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You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: The Hungry Stones And Other Stories + +Author: Rabindranath Tagore + +Translator: The author and Mr. C. F. Andrews + +Release Date: December 22, 2008 [EBook #2518] +Last Updated: January 26, 2013 + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ASCII + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE HUNGRY STONES *** + + + + +Produced by Alev Akman, and David Widger + + + + + + +</pre> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <h1> + THE HUNGRY STONES<br /><br />AND OTHER STORIES + </h1> + <p> + <br /> + </p> + <h2> + By Rabindranath Tagore + </h2> + <p> + <br /> <br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <br /> <br /> + </p> + <h3> + Contents + </h3> + <table summary="" style="margin-right: auto; margin-left: auto"> + <tr> + <td> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_PREF"> Preface </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0002"> THE HUNGRY STONES </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0003"> THE VICTORY </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0004"> ONCE THERE WAS A KING </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0005"> THE HOME-COMING </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0006"> MY LORD, THE BABY </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0007"> THE KINGDOM OF CARDS </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0008"> THE DEVOTEE </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0009"> VISION </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0010"> THE BABUS OF NAYANJORE </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0011"> LIVING OR DEAD? </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0012"> "WE CROWN THEE KING" </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0013"> THE RENUNCIATION </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0014"> THE CABULIWALLAH </a> + </p> + </td> + </tr> + </table> + <p> + <br /> <br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <br /> <br /> <a name="link2H_PREF" id="link2H_PREF"> + <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> + </p> + <h2> + Preface: + </h2> + <p> + The stories contained in this volume were translated by several hands. The + version of The Victory is the author's own work. The seven stories which + follow were translated by Mr. C. F. Andrews, with the help of the author's + help. Assistance has also been given by the Rev. E. J. Thompson, Panna Lal + Basu, Prabhat Kumar Mukerjii, and the Sister Nivedita. + </p> + <p> + <br /> <br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <br /> <br /> <a name="link2H_4_0002" id="link2H_4_0002"> + <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> + </p> + <h1> + THE HUNGRY STONES + </h1> + <p> + My kinsman and myself were returning to Calcutta from our Puja trip when + we met the man in a train. From his dress and bearing we took him at first + for an up-country Mahomedan, but we were puzzled as we heard him talk. He + discoursed upon all subjects so confidently that you might think the + Disposer of All Things consulted him at all times in all that He did. + Hitherto we had been perfectly happy, as we did not know that secret and + unheard-of forces were at work, that the Russians had advanced close to + us, that the English had deep and secret policies, that confusion among + the native chiefs had come to a head. But our newly-acquired friend said + with a sly smile: "There happen more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, + than are reported in your newspapers." As we had never stirred out of our + homes before, the demeanour of the man struck us dumb with wonder. Be the + topic ever so trivial, he would quote science, or comment on the Vedas, or + repeat quatrains from some Persian poet; and as we had no pretence to a + knowledge of science or the Vedas or Persian, our admiration for him went + on increasing, and my kinsman, a theosophist, was firmly convinced that + our fellow-passenger must have been supernaturally inspired by some + strange "magnetism" or "occult power," by an "astral body" or something of + that kind. He listened to the tritest saying that fell from the lips of + our extraordinary companion with devotional rapture, and secretly took + down notes of his conversation. I fancy that the extraordinary man saw + this, and was a little pleased with it. + </p> + <p> + When the train reached the junction, we assembled in the waiting room for + the connection. It was then 10 P.M., and as the train, we heard, was + likely to be very late, owing to something wrong in the lines, I spread my + bed on the table and was about to lie down for a comfortable doze, when + the extraordinary person deliberately set about spinning the following + yarn. Of course, I could get no sleep that night. + </p> + <p> + When, owing to a disagreement about some questions of administrative + policy, I threw up my post at Junagarh, and entered the service of the + Nizam of Hydria, they appointed me at once, as a strong young man, + collector of cotton duties at Barich. + </p> + <p> + Barich is a lovely place. The Susta "chatters over stony ways and babbles + on the pebbles," tripping, like a skilful dancing girl, in through the + woods below the lonely hills. A flight of 150 steps rises from the river, + and above that flight, on the river's brim and at the foot of the hills, + there stands a solitary marble palace. Around it there is no habitation of + man—the village and the cotton mart of Barich being far off. + </p> + <p> + About 250 years ago the Emperor Mahmud Shah II. had built this lonely + palace for his pleasure and luxury. In his days jets of rose-water spurted + from its fountains, and on the cold marble floors of its spray-cooled + rooms young Persian damsels would sit, their hair dishevelled before + bathing, and, splashing their soft naked feet in the clear water of the + reservoirs, would sing, to the tune of the guitar, the ghazals of their + vineyards. + </p> + <p> + The fountains play no longer; the songs have ceased; no longer do + snow-white feet step gracefully on the snowy marble. It is but the vast + and solitary quarters of cess-collectors like us, men oppressed with + solitude and deprived of the society of women. Now, Karim Khan, the old + clerk of my office, warned me repeatedly not to take up my abode there. + "Pass the day there, if you like," said he, "but never stay the night." I + passed it off with a light laugh. The servants said that they would work + till dark and go away at night. I gave my ready assent. The house had such + a bad name that even thieves would not venture near it after dark. + </p> + <p> + At first the solitude of the deserted palace weighed upon me like a + nightmare. I would stay out, and work hard as long as possible, then + return home at night jaded and tired, go to bed and fall asleep. + </p> + <p> + Before a week had passed, the place began to exert a weird fascination + upon me. It is difficult to describe or to induce people to believe; but I + felt as if the whole house was like a living organism slowly and + imperceptibly digesting me by the action of some stupefying gastric juice. + </p> + <p> + Perhaps the process had begun as soon as I set my foot in the house, but I + distinctly remember the day on which I first was conscious of it. + </p> + <p> + It was the beginning of summer, and the market being dull I had no work to + do. A little before sunset I was sitting in an arm-chair near the water's + edge below the steps. The Susta had shrunk and sunk low; a broad patch of + sand on the other side glowed with the hues of evening; on this side the + pebbles at the bottom of the clear shallow waters were glistening. There + was not a breath of wind anywhere, and the still air was laden with an + oppressive scent from the spicy shrubs growing on the hills close by. + </p> + <p> + As the sun sank behind the hill-tops a long dark curtain fell upon the + stage of day, and the intervening hills cut short the time in which light + and shade mingle at sunset. I thought of going out for a ride, and was + about to get up when I heard a footfall on the steps behind. I looked + back, but there was no one. + </p> + <p> + As I sat down again, thinking it to be an illusion, I heard many + footfalls, as if a large number of persons were rushing down the steps. A + strange thrill of delight, slightly tinged with fear, passed through my + frame, and though there was not a figure before my eyes, methought I saw a + bevy of joyous maidens coming down the steps to bathe in the Susta in that + summer evening. Not a sound was in the valley, in the river, or in the + palace, to break the silence, but I distinctly heard the maidens' gay and + mirthful laugh, like the gurgle of a spring gushing forth in a hundred + cascades, as they ran past me, in quick playful pursuit of each other, + towards the river, without noticing me at all. As they were invisible to + me, so I was, as it were, invisible to them. The river was perfectly calm, + but I felt that its still, shallow, and clear waters were stirred suddenly + by the splash of many an arm jingling with bracelets, that the girls + laughed and dashed and spattered water at one another, that the feet of + the fair swimmers tossed the tiny waves up in showers of pearl. + </p> + <p> + I felt a thrill at my heart—I cannot say whether the excitement was + due to fear or delight or curiosity. I had a strong desire to see them + more clearly, but naught was visible before me; I thought I could catch + all that they said if I only strained my ears; but however hard I strained + them, I heard nothing but the chirping of the cicadas in the woods. It + seemed as if a dark curtain of 250 years was hanging before me, and I + would fain lift a corner of it tremblingly and peer through, though the + assembly on the other side was completely enveloped in darkness. + </p> + <p> + The oppressive closeness of the evening was broken by a sudden gust of + wind, and the still surface of the Suista rippled and curled like the hair + of a nymph, and from the woods wrapt in the evening gloom there came forth + a simultaneous murmur, as though they were awakening from a black dream. + Call it reality or dream, the momentary glimpse of that invisible mirage + reflected from a far-off world, 250 years old, vanished in a flash. The + mystic forms that brushed past me with their quick unbodied steps, and + loud, voiceless laughter, and threw themselves into the river, did not go + back wringing their dripping robes as they went. Like fragrance wafted + away by the wind they were dispersed by a single breath of the spring. + </p> + <p> + Then I was filled with a lively fear that it was the Muse that had taken + advantage of my solitude and possessed me—the witch had evidently + come to ruin a poor devil like myself making a living by collecting cotton + duties. I decided to have a good dinner—it is the empty stomach that + all sorts of incurable diseases find an easy prey. I sent for my cook and + gave orders for a rich, sumptuous moghlai dinner, redolent of spices and + ghi. + </p> + <p> + Next morning the whole affair appeared a queer fantasy. With a light heart + I put on a sola hat like the sahebs, and drove out to my work. I was to + have written my quarterly report that day, and expected to return late; + but before it was dark I was strangely drawn to my house—by what I + could not say—I felt they were all waiting, and that I should delay + no longer. Leaving my report unfinished I rose, put on my sola hat, and + startling the dark, shady, desolate path with the rattle of my carriage, I + reached the vast silent palace standing on the gloomy skirts of the hills. + </p> + <p> + On the first floor the stairs led to a very spacious hall, its roof + stretching wide over ornamental arches resting on three rows of massive + pillars, and groaning day and night under the weight of its own intense + solitude. The day had just closed, and the lamps had not yet been lighted. + As I pushed the door open a great bustle seemed to follow within, as if a + throng of people had broken up in confusion, and rushed out through the + doors and windows and corridors and verandas and rooms, to make its + hurried escape. + </p> + <p> + As I saw no one I stood bewildered, my hair on end in a kind of ecstatic + delight, and a faint scent of attar and unguents almost effected by age + lingered in my nostrils. Standing in the darkness of that vast desolate + hall between the rows of those ancient pillars, I could hear the gurgle of + fountains plashing on the marble floor, a strange tune on the guitar, the + jingle of ornaments and the tinkle of anklets, the clang of bells tolling + the hours, the distant note of nahabat, the din of the crystal pendants of + chandeliers shaken by the breeze, the song of bulbuls from the cages in + the corridors, the cackle of storks in the gardens, all creating round me + a strange unearthly music. + </p> + <p> + Then I came under such a spell that this intangible, inaccessible, + unearthly vision appeared to be the only reality in the world—and + all else a mere dream. That I, that is to say, Srijut So-and-so, the + eldest son of So-and-so of blessed memory, should be drawing a monthly + salary of Rs. 450 by the discharge of my duties as collector of cotton + duties, and driving in my dog-cart to my office every day in a short coat + and soia hat, appeared to me to be such an astonishingly ludicrous + illusion that I burst into a horse-laugh, as I stood in the gloom of that + vast silent hall. + </p> + <p> + At that moment my servant entered with a lighted kerosene lamp in his + hand. I do not know whether he thought me mad, but it came back to me at + once that I was in very deed Srijut So-and-so, son of So-and-so of blessed + memory, and that, while our poets, great and small, alone could say + whether inside of or outside the earth there was a region where unseen + fountains perpetually played and fairy guitars, struck by invisible + fingers, sent forth an eternal harmony, this at any rate was certain, that + I collected duties at the cotton market at Banch, and earned thereby Rs. + 450 per mensem as my salary. I laughed in great glee at my curious + illusion, as I sat over the newspaper at my camp-table, lighted by the + kerosene lamp. + </p> + <p> + After I had finished my paper and eaten my moghlai dinner, I put out the + lamp, and lay down on my bed in a small side-room. Through the open window + a radiant star, high above the Avalli hills skirted by the darkness of + their woods, was gazing intently from millions and millions of miles away + in the sky at Mr. Collector lying on a humble camp-bedstead. I wondered + and felt amused at the idea, and do not knew when I fell asleep or how + long I slept; but I suddenly awoke with a start, though I heard no sound + and saw no intruder—only the steady bright star on the hilltop had + set, and the dim light of the new moon was stealthily entering the room + through the open window, as if ashamed of its intrusion. + </p> + <p> + I saw nobody, but felt as if some one was gently pushing me. As I awoke + she said not a word, but beckoned me with her five fingers bedecked with + rings to follow her cautiously. I got up noiselessly, and, though not a + soul save myself was there in the countless apartments of that deserted + palace with its slumbering sounds and waiting echoes, I feared at every + step lest any one should wake up. Most of the rooms of the palace were + always kept closed, and I had never entered them. + </p> + <p> + I followed breathless and with silent steps my invisible guide—I + cannot now say where. What endless dark and narrow passages, what long + corridors, what silent and solemn audience-chambers and close secret cells + I crossed! + </p> + <p> + Though I could not see my fair guide, her form was not invisible to my + mind's eye,—an Arab girl, her arms, hard and smooth as marble, + visible through her loose sleeves, a thin veil falling on her face from + the fringe of her cap, and a curved dagger at her waist! Methought that + one of the thousand and one Arabian Nights had been wafted to me from the + world of romance, and that at the dead of night I was wending my way + through the dark narrow alleys of slumbering Bagdad to a trysting-place + fraught with peril. + </p> + <p> + At last my fair guide stopped abruptly before a deep blue screen, and + seemed to point to something below. There was nothing there, but a sudden + dread froze the blood in my heart-methought I saw there on the floor at + the foot of the screen a terrible negro eunuch dressed in rich brocade, + sitting and dozing with outstretched legs, with a naked sword on his lap. + My fair guide lightly tripped over his legs and held up a fringe of the + screen. I could catch a glimpse of a part of the room spread with a + Persian carpet—some one was sitting inside on a bed—I could + not see her, but only caught a glimpse of two exquisite feet in + gold-embroidered slippers, hanging out from loose saffron-coloured + paijamas and placed idly on the orange-coloured velvet carpet. On one side + there was a bluish crystal tray on which a few apples, pears, oranges, and + bunches of grapes in plenty, two small cups and a gold-tinted decanter + were evidently waiting the guest. A fragrant intoxicating vapour, issuing + from a strange sort of incense that burned within, almost overpowered my + senses. + </p> + <p> + As with trembling heart I made an attempt to step across the outstretched + legs of the eunuch, he woke up suddenly with a start, and the sword fell + from his lap with a sharp clang on the marble floor. A terrific scream + made me jump, and I saw I was sitting on that camp-bedstead of mine + sweating heavily; and the crescent moon looked pale in the morning light + like a weary sleepless patient at dawn; and our crazy Meher Ali was crying + out, as is his daily custom, "Stand back! Stand back!!" while he went + along the lonely road. + </p> + <p> + Such was the abrupt close of one of my Arabian Nights; but there were yet + a thousand nights left. + </p> + <p> + Then followed a great discord between my days and nights. During the day I + would go to my work worn and tired, cursing the bewitching night and her + empty dreams, but as night came my daily life with its bonds and shackles + of work would appear a petty, false, ludicrous vanity. + </p> + <p> + After nightfall I was caught and overwhelmed in the snare of a strange + intoxication, I would then be transformed into some unknown personage of a + bygone age, playing my part in unwritten history; and my short English + coat and tight breeches did not suit me in the least. With a red velvet + cap on my head, loose paijamas, an embroidered vest, a long flowing silk + gown, and coloured handkerchiefs scented with attar, I would complete my + elaborate toilet, sit on a high-cushioned chair, and replace my cigarette + with a many-coiled narghileh filled with rose-water, as if in eager + expectation of a strange meeting with the beloved one. + </p> + <p> + I have no power to describe the marvellous incidents that unfolded + themselves, as the gloom of the night deepened. I felt as if in the + curious apartments of that vast edifice the fragments of a beautiful + story, which I could follow for some distance, but of which I could never + see the end, flew about in a sudden gust of the vernal breeze. And all the + same I would wander from room to room in pursuit of them the whole night + long. + </p> + <p> + Amid the eddy of these dream-fragments, amid the smell of henna and the + twanging of the guitar, amid the waves of air charged with fragrant spray, + I would catch like a flash of lightning the momentary glimpse of a fair + damsel. She it was who had saffron-coloured paijamas, white ruddy soft + feet in gold-embroidered slippers with curved toes, a close-fitting bodice + wrought with gold, a red cap, from which a golden frill fell on her snowy + brow and cheeks. + </p> + <p> + She had maddened me. In pursuit of her I wandered from room to room, from + path to path among the bewildering maze of alleys in the enchanted + dreamland of the nether world of sleep. + </p> + <p> + Sometimes in the evening, while arraying myself carefully as a prince of + the blood-royal before a large mirror, with a candle burning on either + side, I would see a sudden reflection of the Persian beauty by the side of + my own. A swift turn of her neck, a quick eager glance of intense passion + and pain glowing in her large dark eyes, just a suspicion of speech on her + dainty red lips, her figure, fair and slim crowned with youth like a + blossoming creeper, quickly uplifted in her graceful tilting gait, a + dazzling flash of pain and craving and ecstasy, a smile and a glance and a + blaze of jewels and silk, and she melted away. A wild glist of wind, laden + with all the fragrance of hills and woods, would put out my light, and I + would fling aside my dress and lie down on my bed, my eyes closed and my + body thrilling with delight, and there around me in the breeze, amid all + the perfume of the woods and hills, floated through the silent gloom many + a caress and many a kiss and many a tender touch of hands, and gentle + murmurs in my ears, and fragrant breaths on my brow; or a sweetly-perfumed + kerchief was wafted again and again on my cheeks. Then slowly a mysterious + serpent would twist her stupefying coils about me; and heaving a heavy + sigh, I would lapse into insensibility, and then into a profound slumber. + </p> + <p> + One evening I decided to go out on my horse—I do not know who + implored me to stay-but I would listen to no entreaties that day. My + English hat and coat were resting on a rack, and I was about to take them + down when a sudden whirlwind, crested with the sands of the Susta and the + dead leaves of the Avalli hills, caught them up, and whirled them round + and round, while a loud peal of merry laughter rose higher and higher, + striking all the chords of mirth till it died away in the land of sunset. + </p> + <p> + I could not go out for my ride, and the next day I gave up my queer + English coat and hat for good. + </p> + <p> + That day again at dead of night I heard the stifled heart-breaking sobs of + some one—as if below the bed, below the floor, below the stony + foundation of that gigantic palace, from the depths of a dark damp grave, + a voice piteously cried and implored me: "Oh, rescue me! Break through + these doors of hard illusion, deathlike slumber and fruitless dreams, + place by your side on the saddle, press me to your heart, and, riding + through hills and woods and across the river, take me to the warm radiance + of your sunny rooms above!" + </p> + <p> + Who am I? Oh, how can I rescue thee? What drowning beauty, what incarnate + passion shall I drag to the shore from this wild eddy of dreams? O lovely + ethereal apparition! Where didst thou flourish and when? By what cool + spring, under the shade of what date-groves, wast thou born—in the + lap of what homeless wanderer in the desert? What Bedouin snatched thee + from thy mother's arms, an opening bud plucked from a wild creeper, placed + thee on a horse swift as lightning, crossed the burning sands, and took + thee to the slave-market of what royal city? And there, what officer of + the Badshah, seeing the glory of thy bashful blossoming youth, paid for + thee in gold, placed thee in a golden palanquin, and offered thee as a + present for the seraglio of his master? And O, the history of that place! + The music of the sareng, the jingle of anklets, the occasional flash of + daggers and the glowing wine of Shiraz poison, and the piercing flashing + glance! What infinite grandeur, what endless servitude! + </p> + <p> + The slave-girls to thy right and left waved the chamar as diamonds flashed + from their bracelets; the Badshah, the king of kings, fell on his knees at + thy snowy feet in bejewelled shoes, and outside the terrible Abyssinian + eunuch, looking like a messenger of death, but clothed like an angel, + stood with a naked sword in his hand! Then, O, thou flower of the desert, + swept away by the blood-stained dazzling ocean of grandeur, with its foam + of jealousy, its rocks and shoals of intrigue, on what shore of cruel + death wast thou cast, or in what other land more splendid and more cruel? + </p> + <p> + Suddenly at this moment that crazy Meher Ali screamed out: "Stand back! + Stand back!! All is false! All is false!!" I opened my eyes and saw that + it was already light. My chaprasi came and handed me my letters, and the + cook waited with a salam for my orders. + </p> + <p> + I said; "No, I can stay here no longer." That very day I packed up, and + moved to my office. Old Karim Khan smiled a little as he saw me. I felt + nettled, but said nothing, and fell to my work. + </p> + <p> + As evening approached I grew absent-minded; I felt as if I had an + appointment to keep; and the work of examining the cotton accounts seemed + wholly useless; even the Nizamat of the Nizam did not appear to be of much + worth. Whatever belonged to the present, whatever was moving and acting + and working for bread seemed trivial, meaningless, and contemptible. + </p> + <p> + I threw my pen down, closed my ledgers, got into my dog-cart, and drove + away. I noticed that it stopped of itself at the gate of the marble palace + just at the hour of twilight. With quick steps I climbed the stairs, and + entered the room. + </p> + <p> + A heavy silence was reigning within. The dark rooms were looking sullen as + if they had taken offence. My heart was full of contrition, but there was + no one to whom I could lay it bare, or of whom I could ask forgiveness. I + wandered about the dark rooms with a vacant mind. I wished I had a guitar + to which I could sing to the unknown: "O fire, the poor moth that made a + vain effort to fly away has come back to thee! Forgive it but this once, + burn its wings and consume it in thy flame!" + </p> + <p> + Suddenly two tear-drops fell from overhead on my brow. Dark masses of + clouds overcast the top of the Avalli hills that day. The gloomy woods and + the sooty waters of the Susta were waiting in terrible suspense and in an + ominous calm. Suddenly land, water, and sky shivered, and a wild + tempest-blast rushed howling through the distant pathless woods, showing + its lightning-teeth like a raving maniac who had broken his chains. The + desolate halls of the palace banged their doors, and moaned in the + bitterness of anguish. + </p> + <p> + The servants were all in the office, and there was no one to light the + lamps. The night was cloudy and moonless. In the dense gloom within I + could distinctly feel that a woman was lying on her face on the carpet + below the bed—clasping and tearing her long dishevelled hair with + desperate fingers. Blood was tricking down her fair brow, and she was now + laughing a hard, harsh, mirthless laugh, now bursting into violent + wringing sobs, now rending her bodice and striking at her bare bosom, as + the wind roared in through the open window, and the rain poured in + torrents and soaked her through and through. + </p> + <p> + All night there was no cessation of the storm or of the passionate cry. I + wandered from room to room in the dark, with unavailing sorrow. Whom could + I console when no one was by? Whose was this intense agony of sorrow? + Whence arose this inconsolable grief? + </p> + <p> + And the mad man cried out: "Stand back! Stand back!! All is false! All is + false!!" + </p> + <p> + I saw that the day had dawned, and Meher Ali was going round and round the + palace with his usual cry in that dreadful weather. Suddenly it came to me + that perhaps he also had once lived in that house, and that, though he had + gone mad, he came there every day, and went round and round, fascinated by + the weird spell cast by the marble demon. + </p> + <p> + Despite the storm and rain I ran to him and asked: "Ho, Meher Ali, what is + false?" + </p> + <p> + The man answered nothing, but pushing me aside went round and round with + his frantic cry, like a bird flying fascinated about the jaws of a snake, + and made a desperate effort to warn himself by repeating: "Stand back! + Stand back!! All is false! All is false!!" + </p> + <p> + I ran like a mad man through the pelting rain to my office, and asked + Karim Khan: "Tell me the meaning of all this!" + </p> + <p> + What I gathered from that old man was this: That at one time countless + unrequited passions and unsatisfied longings and lurid flames of wild + blazing pleasure raged within that palace, and that the curse of all the + heart-aches and blasted hopes had made its every stone thirsty and hungry, + eager to swallow up like a famished ogress any living man who might chance + to approach. Not one of those who lived there for three consecutive nights + could escape these cruel jaws, save Meher Ali, who had escaped at the cost + of his reason. + </p> + <p> + I asked: "Is there no means whatever of my release?" The old man said: + "There is only one means, and that is very difficult. I will tell you what + it is, but first you must hear the history of a young Persian girl who + once lived in that pleasure-dome. A stranger or a more bitterly + heart-rending tragedy was never enacted on this earth." + </p> + <p> + Just at this moment the coolies announced that the train was coming. So + soon? We hurriedly packed up our luggage, as the tram steamed in. An + English gentleman, apparently just aroused from slumber, was looking out + of a first-class carriage endeavouring to read the name of the station. As + soon as he caught sight of our fellow-passenger, he cried, "Hallo," and + took him into his own compartment. As we got into a second-class carriage, + we had no chance of finding out who the man was nor what was the end of + his story. + </p> + <p> + I said; "The man evidently took us for fools and imposed upon us out of + fun. The story is pure fabrication from start to finish." The discussion + that followed ended in a lifelong rupture between my theosophist kinsman + and myself. + </p> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0003" id="link2H_4_0003"> + <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + THE VICTORY + </h2> + <p> + She was the Princess Ajita. And the court poet of King Narayan had never + seen her. On the day he recited a new poem to the king he would raise his + voice just to that pitch which could be heard by unseen hearers in the + screened balcony high above the hall. He sent up his song towards the + star-land out of his reach, where, circled with light, the planet who + ruled his destiny shone unknown and out of ken. + </p> + <p> + He would espy some shadow moving behind the veil. A tinkling sound would + come to his car from afar, and would set him dreaming of the ankles whose + tiny golden bells sang at each step. Ah, the rosy red tender feet that + walked the dust of the earth like God's mercy on the fallen! The poet had + placed them on the altar of his heart, where he wove his songs to the tune + of those golden bells. Doubt never arose in his mind as to whose shadow it + was that moved behind the screen, and whose anklets they were that sang to + the time of his beating heart. + </p> + <p> + Manjari, the maid of the princess, passed by the poet's house on her way + to the river, and she never missed a day to have a few words with him on + the sly. When she found the road deserted, and the shadow of dusk on the + land, she would boldly enter his room, and sit at the corner of his + carpet. There was a suspicion of an added care in the choice of the colour + of her veil, in the setting of the flower in her hair. + </p> + <p> + People smiled and whispered at this, and they were not to blame. For + Shekhar the poet never took the trouble to hide the fact that these + meetings were a pure joy to him. + </p> + <p> + The meaning of her name was the spray of flowers. One must confess that + for an ordinary mortal it was sufficient in its sweetness. But Shekhar + made his own addition to this name, and called her the Spray of Spring + Flowers. And ordinary mortals shook their heads and said, Ah, me! + </p> + <p> + In the spring songs that the poet sang the praise of the spray of spring + flowers was conspicuously reiterated; and the king winked and smiled at + him when he heard it, and the poet smiled in answer. + </p> + <p> + The king would put him the question; "Is it the business of the bee merely + to hum in the court of the spring?" + </p> + <p> + The poet would answer; "No, but also to sip the honey of the spray of + spring flowers." + </p> + <p> + And they all laughed in the king's hall. And it was rumoured that the + Princess Akita also laughed at her maid's accepting the poet's name for + her, and Manjari felt glad in her heart. + </p> + <p> + Thus truth and falsehood mingle in life—and to what God builds man + adds his own decoration. + </p> + <p> + Only those were pure truths which were sung by the poet. The theme was + Krishna, the lover god, and Radha, the beloved, the Eternal Man and the + Eternal Woman, the sorrow that comes from the beginning of time, and the + joy without end. The truth of these songs was tested in his inmost heart + by everybody from the beggar to the king himself. The poet's songs were on + the lips of all. At the merest glimmer of the moon and the faintest + whisper of the summer breeze his songs would break forth in the land from + windows and courtyards, from sailing-boats, from shadows of the wayside + trees, in numberless voices. + </p> + <p> + Thus passed the days happily. The poet recited, the king listened, the + hearers applauded, Manjari passed and repassed by the poet's room on her + way to the river—the shadow flitted behind the screened balcony, and + the tiny golden bells tinkled from afar. + </p> + <p> + Just then set forth from his home in the south a poet on his path of + conquest. He came to King Narayan, in the kingdom of Amarapur. He stood + before the throne, and uttered a verse in praise of the king. He had + challenged all the court poets on his way, and his career of victory had + been unbroken. + </p> + <p> + The king received him with honour, and said: "Poet, I offer you welcome." + </p> + <p> + Pundarik, the poet, proudly replied: "Sire, I ask for war." + </p> + <p> + Shekhar, the court poet of the king did not know how the battle of the + muse was to be waged. He had no sleep at night. The mighty figure of the + famous Pundarik, his sharp nose curved like a scimitar, and his proud head + tilted on one side, haunted the poet's vision in the dark. + </p> + <p> + With a trembling heart Shekhar entered the arena in the morning. The + theatre was filled with the crowd. + </p> + <p> + The poet greeted his rival with a smile and a bow. Pundarik returned it + with a slight toss of his head, and turned his face towards his circle of + adoring followers with a meaning smile. Shekhar cast his glance towards + the screened balcony high above, and saluted his lady in his mind, saying! + "If I am the winner at the combat to-day, my lady, thy victorious name + shall be glorified." + </p> + <p> + The trumpet sounded. The great crowd stood up, shouting victory to the + king. The king, dressed in an ample robe of white, slowly came into the + hall like a floating cloud of autumn, and sat on his throne. + </p> + <p> + Pundarik stood up, and the vast hall became still. With his head raised + high and chest expanded, he began in his thundering voice to recite the + praise of King Narayan. His words burst upon the walls of the hall like + breakers of the sea, and seemed to rattle against the ribs of the + listening crowd. The skill with which he gave varied meanings to the name + Narayan, and wove each letter of it through the web of his verses in all + mariner of combinations, took away the breath of his amazed hearers. + </p> + <p> + For some minutes after he took his seat his voice continued to vibrate + among the numberless pillars of the king's court and in thousands of + speechless hearts. The learned professors who had come from distant lands + raised their right hands, and cried, Bravo! + </p> + <p> + The king threw a glance on Shekhar's face, and Shekhar in answer raised + for a moment his eyes full of pain towards his master, and then stood up + like a stricken deer at bay. His face was pale, his bashfulness was almost + that of a woman, his slight youthful figure, delicate in its outline, + seemed like a tensely strung vina ready to break out in music at the least + touch. + </p> + <p> + His head was bent, his voice was low, when he began. The first few verses + were almost inaudible. Then he slowly raised his head, and his clear sweet + voice rose into the sky like a quivering flame of fire. He began with the + ancient legend of the kingly line lost in the haze of the past, and + brought it down through its long course of heroism and matchless + generosity to the present age. He fixed his gaze on the king's face, and + all the vast and unexpressed love of the people for the royal house rose + like incense in his song, and enwreathed the throne on all sides. These + were his last words when, trembling, he took his seat: "My master, I may + be beaten in play of words, but not in my love for thee." + </p> + <p> + Tears filled the eyes of the hearers, and the stone walls shook with cries + of victory. + </p> + <p> + Mocking this popular outburst of feeling, with an august shake of his head + and a contemptuous sneer, Pundarik stood up, and flung this question to + the assembly; "What is there superior to words?" In a moment the hall + lapsed into silence again. + </p> + <p> + Then with a marvellous display of learning, he proved that the Word was in + the beginning, that the Word was God. He piled up quotations from + scriptures, and built a high altar for the Word to be seated above all + that there is in heaven and in earth. He repeated that question in his + mighty voice: "What is there superior to words?" + </p> + <p> + Proudly he looked around him. None dared to accept his challenge, and he + slowly took his seat like a lion who had just made a full meal of its + victim. The pandits shouted, Bravo! The king remained silent with wonder, + and the poet Shekhar felt himself of no account by the side of this + stupendous learning. The assembly broke up for that day. + </p> + <p> + Next day Shekhar began his song. It was of that day when the pipings of + love's flute startled for the first time the hushed air of the Vrinda + forest. The shepherd women did not know who was the player or whence came + the music. Sometimes it seemed to come from the heart of the south wind, + and sometimes from the straying clouds of the hilltops. It came with a + message of tryst from the land of the sunrise, and it floated from the + verge of sunset with its sigh of sorrow. The stars seemed to be the stops + of the instrument that flooded the dreams of the night with melody. The + music seemed to burst all at once from all sides, from fields and groves, + from the shady lanes and lonely roads, from the melting blue of the sky, + from the shimmering green of the grass. They neither knew its meaning nor + could they find words to give utterance to the desire of their hearts. + Tears filled their eyes, and their life seemed to long for a death that + would be its consummation. + </p> + <p> + Shekhar forgot his audience, forgot the trial of his strength with a + rival. He stood alone amid his thoughts that rustled and quivered round + him like leaves in a summer breeze, and sang the Song of the Flute. He had + in his mind the vision of an image that had taken its shape from a shadow, + and the echo of a faint tinkling sound of a distant footstep. + </p> + <p> + He took his seat. His hearers trembled with the sadness of an indefinable + delight, immense and vague, and they forgot to applaud him. As this + feeling died away Pundarik stood up before the throne and challenged his + rival to define who was this Lover and who was the Beloved. He arrogantly + looked around him, he smiled at his followers and then put the question + again: "Who is Krishna, the lover, and who is Radha, the beloved?" + </p> + <p> + Then he began to analyse the roots of those names,—and various + interpretations of their meanings. He brought before the bewildered + audience all the intricacies of the different schools of metaphysics with + consummate skill. Each letter of those names he divided from its fellow, + and then pursued them with a relentless logic till they fell to the dust + in confusion, to be caught up again and restored to a meaning never before + imagined by the subtlest of word-mongers. + </p> + <p> + The pandits were in ecstasy; they applauded vociferously; and the crowd + followed them, deluded into the certainty that they had witnessed, that + day, the last shred of the curtains of Truth torn to pieces before their + eyes by a prodigy of intellect. The performance of his tremendous feat so + delighted them that they forgot to ask themselves if there was any truth + behind it after all. + </p> + <p> + The king's mind was overwhelmed with wonder. The atmosphere was completely + cleared of all illusion of music, and the vision of the world around + seemed to be changed from its freshness of tender green to the solidity of + a high road levelled and made hard with crushed stones. + </p> + <p> + To the people assembled their own poet appeared a mere boy in comparison + with this giant, who walked with such case, knocking down difficulties at + each step in the world of words and thoughts. It became evident to them + for the first time that the poems Shekhar wrote were absurdly simple, and + it must be a mere accident that they did not write them themselves. They + were neither new, nor difficult, nor instructive, nor necessary. + </p> + <p> + The king tried to goad his poet with keen glances, silently inciting him + to make a final effort. But Shekhar took no notice, and remained fixed to + his seat. + </p> + <p> + The king in anger came down from his throne—took off his pearl chain + and put it on Pundarik's head. Everybody in the hall cheered. From the + upper balcony came a slight sound of the movements of rustling robes and + waist-chains hung with golden bells. Shekhar rose from his seat and left + the hall. + </p> + <p> + It was a dark night of waning moon. The poet Shekhar took down his MSS. + from his shelves and heaped them on the floor. Some of them contained his + earliest writings, which he had almost forgotten. He turned over the + pages, reading passages here and there. They all seemed to him poor and + trivial—mere words and childish rhymes! + </p> + <p> + One by one he tore his books to fragments, and threw them into a vessel + containing fire, and said: "To thee, to thee, O my beauty, my fire! Thou + hast been burning in my heart all these futile years. If my life were a + piece of gold it would come out of its trial brighter, but it is a trodden + turf of grass, and nothing remains of it but this handful of ashes." + </p> + <p> + The night wore on. Shekhar opened wide his windows. He spread upon his bed + the white flowers that he loved, the jasmines, tuberoses and + chrysanthemums, and brought into his bedroom all the lamps he had in his + house and lighted them. Then mixing with honey the juice of some poisonous + root he drank it and lay down on his bed. + </p> + <p> + Golden anklets tinkled in the passage outside the door, and a subtle + perfume came into the room with the breeze. + </p> + <p> + The poet, with his eyes shut, said; "My lady, have you taken pity upon + your servant at last and come to see him?" + </p> + <p> + The answer came in a sweet voice "My poet, I have come." + </p> + <p> + Shekhar opened his eyes—and saw before his bed the figure of a + woman. + </p> + <p> + His sight was dim and blurred. And it seemed to him that the image made of + a shadow that he had ever kept throned in the secret shrine of his heart + had come into the outer world in his last moment to gaze upon his face. + </p> + <p> + The woman said; "I am the Princess Ajita." + </p> + <p> + The poet with a great effort sat up on his bed. + </p> + <p> + The princess whispered into his car: "The king has not done you justice. + It was you who won at the combat, my poet, and I have come to crown you + with the crown of victory." + </p> + <p> + She took the garland of flowers from her own neck, and put it on his hair, + and the poet fell down upon his bed stricken by death. + </p> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0004" id="link2H_4_0004"> + <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + ONCE THERE WAS A KING + </h2> + <h3> + "Once upon a time there was a king." + </h3> + <p> + When we were children there was no need to know who the king in the fairy + story was. It didn't matter whether he was called Shiladitya or Shaliban, + whether he lived at Kashi or Kanauj. The thing that made a seven-year-old + boy's heart go thump, thump with delight was this one sovereign truth; + this reality of all realities: "Once there was a king." + </p> + <p> + But the readers of this modern age are far more exact and exacting. When + they hear such an opening to a story, they are at once critical and + suspicious. They apply the searchlight of science to its legendary haze + and ask: "Which king?" + </p> + <p> + The story-tellers have become more precise in their turn. They are no + longer content with the old indefinite, "There was a king," but assume + instead a look of profound learning, and begin: "Once there was a king + named Ajatasatru," + </p> + <p> + The modern reader's curiosity, however, is not so easily satisfied. He + blinks at the author through his scientific spectacles, and asks again: + "Which Ajatasatru?" + </p> + <p> + "Every schoolboy knows," the author proceeds, "that there were three + Ajatasatrus. The first was born in the twentieth century B.C., and died at + the tender age of two years and eight months, I deeply regret that it is + impossible to find, from any trustworthy source, a detailed account of his + reign. The second Ajatasatru is better known to historians. If you refer + to the new Encyclopedia of History...." + </p> + <p> + By this time the modern reader's suspicions are dissolved. He feels he may + safely trust his author. He says to himself: "Now we shall have a story + that is both improving and instructive." + </p> + <p> + Ah! how we all love to be deluded! We have a secret dread of being thought + ignorant. And we end by being ignorant after all, only we have done it in + a long and roundabout way. + </p> + <p> + There is an English proverb; "Ask me no questions, and I will tell you no + lies." The boy of seven who is listening to a fairy story understands that + perfectly well; he withholds his questions, while the story is being told. + So the pure and beautiful falsehood of it all remains naked and innocent + as a babe; transparent as truth itself; limpid as afresh bubbling spring. + But the ponderous and learned lie of our moderns has to keep its true + character draped and veiled. And if there is discovered anywhere the least + little peep-hole of deception, the reader turns away with a prudish + disgust, and the author is discredited. + </p> + <p> + When we were young, we understood all sweet things; and we could detect + the sweets of a fairy story by an unerring science of our own. We never + cared for such useless things as knowledge. We only cared for truth. And + our unsophisticated little hearts knew well where the Crystal Palace of + Truth lay and how to reach it. But to-day we are expected to write pages + of facts, while the truth is simply this: + </p> + <p> + "There was a king." + </p> + <p> + I remember vividly that evening in Calcutta when the fairy story began. + The rain and the storm had been incessant. The whole of the city was + flooded. The water was knee-deep in our lane. I had a straining hope, + which was almost a certainty, that my tutor would be prevented from coming + that evening. I sat on the stool in the far corner of the veranda looking + down the lane, with a heart beating faster and faster. Every minute I kept + my eye on the rain, and when it began to grow less I prayed with all my + might; "Please, God, send some more rain till half-past seven is over." + For I was quite ready to believe that there was no other need for rain + except to protect one helpless boy one evening in one corner of Calcutta + from the deadly clutches of his tutor. + </p> + <p> + If not in answer to my prayer, at any rate according to some grosser law + of physical nature, the rain did not give up. + </p> + <p> + But, alas! nor did my teacher. + </p> + <p> + Exactly to the minute, in the bend of the lane, I saw his approaching + umbrella. The great bubble of hope burst in my breast, and my heart + collapsed. Truly, if there is a punishment to fit the crime after death, + then my tutor will be born again as me, and I shall be born as my tutor. + </p> + <p> + As soon as I saw his umbrella I ran as hard as I could to my mother's + room. My mother and my grandmother were sitting opposite one another + playing cards by the light of a lamp. I ran into the room, and flung + myself on the bed beside my mother, and said: + </p> + <p> + "Mother dear, the tutor has come, and I have such a bad headache; couldn't + I have no lessons today?" + </p> + <p> + I hope no child of immature age will be allowed to read this story, and I + sincerely trust it will not be used in text-books or primers for schools. + For what I did was dreadfully bad, and I received no punishment whatever. + On the contrary, my wickedness was crowned with success. + </p> + <p> + My mother said to me: "All right," and turning to the servant added: "Tell + the tutor that he can go back home." + </p> + <p> + It was perfectly plain that she didn't think my illness very serious, as + she went on with her game as before, and took no further notice. And I + also, burying my head in the pillow, laughed to my heart's content. We + perfectly understood one another, my mother and I. + </p> + <p> + But every one must know how hard it is for a boy of seven years old to + keep up the illusion of illness for a long time. After about a minute I + got hold of Grandmother, and said: "Grannie, do tell me a story." + </p> + <p> + I had to ask this many times. Grannie and Mother went on playing cards, + and took no notice. At last Mother said to me: "Child, don't bother. Wait + till we've finished our game." But I persisted: "Grannie, do tell me a + story." I told Mother she could finish her game to-morrow, but she must + let Grannie tell me a story there and then. + </p> + <p> + At last Mother threw down the cards and said: "You had better do what he + wants. I can't manage him." Perhaps she had it in her mind that she would + have no tiresome tutor on the morrow, while I should be obliged to be back + to those stupid lessons. + </p> + <p> + As soon as ever Mother had given way, I rushed at Grannie. I got hold of + her hand, and, dancing with delight, dragged her inside my mosquito + curtain on to the bed. I clutched hold of the bolster with both hands in + my excitement, and jumped up and down with joy, and when I had got a + little quieter, said: "Now, Grannie, let' s have the story!" + </p> + <p> + Grannie went on: "And the king had a queen." That was good to begin with. + He had only one. + </p> + <p> + It is usual for kings in fairy stories to be extravagant in queens. And + whenever we hear that there are two queens, our hearts begin to sink. One + is sure to be unhappy. But in Grannie's story that danger was past. He had + only one queen. + </p> + <p> + We next hear that the king had not got any son. At the age of seven I + didn't think there was any need to bother if a man had had no son. He + might only have been in the way. Nor are we greatly excited when we hear + that the king has gone away into the forest to practise austerities in + order to get a son. There was only one thing that would have made me go + into the forest, and that was to get away from my tutor! + </p> + <p> + But the king left behind with his queen a small girl, who grew up into a + beautiful princess. + </p> + <p> + Twelve years pass away, and the king goes on practising austerities, and + never thinks all this while of his beautiful daughter. The princess has + reached the full bloom of her youth. The age of marriage has passed, but + the king does not return. And the queen pines away with grief and cries: + "Is my golden daughter destined to die unmarried? Ah me! What a fate is + mine." + </p> + <p> + Then the queen sent men to the king to entreat him earnestly to come back + for a single night and take one meal in the palace. And the king + consented. + </p> + <p> + The queen cooked with her own hand, and with the greatest care, sixty-four + dishes, and made a seat for him of sandal-wood, and arranged the food in + plates of gold and cups of silver. The princess stood behind with the + peacock-tail fan in her hand. The king, after twelve years' absence, came + into the house, and the princess waved the fan, lighting up all the room + with her beauty. The king looked in his daughter's face, and forgot to + take his food. + </p> + <p> + At last he asked his queen: "Pray, who is this girl whose beauty shines as + the gold image of the goddess? Whose daughter is she?" + </p> + <p> + The queen beat her forehead, and cried: "Ah, how evil is my fate! Do you + not know your own daughter?" + </p> + <p> + The king was struck with amazement. He said at last; "My tiny daughter has + grown to be a woman." + </p> + <p> + "What else?" the queen said with a sigh. "Do you not know that twelve + years have passed by?" + </p> + <p> + "But why did you not give her in marriage?" asked the king. + </p> + <p> + "You were away," the queen said. "And how could I find her a suitable + husband?" + </p> + <p> + The king became vehement with excitement. "The first man I see to-morrow," + he said, "when I come out of the palace shall marry her." + </p> + <p> + The princess went on waving her fan of peacock feathers, and the king + finished his meal. + </p> + <p> + The next morning, as the king came out of his palace, he saw the son of a + Brahman gathering sticks in the forest outside the palace gates. His age + was about seven or eight. + </p> + <p> + The king said: "I will marry my daughter to him." + </p> + <p> + Who can interfere with a king's command? At once the boy was called, and + the marriage garlands were exchanged between him and the princess. + </p> + <p> + At this point I came up close to my wise Grannie and asked her eagerly: + "What then?" + </p> + <p> + In the bottom of my heart there was a devout wish to substitute myself for + that fortunate wood-gatherer of seven years old. The night was resonant + with the patter of rain. The earthen lamp by my bedside was burning low. + My grandmother's voice droned on as she told the story. And all these + things served to create in a corner of my credulous heart the belief that + I had been gathering sticks in the dawn of some indefinite time in the + kingdom of some unknown king, and in a moment garlands had been exchanged + between me and the princess, beautiful as the Goddess of Grace. She had a + gold band on her hair and gold earrings in her ears. She bad a necklace + and bracelets of gold, and a golden waist-chain round her waist, and a + pair of golden anklets tinkled above her feet. + </p> + <p> + If my grandmother were an author how many explanations she would have to + offer for this little story! First of all, every one would ask why the + king remained twelve years in the forest? Secondly, why should the king's + daughter remain unmarried all that while? This would be regarded as + absurd. + </p> + <p> + Even if she could have got so far without a quarrel, still there would + have been a great hue and cry about the marriage itself. First, it never + happened. Secondly, how could there be a marriage between a princess of + the Warrior Caste and a boy of the priestly Brahman Caste? Her readers + would have imagined at once that the writer was preaching against our + social customs in an underhand way. And they would write letters to the + papers. + </p> + <p> + So I pray with all my heart that my grandmother may be born a grandmother + again, and not through some cursed fate take birth as her luckless + grandson. + </p> + <p> + So with a throb of joy and delight, I asked Grannie: "What then?" + </p> + <p> + Grannie went on: Then the princess took her little husband away in great + distress, and built a large palace with seven wings, and began to cherish + her husband with great care. + </p> + <p> + I jumped up and down in my bed and clutched at the bolster more tightly + than ever and said: "What then?" + </p> + <p> + Grannie continued: The little boy went to school and learnt many lessons + from his teachers, and as he grew up his class-fellows began to ask him: + "Who is that beautiful lady who lives with you in the palace with the + seven wings?" The Brahman's son was eager to know who she was. He could + only remember how one day he had been gathering sticks, and a great + disturbance arose. But all that was so long ago, that he had no clear + recollection. + </p> + <p> + Four or five years passed in this way. His companions always asked him: + "Who is that beautiful lady in the palace with the seven wings?" And the + Brahman's son would come back from school and sadly tell the princess: "My + school companions always ask me who is that beautiful lady in the palace + with the seven wings, and I can give them no reply. Tell me, oh, tell me, + who you are!" + </p> + <p> + The princess said: "Let it pass to-day. I will tell you some other day." + And every day the Brahman's son would ask; "Who are you?" and the princess + would reply: "Let it pass to-day. I will tell you some other day." In this + manner four or five more years passed away. + </p> + <p> + At last the Brahman's son became very impatient, and said: "If you do not + tell me to-day who you are, O beautiful lady, I will leave this palace + with the seven wings." Then the princess said: "I will certainly tell you + to-morrow." + </p> + <p> + Next day the Brahman's son, as soon as he came home from school, said: + "Now, tell me who you are." The princess said: "To-night I will tell you + after supper, when you are in bed." + </p> + <p> + The Brahman's son said: "Very well "; and he began to count the hours in + expectation of the night. And the princess, on her side, spread white + flowers over the golden bed, and lighted a gold lamp with fragrant oil, + and adorned her hair, and dressed herself in a beautiful robe of blue, and + began to count the hours in expectation of the night. + </p> + <p> + That evening when her husband, the Brahman's son, had finished his meal, + too excited almost to eat, and had gone to the golden bed in the + bed-chamber strewn with flowers, he said to himself: "To-night I shall + surely know who this beautiful lady is in the palace with the seven + wings." + </p> + <p> + The princess took for her the food that was left over by her husband, and + slowly entered the bed-chamber. She had to answer that night the question, + which was the beautiful lady who lived in the palace with the seven wings. + And as she went up to the bed to tell him she found a serpent had crept + out of the flowers and had bitten the Brahman's son. Her boy-husband was + lying on the bed of flowers, with face pale in death. + </p> + <p> + My heart suddenly ceased to throb, and I asked with choking voice: "What + then?" + </p> + <p> + Grannie said; "Then..." + </p> + <p> + But what is the use of going on any further with the story? It would only + lead on to what was more and more impossible. The boy of seven did not + know that, if there were some "What then?" after death, no grandmother of + a grandmother could tell us all about it. + </p> + <p> + But the child's faith never admits defeat, and it would snatch at the + mantle of death itself to turn him back. It would be outrageous for him to + think that such a story of one teacherless evening could so suddenly come + to a stop. Therefore the grandmother had to call back her story from the + ever-shut chamber of the great End, but she does it so simply: it is + merely by floating the dead body on a banana stem on the river, and having + some incantations read by a magician. But in that rainy night and in the + dim light of a lamp death loses all its horror in the mind of the boy, and + seems nothing more than a deep slumber of a single night. When the story + ends the tired eyelids are weighed down with sleep. Thus it is that we + send the little body of the child floating on the back of sleep over the + still water of time, and then in the morning read a few verses of + incantation to restore him to the world of life and light. + </p> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0005" id="link2H_4_0005"> + <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + THE HOME-COMING + </h2> + <p> + Phatik Chakravorti was ringleader among the boys of the village. A new + mischief got into his head. There was a heavy log lying on the mud-flat of + the river waiting to be shaped into a mast for a boat. He decided that + they should all work together to shift the log by main force from its + place and roll it away. The owner of the log would be angry and surprised, + and they would all enjoy the fun. Every one seconded the proposal, and it + was carried unanimously. + </p> + <p> + But just as the fun was about to begin, Makhan, Phatik's younger brother, + sauntered up, and sat down on the log in front of them all without a word. + The boys were puzzled for a moment. He was pushed, rather timidly, by one + of the boys and told to get up but he remained quite unconcerned. He + appeared like a young philosopher meditating on the futility of games. + Phatik was furious. "Makhan," he cried, "if you don't get down this minute + I'll thrash you!" + </p> + <p> + Makhan only moved to a more comfortable position. + </p> + <p> + Now, if Phatik was to keep his regal dignity before the public, it was + clear he ought to carry out his threat. But his courage failed him at the + crisis. His fertile brain, however, rapidly seized upon a new manoeuvre + which would discomfit his brother and afford his followers an added + amusement. He gave the word of command to roll the log and Makhan over + together. Makhan heard the order, and made it a point of honour to stick + on. But he overlooked the fact, like those who attempt earthly fame in + other matters, that there was peril in it. + </p> + <p> + The boys began to heave at the log with all their might, calling out, + "One, two, three, go," At the word "go" the log went; and with it went + Makhan's philosophy, glory and all. + </p> + <p> + All the other boys shouted themselves hoarse with delight. But Phatik was + a little frightened. He knew what was coming. And, sure enough, Makhan + rose from Mother Earth blind as Fate and screaming like the Furies. He + rushed at Phatik and scratched his face and beat him and kicked him, and + then went crying home. The first act of the drama was over. + </p> + <p> + Phatik wiped his face, and sat down on the edge of a sunken barge on the + river bank, and began to chew a piece of grass. A boat came up to the + landing, and a middle-aged man, with grey hair and dark moustache, stepped + on shore. He saw the boy sitting there doing nothing, and asked him where + the Chakravortis lived. Phatik went on chewing the grass, and said: "Over + there," but it was quite impossible to tell where he pointed. The stranger + asked him again. He swung his legs to and fro on the side of the barge, + and said; "Go and find out," and continued to chew the grass as before. + </p> + <p> + But now a servant came down from the house, and told Phatik his mother + wanted him. Phatik refused to move. But the servant was the master on this + occasion. He took Phatik up roughly, and carried him, kicking and + struggling in impotent rage. + </p> + <p> + When Phatik came into the house, his mother saw him. She called out + angrily: "So you have been hitting Makhan again?" + </p> + <p> + Phatik answered indignantly: "No, I haven't; who told you that?" + </p> + <p> + His mother shouted: "Don't tell lies! You have." + </p> + <p> + Phatik said suddenly: "I tell you, I haven't. You ask Makhan!" But Makhan + thought it best to stick to his previous statement. He said: "Yes, mother. + Phatik did hit me." + </p> + <p> + Phatik's patience was already exhausted. He could not hear this injustice. + He rushed at Makban, and hammered him with blows: "Take that" he cried, + "and that, and that, for telling lies." + </p> + <p> + His mother took Makhan's side in a moment, and pulled Phatik away, beating + him with her hands. When Phatik pushed her aside, she shouted out: "What I + you little villain! would you hit your own mother?" + </p> + <p> + It was just at this critical juncture that the grey-haired stranger + arrived. He asked what was the matter. Phatik looked sheepish and ashamed. + </p> + <p> + But when his mother stepped back and looked at the stranger, her anger was + changed to surprise. For she recognised her brother, and cried: "Why, + Dada! Where have you come from?" As she said these words, she bowed to the + ground and touched his feet. Her brother had gone away soon after she had + married, and he had started business in Bombay. His sister had lost her + husband while he was In Bombay. Bishamber had now come back to Calcutta, + and had at once made enquiries about his sister. He had then hastened to + see her as soon as he found out where she was. + </p> + <p> + The next few days were full of rejoicing. The brother asked after the + education of the two boys. He was told by his sister that Phatik was a + perpetual nuisance. He was lazy, disobedient, and wild. But Makhan was as + good as gold, as quiet as a lamb, and very fond of reading, Bishamber + kindly offered to take Phatik off his sister's hands, and educate him with + his own children in Calcutta. The widowed mother readily agreed. When his + uncle asked Phatik If he would like to go to Calcutta with him, his joy + knew no bounds, and he said; "Oh, yes, uncle!" In a way that made it quite + clear that he meant it. + </p> + <p> + It was an immense relief to the mother to get rid of Phatik. She had a + prejudice against the boy, and no love was lost between the two brothers. + She was in daily fear that he would either drown Makhan some day in the + river, or break his head in a fight, or run him into some danger or other. + At the same time she was somewhat distressed to see Phatik's extreme + eagerness to get away. + </p> + <p> + Phatik, as soon as all was settled, kept asking his uncle every minute + when they were to start. He was on pins and needles all day long with + excitement, and lay awake most of the night. He bequeathed to Makhan, in + perpetuity, his fishing-rod, his big kite and his marbles. Indeed, at this + time of departure his generosity towards Makhan was unbounded. + </p> + <p> + When they reached Calcutta, Phatik made the acquaintance of his aunt for + the first time. She was by no means pleased with this unnecessary addition + to her family. She found her own three boys quite enough to manage without + taking any one else. And to bring a village lad of fourteen into their + midst was terribly upsetting. Bishamber should really have thought twice + before committing such an indiscretion. + </p> + <p> + In this world of human affairs there is no worse nuisance than a boy at + the age of fourteen. He is neither ornamental, nor useful. It is + impossible to shower affection on him as on a little boy; and he is always + getting in the way. If he talks with a childish lisp he is called a baby, + and if he answers in a grown-up way he is called impertinent. In fact any + talk at all from him is resented. Then he is at the unattractive, growing + age. He grows out of his clothes with indecent haste; his voice grows + hoarse and breaks and quavers; his face grows suddenly angular and + unsightly. It is easy to excuse the shortcomings of early childhood, but + it is hard to tolerate even unavoidable lapses in a boy of fourteen. The + lad himself becomes painfully self-conscious. When he talks with elderly + people he is either unduly forward, or else so unduly shy that he appears + ashamed of his very existence. + </p> + <p> + Yet it is at this very age when in his heart of hearts a young lad most + craves for recognition and love; and he becomes the devoted slave of any + one who shows him consideration. But none dare openly love him, for that + would be regarded as undue indulgence, and therefore bad for the boy. So, + what with scolding and chiding, he becomes very much like a stray dog that + has lost his master. + </p> + <p> + For a boy of fourteen his own home is the only Paradise. To live in a + strange house with strange people is little short of torture, while the + height of bliss is to receive the kind looks of women, and never to be + slighted by them. + </p> + <p> + It was anguish to Phatik to be the unwelcome guest in his aunt's house, + despised by this elderly woman, and slighted, on every occasion. If she + ever asked him to do anything for her, he would be so overjoyed that he + would overdo it; and then she would tell him not to be so stupid, but to + get on with his lessons. + </p> + <p> + The cramped atmosphere of neglect in his aunt's house oppressed Phatik so + much that he felt that he could hardly breathe. He wanted to go out into + the open country and fill his lungs and breathe freely. But there was no + open country to go to. Surrounded on all sides by Calcutta houses and + walls, he would dream night after night of his village home, and long to + be back there. He remembered the glorious meadow where he used to fly his + kite all day long; the broad river-banks where he would wander about the + livelong day singing and shouting for joy; the narrow brook where he could + go and dive and swim at any time he liked. He thought of his band of boy + companions over whom he was despot; and, above all, the memory of that + tyrant mother of his, who had such a prejudice against him, occupied him + day and night. A kind of physical love like that of animals; a longing to + be in the presence of the one who is loved; an inexpressible wistfulness + during absence; a silent cry of the inmost heart for the mother, like the + lowing of a calf in the twilight;-this love, which was almost an animal + instinct, agitated the shy, nervous, lean, uncouth and ugly boy. No one + could understand it, but it preyed upon his mind continually. + </p> + <p> + There was no more backward boy in the whole school than Phatik. He gaped + and remained silent when the teacher asked him a question, and like an + overladen ass patiently suffered all the blows that came down on his back. + When other boys were out at play, he stood wistfully by the window and + gazed at the roofs of the distant houses. And if by chance he espied + children playing on the open terrace of any roof, his heart would ache + with longing. + </p> + <p> + One day he summoned up all his courage, and asked his uncle: "Uncle, when + can I go home?" + </p> + <p> + His uncle answered; "Wait till the holidays come." But the holidays would + not come till November, and there was a long time still to wait. + </p> + <p> + One day Phatik lost his lesson-book. Even with the help of books he had + found it very difficult indeed to prepare his lesson. Now it was + impossible. Day after day the teacher would cane him unmercifully. His + condition became so abjectly miserable that even his cousins were ashamed + to own him. They began to jeer and insult him more than the other boys. He + went to his aunt at last, and told her that he had lost his book. + </p> + <p> + His aunt pursed her lips in contempt, and said: "You great clumsy, country + lout. How can I afford, with all my family, to buy you new books five + times a month?" + </p> + <p> + That night, on his way back from school, Phatik had a bad headache with a + fit of shivering. He felt he was going to have an attack of malarial + fever. His one great fear was that he would be a nuisance to his aunt. + </p> + <p> + The next morning Phatik was nowhere to be seen. All searches in the + neighbourhood proved futile. The rain had been pouring in torrents all + night, and those who went out in search of the boy got drenched through to + the skin. At last Bisbamber asked help from the police. + </p> + <p> + At the end of the day a police van stopped at the door before the house. + It was still raining and the streets were all flooded. Two constables + brought out Phatik in their arms and placed him before Bishamber. He was + wet through from head to foot, muddy all over, his face and eyes flushed + red with fever, and his limbs all trembling. Bishamber carried him in his + arms, and took him into the inner apartments. When his wife saw him, she + exclaimed; "What a heap of trouble this boy has given us. Hadn't you + better send him home?" + </p> + <p> + Phatik heard her words, and sobbed out loud: "Uncle, I was just going + home; but they dragged me back again." + </p> + <p> + The fever rose very high, and all that night the boy was delirious. + Bishamber brought in a doctor. Phatik opened his eyes flushed with fever, + and looked up to the ceiling, and said vacantly: "Uncle, have the holidays + come yet? May I go home?" + </p> + <p> + Bishamber wiped the tears from his own eyes, and took Phatik's lean and + burning hands in his own, and sat by him through the night. The boy began + again to mutter. At last his voice became excited: "Mother," he cried, + "don't beat me like that! Mother! I am telling the truth!" + </p> + <p> + The next day Phatik became conscious for a short time. He turned his eyes + about the room, as if expecting some one to come. At last, with an air of + disappointment, his head sank back on the pillow. He turned his face to + the wall with a deep sigh. + </p> + <p> + Bishamber knew his thoughts, and, bending down his head, whispered: + "Phatik, I have sent for your mother." The day went by. The doctor said in + a troubled voice that the boy's condition was very critical. + </p> + <p> + Phatik began to cry out; "By the mark!—three fathoms. By the mark—four + fathoms. By the mark-." He had heard the sailor on the river-steamer + calling out the mark on the plumb-line. Now he was himself plumbing an + unfathomable sea. + </p> + <p> + Later in the day Phatik's mother burst into the room like a whirlwind, and + began to toss from side to side and moan and cry in a loud voice. + </p> + <p> + Bishamber tried to calm her agitation, but she flung herself on the bed, + and cried: "Phatik, my darling, my darling." + </p> + <p> + Phatik stopped his restless movements for a moment. His hands ceased + beating up and down. He said: "Eh?" + </p> + <p> + The mother cried again: "Phatik, my darling, my darling." + </p> + <p> + Phatik very slowly turned his head and, without seeing anybody, said: + "Mother, the holidays have come." + </p> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0006" id="link2H_4_0006"> + <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + MY LORD, THE BABY + </h2> + <h3> + I + </h3> + <p> + Raicharan was twelve years old when he came as a servant to his master's + house. He belonged to the same caste as his master, and was given his + master's little son to nurse. As time went on the boy left Raicharan's + arms to go to school. From school he went on to college, and after college + he entered the judicial service. Always, until he married, Raicharan was + his sole attendant. + </p> + <p> + But, when a mistress came into the house, Raicharan found two masters + instead of one. All his former influence passed to the new mistress. This + was compensated for by a fresh arrival. Anukul had a son born to him, and + Raicharan by his unsparing attentions soon got a complete hold over the + child. He used to toss him up in his arms, call to him in absurd baby + language, put his face close to the baby's and draw it away again with a + grin. + </p> + <p> + Presently the child was able to crawl and cross the doorway. When + Raicharan went to catch him, he would scream with mischievous laughter and + make for safety. Raicharan was amazed at the profound skill and exact + judgment the baby showed when pursued. He would say to his mistress with a + look of awe and mystery: "Your son will be a judge some day." + </p> + <p> + New wonders came in their turn. When the baby began to toddle, that was to + Raicharan an epoch in human history. When he called his father Ba-ba and + his mother Ma-ma and Raicharan Chan-na, then Raicharan's ecstasy knew no + bounds. He went out to tell the news to all the world. + </p> + <p> + After a while Raicharan was asked to show his ingenuity in other ways. He + had, for instance, to play the part of a horse, holding the reins between + his teeth and prancing with his feet. He had also to wrestle with his + little charge, and if he could not, by a wrestler's trick, fall on his + back defeated at the end, a great outcry was certain. + </p> + <p> + About this time Anukul was transferred to a district on the banks of the + Padma. On his way through Calcutta he bought his son a little go-cart. He + bought him also a yellow satin waistcoat, a gold-laced cap, and some gold + bracelets and anklets. Raicharan was wont to take these out, and put them + on his little charge with ceremonial pride, whenever they went for a walk. + </p> + <p> + Then came the rainy season, and day after day the rain poured down in + torrents. The hungry river, like an enormous serpent, swallowed down + terraces, villages, cornfields, and covered with its flood the tall + grasses and wild casuarinas on the sand-banks. From time to time there was + a deep thud, as the river-banks crumbled. The unceasing roar of the rain + current could be beard from far away. Masses of foam, carried swiftly + past, proved to the eye the swiftness of the stream. + </p> + <p> + One afternoon the rain cleared. It was cloudy, but cool and bright. + Raicharan's little despot did not want to stay in on such a fine + afternoon. His lordship climbed into the go-cart. Raicharan, between the + shafts, dragged him slowly along till he reached the rice-fields on the + banks of the river. There was no one in the fields, and no boat on the + stream. Across the water, on the farther side, the clouds were rifted in + the west. The silent ceremonial of the setting sun was revealed in all its + glowing splendour. In the midst of that stillness the child, all of a + sudden, pointed with his finger in front of him and cried: "Chan-nal Pitty + fow." + </p> + <p> + Close by on a mud-flat stood a large Kadamba tree in full flower. My lord, + the baby, looked at it with greedy eyes, and Raicharan knew his meaning. + Only a short time before he had made, out of these very flower balls, a + small go-cart; and the child had been so entirely happy dragging it about + with a string, that for the whole day Raicharan was not made to put on the + reins at all. He was promoted from a horse into a groom. + </p> + <p> + But Raicharan had no wish that evening to go splashing knee-deep through + the mud to reach the flowers. So he quickly pointed his finger in the + opposite direction, calling out: "Oh, look, baby, look! Look at the bird." + And with all sorts of curious noises he pushed the go-cart rapidly away + from the tree. + </p> + <p> + But a child, destined to be a judge, cannot be put off so easily. And + besides, there was at the time nothing to attract his eyes. And you cannot + keep up for ever the pretence of an imaginary bird. + </p> + <p> + The little Master's mind was made up, and Raicharan was at his wits' end. + "Very well, baby," he said at last, "you sit still in the cart, and I'll + go and get you the pretty flower. Only mind you don't go near the water." + </p> + <p> + As he said this, he made his legs bare to the knee, and waded through the + oozing mud towards the tree. + </p> + <p> + The moment Raicharan had gone, his little Master went off at racing speed + to the forbidden water. The baby saw the river rushing by, splashing and + gurgling as it went. It seemed as though the disobedient wavelets + themselves were running away from some greater Raicharan with the laughter + of a thousand children. At the sight of their mischief, the heart of the + human child grew excited and restless. He got down stealthily from the + go-cart and toddled off towards the river. On his way he picked up a small + stick, and leant over the bank of the stream pretending to fish. The + mischievous fairies of the river with their mysterious voices seemed + inviting him into their play-house. + </p> + <p> + Raicharan had plucked a handful of flowers from the tree, and was carrying + them back in the end of his cloth, with his face wreathed in smiles. But + when he reached the go-cart, there was no one there. He looked on all + sides and there was no one there. He looked back at the cart and there was + no one there. + </p> + <p> + In that first terrible moment his blood froze within him. Before his eyes + the whole universe swam round like a dark mist. From the depth of his + broken heart he gave one piercing cry; "Master, Master, little Master." + </p> + <p> + But no voice answered "Chan-na." No child laughed mischievously back; no + scream of baby delight welcomed his return. Only the river ran on, with + its splashing, gurgling noise as before,—as though it knew nothing + at all, and had no time to attend to such a tiny human event as the death + of a child. + </p> + <p> + As the evening passed by Raicharan's mistress became very anxious. She + sent men out on all sides to search. They went with lanterns in their + hands, and reached at last the banks of the Padma. There they found + Raicharan rushing up and down the fields, like a stormy wind, shouting the + cry of despair: "Master, Master, little Master!" + </p> + <p> + When they got Raicharan home at last, he fell prostrate at his mistress's + feet. They shook him, and questioned him, and asked him repeatedly where + he had left the child; but all he could say was, that he knew nothing. + </p> + <p> + Though every one held the opinion that the Padma had swallowed the child, + there was a lurking doubt left in the mind. For a band of gipsies had been + noticed outside the village that afternoon, and some suspicion rested on + them. The mother went so far in her wild grief as to think it possible + that Raicharan himself had stolen the child. She called him aside with + piteous entreaty and said: "Raicharan, give me back my baby. Oh! give me + back my child. Take from me any money you ask, but give me back my child!" + </p> + <p> + Raicharan only beat his forehead in reply. His mistress ordered him out of + the house. + </p> + <p> + Artukul tried to reason his wife out of this wholly unjust suspicion: "Why + on earth," he said, "should he commit such a crime as that?" + </p> + <p> + The mother only replied: "The baby had gold ornaments on his body. Who + knows?" + </p> + <p> + It was impossible to reason with her after that. + </p> + <p> + II + </p> + <p> + Raicharan went back to his own village. Up to this time he had had no son, + and there was no hope that any child would now be born to him. But it came + about before the end of a year that his wife gave birth to a son and died. + </p> + <p> + All overwhelming resentment at first grew up in Raicharan's heart at the + sight of this new baby. At the back of his mind was resentful suspicion + that it had come as a usurper in place of the little Master. He also + thought it would be a grave offence to be happy with a son of his own + after what had happened to his master's little child. Indeed, if it had + not been for a widowed sister, who mothered the new baby, it would not + have lived long. + </p> + <p> + But a change gradually came over Raicharan's mind. A wonderful thing + happened. This new baby in turn began to crawl about, and cross the + doorway with mischief in its face. It also showed an amusing cleverness in + making its escape to safety. Its voice, its sounds of laughter and tears, + its gestures, were those of the little Master. On some days, when + Raicharan listened to its crying, his heart suddenly began thumping wildly + against his ribs, and it seemed to him that his former little Master was + crying somewhere in the unknown land of death because he had lost his + Chan-na. + </p> + <p> + Phailna (for that was the name Raicharan's sister gave to the new baby) + soon began to talk. It learnt to say Ba-ba and Ma-ma with a baby accent. + When Raicharan heard those familiar sounds the mystery suddenly became + clear. The little Master could not cast off the spell of his Chan-na, and + therefore he had been reborn in his own house. + </p> + <p> + The arguments in favour of this were, to Raicharan, altogether beyond + dispute: + </p> + <p> + (i.) The new baby was born soon after his little master's death. + </p> + <p> + (ii.) His wife could never have accumulated such merit as to give birth to + a son in middle age. + </p> + <p> + (iii.) The new baby walked with a toddle and called out Ba-ba and Ma-ma. + There was no sign lacking which marked out the future judge. + </p> + <p> + Then suddenly Raicharan remembered that terrible accusation of the mother. + "Ah," he said to himself with amazement, "the mother's heart was right. + She knew I had stolen her child." When once he had come to this + conclusion, he was filled with remorse for his past neglect. He now gave + himself over, body and soul, to the new baby, and became its devoted + attendant. He began to bring it up, as if it were the son of a rich man. + He bought a go-cart, a yellow satin waistcoat, and a gold-embroidered cap. + He melted down the ornaments of his dead wife, and made gold bangles and + anklets. He refused to let the little child play with any one of the + neighbourhood, and became himself its sole companion day and night. As the + baby grew up to boyhood, he was so petted and spoilt and clad in such + finery that the village children would call him "Your Lordship," and jeer + at him; and older people regarded Raicharan as unaccountably crazy about + the child. + </p> + <p> + At last the time came for the boy to go to school. Raicharan sold his + small piece of land, and went to Calcutta. There he got employment with + great difficulty as a servant, and sent Phailna to school. He spared no + pains to give him the best education, the best clothes, the best food. + Meanwhile he lived himself on a mere handful of rice, and would say in + secret: "Ah! my little Master, my dear little Master, you loved me so much + that you came back to my house. You shall never suffer from any neglect of + mine." + </p> + <p> + Twelve years passed away in this manner. The boy was able to read and + write well. He was bright and healthy and good-looking. He paid a great + deal of attention to his personal appearance, and was specially careful in + parting his hair. He was inclined to extravagance and finery, and spent + money freely. He could never quite look on Raicharan as a father, because, + though fatherly in affection, he had the manner of a servant. A further + fault was this, that Raicharan kept secret from every one that himself was + the father of the child. + </p> + <p> + The students of the hostel, where Phailna was a boarder, were greatly + amused by Raicharan's country manners, and I have to confess that behind + his father's back Phailna joined in their fun. But, in the bottom of their + hearts, all the students loved the innocent and tender-hearted old man, + and Phailna was very fond of him also. But, as I have said before, he + loved him with a kind of condescension. + </p> + <p> + Raicharan grew older and older, and his employer was continually finding + fault with him for his incompetent work. He had been starving himself for + the boy's sake. So he had grown physically weak, and no longer up to his + work. He would forget things, and his mind became dull and stupid. But his + employer expected a full servant's work out of him, and would not brook + excuses. The money that Raicharan had brought with him from the sale of + his land was exhausted. The boy was continually grumbling about his + clothes, and asking for more money. + </p> + <p> + Raicharan made up his mind. He gave up the situation where he was working + as a servant, and left some money with Phailna and said: "I have some + business to do at home in my village, and shall be back soon." + </p> + <p> + He went off at once to Baraset where Anukul was magistrate. Anukul's wife + was still broken down with grief. She had had no other child. + </p> + <p> + One day Anukul was resting after a long and weary day in court. His wife + was buying, at an exorbitant price, a herb from a mendicant quack, which + was said to ensure the birth of a child. A voice of greeting was heard in + the courtyard. Anukul went out to see who was there. It was Raicharan. + Anukul's heart was softened when he saw his old servant. He asked him many + questions, and offered to take him back into service. + </p> + <p> + Raicharan smiled faintly, and said in reply; "I want to make obeisance to + my mistress." + </p> + <p> + Anukul went with Raicharan into the house, where the mistress did not + receive him as warmly as his old master. Raicharan took no notice of this, + but folded his hands, and said: "It was not the Padma that stole your + baby. It was I." + </p> + <p> + Anukul exclaimed: "Great God! Eh! What! Where is he?" Raicharan replied: + "He is with me, I will bring him the day after to-morrow." + </p> + <p> + It was Sunday. There was no magistrate's court sitting. Both husband and + wife were looking expectantly along the road, waiting from early morning + for Raicharan's appearance. At ten o'clock he came, leading Phailna by the + hand. + </p> + <p> + Anukul's wife, without a question, took the boy into her lap, and was wild + with excitement, sometimes laughing, sometimes weeping, touching him, + kissing his hair and his forehead, and gazing into his face with hungry, + eager eyes. The boy was very good-looking and dressed like a gentleman's + son. The heart of Anukul brimmed over with a sudden rush of affection. + </p> + <p> + Nevertheless the magistrate in him asked: "Have you any proofs?" Raicharan + said: "How could there be any proof of such a deed? God alone knows that I + stole your boy, and no one else in the world." + </p> + <p> + When Anukul saw how eagerly his wife was clinging to the boy, he realised + the futility of asking for proofs. It would be wiser to believe. And then—where + could an old man like Raicharan get such a boy from? And why should his + faithful servant deceive him for nothing? + </p> + <p> + "But," he added severely, "Raicharan, you must not stay here." + </p> + <p> + "Where shall I go, Master?" said Raicharan, in a choking voice, folding + his hands; "I am old. Who will take in an old man as a servant?" + </p> + <p> + The mistress said: "Let him stay. My child will be pleased. I forgive + him." + </p> + <p> + But Anukul's magisterial conscience would not allow him. "No," he said, + "he cannot be forgiven for what he has done." + </p> + <p> + Raicharan bowed to the ground, and clasped Anukul's feet. "Master," he + cried, "let me stay. It was not I who did it. It was God." + </p> + <p> + Anukul's conscience was worse stricken than ever, when Raicharan tried to + put the blame on God's shoulders. + </p> + <p> + "No," he said, "I could not allow it. I cannot trust you any more. You + have done an act of treachery." + </p> + <p> + Raicharan rose to his feet and said: "It was not I who did it." + </p> + <p> + "Who was it then?" asked Anukul. + </p> + <p> + Raicharan replied: "It was my fate." + </p> + <p> + But no educated man could take this for an excuse. Anukul remained + obdurate. + </p> + <p> + When Phailna saw that he was the wealthy magistrate's son, and not + Raicharan's, he was angry at first, thinking that he had been cheated all + this time of his birthright. But seeing Raicharan in distress, he + generously said to his father: "Father, forgive him. Even if you don't let + him live with us, let him have a small monthly pension." + </p> + <p> + After hearing this, Raicharan did not utter another word. He looked for + the last time on the face of his son; he made obeisance to his old master + and mistress. Then he went out, and was mingled with the numberless people + of the world. + </p> + <p> + At the end of the month Anukul sent him some money to his village. But the + money came back. There was no one there of the name of Raicharan. + </p> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0007" id="link2H_4_0007"> + <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + THE KINGDOM OF CARDS + </h2> + <h3> + I + </h3> + <p> + Once upon a time there was a lonely island in a distant sea where lived + the Kings and Queens, the Aces and the Knaves, in the Kingdom of Cards. + The Tens and Nines, with the Twos and Threes, and all the other members, + had long ago settled there also. But these were not twice-born people, + like the famous Court Cards. + </p> + <p> + The Ace, the King, and the Knave were the three highest castes. The fourth + Caste was made up of a mixture of the lower Cards. The Twos and Threes + were lowest of all. These inferior Cards were never allowed to sit in the + same row with the great Court Cards. + </p> + <p> + Wonderful indeed were the regulations and rules of that island kingdom. + The particular rank of each individual had been settled from time + immemorial. Every one had his own appointed work, and never did anything + else. An unseen hand appeared to be directing them wherever they went,—according + to the Rules. + </p> + <p> + No one in the Kingdom of Cards had any occasion to think: no one had any + need to come to any decision: no one was ever required to debate any new + subject. The citizens all moved along in a listless groove without speech. + When they fell, they made no noise. They lay down on their backs, and + gazed upward at the sky with each prim feature firmly fixed for ever. + </p> + <p> + There was a remarkable stillness in the Kingdom of Cards. Satisfaction and + contentment were complete in all their rounded wholeness. There was never + any uproar or violence. There was never any excitement or enthusiasm. + </p> + <p> + The great ocean, crooning its lullaby with one unceasing melody, lapped + the island to sleep with a thousand soft touches of its wave's white + hands. The vast sky, like the outspread azure wings of the brooding + mother-bird, nestled the island round with its downy plume. For on the + distant horizon a deep blue line betokened another shore. But no sound of + quarrel or strife could reach the Island of Cards, to break its calm + repose. + </p> + <p> + II + </p> + <p> + In that far-off foreign land across the sea, there lived a young Prince + whose mother was a sorrowing queen. This queen had fallen from favour, and + was living with her only son on the seashore. The Prince passed his + childhood alone and forlorn, sitting by his forlorn mother, weaving the + net of his big desires. He longed to go in search of the Flying Horse, the + Jewel in the Cobra's hood, the Rose of Heaven, the Magic Roads, or to find + where the Princess Beauty was sleeping in the Ogre's castle over the + thirteen rivers and across the seven seas. + </p> + <p> + From the Son of the Merchant at school the young Prince learnt the stories + of foreign kingdoms. From the Son of the Kotwal he learnt the adventures + of the Two Genii of the Lamp. And when the rain came beating down, and the + clouds covered the sky, he would sit on the threshold facing the sea, and + say to his sorrowing mother: "Tell me, mother, a story of some very + far-off land." + </p> + <p> + And his mother would tell him an endless tale she had heard in her + childhood of a wonderful country beyond the sea where dwelt the Princess + Beauty. And the heart of the young Prince would become sick with longing, + as he sat on the threshold, looking out on the ocean, listening to his + mother's wonderful story, while the rain outside came beating down and the + grey clouds covered the sky. + </p> + <p> + One day the Son of the Merchant came to the Prince, and said boldly: + "Comrade, my studies are over. I am now setting out on my travels to seek + my fortunes on the sea. I have come to bid you good-bye." + </p> + <p> + The Prince said; "I will go with you." + </p> + <p> + And the Son of Kotwal said also: "Comrades, trusty and true, you will not + leave me behind. I also will be your companion." + </p> + <p> + Then the young Prince said to his sorrowing mother; "Mother, I am now + setting out on my travels to seek my fortune. When I come back once more, + I shall surely have found some way to remove all your sorrow." + </p> + <p> + So the Three Companions set out on their travels together. In the harbour + were anchored the twelve ships of the merchant, and the Three Companions + got on board. The south wind was blowing, and the twelve ships sailed + away, as fast as the desires which rose in the Prince's breast. + </p> + <p> + At the Conch Shell Island they filled one ship with conchs. At the Sandal + Wood Island they filled a second ship with sandal-wood, and at the Coral + Island they filled a third ship with coral. + </p> + <p> + Four years passed away, and they filled four more ships, one with ivory, + one with musk, one with cloves, and one with nutmegs. + </p> + <p> + But when these ships were all loaded a terrible tempest arose. The ships + were all of them sunk, with their cloves and nutmeg, and musk and ivory, + and coral and sandal-wood and conchs. But the ship with the Three + Companions struck on an island reef, buried them safe ashore, and itself + broke in pieces. + </p> + <p> + This was the famous Island of Cards, where lived the Ace and King and + Queen and Knave, with the Nines and Tens and all the other Members—according + to the Rules. + </p> + <p> + III + </p> + <p> + Up till now there had been nothing to disturb that island stillness. No + new thing had ever happened. No discussion had ever been held. + </p> + <p> + And then, of a sudden, the Three Companions appeared, thrown up by the + sea,—and the Great Debate began. There were three main points of + dispute. + </p> + <p> + First, to what caste should these unclassed strangers belong? Should they + rank with the Court Cards? Or were they merely lower-caste people, to be + ranked with the Nines and Tens? No precedent could be quoted to decide + this weighty question. + </p> + <p> + Secondly, what was their clan? Had they the fairer hue and bright + complexion of the Hearts, or was theirs the darker complexion of the + Clubs? Over this question there were interminable disputes. The whole + marriage system of the island, with its intricate regulations, would + depend on its nice adjustment. + </p> + <p> + Thirdly, what food should they take? With whom should they live and sleep? + And should their heads be placed south-west, north-west, or only + north-east? In all the Kingdom of Cards a series of problems so vital and + critical had never been debated before. + </p> + <p> + But the Three Companions grew desperately hungry. They had to get food in + some way or other. So while this debate went on, with its interminable + silence and pauses, and while the Aces called their own meeting, and + formed themselves into a Committee, to find some obsolete dealing with the + question, the Three Companions themselves were eating all they could find, + and drinking out of every vessel, and breaking all regulations. + </p> + <p> + Even the Twos and Threes were shocked at this outrageous behaviour. The + Threes said; "Brother Twos, these people are openly shameless!" And the + Twos said: "Brother Threes, they are evidently of lower caste than + ourselves!" After their meal was over, the Three Companions went for a + stroll in the city. + </p> + <p> + When they saw the ponderous people moving in their dismal processions with + prim and solemn faces, then the Prince turned to the Son of the Merchant + and the Son of the Kotwal, and threw back his head, and gave one + stupendous laugh. + </p> + <p> + Down Royal Street and across Ace Square and along the Knave Embankment ran + the quiver of this strange, unheard-of laughter, the laughter that, amazed + at itself, expired in the vast vacuum of silence. + </p> + <p> + The Son of the Kotwal and the Son of the Merchant were chilled through to + the bone by the ghost-like stillness around them. They turned to the + Prince, and said: "Comrade, let us away. Let us not stop for a moment in + this awful land of ghosts." + </p> + <p> + But the Prince said: "Comrades, these people resemble men, so I am going + to find out, by shaking them upside down and outside in, whether they have + a single drop of warm living blood left in their veins." + </p> + <p> + IV + </p> + <p> + The days passed one by one, and the placid existence of the Island went on + almost without a ripple. The Three Companions obeyed no rules nor + regulations. They never did anything correctly either in sitting or + standing or turning themselves round or lying on their back. On the + contrary, wherever they saw these things going on precisely and exactly + according to the Rules, they gave way to inordinate laughter. They + remained unimpressed altogether by the eternal gravity of those eternal + regulations. + </p> + <p> + One day the great Court Cards came to the Son of the Kotwal and the Son of + the Merchant and the Prince. + </p> + <p> + "Why," they asked slowly, "are you not moving according to the Rules?" + </p> + <p> + The Three Companions answered: "Because that is our Ichcha (wish)." + </p> + <p> + The great Court Cards with hollow, cavernous voices, as if slowly + awakening from an age-long dream, said together: "Ich-cha! And pray who is + Ich-cha?" + </p> + <p> + They could not understand who Ichcha was then, but the whole island was to + understand it by-and-by. The first glimmer of light passed the threshold + of their minds when they found out, through watching the actions of the + Prince, that they might move in a straight line in an opposite direction + from the one in which they had always gone before. Then they made another + startling discovery, that there was another side to the Cards which they + had never yet noticed with attention. This was the beginning of the + change. + </p> + <p> + Now that the change had begun, the Three Companions were able to initiate + them more and more deeply into the mysteries of Ichcha. The Cards + gradually became aware that life was not bound by regulations. They began + to feel a secret satisfaction in the kingly power of choosing for + themselves. + </p> + <p> + But with this first impact of Ichcha the whole pack of cards began to + totter slowly, and then tumble down to the ground. The scene was like that + of some huge python awaking from a long sleep, as it slowly unfolds its + numberless coils with a quiver that runs through its whole frame. + </p> + <p> + V + </p> + <p> + Hitherto the Queens of Spades and Clubs and Diamonds and Hearts had + remained behind curtains with eyes that gazed vacantly into space, or else + remained fixed upon the ground. + </p> + <p> + And now, all of a sudden, on an afternoon in spring the Queen of Hearts + from the balcony raised her dark eyebrows for a moment, and cast a single + glance upon the Prince from the corner of her eye. + </p> + <p> + "Great God," cried the Prince, "I thought they were all painted images. + But I am wrong. They are women after all." + </p> + <p> + Then the young Prince called to his side his two Companions, and said in a + meditative voice; "My comrades! There is a charm about these ladies that I + never noticed before. When I saw that glance of the Queen's dark, luminous + eyes, brightening with new emotion, it seemed to me like the first faint + streak of dawn in a newly created world." + </p> + <p> + The two Companions smiled a knowing smile, and said: "Is that really so, + Prince?" + </p> + <p> + And the poor Queen of Hearts from that day went from bad to worse. She + began to forget all rules in a truly scandalous manner. If, for instance, + her place in the row was beside the Knave, she suddenly found herself + quite accidentally standing beside the Prince instead. At this, the Knave, + with motionless face and solemn voice, would say: "Queen, you have made a + mistake." + </p> + <p> + And the poor Queen of Hearts' red cheeks would get redder than ever. But + the Prince would come gallantly to her rescue and say: "No! There is no + mistake. From to-day I am going to be Knave!" + </p> + <p> + Now it came to pass that, while every one was trying to correct the + improprieties of the guilty Queen of Hearts, they began to make mistakes + themselves. The Aces found themselves elbowed out by the Kings. The Kings + got muddled up with the Knaves. The Nines and Tens assumed airs as though + they belonged to the Great Court Cards. The Twos and Threes were found + secretly taking the places specially resented for the Fours and Fives. + Confusion had never been so confounded before. + </p> + <p> + Many spring seasons had come and gone in that Island of Cards. The Kokil, + the bird of Spring, had sung its song year after year. But it had never + stirred the blood as it stirred it now. In days gone by the sea had sung + its tireless melody. But, then, it had proclaimed only the inflexible + monotony of the Rule. And suddenly its waves were telling, through all + their flashing light and luminous shade and myriad voices, the deepest + yearnings of the heart of love! + </p> + <p> + VI + </p> + <p> + Where are vanished now their prim, round, regular, complacent features? + Here is a face full of love-sick longing. Here is a heart heating wild + with regrets. Here is a mind racked sore with doubts. Music and sighing, + and smiles and tears, are filling the air. Life is throbbing; hearts are + breaking; passions are kindling. + </p> + <p> + Every one is now thinking of his own appearance, and comparing himself + with others. The Ace of Clubs is musing to himself, that the King of + Spades may be just passably good-looking. "But," says he, "when I walk + down the street you have only to see how people's eyes turn towards me." + The King of Spades is saying; "Why on earth is that Ace of Clubs always + straining his neck and strutting about like a peacock? He imagines all the + Queens are dying of love for him, while the real fact is—" Here he + pauses, and examines his face in the glass. + </p> + <p> + But the Queens were the worst of all. They began to spend all their time + in dressing themselves up to the Nines. And the Nines would become their + hopeless and abject slaves. But their cutting remarks about one another + were more shocking still. + </p> + <p> + So the young men would sit listless on the leaves under the trees, lolling + with outstretched limbs in the forest shade. And the young maidens, + dressed in pale-blue robes, would come walking accidentally to the same + shade of the same forest by the same trees, and turn their eyes as though + they saw no one there, and look as though they came out to see nothing at + all. And then one young man more forward than the rest in a fit of madness + would dare to go near to a maiden in blue. But, as he drew near, speech + would forsake him. He would stand there tongue-tied and foolish, and the + favourable moment would pass. + </p> + <p> + The Kokil birds were singing in the boughs overhead. The mischievous South + wind was blowing; it disarrayed the hair, it whispered in the ear, and + stirred the music in the blood. The leaves of the trees were murmuring + with rustling delight. And the ceaseless sound of the ocean made all the + mute longings of the heart of man and maid surge backwards and forwards on + the full springtide of love. + </p> + <p> + The Three Companions had brought into the dried-up channels of the Kingdom + of Cards the full flood-tide of a new life. + </p> + <p> + VII + </p> + <p> + And, though the tide was full, there-was a pause as though the rising + waters would not break into foam but remain suspended for ever. There were + no outspoken words, only a cautious going forward one step and receding + two. All seemed busy heaping up their unfulfilled desires like castles in + the air, or fortresses of sand. They were pale and speechless, their eyes + were burning, their lips trembling with unspoken secrets. + </p> + <p> + The Prince saw what was wrong. He summoned every one on the Island and + said: "Bring hither the flutes and the cymbals, the pipes and drums. Let + all be played together, and raise loud shouts of rejoicing. For the Queen + of Hearts this very night is going to choose her Mate!" + </p> + <p> + So the Tens and Nines began to blow on their flutes and pipes; the Eights + and Sevens played on their sackbuts and viols; and even the Twos and + Threes began to beat madly on their drums. + </p> + <p> + When this tumultous gust of music came, it swept away at one blast all + those sighings and mopings. And then what a torrent of laughter and words + poured forth! There were daring proposals and locking refusals, and gossip + and chatter, and jests and merriment. It was like the swaying and shaking, + and rustling and soughing, in a summer gale, of a million leaves and + branches in the depth of the primeval forest. + </p> + <p> + But the Queen of Hearts, in a rose-red robe, sat silent in the shadow of + her secret bower, and listened to the great uproarious sound of music and + mirth, that came floating towards her. She shut her eyes, and dreamt her + dream of lore. And when she opened them she found the Prince seated on the + ground before her gazing up at her face. And she covered her eyes with + both hands, and shrank back quivering with an inward tumult of joy. + </p> + <p> + And the Prince passed the whole day alone, walking by the side of the + surging sea. He carried in his mind that startled look, that shrinking + gesture of the Queen, and his heart beat high with hope. + </p> + <p> + That night the serried, gaily-dressed ranks of young men and maidens + waited with smiling faces at the Palace Gates. The Palace Hall was lighted + with fairy lamps and festooned with the flowers of spring. Slowly the + Queen of Hearts entered, and the whole assembly rose to greet her. With a + jasmine garland in her hand, she stood before the Prince with downcast + eyes. In her lowly bashfulness she could hardly raise the garland to the + neck of the Mate she had chosen. But the Prince bowed his head, and the + garland slipped to its place. The assembly of youths and maidens had + waited her choice with eager, expectant hush. And when the choice was + made, the whole vast concourse rocked and swayed with a tumult of wild + delight. And the sound of their shouts was heard in every part of the + island, and by ships far out at sea. Never had such a shout been raised in + the Kingdom of Cards before. + </p> + <p> + And they carried the Prince and his Bride, and seated them on the throne, + and crowned them then and there in the Ancient Island of Cards. + </p> + <p> + And the sorrowing Mother Queen, on the 'far-off island shore on the other + side of the sea, came sailing to her son's new kingdom in a ship adorned + with gold. + </p> + <p> + And the citizens are no longer regulated according to the Rules, but are + good or bad, or both, according to their Ichcha. + </p> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0008" id="link2H_4_0008"> + <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + THE DEVOTEE + </h2> + <p> + At a time, when my unpopularity with a part of my readers had reached the + nadir of its glory, and my name had become the central orb of the + journals, to be attended through space with a perpetual rotation of + revilement, I felt the necessity to retire to some quiet place and + endeavour to forget my own existence. + </p> + <p> + I have a house in the country some miles away from Calcutta, where I can + remain unknown and unmolested. The villagers there have not, as yet, come + to any conclusion about me. They know I am no mere holiday-maker or + pleasure-seeker; for I never outrage the silence of the village nights + with the riotous noises of the city. Nor do they regard me as ascetic, + because the little acquaintance they have of me carries the savour of + comfort about it. I am not, to them, a traveller; for, though I am a + vagabond by nature, my wandering through the village fields is aimless. + They are hardly even quite certain whether I am married or single; for + they have never seen me with my children. So, not being able to classify + me in any animal or vegetable kingdom that they know, they have long since + given me up and left me stolidly alone. + </p> + <p> + But quite lately I have come to know that there is one person in the + village who is deeply interested in me. Our acquaintance began on a sultry + afternoon in July. There had been rain all the morning, and the air was + still wet and heavy with mist, like eyelids when weeping is over. + </p> + <p> + I sat lazily watching a dappled cow grazing on the high bank of the river. + The afternoon sun was playing on her glossy hide. The simple beauty of + this dress of light made me wonder idly at man's deliberate waste of money + in setting up tailors' shops to deprive his own skin of its natural + clothing. + </p> + <p> + While I was thus watching and lazily musing, a woman of middle age came + and prostrated herself before me, touching the ground with her forehead. + She carried in her robe some bunches of flowers, one of which she offered + to me with folded hands. She said to me, as she offered it: "This is an + offering to my God." + </p> + <p> + She went away. I was so taken aback as she uttered these words, that I + could hardly catch a glimpse of her before she was gone. The whole + incident was entirely simple, but it left a deep impression on my mind; + and as I turned back once more to look at the cattle in the field, the + zest of life in the cow, who was munching the lush grass with deep + breaths, while she whisked off the flies, appeared to me fraught with + mystery. My readers may laugh at my foolishness, but my heart was full of + adoration. I offered my worship to the pure joy of living, which is God's + own life. Then, plucking a tender shoot from the mango tree, I fed the cow + with it from my own hand, and as I did this I had the satisfaction of + having pleased my God. + </p> + <p> + The next year when I returned to the village it was February. The cold + season still lingered on. The morning sun came into my room, and I was + grateful for its warmth. I was writing, when the servant came to tell me + that a devotee, of the Vishnu cult, wanted to see me. I told him, in an + absent way, to bring her upstairs, and went on with my writing. The + Devotee came in, and bowed to me, touching my feet. I found that she was + the same woman whom I had met, for a brief moment, a year ago. + </p> + <p> + I was able now to examine her more closely. She was past that age when one + asks the question whether a woman is beautiful or not. Her stature was + above the ordinary height, and she was strongly built; but her body was + slightly bent owing to her constant attitude of veneration. Her manner had + nothing shrinking about it. The most remarkable of her features were her + two eyes. They seemed to have a penetrating power which could make + distance near. + </p> + <p> + With those two large eyes of hers, she seemed to push me as she entered. + </p> + <p> + "What is this?" she asked. "Why have you brought me here before your + throne, my God? I used to see you among the trees; and that was much + better. That was the true place to meet you." + </p> + <p> + She must have seen me walking in the garden without my seeing her. For the + last few clays, however, I had suffered from a cold, and had been + prevented from going out. I had, perforce, to stay indoors and pay my + homage to the evening sky from my terrace. After a silent pause the + Devotee said to me: "O my God, give me some words of good." + </p> + <p> + I was quite unprepared for this abrupt request, and answered her on the + spur of the moment: "Good words I neither give nor receive. I simply open + my eyes and keep silence, and then I can at once both hear and see, even + when no sound is uttered. Now, while I am looking at you, it is as good as + listening to your voice." + </p> + <p> + The Devotee became quite excited as I spoke, and exclaimed: "God speaks to + me, not only with His mouth, but with His whole body." + </p> + <p> + I said to her: "When I am silent I can listen with my whole body. I have + come away from Calcutta here to listen to that sound." + </p> + <p> + The Devotee said: "Yes, I know that, and therefore I have come here to sit + by you." + </p> + <p> + Before taking her leave, she again bowed to me, and touched my feet. I + could see that she was distressed, because my feet were covered. She + wished them to be bare. + </p> + <p> + Early next morning I came out, and sat on my terrace on the roof. Beyond + the line of trees southward I could see the open country chill and + desolate. I could watch the sun rising over the sugar-cane in the East, + beyond the clump of trees at the side of the village. Out of the deep + shadow of those dark trees the village road suddenly appeared. It + stretched forward, winding its way to some distant villages on the + horizon, till it was lost in the grey of the mist. + </p> + <p> + That morning it was difficult to say whether the sun had risen or not. A + white fog was still clinging to the tops of the trees. I saw the Devotee + walking through the blurred dawn, like a mist-wraith of the morning + twilight. She was singing her chant to God, and sounding her cymbals. + </p> + <p> + The thick haze lifted at last; and the sun, like the kindly grandsire of + the village, took his seat amid all the work that was going on in home and + field. + </p> + <p> + When I had just settled down at my writing-table, to appease the hungry + appetite of my editor in Calcutta, there came a sound of footsteps on the + stair, and the Devotee, humming a tune to herself, entered, and bowed + before me. I lifted my head from my papers. + </p> + <p> + She said to me: "My God, yesterday I took as sacred food what was left + over from your meal." + </p> + <p> + I was startled, and asked her how she could do that. + </p> + <p> + "Oh," she said, "I waited at your door in the evening, while you were at + dinner, and took some food from your plate when it was carried out." + </p> + <p> + This was a surprise to me, for every one in the village knew that I had + been to Europe, and had eaten with Europeans. I was a vegetarian, no + doubt, but the sanctity of my cook would not bear investigation, and the + orthodox regarded my food as polluted. + </p> + <p> + The Devotee, noticing my sign of surprise, said: "My God, why should I + come to you at all, if I could not take your food?" + </p> + <p> + I asked her what her own caste people would say. She told me she had + already spread the news far and wide all over the village. The caste + people had shaken their heads, but agreed that she must go her own way. + </p> + <p> + I found out that the Devotee came from a good family in the country, and + that her mother was well to-do, and desired to keep her daughter. But she + preferred to be a mendicant. I asked her how she made her living. She told + me that her followers had given her a piece of land, and that she begged + her food from door to door. She said to me: "The food which I get by + begging is divine." + </p> + <p> + After I had thought over what she said, I understood her meaning. When we + get our food precariously as alms, we remember God the giver. But when we + receive our food regularly at home, as a matter of course, we are apt to + regard it as ours by right. + </p> + <p> + I had a great desire to ask her about her husband. But as she never + mentioned him even indirectly, I did not question her. + </p> + <p> + I found out very soon that the Devotee had no respect at all for that part + of the village where the people of the higher castes lived. + </p> + <p> + "They never give," she said, "a single farthing to God's service; and yet + they have the largest share of God's glebe. But the poor worship and + starve." + </p> + <p> + I asked her why she did not go and live among these godless people, and + help them towards a better life. "That," I said with some unction, "would + be the highest form of divine worship." + </p> + <p> + I had heard sermons of this kind from time to time, and I am rather fond + of copying them myself for the public benefit, when the chance comes. + </p> + <p> + But the Devotee was not at all impressed. She raised her big round eyes, + and looked straight into mine, and said: + </p> + <p> + "You mean to say that because God is with the sinners, therefore when you + do them any service you do it to God? Is that so?" + </p> + <p> + "Yes," I replied, "that is my meaning." + </p> + <p> + "Of course," she answered almost impatiently, "of course, God is with + them: otherwise, how could they go on living at all? But what is that to + me? My God is not there. My God cannot be worshipped among them; because I + do not find Him there. I seek Him where I can find Him." + </p> + <p> + As she spoke, she made obeisance to me. What she meant to say was really + this. A mere doctrine of God's omnipresence does not help us. That God is + all-pervading,—this truth may be a mere intangible abstraction, and + therefore unreal to ourselves. Where I can see Him, there is His reality + in my soul. + </p> + <p> + I need not explain that all the while she showered her devotion on me she + did it to me not as an individual. I was simply a vehicle of her divine + worship. It was not for me either to receive it or to refuse it: for it + was not mine, but God's. + </p> + <p> + When the Devotee came again, she found me once more engaged with my books + and papers. + </p> + <p> + "What have you been doing," she said, with evident vexation, "that my God + should make you undertake such drudgery? Whenever I come, I find you + reading and writing." + </p> + <p> + "God keeps his useless people busy," I answered; "otherwise they would be + bound to get into mischief. They have to do all the least necessary things + in life. It keeps them out of trouble." + </p> + <p> + The Devotee told me that she could not bear the encumbrances, with which, + day by day, I was surrounded. If she wanted to see me, she was not allowed + by the servants to come straight upstairs. If she wanted to touch my feet + in worship, there were my socks always in the way. And when she wanted to + have a simple talk with me, she found my mind lost in a wilderness of + letters. + </p> + <p> + This time, before she left me, she folded her hands, and said: "My God! I + felt your feet in my breast this morning. Oh, how cool! And they were + bare, not covered. I held them upon my head for a long time in worship. + That filled my very being. Then, after that, pray what was the use of my + coming to you yourself? Why did I come? My Lord, tell me truly,—wasn't + it a mere infatuation?" + </p> + <p> + There were some flowers in my vase on the table. While she was there, the + gardener brought some new flowers to put in their place. The Devotee saw + him changing them. + </p> + <p> + "Is that all?" she exclaimed. "Have you done with the flowers? Then give + them to me." + </p> + <p> + She held the flowers tenderly in the cup of her hands, and began to gaze + at them with bent head. After a few moments' silence she raised her head + again, and said to me: "You never look at these flowers; therefore they + become stale to you. If you would only look into them, then your reading + and writing would go to the winds." + </p> + <p> + She tied the flowers together in the end of her robe, and placed them, in + an attitude of worship, on the top of her head, saying reverently: "Let me + carry my God with me." + </p> + <p> + While she did this, I felt that flowers in our rooms do not receive their + due meed of loving care at our hands. When we stick them in vases, they + are more like a row of naughty schoolboys standing on a form to be + punished. + </p> + <p> + The Devotee came again the same evening, and sat by my feet on the terrace + of the roof. + </p> + <p> + "I gave away those flowers," she said, "as I went from house to house this + morning, singing God's name. Beni, the head man of our village, laughed at + me for my devotion, and said: 'Why do you waste all this devotion on Him? + Don't you know He is reviled up and down the countryside?' Is that true, + my God? Is it true that they are hard upon you?" + </p> + <p> + For a moment I shrank into myself. It was a shock to find that the stains + of printers' ink could reach so far. + </p> + <p> + The Devotee went on: "Beni imagined that he could blow out the flame of my + devotion at one breath! But this is no mere tiny flame: it is a burning + fire. Why do they abuse you, my God?" + </p> + <p> + I said: "Because I deserved it. I suppose in my greed I was loitering + about to steal people's hearts in secret." + </p> + <p> + The Devotee said: "Now you see for yourself how little their hearts are + worth. They are full of poison, and this will cure you of your greed." + </p> + <p> + "When a man," I answered, "has greed in his heart, he is always on the + verge of being beaten. The greed itself supplies his enemies with poison." + </p> + <p> + "Our merciful God," she replied, "beats us with His own hand, and drives + away all the poison. He who endures God's beating to the end is saved." + </p> + <p> + II. + </p> + <p> + That evening the Devotee told me the story of her life. The stars of + evening rose and set behind the trees, as she went on to the end of her + tale. + </p> + <p> + "My husband is very simple. Some people think that he is a simpleton; but + I know that those who understand simply, understand truly. In business and + household management he was able to hold his own. Because his needs were + small, and his wants few, he could manage carefully on what we had. He + would never meddle in other matters, nor try to understand them. + </p> + <p> + "Both my husband's parents died before we had been married long, and we + were left alone. But my husband always needed some one to be over him. I + am ashamed to confess that he had a sort of reverence for me, and looked + upon me as his superior. But I am sure that he could understand things + better than I, though I had greater powers of talking. + </p> + <p> + "Of all the people in the world he held his Guru Thakur (spiritual master) + in the highest veneration. Indeed it was not veneration merely but love; + and such love as his is rare. + </p> + <p> + "Guru Thakur was younger than my husband. Oh! how beautiful he was! + </p> + <p> + "My husband had played games with him when he was a boy; and from that + time forward he had dedicated his heart and soul to this friend of his + early days. Thakur knew how simple my husband was, and used to tease him + mercilessly. + </p> + <p> + "He and his comrades would play jokes upon him for their own amusement; + but he would bear them all with longsuffering. + </p> + <p> + "When I married into this family, Guru Thakur was studying at Benares. My + husband used to pay all his expenses. I was eighteen years old when he + returned home to our village. + </p> + <p> + "At the age of fifteen I had my child. I was so young I did not know how + to take care of him. I was fond of gossip, and liked to be with my village + friends for hours together. I used to get quite cross with my boy when I + was compelled to stay at home and nurse him. Alas! my child-God came into + my life, but His playthings were not ready for Him. He came to the + mother's heart, but the mother's heart lagged behind. He left me in anger; + and ever since I have been searching for Him up and down the world. + </p> + <p> + "The boy was the joy of his father's life. My careless neglect used to + pain my husband. But his was a mute soul. He has never been able to give + expression to his pain. + </p> + <p> + "The wonderful thing was this, that in spite of my neglect the child used + to love me more than any one else. He seemed to have the dread that I + would one day go away and leave him. So even when I was with him, he would + watch me with a restless look in his eyes. He had me very little to + himself, and therefore his desire to be with me was always painfully + eager. When I went each day to the river, he used to fret and stretch out + his little arms to be taken with me. But the bathing ghal was my place for + meeting my friends, and I did not care to burden myself with the child. + </p> + <p> + "It was an early morning in August. Fold after fold of grey clouds had + wrapped the mid-day round with a wet clinging robe. I asked the maid to + take care of the boy, while I went down to the river. The child cried + after me as I went away. + </p> + <p> + "There was no one there at the bathing ghat when I arrived. As a swimmer, + I was the best among all the village women. The river was quite full with + the rains. I swam out into the middle of the stream some distance from the + shore. + </p> + <p> + "Then I heard a cry from the bank, 'Mother!' I turned my head and saw my + boy coming down the steps, calling me as he came. I shouted to him to + stop, but he went on, laughing and calling. My feet and hands became + cramped with fear. I shut my eyes, afraid to see. When I opened them, + there, at the slippery stairs, my boy's ripple of laughter had disappeared + for ever. + </p> + <p> + "I got back to the shore. I raised him from the water. I took him in my + arms, my boy, my darling, who had begged so often in vain for me to take + him. I took him now, but he no more looked in my eyes and called 'Mother.' + </p> + <p> + "My child-God had come. I had ever neglected Him. I had ever made Him cry. + And now all that neglect began to beat against my own heart, blow upon + blow, blow upon blow. When my boy was with me, I had left him alone. I had + refused to take him with me. And now, when he is dead, his memory clings + to me and never leaves me. + </p> + <p> + "God alone knows all that my husband suffered. If he had only punished me + for my sin, it would have been better for us both. But he knew only how to + endure in silence, not how to speak. + </p> + <p> + "When I was almost mad with grief, Guru Thakur came back. In earlier days, + the relation between him and my husband had been that of boyish + friendship. Now, my husband's reverence for his sanctity and learning was + unbounded. He could hardly speak in his presence, his awe of him was so + great. + </p> + <p> + "My husband asked his Guru to try to give me some consolation. Guru Thakur + began to read and explain to me the scriptures. But I do not think they + had much effect on my mind. All their value for me lay in the voice that + uttered them. God makes the draught of divine life deepest in the heart + for man to drink, through the human voice. He has no better vessel in His + hand than that; and He Himself drinks His divine draught out of the same + vessel. + </p> + <p> + "My husband's love and veneration for his Guru filled our house, as + incense fills a temple shrine. I showed that veneration, and had peace. I + saw my God in the form of that Guru. He used to come to take his meal at + our house every morning. The first thought that would come to my mind on + waking from sleep was that of his food as a sacred gift from God. When I + prepared the things for his meal, my fingers would sing for joy. + </p> + <p> + "When my husband saw my devotion to his Guru, his respect for me greatly + increased. He noticed his Guru's eager desire to explain the scriptures to + me. He used to think that he could never expect to earn any regard from + his Guru himself, on account of his stupidity; but his wife had made up + for it. + </p> + <p> + "Thus another five years went by happily, and my whole life would have + passed like that; but beneath the surface some stealing was going on + somewhere in secret. I could not detect it; but it was detected by the God + of my heart. Then came a day when, in a moment our whole life was turned + upside down. + </p> + <p> + "It was a morning in midsummer. I was returning home from bathing, my + clothes all wet, down a shady lane. At the bend of the road, under the + mango tree, I met my Guru Thakur. He had his towel on his shoulder and was + repeating some Sanskrit verses as he was going to take his bath. With my + wet clothes clinging all about me I was ashamed to meet him. I tried to + pass by quickly, and avoid being seen. He called me by my name. + </p> + <p> + "I stopped, lowering my eyes, shrinking into myself. He fixed his gaze + upon me, and said: 'How beautiful is your body!' + </p> + <p> + "All the universe of birds seemed to break into song in the branches + overhead. All the bushes in the lane seemed ablaze with flowers. It was as + though the earth and sky and everything had become a riot of intoxicating + joy. + </p> + <p> + "I cannot tell how I got home. I only remember that I rushed into the room + where we worship God. But the room seemed empty. Only before my eyes those + same gold spangles of light were dancing which had quivered in front of me + in that shady lane on my way back from the river. + </p> + <p> + "Guru Thakur came to take his food that day, and asked my husband where I + had gone. He searched for me, but could not find me anywhere. + </p> + <p> + "Ah! I have not the same earth now any longer. The same sunlight is not + mine. I called on my God in my dismay, and He kept His face turned away + from me. + </p> + <p> + "The day passed, I know not how. That night I had to meet my husband. But + the night is dark and silent. It is the time when my husband's mind comes + out shining, like stars at twilight. I had heard him speak things in the + dark, and I had been surprised to find how deeply he understood. + </p> + <p> + "Sometimes I am late in the evening in going to rest on account of + household work. My husband waits for me, seated on the floor, without + going to bed. Our talk at such times had often begun with something about + our Guru. + </p> + <p> + "That night, when it was past midnight, I came to my room, and found my + husband sleeping on the floor. Without disturbing him I lay down on the + ground at his feet, my head towards him. Once he stretched his feet, while + sleeping, and struck me on the breast. That was his last bequest. + </p> + <p> + "Next morning, when my husband woke up from his sleep, I was already + sitting by him. Outside the window, over the thick foliage of the + jack-fruit tree, appeared the first pale red of the dawn at the fringe of + the night. It was so early that the crows had not yet begun to call. + </p> + <p> + "I bowed, and touched my husband's feet with my forehead. He sat up, + starting as if waking from a dream, and looked at my face in amazement. I + said: + </p> + <p> + "'I have made up my mind. I must leave the world. I cannot belong to you + any longer. I must leave your home.' + </p> + <p> + "Perhaps my husband thought that he was still dreaming. He said not a + word. + </p> + <p> + "'Ah! do hear me!' I pleaded with infinite pain. 'Do hear me and + understand! You must marry another wife. I must take my leave.' + </p> + <p> + "My husband said: 'What is all this wild, mad talk? Who advises you to + leave the world?' + </p> + <p> + "I said: 'My Guru Thakur.' + </p> + <p> + "My husband looked bewildered. 'Guru Thakur!' he cried. 'When did he give + you this advice?' + </p> + <p> + "'In the morning,' I answered, 'yesterday, when I met him on my way back + from the river.' + </p> + <p> + "His voice trembled a little. He turned, and looked in my face, and asked + me: 'Why did he give you such a behest?' + </p> + <p> + "'I do not know,' I answered. 'Ask him! He will tell you himself, if he + can.' + </p> + <p> + "My husband said: 'It is possible to leave the world, even when continuing + to live in it. You need not leave my home. I will speak to my Guru about + it.' + </p> + <p> + "'Your Guru,' I said, 'may accept your petition; but my heart will never + give its consent. I must leave your home. From henceforth, the world is no + more to me.' + </p> + <p> + "My husband remained silent, and we sat there on the floor in the dark. + When it was light, he said to me: 'Let us both come to him.' + </p> + <p> + "I folded my hands and said: 'I shall never meet him again.' + </p> + <p> + "He looked into my face. I lowered my eyes. He said no more. I knew that, + somehow, he had seen into my mind, and understood what was there. In this + world of mine, there were only two who loved me best—my boy and my + husband. That love was my God, and therefore it could brook no falsehood. + One of these two left me, and I left the other. Now I must have truth, and + truth alone." + </p> + <p> + She touched the ground at my feet, rose and bowed to me, and departed. + </p> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0009" id="link2H_4_0009"> + <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + VISION + </h2> + <h3> + I + </h3> + <p> + When I was a very young wife, I gave birth to a dead child, and came near + to death myself. I recovered strength very slowly, and my eyesight became + weaker and weaker. + </p> + <p> + My husband at this time was studying medicine. He was not altogether sorry + to have a chance of testing his medical knowledge on me. So he began to + treat my eyes himself. + </p> + <p> + My elder brother was reading for his law examination. One day he came to + see me, and was alarmed at my condition. + </p> + <p> + "What are you doing?" he said to my husband. "You are ruining Kumo's eyes. + You ought to consult a good doctor at once." + </p> + <p> + My husband said irritably: "Why! what can a good doctor do more than I am + doing? The case is quite a simple one, and the remedies are all well + known." + </p> + <p> + Dada answered with scorn: "I suppose you think there is no difference + between you and a Professor in your own Medical College." + </p> + <p> + My husband replied angrily: "If you ever get married, and there is a + dispute about your wife's property, you won't take my advice about Law. + Why, then, do you now come advising me about Medicine?" + </p> + <p> + While they were quarrelling, I was saying to myself that it was always the + poor grass that suffered most when two kings went to war. Here was a + dispute going on between these two, and I had to bear the brunt of it. + </p> + <p> + It also seemed to me very unfair that, when my family had given me in + marriage, they should interfere afterwards. After all, my pleasure and + pain are my husband's concern, not theirs. + </p> + <p> + From that day forward, merely over this trifling matter of my eyes, the + bond between my husband and Dada was strained. + </p> + <p> + To my surprise one afternoon, while my husband was away, Dada brought a + doctor in to see me. He examined my eyes very carefully, and looked grave. + He said that further neglect would be dangerous. He wrote out a + prescription, and Dada for the medicine at once. When the strange doctor + had gone, I implored my Dada not to interfere. I was sure that only evil + would come from the stealthy visits of a doctor. + </p> + <p> + I was surprised at myself for plucking up courage speak to my brother like + that. I had always hitherto been afraid of him. I am sure also that Dada + was surprised at my boldness. He kept silence for a while, and then said + to me: "Very well, Kumo. I won't call in the doctor any more. But when the + medicine comes you must take it." + </p> + <p> + Dada then went away. The medicine came from chemist. I took it—bottles, + powders, prescriptions and all—and threw it down the well! + </p> + <p> + My husband had been irritated by Dada's interference, and he began to + treat my eyes with greater diligence than ever. He tried all sorts of + remedies. I bandaged my eyes as he told me, I wore his coloured glasses, I + put in his drops, I took all his powders. I even drank the cod-liver oil + he gave me, though my gorge rose against it. + </p> + <p> + Each time he came back from the hospital, he would ask me anxiously how I + felt; and I would answer: "Oh! much better." Indeed I became an expert in + self-delusion. When I found that the water in my eyes was still + increasing, I would console myself with the thought that it was a good + thing to get rid of so much bad fluid; and, when the flow of water in my + eyes decreased, I was elated at my husband's skill. + </p> + <p> + But after a while the agony became unbearable. My eyesight faded away, and + I had continual headaches day and night. I saw how much alarmed my husband + was getting. I gathered from his manner that he was casting about for a + pretext to call in a doctor. So I hinted that it might be as well to call + one in. + </p> + <p> + That he was greatly relieved, I could see. He called in an English doctor + that very day. I do not know what talk they had together, but I gathered + that the Sahib had spoken very sharply to my husband. + </p> + <p> + He remained silent for some time after the doctor had gone. I took his + hands in mine, and said: "What an ill-mannered brute that was! Why didn't + you call in an Indian doctor? That would have been much better. Do you + think that man knows better than you do about my eyes?" + </p> + <p> + My husband was very silent for a moment, and then said with a broken + voice: "Kumo, your eyes must be operated on." + </p> + <p> + I pretended to be vexed with him for concealing the fact from me so long. + </p> + <p> + "Here you have known this all the time," said I, "and yet you have said + nothing about it! Do you think I am such a baby as to be afraid of an + operation?" + </p> + <p> + At that he regained his good spirits: "There are very few men," said he, + "who are heroic enough to look forward to an operation without shrinking." + </p> + <p> + I laughed at him: "Yes, that is so. Men are heroic only before their + wives!" + </p> + <p> + He looked at me gravely, and said: "You are perfectly right. We men are + dreadfully vain." + </p> + <p> + I laughed away his seriousness: "Are you sure you can beat us women even + in vanity?" + </p> + <p> + When Dada came, I took him aside: "Dada, that treatment your doctor + recommended would have done me a world of good; only unfortunately. I + mistook the mixture for the lotion. And since the day I made the mistake, + my eyes have grown steadily worse; and now an operation is needed." + </p> + <p> + Dada said to me: "You were under your husband's treatment, and that is why + I gave up coming to visit you." + </p> + <p> + "No," I answered. "In reality, I was secretly treating myself in + accordance with your doctor's directions." + </p> + <p> + Oh! what lies we women have to tell! When we are mothers, we tell lies to + pacify our children; and when we are wives, we tell lies to pacify the + fathers of our children. We are never free from this necessity. + </p> + <p> + My deception had the effect of bringing about a better feeling between my + husband and Dada. Dada blamed himself for asking me to keep a secret from + my husband: and my husband regretted that he had not taken my brother's + advice at the first. + </p> + <p> + At last, with the consent of both, an English doctor came, and operated on + my left eye. That eye, however, was too weak to bear the strain; and the + last flickering glimmer of light went out. Then the other eye gradually + lost itself in darkness. + </p> + <p> + One day my husband came to my bedside. "I cannot brazen it out before you + any longer," said he, "Kumo, it is I who have ruined your eyes." + </p> + <p> + I felt that his voice was choking with tears, and so I took up his right + hand in both of mine and said: "Why! you did exactly what was right. You + have dealt only with that which was your very own. Just imagine, if some + strange doctor had come and taken away my eyesight. What consolation + should I have had then? But now I can feel that all has happened for the + best; and my great comfort is to know that it is at your hands I have lost + my eyes. When Ramchandra found one lotus too few with which to worship + God, he offered both his eyes in place of the lotus. And I hate dedicated + my eyes to my God. From now, whenever you see something that is a joy to + you, then you must describe it to me; and I will feed upon your words as a + sacred gift left over from your vision." + </p> + <p> + I do not mean, of course, that I said all this there and then, for it is + impossible to speak these things an the spur of the moment. But I used to + think over words like these for days and days together. And when I was + very depressed, or if at any time the light of my devotion became dim, and + I pitied my evil fate, then I made my mind utter these sentences, one by + one, as a child repeats a story that is told. And so I could breathe once + more the serener air of peace and love. + </p> + <p> + At the very time of our talk together, I said enough to show my husband + what was in my heart. + </p> + <p> + "Kumo," he said to me, "the mischief I have done by my folly can never be + made good. But I can do one thing. I can ever remain by your side, and try + to make up for your want of vision as much as is in my power." + </p> + <p> + "No," said I. "That will never do. I shall not ask you to turn your house + into an hospital for the blind. There is only one thing to be done, you + must marry again." + </p> + <p> + As I tried to explain to him that this was necessary, my voice broke a + little. I coughed, and tried to hide my emotion, but he burst out saying: + </p> + <p> + "Kumo, I know I am a fool, and a braggart, and all that, but I am not a + villain! If ever I marry again, I swear to you—I swear to you the + most solemn oath by my family god, Gopinath—may that most hated of + all sins, the sin of parricide, fall on my head!" + </p> + <p> + Ah! I should never, never have allowed him to swear that dreadful oath. + But tears were choking my voice, and I could not say a word for + insufferable joy. I hid my blind face in my pillows, and sobbed, and + sobbed again. At last, when the first flood of my tears was over, I drew + his head down to my breast. + </p> + <p> + "Ah!" said I, "why did you take such a terrible oath? Do you think I asked + you to marry again for your own sordid pleasure? No! I was thinking of + myself, for she could perform those services which were mine to give you + when I had my sight." + </p> + <p> + "Services!" said he, "services! Those can be done by servants. Do you + think I am mad enough to bring a slave into my house, and bid her share + the throne with this my Goddess?" + </p> + <p> + As he said the word "Goddess," he held up my face in his hands, and placed + a kiss between my brows. At that moment the third eye of divine wisdom was + opened, where he kissed me, and verily I had a consecration. + </p> + <p> + I said in my own mind: "It is well. I am no longer able to serve him in + the lower world of household cares. But I shall rise to a higher region. I + shall bring down blessings from above. No more lies! No more deceptions + for me! All the littlenesses and hypocrisies of my former life shall be + banished for ever!" + </p> + <p> + That day, the whole day through, I felt a conflict going on within me. The + joy of the thought, that after this solemn oath it was impossible for my + husband to marry again, fixed its roots deep in my heart, and I could not + tear them out. But the new Goddess, who had taken her new throne in me, + said: "The time might come when it would be good for your husband to break + his oath and marry again." But the woman, who was within me, said: "That + may be; but all the same an oath is an oath, and there is no way out." The + Goddess, who was within me, answered: "That is no reason why you should + exult over it." But the woman, who was within me, replied: "What you say + is quite true, no doubt; all the same he has taken his oath." And the same + story went on again and again. At last the Goddess frowned in silence, and + the darkness of a horrible fear came down upon me. + </p> + <p> + My repentant husband would not let the servants do my work; he must do it + all himself. At first it gave me unbounded delight to be dependent on him + thus for every little thing. It was a means of keeping him by my side, and + my desire to have him with me had become intense since my blindness. That + share of his presence, which my eyes had lost, my other senses craved. + When he was absent from my side, I would feel as if I were hanging in + mid-air, and had lost my hold of all things tangible. + </p> + <p> + Formerly, when my husband came back late from the hospital, I used to open + my window and gaze at the road. That road was the link which connected his + world with mine. Now when I had lost that link through my blindness, all + my body would go out to seek him. The bridge that united us had given way, + and there was now this unsurpassable chasm. When he left my side the gulf + seemed to yawn wide open. I could only wait for the time when he should + cross back again from his own shore to mine. + </p> + <p> + But such intense longing and such utter dependence can never be good. A + wife is a burden enough to a man, in all conscience, and to add to it the + burden of this blindness was to make his life unbearable. I vowed that I + would suffer alone, and never wrap my husband round in the folds of my + all-pervading darkness. + </p> + <p> + Within an incredibly short space of time I managed to train myself to do + all my household duties by the help of touch and sound and smell. In fact + I soon found that I could get on with greater skill than before. For sight + often distracts rather than helps us. And so it came to pass that, when + these roving eyes of mine could do their work no longer, all the other + senses took up their several duties with quietude and completeness. + </p> + <p> + When I had gained experience by constant practice, I would not let my + husband do any more household duties for me. He complained bitterly at + first that I was depriving him of his penance. + </p> + <p> + This did not convince me. Whatever he might say, I could feel that he had + a real sense of relief when these household duties were over. To serve + daily a wife who is blind can never make up the life of a man. + </p> + <p> + II + </p> + <p> + My husband at last had finished his medical course. He went away from + Calcutta to a small town to practise as a doctor. There in the country I + felt with joy, through all my blindness, that I was restored to the arms + of my mother. I had left my village birthplace for Calcutta when I was + eight years old. Since then ten years had passed away, and in the great + city the memory of my village home had grown dim. As long as I had + eyesight, Calcutta with its busy life screened from view the memory of my + early days. But when I lost my eyesight I knew for the first time that + Calcutta allured only the eyes: it could not fill the mind. And now, in my + blindness, the scenes of my childhood shone out once more, like stars that + appear one by one in the evening sky at the end of the day. + </p> + <p> + It was the beginning of November when we left Calcutta for Harsingpur. The + place was new to me, but the scents and sounds of the countryside pressed + round and embraced me. The morning breeze coming fresh from the newly + ploughed land, the sweet and tender smell of the flowering mustard, the + shepherd-boy's flute sounding in the distance, even the creaking noise of + the bullock-cart, as it groaned over the broken village road, filled my + world with delight. The memory of my past life, with all its ineffable + fragrance and sound, became a living present to me, and my blind eyes + could not tell me I was wrong. I went back, and lived over again my + childhood. Only one thing was absent: my mother was not with me. + </p> + <p> + I could see my home with the large peepul trees growing along the edge of + the village pool. I could picture in my mind's eye my old grandmother + seated on the ground with her thin wisps of hair untied, warming her back + in the sun as she made the little round lentil balls to be dried and used + for cooking. But somehow I could not recall the songs she used to croon to + herself in her weak and quavering voice. In the evening, whenever I heard + the lowing of cattle, I could almost watch the figure of my mother going + round the sheds with lighted lamp in her hand. The smell of the wet fodder + and the pungent smoke of the straw fire would enter into my very heart. + And in the distance I seemed to hear the clanging of the temple bell + wafted up by the breeze from the river bank. + </p> + <p> + Calcutta, with all its turmoil and gossip, curdles the heart. There, all + the beautiful duties of life lose their freshness and innocence. I + remember one day, when a friend of mine came in, and said to me: "Kumo, + why don't you feel angry? If I had been treated like you by my husband, I + would never look upon his face again." + </p> + <p> + She tried to make me indignant, because he had been so long calling in a + doctor. + </p> + <p> + "My blindness," said I, "was itself a sufficient evil. Why should I make + it worse by allowing hatred to grow up against my husband?" + </p> + <p> + My friend shook her head in great contempt, when she heard such + old-fashioned talk from the lips of a mere chit of a girl. She went away + in disdain. But whatever might be my answer at the time, such words as + these left their poison; and the venom was never wholly got out of the + soul, when once they had been uttered. + </p> + <p> + So you see Calcutta, with its never-ending gossip, does harden the heart. + But when I came back to the country all my earlier hopes and faiths, all + that I held true in life during childhood, became fresh and bright once + more. God came to me, and filled my heart and my world. I bowed to Him, + and said: + </p> + <p> + "It is well that Thou has taken away my eyes. Thou art with me." + </p> + <p> + Ah! But I said more than was right. It was a presumption to say: "Thou art + with me." All we can say is this: "I must be true to Thee." Even when + nothing is left for us, still we have to go on living. + </p> + <p> + III + </p> + <p> + We passed a few happy months together. My husband gained some reputation + in his profession as a doctor. And money came with it. + </p> + <p> + But there is a mischief in money. I cannot point to any one event; but, + because the blind have keener perceptions than other people, I could + discern the change which came over my husband along with the increase of + wealth. + </p> + <p> + He had a keen sense of justice when he was younger, and had often told me + of his great desire to help the poor when once he obtained a practice of + his own. He had a noble contempt far those in his profession who would not + feel the pulse of a poor patient before collecting his fee. But now I + noticed a difference. He had become strangely hard. Once when a poor woman + came, and begged him, out of charity, to save the life of her only child, + he bluntly refused. And when I implored him myself to help her, he did his + work perfunctorily. + </p> + <p> + While we were less rich my husband disliked sharp practice in money + matters. He was scrupulously honourable in such things. But since he had + got a large account at the bank he was often closeted for hours with some + scamp of a landlord's agent, for purposes which clearly boded no good. + </p> + <p> + Where has he drifted? What has become of this husband of mine,—the + husband I knew before I was blind; the husband who kissed me that day + between my brows, and enshrined me on the throne of a Goddess? Those whom + a sudden gust of passion brings down to the dust can rise up again with a + new strong impulse of goodness. But those who, day by day, become dried up + in the very fibre of their moral being; those who by some outer parasitic + growth choke the inner life by slow degrees,—such wench one day a + deadness which knows no healing. + </p> + <p> + The separation caused by blindness is the merest physical trifle. But, ah! + it suffocates me to find that he is no longer with me, where he stood with + me in that hour when we both knew that I was blind. That is a separation + indeed! + </p> + <p> + I, with my love fresh and my faith unbroken, have kept to the shelter of + my heart's inner shrine. But my husband has left the cool shade of those + things that are ageless and unfading. He is fast disappearing into the + barren, waterless waste in his mad thirst for gold. + </p> + <p> + Sometimes the suspicion comes to me that things not so bad as they seem: + that perhaps I exaggerate because I am blind. It may be that, if my + eyesight were unimpaired, I should have accepted world as I found it. + This, at any rate, was the light in which my husband looked at all my + moods and fancies. + </p> + <p> + One day an old Musalman came to the house. He asked my husband to visit + his little grand-daughter. I could hear the old man say: "Baba, I am a + poor man; but come with me, and Allah will do you good." My husband + answered coldly: "What Allah will do won't help matters; I want to know + what you can do for me." + </p> + <p> + When I heard it, I wondered in my mind why God had not made me deaf as + well as blind. The old man heaved a deep sigh, and departed. I sent my + maid to fetch him to my room. I met him at the door of the inner + apartment, and put some money into his hand. + </p> + <p> + "Please take this from me," said I, "for your little grand-daughter, and + get a trustworthy doctor to look after her. And-pray for my husband." + </p> + <p> + But the whole of that day I could take no food at all. In the afternoon, + when my husband got up from sleep, he asked me: "Why do you look so pale?" + </p> + <p> + I was about to say, as I used to do in the past: "Oh! It's nothing "; but + those days of deception were over, and I spoke to him plainly. + </p> + <p> + "I have been hesitating," I said, "for days together to tell you + something. It has been hard to think out what exactly it was I wanted to + say. Even now I may not be able to explain what I had in my mind. But I am + sure you know what has happened. Our lives have drifted apart." + </p> + <p> + My husband laughed in a forced manner, and said: "Change is the law of + nature." + </p> + <p> + I said to him: "I know that. But there are some things that are eternal." + </p> + <p> + Then he became serious. + </p> + <p> + "There are many women," said he, "who have a real cause for sorrow. There + are some whose husbands do not earn money. There are others whose husbands + do not love them. But you are making yourself wretched about nothing at + all." + </p> + <p> + Then it became clear to me that my very blindness had conferred on me the + power of seeing a world which is beyond all change. Yes! It is true. I am + not like other women. And my husband will never understand me. + </p> + <p> + IV + </p> + <p> + Our two lives went on with their dull routine for some time. Then there + was a break in the monotony. An aunt of my husband came to pay us a visit. + </p> + <p> + The first thing she blurted out after our first greeting was this: "Well, + Krum, it's a great pity you have become blind; but why do you impose your + own affliction on your husband? You must get him to another wife." + </p> + <p> + There was an awkward pause. If my husband had only said something in jest, + or laughed in her face, all would have been over. But he stammered and + hesitated, and said at last in a nervous, stupid way: "Do you really think + so? Really, Aunt, you shouldn't talk like that." + </p> + <p> + His aunt appealed to me. "Was I wrong, Kumo?" + </p> + <p> + I laughed a hollow laugh. + </p> + <p> + "Had not you better," said I, "consult some one more competent to decide? + The pickpocket never asks permission from the man whose pocket he is going + to pick." + </p> + <p> + "You are quite right," she replied blandly. "Abinash, my dear, let us have + our little conference in private. What do you say to that?" + </p> + <p> + After a few days my husband asked her, in my presence, if she knew of any + girl of a decent family who could come and help me in my household work. + He knew quite well that I needed no help. I kept silence. + </p> + <p> + "Oh! there are heaps of them," replied his aunt. "My cousin has a daughter + who is just of the marriageable age, and as nice a girl as you could wish. + Her people would be only too glad to secure you as a husband." + </p> + <p> + Again there came from him that forced, hesitating laugh, and he said: "But + I never mentioned marriage." + </p> + <p> + "How could you expect," asked his aunt, "a girl of decent family to come + and live in your house without marriage?" + </p> + <p> + He had to admit that this was reasonable, and remained nervously silent. + </p> + <p> + I stood alone within the closed doors of my blindness after he had gone, + and called upon my God and prayed: "O God, save my husband." + </p> + <p> + When I was coming out of the household shrine from my morning worship a + few days later, his aunt took hold of both my hands warmly. + </p> + <p> + "Kumo, here is the girl," said she, "we were speaking about the other day. + Her name is Hemangini. She will be delighted to meet you. Hemo, come here + and be introduced to your sister." + </p> + <p> + My husband entered the room at the same moment. He feigned surprise when + he saw the strange girl, and was about to retire. But his aunt said: + "Abinash, my dear, what are you running away for? There is no need to do + that. Here is my cousin's daughter, Hemangini, come to see you. Hemo, make + your bow to him." + </p> + <p> + As if taken quite by surprise, he began to ply his aunt with questions + about the when and why and how of the new arrival. + </p> + <p> + I saw the hollowness of the whole thing, and took Hemangini by the hand + and led her to my own room. I gently stroked her face and arms and hair, + and found that she was about fifteen years old, and very beautiful. + </p> + <p> + As I felt her face, she suddenly burst out laughing and said: "Why! what + are you doing? Are you hypnotising me?" + </p> + <p> + That sweet ringing laughter of hers swept away in a moment all the dark + clouds that stood between us. I threw my right arm about her neck. + </p> + <p> + "Dear one," said I, "I am trying to see you." And again I stroked her soft + face with my left hand. + </p> + <p> + "Trying to see me?" she said, with a new burst of laughter. "Am I like a + vegetable marrow, grown in your garden, that you want to feel me all round + to see how soft I am?" + </p> + <p> + I suddenly bethought me that she did not know I had lost my sight. + </p> + <p> + "Sister, I am blind," said I. + </p> + <p> + She was silent. I could feel her big young eyes, full of curiosity, + peering into my face. I knew they were full of pity. Then she grew + thoughtful and puzzled, and said, after a short pause: + </p> + <p> + "Oh! I see now. That was the reason your husband invited his aunt to come + and stay here." + </p> + <p> + "No!" I replied, "you are quite mistaken. He did not ask her to come. She + came of her own accord." + </p> + <p> + Hemangini went off into a peal of laughter. "That's just like my aunt," + said she. "Oh I wasn't it nice of her to come without any invitation? But + now she's come, you won't get her to move for some time, I can assure + you!" + </p> + <p> + Then she paused, and looked puzzled. + </p> + <p> + "But why did father send me?" she asked. "Can you tell me that?" + </p> + <p> + The aunt had come into the room while we were talking. Hemangini said to + her: "When are you thinking of going back, Aunt?" + </p> + <p> + The aunt looked very much upset. + </p> + <p> + "What a question to ask!" said she, "I've never seen such a restless body + as you. We've only just come, and you ask when we're going back!" + </p> + <p> + "It is all very well for you," Hemangini said, "for this house belongs to + your near relations. But what about me? I tell you plainly I can't stop + here." And then she held my hand and said: "What do you think, dear?" + </p> + <p> + I drew her to my heart, but said nothing. The aunt was in a great + difficulty. She felt the situation was getting beyond her control; so she + proposed that she and her niece should go out together to bathe. + </p> + <p> + "No! we two will go together," said Hemangini, clinging to me. The aunt + gave in, fearing opposition if she tried to drag her away. + </p> + <p> + Going down to the river Hemangini asked me: "Why don't you have children?" + </p> + <p> + I was startled by her question, and answered: "How can I tell? My God has + not given me any. That is the reason." + </p> + <p> + "No! That's not the reason," said Hemangini quickly. "You must have + committed some sin. Look at my aunt. She is childless. It must be because + her heart has some wickedness. But what wickedness is in your heart?" + </p> + <p> + The words hurt me. I have no solution to offer for the problem of evil. I + sighed deeply, and said in the silence of my soul: "My God! Thou knowest + the reason." + </p> + <p> + "Gracious goodness," cried Hemangini, "what are you sighing for? No one + ever takes me seriously." + </p> + <p> + And her laughter pealed across the river. + </p> + <p> + V + </p> + <p> + I found out after this that there were constant interruptions in my + husband's professional duties. He refused all calls from a distance, and + would hurry away from his patients, even when they were close at hand. + </p> + <p> + Formerly it was only during the mid-day meals and at night-time that he + could come into the inner apartment. But now, with unnecessary anxiety for + his aunt's comfort, he began to visit her at all hours of the day. I knew + at once that he had come to her room, when I heard her shouting for + Hemangini to bring in a glass of water. At first the girl would do what + she was told; but later on she refused altogether. + </p> + <p> + Then the aunt would call, in an endearing voice: "Hemo! Hemo! Hemangini." + But the girl would cling to me with an impulse of pity. A sense of dread + and sadness would keep her silent. Sometimes she would shrink towards me + like a hunted thing, who scarcely knew what was coming. + </p> + <p> + About this time my brother came down from Calcutta to visit me. I knew how + keen his powers of observation were, and what a hard judge he was. I + feared my husband would be put on his defence, and have to stand his trial + before him. So I endeavoured to hide the true situation behind a mask of + noisy cheerfulness. But I am afraid I overdid the part: it was unnatural + for me. + </p> + <p> + My husband began to fidget openly, and asked how long my brother was going + to stay. At last his impatience became little short of insulting, and my + brother had no help for it but to leave. Before going he placed his hand + on my head, and kept it there for some time. I noticed that his hand + shook, and a tear fell from his eyes, as he silently gave me his blessing. + </p> + <p> + I well remember that it was an evening in April, and a market-day. People + who had come into the town were going back home from market. There was the + feeling of an impending storm in the air; the smell of the wet earth and + the moisture in the wind were all-pervading. I never keep a lighted lamp + in my bedroom, when I am alone, lest my clothes should catch fire, or some + accident happen. I sat on the floor in my dark room, and called upon the + God of my blind world. + </p> + <p> + "O my Lord," I cried, "Thy face is hidden. I cannot see. I am blind. I + hold tight this broken rudder of a heart till my hands bleed. The waves + have become too strong for me. How long wilt thou try me, my God, how + long?" + </p> + <p> + I kept my head prone upon the bedstead and began to sob. As I did so, I + felt the bedstead move a little. The next moment Hemangini was by my side. + She clung to my neck, and wiped my tears away silently. I do not know why + she had been waiting that evening in the inner room, or why she had been + lying alone there in the dusk. She asked me no question. She said no word. + She simply placed her cool hand on my forehead, and kissed me, and + departed. + </p> + <p> + The next morning Hemangini said to her aunt in my presence: "If you want + to stay on, you can. But I don't. I'm going away home with our family + servant." + </p> + <p> + The aunt said there was no need for her to go alone, for she was going + away also. Then smilingly and mincingly she brought out, from a plush + case, a ring set with pearls. + </p> + <p> + "Look, Hemo," said she, "what a beautiful ring my Abinash brought for + you." + </p> + <p> + Hemangini snatched the ring from her hand. + </p> + <p> + "Look, Aunt," she answered quickly, "just see how splendidly I aim." And + she flung the ring into the tank outside the window. + </p> + <p> + The aunt, overwhelmed with alarm, vexation, and surprise, bristled like a + hedgehog. She turned to me, and held me by the hand. + </p> + <p> + "Kumo," she repeated again and again, "don't say a word about this + childish freak to Abinash. He would be fearfully vexed." + </p> + <p> + I assured her that she need not fear. Not a word would reach him about it + from my lips. + </p> + <p> + The next day before starting for home Hemangini embraced me, and said: + "Dearest, keep me in mind; do not forget me." + </p> + <p> + I stroked her face over and over with my fingers, and said: "Sister, the + blind have long memories." + </p> + <p> + I drew her head towards me, and kissed her hair and her forehead. My world + suddenly became grey. All the beauty and laughter and tender youth, which + had nestled so close to me, vanished when Hemangini departed. I went + groping about with arms outstretched, seeking to find out what was left in + my deserted world. + </p> + <p> + My husband came in later. He affected a great relief now that they were + gone, but it was exaggerated and empty. He pretended that his aunt's visit + had kept him away from work. + </p> + <p> + Hitherto there had been only the one barrier of blindness between me and + my husband. Now another barrier was added,—this deliberate silence + about Hemangini. He feigned utter indifference, but I knew he was having + letters about her. + </p> + <p> + It was early in May. My maid entered my room one morning, and asked me: + "What is all this preparation going on at the landing on the river? Where + is Master going?" + </p> + <p> + I knew there was something impending, but I said to the maid: "I can't + say." + </p> + <p> + The maid did not dare to ask me any more questions. She sighed, and went + away. + </p> + <p> + Late that night my husband came to me. + </p> + <p> + "I have to visit a patient in the country," said he. "I shall have to + start very early to-morrow morning, and I may have to be away for two or + three days." + </p> + <p> + I got up from my bed. I stood before him, and cried aloud: "Why are you + telling me lies?" + </p> + <p> + My husband stammered out: "What—what lies have I told you?" + </p> + <p> + I said: "You are going to get married." + </p> + <p> + He remained silent. For some moments there was no sound in the room. Then + I broke the silence: + </p> + <p> + "Answer me," I cried. "Say, yes." + </p> + <p> + He answered, "Yes," like a feeble echo. + </p> + <p> + I shouted out with a loud voice: "No! I shall never allow you. I shall + save you from this great disaster, this dreadful sin. If I fail in this, + then why am I your wife, and why did I ever worship my God?" + </p> + <p> + The room remained still as a stone. I dropped on the floor, and clung to + my husband's knees. + </p> + <p> + "What have I done?" I asked. "Where have I been lacking? Tell me truly. + Why do you want another wife?" + </p> + <p> + My husband said slowly: "I will tell you the truth. I am afraid of you. + Your blindness has enclosed you in its fortress, and I have now no + entrance. To me you are no longer a woman. You are awful as my God. I + cannot live my every day life with you. I want a woman—just an + ordinary woman—whom I can be free to chide and coax and pet and + scold." + </p> + <p> + Oh, tear open my heart and see! What am I else but that,—just an + ordinary woman? I am the same girl that I was when I was newly wed, a girl + with all her need to believe, to confide, to worship. + </p> + <p> + I do not recollect exactly the words that I uttered. I only remember that + I said: "If I be a true wife, then, may God be my witness, you shall never + do this wicked deed, you shall never break your oath. Before you commit + such sacrilege, either I shall become a widow, or Hemangini shall die." + </p> + <p> + Then I fell down on the floor in a swoon. When I came to myself, it was + still dark. The birds were silent. My husband had gone. + </p> + <p> + All that day I sat at my worship in the sanctuary at the household shrine. + In the evening a fierce storm, with thunder and lightning and rain, swept + down upon the house and shook it. As I crouched before the shrine, I did + not ask my God to save my husband from the storm, though he must have been + at that time in peril on the river. I prayed that whatever might happen to + me, my husband might be saved from this great sin. + </p> + <p> + Night passed. The whole of the next day I kept my seat at worship. When it + was evening there was the noise of shaking and beating at the door. When + the door was broken open, they found me lying unconscious on the ground, + and carried me to my room. + </p> + <p> + When I came to myself at last, I heard some one whispering in my ear: + "Sister." + </p> + <p> + I found that I was lying in my room with my head on Hemangini's lap. When + my head moved, I heard her dress rustle. It was the sound of bridal silk. + </p> + <p> + O my God, my God! My prayer has gone unheeded! My husband has fallen! + </p> + <p> + Hemangini bent her head low, and said in a sweet whisper: "Sister, + dearest, I have come to ask your blessing on our marriage." + </p> + <p> + At first my whole body stiffened like the trunk of a tree that has been + struck by lightning. Then I sat up, and said, painfully, forcing myself to + speak the words: "Why should I not bless you? You have done no wrong." + </p> + <p> + Hemangini laughed her merry laugh. + </p> + <p> + "Wrong!" said she. "When you married it was right; and when I marry, you + call it wrong!" + </p> + <p> + I tried to smile in answer to her laughter. I said in my mind: "My prayer + is not the final thing in this world. His will is all. Let the blows + descend upon my head; but may they leave my faith and hope in God + untouched." + </p> + <p> + Hemangini bowed to me, and touched my feet. "May you be happy," said I, + blessing her, "and enjoy unbroken prosperity." + </p> + <p> + Hemangini was still unsatisfied. + </p> + <p> + "Dearest sister," she said, "a blessing for me is not enough. You must + make our happiness complete. You must, with those saintly hands of yours, + accept into your home my husband also. Let me bring him to you." + </p> + <p> + I said: "Yes, bring him to me." + </p> + <p> + A few moments later I heard a familiar footstep, and the question, "Kumo, + how are you?" + </p> + <p> + I started up, and bowed to the ground, and cried: "Dada!" + </p> + <p> + Hemangini burst out laughing. + </p> + <p> + "You still call him elder brother?" she asked. "What nonsense! Call him + younger brother now, and pull his ears and cease him, for he has married + me, your younger sister." + </p> + <p> + Then I understood. My husband had been saved from that great sin. He had + not fallen. + </p> + <p> + I knew my Dada had determined never to marry. And, since my mother had + died, there was no sacred wish of hers to implore him to wedlock. But I, + his sister, by my sore need bad brought it to pass. He had married for my + sake. + </p> + <p> + Tears of joy gushed from my eyes, and poured down my cheeks. I tried, but + I could not stop them. Dada slowly passed his fingers through my hair. + Hemangini clung to me, and went on laughing. + </p> + <p> + I was lying awake in my bed for the best part of the night, waiting with + straining anxiety for my husband's return. I could not imagine how he + would bear the shock of shame and disappointment. + </p> + <p> + When it was long past the hour of midnight, slowly my door opened. I sat + up on my bed, and listened. They were the footsteps of my husband. My + heart began to beat wildly. He came up to my bed, held my band in his. + </p> + <p> + "Your Dada," said he, "has saved me from destruction. I was being dragged + down and down by a moments madness. An infatuation had seized me, from + which I seemed unable to escape. God alone knows what a load I was + carrying on that day when I entered the boat. The storm came down on + river, and covered the sky. In the midst of all fears I had a secret wish + in my heart to be drowned, and so disentangle my life from the knot which + I had tied it. I reached Mathurganj. There I heard the news which set me + free. Your brother had married Hemangini. I cannot tell you with what joy + and shame I heard it. I hastened on board the boat again. In that moment + of self-revelation I knew that I could have no happiness except with you. + You are a Goddess." + </p> + <p> + I laughed and cried at the same time, and said: "No, no, no! I am not + going to be a Goddess any longer I am simply your own little wife. I am an + ordinary woman." + </p> + <p> + "Dearest," he replied, "I have also something I want to say to you. Never + again put me to shame by calling me your God." + </p> + <p> + On the next day the little town became joyous with sound of conch shells. + But nobody made any reference to that night of madness, when all was so + nearly lost. + </p> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0010" id="link2H_4_0010"> + <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + THE BABUS OF NAYANJORE + </h2> + <h3> + I + </h3> + <p> + Once upon a time the Babus of Nayanjore were famous landholders. They were + noted for their princely extravagance. They would tear off the rough + border of their Dacca muslin, because it rubbed against their skin. They + could spend many thousands of rupees over the wedding of a kitten. On a + certain grand occasion it is alleged that in order to turn night into day + they lighted numberless lamps and showered silver threads from the sky to + imitate sunlight. Those were the days before the flood. The flood came. + The line of succession among these old-world Babus, with their lordly + habits, could not continue for long. Like a lamp with too many wicks + burning, the oil flared away quickly, and the light went out. + </p> + <p> + Kailas Babu, our neighbour, is the last relic of this extinct + magnificence. Before he grew up, his family had very nearly reached its + lowest ebb. When his father died, there was one dazzling outburst of + funeral extravagance, and then insolvency. The property was sold to + liquidate the debt. What little ready money was left over was altogether + insufficient to keep up the past ancestral splendours. + </p> + <p> + Kailas Babu left Nayanjore, and came to Calcutta. His son did not remain + long in this world of faded glory. He died, leaving behind him an only + daughter. + </p> + <p> + In Calcutta we are Kailas Baba's neighbours. Curiously enough our own + family history is just the opposite to his. My father got his money by his + own exertions, and prided himself on never spending a penny more than was + needed. His clothes were those of a working man, and his hands also. He + never had any inclination to earn the title of Baba by extravagant + display, and I myself his only son, owe him gratitude for that. He gave me + the very best education, and I was able to make my way in the world. I am + not ashamed of the fact that I am a self-made man. Crisp bank-notes in my + safe are dearer to me than a long pedigree in an empty family chest. + </p> + <p> + I believe this was why I disliked seeing Kailas Baba drawing his heavy + cheques on the public credit from the bankrupt bank of his ancient Babu + reputation I used to fancy that he looked down on me, because my father + had earned money with his own hands. + </p> + <p> + I ought to have noticed that no one showed any vexation towards Kailas + Babu except myself. Indeed it would have been difficult to find an old man + who did less harm than he. He was always ready with his kindly little acts + of courtesy in times of sorrow and joy. He would join in all the + ceremonies and religious observances of his neighbours. His familiar smile + would greet young and old alike. His politeness in asking details about + domestic affairs was untiring. The friends who met him in the street were + perforce ready to be button-holed, while a long string of questions of + this kind followed one another from his lips: + </p> + <p> + "My dear friend, I am delighted to see you. Are quite well? How is Shashi? + and Dada—is he all right? Do you know, I've only just heard that + Madhu's son has got fever. How is he? Have you heard? And Hari Charan Babu—I've + not seen him for a long time—I hope he is not ill. What's the matter + with Rakkhal? And, er—er, how are the ladies of your family?" + </p> + <p> + Kailas Balm was spotlessly neat in his dress on all occasions, though his + supply of clothes was sorely limited. Every day he used to air his shirts + and vests and coats and trousers carefully, and put them out in the sun, + along with his bed-quilt, his pillowcase, and the small carpet on which he + always sat. After airing them he would shake them, and brush them, and put + them on the rock. His little bits of furniture made his small room decent, + and hinted that there was more in reserve if needed. Very often, for want + of a servant, he would shut up his house for a while. Then he would iron + out his shirts and linen with his own hands, and do other little menial + tasks. After this he would open his door and receive his friends again. + </p> + <p> + Though Kailas Balm, as I have said, had lost all his landed property, he + had still same family heirlooms left. There was a silver cruet for + sprinkling scented water, a filigree box for otto-of-roses, a small gold + salver, a costly ancient shawl, and the old-fashioned ceremonial dress and + ancestral turban. These he had rescued with the greatest difficulty from + the money-lenders' clutches. On every suitable occasion he would bring + them out in state, and thus try to save the world-famed dignity of the + Babus of Nayanjore. At heart the most modest of men, in his daily speech + he regarded it as a sacred duty, owed to his rank, to give free play to + his family pride. His friends would encourage this trait in his character + with kindly good-humour, and it gave them great amusement. + </p> + <p> + The neighbourhood soon learnt to call him their Thakur Dada (Grandfather). + They would flock to his house, and sit with him for hours together. To + prevent his incurring any expense, one or other of his friends would bring + him tobacco, and say: "Thakur Dada, this morning some tobacco was sent to + me from Gaya. Do take it, and see how you like it." + </p> + <p> + Thakur Dada would take it, and say it was excellent. He would then go on + to tell of a certain exquisite tobacco which they once smoked in the old + days at Nayanjore at the cost of a guinea an ounce. + </p> + <p> + "I wonder," he used to say, "I wonder if any one would like to try it now. + I have some left, and can get it at once." + </p> + <p> + Every one knew, that, if they asked for it, then somehow or other the key + of the cupboard would be missing; or else Ganesh, his old family servant, + had put it away somewhere. + </p> + <p> + "You never can be sure," he would add, "where things go to when servants + are about. Now, this Ganesh of mine,—I can't tell you what a fool he + is, but I haven't the heart to dismiss him." + </p> + <p> + Ganesh, for the credit of the family, was quite ready to bear all the + blame without a word. + </p> + <p> + One of the company usually said at this point: "Never mind, Thakur Dada. + Please don't trouble to look for it. This tobacco we're smoking will do + quite well. The other would be too strong." + </p> + <p> + Then Thakur Dada would be relieved, and settle down again, and the talk + would go on. + </p> + <p> + When his guests got up to go away, Thakur Dada would accompany them to the + door, and say to them on the door-step: "Oh, by the way, when are you all + coming to dine with me?" + </p> + <p> + One or other of us would answer: "Not just yet, Thakur Dada, not just yet. + We'll fix a day later." + </p> + <p> + "Quite right," he would answer. "Quite right. We had much better wait till + the rains come. It's too hot now. And a grand rich dinner such as I should + want to give you would upset us in weather like this." + </p> + <p> + But when the rains did come, every one careful not to remind him of his + promise. If the subject was brought up, some friend would suggest gently + that it was very inconvenient to get about when the rains were so severe, + that it would be much better to wait till they were over. And so the game + went on. + </p> + <p> + His poor lodging was much too small for his position, and we used to + condole with him about it. His friends would assure him they quite + understood his difficulties: it was next to impossible to get a decent + house in Calcutta. Indeed, they had all been looking out for years for a + house to suit him, but, I need hardly add, no friend had been foolish + enough to find one. Thakur Dada used to say, after a long sigh of + resignation: "Well, well, I suppose I shall have to put up with this house + after all." Then he would add with a genial smile: "But, you know, I could + never bear to be away from my friends. I must be near you. That really + compensates for everything." + </p> + <p> + Somehow I felt all this very deeply indeed. I suppose the real reason was, + that when a man is young stupidity appears to him the worst of crimes. + Kailas Babu was not really stupid. In ordinary business matters every one + was ready to consult him. + </p> + <p> + But with regard to Nayanjore his utterances were certainly void of common + sense. Because, out of amused affection for him, no one contradicted his + impossible statements, he refused to keep them in bounds. When people + recounted in his hearing the glorious history of Nayanjore with absurd + exaggerations he would accept all they said with the utmost gravity, and + never doubted, even in his dreams, that any one could disbelieve it. + </p> + <p> + II + </p> + <p> + When I sit down and try to analyse the thoughts and feelings that I had + towards Kailas Babu I see that there was a still deeper reason for my + dislike. I will now explain. + </p> + <p> + Though I am the son of a rich man, and might have wasted time at college, + my industry was such that I took my M.A. degree in Calcutta University + when quite young. My moral character was flawless. In addition, my outward + appearance was so handsome, that if I were to call myself beautiful, it + might be thought a mark of self-estimation, but could not be considered an + untruth. + </p> +<pre xml:space="preserve"> +There could be no question that among the young men of Bengal I was +regarded by parents generally as a very eligible match. I was myself +quite clear on the point, and had determined to obtain my full value in +the marriage market. When I pictured my choice, I had before my mind's +eye a wealthy father's only daughter, extremely beautiful and highly +educated. Proposals came pouring in to me from far and near; large sums +in cash were offered. I weighed these offers with rigid impartiality, in +the delicate scales of my own estimation. But there was no one fit to be +my partner. I became convinced, with the poet Bhabavuti, that + + In this worlds endless time and boundless space + One may be born at last to match my sovereign grace. +</pre> + <p> + But in this puny modern age, and this contracted space of modern Bengal, + it was doubtful if the peerless creature existed as yet. + </p> + <p> + Meanwhile my praises were sung in many tunes, and in different metres, by + designing parents. + </p> + <p> + Whether I was pleased with their daughters or not, this worship which they + offered was never unpleasing. I used to regard it as my proper due, + because I was so good. We are told that when the gods withhold their boons + from mortals they still expect their worshippers to pay them fervent + honour, and are angry if it is withheld. I had that divine expectance + strongly developed in myself. + </p> + <p> + I have already mentioned that Thakur Dada had an only grand-daughter. I + had seen her many times, but had never mistaken her for beautiful. No + thought had ever entered my mind that she would be a possible partner for + myself. All the same, it seemed quite certain to me that some day ox other + Kailas Babu would offer her, with all due worship, as an oblation at my + shrine. Indeed-this was the secret of my dislike-I was thoroughly annoyed + that he had not done it already. + </p> + <p> + I heard he had told his friends that the Babus of Nayanjore never craved a + boon. Even if the girl remained unmarried, he would not break the family + tradition. It was this arrogance of his that made me angry. My indignation + smouldered for some time. But I remained perfectly silent, and bore it + with the utmost patience, because I was so good. + </p> + <p> + As lightning accompanies thunder, so in my character a flash of humour was + mingled with the mutterings of my wrath. It was, of course, impossible for + me to punish the old man merely to give vent to my rage; and for a long + time I did nothing at all. But suddenly one day such an amusing plan came + into my head, that I could not resist the temptation of carrying it into + effect. + </p> + <p> + I have already said that many of Kailas Babu's friends used to flatter the + old man's vanity to the full. One, who was a retired Government servant, + had told him that whenever he saw the Chota Lord Sahib he always asked for + the latest news about the Babus of Nayanjore, and the Chota Lard had been + heard to say that in all Bengal the only really respectable families were + those of the Maharaja of Burdwan and the Babus of Nayanjore. When this + monstrous falsehood was told to Kailas Balm he was extremely gratified, + and often repeated the story. And wherever after that he met this + Government servant in company he would ask, along with other questions: + </p> + <p> + "Oh! er—by the way, how is the Chota Lord Sahib? Quite well, did you + say? Ah, yes, I am so delighted to hear it I And the dear Mem Sahib, is + she quite well too? Ah, yes! and the little children-are they quite well + also? Ah, yes I that's very goad news! Be sure and give them my + compliments when you see them." + </p> + <p> + Kailas Balm would constantly express his intention of going some day and + paying a visit to the Sahib. + </p> + <p> + But it may be taken for granted that many Chota Lords and Burro Lords also + would come and go, and much water would pass down the Hoogly, before the + family coach of Nayanjore would be furnished up to pay a visit to + Government House. + </p> + <p> + One day I took Kailas Babu aside, and told him in a whisper: "Thakur Dada, + I was at the Levee yesterday, and the Chota Lord happened to mention the + Babes of Nayanjore. I told him that Kailas Balm had come to town. Do you + know, he was terribly hurt because you hadn't called. He told me he was + going to put etiquette on one side, and pay you a private visit himself + this very afternoon." + </p> + <p> + Anybody else could have seen through this plot of mine in a moment. And, + if it had been directed against another person, Kailas Balm would have + understood the joke. But after all he had heard from his friend the + Government servant, and after all his own exaggerations, a visit from the + Lieutenant-Governor seemed the most natural thing in the world. He became + highly nervous and excited at my news. Each detail of the coming visit + exercised him greatly—most of all his own ignorance of English. How + on earth was that difficulty to be met? I told him there was no difficulty + at all: it was aristocratic not to know English: and, besides, the + Lieutenant-Governor always brought an interpreter with him, and he had + expressly mentioned that this visit was to be private. + </p> + <p> + About mid-day, when most of our neighbours are at work, and the rest are + asleep, a carriage and pair stopped before the lodging of Kailas Babu. Two + flunkeys in livery came up the stairs, and announced in a loud voice, "The + Chota Lord Sahib hoe arrived." Kailas Babu was ready, waiting for him, in + his old-fashioned ceremonial robes and ancestral turban, and Ganesh was by + his side, dressed in his master's best suit of clothes for the occasion. + When the Chota Lord Sahib was announced, Kailas Balm ran panting and + puffing and trembling to the door, and led in a friend of mine, in + disguise, with repeated salaams, bowing low at each step, and walking + backward as best he could. He had his old family shawl spread over a hard + wooden chair, and he asked the Lord Sahib to be seated. He then made a + high flown speech in Urdu, the ancient Court language of the Sahibs, and + presented on the golden salver a string of gold mohurs, the last relics of + his broken fortune. The old family servant Ganesh, with an expression of + awe bordering on terror, stood behind with the scent-sprinkler, drenching + the Lord Sahib, touching him gingerly from time to time with the + otto-of-roses from the filigree box. + </p> + <p> + Kailas Babu repeatedly expressed his regret at not being able to receive + His Honour Bahadur with all the ancestral magnificence of his own family + estate at Nayanjore. There he could have welcomed him properly with due + ceremonial. But in Calcutta he was a mere stranger and sojourner-in fact a + fish out of water. + </p> + <p> + My friend, with his tall silk hat on, very gravely nodded. I need hardly + say that according to English custom the hat ought to have been removed + inside the room. But my friend did not dare to take it off for fear of + detection; and Kailas Balm and his old servant Ganesh were sublimely + unconscious of the breach of etiquette. + </p> + <p> + After a ten minutes' interview, which consisted chiefly of nodding the + head, my friend rose to his feet to depart. The two flunkeys in livery, as + had been planned beforehand, carried off in state the string of gold + mohurs, the gold salver, the old ancestral shawl, the silver + scent-sprinkler, and the otto-of-roses filigree box; they placed them + ceremoniously in the carriage. Kailas Babu regarded this as the usual + habit of Chota Lard Sahibs. + </p> + <p> + I was watching all the while from the next room. My sides were aching with + suppressed laughter. When I could hold myself in no longer, I rushed into + a further room, suddenly to discover, in a corner, a young girl sobbing as + if her heart would break. When she saw my uproarious laughter she stood + upright in passion, flashing the lightning of her big dark eyes in mine, + and said with a tear-choked voice: + </p> + <p> + "Tell me! What harm has my grandfather done to you? Why have you come to + deceive him? Why have you come here? Why—" + </p> + <p> + She could say no more. She covered her face with her hands, and broke into + sobs. + </p> + <p> + My laughter vanished in a moment. It had never occurred to me that there + was anything but a supremely funny joke in this act of mine, and here I + discovered that I had given the cruelest pain to this tenderest little + heart. All the ugliness of my cruelty rose up to condemn me. I slunk out + of the room in silence, like a kicked dog. + </p> + <p> + Hitherto I had only looked upon Kusum, the grand-daughter of Kailas Babu, + as a somewhat worthless commodity in the marriage market, waiting in vain + to attract a husband. But now I found, with a shock of surprise, that in + the corner of that room a human heart was beating. + </p> + <p> + The whole night through I had very little sleep. My mind was in a tumult. + On the next day, very early in the morning, I took all those stolen goods + back to Kailas Babe's lodgings, wishing to hand them over in secret to the + servant Ganesh. I waited outside the door, and, not finding any one, went + upstairs to Kailas Babu's room. I heard from the passage Kusum asking her + grandfather in the most winning voice: "Dada, dearest, do tell me all that + the Chota Lord Sahib said to you yesterday. Don't leave out a single word. + I am dying to hear it all over again." + </p> + <p> + And Dada needed no encouragement. His face beamed over with pride as he + related all manner of praises, which the Lard Sahib had been good enough + to utter concerning the ancient families of Nayanjore. The girl was seated + before him, looking up into his face, and listening with rapt attention. + She was determined, out of love for the old man, to play her part to the + full. + </p> + <p> + My heart was deeply touched, and tears came to my eyes. I stood there in + silence in the passage, while Thakur Dada finished all his embellishments + of the Chota Lord Sahib's wonderful visit. When he left the room at last, + I took the stolen goods and laid them at the feet of the girl and came + away without a word. + </p> + <p> + Later in the day I called again to see Kailas Balm himself. According to + our ugly modern custom, I had been in the habit of making no greeting at + all to this old man when I came into the room. But on this day I made a + low bow, and touched his feet. I am convinced the old man thought that the + coming of the Chota Lord Sahib to his house was the cause of my new + politeness. He was highly gratified by it, and an air of benign severity + shone from his eyes. His friends had flocked in, and he had already begun + to tell again at full length the story of the Lieutenant-Governor's visit + with still further adornments of a most fantastic kind. The interview was + already becoming an epic, both in quality and in length. + </p> + <p> + When the other visitors had taken their leave, I made my proposal to the + old man in a humble manner. I told him that, "though I could never for a + moment hope to be worthy of marriage connection with such an illustrious + family, yet... etc. etc." + </p> + <p> + When I made clear my proposal of marriage, the old man embraced me, and + broke out in a tumult of joy: "I am a poor man, and could never have + expected such great good fortune." + </p> + <p> + That was the first and last time in his life that Kailas Babu confessed to + being poor. It was also the first and last time in his life that he + forgot, if only for a single moment, the ancestral dignity that belongs to + the Babus of Nayanjore. + </p> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0011" id="link2H_4_0011"> + <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + LIVING OR DEAD? + </h2> + <h3> + I + </h3> + <p> + The widow in the house of Saradasankar, the Ranihat zemindar, had no + kinsmen of her father's family. One after another all had died. Nor had + she in her husband's family any one she could call her own, neither + husband nor son. The child of her brother-in-law Saradasankar was her + darling. Far a long time after his birth, his mother had been very ill, + and the widow, his aunt Kadambini, had fostered him. If a woman fosters + another's child, her love for him is all the stronger because she has no + claim upon him-no claim of kinship, that is, but simply the claim of love. + Love cannot prove its claim by any document which society accepts, and + does not wish to prove it; it merely worships with double passion its + life's uncertain treasure. Thus all the widow's thwarted love went out to + wards this little child. One night in Sraban Kadambini died suddenly. For + some reason her heart stopped beating. Everywhere else the world held on + its course; only in this gentle little breast, suffering with love, the + watch of time stood still for ever. + </p> + <p> + Lest they should be harassed by the poike, four of the zemindar's Brahmin + servants took away the body, without ceremony, to be burned. The + burning-ground of Ranihat was very far from the village. There was a hut + beside a tank, a huge banian near it, and nothing more. Formerly a river, + now completely dried up, ran through the ground, and part of the + watercourse had been dug out to make a tank for the performance of funeral + rites. The people considered the tank as part of the river and reverenced + it as such. + </p> + <p> + Taking the body into the hut, the four men sat down to wait for the wood. + The time seemed so long that two of the four grew restless, and went to + see why it did not come. Nitai and Gurucharan being gone, Bidhu and + Banamali remained to watch over the body. + </p> + <p> + It was a dark night of Sraban. Heavy clouds hung In a starless sky. The + two men sat silent in the dark room. Their matches and lamp were useless. + The matches were damp, and would not light, for all their efforts, and the + lantern went out. + </p> + <p> + After a long silence, one said: "Brother, it would be good if we had a + bowl of tobacco. In our hurry we brought none." + </p> + <p> + The other answered: "I can run and bring all we want." + </p> + <p> + Understanding why Banarnali wanted to go (From fear of ghosts, the + burning-ground being considered haunted.), Bidhu said: "I daresay! + Meanwhile, I suppose I am to sit here alone!" + </p> + <p> + Conversation ceased again. Five minutes seemed like an hour. In their + minds they cursed the two, who had gone to fetch the wood, and they began + to suspect that they sat gossiping in some pleasant nook. There was no + sound anywhere, except the incessant noise of frogs and crickets from the + tank. Then suddenly they fancied that the bed shook slightly, as if the + dead body had turned on its side. Bidhu and Banamali trembled, and began + muttering: "Ram, Ram." A deep sigh was heard in the room. In a moment the + watchers leapt out of the hut, and raced for the village. + </p> + <p> + After running about three miles, they met their colleagues coming back + with a lantern. As a matter of fact, they had gone to smoke, and knew + nothing about the wood. But they declared that a tree had been cut down, + and that, when it was split up, it would be brought along at once. Then + Bidhu and Banamali told them what had happened in the hut. Nitai and + Gurucharan scoffed at the story, and abused Bidhu and Banamali angrily for + leaving their duty. + </p> + <p> + Without delay all four returned to the hut. As they entered, they saw at + once that the body was gone; nothing but an empty bed remained. They + stared at one another. Could a jackal have taken it? But there was no + scrap of clothing anywhere. Going outside, they saw that on the mud that + had collected at the door of the but there were a woman's tiny footprints, + newly made. Saradasankar was no fool, and they could hardly persuade him + to believe in this ghost story. So after much discussion the four decided + that it would be best to say that the body had been burnt. + </p> + <p> + Towards dawn, when the men with the wood arrived they were told that, + owing to their delay, the work had been done without them; there had been + some wood in the but after all. No one was likely to question this, since + a dead body is not such a valuable property that any one would steal it. + </p> + <p> + II + </p> + <p> + Every one knows that, even when there is no sign, life is often secretly + present, and may begin again in an apparently dead body. Kadambini was not + dead; only the machine of her life had for some reason suddenly stopped. + </p> + <p> + When consciousness returned, she saw dense darkness on all sides. It + occurred to her that she was not lying in her usual place. She called out + "Sister," but no answer came from the darkness. As she sat up, + terror-stricken, she remembered her death-bed, the sudden pain at her + breast, the beginning of a choking sensation. Her elder sister-in-law was + warming some milk for the child, when Kadambini became faint, and fell on + the bed, saying with a choking voice: "Sister, bring the child here. I am + worried." After that everything was black, as when an inkpot is upset over + an exercise-book. Kadambini's memory and consciousness, all the letters of + the world's book, in a moment became formless. The widow could not + remember whether the child, in the sweet voice of love, called her + "Auntie," as if for the last time, or not; she could not remember whether, + as she left the world she knew for death's endless unknown journey, she + had received a parting gift of affection, love's passage-money for the + silent land. At first, I fancy, she thought the lonely dark place was the + House of Yama, where there is nothing to see, nothing to hear, nothing to + do, only an eternal watch. But when a cold damp wind drove through the + open door, and she heard the croaking of frogs, she remembered vividly and + in a moment all the rains of her short life, and could feel her kinship + with the earth. Then came a flash of lightning, and she saw the tank, the + banian, the great plain, the far-off trees. She remembered how at full + moon she had sometimes come to bathe in this tank, and how dreadful death + had seemed when she saw a corpse on the burning-ground. + </p> + <p> + Her first thought was to return home. But then she reflected: "I am dead. + How can I return home? That would bring disaster on them. I have left the + kingdom of the living; I am my own ghost!" If this were not so, she + reasoned, how could she have got out of Saradasankar's well-guarded + zenana, and come to this distant burningground at midnight? Also, if her + funeral rites had not been finished, where had the men gone who should + burn her? Recalling her death-moment in Saradasankar's brightly-lit house, + she now found herself alone in a distant, deserted, dark burning. ground. + Surely she was no member of earthly society! Surely she was a creature of + horror, of ill-omen, her own ghost! + </p> + <p> + At this thought, all the bonds were snapped which bound her to the world. + She felt that she had marvellous strength, endless freedom. She could do + what she liked, go where she pleased. Mad with the inspiration of this new + idea, she rushed from the but like a gust of wind, and stood upon the + burning ground. All trace of shame or fear had left her. + </p> + <p> + But as she walked on and on, her feet grew tired, her body weak. The plain + stretched on endlessly; here and there were paddy-fields; sometimes she + found herself standing knee-deep in water. + </p> + <p> + At the first glimmer of dawn she heard one or two birds cry from the + bamboo-clumps by the distant houses. Then terror seized her. She could not + tell in what new relation she stood to the earth and to living folk. So + long as she had been on the plain, on the burning-ground, covered by the + dark night of Sraban, so long she had been fearless, a denizen of her own + kingdom. By daylight the homes of men filled her with fear. Men and ghosts + dread each other, for their tribes inhabit different banks of the river of + death. + </p> + <p> + III + </p> + <p> + Her clothes were clotted in the mud; strange thoughts and walking by night + had given her the aspect of a madwoman; truly, her apparition was such + that folk might have been afraid of her, and children might have stoned + her or run away. Luckily, the first to catch sight of her was a traveller. + He came up, and said: "Mother, you look a respectable woman. Wherever are + you going, alone and in this guise?" + </p> + <p> + Kadambini, unable to collect her thoughts, stared at him in silence. She + could not think that she was still in touch with the world, that she + looked like a respectable woman, that a traveller was asking her + questions. + </p> + <p> + Again the min said: "Come, mother, I will see you home. Tell me where you + live." + </p> + <p> + Kadambini thought. To return to her father-in-law's house would be absurd, + and she had no father's house. Then she remembered the friend of her + childhood. She had not seen Jogmaya since the days of her youth, but from + time to time they had exchanged letters. Occasionally there had been + quarrels between them, as was only right, since Kadambini wished to make + it dear that her love for Jogmaya was unbounded, while her friend + complained that Kadambini did not return a love equal to her own. They + were both sure that, if they once met, they would be inseparable. + </p> + <p> + Kadambini said to the traveller: "I will go to Sripati's house at + Nisindapur." + </p> + <p> + As he was going to Calcutta, Nisindapur, though not near, was on his way. + So he took Kadambini to Sripati s house, and the friends met again. At + first they did not recognise one another, but gradually each recognised + the features of the other's childhood. + </p> + <p> + "What luck!" said Jogmaya. "I never dreamt that I should see you again. + But how hate you come here, sister? Your father-in-law's folk surely + didn't let you go!" + </p> + <p> + Kadambini remained silent, and at last said: "Sister, do not ask about my + father-in-law. Give me a corner, and treat me as a servant: I will do your + work." + </p> + <p> + "What?" cried Jogmaya. "Keep you like a servant! Why, you are my closest + friend, you are my—" and so on and so on. + </p> + <p> + Just then Sripati came in. Kadambini stared at him for some time, and then + went out very slowly. She kept her head uncovered, and showed not the + slightest modesty or respect. Jogmaya, fearing that Sripati would be + prejudiced against her friend, began an elaborate explanation. But + Sripati, who readily agreed to anything Jogmaya said, cut short her story, + and left his wife uneasy in her mind. + </p> + <p> + Kadambini had come, but she was not at one with her friend: death was + between them. She could feel no intimacy for others so long as her + existence perplexed her and consciousness remained. Kadambini would look + at Jogmaya, and brood. She would think: "She has her husband and her work, + she lives in a world far away from mine. She shares affection and duty + with the people of the world; I am an empty shadow. She is among the + living; I am in eternity." + </p> + <p> + Jogmaya also was uneasy, but could not explain why. Women do not love + mystery, because, though uncertainty may be transmuted into poetry, into + heroism, into scholarship, it cannot be turned to account in household + work. So, when a woman cannot understand a thing, she either destroys and + forgets it, or she shapes it anew for her own use; if she fails to deal + with it in one of these ways, she loses her temper with it. The greater + Kadambini's abstraction became, the more impatient was Jogmaya with her, + wondering what trouble weighed upon her mind. + </p> + <p> + Then a new danger arose. Kadambini was afraid of herself; yet she could + not flee from herself. Those who fear ghosts fear those who are behind + them; wherever they cannot see there is fear. But Kadambini's chief terror + lay in herself, for she dreaded nothing external. At the dead of night, + when alone in her room, she screamed; in the evening, when she saw her + shadow in the lamp-light, her whole body shook. Watching her fearfulness, + the rest of the house fell into a sort of terror. The servants and Jogmaya + herself began to see ghosts. + </p> + <p> + One midnight, Kadambini came out from her bedroom weeping, and wailed at + Jogmaya's door: "Sister, sister, let me lie at your feet! Do not put me by + myself!" + </p> + <p> + Jogmaya's anger was no less than her fear. She would have liked to drive + Kadambini from the house that very second. The good-natured Sripati, after + much effort, succeeded in quieting their guest, and put her in the next + room. + </p> + <p> + Next day Sripati was unexpectedly summoned to his wife's apartments. She + began to upbraid him: "You, do you call yourself a man? A woman runs away + from her father-in-law, and enters your house; a month passes, and you + haven't hinted that she should go away, nor have I heard the slightest + protest from you. I should cake it as a favour if you would explain + yourself. You men are all alike." + </p> + <p> + Men, as a race, have a natural partiality for womankind in general, foe + which women themselves hold them accountable. Although Sripati was + prepared to touch Jogmaya's body, and swear that his kind feeling towards + the helpless but beautiful Kadambini was no whit greater than it should + be, he could not prove it by his behaviour. He thought that her + father-in-law's people must have treated this forlorn widow abominably, if + she could bear it no longer, and was driven to take refuge with him. As + she had neither father nor mother, how could he desert her? So saying, he + let the matter drop, far he had no mind to distress Kadambini by asking + her unpleasant questions. + </p> + <p> + His wife, then, tried other means of her sluggish lord, until at last he + saw that for the sake of peace he must send word to Kadambini's + father-in-law. The result of a letter, he thought, might not be + satisfactory; so he resolved to go to Ranihat, and act on what he learnt. + </p> + <p> + So Sripati went, and Jogmaya on her part said to Kadambini "Friend, it + hardly seems proper for you to stop here any longer. What will people + say?" + </p> + <p> + Kadambini stared solemnly at Jogmaya, and said: "What have I to do with + people?" + </p> + <p> + Jogmaya was astounded. Then she said sharply: "If you have nothing to do + with people, we have. How can we explain the detention of a woman + belonging to another house?" + </p> + <p> + Kadambini said: "Where is my father-in-law's house?" + </p> + <p> + "Confound it!" thought Jogmaya. "What will the wretched woman say next?" + </p> + <p> + Very slowly Kadambini said: "What have I to do with you? Am I of the + earth? You laugh, weep, love; each grips and holds his own; I merely look. + You are human, I a shadow. I cannot understand why God has kept me in this + world of yours." + </p> + <p> + So strange were her look and speech that Jogmaya understood something of + her drift, though not all. Unable either to dismiss her, or to ask her any + more questions, she went away, oppressed with thought. + </p> + <p> + IV + </p> + <p> + It was nearly ten o'clock at night when Sripati returned from Ranihat. The + earth was drowned in torrents of rain. It seemed that the downpour would + never stop, that the night would never end. + </p> + <p> + Jogmaya asked: "Well?" + </p> + <p> + "I've lots to say, presently." + </p> + <p> + So saying, Sripati changed his clothes, and sat down to supper; then he + lay dawn for a smoke. His mind was perplexed. + </p> + <p> + His wife stilled her curiosity for a long time; then she came to his couch + and demanded: "What did you hear?" + </p> + <p> + "That you have certainly made a mistake." + </p> + <p> + Jogmaya was nettled. Women never make mistakes, or, if they do, a sensible + man never mentions them; it is better to take them on his own shoulders. + Jogmaya snapped: "May I be permitted to hear how?" + </p> + <p> + Sripati replied: "The woman you have taken into your house is not your + Kadambini." + </p> + <p> + Hearing this, she was greatly annoyed, especially since it was her husband + who said it. "What! I don't know my own friend? I must come to you to + recognise her! You are clever, indeed!" + </p> + <p> + Sripati explained that there was no need to quarrel about his cleverness. + He could prove what he said. There was no doubt that Jogmaya's Kadambini + was dead. + </p> + <p> + Jogmaya replied: "Listen! You've certainly made some huge mistake. You've + been to the wrong house, or are confused as to what you have heard. Who + told you to go yourself? Write a letter, and everything will be cleared + up." + </p> + <p> + Sripati was hurt by his wife's lack of faith in his executive ability; he + produced all sorts of proof, without result. Midnight found them still + asserting and contradicting. Although they were both agreed now that + Kadambini should be got out of the house, although Sripati believed that + their guest had deceived his wife all the time by a pretended + acquaintance, and Jogmaya that she was a prostitute, yet in the present + discussion neither would acknowledge defeat. By degrees their voices + became so loud that they forgot that Kadambini was sleeping in the next + room. + </p> + <p> + The one said: "We're in a nice fix! I tell you, I heard it with my own + ears!" And the other answered angrily: "What do I care about that? I can + see with my own eyes, surely." + </p> + <p> + At length Jogmaya said: "Very well. Tell me when Kadambini died." She + thought that if she could find a discrepancy between the day of death and + the date of some letter from Kadambini, she could prove that Sripati + erred. + </p> + <p> + He told her the date of Kadambini's death, and they both saw that it fell + on the very day before she came to their house. Jogmaya's heart trembled, + even Sripati was not unmoved. + </p> + <p> + Just then the door flew open; a damp wind swept in and blew the lamp out. + The darkness rushed after it, and filled the whole house. Kadambini stood + in the room. It was nearly one o'clock, the rain was pelting outside. + </p> + <p> + Kadambini spoke: "Friend, I am your Kadambini, but I am no longer living. + I am dead." + </p> + <p> + Jogmaya screamed with terror; Sripati could speak. + </p> + <p> + "But, save in being dead, I have done you no wrong. If I have no place + among the living, I have none among the dead. Oh! whither shall I go?" + </p> + <p> + Crying as if to wake the sleeping Creator in the dense night of rain, she + asked again: "Oh! whither shall I go?" + </p> + <p> + So saying Kadambini left her friend fainting in the dark house, and went + out into the world, seeking her own place. + </p> + <p> + V + </p> + <p> + It is hard to say how Kadambini reached Ranihat. At first she showed + herself to no one, but spent the whole day in a ruined temple, starving. + When the untimely afternoon of the rains was pitch-black, and people + huddled into their houses for fear of the impending storm, then Kadambini + came forth. Her heart trembled as she reached her father-in-law's house; + and when, drawing a thick veil over her face, she entered, none of the + doorkeepers objected, since they took her for a servant. And the rain was + pouring down, and the wind howled. + </p> + <p> + The mistress, Saradasankar's wife, was playing cards with her widowed + sister. A servant was in the kitchen, the sick child was sleeping in the + bedroom. Kadambini, escaping every one's notice, entered this room. I do + not know why she had come to her father-in-law's house; she herself did + not know; she felt only that she wanted to see her child again. She had no + thought where to go next, or what to do. + </p> + <p> + In the lighted room she saw the child sleeping, his fists clenched, his + body wasted with fever. At sight of him, her heart became parched and + thirsty. If only she could press that tortured body to her breast! + Immediately the thought followed: "I do not exist. Who would see it? His + mother loves company, loves gossip and cards. All the time that she left + me in charge, she was herself free from anxiety, nor was she troubled + about him in the least. Who will look after him now as I did?" + </p> + <p> + The child turned on his side, and cried, half-asleep: "Auntie, give me + water." Her darling had not yet forgotten his auntie! In a fever of + excitement, she poured out some water, and, taking him to her breast, she + gave it him. + </p> + <p> + As long as he was asleep, the child felt no strangeness in taking water + from the accustomed hand. But when Kadambini satisfied her long-starved + longing, and kissed him and began rocking him asleep again, he awoke and + embraced her. "Did you die, Auntie?" he asked. + </p> + <p> + "Yes, darling." + </p> + <p> + "And you have come back? Do not die again." + </p> + <p> + Before she could answer disaster overtook her. One of the maidservants + coming in with a cup of sago dropped it, and fell down. At the crash the + mistress left her cards, and entered the room. She stood like a pillar of + wood, unable to flee or speak. Seeing all this, the child, too, became + terrified, and burst out weeping: "Go away, Auntie," he said, "go away!" + </p> + <p> + Now at last Kadambini understood that she had not died. The old room, the + old things, the same child, the same love, all returned to their living + state, without change or difference between her and them. In her friend's + house she had felt that her childhood's companion was dead. In her child's + room she knew that the boy's "Auntie" was not dead at all. In anguished + tones she said: "Sister, why do you dread me? See, I am as you knew me." + </p> + <p> + Her sister-in-law could endure no longer, and fell into a faint. + Saradasankar himself entered the zenana. With folded hands, he said + piteously: "Is this right? Satis is my only son. Why do you show yourself + to him? Are we not your own kin? Since you went, he has wasted away daily; + his fever has been incessant; day and night he cries: 'Auntie, Auntie.' + You have left the world; break these bonds of maya (Illusory affection + binding a soul to the world). We will perform all funeral honours." + </p> + <p> + Kadambini could bear no more. She said: "Oh, I am not dead, I am not dead. + Oh, how can I persuade you that I am not dead? I am living, living!" She + lifted a brass pot from the ground and dashed it against her forehead. The + blood ran from her brow. "Look!" she cried, "I am living!" Saradasankar + stood like an image; the child screamed with fear, the two fainting women + lay still. + </p> + <p> + Then Kadambini, shouting "I am not dead, I am not dead," went down the + steps to the zenana well, and plunged in. From the upper storey + Saradasankar heard the splash. + </p> + <p> + All night the rain poured; it poured next day at dawn, was pouring still + at noon. By dying, Kadambini had given proof that she was not dead. + </p> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0012" id="link2H_4_0012"> + <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + "WE CROWN THEE KING" + </h2> + <p> + When Nabendu Sekhar was wedded to Arunlekha, the God of marriage smiled + from behind the sacrificial fire. Alas! what is sport for the gods is not + always a joke to us poor mortals. + </p> + <p> + Purnendu Sekhar, the father of Nabendu, was a man well known amongst the + English officials of the Government. In the voyage of life he had arrived + at the desert shores of Rai Bahadurship by diligently plying his oats of + salaams. He held in reserve enough for further advancement, but at the age + of fifty-five, his tender gaze still fixed on the misty peals of + Raja-hood, he suddenly found himself transported to a region where earthly + honours and decorations are naught, and his salaam-wearied neck found + everlasting repose on the funeral pyre. + </p> + <p> + According to modern science, force is not destroyed, but is merely + converted to another form, and applied to another point. So Purnendu's + salaam-force, constant handmaid of the fickle Goddess of Fortune, + descended from the shoulder of the father to that of his worthy son; and + the youthful head of Nabendu Sekhar began to move up and down, at the + doors of high-placed Englishmen, like a pumpkin swayed by the wind. + </p> + <p> + The traditions of the family into which he had married were entirely + different. Its eldest son, Pramathanath, had won for himself the love of + his kinsfolk and the regard of all who knew him. His kinsmen and his + neighbours looked up to him as their ideal in all things. + </p> + <p> + Pramathanath was a Bachelor of Arts, and in addition was gifted with + common sense. But he held no high official position; he had no handsome + salary; nor did he exert any influence with his pen. There was no one in + power to lend him a helping hand, because he desired to keep away from + Englishmen, as much as they desired to keep away from him. So it happened + that he shone only within the sphere of his family and his friends, and + excited no admiration beyond it. + </p> + <p> + Yet this Pramathanath had once sojourned in England for some three years. + The kindly treatment he received during his stay there overpowered him so + much that he forgot the sorrow and the humiliation of his own country, and + came back dressed in European clothes. This rather grieved his brothers + and his sisters at first, but after a few days they began to think that + European clothes suited nobody better, and gradually they came to share + his pride and dignity. + </p> + <p> + On his return from England, Pramathanath resolved that he would show the + world how to associate with Anglo-Indians on terms of equality. Those of + our countrymen who think that no such association is possible, unless we + bend our knees to them, showed their utter lack of self-respect, and were + also unjust to the English-so thought Pramathanath. + </p> + <p> + He brought with him letters of introduction from many distinguished + Englishmen at home, and these gave him some recognition in Anglo-Indian + society. He and his wife occasionally enjoyed English hospitality at tea, + dinner, sports and other entertainments. Such good luck intoxicated him, + and began to produce a tingling sensation in every vein of his body. + </p> + <p> + About this time, at the opening of a new railway line, many of the town, + proud recipients of official favour, were invited by the + Lieutenant-Governor to take the first trip. Pramathanath was among them. + On the return journey, a European Sergeant of the Police expelled some + Indian gentlemen from a railway-carriage with great insolence. + Pramathanath, dressed in his European clothes, was there. He, too, was + getting out, when the Sergeant said: "You needn't move, sir. Keep your + seat, please." + </p> + <p> + At first Pramathanath felt flattered at the special respect thus shown to + him. When, however, the train went on, the dull rays of the setting sun, + at the west of the fields, now ploughed up and stripped of green, seemed + in his eyes to spread a glow of shame over the whole country. Sitting near + the window of his lonely compartment, he seemed to catch a glimpse of the + down-cast eyes of his Motherland, hidden behind the trees. As Pramathanath + sat there, lost in reverie, burning tears flowed down his cheeks, and his + heart burst with indignation. + </p> + <p> + He now remembered the story of a donkey who was drawing the chariot of an + idol along the street. The wayfarers bowed down to the idol, and touched + the dusty ground with their foreheads. The foolish donkey imagined that + all this reverence was being shown to him. "The only difference," said + Pramathanath to himself, "between the donkey and myself is this: I + understand to-day that the respect I receive is not given to me but to the + burden on my back." + </p> + <p> + Arriving home, Pramathanath called together all the children of the + household, and lighting a big bonfire, threw all his European clothes into + it one by one. The children danced round and round it, and the higher the + flames shot up, the greater was their merriment. After that, Pramathanath + gave up his sip of tea and bits of toast in Anglo-Indian houses, and once + again sat inaccessible within the castle of his house, while his insulted + friends went about from the door of one Englishman to that of another, + bending their turbaned heads as before. + </p> + <p> + By an irony of fate, poor Nabendu Sekhar married the second daughter of + this house. His sisters-in-law were well educated and handsome. Nabendu + considered he had made a lucky bargain. But he lost no time in trying to + impress on the family that it was a rare bargain on their side also. As if + by mistake, he would often hand to his sisters-in-law sundry letters that + his late father had received from Europeans. And when the cherry lips of + those young ladies smiled sarcastically, and the point of a shining dagger + peeped out of its sheath of red velvet, the unfortunate man saw his folly, + and regretted it. + </p> + <p> + Labanyalekha, the eldest sister, surpassed the rest in beauty and + cleverness. Finding an auspicious day, she put on the mantel-shelf of + Nabendu's bedroom two pairs of English boots, daubed with vermilion, and + arranged flowers, sandal-paste, incense and a couple of burning candles + before them in true ceremonial fashion. When Nabendu came in, the two + sisters-in-law stood on either side of him, and said with mock solemnity: + "Bow down to your gods, and may you prosper through their blessings." + </p> + <p> + The third sister Kiranlekha spent many days in embroidering with red silk + one hundred common English names such as Jones, Smith, Brown, Thomson, + etc., on a chadar. When it was ready, she presented this namavoli (A + namavoli is a sheet of cloth printed all over with the names of Hindu gods + and goddesses and worn by pious Hindus when engaged in devotional + exercises.) to Nabendu Sekhar with great ceremony. + </p> + <p> + The fourth, Sasankalekha, of tender age and therefore of no account, said: + "I will make you a string of beads, brother, with which to tell the names + of your gods-the sahibs." Her sisters reproved her, saying: "Run away, you + saucy girl." + </p> + <p> + Feelings of shame and irritation assailed by turns the mind of Nabendu + Sekhar. Still he could not forego the company of his sisters-in-law, + especially as the eldest one was beautiful. Her honey was no less than her + gall, and Nabendu's mind tasted at once the sweetness of the one and the + bitterness of the other. The butterfly, with its bruised wings, buzzes + round the flower in blind fury, unable to depart. + </p> + <p> + The society of his sisters-in-Law so much infatuated him that at last + Nabendu began to disavow his craving for European favours. When he went to + salaam the Burra Sahib, he used to pretend that he was going to listen to + a speech by Mr. Surendranath Banerjea. When he went to the railway station + to pay respects to the Chota Sahib, returning from Darjeeling, he would + tell his sisters-in-law that he expected his youngest uncle. + </p> + <p> + It was a sore trial to the unhappy man placed between the cross-fires of + his Sahibs and his sisters-in-law. The sisters-in-law, however, secretly + vowed that they would not rest till the Sahibs had been put to rout. + </p> + <p> + About this time it was rumoured that Nabendu's name would be included in + the forthcoming list of Birthday honours, and that he would mount the + first step of the ladder to Paradise by becoming a Rai Bahadur. The poor + fellow had not the courage to break the joyful news to his sisters-in-law. + One evening, however, when the autumn moon was flooding the earth with its + mischievous beams, Nabendu's heart was so full that he could not contain + himself any longer, and he told his wife. The next day, Mrs. Nabendu + betook herself to her eldest sister's house in a palanquin, and in a voice + choked with tears bewailed her lot. + </p> + <p> + "He isn't going to grow a tail," said Labanya, "by becoming a Rai Bahadur, + is he? Why should you feel so very humiliated?" + </p> + <p> + "Oh, no, sister dear," replied Arunlekha, "I am prepared to be anything—but + not a Rai-Baha-durni." The fact was that in her circle of acquaintances + there was one Bhutnath Babu, who was a Rai Bahadur, and that explained her + intense aversion to that title. + </p> + <p> + Labanya said to her sister in soothing tones: "Don't be upset about it, + dear; I will see what I can do to prevent it." + </p> + <p> + Babu Nilratan, the husband of Labanya, was a pleader at Buxar. When the + autumn was over, Nabendu received an invitation from Labanya to pay them a + visit, and he started for Buxar greatly pleased. + </p> + <p> + The early winter of the western province endowed Labanyalekha with new + health and beauty, and brought a glowing colour to her pale cheeks, She + looked like the flower-laden kasa reeds on a clear autumn day, growing by + the lonely bank of a rivulet. To Nabendu's enchanted eyes she appeared + like a malati plant in full blossom, showering dew-drops brilliant with + the morning light. + </p> + <p> + Nabendu had never felt better in his life. The exhilaration of his own + health and the genial company of his pretty sister-in-law made him think + himself light enough to tread on air. The Ganges in front of the garden + seemed to him to be flowing ceaselessly to regions unknown, as though it + gave shape to his own wild fantasies. + </p> + <p> + As he returned in the early morning from his walk on the bank of the + river, the mellow rays of the winter sun gave his whole frame that + pleasing sensation of warmth which lovers feel in each other's arms. + Coming home, he would now and then find his sister-in-Law amusing herself + by cooking some dishes. He would offer his help, and display his want of + skill and ignorance at every step. But Nabendu did not appear to be at all + anxious to improve himself by practice and attention. On the contrary he + thoroughly enjoyed the rebukes he received from his sister-in-law. He was + at great pains to prove every day that he was inefficient and helpless as + a new-born babe in mixing spices, handling the saucepan, and regulating + the heat so as to prevent things getting burnt-and he was duly rewarded + with pitiful smiles and scoldings. + </p> + <p> + In the middle of the day he ate a great deal of the good food set before + him, incited by his keen appetite and the coaxing of his sister-in-law. + Later on, he would sit down to a game of cards—at which he betrayed + the same lack of ability. He would cheat, pry into his adversary's hand, + quarrel—but never did he win a single rubber, and worse still, he + would not acknowledge defeat. This brought him abuse every day, and still + he remained incorrigible. + </p> + <p> + There was, however, one matter in which his reform was complete. For the + time at least, he had forgotten that to win the smiles of Sahibs was the + final goal of life. He was beginning to understand how happy and worthy we + might feel by winning the affection and esteem of those near and dear to + us. + </p> + <p> + Besides, Nabendu was now moving in a new atmosphere. Labanya's husband, + Babu Nilratan, a leader of the bar, was reproached by many because he + refused to pay his respects to European officials. To all such reproaches + Nilratan would reply: "No, thank you,—if they are not polite enough + to return my call, then the politeness I offer them is a loss that can + never be made up for. The sands of the desert may be very white and shiny, + but I would much rather sow my seeds in black soil, where I can expect a + return." + </p> + <p> + And Nabendu began to adopt similar ideas, all regardless of the future. + His chance of Rai Bahadurship throve on the soil carefully prepared by his + late father and also by himself in days gone by, nor was any fresh + watering required. Had he not at great expense laid out a splendid + race-course in a town, which was a fashionable resort of Europeans? + </p> + <p> + When the time of Congress drew near, Nilratan received a request from + head-quarters to collect subscriptions. Nabendu, free from anxiety, was + merrily engaged in a game of cards with his sister-in-law, when Nilratan + Babu came upon him with a subscription-book in his hand, and said: "Your + signature, please." + </p> + <p> + From old habit Nabendu looked horrified. Labanya, assuming an air of great + concern and anxiety, said: "Never do that. It would ruin your racecourse + beyond repair." + </p> + <p> + Nabendu blurted out: "Do you suppose I pass sleepless nights through fear + of that?" + </p> + <p> + "We won't publish your name in the papers," said Nilratan reassuringly. + </p> + <p> + Labanya, looking grave and anxious, said: "Still, it wouldn't be safe. + Things spread so, from mouth to mouth—" + </p> + <p> + Nabendu replied with vehemence: "My name wouldn't suffer by appearing in + the newspapers." So saying, he snatched the subscription list from + Nilratan's hand, and signed away a thousand rupees. Secretly he hoped that + the papers would not publish the news. + </p> + <p> + Labanya struck her forehead with her palm and gasped out: "What—have + you—done?" + </p> + <p> + "Nothing wrong," said Nabendu boastfully. + </p> + <p> + "But—but—," drawled Labanya, "the Guard sahib of Sealdah + Station, the shop-assistant at Whiteaway's, the syce-sahib of Hart Bros.—these + gentlemen might be angry with you, and decline to come to your Poojah + dinner to drink your champagne, you know. Just think, they mightn't pat + you on the back, when you meet them again!" + </p> + <p> + "It wouldn't break my heart," Nabendu snapped out. + </p> + <p> + A few days passed. One morning Nabendu was sipping his tea, and glancing + at a newspaper. Suddenly a letter signed "X" caught his eye. The writer + thanked him profusely for his donation, and declared that the increase of + strength the Congress had acquired by having such a man within its fold, + was inestimable. + </p> + <p> + Alas, father Purnendu Sekhar! Was it to increase the strength of the + Congress, that you brought this wretch into the world? + </p> + <p> + Put the cloud of misfortune had its silver lining. That he was not a mere + cypher was clear from the fact that the Anglo-Indian community on the one + side and the Congress on the other were each waiting patiently, eager to + hook him, and land him on their own side. So Nabendu, beaming with + pleasure took the paper to his sister-in-law, and showed her the letter. + Looking as though she knew nothing about it, Labanya exclaimed in + surprise: "Oh, what a pity! Everything has come out! Who bore you such + ill-will? Oh, how cruel of him, how wicked of him!" + </p> + <p> + Nabendu laughed out, saying: "Now—now—don't call him names, + Labanya. I forgive him with all my heart, and bless him too." + </p> + <p> + A couple of days after this, an anti-Congress Anglo-Indian paper reached + Nabendu through the post. There was a letter in it, signed "One who + knows," and contradicting the above report. "Those who have the pleasure + of Babu Nabendu Sekhar's personal acquaintance," the writer went on, + "cannot for a moment believe this absurd libel to be true. For him to turn + a Congresswalla is as impossible as it is for the leopard to change his + spots. He is a man of genuine worth, and neither a disappointed candidate + for Government employ nor a briefless barrister. He is not one of those + who, after a brief sojourn in England, return aping our dress and manners, + audaciously try to thrust themselves on Anglo-Indian society, and finally + go back in dejection. So there is absolutely no reason why Balm Nabendu + Sekhar," etc., etc. + </p> + <p> + Ah, father Purnendu Sekhar! What a reputation you had made with the + Europeans before you died! + </p> + <p> + This letter also was paraded before his sister-in-law, for did it not + assert that he was no mean, contemptible scallywag, but a man of real + worth? + </p> + <p> + Labanya exclaimed again in feigned surprise: "Which of your friends wrote + it now? Oh, come—is it the Ticket Collector, or the hide merchant, + or is it the drum-major of the Fort?" + </p> + <p> + "You ought to send in a contradiction, I think," said Nilratan. + </p> + <p> + "Is it necessary?" said Nabendu loftily. "Must I contradict every little + thing they choose to say against me?" + </p> + <p> + Labanya filled the room with a deluge of laughter. Nabendu felt a little + disconcerted at this, and said: "Why? What's the matter?" She went on + laughing, unable to check herself, and her youthful slender form waved to + and fro. This torrent of merriment had the effect of overthrowing Nabendu + completely, and he said in pitiable accents: "Do you imagine that I am + afraid to contradict it?" + </p> + <p> + "Oh, dear, no," said Labanya; "I was thinking that you haven't yet ceased + trying to save that race-course of yours, so full of promise. While there + is life, there is hope, you know." + </p> + <p> + "That's what I am afraid of, you think, do you? Very well, you shall see," + said Nabendu desperately, and forthwith sat down to write his + contradiction. When he had finished, Labanya and Nilratan read it through, + and said: "It isn't strong enough. We must give it them pretty hot, + mustn't we?" And they kindly undertook to revise the composition. Thus it + ran: "When one connected to us by ties of blood turns our enemy he becomes + far more dangerous than any outsider. To the Government of India, the + haughty Anglo-Indians are worse enemies than the Russians or the frontier + Pathans themselves—they are the impenetrable barrier, forever + hindering the growth of any bond of friendship between the Government and + people of the country. It is the Congress which has opened up the royal + road to a better understanding between the rulers and the ruled, and the + Anglo-Indian papers have planted themselves like thorns across the whole + breadth of that road," etc., etc. + </p> + <p> + Nabendu had an inward fear as to the mischief this letter might do, but at + the same time he felt elated at the excellence of its composition, which + he fondly imagined to be his own. It was duly published, and for some days + comments, replies, and rejoinders went on in various newspapers, and the + air was full of trumpet-notes, proclaiming the fact that Nabendu had + joined the Congress, and the amount of his subscription. + </p> + <p> + Nabendu, now grown desperate, talked as though he was a patriot of the + fiercest type. Labanya laughed inwardly, and said to herself: "Well—-well—you + have to pass through the ordeal of fire yet." + </p> + <p> + One morning when Nabendu, before his bath, had finished rubbing oil over + his chest, and was trying various devices to reach the inaccessible + portions of his back, the bearer brought in a card inscribed with the name + of the District Magistrate himself! Good heavens!—What would he do? + He could not possibly go, and receive the Magistrate Sahib, thus + oil-besmeared. He shook and twitched like a koi-fish, ready dressed for + the frying pan. He finished his bath in a great hurry, tugged on his + clothes somehow, and ran breathlessly to the outer apartments. The bearer + said that the Sahib had just left after waiting for a long time. How much + of the blame for concocting this drama of invented incidents may be set + down to Labanya, and how much to the bearer is a nice problem for ethical + mathematics to solve. + </p> + <p> + Nabendu's heart was convulsed with pain within his breast, like the tail + of a lizard just cut off. He moped like an owl all day long. + </p> + <p> + Labanya banished all traces of inward merriment from her face, and kept on + enquiring in anxious tones: "What has happened to you? You are not ill, I + hope?" + </p> + <p> + Nabendu made great efforts to smile, and find a humorous reply. "How can + there be," he managed to say, "any illness within your jurisdiction, since + you yourself are the Goddess of Health?" + </p> + <p> + But the smile soon flickered out. His thoughts were: "I subscribed to the + Congress fund to begin with, published a nasty letter in a newspaper, and + on the top of that, when the Magistrate Sahib himself did me the honour to + call on me, I kept him waiting. I wonder what he is thinking of me." + </p> + <p> + Alas, father Purnendu Sekhar, by an irony of Fate I am made to appear what + I am not. + </p> + <p> + The next morning, Nabendu decked himself in his best clothes, wore his + watch and chain, and put a big turban on his head. + </p> + <p> + "Where are you off to?" enquired his sister-in-law. + </p> + <p> + "Urgent business," Nabendu replied. Labanya kept quiet. + </p> + <p> + Arriving at the Magistrate's gate, he took out his card-case. + </p> + <p> + "You cannot see him now," said the orderly peon icily. + </p> + <p> + Nabendu took out a couple of rupees from his pocket. The peon at once + salaamed him and said: "There are five of us, sir." Immediately Nabendu + pulled out a ten-rupee note, and handed it to him. + </p> + <p> + He was sent for by the Magistrate, who was writing in his dressing-gown + and bedroom slippers. Nabendu salaamed him. The Magistrate pointed to a + chair with his finger, and without raising his eyes from the paper before + him said: "What can I do for you, Babu?" + </p> + <p> + Fingering his watch-chain nervously, Nabendu said is shaky tones: + "Yesterday you were good enough to call at my place, sir—" + </p> + <p> + The Sahib knitted his brows, and, lifting just one eye from his paper, + said: "I called at your place! Babu, what nonsense are you talking?" + </p> + <p> + "Beg your pardon, sir," faltered out Nabendu. "There has been a mistake—some + confusion," and wet with perspiration, he tumbled out of the room somehow. + And that night, as he lay tossing on his bed, a distant dream-like voice + came into his ear with a recurring persistency: "Babu, you are a howling + idiot." + </p> + <p> + On his way home, Nabendu came to the conclusion that the Magistrate denied + having called, simply because he was highly offended. + </p> + <p> + So he explained to Labanya that he had been out purchasing rose-water. No + sooner had he uttered the words than half-a-dozen chuprassis wearing the + Collectorate badge made their appearance, and after salaaming Nabendu, + stood there grinning. + </p> + <p> + "Have they come to arrest you because you subscribed to the Congress + fund?" whispered Labanya with a smile. + </p> + <p> + The six peons displayed a dozen rows of teeth and said: "Bakshish—Babu-Sahib." + </p> + <p> + From a side room Nilratan came out, and said in an irritated manner: + "Bakshish? What for?" + </p> + <p> + The peons, grinning as before, answered: "The Babu-Sahib went to see the + Magistrate—so we have come for bakshish." + </p> + <p> + "I didn't know," laughed out Labanya, "that the Magistrate was selling + rose-water nowadays. Coolness wasn't the special feature of his trade + before." + </p> + <p> + Nabendu in trying to reconcile the story of his purchase with his visit to + the Magistrate, uttered some incoherent words, which nobody could make + sense of. + </p> + <p> + Nilratan spoke to the peons: "There has been no occasion for bakshish; you + shan't have it." + </p> + <p> + Nabendu said, feeling very small: "Oh, they are poor men—what's the + harm of giving them something?" And he took out a currency note. Nilratan + snatched it way from Nabendu's hand, remarking: "There are poorer men in + the world—I will give it to them for you." + </p> + <p> + Nabendu felt greatly distressed that he was not able to appease these + ghostly retainers of the angry Siva. When the peons were leaving, with + thunder in their eyes, he looked at them languishingly, as much as to say: + "You know everything, gentlemen, it is not my fault." + </p> + <p> + The Congress was to be held at Calcutta this year. Nilratan went down + thither with his wife to attend the sittings. Nabendu accompanied them. + </p> + <p> + As soon as they arrived at Calcutta, the Congress party surrounded + Nabendu, and their delight and enthusiasm knew no bounds. They cheered + him, honoured him, and extolled him up to the skies. Everybody said that, + unless leading men like Nabendu devoted themselves to the Cause, there was + no hope for the country. Nabendu was disposed to agree with them, and + emerged out of the chaos of mistake and confusion as a leader of the + country. When he entered the Congress Pavilion on the first day, everybody + stood up, and shouted "Hip, hip, hurrah," in a loud outlandish voice, + hearing which our Motherland reddened with shame to the root of her ears. + </p> + <p> + In due time the Queen's birthday came, and Nabendu's name was not found in + the list of Rai Bahadurs. + </p> + <p> + He received an invitation from Labanya for that evening. When he arrived + there, Labanya with great pomp and ceremony presented him with a robe of + honour, and with her own hand put a mark of red sandal paste on the middle + of his forehead. Each of the other sisters threw round his neck a garland + of flowers woven by herself. Decked in a pink Sari and dazzling jewels, + his wife Arunlekha was waiting in a side room, her face lit up with smiles + and blushes. Her sisters rushed to her, and, placing another garland in + her hand, insisted that she also should come, and do her part in the + ceremony, but she would not listen to it; and that principal garland, + cherishing a desire for Nabendu's neck, waited patiently for the still + secrecy of midnight. + </p> + <p> + The sisters said to Nabendu: "To-day we crown thee King. Such honour will + not be done to any body else in Hindoostan." + </p> + <p> + Whether Nabendu derived any consolation from this, he alone can tell; but + we greatly doubt it. We believe, in fact, that he will become a Rai + Bahadur before he has done, and the Englishman and the Pioneer will write + heart-rending articles lamenting his demise at the proper time. So, in the + meanwhile, Three Cheers for Babu Purnendu Sekhar! Hip, hip, hurrah—Hip, + hip, hurrah—Hip, hip, hurrah. + </p> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0013" id="link2H_4_0013"> + <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + THE RENUNCIATION + </h2> + <h3> + I + </h3> + <p> + It was a night of full moon early in the month of Phalgun. The youthful + spring was everywhere sending forth its breeze laden with the fragrance of + mango-blossoms. The melodious notes of an untiring papiya (One of the + sweetest songsters in Bengal. Anglo-Indian writers have nicknamed it the + "brain-fever bird," which is a sheer libel.), concealed within the thick + foliage of an old lichi tree by the side of a tank, penetrated a sleepless + bedroom of the Mukerji family. There Hemanta now restlessly twisted a lock + of his wife's hair round his finger, now beat her churl against her + wristlet until it tinkled, now pulled at the chaplet of flowers about her + head, and left it hanging over hex face. His mood was that of as evening + breeze which played about a favourite flowering shrub, gently shaking her + now this side, now that, in the hope of rousing her to animation. + </p> + <p> + But Kusum sat motionless, looking out of the open window, with eyes + immersed in the moonlit depth of never-ending space beyond. Her husband's + caresses were lost on her. + </p> + <p> + At last Hemanta clasped both the hands of his wife, and, shaking them + gently, said: "Kusum, where are you? A patient search through a big + telescope would reveal you only as a small speck-you seem to have receded + so far away. O, do come closer to me, dear. See how beautiful the night + is." + </p> + <p> + Kusum turned her eyes from the void of space towards her husband, and said + slowly: "I know a mantra (A set of magic words.), which could in one + moment shatter this spring night and the moon into pieces." + </p> + <p> + "If you do," laughed Hemanta, "pray don't utter it. If any mantra of yours + could bring three or four Saturdays during the week, and prolong the + nights till 5 P.M. the next day, say it by all means." + </p> + <p> + Saying this, he tried to draw his wife a little closer to him. Kusum, + freeing herself from the embrace, said: "Do you know, to-night I feel a + longing to tell you what I promised to reveal only on my death-bed. + To-night I feel that I could endure whatever punishment you might inflict + on me." + </p> + <p> + Hemanta was on the point of making a jest about punishments by reciting a + verse from Jayadeva, when the sound of an angry pair of slippers was heard + approaching rapidly. They were the familiar footsteps of his father, + Haribar Mukerji, and Hemanta, not knowing what it meant, was in a flutter + of excitement. + </p> + <p> + Standing outside the door Harihar roared out: "Hemanta, turn your wife out + of the house immediately." + </p> + <p> + Hemanta looked at his wife, and detected no trace of surprise in her + features. She merely buried her face within the palms of her hands, and, + with all the strength and intensity of her soul, wished that she could + then and there melt into nothingness. It was the same papiya whose song + floated into the room with the south breeze, and no one heard it. Endless + are the beauties of the earth-but alas, how easily everything is twisted + out of shape. + </p> + <p> + II + </p> + <p> + Returning from without, Hemanta asked his wife: "Is it true?" + </p> + <p> + "It is," replied Kusum. + </p> + <p> + "Why didn't you tell me long ago?" + </p> + <p> + "I did try many a time, and I always failed. I am a wretched woman." + </p> + <p> + "Then tell me everything now." + </p> + <p> + Kusum gravely told her story in a firm unshaken voice. She waded + barefooted through fire, as it were, with slow unflinching steps, and + nobody knew how much she was scorched. Having heard her to the end, + Hemanta rose and walked out. + </p> + <p> + Kusum thought that her husband had gone, never to return to her again. It + did not strike her as strange. She took it as naturally as any other + incident of everyday life-so dry and apathetic had her mind become during + the last few moments. Only the world and love seemed to her as a void and + make-believe from beginning to end. Even the memory of the protestations + of love, which her husband had made to her in days past, brought to her + lips a dry, hard, joyless smile, like a sharp cruel knife which had cut + through her heart. She was thinking, perhaps, that the love which seemed + to fill so much of one's life, which brought in its train such fondness + and depth of feeling, which made even the briefest separation so + exquisitely painful and a moment's union so intensely sweet, which seemed + boundless in its extent and eternal in its duration, the cessation of + which could not be imagined even in births to come—that this was + that love! So feeble was its support! No sooner does the priesthood touch + it than your "eternal" love crumbles into a handful of dust! Only a short + while ago Hemanta had whispered to her: "What a beautiful night!" The same + night was not yet at an end, the same yapiya was still warbling, the same + south breeze still blew into the roam, making the bed-curtain shiver; the + same moonlight lay on the bed next the open window, sleeping like a + beautiful heroine exhausted with gaiety. All this was unreal! Love was + more falsely dissembling than she herself! + </p> + <p> + III + </p> + <p> + The next morning Hemanta, fagged after a sleepless night, and looking like + one distracted, called at the house of Peari Sankar Ghosal. "What news, my + son?" Peari Sankar greeted him. + </p> + <p> + Hemanta, flaring up like a big fire, said in a trembling voice: "You have + defiled our caste. You have brought destruction upon us. And you will have + to pay for it." He could say no more; he felt choked. + </p> + <p> + "And you have preserved my caste, presented my ostracism from the + community, and patted me on the back affectionately!" said Peari Sankar + with a slight sarcastic smile. + </p> + <p> + Hemanta wished that his Brahmin-fury could reduce Peari Sankar to ashes in + a moment, but his rage burnt only himself. Peari Sankar sat before him + unscathed, and in the best of health. + </p> + <p> + "Did I ever do you any harm?" demanded Hemanta in a broken voice. + </p> + <p> + "Let me ask you one question," said Peari Sankar. "My daughter—my + only child-what harm had she done your father? You were very young then, + and probably never heard. Listen, then. Now, don't you excite yourself. + There is much humour in what I am going to relate. + </p> + <p> + "You were quite small when my son-in-law Nabakanta ran away to England + after stealing my daughter's jewels. You might truly remember the + commotion in the village when he returned as a barrister five years later. + Or, perhaps, you were unaware of it, as you were at school in Calcutta at + the time. Your father, arrogating to himself the headship of the + community, declared that if I sent my daughter to her husband's home, I + must renounce her for good, and never again allow her to cross my + threshold. I fell at your father's feet, and implored him, saying: + 'Brother, save me this once. I will make the boy swallow cow-dung, and go + through the prayaschittam ceremony. Do take him back into caste.' But your + father remained obdurate. For my part, I could not disown my only child, + and, bidding good-bye to my village and my kinsmen, I betook myself to + Calcutta. There, too, my troubles followed me. When I had made every + arrangement for my nephew's marriage, your father stirred up the girl's + people, and they broke the match off. Then I took a solemn vow that, if + there was a drop of Brahmin blood flowing in my veins, I would avenge + myself. You understand the business to some extent now, don't you? But + wait a little longer. You will enjoy it, when I tell you the whole story; + it is interesting. + </p> + <p> + "When you were attending college, one Bipradas Chatterji used to live next + door to your lodgings. The poor fellow is dead now. In his house lived a + child-widow called Kusum, the destitute orphan of a Kayestha gentleman. + The girl was very pretty, and the old Brahmin desired to shield her from + the hungry gaze of college students. But for a young girl to throw dust in + the eyes of her old guardian was not at all a difficult task. She often + went to the top of the roof, to hang her washing out to dry, and, I + believe, you found your own roof best suited for your studies. Whether you + two spoke to each other, when on your respective roofs, I cannot tell, but + the girl's behaviour excited suspicion in the old man's mind. She made + frequent mistakes in her household duties, and, like Parbati (The wife of + Shiva the Destroyer), engaged in her devotions, began gradually to + renounce food and sleep. Some evenings she would burst into tears in the + presence of the old gentleman, without any apparent reason. + </p> + <p> + "At last he discovered that you two saw each other from the roofs pretty + frequently, and that you even went the length of absenting yourself from + college to sit on the roof at mid-day with a book in your hand, so fond + had you grown suddenly of solitary study. Bipradas came to me for advice, + and told me everything. 'Uncle,' said I to him, 'for a long while you have + cherished a desire to go on a pilgrimage to Benares. You had better do it + now, and leave the girl in my charge. I will take care of her.' + </p> + <p> + "So he went. I lodged the girl in the house of Sripati Chatterji, passing + him off as her father. What happened next is known to you. I feel a great + relief to-day, having told you everything from the beginning. It sounds + like a romance, doesn't it? I think of turning it into a book, and getting + it printed. But I am not a writing-man myself. They say my nephew has some + aptitude that way—I will get him to write it for me. But the best + thing would be, if you would collaborate with him, because the conclusion + of the story is not known to me so well." + </p> + <p> + Without paying much attention to the concluding remarks of Peari Sankar, + Hemanta asked: "Did not Kusum object to this marriage?" + </p> + <p> + "Well," said Peari Sankar, "it is very difficult to guess. You know, my + boy, how women's minds are constituted. When they say 'no,' they mean + 'yes.' During the first few days after her removal to the new home, she + went almost crazy at not seeing you. You, too, seemed to have discovered + her new address somehow, as you used to lose your way after starting for + college, and loiter about in front of Sripati's house. Your eyes did not + appear to be exactly in search of the Presidency College, as they were + directed towards the barred windows of a private house, through which + nothing but insects and the hearts of moon-struck young men could obtain + access. I felt very sorry for you both. I could see that your studies were + being seriously interrupted, and that the plight of the girl was pitiable + also. + </p> + <p> + "One day I called Kusum to me, and said: 'Listen to me, my daughter. I am + an old man, and you need feel no delicacy in my presence. I know whom you + desire at heart. The young man's condition is hopeless too. I wish I could + bring about your union.' At this Kusum suddenly melted into tears, and ran + away. On several evenings after that, I visited Sripati's house, and, + calling Kusum to me, discussed with her matters relating to you, and so I + succeeded in gradually overcoming her shyness. At last, when I said that I + would try to bring about a marriage, she asked me: 'How can it be?' 'Never + mind,' I said, 'I would pass you off as a Brahmin maiden.' After a good + deal of argument, she begged me to find out whether you would approve of + it. 'What nonsense,' replied I, 'the boy is well-nigh mad as it were, + what's the use of disclosing all these complications to him? Let the + ceremony be over smoothly and then—all's well that ends well. + Especially, as there is not the slightest risk of its ever leaking out, + why go out of the way to make a fellow miserable for life?' + </p> + <p> + "I do not know whether the plan had Kusum's assent or not. At times she + wept, and at other times she remained silent. If I said, 'Let us drop it + then,' she would become very restless. When things were in this state, I + sent Sripati to you with the proposal of marriage; you consented without a + moment's hesitation. Everything was settled. + </p> + <p> + "Shortly before the day fixed, Kusum became so obstinate that I had the + greatest difficulty in bringing her round again. 'Do let it drop, uncle,' + she said to me constantly. 'What do you mean, you silly child,' I rebuked + her,' how can we back out now, when everything has been settled?' + </p> + <p> + "'Spread a rumour that I am dead,' she implored. 'Send me away somewhere.' + </p> + <p> + "'What would happen to the young man then?' said I.' He is now in the + seventh heaven of delight, expecting that his long cherished desire would + be fulfilled to-morrow; and to-day you want me to send him the news of + your death. The result would be that to-morrow I should have to bear the + news of his death to you, and the same evening your death would be + reported to me. Do you imagine, child, that I am capable of committing a + girl-murder and a Brahmin-murder at my age?' + </p> + <p> + "Eventually the happy marriage was celebrated at the auspicious moment, + and I felt relieved of a burdensome duty which I owed to myself. What + happened afterwards you know best." + </p> + <p> + "Couldn't you stop after having done us an irreparable injury?" burst out + Hemanta after a short silence. "Why have you told the secret now?" + </p> + <p> + With the utmost composure, Peari Sankar replied: "When I saw that all + arrangements had been made for the wedding of your sister, I said to + myself: 'Well, I have fouled the caste of one Brahmin, but that was only + from a sense of duty. Here, another Brahmin's caste is imperilled, and + this time it is my plain duty to prevent it.' So I wrote to them saying + that I was in a position to prove that you had taken the daughter of a + sudra to wife." + </p> + <p> + Controlling himself with a gigantic effort, Hemanta said: "What will + become of this girl whom I shall abandon now? Would you give her food and + shelter?" + </p> + <p> + "I have done what was mine to do," replied Peari Sankar calmly. "It is no + part of my duty to look after the discarded wives of other people. Anybody + there? Get a glass of cocoanut milk for Hemanta Babu with ice in it. And + some pan too." + </p> + <p> + Hemanta rose, and took his departure without waiting for this luxurious + hospitality. + </p> + <p> + IV + </p> + <p> + It was the fifth night of the waning of the moon—and the night was + dark. No birds were singing. The lichi tree by the tank looked like a + smudge of ink on a background a shade less deep. The south wind was + blindly roaming about in the darkness like a sleep-walker. The stars in + the sky with vigilant unblinking eyes were trying to penetrate the + darkness, in their effort to fathom some profound mystery. + </p> + <p> + No light shone in the bedroom. Hemanta was sitting on the side of the bed + next the open window, gazing at the darkness in front of him. Kusum lay on + the floor, clasping her husband's feet with both her arms, and her face + resting on them. Time stood like an ocean hushed into stillness. On the + background of eternal night, Fate seemed to have painted this one single + picture for all time—annihilation on every side, the judge in the + centre of it, and the guilty one at his feet. + </p> + <p> + The sound of slippers was heard again. Approaching the door, Harihar + Mukerji said: "You have had enough time,—I can't allow you more. + Turn the girl out of the house." + </p> + <p> + Kusum, as she heard this, embraced her husband's feet with all the ardour + of a lifetime, covered them with kisses, and touching her forehead to them + reverentially, withdrew herself. + </p> + <p> + Hemanta rose, and walking to the door, said: "Father, I won't forsake my + wife." + </p> + <p> + "What!" roared out Harihar, "would you lose your caste, sir?" + </p> + <p> + "I don't care for caste," was Hemanta's calm reply. + </p> + <p> + "Then you too I renounce." + </p> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0014" id="link2H_4_0014"> + <!-- H2 anchor --> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + THE CABULIWALLAH + </h2> + <h3> + (THE FRUITSELLER FROM CABUL) + </h3> + <p> + My five years' old daughter Mini cannot live without chattering. I really + believe that in all her life she has not wasted a minute in silence. Her + mother is often vexed at this, and would stop her prattle, but I would + not. To see Mini quiet is unnatural, and I cannot bear it long. And so my + own talk with her is always lively. + </p> + <p> + One morning, for instance, when I was in the midst of the seventeenth + chapter of my new novel, my little Mini stole into the room, and putting + her hand into mine, said: "Father! Ramdayal the door-keeper calls a crow a + krow! He doesn't know anything, does he?" + </p> + <p> + Before I could explain to her the differences of language in this world, + she was embarked on the full tide of another subject. "What do you think, + Father? Bhola says there is an elephant in the clouds, blowing water out + of his trunk, and that is why it rains!" + </p> + <p> + And then, darting off anew, while I sat still making ready some reply to + this last saying, "Father! what relation is Mother to you?" + </p> + <p> + "My dear little sister in the law!" I murmured involuntarily to myself, + but with a grave face contrived to answer: "Go and play with Bhola, Mini! + I am busy!" + </p> + <p> + The window of my room overlooks the road. The child had seated herself at + my feet near my table, and was playing softly, drumming on her knees. I + was hard at work on my seventeenth chapter, where Protrap Singh, the hero, + had just caught Kanchanlata, the heroine, in his arms, and was about to + escape with her by the third story window of the castle, when all of a + sudden Mini left her play, and ran to the window, crying, "A Cabuliwallah! + a Cabuliwallah!" Sure enough in the street below was a Cabuliwallah, + passing slowly along. He wore the loose soiled clothing of his people, + with a tall turban; there was a bag on his back, and he carried boxes of + grapes in his hand. + </p> + <p> + I cannot tell what were my daughter's feelings at the sight of this man, + but she began to call him loudly. "Ah!" I thought, "he will come in, and + my seventeenth chapter will never be finished!" At which exact moment the + Cabuliwallah turned, and looked up at the child. When she saw this, + overcome by terror, she fled to her mother's protection, and disappeared. + She had a blind belief that inside the bag, which the big man carried, + there were perhaps two or three other children like herself. The pedlar + meanwhile entered my doorway, and greeted me with a smiling face. + </p> + <p> + So precarious was the position of my hero and my heroine, that my first + impulse was to stop and buy something, since the man had been called. I + made some small purchases, and a conversation began about Abdurrahman, the + Russians, she English, and the Frontier Policy. + </p> + <p> + As he was about to leave, he asked: "And where is the little girl, sir?" + </p> + <p> + And I, thinking that Mini must get rid of her false fear, had her brought + out. + </p> + <p> + She stood by my chair, and looked at the Cabuliwallah and his bag. He + offered her nuts and raisins, but she would not be tempted, and only clung + the closer to me, with all her doubts increased. + </p> + <p> + This was their first meeting. + </p> + <p> + One morning, however, not many days later, as I was leaving the house, I + was startled to find Mini, seated on a bench near the door, laughing and + talking, with the great Cabuliwallah at her feet. In all her life, it + appeared; my small daughter had never found so patient a listener, save + her father. And already the corner of her little sari was stuffed with + almonds and raisins, the gift of her visitor, "Why did you give her + those?" I said, and taking out an eight-anna bit, I handed it to him. The + man accepted the money without demur, and slipped it into his pocket. + </p> + <p> + Alas, on my return an hour later, I found the unfortunate coin had made + twice its own worth of trouble! For the Cabuliwallah had given it to Mini, + and her mother catching sight of the bright round object, had pounced on + the child with: "Where did you get that eight-anna bit?" + </p> + <p> + "The Cabuliwallah gave it me," said Mini cheerfully. + </p> + <p> + "The Cabuliwallah gave it you!" cried her mother much shocked. "Oh, Mini! + how could you take it from him?" + </p> + <p> + I, entering at the moment, saved her from impending disaster, and + proceeded to make my own inquiries. + </p> + <p> + It was not the first or second time, I found, that the two had met. The + Cabuliwallah had overcome the child's first terror by a judicious bribery + of nuts and almonds, and the two were now great friends. + </p> + <p> + They had many quaint jokes, which afforded them much amusement. Seated in + front of him, looking down on his gigantic frame in all her tiny dignity, + Mini would ripple her face with laughter, and begin: "O Cabuliwallah, + Cabuliwallah, what have you got in your bag?" + </p> + <p> + And he would reply, in the nasal accents of the mountaineer: "An + elephant!" Not much cause for merriment, perhaps; but how they both + enjoyed the witticism! And for me, this child's talk with a grown-up man + had always in it something strangely fascinating. + </p> + <p> + Then the Cabuliwallah, not to be behindhand, would take his turn: "Well, + little one, and when are you going to the father-in-law's house?" + </p> + <p> + Now most small Bengali maidens have heard long ago about the + father-in-law's house; but we, being a little new-fangled, had kept these + things from our child, and Mini at this question must have been a trifle + bewildered. But she would not show it, and with ready tact replied: "Are + you going there?" + </p> + <p> + Amongst men of the Cabuliwallah's class, however, it is well known that + the words father-in-law's house have a double meaning. It is a euphemism + for jail, the place where we are well cared for, at no expense to + ourselves. In this sense would the sturdy pedlar take my daughter's + question. "Ah," he would say, shaking his fist at an invisible policeman, + "I will thrash my father-in-law!" Hearing this, and picturing the poor + discomfited relative, Mini would go off into peals of laughter, in which + her formidable friend would join. + </p> + <p> + These were autumn mornings, the very time of year when kings of old went + forth to conquest; and I, never stirring from my little corner in + Calcutta, would let my mind wander over the whole world. At the very name + of another country, my heart would go out to it, and at the sight of a + foreigner in the streets, I would fall to weaving a network of dreams,—the + mountains, the glens, and the forests of his distant home, with his + cottage in its setting, and the free and independent life of far-away + wilds. Perhaps the scenes of travel conjure themselves up before me, and + pass and repass in my imagination all the more vividly, because I lead + such a vegetable existence, that a call to travel would fall upon me like + a thunderbolt. In the presence of this Cabuliwallah, I was immediately + transported to the foot of arid mountain peaks, with narrow little defiles + twisting in and out amongst their towering heights. I could see the string + of camels bearing the merchandise, and the company of turbaned merchants, + carrying some of their queer old firearms, and some of their spears, + journeying downward towards the plains. I could see—but at some such + point Mini's mother would intervene, imploring me to "beware of that man." + </p> + <p> + Mini's mother is unfortunately a very timid lady. Whenever she hears a + noise in the street, or sees people coming towards the house, she always + jumps to the conclusion that they are either thieves, or drunkards, or + snakes, or tigers, or malaria or cockroaches, or caterpillars, or an + English sailor. Even after all these years of experience, she is not able + to overcome her terror. So she was full of doubts about the Cabuliwallah, + and used to beg me to keep a watchful eye on him. + </p> + <p> + I tried to laugh her fear gently away, but then she would turn round on me + seriously, and ask me solemn questions. + </p> + <p> + Were children never kidnapped? + </p> + <p> + Was it, then, not true that there was slavery in Cabul? + </p> + <p> + Was it so very absurd that this big man should be able to carry off a tiny + child? + </p> + <p> + I urged that, though not impossible, it was highly improbable. But this + was not enough, and her dread persisted. As it was indefinite, however, it + did not seem right to forbid the man the house, and the intimacy went on + unchecked. + </p> + <p> + Once a year in the middle of January Rahmun, the Cabuliwallah, was in the + habit of returning to his country, and as the time approached he would be + very busy, going from house to house collecting his debts. This year, + however, he could always find time to come and see Mini. It would have + seemed to an outsider that there was some conspiracy between the two, for + when he could not come in the morning, he would appear in the evening. + </p> + <p> + Even to me it was a little startling now and then, in the corner of a dark + room, suddenly to surprise this tall, loose-garmented, much bebagged man; + but when Mini would run in smiling, with her, "O! Cabuliwallah! + Cabuliwallah!" and the two friends, so far apart in age, would subside + into their old laughter and their old jokes, I felt reassured. + </p> + <p> + One morning, a few days before he had made up his mind to go, I was + correcting my proof sheets in my study. It was chilly weather. Through the + window the rays of the sun touched my feet, and the slight warmth was very + welcome. It was almost eight o'clock, and the early pedestrians were + returning home, with their heads covered. All at once, I heard an uproar + in the street, and, looking out, saw Rahmun being led away bound between + two policemen, and behind them a crowd of curious boys. There were + blood-stains on the clothes of the Cabuliwallah, and one of the policemen + carried a knife. Hurrying out, I stopped them, and enquired what it all + meant. Partly from one, partly from another, I gathered that a certain + neighbour had owed the pedlar something for a Rampuri shawl, but had + falsely denied having bought it, and that in the course of the quarrel, + Rahmun had struck him. Now in the heat of his excitement, the prisoner + began calling his enemy all sorts of names, when suddenly in a verandah of + my house appeared my little Mini, with her usual exclamation: "O + Cabuliwallah! Cabuliwallah!" Rahmun's face lighted up as he turned to her. + He had no bag under his arm today, so she could not discuss the elephant + with him. She at once therefore proceeded to the next question: "Are you + going to the father-in-law's house?" Rahmun laughed and said: "Just where + I am going, little one!" Then seeing that the reply did not amuse the + child, he held up his fettered hands. "Ali," he said, "I would have + thrashed that old father-in-law, but my hands are bound!" + </p> + <p> + On a charge of murderous assault, Rahmun was sentenced to some years' + imprisonment. + </p> + <p> + Time passed away, and he was not remembered. The accustomed work in the + accustomed place was ours, and the thought of the once-free mountaineer + spending his years in prison seldom or never occurred to us. Even my + light-hearted Mini, I am ashamed to say, forgot her old friend. New + companions filled her life. As she grew older, she spent more of her time + with girls. So much time indeed did she spend with them that she came no + more, as she used to do, to her father's room. I was scarcely on speaking + terms with her. + </p> + <p> + Years had passed away. It was once more autumn and we had made + arrangements for our Mini's marriage. It was to take place during the Puja + Holidays. With Durga returning to Kailas, the light of our home also was + to depart to her husband's house, and leave her father's in the shadow. + </p> + <p> + The morning was bright. After the rains, there was a sense of ablution in + the air, and the sun-rays looked like pure gold. So bright were they that + they gave a beautiful radiance even to the sordid brick walls of our + Calcutta lanes. Since early dawn to-day the wedding-pipes had been + sounding, and at each beat my own heart throbbed. The wail of the tune, + Bhairavi, seemed to intensify my pain at the approaching separation. My + Mini was to be married to-night. + </p> + <p> + From early morning noise and bustle had pervaded the house. In the + courtyard the canopy had to be slung on its bamboo poles; the chandeliers + with their tinkling sound must be hung in each room and verandah. There + was no end of hurry and excitement. I was sitting in my study, looking + through the accounts, when some one entered, saluting respectfully, and + stood before me. It was Rahmun the Cabuliwallah. At first I did not + recognise him. He had no bag, nor the long hair, nor the same vigour that + he used to have. But he smiled, and I knew him again. + </p> + <p> + "When did you come, Rahmun?" I asked him. + </p> + <p> + "Last evening," he said, "I was released from jail." + </p> + <p> + The words struck harsh upon my ears. I had never before talked with one + who had wounded his fellow, and my heart shrank within itself, when I + realised this, for I felt that the day would have been better-omened had + he not turned up. + </p> + <p> + "There are ceremonies going on," I said, "and I am busy. Could you perhaps + come another day?" + </p> + <p> + At once he turned to go; but as he reached the door he hesitated, and + said: "May I not see the little one, sir, for a moment?" It was his belief + that Mini was still the same. He had pictured her running to him as she + used, calling "O Cabuliwallah! Cabuliwallah!" He had imagined too that + they would laugh and talk together, just as of old. In fact, in memory of + former days he had brought, carefully wrapped up in paper, a few almonds + and raisins and grapes, obtained somehow from a countryman, for his own + little fund was dispersed. + </p> + <p> + I said again: "There is a ceremony in the house, and you will not be able + to see any one to-day." + </p> + <p> + The man's face fell. He looked wistfully at me for a moment, said "Good + morning," and went out. I felt a little sorry, and would have called him + back, but I found he was returning of his own accord. He came close up to + me holding out his offerings and said: "I brought these few things, sir, + for the little one. Will you give them to her?" + </p> + <p> + I took them and was going to pay him, but he caught my hand and said: "You + are very kind, sir! Keep me in your recollection. Do not offer me money!—You + have a little girl, I too have one like her in my own home. I think of + her, and bring fruits to your child, not to make a profit for myself." + </p> + <p> + Saying this, he put his hand inside his big loose robe, and brought out a + small and dirty piece of paper. With great care he unfolded this, and + smoothed it out with both hands on my table. It bore the impression of a + little band. Not a photograph. Not a drawing. The impression of an + ink-smeared hand laid flat on the paper. This touch of his own little + daughter had been always on his heart, as he had come year after year to + Calcutta, to sell his wares in the streets. + </p> + <p> + Tears came to my eyes. I forgot that he was a poor Cabuli fruit-seller, + while I was—but no, what was I more than he? He also was a father. + That impression of the hand of his little Parbati in her distant mountain + home reminded me of my own little Mini. + </p> + <p> + I sent for Mini immediately from the inner apartment. Many difficulties + were raised, but I would not listen. Clad in the red silk of her + wedding-day, with the sandal paste on her forehead, and adorned as a young + bride, Mini came, and stood bashfully before me. + </p> + <p> + The Cabuliwallah looked a little staggered at the apparition. He could not + revive their old friendship. At last he smiled and said: "Little one, are + you going to your father-in-law's house?" + </p> + <p> + But Mini now understood the meaning of the word "father-in-law," and she + could not reply to him as of old. She flushed up at the question, and + stood before him with her bride-like face turned down. + </p> + <p> + I remembered the day when the Cabuliwallah and my Mini had first met, and + I felt sad. When she had gone, Rahmun heaved a deep sigh, and sat down on + the floor. The idea had suddenly come to him that his daughter too must + have grown in this long time, and that he would have to make friends with + her anew. Assuredly he would not find her, as he used to know her. And + besides, what might not have happened to her in these eight years? + </p> + <p> + The marriage-pipes sounded, and the mild autumn sun streamed round us. But + Rahmun sat in the little Calcutta lane, and saw before him the barren + mountains of Afghanistan. + </p> + <p> + I took out a bank-note, and gave it to him, saying: "Go back to your own + daughter, Rahmun, in your own country, and may the happiness of your + meeting bring good fortune to my child!" + </p> + <p> + Having made this present, I had to curtail some of the festivities. I + could not have the electric lights I had intended, nor the military band, + and the ladies of the house were despondent at it. But to me the wedding + feast was all the brighter for the thought that in a distant land a + long-lost father met again with his only child. + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </p> +<pre xml:space="preserve"> + + + + + +End of the Project Gutenberg EBook of The Hungry Stones And Other Stories, by +Rabindranath Tagore + +*** END OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE HUNGRY STONES *** + +***** This file should be named 2518-h.htm or 2518-h.zip ***** +This and all associated files of various formats will be found in: + http://www.gutenberg.org/2/5/1/2518/ + +Produced by Alev Akman, and David Widger + + +Updated editions will replace the previous one--the old editions +will be renamed. + +Creating the works from public domain print editions means that no +one owns a United States copyright in these works, so the Foundation +(and you!) can copy and distribute it in the United States without +permission and without paying copyright royalties. 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