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You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: The Desert and The Sown + +Author: Mary Hallock Foote + + +Release Date: June, 2005 [EBook #8219] +This file was first posted on July 3, 2003 +Last Updated: March 15, 2018 + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: UTF-8 + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE DESERT AND THE SOWN *** + + + + +Text file produced by Eric Eldred, Clay Massei and the Online +Distributed Proofreading Team + +HTML file produced by David Widger + + + + +</pre> + + <div style="height: 8em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h1> + THE DESERT AND THE SOWN + </h1> + <h2> + By Mary Hallock Foote + </h2> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <p> + <b>CONTENTS</b> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0001"> I. — A COUNCIL OF THE ELDERS </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0002"> II. — INTRODUCING A SON-IN-LAW </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0003"> III. — THE INITIAL LOVE </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0004"> IV. — A MAN THAT HAD A WELL IN HIS OWN + COURT </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0005"> V. — DISINHERITED </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0006"> VI. — AN APPEAL TO NATURE </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0007"> VII. — MARKING TIME </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0008"> VIII. — A HUNTER'S DIARY </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0009"> IX. — THE POWER OF WEAKNESS </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0010"> X. — THE WHITE PERIL </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0011"> XI. — A SEARCHING OF HEARTS </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0012"> XII. — THE BLOOD-WITE </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0013"> XIII. — CURTAIN </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0014"> XIV. — KIND INQUIRIES </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0015"> XV. — A BRIDEGROOM OF SNOW </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0016"> XVI. — THE NATURE OF AN OATH </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0017"> XVII. — THE HIDDEN TRAIL </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0018"> XVIII. — THE STAR IN THE EAST </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0019"> XIX. — PILGRIMS AND STRANGERS </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0020"> XX. — A STATION IN THE DESERT </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0021"> XXI. — INJURIOUS REPORTS CONCERNING AN OLD + HOUSE </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0022"> XXII. — THE CASE STRIKES IN </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0023"> XXIII. — RESTIVENESS </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0024"> XXIV. — INDIAN SUMMER </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0025"> XXV. — THE FELL FROST </a> + </p> + <p class="toc"> + <a href="#link2H_4_0026"> XXVI. — PEACE TO THIS HOUSE </a> + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0001" id="link2H_4_0001"> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + I. — A COUNCIL OF THE ELDERS + </h2> + <p> + It was an evening of sudden mildness following a dry October gale. The + colonel had miscalculated the temperature by one log—only one, he + declared, but that had proved a pitchy one, and the chimney bellowed with + flame. From end to end the room was alight with it, as if the stored-up + energies of a whole pine-tree had been sacrificed in the consumption of + that four-foot stick. + </p> + <p> + The young persons of the house had escaped, laughing, into the fresh night + air, but the colonel was hemmed in on every side; deserted by his + daughter, mocked by the work of his own hands, and torn between the duties + of a host and the host's helpless craving for his after-dinner cigar. + </p> + <p> + Across the hearth, filling with her silks all the visible room in his own + favorite settle corner, sat the one woman on earth it most behooved him to + be civil to,—the future mother-in-law of his only child. That Moya + was a willing, nay, a reckless hostage, did not lessen her father's awe of + the situation. + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus, according to her wont at this hour, was composedly doing + nothing. The colonel could not make his retreat under cover of her real or + feigned absorption in any of the small scattering pursuits which distract + the female mind. When she read she read—she never “looked at books.” + When she sewed she sewed—presumably, but no one ever saw her do it. + Her mind was economic and practical, and she saved it whole, like many men + of force, for whatever she deemed her best paying sphere of action. + </p> + <p> + It was a silence that crackled with heat! The colonel, wrathfully + perspiring in the glow of that impenitent stick, frowned at it like an + inquisitor. Presently Mrs. Bogardus looked up, and her expression softened + as she saw the energetic despair upon his face. + </p> + <p> + “Colonel, don't you always smoke after dinner?” + </p> + <p> + “That is my bad habit, madam. I belong to the generation that smokes—after + dinner and most other times—more than is good for us.” Colonel + Middleton belonged also to the generation that can carry a sentence + through to the finish in handsome style, and he did it with a suave + Virginian accent as easy as his seat in the saddle. Mrs. Bogardus always + gave him her respectful attention during his best performances, though she + was a woman of short sentences herself. + </p> + <p> + “Don't you smoke in this room sometimes?” she asked, with a barely + perceptible sniff the merest contraction of her housewifely nostrils. + </p> + <p> + “Ah—h! Those rascally curtains and cushions! You ladies—women, + I should say—Moya won't let me say ladies—you bolster us up + with comforts on purpose to betray us!” + </p> + <p> + “You can say 'ladies' to me,” smiled the very handsome one before him. + “That's the generation <i>I</i> belong to.” + </p> + <p> + The colonel bowed playfully. “Well, you know, I don't detect myself, but + there's no doubt I have infected the premises.” + </p> + <p> + “Open fires are good ventilators. I wish you would smoke now. If you + don't, I shall have to go away, and I'm exceedingly comfortable.” + </p> + <p> + “You are exceedingly charming to say so—on top of that last stick, + too!” The colonel had Irish as well as Virginian progenitors. “Well,” he + sighed, proceeding to make himself conditionally happy, “Moya will never + forgive me! We spoil each other shamefully when we're alone, but of course + we try to jack each other up when company comes. It's a great comfort to + have some one to spoil, isn't it, now? I needn't ask which it is in your + family!” + </p> + <p> + “The spoiled one?” Mrs. Bogardus smiled rather coldly. “A woman we had for + governess, when Christine was a little thing, used to say: 'That child is + the stuff that tyrants are made of!' Tyrants are made by the will of their + subjects, don't you think, generally speaking?” + </p> + <p> + “Well, you couldn't have made a tyrant of your son, Mrs. Bogardus. He's + the Universal Spoiler! He'll ruin my striker, Jephson. I shall have to + send the fellow back to the ranks. I don't know how you keep a servant + good for anything with Paul around.” + </p> + <p> + “Paul thinks he doesn't like to be waited on,” Paul's mother observed + shrewdly. “He says that only invalids, old people, and children have any + claim on the personal service of others.” + </p> + <p> + “By George! I found him blacking his own boots!” + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus laughed. + </p> + <p> + “But I'm paying a man to do it for him. It upsets my contract with that + other fellow for Paul to do his work. We have a claim on what we pay for + in this world.” + </p> + <p> + “I suppose we have. But Paul thinks that nothing can pay the price of + those artificial relations between man and man. I think that's the way he + puts it.” + </p> + <p> + “Good Heavens! Has the boy read history? It's a relation that began when + the world was made, and will last while men are in it.” + </p> + <p> + “I am not defending Paul's ideas, Colonel. I have a great sympathy with + tyrants myself. You must talk to him. He will amuse you.” + </p> + <p> + “My word! It's a ticklish kind of amusement when <i>we</i> get talking. + Why, the boy wants to turn the poor old world upside down—make us + all stand on our heads to give our feet a rest. Now, I respect my feet,”—the + colonel drew them in a little as the lady's eyes involuntarily took the + direction of his allusion,—“I take the best care I can of them; but + I propose to keep my head, such as it is, on top, till I go under + altogether. These young philanthropists! They assume that the Hands and + the Feet of the world, the class that serves in that capacity, have got + the same nerves as the Brain.” + </p> + <p> + “There's a sort of connection,” said Mrs. Bogardus carelessly. “Some of + our Heads have come from the class that you call the Hands and Feet, + haven't they?” + </p> + <p> + The colonel admitted the fact, but the fact was the exception. “Why, + that's just the matter with us now! We've got no class of legislators. I + don't wish to plume myself, but, upon my word, the two services are about + all we have left to show what selection and training can do. And we're + only just getting the army into shape, after the raw material that was + dumped into it by the civil war.” + </p> + <p> + “Weren't you in the civil war yourself?” + </p> + <p> + “I was—a West Pointer, madam; and I was true to my salt and false to + my blood. But, the flag over all!—at the cost of everything I held + dear on earth.” After this speech the colonel looked hotter than ever and + a trifle ashamed of himself. + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus's face wore its most unobservant expression. “I don't agree + with Paul,” she said. “I wish in some ways he were more like other young + men—exercise, for instance. It's a pity for young men not to love + activity and leadership. Besides, it's the fashion. A young man might as + well be out of the world as out of the fashion. Blood is a strange thing,” + she mused. + </p> + <p> + The colonel looked at her curiously. In a woman so unfrank, her occasional + bursts of frankness were surprising and, as he thought, not altogether + complimentary. It was as if she felt herself so far removed from his + conception of her that she might say anything she pleased, sure of his + miscomprehension. + </p> + <p> + “He is not lazy intellectually,” said the colonel, aiming to comfort her. + </p> + <p> + “I did not say he was lazy—only he won't do things except to what he + calls some 'purpose.' At his age amusement ought to be purpose enough. He + ought to take his pleasures seriously—this hunting-trip, for + instance. I believe, on the very least encouragement, he would give it all + up!” + </p> + <p> + “You mustn't let him do that,” said the colonel, warming. “All that + country above Yankee Fork, for a hundred miles, after you've gone fifty + north from Bonanza, is practically virgin forest. Wonderful flora and + fauna! It's late for the weeds and things, but if Paul wants game trophies + for your country-house, he can load a pack-train.” + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus continued to be amused, in a quiet way. “He calls them + relics of barbarism! He would as soon festoon his walls with scalps, as + decorate them with the heads of beautiful animals,—nearer the + Creator's design than most men, he would say.” + </p> + <p> + “He's right there! But that doesn't change the distinction between men and + animals. He is your son, madam—and he's going to be mine. But, fine + boy as he is, I call him a crank of the first water.” + </p> + <p> + “You'll find him quite good to Moya,” Mrs. Bogardus remarked + dispassionately. “And he's not quite twenty-four.” + </p> + <p> + “Very true. Well, <i>I</i> should send him into the woods for the sake of + getting a little sense into him, of an every-day sort. He 'll take in + sanity with every breath.” + </p> + <p> + “And you don't think it's too late in the season for them to go out?” + </p> + <p> + There was no change in Mrs. Bogardus's voice, unconcerned as it was; yet + the colonel felt at once that this simple question lay at the root of all + her previous skirmishing. + </p> + <p> + “The guide will decide as to that,” he said definitely. “If it is, he + won't go out with them. They have got a good man, you say?” + </p> + <p> + “They are waiting for a good man; they have waited too long, I think. He + is expected in with another party on Monday, perhaps, Paul is to meet the + Bowens at Challis, where they buy their outfit. I do believe”—she + laughed constrainedly—“that he is going up there more to head them + off than for any other reason.” + </p> + <p> + “How do you mean?” + </p> + <p> + “Oh, it's very stupid of them! They seem to think an army post is part of + the public domain. They have been threatening, if Paul gives up the trip, + to come down here on a gratuitous visit.” + </p> + <p> + “Why, let them come by all means! The more the merrier! We will quarter + them on the garrison at large.” + </p> + <p> + “Wherever they were quartered, they would be here all the time. They are + not intimate friends of Paul's. <i>Mrs.</i> Bowen is—a very great + friend. He is her right-hand in all that Hartley House work. The boys are + just fashionable young men.” + </p> + <p> + “Can't they go hunting without Paul?” + </p> + <p> + “Wheels within wheels!” Mrs. Bogardus sighed impatiently. “Hunting trips + are expensive, and—when young men are living on their fathers, it is + convenient sometimes to have a third. However, Paul goes, I half believe, + to prevent their making a descent upon us here.” + </p> + <p> + “Well; I should ask them to come, or make it plain they were not + expected.” + </p> + <p> + “Oh, would you?—if their mother was one of the nicest women, and + your friend? Besides, the reservation does not cover the whole valley. + Banks Bowen talks of a mine he wants to look at—I don't think it + will make much difference to the mine! This is simply to say that I wish + Paul cared more about the trip for its own sake.” + </p> + <p> + “Well, frankly, I think he's better out of the way for the next fortnight. + The girls ought to go to bed early, and keep the roses in their cheeks for + the wedding. Moya's head is full of her frocks and fripperies. She is + trying to run a brace of sewing women; and all those boxes are coming from + the East to be 'inspected, and condemned' mostly. The child seems to make + a great many mistakes, doesn't she? About every other day I see a box as + big as a coffin in the hall, addressed to some dry-goods house, 'returned + by ——'” + </p> + <p> + “Moya should have sent to me for her things,” said Mrs. Bogardus. “I am + the one who makes her return them. She can do much better when she is in + town herself. It doesn't matter, for the few weeks they will be away, what + she wears. I shall take her measures home with me and set the people to + work. She has never been <i>fitted</i> in her life.” + </p> + <p> + The colonel looked rather aghast. He had seldom heard Mrs. Bogardus speak + with so much animation. He wondered if really his household was so very + far behind the times. + </p> + <p> + “It's very kind of you, I'm sure, if Moya will let you. Most girls think + they can manage these matters for themselves.” + </p> + <p> + “It's impossible to shop by mail,” Mrs. Bogardus said decidedly. “They + always keep a certain style of things for the Western and Southern trade.” + </p> + <p> + The colonel was crushed. Mrs. Bogardus rose, and he picked up her + handkerchief, breathing a little hard after the exertion. She passed out, + thanking him with a smile as he opened the door. In the hall she stopped + to choose a wrap from a collection of unconventional garments hanging on a + rack of moose horns. + </p> + <p> + “I think I shall go out,” she said. “The air is quite soft to-night. Do + you know which way the children went?” By the “children,” as the colonel + had noted, Mrs. Bogardus usually meant her daughter, the budding tyrant, + Christine. + </p> + <p> + “Fine woman!” he mused, alone with himself in his study. “Splendid + character head. Regular Dutch beauty. But hard—eh?—a trifle + hard in the grain. Eyes that tell you nothing. Mouth set like a stone. + Never rambles in her talk. Never speculates or exaggerates for fun. Never + runs into hyperbole—the more fool some other folks! Speaks to the + point or keeps still.” + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0002" id="link2H_4_0002"> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + II. — INTRODUCING A SON-IN-LAW + </h2> + <p> + The colonel's papers failed to hold him somehow. He rose and paced the + room with his short, stiff-kneed tread. He stopped and stared into the + fire; his face began to get red. + </p> + <p> + “So! Moya's clothes are not good enough. Going to set the people to work, + is she? Wants an outfit worthy of her son. And who's to pay for it, by + gad? Post-nuptial bills for wedding finery are going to hurt poor little + Moya like the deuce. Confound the woman! Dressing my daughter for me, + right in my own house. Takes it in her hands as if it were her right, by——!” + The colonel let slip another expletive. “Well,” he sighed, half amused at + his own violence, “I'll write to Annie. I promised Moya, and it's high + time I did.” + </p> + <p> + Annie was the colonel's sister, the wife of an infantry captain, stationed + at Fort Sherman. She was a very understanding woman; at least she + understood her brother. But she was not solely dependent upon his laggard + letters for information concerning his private affairs. The approaching + wedding at Bisuka Barracks was the topic of most of the military families + in the Department of the Columbia. Moya herself had written some time + before, in the self-conscious manner of the newly engaged. Her aunt knew + of course that Moya and Christine Bogardus had been room-mates at Miss + Howard's, that the girls had fallen in love with each other first, and + with visits at holidays and vacations, when the army girl could not go to + her father, it was easily seen how the rest had followed. And well for + Moya that it had, was Mrs. Creve's indorsement. As a family they were + quite sufficiently represented in the army; and if one should ever get an + Eastern detail it would be very pleasant to have a young niece charmingly + settled in New York. + </p> + <p> + The colonel drew a match across the top bar of the grate and set it to his + pipe. His big nostrils whitened as he took a deep in-breath. He reseated + himself and began his duty letter in the tone of a judicious parent; but, + warming as he wrote, under the influence of Annie's imagined sympathy, he + presently broke forth with his usual arrogant colloquialism. + </p> + <p> + “She might have had her pick of the junior officers in both branches. And + there was a captain of engineers at the Presidio, a widower, but an + awfully good fellow. And she has chosen a boy, full of transcendental + moonshine, who climbs upon a horse as if it were a stone fence, and has + mixed ideas which side of himself to hang a pistol on. + </p> + <p> + “I have no particular quarrel with the lad, barring his great burly + mouthful of a name, Bo—gardus! To call a child Moya and have her + fetch up with her soft, Irish vowels against such a name as that! She had + a fond idea that it was from Beauregard. But she has had to give that up. + It's Dutch—Hudson River Dutch—for something horticultural—a + tree, or an orchard, or a brush-pile; and she says it's a good name where + it belongs. Pity it couldn't have stayed where it belongs. + </p> + <p> + “However, you won't find him quite so scrubby as he sounds. He's very + proper and clean-shaven, with a good pair of dark, Dutch eyes, which he + gets from his mother; and I wish he had got her business ability with + them, and her horse sense, if the lady will excuse me. She runs the + property and he spends it, as far as she'll let him, on the newest + reforms. And there's another hitch!—To belong to the Truly Good at + twenty-four! But beggars can't be choosers. He's going to settle something + handsome on Moya out of the portion Madame gives him on his marriage. My + poor little girl, as you know, will get nothing from me but a few old bits + and trinkets and a father's blessing,—the same doesn't go for much + in these days. I have been a better dispenser than accumulator, like + others of our name. + </p> + <p> + “I do assure you, Annie, it bores me down to the ground, this humanitarian + racket from children with ugly names who have just chipped the shell. This + one owns his surprise that we <i>work</i> in the army! That our junior + officers teach, and study a bit perforce themselves. His own idea is that + every West Pointer, before he gets his commission, should serve a year or + two in the ranks, to raise the type of the enlisted man, and chiefly, mark + you, to get his point of view, the which he is to bear in mind when he + comes to his command. Oh, we've had some pretty arguments! But I suspect + the rascal of drawing it mild, at this stage, for the old dragon who + guards his Golden Apple. He doesn't want to poke me up. How far he'd go if + he were not hampered in his principles by the fact that he is in love, I + cannot say. And I'd rather not imagine.” + </p> + <p> + The commandant's house at Bisuka Barracks is the nearest one to the + flag-pole as you go up a flight of wooden steps from the parade ground. + These steps, and their landings, flanked by the dry grass terrace of the + line, are a favorite gathering place for young persons of leisure at the + Post. They face the valley and the mountains; they lead past the + adjutant's office to the main road to town; they command the daily pageant + of garrison duty as performed at such distant, unvisited posts, with only + the ladies and the mountains looking on. + </p> + <p> + Retreat had sounded at half after five, for the autumn days grew short. + The colonel's orderly had been dismissed to his quarters. There was no + excuse, at this hour, for two young persons lingering in sentimental + corners of the steps, beyond a flagrant satisfaction in the shadow thereof + which covered them since the lighting of lamps on Officers' Row. + </p> + <p> + The colonel stood at his study window keeping his pipe alive with slow and + dreamy puffs. The moon was just clearing the roof of the men's quarters. + His eye caught a shape, or a commingling of shapes, ensconced in an angle + of the steps; the which he made out to be his daughter, in her light + evening frock with one of his own old army capes over her shoulders, + seated in close formation beside the only man at the Post who wore + civilian black. + </p> + <p> + The colonel had the feelings of a man as well as a father. He went back to + his letter with a softened look in his face. He had said too much; he + always did—to Annie; and now he must hedge a little or she would + think there was trouble brewing, and that he was going to be nasty about + Moya's choice. + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0003" id="link2H_4_0003"> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + III. — THE INITIAL LOVE + </h2> + <p> + “Let us be simple! Not every one can be, but we can. We can afford to be, + and we know how!” + </p> + <p> + Moya was speaking rapidly, in her singularly articulate tones. A reader of + voices would have pronounced hers the physical record of unbroken health + and constant, joyous poise. + </p> + <p> + “Hear the word of your prophet Emerson!” she brought a little fist down + upon her knee for emphasis, a hand several sizes larger closed upon it and + held it fast. “Hear the word—are you listening? 'Only <i>two</i> in + the Garden walked and with Snake and Seraph talked.'” + </p> + <p> + The young man's answer was an instant's impassioned silence. Too close it + touched him, that vital image of the Garden. Then, with an effect of + sternness, he said,— + </p> + <p> + “Have we the right to do as we please? Have we the courage that comes of + right to cut ourselves off from all those calls and cries for help?” + </p> + <p> + “<i>I</i> have,” said the girl; “I have just that right—of one who + knows exactly what she wants, and is going to get it if she can!” + </p> + <p> + He laughed at her happy insolence, with which all the youth and nature in + him made common cause. + </p> + <p> + “I shouldn't mind thinking about your Poor Man,” she tripped along, “if he + liked being poor, or if it seemed to improve him any; or if it were only + now and then. But there is so dreadfully much of him! Once we begin, how + should we ever think about anything else? He'd rise up and sit down with + us, and eat and drink with us, and tell us what to wear. Every pleasure of + our lives would be spoiled with his eternal 'Where do <i>I</i> come in?' + It was simple enough in <i>that</i> garden, with only those two and nobody + outside to feel injured. But we are those two, aren't we? Isn't everybody—once + in a life, and once only?” She turned her face aside, slighting by her + manner the excessive meaning of her words. “I ask for myself only what I + think I have a right to give you—my absolute undivided attention for + those first few years. They say it never lasts!” she hastened to add with + playful cynicism. + </p> + <p> + Young Bogardus seemed incapable under the circumstances of any adequate + reply. Free as they were in words, there was an extreme personal shyness + between these proud young persons, undeveloped on the side of passion and + better versed in theories of life than in life itself. They had separated + the day after their sudden engagement, and their nearest approaches to + intimacy had been through letters. Naturally the girl was the bolder, + having less in herself to fear. + </p> + <p> + “That is what <i>I</i> call being simple,” she went on briskly. “If you + think we can be that in New York, let us live there. <i>I</i> could be + simple there, but not with you, sir! That terrible East Side would be + shaking its gory locks at us. We should feel that we did it—or you + would! Then good-by to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness!” + </p> + <p> + “You are my life, liberty, and happiness, and I will be your almoner,” + said Paul, “and dispense you”— + </p> + <p> + “Dispense <i>with</i> me!” laughed the girl. “And what shall I be doing + while you are dispensing me on the East Side? New York has other sides. + While you go slumming with the Seraph, I shall be talking to the Snake! + Now, <i>do</i> laugh!” she entreated childishly, turning her sparkling + face to his. + </p> + <p> + “Am I expected to laugh at that?” + </p> + <p> + “Well, what shall we do? Don't make me harden my heart before it has had + time to soften naturally. Give my poor pagan sympathies a little time to + ripen.” + </p> + <p> + “But you have lived in New York. Did you find it such a strain on your + sympathies?” + </p> + <p> + “I was a visitor; and a girl is not expected to have sympathies. But to + begin our home there: we should have to strike a note of some sort. How if + my note should jar with yours? Paul, dear, it isn't nice to have + convictions when one is young and going to be married. You know it isn't. + It's not poetic, and it's not polite, and it's a dreadful bore!” + </p> + <p> + The altruist and lover winced at this. Allowing for exaggeration, which + was the life of speech with her, he knew that Moya was giving him a bit of + her true self, that changeful, changeless self which goes behind all law + and “follows joy and only joy.” Her voice dropped into its sweetest tones + of intimacy. + </p> + <p> + “Why need we live in a crowd? Why must we be pressed upon with all this + fuss and doing? Doing, doing! We are not ready to do anything yet. Every + day must have its dawn;—and I don't see my way yet; I'm hardly + awake!” + </p> + <p> + “Darling, hush! You must not say such things to me. For you only to look + at me like that is the most terrible temptation of my life. You make me + forget everything a man is bound—that I of all men am bound to + remember.” + </p> + <p> + “Then I will keep on looking! Behold, I am Happiness, Selfishness, if you + like! I have come to stay. No, really, it's not nice of you to act as if + you were under higher orders. You are under my orders. What right have we + to choose each other if we are not to be better to each other than to any + one else?—if our lives belong to any one who needs us, or our time + and money, more than we need it ourselves? Why did you choose me? Why not + somebody pathetic—one of your Poor Things; or else save yourself + whole for all the Poor Things?” + </p> + <p> + “Now you are 'talking for victory,'” he smiled. “You don't believe we must + be as consistent as all that. Hearts don't have to be coddled like pears + picked for market. But I'm not preaching to you. The heavens forbid! I'm + trying to explain. You don't think this whole thing with me is a pose? I + know I'm a bore with my convictions; but how do we come by such things?” + </p> + <p> + “Ah! How do I come not to have any, or to want any?” she rejoined. + </p> + <p> + “Once for all, let me tell you how I came by mine. Then you will know just + where and how those cries for help take hold on me.” + </p> + <p> + “I don't wish to know. Preserve me from knowing! Why didn't you choose + somebody different?” + </p> + <p> + He looked at her with all his passion in his eyes. “I did not choose. Did + you?” + </p> + <p> + “It isn't too late,” she whispered. Her face grew hot in the darkness. + </p> + <p> + “Yes; it is too late—for anything but the truth. Will you listen, + sweet? Will you let the nonsense wait?” + </p> + <p> + “Deeper and deeper! Haven't we reached the bottom yet?” + </p> + <p> + “Go on! It's the dearest nonsense,” she heard him say; but she detected + pain in his voice and a new constraint. + </p> + <p> + “What is it? What is the 'truth'?” + </p> + <p> + “Oh, it's not so dreadful. Only, you always put me in quite a different + class from where I belong, and I haven't had the courage to set you + right.” + </p> + <p> + “Children, children!” a young voice called, from the lighted walk above. + Two figures were going down the line, one in uniform keeping step beside a + girl in white who reefed back her skirts with one hand, the other was + raised to her hair which was blowing across her forehead in bewitching + disorder. Every gesture and turn of her shape announced that she was + pretty and gay in the knowledge of her power. It was Chrissy, walking with + Lieutenant Lane. + </p> + <p> + “Where are you—ridiculous ones? Don't you want to come with us?” + </p> + <p> + “'Now who were they?'” Paul quoted derisively out of the dark. + </p> + <p> + “We are going to Captain Dawson's to play Hearts. Come! Don't be stupid!” + </p> + <p> + “We are not stupid, we are busy!” Moya called back. + </p> + <p> + “Busy! Doing what?” + </p> + <p> + “Oh, deciding things. We are talking about the Poor Man.” + </p> + <p> + “The poor men, she means.” Christine's high laugh followed the + lieutenant's speech, as the pair went on. + </p> + <p> + “He <i>is</i> a bore!” Moya declared. “We can't even use him for a joke.” + </p> + <p> + “Speaking of Lane, dear?” + </p> + <p> + “The Poor Man. Are you sure that you've got a sense of humor, Paul? Can't + we have charity for jokes among the other poor things?” + </p> + <p> + Paul had raised himself to the step beside her. “You are shivering,” he + said, “I must let you go in.” + </p> + <p> + “I'm not shivering—I'm chattering,” she mocked. “Why should I go in + when we are going to be really serious?” + </p> + <p> + Paul waited a moment; his breath came short, as if he were facing a + postponed dread. “Moya, dear,” he began in a forced tone, “I can't help my + constraints and convictions that bore you so, any more than you can help + your light heart—God bless it—and your theory of class which + to me seems mediaeval. I have cringed to it, like the coward a man is when + he is in love. But now I want you to know me.” + </p> + <p> + He took her hand and kissed it repeatedly, as if impressing upon her the + one important fact back of all hypothesis and perilous efforts at + statement. + </p> + <p> + “Well, are you bidding me good-by?” + </p> + <p> + “You must give me time,” he said. “It takes courage in these days for a + good American to tell the girl he loves that his father was a hired man.” + </p> + <p> + He smiled, but there was little mirth and less color in his face. + </p> + <p> + “What absurdity!” cried Moya. Then glancing at him she added quickly, “<i>My</i> + father is a hired man. Most fathers who are worth anything are!” + </p> + <p> + “My father was because he came of that class. His father was one before + him. His mother took in tailoring in the village where he was born. He had + only the commonest common-school education and not much of that. At eleven + he worked for his board and clothes at my Grandfather Van Elten's, and + from that time he earned his bread with his hands. Don't imagine that I'm + apologizing,” Paul went on rapidly. “The apology belongs on the other + side. In New York, for instance, the Bogardus blood is quite as good as + the Bevier or the Broderick or the Van Elten; but up the Hudson, owing to + those chances or mischances that selected our farming aristocracy for us, + my father's people had slipped out of their holdings and sunk to the poor + artisan class which the old Dutch landowners held in contempt.” + </p> + <p> + “We are not landowners,” said Moya. “What does it matter? What does any of + it matter?” + </p> + <p> + “It matters to be honest and not sail under false colors. I thought you + would not speak of the Poor Man as you do if you knew that I am his son.” + </p> + <p> + “Money has nothing to do with position in the army. I am a poor man's + daughter.” + </p> + <p> + “Ah, child! Your father gives orders—mine took them, all his life.” + </p> + <p> + “My father has to take what he gives. There is no escaping 'orders.' Even + I know that!” said Moya. A slight shiver passed over her as she spoke, + laughing off as usual the touch of seriousness in her words. + </p> + <p> + “Why did you do that?” Paul touched her shoulder. “Is it the wind? There + is a wind creeping down these steps.” He improved the formation slightly + in respect to the wind. + </p> + <p> + “Listen!” said Moya. “Isn't that your mother walking on the porch? Father, + I know, is writing. She will be lonely.” + </p> + <p> + “She is never lonely, more or less. It is always the same loneliness—of + a woman widowed for years.” + </p> + <p> + “How very much she must have cared for him!” Moya sighed incredulously. + What a pity, she thought, that among the humbler vocations Paul's father + should have been just a plain “hired man.” Cowboy, miner, man-o'-war's + man, even enlisted man, though that were bad enough—any of these he + might have been in an accidental way, that at least would have been + picturesque; but it is only the possession of land, by whatsoever means or + title, that can dignify an habitual personal contact with it in the form + of soil. That is one of the accepted prejudices which one does not meddle + with at nineteen. “Youth is conservative because it is afraid.” Moya, for + all her fighting blood, was traditionally and in social ways much more in + bonds than Paul, who had inherited his father's dreamy speculative habit + of thought, with something of the farm-hand's distrust of society and its + forms and shibboleth. + </p> + <p> + Paul's voice took a narrative tone, and Moya gave herself up to listening—to + him rather more, perhaps, than to his story. + </p> + <p> + Few young men of twenty-four can go very deeply into questions of + heredity. Of what follows here much was not known to Paul. Much that he + did know he would have interpreted differently. The old well at Stone + Ridge, for instance, had no place in his recital; and yet out of it sprang + the history of his shorn generation. Had Paul's mother grown up in a + houseful of brothers and sisters, governed by her mother instead of an old + ignorant servant, in all likelihood she would have married differently—more + wisely but not perhaps so well, her son would loyally have maintained. The + sons of the rich farmers who would have been her suitors were men inferior + to their fathers. They inherited the vigor and coarseness of constitution, + the unabashed materialism of that earlier generation that spent its + energies coping with Nature on its stony farms, but the sons were spared + the need of that hard labor which their blood required. They supplied an + element of force, but one of great corruption later, in the state politics + of their time. + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0004" id="link2H_4_0004"> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + IV. — A MAN THAT HAD A WELL IN HIS OWN COURT + </h2> + <p> + In the kitchen court called the “Airy” at Abraham Van Elten's, there was + one of those old family wells which our ancestors used to locate so + artlessly. And when it tapped the kitchen drain, and typhoid took the + elder children, and the mother followed the children, it was called the + will of God. A gloomy distinction rested on the house. Abraham felt the + importance attaching to any supreme experience in a community where life + runs on in the middle key. + </p> + <p> + A young doctor who had been called in at the close of the last case went + prying about the premises, asking foolish questions that angered Abraham. + It is easier for some natures to suffer than to change. If the farmer had + ever drunk water himself, except as tea or coffee, or mixed with something + stronger, he must have been an early victim, to his own crass ignorance. + He was a vigorous, heavy-set man, a grand field for typhoid. But he + prospered, and the young doctor was turned down with the full weight and + breadth of the Van Elten thumb, or the Broderick; Abraham's build was that + of his maternal grandmother, Hillotje Broderick. + </p> + <p> + On the Ridge, which later developed into a valuable slate quarry, there + was a spring of water, cold and perpetual, flowing out of the + trap-formation. Abraham had piped this water down to his barns and + cattle-sheds; it furnished power for the farm-work. But to bring it to the + house, in obedience to the doctor's meddlesome advice, would be an + acknowledgment of fatal mistakes in the past; would raise talk and blame + among the neighbors, and do away with the honor of a special visitation; + would cost no trifle of money; would justify the doctor's interference, + and insult the old well of his father and his father's father, the + fountain of generations. To seal its mouth and bid its usefulness cease in + the house where it had ministered for upwards of a hundred years was an + act of desecration impossible to the man who in his stolid way loved the + very stones that lined its slimy sides. The few sentiments that had taken + hold on Abraham's arid nature went as deep as his obstinacy and clung as + fast as his distrust of new opinions and new men. The question of water + supply was closed in his house; but the well remained open and kept up its + illicit connection with the drain. + </p> + <p> + Old Becky, keeper of the widower's keys, had followed closely the history + of those unhappy “cases;” she had listened to discussions, violent or + suppressed, she had heard much talk that went on behind her master's back. + </p> + <p> + Employers of that day and generation were masters; and masters are meant + to be outwitted. Emily, the youngest and last of the flock, was now a + child of four, dark like her mother, sturdy and strong like her father. On + an August day soon after the mother's funeral, Becky took her little + charge to the well and showed her a tumbler filled, with water not freshly + drawn. + </p> + <p> + “See them little specks and squirmy things?” Emmy saw them. She followed + their wavering motion in the glass as the stern forefinger pointed. “Those + are little baby snakes,” said Becky mysteriously. “The well is full of + 'em. Sometimes you can see 'em, sometimes you can't, but they're always + there. They never grow big down the well; it's too dark 'n' cold. But you + drink that water and the snakes will grow and wriggle and work all through + ye, and eat your insides out, and you'll die. Your mother”—in a + whisper—“she drunk that water, and she died. Your sister Ruth, and + Dirck, and Jimmy, they drunk it, and they died. Now if Emmy wants to die”—Large + eyes of horror fastened on the speaker's face. “No—o, she don't want + to die, the Loveums! She don't want Becky to have no little girl left at + all! No; we mustn't ever drink any of that bad water—all full of + snakes, ugh! But if Emmy's thirsty, see here! Here's good nice water. It's + going to be always here in this pail—same water the little lambs + drink up in the fields. Becky 'll take Emmy up on the hill sometime and + show where the little lambs drink.” + </p> + <p> + Grief had not clouded the farmer's oversight in petty things. He noticed + the innocent pail on the area bench, never empty, always specklessly + clean. + </p> + <p> + “What is this water?” he asked. + </p> + <p> + Becky was surly. “Drinking water. Want some?” + </p> + <p> + “What's it doing here all the time?” + </p> + <p> + “I set it there for Emmy. She can't reach up to the bucket.” + </p> + <p> + Abraham tasted the water suspiciously. The well-water was hard, with a + tang of iron. The spring soft, and less cold for its journey to the barn. + </p> + <p> + “Where did you get this water?” + </p> + <p> + “Help yourself. There's plenty more.” + </p> + <p> + “Becky, where did this water come from? Out o' the well?” + </p> + <p> + Becky gave a snort of exasperation. “Sam Lewis brought it from the barn! + I'm too lame to be histin' buckets. I've got the rheumatiz' awful in my + back and shoulders, if ye want to know!” + </p> + <p> + “Becky, you're lying to me. You've been listening to what don't concern + you. Now, see here. You are not going to ask the men to carry water for + you. They've got something else to do. <i>There's</i> your water, as handy + as ever a woman had it; use that or go without.” + </p> + <p> + Abraham caught up the pail and flung its contents out upon the grass, + scattering the hens that came sidling back with squawks of inquiring + temerity. + </p> + <p> + When next Emmy came for water, the old woman took her by the hand in + silence and led her into the dim meat-cellar, a half-basement with one low + window level with the grass. There was the pail, safe hidden behind the + soft-soap barrel. + </p> + <p> + “I had to hide it from your pa,” Becky whispered. “Don't you never let him + know you're afraid o' the well-water. He drunk it when he was a little + boy. He don't believe in the snakes. But <i>there wa'n't none then</i>. + It's when water gets old and rotten. You can believe what Becky says. <i>She</i> + knows! But you mustn't ever tell. Your father 'd be as mad as fire if he + knowed I said anything about snakes. He'd send me right away, and some + strange woman would come, and maybe she'd whip Emmy. Emmy want Becky to + go?” Sobs, and little arms clinging wildly to Becky's aproned skirts. “No, + no! Well, she ain't goin'. But Emmy mustn't tell tales or she might have + to. Tattlers are wicked anyway. 'Telltale tit! Your tongue shall be slit, + and all the little dogs'—There! run now! There's your poppy. Don't + you never,—never!” + </p> + <p> + Emmy let her eyes be wiped, and with one long, solemn, secret look of awed + intelligence she ran out to meet her father. She did not love him, and the + smile with which she met him was no new lesson in diplomacy. But her first + secret from him lay deep in the beautiful eyes, her mother's eyes, as she + raised them to his. + </p> + <p> + “Ain't that wonderful!” said Becky, with a satisfied sigh, watching her. + “Safe as a jug! An' she not five years old!” For vital reasons she had + taught the child an ugly lesson. Such lessons were common enough in her + experience of family discipline. She never thought of it again. + </p> + <p> + That year which took Emmy's mother from her brought to the child her first + young companion and friend. Adam Bogardus came as chore-boy to the farm,—an + only child himself, and sensitive through the clashing of gentle instincts + with rough and inferior surroundings; brought up in that depressed + God-fearing attitude in which a widow not strong, and earning her bread, + would do her duty by an only son. Not a natural fighter, she took what + little combativeness he had out of him, and made his school-days miserable—a + record of humiliations that sunk deep and drove him from his kind. He was + a big, clumsy, sagacious boy, grave as an old man, always snubbed and + condescended to, yet always trusted. Little Emmy made him her bondslave at + sight. His whole soul blossomed in adoration of the beautiful, masterful + child who ordered him about as her vassal, while slipping a soft little + trustful hand in his. She trotted at his heels like one of the lambs or + chickens that he fed. She brought him into perpetual disgrace with Becky, + for wasting his time through her imperious demands. She was the burden, + the delight, the handicap, the incentive, and the reward of his humble + apprenticeship. And when he was promoted to be one of the regular hands + she followed him still, and got her pleasure out of his day's work. No one + had such patience to tell her things, to wait for her and help her over + places where her tagging powers fell short. But though she bullied him, + she looked up to him as well. His occupations commanded her respect. He + was the god of the orchards and of the cider-making; he presided at all + the functions of the farm year. He was a perfect calendar besides of + country sports in their season. He swept the ice pools in the meadow for + winter sliding, after his day's work was done. He saved up paper and + string for kite-making in March. He knew when willow bark would slip for + April's whistles. In the first heats of June he climbed the tall + locust-trees to put up a swing in which she could dream away the perfumed + hours. At harvest she waited in the meadow for him to toss her up on the + hay-loads, and his great arms received her when she slid off in the barn. + She knelt at his feet on the bumping boards of the farm-wagon while he + braced himself like a charioteer, holding the reins above her head. He + threshed the nut-trees and routed marauding boys from her preserves, and + carved pumpkin lanterns to light her to her attic chamber on cold November + nights, where she would lie awake watching strange shadows on the sloping + roof, half worshiping, half afraid of her idol's ugliness in the dark. + </p> + <p> + These were some of Paul's illustrations of that pastoral beginning, and no + doubt they were sympathetically close to the truth. He lingered over them, + dressing up his mother's choice instinctively to the little aristocrat + beside him. + </p> + <p> + When Emmy grew big enough to go to the Academy, three miles from the farm, + it was all in the day's work that Adam should take her and fetch her home. + He combined her with the mail, the blacksmith, and other village errands. + Whoever met her father's team on those long stony hills of Saugerties + would see his little daughter seated beside his hired man, her face turned + up to his in endless confiding talk. It was a face, as we say, to dream + of. But there were few dreamers in that little world. The farmers would + nod gravely to Adam. “Abraham's girl takes after her mother; heartier + lookin', though. Guess he'll need a set o' new tires before spring.” The + comments went no deeper. + </p> + <p> + Abraham was now well on in years; he made no visits, and he never drove + his own team at night. When his daughter began to let down her frocks and + be asked to evening parties, it was still Adam who escorted her. He sat in + the kitchen while she was amusing herself in the parlor. She discussed her + young acquaintances with him on their way home. The time for distinctions + had come, but she was too innocent to feel them herself, and too proud to + accept the standards of others. He was absolutely honest and unworldly. He + thought it no treachery to love her for herself, and he believed, as most + of us do, that his family was as good as hers or any other. + </p> + <p> + It would be hard to explain the old man's obliviousness. Perhaps he had + forgotten his own youth; or class prejudice had gone so deep with him as + to preclude the bare thought of a child of his falling in love with one of + his “men.” His imagination could not so insult his own blood. But when the + awakening came, his passion of anger and resentment knew no bounds. To + discharge his faithless employee out of hand would be the cripple throwing + away his crutch. Though he called Adam <i>one</i> of his men, and though + his pay was that of a common laborer, his duties had long been of a much + higher order. Abraham had made a very good bargain out of the widow's son. + Adam knew well that he could not be spared, and pitied the old man's + helpless rage. He took his frantic insults as part of his senility, and + felt it no unmanliness to appease it by giving his promise that he would + speak no more of love to Emmy while he was taking her father's wages. But + Emmy did not indorse this promise fully. To her it looked like weakness, + and implied a sort of patience which did not become a lover such as she + wished hers to be. The winter wore on uncomfortably for all. Towards + spring, Becky's last illness and passing away brought the younger ones + together again, and closer than before. Adam kept his promise through days + and nights of sickroom intimacy; but though no word of love was spoken, + each bore silent witness to what was loveliest in the other, and the bond + between them deepened. + </p> + <p> + Then spring came, and its restlessness was strong upon them both. But it + was Emmy to whom it meant action and rebellion. + </p> + <p> + They stood on the orchard hill one Sunday afternoon at the pause of the + year. Buds were swelling and the edges of the woods wore a soft blush + against the vaporous sky. The bare brown slopes were streaked with snow. A + floe of winter ice, grinding upon itself with the tide, glared yellow as + an old man's teeth in the setting sun. From across the river came the + thunder of a train, bound north, two engines dragging forty cars of + freight piled up by some recent traffic-jam; it plunged into a tunnel, and + they waited, listening to the monster's smothered roar. Out it burst, its + breath packed into clouds, the engines whooped, and round the curve where + a point of cedars cut the sky the huge creature unwound itself, the hills + echoing to its tread. + </p> + <p> + Emmy watched it out of sight, and breathed again. “Hundreds, hundreds + going every day! It seems easy enough for everybody else. Oh, if I were a + man!” + </p> + <p> + “What do you want I should do, Emmy?” Adam knew well what man she was + thinking of. + </p> + <p> + “<i>I</i> want? Don't you ever want things yourself?” + </p> + <p> + “When I want a thing bad, I gen'ly think it's worth waiting for.” + </p> + <p> + “People don't get things by waiting. I don't know how you can stand it,—to + stay here year after year. And now you've tied yourself up with a promise, + and you know you cannot keep it!” + </p> + <p> + “I'm trying to keep it.” + </p> + <p> + “You couldn't keep it if you cared—really and truly—as some + do!” She dropped her voice hurriedly. “To live here and eat your meals day + after day and pass me like a stick or a stone!” + </p> + <p> + The slow blood burned in Adam's face and hammered in his pulses. His blue + eyes were bashful through its heat. “I don't feel like a stick nor a + stone. You know it, Emmy. You want to be careful,” he added gently. “Would + going away look as if I cared?” + </p> + <p> + “Why—why don't you ask me to go with you?” The girl tried to meet + his eyes. She turned off her question with a proud laugh. + </p> + <p> + “Be—careful, child! You know why I can't take you up on that. Would + you want we should leave him here alone—without even Becky? You're + only trying me for fun.” + </p> + <p> + “No; I am not!” Emmy was pale now. Her breast was rising in strong + excitement. “If we were gone, he would know then what you are worth to + him. Now, you're only Adam! He thinks he can put you down like a boy. He + won't believe I care for you. There's only one way to show him—that + is, if we do care. In one month he would be sending for us back. Then we + could come, and you would take your right place here, and be somebody. You + would not eat in the kitchen, then. Haven't you been like a son to him? + And why shouldn't he own it?” + </p> + <p> + “But if he won't? Suppose he don't send for us to come back?” + </p> + <p> + “Then you could strike out for yourself. What was Tom Madden, before he + went away to Colorado, or somewhere—where was it? And now everybody + stops to shake hands with him;—he's as much of a man as anybody. If + you could make a little money. That's the proof he wants. If you were + rich, you'd be all right with him. You know that!” + </p> + <p> + “I'd hate to think it. But I'll never be rich. Put that out of your mind, + Emmy. It don't run in the blood. I don't come of a money-making breed.” + </p> + <p> + “What a silly thing to say! Of course, if you don't believe you can, you + can't. Who has made the money here for the last ten years?” + </p> + <p> + “It was his capital done it. It ain't hard to make money after you've + scraped the first few thousands together. But it's the first thousand that + costs.” + </p> + <p> + “How much have you got ahead?” + </p> + <p> + Adam answered awkwardly, “Eleven hundred and sixty odd.” He did not like + to talk of money to the girl who was the prayer, the inspiration, of his + life. It hurt him to be questioned by her in this sordid way. + </p> + <p> + “You earned it all, didn't you?” + </p> + <p> + “I've took no risks. Here was my home. He give me the chance and he showed + me how. And—he's your father. I don't like to talk about his money, + nor about my own, to you.” + </p> + <p> + “Oh, you are good, good! Nobody knows! But it's all wasted if you haven't + got any push—anything inside of yourself that makes people know what + you are. I wish I could put into you some of my <i>fury</i> that I feel + when things get in my way! You have held yourself in too long. You can't—<i>can't</i> + love a girl, and be so careful—like a mother. Don't you understand?” + </p> + <p> + “Stop right there, Emmy! You needn't push no harder. I can let go whenever + you say so. But—do <i>you</i> understand, little girl? Man and wife + it will have to be.” + </p> + <p> + Emmy did not shrink at the words. Her face grew set, her dark eyes full of + mystery fixed themselves on the slow-moving ice-floe grinding along the + shore. + </p> + <p> + “I know,” she assented slowly. + </p> + <p> + “I can't give you no farm, nor horses and carriages, nor help in the + kitchen. It's bucklin' right down with our bare hands—me outside and + you in? And you only eighteen. See what little hands—If I could do + it all!” + </p> + <p> + “Your promise is broken,” she whispered. “I made you break it. You will + have to tell him now, or—we must go.” + </p> + <p> + “So be!” said Adam solemnly. “And God do so to me and more also, if I have + to hurt my little girl,—Emmy—wife!” + </p> + <p> + He folded her in his great arms clumsily—the man she had said was + like a mother. He was almost as ignorant as she, and more hopeful than he + had dared to seem, as to their worldly chances. But the love he had for + her told him it was not love that made her so bold. The first touch of + such love as his would have made her fear him as he feared her. And the + subtle pain of this instinctive knowledge, together with that broken + promise, shackled the wings of his great joy. It was not as he had hoped + to win the crown of life. + </p> + <p> + Paul, it may be supposed, had never liked to think of his mother's + elopement. It had been the one hard point to get over in his conception of + his father, but he could never have explained it by such a scene as this. + It would have hampered him terribly in his tale had he dreamed of it. He + passed over the unfortunate incident with a romancer's touch, and dwelt + upon his grandfather's bitter resentment which he resented as the son of + his mother's choice. The Van Eltens and Brodericks all fared hardly at the + hands of their legatee. + </p> + <p> + It was not only in the person of a hireling who had abused his trust that + Abraham had felt himself outraged. There were old neighborhood spites and + feuds going back, dividing blood from blood—even brothers of the + same blood. There was trouble between him and his brother Jacob, of New + York, dating from the settlement of their father's, Broderick Van Elten's, + estate; and no one knows what besides that was private and personal may + have entered into it. It was years since they had met, but Jacob kept well + abreast of his brother's misfortunes. A bachelor himself, with no children + to lose or to quarrel with, it was not displeasing to him to hear of the + breaks in his brother's household. + </p> + <p> + “What, what, what! The last one left him,—run off with one of his + men! What a fool the man must be. Can't he look after his women folks + better than that? Better have lost her with the others. Two boys, and + Chrissy, and the girl—and now the last girl gone off with his hired + man. Poor Chrissy! Guess she had about enough of it. Things have come out + pretty much even, after all! There was more love and lickin's wasted on + Abe. Father was proudest of him, but he couldn't break him. Hi! but I've + crawled under the woodshed to hear him yell, and father would tan him with + a raw-hide, but he couldn't break him; couldn't get a sound out of him. + Big, and hard, and tough—Chrissy thought she knew a man; she thought + she took the best one.” + </p> + <p> + With slow, cold spite Jacob had tracked his brother's path in life through + its failures. Jacob had no failures, and no life. + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0005" id="link2H_4_0005"> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + V. — DISINHERITED + </h2> + <p> + Proud little Emmy, heiress no longer, had put her spirit into her + farm-hand and incited him to the first rebellion of his life. They crossed + the river at night, poling through floating ice, and climbed aboard one of + those great through trains whose rushing thunder had made the girlish + heart so often beat. This was long before the West Shore Line was built. + Neither of them had ever seen the inside of a Pullman sleeper. Emmy could + count the purchased meals she had eaten in her life; she had never slept + in a hotel or hired lodging till after her marriage. Hardly any one could + be so provincial in these days. + </p> + <p> + Adam Bogardus was a plodder in the West as he had been in the East. He was + an honest man, and he was wise enough not to try to be a shrewd one. He + tried none of the short-cuts to a fortune. Hard work suited him best, and + no work was too hard for his iron strength and patient resolution. But it + broke the spirit of a man in him to see his young wife's despair. Poverty + frightened and quelled her. The deep-rooted security of her old home was + something she missed every day of her makeshift existence. It was + degradation to live in “rooms,” or a room; to move for want of means to + pay the rent. She pined for the good food she had been used to. Her health + suffered through anxiety and hard work. She was too proud to complain, but + the sight of her dumb unacceptance of what had come to her through him + undoubtedly added the last straw to her husband's mental strain. + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <p> + “It is hard for me to realize it as I once did,” said Paul, as the story + paused. “You make tragedy a dream. But there is a deep vein of tragedy in + our blood. And my theory is that it always crops out in families where + it's the keynote, as it were.” + </p> + <p> + “Never mind, you old care-taker! We Middletons carry sail enough to need a + ton or two of lead in our keel.” + </p> + <p> + “But, you understand?”— + </p> + <p> + “I understand the distinction between what I call your good blood, and the + sort of blood I thought you had. It explains a certain funny way you have + with arms—weapons. Do you mind?” + </p> + <p> + “Not at all,” said Paul coldly. “I hate a weapon. I am always ashamed of + myself when I get one in my hand.” + </p> + <p> + “You act that way, dear!” + </p> + <p> + “God made tools and the Devil made weapons.” + </p> + <p> + “You are civil to my father's profession.” + </p> + <p> + “Your father is what he is aside from his profession.” + </p> + <p> + “You are quite mistaken, Paul. My father and his profession are one. His + sword is a symbol of healing. The army is the great surgeon of the nation + when the time comes for a capital operation.” + </p> + <p> + “It grows harder to tell my story,” said Paul gloomily;—“the short + and simple annals of the poor.” + </p> + <p> + “Now come! Have I been a snob about my father's profession?” + </p> + <p> + “No; but you love it, naturally. You have grown up with its pomp and + circumstance around you. You are the history makers when history is most + exciting.” + </p> + <p> + “Go on with your story, you proud little Dutchman! When I despise you for + your farming relatives, you can taunt me with my history making.” + </p> + <p> + Paul was about two years old when his parents broke up in the Wood River + country and came south by wagon on the old stage-road to Felton. Whenever + he saw a “string-bean freighter's” outfit moving into Bisuka, if there was + a woman on the driver's seat, he wanted to take off his hat to her. For so + his mother sat beside his father and held him in her arms two hundred + miles across the Snake River desert. The stages have been laid off since + the Oregon Short Line went through, but there were stations then all along + the road. + </p> + <p> + One night they made camp at a lonely place between Soul's Rest and + Mountain Home. Oneman Station it was called; afterwards Deadman Station, + when the keeper's body was found one morning stiff and cold in his bunk. + He died in the night alone. Emily Bogardus had cause to hate the man when + he was living, and his dreary end was long a shuddering remembrance to + her, like the answer to an unforgiving prayer. + </p> + <p> + The station was in a hollow with bare hills around, rising to the highest + point of that rolling plain country. The mountains sink below the plain, + only their white tops showing. It was October. All the wild grass had been + eaten close for miles on both sides of the road, but over a gap in the + Western divide was the Bruneau Valley, where the bell-mare of the team had + been raised. In the night she broke her hopples and struck out across the + summit with the four mules at her heels. Towards morning a light snow fell + and covered their tracks. Adam was compelled to hunt his stock on foot; + the keeper refusing him a horse, saying he had got himself into trouble + before through being friendly with the company's horses. He started out + across the hills, expecting that the same night would see him back, and + his wife was left in the wagon camp alone. + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <p> + “I know this story very well,” said Paul, “and yet I never heard it but + once, when mother decided I was old enough to know all. But every word was + bitten into me—especially this ugly part I am coming to. I wish it + need not be told, yet all the rest depends on it; and that such an + experience could come to a woman like my mother shows what exposure and + humiliation lie in the straightest path if there is no money to smooth the + way. You hear it said that in the West the toughest men will be chivalrous + to a woman if she is the right sort of a woman. I'm afraid that is a + romantic theory of the Western man. + </p> + <p> + “That night, before his team stampeded, as he sat by the keeper's fire, + father had made up his mind that the less they had to do with that man the + better. He may have warned mother; and she, left alone with the brute, did + not know the wisdom of hiding her fear and loathing of him. He may have + meant no more than a low kind of teasing, but her suffering was the same. + </p> + <p> + “Father did not come. She dared not leave the camp. She knew no place to + go to, and in his haste, believing he would soon be with her again, he had + taken all their little stock of funds. But he had left her his gun, and + with this within reach of her hand in the shelter of the wagon hood, + without fire and without cooked food, she kept a sleepless watch. + </p> + <p> + “The stages came and went; help was within sound of her voice, but she + dared make no sign. The passengers were few at that season, always men, on + the best of terms with the keeper. He had threatened—well, no matter—such + a threat as a more sophisticated woman would have smiled at. She was + simple, but she was not weak. It was a moral battle between them. There + were hours when she held him by the power of her eye alone; she conquered, + but it nearly killed her. + </p> + <p> + “One morning a man jumped down from the stage whose face she knew. He had + recognized my father's outfit and he came to speak to her, amazed to find + her in that place alone. There was no need to put her worst fear into + words; he knew the keeper. He made the best he could of father's + detention, but he assured her, as she knew too well, that she could not + wait for him there. He was on his way East, and he took us with him as far + as Mountain Home. To this day she believes that if Bud Granger had led the + search, my father would have been found; but he went East to sell his + cattle, the snows set in, and the search party came straggling home. The + man, Granger, had left a letter of explanation, inclosing one from mother + to father, with the keeper. He bribed and frightened him, but for years + she used to agonize over a fear that father had come back and the keeper + had withheld the letter and belied her to him with some devilish story + that maddened him and drove him from her. Such a fancy might have come out + of her mental state at that time. I believe that Granger left the letter + simply to satisfy her. He must have believed my father was dead. He could + not have conceived of a man's being lost in that broad country at that + season; but my father was a man of hills and farms, all small, compact. + The plains were another planet to him. + </p> + <p> + “The letter was found in the keeper's clothing after his death; no one + ever came to claim it of his successor. Somewhere in this great wilderness + a tired man found rest. What would we not give if we knew where! + </p> + <p> + “And she worked in a hotel in Mountain Home. Can you imagine it! Then + Christine was born and the multiplied strain overcame her. Strangers took + care of her children while she lay between life and death. She had been + silent about herself and her past, but they found a letter from one of her + old schoolmates asking about teachers' salaries in the West, and they + wrote to her begging her to make known my mother's condition to her + relatives if any were living. At length came a letter from grandfather—characteristic + to the last. The old home was there, for her and for her children, but no + home for the traitor, as he called father. She must give him up even to + his name. No Bogardus could inherit of a Van Elten. + </p> + <p> + “She had not then lost all hope of father's return, and she never forgave + her father for trying to buy her back for the price of what she considered + her birthright. She settled down miserably to earn bread for her children. + Then, when hope and pride were crushed in her, and faith had nothing left + to cling to, there came a letter from Uncle Jacob, the bachelor, who had + bided his time. Out of the division in his brother's house he proposed to + build up his own; just as he would step in and buy depreciated bonds to + hold them for a rise. He offered her a home and maintenance during his + lifetime, and his estate for herself and her children when he was through. + There were no conditions referring to our father, but it was understood + that she should give up her own. This, mainly, to spite his brother, yet + under all there was an old man's plea. She felt she could make the + obligation good, though there might not be much love on either side. + Perhaps it came later; but I remember enough of that time to believe that + her children's future was dearly paid for. Grandfather died alone, in the + old rat-ridden house up the Hudson. He left no will, to every one's + surprise. It might have been his negative way of owning his debt to nature + at the last. + </p> + <p> + “That is how we came to be rich; and no one detects in us now the crime of + those early struggles. But my father was a hired man; and my mother has + done every menial thing with those soft hands of hers.” A softer one was + folded in his own. Its answering clasp was loyal and strong. + </p> + <p> + “Is <i>this</i> the story you had not the courage to tell me?” + </p> + <p> + “This is the story I had the courage to tell you—not any too soon, + perhaps you think?” + </p> + <p> + “And do you think it needed courage?” + </p> + <p> + “The question is what you think. What are we to do with Uncle Jacob's + money? Go off by ourselves and have a good time with it?” + </p> + <p> + “We will not decide to-night,” said Moya, tenderly subdued. But, though + the story had interested and touched her, as accounting for her lover's + saddened, conscience-ridden youth, it was no argument against teaching him + what youth meant in her philosophy. The differences were explained, but + not abolished. + </p> + <p> + “It was spite money, remember, not love money,” he continued, reverting to + his story. “It purchased my mother's compliance to one who hated her + father, who forced her to listen, year after year, to bitter, unnatural + words against him. I am not sure but it kept her from him at the last; for + if Uncle Jacob had not stepped in and made her his, I can't help thinking + she would have found somehow a way to the soft place in his heart. + Something good ought to be done with that money to redeem its history.” + </p> + <p> + “You must not be morbid, Paul.” + </p> + <p> + “That sounds like mother,” said Paul, smiling. “She is always jealous for + our happiness; because she lost her own, I think, and paid so heavily for + ours. She prizes pleasure and success, even worldly success, for us.” + </p> + <p> + “I don't blame her!” cried Moya. + </p> + <p> + “No; of course not. But you mustn't both be against me, and Chrissy, too. + She is so, unconsciously; she does not know the pull there is on me, + through knowing things she doesn't dream of, and that I can never forget.” + </p> + <p> + “No,” said Moya. “I am sure she is perfectly unconscious. We exchanged + biographies at school, and there was nothing at all like this in hers. Why + was she never told?” + </p> + <p> + “She has always been too strained, too excitable. Every least incident is + an emotion with her. When she laughs, her laugh is like a cry. Haven't you + noticed that? Startle her, and her eyes are the very eyes of fear. Mother + was wise, I think, not to pour those old sorrows into her little fragile + cup.” + </p> + <p> + “So she emptied them all into yours!” + </p> + <p> + “That was my right, of the elder and stronger. I wouldn't have missed the + knowledge of our beginnings for the world. What a prosperous fool and ass + I might have made of myself!” + </p> + <p> + “Morbid again,” said Moya. “You belong to your own day and generation. You + might as well wear country shoes and clothes because your father wore + them.” + </p> + <p> + “Still, if we have such a thing in this country as class, then you and I + do not belong to the same class except by virtue of Uncle Jacob's money. + Confess you are glad I am a Bevier and a Broderick and a Van Elten, as + well as a Bogardus.” + </p> + <p> + “I shall confess nothing of the kind. Now you do talk like a <i>nouveau</i> + Paul, dear,” said Moya, with her caressing eyes on his—they had + paused under the lamp at the top of the steps—“I think your father + must have been a very good man.” + </p> + <p> + “All our fathers were,” Paul averred, smiling at her earnestness. + </p> + <p> + “Yes, but yours in particular; because <i>you</i> are an angel; and your + mother is quite human, is she not?—almost as human as I am? That + carriage of the head,—if that does not mean the world!”— + </p> + <p> + “She has needed all her pride.” + </p> + <p> + “I don't object to pride, myself,” said the girl, “but you dwell so upon + her humiliations. I see no such record in her face.” + </p> + <p> + “She has had much to hide, you must remember.” + </p> + <p> + “Well, she can hide things; but one's self must escape sometimes. What has + become of little Emily Van Elten who ran away with her father's hired man? + What has become of the freighter's wife?” + </p> + <p> + “She is all mother now. She brought us back to the world, and for our + sakes she has learned to take her place in it. Herself she has buried.” + </p> + <p> + “Yes; but which is—was herself?” + </p> + <p> + “And you cannot see her story in her face?” + </p> + <p> + “Not that story.” + </p> + <p> + “Not the crushing reserve, the long suspense, the silence of a sorrow that + even her children could not share?” + </p> + <p> + “I know her silence. Your mother is a most reticent woman. But is she now + the woman of that story?” + </p> + <p> + “I don't understand you quite,” said Paul. “How much are we ourselves + after we have passed through fires of grief, and been recast under the + pressure of circumstances! She was that woman once.” + </p> + <p> + “The saddest part of the story to me is, that your father, who loved her + so, and worked so hard for his family, should have served you all the + better by his death.” + </p> + <p> + “Oh, don't say that, dear! Who knows what is best? But one thing we do + know. The sorrow that cut my mother's life in two brought you and me + together. It rent the stratum on which I was born and raised it to the + level of yours, my lady!” + </p> + <p> + “I shall not forget,” whispered Moya with blissful irony, “that you are + the Poor Man's son!” + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0006" id="link2H_4_0006"> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + VI. — AN APPEAL TO NATURE + </h2> + <p> + The autumn days were shortening imperceptibly and the sunsets had gained + an almost articulate splendor: cloud calling unto cloud, the west horizon + signaling to the east, and answering again, while the mute dark circle of + hills sat like a council of chiefs with their blankets drawn over their + heads. Soon those blankets would be white with snow. + </p> + <p> + Behind the Post where the hills climb toward the Cottonwood Creek divide, + there is a little canon which at sunset is especially inviting. It hastens + twilight by at least an hour during midsummer, and in autumn it leads up a + stairway of shadow to the great spectacle of the day—the day's + departure from the hills. + </p> + <p> + The canon has its companion rivulet always coming down to meet the + stage-road going up. As this road is the only outlet hillward for all the + life of the plain, and as the tendency of every valley population is to + climb, one thinks of it as a way out rather than a way in. Higher up, the + stage-road becomes a pass cut through a wall of splintered cliffs; and + here it leads its companion, the brook, a wild dance over boulders, and + under culverts of fallen rock. At last it emerges on what is called The + Summit; and between are green, deep valleys where the little ranches, + fields and fences and houses, seem to have slid down to the bottom and lie + there at rest. + </p> + <p> + A party of young riders from the post had gone up this road one evening, + and two had come down, laughing and talking; but the other two remained in + the circle of light that rested on the summit. Prom where they sat in the + dry grass they could hear a hollow sound of moving feet as the cattle + wandered down through folds of the hills, seeking the willow copses by the + water. On the breast of her habit Moya wore the blossoms of the wild + evening primrose, which in this region flowers till the coming of frost. + They had been gathered for her on the way up, and as she had waited for + them, sitting her horse in silence, the brown owls gurgled and hooted + overhead from nest to nest in the crannies of the rocks. + </p> + <p> + “You need not hold the horses,” she commanded, in her fresh voice. “Throw + my bridle over your saddle pommel and yours over mine.—There!” she + said, watching the horses as they shuffled about interlinked. “That is + like half the marriages in this world. They don't separate and they don't + go astray, but they don't <i>get</i> anywhere!” + </p> + <p> + “I have been thinking of those 'two in the Garden,'” mused Paul, resting + his dark, abstracted eyes on her. “Whether or no your humble servant has a + claim to unchallenged bliss in this world, there's no doubt about your + claim. If my plans interfere, I must take myself out of the way.” + </p> + <p> + “Oh, you funny old croaker!” laughed the girl. “Take yourself out of the + way, indeed! Haven't you chosen me to show you the way?” + </p> + <p> + “Moya, Moya!” said Paul in a smothered voice. + </p> + <p> + “I know what you are thinking. But stop it!” she held one of her crushed + blossoms to his lips. “What was this made for? Why hasn't it some work to + do? Isn't it a skulker—blooming here for only a night?” + </p> + <p> + “'Ripen, fall, and cease!'” Paul murmured. + </p> + <p> + “How much more am I—are you, then? The sum of us may amount to + something, if we mind our own business and keep step with each other, and + finish one thing before we begin the next. I will not be in a hurry about + being good. Goodness can take care of itself. What you need is to be + happy! And it's my first duty to make you so.” + </p> + <p> + “God knows what bliss it would be.” + </p> + <p> + “Don't say 'would be.'” + </p> + <p> + “God knows it is!” + </p> + <p> + “Then hush and be thankful!” There was a long hush. They heard the far, + faint notes of a bugle sounding from the Post. + </p> + <p> + “Lights out,” said Moya. “We must go.” + </p> + <p> + “You haven't told me yet where our Garden is to be,” he said. + </p> + <p> + “I will tell you on the way home.” + </p> + <p> + When they had come down into the neighborhood of ranches, and Bisuka's + lights were twinkling below them, she asked: “Who lives now in the + grandfather's house on the Hudson?” + </p> + <p> + “The farmer, Chauncey Dunlop.” + </p> + <p> + “Is there any other house on the place?” + </p> + <p> + “Yes. Mother built a new one on the Ridge some years ago.” + </p> + <p> + “What sort of a house is it?” + </p> + <p> + “It was called a good house once; but now it's rather everything it + shouldn't be. It was one of the few rash things mother ever did; build a + house for her children while they were children. Now she will not change + it. She says we shall build for ourselves, how and where we please. Stone + Ridge is her shop. Of course, if Chrissy liked it—But Chrissy + considers it a 'hole.' Mother goes up there and indulges in secret orgies + of economy; one man in the stable, one in the garden—'Economy has + its pleasures for all healthy minds.'” + </p> + <p> + “Economy is as delicious as bread and butter after too much candy. I + should love to go up to Stone Ridge and wear out my old clothes. Did any + one tell me that place would some day be yours?” + </p> + <p> + “It will be my wife's on the day we are married.” + </p> + <p> + “That is where your wife, sir, would like to live.” + </p> + <p> + “It is a stony Garden, dear! The summer people have their places nearer + the river. Our land lies back, with no view but hills. For one who has the + world before her where to choose, it strikes me she has picked out a very + humble Paradise.” + </p> + <p> + “Did you think my idea was to travel—a poor army girl who spends her + life in trunks? Do we ever buy a book or frame a picture without thinking + of our next move? As for houses, who am I that I should be particular? In + the Army's House are many mansions, but none that we can call our own. Oh, + I'm very primitive; I have the savage instinct to gather sticks and + stones, and get a roof over my head before winter sets in.” + </p> + <p> + To such a speech as this there was but one obvious answer, as she rode at + his side, her appealing slenderness within reach of his arm. It did not + matter what thousands he proposed to spend upon the roof that should cover + her; it was the same as if they were planning a hut of tules or a burrow + in the snow. + </p> + <p> + “It is a poor man's country,” he said; “stony hillsides, stony roads lined + with stone fences. The chief crop of the country is ice and stone. In one + of my grandfather's fields there is a great cairn which Adam Bogardus, + they say, picked up, stone by stone, with his bare hands, and carted there + when he was fourteen years old. We will build them into the walls of our + new house for a blessing.” + </p> + <p> + “No,” said Moya. “We will let sleeping stones lie!” + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0007" id="link2H_4_0007"> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + VII. — MARKING TIME + </h2> + <p> + There was impatience at the garrison for news that the hunters had + started. Every day's delay at Challis meant an abridgment of the + bridegroom's leave, and the wedding was now but a fortnight away. It began + to seem preposterous that he should go at all, and the colonel was annoyed + with himself for his enthusiasm over the plan in the first place. Mrs. + Bogardus's watchfulness of dates told the story of her thoughts, but she + said nothing. + </p> + <p> + “Mamsie is restless,” said Christine, putting an arm around her mother's + solid waist and giving her a tight little hug apropos of nothing. “I + believe it's another case of 'mail-time fever.' The colonel says it comes + on with Moya every afternoon about First Sergeant's call. But Moya is + cunning. She goes off and pretends she isn't listening for the bugle.” + </p> + <p> + “'First Sergeant or Second,' it's all one to me,” said Mrs. Bogardus. “I + never know one call from another, except when the gun goes off.” + </p> + <p> + “Mamsie! 'When the gun goes off!' What a civilian way of talking. You are + not getting on at all with your military training. Now let me give you + some useful information. In two seconds the bugle will call the first + sergeant—of each company—to the adjutant's office, and there + he'll get the mail for his men. The orderly trumpeter will bring it to the + houses on the line, and the colonel's orderly—beautiful creature! + There he goes! How I wish we could take him home with us and have him in + our front hall. Fancy the feelings of the maids! And the rage on the noble + brow of Parkins—awful Parkins. I should like to give his pride a + bump.” + </p> + <p> + Mother and daughter were pacing the colonel's veranda, behind a partial + screen of rose vines—October vines fast shedding their leaves. Every + breeze shook a handful down, which the women's skirts swept with them as + they walked. Mrs. Bogardus turned and clasped Christine's arm above the + elbow; through the thin sleeve she could feel its cool roundness. It was a + soft, small, unmuscular arm, that had never borne its own burdens, to say + nothing of a share in the burdens of others. + </p> + <p> + “Get your jacket,” said the mother. “There is a chill in the air.” + </p> + <p> + “There is no chill in me,” laughed Christine. “You know, mamsie, you + aren't a girl. I should simply die in those awful things that you wear. + Did you ever know such a hot house as the colonel keeps!” + </p> + <p> + “The rooms are small, and the colonel is—impulsive,” Mrs. Bogardus + added with a smile. + </p> + <p> + “There is something very like him about his fire-making. I should know by + the way he puts on wood that he never would have “—Mrs. Bogardus + checked herself. + </p> + <p> + “A large bank account?” Christine supplied, with her quick wit, which was + not of a highly sensitive order. + </p> + <p> + “He has a large heart,” said her mother. + </p> + <p> + “And plenty of room for it, bless him! The slope of his chest is like the + roof of a house. The only time I envy Moya is when she lays her head down + on it and tries to meet her arms around him as if he were a tree, and he + strokes her hair as if his hand was a bough! If ever I marry a soldier he + shall be a colonel with a white mustache and a burnt-sienna complexion, + and a sword-belt that measures—what is the colonel's waist-measure, + do you suppose?” + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus listened to this nonsense with the smile of a silent woman + who has borne a child that can talk. Moya had often noticed how uncritical + she was of Christine's “unruly member.” + </p> + <p> + “It isn't polite to speak of waist-measures to middle-aged persons like + your mother and the colonel,” she said placidly. “You like it very much + out here?” + </p> + <p> + “Fascinating! Never had such a good time in my whole life.” + </p> + <p> + “And you like the West altogether? Would you like to live here?” + </p> + <p> + “Oh, if it came to living, I should want to be sure there was a way out.” + </p> + <p> + “There generally is a way out of most things. But it costs something.” + Mrs. Bogardus was so concise in her speech as at times to be almost + oracular. + </p> + <p> + “Army people are sure of their way out,” said Christine, “and I guess they + find it costs something.” + </p> + <p> + “Why do they buy so many books, I wonder? If I moved as often as they do, + I'd have only paper covers and leave them behind.” + </p> + <p> + “You are not a reader, mummy. You're a business woman. You look at + everything from the practical side.” + </p> + <p> + “And if I didn't, who would?” Mrs. Bogardus spoke with earnestness. “We + can't all be dreamers like Paul or privileged persons like you. There has + to be one in every family to say the things no one likes to hear and do + the things nobody likes to do.” + </p> + <p> + “We are the rich repiners and you are the household drudge!” Christine + shouted, laughing at her own wit. + </p> + <p> + “Hush, hush!” her mother smiled. “Don't make so much noise.” + </p> + <p> + “I should like to know who's to be the drudge in Paul's privileged family. + It doesn't strike me it's going to be Moya. And Paul only drudges for + people he doesn't know.” + </p> + <p> + “Moya is a girl you can expect anything of. She is a wonderful mixture of + opposites. She has the Irish quickness, and yet she has learned to obey. + She has had the freedom and the discipline of these little lordly army + posts. She is one of the few girls of her age who does not measure + everything from her own point of view.” + </p> + <p> + “Is that a dig at me, ma'am?” + </p> + <p> + At that moment Moya came out upon the porch. + </p> + <p> + She was very striking with the high color and brilliant eyes that + mail-time fever breeds. Christine looked at her with freshly aroused + curiosity, moved by her mother's unwonted burst of praise. The faintest + tinge of jealousy made her feel naughty. As Moya went down the board walk, + the colonel's orderly came springing up the steps to meet her with the + mail-bag. He saluted and turned off at an angle down the embankment not to + present his back to the ladies. + </p> + <p> + “Did you see that! He never raised his eyes. They are like priests. You + can't make them look at you.” Moya looked at Christine in amazement. The + man himself might have heard her. It was not the first time this + privileged guest had rubbed against garrison customs in certain directions + hardly worth mentioning. Moya hesitated. Then she laughed a little, and + said: “Only a raw recruity would look at an officer's daughter, or any + lady of the line.” + </p> + <p> + “Oh, you horrid little aristocrat! Well, I look at them, when they are as + pretty as that one, and I forgive them if they look at me.” + </p> + <p> + Moya turned and hovered over the contents of the mail-bag. In the exercise + of one of her prerogatives, it was her habit to sort its contents before + delivering it at the official door. + </p> + <p> + “All, all for you!” she offered a huge packet of letters, smiling, to Mrs. + Bogardus. It was faced with one on top in Paul's handwriting. “All but + one,” she added, and proceeded to open her own much fatter one in the same + hand. She stood reading it in the hall. + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus presently followed and remained beside her. “Could I speak + to your father a moment?” she asked. + </p> + <p> + “Certainly, I will call him,” said Moya. + </p> + <p> + “Wait: I hear him now.” The study door opened and Colonel Middleton joined + them. Mrs. Bogardus leading the way into the sitting-room, the colonel + followed her, and Moya, not having been invited, lingered in the hall. + </p> + <p> + “Well, have the hunters started yet?” the colonel inquired in his breezy + voice, which made you want to open the doors and windows to give it room. + “Be seated! Be seated! I hope you have got a long letter to read me.” + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus stood reflecting. “The day this letter was mailed they got + off—only two days ago,” she said. “Could I reach them, Colonel, with + a telegram?” + </p> + <p> + “Two days ago,” the colonel considered. “They must have made Yankee Fork + by yesterday. Today they are deep in the woods. No; I should say a man on + horseback would be your surest telegram. Is it anything important?” + </p> + <p> + “Colonel, I wish we could call them back! They have gone off, it seems to + me, in a most crazy way—against the judgment of every one who knows. + The guide, this man whom they waited for, refused, it appears, to go out + again with another party so late in the fall. But the Bowens were + determined. They insisted on making arrangements with another man. Then, + when 'Packer John,' they call him, heard of this, he went to Paul and + urged him, if he could not prevent the others from going, to give up the + trip himself. The Bowens were very much annoyed at his interference, and + with Paul for listening to him. And Paul, rather than make things + unpleasant, gave in. You know how young men are! What silly grounds are + enough for the most serious decisions when it is a question of pride or + good faith. The Bowens had bought their outfit on Paul's assurance that he + would go. He felt he could not leave them in the lurch. On that, the guide + suddenly changed his mind and said he would go with them sooner than see + them fall into worse hands. They were, in a way, committed to the other + man, so they took <i>him</i> along as cook—the whole thing done in + haste, you see, and unpleasant feelings all around. Do you call that a + good start for a pleasure trip?” + </p> + <p> + “It's very much the way with young troops when they start out—everything + wrong end foremost, everybody mad with everybody else. A day in the saddle + will set their little tempers all right.” + </p> + <p> + “That isn't the point,” Mrs. Bogardus persisted gloomily. As she spoke, + the two girls came into the room and stood listening. + </p> + <p> + “What is the point, then?” Christine demanded. “Moya has no news; all + those pages and pages, and nothing for anybody or about anybody!” + </p> + <p> + “'Such an intolerable deal of sack to such a poor pennyworth of bread,'” + the colonel quoted, smiling at Moya's bloated envelope. + </p> + <p> + “But what do you think?” Mrs. Bogardus recalled him. “Don't you think it's + a mistake all around?” + </p> + <p> + “Not at all, if they have a good man. This flat-footed fellow, John, will + take command, as he should. There is no danger in the woods at any season + unless the party gets rattled and goes to pieces for want of a head.” + </p> + <p> + “Father!” exclaimed Moya. “You know there is danger. Often, things have + happened!” + </p> + <p> + “Why, what could happen?” asked Christine, with wide eyes. + </p> + <p> + “Many things very interesting could happen,” the colonel boasted + cheerfully. “That is the object of the trip. You want things to happen. It + is the emergency that makes the man—sifts him, and takes the chaff + out of him.” + </p> + <p> + “Take the chaff out of Banks Bowen,” Moya imprudently struck in, “and what + would you have left?” She had met Banks Bowen in New York. + </p> + <p> + “Tut, tut!” said the colonel. “Silence, or a good word for the absent—same + as the”—The colonel stopped short. + </p> + <p> + “You are so scornful about the other men, now you have chosen one!” + Christine's face turned red. + </p> + <p> + “Why, Chrissy! You would not compare your brother to those men! Papa, I + beg your pardon; this is only for argument.” + </p> + <p> + “I don't compare him; but that's not to say all the other men are chaff!” + Christine joined constrainedly in the laugh that followed her speech. + </p> + <p> + “You need not go fancying things, Moya,” she cried, in answer to a + quizzical look. “As if I hadn't known the Bowen boys since I was so high!” + </p> + <p> + “You might know them from the cradle to the grave, my dear young lady, and + not know them as Paul will, after a week in the woods with them.” + </p> + <p> + The colonel had missed the drift of the girls' discussion. He was + considering, privately, whether he had not better send a special messenger + on the young men's trail. His assurances to the women left a wide margin + for personal doubt as to the prudence of the trip. Aside from the lateness + of the start, it was, undoubtedly, an ill-assorted company for the woods. + There was a wide margin also for suspense, as all mail facilities ceased + at Challis. + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0008" id="link2H_4_0008"> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + VIII. — A HUNTER'S DIARY + </h2> + <p> + Early in November, about a week before the hunters were expected home, a + packet came addressed to Moya. It was a journal letter from Paul, mailed + by some returning prospector chance encountered in the forest as the party + were going in. Moya read it aloud, with asterisks, to a family audience + which did not include her father. + </p> + <p> + “To-day,” one of the first entries read, “we halt at Twelve-Mile Cabin, + the last roof we shall sleep under. There are pine-trees near the cabin + cut off fifteen feet above the ground, felled in winter, John tells us, <i>at + the level of the snow!</i> + </p> + <p> + “These cabins are all deserted now; the tide of prospecting has turned + another way. The great hills that crowd one another up against the sky are + so infested and overridden by this enormous forest-growth, and the + underbrush is so dense, it would be impossible for a 'tenderfoot' to gain + any clear idea of his direction. I should be a lost man the moment I + ventured out of call. Woodcraft must be a sixth sense which we lost with + the rest of our Eden birthright when we strayed from innocence, when we + ceased to sleep with one ear on the ground, and to spell our way by the + moss on tree-trunks. In these solitudes, as we call them, ranks and clouds + of witnesses rise up to prove us deaf and blind. Busy couriers are passing + every moment of the day; and we do not see, nor hear, nor understand. We + are the stocks and stones. Packer John is our only wood-sharp;—yet + the last half of the name doesn't altogether fit him. He is a one-sided + character, handicapped, I should say, by some experience that has humbled + and perplexed him. Two and two perhaps refused to make four in his account + with men, and he gave up the proposition. And now he consorts with trees, + and hunts to live, not to kill. He has an impersonal, out-door odor about + him, such as the cleanest animals have. I would as soon eat out of his + dry, hard, cool hand, as from a chunk of pine-bark. + </p> + <p> + “It is amusing to see him with a certain member of the party who tries to + be fresh with him. He has a disconcerting eye when he fixes it on a man, + or turns it away from one who has said a coarse or a foolish thing. + </p> + <p> + “'The jungle is large,' he seems to say, 'and the cub he is small. Let him + think and be still!'” + </p> + <p> + “Who is this 'certain member' who tries to be 'fresh'?” Christine inquired + with perceptible warmth. + </p> + <p> + “The cook, perhaps,” said Moya prudently. + </p> + <p> + “The cook isn't a 'member'!—Well, can't you go on, Moya? Paul seems + to need a lot of editing.” Moya had paused and was glancing ahead, smiling + to herself constrainedly. + </p> + <p> + “Is there more disparagement of his comrades?” Christine persisted. + </p> + <p> + “Christine, be still!” Mrs. Bogardus interfered. “Moya ought to have the + first reading of her own letter. It's very good of her to let us hear it + at all.” + </p> + <p> + “Oh dear, there's no disparagement. Quite the contrary! I'll go on with + pleasure if you don't mind.” Moya read hurriedly, laughing through her + words:— + </p> + <p> + “'If you were here, (Ah, <i>if</i> you were here!) You should lend me an + ear—One at the least Of a pair the prettiest'—which is, within + a foot or two, the rhythm of 'Wood Notes.' Of course you don't know it!” + </p> + <p> + “This is a gibe at me,” Moya explained, “because I don't read Emerson. 'It + is the very measure of a marching chorus,' he goes on to say, 'where the + step is broken by rocks and tree-roots;'—and he is chanting it to + himself (to her it was in the original) as they go in single file through + these 'haughty solitudes, the twilight of the gods!'” + </p> + <p> + “'Haughty solitudes'!” Christine derided. + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus sighed with impatience, and Moya's face became set. “Well, + here he quotes again,” she haughtily resumed. “Anybody who is tired of + this can be excused. Emerson won't mind, and I'm sure Paul won't!” She + looked a mute apology to Paul's mother, who smiled and said, “Go on, dear. + I don't read Emerson either, but I like him when Paul reads him for me.” + </p> + <p> + “Well, I warn you there is an awful lot of him here!” Moya's voice was a + trifle husky as she read on. + </p> + <p> + “Old as Jove, Old as Love'” + </p> + <p> + “I thought Love was young!”—Christine in a whisper aside. + </p> + <p> + “'Who of me Tells the pedigree? Only the mountains old, Only the waters + cold, Only the moon and stars, My coevals are.'” + </p> + <p> + Moya sighed, and sank into prose again. “There is a gaudy yellow moss in + these woods that flecks the straight and mournful tree-trunks like a + wandering glint of sunlight; and there is a crêpe-like black moss that + hangs funeral scarfs upon the boughs, as if there had been a death in the + forest, and the trees were in line for the burial procession. The grating + of our voices on this supreme silence reminds one of 'Why will you still + be talking, Monsieur Benedick?—nobody marks you.' + </p> + <p> + “There are silences, and again there are whole symphonies of sound. The + winds smites the tree-tops over our heads, a surf-like roar comes up the + slope, and the yellow pine-needles fall across the deepest darks as motes + sail down a sunbeam. One wearies of the constant perpendicular, always + these stiff, columnar lines, varied only by the melancholy incline where + some great pine-chieftain is leaning to his fall supported in the arms of + his comrades, or by the tragic prostration of the 'down timber'—beautiful + straight-cut English these woodsmen talk. + </p> + <p> + “Last evening John and I sat by the stove in the men's tent, while the + others were in the cabin playing penny-ante with the cook (a sodden brute + who toadies to the Bowens, and sulks with John because he objected to our + hiring the fellow—an objection which I sustained, hence his logical + spite includes me). John was melting pine gum and elk tallow into a + dressing for our boots. I took a mean advantage of him, his hands being in + the tallow and the tent-flap down, and tried on him a little of—now, + don't deride me!—'Wood Notes.' It is seldom one can get the comment + of a genuine woodsman on Nature according to the poets.'” + </p> + <p> + Moya read on perfunctorily, feeling that she was not carrying her audience + with her, and longing for the time when she could take her letter away and + have it all to herself. If she stopped now, Christine, in this sudden new + freak of distrustfulness, would be sure to misunderstand. + </p> +<pre xml:space="preserve"> + “'For Nature ever faithful is + To such as trust her faithfulness. + When the forest shall mislead me, + When the night and morning lie, + When sea and land refuse to feed me, + Will be time enough to die. + + Then will yet my Mother yield + A pillow in her greenest field; + Nor the June flowers scorn to cover + The clay of their departed lover.'” + </pre> + <p> + “That is beautiful,” Mrs. Bogardus murmured hastily. “Even I can + understand that.” Moya thanked her with a glance. + </p> + <p> + “And what did the infallible John say?” Christine inquired. + </p> + <p> + “John looked at me and smiled, as at a babbling infant”— + </p> + <p> + “Good for John!” + </p> + <p> + “Christine, be still!” + </p> + <p> + “John looked at me and smiled,” Moya repeated steadily. Nothing could have + stopped her now. She only hoped for some further scattering mention of + that “certain member” who had set them all at odds and spoiled what should + have been an hour's pure happiness. “'You'll get the pillow all right,' he + said. 'It might not be a green one, nor I wouldn't bank much on the + flowers; but you'll be tired enough to sleep without rocking about the + time you trust to Nature's tuckin' you in and puttin' victuals in your + mouth. I never <i>see</i> nature till I came out here. I'd seen pretty + woods and views, that a young lady could take down with her paints; but + how are you going to paint that?'—he waved his tallow-stick towards + the night outside. 'Ears can't reach the bottom of that stillness. That's + creation before God ever thought of man. Long as I've been in the woods, I + never get over the feeling that there's <i>something behind me</i>. If you + go towards the trees, they come to meet you; if you go backwards, they go + back; but you can't sit down and sit still without they'll come a-creeping + up and creeping up, and crowding in'— + </p> + <p> + “He stirred his 'dope' awhile, and then he struck another note. 'I've + wintered alone in these mountains,' he said, 'and I've seen snowslides + pounce out of a clear sky—a puff and a flash and a roar; an' trees + four foot across snappin' like kindlin' wood—not because it hit 'em; + only the breath of it struck them; and maybe a man lying dead somewheres + under his cabin timbers. That's no mother's love-tap. Pillows and flowers + ain't in it. But it's good poetry,' he added condescendingly. + </p> + <p> + “I have not quoted him right, not being much of a snap-shot at dialect; + and his is an undefined, unclassifiable mixture. Eastern farm-hand and + Western ranchman, prospector, who knows what? His real language is in his + eye and his rare, pure smile. And just as his countenance expresses his + thoughts without circumlocution or attempt at effect, so his body informs + his clothing. Wind and rain have moulded his hat to his head, his shoes + grip the ground like paws; his buckskins have a surface like a cast after + Rodin. They are repousséed by the hard bones and sinews underneath. I can + think of nothing but the clothing of Millet's peasants to compare with + this exterior of John's. He is himself a peasant of the woods. He has not + the predatory instincts. If he could have his way, not a shot would be + fired by any of us for the mere idle sport of killing. Shooting these + innocent, fearless creatures, who have not learned that we are here for + their destruction, is too like murder and treachery combined. Hunger + should be our only excuse. My forbearance, or weakness, is a sort of + unspoken bond between us. But I am a peasant, too, you know. I do not come + of the lordly, arms-bearing blood. I shoot at a live mark always under + protest; and when I fairly catch the look in the great eye of a dying elk + or black-tail, it knocks me out for that day's hunt.” + </p> + <p> + “Paul is perfectly happy!” Christine broke in. “He has got one of his + beloved People to grovel to. They can sleep in the same tent and eat from + the same plate, if you like. Why, it's better than the East Side! He'll be + blood brother to Packer John before they leave the woods.” + </p> + <p> + Moya blushed with anger. + </p> + <p> + “You have said enough on that subject, Christine.” Mrs. Bogardus bent her + dark, keen gaze upon her daughter's face. “Come”—she rose. “Come + with me!” + </p> + <p> + Christine sat still. “Come!” her mother repeated sternly. “Moya,”—in + a different voice,—“your letter was lovely. Shall you read it to + your father?” + </p> + <p> + “Hardly,” said Moya, flushing. “Father does not care for descriptions, and + the woods are an old story to him.” + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus placed her hands on the girl's shoulders and gave her one of + her infrequent, ceremonious kisses, which, like her finest smile, she kept + for occasions too nice for words. + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0009" id="link2H_4_0009"> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + IX. — THE POWER OF WEAKNESS + </h2> + <p> + Christine followed her mother to their room, and the two faced each other + a moment in pale silence. + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus spoke first. “What does this mean?”—her breath came + short, perhaps from climbing the stairs. She was a large woman. + </p> + <p> + “What does what mean? I don't understand you, mother.” + </p> + <p> + “Ah, child, don't repulse me! Twice you and Moya have nearly quarreled + about those men. Why were you so rude to her? Why did you behave so about + her letter?” + </p> + <p> + “Paul is so intolerant! And the airs he puts on! If he is my own brother I + must say he's an awful prig about other men.” + </p> + <p> + “We are not discussing Paul. That is not the question now. Have you + anything to tell me, Christine?” + </p> + <p> + “To tell you?—about what, mother?” Christine spoke lower. + </p> + <p> + “You know what I mean. Which of them is it? Is it Banks?—don't say + it is Banks!” + </p> + <p> + “Mother, how can I say anything when you begin like that?” + </p> + <p> + “Have you any idea what sort of a man Banks Bowen really is? His father + supports him entirely—six years now, ever since he left the law + school. He does nothing, never will do anything. He has no will or purpose + in life, except about trifles like this hunting-trip. As far as I can see + he is without common sense.” + </p> + <p> + Christine stood by the dressing-table pleating the cover-frilling with her + small fingers that were loaded with rings. She pinched the folds hard and + let them go. “Why did no one ever say these things before?” + </p> + <p> + “We don't say things about the sons of our friends, unless we are + compelled to. They were implied in every way possible. When have I asked + Banks Bowen to the house except when everybody was asked! I would never in + the world have come out in Mr. Borland's car if I had known the Bowens + were to be of the party.” + </p> + <p> + “That made no difference,” said Christine loftily. + </p> + <p> + “It was all settled before then, was it?” + </p> + <p> + “Have I said it was settled, mother? He asked me if I could ever care for + him; and I said that I did—a little. Why shouldn't I? He does what I + like a man to do. I don't enjoy people who have wills and purposes. It may + be very horrid of me, but I wouldn't be in Moya's place for worlds.” + </p> + <p> + “You poor child! You poor, unhappy child!” + </p> + <p> + “Why am I unhappy? Has Paul added so much to our income since he left + college?” + </p> + <p> + “Paul does not make money; neither does he selfishly waste it. He has a + conscience in his use of what he has.” + </p> + <p> + “I don't see what conscience has to do with it. When it is gone it's + gone.” + </p> + <p> + “You will learn what conscience has to do with a man's spending if ever + you try to make both ends meet with Banks Bowen. I suppose he will go + through the form of speaking to me?” + </p> + <p> + “Mother dear! He has only just spoken to me. How fast you go!” + </p> + <p> + “Not fast enough to keep up with my children, it seems. Was it you, + Christine, who asked them to come here?” + </p> + <p> + Christine was silent. + </p> + <p> + “Where did you learn such ways?—such want of frankness, of delicacy, + of the commonest consideration for others? To be looking out for your own + little schemes at a time like this!” Mrs. Bogardus saw now what must have + been Paul's reason for doing what, with all her forced explanations of the + hunting-trip, she had never until now understood. He had taken the alarm + before she had, and done what he could to postpone this family + catastrophe. + </p> + <p> + Christine retreated to a deep-cushioned chair, and threw herself into it, + her slender hands, palm upwards, extended upon its arms. Total surrender + under pressure of cruel odds was the expression of her pointed eyebrows + and drooping mouth. She looked exasperatingly pretty and irresponsibly + fragile. Her blue-veined eyelids quivered, her breath came in distinct + pants. + </p> + <p> + “Perhaps you will not be troubled with my 'ways' for very many years, + mother. If you could feel my heart now! It jumps like something trying to + get out. It will get out some day. Have patience!” + </p> + <p> + “That is a poor way to retaliate upon your mother, Christine. Your health + is too serious a matter to trifle with. If you choose to make it a shield + against everything I say that doesn't please you, you can cut yourself off + from me entirely. I cannot beat down such a defense as that. Anger me you + never can, but you can make me helpless to help you.” + </p> + <p> + “I dare say it's better that I should never marry at all,” said Christine, + her eyes closed in resignation. “You never would like anybody I like.” + </p> + <p> + “I shall say no more. You are a woman. I have protected you as far as I + was able on account of your weakness. I cannot protect you from the + weakness itself.” + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus rose. She did not offer to comfort her child with caresses, + but in her eyes as she looked at her there was a profound, inalienable, + sorrowing tenderness, a depth of understanding beyond words. + </p> + <p> + “I know so well,” the dark eyes seemed to say, “how you came to be the + poor thing that you are!” + </p> + <p> + The constraint which she felt towards her mother threw Chrissy back upon + Moya. Being a lesser power, she was always seeking alliances. Moya had put + aside their foolish tiff as unworthy of another thought; she was + embarrassed when at bedtime Christine came humbly to her door, and putting + her arms around her neck implored her not to be cross with her “poor + pussy.” It was always the other person who was “cross” with Christine. + </p> + <p> + “Nobody is cross with anybody, so far as I know,” said Moya briskly. A + certain sort of sentimentality always made her feel like whistling or + singing or asserting the commonplace side of life in some way. + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0010" id="link2H_4_0010"> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + X. — THE WHITE PERIL + </h2> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus received many letters, chiefly on business, and these she + answered with manlike brevity, in a strong, provincial hand. They took up + much of her time, and mercifully, for it was now the last week in November + and the young men did not return. + </p> + <p> + The range cattle had been driven down into the valleys, deer-tracks + multiplied by lonely mountain fords; War Eagle and his brethren of the + Owyhees were taking council under their winter blankets. The nights were + still, the mornings rimy with hoarfrost. Fogs arose from the river and cut + off the bases of the mountains, converting the valley before sunrise into + the likeness of a polar sea. + </p> + <p> + “You have let your fire go out,” said the colonel briskly. He had invaded + the sitting-room at an unaccustomed hour, finding the lady at her letters + as usual. She turned and held her pen poised above her paper as she looked + at him. + </p> + <p> + “You did not come to see about the fire?” she said. + </p> + <p> + “No; I have had letters from the north. Would you step into my study a + moment?” + </p> + <p> + Moya was in her father's room when they entered. She had been weeping, but + at sight of Paul's mother she rose and stood picking at the handkerchief + she held, without raising her eyes. + </p> + <p> + “Don't be alarmed at Moya's face,” said the colonel stoutly. “Paul was all + right at last accounts. We will have a merry Christmas yet.” + </p> + <p> + “This is not from Paul!” Mrs. Bogardus fixed her eyes upon a letter which + she held at arm's length, feeling for her glasses. “It's not for me—'<i>Miss</i> + Bogardus.'” + </p> + <p> + “Ah, well. I saw it was postmarked Lemhi—Fort Lemhi, you know. Sit + down, madam. Suppose I give you Mr. Winslow's report first—Lieutenant + Winslow. You heard of his going to Lemhi?” + </p> + <p> + “She doesn't know,” whispered Moya. + </p> + <p> + “True. Well, two weeks ago I gave Mr. Winslow a hunter's leave, as we call + it in the army, to beat up the trail of those boys. I thought it was time + we heard from them, but it wasn't worth while to raise a hue and cry. He + started out with a few picked men from Lemhi, the Indian Reservation, you + know. I couldn't have sent a better man; the thing hasn't got into the + local papers even. My object, of course, has been to save unnecessary + alarm. Mr. Winslow has just got back to Challis. He rounded up the Bowen + youths and the cook and the helper, in bad shape, all of them, but able to + tell a story. The details we shall get later, but I have Mr. Winslow's + report to me. It is short and probably correct.” + </p> + <p> + “Was Paul not with them?” his mother questioned in a hard, dry voice. + “Where is he then?” + </p> + <p> + “He is in camp, madam, in charge of the wounded.” + </p> + <p> + “Dear father! if you would speak plain!” Moya whispered nervously. + </p> + <p> + “Certainly. There is nothing whatever to hide. We know now that on their + last day's hunt they met with an accident which resulted in a division of + the party. A fall of snow had covered the ice on the trails, and the + guide's horse fell and rolled on him—nature of his injuries not + described. This happened a day's journey from their camp at Ten-Mile + cabin, and the retreat with the wounded man was slow and of course + difficult over such a trail. They put together a sort of horse-litter made + of pine poles and carried him on that, slung between two mules tandem. A + beastly business, winding and twisting over fallen timber, hugging the + cañon wall, near a thousand feet down—'Impassable' the trail is + marked, on the government military maps. This first day's march was so + discouraging that at Ten Mile they called a council, and the packer spoke + up like a man. He disposed of his own case in this way. If he were to + live, they could send back help to fetch him out. If not, no help would be + needed. The snows were upon them; there was danger in every hour's delay. + It was insane to sacrifice four sound men for one, badly hurt, with not + many hours perhaps to suffer.” + </p> + <p> + A murmur from the mother announced her appreciation of the packer's + argument. + </p> + <p> + “It was no more than a man should do; but as to taking him at his word, + why, that's another question.” The colonel paused and gustily cleared his + throat. “They were up against it right then and there, and the party split + upon it. Three of them went on,—for help, as they put it,—and + Paul stayed behind with the wounded man.” + </p> + <p> + “Paul stayed—alone?” Mrs. Bogardus uttered with hoarse emphasis. + “Was not that a very strange way to divide? Among them all, I should think + they might have brought the man out with them.” + </p> + <p> + “Their story is that his injuries were such that he could not have borne + the pain of the journey. Rather an unusual case,” the colonel added dryly. + “In my experience, a wounded man will stand anything sooner than be left + on the field.” + </p> + <p> + “I cannot understand it,” Mrs. Bogardus repeated, in a voice of indignant + pain. “Such a strange division! One man left alone—to nurse, and + hunt, and cook, and keep up fires! Suppose the guide should die!” + </p> + <p> + “Paul was not <i>left</i>, you know,” the colonel said emphatically. “He + <i>stayed</i>. And I should be thankful in your place, madam, that my son + was the man who made that choice. But setting conduct aside, for we are + not prepared to judge, it is merely a matter of time our getting in there, + now that we know where he is.” + </p> + <p> + “How much time?” Mrs. Bogardus opened her ashen lips to say. + </p> + <p> + The colonel's face fell. “Mr. Winslow reports heavy snows for the past + week,—soft, clogging snow,—too deep to wade through and too + soft to bear. A little later, when the cold has formed a crust, our men + can get in on snowshoes. There is nothing for it but patience, Mrs. + Bogardus, and faith in the boy's endurance. The pluck that made him stay + behind will help him to hold out.” + </p> + <p> + Moya gave a hurt sob; the colonel stepped to the desk and stood there a + moment turning over his papers. Behind his back the mother sent a glance + to Moya expressive of despair. + </p> + <p> + “Do you know what happened to his father? Did he ever tell you?” she + whispered. + </p> + <p> + Moya assented; she could not speak. + </p> + <p> + “Twice, twice in a lifetime!” said the older woman. + </p> + <p> + With a gesture, Moya protested against this wild prophecy; but as Paul's + mother left the room she rushed upon her father, crying: “Tell <i>me</i> + the truth! What do you think of it? Did you ever hear of such a dastardly + thing?” + </p> + <p> + “It was a rout,” said the colonel coolly. “They were in full flight before + the enemy.” + </p> + <p> + “What enemy? They deserted a wounded comrade, and a servant at that!” + </p> + <p> + “The enemy was panic,—panic, my dear. In these woods I've seen + strong men go half beside themselves with fear of something—the Lord + knows what! Then, add the winter and what they had seen and heard of that. + Anyway, you can afford to be easy on the other boys. The honors of the day + are with Paul—and the old packer, though it's all in the day's work + to him.” + </p> + <p> + “And you are satisfied with Paul, father?” + </p> + <p> + “He didn't desert his command to save his own skin.” The colonel smiled + grimly. + </p> + <p> + “When the men of the Fourth discovered those other fellows they had + literally sat down in the snow to die. Not a man of them knew how to pack + a mule. Their meat pack slipped, going along one of those high trails, and + scared the mule, and in trying to kick himself free the beast fell off the + trail—mule and meat both gone. They got tired of carrying their + stuff and made a raft to float it down the river, and lost that! Paul has + been much better off in camp than he would have been with them. So cheer + up, my girl, and think how you'd like to have your bridegroom out on an + Indian campaign!” + </p> + <p> + “Ah, but that would be orders! It's the uselessness that hurts. There was + nothing to do or to gain. He didn't want to go. Oh, daddy dear, I made fun + of his shooting,—I did! I laughed at his way with firearms. Wretched + fool and snob that I was! As if I cared! I thought of what other people + would say. You remember,—he went shooting up the gulch with Mr. + Lane, and when he hit but didn't kill he wouldn't—couldn't put the + birds out of pain. Jephson had to do it for him, and he told it in + barracks and the men laughed.” + </p> + <p> + “How did you know that! And what does it all amount to! Blame yourself all + you like, dear, if it does you any good, but don't make him out a fool! + There's not much that comes to us straight in this world—not even + orders, you'll find. But we have to take it straight and leave the muddles + and the blunders as they are. That's the brave man's courage and the brave + woman's. Orders are mixed, but duty is clear. And the boy out there in the + woods has found his duty and done it like a man. That should be enough for + any soldier's daughter.” + </p> + <p> + An hour passed in suspense. Moya was disappointed in her expectation of + sharing in whatever the letter from Fort Lemhi might contain. Christine + was in bed with a headache, her mother dully gave out, with no apparent + expectation that any one would accept this excuse for the girl's complete + withdrawal. The letter, she told Moya, was from Banks Bowen. “There was + nothing in it of consequence—to us,” she added, and Moya took the + words to mean “you and me” to the unhappy exclusion of Christine. + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus's face had settled into lines of anxiety printed years + before, as the creases in an old garment, smoothed and laid away, will + reappear with fresh wear. Her plan was to go back to New York with + Christine, who was plainly unfit to bear a long siege of suspense. There + she could leave the girl with friends and learn what particulars could be + gathered from the Bowens, who would have arrived. She would then return + alone and wait for news at the garrison. That night, with Moya's help, she + completed her packing, and on the following day the wedding party broke + up. + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0011" id="link2H_4_0011"> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + XI. — A SEARCHING OF HEARTS + </h2> + <p> + Fine, dry snowflakes were drifting past the upper square of a window set + in a wall of logs. The lower half was obscured by a white bulk that + shouldered up against the sash in the likeness of a muffled figure + stooping to peer in. + </p> + <p> + Lying in his bunk against the wall, the packer watched this sentinel + snowdrift grow and become human and bold and familiar. His deep-lined + visage was reduced to its bony structure. The hand was a claw with which + he plucked at the ancient fever-crust shredding from his lips: an + occupation at once so absorbing and so exhausting that often the hand + would drop and the blankets rise upon the arch of the chest in a sigh of + retarded respiration. The sigh would be followed by a cough, controlled, + as in dread of the shock to a sore and shattered frame. The snow came + faster and faster until the dim, wintry pane was a blur. Millions of atoms + crossed the watcher's weary vision, whirling, wavering, driven with an + aimless persistence, unable to pause or to stop. And the blind white + snowdrift climbed, fed, like human circumstance, from disconnected atoms + impelled by a common law. + </p> + <p> + There were sounds in the cabin: wet wood sweating on hot coals; a step + that went to and fro. Outside, a snow-weighted bough let go its load and + sprang up, scraping against the logs. Some heavy soft thing slid off the + roof and dropped with a <i>chug</i>. Then the door, that hung awry like a + drooping eyelid, gave a disreputable wink, and the whole front gable of + the cabin loomed a giant countenance with a silly forehead and an evil + leer. Now it seemed that a hand was hurling snow against the door, as a + sower scatters grain,—snow that lay like beach sand on the floor, or + melted into a crawling pool—red in the firelight, red as blood! + </p> + <p> + These and other phantasms had now for an unmeasured time been tenants of + the packer's brain, sharing and often overpowering the reality of the + human step that went to and fro. To-day the shapes and relations of things + were more natural, and the step aroused a querulous curiosity. + </p> + <p> + “Who's there?” the sick man imagined himself to have said. A croaking + sound in his throat, which was all he could do by way of speech, brought + the step to his bedside. A young face, lightly bearded, and gaunt almost + as his own, bent over him. Large, black eyes rested on his; a hand with + womanish nails placed its fingers on his wrist. + </p> + <p> + “You are better to-day. Your pulse is down. I wouldn't try to talk.” + </p> + <p> + “Who's that—outside?” + </p> + <p> + “There is no one outside,” Paul answered, following the direction of his + patient's eyes. “That? That is only a snowdrift. It grows faster than I + can shovel it away.” + </p> + <p> + The packer had forgotten his own question. He dozed off, and presently + roused again as suddenly as he had slept. His utterance was clearer, but + not his meaning. + </p> + <p> + “What—you want to fetch me back for?” + </p> + <p> + “Back?” Paul repeated. + </p> + <p> + “I was most gone, wa'n't I?” + </p> + <p> + “Back to life, you mean? You came back of yourself. I hadn't much to do + with it.” + </p> + <p> + “What's been the matter—gen'ly speaking?” + </p> + <p> + “You were hurt, don't you remember? Something like wound fever set in. The + altitude is bad for fevers. You have had a pretty close call.” + </p> + <p> + “Been here all the time?” + </p> + <p> + “Have I been here?—yes.” + </p> + <p> + “'Lone?” + </p> + <p> + “With you. How is your chest? Does it hurt you still when you breathe?” + </p> + <p> + The sick man filled his lungs experimentally. “Something busted inside, I + guess,” he panted. “'Tain't no killing matter, though.” + </p> + <p> + Nourishment, in a tin cup, warm from the fire was offered him, refused + with a gesture, and firmly urged upon him. This necessitated another rest. + It was long before he spoke again—out of some remoter train of + thought apparently. + </p> + <p> + “Family all in New York?” + </p> + <p> + “My family? They were at Bisuka when I left them.” + </p> + <p> + “You don't <i>live</i> West!” + </p> + <p> + “No. I was born in the West, though. Idaho is my native state.” + </p> + <p> + The patient fell to whimpering suddenly like a hurt child. He drew up the + blanket to cover his face. Paul, interpreting this as a signal for more + nourishment, brought the sad decoction,—rinds of dried beef cooked + with rice in snow water. + </p> + <p> + “Guess that'll do, thank ye. My tongue feels like an old buckskin glove.” + </p> + <p> + “When I was a little fellow,” said the nurse, beguiling the patient while + he tucked the spoonfuls down, “I was like you: I wouldn't take what the + doctor ordered, and they used to pretend I must take it for the others of + the family,—a kind of vicarious milk diet, or gruel, or whatever it + was. 'Here's a spoonful for mother, poor mother,' they would say; and of + course it couldn't be refused when mother needed it so much. 'And now one + for Chrissy'”— + </p> + <p> + “Who?” + </p> + <p> + “My sister, Christine. And then I'd take one for 'uncle' and one for each + of the servants; and the cupful would go down to the health of the + household, and I the dupe of my sympathies! Now you are taking this for + me, because it's nicer to be shut up here with a live man than a dead one; + and we haven't the conveniences for a first-class funeral.” + </p> + <p> + “You never took a spoonful for 'father,'—eh?” + </p> + <p> + Paul answered the question with gravity. “No. We never used that name in + common.” + </p> + <p> + “Dead was he?” + </p> + <p> + “I will tell you some time. Better try to sleep now.” + </p> + <p> + Paul returned the saucepan to the fire, after piecing out its contents + with water, and retired out of his patient's sight. + </p> + <p> + Again came a murmur, chiefly unintelligible, from the bunk. + </p> + <p> + “Did you ask for anything?” + </p> + <p> + The sick man heaved a worried sigh. “See what a mis'rable presumptuous + piece of work!” he muttered, addressing the logs overhead. “But that + Clauson—he wa'n't no more fit to guide ye than to go to heaven! + Couldn't 'a' done much worse than this, though!” + </p> + <p> + “He has done worse!” Paul came over to the bunk-side to reason on this + matter. “They started back from here, four strong men with all the animals + and all the food they needed for a six weeks' trip. We came in in one. If + they got through at all, where is the help they were to send us?” + </p> + <p> + “Help!” The packer roused. “They helped themselves, and pretty frequent. I + said to them more than once—they didn't like it any too well: 'We + can't drink up here like they do down to the coast. The air is too light. + What a man would take with his dinner down there would fit him out with a + first-class jag up here, 'leven thousand above the sea!'” + </p> + <p> + “It's a waste of breath to talk about them—breath burns up food and + we haven't much to spare. We rushed into this trouble and we dragged you + in after us. We have hurt you a good deal more than you have us.” + </p> + <p> + The sick man groaned. He flung one hand back against the logs, dislodging + ancient dust that fell upon his corpse-like forehead. It was carefully + wiped away. Helpless tears stole down the rigid face. + </p> + <p> + “John,” said Paul with animation, “your general appearance just now + reminds me of those worked-out placer claims we passed in Ruby Gulch, the + first day out. The fever and my cooking have ground-sluiced you to the + bone.” + </p> + <p> + John smiled faintly. “Don't look very fat yourself. Where'd you git all + that baird on your face?” + </p> + <p> + “We have been here some time, you know—or you don't know; you have + been living in places far away from here. I used to envy you sometimes. + And other times I didn't.” + </p> + <p> + “You mean I was off my head?” + </p> + <p> + “At times. But more of the time you were dreaming and talking in your + dreams; seeing things out loud by the flash-light of fever.” + </p> + <p> + “Talking, was I? Guess there wa'n't much sense in any of it?” The hazard + was a question. + </p> + <p> + “A kind of sense,—out of focus, distorted. Some of it was opium. + Didn't you coax a little of his favorite medicine out of the cook?” + </p> + <p> + Packer John apologized sheepishly, “I cal'lated I was going to be left. + You put it up on me—making out you were off with the rest. <i>That</i> + was all right. But I wa'n't going to suffer it out; why should I? A + gunshot would have cured me quicker, perhaps. Then some critter might 'a' + found me and called it murder. A word like that set going can hang a man. + No, I just took a little to deaden the pain.” + </p> + <p> + “The whole discussion was rather nasty, right before the man we were + talking about,” said Paul. “I wanted to get them off and out of hearing. + Then we had a few words.” + </p> + <p> + At intervals during that day and the next, Paul's patient expended his + strength in questions, apparently trivial. His eyes, whenever they were + open, followed his nurse with a shrinking intelligence. Paul was on his + guard. + </p> + <p> + “What day of the month do you make it out to be?” + </p> + <p> + “The second of December.” + </p> + <p> + “December!” The packer lay still considering. “Game all gone down?” + </p> + <p> + “I am not much of a pot-hunter,” said Paul. “There may be game, but I + can't seem to get it. The snow is pretty deep.” + </p> + <p> + “Wouldn't bear a man on snowshoes?” + </p> + <p> + “He would go out of sight.” + </p> + <p> + “Snowing a little every day?” + </p> + <p> + “Right along, quietly, for I don't know how many days! I think the sky is + packed with it a mile deep.” + </p> + <p> + “How much grub have we got?” + </p> + <p> + Paul gave a flattering estimate of their resources. The patient was not + deceived. + </p> + <p> + “Where's it all gone to? You ain't eat anything.” + </p> + <p> + “I've eaten a good deal more than you have.” + </p> + <p> + “I was livin' on fever.” + </p> + <p> + “You can't live on fever any longer. The fever has left you, and you'll go + with it if you don't obey your doctor.” + </p> + <p> + “But where's all the stuff <i>gone</i> to?” + </p> + <p> + “There were four of them, and they allowed for some delay in getting out,” + Paul explained, with a sickly smile. + </p> + <p> + “Well, they was hogs! I knew how they'd pan out! That was why”—He + wearied of speech and left the point unfinished. + </p> + <p> + On the evening following, when the two could no longer see each other's + faces in the dusk, Paul spoke, controlling his voice:— + </p> + <p> + “I need not ask you, John, what you think of our chances?” + </p> + <p> + “I guess they ain't much worth thinking about.” The fire hissed and + crackled; the soft subsidence of the snow could be heard outside. + </p> + <p> + “We are 'free among the dead,' how does it go? 'Like unto them that are + wounded and lie in the grave.' What we say to each other here will stop + here with our breath. Let us put our memories in order for the last + reckoning. I think, John, you must, at some time in your life, have known + my father, Adam Bogardus? He was lost on the Snake River plains, + twenty-one years ago this autumn.” + </p> + <p> + Receiving no answer, the pale young inquisitor went on, choosing his words + with intense deliberation as one feeling his way in the dark. + </p> + <p> + “Most of us believe in some form of communication that we can't explain, + between those who are separated in body, in this world, but closely united + in thought. Do I make myself clear?” + </p> + <p> + There was a sound of deep breathing from the bunk; it produced a similar + conscious excitement in the speaker. He halted, recovered himself, and + continued:— + </p> + <p> + “After my father's disappearance, my mother had a distinct presentiment—it + haunted her for years—that something had happened to him at a place + called One Man Station. Did you ever know the place?” + </p> + <p> + “I might have.” The words came huskily. + </p> + <p> + “Father had left her at this place, and to her knowledge he never came + back. But she had this intimation—and suffered from it—that he + did come back and was foully dealt with there—wronged in body or + mind. The place had most evil associations for her; it was not strange she + should have connected it with the great disaster of her life. As you lay + talking to yourself in your fever, you took me back on that lost trail + that ended, as we thought, in the grave. But we might have been mistaken. + Is there anything it would not be safe for you and me to speak of now? Do + you know any tie between men that should be closer than the tie between + us? Any safer place where a man could lay off the secret burdens of his + life and be himself for a little while—before the end answers all? I + know you have a secret. I believe that a share of it belongs to me.” + </p> + <p> + “We are better off sometimes if we don't get all that belongs to us,” said + John gratingly. + </p> + <p> + “It doesn't seem to be a matter of choice, does it? If you were not meant + to tell me—what you have partly told me already—where is there + any meaning in our being here at all? Let us have some excuse for this + senseless accident. Do you believe much in accidents? How foolish”—Paul + sighed—“for you and me to be afraid of each other! Two men who have + parted with everything but the privilege of speaking the truth!” + </p> + <p> + The packer raised himself in his bunk slowly, like one in pain. He looked + long at the listless figure crouching by the fire; then he sank back again + with a low groan. “What was it you heared me say? Come!” + </p> + <p> + “I can't give you the exact words. The words were nothing. Haven't you + watched the sparks blow up, at night, when the wind goes searching over + the ashes of an old camp-fire? It was the fever made you talk, and your + words were the sparks that showed where there had been fire once. Perhaps + I had no right to track you by your own words when you lay helpless, but I + couldn't always leave you. Now I'd like to have my share of that—whatever + it was—that hurt you so, at One Man Station.” + </p> + <p> + “You ought to been a lawyer,” said the packer, releasing his breath. There + was less strain in his voice. It broke with feeling. “You put up a mighty + strong case for your way of looking at it. I don't say it's best. There, + if you will have it! Sonny—my son! It—it's like startin' a + snow-slide.” + </p> + <p> + The sick man broke down and sobbed childishly. + </p> + <p> + “Take it quietly! Oh, take it quietly!” Paul shivered. “I have known it a + long time.” + </p> + <p> + Hours later they were still awake, the packer in his bunk, Paul in his + blankets by the winking brands. The pines were moving, and in pauses of + the wind they could hear the incessant soft crowding of the snow. + </p> + <p> + “When they find us here in the spring,” said the packer humbly, “it won't + matter much which on us was 'Mister' and which was 'John.'” + </p> + <p> + “Are you thinking of that!” Paul answered with nervous irritation. “I + thought you had lived in the woods long enough to have got rid of all that + nonsense!” + </p> + <p> + “I guess there was some of it where you've been living.” + </p> + <p> + “We are done with all that now. Go to sleep,—Father.” He pronounced + the word conscientiously to punish himself for dreading it. The darkness + seemed to ring with it and give it back to him ironically. “Father!” + muttered the pines outside, and the snow, listening, let fall the word in + elfin whispers. Paul turned over desperately in his blankets. “Father!” he + repeated out loud. “Do <i>you</i> believe it? Does it do you any good?” + </p> + <p> + “I wouldn't distress myself, one way or t' other, if it don't come + natural,” the packer spoke, out of his corner in the darkness. “Wait till + you can feel to say it. The word ain't nothing.” + </p> + <p> + “But do you feel it? Is it any comfort to you at all?” + </p> + <p> + “I ain't in any hurry to feel it. We'll get there. Don't worry. And s'pose + we don't! We're men. Man to man is good enough for me.” + </p> + <p> + Paul spent some wakeful hours after that, trying not to think of Moya, of + his mother and Christine. They were of another world,—a world that + dies hard at twenty-four. Towards morning he slept, but not without + dreams. + </p> + <p> + He was in the pent-road at Stone Ridge. It was sunset and long shadows + striped the lane. A man stood, back towards him, leaning both arms on the + stone fence that bounds the lane to the eastward,—a plain farmer + figure, gazing down across the misty fields as he might have stood a + hundred times in that place at that hour. Paul could not see his face, but + something told him who it must be. His heart stood still, for he saw his + mother coming up the lane. She carried something in her hand covered with + a napkin, and she smiled, walking carefully as if carrying a treat to a + sick child. She passed the man at the fence, not appearing to have seen + him. + </p> + <p> + “Won't you speak to him, mother? Won't you speak to”—He could not + utter the name. She looked at him bewildered. “Speak? who shall I speak + to?” The man at the fence had turned and he watched her, or so Paul + imagined. He felt himself choking, faint, with the effort to speak that + one word. Too late! The moment passed. The man whom he knew was his + father, the solemn, quiet figure, moved away up the road unquestioned. He + never looked back. Paul grew dizzy with the lines of shadow; they + stretched on and on, they became the ties of a railroad—interminable. + He awoke, very faint and tired, with a lost feeling and the sense upon him + of some great catastrophe. The old man was sleeping deeply in his bunk, a + ray of white sunlight falling on his yellow features. He looked like one + who would never wake again. But as Paul gazed at him he smiled, and sighed + heavily. His lips formed a name; and all the blood in Paul's body dyed his + face crimson. The name was his mother's. + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0012" id="link2H_4_0012"> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + XII. — THE BLOOD-WITE + </h2> + <p> + A few hours seemed days, after the great disclosure. Both men had recoiled + from it and were feeling the strain of the new relation. Three times since + their first meeting the elder had adjusted himself quietly to a change in + the younger's manner to him. First there had been respectful curiosity in + the presence of a new type, combined with the deference due a leader and + an expert in strange fields. Then indignant partisanship, pity, and the + slight condescension of the nurse. This had hurt the packer, but he took + it as he accepted his physical downfall. The last change was hardest to + bear; for now the time was short, and, as Paul himself had said, they were + in the presence of the final unveiling. + </p> + <p> + So when Paul made artificial remarks to break the pauses, avoiding his + father's eye and giving him neither name nor title, the latter became + silent and lay staring at the logs and picking at his hands. + </p> + <p> + “If I was hunting up a father,” he said to himself aloud one day, “I'd try + to find a better lookin' one. I wouldn't pa'm off on myself no such old + warped stick as I be.” The remark seemed a tentative one. + </p> + <p> + “I had the choice, to take or leave you,” Paul responded. “You were an + unconscious witness. Why should I have opened the subject at all?” + </p> + <p> + Both knew that this answer was an evasion. By forcing the tie they had + merely marked the want of ease and confidence between them. As “Packer + John” Paul could have enjoyed, nay, loved this man; as his father, the sum + and finality of his filial dreams, the supplanter of that imaginary + husband of his mother's youth, the thing was impossible. And the father + knew it and did not resent it in the least, only pitied the boy for his + needless struggle. He was curious about him, too. He wanted to understand + him and the life he had come out of: his roundabout way of reaching the + simplest conclusions; his courage in argument, and his personal shying + away from the truth when found. More than all he longed for a little plain + talk, the exile's hunger for news from home. It pleased him when Paul, + rousing at this deliberate challenge, spoke up with animation, as if he + had come to some conclusion in his own mind. It could not be expected he + would express it simply. The packer had become used to his oddly elaborate + way of putting things. + </p> + <p> + “If we had food enough and time, we might afford to waste them discussing + each other's personal appearance. <i>I</i> propose we talk to some + purpose.” + </p> + <p> + “Talking sure burns up the food.” The packer waited. + </p> + <p> + “I wish I knew what my father was doing with himself, all those years when + his family were giving him the honors of the dead.” + </p> + <p> + “I warned ye about this pumping out old shafts. You can't tell what you'll + find in the bottom. I suppose you know there are things in this world, + Boy, a good deal worse than death?” + </p> + <p> + “Desertion is worse. It is not my father's death I want explained, it is + his life, your life, in secret, these twenty years! Can you explain that?” + </p> + <p> + The packer doubled his bony fist and brought it down on the bunk-side. + “Now you talk like a man! I been waiting to hear you say that. Yes, I can + answer that question, if you ain't afeard of the answer!” + </p> + <p> + “I am keeping alive to hear it!” said Paul in a guarded voice. + </p> + <p> + “You might say you're keeping me alive to tell it. It's a good thing to + git off of one's mind; but it's a poor thing to hand over to a son. All + I've got to leave ye, though: the truth if you can stand it! Where do you + want I should begin?” + </p> + <p> + “At the night when you came back to One Man Station.” + </p> + <p> + “How'd you know I come back?” + </p> + <p> + “You were back there in your fever, living over something that happened in + that place. There was a wind blowing and the door wouldn't shut. And + something had to be lifted,”—the old man's eyes, fixed upon his son, + took a look of awful comprehensions,—“something heavy.” + </p> + <p> + “Yes; great Lord, it was heavy! And I been carrying it ever since!” His + chest rose as if the weight of that load lay on it still, and his breath + expired with a hoarse “haugh.” “I got out of the way because it was <i>my</i> + load. I didn't want no help from them.” He paused and sat picking at his + hands. “It's a dreadful ugly story. I'd most as soon live it over again as + have to tell it in cold blood. I feel sometimes it <i>can't be!</i>” + </p> + <p> + “You need not go back beyond that night. I know how my mother was left, + and what sort of a man you were forced to leave her with. Was it—the + keeper?” + </p> + <p> + “That's what it was. That was the hard knot in my thread. Nothing wouldn't + go past that. Some, when they git things in a tangle, they just reach for + the shears an' cut the thread. I wa'n't brought up that way. I was taught + to leave the shears alone. So I went on stringin' one year after another. + But they wouldn't join on to them that went before. There was the knot.” + </p> + <p> + “It was between you and him—and the law?” said Paul. + </p> + <p> + “You've got it! I was there alone with it,—witness an' judge an' + jury; I worked up my own case. Manslaughter with extenuatin' + circumstances, I made it—though he was more beast than man. I give + myself the outside penalty,—imprisonment for life. And I been + working out my sentence ever since. The Western country wa'n't home to me + then—more like a big prison. It's been my prison these twenty-odd + years, while your mother was enjoying what belonged to her, and making a + splendid job of your education. If I had let things alone I might have + finished my time out: but I didn't, and now the rest of it's commuted—for + the life of my son!” + </p> + <p> + “Don't put it that way! I am no lamb of sacrifice. Why, how can we let + things alone in this world! Should I have stood off from this secret and + never asked my father for his defense?” + </p> + <p> + “Do you mean to say a boy like you can take hold of this thing and + understand it?” + </p> + <p> + “I can,” said Paul. “I could almost tell the story myself.” + </p> + <p> + “Put it up then!” said the packer. The fascination of confession was + strong upon him. + </p> + <p> + “You had been out in the mountains—how long?” + </p> + <p> + “Two days and three nights, just as I left camp.” + </p> + <p> + “You were crazed with anxiety for us. You came back to find your camp + empty, the wife and baby gone. You had reason to distrust the keeper. Not + for what he did—for what you knew he meant to do.” + </p> + <p> + “For what he meant and tried to do. I seen it in his eye. The devil that + wanted him incited him to play with me and tell me lies about my wife. She + scorned the brute and he took his mean revenge. He kep' back her letter, + and he says to me, leerin' at me out of his wicked eyes, 'Your livestock + seems to be the strayin' kind. The man she went off with give me that,'—he + lugged a gold piece out of his clothes and showed me,—'give me + that,' he says, 'to keep it quiet.' He kep' it quiet! Half starved and + sick's I was, the strength was in me. But vengeance in the hand of a man, + it cuts both ways, my son! His bunk had a sharp edge to it like this. He + fell acrost it with my weight on top of him and he never raised up again. + There wasn't a mark on him. His back was broke. He died slow, his eyes + mocking me. + </p> + <p> + “'You fool,' he says. 'Go look in that coat hangin' on the wall.' I found + her letter there inside of one from Granger. He watched me read it and he + laughed. 'Now, go tell her you've killed a man!' He knew I didn't come of + a killin' breed. There was four hours to think it over. Four hours! I + thought hard, I tell you! 'T was six of one and half a dozen of t' other + 'twixt him and me, but I worked it back 'n' forth a good long while about + her. First, taking her away from her father, an old man whose bread I'd + eat. She was like a child of my own raising. I always had felt mean about + that. We'd had bad luck from the start,—my luck,—and now + disgrace to cap it all. Whether I hid it or told her and stood my trial, + I'd never be a free man again. There he lay! And a sin done in secret, + it's like a drop of nitric acid: it's going to eat its way out—and + in! + </p> + <p> + “I knew she'd have friends enough, once she was quit of me. That was the + case between us. The thing that hurt me most was to put her letter back + where I found it, and leave it, there with him. Her little cry to me—and + I couldn't come! I read the words over and over, I've said 'em to myself + ever since. I've lived on them. But I had to leave the letter there to + show I'd never come back. I put it back after he was dead. + </p> + <p> + “The sins of the parents shall be visited,—when it's in the blood! + But I declare to the Almighty, murder wa'n't in my blood! It come on me + like a stroke of lightning hits a tree, and I had a clear show to fall + alone. + </p> + <p> + “That's the answer. Maybe I didn't see all sides of it, but there never + was no opening to do different, after that night. Now, you've had an + education. I should be glad to hear your way of looking at it?” + </p> + <p> + “I should think you might stand your trial, now, before any judge or jury, + in this world or the next,” Paul answered. + </p> + <p> + “There is only one Judge.” The packer smiled a beautiful quiet smile that + covered a world of meanings. “What a man re'ly wants, if he'd own up it, + is a leetle shade of partiality. Maybe that's what we're all going to + need, before we git through.” + </p> + <p> + Paul was glad to be saved the necessity of speech, and he felt the swift + discernment with which the packer resumed his usual manner. “Got any more + of that stuff you call soup? Divide even! I won't be made no baby of.” + </p> + <p> + “We might as well finish it up. It's hardly worth making two bites of a + cherry.” + </p> + <p> + “Call this 'cherry'! It's been a good while on the bough. What's it mostly + made of?” + </p> + <p> + “Rind of bacon, snow water,—plenty of water,—and a + tablespoonful of rice.” + </p> + <p> + “Good work! Hungry folks can live on what the full bellies throw away.” + </p> + <p> + “Oh, I can save. But there comes a time when you can't live by saving what + you haven't got.” + </p> + <p> + “That's right! Well, let's talk, then, before the bacon-rind fades out of + us.” + </p> + <p> + The packer's face and voice, his whole manner, showed the joy of a soul + that has found relief. Paul was not trying now to behave dutifully; they + were man to man once more. The quaint, subdued humor asserted itself, and + the narrator's speech flowed on in the homely dialect which expressed the + man. + </p> + <p> + “I stayed out all that winter, workin' towards the coast. One day, along + in March, I fetched a charcoal burner's camp, and the critter took me in + and nursed my frost-bites and didn't ask no questions, nor I of him. We + struck up a trade, my drivin' stock, mostly skin and bone, for a show in + his business. He wa'n't gettin' rich at it, that was as plain as the hip + bones on my mules. I kep' in the woods, cuttin' timber and tendin' kiln, + and he hauled and did the sellin'. Next year he went below to Portland and + brought home smallpox with him. It broke out on him on the road. He was a + terrible sick man. I buried him, and waited for my turn. It didn't come. I + seemed kind o' insured. I've been in lots of trouble since then, but + nothing ever touched me till now. I banked on it too strong, though. I + sure did! My pardner was just such another lone bird like me. If he had + any folks of his own he kep' still about them. So I took his name—whether + it was his name there's no knowing. Guess I've took full as good care of + it as he would. 'Hagar?' folk would say, sort o' lookin' me over. 'You + ain't Jim Hagar.' No, but I was John, and they let it go at that. + </p> + <p> + “I heard of your mother that summer, from a prospector who came up past my + camp. He'd wintered in Mountain Home. He told me my own story, the way + they had it down there, and what straits your mother was in. I had scraped + up quite a few dollars by then, and was thinking how I'd shove it into a + bank like an old debt coming to Adam Bogardus. I was studying how I was + going to rig it. There wasn't any one who knew me down there, so I felt + safe to ventur' a few inquiries. What I heard was that she'd gone home to + her folks and was as well off as anybody need be. That broke me all up at + first. I must have had a sneakin' notion that maybe some day I could see + my way to go back to her, but that let me out completely. I quit then, and + I've stayed quit. The only break I made was showin' up here at the + 'leventh hour, thinking I could be some use to my son!” + </p> + <p> + “It was to be,” said Paul. “For years our lives have been shaping towards + this meeting. There were a thousand chances against it. Yet here we are!” + </p> + <p> + “Here we are!” the packer repeated soberly. “But don't think that I lay + any of my foolishness on the Almighty! Maybe it was meant my son should + close my eyes, but it's too dear at the price. Anybody would say so, I + don't care who.” + </p> + <p> + “But aside from the 'price,' is it something to you?” + </p> + <p> + “More—more than I've got words to say. And yet it grinds me, every + breath I take! Not that I wish you'd done different—you couldn't and + be a man. I knew it even when I was kickin' against it. Oh, well! It ain't + no use to kick. I thought I'd learned something, but I ain't—learned—a + thing!” + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0013" id="link2H_4_0013"> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + XIII. — CURTAIN + </h2> + <p> + A greater freedom followed this confession, as was natural. It became the + basis for lighter confidences and bits of autobiography that came to the + surface easily after this tremendous effort at sincerity. Paul found that + he could speak even of the family past, into which by degrees he began to + fit the real man in place of that bucolic abstraction which had walked the + fields of fancy. He had never dared to actuate the “hired man,” his + father, on a basis of fact. He knew the speech and manners of the class + from which he came,—knew men of that class, and talked with them + every summer at Stone Ridge; but he had brooded so deeply over the tragic + and sentimental side of his father's fate as to have lost sight of the + fact that he was a man. + </p> + <p> + Reality has its own convincing charm, not inconsistent with plainness or + even with commonness. To know it is to lose one's taste for toys of the + imagination. Paul, at last, could look back almost with, a sense of humor + at the doll-like progenitor he had played with so long. But when it came + to placing the real man, Adam Bogardus, beside that real woman, once his + wife, their son could but own with awe that there is mercy in extinction, + after all; in the chance, however it may come to us, for slipping off + those cruel disguises that life weaves around us. + </p> + <p> + In the strange, wakeful nights, full of starvation dreams, he saw his + mother as she would look on state occasions in the hostess's place at her + luxurious table; the odor of flowers, the smell of meats and wines, + tantalized and sickened him. Christine would come in her dancing frocks, + always laughing, greedy in her mirth; but Moya, face to face, he could + never see. It was torture to feel her near him, a disembodied embrace. + Passionate panegyrics and hopeless adjurations he would pour out to that + hovering loveliness just beyond his reach. The agony of frustration would + waken him, if indeed it were sleep that dissolved his consciousness, and + he would be irritable if spoken to. + </p> + <p> + The packer broke in, one morning, on these unnerving dreams. “You wouldn't + happen to have a picture of her along with you?” + </p> + <p> + Paul stared at him. + </p> + <p> + “No, of course you wouldn't! And I'd be 'most afeard to look at it, if you + had. She must have changed considerable. Time hasn't stood still with her + any more than the rest of us.” + </p> + <p> + “I have no picture of my mother,” Paul replied. + </p> + <p> + The packer saw that his question had jarred; he had waited weeks to ask + it. He passed it off now with one of his homely similes. “If you was to + break a cup clean in two, and put the halves together again while the + break was fresh, they'd knit so you wouldn't hardly see a crack. But you + take one half and set it in the chainy closet and chuck the other half out + on the ash-heap,—them halves won't look much like pieces of the same + cup, come a year or two. The edges won't jine no more than the lips of an + old cut that's healed without stitches. No; married folks they grow + together or they grow apart, and they're a-doing of the one or the other + every minute of the time, breaks or no breaks. Does she go up to the old + place summers?” + </p> + <p> + “Not lately, except on business,” said Paul. “A company was formed to open + slate quarries on the upper farm, a good many years ago. They are worth + more than all the land forty times over.” + </p> + <p> + “I always said so; always told the old man he had a gold mine in that + ridge. Was this before he died?” + </p> + <p> + “Long after. It was my mother's scheme mainly. She controls it now. She is + a very strong business woman.” + </p> + <p> + “She got her training, likely, from that uncle in New York. He had the + business head. The old man had no more contrivance than one of the bulls + in his pastures. He could lock horns and stay there, but it wa'nt no + trouble to outflank him. More than once his brother Jacob got to the + windward of him in a bargain. He was made a good deal like his own land. + Winters of frost it took to break up that ground, and sun and rain to + meller it, and then't was a hatful of soil to a cartful of stone. The + plough would jump the furrows if you drew it deep. My arms used to ache as + if they'd been pounded, with the jar of them stones. They used to tell us + children a story how Satan, he flew over the earth a-sowing it with rocks + and stones, and as he was passing over our county a hole bu'st through his + leather apron and he lost his whole load right slam there. I could 'a' + p'inted out the very spot where the heft on it fell. Ten Stone meadow, + so-called. Ten million stone! I was pickin' stone in that field all of one + summer when I was fifteen year old. We built a mile of fence with it. + </p> + <p> + “Them quarries must have brought a mint of money into the country. + Different sort of labor, too. Well, the world grows richer and poorer + every year. More difference every year between the way rich folks and poor + folks live. I wouldn't know where I belonged, 't ain't likely, if I was to + go back there. I'd be way off! One while I used to think a good deal about + going back, just to take a look around. It comes over me lately like + hunger and thirst. I think about the most curious things when I'm asleep—foolish, + like a child! I can smell all the good home smells of a frosty morning: + apple pomace, steaming in the barnyard; sausage frying; Becky scouring the + brass furnace-kittle with salt and vinegar. Killin' time, you know—makes + you think of boiling souse and head-cheese. You ever eat souse?” The + packer sucked in his breath with a lean smile. “It ain't best to dwell on + it. But you can't help yourself, at night. I can smell Becky's fresh + bread, in my dreams, just out of the brick oven. Never eat bread cooked in + a stove till I came out here. I never drunk any water like that spring on + the ridge. Last night I was back there, and the maples were all yellow + like sunshine. Once it was spring, and apple-blooms up in the hill + orchard. And little Emmy, a-setting on the fence, with her bunnit throwed + back on her neck. 'Addy!' she called, way across the lot; 'Addy, come, + help me down!' She was a master hand for venturin' up on places, but she + didn't like the gettin' down. + </p> + <p> + “Well, she 'a learned the ups and downs by this time. She don't need Addy + to help her. I'd have helped a big sight more if I had kep' my distance. + It's a thing so con-demned foolish and unnecessary—I can't be + reconciled to it noway!” + </p> + <p> + “You see only one side of it,” said Paul. Unspeakable thoughts had kept + pace with his father's words. “Nothing that happens, happens through us—or + to us—alone. There was a girl I knew, outside. She was as happy, + when I knew her first, as you say my mother used to be. Then she met some + one—a man—and the shadow of his life crossed hers. He would + have wrapped her up in it and put out her sunshine if he had stayed in the + same world. Now she can be herself again, after a while. It cannot take + long to forget a person you have known only a little over a year.” + </p> + <p> + The packer rose on one elbow. He reached across and shook his son. + </p> + <p> + “Where is that girl? Answer me! Take your face out of your hands!” + </p> + <p> + “At Bisuka Barracks. She is the commandant's daughter. I came out to marry + her.” + </p> + <p> + “What possessed ye not to tell me?” + </p> + <p> + “Why should I tell you? We buried the wedding-day months back, in the + snow.” + </p> + <p> + “Boy, boy!” the packer groaned. + </p> + <p> + “What difference can it make now?” + </p> + <p> + “<i>All</i> the difference—all the difference there is! I thought + you were out here touring it with them fool boys and they were all the + chance you had for help outside. You suppose her father is going to see + her git left? <i>They</i>'ll get in here, if they have to crawl on their + bellies or climb through the tree-limbs. They know how! And we've wasted + the grub and talked like a couple of women!” + </p> + <p> + “Oh, don't—don't torment me!” Paul groaned. “It was all over. Can't + you leave the dead in peace!” + </p> + <p> + “We are not the dead! I 'most wish we were. Boy, I've got a big word to + say to you about that. Come closer!” The packer's speech hoarsened and + failed. They could only hear each other breathe. Then it seemed to the + packer that his was the only breath in the darkness. He listened. A faint + cheer arose in the forest and a crashing of the dead underlimbs of the + pines. + </p> + <p> + He turned frantically upon his son, but no pledge could be extorted now. + Paul's lips were closed. He had lost consciousness. + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0014" id="link2H_4_0014"> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + XIV. — KIND INQUIRIES + </h2> + <p> + The colonel's drawing-room was as hot as usual the first hour after + dinner, and as usual it was full of kindly participant neighbors who had + dropped in to repeat their congratulations on the good news, now almost a + week old. Mrs. Bogardus had not come down, and, though asked after by all, + the talk was noticeably freer for her absence. + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Creve, in response to a telegram from her brother, had arrived from + Fort Sherman on the day before, prepared for anything, from frozen feet to + a wedding. She had spent the afternoon in town doing errands for Moya, and + being late for dinner had not changed her dress. There never was such a + “natural” person as aunt Annie. At present she was addressing the company + at large, as if they were all her promising children. + </p> + <p> + “Nobody talks about their star in these days. I used to have a star. I + forget which it was. I know it was a pretty lucky one. Now I trust in + Providence and the major and wear thick shoes.” She exhibited the shoes, a + particularly large and sensible kind which she imported from the East. + Everybody laughed and longed to embrace her. “Has Moya got a star?” she + asked seriously. + </p> + <p> + “The whole galaxy!” a male voice replied. “Doesn't the luck prove it?” + </p> + <p> + “Moya has got a 'temperament,'” said Doctor Fleming, the Post surgeon. + “That's as good as having a star. You know there are persons who attract + misfortune just as sickly children catch all the diseases that are going. + I knew that boy was sure to be found. Anything of Moya's would be.” + </p> + <p> + “So you think it was Moya's 'temperament' that pulled him out of the + snow?” said the colonel, wheeling his chair into the discussion. + </p> + <p> + “How about Mr. Winslow's temperament? I prefer to leave a little of the + credit to him,” said Moya sweetly. + </p> + <p> + A young officer, who had been suffering in the corner by the fire, jumped + to his feet and bowed, then blushed and sat down again, regretting his + rashness. Moya continued to look at him with steadfast friendliness. + Winslow had led the rescue that brought her lover home. A glow of sympathy + united these friends and neighbors; the air was electrical and full of + emotion. + </p> + <p> + “I suppose no date has been fixed for the wedding?” Mrs. Dawson, on the + divan, murmured to Mrs. Creve. The latter smiled a non-committal assent. + </p> + <p> + “I should think they would just put the doctor aside and be married + anyhow. My husband says he ought to go to a warmer climate at once.” + </p> + <p> + “My dear, a young man can't be married in his dressing-gown and slippers!” + </p> + <p> + “No! It's not as bad as that?” + </p> + <p> + “Well, not quite. He's up and dressed and walks about, but he doesn't come + down to his meals,—he can eat so very little at a time, and it tires + him to sit through a dinner. It isn't one of those ravenous recoveries. It + went too far with him for that.” + </p> + <p> + “His mother was perfectly magnificent through it all, they say.” + </p> + <p> + “Have you seen much of Mrs. Bogardus?” + </p> + <p> + “No; we left them alone, poor things, when the pinch came. But I used to + see her walking the porch, up and down, up and down. Moya would go off on + the hills. They couldn't walk together! That was after Miss Chrissy went + home. Her mother took her back, you know, and then returned alone. + Perfectly heroic! They say she dressed every evening for dinner as + carefully as if she were in New York, and led the conversation. She used + to make Moya read aloud to her—history, novels—anything to + pretend they were not thinking. The strain must have begun before any of + us knew. The colonel kept it so quiet. What is the dear man doing with + your bonnet?” + </p> + <p> + The colonel had plucked his sister's walking-hat, a pert piece of + millinery froward in feathers, from the trunk of the headless Victory, + where she had reposed it in her haste before dinner. + </p> + <p> + “Mustn't be disrespectful to the household Lar,” he kindly reminded her. + </p> + <p> + “Where am I to put my hats, then? I shall wear them on my head and come + down to breakfast in them. Moya, dear, will you please rescue my hat? Put + it anywhere, dear,—under your chair. There is not really a place in + this house to put a thing. A wedding that goes off on time is bad enough, + but one that hangs on from month to month—and doesn't even take care + of its clothes! Forgive me, dear! The clothes are very pretty. I open a + bureau-drawer to put away my middle-aged bonnet—a puff of violets! A + pile of something white, and, behold, a wedding veil! There isn't a hook + in the closet that doesn't say, 'Standing-room only,' and the + standing-room is all stood on by a regiment of new shoes.” + </p> + <p> + “My dear woman, go light on our sore spots. We are only just out of the + woods.” + </p> + <p> + “Isn't it bad to coddle your sore spots, Doctor? Like a saddle-gall, ride + them down!” Mrs. Creve and Dr. Fleming exchanged a friendly smile on the + strength of this nonsense. On the doctor's side it covered a suspicion: + “'The lady, methinks, protests too much'!” The colonel, too, was restless, + and Moya's sweet color came and went. She appeared to be listening for + steps or sounds from some other part of the house. + </p> + <p> + The men all rose now as Mrs. Bogardus entered; one or two of the ladies + rose also, compelled by something in her look certainly not intended. She + was careful to greet everybody; she even crossed the room and gave her + hand to Lieutenant Winslow, whom she had not seen since the night of his + return. The doctor she casually passed over with a bow; they had met + before that day. It was in the mind of each person present not of the + family, and excepting the doctor, to ask her: 'How is your son this + evening?' But for some reason the inquiry did not come off. + </p> + <p> + The company began suddenly to feel itself <i>de trop</i>. Mrs. Dawson, who + had come under the doctor's escort, glanced at him, awaiting the moment + when it would do to make the first move. + </p> + <p> + “I hear you lost a patient from the hospital yesterday?” said Lieutenant + Winslow, at the doctor's side. + </p> + <p> + “<i>From</i>, did you say? That's right! He was to have been operated on + to-day.” The doctor shrugged his shoulders. + </p> + <p> + “What!” + </p> + <p> + “Two broken ribs. One grown fast to the lung.” + </p> + <p> + “Wh-ew!” + </p> + <p> + “He just walked out. Said I had ordered him to have fresh air. There was a + new hall-boy, a greenhorn.” + </p> + <p> + “He can't go far in that shape, can he?” + </p> + <p> + “Oh, there's no telling. The constitution of those men is beyond anything. + You can't kill him. He'll suffer of course, suffer like an animal, and die + like one—away from the herd. Maybe not this time, though.” + </p> + <p> + “Was he afraid of the operation?” + </p> + <p> + “I can't say. He did not seem to be either afraid or anxious for help. Not + used to being helped. He would be taken to the Sisters' Hospital. Wouldn't + come up here as the guest of the Post, not a bit! I believe from the first + he meant to give us the slip, and take his chance in his own way.” + </p> + <p> + “Did you hear,”—Mrs. Creve spoke up from the opposite side of the + room under that hypnotic influence by which a dangerous topic spreads,—“did + you hear about the poor guide who ran away from the hospital to escape + from our wicked doctor here? What a reputation you must have, Doctor!” + </p> + <p> + “All talk, my dear; town gossip,” said the colonel. “You gave him his + discharge, didn't you, Doctor?” The colonel looked hard at the medical + officer; he had prepared the way for a statement suited to a mixed + company, including ladies. But Doctor Fleming stated things usually to + suit himself. + </p> + <p> + “There was a man who left the Sisters' Hospital rather informally + yesterday. I won't say he is not just as well off to-day as if he had + stayed.” + </p> + <p> + “Who was it? Was it our man, father?” + </p> + <p> + “The doctor has more than one patient at the hospital.” Colonel Middleton + looked reproachfully at the doctor, who continued to put aside as childish + these clumsy subterfuges. “I think you ladies frightened him away with + your attentions. He knew he was under heavy liabilities for all your + flowers and fancy cookery.” + </p> + <p> + “Attentions! Are we going to let him die on the road somewhere?” cried + Moya. + </p> + <p> + “Miss Moya?” Lieutenant Winslow spoke up with a mixture of embarrassment + and resolution to be heard, though every voice in the room conspired + against him. “Those men are a big fraternity. They have their outfitting + places where they put in for repairs. Packer John had his blankets sent to + the Green Meadow corral. They know him there. They say he had money at one + of the stores. They all have a little money cached here and there. And + they <i>can't</i> get lost, you know!” + </p> + <p> + Moya's eyes shone with a suspicious brightness. + </p> +<pre xml:space="preserve"> + “'When the forest shall mislead me; + When the night and morning lie.'” + </pre> + <p> + She turned her swimming eyes upon Paul's mother, who would be sure to + remember the quotation. + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus remained perfectly still, her lips slightly parted. She grew + very pale. Then she rose and walked quickly to the door. + </p> + <p> + “Just a breath of cold air!” she panted. The doctor, Moya, and Mrs. Creve + had followed her into the hall. Moya placed herself on the settle beside + her and leaned to support her, but she sat back rigidly with her eyes + closed. Mrs. Creve looked on in quiet concern. “Let me take you into the + study, Mrs. Bogardus!” the doctor commanded. “A glass of water, Moya, + please.” + </p> + <p> + “How is she? What is it? Can we do anything?” The company crowded around + Mrs. Creve on her return to the drawing-room. She glanced at her brother. + There was no clue there. He stood looking embarrassed and mystified. “It + is only the warm welcome we give our friends,” she said aloud, smiling + calmly. “Mrs. Bogardus found the room too hot. I think I should have + succumbed myself but for that little recess in the hall.” + </p> + <p> + The colonel attacked his fire. He thought he was being played with. Things + were not right in the house, and no one, not the doctor, or even Annie, + was frank with him. His kind face flushed as he straightened up to bid his + guests good-night. + </p> + <p> + “Well, if it's not anything serious, you think. But you'll be sure to let + us know?” said Mrs. Dawson. “Well, good-night, Mrs. Creve. <i>Good</i>-night, + Colonel! You'll say good-night to Moya? Do let us know if there is + anything we can do.” + </p> + <p> + Dr. Fleming was in the hall looking for his cape. The colonel touched him + on the shoulder. “Don't be in a hurry, Doctor. Mrs. Dawson will excuse + you.” + </p> + <p> + “I don't think you need me any more to-night. Moya is with Mrs. Bogardus. + She is not ill. The room was a little close.” + </p> + <p> + “Never mind the <i>room</i>! Come in here. I want a word with you.” + </p> + <p> + The doctor laughed oddly, and obeyed. + </p> + <p> + “Annie, you needn't leave us.” + </p> + <p> + “Why, thank you, dear boy! It's awfully good of you,” Annie mocked him. + “But I must go and relieve Moya.” + </p> + <p> + “I don't believe you are wanted in there,” said Doctor Fleming. + </p> + <p> + “It's more than obvious that I'm not in here.” + </p> + <p> + “Oh, do sit down,” said the teased colonel. + </p> + <p> + The fire sulked and smoked a trifle with its brands apart. Doctor Fleming + leaned forward upon his knees and regarded it thoughtfully. The colonel + sat fondling the tongs. In a deep chair Mrs. Creve lay back and shaded her + face with the end of her lace scarf. By her manner she might have been + alone in the room, yet she was keenly observant of the men, for she felt + that developments were taking place. + </p> + <p> + “What is the matter with your patient upstairs, Doctor?” the colonel began + his cross-examination. Doctor Fleming raised his eyebrows. + </p> + <p> + “He's had nothing to eat to speak of for six weeks, at an altitude”— + </p> + <p> + “Yes; we know all that. But he's twenty-four years old. They made an easy + trip back, and he has been here a week, nearly. He's not as strong as he + was when they brought him in, is he?” + </p> + <p> + “That was excitement. You have to allow for the reaction. He has had a + shock to the entire system,—nerves, digestion,—must give him + time. Very nervous temperament too much controlled.” + </p> + <p> + “Make it as you like. But I'm disappointed in his rallying powers, unless + you are keeping something back. A boy with the grit to do what he did, and + stand it as he did—why isn't he standing it better now?” + </p> + <p> + “We are all suffering from reaction, I think,” said Mrs. Creve + diplomatically; “and we show it by making too much of little things. Tom, + we oughtn't to keep the doctor up here talking nonsense. He wants to go to + bed.” + </p> + <p> + “<i>I</i>'m not talking nonsense,” said the doctor. “I should be if I + pretended there was anything mysterious about that boy's case upstairs. He + has had a tremendous experience, say what you will; and it's pulled him + down nervously, and every other way. He isn't ready or able to talk of it + yet. And he knows as soon as he comes down there'll be forty people + waiting to congratulate him and ask him how it was. I don't wonder he + fights shy. If he could take his bride by the hand and walk out of the + house with her I believe he could start to-morrow; but if there must be a + wedding and a lot of fuss”— + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Creve nodded her head approvingly. The three had risen and stood + around the hearth, while the colonel put the brands delicately together + with the skill of an old campaigner. The flames breathed again. + </p> + <p> + “I don't offer this as a professional opinion,” said the doctor. “But a + case like his is not a disease, it's a condition”— + </p> + <p> + “Of the mind, perhaps?” the colonel added significantly. He glanced at + Mrs. Creve. “You've thought about that, Doctor? The letter his mother + consulted you about?” + </p> + <p> + “Have you been worrying about that, Colonel? Why didn't you say so? There + is nothing in it whatever. Why, it's so plain a case the other way—any + one can see where the animus comes from!” + </p> + <p> + “Now you <i>are</i> getting mysterious, and I'm going to bed!” said Mrs. + Creve. + </p> + <p> + “No; we're coming to the point now,” said the colonel. + </p> + <p> + “What is it you want Bogardus to do?” asked Doctor Fleming. “Want him to + get up and walk out of the house as my patient did at the hospital? Dare + say he could do it, but what then? Will you let me speak out, Colonel? No + regard to anybody's feelings? Now, this may be gossip, but I think it has + a bearing on the case upstairs. I'm going to have it off my mind anyhow! + When Mrs. Bogardus came to see the guide,—Packer John,—day + before yesterday, was it?—he asked to see her alone. Said he had + something particular to say to her about her son. We thought it a queer + start, but she was willing to humor him. Well, she wasn't in there above + ten minutes, but in that time something passed between them that hit her + very hard, no doubt of that! Now, Bogardus holds his tongue like a + gentleman as to what happened in the woods. He doesn't mention his + comrades' names. And the packer has disappeared; so he can't be + questioned. Seems to me a little bird told me there was an attachment + between one of those Bowen boys and Miss Christine? + </p> + <p> + “Now we, who know what brutes brute fear will make of men, are not going + to deny that those boys behaved badly. There are some things that can't be + acknowledged among men, you know, if there is a hole to crawl out of. + Cowardice is one of them. Well then, they lied, that's the whole of it. + The little boys lied. They wrote Mrs. Bogardus a long letter from Lemhi,”—the + doctor was reviewing now for Mrs. Creve's benefit,—“when they first + got out. They probably judged, by the time they had had, that Paul and the + packer would never tell their own story. Very well: it couldn't hurt Paul, + it might be the saving of them, if they could show that something had + queered him in the woods. They asked his mother if she had heard of the + effects of altitude upon highly sensitive organizations. They recounted + some instances—I will mention them later. One of the boys is a + lawyer, isn't he? They are a pair of ingenious youths. Bogardus, they + claim, avoided them almost from the time they entered the woods,—almost + lived with the packer, behaved like a crank about the shooting. Whereas + they had gone there to kill things, he made it a personal matter whenever + they pursued this intention in a natural and undisguised manner. He had + pangs, like a girl, when the creatures expired. He hated the carcases, the + blood—forgive me, Mrs. Creve. In short, he called the whole business + butchery.” + </p> + <p> + “Do you make <i>that</i> a sign of lunacy?” Mrs. Creve flung in. + </p> + <p> + “I am quoting, you know.” The doctor smiled indulgently. “They declare + that they offered—even begged—to stay behind with him, one of + them, at least, but he rejected their company in a manner so unpleasant + that they saw it would only be courting a quarrel to remain. And so, + treating him perforce like a child <i>or</i> a lunatic <i>pro tem.</i>, + and having but little time to decide in, they cut loose and hurried back + for help. This is the tale, composed on reflection. They said nothing of + this to Winslow—to save publicity, of course! Mrs. Bogardus's lips + are doubly sealed, for her son's sake and for the sake of the young scamp + who is to be her son, by and by! I saw she winced at my opinion, which I + gave her plainly—brutally, perhaps. And she asked me particularly to + say nothing, which I am particularly not doing. + </p> + <p> + “This, I think, you will find is the bitter drop in the cup of rejoicing + upstairs. And they are swallowing it in silence, those two, for the sake + of the little girl and the old friends in New York. Of course she has kept + from Paul that last shot in the back from those sweet boys! The packer had + some unruly testimony he was bursting with, which he had sense enough to + keep for her alone, and she doesn't want the case to spread. It is + singular how a man in his condition could get out of the way as suddenly + as he did. You might think he'd been taken up in a cloud.” + </p> + <p> + “Doctor, what do you mean by such an insinuation as that?” + </p> + <p> + “Colonel, have I insinuated anything? Did I say she had oiled the wheels + of his departure?” + </p> + <p> + “Come, come! You go too far!” + </p> + <p> + “Not at all. That's your own construction. I merely say that I am not + concerned about that man's disappearance. I think he'll be looked after, + as a valuable witness should be.” + </p> + <p> + “Well,” the colonel grumbled uneasily, “I don't like mysteries myself, and + I don't like family quarrels nor skeletons at the feasts of old friends. + But I suppose there must be a drop in every cup. What were your altitude + cases, Doctor?” + </p> + <p> + “The same old ones; poor Addison, you know. All those stories they tell an + Easterner. As I pointed out to Mrs. Bogardus, in every case there was some + predisposing cause. Addison had been too long in the mountains, and he was + frightfully overworked; short of company officers. He came to me about an + insect he said had got into his ear; buzzed, and bothered him day and + night. The story got to the men's quarters. They joked about the colonel's + 'bug.' I knew it was no joke. I condemned him for duty, but the Sioux were + out. They thought at Washington no one but Addison could handle an Indian + campaign. He was on the ground, too. So they sent him up higher where it + was dry, with a thousand men in his hands. I knew he'd be a madman or a + dead man in a month! There were a good many of the dead! By Jove! The boys + who took his orders and loved the old fellow and knew he was sending them + to their death! Well for him that he'll never know.” + </p> + <p> + “The 'altitude of heartbreak,'” sighed Mrs. Creve. The phrase was her own, + for many a reason deeply known unto herself, but she gave it the effect of + a quotation before the men. + </p> + <p> + “Then you think there is no 'altitude' in ours?” + </p> + <p> + “No; nor 'heartbreak' either,” said the doctor, helping himself to one of + the colonel's cigars. “But I don't say there isn't enough to keep a woman + awake nights, and to make those young men avoid the sight of each other + for a time. Thanks, I won't smoke now. I'm going to take a look at Mrs. + Bogardus as I go out.” + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0015" id="link2H_4_0015"> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + XV. — A BRIDEGROOM OF SNOW + </h2> + <p> + The doctor had taken his look, feeling a trifle guilty under his patient's + counter gaze, yet glad to have relieved the good colonel's anxiety. If he + loved to gossip, at least he was particular as to whom he gossiped with. + </p> + <p> + Moya closed the door after him and silently resumed her seat. Mrs. + Bogardus helped herself to a sip of water. She was struggling with a dry + constriction of the throat, and Moya protested a little, seeing the effort + that it cost her to speak, even in the hoarse, unnatural tone which was + all the voice she had left. + </p> + <p> + “I want to finish now,” she said, “and never speak of this again. It was I + who accused them first—and then I asked him:—if there was + anything he could say in their defense, to say it, for Chrissy's sake! 'I + will never break bread with them again,' said he,—'either Banks or + Horace. I will not eat with them, or drink with them, or speak with them + again!' Think of it! How are we to live? How are they to inhabit the same + city? He thinks I have been weak. I am weak! The only power I have is + through—the property. Banks will never marry a poor girl. But that + would be a dear-bought victory. Let her keep what faith in him she can. + No; in families, the ones who can control themselves have to give in—to + those who can't. If you argue with Christine she simply gives way, and + then she gets hysterical, and then she is ill. It's a disease. Mothers + know how their children—Christine was marked—marked with + trouble! I am thankful she has any mind at all. She needs me more than + Paul does. I cannot be parted from my power to help her—such as it + is.” + </p> + <p> + “When she is Banks Bowen's wife she will need you more than ever!” said + Moya. + </p> + <p> + “She will. I could prevent the marriage, but I am afraid to. I am afraid! + So, as the family is cut in two—in three, for I—” Mrs. + Bogardus stopped and moistened her lips again. “So—I think you and + Paul had better make your arrangements and go as soon as you can wherever + it suits you, without minding about the rest of us.” + </p> + <p> + Moya gave a little sobbing laugh. “You don't expect me to make the first + move!” + </p> + <p> + “Doesn't he say anything to you—anything at all?” + </p> + <p> + “He is too ill.” + </p> + <p> + “He is not ill!” Mrs. Bogardus denied it fiercely. “Who says he is ill? He + is starved and frozen. He is just out of the grave. You must be good to + him, Moya. Warm him, comfort him! You can give him the life he needs. Your + hands are as soft as little birds. They comfort even me. Oh, don't you + understand!” + </p> + <p> + “Of course I understand!” Moya answered, her face aflame. “But I cannot + marry Paul. He has got to marry me.” + </p> + <p> + “What nonsense that is! People say to a girl: 'You can't be too cold + before you are married or too kind after!' That does not mean you and + Paul. If you are not kind to him <i>now</i>, you will make a great + mistake.” + </p> + <p> + “He is not thinking of marriage,” said Moya. “Something weighs on him all + the time. I cannot ask him questions. If he wanted to tell me he would. + That is why I come downstairs and leave him. But he won't come down! Is it + not strange? If we could believe such things I would say a Presence came + with, him out of that place. It is with him when I find him alone. It is + in his eyes when he looks at me. It is not something past and done with, + it is here—now—in this house! <i>What</i> is it? What do <i>you</i> + believe?” + </p> + <p> + The eyes she sought to question hardened under her gaze. Here, too, was a + veil. Mrs. Bogardus sat with her hands clasped in her lap. She was + motionless, but the creaking of her silks could be heard as her bosom rose + and fell. After a moment she said: “Paul's tray is on the table in the + dining-room. Will you take it when you go up?” + </p> + <p> + Moya altered her own manner instantly. “But you?” she hesitated. “I must + not crowd you out of all your mother privileges. You have handed over + everything to me.” + </p> + <p> + “A mother's privilege is to see herself no longer needed. I can do nothing + more for my son”—her smile was hard—“except take care of his + money.” + </p> + <p> + “Paul's mother!” + </p> + <p> + “My dear, do you suppose we mind? It is a very great privilege to be + allowed to step aside when your work is done.” + </p> + <p> + “Paul's <i>mother!</i>” Moya insisted. + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus rose. “You don't remember your own mother, my dear. You have + an exaggerated idea of the—the importance of mothers. They are only + a temporary arrangement.” She put out her hands and the girl's cheek + touched hers for an instant; then she straightened herself and walked + calmly out of the room. Moya remained a little longer, afraid to follow + her. “If she would not smile! If she would do anything but smile!” + </p> + <p> + Paul was walking about his room, half an hour later, when Moya stopped + outside his door. She placed the tray on a table in the hall. The door was + opened from within. Paul had heard his mother go up before, heard her + pause at the stairs, and, after a silence, enter her own room. + </p> + <p> + “She knows that I know,” he said to himself. “That knowledge will be + always between us; we can never look each other in the face again.” To + Moya he endeavored to speak lightly. + </p> + <p> + “It sounded very gay downstairs to-night. You must have had a houseful.” + </p> + <p> + “I have been with your mother the last hour,” answered Moya, vaguely on + the defensive. Since Paul's return there had been little of the old free + intercourse in words between them, and without this outlet their mutual + consciousness became acute. Often as they saw each other during the day, + the keenest emotion attached to the first meeting of their eyes. + </p> + <p> + Paul was unnerved by his sudden recall from death to life. Its contrasts + were overwhelming to his starved senses: from the dirt and dearth and + grimy despair of his burial hutch in the snow to this softly lighted, + close-curtained room, warm and sweet with flowers; from the gaunt, + unshaven spectre of the packer and his ghostly revelations, to Moya, + meekly beautiful, her bright eyes lowered as she trailed her soft skirts + across the carpet; Moya seated opposite, silent, conscious of him in every + look and movement. Her lovely hands lay in her lap, and the thought of + holding them in his made him tremble; and when he recalled the last time + he had kissed her he grew faint. He longed to throw off this exhausting + self-restraint, but feared to betray his helpless passion which he deemed + an insult to his soul's worship of her. + </p> + <p> + And she was thinking: “Is this all it is going to mean—his coming + home—our being together? And I was almost his wife!” + </p> + <p> + “So it was my mother you were talking to in the study? I thought I heard a + man's voice.” + </p> + <p> + “It was the doctor. Your mother was not quite herself this evening. He + came in to see her, but he does not think she is ill. 'Rest and change,' + he says she needs.” + </p> + <p> + Paul gave the words a certain depth of consideration. “Are you as well as + usual, Moya?” + </p> + <p> + “Oh, I am always well,” she answered cheerlessly. “I seem to thrive on + anything—everything,” she corrected herself, and blushed. + </p> + <p> + The blush made him gasp. “You are more beautiful than ever. I had + forgotten that beauty is a physical fact. The sight of you confuses me.” + </p> + <p> + “I always told you you were morbid.” Moya's happy audacity returned. “Now, + how long are you going to sit and think about that?” + </p> + <p> + “Do I sit and think about things?” His reluctant, boyish smile, which all + women loved, captured his features for a moment. “It is very rude of me.” + </p> + <p> + “Suppose I should ask you what you are thinking about?” + </p> + <p> + “Ah! I am afraid you would say 'morbid' again.” + </p> + <p> + “Try me! You ought to let me know at once if you are going to break out in + any new form of morbidness.” + </p> + <p> + “I wish it might amuse you, but it wouldn't. Let me put you a case—seriously.” + </p> + <p> + Moya smiled. “Once we were serious—ages ago. Do you remember?” + </p> + <p> + “Do I remember!” + </p> + <p> + “Well? You are you, and I am I, still.” + </p> + <p> + “Yes; and as full of fateful surprises for each other.” + </p> + <p> + “I bar 'fateful'! That word has the true taint of morbidness.” + </p> + <p> + “But you can't 'bar' fate. Listen: this is a supposing, you know. Suppose + that an accident had happened to our leader on the way home—to your + Lieutenant Winslow, we'll say”— + </p> + <p> + “<i>My</i> lieutenant!” + </p> + <p> + “Your father's—the regiment's—Lieutenant Winslow 'of ours.' + Suppose we had brought him back in a state to need a surgeon's help; and + without a word to any one he should get up and walk out of the hospital + with his hurts not healed, and no one knew why, or where he had gone? + There would be a stir about it, would there not? And if such a poor + spectre of a bridegroom as I were allowed to join the search, no one would + think it strange, or call it a slight to his bride if the fellow went?” + </p> + <p> + “I take your case,” said Moya with a beaming look. “You want to go after + that poor man who suffered with you.” + </p> + <p> + “Who went with us to save us from our own headstrong folly, and would have + died there alone”— + </p> + <p> + “Yes; oh, yes!—before you begin to think about yourself, or me. + Because he is nobody 'of ours,' and no one seems to feel responsible, and + we go on talking and laughing just the same!” + </p> + <p> + “Do they talk of this downstairs?” + </p> + <p> + “To-night they were talking—oh, with such philosophy! But how came + you to know it?” + </p> + <p> + Paul did not answer this question. “Then”—he drew a long breath,—“then + you could bear it, dear?—the comment, even if they called it a + slight to you and a piece of quixotic lunacy? Others will not take my + case, remember.” + </p> + <p> + “What others?” + </p> + <p> + “They will say: 'Why doesn't he send a better man? He is no trailer.' It + is true. Money might find him and bring him back, but all the money in the + world could not teach him to trust his friends. There is a + misunderstanding here which is too bitter to be borne. It is hard to + explain,—the intimacy that grows up between men placed as we were. + But as soon as help reached us, the old lines were drawn. I belonged with + the officers, he with the men. We could starve together, but we could not + eat together. He accepted it—put himself on that basis at once. He + would not come up here as the guest of the Post. He is done with us + because he thinks we are done with him. And he knows that I must know his + occupation is gone. He will never guide nor pack a mule again.” + </p> + <p> + “Your mother and my father, they will understand. What do the others + matter?” + </p> + <p> + “I must tell you, dear, that I do not propose to tell them—especially + them—why I go. For I am going. I must go! There are reasons I cannot + explain.” He sighed, and looked wildly at Moya, whose smile was becoming + mechanical. “I hate the excuse, but it will have to be said that I go for + a change—for my health. My health! Great God! But it's 'orders,' + dear.” + </p> + <p> + “Your orders are my orders. You are never going anywhere again without + me,” said Moya slowly. Her smile was gone. She stood up and faced him, + pale and beautiful. He rose, too, and stooped above her, taking her hands + and gazing into her full blue eyes arched like the eyes of angels. + </p> + <p> + “I thought she was a girl! But she is a woman,” he said in a voice of + caressing wonder. “A woman, and not afraid!” + </p> + <p> + “I am afraid. I will not be left—I will not be left again! Oh, you + won't take me, even when I offer myself to you!” + </p> + <p> + “Don't—don't tempt me!” Paul caught her to him with a groan. “You + don't know me well enough to be afraid of <i>me!</i>” + </p> + <p> + “You! You will not let me know you.” + </p> + <p> + “Oh, hush, dear—hush, my darling! This isn't thinking. We must think + for our lives. I must take care of you, precious. We don't know where this + search may take us, or where it will end, or what the end will be.” He + kissed the sleeve of her dress, and put her gently from him, so that he + could look her in the eyes. She gave him her full pure gaze. + </p> + <p> + “It is the poor man again. You said he would spoil our lives.” + </p> + <p> + “He is <i>our</i> poor man. You didn't go out of your way to find him. And + your way is mine.” + </p> + <p> + “It is so heavenly to be convinced! Who taught you to see things at a + glance,—things I have toiled and bungled over and don't know now if + I am right! <i>Who</i> taught you?” + </p> + <p> + “Do you think I stood still while you were away! Oh, my heart was sifted + out by little pieces.” + </p> + <p> + “You shall sift mine. You shall tell me what to do. For I know nothing! + Not even if I may dare to take this angel at her word!” + </p> + <p> + “I knew you would not take me!” the girl whispered wildly. “But I shall + go.” + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0016" id="link2H_4_0016"> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + XVI. — THE NATURE OF AN OATH + </h2> + <p> + “Your tray! It is after ten o'clock. Your 'angel' is a bad nurse.” Moya + brought the tray and set it on a little stand beside Paul's chair. He + watched her shy, excited preparations as she moved about, conscious of his + eyes. The saucepan staggered upon the coals and they both sprang to save + the broth, and pouring it she burnt her thumb a little, and he behaved + quite like any ordinary young man. They were ecstatic to find themselves + at ease with each other once more. Moya became disrespectful to her + charge; such sweet daring looked from her eyes into his as made him + riotous with joy. + </p> + <p> + “Won't you take some with me?” He turned the cup towards her and watched + her as she sipped. + </p> + <p> + “'It was roast with fire,'” he pronounced softly and dreamily, 'because of + the dreadful pains. It was to be eaten with bitter herbs'”— + </p> + <p> + “What <i>are</i> you saying?”— + </p> + <p> + “'To remind them of their bondage.'” + </p> + <p> + “I object to your talking about bondage and bitter herbs when you are + eating aunt Annie's delicious consommé.” + </p> + <p> + He gravely sipped in turn, still with his eyes in hers. “Can you remember + what you were doing on the second of November?” + </p> + <p> + “Can I remember!” + </p> + <p> + “Yes; tell me. I have a reason for asking.” + </p> + <p> + “Tell <i>me</i> the reason first.” + </p> + <p> + “May we have a little more fire, darling? It gives me chills to think of + that day. It was the last of my wretched pot-hunting. There was nothing to + hunt for—the game had all gone down, but I did not know that. + Somewhere in the woods, a long way from the cabin, it began to occur to me + that I should not make shelter that night. A fool and his strength are + soon parted. It was a little hollow with trees all around so deep that in + the distance their trunks closed in like a wall. Snow can make a wonderful + silence in the woods. I seemed to hear the thoughts of everybody I loved + in the world outside. There had been a dullness over me for weeks. I could + not make it true that I had ever been happy—that you really loved + me. All that part of my life was a dream. Now, in that silence suddenly I + felt you! I knew that you cared. It was cruel to die so if you did love + me! It brought the 'pang and spur'! I fought the drowsiness that was + taking away my pain. I had begun to lean on it as a comfortable breast. I + woke up and tore myself away from that siren sleep. It was my darling,—her + love that saved me. Without that thought of you, I never would have + stirred again. Where were you, what were you thinking that brought you so + close to me?” + </p> + <p> + “Ah,” said Moya in a whisper. “I was in that room across the hall, alone. + They were good to me that day; they made excuses and left me to myself. In + the afternoon a box came,—from poor father,—white roses, oh, + sweet and cold as snow! I took them up to that room and forced myself to + go in. It was where my things were kept, the trunks half packed, all the + drawers and closets full. And my wedding dress laid out on the bed. We + girls used to go up there at first and look at the things, and there was + laughing and joking. Sometimes I went up alone and tried on my hats before + the glass, and thought where I should be when I wore them, and—Well! + all that stopped. I dreaded to pass the door. Everything was left just as + it was; the shutters open, the poor dress covered with a sheet on the bed. + The room was a death-chamber. I went in. I carried the roses to my dead. I + drew down the sheet and put my face in that empty dress. It was my selfish + self laid out there—the girl who knew just what she wanted and was + going to get it if she could. Happiness I dared not even pray for—only + remembrance—everlasting remembrance. That we might know each other + again when no more life was left to part us—<i>my</i> life. It + seemed long to wait, but that was my—marriage vow. I gave you all I + could, remembrance, faith till death.” + </p> + <p> + “Then you are my own!” said Paul, his face transformed. “God was our + witness. Life of my life—for life and death!” Solemnly he took a + bridegroom's kiss from her lips. + </p> + <p> + “How do <i>you</i> know that it is life that parts?” + </p> + <p> + “Speak so I can understand you!” Moya cried. “Ah, if I might! A man must + not have secrets from his wife. Secrets are destruction, don't you think?” + </p> + <p> + Moya waited in silence. + </p> + <p> + “Now we come to this bondage!” He let the words fall like a load from his + breast. “This is a hideous thing to tell you, but it will cut us apart + unless you know it. It compels me to do things.” He paused, and they heard + a door down the passage open,—the door of his mother's room. A step + came forward a few paces. Silence; it retreated, and the door closed again + stealthily. + </p> + <p> + “She has not slept,” Paul murmured. “Poor soul, poor soul! Now, in what I + am going to say, please listen to the facts, Moya dear. Try not to infer + anything from my way of putting things. I shall contradict myself, but the + facts do that. + </p> + <p> + “The—the guide—John, we will call him, had a long fever in the + woods. It would come on worse at night, and then—he talked—words, + of a shocking intimacy. They say that nothing the mind has come in contact + with under strong emotion is ever lost, no matter how long in the past. It + will return under similar excitement. This man had kept stored away in his + mind, under some such pressure, the words of a woman's message, a woman in + great distress. Over and over, as his pulse rose, countless times he would + repeat that message. I went out of the hut at night and stood outside in + the snow not to hear it, but I knew it as well as he did before we got + through. Now, this was what he said, word for word. + </p> + <p> + “'Do not blame me, my dear husband. I have held out in this place as long + as I can. Don't wait for anything. Don't worry about anything. Come back + to me with your bare hands. Come!—to your loving Emmy!' + </p> + <p> + “'Come, come!' he would shout out loud. Then in another voice he would + whisper, 'Come back to me with your bare hands!' And he would stare at his + hands and his face would grow awful.” + </p> + <p> + Moya drew a long sigh of scared attention. + </p> + <p> + “Those words were all over the cabin walls. I heard them and saw them + everywhere. There was no rest from them. I could have torn the roof down + to stop his talking, but the words it was not possible to forget. And + where was the horror of it? Was not this what we had asked, for years, to + know?” + </p> + <p> + “You need not explain to me,” said Moya, shuddering. + </p> + <p> + “Yes; but all one's meanest motives were unearthed in a place like that. + Would I have felt so with a different man? Some one less uncouth? Was it + the man himself, or his”— + </p> + <p> + “Paul, if anything could make you a snob, it would be your deadly fear of + being one!” + </p> + <p> + “Well, if they had found us then, God knows how that fight would have + ended. But I won it—when there was nothing left to fight for. I + owned him—in the grave. We owned each other and took a bashful sort + of comfort in it, after we had shuffled off the 'Mister' and 'John.' I + grew quite fond of him, when we were so near death that his English didn't + matter, or his way of eating. I thought him a very remarkable man, you + remember, when he was just material for description. He was, he is + remarkable. Most remarkable in this, he was not ashamed of his son.” + </p> + <p> + “Do please let that part alone. I want to know what he was doing, hiding + away by himself all these years? I believe he is an impostor!” + </p> + <p> + “We came to that, of course; though somehow I forgave him before he could + answer the question. In the long watch beside him I got very close to him. + It was not possible to believe him a deserter, a sneak. Can you take my + word for his answer? It was given as a death-bed confession and he is + living.” + </p> + <p> + “I would take your word for anything except yourself!” Moya did not smile, + or think what she was saying. + </p> + <p> + “That answer cleared him, in my mind, with something over to the credit of + blind, stupid heroism. He is not a clever man. But, speaking as one who + has teen face to face with the end of things, I can say that I know of no + act of his that should prevent his returning to his family—if he had + a family—not even his deserting them for twenty years. <i>If</i>, I + say! + </p> + <p> + “When the soldiers found us we were too far gone to realize the issue that + was upon us. He was the first to take it in. It was on the march home, at + night, he touched me and began speaking low in our corner of the tent. 'As + we came in here, so we go out again, and so we stay,' he said. I told him + it could not be. To suppress what I had learned would make the whole of + life a lie, a coward's lie. That knowledge belonged to my mother. I must + render it up to her. To do otherwise would be to treat her like a child + and to meddle with the purposes of God. 'No honest man robs another of his + secrets,' he said. He was very much excited. She was the only one now to + be considered—and what did I know about God's purposes? He refused + to take my scruples into consideration, except such as concerned her. But, + after a long argument, very painful, weak as we were and whispering in the + dark, he yielded this much. If I were bent on digging up the dead, as he + called it, it must be done in such a way as to leave her free. Free she + was in law, and she must be given a chance to claim her freedom without + talk or publicity. Absolute secrecy he demanded of me in the mean time. I + begged him to see how unfair it was to her to bring her face to face with + such a discovery without one word of preparation, of excuse for him. She + would condemn him on the very fact of his being alive. So she would, he + said, if she were going to judge him; not if she felt towards him as—as + a wife feels to her husband. It was that he wanted to know. It was that or + nothing he would have from her. 'Bring me face to face with her alone, and + as sudden as you like. If she knows me, I am the man. And if she wants me + back, she will know me—and that way I'll come and no other way.' Was + not that wonderful? A gentleman could hardly have improved on that. + Whatever feeling he might be supposed to have towards her in the matter we + could never touch upon. But I think he had his hopes. That decision was + hanging over us—and I trembled for her. Day before yesterday, was + it, I persuaded her to see the sick guide. She wondered why I was faint as + she kissed me good-by. I ought to have prepared her. It was a horrible + snare. And yet he meant it all in delicacy, a passionate consideration for + her. Poor fool. How could I prepare <i>him!</i> How could he keep pace + with the changes in her! After all, it is externals that make us,—habits, + clothes. Great God! Things you could not speak of to a naked soul like + him. But he would have it 'straight,' he said—and straight he got + it. And he is gone; broke away like an animal out of a trap. And I am + going to find him, to see at least that he has a roof over his head. God + knows, he may not die for years!” + </p> + <p> + “She has got years before her too.” + </p> + <p> + “She!—What am I saying! We have plunged into those damnable + inferences and I haven't given you the facts. Wait. I shall contradict all + this in a moment. I thought, she must have done this for her children. She + must be given another chance. And I approached the thing on my very knees—not + to let her know that I knew, only to hint that I was not unprepared, had + guessed—could meet it, and help her to meet the problems it would + bring into our lives. Help her! She stood and faced me as if I had + insulted her. 'I have been your father's widow for twenty-two years. If + that fact is not sacred to you, it is to me. Never dare to speak of this + to me again!'” + </p> + <p> + “Ah,” said Moya in a long-drawn sigh, “then she did not”— + </p> + <p> + “Oh, she did, explicitly! For I went on to speak of it. It was my last + chance. I asked her how she—we—could possibly go through with + it; how with this knowledge between us we could look each other in the + face—and go on living. + </p> + <p> + “'Put this hallucination out of your mind,' she said. 'That man and I are + strangers.'” + </p> + <p> + “Was that—would you call that a lie?” asked Moya fearfully. + </p> + <p> + “You can see your answer in her face. I do not say that hers was the first + lie. It must always be foolish, I think, to evade the facts of life as we + make them for ourselves. He refused to meet his facts, from the noblest + motives;—but now I'm tangling you all up again! Rest your head here, + darling. This is such a business! It is a pity I cannot tell you his whole + story. Half the meaning of all this is lost. But—here is a solemn + declaration in writing, signed John Hagar, in which this man we are + speaking of says that Adam Bogardus was his partner, who died in the woods + and was buried by his hand; that he knew his story, all the scenes and + circumstances of his life in many a long talk they had together, as well + as he knew his own. In his delirium he must have confused himself with his + old partner, and half in dreams, he said, half in the crazy satisfaction + of pretending to himself he had a son, he allowed the delusion to go on; + saw it work upon me, and half feared it, half encouraged it. Afterwards he + was frightened at the thought of meeting my mother, who would know him for + an impostor. His seeming scruples were fear of exposure, not consideration + for her. This was why he guarded their interview so carefully. 'No harm's + been done,' he says, 'if you'll act now like a sensible man. I'll be + disappointed in you if you make your mother any trouble about this. You've + treated me as square as any man could treat another. Remember, I say so, + and think as kindly as you can of a harmless, loony old impostor'—and + he signs himself 'John Hagar,'—which shows again how one lie leads + to another. We go to find 'John Hagar.'” + </p> + <p> + “Have you shown your mother this letter? You have not? Paul, you will not + rob her of her just defense!” + </p> + <p> + “I will not heap coals of fire on her head! This letter simply completes + his renunciation, and he meant it for her defense. But when a man signs + himself 'John Hagar' in the handwriting of my father, it shows that + somebody is not telling the truth. I used to pore over the old farm + records in my father's hand at Stone Ridge in the old account books stowed + away in places where a boy loves to poke and pry. I know it as well as I + know yours. Do you suppose she would not know it? When a man writes as few + letters as he does, the handwriting does not change.” Paul laid the letter + upon the coals. “It is the only witness against her, but it loses the + case.” + </p> + <p> + “She never could have loved him. I never believed she did!” said Moya. + </p> + <p> + “She thinks she can live out this deep-down, deliberate—But it will + kill her, Moya. Her life is ended from this on. How could I have driven + her to that excruciating choice! I ought to have listened to him + altogether or not at all. There is a hell for meddlers, and the ones who + meddle for conscience' sake are the deepest damned, I think.” + </p> + <p> + Moya came and wreathed her arm in his, and they paced the room in silence. + At length she said, “If we go to find John Hagar, shall we not be meddling + again? A man who respects a woman's freedom must love his own. It is the + last thing left him. Don't hunt him down. I believe nothing could hurt him + now like seeing you again.” + </p> + <p> + “He shall not see me unless he wants to, but he shall know where I stand + on this question of the Impostor. It shall be managed so that even he can + see I am protecting her. No, call himself what he will, the tie between + him and me is another of those facts.” + </p> + <p> + “But do you love him, Paul?” + </p> + <p> + “Oh—I cannot forget him! He is—just as he used to be—'poor + father out there in the cold.' We must find him and comfort him somehow.” + </p> + <p> + “For our own peace of mind? Forgive me for arguing when everything is so + difficult. But he is a man—a brave man who would rather be forever + out in the cold than be a burden. Do not rob him of his right to <i>be</i> + John Hagar if he wants to, for the sake of those he loves. You do not tell + me it was love, but I am sure it was, in some mistaken way, that drove him + into exile. Only love as pure as his can be our excuse for dragging him + back. He did not want shelter and comfort from her. Only one thing. Have + we got that to give him?” + </p> + <p> + “Well then, I go for my own sake—it is a physical necessity; and I + go for hers. She has put it out of her own power to help him. It will ease + her a little to know I am trying to reach him in his forlorn disguise.” + </p> + <p> + “But you were not going to tell her?” + </p> + <p> + “In words, no. But she will understand. There is a strange clairvoyance + between us, as if we were accomplices in a crime!” + </p> + <p> + Moya reflected silently. This search which Paul had set his heart upon + would equally work his own cure, she saw. Nor could she now imagine for + themselves any lover's paradise inseparable from this moral tragedy, which + she saw would be fibre of their fibre, life of their life. A family is an + organism; one part may think to deny or defy another, but with strange + pains the subtle union exerts itself; distance cannot break the thread. + </p> + <p> + They kissed each other solemnly like little children on the eve of a long + journey full of awed expectancy. + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus stood holding her door ajar as Moya passed on her way + downstairs. “You are very late,” she uttered hoarsely. “Is nothing settled + yet?” + </p> + <p> + “Everything!” Moya hesitated and forced a smile, “everything but where we + shall go. We will start—and decide afterwards.” + </p> + <p> + “You go together? That is right. Moya, you have a genius for happiness!” + </p> + <p> + “I wish I had a genius for making people sleep who lie awake hours in the + night thinking about other people!” + </p> + <p> + “If you mean me, people of my age need very little sleep.” + </p> + <p> + “May I kiss you good-night, Paul's mother?” + </p> + <p> + “You may kiss me because I am Paul's mother, not because I do not sleep.” + </p> + <p> + Moya's lips touched a cheek as white and almost as cold as the frosted + window-panes through which the moon was glimmering. She thought of the icy + roses on her wedding dress. + </p> + <p> + Downstairs her father was smoking his bedtime cigar. Mrs. Creve, very + sleepy and cosy and flushed, leaned over the smouldering bed of coals. She + held out her plump, soft hand to Moya. + </p> + <p> + “Come here and be scolded! We have been scolding you steadily for the last + hour.” + </p> + <p> + “If you want that young man to get his strength back, you'd better not + keep him up talking half the night,” the colonel growled softly. “Do you + see what time it is?” + </p> + <p> + Moya knelt and leaned her head against her father. She reached one hand to + Mrs. Creve. They did not speak again till her weak moment had passed. “It + will be very soon,” she said, pressing the warm hand that stroked her own. + “You will help me pack, aunt Annie; and then you'll stay—with + father? I know you are glad to have me out of the way at last!” + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0017" id="link2H_4_0017"> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + XVII. — THE HIDDEN TRAIL + </h2> + <p> + Because they had set forth on a grim and sorrowful quest, it need not be + supposed that Paul and Moya were a pair of sorrowful pilgrims. It was + their wedding journey. At the outset Moya had said: “We are doing the best + we know. For what we don't know, let us leave it and not brood.” + </p> + <p> + They did not enter at once upon the more eccentric stages of the search. + They went by way of the Great Northern to Portland, descending from snow + to roses and drenching rains. At Pendleton, which is at the junction of + three great roads, Paul sent tracers out through express agents and train + officials along the remotest slender feeders of these lines. Through the + same agents it was made known that for any service rendered or expense + incurred on behalf of the person described, his friends would hold + themselves gratefully responsible. + </p> + <p> + At Portland, Paul searched the steamer lists and left confidential orders + in the different transportation offices; and Moya wrote to his mother—a + woman's letter, every page shining with happiness and as free from + apparent forethought as a running brook. + </p> + <p> + They returned by the Great Northern and Lake Coeur d'Alene, stopping over + at Fort Sherman to visit Mrs. Creve, who was giddy with joy over the + wholesome change in Paul. She, too, wrote a woman's letter concerning that + visit, to the colonel, which cleared a crowd of shadows from his lonely + hearth. + </p> + <p> + Thence again to Pendleton came the seekers, and Paul gathered in his + lines, but found nothing; so cast them forth again. But through all these + distant elaborations of the search, in his own mind he saw the old man + creeping away by some near, familiar trail and lying hid in some warm + valley in the hills, his prison and his home. + </p> + <p> + It was now the last week in March. The travelers' bags were in the office, + the carriage at the door, when a letter—pigeon-holed and forgotten + since received some three weeks before—was put into Paul's hand. + </p> + <p> + I run up against your ad. in the Silver City Times [the communication + began]. If you haven't found your man yet, maybe I can put you onto the + right lead. I'm driving a jerky on the road from Mountain Home to Oriana, + but me and the old man we don't jibe any too well. I've got a sort of + disgust on me. Think I'll quit soon and go to mining. Jimmy Breen he runs + the Ferry, he can tell you all I know. Fifty miles from Mountain Home good + road can make it in one day. Yours Respecfully, + </p> + <h3> + J. STRATTON. + </h3> + <p> + It was in following up this belated clue that the pilgrims had come to the + Ferry inn, crossing by team from valley to valley, cutting off a great + bend of the Oregon Short Line as it traverses the Snake River desert; + those bare high plains escarped with basalt bluffs that open every fifty + miles or so to let a road crawl down to some little rope-ferry supported + by sheep-herders, ditch contractors, miners, emigrants, ranchmen, all the + wild industries of a country in the dawn of enterprise. + </p> + <p> + Business at the Ferry had shrunk since the railroad went through. The + house-staff consisted of Jimmy Breen, a Chinese cook of the bony, tartar + breed, sundry dogs, and a large bachelor cat that mooned about the empty + piazzas. In a young farming country, hungry for capital, Jimmy could not + do a cash business, but everything was grist that came to his mill; and he + was quick to distinguish the perennial dead beat from a genuine case of + hard luck. + </p> + <p> + “That's a good axe ye have there,” pointing suggestively to a new one + sticking out of the rear baggage of an emigrant outfit. “Ye better l'ave + that with me for the dollar that's owing me. If ye have money to buy new + axes ye can't be broke entirely.” Or: “Slip the halter on that calf behind + there. The mother hasn't enough to keep it alive. There's har'ly a + dollar's wort' of hide on its bones, but I'll take it to save it droppin' + on the road.” Or, he would try sarcasm: “Well, we'll be shuttin' her down + in the spring. Then ye can go round be Walter's Ferry and see if they'll + trust ye there.” Or: “Why wasn't ye workin' on the Ditch last winter? + Settin' smokin' your poipe in the tules, the wife and young ones packin' + sagebrush to kape ye warm!” + </p> + <p> + On the morning after their distinguished arrival, Jimmy's guests came down + late to a devastated breakfast-table. Little heaps of crumbs here and + there showed where earlier appetites had had their destined hour and gone + their way. At an impartial distance from the top and the foot of the table + stood the familiar group of sauce and pickle bottles, every brand dear to + the cowboy, including the “surrup-jug” adhering to its saucer. There was a + fresh-gathered bunch of wild phlox by Moya's plate in a tumbler printed + round the edge with impressions of a large moist male thumb. + </p> + <p> + “Catchee plenty,” the Chinaman grinned, pointing to the plain outside + where the pale sage-brush quivered stiffly in the wind. “Bymbye plenty + come. Pretty col' now.” + </p> + <p> + “You'll be getting a large hump on yourself, Han, me boy. 'T is a cash + crowd we have here—and a lady, by me sowl!” Thus Jimmy exhorted his + household. Times were looking up. They would be a summer resort before the + Ditch went through; it should be mentioned in the Ditch company's + prospectus. Jimmy had put his savings into land-office fees and had a + hopeful interest in the Ditch. + </p> + <p> + A spur in the head is worth two in the heel. Without a word from “the + boss” Han had found time to shave and powder and polish his brown forehead + and put on his whitest raiment over his baggiest trousers. There was loud + panic among the fowls in the corral. The cat had disappeared; the jealous + dogs hung about the doors and were pushed out of the way by friends of + other days. + </p> + <p> + Seated by the office fire, Paul was conferring with Jimmy, who was happy + with a fresh pipe and a long story to tell to a patient and paying + listener. He rubbed the red curls back from his shining forehead, took the + pipe from his teeth, and guided a puff of smoke away from his auditor. + </p> + <p> + “I seen him settin' over there on his blankets,”—he pointed with his + pipe to the opposite shore plainly visible through the office windows,—“but + he niver hailed me, so I knowed he was broke. Some, whin they're broke, + they holler all the louder. Ye would think they had an appointment wit' + the Governor and he sint his car'iage to meet them. But he was as humble, + he was, as a yaller dog.—Out! Git out from here—the pack of + yez! Han, shut the dure an' drive thim bloody curs off the piazzy. They're + trackin' up the whole place.—As I was sayin', sor, there he stayed + hunched up in the wind, waitin' on the chanst of a team comin', and I seen + he was an ould daddy. I stud the sight of him as long as I cud, me comin' + and goin'. He fair wore me out. So I tuk the boat over for 'im. One of his + arrums he couldn't lift from the shoulder, and I give him a h'ist wit' his + bundle. Faith, it was light! 'Twinty years a-getherin',' he cackles, + slappin' it. 'Ye've had harrud luck,' I says. ''T is not much of a sheaf + ye are packin' home.' 'That's as ye look at it,' he says. + </p> + <p> + “I axed him what way was he goin'. He was thinking to get a lift as far as + Oriana, if the stages was runnin' on that road. 'Then ye 'll have to bide + here till morning,' I says, 'for ye must have met the stage goin' the + other way.' 'I met nothing,' says he; 'I come be way of the bluffs,'—which + is a strange way for one man travelin' afoot. + </p> + <p> + “The grub was on the table, and I says, 'Sit by and fill yourself up.' His + cheeks was fallin' in wit' the hunger. With that his poor ould eye begun + to water. 'Twas one weak eye he had that was weepin' all the time. 'I've + got out of the habit of reg'lar aitin',' he says. 'It don't take much to + kape me goin'.' 'Niver desave yourself, sor! 'T is betther feed three + hungry men than wan “no occasion.”' His appetite it grew on him wit' every + mouthful. There was a boundless emptiness to him. He lay there on the + bench and slep' the rest of the evening, and I left him there wit' a big + fire at night. And the next day at noon we h'isted him up beside of Joe + Stratton. A rip-snorter of a wind was blowin' off the Silver City peaks. + His face was drawed like a winter apple, but he wint off happy. I think he + was warm inside of himself.” + </p> + <p> + “Did you ask him his name?” + </p> + <p> + “Sure. Why not? John Treagar he called himself.” + </p> + <p> + “Treagar? Hagar, you mean!” + </p> + <p> + “It was Treagar he said.” + </p> + <p> + “John Hagar is the man I am looking for.” + </p> + <p> + “Treagar—Hagar? 'T is comin' pretty close to it.” + </p> + <p> + “About what height and build was he?” + </p> + <p> + “He was not to say a tall man; and he wasn't so turrible short neither. + His back was as round as a Bible. A kind of pepper and saltish beard he + had, and his hair was blacker than his beard but white in streaks.” + </p> + <p> + “A <i>dark</i> man, was he?” + </p> + <p> + “He would be a <i>dark</i> man if he was younger.” + </p> + <p> + “The man I want is blue-eyed.” + </p> + <p> + “His eyes was blue—a kind of washed-out gray that maybe was blue + wanst; and one of them always weepin' wit' the cold.” + </p> + <p> + “And light brown hair mixed with gray, like sand and ashes—mostly + ashes; and a thin straggling beard, thinner on the cheeks? A high head and + a tall stooping figure—six feet at least; hands with large joints + and a habit of picking at them when”— + </p> + <p> + “Ye are goin' too fast for me now, sor. He was not that description of a + man, nayther the height nor the hair of him. Sure't is a pity for ye + comin' this far, and him not the man at all. Faith, I wish I was the man + meself! I wonder at Joe Stratton anyhow! He's a very hasty man, is Joe. He + jumps in wit' both feet, so he does. I could have told ye that.” + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <p> + Moya, always helplessly natural, and now very tired as well, when Paul + described with his usual gravity this anti-climax, fell below all the + dignities at once in a burst of childish giggling. Paul looked on with an + embarrassed smile, like a puzzled affectionate dog at the incomprehensible + mirth of humans. Paul was certainly deficient in humor and therefore in + breadth. But what woman ever loved her lover the less for having + discovered his limitations? Humor runs in families of the intenser + cultivation. The son of the soil remains serious in the face of life's and + nature's ironies. + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0018" id="link2H_4_0018"> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + XVIII. — THE STAR IN THE EAST + </h2> + <p> + So the search paused, while the searchers rested and revised their plans. + Spring opened in the valley as if for them alone. There were mornings + “proud and sweet,” when the humblest imagination could have pictured + Aurora and her train in the jocund clouds that trooped along the sky,—wind-built + processions which the wind dispersed. Wild flowers spread so fast they + might have been spilled from the rainbow scarf of Iris fleeting overhead. + The river was in flood, digging its elbows into its muddy banks. The + willow and wild-rose thickets stooped and washed their spring garments in + its tide. + </p> + <p> + Primeval life and love were all around them. Meadow larks flung their + brief jets of song into the sunlight; the copses rustled with wings; + wood-doves cooed from the warm sunny hollows, and the soft booming of + their throaty call was like a beating in the air,—the pulse of + spring. They had found their Garden. Humanity in the valley passed before + them in forms as interesting and as alien as the brother beasts to Adam: + the handsome driver of the jerky, Joe Stratton's successor, who sat at + dinner opposite and combed his flowing mustache with his fork in a lazy, + dandified way; the darkened faces of sheep-herders enameled by sun and + wind, their hair like the winter coats of animals; the slow-eyed farmers + with the appetites of horses; the spring recruits for the ranks of labor + footing it to distant ranches, each with his back-load of bedding, and the + dust of three counties on his garments. + </p> + <p> + The sweet forces of Nature shut out, for a season, Paul's <i>cri du coeur</i>. + One may keep a chamber sacred to one's sadder obligations and yet the + house be filled with joy. Further ramifications of the search were mapped + out with Jimmy's indifferent assistance. For good reasons of his own, + Jimmy did little to encourage an early start. He would explain that his + maps were of ancient date and full of misinformation as to stage routes. + “See that now! The stages was pulled off that line five year ago, on + account of the railroad cuttin' in on them. Ye couldn't make it wid'out ye + took a camp outfit. There's ne'er a station left, and when ye come to it, + it's ruins ye'll find. A chimbly and a few rails, if the mule-skinners + hasn't burned them. 'Tis a country very devoid of fuel; sagebrush and + grease-wood, and a wind, bedad! that blows the grass-seeds into the next + county.” + </p> + <p> + When these camping-trips were proposed to Moya, she hesitated and + responded languidly; but when Paul suggested leaving her even for a day, + her fears fluttered across his path and wiled him another way. Vaguely he + felt that she was unlike herself—less buoyant, though often + restless; and sometimes he fancied she was pale underneath her sun-burned + color like that of rose-hips in October. Various causes kept him inert, + while strength mounted in his veins, and life seemed made for the pure joy + of living. + </p> + <p> + The moon of May in that valley is the moon of roses, for the heats once + due come on apace. The young people gave up their all-day horseback rides + and took morning walks instead, following the shore-paths lazily to shaded + coverts dedicated to those happy silences which it takes two to make. Or, + they climbed the bluffs and gazed at the impenetrable vast horizon, and + thought perhaps of their errand with that pang of self-reproach which, + when shared, becomes a subtler form of self-indulgence. + </p> + <p> + But at night, all the teeming life of the plain rushed up into the sky and + blazed there in a million friendly stars. After the languor of the sleepy + afternoons, it was like a fresh awakening—the dawn of those white + May nights. The wide plain stirred softly through all its miles of sage. + The river's cadenced roar paused beyond the bend and outbroke again. All + that was eerie and furtive in the wild dark found a curdling voice in the + coyote's hunting-call. + </p> + <p> + In a hollow concealed by sage, not ten minutes' walk from the Ferry inn, + unknown to the map-maker and innocent of all use, lay a perfect floor for + evening pacing with one's eyes upon the stars. It was the death mask of an + ancient lake, done in purest alkali silt, and needing only the shadows + cast by a low moon to make the illusion almost unbelievable. Slow + precipitation, season after season, as the water dried, had left the lake + bed smooth as a cast in plaster. Subsequent warpings had lifted the alkali + crust into thin-lipped wavelets. But once upon the floor itself the + resemblance to water vanished. The warpings and Grumblings took the shape + of earth as made by water and baked by fire. Moya compared it to a bit of + the dead moon fallen to show us what we are coming to. They paced it + soft-footed in tennis shoes lest they should crumble its talc-like + whiteness. But they read no horoscopes, for they were shy of the future in + speaking to each other,—and they made no plans. + </p> + <p> + One evening Moya had said to Paul: “I can understand your mother so much + better now that I am a wife. I think most women have a tendency towards + the state of being <i>un</i>married. And if one had—children, it + would increase upon one very fast. A widow and a mother—for twenty + years. How could she be a wife again?” + </p> + <p> + Paul made no reply to this speech which long continued to haunt him; + especially as Moya wrote more frequently to his mother and did not offer + to show him her letters. In their evening walks she seemed distrait, and + during the day more restless. + </p> + <p> + One night of their nightly pacings she stopped and stood long, her head + thrown back, her eyes fixed upon the dizzy star-deeps. Paul waited a step + behind her, touching her shoulders with his hands. Suddenly she reeled and + sank backwards into his arms. He held her, watching her lovely face grow + whiter; her eyelids closed. She breathed slowly, leaning her whole weight + upon him. + </p> + <p> + Coming to herself, she smiled and said it was nothing. She had been that + way before. “But—we must go home. We must have a home—somewhere. + I want to see your mother. Paul, be good to her—forgive her—for + my sake!” + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0019" id="link2H_4_0019"> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + XIX. — PILGRIMS AND STRANGERS + </h2> + <p> + Aunt Polly Lewis was disappointed in the latest of her beneficiaries. It + was nine years since her husband had locked up his savings in the Mud + Springs ranch, a neglected little health-plant at the mouth of the + Bruneau. If you were troubled with rheumatism, or a crick in the back, or + your “pancrees” didn't act or your blood was “out o' fix, why, you'd + better go up to Looanders' for a spell and soak yourself in that blue mud + and let aunt Polly diet ye and dost ye with yerb tea.” + </p> + <p> + When Leander courted aunt Polly in the interests of his sanitarium, she + was reputed the best nurse in Ada County. The widow—by desertion—of + a notorious quack doctor of those parts: it was an open question whether + his medicine had killed or her nursing had cured the greater number of + confiding sick folk. Leander drove fifty miles to catechise this notable + woman, and finding her sound on the theory of packs hot and cold, and + skilled in the practice of rubbing,—and having made the incidental + discovery that she was a person not without magnetism,—he decided on + the spot to add her to the other attractions of Mud Springs ranch; and she + drove home with him next day, her trunk in the back of his wagon. + </p> + <p> + The place was no sinecure. Bricks without straw were a child's pastime to + the cures aunt Polly and the Springs effected without a pretense to the + comforts of life in health, to say nothing of sickness. Modern + conveniences are costly, and how are you to get the facilities for “pay + patients” when you have no patients that pay! Prosperity had overlooked + the Bruneau, or had made false starts there, through detrimental schemes + that gave the valley a bad name with investors. The railroad was still + fifty miles away, and the invalid public would not seek life itself, in + these days of luxurious travel, at the cost of a twelve hours' stage-ride. + However, as long as the couple had a roof over their heads and the Springs + continued to plop and vomit their strange, chameleon-colored slime, + Leander would continue to bring home the sick and the suffering for Polly + and the Springs to practice on. Health became his hobby, and in time, with + isolation thrown in, it began to invade his common sense. He tried in + succession all the diet fads of the day and wound up a convert to the + “Ralston” school of eating. Aunt Polly had clung a little longer to the + flesh-pots, but the charms of a system that abolished half the labor of + cooking prevailed with her at last, and in the end she kept a sharper eye + upon Leander at mealtime than ever he had upon her. + </p> + <p> + The ignorant gorgings of their neighbors were a head-shaking and a warning + to them, and more than once Leander's person was in jeopardy through his + zealous but unappreciated concern for the brother who eats in darkness. + </p> + <p> + He had started out one winter morning from Bisuka, a virtuous man. His + team had breakfasted, but not he. A Ralstonite does not load up his + stomach at dawn after the manner of cattle, and such pious substitutes for + a cup of coffee as are permitted the faithful cannot always be had for a + price. At Indian Creek he hauled up to water his team, and to make for + himself a cinnamon-colored decoction by boiling in hot water a preparation + of parched grains which he carried with him. This he accomplished in an + angle of the old corral fence out of the wind. There is no comfort nor + even virtue in eating cold dust with one's sandwiches. Leander sunk his + great white tushes through the thick slices of whole-wheat bread and + tasted the paste of peanut meal with which they were spread. He ate + standing and slapped his leg to warm his driving hand. + </p> + <p> + A flutter of something colored, as a garment, caught his eye, directing it + to the shape of a man, rolled in an old blue blanket, lying motionless in + a corner of the tumble-down wall. “Drunk, drunk as a hog!” pronounced + Leander. For no man in command of himself would lie down to sleep in such + a place. As if to refute this accusation, the wind turned a corner of the + blanket quietly off a white face with closed eyelids,—an old, worn, + gentle face, appealing in its homeliness, though stamped now with the + dignity of death. Leander knelt and handled the body tenderly. It was long + before he satisfied himself that life was still there. Another case for + Polly and the Springs. A man worth saving, if Leander knew a man; one of + the trustful, trustworthy sort. His heart went out to him on the instant + as to a friend from home. + </p> + <p> + It was closing in for dusk when he reached the Ferry. Jimmy was away, and + Han, in high dudgeon, brought the boat over in answer to Leander's hail. + He had grouse to dress for supper, inconsiderately flung in upon him at + the last moment by the stage, four hours late. + </p> + <p> + “Huh! Why you no come one hour ago? All time 'Hullo, hullo'! Je' Cli'! me + no dam felly-man—me dam cook! Too much man say 'Hullo'!” + </p> + <p> + The prospect was not good for help at the Ferry inn, so, putting his trust + in Polly and the Springs, Leander pushed on up the valley. + </p> + <p> + When Aunt Polly's patients were of the right sort, they stayed on after + their recovery and helped Leander with the ranch work. But for the most + part they “hit the trail” again as soon as their ills were healed, not + forgetting to advertise the Springs to other patients of their own class. + The only limit to this unenviable popularity was the size of the house. + Leander saw no present advantage in building. + </p> + <p> + But in case they ever did build—and the time was surely coming!—here + was the very person they had been looking for. Cast your bread upon the + waters. The winter's bread and care and shelter so ungrudgingly bestowed + had returned to them many-fold in the comfortable sense of dependence and + unity they felt in this last beneficiary, the old man of Indian Creek whom + they called “Uncle John.” + </p> + <p> + “The kindest old creetur' ever lived! Some forgitful, but everybody's + liable to forgit. Only tell him one thing at once, and don't confuse him, + and he'll git through an amazin' sight of chores in a day.” + </p> + <p> + “Just the very one we'll want to wait on the men patients,” Aunt Polly + chimed in. “He can carry up meals and keep the bathrooms clean, and wash + out the towels, and he's the best hand with poultry. He takes such good + care of the old hens they're re'lly ashamed not to lay!” + </p> + <p> + It was spring again; old hopes were putting forth new leaves. Leander had + heard of a capitalist in the valley; a young one, too, more prone to + enthusiasm if shown the right thing. + </p> + <p> + “I'm going down to Jimmy's to fetch them up here!” Leander announced. + </p> + <p> + “Are there two of them?” + </p> + <p> + “He has brought his wife out with him. They are a young couple. He's the + only son of a rich widow in New York, and Jimmy says they've got money to + burn. Jimmy don't take much stock in this 'ere 'wounded guide' story—thinks + it's more or less of a blind. He's feeling around for a good investment—desert + land or mining claims. Jimmy thinks he represents big interests back + East.” + </p> + <p> + Aunt Polly considered, and the corners of her mouth moistened as she + thought of the dinner she would snatch from the jaws of the system on the + day these young strangers should visit the ranch. + </p> + <p> + “By Gum!” Leander shouted. “I wonder if Uncle John wouldn't know something + about the party they're advertising for. That'd be the way to find out if + they're really on the scent. I'll take him down with me—that's what + I'll <i>do</i>—and let him have a talk with the young man himself. + It'll make a good opening. Are you listening, Polly?” She was not. “I wish + you'd git him to fix himself up a little. Layout one o' my clean shirts + for him, and I'll take him down with me day after to-morrow.” + </p> + <p> + “I'll have a fresh churning to-morrow,” Aunt Polly mused. “You can take a + little pat of it with you. I won't put no salt in it, and I'll send along + a glass or two of my wild strawberry jam. It takes an awful time to pick + the berries, but I guess it'll be appreciated after the table Jimmy sets. + I don't believe Jimmy'll be offended?” + </p> + <p> + “Bogardus is their name,” continued Leander. “Mr. and Mrs. Bogardus, from + New York. Jimmy's got it down in his hotel book and he's showing it to + everybody. Jimmy's reel childish about it. I tell him one swallow don't + make a summer.” + </p> + <p> + Uncle John had come into the room and sat listening, while a yellow pallor + crept over his forehead and cheeks. He moved to get up once, and then sat + down again weakly. + </p> + <p> + “What's the matter, Uncle?” Aunt Polly eyed him sharply. “You been out + there chopping wood too long in this hot sun. What did I tell you?” + </p> + <p> + She cleared the decks for action. Paler and paler the old man grew. He was + not able to withstand her vigorous sympathies. She had him tucked up on + the calico lounge and his shoes off and a hot iron at his feet; but while + she was hurrying up the kettle to make him a drink of something hot, he + rose and slipped up the outside stairs to his bedroom in the attic. There + he seated himself on the side of his neat bed which he always made himself + camp fashion,—the blankets folded lengthwise with just room for one + quiet sleeper to crawl inside; and there he sat, opening and clinching his + hands, a deep perplexity upon his features. + </p> + <p> + Aunt Polly called to him and began to read the riot act, but Leander said: + “Let him be! He gits tired o' being fussed over. You're at him about + something or other the whole blessed time.” + </p> + <p> + “Well, I have to! My gracious! He'd forgit to come in to his meals if I + didn't keep him on my mind.” + </p> + <p> + “It just strikes me—what am I going to call him when I introduce him + to those folks? Did he ever tell you what his last name is?” + </p> + <p> + “I wouldn't be surprised,” Aunt Polly lowered her voice, “if he couldn't + remember it himself! I've heard of such cases. Whenever I try to draw him + out to talk about himself and what happened to him before you found him, + it breaks him all up; seemingly gives him a back-set every time. He sort + of slinks into himself in that queer, lost way—just like he was when + he first come to.” + </p> + <p> + “He's had a powerful jar to his constitution, and his mind is taking a + rest.” Leander was fond of a diagnosis. “There wasn't enough life left in + him to keep his faculties and his bod'ly organs all a-going at once. The + upper story's to let.” + </p> + <p> + “I wish you'd go upstairs, and see what he is doing up there.” + </p> + <p> + “Aw, no! Let him be. He likes to go off by himself and do his thinking. I + notice it rattles him to be talked to much. He sets out there on the + choppin'-block, looking at the bluffs—ever notice? He looks and + don't see nothin', and his lips keep moving like he was learning a + spellin'-lesson. If I speak to him sharp, he hauls himself together and + smiles uneasy, but he don't know what I said. I tell you he's waking up; + coming to his memories, and trying to sort 'em out.” + </p> + <p> + “That's just what <i>I</i> say,” Aunt Polly retorted, “but he's got to eat + his meals. He can't live on memories.” + </p> + <p> + Uncle John was restless that evening, and appeared to be excited. He + waited upon Aunt Polly after supper with a feverish eagerness to be of + use. When all was in order for bedtime, and Leander rose to wind the + clock, he spoke. It was getting about time to roll up his blankets and + pull out, he said. Leander felt for the ledge where the clock-key + belonged, and made no answer. + </p> + <p> + “I was saying—I guess it's about time for me to be moving on. The + grass is starting”— + </p> + <p> + “Are you cal'latin' to live on grass?” Leander drawled with cutting irony. + “Gettin' tired of the old woman's cooking? Well, she ain't much of a + cook!” + </p> + <p> + Uncle John remained silent, working at his hands. His mouth, trembled + under his thin straggling beard. “I never was better treated in my life, + and you know it. It ain't handsome of you, Lewis, to talk that way!” + </p> + <p> + “He don't mean nothing, Uncle John! What makes you so foolish, Looander! + He just wants you to know there's no begrudgers around here. You're + welcome, and more than welcome, to settle down and camp right along with + us.” + </p> + <p> + “Winter and summer!” Leander put in, “if you're satisfied. There's nobody + in a hurry to see the last of ye.” + </p> + <p> + Uncle John's mild but determined resistance was a keen disappointment to + his friends. Leander thought himself offended. “What fly's stung you, + anyhow! Heard from any of your folks lately?” + </p> + <p> + The old man smiled. + </p> + <p> + “Got any money salted down that needs turning?” + </p> + <p> + “Looander! Quit teasing of him!” + </p> + <p> + “Let him have his fun, ma'am. It's all he's likely to get out of me. I + have got a little money,” he pursued. “'T would be an insult to name it in + the same breath with what you've done for me. I'd like to leave it here, + though. You could pass it on. You'll have chances enough. 'T ain't likely + I'll be the last one you'll take in and do for, and never git nothing out + of it in return.” + </p> + <p> + There was a mild sensation, as the speaker, fumbling in his loose + trousers, appeared to be seeking for that money. Aunt Polly's eyes flamed + indignation behind her tears. She was a foolish, warm-hearted creature, + and her eyes watered on the least excuse. + </p> + <p> + “Looander, you shouldn't have taunted him,” she admonished her husband, + who felt he had been a little rough. + </p> + <p> + “Look here, Uncle John, d'you ever know anybody who wasn't by way of + needing help some time in their lives? We don't ask any one who comes + here”— + </p> + <p> + “He didn't come!” Aunt Polly corrected. + </p> + <p> + “Well, who was brought, then! We don't ask for their character, nor their + private history, nor their bank account. I don't know but you're the first + one for years I've ever took a real personal shine to, and we've h'isted a + good many up them stairs that wasn't able to walk much further. I'd like + you to stay as a favor to us, dang it!” + </p> + <p> + Leander delivered this invitation as if it were a threat. His straight-cut + mustache stiffened and projected itself by the pressure of his big lips; + his dark red throat showed as many obstinate creases as an old + snapping-turtle's. + </p> + <p> + “I'm much obliged to you both. I want you to remember that. We—I—I'll + talk with ye in the morning.” + </p> + <p> + “That means he's going all the same,” said Leander, after Uncle John had + closed the outside door. + </p> + <p> + Sure enough, next morning he had made up his little pack, oiled his boots, + and by breakfast-time was ready for the road. They argued the point long + and fiercely with him whether he should set out on foot or wait a day and + ride with Leander to the Ferry. It was not supposed he could be thinking + of any other road. By to-morrow, if he would but wait, Aunt Polly would + have comfortably outfitted him after the custom of the house; given his + clothes a final “going over” to see everything taut for the journey, + shoved a week's rations into a corn-sack, choosing such condensed forms of + nourishment as the system allowed—nay, straining a point and + smuggling in a nefarious pound or two of real miner's coffee. + </p> + <p> + Aunt Polly's distress so weighed with her patient that he consented to + remain overnight and ride with Leander as far as the dam across the + Bruneau, at its junction with the Snake. There he would cross and take the + trail down the river, cutting off several miles of the road to the Ferry. + As for going on to see Jimmy or Jimmy's “folks,” the nervous resistance + which this plan excited warned the good couple not to press the old man + too far, or he might give them the slip altogether. + </p> + <p> + A strangeness in his manner which this last discussion had brought out, + lay heavy on aunt Polly's mind all day after the departure of the team for + the Ferry. She watched the two men drive off in silence, Leander's bush + beard reddening in the sun, his big body filling more than his half of the + seat. + </p> + <p> + “Well, by Gum! If he ain't the blamedest, most per-sistent old fool!” he + complained to his wife that night. Their first words were of the old man, + already missed like one of the family from the humble place he had made + for himself. Leander was still irritable over his loss. “I set him down + with his grub and blankets, and I watched him footing it acrost the dam. + He done it real handsome, steady on his pins. Then he set down and waited, + kind o' dreaming, like he used to, settin' on the choppin'-block. I hailed + him. 'What's the matter?' I says. 'Left anything?' No: every time I hailed + he took off his hat and waved to me real pleasant. Nothing the matter. + There he set. Well, thinks I, I can't stay here all day watching ye take + root. So I drove on a piece. And, by Gum! when I looked back going around + the bend, there he went a-pikin' off up the bluffs—just a-humping + himself for all he was worth. I wouldn't like to think he was cunning, but + it looked that way for sure,—turning me off the scent and then + taking to the bluffs like he was sent for! Where in thunder is he making + for? He knows just as well as I do—you have heard me tell him a + dozen times—the stages were hauled off that Wood River road five + year and more ago. He won't git nowhere! And he won't meet up with a team + in a week's walking.” + </p> + <p> + “His food will last him a week if he's careful; he's no great eater. I + ain't afraid his feet will get lost; he's to home out of doors almost + anywhere;—it's his head I'm afraid of. He's got some sort of a skew + on him. I used to notice if he went out for a little walk anywhere, he'd + always slope for the East.” + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0020" id="link2H_4_0020"> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + XX. — A STATION IN THE DESERT + </h2> + <p> + That forsworn identity which Adam Bogardus had submitted to be clothed in + as a burial garment was now become a thing for the living to flee from. He + had seen a woman in full health whiten and cower before it;—she who + stood beside his bed and looked at him with dreadful eyes, eyes of his + girl-wife growing old in the likeness of her father. Hard, reluctant eyes + forced to own the truth which the ashen lips denied. Are we responsible + for our silences? He had not spoken to her. Nay, the living must speak + first, or the ghostly dead depart unquestioned. He asked only that he + might forget her and be himself forgotten. If it were that woman's right + to call herself Emily Bogardus, then was there no Adam her husband. Better + the old disguise which left him free to work out his own sentence and pay + his forfeit to the law. He had never desired that one breath of it should + be commuted, or wished to accept an enslaving pardon from those for whose + sake he had put himself out of the way. If he could have taken his own + comparative spiritual measurement, he might have smiled at the humor of + that forgiveness promised him in the name of the Highest by his son. + </p> + <p> + For many peaceful years solitude had been the habit of his soul. Gently as + he bore with human obligations, he escaped from them with a sense of + relief which shamed him somewhat when he thought of the good friends to + whom he owed this very blessed power to flee. It was quite as Leander had + surmised. He could not command his faculties—memory especially—when + a noise of many words and questions bruised his brain. + </p> + <p> + The stillness of the desert closed about him with delicious healing. He + was a world-weary child returned to the womb of Nature. His old camp-craft + came back; his eye for distance, his sense of the trail, his little pet + economies with food and fire. There was no one to tell him what to eat and + when to eat it. He was invisible to men. Each day's march built up his + muscle, and every night's deep sleep under the great high stars steadied + his nerves and tightened his resolve. + </p> + <p> + He thought of the young man—his son—with a mixture of pain and + tenderness. But Paul was not the baby-boy he had put out of his arms with + a father's smile at One Man station. Paul was himself a man now; he had + coerced him at the last, neither did he understand. + </p> + <p> + The blind instinct of flight began after a while to shape its own + direction. It was no new leaning with the packer. As many times as he had + crossed this trail he never had failed to experience the same pull. He + resisted no longer. He gave way to strange fancies and made them his + guides. + </p> + <p> + At some time during his flight from the hospital, in one of those blanks + that overtook him, he knew not how, he had met with a great loss. The + words had slipped from his memory—of that message which had kept him + in fancied touch with his wife all these many deluding years. Without them + he was like a drunkard deprived of his habitual stimulant. The craving to + connect and hold them—for they came to him sometimes in tantalizing + freaks of memory, and slipped away again like beads rolling off a broken + thread—was almost the only form of mental suffering he was now + conscious of. What had become of the message itself? Had they left it + exposed to every heartless desecration in that abandoned spot?—a + scrap of paper driven like a bit of tumble-weed before the wind, snatched + at by spikes of sage, trampled into the mire of cattle, nuzzled by wild + beasts? Or, had they put it away with that other beast where he lay with + the scoff on his dead face? Out of dreams and visions of the night that + place of the parting ways called to him, and the time was now come when he + must go. + </p> + <p> + He approached it by one of those desert trails that circle for miles on + the track of water and pounce as a bird drops upon its prey into the + trampled hollow at One Man station—a place for the gathering of + hoofs in the midst of the plain. + </p> + <p> + He could trace what might have been the foundation of a house, a few + blackened stones, a hearthstone showing where a chimney perhaps had stood, + but these evidences of habitation would never have been marked except by + one who knew where to look. He searched the ground over for signs of the + tragedy that bound him to that spot—a smiling desolation, a sunny + nothingness. The effect of this careless obliteration was quieting. Nature + had played here once with two men and a woman. One of the toy men was + lost, the other broken. She had forgotten where she put the broken one. + There were mounds which looked like graves, but the seeker knew that + artificial mounds in a place like this soon sink into hollows; and there + were hollows like open graves, filled with unsightly human rubbish, washed + in by the yearly rains. + </p> + <p> + He spent three days in the hollow, doing nothing, steeped in sunshine, + lying down to rest broad awake in the tender twilight, making his peace + with this place of bitter memory before bidding it good-by. His thoughts + turned eastward as the planets rose. Time he was working back towards + home. He would hardly get there if he started now, before his day was + done. He saw his mother's grave beside his father's, in the southeast + corner of the burying-ground, where the trees were thin. All who drove in + through the big gate of funerals could see the tall white shafts of the + Beviers and Brodericks and Van Eltens, but only those who came on foot + could approach his people in the gravelly side-hill plots. “I'd like to be + put there alongside the old folks in that warm south corner.” He could see + their names on the plain gray slate stones, rain-stained and green with + moss. + </p> + <p> + On the third May evening of his stay the horizon became a dust-cloud, the + setting sun a ball of fire. Loomed the figure of a rider topping the + heaving backs of his herd. All together they came lumbering down the + slopes, all heading fiercely for the water. The rider plunged down a + side-draw out of the main cloud. Clanking bells, shuffling hoofs, the + “Whoop-ee-youp!” came fainter up the gulch. The cowboy was not pleased as + he dashed by to see an earlier camp-fire smoking in the hollow. But he was + less displeased, being half French, than if he had been pure-bred + American. + </p> + <p> + The old man, squatting by his cooking-fire, gave him a civil nod, and he + responded with a flourish of his quirt. The reek of sage smoke, the smell + of dust and cattle rose rank on the cooling air. It was good to Boniface, + son of the desert; it meant supper and bed, or supper and talk, for + “Bonny” Maupin (“Bonny Moppin,” it went in the vernacular) would talk + every other man to sleep, full or empty, with songs thrown in. To-night, + however, he must talk on an empty stomach, for his chuck wagon was not in + sight. + </p> + <p> + “W'ich way you travelin'?” he began, lighting up after a long pull at his + flask. The old man had declined, though he looked as if he needed a drink. + </p> + <p> + “East about,” was the answer. + </p> + <p> + “Goin' far?” + </p> + <p> + “Well; summer's before us. I cal'late to keep moving till snow falls.” + </p> + <p> + “Shucks! You ain' pressed for time. Maybe you got some friend back there. + Goin' back to git married?” He winked genially to point the jest and the + old man smiled indulgently. + </p> + <p> + “Won't you set up and take a bite with me? You don't look to have much of + a show for supper along.” + </p> + <p> + “Thanks, very much! I had bully breakfast at Rock Spring middlin' late + this morning. They butcherin' at that place. Five fat hog. My chuck wagon + he stay behin' for chunk of fresh pig. I won' spoil my appetide for that + tenderloin. Hol' on yourself an' take supper wis me. No?—That fellah + be 'long 'bout Chris'mas if he don' git los'! He always behin', pig or no + pig!” + </p> + <p> + Bonny strolled away collecting fire-wood. Presently he called back, + pointing dramatically with his small-toed boot. “Who's been coyotin' round + here?” The hard ground was freshly disturbed in spots as by the paws of + some small inquisitive animal. There was no answer. + </p> + <p> + “What you say? Whose surface diggin's is these? I never know anybody do + some mining here.” + </p> + <p> + “That was me”—Bonny backed a little nearer to catch the old man's + words. “I was looking round here for something I lost.” + </p> + <p> + “What luck you have? You fin' him?” + </p> + <p> + “Well, now, doos it reely matter to you, sonny?” + </p> + <p> + “Pardner, it don' matter to me a d—n, if you say so! I was jus' + askin' myself what a man <i>would</i> look for if he los' it here. Since I + strike this 'ell of a place the very groun' been chewed up and spit out + reg'lar, one hundred times a year. 'T'is a gris' mill!” + </p> + <p> + “I didn't gretly expect to find what I was lookin' for. I was just foolin' + around to satisfy myself.” + </p> + <p> + “That satisfy me!” said Bonny pleasantly; and yet he was a trifle + discomfited. He strolled away again and began to sing with a boyish show + of indifference to having been called “sonny.” + </p> + <p> + “Oh, Sally is the gal for me! Oh, Sally's the gal for me! On moonlight + night when the star is bright—Oh”— + </p> + <p> + “Halloa! This some more your work, oncle? You ain' got no chicken wing for + arm if you lif' this.—Ah, be dam! I see what you lif' him with. All + same stove-lid.” Talking and swearing to himself cheerfully, Bonny applied + the end of a broken whiffletree to the blunt lip of the old hearthstone + which marked the stage-house chimney. He had tried a step-dance on it and + found it hollow. More fresh digging, and marks upon the stone where some + prying tool had taken hold and slipped, showed he was not the first who + had been curious. + </p> + <p> + “There you go, over on you' back, like snap' turtle; I see where you lay + there before. What the dev'! I say!” Bonny, much excited with his find, + extracted a rusty tin tobacco-box from the hole, pried open the spring lid + and drew forth its contents: a discolored canvas bag bulging with coin and + whipped around the neck with a leather whang. The canvas was rotten; Bonny + supported its contents tenderly as he brought it over to the old man. + </p> + <p> + “Oncle, I ask you' pardon for tappin' that safe. Pretty good lil' + nest-egg, eh? But now you got to find her some other place.” + </p> + <p> + “That don't belong to me,” said the old man indifferently. + </p> + <p> + “Aw—don't be bashful! I onderstan' now what you los'. You dig here—there—migs + up the scent. I just happen to step on that stone—ring him, so, with + my boot-heel!” + </p> + <p> + “That ain't my pile,” the other persisted. “I started to build a fire on + that stone two nights ago. It rung hollow like you say. I looked and found + what you found—” + </p> + <p> + “And put her back! My soul to God! An' you here all by you'self!” + </p> + <p> + “Why not? The stuff ain't mine.” + </p> + <p> + “Who <i>is</i> she? How long since anybody live here?” + </p> + <p> + “I don't know,—good while, I guess.” + </p> + <p> + “Well, sar! Look here! I open that bag. I count two hondre' thirteen + dolla'—make it twelve for luck, an' call it you' divvee! You strike + her first. What you say: we go snac'?” + </p> + <p> + “I haven't got any use for that money. You needn't talk to me about it.” + </p> + <p> + “Got no h'use!—are you a reech man? Got you' private car waitin' for + you out in d' sagebrush? Sol' a mine lately?” + </p> + <p> + “I don't know why it strikes you so funny. It's no concern of mine if a + man puts his money in the ground and goes off and leaves it.” + </p> + <p> + “Goes off and die! There was one man live here by himself—he die, + they say, 'with his boots on.' He, I think, mus' be that man belong to + this money. What an old stiff want with two hondre' thirteen dolla'? That + money goin' into a live man's clothes.” Bonny slapped his chappereros, and + the dust flew. + </p> + <p> + “I've no objection to its going into <i>your</i> clothes,” said the old + man. + </p> + <p> + “You thing I ain' particular, me? Well, eef the party underground was my + frien', and I knew his fam'ly, and was sure the money was belong to him—I'd + do differend—perhaps. Mais,—it is going—going—gone! + You won' go snac'?” + </p> + <p> + The old man smiled and looked steadily away. + </p> + <p> + “Blas' me to h—l! but you aire the firs' man ever I strike that jib + at the sight of col' coin. She don' frighten me!” + </p> + <p> + Bonny always swore when he felt embarrassed. + </p> + <p> + “Well, sar! Look here! You fin' you'self so blame indifferend—s'pose + you <i>so</i> indifferend not to say nothing 'bout this, when my swamper + fellah git in. I don' wish to go snac' wis him. I don' feel oblige'. See?” + </p> + <p> + “What you want to pester me about this money for!” The old man was weary. + “I didn't come here, lookin' for money, and I don't expect to take none + away with me. So I'll say good-night to ye.” + </p> + <p> + “Hol' on, hol' on! Don' git mad. What time you goin' off in the morning?” + </p> + <p> + “Before you do, I shouldn't wonder.” + </p> + <p> + “But hol'! One fine idea—blazin' good idea—just hit me now in + the head! Wan' to come on to Chicago wis me? I drop this fellah at Felton. + He take the team back, and I get some one to help me on the treep. Why not + you? Ever tek' care of stock?” + </p> + <p> + “Some consid'able years ago I used to look after stock. Guess I'd know an + ox from a heifer.” + </p> + <p> + “Ever handle 'em on cattle-car?” + </p> + <p> + “Never.” + </p> + <p> + “Well, all there is, you feed 'em, and water 'em, and keep 'em on their + feets. If one fall down, all the others they have too much play. They + rock”—Bonny exhibited—“and fall over and pile up in heap. I + like to do one turn for you. We goin' the same way—you bring me the + good luck, like a bird in the han'. This is my clean-up, you understand. + You bring me the beautiful luck. You turn me up right bower first slap. + Now it's goin' be my deal. I like to do by you!” + </p> + <p> + The packer turned over and looked up at the cool sky, pricked through with + early stars. He was silent a long time. His pale old face was like a fine + bit of carving in the dusk. + </p> + <p> + “What you think?” asked Moppin, almost tenderly. “I thing you better come + wis me. You too hold a man to go like so—alone.” + </p> + <p> + “I'll have to think about it first;—let you know in the morning.” + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0021" id="link2H_4_0021"> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + XXI. — INJURIOUS REPORTS CONCERNING AN OLD HOUSE + </h2> + <p> + A Rush of wheels and a spatter of hoofs coming up the drive sent Mrs. + Dunlop to the sitting-room window. She tried to see out through streaming + showers that darkened the panes. + </p> + <p> + “Isn't that Mrs. Bogardus? Why, it is! Put on your shoes, Chauncey, quick! + Help her in 'n' take her horse to the shed. Take an umbrella with you.” + Chauncey the younger, meekly drying his shoes by the kitchen fire, put + them on, not stopping to lace them, and slumped down the porch steps, + pursued by his mother's orders. She watched him a moment struggling with a + cranky umbrella, and then turned her attention to herself and the room. + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus made her calls in the morning, and always plainly on + business. She had not seen the inside of Cerissa's parlor for ten years. + This was a grievance which Cerissa referred to spasmodically, being seized + with it when she was otherwise low in her mind. + </p> + <p> + “My sakes! Can't I remember my mother telling how <i>her</i> mother used + to drive over and spend the afternoon, and bring her sewing and the baby—whichever + one was the baby. They called each other Chrissy and Angevine, and now she + don't even speak of her own children to us by their first names. It's + 'Mrs. Bowen' and 'Mr. Paul;' just as if she was talking to her servants.” + </p> + <p> + “What's that to us? We've got a good home here for as long as we want to + stay. She's easy to work for, if you do what she says.” + </p> + <p> + Chauncey respected Mrs. Bogardus's judgment and her straightforward + business habits. Other matters he left alone. But Cerissa was ambitious + and emotional, and she stayed indoors, doing little things and thinking + small thoughts. She resented her commanding neighbor's casual manners. + There was something puzzling and difficult to meet in her plainness of + speech, which excluded the personal relation. It was like the cut and + finish of her clothes—mysterious in their simplicity, and not to be + imitated cheaply. + </p> + <p> + When the two met, Cerissa was immediately reduced to a state of flimsy + apology which she made up for by being particularly hot and self-assertive + in speaking of the lady afterward. + </p> + <p> + “There is the parlor, in perfect order,” she fretted, as she stood waiting + to open the front door; “but of course she wouldn't let me take her in + there—that would be too much like visiting.” + </p> + <p> + The next moment she had corrected her facial expression, and was offering + smiling condolences to Mrs. Bogardus on the state of her attire. + </p> + <p> + “It is only my jacket. You might put that somewhere to dry,” said the lady + curtly. Raindrops sparkled on the wave of thick iron-gray hair that lifted + itself, with a slight turn to one side, from her square low brow. Her eyes + shone dark against the fresh wind color in her cheeks. She had the + straight, hard, ophidian line concealing the eyelid, which gives such a + peculiar strength to the direct gaze of a pair of dark eyes. If one + suspects the least touch of tenderness, possibly of pain, behind that iron + fold, it lends a fascination equal to the strength. There was some + excitement in Mrs. Bogardus's manner, but Cerissa did not know her well + enough to perceive it. She merely thought her looking handsomer, and, if + possible, more formidable than usual. + </p> + <p> + She sat by the fire, folding her skirts across her knees, and showing the + edges of the most discouragingly beautiful petticoats,—a taste + perhaps inherited from her wide-hipped Dutch progenitresses. Mrs. Bogardus + reveled in costly petticoats, and had an unnecessary number of them. + </p> + <p> + “How nice it is in here!” she said, looking about her. Cerissa, with the + usual apologies, had taken her into the kitchen to dry her skirts. There + was a slight taint of steaming shoe leather, left by Chauncey when driven + forth. Otherwise the kitchen was perfection,—the family room of an + old Dutch farmhouse, built when stone and hardwood lumber were cheap,—thick + walls; deep, low window-seats; beams showing on the ceiling; a modern + cooking-stove, where Emily Bogardus could remember the wrought brass + andirons and iron backlog, for this room had been her father's + dining-room. The brick tiled hearth remained, and the color of those + century and a half old bricks made a pitiful thing of Cerissa's new + oil-cloth. The woodwork had been painted—by Mrs. Bogardus's orders, + and much to Cerissa's disgust—a dark kitchen green,—not that + she liked the color herself, but it was the artistic demand of the moment,—and + the place was filled with a green golden light from the cherry-trees close + to the window, which a break in the clouds had suddenly illumined. + </p> + <p> + “You keep it beautifully,” said Mrs. Bogardus, her eyes shedding + compliments as she looked around. “I should not dare go in my own kitchen + at this time of day. There are no women nowadays who know how to work in + the way ladies used to work. If I could have such a housekeeper as you, + Cerissa.” + </p> + <p> + Cerissa flushed and bridled. “What would Chauncey do!” + </p> + <p> + “I don't expect you to be my housekeeper,” Mrs. Bogardus smiled. “But I + envy Chauncey.” + </p> + <p> + “She has come to ask a favor,” thought Cerissa. “I never knew her so + pleasant, for nothing. She wants me to do up her fruit, I guess.” Cerissa + was mistaken. Mrs. Bogardus simply was happy—or almost happy—and + deeply stirred over a piece of news which had come to her in that + morning's mail. + </p> + <p> + “I have telephoned Bradley not to send his men over on Monday. My son is + bringing his wife home. They may be here all summer. The place belongs to + them now. Did Chauncey tell you? Mr. Paul writes that he has some building + plans of his own, and he wishes everything left as it is for the present, + especially this house. He wants his wife to see it first just as it is.” + </p> + <p> + “Well, to be sure! They've been traveling a long time, haven't they? And + how is his health now?” + </p> + <p> + “Oh, he is very well indeed. You will be glad not to have the trouble of + those carpenters, Cerissa? Pulling down old houses is dirty work.” + </p> + <p> + “Oh, dear! I wouldn't mind the dirt. Anything to get rid of that old rat's + nest on top of the kitchen chamber. I hate to have such out of the way + places on my mind. I can't get around to do every single thing, and it's + years—years, Mrs. Bogardus, since I could get a woman to do a + half-day's cleaning up there in broad daylight!” + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus stared. What was the woman talking about! + </p> + <p> + “I call it a regular eyesore on the looks of the house besides. And it + keeps all the old stories alive.” + </p> + <p> + “What stories?” + </p> + <p> + “Why, of course your father wasn't out of his head—we all know that—when + he built that upstairs room and slep' there and locked himself in every + night of his life. It was only on one point he was a little warped: the + fear of bein' robbed. A natural fear, too,—an old man over eighty + livin' in such a lonesome place and known to be well off. But—you'll + excuse my repeating the talk—but the story goes now that he re'ly + went insane and was confined up there all the last years of his life. And + that's why the windows have got bars acrost them. Everybody notices it, + and they ask questions. It's real embarrassin', for of course I don't want + to discuss the family.” + </p> + <p> + “Who asks questions?” Mrs. Bogardus's eyes were hard to meet when her + voice took that tone. + </p> + <p> + “Why, the city folks out driving. They often drive in the big gate and + make the circle through the grounds, and they're always struck when they + see that tower bedroom with windows like a prison. They say, 'What's the + story about that room, up there?'” + </p> + <p> + “When people ask you questions about the house, you can say you did not + live here in the owner's time and you don't know. That's perfectly simple, + isn't it?” + </p> + <p> + “But I do know! Everybody knows,” said Cerissa hotly. “It was the talk of + the whole neighborhood when that room was put up; and I remember how + scared I used to be when mother sent me over here of an errand.” + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus rose and shook out her skirts. “Will Chauncey bring my horse + when it stops raining? By the way, did you get the furniture down that was + in that room, Cerissa?—the old secretary? I am going to have it put + in order for Mr. Paul's room. Old furniture is the fashion now, you know.” + </p> + <p> + Cerissa caught her breath nervously. “Mrs. Bogardus—I couldn't do a + thing about it! I wanted Chauncey to tell you. All last week I tried to + get a woman, or a man, to come and help me clear out that place, but just + as soon as they find out what's wanted—'You'll have to get somebody + else for that job,' they say.” + </p> + <p> + “What is the matter with them?” + </p> + <p> + “It's the room, Mrs. Bogardus; if I was you—I'm doing now just as + I'd be done by—I would not take Mrs. Paul Bogardus up into that room—not + even in broad daylight; not if it was my son's wife, in the third month of + her being a wife.” + </p> + <p> + “Well, upon my word!” said Mrs. Bogardus, smiling coldly. “Do you mean to + say these women are afraid to go up there?” + </p> + <p> + “It was old Mary Hornbeck who started the talk. She got what she called + her 'warning' up there. And the fact is, she was a corpse within six + months from that day. Chauncey and me, we used to hear noises, but old + houses are full of noises. We never thought much about it; only, I must + say I never had any use for that part of the house. Chauncey keeps his + seeds and tools in the lower room, and some of the winter vegetables, and + we store the parlor stove in there in summer.” + </p> + <p> + “Well, about this 'warning'?” Mrs. Bogardus interrupted. + </p> + <p> + “Yes! It was three years ago in May, and I remember it was some such a day + as this—showery and broken overhead, and Mary disappointed me; but + she came about noon, and said she'd put in half a day anyhow. She got her + pail and house-cloths; but she wasn't gone not half an hour when down she + come white as a sheet, and her mouth as dry as chalk. She set down all of + a shake, and I give her a drink of tea, and she said: 'I wouldn't go up + there again, not for a thousand dollars.' She unlocked the door, she said, + and stepped inside without thinkin'. Your father's old rocker with the + green moreen cushions stood over by the east window, where he used to sit. + She heard a creak like a heavy step on the floor, and that empty chair + across the room, as far as from here to the window, begun to rock as if + somebody had just rose up from them cushions. She watched it till it + stopped. Then she took another step, and the step she couldn't see + answered her, and the chair begun to rock again.” + </p> + <p> + “Was that all?” + </p> + <p> + “No, ma'am; that wasn't all. I don't know if you remember an old wall + clock with a brass ball on top and brass scrolls down the sides and a + painted glass door in front of the pendulum with a picture of a castle and + a lake? The paint's been wore off the glass with cleaning, so the pendulum + shows plain. That clock has not been wound since we come to live here. I + don't believe a hand has touched it since the night he was carried feet + foremost out of that room. But Mary said she could count the strokes go + tick, tick, tick! She listened till she could have counted fifty, for she + was struck dumb, and just as plain as the clock before her face she could + see the minute-hand and the pendulum, both of 'em dead still. Now, how do + you account for that! + </p> + <p> + “I told Chauncey about it, and he said it was all foolishness. Do all I + could he would go up there himself, that same evening. But he come down + again after a while, and he was almost as white as Mary. 'Did you see + anything?' I says. 'I saw what Mary said she saw,' says he, 'and I heard + what she heard.' But no one can make Chauncey own up that he believes it + was anything supernatural. 'There is a reason for everything,' he says. + 'The miracles and ghosts of one generation are just school-book learning + to the next; and more of a miracle than the miracles themselves.'” + </p> + <p> + “Chauncey shows his sense,” Mrs. Bogardus observed. + </p> + <p> + “He was real disturbed, though, I could see; and he told me particular not + to make any talk about it. I never have opened the subject to a living + soul. But when Mary died, within six months, folks repeated what she had + been saying about her 'warning.' The 'death watch' she called it. We can't + all of us control our feelings about such things, and she was a lonely + widow woman.” + </p> + <p> + “Well, do you believe that ticking is going on up there now?” asked Mrs. + Bogardus. + </p> + <p> + Cerissa looked uneasy. + </p> + <p> + “Is the door locked?” + </p> + <p> + “I re'ly couldn't say,” she confessed. + </p> + <p> + “Do you mean to say that all you sensible people in this house have + avoided that room for three years? And you don't even know if the door is + locked?” + </p> + <p> + “I—I don't use that part for anything, and cleaning is wasted on a + place that's never used, and I can't <i>get</i> anybody”— + </p> + <p> + “I am not criticising your housekeeping. Will you go up there with me now, + Cerissa? I want to understand about this.” + </p> + <p> + “What, just now, do you mean? I'm afraid I haven't got the time this + morning, Mrs. Bogardus. Dinner's at half-past twelve. It's a quarter to + eleven”— + </p> + <p> + “Very well. You think the door is not locked?” + </p> + <p> + “If it is, the key must be in the door. Oh, don't go, please, Mrs. + Bogardus. Wait till Chauncey conies in”— + </p> + <p> + “I wish you'd send Chauncey up when he does come in. Ask him to bring a + screw-driver.” Mrs. Bogardus rose and examined her jacket. It was still + damp. She asked for a cape, or some sort of wrap, as her waist was thin, + and the rain had chilled the morning air. + </p> + <p> + For the sake of decency, Cerissa escorted her visitor across the hall + passage into the loom-room—a loom-room in name only for upwards of + three generations. Becky had devoted it to the rough work of the house, + and to certain special uses, such as the care of the butchering products, + the making of soft soap and root beer. Here the churning was done, by + hand, with a wooden dasher, which spread a circle of white drops, later to + become grease-spots. The floor of the loom-room was laid in large brick + tiles, more or less loose in their sockets, with an occasional earthy + depression marking the grave of a missing tile. Becky's method of cleaning + was to sluice it out and scrub it with an old broom. The seepage of + generations before her time had thus added their constant quota to the old + well's sum of iniquity. + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus had not visited this part of the old house for many years. + After her father's death she had shrunk from its painful associations. + Later she grew indifferent; but as she passed now into the gloomy place—doubly + dark with the deep foliage of June on a rainy morning—she was afraid + of her own thoughts. Henceforth she was a woman with a diseased + consciousness. “What can't be cured must be <i>seared</i>,” flashed over + her as she set her face to the stairway. + </p> + <p> + These stairs, leading up into the back attic or “kitchen chamber,” being + somewhat crowded for space, advanced two steps into the room below. As the + stair door opened outward, and the stairs were exceedingly steep and dark, + every child of the house, in turn, had suffered a bad fall in consequence; + but the arrangement remained in all its natural depravity, for “children + must learn.” + </p> + <p> + Little Emmy of the old days had loved to sit upon these steps, a trifle + raised above the kitchen traffic, yet cognizant of all that was going on, + and ready to descend promptly if she smelled fresh crullers frying, or + baked sweet apples steaming hot from the oven. If Becky's foot were heard + upon the stairs above, she would jump quick enough; but if the step had a + clumping, boyish precipitancy, she sat still and laughed, and planted her + back against the door. Often she had teased Adam in this way, keeping him + prisoner from his duties, helpless in his good nature either to scold her + or push her off. But once he circumvented her, slipping off his shoes and + creeping up the stairs again, and making his escape by the roof and the + boughs of the old maple. Then it was Emmy who was teased, who sat a + foolish half hour on the stairs alone and missed a beautiful ride to the + wood lot; but she would not speak to Adam for two days afterward. + </p> + <p> + Becky's had been the larger of the two bedrooms in the attic, Adam's the + smaller—tucked low under the eaves, and entered by crawling around + the big chimney that came bulking up to the light like a great tree caught + between house walls. The stairs hugged the chimney and made use of its + support. Adam would warm his hands upon it coming down on bitter mornings. + From force of habit, Emily Bogardus laid her smooth white hand upon the + clammy bricks. No tombstone could be colder than that heart of house + warmth now. + </p> + <p> + The roof of the kitchen chamber had been raised a story higher, and the + chimney as it went up contracted to quite a modern size. This elevation + gave room for the incongruous tower bedroom that had hurt the symmetry of + the old house, spoiled its noble sweep of roof, and given rise to so much + unpleasant conjecture as to its use. It was this excrescence, the record + of those last unloved and unloving years of her father's life, which Mrs. + Bogardus would have removed, but was prevented by her son. + </p> + <p> + “You go back now, Cerissa,” she said to the panting woman behind her. “I + see the key is in the lock. You may send Chauncey after a while; there is + no hurry.” + </p> + <p> + “Oh!” gasped Cerissa. “Do you see <i>that!</i>” + </p> + <p> + “What?” + </p> + <p> + “I thought there was something—something behind that slit.” + </p> + <p> + “There isn't. Step this way. There, can't you see the light?” + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus grasped Cerissa by the shoulders and held her firmly in + front of a narrow loophole that pierced the partition close beside the + door. Light from the room within showed plainly; but it gave an + unpleasantly human expression to the entrance, like a furtive eye on the + watch. + </p> + <p> + “He would always be there,” Cerissa whispered. + </p> + <p> + “Who?” + </p> + <p> + “Your father. If anybody wanted to see him after he shut himself in there + for the night, they had to stand to be questioned through that wall-slit + before he opened the door. Yes, ma'am! He was on the watch in there the + whole time like a thing in a trap.” + </p> + <p> + “Are you afraid to go back alone?” Mrs. Bogardus spoke with chilling + irony. + </p> + <p> + Cerissa backed away in silence, her heart thumping. “She's putting it on,” + she said to herself. “I never see her turn so pale. Don't tell <i>me</i> + she ain't afraid!” + </p> + <p> + There was a hanging shelf against the chimney on which a bundle of dry + herbs had been left to turn into dust. Old Becky might have put them there + the autumn before she died; or some successor of hers in the years that + were blank to the daughter of the house. As she pushed open the door a + sighing draught swept past her and seemed to draw her inward. It shook the + sere bundle. Its skeleton leaves, dissolving into motes, flickered an + instant athwart the light. They sifted down like ashes on the woman's dark + head as she passed in. Her color had faded, but not through fear of ghost + clocks. It was the searing process she had to face. And any room where she + sat alone with certain memories of her youth was to her a torture chamber. + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <p> + “She's been up there an awful long time. I wouldn't wonder if she's + fainted away.” + </p> + <p> + “What would she faint at? I guess it's pretty cold, though. Give me some + more tea; put plenty of milk so I can drink it quick.” + </p> + <p> + Chauncey's matter of fact tone always comforted Cerissa when she was + nervous. She did not mind that he jeered or that his words were often + rude; no man of her acquaintance could say things nicely to women, or ever + tried. A certain amount of roughness passed for household wit. Chauncey + put the screw-driver in his pocket, his wife and son watching him with + respectful anxiety. He thought rather well of his own courage privately. + But the familiar details of the loom-room cheered him on his way, the + homely tools of his every-day work were like friendly faces nodding at + him. He knocked loudly on the door above, and was answered by Mrs. + Bogardus in her natural voice. + </p> + <p> + “Bosh—every bit of it bosh!” he repeated courageously. + </p> + <p> + She was seated by the window in the chair with the green cushions. Her + face was turned towards the view outside. “What a pity those cherries were + not picked before the rain,” she observed. “The fruit is bursting ripe; + I'm afraid you'll lose the crop.” + </p> + <p> + Chauncey moved forward awkwardly without answering. + </p> + <p> + “Stop there one moment, will you?” Mrs. Bogardus rose and demonstrated. + “You notice those two boards are loose. Now, I put this chair here,”—she + laid her hand on the back to still its motion. “Step this way. You see? + The chair rocks of itself. So would any chair with a spring board under + it. That accounts for <i>that</i>, I think. Now come over here.” Chauncey + placed himself as she directed in front of the high mantel with the clock + above it. She stood at his side and they listened in silence to that sound + which Mary Hornbeck, deceased, had deemed a spiritual warning. + </p> + <p> + “Would you call that a 'ticking'? Is that like any sound an insect could + make?” the mistress asked. + </p> + <p> + “I should call it more like a 'ting,'” said Chauncey. “It comes kind o' + muffled like through the chimbly—a person might be mistaken if they + was upset in their nerves considerable.” + </p> + <p> + “What old people call the 'death-watch' is supposed to be an insect that + lives in the walls of old houses, isn't it? and gives warning with a + ticking sound when somebody is going to be called away? Now to me that + sounds like a soft blow struck regularly on a piece of hollow iron—say + the end of a stove-pipe sticking in the chimney. When I first came up + here, there was only a steady murmur of wind and rain. Then the clouds + thinned and the sun came out and drops began to fall—distinctly. + Your wife says the ticking was heard on a day like this, broken and + showery. Now, if you will unscrew that clock, I think you will find + there's a stove-pipe hole behind it; and a piece of pipe shoved into the + chimney just far enough to catch the drops as they gather and fall.” + </p> + <p> + Chauncey went to work. He sweated in the airless room. The powerful screws + blunted the lips of his tool but would not start. + </p> + <p> + “I guess I'll have to give it up for to-day. The screws are rusted in + solid. Want I should pry her out of the woodwork?” + </p> + <p> + “No, don't do that,” said Mrs. Bogardus. “Why should we spoil the panel? + This seems a very comfortable room. My son is right. It would be foolish + to tear it down. Such a place as this might be very useful if you people + would get over your notions about it.” + </p> + <p> + “I never had no notions,” Chauncey asserted. “When the women git talkin' + they like to make out a good story, and whichever one sees the most and + hears the most makes the biggest sensation.” + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus waited till he had finished without appearing to have heard + what he was saying. + </p> + <p> + “Where is the key to this door?” she laid her hand over a knob to the + right of the stairs. + </p> + <p> + “I guess if there is one it's on the other side. Yes, it's in the + key-hole.” Chauncey turned the knob and shoved and lifted. The door + yielded to his full strength, and he allowed Mrs. Bogardus to precede him. + She stepped into a room hardly bigger than a closet with one window, + barred like those in the outer room. It was fitted up with toilet + conveniences according to the best advices of its day. Over all the neat + personal arrangements there was the slur of neglect, a sad squalor which + even a king's palace wears with time. + </p> + <p> + Chauncey tested the plumbing with a noise that was plainly offensive to + his companion, but she bore with it—also with his reminiscences + gathered from neighborhood gossip. “He wa'n't fond of spending money, but + he didn't spare it here: this was his ship cabin when he started on his + last voyage. It looked funny—a man with all his land and houses + cooped up in a place like this; but he wanted to be independent of the + women. He hated to have 'em fussin' around him. He had a woman to come and + cook up stuff for him to help himself to; but she wouldn't stay here + overnight, nor he wouldn't let her. As for a man in the house,—most + men were thieves, he thought, or waiting their chance to be. It was real + pitiful the way he made his end.” + </p> + <p> + “Open that window and shut the door when you come out,” said Mrs. + Bogardus. “I will send some one to help you down with that secretary. + Cerissa knows about it. It is to be sent up on the Hill.” + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0022" id="link2H_4_0022"> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + XXII. — THE CASE STRIKES IN + </h2> + <p> + Christine's marriage took place while Paul and Moya were lingering in the + Bruneau, for Paul's health ostensibly. Banks and Horace had been left to + the smiling irony of justice. They never had a straight chance to define + their conduct in the woods; for no one accused them. No awkward questions + were asked in the city drawing-rooms or at the clubs. For a tough half + hour or so at Fort Lemhi they had realized how they stood in the eyes of + those unbiased military judges. The shock had a bracing effect for a time. + Both boys were said to be much improved by their Western trip and by the + hardships of that frightful homeward march. + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus had matched her gift of Stone Ridge to her son, which was a + gift of sentiment, with one of more substantial value to her daughter,—the + income from certain securities settled upon her and her heirs. Banks was + carefully unprovided for. The big house in town was full of ghosts—the + ghosts that haunt such homes, made desolate by a breach of hearts. The + city itself was crowded with opportunities for giving and receiving pain + between mother and daughter. Christine had developed all the latent + hardness of her mother's race with a sickly frivolity of her own. She made + a great show of faith in her marriage venture. She boomed it in her + occasional letters, which were full of scarce concealed bravado as + graceful as snapping her fingers in her mother's face. + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus leased her house in town, and retired before the ghosts, but + not escaping them; Stone Ridge must be put in order for its new master and + mistress, and Stone Ridge had its own ghosts. She informed her absentees + that, before their return, she should have left for Southern California to + look after some investments which she had neglected there of late. It was + then she spoke of her plan for restoring the old house by pulling down + that addition which disfigured it; and Paul had objected to this erasure. + It would take from the house's veracity, he said. The words carried their + unintentional sting. + </p> + <p> + But it was Moya's six lines at the bottom of his page that changed and + softened everything. Moya—always blessed when she took the + initiative—contrived, as swiftly as she could set them down, to say + the very words that made the home-coming a coming home indeed. + </p> + <p> + “Will Madam Bogardus be pleased to keep her place as the head of her son's + house?” she wrote. “This foolish person he has married wants to be + anything rather than the mistress of Stone Ridge. She wants to be always + out of doors, and she needs to be. Oh, must you go away now—now when + we need you so much? It cannot be said here on paper how much <i>I</i> + need you! Am I not your motherless daughter? Please be there when we come, + and please stay there!” + </p> + <p> + “For a little while then,” said the lonely woman, smiling at the image of + that sweet, foolish person in her thoughts. “For a little while, till she + learns her mistake.” Such mistakes are the cornerstone of family + friendship. + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <p> + It was an uneventful summer on the Hill, but one of rather wearing + intensity in the inner relations of the household, one with another; for + nothing could be quite natural with a pit of concealment to be avoided by + all, and an air of unconsciousness to be carefully preserved in avoiding + it. Moya's success in this way was so remarkable that Paul half hated it. + How was it possible for her to speak to his mother so lightly; never the + least apparent premeditation or fear of tripping; how look at her with + such sweet surface looks that never questioned or saw beneath? He could + not meet his mother's eyes at all when they were alone together, or endure + a silence in her company. + </p> + <p> + Both women were of the type called elemental. They understood each other + without knowing why. Moya felt the desperate truth contained in the + mother's falsehood, and broke forth into passionate defense of her as + against her husband's silence. + </p> + <p> + He answered her one day by looking up a little green book of fairy tales + and reading aloud this fragment of “The Golden Key.” + </p> + <p> + “'I never tell lies, even in fun.' (The mysterious Grandmother speaks.) + </p> + <p> + “'How good of you!' (says the Child in the Wood.) + </p> + <p> + “'I couldn't if I tried. It would come true if I said it, and then I + should be punished enough.'” + </p> + <p> + Moya's eyes narrowed reflectively. + </p> + <p> + “How constantly you are thinking of this! I think of it only when I am + with you. As if a woman like your mother, who has done <i>one thing</i>, + should be all that thing, and nothing more to us, her children!” + </p> + <p> + Moya was giving herself up, almost immorally, Paul sometimes thought, to + the fascination Mrs. Bogardus's personality had for her. In a keenly + susceptible state herself, at that time, there was something calming and + strengthening in the older woman's perfected beauty, her physical poise, + and the fitness of everything she did and said and wore to the given + occasion. As a dark woman she was particularly striking in summer + clothing. Her white effects were tremendous. She did not pretend to study + these matters herself, but in years of experience, with money to spend, + she had learned well in whom to confide. When women are shut up together + in country houses for the summer, they can irritate each other in the most + foolish ways. Mrs. Bogardus never got upon your nerves. + </p> + <p> + But, for Paul, there was a poison in his mother's beauty, a dread in her + influence over his impressionable young wife, thrilled with the awakening + forces of her consonant being. Moya would drink deep of every cup that + life presented. Motherhood was her lesson for the day. “She is a queen of + mothers!” she would exclaim with an abandon that was painful to Paul; he + saw deformity where Moya was ready to kneel. “I love her perfect love for + you—for me, even! She is above all jealousy. She doesn't even ask to + be understood.” + </p> + <p> + Paul was silent. + </p> + <p> + “And oh, she knows, she knows! She has been through it all—in such + despair and misery—all that is before me, with everything in the + world to make it easy and all the beautiful care she gives me. She is the + supreme mother. And I never had a mother to speak to before. Don't, don't, + please, keep putting that dreadful thing between us now!” + </p> + <p> + So Paul took the dreadful thing away with him and was alone with it, and + knew that his mother saw it in his eyes when their eyes met and avoided. + When, after a brief household absence, he would see her again he wondered, + “Has she been alone with it? Has it passed into another phase?”—as + of an incurable disease that must take its time and course. + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus did not spare her conscience in social ways all this time. + It was a part of her life to remember that she had neighbors—certain + neighbors. She included Paul without particularly consulting him whenever + it was proper for him to support her in her introduction of his wife to + the country-house folk, many of whom they knew in town. + </p> + <p> + All his mother's friends liked Paul and supposed him to be very clever, + but they had never taken him seriously. “Now, at last,” they said, “he has + done something like other people. He is coming out.” Experienced matrons + were pleased to flatter him on his choice of a bride. The daughters + studied Moya, and decided that she was “different,” but “all right.” She + had a careless distinction of her own. Some of her “things” were + surprisingly lovely—probably heirlooms; and army women are so clever + about clothes. + </p> + <p> + Would they spend the winter in town? + </p> + <p> + Paul replied absently: they had not decided. Probably they would not go + down till after the holidays. + </p> + <p> + What an attractive plan? What an ideal family Christmas they would have + all together in the country! Christine had not been up all summer, had + she? Here Moya came to her husband's relief, through a wife's dual + consciousness in company, and covered his want of spirits with a flood of + foolish chatter. + </p> + <p> + The smiling way in which women the most sincere can posture and prance on + the brink of dissimulation was particularly sickening to Paul at this + time. Why need they put themselves in situations where it was required? + The situations were of his mother's creation. He imagined she must suffer, + but had little sympathy with that side of her martyrdom. Moya seemed a + trifle feverish in her acceptance of these affairs of which she was + naturally the life and centre. A day of entertaining often faded into an + evening of subtle sadness. + </p> + <p> + Paul would take her out into the moonlight of that deep inland country. + The trees were dark with leaves and brooded close above them; old + water-fences and milldams cast inky shadows on the still, shallow ponds + clasped in wooded hills. No region could have offered a more striking + contrast to the empty plains. Moya felt shut in with old histories. The + very ground was but moulding sand in which generations of human lives had + been poured, and the sand swept over to be reshaped for them. + </p> + <p> + “We are not living our own life yet,” Paul would say; not adding, “We are + protecting her.” Here was the beginning of punishment helplessly meted out + to this proud woman whose sole desire was towards her children—to + give, and not to receive. + </p> + <p> + “But this is our Garden?” Moya would muse. “We are as nearly two alone as + any two could be.” + </p> + <p> + “If you include the Snake. We can't leave out the Snake, you know.” + </p> + <p> + “Snake or Seraph—I don't believe I know the difference. Paul, I + cannot have you thinking things.” + </p> + <p> + “I?—what do I think?” + </p> + <p> + “You are thinking it is bad for me to be so much with her. You, as a man + and a husband, resent what she, as a woman and a wife, has dared to do. + And I, as another woman and wife, I say she could do nothing else and be + true. For, don't you see? She never loved him. The wifehood in her has + never been reached. She was a girl, then a mother, then a widow. How could + she”— + </p> + <p> + “Do you think he would have claimed her as his wife? Oh, you do not know + him;—she has never known him. If we could be brave and face our duty + to the whole truth, and leave the rest to those sequences, never dreamed + of, that wait upon great acts. Such surprises come straight from God. Now + we can never know how he would have risen to meet a nobler choice in her. + He had not far to rise! Well, we have our share of blessings, including + piazza teas; but as a family we have missed one of the greatest spiritual + opportunities,—such as come but once in a lifetime.” + </p> + <p> + “Ah, if she was not ready for it, it was not <i>her</i> opportunity. God + is very patient with us, I believe.” + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0023" id="link2H_4_0023"> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + XXIII. — RESTIVENESS + </h2> + <p> + Mothers and sons are rarely very personal in their intimacy after the son + has taken to himself a wife. Apart from certain moments not appropriate to + piazza teas, Paul and his mother were perhaps as comfortable together as + the relation averages. It was much that they never talked emotionally. + Private judgments which we have refrained from putting into words may die + unfruitful and many a bitter crop be spared. + </p> + <p> + “This is Paul's apology for being happy in spite of himself—and of + us!” Moya teased, as she admired the beautifully drawn plans for the + quarrymen's club-house. + </p> + <p> + “It doesn't need any apology; it's a very good thing,” said Mrs. Bogardus, + ignoring double meanings. No caps that were flying around ever fitted her + head. Paul's dreams and his mother's practical experience had met once + more on a common ground of philanthropy. This time it was a workingmen's + club in which the interests of social and mental improvement were + conjoined with facilities for outdoor sport. Up to date philanthropy is an + expensive toy. Paul, though now a landowner, was far from rich in his own + right. His mother financed this as she had many another scheme for him. + She was more openhanded than heretofore, but all was done with that + ennuyéd air which she ever wore as of an older child who has outgrown the + game. It was in Moya and Moya's prospective maternity that her pride + reinstated itself. Her own history and generation she trod underfoot. + Mistakes, humiliations, whichever way she turned. Paul had never satisfied + her entirely in anything he did until he chose this girl for the mother of + his children. Now their house might come to something. Moya moved before + her eyes crowned in the light of the future. And that this noble and + innocent girl, with her perfect intuitions, should turn to <i>her</i> now + with such impetuous affection was perhaps the sweetest pain the blighted + woman had ever known. She lay awake many a night thinking mute blessings + on the mother and the child to be. Yet she resisted that generous + initiative so dear to herself, aware with a subtle agony of the pain it + gave her son. + </p> + <p> + One day she said to Paul (they were driving home together through a bit of + woodland, the horses stepping softly on the mould of fallen leaves)—“I + don't expect you to account for every dollar of mine you spend in helping + those who can be helped that way. You have a free hand.” + </p> + <p> + “I understand,” said Paul. “I have used your money freely—for a + purpose that I never have accounted for.” + </p> + <p> + “Don't you need more?” + </p> + <p> + “No; there is no need now.” + </p> + <p> + “Why is there not?” + </p> + <p> + Paul was silent. “I cannot go into particulars. It is a long story.” + </p> + <p> + “Does the purpose still exist?” his mother asked sharply. + </p> + <p> + “It does; but not as a claim—for that sort of help.” + </p> + <p> + “Let me know if such a claim should ever return.” + </p> + <p> + “I will, mother,” said Paul. + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <p> + There came a day when mother and son reaped the reward of their mutual + forbearance. There was a night and a day when Paul became a boy again in + his mother's hands, and she took the place that was hers in Nature. She + was the priestess acquainted with mysteries. He followed her, and hung + upon her words. The expression of her face meant life and death to him. + The dreadful consciousness passed out of his eyes; tears washed it out as + he rose from his knees by Moya's bed, and his mother kissed him, and laid + his son in his arms. + </p> + <p> + The following summer saw the club-house and all its affiliations in + working order. The beneficiaries took to it most kindly, but were disposed + to manage it in their own way: not in all respects the way of the + founder's intention. + </p> + <p> + “To make a gift complete, you must keep yourself out of it,” Mrs. Bogardus + advised. “You have done your part; now let them have it and run it + themselves.” + </p> + <p> + Paul was not hungry for leadership, but he had hoped that his interest in + the men's amusements would bring him closer to them and equalize the + difference between the Hill and the quarry. + </p> + <p> + “You have never worked with them; how can you expect to play with them?” + was another of his mother's cool aphorisms. Alas! Paul, the son of the + poor man, had no work, and hence no play. + </p> + <p> + It was time to be making winter plans again. Mrs. Bogardus knew that her + son's young family was now complete without her presence. Moya had gained + confidence in the care of her child; she no longer brought every new + symptom to the grandmother. Yet Mrs. Bogardus put off discussing the + change, dreading to expose her own isolation, a point on which she was as + sensitive as if it were a crime. Paul was never entirely frank with her: + she knew he would not be frank in this. They never expressed their wills + or their won'ts to each other with the careless rudeness of a sound family + faith, and always she felt the burden of his unrelenting pity. She began + to take long drives alone, coming in late and excusing herself for dinner. + At such times she would send for her grandson in his nurse's arms to bid + him good-night. The mother would put off her own good-night, not to + intrude at these sessions. One evening, going up later to kiss her little + son, she found his crib empty, the nurse gone to her dinner. He was fast + asleep in his grandmother's arms, where she had held him for an hour in + front of the open fire in her bedroom. She looked up guiltily. “He was so + comfortable! And his crib is cold. Will he take cold when Ellen puts him + back?” + </p> + <p> + “I am sure he won't,” Moya whispered, gathering up the rosy sleeper. But + she was disturbed by the breach of bedtime rules. + </p> + <p> + In the drawing-room a few nights later she said energetically to Paul. + </p> + <p> + “One might as well be dead as to live with a grudge.” + </p> + <p> + “A good grudge?” + </p> + <p> + “There are no good grudges.” + </p> + <p> + “There are some honest ones—honestly come by.” + </p> + <p> + “I don't care how they are come by. Grudges 'is p'ison.'” She laughed, but + her cheeks were hot. + </p> + <p> + “Do you know that Christine has been at death's door? Your mother heard of + it—through Mrs. Bowen! Was that why you didn't show me her letter?” + </p> + <p> + “It was not in my letter from Mrs. Bowen.” + </p> + <p> + “I think she has known it some time,” said Moya, “and kept it to herself.” + </p> + <p> + “Mrs. Bowen!” + </p> + <p> + “Your mother. Isn't it terrible? Think how Chrissy must have needed her. + They need each other so! Christine was her constant thought. How can all + that change in one year! But she cannot go to Banks Bowen's house without + an invitation. We must go to New York and make her come with us—we + must open the way.” + </p> + <p> + “Yes,” said Paul, “I have seen it was coming. In the end we always do the + thing we have forsworn.” + </p> + <p> + “<i>I</i> was the one. I take it back. Your work is there. I know it calls + you. Was not Mrs. Bowen's letter an appeal?” + </p> + <p> + Paul was silent. + </p> + <p> + “She must think you a deserter. And there is bigger work for you, too! + Here is a great political fight on, and my husband is not in it. Every man + must slay his dragon. There is a whole city of dragons!” + </p> + <p> + “Yes,” smiled Paul; “I see. You want me to put my legs under the same + cloth with Banks and ask him about his golf score.” + </p> + <p> + “If you want to fight him, have it out on public grounds; fight him in + politics.” + </p> + <p> + “We are on the same side!” + </p> + <p> + Moya laughed, but she looked a little dashed. + </p> + <p> + “Banks comes of gentlemen. He inherited his opinions,” said Paul. + </p> + <p> + “He may have inherited a few other things, if we could have patience with + him.” + </p> + <p> + “Are you sorry for Banks?” + </p> + <p> + “I shall be sorry for him—when he meets you. He has been spared that + too long.” + </p> + <p> + “Dispenser of destinies, I bow as I always do!” + </p> + <p> + “You will speak to your mother at once?” + </p> + <p> + “I will.” + </p> + <p> + “And do it beautifully?” + </p> + <p> + “As well as I know how.” + </p> + <p> + “Ah, you have had such practice! How good it would be if we could only + dare to quarrel in this family! You and I—of course!” + </p> + <p> + “<i>We</i> quarrel, of course!” laughed Paul. + </p> + <p> + “I <i>love</i> to quarrel with you!” + </p> + <p> + “You do it beautifully. You have had such practice!” + </p> + <p> + “I am so happy! It is clear to me now that we shall live down this misery. + Christine will love to see me again; I know she will. A wife is a very + different thing from a girl—a haughty girl!” + </p> + <p> + “I should think the wife of Banks Bowen might be.” + </p> + <p> + “And we'll part with our ancient and honorable grudge! We are getting too + big for it. <i>We</i> are parents!” + </p> + <p> + Paul made the proposition to his mother and she agreed to it in every + particular save the one. She would remain at Stone Ridge. It was + impossible to move her. Moya was in despair. She had cultivated an + overweening conscience in her relations with Mrs. Bogardus. It turned upon + her now and showed her the true state of her own mind at the thought of + being Two once more and alone with the child God had given them. Mrs. + Bogardus appeared to see nothing but her own interests in the matter. She + had made up her mind. And in spite of the conscientious scruples on all + sides, the hedging and pleading and explaining, all were happier in the + end for her decision. She herself was softened by it, and she yielded one + point in return. Paul had steadily opposed his mother's plan of + housekeeping, alone with one maid and a man who slept at the stables. The + Dunlops, as it happened, were childless for the winter, young Chauncey + attending a “commercial college” in a neighboring town. After many + interviews and a good deal of self-importance on Cerissa's part, the pair + were persuaded to close the old house and occupy the servants' wing on the + Hill, as a distinct family, yet at hand in case of need. It was late + autumn before all these arrangements could be made. Paul and Moya, leaving + the young scion aged nineteen months in the care of his nurse and his + grandmother, went down the river to open the New York house. + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0024" id="link2H_4_0024"> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + XXIV. — INDIAN SUMMER + </h2> + <p> + The upper fields of Stone Ridge, so the farmers said, were infested that + autumn by a shy and solitary vagrant, who never could be met with face to + face, but numbers of times had been seen across the width of a lot, + climbing the bars, or closing a gate, or vanishing up some crooked lane + that quickly shut him from view. + </p> + <p> + “I would look after that old chap if I was you, Chauncey. He'll be smoking + in your hay barns, and burn you out some o' these cold nights.” + </p> + <p> + Chauncey took these neighborly warnings with good-humored indifference. “I + haven't seen no signs of his doin' any harm,” he said. “Anybody's at + liberty to walk in the fields if there ain't a 'No Trespass' posted. I + rather guess he makes his bed among the corn stouks. I see prints of + someone's feet, goin' and comin'.” + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus was more herself in those days than she had been at any time + since the great North-western wilderness sent her its second message of + fear. Old memories were losing their sting. She could bear to review her + decision with a certain shrinking hardihood. Had the choice been given her + to repeat, her action had been the same. In so far as she had perjured + herself for the sake of peace in the family, she owned the sacrifice was + vain; but her own personality was the true reason for what she had done. + She was free in her unimpeachable widowhood—a mother who had never + been at heart a wife. She feared no ghosts this keen autumn weather, at + the summit of her conscious powers. Her dark eye unsheathed its glance of + authority. It was an eye that went everywhere, and everywhere was met with + signs that praised its oversight. Here was an out-worn inheritance which + one woman, in less than a third of her lifetime, had developed into a + competence for her son. He could afford to dream dreams of beneficence + with his mother to make them good. Yes, he needed her still. His child was + in her keeping; and, though brief the lease, that trust was no accident. + It was the surest proof he could have given her of his vital allegiance. + In the step which Paul and Moya were taking, she saw the first promise of + that wisdom she had despaired of in her son. In the course of years he + would understand her. And Christine? She rested bitterly secure in her + daughter's inevitable physical need of her. Christine was a born parasite. + She had no true pride; she was capable merely of pique which would wear + itself out and pass into other forms of selfishness. + </p> + <p> + This woman had been governed all her life by a habit of decision, and a + strong personality rooted in the powers of nature. Therefore she was + seldom mistaken in her conclusions when they dealt with material results. + Occasionally she left out the spirit; but the spirit leaves out no one. + </p> + <p> + Her long dark skirts were sweeping the autumn grass at sunset as she paced + back and forth under the red-gold tents of the maples. It was a row of + young trees she had planted to grace a certain turf walk at the top of the + low wall that divided, by a drop of a few feet, the west lawn at Stone + Ridge from the meadow where the beautiful Alderneys were pastured. The + maples turned purple as the light faded out of their tops and struck flat + across the meadow, making the grass vivid as in spring. Two spots of color + moved across it slowly—a young woman capped and aproned, urging + along a little trotting child. Down the path of their united shadows they + came, and the shadows had reached already the dividing wall. The waiting + smile was sweet upon the grandmother's features; her face was transformed + like the meadow into a memory of spring. The child saw her, and waved to + her with something scarlet which he held in his free hand. She admired the + stride of his brown legs above their crumpled socks, the imperishable look + of health on his broad, sweet glowing face. She lifted him high in her + embrace and bore him up the hill, his dusty shoes dangling against her + silk front breadths, his knees pressed tight against her waist, and over + her shoulder he flourished the scarlet cardinal flower. + </p> + <p> + “Where have you been with him so long?” she asked the nursemaid. + </p> + <p> + “Only up in the lane, as far as the three gates, ma'am.” + </p> + <p> + “Then where did he get this flower?” + </p> + <p> + “Oh,” said the pretty Irish girl, half scared by her tone, and tempted to + prevaricate. “Why—he must have picked it, I guess.” + </p> + <p> + “Not in the lane. It's a swamp-flower. It doesn't grow anywhere within + four miles of the lane!” + </p> + <p> + “It must have been the old man gev it him then,” said the maid. “Is it + unhealthy, ma'am? I tried to get it from him, but he screamed and fussed + so.” + </p> + <p> + “What old man do you mean?” + </p> + <p> + “Why, him that was passin' up the lane. I didn't see him till he was clean + by—and Middy had the flower. I don't know where in the world he + could have got it, else, for we wasn't one step out of the lane, was we, + Middy! That's the very truth.” + </p> + <p> + “But where were you when strangers were giving him flowers?” + </p> + <p> + “Why, sure, ma'am, I was only just a step away be the fence, having a word + with one o' the boys. I was lookin' in the field, speakin' to him and he + was lookin' at me with me back to the lane. 'There's the old man again,' + he says, shiftin' his eye. I turned me round and there, so he was, but he + was by and walkin' on up the lane. And Middy had the flower. He wouldn't + be parted from it and squeezed it so tight I thought the juice might be + bad on his hands, and he promised he'd not put it to his mouth. I kep' my + eye on him. Ah, the nasty, na-asty flower! Give it here to Katy till I + throw it!” + </p> + <p> + “There's no harm in the flower. But there is harm in strangers making up + to him when your back is turned. Don't you know the dreadful things we + read in the papers?” + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus said no more. It was Middy's supper-time. But later she + questioned Katy particularly concerning this old man who was spoken of + quite as if his appearance were taken for granted in the heart of the + farm. Katy recalled one other day when she had seen him asleep as she + thought in a corner of the fence by the big chestnut tree when she and the + boy were nutting. They had moved away to the other side of the tree, but + while she was busy hunting for nuts Middy had strayed off a bit and + foregathered with the old man, who was not asleep at all, but stood with + his back to her pouring a handful of big fat chestnuts into the child's + little skirt, which he held up. She called to him and the old man had + stepped back, and the nuts were spilled. Middy had cried and made her pick + them up, and when that was done the stranger was gone quite out of sight. + </p> + <p> + Chauncey, too, was questioned, and testified that the old man of the + fields was no myth. But he deprecated all this exaggerated alarm. The + stranger was some simple-minded old work-house candidate putting off the + evil day. In a few weeks he would have to make for shelter in one of the + neighboring towns. Chauncey could not see what legal hold they had upon + him even if they could catch him. He hardly came under the vagrancy law, + since he had neither begged, nor helped himself appreciably to the means + of subsistence. + </p> + <p> + “That is just the point,” Mrs. Bogardus insisted. “He has the means—from + somewhere—to lurk around here and make friends with that child. + There may be a gang of kidnappers behind him. He is the harmless looking + decoy. I insist that you keep a sharp lookout, Chauncey. There shall be a + hold upon him, law or no law, if we catch him on our ground.” + </p> + <p> + A cold rain set in. Paul and Moya wrote of delays in the house + preparations, and hoped the grandmother was not growing tired of her + charge. On the last of the rainy days, in a burst of dubious sunshine, + came a young girl on horseback to have tea with Mrs. Bogardus. She was one + of that lady's discoverers, so she claimed, Miss Sallie Remsen, very + pretty and full of fantastic little affectations founded on her intense + appreciation of the picturesque. She called Mrs. Bogardus “Madam,” and + likened her to various female personages in history more celebrated for + strength of purpose than for the Christian virtues. Mrs. Bogardus, in her + restful ignorance of such futilities, went no deeper into these allusions + than their intention, which she took to be complimentary. Miss Sallie + hugged herself with joy when the rain came down in torrents for a clear-up + shower. Her groom was sent home with a note to inform her mother that Mrs. + Bogardus wished to keep her overnight. All the mothers were flattered when + Mrs. Bogardus took notice of their daughters,—even much grander + dames than she herself could pretend to be. + </p> + <p> + They had a charming little dinner by themselves to the tune of the rain + outside, and were having their coffee by the drawing-room fire; and Miss + Sallie was thinking by what phrase one could do justice to the massive, + crass ugliness of that self-satisfied apartment, furnished in the hideous + sixties, when the word was sent in that Mrs. Dunlop wished to speak with + Mrs. Bogardus. Something of Cerissa's injured importance survived the + transmission of the message, causing Mrs. Bogardus to smile to herself as + she rose. Cerissa was waiting in the dining-room. She kept her seat as + Mrs. Bogardus entered. Her eyes did not rise higher than the lady's dress, + which she examined with a fierce intentness of comparison while she opened + her errand. + </p> + <p> + “I thought you'd like to know you've got a strange lodger down to the old + house. I don't seem to ever get moved!” she enlarged. “I'm always runnin' + down there after first one thing 'n' another we've forgot. This morning 't + was my stone batter-pot. Chauncey said he thought it was getting cold + enough for buckwheat cakes. I don't suppose you want to have stray tramps + in there in the old house, building fires in the loom-room, where, if a + spark got loose, it would blaze up them draughty stairs, and the whole + house would go in a minute.” Cerissa stopped to gain breath. + </p> + <p> + “Making fires? Are you sure of that? Has any smoke been seen coming out of + that chimney?” + </p> + <p> + “Why, it's been raining so! And the trees have got so tall! But I could + show you the shucks an' shells he's left there. I know how we left it!” + </p> + <p> + “You had better speak—No; I will see Chauncey in the morning.” Mrs. + Bogardus never, if she could avoid it, gave an order through a third + person. + </p> + <p> + “Well, I thought I'd just step in. Chauncey said 't was no use disturbing + you to-night, but he's just that way—so easy about everything! I + thought you wouldn't want to be harboring tramps this wet weather when + most anybody would be tempted to build a fire. I'm more concerned about + what goes on down there now we're <i>out</i> of the house! I seem to have + it on my mind the whole time. A house is just like a child: the more you + don't see it the more you worry about it.” + </p> + <p> + “I'm glad you have such a home feeling about the place,” said Mrs. + Bogardus, avoiding the onset of words. “Well, good-evening, Cerissa. Thank + you for your trouble. I will see about it in the morning.” + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus mentioned what she had just heard to Miss Sallie, who + remarked, with her keen sense of antithesis, what a contrast <i>that</i> + fireside must be to <i>this</i>. + </p> + <p> + “Which fireside?” + </p> + <p> + “Oh, your lodger upon the cold ground,—making his little bit of a + stolen blaze in that cavern of a chimney in the midst of the wet trees! + What a nice thing to have an unwatched place like that where a poor bird + of passage can creep in and make his nest, and not trouble any one. Think + what Jean Valjeans one might shelter”— + </p> + <p> + “Who?” + </p> + <p> + “What 'angels unawares.'” + </p> + <p> + “It will be unawares, my dear,—very much unawares,—when I + shelter any angels of that sort.” + </p> + <p> + “Oh, you wouldn't turn him out, such weather as this?” + </p> + <p> + “The house is not mine, in the first place,” Mrs. Bogardus explained as to + a child. “I can't entertain tramps or even angels on my son's premises, + when he's away.” + </p> + <p> + “Oh, he! He would build the fires himself, and make up their beds,” + laughed Miss Sallie. “If he were here, I believe he would start down there + now, and stock the place with everything you've got in the house to eat.” + </p> + <p> + “I hope he'd leave us a little something for breakfast,” said Mrs. + Bogardus a trifle coldly. But she did not mention the cause of her + uneasiness about this particular visitor. She never defended herself. + </p> + <p> + Miss Sallie was delighted with her callousness to the sentimental rebuke + which had been rather rubbed in. It was so unmodern; one got so weary of + fashionable philanthropy, women who talked of their social sympathies and + their principles in life. She almost hoped that Mrs. Bogardus had neither. + Certainly she never mentioned them. + </p> + <p> + “What did she say? Did she tell you what I said to her last night?” + Cerissa questioned her husband feverishly after his interview with Mrs. + Bogardus. + </p> + <p> + “She didn't mention your name,” Chauncey took some pleasure in stating. + “If you hadn't told me yourself, I shouldn't have known you'd meddled in + it at all.” + </p> + <p> + “What's she going to do about it?” + </p> + <p> + “How crazy you women are! 'Cause some poor old Sooner-die-than-work warms + his bones by a bit of fire that wouldn't scare a chimbly swaller out of + its nest! Don't you s'pose if there'd been any fire there to speak of, I'd + 'a' seen it? What am I here for? Now I've got to drop everything, and git + a padlock on that door, and lock it up every night, and search the whole + place from top to bottom for fear there's some one in there hidin' in a + rathole!” + </p> + <p> + “Chauncey! If you've got to do that I don't want you to go in there alone. + You take one of the men with you; and you better have a pistol or one of + the dogs anyhow. Suppose you was to ketch some one in there, and corner + him! He might turn on you, and shoot you!” + </p> + <p> + “I wish you wouldn't work yourself up so about nothin' at all! Want me to + make a blame jackass of myself raisin' the whole place about a potato-peel + or a bacon-rind!” + </p> + <p> + “I think you might have some little regard for my feelings,” Cerissa + whimpered. “If you ain't afraid, I'm afraid for you; and I don't see + anything to be ashamed of either. I wish you <i>wouldn't</i> go <i>alone</i> + searching through that spooky old place. It just puts me beside myself to + think of it!” + </p> + <p> + “Well, well! That's enough about it anyhow. I ain't going to do anything + foolish, and you needn't think no more about it.” + </p> + <p> + Whether it was the effect of his wife's fears, or his promise to her, or + the inhospitable nature of his errand founded on suspicion, certainly + Chauncey showed no spirit of rashness in conducting his search. He knocked + the mud off his boots loudly on the doorsill before proceeding to attach + the padlock to the outer door. He searched the loom-room, lighting a + candle and peering into all its cobwebbed corners. He examined the rooms + lately inhabited, unlocking and locking doors behind him noisily with + increasing confidence in the good old house's emptiness. Still, in the + fireplace in the loom-room there were signs of furtive cooking which a + housekeeper's eye would infallibly detect. He saw that the search must + proceed. It was not all a question of his wife's fears, as he opened the + stair-door cautiously and tramped slowly up towards the tower bedroom. He + could not remember who had gone out last, on the day the old secretary was + moved down. There had been four men up there, and—yes, the key was + still in the lock outside. He clutched it and it fell rattling on the + steps. He swung the door open and stared into the further darkness beyond + his range of vision. He waved his candle as far as his arm would reach. + “Anybody <i>in</i> here?” he shouted. The silence made his flesh prick. + “I'm goin' to lock up now. Better show up. It's the last chance.” He + waited while one could count ten. “Anybody in here that wants to be let + free? Nobody's goin' to hurt ye.” + </p> + <p> + To his anxious relief there was no reply. But as he listened, he heard the + loud, measured tick, tick, of the old clock, appalling in the darkness, on + the silence of that empty room. Chauncey could not have told just how he + got the door to, nor where he found strength to lock it and drag his feet + downstairs, but the hand that held the key was moist with cold + perspiration as he reached the open air. + </p> + <p> + “Well, if that's rain I'd like to know where it comes from!” He looked up + at the moon breaking through drifting clouds. The night was keen and + clear. + </p> + <p> + “If I was to tell that to Cerissa she'd never go within a mile o' that + house again! Maybe I was mistaken—but I ain't goin' back to see!” + </p> + <p> + Next morning on calmer reflection he changed his mind about removing the + lawn-mower and other hand-tools from the loom-room as he had determined + overnight should be done. The place continued to be used as a storeroom, + open by day. + </p> + <p> + At night it was Chauncey's business to lock it up, and he was careful to + repeat his search—as far as the stair-door. Never did the silent + room above give forth a protest, a sound of human restraint or occupation. + He reported to the mistress that all was snug at the old house, and nobody + anywhere about the place. + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0025" id="link2H_4_0025"> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + XXV. — THE FELL FROST + </h2> + <p> + After the rain came milder days. The still white mornings slowly + brightened into hazy afternoons. The old moon like a sleep walker stood + exposed in the morning sky. The roads to Stone Ridge were deep in fallen + leaves. Soft-tired wheels rustled up the avenue and horses' feet fell + light, as the last of the summer neighbors came to say good-by. + </p> + <p> + It was a party of four—Miss Sallie and a good-looking youth of the + football cult on horseback, her mother and an elder sister, the delicate + Miss Remsen, in a hired carriage. Their own traps had been sent to town. + </p> + <p> + Tea was served promptly, as the visitors had a long road home before their + dinner-hour. In the reduced state of the establishment it was Katy who + brought the tea while Cerissa looked after her little charge. Cerissa sat + on the kitchen porch sewing and expanding under the deep attention of the + cook; they could see Middy a little way off on the tennis-court wiping the + mud gravely from a truant ball he had found among the nasturtiums. All was + as peaceful as the time of day and the season of the year. + </p> + <p> + “Yes,” said Cerissa solemnly. “Old Abraham Van Elten was too much cumbered + up with this world to get quit of it as easy as some. If his spirit is + burdened with a message to anybody it's to <i>her</i>. He died + unreconciled to her, and she inherited all this place in spite of him, as + you may say. I've come as near believin' in such things since the goings + on up there in that room”— + </p> + <p> + “She wants Middy fetched in to see the comp'ny,” cried Katy, bursting into + the sentence. “Where is he, till I clean him? And she wants some more + bread and butter as quick as ye can spread it.” + </p> + <p> + “Well, Katy!” said Cerissa slowly, with severe emphasis. “When I was a + girl, my mother used to tell me it wasn't manners to”— + </p> + <p> + “I haven't got time to hear about yer mother,” said Katy rudely. “What + have ye done with me boy?” The tennis-court lay vacant on the terrace in + the sun; the steep lawn sloped away and dipped into the trees. + </p> + <p> + “Don't call,” said the cook warily. “It'll only scare her. He was there + only a minute ago. Run, Katy, and see if he's at the stables.” + </p> + <p> + It was not noticed, except by Mrs. Bogardus, that no Katy, and no boy, and + no bread and butter, had appeared. Possibly the last deficiency had + attracted a little playful attention from the young horseback riders, who + were accusing each other of eating more than their respective shares. + </p> + <p> + At length Miss Sallie perceived there was something on her hostess's mind. + “Where is John Middleton?” she whispered. “Katy is dressing him all over, + from head to foot, isn't she? I hope she isn't curling his hair. John + Middleton has such wonderful hair! I refuse to go back to New York till I + have introduced you to John Middleton Bogardus,” she announced to the + young man, who laughed at everything she said. Mrs. Bogardus smiled + vacantly and glanced at the door. + </p> + <p> + “Let me go find Katy,” cried Miss Sally. Katy entered as she spoke, and + said a few words to the mistress. “Excuse me.” Mrs. Bogardus rose hastily. + She asked Miss Sallie to take her place at the tea-tray. + </p> + <p> + “What is it?” + </p> + <p> + “The boy—they cannot find him. Don't say anything.” She had turned + ashy white, and Katy's pretty flushed face had a wild expression. + </p> + <p> + In five minutes the search had begun. Mrs. Bogardus was at the telephone, + calling up the quarry, for she was short of men. One order followed + another quickly. Her voice was harsh and deep. She had frankly forgotten + her guests. Embarrassed by their own uselessness, yet unable to take + leave, they lingered and discussed the mystery of this sudden, acute + alarm. + </p> + <p> + “It is the sore spot,” said Miss Sally sentimentally. “You know her + husband was missing for years before she gave him up; and then that + dreadful time, three years ago, when they were so frightened about Paul.” + </p> + <p> + Having spread the alarm, Mrs. Bogardus took the field in person. Her head + was bare in the keen, sunset light. She moved with strong, fleet steps, + but a look of sudden age stamped her face. + </p> + <p> + “Go back, all of you!” she said to the women, who crowded on her heels. + “There are plenty of places to look.” Her stern eyes resisted their + frightened sympathy. She was not ready to yield to the consciousness of + her own fears. + </p> + <p> + To the old house she went, by some sure instinct that told her the road to + trouble. But her trouble stood off from her, and spared her for one moment + of exquisite relief; as if the child of Paul and Moya had no part in what + was waiting for her. The door at the foot of the stairs stood open. She + heard a soft, repeated thud. Panting, she climbed the stairs; and as she + rounded the shoulder of the chimney, there, on the top step above her, + stood the fair-haired child, making the only light in the place. He was + knocking, with his foolish ball, on the door of the chamber of fear. Three + generations of the living and the dead were brought together in this coil + of fate, and the child, in his happy innocence, had joined the knot. + </p> + <p> + The woman crouching on the stairs could barely whisper, “Middy!” lest if + she startled him he might turn and fall. He looked down at her, + unsurprised, and paused in his knocking. “Man—in there—won't + 'peak to Middy!” he said. + </p> + <p> + She crept towards him and sat below him, coaxing him into her lap. The + strange motions of her breast, as she pressed his head against her, kept + the boy quiet, and in that silence she heard an inner sound—the + awful pulse of the old clock beating steadily, calling her, demanding the + evidence of her senses,—she who feared no ghosts,—beating out + the hours of an agony she was there to witness. And she was yet in time. + The hapless creature entrapped within that room dragged its weight slowly + across the floor. The clock, sole witness and companion of its sufferings, + ticked on impartially. Neither is this any new thing, it seemed to say. A + life was starved in here before—not for lack of food, but love,—love,—love! + </p> + <p> + She carried the child out into the air, and he ran before her like a + breeze. The women who met them stared at her sick and desperate face. She + made herself quickly understood, and as each listener drained her meaning + the horror spread. There was but one man left on the place, within call, + he with the boyish face and clean brown hands, who had ridden across the + fields for an afternoon's idle pleasure. He stepped to her side and took + the key out of her hand. “You ought not to do this,” he said gently, as + their eyes met. + </p> + <p> + “Wednesday, Thursday, Friday,” she counted mechanically. “He has been in + there six days and seven nights by my orders.” She looked straight before + her, seeing no one, as she gave her commands to the women: fire and hot + water and stimulants, in the kitchen of the old house at once, and another + man, if one could be found to follow her. + </p> + <p> + The two figures moving across the grass might have stepped out of an + illustration in the pages of some current magazine. In their thoughts they + had already unlocked the door of that living death and were face to face + with the insupportable facts of nature. + </p> + <p> + The morbid, sickening, prison odor met them at the door—humanity's + helpless protest against bolts and bars. Again the young man begged his + companion not to enter. She took one deep breath of the pure outside air + and stepped before him. They searched the emptiness of the barely + furnished room. The clock ticked on to itself. Mrs. Bogardus's companion + stood irresolute, not knowing the place. The fetid air confused his + senses. But she went past him through the inner door, guided by + remembrance of the sounds she had heard. + </p> + <p> + She had seen it. She approached it cautiously, stooping for a better view, + and closing in upon it warily, as one cuts off the retreat of a creature + in the last agonies of flight. Her companion heard her say: “Show me your + face!—Uncover his face,” she repeated, not moving her eyes as he + stepped behind her. “He will not let me near him. Uncover it.” + </p> + <p> + The thing in the corner had some time been a man. There was still enough + manhood left to feel her eyes and to shrink as an earthworm from the + spade. He had crawled close to the baseboard of the room. An old man's + ashen beard straggled through the brown claws wrapped about the face. As + the dust of the threshing floor to the summer grain, so was his likeness + to one she remembered. + </p> + <p> + “I must see that man's face!” she panted. “He will die if I touch him. + Take away his hands.” It was done, with set teeth, and the face of the + football hero was bathed in sweat. He breathed through tense nostrils, and + a sickly whiteness spread backward from his lips. Suddenly he loosed his + burden. It fell, doubling in a ghastly heap, and he rushed for the open + air. + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus groaned. She raised herself up slowly, stretching back her + head. Her face was like the terrible tortured mask of the Medusa. She had + but a moment in which to recover herself. Deliberately she spoke when her + companion returned and stood beside her. + </p> + <p> + “That was my husband. If he lives I am still his wife. You are not to + forget this. It is no secret. Are you able to help me now? Get a blanket + from the women. I hear some one coming.” + </p> + <p> + She waited, with head erect and eyes closed and rigid tortured lips apart, + till the feet were heard at the door. + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <a name="link2H_4_0026" id="link2H_4_0026"> </a> + </p> + <div style="height: 4em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + <h2> + XXVI. — PEACE TO THIS HOUSE + </h2> + <p> + Mrs. Remsen and her delicate daughter had driven away to avoid excitement + and the night air. + </p> + <p> + Chauncey hovered round the piazza steps, talking, with but little + encouragement, to Miss Sallie and the young man who had become the centre + of all eyes. + </p> + <p> + “I don't see how anybody on the face of the earth could blame her, nor me + either!” Chauncey protested. “If the critter wanted to git out, why + couldn't he say so? I stood there holdin' the door open much as five + minutes. 'Who's in there?' I says. I called it loud enough to wake the + dead. 'Nobody wants to hurt ye,' says I. There want nothing to be afraid + of. He hadn't done nothing anyway. It's the strangest case ever I heard + tell of. And the doctor don't think he was much crazy either.” + </p> + <p> + “Can he live?” asked Miss Sallie. + </p> + <p> + “He's alive now, but doctor don't know how long he'll last. There he comes + now. I must go and git his horse.” + </p> + <p> + The doctor, who seemed nervous,—he was a young local practitioner,—asked + to speak with Miss Sallie's hero apart. + </p> + <p> + “Did Mrs. Bogardus say anything when she first saw that man? Did you + notice what she said?—how she took it?” + </p> + <p> + The hero, who was also a gentleman, looked at the doctor coolly. + </p> + <p> + “It was not a nice thing,” he said. “I saw just as little as I could.” + </p> + <p> + “You don't understand me,” said the doctor. “I want to know if Mrs. + Bogardus appeared to you to have made any discovery—received any + shock not to be accounted for by—by what you both saw?” + </p> + <p> + “I shouldn't attempt to answer such a question,” said the youngster + bluntly. “I never saw Mrs. Bogardus in my life before to-day.” + </p> + <p> + The doctor colored. “Mrs. Bogardus has given me a telegram to send, and I + don't know whether to send it or not. It's going to make a whole lot of + talk. I am not much acquainted with Mrs. Bogardus myself, except by + hearsay. That's partly what surprises me. It looks a little reckless to + send out such a message as that, by the first hand that comes along. + Hadn't we better give her time to think it over?” He opened the telegram + for the other to read. “The man himself can't speak. But he just pants for + breath every time she comes near him: he tries to hide his face. He acts + like a criminal afraid of being caught.” + </p> + <p> + “He didn't look that way to me—what was left of him. Not in the + least like a criminal.” + </p> + <p> + “Well, no; that's a fact, too. Now they've got him laid out clean and + neat, he looks as if he might have been a very decent sort of man. But <i>that</i>, + you know—that's incredible. If she knows him, why doesn't he know + her? Why won't he own her? He's afraid of her. His eyes are ready to burst + out of his head whenever she comes near him.” + </p> + <p> + “Did Mrs. Bogardus write that telegram herself?” + </p> + <p> + “She did.” + </p> + <p> + “And what did she tell you to do with it?” + </p> + <p> + “Send it to her son.” + </p> + <p> + “Then why don't you send it?” + </p> + <p> + This was the disputed message: “Come. Your father has been found. Bring + Doctor Gainsworth.” + </p> + <p> + In the local man's opinion, the writer of that dispatch was Doctor + Gainsworth's true patient. What could induce a woman in Mrs. Bogardus's + position to give such hasty publicity to this shocking disclosure, + allowing it were true? The more he dwelt on it the less he liked the + responsibility he was taking. He discussed it openly; and, with the best + intentions, this much-impressed young man gave out his own counter-theory + of the case, hoping to forestall whatever mischief might have been done. + He put himself in the place of Mr. Paul Bogardus, whom he liked extremely, + and tried to imagine that young gentleman's state of mind when he should + look upon this new-found parent, and learn the manner of his resurrection. + </p> + <p> + This was the explanation he boldly set forth in behalf of those most + nearly concerned. [He was getting up his diagnosis for an interesting half + hour with the great doctor who had been called in consultation.] The shock + of that awful discovery in the locked chamber, he attested, had put Mrs. + Bogardus temporarily beside herself. Outwardly composed, her nerves were + ripped and torn by the terrible sight that met her eyes. She was the prey + of an hallucination founded on memories of former suffering, which had + worn a channel for every fresh fear to seek. There was something truly + noble and loyal and pathetic in the nature of her possession. It threw a + softened light upon her past. How must she have brooded, all these years, + for that one thought to have ploughed so deep! It was quite commonly known + in the neighborhood that she had come back from the West years ago without + her husband, yet with no proof of his death. But who could have believed + she would cling for half a lifetime to this forlorn expectancy, depicting + her own loss in every sad hulk of humanity cast upon her prosperous + shores! + </p> + <p> + Every one believed she was deceiving herself, but great honor was hers + among the neighbors for the plain truth and courage of her astonishing + avowal. They had thought her proud, exclusive, hard in the security of + wealth. Here she stood by a pauper's bed in the name of simple constancy, + stripping herself of all earthly surplusage, exposing her deepest wound, + proclaiming the bond—herself its only witness—between her and + this speechless wreck, drifting out on the tide of death. She had but to + let him go. It was the wild word she had spoken in the name of truth and + deathless love that fired the imagination of that slow countryside. It was + the touch beyond nature that appeals to the higher sense of a community, + and there is no community without a soul. + </p> + <p> + The straight demands of justice are frequently hard to meet, but its + ironies are crushing. Mrs. Bogardus had fallen back on the line of a + mother's duty since that moment of personal accountability. She read the + unspoken reverence in the eyes of all around her, but she put in no + disclaimer. Her past was not her own. She could not sin alone. Only those + who have been honest are privileged under all conditions to remain so. + </p> + <p> + On his arrival with the doctor, Paul endeavored first to see his mother + alone. For some reason she would not have it so. She took the unspeakable + situation as it came. He was shown into the room where she sat, and by her + orders Doctor Gainsworth was with him. + </p> + <p> + She rose quietly and came to meet them. Placing her hand in her son's arm, + and looking towards the bed, she said:— + </p> + <p> + “Doctor—my husband.” + </p> + <p> + “Madam!” said Doctor Gainsworth. He had been Mrs. Bogardus's family + physician for many years. + </p> + <p> + “My husband,” she repeated. + </p> + <p> + The doctor appeared to accept the statement. As the three approached the + bed Mrs. Bogardus leaned heavily upon her son. Paul released his arm and + placed it firmly around her. He felt her shudder. “Mother,” he said to her + with an indescribable accent that tore her heart. + </p> + <p> + The doctor began his examination. He addressed his patient as “Mr. + Bogardus.” + </p> + <p> + “Mistake,” said a low, husky voice from the bed. “This ain't the man.” + </p> + <p> + Doctor Gainsworth pursued his investigations. “What is your name?” he + asked the patient suddenly. + </p> + <p> + The hunted eyes turned with ghastly appeal upon the faces around him. + </p> + <p> + “Paul, speak to him! Own your father,” Mrs. Bogardus whispered + passionately. + </p> + <p> + “It is for him to speak now,” said Paul. “When he is well, Doctor,” he + added aloud, “he will know his own name.” + </p> + <p> + “This man will never be well,” the doctor answered. “If there is anything + to prove, for or against the identity you claim for him, it will have to + be done within a very few days.” + </p> + <p> + Doctor Gainsworth rose and held out his hand. He was a man of delicate + perceptions. His respect at that moment for Mrs. Bogardus, though founded + on blindest conjecture, was an emotion which the mask of his professional + manner could barely conceal. “As a friend, Mrs. Bogardus, I hope you will + command me—but you need no doctor here.” + </p> + <p> + “As a friend I ask you to believe me,” she said. “This man <i>is</i> my + husband. He came back here because this was his home. I cannot tell you + any more, but this we expect you and every one who knows”— + </p> + <p> + The dissenting voice from the bed closed her assertion with a hoarse “No! + Not the man.” + </p> + <p> + “Good-by, Mrs. Bogardus,” said the doctor. “Don't trouble to explain. You + and I have lived too long and seen too much of life not to recognize its + fatalities: the mysterious trend in the actions of men and women that + cannot be comprised in—in the locking of a door.” + </p> + <p> + “It is of little consequence—what was done, compared to what was not + done.” This was all the room for truth she could give herself to turn in. + The doctor did not try to understand her: yet she had snatched a little + comfort from merely uttering the words. + </p> + <p> + Paul and the doctor dined together, Mrs. Bogardus excusing herself. + </p> + <p> + “There seems to be an impression here,” said the doctor, examining the + initials on his fish-fork, “that your mother is indulging an overstrained + fancy in this melancholy resemblance she has traced. It does not appear to + have made much headway as a fact, which rather surprises me in a country + neighborhood. Possibly your doctor here, who seems a very good fellow, has + wished to spare the family any unnecessary explanations. If you'll let me + advise you, Paul, I would leave it as it is,—open to conjecture. + But, in whatever shape this impression may reach you from outside, I hope + you won't let it disturb you in the least, so far as it describes your + mother's condition. She is one of the few well-balanced women I have had + the honor to know.” + </p> + <p> + Paul did not take advantage of the doctor's period. He went on. + </p> + <p> + “Not that I do know her. Possibly you may not yourself feel that you + altogether understand your mother? She has had many demands upon her + powers of adaptation. I should imagine her not one who would adapt herself + easily, yet, once she had recognized a necessity of that sort, I believe + she would fit herself to its conditions with an exacting thoroughness + which in time would become almost, one might say, a second, an external + self. The 'lendings' we must all of us wear.” + </p> + <p> + “There will be no explanations,” said Paul, not coldly, but helplessly. + </p> + <p> + “Much the best way,” said the doctor relieved, and glad to be done with a + difficult undertaking. “If we are ever understood in this world, it is not + through our own explanations, but in spite of them. My daughters hope to + see a good deal of your charming wife this winter. I hear great pleasure + expressed at your coming back to town.” + </p> + <p> + “Thank you, Doctor. She will be up this evening. We shall stay here with + my mother for a time. It will be her desire to carry out this—recognition—to + the end. We must honor her wishes in the matter.” + </p> + <p> + The talk then fell upon the patient's condition. The doctor left certain + directions and took shelter in professional platitudes, but his eyes + rested with candid kindness upon the young man, and his farewell + hand-clasp was a second prolonged. + </p> + <p> + He went away in a state of simple wonderment, deeply marveling at Paul's + serenity. + </p> + <p> + “Extraordinary poise! Where does it come from? No: the boy is happy! He + hides it; but it is the one change in him. He has experienced a great + relief. Is it possible”— + </p> + <p> + On his way down the river the doctor continued to muse upon the dignity, + the amazingly beautiful behavior of this rising family in whose somewhat + commonplace city fortunes he had taken a friendly interest for years. He + owned that he had sounded them with too short a line. + </p> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <hr /> + <p> + <br /><br /> + </p> + <p> + Watching with the dying man hours when she was with him alone, Emily + Bogardus continued to test his resolution. He never retracted by a look—faithful + to the word she had spoken which made them strangers. + </p> + <p> + It was the slightest shell of mortality that ever detained a soul on + earth. The face, small like the face of an old, old child, waxed finer and + more spiritual, yet ever more startlingly did it bear the stamp of that + individuality which the spirit had held so cheap—the earthly so + impenetrated with the spiritual part that the face had become a + sublimation. As one sees a sheet of paper covered with writing wither in + flame and become a quivering ash, yet to the last attenuation of its fibre + the human characters will stand forth, till all is blown up chimney to the + stars. + </p> + <p> + Still, peaceful, implacable in its peace, settling down for the silence of + eternity. Still no sign. + </p> + <p> + The younger ones came and went. The little boy stole in alone and pushed + against his grandmother's knee,—she seated always by the bed,—gazed, + puzzled, at the strange, still face, and whispered obediently, + “Gran'faver.” There was no response. Once she took the boy and drew him + close and placed his little tender hand within the dry, crumpled husk + extended on the bedclothes. The eyes unclosed and rested long and + earnestly on the face of the child, who yawned as if hypnotized and flung + his head back on the grandmother's breast. She bent suddenly and laid her + own hand where the child's had been. The eyes turned inward and shut + again, but a sigh, so deep it seemed that another breath might never come, + was all her answer. + </p> + <p> + Past midnight of the fourth night's watch Paul was awakened by a light in + his room. His mother stood beside him, white and worn. “He is going,” she + said. It was the final rally of the body's resistance. A few moments' + expenditure, and that stubborn vitality would loose its hold.—The + strength of the soil! + </p> + <p> + The wife stood aside and gave up her place to the children. Her expression + was noble, like a queen rebuked before her people. There was comfort in + that, too. A great, solemn, mutual understanding drew this death-bed group + together. Within the sickle's compass so they stood: the woman God gave + this man to found a home; the son who inherited his father's gentleness + and purity of purpose; the fair flower of the generations that father's + sacrifice had helped him win; the bud of promise on the topmost bough. + Those astonished eyes shed their last earthly light on this human group, + turned and rested in the eyes of the woman, faded, and the light went out. + He died, blessing her in one whispered word. Her name. + </p> + <p> + Before daybreak on the morning of the funeral, Paul awoke under pressure + of disturbing dreams. There were sounds of hushed movements in the house. + He traced them to the door of the room below stairs where his father lay. + Some one had softly unlocked that door, and entered. He knew who that one + must be. His place was there alone with his mother, before they were + called together as a family, and the mask of decency resumed for those + ironic rites in the presence of the unaccusing dead. + </p> + <p> + The windows had been lowered behind closed curtains, and the air of the + death chamber, as he entered, was like the touch of chilled iron to the + warm pulse of sleep. Without, a still dark night of November had frosted + the dead grass. + </p> + <p> + The unappeasable curiosity of the living concerning the Great Transition, + for the moment appeared to have swept all that was personal out of the + watcher's gaze, as she bent above the straightened body. And something of + the peace there dawning on the cold, still face was reflected in her own. + </p> + <p> + “You have never seen your father before. There he is.” She drew a deep + sigh, as if she had been too intent to breathe naturally. All her + self-consciousness suddenly was gone. And Paul remembered his dream, that + had goaded him out of sleep, and vanished with the shock of waking. It + gave him the key to this long-expected moment of confidence. + </p> + <p> + “The old likeness has come back,” his mother repeated, with that new + quietness which restored her to herself. + </p> + <p> + “I dreamed of that likeness,” said Paul, “only it was much stronger—startling—so + that the room was full of whispers and exclamations as the neighbors—there + were hundreds of them—filed past. And you stood there, mother, + flushed, and talking to each person who passed and looked at him and then + at you; you said—you”— + </p> + <p> + Mrs. Bogardus raised her head. “I know! I have been thinking all night. Am + I to do that? Is that what you wish me to do? Don't hesitate—to + spare me.” + </p> + <p> + “Mother! I could not imagine you doing such a thing. It was like insanity. + I wanted to tell you how horrible, how unseemly it was, because I was sure + you had been dwelling on some form—some outward”— + </p> + <p> + “No,” she said. “I know how I should face this if it were left to me. But + you are my only earthly judge, my son. Judge now between us two. Ask of me + anything you think is due to him. As to outsiders, what do they matter! I + will do anything you say.” + </p> + <p> + “<i>I</i> say! Oh, mother! Every hand he loved was against him—bruising + his gentle will. Each one of us has cast a stone upon his grave. But you + took the brunt of it. You spoke out plain the denial that was in my + coward's heart from the first. And I judged you! I—who uncovered my + father's soul to ease my own conscience, and put him to shame and torture, + and you to a trial worse than death. Now let us think of the whole of his + life. I have much to tell you. You could not listen before; but now he is + listening. I speak for him. This is how he loved us!” + </p> + <p> + In hard, brief words Paul told the story of his father's sin and + self-judgment; his abdication in the flesh; what he esteemed the rights to + be of a woman placed as he had placed his wife; how carefully he had + guarded her in those rights, and perjured himself at the last to leave her + free in peace and honor with her children. She listened, not weeping, but + with her great eyes shining in her pallid face. + </p> + <p> + “All that came after,” said Paul, taking her cold hands in his—“after + his last solemn recantation does not touch the true spirit of his + sacrifice. It was finished. My father died to us then as he meant to die. + The body remained—to serve out its time, as he said. But his brain + was tired. I do not think he connected the past very clearly with the + present. I think you should forget what has happened here. It was a + hideous net of circumstance that did it.” + </p> + <p> + “There is no such thing as circumstance,” said Mrs. Bogardus with + loftiness. Her face was calm and sweet in its exaltation. “I cannot say + things as you can, but this is what I mean. I was the wife of his body—sworn + flesh of his flesh. In the flesh that made us one I denied him, and caused + his death. And if I could believe as I used to about punishment, I would + lock myself in that room, and for every hour he suffered there, I would + suffer two. And no one should prevent me, or hasten the end. And the feet + of the young men that carried out my husband who lied to save me, should + wait there for me who lied to save myself. All lies are death. But what is + a made-up punishment to me! I shall take it as it comes—drop by drop—slowly.” + </p> + <p> + “Mother—my mother! The fashion of this world does not last; but one + thing does. Is it nothing to you, mother?” + </p> + <p> + “Have I my son—after all?” she said as one dreaming. + </p> + <p> + The night lamp expired in smoke that tainted the cold air. Paul drew back + the curtains one by one, and let in the new-born day. + </p> + <p> + “'Peace to this house,'” he said; “'not as the world giveth,'” his thought + concluded. + </p> + <div style="height: 6em;"> + <br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /> + </div> + + + + + + + +<pre> + + + + + +End of Project Gutenberg's The Desert and The Sown, by Mary Hallock Foote + +*** END OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE DESERT AND THE SOWN *** + +***** This file should be named 8219-h.htm or 8219-h.zip ***** +This and all associated files of various formats will be found in: + http://www.gutenberg.org/8/2/1/8219/ + + +Text file produced by Eric Eldred, Clay Massei and the Online +Distributed Proofreading Team + +HTML file produced by David Widger + + +Updated editions will replace the previous one--the old editions +will be renamed. + +Creating the works from public domain print editions means that no +one owns a United States copyright in these works, so the Foundation +(and you!) can copy and distribute it in the United States without +permission and without paying copyright royalties. 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