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Upon examination, claimants to the +epithet will be found outside of books and of poets, in many quarters, +Nature being one of the prominent, if not the foremost. Wherever she can +get to drink her fill of sunlight she pushes forth fantastically. As for +that wandering ship of the drunken pilot, the mutinous crew and the angry +captain, called Human Nature, 'fantastical' fits it no less completely +than a continental baby's skull-cap the stormy infant. + +Our sympathies, one may fancy, will be broader, our critical acumen +shrewder, if we at once accept the thing as a part of us and worthy of +study. + +The pair of tragic comedians of whom there will be question pass under +this word as under their banner and motto. Their acts are incredible: +they drank sunlight and drove their bark in a manner to eclipse +historical couples upon our planet. Yet they do belong to history, +they breathed the stouter air than fiction's, the last chapter of them +is written in red blood, and the man pouring out that last chapter, was +of a mighty nature not unheroical, a man of the active grappling modern +brain which wrestles with facts, to keep the world alive, and can create +them, to set it spinning. + +A Faust-like legend might spring from him: he had a devil. He was the +leader of a host, the hope of a party, venerated by his followers, well +hated by his enemies, respected by the intellectual chiefs of his time, +in the pride of his manhood and his labours when he fell. And why this +man should have come to his end through love, and the woman who loved him +have laid her hand in the hand of the slayer, is the problem we have to +study, nothing inventing, in the spirit and flesh of both. To ask if it +was love is useless. Love may be celestial fire before it enters into +the systems of mortals. It will then take the character of its place of +abode, and we have to look not so much for the pure thing as for the +passion. Did it move them, hurry them, animating the giants and gnomes +of one, the elves and sprites of the other, and putting animal nature out +of its fashionable front rank? The bare railway-line of their story +tells of a passion honest enough to entitle it to be related. Nor is +there anything invented, because an addition of fictitious incidents +could never tell us how she came to do this, he to do that; or how the +comic in their natures led by interplay to the tragic issue. They are +real creatures, exquisitely fantastical, strangely exposed to the world +by a lurid catastrophe, who teach us, that fiction, if it can imagine +events and persons more agreeable to the taste it has educated, can read +us no such furrowing lesson in life. + + + + +THE TRAGIC COMEDIANS + +CHAPTER I + +An unresisted lady-killer is probably less aware that he roams the +pastures in pursuit of a coquette, than is the diligent Arachne that her +web is for the devouring lion. At an early age Clotilde von Rudiger was +dissatisfied with her conquests, though they were already numerous in her +seventeenth year, for she began precociously, having at her dawn a lively +fancy, a womanly person, and singular attractions of colour, eyes, and +style. She belonged by birth to the small aristocracy of her native +land. Nature had disposed her to coquettry, which is a pastime counting +among the arts of fence, and often innocent, often serviceable, though +sometimes dangerous, in the centres of polished barbarism known as +aristocratic societies, where nature is not absent, but on the contrary +very extravagant, tropical, by reason of her idle hours for the imbibing +of copious draughts of sunlight. The young lady of charming countenance +and sprightly manners is too much besought to choose for her choice to +be decided; the numbers beseeching prevent her from choosing instantly, +after the fashion of holiday schoolboys crowding a buffet of pastry. +These are not coquettish, they clutch what is handy: and little so is +the starved damsel of the sequestered village, whose one object of the +worldly picturesque is the passing curate; her heart is his for a nod. +But to be desired ardently of trooping hosts is an incentive to taste to +try for yourself. Men (the jury of householders empanelled to deliver +verdicts upon the ways of women) can almost understand that. And as it +happens, tasting before you have sounded the sense of your taste will +frequently mislead by a step or two difficult to retrieve: the young +coquette must then be cruel, as necessarily we kick the waters to escape +drowning: and she is not in all cases dealing with simple blocks or limp +festoons, she comes upon veteran tricksters that have a knowledge of her +sex, capable of outfencing her nascent individuality. The more +imagination she has, for a source of strength in the future days, the +more is she a prey to the enemy in her time of ignorance. + +Clotilde's younger maiden hours and their love episodes are wrapped in +the mists Diana considerately drops over her adventurous favourites. She +was not under a French mother's rigid supervision. In France the mother +resolves that her daughter shall be guarded from the risks of that +unequal rencounter between foolish innocence and the predatory. Vigilant +foresight is not so much practised where the world is less accurately +comprehended. Young people of Clotilde's upper world everywhere, and the +young women of it especially, are troubled by an idea drawn from what +they inhale and guess at in the spirituous life surrounding them, that +the servants of the devil are the valiant host, this world's elect, +getting and deserving to get the best it can give in return for a little +dashing audacity, a flavour of the Fronde in their conduct; they sin, but +they have the world; and then they repent perhaps, but they have had the +world. The world is the golden apple. Thirst for it is common during +youth: and one would think the French mother worthy of the crown of +wisdom if she were not so scrupulously provident in excluding love from +the calculations on behalf of her girl. + +Say (for Diana's mists are impenetrable and freeze curiosity) that +Clotilde was walking with Count Constantine, the brilliant Tartar trained +in Paris, when first she met Prince Marko Romaris, at the Hungarian Baths +on the borders of the Styrian highlands. The scene at all events is +pretty, and weaves a fable out of a variety of floating threads. A +stranger to the Baths, dressed in white and scarlet, sprang from his +carriage into a group of musical gypsies round an inn at the arch of the +chestnut avenue, after pulling up to listen to them for a while. The +music had seized him. He snatched bow and fiddle from one of the ring, +and with a few strokes kindled their faces. Then seating himself, on a +bench he laid the fiddle on his knee, and pinched the strings and flung +up his voice, not ceasing to roll out the spontaneous notes when Clotilde +and her cavalier, and other couples of the party, came nigh; for he was +on the tide of the song, warm in it, and loved it too well to suffer +intruders to break the flow, or to think of them. They were close by +when the last of it rattled (it was a popular song of a fiery tribe) to +its finish: He rose and saluted Clotilde, smiled and jumped back to his +carriage, sending a cry of adieu to the swarthy, lank-locked, leather- +hued circle, of which his dark oriental eyes and skin of burnished walnut +made him look an offshoot, but one of the celestial branch. + +He was in her father's reception-room when she reached home: he was +paying a visit of ceremony on behalf of his family to General von +Rudiger; which helped her to remember that he had been expected, and also +that his favourite colours were known to be white and scarlet. In those +very colours, strange to tell, Clotilde was dressed; Prince Marko had +recognized her by miraculous divination, he assured her he could have +staked his life on the guess as he bowed to her. Adieu to Count +Constantine. Fate had interposed the prince opportunely, we have to +suppose, for she received a strong impression of his coming straight from +her invisible guardian; and the stroke was consequently trenchant which +sent the conquering Tartar raving of her fickleness. She struck, like +fate, one blow. She discovered that the prince, in addition to his +beauty and sweet manners and gift of song, was good; she fell in love +with goodness, whereof Count Constantine was not an example: so she set +her face another way, soon discovering that there may be fragility in +goodness. And now first her imagination conceived the hero who was to +subdue her. Could Prince Marko be he, soft as he was, pliable, a docile +infant, burning to please her, enraptured in obeying?--the hero who would +wrestle with her, overcome and hold her bound? Siegfried could not be +dreamed in him, or a Siegfried's baby son-in-arms. She caught a glorious +image of the woman rejecting him and his rival, and it informed her that +she, dissatisfied with an Adonis, and more than a match for a famous +conqueror, was a woman of decisive and independent, perhaps unexampled, +force of character. Her idea of a spiritual superiority that could soar +over those two men, the bad and the good--the bad because of his +vileness, the good because of his frailness--whispered to her of +deserving, possibly of attracting, the best of men: the best, that is, in +the woman's view of us--the strongest, the great eagle of men, lord of +earth and air. + +One who will dominate me, she thought. + +Now when a young lady of lively intelligence and taking charm has brought +her mind to believe that she possesses force of character, she persuades +the rest of the world easily to agree with her, and so long as her +pretensions are not directly opposed to their habits of thought, her +parents will be the loudest in proclaiming it, fortifying so the maid's +presumption, which is ready to take root in any shadow of subserviency. +Her father was a gouty general of infantry in the diplomatic service, +disinclined to unnecessary disputes, out of consideration for his +vehement irritability when roused. Her mother had been one of the +beauties of her set, and was preserving an attenuated reign, through the +conversational arts, to save herself from fading into the wall. Her +brothers and sisters were not of an age to contest her lead. The temper +of the period was revolutionary in society by reflection of the state of +politics, and juniors were sturdy democrats, letting their elders know +that they had come to their inheritance, while the elders, confused by +the impudent topsy-turvy, put on the gaping mask (not unfamiliar to +history) of the disestablished conservative, whose astounded state +paralyzes his wrath. + +Clotilde maintained a decent measure in the liberty she claimed, and it +was exercised in wildness of dialogue rather than in capricious +behaviour. If her flowing tongue was imperfectly controlled, it was +because she discoursed by preference to men upon our various affairs and +tangles, and they encouraged her with the tickled wonder which bids the +bold advance yet farther into bogland. Becoming the renowned original of +her society, wherever it might be, in Germany, Italy, Southern France, +she grew chillily sensible of the solitude decreed for their heritage to +our loftiest souls. Her Indian Bacchus, as a learned professor supplied +Prince Marko's title for her, was a pet, not a companion. She to him was +what she sought for in another. As much as she pitied herself for not +lighting on the predestined man, she pitied him for having met the woman, +so that her tenderness for both inspired many signs of warm affection, +not very unlike the thing it moaned secretly the not being. For she +could not but distinguish a more poignant sorrow in the seeing of the +object we yearn to vainly than in vainly yearning to one unseen. +Dressed, to delight him, in Prince Marko's colours, the care she bestowed +on her dressing was for the one absent, the shrouded comer: so she +pleased the prince to be pleasing to her soul's lord, and this, owing to +an appearance of satisfactory deception that it bore, led to her thinking +guiltily. We may ask it: an eagle is expected, and how is he to declare +his eagleship save by breaking through our mean conventional systems, +tearing links asunder, taking his own in the teeth of vulgar ordinances? +Clotilde's imagination drew on her reading for the knots it tied and +untied, and its ideas of grandeur. Her reading was an interfusion of +philosophy skimmed, and realistic romances deep-sounded. She tried hard, +but could get no other terrible tangle for her hero's exhibition of +flaming azure divineness than the vile one of the wedded woman. Further +thinking of it, she revived and recovered; she despised the complication, +yet without perceiving how else he was to manifest himself legitimately +in a dull modern world. The rescuing her from death would be a poor +imitation of worn-out heroes. His publication of a trumpeting book fell +appallingly flat in her survey. Deeds of gallantry done as an officer in +war (defending his country too) distinguished the soldier, but failed to +add the eagle feather to the man. She had a mind of considerable soaring +scope, and eclectic: it analyzed a Napoleon, and declined the position of +his empress. The man must be a gentleman. Poets, princes, warriors, +potentates, marched before her speculative fancy unselected. + +So far, as far as she can be portrayed introductorily, she is not without +exemplars in the sex. Young women have been known to turn from us +altogether, never to turn back, so poor and shrunken, or so fleshly-bulgy +have we all appeared in the fairy jacket they wove for the right one of +us to wear becomingly. But the busy great world was round Clotilde while +she was malleable, though she might be losing her fresh ideas of the +hammer and the block, and that is a world of much solicitation to induce +a vivid girl to merge an ideal in a living image. Supposing, when she +has accomplished it, that men justify her choice, the living will retain +the colours of the ideal. We have it on record that he may seem an +eagle. + +'You talk curiously like Alvan, do you know,' a gentleman of her country +said to her as they were descending the rock of Capri, one day. He said +it musingly. + +He belonged to a circle beneath her own: the learned and artistic. She +had not heard of this Alvan, or had forgotten him; but professing +universal knowledge, especially of celebrities, besides having an envious +eye for that particular circle, which can pretend to be the choicest of +all, she was unwilling to betray her ignorance, and she dimpled her +cheek, as one who had often heard the thing said to her before. She +smiled musingly. + + + + +CHAPTER II + +'Who is the man they call Alvan?' She put the question at the first +opportunity to an aunt of hers. + +Up went five-fingered hands. This violent natural sign of horror was +comforting: she saw that he was a celebrity indeed. + +'Alvan! My dear Clotilde! What on earth can you want to know about a +creature who is the worst of demagogues, a disreputable person, and a +Jew!' + +Clotilde remarked that she had asked only who he was. 'Is he clever?' + +'He is one of the basest of those wretches who are for upsetting the +Throne and Society to gratify their own wicked passions: that is what he +is.' + +'But is he clever?' + +'Able as Satan himself, they say. He is a really dangerous, bad man. +You could not have been curious about a worse one.' + +'Politically, you mean.' + +'Of course I do.' + +The lady had not thought of any other kind of danger from a man of that +station. + +The likening of one to Satan does not always exclude meditation upon him. +Clotilde was anxious to learn in what way her talk resembled Alvan's. He +being that furious creature, she thought of herself at her wildest, which +was in her estimation her best; and consequently, she being by no means a +furious creature, though very original, she could not meditate on him +without softening the outlines given him by report; all because of the +likeness between them; and, therefore, as she had knowingly been taken +for furious by very foolish people, she settled it that Alvan was also a +victim of the prejudices he scorned. It had pleased her at times to +scorn our prejudices and feel the tremendous weight she brought on +herself by the indulgence. She drew on her recollections of the Satanic +in her bosom when so situated, and never having admired herself more +ardently than when wearing that aspect, she would have admired the man +who had won the frightful title in public, except for one thing--he was a +Jew. + +The Jew was to Clotilde as flesh of swine to the Jew. Her parents had +the same abhorrence of Jewry. One of the favourite similes of the family +for whatsoever grunted in grossness, wriggled with meanness, was Jew: and +it was noteworthy from the fact that a streak of the blood was in the +veins of the latest generation and might have been traced on the maternal +side. + +Now a meanness that clothes itself in the Satanic to terrify cowards is +the vilest form of impudence venturing at insolence; and an insolent +impudence with Jew features, the Jew nose and lips, is past endurance +repulsive. She dismissed her contemplation of Alvan. Luckily for the +gentleman who had compared her to the Jew politician, she did not meet +him again in Italy. + +She had meanwhile formed an idea of the Alvanesque in dialogue; she +summoned her forces to take aim at it, without becoming anything Jewish, +still remaining clean and Christian; and by her astonishing practice of +the art she could at any time blow up a company--scatter mature and +seasoned dames, as had they been balloons on a wind, ay, and give our +stout sex a shaking. + +Clotilde rejected another aspirant proposed by her parents, and falling +into disgrace at home, she went to live for some months with an ancient +lady who was her close relative residing in the capital city where the +brain of her race is located. There it occurred that a dashing officer +of social besides military rank, dancing with her at a ball, said, for a +comment on certain boldly independent remarks she had been making: 'I see +you know Alvan.' + +Alvan once more. + +'Indeed I do not,' she said, for she was addressing an officer high above +Alvan in social rank; and she shrugged, implying that she was almost past +contradiction of the charge. + +'Surely you must,' said he; 'where is the lady who could talk and think +as you do without knowing Alvan and sharing his views!' + +Clotilde was both startled and nettled. + +'But I do not know him at all; I have never met him, never seen him. +I am unlikely to meet the kind of person,' she protested; and she was +amazed yet secretly rejoiced on hearing him, a noble of her own circle, +and a dashing officer, rejoin: 'Come, come, let us be honest. That is +all very well for the little midges floating round us to say of Alvan, +but we two can clasp hands and avow proudly that we both know and love +the man.' + +'Were it true, I would own it at once, but I repeat, that he is a total +stranger to me,' she said, seeing the Jew under quite a different +illumination. + +'Actually?' + +'In honour.' + +'You have never met, never seen him, never read any of his writings?' + +'Never. I have heard his name, that is all.' + +'Then,' the officer's voice was earnest, 'I pity him, and you no less, +while you remain strangers, for you were made for one another. Those +ideas you have expressed, nay, the very words, are Alvan's: I have heard +him use them. He has just the same original views of society and history +as yours; they're identical; your features are not unlike . . . you talk +alike: I could fancy your voice the sister of his. You look incredulous? +You were speaking of Pompeius, and you said "Plutarch's Pompeius," and +more for it is almost incredible under the supposition that you do not +know and have never listened to Alvan--you said that Pompeius appeared to +have been decorated with all the gifts of the Gods to make the greater +sacrifice of him to Caesar, who was not personally worth a pretty woman's +"bite." Come, now--you must believe me: at a supper at Alvan's table the +other night, the talk happened to be of a modern Caesar, which led to the +real one, and from him to "Plutarch's Pompeius," as Alvan called him; and +then he said of him what you have just said, absolutely the same down to +the allusion to the bite. I assure you. And you have numbers of little +phrases in common: you are partners in aphorisms: Barriers are for those +who cannot fly: that is Alvan's. I could multiply them if I could +remember; they struck me as you spoke.' + +'I must be a shameless plagiarist,' said Clotilde. + +'Or he,' said Count Kollin. + +It is here the place of the Chorus to state that these: ideas were in the +air at the time; sparks of the Vulcanic smithy at work in politics and +pervading literature: which both Alvan and Clotilde might catch and give +out as their own, in the honest belief that the epigram was, original to +them. They were not members of a country where literature is confined to +its little paddock, without, influence on the larger field (part lawn, +part marsh) of the social world: they were readers in sympathetic action +with thinkers and literary artists. Their saying in common, 'Plutarch's +Pompeius,' may be traceable to a reading of some professorial article on +the common portrait-painting of the sage of Chaeroneia. The dainty +savageness in the 'bite' Plutarch mentions, evidently struck on a +similarity of tastes in both, as it has done with others. And in regard +to Caesar, Clotilde thought much of Caesar; she had often wished that +Caesar (for the additional pleasure in thinking of him) had been endowed +with the beauty of his rival: one or two of Plutarch's touches upon the +earlier history of Pompeius had netted her fancy, faintly (your +generosity must be equal to hearing it) stung her blood; she liked the +man; and if he had not been beaten in the end, she would have preferred +him femininely. His name was not written Pompey to her, as in English, +to sound absurd: it was a note of grandeur befitting great and lamentable +fortunes, which the young lady declined to share solely because of her +attraction to the victor, her compulsion to render unto the victor the +sunflower's homage. She rendered it as a slave: the splendid man beloved +to ecstasy by the flower of Roman women was her natural choice. + +Alvan could not be even a Caesar in person, he was a Jew. Still a Jew +of whom Count Kollin spoke so warmly must be exceptional, and of the +exceptional she dreamed. He might have the head of a Caesar. She +imagined a huge head, the cauldron of a boiling brain, anything but +bright to the eye, like a pot always on the fire, black, greasy, +encrusted, unkempt: the head of a malicious tremendous dwarf. Her hungry +inquiries in a city where Alvan was well known, brought her full +information of one who enjoyed a highly convivial reputation besides the +influence of his political leadership; but no description of his aspect +accompanied it, for where he was nightly to be met somewhere about the +city, none thought of describing him, and she did not push that question +because she had sketched him for herself, and rather wished, the more she +heard of his genius, to keep him repulsive. It appeared that his bravery +was as well proved as his genius, and a brilliant instance of it had been +given in the city not long since. He had her ideas, and he won +multitudes with them: he was a talker, a writer, and an orator; and he +was learned, while she could not pretend either to learning or to a flow +of rhetoric. She could prattle deliciously, at times pointedly, relying +on her intuition to tell her more than we get from books, and on her +sweet impudence for a richer original strain. She began to appreciate +now a reputation for profound acquirements. Learned professors of +jurisprudence and history were as enthusiastic for Alvan in their way as +Count Kollin. She heard things related of Alvan by the underbreath. +That circle below her own, the literary and artistic, idolized him; his +talk, his classic breakfasts and suppers, his undisguised ambition, his +indomitable energy, his dauntlessness and sway over her sex, were +subjects of eulogy all round her; and she heard of an enamoured baroness. +No one blamed Alvan. He had shown his chivalrous valour in defending +her. The baroness was not a young woman, and she was a hardbound Blue. +She had been the first to discover the prodigy, and had pruned, +corrected, and published him; he was one of her political works, +promising to be the most successful. An old affair apparently; but the +association of a woman's name with Alvan's, albeit the name of a veteran, +roused the girl's curiosity, leading her to think his mental and magnetic +powers must be of the very highest, considering his physical +repulsiveness, for a woman of rank to yield him such extreme devotion. +She commissioned her princely serving-man, who had followed and was never +far away from her, to obtain precise intelligence of this notorious +Alvan. + +Prince Marko did what he could to please her; he knew something of the +rumours about Alvan and the baroness. But why should his lady trouble +herself for particulars of such people, whom it could scarcely be +supposed she would meet by accident? He asked her this. Clotilde said +it was common curiosity. She read him a short lecture on the dismal +narrowness of their upper world; and on the advantage of taking an +interest in the world below them and more enlightened; a world where +ideas were current and speech was wine. The prince nodded; if she had +these opinions, it must be good for him to have them too, and he shared +them, as it were, by the touch of her hand, and for the length of time +that he touched her hand, as an electrical shock may be taken by one far +removed from the battery, susceptible to it only through the link; he was +capable of thinking all that came to him from her a blessing--shocks, +wounds and disruptions. He did not add largely to her stock of items, +nor did he fetch new colours. The telegraph wire was his model of style. +He was more or less a serviceless Indian Bacchus, standing for sign of +the beauty and vacuity of their world: and how dismally narrow that world +was, she felt with renewed astonishment at every dive out of her gold- +fish pool into the world of tides below; so that she was ready to scorn +the cultivation of the graces, and had, when not submitting to the smell, +fanciful fits of a liking for tobacco smoke--the familiar incense of +those homes where speech was wine. + +At last she fell to the asking of herself whether, in the same city with +him, often among his friends, hearing his latest intimate remarks--things +homely redolent of him as hot bread of the oven--she was ever to meet +this man upon whom her thoughts were bent to the eclipse of all others. +She desired to meet him for comparison's sake, and to criticize a popular +hero. It was inconceivable that any one popular could approach her +standard, but she was curious; flame played about him; she had some +expectation of easing a spiteful sentiment created by the recent +subjection of her thoughts to the prodigious little Jew; and some feeling +of closer pity for Prince Marko she had, which urged her to be rid of her +delusion as to the existence of a wonder-working man on our earth, that +she might be sympathetically kind to the prince, perhaps compliant, and +so please her parents, be good and dull, and please everybody, and adieu +to dreams, good night, and so to sleep with the beasts! . . . + +Calling one afternoon on a new acquaintance of the flat table-land she +liked tripping down to from her heights, Clotilde found the lady in +supreme toilette, glowing, bubbling: 'Such a breakfast, my dear!' The +costly profusion, the anecdotes, the wit, the fun, the copious draughts +of the choicest of life--was there ever anything to match it? Never in +that lady's recollection, or her husband's either, she exclaimed. And +where was the breakfast? Why, at Alvan's, to be sure; where else could +such a breakfast be? + +'And you know Alvan!' cried Clotilde, catching excitement from the lady's +flush. + +'Alvan is one of my husband's closest friends' + +Clotilde put on the playful frenzy; she made show of wringing her hands: +'Oh! happy you! you know Alvan? And everybody is to know him except +me? why? I proclaim it unjust. Because I am unmarried? I'll take a +husband to-morrow morning to be entitled to meet Alvan in the evening.' + +The playful frenzy is accepted in its exact innocent signification of +'this is my pretty wilful will and way,' and the lady responded to it +cordially; for it is pleasant to have some one to show, and pleasant to +assist some one eager to see: besides, many had petitioned her for a +sight of Alvan; she was used to the request. + +'You're not obliged to wait for to-morrow,' she said. 'Come to one of +our gatherings to-night. Alvan will be here.' + +'You invite me?' + +'Distinctly. Pray, come. He is sure to be here. We have his promise, +and Alvan never fails. Was it not Frau v. Crestow who did us the favour +of our introduction? She will bring you.' + +The Frau v. Crestow was a cousin of Clotilde's by marriage, sentimental, +but strict in her reading of the proprieties. She saw nothing wrong in +undertaking to conduct Clotilde to one of those famous gatherings of the +finer souls of the city and the race; and her husband agreed to join them +after the sitting of the Chamber upon a military-budget vote. The whole +plan was nicely arranged and went well. Clotilde dressed carefully, +letting her gold-locks cloud her fine forehead carelessly, with finishing +touches to the negligence, for she might be challenged to take part in +disputations on serious themes, and a handsome young woman who has to +sustain an argument against a man does wisely when she forearms her +beauties for a reserve, to carry out flanking movements if required. The +object is to beat him. + + + + +CHAPTER III + +Her hostess met her at the entrance of the rooms, murmuring that Alvan +was present, and was there: a direction of a nod that any quick-witted +damsel must pretend to think sufficient, so Clotilde slipped from her +companion and gazed into the recess of a doorless inner room, where three +gentlemen stood, backed by book cases, conversing in blue vapours of +tobacco. They were indistinct; she could see that one of them was of +good stature. One she knew; he was the master of the house, mildly +Jewish. The third was distressingly branded with the slum and gutter +signs of the Ahasuerus race. Three hats on his head could not have done +it more effectively. The vindictive caricatures of the God Pan, executed +by priests of the later religion burning to hunt him out of worship in +the semblance of the hairy, hoofy, snouty Evil One, were not more +loathsome. She sank on a sofa. That the man? Oh! Jew, and fifty times +over Jew! nothing but Jew! + +The three stepped into the long saloon, and she saw how veritably +magnificent was the first whom she had noticed. + +She sat at her lamb's-wool work in the little ivory frame, feeding on the +contrast. This man's face was the born orator's, with the light-giving +eyes, the forward nose, the animated mouth, all stamped for speechfulness +and enterprise, of Cicero's rival in the forum before he took the +headship of armies and marched to empire. + +The gifts of speech, enterprise, decision, were marked on his features +and his bearing, but with a fine air of lordly mildness. Alas, he could +not be other than Christian, so glorious was he in build! One could +vision an eagle swooping to his helm by divine election. So vigorously +rich was his blood that the swift emotion running with the theme as he +talked pictured itself in passing and was like the play of sheet +lightning on the variations of the uninterrupted and many-glancing +outpour. Looking on him was listening. Yes, the looking on him +sufficed. Here was an image of the beauty of a new order of godlike men, +that drained an Indian Bacchus of his thin seductions at a breath-reduced +him to the state of nursery plaything, spangles and wax, in the +contemplation of a girl suddenly plunged on the deeps of her womanhood. +She shrank to smaller and smaller as she looked. + +Be sure that she knew who he was. No, says she. But she knew. It +terrified her soul to think he was Alvan. She feared scarcely less that +it might not be he. Between these dreads of doubt and belief she played +at cat and mouse with herself, escaped from cat, persecuted mouse, teased +herself, and gloated. It is he! not he! he! not he! most certainly! +impossible!--And then it ran: If he, oh me! If another, woe me! For +she had come to see Alvan. Alvan and she shared ideas. They talked +marvellously alike, so as to startle Count Kollin: and supposing he was +not Alvan, it would be a bitter disappointment. The supposition that he +was, threatened her with instant and life-long bondage. + +Then again, could that face be the face of a Jew? She feasted. It was a +noble profile, an ivory skin, most lustrous eyes. Perchance a Jew of the +Spanish branch of the exodus, not the Polish. There is the noble Jew as +well as the bestial Gentile. There is not in the sublimest of Gentiles a +majesty comparable to that of the Jew elect. He may well think his race +favoured of heaven, though heaven chastise them still. The noble Jew is +grave in age, but in his youth he is the arrow to the bow of his fiery +eastern blood, and in his manhood he is--ay, what you see there! a figure +of easy and superb preponderance, whose fire has mounted to inspirit and +be tempered by the intellect. + +She was therefore prepared all the while for the surprise of learning +that the gentleman so unlike a Jew was Alvan; and she was prepared to +express her recordation of the circumstance in her diary with phrases of +very eminent surprise. Necessarily it would be the greatest of +surprises. + +The three, this man and his two of the tribe, upon whom Clotilde's +attention centred, with a comparison in her mind too sacred to be other +than profane (comparisons will thrust themselves on minds disordered), +dropped to the cushions of the double-seated sofa, by one side of which +she cowered over her wool-work, willing to dwindle to a pin's head if her +insignificance might enable her to hear the words of the speaker. He +pursued his talk: there was little danger of not hearing him. There was +only the danger of feeling too deeply the spell of his voice. His voice +had the mellow fulness of the clarionet. But for the subject, she could +have fancied a noontide piping of great Pan by the sedges. She had never +heard a continuous monologue so musical, so varied in music, amply +flowing, vivacious, interwovenly the brook, the stream, the torrent: a +perfect natural orchestra in a single instrument. He had notes less +pastorally imageable, notes that fired the blood, with the ranging of his +theme. The subject became clearer to her subjugated wits, until the +mental vivacity he roused on certain impetuous phrases of assertion +caused her pride to waken up and rebel as she took a glance at herself, +remembering that she likewise was a thinker, deemed in her society an +original thinker, an intrepid thinker and talker, not so very much +beneath this man in audacity of brain, it might be. He kindled her thus, +and the close-shut but expanded and knew the fretting desire to breathe +out the secret within it, and be appreciated in turn. + +The young flower of her sex burned to speak, to deliver an opinion. She +was unaccustomed to yield a fascinated ear. She was accustomed rather to +dictate and be the victorious performer, and though now she was not +anxious to occupy the pulpit--being too strictly bred to wish for a post +publicly in any of the rostra--and meant still less to dispossess the +present speaker of the place he filled so well, she yearned to join him: +and as that could not be done by a stranger approving, she panted to +dissent. A young lady cannot so well say to an unknown gentleman: 'You +have spoken truly, sir,' as, 'That is false!' for to speak in the former +case would be gratuitous, and in the latter she is excused by the moral +warmth provoking her. Further, dissent rings out finely, and approval is +a feeble murmur--a poor introduction of oneself. Her moral warmth was +ready and waiting for the instigating subject, but of course she was +unconscious of the goad within. Excitement wafted her out of herself, as +we say, or out of the conventional vessel into the waves of her troubled +nature. He had not yet given her an opportunity for dissenting; she was +compelled to agree, dragged at his chariot-wheels in headlong agreement. + +His theme was Action; the political advantages of Action; and he +illustrated his view with historical examples, to the credit of the +French, the temporary discredit of the German and English races, who tend +to compromise instead. Of the English he spoke as of a power extinct, a +people 'gone to fat,' who have gained their end in a hoard of gold and +shut the door upon bandit ideas. Action means life to the soul as to the +body. Compromise is virtual death: it is the pact between cowardice and +comfort under the title of expediency. So do we gather dead matter about +us. So are we gradually self-stifled, corrupt. The war with evil in +every form must be incessant; we cannot have peace. Let then our joy be +in war: in uncompromising Action, which need not be the less a sagacious +conduct of the war . . . . Action energizes men's brains, generates +grander capacities, provokes greatness of soul between enemies, and is +the guarantee of positive conquest for the benefit of our species. To +doubt that, is to doubt of good being to be had for the seeking. He drew +pictures of the healthy Rome when turbulent, the doomed quiescent. Rome +struggling grasped the world. Rome stagnant invited Goth and Vandal. So +forth: alliterative antitheses of the accustomed pamphleteer. At last +her chance arrived. + +His opposition sketch of Inaction was refreshed by an analysis of the +character of Hamlet. Then he reverted to Hamlet's promising youth. +How brilliantly endowed was the Prince of Denmark in the beginning! + +'Mad from the first!' cried Clotilde. + +She produced an effect not unlike that of a sudden crack of thunder. The +three made chorus in a noise of boots on the floor. + +Her hero faced about and stood up, looking at her fulgently. Their eyes +engaged without wavering on either side. Brave eyes they seemed, each +pair of them, for his were fastened on a comely girl, and she had strung +herself to her gallantest to meet the crisis. + +His friends quitted him at a motion of the elbows. He knelt on the sofa, +leaning across it, with clasped hands. + +'You are she!--So, then, is a contradiction of me to be the +commencement?' + +'After the apparition of Hamlet's father the prince was mad,' said +Clotilde hurriedly, and she gazed for her hostess, a paroxysm of alarm +succeeding that of her boldness. + +'Why should we two wait to be introduced?' said he. 'We know one +another. I am Alvan. You are she of whom I heard from Kollin: who else? +Lucretia the gold-haired; the gold-crested serpent, wise as her sire; +Aurora breaking the clouds; in short, Clotilde!' + +Her heart exulted to hear him speak her name. She laughed with a radiant +face. His being Alvan, and his knowing her and speaking her name, all +was like the happy reading of a riddle. He came round to her, bowing, +and his hand out. She gave hers: she could have said, if asked, 'For +good!' And it looked as though she had given it for good. + + + + +CHAPTER IV + +'Hamlet in due season,' said he, as they sat together. 'I shall convince +you.' + +She shook her head. + +'Yes, yes, an opinion formed by a woman is inflexible; I know that: the +fact is not half so stubborn. But at present there are two more +important actors: we are not at Elsinore. You are aware that I hoped to +meet you?' + +'Is there a periodical advertisement of your hopes?--or do they come to +us by intuition?' + +'Kollin was right!--the ways of the serpent will be serpentine. I knew +we must meet. It is no true day so long as the goddess of the morning +and the sun-god are kept asunder. I speak of myself, by what I have felt +since I heard of you.' + +'You are sure of your divinity?' + +'Through my belief in yours!' + +They bowed smiling at the courtly exchanges. + +'And tell me,' said he, 'as to meeting me . . . ?' + +She replied: 'When we are so like the rest of the world we may confess +our weakness.' + +'Unlike! for the world and I meet and part: not we two.' + +Clotilde attempted an answer: it would not come. She tried to be +revolted by his lording tone, and found it strangely inoffensive. His +lording presence and the smile that was like a waving feather on it +compelled her so strongly to submit to hear, as to put her in danger of +appearing to embrace this man's rapid advances. + +She said: 'I first heed of you at Capri.' + +'And I was at Capri seven days after you had left.' + +'You knew my name then?' + +'Be not too curious with necromancers. Here is the date--March 15th. +You departed on the 8th.' + +'I think I did. That is a year from now.' + +'Then we missed: now we meet. It is a year lost. A year is a great age! +Reflect on it and what you owe me. How I wished for a comrade at Capri! +Not a "young lady," and certainly no man. The understanding Feminine, +was my desire--a different thing from the feminine understanding, +usually. I wanted my comrade young and fair, necessarily of your sex, +but with heart and brain: an insane request, I fancied, until I heard +that you were the person I wanted. In default of you I paraded the +island with Tiberius, who is my favourite tyrant. We took the initiative +against the patricians, at my suggestion, and the Annals were written by +a plebeian demagogue, instead of by one of that party, whose account of +my extinction by command of the emperor was pathetic. He apologized in +turn for my imperial master and me, saying truly, that the +misunderstanding between us was past cement: for each of us loved the man +but hated his office; and as the man is always more in his office than he +is in himself, clearly it was the lesser portion of our friend that each +of us loved. So, I, as the weaker, had to perish, as he would have done +had I been the stronger; I admitted it, and sent my emperor my respectful +adieux, with directions for the avoiding of assassins. Mademoiselle, by +delaying your departure seven days you would have saved me from death. +You see, the official is the artificial man, and I ought to have known +there is no natural man left in us to weigh against the artificial. I +counted on the emperor's personal affection, forgetting that princes +cannot be our friends.' + +'You died bravely?' + +Clotilde entered into the extravagance with a happy simulation of zest. + +'Simply, we will say. My time had come, and I took no sturdy pose, but +let the life-stream run its course for a less confined embankment. +Sapphire sea, sapphire sky: one believes in life there, thrills with it, +when life is ebbing: ay, as warmly as when life is at the flow in our +sick and shrivelled North--the climate for dried fish! Verily the second +death of hearing that a gold-haired Lucretia had been on the island seven +days earlier, was harder to bear. Tell me frankly--the music in Italy?' + +'Amorous and martial, brainless and monotonous.' + +'Excellent!' his eyes flashed delightedly. 'O comrade of comrades! +that year lost to me will count heavily as I learn to value those I have +gained. Yes, brainless! There, in music, we beat them, as politically +France beats us. No life without brain! The brainless in Art and in +Statecraft are nothing but a little more obstructive than the dead. It +is less easy to cut a way through them. But it must be done, or the +Philistine will be as the locust in his increase, and devour the green +blades of the earth. You have been trained to shudder at the demagogue?' + +'I do not shudder,' said Clotilde. + +'A diamond from the lapidary!--Your sentences have many facets. Well, +you are conversing with a demagogue, an avowed one: a demagogue and a +Jew. You take it as a matter of course: you should exhibit some +sparkling incredulity. The Christian is like the politician in supposing +the original obverse of him everlastingly the same, after the pattern of +the monster he was originally taught to hate. But the Jew has been a +little christianized, and we have a little bejewed the Christian. So +with demagogues: as we see the conservative crumbling, we grow +conservatived. Try to think individually upon what you have to learn +collectively--that is your task. You are of the few who will be equal to +it. We are not men of blood, believe me. I am not. For example, I +detest and I decline the duel. I have done it, and proved myself a man +of metal notwithstanding. To say nothing of the inhumanity, the +senselessness of duelling revolts me. 'Tis a folly, so your nobles +practise it, and your royal wiseacre sanctions. No blood for me: and yet +I tell you that whatever opposes me, I will sweep away. How? With the +brain. If we descend to poor brute strength or brutal craft, it is from +failing in the brain: we quit the leadership of our forces, and the +descent is the beast's confession. Do I say how? Perhaps by your aid.-- +You do not start and cry: "Mine!" That is well. I have not much esteem +for non-professional actresses. They are numerous and not entertaining. +--You leave it to me to talk.' + +'Could I do better?' + +'You listen sweetly.' + +'It is because I like to hear.' + +'You have the pearly little ear of a shell on the sand.' + +'With the great sea sounding near it!' + +Alvan drew closer to her. + +'I look into your eyes and perceive that one may listen to you and speak +to you. Heart to heart, then! Yes, a sea to lull you, a sea to win you +--temperately, let us hope; by storm, if need be. My prize is found! +The good friend who did the part of Iris for us came bounding to me: "I +have discovered the wife for you, Alvan." I had previously heard of her +from another as having touched the islet of Capri. "But," said Kollin, +"she is a gold-crested serpent--slippery!" Is she? That only tells me +of a little more to be mastered. I feel my future now. Hitherto it has +been a land without sunlight. Do you know how the look of sunlight on a +land calms one? It signifies to the eye possession and repose, the end +gained--not the end to labour, just heaven! but peace to the heart's +craving, which is the renewal of strength for work, the fresh dip in the +waters of life. Conjure up your vision of Italy. Remember the meaning +of Italian light and colour: the clearness, the luminous fulness, the +thoughtful shadows. Mountain and wooded headland are solid, deep to the +eye, spirit-speaking to the mind. They throb. You carve shapes of Gods +out of that sky, the sea, those peaks. They live with you. How they +satiate the vacant soul by influx, and draw forth the troubled from its +prickly nest!--Well, and you are my sunlighted land. And you will have +to be fought for. And I see not the less repose in the prospect! Part +of you may be shifty-sand. The sands are famous for their golden +shining--as you shine. Well, then, we must make the quicksands concrete. +I have a perfect faith in you, and in the winning of you. Clearly you +will have to be fought for. I should imagine it a tough battle to come. +But as I doubt neither you nor myself, I see beyond it.--We use phrases +in common, and aphorisms, it appears. Why? but that our minds act in +unison. What if I were to make a comparison of you with Paris?--the city +of Paris, Lutetia.' + +'Could you make it good?' said Clotilde. + +He laughed and postponed it for a series of skimming discussions, like +swallow-flights from the nest beneath the eaves to the surface of the +stream, perpetually reverting to her, and provoking spirited replies, +leading her to fly with him in expectation of a crowning compliment that +must be singular and was evidently gathering confirmation in his mind +from the touchings and probings of her character on these flights. + +She was like a lady danced off her sense of fixity, to whom the +appearance of her whirling figure in the mirror is both wonderful and +reassuring; and she liked to be discussed, to be compared to anything, +for the sake of being the subject, so as to be sure it was she that +listened to a man who was a stranger, claiming her for his own; sure it +was she that by not breaking from him implied consent, she that went +speeding in this magical rapid round which slung her more and more out of +her actual into her imagined self, compelled her to proceed, denied her +the right to faint and call upon the world for aid, and catch at it, +though it was close by and at a signal would stop the terrible circling. +The world was close by and had begun to stare. She half apprehended that +fact, but she was in the presence of the irresistible. In the presence +of the irresistible the conventional is a crazy structure swept away with +very little creaking of its timbers on the flood. When we feel its power +we are immediately primitive creatures, flying anywhere in space, +indifferent to nakedness. And after trimming ourselves for it, the sage +asks your permission to add, it will be the thing we are most certain +some day to feel. Had not she trimmed herself?--so much that she had won +fame for an originality mistaken by her for the independent mind, and +perilously, for courage. She had trimmed herself and Alvan too--herself +to meet it, and Alvan to be it. Her famous originality was a trumpet +blown abroad proclaiming her the prize of the man who sounded as loudly +his esteem for the quality--in a fair young woman of good breeding. Each +had evoked the other. Their common anticipations differed in this, that +he had expected comeliness, she the reverse--an Esau of the cities; and +seeing superb manly beauty in the place of the thick-featured sodden +satyr of her miscreating fancy, the irresistible was revealed to her on +its divinest whirlwind. + +They both desired beauty; they had each stipulated for beauty before +captivity could be acknowledged; and he beholding her very attractive +comeliness, walked into the net, deeming the same a light thing to wear, +and rather a finishing grace to his armoury; but she, a trained disciple +of the conventional in social behaviour (as to the serious points and the +extremer trifles), fluttered exceedingly; she knew not what she was +doing, where her hand was, how she looked at him, how she drank in his +looks on her. Her woman's eyes had no guard they had scarcely +speculation. She saw nothing in its passing, but everything backward, +under haphazard flashes. The sight of her hand disengaged told her it +had been detained; a glance at the company reminded her that those were +men and women who had been other than phantoms; recollections of the +words she listened to, assented to, replied to, displayed the gulfs she +had crossed. And nevertheless her brain was as quick as his to press +forward to pluck the themes which would demonstrate her mental vividness +and at least indicate her force of character. The splendour of the man +quite extinguished, or over-brightened, her sense of personal charm; she +set fire to her brain to shine intellectually, treating the tale of her +fair face as a childish tale that might have a grain of truth in it, some +truth, a very little, and that little nearly worthless, merely womanly, +a poor charm of her sex. The intellectual endowment was rarer: still +rarer the moral audacity. O, to match this man's embracing +discursiveness! his ardour, his complacent energy, the full strong sound +he brought out of all subjects! He struck, and they rang. There was a +bell in everything for him; Nature gave out her cry, and significance was +on all sides of the universe; no dead stuff, no longer any afflicting +lumpishness. His brain was vivifying light. And how humane he was! how +supremely tolerant! Where she had really thought instead of flippantly +tapping at the doors of thought, or crying vagrantly for an echo, his +firm footing in the region thrilled her; and where she had felt deeper +than fancifully, his wise tenderness overwhelmed. Strange to consider: +with all his precious gifts, which must make the gift of life thrice dear +to him, he was fearless. Less by what he said than by divination she +discerned that he knew not fear. If for only that, she would have hung +to him like his shadow. She could have detected a brazen pretender. +A meaner mortal vaunting his great stores she would have written down +coxcomb. Her social training and natural perception raised her to a +height to measure the bombastical and distinguish it from the eloquently +lofty. He spoke of himself, as the towering Alp speaks out at a first +view, bidding that which he was be known. Fearless, confident, able, he +could not but be, as he believed himself, indomitable. She who was this +man's mate would consequently wed his possessions, including courage. +Clotilde at once reached the conclusion of her having it in an equal +degree. Was she not displaying it? The worthy people of the company +stared, as she now perceived, and she was indifferent; her relatives were +present without disturbing her exaltation. She wheeled above their heads +in the fiery chariot beside her sun-god. It could not but be courage, +active courage, superior to her previous tentative steps--the verbal +temerities she had supposed so dauntless. For now she was in action, now +she was being tried to match the preacher and incarnation of the virtues +of action! + +Alvan shaped a comparison of her with Paris, his beloved of cities--the +symbolized goddess of the lightning brain that is quick to conceive, +eager to realize ideas, impassioned for her hero, but ever putting him to +proof, graceful beyond all rhyme, colloquial as never the Muse; light in +light hands, yet valiant unto death for a principle; and therefore not +light, anything but light in strong hands, very stedfast rather: and oh! +constantly entertaining. + +The comparison had to be strained to fit the living lady's shape. Did he +think it, or a dash of something like it? + +His mood was luxurious. He had found the fair and youthful original +woman of refinement and station desired by him. He had good reason to +wish to find her. Having won a name, standing on firm ground, with +promise of a great career, chief of what was then taken for a growing +party and is not yet a collapsed, nor will be, though the foot on it is +iron, his youth had flown under the tutelage of an extraordinary Mentor, +whom to call Athene robs the goddess of her personal repute for wisdom in +conduct, but whose head was wise, wise as it was now grey. Verily she +was original; and a grey original should seem remarkable above a blooming +blonde. If originality in woman were our prime request, the grey should +bear the palm. She has gone through the battle, retaining the standard +she carried into it, which is a victory. Alas, that grey, so spirit- +touching in Art, should be so wintry in reality! + +The discovery of a feminine original breathing Spring, softer, warmer +than the ancient one, gold instead of snowcrested, and fully as intrepid +as devoted, was an immense joy to Alvan. He took it luxuriously because +he believed in his fortune, a kind of natal star, the common heritage of +the adventurous, that brought him his good things in time, in return for +energetic strivings in a higher direction apart from his natural +longings. + +Fortune had delayed, he had wintered long. All the sweeter was the +breath of the young Spring. That exquisite new sweetness robed Clotilde +in the attributes of the person dreamed of for his mate; and deductively +assuming her to possess them, he could not doubt his power of winning +her. Barriers are for those who cannot fly. The barriers were palpable +about a girl of noble Christian birth: so was the courage in her which +would give her wings, he thought, coming to that judgement through the +mixture of his knowledge of himself and his perusal of her exterior. +He saw that she could take an impression deeply enough to express it +sincerely, and he counted on it, sympathetically endowing her with his +courage to support the originality she was famed for. + +They were interrupted between-whiles by weariful men running to Alvan for +counsel on various matters--how to play their game, or the exact phrasing +of some pregnant sentence current in politics or literature. He +satisfied them severally and shouldered them away, begging for peace +that night. Clotilde corroborated his accurate recital of the lines of +a contested verse of the incomparable Heinrich, and they fell to capping +verses of the poet-lucid metheglin, with here and there no dubious +flavour of acid, and a lively sting in the tail of the honey. Sentiment, +cynicism, and satin impropriety and scabrous, are among those verses, +where pure poetry has a recognized voice; but the lower elements +constitute the popularity in a cultivated society inclining to wantonness +out of bravado as well as by taste. Alvan, looking indolently royal and +royally roguish, quoted a verse that speaks of the superfluousness of a +faithless lady's vowing bite: + + 'The kisses were in the course of things, + The bite was a needless addition.' + +Clotilde could not repress her reddening--Count Kollin had repeated too +much! She dropped her eyes, with a face of sculpture, then resumed their +chatter. He spared her the allusion to Pompeius. She convinced him of +her capacity for reserve besides intrepidity, and flattered him too with +her blush. She could dare to say to Kollin what her scarlet sensibility +forbade her touching on with him: not that she would not have had an airy +latitude with him to touch on what she pleased: he liked her for her +boldness and the cold peeping of the senses displayed in it: he liked +also the distinction she made. + +The cry to supper conduced to a further insight of her adaptation to his +requirements in a wife. They marched to the table together, and sat +together, and drank a noble Rhine wine together--true Rauenthal. His +robustness of body and soul inspired the wish that his well-born wife +might be, in her dainty fashion, yet honestly and without mincing, his +possible boonfellow: he and she, glass in hand, thanking the bountiful +heavens, blessing mankind in chorus. It belonged to his hearty dream of +the wife he would choose, were she to be had. The position of +interpreter of heaven's benevolence to mankind through his own enjoyment +of the gifts, was one that he sagaciously demanded for himself, sharing +it with the Philistine unknowingly; and to have a wife no less wise than +he on this throne of existence was a rosy exaltation. Clotilde kindled +to the hint of his festival mood of Solomon at the banquet. She was not +devoid of a discernment of flavours; she had heard grave judges at her +father's board profoundly deliver their verdicts upon this and that +vineyard and vintage; and it is a note of patriotism in her country to be +enthusiastic for wine of the Rhine: she was, moreover, thirsty from much +talking and excitement. She drank her glass relishingly, declaring the +wine princely. Alvan smacked his hands in a rapture: 'You are not for +the extract of raisin our people have taken to copy from French +Sauternes, to suit a female predilection for sugar?' + +'No, no, the grape for me!' said she: 'the Rhine grape with the elf in +it, and the silver harp and the stained legend!' + +'Glorious!' + +He toasted the grape. 'Wine of the grape is the young bride--the young +sun-bride! divine, and never too sweet, never cloying like the withered +sun-dried, with its one drop of concentrated sugar, that becomes ten of +gout. No raisin-juice for us! None of their too-long-on-the-stem +clusters! We are for the blood of the grape in her youth, her heaven- +kissing ardour. I have a cellar charged with the bravest of the Rhine. +We--will we not assail it, bleed it in the gallant days to come? we two!' +The picture of his bride and him drinking the sun down after a day of +savage toil was in the shout--a burst unnoticed in the incessantly +verbalizing buzz of a continental supper-table. Clotilde acquiesced: +she chimed to it like a fair boonfellow of the rollicking faun. She was +realizing fairyland. + +They retired to the divan-corner where it was you-and-I between them as +with rivulets meeting and branching, running parallel, uniting and +branching again, divided by the theme, but unending in the flow of the +harmony. So ran their chirping arguments and diversions. The carrying +on of a prolonged and determined you-and-I in company intimates to those +undetermined floating atoms about us that a certain sacred something is +in process of formation, or has formed; and people looked; and looked +hard at the pair, and at one another afterward: none approached them. +The Signor conjuror who has a thousand arts for conjuring with nature was +generally considered to have done that night his most ancient and +reputedly fabulous trick--the dream of poets, rarely witnessed anywhere, +and almost too wonderful for credence in a haunt of our later +civilization. Yet there it was: the sudden revelation of the intense +divinity to a couple fused in oneness by his apparition, could be +perceived of all having man and woman in them; love at first sight, was +visible. 'Who ever loved that loved not at first sight?' And if nature, +character, circumstance, and a maid clever at dressing her mistress's +golden hair, did prepare them for Love's lightning-match, not the less +were they proclaimingly alight and in full blaze. Likewise, Time, +imperious old gentleman though we know him to be, with his fussy +reiterations concerning the hour for bed and sleep, bowed to the magical +fact of their condition, and forbore to warn them of his passing from +night to day. He had to go, he must, he has to be always going, but as +long as he could he left them on their bank by the margin of the stream, +where a shadow-cycle of the eternal wound a circle for them and allowed +them to imagine they had thrust that old driver of the dusty high-road +quietly out of the way. They were ungrateful, of course, when the +performance of his duties necessitated his pulling them up beside him +pretty smartly, but he uttered no prophecy of ever intending to rob them +of the celestial moments they had cut from him and meant to keep between +them 'for ever,' and fresh. + +The hour was close on the dawn of a March morning. Alvan assisted at the +cloaking and hooding of Clotilde. Her relatives were at hand; they hung +by while he led her to the stairs and down into a spacious moonlight that +laid the traceries of the bare tree-twigs clear-black on grass and stone. + +'A night to head the Spring!' said Alvan. 'Come.' + +He lifted her off the steps and set her on the ground, as one who had an +established right to the privilege and she did not contest it, nor did +her people, so kingly was he, arrayed in the thunder of the bolt which +had struck the pair. These things, and many things that islands know not +of, are done upon continents, where perhaps traditions of the awfulness +of Love remain more potent in society; or it may be, that an island +atmosphere dispossesses the bolt of its promptitude to strike, or the +breastplates of the islanders are strengthened to resist the bolt, or no +tropical heat is there to create and launch it, or nothing is to be seen +of it for the haziness, or else giants do not walk there. But even where +he walked, amid a society intellectually fostering sentiment, in a land +bowing to see the simplicity of the mystery paraded, Alvan's behaviour +was passing heteroclite. He needed to be the kingly fellow he was, +crowned by another kingly fellow--the lord of hearts--to impose it +uninterruptedly. 'She is mine; I have won her this night!' his bearing +said; and Clotilde's acquiesced; and the worthy couple following them had +to exhibit a copy of the same, much wondering. Partly by habit, and of +his natural astuteness, Alvan peremptorily usurped a lead that once taken +could not easily be challenged, and would roll him on a good tideway +strong in his own passion and his lady's up against the last defences-- +her parents. A difficulty with them was foreseen. What is a difficulty! +--a gate in the hunting-field: an opponent on a platform: a knot beneath +a sword: the dam to waters that draw from the heavens. Not desiring it +in this case--it would have been to love the difficulty better than the +woman--he still enjoyed the bracing prospect of a resistance, if only +because it was a portion of the dowry she brought him. Good soldiers +(who have won their grades) are often of a peaceful temper and would not +raise an invocation to war, but a view of the enemy sets their pugnacious +forces in motion, the bugle fills their veins with electrical fire, till +they are as racers on the race-course.--His inmost hearty devil was glad +of a combat that pertained to his possession of her, for battle gives the +savour of the passion to win, and victory dignifies a prize: he was, +however, resolved to have it, if possible, according to the regular +arrangement of such encounters, formal, without snatchings, without rash +violence; a victory won by personal ascendancy, reasoning eloquence. + +He laughed to hear her say, in answer to a question as to her present +feelings: 'I feel that I am carried away by a centaur!' The comparison +had been used or implied to him before. + +'No!' said he, responding to a host of memories, to shake them off, 'no +more of the quadruped man! You tempt him--may I tell you that? Why, +now, this moment, at the snap of my fingers, what is to hinder our taking +the short cut to happiness, centaur and nymph? One leap and a gallop, +and we should be into the morning, leaving night to grope for us, parents +and friends to run about for the wits they lose in running. But no! No +more scandals. That silver moon invites us by its very spell of bright +serenity, to be mad: just as, when you drink of a reverie, the more +prolonged it is the greater the readiness for wild delirium at the end of +the draught. But no!' his voice deepened--'the handsome face of the orb +that lights us would be well enough were it only a gallop between us two. +Dearest, the orb that lights us two for a lifetime must be taken all +round, and I have been on the wrong side of the moon + +I have seen the other face of it--a visage scored with regrets, dead +dreams, burnt passions, bald illusions, and the like, the like!--sunless, +waterless, without a flower! It is the old volcano land: it grows one +bitter herb: if ever you see my mouth distorted you will know I am +revolving a taste of it; and as I need the antidote you give, I will not +be the centaur to win you, for that is the land where he stables himself; +yes, there he ends his course, and that is the herb he finishes by +pasturing on. You have no dislike of metaphors and parables? We Jews +are a parable people.' + +'I am sure I do understand . . .' said Clotilde, catching her breath to +be conscientious, lest he should ask her for an elucidation. + +'Provided always that the metaphor be not like the metaphysician's +treatise on Nature: a torch to see the sunrise!--You were going to add?' + +'I was going to say, I think I understand, but you run away with me +still.' + +'May the sensation never quit you!' + +'It will not.' + +'What a night !' Alvan raised his head: 'A night cast for our first +meeting and betrothing! You are near home?' + +'The third house yonder in the moonlight.' + +'The moonlight lays a white hand on it!' + +'That is my window sparkling.' + +'That is the vestal's cresset. Shall I blow it out?' + +'You are too far. And it is a celestial flame, sir!' + +'Celestial in truth! My hope of heaven! Dian's crescent will be ever on +that house for me, Clotilde. I would it were leagues distant, or the +door not forbidden!' + +'I could minister to a good knight humbly.' + +Alvan bent to her, on a sudden prompting: + +'When do father and mother arrive?' + +'To-morrow.' + +He took her hand. 'To-morrow, then! The worst of omens is delay.' + +Clotilde faintly gasped. Could he mean it?--he of so evil a name in her +family and circle! + +Her playfulness and pleasure in the game of courtliness forsook her. + +'Tell me the hour when it will be most convenient to them to receive me,' +said Alvan. + +She stopped walking in sheer fright. + +'My father--my mother?' she said, imaging within her the varied horror of +each and the commotion. + +'To-morrow or the day after--not later. No delays! You are mine, we are +one; and the sooner my cause is pleaded the better for us both. If I +could step in and see them this instant, it would be forestalling +mischances. Do you not see, that time is due to us, and the minutes are +our gold slipping away?' + +She shrank her hand back: she did not wish to withdraw the hand, only to +shun the pledge it signified. He opened an abyss at her feet, and in +deadly alarm of him she exclaimed: 'Oh! not yet; not immediately.' She +trembled, she made her petition dismal by her anguish of speechlessness. +'There will be such . . . not yet! Perhaps later. They must not be +troubled yet--at present. I am . . . I cannot--pray, delay!' + +'But you are mine!' said Alvan. 'You feel it as I do. There can be no +real impediment?' + +She gave an empty sigh that sought to be a run of entreaties. In fear +of his tongue she caught at words to baffle it, senseless of their +imbecility: 'Do not insist: yes, in time: they will--they--they may. +My father is not very well . . . my mother: she is not very well. +They are neither of them very well: not at present!--Spare them at +present.' + +To avoid being carried away, she flung herself from the centaur's back +to the disenchanting earth; she separated herself from him in spirit, +and beheld him as her father and mother and her circle would look on this +pretender to her hand, with his lordly air, his Jew blood, and his +hissing reputation--for it was a reputation that stirred the snakes and +the geese of the world. She saw him in their eyes, quite coldly: which +imaginative capacity was one of the remarkable feats of cowardice, active +and cold of brain even while the heart is active and would be warm. + +He read something of her weakness. 'And supposing I decide that it must +be?' + +'How can I supplicate you!' she replied with a shiver, feeling that she +had lost her chance of slipping from his grasp, as trained women of the +world, or very sprightly young wits know how to do at the critical +moment: and she had lost it by being too sincere. Her cowardice appeared +to her under that aspect. + +'Now I perceive that the task is harder,' said Alvan, seeing her huddled +in a real dismay. 'Why will you not rise to my level and fear nothing! +The way is clear: we have only to take the step. Have you not seen +tonight that we are fated for one another? It is your destiny, and +trifling with destiny is a dark business. Look at me. Do you doubt my +having absolute control of myself to bear whatever they put on me to +bear, and hold firmly to my will to overcome them! Oh! no delays.' + +'Yes!' she cried; 'yes, there must be.' + +'You say it?' + +The courage to repeat her cry was wanting. + +She trembled visibly: she could more readily have bidden him bear her +hence than have named a day for the interview with her parents; but +desperately she feared that he would be the one to bid; and he had this +of the character of destiny about him, that she felt in him a maker of +facts. He was her dream in human shape, her eagle of men, and she felt +like a lamb in the air; she had no resistance, only terror of his power, +and a crushing new view of the nature of reality. + +'I see!' said he, and his breast fell. Her timid inability to join with +him for instant action reminded him that he carried many weights: a bad +name among her people and class, and chains in private. He was old +enough to strangle his impulses, if necessary, or any of the brood less +fiery than the junction of his passions. 'Well, well!--but we might so +soon have broken through the hedge into the broad highroad! It is but to +determine to do it--to take the bold short path instead of the wearisome +circuit. Just a little lightning in the brain and tightening of the +heart. Battles are won in that way: not by tender girls! and she is a +girl, and the task is too much for her. So, then, we are in your hands, +child! Adieu, and let the gold-crested serpent glide to her bed, and +sleep, dream, and wake, and ask herself in the morning whether she is not +a wedded soul. Is she not a serpent? gold-crested, all the world may +see; and with a mortal bite, I know. I have had the bite before the +kisses. That is rather an unjust reversal of the order of things. +Apropos, Hamlet was poisoned--ghost-poisoned.' + +'Mad, he was mad!' said Clotilde, recovering and smiling. + +'He was born bilious; he partook of the father's constitution, not the +mother's. High-thoughted, quick-nerved to follow the thought, +reflective, if an interval yawned between his hand and the act, he was by +nature two-minded: as full of conscience as a nursing mother that sleeps +beside her infant:--she hears the silent beginning of a cry. Before the +ghost walked he was an elementary hero; one puff of action would have +whiffed away his melancholy. After it, he was a dizzy moralizer, waiting +for the winds to blow him to his deed-ox out. The apparition of his +father to him poisoned a sluggish run of blood, and that venom in the +blood distracted a head steeped in Wittenberg philosophy. With +metaphysics in one and poison in the other, with the outer world opened +on him and this world stirred to confusion, he wore the semblance of +madness; he was throughout sane; sick, but never with his reason +dethroned.' + +'Nothing but madness excuses his conduct to Ophelia!' + +'Poison in the blood is a pretty good apology for infidelity to a lady.' + +' No!' + +'Well, to an Ophelia of fifty?' said Alvan. + +Clotilde laughed, not perfectly assured of the wherefore, but pleased to +be able to laugh. Her friends were standing at the house door, farewells +were spoken, Alvan had gone. And then she thought of the person that +Ophelia of fifty might be, who would have to find a good apology for him +in his dose of snake-bite, or love of a younger woman whom he termed +gold-crested serpent. + +He was a lover, surely a lover: he slid off to some chance bit of +likeness to himself in every subject he discussed with her. + +And she? She speeded recklessly on the back of the centaur when he had +returned to the state of phantom and the realities he threatened her with +were no longer imminent. + + + + +CHAPTER V + +Clotilde was of the order of the erring who should by rights have a short +sermon to preface an exposure of them, administering the whip to her own +sex and to ours, lest we scorn too much to take an interest in her. The +exposure she had done for herself, and she has not had the art to frame +her apology. The day after her meeting, with her eagle, Alvan, she saw +Prince Marko. She was gentle to him, in anticipation of his grief; she +could hardly be ungentle on account of his obsequious beauty, and when +her soft eyes and voice had thrilled him to an acute sensibility to the +blow, honourably she inflicted it. + +'Marko, my friend, you know that I cannot be false; then let me tell you +I yesterday met the man who has but to lift his hand and I go to him, and +he may lead me whither he will.' + +The burning eyes of her Indian Bacchus fixed on her till their brightness +moistened and flashed. + +Whatever was for her happiness he bowed his head to, he said. He knew +the man. + +Her duty was thus performed; she had plighted herself. For the first few +days she was in dread of meeting, seeing, or hearing of Alvan. She +feared the mention of a name that rolled the world so swiftly. Her +parents had postponed their coming, she had no reason for instant alarm; +it was his violent earnestness, his imperial self-confidence that she +feared, as nervous people shrink from cannon: and neither meeting, +seeing, nor hearing of him, she began to yearn, like the child whose +curiosity is refreshed by a desire to try again the startling thing which +frightened it. Her yearning grew, the illusion of her courage flooded +back; she hoped he would present himself to claim her, marvelled that he +did not, reproached him; she could almost have scorned him for listening +to the hesitations of the despicable girl so little resembling what she +really was--a poor untried girl, anxious only on behalf of her family to +spare them a sudden shock. Remembering her generous considerations in +their interests, she thought he should have known that the creature he +called a child would have yielded upon supplication to fly with him. +Her considerateness for him too, it struck her next, was the cause of +her seeming cowardly, and the man ought to have perceived it and put it +aside. He should have seen that she could be brave, and was a mate for +him. And if his shallow experience of her wrote her down nerveless, his +love should be doing. + +Was it love? Her restoration to the belief in her possessing a decided +will whispered of high achievements she could do in proof of love, had +she the freedom of a man. She would not have listened (it was quite +true) to a silly supplicating girl; she would not have allowed an +interval to yawn after the first wild wooing of her. Prince Marko loved. +Yes, that was love! It failed in no sign of the passion. She set +herself to study it in Marko, and was moved by many sentiments, numbering +among them pity, thankfulness, and the shiver of a feeling between +admiration and pathetic esteem, like that the musician has for a precious +instrument giving sweet sound when shattered. He served her faithfully, +in spite of his distaste for some of his lady's commissions. She had to +get her news of Alvan through Marko. He brought her particulars of the +old trial of Alvan, and Alvan's oration in defence of himself for a +lawless act of devotion to the baroness; nothing less than the +successfully scheming to wrest by force from that lady's enemy a document +precious to her lawful interests. It was one of those cases which have a +really high gallant side as well as a bad; an excellent case for +rhetoric. Marko supplied the world's opinion of the affair, bravely +owning it to be not unfavourable. Her worthy relatives, the Frau v. +Crestow and husband, had very properly furnished a report to the family +of the memorable evening; and the hubbub over it, with the epithets +applied to Alvan, intimated how he would have been received on a visit +to demand her in marriage. There was no chance of her being allowed to +enter houses where this 'rageing demagogue and popular buffoon' was a +guest; his name was banished from her hearing, so she was compelled to +have recourse to Marko. Unable to take such services without rewarding +him, she fondled: it pained her to see him suffer. Those who toss crumbs +to their domestic favourites will now and then be moved to toss meat, +which is not so good for them, but the dumb mendicant's delight in it is +winning, and a little cannot hurt. Besides, if any one had a claim on +her it was the prince; and as he was always adoring, never importunate, +he restored her to the pedestal she had been really rudely shaken from by +that other who had caught her up suddenly into the air, and dropped her! +A hand abandoned to her slave rewarded him immeasurably. A heightening +of the reward almost took his life. In the peacefulness of dealing with +a submissive love that made her queenly, the royal, which plucked her +from throne to footstool, seemed predatory and insolent. Thus, after +that scene of 'first love,' in which she had been actress, she became +almost (with an inward thrill or two for the recovering of him) +reconciled to the not seeing of the noble actor; for nothing could erase +the scene--it was historic; and Alvan would always be thought of as a +delicious electricity. She and Marko were together on the summer +excursion of her people, and quite sisterly, she could say, in her +delicate scorn of his advantages and her emotions. True gentlemen are +imperfectly valued when they are under the shadow of giants; but still +Clotilde's experience of a giant's manners was favourable to the liberty +she could enjoy in a sisterly intimacy of this kind, rather warmer than +her word for it would imply. She owned that she could better live the +poetic life--that is, trifle with fire and reflect on its charms in the +society of Marko. He was very young, he was little more than an +adolescent, and safely timid; a turn of her fingers would string or +slacken him. One could play on him securely, thinking of a distant day +--and some shipwreck of herself for an interlude--when he might be made +happy. + +Her strangest mood of the tender cruelty was when the passion to +anatomize him beset her. The ground of it was, that she found him in her +likeness, adoring as she adored, and a similar loftiness; now grovelling, +now soaring; the most radiant of beings, the most abject; and the +pleasure she had of the sensational comparison was in an alteregoistic +home she found in him, that allowed of her gathering a picked self- +knowledge, and of her saying: 'That is like me: that is very like me: +that is terribly like': up to the point where the comparison wooed her no +longer with an agreeable lure of affinity, but nipped her so shrewdly as +to force her to say: 'That is he, not I': and the vivisected youth +received the caress which quickened him to wholeness at a touch. It was +given with impulsive tenderness, in pity of him. Anatomy is the title +for the operation, because the probing of herself in another, with the +liberty to cease probing as soon as it hurt her, allowed her while unhurt +to feel that she prosecuted her researches in a dead body. The moment +her strong susceptibility to the likeness shrank under a stroke of pain, +she abstained from carving, and simultaneously conscious that he lived, +she was kind to him. + +'This love of yours, Marko--is it so deep?' + +'I love you.' + +'You think me the highest and best?' + +'You are.' + +'So deep that you could bear anything from me?' + +'Try me!' + +'Unfaithfulness?' + +'You would be you!' + +'Do you not say that because you cannot suspect evil of me?' + +'Let me only see you!' + +'You are sure that happiness would not smother it?' + +'Has it done so yet?' + +'Though you know I am a serpent to that man's music?' + +'Ah, heaven! Oh!--do not say music. Yes! though anything!' + +'And if ever you were to witness the power of his just breathing to me?' + +'I would . . . . Ah!' + +' What? If you saw his music working the spell?--even the first notes of +his prelude!' + +'I would wait' + +'It might be for long.' + +'I would eat my heart.' + +'Bitter! bitter!' + +'I would wait till he flung you off, and kneel to you.' + +She had a seizure of the nerves. + +The likeness between them was, she felt, too flamingly keen to be looked +at further. She reached to the dim idea of some such nauseous devotion, +and took a shot in her breast as she did so, and abjured it, and softened +to her victim. Clotilde opened her arms, charming away her wound, as she +soothed him, both by the act of soothing and the reflection that she +could not be so very like one whom she pitied and consoled. + +She was charitably tender. If it be thought that she was cruel to +excess, plead for her the temptation to simple human nature at sight of a +youth who could be precipitated into the writhings of dissolution, and +raised out of it by a smile. This young man's responsive spirit acted on +her as the discovery of specifics for restoring soundness to the frame +excites the brilliant empiric: he would slay us with benevolent soul to +show the miracle of our revival. Worship provokes the mortal goddess to +a manifestation of her powers; and really the devotee is full half to +blame. + +She had latterly been thinking of Alvan's rejection of the part of +centaur; and his phrase, the quadruped man, breathed meaning. He was to +gain her lawfully after dominating her utterly. That was right, but it +levelled imagination. There is in the sentimental kingdom of Love a form +of reasoning, by which a lady of romantic notions who is dominated +utterly, will ask herself why she should be gained lawfully: and she is +moved to do so by the consideration that if the latter, no necessity can +exist for the former: and the reverse. In the union of the two +conditions she sees herself slavishly domesticated. With her Indian +Bacchus imagination rose, for he was pliant: she had only to fancy, and +he was beside her.--Quick to the saddle, away! The forest of terrors is +ahead; they are at the verge of it; a last hamlet perches on its borders; +the dwellers have haunted faces; the timbers of their huts lean to an +upright in wry splinters; warnings are moaned by men and women with the +voice of a night-wind; but on and on! the forest cannot be worse than a +world defied. They drain a cup of milk apiece and they spur, for this is +the way to the golden Indian land of the planted vine and the lover's +godship.--Ludicrous! There is no getting farther than the cup of milk +with Marko. They curvet and caper to be forward unavailingly. It should +be Alvan to bring her through the forest to the planted vine in sunland. +Her splendid prose Alvan could do what the sprig of poetry can but +suggest. Never would malicious fairy in old woman's form have offered +Alvan a cup of milk to paralyze his bride's imagination of him +confronting perils. Yet, O shameful contrariety of the fates! he who +could, will not; he who would, is incapable. Let it not be supposed that +the desire of her bosom was to be run away with in person. Her simple +human nature wished for the hero to lift her insensibly over the +difficult opening chapter of the romance--through 'the forest,' or half +imagined: that done, she felt bold enough to meet the unimagined, which, +as there was no picture of it to terrify her, seemed an easy gallop into +sunland.--Yes, but in the grasp of a great prose giant, with the poetic +departed! Naturally she turned to caress the poetic while she had it +beside her. And it was a wonder to observe the young prince's heavenly +sensitiveness to every variation of her moods. He knew without hearing +when she had next seen Alvan, though it had not been to speak to him. He +looked, and he knew. The liquid darkness of his large eastern eyes cast +a light that brought her heart out: she confessed it, and she comforted +him. The sweetest in the woman caused her double-dealing. + +Now she was aware that Alvan moved behind the screen concealing him. +A common friend of Alvan and her family talked to her of him. He was an +eminent professor, a middleaged, grave and honourable man, not ignorant +that her family entertained views opposed to the pretensions of such a +man as the demagogue and Jew. Nevertheless Alvan could persuade him to +abet the scheme for his meeting Clotilde; nay, to lead to it; ultimately +to allow his own house to be their place of meeting. Alvan achieved the +first of the steps unassisted. Whether or not his character stood well +with a man of the world, his force of character, backed by solid +attainments in addition to brilliant gifts, could win a reputable citizen +and erudite to support him. Rhetoric in a worthy cause has good chances +of carrying the gravest, and the cause might reasonably seem excellent to +the professor when one promising fair to be the political genius of his +time, but hitherto not the quietest of livers, could make him believe +that marriage with this girl would be his clear salvation. The second +step was undesignedly Clotilde's. + +She was on the professor's arm at one of the great winter balls of her +conductor's brethren in the law, and he said: 'Alvan is here.' She +answered: 'No, he has not yet come.'--How could she tell that he was not +present in the crowd? + +'Has he come now?' said the professor. + +'No.' + +And no Alvan was discernible. + +'Now?' + +'Not yet.' + +The professor stared about. She waited. + +'Now he has come; he is in the room now,' said Clotilde. + +Alvan was perceived. He stood in the centre of the throng surrounding +him to buzz about some recent pamphlet. + +She could well play at faith in his magnetization of her, for as by +degrees she made herself more nervously apprehensive by thinking of him, +it came to an overclouding and then a panic; and that she took for the +physical sign of his presence, and by that time, the hour being late, +Alvan happened to have arrived. The touch of his hand, the instant +naturalness in their speaking together after a long separation, as if +there had not been an interval, confirmed her notion of his influence on +her, almost to the making it planetary. And a glance at the professor +revealed how picturesque it was. Alvan and he murmured aside. They +spoke of it: What wonder that Alvan, though he saw Prince Marko whirl her +in the dance, and keep her to the measure--dancing like a song of the +limbs in his desperate poor lover's little flitting eternity of the +possession of her--should say, after she had been led back to her +friends: 'That is he, then! one of the dragons guarding my apple of the +Hesperides, whom I must brush away.' + +'He?' replied Clotilde, sincerely feeling Marko to be of as fractional a +weight as her tone declared him. 'Oh, he is my mute, harmless, he does +not count among the dragons.' + +But there had been, notwithstanding the high presumption of his remark, +a manful thickness of voice in Alvan's 'That is he!' The rivals had +fastened a look on one another, wary, strong, and summary as the +wrestlers' first grapple. In fire of gaze, Marko was not outdone. + +'He does not count? With those eyes of his?' Alvan exclaimed. He knew +something of the sex, and spied from that point of knowledge into the +character of Clotilde; not too venturesomely, with the assistance of +rumour, hazarding the suspicion which he put forth as a certainty, and +made sharply bitter to himself in proportion to the belief in it that his +vehemence engendered: 'I know all--without exception; all, everything; +all! I repeat. But what of it, if I win you? as I shall--only aid me a +little.' + +She slightly surprised the man by not striving to attenuate the import +of the big and surcharged All: but her silence bore witness to his +penetrative knowledge. Dozens of amorous gentlemen, lovers, of excellent +substance, have before now prepared this peculiar dose for themselves-- +the dose of the lady silent under a sort of pardoning grand accusation; +and they have had to drink it, and they have blinked over the tonic +draught with such power of taking a bracing as their constitutions could +summon. At no moment of their quaint mutual history are the sexes to be +seen standing more acutely divided. Well may the lady be silent; her +little sins are magnified to herself to the proportion of the greatness +of heart forgiving her; and that, with his mysterious penetration and a +throb of her conscience, holds her tongue-tied. She does not imagine the +effect of her silence upon the magnanimous wretch. Some of these lovers, +it has to be stated in sadness for the good name of man, have not +preserved an attitude that said so nobly, 'Child, thou art human--thou +art woman!' They have undone it and gone to pieces with an injured +lover's babble of persecuting inquiries for confessions. Some, on the +contrary, retaining the attitude, have been unable to digest the tonic; +they did not prepare their systems as they did their dose, possibly +thinking the latter a supererogatory heavy thump on a trifle, the which +was performed by them artfully for a means of swallowing and getting that +obnoxious trifle well down. These are ever after love's dyspeptics. +Very few indeed continue at heart in harmony with their opening note to +the silent fair, because in truth the general anticipation is of her +proclaiming, if not angelical innocence, a softly reddened or blush-rose +of it, where the little guiltiness lies pathetic on its bed of white. + +Alvan's robustness of temper, as a conqueror pleased with his capture, +could inspirit him to feel as he said it: + +'I know all; what matters that to me?' Even her silence, extending the +'all' beyond limits, as it did to the over-knowing man, who could number +these indicative characteristics of the young woman: impulsive, without +will, readily able to lie: her silence worked no discord in him. He +would have remarked, that he was not looking out for a saint, but rather +for a sprightly comrade, perfectly feminine, thoroughly mastered, young, +graceful, comely, and a lady of station. Once in his good keeping, her +lord would answer for her. And this was a manfully generous view of the +situation. It belongs to the robustness of the conqueror's mood. But +how of his opinion of her character in the fret of a baffling, a repulse, +a defeat? Supposing the circumstances not to have helped her to shine as +a heroine, while he was reduced to appear no hero to himself! Wise are +the mothers who keep vigilant personal watch over their girls, were it +only to guard them at present, from the gentleman's condescending +generosity, until he has become something more than robust in his ideas +of the sex--say, for lack of the ringing word, fraternal. + +Clotilde never knew, and Alvan would have been unable to date, the origin +of the black thing flung at her in time to come--when the man was +frenzied, doubtless, but it was in his mind, and more than froth of +madness. + +After the night of the ball they met beneath the sanctioning roof of the +amiable professor; and on one occasion the latter, perhaps waxing +anxious, and after bringing about the introduction of Clotilde to the +sister of Alvan, pursued his prudent measures bypassing the pair through +a demi-ceremony of betrothal. It sprang Clotilde astride nearer to +reality, both actually and in feeling; and she began to show the change +at home. A rebuff that came of the coupling of her name with Alvan's +pushed her back as far below the surface as she had ever been. She +waited for him to take the step she had again implored him not yet to +take; she feared that he would, she marvelled at his abstaining; the old +wheel revolved, as it ever does with creatures that wait for +circumstances to bring the change they cannot work for themselves; and +once more the two fell asunder. She had thoughts of the cloister. Her +venerable relative died joining her hand to Prince Marko's; she was +induced to think of marriage. An illness laid her prostrate; she +contemplated the peace of death. + +Shortly before she fell sick the prince was a guest of her father's, and +had won the household by his perfect amiability as an associate. The +grace and glow, and some of the imaginable accomplishments of an Indian +Bacchus were native to him. In her convalescence, she asked herself what +more she could crave than the worship of a godlike youth, whom she in +return might cherish, strengthening his frail health with happiness. +For she had seen how suffering ate him up; he required no teaching in the +Spartan virtue of suffering, wolf-gnawed, silently. But he was a flower +in sunshine to happiness, and he looked to her for it. Why should she +withhold from him a thing so easily given? The convalescent is receptive +and undesiring, or but very faintly desiring: the new blood coming into +the frame like first dawn of light has not stirred the old passions; it +is infant nature, with a tinge of superadded knowledge that is not cloud +across it and lends it only a tender wistfulness. + +Her physician sentenced her to the Alps, whither a friend, a daughter of +our island, whose acquaintance she had made in Italy, was going, and at +an invitation Clotilde accompanied her, and she breathed Alpine air. +Marko sank into the category of dreams during sickness. There came a +letter from the professor mentioning that Alvan was on one of the kingly +Alpine heights in view, and the new blood running through her veins +became a torrent. He there! So near! Could he not be reached? + +He had a saying: Two wishes make a will. + +The wishes of two lovers, he meant. A prettier sentence for lovers, and +one more intoxicating to them, was never devised. It chirrups of the +dear silly couple. Well, this was her wish. Was it his? Young health +on the flow of her leaping blood cried out that it could not be other +than Alvan's wish; she believed in his wishing it. Then as he wished and +she wished, she had the will immediately, and it was all the more her own +for being his as well. She hurried her friend and her friend's friends +on horseback off to the heights where the wounded eagle lodged +overlooking mountain and lake. The professor reported him outwearied +with excess of work. Alvan lived the lives of three; the sins of thirty +were laid to his charge. Do you judge of heroes as of lesser men? Her +reckless defence of him, half spoken, half in her mind, helped her to +comprehend his dealings with her, and how it was that he stormed her and +consented to be beaten. He had a thousand occupations, an ambition out +of the world of love, chains to break, temptations, leanings . . . +tut, tut! She had not lived in her circle of society, and listened to +the tales of his friends and enemies, and been the correspondent of +flattering and flattered men of learning, without understanding how a man +like Alvan found diversions when forbidden to act in a given direction: +and now that her healthful new blood inspired the courage to turn two +wishes to a will, she saw both herself and him very clearly, enough at +least to pardon the man more than she did herself. She had perforce of +her radiant new healthfulness arrived at an exact understanding of him. +Where she was deluded was in supposing that she would no longer dread his +impetuous disposition to turn rosy visions into facts. But she had the +revived convalescent's ardour to embrace things positive while they were +not knocking at the door; dreams were abhorrent to her, tasteless and +innutritious; she cast herself on the flood, relying on his towering +strength and mastery of men and events to bring her to some safe landing +--the dream of hearts athirst for facts. + + + + +CHAPTER VI + +Alvan was at his writing-table doing stout gladiator's work on paper in +a chamber of one of the gaunt hotels of the heights, which are Death's +Heads there in Winter and have the tongues in Summer, when a Swiss lad +entered with a round grin to tell him that a lady on horseback below had +asked for him--Dr. Alvan. Who could the lady be? He thought of too +many. The thought of Clotilde was dismissed in its dimness. Issuing and +beholding her, his face became illuminated as by a stroke of sunlight. + +'Clotilde! by all the holiest!' + +She smiled demurely, and they greeted. + +She admired the look of rich pleasure shining through surprise in him. +Her heart thanked him for appearing so handsome before her friends. + +'I was writing,' said he. 'Guess to whom?--I had just finished my +political stuff, and fell on a letter to the professor and another for +an immediate introduction to your father.' + +'True?' + +'The truth, as you shall see. So, you have come, you have found me! +This time if I let you slip, may I be stamped slack-fingered!' + +'"Two wishes make a will," you say.' + +He answered her with one of his bursts of brightness. + +Her having sought him he read for the frank surrender which he was ready +to match with a loyal devotion to his captive. Her coming cleared +everything. + +Clotilde introduced him to her friends, and he was enrolled a member of +the party. His appearance was that of a man to whom the sphinx has +whispered. They ascended to the topmost of the mountain stages, to +another caravanserai of tourists, whence the singular people emerge in +morning darkness night-capped and blanketed, and behold the great orb of +day at his birth--he them. + +Walking slowly beside Clotilde on the mountain way, Alvan said: 'Two +wishes! Mine was in your breast. You wedded yours to it. At last!--and +we are one. Not a word more of time lost. My wish is almost a will in +itself--was it not?--and has been wooing yours all this while!--till the +sleeper awakened, the well-spring leapt up from the earth; and our two +wishes united dare the world to divide them. What can? My wish was your +destiny, yours is mine. We are one.' He poetized on his passion, and +dramatized it: 'Stood you at the altar, I would pluck you from the man +holding your hand! There is no escape for you. Nay, into the vaults, +were you to grow pale and need my vital warmth--down to the vaults! +Speak--or no: look! That will do. You hold a Titan in your eyes, like +metal in the furnace, to turn him to any shape you please, liquid or +solid. You make him a god: he is the river Alvan or the rock Alvan: but +fixed or flowing, he is lord of you. That is the universal penalty: you +must, if you have this creative soul, be the slave of your creature: if +you raise him to heaven, you must be his! Ay, look! I know the eyes! +They can melt granite, they can freeze fire. Pierce me, sweet eyes! And +now flutter, for there is that in me to make them.' + +'Consider!' Clotilde flutteringly entreated him. + +'The world? you dear heaven of me! Looking down on me does not +compromise you, and I am not ashamed of my devotions. I sat in gloom: +you came: I saw my goddess and worshipped. The world, Lutece, the world +is a variable monster; it rends the weak whether sincere or false; but +those who weld strength with sincerity may practise their rites of +religion publicly, and it fawns to them, and bellows to imitate. Nay, I +say that strength in love is the sole sincerity, and the world knows it, +muffs it in the air about us, and so we two are privileged. Politically +also we know that strength is the one reality: the rest is shadow. +Behind the veil of our human conventions power is constant as ever, and +to perceive the fact is to have the divining rod-to walk clear of shams. +He is the teacher who shows where power exists: he is the leader who +wakens and forms it. Why have I unfailingly succeeded?--I never doubted! +The world voluntarily opens a path to those who step determinedly. You-- +to your honour?--I won't decide--but you have the longest in my +experience resisted. I have a Durandal to hew the mountain walls; I have +a voice for ears, a net for butterflies, a hook for fish, and desperation +to plunge into marshes: but the feu follet will not be caught. One must +wait--wait till her desire to have a soul bids her come to us. She has +come! A soul is hers: and see how, instantly, the old monster, the +world, which has no soul--not yet: we are helping it to get one--becomes +a shadow, powerless to stop or overawe. For I do give you a soul, think +as you will of it. I give you strength to realize, courage to act. It +is the soul that does things in this life--the rest is vapour. How do we +distinguish love?--as we do music by the pure note won from resolute +strings. The tense chord is music, and it is love. This higher and +higher mountain air, with you beside me, sweeps me like a harp.' + +'Oh! talk on, talk on! talk ever! do not cease talking to me!' +exclaimed Clotilde. + +'You feel the mountain spirit?' + +'I feel that you reveal it.' + +'Tell me the books you have been reading.' + +' Oh, light literature-poor stuff.' + +'When we two read together you will not say that. Light literature is +the garden and the orchard, the fountain, the rainbow, the far view; the +view within us as well as without. Our blood runs through it, our +history in the quick. The Philistine detests it, because he has no view, +out or in. The dry confess they are cut off from the living tree, peeled +and sapless, when they condemn it. The vulgar demand to have their +pleasures in their own likeness--and let them swamp their troughs! they +shall not degrade the fame of noble fiction. We are the choice public, +which will have good writing for light reading. Poet, novelist, +essayist, dramatist, shall be ranked honourable in my Republic. I am +neither, but a man of law, a student of the sciences, a politician, on +the road to government and statecraft: and yet I say I have learnt as +much from light literature as from heavy-as much, that is, from the +pictures of our human blood in motion as from the clever assortment of +our forefatherly heaps of bones. Shun those who cry out against fiction +and have no taste for elegant writing. For to have no sympathy with the +playful mind is not to have a mind: it is a test. But name the books.' + +She named one or two. + +'And when does Dr. Alvan date the first year of his Republic?' + +'Clotilde!' he turned on her. + +'My good sir?' + +'These worthy good people who are with you: tell me-to-morrow we leave +them!' + +'Leave them?' + +'You with me. No more partings. The first year, the first day shall be +dated from to-morrow. You and I proclaim our Republic on these heights. +All the ceremonies to follow. We will have a reaping of them, and make a +sheaf to present to the world with compliments. To-morrow!' + +'You do not speak seriously?' + +'I jest as little as the Talmud. Decide at once, in the happy flush of +this moment.' + +'I cannot listen to you, dear sir!' + +'But your heart beats!' + +'I am not mistress of it.' + +'Call me master of it. I make ready for to-morrow.' + +' No! no! no! A thousand times no! You have been reading too much +fiction and verse. Properly I should spurn you.' + +'Will you fail me, play feu follet, ward me off again?' + +'I must be won by rules, brave knight!' + +'Will you be won?' + +'And are you he--the Alvan who would not be centaur?' + +'I am he who chased a marsh-fire, and encountered a retiarius, and the +meshes are on my head and arms. I fancied I dealt with a woman; a woman +needing protection! She has me fast--I am netted, centaur or man. That +is between us two. But think of us facing the world, and trust me; take +my hand, take the leap; I am the best fighter in that fight. Trust it to +me, and all your difficulties are at an end. To fly solves the problem.' + +'Indeed, indeed, I have more courage than I had,' said Clotilde. + +His eyes dilated, steadied, speculated, weighed her. + +'Put it to proof while you can believe in it!' + +'How is it every one but you thinks me bold?' she complained. + +'Because I carry a touchstone that brings out the truth. I am your +reality: all others are phantoms. You can impose on them, not on me. +Courage for one inspired plunge you may have, and it will be your +salvation:--southward, over to Italy, that is the line of flight, and the +subsequent struggle will be mine: you will not have to face it. But the +courage for daily contention at home, standing alone, while I am distant +and maligned--can you fancy your having that? No! be wise of what you +really are; cast the die for love, and mount away tomorrow.' + +'Then,' said Clotilde, with elvish cunning, 'do you doubt your ability to +win me without a scandal?' + +'Back me, and I win you!' he replied in a tone of unwonted humility: a +sudden droop. + +She let her hand fall. He grasped it. + +'Gradations appear to be unknown to you,' she said. + +He cried out: 'Count the years of life, span them, think of the work to +be done, and ask yourself whether time and strength should run to waste +in retarding the inevitable? Pottering up steps that can be taken at one +bound is very well for peasant pilgrims whose shrine is their bourne, and +their kneecaps the footing stumps. But for us two life begins up there. +Onward, and everywhere around, when we two are together, is our shrine. +I have worked, and wasted life; I have not lived, and I thirst to live.' + +She murmured, in a fervour, 'You shall!' and slipped behind her defences. +'To-morrow morning we shall wander about; I must have a little time; all +to-morrow morning we can discuss plans.' + +'You know you command me,' said he, and gazed at her. + +She was really a child compared with him in years, and if it was an +excuse for taking her destiny into his hands, she consenting,--it was +also a reason why he dared not press his whole weight to win her to the +step. + +She had the pride of the secret knowledge of her command of this giant at +the long table of the guests at dinner, where, after some play of knife +and fork among notable professors, Prussian officers, lively Frenchmen +and Italians, and the usual over-supply of touring English of both sexes, +not encouraging to conversation in their look of pallid disgust of the +art, Alvan started general topics and led them. The lead came to him +naturally, because he was a natural speaker, of a mind both stored and +effervescent; and he was genial, interested in every growth of life. She +did not wonder at his popularity among men of all classes and sets, or +that he should be famed for charming women. Her friend was enraptured +with him. Friendly questions pressed in an evening chatter between the +ladies, and Clotilde fenced, which is half a confession. + +'But you are not engaged?' said the blunt Englishwoman. + +According to the explanation, Clotilde was hardly engaged. It was not an +easy thing to say how she stood definitely. She had obeyed her dying +relative and dearest on earth by joining her hand to Prince Marko's, and +had pleased her parents by following it up with the kindest attentions to +the prince. It had been done, however, for the sake of peace; and +chiefly for his well-being. She had reserved her full consent: the +plighting was incomplete. Prince Marko knew that there was another, a +magical person, a genius of the ring, irresistible. He had been warned, +that should the other come forth to claim her . . . . And she was +about to write to him this very night to tell him . . . tell him fully +. . . . In truth, she loved both, but each so differently! And both +loved her! And she had to make her choice of one, and tell the prince +she did love him, but . . . Dots are the best of symbols for rendering +cardisophistical subtleties intelligible, and as they are much used in +dialogue, one should have now and then permission to print them. +Especially feminine dialogue referring to matters of the uncertain heart +takes assistance from troops of dots; and not to understand them at least +as well as words, when words have as it were conducted us to the brink of +expression, and shown us the precipice, is to be dull, bucolic of the +marketplace. + +Sunless rose the morning. The blanketed figures went out to salute a +blanketed sky. Drizzling they returned, images of woefulness in various +forms, including laughter's. Alvan frankly declared himself the +disappointed showman; he had hoped for his beloved to see the sight long +loved by him of golden chariot and sun-steeds crossing the peaks and the +lakes; and his disappointment became consternation on hearing Clotilde's +English friend (after objection to his pagan clothing of the solemn +reality of sunrise, which destroyed or minimized by too materially +defining a grandeur that derived its essence from mystery, she thought) +announce the hour for her departure. He promised her a positive sunrise +if she would delay. Her child lay recovering from an illness in the town +below, and she could not stay. But Clotilde had coughed in the damp +morning air, and it would, he urged, be dangerous for her to be exposed +to it. Had not the lady heard her cough? She had, but personally she +was obliged to go; with her child lying ill she could not remain. 'But, +madam, do you hear that cough again? Will you drag her out with such a +cough as that?' The lady repeated 'My child!' Clotilde said it had been +agreed they should descend this day; her friend must be beside her child. +Alvan thundered an 'Impossible!' The child was recovering; Clotilde was +running into danger: he argued with the senseless woman, opposing reason +to the feminine sentiment of the maternal, and of course he was beaten. +He was compelled to sit and gnaw his eloquence. Clotilde likened his +appearance to a strangled roar. 'Mothers and their children are too much +for me!' he said, penitent for his betrayal of over-urgency, as he helped +to wrap her warmly, and counselled her very mode of breathing in the raw +mountain atmosphere. + +'I admire you for knowing when to yield,' said she. + +He groaned, with frown and laugh: 'You know what I would beg!' + +She implored him to have some faith in her. + +The missiles of the impassioned were discharged at the poor English: a +customary volley in most places where they intrude after quitting their +shores, if they diverge from the avenue of hotel-keepers and waiters: +but Clotilde pointed out to him that her English friend was not showing +coldness in devoting herself to her child. + +'No, they attend to their duties,' he assented generally, desperately +just. + +'And you owe it to her that you have seen me.' + +'I do,' he said, and forthwith courted the lady to be forgiven. + +Clotilde was taken from him in a heavy downpour and trailing of mists. + +At the foot of the mountain a boy handed her a letter from Alvan--a +burning flood, rolled out of him like lava after they had separated on +the second plateau, and confided to one who knew how to outstrip +pathfarers. She entered her hotel across the lake, and met a telegram. +At night the wires flashed 'Sleep well' to her; on her awakening, 'Good +morning.' A lengthened history of the day was telegraphed for her +amusement. Again at night there was a 'God guard you!' + +'Who can resist him?' sighed Clotilde, excited, nervous, flattered, +happy, but yearning to repose and be curtained from the buzz of the +excess of life that he put about her. This time there was no prospect of +his courtship relapsing. + +'He is a wonderful, an ideal lover!' replied her friend. + +'If he were only that!' said Clotilde, musing expressively. 'If, dear +Englishwoman, he were only that, he might be withstood. But Alvan mounts +high over such lovers: he is a wonderful and ideal man: so great, so +generous, heroical, giant-like, that what he wills must be.' + +The Englishwoman was quick enough to seize an indication difficult to +miss--more was expected to be said of him. + +'You see the perfect gentleman in Dr. Alvan,' she remarked, for she had +heard him ordering his morning bath at the hotel, and he had also been +polite to her under vexation. + +Clotilde nodded hurriedly; she saw something infinitely greater, and +disliked the bringing of that island microscope to bear upon a giant. +She found it repugnant to hear a word of Alvan as a perfect gentleman. +Justly, however, she took him for a splendid nature, and assuming upon +good authority that the greater contains the lesser, she supposed the +lesser to be a chiselled figure serviceably alive in the embrace. + + + +ETEXT EDITOR'S BOOKMARKS: + +Barriers are for those who cannot fly +Be good and dull, and please everybody +Centres of polished barbarism known as aristocratic societies +Clotilde fenced, which is half a confession +Comparisons will thrust themselves on minds disordered +Compromise is virtual death +Conservative, whose astounded state paralyzes his wrath +Creatures that wait for circumstances to bring the change +Dissent rings out finely, and approval is a feeble murmur +Do you judge of heroes as of lesser men? +Empanelled to deliver verdicts upon the ways of women +Fantastical +Finishing touches to the negligence +Gone to pieces with an injured lover's babble +Gradations appear to be unknown to you +He had to go, he must, he has to be always going +He stormed her and consented to be beaten +His violent earnestness, his imperial self-confidence +I have learnt as much from light literature as from heavy +I would wait till he flung you off, and kneel to you +If you have this creative soul, be the slave of your creature +Imagination she has, for a source of strength in the future days +Looking on him was listening +Love the difficulty better than the woman +Metaphysician's treatise on Nature: a torch to see the sunrise +Music in Italy? Amorous and martial, brainless and monotonous +Not much esteem for non-professional actresses +Pact between cowardice and comfort under the title of expediency +Philosophy skimmed, and realistic romances deep-sounded +Polished barbarism +Scorned him for listening to the hesitations (hers) +She felt in him a maker of facts +Strength in love is the sole sincerity +The brainless in Art and in Statecraft +The way is clear: we have only to take the step +The worst of omens is delay +Time and strength run to waste in retarding the inevitable +Time is due to us, and the minutes are our gold slipping away +To have no sympathy with the playful mind is not to have a mind +Two wishes make a will +Venerated by his followers, well hated by his enemies +Who ever loved that loved not at first sight? +Win you--temperately, let us hope; by storm, if need be +World voluntarily opens a path to those who step determinedly + + + + +End of this Project Gutenberg Etext of The Tragic Comedians, v1 +by George Meredith + + + + + + +THE TRAGIC COMEDIANS + +A STUDY IN A WELL-KNOWN STORY + +By GEORGE MEREDITH + +1892 + + + +BOOK 2. + +CHAPTER VII + +He was down on the plains to her the second day, and as usual when they +met, it was as if they had not parted; his animation made it seem so. He +was like summer's morning sunlight, his warmth striking instantly through +her blood dispersed any hesitating strangeness that sometimes gathers +during absences, caused by girlish dread of a step to take, or shame at +the step taken, when coldish gentlemen rather create these backflowings +and gaps in the feelings. She had grown reconciled to the perturbation +of his messages, and would have preferred to have him startling and +thrilling her from a distance; but seeing him, she welcomed him, and +feeling in his bright presence not the faintest chill of the fit of +shyness, she took her bravery of heart for a sign that she had reached +his level, and might own it by speaking of the practical measures to lead +to their union. On one subject sure to be raised against him by her +parents, she had a right to be inquisitive: the baroness. + +She asked to see a photograph of her. + +Alvan gave her one out of his pocketbook, and watched her eyelids in +profile as she perused those features of the budless grey woman. The +eyelids in such scrutinies reveal the critical mind; Clotilde's drooped +till they almost closed upon their lashes--deadly criticism. + +'Think of her age,' said Alvan, colouring. He named a grandmaternal date +for the year of the baroness's birth. + +Her eyebrows now stood up; her contemplation of those disenchanting +lineaments came to an abrupt finish. + +She returned the square card to him, slowly shaking her head, still +eyeing earth as her hand stretched forth the card laterally. He could +not contest the woeful verdict. + +'Twenty years back!' he murmured, writhing. The baroness was a woman +fair to see in the days twenty years back, though Clotilde might think it +incredible: she really was once. + +Clotilde resumed her doleful shaking of the head; she sighed. He +shrugged; she looked at him, and he blinked a little. For the first time +since they had come together she had a clear advantage, and as it was +likely to be a rare occasion, she did not let it slip. She sighed again. +He was wounded by her underestimate of his ancient conquest. + +'Yes--now,' he said, impatiently. + +'I cannot feel jealousy, I cannot feel rivalry,' said she, sad of voice. + +The humour of her tranced eyes in the shaking head provoked him to defend +the baroness for her goodness of heart, her energy of brain. + +Clotilde 'tolled' her naughty head. + +'But it is a strong face,' she said, 'a strong face--a strong jaw, by +Lavater! You were young--and daringly adventurous; she was captivating +in her distress. Now she is old--and you are friends.' + +'Friends, yes,' Alvan replied, and praised the girl, as of course she +deserved to be praised for her open mind. + +'We are friends!' he said, dropping a deep-chested breath. The title +this girl scornfully supplied was balm to the vanity she had stung, and +his burnt skin was too eager for a covering of any sort to examine the +mood of the giver. She had positively humbled him so far as with a +single word to relieve him; for he had seen bristling chapters in her +look at the photograph. Yet for all the natural sensitiveness of the +man's vanity, he did not seek to bury the subject at the cost of a +misconception injurious in the slightest degree to the sentiments he +entertained toward the older lady as well as the younger. 'Friends! +you are right; good friends; only you should know that it is just a +little--a trifle different. The fact is, I cannot kill the past, and I +would not. It would try me sharply to break the tie connecting us, were +it possible to break it. I am bound to her by gratitude. She is old +now; and were she twice that age, I should retain my feeling for her. +You raise your eyes, Clotilde! Well, when I was much younger I found +this lady in desperate ill-fortune, and she honoured me with her +confidence. Young man though I was, I defended her; I stopped at no +measure to defend her: against a powerful husband, remember--the most +unscrupulous of foes, who sought to rob her of every right she possessed. +And what I did then I again would do. I was vowed to her interests, to +protect a woman shamefully wronged; I did not stick at trifles, as you +know; you have read my speech in defence of myself before the court. By +my interpretation of the case, I was justified; but I estranged my family +and made the world my enemy. I gave my time and money, besides the +forfeit of reputation, to the case, and reasonably there was an +arrangement to repay me out of the estate reserved for her, so that the +baroness should not be under the degradation of feeling herself indebted. +You will not think that out of the way: men of the world do not. As for +matters of the heart between us, we're as far apart as the Poles.' + +He spoke hurriedly. He had said all that could be expected of him. + +They were in a wood, walking through lines of spruce firs of deep golden +green in the yellow beams. One of these trees among its well-robed +fellows fronting them was all lichen-smitten. From the low sweeping +branches touching earth to the plumed top, the tree was dead-black as its +shadow; a vision of blackness. + +'I will compose a beautiful, dutiful, modest, oddest, beseeching, +screeching, mildish, childish epistle to her, and you shall read it, and +if you approve it, we shall despatch it,' said Clotilde. + +'There speaks my gold-crested serpent at her wisest!' replied Alvan. +'And now for my visit to your family: I follow you in a day. En avant! +contre les canons! A run to Lake Leman brings us to them in the +afternoon. I shall see you in the evening. So our separation won't be +for long this time. All the auspices are good. We shall not be rich-- +nor poor.' + +Clotilde reminded him that a portion of money would be brought to the +store by her. + +'We don't count it,' said he. 'Not rich, certainly. And you will not +expect me to make money by my pen. Above all things I detest the writing +for money. Fiction and verse appeal to a besotted public, that judges of +the merit of the work by the standard of its taste: avaunt! And +journalism for money is Egyptian bondage. No slavery is comparable to +the chains of hired journalism. My pen is my fountain--the key of me; +and I give my self, I do not sell. I write when I have matter in me and +in the direction it presses for, otherwise not one word!' + +'I would never ask you to sell yourself,' said Clotilde. 'I would rather +be in want of common comforts.' + +He squeezed her wrist. They were again in front of the black-draped +blighted tree. It was the sole tree of the host clad thus in scurf +bearing a semblance of livid metal. They looked at it as having seen it +before, and passed on. + +'But the wife of Sigismund Alvan will not be poor in renown!' he resumed, +radiating his full bloom on her. + +'My highest ambition is to be Sigismund Alvan's wife!' she exclaimed. + +To hear her was as good as wine, and his heart came out on a genial +chuckle. 'Ay, the choice you have made is not, by heaven, so bad. +Sigismund Alvan's wife shall take the foremost place of all. Look at +me.' He lifted his head to the highest on his shoulders, widening his +eagle eyes. He was now thoroughly restored and in his own upper element, +expansive after the humiliating contraction of his man's vanity under the +glances of a girl. 'Do you take me for one who could be content with the +part of second? I will work and do battle unceasingly, but I will have +too the prize of battle to clasp it, savour it richly. I was not +fashioned to be the lean meek martyr of a cause, not I. I carry too +decisive a weight in the balance to victory. I have a taste for fruits, +my fairest! And Republics, my bright Lutetia, can give you splendid +honours.' He helped her to realize this with the assuring splendour of +his eyes. + +'"Bride of the Elect of the People!" is not that as glorious a title, +think you, as queen of an hereditary sovereign mumbling of God's grace on +his worm-eaten throne? I win that seat by service, by the dedication of +this brain to the people's interests. They have been ground to the dust, +and I lift them, as I did a persecuted lady in my boyhood. I am the +soldier of justice against the army of the unjust. But I claim my +reward. If I live to fight, I live also to enjoy. I will have my +station. I win it not only because I serve, but because also I have +seen, have seen ahead, seen where all is dark, read the unwritten-- +because I am soldier and prophet. The brain of man is Jove's eagle and +his lightning on earth--the title to majesty henceforth. Ah! my +fairest; entering the city beside me, and the people shouting around, she +would not think her choice a bad one?' + +Clotilde made sign and gave some earnest on his arm of ecstatic hugging. + +'We may have hard battles, grim deceptions, to go through before that day +comes,' he continued after a while. 'The day is coming, but we must wait +for it, work on. I have the secret of how to head the people--to put a +head to their movement and make it irresistible, as I believe it will be +beneficent. I set them moving on the lines of the law of things. I am +no empty theorizer, no phantasmal speculator; I am the man of science in +politics. When my system is grasped by the people, there is but a step +to the realization of it. One step. It will be taken in my time, or +acknowledged later. I stand for index to the people of the path they +should take to triumph--must take, as triumph they must sooner or later: +not by the route of what is called Progress--pooh! That is a middle- +class invention to effect a compromise. With the people the matter rests +with their intelligence! meanwhile my star is bright and shines +reflected.' + +'I notice,' she said, favouring him with as much reflection as a splendid +lover could crave for, 'that you never look down, you never look on the +ground, but always either up or straight before you.' + +'People have remarked it,' said he, smiling. 'Here we are at this +funereal tree again. All roads lead to Rome, and ours appears to conduct +us perpetually to this tree. It 's the only dead one here.' + +He sighted the plumed black top and along the swelling branches +decorously clothed in decay: a salted ebon moss when seen closely; the +small grey particles giving a sick shimmer to the darkness of the mass. +It was very witch-like, of a witch in her incantation-smoke. + +'Not a single bare spot! but dead, dead as any peeled and fallen!' said +Alvan, fingering a tuft of the sooty snake-lichen. 'This is a tree for a +melancholy poet--eh, Clotilde?--for him to come on it by moonlight, after +a scene with his mistress, or tales of her! By the way and by the way, +my fair darling, let me never think of your wearing this kind of garb for +me, should I be ordered off the first to join the dusky army below. +Women who put on their dead husbands in public are not well-mannered +women, though they may be excellent professional widows, excellent!' + +He snapped the lichen-dust from his fingers, observing that he was not +sure the contrast of the flourishing and blighted was not more impressive +in sunlight: and then he looked from the tree to his true love's hair. +The tree at a little distance seemed run over with sunless lizards: her +locks were golden serpents. + +'Shall I soon see your baroness?' Clotilde asked him. + +'Not in advance of the ceremony,' he answered. 'In good time. You +understand--an old friend making room for a new one, and that one young +and beautiful, with golden tresses; at first . . . ! But her heart is +quite sound. Have no fear! I guarantee it; I know her to the roots. +She desires my welfare, she does my behests. If I am bound to her by +gratitude, so, and in a greater degree, is she to me. The utmost she +will demand is that my bride shall be worthy of me--a good mate for me +in the fight to come; and I have tested my bride and found her half my +heart; therefore she passes the examination with the baroness.' + +They left the tree behind them. + +'We will take good care not to return this way again,' said Alvan, +without looking back. 'That tree belongs to a plantation of the under +world; its fellows grow in the wood across Acheron, and that tree has +looked into the ghastliness of the flood and seen itself. Hecate and +Hermes know about it. Phoebus cannot light it. That tree stands for +Death blooming. We think it sinister, but down there it is a homely +tree. Down there! When do we go? The shudder in that tree is the air +exchanging between Life and Death--the ghosts going and coming: it's on +the border line. I just felt the creep. I think you did. The reason +is--there is always a material reason--that you were warm, and a bit of +chill breeze took you as you gazed; while for my part I was imagining at +that very moment what of all possible causes might separate us, and I +acknowledged that death could do the trick. But death, my love, is far +from us two!' + +'Does she look as grimmish as she does in the photograph?' said Clotilde. + +'Who? the baroness?' Alvan laughed. The baroness was not so easily +defended from a girl as from her husband, it appeared. 'She is the best +of comrades, best of friends. She has her faults; may not relish the +writ announcing her final deposition, but be you true to me, and as true +as she has unfailingly been to me, she will be to you. That I can +promise. My poor Lucie! She is winter, if you will. It is not the +winter of the steppes; you may compare her to winter in a noble country; +a fine landscape of winter. The outlines of her face . . . . She has +a great brain. How much I owe that woman for instruction! You meet now +and then men who have the woman in them without being womanized; they are +the pick of men. And the choicest women are those who yield not a +feather of their womanliness for some amount of manlike strength. And +she is one; man's brain, woman's heart. I thought her unique till I +heard of you. And how do I stand between you two? She has the only +fault you can charge me with; she is before me in time, as I am before +you. Shall I spoil you as she spoilt me? No, no! Obedience to a boy +is the recognition of the heir-apparent, and I respect the salique law as +much as I love my love. I do not offer obedience to a girl, but succour, +support. You will not rule me, but you will invigorate, and if you are +petted, you shall not be spoilt. Do not expect me to show like that +undertakerly tree till my years are one hundred. Even then it will be +dangerous to repose beneath my branches in the belief that I am sapless +because I have changed colour. We Jews have a lusty blood. We are +strong of the earth. We serve you, but you must minister to us. +Sensual? We have truly excellent appetites. And why not? Heroical too! +Soldiers, poets, musicians; the Gentile's masters in mental arithmetic-- +keenest of weapons: surpassing him in common sense and capacity for +brotherhood. Ay, and in charity; or what stores of vengeance should we +not have nourished! Already we have the money-bags. Soon we shall hold +the chief offices. And when the popular election is as unimpeded as the +coursing of the blood in a healthy body, the Jew shall be foremost and +topmost, for he is pre-eminently by comparison the brain of these latter- +day communities. But that is only my answer to the brutish contempt of +the Jew. I am no champion of a race. I am for the world, for man!' + +Clotilde remarked that he had many friends, all men of eminence, and a +large following among the people. + +He assented: 'Yes: Tresten, Retka, Kehlen, the Nizzian. Yes, if I were +other than for legality:--if it came to a rising, I could tell off able +lieutenants.' + +'Tell me of your interview with Ironsides,' she said proudly and fondly. + +'Would this ambitious little head know everything?' said Alvan, putting +his lips among the locks. 'Well, we met: he requested it. We agreed +that we were on neutral ground for the moment: that he might ultimately +have to decapitate me, or I to banish him, but temporarily we could +compare our plans for governing. He showed me his hand. I showed him +mine. We played open-handed, like two at whist. He did not doubt my +honesty, and I astonished him by taking him quite in earnest. He has +dealt with diplomatists, who imagine nothing but shuffling: the old +Ironer! I love him for his love of common sense, his contempt of mean +deceit. He will outwit you, but his dexterity is a giant's--a simple +evolution rapidly performed: and nothing so much perplexes pygmies! +Then he has them, bagsful of them! The world will see; and see giant +meet giant, I suspect. He and I proposed each of us in the mildest +manner contrary schemes--schemes to stiffen the hair of Europe! Enough +that we parted with mutual respect. He is a fine fellow: and so was my +friend the Emperor Tiberius, and so was Richelieu. Napoleon was a fine +engine:--there is a difference. Yes, Ironsides is a fine fellow! but he +and I may cross. His ideas are not many. The point to remember is that +he is iron on them: he can drive them hard into the density of the globe. +He has quick nerves and imagination: he can conjure up, penetrate, and +traverse complications--an enemy's plans, all that the enemy will be able +to combine, and the likeliest that he will do. Good. We opine that we +are equal to the same. He is for kingcraft to mask his viziercraft--and +save him the labour of patiently attempting oratory and persuasion, which +accomplishment he does not possess:--it is not in iron. We think the +more precious metal will beat him when the broader conflict comes. But +such an adversary is not to be underrated. I do not underrate him: and +certainly not he me. Had he been born with the gifts of patience and a +fluent tongue, and not a petty noble, he might have been for the people, +as knowing them the greater power. He sees that their knowledge of their +power must eventually come to them. In the meantime his party is +forcible enough to assure him he is not fighting a losing game at +present: and he is, no doubt, by lineage and his traditions monarchical. +He is curiously simple, not really cynical. His apparent cynicism is +sheer irritability. His contemptuous phrases are directed against +obstacles: against things, persons, nations that oppose him or cannot +serve his turn against his king, if his king is restive; but he respects +his king: against your friends' country, because there is no fixing it to +a line of policy, and it seems to have collapsed; but he likes that +country the best in Europe after his own. He is nearest to contempt in +his treatment of his dupes and tools, who are dropped out of his mind +when he has quite squeezed them for his occasion; to be taken up again +when they are of use to him. Hence he will have no following. But let +me die to-morrow, the party I have created survives. In him you see the +dam, in me the stream. Judge, then, which of them gains the future!-- +admitting that, in the present he may beat me. He is a Prussian, stoutly +defined from a German, and yet again a German stoutly defined from our +borderers: and that completes him. He has as little the idea of humanity +as the sword of our Hermann, the cannon-ball of our Frederick. Observe +him. What an eye he has! I watched it as we were talking: and he has, I +repeat, imagination; he can project his mind in front of him as far as +his reasoning on the possible allows: and that eye of his flashes; and +not only flashes, you see it hurling a bolt; it gives me the picture of a +Balearic slinger about to whizz the stone for that eye looks far, and is +hard, and is dead certain of its mark-within his practical compass, as I +have said. I see farther, and I fancy I proved to him that I am not a +dreamer. In my opinion, when we cross our swords I stand a fair chance +of not being worsted. We shall: you shrink? Figuratively, my darling +have no fear! Combative as we may be, both of us, we are now grave +seniors, we have serious business: a party looks to him, my party looks +to me. Never need you fear that I shall be at sword or pistol with any +one. I will challenge my man, whoever he as that needs a lesson, to +touch buttons on a waistcoat with the button on the foil, or drill fiver +and eights in cards at twenty paces: but I will not fight him though he +offend me, for I am stronger than my temper, and as I do not want to take +his nip of life, and judge it to be of less value than mine, the +imperilling of either is an absurdity.' + +'Oh! because I know you are incapable of craven fear,' cried Clotilde, +answering aloud the question within herself of why she so much admired, +why she so fondly loved him. To feel his courage backing his high good +sense was to repose in security, and her knowledge that an astute self- +control was behind his courage assured her he was invincible. It seemed +to her, therefore, as they walked side by side, and she saw their +triumphant pair of figures in her fancy, natural that she should +instantly take the step to prepare her for becoming his Republican +Princess. She walked an equal with the great of the earth, by virtue of +her being the mate of the greatest of the great; she trod on some, and +she thrilled gratefully to the man who sustained her and shielded her on +that eminence. Elect of the people he! and by a vaster power than kings +can summon through the trumpet! She could surely pass through the trial +with her parents that she might step to the place beside him! She +pressed his arm to be physically a sharer of his glory. Was it love? +It was as lofty a stretch as her nature could strain to. + +She named the city on the shores of the great Swiss lake where her +parents were residing; she bade him follow her thither, and name the +hotel where he was to be found, the hour when he was to arrive. 'Am I +not precise as an office clerk?' she said, with a pleasant taste of the +reality her preciseness pictured. + +'Practical as the head of a State department,' said he, in good faith. + +'I shall not keep you waiting,' she resumed. + +'The sooner we are together after the action opens the better for our +success, my golden crest!' + +'Have no misgivings, Sigismund. You have transformed me. A spark of you +is in my blood. Come. I shall send word to your hotel when you are to +appear. But you will come, you will be there, I know. I know you so +entirely.' + +'As a rule, Lutetia, women know no more than half of a man even when they +have married him. At least you ought to know me. You know that if I +were to exercise my will firmly now--it would not waver if I called it +forth--I could carry you off and spare you the flutter you will have to +go through during our interlude with papa and mama.' + +'I almost wish you would,' said she. She looked half imploringly, biting +her lip to correct the peeping wish. + +Alvan pressed a finger on one of her dimples: 'Be brave. Flight and +defiance are our last resource. Now that I see you resolved I shun the +scandal, and we will leave it to them to insist on it, if it must be. +How can you be less than resolved after I have poured my influence into +your veins? The other day on the heights--had you consented then? Well! +it would have been very well, but not so well. We two have a future, and +are bound to make the opening chapters good sober reading, for an +example, if we can. I take you from your father's house, from your +mother's arms, from the "God speed" of your friends. That is how Alvan's +wife should be presented to the world.' + +Clotilde's epistle to the baroness was composed, approved, and +despatched. To a frigid eye it read as more hypocritical than it really +was; for supposing it had to be written, the language of the natural +impulse called up to write it was necessarily in request, and that +language is easily overdone, so as to be discordant with the situation, +while it is, as the writer feels, a fairly true and well-formed +expression of the pretty impulse. But wiser is it always that the star +in the ascendant should not address the one waning. Hardly can a word be +uttered without grossly wounding. She would not do it to a younger +rival: the letter strikes on the recipient's age! She babbles of a +friendship: she plays at childish ninny! The display of her ingenuous +happiness causes feminine nature's bosom to rise in surges. The +declarations of her devotedness to the man waken comparisons with a +deeper, a longer-tried suffering. Actually the letter of the rising star +assumes personal feeling to have died out of the abandoned luminary, and +personal feeling is chafed to its acutest edge by the perusal; contempt +also of one who can stupidly simulate such innocence, is roused. + +Among Alvan's gifts the understanding of women did not rank high. +He was too robust, he had been too successful. Your very successful hero +regards them as nine-pins destined to fall, the whole tuneful nine, at a +peculiar poetical twist of the bowler's wrist, one knocking down the +other--figuratively, for their scruples, or for their example with their +sisters. His tastes had led him into the avenues of success, and as he +had not encountered grand resistances, he entertained his opinion of +their sex. The particular maxim he cherished was, to stake everything on +his making a favourable first impression: after which single figure, he +said, all your empty naughts count with women for hundreds, thousands, +millions: noblest virtues are but sickly units. He would have stared +like any Philistine at the tale of their capacity to advance to a +likeness unto men in their fight with the world. Women for him were +objects to be chased, the politician's relaxation, taken like the +sportsman's business, with keen relish both for the pursuit and the prey, +and a view of the termination of his pastime. Their feelings he could +appreciate during the time when they flew and fell, perhaps a little +longer; but the change in his own feelings withdrew him from the +communion of sentiment. This is the state of men who frequent the +avenues of success. At present he was thinking of a wife, and he +approved the epistle to the baroness cordially. + +'I do think it a nice kind of letter, and quite humble enough,' said +Clotilde. + +He agreed, 'Yes, yes: she knows already that this is really serious with +me.' + +So much for the baroness. + +Now for their parting. A parting that is no worse than the turning of a +page to a final meeting is made light of, but felt. Reason is all in our +favour, and yet the gods are jealous of the bliss of mortals; the slip +between the cup and the lip is emotionally watched for, even though it be +not apprehended, when the cup trembles for very fulness. Clotilde +required reassuring and comforting: 'I am certain you will prevail; you +must; you cannot be resisted; I stand to witness to the fact,' she sighed +in a languor: 'only, my people are hard to manage. I see more clearly +now, that I have imposed on them; and they have given away by a sort of +compact so long as I did nothing decisive. That I see. But, then again, +have I not your spirit in me now? What has ever resisted you?--Then, +as I am Alvan's wife, I share his heart with his fortunes, and I do not +really dread the scenes from anticipating failure, still-the truth is, +I fear I am three parts an actress, and the fourth feels itself a +shivering morsel to face reality. No, I do not really feel it, but press +my hand, I shall be true--I am so utterly yours: and because I have such +faith in you. You never, yet have failed' + +'Never: and it is impossible for me to conceive it,' said Alvan +thoughtfully. + +His last word to her on her departure was 'Courage!' Hers to him was +conveyed by the fondest of looks. She had previously said 'To-morrow!' +to remind him of his appointment to be with her on the morrow, and +herself that she would not long stand alone. She did not doubt of her +courage while feasting on the beauty of one of the acknowledged strong +men of earth. She kissed her hand, she flung her heart to him from the +waving fingers. + + + + +CHAPTER VIII + +Alvan, left to himself, had a quiet belief in the subjugation of his +tricksy Clotilde, and the inspiriting he had given her. All the rest to +come was mere business matter of the conflict, scarcely calling for a +plan of action. Who can hold her back when a woman is decided to move? +Husbands have tried it vainly, and parents; and though the husband and +the parents are not dealing with the same kind of woman, you see the same +elemental power in her under both conditions of rebel wife and rebel +daughter to break conventional laws, and be splendidly irrational. That +is, if she can be decided: in other words, aimed at a mark and inflamed +to fly the barriers intercepting. He fancied he had achieved it. Alvan +thanked his fortune that he had to treat with parents. The consolatory +sensation of a pure intent soothed his inherent wildness, in the +contemplation of the possibility that the latter might be roused by those +people, her parents, to upset his honourable ambition to win a wife after +the fashion of orderly citizens. It would be on their heads! But why +vision mischance? An old half-jesting prophecy of his among his friends, +that he would not pass his fortieth year, rose upon his recollection +without casting a shadow. Lo, the reckless prophet about to marry! + +No dark bride, no skeleton, no colourless thing, no lichened tree, was +she. Not Death, my friends, but Life, is the bride of this doomed +fortieth year! Was animation ever vivider in contrast with obstruction? +Her hair would kindle the frosty shades to a throb of vitality: it would +be sunshine in the subterranean sphere. The very thinking of her +dispersed that realm of the poison hue, and the eternally inviting +phosphorescent, still, curved forefinger, which says, 'Come.' + +To think of her as his vernal bride, while the snowy Alps were a +celestial garden of no sunset before his eyes, was to have the taste of +mortal life in the highest. He wondered how it was that he could have +waited so long for her since the first night of their meeting, and he +just distinguished the fact that he lived with the pulses of the minutes, +much as she did, only more fierily. The ceaseless warfare called +politics must have been the distraction: he forgot any other of another +kind. He was a bridegroom for whom the rosed Alps rolled out, a panorama +of illimitable felicity. And there were certain things he must overcome +before he could name his bride his own, so that his innate love of +contention, which had been constantly flattered by triumph, brought, his +whole nature into play with the prospect of the morrow: not much liking +it either. There is a nerve, in brave warriors that does not like the +battle before, the crackle of musketry is heard, and the big artillery. + +Methodically, according to his habit, he jotted down the hours of the +trains, the hotel mentioned by Clotilde, the address of her father; he +looked to his card-case, his writing materials, his notes upon Swiss law; +considering that the scene would be in Switzerland, and he was a lawyer +bent on acting within and up to the measure of the law as well as +pleading eloquently. The desire to wing a telegram to her he thought it +wise to repress, and he found himself in consequence composing verses, +turgid enough, even to his own judgement. Poets would have failed at +such a time, and he was not one, but an orator enamoured. He was a wild +man, cased in the knowledge of jurisprudence, and wishing to enter the +ranks of the soberly blissful. These he could imagine that he +complimented by the wish. Then why should he doubt of his fortune? +He did not. + +The night passed, the morning came, and carried him on his journey. Late +in the afternoon he alighted at the hotel he called Clotilde's. A letter +was handed to him. His eyes all over the page caught the note of it for +her beginning of the battle and despair at the first repulse. 'And now +my turn!' said he, not overjoyously. The words Jew and demagogue and +baroness, quoted in the letter, were old missiles hurling again at him. +But Clotilde's parents were yet to learn that this Jew, demagogue, and +champion of an injured lady, was a gentleman respectful to their legal +and natural claims upon their child while maintaining his own: they were +to know him and change their tone. + +As he was reading the letter upstairs by sentences, his door opened at +the answer to a tap. He started; his face was a shield's welcome to the +birdlike applicant for admission. Clotilde stood hesitating. + +He sent the introducing waiter speeding on his most kellnerish legs, and +drew her in. + +'Alvan, I have come.' + +She was like a bird in his hands, palpitating to extinction. + +He bent over her: 'What has happened?' + +Trembling, and very pale, hard in her throat she said, 'The worst.' + +'You have spoken to them both subsequent to this?' he shook the letter. + +'It is hopeless.' + +'Both to father and mother?' + +'Both. They will not hear your name; they will not hear me speak. I +repeat, it is past all hope, all chance of moving them. They hate--hate +you, hate me for thinking of you. I had no choice; I wrote at once and +followed my letter; I ran through the streets; I pant for want of breath, +not want of courage. I prove I have it, Alvan; I have done all I can do. + +She was enfolded; she sank on the nest, dropping her eyelids. + +But he said nothing. She looked up at him. Her strained pale eyes +provoked a closer embrace. + +'This would be the home for you if we were flying,' said he, glancing +round at the room, with a sensation like a shudder, 'Tell me what there +is to be told.' + +'Alvan, I have; that is all. They will not listen; they loathe Oh! what +possesses them!' + +'They have not met me yet!' + +'They will not, will not ever--no!' + +'They must.' + +'They refuse. Their child, for daring to say she loves you, is detested. +Take me--take me away!' + +'Run?--facing the enemy?' His countenance was the fiery laugh of a +thirster for strife. 'They have to be taught the stuff Alvan is made +of!' + +Clotilde moaned to signify she was sure he nursed an illusion. 'I found +them celebrating the betrothal of my sister Lotte with the Austrian Count +Walburg; I thought it favourable for us. I spoke of you to my mother. +Oh, that scene! What she said I cannot recollect: it was a hiss. Then +my father. Your name changed his features and his voice. They treated +me as impure for mentioning it. You must have deadly enemies. +I was unable to recognize either father or mother--they have become +transformed. But you see I am here. Courage! you said; and I +determined I would show it, and be worthy of you. But I am pursued, +I am sure. My father is powerful in this place; we shall barely have +time to escape.' + +Alvan's resolution was taken. + +'Some friend--a lady living in the city here--name her, quick!--one you +can trust,' he said, and fondled her hastily, much as a gentle kind of +drillmaster straightens a fair pupil's shoulders. 'Yes, you have shown +courage. Now it must be submission to me. You shall be no runaway +bride, but honoured at the altar. Out of this hotel is the first point. +You know some such lady?' + +Clotilde tried to remonstrate and to suggest. She could have prophesied +certain evil from any evasion of the straight line of flight; she was so +sure of it because of her intuition that her courage had done its utmost +in casting her on him, and that the remainder within her would be a +drawing back. She could not get the word or even the look to encounter +his close and warm imperiousness; and, hesitating, she noticed where they +were together alone. She could not refuse the protection he offered in a +person of her own sex; and now, flushing with the thought of where they +were together alone, feminine modesty shrivelled at the idea of +entreating a man to bear her off, though feminine desperation urged to +it. She felt herself very bare of clothing, and she named a lady, a +Madame Emerly, living near the hotel. Her heart sank like a stone. +'It is for you!' cried Alvan, keenly sensible of his loss and his +generosity in temporarily resigning her--for a subsequent triumph. +'But my wife shall not be snatched by a thief in the night. Are you not +my wife--my golden bride? And you may give me this pledge of it, as if +the vows had just been uttered . . . and still I resign you till we +speak the vows. It shall not be said of Alvan's wife, in the days of her +glory, that she ran to her nuptials through rat-passages.' + +His pride in his prevailingness thrilled her. She was cooled by her +despondency sufficiently to perceive where the centre of it lay, but that +centre of self was magnificent; she recovered some of her enthusiasm, +thinking him perhaps to be acting rightly; in any case they were united, +her step was irrevocable. Her having entered the hotel, her being in +this room, certified to that. It seemed to her while she was waiting for +the carriage he had ordered that she was already half a wife. She was +not conscious of a blush. The sprite in the young woman's mind whispered +of fire not burning when one is in the heart of it. And undoubtedly, +contemplated from the outside, this room was the heart of fire. An +impulse to fall on Alvan's breast and bless him for his chivalrousness +had to be kept under lest she should wreck the thing she praised. +Otherwise she was not ill at ease. Alvan summoned his gaiety, all his +homeliness of tone, to give her composure, and on her quitting the room +she was more than ever bound to him, despite her gloomy foreboding. +A maid of her household, a middle-aged woman, gabbling of devotion to +her, ran up the steps of the hotel. Her tale was, that the General had +roused the city in pursuit of his daughter; and she heard whither +Clotilde was going. + +Within half an hour, Clotilde was in Madame Emerly's drawing-room +relating her desperate history of love and parental tyranny, assisted by +the lover whom she had introduced. Her hostess promised shelter and +exhibited sympathy. The whole Teutonic portion of the Continent knew +Alvan by reputation. He was insurrectionally notorious in morals and +menacingly in politics; but his fine air, handsome face, flowing tongue, +and the signal proof of his respect for the lady of his love and +deference toward her family, won her personally. She promised the best +help she could give them. They were certainly in a romantic situation, +such as few women could see and decline their aid to the lovers. + +Madame Emerly proved at least her sincerity before many minutes had +passed. + +Chancing to look out into the street, she saw Clotilde's mother and her +betrothed sister stepping up to the house. What was to be done? And was +the visit accidental? She announced it, and Clotilde cried out, but +Alvan cried louder: 'Heaven-directed! and so, let me see her and speak +to her--nothing could be better.' + +Madame Emerly took mute counsel of Clotilde, shaking her own head +premonitorily; and then she said: 'I think indeed it will be safer, +if I am asked, to say you are not here, and I know not where you are.' + +'Yes! yes!' Clotilde replied: 'Oh! do that.' + +She half turned to Alvan, rigid with an entreaty that hung on his coming +voice. + +'No!' said Alvan, shocked in both pride and vanity. 'Plain-dealing; no +subterfuge! Begin with foul falsehood? No. I would not have you +burdened, madame, with the shadow of a conventional untruth on our +account. And when it would be bad policy? . . . Oh, no, worse than +the sin! as the honest cynic says. We will go down to Madame von +Rudiger, and she shall make acquaintance with the man who claims her +daughter's hand.' + +Clotilde rocked in an agony. Her friend was troubled. Both ladies knew +what there would be to encounter better than he. But the man, strong in +his belief in himself, imposed his will on them. + +Alvan and Clotilde clasped hands as they went downstairs to Madame +Emerly's reception room. She could hardly speak: 'Do not forsake me.' + +'Is this forsaking?' He could ask it in the deeply questioning tone +which supplies the answer. + +'Oh, Alvan!' She would have said: 'Be warned.' + +He kissed her fingers. 'Trust to me.' + +She had to wrap her shivering spirit in a blind reliance and utter +leaning on him. + +She could almost have said: 'Know me better'; and she would, sincere as +her passion in its shallow vessel was, have been moved to say it for a +warning while yet there was time to leave the house instead of turning +into that room, had not a remainder of her first exaltation (rapidly +degenerating to desperation) inspired her with the thought of her being a +part of this handsome, undaunted, triumph-flashing man. + +Such a state of blind reliance and utter leaning, however, has a certain +tendency to disintegrate the will, and by so doing it prepares the spirit +to be a melting prize of the winner. + +Men and women alike, who renounce their own individuality by cowering +thus abjectly under some other before the storm, are in reality abjuring +their idea of that other, and offering themselves up to the genius of +Power in whatsoever direction it may chance to be manifested, in +whatsoever person. We no sooner shut our eyes than we consent to be +prey, we lose the soul of election. + +Mark her as she proceeds. For should her hero fail, and she be suffering +through his failure and her reliance on him, the blindness of it will +seem to her to have been an infinite virtue, anything but her deplorable +weakness crouching beneath his show of superhuman strength. And it will +seem to her, so long as her sufferings endure, that he deceived her just +expectations, and was a vain pretender to the superhuman:--for it was +only a superhuman Jew and democrat whom she could have thought of +espousing. The pusillanimous are under a necessity to be self-consoled +when they are not self-justified: it is their instinctive manner of +putting themselves in the right to themselves. The love she bore him, +because it was the love his high conceit exacted, hung on success she was +ready to fly with him and love him faithfully but not without some reason +(where reason, we will own, should not quite so coldly obtrude) will it +seem to her, that the man who would not fly, and would try the conflict, +insisted to stake her love on the issue he provoked. He roused the +tempest, he angered the Fates, he tossed her to them; and reason, coldest +reason, close as it ever is to the craven's heart in its hour of trial, +whispers that he was prompted to fling the gambler's die by the swollen +conceit in his fortune rather than by his desire for the prize. That +frigid reason of the craven has red-hot perceptions. It spies the spot +of truth. Were the spot revealed in the man the whole man, then, so +unerring is the eyeshot at him, we should have only to transform +ourselves into cowards fronting a crisis to read him through and topple +over the Sphinx of life by presenting her the sum of her most mysterious +creature in an epigram. But there was as much more in Alvan than any +faint-hearted thing, seeing however keenly, could see, as there is more +in the world than the epigrams aimed at it contain. + +'Courage!' said he: and she tremblingly: 'Be careful!' And then they were +in the presence of her mother and sister. + +Her sister was at the window, hanging her head low, a poor figure. Her +mother stood in the middle of the room, and met them full face, with a +woman's combative frown of great eyes, in which the stare is a bolt. + +'Away with that man! I will not suffer him near me,' she cried. + +Alvan advanced to her: 'Tell me, madame, in God's name, what you have +against me.' + +She swung her back on him. 'Go, sir! my husband will know how to deal +with one like you. Out of my sight, I say!' + +The brutality of this reception of Alvan nerved Clotilde. She went up to +him, and laying her hand on his arm, feeling herself almost his equal, +said: 'Let us go: come. I will not bear to hear you so spoken to. No +one shall treat you like that when I am near.' + +She expected him to give up the hopeless task, after such an experience +of the commencement. He did but clasp her hand, assuring the Frau von +Rudiger that no word of hers could irritate him. 'Nothing can make me +forget that you are Clotilde's mother. You are the mother of the lady I +love, and may say what you will to me, madame. I bear it.' + +'A man spotted with every iniquity the world abhors, and I am to see him +holding my daughter by the hand!--it is too abominable! And because +there is no one present to chastise him, he dares to address me and talk +of his foul passion for my daughter. I repeat: that which you have to do +is to go. My ears are shut. You can annoy, you can insult, you cannot +move me. Go.' She stamped: her aspect spat. + +Alvan bowed. Under perfect self-command, he said: 'I will go at once to +Clotilde's father. I may hope, that with a reasonable man I shall +speedily come to an understanding.' + +She retorted: 'Enter his house, and he will have you driven out by his +lacqueys.' + +'Hardly: I am not of those men who are driven from houses,' Alvan said, +smiling. 'But, madame, I will act on your warning, and spare her father, +for all sakes, the attempt; seeing he does not yet know whom he deals +with. I will write to him.' + +'Letters from you will be flung back unopened. + +'It may, of course, be possible to destroy even my patience, madame.' + +'Mine, sir, is at an end.' + +'You reduce us to rely on ourselves; it is the sole alternative.' + +'You have not waited for that,' rejoined Frau von Rudiger. 'You have +already destroyed my daughter's reputation by inducing her to leave her +father's house and hesitate to return. Oh! you are known. You are known +for your dealings with women as well as men. We know you. We have, we +pray to God, little more to learn of you. You! ah--thief!' + +'Thief!' Alvan's voice rose on hers like the clapping echo of it. She +had up the whole angry pride of the man in arms, and could discern that +she had struck the wound in his history; but he was terrible to look at, +so she made the charge supportable by saying: + +'You have stolen my child from me!' + +Clotilde raised her throat, shrewish in excitement. 'False! He did not. +I went to him of my own will, to run from your heartlessness, mother-- +that I call mother!--and be out of hearing of my father's curses and +threats. Yes, to him I fled, feeling that I belonged more to him than to +you. And never will I return to you. You have killed my love; I am this +man's own because I love him only; him ever! him you abuse, as his +partner in life for all it may give!--as his wife! Trample on him, you +trample on me. Make black brows at your child for choosing the man, of +all men alive, to worship and follow through the world. I do. I am his. +I glory in him.' + +Her gaze on Alvan said: 'Now!' Was she not worthy of him now? And would +they not go forth together now? Oh! now! + +Her gaze was met by nothing like the brilliant counterpart she merited. +It was as if she had offered her beauty to a glass, and found a +reflection in dull metal. He smiled calmly from her to her mother. He +said: + +'You accuse me of stealing your child, madame. You shall acknowledge +that you have wronged me. Clotilde, my Clotilde! may I count on you to +do all and everything for me? Is there any sacrifice I could ask that +would be too hard for you? Will you at one sign from me go or do as I +request you?' + +She replied, in an anguish over the chilling riddle of his calmness: 'I +will,' but sprang out of that obedient consent, fearful of over-acting +her part of slave to him before her mother, in a ghastly apprehension of +the part he was for playing to the same audience. 'Yes, I will do all, +all that you command. I am yours. I will go with you. Bid me do +whatever you can think of, all except bid me go back to the people I have +hitherto called mine:--not that!' + +'And that is what I have to request of you,' said he, with his calm smile +brightening and growing more foreign, histrionic, unreadable to her. +'And this greatest sacrifice that you can perform for me, are you +prepared to do it? Will you?' + +She tried to decipher the mask he wore: it was proof against her +imploring eyes. 'If you can ask me--if you can positively wish it--yes,' +she said. 'But think of what you are doing. Oh! Alvan, not back to +them! Think!' + +He smiled insufferably. He was bent on winning a parent-blest bride, +an unimpeachable wife, a lady handed to him instead of taken, one of the +world's polished silver vessels. + +'Think that you are doing this for me!' said he. 'It is for my sake. +And now, madame, I give you back your daughter. You see she is mine to +give, she obeys me, and I--though it can be only for a short time--give +her back to you. She goes with you purely because it is my wish: do not +forget that. And so, madame, I have the honour,' he bowed profoundly. + +He turned to Clotilde and drew her within his arm. 'What you have done +in obedience to my wish, my beloved, shall never be forgotten. Never can +I sufficiently thank you. I know how much it has cost you. But here is +the end of your trials. All the rest is now my task. Rely on me with +your whole heart. Let them not misuse you: otherwise do their bidding. +Be sure of my knowing how you are treated, and at the slightest act of +injustice I shall be beside you to take you to myself. Be sure of that, +and be not unhappy. They shall not keep you from me for long. Submit a +short while to the will of your parents: mine you will find the stronger. +Resolve it in your soul that I, your lover, cannot fail, for it is +impossible to me to waver. Consider me as the one fixed light in your +world, and look to me. Soon, then! Have patience, be true, and we are +one!' + +He kissed cold lips, he squeezed an inanimate hand. The horribly empty +sublimity of his behaviour appeared to her in her mother's contemptuous +face. + +His eyes were on her as he released her and she stood alone. She seemed +a dead thing; but the sense of his having done gloriously in mastering +himself to give these worldly people of hers a lesson and proof that he +could within due measure bow to their laws and customs, dispelled the +brief vision of her unfitness to be left. The compressed energy of the +man under his conscious display of a great-minded deference to the claims +of family ties and duties, intoxicated him. He thought but of the +present achievement and its just effect: he had cancelled a bad +reputation among these people, from whom he was about to lead forth a +daughter for Alvan's wife, and he reasoned by the grandeur of his +exhibition of generosity--which was brought out in strong relief when he +delivered his retiring bow to the Frau von Rudiger's shoulder--that the +worst was over; he had to deal no more with silly women: now for +Clotilde's father! Women were privileged to oppose their senselessness +to the divine fire: men could not retreat behind such defences; they must +meet him on the common ground of men, where this constant battler had +never yet encountered a reverse. + +Clotilde's cold staring gaze, a little livelier to wonderment than to +reflection, observed him to be scrupulous of the formalities in the +diverse character of his parting salutations to her mother, her sister; +and the lady of the house. He was going--he could actually go and leave +her! She stretched herself to him faintly; she let it be seen that she +did so as much as she had force to make it visible. She saw him smiling +incomprehensibly, like a winner of the field to be left to the enemy. +She could get nothing from him but that insensible round smile, and she +took the ebbing of her poor effort for his rebuff. + +'You that offered yourself in flight to him who once proposed it, he had +the choice of you and he abjured you. He has cast you off!' + +She phrased it in speech to herself. It was incredible, but it was +clear: he had gone. + +The room was vacant; the room was black and silent as a dungeon. + +'He will not have you: he has handed you back to them the more readily to +renounce you.' + +She framed the words half aloud in a moan as she glanced at her mother +heaving in stern triumph, her sister drooping, Madame Emerly standing at +the window. + +The craven's first instinct for safety, quick as the cavern lynx for +light, set her on the idea that she was abandoned: it whispered of +quietness if she submitted. + +And thus she reasoned: Had Alvan taken her, she would not have been +guilty of more than a common piece of love-desperation in running to him, +the which may be love's glory when marriage crowns it. By his rejecting +her and leaving her, he rendered her not only a runaway, but a castaway. +It was not natural that he should leave her; 'not natural in him to act +his recent part; but he had done it; consequently she was at the mercy of +those who might pick her up. She was, in her humiliation and dread, all +of the moment, she could see to no distance; and judging of him, feeling +for herself, within that contracted circle of sensation--sure, from her +knowledge of her cowardice, that he had done unwisely--she became swayed +about like a castaway in soul, until her distinguishing of his mad +recklessness in the challenge of a power greater than his own grew +present with her as his personal cruelty to the woman who had flung off +everything, flung herself on the tempestuous deeps, on his behalf. And +here she was, left to float or founder! Alvan had gone. The man rageing +over the room, abusing her 'infamous lover, the dirty Jew, the notorious +thief, scoundrel, gallowsbird,' etc., etc., frightful epithets, not to be +transcribed--was her father. He had come, she knew not how. Alvan had +tossed her to him. + +Abuse of a lover is ordinarily retorted on in the lady's heart by the +brighter perception of his merits; but when the heart is weak, the +creature suffering shame, her lover the cause of it, and seeming cruel, +she is likely to lose all perception and bend like a flower pelted. Her +cry to him: 'If you had been wiser, this would not have been!' will sink +to the inward meditation: 'If he had been truer!'--and though she does +not necessarily think him untrue for charging him with it, there is +already a loosening of the bonds where the accusation has begun. They +are not broken because they are loosened: still the loosening of them +makes it possible to cut them with less of a snap and less pain. + +Alvan had relinquished her he loved to brave the tempest in a frail small +boat, and he certainly could not have apprehended the furious outbreak +she was exposed to. She might so far have exonerated him had she been +able to reflect; but she whom he had forced to depend on him in blind +reliance, now opened her eyes on an opposite power exercising material +rigours. After having enjoyed extraordinary independence for a young +woman, she was treated as a refractory child, literally marched through +the streets in the custody of her father, who clutched her by the hair- +Alvan's beloved golden locks!--and held her under terror of a huge +forester's weapon, that he had seized at the first tidings of his +daughter's flight to the Jew. He seemed to have a grim indifference to +exposure; contempt, with a sense of the humour of it: and this was a +satisfaction to him, founded on his practical observance of two or three +maxims quite equal to the fullest knowledge of women for rightly managing +them: preferable, inasmuch as they are simpler, and, by merely cracking a +whip, bring her back to the post, instead of wasting time by hunting her +as she likes to run. Police were round his house. The General chattered +and shouted of the desperate lawlessness and larcenies of that Jew--the +things that Jew would attempt. He dragged her indoors, muttering of his +policy in treating her at last to a wholesome despotism. + +This was the medicine for her--he knew her! Whether he did or not, he +knew the potency of his physic. He knew that osiers can be made to bend. +With a frightful noise of hammering, he himself nailed up the window- +shutters of the room she was locked in hard and fast, and he left her +there and roared across the household that any one holding communication +with the prisoner should be shot like a dog. This was a manifestation of +power in a form more convincing than the orator's. + +She was friendless, abused, degraded, benighted in broad daylight; +abandoned by her lover. She sank on the floor of the room, conceiving +with much strangeness of sentiment under these hard stripes of +misfortune, that reality had come. The monster had hold of her. She was +isolated, fed like a dungeoned captive. She had nothing but our natural +obstinacy to hug, or seem to do so when wearifulness reduced her to cling +to the semblance of it only. 'I marry Alvan!' was her iterated answer to +her father, on his visits to see whether he had yet broken her; and she +spoke with the desperate firmness of weak creatures that strive to nail +themselves to the sound of it. He listened and named his time for +returning. The tug between rigour and endurance continued for about +forty hours. She then thought, in an exhaustion: 'Strange that my father +should be so fiercely excited against this man! Can he have reasons I +have not heard of?' Her father's unwonted harshness suggested the +question in her quailing nature, which was beginning to have a movement +to kiss the whip. The question set her thinking of the reasons she knew. +She saw them involuntarily from the side of parents, and they wore a +sinister appearance; in reality her present scourging was due to them as +well as to Alvan's fatal decision. Her misery was traceable to his +conduct and his judgement--both bad. And yet all this while he might be +working to release her, near upon rescuing! She swung round to the side +of her lover against these executioner parents, and scribbled to him as +well as she could under the cracks in her windowshutters, urging him to +appear. She spent her heart on it. A note to her friend, the English +lady, protested her love for Alvan, but with less abandonment, with a +frozen resignation to the loss of him--all around her was so dark! By- +and-by there was a scratching at her door. The maid whom she trusted +brought her news of Alvan: outside the door and in, the maid and mistress +knelt. Hope flickered up in the bosom of Clotilde: the whispers were +exchanged through the partition. + +'Where is he?' + +'Gone.' + +'But where?' + +'He has left the city.' + +Clotilde pushed the letter for her friend under the door: that one for +Alvan she retained, stung by his desertion of her, and thinking +practically that it was useless to aim a letter at a man without an +address. She did not ask herself whether the maid's information was +honest, for she wanted to despair, as the exhausted want to lie down. + +She wept through the night. It was one of those nights of the torrents +of tears which wash away all save the adamantine within us, if there be +ought of that besides the breathing structure. The reason why she wept +with so delirious a persistency was, that her nature felt the necessity +for draining her of her self-pitifulness, knowing that it nourished the +love whereby she was tormented. They do not weep thus who have a heart +for the struggle. In the morning she was a dried channel of tears, no +longer self-pitiful; careless of herself, as she thought: in other words, +unable any further to contend. + +Reality was too strong! This morning her sisters came to her room +imploring her to yield:--if she married Alvan, what could be their +prospects as the sisters-in law of such a man?--her betrothed sister +Lotte could not hope to espouse Count Walburg: Alvan's name was infamous +in society; their house would be a lazar-house, they would be condemned +to seclusion. A favourite brother followed, with sympathy that set her +tears running again, and arguments she could not answer: how could he +hold up his head in his regiment as the relative of the scandalous Jew +democrat? He would have to leave the service, or be duelling with his +brother officers every other day of his life, for rightly or wrongly +Alvan was abhorred, and his connection would be fatal to them all, +perhaps to her father's military and diplomatic career principally: the +head of their house would be ruined. She was compelled to weep again by +having no other reply. The tears were now mixed drops of pity for her +absent lover and her family; she was already disunited from him when she +shed them, feeling that she was dry rock to herself, heartless as many +bosoms drained of self-pity will become. + +Incapable of that any further, she leaned still in that direction and had +a languid willingness to gain outward comfort. To be caressed a little +by her own kindred before she ceased to live was desireable after her +heavy scourging. She wished for the touches of affection, knowing them +to be selfish, but her love of life and hard view of its reality made +them seem a soft reminder of what life had been. Alvan had gone. Her +natural blankness of imagination read his absence as an entire +relinquishment; it knelled in a vacant chamber. He had gone; he had +committed an irretrievable error, he had given up a fight of his own vain +provoking, that was too severe for him: he was not the lover he fancied +himself, or not the lord of men she had fancied him. Her excessive +misery would not suffer a picture of him, not one clear recollection of +him, to stand before her. He who should have been at hand, had gone, and +she was fearfully beset, almost lifeless; and being abandoned, her blank +night of imagination felt that there was nothing left for her save to +fall upon those nearest. + +She gave her submission to her mother. In her mind, during the last +wrestling with a weakness that was alternately her love, and her +cowardice, the interpretation of the act ran: 'He may come, and I am his +if he comes: and if not, I am bound to my people.' He had taught her to +rely on him blindly, and thus she did it inanimately while cutting +herself loose from him. In a similar mood, the spiritual waverer vows to +believe if the saint will appear. However, she submitted. Then there +was joy in the family, and she tasted their caresses. + + + + +CHAPTER IX + +After his deed of loftiness Alvan walked to his hotel, where the sight of +the room Clotilde had entered that morning caught his breath. He +proceeded to write his first letter to General von Rudiger, repressing +his heart's intimations that he had stepped out of the friendly path, and +was on a strange and tangled one. The sense of power in him was leonine +enough to promise the forcing of a way whithersoever the path: yet did +that ghost of her figure across the room haunt him with searching eyes. +They set him spying over himself at an actor who had not needed to be +acting his part, brilliant though it was. He crammed his energy into his +idea of the part, to carry it forward victoriously. Before the world, +it would without question redound to his credit, and he heard the world +acclaiming him: + +'Alvan's wife was honourably won, as became the wife of a Doctor of Law, +from the bosom of her family, when he could have had her in the old +lawless fashion, for a call to a coachman! Alvan, the republican, is +eminently a citizen. Consider his past life by that test of his +character.' + +He who had many times defied the world in hot rebellion, had become, +through his desire to cherish a respectable passion, if not exactly +slavish to it, subservient, as we see royal personages, that are happy to +be on bowing terms with the multitude bowing lower. Lower, of course, +the multitude must bow, to inspire an august serenity; but the nod they +have in exchange for it is not an independent one. Ceasing to be a +social rebel, he conceived himself as a recognized dignitary, and he +passed under the bondage of that position. + +Clotilde had been in this room; she had furnished proof that she could be +trusted now. She had committed herself, perished as a maiden of society, +and her parents, even the senseless mother, must see it and decide by it. +The General would bring her to reason: General von Rudiger was a man of +the world. An honourable son-in-law could not but be acceptable to him-- +now, at least. And such a son-in-law would ultimately be the pride of +his house. 'A flower from thy garden, friend, and my wearing it shall in +good time be cause for some parental gratification.' + +The letter despatched, Alvan paced his chamber with the ghost of +Clotilde. He was presently summoned to meet Count Walburg and another +intimate of the family, in the hotel downstairs. These gentlemen brought +no message from General von Rudiger: their words were directed to extract +a promise from him that he would quit his pursuit of Clotilde, and of +course he refused; they hinted that the General might have official +influence to get him expelled the city, and he referred them to the +proof; but he looked beyond the words at a new something of extraordinary +and sinister aspect revealed to him in their manner of treating his +pretensions to the hand of the lady. + +He had not yet perfectly seen the view the world took of him, because of +his armed opposition to the world; nor could he rightly reflect on it +yet, being too anxious to sign the peace. He felt as it were a blow +startling him from sleep. His visitors tasked themselves to be strictly +polite; they did not undervalue his resources for commanding respect +between man and man. The strange matter was behind their bearing, which +indicated the positive impossibility of the union of Clotilde with one +such as he, and struck at the curtain covering his history. He could not +raise it to thunder his defence of himself, or even allude to the implied +contempt of his character: with a boiling gorge he was obliged to swallow +both the history and the insult, returning them the equivalent of their +courtesies, though it was on his lips to thunder heavily. + +A second endeavour, in an urgent letter before nightfall to gain him +admission to head-quarters, met the same repulse as the foregoing. The +bearer of it was dismissed without an answer. + +Alvan passed a night of dire disturbance. The fate of the noble Genoese +conspirator, slipping into still harbour water on the step from boat to +boat, and borne down by the weight of his armour in the moment of the +ripeness of his plot at midnight, when the signal for action sparkled to +lighten across the ships and forts, had touched him in his boy's +readings, and he found a resemblance of himself to Fiesco, stopped as he +was by a base impediment, tripped ignominiously, choked by the weight of +the powers fitting him for battle. A man such as Alvan, arrested on his +career by an opposition to his enrolment of a bride!--think of it! What +was this girl in a life like his? But, oh! the question was no sooner +asked than the thought that this girl had been in this room illuminated +the room, telling him she might have been his own this instant, +confounding him with an accusation of madness for rejecting her. +Why had he done it? Surely women, weak women, must be at times divinely +inspired. She warned him against the step. But he, proud of his +armoury, went his way. He choked, he suffered the torture of the mailed +Genoese going under; worse, for the drowner's delirium swirls but a +minute in the gaping brain, while he had to lie all, night at the mercy +of the night. + +He was only calmer when morning came. Night has little mercy for the +self-reproachful, and for a strong man denouncing the folly of his error, +it has none. The bequest of the night was a fever of passion; and upon +that fever the light of morning cleared his head to weigh the force +opposing him. He gnawed the paradox, that it was huge because it was +petty, getting a miserable sour sustenance out of his consciousness of +the position it explained. Great enemies, great undertakings, would have +revived him as they had always revived and fortified. But here was a +stolid small obstacle, scarce assailable on its own level; and he had +chosen that it should be attacked through its own laws and forms. By +shutting a door, by withholding an answer to his knocks, the thing +reduced him to hesitation. And the thing had weapons to shoot at him; +his history, his very blood, stood open to its shafts; and the sole +quality of a giant, which he could show to front it, was the breath of +one for a mark. + +These direct perceptions of the circumstances were played on by the fever +he drew from his Fiesco bed. Accuracy of vision in our crises is not so +uncommon as the proportionate equality of feeling: we do indeed. +frequently see with eyes of just measurement while we are conducting +ourselves like madmen. The facts are seen, and yet the spinning nerves +will change their complexion; and without enlarging or minimizing, they +will alternate their effect on us immensely through the colour presenting +them now sombre, now hopeful: doing its work of extravagance upon +perceptibly plain matter. The fitful colour is the fever. He must win +her, for he never yet had failed--he had lost her by his folly! She was +his--she was torn from him! She would come at his bidding--she would +cower to her tyrants! The thought of her was life and death in his +frame, bright heaven and the abyss. At one beat of the heart she swam to +his arms, at another he was straining over darkness. And whose the +fault? + +He rose out of his amazement crying it with a roar, and foreignly +beholding himself. He pelted himself with epithets; his worst enemies +could not have been handier in using them. From Alvan to Alvan, they +signified such an earthquake in a land of splendid structures as shatters +to dust the pride of the works of men. He was down among them, lower +than the herd, rolling in vulgar epithets that, attached to one like him, +became of monstrous distortion. O fool! dolt! blind ass! tottering +idiot! drunken masquerader! miserable Jack Knave, performing suicide +with that blessed coxcomb air of curling a lock!--Clotilde! Clotilde! +Where has one read the story of a man who had the jewel of jewels in his +hand, and flung in into the deeps, thinking that he flung a pebble? +Fish, fool, fish! and fish till Doomsday! There's nothing but your +fool's face in the water to be got to bite at the bait you throw, fool! +Fish for the flung-away beauty, and hook your shadow of a Bottom's head! +What impious villain was it refused the gift of the gods, that he might +have it bestowed on him according to his own prescription of the +ceremonies! They laugh! By Orcus! how they laugh! The laughter of the +gods is the lightning of death's irony over mortals. Can they have a +finer subject than a giant gone fool? + +Tears burst from him: tears of rage, regret, selflashing. O for +yesterday! He called aloud for the recovery of yesterday, bellowed, +groaned. A giant at war with pigmies, having nought but their weapons, +having to fight them on his knees, to fight them with the right hand +while smiting himself with the left, has too much upon him to keep his +private dignity in order. He was the same in his letters--a Cyclops +hurling rocks and raising the seas to shipwreck. Dignity was cast off; +he came out naked. Letters to Clotilde, and to the baroness, to the +friend nearest him just then, Colonel von Tresten, calling them to him, +were dashed to paper in this naked frenzy, and he could rave with all the +truth of life, that to have acted the idiot, more than the loss of the +woman, was the ground of his anguish. Each antecedent of his career had +been a step of strength and success departed. The woman was but a +fragment of the tremendous wreck; the woman was utterly diminutive, yet +she was the key of the reconstruction; the woman won, he would be himself +once more: and feeling that, his passion for her swelled to full tide and +she became a towering splendour whereat his eyeballs ached, she became a +melting armful that shook him to big bursts of tears. + +The feeling of the return of strength was his love in force. The giant +in him loved her warmly. Her sweetness, her archness, the opening of her +lips, their way of holding closed, and her brightness of wit, her tender +eyelashes, her appreciating looks, her sighing, the thousand varying +shades of her motions and her features interflowing like a lighted water, +swam to him one by one like so many handmaiden messengers distinctly +beheld of the radiant indistinct whom he adored with more of spirit in +his passion than before this tempest. A giant going through a giant's +contortions, fleshly as the race of giants, and gross, coarse, dreadful, +likely to be horrible when whipped and stirred to the dregs, Alvan was +great-hearted: he could love in his giant's fashion, love and lay down +life for the woman he loved, though the nature of the passion was not +heavenly; or for the friend who would have to excuse him often; or for +the public cause--which was to minister to his appetites. He was true +man, a native of earth, and if he could not quit his huge personality to +pipe spiritual music during a storm of trouble, being a soul wedged in +the gnarled wood of the standing giant oak, and giving mighty sound of +timber at strife rather than the angelical cry, he suffered, as he loved, +to his depths. + +We have not to plumb the depths; he was not heroic, but hugely man. +Love and man sometimes meet for noble concord; the strings of the hungry +instrument are not all so rough that Love's touch on them is +indistinguishable from the rattling of the wheels within; certain herald +harmonies have been heard. But Love, which purifies and enlarges us, +and sets free the soul, Love visiting a fleshly frame must have time and +space, and some help of circumstance, to give the world assurance that +the man is a temple fit for the rites. Out of romances, he is not +melodiously composed. And in a giant are various giants to be slain, +or thoroughly subdued, ere this divinity is taken for leader. It is not +done by miracle. + +As it happened cruelly for Alvan, the woman who had become the radiant +indistinct in his desiring mind was one whom he knew to be of a shivery +stedfastness. His plucking her from another was neither wonderful nor +indefensible; they two were suited as no other two could be; the handsome +boy who had gone through a form of plighting with her was her slave, and +she required for her mate a master: she felt it and she sided to him +quite naturally, moved by the sacred direction of the acknowledgement of +a mutual fitness. Twice, however, she had relapsed on the occasions of +his absence, and owning his power over her when they were together again, +she sowed the fatal conviction that he held her at present, and that she +was a woman only to be held at present, by the palpable grasp of his +physical influence. Partly it was correct, not entirely, seeing that she +kept the impression of a belief in him even when she drifted away through +sheer weakness, but it was the single positive view he had of her, and it +was fatal, for it begat a devil of impatience. + +'They are undermining her now--now--now!' + +He started himself into busy frenzies to reach to her, already +indifferent to the means, and waxing increasingly reckless as he fed on +his agitation. Some faith in her, even the little she deserved, would +have arrested him: unhappily he had less than she, who had enough to +nurse the dim sense of his fixity, and sank from him only in her heart's +faintness, but he, when no longer flattered by the evidence of his +mastery, took her for sand. Why, then, had he let her out of his grasp? +The horrid echoed interrogation flashed a hideous view of the woman. But +how had he come to be guilty of it? he asked himself again; and, without +answering him, his counsellors to that poor wisdom set to work to +complete it: Giant Vanity urged Giant Energy to make use of Giant +Duplicity. He wrote to Clotilde, with one voice quoting the law in their +favour, with another commanding her to break it. He gathered and drilled +a legion of spies, and showered his gold in bribes and plots to get the +letter to her, to get an interview--one human word between them. + + + + +CHAPTER X + +His friend Colonel von Tresten was beside him when he received the +enemy's counter-stroke. Count Walburg and his companion brought a letter +from Clotilde--no reply; a letter renouncing him. + +Briefly, in cold words befitting the act, she stated that the past must +be dead between them; for the future she belonged to her parents; she had +left the city. She knew not where he might be, her letter concluded, but +henceforward he should know that they were strangers. + +Alvan held out the deadly paper when he had read the contents; he smote a +forefinger on it and crumpled it in his hand. That was the dumb oration +of a man shocked by the outrage upon passionate feeling to the state of +brute. His fist, outstretched to the length of his arm, shook the +reptile letter under a terrible frown. + +Tresten saw that he supposed himself to be perfectly master of his acts +because he had not spoken, and had managed to preserve the ordinary +courtesies. + +'You have done your commission,' the colonel said to Count Walburg, whose +companion was not disposed to go without obtaining satisfactory +assurances, and pressed for them. + +Alvan fastened on him. 'You adopt the responsibility of this?' He +displayed the letter. + +'I do.' + +'It lies.' + +Tresten remarked to Count Walburg: 'These visits are provocations.' + +'They are not so intended,' said the count, bowing pacifically. His +friend was not a man of the sword, and was not under the obligation to +accept an insult. They left the letter to do its work. + +Big natures in their fits of explosiveness must be taken by flying shots, +as dwarfs peep on a monster, or the Scythian attacked a phalanx. Were we +to hear all the roarings of the shirted Heracles, a world of comfortable +little ones would doubt the unselfishness of his love of Dejaneira. +Yes, really; they would think it was not a chivalrous love: they would +consider that he thought of himself too much. They would doubt, too, +of his being a gentleman! Partial glimpses of him, one may fear, will be +discomposing to simple natures. There was a short black eruption. Alvan +controlled it, to ask hastily what the baroness thought and what she had +heard of Clotilde. Tresten made sign that it was nothing of the best. + +'See! my girl has hundreds of enemies, and I, only I, know her and can +defend her--weak, base shallow trickster, traitress that she is!' cried +Alvan, and came down in a thundershower upon her: 'Yesterday--the day +before--when? just now, here, in this room; gave herself--and now!' +He bent, and immediately straightening his back, addressed Colonel von +Tresten as her calumniator, 'Say your worst of her, and I say I will make +of that girl the peerless woman of earth! I! in earnest! it's no dream. +She can be made . . . . O God! the beast has turned tail! I knew she +could. There 's three of beast to one of goddess in her, and set her +alone, and let her be hunted and I not by, beast it is with her! +cowardly skulking beast--the noblest and very bravest under my wing! +Incomprehensible to you, Tresten? But who understands women! You hate +her. Do not. She 's a riddle, but no worse than the rest of the tangle. +She gives me up? Pooh! She writes it. She writes anything. And that +vilest, I say, I will make more enviable, more Clotilde! he thundered her +signature in an amazement, broken suddenly by the sight of her putting +her name to the letter. She had done that, written her name to the +renunciation of him! No individual could bear the sight of such a crime, +and no suffering man could be appeased by a single victim to atone for +it. Her sex must be slaughtered; he raged against the woman; she became +that ancient poisonous thing, the woman; his fury would not distinguish +her as Clotilde, though the name had started him, and it was his +knowledge of the particular sinner which drew down his curses on the sex. +He twisted his body, hugging at his breast as if he had her letter +sticking in his ribs. The letter was up against his ribs, and he thumped +it, crushed it, patted it; he kissed it, and flung it, stamped on it, and +was foul-mouthed. Seeing it at his feet, he bent to it like a man +snapped in two, lamenting, bewailing himself, recovering sight of her +fragmentarily. It stuck in his ribs, and in scorn of the writer, and +sceptical of her penning it, he tugged to pull it out, and broke the +shaft, but left the rankling arrow-head:--she had traced the lines, and +though tyranny racked her to do that thing, his agony followed her hand +over the paper to her name, which fixed and bit in him like the deadly- +toothed arrow-head called asp, and there was no uprooting it. The thing +lived; her deed was the woman; there was no separating them: witness it +in love murdered. + +O that woman! She has murdered love. She has blotted love completely +out. She is the arch-thief and assassin of mankind--the female Apollyon. +He lost sight of her in the prodigious iniquity covering her sex with a +cowl of night, and it was what women are, what women will do, the one and +all alike simpering simulacra that men find them to be, soulless, clogs +on us, bloodsuckers! until a feature of the particular sinner peeped out +on him, and brought the fresh agony of a reminder of his great- +heartedness. 'For that woman--Tresten, you know me--I would have +sacrificed for that woman fortune and life, my hope, my duty, my +immortality. She knew it, and she--look!' he unwrinkled the letter +carefully for it to be legible, and clenched it in a ball.' Signs her +name, signs her name, her name!--God of heaven! it would be incredible in +a holy chronicle--signs her name to the infamous harlotry! See: +"Clotilde von Rudiger." It's her writing; that's her signature: +"Clotilde" in full. You'd hardly fancy that, now? But look!' the +colonel's eyelids were blinking, and Alvan dinted his finger-nail under +her name: 'there it is: Clotilde: signed shamelessly. Just as she might +have written to one of her friends about bonnets, and balls, and books! +Henceforward strangers, she and I?' + +His laughter, even to Tresten, a man of camps, sounded profane as a +yell beneath a cathedral dome. 'Why, the woman has been in my hands-- +I released her, spared her, drilled brain and blood, ransacked all the +code, to do her homage and honour in every mortal way; and we two +strangers! Do you hear that, Tresten? Why, if you had seen her!--she +was lost, and I, this man she now pierces with ice, kept hell down under +bolt and bar-worse, I believe, broke a good woman's heart! that never a +breath should rise that could accuse her on suspicion, or in malice, or +by accident, justly, or with a shadow of truth. "I think it best for us +both." So she thinks for me! She not only decides, she thinks; she is +the active principle; 'tis mine to submit.--A certain presumption was in +that girl always. Ha! do you hear me? Her letter may sting, it shall +not dupe. Strangers? Poor fool! You see plainly she was nailed down to +write the thing. This letter is a flat lie. She can lie--Oh! born to +the art! born to it!--lies like a Saint tricking Satan! But she says she +has left the city. Now to find her!' + +He began marching about the room with great strides. 'I 'll have the +whole Continent up; her keepers shall have no rest; I 'll have them by +the Law Courts; and by stratagem, and, if law and cunning fail, force. +I have sworn it. I have done all that honour can ask of a man; more than +any man, to my knowledge, would have done, and now it's war. I declare +war on them. They will have it! I mean to take that girl from them-- +snatch or catch! The girl is my girl, and if there are laws against my +having my own, to powder with the laws! Well, and do you suppose me +likely to be beaten? Then Cicero was a fiction, and Caesar a people's +legend. Not if they are history, and eloquence and commandership have +power over the blood and souls of men. First, I write to her!' + +His friend suggested that he knew not where she was. But already the pen +was at work, the brain pouring as from a pitcher. + +Writing was blood-letting, and the interminable pages drained him of his +fever. As he wrote, she grew more radiant, more indistinct, more +fiercely desired. The concentration of his active mind directed his +whole being on the track of Clotilde, idealizing her beyond human. +That last day when he had seen her appeared to him as the day of days. +That day was Clotilde herself, she in person; he saw it as the woman, +and saw himself translucent in the great luminousness; and behind it all +was dark, as in front. That one day was the sun of his life. It had +been a day of rain, and he beheld it in memory just as it had been, with +the dark threaded air, the dripping streets; and he glorified it past all +daily radiance. His letter was a burning hymn to the day. His moral +grandeur on the day made him live as part of the splendour. Was it +possible for the woman who had seen him then to be faithless to him? +The swift deduction from his own feelings cleansed her of a suspicion +to the contrary, and he became lighthearted. He hummed an air when he +had finished his letter to her. + +Councils with his adherents and couriers were held, and some were +despatched to watch the house and slip the letter to her maid; others +were told off to bribe and hound their way on the track of Clotilde. +His gold rained into their hands with the directions. + +Colonel von Tresten was the friend of his attachment to the baroness; +a friend of both, and a warm one. Men coming into contact with Alvan +took their shape of friend or enemy sharply, for he was friend or enemy. +of no dubious feature, devoted to them he loved, and a battery on them he +opposed. The colonel had been the confidant of the baroness's grief over +this love-passion of Alvan's, and her resignation. He shared her doubts +of Clotilde's nobility of character: the reports were not favourable to +the young lady. But the baroness and he were of one opinion, that Alvan +in love was not likely to be governable by prudent counsel. He dropped a +word of the whispers of Clotilde's volatility. + +Alvan nodded his perfect assent. 'She is that, she is anything you like; +you cannot exaggerate her for good or evil. She is matchless, colour her +as you please.' Adopting the tone of argument, he said: 'She writes that +letter. Well? It is her writing, and the moment, I am sure of it as +hers, I would not have it unwritten. I love it!' He looked maddish with +his love of the horrible thing, and resumed soberly: 'The point is, that +she has the charm for me. She is plastic in my hands. Other men would +waste the treasure. I make of her what I will, and she knows it, and +knows that she hangs on me to flourish worthily. I breathe the very soul +of the woman into her. As for that letter of hers--' it burnt him this +time to speak of the letter: 'she may write and write! She's weak, thin, +a reed; she--let her be! Say of her when she plays beast--she is absent +from Alvan! I can forgive. The letter's nothing; it means nothing-- +except "Thou fool, Alvan, to let me go." Yes, that! Her people are +acting tyrant with her--as legally they have no right to do in this +country, and I shall prove it to them. When I have gained admission to +her--and I soon shall: it can't be refused: I am off to the head of her +father's office to-morrow, and I have only to represent the state of +affairs to the Minister in my language to obtain his authority to demand +admission to her:--then, friend, you will see! I lift my finger, and you +will see! At my request she went back to her mother. I have but to +beckon.' + +He had cooled to the happy assurance of his authority over her, all the +giants of his system being well in action, and when that is the case with +a big nature it is at rest, or such is the condition of repose granted it +in life. + +On the morrow he was off to batter at doors which would have expected +rather the summons of an armed mob at his heels than the strange cry of +the Radical man maltreated by love. + + + + +CHAPTER XI + +The story of Clotilde's departure from the city, like that of Alvan's, +communicated to her by her maid, was an anticipation of the truth, +disseminated by her parents. She was removed when the swarm of spies and +secret letter-bearers were attaining a position of dignity through the +rumour of legal gentlemen about to direct the movements of the besieging +army. + +A stir seemed to her to prognosticate a rescue and she went not +unwillingly. To be in motion, to see roadside faces, pricked her senses +with some hope. She had gained the peace she needed, and in that state +her heart began to be agitated by a fresh awakening, luxurious at first +rather than troublesome. She had sunk so low that the light of Alvan +seemed too distant for a positive expectation of him; but few approached +her whom she did not fancy under strange disguises: the gentlemen were +servants, the blouses were gentlemen; she looked wistfully at old women +bearing baskets, for the forbidden fruit to peep out in the form of an +envelope. All passed her blankly, noticing her eyes. + +The journey was short; she was taken to a place a little beyond the head +of the lake, and there, though she had liberty to breathe the air, fast +fixed within the walls of a daily sameness that became gradually the hum +of voices accusing Alvan of one in excess of the many sins laid against +him by his enemies. Was he not possibly an empty pretender to power-- +a mere great talker? + +Her bit of liberty increased her chafing at the deadly monotony of this +existence, and envenomed the accusation by seeming to push her forth +quite half way to meet him, if he would but come or show sign! She +impetuously vindicated him from the charge of crediting the sincerity of +any words she might have committed to paper at the despotic dictation of +her father. Oh, no; Alvan could not be guilty of such folly as that; he +could not; it would be to suppose him unacquainted with her, ignorant of +the nature of women. He would know that she wrote the words--why? She +could not perfectly recollect how she had come to write them, and found +it easier to extinguish the act of having written them at all, which was +done by the angry recurrence to his failure to intervene now when the +drama cried for his godlike appearance. Perhaps he was really +unacquainted with her thought her stronger than she was! The idea +reflected a shadow on his intelligence. She was not in a situation that +could bear of her blaming herself. + +While she was thus devoured by the legions of her enfeebled wits, +Clotilde was assiduously courted by her family, and her father from time +to time brought pen and paper for her to write anew from his dictation. +He was pleased to hail her as his fair secretary, and when the letters +were unimportant she wrote flowingly, happy to be praised. They were +occasionally addressed to friends; she discovered herself writing one to +the professor, in which he was about to be informed that she had resolved +to banish Alvan from her mind for ever. She stopped; her heart stopped; +the pen fell from her hand, in loathing. Her father warily bade her +proceed. She could not; she signified it choking. Only a few days +before she had written to the professor exultingly of her engagement. +She refused to belie herself in such a manner; retrospectively her rapid +contradictions appeared impossible; the picture of her was not human, and +she gave out a negative of her whole frame convulsed, whereat the General +was not slow to remind her of the scourgings she had undergone by a +sudden burst of his wrath. He knew the proper physic. 'You girls want +the lesson we read to skittish recruits; you shall have it. Write: "He +is now as nothing to me." You shall write that you hate him, if you +hesitate! Why, you unreasonable slut, you have given him up; you have +told him you have given him up, and what objection can you have to +telling others now you have done it?' + +'I was forced to it, body and soul!' cried Clotilde, sobbing and bursting +into desperation out of a weak show of petulance that she had put on to +propitiate him. 'If I have to tell, I will tell how it was. For that my +heart is unchanged, and Alvan is, and will be, my lord, all the world may +see. I would rather write that I hate him.' + +'You write, the man is now as nothing to me!' said her father, dashing +his finger in a fiery zig-zag along the line for her pen to follow. 'Or +else, my girl, you've been playing us a pretty farce!' He strung himself +for a mad gallop of wrath, gave her a shudder, and relapsed. 'No, no, +you're wiser, you're a better girl than that. Write it. I must have it +written-here, come! The worst is over; the rest is child's play. Come, +take the pen, I'll guide your hand.' + +The pen was fixed in her hand, and the first words formed. They looked +such sprawling skeletons that Clotilde had the comfort of feeling sure +they would be discerned as the work of compulsion. So she wrote on +mechanically, solacing herself for what she did with vows of future +revolt. Alvan had a saying, that want of courage is want of sense; and +she remembered his illustration of how sense would nourish courage by +scattering the fear of death, if we would only grasp the thought that we +sink to oblivion gladly at night, and, most of us, quit it reluctantly in +the morning. She shut her eyes while writing; she fancied death would be +welcome; and as she certainly had sense, she took it for the promise of +courage. She flattered herself by believing, therefore, that she who did +not object to die was only awaiting the cruelly-delayed advent of her +lover to be almost as brave as he--the feminine of him. With these ideas +in her head much clearer than when she wrote the couple of lines to +Alvan--for then her head was reeling, she was then beaten and prostrate-- +she signed her name to a second renunciation of him, and was aware of a +flush of self-reproach at the simple suspicion of his being deceived by +it; it was an insult to his understanding. Full surely the professor +would not be deceived, and a lover with a heart to reach to her and read +her could never be hoodwinked by so palpable a piece of slavishness. She +was indeed slavish; the apology necessitated the confession. But that +promise of courage, coming of her ownership of sense, vindicated her +prospectively; she had so little of it that she embraced it as a present +possession, and she made it Alvan's task to put it to the trial. Hence +it became Alvan's offence if, owing to his absence, she could be charged +with behaving badly. Her generosity pardoned him his inexplicable delay +to appear in his might: 'But see what your continued delay causes!' she +said, and her tone was merely sorrowful. + +She had forgotten her signature to the letter to the professor when his +answer arrived. The sight of the handwriting of one of her lover's +faithfullest friends was like a peal of bells to her, and she tore the +letter open, and began to blink and spell at a strange language, taking +the frosty sentences piecemeal. He begged her to be firm in her +resolution, give up Alvan and obey her parents! This man of high +intelligence and cultivation wrote like a provincial schoolmistress +moralizing. Though he knew the depth of her passion for Alvan, and had +within the month received her lark-song of her betrothal, he, this man-- +if living man he could be thought--counselled her to endeavour to deserve +the love and respect of her parents, alluded to Alvan's age and her +better birth, approved her resolve to consult the wishes of her family, +and in fine was as rank a traitor to friendship as any chronicled. Out +on him! She swept him from earth. + +And she had built some of her hopes on the professor. 'False friend!' +she cried. + +She wept over Alvan for having had so false a friend. + +There remained no one that could be expected to intervene with a strong +arm save the baroness. The professor's emphasized approval of her +resolve to consult the wishes of her family was a shocking hypocrisy, and +Clotilde thought of the contrast to it in her letter to the baroness. +The tripping and stumbling, prettily awkward little tone of gosling +innocent new from its egg, throughout the letter, was a triumph of +candour. She repeated passages, paragraphs, of the letter, assuring +herself that such affectionately reverential prattle would have moved +her, and with the strongest desire to cast her arms about the writer: it +had been composed to be moving to a woman, to any woman. The old woman +was entreated to bestow her blessing on the young one, all in Arcadia, +and let the young one nestle to the bosom she had not an idea of robbing. +She could not have had the idea, else how could she have made the +petition? And in order to compliment a venerable dame on her pure +friendship for a gentleman, it was imperative to reject the idea. +Besides, after seeing the photograph of the baroness, common civility +insisted on the purity of her friendship. Nay, in mercy to the poor +gentleman, friendship it must be. + +A letter of reply from that noble lady was due. Possibly she had +determined not to write, but to act. She was a lady of exalted birth, +a lady of the upper aristocracy, who could, if she would, bring both a +social and official pressure upon the General: and it might be in motion +now behind the scenes, Clotilde laid hold of her phantom baroness, almost +happy under the phantom's whisper that she need not despair. 'You have +been a little weak,' the phantom said to her, and she acquiesced with a +soft sniffle, adding: 'But, dearest, honoured lady, you are a woman, and +know what our trials are when we are so persecuted. O that I had your +beautiful sedateness! I do admire it, madam. I wish I could imitate.' +She carried her dramatic ingenuousness farthel still by saying: 'I have +seen your photograph'; implying that the inimitable, the much coveted air +of composure breathed out of yonder presentment of her features. 'For I +can't call you good looking,' she said within herself, for the +satisfaction of her sense of candour, of her sense of contrast as well. +And shutting her eyes, she thought of the horrid penitent a harsh-faced +woman in confession must be: + +The picture sent her swimmingly to the confessional, where sat a man with +his head in a hood, and he soon heard enough of mixed substance to dash +his hood, almost his head, off. Beauty may be immoderately frank in soul +to the ghostly. The black page comprised a very long list. 'But put +this on the white page,' says she to the surging father inside his box-- +'I loved Alvan!' A sentence or two more fetches the Alvanic man jumping +out of the priest: and so closely does she realize it that she has to +hunt herself into a corner with the question, whether she shall tell him +she guessed him to be no other than her lover. 'How could you expect a +girl, who is not a Papist, to come kneeling here?' she says. And he +answers with no matter what of a gallant kind. + +In this manner her natural effervescence amused her sorrowful mind while +gazing from her chamber window at the mountain sides across the valley, +where tourists, in the autumnal season, sweep up and down like a tidal +river. She had ceased to weep; she had outwept the colour of her eyes +and the consolation of weeping. Dressed in black to the throat, she sat +and waited the arrival of her phantom friend, the baroness--that angel! +who proved her goodness in consenting to be the friend of Alvan's +beloved, because she was the true friend of Alvan! How cheap such a way +of proving goodness, Clotilde did not consider. She wanted it so. + +The mountain heights were in dusty sunlight. She had seen them day after +day thinly lined on the dead sky, inviting thunder and doomed to +sultriness. She looked on the garden of the house, a desert under bee +and butterfly. Looking beyond the garden she perceived her father on the +glaring road, and one with him, the sight of whom did not flush her cheek +or spring her heart to a throb, though she pitied the poor boy: he was +useless to her, utterly. + +Soon her Indian Bacchus was in her room, and alone with her, and at her +feet. Her father had given him hope. He came bearing eyes that were +like hope's own; and kneeling, kissing her hands, her knees, her hair, he +seemed unaware that she was inanimate. + +There was nothing imaginable in which he could be of use. + +He was only another dust-cloud of the sultry sameness. She had been +expecting a woman, a tempest choral with sky and mountain and valley- +hollows, as the overture to Alvan's appearance. + +But he roused her. With Marko she had never felt her cowardice, and his +passionately beseeching, trembling, 'Will you have me?' called up the +tiger in the girl; in spite of pity for his voice she retorted on her +parents: + +'Will I have you? I? You ask me what is my will? It sounds oddly from +you, seeing that I wrote to you in Lucerne what I would have, and nothing +has changed in me since then, nothing! My feeling for him is unaltered, +and everything you have heard of me was wrung out of me by my +unhappiness. The world is dead to me, and all in it that is not. +Sigismund Alvan. To you I am accustomed to speak every thought of my +soul, and I tell you the world and all it has is dead to me, even my +parents--I hate them.' + +Marko pressed her hands. If he loved her slavishly, it was generously. +The wild thing he said was one of the frantic leaps of generosity in a +heart that was gone to impulse: 'I see it, they have martyrized you. +I know you so well, Clotilde! So, then, come to me, come with me, let me +cherish you. I will take you and rescue you from your people, and should +it be your positive wish to meet Alvan again, I myself will take you to +him, and then you may choose between us.' + +The generosity was evident. There was nevertheless, to a young woman +realizing the position foreshadowed by such a project, the suspicion of a +slavish hope nestling among the circumstances in the background, and this +she was taught by the dangerous emotion of gratitude gaining on her, and +melting her to him. + +She too had a slavish hope that was athirst and sinking, and it flew at +the throat of Marko's, eager to satiate its vengeance for these long +delays in the destroying of a weaker. + +She left her chair and cried: 'As you will. What is it to me? Take me, +if you please. Take that glove; it is the shape of my hand. You have as +much of me as is there. My life is gone. You or another! But take this +warning and my oath with it. I swear to you, that wherever I see +Sigismund Alvan I go straight to him, though the way be over you, all of +you, lying dead beneath me.' + +The lift of incredulous horror in Marko's large black eyes excited her to +a more savage imagination: 'Rejoice! I should rejoice to see you, all of +you, dead, that I might walk across you safe from disturbance to get to +him I love. Be under no delusion. I love him better than the lives of +any dear to me, or my own. I am his. He is my faith, my worship. I am +true to him, I am, I am. You force my hand from me, you take this +miserable body, but my soul is free to love him and to go to him when God +gives me sight of him. I am Alvan's eternally. All your laws are +mockeries. You, and my people, and your priests, and your law-makers, +are shadows, brain-vapours. Let him beckon!--So you have your warning. +Do what I may, I cannot be called untrue. And now let me be; I want +repose; my head breaks; I have been on the rack and I am in pieces!' + +Marko clung to her hand, said she was terrible and pitiless, but clung. + +The hand was nerveless: it was her dear hand. Had her tongue been more +venomous in wildness than the encounter with a weaker than herself made +it be, the holding of her hand would have been his antidote. In him +there was love for two. + +Clotilde allowed him to keep the hand, assuring herself she was +unconscious he did so. He brought her peace, he brought her old throning +self back to her, and he was handsome and tame as a leopard-skin at her +feet. + +If she was doomed to reach to Alvan through him, at least she had warned +him. The vision of the truthfulness of her nature threw a celestial wan +beam on her guilty destiny. + +She patted his head and bade him leave her, narrowing her shoulders on +the breast to let it be seen that the dark household within was locked +and shuttered. + +He went. He was good, obedient, humane; he was generous, exquisitely +bred; he brought her peace, and he had been warned. It is difficult in +affliction to think of one who belongs to us as one to whom we owe a +duty. The unquestionably sincere and devoted lover is also in his +candour a featureless person; and though we would not punish him for his +goodness, we have the right to anticipate that it will be equal to every +trial. Perhaps, for the sake of peace . . . after warning him . . . +her meditations tottered in dots. + +But when the heart hungers behind such meditations, that thinking without +language is a dangerous habit; for there will suddenly come a dash +usurping the series of tentative dots, which is nothing other than the +dreadful thing resolved on, as of necessity, as naturally as the +adventurous bow-legged infant pitches back from an excursion of two paces +to mother's lap; and not much less innocently within the mind, it would +appear. The dash is a haven reached that would not be greeted if it +stood out in words. Could we live without ourselves letting our animal +do our thinking for us legibly? We live with ourselves agreeably so long +as his projects are phrased in his primitive tongue, even though we have +clearly apprehended what he means, and though we sufficiently well +understand the whither of our destination under his guidance. No counsel +can be saner than that the heart should be bidden to speak out in plain +verbal speech within us. For want of it, Clotilde's short explorations +in Dot-and-Dash land were of a kind to terrify her, and yet they seemed +not only unavoidable, but foreshadowing of the unavoidable to come. +Or possibly--the thought came to her--Alvan would keep his word, and save +her from worse by stepping to the altar between her and Marko, there +calling on her to decide and quit the prince; and his presence would +breathe courage into her to go. to him. It set her looking to the altar +as a prospect of deliverance. + +Her mother could not fail to notice a change in Clotilde's wintry face +now that Marko was among them; her inference tallied with his report of +their interview, so she supposed the girl to have accepted more or less +heartily Marko's forgiveness. For him the girl's eyes were soft and +kind; her gaze was through the eyelashes, as one seeing a dream on a far +horizon. Marko spoke of her cheerfully, and was happy to call her his +own, but would not have her troubled by any ceremonial talk of their +engagement, so she had much to thank him for, and her consciousness of +the signal instance of ingratitude lying ahead in the darkness, like a +house mined beneath the smiling slumberer, made her eager to show the +real gratefulness and tenderness of her feelings. This had the +appearance of renewed affection; consequently her parents lost much of +their fear of the besieger outside, and she was removed to the city. +Two parties were in the city, one favouring Alvan, and one abhorring the +audacious Jew. Together they managed to spread incredible reports of his +doings, which required little exaggeration to convince an enemy that he +was a man with whom hostility could not be left to sleep. The General +heard of the man's pleading his cause in all directions to get pressure +put upon him, showing something like a devilish persuasiveness, Jew and +demagogue though he was; for there seemed to be a feeling abroad that the +interview this howling lover claimed with Clotilde ought to be granted. +The latest report spoke of him as off to the General's Court for an +audience of his official chief. General von Rudiger looked to his +defences, and he had sufficient penetration to see that the weakest point +of them might be a submissive daughter. + +A letter to Clotilde from the baroness was brought to the house by a +messenger. The General thought over it. The letter was by no means a +seductive letter for a young lady to receive from such a person, yet he +did not anticipate the whole effect it would produce when ultimately he +decided to give it to her, being of course unaware of the noble style of +Clotilde's address to the baroness. He stipulated that there must be no +reply to it except through him, and Clotilde had the coveted letter in +her hands at last. Here was the mediatrix--the veritable goddess with +the sword to cut the knot! Here was the manifestation of Alvan! + + + + +ETEXT EDITOR'S BOOKMARKS: + +Above all things I detest the writing for money +Beginning to have a movement to kiss the whip +Dignitary, and he passed under the bondage of that position +Giant Vanity urged Giant Energy to make use of Giant Duplicity +Hesitating strangeness that sometimes gathers during absences +His apparent cynicism is sheer irritability +I give my self, I do not sell +Night has little mercy for the self-reproachful +Not in a situation that could bear of her blaming herself +O for yesterday! +Professional widows +Self-consoled when they are not self-justified +Want of courage is want of sense +We shall not be rich--nor poor +Work of extravagance upon perceptibly plain matter + + + + +End of this Project Gutenberg Etext of The Tragic Comedians, v2 +by George Meredith + + + + + + +THE TRAGIC COMEDIANS + +A STUDY IN A WELL-KNOWN STORY + +By GEORGE MEREDITH + +1892 + + + +BOOK 3. + + +CHAPTER XII + +She ran out to the shade of the garden walls to be by herself and in the +air, and she read; and instantly her own letter to the baroness crashed +sentence upon sentence, in retort, springing up with the combative +instinct of a beast, to make discord of the stuff she read, and deride +it. Twice she went over the lines with this defensive accompaniment; +then they laid octopus-limbs on her. The writing struck chill as a +glacier cave. Oh, what an answer to that letter of fervid +respectfulness, of innocent supplication for maternal affection, +for some degree of benignant friendship! + +The baroness coldly stated, that she had arrived in the city to do her +best in assisting to arrange matters which had come to a most unfortunate +and impracticable pass. She alluded to her established friendship for +Alvan, but it was chiefly in the interests of Clotilde that the latter +was requested to perceive the necessity for bringing her relations with +Dr. Alvan to an end in the discreetest manner now possible to the +circumstances. This, the baroness pursued, could only be done by her +intervention, and her friendship for Dr. Alvan had caused her to +undertake the little agreeable office. For which purpose, promising her +an exemption from anything in the nature of tragedy scenes, the baroness +desired Clotilde to call on her the following day between certain +specified hours of the afternoon. + +That was all. + +The girl in her letter to the baroness had constrained herself to write, +and therefore to think, in so beautiful a spirit of ignorant innocence, +that the vileness of an answer thus brutally throwing off the mask of +personal disinterestedness appeared to her both an abominable piece of +cynicism on the part of a scandalous old woman, and an insulting +rejection of the cover of decency proposed to the creature by a daisy- +minded maiden. + +She scribbled a single line in receipt of the letter and signed her +initials. + +'The woman is hateful!' she said to her father; she was ready to agree +with him about the woman and Alvan. She was ashamed to have hoped +anything of the woman, and stamped down her disappointment under a +vehement indignation, that disfigured the man as well. He had put the +matter into the hands of this most detestable of women, to settle it as +she might think best! He and she!--the miserable old thing with her +ancient arts and cajoleries had lured him back! She had him fast again, +in spite of--for who could tell? perhaps by reason of her dirty habits: +she smoked dragoon cigars! All day she was emitting tobacco-smoke; it +was notorious, Clotilde had not to learn it from her father; but now she +saw the filthy rag that standard of female independence was--that +petticoated Unfeminine, fouler than masculine! Alvan preferred the +lichen-draped tree to the sunny flower, it was evident, for never a +letter from Alvan had come to her. She thought in wrath, nothing but the +thoughts of wrath, and ran her wits through every reasonable reflection +like a lighted brand that flings its colour, if not fire, upon +surrounding images. Contempt of the square-jawed withered woman was +too great for Clotilde to have a sensation of her driving jealousy until +painful glimpses of the man made jealousy so sharp that she flew for +refuge to contempt of the pair. That beldam had him back: she had him +fast. Oh! let her keep him! Was he to be regretted who could make that +choice? + +Her father did not let the occasion slip to speak insistingly as the +world opined of Alvan and his baroness. He forced her to swallow the +calumny, and draw away with her family against herself through strong +disgust. + +Out of a state of fire Clotilde passed into solid frigidity. She had +neither a throb nor a passion. Wishing seemed to her senseless as life +was. She could hear without a thrill of her frame that Alvan was in the +city, without a question whether it was true. He had not written, and he +had handed her over to the baroness! She did not ask herself how it was +that she had no letter from him, being afraid to think about it, because, +if a letter had been withheld by her father, it was a part of her +whipping; if none had been written, there was nothing to hope for. Her +recent humiliation condemned him by the voice of her sufferings for his +failure to be giant, eagle, angel, or any of the prodigious things he had +taught her to expect; and as he had thus deceived her, the glorious lover +she had imaged in her mind was put aside with some of the angry disdain +she bestowed upon the woman by whom she had been wounded. He ceased to +be a visioned Alvan, and became an obscurity; her principal sentiment in +relation to him was, that he threatened her peace. But for him she would +never have been taught to hate her parents; she would have enjoyed the +quiet domestic evenings with her people, when Marko sang, and her sisters +knitted, and the betrothed sister wore a look very enviable in the +abstract; she would be seeing a future instead of a black iron gate! But +for him she certainly would never have had, that letter from the +baroness! + +On the morning after the information of Alvan's return, her father, who +deserved credit as a tactician, came to her to say that Alvan had sent to +demand his letters and presents. The demand was unlike what her stunned +heart recollected of Alvan; but a hint that the baroness was behind it, +and that a refusal would bring the baroness down on her with another +piece of insolence, was effective. She dealt out the letters, arranged +the presents, made up the books, pamphlets, trinkets, amulet coins, lock +of black hair, and worn post-marked paper addressed in his hand to +Clotilde von Rudiger, carefully; and half as souvenir, half with the +forlorn yearning of the look of lovers when they break asunder--or of one +of them--she signed inside the packet not 'Clotilde,' but the gentlest +title he had bestowed on her, trusting to the pathos of the word 'child' +to tell him that she was enforced and still true, if he should be +interested in knowing it. Weak souls are much moved by having the pathos +on their side. They are consoled too. + +Time passed, whole days: the tender reminder had no effect on him! It +had been her last appeal: she reflected that she had really felt when he +had not been feeling at all: and this marks a division. + +She was next requested to write a letter to Alvan, signifying his release +by the notification of her engagement to Prince Marko. She was +personally to deliver it to a gentleman who was of neither party, and who +would give her a letter from Alvan in exchange, which, while assuring the +gentleman she was acting with perfect freedom, she was to be under her +oath not to read, and dutifully to hand to Marko, her betrothed. Her +father assumed the fact of her renewed engagement to the prince, as her +whole family did; strangely, she thought: it struck her as a fatality. +He said that Alvan was working him great mischief, doing him deadly +injury in his position, and for no just reason, inasmuch as he--a bold, +bad man striving to ruin the family on a point of pride--had declared +that he simply considered himself bound in honour to her, only a little +doubtful of her independent action at present; and a release of him, +accompanied by her plain statement of her being under no compulsion, +voluntarily the betrothed of another, would solve the difficulty. A +certain old woman, it seemed, was anxious to have him formally released. + +With the usual dose for such a patient, of cajoleries and threats, the +General begged her to comply, pulling the hands he squeezed in a way to +strongly emphasize his affectionate entreaty. + +She went straight to Marko, consenting that he should have Alvan's letter +unopened (she cared not to read it, she said), on his promise to give it +up to her within a stated period. There was a kind of prohibited +pleasure, sweet acid, catching discord, in the idea of this lover's +keeping the forbidden thing she could ask for when she was curious about +the other, which at present she was not; dead rather; anxious to please +her parents, and determined to be no rival of the baroness. Marko +promised it readily, adding: 'Only let the storm roll over, that we may +have more liberty, and I myself, when we two are free, will lead you to +Alvan, and leave it to you to choose between us. Your happiness, +beloved, is my sole thought. Submit for the moment.' He spoke sweetly, +with his dearest look, touching her luxurious nature with a belief that +she could love him; untroubled by another, she could love and be true to +him: her maternal inner nature yearned to the frailbodied youth. + +She made a comparison in her mind of Alvan's love and Marko's, and of the +lives of the two men. There was no grisly baroness attached to the +prince's life. + +She wrote the letter to Alvan, feeling in the words that said she was +plighted to Prince Marko, that she said, and clearly said, the baroness +is now relieved of a rival, and may take you! She felt it so acutely as +to feel that she said nothing else. + +Severances are accomplished within the heart stroke by stroke; within the +craven's heart each new step resulting from a blow is temporarily an +absolute severance. Her letter to Alvan written, she thought not +tenderly of him but of the prince, who had always loved a young woman, +and was unhampered by an old one. The composition of the letter, and the +sense that the thing was done, made her stony to Alvan. + +On the introduction of Colonel von Tresten, whose name she knew, but was +dull to it, she delivered him her letter with unaffected composure, +received from him Alvan's in exchange, left the room as if to read it, +and after giving it unopened to Marko, composedly reappeared before the +colonel to state, that the letter could make no difference, and all was +to be as she had written it. + +The colonel bowed stiffly. + +It would have comforted her to have been allowed to say: 'I cease to be +the rival of that execrable harridan!' + +The delivery of so formidable a cat-screech not being possible, she stood +in an attitude of mild resignation, revolving thoughts of her father's +praises of his noble daughter, her mother's kiss, the caresses of her +sisters, and the dark bright eyes of Marko, the peace of the domestic +circle. This was her happiness! And still there was time, still hope +for Alvan to descend and cut the knot. She conceived it slowly, with +some flush of the brain like a remainder of fever, but no throbs of her +pulses. She had been swayed to act against him by tales which in her +heart she did not credit exactly, therefore did not take within herself, +though she let them influence her by the goad of her fears and angers; +and these she could conjure up at will for the defence of her conduct, +aware of their shallowness, and all the while trusting him to come in the +end and hear her reproaches for his delay. He seemed to her now to have +the character of a storm outside a household wrapped in comfortable +monotony. Her natural spiritedness detested the monotony, her craven +soul fawned for the comfort. After her many recent whippings the comfort +was immensely desireable, but a glance at the monotony gave it the look +of a burial, and standing in her attitude of resignation under Colonel +von Tresten's hard military stare she could have shrieked for Alvan to +come, knowing that she would have cowered and trembled at the scene +following his appearance. Yet she would have gone to him; without any +doubt his presence and the sense of his greater power declared by his +coming would have lifted her over to him. The part of her nature adoring +storminess wanted only a present champion to outweigh the other part +which cuddled security. Colonel von Tresten, however, was very far from +offering himself in such a shape to a girl that had jilted the friend he +loved, insulted the woman he esteemed; and he stood there like a figure +of soldierly complacency in marble. Her pencilled acknowledgement of the +baroness's letter, and her reply to it almost as much, was construed as +an intended insult to that lady, whose champion Tresten was. He had +departed before Clotilde heard a step. + +Immediately thereupon it came: to her mind that Tresten was one of +Alvan's bosom friends. How, then, could he be of neither party? And her +father spoke of him as an upright rational man, who, although, strangely +enough, he entertained, as it appeared, something like a profound +reverence for the baroness, could see and confess the downright +impossibility of the marriage Alvan proposed. Tresten, her father said, +talked of his friend Alvan as wild and eccentric, but now becoming +convinced that such a family as hers could never tolerate him-- +considering his age, his birth, his blood, his habits, his politics, +his private entanglements and moral reputation, it was partly hinted. + +She shuddered at this false Tresten. He and the professor might be +strung together for examples of perfidy! His reverence of the baroness +gave his cold blue eyes the iciness of her loathed letter. Alvan, she +remembered, used to exalt him among the gallantest of the warriors +dedicating their swords to freedom. The dedication of the sword, she +felt sure, was an accident: he was a man of blood. And naturally, she +must be hated by the man reverencing the baroness. If ever man had +executioner stamped on his face, it was he! Like the professor, nay, +like Alvan himself, he would not see that she was the victim of tyranny: +none of her signs would they see. They judged of her by her inanimate +frame in the hands of her torturers breaking her on the wheel. She +called to mind a fancy that she had looked at Tresten out of her deadness +earnestly for just one instant: more than an instant she could not, +beneath her father's vigilant watch and into those repellant cold blue +butcher eyes. Tresten might clearly have understood the fleeting look. +What were her words! what her deeds! + +The look was the truth revealed-her soul. It begged for life like an +infant; and the man's face was an iron rock in reply! No wonder--he +worshipped the baroness! So great was Clotilde's hatred of him that it +overflooded the image of Alvan, who called him friend, and deputed him to +act as friend. Such blindness, weakness, folly, on the part of one of +Alvan's pretensions, incurred a shade of her contempt. She had not ever +thought of him coldly: hitherto it would have seemed a sacrilege; but now +she said definitely, the friend of Tresten cannot be the man I supposed +him! and she ascribed her capacity for saying it, and for perceiving and +adding up Alvan's faults of character, to the freezing she had taken from +that most antipathetic person. She confessed to sensations of spite +which would cause her to reject and spurn even his pleadings for Alvan, +if they were imaginable as actual. Their not being imaginable allowed +her to indulge her naughtiness harmlessly, for the gratification of the +idea of wounding some one, though it were her lover, connected with this +Tresten. + +The letter of the baroness and the visit of the woman's admirer had +vitiated Clotilde's blood. She was not only not mistress of her +thoughts, she was undirected either in thinking or wishing by any +desires, except that the people about her should caress and warm her, +until, with no gaze backward, she could say good-bye to them, full of +meaning as a good-bye to the covered grave, as unreluctantly as the +swallow quits her eaves-nest in autumn: and they were to learn that they +were chargeable with the sequel of the history. There would be a sequel, +she was sure, if it came only to punish them for the cruelty which +thwarted her timid anticipation of it by pressing on her natural instinct +at all costs to bargain for an escape from pain, and making her simulate +contentment to cheat her muffled wound and them. + + + + +CHAPTER XIII + +His love meantime was the mission and the burden of Alvan, and he was not +ashamed to speak of it and plead for it; and the pleading was not done +troubadourishly, in soft flute-notes, as for easement of tuneful emotions +beseeching sympathy. He was liker to a sturdy beggar demanding his +crust, to support life, of corporations that can be talked into admitting +the rights of man; and he vollied close logical argumentation, on the +basis of the laws, in defence of his most natural hunger, thunder in his +breast and bright new heavenly morning alternating or clashing while the +electric wires and post smote him with evil tidings of Clotilde, and the +success of his efforts caught her back to him. Daily many times he +reached to her and lost her, had her in his arms and his arms withered +with emptiness. The ground he won quaked under him. All the evidence +opposed it, but he was in action, and his reason swore that he had her +fast. He had seen and felt his power over her; his reason told him by +what had been that it must be. Could he doubt? He battled for his +reason. Doubt was an extinguishing wave, and he clung to his book of the +Law, besieging Church and State with it, pointing to texts of the law +which proved her free to choose her lord and husband for herself, +expressing his passionate love by his precise interpretation of the law: +and still with the cold sentience gaining on him, against the current of +his tumultuous blood and his hurried intelligence, of her being actually +what he had named her in moments of playful vision--slippery, a serpent, +a winding hare; with the fear that she might slip from him, betray, deny +him, deliver him to ridicule, after he had won his way to her over every +barrier. During his proudest exaltations in success, when his eyes were +sparkling, there was a wry twitch inward upon his heart of hearts. + +But if she was a hare, he was a hunter, little inclining to the chase now +for mere physical recreation. She had roused the sportsman's passion as +well as the man's; he meant to hunt her down, and was not more scrupulous +than our ancient hunters, who hunted for a meal and hunted to kill, with +none of the later hesitations as to circumventing, trapping, snaring by +devices, and the preservation of the animal's coat spotless. Let her +be lured from her home, or plucked from her home, and if reluctant, +disgraced, that she may be dependent utterly on the man stooping to +pick her up! He was equal to the projecting of a scheme socially +infamous, with such fanatical intensity did the thought of his losing +the woman harass him, and the torrent of his passion burst restraint +to get to her to enfold her--this in the same hour of the original wild +monster's persistent and sober exposition of the texts of the law with +the voice of a cultivated modern gentleman; and, let it be said, with a +modern gentleman's design to wed a wife in honour. All means were to be +tried. His eye burned on his prize, mindless of what she was dragged +through, if there was resistance, or whether by the hair of her head or +her skirts, or how she was obtained. His interpretation of the law was +for the powers of earth, and other plans were to propitiate the powers +under the earth, and certain distempered groanings wrenched from him at +intervals he addressed (after they were out of him, reflectively) to the +powers above, so that nothing of him should be lost which might get aid +of anything mundane, infernal, or celestial. + +Thus it is when Venus bites a veritable ancient male. She puts her venom +in a magnificent beast, not a pathetic Phaedra. She does it rarely, for +though to be loved by a bitten giant is one of the dreams of woman, the +considerate Mother of Love knows how needful it is to protect the +sentiment of the passion and save them from an exhibition of the fires of +that dragon's breath. Do they not fly shrieking when they behold it? +Barely are they able to read of it. Men, too, accustomed to minor doses +of the goddess, which moderate, soften, counteract, instead of inflicting +the malady, abhor and have no brotherhood with its turbulent victim. + +It was justly matter for triumph, due to an extraordinary fervour of +pleading upon a plain statement of the case, that Alvan should return +from his foray bringing with him an emissary deputed by General von +Rudiger's official chief to see that the young lady, so passionately +pursued by the foremost of his time in political genius and oratory, was +not subjected to parental tyranny, but stood free to exercise her choice. +Of the few who would ever have thought of attempting, a diminished number +would have equalled that feat. Alvan was no vain boaster; he could gain +the ears of grave men as well as mobs and women. The interview with +Clotilde was therefore assured to him, and the distracting telegrams and +letters forwarded to him by Tresten during his absence were consequently +stabs already promising to heal. They were brutal stabs--her packet of +his letters and presents on his table made them bleed afresh, and the odd +scrawl of the couple of words on the paper set him wondering at the +imbecile irony of her calling herself 'The child' in accompaniment to +such an act, for it reminded him of his epithet for her, while it dealt +him a tremendous blow; it seemed senselessly malign, perhaps flippant, +as she could be, he knew. She could be anything weak and shallow when +out of his hands; she had recently proved it still, in view of the +interview, and on the tide of his labours to come to that wished end, he +struck his breast to brave himself with a good hopeful spirit. 'Once +mine!' he said. + +Moreover, to the better account, Clotilde's English friend had sent him +the lines addressed to her, in which the writer dwelt on her love of him +with a whimper of the voice of love. That was previous to her perjury by +little, by a day-eighteen hours. How lurid a satire was flung on events +by the proximity of the dates! But the closeness of the time between +this love-crooning and the denying of him pointed to a tyrannous +intervention. One could detect it. Full surely the poor craven was +being tyrannized and tutored to deny him! though she was a puss of the +fields too, as the mounted sportsman was not unwilling to think. + +Before visiting his Mentor, Alvan applied for an audience of General von +Rudiger, who granted it at once to a man coming so well armed to claim +the privilege. Tresten walked part of the way to the General's house +with him, and then turned aside to visit the baroness. + +Lucie, Baroness von Crefeldt, was one of those persons who, after a +probationary term in the character of woman, have become men, but of whom +offended man, amazed by the flowering up of that hard rough jaw from the +tender blooming promise of a petticoat, finds it impossible to imagine +they had once on a sweet Spring time the sex's gentleness and charm of +aspect. Mistress Flanders, breeched and hatted like a man, pulling at +the man's short pipe and heartily invoking frouzy deities, committing a +whole sackful of unfeminine etcaetera, is an impenetrable wall to her +maiden past; yet was there an opening day when nothing of us moustached +her. She was a clear-faced girl and mother of young blushes before the +years were at their work of transformation upon her countenance and +behind her bosom. The years were rough artists: perhaps she was +combative, and fought them for touching her ungallantly; and that perhaps +was her first manly step. Baroness Lucie was of high birth, a wife +openly maltreated, a woman of breeding, but with a man's head, capable of +inspiring man-like friendships, and of entertaining them. She was +radically-minded, strongly of the Radical profession of faith, and a +correspondent of revolutionary chiefs; both the trusted adviser and +devoted slave of him whose future glorious career she measured by his +abilities. Rumour blew out a candle and left the wick to smoke in +relation to their former intercourse. The Philistines revenged +themselves on an old aristocratic Radical and a Jew demagogue with the +weapon that scandal hands to virtue. They are virtuous or nothing, and +they must show that they are so when they can; and best do they show it +by publicly dishonouring the friendship of a man and a woman; for to be +in error in malice does not hurt them, but they profoundly feel that they +are fools if they are duped. + +She was aware of the recent course of events; she had as she protested, +nothing to accuse herself of, and she could hardly part her lips without +a self-exculpation. + +'It will fall on me!' she said to Tresten, in her emphatic tone. 'He +will have his interview with the girl. He will subdue the girl. He will +manacle himself in the chains he makes her wear. She will not miss her +chance! I am the object of her detestation. I am the price paid for +their reconcilement. She will seize her opportunity to vilipend me, and +I shall be condemned by the kind of court-martial which hurries over the +forms of a brial to sign the execution-warrant that makes it feel like +justice. You will see. She cannot forgive me for not pretending to +enter into her enthusiasm. She will make him believe I conspired against +her. Men in love are children with their mistresses--the greatest of +them; their heads are under the woman's feet. What have I not done to +aid him! At his instance, I went to the archbishop, to implore one of +the princes of the Church for succour. I knelt to an ecclesiastic. +I did a ludicrous and a shameful thing, knowing it in advance to be a +barren farce. I obeyed his wish. The tale will be laughable. I obeyed +him. I would not have it on my conscience that the commission of any +deed ennomic, however unwonted, was refused by me to serve Alvan. You +are my witness, Tresten, that for a young woman of common honesty I was +ready to pack and march. Qualities of mind-mind! They were out of the +question. He had a taste for a wife. If he had hit on a girl commonly +honest, she might not have harmed him--the contrary; cut his talons. +What is this girl? Exactly what one might be sure his appreciation, in +woman-flesh, would lead him to fix on; a daughter of the Philistines, +naturally, and precisely the one of all on earth likely to confound him +after marriage as she has played fast and loose with him before it. He +has never understood women--cannot read them. Could a girl like that +keep a secret? She's a Cressida--a creature of every camp! Not an idea +of the cause he is vowed to! not a sentiment in harmony with it! She is +viler than any of those Berlin light o' loves on the eve of Jena. Stable +as a Viennese dancing slut home from Mariazell! This is the girl- +transparent to the whole world! But his heart is on her, and he must +have her, I suppose; and I shall have to bear her impertinences, or sign +my demission and cease to labour for the cause at least in conjunction +with Alvan. And how other wise? He is the life of it, and I am doomed +to uselessness.' + +Tresten nodded a protesting assent. + +'Not quite so bad,' he said, with the encouraging smile which could +persuade a friend to put away bilious visions. 'Of the two, if you two +are divisible, we could better dispense with him. She'll slip him, she's +an eel. I have seen eels twine on a prong of the fork that prods them; +but she's an actress, a slippery one through and through, with no real +embrace in her, not even a common muscular contraction. Of every camp! +as you say. She was not worth carrying off. I consented to try it to +quiet him. He sets no bounds to his own devotion to friendship, and we +must take pattern by him. It's a mad love.' + +'A Titan's love!' the baroness exclaimed, groaning. 'The woman!--no +matter how or at what cost! I can admire that primal barbarism of a +great man's passion, which counts for nothing the stains and accidents +fraught with extinction for it to meaner men. It reads ill, it sounds +badly, but there is grand stuff in it. See the royalty of the man, for +whom no degradation of the woman can be, so long as it brings her to him! +He--that great he--covers all. He burns her to ashes, and takes the +flame--the pure spirit of her--to himself. Were men like him!--they +would have less to pardon. We must, as I have ever said, be morally on +alpine elevations to comprehend Alvan; he is Mont Blanc above his +fellows. Do not ask him to be considerate of her. She has planted him +in a storm, and the bigger the mountain, the more savage, monstrous, +cruel--yes, but she blew up the tourmente! That girl is the author of +his madness. It is the snake's nature of the girl which distracts him; +she is in his blood. Had she come to me, I would have helped her to cure +him; or had you succeeded in carrying her off, I would have stood by +their union; or were she a different creature, and not the shifty thing +she is, I could desire him to win her. A peasant girl, a workman's +daughter, a tradesman's, a professional singer, actress, artist--I would +have given my hand to one of these in good faith, thankful to her! As it +is, I have acted in obedience to his wishes, without idle remonstrances-- +I know him too well; and with as much cordiality as I could put into an +evil service. She will drag him down, down, Tresten!' + +'They are not joined yet,' said the colonel. + +'She has him by the worst half of him. Her correspondence with me--her +letter to excuse her insolence, which she does like a prim chit--throws a +light on the girl she is. She will set him aiming at power to trick her +out in the decorations. She will not keep him to his labours to +consolidate the power. She will pervert the aesthetic in him, through +her hold on his material nature, his vanity, his luxuriousness. She is +one of the young women who begin timidly, and when they see that they +enjoy comparative impunity, grow intrepid in dissipation, and that +palling, they are ravenously ambitious. She will drive him at his mark +before the time is ripe--ruin-him. He is a Titan, not a god, though god- +like he seems in comparison with men. He would be fleshly enough in any +hands. This girl will drain him of all his nobler fire.' + +'She shows mighty little of the inclination,' said the colonel. + +'To you. But when they come together? I know his voice!' + +The colonel protested his doubts of their coming together. + +'Ultimately?' the baroness asked, and brooded. 'But she will have to see +him; and then will she resist him? I shall change one view of her if she +does.' + +'She will shirk the interview,' Tresten remarked. 'Supposing they meet: +I don't think much will come of it, unless they meet on a field, and he +has an hour's grace to catch her up and be off with her. She's as calm +as the face of a clock, and wags her Yes and No about him just as +unconcernedly as a clock's pendulum. I've spoken to many a sentinel +outpost who wasn't deader on the subject in monosyllables than +mademoiselle. She has a military erectness, and answers you and looks +you straight at the eyes, perfectly unabashed by your seeing "the girl +she is," as you say. She looked at me downright defying me to despise +her. Alvan has been tricked by her colour: she's icy. She has no +passion. She acts up to him when they're together, and that deceives +him. I doubt her having blood--there's no heat in it, if she has.' + +'And he cajoled Count Hollinger to send an envoy to see him righted!' the +baroness ejaculated. 'Hollinger is not a sentimental person, I assure +you, and not likely to have taken a step apparently hostile to the +Rudigers, if he had not been extraordinarily shaken by Alvan. What +character of man is this Dr. Storchel?' + +Tresten described Count Hollinger's envoy, so quaintly deputed to act the +part of legal umpire in a family business, as a mild man of law with no +ideas or interests outside the law; spectacled, nervous, formal, +a stranger to the passions; and the baroness was amused to hear of +Storchel and Alvan's placid talk together upon themes of law, succeeded +by the little advocate's bewildered fright at one of Alvan's gentler +explosions. Tresten sketched it. The baroness realized it, and shut her +lips tight for a laugh of essential humour. + + + + +CHAPTER HIV + +Late in the day Alvan was himself able to inform her that he had overcome +Clotilde's father after a struggle of hours. The General had not +consented to everything: he had granted enough, evidently in terror of +the man who had captured Count Hollinger; and it way arranged that +Tresten and Storchel were to wait on Clotilde next morning, and hear from +her mouth whether she yielded or not to Alvan's request to speak with her +alone before the official interview in the presence of the notary, when +she was publicly to state her decision and freedom of choice, according +to Count Hollinger's amicable arrangement through his envoy. + +'She will see me-and the thing is done!' said Alvan. 'But I have worked +for it--I have worked! I have been talking to-day for six hours +uninterruptedly at a stretch to her father, who reminds me of a caged +bear I saw at a travelling menagerie, and the beast would perform none of +his evolutions for the edification of us lads till his keeper touched a +particular pole, and the touch of it set him to work like the, winding of +a key. Hollinger's name was my magic wand with the General. I could get +no sense from him, nor any acquiescence in sense, till I called up +Hollinger, when the General's alacrity was immediately that of the bear, +or a little boy castigated for his share of original sin. They have been +hard at her, the whole family! and I shall want the two hours I +stipulated for to the full. What do you say?--come, I wager I do it +within one hour! They have stockaded her pretty closely, and it will be +some time before I shall get her to have a clear view of me behind her +defences; but an hour's an age with a woman. Clotilde? I wager I have +her on her knees in half an hour! These notions of duty, and station, +and her fiddle-de-dee betrothal to that Danube osier with Indian-idol +eyes, count for so much mist. She was and is mine. I swear to strike to +her heart in ten minutes! But, madam, if not, you may pronounce me +incapable of conquering any woman, or of taking an absolute impression of +facts. I say I will do it! I am insane if I may not judge from +antecedents that my voice, my touch, my face, will draw her to me at one +signal--at a look! I am prepared to stake my reason on her running to me +before I speak a word:--and I will not beckon. I promise to fold my arms +and simply look.' + +'Your task of two hours, then, will be accomplished, I compute, in about +half a minute--but it is on the assumption that she consents to see you +alone,' said the baroness. + +Alvan opened his eyes. He perceived in his deep sagaciousness woman at +the bottom of her remark, and replied: 'You will know Clotilde in time. +She points to me straight; but of course if you agitate the compass the +needle's all in a tremble: and the vessel is weak, I admit, but the +instinct's positive. To doubt it would upset my understanding. I have +had three distinct experiences of my influence over her, and each time, +curiously each time exactly in proportion to my degree of resolve--but, +baroness, I tell you it was minutely in proportion to it; weighed down to +the grain!--each time did that girl respond to me with a similar degree +of earnestness. As I waned, she waned; as I heated, so did she, and from +spark-heat to flame and to furnace-heat!' + +'A refraction of the rays according to the altitude of the orb,' observed +the baroness in a tone of assent, and she smiled to herself at the +condition of the man who could accept it for that. + +He did not protest beyond presently a transient frown as at a bad taste +on his tongue, and a rather petulant objection to her use of analogies, +which he called the sapping of language. She forbore to remind him in +retort of his employment of metaphor when the figure served his purpose. + +'Marvellously,' cried Alvan, 'marvellously that girl answered to my lead! +and to-morrow--you'll own me right--I must double the attraction. +I shall have to hand her back to her people for twenty-four hours, and +the dose must be doubled to keep her fast and safe. You see I read her +flatly. I read and am charitable. I have a perfect philosophical +tolerance. I'm in the mood to-day of Horace hymning one of his fair +Greeks.' + +'No, no that is a comparison past my endurance,' interposed the baroness. +'Friend Sigismund, you have no philosophy, you never had any; and the +small crow and croon of Horace would be the last you could take up. It +is the chanted philosophy of comfortable stipendiaries, retired +merchants, gouty patients on a restricted allowance of the grape, old men +who have given over thinking, and young men who never had feeling--the +philosophy of swine grunting their carmen as they turn to fat in the sun. +Horace avaunt! You have too much poetry in you to quote that unsanguine +sensualist for your case. His love distressed his liver, and gave him a +jaundice once or twice, but where his love yields its poor ghost to his +philosophy, yours begins its labours. That everlasting Horace! He is +the versifier of the cushioned enemy, not of us who march along flinty +ways: the piper of the bourgeois in soul, poet of the conforming +unbelievers!' + +'Pyrrha, Lydia, Lalage, Chloe, Glycera,' Alvan murmured, amorous of the +musical names. 'Clotilde is a Greek of one of the Isles, an Ionian. I +see her in the Horatian ode as in one of those old round shield-mirrors +which give you a speck of the figure on a silver-solar beam, brilliant, +not much bigger than a dewdrop. And so should a man's heart reflect her! +Take her on the light in it, she is perfection. We won't take her in the +shady part or on your flat looking-glasses. There never was necessity +for accuracy of line in the portraiture of women. The idea of them is +all we want: it's the best of them. You will own she's Greek; she's a +Perinthian, Andrian, Olythian, Saurian, Messenian. One of those +delicious girls in the New Comedy, I remember, was called THE POSTPONER, +THE DEFERRER, or, as we might say, THE TO-MORROWER. There you have +Clotilde: she's a TO-MORROWER. You climb the peak of to-morrow, and to +see her at all you must see her on the next peak: but she leaves you her +promise to hug on every yesterday, and that keeps you going. Ay, so we +have patience! Feeding on a young woman's promises of yesterday in one's +fortieth year!--it must end to-morrow, though I kill something.' + +Kill, he meant, the aerial wild spirit he could admire as her character, +when he had the prospect of extinguishing it in his grasp. + +'What do you meditate killing?' said the baroness. + +'The fool of the years behind me,' he replied, 'and entering on my forty- +first a sage.' + +'To be the mate and equal of your companion?' + +'To prove I have had good training under the wisest to act as her guide +and master.' + +'If she--' the baroness checked her exclamation, saying: 'She declined to +come to me. I would have plumbed her for some solid ground, something to +rest one's faith on. Your Pyrrhas, Glyceras, and others of the like, +were not stable persons for a man of our days to bind his life to one of +them. Harness is harness, and a light yoke-fellow can make a proud +career deviate.' + +'But I give her a soul!' said Alvan. 'I am the wine, and she the crystal +cup. She has avowed it again and again. You read her as she is when +away from me. Then she is a reed, a weed, what you will; she is unfit to +contend when she stands alone. But when I am beside her, when we are +together--the moment I have her at arms' length she will be part of me by +the magic I have seen each time we encountered. She knows it well.' + +'She may know it too well.' + +'For what?' He frowned. + +'For the chances of your meeting.' + +'You think it possible she will refuse?' + +A blackness passing to lividness crossed his face. He fetched a big +breath. + +'Then finish my history, shut up the book; I am a phantom of a man, and +everything written there is imposture! I can account for all that she +has done hitherto, but not that she should refuse to see me. Not that +she should refuse to see me now when I come armed to demand it! Refuse? +But I have done my work, done what I said I would do. I stand in my +order of battle, and she refuses? No! I stake my head on it! I have +not a clod's perception, I have not a spark of sense to distinguish me +from a flat-headed Lapp, if she refuses:--call me a mountebank who has +gained his position by clever tumbling; a lucky gamester; whatever plays +blind with chance.' + +He started up in agitation. 'Lucie! I am a grinning skull without a +brain if that girl refuses! She will not.' He took his hat to leave, +adding, to seem rational to the cool understanding he addressed: 'She +will not refuse; I am bound to think so in common respect for myself; I +have done tricks to make me appear a rageing ape if she--oh! she cannot, +she will not refuse. Never! I have eyes, I have wits, I am not +tottering yet on my grave--or it's blindly, if I am. I have my clear +judgement, I am not an imbecile. It seems to me a foolish suspicion that +she can possibly refuse. Her manners are generally good; freakish, but +good in the main. Perhaps she takes a sting . . . but there is no +sting here. It would be bad manners to refuse; to say nothing of . . . +she has a heart! Well, then, good manners and right feeling forbid her +to refuse. She is an exceedingly intelligent girl, and I half fear I +have helped you to a wrong impression of her. You will really appreciate +her wit; you will indeed; believe me, you will. We pardon nonsense in a +girl. Married, she will put on the matron with becoming decency, and I +am responsible for her then; I stand surety for her then; when I have her +with me I warrant her mine and all mine, head and heels, at a whistle, +like the Cossack's horse. I fancy that at forty I am about as young as +most young men. I promise her another forty manful working years. Are +you dubious of that?' + +'I nod to you from the palsied summit of ninety,' said the baroness. + +Alvan gave a short laugh and stammered excuses for his naked egoism, +comparing himself to a forester who has sharpened such an appetite in +toiling to slay his roe that he can think of nothing but the fire +preparing the feast. + +'Hymen and things hymenaeal!' he said, laughing at himself for resuming +the offence on the apology for it. 'I could talk with interest of a +trousseau. I have debated in my mind with parliamentary acrimony about a +choice of wedding-presents. As she is legally free to bestow her hand on +me--and only a brute's horns could contest the fact--she may decide to be +married the day after to-morrow, and get the trousseau in Paris. She has +a turn for startling. I can imagine that if I proposed a run for it she +would be readier to spring to be on the road with me than in acquiescing +in a quiet arrangement about a ceremonial day; partly because, in the +first case, she would throw herself and the rest of the adventure on me, +at no other cost than the enjoyment of one of her impulses; and in the +second, because she is a girl who would require a full band of the best +Berlin orchestra in perpetual play to keep up her spirits among her +people during the preparations for espousing a democrat, demagogue, and +Jew, of a presumed inferior station by birth to her own. Give Momus a +sister, Clotilde is the lady! I know her. I would undertake to put a +spell on her and keep her contented on a frontier--not Russian, any +barbarous frontier where there is a sun. She must have sun. One might +wrap her in sables, but sun is best. She loves it best, though she looks +remarkably well in sables. Never shall I forget . . . she is +frileuse, and shivers into them! There are Frenchmen who could paint it +--only Frenchmen. Our artists, no. She is very French. Born in France +she would have been a matchless Parisienne. Oh! she's a riddle of +course. I don't pretend to spell every letter of her. The returning of +my presents is odd. No, I maintain that she is a coward acting under +domination, and there's no other way of explaining the puzzle. I was out +of sight, they bullied her, and she yielded--bewilderingly, past +comprehension it seems--cat!--until you remember what she's made of: +she's a reed. Now I reappear armed with powers to give her a free +course, and she, that abject whom you beheld recently renouncing me, is, +you will see, the young Aurora she was when she came striking at my door +on the upper Alp. That was a morning! That morning is Clotilde till my +eyes turn over! She is all young heaven and the mountains for me! She's +the filmy light above the mountains that weds white snow and sky. By the +way, I dreamt last night she was half a woman, half a tree, and her hair +was like a dead yewbough, which is as you know of a brown burnt-out +colour, suitable to the popular conception of widows. She stood, and +whatever turning you took, you struck back on her. Whether my widow, I +can't say: she must first be my wife. Oh, for tomorrow!' + +'What sort of evening is it?' said the baroness. + +'A Mont Blanc evening: I saw him as I came along,' Alvan replied, and +seized his hat to be out to look on the sovereign mountain again. They +touched hands. He promised to call in the forenoon next day. + +'Be cool,' she counselled him. + +'Oh!' He flung back his head, making light of the crisis. 'After all, +it's only a girl. But, you know, what I set myself to win! . . . The +thing's too small--I have been at such pains about it that I should be +ridiculous if I allowed myself to be beaten. There is no other reason +for the trouble we 're at, except that, as I have said a thousand times, +she suits me. No man can be cooler than I.' + +'Keep so,' said the baroness. + +He walked to where the strenuous blue lake, finding outlet, propels a +shoulder, like a bright-muscled athlete in action, and makes the Rhone- +stream. There he stood for an hour, disfevered by the limpid liquid +tumult, inspirited by the glancing volumes of a force that knows no +abatement, and is the skiey Alps behind, the great historic citied plains +ahead. + +His meditation ended with a resolution half in the form of a prayer (to +mixed deities undefined) never to ask for a small thing any more if this +one were granted him! + +He had won it, of course, having brought all his powers to bear on the +task; and he rejoiced in winning it: his heart leapt, his imagination +spun radiant webs of colour: but he was a little ashamed of his frenzies, +though he did not distinctly recall them; he fancied he had made some +noise, loud or not, because his intentions were so pure that it was +infamous to thwart them. At a certain age honest men made sacrifice of +their liberty to society, and he had been ready to perform the duty of +husbanding a woman. A man should have a wife and rear children, not to +be forgotten in the land, and to help mankind by transmitting to future +times qualities he has proved priceless: he thought of the children, and +yearned to the generations of men physically and morally through them. + +This was his apology to the world for his distantly-recollected excesses +of temper. + +Was she so small a thing? Not if she succumbed. She was petty, +vexatious, irritating, stinging, while she resisted: she cast an evil +beam on his reputation, strength and knowledge of himself, and roused the +giants of his nature to discharge missiles at her, justified as they were +by his pure intentions and the approbation of society. But he had a +broad full heart for the woman who would come to him, forgiving her, +uplifting her, richly endowing her. No meanness of heart was in him. He +lay down at night thinking of Clotilde in an abandonment of tenderness. +'Tomorrow! you bird of to-morrow!' he let fly his good-night to her. + + + + +CHAPTER XV + +He slept. Near upon morning he roused with his tender fit strong on him, +but speechless in the waking as it had been dreamless in sleep. It was a +happy load on his breast, a life about to be born, and he thought that a +wife beside him would give it language. She should have, for she would +call out, his thousand flitting ideas now dropped on barren ground for +want of her fair bosom to inspire, to vivify, to receive. Poetry laid a +hand on him: his desire of the wife, the children, the citizen's good +name--of these our simple civilized ambitions--was lowly of the earth, +throbbing of earth, and at the same time magnified beyond scope of speech +in vast images and emblems resembling ranges of Olympian cloud round the +blue above earth, all to be decipherable, all utterable, when she was by. +What commoner word!--yet wife seemed to him the word most reverberating +of the secret sought after by man, fullest at once of fruit and of +mystery, or of that light in the heart of mystery which makes it +magically fruitful. + +He felt the presence of Clotilde behind the word; but in truth the +delicate sensations breeding these half-thoughts of his, as he lay +between sleeping and waking, shrank from conjuring up the face of the +woman who had wounded them, and a certain instinct to preserve and be +sure of his present breathing-space of luxurious tranquillity kept her +veiled. Soon he would see her as his wife, and then she would be she, +unveiled ravishingly, the only she, the only wife! He knew the cloud he +clasped for Clotilde enough to be at pains to shun a possible prospect of +his execrating it. Oh, the only she, the only wife! the wild man's +reclaimer! the sweet abundant valley and channel of his river of +existence henceforward! Doubting her in the slightest was doubting her +human. It is the brain, the satanic brain which will ever be pressing to +cast its shadows: the heart is clearer and truer. + +He multiplied images, projected visions, nestled in his throbs to drug +and dance his brain. He snatched at the beauty of a day that outrolled +the whole Alpine hand-in-hand of radiant heaven-climbers for an assurance +of predestined celestial beneficence; and again, shadowily thoughtful of +the littleness of the thing he exalted and claimed, he staked his reason +on the positive blessing to come to him before nightfall, telling himself +calmly that he did so because there would be madness in expecting it +otherwise: he asked for so little! Since he asked for so little, to +suppose that it would not be granted was irrational. None but a very +coward could hesitate to stake his all on the issue. + +Singularly small indeed the other aims in life appeared by comparison +with this one, but his intellect, in the act of pleading excuses for his +impatience, distinguished why it should be so. The crust, which is not +much, is everything to the starving beggar; and he was eager for the +crust that he might become sound and whole again, able to give their just +proportion to things, as at present he acknowledged himself hardly able +to do. He could not pursue two thoughts on a political question, or +grasp the idea of a salutary energy in the hosts animated by his +leadership. There would have to be an end of it speedily, else men might +name him worthless dog! + +Morning swam on the lake in her beautiful nakedness, a wedding of white +and blue, of purest white and bluest blue. Alvan crossed the island +bridges when the sun had sprung on his shivering fair prey, to make the +young fresh Morning rosy, and was glittering along the smooth lake- +waters. Workmen only were abroad, and Alvan was glad to be out with them +to feel with them as one of them. Close beside him the vivid genius of +the preceding century, whose love of workmen was a salt of heaven in his +human corruptness, looked down on the lake in marble. Alvan cherished a +worship of him as of one that had first thrilled him with the feeling of +our common humanity, with the tenderness for the poor, with the knowledge +of our frailty. Him, as well as the great Englishman and a Frenchman, +his mind called Father, and his conscience replied to that progenitor's +questioning of him, but said 'You know the love of woman: He loved +indeed, but he was not an amatory trifler. He too was a worker, a +champion worker. He doated on the prospect of plunging into his work; +the vision of jolly giant labours told of peace obtained, and there could +be no peace without his prize. + +He listened to the workmen's foot-falls. The solitary sound and steady +motion of their feet were eloquent of early morning in a city, not less +than the changes of light in heaven above the roofs. With the golden +light came numbers, workmen still. Their tread on the stones roused some +of his working thoughts, like an old tune in his head, and he watched the +scattered files passing on, disciplined by their daily necessities, +easily manageable if their necessities are but justly considered. These +numbers are the brute force of earth, which must have the earth in time, +as they had it in the dawn of our world, and then they entered into +bondage for not knowing how to use it. They will have it again: they +have it partially, at times, in the despot, who is only the reflex of +their brute force, and can give them only a shadow of their claim. They +will have it all, when they have illumination to see and trust to the +leadership of a greater force than they--in force of brain, in the +spiritual force of ideas; ideas founded on justice; and not the justice +of these days of the governing few whose wits are bent to steady our +column of civilized humanity by a combination of props and jugglers' +arts, but a justice coming of the recognized needs of majorities, which +will base the column on a broad plinth for safety-broad as the base of +yonder mountain's towering white immensity--and will be the guarantee for +the solid uplifting of our civilization at last. 'Right, thou!' he +apostrophized--the old Ironer, at a point of his meditation. 'And right, +thou! more largely right!' he thought, further advanced in it, of the +great Giuseppe, the Genoese. 'And right am I too, between that metal- +rail of a politician and the deep dreamer, each of them incomplete for +want of an element of the other!' Practically and in vision right was +Alvan, for those two opposites met fusing in him: like the former, he +counted on the supremacy of might; like the latter, he distinguished +where it lay in perpetuity. + +During his younger years he had been like neither in the moral curb they +could put on themselves--particularly the southern-blooded man. He had +resembled the naturally impatient northerner most, though not so supple +for business as he. But now he possessed the calmness of the Genoese; +he had strong self-command now; he had the principle that life is too +short for the indulgence of public fretfulness or of private quarrels; +too valuable for fruitless risks; too sacred, one may say, for the +shedding of blood on personal grounds. Oh! he had himself well under, +fear not. + +He could give and take from opposition. And rightly so, seeing that he +confessed to his own bent for sarcastically stinging: he was therefore +bound to endure a retort. Speech for speech, pamphlet for pamphlet, he +could be temperate. Nay, he defied an adversary to produce in him the +sensation of intemperateness; so there would not be much danger of his +being excited to betray it. Shadowily he thought of the hard words +hurled at him by the Rudigers, and of the injury Clotilde's father did +him by plotting to rob him of his daughter. But how had an Alvan +replied?--with the arts of peaceful fence victoriously. He conceived of +no temptation to his repressed irascibility save the political. A day +might come for him and the vehement old Ironer to try their mettle in a +tussle. On that day he would have to be wary, but, as Alvan felt +assured, he would be more master of himself than his antagonist. He was +for the young world, in the brain of a new order of things; the other +based his unbending system on the visions of a feudal chief, and would +win a great step perchance, but there he would stop: he was not with the +future! + +This immediate prospect of a return to serenity after his recent +charioteering, had set him thinking of himself and his days to come, +which hung before him in a golden haze that was tranquillizing. He had a +name, he had a station: he wanted power and he saw it approaching. + +He wanted a wife too. Colonel von Tresten took coffee with him previous +to the start with Dr. Storchel to General von Rudiger's house. Alvan +consequently was unable any longer to think of a wife in the abstract. +He wanted Clotilde. Here was a man going straight to her, going to see +her, positively to see her and hear her voice!--almost instantly to hear +her voice, and see her eyes and hair, touch her hand. Oh! and rally +her, rouse her wit; and be able to tell him the flower she wore for the +day, and where she wore it--at her temples, or sliding to the back hair, +or in her bosom, or at her waist! She had innumerable tricks of +indication in these shifty pretty ways of hers, and was full of varying +speech to the cunning reader of her. + +'But keep her to seriousness,' Alvan said. 'Our meeting must be early +to-day--early in the afternoon. She is not unlikely to pretend to +trifle. She has not seen me for some time, and will probably enough play +at emancipation and speak of the "singular impatience of the seigneur +Alvan." Don't you hear her? I swear to those very words! She "loves +her liberty," and she curves her fan and taps her foot. "The seigneur +Alvan appears pressed for time:" She has "letters to write to friends to- +day." Stop that! I can't join in play: to-morrow, if she likes; not to- +day. Or not till I have her by the hand. She shall be elf and fairy, +French coquette, whatever she pleases to-morrow, and I'll be satisfied. +All I beg is for plain dealing on a business matter. This is a business +matter, a business meeting. I thoroughly know the girl's heart, and know +that in winning the interview I win her. Only'--he pressed his friend's +arm--'but, my dear Tresten, you understand. You're a luckier fellow than +I--for the time, at all events. Make it as short as you can. You'll +find me here. I shall take a book--one of the Pandects. I don't suppose +I shall work. I feel idle. Any book handy; anything will interest me. +I should walk or row on the lake, but I would rather be sure of readiness +for your return. You meet Storchel at the General's house?' + +'The appointment was at the house,' Tresten said. + +'I have not seen him this morning. I know of nothing to prepare him for. +You see, it was invariable with her: as soon as she met me she had twice +her spirit: and that she knows;--she was a new woman, ten times the +happier for having some grains of my courage. So she'll be glad to come +to terms and have me by to support her. Press it, if necessary; +otherwise she might be disappointed, my dear fellow. Storchel looks on, +and observes, and that 's about all he can do, or need do. Up Mont Blanc +to-day, Tresten! It's the very day for an ascent:--one of the rare +crystalline jewels coming in a Swiss August; we should see the kingdoms +of the earth--and a Republic! But I could climb with all my heart in a +snowstorm to-day. Andes on Himalayas! as high as you like. The Republic +by the way, small enough in the ring of empires and monarchies, if you +measure it geometrically! You remember the laugh at the exact elevation +of Mount Olympus? But Zeus's eagle sat on it, and top me Olympus, after +you have imagined the eagle aloft there! after Homer, is the meaning. +That will be one of the lessons for our young Republicans--to teach them +not to give themselves up to the embrace of dead materialism because, +as they fancy, they have had to depend on material weapons for carving +their way, and have had no help from other quarters. A suicidal +delusion! The spiritual weapon has done most, and always does. They are +sons of an idea. They deny their parentage when they scoff at idealism. +It's a tendency we shall have to guard against; it leads back to the old +order of things, if we do not trim our light. She is waiting for you! +Go. You will find me here. And don't forget my instructions. Appoint +for the afternoon--not late. Too near night will seem like Orpheus going +below, and I hope to meet a living woman, not a ghost--ha! coloured like +a lantern in a cavern, good Lord! Covered with lichen! Say three +o'clock, not later. The reason is, I want to have it over early and be +sure of what I am doing; I'm bothered by it; I shall have to make +arrangements . . . a thousand little matters . . . telegraph to +Paris, I daresay; she's fond of Paris, and I must learn who's there to +meet her. Now start. I'll walk a dozen steps with you. I think of her +as if, since we parted, she had been sitting on a throne in Erebus, and +must be ghastly. I had a dream of a dead tree that upset me. In fact, +you see I must have it over. The whole affair makes me feel too young.' + +Tresten advised him to spend an hour with the baroness. + +'I can't; she makes me feel too old,' said Alvan. 'She talks. She +listens, but I don't want to speak. Dead silence!--let it be a dash of +the pen till you return. As for these good people hurrying to their +traffic, and tourists and loungers, they have a trick for killing time +without hurting him. I wish I had. I try to smother a minute, and up +the old fellow jumps quivering all over and threatening me body and soul. +They don't appear as if they had news on their faces this morning. I've +not seen a newspaper and won't look at one. Here we separate. Be formal +in mentioning me to her but be particularly civil. I know you have the +right tone: she's a critical puss. Days like these are the days for her +to be out. There goes a parasol like one I 've seen her carry. Stay-- +no! Don't forget my instructions. Paris for a time. It may be the +Pyrenees. Paris on our way back. She would like the Pyrenees. It's not +too late for society at Luchon and Cauterets. She likes mountains, she +mounts well: in any case, plenty of mules can be had. Paris to wind up +with. Paris will be fuller about the beginning of October.' + +He had quitted Tresten, and was talking to himself, cheating' himself, +not discordantly at all. The poet of the company within him claimed the +word and was allowed by the others to dilate on Clotilde's likings, and +the honeymoon or post-honeymoon amusements to be provided for her in +Pyrenean valleys, and Parisian theatres and salons. She was friande of +chocolates, bon-bons: she enjoyed fine pastry, had a real relish of good +wine. She should have the best of everything; he knew the spots of the +very best that Paris could supply, in confiseurs and restaurants, and in +millinery likewise. A lively recollection of the prattle of Parisian +ladies furnished names and addresses likely to prove invaluable to +Clotilde. He knew actors and actresses, and managers of theatres, and +mighty men in letters. She should have the cream of Paris. Does she +hint at rewarding him for his trouble? The thought of her indebted lips, +half closed, asking him how to repay him, sprang his heart to his throat. + + + + +CHAPTER XVI + +Then he found himself saying: 'At the age I touch!' . . . + +At the age of forty, men that love love rootedly. If the love is plucked +from them, the life goes with it. + +He backed on his physical pride, a stout bulwark. His forty years--the +forty, the fifty, the sixty of Alvan, matched the twenties and thirties +of other men. + +Still it was true that he had reached an age when the desire to plant his +affections in a dear fair bosom fixedly was natural. Fairer, dearer than +she was never one on earth! He stood bareheaded for coolness, looking in +the direction Tresten had taken, his forehead shining and eyes charged +with the electrical activity of the mind, reading intensely all who +passed him, without a thought upon any of these objects in their passage. +The people were read, penetrated, and flung off as from a whirring of +wheels; to cut their place in memory sharp as in steel when imagination +shall by and by renew the throbbing of that hour, if the wheels be not +stilled. The world created by the furnaces of vitality inside him +absorbed his mind; and strangely, while receiving multitudinous vivid +impressions, he did not commune with one, was unaware of them. His thick +black hair waved and glistened over the fine aquiline of his face. His +throat was open to the breeze. His great breast and head were joined by +a massive column of throat that gave volume for the coursing of the blood +to fire the battery of thought, perchance in a tempest overflood it, +extinguish it. His fortieth year was written on his complexion and +presence: it was the fortieth of a giant growth that will bend at the +past eightieth as little as the rock-pine, should there come no uprooting +tempest. It said manhood, and breathed of settled strength of muscle, +nerve, and brain. + +Of the people passing, many knew him not, but marked him; some knew him +by repute, one or two his person. To all of them he was a noticeable +figure; even those of sheeplike nature, having an inclination to start +upon the second impulse in the flanks of curious sheep when their first +had been arrested by the appearance of one not of their kind, +acknowledged the eminence of his bearing. There may have been a +passenger in the street who could tell the double tale of the stick he +swung in his hand, showing a gleam of metal, whereon were engraved names +of the lurid historic original owner, and of the donor and the recipient. +According to the political sentiments of the narrator would his tale be +coloured, and a simple walking-stick would be clothed in Tarquin guilt +for striking off heads of the upper ranks of Frenchmen till the blood of +them topped the handle, or else wear hues of wonder, seem very memorable; +fit at least for a museum. If the Christian aristocrat might shrink from +it in terror and loathing, the Paynim Republican of deep dye would be +ready to kiss it with veneration. But, assuming them to have a certain +bond of manliness, both agree in pronouncing the deed a right valiant and +worthy one, which caused this instrument to be presented to Alvan by a +famous doctor, who, hearing of his repudiation of the duel, and of his +gallant and triumphant defence of himself against a troop of ruffians, +enemies or scum of their city, at night, by the aid of a common stout +pedestrian stick, alone in a dark alley of the public park, sent him, +duly mounted and engraved, an illustrious fellow to the weapon of +defence, as a mode of commemorating his just abhorrence of bloodshed and +his peaceful bravery. + +Observers of him would probably speculate on his features and the +carriage of his person as he went by them; with a result in their minds +that can be of no import to us, men's general speculations being directed +by their individual aims and their moods, their timidities, prejudices, +envies, rivalries; but none could contest that he was a potential figure. +If to know him the rising demagogue of the time dressed him in such +terrors as to make him appear an impending Attila of the voracious hordes +which live from hand to mouth, without intervention of a banker and +property to cry truce to the wolf, he would have shone under a different +aspect enough to send them to the poets to solve their perplexity, had +the knowledge been subjoined that this terrific devastator swinging the +sanguinary stick was a slave of love, who staked his all upon his love, +loved up to his capacity desperately, loved a girl, and hung upon her +voice to hear whether his painful knocking at a door should gain him +admittance to the ranks of the orderly citizens of the legitimately- +satiated passions, or else--the voice of a girl annihilate him. + +He loved like the desert-bred Eastern, as though his blood had never +ceased to be steeped in its fountain Orient; loved barbarously, but with +a compelling resolve to control his blood and act and be the civilized +man, sober by virtue of his lady's gracious aid. In fact, it was the +civilized man in him that had originally sought the introduction to her, +with a bribe to the untameable. The former had once led, and hoped to +lead again. Alvan was a revolutionist in imagination, the workman's +friend in rational sympathy, their leader upon mathematical calculation, +but a lawyer, a reasoner in law, and therefore of necessity a cousin +germane, leaning to become an ally, of the Philistines--the founders and +main supporters of his book of the Law. And so, between the nature of +his blood, and the inclination of his mind, Alvan set his heart on a +damsel of the Philistines, endowed with their trained elegancies and +governed by some of their precepts, but suitable to his wildness in her +reputation for originality, suiting him in her cultivated liveliness and +her turn for luxury. Only the Philistines breed these choice beauties, +put forth these delicate fresh young buds of girls; and only here and +there among them is there an exquisite, eccentric, yet passably decorous +Clotilde. What his brother politicians never discovered in him, and the +baroness partly suspected, through her interpretation of things opposing +her sentiments, Clotilde uncloaks. Catching and mastering her, his +wilder animation may be appeased, but his political life is threatened +with a diversion of its current, for he will be uxorious, impassioned to +gratify the tastes and whims of a youthful wife; the Republican will be +in danger of playing prematurely for power to seat her beside him high: +while at the same time, children, perchance, and his hardening lawyer's +head are secretly Philistinizing the demagogue, blunting the fine edge of +his Radicalism, turning him into a slow-stepping Liberal, otherwise your +half-Conservative in his convictions. Can she think it much to have +married that drab-coloured unit? Power must be grasped . . . . + +His watch told him that Tresten was now beholding her, or just about to. +The stillness of the heavens was remarkable. The hour held breath. She +delayed her descent from her chamber. He saw how she touched at her +hair, more distinctly than he saw the lake before his eyes. He watched +her, and the growl of a coming roar from him rebuked her tricky +deliberateness. Deciding at last, she slips down the stairs like a +waterfall, and is in the room, erect, composed--if you do not lay ear +against her bosom. Tresten stares at her, owns she is worth a struggle. +Love does this, friend Tresten! Love, that stamps out prejudice and bids +inequality be smooth. Tresten stares and owns she is worth heavier +labours, worse than his friend has endured. Love does it! Love, that +hallows a stranger's claim to the flower of a proud garden: Love has won +her the freedom to suffer herself to be chosen by the stranger. What +matters which of them toiled to bring them to so sweet an end! It was +not either of them, but Love. By and by, after acting serenest innocent, +suddenly broken, she will be copious of sad confessions. That will be in +their secresy: in the close and boundless together of clasped hands. +Deep eyes, that give him in realms of light within light all that he has +dreamed of rapturousness and blessedness, you are threatened with a +blinding kiss if you look abashed:--if her voice shall dare repeat +another of those foolish self-reproaches, it shall be construed as a +petition for further kisses. Silence! he said to her, imagining that he +had been silent, and enjoying silence with a perfect quietude beyond the +trouble of a thought of her kisses and his happiness. His full heart +craved for the infinity of silence. + +Another moment and he was counting to her the days, hours, minutes, which +had been the gulf of torture between then and now--the separation and the +reunion: he was voluble, living to speak, and a pause was only for the +drawing of most blissful breath. + +His watch went slowly. She was beginning to drop her eyelids in front of +Tresten. Oh! he knew her so well. He guessed the length of her acting, +and the time for her earnestness. She would have to act a coquette at +first to give herself a countenance; and who would not pardon the girl +for putting on a mask? who would fail to see the mask? But he knew her +so well: she would not trifle very long: his life on it, that she will +soon falter! her bosom will lift, lift and check: a word from Tresten +then, if he is a friend, and she melts to the truth in her. Alvan heard +her saying: 'I will see him yes, to-day. Let him appoint. He may come +when he likes--come at once' + +'My life on it!' he swore by his unerring knowledge of her, the certainty +that she loved him. + +He had walked into a quarter of the town strange to him, he thought; he +had no recollection of the look of the street. A friend came up and put +him in the right way, walking back with him. This was General Leczel, a +famous leader of one of the heroical risings whose passage through blood +and despair have led to the broader law men ask for when they name +freedom devotedly. Alvan stated the position of his case to Leczel with +continental frankness regarding a natural theme, and then pursued the +talk on public affairs, to the note of: 'What but knocks will ever open +the Black-Yellow Head to the fact that we are no longer in the first +years of the eighteenth century!' + +Leczel left him at his hotel steps, promising to call on him before +night. Tresten had not returned, neither he nor the advocate, and he had +been absent fully an hour. He was not in sight right or left. Alvan +went to his room, looked at his watch, and out of the window, incapable +of imagining any event. He began to breathe as if an atmosphere thick as +water were pressing round him. Unconsciously he had staked his all on +the revelation the moment was to bring. So little a thing! His +intellect weighed the littleness of it, but he had become level with it; +he magnified it with the greatness of his desire, and such was his nature +that the great desire of a thing withheld from him and his own, as he +could think, made the world a whirlpool till he had it. He waited, +figureable by nothing so much as a wild horse in captivity sniffing the +breeze, when the flanks of the quivering beast are like a wind-struck +barley-field, and his nerves are cords, and his nostrils trumpet him: he +is flame kept under and straining to rise. + + + + +CHAPTER XVII + +The baroness expected to see Alvan in the morning, for he kept +appointments, and he had said he would come. She conceived that she was +independent of personal wishes on the subject of Clotilde; the fury of +his passion prohibited her forming any of the wishes we send up to +destiny when matters interesting us are in suspense, whether we have +liberated minds or not. She thought the girl would grant the interview; +was sure the creature would yield in his presence; and then there was an +end to the shining of Alvan! Supposing the other possibility, he had +shown her such fierce illuminations of eye and speech that she foresaw it +would be a blazing of the insurrectionary beacon-fires of hell with him. +He was a man of angels and devils. The former had long been conquering, +but the latter were far from extinct. His passion for this shallow girl +had consigned him to the lower host. Let him be thwarted, his +desperation would be unlikely to stop at legal barriers. His lawyer's +head would be up and armed astoundingly to oppose the law; he would read, +argue, and act with hot conviction upon the reverse of every text of law. +She beheld him storming the father's house to have out Clotilde, +reluctant or conniving; and he harangued the people, he bore off his +captive, he held her firmly as he had sworn he would; he defied +authority, he was a public rebel--he with his detected little secret aim, +which he nursed like a shamed mother of an infant, fond but afraid to be +proud of it! She had seen that he aimed at standing well with the world +and being one with it honourably: holding to his principles of course: +but a disposition that way had been perceived, and the vision of him in +open rebellion because of his shy catching at the thread of an alliance +with the decorous world, carved an ironic line on her jaw. + +Full surely he would not be baffled without smiting the world on the +face. And he might suffer for it; the Rudigers would suffer likewise. + +She considered them very foolish people. Her survey of the little +nobility beneath her station had previously enabled her to account for +their disgust of such a suitor as Alvan, and maintain that they would +oppose him tooth and nail. Owing to his recent success, the anticipation +of a peaceful surrender to him seemed now on the whole to carry most +weight. This girl gives Alvan her hand and her family repudiate her. +Volatile, flippant, shallow as she is, she must have had some turn for +him; a physical spell was on her once, and it will be renewed when they +meet. It sometimes inspires a semblance of courage; she may determine; +she may be stedfast long enough for him to take his measures to bear her +away. And the Brocken witches congratulate him on his prize! + +Almost better would it be, she thought, that circumstance should thwart +him and kindle his own demon element. + +The forenoon, the noon, the afternoon, went round. + +Late in the evening her door was flung wide for Colonel von Tresten. + +She looked her interrogative 'Well?' His features were not used to betray +the course of events. + +'How has it gone?' she said. + +He replied: 'As I told you. I fancied I gauged the hussy pretty +closely.' + +'She will not see him?' + +'Not she.' + +The baroness crossed her arms. + +'And Alvan?' + +The colonel shrugged. It was not done to tease a tremulous woman, for +she was calm. It painted the necessary consequence of the refusal: an +explosion of AEtna, and she saw it. + +'Where is he now?' said she. + +'At his hotel.' + +'Alone?' + +'Leczel is with him.' + +'That looks like war.' + +Tresten shrugged again. 'It might have been foreseen by everybody +concerned in the affair. The girl does not care for him one corner of +an eye! She stood up before us cool as at a dancing-lesson, swore she +had never committed herself to an oath to him, sneered at him. She +positively sneered. Her manner to me assures me without question that +if he had stood in my place she would have insulted him: + +'Scarcely. She would do in his absence what she would not do under his +eyes,' remarked the baroness. 'It's decided, then?' + +'Quite.' + +'Will he be here to-night?' + +'I think not.' + +'Was she really insolent?' + +'For a girl in her position, she was.' + +'Did you repeat her words to him?' + +'Some of them.' + +'What description of insolence?' + +'She spoke of his vanity . . . .' + +'Proceed.' + +'It was more her manner to me, as the one of the two appearing as his +friend. She was tolerably civil to Storchel: and the difference of +behaviour must have been designed, for she not only looked at Storchel in +a way to mark the difference, she addressed him rather eagerly before we +turned on our heels, to tell him she would write to him, and let him have +her reply in a letter. He will get some coquettish rigmarole.' + +'That seems monstrous!--if one could be astonished by her,' said the +baroness. 'When is she to write?' + +'She may write: the letter will find no receiver,' said Tresten, +significantly raising his eyebrows. 'The legal gentleman is gone--blown +from a gun! He's off home. He informed me that he should write to the +General, throwing up his office, and an end to his share in the +business.' + +'There was no rudeness to the poor man?' + +'Dear me, no. But imagine a quiet little advocate, very precise and +silky--you've had a hint of him--and all of a sudden the client he has by +the ear swells into a tremendous beast--a combination of lion and +elephant--bellows and shakes the room, stops and stamps before him, +discharging an unintelligible flood of racy vernacular punctuated in +thunder. You hear him and see him! Alvan lost his head--some of his +hair too. The girl is not worth a lock. But he's past reason.' + +'He takes it so,' said the baroness, musing. 'It will be the sooner +over. She never cared for him a jot. And there's the sting. He has +called up the whole world in an amphitheatre to see a girl laugh him to +scorn. Hard for any man to bear!--Alvan of all men! Why does he not +come here? He might rage at me for a day and a night, and I would rock +him to sleep in the end. However, he has done nothing?' + +That was the point. The baroness perceived it to be a serious point, and +repeated the question sharply. 'Has he been to the house?--no?-- +writing?' + +Tresten dropped a nod. + +'Not to the girl, I suppose. To the father?' said she. + +'He has written to the General.' + +'You should have stopped it.' + +'Tell a vedette to stop cavalry. You're not thinking of the man. He's +in a white frenzy.' + +'I will go to him.' + +'You will do wrong. Leave him to spout the stuff and get rid of his +poison. I remember a sister of poor Nuciotti's going to him after he had +let his men walk into a trap--and that was through a woman: and he was +quieted; and the chief overlooked it; and two days after, Nuciotti blew +his brains out. He'd have been alive now if he had been left alone. +Furious cursing is a natural relief to some men, like women's weeping. +He has written a savage letter to her father, sending the girl to the +deuce with the name she deserves, and challengeing the General.' + +'That letter is despatched?' + +'Rudiger has it by this time.' + +The baroness fixed her eyes on Tresten: she struck her lap. 'Alvan! Is +it he? But the General is old, gouty, out of the lists. There can be no +fighting. He apologized to you for his daughter's insolence to me. He +will not fight, be sure.' + +'Perhaps not,' Tresten said. + +'As for the girl, Alvan has the fullest right to revile her: it cannot be +too widely known. I could cry: "What wisdom there is in men when they +are mad!" We must allow it to counterbalance breaches of ordinary +courtesy. "With the name--she deserves," you say? + +He pitched the very name at her character plainly?--called her what she +is?' + +The baroness could have borne to hear it: she had no feminine horror of +the staining epithet for that sex. But a sense of the distinction +between camps and courts restrained the soldier. He spoke of a discharge +of cuttlefish ink at the character of the girl, and added: 'The bath's a +black one for her, and they had better keep it private. Regrettable, no +doubt, but it 's probably true, and he 's out of his mind. It would be +dangerous to check him: he'd force his best friend to fight. Leczel is +with him and gives him head. It 's about time for me to go back to him, +for there may be business.' + +The baroness thought it improbable. She was hoping that with Alvan's +eruption the drop-scene would fall. + +Tresten spoke of the possibility. He knew the contents of the letter, +and knew further that a copy of it, with none of the pregnant syllables +expunged, had been forwarded to Prince Marko. He counselled calm waiting +for a certain number of hours. The baroness committed herself to a +promise to wait. Now that Alvan had broken off from the baleful girl, +the worst must have been passed, she thought. + +He had broken with the girl: she reviewed him under the light of that +sole fact. So the edge of the cloud obscuring him was lifted, and he +would again be the man she prized and hoped much of! How thickly he had +been obscured was visible to her through a retreating sensation of scorn +of him for his mad excesses, which she had not known herself to entertain +while he was writhing in the toils, and very bluntly and dismissingly +felt now that his madness was at its climax. An outrageous lunatic fit, +that promised to release him from his fatal passion, seemed, on the +contrary, respectable in essence if not in the display. Wives he should +have by fifties and hundreds if he wanted them, she thought in her great- +heartedness, reflecting on the one whose threatened pretensions to be his +mate were slain by the title flung at her, and merited. The word (she +could guess it) was an impassable gulf, a wound beyond healing. It +pronounced in a single breath the girl's right name and his pledge of a +return to sanity. For it was the insanest he could do; it uttered +anathema on his love of her; it painted his white glow of unreason and +fierce ire at the scorn which her behaviour flung upon every part of his +character that was tenderest with him. After speaking such things a man +comes to his senses or he dies. So thought the baroness, and she was not +more than commonly curious to hear how the Rudigers had taken the insult +they had brought on themselves, and not unwilling to wait to see Alvan +till he was cool. His vanity, when threatening to bleed to the death, +would not be civil to the surgeon before the second or third dressing of +his wound. + + + + +CHAPTER XVIII + +In the house of the Rudigers there was commotion. Clotilde sat apart +from it, locked in her chamber. She had performed her crowning act of +obedience to her father by declining the interview with Alvan, and as a +consequence she was full of grovelling revolt. + +Two things had helped her to carry out her engagement to submit in this +final instance of dutifulness--one was the sight of that hateful rigid +face and glacier eye of Tresten; the other was the loophole she left for +subsequent insurgency by engaging to write to Count Hollinger's envoy, +Dr. Storchel. She had gazed most earnestly at him, that he might not +mistake her meaning, and the little man's pair of spectacles had, she +fancied, been dim. He was touched. Here was a friend! Here was the +friend she required, the external aid, the fresh evasion, the link with +Alvan! Now to write to him to bind him to his beautiful human emotion. +By contrast with the treacherous Tresten, whose iciness roused her to +defiance, the nervous little advocate seemed an emissary of the skies, +and she invoked her treasure-stores of the craven's craftiness in revolt +to compose a letter that should move him, melt the good angel to espouse +her cause. He was to be taught to understand--nay, angelically he would +understand at once--why she had behaved apparently so contradictorily. +Fettered, cruelly constrained by threats and wily sermons upon her duty +to her family, terrorized, a prisoner 'beside this blue lake, in sight of +the sublimest scenery of earth,' and hating his associate--hating him, +she repeated and underscored--she had belied herself; she was willing to +meet Alvan, she wished to meet him. She could open her heart to Alvan's +true friend--his only true friend. He would instantly discern her +unhappy plight. In the presence of his associate she could explain +nothing, do nothing but what she had done. He had frozen her. She had +good reason to know that man for her enemy. She could prove him a +traitor to Alvan. Certain though she was from the first moment of Dr. +Storchel's integrity and kindness of heart, she had stood petrified +before him, as if affected by some wicked spell. She owned she had +utterly belied herself; she protested she had been no free agent. + +The future labours in her cause were thrown upon Dr. Storchel's +shoulders, but with such compliments to him on his mission from above +as emissary angels are presumed to be sensibly affected by. + +The letter was long, involved, rather eloquent when she forgot herself +and wrote herself, and intentionally very feminine, after the manner of +supplicatory ladies appealing to lawyers, whom they would sway by the +feeble artlessness of a sex that must confide in their possession of a +heart, their heads being too awful. + +She was directing the letter when Marko Romaris gave his name outside her +door. He was her intimate, her trustiest ally; he was aware of her +design to communicate with Dr. Storchel, and came to tell her it would be +a waste of labour. He stood there singularly pale and grave, unlike the +sprightly slave she petted on her search for a tyrant. 'Too late,' he +said, pointing to the letter she held. 'Dr. Storchel has gone.' + +She could not believe it, for Storchel had informed her that he would +remain three days. Her powers of belief were more heavily taxed when +Marko said: 'Alvan has challenged your father to fight him.' With that +he turned on his heel; he had to assist in the deliberations of the +family. + +She clasped her temples. The collision of ideas driven together by Alvan +and a duel--Alvan challengeing her father--Alvan, the contemner of the +senseless appeal to arms for the settlement 'of personal disputes!-- +darkened her mind. She ran about the house plying all whom she met for +news and explanations; but her young brother was absent, her sisters were +ignorant, and her parents were closeted in consultation with the +gentleman. At night Marko sent her word that she might sleep in peace, +for things would soon be arranged and her father had left the city. + +She went to her solitude to study the hard riddle of her shattered +imagination of Alvan. The fragments would not suffer joining, they +assailed her in huge heaps; and she did not ask herself whether she had +ever known him, but what disruption it was that had unsettled the reason +of the strongest man alive. At times he came flashing through the scud +of her thoughts magnificently in person, and how to stamp that splendid +figure of manhood on a madman's conduct was the task she supposed herself +to be attempting while she shrank from it, and worshipped the figure, +abhorred the deed. She could not unite them. He was like some great +cathedral organ foully handled in the night by demons. He, whose lucent +reason was an unclouded sky over every complexity of our sphere, he to +crave to fight! to seek the life-blood of the father of his beloved! +More unintelligible than this was it to reflect that he must know the +challenge to be of itself a bar to his meeting his Clotilde ever again. +She led her senses round to weep, and produced a state of mental drowning +for a truce to the bitter riddle. + +Quiet reigned in the household next day, and for the length of the day. +Her father had departed, her mother treated her vixenishly, snubbing her +for a word, but the ugly business of yesterday seemed a matter settled +and dismissed. Alvan, then, had been appeased. He was not a man of +blood: he was the humanest of men. She was able to reconstruct him under +the beams of his handsome features and his kingly smile. She could +occasionally conjure them up in their vividness; but had she not in truth +been silly to yield to spite and send him back the photographs of him +with his presents, so that he should have the uttermost remnant of the +gifts he asked for? Had he really asked to have anything back? She +inclined to doubt all that had been done and said since their separation +--if only it were granted her to look on a photograph showing him as he +was actually before their misunderstanding! The sun-tracing would not +deceive, as her own tricks of imageing might do: seeing him as he was +then, the hour would be revived,--she would certainly feel him as he +lived and breathed now. Thus she fancied, on the effort to get him to +her heart after the shock he had dealt it, for he had become almost a +stranger, as a god that has taken human shape and character. + +Next to the sight of Alvan her friend Marko was welcome. The youth +visited her in the evening, and with the glitter of his large black eyes +bent to her, and began talking incomprehensibly of leave-taking and +farewell, until she cried aloud that she had riddles enough: one was too +much. What had he to say? She gave him her hand to encourage him. She +listened, and soon it was her hand that mastered his in the grasp, though +she was putting questions incredulously, with an understanding duller +than her instinct. Or how if the frightful instinct while she listened +shot lightnings in her head, whose revelations were too intelligible to +be looked at? We think it devilish when our old nature is incandescent +to talk to us in this way, kindled by its vilest in hoping, hungering, +and fearing; and we call on the civilized mind to disown it. The +tightened grasp of her hand confessed her understanding of the thing she +pressed to hear repeated, for the sake of seeming to herself to repudiate +it under an accumulating horror, at the same time that the repetition +doubly and trebly confirmed it, so as to exonerate her criminal +sensations by casting the whole burden on the material fact. + +Marko, with her father's consent and the approval of the friends of the +family, had taken up Alvan's challenge! That was the tale. She saw him +dead in the act of telling it. + +'What?' she cried: 'what?' and then: 'You?' and her fingers were bonier +in their clutch: 'Let me hear. It can't be!' She snapped at herself for +not pitying him more but a sword had flashed to cut her gordian knot: she +her saw him dead, the obstacle removed, the man whom her parents opposed +to Alvan swept away: she saw him as a black gate breaking to a flood of +light. She had never invoked it, never wished, never dreamed it, but if +it was to be? . . . 'Oh! impossible. One of us is crazy. You to +fight? . . . they put it upon you? You fight him? But it is cruel, +it is abominable. Incredible! You have accepted the challenge, you +say?' + +He answered that he had, and gazed into her eyes for love. + +She blinked over them, crying out against parents and friends for their +heartlessness in permitting him to fight. + +'This is positive? This is really true?' she said, burning and dreading +to realize the magical change it pointed on, and touching him with her +other hand, loathing herself, loathing parents and friends who had +brought her to the plight of desiring some terrible event in sheer +necessity. Not she, it was the situation they had created which was +guilty! By dint of calling out on their heartlessness, and a spur of +conscience, she roused the feeling of compassion: + +'But, Marko! Marko! poor child! you cannot fight; you have never fired +a pistol or a gun in your life. Your health was always too delicate for +these habits of men; and you could not pull a trigger taking aim, do you +not know?' + +'I have been practising for a couple of hours to-day,' he said. + +Compassion thrilled her. 'A couple of hours! Unhappy boy! But do you +not know that he is a dead shot? He is famous for his aim. He never +misses. He can do all the duellist's wonders both with sword and pistol, +and that is why he was respected when he refused the duel because he-- +before these parents of mine drove him . . . and me! I think we are +both mad--he despised duelling. He! He! Alvan! who has challenged my +father! I have heard him speak of duelling as cowardly. But what is he? +what has he changed to? And it would be cowardly to kill you, Marko.' + +'I take my chance,' Marko said. + +'You have no chance. His aim is unerring.' She insisted on the +deadliness of his aim, and dwelt on it with a gloating delight that her +conscience approved, for she was persuading the youth to shun his fatal +aim. + +If you stood against him he would not spare you--perhaps not; I fear he +would not, as far as I know him now. He can be terrible in wrath. I +think he would warn you; but two men face to face! and he suspecting that +you cross his path! Find some way of avoiding him. Do, I entreat you. +By your love of me! Oh! no blood. I do not want to lose you. I could +not bear it.' + +'Would you regret me?' said he. + +Her eyes fell on his, and the beauty of those great dark eyes made her +fondness for him legible. He caused her a spasm of anguish, foreknowing +him doomed. She thought that haply this devoted heart was predestined to +be the sacrifice which should bring her round to Alvan. She murmured +phrases of dissuasion until her hollow voice broke; she wept for being +speechless, and turned upon Providence and her parents, in railing at +whom a voice of no ominous empty sound was given her; and still she felt +more warmly than railing expressed, only her voice shrank back from a +tone of feeling. She consoled herself with the reflection that utterance +was inadequate. Besides, her active good sense echoed Marko ringingly +when he cited the usages of their world and the impossibility of his +withdrawing or wishing to withdraw from the line of a challenge accepted. +It was destiny. She bowed her head lower and lower, oppressed without +and within, unwilling to look at him. She did not look when he left her. + +The silence of him encouraged her head to rise. She stared about: his +phantom seemed present, and for a time she beheld him both upright in +life and stretched in death. It could not be her fault that he should +die! it was the fatality. How strange it was! Providence, after +bitterly misusing her, offered this reparation through the death of +Marko. + +Possibly she ought to run out and beseech Alvan to spare the innocent +youth. She stood up trembling on her legs. She called to Alvan. 'Do +not put blood between us. Oh! I love you more than ever. Why did you +let that horrible man you take for a friend come here? I hate him, and +cannot feel my love of you when I see him. He chills me to the bone. +He made me say the reverse of what was in my heart. But spare poor +Marko! You have no cause for jealousy. You would be above it, if you +had. Do not aim; fire in the air. Do not let me kiss that hand and +think . . .' + +She sank to her chair, exclaiming: 'I am a prisoner!' She could not walk +two steps; she was imprisoned by the interdict of the house and the +paralysis of her limbs. Providence decreed that she must abide the +result. Dread Power! To be dragged to her happiness through a river of +blood was indeed dreadful, but the devotional sense of reliance upon +hidden wisdom in the direction of human affairs when it appears +considerate of our wishes, inspirited her to be ready for what Providence +was about to do, mysterious in its beneficence that it was! It is the +dark goddess Fortune to the craven. The craven with desires will offer +up bloody sacrifices to it submissively. The craven, with desires +expecting to be blest, is a zealot of the faith which ascribes the +direction of events to the outer world. Her soul was in full song to +that contriving agency, and she with the paralyzed limbs became +practically active, darting here and there over the room, burning +letters, packing a portable bundle of clothes, in preparation for the +domestic confusion of the morrow when the body of Marko would be driven +to their door, and amid the wailing and the hubbub she would escape +unnoticed to Alvan, Providence-guided! Out of the house would then +signify assuredly to Alvan's arms. + +The prospect might have seemed too heavenly to be realizable had she not +been sensible of paying heavily for it; and thus, as he would wish to be, +was Marko of double service to her; for she was truly fond of the +beautiful and chivalrous youth, and far from wishing to lose him. His +blood was on the heads of those who permitted him to face the danger! +She would have felt for him still more tenderly if it were permitted to a +woman's heart to enfold two men at a time. This, it would seem, she +cannot do: she is compelled by the painful restriction sadly to consent +that one of them should be swept away. + +Night passed dragging and galloping. In the very early light she thought +of adding some ornaments to her bundle of necessaries. She learnt of the +object of her present faith to be provident on her own behalf, and +dressed in two of certain garments which would have swollen her bundle +too much. + +This was the day of Providence: she had strung herself to do her part in +it and gone through the pathos of her fatalism above stairs in her +bedroom before Marko took his final farewell of her, so she could speak +her 'Heaven be with you!' unshaken, though sadly. Her father had +returned. To be away from him, and close to her bundle, she hurried to +her chamber and awaited the catastrophe, like one expecting to be raised +from the vaults. Carriage, wheels would give her the first intimation of +it. Slow, very slow, would imply badly wounded, she thought: dead, if +the carriage stopped some steps from the house and one of the seconds of +the poor boy descended to make the melancholy announcement. She could +not but apprehend the remorselessness of the decree. Death, it would +probably be! Alvan had resolved to sweep him off the earth. She could +not blame Alvan for his desperate passion, though pitying the victim of +it. In any case the instant of the arrival of the carriage was her +opportunity marked by the finger of Providence rendered visible, and she +sat rocking her parcel on her lap. Her love of Alvan now was mixed with +an alluring terror of him as an immediate death-dealer who stood against +red-streaked heavens, more grandly satanic in his angry mightiness than +she had ever realized that figure, and she, trembled and shuddered, +fearing to meet him, yearning to be taken to him, to close her eyes on +his breast in blindest happiness. She gave the very sob for the +occasion. + +A carriage drove at full speed to the door. Full speed could not be the +pace for a funeral load. That was a visitor to her father on business. +She waited for fresh wheels, telling herself she would be patient and +must be ready. + +Her pathos ways ready and scarcely controllable. The tear thickened on +her eyelid as she projected her mind on the grief she would soon be +undergoing for Marko: or at least she would undergo it subsequently; she +would certainly mourn for him. She dared not proceed to an accumulated +enumeration of his merits, as her knowledge of the secret of pathos knew +to be most moving, in an extreme fear that she might weaken her required +energies for action at the approaching signal. + +Feet came rushing up the stairs: her door was thrown open, and the living +Marko, stranger than a dead, stood present. He had in his look an +expectation that she would be glad to behold him, and he asked her, and +she said: 'Oh, yes, she was glad, of course.' She was glad that Alvan +had pardoned him for his rashness; she was vexed that her projected +confusion of the household had been thwarted: vexed, petrified with +astonishment. + +'But how if I tell you that Alvan is wounded?' he almost wept to say. + +Clotilde informs the world that she laughed on hearing this. She was +unaware of her ground for laughing: It was the laugh of the tragic +comedian. + +Could one believe in a Providence capable of letting such a sapling and +weakling strike down the most magnificent stature upon earth? + +'You--him!' she said, in the tremendous compression of her contempt. + +She laughed. The world is upside down--a world without light, or +pointing finger, or affection for special favourites, and therefore +bereft of all mysterious and attractive wisdom, a crazy world, a corpse +of a world--if this be true! + +But it can still be disbelieved. + +He stood by her dejectedly, and she sent him flying with a repulsive, +'Leave me!' The youth had too much on his conscience to let him linger. +His manner of going smote her brain. + +Was it credible? Was it possible to think of Alvan wounded?--the giant +laid on his back and in the hands of the leech? Assuredly it was a +mockery of all calculations. She could not conjure up the picture of +him, and her emotions were merely struck and stunned. If this be true! + +But it can be resolutely disbelieved. + +We can put it before Providence to cleanse itself of this thing, or +suffer the consequence that we now and for ever quit our worship, lose +our faith in it and our secret respect. She heard Marko's tale +confirmed, whispers of leaden import, physicians' rumours, and she +doubted. She clung insanely to her incredulity. Laughter had been +slain, but not her belief in the invincibility of Alvan; she could not +imagine him overthrown in a conflict--and by a hand that she had taken +and twisted in her woman's hand subduingly! He, the unerring shot, +laid low by one who had never burnt powder till the day before the duel! +It was easier to remain incredulous notwithstanding the gradational +distinctness of the whispers. She dashed her 'Impossible!' at +Providence, conceived the tale in wilful and almost buoyant self- +deception to be a conspiracy in the family to hide from her Alvan's +magnanimous dismissal of poor Marko from the field of strife. That was +the most evident fact. She ran through delusion and delusion, exhausting +each and hugging it after the false life was out. + +So violent was the opposition to reason in the idea of Alvans descending +to the duel and falling by the hand of Marko, that it cried to be +rebutted by laughter: and she could not, she could laugh no more, nor +imagine laughing, though she could say of the people of the house, 'They +act it well!' and hate them for the serious whispering air, and the +dropping of medical terms and weights of drugs, which robbed her of what +her instinct told her was the surest weapon for combating deception. +Them, however, and their acting she could have with stood enough to +silently discredit them through sheer virulence of a hatred that proved +them to be duly credited. But her savage wilfulness could not resist the +look of Marko. She had to yield up her breast to the truth, and +stimulate further unbelief lest her loaded heart should force her to run +to the wounded lion's bedside, and hear his reproaches. She had to cheat +her heart, and the weak thing consented to it, loathing her for the +imposture. Seeing Marko too, assured of it by his broken look, the +terrible mournfulness less than the horrible irony of the truth gnawed +within her. It spoke to her in metal, not in flesh. It haunted her +feelings and her faint imaginations alienly. It discoloured, it scorned +the earth, and earth's teachings, and the understanding of life. +Rational clearness at all avenues was blurred by it. The thought that +Alvan lay wounded and in danger, was one thought: that Marko had +stretched him there, was quite another, and was a livid eclipsing thought +through which her grief had to work its way to get to heat and a state of +burning. She knew not in truth what to feel: the craven's dilemma when +yet feeling much. Anger at Providence--rose uppermost. She had so +shifted and wound about, and so pulled her heart to pieces, that she +could no longer sanely and with wholeness encounter a shock: she had no +sensation firm enough to be stamped by a signet. + +Even on the fatal third day, when Marko, white as his shrouded +antagonist, led her to the garden of the house, and there said the word +of death, an execrating amazement, framing the thought 'Why is it not +Alvan who speaks?' rose beside her gaping conception of her loss. She +framed it as an earnest interrogation for the half minute before misery +had possession of her, coming down like a cloud. Providence then was too +shadowy a thing to upbraid. She could not blame herself, for the +intensity of her suffering testified to the bitter realness of her love +of the dead man. Her craven's instinct to make a sacrifice of others +flew with claws of hatred at her parents. These she offered up, and the +spirit presiding in her appears to have accepted them as proper +substitutes for her conscience. + + + +CHAPTER XIX + +Alvan was dead. The shot of his adversary, accidentally well-directed, +had struck him mortally. He died on the morning of the third day after +the duel. There had been no hope that he could survive, and his agonies +made a speedy dissolution desirable by those most wishing him to live. + +The baroness had her summons to hurry to him after his first swoon. She +was his nurse and late confidante a tearless woman, rigid in service. +Death relaxed his hold in her hand. He met his fate like the valiant +soul he was. Haply if he had lingered without the sweats of bodily +tortures to stay reflectiveness, he, also, in the strangeness of his +prostration, might have cast a thought on the irony of the fates felling +a man like him by a youngster's hand and for a shallow girl! He might +have fathered some jest at life, with rueful relish of the flavour: for +such is our manner of commenting on ourselves when we come to shipwreck +through unseaworthy pretensions. There was no interval on his passage +from anguish to immobility. + +Silent was that house of many chambers. That mass of humanity profusely +mixed of good and evil, of generous ire and mutinous, of the passion for +the future of mankind and vanity of person, magnanimity and sensualism, +high judgement, reckless indiscipline, chivalry, savagery, solidity, +fragmentariness, was dust. + +The two men composing it, the untamed and the candidate for citizenship, +in mutual dissension pulled it down. He perished of his weakness, but it +was a strong man that fell. If his end was unheroic, the blot does not +overshadow his life. His end was a derision because the animal in him +ran him unchained and bounding to it. A stormy blood made wreck of a +splendid intelligence. Yet they that pronounce over him the ordinary +fatalistic epitaph of the foregone and done, which is the wisdom of men +measuring the dead by the last word of a lamentable history, should pause +to think whether fool or madman is the title for one who was a zealous +worker, respected by great heads of his time, acknowledged the head of +the voluminous coil of the working people, and who, as we have seen, +insensibly though these wrought within him, was getting to purer fires +through his coarser when the final intemperateness drove him to ruin. +As little was he the vanished God whom his working people hailed +deploringly on the long procession of his remains from city to city under +charge of the baroness. That last word of his history ridicules the +eulogy of partisan and devotee, and to commit the excess of worshipping +is to conjure up by contrast a vulgar giant: for truth will have her just +proportions, and vindicates herself upon a figure over-idealized by +bidding it grimace, leaving appraisers to get the balance of the two +extremes. He was neither fool nor madman, nor man to be adored: his last +temptation caught him in the season before he had subdued his blood, and +amid the multitudinously simple of this world, stamped him a tragic +comedian: that is, a grand pretender, a self-deceiver, one of the lividly +ludicrous, whom we cannot laugh at, but must contemplate, to distinguish +where their character strikes the note of discord with life; for +otherwise, in the reflection of their history, life will seem a thing +demoniacally inclined by fits to antic and dive into gulfs. The +characters of the hosts of men are of the simple order of the comic; not +many are of a stature and a complexity calling for the junction of the +two Muses to name them. + +While for his devotees he lay still warm in the earth, that other, the +woman, poor Clotilde, astonished her compatriots by passing comedy and +tragic comedy with the gift of her hand to the hand which had slain +Alvan. In sooth, the explanation is not so hard when we recollect our +knowledge of her. It was a gentle youth; her parents urged her to it: a +particular letter, the letter of the challenge to her father, besliming +her, was shown;--a hideous provocation pushed to the foullest. Who can +blame Prince Marko? who had ever given sign of more noble bravery than +he? He had stood to defend her name and fame. He was very love, the +never extinguished torch of love. And he hung on her for the little of +life appearing to remain to him. Before heaven he was guiltless. He was +good. Her misery had shrunk her into nothingness, and she rose out of +nothingness cold and bloodless, bearing a thought that she might make a +good youth happy, or nurse him sinking--be of that use. Besides he was a +refuge from the roof of her parents. She shut her eyes on the past, sure +of his goodness; goodness, on her return to some sense of being, she +prized above other virtues, and perhaps she had a fancy that to be allied +to it was to be doing good. After a few months she buried him. From +that day, or it may be, on her marriage day, her heart was Alvan's. +Years later she wrote her version of the story, not sparing herself so +much as she supposed. Providence and her parents were not forgiven. But +as we are in her debt for some instruction, she may now be suffered to +go. + + + + +ETEXT EDITOR'S BOOKMARKS: + +A tragic comedian: that is, a grand pretender, a self-deceiver +At the age of forty, men that love love rootedly +Hosts of men are of the simple order of the comic +Men in love are children with their mistresses +Providence and her parents were not forgiven +She ran through delusion and delusion, exhausting each +Trick for killing time without hurting him +Weak souls are much moved by having the pathos on their side + + + + +End of this Project Gutenberg Etext of The Tragic Comedians, v3 +by George Meredith + + + + + + +ETEXT EDITOR'S BOOKMARKS, TRAGIC COMEDIANS, COMPLETE: + +A tragic comedian: that is, a grand pretender, a self-deceiver +Above all things I detest the writing for money +At the age of forty, men that love love rootedly +Barriers are for those who cannot fly +Be good and dull, and please everybody +Beginning to have a movement to kiss the whip +Centres of polished barbarism known as aristocratic societies +Clotilde fenced, which is half a confession +Comparisons will thrust themselves on minds disordered +Compromise is virtual death +Conservative, whose astounded state paralyzes his wrath +Creatures that wait for circumstances to bring the change +Dignitary, and he passed under the bondage of that position +Dissent rings out finely, and approval is a feeble murmur +Do you judge of heroes as of lesser men? +Empanelled to deliver verdicts upon the ways of women +Fantastical +Finishing touches to the negligence +Giant Vanity urged Giant Energy to make use of Giant Duplicity +Gone to pieces with an injured lover's babble +Gradations appear to be unknown to you +He had to go, he must, he has to be always going +He stormed her and consented to be beaten +Hesitating strangeness that sometimes gathers during absences +His violent earnestness, his imperial self-confidence +His apparent cynicism is sheer irritability +Hosts of men are of the simple order of the comic +I give my self, I do not sell +I have learnt as much from light literature as from heavy +I would wait till he flung you off, and kneel to you +If you have this creative soul, be the slave of your creature +Imagination she has, for a source of strength in the future days +Looking on him was listening +Love the difficulty better than the woman +Men in love are children with their mistresses +Metaphysician's treatise on Nature: a torch to see the sunrise +Music in Italy? Amorous and martial, brainless and monotonous +Night has little mercy for the self-reproachful +Not much esteem for non-professional actresses +Not in a situation that could bear of her blaming herself +O for yesterday! +Pact between cowardice and comfort under the title of expediency +Philosophy skimmed, and realistic romances deep-sounded +Polished barbarism +Professional widows +Providence and her parents were not forgiven +Scorned him for listening to the hesitations (hers) +Self-consoled when they are not self-justified +She ran through delusion and delusion, exhausting each +She felt in him a maker of facts +Strength in love is the sole sincerity +The worst of omens is delay +The way is clear: we have only to take the step +The brainless in Art and in Statecraft +Time is due to us, and the minutes are our gold slipping away +Time and strength run to waste in retarding the inevitable +To have no sympathy with the playful mind is not to have a mind +Trick for killing time without hurting him +Two wishes make a will +Venerated by his followers, well hated by his enemies +Want of courage is want of sense +We shall not be rich--nor poor +Weak souls are much moved by having the pathos on their side +Who ever loved that loved not at first sight? +Win you--temperately, let us hope; by storm, if need be +Work of extravagance upon perceptibly plain matter +World voluntarily opens a path to those who step determinedly + + + + +[The End] + + + + +The Project Gutenberg Etext of The Tragic Comedians, Complete, by Meredith +***********This file should be named gm70v10.txt or gm70v10.zip*********** + +Corrected EDITIONS of our etexts get a new NUMBER, gm70v11.txt +VERSIONS based on separate sources get new LETTER, gm70v10a.txt + +This etext was produced by David Widger <widger@cecomet.net> + +More information about this book is at the top of this file. + +We are now trying to release all our etexts one year in advance +of the official release dates, leaving time for better editing. +Please be encouraged to tell us about any error or corrections, +even years after the official publication date. + +Please note neither this listing nor its contents are final til +midnight of the last day of the month of any such announcement. +The official release date of all Project Gutenberg Etexts is at +Midnight, Central Time, of the last day of the stated month. 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