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diff --git a/40965-0.txt b/40965-0.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..80dc392 --- /dev/null +++ b/40965-0.txt @@ -0,0 +1,622 @@ +*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 40965 *** + + TIME and the WOMAN + + By Dewey, G. Gordon + +[Transcriber's Note: This etext was produced from Orbit volume 1 number +2, 1953. Extensive research did not uncover any evidence that the U.S. +copyright on this publication was renewed.] + +[Sidenote: HER ONLY PASSION WAS BEAUTY--BEAUTY WHICH WOULD LAST FOREVER. +AND FOR IT--SHE'D DO ANYTHING!] + +[Illustration ] + + +Ninon stretched. And purred, almost. There was something lazily catlike +in her flexing; languid, yet ferally alert. The silken softness of her +couch yielded to her body as she rubbed against it in sensual delight. +There was almost the litheness of youth in her movements. + +It was true that some of her joints seemed to have a hint of stiffness +in them, but only _she_ knew it. And if some of the muscles beneath her +polished skin did not respond with quite the resilience of the youth +they once had, only _she_ knew that, too. _But they would again_, she +told herself fiercely. + +She caught herself. She had let down her guard for an instant, and a +frown had started. She banished it imperiously. Frowns--just one +frown--could start a wrinkle! And nothing was as stubborn as a wrinkle. +One soft, round, white, long-nailed finger touched here, and here, and +there--the corners of her eyes, the corners of her mouth, smoothing +them. + +Wrinkles acknowledged only one master, the bio-knife of the facial +surgeons. But the bio-knife could not thrust deep enough to excise the +stiffness in a joint; was not clever enough to remold the outlines of a +figure where they were beginning to blur and--sag. + +No one else could see it--yet. But Ninon could! + +Again the frown almost came, and again she scourged it fiercely into the +back of her mind. Time was her enemy. But she had had other enemies, and +destroyed them, one way or another, cleverly or ruthlessly as +circumstances demanded. Time, too, could be destroyed. Or enslaved. +Ninon sorted through her meagre store of remembered reading. Some old +philosopher had said, "If you can't whip 'em, join 'em!" Crude, but apt. + +Ninon wanted to smile. But smiles made wrinkles, too. She was content to +feel that sureness of power in her grasp--the certain knowledge that +she, first of all people, would turn Time on itself and destroy it. She +would be youthful again. She would thread through the ages to come, like +a silver needle drawing a golden filament through the layer on layer of +the cloth of years that would engarment her eternal youth. Ninon knew +how. + +Her shining, gray-green eyes strayed to the one door in her apartment +through which no man had ever gone. There the exercising machines; the +lotions; the unguents; the diets; the radioactive drugs; the records of +endocrine transplantations, of blood transfusions. She dismissed them +contemptuously. Toys! The mirages of a pseudo-youth. She would leave +them here for someone else to use in masking the downhill years. + +There, on the floor beside her, was the answer she had sought so long. A +book. "Time in Relation to Time." The name of the author, his academic +record in theoretical physics, the cautious, scientific wording of his +postulates, meant nothing to her. The one thing that had meaning for her +was that Time could be manipulated. And she would manipulate it. For +Ninon! + +The door chimes tinkled intimately. Ninon glanced at her watch--Robert +was on time. She arose from the couch, made sure that the light was +behind her at just the right angle so he could see the outlines of her +figure through the sheerness of her gown, then went to the door and +opened it. + +A young man stood there. Young, handsome, strong, his eyes aglow with +the desire he felt, Ninon knew, when he saw her. He took one quick step +forward to clasp her in his strong young arms. + +"Ninon, my darling," he whispered huskily. + +Ninon did not have to make her voice throaty any more, and that annoyed +her too. Once she had had to do it deliberately. But now, through the +years, it had deepened. + +"Not yet, Robert," she whispered. She let him feel the slight but firm +resistance so nicely calculated to breach his own; watched the deepening +flush of his cheeks with the clinical sureness that a thousand such +experiences with men had given her. + +Then, "Come in, Robert," she said, moving back a step. "I've been +waiting for you." + +She noted, approvingly, that Robert was in his spaceman's uniform, ready +for the morrow's flight, as he went past her to the couch. She pushed +the button which closed and locked the door, then seated herself beside +the young spaceman on the silken couch. + +His hands rested on her shoulders and he turned her until they faced +each other. + +"Ninon," he said, "you are so beautiful. Let me look at you for a long +time--to carry your image with me through all of time and space." + +Again Ninon let him feel just a hint of resistance, and risked a tiny +pout. "If you could just take me with you, Robert...." + +Robert's face clouded. "If I only could!" he said wistfully. "If there +were only room. But this is an experimental flight--no more than two can +go." + +Again his arms went around her and he leaned closer. + +"Wait!" Ninon said, pushing him back. + +"Wait? Wait for what?" Robert glanced at his watch. "Time is running +out. I have to be at the spaceport by dawn--three hours from now." + +Ninon said, "But that's three hours, Robert." + +"But I haven't slept yet tonight. There's been so much to do. I should +rest a little." + +"I'll be more than rest for you." + +"Yes, Ninon.... Oh, yes." + +"Not yet, darling." Again her hands were between them. "First, tell me +about the flight tomorrow." + +The young spaceman's eyes were puzzled, hurt. "But Ninon, I've told you +before ... there is so much of you that I want to remember ... so little +time left ... and you'll be gone when I get back...." + +Ninon let her gray-green eyes narrow ever so slightly as she leaned away +from him. But he blundered on. + +"... or very old, no longer the Ninon I know ... oh, all right. But you +know all this already. We've had space flight for years, but only +rocket-powered, restricting us to our own system. Now we have a new kind +of drive. Theoretically we can travel faster than light--how many times +faster we don't know yet. I'll start finding out tomorrow, with the +first test flight of the ship in which the new drive is installed. If it +works, the universe is ours--we can go anywhere." + +"Will it work?" Ninon could not keep the avid greediness out of her +voice. + +Robert said, hesitantly, "We think it will. I'll know better by this +time tomorrow." + +"What of you--of me--. What does this mean to us--to people?" + +Again the young spaceman hesitated. "We ... we don't know, yet. We think +that time won't have the same meaning to everyone...." + +"... When you travel faster than light. Is that it?" + +"Well ... yes. Something like that." + +"And I'll be--old--or dead, when you get back? If you get back?" + +Robert leaned forward and buried his face in the silvery-blonde hair +which swept down over Ninon's shoulders. + +"Don't say it, darling," he murmured. + +This time Ninon permitted herself a wrinkling smile. If she was right, +and she knew she was, it could make no difference now. There would be no +wrinkles--there would be only the soft flexible skin, naturally soft and +flexible, of real youth. + +She reached behind her, over the end of the couch, and pushed three +buttons. The light, already soft, dimmed slowly to the faintest of +glows; a suave, perfumed dusk as precisely calculated as was the exact +rate at which she let all resistance ebb from her body. + +Robert's voice was muffled through her hair. "What were those clicks?" +he asked. + +Ninon's arms stole around his neck. "The lights," she whispered, "and a +little automatic warning to tell you when it's time to go...." + +The boy did not seem to remember about the third click. Ninon was not +quite ready to tell him, yet. But she would.... + + * * * * * + +Two hours later a golden-voiced bell chimed, softly, musically. The +lights slowly brightened to no more than the lambent glow which was all +that Ninon permitted. She ran her fingers through the young spaceman's +tousled hair and shook him gently. + +"It's time to go, Robert," she said. + +Robert fought back from the stubborn grasp of sleep. "So soon?" he +mumbled. + +"And I'm going with you," Ninon said. + +This brought him fully awake. "I'm sorry, Ninon. You can't!" He sat up +and yawned, stretched, the healthy stretch of resilient youth. Then he +reached for the jacket he had tossed over on a chair. + +Ninon watched him with envious eyes, waiting until he was fully alert. + +"Robert!" she said, and the youth paused at the sharpness of her voice. +"How old are you?" + +"I've told you before, darling--twenty-four." + +"How old do you think I am?" + +He gazed at her in silent curiosity for a moment, then said, "Come to +think of it, you've never told me. About twenty-two or -three, I'd say." + +"Tomorrow is my birthday. I'll be fifty-two." + +He stared at her in shocked amazement. Then, as his gaze went over the +smooth lines of her body, the amazement gave way to disbelief, and he +chuckled. "The way you said it, Ninon, almost had me believing you. You +can't possibly be that old, or anywhere near it. You're joking." + +Ninon's voice was cold. She repeated it: "I am fifty-two years old. I +knew your father, before you were born." + +This time she could see that he believed it. The horror he felt was easy +to read on his face while he struggled to speak. "Then ... God help +me ... I've been making love to ... an old woman!" His voice was low, +bitter, accusing. + +Ninon slapped him. + +He swayed slightly, then his features froze as the red marks of her +fingers traced across his left cheek. At last he bowed, mockingly, and +said, "Your pardon, Madame. I forgot myself. My father taught me to be +respectful to my elders." + +For that Ninon could have killed him. As he turned to leave, her hand +sought the tiny, feather-light beta-gun cunningly concealed in the folds +of her gown. But the driving force of her desire made her stay her hand. + +"Robert!" she said in peremptory tones. + +The youth paused at the door and glanced back, making no effort to +conceal the loathing she had aroused in him. "What do you want?" + +Ninon said, "You'll never make that flight without me.... Watch!" + +Swiftly she pushed buttons again. The room darkened, as before. Curtains +at one end divided and rustled back, and a glowing screen sprang to life +on the wall revealed behind them. And there, in life and movement and +color and sound and dimension, she--and Robert--projected themselves, +together on the couch, beginning at the moment Ninon had pressed the +three buttons earlier. Robert's arms were around her, his face buried in +the hair falling over her shoulders.... + +The spaceman's voice was doubly bitter in the darkened room. "So that's +it," he said. "A recording! Another one for your collection, I suppose. +But of what use is it to you? I have neither money nor power. I'll be +gone from this Earth in an hour. And you'll be gone from it, +permanently--at your age--before I get back. I have nothing to lose, and +you have nothing to gain." + +Venomous with triumph, Ninon's voice was harsh even to her ears. "On the +contrary, my proud and impetuous young spaceman, I have much to gain, +more than you could ever understand. When it was announced that you were +to be trained to command this experimental flight I made it my business +to find out everything possible about you. One other man is going. He +too has had the same training, and could take over in your place. A +third man has also been trained, to stand by in reserve. You are +supposed to have rested and slept the entire night. If the Commandant of +Space Research knew that you had not...." + +"I see. That's why you recorded my visit tonight. But I leave in less +than an hour. You'd never be able to tell Commander Pritchard in time to +make any difference, and he'd never come here to see...." + +Ninon laughed mirthlessly, and pressed buttons again. The screen +changed, went blank for a moment, then figures appeared again. On the +couch were she and a man, middle-aged, dignified in appearance, +uniformed. Blane Pritchard, Commandant of Space Research. His arms were +around her, and his face was buried in her hair. She let the recording +run for a moment, then shut it off and turned up the lights. + +To Robert, she said, "I think Commander Pritchard would be here in five +minutes if I called and told him that I have information which seriously +affects the success of the flight." + +The young spaceman's face was white and stricken as he stared for long +moments, wordless, at Ninon. Then in defeated tones he said, "You +scheming witch! What do you want?" + +There was no time to gloat over her victory. That would come later. +Right now minutes counted. She snatched up a cloak, pushed Robert out +through the door and hurried him along the hall and out into the street +where his car waited. + +"We must hurry," she said breathlessly. "We can get to the spaceship +ahead of schedule, before your flight partner arrives, and be gone from +Earth before anyone knows what is happening. I'll be with you, in his +place." + +Robert did not offer to help her into the car, but got in first and +waited until she closed the door behind her, then sped away from the +curb and through the streets to the spaceport. + +Ninon said, "Tell me, Robert, isn't it true that if a clock recedes from +Earth at the speed of light, and if we could watch it as it did so, it +would still be running but it would never show later time?" + +The young man said gruffly, "Roughly so, according to theory." + +"And if the clock went away from Earth faster than the speed of light, +wouldn't it run backwards?" + +The answer was curtly cautious. "It might appear to." + +"Then if people travel at the speed of light they won't get any older?" + +Robert flicked a curious glance at her. "If you could watch them from +Earth they appear not to. But it's a matter of relativity...." + +Ninon rushed on. She had studied that book carefully. "And if people +travel faster than light, a lot faster, they'll grow younger, won't +they?" + +Robert said, "So that's what's in your mind." He busied himself with +parking the car at the spaceport, then went on: "You want to go back in +the past thirty years, and be a girl again. While I grow younger, too, +into a boy, then a child, a baby, at last nothing...." + +"I'll try to be sorry for you, Robert." + +Ninon felt again for her beta-gun as he stared at her for a long minute, +his gaze a curious mixture of amusement and pity. Then, "Come on," he +said flatly, turning to lead the way to the gleaming space ship which +poised, towering like a spire, in the center of the blast-off basin. And +added, "I think I shall enjoy this trip, Madame, more than you will." + +The young man's words seemed to imply a secret knowledge that Ninon did +not possess. A sudden chill of apprehension rippled through her, and +almost she turned back. But no ... there was the ship! There was youth; +and beauty; and the admiration of men, real admiration. Suppleness in +her muscles and joints again. No more diets. No more transfusions. No +more transplantations. No more the bio-knife. She could smile again, or +frown again. And after a few years she could make the trip again ... and +again.... + + * * * * * + +The space ship stood on fiery tiptoes and leaped from Earth, high into +the heavens, and out and away. Past rusted Mars. Past the busy +asteroids. Past the sleeping giants, Jupiter and Saturn. Past pale +Uranus and Neptune; and frigid, shivering Pluto. Past a senseless, +flaming comet rushing inward towards its rendezvous with the Sun. And on +out of the System into the steely blackness of space where the stars +were hard, burnished points of light, unwinking, motionless; eyes--eyes +staring at the ship, staring through the ports at Ninon where she lay, +stiff and bruised and sore, in the contoured acceleration sling. + +The yammering rockets cut off, and the ship seemed to poise on the ebon +lip of a vast Stygian abyss. + +Joints creaking, muscles protesting, Ninon pushed herself up and out of +the sling against the artificial gravity of the ship. Robert was already +seated at the controls. + +"How fast are we going?" she asked; and her voice was rusty and harsh. + +"Barely crawling, astronomically," he said shortly. "About forty-six +thousand miles a minute." + +"Is that as fast as the speed of light?" + +"Hardly, Madame," he said, with a condescending chuckle. + +"Then make it go faster!" she screamed. "And faster and faster--hurry! +What are we waiting for?" + +The young spaceman swivelled about in his seat. He looked haggard and +drawn from the strain of the long acceleration. Despite herself, Ninon +could feel the sagging in her own face; the sunkenness of her eyes. She +felt tired, hating herself for it--hating having this young man see +her. + +He said, "The ship is on automatic control throughout. The course is +plotted in advance; all operations are plotted. There is nothing we can +do but wait. The light drive will cut in at the planned time." + +"Time! Wait! That's all I hear!" Ninon shrieked. "Do something!" + +Then she heard it. A low moan, starting from below the limit of +audibility, then climbing, up and up and up and up, until it was a +nerve-plucking whine that tore into her brain like a white-hot tuning +fork. And still it climbed, up beyond the range of hearing, and up and +up still more, till it could no longer be felt. But Ninon, as she +stumbled back into the acceleration sling, sick and shaken, knew it was +still there. The light drive! + +She watched through the ports. The motionless, silent stars were moving +now, coming toward them, faster and faster, as the ship swept out of the +galaxy, shooting into her face like blazing pebbles from a giant +slingshot. + +She asked, "How fast are we going now?" + +Robert's voice sounded far off as he replied, "We are approaching the +speed of light." + +"Make it go faster!" she cried. "Faster! Faster!" + +She looked out the ports again; looked back behind them--and saw shining +specks of glittering blackness falling away to melt into the sootiness +of space. She shuddered, and knew without asking that these were stars +dropping behind at a rate greater than light speed. + +"Now how fast are we going?" she asked. She was sure that her voice was +stronger; that strength was flowing back into her muscles and bones. + +"Nearly twice light speed." + +"Faster!" she cried. "We must go much faster! I must be young again. +Youthful, and gay, and alive and happy.... Tell me, Robert, do you feel +younger yet?" + +He did not answer. + + * * * * * + +Ninon lay in the acceleration sling, gaining strength, and--she +knew--youth. Her lost youth, coming back, to be spent all over again. +How wonderful! No woman in all of time and history had ever done it. She +would be immortal; forever young and lovely. She hardly noticed the +stiffness in her joints when she got to her feet again--it was just from +lying in the sling so long. + +She made her voice light and gay. "Are we not going very, very fast, +now, Robert?" + +He answered without turning. "Yes. Many times the speed of light." + +"I knew it ... I knew it! Already I feel much younger. Don't you feel it +too?" + +He did not answer, and Ninon kept on talking. "How long have we been +going, Robert?" + +He said, "I don't know ... depends on where you are." + +"It must be hours ... days ... weeks. I should be hungry. Yes, I think I +am hungry. I'll need food, lots of food. Young people have good +appetites, don't they, Robert?" + +He pointed to the provisions locker, and she got food out and made it +ready. But she could eat but a few mouthfuls. _It's the excitement_, she +told herself. After all, no other woman, ever, had gone back through the +years to be young again.... + + * * * * * + +Long hours she rested in the sling, gaining more strength for the day +when they would land back on Earth and she could step out in all the +springy vitality of a girl of twenty. And then as she watched through +the ingenious ports she saw the stars of the far galaxies beginning to +wheel about through space, and she knew that the ship had reached the +halfway point and was turning to speed back through space to Earth, +uncounted light-years behind them--or before them. And she would still +continue to grow younger and younger.... + +She gazed at the slightly-blurred figure of the young spaceman on the +far side of the compartment, focussing her eyes with effort. "You are +looking much younger, Robert," she said. "Yes, I think you are becoming +quite boyish, almost childish, in appearance." + +He nodded slightly. "You may be right," he said. + +"I must have a mirror," she cried. "I must see for myself how much +younger I have become. I'll hardly recognize myself...." + +"There is no mirror," he told her. + +"No mirror? But how can I see...." + +"Non-essentials were not included in the supplies on this ship. Mirrors +are not essential--to men." + +The mocking gravity in his voice infuriated her. "Then you shall be my +mirror," she said. "Tell me, Robert, am I not now much younger? Am I not +becoming more and more beautiful? Am I not in truth the most desirable +of women?... But I forget. After all, you are only a boy, by now." + +He said, "I'm afraid our scientists will have some new and interesting +data on the effects of time in relation to time. Before long we'll begin +to decelerate. It won't be easy or pleasant. I'll try to make you as +comfortable as possible." + +Ninon felt her face go white and stiff with rage. "What do you mean?" + +Robert said, coldly brutal, "You're looking your age, Ninon. Every year +of your fifty-two!" + +Ninon snatched out the little beta-gun, then, leveled it and fired. And +watched without remorse as the hungry electrons streamed forth to strike +the young spaceman, turning him into a motionless, glowing figure which +rapidly became misty and wraith-like, at last to disappear, leaving only +a swirl of sparkling haze where he had stood. This too disappeared as +its separate particles drifted to the metallite walls of the space ship, +discharged their energy and ceased to sparkle, leaving only a thin film +of dust over all. + + * * * * * + +After a while Ninon got up again from the sling and made her way to the +wall. She polished the dust away from a small area of it, trying to make +the spot gleam enough so that she could use it for a mirror. She +polished a long time, until at last she could see a ghostly reflection +of her face in the rubbed spot. + +Yes, unquestionably she was younger, more beautiful. Unquestionably Time +was being kind to her, giving her back her youth. She was not sorry that +Robert was gone--there would be many young men, men her own age, when +she got back to Earth. And that would be soon. She must rest more, and +be ready. + +The light drive cut off, and the great ship slowly decelerated as it +found its way back into the galaxy from which it had started. Found its +way back into the System which had borne it. Ninon watched through the +port as it slid in past the outer planets. Had they changed? No, she +could not see that they had--only she had changed--until Saturn loomed +up through the port, so close by, it looked, that she might touch it. +But Saturn had no rings. Here was change. She puzzled over it a moment, +frowning then forgot it when she recognized Jupiter again as Saturn fell +behind. Next would be Mars.... + +But what was this? Not Mars! Not any planet she knew, or had seen +before. Yet there, ahead, was Mars! A new planet, where the asteroids +had been when she left! Was this the same system? Had there been a +mistake in the calculations of the scientists and engineers who had +plotted the course of the ship? Was something wrong? + +But no matter--she was still Ninon. She was young and beautiful. And +wherever she landed there would be excitement and rushing about as she +told her story. And men would flock to her. Young, handsome men! + +She tottered back to the sling, sank gratefully into the comfort of it, +closed her eyes, and waited. + + * * * * * + +_The ship landed automatically, lowering itself to the land on a pillar +of rushing flame, needing no help from its passenger. Then the flame +died away--and the ship--and Ninon--rested, quietly, serenely, while the +rocket tubes crackled and cooled. The people outside gathered at a safe +distance from it, waiting until they could come closer and greet the +brave passengers who had voyaged through space from no one knew where._ + +_There was shouting and laughing and talking, and much speculation._ + +_"The ship is from Maris, the red planet," someone said._ + +_And another: "No, no! It is not of this system. See how the hull is +pitted--it has traveled from afar."_ + +_An old man cried: "It is a demon ship. It has come to destroy us all."_ + +_A murmur went through the crowd, and some moved farther back for +safety, watching with alert curiosity._ + +_Then an engineer ventured close, and said, "The workmanship is similar +to that in the space ship we are building, yet not the same. It is +obviously not of our Aerth."_ + +_And a savant said, "Yes, not of this Aerth. But perhaps it is from a +parallel time stream, where there is a system with planets and peoples +like us."_ + +_Then a hatch opened in the towering flank of the ship, and a ramp slid +forth and slanted to the ground. The mingled voices of the crowd +attended it. The fearful ones backed farther away. Some stood their +ground. And the braver ones moved closer._ + +_But no one appeared in the open hatch; no one came down the ramp. At +last the crowd surged forward again._ + +_Among them were a youth and a girl who stood, hand in hand, at the foot +of the ramp, gazing at it and the ship with shining eyes, then at each +other._ + +_She said, "I wonder, Robin, what it would be like to travel through far +space on such a ship as that."_ + +_He squeezed her hand and said, "We'll find out, Nina. Space travel will +come, in our time, they've always said--and there is the proof of it."_ + +_The girl rested her head against the young man's shoulder. "You'll be +one of the first, won't you, Robin? And you'll take me with you?"_ + +_He slipped an arm around her. "Of course. You know, Nina, our +scientists say that if one could travel faster than the speed of light +one could live in reverse. So when we get old we'll go out in space, +very, very fast, and we'll grow young again, together!"_ + +_Then a shout went up from the two men who had gone up the ramp into the +ship to greet whoever was aboard. They came hurrying down, and Robin and +Nina crowded forward to hear what they had to report._ + +_They were puffing from the rush of their excitement. "There is no one +alive on the ship," they cried. "Only an old, withered, white-haired +lady, lying dead ... and alone. She must have fared long and far to have +lived so long, to be so old in death. Space travel must be pleasant, +indeed. It made her very happy, very, very happy--for there is a smile +on her face."_ + + + + + +End of the Project Gutenberg EBook of Time and the Woman, by G. Gordon Dewey + +*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 40965 *** |
