one coarse blanket be +considered such, and none but the men and women had these. This, +however, is not considered a very great privation. They find less +difficulty from the want of beds, than from the want of time to sleep; +for when their day's work in the field is done, the most of them having +their washing, mending, and cooking to do, and having few or none of +the ordinary facilities for doing either of these, very many of their +sleeping hours are consumed in preparing for the field the coming day; +and when this is done, old and young, male and female, married and +single, drop down side by side, on one common bed,--the cold, damp +floor,--each covering himself or herself with their miserable blankets; +and here they sleep till they are summoned to the field by the driver's +horn. At the sound of this, all must rise, and be off to the field. +There must be no halting; every one must be at his or her post; and woe +betides them who hear not this morning summons to the field; for if +they are not awakened by the sense of hearing, they are by the sense of +feeling: no age nor sex finds any favor. Mr. Severe, the overseer, used +to stand by the door of the quarter, armed with a large hickory stick +and heavy cowskin, ready to whip any one who was so unfortunate as not +to hear, or, from any other cause, was prevented from being ready to +start for the field at the sound of the horn. + +Mr. Severe was rightly named: he was a cruel man. I have seen him whip a +woman, causing the blood to run half an hour at the time; and this, +too, in the midst of her crying children, pleading for their mother's +release. He seemed to take pleasure in manifesting his fiendish +barbarity. Added to his cruelty, he was a profane swearer. It was enough +to chill the blood and stiffen the hair of an ordinary man to hear him +talk. Scarce a sentence escaped him but that was commenced or concluded +by some horrid oath. The field was the place to witness his cruelty +and profanity. His presence made it both the field of blood and of +blasphemy. From the rising till the going down of the sun, he was +cursing, raving, cutting, and slashing among the slaves of the field, in +the most frightful manner. His career was short. He died very soon after +I went to Colonel Lloyd's; and he died as he lived, uttering, with his +dying groans, bitter curses and horrid oaths. His death was regarded by +the slaves as the result of a merciful providence. + +Mr. Severe's place was filled by a Mr. Hopkins. He was a very different +man. He was less cruel, less profane, and made less noise, than Mr. +Severe. His course was characterized by no extraordinary demonstrations +of cruelty. He whipped, but seemed to take no pleasure in it. He was +called by the slaves a good overseer. + +The home plantation of Colonel Lloyd wore the appearance of a country +village. All the mechanical operations for all the farms were performed +here. The shoemaking and mending, the blacksmithing, cartwrighting, +coopering, weaving, and grain-grinding, were all performed by the slaves +on the home plantation. The whole place wore a business-like aspect very +unlike the neighboring farms. The number of houses, too, conspired +to give it advantage over the neighboring farms. It was called by the +slaves the _Great House Farm._ Few privileges were esteemed higher, by +the slaves of the out-farms, than that of being selected to do +errands at the Great House Farm. It was associated in their minds with +greatness. A representative could not be prouder of his election to +a seat in the American Congress, than a slave on one of the out-farms +would be of his election to do errands at the Great House Farm. They +regarded it as evidence of great confidence reposed in them by their +overseers; and it was on this account, as well as a constant desire to +be out of the field from under the driver's lash, that they esteemed +it a high privilege, one worth careful living for. He was called the +smartest and most trusty fellow, who had this honor conferred upon +him the most frequently. The competitors for this office sought as +diligently to please their overseers, as the office-seekers in the +political parties seek to please and deceive the people. The same traits +of character might be seen in Colonel Lloyd's slaves, as are seen in the +slaves of the political parties. + +The slaves selected to go to the Great House Farm, for the monthly +allowance for themselves and their fellow-slaves, were peculiarly +enthusiastic. While on their way, they would make the dense old woods, +for miles around, reverberate with their wild songs, revealing at once +the highest joy and the deepest sadness. They would compose and sing as +they went along, consulting neither time nor tune. The thought that came +up, came out--if not in the word, in the sound;--and as frequently in +the one as in the other. They would sometimes sing the most pathetic +sentiment in the most rapturous tone, and the most rapturous sentiment +in the most pathetic tone. Into all of their songs they would manage to +weave something of the Great House Farm. Especially would they do this, +when leaving home. They would then sing most exultingly the following +words:-- + + + "I am going away to the Great House Farm! + O, yea! O, yea! O!" + +This they would sing, as a chorus, to words which to many would seem +unmeaning jargon, but which, nevertheless, were full of meaning to +themselves. I have sometimes thought that the mere hearing of those +songs would do more to impress some minds with the horrible character of +slavery, than the reading of whole volumes of philosophy on the subject +could do. + +I did not, when a slave, understand the deep meaning of those rude and +apparently incoherent songs. I was myself within the circle; so that I +neither saw nor heard as those without might see and hear. They told a +tale of woe which was then altogether beyond my feeble comprehension; +they were tones loud, long, and deep; they breathed the prayer and +complaint of souls boiling over with the bitterest anguish. Every tone +was a testimony against slavery, and a prayer to God for deliverance +from chains. The hearing of those wild notes always depressed my spirit, +and filled me with ineffable sadness. I have frequently found myself in +tears while hearing them. The mere recurrence to those songs, even +now, afflicts me; and while I am writing these lines, an expression of +feeling has already found its way down my cheek. To those songs I trace +my first glimmering conception of the dehumanizing character of slavery. +I can never get rid of that conception. Those songs still follow me, to +deepen my hatred of slavery, and quicken my sympathies for my brethren +in bonds. If any one wishes to be impressed with the soul-killing +effects of slavery, let him go to Colonel Lloyd's plantation, and, on +allowance-day, place himself in the deep pine woods, and there let him, +in silence, analyze the sounds that shall pass through the chambers +of his soul,--and if he is not thus impressed, it will only be because +"there is no flesh in his obdurate heart." + +I have often been utterly astonished, since I came to the north, to find +persons who could speak of the singing, among slaves, as evidence of +their contentment and happiness. It is impossible to conceive of a +greater mistake. Slaves sing most when they are most unhappy. The songs +of the slave represent the sorrows of his heart; and he is relieved by +them, only as an aching heart is relieved by its tears. At least, such +is my experience. I have often sung to drown my sorrow, but seldom to +express my happiness. Crying for joy, and singing for joy, were alike +uncommon to me while in the jaws of slavery. The singing of a man cast +away upon a desolate island might be as appropriately considered as +evidence of contentment and happiness, as the singing of a slave; the +songs of the one and of the other are prompted by the same emotion. + + + + + + +CHAPTER III + +Colonel Lloyd kept a large and finely cultivated garden, which afforded +almost constant employment for four men, besides the chief gardener, +(Mr. M'Durmond.) This garden was probably the greatest attraction of +the place. During the summer months, people came from far and near--from +Baltimore, Easton, and Annapolis--to see it. It abounded in fruits of +almost every description, from the hardy apple of the north to the +delicate orange of the south. This garden was not the least source of +trouble on the plantation. Its excellent fruit was quite a temptation to +the hungry swarms of boys, as well as the older slaves, belonging to the +colonel, few of whom had the virtue or the vice to resist it. Scarcely a +day passed, during the summer, but that some slave had to take the lash +for stealing fruit. The colonel had to resort to all kinds of stratagems +to keep his slaves out of the garden. The last and most successful one +was that of tarring his fence all around; after which, if a slave was +caught with any tar upon his person, it was deemed sufficient proof that +he had either been into the garden, or had tried to get in. In either +case, he was severely whipped by the chief gardener. This plan worked +well; the slaves became as fearful of tar as of the lash. They seemed to +realize the impossibility of touching _tar_ without being defiled. + +The colonel also kept a splendid riding equipage. His stable and +carriage-house presented the appearance of some of our large city livery +establishments. His horses were of the finest form and noblest blood. +His carriage-house contained three splendid coaches, three or four gigs, +besides dearborns and barouches of the most fashionable style. + +This establishment was under the care of two slaves--old Barney and young +Barney--father and son. To attend to this establishment was their sole +work. But it was by no means an easy employment; for in nothing was +Colonel Lloyd more particular than in the management of his horses. The +slightest inattention to these was unpardonable, and was visited upon +those, under whose care they were placed, with the severest punishment; +no excuse could shield them, if the colonel only suspected any want of +attention to his horses--a supposition which he frequently indulged, and +one which, of course, made the office of old and young Barney a very +trying one. They never knew when they were safe from punishment. They +were frequently whipped when least deserving, and escaped whipping when +most deserving it. Every thing depended upon the looks of the horses, +and the state of Colonel Lloyd's own mind when his horses were brought +to him for use. If a horse did not move fast enough, or hold his head +high enough, it was owing to some fault of his keepers. It was painful +to stand near the stable-door, and hear the various complaints against +the keepers when a horse was taken out for use. "This horse has not had +proper attention. He has not been sufficiently rubbed and curried, or +he has not been properly fed; his food was too wet or too dry; he got it +too soon or too late; he was too hot or too cold; he had too much hay, +and not enough of grain; or he had too much grain, and not enough +of hay; instead of old Barney's attending to the horse, he had very +improperly left it to his son." To all these complaints, no matter how +unjust, the slave must answer never a word. Colonel Lloyd could not +brook any contradiction from a slave. When he spoke, a slave must +stand, listen, and tremble; and such was literally the case. I have seen +Colonel Lloyd make old Barney, a man between fifty and sixty years of +age, uncover his bald head, kneel down upon the cold, damp ground, and +receive upon his naked and toil-worn shoulders more than thirty +lashes at the time. Colonel Lloyd had three sons--Edward, Murray, and +Daniel,--and three sons-in-law, Mr. Winder, Mr. Nicholson, and Mr. +Lowndes. All of these lived at the Great House Farm, and enjoyed the +luxury of whipping the servants when they pleased, from old Barney down +to William Wilkes, the coach-driver. I have seen Winder make one of the +house-servants stand off from him a suitable distance to be touched with +the end of his whip, and at every stroke raise great ridges upon his +back. + +To describe the wealth of Colonel Lloyd would be almost equal +to describing the riches of Job. He kept from ten to fifteen +house-servants. He was said to own a thousand slaves, and I think this +estimate quite within the truth. Colonel Lloyd owned so many that he did +not know them when he saw them; nor did all the slaves of the out-farms +know him. It is reported of him, that, while riding along the road one +day, he met a colored man, and addressed him in the usual manner of +speaking to colored people on the public highways of the south: "Well, +boy, whom do you belong to?" "To Colonel Lloyd," replied the slave. +"Well, does the colonel treat you well?" "No, sir," was the ready reply. +"What, does he work you too hard?" "Yes, sir." "Well, don't he give you +enough to eat?" "Yes, sir, he gives me enough, such as it is." + +The colonel, after ascertaining where the slave belonged, rode on; +the man also went on about his business, not dreaming that he had been +conversing with his master. He thought, said, and heard nothing more of +the matter, until two or three weeks afterwards. The poor man was then +informed by his overseer that, for having found fault with his master, +he was now to be sold to a Georgia trader. He was immediately chained +and handcuffed; and thus, without a moment's warning, he was snatched +away, and forever sundered, from his family and friends, by a hand more +unrelenting than death. This is the penalty of telling the truth, of +telling the simple truth, in answer to a series of plain questions. + +It is partly in consequence of such facts, that slaves, when inquired +of as to their condition and the character of their masters, almost +universally say they are contented, and that their masters are kind. +The slaveholders have been known to send in spies among their slaves, +to ascertain their views and feelings in regard to their condition. The +frequency of this has had the effect to establish among the slaves the +maxim, that a still tongue makes a wise head. They suppress the truth +rather than take the consequences of telling it, and in so doing prove +themselves a part of the human family. If they have any thing to say of +their masters, it is generally in their masters' favor, especially when +speaking to an untried man. I have been frequently asked, when a +slave, if I had a kind master, and do not remember ever to have given a +negative answer; nor did I, in pursuing this course, consider myself as +uttering what was absolutely false; for I always measured the kindness +of my master by the standard of kindness set up among slaveholders +around us. Moreover, slaves are like other people, and imbibe prejudices +quite common to others. They think their own better than that of others. +Many, under the influence of this prejudice, think their own masters are +better than the masters of other slaves; and this, too, in some cases, +when the very reverse is true. Indeed, it is not uncommon for slaves +even to fall out and quarrel among themselves about the relative +goodness of their masters, each contending for the superior goodness of +his own over that of the others. At the very same time, they mutually +execrate their masters when viewed separately. It was so on our +plantation. When Colonel Lloyd's slaves met the slaves of Jacob Jepson, +they seldom parted without a quarrel about their masters; Colonel +Lloyd's slaves contending that he was the richest, and Mr. Jepson's +slaves that he was the smartest, and most of a man. Colonel Lloyd's +slaves would boast his ability to buy and sell Jacob Jepson. Mr. +Jepson's slaves would boast his ability to whip Colonel Lloyd. These +quarrels would almost always end in a fight between the parties, and +those that whipped were supposed to have gained the point at issue. They +seemed to think that the greatness of their masters was transferable to +themselves. It was considered as being bad enough to be a slave; but to +be a poor man's slave was deemed a disgrace indeed! + + + + + + +CHAPTER IV + +Mr. Hopkins remained but a short time in the office of overseer. Why his +career was so short, I do not know, but suppose he lacked the necessary +severity to suit Colonel Lloyd. Mr. Hopkins was succeeded by Mr. Austin +Gore, a man possessing, in an eminent degree, all those traits of +character indispensable to what is called a first-rate overseer. Mr. +Gore had served Colonel Lloyd, in the capacity of overseer, upon one +of the out-farms, and had shown himself worthy of the high station of +overseer upon the home or Great House Farm. + +Mr. Gore was proud, ambitious, and persevering. He was artful, cruel, +and obdurate. He was just the man for such a place, and it was just the +place for such a man. It afforded scope for the full exercise of all his +powers, and he seemed to be perfectly at home in it. He was one of those +who could torture the slightest look, word, or gesture, on the part of +the slave, into impudence, and would treat it accordingly. There must +be no answering back to him; no explanation was allowed a slave, showing +himself to have been wrongfully accused. Mr. Gore acted fully up to +the maxim laid down by slaveholders,--"It is better that a dozen +slaves should suffer under the lash, than that the overseer should be +convicted, in the presence of the slaves, of having been at fault." +No matter how innocent a slave might be--it availed him nothing, +when accused by Mr. Gore of any misdemeanor. To be accused was to +be convicted, and to be convicted was to be punished; the one always +following the other with immutable certainty. To escape punishment was +to escape accusation; and few slaves had the fortune to do either, under +the overseership of Mr. Gore. He was just proud enough to demand the +most debasing homage of the slave, and quite servile enough to crouch, +himself, at the feet of the master. He was ambitious enough to be +contented with nothing short of the highest rank of overseers, and +persevering enough to reach the height of his ambition. He was cruel +enough to inflict the severest punishment, artful enough to descend to +the lowest trickery, and obdurate enough to be insensible to the voice +of a reproving conscience. He was, of all the overseers, the most +dreaded by the slaves. His presence was painful; his eye flashed +confusion; and seldom was his sharp, shrill voice heard, without +producing horror and trembling in their ranks. + +Mr. Gore was a grave man, and, though a young man, he indulged in no +jokes, said no funny words, seldom smiled. His words were in perfect +keeping with his looks, and his looks were in perfect keeping with his +words. Overseers will sometimes indulge in a witty word, even with the +slaves; not so with Mr. Gore. He spoke but to command, and commanded but +to be obeyed; he dealt sparingly with his words, and bountifully with +his whip, never using the former where the latter would answer as well. +When he whipped, he seemed to do so from a sense of duty, and feared no +consequences. He did nothing reluctantly, no matter how disagreeable; +always at his post, never inconsistent. He never promised but to fulfil. +He was, in a word, a man of the most inflexible firmness and stone-like +coolness. + +His savage barbarity was equalled only by the consummate coolness with +which he committed the grossest and most savage deeds upon the slaves +under his charge. Mr. Gore once undertook to whip one of Colonel Lloyd's +slaves, by the name of Demby. He had given Demby but few stripes, when, +to get rid of the scourging, he ran and plunged himself into a creek, +and stood there at the depth of his shoulders, refusing to come out. Mr. +Gore told him that he would give him three calls, and that, if he did +not come out at the third call, he would shoot him. The first call was +given. Demby made no response, but stood his ground. The second and +third calls were given with the same result. Mr. Gore then, without +consultation or deliberation with any one, not even giving Demby an +additional call, raised his musket to his face, taking deadly aim at his +standing victim, and in an instant poor Demby was no more. His mangled +body sank out of sight, and blood and brains marked the water where he +had stood. + +A thrill of horror flashed through every soul upon the plantation, +excepting Mr. Gore. He alone seemed cool and collected. He was asked by +Colonel Lloyd and my old master, why he resorted to this extraordinary +expedient. His reply was, (as well as I can remember,) that Demby had +become unmanageable. He was setting a dangerous example to the other +slaves,--one which, if suffered to pass without some such demonstration +on his part, would finally lead to the total subversion of all rule and +order upon the plantation. He argued that if one slave refused to be +corrected, and escaped with his life, the other slaves would soon copy +the example; the result of which would be, the freedom of the slaves, +and the enslavement of the whites. Mr. Gore's defence was satisfactory. +He was continued in his station as overseer upon the home plantation. +His fame as an overseer went abroad. His horrid crime was not even +submitted to judicial investigation. It was committed in the presence of +slaves, and they of course could neither institute a suit, nor testify +against him; and thus the guilty perpetrator of one of the bloodiest +and most foul murders goes unwhipped of justice, and uncensured by the +community in which he lives. Mr. Gore lived in St. Michael's, Talbot +county, Maryland, when I left there; and if he is still alive, he very +probably lives there now; and if so, he is now, as he was then, as +highly esteemed and as much respected as though his guilty soul had not +been stained with his brother's blood. + +I speak advisedly when I say this,--that killing a slave, or any colored +person, in Talbot county, Maryland, is not treated as a crime, either by +the courts or the community. Mr. Thomas Lanman, of St. Michael's, killed +two slaves, one of whom he killed with a hatchet, by knocking his brains +out. He used to boast of the commission of the awful and bloody deed. I +have heard him do so laughingly, saying, among other things, that he was +the only benefactor of his country in the company, and that when others +would do as much as he had done, we should be relieved of "the d----d +niggers." + +The wife of Mr. Giles Hicks, living but a short distance from where I +used to live, murdered my wife's cousin, a young girl between fifteen +and sixteen years of age, mangling her person in the most horrible +manner, breaking her nose and breastbone with a stick, so that the poor +girl expired in a few hours afterward. She was immediately buried, but +had not been in her untimely grave but a few hours before she was taken +up and examined by the coroner, who decided that she had come to her +death by severe beating. The offence for which this girl was thus +murdered was this:--She had been set that night to mind Mrs. Hicks's +baby, and during the night she fell asleep, and the baby cried. She, +having lost her rest for several nights previous, did not hear the +crying. They were both in the room with Mrs. Hicks. Mrs. Hicks, finding +the girl slow to move, jumped from her bed, seized an oak stick of wood +by the fireplace, and with it broke the girl's nose and breastbone, +and thus ended her life. I will not say that this most horrid murder +produced no sensation in the community. It did produce sensation, but +not enough to bring the murderess to punishment. There was a warrant +issued for her arrest, but it was never served. Thus she escaped not +only punishment, but even the pain of being arraigned before a court for +her horrid crime. + +Whilst I am detailing bloody deeds which took place during my stay +on Colonel Lloyd's plantation, I will briefly narrate another, which +occurred about the same time as the murder of Demby by Mr. Gore. + +Colonel Lloyd's slaves were in the habit of spending a part of their +nights and Sundays in fishing for oysters, and in this way made up the +deficiency of their scanty allowance. An old man belonging to Colonel +Lloyd, while thus engaged, happened to get beyond the limits of Colonel +Lloyd's, and on the premises of Mr. Beal Bondly. At this trespass, Mr. +Bondly took offence, and with his musket came down to the shore, and +blew its deadly contents into the poor old man. + +Mr. Bondly came over to see Colonel Lloyd the next day, whether to pay +him for his property, or to justify himself in what he had done, I know +not. At any rate, this whole fiendish transaction was soon hushed up. +There was very little said about it at all, and nothing done. It was +a common saying, even among little white boys, that it was worth a +half-cent to kill a "nigger," and a half-cent to bury one. + + + + + + +CHAPTER V + +As to my own treatment while I lived on Colonel Lloyd's plantation, +it was very similar to that of the other slave children. I was not old +enough to work in the field, and there being little else than field work +to do, I had a great deal of leisure time. The most I had to do was to +drive up the cows at evening, keep the fowls out of the garden, keep the +front yard clean, and run of errands for my old master's daughter, Mrs. +Lucretia Auld. The most of my leisure time I spent in helping Master +Daniel Lloyd in finding his birds, after he had shot them. My connection +with Master Daniel was of some advantage to me. He became quite attached +to me, and was a sort of protector of me. He would not allow the older +boys to impose upon me, and would divide his cakes with me. + +I was seldom whipped by my old master, and suffered little from any +thing else than hunger and cold. I suffered much from hunger, but much +more from cold. In hottest summer and coldest winter, I was kept almost +naked--no shoes, no stockings, no jacket, no trousers, nothing on but a +coarse tow linen shirt, reaching only to my knees. I had no bed. I must +have perished with cold, but that, the coldest nights, I used to steal +a bag which was used for carrying corn to the mill. I would crawl into +this bag, and there sleep on the cold, damp, clay floor, with my head in +and feet out. My feet have been so cracked with the frost, that the pen +with which I am writing might be laid in the gashes. + +We were not regularly allowanced. Our food was coarse corn meal boiled. +This was called _mush_. It was put into a large wooden tray or trough, +and set down upon the ground. The children were then called, like so +many pigs, and like so many pigs they would come and devour the mush; +some with oyster-shells, others with pieces of shingle, some with naked +hands, and none with spoons. He that ate fastest got most; he that was +strongest secured the best place; and few left the trough satisfied. + +I was probably between seven and eight years old when I left Colonel +Lloyd's plantation. I left it with joy. I shall never forget the ecstasy +with which I received the intelligence that my old master (Anthony) +had determined to let me go to Baltimore, to live with Mr. Hugh Auld, +brother to my old master's son-in-law, Captain Thomas Auld. I received +this information about three days before my departure. They were three +of the happiest days I ever enjoyed. I spent the most part of all these +three days in the creek, washing off the plantation scurf, and preparing +myself for my departure. + +The pride of appearance which this would indicate was not my own. I +spent the time in washing, not so much because I wished to, but because +Mrs. Lucretia had told me I must get all the dead skin off my feet and +knees before I could go to Baltimore; for the people in Baltimore were +very cleanly, and would laugh at me if I looked dirty. Besides, she was +going to give me a pair of trousers, which I should not put on unless +I got all the dirt off me. The thought of owning a pair of trousers was +great indeed! It was almost a sufficient motive, not only to make me +take off what would be called by pig-drovers the mange, but the skin +itself. I went at it in good earnest, working for the first time with +the hope of reward. + +The ties that ordinarily bind children to their homes were all suspended +in my case. I found no severe trial in my departure. My home was +charmless; it was not home to me; on parting from it, I could not feel +that I was leaving any thing which I could have enjoyed by staying. My +mother was dead, my grandmother lived far off, so that I seldom saw her. +I had two sisters and one brother, that lived in the same house with me; +but the early separation of us from our mother had well nigh blotted the +fact of our relationship from our memories. I looked for home elsewhere, +and was confident of finding none which I should relish less than the +one which I was leaving. If, however, I found in my new home hardship, +hunger, whipping, and nakedness, I had the consolation that I should not +have escaped any one of them by staying. Having already had more than +a taste of them in the house of my old master, and having endured them +there, I very naturally inferred my ability to endure them elsewhere, +and especially at Baltimore; for I had something of the feeling about +Baltimore that is expressed in the proverb, that "being hanged in +England is preferable to dying a natural death in Ireland." I had the +strongest desire to see Baltimore. Cousin Tom, though not fluent in +speech, had inspired me with that desire by his eloquent description +of the place. I could never point out any thing at the Great House, +no matter how beautiful or powerful, but that he had seen something at +Baltimore far exceeding, both in beauty and strength, the object which I +pointed out to him. Even the Great House itself, with all its pictures, +was far inferior to many buildings in Baltimore. So strong was my +desire, that I thought a gratification of it would fully compensate +for whatever loss of comforts I should sustain by the exchange. I left +without a regret, and with the highest hopes of future happiness. + +We sailed out of Miles River for Baltimore on a Saturday morning. I +remember only the day of the week, for at that time I had no knowledge +of the days of the month, nor the months of the year. On setting sail, I +walked aft, and gave to Colonel Lloyd's plantation what I hoped would be +the last look. I then placed myself in the bows of the sloop, and there +spent the remainder of the day in looking ahead, interesting myself in +what was in the distance rather than in things near by or behind. + +In the afternoon of that day, we reached Annapolis, the capital of the +State. We stopped but a few moments, so that I had no time to go on +shore. It was the first large town that I had ever seen, and though it +would look small compared with some of our New England factory villages, +I thought it a wonderful place for its size--more imposing even than the +Great House Farm! + +We arrived at Baltimore early on Sunday morning, landing at Smith's +Wharf, not far from Bowley's Wharf. We had on board the sloop a large +flock of sheep; and after aiding in driving them to the slaughterhouse +of Mr. Curtis on Louden Slater's Hill, I was conducted by Rich, one of +the hands belonging on board of the sloop, to my new home in Alliciana +Street, near Mr. Gardner's ship-yard, on Fells Point. + +Mr. and Mrs. Auld were both at home, and met me at the door with their +little son Thomas, to take care of whom I had been given. And here I saw +what I had never seen before; it was a white face beaming with the most +kindly emotions; it was the face of my new mistress, Sophia Auld. I wish +I could describe the rapture that flashed through my soul as I beheld +it. It was a new and strange sight to me, brightening up my pathway +with the light of happiness. Little Thomas was told, there was his +Freddy,--and I was told to take care of little Thomas; and thus I entered +upon the duties of my new home with the most cheering prospect ahead. + +I look upon my departure from Colonel Lloyd's plantation as one of +the most interesting events of my life. It is possible, and even quite +probable, that but for the mere circumstance of being removed from that +plantation to Baltimore, I should have to-day, instead of being here +seated by my own table, in the enjoyment of freedom and the happiness +of home, writing this Narrative, been confined in the galling chains of +slavery. Going to live at Baltimore laid the foundation, and opened the +gateway, to all my subsequent prosperity. I have ever regarded it as the +first plain manifestation of that kind providence which has ever since +attended me, and marked my life with so many favors. I regarded the +selection of myself as being somewhat remarkable. There were a number +of slave children that might have been sent from the plantation to +Baltimore. There were those younger, those older, and those of the same +age. I was chosen from among them all, and was the first, last, and only +choice. + +I may be deemed superstitious, and even egotistical, in regarding this +event as a special interposition of divine Providence in my favor. But +I should be false to the earliest sentiments of my soul, if I suppressed +the opinion. I prefer to be true to myself, even at the hazard of +incurring the ridicule of others, rather than to be false, and incur my +own abhorrence. From my earliest recollection, I date the entertainment +of a deep conviction that slavery would not always be able to hold +me within its foul embrace; and in the darkest hours of my career in +slavery, this living word of faith and spirit of hope departed not from +me, but remained like ministering angels to cheer me through the gloom. +This good spirit was from God, and to him I offer thanksgiving and +praise. + + + + + + +CHAPTER VI + +My new mistress proved to be all she appeared when I first met her at +the door,--a woman of the kindest heart and finest feelings. She had +never had a slave under her control previously to myself, and prior to +her marriage she had been dependent upon her own industry for a living. +She was by trade a weaver; and by constant application to her business, +she had been in a good degree preserved from the blighting and +dehumanizing effects of slavery. I was utterly astonished at her +goodness. I scarcely knew how to behave towards her. She was entirely +unlike any other white woman I had ever seen. I could not approach her +as I was accustomed to approach other white ladies. My early instruction +was all out of place. The crouching servility, usually so acceptable a +quality in a slave, did not answer when manifested toward her. Her favor +was not gained by it; she seemed to be disturbed by it. She did not +deem it impudent or unmannerly for a slave to look her in the face. +The meanest slave was put fully at ease in her presence, and none +left without feeling better for having seen her. Her face was made of +heavenly smiles, and her voice of tranquil music. + +But, alas! this kind heart had but a short time to remain such. The +fatal poison of irresponsible power was already in her hands, and soon +commenced its infernal work. That cheerful eye, under the influence +of slavery, soon became red with rage; that voice, made all of sweet +accord, changed to one of harsh and horrid discord; and that angelic +face gave place to that of a demon. + +Very soon after I went to live with Mr. and Mrs. Auld, she very kindly +commenced to teach me the A, B, C. After I had learned this, she +assisted me in learning to spell words of three or four letters. Just at +this point of my progress, Mr. Auld found out what was going on, and at +once forbade Mrs. Auld to instruct me further, telling her, among other +things, that it was unlawful, as well as unsafe, to teach a slave to +read. To use his own words, further, he said, "If you give a nigger an +inch, he will take an ell. A nigger should know nothing but to obey his +master--to do as he is told to do. Learning would _spoil_ the best nigger +in the world. Now," said he, "if you teach that nigger (speaking of +myself) how to read, there would be no keeping him. It would forever +unfit him to be a slave. He would at once become unmanageable, and of no +value to his master. As to himself, it could do him no good, but a great +deal of harm. It would make him discontented and unhappy." These +words sank deep into my heart, stirred up sentiments within that lay +slumbering, and called into existence an entirely new train of thought. +It was a new and special revelation, explaining dark and mysterious +things, with which my youthful understanding had struggled, but +struggled in vain. I now understood what had been to me a most +perplexing difficulty--to wit, the white man's power to enslave the +black man. It was a grand achievement, and I prized it highly. From that +moment, I understood the pathway from slavery to freedom. It was just +what I wanted, and I got it at a time when I the least expected it. +Whilst I was saddened by the thought of losing the aid of my kind +mistress, I was gladdened by the invaluable instruction which, by the +merest accident, I had gained from my master. Though conscious of the +difficulty of learning without a teacher, I set out with high hope, and +a fixed purpose, at whatever cost of trouble, to learn how to read. The +very decided manner with which he spoke, and strove to impress his wife +with the evil consequences of giving me instruction, served to convince +me that he was deeply sensible of the truths he was uttering. It gave me +the best assurance that I might rely with the utmost confidence on the +results which, he said, would flow from teaching me to read. What he +most dreaded, that I most desired. What he most loved, that I most +hated. That which to him was a great evil, to be carefully shunned, was +to me a great good, to be diligently sought; and the argument which he +so warmly urged, against my learning to read, only served to inspire +me with a desire and determination to learn. In learning to read, I owe +almost as much to the bitter opposition of my master, as to the kindly +aid of my mistress. I acknowledge the benefit of both. + +I had resided but a short time in Baltimore before I observed a marked +difference, in the treatment of slaves, from that which I had witnessed +in the country. A city slave is almost a freeman, compared with a +slave on the plantation. He is much better fed and clothed, and enjoys +privileges altogether unknown to the slave on the plantation. There is +a vestige of decency, a sense of shame, that does much to curb and +check those outbreaks of atrocious cruelty so commonly enacted upon the +plantation. He is a desperate slaveholder, who will shock the humanity +of his non-slaveholding neighbors with the cries of his lacerated slave. +Few are willing to incur the odium attaching to the reputation of being +a cruel master; and above all things, they would not be known as not +giving a slave enough to eat. Every city slaveholder is anxious to have +it known of him, that he feeds his slaves well; and it is due to them +to say, that most of them do give their slaves enough to eat. There are, +however, some painful exceptions to this rule. Directly opposite to us, +on Philpot Street, lived Mr. Thomas Hamilton. He owned two slaves. Their +names were Henrietta and Mary. Henrietta was about twenty-two years +of age, Mary was about fourteen; and of all the mangled and emaciated +creatures I ever looked upon, these two were the most so. His heart +must be harder than stone, that could look upon these unmoved. The +head, neck, and shoulders of Mary were literally cut to pieces. I have +frequently felt her head, and found it nearly covered with festering +sores, caused by the lash of her cruel mistress. I do not know that her +master ever whipped her, but I have been an eye-witness to the cruelty +of Mrs. Hamilton. I used to be in Mr. Hamilton's house nearly every day. +Mrs. Hamilton used to sit in a large chair in the middle of the room, +with a heavy cowskin always by her side, and scarce an hour passed +during the day but was marked by the blood of one of these slaves. The +girls seldom passed her without her saying, "Move faster, you _black +gip!_" at the same time giving them a blow with the cowskin over the +head or shoulders, often drawing the blood. She would then say, "Take +that, you _black gip!_" continuing, "If you don't move faster, I'll move +you!" Added to the cruel lashings to which these slaves were subjected, +they were kept nearly half-starved. They seldom knew what it was to eat +a full meal. I have seen Mary contending with the pigs for the offal +thrown into the street. So much was Mary kicked and cut to pieces, that +she was oftener called "_pecked_" than by her name. + + + + + + +CHAPTER VII + +I lived in Master Hugh's family about seven years. During this time, I +succeeded in learning to read and write. In accomplishing this, I was +compelled to resort to various stratagems. I had no regular teacher. My +mistress, who had kindly commenced to instruct me, had, in compliance +with the advice and direction of her husband, not only ceased to +instruct, but had set her face against my being instructed by any one +else. It is due, however, to my mistress to say of her, that she did +not adopt this course of treatment immediately. She at first lacked the +depravity indispensable to shutting me up in mental darkness. It was +at least necessary for her to have some training in the exercise of +irresponsible power, to make her equal to the task of treating me as +though I were a brute. + +My mistress was, as I have said, a kind and tender-hearted woman; and in +the simplicity of her soul she commenced, when I first went to live with +her, to treat me as she supposed one human being ought to treat another. +In entering upon the duties of a slaveholder, she did not seem to +perceive that I sustained to her the relation of a mere chattel, and +that for her to treat me as a human being was not only wrong, but +dangerously so. Slavery proved as injurious to her as it did to me. When +I went there, she was a pious, warm, and tender-hearted woman. There was +no sorrow or suffering for which she had not a tear. She had bread for +the hungry, clothes for the naked, and comfort for every mourner that +came within her reach. Slavery soon proved its ability to divest her of +these heavenly qualities. Under its influence, the tender heart became +stone, and the lamblike disposition gave way to one of tiger-like +fierceness. The first step in her downward course was in her ceasing to +instruct me. She now commenced to practise her husband's precepts. She +finally became even more violent in her opposition than her husband +himself. She was not satisfied with simply doing as well as he had +commanded; she seemed anxious to do better. Nothing seemed to make her +more angry than to see me with a newspaper. She seemed to think that +here lay the danger. I have had her rush at me with a face made all up +of fury, and snatch from me a newspaper, in a manner that fully revealed +her apprehension. She was an apt woman; and a little experience soon +demonstrated, to her satisfaction, that education and slavery were +incompatible with each other. + +From this time I was most narrowly watched. If I was in a separate room +any considerable length of time, I was sure to be suspected of having +a book, and was at once called to give an account of myself. All this, +however, was too late. The first step had been taken. Mistress, in +teaching me the alphabet, had given me the _inch,_ and no precaution +could prevent me from taking the _ell._ + +The plan which I adopted, and the one by which I was most successful, +was that of making friends of all the little white boys whom I met in +the street. As many of these as I could, I converted into teachers. With +their kindly aid, obtained at different times and in different places, +I finally succeeded in learning to read. When I was sent of errands, I +always took my book with me, and by going one part of my errand quickly, +I found time to get a lesson before my return. I used also to carry +bread with me, enough of which was always in the house, and to which I +was always welcome; for I was much better off in this regard than many +of the poor white children in our neighborhood. This bread I used to +bestow upon the hungry little urchins, who, in return, would give me +that more valuable bread of knowledge. I am strongly tempted to give +the names of two or three of those little boys, as a testimonial of the +gratitude and affection I bear them; but prudence forbids;--not that +it would injure me, but it might embarrass them; for it is almost an +unpardonable offence to teach slaves to read in this Christian country. +It is enough to say of the dear little fellows, that they lived on +Philpot Street, very near Durgin and Bailey's ship-yard. I used to talk +this matter of slavery over with them. I would sometimes say to them, I +wished I could be as free as they would be when they got to be men. "You +will be free as soon as you are twenty-one, _but I am a slave for life!_ +Have not I as good a right to be free as you have?" These words used +to trouble them; they would express for me the liveliest sympathy, and +console me with the hope that something would occur by which I might be +free. + +I was now about twelve years old, and the thought of being _a slave for +life_ began to bear heavily upon my heart. Just about this time, I got +hold of a book entitled "The Columbian Orator." Every opportunity I +got, I used to read this book. Among much of other interesting matter, +I found in it a dialogue between a master and his slave. The slave was +represented as having run away from his master three times. The dialogue +represented the conversation which took place between them, when the +slave was retaken the third time. In this dialogue, the whole argument +in behalf of slavery was brought forward by the master, all of which was +disposed of by the slave. The slave was made to say some very smart as +well as impressive things in reply to his master--things which had the +desired though unexpected effect; for the conversation resulted in the +voluntary emancipation of the slave on the part of the master. + +In the same book, I met with one of Sheridan's mighty speeches on and +in behalf of Catholic emancipation. These were choice documents to me. +I read them over and over again with unabated interest. They gave tongue +to interesting thoughts of my own soul, which had frequently flashed +through my mind, and died away for want of utterance. The moral which I +gained from the dialogue was the power of truth over the conscience of +even a slaveholder. What I got from Sheridan was a bold denunciation +of slavery, and a powerful vindication of human rights. The reading +of these documents enabled me to utter my thoughts, and to meet the +arguments brought forward to sustain slavery; but while they relieved +me of one difficulty, they brought on another even more painful than +the one of which I was relieved. The more I read, the more I was led +to abhor and detest my enslavers. I could regard them in no other light +than a band of successful robbers, who had left their homes, and gone to +Africa, and stolen us from our homes, and in a strange land reduced +us to slavery. I loathed them as being the meanest as well as the most +wicked of men. As I read and contemplated the subject, behold! that very +discontentment which Master Hugh had predicted would follow my learning +to read had already come, to torment and sting my soul to unutterable +anguish. As I writhed under it, I would at times feel that learning to +read had been a curse rather than a blessing. It had given me a view +of my wretched condition, without the remedy. It opened my eyes to the +horrible pit, but to no ladder upon which to get out. In moments of +agony, I envied my fellow-slaves for their stupidity. I have often +wished myself a beast. I preferred the condition of the meanest reptile +to my own. Any thing, no matter what, to get rid of thinking! It was +this everlasting thinking of my condition that tormented me. There was +no getting rid of it. It was pressed upon me by every object within +sight or hearing, animate or inanimate. The silver trump of freedom +had roused my soul to eternal wakefulness. Freedom now appeared, to +disappear no more forever. It was heard in every sound, and seen in +every thing. It was ever present to torment me with a sense of my +wretched condition. I saw nothing without seeing it, I heard nothing +without hearing it, and felt nothing without feeling it. It looked from +every star, it smiled in every calm, breathed in every wind, and moved +in every storm. + +I often found myself regretting my own existence, and wishing myself +dead; and but for the hope of being free, I have no doubt but that I +should have killed myself, or done something for which I should have +been killed. While in this state of mind, I was eager to hear any one +speak of slavery. I was a ready listener. Every little while, I could +hear something about the abolitionists. It was some time before I found +what the word meant. It was always used in such connections as to make +it an interesting word to me. If a slave ran away and succeeded in +getting clear, or if a slave killed his master, set fire to a barn, or +did any thing very wrong in the mind of a slaveholder, it was spoken of +as the fruit of _abolition._ Hearing the word in this connection very +often, I set about learning what it meant. The dictionary afforded me +little or no help. I found it was "the act of abolishing;" but then I +did not know what was to be abolished. Here I was perplexed. I did not +dare to ask any one about its meaning, for I was satisfied that it was +something they wanted me to know very little about. After a patient +waiting, I got one of our city papers, containing an account of the +number of petitions from the north, praying for the abolition of slavery +in the District of Columbia, and of the slave trade between the States. +From this time I understood the words _abolition_ and _abolitionist,_ +and always drew near when that word was spoken, expecting to hear +something of importance to myself and fellow-slaves. The light broke in +upon me by degrees. I went one day down on the wharf of Mr. Waters; +and seeing two Irishmen unloading a scow of stone, I went, unasked, and +helped them. When we had finished, one of them came to me and asked +me if I were a slave. I told him I was. He asked, "Are ye a slave for +life?" I told him that I was. The good Irishman seemed to be deeply +affected by the statement. He said to the other that it was a pity so +fine a little fellow as myself should be a slave for life. He said it +was a shame to hold me. They both advised me to run away to the north; +that I should find friends there, and that I should be free. I pretended +not to be interested in what they said, and treated them as if I did not +understand them; for I feared they might be treacherous. White men have +been known to encourage slaves to escape, and then, to get the reward, +catch them and return them to their masters. I was afraid that these +seemingly good men might use me so; but I nevertheless remembered their +advice, and from that time I resolved to run away. I looked forward to +a time at which it would be safe for me to escape. I was too young to +think of doing so immediately; besides, I wished to learn how to write, +as I might have occasion to write my own pass. I consoled myself with +the hope that I should one day find a good chance. Meanwhile, I would +learn to write. + +The idea as to how I might learn to write was suggested to me by +being in Durgin and Bailey's ship-yard, and frequently seeing the ship +carpenters, after hewing, and getting a piece of timber ready for use, +write on the timber the name of that part of the ship for which it was +intended. When a piece of timber was intended for the larboard side, it +would be marked thus--"L." When a piece was for the starboard side, it +would be marked thus--"S." A piece for the larboard side forward, would +be marked thus--"L. F." When a piece was for starboard side forward, +it would be marked thus--"S. F." For larboard aft, it would be marked +thus--"L. A." For starboard aft, it would be marked thus--"S. A." I soon +learned the names of these letters, and for what they were intended when +placed upon a piece of timber in the ship-yard. I immediately commenced +copying them, and in a short time was able to make the four letters +named. After that, when I met with any boy who I knew could write, I +would tell him I could write as well as he. The next word would be, "I +don't believe you. Let me see you try it." I would then make the letters +which I had been so fortunate as to learn, and ask him to beat that. +In this way I got a good many lessons in writing, which it is quite +possible I should never have gotten in any other way. During this time, +my copy-book was the board fence, brick wall, and pavement; my pen and +ink was a lump of chalk. With these, I learned mainly how to write. I +then commenced and continued copying the Italics in Webster's Spelling +Book, until I could make them all without looking on the book. By this +time, my little Master Thomas had gone to school, and learned how to +write, and had written over a number of copy-books. These had been +brought home, and shown to some of our near neighbors, and then laid +aside. My mistress used to go to class meeting at the Wilk Street +meetinghouse every Monday afternoon, and leave me to take care of the +house. When left thus, I used to spend the time in writing in the +spaces left in Master Thomas's copy-book, copying what he had written. I +continued to do this until I could write a hand very similar to that of +Master Thomas. Thus, after a long, tedious effort for years, I finally +succeeded in learning how to write. + + + + + + +CHAPTER VIII + +In a very short time after I went to live at Baltimore, my old master's +youngest son Richard died; and in about three years and six months after +his death, my old master, Captain Anthony, died, leaving only his son, +Andrew, and daughter, Lucretia, to share his estate. He died while on a +visit to see his daughter at Hillsborough. Cut off thus unexpectedly, +he left no will as to the disposal of his property. It was therefore +necessary to have a valuation of the property, that it might be equally +divided between Mrs. Lucretia and Master Andrew. I was immediately sent +for, to be valued with the other property. Here again my feelings rose +up in detestation of slavery. I had now a new conception of my degraded +condition. Prior to this, I had become, if not insensible to my lot, +at least partly so. I left Baltimore with a young heart overborne with +sadness, and a soul full of apprehension. I took passage with Captain +Rowe, in the schooner Wild Cat, and, after a sail of about twenty-four +hours, I found myself near the place of my birth. I had now been absent +from it almost, if not quite, five years. I, however, remembered the +place very well. I was only about five years old when I left it, to go +and live with my old master on Colonel Lloyd's plantation; so that I was +now between ten and eleven years old. + +We were all ranked together at the valuation. Men and women, old and +young, married and single, were ranked with horses, sheep, and swine. +There were horses and men, cattle and women, pigs and children, all +holding the same rank in the scale of being, and were all subjected to +the same narrow examination. Silvery-headed age and sprightly youth, +maids and matrons, had to undergo the same indelicate inspection. At +this moment, I saw more clearly than ever the brutalizing effects of +slavery upon both slave and slaveholder. + +After the valuation, then came the division. I have no language to +express the high excitement and deep anxiety which were felt among us +poor slaves during this time. Our fate for life was now to be decided. +We had no more voice in that decision than the brutes among whom we +were ranked. A single word from the white men was enough--against all our +wishes, prayers, and entreaties--to sunder forever the dearest friends, +dearest kindred, and strongest ties known to human beings. In addition +to the pain of separation, there was the horrid dread of falling into +the hands of Master Andrew. He was known to us all as being a most cruel +wretch,--a common drunkard, who had, by his reckless mismanagement and +profligate dissipation, already wasted a large portion of his father's +property. We all felt that we might as well be sold at once to the +Georgia traders, as to pass into his hands; for we knew that that would +be our inevitable condition,--a condition held by us all in the utmost +horror and dread. + +I suffered more anxiety than most of my fellow-slaves. I had known what +it was to be kindly treated; they had known nothing of the kind. They +had seen little or nothing of the world. They were in very deed men and +women of sorrow, and acquainted with grief. Their backs had been made +familiar with the bloody lash, so that they had become callous; mine was +yet tender; for while at Baltimore I got few whippings, and few slaves +could boast of a kinder master and mistress than myself; and the thought +of passing out of their hands into those of Master Andrew--a man who, but +a few days before, to give me a sample of his bloody disposition, took +my little brother by the throat, threw him on the ground, and with the +heel of his boot stamped upon his head till the blood gushed from his +nose and ears--was well calculated to make me anxious as to my fate. +After he had committed this savage outrage upon my brother, he turned +to me, and said that was the way he meant to serve me one of these +days,--meaning, I suppose, when I came into his possession. + +Thanks to a kind Providence, I fell to the portion of Mrs. Lucretia, and +was sent immediately back to Baltimore, to live again in the family +of Master Hugh. Their joy at my return equalled their sorrow at my +departure. It was a glad day to me. I had escaped a worse than lion's +jaws. I was absent from Baltimore, for the purpose of valuation and +division, just about one month, and it seemed to have been six. + +Very soon after my return to Baltimore, my mistress, Lucretia, died, +leaving her husband and one child, Amanda; and in a very short time +after her death, Master Andrew died. Now all the property of my old +master, slaves included, was in the hands of strangers,--strangers who +had had nothing to do with accumulating it. Not a slave was left free. +All remained slaves, from the youngest to the oldest. If any one thing +in my experience, more than another, served to deepen my conviction +of the infernal character of slavery, and to fill me with unutterable +loathing of slaveholders, it was their base ingratitude to my poor old +grandmother. She had served my old master faithfully from youth to old +age. She had been the source of all his wealth; she had peopled his +plantation with slaves; she had become a great grandmother in his +service. She had rocked him in infancy, attended him in childhood, +served him through life, and at his death wiped from his icy brow the +cold death-sweat, and closed his eyes forever. She was nevertheless left +a slave--a slave for life--a slave in the hands of strangers; and in +their hands she saw her children, her grandchildren, and her +great-grandchildren, divided, like so many sheep, without being +gratified with the small privilege of a single word, as to their or +her own destiny. And, to cap the climax of their base ingratitude +and fiendish barbarity, my grandmother, who was now very old, having +outlived my old master and all his children, having seen the beginning +and end of all of them, and her present owners finding she was of but +little value, her frame already racked with the pains of old age, and +complete helplessness fast stealing over her once active limbs, +they took her to the woods, built her a little hut, put up a little +mud-chimney, and then made her welcome to the privilege of supporting +herself there in perfect loneliness; thus virtually turning her out to +die! If my poor old grandmother now lives, she lives to suffer in utter +loneliness; she lives to remember and mourn over the loss of children, +the loss of grandchildren, and the loss of great-grandchildren. They +are, in the language of the slave's poet, Whittier,-- + + + "Gone, gone, sold and gone + To the rice swamp dank and lone, + Where the slave-whip ceaseless swings, + Where the noisome insect stings, + Where the fever-demon strews + Poison with the falling dews, + Where the sickly sunbeams glare + Through the hot and misty air:— + Gone, gone, sold and gone + To the rice swamp dank and lone, + From Virginia hills and waters— + Woe is me, my stolen daughters!" + +The hearth is desolate. The children, the unconscious children, who once +sang and danced in her presence, are gone. She gropes her way, in the +darkness of age, for a drink of water. Instead of the voices of her +children, she hears by day the moans of the dove, and by night the +screams of the hideous owl. All is gloom. The grave is at the door. And +now, when weighed down by the pains and aches of old age, when the head +inclines to the feet, when the beginning and ending of human existence +meet, and helpless infancy and painful old age combine together--at +this time, this most needful time, the time for the exercise of that +tenderness and affection which children only can exercise towards a +declining parent--my poor old grandmother, the devoted mother of twelve +children, is left all alone, in yonder little hut, before a few dim +embers. She stands--she sits--she staggers--she falls--she groans--she +dies--and there are none of her children or grandchildren present, to +wipe from her wrinkled brow the cold sweat of death, or to place beneath +the sod her fallen remains. Will not a righteous God visit for these +things? + +In about two years after the death of Mrs. Lucretia, Master Thomas +married his second wife. Her name was Rowena Hamilton. She was the +eldest daughter of Mr. William Hamilton. Master now lived in St. +Michael's. Not long after his marriage, a misunderstanding took place +between himself and Master Hugh; and as a means of punishing his +brother, he took me from him to live with himself at St. Michael's. Here +I underwent another most painful separation. It, however, was not so +severe as the one I dreaded at the division of property; for, during +this interval, a great change had taken place in Master Hugh and his +once kind and affectionate wife. The influence of brandy upon him, and +of slavery upon her, had effected a disastrous change in the characters +of both; so that, as far as they were concerned, I thought I had little +to lose by the change. But it was not to them that I was attached. It +was to those little Baltimore boys that I felt the strongest attachment. +I had received many good lessons from them, and was still receiving +them, and the thought of leaving them was painful indeed. I was leaving, +too, without the hope of ever being allowed to return. Master Thomas had +said he would never let me return again. The barrier betwixt himself and +brother he considered impassable. + +I then had to regret that I did not at least make the attempt to carry +out my resolution to run away; for the chances of success are tenfold +greater from the city than from the country. + +I sailed from Baltimore for St. Michael's in the sloop Amanda, Captain +Edward Dodson. On my passage, I paid particular attention to the +direction which the steamboats took to go to Philadelphia. I found, +instead of going down, on reaching North Point they went up the bay, +in a north-easterly direction. I deemed this knowledge of the utmost +importance. My determination to run away was again revived. I resolved +to wait only so long as the offering of a favorable opportunity. When +that came, I was determined to be off. + + + + + + +CHAPTER IX + +I have now reached a period of my life when I can give dates. I left +Baltimore, and went to live with Master Thomas Auld, at St. Michael's, +in March, 1832. It was now more than seven years since I lived with him +in the family of my old master, on Colonel Lloyd's plantation. We of +course were now almost entire strangers to each other. He was to me a +new master, and I to him a new slave. I was ignorant of his temper and +disposition; he was equally so of mine. A very short time, however, +brought us into full acquaintance with each other. I was made acquainted +with his wife not less than with himself. They were well matched, being +equally mean and cruel. I was now, for the first time during a space +of more than seven years, made to feel the painful gnawings of hunger--a +something which I had not experienced before since I left Colonel +Lloyd's plantation. It went hard enough with me then, when I could look +back to no period at which I had enjoyed a sufficiency. It was tenfold +harder after living in Master Hugh's family, where I had always had +enough to eat, and of that which was good. I have said Master Thomas was +a mean man. He was so. Not to give a slave enough to eat, is regarded as +the most aggravated development of meanness even among slaveholders. The +rule is, no matter how coarse the food, only let there be enough of it. +This is the theory; and in the part of Maryland from which I came, it +is the general practice,--though there are many exceptions. Master Thomas +gave us enough of neither coarse nor fine food. There were four slaves +of us in the kitchen--my sister Eliza, my aunt Priscilla, Henny, and +myself; and we were allowed less than a half of a bushel of corn-meal +per week, and very little else, either in the shape of meat or +vegetables. It was not enough for us to subsist upon. We were therefore +reduced to the wretched necessity of living at the expense of our +neighbors. This we did by begging and stealing, whichever came handy in +the time of need, the one being considered as legitimate as the other. +A great many times have we poor creatures been nearly perishing +with hunger, when food in abundance lay mouldering in the safe and +smoke-house, and our pious mistress was aware of the fact; and yet that +mistress and her husband would kneel every morning, and pray that God +would bless them in basket and store! + +Bad as all slaveholders are, we seldom meet one destitute of every +element of character commanding respect. My master was one of this rare +sort. I do not know of one single noble act ever performed by him. The +leading trait in his character was meanness; and if there were any other +element in his nature, it was made subject to this. He was mean; and, +like most other mean men, he lacked the ability to conceal his meanness. +Captain Auld was not born a slaveholder. He had been a poor man, master +only of a Bay craft. He came into possession of all his slaves by +marriage; and of all men, adopted slaveholders are the worst. He was +cruel, but cowardly. He commanded without firmness. In the enforcement +of his rules, he was at times rigid, and at times lax. At times, he +spoke to his slaves with the firmness of Napoleon and the fury of a +demon; at other times, he might well be mistaken for an inquirer who +had lost his way. He did nothing of himself. He might have passed for a +lion, but for his ears. In all things noble which he attempted, his own +meanness shone most conspicuous. His airs, words, and actions, were the +airs, words, and actions of born slaveholders, and, being assumed, were +awkward enough. He was not even a good imitator. He possessed all the +disposition to deceive, but wanted the power. Having no resources within +himself, he was compelled to be the copyist of many, and being such, he +was forever the victim of inconsistency; and of consequence he was an +object of contempt, and was held as such even by his slaves. The luxury +of having slaves of his own to wait upon him was something new and +unprepared for. He was a slaveholder without the ability to hold slaves. +He found himself incapable of managing his slaves either by force, +fear, or fraud. We seldom called him "master;" we generally called him +"Captain Auld," and were hardly disposed to title him at all. I doubt +not that our conduct had much to do with making him appear awkward, +and of consequence fretful. Our want of reverence for him must have +perplexed him greatly. He wished to have us call him master, but lacked +the firmness necessary to command us to do so. His wife used to insist +upon our calling him so, but to no purpose. In August, 1832, my master +attended a Methodist camp-meeting held in the Bay-side, Talbot county, +and there experienced religion. I indulged a faint hope that his +conversion would lead him to emancipate his slaves, and that, if he did +not do this, it would, at any rate, make him more kind and humane. I was +disappointed in both these respects. It neither made him to be humane +to his slaves, nor to emancipate them. If it had any effect on his +character, it made him more cruel and hateful in all his ways; for I +believe him to have been a much worse man after his conversion than +before. Prior to his conversion, he relied upon his own depravity +to shield and sustain him in his savage barbarity; but after his +conversion, he found religious sanction and support for his slaveholding +cruelty. He made the greatest pretensions to piety. His house was +the house of prayer. He prayed morning, noon, and night. He very +soon distinguished himself among his brethren, and was soon made a +class-leader and exhorter. His activity in revivals was great, and he +proved himself an instrument in the hands of the church in converting +many souls. His house was the preachers' home. They used to take great +pleasure in coming there to put up; for while he starved us, he stuffed +them. We have had three or four preachers there at a time. The names +of those who used to come most frequently while I lived there, were Mr. +Storks, Mr. Ewery, Mr. Humphry, and Mr. Hickey. I have also seen Mr. +George Cookman at our house. We slaves loved Mr. Cookman. We believed +him to be a good man. We thought him instrumental in getting Mr. Samuel +Harrison, a very rich slaveholder, to emancipate his slaves; and by some +means got the impression that he was laboring to effect the emancipation +of all the slaves. When he was at our house, we were sure to be called +in to prayers. When the others were there, we were sometimes called in +and sometimes not. Mr. Cookman took more notice of us than either of +the other ministers. He could not come among us without betraying his +sympathy for us, and, stupid as we were, we had the sagacity to see it. + +While I lived with my master in St. Michael's, there was a white +young man, a Mr. Wilson, who proposed to keep a Sabbath school for the +instruction of such slaves as might be disposed to learn to read the New +Testament. We met but three times, when Mr. West and Mr. Fairbanks, +both class-leaders, with many others, came upon us with sticks and other +missiles, drove us off, and forbade us to meet again. Thus ended our +little Sabbath school in the pious town of St. Michael's. + +I have said my master found religious sanction for his cruelty. As an +example, I will state one of many facts going to prove the charge. +I have seen him tie up a lame young woman, and whip her with a heavy +cowskin upon her naked shoulders, causing the warm red blood to drip; +and, in justification of the bloody deed, he would quote this passage of +Scripture--"He that knoweth his master's will, and doeth it not, shall be +beaten with many stripes." + +Master would keep this lacerated young woman tied up in this horrid +situation four or five hours at a time. I have known him to tie her up +early in the morning, and whip her before breakfast; leave her, go to +his store, return at dinner, and whip her again, cutting her in the +places already made raw with his cruel lash. The secret of master's +cruelty toward "Henny" is found in the fact of her being almost +helpless. When quite a child, she fell into the fire, and burned herself +horribly. Her hands were so burnt that she never got the use of them. +She could do very little but bear heavy burdens. She was to master a +bill of expense; and as he was a mean man, she was a constant offence +to him. He seemed desirous of getting the poor girl out of existence. +He gave her away once to his sister; but, being a poor gift, she was +not disposed to keep her. Finally, my benevolent master, to use his +own words, "set her adrift to take care of herself." Here was a +recently-converted man, holding on upon the mother, and at the same time +turning out her helpless child, to starve and die! Master Thomas was one +of the many pious slaveholders who hold slaves for the very charitable +purpose of taking care of them. + +My master and myself had quite a number of differences. He found +me unsuitable to his purpose. My city life, he said, had had a very +pernicious effect upon me. It had almost ruined me for every good +purpose, and fitted me for every thing which was bad. One of my greatest +faults was that of letting his horse run away, and go down to his +father-in-law's farm, which was about five miles from St. Michael's. I +would then have to go after it. My reason for this kind of carelessness, +or carefulness, was, that I could always get something to eat when I +went there. Master William Hamilton, my master's father-in-law, always +gave his slaves enough to eat. I never left there hungry, no matter +how great the need of my speedy return. Master Thomas at length said he +would stand it no longer. I had lived with him nine months, during +which time he had given me a number of severe whippings, all to no good +purpose. He resolved to put me out, as he said, to be broken; and, for +this purpose, he let me for one year to a man named Edward Covey. Mr. +Covey was a poor man, a farm-renter. He rented the place upon which he +lived, as also the hands with which he tilled it. Mr. Covey had acquired +a very high reputation for breaking young slaves, and this reputation +was of immense value to him. It enabled him to get his farm tilled with +much less expense to himself than he could have had it done without such +a reputation. Some slaveholders thought it not much loss to allow Mr. +Covey to have their slaves one year, for the sake of the training to +which they were subjected, without any other compensation. He could hire +young help with great ease, in consequence of this reputation. Added +to the natural good qualities of Mr. Covey, he was a professor of +religion--a pious soul--a member and a class-leader in the +Methodist church. All of this added weight to his reputation as a +"nigger-breaker." I was aware of all the facts, having been made +acquainted with them by a young man who had lived there. I nevertheless +made the change gladly; for I was sure of getting enough to eat, which +is not the smallest consideration to a hungry man. + + + + + + +CHAPTER X + +I had left Master Thomas's house, and went to live with Mr. Covey, on +the 1st of January, 1833. I was now, for the first time in my life, a +field hand. In my new employment, I found myself even more awkward than +a country boy appeared to be in a large city. I had been at my new home +but one week before Mr. Covey gave me a very severe whipping, cutting my +back, causing the blood to run, and raising ridges on my flesh as large +as my little finger. The details of this affair are as follows: Mr. +Covey sent me, very early in the morning of one of our coldest days in +the month of January, to the woods, to get a load of wood. He gave me +a team of unbroken oxen. He told me which was the in-hand ox, and which +the off-hand one. He then tied the end of a large rope around the horns +of the in-hand ox, and gave me the other end of it, and told me, if +the oxen started to run, that I must hold on upon the rope. I had +never driven oxen before, and of course I was very awkward. I, however, +succeeded in getting to the edge of the woods with little difficulty; +but I had got a very few rods into the woods, when the oxen took fright, +and started full tilt, carrying the cart against trees, and over stumps, +in the most frightful manner. I expected every moment that my brains +would be dashed out against the trees. After running thus for a +considerable distance, they finally upset the cart, dashing it with +great force against a tree, and threw themselves into a dense thicket. +How I escaped death, I do not know. There I was, entirely alone, in a +thick wood, in a place new to me. My cart was upset and shattered, my +oxen were entangled among the young trees, and there was none to +help me. After a long spell of effort, I succeeded in getting my cart +righted, my oxen disentangled, and again yoked to the cart. I now +proceeded with my team to the place where I had, the day before, been +chopping wood, and loaded my cart pretty heavily, thinking in this way +to tame my oxen. I then proceeded on my way home. I had now consumed +one half of the day. I got out of the woods safely, and now felt out of +danger. I stopped my oxen to open the woods gate; and just as I did so, +before I could get hold of my ox-rope, the oxen again started, rushed +through the gate, catching it between the wheel and the body of the +cart, tearing it to pieces, and coming within a few inches of crushing +me against the gate-post. Thus twice, in one short day, I escaped death +by the merest chance. On my return, I told Mr. Covey what had happened, +and how it happened. He ordered me to return to the woods again +immediately. I did so, and he followed on after me. Just as I got into +the woods, he came up and told me to stop my cart, and that he would +teach me how to trifle away my time, and break gates. He then went to +a large gum-tree, and with his axe cut three large switches, and, after +trimming them up neatly with his pocketknife, he ordered me to take +off my clothes. I made him no answer, but stood with my clothes on. He +repeated his order. I still made him no answer, nor did I move to strip +myself. Upon this he rushed at me with the fierceness of a tiger, tore +off my clothes, and lashed me till he had worn out his switches, cutting +me so savagely as to leave the marks visible for a long time after. +This whipping was the first of a number just like it, and for similar +offences. + +I lived with Mr. Covey one year. During the first six months, of that +year, scarce a week passed without his whipping me. I was seldom free +from a sore back. My awkwardness was almost always his excuse for +whipping me. We were worked fully up to the point of endurance. Long +before day we were up, our horses fed, and by the first approach of day +we were off to the field with our hoes and ploughing teams. Mr. Covey +gave us enough to eat, but scarce time to eat it. We were often less +than five minutes taking our meals. We were often in the field from the +first approach of day till its last lingering ray had left us; and +at saving-fodder time, midnight often caught us in the field binding +blades. + +Covey would be out with us. The way he used to stand it, was this. He +would spend the most of his afternoons in bed. He would then come out +fresh in the evening, ready to urge us on with his words, example, and +frequently with the whip. Mr. Covey was one of the few slaveholders who +could and did work with his hands. He was a hard-working man. He knew by +himself just what a man or a boy could do. There was no deceiving him. +His work went on in his absence almost as well as in his presence; and +he had the faculty of making us feel that he was ever present with us. +This he did by surprising us. He seldom approached the spot where we +were at work openly, if he could do it secretly. He always aimed at +taking us by surprise. Such was his cunning, that we used to call him, +among ourselves, "the snake." When we were at work in the cornfield, he +would sometimes crawl on his hands and knees to avoid detection, and +all at once he would rise nearly in our midst, and scream out, "Ha, ha! +Come, come! Dash on, dash on!" This being his mode of attack, it was +never safe to stop a single minute. His comings were like a thief in the +night. He appeared to us as being ever at hand. He was under every +tree, behind every stump, in every bush, and at every window, on the +plantation. He would sometimes mount his horse, as if bound to St. +Michael's, a distance of seven miles, and in half an hour afterwards you +would see him coiled up in the corner of the wood-fence, watching every +motion of the slaves. He would, for this purpose, leave his horse tied +up in the woods. Again, he would sometimes walk up to us, and give us +orders as though he was upon the point of starting on a long journey, +turn his back upon us, and make as though he was going to the house +to get ready; and, before he would get half way thither, he would turn +short and crawl into a fence-corner, or behind some tree, and there +watch us till the going down of the sun. + +Mr. Covey's _forte_ consisted in his power to deceive. His life was +devoted to planning and perpetrating the grossest deceptions. Every +thing he possessed in the shape of learning or religion, he made conform +to his disposition to deceive. He seemed to think himself equal to +deceiving the Almighty. He would make a short prayer in the morning, and +a long prayer at night; and, strange as it may seem, few men would +at times appear more devotional than he. The exercises of his family +devotions were always commenced with singing; and, as he was a very poor +singer himself, the duty of raising the hymn generally came upon me. He +would read his hymn, and nod at me to commence. I would at times do so; +at others, I would not. My non-compliance would almost always produce +much confusion. To show himself independent of me, he would start and +stagger through with his hymn in the most discordant manner. In this +state of mind, he prayed with more than ordinary spirit. Poor man! such +was his disposition, and success at deceiving, I do verily believe that +he sometimes deceived himself into the solemn belief, that he was a +sincere worshipper of the most high God; and this, too, at a time when +he may be said to have been guilty of compelling his woman slave to +commit the sin of adultery. The facts in the case are these: Mr. Covey +was a poor man; he was just commencing in life; he was only able to buy +one slave; and, shocking as is the fact, he bought her, as he said, for +_a breeder_. This woman was named Caroline. Mr. Covey bought her from +Mr. Thomas Lowe, about six miles from St. Michael's. She was a large, +able-bodied woman, about twenty years old. She had already given birth +to one child, which proved her to be just what he wanted. After buying +her, he hired a married man of Mr. Samuel Harrison, to live with him one +year; and him he used to fasten up with her every night! The result was, +that, at the end of the year, the miserable woman gave birth to twins. +At this result Mr. Covey seemed to be highly pleased, both with the man +and the wretched woman. Such was his joy, and that of his wife, that +nothing they could do for Caroline during her confinement was too good, +or too hard, to be done. The children were regarded as being quite an +addition to his wealth. + +If at any one time of my life more than another, I was made to drink the +bitterest dregs of slavery, that time was during the first six months of +my stay with Mr. Covey. We were worked in all weathers. It was never too +hot or too cold; it could never rain, blow, hail, or snow, too hard for +us to work in the field. Work, work, work, was scarcely more the order +of the day than of the night. The longest days were too short for him, +and the shortest nights too long for him. I was somewhat unmanageable +when I first went there, but a few months of this discipline tamed me. +Mr. Covey succeeded in breaking me. I was broken in body, soul, and +spirit. My natural elasticity was crushed, my intellect languished, the +disposition to read departed, the cheerful spark that lingered about my +eye died; the dark night of slavery closed in upon me; and behold a man +transformed into a brute! + +Sunday was my only leisure time. I spent this in a sort of beast-like +stupor, between sleep and wake, under some large tree. At times I +would rise up, a flash of energetic freedom would dart through my soul, +accompanied with a faint beam of hope, that flickered for a moment, and +then vanished. I sank down again, mourning over my wretched condition. +I was sometimes prompted to take my life, and that of Covey, but was +prevented by a combination of hope and fear. My sufferings on this +plantation seem now like a dream rather than a stern reality. + +Our house stood within a few rods of the Chesapeake Bay, whose broad +bosom was ever white with sails from every quarter of the habitable +globe. Those beautiful vessels, robed in purest white, so delightful to +the eye of freemen, were to me so many shrouded ghosts, to terrify and +torment me with thoughts of my wretched condition. I have often, in the +deep stillness of a summer's Sabbath, stood all alone upon the lofty +banks of that noble bay, and traced, with saddened heart and tearful +eye, the countless number of sails moving off to the mighty ocean. The +sight of these always affected me powerfully. My thoughts would compel +utterance; and there, with no audience but the Almighty, I would pour +out my soul's complaint, in my rude way, with an apostrophe to the +moving multitude of ships:-- + +"You are loosed from your moorings, and are free; I am fast in my +chains, and am a slave! You move merrily before the gentle gale, and +I sadly before the bloody whip! You are freedom's swift-winged angels, +that fly round the world; I am confined in bands of iron! O that I +were free! O, that I were on one of your gallant decks, and under your +protecting wing! Alas! betwixt me and you, the turbid waters roll. Go +on, go on. O that I could also go! Could I but swim! If I could fly! O, +why was I born a man, of whom to make a brute! The glad ship is gone; +she hides in the dim distance. I am left in the hottest hell of unending +slavery. O God, save me! God, deliver me! Let me be free! Is there any +God? Why am I a slave? I will run away. I will not stand it. Get caught, +or get clear, I'll try it. I had as well die with ague as the fever. +I have only one life to lose. I had as well be killed running as die +standing. Only think of it; one hundred miles straight north, and I am +free! Try it? Yes! God helping me, I will. It cannot be that I shall +live and die a slave. I will take to the water. This very bay shall yet +bear me into freedom. The steamboats steered in a north-east course from +North Point. I will do the same; and when I get to the head of the bay, +I will turn my canoe adrift, and walk straight through Delaware into +Pennsylvania. When I get there, I shall not be required to have a pass; +I can travel without being disturbed. Let but the first opportunity +offer, and, come what will, I am off. Meanwhile, I will try to bear up +under the yoke. I am not the only slave in the world. Why should I fret? +I can bear as much as any of them. Besides, I am but a boy, and all boys +are bound to some one. It may be that my misery in slavery will only +increase my happiness when I get free. There is a better day coming." + +Thus I used to think, and thus I used to speak to myself; goaded almost +to madness at one moment, and at the next reconciling myself to my +wretched lot. + +I have already intimated that my condition was much worse, during the +first six months of my stay at Mr. Covey's, than in the last six. The +circumstances leading to the change in Mr. Covey's course toward me form +an epoch in my humble history. You have seen how a man was made a slave; +you shall see how a slave was made a man. On one of the hottest days +of the month of August, 1833, Bill Smith, William Hughes, a slave named +Eli, and myself, were engaged in fanning wheat. Hughes was clearing the +fanned wheat from before the fan. Eli was turning, Smith was feeding, +and I was carrying wheat to the fan. The work was simple, requiring +strength rather than intellect; yet, to one entirely unused to such +work, it came very hard. About three o'clock of that day, I broke down; +my strength failed me; I was seized with a violent aching of the head, +attended with extreme dizziness; I trembled in every limb. Finding what +was coming, I nerved myself up, feeling it would never do to stop work. +I stood as long as I could stagger to the hopper with grain. When I +could stand no longer, I fell, and felt as if held down by an immense +weight. The fan of course stopped; every one had his own work to do; +and no one could do the work of the other, and have his own go on at the +same time. + +Mr. Covey was at the house, about one hundred yards from the +treading-yard where we were fanning. On hearing the fan stop, he left +immediately, and came to the spot where we were. He hastily inquired +what the matter was. Bill answered that I was sick, and there was no +one to bring wheat to the fan. I had by this time crawled away under the +side of the post and rail-fence by which the yard was enclosed, hoping +to find relief by getting out of the sun. He then asked where I was. He +was told by one of the hands. He came to the spot, and, after looking at +me awhile, asked me what was the matter. I told him as well as I could, +for I scarce had strength to speak. He then gave me a savage kick in +the side, and told me to get up. I tried to do so, but fell back in the +attempt. He gave me another kick, and again told me to rise. I again +tried, and succeeded in gaining my feet; but, stooping to get the tub +with which I was feeding the fan, I again staggered and fell. While down +in this situation, Mr. Covey took up the hickory slat with which Hughes +had been striking off the half-bushel measure, and with it gave me +a heavy blow upon the head, making a large wound, and the blood ran +freely; and with this again told me to get up. I made no effort to +comply, having now made up my mind to let him do his worst. In a short +time after receiving this blow, my head grew better. Mr. Covey had now +left me to my fate. At this moment I resolved, for the first time, to go +to my master, enter a complaint, and ask his protection. In order to +do this, I must that afternoon walk seven miles; and this, under the +circumstances, was truly a severe undertaking. I was exceedingly feeble; +made so as much by the kicks and blows which I received, as by the +severe fit of sickness to which I had been subjected. I, however, +watched my chance, while Covey was looking in an opposite direction, +and started for St. Michael's. I succeeded in getting a considerable +distance on my way to the woods, when Covey discovered me, and called +after me to come back, threatening what he would do if I did not come. I +disregarded both his calls and his threats, and made my way to the +woods as fast as my feeble state would allow; and thinking I might +be overhauled by him if I kept the road, I walked through the woods, +keeping far enough from the road to avoid detection, and near enough +to prevent losing my way. I had not gone far before my little strength +again failed me. I could go no farther. I fell down, and lay for a +considerable time. The blood was yet oozing from the wound on my head. +For a time I thought I should bleed to death; and think now that I +should have done so, but that the blood so matted my hair as to stop +the wound. After lying there about three quarters of an hour, I nerved +myself up again, and started on my way, through bogs and briers, +barefooted and bareheaded, tearing my feet sometimes at nearly every +step; and after a journey of about seven miles, occupying some five +hours to perform it, I arrived at master's store. I then presented an +appearance enough to affect any but a heart of iron. From the crown of +my head to my feet, I was covered with blood. My hair was all clotted +with dust and blood; my shirt was stiff with blood. I suppose I looked +like a man who had escaped a den of wild beasts, and barely escaped +them. In this state I appeared before my master, humbly entreating +him to interpose his authority for my protection. I told him all the +circumstances as well as I could, and it seemed, as I spoke, at times to +affect him. He would then walk the floor, and seek to justify Covey by +saying he expected I deserved it. He asked me what I wanted. I told him, +to let me get a new home; that as sure as I lived with Mr. Covey again, +I should live with but to die with him; that Covey would surely kill me; +he was in a fair way for it. Master Thomas ridiculed the idea that there +was any danger of Mr. Covey's killing me, and said that he knew Mr. +Covey; that he was a good man, and that he could not think of taking me +from him; that, should he do so, he would lose the whole year's wages; +that I belonged to Mr. Covey for one year, and that I must go back to +him, come what might; and that I must not trouble him with any more +stories, or that he would himself _get hold of me_. After threatening +me thus, he gave me a very large dose of salts, telling me that I might +remain in St. Michael's that night, (it being quite late,) but that I +must be off back to Mr. Covey's early in the morning; and that if I did +not, he would _get hold of me,_ which meant that he would whip me. +I remained all night, and, according to his orders, I started off to +Covey's in the morning, (Saturday morning,) wearied in body and broken +in spirit. I got no supper that night, or breakfast that morning. I +reached Covey's about nine o'clock; and just as I was getting over the +fence that divided Mrs. Kemp's fields from ours, out ran Covey with +his cowskin, to give me another whipping. Before he could reach me, I +succeeded in getting to the cornfield; and as the corn was very high, it +afforded me the means of hiding. He seemed very angry, and searched for +me a long time. My behavior was altogether unaccountable. He finally +gave up the chase, thinking, I suppose, that I must come home for +something to eat; he would give himself no further trouble in looking +for me. I spent that day mostly in the woods, having the alternative +before me,--to go home and be whipped to death, or stay in the woods and +be starved to death. That night, I fell in with Sandy Jenkins, a slave +with whom I was somewhat acquainted. Sandy had a free wife who lived +about four miles from Mr. Covey's; and it being Saturday, he was on his +way to see her. I told him my circumstances, and he very kindly invited +me to go home with him. I went home with him, and talked this whole +matter over, and got his advice as to what course it was best for me to +pursue. I found Sandy an old adviser. He told me, with great solemnity, +I must go back to Covey; but that before I went, I must go with him into +another part of the woods, where there was a certain _root,_ which, if +I would take some of it with me, carrying it _always on my right side,_ +would render it impossible for Mr. Covey, or any other white man, to +whip me. He said he had carried it for years; and since he had done so, +he had never received a blow, and never expected to while he carried it. +I at first rejected the idea, that the simple carrying of a root in my +pocket would have any such effect as he had said, and was not disposed +to take it; but Sandy impressed the necessity with much earnestness, +telling me it could do no harm, if it did no good. To please him, I at +length took the root, and, according to his direction, carried it upon +my right side. This was Sunday morning. I immediately started for +home; and upon entering the yard gate, out came Mr. Covey on his way to +meeting. He spoke to me very kindly, bade me drive the pigs from a lot +near by, and passed on towards the church. Now, this singular conduct of +Mr. Covey really made me begin to think that there was something in the +_root_ which Sandy had given me; and had it been on any other day than +Sunday, I could have attributed the conduct to no other cause than the +influence of that root; and as it was, I was half inclined to think the +_root_ to be something more than I at first had taken it to be. All went +well till Monday morning. On this morning, the virtue of the _root_ was +fully tested. Long before daylight, I was called to go and rub, curry, +and feed, the horses. I obeyed, and was glad to obey. But whilst thus +engaged, whilst in the act of throwing down some blades from the loft, +Mr. Covey entered the stable with a long rope; and just as I was half +out of the loft, he caught hold of my legs, and was about tying me. As +soon as I found what he was up to, I gave a sudden spring, and as I did +so, he holding to my legs, I was brought sprawling on the stable floor. +Mr. Covey seemed now to think he had me, and could do what he pleased; +but at this moment--from whence came the spirit I don't know--I resolved +to fight; and, suiting my action to the resolution, I seized Covey hard +by the throat; and as I did so, I rose. He held on to me, and I to him. +My resistance was so entirely unexpected that Covey seemed taken all +aback. He trembled like a leaf. This gave me assurance, and I held him +uneasy, causing the blood to run where I touched him with the ends of my +fingers. Mr. Covey soon called out to Hughes for help. Hughes came, and, +while Covey held me, attempted to tie my right hand. While he was in the +act of doing so, I watched my chance, and gave him a heavy kick close +under the ribs. This kick fairly sickened Hughes, so that he left me in +the hands of Mr. Covey. This kick had the effect of not only weakening +Hughes, but Covey also. When he saw Hughes bending over with pain, his +courage quailed. He asked me if I meant to persist in my resistance. I +told him I did, come what might; that he had used me like a brute for +six months, and that I was determined to be used so no longer. With +that, he strove to drag me to a stick that was lying just out of the +stable door. He meant to knock me down. But just as he was leaning +over to get the stick, I seized him with both hands by his collar, and +brought him by a sudden snatch to the ground. By this time, Bill came. +Covey called upon him for assistance. Bill wanted to know what he could +do. Covey said, "Take hold of him, take hold of him!" Bill said his +master hired him out to work, and not to help to whip me; so he left +Covey and myself to fight our own battle out. We were at it for nearly +two hours. Covey at length let me go, puffing and blowing at a great +rate, saying that if I had not resisted, he would not have whipped +me half so much. The truth was, that he had not whipped me at all. I +considered him as getting entirely the worst end of the bargain; for +he had drawn no blood from me, but I had from him. The whole six months +afterwards, that I spent with Mr. Covey, he never laid the weight of his +finger upon me in anger. He would occasionally say, he didn't want to +get hold of me again. "No," thought I, "you need not; for you will come +off worse than you did before." + +This battle with Mr. Covey was the turning-point in my career as a +slave. It rekindled the few expiring embers of freedom, and revived +within me a sense of my own manhood. It recalled the departed +self-confidence, and inspired me again with a determination to be free. +The gratification afforded by the triumph was a full compensation for +whatever else might follow, even death itself. He only can understand +the deep satisfaction which I experienced, who has himself repelled by +force the bloody arm of slavery. I felt as I never felt before. It was +a glorious resurrection, from the tomb of slavery, to the heaven of +freedom. My long-crushed spirit rose, cowardice departed, bold defiance +took its place; and I now resolved that, however long I might remain +a slave in form, the day had passed forever when I could be a slave in +fact. I did not hesitate to let it be known of me, that the white man +who expected to succeed in whipping, must also succeed in killing me. + +From this time I was never again what might be called fairly whipped, +though I remained a slave four years afterwards. I had several fights, +but was never whipped. + +It was for a long time a matter of surprise to me why Mr. Covey did not +immediately have me taken by the constable to the whipping-post, and +there regularly whipped for the crime of raising my hand against a white +man in defence of myself. And the only explanation I can now think of +does not entirely satisfy me; but such as it is, I will give it. Mr. +Covey enjoyed the most unbounded reputation for being a first-rate +overseer and negro-breaker. It was of considerable importance to him. +That reputation was at stake; and had he sent me--a boy about sixteen +years old--to the public whipping-post, his reputation would have been +lost; so, to save his reputation, he suffered me to go unpunished. + +My term of actual service to Mr. Edward Covey ended on Christmas day, +1833. The days between Christmas and New Year's day are allowed as +holidays; and, accordingly, we were not required to perform any labor, +more than to feed and take care of the stock. This time we regarded as +our own, by the grace of our masters; and we therefore used or abused it +nearly as we pleased. Those of us who had families at a distance, were +generally allowed to spend the whole six days in their society. This +time, however, was spent in various ways. The staid, sober, thinking +and industrious ones of our number would employ themselves in making +corn-brooms, mats, horse-collars, and baskets; and another class of us +would spend the time in hunting opossums, hares, and coons. But by far +the larger part engaged in such sports and merriments as playing ball, +wrestling, running foot-races, fiddling, dancing, and drinking whisky; +and this latter mode of spending the time was by far the most agreeable +to the feelings of our masters. A slave who would work during the +holidays was considered by our masters as scarcely deserving them. He +was regarded as one who rejected the favor of his master. It was deemed +a disgrace not to get drunk at Christmas; and he was regarded as lazy +indeed, who had not provided himself with the necessary means, during +the year, to get whisky enough to last him through Christmas. + +From what I know of the effect of these holidays upon the slave, I +believe them to be among the most effective means in the hands of +the slaveholder in keeping down the spirit of insurrection. Were the +slaveholders at once to abandon this practice, I have not the slightest +doubt it would lead to an immediate insurrection among the slaves. +These holidays serve as conductors, or safety-valves, to carry off the +rebellious spirit of enslaved humanity. But for these, the slave would +be forced up to the wildest desperation; and woe betide the slaveholder, +the day he ventures to remove or hinder the operation of those +conductors! I warn him that, in such an event, a spirit will go forth in +their midst, more to be dreaded than the most appalling earthquake. + +The holidays are part and parcel of the gross fraud, wrong, and +inhumanity of slavery. They are professedly a custom established by +the benevolence of the slaveholders; but I undertake to say, it is the +result of selfishness, and one of the grossest frauds committed upon the +down-trodden slave. They do not give the slaves this time because they +would not like to have their work during its continuance, but because +they know it would be unsafe to deprive them of it. This will be seen +by the fact, that the slaveholders like to have their slaves spend those +days just in such a manner as to make them as glad of their ending as of +their beginning. Their object seems to be, to disgust their slaves with +freedom, by plunging them into the lowest depths of dissipation. For +instance, the slaveholders not only like to see the slave drink of his +own accord, but will adopt various plans to make him drunk. One plan +is, to make bets on their slaves, as to who can drink the most whisky +without getting drunk; and in this way they succeed in getting whole +multitudes to drink to excess. Thus, when the slave asks for virtuous +freedom, the cunning slaveholder, knowing his ignorance, cheats him +with a dose of vicious dissipation, artfully labelled with the name of +liberty. The most of us used to drink it down, and the result was just +what might be supposed; many of us were led to think that there was +little to choose between liberty and slavery. We felt, and very properly +too, that we had almost as well be slaves to man as to rum. So, when the +holidays ended, we staggered up from the filth of our wallowing, took a +long breath, and marched to the field,--feeling, upon the whole, rather +glad to go, from what our master had deceived us into a belief was +freedom, back to the arms of slavery. + +I have said that this mode of treatment is a part of the whole system +of fraud and inhumanity of slavery. It is so. The mode here adopted to +disgust the slave with freedom, by allowing him to see only the abuse +of it, is carried out in other things. For instance, a slave loves +molasses; he steals some. His master, in many cases, goes off to town, +and buys a large quantity; he returns, takes his whip, and commands the +slave to eat the molasses, until the poor fellow is made sick at the +very mention of it. The same mode is sometimes adopted to make the +slaves refrain from asking for more food than their regular allowance. +A slave runs through his allowance, and applies for more. His master is +enraged at him; but, not willing to send him off without food, gives him +more than is necessary, and compels him to eat it within a given time. +Then, if he complains that he cannot eat it, he is said to be satisfied +neither full nor fasting, and is whipped for being hard to please! I +have an abundance of such illustrations of the same principle, drawn +from my own observation, but think the cases I have cited sufficient. +The practice is a very common one. + +On the first of January, 1834, I left Mr. Covey, and went to live with +Mr. William Freeland, who lived about three miles from St. Michael's. I +soon found Mr. Freeland a very different man from Mr. Covey. Though not +rich, he was what would be called an educated southern gentleman. +Mr. Covey, as I have shown, was a well-trained negro-breaker and +slave-driver. The former (slaveholder though he was) seemed to possess +some regard for honor, some reverence for justice, and some respect for +humanity. The latter seemed totally insensible to all such sentiments. +Mr. Freeland had many of the faults peculiar to slaveholders, such as +being very passionate and fretful; but I must do him the justice to say, +that he was exceedingly free from those degrading vices to which Mr. +Covey was constantly addicted. The one was open and frank, and we always +knew where to find him. The other was a most artful deceiver, and +could be understood only by such as were skilful enough to detect his +cunningly-devised frauds. Another advantage I gained in my new master +was, he made no pretensions to, or profession of, religion; and this, in +my opinion, was truly a great advantage. I assert most unhesitatingly, +that the religion of the south is a mere covering for the most horrid +crimes,--a justifier of the most appalling barbarity,--a sanctifier of +the most hateful frauds,--and a dark shelter under, which the darkest, +foulest, grossest, and most infernal deeds of slaveholders find the +strongest protection. Were I to be again reduced to the chains of +slavery, next to that enslavement, I should regard being the slave of a +religious master the greatest calamity that could befall me. For of all +slaveholders with whom I have ever met, religious slaveholders are the +worst. I have ever found them the meanest and basest, the most cruel and +cowardly, of all others. It was my unhappy lot not only to belong to a +religious slaveholder, but to live in a community of such religionists. +Very near Mr. Freeland lived the Rev. Daniel Weeden, and in the same +neighborhood lived the Rev. Rigby Hopkins. These were members and +ministers in the Reformed Methodist Church. Mr. Weeden owned, among +others, a woman slave, whose name I have forgotten. This woman's +back, for weeks, was kept literally raw, made so by the lash of this +merciless, _religious_ wretch. He used to hire hands. His maxim was, +Behave well or behave ill, it is the duty of a master occasionally to +whip a slave, to remind him of his master's authority. Such was his +theory, and such his practice. + +Mr. Hopkins was even worse than Mr. Weeden. His chief boast was his +ability to manage slaves. The peculiar feature of his government was +that of whipping slaves in advance of deserving it. He always managed to +have one or more of his slaves to whip every Monday morning. He did this +to alarm their fears, and strike terror into those who escaped. His +plan was to whip for the smallest offences, to prevent the commission +of large ones. Mr. Hopkins could always find some excuse for whipping +a slave. It would astonish one, unaccustomed to a slaveholding life, to +see with what wonderful ease a slaveholder can find things, of which to +make occasion to whip a slave. A mere look, word, or motion,--a mistake, +accident, or want of power,--are all matters for which a slave may be +whipped at any time. Does a slave look dissatisfied? It is said, he has +the devil in him, and it must be whipped out. Does he speak loudly when +spoken to by his master? Then he is getting high-minded, and should be +taken down a button-hole lower. Does he forget to pull off his hat at +the approach of a white person? Then he is wanting in reverence, and +should be whipped for it. Does he ever venture to vindicate his conduct, +when censured for it? Then he is guilty of impudence,--one of the +greatest crimes of which a slave can be guilty. Does he ever venture to +suggest a different mode of doing things from that pointed out by +his master? He is indeed presumptuous, and getting above himself; and +nothing less than a flogging will do for him. Does he, while ploughing, +break a plough,--or, while hoeing, break a hoe? It is owing to his +carelessness, and for it a slave must always be whipped. Mr. Hopkins +could always find something of this sort to justify the use of the lash, +and he seldom failed to embrace such opportunities. There was not a man +in the whole county, with whom the slaves who had the getting their own +home, would not prefer to live, rather than with this Rev. Mr. Hopkins. +And yet there was not a man any where round, who made higher professions +of religion, or was more active in revivals,--more attentive to the +class, love-feast, prayer and preaching meetings, or more devotional in +his family,--that prayed earlier, later, louder, and longer,--than this +same reverend slave-driver, Rigby Hopkins. + +But to return to Mr. Freeland, and to my experience while in his +employment. He, like Mr. Covey, gave us enough to eat; but, unlike Mr. +Covey, he also gave us sufficient time to take our meals. He worked us +hard, but always between sunrise and sunset. He required a good deal of +work to be done, but gave us good tools with which to work. His farm was +large, but he employed hands enough to work it, and with ease, compared +with many of his neighbors. My treatment, while in his employment, was +heavenly, compared with what I experienced at the hands of Mr. Edward +Covey. + +Mr. Freeland was himself the owner of but two slaves. Their names were +Henry Harris and John Harris. The rest of his hands he hired. These +consisted of myself, Sandy Jenkins,* and Handy Caldwell. + + + *This is the same man who gave me the roots to prevent my + being whipped by Mr. Covey. He was "a clever soul." We used + frequently to talk about the fight with Covey, and as often + as we did so, he would claim my success as the result of the + roots which he gave me. This superstition is very common + among the more ignorant slaves. A slave seldom dies but that + his death is attributed to trickery. + +Henry and John were quite intelligent, and in a very little while after +I went there, I succeeded in creating in them a strong desire to learn +how to read. This desire soon sprang up in the others also. They very +soon mustered up some old spelling-books, and nothing would do but that +I must keep a Sabbath school. I agreed to do so, and accordingly devoted +my Sundays to teaching these my loved fellow-slaves how to read. Neither +of them knew his letters when I went there. Some of the slaves of the +neighboring farms found what was going on, and also availed themselves +of this little opportunity to learn to read. It was understood, among +all who came, that there must be as little display about it as possible. +It was necessary to keep our religious masters at St. Michael's +unacquainted with the fact, that, instead of spending the Sabbath in +wrestling, boxing, and drinking whisky, we were trying to learn how to +read the will of God; for they had much rather see us engaged in those +degrading sports, than to see us behaving like intellectual, moral, and +accountable beings. My blood boils as I think of the bloody manner in +which Messrs. Wright Fairbanks and Garrison West, both class-leaders, in +connection with many others, rushed in upon us with sticks and stones, +and broke up our virtuous little Sabbath school, at St. Michael's--all +calling themselves Christians! humble followers of the Lord Jesus +Christ! But I am again digressing. + +I held my Sabbath school at the house of a free colored man, whose +name I deem it imprudent to mention; for should it be known, it might +embarrass him greatly, though the crime of holding the school was +committed ten years ago. I had at one time over forty scholars, and +those of the right sort, ardently desiring to learn. They were of all +ages, though mostly men and women. I look back to those Sundays with an +amount of pleasure not to be expressed. They were great days to my +soul. The work of instructing my dear fellow-slaves was the sweetest +engagement with which I was ever blessed. We loved each other, and to +leave them at the close of the Sabbath was a severe cross indeed. When +I think that these precious souls are to-day shut up in the prison-house +of slavery, my feelings overcome me, and I am almost ready to ask, +"Does a righteous God govern the universe? and for what does he hold the +thunders in his right hand, if not to smite the oppressor, and deliver +the spoiled out of the hand of the spoiler?" These dear souls came not +to Sabbath school because it was popular to do so, nor did I teach them +because it was reputable to be thus engaged. Every moment they spent +in that school, they were liable to be taken up, and given thirty-nine +lashes. They came because they wished to learn. Their minds had +been starved by their cruel masters. They had been shut up in mental +darkness. I taught them, because it was the delight of my soul to be +doing something that looked like bettering the condition of my race. I +kept up my school nearly the whole year I lived with Mr. Freeland; and, +beside my Sabbath school, I devoted three evenings in the week, during +the winter, to teaching the slaves at home. And I have the happiness to +know, that several of those who came to Sabbath school learned how to +read; and that one, at least, is now free through my agency. + +The year passed off smoothly. It seemed only about half as long as the +year which preceded it. I went through it without receiving a single +blow. I will give Mr. Freeland the credit of being the best master +I ever had, _till I became my own master._ For the ease with which I +passed the year, I was, however, somewhat indebted to the society of +my fellow-slaves. They were noble souls; they not only possessed loving +hearts, but brave ones. We were linked and interlinked with each other. +I loved them with a love stronger than any thing I have experienced +since. It is sometimes said that we slaves do not love and confide in +each other. In answer to this assertion, I can say, I never loved any or +confided in any people more than my fellow-slaves, and especially those +with whom I lived at Mr. Freeland's. I believe we would have died for +each other. We never undertook to do any thing, of any importance, +without a mutual consultation. We never moved separately. We were +one; and as much so by our tempers and dispositions, as by the mutual +hardships to which we were necessarily subjected by our condition as +slaves. + +At the close of the year 1834, Mr. Freeland again hired me of my master, +for the year 1835. But, by this time, I began to want to live _upon +free land_ as well as _with Freeland;_ and I was no longer content, +therefore, to live with him or any other slaveholder. I began, with the +commencement of the year, to prepare myself for a final struggle, which +should decide my fate one way or the other. My tendency was upward. I +was fast approaching manhood, and year after year had passed, and I was +still a slave. These thoughts roused me--I must do something. I therefore +resolved that 1835 should not pass without witnessing an attempt, on +my part, to secure my liberty. But I was not willing to cherish this +determination alone. My fellow-slaves were dear to me. I was anxious to +have them participate with me in this, my life-giving determination. +I therefore, though with great prudence, commenced early to ascertain +their views and feelings in regard to their condition, and to imbue +their minds with thoughts of freedom. I bent myself to devising ways and +means for our escape, and meanwhile strove, on all fitting occasions, +to impress them with the gross fraud and inhumanity of slavery. I went +first to Henry, next to John, then to the others. I found, in them all, +warm hearts and noble spirits. They were ready to hear, and ready to +act when a feasible plan should be proposed. This was what I wanted. +I talked to them of our want of manhood, if we submitted to our +enslavement without at least one noble effort to be free. We met often, +and consulted frequently, and told our hopes and fears, recounted the +difficulties, real and imagined, which we should be called on to +meet. At times we were almost disposed to give up, and try to content +ourselves with our wretched lot; at others, we were firm and unbending +in our determination to go. Whenever we suggested any plan, there was +shrinking--the odds were fearful. Our path was beset with the greatest +obstacles; and if we succeeded in gaining the end of it, our right to be +free was yet questionable--we were yet liable to be returned to bondage. +We could see no spot, this side of the ocean, where we could be free. +We knew nothing about Canada. Our knowledge of the north did not extend +farther than New York; and to go there, and be forever harassed with the +frightful liability of being returned to slavery--with the certainty of +being treated tenfold worse than before--the thought was truly a horrible +one, and one which it was not easy to overcome. The case sometimes stood +thus: At every gate through which we were to pass, we saw a watchman--at +every ferry a guard--on every bridge a sentinel--and in every wood a +patrol. We were hemmed in upon every side. Here were the difficulties, +real or imagined--the good to be sought, and the evil to be shunned. On +the one hand, there stood slavery, a stern reality, glaring frightfully +upon us,--its robes already crimsoned with the blood of millions, and +even now feasting itself greedily upon our own flesh. On the other hand, +away back in the dim distance, under the flickering light of the north +star, behind some craggy hill or snow-covered mountain, stood a doubtful +freedom--half frozen--beckoning us to come and share its hospitality. +This in itself was sometimes enough to stagger us; but when we permitted +ourselves to survey the road, we were frequently appalled. Upon either +side we saw grim death, assuming the most horrid shapes. Now it was +starvation, causing us to eat our own flesh;--now we were contending with +the waves, and were drowned;--now we were overtaken, and torn to pieces +by the fangs of the terrible bloodhound. We were stung by scorpions, +chased by wild beasts, bitten by snakes, and finally, after having +nearly reached the desired spot,--after swimming rivers, encountering +wild beasts, sleeping in the woods, suffering hunger and nakedness,--we +were overtaken by our pursuers, and, in our resistance, we were shot +dead upon the spot! I say, this picture sometimes appalled us, and made +us + + + "rather bear those ills we had, + Than fly to others, that we knew not of." + +In coming to a fixed determination to run away, we did more than Patrick +Henry, when he resolved upon liberty or death. With us it was a doubtful +liberty at most, and almost certain death if we failed. For my part, I +should prefer death to hopeless bondage. + +Sandy, one of our number, gave up the notion, but still encouraged us. +Our company then consisted of Henry Harris, John Harris, Henry Bailey, +Charles Roberts, and myself. Henry Bailey was my uncle, and belonged +to my master. Charles married my aunt: he belonged to my master's +father-in-law, Mr. William Hamilton. + +The plan we finally concluded upon was, to get a large canoe belonging +to Mr. Hamilton, and upon the Saturday night previous to Easter +holidays, paddle directly up the Chesapeake Bay. On our arrival at the +head of the bay, a distance of seventy or eighty miles from where we +lived, it was our purpose to turn our canoe adrift, and follow the +guidance of the north star till we got beyond the limits of Maryland. +Our reason for taking the water route was, that we were less liable to +be suspected as runaways; we hoped to be regarded as fishermen; +whereas, if we should take the land route, we should be subjected to +interruptions of almost every kind. Any one having a white face, and +being so disposed, could stop us, and subject us to examination. + +The week before our intended start, I wrote several protections, one for +each of us. As well as I can remember, they were in the following words, +to wit:-- + + + "This is to certify that I, the undersigned, have given the bearer, my + servant, full liberty to go to Baltimore, and spend the Easter holidays. + Written with mine own hand, &c., 1835. + + "WILLIAM HAMILTON, + + +"Near St. Michael's, in Talbot county, Maryland." + +We were not going to Baltimore; but, in going up the bay, we went toward +Baltimore, and these protections were only intended to protect us while +on the bay. + +As the time drew near for our departure, our anxiety became more and +more intense. It was truly a matter of life and death with us. The +strength of our determination was about to be fully tested. At this +time, I was very active in explaining every difficulty, removing every +doubt, dispelling every fear, and inspiring all with the firmness +indispensable to success in our undertaking; assuring them that half was +gained the instant we made the move; we had talked long enough; we were +now ready to move; if not now, we never should be; and if we did +not intend to move now, we had as well fold our arms, sit down, and +acknowledge ourselves fit only to be slaves. This, none of us were +prepared to acknowledge. Every man stood firm; and at our last meeting, +we pledged ourselves afresh, in the most solemn manner, that, at the +time appointed, we would certainly start in pursuit of freedom. This +was in the middle of the week, at the end of which we were to be off. We +went, as usual, to our several fields of labor, but with bosoms highly +agitated with thoughts of our truly hazardous undertaking. We tried to +conceal our feelings as much as possible; and I think we succeeded very +well. + +After a painful waiting, the Saturday morning, whose night was to +witness our departure, came. I hailed it with joy, bring what of sadness +it might. Friday night was a sleepless one for me. I probably felt more +anxious than the rest, because I was, by common consent, at the head of +the whole affair. The responsibility of success or failure lay heavily +upon me. The glory of the one, and the confusion of the other, were +alike mine. The first two hours of that morning were such as I never +experienced before, and hope never to again. Early in the morning, we +went, as usual, to the field. We were spreading manure; and all at once, +while thus engaged, I was overwhelmed with an indescribable feeling, in +the fulness of which I turned to Sandy, who was near by, and said, "We +are betrayed!" "Well," said he, "that thought has this moment struck +me." We said no more. I was never more certain of any thing. + +The horn was blown as usual, and we went up from the field to the house +for breakfast. I went for the form, more than for want of any thing to +eat that morning. Just as I got to the house, in looking out at the lane +gate, I saw four white men, with two colored men. The white men were +on horseback, and the colored ones were walking behind, as if tied. I +watched them a few moments till they got up to our lane gate. Here they +halted, and tied the colored men to the gate-post. I was not yet certain +as to what the matter was. In a few moments, in rode Mr. Hamilton, with +a speed betokening great excitement. He came to the door, and inquired +if Master William was in. He was told he was at the barn. Mr. Hamilton, +without dismounting, rode up to the barn with extraordinary speed. In +a few moments, he and Mr. Freeland returned to the house. By this time, +the three constables rode up, and in great haste dismounted, tied their +horses, and met Master William and Mr. Hamilton returning from the barn; +and after talking awhile, they all walked up to the kitchen door. There +was no one in the kitchen but myself and John. Henry and Sandy were up +at the barn. Mr. Freeland put his head in at the door, and called me by +name, saying, there were some gentlemen at the door who wished to see +me. I stepped to the door, and inquired what they wanted. They at once +seized me, and, without giving me any satisfaction, tied me--lashing my +hands closely together. I insisted upon knowing what the matter was. +They at length said, that they had learned I had been in a "scrape," +and that I was to be examined before my master; and if their information +proved false, I should not be hurt. + +In a few moments, they succeeded in tying John. They then turned to +Henry, who had by this time returned, and commanded him to cross his +hands. "I won't!" said Henry, in a firm tone, indicating his readiness +to meet the consequences of his refusal. "Won't you?" said Tom Graham, +the constable. "No, I won't!" said Henry, in a still stronger tone. With +this, two of the constables pulled out their shining pistols, and swore, +by their Creator, that they would make him cross his hands or kill him. +Each cocked his pistol, and, with fingers on the trigger, walked up to +Henry, saying, at the same time, if he did not cross his hands, they +would blow his damned heart out. "Shoot me, shoot me!" said Henry; "you +can't kill me but once. Shoot, shoot,--and be damned! _I won't be tied!_" +This he said in a tone of loud defiance; and at the same time, with +a motion as quick as lightning, he with one single stroke dashed the +pistols from the hand of each constable. As he did this, all hands fell +upon him, and, after beating him some time, they finally overpowered +him, and got him tied. + +During the scuffle, I managed, I know not how, to get my pass out, and, +without being discovered, put it into the fire. We were all now tied; +and just as we were to leave for Easton jail, Betsy Freeland, mother of +William Freeland, came to the door with her hands full of biscuits, and +divided them between Henry and John. She then delivered herself of a +speech, to the following effect:--addressing herself to me, she said, +"_You devil! You yellow devil!_ it was you that put it into the heads of +Henry and John to run away. But for you, you long-legged mulatto devil! +Henry nor John would never have thought of such a thing." I made no +reply, and was immediately hurried off towards St. Michael's. Just a +moment previous to the scuffle with Henry, Mr. Hamilton suggested the +propriety of making a search for the protections which he had understood +Frederick had written for himself and the rest. But, just at the moment +he was about carrying his proposal into effect, his aid was needed in +helping to tie Henry; and the excitement attending the scuffle caused +them either to forget, or to deem it unsafe, under the circumstances, to +search. So we were not yet convicted of the intention to run away. + +When we got about half way to St. Michael's, while the constables having +us in charge were looking ahead, Henry inquired of me what he should do +with his pass. I told him to eat it with his biscuit, and own nothing; +and we passed the word around, "_Own nothing;_" and "_Own nothing!_" +said we all. Our confidence in each other was unshaken. We were resolved +to succeed or fail together, after the calamity had befallen us as much +as before. We were now prepared for any thing. We were to be dragged +that morning fifteen miles behind horses, and then to be placed in +the Easton jail. When we reached St. Michael's, we underwent a sort of +examination. We all denied that we ever intended to run away. We did +this more to bring out the evidence against us, than from any hope of +getting clear of being sold; for, as I have said, we were ready for +that. The fact was, we cared but little where we went, so we went +together. Our greatest concern was about separation. We dreaded that +more than any thing this side of death. We found the evidence against us +to be the testimony of one person; our master would not tell who it +was; but we came to a unanimous decision among ourselves as to who +their informant was. We were sent off to the jail at Easton. When we got +there, we were delivered up to the sheriff, Mr. Joseph Graham, and by +him placed in jail. Henry, John, and myself, were placed in one +room together--Charles, and Henry Bailey, in another. Their object in +separating us was to hinder concert. + +We had been in jail scarcely twenty minutes, when a swarm of slave +traders, and agents for slave traders, flocked into jail to look at us, +and to ascertain if we were for sale. Such a set of beings I never saw +before! I felt myself surrounded by so many fiends from perdition. A +band of pirates never looked more like their father, the devil. They +laughed and grinned over us, saying, "Ah, my boys! we have got you, +haven't we?" And after taunting us in various ways, they one by one +went into an examination of us, with intent to ascertain our value. +They would impudently ask us if we would not like to have them for our +masters. We would make them no answer, and leave them to find out as +best they could. Then they would curse and swear at us, telling us that +they could take the devil out of us in a very little while, if we were +only in their hands. + +While in jail, we found ourselves in much more comfortable quarters than +we expected when we went there. We did not get much to eat, nor that +which was very good; but we had a good clean room, from the windows of +which we could see what was going on in the street, which was very much +better than though we had been placed in one of the dark, damp cells. +Upon the whole, we got along very well, so far as the jail and its +keeper were concerned. Immediately after the holidays were over, +contrary to all our expectations, Mr. Hamilton and Mr. Freeland came up +to Easton, and took Charles, the two Henrys, and John, out of jail, and +carried them home, leaving me alone. I regarded this separation as +a final one. It caused me more pain than any thing else in the whole +transaction. I was ready for any thing rather than separation. I +supposed that they had consulted together, and had decided that, as I +was the whole cause of the intention of the others to run away, it was +hard to make the innocent suffer with the guilty; and that they had, +therefore, concluded to take the others home, and sell me, as a warning +to the others that remained. It is due to the noble Henry to say, he +seemed almost as reluctant at leaving the prison as at leaving home +to come to the prison. But we knew we should, in all probability, +be separated, if we were sold; and since he was in their hands, he +concluded to go peaceably home. + +I was now left to my fate. I was all alone, and within the walls of a +stone prison. But a few days before, and I was full of hope. I expected +to have been safe in a land of freedom; but now I was covered with +gloom, sunk down to the utmost despair. I thought the possibility of +freedom was gone. I was kept in this way about one week, at the end of +which, Captain Auld, my master, to my surprise and utter astonishment, +came up, and took me out, with the intention of sending me, with a +gentleman of his acquaintance, into Alabama. But, from some cause or +other, he did not send me to Alabama, but concluded to send me back to +Baltimore, to live again with his brother Hugh, and to learn a trade. + +Thus, after an absence of three years and one month, I was once more +permitted to return to my old home at Baltimore. My master sent me +away, because there existed against me a very great prejudice in the +community, and he feared I might be killed. + +In a few weeks after I went to Baltimore, Master Hugh hired me to Mr. +William Gardner, an extensive ship-builder, on Fell's Point. I was put +there to learn how to calk. It, however, proved a very unfavorable place +for the accomplishment of this object. Mr. Gardner was engaged that +spring in building two large man-of-war brigs, professedly for the +Mexican government. The vessels were to be launched in the July of that +year, and in failure thereof, Mr. Gardner was to lose a considerable +sum; so that when I entered, all was hurry. There was no time to learn +any thing. Every man had to do that which he knew how to do. In entering +the shipyard, my orders from Mr. Gardner were, to do whatever the +carpenters commanded me to do. This was placing me at the beck and call +of about seventy-five men. I was to regard all these as masters. Their +word was to be my law. My situation was a most trying one. At times I +needed a dozen pair of hands. I was called a dozen ways in the space of +a single minute. Three or four voices would strike my ear at the same +moment. It was--"Fred., come help me to cant this timber here."--"Fred., +come carry this timber yonder."--"Fred., bring that roller here."--"Fred., +go get a fresh can of water."--"Fred., come help saw off the end of this +timber."--"Fred., go quick, and get the crowbar."--"Fred., hold on the +end of this fall."--"Fred., go to the blacksmith's shop, and get a new +punch."--"Hurra, Fred! run and bring me a cold chisel."--"I say, Fred., +bear a hand, and get up a fire as quick as lightning under that +steam-box."--"Halloo, nigger! come, turn this grindstone."--"Come, come! +move, move! and _bowse_ this timber forward."--"I say, darky, blast +your eyes, why don't you heat up some pitch?"--"Halloo! halloo! halloo!" +(Three voices at the same time.) "Come here!--Go there!--Hold on where you +are! Damn you, if you move, I'll knock your brains out!" + +This was my school for eight months; and I might have remained there +longer, but for a most horrid fight I had with four of the white +apprentices, in which my left eye was nearly knocked out, and I was +horribly mangled in other respects. The facts in the case were +these: Until a very little while after I went there, white and black +ship-carpenters worked side by side, and no one seemed to see any +impropriety in it. All hands seemed to be very well satisfied. Many of +the black carpenters were freemen. Things seemed to be going on very +well. All at once, the white carpenters knocked off, and said they would +not work with free colored workmen. Their reason for this, as alleged, +was, that if free colored carpenters were encouraged, they would soon +take the trade into their own hands, and poor white men would be thrown +out of employment. They therefore felt called upon at once to put a stop +to it. And, taking advantage of Mr. Gardner's necessities, they broke +off, swearing they would work no longer, unless he would discharge his +black carpenters. Now, though this did not extend to me in form, it +did reach me in fact. My fellow-apprentices very soon began to feel it +degrading to them to work with me. They began to put on airs, and +talk about the "niggers" taking the country, saying we all ought to be +killed; and, being encouraged by the journeymen, they commenced +making my condition as hard as they could, by hectoring me around, and +sometimes striking me. I, of course, kept the vow I made after the fight +with Mr. Covey, and struck back again, regardless of consequences; and +while I kept them from combining, I succeeded very well; for I could +whip the whole of them, taking them separately. They, however, at +length combined, and came upon me, armed with sticks, stones, and heavy +handspikes. One came in front with a half brick. There was one at each +side of me, and one behind me. While I was attending to those in front, +and on either side, the one behind ran up with the handspike, and struck +me a heavy blow upon the head. It stunned me. I fell, and with this they +all ran upon me, and fell to beating me with their fists. I let them +lay on for a while, gathering strength. In an instant, I gave a sudden +surge, and rose to my hands and knees. Just as I did that, one of their +number gave me, with his heavy boot, a powerful kick in the left eye. +My eyeball seemed to have burst. When they saw my eye closed, and badly +swollen, they left me. With this I seized the handspike, and for a time +pursued them. But here the carpenters interfered, and I thought I might +as well give it up. It was impossible to stand my hand against so +many. All this took place in sight of not less than fifty white +ship-carpenters, and not one interposed a friendly word; but some cried, +"Kill the damned nigger! Kill him! kill him! He struck a white person." +I found my only chance for life was in flight. I succeeded in getting +away without an additional blow, and barely so; for to strike a white +man is death by Lynch law,--and that was the law in Mr. Gardner's +ship-yard; nor is there much of any other out of Mr. Gardner's +ship-yard. + +I went directly home, and told the story of my wrongs to Master Hugh; +and I am happy to say of him, irreligious as he was, his conduct +was heavenly, compared with that of his brother Thomas under similar +circumstances. He listened attentively to my narration of the +circumstances leading to the savage outrage, and gave many proofs of +his strong indignation at it. The heart of my once overkind mistress was +again melted into pity. My puffed-out eye and blood-covered face moved +her to tears. She took a chair by me, washed the blood from my face, +and, with a mother's tenderness, bound up my head, covering the wounded +eye with a lean piece of fresh beef. It was almost compensation for my +suffering to witness, once more, a manifestation of kindness from this, +my once affectionate old mistress. Master Hugh was very much enraged. He +gave expression to his feelings by pouring out curses upon the heads +of those who did the deed. As soon as I got a little the better of my +bruises, he took me with him to Esquire Watson's, on Bond Street, to +see what could be done about the matter. Mr. Watson inquired who saw +the assault committed. Master Hugh told him it was done in Mr. Gardner's +ship-yard at midday, where there were a large company of men at work. +"As to that," he said, "the deed was done, and there was no question as +to who did it." His answer was, he could do nothing in the case, unless +some white man would come forward and testify. He could issue no warrant +on my word. If I had been killed in the presence of a thousand colored +people, their testimony combined would have been insufficient to have +arrested one of the murderers. Master Hugh, for once, was compelled to +say this state of things was too bad. Of course, it was impossible to +get any white man to volunteer his testimony in my behalf, and against +the white young men. Even those who may have sympathized with me were +not prepared to do this. It required a degree of courage unknown to them +to do so; for just at that time, the slightest manifestation of humanity +toward a colored person was denounced as abolitionism, and that name +subjected its bearer to frightful liabilities. The watchwords of +the bloody-minded in that region, and in those days, were, "Damn the +abolitionists!" and "Damn the niggers!" There was nothing done, and +probably nothing would have been done if I had been killed. Such +was, and such remains, the state of things in the Christian city of +Baltimore. + +Master Hugh, finding he could get no redress, refused to let me go back +again to Mr. Gardner. He kept me himself, and his wife dressed my wound +till I was again restored to health. He then took me into the ship-yard +of which he was foreman, in the employment of Mr. Walter Price. There I +was immediately set to calking, and very soon learned the art of using +my mallet and irons. In the course of one year from the time I left Mr. +Gardner's, I was able to command the highest wages given to the most +experienced calkers. I was now of some importance to my master. I was +bringing him from six to seven dollars per week. I sometimes brought him +nine dollars per week: my wages were a dollar and a half a day. After +learning how to calk, I sought my own employment, made my own contracts, +and collected the money which I earned. My pathway became much more +smooth than before; my condition was now much more comfortable. When I +could get no calking to do, I did nothing. During these leisure times, +those old notions about freedom would steal over me again. When in +Mr. Gardner's employment, I was kept in such a perpetual whirl of +excitement, I could think of nothing, scarcely, but my life; and in +thinking of my life, I almost forgot my liberty. I have observed this +in my experience of slavery,--that whenever my condition was improved, +instead of its increasing my contentment, it only increased my desire +to be free, and set me to thinking of plans to gain my freedom. I +have found that, to make a contented slave, it is necessary to make a +thoughtless one. It is necessary to darken his moral and mental vision, +and, as far as possible, to annihilate the power of reason. He must be +able to detect no inconsistencies in slavery; he must be made to feel +that slavery is right; and he can be brought to that only when he ceases +to be a man. + +I was now getting, as I have said, one dollar and fifty cents per day. I +contracted for it; I earned it; it was paid to me; it was rightfully my +own; yet, upon each returning Saturday night, I was compelled to deliver +every cent of that money to Master Hugh. And why? Not because he earned +it,--not because he had any hand in earning it,--not because I owed it to +him,--nor because he possessed the slightest shadow of a right to it; but +solely because he had the power to compel me to give it up. The right of +the grim-visaged pirate upon the high seas is exactly the same. + + + + + + +CHAPTER XI + +I now come to that part of my life during which I planned, and finally +succeeded in making, my escape from slavery. But before narrating any of +the peculiar circumstances, I deem it proper to make known my intention +not to state all the facts connected with the transaction. My reasons +for pursuing this course may be understood from the following: First, +were I to give a minute statement of all the facts, it is not only +possible, but quite probable, that others would thereby be involved in +the most embarrassing difficulties. Secondly, such a statement would +most undoubtedly induce greater vigilance on the part of slaveholders +than has existed heretofore among them; which would, of course, be the +means of guarding a door whereby some dear brother bondman might escape +his galling chains. I deeply regret the necessity that impels me +to suppress any thing of importance connected with my experience in +slavery. It would afford me great pleasure indeed, as well as materially +add to the interest of my narrative, were I at liberty to gratify a +curiosity, which I know exists in the minds of many, by an accurate +statement of all the facts pertaining to my most fortunate escape. But +I must deprive myself of this pleasure, and the curious of the +gratification which such a statement would afford. I would allow myself +to suffer under the greatest imputations which evil-minded men might +suggest, rather than exculpate myself, and thereby run the hazard +of closing the slightest avenue by which a brother slave might clear +himself of the chains and fetters of slavery. + +I have never approved of the very public manner in which some of +our western friends have conducted what they call the _underground +railroad,_ but which I think, by their open declarations, has been made +most emphatically the _upperground railroad._ I honor those good +men and women for their noble daring, and applaud them for willingly +subjecting themselves to bloody persecution, by openly avowing their +participation in the escape of slaves. I, however, can see very little +good resulting from such a course, either to themselves or the slaves +escaping; while, upon the other hand, I see and feel assured that those +open declarations are a positive evil to the slaves remaining, who +are seeking to escape. They do nothing towards enlightening the slave, +whilst they do much towards enlightening the master. They stimulate him +to greater watchfulness, and enhance his power to capture his slave. We +owe something to the slave south of the line as well as to those north +of it; and in aiding the latter on their way to freedom, we should be +careful to do nothing which would be likely to hinder the former from +escaping from slavery. I would keep the merciless slaveholder profoundly +ignorant of the means of flight adopted by the slave. I would leave him +to imagine himself surrounded by myriads of invisible tormentors, ever +ready to snatch from his infernal grasp his trembling prey. Let him be +left to feel his way in the dark; let darkness commensurate with his +crime hover over him; and let him feel that at every step he takes, +in pursuit of the flying bondman, he is running the frightful risk of +having his hot brains dashed out by an invisible agency. Let us render +the tyrant no aid; let us not hold the light by which he can trace the +footprints of our flying brother. But enough of this. I will now proceed +to the statement of those facts, connected with my escape, for which +I am alone responsible, and for which no one can be made to suffer but +myself. + +In the early part of the year 1838, I became quite restless. I could see +no reason why I should, at the end of each week, pour the reward of my +toil into the purse of my master. When I carried to him my weekly +wages, he would, after counting the money, look me in the face with a +robber-like fierceness, and ask, "Is this all?" He was satisfied with +nothing less than the last cent. He would, however, when I made him +six dollars, sometimes give me six cents, to encourage me. It had the +opposite effect. I regarded it as a sort of admission of my right to the +whole. The fact that he gave me any part of my wages was proof, to my +mind, that he believed me entitled to the whole of them. I always felt +worse for having received any thing; for I feared that the giving me a +few cents would ease his conscience, and make him feel himself to be a +pretty honorable sort of robber. My discontent grew upon me. I was ever +on the look-out for means of escape; and, finding no direct means, I +determined to try to hire my time, with a view of getting money with +which to make my escape. In the spring of 1838, when Master Thomas came +to Baltimore to purchase his spring goods, I got an opportunity, and +applied to him to allow me to hire my time. He unhesitatingly refused my +request, and told me this was another stratagem by which to escape. He +told me I could go nowhere but that he could get me; and that, in the +event of my running away, he should spare no pains in his efforts to +catch me. He exhorted me to content myself, and be obedient. He told me, +if I would be happy, I must lay out no plans for the future. He said, if +I behaved myself properly, he would take care of me. Indeed, he advised +me to complete thoughtlessness of the future, and taught me to depend +solely upon him for happiness. He seemed to see fully the pressing +necessity of setting aside my intellectual nature, in order to +contentment in slavery. But in spite of him, and even in spite of +myself, I continued to think, and to think about the injustice of my +enslavement, and the means of escape. + +About two months after this, I applied to Master Hugh for the privilege +of hiring my time. He was not acquainted with the fact that I had +applied to Master Thomas, and had been refused. He too, at first, +seemed disposed to refuse; but, after some reflection, he granted me the +privilege, and proposed the following terms: I was to be allowed all my +time, make all contracts with those for whom I worked, and find my own +employment; and, in return for this liberty, I was to pay him three +dollars at the end of each week; find myself in calking tools, and in +board and clothing. My board was two dollars and a half per week. This, +with the wear and tear of clothing and calking tools, made my regular +expenses about six dollars per week. This amount I was compelled to make +up, or relinquish the privilege of hiring my time. Rain or shine, work +or no work, at the end of each week the money must be forthcoming, or I +must give up my privilege. This arrangement, it will be perceived, was +decidedly in my master's favor. It relieved him of all need of +looking after me. His money was sure. He received all the benefits +of slaveholding without its evils; while I endured all the evils of a +slave, and suffered all the care and anxiety of a freeman. I found it a +hard bargain. But, hard as it was, I thought it better than the old mode +of getting along. It was a step towards freedom to be allowed to bear +the responsibilities of a freeman, and I was determined to hold on upon +it. I bent myself to the work of making money. I was ready to work +at night as well as day, and by the most untiring perseverance and +industry, I made enough to meet my expenses, and lay up a little money +every week. I went on thus from May till August. Master Hugh then +refused to allow me to hire my time longer. The ground for his refusal +was a failure on my part, one Saturday night, to pay him for my week's +time. This failure was occasioned by my attending a camp meeting +about ten miles from Baltimore. During the week, I had entered into an +engagement with a number of young friends to start from Baltimore to the +camp ground early Saturday evening; and being detained by my employer, +I was unable to get down to Master Hugh's without disappointing the +company. I knew that Master Hugh was in no special need of the money +that night. I therefore decided to go to camp meeting, and upon my +return pay him the three dollars. I staid at the camp meeting one day +longer than I intended when I left. But as soon as I returned, I called +upon him to pay him what he considered his due. I found him very angry; +he could scarce restrain his wrath. He said he had a great mind to give +me a severe whipping. He wished to know how I dared go out of the city +without asking his permission. I told him I hired my time and while +I paid him the price which he asked for it, I did not know that I was +bound to ask him when and where I should go. This reply troubled him; +and, after reflecting a few moments, he turned to me, and said I should +hire my time no longer; that the next thing he should know of, I would +be running away. Upon the same plea, he told me to bring my tools and +clothing home forthwith. I did so; but instead of seeking work, as I had +been accustomed to do previously to hiring my time, I spent the whole +week without the performance of a single stroke of work. I did this in +retaliation. Saturday night, he called upon me as usual for my week's +wages. I told him I had no wages; I had done no work that week. Here +we were upon the point of coming to blows. He raved, and swore his +determination to get hold of me. I did not allow myself a single word; +but was resolved, if he laid the weight of his hand upon me, it should +be blow for blow. He did not strike me, but told me that he would find +me in constant employment in future. I thought the matter over during +the next day, Sunday, and finally resolved upon the third day of +September, as the day upon which I would make a second attempt to +secure my freedom. I now had three weeks during which to prepare for my +journey. Early on Monday morning, before Master Hugh had time to make +any engagement for me, I went out and got employment of Mr. Butler, at +his ship-yard near the drawbridge, upon what is called the City Block, +thus making it unnecessary for him to seek employment for me. At the +end of the week, I brought him between eight and nine dollars. He seemed +very well pleased, and asked why I did not do the same the week before. +He little knew what my plans were. My object in working steadily was to +remove any suspicion he might entertain of my intent to run away; and +in this I succeeded admirably. I suppose he thought I was never better +satisfied with my condition than at the very time during which I was +planning my escape. The second week passed, and again I carried him +my full wages; and so well pleased was he, that he gave me twenty-five +cents, (quite a large sum for a slaveholder to give a slave,) and bade +me to make a good use of it. I told him I would. + +Things went on without very smoothly indeed, but within there was +trouble. It is impossible for me to describe my feelings as the time of +my contemplated start drew near. I had a number of warmhearted friends +in Baltimore,--friends that I loved almost as I did my life,--and +the thought of being separated from them forever was painful beyond +expression. It is my opinion that thousands would escape from slavery, +who now remain, but for the strong cords of affection that bind them to +their friends. The thought of leaving my friends was decidedly the most +painful thought with which I had to contend. The love of them was my +tender point, and shook my decision more than all things else. Besides +the pain of separation, the dread and apprehension of a failure exceeded +what I had experienced at my first attempt. The appalling defeat I then +sustained returned to torment me. I felt assured that, if I failed in +this attempt, my case would be a hopeless one--it would seal my fate as a +slave forever. I could not hope to get off with any thing less than the +severest punishment, and being placed beyond the means of escape. It +required no very vivid imagination to depict the most frightful scenes +through which I should have to pass, in case I failed. The wretchedness +of slavery, and the blessedness of freedom, were perpetually before me. +It was life and death with me. But I remained firm, and, according to my +resolution, on the third day of September, 1838, I left my chains, and +succeeded in reaching New York without the slightest interruption of any +kind. How I did so,--what means I adopted,--what direction I travelled, +and by what mode of conveyance,--I must leave unexplained, for the +reasons before mentioned. + +I have been frequently asked how I felt when I found myself in a +free State. I have never been able to answer the question with any +satisfaction to myself. It was a moment of the highest excitement I ever +experienced. I suppose I felt as one may imagine the unarmed mariner to +feel when he is rescued by a friendly man-of-war from the pursuit of a +pirate. In writing to a dear friend, immediately after my arrival at New +York, I said I felt like one who had escaped a den of hungry lions. This +state of mind, however, very soon subsided; and I was again seized with +a feeling of great insecurity and loneliness. I was yet liable to be +taken back, and subjected to all the tortures of slavery. This in +itself was enough to damp the ardor of my enthusiasm. But the loneliness +overcame me. There I was in the midst of thousands, and yet a perfect +stranger; without home and without friends, in the midst of thousands +of my own brethren--children of a common Father, and yet I dared not to +unfold to any one of them my sad condition. I was afraid to speak to any +one for fear of speaking to the wrong one, and thereby falling into the +hands of money-loving kidnappers, whose business it was to lie in wait +for the panting fugitive, as the ferocious beasts of the forest lie +in wait for their prey. The motto which I adopted when I started from +slavery was this--"Trust no man!" I saw in every white man an enemy, and +in almost every colored man cause for distrust. It was a most painful +situation; and, to understand it, one must needs experience it, or +imagine himself in similar circumstances. Let him be a fugitive slave +in a strange land--a land given up to be the hunting-ground for +slaveholders--whose inhabitants are legalized kidnappers--where he is +every moment subjected to the terrible liability of being seized upon by +his fellowmen, as the hideous crocodile seizes upon his prey!--I say, let +him place himself in my situation--without home or friends--without money +or credit--wanting shelter, and no one to give it--wanting bread, and no +money to buy it,--and at the same time let him feel that he is pursued by +merciless men-hunters, and in total darkness as to what to do, where to +go, or where to stay,--perfectly helpless both as to the means of defence +and means of escape,--in the midst of plenty, yet suffering the terrible +gnawings of hunger,--in the midst of houses, yet having no home,--among +fellow-men, yet feeling as if in the midst of wild beasts, whose +greediness to swallow up the trembling and half-famished fugitive is +only equalled by that with which the monsters of the deep swallow up the +helpless fish upon which they subsist,--I say, let him be placed in this +most trying situation,--the situation in which I was placed,--then, and +not till then, will he fully appreciate the hardships of, and know how +to sympathize with, the toil-worn and whip-scarred fugitive slave. + +Thank Heaven, I remained but a short time in this distressed situation. +I was relieved from it by the humane hand of _Mr. David Ruggles_, whose +vigilance, kindness, and perseverance, I shall never forget. I am +glad of an opportunity to express, as far as words can, the love and +gratitude I bear him. Mr. Ruggles is now afflicted with blindness, and +is himself in need of the same kind offices which he was once so forward +in the performance of toward others. I had been in New York but a few +days, when Mr. Ruggles sought me out, and very kindly took me to his +boarding-house at the corner of Church and Lespenard Streets. Mr. +Ruggles was then very deeply engaged in the memorable _Darg_ case, as +well as attending to a number of other fugitive slaves, devising ways +and means for their successful escape; and, though watched and hemmed in +on almost every side, he seemed to be more than a match for his enemies. + +Very soon after I went to Mr. Ruggles, he wished to know of me where +I wanted to go; as he deemed it unsafe for me to remain in New York. I +told him I was a calker, and should like to go where I could get work. +I thought of going to Canada; but he decided against it, and in favor of +my going to New Bedford, thinking I should be able to get work there at +my trade. At this time, Anna,* my intended wife, came on; for I wrote +to her immediately after my arrival at New York, (notwithstanding +my homeless, houseless, and helpless condition,) informing her of my +successful flight, and wishing her to come on forthwith. In a few days +after her arrival, Mr. Ruggles called in the Rev. J. W. C. Pennington, +who, in the presence of Mr. Ruggles, Mrs. Michaels, and two or three +others, performed the marriage ceremony, and gave us a certificate, of +which the following is an exact copy:-- + + +"This may certify, that I joined together in holy matrimony Frederick +Johnson** and Anna Murray, as man and wife, in the presence of Mr. David +Ruggles and Mrs. Michaels. + +"JAMES W. C. PENNINGTON "_New York, Sept. 15, 1838_" + + + *She was free. + + **I had changed my name from Frederick _Bailey_ to that of + _Johnson_. + +Upon receiving this certificate, and a five-dollar bill from Mr. +Ruggles, I shouldered one part of our baggage, and Anna took up +the other, and we set out forthwith to take passage on board of the +steamboat John W. Richmond for Newport, on our way to New Bedford. Mr. +Ruggles gave me a letter to a Mr. Shaw in Newport, and told me, in case +my money did not serve me to New Bedford, to stop in Newport and obtain +further assistance; but upon our arrival at Newport, we were so anxious +to get to a place of safety, that, notwithstanding we lacked the +necessary money to pay our fare, we decided to take seats in the stage, +and promise to pay when we got to New Bedford. We were encouraged to do +this by two excellent gentlemen, residents of New Bedford, whose names I +afterward ascertained to be Joseph Ricketson and William C. Taber. +They seemed at once to understand our circumstances, and gave us +such assurance of their friendliness as put us fully at ease in their +presence. + +It was good indeed to meet with such friends, at such a time. Upon +reaching New Bedford, we were directed to the house of Mr. Nathan +Johnson, by whom we were kindly received, and hospitably provided +for. Both Mr. and Mrs. Johnson took a deep and lively interest in +our welfare. They proved themselves quite worthy of the name of +abolitionists. When the stage-driver found us unable to pay our fare, he +held on upon our baggage as security for the debt. I had but to mention +the fact to Mr. Johnson, and he forthwith advanced the money. + +We now began to feel a degree of safety, and to prepare ourselves for +the duties and responsibilities of a life of freedom. On the morning +after our arrival at New Bedford, while at the breakfast-table, the +question arose as to what name I should be called by. The name given me +by my mother was, "Frederick Augustus Washington Bailey." I, however, +had dispensed with the two middle names long before I left Maryland so +that I was generally known by the name of "Frederick Bailey." I started +from Baltimore bearing the name of "Stanley." When I got to New York, I +again changed my name to "Frederick Johnson," and thought that would +be the last change. But when I got to New Bedford, I found it necessary +again to change my name. The reason of this necessity was, that there +were so many Johnsons in New Bedford, it was already quite difficult to +distinguish between them. I gave Mr. Johnson the privilege of +choosing me a name, but told him he must not take from me the name of +"Frederick." I must hold on to that, to preserve a sense of my identity. +Mr. Johnson had just been reading the "Lady of the Lake," and at once +suggested that my name be "Douglass." From that time until now I have +been called "Frederick Douglass;" and as I am more widely known by that +name than by either of the others, I shall continue to use it as my own. + +I was quite disappointed at the general appearance of things in New +Bedford. The impression which I had received respecting the character +and condition of the people of the north, I found to be singularly +erroneous. I had very strangely supposed, while in slavery, that few of +the comforts, and scarcely any of the luxuries, of life were enjoyed at +the north, compared with what were enjoyed by the slaveholders of the +south. I probably came to this conclusion from the fact that northern +people owned no slaves. I supposed that they were about upon a level +with the non-slaveholding population of the south. I knew _they_ were +exceedingly poor, and I had been accustomed to regard their poverty as +the necessary consequence of their being non-slaveholders. I had somehow +imbibed the opinion that, in the absence of slaves, there could be no +wealth, and very little refinement. And upon coming to the north, I +expected to meet with a rough, hard-handed, and uncultivated population, +living in the most Spartan-like simplicity, knowing nothing of the +ease, luxury, pomp, and grandeur of southern slaveholders. Such being my +conjectures, any one acquainted with the appearance of New Bedford may +very readily infer how palpably I must have seen my mistake. + +In the afternoon of the day when I reached New Bedford, I visited the +wharves, to take a view of the shipping. Here I found myself surrounded +with the strongest proofs of wealth. Lying at the wharves, and riding in +the stream, I saw many ships of the finest model, in the best order, and +of the largest size. Upon the right and left, I was walled in by granite +warehouses of the widest dimensions, stowed to their utmost capacity +with the necessaries and comforts of life. Added to this, almost every +body seemed to be at work, but noiselessly so, compared with what I had +been accustomed to in Baltimore. There were no loud songs heard from +those engaged in loading and unloading ships. I heard no deep oaths or +horrid curses on the laborer. I saw no whipping of men; but all seemed +to go smoothly on. Every man appeared to understand his work, and went +at it with a sober, yet cheerful earnestness, which betokened the deep +interest which he felt in what he was doing, as well as a sense of his +own dignity as a man. To me this looked exceedingly strange. From the +wharves I strolled around and over the town, gazing with wonder +and admiration at the splendid churches, beautiful dwellings, and +finely-cultivated gardens; evincing an amount of wealth, comfort, taste, +and refinement, such as I had never seen in any part of slaveholding +Maryland. + +Every thing looked clean, new, and beautiful. I saw few or no +dilapidated houses, with poverty-stricken inmates; no half-naked +children and barefooted women, such as I had been accustomed to see in +Hillsborough, Easton, St. Michael's, and Baltimore. The people looked +more able, stronger, healthier, and happier, than those of Maryland. +I was for once made glad by a view of extreme wealth, without being +saddened by seeing extreme poverty. But the most astonishing as well +as the most interesting thing to me was the condition of the colored +people, a great many of whom, like myself, had escaped thither as a +refuge from the hunters of men. I found many, who had not been seven +years out of their chains, living in finer houses, and evidently +enjoying more of the comforts of life, than the average of slaveholders +in Maryland. I will venture to assert, that my friend Mr. Nathan Johnson +(of whom I can say with a grateful heart, "I was hungry, and he gave me +meat; I was thirsty, and he gave me drink; I was a stranger, and he took +me in") lived in a neater house; dined at a better table; took, paid +for, and read, more newspapers; better understood the moral, religious, +and political character of the nation,--than nine tenths of the +slaveholders in Talbot county Maryland. Yet Mr. Johnson was a working +man. His hands were hardened by toil, and not his alone, but those also +of Mrs. Johnson. I found the colored people much more spirited than +I had supposed they would be. I found among them a determination to +protect each other from the blood-thirsty kidnapper, at all hazards. +Soon after my arrival, I was told of a circumstance which illustrated +their spirit. A colored man and a fugitive slave were on unfriendly +terms. The former was heard to threaten the latter with informing his +master of his whereabouts. Straightway a meeting was called among the +colored people, under the stereotyped notice, "Business of importance!" +The betrayer was invited to attend. The people came at the appointed +hour, and organized the meeting by appointing a very religious old +gentleman as president, who, I believe, made a prayer, after which he +addressed the meeting as follows: "_Friends, we have got him here, and +I would recommend that you young men just take him outside the door, +and kill him!_" With this, a number of them bolted at him; but they were +intercepted by some more timid than themselves, and the betrayer escaped +their vengeance, and has not been seen in New Bedford since. I believe +there have been no more such threats, and should there be hereafter, I +doubt not that death would be the consequence. + +I found employment, the third day after my arrival, in stowing a sloop +with a load of oil. It was new, dirty, and hard work for me; but I went +at it with a glad heart and a willing hand. I was now my own master. It +was a happy moment, the rapture of which can be understood only by those +who have been slaves. It was the first work, the reward of which was to +be entirely my own. There was no Master Hugh standing ready, the moment +I earned the money, to rob me of it. I worked that day with a pleasure I +had never before experienced. I was at work for myself and newly-married +wife. It was to me the starting-point of a new existence. When I got +through with that job, I went in pursuit of a job of calking; but such +was the strength of prejudice against color, among the white calkers, +that they refused to work with me, and of course I could get no +employment.* + + + * I am told that colored persons can now get employment at + calking in New Bedford—a result of anti-slavery effort. + +Finding my trade of no immediate benefit, I threw off my calking +habiliments, and prepared myself to do any kind of work I could get to +do. Mr. Johnson kindly let me have his wood-horse and saw, and I very +soon found myself a plenty of work. There was no work too hard--none +too dirty. I was ready to saw wood, shovel coal, carry wood, sweep the +chimney, or roll oil casks,--all of which I did for nearly three years in +New Bedford, before I became known to the anti-slavery world. + +In about four months after I went to New Bedford, there came a young man +to me, and inquired if I did not wish to take the "Liberator." I told +him I did; but, just having made my escape from slavery, I remarked that +I was unable to pay for it then. I, however, finally became a subscriber +to it. The paper came, and I read it from week to week with such +feelings as it would be quite idle for me to attempt to describe. The +paper became my meat and my drink. My soul was set all on fire. +Its sympathy for my brethren in bonds--its scathing denunciations of +slaveholders--its faithful exposures of slavery--and its powerful attacks +upon the upholders of the institution--sent a thrill of joy through my +soul, such as I had never felt before! + +I had not long been a reader of the "Liberator," before I got a pretty +correct idea of the principles, measures and spirit of the anti-slavery +reform. I took right hold of the cause. I could do but little; but what +I could, I did with a joyful heart, and never felt happier than when +in an anti-slavery meeting. I seldom had much to say at the meetings, +because what I wanted to say was said so much better by others. But, +while attending an anti-slavery convention at Nantucket, on the 11th of +August, 1841, I felt strongly moved to speak, and was at the same time +much urged to do so by Mr. William C. Coffin, a gentleman who had heard +me speak in the colored people's meeting at New Bedford. It was a severe +cross, and I took it up reluctantly. The truth was, I felt myself a +slave, and the idea of speaking to white people weighed me down. I spoke +but a few moments, when I felt a degree of freedom, and said what I +desired with considerable ease. From that time until now, I have been +engaged in pleading the cause of my brethren--with what success, and with +what devotion, I leave those acquainted with my labors to decide. + + + + + + +APPENDIX + +I find, since reading over the foregoing Narrative, that I have, +in several instances, spoken in such a tone and manner, respecting +religion, as may possibly lead those unacquainted with my religious +views to suppose me an opponent of all religion. To remove the liability +of such misapprehension, I deem it proper to append the following brief +explanation. What I have said respecting and against religion, I mean +strictly to apply to the _slaveholding religion_ of this land, and +with no possible reference to Christianity proper; for, between the +Christianity of this land, and the Christianity of Christ, I recognize +the widest possible difference--so wide, that to receive the one as good, +pure, and holy, is of necessity to reject the other as bad, corrupt, and +wicked. To be the friend of the one, is of necessity to be the enemy +of the other. I love the pure, peaceable, and impartial Christianity +of Christ: I therefore hate the corrupt, slaveholding, women-whipping, +cradle-plundering, partial and hypocritical Christianity of this land. +Indeed, I can see no reason, but the most deceitful one, for calling the +religion of this land Christianity. I look upon it as the climax of all +misnomers, the boldest of all frauds, and the grossest of all libels. +Never was there a clearer case of "stealing the livery of the court of +heaven to serve the devil in." I am filled with unutterable loathing +when I contemplate the religious pomp and show, together with the +horrible inconsistencies, which every where surround me. We have +men-stealers for ministers, women-whippers for missionaries, +and cradle-plunderers for church members. The man who wields the +blood-clotted cowskin during the week fills the pulpit on Sunday, and +claims to be a minister of the meek and lowly Jesus. The man who robs +me of my earnings at the end of each week meets me as a class-leader on +Sunday morning, to show me the way of life, and the path of salvation. +He who sells my sister, for purposes of prostitution, stands forth as +the pious advocate of purity. He who proclaims it a religious duty to +read the Bible denies me the right of learning to read the name of the +God who made me. He who is the religious advocate of marriage robs whole +millions of its sacred influence, and leaves them to the ravages of +wholesale pollution. The warm defender of the sacredness of the family +relation is the same that scatters whole families,--sundering husbands +and wives, parents and children, sisters and brothers,--leaving the hut +vacant, and the hearth desolate. We see the thief preaching against +theft, and the adulterer against adultery. We have men sold to build +churches, women sold to support the gospel, and babes sold to purchase +Bibles for the _Poor Heathen! All For The Glory Of God And The Good Of +Souls!_ The slave auctioneer's bell and the church-going bell chime +in with each other, and the bitter cries of the heart-broken slave +are drowned in the religious shouts of his pious master. Revivals of +religion and revivals in the slave-trade go hand in hand together. +The slave prison and the church stand near each other. The clanking of +fetters and the rattling of chains in the prison, and the pious psalm +and solemn prayer in the church, may be heard at the same time. The +dealers in the bodies and souls of men erect their stand in the presence +of the pulpit, and they mutually help each other. The dealer gives his +blood-stained gold to support the pulpit, and the pulpit, in return, +covers his infernal business with the garb of Christianity. Here we have +religion and robbery the allies of each other--devils dressed in angels' +robes, and hell presenting the semblance of paradise. + + + "Just God! and these are they, + Who minister at thine altar, God of right! + Men who their hands, with prayer and blessing, lay + On Israel's ark of light. + + "What! preach, and kidnap men? + Give thanks, and rob thy own afflicted poor? + Talk of thy glorious liberty, and then + Bolt hard the captive's door? + + "What! servants of thy own + Merciful Son, who came to seek and save + The homeless and the outcast, fettering down + The tasked and plundered slave! + + "Pilate and Herod friends! + Chief priests and rulers, as of old, combine! + Just God and holy! is that church which lends + Strength to the spoiler thine?" + +The Christianity of America is a Christianity, of whose votaries it may +be as truly said, as it was of the ancient scribes and Pharisees, "They +bind heavy burdens, and grievous to be borne, and lay them on men's +shoulders, but they themselves will not move them with one of their +fingers. All their works they do for to be seen of men.--They love the +uppermost rooms at feasts, and the chief seats in the synagogues, . . . +. . . and to be called of men, Rabbi, Rabbi.--But woe unto you, scribes +and Pharisees, hypocrites! for ye shut up the kingdom of heaven against +men; for ye neither go in yourselves, neither suffer ye them that are +entering to go in. Ye devour widows' houses, and for a pretence make +long prayers; therefore ye shall receive the greater damnation. Ye +compass sea and land to make one proselyte, and when he is made, ye +make him twofold more the child of hell than yourselves.--Woe unto you, +scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! for ye pay tithe of mint, and anise, +and cumin, and have omitted the weightier matters of the law, judgment, +mercy, and faith; these ought ye to have done, and not to leave the +other undone. Ye blind guides! which strain at a gnat, and swallow a +camel. Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! for ye make +clean the outside of the cup and of the platter; but within, they are +full of extortion and excess.--Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, +hypocrites! for ye are like unto whited sepulchres, which indeed appear +beautiful outward, but are within full of dead men's bones, and of all +uncleanness. Even so ye also outwardly appear righteous unto men, but +within ye are full of hypocrisy and iniquity." + +Dark and terrible as is this picture, I hold it to be strictly true of +the overwhelming mass of professed Christians in America. They strain +at a gnat, and swallow a camel. Could any thing be more true of our +churches? They would be shocked at the proposition of fellowshipping +a _sheep_-stealer; and at the same time they hug to their communion a +_man_-stealer, and brand me with being an infidel, if I find fault with +them for it. They attend with Pharisaical strictness to the outward +forms of religion, and at the same time neglect the weightier matters of +the law, judgment, mercy, and faith. They are always ready to sacrifice, +but seldom to show mercy. They are they who are represented as +professing to love God whom they have not seen, whilst they hate their +brother whom they have seen. They love the heathen on the other side of +the globe. They can pray for him, pay money to have the Bible put into +his hand, and missionaries to instruct him; while they despise and +totally neglect the heathen at their own doors. + +Such is, very briefly, my view of the religion of this land; and to +avoid any misunderstanding, growing out of the use of general terms, I +mean by the religion of this land, that which is revealed in the words, +deeds, and actions, of those bodies, north and south, calling themselves +Christian churches, and yet in union with slaveholders. It is against +religion, as presented by these bodies, that I have felt it my duty to +testify. + +I conclude these remarks by copying the following portrait of the +religion of the south, (which is, by communion and fellowship, the +religion of the north,) which I soberly affirm is "true to the life," +and without caricature or the slightest exaggeration. It is said to +have been drawn, several years before the present anti-slavery agitation +began, by a northern Methodist preacher, who, while residing at the +south, had an opportunity to see slaveholding morals, manners, and +piety, with his own eyes. "Shall I not visit for these things? saith the +Lord. Shall not my soul be avenged on such a nation as this?" + + + + + <b>A PARODY</b> + + "Come, saints and sinners, hear me tell + How pious priests whip Jack and Nell, + And women buy and children sell, + And preach all sinners down to hell, + And sing of heavenly union. + + "They'll bleat and baa, dona like goats, + Gorge down black sheep, and strain at motes, + Array their backs in fine black coats, + Then seize their negroes by their throats, + And choke, for heavenly union. + + "They'll church you if you sip a dram, + And damn you if you steal a lamb; + Yet rob old Tony, Doll, and Sam, + Of human rights, and bread and ham; + Kidnapper's heavenly union. + + "They'll loudly talk of Christ's reward, + And bind his image with a cord, + And scold, and swing the lash abhorred, + And sell their brother in the Lord + To handcuffed heavenly union. + + "They'll read and sing a sacred song, + And make a prayer both loud and long, + And teach the right and do the wrong, + Hailing the brother, sister throng, + With words of heavenly union. + + "We wonder how such saints can sing, + Or praise the Lord upon the wing, + Who roar, and scold, and whip, and sting, + And to their slaves and mammon cling, + In guilty conscience union. + + "They'll raise tobacco, corn, and rye, + And drive, and thieve, and cheat, and lie, + And lay up treasures in the sky, + By making switch and cowskin fly, + In hope of heavenly union. + + "They'll crack old Tony on the skull, + And preach and roar like Bashan bull, + Or braying ass, of mischief full, + Then seize old Jacob by the wool, + And pull for heavenly union. + + "A roaring, ranting, sleek man-thief, + Who lived on mutton, veal, and beef, + Yet never would afford relief + To needy, sable sons of grief, + Was big with heavenly union. + + "'Love not the world,' the preacher said, + And winked his eye, and shook his head; + He seized on Tom, and Dick, and Ned, + Cut short their meat, and clothes, and bread, + Yet still loved heavenly union. + + "Another preacher whining spoke + Of One whose heart for sinners broke: + He tied old Nanny to an oak, + And drew the blood at every stroke, + And prayed for heavenly union. + + "Two others oped their iron jaws, + And waved their children-stealing paws; + There sat their children in gewgaws; + By stinting negroes' backs and maws, + They kept up heavenly union. + + "All good from Jack another takes, + And entertains their flirts and rakes, + Who dress as sleek as glossy snakes, + And cram their mouths with sweetened cakes; + And this goes down for union." + +Sincerely and earnestly hoping that this little book may do something +toward throwing light on the American slave system, and hastening +the glad day of deliverance to the millions of my brethren in +bonds--faithfully relying upon the power of truth, love, and justice, for +success in my humble efforts--and solemnly pledging my self anew to the +sacred cause,--I subscribe myself, + +FREDERICK DOUGLASS. 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FOR PUBLIC DOMAIN ETEXTS*Ver.03.08.92*END* + + +The Narrative of the Life of Frederick Douglass + An American Slave + +This electronic book is being released at this time +to honor the birthday of Martin Luther King Jr. +[Born January 15, 1929] +[Officially celebrated January 20, 1992] + + + + + + + NARRATIVE + + OF THE + + LIFE + + OF + + FREDERICK DOUGLASS, + + AN + + AMERICAN SLAVE. + + + --------------- + WRITTEN BY HIMSELF. + --------------- + + + BOSTON + PUBLISHED AT THE ANTI-SLAVERY OFFICE, + NO. 25 CORNHILL + 1845 + + NARRATIVE + OF THE LIFE OF + FREDERICK DOUGLASS, + AN AMERICAN SLAVE + + WRITTEN BY HIMSELF + + + + ENTERED, ACCORDING TO ACT OF CONGRESS, + IN THE YEAR 1845 + BY FREDERICK DOUGLASS, + IN THE CLERK'S OFFICE OF THE DISTRICT COURT + OF MASSACHUSETTS. + + + PREFACE + + + In the month of August, 1841, I attended an anti- +slavery convention in Nantucket, at which it was +my happiness to become acquainted with FREDERICK +DOUGLASS, the writer of the following Narrative. He +was a stranger to nearly every member of that body; +but, having recently made his escape from the south- +ern prison-house of bondage, and feeling his curiosity +excited to ascertain the principles and measures of +the abolitionists,--of whom he had heard a somewhat +vague description while he was a slave,--he was in- +duced to give his attendance, on the occasion al- +luded to, though at that time a resident in New +Bedford. + + Fortunate, most fortunate occurrence!--fortunate +for the millions of his manacled brethren, yet pant- +ing for deliverance from their awful thraldom!--for- +tunate for the cause of negro emancipation, and of +universal liberty!--fortunate for the land of his birth, +which he has already done so much to save and bless! +--fortunate for a large circle of friends and acquaint- +ances, whose sympathy and affection he has strongly +secured by the many sufferings he has endured, by +his virtuous traits of character, by his ever-abiding +remembrance of those who are in bonds, as being +bound with them!--fortunate for the multitudes, in +various parts of our republic, whose minds he has +enlightened on the subject of slavery, and who have +been melted to tears by his pathos, or roused to +virtuous indignation by his stirring eloquence against +the enslavers of men!--fortunate for himself, as +it at once brought him into the field of public use- +fulness, "gave the world assurance of a MAN," quick- +ened the slumbering energies of his soul, and con- +secrated him to the great work of breaking the rod +of the oppressor, and letting the oppressed go free! + + I shall never forget his first speech at the conven- +tion--the extraordinary emotion it excited in my own +mind--the powerful impression it created upon a +crowded auditory, completely taken by surprise--the +applause which followed from the beginning to the +end of his felicitous remarks. I think I never hated +slavery so intensely as at that moment; certainly, my +perception of the enormous outrage which is in- +flicted by it, on the godlike nature of its victims, was +rendered far more clear than ever. There stood one, +in physical proportion and stature commanding and +exact--in intellect richly endowed--in natural elo- +quence a prodigy--in soul manifestly "created but a +little lower than the angels"--yet a slave, ay, a fugi- +tive slave,--trembling for his safety, hardly daring to +believe that on the American soil, a single white +person could be found who would befriend him at +all hazards, for the love of God and humanity! Ca- +pable of high attainments as an intellectual and +moral being--needing nothing but a comparatively +small amount of cultivation to make him an orna- +ment to society and a blessing to his race--by the law +of the land, by the voice of the people, by the terms +of the slave code, he was only a piece of property, a +beast of burden, a chattel personal, nevertheless! + + A beloved friend from New Bedford prevailed on +Mr. DOUGLASS to address the convention: He came +forward to the platform with a hesitancy and embar- +rassment, necessarily the attendants of a sensitive +mind in such a novel position. After apologizing for +his ignorance, and reminding the audience that slav- +ery was a poor school for the human intellect and +heart, he proceeded to narrate some of the facts in +his own history as a slave, and in the course of his +speech gave utterance to many noble thoughts and +thrilling reflections. As soon as he had taken his +seat, filled with hope and admiration, I rose, and +declared that PATRICK HENRY, of revolutionary fame, +never made a speech more eloquent in the cause of +liberty, than the one we had just listened to from +the lips of that hunted fugitive. So I believed at +that time--such is my belief now. I reminded the +audience of the peril which surrounded this self- +emancipated young man at the North,--even in Mas- +sachusetts, on the soil of the Pilgrim Fathers, among +the descendants of revolutionary sires; and I ap- +pealed to them, whether they would ever allow him +to be carried back into slavery,--law or no law, con- +stitution or no constitution. The response was unani- +mous and in thunder-tones--"NO!" "Will you succor +and protect him as a brother-man--a resident of the +old Bay State?" "YES!" shouted the whole mass, +with an energy so startling, that the ruthless tyrants +south of Mason and Dixon's line might almost have +heard the mighty burst of feeling, and recognized +it as the pledge of an invincible determination, on +the part of those who gave it, never to betray him +that wanders, but to hide the outcast, and firmly to +abide the consequences. + + It was at once deeply impressed upon my mind, +that, if Mr. DOUGLASS could be persuaded to conse- +crate his time and talents to the promotion of the +anti-slavery enterprise, a powerful impetus would +be given to it, and a stunning blow at the same time +inflicted on northern prejudice against a colored +complexion. I therefore endeavored to instil hope +and courage into his mind, in order that he might +dare to engage in a vocation so anomalous and re- +sponsible for a person in his situation; and I was +seconded in this effort by warm-hearted friends, es- +pecially by the late General Agent of the Massa- +chusetts Anti-Slavery Society, Mr. JOHN A. COLLINS, +whose judgment in this instance entirely coincided +with my own. At first, he could give no encourage- +ment; with unfeigned diffidence, he expressed his +conviction that he was not adequate to the perform- +ance of so great a task; the path marked out was +wholly an untrodden one; he was sincerely appre- +hensive that he should do more harm than good. +After much deliberation, however, he consented to +make a trial; and ever since that period, he has acted +as a lecturing agent, under the auspices either of the +American or the Massachusetts Anti-Slavery Society. +In labors he has been most abundant; and his success +in combating prejudice, in gaining proselytes, in agi- +tating the public mind, has far surpassed the most +sanguine expectations that were raised at the com- +mencement of his brilliant career. He has borne him- +self with gentleness and meekness, yet with true +manliness of character. As a public speaker, he excels +in pathos, wit, comparison, imitation, strength of +reasoning, and fluency of language. There is in him +that union of head and heart, which is indispensable +to an enlightenment of the heads and a winning of +the hearts of others. May his strength continue to +be equal to his day! May he continue to "grow in +grace, and in the knowledge of God," that he may +be increasingly serviceable in the cause of bleeding +humanity, whether at home or abroad! + + It is certainly a very remarkable fact, that one of +the most efficient advocates of the slave population, +now before the public, is a fugitive slave, in the +person of FREDERICK DOUGLASS; and that the free +colored population of the United States are as ably +represented by one of their own number, in the per- +son of CHARLES LENOX REMOND, whose eloquent +appeals have extorted the highest applause of multi- +tudes on both sides of the Atlantic. Let the calum- +niators of the colored race despise themselves for +their baseness and illiberality of spirit, and hence- +forth cease to talk of the natural inferiority of those +who require nothing but time and opportunity to +attain to the highest point of human excellence. + + It may, perhaps, be fairly questioned, whether any +other portion of the population of the earth could +have endured the privations, sufferings and horrors +of slavery, without having become more degraded +in the scale of humanity than the slaves of African +descent. Nothing has been left undone to cripple +their intellects, darken their minds, debase their +moral nature, obliterate all traces of their relation- +ship to mankind; and yet how wonderfully they have +sustained the mighty load of a most frightful bond- +age, under which they have been groaning for cen- +turies! To illustrate the effect of slavery on the white +man,--to show that he has no powers of endurance, +in such a condition, superior to those of his black +brother,--DANIEL O'CONNELL, the distinguished +advocate of universal emancipation, and the mighti- +est champion of prostrate but not conquered Ireland, +relates the following anecdote in a speech delivered +by him in the Conciliation Hall, Dublin, before the +Loyal National Repeal Association, March 31, 1845. +"No matter," said Mr. O'CONNELL, "under what +specious term it may disguise itself, slavery is still +hideous. ~It has a natural, an inevitable tendency to +brutalize every noble faculty of man.~ An American +sailor, who was cast away on the shore of Africa, +where he was kept in slavery for three years, was, at +the expiration of that period, found to be imbruted +and stultified--he had lost all reasoning power; and +having forgotten his native language, could only ut- +ter some savage gibberish between Arabic and Eng- +lish, which nobody could understand, and which +even he himself found difficulty in pronouncing. So +much for the humanizing influence of THE DOMESTIC +INSTITUTION!" Admitting this to have been an ex- +traordinary case of mental deterioration, it proves at +least that the white slave can sink as low in the +scale of humanity as the black one. + + Mr. DOUGLASS has very properly chosen to write +his own Narrative, in his own style, and according +to the best of his ability, rather than to employ some +one else. It is, therefore, entirely his own produc- +tion; and, considering how long and dark was the ca- +reer he had to run as a slave,--how few have been his +opportunities to improve his mind since he broke his +iron fetters,--it is, in my judgment, highly creditable +to his head and heart. He who can peruse it without +a tearful eye, a heaving breast, an afflicted spirit,-- +without being filled with an unutterable abhorrence +of slavery and all its abettors, and animated with a +determination to seek the immediate overthrow of +that execrable system,--without trembling for the +fate of this country in the hands of a righteous God, +who is ever on the side of the oppressed, and whose +arm is not shortened that it cannot save,--must have +a flinty heart, and be qualified to act the part of a +trafficker "in slaves and the souls of men." I am con- +fident that it is essentially true in all its statements; +that nothing has been set down in malice, nothing +exaggerated, nothing drawn from the imagination; +that it comes short of the reality, rather than over- +states a single fact in regard to SLAVERY AS IT IS. +The experience of FREDERICK DOUGLASS, as a slave, +was not a peculiar one; his lot was not especially +a hard one; his case may be regarded as a very fair +specimen of the treatment of slaves in Maryland, in +which State it is conceded that they are better fed +and less cruelly treated than in Georgia, Alabama, +or Louisiana. Many have suffered incomparably +more, while very few on the plantations have suf- +fered less, than himself. Yet how deplorable was his +situation! what terrible chastisements were inflicted +upon his person! what still more shocking outrages +were perpetrated upon his mind! with all his noble +powers and sublime aspirations, how like a brute +was he treated, even by those professing to have the +same mind in them that was in Christ Jesus! to what +dreadful liabilities was he continually subjected! how +destitute of friendly counsel and aid, even in his +greatest extremities! how heavy was the midnight of +woe which shrouded in blackness the last ray of hope, +and filled the future with terror and gloom! what +longings after freedom took possession of his breast, +and how his misery augmented, in proportion as he +grew reflective and intelligent,--thus demonstrating +that a happy slave is an extinct man! how he +thought, reasoned, felt, under the lash of the driver, +with the chains upon his limbs! what perils he en- +countered in his endeavors to escape from his hor- +rible doom! and how signal have been his deliverance +and preservation in the midst of a nation of pitiless +enemies! + + This Narrative contains many affecting incidents, +many passages of great eloquence and power; but I +think the most thrilling one of them all is the de- +scription DOUGLASS gives of his feelings, as he stood +soliloquizing respecting his fate, and the chances of +his one day being a freeman, on the banks of the +Chesapeake Bay--viewing the receding vessels as they +flew with their white wings before the breeze, and +apostrophizing them as animated by the living spirit +of freedom. Who can read that passage, and be in- +sensible to its pathos and sublimity? Compressed +into it is a whole Alexandrian library of thought, +feeling, and sentiment--all that can, all that need be +urged, in the form of expostulation, entreaty, rebuke, +against that crime of crimes,--making man the prop- +erty of his fellow-man! O, how accursed is that +system, which entombs the godlike mind of man, +defaces the divine image, reduces those who by crea- +tion were crowned with glory and honor to a level +with four-footed beasts, and exalts the dealer in hu- +man flesh above all that is called God! Why should +its existence be prolonged one hour? Is it not evil, +only evil, and that continually? What does its pres- +ence imply but the absence of all fear of God, all +regard for man, on the part of the people of the +United States? Heaven speed its eternal overthrow! + + So profoundly ignorant of the nature of slavery +are many persons, that they are stubbornly incredu- +lous whenever they read or listen to any recital of +the cruelties which are daily inflicted on its victims. +They do not deny that the slaves are held as prop- +erty; but that terrible fact seems to convey to their +minds no idea of injustice, exposure to outrage, or +savage barbarity. Tell them of cruel scourgings, of +mutilations and brandings, of scenes of pollution +and blood, of the banishment of all light and knowl- +edge, and they affect to be greatly indignant at such +enormous exaggerations, such wholesale misstate- +ments, such abominable libels on the character of +the southern planters! As if all these direful outrages +were not the natural results of slavery! As if it were +less cruel to reduce a human being to the condition +of a thing, than to give him a severe flagellation, +or to deprive him of necessary food and clothing! +As if whips, chains, thumb-screws, paddles, blood- +hounds, overseers, drivers, patrols, were not all in- +dispensable to keep the slaves down, and to give +protection to their ruthless oppressors! As if, when +the marriage institution is abolished, concubinage, +adultery, and incest, must not necessarily abound; +when all the rights of humanity are annihilated, any +barrier remains to protect the victim from the fury +of the spoiler; when absolute power is assumed over +life and liberty, it will not be wielded with destruc- +tive sway! Skeptics of this character abound in so- +ciety. In some few instances, their incredulity arises +from a want of reflection; but, generally, it indicates +a hatred of the light, a desire to shield slavery from +the assaults of its foes, a contempt of the colored +race, whether bond or free. Such will try to discredit +the shocking tales of slaveholding cruelty which are +recorded in this truthful Narrative; but they will +labor in vain. Mr. DOUGLASS has frankly disclosed +the place of his birth, the names of those who +claimed ownership in his body and soul, and the +names also of those who committed the crimes which +he has alleged against them. His statements, there- +fore, may easily be disproved, if they are untrue. + + In the course of his Narrative, he relates two in- +stances of murderous cruelty,--in one of which a +planter deliberately shot a slave belonging to a neigh- +boring plantation, who had unintentionally gotten +within his lordly domain in quest of fish; and in the +other, an overseer blew out the brains of a slave who +had fled to a stream of water to escape a bloody +scourging. Mr. DOUGLASS states that in neither of +these instances was any thing done by way of legal +arrest or judicial investigation. The Baltimore Amer- +ican, of March 17, 1845, relates a similar case of +atrocity, perpetrated with similar impunity--as fol- +lows:--"~Shooting a slave.~--We learn, upon the au- +thority of a letter from Charles county, Maryland, +received by a gentleman of this city, that a young +man, named Matthews, a nephew of General Mat- +thews, and whose father, it is believed, holds an of- +fice at Washington, killed one of the slaves upon his +father's farm by shooting him. The letter states that +young Matthews had been left in charge of the farm; +that he gave an order to the servant, which was dis- +obeyed, when he proceeded to the house, ~obtained +a gun, and, returning, shot the servant.~ He immedi- +ately, the letter continues, fled to his father's resi- +dence, where he still remains unmolested."--Let it +never be forgotten, that no slaveholder or overseer +can be convicted of any outrage perpetrated on the +person of a slave, however diabolical it may be, on +the testimony of colored witnesses, whether bond +or free. By the slave code, they are adjudged to be +as incompetent to testify against a white man, as +though they were indeed a part of the brute creation. +Hence, there is no legal protection in fact, whatever +there may be in form, for the slave population; and +any amount of cruelty may be inflicted on them +with impunity. Is it possible for the human mind +to conceive of a more horrible state of society? + + The effect of a religious profession on the conduct +of southern masters is vividly described in the fol- +lowing Narrative, and shown to be any thing but +salutary. In the nature of the case, it must be in +the highest degree pernicious. The testimony of Mr. +DOUGLASS, on this point, is sustained by a cloud of +witnesses, whose veracity is unimpeachable. "A slave- +holder's profession of Christianity is a palpable im- +posture. He is a felon of the highest grade. He is a +man-stealer. It is of no importance what you put in +the other scale." + + Reader! are you with the man-stealers in sympathy +and purpose, or on the side of their down-trodden +victims? If with the former, then are you the foe of +God and man. If with the latter, what are you pre- +pared to do and dare in their behalf? Be faithful, +be vigilant, be untiring in your efforts to break every +yoke, and let the oppressed go free. Come what may +--cost what it may--inscribe on the banner which +you unfurl to the breeze, as your religious and po- +litical motto--"NO COMPROMISE WITH SLAVERY! NO +UNION WITH SLAVEHOLDERS!" + + WM. LLOYD GARRISON +BOSTON, ~May~ 1, 1845. + + + LETTER + + FROM WENDELL PHILLIPS, ESQ. + + + BOSTON, APRIL 22, 1845. + + My Dear Friend: + + You remember the old fable of "The Man and +the Lion," where the lion complained that he should +not be so misrepresented "when the lions wrote his- +tory." + + I am glad the time has come when the "lions +write history." We have been left long enough to +gather the character of slavery from the involuntary +evidence of the masters. One might, indeed, rest +sufficiently satisfied with what, it is evident, must +be, in general, the results of such a relation, with- +out seeking farther to find whether they have fol- +lowed in every instance. Indeed, those who stare at +the half-peck of corn a week, and love to count the +lashes on the slave's back, are seldom the "stuff" out +of which reformers and abolitionists are to be made. +I remember that, in 1838, many were waiting for +the results of the West India experiment, before +they could come into our ranks. Those "results" have +come long ago; but, alas! few of that number have +come with them, as converts. A man must be dis- +posed to judge of emancipation by other tests than +whether it has increased the produce of sugar,--and +to hate slavery for other reasons than because it +starves men and whips women,--before he is ready +to lay the first stone of his anti-slavery life. + + I was glad to learn, in your story, how early the +most neglected of God's children waken to a sense +of their rights, and of the injustice done them. Ex- +perience is a keen teacher; and long before you had +mastered your A B C, or knew where the "white +sails" of the Chesapeake were bound, you began, I +see, to gauge the wretchedness of the slave, not by +his hunger and want, not by his lashes and toil, but +by the cruel and blighting death which gathers over +his soul. + + In connection with this, there is one circumstance +which makes your recollections peculiarly valuable, +and renders your early insight the more remarkable. +You come from that part of the country where we +are told slavery appears with its fairest features. Let +us hear, then, what it is at its best estate--gaze on +its bright side, if it has one; and then imagination +may task her powers to add dark lines to the picture, +as she travels southward to that (for the colored +man) Valley of the Shadow of Death, where the +Mississippi sweeps along. + + Again, we have known you long, and can put the +most entire confidence in your truth, candor, and +sincerity. Every one who has heard you speak has +felt, and, I am confident, every one who reads your +book will feel, persuaded that you give them a fair +specimen of the whole truth. No one-sided portrait, +--no wholesale complaints,--but strict justice done, +whenever individual kindliness has neutralized, for +a moment, the deadly system with which it was +strangely allied. You have been with us, too, some +years, and can fairly compare the twilight of rights, +which your race enjoy at the North, with that "noon +of night" under which they labor south of Mason +and Dixon's line. Tell us whether, after all, the half- +free colored man of Massachusetts is worse off than +the pampered slave of the rice swamps! + + In reading your life, no one can say that we have +unfairly picked out some rare specimens of cruelty. +We know that the bitter drops, which even you have +drained from the cup, are no incidental aggravations, +no individual ills, but such as must mingle always +and necessarily in the lot of every slave. They are the +essential ingredients, not the occasional results, of +the system. + + After all, I shall read your book with trembling +for you. Some years ago, when you were beginning +to tell me your real name and birthplace, you may +remember I stopped you, and preferred to remain +ignorant of all. With the exception of a vague de- +scription, so I continued, till the other day, when +you read me your memoirs. I hardly knew, at the +time, whether to thank you or not for the sight of +them, when I reflected that it was still dangerous, +in Massachusetts, for honest men to tell their names! +They say the fathers, in 1776, signed the Declaration +of Independence with the halter about their necks. +You, too, publish your declaration of freedom with +danger compassing you around. In all the broad lands +which the Constitution of the United States over- +shadows, there is no single spot,--however narrow or +desolate,--where a fugitive slave can plant himself +and say, "I am safe." The whole armory of North- +ern Law has no shield for you. I am free to say that, +in your place, I should throw the MS. into the fire. + + You, perhaps, may tell your story in safety, en- +deared as you are to so many warm hearts by rare +gifts, and a still rarer devotion of them to the service +of others. But it will be owing only to your labors, +and the fearless efforts of those who, trampling the +laws and Constitution of the country under their +feet, are determined that they will "hide the out- +cast," and that their hearths shall be, spite of the +law, an asylum for the oppressed, if, some time or +other, the humblest may stand in our streets, and +bear witness in safety against the cruelties of which +he has been the victim. + + Yet it is sad to think, that these very throbbing +hearts which welcome your story, and form your best +safeguard in telling it, are all beating contrary to the +"statute in such case made and provided." Go on, +my dear friend, till you, and those who, like you, +have been saved, so as by fire, from the dark prison- +house, shall stereotype these free, illegal pulses into +statutes; and New England, cutting loose from a +blood-stained Union, shall glory in being the house +of refuge for the oppressed,--till we no longer merely +"~hide~ the outcast," or make a merit of standing idly +by while he is hunted in our midst; but, consecrat- +ing anew the soil of the Pilgrims as an asylum for the +oppressed, proclaim our WELCOME to the slave so +loudly, that the tones shall reach every hut in the +Carolinas, and make the broken-hearted bondman +leap up at the thought of old Massachusetts. + + God speed the day! + + ~Till then, and ever,~ + ~Yours truly,~ + ~WENDELL PHILLIPS~ + + FREDERICK DOUGLASS. + + + Frederick Douglass was born in slavery as Fred- +erick Augustus Washington Bailey near Easton in +Talbot County, Maryland. He was not sure of the +exact year of his birth, but he knew that it was 1817 +or 1818. As a young boy he was sent to Baltimore, +to be a house servant, where he learned to read and +write, with the assistance of his master's wife. In +1838 he escaped from slavery and went to New York +City, where he married Anna Murray, a free colored +woman whom he had met in Baltimore. Soon there- +after he changed his name to Frederick Douglass. +In 1841 he addressed a convention of the Massa- +chusetts Anti-Slavery Society in Nantucket and so +greatly impressed the group that they immediately +employed him as an agent. He was such an impres- +sive orator that numerous persons doubted if he had +ever been a slave, so he wrote NARRATIVE OF THE LIFE +OF FREDERICK DOUGLASS. During the Civil War he as- +sisted in the recruiting of colored men for the 54th +and 55th Massachusetts Regiments and consistently +argued for the emancipation of slaves. After the war +he was active in securing and protecting the rights +of the freemen. In his later years, at different times, +he was secretary of the Santo Domingo Commission, +marshall and recorder of deeds of the District of +Columbia, and United States Minister to Haiti. His +other autobiographical works are MY BONDAGE AND +MY FREEDOM and LIFE AND TIMES OF FREDERICK +DOUGLASS, published in 1855 and 1881 respectively. +He died in 1895. + + + + CHAPTER I + + + I was born in Tuckahoe, near Hillsborough, and +about twelve miles from Easton, in Talbot county, +Maryland. I have no accurate knowledge of my age, +never having seen any authentic record containing it. +By far the larger part of the slaves know as little of +their ages as horses know of theirs, and it is the wish +of most masters within my knowledge to keep their +slaves thus ignorant. I do not remember to have ever +met a slave who could tell of his birthday. They +seldom come nearer to it than planting-time, harvest- +time, cherry-time, spring-time, or fall-time. A want +of information concerning my own was a source of +unhappiness to me even during childhood. The white +children could tell their ages. I could not tell why I +ought to be deprived of the same privilege. I was +not allowed to make any inquiries of my master con- +cerning it. He deemed all such inquiries on the part +of a slave improper and impertinent, and evidence +of a restless spirit. The nearest estimate I can give +makes me now between twenty-seven and twenty- +eight years of age. I come to this, from hearing my +master say, some time during 1835, I was about +seventeen years old. + + My mother was named Harriet Bailey. She was +the daughter of Isaac and Betsey Bailey, both col- +ored, and quite dark. My mother was of a darker +complexion than either my grandmother or grand- +father. + + My father was a white man. He was admitted to +be such by all I ever heard speak of my parentage. +The opinion was also whispered that my master was +my father; but of the correctness of this opinion, I +know nothing; the means of knowing was withheld +from me. My mother and I were separated when I +was but an infant--before I knew her as my mother. +It is a common custom, in the part of Maryland +from which I ran away, to part children from their +mothers at a very early age. Frequently, before the +child has reached its twelfth month, its mother is +taken from it, and hired out on some farm a con- +siderable distance off, and the child is placed under +the care of an old woman, too old for field labor. +For what this separation is done, I do not know, +unless it be to hinder the development of the child's +affection toward its mother, and to blunt and destroy +the natural affection of the mother for the child. +This is the inevitable result. + + I never saw my mother, to know her as such, more +than four or five times in my life; and each of these +times was very short in duration, and at night. She +was hired by a Mr. Stewart, who lived about twelve +miles from my home. She made her journeys to see +me in the night, travelling the whole distance on +foot, after the performance of her day's work. She +was a field hand, and a whipping is the penalty of +not being in the field at sunrise, unless a slave has +special permission from his or her master to the con- +trary--a permission which they seldom get, and one +that gives to him that gives it the proud name of +being a kind master. I do not recollect of ever seeing +my mother by the light of day. She was with me in +the night. She would lie down with me, and get me +to sleep, but long before I waked she was gone. Very +little communication ever took place between us. +Death soon ended what little we could have while +she lived, and with it her hardships and suffering. +She died when I was about seven years old, on one +of my master's farms, near Lee's Mill. I was not al- +lowed to be present during her illness, at her death, +or burial. She was gone long before I knew any thing +about it. Never having enjoyed, to any considerable +extent, her soothing presence, her tender and watch- +ful care, I received the tidings of her death with +much the same emotions I should have probably +felt at the death of a stranger. + + Called thus suddenly away, she left me without +the slightest intimation of who my father was. The +whisper that my master was my father, may or may +not be true; and, true or false, it is of but little con- +sequence to my purpose whilst the fact remains, +in all its glaring odiousness, that slaveholders have +ordained, and by law established, that the children +of slave women shall in all cases follow the condi- +tion of their mothers; and this is done too obviously +to administer to their own lusts, and make a grati- +fication of their wicked desires profitable as well as +pleasurable; for by this cunning arrangement, the +slaveholder, in cases not a few, sustains to his slaves +the double relation of master and father. + + I know of such cases; and it is worthy of remark +that such slaves invariably suffer greater hardships, +and have more to contend with, than others. They +are, in the first place, a constant offence to their +mistress. She is ever disposed to find fault with them; +they can seldom do any thing to please her; she is +never better pleased than when she sees them under +the lash, especially when she suspects her husband +of showing to his mulatto children favors which he +withholds from his black slaves. The master is fre- +quently compelled to sell this class of his slaves, out +of deference to the feelings of his white wife; and, +cruel as the deed may strike any one to be, for a +man to sell his own children to human flesh-mongers, +it is often the dictate of humanity for him to do so; +for, unless he does this, he must not only whip them +himself, but must stand by and see one white son +tie up his brother, of but few shades darker com- +plexion than himself, and ply the gory lash to his +naked back; and if he lisp one word of disapproval, +it is set down to his parental partiality, and only +makes a bad matter worse, both for himself and the +slave whom he would protect and defend. + + Every year brings with it multitudes of this class +of slaves. It was doubtless in consequence of a knowl- +edge of this fact, that one great statesman of the +south predicted the downfall of slavery by the in- +evitable laws of population. Whether this prophecy +is ever fulfilled or not, it is nevertheless plain that a +very different-looking class of people are springing up +at the south, and are now held in slavery, from those +originally brought to this country from Africa; and +if their increase do no other good, it will do +away the force of the argument, that God cursed +Ham, and therefore American slavery is right. If the +lineal descendants of Ham are alone to be scriptur- +ally enslaved, it is certain that slavery at the south +must soon become unscriptural; for thousands are +ushered into the world, annually, who, like myself, +owe their existence to white fathers, and those fa- +thers most frequently their own masters. + + I have had two masters. My first master's name +was Anthony. I do not remember his first name. +He was generally called Captain Anthony--a title +which, I presume, he acquired by sailing a craft on +the Chesapeake Bay. He was not considered a rich +slaveholder. He owned two or three farms, and about +thirty slaves. His farms and slaves were under the +care of an overseer. The overseer's name was +Plummer. Mr. Plummer was a miserable drunkard, +a profane swearer, and a savage monster. He always +went armed with a cowskin and a heavy cudgel. I +have known him to cut and slash the women's heads +so horribly, that even master would be enraged at +his cruelty, and would threaten to whip him if he +did not mind himself. Master, however, was not a +humane slaveholder. It required extraordinary bar- +barity on the part of an overseer to affect him. He +was a cruel man, hardened by a long life of slave- +holding. He would at times seem to take great pleas- +ure in whipping a slave. I have often been awakened +at the dawn of day by the most heart-rending shrieks +of an own aunt of mine, whom he used to tie up +to a joist, and whip upon her naked back till she +was literally covered with blood. No words, no tears, +no prayers, from his gory victim, seemed to move +his iron heart from its bloody purpose. The louder +she screamed, the harder he whipped; and where +the blood ran fastest, there he whipped longest. He +would whip her to make her scream, and whip her +to make her hush; and not until overcome by fatigue, +would he cease to swing the blood-clotted cowskin. +I remember the first time I ever witnessed this hor- +rible exhibition. I was quite a child, but I well re- +member it. I never shall forget it whilst I remember +any thing. It was the first of a long series of such out- +rages, of which I was doomed to be a witness and a +participant. It struck me with awful force. It was +the blood-stained gate, the entrance to the hell of +slavery, through which I was about to pass. It was +a most terrible spectacle. I wish I could commit to +paper the feelings with which I beheld it. + + This occurrence took place very soon after I went +to live with my old master, and under the following +circumstances. Aunt Hester went out one night,-- +where or for what I do not know,--and happened to +be absent when my master desired her presence. He +had ordered her not to go out evenings, and warned +her that she must never let him catch her in com- +pany with a young man, who was paying attention +to her belonging to Colonel Lloyd. The young man's +name was Ned Roberts, generally called Lloyd's +Ned. Why master was so careful of her, may be +safely left to conjecture. She was a woman of noble +form, and of graceful proportions, having very few +equals, and fewer superiors, in personal appearance, +among the colored or white women of our neighbor- +hood. + + Aunt Hester had not only disobeyed his orders in +going out, but had been found in company with +Lloyd's Ned; which circumstance, I found, from +what he said while whipping her, was the chief of- +fence. Had he been a man of pure morals himself, +he might have been thought interested in protecting +the innocence of my aunt; but those who knew him +will not suspect him of any such virtue. Before +he commenced whipping Aunt Hester, he took her +into the kitchen, and stripped her from neck to waist, +leaving her neck, shoulders, and back, entirely +naked. He then told her to cross her hands, calling +her at the same time a d----d b---h. After crossing +her hands, he tied them with a strong rope, and led +her to a stool under a large hook in the joist, put +in for the purpose. He made her get upon the stool, +and tied her hands to the hook. She now stood fair +for his infernal purpose. Her arms were stretched +up at their full length, so that she stood upon the +ends of her toes. He then said to her, "Now, you +d----d b---h, I'll learn you how to disobey my +orders!" and after rolling up his sleeves, he com- +menced to lay on the heavy cowskin, and soon the +warm, red blood (amid heart-rending shrieks from +her, and horrid oaths from him) came dripping to +the floor. I was so terrified and horror-stricken at the +sight, that I hid myself in a closet, and dared not +venture out till long after the bloody transaction was +over. I expected it would be my turn next. It was +all new to me. I had never seen any thing like it +before. I had always lived with my grandmother on +the outskirts of the plantation, where she was put to +raise the children of the younger women. I had there- +fore been, until now, out of the way of the bloody +scenes that often occurred on the plantation. + + + + CHAPTER II + + + My master's family consisted of two sons, Andrew +and Richard; one daughter, Lucretia, and her hus- +band, Captain Thomas Auld. They lived in one +house, upon the home plantation of Colonel Edward +Lloyd. My master was Colonel Lloyd's clerk and +superintendent. He was what might be called the +overseer of the overseers. I spent two years of child- +hood on this plantation in my old master's family. +It was here that I witnessed the bloody transaction +recorded in the first chapter; and as I received my +first impressions of slavery on this plantation, +I will give some description of it, and of slavery as +it there existed. The plantation is about twelve miles +north of Easton, in Talbot county, and is situated +on the border of Miles River. The principal products +raised upon it were tobacco, corn, and wheat. These +were raised in great abundance; so that, with the +products of this and the other farms belonging to +him, he was able to keep in almost constant em- +ployment a large sloop, in carrying them to market +at Baltimore. This sloop was named Sally Lloyd, +in honor of one of the colonel's daughters. My mas- +ter's son-in-law, Captain Auld, was master of the +vessel; she was otherwise manned by the colonel's +own slaves. Their names were Peter, Isaac, Rich, and +Jake. These were esteemed very highly by the other +slaves, and looked upon as the privileged ones of the +plantation; for it was no small affair, in the eyes of +the slaves, to be allowed to see Baltimore. + + Colonel Lloyd kept from three to four hundred +slaves on his home plantation, and owned a large +number more on the neighboring farms belonging to +him. The names of the farms nearest to the home +plantation were Wye Town and New Design. "Wye +Town" was under the overseership of a man named +Noah Willis. New Design was under the overseer- +ship of a Mr. Townsend. The overseers of these, +and all the rest of the farms, numbering over twenty, +received advice and direction from the managers of +the home plantation. This was the great business +place. It was the seat of government for the whole +twenty farms. All disputes among the overseers were +settled here. If a slave was convicted of any high +misdemeanor, became unmanageable, or evinced a +determination to run away, he was brought immedi- +ately here, severely whipped, put on board the sloop, +carried to Baltimore, and sold to Austin Woolfolk, +or some other slave-trader, as a warning to the slaves +remaining. + + Here, too, the slaves of all the other farms received +their monthly allowance of food, and their yearly +clothing. The men and women slaves received, as +their monthly allowance of food, eight pounds of +pork, or its equivalent in fish, and one bushel of +corn meal. Their yearly clothing consisted of two +coarse linen shirts, one pair of linen trousers, like +the shirts, one jacket, one pair of trousers for winter, +made of coarse negro cloth, one pair of stockings, +and one pair of shoes; the whole of which could not +have cost more than seven dollars. The allowance +of the slave children was given to their mothers, or +the old women having the care of them. The chil- +dren unable to work in the field had neither shoes, +stockings, jackets, nor trousers, given to them; their +clothing consisted of two coarse linen shirts per year. +When these failed them, they went naked until the +next allowance-day. Children from seven to ten years +old, of both sexes, almost naked, might be seen +at all seasons of the year. + + There were no beds given the slaves, unless one +coarse blanket be considered such, and none but +the men and women had these. This, however, is +not considered a very great privation. They find less +difficulty from the want of beds, than from the want +of time to sleep; for when their day's work in the +field is done, the most of them having their wash- +ing, mending, and cooking to do, and having few or +none of the ordinary facilities for doing either of +these, very many of their sleeping hours are con- +sumed in preparing for the field the coming day; +and when this is done, old and young, male and +female, married and single, drop down side by side, +on one common bed,--the cold, damp floor,--each +covering himself or herself with their miserable +blankets; and here they sleep till they are summoned +to the field by the driver's horn. At the sound of +this, all must rise, and be off to the field. There +must be no halting; every one must be at his or +her post; and woe betides them who hear not this +morning summons to the field; for if they are not +awakened by the sense of hearing, they are by the +sense of feeling: no age nor sex finds any favor. +Mr. Severe, the overseer, used to stand by the door +of the quarter, armed with a large hickory stick +and heavy cowskin, ready to whip any one who was +so unfortunate as not to hear, or, from any other +cause, was prevented from being ready to start for +the field at the sound of the horn. + + Mr. Severe was rightly named: he was a cruel +man. I have seen him whip a woman, causing the +blood to run half an hour at the time; and this, too, +in the midst of her crying children, pleading for their +mother's release. He seemed to take pleasure in +manifesting his fiendish barbarity. Added to his +cruelty, he was a profane swearer. It was enough to +chill the blood and stiffen the hair of an ordinary +man to hear him talk. Scarce a sentence escaped him +but that was commenced or concluded by some hor- +rid oath. The field was the place to witness his +cruelty and profanity. His presence made it both +the field of blood and of blasphemy. From the rising +till the going down of the sun, he was cursing, raving, +cutting, and slashing among the slaves of the field, +in the most frightful manner. His career was short. +He died very soon after I went to Colonel Lloyd's; +and he died as he lived, uttering, with his dying +groans, bitter curses and horrid oaths. His death was +regarded by the slaves as the result of a merciful +providence. + + Mr. Severe's place was filled by a Mr. Hopkins. +He was a very different man. He was less cruel, less +profane, and made less noise, than Mr. Severe. His +course was characterized by no extraordinary demon- +strations of cruelty. He whipped, but seemed to take +no pleasure in it. He was called by the slaves a good +overseer. + + The home plantation of Colonel Lloyd wore the +appearance of a country village. All the mechanical +operations for all the farms were performed here. +The shoemaking and mending, the blacksmithing, +cartwrighting, coopering, weaving, and grain-grind- +ing, were all performed by the slaves on the home +plantation. The whole place wore a business-like as- +pect very unlike the neighboring farms. The num- +ber of houses, too, conspired to give it advantage +over the neighboring farms. It was called by the +slaves the ~Great House Farm.~ Few privileges were +esteemed higher, by the slaves of the out-farms, than +that of being selected to do errands at the Great +House Farm. It was associated in their minds with +greatness. A representative could not be prouder of +his election to a seat in the American Congress, +than a slave on one of the out-farms would be of his +election to do errands at the Great House Farm. +They regarded it as evidence of great confidence re- +posed in them by their overseers; and it was on +this account, as well as a constant desire to be out of +the field from under the driver's lash, that they es- +teemed it a high privilege, one worth careful living +for. He was called the smartest and most trusty fel- +low, who had this honor conferred upon him the +most frequently. The competitors for this office +sought as diligently to please their overseers, as the +office-seekers in the political parties seek to please +and deceive the people. The same traits of character +might be seen in Colonel Lloyd's slaves, as are seen +in the slaves of the political parties. + + The slaves selected to go to the Great House Farm, +for the monthly allowance for themselves and their +fellow-slaves, were peculiarly enthusiastic. While on +their way, they would make the dense old woods, +for miles around, reverberate with their wild songs, +revealing at once the highest joy and the deepest +sadness. They would compose and sing as they went +along, consulting neither time nor tune. The thought +that came up, came out--if not in the word, in the +sound;--and as frequently in the one as in the other. +They would sometimes sing the most pathetic senti- +ment in the most rapturous tone, and the most rap- +turous sentiment in the most pathetic tone. Into all +of their songs they would manage to weave some- +thing of the Great House Farm. Especially would +they do this, when leaving home. They would then +sing most exultingly the following words:-- + + + "I am going away to the Great House Farm! + + O, yea! O, yea! O!" +This they would sing, as a chorus, to words which to +many would seem unmeaning jargon, but which, +nevertheless, were full of meaning to themselves. I +have sometimes thought that the mere hearing of +those songs would do more to impress some minds +with the horrible character of slavery, than the read- +ing of whole volumes of philosophy on the subject +could do. + + I did not, when a slave, understand the deep +meaning of those rude and apparently incoherent +songs. I was myself within the circle; so that I nei- +ther saw nor heard as those without might see and +hear. They told a tale of woe which was then al- +together beyond my feeble comprehension; they +were tones loud, long, and deep; they breathed the +prayer and complaint of souls boiling over with the +bitterest anguish. Every tone was a testimony against +slavery, and a prayer to God for deliverance from +chains. The hearing of those wild notes always de- +pressed my spirit, and filled me with ineffable sad- +ness. I have frequently found myself in tears while +hearing them. The mere recurrence to those songs, +even now, afflicts me; and while I am writing these +lines, an expression of feeling has already found its +way down my cheek. To those songs I trace my first +glimmering conception of the dehumanizing char- +acter of slavery. I can never get rid of that concep- +tion. Those songs still follow me, to deepen my +hatred of slavery, and quicken my sympathies for +my brethren in bonds. If any one wishes to be im- +pressed with the soul-killing effects of slavery, let +him go to Colonel Lloyd's plantation, and, on allow- +ance-day, place himself in the deep pine woods, and +there let him, in silence, analyze the sounds that +shall pass through the chambers of his soul,--and if +he is not thus impressed, it will only be because +"there is no flesh in his obdurate heart." + + I have often been utterly astonished, since I came +to the north, to find persons who could speak of +the singing, among slaves, as evidence of their con- +tentment and happiness. It is impossible to conceive +of a greater mistake. Slaves sing most when they are +most unhappy. The songs of the slave represent the +sorrows of his heart; and he is relieved by them, only +as an aching heart is relieved by its tears. At least, +such is my experience. I have often sung to drown +my sorrow, but seldom to express my happiness. +Crying for joy, and singing for joy, were alike un- +common to me while in the jaws of slavery. The +singing of a man cast away upon a desolate island +might be as appropriately considered as evidence of +contentment and happiness, as the singing of a +slave; the songs of the one and of the other are +prompted by the same emotion. + + + + CHAPTER III + + + Colonel Lloyd kept a large and finely cultivated +garden, which afforded almost constant employment +for four men, besides the chief gardener, (Mr. +M'Durmond.) This garden was probably the great- +est attraction of the place. During the summer +months, people came from far and near--from +Baltimore, Easton, and Annapolis--to see it. It +abounded in fruits of almost every description, from +the hardy apple of the north to the delicate orange +of the south. This garden was not the least source +of trouble on the plantation. Its excellent fruit was +quite a temptation to the hungry swarms of boys, +as well as the older slaves, belonging to the colonel, +few of whom had the virtue or the vice to resist +it. Scarcely a day passed, during the summer, but +that some slave had to take the lash for stealing fruit. +The colonel had to resort to all kinds of stratagems +to keep his slaves out of the garden. The last and +most successful one was that of tarring his fence +all around; after which, if a slave was caught with +any tar upon his person, it was deemed sufficient +proof that he had either been into the garden, or had +tried to get in. In either case, he was severely whip- +ped by the chief gardener. This plan worked well; +the slaves became as fearful of tar as of the lash. +They seemed to realize the impossibility of touching +TAR without being defiled. + + The colonel also kept a splendid riding equipage. +His stable and carriage-house presented the appear- +ance of some of our large city livery establishments. +His horses were of the finest form and noblest blood. +His carriage-house contained three splendid coaches, +three or four gigs, besides dearborns and barouches +of the most fashionable style. + + This establishment was under the care of two +slaves--old Barney and young Barney--father and son. +To attend to this establishment was their sole work. +But it was by no means an easy employment; for in +nothing was Colonel Lloyd more particular than in +the management of his horses. The slightest inat- +tention to these was unpardonable, and was visited +upon those, under whose care they were placed, with +the severest punishment; no excuse could shield +them, if the colonel only suspected any want of +attention to his horses--a supposition which he fre- +quently indulged, and one which, of course, made +the office of old and young Barney a very trying one. +They never knew when they were safe from punish- +ment. They were frequently whipped when least +deserving, and escaped whipping when most deserv- +ing it. Every thing depended upon the looks of the +horses, and the state of Colonel Lloyd's own mind +when his horses were brought to him for use. If a +horse did not move fast enough, or hold his head +high enough, it was owing to some fault of his keep- +ers. It was painful to stand near the stable-door, +and hear the various complaints against the keepers +when a horse was taken out for use. "This horse has +not had proper attention. He has not been suffi- +ciently rubbed and curried, or he has not been prop- +erly fed; his food was too wet or too dry; he got it +too soon or too late; he was too hot or too cold; he +had too much hay, and not enough of grain; or he +had too much grain, and not enough of hay; instead +of old Barney's attending to the horse, he had very +improperly left it to his son." To all these com- +plaints, no matter how unjust, the slave must an- +swer never a word. Colonel Lloyd could not brook +any contradiction from a slave. When he spoke, a +slave must stand, listen, and tremble; and such was +literally the case. I have seen Colonel Lloyd make +old Barney, a man between fifty and sixty years of +age, uncover his bald head, kneel down upon the +cold, damp ground, and receive upon his naked and +toil-worn shoulders more than thirty lashes at the +time. Colonel Lloyd had three sons--Edward, Mur- +ray, and Daniel,--and three sons-in-law, Mr. Winder, +Mr. Nicholson, and Mr. Lowndes. All of these lived +at the Great House Farm, and enjoyed the luxury of +whipping the servants when they pleased, from old +Barney down to William Wilkes, the coach-driver. +I have seen Winder make one of the house-servants +stand off from him a suitable distance to be touched +with the end of his whip, and at every stroke raise +great ridges upon his back. + + To describe the wealth of Colonel Lloyd would +be almost equal to describing the riches of Job. He +kept from ten to fifteen house-servants. He was said +to own a thousand slaves, and I think this estimate +quite within the truth. Colonel Lloyd owned so +many that he did not know them when he saw them; +nor did all the slaves of the out-farms know him. It +is reported of him, that, while riding along the road +one day, he met a colored man, and addressed him +in the usual manner of speaking to colored people +on the public highways of the south: "Well, boy, +whom do you belong to?" "To Colonel Lloyd," re- +plied the slave. "Well, does the colonel treat you +well?" "No, sir," was the ready reply. "What, does +he work you too hard?" "Yes, sir." "Well, don't he +give you enough to eat?" "Yes, sir, he gives me +enough, such as it is." + + The colonel, after ascertaining where the slave +belonged, rode on; the man also went on about his +business, not dreaming that he had been conversing +with his master. He thought, said, and heard noth- +ing more of the matter, until two or three weeks +afterwards. The poor man was then informed by his +overseer that, for having found fault with his master, +he was now to be sold to a Georgia trader. He was +immediately chained and handcuffed; and thus, +without a moment's warning, he was snatched away, +and forever sundered, from his family and friends, +by a hand more unrelenting than death. This is the +penalty of telling the truth, of telling the simple +truth, in answer to a series of plain questions. + + It is partly in consequence of such facts, that +slaves, when inquired of as to their condition and +the character of their masters, almost universally say +they are contented, and that their masters are kind. +The slaveholders have been known to send in spies +among their slaves, to ascertain their views and feel- +ings in regard to their condition. The frequency of +this has had the effect to establish among the slaves +the maxim, that a still tongue makes a wise head. +They suppress the truth rather than take the con- +sequences of telling it, and in so doing prove them- +selves a part of the human family. If they have any +thing to say of their masters, it is generally in their +masters' favor, especially when speaking to an un- +tried man. I have been frequently asked, when a +slave, if I had a kind master, and do not remember +ever to have given a negative answer; nor did I, in +pursuing this course, consider myself as uttering what +was absolutely false; for I always measured the kind- +ness of my master by the standard of kindness set +up among slaveholders around us. Moreover, slaves +are like other people, and imbibe prejudices quite +common to others. They think their own better than +that of others. Many, under the influence of this +prejudice, think their own masters are better than +the masters of other slaves; and this, too, in some +cases, when the very reverse is true. Indeed, it is +not uncommon for slaves even to fall out and quar- +rel among themselves about the relative goodness of +their masters, each contending for the superior good- +ness of his own over that of the others. At the very +same time, they mutually execrate their masters +when viewed separately. It was so on our plantation. +When Colonel Lloyd's slaves met the slaves of Jacob +Jepson, they seldom parted without a quarrel about +their masters; Colonel Lloyd's slaves contending that +he was the richest, and Mr. Jepson's slaves that he +was the smartest, and most of a man. Colonel Lloyd's +slaves would boast his ability to buy and sell Jacob +Jepson. Mr. Jepson's slaves would boast his ability +to whip Colonel Lloyd. These quarrels would almost +always end in a fight between the parties, and those +that whipped were supposed to have gained the +point at issue. They seemed to think that the great- +ness of their masters was transferable to themselves. +It was considered as being bad enough to be a +slave; but to be a poor man's slave was deemed a +disgrace indeed! + + + + CHAPTER IV + + + Mr. Hopkins remained but a short time in the +office of overseer. Why his career was so short, I +do not know, but suppose he lacked the necessary +severity to suit Colonel Lloyd. Mr. Hopkins was suc- +ceeded by Mr. Austin Gore, a man possessing, in +an eminent degree, all those traits of character in- +dispensable to what is called a first-rate overseer. Mr. +Gore had served Colonel Lloyd, in the capacity of +overseer, upon one of the out-farms, and had shown +himself worthy of the high station of overseer upon +the home or Great House Farm. + + Mr. Gore was proud, ambitious, and persevering. +He was artful, cruel, and obdurate. He was just the +man for such a place, and it was just the place for +such a man. It afforded scope for the full exercise +of all his powers, and he seemed to be perfectly +at home in it. He was one of those who could torture +the slightest look, word, or gesture, on the part of +the slave, into impudence, and would treat it ac- +cordingly. There must be no answering back to him; +no explanation was allowed a slave, showing himself +to have been wrongfully accused. Mr. Gore acted +fully up to the maxim laid down by slaveholders,-- +"It is better that a dozen slaves should suffer under the +lash, than that the overseer should be convicted, in +the presence of the slaves, of having been at fault." +No matter how innocent a slave might be--it availed +him nothing, when accused by Mr. Gore of any +misdemeanor. To be accused was to be convicted, +and to be convicted was to be punished; the one +always following the other with immutable certainty. +To escape punishment was to escape accusation; and +few slaves had the fortune to do either, under the +overseership of Mr. Gore. He was just proud enough +to demand the most debasing homage of the slave, +and quite servile enough to crouch, himself, at the +feet of the master. He was ambitious enough to be +contented with nothing short of the highest rank +of overseers, and persevering enough to reach the +height of his ambition. He was cruel enough to in- +flict the severest punishment, artful enough to de- +scend to the lowest trickery, and obdurate enough to +be insensible to the voice of a reproving conscience. +He was, of all the overseers, the most dreaded by +the slaves. His presence was painful; his eye flashed +confusion; and seldom was his sharp, shrill voice +heard, without producing horror and trembling in +their ranks. + + Mr. Gore was a grave man, and, though a young +man, he indulged in no jokes, said no funny words, +seldom smiled. His words were in perfect keeping +with his looks, and his looks were in perfect keeping +with his words. Overseers will sometimes indulge in +a witty word, even with the slaves; not so with Mr. +Gore. He spoke but to command, and commanded +but to be obeyed; he dealt sparingly with his words, +and bountifully with his whip, never using the +former where the latter would answer as well. When +he whipped, he seemed to do so from a sense of +duty, and feared no consequences. He did nothing +reluctantly, no matter how disagreeable; always at his +post, never inconsistent. He never promised but to +fulfil. He was, in a word, a man of the most in- +flexible firmness and stone-like coolness. + + His savage barbarity was equalled only by the con- +summate coolness with which he committed the +grossest and most savage deeds upon the slaves under +his charge. Mr. Gore once undertook to whip one of +Colonel Lloyd's slaves, by the name of Demby. He +had given Demby but few stripes, when, to get rid +of the scourging, he ran and plunged himself into a +creek, and stood there at the depth of his shoulders, +refusing to come out. Mr. Gore told him that he +would give him three calls, and that, if he did not +come out at the third call, he would shoot him. +The first call was given. Demby made no response, +but stood his ground. The second and third calls +were given with the same result. Mr. Gore then, +without consultation or deliberation with any one, +not even giving Demby an additional call, raised +his musket to his face, taking deadly aim at his +standing victim, and in an instant poor Demby was +no more. His mangled body sank out of sight, and +blood and brains marked the water where he had +stood. + + A thrill of horror flashed through every soul upon +the plantation, excepting Mr. Gore. He alone +seemed cool and collected. He was asked by Colonel +Lloyd and my old master, why he resorted to this +extraordinary expedient. His reply was, (as well as +I can remember,) that Demby had become unman- +ageable. He was setting a dangerous example to the +other slaves,--one which, if suffered to pass without +some such demonstration on his part, would finally +lead to the total subversion of all rule and order +upon the plantation. He argued that if one slave re- +fused to be corrected, and escaped with his life, the +other slaves would soon copy the example; the re- +sult of which would be, the freedom of the slaves, +and the enslavement of the whites. Mr. Gore's de- +fence was satisfactory. He was continued in his sta- +tion as overseer upon the home plantation. His +fame as an overseer went abroad. His horrid crime +was not even submitted to judicial investigation. It +was committed in the presence of slaves, and they of +course could neither institute a suit, nor testify +against him; and thus the guilty perpetrator of one of +the bloodiest and most foul murders goes unwhipped +of justice, and uncensured by the community in +which he lives. Mr. Gore lived in St. Michael's, Tal- +bot county, Maryland, when I left there; and if he +is still alive, he very probably lives there now; and if +so, he is now, as he was then, as highly esteemed +and as much respected as though his guilty soul +had not been stained with his brother's blood. + + I speak advisedly when I say this,--that killing +a slave, or any colored person, in Talbot county, +Maryland, is not treated as a crime, either by the +courts or the community. Mr. Thomas Lanman, of +St. Michael's, killed two slaves, one of whom he +killed with a hatchet, by knocking his brains out. He +used to boast of the commission of the awful and +bloody deed. I have heard him do so laughingly, +saying, among other things, that he was the only +benefactor of his country in the company, and that +when others would do as much as he had done, we +should be relieved of "the d----d niggers." + + The wife of Mr. Giles Hicks, living but a short +distance from where I used to live, murdered my +wife's cousin, a young girl between fifteen and six- +teen years of age, mangling her person in the most +horrible manner, breaking her nose and breastbone +with a stick, so that the poor girl expired in a few +hours afterward. She was immediately buried, but +had not been in her untimely grave but a few hours +before she was taken up and examined by the cor- +oner, who decided that she had come to her death +by severe beating. The offence for which this girl +was thus murdered was this:--She had been set +that night to mind Mrs. Hicks's baby, and during the +night she fell asleep, and the baby cried. She, having +lost her rest for several nights previous, did not hear +the crying. They were both in the room with Mrs. +Hicks. Mrs. Hicks, finding the girl slow to move, +jumped from her bed, seized an oak stick of wood +by the fireplace, and with it broke the girl's nose +and breastbone, and thus ended her life. I will not +say that this most horrid murder produced no sen- +sation in the community. It did produce sensation, +but not enough to bring the murderess to punish- +ment. There was a warrant issued for her arrest, +but it was never served. Thus she escaped not only +punishment, but even the pain of being arraigned +before a court for her horrid crime. + + Whilst I am detailing bloody deeds which took +place during my stay on Colonel Lloyd's plantation, +I will briefly narrate another, which occurred about +the same time as the murder of Demby by Mr. +Gore. + + Colonel Lloyd's slaves were in the habit of spend- +ing a part of their nights and Sundays in fishing for +oysters, and in this way made up the deficiency of +their scanty allowance. An old man belonging to +Colonel Lloyd, while thus engaged, happened to get +beyond the limits of Colonel Lloyd's, and on the +premises of Mr. Beal Bondly. At this trespass, Mr. +Bondly took offence, and with his musket came +down to the shore, and blew its deadly contents +into the poor old man. + + Mr. Bondly came over to see Colonel Lloyd the +next day, whether to pay him for his property, or +to justify himself in what he had done, I know not. +At any rate, this whole fiendish transaction was soon +hushed up. There was very little said about it at all, +and nothing done. It was a common saying, even +among little white boys, that it was worth a half- +cent to kill a "nigger," and a half-cent to bury one. + + + + CHAPTER V + + + As to my own treatment while I lived on Colonel +Lloyd's plantation, it was very similar to that of the +other slave children. I was not old enough to work in +the field, and there being little else than field work +to do, I had a great deal of leisure time. The most +I had to do was to drive up the cows at evening, +keep the fowls out of the garden, keep the front +yard clean, and run of errands for my old master's +daughter, Mrs. Lucretia Auld. The most of my lei- +sure time I spent in helping Master Daniel Lloyd +in finding his birds, after he had shot them. My +connection with Master Daniel was of some advan- +tage to me. He became quite attached to me, and +was a sort of protector of me. He would not allow +the older boys to impose upon me, and would divide +his cakes with me. + + I was seldom whipped by my old master, and suf- +fered little from any thing else than hunger and +cold. I suffered much from hunger, but much more +from cold. In hottest summer and coldest winter, I +was kept almost naked--no shoes, no stockings, no +jacket, no trousers, nothing on but a coarse tow linen +shirt, reaching only to my knees. I had no bed. I +must have perished with cold, but that, the coldest +nights, I used to steal a bag which was used for carry- +ing corn to the mill. I would crawl into this bag, +and there sleep on the cold, damp, clay floor, with +my head in and feet out. My feet have been so +cracked with the frost, that the pen with which I +am writing might be laid in the gashes. + + We were not regularly allowanced. Our food was +coarse corn meal boiled. This was called MUSH. It +was put into a large wooden tray or trough, and set +down upon the ground. The children were then +called, like so many pigs, and like so many pigs they +would come and devour the mush; some with oyster- +shells, others with pieces of shingle, some with naked +hands, and none with spoons. He that ate fastest +got most; he that was strongest secured the best +place; and few left the trough satisfied. + + I was probably between seven and eight years old +when I left Colonel Lloyd's plantation. I left it with +joy. I shall never forget the ecstasy with which I +received the intelligence that my old master (An- +thony) had determined to let me go to Baltimore, +to live with Mr. Hugh Auld, brother to my old +master's son-in-law, Captain Thomas Auld. I re- +ceived this information about three days before my +departure. They were three of the happiest days +I ever enjoyed. I spent the most part of all these +three days in the creek, washing off the plantation +scurf, and preparing myself for my departure. + + The pride of appearance which this would indicate +was not my own. I spent the time in washing, not so +much because I wished to, but because Mrs. +Lucretia had told me I must get all the dead skin +off my feet and knees before I could go to Balti- +more; for the people in Baltimore were very cleanly, +and would laugh at me if I looked dirty. Besides, +she was going to give me a pair of trousers, which I +should not put on unless I got all the dirt off me. +The thought of owning a pair of trousers was great +indeed! It was almost a sufficient motive, not only +to make me take off what would be called by pig- +drovers the mange, but the skin itself. I went at it +in good earnest, working for the first time with the +hope of reward. + + The ties that ordinarily bind children to their +homes were all suspended in my case. I found no +severe trial in my departure. My home was charm- +less; it was not home to me; on parting from it, I +could not feel that I was leaving any thing which I +could have enjoyed by staying. My mother was dead, +my grandmother lived far off, so that I seldom saw +her. I had two sisters and one brother, that lived in +the same house with me; but the early separation of +us from our mother had well nigh blotted the fact +of our relationship from our memories. I looked for +home elsewhere, and was confident of finding none +which I should relish less than the one which I was +leaving. If, however, I found in my new home hard- +ship, hunger, whipping, and nakedness, I had the +consolation that I should not have escaped any one +of them by staying. Having already had more than +a taste of them in the house of my old master, and +having endured them there, I very naturally inferred +my ability to endure them elsewhere, and especially +at Baltimore; for I had something of the feeling +about Baltimore that is expressed in the proverb, +that "being hanged in England is preferable to +dying a natural death in Ireland." I had the strongest +desire to see Baltimore. Cousin Tom, though not +fluent in speech, had inspired me with that desire +by his eloquent description of the place. I could +never point out any thing at the Great House, no +matter how beautiful or powerful, but that he had +seen something at Baltimore far exceeding, both in +beauty and strength, the object which I pointed out +to him. Even the Great House itself, with all its +pictures, was far inferior to many buildings in Bal- +timore. So strong was my desire, that I thought a +gratification of it would fully compensate for what- +ever loss of comforts I should sustain by the ex- +change. I left without a regret, and with the highest +hopes of future happiness. + + We sailed out of Miles River for Baltimore on a +Saturday morning. I remember only the day of the +week, for at that time I had no knowledge of the +days of the month, nor the months of the year. On +setting sail, I walked aft, and gave to Colonel Lloyd's +plantation what I hoped would be the last look. I +then placed myself in the bows of the sloop, and +there spent the remainder of the day in looking +ahead, interesting myself in what was in the distance +rather than in things near by or behind. + + In the afternoon of that day, we reached Annap- +olis, the capital of the State. We stopped but a +few moments, so that I had no time to go on shore. +It was the first large town that I had ever seen, and +though it would look small compared with some of +our New England factory villages, I thought it a +wonderful place for its size--more imposing even +than the Great House Farm! + + We arrived at Baltimore early on Sunday morn- +ing, landing at Smith's Wharf, not far from Bow- +ley's Wharf. We had on board the sloop a large +flock of sheep; and after aiding in driving them to +the slaughterhouse of Mr. Curtis on Louden Slater's +Hill, I was conducted by Rich, one of the hands +belonging on board of the sloop, to my new home +in Alliciana Street, near Mr. Gardner's ship-yard, on +Fells Point. + + Mr. and Mrs. Auld were both at home, and met +me at the door with their little son Thomas, to take +care of whom I had been given. And here I saw what +I had never seen before; it was a white face beaming +with the most kindly emotions; it was the face of +my new mistress, Sophia Auld. I wish I could de- +scribe the rapture that flashed through my soul as I +beheld it. It was a new and strange sight to me, +brightening up my pathway with the light of happi- +ness. Little Thomas was told, there was his Freddy, +--and I was told to take care of little Thomas; and +thus I entered upon the duties of my new home with +the most cheering prospect ahead. + + I look upon my departure from Colonel Lloyd's +plantation as one of the most interesting events of +my life. It is possible, and even quite probable, that +but for the mere circumstance of being removed +from that plantation to Baltimore, I should have +to-day, instead of being here seated by my own table, +in the enjoyment of freedom and the happiness of +home, writing this Narrative, been confined in the +galling chains of slavery. Going to live at Baltimore +laid the foundation, and opened the gateway, to all +my subsequent prosperity. I have ever regarded it +as the first plain manifestation of that kind provi- +dence which has ever since attended me, and marked +my life with so many favors. I regarded the selection +of myself as being somewhat remarkable. There were +a number of slave children that might have been +sent from the plantation to Baltimore. There were +those younger, those older, and those of the same +age. I was chosen from among them all, and was +the first, last, and only choice. + + I may be deemed superstitious, and even egotisti- +cal, in regarding this event as a special interposition +of divine Providence in my favor. But I should be +false to the earliest sentiments of my soul, if I sup- +pressed the opinion. I prefer to be true to myself, +even at the hazard of incurring the ridicule of others, +rather than to be false, and incur my own abhor- +rence. From my earliest recollection, I date the en- +tertainment of a deep conviction that slavery would +not always be able to hold me within its foul em- +brace; and in the darkest hours of my career in slav- +ery, this living word of faith and spirit of hope de- +parted not from me, but remained like ministering +angels to cheer me through the gloom. This good +spirit was from God, and to him I offer thanksgiving +and praise. + + + + CHAPTER VI + + + My new mistress proved to be all she appeared +when I first met her at the door,--a woman of the +kindest heart and finest feelings. She had never had +a slave under her control previously to myself, and +prior to her marriage she had been dependent upon +her own industry for a living. She was by trade a +weaver; and by constant application to her business, +she had been in a good degree preserved from the +blighting and dehumanizing effects of slavery. I was +utterly astonished at her goodness. I scarcely knew +how to behave towards her. She was entirely unlike +any other white woman I had ever seen. I could not +approach her as I was accustomed to approach other +white ladies. My early instruction was all out of +place. The crouching servility, usually so acceptable +a quality in a slave, did not answer when manifested +toward her. Her favor was not gained by it; she +seemed to be disturbed by it. She did not deem it +impudent or unmannerly for a slave to look her in +the face. The meanest slave was put fully at ease +in her presence, and none left without feeling bet- +ter for having seen her. Her face was made of heav- +enly smiles, and her voice of tranquil music. + + But, alas! this kind heart had but a short time to +remain such. The fatal poison of irresponsible power +was already in her hands, and soon commenced its +infernal work. That cheerful eye, under the influ- +ence of slavery, soon became red with rage; that +voice, made all of sweet accord, changed to one of +harsh and horrid discord; and that angelic face gave +place to that of a demon. + + Very soon after I went to live with Mr. and Mrs. +Auld, she very kindly commenced to teach me the +A, B, C. After I had learned this, she assisted me in +learning to spell words of three or four letters. Just +at this point of my progress, Mr. Auld found out +what was going on, and at once forbade Mrs. Auld +to instruct me further, telling her, among other +things, that it was unlawful, as well as unsafe, to +teach a slave to read. To use his own words, further, +he said, "If you give a nigger an inch, he will take +an ell. A nigger should know nothing but to obey +his master--to do as he is told to do. Learning would +~spoil~ the best nigger in the world. Now," said he, "if +you teach that nigger (speaking of myself) how to +read, there would be no keeping him. It would for- +ever unfit him to be a slave. He would at once be- +come unmanageable, and of no value to his master. +As to himself, it could do him no good, but a great +deal of harm. It would make him discontented and +unhappy." These words sank deep into my heart, +stirred up sentiments within that lay slumbering, +and called into existence an entirely new train of +thought. It was a new and special revelation, ex- +plaining dark and mysterious things, with which my +youthful understanding had struggled, but struggled +in vain. I now understood what had been to me a +most perplexing difficulty--to wit, the white man's +power to enslave the black man. It was a grand +achievement, and I prized it highly. From that mo- +ment, I understood the pathway from slavery to free- +dom. It was just what I wanted, and I got it at a +time when I the least expected it. Whilst I was sad- +dened by the thought of losing the aid of my kind +mistress, I was gladdened by the invaluable instruc- +tion which, by the merest accident, I had gained +from my master. Though conscious of the difficulty +of learning without a teacher, I set out with high +hope, and a fixed purpose, at whatever cost of trou- +ble, to learn how to read. The very decided manner +with which he spoke, and strove to impress his wife +with the evil consequences of giving me instruction, +served to convince me that he was deeply sensible +of the truths he was uttering. It gave me the best +assurance that I might rely with the utmost confi- +dence on the results which, he said, would flow from +teaching me to read. What he most dreaded, that +I most desired. What he most loved, that I most +hated. That which to him was a great evil, to be +carefully shunned, was to me a great good, to be +diligently sought; and the argument which he so +warmly urged, against my learning to read, only +served to inspire me with a desire and determina- +tion to learn. In learning to read, I owe almost as +much to the bitter opposition of my master, as to +the kindly aid of my mistress. I acknowledge the +benefit of both. + + I had resided but a short time in Baltimore before +I observed a marked difference, in the treatment of +slaves, from that which I had witnessed in the coun- +try. A city slave is almost a freeman, compared with +a slave on the plantation. He is much better fed and +clothed, and enjoys privileges altogether unknown +to the slave on the plantation. There is a vestige of +decency, a sense of shame, that does much to curb +and check those outbreaks of atrocious cruelty so +commonly enacted upon the plantation. He is a des- +perate slaveholder, who will shock the humanity of +his non-slaveholding neighbors with the cries of his +lacerated slave. Few are willing to incur the odium +attaching to the reputation of being a cruel master; +and above all things, they would not be known as +not giving a slave enough to eat. Every city slave- +holder is anxious to have it known of him, that he +feeds his slaves well; and it is due to them to say, +that most of them do give their slaves enough to eat. +There are, however, some painful exceptions to this +rule. Directly opposite to us, on Philpot Street, lived +Mr. Thomas Hamilton. He owned two slaves. Their +names were Henrietta and Mary. Henrietta was +about twenty-two years of age, Mary was about four- +teen; and of all the mangled and emaciated creatures +I ever looked upon, these two were the most so. His +heart must be harder than stone, that could look +upon these unmoved. The head, neck, and shoulders +of Mary were literally cut to pieces. I have fre- +quently felt her head, and found it nearly covered +with festering sores, caused by the lash of her cruel +mistress. I do not know that her master ever whipped +her, but I have been an eye-witness to the cruelty of +Mrs. Hamilton. I used to be in Mr. Hamilton's house +nearly every day. Mrs. Hamilton used to sit in a large +chair in the middle of the room, with a heavy cow- +skin always by her side, and scarce an hour passed +during the day but was marked by the blood of one +of these slaves. The girls seldom passed her without +her saying, "Move faster, you ~black gip!~" at the same +time giving them a blow with the cowskin over the +head or shoulders, often drawing the blood. She +would then say, "Take that, you ~black gip!~" con- +tinuing, "If you don't move faster, I'll move you!" +Added to the cruel lashings to which these slaves +were subjected, they were kept nearly half-starved. +They seldom knew what it was to eat a full meal. +I have seen Mary contending with the pigs for the +offal thrown into the street. So much was Mary +kicked and cut to pieces, that she was oftener called +"~pecked~" than by her name. + + + + CHAPTER VII + + + I lived in Master Hugh's family about seven years. +During this time, I succeeded in learning to read and +write. In accomplishing this, I was compelled to re- +sort to various stratagems. I had no regular teacher. +My mistress, who had kindly commenced to instruct +me, had, in compliance with the advice and direc- +tion of her husband, not only ceased to instruct, but +had set her face against my being instructed by any +one else. It is due, however, to my mistress to say +of her, that she did not adopt this course of treat- +ment immediately. She at first lacked the depravity +indispensable to shutting me up in mental darkness. +It was at least necessary for her to have some training +in the exercise of irresponsible power, to make her +equal to the task of treating me as though I were +a brute. + + My mistress was, as I have said, a kind and tender- +hearted woman; and in the simplicity of her soul she +commenced, when I first went to live with her, to +treat me as she supposed one human being ought +to treat another. In entering upon the duties of a +slaveholder, she did not seem to perceive that I sus- +tained to her the relation of a mere chattel, and +that for her to treat me as a human being was not +only wrong, but dangerously so. Slavery proved as +injurious to her as it did to me. When I went there, +she was a pious, warm, and tender-hearted woman. +There was no sorrow or suffering for which she had +not a tear. She had bread for the hungry, clothes for +the naked, and comfort for every mourner that came +within her reach. Slavery soon proved its ability to +divest her of these heavenly qualities. Under its in- +fluence, the tender heart became stone, and the +lamblike disposition gave way to one of tiger-like +fierceness. The first step in her downward course was +in her ceasing to instruct me. She now commenced +to practise her husband's precepts. She finally be- +came even more violent in her opposition than her +husband himself. She was not satisfied with simply +doing as well as he had commanded; she seemed +anxious to do better. Nothing seemed to make her +more angry than to see me with a newspaper. She +seemed to think that here lay the danger. I have had +her rush at me with a face made all up of fury, and +snatch from me a newspaper, in a manner that fully +revealed her apprehension. She was an apt woman; +and a little experience soon demonstrated, to her +satisfaction, that education and slavery were incom- +patible with each other. + + From this time I was most narrowly watched. If I +was in a separate room any considerable length of +time, I was sure to be suspected of having a book, +and was at once called to give an account of myself. +All this, however, was too late. The first step had +been taken. Mistress, in teaching me the alphabet, +had given me the ~inch,~ and no precaution could pre- +vent me from taking the ~ell.~ + + The plan which I adopted, and the one by which +I was most successful, was that of making friends of +all the little white boys whom I met in the street. +As many of these as I could, I converted into teach- +ers. With their kindly aid, obtained at different times +and in different places, I finally succeeded in learn- +ing to read. When I was sent of errands, I always +took my book with me, and by going one part of +my errand quickly, I found time to get a lesson be- +fore my return. I used also to carry bread with me, +enough of which was always in the house, and to +which I was always welcome; for I was much better +off in this regard than many of the poor white chil- +dren in our neighborhood. This bread I used to be- +stow upon the hungry little urchins, who, in return, +would give me that more valuable bread of knowl- +edge. I am strongly tempted to give the names of +two or three of those little boys, as a testimonial of +the gratitude and affection I bear them; but pru- +dence forbids;--not that it would injure me, but it +might embarrass them; for it is almost an unpar- +donable offence to teach slaves to read in this Chris- +tian country. It is enough to say of the dear little +fellows, that they lived on Philpot Street, very near +Durgin and Bailey's ship-yard. I used to talk this +matter of slavery over with them. I would sometimes +say to them, I wished I could be as free as they +would be when they got to be men. "You will be +free as soon as you are twenty-one, ~but I am a slave +for life!~ Have not I as good a right to be free as +you have?" These words used to trouble them; they +would express for me the liveliest sympathy, and con- +sole me with the hope that something would occur +by which I might be free. + + I was now about twelve years old, and the thought +of being ~a slave for life~ began to bear heavily upon +my heart. Just about this time, I got hold of a book +entitled "The Columbian Orator." Every opportu- +nity I got, I used to read this book. Among much of +other interesting matter, I found in it a dialogue be- +tween a master and his slave. The slave was repre- +sented as having run away from his master three +times. The dialogue represented the conversation +which took place between them, when the slave was +retaken the third time. In this dialogue, the whole +argument in behalf of slavery was brought forward +by the master, all of which was disposed of by the +slave. The slave was made to say some very smart as +well as impressive things in reply to his master-- +things which had the desired though unexpected ef- +fect; for the conversation resulted in the voluntary +emancipation of the slave on the part of the master. + + In the same book, I met with one of Sheridan's +mighty speeches on and in behalf of Catholic eman- +cipation. These were choice documents to me. I read +them over and over again with unabated interest. +They gave tongue to interesting thoughts of my own +soul, which had frequently flashed through my mind, +and died away for want of utterance. The moral +which I gained from the dialogue was the power of +truth over the conscience of even a slaveholder. What +I got from Sheridan was a bold denunciation of slav- +ery, and a powerful vindication of human rights. +The reading of these documents enabled me to +utter my thoughts, and to meet the arguments +brought forward to sustain slavery; but while they +relieved me of one difficulty, they brought on an- +other even more painful than the one of which I was +relieved. The more I read, the more I was led to +abhor and detest my enslavers. I could regard them +in no other light than a band of successful robbers, +who had left their homes, and gone to Africa, and +stolen us from our homes, and in a strange land +reduced us to slavery. I loathed them as being the +meanest as well as the most wicked of men. As I +read and contemplated the subject, behold! that very +discontentment which Master Hugh had predicted +would follow my learning to read had already come, +to torment and sting my soul to unutterable anguish. +As I writhed under it, I would at times feel that +learning to read had been a curse rather than a bless- +ing. It had given me a view of my wretched condi- +tion, without the remedy. It opened my eyes to the +horrible pit, but to no ladder upon which to get out. +In moments of agony, I envied my fellow-slaves for +their stupidity. I have often wished myself a beast. +I preferred the condition of the meanest reptile to +my own. Any thing, no matter what, to get rid of +thinking! It was this everlasting thinking of my con- +dition that tormented me. There was no getting rid +of it. It was pressed upon me by every object within +sight or hearing, animate or inanimate. The silver +trump of freedom had roused my soul to eternal +wakefulness. Freedom now appeared, to disappear +no more forever. It was heard in every sound, and +seen in every thing. It was ever present to torment +me with a sense of my wretched condition. I saw +nothing without seeing it, I heard nothing without +hearing it, and felt nothing without feeling it. It +looked from every star, it smiled in every calm, +breathed in every wind, and moved in every storm. + + I often found myself regretting my own existence, +and wishing myself dead; and but for the hope of +being free, I have no doubt but that I should have +killed myself, or done something for which I should +have been killed. While in this state of mind, I was +eager to hear any one speak of slavery. I was a ready +listener. Every little while, I could hear something +about the abolitionists. It was some time before I +found what the word meant. It was always used in +such connections as to make it an interesting word +to me. If a slave ran away and succeeded in getting +clear, or if a slave killed his master, set fire to a +barn, or did any thing very wrong in the mind of a +slaveholder, it was spoken of as the fruit of ~abolition.~ +Hearing the word in this connection very often, I set +about learning what it meant. The dictionary af- +forded me little or no help. I found it was "the act +of abolishing;" but then I did not know what was +to be abolished. Here I was perplexed. I did not +dare to ask any one about its meaning, for I was +satisfied that it was something they wanted me to +know very little about. After a patient waiting, I got +one of our city papers, containing an account of the +number of petitions from the north, praying for the +abolition of slavery in the District of Columbia, and +of the slave trade between the States. From this +time I understood the words ~abolition~ and ~abolition- +ist,~ and always drew near when that word was spoken, +expecting to hear something of importance to my- +self and fellow-slaves. The light broke in upon me +by degrees. I went one day down on the wharf of +Mr. Waters; and seeing two Irishmen unloading a +scow of stone, I went, unasked, and helped them. +When we had finished, one of them came to me +and asked me if I were a slave. I told him I was. He +asked, "Are ye a slave for life?" I told him that I +was. The good Irishman seemed to be deeply af- +fected by the statement. He said to the other that +it was a pity so fine a little fellow as myself should +be a slave for life. He said it was a shame to hold +me. They both advised me to run away to the north; +that I should find friends there, and that I should +be free. I pretended not to be interested in what +they said, and treated them as if I did not under- +stand them; for I feared they might be treacherous. +White men have been known to encourage slaves to +escape, and then, to get the reward, catch them and +return them to their masters. I was afraid that these +seemingly good men might use me so; but I never- +theless remembered their advice, and from that time +I resolved to run away. I looked forward to a time +at which it would be safe for me to escape. I was +too young to think of doing so immediately; besides, +I wished to learn how to write, as I might have oc- +casion to write my own pass. I consoled myself with +the hope that I should one day find a good chance. +Meanwhile, I would learn to write. + + The idea as to how I might learn to write was +suggested to me by being in Durgin and Bailey's +ship-yard, and frequently seeing the ship carpenters, +after hewing, and getting a piece of timber ready +for use, write on the timber the name of that part +of the ship for which it was intended. When a piece +of timber was intended for the larboard side, it +would be marked thus--"L." When a piece was for +the starboard side, it would be marked thus--"S." A +piece for the larboard side forward, would be marked +thus--"L. F." When a piece was for starboard side +forward, it would be marked thus--"S. F." For lar- +board aft, it would be marked thus--"L. A." For star- +board aft, it would be marked thus--"S. A." I soon +learned the names of these letters, and for what +they were intended when placed upon a piece of +timber in the ship-yard. I immediately commenced +copying them, and in a short time was able to make +the four letters named. After that, when I met with +any boy who I knew could write, I would tell him +I could write as well as he. The next word would be, +"I don't believe you. Let me see you try it." I would +then make the letters which I had been so fortunate +as to learn, and ask him to beat that. In this way I +got a good many lessons in writing, which it is quite +possible I should never have gotten in any other way. +During this time, my copy-book was the board fence, +brick wall, and pavement; my pen and ink was a +lump of chalk. With these, I learned mainly how to +write. I then commenced and continued copying the +Italics in Webster's Spelling Book, until I could make +them all without looking on the book. By this time, +my little Master Thomas had gone to school, and +learned how to write, and had written over a number +of copy-books. These had been brought home, and +shown to some of our near neighbors, and then laid +aside. My mistress used to go to class meeting at +the Wilk Street meetinghouse every Monday after- +noon, and leave me to take care of the house. When +left thus, I used to spend the time in writing in the +spaces left in Master Thomas's copy-book, copying +what he had written. I continued to do this until I +could write a hand very similar to that of Master +Thomas. Thus, after a long, tedious effort for years, +I finally succeeded in learning how to write. + + + + CHAPTER VIII + + + In a very short time after I went to live at Balti- +more, my old master's youngest son Richard died; +and in about three years and six months after his +death, my old master, Captain Anthony, died, leav- +only his son, Andrew, and daughter, Lucretia, to +share his estate. He died while on a visit to see his +daughter at Hillsborough. Cut off thus unexpectedly, +he left no will as to the disposal of his property. It +was therefore necessary to have a valuation of the +property, that it might be equally divided between +Mrs. Lucretia and Master Andrew. I was immedi- +ately sent for, to be valued with the other property. +Here again my feelings rose up in detestation of +slavery. I had now a new conception of my degraded +condition. Prior to this, I had become, if not in- +sensible to my lot, at least partly so. I left Baltimore +with a young heart overborne with sadness, and a +soul full of apprehension. I took passage with Cap- +tain Rowe, in the schooner Wild Cat, and, after a +sail of about twenty-four hours, I found myself near +the place of my birth. I had now been absent from +it almost, if not quite, five years. I, however, re- +membered the place very well. I was only about +five years old when I left it, to go and live with my +old master on Colonel Lloyd's plantation; so that +I was now between ten and eleven years old. + + We were all ranked together at the valuation. Men +and women, old and young, married and single, were +ranked with horses, sheep, and swine. There were +horses and men, cattle and women, pigs and chil- +dren, all holding the same rank in the scale of being, +and were all subjected to the same narrow examina- +tion. Silvery-headed age and sprightly youth, maids +and matrons, had to undergo the same indelicate +inspection. At this moment, I saw more clearly than +ever the brutalizing effects of slavery upon both +slave and slaveholder. + + After the valuation, then came the division. I have +no language to express the high excitement and deep +anxiety which were felt among us poor slaves during +this time. Our fate for life was now to be decided. +we had no more voice in that decision than the +brutes among whom we were ranked. A single word +from the white men was enough--against all our +wishes, prayers, and entreaties--to sunder forever the +dearest friends, dearest kindred, and strongest ties +known to human beings. In addition to the pain of +separation, there was the horrid dread of falling into +the hands of Master Andrew. He was known to us +all as being a most cruel wretch,--a common drunk- +ard, who had, by his reckless mismanagement and +profligate dissipation, already wasted a large por- +tion of his father's property. We all felt that we +might as well be sold at once to the Georgia traders, +as to pass into his hands; for we knew that that +would be our inevitable condition,--a condition held +by us all in the utmost horror and dread. + + I suffered more anxiety than most of my fellow- +slaves. I had known what it was to be kindly treated; +they had known nothing of the kind. They had seen +little or nothing of the world. They were in very +deed men and women of sorrow, and acquainted with +grief. Their backs had been made familiar with the +bloody lash, so that they had become callous; mine +was yet tender; for while at Baltimore I got few whip- +pings, and few slaves could boast of a kinder master +and mistress than myself; and the thought of pass- +ing out of their hands into those of Master Andrew-- +a man who, but a few days before, to give me a +sample of his bloody disposition, took my little +brother by the throat, threw him on the ground, and +with the heel of his boot stamped upon his head +till the blood gushed from his nose and ears--was +well calculated to make me anxious as to my fate. +After he had committed this savage outrage upon +my brother, he turned to me, and said that was the +way he meant to serve me one of these days,--mean- +ing, I suppose, when I came into his possession. + + Thanks to a kind Providence, I fell to the portion +of Mrs. Lucretia, and was sent immediately back +to Baltimore, to live again in the family of Master +Hugh. Their joy at my return equalled their sorrow +at my departure. It was a glad day to me. I had +escaped a worse than lion's jaws. I was absent from +Baltimore, for the purpose of valuation and division, +just about one month, and it seemed to have been +six. + + Very soon after my return to Baltimore, my mis- +tress, Lucretia, died, leaving her husband and one +child, Amanda; and in a very short time after her +death, Master Andrew died. Now all the property +of my old master, slaves included, was in the hands +of strangers,--strangers who had had nothing to do +with accumulating it. Not a slave was left free. All +remained slaves, from the youngest to the oldest. If +any one thing in my experience, more than another, +served to deepen my conviction of the infernal char- +acter of slavery, and to fill me with unutterable +loathing of slaveholders, it was their base ingrati- +tude to my poor old grandmother. She had served +my old master faithfully from youth to old age. She +had been the source of all his wealth; she had peo- +pled his plantation with slaves; she had become a +great grandmother in his service. She had rocked +him in infancy, attended him in childhood, served +him through life, and at his death wiped from his +icy brow the cold death-sweat, and closed his eyes +forever. She was nevertheless left a slave--a slave for +life--a slave in the hands of strangers; and in their +hands she saw her children, her grandchildren, and +her great-grandchildren, divided, like so many sheep, +without being gratified with the small privilege of a +single word, as to their or her own destiny. And, to +cap the climax of their base ingratitude and fiendish +barbarity, my grandmother, who was now very old, +having outlived my old master and all his children, +having seen the beginning and end of all of them, +and her present owners finding she was of but little +value, her frame already racked with the pains of old +age, and complete helplessness fast stealing over her +once active limbs, they took her to the woods, built +her a little hut, put up a little mud-chimney, and +then made her welcome to the privilege of support- +ing herself there in perfect loneliness; thus virtually +turning her out to die! If my poor old grandmother +now lives, she lives to suffer in utter loneliness; she +lives to remember and mourn over the loss of chil- +dren, the loss of grandchildren, and the loss of great- +grandchildren. They are, in the language of the +slave's poet, Whittier,-- + + + "Gone, gone, sold and gone + + To the rice swamp dank and lone, + + Where the slave-whip ceaseless swings, + + Where the noisome insect stings, + + Where the fever-demon strews + + Poison with the falling dews, + + Where the sickly sunbeams glare + + Through the hot and misty air:-- + + Gone, gone, sold and gone + + To the rice swamp dank and lone, + + From Virginia hills and waters-- + + Woe is me, my stolen daughters!" + + + The hearth is desolate. The children, the uncon- +scious children, who once sang and danced in her +presence, are gone. She gropes her way, in the dark- +ness of age, for a drink of water. Instead of the voices +of her children, she hears by day the moans of the +dove, and by night the screams of the hideous owl. +All is gloom. The grave is at the door. And now, +when weighed down by the pains and aches of old +age, when the head inclines to the feet, when the +beginning and ending of human existence meet, and +helpless infancy and painful old age combine to- +gether--at this time, this most needful time, the time +for the exercise of that tenderness and affection +which children only can exercise towards a declining +parent--my poor old grandmother, the devoted +mother of twelve children, is left all alone, in yonder +little hut, before a few dim embers. She stands-- +she sits--she staggers--she falls--she groans--she dies +--and there are none of her children or grandchildren +present, to wipe from her wrinkled brow the cold +sweat of death, or to place beneath the sod her +fallen remains. Will not a righteous God visit for +these things? + + In about two years after the death of Mrs. Lu- +cretia, Master Thomas married his second wife. Her +name was Rowena Hamilton. She was the eldest +daughter of Mr. William Hamilton. Master now +lived in St. Michael's. Not long after his marriage, +a misunderstanding took place between himself and +Master Hugh; and as a means of punishing his +brother, he took me from him to live with himself +at St. Michael's. Here I underwent another most +painful separation. It, however, was not so severe +as the one I dreaded at the division of property; for, +during this interval, a great change had taken place +in Master Hugh and his once kind and affectionate +wife. The influence of brandy upon him, and of +slavery upon her, had effected a disastrous change +in the characters of both; so that, as far as they +were concerned, I thought I had little to lose by the +change. But it was not to them that I was attached. +It was to those little Baltimore boys that I felt the +strongest attachment. I had received many good +lessons from them, and was still receiving them, and +the thought of leaving them was painful indeed. I +was leaving, too, without the hope of ever being +allowed to return. Master Thomas had said he would +never let me return again. The barrier betwixt him- +self and brother he considered impassable. + + I then had to regret that I did not at least make +the attempt to carry out my resolution to run away; +for the chances of success are tenfold greater from +the city than from the country. + + I sailed from Baltimore for St. Michael's in the +sloop Amanda, Captain Edward Dodson. On my +passage, I paid particular attention to the direction +which the steamboats took to go to Philadelphia. I +found, instead of going down, on reaching North +Point they went up the bay, in a north-easterly direc- +tion. I deemed this knowledge of the utmost im- +portance. My determination to run away was again +revived. I resolved to wait only so long as the offering +of a favorable opportunity. When that came, I was +determined to be off. + + + + CHAPTER IX + + + I have now reached a period of my life when I +can give dates. I left Baltimore, and went to live +with Master Thomas Auld, at St. Michael's, in +March, 1832. It was now more than seven years +since I lived with him in the family of my old mas- +ter, on Colonel Lloyd's plantation. We of course +were now almost entire strangers to each other. He +was to me a new master, and I to him a new slave. +I was ignorant of his temper and disposition; he +was equally so of mine. A very short time, however, +brought us into full acquaintance with each other. +I was made acquainted with his wife not less than +with himself. They were well matched, being equally +mean and cruel. I was now, for the first time during +a space of more than seven years, made to feel the +painful gnawings of hunger--a something which I +had not experienced before since I left Colonel +Lloyd's plantation. It went hard enough with me +then, when I could look back to no period at which +I had enjoyed a sufficiency. It was tenfold harder +after living in Master Hugh's family, where I had +always had enough to eat, and of that which was +good. I have said Master Thomas was a mean man. +He was so. Not to give a slave enough to eat, is +regarded as the most aggravated development of +meanness even among slaveholders. The rule is, no +matter how coarse the food, only let there be enough +of it. This is the theory; and in the part of Maryland +from which I came, it is the general practice,--though +there are many exceptions. Master Thomas gave us +enough of neither coarse nor fine food. There were +four slaves of us in the kitchen--my sister Eliza, my +aunt Priscilla, Henny, and myself; and we were al- +lowed less than a half of a bushel of corn-meal per +week, and very little else, either in the shape of +meat or vegetables. It was not enough for us to +subsist upon. We were therefore reduced to the +wretched necessity of living at the expense of our +neighbors. This we did by begging and stealing, +whichever came handy in the time of need, the one +being considered as legitimate as the other. A great +many times have we poor creatures been nearly +perishing with hunger, when food in abundance lay +mouldering in the safe and smoke-house, and our +pious mistress was aware of the fact; and yet that +mistress and her husband would kneel every morn- +ing, and pray that God would bless them in basket +and store! + + Bad as all slaveholders are, we seldom meet one +destitute of every element of character commanding +respect. My master was one of this rare sort. I do +not know of one single noble act ever performed by +him. The leading trait in his character was mean- +ness; and if there were any other element in his +nature, it was made subject to this. He was mean; +and, like most other mean men, he lacked the ability +to conceal his meanness. Captain Auld was not born +a slaveholder. He had been a poor man, master only +of a Bay craft. He came into possession of all his +slaves by marriage; and of all men, adopted slave- +holders are the worst. He was cruel, but cowardly. +He commanded without firmness. In the enforce- +ment of his rules, he was at times rigid, and at times +lax. At times, he spoke to his slaves with the firmness +of Napoleon and the fury of a demon; at other times, +he might well be mistaken for an inquirer who had +lost his way. He did nothing of himself. He might +have passed for a lion, but for his ears. In all things +noble which he attempted, his own meanness shone +most conspicuous. His airs, words, and actions, +were the airs, words, and actions of born slave- +holders, and, being assumed, were awkward enough. +He was not even a good imitator. He possessed all +the disposition to deceive, but wanted the power. +Having no resources within himself, he was com- +pelled to be the copyist of many, and being such, he +was forever the victim of inconsistency; and of con- +sequence he was an object of contempt, and was held +as such even by his slaves. The luxury of having +slaves of his own to wait upon him was something +new and unprepared for. He was a slaveholder with- +out the ability to hold slaves. He found himself in- +capable of managing his slaves either by force, fear, +or fraud. We seldom called him "master;" we gen- +erally called him "Captain Auld," and were hardly +disposed to title him at all. I doubt not that our +conduct had much to do with making him appear +awkward, and of consequence fretful. Our want of +reverence for him must have perplexed him greatly. +He wished to have us call him master, but lacked +the firmness necessary to command us to do so. His +wife used to insist upon our calling him so, but to +no purpose. In August, 1832, my master attended a +Methodist camp-meeting held in the Bay-side, Tal- +bot county, and there experienced religion. I in- +dulged a faint hope that his conversion would lead +him to emancipate his slaves, and that, if he did not +do this, it would, at any rate, make him more kind +and humane. I was disappointed in both these re- +spects. It neither made him to be humane to his +slaves, nor to emancipate them. If it had any effect +on his character, it made him more cruel and hateful +in all his ways; for I believe him to have been a much +worse man after his conversion than before. Prior +to his conversion, he relied upon his own depravity +to shield and sustain him in his savage barbarity; +but after his conversion, he found religious sanction +and support for his slaveholding cruelty. He made +the greatest pretensions to piety. His house was the +house of prayer. He prayed morning, noon, and +night. He very soon distinguished himself among +his brethren, and was soon made a class-leader and +exhorter. His activity in revivals was great, and he +proved himself an instrument in the hands of the +church in converting many souls. His house was the +preachers' home. They used to take great pleasure +in coming there to put up; for while he starved us, he +stuffed them. We have had three or four preachers +there at a time. The names of those who used to +come most frequently while I lived there, were Mr. +Storks, Mr. Ewery, Mr. Humphry, and Mr. Hickey. +I have also seen Mr. George Cookman at our house. +We slaves loved Mr. Cookman. We believed him to +be a good man. We thought him instrumental in get- +ting Mr. Samuel Harrison, a very rich slaveholder, to +emancipate his slaves; and by some means got the +impression that he was laboring to effect the emanci- +pation of all the slaves. When he was at our house, +we were sure to be called in to prayers. When the +others were there, we were sometimes called in and +sometimes not. Mr. Cookman took more notice of +us than either of the other ministers. He could not +come among us without betraying his sympathy for +us, and, stupid as we were, we had the sagacity to +see it. + + While I lived with my master in St. Michael's, +there was a white young man, a Mr. Wilson, who +proposed to keep a Sabbath school for the instruction +of such slaves as might be disposed to learn to read +the New Testament. We met but three times, when +Mr. West and Mr. Fairbanks, both class-leaders, +with many others, came upon us with sticks and +other missiles, drove us off, and forbade us to meet +again. Thus ended our little Sabbath school in the +pious town of St. Michael's. + + I have said my master found religious sanction +for his cruelty. As an example, I will state one of +many facts going to prove the charge. I have seen +him tie up a lame young woman, and whip her with +a heavy cowskin upon her naked shoulders, causing +the warm red blood to drip; and, in justification +of the bloody deed, he would quote this passage of +Scripture--"He that knoweth his master's will, and +doeth it not, shall be beaten with many stripes." + + Master would keep this lacerated young woman +tied up in this horrid situation four or five hours at +a time. I have known him to tie her up early in the +morning, and whip her before breakfast; leave her, +go to his store, return at dinner, and whip her again, +cutting her in the places already made raw with his +cruel lash. The secret of master's cruelty toward +"Henny" is found in the fact of her being almost +helpless. When quite a child, she fell into the fire, +and burned herself horribly. Her hands were so +burnt that she never got the use of them. She could +do very little but bear heavy burdens. She was to +master a bill of expense; and as he was a mean man, +she was a constant offence to him. He seemed +desirous of getting the poor girl out of existence. +He gave her away once to his sister; but, being a +poor gift, she was not disposed to keep her. Finally, +my benevolent master, to use his own words, "set +her adrift to take care of herself." Here was a re- +cently-converted man, holding on upon the mother, +and at the same time turning out her helpless child, +to starve and die! Master Thomas was one of the +many pious slaveholders who hold slaves for the +very charitable purpose of taking care of them. + + My master and myself had quite a number of +differences. He found me unsuitable to his purpose. +My city life, he said, had had a very pernicious effect +upon me. It had almost ruined me for every good +purpose, and fitted me for every thing which was +bad. One of my greatest faults was that of letting +his horse run away, and go down to his father-in- +law's farm, which was about five miles from St. +Michael's. I would then have to go after it. My +reason for this kind of carelessness, or carefulness, +was, that I could always get something to eat when +I went there. Master William Hamilton, my master's +father-in-law, always gave his slaves enough to eat. +I never left there hungry, no matter how great the +need of my speedy return. Master Thomas at length +said he would stand it no longer. I had lived with +him nine months, during which time he had given +me a number of severe whippings, all to no good +purpose. He resolved to put me out, as he said, to +be broken; and, for this purpose, he let me for one +year to a man named Edward Covey. Mr. Covey +was a poor man, a farm-renter. He rented the place +upon which he lived, as also the hands with which +he tilled it. Mr. Covey had acquired a very high +reputation for breaking young slaves, and this repu- +tation was of immense value to him. It enabled him +to get his farm tilled with much less expense to +himself than he could have had it done without +such a reputation. Some slaveholders thought it not +much loss to allow Mr. Covey to have their slaves +one year, for the sake of the training to which they +were subjected, without any other compensation. +He could hire young help with great ease, in con- +sequence of this reputation. Added to the natural +good qualities of Mr. Covey, he was a professor of +religion--a pious soul--a member and a class-leader in +the Methodist church. All of this added weight to +his reputation as a "nigger-breaker." I was aware of +all the facts, having been made acquainted with +them by a young man who had lived there. I never- +theless made the change gladly; for I was sure of +getting enough to eat, which is not the smallest +consideration to a hungry man. + + + + + CHAPTER X + + + I had left Master Thomas's house, and went to live +with Mr. Covey, on the 1st of January, 1833. I was +now, for the first time in my life, a field hand. In +my new employment, I found myself even more +awkward than a country boy appeared to be in a +large city. I had been at my new home but one +week before Mr. Covey gave me a very severe whip- +ping, cutting my back, causing the blood to run, +and raising ridges on my flesh as large as my little finger. +The details of this affair are as follows: Mr. Covey +sent me, very early in the morning of one of our +coldest days in the month of January, to the woods, +to get a load of wood. He gave me a team of un- +broken oxen. He told me which was the in-hand ox, +and which the off-hand one. He then tied the end +of a large rope around the horns of the in-hand ox, +and gave me the other end of it, and told me, if +the oxen started to run, that I must hold on upon +the rope. I had never driven oxen before, and of +course I was very awkward. I, however, succeeded in +getting to the edge of the woods with little diffi- +culty; but I had got a very few rods into the woods, +when the oxen took fright, and started full tilt, carry- +ing the cart against trees, and over stumps, in the +most frightful manner. I expected every moment +that my brains would be dashed out against the +trees. After running thus for a considerable dis- +tance, they finally upset the cart, dashing it with +great force against a tree, and threw themselves into +a dense thicket. How I escaped death, I do not +know. There I was, entirely alone, in a thick wood, +in a place new to me. My cart was upset and shat- +tered, my oxen were entangled among the young +trees, and there was none to help me. After a long +spell of effort, I succeeded in getting my cart righted, +my oxen disentangled, and again yoked to the cart. +I now proceeded with my team to the place where +I had, the day before, been chopping wood, and +loaded my cart pretty heavily, thinking in this way +to tame my oxen. I then proceeded on my way +home. I had now consumed one half of the day. I +got out of the woods safely, and now felt out of +danger. I stopped my oxen to open the woods gate; +and just as I did so, before I could get hold of my +ox-rope, the oxen again started, rushed through the +gate, catching it between the wheel and the body of +the cart, tearing it to pieces, and coming within a +few inches of crushing me against the gate-post. Thus +twice, in one short day, I escaped death by the +merest chance. On my return, I told Mr. Covey +what had happened, and how it happened. He or- +dered me to return to the woods again immediately. +I did so, and he followed on after me. Just as I got +into the woods, he came up and told me to stop my +cart, and that he would teach me how to trifle away +my time, and break gates. He then went to a large +gum-tree, and with his axe cut three large switches, +and, after trimming them up neatly with his pocket- +knife, he ordered me to take off my clothes. I made +him no answer, but stood with my clothes on. He +repeated his order. I still made him no answer, nor +did I move to strip myself. Upon this he rushed +at me with the fierceness of a tiger, tore off my +clothes, and lashed me till he had worn out his +switches, cutting me so savagely as to leave the marks +visible for a long time after. This whipping was the +first of a number just like it, and for similar of- +fences. + + I lived with Mr. Covey one year. During the first +six months, of that year, scarce a week passed with- +out his whipping me. I was seldom free from a sore +back. My awkwardness was almost always his ex- +cuse for whipping me. We were worked fully up +to the point of endurance. Long before day we were +up, our horses fed, and by the first approach of day +we were off to the field with our hoes and plough- +ing teams. Mr. Covey gave us enough to eat, but +scarce time to eat it. We were often less than five +minutes taking our meals. We were often in the field +from the first approach of day till its last lingering +ray had left us; and at saving-fodder time, midnight +often caught us in the field binding blades. + + Covey would be out with us. The way he used to +stand it, was this. He would spend the most of his +afternoons in bed. He would then come out fresh +in the evening, ready to urge us on with his words, +example, and frequently with the whip. Mr. Covey +was one of the few slaveholders who could and did +work with his hands. He was a hard-working man. +He knew by himself just what a man or a boy could +do. There was no deceiving him. His work went on +in his absence almost as well as in his presence; and +he had the faculty of making us feel that he was +ever present with us. This he did by surprising us. +He seldom approached the spot where we were at +work openly, if he could do it secretly. He always +aimed at taking us by surprise. Such was his cunning, +that we used to call him, among ourselves, "the +snake." When we were at work in the cornfield, he +would sometimes crawl on his hands and knees to +avoid detection, and all at once he would rise +nearly in our midst, and scream out, "Ha, ha! +Come, come! Dash on, dash on!" This being his +mode of attack, it was never safe to stop a single +minute. His comings were like a thief in the night. +He appeared to us as being ever at hand. He was +under every tree, behind every stump, in every bush, +and at every window, on the plantation. He would +sometimes mount his horse, as if bound to St. Mi- +chael's, a distance of seven miles, and in half an +hour afterwards you would see him coiled up in +the corner of the wood-fence, watching every motion +of the slaves. He would, for this purpose, leave his +horse tied up in the woods. Again, he would some- +times walk up to us, and give us orders as though +he was upon the point of starting on a long journey, +turn his back upon us, and make as though he was +going to the house to get ready; and, before he would +get half way thither, he would turn short and crawl +into a fence-corner, or behind some tree, and there +watch us till the going down of the sun. + + Mr. Covey's FORTE consisted in his power to de- +ceive. His life was devoted to planning and perpe- +trating the grossest deceptions. Every thing he pos- +sessed in the shape of learning or religion, he made +conform to his disposition to deceive. He seemed +to think himself equal to deceiving the Almighty. +He would make a short prayer in the morning, and +a long prayer at night; and, strange as it may seem, +few men would at times appear more devotional +than he. The exercises of his family devotions were +always commenced with singing; and, as he was a +very poor singer himself, the duty of raising the +hymn generally came upon me. He would read his +hymn, and nod at me to commence. I would at +times do so; at others, I would not. My non-com- +pliance would almost always produce much confu- +sion. To show himself independent of me, he would +start and stagger through with his hymn in the most +discordant manner. In this state of mind, he prayed +with more than ordinary spirit. Poor man! such was +his disposition, and success at deceiving, I do verily +believe that he sometimes deceived himself into the +solemn belief, that he was a sincere worshipper of +the most high God; and this, too, at a time when +he may be said to have been guilty of compelling +his woman slave to commit the sin of adultery. The +facts in the case are these: Mr. Covey was a poor +man; he was just commencing in life; he was only +able to buy one slave; and, shocking as is the fact, +he bought her, as he said, for A BREEDER. This woman +was named Caroline. Mr. Covey bought her from +Mr. Thomas Lowe, about six miles from St. Mi- +chael's. She was a large, able-bodied woman, about +twenty years old. She had already given birth to one +child, which proved her to be just what he wanted. +After buying her, he hired a married man of Mr. +Samuel Harrison, to live with him one year; and him +he used to fasten up with her every night! The re- +sult was, that, at the end of the year, the miserable +woman gave birth to twins. At this result Mr. Covey +seemed to be highly pleased, both with the man and +the wretched woman. Such was his joy, and that of +his wife, that nothing they could do for Caroline +during her confinement was too good, or too hard, +to be done. The children were regarded as being +quite an addition to his wealth. + + If at any one time of my life more than another, +I was made to drink the bitterest dregs of slavery, +that time was during the first six months of my stay +with Mr. Covey. We were worked in all weathers. +It was never too hot or too cold; it could never rain, +blow, hail, or snow, too hard for us to work in the +field. Work, work, work, was scarcely more the order +of the day than of the night. The longest days were +too short for him, and the shortest nights too long +for him. I was somewhat unmanageable when I first +went there, but a few months of this discipline +tamed me. Mr. Covey succeeded in breaking me. I +was broken in body, soul, and spirit. My natural +elasticity was crushed, my intellect languished, the +disposition to read departed, the cheerful spark that +lingered about my eye died; the dark night of slavery +closed in upon me; and behold a man transformed +into a brute! + + Sunday was my only leisure time. I spent this in +a sort of beast-like stupor, between sleep and wake, +under some large tree. At times I would rise up, a +flash of energetic freedom would dart through my +soul, accompanied with a faint beam of hope, that +flickered for a moment, and then vanished. I sank +down again, mourning over my wretched condition. +I was sometimes prompted to take my life, and that +of Covey, but was prevented by a combination of +hope and fear. My sufferings on this plantation seem +now like a dream rather than a stern reality. + + Our house stood within a few rods of the Chesa- +peake Bay, whose broad bosom was ever white with +sails from every quarter of the habitable globe. +Those beautiful vessels, robed in purest white, so +delightful to the eye of freemen, were to me so +many shrouded ghosts, to terrify and torment me +with thoughts of my wretched condition. I have of- +ten, in the deep stillness of a summer's Sabbath, +stood all alone upon the lofty banks of that noble +bay, and traced, with saddened heart and tearful +eye, the countless number of sails moving off to +the mighty ocean. The sight of these always affected +me powerfully. My thoughts would compel utter- +ance; and there, with no audience but the Almighty, +I would pour out my soul's complaint, in my rude +way, with an apostrophe to the moving multitude of +ships:-- + + "You are loosed from your moorings, and are free; +I am fast in my chains, and am a slave! You move +merrily before the gentle gale, and I sadly before +the bloody whip! You are freedom's swift-winged +angels, that fly round the world; I am confined in +bands of iron! O that I were free! O, that I were +on one of your gallant decks, and under your pro- +tecting wing! Alas! betwixt me and you, the turbid +waters roll. Go on, go on. O that I could also go! +Could I but swim! If I could fly! O, why was I born +a man, of whom to make a brute! The glad ship +is gone; she hides in the dim distance. I am left in +the hottest hell of unending slavery. O God, save +me! God, deliver me! Let me be free! Is there any +God? Why am I a slave? I will run away. I will not +stand it. Get caught, or get clear, I'll try it. I had +as well die with ague as the fever. I have only one +life to lose. I had as well be killed running as die +standing. Only think of it; one hundred miles +straight north, and I am free! Try it? Yes! God +helping me, I will. It cannot be that I shall live +and die a slave. I will take to the water. This very +bay shall yet bear me into freedom. The steam- +boats steered in a north-east course from North +Point. I will do the same; and when I get to the +head of the bay, I will turn my canoe adrift, and +walk straight through Delaware into Pennsylvania. +When I get there, I shall not be required to have a +pass; I can travel without being disturbed. Let but +the first opportunity offer, and, come what will, I +am off. Meanwhile, I will try to bear up under the +yoke. I am not the only slave in the world. Why +should I fret? I can bear as much as any of them. +Besides, I am but a boy, and all boys are bound to +some one. It may be that my misery in slavery will +only increase my happiness when I get free. There +is a better day coming." + + Thus I used to think, and thus I used to speak +to myself; goaded almost to madness at one mo- +ment, and at the next reconciling myself to my +wretched lot. + + I have already intimated that my condition was +much worse, during the first six months of my stay +at Mr. Covey's, than in the last six. The circum- +stances leading to the change in Mr. Covey's course +toward me form an epoch in my humble history. +You have seen how a man was made a slave; you +shall see how a slave was made a man. On one of +the hottest days of the month of August, 1833, Bill +Smith, William Hughes, a slave named Eli, and +myself, were engaged in fanning wheat. Hughes was +clearing the fanned wheat from before the fan. Eli +was turning, Smith was feeding, and I was carrying +wheat to the fan. The work was simple, requiring +strength rather than intellect; yet, to one entirely +unused to such work, it came very hard. About three +o'clock of that day, I broke down; my strength failed +me; I was seized with a violent aching of the head, +attended with extreme dizziness; I trembled in every +limb. Finding what was coming, I nerved myself +up, feeling it would never do to stop work. I stood +as long as I could stagger to the hopper with grain. +When I could stand no longer, I fell, and felt as +if held down by an immense weight. The fan of +course stopped; every one had his own work to do; +and no one could do the work of the other, and +have his own go on at the same time. + + Mr. Covey was at the house, about one hundred +yards from the treading-yard where we were fanning. +On hearing the fan stop, he left immediately, and +came to the spot where we were. He hastily in- +quired what the matter was. Bill answered that I +was sick, and there was no one to bring wheat to the +fan. I had by this time crawled away under the +side of the post and rail-fence by which the yard +was enclosed, hoping to find relief by getting out +of the sun. He then asked where I was. He was +told by one of the hands. He came to the spot, and, +after looking at me awhile, asked me what was +the matter. I told him as well as I could, for I scarce +had strength to speak. He then gave me a savage +kick in the side, and told me to get up. I tried to +do so, but fell back in the attempt. He gave me +another kick, and again told me to rise. I again +tried, and succeeded in gaining my feet; but, stoop- +ing to get the tub with which I was feeding the +fan, I again staggered and fell. While down in this +situation, Mr. Covey took up the hickory slat with +which Hughes had been striking off the half-bushel +measure, and with it gave me a heavy blow upon +the head, making a large wound, and the blood ran +freely; and with this again told me to get up. I made +no effort to comply, having now made up my mind +to let him do his worst. In a short time after re- +ceiving this blow, my head grew better. Mr. Covey +had now left me to my fate. At this moment I re- +solved, for the first time, to go to my master, enter +a complaint, and ask his protection. In order to do +this, I must that afternoon walk seven miles; and +this, under the circumstances, was truly a severe +undertaking. I was exceedingly feeble; made so as +much by the kicks and blows which I received, as +by the severe fit of sickness to which I had been +subjected. I, however, watched my chance, while +Covey was looking in an opposite direction, and +started for St. Michael's. I succeeded in getting a +considerable distance on my way to the woods, when +Covey discovered me, and called after me to come +back, threatening what he would do if I did not +come. I disregarded both his calls and his threats, +and made my way to the woods as fast as my feeble +state would allow; and thinking I might be over- +hauled by him if I kept the road, I walked through +the woods, keeping far enough from the road to +avoid detection, and near enough to prevent losing +my way. I had not gone far before my little strength +again failed me. I could go no farther. I fell down, +and lay for a considerable time. The blood was yet +oozing from the wound on my head. For a time I +thought I should bleed to death; and think now that +I should have done so, but that the blood so matted +my hair as to stop the wound. After lying there +about three quarters of an hour, I nerved myself +up again, and started on my way, through bogs and +briers, barefooted and bareheaded, tearing my feet +sometimes at nearly every step; and after a journey +of about seven miles, occupying some five hours to +perform it, I arrived at master's store. I then pre- +sented an appearance enough to affect any but a +heart of iron. From the crown of my head to my +feet, I was covered with blood. My hair was all +clotted with dust and blood; my shirt was stiff with +blood. I suppose I looked like a man who had es- +caped a den of wild beasts, and barely escaped them. +In this state I appeared before my master, humbly +entreating him to interpose his authority for my +protection. I told him all the circumstances as well +as I could, and it seemed, as I spoke, at times to +affect him. He would then walk the floor, and seek +to justify Covey by saying he expected I deserved +it. He asked me what I wanted. I told him, to let +me get a new home; that as sure as I lived with Mr. +Covey again, I should live with but to die with +him; that Covey would surely kill me; he was in a +fair way for it. Master Thomas ridiculed the idea +that there was any danger of Mr. Covey's killing +me, and said that he knew Mr. Covey; that he was +a good man, and that he could not think of taking +me from him; that, should he do so, he would lose +the whole year's wages; that I belonged to Mr. Covey +for one year, and that I must go back to him, come +what might; and that I must not trouble him with +any more stories, or that he would himself GET HOLD +OF ME. After threatening me thus, he gave me a very +large dose of salts, telling me that I might remain +in St. Michael's that night, (it being quite late,) +but that I must be off back to Mr. Covey's early +in the morning; and that if I did not, he would +~get hold of me,~ which meant that he would whip +me. I remained all night, and, according to his or- +ders, I started off to Covey's in the morning, (Sat- +urday morning,) wearied in body and broken in +spirit. I got no supper that night, or breakfast that +morning. I reached Covey's about nine o'clock; and +just as I was getting over the fence that divided +Mrs. Kemp's fields from ours, out ran Covey with +his cowskin, to give me another whipping. Before +he could reach me, I succeeded in getting to the +cornfield; and as the corn was very high, it afforded +me the means of hiding. He seemed very angry, and +searched for me a long time. My behavior was al- +together unaccountable. He finally gave up the +chase, thinking, I suppose, that I must come home +for something to eat; he would give himself no fur- +ther trouble in looking for me. I spent that day +mostly in the woods, having the alternative before +me,--to go home and be whipped to death, or stay +in the woods and be starved to death. That night, +I fell in with Sandy Jenkins, a slave with whom +I was somewhat acquainted. Sandy had a free wife +who lived about four miles from Mr. Covey's; and +it being Saturday, he was on his way to see her. I +told him my circumstances, and he very kindly in- +vited me to go home with him. I went home with +him, and talked this whole matter over, and got his +advice as to what course it was best for me to pursue. +I found Sandy an old adviser. He told me, with +great solemnity, I must go back to Covey; but that +before I went, I must go with him into another +part of the woods, where there was a certain ~root,~ +which, if I would take some of it with me, carrying +it ~always on my right side,~ would render it impos- +sible for Mr. Covey, or any other white man, to +whip me. He said he had carried it for years; and +since he had done so, he had never received a blow, +and never expected to while he carried it. I at first +rejected the idea, that the simple carrying of a root +in my pocket would have any such effect as he had +said, and was not disposed to take it; but Sandy +impressed the necessity with much earnestness, tell- +ing me it could do no harm, if it did no good. To +please him, I at length took the root, and, ac- +cording to his direction, carried it upon my right +side. This was Sunday morning. I immediately +started for home; and upon entering the yard gate, +out came Mr. Covey on his way to meeting. He +spoke to me very kindly, bade me drive the pigs +from a lot near by, and passed on towards the +church. Now, this singular conduct of Mr. Covey +really made me begin to think that there was some- +thing in the ROOT which Sandy had given me; and +had it been on any other day than Sunday, I could +have attributed the conduct to no other cause than +the influence of that root; and as it was, I was half +inclined to think the ~root~ to be something more +than I at first had taken it to be. All went well till +Monday morning. On this morning, the virtue of +the ROOT was fully tested. Long before daylight, I +was called to go and rub, curry, and feed, the horses. +I obeyed, and was glad to obey. But whilst thus +engaged, whilst in the act of throwing down some +blades from the loft, Mr. Covey entered the stable +with a long rope; and just as I was half out of the +loft, he caught hold of my legs, and was about tying +me. As soon as I found what he was up to, I gave +a sudden spring, and as I did so, he holding to my +legs, I was brought sprawling on the stable floor. +Mr. Covey seemed now to think he had me, and +could do what he pleased; but at this moment-- +from whence came the spirit I don't know--I re- +solved to fight; and, suiting my action to the reso- +lution, I seized Covey hard by the throat; and as I +did so, I rose. He held on to me, and I to him. My +resistance was so entirely unexpected that Covey +seemed taken all aback. He trembled like a leaf. +This gave me assurance, and I held him uneasy, +causing the blood to run where I touched him with +the ends of my fingers. Mr. Covey soon called out +to Hughes for help. Hughes came, and, while Covey +held me, attempted to tie my right hand. While he +was in the act of doing so, I watched my chance, +and gave him a heavy kick close under the ribs. +This kick fairly sickened Hughes, so that he left +me in the hands of Mr. Covey. This kick had the +effect of not only weakening Hughes, but Covey also. +When he saw Hughes bending over with pain, his +courage quailed. He asked me if I meant to persist +in my resistance. I told him I did, come what +might; that he had used me like a brute for six +months, and that I was determined to be used so +no longer. With that, he strove to drag me to a +stick that was lying just out of the stable door. He +meant to knock me down. But just as he was leaning +over to get the stick, I seized him with both hands +by his collar, and brought him by a sudden snatch +to the ground. By this time, Bill came. Covey called +upon him for assistance. Bill wanted to know what +he could do. Covey said, "Take hold of him, take +hold of him!" Bill said his master hired him out to +work, and not to help to whip me; so he left Covey +and myself to fight our own battle out. We were +at it for nearly two hours. Covey at length let me +go, puffing and blowing at a great rate, saying that +if I had not resisted, he would not have whipped +me half so much. The truth was, that he had not +whipped me at all. I considered him as getting en- +tirely the worst end of the bargain; for he had drawn +no blood from me, but I had from him. The whole +six months afterwards, that I spent with Mr. Covey, +he never laid the weight of his finger upon me in +anger. He would occasionally say, he didn't want +to get hold of me again. "No," thought I, "you +need not; for you will come off worse than you did +before." + + This battle with Mr. Covey was the turning- +point in my career as a slave. It rekindled the few +expiring embers of freedom, and revived within me +a sense of my own manhood. It recalled the de- +parted self-confidence, and inspired me again with +a determination to be free. The gratification af- +forded by the triumph was a full compensation for +whatever else might follow, even death itself. He +only can understand the deep satisfaction which I +experienced, who has himself repelled by force the +bloody arm of slavery. I felt as I never felt before. +It was a glorious resurrection, from the tomb of +slavery, to the heaven of freedom. My long-crushed +spirit rose, cowardice departed, bold defiance took +its place; and I now resolved that, however long I +might remain a slave in form, the day had passed +forever when I could be a slave in fact. I did not +hesitate to let it be known of me, that the white +man who expected to succeed in whipping, must +also succeed in killing me. + + From this time I was never again what might be +called fairly whipped, though I remained a slave +four years afterwards. I had several fights, but was +never whipped. + + It was for a long time a matter of surprise to me +why Mr. Covey did not immediately have me taken +by the constable to the whipping-post, and there +regularly whipped for the crime of raising my hand +against a white man in defence of myself. And the +only explanation I can now think of does not entirely +satisfy me; but such as it is, I will give it. Mr. Covey +enjoyed the most unbounded reputation for being +a first-rate overseer and negro-breaker. It was of con- +siderable importance to him. That reputation was at +stake; and had he sent me--a boy about sixteen years +old--to the public whipping-post, his reputation +would have been lost; so, to save his reputation, he +suffered me to go unpunished. + + My term of actual service to Mr. Edward Covey +ended on Christmas day, 1833. The days between +Christmas and New Year's day are allowed as holi- +days; and, accordingly, we were not required to per- +form any labor, more than to feed and take care of +the stock. This time we regarded as our own, by the +grace of our masters; and we therefore used or +abused it nearly as we pleased. Those of us who had +families at a distance, were generally allowed to +spend the whole six days in their society. This time, +however, was spent in various ways. The staid, sober, +thinking and industrious ones of our number would +employ themselves in making corn-brooms, mats, +horse-collars, and baskets; and another class of us +would spend the time in hunting opossums, hares, +and coons. But by far the larger part engaged in +such sports and merriments as playing ball, wres- +tling, running foot-races, fiddling, dancing, and +drinking whisky; and this latter mode of spending +the time was by far the most agreeable to the feel- +ings of our masters. A slave who would work during +the holidays was considered by our masters as +scarcely deserving them. He was regarded as one +who rejected the favor of his master. It was deemed +a disgrace not to get drunk at Christmas; and he +was regarded as lazy indeed, who had not provided +himself with the necessary means, during the year, +to get whisky enough to last him through Christmas. + + From what I know of the effect of these holidays +upon the slave, I believe them to be among the +most effective means in the hands of the slaveholder +in keeping down the spirit of insurrection. Were +the slaveholders at once to abandon this practice, +I have not the slightest doubt it would lead to an +immediate insurrection among the slaves. These +holidays serve as conductors, or safety-valves, to carry +off the rebellious spirit of enslaved humanity. But +for these, the slave would be forced up to the wild- +est desperation; and woe betide the slaveholder, the +day he ventures to remove or hinder the operation +of those conductors! I warn him that, in such an +event, a spirit will go forth in their midst, more to +be dreaded than the most appalling earthquake. + + The holidays are part and parcel of the gross +fraud, wrong, and inhumanity of slavery. They are +professedly a custom established by the benevolence +of the slaveholders; but I undertake to say, it is the +result of selfishness, and one of the grossest frauds +committed upon the down-trodden slave. They do +not give the slaves this time because they would +not like to have their work during its continuance, +but because they know it would be unsafe to deprive +them of it. This will be seen by the fact, that the +slaveholders like to have their slaves spend those +days just in such a manner as to make them as glad +of their ending as of their beginning. Their object +seems to be, to disgust their slaves with freedom, +by plunging them into the lowest depths of dissipa- +tion. For instance, the slaveholders not only like to +see the slave drink of his own accord, but will adopt +various plans to make him drunk. One plan is, to +make bets on their slaves, as to who can drink the +most whisky without getting drunk; and in this way +they succeed in getting whole multitudes to drink +to excess. Thus, when the slave asks for virtuous +freedom, the cunning slaveholder, knowing his ig- +norance, cheats him with a dose of vicious dissi- +pation, artfully labelled with the name of liberty. +The most of us used to drink it down, and the result +was just what might be supposed; many of us +were led to think that there was little to choose +between liberty and slavery. We felt, and very prop- +erly too, that we had almost as well be slaves to +man as to rum. So, when the holidays ended, we +staggered up from the filth of our wallowing, took +a long breath, and marched to the field,--feeling, +upon the whole, rather glad to go, from what our +master had deceived us into a belief was freedom, +back to the arms of slavery. + + I have said that this mode of treatment is a part +of the whole system of fraud and inhumanity of +slavery. It is so. The mode here adopted to disgust +the slave with freedom, by allowing him to see only +the abuse of it, is carried out in other things. For +instance, a slave loves molasses; he steals some. +His master, in many cases, goes off to town, and +buys a large quantity; he returns, takes his whip, +and commands the slave to eat the molasses, until +the poor fellow is made sick at the very mention +of it. The same mode is sometimes adopted to make +the slaves refrain from asking for more food than +their regular allowance. A slave runs through his +allowance, and applies for more. His master is en- +raged at him; but, not willing to send him off with- +out food, gives him more than is necessary, and com- +pels him to eat it within a given time. Then, if he +complains that he cannot eat it, he is said to be +satisfied neither full nor fasting, and is whipped +for being hard to please! I have an abundance of +such illustrations of the same principle, drawn from +my own observation, but think the cases I have cited +sufficient. The practice is a very common one. + + On the first of January, 1834, I left Mr. Covey, +and went to live with Mr. William Freeland, who +lived about three miles from St. Michael's. I soon +found Mr. Freeland a very different man from Mr. +Covey. Though not rich, he was what would be +called an educated southern gentleman. Mr. Covey, +as I have shown, was a well-trained negro-breaker +and slave-driver. The former (slaveholder though he +was) seemed to possess some regard for honor, +some reverence for justice, and some respect for +humanity. The latter seemed totally insensible to +all such sentiments. Mr. Freeland had many of the +faults peculiar to slaveholders, such as being very +passionate and fretful; but I must do him the +justice to say, that he was exceedingly free from +those degrading vices to which Mr. Covey was con- +stantly addicted. The one was open and frank, and +we always knew where to find him. The other was a +most artful deceiver, and could be understood only +by such as were skilful enough to detect his cun- +ningly-devised frauds. Another advantage I gained +in my new master was, he made no pretensions to, +or profession of, religion; and this, in my opinion, +was truly a great advantage. I assert most unhesi- +tatingly, that the religion of the south is a mere +covering for the most horrid crimes,--a justifier of +the most appalling barbarity,--a sanctifier of the +most hateful frauds,--and a dark shelter under, +which the darkest, foulest, grossest, and most infer- +nal deeds of slaveholders find the strongest protec- +tion. Were I to be again reduced to the chains of +slavery, next to that enslavement, I should regard +being the slave of a religious master the greatest +calamity that could befall me. For of all slaveholders +with whom I have ever met, religious slaveholders +are the worst. I have ever found them the meanest +and basest, the most cruel and cowardly, of all oth- +ers. It was my unhappy lot not only to belong to a +religious slaveholder, but to live in a community of +such religionists. Very near Mr. Freeland lived the +Rev. Daniel Weeden, and in the same neighborhood +lived the Rev. Rigby Hopkins. These were members +and ministers in the Reformed Methodist Church. +Mr. Weeden owned, among others, a woman slave, +whose name I have forgotten. This woman's back, +for weeks, was kept literally raw, made so by the +lash of this merciless, ~religious~ wretch. He used to +hire hands. His maxim was, Behave well or behave +ill, it is the duty of a master occasionally to whip +a slave, to remind him of his master's authority. +Such was his theory, and such his practice. + + Mr. Hopkins was even worse than Mr. Weeden. +His chief boast was his ability to manage slaves. +The peculiar feature of his government was that +of whipping slaves in advance of deserving it. He +always managed to have one or more of his slaves +to whip every Monday morning. He did this to alarm +their fears, and strike terror into those who escaped. +His plan was to whip for the smallest offences, to +prevent the commission of large ones. Mr. Hopkins +could always find some excuse for whipping a slave. +It would astonish one, unaccustomed to a slave- +holding life, to see with what wonderful ease a slave- +holder can find things, of which to make occasion +to whip a slave. A mere look, word, or motion,--a +mistake, accident, or want of power,--are all matters +for which a slave may be whipped at any time. Does +a slave look dissatisfied? It is said, he has the devil +in him, and it must be whipped out. Does he speak +loudly when spoken to by his master? Then he is +getting high-minded, and should be taken down a +button-hole lower. Does he forget to pull off his +hat at the approach of a white person? Then he is +wanting in reverence, and should be whipped for +it. Does he ever venture to vindicate his conduct, +when censured for it? Then he is guilty of impu- +dence,--one of the greatest crimes of which a slave +can be guilty. Does he ever venture to suggest a +different mode of doing things from that pointed +out by his master? He is indeed presumptuous, and +getting above himself; and nothing less than a flog- +ging will do for him. Does he, while ploughing, +break a plough,--or, while hoeing, break a hoe? It +is owing to his carelessness, and for it a slave must +always be whipped. Mr. Hopkins could always find +something of this sort to justify the use of the lash, +and he seldom failed to embrace such opportunities. +There was not a man in the whole county, with +whom the slaves who had the getting their own +home, would not prefer to live, rather than with +this Rev. Mr. Hopkins. And yet there was not a +man any where round, who made higher professions +of religion, or was more active in revivals,--more +attentive to the class, love-feast, prayer and preach- +ing meetings, or more devotional in his family,-- +that prayed earlier, later, louder, and longer,--than +this same reverend slave-driver, Rigby Hopkins. + + But to return to Mr. Freeland, and to my experi- +ence while in his employment. He, like Mr. Covey, +gave us enough to eat; but, unlike Mr. Covey, he +also gave us sufficient time to take our meals. He +worked us hard, but always between sunrise and +sunset. He required a good deal of work to be done, +but gave us good tools with which to work. His +farm was large, but he employed hands enough to +work it, and with ease, compared with many of +his neighbors. My treatment, while in his employ- +ment, was heavenly, compared with what I experi- +enced at the hands of Mr. Edward Covey. + + Mr. Freeland was himself the owner of but two +slaves. Their names were Henry Harris and John +Harris. The rest of his hands he hired. These con- +sisted of myself, Sandy Jenkins,* and Handy Cald- +well. Henry and John were quite intelligent, and in +a very little while after I went there, I succeeded in +creating in them a strong desire to learn how to +read. This desire soon sprang up in the others also. +They very soon mustered up some old spelling-books, +and nothing would do but that I must keep a Sab- +bath school. I agreed to do so, and accordingly +devoted my Sundays to teaching these my loved fel- +low-slaves how to read. Neither of them knew his +letters when I went there. Some of the slaves of the +neighboring farms found what was going on, and +also availed themselves of this little opportunity to +learn to read. It was understood, among all who +came, that there must be as little display about it +as possible. It was necessary to keep our religious +masters at St. Michael's unacquainted with the fact, +that, instead of spending the Sabbath in wrestling, +boxing, and drinking whisky, we were trying to learn +how to read the will of God; for they had much + + + *This is the same man who gave me the roots to prevent +my being whipped by Mr. Covey. He was "a clever soul." +We used frequently to talk about the fight with Covey, and +as often as we did so, he would claim my success as the +result of the roots which he gave me. This superstition +is very common among the more ignorant slaves. A slave +seldom dies but that his death is attributed to trickery. +rather see us engaged in those degrading sports, than +to see us behaving like intellectual, moral, and ac- +countable beings. My blood boils as I think of the +bloody manner in which Messrs. Wright Fairbanks +and Garrison West, both class-leaders, in connection +with many others, rushed in upon us with sticks +and stones, and broke up our virtuous little Sab- +bath school, at St. Michael's--all calling themselves +Christians! humble followers of the Lord Jesus +Christ! But I am again digressing. + + I held my Sabbath school at the house of a free +colored man, whose name I deem it imprudent to +mention; for should it be known, it might embar- +rass him greatly, though the crime of holding the +school was committed ten years ago. I had at one +time over forty scholars, and those of the right sort, +ardently desiring to learn. They were of all ages, +though mostly men and women. I look back to those +Sundays with an amount of pleasure not to be ex- +pressed. They were great days to my soul. The work +of instructing my dear fellow-slaves was the sweetest +engagement with which I was ever blessed. We loved +each other, and to leave them at the close of the +Sabbath was a severe cross indeed. When I think +that these precious souls are to-day shut up in the +prison-house of slavery, my feelings overcome me, +and I am almost ready to ask, "Does a righteous +God govern the universe? and for what does he hold +the thunders in his right hand, if not to smite the +oppressor, and deliver the spoiled out of the hand +of the spoiler?" These dear souls came not to Sab- +bath school because it was popular to do so, nor did +I teach them because it was reputable to be thus +engaged. Every moment they spent in that school, +they were liable to be taken up, and given thirty- +nine lashes. They came because they wished to +learn. Their minds had been starved by their cruel +masters. They had been shut up in mental darkness. +I taught them, because it was the delight of my +soul to be doing something that looked like better- +ing the condition of my race. I kept up my school +nearly the whole year I lived with Mr. Freeland; +and, beside my Sabbath school, I devoted three eve- +nings in the week, during the winter, to teaching the +slaves at home. And I have the happiness to know, +that several of those who came to Sabbath school +learned how to read; and that one, at least, is now +free through my agency. + + The year passed off smoothly. It seemed only +about half as long as the year which preceded it. +I went through it without receiving a single blow. +I will give Mr. Freeland the credit of being the +best master I ever had, ~till I became my own mas- +ter.~ For the ease with which I passed the year, I +was, however, somewhat indebted to the society of +my fellow-slaves. They were noble souls; they not +only possessed loving hearts, but brave ones. We +were linked and interlinked with each other. I loved +them with a love stronger than any thing I have +experienced since. It is sometimes said that we +slaves do not love and confide in each other. In +answer to this assertion, I can say, I never loved +any or confided in any people more than my fellow- +slaves, and especially those with whom I lived at +Mr. Freeland's. I believe we would have died for +each other. We never undertook to do any thing, +of any importance, without a mutual consultation. +We never moved separately. We were one; and as +much so by our tempers and dispositions, as by the +mutual hardships to which we were necessarily sub- +jected by our condition as slaves. + + At the close of the year 1834, Mr. Freeland again +hired me of my master, for the year 1835. But, by +this time, I began to want to live ~upon free land~ +as well as ~with freeland;~ and I was no longer con- +tent, therefore, to live with him or any other slave- +holder. I began, with the commencement of the +year, to prepare myself for a final struggle, which +should decide my fate one way or the other. My +tendency was upward. I was fast approaching man- +hood, and year after year had passed, and I was +still a slave. These thoughts roused me--I must do +something. I therefore resolved that 1835 should +not pass without witnessing an attempt, on my part, +to secure my liberty. But I was not willing to cherish +this determination alone. My fellow-slaves were dear +to me. I was anxious to have them participate with +me in this, my life-giving determination. I therefore, +though with great prudence, commenced early to +ascertain their views and feelings in regard to their +condition, and to imbue their minds with thoughts +of freedom. I bent myself to devising ways and +means for our escape, and meanwhile strove, on all +fitting occasions, to impress them with the gross +fraud and inhumanity of slavery. I went first to +Henry, next to John, then to the others. I found, +in them all, warm hearts and noble spirits. They +were ready to hear, and ready to act when a feasible +plan should be proposed. This was what I wanted. +I talked to them of our want of manhood, if we +submitted to our enslavement without at least one +noble effort to be free. We met often, and consulted +frequently, and told our hopes and fears, recounted +the difficulties, real and imagined, which we should +be called on to meet. At times we were almost dis- +posed to give up, and try to content ourselves with +our wretched lot; at others, we were firm and un- +bending in our determination to go. Whenever we +suggested any plan, there was shrinking--the odds +were fearful. Our path was beset with the greatest +obstacles; and if we succeeded in gaining the end +of it, our right to be free was yet questionable--we +were yet liable to be returned to bondage. We could +see no spot, this side of the ocean, where we could +be free. We knew nothing about Canada. Our +knowledge of the north did not extend farther than +New York; and to go there, and be forever harassed +with the frightful liability of being returned to +slavery--with the certainty of being treated tenfold +worse than before--the thought was truly a horrible +one, and one which it was not easy to overcome. +The case sometimes stood thus: At every gate +through which we were to pass, we saw a watchman +--at every ferry a guard--on every bridge a sentinel-- +and in every wood a patrol. We were hemmed in +upon every side. Here were the difficulties, real or +imagined--the good to be sought, and the evil to be +shunned. On the one hand, there stood slavery, a +stern reality, glaring frightfully upon us,--its robes +already crimsoned with the blood of millions, and +even now feasting itself greedily upon our own flesh. +On the other hand, away back in the dim distance, +under the flickering light of the north star, behind +some craggy hill or snow-covered mountain, stood +a doubtful freedom--half frozen--beckoning us to +come and share its hospitality. This in itself was +sometimes enough to stagger us; but when we per- +mitted ourselves to survey the road, we were fre- +quently appalled. Upon either side we saw grim +death, assuming the most horrid shapes. Now it was +starvation, causing us to eat our own flesh;--now we +were contending with the waves, and were drowned; +--now we were overtaken, and torn to pieces by the +fangs of the terrible bloodhound. We were stung +by scorpions, chased by wild beasts, bitten by snakes, +and finally, after having nearly reached the desired +spot,--after swimming rivers, encountering wild +beasts, sleeping in the woods, suffering hunger and +nakedness,--we were overtaken by our pursuers, and, +in our resistance, we were shot dead upon the spot! +I say, this picture sometimes appalled us, and made +us + + + "rather bear those ills we had, + + Than fly to others, that we knew not of." + + + In coming to a fixed determination to run away, +we did more than Patrick Henry, when he resolved +upon liberty or death. With us it was a doubtful +liberty at most, and almost certain death if we failed. +For my part, I should prefer death to hopeless bond- +age. + + Sandy, one of our number, gave up the notion, +but still encouraged us. Our company then consisted +of Henry Harris, John Harris, Henry Bailey, Charles +Roberts, and myself. Henry Bailey was my uncle, +and belonged to my master. Charles married my +aunt: he belonged to my master's father-in-law, Mr. +William Hamilton. + + The plan we finally concluded upon was, to get +a large canoe belonging to Mr. Hamilton, and upon +the Saturday night previous to Easter holidays, +paddle directly up the Chesapeake Bay. On our ar- +rival at the head of the bay, a distance of seventy +or eighty miles from where we lived, it was our +purpose to turn our canoe adrift, and follow the +guidance of the north star till we got beyond the +limits of Maryland. Our reason for taking the water +route was, that we were less liable to be suspected as +runaways; we hoped to be regarded as fishermen; +whereas, if we should take the land route, we should +be subjected to interruptions of almost every kind. +Any one having a white face, and being so disposed, +could stop us, and subject us to examination. + + The week before our intended start, I wrote sev- +eral protections, one for each of us. As well as I +can remember, they were in the following words, to +wit:-- + + + "This is to certify that I, the undersigned, have +given the bearer, my servant, full liberty to go to +Baltimore, and spend the Easter holidays. Written +with mine own hand, &c., 1835. + + "WILLIAM HAMILTON, + + "Near St. Michael's, in Talbot county, Maryland." + + + We were not going to Baltimore; but, in going up +the bay, we went toward Baltimore, and these pro- +tections were only intended to protect us while on +the bay. + + As the time drew near for our departure, our +anxiety became more and more intense. It was truly +a matter of life and death with us. The strength of +our determination was about to be fully tested. At +this time, I was very active in explaining every dif- +ficulty, removing every doubt, dispelling every fear, +and inspiring all with the firmness indispensable to +success in our undertaking; assuring them that half +was gained the instant we made the move; we had +talked long enough; we were now ready to move; +if not now, we never should be; and if we did not +intend to move now, we had as well fold our arms, +sit down, and acknowledge ourselves fit only to be +slaves. This, none of us were prepared to acknowl- +edge. Every man stood firm; and at our last meeting, +we pledged ourselves afresh, in the most solemn +manner, that, at the time appointed, we would cer- +tainly start in pursuit of freedom. This was in the +middle of the week, at the end of which we were +to be off. We went, as usual, to our several fields +of labor, but with bosoms highly agitated with +thoughts of our truly hazardous undertaking. We +tried to conceal our feelings as much as possible; +and I think we succeeded very well. + + After a painful waiting, the Saturday morning, +whose night was to witness our departure, came. I +hailed it with joy, bring what of sadness it might. +Friday night was a sleepless one for me. I probably +felt more anxious than the rest, because I was, by +common consent, at the head of the whole affair. +The responsibility of success or failure lay heavily +upon me. The glory of the one, and the confusion +of the other, were alike mine. The first two hours +of that morning were such as I never experienced +before, and hope never to again. Early in the +morning, we went, as usual, to the field. We were +spreading manure; and all at once, while thus en- +gaged, I was overwhelmed with an indescribable feel- +ing, in the fulness of which I turned to Sandy, who +was near by, and said, "We are betrayed!" "Well," +said he, "that thought has this moment struck me." +We said no more. I was never more certain of any +thing. + + The horn was blown as usual, and we went up +from the field to the house for breakfast. I went for +the form, more than for want of any thing to eat +that morning. Just as I got to the house, in looking +out at the lane gate, I saw four white men, with +two colored men. The white men were on horseback, +and the colored ones were walking behind, as if tied. +I watched them a few moments till they got up to +our lane gate. Here they halted, and tied the colored +men to the gate-post. I was not yet certain as to +what the matter was. In a few moments, in rode +Mr. Hamilton, with a speed betokening great excite- +ment. He came to the door, and inquired if Master +William was in. He was told he was at the barn. Mr. +Hamilton, without dismounting, rode up to the barn +with extraordinary speed. In a few moments, he and +Mr. Freeland returned to the house. By this time, +the three constables rode up, and in great haste dis- +mounted, tied their horses, and met Master William +and Mr. Hamilton returning from the barn; and +after talking awhile, they all walked up to the +kitchen door. There was no one in the kitchen but +myself and John. Henry and Sandy were up at the +barn. Mr. Freeland put his head in at the door, and +called me by name, saying, there were some gentle- +men at the door who wished to see me. I stepped +to the door, and inquired what they wanted. They +at once seized me, and, without giving me any satis- +faction, tied me--lashing my hands closely together. +I insisted upon knowing what the matter was. They +at length said, that they had learned I had been in a +"scrape," and that I was to be examined before my +master; and if their information proved false, I +should not be hurt. + + In a few moments, they succeeded in tying John. +They then turned to Henry, who had by this time +returned, and commanded him to cross his hands. +"I won't!" said Henry, in a firm tone, indicating his +readiness to meet the consequences of his refusal. +"Won't you?" said Tom Graham, the constable. "No, +I won't!" said Henry, in a still stronger tone. With +this, two of the constables pulled out their shining +pistols, and swore, by their Creator, that they would +make him cross his hands or kill him. Each cocked +his pistol, and, with fingers on the trigger, walked +up to Henry, saying, at the same time, if he did not +cross his hands, they would blow his damned heart +out. "Shoot me, shoot me!" said Henry; "you can't +kill me but once. Shoot, shoot,--and be damned! ~I +won't be tied!~" This he said in a tone of loud defi- +ance; and at the same time, with a motion as quick +as lightning, he with one single stroke dashed the +pistols from the hand of each constable. As he did +this, all hands fell upon him, and, after beating +him some time, they finally overpowered him, and +got him tied. + + During the scuffle, I managed, I know not how, +to get my pass out, and, without being discovered, +put it into the fire. We were all now tied; and just +as we were to leave for Easton jail, Betsy Freeland, +mother of William Freeland, came to the door with +her hands full of biscuits, and divided them between +Henry and John. She then delivered herself of a +speech, to the following effect:--addressing herself +to me, she said, "~You devil! You yellow devil!~ it was +you that put it into the heads of Henry and John +to run away. But for you, you long-legged mulatto +devil! Henry nor John would never have thought +of such a thing." I made no reply, and was imme- +diately hurried off towards St. Michael's. Just a mo- +ment previous to the scuffle with Henry, Mr. Hamil- +ton suggested the propriety of making a search for +the protections which he had understood Frederick +had written for himself and the rest. But, just at +the moment he was about carrying his proposal into +effect, his aid was needed in helping to tie Henry; +and the excitement attending the scuffle caused +them either to forget, or to deem it unsafe, under +the circumstances, to search. So we were not yet +convicted of the intention to run away. + + When we got about half way to St. Michael's, +while the constables having us in charge were look- +ing ahead, Henry inquired of me what he should +do with his pass. I told him to eat it with his biscuit, +and own nothing; and we passed the word around, +"~Own nothing;~" and "~Own nothing!~" said we all. +Our confidence in each other was unshaken. We +were resolved to succeed or fail together, after the +calamity had befallen us as much as before. We +were now prepared for any thing. We were to be +dragged that morning fifteen miles behind horses, +and then to be placed in the Easton jail. When we +reached St. Michael's, we underwent a sort of exami- +nation. We all denied that we ever intended to run +away. We did this more to bring out the evidence +against us, than from any hope of getting clear of +being sold; for, as I have said, we were ready for +that. The fact was, we cared but little where we +went, so we went together. Our greatest concern was +about separation. We dreaded that more than any +thing this side of death. We found the evidence +against us to be the testimony of one person; our +master would not tell who it was; but we came to +a unanimous decision among ourselves as to who +their informant was. We were sent off to the jail at +Easton. When we got there, we were delivered up +to the sheriff, Mr. Joseph Graham, and by him +placed in jail. Henry, John, and myself, were placed +in one room together--Charles, and Henry Bailey, +in another. Their object in separating us was to +hinder concert. + + We had been in jail scarcely twenty minutes, +when a swarm of slave traders, and agents for slave +traders, flocked into jail to look at us, and to as- +certain if we were for sale. Such a set of beings I +never saw before! I felt myself surrounded by so +many fiends from perdition. A band of pirates never +looked more like their father, the devil. They +laughed and grinned over us, saying, "Ah, my boys! +we have got you, haven't we?" And after taunting +us in various ways, they one by one went into an +examination of us, with intent to ascertain our value. +They would impudently ask us if we would not like +to have them for our masters. We would make them +no answer, and leave them to find out as best they +could. Then they would curse and swear at us, telling +us that they could take the devil out of us in a very +little while, if we were only in their hands. + + While in jail, we found ourselves in much more +comfortable quarters than we expected when we +went there. We did not get much to eat, nor that +which was very good; but we had a good clean room, +from the windows of which we could see what was go- +ing on in the street, which was very much better +than though we had been placed in one of the dark, +damp cells. Upon the whole, we got along very well, +so far as the jail and its keeper were concerned. +Immediately after the holidays were over, contrary +to all our expectations, Mr. Hamilton and Mr. Free- +land came up to Easton, and took Charles, the two +Henrys, and John, out of jail, and carried them +home, leaving me alone. I regarded this separation +as a final one. It caused me more pain than any +thing else in the whole transaction. I was ready for +any thing rather than separation. I supposed that +they had consulted together, and had decided that, +as I was the whole cause of the intention of the +others to run away, it was hard to make the innocent +suffer with the guilty; and that they had, therefore, +concluded to take the others home, and sell me, as +a warning to the others that remained. It is due +to the noble Henry to say, he seemed almost as +reluctant at leaving the prison as at leaving home +to come to the prison. But we knew we should, in +all probability, be separated, if we were sold; and +since he was in their hands, he concluded to go +peaceably home. + + I was now left to my fate. I was all alone, and +within the walls of a stone prison. But a few days +before, and I was full of hope. I expected to have +been safe in a land of freedom; but now I was cov- +ered with gloom, sunk down to the utmost despair. +I thought the possibility of freedom was gone. I +was kept in this way about one week, at the end +of which, Captain Auld, my master, to my surprise +and utter astonishment, came up, and took me out, +with the intention of sending me, with a gentleman +of his acquaintance, into Alabama. But, from some +cause or other, he did not send me to Alabama, +but concluded to send me back to Baltimore, to +live again with his brother Hugh, and to learn a +trade. + + Thus, after an absence of three years and one +month, I was once more permitted to return to my +old home at Baltimore. My master sent me away, +because there existed against me a very great preju- +dice in the community, and he feared I might be +killed. + + In a few weeks after I went to Baltimore, Master +Hugh hired me to Mr. William Gardner, an ex- +tensive ship-builder, on Fell's Point. I was put there +to learn how to calk. It, however, proved a very +unfavorable place for the accomplishment of this +object. Mr. Gardner was engaged that spring in +building two large man-of-war brigs, professedly for +the Mexican government. The vessels were to be +launched in the July of that year, and in failure +thereof, Mr. Gardner was to lose a considerable sum; +so that when I entered, all was hurry. There was +no time to learn any thing. Every man had to do +that which he knew how to do. In entering the ship- +yard, my orders from Mr. Gardner were, to do what- +ever the carpenters commanded me to do. This was +placing me at the beck and call of about seventy-five +men. I was to regard all these as masters. Their +word was to be my law. My situation was a most +trying one. At times I needed a dozen pair of hands. +I was called a dozen ways in the space of a single +minute. Three or four voices would strike my ear +at the same moment. It was--"Fred., come help me +to cant this timber here."--"Fred., come carry this +timber yonder."--"Fred., bring that roller here."-- +"Fred., go get a fresh can of water."--"Fred., come +help saw off the end of this timber."--"Fred., go +quick, and get the crowbar."--"Fred., hold on the +end of this fall."--"Fred., go to the blacksmith's +shop, and get a new punch."--"Hurra, Fred.! run +and bring me a cold chisel."--"I say, Fred., bear a +hand, and get up a fire as quick as lightning under +that steam-box."--"Halloo, nigger! come, turn this +grindstone."--"Come, come! move, move! and BOWSE +this timber forward."--"I say, darky, blast your eyes, +why don't you heat up some pitch?"--"Halloo! +halloo! halloo!" (Three voices at the same time.) +"Come here!--Go there!--Hold on where you are! +Damn you, if you move, I'll knock your brains out!" + + This was my school for eight months; and I might +have remained there longer, but for a most horrid +fight I had with four of the white apprentices, in +which my left eye was nearly knocked out, and I +was horribly mangled in other respects. The facts +in the case were these: Until a very little while +after I went there, white and black ship-carpenters +worked side by side, and no one seemed to see any +impropriety in it. All hands seemed to be very well +satisfied. Many of the black carpenters were freemen. +Things seemed to be going on very well. All at once, +the white carpenters knocked off, and said they +would not work with free colored workmen. Their +reason for this, as alleged, was, that if free colored +carpenters were encouraged, they would soon take +the trade into their own hands, and poor white men +would be thrown out of employment. They therefore +felt called upon at once to put a stop to it. And, +taking advantage of Mr. Gardner's necessities, they +broke off, swearing they would work no longer, unless +he would discharge his black carpenters. Now, +though this did not extend to me in form, it did +reach me in fact. My fellow-apprentices very soon +began to feel it degrading to them to work with +me. They began to put on airs, and talk about the +"niggers" taking the country, saying we all ought to +be killed; and, being encouraged by the journey- +men, they commenced making my condition as +hard as they could, by hectoring me around, and +sometimes striking me. I, of course, kept the vow +I made after the fight with Mr. Covey, and struck +back again, regardless of consequences; and while +I kept them from combining, I succeeded very well; +for I could whip the whole of them, taking them +separately. They, however, at length combined, and +came upon me, armed with sticks, stones, and heavy +handspikes. One came in front with a half brick. +There was one at each side of me, and one behind +me. While I was attending to those in front, and on +either side, the one behind ran up with the hand- +spike, and struck me a heavy blow upon the head. +It stunned me. I fell, and with this they all ran +upon me, and fell to beating me with their fists. I +let them lay on for a while, gathering strength. In +an instant, I gave a sudden surge, and rose to my +hands and knees. Just as I did that, one of their +number gave me, with his heavy boot, a powerful +kick in the left eye. My eyeball seemed to have +burst. When they saw my eye closed, and badly +swollen, they left me. With this I seized the hand- +spike, and for a time pursued them. But here the +carpenters interfered, and I thought I might as well +give it up. It was impossible to stand my hand +against so many. All this took place in sight of not +less than fifty white ship-carpenters, and not one +interposed a friendly word; but some cried, "Kill +the damned nigger! Kill him! kill him! He struck +a white person." I found my only chance for life +was in flight. I succeeded in getting away without +an additional blow, and barely so; for to strike a +white man is death by Lynch law,--and that was the +law in Mr. Gardner's ship-yard; nor is there much +of any other out of Mr. Gardner's ship-yard. + + I went directly home, and told the story of my +wrongs to Master Hugh; and I am happy to say of +him, irreligious as he was, his conduct was heavenly, +compared with that of his brother Thomas under +similar circumstances. He listened attentively to my +narration of the circumstances leading to the savage +outrage, and gave many proofs of his strong indigna- +tion at it. The heart of my once overkind mistress +was again melted into pity. My puffed-out eye and +blood-covered face moved her to tears. She took a +chair by me, washed the blood from my face, and, +with a mother's tenderness, bound up my head, +covering the wounded eye with a lean piece of fresh +beef. It was almost compensation for my suffering +to witness, once more, a manifestation of kindness +from this, my once affectionate old mistress. Master +Hugh was very much enraged. He gave expression +to his feelings by pouring out curses upon the heads +of those who did the deed. As soon as I got a little +the better of my bruises, he took me with him to +Esquire Watson's, on Bond Street, to see what could +be done about the matter. Mr. Watson inquired who +saw the assault committed. Master Hugh told him +it was done in Mr. Gardner's ship-yard at midday, +where there were a large company of men at work. +"As to that," he said, "the deed was done, and there +was no question as to who did it." His answer was, +he could do nothing in the case, unless some white +man would come forward and testify. He could +issue no warrant on my word. If I had been killed +in the presence of a thousand colored people, their +testimony combined would have been insufficient +to have arrested one of the murderers. Master Hugh, +for once, was compelled to say this state of things +was too bad. Of course, it was impossible to get any +white man to volunteer his testimony in my behalf, +and against the white young men. Even those who +may have sympathized with me were not prepared +to do this. It required a degree of courage unknown +to them to do so; for just at that time, the slightest +manifestation of humanity toward a colored person +was denounced as abolitionism, and that name sub- +jected its bearer to frightful liabilities. The watch- +words of the bloody-minded in that region, and in +those days, were, "Damn the abolitionists!" and +"Damn the niggers!" There was nothing done, and +probably nothing would have been done if I had +been killed. Such was, and such remains, the state +of things in the Christian city of Baltimore. + + Master Hugh, finding he could get no redress, re- +fused to let me go back again to Mr. Gardner. He +kept me himself, and his wife dressed my wound +till I was again restored to health. He then took me +into the ship-yard of which he was foreman, in the +employment of Mr. Walter Price. There I was im- +mediately set to calking, and very soon learned the +art of using my mallet and irons. In the course of +one year from the time I left Mr. Gardner's, I was +able to command the highest wages given to the +most experienced calkers. I was now of some impor- +tance to my master. I was bringing him from six +to seven dollars per week. I sometimes brought him +nine dollars per week: my wages were a dollar and +a half a day. After learning how to calk, I sought +my own employment, made my own contracts, and +collected the money which I earned. My pathway +became much more smooth than before; my condi- +tion was now much more comfortable. When I could +get no calking to do, I did nothing. During these +leisure times, those old notions about freedom would +steal over me again. When in Mr. Gardner's employ- +ment, I was kept in such a perpetual whirl of ex- +citement, I could think of nothing, scarcely, but +my life; and in thinking of my life, I almost forgot +my liberty. I have observed this in my experience +of slavery,--that whenever my condition was im- +proved, instead of its increasing my contentment, +it only increased my desire to be free, and set me to +thinking of plans to gain my freedom. I have found +that, to make a contented slave, it is necessary to +make a thoughtless one. It is necessary to darken his +moral and mental vision, and, as far as possible, to +annihilate the power of reason. He must be able to +detect no inconsistencies in slavery; he must be made +to feel that slavery is right; and he can be brought +to that only when he ceases to be a man. + + I was now getting, as I have said, one dollar and +fifty cents per day. I contracted for it; I earned it; +it was paid to me; it was rightfully my own; yet, +upon each returning Saturday night, I was compelled +to deliver every cent of that money to Master Hugh. +And why? Not because he earned it,--not because +he had any hand in earning it,--not because I owed +it to him,--nor because he possessed the slightest +shadow of a right to it; but solely because he had +the power to compel me to give it up. The right of +the grim-visaged pirate upon the high seas is exactly +the same. + + + + CHAPTER XI + + + I now come to that part of my life during which I +planned, and finally succeeded in making, my escape +from slavery. But before narrating any of the pe- +culiar circumstances, I deem it proper to make +known my intention not to state all the facts con- +nected with the transaction. My reasons for pursuing +this course may be understood from the following: +First, were I to give a minute statement of all the +facts, it is not only possible, but quite probable, that +others would thereby be involved in the most embar- +rassing difficulties. Secondly, such a statement would +most undoubtedly induce greater vigilance on the +part of slaveholders than has existed heretofore +among them; which would, of course, be the means +of guarding a door whereby some dear brother bond- +man might escape his galling chains. I deeply regret +the necessity that impels me to suppress any thing +of importance connected with my experience in +slavery. It would afford me great pleasure indeed, +as well as materially add to the interest of my nar- +rative, were I at liberty to gratify a curiosity, which +I know exists in the minds of many, by an accurate +statement of all the facts pertaining to my most +fortunate escape. But I must deprive myself of this +pleasure, and the curious of the gratification which +such a statement would afford. I would allow my- +self to suffer under the greatest imputations which +evil-minded men might suggest, rather than excul- +pate myself, and thereby run the hazard of closing +the slightest avenue by which a brother slave might +clear himself of the chains and fetters of slavery. + + I have never approved of the very public manner +in which some of our western friends have conducted +what they call the ~underground railroad,~ but which +I think, by their open declarations, has been made +most emphatically the ~upperground railroad.~ I honor +those good men and women for their noble daring, +and applaud them for willingly subjecting them- +selves to bloody persecution, by openly avowing their +participation in the escape of slaves. I, however, can +see very little good resulting from such a course, +either to themselves or the slaves escaping; while, +upon the other hand, I see and feel assured that +those open declarations are a positive evil to the +slaves remaining, who are seeking to escape. They +do nothing towards enlightening the slave, whilst +they do much towards enlightening the master. +They stimulate him to greater watchfulness, and +enhance his power to capture his slave. We owe +something to the slave south of the line as well as +to those north of it; and in aiding the latter on their +way to freedom, we should be careful to do nothing +which would be likely to hinder the former from +escaping from slavery. I would keep the merciless +slaveholder profoundly ignorant of the means of +flight adopted by the slave. I would leave him to +imagine himself surrounded by myriads of invisible +tormentors, ever ready to snatch from his infernal +grasp his trembling prey. Let him be left to feel +his way in the dark; let darkness commensurate with +his crime hover over him; and let him feel that at +every step he takes, in pursuit of the flying bondman, +he is running the frightful risk of having his hot +brains dashed out by an invisible agency. Let us +render the tyrant no aid; let us not hold the light +by which he can trace the footprints of our flying +brother. But enough of this. I will now proceed to +the statement of those facts, connected with my +escape, for which I am alone responsible, and for +which no one can be made to suffer but myself. + + In the early part of the year 1838, I became quite +restless. I could see no reason why I should, at the +end of each week, pour the reward of my toil into +the purse of my master. When I carried to him my +weekly wages, he would, after counting the money, +look me in the face with a robber-like fierceness, +and ask, "Is this all?" He was satisfied with nothing +less than the last cent. He would, however, when I +made him six dollars, sometimes give me six cents, +to encourage me. It had the opposite effect. I re- +garded it as a sort of admission of my right to the +whole. The fact that he gave me any part of my +wages was proof, to my mind, that he believed me +entitled to the whole of them. I always felt worse +for having received any thing; for I feared that the +giving me a few cents would ease his conscience, +and make him feel himself to be a pretty honorable +sort of robber. My discontent grew upon me. I was +ever on the look-out for means of escape; and, find- +ing no direct means, I determined to try to hire my +time, with a view of getting money with which to +make my escape. In the spring of 1838, when Master +Thomas came to Baltimore to purchase his spring +goods, I got an opportunity, and applied to him to +allow me to hire my time. He unhesitatingly refused +my request, and told me this was another stratagem +by which to escape. He told me I could go nowhere +but that he could get me; and that, in the event +of my running away, he should spare no pains in his +efforts to catch me. He exhorted me to content +myself, and be obedient. He told me, if I would +be happy, I must lay out no plans for the future. +He said, if I behaved myself properly, he would take +care of me. Indeed, he advised me to complete +thoughtlessness of the future, and taught me to de- +pend solely upon him for happiness. He seemed to +see fully the pressing necessity of setting aside my +intellectual nature, in order to contentment in +slavery. But in spite of him, and even in spite of +myself, I continued to think, and to think about +the injustice of my enslavement, and the means of +escape. + + About two months after this, I applied to Master +Hugh for the privilege of hiring my time. He was +not acquainted with the fact that I had applied to +Master Thomas, and had been refused. He too, at +first, seemed disposed to refuse; but, after some re- +flection, he granted me the privilege, and proposed +the following terms: I was to be allowed all my +time, make all contracts with those for whom I +worked, and find my own employment; and, in re- +turn for this liberty, I was to pay him three dollars +at the end of each week; find myself in calking tools, +and in board and clothing. My board was two dol- +lars and a half per week. This, with the wear and +tear of clothing and calking tools, made my regular +expenses about six dollars per week. This amount +I was compelled to make up, or relinquish the +privilege of hiring my time. Rain or shine, work or +no work, at the end of each week the money must +be forthcoming, or I must give up my privilege. This +arrangement, it will be perceived, was decidedly in +my master's favor. It relieved him of all need of +looking after me. His money was sure. He received +all the benefits of slaveholding without its evils; +while I endured all the evils of a slave, and suffered +all the care and anxiety of a freeman. I found it a +hard bargain. But, hard as it was, I thought it better +than the old mode of getting along. It was a step +towards freedom to be allowed to bear the respon- +sibilities of a freeman, and I was determined to hold +on upon it. I bent myself to the work of making +money. I was ready to work at night as well as day, +and by the most untiring perseverance and industry, +I made enough to meet my expenses, and lay up +a little money every week. I went on thus from May +till August. Master Hugh then refused to allow me +to hire my time longer. The ground for his refusal +was a failure on my part, one Saturday night, to pay +him for my week's time. This failure was occasioned +by my attending a camp meeting about ten miles +from Baltimore. During the week, I had entered +into an engagement with a number of young friends +to start from Baltimore to the camp ground early +Saturday evening; and being detained by my em- +ployer, I was unable to get down to Master Hugh's +without disappointing the company. I knew that +Master Hugh was in no special need of the money +that night. I therefore decided to go to camp meet- +ing, and upon my return pay him the three dollars. +I staid at the camp meeting one day longer than I +intended when I left. But as soon as I returned, I +called upon him to pay him what he considered his +due. I found him very angry; he could scarce restrain +his wrath. He said he had a great mind to give me a +severe whipping. He wished to know how I dared +go out of the city without asking his permission. I +told him I hired my time and while I paid him the +price which he asked for it, I did not know that I +was bound to ask him when and where I should go. +This reply troubled him; and, after reflecting a few +moments, he turned to me, and said I should hire +my time no longer; that the next thing he should +know of, I would be running away. Upon the same +plea, he told me to bring my tools and clothing +home forthwith. I did so; but instead of seeking +work, as I had been accustomed to do previously to +hiring my time, I spent the whole week without +the performance of a single stroke of work. I did this +in retaliation. Saturday night, he called upon me +as usual for my week's wages. I told him I had no +wages; I had done no work that week. Here we +were upon the point of coming to blows. He raved, +and swore his determination to get hold of me. I did +not allow myself a single word; but was resolved, if +he laid the weight of his hand upon me, it should +be blow for blow. He did not strike me, but told me +that he would find me in constant employment in +future. I thought the matter over during the next day, +Sunday, and finally resolved upon the third day of +September, as the day upon which I would make a +second attempt to secure my freedom. I now had +three weeks during which to prepare for my journey. +Early on Monday morning, before Master Hugh had +time to make any engagement for me, I went out +and got employment of Mr. Butler, at his ship-yard +near the drawbridge, upon what is called the City +Block, thus making it unnecessary for him to seek +employment for me. At the end of the week, I +brought him between eight and nine dollars. He +seemed very well pleased, and asked why I did not +do the same the week before. He little knew what +my plans were. My object in working steadily was +to remove any suspicion he might entertain of my +intent to run away; and in this I succeeded admi- +rably. I suppose he thought I was never better +satisfied with my condition than at the very time +during which I was planning my escape. The second +week passed, and again I carried him my full wages; +and so well pleased was he, that he gave me twenty- +five cents, (quite a large sum for a slaveholder to +give a slave,) and bade me to make a good use of it. +I told him I would. + + Things went on without very smoothly indeed, +but within there was trouble. It is impossible for +me to describe my feelings as the time of my con- +templated start drew near. I had a number of warm- +hearted friends in Baltimore,--friends that I loved +almost as I did my life,--and the thought of being +separated from them forever was painful beyond +expression. It is my opinion that thousands would +escape from slavery, who now remain, but for the +strong cords of affection that bind them to their +friends. The thought of leaving my friends was de- +cidedly the most painful thought with which I had +to contend. The love of them was my tender point, +and shook my decision more than all things else. +Besides the pain of separation, the dread and appre- +hension of a failure exceeded what I had experienced +at my first attempt. The appalling defeat I then +sustained returned to torment me. I felt assured +that, if I failed in this attempt, my case would be +a hopeless one--it would seal my fate as a slave for- +ever. I could not hope to get off with any thing less +than the severest punishment, and being placed +beyond the means of escape. It required no very +vivid imagination to depict the most frightful +scenes through which I should have to pass, in case +I failed. The wretchedness of slavery, and the +blessedness of freedom, were perpetually before me. +It was life and death with me. But I remained +firm, and, according to my resolution, on the third +day of September, 1838, I left my chains, and suc- +ceeded in reaching New York without the slightest +interruption of any kind. How I did so,--what means +I adopted,--what direction I travelled, and by what +mode of conveyance,--I must leave unexplained, +for the reasons before mentioned. + + I have been frequently asked how I felt when I +found myself in a free State. I have never been able +to answer the question with any satisfaction to my- +self. It was a moment of the highest excitement I +ever experienced. I suppose I felt as one may imagine +the unarmed mariner to feel when he is rescued +by a friendly man-of-war from the pursuit of a pirate. +In writing to a dear friend, immediately after my +arrival at New York, I said I felt like one who had +escaped a den of hungry lions. This state of mind, +however, very soon subsided; and I was again seized +with a feeling of great insecurity and loneliness. I +was yet liable to be taken back, and subjected to +all the tortures of slavery. This in itself was enough +to damp the ardor of my enthusiasm. But the lone- +liness overcame me. There I was in the midst of +thousands, and yet a perfect stranger; without home +and without friends, in the midst of thousands of my +own brethren--children of a common Father, and +yet I dared not to unfold to any one of them my +sad condition. I was afraid to speak to any one for +fear of speaking to the wrong one, and thereby fall- +ing into the hands of money-loving kidnappers, +whose business it was to lie in wait for the panting +fugitive, as the ferocious beasts of the forest lie in +wait for their prey. The motto which I adopted +when I started from slavery was this--"Trust no +man!" I saw in every white man an enemy, and in +almost every colored man cause for distrust. It was +a most painful situation; and, to understand it, one +must needs experience it, or imagine himself in +similar circumstances. Let him be a fugitive slave in +a strange land--a land given up to be the hunting- +ground for slaveholders--whose inhabitants are legal- +ized kidnappers--where he is every moment sub- +jected to the terrible liability of being seized upon +by his fellowmen, as the hideous crocodile seizes +upon his prey!--I say, let him place himself in my +situation--without home or friends--without money +or credit--wanting shelter, and no one to give it-- +wanting bread, and no money to buy it,--and at the +same time let him feel that he is pursued by merci- +less men-hunters, and in total darkness as to what +to do, where to go, or where to stay,--perfectly help- +less both as to the means of defence and means of +escape,--in the midst of plenty, yet suffering the ter- +rible gnawings of hunger,--in the midst of houses, +yet having no home,--among fellow-men, yet feeling +as if in the midst of wild beasts, whose greediness +to swallow up the trembling and half-famished fugi- +tive is only equalled by that with which the monsters +of the deep swallow up the helpless fish upon which +they subsist,--I say, let him be placed in this most +trying situation,--the situation in which I was placed, +--then, and not till then, will he fully appreciate the +hardships of, and know how to sympathize with, the +toil-worn and whip-scarred fugitive slave. + + Thank Heaven, I remained but a short time in +this distressed situation. I was relieved from it by the +humane hand of Mr. DAVID RUGGLES, whose vigi- +lance, kindness, and perseverance, I shall never for- +get. I am glad of an opportunity to express, as far as +words can, the love and gratitude I bear him. Mr. +Ruggles is now afflicted with blindness, and is him- +self in need of the same kind offices which he was +once so forward in the performance of toward others. +I had been in New York but a few days, when Mr. +Ruggles sought me out, and very kindly took me +to his boarding-house at the corner of Church and +Lespenard Streets. Mr. Ruggles was then very deeply +engaged in the memorable ~Darg~ case, as well as at- +tending to a number of other fugitive slaves, devis- +ing ways and means for their successful escape; and, +though watched and hemmed in on almost every +side, he seemed to be more than a match for his +enemies. + + Very soon after I went to Mr. Ruggles, he wished +to know of me where I wanted to go; as he deemed +it unsafe for me to remain in New York. I told him +I was a calker, and should like to go where I could +get work. I thought of going to Canada; but he de- +cided against it, and in favor of my going to New +Bedford, thinking I should be able to get work there +at my trade. At this time, Anna,* my intended wife, +came on; for I wrote to her immediately after my +arrival at New York, (notwithstanding my homeless, +houseless, and helpless condition,) informing her of +my successful flight, and wishing her to come on +forthwith. In a few days after her arrival, Mr. Rug- +gles called in the Rev. J. W. C. Pennington, who, in +the presence of Mr. Ruggles, Mrs. Michaels, and +two or three others, performed the marriage cere- +mony, and gave us a certificate, of which the fol- +lowing is an exact copy:-- + + + "This may certify, that I joined together in holy +matrimony Frederick Johnson+ and Anna Murray, as +man and wife, in the presence of Mr. David Ruggles +and Mrs. Michaels. + + "JAMES W. C. PENNINGTON + + "NEW YORK, SEPT. 15, 1838" + + + Upon receiving this certificate, and a five-dollar +bill from Mr. Ruggles, I shouldered one part of our +baggage, and Anna took up the other, and we set +out forthwith to take passage on board of the steam- +boat John W. Richmond for Newport, on our way +to New Bedford. Mr. Ruggles gave me a letter to a +Mr. Shaw in Newport, and told me, in case my +money did not serve me to New Bedford, to stop in +Newport and obtain further assistance; but upon our + + + *She was free. + + +I had changed my name from Frederick BAILEY +to that of JOHNSON. + + +arrival at Newport, we were so anxious to get to a +place of safety, that, notwithstanding we lacked the +necessary money to pay our fare, we decided to take +seats in the stage, and promise to pay when we got +to New Bedford. We were encouraged to do this by +two excellent gentlemen, residents of New Bedford, +whose names I afterward ascertained to be Joseph +Ricketson and William C. Taber. They seemed at +once to understand our circumstances, and gave us +such assurance of their friendliness as put us fully +at ease in their presence. It was good indeed to meet +with such friends, at such a time. Upon reaching +New Bedford, we were directed to the house of Mr. +Nathan Johnson, by whom we were kindly received, +and hospitably provided for. Both Mr. and Mrs. +Johnson took a deep and lively interest in our wel- +fare. They proved themselves quite worthy of the +name of abolitionists. When the stage-driver found +us unable to pay our fare, he held on upon our bag- +gage as security for the debt. I had but to mention +the fact to Mr. Johnson, and he forthwith advanced +the money. + + We now began to feel a degree of safety, and to +prepare ourselves for the duties and responsibilities +of a life of freedom. On the morning after our ar- +rival at New Bedford, while at the breakfast-table, +the question arose as to what name I should be +called by. The name given me by my mother was, +"Frederick Augustus Washington Bailey." I, how- +ever, had dispensed with the two middle names long +before I left Maryland so that I was generally known +by the name of "Frederick Bailey." I started from +Baltimore bearing the name of "Stanley." When I +got to New York, I again changed my name to "Fred- +erick Johnson," and thought that would be the last +change. But when I got to New Bedford, I found it +necessary again to change my name. The reason of +this necessity was, that there were so many Johnsons +in New Bedford, it was already quite difficult to +distinguish between them. I gave Mr. Johnson the +privilege of choosing me a name, but told him he +must not take from me the name of "Frederick." +I must hold on to that, to preserve a sense of my +identity. Mr. Johnson had just been reading the +"Lady of the Lake," and at once suggested that my +name be "Douglass." From that time until now I +have been called "Frederick Douglass;" and as I am +more widely known by that name than by either of +the others, I shall continue to use it as my own. + + I was quite disappointed at the general appear- +ance of things in New Bedford. The impression +which I had received respecting the character and +condition of the people of the north, I found to be +singularly erroneous. I had very strangely supposed, +while in slavery, that few of the comforts, and +scarcely any of the luxuries, of life were enjoyed at +the north, compared with what were enjoyed by the +slaveholders of the south. I probably came to this +conclusion from the fact that northern people owned +no slaves. I supposed that they were about upon a +level with the non-slaveholding population of the +south. I knew ~they~ were exceedingly poor, and I had +been accustomed to regard their poverty as the nec- +essary consequence of their being non-slaveholders. +I had somehow imbibed the opinion that, in the +absence of slaves, there could be no wealth, and very +little refinement. And upon coming to the north, I +expected to meet with a rough, hard-handed, and +uncultivated population, living in the most Spartan- +like simplicity, knowing nothing of the ease, luxury, +pomp, and grandeur of southern slaveholders. Such +being my conjectures, any one acquainted with the +appearance of New Bedford may very readily infer +how palpably I must have seen my mistake. + + In the afternoon of the day when I reached New +Bedford, I visited the wharves, to take a view of the +shipping. Here I found myself surrounded with the +strongest proofs of wealth. Lying at the wharves, and +riding in the stream, I saw many ships of the finest +model, in the best order, and of the largest size. +Upon the right and left, I was walled in by granite +warehouses of the widest dimensions, stowed to their +utmost capacity with the necessaries and comforts +of life. Added to this, almost every body seemed to +be at work, but noiselessly so, compared with what +I had been accustomed to in Baltimore. There were +no loud songs heard from those engaged in loading +and unloading ships. I heard no deep oaths or horrid +curses on the laborer. I saw no whipping of men; +but all seemed to go smoothly on. Every man ap- +peared to understand his work, and went at it with +a sober, yet cheerful earnestness, which betokened +the deep interest which he felt in what he was doing, +as well as a sense of his own dignity as a man. To me +this looked exceedingly strange. From the wharves I +strolled around and over the town, gazing with won- +der and admiration at the splendid churches, beauti- +ful dwellings, and finely-cultivated gardens; evincing +an amount of wealth, comfort, taste, and refinement, +such as I had never seen in any part of slaveholding +Maryland. + + Every thing looked clean, new, and beautiful. I +saw few or no dilapidated houses, with poverty- +stricken inmates; no half-naked children and bare- +footed women, such as I had been accustomed to see +in Hillsborough, Easton, St. Michael's, and Balti- +more. The people looked more able, stronger, health- +ier, and happier, than those of Maryland. I was for +once made glad by a view of extreme wealth, without +being saddened by seeing extreme poverty. But the +most astonishing as well as the most interesting thing +to me was the condition of the colored people, a +great many of whom, like myself, had escaped +thither as a refuge from the hunters of men. I found +many, who had not been seven years out of their +chains, living in finer houses, and evidently enjoying +more of the comforts of life, than the average of +slaveholders in Maryland. I will venture to assert, +that my friend Mr. Nathan Johnson (of whom I +can say with a grateful heart, "I was hungry, and he +gave me meat; I was thirsty, and he gave me drink; +I was a stranger, and he took me in") lived in a +neater house; dined at a better table; took, paid +for, and read, more newspapers; better understood +the moral, religious, and political character of the +nation,--than nine tenths of the slaveholders in Tal- +bot county Maryland. Yet Mr. Johnson was a work- +ing man. His hands were hardened by toil, and not +his alone, but those also of Mrs. Johnson. I found the +colored people much more spirited than I had sup- +posed they would be. I found among them a deter- +mination to protect each other from the blood-thirsty +kidnapper, at all hazards. Soon after my arrival, I +was told of a circumstance which illustrated their +spirit. A colored man and a fugitive slave were on +unfriendly terms. The former was heard to threaten +the latter with informing his master of his where- +abouts. Straightway a meeting was called among the +colored people, under the stereotyped notice, "Busi- +ness of importance!" The betrayer was invited to at- +tend. The people came at the appointed hour, and +organized the meeting by appointing a very religious +old gentleman as president, who, I believe, made a +prayer, after which he addressed the meeting as fol- +lows: "~Friends, we have got him here, and I would +recommend that you young men just take him out- +side the door, and kill him!~" With this, a number +of them bolted at him; but they were intercepted +by some more timid than themselves, and the be- +trayer escaped their vengeance, and has not been +seen in New Bedford since. I believe there have +been no more such threats, and should there be here- +after, I doubt not that death would be the conse- +quence. + + I found employment, the third day after my ar- +rival, in stowing a sloop with a load of oil. It was +new, dirty, and hard work for me; but I went at it +with a glad heart and a willing hand. I was now my +own master. It was a happy moment, the rapture of +which can be understood only by those who have +been slaves. It was the first work, the reward of +which was to be entirely my own. There was no Mas- +ter Hugh standing ready, the moment I earned the +money, to rob me of it. I worked that day with a +pleasure I had never before experienced. I was at +work for myself and newly-married wife. It was to me +the starting-point of a new existence. When I got +through with that job, I went in pursuit of a job of +calking; but such was the strength of prejudice +against color, among the white calkers, that they re- +fused to work with me, and of course I could get no +employment.* Finding my trade of no immediate +benefit, I threw off my calking habiliments, and pre- +pared myself to do any kind of work I could get to +do. Mr. Johnson kindly let me have his wood-horse +and saw, and I very soon found myself a plenty of +work. There was no work too hard--none too dirty. +I was ready to saw wood, shovel coal, carry wood, +sweep the chimney, or roll oil casks,--all of which I + + + * I am told that colored persons can now get employment +at calking in New Bedford--a result of anti-slavery effort. +did for nearly three years in New Bedford, before I +became known to the anti-slavery world. + + In about four months after I went to New Bed- +ford, there came a young man to me, and inquired +if I did not wish to take the "Liberator." I told him +I did; but, just having made my escape from slavery, +I remarked that I was unable to pay for it then. I, +however, finally became a subscriber to it. The paper +came, and I read it from week to week with such +feelings as it would be quite idle for me to attempt +to describe. The paper became my meat and my +drink. My soul was set all on fire. Its sympathy for +my brethren in bonds--its scathing denunciations of +slaveholders--its faithful exposures of slavery--and its +powerful attacks upon the upholders of the institu- +tion--sent a thrill of joy through my soul, such as +I had never felt before! + + I had not long been a reader of the "Liberator," +before I got a pretty correct idea of the principles, +measures and spirit of the anti-slavery reform. I took +right hold of the cause. I could do but little; but +what I could, I did with a joyful heart, and never felt +happier than when in an anti-slavery meeting. I sel- +dom had much to say at the meetings, because what +I wanted to say was said so much better by others. +But, while attending an anti-slavery convention at +Nantucket, on the 11th of August, 1841, I felt +strongly moved to speak, and was at the same time +much urged to do so by Mr. William C. Coffin, a +gentleman who had heard me speak in the colored +people's meeting at New Bedford. It was a severe +cross, and I took it up reluctantly. The truth was, +I felt myself a slave, and the idea of speaking to +white people weighed me down. I spoke but a few +moments, when I felt a degree of freedom, and said +what I desired with considerable ease. From that +time until now, I have been engaged in pleading the +cause of my brethren--with what success, and with +what devotion, I leave those acquainted with my la- +bors to decide. + + + + + APPENDIX + + + I find, since reading over the foregoing Narrative, +that I have, in several instances, spoken in such a +tone and manner, respecting religion, as may possi- +bly lead those unacquainted with my religious views +to suppose me an opponent of all religion. To re- +move the liability of such misapprehension, I deem +it proper to append the following brief explanation. +What I have said respecting and against religion, I +mean strictly to apply to the ~slaveholding religion~ of +this land, and with no possible reference to Christi- +anity proper; for, between the Christianity of this +land, and the Christianity of Christ, I recognize the +widest possible difference--so wide, that to receive +the one as good, pure, and holy, is of necessity to re- +ject the other as bad, corrupt, and wicked. To be the +friend of the one, is of necessity to be the enemy +of the other. I love the pure, peaceable, and impar- +tial Christianity of Christ: I therefore hate the cor- +rupt, slaveholding, women-whipping, cradle-plunder- +ing, partial and hypocritical Christianity of this land. +Indeed, I can see no reason, but the most deceitful +one, for calling the religion of this land Christianity. +I look upon it as the climax of all misnomers, the +boldest of all frauds, and the grossest of all libels. +Never was there a clearer case of "stealing the livery +of the court of heaven to serve the devil in." I am +filled with unutterable loathing when I contem- +plate the religious pomp and show, together with the +horrible inconsistencies, which every where surround +me. We have men-stealers for ministers, women- +whippers for missionaries, and cradle-plunderers for +church members. The man who wields the blood- +clotted cowskin during the week fills the pulpit on +Sunday, and claims to be a minister of the meek and +lowly Jesus. The man who robs me of my earnings +at the end of each week meets me as a class-leader +on Sunday morning, to show me the way of life, +and the path of salvation. He who sells my sister, +for purposes of prostitution, stands forth as the pi- +ous advocate of purity. He who proclaims it a re- +ligious duty to read the Bible denies me the right +of learning to read the name of the God who made +me. He who is the religious advocate of marriage +robs whole millions of its sacred influence, and leaves +them to the ravages of wholesale pollution. The +warm defender of the sacredness of the family re- +lation is the same that scatters whole families,--sun- +dering husbands and wives, parents and children, +sisters and brothers,--leaving the hut vacant, and the +hearth desolate. We see the thief preaching against +theft, and the adulterer against adultery. We have +men sold to build churches, women sold to support +the gospel, and babes sold to purchase Bibles for +the POOR HEATHEN! ALL FOR THE GLORY OF GOD AND THE +GOOD OF SOULS! The slave auctioneer's bell and the +church-going bell chime in with each other, and the +bitter cries of the heart-broken slave are drowned +in the religious shouts of his pious master. Revivals +of religion and revivals in the slave-trade go hand +in hand together. The slave prison and the church +stand near each other. The clanking of fetters and +the rattling of chains in the prison, and the pious +psalm and solemn prayer in the church, may be +heard at the same time. The dealers in the bodies +and souls of men erect their stand in the presence +of the pulpit, and they mutually help each other. +The dealer gives his blood-stained gold to support +the pulpit, and the pulpit, in return, covers his in- +fernal business with the garb of Christianity. Here +we have religion and robbery the allies of each other +--devils dressed in angels' robes, and hell presenting +the semblance of paradise. + +"Just God! and these are they, + Who minister at thine altar, God of right! +Men who their hands, with prayer and blessing, lay + On Israel's ark of light. + +"What! preach, and kidnap men? + Give thanks, and rob thy own afflicted poor? +Talk of thy glorious liberty, and then + Bolt hard the captive's door? + +"What! servants of thy own + Merciful Son, who came to seek and save +The homeless and the outcast, fettering down + The tasked and plundered slave! + +"Pilate and Herod friends! + Chief priests and rulers, as of old, combine! +Just God and holy! is that church which lends + Strength to the spoiler thine?" + + + The Christianity of America is a Christianity, of +whose votaries it may be as truly said, as it was of +the ancient scribes and Pharisees, "They bind heavy +burdens, and grievous to be borne, and lay them on +men's shoulders, but they themselves will not move +them with one of their fingers. All their works they +do for to be seen of men.--They love the upper- +most rooms at feasts, and the chief seats in the syna- +gogues, . . . . . . and to be called of men, Rabbi, +Rabbi.--But woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, +hypocrites! for ye shut up the kingdom of heaven +against men; for ye neither go in yourselves, neither +suffer ye them that are entering to go in. Ye devour +widows' houses, and for a pretence make long +prayers; therefore ye shall receive the greater dam- +nation. Ye compass sea and land to make one prose- +lyte, and when he is made, ye make him twofold +more the child of hell than yourselves.--Woe unto +you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! for ye pay +tithe of mint, and anise, and cumin, and have omit- +ted the weightier matters of the law, judgment, +mercy, and faith; these ought ye to have done, and +not to leave the other undone. Ye blind guides! +which strain at a gnat, and swallow a camel. Woe +unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! for ye +make clean the outside of the cup and of the platter; +but within, they are full of extortion and excess.-- +Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! for +ye are like unto whited sepulchres, which indeed ap- +pear beautiful outward, but are within full of dead +men's bones, and of all uncleanness. Even so ye also +outwardly appear righteous unto men, but within +ye are full of hypocrisy and iniquity." + + Dark and terrible as is this picture, I hold it to be +strictly true of the overwhelming mass of professed +Christians in America. They strain at a gnat, and +swallow a camel. Could any thing be more true of +our churches? They would be shocked at the propo- +sition of fellowshipping a SHEEP-stealer; and at the +same time they hug to their communion a MAN- +stealer, and brand me with being an infidel, if I +find fault with them for it. They attend with Phari- +saical strictness to the outward forms of religion, and +at the same time neglect the weightier matters of +the law, judgment, mercy, and faith. They are al- +ways ready to sacrifice, but seldom to show mercy. +They are they who are represented as professing to +love God whom they have not seen, whilst they hate +their brother whom they have seen. They love the +heathen on the other side of the globe. They can +pray for him, pay money to have the Bible put into +his hand, and missionaries to instruct him; while +they despise and totally neglect the heathen at their +own doors. + + Such is, very briefly, my view of the religion of +this land; and to avoid any misunderstanding, grow- +ing out of the use of general terms, I mean by the +religion of this land, that which is revealed in the +words, deeds, and actions, of those bodies, north and +south, calling themselves Christian churches, and yet +in union with slaveholders. It is against religion, as +presented by these bodies, that I have felt it my +duty to testify. + + I conclude these remarks by copying the following +portrait of the religion of the south, (which is, by +communion and fellowship, the religion of the +north,) which I soberly affirm is "true to the life," +and without caricature or the slightest exaggeration. +It is said to have been drawn, several years before +the present anti-slavery agitation began, by a north- +ern Methodist preacher, who, while residing at the +south, had an opportunity to see slaveholding mor- +als, manners, and piety, with his own eyes. "Shall +I not visit for these things? saith the Lord. Shall not +my soul be avenged on such a nation as this?" + + + A PARODY + +"Come, saints and sinners, hear me tell +How pious priests whip Jack and Nell, +And women buy and children sell, +And preach all sinners down to hell, + And sing of heavenly union. +"They'll bleat and baa, dona like goats, +Gorge down black sheep, and strain at motes, +Array their backs in fine black coats, +Then seize their negroes by their throats, + And choke, for heavenly union. + +"They'll church you if you sip a dram, +And damn you if you steal a lamb; +Yet rob old Tony, Doll, and Sam, +Of human rights, and bread and ham; + Kidnapper's heavenly union. + +"They'll loudly talk of Christ's reward, +And bind his image with a cord, +And scold, and swing the lash abhorred, +And sell their brother in the Lord + To handcuffed heavenly union. + +"They'll read and sing a sacred song, +And make a prayer both loud and long, +And teach the right and do the wrong, +Hailing the brother, sister throng, + With words of heavenly union. + +"We wonder how such saints can sing, +Or praise the Lord upon the wing, +Who roar, and scold, and whip, and sting, +And to their slaves and mammon cling, + In guilty conscience union. + +"They'll raise tobacco, corn, and rye, +And drive, and thieve, and cheat, and lie, +And lay up treasures in the sky, +By making switch and cowskin fly, + In hope of heavenly union. +"They'll crack old Tony on the skull, +And preach and roar like Bashan bull, +Or braying ass, of mischief full, +Then seize old Jacob by the wool, + And pull for heavenly union. + +"A roaring, ranting, sleek man-thief, +Who lived on mutton, veal, and beef, +Yet never would afford relief +To needy, sable sons of grief, + Was big with heavenly union. + +"'Love not the world,' the preacher said, +And winked his eye, and shook his head; +He seized on Tom, and Dick, and Ned, +Cut short their meat, and clothes, and bread, + Yet still loved heavenly union. + +"Another preacher whining spoke +Of One whose heart for sinners broke: +He tied old Nanny to an oak, +And drew the blood at every stroke, + And prayed for heavenly union. + +"Two others oped their iron jaws, +And waved their children-stealing paws; +There sat their children in gewgaws; +By stinting negroes' backs and maws, + They kept up heavenly union. + +"All good from Jack another takes, +And entertains their flirts and rakes, +Who dress as sleek as glossy snakes, +And cram their mouths with sweetened cakes; + And this goes down for union." + + Sincerely and earnestly hoping that this little book +may do something toward throwing light on the +American slave system, and hastening the glad day +of deliverance to the millions of my brethren in +bonds--faithfully relying upon the power of truth, +love, and justice, for success in my humble efforts +--and solemnly pledging my self anew to the sacred +cause,--I subscribe myself, + + FREDERICK DOUGLASS +LYNN, ~Mass., April~ 28, 1845. + + + THE END + + + + diff --git a/old/duglas11.zip b/old/duglas11.zip Binary files differnew file mode 100644 index 0000000..90e07b3 --- /dev/null +++ b/old/duglas11.zip |
