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Now that I am sitting here quietly with you +and Susy, you may hear my story if you like. Perhaps it is hardly +worth telling; perhaps you will both laugh at me when it is finished. +However, it is the kind of story that ought to be told between the +lights; so do not ring for the lamp till I have done. + +You have never heard much about my engagement to May Newton. There was +nothing remarkable in the affair; it was only the oft-told tale of two +persons being thrown together in a narrow sphere, and gliding naturally +into close intimacy. I suppose you are aware that I met her first in +an out-of-the-way village on the sea-coast where I went to stay with +my uncle. It was the sort of place in which any man would have rapidly +drifted into love-making—firstly, because there was no other way of +killing time; and, secondly, because there was an air of romance about +the spot. Although there were no great beauties in Longbeach, it had a +certain charm of dreamy peace. The sea lulled it to sleep with drowsy +murmurs; its ruined castle, grey and ivy-grown, was full of nooks where +you might read or muse without fear of intrusion. There were one or two +girls in the village who were prettier than May, and yet, after giving +them all a fair trial, I settled down into a calm enjoyment of her +companionship, and cared for no one else. + +In the beginning, I certainly had no serious intentions. I was not a +marrying man, and the pleasure of "Shaking down loose blossoms from +off a laden bough" had always been quite enough for such a trifler +as myself. But does anyone ever know the precise moment when liking +changes to love? I have looked back sometimes, and tried to see just +the very spot where my path took that mysterious turn; but I never +could discover it. All I know is that the jest became earnest, the +shadow shaped itself into substance, and then the old idle days fled +away for ever. + +We were not rich enough to think of a speedy marriage. She was living +with a widowed mother and elder sister, and I knew from the first that +their income was small. As for myself, you are pretty well acquainted +with my means, and you know that I have only lately been smiled upon +by fortune. We used to sketch out our future as we sat together on +the shore. A golden future it was to be—bright as the sunlit sea that +lay calm and glittering before our eyes. There were no storms to mar +those tranquil days of late summer; hour after hour glided by in mellow +sunshine, and the still atmosphere was full of that sense of ripeness +which always deepens the feeling of repose. + +It was difficult to believe that a cold world was waiting outside our +balmy paradise. Poor May, living her secluded country life, was utterly +unable to realise the bitter struggle for existence which exhausts the +heart and brain. While I was with her, the charm of her presence made +me forget all about that struggle, and yet I knew that it had to be +faced. We could not build our nest, like the birds, in some cranny of +the old castle walls, and sing our lives away in an ivy bower. What a +delightfully simple ending of a courtship that would be! I remember +how we watched the happy feathered things flitting in and out of +their haunts in the ruins, and wished that we could as easily provide +ourselves with a home. + + +The autumn had set in before I left Longbeach, and went up to town to +seek my fortune. Through my uncle's influence, I had obtained the post +of confidential clerk in a mercantile house; but the salary was small, +and the business and its associations had few attractions for me. In +fact, I hated the very name of business. + +Brought up to be an idler, I had never had any of the training that +prepares a man for intercourse with the great City world. After a week +or two of City life, I began to pine for the dreamy calm of Longbeach; +I missed the lullaby of the sea, the soothing tones of May's sweet +voice, the touch of her little hand. And then, as I grew more and +more dissatisfied with my lot, I had moods of bitter discontent and +impatience. I got angry with my uncle for not finding me a better +place than the office of Marford and Knox, angry with myself for being +unfitted to cope with the sharp City men around me—and angry (for no +cause at all) with poor, innocent May. + +I never was a hero, you see; I set about doing my share of disagreeable +work as badly as a man possibly could, and nothing sours the temper +more than the secret consciousness of work ill done. So it came to pass +that I went down to Longbeach, in an unamiable humour, to spend my +holidays. It was December when I saw it again; our favourite paths were +strewn with yellow leaves, the sea was cold and grey, and there was no +singing of birds about the ruins. A chill breath seemed to have passed +over both our hearts. + +[Illustration: MAY WAS SILENT AND MELANCHOLY.] + +May was silent and melancholy on our skating expedition, distrustful of +herself and me. Her eyes looked the question that she did not speak. +Had we made a mistake when we plighted our troth among roses? Had our +love only a flower's life—"sweet, not lasting?" + +About May herself there was always something fragile and flower-like. +She was slender, and she was pretty, but it was a beauty of colouring +and expression, not of feature. Her cheeks had a delicate bloom that +came and went quickly; her eyes, which were large and clear, would +shine with a brilliant light in moments of excitement. There was a +charming natural grace in all her movements that reminded you of a +blossom swaying in the wind. Everybody liked her, and even strangers +were won by that sweet, picturesque face and soft voice, but hers was +too sensitive a nature to thrive without sunshine. She seemed to pale +and wither in my gloomy presence, like an anemone that is blighted by a +bitter blast. + +It vexed me to find that I had a blighting influence; I missed the +blushes and brightness that had welcomed me in the bygone summer days, +and I was not careful to conceal my annoyance. She saw that I was +displeased, and shrank away in a helpless fashion that was painful to +see. + +"You are greatly changed, May," I said, one day, in an irritable tone. + +We were walking up the garden path together, with the dead leaves +drifting about our feet. I saw the sudden whitening of her cheeks and +lips, and a sharp pang smote me, even as I spoke. But I did not let her +see that I felt anything. + +"Yes," she answered, "I am changed, and I do not think my old self will +ever come back. It was to that old gay self that you were pledged, +Horace; I will not keep you bound to the dull girl of to-day. You used +to say I was always bright, you know; well, I have lost my brightness, +and we had better say good-bye." + +"Do you mean it?" I asked. + +"I do," she said, firmly and coldly. + +All the pride that was latent in her gentle nature was up in arms. She +felt herself undervalued, unappreciated. + +And so we parted—parted, although I knew I could never love another +woman in the world as I had loved her! An hour or two later I had left +the place, and the train was whirling me back to town. + + +A few weeks afterwards my uncle followed me to London. He had grown +tired of village life, he said, and wanted to end his days in the old +West-end street where he was born. Not one word did he say about the +Newtons; in fact, he had made no intimate friends in Longbeach, and had +concerned himself very little with his neighbours and their doings. He +was, as you know, a man of excessively retiring habits, and never cared +for any kind of society. Thus it fell out that all communication with +Longbeach was cut off, and there was not a single link left to connect +me with the past. + +About this time, I began to take a greater interest in the affairs +of our firm, and applied myself more closely to business than I had +ever done before. I did not forget May, but I resolutely put her image +into the background of memory. There were new friends to be made, new +pleasures to be enjoyed, new ambitions to give a zest to life. Yet +her sweet face was always lurking in my thoughts, ready to come to +the front whenever I was weary and alone. Sometimes I caught sight of +faces that had a look of hers—in trains, in omnibuses, in the streets. +I suppose you do not know what sharp pain may come with a chance +resemblance. Well, you are happy if you have never known it. I have +seen my lost love looking at me through a stranger's eyes, many a time; +and in the tone of a strange voice, I have heard an echo of the voice +that was still. + +So life went on with me through the winter and spring, and far into the +summer, and then it was proposed to take another partner into the firm +of Marford and Knox. + +It occurred to use that I knew the very man who was wanted by my +employers. He was an idle man with a good deal of money and leisure +hanging uselessly upon his hands, and I resolved at once to seek him +out and press him into our service. My idea was favourably received +by Mr. Knox. There was no time, he said, to be lost; the grass must +not grow under my feet; it would be wise to look up this friend of +mine without delay. The last time I had heard of him he was living at +Monksbury, and I decided to go there and call upon him. + +I was not unacquainted with Monksbury. It was a gay little +watering-place, where I had idled away pleasant hours in days gone by. +It lies on the South Coast, and when I stepped into the train I knew +that I was booked for a tedious journey of three hours at least. It +was growing late in the summer; the air was sultry and still, not a +cloud flecked the blue of the afternoon sky, scarcely a breath of wind +wandered in at the open windows, and I leaned back in my corner, too +languid even to unfold the papers I had bought to while the time away. + +I could not read and I could not sleep. My eyes were always seeking for +familiar objects in the scenery, and I thought of the bygone summer +when I had travelled along this line, gay of heart, to Longbeach. + +By-and-by, we must stop at the well-known little station. I should +catch a glimpse of the ruined tower and the quiet fields where May and +I had dreamed our brief love dream together. While I mused, the day was +waning, swiftly and yet softly, as such cloudless days always do fade. +Longer and longer grew the shadows. A faint mist came creeping over the +downs, the blue above melted into gold. The gloaming was stealing on +apace, bringing the freshness of dew into the air, softening all the +harsher features of the landscape, and adding an indescribable sense of +rest to the scene. + +My companions were two middle-aged men, who had dozed peacefully +through the greater part of the journey. As the light faded and the +atmosphere cooled, they woke up and made a few remarks on the crops and +the weather. I gathered from their talk that they, too, were going as +far as Monksbury to join their wives and children in seaside lodgings. +Their conversation did not interest me then, but later on I remembered +it, and even recalled the faces and voices of the speakers. One of them +(the elder of the two) spoke tenderly of a delicate little daughter who +was gaining strength from the sea-breezes, and wondered if she would be +looking brighter when he saw her again. + +Gazing out of the window, I watched the afterglow dying off the +sea, and felt the briny breath of a rising tide. We were drawing +near Longbeach; the train slackened speed, and crawled into the +little station; and my heart beat fast as the platform came in +sight. Were there any familiar figures to be seen? Yes; there was +the station-master, and beside him a slight little woman with a +fleecy-white woollen shawl wrapped carelessly about her head. The light +was growing dim, yet not too dim for me to distinguish her face, which +was turned towards me. Good heaven! It was May herself! + +She was very pale and thin; but at the sight of me, her features were +lit up by the brightest smile I had ever seen. It was more than a +smile—it was a glory. In an instant, she had advanced close to the +carriage window, and was beckoning impatiently with a little ungloved +hand. There was a pretty imperiousness in the gesture that reminded me +of the May of old days. I never thought of resisting it for a moment—I +should not have been a man if I had. Seizing my travelling-bag, I +opened the door and jumped out upon the platform, alighting close to +the toes of Drake, the station-master, who looked at me, I fancied, +with some surprise. + +"Good evening, Mr. Medway," he said, in rather a constrained tone. + +"Good evening," I responded, absently, walking with him along the +platform while May's light figure flitted on before us. + +At the gate, I gave up my ticket, and then turned into the old road +that led straight to the village. It was a quiet road, shaded by tall +trees, and sweet with the scent of cottage gardens; and May and I had +often traversed it together. This was the very hour for explanations +and reconciliations; we might stroll slowly homewards in the gloaming, +and I would ask her, humbly and frankly, to forgive me for the past. I +had never ceased to love her. Looking back on the last twelve months, I +could see that her memory had been present with me in every action of +my life. I had never shaken off the spell of her sweet influence, never +offered to another woman the heart that was hers alone. + +"Where are you, May?" I called, standing still in the silent road. But +there was no reply. The light form had vanished. + +It was just one of her old, childish tricks, I thought. I remembered +how she used to hide in the shrubbery of the garden, and spring out, +light as a fay, when I least expected to find her. And yet it was +strange that she should have walked from her cottage to the railway +station with that woollen shawl wrapped round her head! Light-heated as +she was, May had always had a respect for conventionalities; she had +never been known to appear in the village street without a dainty hat +or bonnet. + +Then, too, how had she heard that I was likely to be in the train at +that hour? It must have been a mere chance that had brought her to the +railway station, and in beckoning to me, she might have acted on a +sudden impulse of which she had immediately felt ashamed. Overwhelmed +by a sense of bashfulness, she had probably fled across the fields to +seek shelter at home. As the last thought occurred to me, I smiled, +and began to walk rapidly onward. It was not likely that I should +overtake her before she gained the village; she was light of foot and +well acquainted with all the short cuts and by-ways of the place. But I +resolved to go straight to the door of Mrs. Newton's house, and ask for +an interview with my old love before I slept that night. + +The evening was intensely sweet and still; showers of jessamine +blossoms had drifted down from cottage porches, and the air was heavy +with fragrance. Still walking at a quick pace, I came to a pause at +length before the door of Fern Cottage, and felt instinctively among +the ivy leaves for the handle of the bell. A startling peal resounded +through the little house, and I waited, half confused yet happy on the +threshold of May's old home. There was no sound of footsteps within; no +one came to answer my summons. I stepped back into the road and looked +up at the shuttered windows with a sudden sense of dismay. What did +this darkness and silence mean? I pulled the bell again. + +"That is an empty house," said a voice at my elbow. + +I turned and beheld two ladies regarding me with evident astonishment. +In the next instant, the younger of the two had recognised me. She was +a Miss Reed, a girl who had been on intimate terms with May. + +"It is Mr. Medway, mamma," she cried. + +"It is indeed," said Mrs. Reed, holding out her hand. "I did not know +you at first; it is a long time since we have seen you." + +"Did you think that the Newtons still lived at Fern Cottage?" asked Amy +Reed. + +Her bright eyes were looking keenly at me in the dusk; there was +nothing for it but to give her a straightforward answer. + +"Yes, I did," I replied. + +"How strange! You did not know that they left Longbeach in the spring?" + +"Left Longbeach!" I repeated, incredulously. "But I have seen May this +very evening. She was at the railway station when my train came in." + +"You must have been mistaken," Amy Reed said, gravely. "The Newtons +have gone to live in Richmond, and May, poor child, has been very ill." + +"Ill or well, she was at the railway station to-night," I declared +stubbornly. + +And then followed an uneasy silence. A vague sense of fear seemed to +possess us all three, as we stood mutely gazing at each other in the +twilight. + +Mrs. Reed, a good, motherly woman, was the first to recover her usual +manner. + +"You have been deceived by an accidental likeness," she said, +cheerfully. "Such things often happen, you know. But what are you going +to do to-night? Come home and be our guest, and we will give you the +latest news of the Newtons." + +"Yes, do come," added Amy. "I had a letter from Charlotte Newton +yesterday." + +Like one in a dream, I walked with them through the village street, my +mind full of the vision I had seen, my heart sick with forebodings. + +The Reeds talked on, kindly anxious to dispel the gloom that was fast +overwhelming me, and I soon learnt all that they had to tell. + +Some property in Richmond had been left to Mrs. Newton, and she had +decided to go and live there, hoping that the change would be good for +May. But, in spite of fresh air and new scenes, May had languished all +through the summer, and at last became dangerously ill. For weeks, +she lay on the very borders of death; few hopes were entertained, and +when at length the crisis of the fever was past, it seemed impossible +to rouse her from the state of apathy into which she had fallen. As +Charlotte said, she did not care about getting well—she was willing, +far more willing, to die than to live. + +I scarcely know how I got through that long night in Longbeach. Hour +after hour was spent in pacing the room and longing for daybreak. If +I closed my eyes, it was only to be haunted by that strange vision of +May's pale face looking out of the folds of the fleecy, white shawl. +Her smile had been verily a beautiful smile, almost too bright for any +mortal features to have worn. And then that beckoning gesture! It had +summoned me, perhaps, to follow her beyond the old earthly home to +another home of everlasting rest. + + +Early in the morning, I took leave of my kind hostess, and Amy insisted +on accompanying me to the railway station. She talked hopefully and +cheerfully as we walked, doing her utmost to banish my fear; and yet +I could detect an undercurrent of sadness in her tone. My forebodings +seemed to have communicated themselves to her; silence fell on us both +as we approached the station, and she looked pale and anxious as we +passed through the little gate that opened on the platform. Drake was +there, as usual, and he, too, appeared grave and out of sorts. + +"You had a narrow escape last night, Mr. Medway," he said. "You took a +ticket to Monksbury, didn't you? Yes, and you got out here. Well, if +you had gone on, you would have been in for a great smash, sir, that's +all." + +"A smash! Was there an accident last night?" asked Amy. + +I was incapable of uttering a word. + +"A dreadful smash, miss, about three miles down the line. Five killed, +and ten or eleven injured. The traffic was stopped for hours." + +"Drake," said Amy, suddenly, "did you see anyone on the platform last +evening when Mr. Medway got out of the train? He thought—he fancied he +had caught sight of a friend." + +"You looked as if you had seen somebody, sir," remarked Drake, staring +at me. "You jumped out of the carriage, smiling as if somebody was here +to meet you; and there wasn't a soul on the platform but myself. I +remember thinking it rather odd, sir, if you'll excuse my saying so." + +Amy and I exchanged glances. + +I had abandoned the intention of going to Monksbury; my sole object now +was to get back to town, and then proceed to Richmond with as little +delay as possible. There was no time for more conversation; the uptrain +came thundering along, and I grasped Miss Reed's hand in silence. + +"Good-bye," she whispered; "we shall meet again, I hope, in happier +days." + + +It was still early in the afternoon when I reached Richmond, and hired +a fly at the railway station. Then came a drive of a mile and a half, +which sorely tried my patience, although I had many a fair glimpse of +dark woodland and silver river. I saw all without seeing; my mind was +full of the one absorbing question—was she living or dead? If she were +dead, this bright world around would be a world of darkness to me; if +she lived, I had the hope of beginning a new life. + +At last, the driver pulled up before the gate of a pretty little villa, +set in the midst of trees and flowering shrubs. With a wild throb of +anxiety I looked up at the windows—they were all thrown wide open, and +unveiled, to admit the summer air and sunshine! My knock at the door +was speedily answered, and Charlotte's face appeared in the entry. + +"You are come, Horace!" she said. "I have been expecting you all the +morning." + +"Did Miss Reed send a telegram?" I asked. + +"No; but I had an impression that you would be here. I will explain—" + +"How is May?" I interrupted, breathlessly. + +"Better, much better. Oh, Horace, I have a strange thing to tell! But +how tired and pale you are looking! Have you been ill, too?" + +"Not ill, but unhappy and restless," I said, letting her lead me into a +little drawing-room. And then sinking down on a sofa, I looked at her +in silence. + +Just for a moment, I could not ask another question. Since that strange +vision had appeared to me at Longbeach, I had been without sleep, and +almost without food. I had scarcely touched the meals that the Reeds +had set before me, and after leaving them, there had been neither time +nor thought for refreshment. + +"You are worn out," said Charlotte, gently. "I will bring you some wine +before I say another word." + +She hurried away, and I was left alone in the pretty room with traces +of May's handiwork around me. + +There were some of the old drawings that recalled a thousand memories. +That sketch of the ruined castle—how well I remembered every line of +it! May was a better artist than I, but I loved to assert myself on +all occasions, and the clump of alder bushes had been put in by my +hand. Then, too, there was the big sunflower which she had embroidered +on a satin sofa-pillow, meekly accepting all my numerous suggestions +about stitches and shades. And there were the peacock screens with +which I had fanned her many a time on hot summer days; in fact, there +was scarcely anything in the room that did not mutely remind me of +the past. They are often intensely sad, these dumb appeals made to us +by inanimate things—sadder even, I think, than the human voices which +sometimes reproach us for our unkindness to the lost. + +The warm air came in languidly through the open windows, and bees +were humming in the sunshine, hovering about the passion-flowers, and +jessamine. The house was very quiet, and Charlotte's returning footstep +sounded distinctly in the stillness. + +She persuaded me to eat and drink, assuring me all the while that May +should be told of my arrival. I yielded to her gentle management with +a docility that was quite new in me. Moreover, there is a delicious +langour attending a sense of relief, and I was in no mood to strive +with anyone. + +"You are looking more like your old self now," she said, after a pause; +"it would have startled May to see you some minutes ago. There was a +strained and anxious look in your face that made you seem a dozen years +older, Horace. You must have had a shock." + +"I am not a nervous man," I answered; "but I will confess, Charlotte, +that my nerves have been severely tried. Tell me more about May. I will +talk of myself and my own concerns by-and-by." + +"She has been very ill," said Charlotte, gravely. "If you have seen +the Reeds, you have heard of her illness. Her recovery has been a slow +business. Indeed, I began to fear that she would not take pains to get +well. One day was just like another; she stopped short at a certain +point, and never seemed to get beyond it. She was always patient and +gentle, you know. We should have hailed a little peevishness as a good +sign; but it never came." + +There were tears in the good sister's eyes. She drew a long breath, and +then suddenly sat down on the sofa by my side. + +"Horace, how could you have done so? How could you have parted with +her so easily? She is so sweet, and good, and true. There are not many +girls like her in the world." + +"I know it," I said, in a low voice; "and no one has ever filled her +place." + +Charlotte's face brightened. + +"You cannot think how she pined and faded," she went on. "I am sure +she tried to bear her sorrow bravely; but if the spirit was strong, +the flesh was weak. Of course she would lay the blame of ill-health on +any cause bet the true one. If she had a headache, she owed it to the +east wind; if she looked white and weary, her walk had been too long; +if she could not eat, it was always because she had over-tired herself +with working, or drawing, or writing letters. Those innocent little +falsehoods never deceived us for a moment; but there is something +infinitely pathetic in a girl's attempts to hide a wounded heart. I +used to go about looking for other girls who had suffered or were +suffering in the same way—I had such a longing to speak tender words to +them and comfort them, for May's sake." + +I held out my hand, and pressed hers in silence. How they put us to +shame, these women, with their strong, natural affections and wide +sympathies! I had never rightly understood the character of Charlotte +Newton before. + +"Then we came here," she continued, "and instead of getting better, May +grew worse. We thought it would be best for her to leave Longbeach, +but she was not strong enough to bear the uprooting. We are not rich, +Horace, but we have more money now than we have ever had in our lives; +and yet it seemed that this happy change in our fortunes did no good +to May. Poor darling! She pretended to be pleased with our new home! +She tried to help us in arranging the books and furniture, and fell ill +before half of the work was done." + +"But she is better, Charlotte? You said she was better," I cried. "Is +not the danger past?" + +"Thank God, yes; I believe it is. And now, Horace, I am going to tell +you something very strange." + +Charlotte paused, and drew a long breath; and the bees hummed loudly in +the stillness. It had cost her a painful effort to speak calmly, and +she had to wipe away her tears before she spoke again. + +"At five o'clock, yesterday afternoon, I brought a cup of cocoa to +May, and said that her eyes were heavy with sleep. She was sitting in +an armchair by the open window; the day was very sultry and still, and +she seemed to pine greatly for a breath of cool air. After drinking the +cocoa, she leaned back upon the pillows of her chair, and looked out +dreamily on the flower-bed. + +"'I think I shall go to sleep, Charlotte,' she said. 'I can sleep +better here than in my bed.' + +"'But the evening is coming, dear; it will be chill presently by the +open window,' I replied. + +"'Don't shut it,' she pleaded, taking up her white woollen shawl, and +wrapping it loosely round her head and shoulders. 'I shan't be cold +now; and I like to doze in this chair.' + +"I would not thwart her, and in a few moments I saw her eyes close. +Then I sat reading while she slumbered, glancing up from my book now +and again to look at her dear face. The light faded; the air grew chill +as the sun went down, and I could see that a mist was rising; but May's +sleep was so profound that I did not like to run the risk of rousing +her, and the window was left open. I could not shut it without noise, +and I knew that sleep was the best of all tonics for our invalid. + +"At length she stirred uneasily, and some broken murmurs fell from +her lips. I drew nearer, Horace, and heard your name. Poor child, I +knew how often her spirit was with you in dreams, and I rose and stood +bending over the chair, half disposed to wake her gently. But in an +instant, her face changed; the look of pain was gone; she smiled (still +with eyes fast closed), and drew a long peaceful breath. A few seconds +more and she woke, still smiling, and clasped my hands in hers. + +"'Where am I, Charlotte?' she said. 'Still in this room? How strange! I +must have travelled a long way in my sleep.' + +"'You have been dreaming, dear,' I answered." + +[Illustration: AN OLD-FASHIONED CHRISTMAS.] + +"'It was a most vivid dream. Let me tell you about it,' she went on. +'You must listen, Charlotte, and remember all that I say. I thought +that in some inexplicable way I had received warning of a danger that +threatened Horace. I knew not what the danger was; I only knew that +I was made aware of it that I might save him. And then the air grew +cool and damp; I was out in the gloaming, with only this shawl wrapped +round my head, and found myself standing on the platform of the railway +station at Longbeach. The down train was coming in. I heard the roar +and saw the red signal lights, and as it crawled into the station, I +caught sight of Horace looking out of a carriage window. In a second, +I was at the door of that carriage, beckoning and praying him, by +gesture, to get out. His face lit up, he obeyed me, and sprang upon the +platform. I had saved him; the danger was escaped—and I woke.' + +"It was impossible for me to treat May's dream as lightly as, perhaps, +I ought to have done. I saw that it had upon her a most happy +influence. She passed a good night afterwards, and awoke this morning +refreshed and strengthened. + +"'I think I shall soon see him,' she said; and I could not help sharing +her hope. + +"Oh, Horace, how thankful I am that this hope was not mere delusion! I +believe that your coming will save her life." + +"She has saved mine," I said, gravely. "As I live, it was the sight of +her face on the platform that made me get out of that doomed train. I +saw her, pale and eager, beckoning to me; she wore the white woollen +shawl folded round her head, and vanished as I left the station." + +"What can we say about these things?" said Charlotte, in a thoughtful +tone. "We laugh at them and try to explain them away, and sometimes +refuse to hear of them at all. Yet, once or twice, perhaps, in a +lifetime, some case of this kind is forced upon our notice. Spirit +flies to spirit, unhindered by time or space, untrammelled by the +bodily frame. Only He who gave the soul knows what that soul can do." + +My story is nearly ended now. After a little more talk with Charlotte, +I was permitted to see May once more. You do not wish me to describe +that meeting; you have yourselves loved and parted, and met again, and +you can realise the blessedness of our reunion without any words of +mine. + +The firm of Marford and Knox are prospering greatly, I believe, but I +have nothing to do with their business nowadays. Very soon after my +reconciliation with May, my uncle died, and I became, as you are aware, +a richer man than I ever expected to be. You will come and stay with us +in our home at Richmond? My wife has got back all her old brightness, +and wants to welcome my friends. But when you get on confidential terms +with her, don't say anything about her dream. + + + + THE END. + + + + +*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 78060 *** diff --git a/78060-h/78060-h.htm b/78060-h/78060-h.htm new file mode 100644 index 0000000..bb5d9ef --- /dev/null +++ b/78060-h/78060-h.htm @@ -0,0 +1,801 @@ +<!DOCTYPE html> +<html lang="en"> +<head> + <meta charset="UTF-8"> + <title> + A Young Man's Story │ Project Gutenberg + </title> + <link rel="icon" href="images/image001.jpg" type="image/cover"> + <style> + +body { + margin-left: 10%; + margin-right: 10%; + font-size:12.0pt; + font-family:"Verdana"; +} + +p {text-indent: 2em;} + + h1,h2,h3,h4,h5,h6 { + text-align: center; /* all headings centered */ + clear: both; +} + +h2 {font-size: 1.17em;} + +hr { + width: 33%; + margin-top: 2em; + margin-bottom: 2em; + margin-left: 33.5%; + margin-right: 33.5%; + clear: both; +} + +/* Images */ + +img { + max-width: 100%; + height: auto; +} + +.w100 { + width: auto + } + +.figcenter { + margin: auto; + text-align: center; + page-break-inside: avoid; + max-width: 100%; +} + +p.t1 {text-indent: 0%; + font-size: 125%; + text-align: center + } + +p.t2 { + text-indent: 0%; + font-size: 150%; + text-align: center + } + +p.t3 { + text-indent: 0%; + font-size: 100%; + text-align: center + } + +p.t3b { + text-indent: 0%; + font-size: 100%; + font-weight: bold; + text-align: center + } + +p.t4 { + text-indent: 0%; + font-size: 80%; + text-align: center + } + + </style> +</head> +<body> +<div style='text-align:center'>*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 78060 ***</div> + +<p>Transcriber's notes: Unusual and inconsistent spelling is as printed.</p> + +<p>New original cover art included with this eBook is granted to the +public domain.</p> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image001" style="max-width: 33.8125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image001.jpg" alt="image001"> +</figure> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<h1>A<br> +<br> +YOUNG MAN'S<br> +<br> +STORY.</h1> + +<p><br></p> + +<p class="t3"> +BY<br> +</p> + +<p class="t1"> +SARAH DOUDNEY<br> +<br> +</p> + +<p><br><br></p> + +<p class="t3"> +The Girl's Own Annual Illustrated<br> +</p> + +<p class="t4"> +VOL. VII. 1886.<br> +<br> +"FEATHERY FLAKES" EXTRA CHRISTMAS PART<br> +</p> + +<p class="t3"> +THE LEISURE HOUR OFFICE<br> +</p> + +<p class="t4"> +56, PATERNOSTER ROW, LONDON<br> +</p> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<p class="t3b"> +CONTENTS.<br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p><a href="#A_Yng_Mn_s">A YOUNG MAN'S STORY</a></p> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<p class="t2"> +<a id="A_Yng_Mn_s"><b>A YOUNG MAN'S STORY.</b></a><br> +</p> + +<p><br><br></p> + +<p>YES, I confess I have known something which may fairly be termed a +supernatural experience; but I did not care to talk about it in the +smoking-room last night. Now that I am sitting here quietly with you +and Susy, you may hear my story if you like. Perhaps it is hardly +worth telling; perhaps you will both laugh at me when it is finished. +However, it is the kind of story that ought to be told between the +lights; so do not ring for the lamp till I have done.</p> + +<p>You have never heard much about my engagement to May Newton. There was +nothing remarkable in the affair; it was only the oft-told tale of two +persons being thrown together in a narrow sphere, and gliding naturally +into close intimacy. I suppose you are aware that I met her first in +an out-of-the-way village on the sea-coast where I went to stay with +my uncle. It was the sort of place in which any man would have rapidly +drifted into love-making—firstly, because there was no other way of +killing time; and, secondly, because there was an air of romance about +the spot. Although there were no great beauties in Longbeach, it had a +certain charm of dreamy peace. The sea lulled it to sleep with drowsy +murmurs; its ruined castle, grey and ivy-grown, was full of nooks where +you might read or muse without fear of intrusion. There were one or two +girls in the village who were prettier than May, and yet, after giving +them all a fair trial, I settled down into a calm enjoyment of her +companionship, and cared for no one else.</p> + +<p>In the beginning, I certainly had no serious intentions. I was not a +marrying man, and the pleasure of "Shaking down loose blossoms from +off a laden bough" had always been quite enough for such a trifler +as myself. But does anyone ever know the precise moment when liking +changes to love? I have looked back sometimes, and tried to see just +the very spot where my path took that mysterious turn; but I never +could discover it. All I know is that the jest became earnest, the +shadow shaped itself into substance, and then the old idle days fled +away for ever.</p> + +<p>We were not rich enough to think of a speedy marriage. She was living +with a widowed mother and elder sister, and I knew from the first that +their income was small. As for myself, you are pretty well acquainted +with my means, and you know that I have only lately been smiled upon +by fortune. We used to sketch out our future as we sat together on +the shore. A golden future it was to be—bright as the sunlit sea that +lay calm and glittering before our eyes. There were no storms to mar +those tranquil days of late summer; hour after hour glided by in mellow +sunshine, and the still atmosphere was full of that sense of ripeness +which always deepens the feeling of repose.</p> + +<p>It was difficult to believe that a cold world was waiting outside our +balmy paradise. Poor May, living her secluded country life, was utterly +unable to realise the bitter struggle for existence which exhausts the +heart and brain. While I was with her, the charm of her presence made +me forget all about that struggle, and yet I knew that it had to be +faced. We could not build our nest, like the birds, in some cranny of +the old castle walls, and sing our lives away in an ivy bower. What a +delightfully simple ending of a courtship that would be! I remember +how we watched the happy feathered things flitting in and out of +their haunts in the ruins, and wished that we could as easily provide +ourselves with a home.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>The autumn had set in before I left Longbeach, and went up to town to +seek my fortune. Through my uncle's influence, I had obtained the post +of confidential clerk in a mercantile house; but the salary was small, +and the business and its associations had few attractions for me. In +fact, I hated the very name of business.</p> + +<p>Brought up to be an idler, I had never had any of the training that +prepares a man for intercourse with the great City world. After a week +or two of City life, I began to pine for the dreamy calm of Longbeach; +I missed the lullaby of the sea, the soothing tones of May's sweet +voice, the touch of her little hand. And then, as I grew more and +more dissatisfied with my lot, I had moods of bitter discontent and +impatience. I got angry with my uncle for not finding me a better +place than the office of Marford and Knox, angry with myself for being +unfitted to cope with the sharp City men around me—and angry (for no +cause at all) with poor, innocent May.</p> + +<p>I never was a hero, you see; I set about doing my share of disagreeable +work as badly as a man possibly could, and nothing sours the temper +more than the secret consciousness of work ill done. So it came to pass +that I went down to Longbeach, in an unamiable humour, to spend my +holidays. It was December when I saw it again; our favourite paths were +strewn with yellow leaves, the sea was cold and grey, and there was no +singing of birds about the ruins. A chill breath seemed to have passed +over both our hearts.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image002" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image002.jpg" alt="image002"> +</figure> +<p class="t4"> +<b>MAY WAS SILENT AND MELANCHOLY.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>May was silent and melancholy on our skating expedition, distrustful of +herself and me. Her eyes looked the question that she did not speak. +Had we made a mistake when we plighted our troth among roses? Had our +love only a flower's life—"sweet, not lasting?"</p> + +<p>About May herself there was always something fragile and flower-like. +She was slender, and she was pretty, but it was a beauty of colouring +and expression, not of feature. Her cheeks had a delicate bloom that +came and went quickly; her eyes, which were large and clear, would +shine with a brilliant light in moments of excitement. There was a +charming natural grace in all her movements that reminded you of a +blossom swaying in the wind. Everybody liked her, and even strangers +were won by that sweet, picturesque face and soft voice, but hers was +too sensitive a nature to thrive without sunshine. She seemed to pale +and wither in my gloomy presence, like an anemone that is blighted by a +bitter blast.</p> + +<p>It vexed me to find that I had a blighting influence; I missed the +blushes and brightness that had welcomed me in the bygone summer days, +and I was not careful to conceal my annoyance. She saw that I was +displeased, and shrank away in a helpless fashion that was painful to +see.</p> + +<p>"You are greatly changed, May," I said, one day, in an irritable tone.</p> + +<p>We were walking up the garden path together, with the dead leaves +drifting about our feet. I saw the sudden whitening of her cheeks and +lips, and a sharp pang smote me, even as I spoke. But I did not let her +see that I felt anything.</p> + +<p>"Yes," she answered, "I am changed, and I do not think my old self will +ever come back. It was to that old gay self that you were pledged, +Horace; I will not keep you bound to the dull girl of to-day. You used +to say I was always bright, you know; well, I have lost my brightness, +and we had better say good-bye."</p> + +<p>"Do you mean it?" I asked.</p> + +<p>"I do," she said, firmly and coldly.</p> + +<p>All the pride that was latent in her gentle nature was up in arms. She +felt herself undervalued, unappreciated.</p> + +<p>And so we parted—parted, although I knew I could never love another +woman in the world as I had loved her! An hour or two later I had left +the place, and the train was whirling me back to town.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>A few weeks afterwards my uncle followed me to London. He had grown +tired of village life, he said, and wanted to end his days in the old +West-end street where he was born. Not one word did he say about the +Newtons; in fact, he had made no intimate friends in Longbeach, and had +concerned himself very little with his neighbours and their doings. He +was, as you know, a man of excessively retiring habits, and never cared +for any kind of society. Thus it fell out that all communication with +Longbeach was cut off, and there was not a single link left to connect +me with the past.</p> + +<p>About this time, I began to take a greater interest in the affairs +of our firm, and applied myself more closely to business than I had +ever done before. I did not forget May, but I resolutely put her image +into the background of memory. There were new friends to be made, new +pleasures to be enjoyed, new ambitions to give a zest to life. Yet +her sweet face was always lurking in my thoughts, ready to come to +the front whenever I was weary and alone. Sometimes I caught sight of +faces that had a look of hers—in trains, in omnibuses, in the streets. +I suppose you do not know what sharp pain may come with a chance +resemblance. Well, you are happy if you have never known it. I have +seen my lost love looking at me through a stranger's eyes, many a time; +and in the tone of a strange voice, I have heard an echo of the voice +that was still.</p> + +<p>So life went on with me through the winter and spring, and far into the +summer, and then it was proposed to take another partner into the firm +of Marford and Knox.</p> + +<p>It occurred to use that I knew the very man who was wanted by my +employers. He was an idle man with a good deal of money and leisure +hanging uselessly upon his hands, and I resolved at once to seek him +out and press him into our service. My idea was favourably received +by Mr. Knox. There was no time, he said, to be lost; the grass must +not grow under my feet; it would be wise to look up this friend of +mine without delay. The last time I had heard of him he was living at +Monksbury, and I decided to go there and call upon him.</p> + +<p>I was not unacquainted with Monksbury. It was a gay little +watering-place, where I had idled away pleasant hours in days gone by. +It lies on the South Coast, and when I stepped into the train I knew +that I was booked for a tedious journey of three hours at least. It +was growing late in the summer; the air was sultry and still, not a +cloud flecked the blue of the afternoon sky, scarcely a breath of wind +wandered in at the open windows, and I leaned back in my corner, too +languid even to unfold the papers I had bought to while the time away.</p> + +<p>I could not read and I could not sleep. My eyes were always seeking for +familiar objects in the scenery, and I thought of the bygone summer +when I had travelled along this line, gay of heart, to Longbeach.</p> + +<p>By-and-by, we must stop at the well-known little station. I should +catch a glimpse of the ruined tower and the quiet fields where May and +I had dreamed our brief love dream together. While I mused, the day was +waning, swiftly and yet softly, as such cloudless days always do fade. +Longer and longer grew the shadows. A faint mist came creeping over the +downs, the blue above melted into gold. The gloaming was stealing on +apace, bringing the freshness of dew into the air, softening all the +harsher features of the landscape, and adding an indescribable sense of +rest to the scene.</p> + +<p>My companions were two middle-aged men, who had dozed peacefully +through the greater part of the journey. As the light faded and the +atmosphere cooled, they woke up and made a few remarks on the crops and +the weather. I gathered from their talk that they, too, were going as +far as Monksbury to join their wives and children in seaside lodgings. +Their conversation did not interest me then, but later on I remembered +it, and even recalled the faces and voices of the speakers. One of them +(the elder of the two) spoke tenderly of a delicate little daughter who +was gaining strength from the sea-breezes, and wondered if she would be +looking brighter when he saw her again.</p> + +<p>Gazing out of the window, I watched the afterglow dying off the +sea, and felt the briny breath of a rising tide. We were drawing +near Longbeach; the train slackened speed, and crawled into the +little station; and my heart beat fast as the platform came in +sight. Were there any familiar figures to be seen? Yes; there was +the station-master, and beside him a slight little woman with a +fleecy-white woollen shawl wrapped carelessly about her head. The light +was growing dim, yet not too dim for me to distinguish her face, which +was turned towards me. Good heaven! It was May herself!</p> + +<p>She was very pale and thin; but at the sight of me, her features were +lit up by the brightest smile I had ever seen. It was more than a +smile—it was a glory. In an instant, she had advanced close to the +carriage window, and was beckoning impatiently with a little ungloved +hand. There was a pretty imperiousness in the gesture that reminded me +of the May of old days. I never thought of resisting it for a moment—I +should not have been a man if I had. Seizing my travelling-bag, I +opened the door and jumped out upon the platform, alighting close to +the toes of Drake, the station-master, who looked at me, I fancied, +with some surprise.</p> + +<p>"Good evening, Mr. Medway," he said, in rather a constrained tone.</p> + +<p>"Good evening," I responded, absently, walking with him along the +platform while May's light figure flitted on before us.</p> + +<p>At the gate, I gave up my ticket, and then turned into the old road +that led straight to the village. It was a quiet road, shaded by tall +trees, and sweet with the scent of cottage gardens; and May and I had +often traversed it together. This was the very hour for explanations +and reconciliations; we might stroll slowly homewards in the gloaming, +and I would ask her, humbly and frankly, to forgive me for the past. I +had never ceased to love her. Looking back on the last twelve months, I +could see that her memory had been present with me in every action of +my life. I had never shaken off the spell of her sweet influence, never +offered to another woman the heart that was hers alone.</p> + +<p>"Where are you, May?" I called, standing still in the silent road. But +there was no reply. The light form had vanished.</p> + +<p>It was just one of her old, childish tricks, I thought. I remembered +how she used to hide in the shrubbery of the garden, and spring out, +light as a fay, when I least expected to find her. And yet it was +strange that she should have walked from her cottage to the railway +station with that woollen shawl wrapped round her head! Light-heated as +she was, May had always had a respect for conventionalities; she had +never been known to appear in the village street without a dainty hat +or bonnet.</p> + +<p>Then, too, how had she heard that I was likely to be in the train at +that hour? It must have been a mere chance that had brought her to the +railway station, and in beckoning to me, she might have acted on a +sudden impulse of which she had immediately felt ashamed. Overwhelmed +by a sense of bashfulness, she had probably fled across the fields to +seek shelter at home. As the last thought occurred to me, I smiled, +and began to walk rapidly onward. It was not likely that I should +overtake her before she gained the village; she was light of foot and +well acquainted with all the short cuts and by-ways of the place. But I +resolved to go straight to the door of Mrs. Newton's house, and ask for +an interview with my old love before I slept that night.</p> + +<p>The evening was intensely sweet and still; showers of jessamine +blossoms had drifted down from cottage porches, and the air was heavy +with fragrance. Still walking at a quick pace, I came to a pause at +length before the door of Fern Cottage, and felt instinctively among +the ivy leaves for the handle of the bell. A startling peal resounded +through the little house, and I waited, half confused yet happy on the +threshold of May's old home. There was no sound of footsteps within; no +one came to answer my summons. I stepped back into the road and looked +up at the shuttered windows with a sudden sense of dismay. What did +this darkness and silence mean? I pulled the bell again.</p> + +<p>"That is an empty house," said a voice at my elbow.</p> + +<p>I turned and beheld two ladies regarding me with evident astonishment. +In the next instant, the younger of the two had recognised me. She was +a Miss Reed, a girl who had been on intimate terms with May.</p> + +<p>"It is Mr. Medway, mamma," she cried.</p> + +<p>"It is indeed," said Mrs. Reed, holding out her hand. "I did not know +you at first; it is a long time since we have seen you."</p> + +<p>"Did you think that the Newtons still lived at Fern Cottage?" asked Amy +Reed.</p> + +<p>Her bright eyes were looking keenly at me in the dusk; there was +nothing for it but to give her a straightforward answer.</p> + +<p>"Yes, I did," I replied.</p> + +<p>"How strange! You did not know that they left Longbeach in the spring?"</p> + +<p>"Left Longbeach!" I repeated, incredulously. "But I have seen May this +very evening. She was at the railway station when my train came in."</p> + +<p>"You must have been mistaken," Amy Reed said, gravely. "The Newtons +have gone to live in Richmond, and May, poor child, has been very ill."</p> + +<p>"Ill or well, she was at the railway station to-night," I declared +stubbornly.</p> + +<p>And then followed an uneasy silence. A vague sense of fear seemed to +possess us all three, as we stood mutely gazing at each other in the +twilight.</p> + +<p>Mrs. Reed, a good, motherly woman, was the first to recover her usual +manner.</p> + +<p>"You have been deceived by an accidental likeness," she said, +cheerfully. "Such things often happen, you know. But what are you going +to do to-night? Come home and be our guest, and we will give you the +latest news of the Newtons."</p> + +<p>"Yes, do come," added Amy. "I had a letter from Charlotte Newton +yesterday."</p> + +<p>Like one in a dream, I walked with them through the village street, my +mind full of the vision I had seen, my heart sick with forebodings.</p> + +<p>The Reeds talked on, kindly anxious to dispel the gloom that was fast +overwhelming me, and I soon learnt all that they had to tell.</p> + +<p>Some property in Richmond had been left to Mrs. Newton, and she had +decided to go and live there, hoping that the change would be good for +May. But, in spite of fresh air and new scenes, May had languished all +through the summer, and at last became dangerously ill. For weeks, +she lay on the very borders of death; few hopes were entertained, and +when at length the crisis of the fever was past, it seemed impossible +to rouse her from the state of apathy into which she had fallen. As +Charlotte said, she did not care about getting well—she was willing, +far more willing, to die than to live.</p> + +<p>I scarcely know how I got through that long night in Longbeach. Hour +after hour was spent in pacing the room and longing for daybreak. If +I closed my eyes, it was only to be haunted by that strange vision of +May's pale face looking out of the folds of the fleecy, white shawl. +Her smile had been verily a beautiful smile, almost too bright for any +mortal features to have worn. And then that beckoning gesture! It had +summoned me, perhaps, to follow her beyond the old earthly home to +another home of everlasting rest.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>Early in the morning, I took leave of my kind hostess, and Amy insisted +on accompanying me to the railway station. She talked hopefully and +cheerfully as we walked, doing her utmost to banish my fear; and yet +I could detect an undercurrent of sadness in her tone. My forebodings +seemed to have communicated themselves to her; silence fell on us both +as we approached the station, and she looked pale and anxious as we +passed through the little gate that opened on the platform. Drake was +there, as usual, and he, too, appeared grave and out of sorts.</p> + +<p>"You had a narrow escape last night, Mr. Medway," he said. "You took a +ticket to Monksbury, didn't you? Yes, and you got out here. Well, if +you had gone on, you would have been in for a great smash, sir, that's +all."</p> + +<p>"A smash! Was there an accident last night?" asked Amy.</p> + +<p>I was incapable of uttering a word.</p> + +<p>"A dreadful smash, miss, about three miles down the line. Five killed, +and ten or eleven injured. The traffic was stopped for hours."</p> + +<p>"Drake," said Amy, suddenly, "did you see anyone on the platform last +evening when Mr. Medway got out of the train? He thought—he fancied he +had caught sight of a friend."</p> + +<p>"You looked as if you had seen somebody, sir," remarked Drake, staring +at me. "You jumped out of the carriage, smiling as if somebody was here +to meet you; and there wasn't a soul on the platform but myself. I +remember thinking it rather odd, sir, if you'll excuse my saying so."</p> + +<p>Amy and I exchanged glances.</p> + +<p>I had abandoned the intention of going to Monksbury; my sole object now +was to get back to town, and then proceed to Richmond with as little +delay as possible. There was no time for more conversation; the uptrain +came thundering along, and I grasped Miss Reed's hand in silence.</p> + +<p>"Good-bye," she whispered; "we shall meet again, I hope, in happier +days."</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>It was still early in the afternoon when I reached Richmond, and hired +a fly at the railway station. Then came a drive of a mile and a half, +which sorely tried my patience, although I had many a fair glimpse of +dark woodland and silver river. I saw all without seeing; my mind was +full of the one absorbing question—was she living or dead? If she were +dead, this bright world around would be a world of darkness to me; if +she lived, I had the hope of beginning a new life.</p> + +<p>At last, the driver pulled up before the gate of a pretty little villa, +set in the midst of trees and flowering shrubs. With a wild throb of +anxiety I looked up at the windows—they were all thrown wide open, and +unveiled, to admit the summer air and sunshine! My knock at the door +was speedily answered, and Charlotte's face appeared in the entry.</p> + +<p>"You are come, Horace!" she said. "I have been expecting you all the +morning."</p> + +<p>"Did Miss Reed send a telegram?" I asked.</p> + +<p>"No; but I had an impression that you would be here. I will explain—"</p> + +<p>"How is May?" I interrupted, breathlessly.</p> + +<p>"Better, much better. Oh, Horace, I have a strange thing to tell! But +how tired and pale you are looking! Have you been ill, too?"</p> + +<p>"Not ill, but unhappy and restless," I said, letting her lead me into a +little drawing-room. And then sinking down on a sofa, I looked at her +in silence.</p> + +<p>Just for a moment, I could not ask another question. Since that strange +vision had appeared to me at Longbeach, I had been without sleep, and +almost without food. I had scarcely touched the meals that the Reeds +had set before me, and after leaving them, there had been neither time +nor thought for refreshment.</p> + +<p>"You are worn out," said Charlotte, gently. "I will bring you some wine +before I say another word."</p> + +<p>She hurried away, and I was left alone in the pretty room with traces +of May's handiwork around me.</p> + +<p>There were some of the old drawings that recalled a thousand memories. +That sketch of the ruined castle—how well I remembered every line of +it! May was a better artist than I, but I loved to assert myself on +all occasions, and the clump of alder bushes had been put in by my +hand. Then, too, there was the big sunflower which she had embroidered +on a satin sofa-pillow, meekly accepting all my numerous suggestions +about stitches and shades. And there were the peacock screens with +which I had fanned her many a time on hot summer days; in fact, there +was scarcely anything in the room that did not mutely remind me of +the past. They are often intensely sad, these dumb appeals made to us +by inanimate things—sadder even, I think, than the human voices which +sometimes reproach us for our unkindness to the lost.</p> + +<p>The warm air came in languidly through the open windows, and bees +were humming in the sunshine, hovering about the passion-flowers, and +jessamine. The house was very quiet, and Charlotte's returning footstep +sounded distinctly in the stillness.</p> + +<p>She persuaded me to eat and drink, assuring me all the while that May +should be told of my arrival. I yielded to her gentle management with +a docility that was quite new in me. Moreover, there is a delicious +langour attending a sense of relief, and I was in no mood to strive +with anyone.</p> + +<p>"You are looking more like your old self now," she said, after a pause; +"it would have startled May to see you some minutes ago. There was a +strained and anxious look in your face that made you seem a dozen years +older, Horace. You must have had a shock."</p> + +<p>"I am not a nervous man," I answered; "but I will confess, Charlotte, +that my nerves have been severely tried. Tell me more about May. I will +talk of myself and my own concerns by-and-by."</p> + +<p>"She has been very ill," said Charlotte, gravely. "If you have seen +the Reeds, you have heard of her illness. Her recovery has been a slow +business. Indeed, I began to fear that she would not take pains to get +well. One day was just like another; she stopped short at a certain +point, and never seemed to get beyond it. She was always patient and +gentle, you know. We should have hailed a little peevishness as a good +sign; but it never came."</p> + +<p>There were tears in the good sister's eyes. She drew a long breath, and +then suddenly sat down on the sofa by my side.</p> + +<p>"Horace, how could you have done so? How could you have parted with +her so easily? She is so sweet, and good, and true. There are not many +girls like her in the world."</p> + +<p>"I know it," I said, in a low voice; "and no one has ever filled her +place."</p> + +<p>Charlotte's face brightened.</p> + +<p>"You cannot think how she pined and faded," she went on. "I am sure +she tried to bear her sorrow bravely; but if the spirit was strong, +the flesh was weak. Of course she would lay the blame of ill-health on +any cause bet the true one. If she had a headache, she owed it to the +east wind; if she looked white and weary, her walk had been too long; +if she could not eat, it was always because she had over-tired herself +with working, or drawing, or writing letters. Those innocent little +falsehoods never deceived us for a moment; but there is something +infinitely pathetic in a girl's attempts to hide a wounded heart. I +used to go about looking for other girls who had suffered or were +suffering in the same way—I had such a longing to speak tender words to +them and comfort them, for May's sake."</p> + +<p>I held out my hand, and pressed hers in silence. How they put us to +shame, these women, with their strong, natural affections and wide +sympathies! I had never rightly understood the character of Charlotte +Newton before.</p> + +<p>"Then we came here," she continued, "and instead of getting better, May +grew worse. We thought it would be best for her to leave Longbeach, +but she was not strong enough to bear the uprooting. We are not rich, +Horace, but we have more money now than we have ever had in our lives; +and yet it seemed that this happy change in our fortunes did no good +to May. Poor darling! She pretended to be pleased with our new home! +She tried to help us in arranging the books and furniture, and fell ill +before half of the work was done."</p> + +<p>"But she is better, Charlotte? You said she was better," I cried. "Is +not the danger past?"</p> + +<p>"Thank God, yes; I believe it is. And now, Horace, I am going to tell +you something very strange."</p> + +<p>Charlotte paused, and drew a long breath; and the bees hummed loudly in +the stillness. It had cost her a painful effort to speak calmly, and +she had to wipe away her tears before she spoke again.</p> + +<p>"At five o'clock, yesterday afternoon, I brought a cup of cocoa to +May, and said that her eyes were heavy with sleep. She was sitting in +an armchair by the open window; the day was very sultry and still, and +she seemed to pine greatly for a breath of cool air. After drinking the +cocoa, she leaned back upon the pillows of her chair, and looked out +dreamily on the flower-bed.</p> + +<p>"'I think I shall go to sleep, Charlotte,' she said. 'I can sleep +better here than in my bed.'</p> + +<p>"'But the evening is coming, dear; it will be chill presently by the +open window,' I replied.</p> + +<p>"'Don't shut it,' she pleaded, taking up her white woollen shawl, and +wrapping it loosely round her head and shoulders. 'I shan't be cold +now; and I like to doze in this chair.'</p> + +<p>"I would not thwart her, and in a few moments I saw her eyes close. +Then I sat reading while she slumbered, glancing up from my book now +and again to look at her dear face. The light faded; the air grew chill +as the sun went down, and I could see that a mist was rising; but May's +sleep was so profound that I did not like to run the risk of rousing +her, and the window was left open. I could not shut it without noise, +and I knew that sleep was the best of all tonics for our invalid.</p> + +<p>"At length she stirred uneasily, and some broken murmurs fell from +her lips. I drew nearer, Horace, and heard your name. Poor child, I +knew how often her spirit was with you in dreams, and I rose and stood +bending over the chair, half disposed to wake her gently. But in an +instant, her face changed; the look of pain was gone; she smiled (still +with eyes fast closed), and drew a long peaceful breath. A few seconds +more and she woke, still smiling, and clasped my hands in hers.</p> + +<p>"'Where am I, Charlotte?' she said. 'Still in this room? How strange! I +must have travelled a long way in my sleep.'</p> + +<p>"'You have been dreaming, dear,' I answered."</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image003" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image003.jpg" alt="image003"> +</figure> +<p class="t4"> +<b>AN OLD-FASHIONED CHRISTMAS.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>"'It was a most vivid dream. Let me tell you about it,' she went on. +'You must listen, Charlotte, and remember all that I say. I thought +that in some inexplicable way I had received warning of a danger that +threatened Horace. I knew not what the danger was; I only knew that +I was made aware of it that I might save him. And then the air grew +cool and damp; I was out in the gloaming, with only this shawl wrapped +round my head, and found myself standing on the platform of the railway +station at Longbeach. The down train was coming in. I heard the roar +and saw the red signal lights, and as it crawled into the station, I +caught sight of Horace looking out of a carriage window. In a second, +I was at the door of that carriage, beckoning and praying him, by +gesture, to get out. His face lit up, he obeyed me, and sprang upon the +platform. I had saved him; the danger was escaped—and I woke.'</p> + +<p>"It was impossible for me to treat May's dream as lightly as, perhaps, +I ought to have done. I saw that it had upon her a most happy +influence. She passed a good night afterwards, and awoke this morning +refreshed and strengthened.</p> + +<p>"'I think I shall soon see him,' she said; and I could not help sharing +her hope.</p> + +<p>"Oh, Horace, how thankful I am that this hope was not mere delusion! I +believe that your coming will save her life."</p> + +<p>"She has saved mine," I said, gravely. "As I live, it was the sight of +her face on the platform that made me get out of that doomed train. I +saw her, pale and eager, beckoning to me; she wore the white woollen +shawl folded round her head, and vanished as I left the station."</p> + +<p>"What can we say about these things?" said Charlotte, in a thoughtful +tone. "We laugh at them and try to explain them away, and sometimes +refuse to hear of them at all. Yet, once or twice, perhaps, in a +lifetime, some case of this kind is forced upon our notice. Spirit +flies to spirit, unhindered by time or space, untrammelled by the +bodily frame. Only He who gave the soul knows what that soul can do."</p> + +<p>My story is nearly ended now. After a little more talk with Charlotte, +I was permitted to see May once more. You do not wish me to describe +that meeting; you have yourselves loved and parted, and met again, and +you can realise the blessedness of our reunion without any words of +mine.</p> + +<p>The firm of Marford and Knox are prospering greatly, I believe, but I +have nothing to do with their business nowadays. Very soon after my +reconciliation with May, my uncle died, and I became, as you are aware, +a richer man than I ever expected to be. You will come and stay with us +in our home at Richmond? My wife has got back all her old brightness, +and wants to welcome my friends. But when you get on confidential terms +with her, don't say anything about her dream.</p> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<p class="t3"> +THE END.<br> +</p> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<div style='text-align:center'>*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 78060 ***</div> +</body> +</html> diff --git a/78060-h/images/image001.jpg b/78060-h/images/image001.jpg Binary files differnew file mode 100644 index 0000000..d9f8beb --- /dev/null +++ b/78060-h/images/image001.jpg diff --git a/78060-h/images/image002.jpg b/78060-h/images/image002.jpg Binary files differnew file mode 100644 index 0000000..2b1e0aa --- /dev/null +++ b/78060-h/images/image002.jpg diff --git a/78060-h/images/image003.jpg b/78060-h/images/image003.jpg Binary files differnew file mode 100644 index 0000000..fea3cf6 --- /dev/null +++ b/78060-h/images/image003.jpg diff --git a/LICENSE.txt b/LICENSE.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6c72794 --- /dev/null +++ b/LICENSE.txt @@ -0,0 +1,11 @@ +This book, including all associated images, markup, improvements, +metadata, and any other content or labor, has been confirmed to be +in the PUBLIC DOMAIN IN THE UNITED STATES. + +Procedures for determining public domain status are described in +the "Copyright How-To" at https://www.gutenberg.org. + +No investigation has been made concerning possible copyrights in +jurisdictions other than the United States. 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