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Title: The Sisters-In-Law
A Novel of Our Time
Author: Gertrude Atherton
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THE SISTERS-IN-LAW
A NOVEL OF OUR TIME
BY GERTRUDE ATHERTON
TO DR. ALANSON WEEKS OF SAN FRANCISCO
Several people who enter casually into this novel are leading
characters in other novels and stories of the "California Series,"
which covers the social history of the state from the beginning of the
last century. They are Gwynne, his mother, Lady Victoria Gwynne, Isabel
Otis and the Hofers in ANCESTORS; the Randolphs in A DAUGHTER OF THE
VINE; Lee Tarlton, Lady Barnstable, Lady Arrowmount, Coralie Geary, the
Montgomerys and Trennahans in TRANSPLANTED and THE CALIFORNIANS;
Rezanov in the novel of that name, and Chonita Iturbi y Moncada in THE
DOOMSWOMAN, both bound in the volume, BEFORE THE GRINGO CAME; The Price
Ruylers in THE AVALANCHE.
BOOK I
CHAPTER I
I
The long street rising and falling and rising again until its farthest
crest high in the east seemed to brush the fading stars, was deserted
even by the private watchmen that guarded the homes of the apprehensive
in the Western Addition. Alexina darted across and into the shadows of
the avenue that led up to her old-fashioned home, a relic of San
Francisco's "early days," perched high on the steepest of the casual
hills in that city of a hundred hills.
She was breathless and rather frightened, for although of an
adventurous spirit, which had led her to slide down the pillars of the
verandah at night when her legs were longer than her years, and during
the past winter to make a hardly less dignified exit by a side door
when her worthy but hopelessly Victorian mother was asleep, this was
the first time that she had been out after midnight.
And it was five o'clock in the morning!
She had gone with Aileen Lawton, her mother's pet aversion, to a party
given by one of those new people whom Mrs. Groome, a massive if
crumbling pillar of San Francisco's proud old aristocracy, held in
pious disdain, and had danced in the magnificent ballroom with the
tireless exhilaration of her eighteen years until the weary band had
played Home Sweet Home.
She had never imagined that any entertainment could be so brilliant,
even among the despised nouveaux riches, nor that there were so many
flowers even in California. Her own coming-out party in the dark double
parlors of the old house among the eucalyptus trees, whose moans and
sighs could be heard above the thin music of piano and violin, had been
so formal and dull that she had cried herself to sleep after the last
depressed member of the old set had left on the stroke of midnight.
Even Aileen's high mocking spirits had failed her, and she had barely
been able to summon them for a moment as she kissed the friend, to whom
she was sincerely devoted, a sympathetic good-night.
"Never mind, old girl. Nothing can ever be worse. Not even your own
funeral. That's one comfort."
II
That had been last November. During the ensuing five months Alexina had
been taken by her mother to such entertainments as were given by other
members of that distinguished old band, whose glory, like Mrs. Groome's
own, had reached its meridian in the last of the eighties.
Not that any one else in San Francisco was quite as exclusive as Mrs.
Groome. Others might be as faithful in their way to the old tradition,
be as proud of their inviolate past, when "money did not count," and
people merely "new," or of unknown ancestry, did not venture to knock
at the gates: but the successive flocks of young folks had overpowered
their conservative parents, and Society had loosened its girdle, until
in this year of grace nineteen-hundred-and-six, there were few rich
people so hopelessly new that their ball rooms either in San Francisco
or "Down the Peninsula," were unknown to a generation equally
determined to enjoy life and indifferent to traditions.
Mrs. Groome alone had set her face obdurately against any change in the
personnel of the eighties. She had the ugliest old house in San
Francisco, and the change from lamps to gas had been her last
concession to the march of time. The bath tubs were tin and the double
parlors crowded with the imposing carved Italian furniture whose like
every member of her own set had, in the seventies and eighties, brought
home after their frequent and prolonged sojourns abroad: for the
prouder the people of that era were of their lofty social position on
the edge of the Pacific, the more time did they spend in Europe.
Mrs. Groome might be compelled therefore to look at new people in the
homes of her friends--even her proud daughter, Mrs. Abbott, had
unaccountably surrendered to the meretricious glitter of
Burlingame--but she would not meet them, she would not permit Alexina
to cross their thresholds, nor should the best of them ever cross her
own.
Poor Alexina, forced to submit, her mother placidly impervious to
coaxings, tears, and storms, had finally compromised the matter to the
satisfaction of herself and of her own close chosen friend, Aileen
Lawton. She accompanied her mother with outward resignation to small
dinner dances and to the Matriarch balls, presided over by the newly
elected social leader, a lady of unimpeachable Southern ancestry and
indifference to wealth, who pledged her Virginia honor to Mrs. Groome
that Alexina should not be introduced to any young man whose name was
not on her own visiting list; and, while her mother slept, the last of
the Ballinger-Groomes accompanied Aileen (chaperoned by an unprincipled
aunt, who was an ancient enemy of Maria Groome) to parties quite as
respectable but infinitely gayer, and indubitably mixed.
She was quite safe, for Mrs. Groome, when free of social duties,
retired on the stroke of nine with a novel, and turned off the gas at
ten. She never read the society columns of the newspapers, choked as
they were with unfamiliar and plebeian names; and her friends,
regarding Alexina's gay disobedience as a palatable joke on "poor old
Maria," and sympathetic with youth, would have been the last to
enlighten her.
III
Alexina had never enjoyed herself more than to-night. Young Mrs. Hofer,
who had bought and remodeled the old Polk house on Nob Hill--the very
one in which Mrs. Groome's oldest daughter had made her debut in the
far-off eighties--had turned all her immense rooms into a bower of
every variety of flower that bloomed on the rich California soil. It
was her second great party of the season, and it had been her avowed
intention to outdo the first, which had attempted a revival of Spanish
California and been the talk of the town. The decorations had been done
by a firm of young women whose parents and grandparents had danced in
the old house, and the catering by another scion of San Francisco's
social founders, Miss Anne Montgomery.
To do Mrs. Groome full justice, all of these enterprising young women
were welcome in her own home. She regarded it as unfortunate that
ladies were forced to work for their living, but had seen too many San
Francisco families in her own youth go down to ruin to feel more than
sorrow. In that era the wives of lost millionaires had knitted baby
socks and starved slowly. Even she was forced to admit that the newer
generation was more fortunate in its opportunities.
Alexina had not gone to Mrs. Hofer's first party, Aileen being in Santa
Barbara, but she had sniffed at the comparisons of the more critical
girls in their second season. She was quite convinced that nothing so
splendid had ever been given in the world. She had danced every dance.
She had had the most delicious things to eat, and never had she met so
charming a young man as Mortimer Dwight.
"Some party," she thought as she ran up the steep avenue to her
sacrosanct abode, where her haughty mother was chastely asleep, secure
in the belief that her obedient little daughter was dreaming in her
maiden bower.
"What the poor old darling doesn't know 'll never hurt her," thought
Alexina gayly. "She really is old enough to be my grandmother, anyhow.
I wonder if Maria and Sally really stood for it or were as naughty as I
am."
Alexina was the youngest of a long line of boys and girls, all of whom
but five were dead. Ballinger and Geary practiced law in New York,
having married sisters who refused to live elsewhere. Sally had married
one of their Harvard friends and dwelt in Boston. Maria alone had wed
an indigenous Californian, an Abbott of Alta in the county of San
Mateo, and lived the year round in that old and exclusive borough. She
was now so like her mother, barring a very slight loosening of her own
social girdle, that Alexina dismissed as fantastic the notion that even
a quarter of a century earlier she may have had any of the promptings
of rebellious youth.
"Not she!" thought Alexina grimly. "Oh, Lord! I wonder if my summer
destiny is Alta."
CHAPTER II
I
She was quite breathless as she reached the eucalyptus grove and paused
for a moment before slipping into the house and climbing the stairs.
The city lying in the valleys and on the hills arrested her attention,
for it was a long while since she had been awake and out of doors at
five in the morning.
It looked like the ghost of a city in that pallid dawn. The houses
seemed to have huddled together as if in fear before they sank into
sleep, to crouch close to the earth as if warding off a blow. Only the
ugly dome of the City Hall, the church steeples, and the old shot tower
held up their heads, and they had an almost terrifying sharpness of
outline, of alertness, as if ready to spring.
In that far-off district known as "South of Market Street," which she
had never entered save in a closed carriage on her way to the Southern
Pacific Station or to pay a yearly call on some old family that still
dwelt on that oasis, Rincon Hill--sole outpost of the social life of
the sixties--infrequent thin lines of smoke rose from humble chimneys.
It was the region of factories and dwellings of the working-class, but
its inhabitants were not early risers in these days of high wages and
short hours.
Even those gray spirals ascended as if the atmosphere lay heavy on
them. They accentuated the lifelessness, the petrifaction, the intense
and sinister quiet of the prostrate city.
Alexina shuddered and her volatile spirits winged their way down into
those dark and intuitive depths of her mind she had never found time to
plumb. She knew that the hour of dawn was always still, but she had
never imagined a stillness so complete, so final as this. Nor was there
any fresh lightness in the morning air. It seemed to press downward
like an enormous invisible bat; or like the shade of buried cities,
vain outcroppings of a vanished civilization, brooding menacingly over
this recent flimsy accomplishment of man that Nature could obliterate
with a sneer.
Alexina, holding her breath, glanced upward. That ghost of evening's
twilight, the sad gray of dawn, had retreated, but not before the
crimson rays of sunrise. The unflecked arc above was a hard and steely
blue. It looked as if marsh lights would play over its horrid surface
presently, and then come crashing down as the pillars of the earth gave
way.
II
Alexina was a child of California and knew what was coming. She barely
had time to brace herself when she saw the sleeping city jar as if
struck by a sudden squall, and with the invisible storm came a loud
menacing roar of imprisoned forces making a concerted rush for freedom.
She threw her arms about one of the trees, but it was bending and
groaning with an accent of fear, a tribute it would have scorned to
offer the mighty winds of the Pacific. Alexina sprang clear of it and
unable to keep her feet sat down on the bouncing earth.
Then she remembered that it was a rigid convention among real
Californians to treat an earthquake as a joke, and began to laugh.
There was nothing hysterical in this perfunctory tribute to the lesser
tradition and it immediately restored her courage. Moreover, the
curiosity she felt for all phases of life, psychical and physical, and
her naive delight in everything that savored of experience, caused her
to stare down upon the city now tossing and heaving like the sea in a
hurricane, with an almost impersonal interest.
The houses seemed to clutch at their precarious foundations even while
they danced to the tune of various and appalling noises. Above the
ascending roar of the earthquake Alexina heard the crashing of
steeples, the dome of the City Hall, of brick buildings too hastily
erected, of ten thousand falling chimneys; of creaking and grinding
timbers, and of the eucalyptus trees behind her, whose leaves rustled
with a shrill rising whisper that seemed addressed to heaven; the
neighing and pawing of horses in the stables, the sharp terrified yelps
of dogs; and through all a long despairing wail. The mountains across
the bay and behind the city were whirling in a devil's dance and the
scattered houses on their slopes looked like drunken gnomes. The shot
tower bowed low and solemnly but did not fall.
III
As the earth with a final leap and twist settled abruptly into peace,
the streets filled suddenly with people, many in their nightclothes,
but more in dressing-gowns, opera cloaks, and overcoats. All were
silent and apparently self-possessed. Whence came that long wail no one
ever knew.
Alexina, remembering her own attire, sprang to her feet and ran through
the little side door and up the stair, praying that her mother, with
her usual monumental poise, would have disdained to rise. She had never
been known to leave her room before eight.
But as Alexina ran along the upper hall she became only too aware that
Mrs. Groome had surrendered to Nature, for she was pounding on her door
and in a haughty but quivering voice demanding to be let out.
Alexina tiptoed lightly to the threshold of her room and called out
sympathetically:
"What is the matter, mother dear! Has your door sprung?"
"It has. Tell James to come here at once and bring a crow-bar if
necessary."
"Yes, darling."
Alexina let down her hair and tore off her evening gown, kicking it
into a closet, then threw on a bathrobe and ran over to the servants'
quarters in an extension behind the house. They were deserted, but wild
shrieks and gales of unseemly laughter arose from the yard. She opened
a window and saw the cook, a recent importation, on the ground in
hysterics, the housemaid throwing water on her, and the inherited
butler calmly lighting his pipe.
"James," she called. "My mother's door is jammed. Please come right
away."
"Yes, miss." He knocked his pipe against the wall and ground out the
life of the coal with his slippered heel. "Just what happened to your
grandmother in the 'quake of sixty-eight. I mind the time I had getting
her out."
IV
It was quite half an hour before the door yielded to the combined
efforts of James and the gardener-coachman, and during the interval
Mrs. Groome recovered her poise and made her morning toilette.
She had taken her iron-gray hair from its pins and patted the narrow
row of frizzes into place; the flat side bands, the concise coil of
hair on top were as severely disdainful of untoward circumstance or
passing fashion as they had been any morning these forty years or more.
She wore old-fashioned corsets and was abdominally correct for her
years; a long gown of black voile with white polka dots, and a guimpe
of white net whose raff of chiffon somewhat disguised the wreck of her
throat. On her shoulders, disposed to rheumatism, she wore a tippet of
brown marabout feathers, and in her ears long jet earrings.
She had the dark brown eyes of the Ballingers, but they were bleared at
the rims, and on the downward slope of her fine aquiline nose she wore
spectacles that looked as if mounted in cast iron. Altogether an
imposing relic; and "that built-up look" as Aileen expressed it, was
the only one that would have suited her mental style. Mrs. Abbott, who
dressed with a profound regard for fashion, had long since concluded
that her mother's steadfast alliance with the past not only became her
but was a distinct family asset. Only a woman of her overpowering
position could afford it.
Mrs. Groome's skin had never felt the guilty caress of cold-cream or
powder, and if it was mahogany in tint and deeply wrinkled, it was at
least as respectable as her past. In her day that now bourgeois
adjective--twin to genteel--had been synchronous with the equally
obsolete word swell, but it had never occurred to even the more modern
Mrs. Abbott and her select inner circle of friends, dwelling on family
estates in the San Mateo valley, to change in this respect at least
with the changing times.
V
Alexina had washed the powder from her own fresh face and put on a
morning frock of green and brown gingham, made not by her mother's
dressmaker but by her sister's. Her soft dusky hair, regardless of the
fashion of the moment, was brushed back from her forehead and coiled at
the base of her beautiful little head. Her long widely set gray eyes,
their large irises very dark and noticeably brilliant even for youth,
had the favor of black lashes as fine and lusterless as her hair, and
very narrow black polished eyebrows. Her skin was a pale olive lightly
touched with color, although the rather large mouth with its definitely
curved lips was scarlet. Her long throat like the rest of her body was
white.
All the other children had been clean-cut Ballingers or Groomes,
consistently dark or fair; but it would seem that Nature, taken by
surprise when the little Alexina came along several years after her
mother was supposed to have discharged her debt, had mixed the colors
hurriedly and quite forgotten her usual nice proportions.
The face, under the soft lines of youth, was less oval than it looked,
for the chin was square and the jaw bone accentuated. The short
straight thin nose reclaimed the face and head from too classic a
regularity, and the thin nostrils drew in when she was determined and
shook quite alarmingly when she was angry.
These more significant indications of her still embryonic personality
were concealed by the lovely curves and tints of her years, the
brilliant happy candid eyes (which she could convert into a madonna's
by the simple trick of lifting them a trifle and showing a lower
crescent of devotional white), the love of life and eagerness to enjoy
that radiated from her thin admirably proportioned body, which, at this
time, held in the limp slouching fashion of the hour, made her look
rather small. In reality she was nearly as tall as her mother or the
dignified Mrs. Abbott, who rejoiced in every inch of her five feet
eight, and retained the free erect carriage of her girlhood.
Alexina, with a sharp glance about her disordered room, hastily
disarranged her bed, and, sending her ball slippers after the gown, ran
across the hall and threw herself into her mother's arms.
"Some earthquake, what? You are sure you are not hurt, mommy dear? The
plaster is down all over the house."
"More slang that you have learned from Aileen Lawton, I presume. It
certainly was a dreadful earthquake, worse than that of
eighteen-sixty-eight. Is anything valuable broken? There is always less
damage done on the hills. What is that abominable noise?"
The cook, who had recovered from her first attack, was emitting another
volley of shrieks, in which the word "fire" could be distinguished in
syllables of two.
Mrs. Groome rang the bell violently and the imperturbable James
appeared.
"Is the house on fire?"
"No, ma'am; only the city. It's worth looking at, if you care to step
out on the lawn."
Mrs. Groome followed her daughter downstairs and out of the house. Her
eyebrows were raised but there was a curious sensation in her knees
that even the earthquake had failed to induce. She sank into the chair
James had provided and clutched the arms with both hands.
"There are always fires after earthquakes," she muttered. "Impossible!
Impossible!"
"Oh, do you think San Francisco is really going?" cried Alexina, but
there was a thrill in her regret. "Oh, but it couldn't be."
"No! impossible, impossible!"
Black clouds of smoke shot with red tongues of flame overhung the city
at different points, although they appeared to be more dense and
frequent down in the "South of Market Street" region. There was also a
rolling mass of flame above the water front and sporadic fires in the
business district.
The streets were black with people, now fully dressed, and long
processions were moving steadily toward the bay as well as in the
direction of the hills behind the western rim of the city. James
brought a pair of field glasses, and Mrs. Groome discovered that the
hurrying throngs were laden with household goods, many pushing them in
baby carriages and wheelbarrows. It was the first flight of the
refugees.
"James!" said Mrs. Groome sharply. "Bring me a cup of coffee and then
go down and find out exactly what is happening."
James, too wise in the habits of earthquakes to permit the still
distracted cook to make a fire in the range, brewed the coffee over a
spirit lamp, and then departed, nothing loath, on his mission. Mrs.
Groome swallowed the coffee hastily, handed the cup to Alexina and
burst into tears.
"Mother!" Alexina was really terrified for the first time that morning.
Mrs. Groome practiced the severe code, the repressions of her class,
and what tears she had shed in her life, even over the deaths of those
almost forgotten children, had been in the sanctity of her bedroom.
Alexina, who had grown up under her wing, after many sorrows and trials
had given her a serenity that was one secret of her power over this
impulsive child of her old age, could hardly have been more appalled if
her mother had been stricken with paralysis.
"You cannot understand," sobbed Mrs. Groome. "This is my city! The city
of my youth; the city my father helped to make the great and wonderful
city it is. Even your father--he may not have been a good husband--Oh,
no! Not he!--but he was a good citizen; he helped to drag San Francisco
out of the political mire more than once. And now it is going! It has
always been prophesied that San Francisco would burn to the ground some
time, and now the time has come. I feel it in my bones."
This was the first reference other than perfunctory, that Alexina had
ever heard her mother make to her father, who had died when she was
ten. The girl realized abruptly that this elderly parent who, while
uniformly kind, had appeared to be far above the ordinary weaknesses of
her sex, had an inner life which bound her to the plane of mere
mortals. She had a sudden vision of an unhappy married life, silently
borne, a life of suppressions, bitter disappointments. Her chief
compensation had been the unwavering pride which had made the world
forget to pity her.
And it was the threatened destruction of her city that had beaten down
the defenses and given her youngest child a brief glimpse of that
haughty but shivering spirit.
VI
Alexina's mind, in spite of a great deal of worldly garnering with an
industrious and investigating scythe, was as immature as her years, for
she had felt little and lived not at all. But she had swift and deep
intuitions, and in spite of the natural volatility of youth, free of
care, she was fundamentally emotional and intense.
Swept from her poor little girlish moorings in the sophisticated sea of
the twentieth-century maiden, she had a sudden wild access of
conscience; she flung herself into her mother's arms and poured out the
tale of her nocturnal transgressions, her frequent excursions into the
forbidden realm of modern San Francisco, of her immense acquaintance
with people whose very names were unknown to Mrs. Groome, born
Ballinger.
Then she scrambled to her feet and stood twisting her hands together,
expecting a burst of wrath that would further reveal the pent-up fires
in this long-sealed volcano; for Alexina was inclined to the
exaggerations of her sex and years and would not have been surprised if
her mother, masterpiece of a lost art, had suddenly become as
elementary as the forces that had devastated San Francisco.
But there was only dismay in Mrs. Groome's eyes as she stared at her
repentant daughter. Her heart sank still lower. She had never been a
vain woman, but she had prided herself upon not feeling old. Suddenly,
she felt very old, and helpless.
"Well," she said in a moment. "Well--I suppose I have been wrong. There
are almost two generations between us. I haven't kept up. And you are
naturally a truthful child--I should have--"
"Oh, mother, you are not blaming yourself!" Alexina felt as if the
earth once more were dancing beneath her unsteady feet. "Don't say
that!"
The sharpness of her tone dispelled the confusion in Mrs. Groome's
mind. She hastily buckled on her armor.
"Let us say no more about it. I fancy it will be a long time before
there are any more parties in San Francisco, but when there are--well,
I shall consult Maria. I want your youth to be happy--as happy as mine
was. I suppose you young people can only be happy in the new way, but I
wish conditions had not changed so lamentably in San Francisco.... Who
is this?"
CHAPTER III
I
As Alexina followed her mother's eyes she flushed scarlet and turned
away her head. A young man was coming up the avenue. He was a very
gallant figure, moderately tall and very straight; he held his head
high, his features were strong in outline. But the noticeable thing
about him at this early hour of the morning and in the wake of a great
disaster was his consummate grooming.
"That--that--" stammered Alexina, "is Mr. Dwight. I met him last night
at the Hofers'."
The young man raised his hat and came forward quickly. "I hope you will
forgive me," he said with a charming deference, "but I couldn't resist
coming to see if you were all right. So many people are frightened of
fire--in their own houses."
"Mr. Dwight--my mother--"
He lifted his hat again. Mrs. Groome in her chastened mood regarded him
favorably, and for the moment without suspicion. At least he was a
gentleman; but who could he be?
"Dwight," she murmured. "I do not know the name. Were you born here?"
"I was born in Utica, New York. My parents came here when I was quite
young. We--always lived rather quietly."
"But you go about now? To all these parties?"
"Oh, yes. I like to dance after the day's work. But I am not what you
would call a society man. I haven't the time."
Mrs. Groome was not usually blunt, but she suddenly scented danger and
she had not fully recovered her poise.
"You are in business?" She disliked business intensely. All gentlemen
of her day had followed one of the professions.
"I am in a wholesale commission house. But I hope to be in business for
myself one day."
"Ah."
Still, all young men in this terrible twentieth century could not be
lawyers. Mrs. Groome knew enough of the march of time to be aware of
the increasing difficulties in gaining a bare livelihood. Tom Abbott
was a lawyer, like his father before him, and his grandfather in the
fifties. It was one of the oldest firms in San Francisco, but she
recalled his frequent and bitter allusions to the necessity of sitting
up nights these days if a man wanted to keep out of the poorhouse.
And at least this young man did not look like an idler or a wastrel. No
man could have so clear a skin and be so well-groomed at six in the
morning if he drank or gambled. Alexander Groome had done both and she
knew the external seals.
"Is Aileen Lawton a friend of yours?" she asked sharply.
"I have met Miss Lawton at a number of dances but she has not done me
the honor to ask me to call."
"I think the more highly of you. Judge Lawton is an old friend of mine.
His wife, who was much younger than the Judge, was an intimate friend
of my daughter, Mrs. Abbott. Alexina and Aileen have grown up together.
I find it impossible to forbid her the house. But I disapprove of her
in every way. She paints her lips, smokes cigarettes, boasts that she
drinks cocktails, and uses the most abominable slang. I kept my
daughter in New York for two years as much to break up the intimacy as
to finish her education, but the moment we returned the intimacy was
renewed, and for my old friend's sake I have been forced to submit. He
worships that--that--really ill-conditioned child."
"Oh--Miss Lawton is a good sort, and--well--I suppose her position is
so strong that she feels she can do as she pleases. But she is all
right, and not so different--"
"Do you mean to tell me that you approve of girls--nice
girls--ladies--painting themselves, smoking, drinking cocktails?"
"I do not." His tones were emphatic and his good American gray eyes
wandered to the fresh innocent face of the girl who had captivated him
last night.
"I should hope not. You look like an exceptionally decent young man.
Have you had breakfast? Alexina, go and ask Maggie, if she has
recovered herself, to make another cup of coffee."
II
Alexina disappeared, repressing a desire to sing; and young Dwight,
receiving permission, seated himself on the grass at Mrs. Groome's
feet. He was lithe and graceful and as he threw back his head and
looked up at his hostess with his straight, honest glance the good
impression he had made was visibly enhanced. Mrs. Groome gave him the
warm and gracious smile that only her intimate friends and paid
inferiors had ever seen.
"The young men of to-day are a great disappointment to me," she
observed.
"Oh, they are all right, I guess. Most of the men that go about have
rich fathers--or near-rich ones. I wish I had one myself."
"And you would be as dissipated as the rest, I presume."
"No, I have no inclinations that way. But a man gets a better start in
life. And a man's a nonentity without money."
"Not if he has family."
"My family is good--in Utica. But that is of no use to me here."
"But your family _is_ good?"
"Oh, yes, it goes 'way back. There is a family mansion in Utica that is
over two hundred years old. But when the business district swamped that
part of the old town it was sold, and what it brought was divided among
six. My father came out here but did not make much of a success of
himself, so that he and my mother might as well have been on the Fiji
Islands for all the notice society took of them."
He spoke with some bitterness, and Mrs. Groome, to whom dwelling beyond
the outer gates of San Francisco's elect was the ultimate tragedy,
responded sympathetically.
"Society here is not what it used to be, and no doubt is only too glad
to welcome presentable young men. I infer that you have not found it
difficult."
"Oh, I dance well, and my employer's son, Bob Cheever, took me in. But
I'm only tolerated. I don't count."
The old lady looked at him keenly. "You are ambitious?"
He threw back his head. "Well, yes, I am, Mrs. Groome. As far as
society goes it is a matter of self-respect. I feel that I have the
right to go in the best society anywhere--that I am as good as anybody
when it comes to blood. And I'd like to get to the top in every way. I
don't mean that I would or could do the least thing dishonest to get
there, as so many men have done, but--well, I see no crime in being
ambitious and using every chance to get to the top. I'd like not only
to be one of the rich and important men of San Francisco, but to take a
part in the big civic movements."
Mrs. Groome was charmed. She was by no means an impulsive woman, but
she had suddenly realized her age, and if she must soon leave her
youngest child, who, heaven knew, needed a guardian, this young man
might be a son-in-law sent direct from heaven--via the earthquake. If
he had real ability the influential men she knew would see that he had
a proper start. But she had no intention of committing herself.
"And what do you think of what is now called San Francisco society?"
she demanded.
He was quite aware of Mrs. Groome's attitude. Who in San Francisco was
not? It was one of the standing jokes, although few of the younger or
newer set had ever heard of her until her naughty little daughter
danced upon the scene.
"Oh, it is mixed, of course. There are many houses where I do not care
to go. But, well, after all, the rich people are rather simple for all
their luxury, and as for the old families there are no more real
aristocrats in England itself."
Mrs. Groome was still more charmed. "But you were at Mrs. Hofer's last
night. I never heard of her before."
"Her husband is one of the most important of the younger men. His
father made a fortune in lumber and sent his son to Yale and all the
rest of it. He is really a gentleman--it only takes one generation out
here--and at present he's bent upon delivering the city from this
abominable ring of grafters ... There is no water to put out the fires
because the City Administration pocketed the money appropriated for a
new system; the pipes leading from Spring Valley were broken by the
earthquake."
"And who was she?"
Mrs. Groome asked this question with an inimitable inflection inherited
from her mother and grandmother, both of whom had been guardians of San
Francisco society in their day. The accent was on the "who." Bob
Cheever, whose grandmother had asked or answered the same question in
dark old double parlors filled with black walnut and carved oak, would
have muttered, "Oh, hell!" but Mr. Dwight replied sympathetically:
"Something very common, I believe-south of Market Street. But her
father was very clever, rose to be a foreman of the iron works, and
finally went into business and prospered in a small way. He sent his
daughter to Europe to be educated ... and even you could hardly tell
her from the real thing."
"And you go down to Burlingame, I suppose! That is a very nest of these
new people, and I am told they spend their time drinking and gambling."
He set his large rather hard lips. "No, I have never been asked down to
Burlingame-nor down the Peninsula anywhere. You see, I am only asked
out in town because an unmarried dancing man is always welcome if there
is nothing wrong with his manners. To be asked for intimate week-ends
is another matter. But I don't fancy Burlingame is half as bad as it is
represented to be. They go in tremendously for sport, you know, and
that is healthy and takes up a good deal of time. After all when people
are very rich and have more leisure than they know what to do with--"
"Many of the old set in Alta, San Mateo, Atherton and Menlo Park have
wealth and leisure-not vulgar fortunes, but enough-and for the most
part they live quite as they did in the old days."
His eyes lit up. "Ah, San Mateo, Alta, Atherton, Menlo Park. There you
have a real landed aristocracy. The Burlingame set must realize that
they would be nobodies for all their wealth if they could not call at
all those old communities down the Peninsula."
"Not so very many of them do. But I see you have no false values. You.
must go down with us some Sunday to Alta. I am sure you would like my
oldest daughter. She is very smart, as they call it now, but distinctly
of the old regime."
"There is nothing I should like better. Thank you so much." And there
was no doubting the sincerity of his voice, a rather deep and manly
voice which harmonized with the admirable mold of his ancestors.
III
Alexina appeared. "Breakfast is ready for all of us," she announced.
"We cooked it on the old stove in the woodhouse. I helped, for Maggie
is a wreck. Martha has swept the plaster out of the dining-room. Come
along. I'm starved."
Young Dwight sprang to his feet and stood over Mrs. Groome with his
charming deferential manner, but he had far too much tact to offer
assistance as she rose heavily from her chair.
"Are you really going to give me breakfast? I am sure I could not get
any elsewhere."
"We are only too happy. Your coming has been a real God-send. Will you
give me your arm? This morning--not the earthquake but those dreadful
fires--has quite upset me."
He escorted her into the dark old house with glowing eyes. He had seen
so little of the world that he was still very young at thirty and his
nature was sanguine, but he had never dared to dream of even difficult
access to this most exclusive home in San Francisco. Its gloom, its
tastelessness, relieved only by the splendid Italian pieces, but served
to accentuate its aristocratic aloofness from those superb but too
recently furnished mansions of which he knew so little outside of their
ballrooms.
And he was breakfasting with the sequestered Mrs. Groome and the
loveliest girl he had ever seen, at seven o 'clock in the morning.
He looked about eagerly as they entered the dining-room.. It was long
and narrow with a bow window at the end. The furniture was black
walnut; two immense sideboards were built into the walls. It looked
Ballinger, and it was.
It was heavily paneled; the walls above were tinted a pale buff and set
with cracked oil paintings of men in the uniforms of several
generations. The ceiling was frescoed with fish and fowl. There had
been a massive bronze chandelier over the table. It now lay on the
floor, but as James had turned off the gas in the meter while the
earthquake was still in progress the air of the large sunny room was
untainted, and the windows were open.
The breakfast was smoked but not uneatable and the strong coffee raised
even Mrs. Groome's wavering spirits. They were all talking gayly when
James entered abruptly. He was very pale.
"City's doomed, ma'am. Thirty fires broke out simultaneous, and the
wind blowing from the southeast. A chimney fell on the fire-chief's bed
and he can't live. People runnin' round like their heads was cut off
and thousands pouring out of the city--over to Oakland and Berkeley.
Lootin' was awful and General Funston has ordered out the troops. Pipes
broken and not a drop of water. They're goin' to dynamite, but only the
fire-chief knew how. Everybody says the whole city'll go, Doomed,
that's what it is. Better let me tell Mike to harness up and drive you
down to San Mateo."
Mrs. Groome had also turned pale, but she cut a piece of bacon with
resolution in every finger of her large-veined hands.
"I do not believe it, and I shall not run--like those people south of
Market Street. I shall stay until the last minute at all events. The
roads at least cannot burn."
"This house ought to be safe enough, ma 'am, standin' quite alone on
this hill as it does; but it's a question of food. We never keep much
of anything in the house, beyond what's needed for the week, and the
California Market's right in the fire zone. And the smoke will be
something terrible when the fire gets closer."
"I shall stay in my own house. There are grocery stores and butcher
shops in Fillmore Street. Go and buy all you can." She handed him a
bunch of keys. "You will find money in my escritoire. Tell the maids to
fill the bathtubs while there is any water left in the mains. You may
go if you are frightened, but I stay here."
"Very well, and you needn't have said that, ma'am. I've been in this
family, man and boy, Ballinger and Groome, for fifty-two years, and you
know I'd never desert you. But no doubt those hussies in the kitchen
will, with a lot of others. A lot of stoves have already been set up in
the streets out here and ladies are cookin' their own breakfasts."
"Forgive me, James. I know you will never leave me. And if the others
do we shall get along. Miss Alexina is not a bad cook." And she
heroically swallowed the bacon.
IV
James departed and she turned to Dwight, who was on his feet.
"You are not going?"
"I think I must, Mrs. Groome. There may be something I can do down
there. All able-bodied men will be needed, I fancy."
"But you'll come back and see us?" cried Alexina.
"Indeed I will. I'll report regularly."
He thanked Mrs. Groome for her hospitality and she invited him to take
pot luck with her at dinner time. After he had gone Alexina exclaimed
rapturously:
"Oh, you do like him, don't you, mommy dear?"
And Mrs. Groome was pleased to reply, "He has perfect manners and
certainly has the right ideas about things. I could do no less than ask
him to dinner if he is going to take the trouble to bring us the news."
CHAPTER IV
I
That was a unique and vivid day for young Alexina Groome, whose
disposition was to look upon life as drama and asked only that it shift
its scenes often and be consistently entertaining and picturesque.
Never, so James told her, since her Grandmother Ballinger's reign, had
there been such life and movement in the old house. All Mrs. Groome's
intimate friends and many of Alexina's came to it, some to make kindly
inquiries, others to beg them to leave the city, many to gossip and
exchange experiences of that fateful morning; a few from Rincon Hill
and the old ladies' fashionable boarding-house district to claim
shelter until they could make their way to relatives out of town.
Mrs. Groome welcomed her friends not only with the more spontaneous
hospitality of an older time but in that spirit of brotherhood that
every disaster seems to release, however temporarily. Brotherhood is
unquestionably an instinct of the soul, an inheritance from that
sunrise era when mutual interdependence was as imperative as it was
automatic. The complexities of civilization have overlaid it, and
almost but not wholly replaced it by national and individual
selfishness. But the world as yet is only about one-third civilized.
Centuries hence a unified civilization may complete the circle, but
human nature and progress must act and react a thousand times before
the earthly millenium; and it cannot be hastened by dreamers and
fanatics.
All Mrs. Groome's spare rooms were placed at the service of her
friends, and cots were bought in the humble Fillmore Street shops and
put up in the billiard room, the double parlors, the library and the
upper hall. Some forty people would sleep under the old Ballinger roof
that night--dynamite permitting. Mrs. Groome was firm in her
determination not to flee, and as James and Mike were there to watch,
she had graciously given a number of the gloomy refugees from the lower
regions permission to camp in the outhouses and grounds.
II
Alexina spent the greater part of the day with Aileen Lawton, Olive
Bascom, and Sibyl Thorndyke, out of doors, fascinated by the spectacle
of the burning city.
The valley beyond Market Street, and the lower business district, were
a rolling mass of smoke parting about pillars of fire, shot with a
million glittering sparks when a great building was dynamited. All the
windows in those sections of the city as yet beyond the path of the
fire were open, for although closed windows might have shut out the
torrid atmosphere, the explosions would have shattered them.
"Oh, dear," sighed Olive Bascom, "there goes my building. The smoke
lifted for a moment and I saw the flames spouting out of the windows. A
cool million and uninsured. We thought Class A buildings were safe from
any sort of fire."
"Heavens!" exclaimed Alexina naively, "I wish I had a million-dollar
building down in that furnace. It must be a great sensation to watch a
million dollars go up in sparks."
"I hope your mother hasn't any buildings down in the business
district," said Aileen anxiously. "I've heard dad talk about her ground
rents. She'll get those again soon enough. I fancy the old tradition
survives in this town and they'll begin to draw the plans for the new
city before the fire is out. It used to burn down regularly in the
fifties, dad says."
"I don't fancy we have much of anything," said Alexina cheerfully. "I
think mother has only a life interest in a part of father's estate, and
I heard her tell Maria once that she intended to leave me all she had
of her own, this place and a few thousand a year in bonds and some
flats that are probably burning up right now. I gathered from the
conversation that father didn't have much left when he died and that it
was understood mother was to look out for me. I believe he gave a lot
to the others when he was wealthy."
"Good Lord!" Aileen sighed heavily. "It won't pay your dressmakers'
bills, what with taxes and all. I won't be much better off. We'll have
to marry Rex Roberts or Bob Cheever or Frank Bascom--unless he's going
up in smoke too, Olive dear. But there are a few others."
Alexina shook her head. Her color could not rise higher for her face
was crimson from the heat; like the others she had a wet handkerchief
on her head. "There is not a grain of romance in one of them," she
announced. "Curious that the sons of the rich nearly always have round
faces, no particular features, and a tendency to bulge. I intend to
have a romance--old style--good old style--before the vogue of the
middle-class realists. There's nothing in life but youth and you only
have it once. I'm going to have a romance that means falling wildly,
unreasonably, uncalculatingly in love."
"You anticipate my adjectives," said Aileen drily. "Although not all.
But let that pass. I'd like to know where you expect to find the
opposite lead, as they say on the stage. Our men are not such a bad
sort, even the richest--with a few exceptions, of course. They may hit
it up at week-ends, generally at the country clubs, but they're better
than the last generation because their fathers have more sense. I'll
bet they're all down there now fighting the fire with the vim of their
grandfathers.... But romantic! Good Lord! I'll marry one of them all
right and glad of the chance--after I've had my fling. I'm in no hurry.
I'd have outgrown my illusions in any case by that time, only Nature
did the trick by not giving me any."
"Don't you believe there isn't a man in all San Francisco able to
inspire romance." If Alexina could not blush her dark gray eyes could
sparkle and melt. "All the men we meet don't belong to that rich group."
"Bunch, darling. Where--will you give us the pointer?--are to be found
the romantic knights of San Francisco? 'Frisco as those tiresome
Eastern people call it. Makes me sick to think that they are even now
pitying 'poor 'Frisco.' Well?--I could beat my brains and not call one
to mind."
"Oh!"
"What does that mean, Alex Groome? When you roll up your eyes like that
you look like a love-sick tomato."
"Mortimer Dwight was most devoted last night," said Sibyl Thorndyke.
"She danced with him at least eight times."
"You must have sat out alone to know what I was doing," Alexina began
hotly, but Aileen sprang at her and gripped her shoulders.
"Don't tell me that you are interested in that cheap skate. Alexina
Groome! You!"
"He's not a cheap skate. I despise your cheap slang."
"He's a rank nobody."
"You mean he isn't rich. Or his family didn't belong. What do you
suppose I care? I'm not a snob."
"He is. A climbing, ingenuous, empty-headed snob."
"You are a snob. You ought to be ashamed of yourself."
"I've a right to be a snob if I choose, and he hasn't. My snobbery is
the right sort: the 'I will maintain' kind. He'd give all the hair on
his head to have the right to that sort of snobbery. His is" (she
chanted in a high light maddening voice): "Oh, God, let me climb. Yank
me up into the paradise of San Francisco society. Burlingame, Alta,
Menlo Park, Atherton, Belvidere, San Rafael. Oh, God, it's awful to be
a nobody, not to be in the same class with these rich fellers, not to
belong to the Pacific-Union Club, not to have polo ponies, not to
belong to smart golf clubs, to the Burlingame Club. Not to get clothes
from New York and London--"
"You keep quiet," shrieked Alexina, who with difficulty refrained from
substituting: "You shut up." She flung off Aileen's hands. "What do you
know about him? He doesn't like you."
"Never had a chance to find out."
"What can you know about him, then?"
"Think I'm blind? Think I'm deaf? Don't I know everything that goes on
in this town? Isn't sizing-up my long suit? And he's as dull as--as a
fish without salt. I sat next to him at a dinner, and all he could talk
about was the people he'd met--our sort, of course. And he was dull
even at that. He's all manners and bluff--"
"You couldn't draw him out. He talked to me."
"What about? I'm really interested to know. Everybody says the same
thing. They fall for his dancing and manners, and--well, yes--I 'll
admit it--for his looks. He even looks like a gentleman. But all the
girls say he bores 'em stiff. They have to talk their heads off. What
did he say to you that was so frantically interesting?"
"Well, of course--we danced most of the time."
"That's just it. He's inherited the shell of some able old ancestor and
not a bit of the skull furniture. Nature often plays tricks like that.
But I could forgive him for being dull if he weren't such a damn snob."
"You shan't call him names. If he wants to be one of us, and life was
so unkind as to--to--well, birth him on the outside, I'm sure that's no
crime."
"Snobbery," said Miss Thorndyke, who was intellectual at the moment and
cultivating the phrase, "is merely a rather ingenuous form of
aspiration. I can't see that it varies except in kind from other forms
of ambition. And without ambition there would be no progress."
"Oh, can it," sneered Judge Lawton's daughter. "You're all wrong,
anyhow. Snobbery leads to the rocks much oftener than to high
achievement. I've heard dad say so, and you won't venture to assert
that _he_ doesn't know. It bears about the same relation to progress
that grafting does to legitimate profits. Anyhow, it makes me sick, and
I'm not going to have Alex falling in love with a poor fish--"
"Fish?" Alexina's voice rose above a fresh detonation, "You dare--and
you think I'm going to ask you whom I shall fall in love with? Fish?
What do you call those other shrimps who don't think of anything but
drinking and sport, whether they attend to business or not?--their
fathers make them, anyhow. And you want to marry one of them! They're
fish, if you like."
The two girls were glaring at each other. Gray eyes were blazing, green
eyes snapping. Two sets of white even teeth were bared. They looked
like a couple of belligerent puppies. Another moment and they would
have forgotten the sacred traditions of their class and flown at each
other's hair. But Miss Bascom interposed. Even the loss of her
uninsured million did not ruffle her, for she had another in Government
and railroad bonds, and full confidence in her brother, who was an
admirable business man, and not in the least dissipated.
"Come, come," she said. "It's much too hot to fight. Dwight is not good
enough for Alex--from a worldly point of view, I mean," as Alexina made
a movement in her direction. "We should none of us marry out of our
class. It never works, somehow. But Mr. Dwight is really quite all
right otherwise. I like him very much, Alex darling, and I don't mind
his being an outsider in the least--so long as he doesn't try to marry
one of us. He's _too_ good-looking, and his heels are fairly inspired.
No one questions the fact that he is an honorable and worthy young man,
working like a real man to earn his living. It isn't at all as if he
were an adventurer. He has never struck me as being more of a snob than
most people, and I don't see why I haven't thought to ask him down to
San Mateo for a week-end."
"You'll certainly have a friend for life if you do," said Aileen
satirically. "Fall in love with him yourself if you choose. You can
afford it."
"No fear. I've made up my mind. I'm going to marry a French marquis."
"What?" Even Alexina forgot Mortimer Dwight. "Who is he? Where did you
meet him?"
"I haven't met him yet. But I shall. I'm going to Paris next winter to
visit my aunt, and I'll find one. You get anything in this world you go
for hard enough. To be a French marquise is the most romantic thing in
the world."
"Why not Elton Gwynne? It's an open secret that he's an English
marquis. Or that young Gathbroke Lady Victoria brought last night?"
"He's a younger son, and he never looked at any one but Alex. And
Isabel Otis has preempted Mr. Gwynne. And I adore France and don't care
about England."
"Well, that is romantic if you like!" cried Aileen, her green eyes
dancing. "You have my best wishes. Doesn't it make your Geary Street
knight look cheap--he boards somewhere down on Geary Street."
"No, it doesn't! And I'm a good American. French marquis, indeed! Mr.
Dwight comes of the best old American stock from New York. He told
mother so, I'd spit on any old decadent European title."
"I wish your mother could hear you. So--he's been getting round her has
he? Where on earth did he meet her?"
Alexina, with sulky triumph, reported Mr. Dwight's early visit and the
favorable impression he had made.
Aileen groaned. "That's just the one thing she would fall for in a rank
outsider--superlative manners. His being poor is rather in his favor.
I'll put a flea in her ear--"
"You dare!"
Aileen lifted her shoulders. "Well, as a matter of fact I can't.
Tattling just isn't in my line. But if I can queer him with you I will."
"I won't talk about him any more." Alexina drew herself up with immense
dignity. She had the advantage of Aileen not only in inches but in a
natural repose of manner. The eminent Judge Lawton's only child, upon
whom, possibly, he may have lavished too much education, had a thin
nervous little body that was seldom in repose, and her face, with its
keen irregular features and brilliant green eyes, shifted its surface
impressions as rapidly as a cinematograph. Olive Bascom had soft blue
eyes and abundant brown hair, and Sibyl Thorndyke had learned to hold
her long black eyes half closed, and had the black hair and rich
complexion of a Creole great-grandmother. Alexina was admittedly the
"beauty of the bunch." Nevertheless, Miss Lawton had informed her
doting parent before this, her first season, was half over, that she
was _vivid_ enough to hold her own with the best of them. The boys said
she was a live wire and she preferred that high specialization to the
tameness of mere beauty.
IV
Said Alexina: "Sibyl, what are you going to do with your young life?
Shall you marry an English duke or a New York millionaire?"
But Miss Thorndyke smiled mysteriously. She was not as frank as the
other girls, although by no means as opaque as she imagined.
Aileen laughed. "Oh, don't ask her. Doubt if she knows. To-day she's
all for being intellectual and reading those damn dull Russian
novelists. To-morrow she may be setting up as an odalisque. It would
suit her style better."
Miss Thorndyke's face was also crimson from the heat, but she would not
have flushed had it been the day before. She was not subject to sudden
reflexes.
"Your satire is always a bit clumsy, dear," she said sweetly. "The
odalisque is not your role at all events."
"I don't go in for roles."
And the four girls wrangled and dreamed and planned, while a city burnt
beneath them; some three hundred million dollars flamed out, lives were
ruined, exterminated, altered; and Labor sat on the hills and smiled
cynically at the tremendous impetus the earth had handed them on that
morning of April eighteenth, nineteen hundred and six.
They were too young to know or to care. When the imagination is trying
its wings it is undismayed even by a world at war.
CHAPTER V
I
That night Alexina knew that romance had surely come to her. She shared
her room with three old ladies who slept fitfully between blasts of
dynamite. But she sat at the window with no desire for oblivion.
On the lawn paced a young man with a rifle in the crook of his arm. He
was tall and young and very gallant of bearing; no less a person than
Mortimer Dwight, who had been sworn in that morning as a member of the
Citizens' Patrol, and at his own request detailed to keep watch over
the house of Mrs. Groome.
He had not been able to pay his promised visits during the day but had
arrived at seven o'clock, dining beside Mrs. Abbott, and surrounded by
old ladies whose names were as historic as Mrs. Groome's. The cook had
deserted after the second heavy shock, and, with her wardrobe in a
pillow case, had tramped to the farthest confines of the Presidio. It
was not fear alone that induced her flight. There was a rumor that the
Government would feed the city, and why should not a hard-working woman
enjoy a month or two of sheer idleness? Let the quality cook for
themselves. It would do them good.
James and the housemaid had cooked the dinner, and Alexina and her
friends waited on the table. Then the girls, to Alexina's relief, went
home to inquire after their families, and she accompanied Mr. Dwight
while he explored every corner of the grounds to make sure that no
potential thieves lurked in the heavy shadows cast by the trees.
He had been very alert and thorough and Alexina admired him consumedly.
There was no question but that he was one of those men--Aileen called
it the one hundred per cent male--upon whose clear brain and strong arm
a woman might depend even in the midst of an infuriated mob. He had an
opportunity that comes to few aspiring young men born into the world's
unblest millions, and if he made the most of it he was equally assured
that he was acting in strict accord with the instincts and
characteristics that had descended upon him by the grace of God.
II
There was no physical cowardice in him; and if he would have preferred
a life of ease and splendor, he had no illusions regarding the amount
of "hustling" necessary to carry him to the goal of his desires and
ambitions--unless he made a lucky strike. He played the stock market in
a small way and made a few hundred dollars now and then.
He would have been glad to marry a wealthy girl, Olive Bascom, by
preference, for he had an inner urge to the short cut, but he had found
these spoiled daughters of San Francisco unresponsive ... and then,
suddenly, he had fallen in love with Alexina Groome.
His past was green and prophylactic. He was moral both by inheritance
and necessity, and his parents, people of fair intelligence, if rather
ineffective, stern principles, and good old average ideals, had taken
their responsibilities toward their two children very seriously. People
who talked with young Dwight might not find him resourceful in
conversation but they were deeply impressed with his manners and
principles. The younger men, with the exception of Bob Cheever, who
respected his capacity for work, did not take to him; principally, no
doubt, he reflected with some bitterness, because he was not "their
sort."
He never admitted to himself that he was a snob, for something deep and
still unfaced in his consciousness, bade him see as little fault in
himself as possible, forbade him to admit the contingency of a failure,
impelled him to call such weaknesses as the fortunate condemned by some
one of those interchangeable terms with which the lexicons are so
generous.
But if he would not face the word snob he told himself proudly that he
was ambitious; and why should he not aspire to the best society? Was he
not entitled to it by birth? His family may not have been prominent to
excess in Utica, but it was indisputably "old." However, he assured
himself that the chief reason for his determination to mingle with the
social elect of San Francisco was not so much a tribute to his
ancestors, or even the insistence of youth for the decent pleasures of
that brief period, but because of the opportunities to make those
friends indispensable to every young man forced to cut his own way
through life. Even if his good conscience had compelled him to admit
that he was a snob he would have reminded it there was no harm in
snobbery anyway. It was the most amiable of the vices. But he thought
too well of himself for any such admission, and his mind had not been
trained to fish, even, in shallow waters.
Nor did he admit that if the lovely Miss Groome had been a stenographer
he would not have looked at her. He would indeed have turned his face
resolutely in the other direction if she had happened to sit in his
employer's office. Fate forbade him a marriage of that sort, and
dalliance with an inferior was forbidden both by his morals and his
social integrity.
But that Alexina Groome should be beautiful, as exaltedly born as only
a San Franciscan of the old stock might be, with a determinate income,
however modest, with a background of friendly males, as substantial
financially as socially, who would be sure to give a new member of the
family a leg-up (he liked the atmosphere and flavor of the lighter
English novels), and, above all, responsive, seemed to him a direct
reward for the circumspect life he had lived and his fidelity to his
chosen upward path.
III
He was free to fall in love as profoundly as was in him, and during
that early hour of the agitated night, with that pit of hell roaring
below to the steady undertone of a thousand tramping feet, he felt,
despite the fact that all business was moribund for the present and his
savings were in the hot vaults of a dynamited bank, that he was a
supremely fortunate young man.
Moreover, this disaster furnished a steady topic for conversation. He
was aware that he contributed little froth and less substance to a
dinner table, that, in short, he did not keep up his end. Although he
assured himself that small talk was beneath a man of serious purpose,
and that no one could acquire it anyhow in society unless addicted to
sport, still there had been times when he was painfully aware that a
dinner partner or some bright charming creature whose invitation to
call he had accepted, looked politely bored or chattered desperately to
cover the silences into which he abruptly relapsed; when, "for the life
of him he had not been able to think of a thing to say."
Then, briefly, he had felt a bitter rebellion at fate for having denied
him the gift of a lively and supple mind, as well as those numberless
worldly benefits lavished on men far less deserving than he.
He felt dull and depressed after such revelations and sometimes
considered attending evening lectures at the University of California
with his sister. But for this form of mental exertion he had no taste,
keenly as he applied himself to his work during the hours of business;
and he assured himself that such knowledge would do him no good anyway.
It did not seem to be prevalent in society. If he had been a brilliant
hand at bridge or poker, the inner fortifications of society would have
gone down before him, but his courage did not run to card gambling with
wealthy idlers who set their own pace. On the stock market he could
step warily and no one the wiser. It would have horrified him to be
called a piker, for his instincts were really lavish, and the
economical habit an achievement in which he took a resentful pride.
IV
On this evening he had talked almost incessantly to Alexina, and she,
in the vocabulary of her years and set, had thought him frantically
interesting as he described the immediate command of the city assumed
by General Funston, the efforts of the Committee of Fifty, formed early
that morning by leading citizens, to help preserve order and to give
assistance to the refugees; of rich young men, and middle-aged citizens
who had not spent an afternoon away from their club window for ten
years, carrying dynamite in their cars through the very flames; of wild
and terrible episodes he had witnessed or heard of during the day.
His brain was hot from the mental and physical atmosphere of the
perishing city, the unique excitement of the day: when he had felt as
if snatched from his quiet pasture by the roots; and by the
extraordinary good fortune that had delivered this perfect girl and her
formidable parent almost into his hands. Under his sternly controlled
exterior his spirits sang wildly that his luck had turned, and dazzling
visions of swift success and fulfillment of all ambitions snapped on
and off in his stimulated brain.
Alexina thought him not only immoderately fascinating in his appeal to
her own imperious youth, but the most interesting life partner that a
romantic maiden with secret intellectual promptings could demand. Her
brilliant long eyes melted and flashed, her soft unformed mouth wore a
constant alluring smile.
A declaration trembled on his tongue, but he felt that he would be
taking an unfair advantage and restrained himself. Besides, he wished
to win Mrs. Groome completely to his side, to say nothing of the still
more alarming because more worldly Mrs. Abbott. _She_ was a snob, if
you like!
V
At nine o'clock, after he had given the inmates of the house and
outbuildings stern orders not to light a candle or lamp under any
circumstances--such was the emergency law--he bade Alexina a gallant
good-night, and betook himself to the lawn within the grove of sighing
eucalyptus trees, to pace up and down, his rifle in his arm, his eyes
alert, and quite aware of the admiring young princess at the casement
above.
He did his work very thoroughly, visiting outhouses at intervals and
sharply inspecting the weary occupants, as well as the prostrate forms
under the trees. They were all far too tired and apprehensive to dream
of breaking into the house that had given them hospitality, even had
they been villains, which they were not.
But they did not resent his inspection; rather they felt a sense of
security in this watching manly figure with the gun, for they were
rather afraid of villains themselves: it was reported that many looters
had been stood against hissing walls and shot by the stern orders of
General Punston. They asked their more immediate protector questions as
to the progress of the fire, which he answered curtly, as befitted his
office.
CHAPTER VI
I
MRS. ABBOTT entered Alexina's room and caught her hanging out of the
window. She had motored up to the city during the afternoon, and, after
a vain attempt to persuade her mother to go down at once to Alta, had
concluded to remain over night. The spectacle was the most horrifyingly
interesting she had ever witnessed in her temperate life, and her
self-denying Aunt Clara was in charge of the children. Her husband had
driven himself to town as soon as he heard of the fire and been sworn
in a member of the Committee of Fifty.
"Darling," she said firmly to the sister who was little older than her
first-born, "I want to have a talk with you. Come into papa's old
dressing-room. I had a cot put there, and as there is no room for
another I am quite alone."
Alexina followed with lagging feet. She had always given her elder
sister the same surface obedience that she gave her mother. It "saved
trouble." But life had changed so since morning that she was in no mood
to keep up the role of "little sister," sweet and malleable and
innocent as a Ballinger-Groome at the age of eighteen should be.
II
She dropped on the floor and embraced her knees with her arms. Mrs.
Abbott seated herself in as dignified an attitude as was possible on
the edge of the cot. Even the rocking-chairs had been taken down to the
dining-room.
"Well?" queried Alexina, pretending to stifle a yawn. "What is it? I am
too sleepy to think."
"Sleepy? You looked sleepy with your eyes like saucers watching that
young man."
"Everybody that can is watching the fire--"
"Don't quibble, Alexina. You are naturally a truthful child. Do you
mean to tell me you were not watching Mr. Dwight?"
"Well, if I say yes, it is not because I care a hang about living up to
my reputation, but because I don't care whether you know it or not."
"That is very naughty--"
"Stop talking to me as if I were a child."
"You are excited, darling, and no wonder."
Maria Abbott was in the process of raising a family and she did it with
tact and firmness. Nature had done much to assist her in her several
difficult roles. She was very tall straight and slender, with a haughty
little head, as perfect in shape as Alexina's, set well back on her
shoulders, and what had been known in her Grandmother Ballinger's day
as a cameo-profile. Her abundant fair hair added to the high calm of
her mien and it was always arranged in the prevailing fashion. On the
street she invariably wore the tailored suit, and her tailor was the
best in New York. She thought blouses in public indecent, and wore
shirtwaists of linen or silk with high collars, made by the same
master-hand. There was nothing masculine in her appearance, but she
prided herself upon being the best groomed woman even in that small
circle of her city that dressed as well as the fashionable women of New
York. At balls and receptions she wore gowns of an austere but
expensive simplicity, and as the simple jewels of her inheritance
looked pathetic beside the blazing necklaces and sunbursts (there were
only two or three tiaras in San Francisco) of those new people whom she
both deplored and envied, she wore none; and she was assured that the
lack added to the distinction of her appearance.
But although she felt it almost a religious duty to be smart,
determined as she was that the plutocracy should never, while she was
alive, push the aristocracy through, the wall and out of sight, she was
a strict conformer to the old tradition that had looked upon all arts
to enhance and preserve youth as the converse of respectable. Her once
delicate pink and white skin was wrinkled and weather-beaten, her nose
had never known powder; but even in the glare of the fire her skin
looked cool and pale, for the heat had not crimsoned her. Her blood was
rather thin and she prided herself upon the fact. She may have lost her
early beauty, but she looked the indubitable aristocrat, the lady born,
as her more naive grandmothers would have phrased it.
It sufficed.
III
By those that did not have the privilege of her intimate acquaintance
she was called "stuck-up," "a snob," a mid-victorian who ought to dress
like her more consistent mother, "rather a fool, if the truth were
known, no doubt."
In reality she was a tender-hearted and anxious mother, daughter, and
sister, and an impeccable wife, if a somewhat monotonous one. At all
events her husband never found fault with her in public or private. He
had his reasons. To the friends of her youth and to all members of her
own old set, she was intensely loyal; and although she had a cold
contempt for the institution of divorce, if one of that select band
strayed into it, no matter at which end, her loyalty rose triumphant
above her social code, and she was not afraid to express it publicly.
Toward Alexina she felt less a sister than a second mother, and gave
her freely of her abundant maternal reservoir. That "little sister" had
at times sulked under this proud determination to assist in the
bringing-up of the last of the Ballinger-Groomes, did not discourage
her. She might be soft in her affections but she never swerved from her
duty as she saw it. Alexina was a darling wayward child, who only
needed a firm hand to guide her along that proud secluded old avenue of
the city's elect, until she had ambled safely to established
respectability and power.
She had been alarmed at one time at certain symptoms of cleverness she
noticed in the child, and at certain enthusiastic remarks in the
letters of Ballinger Groome, with whose family Alexina had spent her
vacations during her two years in New York at school. But there had
been no evidence of anything but a young girl's natural love of
pleasure since her debut in society, and she was quite unaware of
Alexina's wicked divagations. She had spent the winter in Santa
Barbara, for the benefit of her oldest, boy, whose lungs were delicate,
and, like her mother, never deigned to read the society columns of the
newspapers. Her reason, however, was her own. In spite of her blood,
her indisputable position, her style, she cut but a small figure in
those columns. She was not rich enough to vie with those who
entertained constantly, and was merely set down as one of many guests.
The fact induced a slight bitterness.
IV
She began tactfully. "I like this young Mr. Dwight very much, and shall
ask him down, as mother desires it. But I hope, darling, that you will
follow my example and not marry until you have had four years of
society, in other words have seen something of the world--"
"California is not the world."
"Society, in other words human nature, is everywhere much alike. As you
know, I spent a year in England when I was a young lady, and was
presented at court--by Lady Barnstable, who was Lee Tarlton, one of us.
It was merely San Francisco on a large scale, with titles, and greater
and older houses and parks, and more jewels, and more arrogance, and
everything much grander, of course. And they talked politics a great
deal, which bored me as I am sure they would bore you. The beauty of
our society is its simplicity and lack of arrogance--consciousness of
birth or of wealth. Even the more recent members of society, who owe
their position to their fortunes, have a simplicity and kindness quite
unknown in New York. Eastern people always remark it. And yet, owing to
their constant visits to the East and to Europe, they know all of the
world there is to know."
"So do the young men, I suppose! I never heard of their doing much
traveling--"
"I should call them remarkably sophisticated young men. But the point
is, darling, that if you wait as long as I did you will discover that
the men who attract a girl in her first season would bore her to
extinction in her fourth."
"You mean after I've had all the bloom rubbed off, and men are
forgetting to ask me to dance. Then I'll be much more likely to take
what I can get. I want to marry with all the bloom on and all my
illusions fresh."
"But should you like to have them rubbed off by your husband? You've
heard the old adage: 'marry in haste and repent--'"
"I've been brought up on adages. They are called bromides now. As for
illusions, everybody says they don't last anyway. I'd rather have them
dispelled after a long wonderful honeymoon by a husband than by a lot
of flirtations in a conservatory and in dark corners--"
"Good heavens! Do you suppose that I flirted in a conservatory and in
dark corners?"
"I'll bet you didn't, but lots do. And in the haute noblesse, the
ancient aristocracy! I've seen 'em."
"It isn't possible that you--"
"Oh, no, I love to dance too much. But I'm not easily shocked. I 'll
tell you that right here. And I 'll tell you what I confessed to mother
this morning."
V
When she had finished Mrs. Abbott sat for a few moments petrified; but
she was thirty-eight, not sixty-five, and there was neither dismay nor
softening in her narrowed light blue eyes.
"But that is abominable! Abominable!"
And Alexina, who was prepared for a scolding, shrank a little, for it
was the first time that her doting sister had spoken to her with
severity.
"I don't care," she said stubbornly, and she set her soft lips until
they looked stern and hard.
"But you must care. You are a Groome."
"Oh, yes, and a Ballinger, and a Geary, and all the rest of it. But I'm
also going to annex another name of my own choosing. I'll marry whom I
damn please, and that is the end of it."
"Alexina Groome!" Mrs. Abbott arose in her wrath. "Cannot you see for
yourself what association with all these common people has done to you?
It's the influence--"
"Of two years in New York principally. The girls there are as hard as
nails--try to imitate the English. Ours are not a patch, not even
Aileen, although she does her best. But I hadn't finished--I even
powder my face." Alexina grinned up at her still rudderless sister.
"After mother is asleep and I am ready to slip out."
"I thought you were safe in New York under the eyes of Ballinger and
Geary, or rather of Mattie and Charlotte. They are such earnest good
women, so interested in charities--"
"Deadly. But you don't know the girls,"
"And I have told mother again and again that she should not permit you
to associate with Aileen Lawton."
"She can't help herself. Aileen is one of us. Besides, mother is
devoted to the Judge."
"But powder! None of us has ever put anything but clean cold water on
her face."
"You'd look a long sight better if you did. Cold cream, too. You
wouldn't have any wrinkles at your age, if you weren't so damn
respectable-aristocratic, you call it. It's just middle class. And as
out of date as speech without slang. As for me, I'd paint my lips as
Aileen does, only I don't like the taste, and they're too red, anyhow.
It's much smarter to make up than not to. Times change. You don't wear
hoopskirts because our magnificent Grandmother Ballinger did. You dress
as smartly as the Burlingame crowd. Why does your soul turn green at
make-up? All these people you look down upon because our families were
rich and important in the fifties are more up-to-date than you are,
although I will admit that none of them has the woman-of-the-world air
of the smartest New York women--not that terribly respectable inner set
in New York--Aunt Mattie's and Aunt Charlotte's--_that_ just revels in
looking mid-Victorian.... The newer people I've met here--their manners
are just as good as ours, if not better, for, as you said just now,
they don't put on airs. You do, darling. You don't know it, but you
would put an English duchess to the blush, when you suddenly remember
who you are--"
Mrs. Abbott had resumed her seat on the cot. "If you have finished
criticizing your elder sister, I should like to ask you a few
questions. Do you smoke and drink cocktails?"
"No, I don't. But I should if I liked them, and if they didn't make me
feel queer."
"You--you--" Mrs. Abbot's clear crisp voice sank to an agonized
whisper. For the first time she was really terrified. "Do you gamble?"
"Why, of course not. I have too much fun to think of anything so
stupid."
"Does Aileen Lawton gamble?"
"She just doesn't, and don't you insinuate such a thing."
"She has bad blood in her. Her mother--"
"I thought her mother was your best friend."
"She was. But she went to pieces, poor dear, and Judge Lawton wisely
sent her East. I can't tell you why. There are things you don't
understand."
"Oh, don't I? Don't you fool yourself."
Mrs. Abbott leaned back on the cot and pressed it hard with either hand.
"Alexina, I have never been as disturbed as I am at this moment. When
Sally and I were your age, we were beautifully innocent. If I thought
that Joan--"
"Oh, Joan'll get away from you. She's only fourteen now, but when she's
my age--well, I guess you and your old crowd are the last of the
Mohicans. I doubt if there'll even be any chaperons left. Joan may not
smoke nor drink. Who cares for 'vices,' anyhow? But you haven't got a
moat and drawbridge round Rincona, and she'll just get out and mix.
She'll float with the stream--and all streams lead to Burlingame."
"I have no fear about Joan," said Mrs. Abbott, with dignity. "Four
years are a long time. I shall sow seeds, and she is a born
Ballinger--I am dreadfully afraid that my dear father is coming out in
you. Even the boys are Ballingers--"
VI
"Tell me about father?" coaxed Alexina, who was repentant, now that the
excitement of the day had reached its climax in the baiting of her
admirable sister and was rapidly subsiding. "Mother let fall something
this morning; and once Aileen ... she began, but shut up like a clam.
Was he so very dreadful?"
"Well, since you know so much, he was what is called fast. Married men
of his position often were in his day--quite openly. Yesterday, I
should have hesitated--"
"Fire away. Don't mind me. Yes, I know what fast is. Lots of men are
to-day. Even members of the A. A."
"A. A.?"
"Ancient Aristocracy. The kind England and France would like to have."
"I'm ashamed of you. Have you no pride of blood? The best blood of the
South, to say nothing of--"
"I'm tickled to death. I just dote on being a Groome, plus Ballinger,
plus. And I'm not guying, neither. I'd hate like the mischief to be
second rate, no matter what I won later. It must be awful to have to
try to get to places that should be yours by divine right, as it were.
But all that's no reason for being a moss-back, a back number, for not
having any fun--to be glued to the ancestral rock like a lot of old
limpets.... And it should preserve us from being snobs," she added.
"Snobs?"
"The 'I will maintain' sort, as Aileen puts it."
"Don't quote that dreadful child to me. I haven't an atom of snobbery
in my composition. I reserve the right to know whom I please, and to
exclude from my house people to whom I cannot accustom myself. Why I
know quite a number of people at Burlingame. I dined there informally
last night."
"Yes, because it has the fascination for you that wine has for the
clergyman's son." Alexina once more yielded to temptation. "But the
only people you really know at Burlingame except Mrs. Hunter are those
of the old set, what you would call the pick of the bunch, if you were
one of us. They went there to live because they were tired of being
moss-backs. Why don't you follow their example and go the whole hog?
They--and their girls--have a ripping time."
"At least they have not picked up your vocabulary. I seldom see the
young people. And I have never been to the Club. I am told the women
drink and smoke quite openly on the verandah."
"You may bet your sweet life they do. They are honest, and quite as
sure of their position as you are. But tell me about father. How did
mother come to marry him? If he was such a naughty person I should
think she would have exercised the sound Ballinger instincts and thrown
him down."
"Mother met him in Washington. Grandfather Ballinger was senator at the
time--"
"From Virginia or California?"
"It is shocking that you do not know more of the family history. From
California, of course. He had great gifts and political aspirations,
and realized that there would be more opportunity in the new
state--particularly in such a famous one--than in his own where all the
men in public life seemed to have taken root--I remember his using that
expression. So, he came here with his bride, the beauty of Richmond--"
"Oh, Lord, I know all about her. Remember the flavor in my mother's
milk--"
"Well, you'd look like her if you had brown eyes and a white skin, and
if your mouth were smaller. And until you learn to stand up straight
you'll never have anything like her elegance of carriage. However....
Of course they had plenty of money--for those days. They had come to
Virginia in the days of Queen Elizabeth and received a large grant of
land--"
"Don't fancy I haven't heard _that_!"
"Grandfather had inherited the plantation--"
"Sold his slaves, I suppose, to come to California and realize his
ambitions. Funny, how ideals change!"
"His abilities were recognized as soon as lie arrived in the new
community, and our wonderful grandmother became at once one of that
small band of social leaders that founded San Francisco society: Mrs.
Hunt McLane, the Hathaways, Mrs. Don Pedro Earle, the Montgomerys, the
Gearys, the Talbots, the Belmonts, Mrs. Abbott, Tom's grandmother--"
"Never mind about them. I have them dished up occasionally by mother,
although she prefers to descant upon the immortal eighties, when she
was a leader herself and 'money wasn't everything.' We never had so
much of it anyhow. I know Grandfather Ballinger built this ramshackle
old house--"
Mrs. Abbott sat forward and drew herself up. She felt as if she were
talking to a stranger, as, indeed, she was.
"This house and its traditions are sacred--"
"I know it. Yon were telling me how mother came to marry a bad fast
man."
"He was not fast when she met him. It was at a ball in Washington. He
was a young congressman--he was wounded in his right arm during the
first year of the war and returned at once to California; of course he
had been one of the first to enlist. He was of a fine old family and by
no means poor. Of course in Washington he was asked to the best houses.
At that time he was very ambitious and absorbed in politics and the
advancement of California. Afterward he renounced Washington for
reasons I never clearly understood; although he told me once that
California was the only place for a man to live; and--well--I am afraid
he could do more as he pleased out here without criticism--from men, at
least. The standards--for men--were very low in those days. But when he
met mother--"
"Was mother ever very pretty?"
"She was handsome," replied Mrs. Abbott guardedly. "Of course she had
the freshness and roundness of youth. I am told she had a lovely color
and the brightest eyes. And she had a beautiful figure. She had several
proposals, but she chose father."
"And had the devil's own time with him. She let out that much this
morning."
"I am growing accustomed to your language." Once more Mrs. Abbott was
determined to be amiable and tactful. She realized that the child's
brain was seething with the excitements of the day, but was aghast at
the revelations it had recklessly tossed out, and admitted that the
problem of "handling her" could no longer be disposed of with home-made
generalities.
"Yes, mother did not have a bed of roses. Father was mayor at one time
and held various other public offices, and no one, at least, ever
accused him of civic corruptness. Quite the contrary. The city owes
more than one reform to his determination and ability.
"He even risked his life fighting the bosses and their political gangs,
for he was shot at twice. But he was very popular in his own class;
what men call a good fellow, and at that time there was quite a
brilliant group of disreputable women here; one could not help hearing
things, for the married women here have always been great gossips.
Well--you may as well know it--it may have the same effect on you that
it did on Ballinger and Geary, who are the most abstemious of men--he
drank and gambled and had too much to do with those unspeakable
women....
"Nevertheless, he made a great deal of money for a long time, and if he
hadn't gambled (not only in gambling houses and in private but in
stocks), he would have left a large fortune. As it is, poor darling,
you will only have this house and about six thousand a year. Father was
quite well off when Sally and I married and Ballinger and Geary went to
New York after marrying the Lyman girls, who were such belles out here
when they paid us a visit in the nineties. They had money of their own
and father gave the boys a hundred thousand each. He gave the same to
Sally and me when we married. But when you came along, or rather when
you were ten, and he died--well, he had run through nearly everything,
and had lost his grip. Mother got her share of the community property,
and of course she had this house and her share of the Ballinger
estate--not very much."
VII
"Why didn't mother keep father at home and make him behave himself?"
"Mother did everything a good woman could do."
"Maybe she was too good."
"You abominable child. A woman can't be too good."
"Perhaps not. But I fancy she can make a man think so. When he has
different tastes."
"Women are as they are born. My mother would not have condescended to
lower herself to the level of those creatures who fascinated my father."
"Well, I wouldn't, neither. I'd just light out and leave him. Why
didn't mother get a divorce?"
"A divorce? Why, she has never received any one in her house who has
been divorced. Neither have I except in one or two cases where very
dear friends had been forced by circumstances into the divorce court. I
didn't approve even then. People should wash their dirty linen at home."
"Time moves, as I remarked just now. Nothing would stop me; if, for
instance, I had been persuaded into marrying a member of the A. A. and
he was in the way of ruining my young life. You should be thankful if I
did decide to marry Mr. Dwight--mind, I don't say I care the tip of my
little finger for him. I barely know him. But if I did you would have
to admit that I was following the best Ballinger instincts, for he
doesn't drink, or dissipate in any way; and everybody says he works
hard and is as steady as--I was going to say as a judge, but I've been
told that all judges, in this town at least, are not as steady as you
think. Anyhow, he is. His family is as old as ours, even if it did have
reverses or something. And you can't deny that he is a gentleman, every
inch of him."
"I do not deny that he has a very good appearance indeed. But--well, he
was brought up in San Francisco and no one ever heard of his parents.
He admitted to me at the table that his father was only a clerk in a
broker's office. He is not one of us and that is the end of it."
"Why not make him one? Quite easy. And you ought to rejoice in what
power you have left."
She rose and stretched and yawned in a most unladylike fashion.
"I'm going to make a cup of coffee for our sentinel, and have a little
chat with him, chaperoned by the great bonfire. Don't think you can
stop me, for you can't. Heavens, what a noise that dynamite does make!
We shall have to shout. It will be more than proper. Good night,
darling."
CHAPTER VII
I
Gora Dwight with a quick turn of a strong and supple wrist flung a
folding chair up through the trap door of the roof. She followed with a
pitcher of water, opened the chair, and sat down.
It was the second day of the fire, which was now raging in the valleys
north of Market Street and up the hills. It was still some distance
from all but the lower end of Van Ness Avenue, the wide street that
divides the eastern and western sections of the city, as Market Street
divides the northern and southern, and her own home on Geary Street was
beyond Franklin and safe for the present. It was expected that the fire
would be halted by dynamiting the blocks east of the avenue, but as it
had already leapt across not far from Market Street and was running out
toward the Mission, Gora pinned her faith in nothing less than a change
of wind.
Life has many disparate schools. The one attended by Miss Gora Dwight
had taught her to hope for the best, prepare for the worst, and be
thankful if she escaped (to use the homely phrase; one rarely found
leisure for originality in this particular school) by the skin of her
teeth.
Gora fully expected to lose the house she sat on, and had packed what
few valuables she possessed in two large bags: the fine underclothes
she had made at odd moments, and a handsome set of toilet articles her
brother had given her on the Christmas before last. He had had a raise
of salary and her experiment with lodgers had proved even more
successful than she had dared to hope. On the following Christmas he
had given her a large book with a fancy binding (which she had
exchanged for something she could read). After satisfying the
requirements of a wardrobe suitable for the world of fashion,
supplemented by the usual toll of flowers and bon-bons, he had little
surplus for domestic presents.
Gora's craving for drama was far deeper and more significant than young
Alexina Groome's, and she determined to watch until the last moment the
terrific spectacle of the burning city. The wind had carried the smoke
upward for a mile or more and pillars of fire supported it at such
irregular intervals that it looked like a vast infernal temple in which
demons were waging war, and undermining the roof in their senseless
fury.
In some places whole blocks of houses were blazing; here and there high
buildings burned in solitary grandeur, the flames leaping from every
window or boiling from the roof. Sometimes one of these buildings would
disappear in a shower of sparks and an awful roar, or a row of humbler
houses was lifted bodily from the ground to burst into a thousand
particles of flying wood, and disappear.
The heat was overpowering (she bathed her face constantly from the
pitcher) and the roar of the flames, the constant explosions of
dynamite, the loud vicious crackling of wood, the rending and splitting
of masonry, the hoarse impact of walls as they met the earth, was the
scene's wild orchestral accompaniment and, despite underlying
apprehension and horror, gave Gora one of the few pleasurable
sensations of her life.
But she moved her chair after a moment and fixed her gaze, no longer
rapt but ironic, on the flaming hillcrests, the long line of California
Street, nucleus of the wealth and fashion of San Francisco. The Western
Addition was fashionable and growing more so, but it had been too far
away for the pioneers of the fifties and sixties, the bonanza kings of
the seventies, the railroad magnates of the eighties, and they had
built their huge and hideous mansions upon the hill that rose almost
perpendicularly above the section where they made and lost their
millions. Some wag or toady had named it Nob Hill and the inhabitants
had complacently accepted the title, although they refrained from
putting it on their cards. And now it was in flames.
II
Gora recalled the day when she had walked slowly past those mansions,
staring at each in turn as she assimilated the disheartening and
infuriating fact that she and the children that inhabited them belonged
to different worlds.
Her family at that time lived in a cottage at the wrong end of Taylor
Street Hill, and, Mrs. Dwight having received a small legacy from a
sister recently deceased which had convinced her, if not her less
mercurial husband, that their luck had finally turned, had sent Gora,
then a rangy girl of thirteen, fond of books and study, to a large
private school in the fashionable district.
Gora, after all these years, ground her teeth as she had a sudden
blighting vision of the day a week later, when, puzzled and resentful,
she had walked up the steep hill with several of the girls whose homes
were on California and Taylor Streets, and two of whom, like herself,
were munching an apple.
They had hardly noticed her sufficiently to ignore her, either then or
during the previous week, so absorbed were they in their own close
common interests. She listened to allusions which she barely could
comprehend, but it was evident that one was to give a party on Friday
night and the others were expected as a matter of course. Gora assumed
that Jim and Sam and Rex and Bob were brothers or beaux. Last names
appeared to be no more necessary than labels to inform the outsider of
the social status of these favored maidens, too happy and contented to
be snobs but quite callous to the feelings of strange little girls.
They drifted one by one into their opulent homes, bidding one another a
careless or a sentimental good-by, and Gora, throwing her head as far
back on her shoulders as it would go without dislocation, stalked down
to the unfashionable end of Taylor Street and up to the solitude of her
bedroom under the eaves of the cottage.
On the following day she had lingered in the school yard until the
other girls were out of sight, then climbing the almost perpendicular
hill so rapidly that she arrived on the crest with little breath and a
pain in her side, she had sauntered deliberately up and down before the
imposing homes of her schoolmates, staring at them with angry and
puzzled eyes, her young soul in tumult. It was the old inarticulate cry
of class, of the unchosen who seeks the reason and can find none.
III
As she had a tendency not only to brood but to work out her own
problems it was several days before she demanded an explanation of her
mother.
Mrs. Dwight, a prematurely gray and wrinkled woman, who had once been
handsome with good features and bright coloring, and who wore a
deliberately cheerful expression that Gora often wanted to wipe off,
was sitting in the dining-room making a skirt for her daughter; which,
Gora reflected bitterly, was sure to be too long on one side if not in
front.
Mrs. Dwight's smile faded as she looked at the somber face and huddled
figure in the worn leather arm-chair in which Mr. Dwight spent his
silent evenings.
"Why, my dear, you surely knew long before this that some people are
rich and others poor--to say nothing of the betwixts and betweens." She
was an exact woman in small matters. "That's all there is to it. I
thought it a good idea to send you to a private school where you might
make friends among girls of your own class."
"Own class? They treat me like dirt. How am I of their class when they
live in palaces and I in a hovel?"
"I have reproved you many times for exaggerated speech. What I meant
was that you are as well-born as any of them (better than many) only we
have been unfortunate. Your father tried hard enough, but he just
doesn't seem to have the money-making faculty like so many men. Now,
we've had a little luck I'm really hopeful. I've just had a nice letter
from your Aunt Eliza Goring--I named you for her, but I couldn't
inflict you with Eliza. You know she is many years older than I am and
has no children. She was out here once just before you were born.
We--we were very hard up indeed. It was she who furnished this cottage
for us and paid a year's rent. Soon after, your father got his present
position and we have managed to get along. She always sends me a little
cheque at Christmas and I am sure--well, there are some things we don't
say.... But this legacy from your Aunt Jane is the only real stroke of
luck we ever had, and I can't help feeling hopeful. I do believe better
times are coming.... It used to seem terribly hard and unjust that so
many people all about us had so much and we nothing, and that in this
comparatively small city we knew practically no one. But I have got
over being bitter and envious. You do when you are busy every minute.
And then we have the blessing of health, and Mortimer is the best boy
in the world, and you are a very good child when you are not in a bad
temper. I think you will be handsome, too, although you are pretty
hopeless at present; but of course you will never have anything like
Mortimer's looks. He is the living image of the painting of your
Great-great-great-grandfather Dwight that used to hang in the
dining-room in Utica, and who was in the first Congress. Now, do try
and make friends with the nicer of the children."
But Gora's was not a conciliating nor a compromising nature. Her idea
of "squaring things" was to become the best scholar in her classes and
humiliate several young ladies of her own age who had held the first
position with an ease that had bred laxity. Greatly to the satisfaction
of the teachers an angry emulation ensued with the gratifying result
that although the girls could not pass Gora, their weekly marks were
higher, and for the rest of the term they did less giggling even after
school hours, and more studying.
But Gora would not return for a second term. She had made no friends
among the girls, although, no doubt, having won their respect, they
would, with the democracy of childhood, have admitted her to intimacy
by degrees, particularly if she had proved to be socially malleable.
But for some obscure reason it made Gora happier to hate them all, and
when she had passed her examinations victoriously, and taken every
prize, except for tidiness and deportment, she said good-by with some
regret to the teachers, who had admired and encouraged her but did not
pretend to love her, and announced as soon as she arrived at home that
she should enter the High School at the beginning of the following term.
IV
Her parents were secretly relieved. Even Mrs. Dwight's vision of future
prosperity had faded. She had been justified in believing that her
sister Eliza would make a will in favor of her family, but
unfortunately Mrs. Goring had amused herself with speculation in her
old age, and had left barely enough to pay her funeral expenses.
Mrs. Dwight broached the subject of their immediate future to her
husband that evening. She had some time since made up her mind, in case
the school experiment was not a success, to furnish a larger house with
what remained of the legacy, and take boarders.
"I wouldn't do it if Gora had made the friends I hoped for her," she
said, turning the heel of the first of her son's winter socks, "and
there's no such thing as a social come-down for us; for that matter,
there is more than one lady, once wealthy, who is keeping a
boarding-house in this town. Gora will have to work anyhow, and as for
Mortimer--" she glanced fondly at her manly young son, who was amiably
playing checkers in the parlor with his sister, "he is sure to make his
fortune."
"I don't know," said Mr. Dwight heavily. "I don't know."
"Why, what do you mean?" asked his wife sharply.
Mrs. Dwight belonged to that type of American women whose passions in
youth are weak and anaemic, not to say exceedingly shame-faced, but
which in mature years become strong and selfish and jealous, either for
a lover or a son. Mrs. Dwight, being a perfectly respectable woman, had
centered all the accumulated forces of her being on the son whom she
idealized after the fashion of her type; and as she had corrected his
obvious faults when he was a boy, it was quite true that he was kind,
amiable, honest, honorable, patriotic, industrious, clean, polite, and
moral; if hardly as handsome as Apollo or as brilliant and gifted as
she permitted herself to believe.
"What do you mean?" she repeated, although she lowered her voice. It
was rarely that it assumed an edge when addressing her husband. She had
never reproached him for being a failure, for she had recognized his
limitations early and accepted her lot. But something in his tone shook
her maternal complacence and roused her to instant defense.
Mr. Dwight took his pipe from his mouth and also cast a glance toward
the parlor, but the absorbed players were beyond the range of his
rather weak voice.
"I mean this," he said with nothing of his usual vague hesitancy of
speech. "I'm not so sure that Morty is beyond clerk size."
"You--you--John Dwight--your son--" The thin layer of pale flesh on
Mrs. Dwight's face seemed to collapse upon its harsh framework with the
terrified wrath that shook her. Her mouth fell apart, and hot smarting
tears welled slowly to her eyes, faded with long years of stitching;
not only for her own family but for many others when money had been
more than commonly scarce. "Mortimer can do anything. Anything."
"Can he? Why doesn't he show it then? He went to work at sixteen and is
now twenty-two. He is drawing just fifty dollars a month. He's well
liked in the firm, too."
"Why don't they raise his salary?"
"Because that's all he's worth to them. He's a good steady honest
clerk, nothing more."
"He's very young--"
"If a man has initiative, ability, any sort of constructive power in
his brain he shows it by the time he is twenty-two--if he has been in
that forcing house for four or five years. That is the whole history of
this country. And employers are always on the look-out for those
qualities and only too anxious to find them and push a young man on and
up. Many a president of a great business started life as a clerk, or
even office boy--"
"That is what I have always known would happen to Morty. I am sure,
sure, that you are doing him a cruel injustice."
"I hope I am. But I am a failure myself and I know what a man needs in
the way of natural equipment to make a success of his life."
"But he is so energetic and industrious and honorable and likable and--"
"I was all that."
"Then--" Mrs. Dwight's voice trailed off; it sounded flat and old.
"What do you both lack?"
"Brains."
V
Mrs. Dwight had repeated this conversation to Gora shortly before her
death, and the girl in her reminiscent mood recalled it as she stared
with somber eyes and ironic lips at the havoc the fire was playing with
those lofty mansions which had stood to her all these intervening years
as symbols of the unpardonable injustice of class.
She recalled another of the few occasions when Mrs. Dwight, who
believed in acceptance and contentment, had been persuaded to discuss
the idiosyncrasies of her adopted city.
"It isn't that money is the standard here as it is in New York. Of
course there is a very wealthy set these late years and they set a pace
that makes it difficult for the older families, like the Groomes for
instance--I met Mrs. Groome once at a summer resort where I was
housekeeper that year, and I thought her very typical and interesting.
She was so kind to me without seeing me at all.... But those fine old
families, who are all of good old Eastern or Southern stock--if they
manage to keep in society are still the most influential element in
it.... Family.... Having lived in California long enough to be one of
that old set.... To be, without question, one of them. That is all that
matters. I've come in contact with a good many of them first and last
in my poor efforts to help your father, and I believe the San
Franciscans to be the most loyal and disinterested people in the
world-to one another.
"But if you come in from the outside you must bring money, or
tremendous family prestige, or the right kind of social personality
with the best kind of letters. We just crept in and were glad to be
permitted to make a living. Why should they have taken any notice of
us? They don't go hunting about for obscure people of possibly gentle
blood. That doesn't happen anywhere in the world. You must be
reasonable, my dear child. That is life, 'The World.'"
But Gora was not gifted with that form of reasonableness. She had
wished in her darker moments that she had been born outright in the
working-class; then, no doubt, she would have trudged contentedly every
morning (except when on strike) to the factory or shop, or been some
one's cook. She was an excellent cook. What galled her was the fact of
virtually belonging to the same class as these people who were still
unaware of the existence of her family, although it had lived for over
thirty years in a city numbering to-day only half a million inhabitants.
She was almost fanatically democratic and could see no reason for
differences of degree in the aspiring classes. To her mind the only
line of cleavage between the classes was that which divided people of
education, refinement of mind manners and habits, certain inherited
traditions, and the mental effort no matter how small to win a place in
this difficult world, from commonness, ignorance, indifference to dirt,
coarse pleasures and habits, and manual labor. She respected Labor as
the solid foundation stones upon which civilization upheld itself, and
believed it to have been biologically chosen; if she had been born in
its class she would have had the ambition to work her way out of it,
but without resentment.
There her recognition of class stopped. That wealth or family
prominence even in a great city or an old community should create an
exclusive and favored society seemed to her illogical and outrageous. A
woman was a lady or she wasn't. A man was a gentleman or he wasn't.
That should be the beginning and the end of the social code.... When
she had been younger she had lamented her mean position because it
excluded her from the light-hearted and brilliant pleasures of youth;
but as she grew older this natural craving had given place to a far
deeper and more corrosive resentment.
She had no patience with her brother's ingenuous snobbery. A
good-natured friend had introduced him to one or two houses where there
were young people and much dancing and he had been "taken up." Nothing
would have filled Gora with such murderous rage as to be taken up. She
wanted her position conceded as a natural right.
Had it been in her power she would have forced her conception of
democracy upon the entire United States. But as this was quite
impossible she longed passionately for some power, personal and
irresistible, that would compel the attention of the elect in the city
of her birth and ultimately bring them to her feet. And here she had a
ray of hope.
VI
Meanwhile it was some satisfaction to watch them being burned out of
house and home.
Then she gave a short impatient sigh that was almost a groan, as she
wondered if her own home would go. The family had moved into it eight
years ago; and after Mr. Dwight's death his widow had barely made a
living for herself and her daughter out of the uncertain boarders.
Mortimer had paid his share, but she had encouraged him to dress well
and no one knew the value of "front" better than he. After her death,
three years ago, Gora had turned out the boarders and the last
slatternly wasteful cook and let her rooms to business women who made
their morning coffee over the gas jet. The new arrangement paid very
well and left her time for lectures at the University of California,
and for other studies. A Jap came in daily to put the rooms in order
and she cooked for herself and her brother. So unknown was she that
even Aileen Lawton was unaware that the "boarding-house down on Geary
Street" was a lodging house kept by Mortimer Dwight's sister.
Fortunately Gora was spared one more quivering arrow in her pride.
CHAPTER VIII
I
There was a tremendous burst of dynamite that rocked the house. Then
she heard her brother's voice:
"Gora! Gora! Where are you?"
She let herself through the trap door and ran down to the first floor.
Her brother was standing in the lower hall surrounded by several of
their lodgers, competent-looking women, quite calm and business like,
but dressed as for a journey and carrying suitcases and bags.
"You are all ordered out," he was saying. "A change of the wind to the
south would sweep the fire right up this hill, and it may cross Van
Ness Avenue again at any time. So everybody is ordered out to the
western hills, or the Presidio, or across the Bay, if they can make it."
He had no private manners and greeted his sister with the same gallant
smile and little air of deference which always carried him a certain
distance in public. "You had better take out a mattress and blanket,"
he said. "I wish I could do it for you--for all of you--but I am under
orders and must patrol where I am sent. When I finish giving the orders
down here I must go back to the Western Addition."
"Don't worry about us," said Gora drily. "We are all quite as capable
as men when it comes to looking out for ourselves in a catastrophe. I
hear that several wives led their weeping stricken husbands out of town
yesterday morning. Are you sure the fire will cross Van Ness Avenue
to-night?"
"It may be held back by the dynamiting, but one can be sure of nothing.
Of course the wind may shift to the west any minute. That would save
this part of the city."
"Well, don't let us keep you from your civic duties. You look very well
in those hunting boots. Lucky you went on that expedition last summer
with Mr. Cheever."
Mortimer frowned slightly and turned to the door. The brother and
sister rarely talked on any but the most impersonal subjects, but more
than once he had had an uneasy sense that she knew him better than he
knew himself. His consciousness had never faced anything so absurd, but
there were times when he felt an abrupt desire to escape her enigmatic
presence and this was one of them.
II
The lodgers were permitted by the patrol to cook their luncheon on the
stove that had been set up in the street, the orders being that they
should leave within an hour. After their smoky meal they departed,
carrying mattresses and blankets.
Gora had no intention of following them unless the flames were actually
roaring up the block between Van Ness Avenue and Franklin Street. She
felt quite positive that she could outrun any fire.
The last of the lodgers, at her request, shut the front door and made a
feint of locking it, an unnecessary precaution in any case as all the
windows were open; and as the sentries had been ordered to "shoot to
kill," and had obeyed orders, looting had ceased.
CHAPTER IX
I
Gora went up to the large attic which, soon, after her mother's death,
she had furnished for her personal use. The walls were hung with a thin
bluish green material and there were several pieces of good furniture
that she had picked up at auctions. One side of the room was covered
with book shelves which Mortimer had made for her on rainy winter
nights and they were filled with the books she had found in second-hand
shops. A number of them bore the autographs of men once prosilient in
the city's history but long since gone down to disaster. There were a
few prints that she had found in the same way, but no oils or water
colors or ornaments. She despised the second-rate, and the best of
these was rarely to be bought for a song even at auction.
She sighed as she reflected that if obliged to flee to the hills there
was practically nothing she could save beyond the contents of her bags;
but at least she could remain with her treasures until the last minute,
and she pinned the curtains across the small windows and lit several
candles.
Between the blasts of dynamite the street was very quiet. She could
hear the measured tread of the sentry as he passed, a member of the
Citizens' Patrol, like her brother. Suddenly she heard a shot, and
extinguishing the candles hastily she peered out of a window from
behind the curtains. The sentry was pounding on a door opposite with
the butt of his rifle. It was the home of an eccentric old bachelor who
possessed a fine collection of ceramics and a cellar of vintage wine.
The door opened with obvious reluctance and the head of Mr. Andrew
Bennett appeared.
"What you doin' here?" shouted the sentry. "Haven't all youse been told
three hours ago to light out for the hills? Git out--"
"But the fire hasn't crossed Van Ness Avenue. I prefer--"
"Your opinion ain't asked. Git out."
"I call that abominable tyranny."
"Git out or I'll shoot. We ain't standin' no nonsense."
Gora recognized the voice as that of a young man, clerk in a butcher
shop in Polk Street, and appreciated the intense satisfaction he took
in his brief period of authority.
Mr. Bennett emerged in a moment with two large bags and walked
haughtily up the street at the point of the bayonet. Gora stood
expectantly behind her curtain, and some ten minutes later saw him
sneak round the eastern end of his block, dart back as the sentry
turned suddenly, and when the footsteps once more receded run up the
street and into his house. She laughed sympathetically and hoped he
would not be caught a second time.
II
Suddenly another man, carrying a woman in his arms, turned the same
corner. He was staggering as if he had borne a heavy burden a long
distance.
Gora ran down to the first floor and glanced out of the window of the
front room. The sentry had crossed the far end of the street and was
holding converse with another member of the patrol. As the refugee
staggered past the house she opened the front door and called softly.
"Come up quickly. Don't let them see you."
The man stumbled up the steps and into the house.
"You can put her on the sofa in this room." Gora led the way into what
had once been the front parlor and was now the chamber of her star
lodger. "Is she hurt?"
The man did not answer. He followed her and laid down his burden. Gora
flashed her electric torch on the face of the girl and drew back in
horror.
"Dead?"
"Yes, she is dead." The young man, who looked a mere boy in spite of
his unshaven chin and haggard eyes, threw himself into a chair and
dropping his face on his arms burst into heavy sobs.
Gora stared, fascinated, at the sharp white face of the girl, the rope
of fair hair wound round her neck like something malign and muscular
that had strangled her, the half-open eyes, whose white maleficent
gleam deprived the poor corpse of its last right, the aloofness and the
majesty of death. She may have been an innocent and lovely young
creature when alive, but dead, and lacking the usual amiable
beneficencies of the undertaker, she looked like a macabre wax work of
corrupt and evil youth.
And she was horribly stiff.
III
Gora went into the kitchen and made him a cup of coffee over a spirit
lamp. He drank it gratefully, then followed her up to the attic as she
feared their voices might be overheard from the lower room. There he
took the easy chair and the cigarette she offered him and told his
story.
The young girl was his sister and they were English. She had been
visiting a relative in Santa Barbara when a sudden illness revealed the
fact that she had a serious heart affection. He had come out to take
her home and they had been staying at the Palace Hotel waiting for
suitable accommodations before crossing the continent.
His sister--Marian--had been terrified into unconsciousness by the
earthquake and he had carried her down the stairs and out into Market
Street, where she had revived. She had even seemed to be better than
usual, for the people in their extraordinary costumes, particularly the
opera singers, had amused her, and she had returned to the court of the
hotel and listened with interest to the various "experiences." Finally
they had climbed the four flights of stairs to their rooms and he had
helped her to dress--her maid had disappeared. They had remained until
the afternoon when the uncontrolled fires in the region behind the
hotel alarmed them, and with what belongings they could carry they had
gone up to the St. Francis Hotel, where they engaged rooms and left
their portmanteaux, intending to climb to the top of the hill, if
Marian were able, and watch the fire.
Half way up the hill she had fainted and he had carried her into a
house whose door stood open. There was no one in the house, and after a
futile attempt to revive her, he had run back to the hotel to find a
doctor. But among the few people that had the courage to remain so
close to the fire there was no doctor. The hotel clerk gave him an
address but told him not to be too sure of finding his man at home as
all the physicians were probably attending the injured, helping to
clear the threatened hospitals, or at work among the refugees, any
number of women having embraced the inopportune occasion to become
mothers.
The doctor whose address was given him not only was out but his house
was deserted; and, distracted, he returned to his sister.
He knew at once that she was dead.
He sat beside her for hours, too stunned to think.... It was some time
during the night that the roar of the fire seemed to grow louder, the
smoke in the street denser. Then it occurred to him that the
inhabitants of this house as well as of the doctor's, which was close
by, would not have abandoned their homes if they had not believed that
some time during the night they would be in the path of the flames. And
he had heard that the pipes of the one water system had been broken by
the earthquake.
He had caught up the body of his sister and walked westward until, worn
out, he had entered the basement of another empty house, and there he
had fallen asleep. When he awakened he was under the impression for a
moment that he was in the crater of a volcano in eruption. Dynamite was
going off in all directions, he could hear the loud crackling of flames
behind his refuge; and as he took the body in his arms once more and
ran out, the fire was sweeping up the hill not a block below.
In spite of the smoke he inferred that the way was clear to the west,
and he had run on and on, once narrowly escaping a dynamiting area
where he saw men like dark shadows prowling and then rushing off madly
in an automobile ... dodging the fire, losing his way, once finding
himself confronting a wall of flames, finally crossing a wide avenue
... stumbling on ... and on....
IV
Gora decided that blunt callousness would help him more than sympathy.
He had recovered his self-control, but his eyes were still wide with
pain and horror.
"Cremation is a clean honest finish for any one," she remarked,
lighting another cigarette and offering him her match. "I should have
left her if she had been my sister in that first house...."
"I might have done it--in London. But ... perhaps I was not quite
myself.... I couldn't leave her to be burned alone in a strange
country. Besides, the horror of it would have killed my mother. Marian
was the youngest. I felt bound to do my best.... Perhaps I didn't think
at all.... If this house is threatened I shall take her out to the
Presidio, where I happen to know a man--Colonel Norris. Thanks to your
hospitality I can make it."
"But naturally you cannot go very fast ... and these sentries ... I am
not sure.... I don't see how you escaped others ... the smoke and
excitement, I suppose.... I think if you are determined to take her it
would be better if I helped you to carry her out to the cemetery. We
can put her on a narrow wire mattress and cover her, so that it will
look as if we were rescuing an invalid. Out there you can put her in
one of the stone vaults. Some of the doors are sure to have been broken
by the earthquake."
The young man, who had given his name as Richard Gathbroke, gratefully
rested in her brother's room while she kept watch on the roof. It was
night but the very atmosphere seemed ablaze and the dynamiting as well
as the approaching wall of fire looked very close. Finally when sparks
fell on the roof she descended hastily and awakened her guest, making
him welcome to her brother's linen as well as to a basin of precious
water. When he joined her in the kitchen he had even shaved himself and
she saw that he looked both older and younger than Americans of his
age; which, he had told her, was twenty-three. His fair well-modeled
face was now composed and his hazel eyes were brilliant and steady. He
had a tall trim military body, and very straight bright brown hair; a
rather conventional figure of a well-bred Englishman, Gora assumed;
intelligent, and both more naif and more worldly-wise than young
Americans of his class: but whose potentialities had hardly been
apprehended even by himself.
They ate as substantial a breakfast as could be prepared hastily over a
spirit lamp, filled their pockets with stale bread, cake, and small
tins of food, and then carried a narrow wire mattress from one of the
smaller bedrooms to the front room on the first floor.
CHAPTER X
I
The patrol had been relieved by another, an older man, and sober. He
merely reproved them for disobeying orders, glanced sympathetically at
the presumed invalid, and directed them to one of the temporary
hospitals some blocks farther west.
Gora, like all imaginative people, had a horror of the corpse, and
averted her eyes from the head of the dead girl outlined under the veil
she had thrown over it, Gathbroke was obliged to walk backward, and as
both were extremely uncomfortable, there was no attempt at conversation
until they reached the gates of the old cemetery the great pioneers had
called Lone Mountain and their more commonplace descendants
rechristened Laurel Hill.
The glare of the distant fire illuminated the silent city where a
thousand refugees slept as heavily as the dead, and as they ascended
the steep path they examined anxiously the vaults on either side.
Finally Gora exclaimed:
"There! On the right."
The iron doors of a once eminent resident's last dwelling had been half
twisted from their rusty hinges. Gathbroke threw his weight on them and
they fell at his feet. He and Gora carried in the body and lifted it to
an empty shelf.
"Good!" Gora gave a long sigh of relief. "Nothing can happen to her
now. Even the entrance faces away from the fire and there is nothing
but grass in the cemetery to burn, anyhow." She held her electric torch
to the inscription above the entrance. "Better write down the
name--Randolph. There's one of the tragedies of the sixties for you! An
Englishman the hero, by the way. Nina Randolph is a handful of dust in
there somewhere. Heigho! What's the difference, anyway? Even if she'd
been happy she'd be dead by this time--or too old to have a past."
Gathbroke replaced the gates, for he feared prowling dogs, and they
walked down to the street and sat on the grass, leaning against the
wall of the cemetery, as dissociated as possible from the rows of
uneasy sleepers.
II
They slept a little between blasts of dynamite, the snoring of men and
women and cries of children; finally at Gora's suggestion climbed to
the steep bare summit of Calvary to observe the progress of the fire.
The unlighted portion of the city beneath them looked like a dead
planet. Beyond was a tossing sea of flame whose far-reaching violent
glare seemed to project it illimitably.
"Nothing can stop it!" gasped Gora; and that terrific red mass of
energy and momentum did look as if its only curb would be the Pacific
Ocean.
They talked until morning. He was very frank about himself, finding no
doubt a profound comfort in human companionship after those long hours
of ghastly communion down in that flaming jungle.
He was a younger son and in the army, not badly off, as his mother made
him a goodish allowance. She had come of a large manufacturing family
in the North and had brought a fortune to the empty treasury of the
young peer she had--happily for both--fallen in love with.
He had wanted to go into business--politics later perhaps--after he
left Eton, feeling that he had inherited some of the energy of his
maternal grandfather, but his mother had insisted upon the army and as
he really didn't care so very much, he had succumbed.
"But I'm not sure I shan't regret it. It isn't as if there were any
prospect of a real war. I'd like a fighting career well enough, but not
picayune affairs out in India or Africa. I can't help thinking I have a
talent for business. Sounds beastly conceited," he added hastily. It
was evident that he was a modest youth. "But after all one of us should
inherit something of the sort. Perhaps, later, who knows? At least I
can thank heaven that I wasn't born in my brother's place. He likes
politics, and his fate is the House of Lords. A man might as well go
and embalm himself at once. Do you know Gwynne? Elton Gwynne? John
Gwynne he calls himself out here."
"I've heard of him. He's been written up a good deal. I don't know any
one of that sort."
"Really? Well, don't you see? he inherited a peerage; grandfather died
and his cousin shot himself to cover up a scandal. Gwynne was in the
full tide of his career in the House of Commons and simply couldn't
stand for it. He cut the whole business and came out here where he and
his mother had a large estate--Lady Victoria's mother or grandmother
was a Spanish-Californian. Of course he chucked the title. He's a sort
of cousin of mine and I looked him up, and dined with him the other
night. He was born in the United States, by a fluke as it were, and has
made up his mind to be an American for the rest of his life and carve
out a political career in this country. I'd have done the same thing,
by Jove! First-class solution ... although it's a pretty hard wrench to
give up your own country. But when a man is too active to
stagnate--there you are.... I wish I had known where to find him
to-day, but he lives on his ranch and I've only seen him once since.
Lady Victoria took me to a ball night before last--Good God! Was it
only that? ... and we were to have met again for lunch to-day."
"It is very easy and picturesque to renounce when you possess just
about everything in life! If I attempted to renounce any of my
privileges, for instance. I should simply move down and out."
III
He turned his head and regarded her squarely for the first time.
Heretofore she had been simply a friend in need, a jolly good sport,
incidentally a female. If she had been beautiful he should have noted
that fact at once, for he could not imagine the circumstances in which
beauty would not exert an immediate and powerful influence, however
transitory.
Miss Dwight was not beautiful, but he concluded during that frank stare
that her face was interesting; disturbingly so, although he was unable
at the moment to find the reason. It was possible that in favorable
conditions she would be handsome.
She had a mass of dark brown hair that seemed to sink heavily over her
low forehead until it almost met the heavy black eyebrows. She had
removed her hat and the thick loose coils made her look topheavy; for
the face, if wide across the high cheek-bones and sharply accentuated
with a salient jaw, was not large. The eyes were a light cold gray,
oval and far apart. Her nose was short and strong and had the same
cohibitive expression as the straight sharply-cut mouth--when not
ironic or smiling. Her teeth were beautiful.
She had put on her best tailored suit and he saw that her "figger" was
good although too short and full for his taste. He liked the long and
stately slenderness that his own centuries had bred. But her hands and
well-shod feet were narrow if not small, and he decided that she just
escaped possessing what modern slang so aptly expressed as "class,"
Possibly it was the defiance in her square chin, the almost angry poise
of her head, that betrayed her as an unwilling outsider.
"Bad luck!" he asked sympathetically.
She gave him a brief outline of her family history, overemphasizing as
Americans will--those that lay any claim to descent--the previous
importance of the Dwights and the Mortimers in Utica, N.Y.
Incidentally, she gave him a flashlight picture of the social
conditions in San Francisco.
He was intensely interested. "Really! I should have said there would be
the complete democracy in California if anywhere. Of course no
Englishman of my generation expects to find San Franciscans in cowboy
costume; but I must say I was astonished at the luxury and fashion not
only at those Southern California hotels, where, to be sure, most of
the guests are from your older Eastern states, but at that ball Lady
Victoria took me to. It was magnificent in all its details, originality
combined with the most perfect taste. Of course there were not as many
jewels as one would see at a great London function, but the toilettes
could not have been surpassed. And as for the women--stunning! Such
beauty and style and breeding. I confess I didn't expect quite all
that. Miss Bascom, Miss Thorndyke, and an exquisite young thing, Miss
Groome--"
"Oh, those are the haute noblesse." Gora's tipper lip curled
satirically. "No doubt they lay claim that their roots mingle with your
own."
"Well, we'd be proud of 'em."
"That was the Hofer ball, wasn't it! Do you mean to say that Alexina
Groome was there? Mrs. Groome, who is the most imposing relic of the
immortal eighties, is supposed to know no one of twentieth-century
vintage."
"I am sure of it. I danced with her twice and would have jolly well
liked to monopolize her, but she was too plainly bowled over by a
fellow--your name, by Jove--Dwight. Good-looking chap, clean-cut, fine
shoulders, danced like a god--if gods do dance. I'm an awful duffer at
it, by the way."
"Mortimer? Is it possible? And he--was he bowled over?"
"Ra--ther! A case, I should say."
"How unfortunate. Of course he hasn't the ghost of a chance. Mrs.
Groome won't have a young man inside her doors whose family doesn't
belong root and branch to her old set. Fine prospect for a poor clerk!"
"Jove! I've a mind to stay and try my luck. Oh!" He dropped his face in
his hands. "I'm forgetting!"
"Well, forget again." Gora's voice expressed more sympathy than she
felt. She deeply resented his immediate acceptance of her social
alienage, even relegating her personal appearance to another class than
that of the delicate flora he had seen blooming for the night against
the most artful background of the season.
However ... he was the first man she had ever met in her limited
experience who seemed to combine the three magnetisms.... Who could
tell....
"I should be delighted if you would cut my brother out before it goes
any further," she said untruthfully. "It will save him a heartache....
Where could you meet her now? Society is disrupted here. But of course
Mr. Gwynne visits down the peninsula. He could take you to any one of
those exclusive abodes where you would be likely to meet the little
Alexina. She is only eighteen, by the way."
"That is rather young," he said dubiously. "I don't fancy her
conversation would be very interesting, and, after all, that is what it
comes down to, isn't it? I've been disappointed so often." He sighed
and looked quite thirty-five. "Still, she has personality. Five or six
years hence she may be a wonder.... I don't think I'd care about
educating and developing a girl--I like a pal right away.... What an
ass I am, rotting like this. Tour brother has as much chance as I have.
Younger sons with no prospect of succession are of exactly no account
with the American mamma. I've met a few of them."
"Oh, I fancy birth would be enough for Mrs. Groome. She's quite dotty
on the subject, and the people out here are simpler than Easterners,
anyhow. Simpler and more ingenuous."
"How is it you know so much about it, all, if you are not, as you
say--pardon me--a part of it?"
"I wonder!" She gave a short hard little laugh. "I don't know that I
could explain, except that it all has seemed to me from birth a part of
my blood and bones and gristle. An accident, a lucky strike on my
father's part when he first came out here, and they would know me as
well to-day as I know them. And then ... of course ... it is a small
community. We live on the doorsteps of the rich and important, as it
were. It would be hard for us not to know. It just comes to us. We are
magnets. I suppose all this seems to you--born on the inside--quite
ignominious."
"Well, my mother would have remained on the outside--that is to say a
quiet little provincial--if her father hadn't happened to make a
fortune with his iron works. I can understand well enough, but, if you
don't mind my saying so, I think it rather a pity."
"Pity?"
"I mean thinking so much about it, don't you know? I fancy it's the
result of living in a small city where there are only a few hundred
people between you and the top instead of a few hundred thousand. I
express, myself so badly, but what I mean is--as I make it out--it is,
with you, a case of so near and yet so far. In a great city like London
now (great in generations--centuries--as well as in numbers) you'd just
accept the bare fact and go about your business. Not a ghost of a show,
don't you see? Here you've just missed it, and, the middle class always
flowing into the upper class, you feel that you should get your chance
any minute. Ought to have had it long ago.... I can't imagine, for
instance, that if my mother had married the son of my grandfather's
partner that I should have wasted much time wondering why I wasn't
asked to the Elizabethan Hail on the hill. Of course I don't mean there
isn't envy enough in the old countries, but it's more passive ...
without hope...."
He felt awkward and officious but he was sorry for her and would have
liked to discharge his debt by helping her toward a new point of view,
if possible.
She replied: "That's easy to say, and besides you are a man. My
brother, who is only a clerk in a wholesale house, has been taken up
and goes everywhere. They don't know that I even exist."
"Well, that's their loss," he said gallantly. "Can't you make 'em sit
tip, some way? Women make fortunes sometimes, these days, And they're
in about everything except the Army and Navy. Business? Or haven't you
a talent of some sort? You have--pardon me again, but we have been
uncommonly personal to-night--a strong and individual face ... and
personality; no doubt of that."
Gora would far rather he had told her she was pretty and irresistible,
but she thrilled to his praise, nevertheless. It was the first
compliment she had ever received from any man but the commonplace and
unimportant friends her brother had brought home occasionally before he
had been introduced to society; he took good care to bring home none of
his new friends.
Her heart leapt toward this exalted young Englishman, who might have
stepped direct from one of the novels of his land and class ... even
the stern and anxious moderns who had made England's middle-class the
fashion, occasionally drew a well-bred and attractive man from life....
She turned to him with a smile that banished the somber ironic
expression of her face, illuminating it as if the drooping spirit
within had suddenly lit a torch and held it behind those strange pale
eyes.
"I'll tell you what I've never told any one--but my teacher; I've taken
lessons with him for a year. He is an instructor in the technique of
the short story, and has turned out quite a few successful magazine
writers. He believes that I have talent. I have been studying over at
the University to the same end--English, biology, psychology,
sociology. I'm determined not to start as a raw amateur. Oh! Perhaps I
have made a mistake in telling you. You may be one of those men that
are repelled by intellectual women!"
"Not a bit of it. Don't belong to that class of duffers anyway. I don't
like masculine women, or hard women--run from a lot of our girls that
are so hard a diamond wouldn't cut 'em. But I've got an elder
sister--she's thirty now--who's the cleverest woman I ever met,
although she doesn't pretend to do anything. She won't bother with any
but clever and exceptional people--has something of a salon. My parents
hate it--she lives alone in a flat in London--but they can't help it.
My grandfather Doubleton liked her a lot and left her two thousand a
year. I wish you knew her. She is charming and feminine, as much so as
any of those I met at the ball; and so are many of the women that go to
her flat--"
"Don't you think I am feminine?" asked Gora irrisistibly. He had a way
of making her feel, quite abruptly, as if she had run a needle under
her fingernail.
Once more he turned to her his detached but keen young eyes.
"Well ... not exactly in the sense I mean. You look too much the
fighter ... but that may be purely the result of circumstances," he
added hastily: the strange eyes under their heavy down-drawn browns
were lowering at him. "You are not masculine, no, not a bit."
Once more Miss Dwight curled her upper lip. "I wonder if you would have
said the first part of that if you had met me at the Hofer ball and I
had worn a gown of flame-colored chiffon and satin, and my hair
marcelled like every other woman present--except those embalmed relics
of the seventies, who, I have heard, rise from the grave whenever a
great ball is given, and appear in a built-up red-brown wig.... And a
string of pearls round my throat? My neck and arms are quite good;
although I've never possessed an evening gown, I know I'd look quite
well in one ... my best."
He laughed. "It does make a difference. I wish you had been there. I am
sure you are as good a dancer as you are a pal. But still ... I think I
should have recognized the fighter, even if you had been born in the
California equivalent for the purple. I fancy you would have found some
cause or other to get your teeth into once in a while. Tell me, don't
you rather like the idea of taking Life by the throat and forcing it to
deliver?"
"I wonder? ... perhaps ... but that does not mitigate my resentment
that I am on the outside of everything when I belong on the in. I
should never have been forced to strive after what is mine by natural
right."
"Well, don't let it make a socialist of you. That is such a cheap
revenge on society.... Confession of failure; and nothing in it."
IV
He looked at his watch: "Eight o'clock. I'll be getting on to the
Presidio. Why don't you come with me?"
Gora's feminine instincts arose from a less perverted source than her
social. She shook her head with a smile.
"I don't want to go any farther from my house. I shall slip down my
first chance; and I have plenty to eat. Perhaps you will come to see me
before you go if my house is spared."
"Rather. What is the number? And if the house goes I'll find you
somehow."
He took her hand in both his and shook it warmly. "You are the best pal
in the world--"
"Now don't make me a nice little speech. I'm only too glad. Go out to
the Presidio and get a hot breakfast and attend--to--to your affairs. I
am sure everything will be all right, although you may not be able to
get away as soon as you hope."
"I don't like leaving you alone here--"
"Alone?" She waved her hand at the hundreds of recumbent forms in the
cemeteries and on the lower slopes of Calvary. "I probably shall never
be so well protected again. Please go."
He shook her hand once more, ran down the hill, turned and waved his
cap, and trudged off in the direction of the Presidio.
V
She slept in her own house that night, for dynamiting by miners
summoned from Grass Valley by General Funston, and a change of wind,
had saved the western portion of the city. For the first time in her
life Gora experienced a sense of profound gratitude, almost of
happiness. She felt that only a little more would make her quite happy.
Her lodgers, even her absorbed brother, noticed that her manner, her
expression, had perceptibly softened. She herself noticed it most of
all.
CHAPTER XI
I
Gathbroke met Alexina Groome again a week later.
On Saturday, when the fire was over, and she could retreat decently and
in good order, Mrs. Groome, to her young daughter's secret anguish, had
consented to rest her nerves for a fortnight at Rincona, Mrs. Abbott's
home in Alta.
As Gora had predicted, Gathbroke found that it would have been hardly
more difficult to move his sister's body, now at an undertaker's in
Fillmore Street, out of the state in war-time than in the wake of a
city's disaster, which was scattering its population to every point of
the railroad compass. He had refused the space in the baggage car
offered to him by the company; it should: be a private car or nothing;
and for that, in spite of all the influence Gwynne and his powerful
friends could bring to bear, he must wait.
Meanwhile Gwynne had asked him to stay with himself and his mother,
Lady Victoria Gwynne, at the house of his fiancee, Isabel Otis, on
Russian Hill; a massive cliff rising above one of the highest of the
city's northern hills, whose old houses, clinging to its steep sides
had escaped the fire that roared about its base. To-day it was a green
and lofty oasis in the midst of miles of smoking ruins.
Gathbroke was as nervous as only a young Englishman within his
immemorial armor can be. Gwynne, who had gone through the same
nerve-racking crisis, although from different causes, understood what
he suffered and pressed him into service in the distribution of
government rations, and garments to the different refugee camps. But
Gathbroke had the active imagination of intelligent youth, and he never
forgot to blame himself for lingering in New York with some interesting
chaps he had met on the _Majestic_, and afterward in Southern
California, seduced by its soft climate and violent color.
Unquestionably, if he had stayed on his job, as these expressive
Americans put it, his sister would have been in New York, possibly on
the Atlantic Ocean when San Francisco shook herself to ruin.
"But not necessarily alive," said Lady Victoria callously, removing her
cigar, her heavy eyes that looked like empty volcanos, staring down
over the smoldering waste. "People with heart disease don't invariably
wait for an earthquake to jolt them out of life. Assume that her time
had come and think of something else or you'll become a silly ass of a
neurotic."
Gwynne, more sympathetic, continued to find him what distraction he
could, and one day drove him down the Peninsula with a message from the
Committee of Fifty to Tom Abbott; who had caught a heavy cold during
those three days when he had driven a car filled with dynamite and had
had scarcely an hour for rest. He was now at home in bed.
II
The Abbott's place, Rincona, stood on a foothill behind the other
estates of Alta and surrounded by a park of two hundred acres set thick
with magnificent oaks. Gathbroke had never seen finer ones in England
or France. Gwynne before entering the avenue drove to an elevation
above the house and stopped the car for a moment.
The great San Mateo valley looked like a close forest of ancient oaks
broken inartistically by the roofs of houses shorn of their chimneys.
Beyond, on the eastern side of a shallow southern arm of the Bay of San
Francisco, was the long range of the Contra Costa mountains, its waving
indented slopes incredibly graceful in outline and lovely in color.
Gwynne had pointed out their ever changing tints and shades as they
drove through the valley; at the moment they were heliotrope deepening
to purple in the hollows.
Behind the foothills above Rincona rose the lofty mountains which in
Maria Abbott's youth had seemed to tower above the valley a solid wall
of redwoods; but long since plundered and defaced for the passing needs
of man.
"Great country--what?" said Gwynne, starting the car. "You couldn't pry
me away from it--that is, unless I have the luck to represent it in
Washington half the year. You'll be coming back yourself some day."
"I? Never. I hate the sight of its grinning blue sky after the red
horror of those three days. I haven't seen a cloud as big as my hand,
and in common decency it should howl and stream for months."
"Well, forget it for a day. Perhaps you will be placed next the fair
Alexina at luncheon--"
"Alexina...?"
"Groome. You must have met her at the Hofer ball."
"She--what--possible--"
Gwynne looked at his stuttering and flushed young cousin and burst into
laughter.
"As bad as that, was it? Well, she's not bespoken as far as I know.
Wade in and win. You have my blessing. She is almost as beautiful as
Isabel--"
"She's quite as beautiful as Miss Otis."
"Oh, very well. No doubt I'd think so myself if I hadn't happened to
meet Isabel first, and if I were not too old for her anyway."
Gwynne could think of no better remedy for demoralized nerves than a
flirtation with a resourceful California girl, and if Dick annexed a
living companion for his trying journey to England so much the better.
Gathbroke's excitement subsided quickly. He was in no condition for
sustained enthusiasm. He felt as if quite ten years had passed since he
had half fallen in love with Alexina Groome in a ball room that was now
a charred heap in the sodden wreck of a city he barely could conjure in
memory.
Besides, he had half fallen in love so often. And she was too young. He
had really been more drawn to that strange Miss Dwight; upon whom,
however, he had not yet called.
He felt thankful that the girl _was_ too young for his critical taste.
He wanted nothing more at present in the way of emotions.
CHAPTER XII
I
Rincona had been named in honor of Rincon Hill, where Tom Abbott's
grandmother had reigned in the sixties; a day, when in order to call on
her amiable rival, Mrs. Ballinger, her stout carriage horses were
obliged to plow through miles of sand hills, and to make innumerable
detours to avoid the steep masses of rock, over which in her grandson's
day cable car and trolley glided so lightly until that morning of April
eighteen, nineteen hundred and six.
When her husband, in common with other distinguished citizens, bought
an estate in the San Mateo Valley, she named it Rincona, to the secret
wrath of other eminent ladies who had not thought of it in time.
The house had as little pretensions to architectural beauty as others
of its era, but it was a large compact structure of some thirty rooms,
exclusive of the servants' quarters, and with as many outbuildings as a
Danish, farm. Long French windows opened upon a wide piazza, whose
pillars had disappeared long since under a luxuriant growth of rose
vines and wistaria. At its base was a bed of Parma violets, whose
fragrance a westerly breeze wafted to the end of the avenue a quarter
of a mile away. All about the house, breaking the smooth lawns, were
beds and trees of flowers, at this time of the year a glowing exotic
mass of color; but in the park that made up the greater part of the
estate exclusive of the farms, the grass under the superb oaks was
merely clipped, the weeds and undergrowth removed. The oaks had been
evenly shorn of their lower branches, which gave them a formal and
somewhat arrogant expression, as of cardinals and kings lifting their
skirts.
Alexina hated the enormous rooms with their high frescoed ceilings and
heavy Victorian furniture; but Maria Abbott loved and revered the old
house, emblem that it was of a secure proud family that had defied that
detestable (and disturbing) old phrase: "Three generations from shirt
sleeves to shirt sleeves." The Abbotts, like the Ballingers and Groomes
and Gearys and many others of that ilk, had not come to California in
the fifties and sixties as adventurers, but with all that was needed to
give them immediate prestige in the new community; and, among those
that still retained their estates in the San Mateo Valley, at least,
there was as little prospect of their reversion to shirt sleeves as of
their conversion to the red shirt of socialism. Their wealth might be
moderate but it was solid and steadfast.
II
The entertaining of the Abbotts, Yorbas, Hathaways, Montgomerys,
Brannans, Trennahans, and others of what Alexina irreverently called
the A.A., had always been ostentatiously simple, albeit a butler and a
staff of maids had contributed to their excessive comfort. In the
eighties, evening toilettes during the summer were considered immoral;
but by degrees, as time tooled in its irresistible modernities, they
gradually fell into the habit of wearing out their winter party gowns
at the evening diversions of the country season. Burlingame, that
borough of concentrated opulence founded in the early nineties as a
fashionable colony, began its career with a certain amount of
simplicity; but its millions increased to tens of millions; and what in
heaven's name, as Mrs. Clement Hunter, a leader and an individual, once
remarked, is the use of having money if you don't dress and entertain
as you would dream of dressing and entertaining if you didn't have a
cent?
Mrs. Hunter, who had formed an incongruous and somewhat hostile
alliance with Mrs. Abbott, knew that her valuable friend, like others
of that "small and early" band, resented the fact that their standards
no longer counted outside of their own set. Mrs. Abbott had turned a
haughty shoulder to Mrs. Hunter for a time, for she remembered her as,
in their school days, the socially obscure Lidie McKann; now, however,
her husband turning all he touched to gold, she had, incredibly, become
one of the most important women in San Francisco and Burlingame.
When Maria Abbott finally succumbed she assured herself that curiosity
to see the more ambushed glitter of that meretricious faubourg had
nothing to do with it; it was easy to persuade herself that she hoped,
being an indisputably smart woman herself, gradually to impose her
simpler and more appropriate standards upon these people who sorely
threatened the continued dominance of the old regime.
Mrs. Hunter soon disabused her of any such notion, and during the early
days of their acquaintance, after Mrs. Abbott came to one of her
luncheons attired in a pique skirt and severe shirtwaist, impeccably
cut and worn, but entirely out of place in an Italian palace, where
forty fashionable women, some of whom had motored sixty miles to attend
the function, were dressed as they would be at a Newport luncheon, Mrs.
Hunter attended the next solemn affair at Rincona so overdressed and
made up that the outraged Altarinos (as Alexina irreverently called
them) were reduced to a horrified silence that was almost hysterical.
But one morning Mrs. Abbott caught Mrs. Hunter digging in her private
vegetable garden behind the palace, and wearing a garment that her
second gardener's wife would have scorned, her unblemished face beaming
under a battered straw hat. Both women had the humor to laugh, and
their intimacy dated from that moment, Mrs. Hunter confessing that
stuff on her face made her sick; but adding that she adored dress and
thought that any rich woman was a fool who didn't.
After that there was a compromise on both sides. Mrs. Hunter lunched or
dined at Rincona in her simplest frocks and Mrs. Abbott wore her best
when honoring Mrs. Hunter and others at Burlingame. She even went so
far as to have some extremely smart silk voiles (the fashionable
material of the moment) and linens made, and when asked to a wedding, a
garden party, or a great function given to some visitor of distinction,
complimented the occasion to the limit of her resources.
III
Mrs. Hunter, in white duck, a sailor hat perched above her angular
somewhat masculine face, was sitting on the Abbott verandah as the two
Englishmen drove up. She waved her cigarette and cried gayly in her
hearty resonant voice:
"Two men! What luck! And in time for lunch. I've hardly seen a man
since the first day of the fire. Leave your car anywhere and come in
out of the sun. I'll call Maria, and, incidentally, mention whiskey and
soda."
"The whiskey and soda is all right," said Gwynne mopping his brow;
Nature, having wreaked her worst on California, seemed determined to
atone by unseasonably brilliant weather, and the day under the blazing
blue vault was very hot.
Mrs. Abbott appeared in a few moments, smiling, cool, in immaculate
white, the collar of her shirtwaist high and unwilted. Her
weather-beaten face looked years older than Mrs. Hunter's, who,
although plain by comparison with the once beautiful Maria Groome, had
treated her clean healthy skin with marked respect.
But as the butler had preceded her with whiskey and soda and ice, Mrs.
Abbott might already have achieved the mahogany tints of her mother and
she would have been regarded as enthusiastically by two hot and dusty
men.
"Of course you will stay to luncheon," she said as naturally as she had
said it these many years, and as two hospitable generations had said it
on that verandah before her. She turned to young Gathbroke with a
smile, for Mrs. Hunter, who was in her confidence, had detained her for
a moment with a few sharp incisive words. "I have a very bored little
sister, who will be glad to sit next to a young man once more."
And although Gathbroke almost frowned at this fresh reminder of the
callow years of the girl whose sheer loveliness had haunted his
imagination, he went off with a not disagreeable titillation of the
nerves, at Mrs. Abbott's suggestion, to find her in the park and bring
her back to luncheon in half an hour.
CHAPTER XIII
I
He was light of step and made no sound on the heavy turf; he saw her
several minutes before she was aware of his presence and stood staring
at her, feeling much as he had done during the progress of the
earthquake.
She was standing under one of the great oaks whose lower limbs had been
trimmed so evenly some seven feet above the ground that they made a
compact symmetrical roof above the dark head of the girl, who, being
alone, had abandoned the limp curve of fashion and was standing very
erect, drawn up to her full five feet seven. Alexina had no intention
of being afflicted with rounded shoulders when the present mode had
passed.
But her face expressed no guile as she stood there in her simple white
frock with a bunch of periwinkles in her belt, her delicate profile
turned to Gathbroke as she gazed at the irregular majesty of the Coast
Range, dark blue under a pale blue haze. He had retained the impression
of starry eyes and vivid coloring and eager happy youth, a body of
perfect slenderness and grace, whose magnetism was not that of youth
alone but personal and individual.
Now he saw that although her fine little profile was not too regular,
and as individual as her magnetism, the shape of her head was classic.
It was probable that she was not unaware of the fact, for its perfect
lines and curves were fully revealed by the severe flatness of the
dusky thickly planted hair, which was brushed back to the nape of her
neck and then drawn up a few inches and flared outward. The little head
was held high on the long white stem of the throat; and the pose, with
the dropping eyelids, gave her, in that deep shade, the illusion of
maturity. Gathbroke realized that he saw her for the moment as she
would look ten years hence. Even the full curved red lips were closed
firmly and once the nostrils quivered slightly.
The narrow black eyebrows following the subtle curve of her eyelids,
the low full brow with its waving line of soft black hair, seemed to
brood over the lower part of the face with its still indeterminate
curves, over the wholly immature figure of a very young girl.
Gathbroke surrendered then and there. This radiation of mystery, of
complexity, this secret subtle visit of maturity to youth, the hovering
spirit of the future woman, was unique in his experience and went
straight to his head. He forgot his sister, dismissed the thought of
Dwight with a gesture of contempt. He might be modest and rather
diffident in manner, owing to racial shyness, but he had a fine
sustaining substructure of sheer masculine arrogance.
II
As he walked forward swiftly Alexina turned; and immediately was the
young thing of eighteen and of the early twentieth century. Her spine
drooped into an indolent curve, her soft red lips fell apart, her
black-gray eyes opened wide as she held out her hand to the young
Englishman.
"How nice! I never really expected to see you again. I understood Lady
Victoria to say you were merely passing through."
Alexina had not cast him a thought since the night of the ball but she
was hospitable and feminine.
"I was detained."
She noted with intense curiosity that his bright color paled and his
sparkling hazel eyes darkened with a sudden look of horror; but the
spasm of memory passed quickly, and once more he was staring at her
with frank capitulation.
Alexina's head went up a trifle. She was still new to conquest, and
although she had met more than one pair of admiring eyes in the course
of the past season, and received as many compliments as the vainest
girl could wish, few men had had the courage to storm the stern
fortress on Ballinger Hill, or to sit more than once in a drawing-room
so darkly reminiscent of funeral ceremonies that a fellow's nerves
began to jump all over him.
Nor had her fancy been even lightly captured until Mortimer Dwight,
that perfect hero of maiden dreams, had swept her off her dancing feet
on the most memorable night of her life.
She had quite made up her mind to marry him. The indignant silent
hostility of the family (even Mrs. Ballinger, her moment of weakness
passed, having been swung to the horrified Maria's point of view) had
been all that was necessary to convince the young Alexina that fate had
sent her the complete romance. She hoped the opposition would drive her
to an elopement; little dreaming of the horror with which Mr. Dwight
would greet the heterodox alternative.
Mrs. Abbott had had a valid excuse for not asking him down: provisions
were scarce, and, so Tom said, he was doing useful work in town. But
Olive Bascom, whose country home was in San Mateo, had invited him for
the next week end, and he had accepted. Alexina was to be one of the
small house party, and there were many romantic walks behind San Mateo.
A moon was also due.
III
Still Gathbroke might have entered the race with an even chance, for
maidens of eighteen are merely the blind tools of Nature, had not the
family made the mistake of displaying too warm an approval of the
eligible young Englishman. Mrs. Groome, Mrs. Abbott, Aunt Clara,
reenforced even by the more worldly Mrs. Hunter, who, however, had no
children of her own, treated him throughout the luncheon with an almost
intimate cordiality and a lively personal interest; whereas, if Mrs.
Abbott had been driven to keep her word and invite Mortimer Dwight to
her historic board she would have depressed him with the cool pleasant
detachment she reserved for those whom she knew slightly and cared for
not at all; Mrs. Groome, automatically gracious, would have retired
within the formidable fortress of an exterior built in the still more
exclusive eighties; Aunt Clara would have sat petrified with horror at
the desecration; and Mrs. Hunter, free from the obligations of
hospitality, would have been brusque, frankly supercilious, made him as
uncomfortable as possible.
All this Alexina angrily resented, not knowing that their amiability
was in part inspired by sympathy, Gwynne having told them the story of
his cousin's tragic experience; although they did in truth regard him
as a possibly heaven-sent solution of a problem that was causing them
all, even Mrs. Hunter, acute anxiety.
Young Gathbroke was handsomer than Dwight. He was younger, and his
circumstances were far more romantic, if romance Alexina must have. It
was plain that he was fascinated by the dear silly child, who, in her
turn, would no doubt promptly forget the ineligible Dwight if the
Englishman proved to be serious and paid her persistent court.
Nevertheless Gathbroke, before the luncheon was half over, felt that he
was making no progress with Alexina. Subtly it was conveyed to him on
one of those unseen currents that travel directly to the sensitive
mind, that these amiable people knew his story; and, no doubt, in all
its harrowing details. Simultaneously those details flashed into his
own consciousness with a horrible distinctness, depressing his spirits
and extinguishing a natural gayety and light chaff that had come back
for a moment.
Moreover, to use his own expression, he was besottedly in love, and
knew that he betrayed himself every time his eyes met those of the
girl, who, he felt with bitterness and alarm, long before the salad,
was making a desperate attempt to entertain a very dull young man.
Once or twice a mocking glance flashed through those starry ingenuous
orbs, but was banished by the simple art of elevating the wicked iris
and revealing a line of saintly white. Alexina was quite determined to
add a British scalp to her small collection, and for the young man's
possible torment she cared not at all. With young arrogance she rather
despised him for his surrender before battle, or at all events for
hauling down his flag publicly; and her mind traveled with feminine
satisfaction to the calm smiling dominance, combined with utter
devotion, of the man who had won her as easily as she had conquered
Richard Gathbroke. That the young Englishman's nature was hot and
tempestuous, with depths that even he had not sounded, and her ideal
knight's more effective mien but the expression of a possibly meager
and somewhat puritanical nature; that Dwight's heart was a well-trained
organ which would never commit an indiscretion, and that young
Gathbroke would have sold the world for her if she had been a flower
girl, or the downfall of her fortunes had sent her clerking, she was
far too inexperienced to guess; and it is doubtful if the knowledge
would have affected her had she possessed it. She was in the obstinate
phase of first youth, common enough in girls of her sheltered class,
where the opportunities to study men and their behavior are few. Having
persuaded herself that she was far more romantic than she really was,
and that there would be no possible happiness or indeed interest in
life after youth, she had conceived as her ideal mate the dominant
male, the complete master, and easily persuaded herself that she had
found him in Mortimer Dwight.... If she married Gathbroke he would be
her slave (so little did she know him.). Dwight would be her master.
(So little did she know him, or herself.)
CHAPTER XIV
I
After luncheon, grinning amiably when Mrs. Abbott hinted that
Englishmen liked to be out of doors, she led Gathbroke to the confines
of the park, where they sat down under one of the oaks that reminded
him of England; for which he was in truth desperately homesick, and
never more so than at this moment.
Everything combined to make him realize uneasily his youth. In England
a man of twenty-three was a man-of-the-world if he had had the proper
opportunities; but this girl who had infatuated him, and even the far
more sympathetic Miss Dwight, made him feel that he was a mere boy; and
so had this entire family, however unwittingly.
II
He spoke of Miss Dwight suddenly, for Alexina, who had been duly
enlightened while the men were smoking with Tom, had tactfully conveyed
her sympathy, her eyes almost round with fascinated horror and
curiosity.
He set his teeth and gave a rapid but graphic account of the whole
dreadful episode, willing to interest her at any price; and Alexina,
sitting opposite on the ground, her long spine curved, her long arms
embracing her knees, listened with a breathless interest, spurring him
to potent words, even to stressing of detail.
"My goodness gracious me!" she ejaculated when he paused. "I should
have gone raving mad. You are a perfect wonder. I never heard of
anything so gor--perfectly thrilling. And that girl, what did you say
her name was?"
Gathbroke, who had purposely withheld it, said explosively:
"Dwight."
"Dwight?"
"I think she is a sister of a friend of yours." And he was made as
miserable as he could wish by a crimson tide that swept straight from
her heart pump up to her widow's peak.
"Dwight? Sister? I didn't know he had one. I saw him several times
during the fire and he didn't mention her."
"I suspect he was too absorbed." Gathbroke muttered the words, but
man's instinct of loyalty to his own sex is strong. "A city doesn't
burn every day, you know."
"Still ... what is she like? Like him?"
"I do not remember him at all ... She? Oh, she has a tremendous amount
of dark hair that looks as if falling off the top of her head and down
her face. Uncommonly heavy eyebrows, and very light gray--Ah, I have
it! I have been groping for the word ever since--sinister eyes.... That
is the effect in that dark face. She has a curious character, I should
think. Not very frank. She--well, she rather struck me as having been
born for drama; tragic drama, I am afraid."
"Not a bit like her brother. How old is she?"
"Twenty-two, she told me."
"What--what does she do? They are not a bit well off."
He hesitated a moment. "Well--as I recall it, she is studying something
or other at the University of California."
"And of course she boards down there with her brother, who takes care
of her while she is studying to be a teacher or something." Alexina
having arranged it to her satisfaction dismissed the subject. She had
no mind to betray herself to this good-looking young Englishman who had
been sent to her providentially on a very dull day. He would, no doubt,
have been frantically interesting if he had not been so idiotic as to
fall head over ears the first shot.
Still ... Alexina examined him covertly as he transferred his gaze for
a moment to the mountains across the distant bay, swimming now in a
pale blue mist with a wide banner of pale pink above them.... If she
had met him first, or had never met the other at all ... who knew?
III
Alexina, for all her passion for romance, had a remarkably level head.
She was quite aware that there had been a certain amount of
deliberation in her own headlong plunge, convinced as she was that high
romance belonged to youth alone, and fearful lest it pass her by; aware
also that a part of Dwight's halo, aside from his looks and manners and
chivalrous charm, consisted in his being a martyr to an unjust fate,
and, as such, under the ban of her august family. It was all quite too
perfect.... But if Gathbroke had come first his qualifications might
have proved quite as puissant, and no doubt Tom Abbott, who retained
his school-history hatred of the entire English race, would have
provided the opposition and perhaps influenced the family.
She swept her intoxicating lashes along the faint bloom high on her
olive cheeks and then raised her eyes suddenly to the tormented ones
opposite. She also smiled softly, alluringly, as little fascinating
wretches will who know nothing of the passions of men.
"I think you should follow Mr. Gwynne's example and stay here with us."
He thought of silver chimes and contrasted her voice with Gora Dwight's
angry contralto: he always thought of Gora in phrases. "So many
Englishmen live out here and adore it."
"I'm perfectly satisfied with my own country, thank you."
Alexina, who was feeling intensely American at the moment, curled her
lip. "Oh, of course. We have had plenty of those, too. Scarcely any of
them becomes naturalized. Just use and enjoy the country and give as
little in return as possible."
"Really? I fancy they must give rather a lot in return or they would
hardly be tolerated. No native has worked harder than Elton these last
days. I understand most of them are in business or ranching and have
married California girls."
"Oh, they have redeeming points." And then having satisfied her
curiosity as to how hazel eyes looked when angry she gave him a
dazzling smile. "We love them like brothers, and that is a proof that
we are not snobbish, for most of them are not of your or Mr. Gwynne's
class--just middle-class business people at home."
"Well, you are a business nation, so why not? I have met hardly any but
business men out here and I feel quite at home with them. My mother's
family are in trade and I enjoy myself immensely when I visit them."
"Oh!" His halo slipped.... Still, what did it matter? "I suppose you
told me that to let me know you didn't need to come out here in search
of an heiress. But many of our most charming girls are not. Just now it
seems to me that more young men in California have money than girls ...
but they are so uninteresting."
She looked pathetic, her mouth drooped; then she smiled at him
confidingly.
He knew quite as well as if he had not been hard hit that she was
flirting with him, but as long as she gave him his chance to win her
she might do her transparent little best to make a fool of him.
"Have you ever been in love?" asked Alexina softly.
"Oh, about half-way several times, but always drew back in time ...
knew it wasn't the real thing ... Youth fools itself, you know, for the
sake of the sensation--or the race. Have you?"
"Oh--" Alexina lifted her thin flexible shoulders airily and this time
her color did not flow. "How is one to tell ... a girl in her first
season ... when all men look so much alike? It is fun to flirt with
them, when you have been shut up in boarding-school and hardly had a
glimpse of life even in vacation. My New York relatives are terribly
old-fashioned. It's great fun to give one man all the dances and watch
the dado of dowagers look disapproving." And once more she gave him the
quick smile of understanding that springs so spontaneously between
youth and youth.
"Well ... you might have given all those dances to me the other night,
instead of to that fellow Dwight."
"Oh, but you see, I had already promised them to him. Lady Victoria
always comes so late."
"That's true enough." His spirits rose a trifle.
"When do you go--back to England, I mean? Not for a good long time, I
hope. We have awfully good times down here. Janet Maynard and Olive
Bascom live at San Mateo in the summer, and Aileen Lawton at
Burlingame. They are my chums and we'd give you a ripping time. We'd
like to have you take away the pleasantest possible memory of
California instead of such a terrible one. I don't mean anything very
gay of course. You mustn't think I'm heartless." And she showed the
lower pearl of her eyes and looked like a madonna.
"I'm afraid I must go soon. I've had an extension of leave already, and
Hofer told me just before we left to-day that he thought he could let
me have his private car inside of a week. They've been using it."
IV
There was not a dwelling in sight. The quiet of that old park with its
brooding oaks was primeval. Behind her was the pink and blue glory of
sky and mountain. Her eyes were like stars.
He burst out boyishly: "If I only had more time! If only I could have
met you even when I first came to San Francisco ... before ... before
... I'd--I'd like to marry you. It's fearfully soon to say such a
thing. I feel like a fool. But I'm not the first man to fall madly in
love at first sight ... and you ... you ... If I tell you now instead
of waiting it's because there's so little time. Would you ... do you
think you could marry me?"
"Oh! Ah!" (She almost said Ow.) After all it was her first proposal.
She was thrilled in spite of the fact that she was in love with another
man, for she felt close to something elemental, hazily understood ...
something in her own unsounded depths rushed to meet it.
But he was too young, and too "easy," and she didn't like his gray
flannel shirt; which, laundry being out of the question, he had bought
in Fillmore Street almost opposite the undertaker's.
"Suppose we correspond for a year? That is, if you must really go so
soon."
"I must. I want you to go with me."
His eyes had turned almost black and he had set his jaw in a way she
didn't like at all. In nerving himself to go through the ordeal he had
worked up his fermenting mind into a positively brutal mood.
"Oh--mercy! I couldn't do that. My people are the most conventional in
the world."
The situation was getting beyond her. She had not intended to make him
propose for at least a week and then he would have been abject and she
majestic. She sprang to her feet with a swift sidewise movement that
made her limp young body melt into a series of curves; and, standing at
bay as it were, looked at him with a little frown.
He rose as quickly and she liked the set of his jaw bones less and less.
"Are you refusing me outright?" he demanded. "That would be only fair,
you know, if I have no chance."
"Well.... I think so. That is--"
"Do you love another man?"
Coquetry flashed back. Nevertheless, she told the exact truth little as
she suspected it.
"I love myself, and youth, and life, and liberty. What is a man in
comparison with all that?"
"This." And before she could make another leap he had her in his arms;
and under the fire of his lips and eyes she lay inert, intoxicated, her
first flash of young passion completely responsive to his.
But only for a moment.
She wrenched herself away, her face livid, her eyes black with fury.
She beat his chest with her fists.
"You! You! How I hate you! To think I should have given that to you ...
to think that another man should have been the first to kiss me ... I'm
in love with another man, I tell you. Why don't you go? I hate myself
and I never want to lay eyes on you again. Go! Go! Go!"
CHAPTER XV
I
During the retreat from Mons and again in those black days of March,
nineteen-eighteen, Gathbroke's tormented mind snapped from the present
and flashed on its screen so startling a resurrection of himself during
those last dreadful days in San Francisco that for the moment he was
unconscious of the world crashing about him.
He saw himself in long days and nights of anguish and despair, of
embittered love and baffled passion: youth enjoying one of its divine
prerogatives and the fullness thereof!
Pacing the floor of his room on Russian Hill, tramping over the
mountains across the Bay, doggedly awaiting that sole alleviation of
mental suffering in its early stages, a change of scene.
Finally the Hofer car was placed at his disposal and he started on his
four days' journey to New York; and this brief chapter, that his
friends thought so gruesome, was the least of his afflictions. The
memory of his twenty-four hours or more of close physical association
with his sister's corpse made any subsequent adventure with the dead
seem tame. And at least he was leaving behind him a State which seemed
to have magnetized him across six thousand miles to experience the
horror and misery she had in pickle for him. He reveled in the audible
rush of the train that was carrying him farther every moment from the
girl who had cut down into the core of his heart and left her indelible
image on a remarkably good memory.
II
He had asked himself one day--it was his last in California and he had
taken his courage in his teeth and was on his way to call on Gora
Dwight at last, picking his steps through, the still smoking ruins down
to Van Ness Avenue--whether it would be possible for any man to suffer
twice in a lifetime as he had suffered since that hideous moment at
Rincona, coming as it did on top of an uncommon and terrible experience
that had racked his nerves and soul as it might not have done had he
been seasoned by war or even a few years older. At all events it had
left him with no reserves even in his pride to fight his failure and
his loss.
In that shrieking hell of August twenty-sixth, or again when lying
abandoned and gassed in a way-side hut during that ominous retreat of
the Fifth Army, when he had a sudden close vision of himself, trousers
tucked into a pair of Gwynne's hunting boots, swearing now and again as
he stepped on a hot brick; and heard his groping ego whisper the
question through his prostrate mind, he was tempted to answer aloud, to
shout "No" above the shrieking of shells and the groans of men fallen
about him.
He might no longer love Alexina Groome after twelve or even eight years
of complete severance; and, indeed, save in flashing moments like these
he had seldom thought of her after the first two or three years; but at
least she had taken the edge from his power to suffer.
He had lost his mother soon after his return with the body of her
youngest child, his father had died three years later, and he had
accepted these griefs with the composure of maturity. Although he had
had some agreeable adventures (not that he had had much time for either
women or society) he had taken devilish good care not to get in too
deep--even if he still possessed the power to love at all, which he
doubted.
He remembered also, what he had almost forgotten, that during that walk
it had come to him with the sharpness of surprise that the image of the
girl who clung to his mind with the tentacles of a devil-fish, was as
he had seen her standing under the oak tree while unaware of his
presence: older, a more dignified and thoughtful figure, a woman old
enough to be his mate in something more than youthful passion, the
ideal woman of vague sweet dreams; not as the thoughtless little
coquette who had tempted him to ruin his chances by acting like a cave
brute.
Given a fortnight longer, during which he remained master of himself
instead of a young fool with a smashed temperament, and the unfledged
woman in her, whose subtle projection he had witnessed during that
moment of his capitulation, would have recognized him as her mate; as
for the moment she had in his arms.
Not the least of his ordeals during those last days was the inevitable
call on Gora Dwight. He felt like a cad, after what she had been to him
at the end of an appalling experience, to have let, nearly three weeks
go by with no apparent recognition of her existence. But he had been
unable to find a messenger, there was no post; and then, after his
ill-starred visit to Rincona, he had forgotten her until his final
visit to the undertaker; when she had seemed to stand, an indignant and
reproachful figure, at the head of the casket.
III
He had a note in his pocket and hoped she would be out. But she opened
the door herself, and her dark face, thinner than he recalled it,
flushed and then turned pale. But she said calmly as she extended her
hand: "Come in. I wondered what had become of you." "I'm sorry.
But--perhaps--you can understand--it was not easy for me to come here!"
"Of course. Come up to my diggings."
He followed her up to the attic studio, where as before he took the
easy chair and accepted one of her cigarettes; which he professed to be
grateful for as his were exhausted and every decent brand in town had
gone up in smoke.
Gora was deeply disappointed that she had received no warning of his
call, for she possessed an extremely becoming and richly embroidered
silk Chinese costume, as red as the flames that had devoured Chinatown
a few days after she had bought it at a bankrupt sale. She had put it
on every afternoon for a week, hoping and expecting that he would call;
and now that she had on her second-best tailored suit, and a darned if
immaculate shirtwaist, he had chosen to turn, up! ... But at least the
lapels of the jacket had recently been faced with red, and it curved
closely over her beautiful bust. Moreover, she had just finished
rearranging the masses of her rich brown hair when the bell rang.
And she had him for a time, perhaps for an hour! She set out the tea
things as an intimation of the refreshment he would get at the proper
time....
She too had suffered during this past interminable fortnight, but Gora
was far more mature than the young Englishman, upon whom life until the
last few weeks had smiled so persistently. She was too complex, she had
suffered in too many ways, from too many causes, not all of them
elevating, to be capable upon so short a notice, even after a night of
unique companionship, of such whole-souled agony and despair. In her
imagination, her sense of drama, her vanity, in the fading of vague
dazzling hopes of a future to which he held the key, and perhaps a
little in her stormy heart, she had felt a degree of harsh
disappointment, but she had already half-recovered; and as she sat
looking at his ravaged face she wondered that the death of a sister, no
matter how harrowing the conditions, could make such a wreck of any man.
He told her of his difficulties in finding some one to remove the body
from the vault to the undertaker's, of the delay in obtaining a private
car, gave her some idea of his disorganized life since they had parted,
but made no mention of Alexina Groome or Rincona. Then he politely
asked her if she had any new plans for the future. Nobody seemed to
look forward to the same old life.
Gora shrugged her shoulders with a movement expressive of irritation.
"My brother, who is engaged to Alexina Groome, insists that I give up
this lodging house."
"Oh, so they are engaged?" Gathbroke lit another cigarette, and his
hand did not tremble; he felt as if his nerves had been immersed in ice
water and frozen.
"Yes--marvelously. The family, as might be expected, is furious. But
the girl is mad about him and of age. She is just a foolish child and
should be locked up. My brother is not in the least what she imagines
him. She wrote me a letter. Good heaven! One would think she had
captured the prince of a fairy tale, or the hero of an old romantic
novel. There should be a law prohibiting girls from marrying before
they are twenty-two at least.... However, the thing is done. And my
brother is terribly afraid they'll find out that I keep a lodging
house. He's given them to understand we both board here. They are prime
snobs and so is he. I never dreamed it was in him until he began to go
about in society, but then you never know what is in anybody.
Otherwise, he is harmless enough, and a good industrious boy, but he'll
never make the money to keep up with that set, and she won't have much.
It's a stupid affair all round...."
"I've refused to budge until he finds me a job. He certainly cannot
support me, even if I were willing to be supported by any one. As far
as I am concerned they could know I kept a lodging house and welcome.
It is honest and it gives me a good living; and, what I value more,
many hours of freedom. But Mortimer is not only positively terrified
they'll find it out, but he is as obstinate over it as--well, as that
kind of man always is. He's looking about, and I fancy my fate is
stenography or bookkeeping: I took a course at a business college
shortly before my mother died. I don't know that he'd like that much
better; he hinted that I might be a librarian in a small town. But I'll
be hanged if I fall for that."
Gathbroke smiled. "Not that. You don't belong to the country town. But
I fancy you'll have to give up the lodging house. Elton Gwynne took me
down the Peninsula one day, and--well--I don't fancy they would stand
for it. Aristocracies are aristocracies the world over. They may talk
democracy, and really modify themselves a bit, but there are certain
things they'd choke on if they tried to swallow them, and they won't
even try. Better give it up before they find it out and tackle you. I
don't fancy you'd stand for that. It would be devilish disagreeable.
You've got to know and be more or less intimate with them all--"
"I'll not be patronized by them. I don't know that I'll go near them.
For years I've resented that I was not one of them, but I don't fancy
tagging in after my brother, treated with pleasant courteous
resignation, invited once a year to a family dinner, and quite
forgotten on smart occasions."
"Quite so. I like your spunk. Have you thought of being a nurse? All
work is hard and I should think that would be interesting. Must meet a
jolly lot of people. You should see the becoming uniforms the London
nurses wear. Prettiest women on the street, by Jove."
Her heart sank but she replied evenly: "Not a bad idea. I've quite
enough saved to take the course comfortably--"
He had a flash of memory. "And that would give you time to win your
reputation as a writer. Then the nursing would be merely one more
resource."
"It was nice of you to remember that. I'll consider the nursing
proposition, and when you have your next war I'll go over and nurse
you. That part of it--a war nurse--would be mighty interesting."
The words were spoken idly, merely to avert a pause, and forgotten as
soon as uttered. But as a matter of fact the next time they met was
when he looked up from his cot in the hospital after he had been
retrieved from the hut by two of his devoted Tommies, and saw the odd
pale eyes of Gora Dwight close above his own.
BOOK II
CHAPTER I
I
Gora closed the door of Mrs. Groome's room as the clock struck two, the
old Ballinger clock that had seemed to toll the hours on a deep note of
solemn acquiescence for the past six weeks.
She crossed the hall and entered Alexina's room without knocking.
Mortimer, during the past fortnight, had moved from the room adjoining
his wife's to one at the back of the house, lest it should be necessary
to call Alexina in the night. He worked very hard.
Alexina still occupied her old room in the front of the house where the
creaking eucalyptus trees sometimes brushed the window pane. It had
been refurnished and fitted in various elusive shades of pink by Mrs.
Abbott as her wedding present. There was a dim point of light above a
gas jet and Gora saw that Alexina was asleep. The pillows were on the
floor. She was lying flat, her arms thrown out, the dusky fine mass of
her hair spread over the low head board. Her clear olive cheeks were
pale with sleep and her eyelashes looked like two little black clouds.
Gora watched her for a moment. Why awaken the poor child? She was
sleeping as peacefully as if that tall old clock of her forefathers had
not tolled out the last of another generation of Ballingers. Her soft
red lips were half parted.
It was now three years since her marriage but she still looked like a
very young girl. Gora always felt vaguely sorry for her although she
seemed happy enough. At all events it was quite obvious that she did
little thinking except when she remembered to wish for a baby.
Gora wore the white uniform of a nurse, and a little cap with wings on
the coronet of her heavy hair. It was a becoming costume and made her
eyes in their dark setting look less pale and cold.
She had a secret contempt for most of the old conventions but she had
given her word to awaken Alexina the moment any change occurred, and
she reluctantly shook her sister-in-law's shoulder.
II
Alexina sprang out of bed on the instant.
"Mother?" she cried. "Is she worse?"
Gora nodded.
Alexina made a dart for the door, but Gora threw a strong arm about
her. Those arms had held more than one violent man in his bed. "Better
wait," she said softly.
Alexina's body grew rigid as she slowly drew back on Gora's arm and
stared up at her. In a moment she asked in a hard steady voice: "Is my
mother dead?"
"Yes. It was very sudden. I had no time to telephone for the doctor; to
call you. She was sleeping. I was sitting beside her. Suddenly I knew
that she had stopped breathing--"
"Would you mind telephoning to Maria and Sally? Maria will never
forgive herself--but mother seemed so much better--"
"I will telephone at once. Shall I call Mortimer?"
"No. Why disturb him?"
Gora, watching Alexina, saw a curious remoteness enter the depths of
her eyes, and her own narrowed with something of her old angry
resentment. In this hour of profound sorrow, when the human heart is
quite honest, Alexina, however her conscious mind might be averted from
the fact, regarded Mortimer Dwight as an outsider, an agreeable alien
who had no permanent place in the immense permanency of the
Ballinger-Groomes. She wanted only her own family, her own inherent
sort. Sally had hastened to California as soon as her mother's illness
had been pronounced dangerous, and had stayed in the house until a week
ago when she had been ordered by the doctor to Santa Barbara to get rid
of a heavy cold on her chest. She had telegraphed the day before that
she was threatened with pneumonia, and Maria, assured that her mother
was in no immediate danger, had gone down to spend two days with her.
Possibly Alexina caught a flash from the mind of this strange and
interesting sister-in-law, for she added hastily:
"You know how hard Mortimer works, poor dear. And I do not feel in the
least like crying. I shall write telegrams to Ballinger and Geary: my
brothers, you know." (Gora ground her teeth.) "It was too sad they
could not get here, but Ballinger is in South America and Geary on a
diet. I must also write a cablegram to an old friend of mine who has
married a Frenchman, Olive de Morsigny. She was always so fond of
mother. Would you also mind telephoning to Rincona about seven?"
"I'll do all the telephoning. Go back to bed as soon as possible. It is
only a little after two." As Gora turned to leave the room Alexina put
her hand on her arm and summoned a faint sweet smile.
"I cannot tell you how grateful I am, Gora dear, how grateful we all
are. You have been simply wonderful--"
"I am a good nurse if I do say it myself," said Gora lightly. "But you
must remember there are others quite as good; and that I--".
"I know you would do your duty as devotedly by any stranger." Alexina
interrupted her with sweet insistence. "But it has been wonderful to be
able to have you, all the same. It has also given me the chance to know
you at last, and I shall never quite let you go again."
Gora, to her secret anger, had never accustomed herself to the
unswerving graciousness of these people, and all that it implied, but
her sharp mind had long since warned her that as she had neither the
position nor the training to emulate it, at least she must not betray a
sense of social inferiority by open resentment.
Her voice was deep and naturally abrupt but she achieved a fair
imitation of Alexina's sweet cordiality. "It has meant quite as much to
me, Alexina, I can assure you. And now that I am on my own and shall
have a day or two between cases I know where I shall spend them. I am
only too thankful that I graduated in time to take care of dear Mrs.
Groome. Write your telegrams and I will give them to the doctor when he
comes. I must telephone to him at once."
III
After she had gone Alexina wrote not only her telegrams and cablegrams,
but the "letters to follow." It was nearly four o'clock when she
finished. Old Dr. Maitland had not yet come and she put her bulletins
on the table in the hall.
She heard Gora moving about her mother's room and retreated into her
own. She did not want to go to her mother yet nor did she care
particularly to see Gora again, although she had certainly been very
nice and a great comfort to them all.
Alexina was quite unaware that her attitude to her sister-in-law was
one of unconsicous condescension, of a well-bred determination never to
wound the pride of a social inferior. She found Gora an "interesting
personality" and quite extraordinarily efficient.
It had been the greatest relief to all the family when that very
capable Miss Dwight--Gora, that is; one must remember--had been brought
by Dr. Maitland to take charge of the case after Mrs. Groome's cardiac
trouble became acute and she demanded constant attention.
Gora had slept in Mrs. Groome's bedroom for six weeks, relieved for
several hours of the afternoon by a member of the family or one of Mrs.
Groome's many anxious friends. It was her first case and it interested
her profoundly. Moreover, her personal devotion placed her for the
moment on a certain basis of equality with a family whose mental
processes were quite transparent to her contemptuous mind. She was
excessively annoyed with herself for still caring, but the roots were
too deep, and there had been nothing in her life during the past three
years to diminish her fierce sense of democracy as she interpreted it.
Alexina had never given a thought to her sister-in-law's psychology,
although the sensitive plates of her brain received an impression now
and again of a violent inner life behind that business-like exterior.
But she had seen little of her until lately, and during the past six
weeks her mind had been too concentrated upon her mother's sufferings
and possible danger to have any disposition for analysis.
She certainly did not feel the least need of her now. She wished,
indeed, that she had asked Aileen to remain in the house last night.
Aileen was her own age, they had been intimate since childhood, often
without the slightest regard for each other's feelings, and was more
like a sister than even dear Sally and Maria.
Suddenly she determined to go to her. She had her own latch key and
would disturb no one but Aileen. She dressed herself warmly and slipped
down stairs and out of the house.
CHAPTER II
I
The city below--the new solid city--was obliterated under a heavy fog,
pierced here and there by steeples and towers that looked like jagged
dark rocks in that white and tranquil sea.
On Angel Island and on the north shore of the bay the deep sad bells
were tolling their warning to moving craft; and from out at sea, beyond
the Golden Gate, the fog horn sent forth its long lugubrious groans.
The bells sounded muffled, so dense was the fog, and there was no other
sound in the sleeping city.
Alexina wrapped her long cloak more closely about her and pulled the
hood over her head.
As she walked slowly down the steep avenue it came to her with
something of a shock that she had not thought of her husband since she
had expressed to Gora her reluctance to disturb him.
She was doing the least conventional thing possible in leaving the
house at four o'clock in the morning to seek the sympathy of a girl
friend when any other young wife she knew (unless getting a divorce)
would have flown to her husband and wept out her sorrow in his arms.
And she had been married only three years, and found Mortimer quite as
irreproachable as ever, always kind, thoughtful, and considerate. He
assuredly would have said just the right things to her and not have
resented in the least being deprived of a few hours of rest.
On the contrary, he would no doubt resent being ignored, for not only
was he devoted to his lovely young wife but such behavior was
unorthodox, and he disliked the unorthodox exceedingly.
Well, she didn't want him and that was the end of it. He didn't fill
the present bill. She had never regretted her marriage, for he had
quite measured up to the best feats of her maiden imagination. He made
love charmingly, he was manly chivalrous and honorable, and his eager
spontaneity of manner when he arrived home at six o'clock every evening
never varied; to whatever level of flatness he might drop immediately
afterward. When they entered a ballroom or a restaurant she knew that
they made a "stunning couple" and that people commented upon their good
looks, their harmonious slenderness and inches, and contrasts in
nature's coloring.
II
Alexina, almost unconsciously, sat down on a bench under the trees. Her
mind sought the pleasant past as a brief respite from the present; she
knew that that part of her mind called heart was frozen by the
suddenness of her mother's death, and that her emotions would be fluid
a few hours hence.
They had had a simply heavenly time together until her mother's
illness. As a clerk in the family was unthinkable Mrs. Groome had lent
him the insurance on one of her burned buildings and he had started a
modest exporting and importing house, that being the only business of
which he had any knowledge. Judge Lawton and Tom Abbott had suggested
that he open an insurance office, or start himself in any business
where little capital besides office furniture was needed; as Mrs.
Groome's advisors they were averse to launching any of her moderate
fortune on a doubtful venture. But Dwight had insisted that he was more
likely to succeed in a business he understood than in one of which he
knew nothing, and Mrs. Groome had agreed with him. Judge Lawton and
Abbott paid over the insurance money with the worst grace possible.
And then Mortimer had a piece of the most astounding good luck. His
aunt Eliza Goring had left stock in a mine which had run out of pay ore
soon after her investment, and shut down. It had recently been
recapitalized and a new vein discovered. Mrs. Goring's executor had
sold her stock for something under twenty thousand dollars, delivering
the proceeds, as directed in her will, to two of her amazed heirs,
Mortimer and Gora Dwight.
Gora had been opposed to her brother leaving the firm of Cheever
Harrison and Cheever, where, beyond question, he would be head of a
department in time and safely anchored for life; but he had taken the
step, and she reasoned that he must have a considerable knowledge of a
business with which he had been associated for fourteen years, she knew
his energy and powers of application, and she resented the attitude of
"the family." Appreciating what his triumph would mean to him she had
consented to invest her inheritance in his business and enable him to
make immediate restitution to Mrs. Groome. As a matter of fact his
"stock did go up" with the family, particularly as he seemed to be
doing well and had the reputation of working harder than any young man
on the street. As he had anticipated, a good deal of business was
thrown his way.
He had accepted as a matter of course Mrs. Groome's invitation to live
with her, paying, as he insisted upon it, a stipulated sum toward the
current expenses. He thought her offer quite natural; not only would
she be lonely without the child of her old age, but she must desire
that Alexina continue to live in the conditions to which she was
accustomed; the sum Mrs. Groome consented to accept would not have kept
them in a fashionable family hotel, much less an apartment with several
servants.
Moreover, housing room was scarce; they might have been obliged to live
across the Bay; and, in his opinion, the duty of parents to their
offspring never ceased.
Alexina at that time thought every sentiment he expressed "simply
great," and had continued to feed from her mother's hand even in the
matter of pin money. Mortimer felt it to be right, so he told her, to
put his surplus profits back in his business; all he could spare he
needed for "front," to say nothing of pleasant little dinners at
restaurants to their hospitable young friends; who thought it no
adequate return to be asked to dine on Ballinger Hill.
Moreover, he often gave her a far handsomer present than he should have
done, considering the "hard times;" or at least she would have
preferred that he give her the combined values in the form of a monthly
allowance; she would have enjoyed the sensation of being in a measure
supported by her husband.
However, she and her mother assured each other that he was bound to
make a fortune in time, and then she would have an allowance as large
as that of Sibyl Thorndyke, who had married Frank Bascom.
It had been like playing at marriage. Alexina put it into concrete
words. Subconsciously she had always known it. She had had no cares, no
responsibilities. She had merely continued to play, to keep her
imagination on that plane sometimes called the fool's paradise.
III
She realized abruptly that here was the secret of her longing for
children. They would have been the real thing, given a serious
translation to life.
But she had enjoyed the gay life of her little world, nevertheless, and
with all the abandon of a youth which had just closed its first long
chapter in that silent room on top of the hill. And no one could have
asked for a more delightful companion to play with than Morty, when his
working hours were over.
Mortimer loved society. It had been simply delicious, poor darling, to
watch his secret delight, under his perfect repose, the first time they
spent a week-end in Mrs. Hunter's magnificent "villa" at Burlingame.
Even Aileen had treated his initiation as a matter of course; and they
had spent the afternoon at the club, where he drank whiskey and soda on
equal terms with many millionaires.
IV
It was doubtful if he enjoyed similarly his first visit to Rincona
during their engagement: after all the powwow was over and the family
had grimly surrendered to avoid the scandal of an elopement.
Alexina recalled that dreadful day. They had all sat on the verandah on
the shady side of the house: her mother, Aunt Clara Groome, Maria,
Susan Belling and Grace Montgomery, Tom Abbott's sisters, whose homes
were in Alta, and Coralie Geary, born Brannan, of Fair Oaks (now
Atherton) who had married a nephew of Mrs. Groome. All these were as
one united family. They met every day, wandering in and out at all
hours, and although they had many healthy disagreements they agreed on
all the fine old fundamentals, and they stood by one another through
thick and thin.
The hair of all looked freshly washed. Their complexions had perished
asking no quarter. Mrs. Montgomery and Mrs. Geary were as slim and
smart as Mrs. Abbott, but the others were expanding rapidly, and Aunt
Clara, who was only a year older than Mrs. Groome, was shamelessly fat,
and her face was so weather-beaten that the freckled skin hung as
loosely as her old wrapper.
All wore white, the simplest white, and all sewed quietly for the new
refugee babies; all except Alexina who talked feverishly to cover the
awful pauses, and young Joan, who had crawled under the table and
stuffed an infant's flannel petticoat into her mouth to muffle her
giggles.
Tom had escaped to the golf links. Mortimer sat in the midst of the
Irregular circle and smoked three cigars. He smiled when he spoke,
which was seldom, and appeared appreciative of the determined efforts
to be "nice" of these ladies who had called him Mortimer as soon as he
arrived, and who made him fed more like a poor relation whose feelings
must be spared, every moment.
Finally Alexina, who was on the verge of hysteria, dragged Joan from
under the table, and the two carried him off to the tennis court.
In subsequent visits, now covering a period of three years, their
gracious civil "kind" attitude had never varied, save only when their
consciences hurt them for disliking him more than usual, and then they
were not only heroic but fairly effusive in their efforts to be nice.
Nevertheless, it was quite patent to Alexina that he enjoyed smoking
his after-dinner cigar on that old verandah whose sweet-scented vines
had been planted in the historic sixties; or under the ancient oaks of
the park where he dreamed aloud to her of sitting under similar oaks of
England, the guest of Lady Barnstable or Lady Arrowmount, belles of the
eighties who faithfully exchanged letters once a year with Maria Abbott
and Coralie Geary.
From the family there was always the refuge of the tennis court and he
played an excellent game. He also seemed to enjoy those dinners given
them in certain other old Peninsula mansions, and if they were dull he
was duller.
V
Alexina had admitted to herself some time since (never to that wretch,
Aileen Lawton) that he _was_ rather dull, poor darling.
For a long time the aftermath of the earthquake and fire had supplied
topics for conversation. For quite two years there had been an acutely
painful interest in the Graft Prosecution, which, beginning with an
attempt merely to bring to justice the political boss, his henchman the
mayor, and his ignorant obedient board of supervisors, had unthinkably
resolved itself into a declaration of war, with State's Prison as its
goal, upon some of the most prominent capitalists in San Francisco.
The prosecution had been started by a small group of eminent citizens,
bent upon cleaning up their city, notorious for graft, misgovernment,
and the basest abuses of political power. They had assumed as a matter
of course that those of their own class, who for years had expressed in
private their bitter resentment against paying out small fortunes to
the board of supervisors every time they wanted a franchise, would be
only too glad to expose the malefactors.
But it immediately transpired that they had no intention whatever of
admitting to the world that they had been guilty of corruption and
bribery. They might have been "held up," forced to "come through," or
renounce their great enterprises; helpless, in other words; but the law
had technical terms for their part in the shameful transactions, and so
had the public.
All solemnly vowed that they had neither been approached by the city
administration for bribe money, nor paid a cent for franchises, some of
which the prosecution knew had cost them no less than two hundred
thousand dollars. Therefore did the prosecutors change their tactics.
Supervisors, by various means, were induced to confess, and the Grand
Jury indicted not only the boss and the mayor, but a large number of
eminent citizens.
Society was riven in twain. Life-long friends cut one another, and now
and again they burst into hysteria as they did it. Mrs. Ferdinand
Thornton, at a dinner party, left the room as Mrs. Hofer entered it,
and Mrs. Hofer gave a magnificent exhibition of Celtic temperament.
The editor who supported the prosecution with the full strength of his
historic sheet was kidnapped. The prosecuting attorney was shot in the
court room by a former convict who afterward was found dead in his
cell. There were moments when it looked as if excited mobs would
reinstitute the lynch law of the fifties.
Nothing came of it all but such a prolonged exposure of general
vileness that it was possible to effect a certain number of reforms
later by popular vote. The system remained inviolate, even during the
mayorship of a fine old citizen too estimable to build up a rival
machine; and the men of the prosecution, after many bitter harassed
months, when they walked and slept with their lives in their hands,
resigned themselves to the fact that no San Francisco jury would ever
convict a man who had the money to bribe it.
All this had given Mortimer abundant material for conversation and he
had entertained Mrs. Groome and Alexina night after night with a report
of the day's events and the gossip of the street. Mrs. Groome had been
intensely interested, for this upheaval reminded her of personal
episodes in the life of her husband and father, the latter having been
a member of the vigilance committees of the fifties.
She had been so delighted with the efforts of the prosecuting group to
bring the boss and the mayor to justice that she had permitted Alexina
to invite the Hofers to dinner; but when men of her own proud circle
were accused of crimes against society and threatened with San Quentin,
nothing could convince her of their guilt; and she asked Alexina to
follow the example of Maria and cut that Mrs. Hofer.
Alexina had never been interested in the details of the prosecution;
the large moments of the drama and the social convulsions were enough
for her. She refused to cut Mrs. Hofer, although she ceased to call on
her, as her mother and her husband made such a point of it; but she
gave little thought to the sorrows of that ambitious young matron. She
had other fish to fry.
Two great hotels whose interiors had been swept by the fire were
renovated and furnished and their restaurants and ballrooms eagerly
patronized. The Assembly balls were resumed. There were dinners and
dances in the Western Addition, where many of the finest homes in the
city had been built during the past ten or twenty years; and
entertaining Down the Peninsula had not paused for more than two months
after the disaster.
Nevertheless, she had exulted in the fact that the husband of her
choice was able to please and entertain her mother-no easy feat.
Moreover, as time went on and interest in the Graft Prosecution wore
thin, it was evident that Mortimer had established himself firmly in
his mother-in-law's graces. He was not only the perfect husband but the
son of her old age.
She had lost Ballinger and Geary in her comparative youth, and Tom was
rarely in the house when she visited Rincona. But Mortimer was as
devoted to her in the little ways so appreciated by women of any age as
he was to his wife, and he was noiseless in the house and as prompt as
the clock. During her illness his devotion touched even Mrs. Abbott,
although Mrs. Groome was the only member of the family he ever won over.
VI
Poor Morty. In a way he was a failure, after all. The men of her set
did not seem to care any more for him than they did before her
marriage, although they were always polite and amiable; and the promise
of those old family friends to throw business in his way seemed to be
forgotten as time went on.
No doubt they had thought he was able to stand on his own feet after a
while, but he had often looked depressed during the panic of
nineteen-seven and the long period of business drought that had
followed. Still, he had managed to hold his own, and his constitutional
optimism was unshaken. He _knew_ that when times changed he would soon
be a rich man, and Alexina shared his faith. Not that she had ever
cared particularly for great wealth, but he talked so much about it
that he had excited her imagination; after all money was the thing
these days, no doubt of that, and she had heard "poor talk" all her
life and was tired of it.
Moreover, nothing could be more positive than that if Morty's father
had made a fortune in his own day, and the son inherited and
administered it with the canny vigilance which distinguished the sons
of rich men to-day from the mad spendthrifts of a former generation, he
would be as logically intimate with those young capitalists who were
the renewed pillars of San Francisco society, as she was with the most
aloof and important of her own sex.
She had heard Judge Lawton and other men say that if a man were still a
clerk at thirty he was hopeless. The ruts were packed with the mediocre
whose destiny was the routine work of the world, whatever might be
their secret opinions of their unrecognized abilities and their
resentment against a system that anchored them.
The young man of brains and initiative, of energy, ambition, vision and
balance, provided he were honorable as well, and temperate in his
pleasures, was the man the eager world was always waiting for.
Alexina knew that the United States was almost as prolific in this fine
breed of young men as she still was in opportunities for the
exceptional of every class.
And it was possible that Mortimer was not one of them.
Once more she put a fact into bald words. She knew that her butterfly
youth had come to an end with her mother's death, and for a year she
should be very much alone, to say nothing of her new burden of
responsibilities. Thinking during that period was inevitable. She might
as well begin now.
Mortimer had some of those gifts. He worked like a dog, he was
ambitious and temperate and he was the soul of honor. But although his
brain was clear enough, the blindest love would, perceive in time that
it lacked originality.
Did it also lack initiative, resource, that peculiar alertness and
quick pouncing quality of which she had heard? She wished she knew, but
she had never discussed her husband with any one. Certainly he had
stood still. Or was that merely the fault of the hard times? She had
heard other men complain as bitterly.
"Fate handed you a lemon, old girl."
Alexina could almost hear Aileen's mocking voice. She even gave a
startled glance down the quiet avenue. Well, she would never discuss
him with Aileen or any one else.
Did she love him any longer? Had she ever loved him? What was love? She
had been quite happy with him in her own little way. What did girls of
eighteen know of love? Deliberately in her youthful arrogance and
unlicensed imagination she had manufactured a fool's paradise; and, a
hero being indispensable, had dragged him in after her.
Perhaps she still loved him. She had read and seen enough to know that
love changed its character as the years went on. She respected his many
admirable qualities and she would never forget his devotion to her
mother.
She certainly liked him. And the family attitude roused her obstinate
championship as much as ever. At least she would always remain his good
friend, helping him as far as lay in her power. She had deliberately
selected her life partner and she would keep her part of the contract.
He filled his to the letter, or as far as in him lay. If he were not
the masterful superman of her dreams, at least he was quite obstinate
enough to have his own way in many things, in spite of his unswerving
devotion to her charming self. He was whitely angry when she received
Bob Cheever one afternoon when she was alone, and had forbidden her
ever to receive a man in the daytime again. If men wanted to call on a
married woman they could do so in the evening. She no longer danced
more than twice with any man at a party, and he refused to read her
favorite books, new or old, and chilled any attempt to discuss them in
his presence.
VII
Well, after all, what did it matter? She had dreamed her dream and he
was better than most. She sprang to her feet and ran down the hill and
across the street to the house of Judge Lawton.
CHAPTER III
I
Gora waited until her brother had finished his bath and returned to his
room. When she was admitted he had a brush in either hand polishing his
pale brown immaculately cut hair. He turned to her, startled, his good
American gray eyes showing no trace of sleep. He always awoke with
alert mind and refreshed body.
"What is it? Not--"
Gora nodded. "At two this morning. Alexina wouldn't let me call you--"
His wide masculine eyebrows met. It was correct to be angry and he was.
"I never heard of such a thing--"
"She was not a bit overcome and wrote letters to her brothers and
friends for at least two hours. It really wouldn't have been worth
while to disturb you--I must say I was astonished; thought she'd go to
pieces--but you never know."
"I'll go to her at once."
"I'd dress first. Aileen Lawton is with her."
Gora knew that Alexina had gone out at four in the morning and returned
half an hour since, but the cat in her was of the tiger variety and
never descended to small game.
"Oh, of course!" Mortimer gave a groan of resignation as he hunted out
a pair of black socks. "I like Aileen well enough, but she has
altogether too much influence over Alexina. She'd have more than myself
if I didn't keep a close watch."
"I have an idea that no one will have much influence over Alexina as
time goes on. She hasn't that jaw and chin for nothing. They mean
things in some people."
He gave her a quick suspicious glance, but her pale gray eyes were
fixed on the windmill beyond the window, that odd old landmark in a now
fashionable quarter of San Francisco.
"I shall always control her," he said, setting his large finely cut
lips. "I wish her to remain a child as long as possible, for she is
quite perfect as she is. She is bright and all that, but of course she
has no intellect--"
Gora forgot her message of death and laughed outright.
"Men--American men, anyhow--are really the funniest things in the
world. Even intellectual men are absurd in their patronizing attitude
toward the cleverest of women; but when it conies to mere masculine
arrogance ... don't you really respect any woman's brains?"
"I never denied that some women were clever and all that, but the best
of them cannot compare with men. You must admit that."
"I admit nothing of the sort, but I know your type too well to waste
any time in argument--"
"My type?"
She longed to reply: "The smaller a man's brain the more enveloping his
mere male arrogance. Instinct of self-defense like the turtle's shell
or the porcupine's quills or the mephitic weasel's extravasations." But
she never quarreled with Morty, and to have shared with him her opinion
of his endowments would have been to deprive herself of a good deal of
secret amusement.
"Oh, you're all alike," she said lightly, and added: "Don't be too sure
that Alexina hasn't intellect-the real thing. When she emerges from
this beatific dream of youth she has almost hugged to death for fear it
might escape her, and begins to think--"
"I'll do her thinking."
"All right, dear. You have my best wishes. But keep on the job.... I'll
clear out; you want to dress--"
"Wait a moment." He sat down to draw on his socks. "I'm really cut up
over Mrs. Groome's death. She was my only friend in this damn family,
and I coveted her money so little that I wish she could have lived on
for twenty years."
"I wondered how you liked them as time went on."
He brought his teeth together and thrust out his jaw. "I hate the whole
pack of superior patronizing condescending snobs, and it is all I can
do to keep it from Alexina, who thinks her tribe perfection. But, by
God!"--he brought down his fist on his knee--"I'll beat them at their
own game yet. I simply live to make a million and build a house at
Burlingame. They really respect money as much as they think they don't;
I've got oil to that. When I'm a rich roan they'll think of me as their
equal and forget I was ever anything' else."
"Well, don't speculate," said Gora uneasily. "Remember that luck was
left out of our family."
"My luck changed with that legacy. I am certain of it. I have only to
wait until this period of dry rot passes--"
"But you're not speculating?"
He looked at her with eyes as cold as her own.
"I answer questions about my private affairs to no one."
"They are my affairs to the extent of half your capital."
"You have received your interest regularly, have you not?"
"Yes."
"Then you have nothing to worry about. I understand business, as well
as the man's opportunities, and you do not."
"I did not ask out of curiosity, but because I shall be glad when you
are doing well enough to let me have my eight thousand--"
"What do you want of it? Where could you get more interest?"
"Nowhere, possibly. But some day I shall want to take a vacation, a
fling. I shall want to go to New York and Europe."
"And you would throw away your capital!"
"Why not? I have other capital in my profession; and, although you will
find this difficult to grasp, in my head. I have practiced fiction
writing for years. It is just ten months since I tried to get anything
published, and I have recently had three stories accepted by New York
magazines: one of the old group and two of the best of the popular
magazines."
He looked at her with cold distaste, which deepened in a moment to
alarm. "I hope you will not use your own name. These people who think
themselves so much above us anyhow, look upon authors and artists and
all that as about on a level with the working class--"
"I shall use my own name and ram it down their throats. They worship
success like all the rest of the world. Their fancied distaste for
people engaged in any of the art careers--with whom they practically
never come in contact, by the way--is partly an instinctive distrust of
anything they cannot do themselves and partly because they have an
Elizabethan idea that all artists are common and have offensive
manners."
"I don't like the idea of your using your own name. Ladies may
unfortunately be obliged to earn their own living--and that you shall
never do when I am rich--but they have no business putting their names
up before the public like men."
Gora looked at his rigid indomitable face; the face of the Pilgrim
fathers, of the revolutionary statesmen, which he had inherited intact
from old John Dwight who had sat in the first congress; the American
classic face that is passing but still crops out as unexpectedly as the
last drop from a long forgotten "tar brush," or the sly recurrent
Biblical profile.
"We will make a bargain," she said calmly. "I will ask you no more
questions about your business for a year--when, if convenient, I should
like my money--and you will kindly ignore the literary career I mean to
have. It won't do you the least good in the world to formulate opinions
about anything I choose to do. Now, better concentrate on Alexina.
You've got your hands full there. See you at breakfast." And she shut
the door on an indignant worried and disgusted brother.
CHAPTER IV
I
When Mortimer, after tapping on his wife's door, was bidden to enter he
found her sitting with Aileen over a breakfast tray, the belated tears
running down into her coffee. Aileen, promising to return after she had
given her father his breakfast, made a hasty retreat; and Dwight took
his wife in his arms and soothed the grief which grew almost hysterical
in its reaction from the insensibility of the morning.
"You won't leave me for a moment?" she sobbed, in this mood finding his
sympathy exquisite and necessary. "You'll stay home--until--until--"
"Of course. I'll telephone Wicksam after breakfast. He can run the
office for a day or two. By the way Maria will be here this evening;
Sally is better. Joan and Tom and the rest will be here in about an
hour. Tom and I will attend to everything. You are not to bother, not
to think."
"Oh, you are too wonderful--always so strong--so strong--how I love it.
But I'll never get over this--poor old mommy!"
But the paroxysm passed, and just as Mortimer was on the verge of
morning starvation and too polite to mention it, she grew calm by
degrees and sent him down to breakfast. The emotional phase of her
grief was over.
CHAPTER V
I
It was three months later that Aileen, once more sitting in Alexina's
bedroom, after her return from Santa Barbara, where she had gone with
her father for the summer, said abruptly: "Dad is terribly cut up, dear
old thing. He'd known your mother since they were both children, in the
days when there were wooden sidewalks on Montgomery Street, and Laurel
Hill was called Lone Mountain, and they had picnics in it. Odd they
both should have had young daughters. Another link--what? as the
English say. Well--anyhow--he told me to tell you that he was just as
fond of your father as of your mother, and that you must try to imagine
that he is your father from this time forth, and come to him when you
are in doubt about anything."
Alexina looked her straight in the eyes. "I have sometimes thought
uncle daddy didn't like Mortimer."
"On the contrary, he rather likes him. He respects a capacity for hard
work, and persistence, and a reputation for uncompromising honesty. But
of course Mortimer is young--in business, that is; and father
thinks--but you had better talk with him."
"No. Why should I? But I don't mind you. At least I could not discuss
Mortimer with any one else. I am furious with Tom Abbott. He wants me
to put my money in trust, with himself and uncle daddy as
trustees--ignoring Mortimer, whom he pretends to like. He says Maria's
fortune has been kept intact, that he has never touched a cent of it,
but that men in business are likely to get into tight places and use
their wife's money. Nothing would induce Mortimer to touch my money,
but he would feel pretty badly cut up if I let any one else look after
my affairs. Of course I wouldn't even discuss the matter with Tom. And
if Morty does need money at any time I'll lend it to him. Why not? What
else would any one expect me to do?"
"Of course Tom Abbott went to work the wrong way, the blundering idiot.
No one doubts Mortimer's good faith, but the times are awful, money has
paresis; and when you are obliged to take any of your own out of the
stocking in order to keep business going, it is easily lost. Dad hopes
you will hang on like grim death to your inheritance. You see--the
times are so abnormal, Mortimer hasn't had time to prove his abilities
yet; he's just been able to hold on; and if things don't mend and he
should lose out, why--if you still have your own little fortune, at
least you'll not be any worse off than, you are now. Don't you see?"
"Yes, I see. But Mortimer has told me of other panics and bad times.
They always pass, and better times come again. And if he has been able
to hold on, that at least shows ability, for others have gone under. Of
course we shall live here and run the house--as mother did. I couldn't
bear to live anywhere else, and Morty adores it too."
"Oh, rather. I couldn't imagine you anywhere else."
"Geary and Ballinger sent me ten thousand dollars for a wedding present
and Morty bought some bonds for me, but I'm going to sell a few and
refurnish the lower rooms. I love the old house but I like cheerful
modern things. The poor old parlors and dining-room do look like
sarcophagi."
"Good. I'll help. We'll have no end of fun."
II
There was a pause and then Alexina said: "Mortimer is so determined to
be a rich man and thinks of so little else and works so hard, that he
is bound to be. Otherwise, such gifts would be meaningless."
She made the statements with an unconscious rising inflection. Aileen
did not answer and turned her sharp revealing green eyes on the
eucalyptus grove which concealed Ballinger House from the vulgar gaze,
and incidentally shut off a magnificent view.
"I don't know whether I like Gora Dwight or not," she remarked.
"Neither do I. But I admire her. She is a wonder."
"Oh, yes, I admire her, and I've a notion she's got something big in
her, some sort of destiny. But those light eyes in that dark face give
me the creeps. It isn't that I don't trust her. I believe her to be
insolently honest and honorable--and just, if you like. But--perhaps
it's only the accident of her queer coloring--she gives me the
impression that while she might go to the stake for her pride, she'd
murder you in cold blood if you got in her way."
"Poor Gora! You make her all the more interesting."
"Did she ever tell you that she corresponds with that Englishman who
was out here at the time of the earthquake and fire and had that
ghastly adventure with his sister? We all met him at the Hofer
ball--Gathbroke his name was."
Alexina was staring at her with an amazed frown. "Correspond--Gora? ...
I remember now he told me she helped him to carry his sister's body out
to the old cemetery. Is he interested in her?"
"I shouldn't wonder. They've corresponded off and on ever since. I
walked, home with her one afternoon before I went south--she interests
me frantically--and she invited me up to her quite artistic attic in
Geary Street, where she still lives, and gave me the most vivid
description of that night. It made me crawl. She stared straight before
her as she told it. Her eyes were just like gray oval mirrors in which
it seemed to me I saw the whole thing pass....
"Then she showed me a photograph he had recently sent her--stunning
thing he is, all right, and looks years older than when he was here.
She also alluded to things he had said in a letter or two. So my
phenomenally quick wits inferred that they correspond. Perhaps they are
engaged. Pretty good deal for her."
III
Alexina, to her surprise, felt intensely angry, although she had the
presence of mind to cast up her eyes until the white showed below the
large brilliant iris and she looked like a saint in a niche.
She had kept Gathbroke out of her thoughts for nearly four years,
deliberately. For a time she had hated him. Mortimer's love-making had
seemed tame in comparison with that primitive outburst, and never had
she felt any such fiery response to the man she had loved and chosen as
during those few moments when she had been in that impertinent,
outrageous, loathsome young Englishman's arms. At first she had
wondered and resented, loyally concluding that it was her own fault, or
that of fate for endowing her with such a slender emotional equipment
that she used it all up at once on the wrong man. Finally, she found it
wise not to think about it at all and to dismiss the intruder from her
thoughts.
Now she felt outraged in her sense of possession.... Unconsciously she
had enshrined him as the secret mate of her inmost secret self ... a
self she was barely conscious of even yet ... lurking in her
subconsciousness, the personal and peculiar blend of many and diverse
ancestors.... Sometimes she had glimpsed it ... wondered a little with
a not unpleasant sense of apprehension....
But for the most part Circumstance had decreed that she abide on the
abundant surface of her nature and enjoy a highly enjoyable life as it
came. Now, she had experienced her first grief, which at the same time
was her first set-back. She did not go out at all. She saw much of
Mortimer and little of any one else. It was the summer season and all
her friends were in the country or in Europe.
She had given Mortimer her power of attorney (largely a gesture of
defiance, this) and he had attended to all details connected with her
new fortune. Between the inheritance tax, small legacies, and
depreciations, she would have a little over six thousand dollars a
year; which, however, with Mortimer's contribution, would run the old
house, and keep her wardrobe up to mark after she went out of mourning.
She knew nothing of the value of money, and was accustomed to having
little to spend and everything provided. But her mind regarding
finances was quite at rest. Even if Mortimer remained a victim of the
hard times, they would be quite comfortable.
The cares of housekeeping were very light. She discussed the daily
menus with James, but he had run Ballinger House for years, little as
Mrs. Groome had suspected it. Mortimer, shortly after his
mother-in-law's death, and while Alexina was passing a fortnight at
Rincona, had given James orders to collect all bills on the first of
every month and hand them to him, together with a statement of the
servants' wages. Mrs. Dwight was not to be bothered.
Alexina, when she returned, had made no protest. The details of
housekeeping did not appeal to her. But the arrangement left her
without occupation, and much time for thought. After a long walk
morning and afternoon she had little to do but read. She was an early
riser and her mind was active.
IV
Dwight had not the least intention of using his wife's money, for he
had perfect confidence in his change of luck, and in his ability to do
great things with his business as soon as the period of depression had
passed. But he had no faith in any woman's ability to invest and take
care of money, he had fixed ideas in regard to a man being master in
his own house, and he had asked Alexina for her power of attorney more
to flaunt her confidence in him and to annoy her damnable relatives
than because there might possibly be a moment when he should have need
of immediate resources. Like many Americans he chose to keep his wife
in ignorance of his business life, and it would have annoyed him
excessively to go to her with an explanation of temporary difficulties
and ask for a loan.
Moreover, he wished to keep Alexina young and superficial, ignorant of
money matters, indifferent to the sordid responsibilities of life. Not
only was the present Alexina no embarrassment whatever to a man full of
schemes, aside from the slow march of business, for getting rich, but
she was infinitely alluring.
He detested business women, intellectual women, women with careers;
they tipped the even balance of the man's world; moreover, they had no
accepted place in the higher social scheme. For women wage-earners he
had no antipathy and much sympathy and consideration, although he
underpaid them cheerfully when circumstances would permit. It was an
abiding canker that his sister was obliged to support herself; he was
not ashamed of it, for nursing was an honorable (and altruistic)
profession, and several young women in his new circle bad taken it up;
but he hated it as a man and a brother. As for her turning herself into
an authoress, however, he only hoped he would make his million before
she got herself talked about.
As for Alexina she was the perfect flower of a system lie worshiped and
nothing should mar or change her if his fond surveillance could prevent
it.
On the whole he was quite happy at this time, despite his passionate
desire for wealth and his natural resentment, at the attitude of the
Abbotts and their intimate circle of old friends who were so like them
that he always included them in his mind when speaking of "the family."
Although he was making barely enough to pay his sister the monthly
interest on her money, the salaries of his employees, and, until
recently, a monthly contribution to the household expenses, he had a
comfortable and delightful home with not a few of the minor luxuries,
an undisputed position in the best society, an honorable one in the
business world, and a beautiful wife. Now that the conventions forced
them to live the retired life, they could economize without attracting
attention; as he paid the bills Alexina would not know whether he still
contributed his share or not; (in time he meant to pay the whole and
give his wife, with the grand gesture, her entire income for pin money)
and, with Alexina's cordial assent, he had sold the old carriage, and
the horses, which were eating their heads off, dismissed the
coachman-gardener, and found a young Swede to take care of the garden
and outbuildings.
Later, they would have their car like other people, but there was no
need for it at present, and it was neither the time nor the occasion to
exhibit a tendency to extravagance. In the matter of "front" he knew
precisely where to leave off.
In a certain small anxious bag-of-tricks way he was clever. But not
clever enough. He knew nothing of Alexina beneath her shining surface.
If he had he would have sought to crowd her mind with the details of
the home, encouraged her to join in the frantic activities of some one
of the women's clubs he held in scorn, persuaded her to play golf daily
at the fashionable club of which they were members, even though she ran
the risk of talking, unchaperoned by himself, with other men.
He never would have left her to long hours of idleness, with only books
for companions (and Alexina cared little for novels lacking in
psychology, or in revelations of the many phases of life of which she
was personally so ignorant); and only his own companionship evening
after evening.
But he had known all the Alexina he was ever to know. Such flashing
glimpses as he was destined to have later so bewildered him that he
reacted obstinately to his original estimate of her, ... just a child
under the influence of her family or some of those friends of hers who
had always hated him ... erratic and irresponsible like all women ... a
man never could understand women because there was nothing to
understand ... merely a bundle of contradictions....
In some ways his mental equipment was an enviable one.
VI
Some of all this Alexina guessed, and although she was nettled at times
that he took no note of her maturing mind and character, she was, on
the whole, more amused.
Indulgent by nature, and somewhat indolent, she had been more than
willing that Morty should enjoy his new authority, should even delude
himself that he was footing all the bills, poor dear; and she listened
raptly to his evening visions of their future life in Burlingame,
alternated with visits to New York and England, the while she puzzled
over the intricacies of some character portrayed by a master analyst.
Sometimes he did not talk at all, utterly fagged by a strenuous day in
which he had accomplished precisely nothing. But the more transparent
and truncated and dull he grew the more spontaneous the "niceness" and
almost effusive courtesy of his wife. Insensibly she was veering to the
family attitude, but he had tagged her once for all and never saw it.
Until this moment, however, when Gathbroke had been jerked from his
deep seclusion within her ivory tower by Aileen's unwelcome news, she
had never had a moment of complete self-revelation.... She knew
instantly that she had never loved her husband: he was not her mate and
Gathbroke was. She had had three years of rippling content and light
enjoyment with Mortimer, they had never quarreled seriously, and they
had never taken their parts in one moment of real drama.
If she had married Gathbroke they would have quarreled furiously, they
would have thrown courtesy and behavior to the winds often enough,
particularly while they were young, for neither would have been in the
least apprehensive of wounding the rank-pride of the other, and such
mutual and passionate love as theirs naturally gave birth to a high
state of irritability; they would have loved and hated and made
constant discoveries about each other ... there would have been depths
never to be fully explored but always luring them on ... and the
perfect companionship ... the complete fusion....
How Alexina knew all this after less than three hours' association with
Gathbroke, let any woman answer. She was not so foolish as to imagine
herself the victim of a secret passion, or that she had ever loved the
man, or ever would. She had merely had her chance for the great
duodrama, and thrown it away for a callow dream. She had no passing
wish, even in that moment of visualizing him interlocked with her own
wraith in that sacred inner temple where even she had never intruded
before, to meet him again. She had no intention of passing any of her
abundant leisure in dreaming dreams of him and the perfect bliss. But
he had been hers ... and utterly ... he had loved her ... he had wanted
her ... he had precipitately begged her to marry him ... he had offered
her the homage of complete brutality.
Something of him would always be hers.
And even though she renounced all rights in him because she must, she
did not in the least relish that any one so close to her as Gora Dwight
should have him. She might have heard of his marriage to a girl of his
own land and class with only a passing spasm, but his continued and
possibly tender friendship with her sister-in-law shook her out of the
last of her jejunity and its illusions.... She was not exactly a dog in
the manger ... she was a maturing woman looking back with anger and
dismay not only upon the fatal mistake of her youth, but upon the
inexorable realities of her present life....
The reaction was a more intense feeling of loyalty to Mortimer than
ever. She was entirely to blame. He not only had been innocent of
conscious rivalry, even of pursuit--for she could quite easily have
discouraged him in the earlier stages of his courtship--but he was
dependent upon her in every way: for his happiness, for the secure
social position that meant so much to him, for the greater number of
his valuable connections, for even his comfort and ease of living.
Something of this had passed through her stunned mind on the morning of
her mother's death. Now it was all as sharply outlined as the etching
at which she was raptly gazing, and she vowed anew that she would never
desert him, never deny him the assistance of the true partner. She had
signed a life contract with her eyes open and she would keep it to the
letter.
Only she hoped to heaven that Gathbroke was not serious about Gora. She
wished never to be reminded of his existence again.
And, as Aileen talked of Santa Barbara, she wondered vaguely why there
was not a law forbidding girls to marry until they were well into their
twenties.... until they had had a certain amount of experience.... knew
their own minds.... Maria had been right....
CHAPTER VI
I
The darkness had come early with the high rolling fog that shut out the
stars. The fog horn and the bells were silent but the wind had a thin
anxious note as if lost, and the long creaking eucalyptus trees angrily
repelled it as if irritated beyond endurance by its eternal visitations.
Alexina, who had been reading in her bedroom, realized that it must be
quite half an hour since she had turned a page. She lifted her
shoulders impatiently. She was in no humor for reading.
It was only eight o'clock. Far too early for bed. Mortimer had gone to
Los Angeles on business. He had been gone a week, and she admitted to
herself with the new frankness she had determined to cultivate--that
she might meet, with the clearest possible vision, whatever
three-cornered deals Life might have in store for her--that she had not
missed him at all. His absence had been a heavenly interlude. She and
Aileen had gone to the moving pictures unescorted every night (a
performance of which he would have disapproved profoundly), and they
had lunched downtown every day until Alexina had suddenly discovered
that she had no more money in her purse; and, knowing nothing whatever
even of minor finance, was under the impression that having given
Mortimer her power of attorney she would not be able to draw from the
bank.
Aileen had gone down to Burlingame to visit Sibyl Bascom for a few
days. Alexina had declined to go, although it was a quiet party; it
would be embarrassing not to tip the servants.
The wind gave a long angry shriek as it flew round the corner of the
house and fastened its teeth in its enemies, the eucalyptus trees; who
shook it off with a loud furious rattle of their leaves and slapped the
window severely for good measure.
Alexina was used to San Francisco in all her many moods, but to-night,
the wind and the high gray fog shutting out the stars, the silent
house--silent that is but for the mice playing innocently between the
walls--her complete solitude, made her restless and a little nervous.
What could she do?
She knew quite well that she had wanted to go to see Gora for a week.
She had not indulged in any silly dreams about Gathbroke but she was
curious to see his photograph. She remembered that it had crossed her
mind that April day under the oak tree that if he had been older, if he
had outgrown his hopelessly youthful curve of cheek, his fresh color,
and the inability to conceal the asinine condition to which she had
immediately reduced him, she might have given him an equal chance with
Morty.
Aileen had said that he looked older. She had a quite natural curiosity
to decide for herself if, had he been born several years earlier, he
would have proved the successful rival in that foundational period of
their youth.... Or perhaps she was the reason of his rather sudden
maturity. After all there was no great chasm between twenty-three and
twenty-six and three-quarters. She looked little if any older. Neither
did Morty, nor any one she knew.
This idea thrilled her, and, grimly determined upon no compromise or
evasion, she admitted it.
Moreover, she wanted to sound out Gora.
Somehow she had no real belief that he had transferred his affections
to her dissimilar sister-in-law, but her interest in Gora was growing.
She wanted to know her better.
Besides, although she had often invited her to tea on her free
afternoons, and to dinner whenever possible, and had occasionally
dropped in to see her while she was still in the hospital, she had
never called on her in her home. As Gora only slept there after a
killing day's or night's work, visitors were anything but welcome;
nevertheless she felt that she had been negligent, rude--three
years!--and as Gora was not on a case for a day or two, now was the
time to atone.
Moreover, she had never been out quite alone at night, except to run
down the avenue and across the street to Aileen's. It was a long way
down to Geary Street, and Fillmore Street at night was "tough."
Mortimer would be furious.
She hastily changed her dinner gown to a plain walking suit of black
tweed and pinned on a close hat firmly, prepared to defy the wind and
thoroughly to enjoy her little adventure. Not since she had stolen out
to go to forbidden parties with Aileen had she felt such a sense of
altogether reprehensible elation.
CHAPTER VI
I
Fillmore Street, its low-browed shops dark, but with great arcs of
white lights spanning the streets that ran east and west, long shafts
of yellow light shining across the sidewalk from the restaurants, the
candy stores and the nicolodeons--where the pianola tinkled
plaintively--was thronged with saunterers. Alexina darted quick curious
glances at them as she walked rapidly along. In front of every saloon
was a group of young men almost fascinatingly common to Alexina's
cloistered eyes, their hats tilted over their foreheads at an
indescribable angle, rank black cigars in the corners of their mouths,
or cigarettes hanging from their loose lips, leering at "bunches" of
girls that passed unattended, appraising them cynically, making
strident or stage-whispered comments.
A great many girls had cavaliers, and these walked with their heads
tossed, unless drooping toward a padded, shoulder; and they wore
perhaps a coat or two less of make-up than their still neglected
sisters. These were vividly earmined, although most of them were young
enough to have relied on cold water and a rough towel; their hair was
arranged in enormous pompadours and topped with "lingerie" or
beflowered hats. Their blouses were "peek-a-boo" and cut low, their
skirts high; slender or plump, they wore exaggerated straight front
corsets, high heels and ventilated stockings. They practiced the
debutante slouch and their jaws worked automatically.
Not all of them were "bad" by any means. Fillmore Street was a
promenade at night for girls who were confined by day: waitresses, shop
girls of the humbler sort, servants, clerks, or younger daughters of
poor parents, who would see nothing of life at all if they sat
virtuously in the kitchen every night.
The best of them were not averse to being picked up and treated to
ice-cream-soda or the more delectable sundae. A few there were, and
they were not always to be distinguished by the kohl round their eyes,
the dead white of their cheeks, the magenta of their lips, who,
ignoring the "bums" and "cadets" lounging at the corners or before the
saloons, directed intent long glances at every passing man who looked
as if he had the "roll" to treat them handsomely in the back parlor of
a saloon, or possibly stake them at a gaming table. The town, still in
its brief period of insufferable virtue, was "closed," but the lid was
not on as irremovably as the police led the good mayor to believe; and
these girls, who traveled not in "bunches" but in pairs, if they had
not already begun a career of profitable vice, were anxious to start
but did not exactly know how. Fillmore Street was not the hunting
ground of rich men; but men with a night's money came there, and many
"boobs" from the country.
Alexina had heard of Fillmore Street from Aileen, who investigated
everything, escorted by her uxorious parent, and had been informed that
many of these girls were "decent enough"; "much more decent than I
would be in the circumstances: work all day, coarse underclothes, no
place to see a beau but the street. I'd go straight to the devil and
play the only game I had for all it was worth."
But to Alexina they all looked appalling, abandoned, the last cry in
"badness." She was not afraid. The street was too brilliant and the
great juggernauts of trolley cars lumbered by every few moments.
Moreover, she could make herself look as cold and remote as the stars
above the fog, and she had drawn herself up to her full five feet
seven, thrown her shoulders back, lifted her chin and lowered her
eyelids the merest trifle. She fancied that the patrician-beauty type
would have little or no attraction for the men who frequented Fillmore
Street. Certainly the bluntest of these males could see that she was
not painted, blackened, dyed, nor chewing gum.
Moreover she was in mourning.
But she had reckoned without her youth.
II
"Say, kid, what you doin' all alone?"
A hand passed familiarly through her arm.
Her brain turned somersaults, raced. Should she burst into tears? Turn
upon him with a frozen stare? Appeal for help?
Then she discovered that although astonished she was not at all
terrified; nor very much insulted. Why should she be? A casual remark
of the sophisticated Aileen flashed through her rallying mind: "When a
man is even half way drunk he doesn't know a lady from a trollop, and
ten to one the lady's a trollop anyhow."
She heartily wished that Aileen were in her predicament at the present
moment. What on earth was she to do with the creature?
She had accelerated her steps without speaking or making any foolish
attempts to shake him off; but she knew that her face was crimson, and
one girl tittered as they passed, while another, appreciating the
situation, laughed aloud and cried after her: "Don't be frightened,
kid. He's not a slaver."
Irrepressible curiosity made her send him a swift glance from the
corner of her eye. He was a young man, thick set, with an aggressive
nose set in a round hard face. His small, hard, black eyes were steady,
and so were his feet. He did not look in the least drunk.
"I think you have made a mistake," she said quietly, and with no
pretense at immense dignity (she could hear Aileen say: "Cut it out.
Nothing doing in that line here"). "I, also, have made a mistake--in
walking at night on this street. Would you mind letting go my arm? I
think I'll take a car."
"No, I think you'll stay just where you are," he said insolently. "You
don't belong here all right, but you've come and you can stand the
consequences. You're just the sort that needs a jolt and I like the
idea of handing it."
Alexina gave him a coldly speculative glance. "I wonder why?"
"You would? Well, I'll tell you. Never been out alone at night before,
I'll bet, like these other girls, that ain't got no place on earth to
have any fun but the streets. Never even rubbed against the common
herd? Generally go about in a machine, don't you?"
"It is quite true that I have never been out alone at night before. I
certainly shall not go again."
"No, you don't have to! That's the point, all right. And if you weren't
such a beauty, damn you! I'd hate you this minute as I hate your whole
parasite class."
"Oh, you are a socialist!" Alexina looked at him with frank curiosity.
"I never saw one before."
He was obviously disconcerted. Then his face flushed with anger. "Yes,
I'm a socialist all right, and you'll see more of us before you're many
years older."
"You might tell me about it if you _will_ walk with me. I am a long way
from my destination, and that would be far more interesting than
personalities."
"I've got more personalities where those came from. It makes me sick to
see the difference between you and these poor kids--ready to sell their
souls for pretty clothes and a little fun. There's nothing that has
done so much to inflame class hatred as the pampered delicate
satin-skinned women of your class, who have expensive clothes and
'grooming' to take the place of slathers of paint and cheap perfume.
Raised in a hot house for the use of the man on top. It's the crowning
offense of capitalism, and when the system goes, they'll all be like
you, or you'll be more like them. You'll come down about a thousand
pegs, and the ones down below will be shoved up to meet you."
Alexina stood still and faced him.
"Are you poor?" she asked.
"What a hell of a question. Have I been talkin' like a plutocrat?"
"Oh, there are, still, different grades. I was wondering if you would
be so inconsistent as to earn a little money from me and two friends of
mine. We have read socialism a bit, but, we don't understand it very
well. I am in mourning and it would interest me immensely."
He had dropped her arm and was staring at her.
"You are not afraid of me, then?" His voice was sulky but his eyes were
less hostile.
"Oh, not in the least. I fully appreciate that you merely wished to
humiliate me, not to be insulting, as some of these other men might
have been. My name is Mrs. Mortimer Dwight. I live on Ballinger
Hill--do you know it? That old house in the eucalyptus grove?"
"I know it, all right."
"Then you probably know, also, that I am not rich and never have been.
My husband is a struggling young business man."
"That cuts no ice. You train with that class, don't you? You're class
yourself, reek with it. You had rich ancestors or you wouldn't be what
you are now."
"Well, we can discuss that point another time. One of my friends is a
daughter of Judge Lawton--"
"Hand in glove with every rich grafter in 'Frisco."
Alexina shuddered. "Please say San Francisco. I am positive you never
heard a word against Judge Lawton's probity, nor that he ever rendered
an unjust decision."
"He's a wise old guy, all right. But it would be wastin' time tryin' to
make you understand why I have no use for him."
"Of course you would have no use for the husband of my other friend,
Mrs. Frank Bascom."
She fully expected that the young millionaire's name would be the final
red rag and that her escort would roar his opinion of him for the
benefit of all Fillmore Street. But he surprised her by saying
reluctantly:
"He's dead straight, all right. He's not a grafter. I've nothing
against him personally, but he's part of a damnable system and I'd
clean him out with the rest."
"Well, there you have three of us to your hand. Who knows but that you
might convert us? Why not give us the chance? If you will give me your
address I will write to you as soon as my friends come back to town."
"I don't know whether I want to do it or not. You may be makin' game of
me for all I know."
"I am quite sincere. You interest me immensely. And we might teach you
something too--what it means to have a sense of humor. I know enough of
socialism to know that no socialist can have it. May I ask what your
occupation is?"
"I'm just a plain working-man--housebuilding line."
"Then you could only come in the evening?"
"Not at all; I get off at five. You don't have your dinner until eight
in your set, I believe," This with a sneer that curled his upper lip
almost to the septum of his nose.
"Seven. My husband works until nearly six. He rarely has time for lunch
and comes home very hungry."
Once more he looked puzzled and disconcerted, but his small steady eyes
did not waver.
"My name's James Kirkpatrick." He found the stub of a pencil in his
pocket and wrote an address on the flap of an envelope. "I'll think it
over. Maybe I'll do it. I dunno, though."
"I do hope you will. I'm sure we can learn a good deal from each other.
Now, would you mind putting me on the next car? Or don't the socialist
tenets admit of gallantry to my sex?"
"Socialism admits the equality of the sexes, which is a long sight
better, but I guess there's nothing to prevent me seeing you onto your
car."
He even lifted his hat as she turned to him from the high platform, and
as he smiled a little she inferred that he was congratulating himself
on having had the last word.
CHAPTER VII
I
Gora, to whom she had telephoned before leaving home, was standing on
the steps of her house, looking anxiously up the street, as her young
sister-in-law left the car at the corner.
Gora walked up to meet her guest. "Where on earth have you, been?" she
demanded. "I supposed of course that you'd take a taxi. You should not
go out alone at night. Mortimer would be wild. He has the strictest
ideas; and you--"
"Haven't. Not, any more. I'm tired of being kept in a glass case--being
a parasite." She laughed gayly at Gora's look of amazement. "I've had
an adventure. Almost the first I ever had."
She related it as they walked slowly down the street and up the steps
and stairs to the attic.
Gora looked very thoughtful as she listened. "Shall you tell Mortimer?"
"Oh, I don't know. Possibly not. Why agitate him? The thing is done."
"But if you study with this man?"
"There is no necessity to explain where I met him. I look upon myself
as Morty's partner, not as his subject. We have never disputed over
anything yet, but of course as time goes on I shall wish to do many
things whether he happens to like it or not. Possibly without
consulting him."
"You've had time to think these past three months for the first time in
your life," said Gora shrewdly. "Here we are. I hope you don't hate
stairs. I do when I come home dog-tired, but somehow I can't give up
the old place.... And I've lit the candles in your honor."
II
"Oh, but it is pretty! Charming!"
Thought Gora: "I do hope she's not going to be gracious. I've never
liked her so well before."
But Alexina was too excited to have a firm grip on the Ballinger-Groome
tradition. She had had an adventure, an uncommon one, in a far from
respectable night district; she had done something that would cause the
impeccable Mortimer the acutest anguish if he knew of it; and she had
caught sight immediately of Gathbroke's picture framed and enthroned on
the mantelpiece.
She walked about the room admiring the hangings and prints, the old
Chinese lanterns that held the candles.
"I am going to refurnish our lower rooms," she said. "If you have time
do help me. Heavens! I wish I could work off some of that old furniture
on you. I like the Italian pieces well enough, but there are too many
of them. That rather low Florentine cabinet in the back parlor would
just fit in this corner...."
She gave a little girlish exclamation and ran forward.
"Isn't that young Gathbroke, who was out here at the time of the
earthquake and fire ... or an older brother, perhaps?"
She had taken the photograph from the mantel and was examining it under
one of the lanterns. Her alert ear detected the deeper and less steady
note in Gora's always hoarse voice.
"It is the same. Did you meet him? ... Oh, I remember he told me he met
you at the Hofer ball. He rather raved over you, in fact."
"Did he? How sweet of him. I met him again, I remember. Mr. Gwynne
brought him down to Rincona one day."
"Oh?"
And Alexina, knew that he had never mentioned that visit.
"But he looks much much older."
"He did before he left. That horrible experience of his seemed to prey
on him more and more.
"Oh."
He had not looked a day over twenty-three on that afternoon at Eincona,
two weeks after the fire.
Alexina replaced the picture, then turned to her sister-in-law with a
coaxing smile. "Are you engaged? It would be too romantic. Do tell me."
"No," said Gora, shortly. "We are not engaged. Good friends, that is
all, and write occasionally."
"Well, he must be very much interested--and you must be a very
interesting correspondent, Gora dear! Is he? Interesting, I mean. What
does he do, anyhow? I have a vague remembrance that he said something
about the army."
"He was in the army, the Grenadier Guards. But he has resigned and gone
into business with a cousin of his in Lancashire. He wrote me--oh, it
must be nearly two years ago--that if there should be a war he would
enlist as a matter of course, but as there was no prospect of any, and
he was sick of idleness--his good middle-class energetic blood
asserting itself, he said,--he was going to amuse himself with work,
incidentally try to make a fortune. His mother left a good deal of
money, but there are several children and I guess the present earl
needs most of it to keep up his estates, to say nothing of his
position. Fotten law, that--entail, I mean."
Alexina came and sat down on the divan beside Gora, piling the cushions
behind her. "Are you a socialist?"
"I am not. I believe in sticking to your own class, whether you have a
grudge against it or not, or even if you think it far from perfection."
She shot a quick challenging glance at her admittedly aristocratic
sister-in-law, but Alexina had lifted the lower white of her eyes just
above their soft black fringe and looked more innocent than any new
born lamb. As she did not answer Gora continued:
"I remember that night I sat out with Gathbroke on Calvary he said
something about socialism ... that it was a confession of failure. I
may feel so furious with destiny sometimes that I could go out and wave
a red flag, or even the darker red of anarchy, but what always sobers
me is the thought that if I had the good luck to inherit or make even a
reasonable fortune I'd have no more use for socialism than for a
rattlesnake in my bed. Why are you interested?"
"Only as in any subject that interests a few million people. I haven't
the least intention of being converted, but I don't want to be an
ignoramus. Aileen and Sibyl and I did start Marx's _Das Kapital_--in
German! We nearly died of it. But I felt sure that this man,
Kirkpatrick, had studied his subject, if only because his language
changed so completely when he talked about it. It was as if he were
quoting, but intelligently. Of course the poor man had little or no
education to begin with. Somehow he struck me as a pathetic figure.
Perhaps when every one is educated--and there must be many thousands of
naturally intelligent men in the working class whose brains if trained
would be mighty useful in Washington--well, all having had equal
opportunities they would surely arrive at some way to improve
conditions without struggling for anything so hopeless as socialism. I
know enough to be sure that it is hopeless, because it antagonizes
human nature."
"Rather. The trend under all the talk is more and more toward
individualism, not self-effacing communism. As for myself I like the
idea of the fight--for public recognition, I mean; and I don't think
I'd be happy at all if things were made too smooth for me; if, for
instance, in a socialized state it were decided that I could devote all
my time to writing, and that the state would take care of me, publish
my work, and distribute it exactly where it was sure to be appreciated.
I haven't any of the old California gambling blood in me, but I guess
the hardy ghost of those old days still dominates the atmosphere, and I
have not been one of those to escape."
"It's in mine! Not that I care for gambling, really, like Aileen and
Alice. But I've always been fascinated by the idea of taking long
chances, and I have had inklings that I'll be rather more than less
fascinated as I grow older.... When are your stories to be published? I
am simply expiring to read them."
"Are you?"
III
Alexina had thrust her slim index finger unerringly through Gora's
bristling armor and tickled her weakest spot. The fledgling author
smiled into the dazzling eyes opposite and a deep flush rose to her
high cheek bones.
"Rather!"
"Then..." Gora rose and took a magazine from the table beside her bed.
She spread it open on her lap, when she had resumed her seat, and
handled it as Alexina had seen young mothers fondle their first-born.
"It's here. Just out."
"Oh!" Alexina gave a little shriek of genuine anticipation. "Read it to
me. Quick. I can't wait."
Gora led a lonely life outside of her work, a lonely inner life always.
She had never had an intimate friend, and she suddenly reflected that
there had been a certain measure of sadness in her joy both when her
manuscripts were accepted and to-day when for the first time she had
gazed at herself in print.... She had had no one to rejoice with
her.... She felt an overwhelming sense of gratitude to Alexina.
But she gave this young wife of her brother whom she knew as little as
Alexina knew her, another swift suspicious glance.... No, there was
nothing of Alexina's usual high and careless courtesy in that eager
almost excited face.
"I'd love to have your opinion.... I read very badly.... Make
allowances...."
"Oh, fire away. If I'd written a story and had it accepted by that
magazine I'd read it from the housetops."
Gora read the story well enough, and Alexina's mind did not wander even
to Gathbroke. It was written in a pure direct vigorous English. A
little less self-consciousness and it would have been distinguished.
The story itself was built craftily; she had been coached by a clever
instructor who was a successful writer of short stories himself; and it
worked up to a climax of genuine drama. But this was merely the
framework, the flexible technique for the real Gora. The story had not
only an original point of view but it pulsed with the insurgent
resentful passionate spirit of the writer.
Alexina gave a little gasp as Gora finished.
"Many people won't like that story," she said. "It shocks and jars and
gives one's smugness a pain in the middle. But those that do like it
will give you a great reputation, and after all there are a few
thousand intelligent readers in the United States. How on earth did
that magazine come to accept it?"
Gora was staring at Alexina with an uncommonly soft expression in her
opaque light eyes. She felt, indeed, as if her ego would leap through
them and make a fool of her.
"The editor wrote me something of what you have just said. He wanted
something new--to give his conservative old subscribers a shock.
Thought it would be good for them and for the magazine. You--you--have
said what I should have wanted you to say if I could have thought it
out.... I think I should have hated you if you had said, 'How
charming!' or 'How frantically interesting!'"
"Well, it's the last if not the first. Aileen will say that and mean
it. I'll telephone to the bookstore the first thing Monday morning and
get a copy. Now I must go. It's late."
IV
"Let me telephone for a taxi."
Alexina laughed merrily. "You'll never believe it, but I've just thirty
cents in my purse. I forgot to ask Morty for something before he
left.... You see, I happened to find quite a bit in mother's desk and
so I've never thought to ask him for an allowance. But I shall at once."
"An allowance? But you have your own money? Or is it because the estate
isn't settled? What has Morty to do with that?"
"I believe we get the income from the estate until it is settled. But I
gave my power of attorney to Morty."
"Oh! But if there is money on deposit in the bank you can draw on it."
"Could I? Well! I'll just draw a round hundred on Monday at ten A.M."
"Why did you give your power of attorney to Morty?"
"Oh ... why ... he asked me to ... I know nothing about business, and
he naturally would attend to my affairs."
"But you are not going away. No one needs your power of attorney. And
the executors are Judge Lawton and Mr. Abbott. You are here to sign
such papers as they advise.... Don't be angry, please. I am not
insinuating anything against Morty. He's never bad a dishonest thought
in his life ... has always been, the squarest ... but..."
"Well?"
Alexina's head was very high. It was quite bad enough for Tom Abbott
and Judge Lawton ... but for his sister ...
"It's this way, Alexina. People in this world, more particularly men,
are just about as honest as circumstances will permit them to be. Some
are stronger than Life in one way or another, no doubt of it; but they
make up for it by being weaker in others.... I am talking particularly
of the money question, the struggle for existence, which the vast
majority of men are forced to make....
"Men fight Life from the hour they leave their homes, when they have
any, to force success--in one way or another--out of her until the hour
they are able to lay down the burden.... Some are too strong and too
firm in their ideals ever to do wrong; they would prefer failure, and
generally they are strong enough to avoid it, even to succeed in their
way against the most overwhelming odds.... Many are too clever not to
find some way of compromising and circumventing.... Others just peg
along and barely make both ends meet.... Others go under and down and
out.
"Morty, like millions of other young Americans, had good principles and
high ideals inculcated from his earliest boyhood and took to them as a
duck takes to water. Nor is he weak. But although he is a hard and
steady worker he is also visionary. He speculated on the stock market
before he was married. Probably not now as the market is moribund. He
is frantic to get rich ... for more reasons than one."
"But he never would do anything dishonorable."
"No. Nothing he couldn't square with his conscience if it turned out
all right. But the most honest man, when in a hole, finds little
difficulty in arriving at the conclusion that what is, illogically, the
possession of the women of his family, is his if he needs it.
"Moreover, no doubt you have discovered that Morty is the sort of man
who looks upon women as man's natural inferiors, that if there is any
question of sacrifice the woman is not to be considered for a moment
... especially where no public risk is involved. That sort of man only
thinks he is too honest to refrain from taking some unrelated woman's
money, but as a matter of fact it is because she would send him to
State's Prison as readily as a man would. One's own women are safe.
"I lent Morty my small inheritance with my eyes open. But he knows a
good deal of that particular business, and I did not dream the times
were going to be so bad.... I doubt if I ever see it again.... But you
must not run the risk of losing yours. I want you to promise me that on
Monday morning you will go down to the City Hall and revoke your power
of attorney. And as much for Morty's sake as for your own. He will lose
your money if he keeps it in his hands, and then he will suffer agonies
of remorse. He will be infinitely more miserable than if he merely
failed in business. That is honorable. It would only hurt his pride.
Then he could get a position again, and you would have your own income."
"But do you mean to say that if I did revoke my power of attorney and
he asked me later for money to save his business that I should not give
it to him?"
"Yes, I mean just that. Morty will never take any of the prizes in the
business world. He may hold on and make a living, that is all. He has
plenty to start with, and tells me he is doing fairly well, in spite of
the times. But he would do better in the long run as a clerk. In time
he might get a large salary as a sort of general director of all the
routine business of some large house--"
Alexina curled her lip. "I do not want him to be a clerk."
"No, of course you don't! But you'd like it still less if he cleaned
you out. You--would have to sell or rent your old home and live on a
hundred and fifty dollars a month in a flat in some out-of-the-way
quarter. You might have to go to work yourself."
"I shouldn't mind that so much, except that I'm afraid I'd not be good
for much. Perhaps it was snobbish of me to object lo Morty's being a
clerk. But ... well, I'm not so sure that it is snobbish to prefer what
you have always been accustomed to--I mean if it is a higher standard.
And after all I married him when he was only a clerk."
"You are surprisingly little of a snob, all things considered; but you
are a hopeless aristocrat."
"What do you mean by that?"
"I think the line between the aristocratic and the snobbish attitude of
mind is almost too fine to be put into words. But they are often
confused by the undiscriminating. Will you revoke that power of
attorney on Monday?"
"Shouldn't I wait until Morty is home? ... tell him first? It seems
rather taking an advantage ... and he will be very angry."
"That doesn't matter."
"What excuse shall I give him?"
"Any one of a dozen. You are bored and want to take care of your money
... intend to learn something of business, as all women should, and
will in time.... Ring in the feminist stuff ... wife's economic
independence ... woman's new position in the world.... That will make
Morty so raving angry that he will forget about the other. Will you do
it?"
"Yes, I will. I believe you are right. So were the others ... there
must be something in it."
She told Gora of the advice of Tom Abbott and Judge Lawton. Gora nodded.
"They meant more than they said. And merely because they are men of the
world, not because they like and trust Morty any the less."
Alexina did not hear her. She was staring hard at the floor.... A year
ago ... three months ago ... she couldn't have done this thing. She had
been still under the illusion that she loved her husband, that her
marriage was a complete success. She would have sacrificed her last
penny rather than hurt his feelings. Now she only cared that she didn't
care.... She had admitted to herself that she did not love her husband
but that was different from committing an overt act that proved it....
She felt something crumbling within her.... It was the last of the
fairy edifice of her romance ... of her first, her real, youth.... What
was to take its place? The future smugly secure on six thousand a year
and an inviolate social position ... a good dull husband ... not even
the prospect of travel....
V
She sprang to her feet and turned away her head.
"Why don't you come and live with us?" she asked abruptly. "Why should
you keep this on? There are so many vacant bedrooms up there. You could
have one for your study. I'd love to have you. You'd have the most
complete independence. Do."
Gora shook her head. "I've always this to fall back on."
"Fall back on?"
"Oh! I never meant to let that out. However.... Perhaps it is as
well.... Morty--you know his pride--everybody has his prime weakness
and that is his. Transpose it into snobbery if you like.... We did not
board down here. I kept a lodging house for business women. It paid
well, but Morty, when he became engaged to you, insisted that I give it
up. He was afraid you'd be outraged in your finest sensibilities! Well,
I did. One of my lodgers resigned from her job and took it over. I
entered the hospital, but kept on my room as I had to have one
somewhere. Eight months later she married, and I took it back. I found
I could run it as well as ever with the aid of a treasure of a Chinaman
she had discovered. But I never told Morty."
Alexina laughed. "Better not. But you could run it and live with us all
the same."
"No. I have too little time. I'd waste it coming back and forth, for I
must be here some time every day.... Besides..."
"Your own precious atmosphere?"
"You do understand!"
"Well, come to see me often. I shall need your advice."
"You bet. And now, I'll see you to your car; stay with you until you
are safely transferred to the Fillmore car. And don't assert your
independence in just this way again. All those loafers on Fillmore
Street are not spiteful socialists."
As Gora put on her hat at the distant mirror Alexina turned to
Gathbroke's picture with a scowl. She even clenched her hands into
fists.
"Oh ... you ... you.... Why weren't you.... Why didn't you...."
CHAPTER VIII
I
Mortimer arrived on Tuesday evening, looking immaculate in spite of his
day on the train, and with that air of beaming gallantry that he could
always summon at will, even when all was not well with him.
To-night, however, he was quite sincere. His visit to Los Angeles had
been a success; he had actually put through a deal that had translated
itself into a cheque for a thousand dollars. He had, through a mistaken
order, been overstocked with a certain commodity from the Orient that
the retail merchants of San Francisco bought very sparingly; but he had
found in Los Angeles a firm that did a large business with the swarming
Japanese population and was glad to take it over at a reasonable figure.
II
It was after dinner; his taut trim body was relaxed in evening luxury
before the wood fire of the back parlor, and he was half way through a
cigar when Alexina rose and extended one arm along the mantelpiece. She
looked like a long black poplar with her round narrow flexible figure
and her small head held with a lofty poise; as serene as a poplar in
France on a balmy day. But she quaked inside.
She glanced at her happy unsuspecting husband with an engaging smile.
"I'm afraid you will be rather cross with me," she said softly. "But I
went down to the City Hall yesterday and revoked my power of attorney
to you."
"You did what?" The slow blood rose to Dwight's hair. He mechanically
took the cigar from his mouth. It lost its flavor. He had a sensation
of falling through space ... out of somewhere....
Alexina repeated her statement.
He recovered himself. "Tom Abbott has been at you again, I suppose. Or
Judge Lawton."
"Neither. Really, Morty, you must give me credit for a mind of my own.
I did it for several reasons. Sibyl was here Sunday. She motored up
from Burlingame with Aileen on purpose to talk to me. She has induced
Mrs. Hunter and some other of the more intelligent women down
there--those that read the serious new books and go to lectures when
there are any worth while--to join a class in economics. One of the
professors at Stanford is going to teach us. Aileen has lost
frightfully at poker lately and wants a new interest; she put Sibyl up
to it--who was delighted with the suggestion as she hasn't been
intellectual for quite a while now, and really has a practical streak;
so that studying economics appealed to her.
"I jumped at the idea. It was a God-send. I have had so little to do. I
don't care for poker and one can't read all the time.... But after they
left I reflected that I should cut a rather ridiculous figure studying
economies in the abstract if I didn't have sense and 'go' enough to
manage my own affairs. Why, I was so ignorant I thought I couldn't draw
any money from the bank because I had given you my power of attorney.
Aileen has an allowance and the Judge makes her keep books. She usually
comes out about even at poker in the course of the month, and if she
doesn't she pawns something. I've been with her to pawn shops and it's
the greatest fun. I don't mind telling you, as I know you never betray
a confidence. The Judge would lock poor dear Aileen up on bread and
water.
"Sibyl manages those two great houses herself. Frank gives her some
stupendous sum a year and she is proud of the fact that she never runs
over it. You know how she entertains.
"I should never dare admit to them--or to the professor if he asked my
opinion on that sort of thing and it had to come out--that I was too
lazy and too incompetent to manage my own little fortune. So I went
down first thing Monday morning and revoked my power of attorney. I
simply couldn't wait. When the estate is settled and turned over to me
I shall attend to everything and not bother you, Morty dear."
III
Morty dear looked at her with a long hard suspicious stare. Alexina
thoughtfully turned up her eyes and changed promptly from a poplar into
a saint.
"I don't like it. I don't like it at all."
Words were never his strong point and he could find none now adequate
to express his feelings.
"I may be old-fashioned--"
"You are, Morty. That is your only fault. You belong to the old school
of American husbands--"
"There are plenty of old-fashioned people left in the world."
"So there are, poor dears. It's going to be so hard for them--"
"Are you trying to be one of those infernal new women?"
"Well, you see, I just naturally am a child of my times, in spite of my
old-fashioned family. I'd be much the same if I'd never taken any
interest in all these wonderful modern movements."
"It's those chums of yours--Aileen, Sibyl, Janet. I never did wholly
approve of them."
"Neither did mother and Maria, but it never made any difference."
"Do you mean to say that you intend to ignore me ... disobey me?"
"Oh, Morty, I never promised to obey you. You know the fun we all had
at the rehearsal. You haven't noticed, these three years, that I've had
my way, in pretty nearly everything, merely because it happened to be
your way too. We've been living in a sort of pleasure garden, just
playing about, with mother as the good old fairy. But everything has
changed. We must look out for ourselves now, and I cannot put the whole
burden on your shoulders--"
"I do not mind in the least. That is where it belongs."
Alexina shook her wise little head. "Oh, no. It isn't done any more. No
woman who has learned to think is so unjust as to throw the whole
burden of life on her husband's shoulders. You have your own daily
battle in the business world. I will do the rest."
"What damned emancipated talk."
"What a funny old-fashioned word. We don't even say advanced or new any
more."
"It's nonsense anyhow. You're nothing but a child."
"You may just bet your life I'm not a child. Nor have I awakened all of
a sudden. In one sense I have. But not in this particular branch of
modern science. I have read tons about it, and Aileen and I are always
discussing everything that interests the public; I have even read the
newspapers for two years."
"Much better you didn't. There is no reason whatever for a woman in
your position knowing anything about public affairs. It detracts from
your charm."
"Maybe, but we'll find more charm in Life as we grow older."
His memory ran back along a curved track and returned with something
that looked like a bogey.
"May I ask what your program is? Your household program? I had got
everything down to a fine point.... It seems too bad you should
bother...."
"Bother? I've been bored to death, and feeling like a silly little
good-for-nothing besides. The trouble is, it's too little bother. James
and I have had a long talk. Housekeeping will be reduced to its
elements with him, but at least I shall begin to feel really grown up
when I pore over monthly bills and 'slips' and sign cheques."
She hesitated. "You mustn't think for a minute that I want to make you
feel out of it, Morty. It. is only that I _must_. The time has come,
... Of course, you have been paying half the bills anyhow. We could
simply go on along those lines. I will tell you what it all amounts to,
shortly after the first of the month, and you'll give me half."
IV
Dwight stared at the end of his cigar. His was not an agile brain but
in that moment it had an illuminating flash. He realized that this
sheltered creature, with whom her mother had never discussed household
economics, and from whom he had purposely kept all knowledge of his
business, took for granted that he could pay his share of the monthly
expenses, merely because all the men she knew did twice as much,
however they might grumble. For the matter of that she never saw Tom
Abbott that he did not curse the ascending prices, but there was no
change whatever in his bountiful fashion of living. Alexina knew that
the times were bad and that her husband was having something of a
struggle, and, as a dutiful wife, was anxious to help him out for the
present, but it was simply beyond her powers of comprehension to grasp
the fact that he was in no position to pay half the expenses of their
small establishment.
If he told her ... tried to make her understand ... even if she did,
how would he appear in her eyes?
Of all people in the world he wanted to stand high with Alexina ... he
had never taken more pains to bluff the street when things were at
their worst than this girl who was the symbol of all he had aspired to
and precariously achieved. He had longed for riches, not because she
craved luxury and pomp, but because she would be forced to look up to
him with admiration and a lively gratitude. He had, in this spirit,
given her; in the most casual manner, handsome presents, or brilliant
little dinners at fashionable restaurants, in all of which she took a
fervent young pleasure. He had dipped into his slender capital, but of
this she had not even a suspicion ... he had made some airy remark
about celebrating a "good deal" ... no wonder ... he had her too well
bluffed.
For an instant he contemplated a plain and manly statement of fact. But
he did not have the courage. Anything rather than that she should curl
that short aristocratic upper lip of hers, stare at him with wide
astonished eyes that saw him a failure, even if a temporary one. He set
his teeth and vowed to go through with it, to make good. This thousand
would last several months, even if he made no more than his expenses
meanwhile.
He shrugged his shoulders and lit another cigar. The first had died a
lingering and malodorous death.
"Have your own way," he said coldly. "I only wished to keep you young
and carefree. If you choose to bother with bills and investments it is
your own look-out."
"Thank you, Morty dear."
She felt that it would be an act of wifely self-abnegation to defer the
announcement of her interest in socialism and Mr. Kirkpatrick. Aileen
and Sibyl had hailed her plan as even more exciting than the study of
economics with an exceedingly good-looking young professor (who had
been tutoring in Burlingame), and she had already dispatched a note to
him whom Aileen disreputably called her Fillmore Street mash.
CHAPTER IX
I
Kirkpatrick sat before a crescent composed of Mrs. Mortimer Dwight,
Mrs. Francis Leslie Bascom and Miss Aileen Livingston Lawton.
His reasons for coming to Ballinger House--which even he knew was
inaccessible to the common herd--were separate and tabulated. Alexina
had fascinated him against his best class principles; but he not only
jumped at the chance of meeting her again, he was excessively curious
to understand a woman of her class, to watch her in different moods and
situations. He was equally curious to meet other women of the same
breed; he had never brushed their skirts before, but he had often stood
and gazed at them hungrily as they passed in their limousines or
driving their smart little electric cars.
He was also curious to see several of those "interiors" he had read so
much about, and hoped his pupils would meet in turn at their different
homes. He was a sincere and honest socialist, was Mr. Kirkpatrick, and
he had a good healthy class-consciousness and class-hatred. But he also
had a large measure of intelligent curiosity. He had never expected to
have the opportunity to gratify it in respect to "bourgeois" inner
circles, and when it came he had only hesitated long enough to search
his soul and assure himself that he was in no danger of growing
compliant and soft. Moreover he might possibly make converts, and in
any case it was not a bad way, society being still what it was, of
turning an honest penny.
But in this the first lesson he was as disconcerted as a socialist
serene in his faith could be.
The three girls had curved their slender bodies forward, resting one
elbow on a knee. At the end of each of these feline arches was a pair
of fixed and glowing eyes. No doubt there were faces also, but he was
only vaguely aware of three white disks from which flowed forth lambent
streams of concentrated light. They looked like three little
sea-monsters, slim, flexible, malignant, ready to spring.
He exaggerated in his embarrassment, but he was not so very far wrong.
"The little devils!" he thought in his righteous wrath. "I'll teach
'em, all right."
As it was necessary to break the farcical silence he said in a voice
too loud for the small library. "Well, what is it about socialism that
you don't just know? Mrs. Dwight told me you had read some."
"There is one thing I want to say before we begin," said Aileen in her
high light impertinent voice, "and that is that if there is one thing
that makes us more angry than another it is to be called _bourgeois_."
"And ain't you?"
"We are not. I suppose your Marx didn't know the difference, although
he is said to have married well, but _bourgeois_ for centuries in
Europe had meant middle-class. Just that and nothing more. Marx had no
right to pervert an honest historic old word into something so
different and so obnoxious."
"To Marx all capitalists were in the same class. I suppose what you
mean is that you society folks call yourselves aristocrats, even when
you have less capital than some of them that can't get in."
"Sure thing. Take it from me."
He gazed at her astounded, and once more had recourse to his rather
heavy sarcasm.
"Even when they use slang."
"Oh, we're never afraid to--like lots of the middle-class--bourgeois.
Too sure of ourselves to care a hang what any one thinks of us."
Alexina came hastily to the rescue, for a dull glow was kindling in Mr.
Kirkpatrick's small sharp eyes. She didn't mind baiting him a little,
but as he was in a way her guest he must be protected from the
naughtiness of Aileen and the insolence of Sibyl Bascom, who had taken
a cigarette from a gold bejeweled case that dangled from her wrist and
was asking him for a light. He gave her measure for measure, for he
lifted his heavy boot and struck a match on the sole.
"You must not be too hard on us, Mr. Kirkpatrick." Alexina upreared and
leaned against the high back of her chair with a sweet and gracious
dignity, "We are really a pack of ignoramuses, full of prejudices,
which, however, we would get rid of if we knew how. We are hoping
everything from these lessons."
"Do _you_ smoke?"
"No, I don't happen to like the taste of tobacco, but I quite approve
of my friends smoking--unless they smoke their nerves out by the roots,
as Miss Lawton does. Don't give her a light. But I'm sure you smoke.
I'll get you a cigar."
She pinched Aileen, glared at Sibyl, and left the room.
II
Mortimer was smoking furiously, trying to concentrate his mind on the
evening paper.
"Give me a cigar, Morty dear."
"A cigar? What for?"
"It would be too mean of those girls to smoke unless Mr. Kirkpatrick
did too, and I am sure we couldn't stand his tobacco. Even a whiff of
bad tobacco makes me feel quite ill."
"I'll be hanged if I give my cigars to that bounder. The kitchen is the
place for him."
"But not for us. And our minds are quite made up, you know. We are
going to study with him just to find out what these strange animals
called socialists are like. He is queer enough, to begin, with. And the
knowledge may prove useful one of these days.... If you won't give me
one I'll send James out--"
Mortimer handed over one of his choice cigars with ill grace, and
Alexina returned to the library. Aileen was informing Mr. Kirkpatrick
how intensely she disliked Marx's beard, not only as she had seen it in
a photograph, but as she had smelt it in Spargo's too vivid description.
He rose awkwardly as she entered, but he rose. She handed him the cigar
and struck a match and held it to one end while he drew at the other.
Their faces were close and she gave him a smile of warm and spontaneous
friendliness.
Thought Mr. Kirkpatrick: "Oh, Lord, she's got me. I'd better make
tracks out of here. If she was a vamp like that Bascom woman she
wouldn't get me one little bit. Plenty of them where I come from. But
she's plain goddess with eyes like headlights on an engine."
Perturbed as he was, however, he resumed his seat and drew
appreciatively at the finest cigar that had ever come his way. It had
the opportune effect of causing his class-hatred to flame afresh. No
fear that he would be made soft by teaching in the homes of these
pampered cats. For the moment he hated Alexina, seated in a carved
high-back Italian chair like a young queen on a throne.
"Well," he growled. "Let's get to business. I've brought Spargo. Marx
is too much for me. He's terrible dull and involved. He was so taken up
with his subject, I guess, that he forgot to learn how to write about
it so's people without much time and education could understand without
getting a pain in their beans. Of course I've heard him expounded many
times from the platform, but there must have been about fifty Marxes,
for I've heard--or read--just about that many expounders of him and no
two agree so's you'd notice it. That, to my mind, is the only stumbling
block for socialism--that we have a prophet who's so hard to understand.
"So, I've settled on Spargo. He has the name of being about the best
student of Marx and of socialism generally--it's split up quite a
bit--and he's easy reading. I fetched him along."
He produced "Socialism" from his hat and hesitated. "I don't know
noth--a thing about teaching."
"Oh, don't let that worry you," drawled Sibyl Bascom in her low
voluptuous voice and transfixing him with narrow swimming eyes; then as
he refused to be overcome, she continued more humanly: "We've been to
lots of classes, you know. There are all sorts of methods. Suppose one
of us reads the first chapter aloud and then you expound. That is,
we'll ask you questions."
"That's fine," said Mr. Kirkpatrick with immense relief. "Fire away."
And Alexina, who always read prefaces and introductions last, began
with "Robert Owen and the Utopian Spirit."
BOOK III
CHAPTER I
I
Mr. Kirkpatrick realized his ambition to see with his own sharp
puncturing little eyes (Aileen said they reminded her of a
sewing-machine needle playing staccato) several of the most flagrant
examples of capitalistic extravagance where parasitic femalehood idled
away their useless lives and servitors battened. In other words the
extremely comfortable or the shamelessly luxurious homes built for the
most part by still active business men whose first real period of rest
would be in a small stone residence in a certain silent city Down the
Peninsula.
Several were already occupied by their widows. In a climate where a man
can work three hundred and sixty-five days of the year the temptation
to do so is strong, and not conducive to longevity.
The Ferdinand Thorntons, Trennahans, Hofers and others who had lost
their city homes on Nob Hill had not rebuilt, but lived the year round
in their country houses at Burlingame, San Mateo, Alta, Menlo Park,
Atherton, or "across the Bay," using the hotels when they came to town
for dances, but motoring home after the theater.
Fortunately the finest and all of the newest mansions had been built in
the Western Addition and escaped the fire. Sibyl Bascom's father-in-law
had erected, shortly before his death, a large square granite palace
more or less in the Italian style, and as his widow preferred to live
in Santa Barbara, Frank Bascom had taken it over for himself and his
bride.
Olive had carried her millions to France and found her marquis. (As he
was wealthy himself they contributed little to the current gossip of
San Francisco.)
Janet Maynard lived with her mother, another widow of unrestricted
means, in a large low Spanish house with a patio, built by a famous
local architect with such success that Rex Roberts when he married
Polly Luning, had bought the nearest vacant lot and ordered a romantic
mansion as nearly like that of his wife's intimate friend as possible.
He would live in it as soon as the idiosyncrasies of The Architect and
Labor would permit.
Mrs. Clement Hunter had another pale gray stone palace, supported in
front by noble pillars and commanding a superb view of the Bay, the
Golden Gate, and Mount Tamalpais.
Aileen and her father lived in an old wooden house with a modern facade
of stucco, and surrounded by a garden filled with somewhat blighted
geraniums, fuchsias, sweet alicias, heliotrope, mignonette, and other
nineteenth-century posies beloved of Mrs. Lawton in her romantic and
innocent youth.
Sibyl and Alice Thorndyke's father had left his girls a square
bow-windowed mansard-roofed double house, built in
eighteen-seventy-eight, and unreclaimed. With it went a moderate
income, and Alice lived on under the ugly old roof chaperoned by an
aunt, who had been chosen from a liberal assortment of relatives
because she was almost deaf, quite myopic, and so terrified of draughts
that her absence when convenient could always be counted on.
II
All of these young women belonged to Alexina's personal set, and joined
the class in socialism, as they joined anything the stronger spirits
among them suggested; and they attended as regularly as could be
expected of "parasites" who were mainly interested in society, dress,
poker, and some absorbing creature of the other sex.
Mr. Kirkpatrick hated them all with the exception of Alexina, Aileen,
Mrs. Price Ruyler, the half-French wife of a New Yorker, recently
adopted by California, and Mrs. Hunter, who had joined out of
curiosity, having read a certain amount of socialism, but never met a
socialist.
She confided to Mrs. Thornton that she was not acutely anxious to meet
another, and Mrs. Thornton replied tartly:
"What do you want to belong to such a class for? It's rank hyprocrisy
to pretend interest in a question we all hate the very name of, and to
give the creature money that he no doubt turns over to the 'cause' with
his tongue in his cheek. I'd never give one of them the satisfaction of
knowing that I recognized his existence."
Said Maria Abbott firmly: "Exactly. We should ignore them, just as we
ignore envious and spiteful and ill-bred outsiders of any sort."
"But we may not be able to ignore them," said Mrs. Hunter. "Their
organization is the best of any party even if their numbers are not
overwhelming. If they are content to advance slowly and by purely
political methods there is no knowing who will own this or any
government fifty years hence. For my part I'd rather they all turn
raging anarchists; then we could turn machine guns on them and clean
'em out. I hate them, for I was too long getting where I am now, and I
want to stay. But I don't make the mistake of ignoring them, and I
rather like having a squint at them at close quarters. Kirkpatrick has
taken us to several socialist meetings ... we borrow the servants'
coats and mutilate our oldest hats.... Socialism seems to me rather
more endurable than the socialists, and of these Kirkpatrick is about
the sanest I have heard. They rant and froth, contradict themselves and
one another, wander from the point and never get anywhere.... That
would give me hope if it were not for the fact that poor California is
a magnet for the cranks of every fad as well as for the riff-raff and
derelicts.... My other hope is that even they--that is to say the least
unbalanced of them--will come in time to realize that socialism is
economically unsound--"
"Do you mean to say," cried Mrs. Abbott, "that Alexina has gone to
socialist meetings?"
"Rather. She's very keen--"
"Believes in it?"
"Rather not. But she is naturally thorough--has a really extraordinary
tendency, for a San Franciscan of her sex and status, to finish
anything she has begun. Sometimes when she is arguing with Kirkpatrick
she sticks out that chin of hers so far that you notice how square it
is. She has him pretty well tamed though. When he is ready to eat the
rest of us alive she can smooth him down like a regular lion tamer."
"Well, you're nothing but a lot of parlor socialists," said Mrs.
Thornton disgustedly. "And just as ridiculous as any other hybrids. But
I'm relieved that it hasn't spoiled your taste for the simpler
pleasures of life. Maria, as you don't play poker we'll have a game of
bridge, Ladie, ring for cocktails, will you--or would you rather have a
gin fizz? Don't look so horrified, Maria. We're better than socialists,
anyhow; if they did win out you'd have farther to fall than we, for
you're a moss-backed old conservative who hates change of any sort,
while we not only love change of all sorts but are regular anarchists:
do as we please and snap our fingers at the world. Here we are."
The three were in Mrs. Thornton's Moorish palace half way between San
Mateo and Burlingame, a situation that symbolized the connecting bridge
between the old and new order for Mrs. Abbott. Mrs. Thornton was a
lineal descendant of the Rincon Hill of the sixties and had made her
debut with Maria Groome in the eighties. But she had married an
immoderately rich man and had a barbaric taste for splendor that formed
the proper setting for her own somewhat barbaric beauty, and imperious
temper. Her dark and splendid beauty was waning, for in the matter of
giving aid to nature with secrecy or with art she was faithful to the
old tradition. But she was always an imposing figure and as close to
being the first power in San Francisco society as that happy-go-lucky
independent class would ever tolerate.
III
Kirkpatrick liked Mrs. Hunter, regarding her as "an honest plain-spoken
dame without any frills." This estimate applied not only to her
temperament but to her costumes. He admired her severe tailored suits
(although he sensed their cost) and her smart, plain, hard, little hats.
The "frills and furbelows" of the younger "spenders" irritated the
group of nerves appropriated by his class-consciousness almost beyond
endurance; but he managed to stand it by reminding himself that
irritation of all such was a healthy sign and vastly preferable to
insidious tolerance.
Mrs. Hunter was also as regular in her attendance as Mrs. Dwight, Miss
Lawton and Mrs. Price Ruyler, and asked fairly intelligent questions.
The others floated in and out, and one by one dropped from the class,
until toward the middle of the second winter none remained but Alexina,
Aileen, Mrs. Hunter and Helene Ruyler, who, like Aileen, found in the
"frantic interest" of the materialistic creed which antagonized every
instinct in them, a distraction from the excessive gambling which had
threatened to wreck their nerves, purses, and peace of mind. They
confided this artlessly to Mr. Kirkpatrick, who replied dryly that they
were the best argument he had in stock.
But if the major part of his fashionable class deserted him in due
course he had meanwhile seen the inside of their homes; and in each
case, Alexina, who divined his interest, arranged to have him shown
over the house from the kitchens and pantries straight up to the
servants' quarters.
These he found unexpectedly comfortable and complete. In fact, they
were so much more modern and adorned than the little cottage in the
Mission where he lived with his mother that he longed for the immediate
installation of a system that would teach these workers what real work
was. What enraged him further was their "airs." They too obviously
looked upon him as an alien intruder, whereas their mistresses, until
socialism bored them, were, for the most part, as charmingly courteous
as his one reliable friend, Mrs. Mortimer Dwight.
IV
During the first winter and spring while his pupils were still fairly
regular in their attendance, he was both incensed and grimly amused by
their various idiosyncrasies. He soon became accustomed to their vanity
boxes and their public application of powder and lip stick, the frank
crossing of their knees that exhibited more diaphanous silk than he had
ever seen in his life before, the polite excitement that any new
article of attire worn by one seemed to induce in all, the wicked but
on the whole good-natured baiting of Aileen Lawton and Polly Roberts,
the alternate insolence and Circean glances of Mrs. Bascom, who amused
herself "practicing on him," and the constant smoking of most of them.
But what he could neither understand nor accept was their attitude
toward one another. They would all rush at the hostess of the day as
they entered, or at late comers, with the excited enthusiasm of loved
and loving intimates who had not met for months; and Kirkpatrick, who
missed nothing, knew that they met once a day if not oftener.
In spite of their intimacy their warm enraptured greetings carried a
patent measure of admiration and even respect. It was always at least
fifteen minutes before they would settle down for "work" and meanwhile
they chattered about their common interests, but always with the air of
relating long-delayed information and a frank desire to give of their
best. He could have understood "gush," and sentimentalism, but this
attitude of which he had neither heard nor read bothered him until one
day he had a sudden, flash of enlightenment.
V
"Is it class-consciousness?"
He asked the question of Gora, who dropped in upon a class at Alexina's
or Aileen's sometimes on a free afternoon, and with whom he was walking
down to the trolley car.
"Something like that. Caste they would call it if they thought about it
at all, which to do them justice they don't.... It used to be the
fashion in San Francisco for everybody to 'knock' everybody else. Then
came a revulsion and everybody began to praise and boost. You see it in
all circles, but the way it has taken that crowd is to show their
intense loyalty to one another by a constant reminder of it in manner,
and in refraining from criticism of one another, no matter how much
they may gossip about others outside of their particular set. Once,
just to try my sister-in-law, I told her that in my nursing I had
stumbled across evidence of an illicit love affair going on between one
of her friends and a married man, the husband of my patient. My sister
became so remote that I had the impression for a few moments that she
really wasn't there. Once it would have infuriated me, but I have
improved my sense of humor and developed my philosophy, so I merely
turned the conversation, as she wouldn't speak at all. She had quite
withdrawn--still further into the sacred preserves, I suppose....
"They are not only loyal but really seem to have the most exalted
admiration for one another because they are all of the same heaven-born
stock.... That is not all, however. The truth of the matter is that
they get so bored out here they would go frantic if they did not
cultivate as many kinds of excitement and indigenous admirations as
their wits are equal to. When they can, they vary the monotony of life
with summers in Europe and winters in New York--or Santa Barbara, where
they meet many interesting people from the East or England; but some of
them won't leave their busy husbands or the husbands won't be left; or
parents are not amenable; so they try to create an atmosphere of high
spirits and sheer delight in youth and one another, and the result is
almost a work of art. I rather respect them, but I envy them a good
deal less than before I knew them so well."
"Oh, you envied them? They should envy you."
"Well, they don't! Yes, I envied them because it is my natural right to
be one of them and fate slammed the door before I was born. It
embittered my first youth, and it might have become an obsession after
my brother married into society if I had not found the right kind of
work. That and the boring Sundays I've spent at Rincona, and the
experiences I have had with that young set, who are always at Mrs.
Dwight's more or less; besides a profound satisfaction in accomplishing
literary work that not one of them could do to save their lives--all
this has routed a good deal of my old bitterness of spirit. I am not
sorry that I had it and indulged it, however. Discontent and resentment
put spurs on the soul. Anything is better than smugness."
"It's made you different enough from these others, all right. Even from
Mrs. Dwight, who is different herself.... I'd rather you'd stayed
discontented. The whole scheme's all wrong and you know it. You've
suffered from it. You should be the last to tolerate it. When they're
jabbering away about their ninny affairs they pay as little attention
to you as they do to me. They forget our existence. We don't belong, as
they say. There isn't, one of them except Mrs. Dwight that I wouldn't
give my eye teeth to see hanging out the wash or running a machine in a
factory."'
Gora turned to him with a smile. At this time she was as nearly happy
as was possible for that insurgent too aspiring spirit.
"Nevertheless, they've made you over in a way--Oh, don't flame! I don't
mean your principles ... other ways that won't hurt you in the least.
You cut your hair differently. You wear better shoes. You have your
clothes pressed--the suit you wear up here anyhow. You've reformed your
speech somewhat, and you know a good deal more about many things than
you did a few months ago. I am expecting any day to see you wearing a
'boiled' shirt."
"Oh, no, not that! It'd never do. It's true enough I got to feeling
self-conscious about my rough clothes and boots, especially after I met
that dude brother of yours one day in the hall and he gave me a
once-over that made me feel like a tramp."
"Oh! ... But he was snubbed himself not so very long ago, and I suppose
it gives him a certain pleasure to snub some one else, I am ashamed of
him.... But tell me, don't you like them rather better than you
expected? Find them rather a better sort? You must see that there is
practically no leisure class as far as the men are concerned--"
"They have time enough to go chicken chasing--"
"Well, aside from that? At least they do work. And the younger women?
You knew before that they were frivolous because they had too much
money and too few responsibilities. Many of the older women have a
serious and useful side, even if they do waste an unholy amount of time
at cards."
"Well, if you ask me, their manners, when they remember to use 'em, are
better than I expected. Only that Miss Thorndyke is cold and haughty,
but perhaps that's because she's poor (for her), or is covering up
something, or is just plain stupid.... Mrs. Dwight's manners are always
perfect. She's my idea of a lady--just! And in the new system there'll
be a long sight more ladies than is possible now, only no
aristocrats.... Yes, they're decent enough considering they're rotten
poisoned by money and thinkin' themselves better'n the mass; and I like
their affection for one another. But they could be all that in the
socialist state and more too. They'd have to cut out drink and
gambling, and a few other diversions some of 'em'll drift into, if one
or two of 'em haven't already--just through being bored to death."
"Do you honestly think socialism means universal virtue?"
"No, I don't. I'm no such greenhorn; though there's some that does, or
pretends to.... But I mean there'd be no _drifting_ into vice like
there is now, no indulgence of any old weakness because temptation was
always following them about or just round the corner. That's the
trouble now.... But in the most perfect state some would be watching
out for their chance, just because the old Adam was too strong in spite
of the fact that all the old reminders had disappeared."
"More likely they'd all murder one another because they were some ten
thousand times more bored than that poor little group whose brains you
are addling."
"I don't like to hear you talk like that, Miss Gora. You ought to give
that pen of yours to socialism. There would be all the revenge you
could want--and it's what you're entitled to. Then I could call you
Comrade Gora."
"Call me Comarade by all means if it hurts you to say Miss to a fellow
worker.... You admit then that envy of a society you were not born into
and which refuses to acknowledge you as an equal, is the secret of your
desire to pull it down?"
"Partly that." he admitted cooly. "Not that I'd change places with any
of those fat millionaires I see shuffling down the steps of the
Pacific-Union Club--although I'll admit to you what I wouldn't to these
young devils in my class, that I know some socialists who would. I hate
the sight of 'em. But I want to do away with class-rights and
class-distinctions, not only because I just naturally have no use for
them but because I want to put an end to the misery of the world."
"You mean the material misery. What would you do with the other seven
hundred different varieties?"
"Well.... I guess each case would have to take care of itself. Perhaps
we'd get round to it after a while. Get power and class-envy out of the
world, and some genius, like as not, would invent a post-graduate
course of colleges for human nature. All things are possible."
"You are an optimist! Here's our car. Come home with me and share the
supper that I pay for with the tainted money of a plutocrat. Only we
haven't any real plutocrats in San Francisco. Only modest millionaires.
Will you?"
"Yes." said Mr. Kirkpatrick. "And thank you kindly." He even smiled,
for he was developing a latent heavily overlain seed of humor;
inherited from the full bay tree that had flourished in his
grandfather, born in County Clare, where men sometimes indulged in
rebellion but did not take themselves too seriously withal.
CHAPTER II
I
That winter and the following seasons for the next few years passed
very rapidly for Alexina. Besides her classes and the constant
companionship of her friends (to say nothing of the excitement of
helping one or two of them out of not infrequent scrapes), she had for
a time the absorbing interest of refurnishing the best part of her
house.
The square lower hall which had been scantily furnished with the
grandfather's clock, a hat-rack, and a settee, and whose walls were
covered with "marble paper," was painted, walls and wood, a deep ivory
white, and refurnished with light wicker furniture, palms, and growing
plants. The hat-rack was abolished, and the small library on the left
of the entrance turned into a men's dressing-room. The folding doors
were removed from the great double parlors, the "body brussels"
replaced by hardwood floors, the walls tinted a pale gray as a
background for the really valuable pictures (including the proud and
gracious and beautiful Alexina Ballinger, dust long since in Lone
Mountain), and the splendid pieces of Italian furniture which had
always seemed to sulk and bulge against the dull brown walls. The rep
and walnut sets were sent to the auction room and replaced by
comfortable chairs and sofas whose colors varied, but harmonized not
only with one another but with the rugs that Alexina under Gora's
direction had bought at auction. In fact she bought many of her new
pieces at auction and with Aileen found it vastly exciting to pore over
the advertisements and then go down to the crowded rooms and bid.
The billiard room behind the former library she left as it was. Her
mother's large bedroom upstairs she turned into a library with
bookcases to the ceiling on three sides, and one of the carved oaken
tables against an expanse of Pompeiian red relieved by one painting (a
wedding gift from Judge Lawton, who believed in patronizing local art)
that had despoiled a desert of its gorgeous yellow sunrise.
The carpet and curtains were red without pattern. The coal grate had
been removed and a fireplace built for logs. It was to be her own den
for long rainy winter afternoons, or the cold and foggy days of summer
when she remained in the city.
The dining-room was also given a hardwood floor and a Japanese red and
gold wall paper as a compliment to her martial ancestors; but as the
sideboards were built into the wails end could be replaced only at
great cost; they remained as a brooding reminder of the solid sixties,
and no doubt exchanged resentful reminiscences at night with the chairs
which had been merely recovered.
As a matter of course modern bathtubs were installed and gas replaced
by electricity.
All this made a "hole" in Alexina's bonds, the wedding-present of her
brothers, but Mortimer offered no objection, knowing as he did that to
achieve his ambition of being master of a house to which fashionable
people would come as a matter of course the outlay was imperative.
Moreover, entertaining at home would be far cheaper for him than at the
restaurants.
He was doing fairly well at this time, for he had learned what
commodities the retail men were likely to buy of a firm as small as
his, and he had got into touch with one or two foreign markets not
monopolized by the older houses. Moreover, he had been speculating a
little in the new Nevada mines, and successfully. He presented Alexina
with a Victrola which included the music for all the new dances, and a
long coat of baby lamb lined with her favorite periwinkle blue. To his
sister he returned a thousand dollars of her money.
Alexina knew nothing of these speculations and felt that her original
faith in him was justified. He did not offer even yet to pay all the
monthly expenses of the house, explaining casually that the greater
part of his profits went back into the business; but he handed over his
share promptly, and such fleeting doubts and anxieties as may once have
visited his still inexperienced wife faded and finally disappeared.
II
They began to entertain a little during the second winter, Mrs. Groome
having been dead nearly two years. The new floor of the large
drawing-room had been laid for dancing, and their friends formed a
habit, when there was "nothing on" elsewhere, of telephoning and
announcing they were coming up to take a whirl. This led to more
telephoning, and some twenty couples would dance in the long-silent old
house at least once and often three times a week.
The new order delighted James, who felt young again, and his hastily
improvised suppers were models of unpretentious succulence. There were
always sherry and whiskey in the handsome old decanters on the
sideboards; and, at the equally perfect little dinners, for a time, two
bottles of Alexander Groome's favorite brand of champagne (which he had
remembered with satisfaction on his deathbed that he had not outlived)
were brought up from the cellar by the beaming James.
When, almost with tears, he informed his mistress' husband that the
last bottle had been served Mortimer could do no less than order up a
case. He had not the courage either to give his guests the excellent
native claret where they had formerly enjoyed imported champagne or to
appear a "piker" in the eyes of the far from democratic family butler.
He consoled himself with the reflection that it was "good business."
Nearly all the young men, married or otherwise, that came to his house
(Alexina subtly encouraged him to call it his house) were of more or
less importance or standing in the world of business and finance (two
were lawyers in their first flight, Bascom Luning and Jimmie Thorne),
and the more prosperous he appeared to be (they knew to a dollar the
extent of Alexina's income) the more apt would business be to flow his
way, the less likely they would be to suspect him of playing the stock
market. At all events it enhanced his standing and gave him intense
pleasure.
Moreover, as time passed it became evident to his sensitive ego that he
was no longer looked upon as an outsider. He was accepted as a matter
of course. He was one of them. Neither men nor women (not even Aileen)
continued to ask themselves whether they liked him or not. He was there
and to stay and that was the end of it. They had always liked his
manners; he made a charming host, and, as ever, he danced like "a god
with wings on his heels."
Quite naturally in due course some one offered to put him up at the
most exclusive and the most expensive club west of New York, a club to
which every Californian with any pretence to fashion or importance
belonged as a matter of course. Old men whose names had once been
potent in the great banks or firms of the valleys below, sat and gazed
with sad and rheumy eyes down upon the new city in which there was
barely a familiar landmark to remind them of their youth or the years
of their power and their pride. They sat there all day long, day after
day; and tourists went away with the impression that the imposing brown
stone mansion on the sacred crest of Nob Mill was a sumptuously endowed
retreat for the incurably aged.
But the majority of its members were very much alive and still
well-padded; and, far from being on a pale diet, were deeply
appreciative of the famous culinary resources of the chef, and showed
it.
When the offer was made to Mortimer he accepted with a bright: "Oh,
thanks, old chap. I'd like it immensely," But when, on the first day of
his membership, he stood in one of the front windows and gazed out at
the ruins opposite--the Pacific Union Club and the Fairmont Hotel were
still two oases in the rubbled waste of Nob Hill--he felt so exultant
and so happy that he dared not open his lips lest he betray himself. He
could mount no higher socially. All that he had to strive for now was
his million--or millions. When he had half a million he would build a
house at Burlingame that could be enlarged from time to time.
Only with the "Rincona crowd" he had made no headway. Maria did not
hesitate to comment on the extravagance of doing the house over, the
membership at the club with all it entailed, Alexina's little electric
car, and above all the constant entertaining. A moderate amount was due
Alexina's position; but open house--nothing made money fly so quickly.
Prices were getting higher every day (there came a time, in the wake of
the great war, when she looked back with sad amazement at the morning
of her discontent) and rich people were getting richer while poor
people like themselves (she meant what Alexina still called the A. A.)
were growing poorer.
Tom Abbott had not put Mortimer up at the club. He happened to know
that although his brother-in-law was doing fairly well he was not
making a fortune, and suspected that he dabbled in stocks. But he said
nothing of this to his wife, and as he knew that Alexina had long since
revoked her power of attorney (she had given him to understand that
this was done at Mortimer's suggestion) he believed that her money at
least was safe.
CHAPTER III
I
Alexina, although she would have found it impossible, even if she had
so desired, to relapse into the incognitance of the years preceding her
mother's death, had nevertheless locked and sealed and cellared her
ivory tower, those depths of her nature where, she suspected, her true
ego dwelt. It was an ego she had forfeited the right to indulge, nor
had she at this time any desire to know more of herself than she did.
Life after all was very pleasant; she managed to fill it with many
little and even a few absorbing interests; and once she spent a month
at Santa Barbara chaperoning Janet Maynard, where her duties sat
lightly upon her and she would have responded naturally if addressed as
Miss Groome, so completely did Mortimer fade into the background. In
the summer of nineteen-thirteen Judge Lawton and Aileen overcame all
protests and took her with them to Europe, where, after a month in
Paris, she visited Olive de Morsigny in her renaissance chateau on the
Loire. The memory of Gathbroke revisited her and she half-wished the
Judge would go to England, but the climate did not agree with him, and
after a few more enchanted weeks, in Italy and Spain, she returned to
Mortimer, who was distinctly duller than ever.
But she had reconciled herself long since to the dullness of her
life-partner; he could not help it and she had willfully married him in
the face of as imposing a phalanx of family and friendly opposition as
ever attempted to stand between a girl and her fate.
Nevertheless, immediately after her return from Santa Barbara in the
late autumn of nineteen-eleven, and wholly without, analysis or
pondering, she made a significant change in the order of her life.
Mortimer, who had, during her absence, occupied a large room at the
back of the house visited by the afternoon sun, found himself invited
to retain it.... They must avoid the least possibility of a family
until they were better off.... She had been hearing the subject
discussed ... the most economical baby cost fifty dollars a month. With
a permanent trained nurse, and of course they would have one, the cost
would easily be doubled ... thousands were required for the proper
education of a child ... even if she had girls she should wish them to
go to college; she was not half educated herself ... and boys, with
their extravagances, their debts, they cost a mint; it was better for
children to be born outright in the humbler classes than to be born
into a rich set without riches themselves ... it all put her in a panic
every time she thought of it.... Morty was so sensible and had such a
high sense of responsibility, of course he understood ... children,
even when small, would hamper him fearfully, especially as he had not
even begun to make his million.... As for herself she would be more
economical than ever and help him like the good pal she was.
Mortimer had the sensation of being trussed up with invisible but
inflexible silken thongs. His thoughts need not be recorded.
II
Alexina refurnished her bedroom in her favorite periwinkle blue; a low
graceful day-bed with a screen before the stationary washstand helped
to create the atmosphere of a boudoir. It had an intensely personal
atmosphere in which man, more particularly a lawful husband, had no
place.
When Alexina stood on the threshold and surveyed this room, chaste,
cool, proud, and exquisitely lovely, she lifted her hand and blew off a
kiss, out of the window, wafting away the memory of the room as it had
been. She had remarkable powers of obliteration, a sort of River of
Lethe among the backwaters of her mind, where she held below the
surface all she wished to forget until it ceased to struggle. She never
again gave a thought to her early relationship with her husband; not
even to the indifference or distaste which had followed so quickly upon
her curiosity and her determination to feel romantic at all costs.
III
Subtly she felt she was happier than she had ever been even in those
first weeks, when she had barred the gates of her fool's paradise
behind her; she felt as free and happy as the birds skimming over the
beds of periwinkle below her window, and (miraculously finding her
second youth quite as productive as her first) took no pains to
conceive of anything better. She looked neither forward nor back, and
all was well.
She even flirted a little, that being the fashion, and, having had
enough of business men, encouraged the devotions of Bascom Luning and
Jimmie Thorne. She saw them when they chose to call in the daytime, and
regaled the glowering Mortimer at the dinner table with scraps of their
sapience.
Mortimer had resigned himself long since to the sacrifice of several of
his bourgeois ambitions, among them to be master in his own house; but
not an iota of his convictions. Although it would not have occurred to
him to distrust his wife if she had chosen to sit up all night with a
man, he made frozen comments upon the impropriety of a woman having men
in the house when her husband was not there, sitting out dances with
men, taking long tramps through Marin County with three men and no one
for chaperon but Alice Thorndyke and Janet Maynard--shocking
flirts--whole Sundays--with lunch heaven knew where, and himself, who
hated tramping, not included.
But these grim remonstrances were met in so gay a spirit of badinage
that he felt ridiculous, particularly as no powers of badinage or of
repartee had been included in his own mental equipment; and he usually
relapsed into a polite and bored silence.
He never had had much to say at the dinner table when they were alone,
and, as time went on, his comments on the day were exhausted before the
soup had given place to the entree, and Alexina fell into the habit of
bringing her Italian text-book to the table--the study of Italian just
then being the rage in her set--and whatever interesting book she had
on hand. Mortimer made no protest. His brain was fagged at night. It
was a relief not to be expected to talk when they dined alone; those
long silences had been oppresive even to him; he rather welcomed the
books.
CHAPTER IV
I
This complete new freedom, and personal privacy, entailed in time a
result which Alexina would have been the last to anticipate even if she
had disposed of her husband by death or divorce.
Owing to the thoroughness of her mental methods she was psychologically
free, the legal tie mattered as little as if Mortimer had been
transposed by some beneficent law to the status of a brother. The will
when it is strong enough can control acts, and, when favored by bias,
thought; but it has no command whatever over the sub-consciousness, and
in that mysterious region are the subtle inheritances of mind and
character, the springs and the direction, of all functional life; a
fate with a thousand threads on her wheel, filaments from the souls and
the bodies, the minds and the acts, of every ancestor straight back to
that vast impersonal ocean where, unthinkable millions of years ago
proemial life awaited the call of the worlds.
This aged untiring fate at the wheel battles unceasingly with the
conscious mind above, for age is prone to live by law and rote. These
fates, the oldest daughters of the Earth-Mother, Nature, know nothing
of morals or manners, assume that men and women are as naive in their
normality as the denizens of forest and field. And so they are while
children.
II
The eternal pull between civilizing Mind (Oh, centuries yet from being
civilized!) and the memoried but obstinate old lady at the wheel (who
laughs when a man of powerful will and too active mind "wills" sleep;
forcing him finally to choose between the horrors of insomnia, the
insidious tyranny of drugs, and the doubtful and wearisome alternative
of psychotherapeutics)--this pull, automatic in people of low estate,
becomes bitter and often appalling where the mind is highly developed
and attuned besides to the codes and customs of the best that
civilization has so far accomplished.
The most vital of all these functions, for without it Mother Earth
would be like an ant hill without ants, and all these ancient norms of
daughters as homeless as the rest of the fates, is what man in a spirit
of social compromise has labeled an instinct--the sex-instinct. It is
no more an instinct than recurring sleep, lymphatic action, hunger,
thirst, alimentation. It is a primal function for which Mind, wisely
foreseeing the consequences of too much Nature, long since created laws
both civil and social to curb. There are many impulses, Inherited, from
ten thousand ancestors and constantly jogged by Earth's busy agent,
human nature, that may logically be called instincts (their roots lying
in the ancient social groups and their struggle to exist) but not a
function that governs the law of reproduction, as appetite governs the
law of renewing the vital necessities of the body.
III
In the Latin races the conscious war between the brain above and the
sub-ego below, with the latter's constant reminders that mind is a mere
excrescence, often warped or ill-directed, at the apex of the perfect
body, is almost negligible. Even, when moral their lack of reticence,
their practical logic, their habit of facing every fact pertaining to
life, psychical and physical, as squarely as they face a simple
question of hunger and thirst, above all their almost complete lack of
that modern, development, called romance, which has given birth to a
peculiar form of personal imagination, too often without foundation or
logic--all these preclude that most active of all mental aids to the
matter of fact needs of the body--glamour.
But it is far otherwise with the English-speaking races--loosely called
Anglo-Saxon, They are powerfully sexed; their feelings and sentiments
go deeper than is possible to those of more ebullient temperament but
fatal clarity of vision; refinement of mind and habit and manner is
perhaps the most precious of their achievements, and they have
established a code which not only demands rectitude of act but
suppression of thought and desire where there is no lawful outlet.
Nothing, possibly, has more infuriated the old lady at the methodically
performing wheel than this. She takes her revenge and squirts poison
into the physical structure of the brain, obscures the soul with dark
and brooding clouds, and subtly reduces the blood system to such a
state that any germ is welcome.
IV
Once more Mind uses its highest faculties and outwits her, having no
intention that civilization shall drop below the plane to which it has
been raised through long laborious centuries of time. Life becomes more
diverse, more complex. The middle classes work harder to live; they
have little leisure for thoughts, for introspection. Punishment is
dire.... Those that have leisure and yet not enough to command the more
brilliant and special forms of distraction are supplied with public
libraries, gymnasiums, free medical advice regarding the laws of
hygiene in places where they cannot fail to see it, new forms of cheap
amusement; they are subtly encouraged to take up useful work or study;
or there are increasing pressures which may force even this
semi-leisure class to work for luxuries if not for bread. Tens of
thousands of women are led into the passionate diversions of club life.
For them, too, politics with its fierce championships and hatreds and
frictions; the necessity of concentration of thought on the impersonal
plane if only in the matter of getting the best of rivals within the
fold; and if hair flies souls are saved.
Over the Oldest Profession Mind still scratches its head in vain. It is
ever hopeful, and hamstrings a sovereign patron, like alcohol, now and
again; but the lady at the wheel smiles, for here, in addition to the
unquenchable maternal instinct, the ignorance of the poor, and the
glamour that the men of certain races have learned to give to love, she
has her clearest field.
Aside from the women of commerce there are, of course, many secret
rebels--now and then only does one make her exit from society through
the courts. The vast majority of Anglo-Saxons in whatever clime or
capital, suppress their "unrefined" appetites or vagrant fancies--which
are vibrations from the wheel; sometimes hard jerks when the presiding
genius is more than commonly out of patience--and rise to serene
heights or grow morbid and irritable according to the strength or the
meagerness of their equipment; or the nature of their resources. A
cultivated resource is a persistent fiction that life is as it ought to
be, not as it is, and it is no plan of theirs to read books or witness
plays that might carve and populate a new groove in their brains.
Let no one imagine that this class will become more "enlightened,"
"broader," as time goes on. Not for a century at least. Mind has made
too great a success of this product; she has practically achieved a
complete triumph over the lady at the wheel. It is this class that has
made civilization progress, the solid thing it is to date. The
excrescences, the deserters from the normal, scintillating or subtle,
may be tolerated for the spice they give to life but they will never
rule.
Possibly they do not mind. Life Is made up of compromises and
compensations.
V
American women in youth, of the visibly reputable world, may be freely
divided into two classes, the oversexed and those that seem cold to
themselves and others until they are well into the period of their
second youth--between twenty-four and thirty; and a not inconsiderable
number are so and permanently. In the first case they either
precipitate themselves into matrimony or have one or more intrigues
until they find the man they wish to marry, when they settle down and
make excellent wives. The others, if they are imaginative and
high-minded, fall in love romantically and marry far too soon; or they
capitalize their youth or beauty and marry to the best advantage; or
they elect to live a life of serene spinsterhood like Alexina's Aunt
Clara, and bring up the family children. A not inconsiderable number
take their fling late.
When the American girl of the super-refined class, and whose baleful
norm in the crypt was asleep at the wheel in her first blind youth,
finds herself disappointed in the most intimate partnership that
exists, the complaisance, voluntary at the beginning, drifts into
habit, more and more grimly endured. Some have the moral courage to put
an end to it as they would to any false situation, but if individuals
were not rare in this world we should have chaos, not a civilization of
sorts which is a pleasant place to plant the feet, however high into
the clouds the head may poke its investigating nose.
It is natural that with such women during the period of endurance all
love should seem distasteful, and the mind dwell upon any other
subject. But remove the cause of sex-inertia and there is likely to be
the stir and awakening of spring after a long monotonous winter of hard
frost and blanketing snow. Or a homelier simile: remove the cause of
chronic indigestion and the appetite becomes fresh and normal.
Thus Alexina.
CHAPTER V
I
San Francisco, commencing in September, has three or four months of
perfect weather. The cold fogs and winds cease to pay their daily
visits, the rainy season awaits the new year. The skies are a deep and
cloudless blue, the air is warm and soft and alluring, never too hot,
although the overcoats of summer are discarded.
The city lies bathed in golden sunlight or the sharp jeweled light of
stars, when the moon is not blazing like a crystal bonfire. Then Mount
Tamalpais and other mountains across the Bay and behind the city take
on a chiseled outline that, particularly at night, makes them look
curiously new, as if but yesterday heaved from the deep, and Nature too
busy to provide them with a background and the soft blurs of time for
centuries to come. This primeval look of bare California mountains on
clear nights has something sinister and menacing in its aspect as if at
any moment they might once more brood alone over the earth.
II
Alexina returned from abroad early in November and stood one morning
outside her eucalyptus grove, revolving slowly on one heel, schoolgirl
fashion, as she gazed up at the steep densely populated hill that rose
from the street below her own private little hill, and cut off her view
of the hills of Berkeley and the mountains beyond; at the broad crowded
valleys on the south; the range of hills that hid the Pacific Ocean,
and included Mount Calvary with its cross and the symmetrical mass of
Twin Peaks; the bare brown mountains of the north piling above the
green sparkling bay with its wooded and military islands.
Like a good and valiant Californian she was assuring herself that she
had seen nothing like this in Europe, and that she really preferred it
to art galleries and dilapidated old ruins. But as a matter of fact she
had returned to California with dragging feet and was merely staving
off the disheartening moment when her ruthless candor would force her
to admit it.
San Francisco was all very well, and in this dazzling light that
compact mass of houses swarming over the city's hills and valleys, with
sudden palms in high gardens and a tree here and there, produced the
impression that all were white with red roofs, and looked not unlike
Genoa. But it seemed quite unromantic and uninspiring to a girl who had
just paid her first brief visit to the old world, an interval,
moreover, that had been without a responsibility, cut her off so
completely from her general life that when variously addressed
"Mademoiselle," "Signorina," "Senorita," she ceased almost at once to
feel either surprised or flattered. If she had not forbidden herself to
dream she would still have been Alexina Groome with a future to sketch
with her own adventurous pencil; and to fill in at her pleasure.
But although she was free in a sense she was not free to live in
Europe. She was a partner with a partner's obligations. To desert
Mortimer would not only be to banish him from Ballinger House to dreary
bachelor quarters, with none of the comforts and little luxuries he
intensely loved, but it would also deprive him of his surest social
prop. People had accepted him and liked him as well as they liked the
totally uninteresting of the good old stock; but many would drift into
the habit of not inviting him to anything but large dances, if his wife
were absent. Alexina knew that her invitations to all important and
many small dinners, not avowedly bridge or poker parties, were as
inevitable as crab in season; but there were too many young men whom
girls would infinitely prefer to enliven the monotony of crab a la
poulette, to any married man, particularly one who had as little to say
as poor Morty. She had known debutantes who flatly refused to dance
with married men or even to be introduced to them.
California was her fate. No doubt of that. She might never see Europe
again, for while it was all very well to be a guest once it would be
quite impossible another time. She certainly could not afford it
herself and keep Ballinger House open, even for brief summer visits; as
she might if her home were in New York.
Of course Mortimer might make his million, but then again he might not.
Certainly there were no present signs of it and she had never seen him
so depressed, not even during the panic of nineteen-seven. His eyes
were as lifeless as slate, his voice was flat, although for that matter
he was almost dumb. When at home he sat brooding heavily by the open
western windows of the drawing-room, or moved restlessly about. To all
her questions he replied shortly that the times were bad again, worse
than ever; that he was holding his own, but was tired, tired out. As
she had not been there he had not cared to take a cottage by himself,
and had paid few week-end visits. He had nothing to talk to women about
and the men talked of nothing but the business depression.... Alexina
had shrugged her shoulders and concluded that his attitude was a subtle
reproach for leaving him to the dull cares of business while she
enjoyed herself in Europe.
She was not in the least sorry for Mortimer. He had been perfectly
comfortable; he had had his friends; she had left him a sum of money
which with the monthly rents from the flats would pay her share in the
household expenses; he could spend his free afternoons at the golf club
by the ocean, and his evenings, when not invited out, at the temple of
his idolatry on Nob Hill. James was a better housekeeper than she was
and it was now two years that Mortimer bad been living the life of a
luxurious bachelor at the back of the house with an always amiable
companion at breakfast and dinner.
III
Alexina, as she stood shading her eyes from the brilliant sunlight and
watching a great liner drift through the Golden Gate, wondered if Morty
had consoled himself, and if his Puritanical conscience were flaying
him. She hoped that he had, for she was quite willing that he should be
happy in his own way, poor thing, so long as he secluded his
divagations from the world--and she could trust him to do that! Now
that she had ceased to be the complaisant bored wife with dull nerves
and torpid imagination she would be the last to condemn him. Human
Nature was an ever opening book to her these days, and she wondered
what would happen to herself if any of several men she liked were
capable of making her love him, whipping up a personal storm in those
emotional gulfs which had slowly and inflexibly intruded themselves
upon her consciousness.
She had pondered long and deeply on this subject, particularly in the
old world where bonds seem looser to the mere observer whether they are
or not, and where life looks to the American the quintessence of
romance.... She had concluded that the most satisfactory experience
that could come to her would be a mad love affair "in the air" with a
man who possessed all the requirements to induce it, but who would
either be the unsuspecting object, or, reciprocating, would continue to
love her with the world between them.
For she shrank from the disillusionments of secret libertinage; she did
not, indeed, believe that love could survive it, although passion might
for a time. Passion was unthinkable to her without love, and when she
recalled the mean and sordid devices to which two of her friends were
put to meet their lovers she felt nothing but disgust for the whole
drama of man and woman.
Alexina had been reared on the soundest moral principles of church and
society, to say nothing of the law, but the norm at the wheel has often
laughed in her amiable way at church and society and law when
circumstances have conspired to help her. But against fastidiousness
even the blind urge of the race seldom has availed her; she can only go
on sullenly feeding the fires, heaping on the fuel, hoping grimly for
the astrological moment.
IV
Alexina shrugged her shoulders impatiently and went into the house. She
would go down to the bank and clip her coupons. She cultivated
assiduously the practical side of life, making the most of it,
delighted when repairs were needed on her flats, regretting that the
greater part of her income came from ground rents, collected, as ever,
by Tom Abbott, and bonds, from which she still experienced a childish
pleasure in cutting the coupons. Her flats, which were in a humbler
part of the western division of the city, she had never visited, but
she received a call every month from the agent, who brought her the
rents and complaints.
She had made a heroic effort to turn herself into a business woman but
the material had been too slender; and she sometimes wished for a large
independent fortune that would tax her powers to the utmost. But she
never even had any surplus to invest. Her wardrobe was no
inconsiderable item; living prices rose steadily; there were repairs
both on her own house and the flats to be anticipated every year, to
say nothing of the fiendish sum that must be set aside for taxes. But
she managed to save the necessary amount; and if they lived somewhat
extravagantly, at least she had never disturbed her capital.
On the whole she knew they had managed very well for young people who
lived so much in the world, and she had no intention of economizing
further. They had no children. Her husband was young and energetic and
healthy. Her own little fortune was secure. She purposed to enjoy life
as best she could; and as she could not have done this quite selfishly
and been happy, she included among her yearly expenditures a certain
admirable charity presided over by her equally admirable sister, and
even visited it occasionally with her friends when a serious mood
descended abruptly upon them.... She was now on the threshold of her
second beautiful youth, and found herself and life far more interesting
than when, a silly girl of eighteen, she had believed that all life and
romance must be crowded into that callow period. She had no idea of
sacrificing this new era vibrating with unknown possibilities (it was
on the cards that she might resurrect Gathbroke from his ivory tomb;
lie would do admirably for her present needs, and when she found it
difficult to visualize him after so long a period, she could pay Gora a
sisterly visit) to a penurious attempt to increase her capital. At the
same time she had no intention of diminishing it. To quote Tom Abbott
(when Maria was elsewhere): She might be a fool, or even a----fool, but
she was not a----fool.
V
She dressed herself in a black velvet suit made by her New York
tailors. She had spent, a fortnight with her brother Ballinger on her
way home, and he had given her a set of silver fox: a large muff and
two of those priceless animals head to head to keep a small section of
her anatomy at blood heat in a climate never cold enough for furs.
The day was hot. It was the sort of weather which on the opposite side
of the continent arrives when spring is melting into summer and
fortunate woman arrays herself in thin and dainty fabrics. But women
everywhere with a proper regard for fashion rush the season, and autumn
is the time to display the first smart habiliments of winter. No San
Francisco woman of fashion would be guilty of comfortable garments in
the glorious spring weather of November if she perished in her furs.
The coat, bound with silk braid, was lined with periwinkle blue, and
there was a touch of the same color in her large black velvet hat.
Nothing could make the great irises of her black-gray eyes look blue,
but they shone out, dazzling, under the drooping brim; and if she was,
perchance, too warm above, her scant skirt, her thin silk stockings and
low patent leather shoes struck the balance like a brilliant paradox.
Alexina nodded approvingly at her image in the pier glass, found the
key of her safe deposit box in the cabinet where she had left it, and
went down to the smart little electric car which the gardener had
brought to the door.
CHAPTER VI
I
Alexina stood alone in the strong room of the bank leaning heavily
against the wall with its endless rows of compartments from one of
which she had taken the dispatch box in which she had kept her bonds.
The box had fallen to the floor. If there had been any one in the room
with her he would have started and turned as the box clanged with a
hollow echo on the steel surface.
The box was empty.
It was a large box. It had contained forty thousand dollars' worth of
bonds, nearly a third of her fortune. The securities were among the
soundest the country afforded, for Alexander Groome, wild as he may
have been when relieving the monotony of life with too many diversions,
not the least of which was speculation, never made a mistake in his
permanent investments; and others had been bought with equal prudence
by Judge Lawton or Tom Abbott.
But the bonds had been negotiable. She recalled Tom Abbott's warning to
keep them always in her safe deposit box and the key hidden. They might
be traced if stolen, but State's Prison for the thief would be cold
comfort if the bonds had been cashed and the money spent.
She had always had one of the lighter Italian pieces in her bedroom, a
beautiful cabinet of carved and gilded oak nearly black with age. Like
all such it had a secret drawer and here she had kept her keys, and her
jewels during the winter.
Who knew of this secret drawer, which opened by pressing a certain
little gilded face on the panel? ... All her friends, of course:
Aileen, Sibyl, Alice, Olive, Janet, Helene.... Unthinkable to have a
secret drawer in an old Italian cabinet which had belonged to some
Borgia or other, and not exhibit it to one's chosen friends.
She had even shown it to Gora, but to no one else but Mortimer. She had
kept his love letters in it for a time, written while the family was
applying the polite methods of the modern inquisition at Rincona, They
had remained there, forgotten, until her mother's death, when she had
remembered the secret drawer as a safe hiding place for her keys and
jewels; which, with her mother's, had formerly reposed in the safe
under the stairs.
It was a deep drawer and when she was in town held the few valuable
stones, reset, that she had inherited from her mother, besides the fine
pieces she had received as wedding-gifts; when all the old friends of
the family out-did themselves, and not a few of the less distinguished
but more opulent, whose floors Alexina had graced while her mother
slept. Her pearl necklace had been the present of her more intimate
group of friends.
Alexina was not a little proud of her collection of jewels, although
she seldom wore anything but her pearls. She had left it when she went
abroad, in the safe deposit vault, and she sent a quick terrified
glance in the coffer's direction like that of a cornered rat.
But her attention riveted itself once more on the empty box at her
feet. A third of her fortune, and gone beyond redemption. Her stunned
mind grasped that fact at once. No one stole bonds to keep them. But
who was the thief?
Not any of her old friends. They might gamble, or drink, or deceive
their legal guardians, but they drew the line at stealing. Certain sins
lie within the social code and others do not. Women of her class,
unless kleptomaniac, did not steal. It wasn't done. With reason or
unreason they classed thieves of any sort with harlots, burglars,
firebugs, embezzlers, forgers, murderers, and common people who
overdressed and drank too much in public; and withdrew their skirts.
Moreover, Aileen had been with her in Europe. Olive lived there. Janet
and Sibyl had more money than they could spend. The Ruylers were
ranching, and Helene was in Adler's Sanatorium with a new baby. Alice
had gone to Santa Barbara before she left and had not returned.
It was insulting even to pass them in review, but the mind works in
erratic curves under shock.
Gora had taken the thousand dollars Mortimer had returned to her and
gone first to Lake Tahoe and then to Honolulu to write a novel. She
would return on the morrow.
Mortimer.
It was incredible. Monstrous. She was outrageous even to link his name
with such a deed. He was the soul of honor. He might not be a genius
but no man had a cleaner reputation. She had lived with him now for
over six years and she had never ... never ... never ...
And she knew, unconsentingly, infallibly, that Mortimer had stolen the
bonds.
CHAPTER VII
I
Alexina drew the jewel coffer from the depths of the compartment and
opened it with fingers that felt swollen and numb. But the jewels were
there, and she experienced a feeling of fleeting satisfaction. They
were no part of her fortune, for she believed that only want would ever
induce her to sell them, but at least they were her own personal
treasure and a part of the beauty of life.
She returned the fallen box to its place and locked the little
cupboard, then took herself in hand. Neither the keeper outside the
door of the vault nor those she met above must suspect that anything
was wrong with her. What she should do she had no idea at the moment,
but at all events she must have time to think.
She left the bank with her usual light step and her head high, and then
she motored down the Peninsula. As she passed the shipyards she saw
crowds of men standing about; some of them turned and scowled after
her. They were on strike and took her no doubt for the wife or daughter
of a millionaire; and in truth there was never any difference
superficially in her appearance from that of her wealthier friends. She
had one ear instead of several hut it was perfect of its kind. Her
wardrobe was by no means as extensive as Sibyl's or Janet's or a
hundred others, but what she had came from the best houses, that use
only the costliest materials. Her face was composed and proud. There
was not a signal out, even from her brilliant expressive eyes, of the
storm within.
Her mind was no longer stunned. It was seething with disgust and fury.
How dared he? Her own, her exclusive property, inherited and
separate.... She felt at this moment exactly as she would have felt if
her jewel coffer instead of the dispatch box had been rifled; it was
the instinct of possession that had been outraged. What was hers was
hers as much as the hair on her head or the thoughts in her mind ... an
instinct that harked back to the oldest of the buried civilizations ...
she wondered if any socialist really had cultivated the power to feel
differently. She was quite certain that if Kirkpatrick should see a
thief fleeing with his purse he would chase him, collar him, and either
chastise him then and there or drag him to the nearest police station.
And the thief was her husband, the man of her choice. Alexina felt that
possibly if a brother had stolen her money she would have been less
bitter because less humiliated; one did not select one's brothers....
And if she had still loved Mortimer it would have been bad enough,
although no doubt with the blindness of youthful passion she would
immediately have begun to make excuses for him, reeling a blow as it
would have been. But the one compensation she had found in her
matrimonial wilderness was her pride in the essential honor of her
chosen partner, and her complete trust. If there had been any necessity
for giving a power of attorney when she went to Europe she would have
drawn it in his favor without hesitation, so completely had she
forgotten her earlier incitements to precaution.... If she had, no
doubt she would have returned to find herself penniless.
Whether he had stolen the money to speculate with or to extricate
himself from some business muddle she did not pause to wonder. He had
lost it; that was sufficiently evident from his depression. When his
powers of bluff failed him matters were serious indeed.
He had stolen and lost. The first would have been unforgivable, but the
last was unpardonable.
And he had taken her money as he would have taken Gora's, or his
parents' had they been alive, because however they might lash him with
their contempt, his body was safe from prison, his precious position in
society unshaken. She knew him well enough to be sure that if he had
had forty thousand dollars of some outsider's money under his hand it
would have been safe no matter what his predicament. He would have
accepted the alternative of bankruptcy without hesitation.
But with the women of his family a man was always safe. She remembered
something that Gora had once said to the same effect.... Yes, she could
have forgiven the theft of an outsider, for at least she would be
spared this sickening suffocating sensation of contempt. It was
demoralizing. She hated herself as much as she hated him. Moreover
there would have been some compensation in sending an outsider to San
Quentin.
And there was the serious problem of readjusting her life. Two thousand
dollars out of a small income was a serious deficit. Simultaneously she
was visited by another horrid thought. Mortimer had heretofore paid
half the household expenses. No doubt he was no longer in a position to
pay any. They would have to live, keep up Ballinger House, dress, pay
taxes, subscribe to charities, maintain their position in society, pay
the doctor and the dentist ... a hundred and one other incidentals ...
out of four thousand dollars a year. Well, it couldn't be done. They
would have to change their mode of living.
However, that concerned her little at present. The ordeal loomed of a
plain talk with Mortimer. It was impossible to ignore the theft even
had she wished; which she did not, for it was her disposition to have
things out and over with. But it would be horrible ... horribly
intimate. She had always deliberately lived on the surface with her
family and friends, respected their privacies as she held hers
inviolate. As her mind flashed back over her life she realized that
this would be the first really serious personal talk she would ever
have held with any one. Or, if her family, and occasionally, Mortimer,
had insisted upon being serious she had maintained her own attitude of
airy humor or delicate insolence.
She had no shyness of manner but a deep and intense shyness of the
soul. Some day ... perhaps ... but never yet.
II
She turned her car after a time, for she feared that her batteries
would run down. The strikers were still lounging and scowling; and this
time having relaxed her mental girths she looked at them with sympathy.
She knew from the liberal education she had received at the hands of
Mr. James Kirkpatrick, and the admissions of Judge Lawton and other
thoughtful men, that the iniquities of employers and labor were pretty
equally divided; greed and lack of tact on the one hand, greed and
class hatred and the itch for power on the part of labor leaders; and a
stupidity in the mass that was more pardonable than the short-sighted
stupidities of capital.... But what would you? A few centuries hence
the world might be civilized, but not in her time. Nothing gave her
mind less exercise. One thing at least was certain and that was that
when strikes lasted too long the laborers and their families went
hungry, and the employers did not. That settled the question for her
and determined the course of her sympathy. (It was not yet the fashion
to recognize the unfortunate "public," squeezed and helpless between
these two louder demonstrators of sheer human nature.)
But her mind did not linger in the shipyards. She had problems of her
own.... The chief of her compensations, having made a mess of her life,
had been taken from her: her pride and her faith in the man to whom she
was bound. The death of love had been so gradual that she had not
noticed it in time for decent obsequies; she had not sent a regret in
its wake.... She had had enough left, more than many women who had made
the same blind plunge into the barbed wire maze of matrimony.... And
now she had nothing. She would have liked to drive right out on to a
liner about to sail through the Golden Gate ... but she would no doubt
have to live on ... and on ... in changed, possibly humble, conditions
... despising the man she must meet sometime every day.... Yes, she did
wish she never had been born.
CHAPTER VIII
I
She concluded, while she dressed for dinner, that she must be a coward.
Alexina was far from satisfied with herself as she was; she would have
liked to possess a great talent like Gora, or be an intellectual power
in the world of some sort. She was far from stultification by the
national gift of complacence, careless self-satisfaction--racial rather
than individual ... qualities that have made the United States lag far
behind the greater European nations in all but material development and
a certain inventiveness; both of which in some cases are outclassed in
the older world.
A California woman of her mother's generation had become a great and
renowned archaeologist and lived romantically in a castle in the City of
Mexico. She bad often wished, since her serious mental life had begun,
that this gift had descended upon her--the donee had also been a member
of the A. A., and this striking endowment might just as well have
tarried a generation and a half longer.
She was by no means avid of publicity--people seldom are until they
have tasted of it--but she would have enjoyed a rapid and brilliant
development of her mental faculties with productiveness of some sort
either as a sequel or an interim. It was impossible to advance much
farther in her present circumstances.
No, she was far from perfect, and willing to admit it; but she had
always assumed that courage, moral as well as physical, was an
accompaniment of race, like breeding and certain automatic impulses.
But her hands were trembling and her cheeks drained of every drop of
color because she must have a plain and serious talk with a guilty
wretch. She had nothing to fear, but she could not have felt worse if
she had been the culprit herself. What was human nature but a bundle of
paradoxes?
At least she had the respite of the dinner hour. Only a fiend would
spoil a man's dinner--and cigar--no matter what he had done. That would
make the full time of her own respite about an hour and twenty minutes.
In a moment of panic she contemplated telephoning to Aileen and begging
her to come over to dinner. She also no doubt could get Bascom Luning
and Jimmie Thorne. Then it would not be possible to speak to Mortimer
before to-morrow as he always fell asleep at ten o'clock when there was
no dancing.... To-morrow it would be easier, and wiser. One should
never speak in anger....
But she was quite aware that her anger had burnt itself out. Her mind
felt as cold as her hands. Better have it over. She put on a severe
black frock, not only suitable to the occasion but as a protection from
disarming compliments. Mortimer, who dressed so well himself that it
would have been as impossible for him to overdress as to be rude to a
woman, disliked dark severity in woman's attire. He never criticized
his wife's clothes, but when they displeased him he ignored them with
delicate ostentation.
II
Alexina had begun to feel that she should scream in the complete
silence of the dining-room when Mortimer unexpectedly made a remark.
"Gora arrives to-morrow. Will you meet her? I shall not have time."
"Of course. I shall be delighted to see her again. It would have been
an ideal arrangement if I could have left her here with you when I went
to Europe."
"Yes. She was here for a week. I missed her when she left."
"W-h-at? When was she here? You never told me."
"I forgot. It was soon after you left. The ship was disabled--fire, I
think,--and put back. I asked her to stay here until the next sailing."
"How jolly."
Again there was a complete silence. But Alexina did not notice it. Her
brain was whirling. After all, she might be mistaken! Mortimer! He
might be innocent.... To think of Gora as a thief was fantastic ... was
it? ... Was she not Mortimer's sister? ... Why he rather than she? ...
And what after all did she know of Gora? ... She inspired some people
with distrust, even fear.... That might be the cause of Mortimer's
depression.... He knew it....
At all events it was a straw and she grasped it as if it had been a
plank in mid-ocean. With even a bare chance that Mortimer was innocent
it would be unpardonable to insult and wound him.... Nor was it quite
possible to ask him if his sister were a thief. She must wait, of
course.
And if Gora had taken the bonds they might be recovered. It would be
like a woman to secrete them in a reaction of terror after having
nerved herself up to the deed.
She wished that Gora had gone to Hong Kong. Bolted. Then she could be
certain. But at least she had a respite, and she felt so ebullient that
she almost forgot her loss, and swept Morty over to the Lawtons after
dinner; and the Judge took them all to the movies.
CHAPTER IX
I
Alexina would listen to no remonstrance. Gora might send her trunks to
Geary Street if she liked, but she must come home to Ballinger House
and spend at least one night with her brother and sister, who had
missed her quite dreadfully. Gora wondered how Alexina could have
missed her so touchingly in Europe, but accepted the invitation, as a
note from the surgeon to whom she had written by the previous steamer
asked her to hold herself in readiness for an operation a week hence.
Gora was looking remarkably well, and Alexina assumed it was not only
the six months of mountain life and the three months in the tropics.
She had an air of assured power, rarely absent in a woman who has found
herself and achieved a definite place in life. Besides being one of the
best nurses in San Francisco, in constant demand by the leading doctors
and surgeons, her short stories had attracted considerable attention in
the magazines, although no publisher would risk bringing them out in
book form. But they were invariably mentioned in any summary of the
year's best stories, one had been included in a volume of selected
short stories by modern authors, and one in a recent text-book compiled
for the benefit of aspirants in the same difficult art. The
remuneration had been insignificant, for her stories were not of the
popular order, and she had not yet the name that alone commands the
high reward; but she had advanced farther than many another as severely
handicapped, and she knew through her admiring sister-in-law and Aileen
Lawton that her stories were mentioned occasionally at a San Francisco
dinner table and even discussed! She was "arriving." No doubt of that.
II
"When will the novel come out? I can't wait."
"Not until the spring."
They were sitting in Alexina's room and Gora had been placed directly
in front of the cabinet, which she did not appear even to see. She had
taken off her hat and coat and was holding the heavy masses of hair
away from her head.
"Do you mind? I feel as if I had a twenty-pound weight...."
"What a question! Do what you want."
Gora took out the pins and let down her hair. It was not as fine as
Alexina's, but it was brown and warm and an unusual head of hair for
these days. It fell down both sides of her face, and her long cold
unrevealing eyes looked paler than ever between her sun-burned cheeks
and her low heavy brows.
Alexina knew that she had an antagonist far worthier of any weapons she
might find in her armory than poor Morty, but she believed she could
trap her if she were guilty.... And she must be ... she must....
"Didn't you find it too hot in the tropics for writing?"
"I only copied and revised. The book was finished before I left Lake
Tahoe-an ideal place for work. Some day I shall have a log cabin up
there. May I smoke?"
"Of course."
"It is almost a shame to desecrate a flower.... I used to come in here
sometimes and look round ... the week I spent here.... The room is a
poem ... like you.... Or rather the binding of the prose poem that is
Alexina."
"I'd love it if you made me the heroine of one of your novels."
"You'll have much more fun living it yourself."
"Fine chance. I don't suppose I'll ever get out of California again....
I am afraid that Morty is doing quite badly."
Gora shrugged her strong square shoulders. "I never expected anything
else. I asked him for another thousand dollars of my money when I was
here and he looked as if he had forgotten he owed me any. Just like a
man and Morty in particular. Then he said he expected to make an
immense profit on something or other he had ordered from the Orient and
would pay me off when I returned. Has he condescended to tell you
anything about his affairs?"
"Not a word. Did you need the money badly? If I had been here I could
have lent it to you."
"Thanks. I am sure you would. But I dislike the idea of borrowing. It
must be so depressing to pay back.... I was in no particular need of
it, for of course I've saved quite a bit. I merely have a natural
desire for my own and thought it was a good opportunity to strike
Morty.... I suppose he's been speculating. Fortunes have been made in
Tonopah, but he would be sure to buy at the wrong time or in the wrong
mine.... Has he ever asked you for money?"
"Never. He knows, too, that I have quite a sum in bonds that I could
convert into cash at once."
"Well, take my advice and hold on to them--to every cent you have.
Where do you keep them?"
"In the bank ... in a safe-deposit vault--Oh, how careless of me! I've
left the key out on the table! I usually keep it ... you remember ...
in the secret drawer of the cabinet."
"How I wish I had the courage to write a story about a secret drawer of
an old Italian cabinet! ... I wouldn't leave it lying about; although,
of course, no one could use it without a pass also."
"A what?"
"They use every precaution. I know, because when I nursed old Mrs.
Beresford for eight months, I was sent down to the vault twice."
Alexina's head was whirling. The blood burned and beat in her face.
"Even with her signature I couldn't get by the keeper the first time
because he didn't know me. I had to be identified by her lawyer."
"I like to feel so well taken care of. What shall you do if your novel
is a great success? Of course it will be. You would never go on being a
nurse."
"I am not so sure it will be a success. Neither is my publisher. He
wrote me a half-whimsical half-complimentary letter saying that I must
remember the average reader was utterly commonplace, with no education
in the higher sense, no imagination, had an extremely limited
vocabulary and thought and talked in ready-made phrases, composed for
the most part of the colloquialisms of the moment. Style, distinction
of mind, erected an almost visible wall between the ambitious writer
and this predominant class. If they found this sort of book
interesting-which as a rule they did not--they felt a sullen sense of
inferiority; and if there were too many unfamiliar words they pitched
it across the room with the ultimate adjective of their
disapproval--'highbrow.' But it is more the general atmosphere they
resent--would resent if the book were purposely written with the most
limited vocabulary possible."
"Our national self-sufficiency, I suppose. Also the fetish of equality
that still persists. We are the greatest nation on earth, of course,
but it isn't democratic for any one of us to be greater than the other."
"Exactly. I don't say I wouldn't write for the mob if I could. Nice
stories about nice people. Intimate life histories of commonplace 'real
Americans,' touched with a bit of romance, or tragedy-somewhere about
the middle--or adventure, with a bad man or woman for good measure and
to prove to the highbrows that the author is advanced and knows the
world as well as the next, even if he or she prefers to treat of the
more 'admirable aspects of our American life.' Unluckily I cannot read
such books nor write them. I was born with a passion for English and
the subtler psychology. I should be hopeless from any editor's or
publisher's standpoint if I didn't happen to have been fitted out with
a strong sense of drama. If I could only set my stage with commonplace,
people no doubt I'd make a roaring hit. But I can't and I won't. Who
has such a chance as an author to get away from commonplace people?
Fancy deliberately concocting new ones!"
"Not you! But you'll have some sort of success, all the same."
"Yes, there are publics. Perhaps I'll hypnotize one of them. As for the
financial end what I hope is that the book will give me a position that
will raise my prices in the magazines."
"You could live abroad very cheaply." Alexina raised her eyes a trifle
and looked as guileless as her words.
"Oh, be sure I'll go to Europe and stay there for years as soon as I
see my way ahead. I should find color in the very stones or the village
streets."
"I am told that you can find most comfortable quarters in some of those
English village inns, and for next to nothing. By the way, do you still
correspond with that Englishman who was here during the fire?"
"Gathbroke? Off and on. T send him my stories and he writes a humorous
sort of criticism of each; says that as I have no humor lie feels a
sort of urge to apply a little somewhere."
"How interesting. He didn't strike me as humorous."
"I fancy he wasn't more than about one-fifth developed when he was
here. Men like that, with his advantages, go ahead very rapidly when
they get into their stride. He has already developed from business into
politics--he is in Parliament--and that is the second long stride he
has taken in the past seven years."
"How interesting it will be for you two to meet, again." Alexina spoke
with languid politeness.
Gora shrugged her shoulders, "If we do." She might not be able to show
the under-white of her eyes arid look like a seraph, but she had her
voice, her features, under perfect control, and she had never been
quick to blush. She did not suspect that Alexina was angling, but the
very sound of Gathbroke's name was enough to put up her guard.
"You must have had several proposals, Gora dear. Your profession is
almost as good as a matrimonial bureau. And you look too fetching for
words in that uniform and cap."
"I've had just two proposals. One was from an old rancher who liked the
way I turned him over in bed and rubbed his back. The other was--well,
a nice fellow, and quite well off. But I'm not keen on marrying any
one."
"Still, if it gave you that much more independence and leisure ...
travel ... a wider life...."
"I'd only consider marrying for two reasons: If I met a man who had the
power to make me quite mad about him, or one who could give me a great
position in the world and was not wholly obnoxious. Otherwise, I prefer
to trot alone. Why not? At least I escape monotony; I have what after
all is the most precious thing in life, complete personal freedom; and
if I succeed with my writing I can see the world and attain to position
without the aid of any man. If I don't, I don't, and that is the end of
it. I'm a bit of a fatalist, I think, although to be sure when I want a
thing badly enough I forget all about that and fight like the devil."
Alexina looked at the square face of her strange sister-in-law, so
unlike her brother; at the high cheek bones, the heavy low brows over
the cold light eyes, the powerful jaw, the wide firm but mobile mouth.
"Have you any Eussian blood?"' she asked. "'Way back?"
"Not that I know of. But after all I know little about my family,
outside of the one ancestor that anchors us in the Revolutionary era.
He or his son or his son's son may have married a Russian or a
Mongolian for all I know. Perhaps some one of my old aunts may have
worked out a family tree in cross-stitch, but if so I never heard of
it. Well, I'm off to clean up for dinner."
Alexina for the first time in their acquaintance flung her arms round
Gora's neck and kissed her warmly. Truth to tell her conscience was
smarting, although she was able to assure herself that not for a moment
had she really believed her sister-in-law to be guilty; she had merely
grasped at a straw. Gora returned the embrace gratefully and without
suspicion. As ever, she was a little sorry for Alexina.
CHAPTER X
I
Alexina felt only an intolerable ennui. Gora had gone in the morning;
she sat alone in her room. Of course she must have that explanation
with Mortimer, but any time before the first of the month would do. She
was far less concerned with that now than with the problem: what to do
with her life. How was she to continue to live in the same house with
him? Perhaps in far smaller quarters than these? For she could not
leave him. She had no visible excuse, and no desire to admit to the
world that she had made woman's superlative mistake.
She scowled at the lovely room in which she had expected to find
compensation in dreams, the setting for an unreal and enchanted world.
Dreams had died out of her. For the first time in her sheltered
existence she appreciated the grim reality of life. She was no longer
sheltered, secluded, one of the "fortunate class." Ways and means would
occupy most of her time henceforth. And it was not the privations she
shrank from but the contacts with the ugly facts of life; a side she
had found extremely picturesque in novels, but knew from, occasional
glimpses to be merely repulsive and demoralizing.
And of whom could she ask advice! She must make changes and make them
quickly. Four thousand dollars a year! ... and taxes--besides the new
income tax--to be paid on the downtown property, the fiats, the land on
which her home stood, Ballinger House itself and all its contents.
She knew vaguely that many girls these days were given special training
of some sort even where their parents were well off; but more
particularly where the father was what is known as a high-salaried man;
or even a moderately successful professional or business man--all of
whose expenses arid incomes balanced too nicely for investments.
Not in her set! Joan, bored after her third season with dancing in
winter and "sitting round Alta" in summer, had asked permission to
become a trained nurse like Gora, or go into the decorating business,
"any old thing"; and Maria Abbott had simply stared at her in horror;
even her father had asked her angrily if she wished to disgrace him,
advertise him as unable to provide for his family. No self-respecting
American, etc.
But something must be done. She wished to live on in Ballinger House if
possible, not only because she loved it, or to avoid the commiserations
of the world; she had no desire to live in narrow quarters with her
husband.... And she knew nothing, was fit for nothing, belonged to a
silly class that still looked upon women workers as de-classed,
although to be sure two or three whose husbands had left them penniless
had gone into business and were loyally tolerated, if deeply deplored.
The day after her return from Europe Alice Thorndyke had come into this
room and thrown herself down on the couch, her long, languorous body
looking as if set on steel springs, her angelic blonde beauty distorted
with fury and disgust, and poured out her hatred of men and all their
ways, her loathing for society and gambling and all the stupid vicious
round of the life both public and secret she had elected to lead....
She had had enough of it.... After all, she had some brains and she
wanted to use them. She wanted to go into the decorating business.
There was an opening. She had a natural flair for that sort of thing.
See what she had managed to do with that old ark she had inherited, and
on five cents a year.... When she had asked her sister to advance the
money Sibyl had flown into one of her worst rages and thrown a gold
hair brush through a Venetian mirror. Didn't she give her clothes by
the dozen that she hadn't worn a month? Did any girl have a better time
in society? Was any girl luckier at poker? Was any girl more popular
with men--too bad it was generally the married ones that lost their
heads.... Better if she stopped fooling and married. By and by it would
be too late.
But she didn't want to marry. She was sick of men. She wanted to get
out of her old life altogether and cultivate a side of her mind and
character that had stagnated so far ... also to enjoy the independent
life of a money-earner ... life in an entirely different world ...
something new ... new ... new.
Alexina had offered to lend her the capital, for Alice had a hard cool
head. But she had refused, saying she could mortgage her old barrack if
it came to that ... but she didn't know ... it would be a break.... Sib
might never speak to her again ... people were such snobs ... and she
mightn't like it ... she wished she had been born of poor but honest
parents and put to work in a canning factory or married the plumber.
She had done nothing, and Alexina wondered if she would have the
courage to go into some sort of business with herself ... they could
give out they were bored, seeking a new distraction ... save the
precious pride of their families.
She leaned forward and took her head in her hands. If she only had some
one to talk things over with. It was impossible to confide in Gora, in
any one. If she broached the subject to Tom Abbott, to Judge Lawton,
even in a roundabout way, they would suspect at once. Aileen and Janet
and the other girls did not know enough. They would suspect also. But
her head would burst if she didn't consult some one. She was too
horribly alone. And after all she was still very young. She had talked
largely of her responsibilities, but as a matter of fact until now she
had never had one worth the name.
Suddenly she thought of James Kirkpatrick.
II
The lessons in socialism had died a natural death long since. But
Alexina and Aileen and Janet had never quite let him go. Whenever there
was a great strike on, either in California or in any part of the
nation, they invited him to take tea with them at least once a week
while it lasted and tell them all the "ins." This he was nothing loath
to do, and waived the question of remuneration aside with a gesture. He
was now a foreman, and vice-president of his union, and it gave him a
distinct satisfaction to confer a favor upon these "lofty dames," whom,
however, he liked better as time went on. Alexina he had always
worshiped and the only time he ceased to be a socialist was when he
ground his teeth and cursed fate for not making him a gentleman and
giving him a chance before she was corralled by that sawdust dude.
He had also remained on friendly terms with Gora, who had
cold-bloodedly studied him and made him the hero of a grim strike
story. But as he never read polite literature their friendship was
unimpaired.
II
He came to tea that afternoon in response to a telephone call from
Alexina. She had put on a tea gown of periwinkle blue chiffon and a
silver fillet about her head, and looked to Mr. Kirkpatrick's
despairing gaze as she intended to look--beautiful, of course, but less
woman than goddess. Exquisite but not tempting. She was quite aware of
the young workman's hopeless passion and she managed him as skillfully
as she did the more assured, sophisticated, and sometimes "illuminated"
Jimmie Thorne and Bascom Luning.
She received him in the great drawing-room behind the tea-table, laden
with the massive silver of dead and gone Ballingers.
"I've only been home a week," she said gayly. "See what a good friend I
am. I've scarcely seen any one. Did you get my post cards?"
"I did and I've framed them, if you don't mind my saying so."
"I hoped you would. I picked out the prettiest I could find. They do
have such beauties in Europe. Just think, it was my first visit. I was
wildly excited. Wouldn't you like to go?"
"Naw. America's good enough for me. 'Fris--oh, Lord! San Francisco--for
that matter. I'd like to go to the next International Socialist
Congress all right--next year. Maybe I will. I guess that would give me
enough of Europe to last me the rest of my natural life."
"I met a good many Frenchmen, and I have a friend married to a very
clever one. He says they expect a war with Germany in a year two--"
"There'll never be another war. Not in Europe or anywhere else. The
socialists won't permit it."
"There are a good many socialists--and syndicalists--in France, and
it's quite true they're doing all they can to prevent any money being
voted for the army or expended if it is voted; but I happen to know
that the Government has asked the president of the Red Cross to train
as many nurses as she can induce to volunteer, and as quickly as
possible. My friend Madame Morsigny was to begin her training a few
days after I left."
"Hm. So. I hadn't heard a word of it."
"We get so much European news out here! America first! Especially in
the matter of murders and hold-ups. Who cares for a possible war in
Europe when the headlines are as black as the local crimes they
announce?"
"Sure thing. Great little old papers. But don't let any talk of war
from anywhere at all worry you. And I'll tell you why. At the last
International Congress all the socialists of all the nations were ready
to agree that all labor should lay down its tools--quit work--go on a
colossal strike--the moment those blood-sucking capitalists at the top,
those sawdust kings and kaisers and tsars--or any president for that
matter--declared war for any cause whatsoever. All, that is, but the
German delegates. They couldn't see the light. Now they have. When we
meet next August the resolution will be unanimous. Take it from me.
You've read of your last war in some old history book. Peace from now
on, and thank the socialists."
"I should. But suppose Germany should declare war before next August?"
"She won't. She ain't ready. She'd have done it after that there
'Agadir Incident' if she'd dared. That is to say been good and ready.
Now she's got to wait for another good excuse and there ain't one in
sight."
"But you believe she'd like to precipitate a war in Europe for her own
purposes?"
"She'd like it all right." And he quoted freely from Treitschke and
Bernhardi, while Alexina as ever looked at him in wonder. He seemed to
be more deeply read every time she met him, and he remained exactly the
same James Kirkpatrick. "What an adventitious thing breeding was!
Mortimer had it!"
"Well, I am glad I spoke of it. You have relieved my mind, for you
speak as one with authority.... There is something else I want to talk
to you about.... A friend of mine is in a dilemma and I don't quite
know how to advise her.... We're all such a silly set of moths--"
"No moth about you!" interrupted Mr. Kirkpatrick firmly. "Some of
them--those others, if you like. The only redeeming virtue I can see in
most of them is that they are what they are and don't give a damn. But
you--you've got more brains and common sense than the whole bunch of
women in this town put together."
"Oh, dear! Oh, dear! I'm afraid I've addled my brains trying to
cultivate them, and what I'm more afraid of is that I've addled my
common sense." She spoke with such gayety, with such a roguish twinkle,
and curve of lip, that neither then nor later did he suspect that she
was the heroine of her own tale.
"Well, fire away. No, thanks, no more. I only drink tea to please you
anyway. Tea is so much hot water to me."
"Well, smoke." She pushed the box of cigarettes toward him. "I know you
smoke a pipe, but I won't let my husband smoke one at home. It's bad
for my curtains.... This is it--One of my friends, poor thing, has had
a terrible experience: discovered that her husband has stolen the part
of her little fortune whose income enabled them to do something more
than keep alive. You see, it's a sad case. She believed in him, and he
had always been the most honest creature in the world; and that's as
much of a blow as the loss of the money."
"What'd he do it for?"
"Oh, I know so little about business ... he wanted to get rich too
quickly I suppose ... speculated or something ... perhaps got into a
hole. This has been a bad year."
"Poor chap!" said Kirkpatriek reflectively.
"You're not commiserating _him_?"
"Ain't I, just? He done it, didn't he? He's got to pay the piper,
hasn't he? Women don't know anything about the awful struggles and
temptations of the rotten business world. He didn't do it because he
wanted to, you can bet your life on that. He's just another poor victim
of a vicious system. A fly in the same old web; same old fat spider in
the middle! Not capital enough. Hard times and the little man goes
under, no matter if he's a darn sight better fellow than the bloated
beast on top--"
"You mean if we were living in the Socialistic Utopia no man could go
under?"
"I mean just that. It's a sin and a shame, A fine young fellow--"
"Remember, you don't know anything about him. He's not a bad sort and
has always been quite honest before; but he's not very clever. If he
were he wouldn't have got himself into a predicament. He had a good
start, far better than nine-tenths of the millionaires in this country
had in their youth."
"Oh, I don't care anything about that. If all men were equally clever
in chasing the almighty dollar there'd be no excuse for socialism. It's
our job to displace the present rotten system of government with one in
which the weak couldn't be crowded out, where all that are willing to
work will have an equal chance--and those that ain't willing will have
to work anyhow or starve.... One of the thousand things the matter with
the present system is that the square man is so often in the round
hole. In the socialized state every man will be guided to the place
which exactly fits his abilities. No weaker to the wall there."
"You think you can defy Nature to that extent!"
"You bet."
"Well. I'm too much distracted by my friend's predicament to discuss
socialism.... I rather like the idea though of the strong man having
the opportunity to prove himself stronger than Life ... find out what,
he was put on earth and endowed with certain characteristics for ...
rather a pity all that should atrophy.... However--what shall my friend
do? Continue to live with a man she despises?"
"She's no right to despise him or anybody. It's the system, I tell you.
And no doubt she's just as weak in some way herself. Every man jack of
us is so chuck full of faults and potential crime it's a wonder we
don't break out every day in the week, and if women are going to desert
us when the old Adam runs head on into some one of the devilish traps
the present civilization has set out all over the place, instead of
being able to sidestep it once more, well--she'd best divorce herself
from the idea of matrimony before she goes in for the thing itself.
Would I desert my brother if he got into trouble? Would you?"
"N--o, I suppose you are right, and I doubt if she would leave him
anyway. However ... there's the other aspect. What can a woman in her
position do to help matters out? You have met a good many of her kind
here. Fancy Miss Lawton or Mrs. Bascom or Miss Maynard forced to work--"
"I can't. If I had imagination enough for that I'd be writin' novels
like Miss Dwight."
"I believe they'd do better than you think. Well, this friend isn't
quite so much absorbed in society and poker and dress. She's more
like--well, there's Mrs. Ruyler, for instance. She was very much like
the rest of us, and now we never see her. She's as devoted to ranching
as her husband."
"There was sound bourgeois French blood there," he said shrewdly. "And
she wasn't brought up like the rest of you. Don't you forget that."
"Then you think we're hopeless?"
"No, I don't. Three or four women of your crowd--a little older, that's
all--are doin' first-rate in business, and they were light-headed
enough in their time, I'll warrant. And you, for instance--if you came
up against it--"
"Yes? What could I do?" cried Alexina gayly. "But alas! you admit you
have no imagination."
"Don't need any. You'd be good for several things. You could go into
the insurance business like Mrs. Lake, or into real estate like Mrs.
Cole--people like to have a pretty and stylish young lady showin' 'em
round flats. Or you could buy an orchard like the Ruylers--that'd
require capital. If we had the socialistic state you'd be put on one of
the thinking boards, so to speak. That's the point. You've got no
training, but you've got a thinker. You'd soon learn. But I'm not so
sure of your friend. Somehow, you've given me the impression she's just
one of these lady-birds."
"I'm afraid she is," said Alexina with a sigh. "But you're so good to
take an interest.... Suppose you had the socialistic state
now--to-morrow, what would you do with all these--lady-birds?"
"I'd put 'em in a sanatorium until they got their nerves patched up,
and then I'd turn 'em over to a trainer who'd put them into a normal
physical condition; and then I'd put 'em at hard labor--every last one
of 'em."
"Oh, dear, Mr. Kirkpatrick, would you?"
"Yes," he said grimly. "It 'ud be their turn."
CHAPTER XI
I
She walked down the avenue with him, listening to his angry account of
the great coal strike in West Virginia, where the families of miners in
their beds had been fired on from armored motor cars, and both strikers
and civilians were armed to the teeth.
"That's the kind of war--civil war--we can't prevent--not yet. No
wonder some of us want quick action and turn into I.W.Ws. Of course
they're fools, just poor boobs, to think they can win out that way, but
you can't blame 'em. Lord, if we only _could_ move a little faster. If
Marx had been a good prophet we'd have the socialized state to-day.
Things didn't turn out according to Hoyle. Lots of the proletariat
ain't proletariat any longer, instead of overrunning the earth; and in
place of a handful of great capitalists to fight we've a few hundred
thousand little capitalists, or good wage earners with white collars
on, that have about as much use for socialism as they have for
man-eating tigers. I'm thinking about this country principally. Too
much chance for the individual. Trouble is, the individual, like as
not, don't know what's good for him and goes under, like the man you've
been telling me about."
"There's only one thing I apprehend in your socialistic state," said
Alexina, who always became frivolous when Kirkpatrick waxed serious,
"and that is universal dissolution from sheer ennui. Either that or
we'll go on eternally rowing about something else. Earth has never been
free from war since the beginning of history, and there is trouble of
some sort going on somewhere all the time--"
"All due to capitalism."
"Capitalism hasn't always existed."
"Human greed has, and the dominance of the strong over the weak."
"Exactly, and socialism if she ever gets her chance will dominate all
she knows how. Remember what you said just now about forcing the
pampered women to work when they were the underdog. But the point is
that Nature made Earthians a fighting breed. She must have had a good
laugh when we named another planet Mars."
"Well, we'll fight about worthier things."
"Don't be too sure. We fight about other things now. All the trouble in
the world isn't caused by money or the want of it. And what about the
religious wars--"
III
It was at this inopportune moment that they met Mortimer. If Alexina
had remembered that this was his homing hour she would have parted from
her visitor at the drawing-room door; but in truth she had dismissed
Mortimer from her mind.
He halted some paces off and glared from his wife's diaphanous costume
to the workman in his rough clothes and flannel shirt. As the avenue
sloped abruptly he was at a disadvantage, and it was all he could do to
keep from grinding his teeth.
Alexina went forward and placed her hand within his arm, giving it a
warning pressure.
"Now, at last, you and Mr. Kirkpatrick will meet. You've always so
snubbed our little attempts to understand some of the things that men
know all about, that you've never met any of our teachers. But no one
has taught, me as much as Mr. Kirkpatrick, so shake hands at once and
be friends."
Mortimer extended a straight and wooden hand. Kirkpatrick touched, and
dropped it as if lie feared contamination, Mortimer ascended a few
steps and from this point of vantage looked down his unmitigated
disapproval and contempt. Kirkpatrick would have given his hopes of the
speedy demise of capitalism if Alexina had picked up her periwinkle
skirts and fled up the avenue. His big hands clenched, he thrust out
his pugnacious jaw, his hard little eyes glowed like poisonous coals.
Mortimer, to do him justice, was entirely without physical cowardice,
and continued to look like a stage lord dismissing a varlet.
Kirkpatrick caught Alexina's imploring eyes and turned abruptly on his
heel, "So long," he said. "Guess I'd better be getting on."
IV
"I won't have that fellow in the house," said Mortimer, in a low tone
of white fury. "To think that my wife--my wife--"
"If you don't mind we won't talk about it."
Alexina was on the opposite side of the avenue and her head was in the
air. She had long since ceased to carry her spine in a tubercular droop
and when she chose she could draw her body up until it seemed to
elongate like the neck of a giraffe, and overtop Mortimer or whoever
happened to have incurred her wrath.
Mortimer glowered at her. He had many grievances. For the moment he
forgot that she might have any against him.
"And out here in broad daylight, almost on the street, in that tea
gown--"
"I have often been quite on the street in similar ones. Going over to
Aileen's. You forget that the Western Addition is like a great park set
with the homes of people more or less intimate."
Mortimer made no further remarks. He had never pretended to be a match
for her in words. But the agitating incident seemed to have lifted him
temporarily at least out of the nether depths of his depression, for
although he talked little at dinner he appeared to eat with more
relish. As he settled himself to his cigar in a comfortable wicker
chair on the terrace and she was about to return to the house he spoke
abruptly in a faint firm voice.
"Will you stay here? I've got something to say to you."
"Oh?"
She wheeled about. His face was a sickly greenish white in the heavy
shade of the trees.
"It's--it's--something I've been wanting to say--tell you ... as well
now as any time."
"Oh, very well. I must write just one letter."
She ran into the house and up the stairs and shut herself in the
library, breathless, panic-stricken. He was going to confess! How
awful! How awful! How could she ever go through with it? Why, why,
hadn't she spoken at once and got it over?
She sat quite still until she had ceased trembling and her heart no
longer pounded and affected her breathing. Then she set her teeth and
went downstairs.
CHAPTER XII
I
Mortimer was walking up and down the hall.
"Come in here," he said. He entered the drawing-room, and Alexina
followed like a culprit led to the bar. Nevertheless, it crossed her
mind that he wanted the moral support of a mantelpiece.
She almost stumbled into a chair. Mortimer did not avail himself of the
chimneypiece toward which he had unconsciously gravitated, but walked
back and forth. Two electric lights hidden under lamp shades were
burning, but the large room was rather somber.
Alexina composed herself once more with a violent effort and asked in a
crisp tone: "Well? What is this mystery? Are you in love with some one
else? Been, making love--"
"Alexina!"
He confronted her with stricken eyes. "You know that I am literally
incapable of such a thing. But of course you were jesting."
"Of course. But something is so manifestly wrong with you, and ... well
... of course you would be justified."
"Not in my own eyes. Besides, I shall never give up the hope of winning
you back again. I live for that ... although now! ... that is the whole
trouble.... How am I going to say it?"
"Well, let me help you out. You took the bonds."
"You've been to the bank! I wanted to tell you first ... the day you
came back.... I couldn't...."
"There is only one thing I am really curious about. How did you get in?
Of course you knew where I kept the key, but--"
"I--" His voice was so lifeless that if dead men could speak it must be
in the same flat faint tones. "I had the old power of attorney."
"But I revoked it."
"I mean the instrument--the paper. You did not ask for it. I did not
think of it either.... I trusted to the keeper taking it on its face
value, not looking it up. He didn't. You see--" He gave a dreadful sort
of laugh. "I am well known and have a good reputation."
"Why didn't you cable and ask me to lend you the money?"
"There wasn't time. Besides, you might have refused. I was desperate--"
"I don't want to hear the particulars. I am not in the least curious.
What I must talk to you about--"
"I must tell you the whole thing. I can't go about with it any longer.
Then, perhaps, you will understand."
His voice was still flat and as he continued to walk he seemed to draw
half-paralyzed legs after him. Alexina set her lips and stared at the
floor. He meant to talk. No getting out of it.
"I--I--have only done well occasionally since the very first. It didn't
matter so long as your mother was alive, and for a little while after.
But when you took things into your own hands ... after that it was
capital I turned over to you nearly every month--hardly ever profits."
"What? Why didn't you tell me?"
"I hadn't the courage. I was too anxious to stand well with you. And I
always hoped, believed, I would do better as times improved. I had
great hopes of myself and I had a pretty good start. But as time went
on I grew to understand that my abilities were third-rate. I should
have done all right with a large capital--say a hundred and fifty
thousand dollars--but only a man far cleverer than I am could have got
anywhere in that business with a paltry sixteen thousand to begin on. I
got one or two connections and did pretty well, off and on, for a time;
but if I hadn't made one or two lucky strikes in stocks my capital
would simply have run away in household expenses long ago."
"Then why did you join that expensive club?"
"It was good business," he said evasively. "I meet the right sort of
men there. That's where I got my stock pointers."
"Did you take the bonds to gamble with?"
"No. I'd never have done that. I gambled in another way, though. I
thought I saw a chance to sell a certain commodity at that particular
time and I plunged and sent for a large quantity of it. It looked sure.
I have a friend over there and got it on credit. I banked on an
immediate sale and a big profit. But something delayed the shipping in
Hong Kong. When it arrived the market was swamped. Some one else had
had the same idea. I had to pay for the goods, as well as other big
outstanding bills, or go into bankruptcy. So I took the bonds. It
wasn't easy. But there was nothing else to do.... There were about ten
thousand dollars left and I tried another coup. That failed too."
"How is it possible to go on with the business?"
"It isn't. I have closed out. But I have escaped bankruptcy. People on
the street think that I wanted to get into the real estate
business--with Andrew Weston, a young man who has recently come here
from Los Angeles. He's doing fairly well and has a good office. He
wanted a hustler and a partner who had good connections. But it is slow
work. There are the old firms, again, to compete with. I wouldn't have
looked at it if I'd had any choice, but it was a case of a port in a
storm."
"Well? Is that all? There is another matter to discuss. Our future mode
of living."
"No, it isn't all. I wish you would tell Gora something. I can never go
through this again. While she was away--in Honolulu--that lawyer of my
aunt sent out ten thousand dollars' worth more of stock, that had been
looked upon as so much waste paper, but suddenly appreciated--some
little railroad that was abandoned half finished, but has since been
completed. This had been left to Gora alone. We had some correspondence
and he sent it to me as Gora was traveling. It came at the wrong time
for me ... on top of everything else.... I plunged in a new mine Bob
Cheever and Baseom Luning were interested in. It turned out to be no
good. We lost every cent."
II
Alexina sat cold and rigid. Once she pinched her arm. She fancied it
had turned to stone.
He dropped into a chair and leaning forward twisted his hands together.
"If you knew ... if you knew ... what I have been through.... At first
it was only the anxiety and excitement. But afterward, when it was over
... when there was nothing left to speculate with ... then I realized
what I had done ... I ... a thief ... a thief.... I had been so proud
of my honor, my honesty. I never had believed that I could even be
tempted. And I went to pieces like a cheaply built schooner in its
first storm. There's nothing, it seems, in being well brought up, when
circumstances are too strong for you."
Alexina forebore the obvious reply. "Of course you were a little mad,"
she said, rather at a loss.
"No, I wasn't. I'd always been a cool speculator, and I'd never taken
long chances in business before. It all looked too good and I got in
too deep. But if I could have repaid it all I'd feel nearly as
demoralized. That I should have stolen ... and from women...."
Again Alexina restrained herself. The dead monotonous voice went on.
"I thought once or twice of killing myself. It didn't seem to me that I
had the right to live. I had always had the best ideals, the strictest
sense of right and wrong ... It does not seem possible even now."
Alexina could endure no more. Another moment and she felt that she
should be looking straight into a naked soul. She felt so sorry for him
that she quite forgot her own wrongs or her horror of his misdeeds. She
wished that she still loved him, he looked so forlorn and in need of
the physical demonstrations of sympathy; but although she was prepared
to defend him if need be, and help him as best she could, she felt that
she would willingly die rather than touch him.... She wondered if souls
in dissolution subtly wafted their odors of corruption if you drew too
close....
"Well, what is done is done," she said briskly. "I'll tell Gora and
engage that she will never mention it. You have suffered enough. Now
let us discuss ways and means. Does this new business permit you to
contribute anything to the household expenses?"
"I'm afraid not. It takes time to work up a business."
"Then we must live on what I have left, and you know what taxes are. I
suppose I had better look for a job."
"What?" He seemed to spring out of his apathy, and stared at her
incredulously. "You?"
"Yes. We must have more money. I could sell the flats and go into the
decorating business."
"And advertise to all San Francisco that I am a failure! Do you think I
could fool them then!"
"Are you sure you have fooled them now! They must know you would have
stuck to the old business if it had paid."
"It isn't the first time a man has changed his business. But if you go
out to earn money--why, I'd be a laughing stock."
"Then we shall have to give up the house. The city has long wanted this
lot--"
"That would never do, either. Everybody knows how devoted you are to
your old home ... and after fixing it up...."
"Well, what, do you suggest? You know perfectly well we can't go on."
"My brain seems to have stopped. I can't do much thinking. But ... well
... you might sell the flats and we could go on as before until my
business begins to pay."
"Sacrifice more of my capital? That I won't do. Why don't you see if
you can get back with Cheever Harrison and Cheever? I know that Bob--"
"I won't go back to being a salaried man. You can't go back like that
when you've been in the other class." He beat a fist into a palm. "Why
couldn't Bob Cheever have left me alone? So long as I didn't know
anything about Society I never thought about it. Why couldn't your
family have let me stay where I was? I should have been head clerk with
a good salary by this time, and we would have arranged our expenses
accordingly when your mother died. Why can't men give a young fellow a
better chance when he goes into business for himself? Every man trying
to cut every other man's throat. What chance has a young fellow with a
small capital?"
"Do you know that you have blamed everybody but yourself? However ...
perhaps you are right.... Mr. Kirkpatrick puts it down to the system. I
feel more inclined to trace it straight back to old Dame Nature--all
the ancestral inheritances down in our sub-cellars. We are as we are
made and our characters are certainly our fate. I suppose you will at
least resign from the club?"
He set his lips in the hard line that made him look the man of
character his ancestor, John Dwight, had been when he legislated in the
first Congress. "No, I shall not resign. It would be bad business in
two ways: they would know I was hard up, and I should no longer meet in
the same way the men who can give me a leg up in business."
"Are you sure those are the only reasons?"
To this he did not deign to reply, and she asked: "Do you mean that you
shall go on speculating?"
"I've nothing to speculate with. I mean that the men I cultivate can
help me in business."
"They don't seem to have done much in the past. However ... At least
I'll send in our resignations to the Golf Club. As we use it so seldom
no one will notice. Now I'm going upstairs to think it all over.
To-morrow I shall do something. I don't know what it will be, yet."
He stood up. "Promise me," he said with firm masculine insistence,
"that you will neither go into any sort of money-making scheme or sell
this house." His tones had distinctly more life in them and he had
recovered his usual bearing of the lordly but gallant male. His eyes
were as stern as his lips.
Alexina stared at him for a moment in amazement, then reflected that
apparently the stupider a man was the more difficult he was to
understand. She nodded amiably.
"No doubt I'll think of some other way out. Will let you know at dinner
time. Don't expect me at breakfast. Good-night."
CHAPTER XIII
I
Alexina was driving her little car up the avenue at Rincona on the
following morning when she saw Joan running toward her through the park
and signaling to her to stop.
"What is it?" she asked in some alarm as Joan arrived panting. "Any one
ill?"
"Not so's you'd notice it. Leave your car here and come with me. Sneak
after me quietly and don't say a word."
Much mystified, Alexina ran her car off the road and followed her niece
by a devious route toward the house. Joan interested her mildly; she
had fulfilled some of her predictions but not all. She did not go with
the "fast set" even of the immediate neighborhood; that is to say the
small group called upon, as they indubitably "belonged," but wholly
disapproved of, who entertained in some form or other every day and
every night, played poker for staggering stakes, danced the wildest of
the new dances, made up brazenly, and found tea and coffee indifferent
stimulants. Two of Joan's former schoolmates belonged to this active
set, but she was only permitted to meet them at formal dinners and
large parties. She had rebelled at first, but her mother's firm hand
was too much for her still undeveloped will, and later she had
concluded "there was nothing in it anyhow; just the whole tiresome
society game raised to the nth degree." Moreover, she was socially as
conventional as her mother and her good gray aunts, and although full
of the mischief of youth, and longing to "do something," no prince
having captured her fancy, enough of what Alexina called the sound
Ballinger instincts remained to make her disapprove of "fast lots," and
she had progressed from radical eighteen to critical twenty-one. She
worked off her superfluous spirits at the outdoor games which may be
indulged in California for eight months of the year, rode horseback
every day, used all her brothers' slang she could remember when in the
society of such uncritical friends as her young Aunt Alexina, and bided
her time. Sooner or later she was determined to "get out and
hustle,"--"shake a leg." That would be the only complete change from
her present life, not matrimony and running with fast sets. She wanted
more money, she wanted to live alone, and, while devoted to her family,
she wanted interests they could not furnish, "no, not in a thousand
years."
II
Joan's slim boyish athletic figure darted on ahead and then approached
the rear of the house on tiptoe. Alexina followed in the same stealthy
fashion, feeling no older at the moment than her niece. The verandah
did not extend as far as the music room, which had been built a
generation later, and the windows were some eight feet from the ground.
A ladder, however, abridged the distance, and Alexina, obeying a
gesture from Joan, climbed as hastily as her narrow skirt would permit
and peered through the outside shutters, which had been carefully
closed.
The room was not dark, however. The electricity had been turned on and
shone down upon an amazing sight.
Clad in black bloomers and stockings lay a row of six women flat on the
floor, while in front of them stood a woman thin to emaciation, who was
evidently talking rapidly. Alexina's mouth opened as widely as her
eyes. She had heard of Devil Worship, of strange and awful rites that
took place at midnight in wickedest Paris. Had an expurgated edition
been brought to chaste Alta--plus Menlo--plus Atherton, by Mrs. Hunter
or Mrs. Thornton, or any of those fortunate Californians who visited
the headquarters of fashion and sin once a year? They would do a good
deal to vary the monotony of life. But that they should have corrupted
Maria ... the impeccable, the superior, the unreorientable Maria!
Maria, with whom contentment and conservatism were the first articles
of the domestic and the socio-religious creed!
For there lay Maria, extended full length; and on her calm white face
was a look of unholy joy. Beside her, as flat as if glued to the inlaid
floor, were Mrs. Hunter, Mrs. Thornton, Coralie Geary, Mrs. Brannan,
another old friend of Maria, and--yes--Tom's sister, Susan Delling,
austere in her virtues, kind to all, conscientiously smart, and with a
fine mahogany complexion that made even a merely powdered woman feel
not so much a harlot as a social inferior.
What on earth ... what on earth....
The thin loquacious stranger clapped her hands. Up went six pairs of
legs. Two remained in mid-air, Mrs. Geary's and Mrs. Brannan's having
met an immovable obstacle shortly above the hip-joints. Three bent
backward slowly but surely until they approached the region of the
neck. Maria's flew unerringly, effortlessly, up, back, until they
tapped the floor behind her head. Alexina almost shouted "Bravo." Maria
was a real sport.
Six times they repeated this fascinating rite, and then, obeying
another peremptory command, they rolled over abruptly and balanced on
all fours. Alexina could stand no more. She dropped down the ladder and
ran after Joan, who was disappearing round the corner of the house.
III
"Well, I never!" she exclaimed. "Maria! Your mo--"
"She gained three pounds, for the first time in her life, and you know
her figure is her only vanity. This woman came along and the whole
Peninsula is crazy about her. She's taken the fat off every woman in
New York, and came out with letters to a lot of women. Mother fell for
her hard. I nearly passed away when I peeked through that shutter the
first time. Mother! She's the best of the bunch, though. But they're
all having a perfectly grand time. New interest for middle-age--what?"
"Don't be cruel. Heavens, how hot they all looked! I could hear them
gasp. Hope their arteries are all right. Are they going to stay to
lunch?"
"No. There's a big one on in Burlingame. Mother's not going, though.
It's at that Mrs. Cutts', new Burlingame stormer, that Anne Montgomery
coaches and caters for and who gives wonderful entertainments. Mother
and Aunt Susan won't go, but nearly all the others do."
"Anne Montgomery. I haven't seen her since mother died."
"You look as if an idea had struck you. She's useful no end, they say;
is now a social secretary to a lot of new people, and sells the 'real
lace' and other superfluous luxuries of some of our old families for
the cold coin that buys comforts."
"Fine idea. But I'm glad your mother will be alone. I've come down to
have a talk with her."
"Thanks. I'll take the hint."
CHAPTER XIV
I
Alexina went up to Joan's room to remain until the gong sounded for
luncheon, when she drifted down innocently and kissed the somewhat
furtive-looking Maria, who was in chaste duck and fresh from a bath.
"So glad to see you, darling," she murmured almost effusively. "I hope
you haven't waited long. A number of my friends have a lesson every
Thursday morning, and meet at one house or another."
"Irregular French verbs, I suppose. So fascinating, and one does forget
so. I thought I'd never brush up my French."
Not for anything would she have forced Maria into the most innocent
equivocation, and she rattled on about her wonderful summer as people
are expected to do after their first visit to Europe.
No time could have been more propitious for this necessary
understanding with Maria, who was feeling amiable, apologetic, as
limber as Joan, and almost as warm. She had also lost two-thirds of a
pound.
II
Alexina began as soon as Joan left them alone on the shady side of the
wide piazza.
"I have a lot of things to tell you," she said nervously. "I have to
make certain economies and I want the benefit of your advice."
Mrs. Abbott looked up from her embroidery. "Of course, darling. I was
afraid you were going a little too fast for young people."
"That is not it. I always managed well enough.... You know we've never
gone the limit: polo at Burlingame and Monterey, gambling, big parties
and all the rest of it. I've never run into debt or spent any of my
capital. But..."
Maria began to feel anxious and took off the large round shell-rimmed
spectacles that enlarged stitches and print. "Yes?"
"You know I had bonds--about forty thousand dollars' worth--those that
mother left: I spent those that Ballinger and Geary gave me on the
house and one thing and another."
"Yes?" Mrs. Abbott was now alarmed. She had a very keen sense of the
value of money, like most persons that have inherited it, and was
extremely conservative in its use.
"Well, you see, I thought I saw a chance to treble it--we never really
had enough--and I speculated and lost it."
Alexina was a passionate lover of the truth, but she could always lie
like a gentleman.
Maria Abbott readjusted her spectacles and took a stitch or two in her
linen. She was aghast and did not care to speak for a moment. She was
no fool and Tom had told her that Mortimer had changed his business and
might bluff the street, but could never bluff him. She knew quite as
well as if Alexina had confessed it that Mortimer had lost the money,
either in his business or in stocks; although of course she was far
from suspecting the whole truth.
III
"That is dreadful," she said finally. "I wish you had consulted Tom. He
understands stocks as he does everything else."
"I thought I had the best tips. However--the thing is done, and the
point is that I must make great changes. Mortimer is not making as much
as he was, either; he came to the conclusion that he couldn't get
anywhere in that business on so small a capital, and has gone into real
estate. It will be some time before he makes enough to keep things
going in the old way. I made all my plans last night and came down to
ask you if you could take James. He has been with us so long; I can't
let him go to strangers. Then I shall turn out all those high-priced
servants and get a woman to do general housework. Alice says her aunt
always gets green ones from an agency and breaks them in. They are
quite cheap. I shall help her, of course, and if she doesn't know much
about cooking I know a little and can learn more. I shall shut up the
big drawing-room, put everything into moth balls, and give out that the
doctor has ordered me to rest this winter, to go to bed every night at
eight. That will stop people coming up three or four times a week to
dance. And I can sell the new clothes I brought from Paris and New York
to Polly Roberts. She's just my height and weight. Of course I must
tell the girls the truth--that I'm economizing; but wild horses
wouldn't drag it out of them. I don't care tuppence, but Morty says it
would hurt his business. I rather like the idea of working. I'm tired
of the old round, and would like to get a job if Morty wasn't so
opposed--says it would ruin him."
"I should think so. At least let us wash our dirty linen at home.... I
have been thinking while you talked. I've only spent two whole winters
in town since I married, end I've always thought I'd love to live in
the old house. I've rather envied you, Alexina, dear ... it is so full
of happy memories for me. I did have such a good time as a girl ...
such a good, simple time.... I'm wondering if Tom wouldn't rent it for
the winter and spring. He's been doing splendidly these last two or
three years, and he owned some of the property west of Twin Peaks that
is building up so fast. I know he sold it for quite a lot.... And I
sometimes wonder if he doesn't get as tired of living in the same place
year after year as I do. He could play golf at the Ingleside.... I am
sure he will.... It would be the very best thing all round. Then we
could run the house, and you and Mortimer would pay something--never
mind what.... People would think it was the other way, if they thought
anything about it. Families often double up in that fashion."
"Maria! I can't believe it. It would be too perfect a solution,
provided of course that we pay all we cost. I should insist upon
keeping the slips as usual. You are an angel."
"We Groomes and Ballingers always stand by one another, don't we? The
Abbotts, too. Besides, it will certainly be no sacrifice on any of our
parts. It will mean a great deal to me to spend six months in town, and
I know that Tom has grown as tired of motoring back and forth every day
as he used to be of the train."
"It will be heavenly just having you." Alexina spoke with perfect
sincerity. She had not faltered before the prospect of work, but that
of Mortimer's society unrelieved for an indefinite time had filled her
with something like panic. It had been the one test of her powers of
endurance of which she had not felt assured.
"That will give us time, too, to get on our feet again. Morty is very
hopeful of this new business. I shall go out very little, and as Joan
will be the natural center of attraction it will be understood that her
friends, not mine, have the run of the house."
Maria nodded. "It's just the thing for Joan. Really a godsend. She
worries me more than all three of the boys. They are east at school for
the winter and of course don't come home for the Christmas holidays. If
you want to be housekeeper you may. I don't know anything I should like
better than a rest from ordering dinner, after all these years."
"Perfect! I'll also take care of my room and Morty's. Then I'd be sure
I wasn't really imposing on you. You're a dead game sport, Maria, and
I'd like to drink your health."
CHAPTER XV
I
Mortimer looked nonplussed when Alexina informed him at dinner of the
immediate solution of their difficulties. He detested Tom and Maria
Abbott; there were certain things he could forget in his aristocratic
wife's presence, far as she had withdrawn, but never in theirs.
Moreover he feared Abbott. He was as keen as a hawk; an unconsidered
word and he might as well have told the whole story. Well, he never
talked much anyhow; he would merely talk less.
When Alexina asked him if he had any better plan to propose he was
forced to shrug his shoulders and set his lips in a straight line of
resignation. When she told him what her original plan had been he was
so appalled, so humiliated at the bare thought of his wife in a
servant's apron (to say nothing of the culinary arrangements) that he
almost warmed to the Abbotts.
II
Ten days later, on the eve of the Abbotts' arrival, the equanimity of
spirit he was striving to regain by the simple process of thinking of
something else when his late delinquencies obtruded themselves,
received a severe shock. Alexina handed him a cheque for ten thousand
dollars and asked him to place it to Gora's account in the bank where
she kept her savings.
"Where did you get it?" he asked stupidly, staring at the slip of paper
so heavily freighted.
"Anne Montgomery sold some of my things to a good-natured ignoramus
whose husband made a fortune in Tonopah. She doesn't know how to buy
and Anne advises her."
"What did you sell? Your jewels?"
"Some. I never wear anything but the pearls anyhow; and it's bad taste
to wear jewels unless you're wealthy. I had some old lace that is hard
to buy now, and real lace isn't the fashion any more. New rich people
always think it's just the thing. I also sold her two of the biggest
and clumsiest of the Italian pieces. She is crazy about them. Anne told
her that they were as good as a passport."
Mortimer sprang to the only, the naive, the eternal masculine
conclusion.
"You do love me still!" The dull eyes of his spirit flashed with the
sudden rejuvenation of his heavy body. "I never really believed you had
ceased to care.... you were capricious like all women ... a little
spoilt. I knew that if I had patience ... Only a loving wife would do
such a thing."
Alexina made a wry face at the banality of his climax, although the
fatuous outburst had barely amused her.
"No, I don't love you in the least, Mortimer, and never shall. Make up
your mind to that. Love some one else if you like.... I did this for
two reasons: I did not have the courage to tell Gora the truth--and
that I was too unjust and penurious to restore the money you had taken;
and as your wife it would have hurt my pride unbearably."
"And you are not afraid to trust me with this money?" he asked, his
voice toneless.
"Not in the least. There's no other way to manage it and I fancy you
know what would happen if you didn't hand it over. There is such a
thing as the last straw."
CHAPTER XV
I
It was a week later. Alexina was changing her dress. Maria had asked a
number of her girlhood friends in for luncheon, and they were to
exchange reminiscences in the old house over a table laden as of yore
with the massive Ballinger silver, English cutglass, and French china.
Alexina was about to take refuge with Janet Maynard.
Her door opened unceremoniously and Gora entered.
Alexina caught her breath as she saw her sister-in-law's eyes. They
looked like polar seas in a tropical storm.
"Why, Gora, dear," she said lightly. "I thought you were on an
important case."
"Man died last night. I have just been to see Mortimer. When I got his
note--just three lines--saying that he had received a cheque from Utica
and deposited it to my account I knew at once--as soon as I had time to
think--there was something wrong. The natural thing would have been to
call me up--couldn't tell me the good news too soon.... And there was a
hollow ring about that note.... Well, as soon as I woke up to-day I
went straight down to his office. I had to wait an hour. When he came
in and saw me he turned green. I marched him into a back room and
corkscrewed the truth out of him--the whole truth. Then I blasted him.
He knows exactly what one person in this world thinks of him, what
everybody else would think of him if he were found out. I gathered that
you had let him down easy. Your toploftical pride, I suppose. Well, I
must have a good plebeian streak in me somewhere and for the first time
I was glad of it. When I left him he looked shrunken to half his
natural size. His eyes looked like a dead fish's and all the muscles of
his face had given Way. He looked as if he were going to die and I wish
he would. Faugh! A thief in the family. That at least we never had
before."
"Don't be too sure. Remember nobody else knows about Morty, and
everybody'll go on thinking he's honest. Half our friends may be
thieves for all we know, and as for our ancestors--what are you doing?"
II
Gora had taken a roll of yellow bills from her purse. She counted them
on the table; ten bills denominating a thousand dollars each.
"I won't take them." said Alexina stiffy. "I think you are horrid,
simply horrid."
"And do you imagine I would keep it? I What do you take me for?"
"I am in a way responsible for Mortimer's debts--his partner."
"That cuts no ice with me--nor with you. That is not the reason you
sold your jewels and laces and those superb--Oh, you poor child! If I'm
furious, it's more for you than on any other account. You don't deserve
such a fate--"
"I don't deserve to have you treat me so ungratefully. I can't get my
things back. I wanted you to have the money more than I eared for those
things, anyhow. I have no use for the money. I don't owe anything and
the rent Tom pays me for six months will help me to run the house for
the rest of the year and pay taxes besides. So, you just keep it, Gora.
It's yours and that's the end of it."
"This is the end of it as far as I'm concerned." She opened the secret
drawer of the cabinet and stuffed in the bills. "They're safe from any
sort of burglars there. But not from fire. Bank them to-morrow."
"I'll not touch them."
"Nor I either."
III
Gora threw her hat on the floor and sitting down before the table
thrust her hands into her hair and tugged at the roots. "I always do
this when I'm excited--which is oftener than you think. What dreams I
had that first night--I got his note late and was too tired to reason,
to suspect.... I just dreamed until I fell asleep. I'd start for
England a week later--for England!"
Goose flesh made Alexina's delicate body feel like a cold nutmeg
grater. "England?"
"Yes! ... ah ... you see, it's the only place where literary
recognition counts for anything."
"Oh? I rather thought the British authors looked upon Uncle Sam in the
light of a fairy godfather. Our recognition counts for a good deal, I
should say. I never thought you were snobbish."
"I'm not really. Only London is a sort of Mecca for writers just as
Paris is for women of fashion.... Just fancy being feted in London
after you had written a successful novel."
"I'd far rather receive recognition in my own country," said Alexina,
elevating her classic American profile. She was not feeling in the
least patriotic, however. "You'd see your friend Gathbroke, though.
That would be jolly. Do take the money, Gora, and don't be a goose."
"That subject's closed. Don't let me keep you. James told me that Maria
is having a luncheon, and I suppose that means you are going out. I'll
rest here for awhile if you don't mind."
CHAPTER XVI
I
Mortimer went off that night and got drunk. It was the first time in
his life and possibly his last, but he made a thorough job of it. He
took the precaution to telephone to the house that he was going out of
town, but when he returned two days later he experienced a distinct
pleasure in telling Alexina what he had done. Alexina, who still hoped
that she would always be able to regard Life as God's good joke, rather
sympathized with him, and assured him that he would have nothing to
apprehend from Gora in the future: she had no more fervent wish than to
keep out of his way.
II
He found himself on the whole very comfortable. Maria was always most
kind, Alexina polite and amiable, and Tom "decent." Joan liked him as
well as she liked anybody, and when the family spent a quiet evening at
home he undertook to improve her dancing and she was correspondingly
grateful; it had been her weak point. The fiction was carefully
preserved that the Dwights were conferring a favor on the Abbotts and
that all expenses were equally shared. In time he came to believe it,
and his hours of deep depression, when he had pondered over his
inexplicable roguery, grew rarer and finally ceased. After all he had
had nothing to lose as far as Alexina was concerned; one's sister
hardly mattered (Did women matter much, anyhow?); and his sense of
security, which he hugged at this time as the most precious thing he
had ever possessed, at last made him a little arrogant. He had done
what he should not, of course, but it was over and done with, ancient
history; and where other men had gone to State's Prison for less, he
had been protected like an infant from a rude wind. He knew that he
would never do it again and that his position in life was as assured as
it ever had been.
III
He spent a good many evenings at the club, and Maria found him a
willing cavalier when Tom "drew the line" at dancing parties. Alexina,
who had sold her car to Janet and her new gowns to Polly, had announced
that she was bored with dancing and should devote the winter to study.
She spent the evenings either in her library upstairs or with her
friends. Mortimer saw her only at the table.
He wondered if Tom Abbott would rent the house every winter. A pleasant
feeling of irresponsibility was beginning to possess his jaded spirit.
He made a little money occasionally, but he was no longer expected to
hand anything over when the first of the month came round--a date that
had haunted him like a nightmare for four long years. Pie could spend
it on himself, and he felt an increasing pleasure in doing so.
CHAPTER XVII
I
Gray naked trees; orchards of prune and peach and cherry, mile after
mile. Orange trees in small wayside gardens heavy-laden with golden
fruit. Tall accacias a mass of canary colored bloom. Opulent palms
shivering against a gray sky. Close mountains green and dense with
forest trees, their crests filagreed with redwoods. Far mountains
lifting their bleak ridges above bare brown hills thirsting for rain.
The heavy rains were due. It was late in January. Alexina and several
of her friends were motoring back to the city through the Santa Clara
Valley, after luncheon with the Price Ruylers at their home on the
mountain above Los Gatos. As it was Sunday there was an even number of
men in the party, and Alexina, maneuvered into Jimmie Thorne's
roadster, was enduring with none of the sweet womanly graciousness
which was hers to summon at will, one of those passionate declarations
of love which no beautiful young woman out of love with her husband may
hope to escape; and not always when in. Alexina had grown skillful in
eluding the reckless verbalisms of love, but when one is packed into a
small motor car with a determined man, desperately in love, one might
as well try to wave aside the whirlwind.
Jimmie Thorne was a fine specimen of the college-bred young American of
good family and keen professional mind. He has no place in this
biography save in so far as he jarred the inner forces of Alexina's
being, and he fell at Chateau-Thierry.
II
Alexina lifted her delicate profile and gave it as sulky an expression
as she could assume. She really liked him, but was annoyed at being
trapped.
"I don't in the least wish to marry you."
"Everybody knows you don't care a straw for Dwight. You could easily
get a divorce--"
"On what grounds! Besides, I don't want to. I'd have to be really off
my head about a man even to think of such a thing. Our family has kept
out of the divorce courts. And I don't care two twigs for you, Jimmie
dear."
"I don't believe it. That is, I know I could make you care. You don't
know what love is--"
"I suppose you are about to say that you think I think I am cold, and
that if I labor under this delusion it is only because the right man
hasn't come along. Well, Jimmie dear, you would only be the sixteenth.
I suppose men will keep on saying it until I am forty--forty-five--what
is the limit these days? I know exactly what I am and you don't."
"I'm not going to be put off by words. Remember I'm a lawyer of sorts.
God! I wish I'd been here when you married that codfish, instead of
studying law at Columbia, Do you mean to tell me I couldn't have won
you!"
"No. Almost any man can win a little goose of eighteen if circumstances
favor him. Twenty-five is another! matter. Oh, but vastly another! Even
if I'd never married before I'm not at all sure I should have fallen in
love with you."
"Yes, you would. You're frozen over, that's all."
Alexina sighed, and not with exasperation. He was very charming,
magnetic, companionable. He was handsome and clever and manly. She
could feel the warmth of his young virile body through their fur coats,
and her own trembled a little.... It suddenly came to her that she no
longer owed Mortimer anything. Their "partnership" had been dissolved
by his own act. If she could have loved Jimmie Thorne with something
beyond the agreeable response of the mating-season (any season is the
mating season in California) ... that was the trouble. He was not
individual enough to hold her. Life had been too kind to him. Save for
this unsatisfied passion he was perfectly content with life. Such men
do not "live." They may have charm, but not fascination.... Perhaps it
was as well after all that she had married Mortimer. Another man might
not have been so easily disposed of.
"Jimmie dear, if it were a question of a few months, and I made a cult
of men as some women do, it would be all right. But marry another man
that I am not sure--that I know I don't want to spend my life with. Oh,
no."
He looked somewhat scandalized. Like many American men he was even more
conventional than most women are; he was, moreover, a man's man,
spending most of his leisure in their society, either at the club or in
out-of-door sports, and he divided women rigidly into two classes.
Alexina was his first love and his last; and as he went over the top
and crumpled up he thought of her.
"I wouldn't have a rotten affair with you. You're not made for that
sort of thing--"
"Well, you're not going to have one, so don't bother to buckle on your
armor." She relented as she looked into his miserable eyes, and took
his hand impulsively. "I'm sorry ... sorry.... I wish ... you are worth
it ... but it's not on the map."
CHAPTER XVIII
I
Gora's novel was published in February. Aileen Lawton, Sibyl Bascom,
Alice Thorndyke, Polly Roberts, and Janet Maynard organized a campaign
to make it the fashion. They went about with copies under their arms,
on the street, in the shops, at luncheons, even at the matinee, and
"could talk of nothing else." Sibyl and Janet bought a dozen copies
each and sent them to friends and acquaintances with the advice to read
it at once unless they wished to be hopelessly out of date: it was "all
the rage in New York."
As a matter of fact, with the exception of Aileen and possibly Janet,
the book almost terrified them with its pounding vigor and grim
relentless logic, even its romantic realism, which made its tragedy
more poignant and sinister by contrast; and, again with the exception
of Aileen, they were little interested in Gora. But they were loyally
devoted to Alexina and obeyed, as a matter of course, her request to
help her make the book a success. They worked with the sterner
determination as Alexina in her own efforts was obliged to be extremely
subtle.
Besides, it, was rather thrilling not only to know a real, author but
almost to have her in the family as it were. Their industrious sowing
bore an abundant harvest and Gora's novel became the fashion. Whether
people hated it or not, and most of them did, they discussed it
continually, and when a book meets with that happy fate personal
opinions matter little.
II
Maria thought the book was "awful" and forbade Joan to read it. Joan
thought (to Alexina) that it was simply the most terribly fascinating
book she had ever read and made her despise society more than ever and
more determined to light out and see life for herself first chance she
got. Tom Abbott thought it a remarkable book for a woman to have
written; a man might have written it. Judge Lawton read it twice.
Mortimer declined to read it. He had not forgiven Gora; moreover,
although his social position was now planetary, it annoyed him
excessively to hear his sister alluded to continually as an author.
Even the men at the club were reading the damned book.
III
Bohemia stood off for some time. It was only recently they had learned
that Gora Dwight was a Californian. They had read her stories, but as
she had been the subject of no publicity whatever they had inferred
that, like many another, she had dwelt in their midst only long enough
to acquire material. When they learned the truth, and particularly
after her inescapable novel appeared, they were indignant that she had
not sought her muse at Carmel-by-the-Sea, or some other center of
mutual admiration; affiliated herself; announced herself, at the very
least. There was a very sincere feeling among them that any attempt on
the part of a rank outsider to achieve literary distinction was
impertinent as well as unjustifiable.... It was impossible that he or
she could be the real thing.
When they discovered that she was affiliated more or less with
fashionable society, nurse though she might be, and that those
frivolous and negligible beings were not only buying her book by the
ton but giving her luncheons and dinners and teas, their disgust knew
no bounds and they tacitly agreed that she should be tabu in the only
circles where recognition counted.
IV
But Gora, who barely knew of their existence, little recked that she
had been weighed, judged, and condemned. Her old dream had come true.
Society, the society which should have been her birthright and was not,
had thrown open its doors to her at last and everybody was outdoing
everybody else in flattering and entertaining her.
Not that she was deceived for a moment as to the nature of her success
with the majority of the people whose names twinkled so brightly in the
social heavens. She more than suspected the "plot" but cared little for
the original impulse of the book's phenomenal success in San Francisco
and its distinguished faubourgs. She was square with her pride, her
youthful bitterness had its tardy solace, her family name was rescued
from obscurity. She knew that this belated triumph rang hollow, and
that she really cared very little about it; but the strength and
tenacity of her nature alone would have forced her to quaff every drop
of the cup so long withheld. Even if she had been desperately bored she
would have accepted these invitations to houses so long indifferent to
her existence, and as a matter of fact she welcomed the sudden lapse
into frivolity after her years of hard and almost unremitting work. She
had played little in her life; and a year later when she was working
eighteen hours a day without rest, in conditions that seemed to have
leapt into life from the blackest pages of history, she looked back
upon her one brief interval of irresponsibility, gratified vanity, and
bodily indolence, as at a bright star low on the horizon of a dark and
terrible night.
V
There was one small group of women, Gora soon discovered, that stood
for something besides amusement, sharply as some of them were
identified with all that was brilliant in the social life of the city.
They read all that was best in serious literature and fiction as soon
after it came out as their treadmill would permit, and they gave
somewhat more time to it than to poker. It was this small group, led by
Mrs. Hunter, that in common with several wealthy and clever Jewish
women, with intellectual members of old families that had long since
dropped out of a society that gave them too little to be worth the
drain on their limited means, and with one or two presidents of women's
clubs, made up the small attendance at the lectures on literary and
political subjects, delivered either by some local light, or European
specialist in the art of charming the higher intelligence of American
women without subjecting it to undue fatigue.
This small but distinguished band discussed Gora separately and
collectively and placed the seal of approval upon her. With them her
arrival was genuine and permanent.
It was hardly a step from their favor to the many women's clubs of the
city, and she was invited to be the luncheon or afternoon guest at one
after another until all had entertained the rising star and she had
learned to make the little speeches expected of her without turning to
ice.
VI
The local intelligenzia, those that assured one another how great were
each and all, and whose poems or stories found an occasional
hospitality in the eastern magazines, who toiled over "precious"
paragraphs of criticism or whose single achievement had been a play for
the mid-summer jinks of the Bohemian Club; these and their associates,
the artists and sculptors, still held aloof, more and more annoyed that
Gora Dwight should have had the bad taste to be discovered by the
Philistines, and should be flying across the high heavens in spite of
their tabu.
Gora had gradually become aware of their existence, and their attitude,
which both amused and piqued her. She knew now that if she had been one
of them they would have beaten the big drum and proclaimed to the world
(of California) that she was "great," "a genius," the legitimate
successor of Ambrose Bierce, whom she remotely resembled, and Bret
Harte, whom she did not resemble at all. This they would have done if
only to prove that California no longer "knocked" as in the mordant
nineties, nor waited for the anile East to set the seal of its dry
approval before discovering that a new volcano was sending forth its
fiery swords in their midst.
But it was extremely doubtful if society and upper club circles would
have taken any notice of her. Both had acquired the habit, however
unjustly, of regarding their local intelligenzia (with the exception of
the few who kept themselves wholly apart from all groups) as worshipers
of small gods, and preferred to take their cues from London or New
York. They plumed themselves upon having discovered Gora Dwight and
sometimes wondered how it had happened.
But Bohemia is hardly a trades union; it is indeed anarchistic and
knows no boss. Gora might not be invited to Carmel this many a day, nor
yet to Berkeley, nor to sundry other parnassi, but there was one club
in San Francisco whose curiosity got the better of it, and she was
invited to be the guest of the evening at the home of the Seven Arts
Club on the twentieth of April in the fateful year of nineteen-fourteen.
VII
The Seven Arts Club had been organized by a group of painters,
architects, authors, sculptors, musicians, actors and poets, most of
whom had long since found various degrees of fame and moved to New
York, Europe, or the romantic wilderness.
It still had seventy times seven votaries of the seven arts on its list
and few had found fame as yet outside their hospitable state--where
log-rolling is as amiable as the climate--but all save the elders were
expecting it and many made a fair living. They met once a week, and a
part of the evening pleasure of the literary wing was to "place"
authors. They were willing to swallow the British authors whole (they
did in fact "discover" one or two of them, as the musical critics had
discovered such a rara avis as Tetrazzini, or the dramatic critics many
a now famous player); but they were excessively critical of all who
owed their origin to the United States of America, and particularly of
those who had loved and lost the sovereign state of California.
Naturally all were more or less radical (except the cynical and now
somewhat anaemic elders who gave up hope for a world that had ceased to
hold out hope to them). The artists were disturbed by futurism and
cubism, although as neither paid they were forced to devote the greater
part of their inspiration to the marketable California scenery.
But the writers: potential or locally arrived novelists, playwrights,
poets, essayists, were the real intelligenzia! They went about with the
radical weeklies of the East (or Berkeley) under their arms and
discoursed under their breath (when foregathered in small and ardent
groups) upon The Revolution, the day of Judgment for all but honest
Labor, and hissed their hatred of Capital. And if they had much in
common with those "intellectuals" to be found in every land who caress
the chin of radicalism with one hand and plunge the other into the
pocket of capital as far as permitted, who shall blame them? One must
live and one must have something to excite one's intellect when sex,
the stand-by, takes its well-earned rest.
Several of these ardent ladies and gentlemen, with the sanction of the
Club's President, a business man whose contributions were the financial
mainstay of the Seven Arts, and who sincerely envied the gifted
members, denying them nothing, invited James Kirkpatrick to be the
guest of an evening and deliver an address on Socialism and the
Proletariat. He replied that he would come and spit on them if they
liked but that he had as much use for parlor socialists as he had for
damned fools and posers of any sort. Life was too short. As for Labor
it knew how to take care of itself and had about as crying a need of
their "support" as a healthy human body had of lice and other parasites.
They were not discouraged however, merely pronouncing him a "creature,"
and were not at all flattered or surprised when Gora Dwight accepted
their invitation and asked permission to bring her friends, Mrs.
Mortimer Dwight and Miss Aileen Lawton.
CHAPTER XIX
I
The wildflowers were on the green hills: the flame-colored velvet
skinned poppy, the purple and yellow lupins, the pale blue "babyeyes,"
buttercups, dandelions and sweetbrier, fields of yellow mustard. The
gardens about the Bay and down the Peninsula were almost licentious in
their vehement indulgence in color. Every flower that grows north,
south, east, west, on the western hemisphere and the eastern, was to be
found in some one of these gardens of Central California; the
poinsettia cheek by jowl with periwinkle and the hedges of marguerite;
heavy-laden trees of magnolia above beds of Russian violets.
Pomegranate trees and sweet peas, bridal wreath and camellia, begonia,
fuchsias, heliotrope, hydrangea, chrysanthemums, roses, roses,
roses.... Little orchards of almond trees, their blossoms a pink mist
against a clear blue sky.... The mariposa lily was awake in the
forests; infinitesimal yellow pansies made a soft carpet for the feet
of the deer and the puma.... In the old Spanish towns of the south, the
Castilian roses were in bloom and as sweet and pink and poignant as
when Rezanov sailed through the Golden Gate in the April of
eighteen-six, or Chonita Iturbi y Moncada, the doomswoman, danced on
the hearts of men in Monterey.... From end to end of the great Santa
Clara Valley the fruit trees were in bloom, a hundred thousand acres
and more of pure white blossoms or delicate pink. Bascom Luning took
Alexina over it one day in his air-car, as she called it, and from
above it looked like a scented sea that was all foam.
But no such riot and glory had come to San Francisco. This was the
season for winds that seemed to blow from the four points of the
compass at once and of ghostly fogs that stole up and down the streets
of the city, abandoning the hills to bank in the valleys, as if seeking
warmth; abruptly deserting the lowlands to prowl along the heights,
always searching, searching, these pure white lovely fogs of San
Francisco, for something lost and never found.
II
"I hope they're not too artistic to keep their rooms warm," said
Aileen, as they drove from her house where Gora and Alexina had dined,
down to the Club of the Seven Arts. "I have smoked so much, intending
to prove in public how really virtuous a society girl is, in contrast
to Bohemia, that I'm nearly frozen."
"Keep your wrap on," said Alexina. "Who cares? I have always been wild
to get into real Bohemian circles, meet authors and artists. We do lead
the most provincial life. All circles should overlap--the best of all,
anyhow. That is the way I would remold society if I were rich and
powerful--"
"Good heavens Alex, you are not idealizing this crowd we are going to
meet to-night? They're just a lot of second and third raters--"
"What do you know about them?"
"I keep my feet on the ground and my head out of the clouds. I know
more or less what it must be. Besides, the last time I was in New York
I was taken several times to the restaurants and studios of Greenwich
Village. I could only convey my opinion of it in many swear words. This
must be a sort of chromo of it.... Gora, are you as wildly excited as
Alex is? I know she is because her spine is rigid; and she is probably
colder than I am."
"Well, anyhow," said Alexina defiantly, "it will be something I never
saw before."
"It will, darling. Well. Gora, what do you anticipate?"
Gora laughed. "I wonder? I don't think I've thought much about it. The
circumstances of my life have developed the habit of switching off my
imagination except when I am at my desk. I've also formed the habit of
taking things as they come. I'll manage to extract something from this,
one way or another."
III
The car stopped before a narrow house in the rebuilt portion of the
city. The door was opened immediately and the three guests of honor,
apparently very late, as a large room beyond the vestibule appeared to
be crowded, were marshaled up a narrow stair into a dressing-room under
the eaves.
"Looks like the loft of a barn," grumbled Aileen. There was no
attendant to hear. "Well, I'm not going to leave my cloak, for several
reasons--only one of which is that if this room is a sample my
ill-covered bones will rattle together downstairs."
She wore a gown of black chiffon with a green jade necklace and a band
of green in her fashionably done fair hair. Alexina's gown was a soft
white satin that fitted closely and made her look very tall and slim
and round, the corsage trimmed with the only color she ever wore. Her
hair was done in a classic knot and held with a comb--a present from
Aileen--designed from periwinkles and green leaves and sparkling
dew-drops.
Gora shook out the skirt of her only evening-gown, a well-made black
satin, very severe, but always relieved by a flower of some sort.
To-night she wore a poinsettia, whose peculiarly vivid red brought out
the warm browns of her skin and hair. She had a superb neck and
shoulders and bust, and the skin of her body was a delicate honey color
that melted imperceptibly into the deeper tones of her throat and face.
"Alexina," she said, "let us perish but exhibit all our points. Your
arms and hands were modeled for some untraced Greek ancestress and born
again. Your neck is almost as good as mine, if not quite so solid...."
She had a spot of crimson on her high cheek bones and admitted to the
discerning Aileen that she was the least bit excited. After all, the
keenest brains of San Francisco might be down in that long raftered
room they had glimpsed, and in any case she was about to be judged by a
new standard.
"Oh, don't let that worry you," Aileen began.
A door at the end of the room opened abruptly and a small woman came
forward almost panting. "I just ran up those stairs," she cried. "But I
was bound to be the first. I used to go to school with your mother down
on Bush Street--dear Minnie Morrison!"
She was a woman of fifty or sixty, with a nose like an inflamed button,
eyes that watered freely, and a shabby black hat somewhat on one side.
"But my mother never went to school in San Francisco," said Gora
stiffly, and eyeing this first precipitate member of the intellectual
world with profound disfavor.
"Oh, yes, she did. We were the most intimate friends. To think that
dear Minnie's daughter--"
"Her name was not Minnie Morrison--"
"Oh, yes, it was--"
"Don't mind her so much, Gora dear." Aileen did not trouble to lower
her voice. "She's drunk. Let's go down."
Another woman entered the same door almost as hastily, but she was a
stately and rather handsome woman of forty, who gave the intruder such
a withering look from her serene blue eyes that the unrefined member of
the Seven Arts slunk out and could be heard stumbling down the stairs.
"I followed as soon as some one told me that Miss Skeers had come up
here," she said apologetically. "She is not always herself, poor thing.
Once she was quite distinguished as a local magazine writer, but ...
well, you know ... all people do not have the good fortune to have
their genius universally recognized, and the results are sometimes
disastrous. We are so proud to welcome you to-night, Miss Dwight,
and--and--your charming friends. I am Jane Upton Halsey." She appeared
to think no further explanation necessary.
"Oh, yes," murmured the bewildered Gora. "It was you who wrote to me."
"Exactly. I am chairman of the reception committee." She looked
expectant, then piqued, and added hastily: "Will you come downstairs?
What lovely gowns. I should like to paint you all."
She herself was a symphony in pink ("dago pink," whispered Aileen
wickedly), and she wore a small pink silk turban, apparently made from
the same bolt as the gown.
"Perhaps we should have worn hats," said Gora nervously. "I didn't
know--I thought..."
"You are just all right. Anything goes here. We wear what's becoming,
what we can afford, and what is our own idea of the right thing. Nobody
criticizes anybody else."
"Now, this is life!" said Alexina to Aileen. "You will admit we never
found anything like that before."
"Just you watch and catch them criticizing us.... Rather
effective--what?"
They were descending a staircase that led directly into the crowded
room below, and they looked down upon a mass of upturned expectant
faces, Gora was ahead with Miss Halsey, and as she reached the floor
the faces changed their angle; it was apparent that they were not
interested in her satellites.
"Let's stop here for a moment and watch," said Alexina. "It's too
interesting. They look as if they'd eat her alive."
The whole company seemed to be seething about Gora, and as they were
rapidly presented by Miss Halsey and passed on they produced the
effect, in the inner circles, of a maelstrom. On the outer edge the
women frankly stood on chairs to get a better look at the new lion, or
pushed forward with frenzied determination to the fixed center of the
whirlpool, whose gracious smile was becoming strained.
"Poor Gora!" said Aileen. "We do it better. A few picked souls at a
time; or, even when it's a tea, just casual introductions at decent
intervals, and not too many references to the immortal work."
"It's simply great for Gora, anyhow; for, big or little, they're her
own sort. And they're not snobs, They don't care tuppence for us."
"You're right there. I went to a big reception of all the arts in Paris
once and the only people any one kowtowed to were two disgustingly rich
New York women who had never done anything. But no one can be blamed
for national characteristics. Heavens! What an olla podrida!"
Some of the men were in evening dress, but the greater number were not.
They were of all ages, shaves, neckties and haircuts. The women wore
every variety of hat, from an immense sailor perched above an immense
fat face, above an immense shirtwaist bust, to minute turbans and
waving plumes. They wore tailored suits, high "one piece" frocks of any
material from chiffon to serge, symphonic confections like Miss
Halsey's, and flowing robes presumably artistic. None wore full evening
dress except the guests of honor. All, however, did not wear hats, and
they arranged their hair as individually as Alexina.
IV
"This may be our chance to see the art exhibit," said Aileen. "They'll
remember us in time, or Gora will...."
They descended into the room but had waited too long. Miss Halsey,
turning the guest of honor over to the second in command, a woman of
portentous seriousness, made her way hastily to the mere butterflies;
who endeavored vainly to slink away under cover of the rotating crowd.
"You won't think me rude, I hope," she cried, "but I had to start
things going, and it is awkward for all to introduce three people at a
time."
"You were most considerate," said Alexina amiably. "But we only came to
witness Gora's triumph, and we enjoy looking on, anyhow.... We were
about to look at the pictures...."
"You must meet some of our more brilliant members," said Miss Halsey
firmly. "They would never forgive me, and have been almost as excited
at meeting two such distinguished members of society as at meeting Miss
Dwight herself. Now, if you ... if you ... that is..."
"Our names are Jane Boughton and Mamie Featherhurst," supplied Aileen,
transfixing the lady with her wicked green eyes.
"Oh, yes, to be sure ... there has been so much to think of ... but
your names are so often in the society columns ... it seems to me I
recall that one of you is the daughter of a famous judge--"
"Boughton. He's under indictment, you know, for graft, bribery, and
corruption."
"Oh ... ah ... how unfortunate," Miss Halsey's jaw fell. Even she had
heard--vaguely in her studio--of the scandal of Judge Boughton, and she
wondered how she had been so absent-minded as to invite a member of his
family to the club.
"You see," said Aileen coolly. "I am not fit to associate with your
members, and as Miss Featherhurst is still my loyal friend, we'll just
go over and sit in a corner--"
"Indeed you shall do nothing of the kind. You are our guests,
and--please for this evening forget everything else."
"You nasty little beast," hissed Alexina into Aileen's discomforted
ear. "She's worth two of you."
"So she is," said Aileen contritely, "I'll behave better."
Miss Halsey, who had been signaling several members and rounding up
others, returned, Alexina blazed her eyes at Aileen, who murmured
hastily to the hostess: "I was just joking. I am Judge Lawton's
daughter, and this is Mrs. Mortimer Dwight, Gora's sister-in-law. I'd
never have told such a whopper but I'm so nervous and shy. I didn't
think I could go through the ordeal."
"Oh, you poor child. Well, you'll find we're not terrible in the least.
Now, don't try to remember names. They'll remember yours--better than I
did!"
Another small eddying circle formed about the luminaries from a lower
sphere. This proved to be much like similar performances in any stratum
of society. All murmured platitudes, or nothing. Nobody tried to be
original or witty. Alexina and Aileen gradually disengaged themselves
and were making their way toward the pictures that turned the four
walls into a harmonious mass of color, when an old man came tottering
up. He had bright, eyes and a pleasant face.
"Which is Mrs. Dwight?" he asked eagerly. Alexina bent her lofty head
and smiled down upon him.
"Of course. Little Alexina. I remember you when you were a dear little
girl and I used to see you playing about the house when I went up to
have a good powwow with that clever grandfather of yours, Alex
Groome--one of the ablest politicians this town ever had; and straight,
damn straight."
"Alexander Groome was my father."
"Oh, no, he wasn't. He was your grandfather. You are the daughter ...
let me see ... there were two or three young ladies.... I remember when
they came out in the eighties ... and a boy or two...."
"I am sorry to be rude, but Alexander Groome was my father. I came
along rather late."
"Impossible! ... Well, I suppose you know best..." and he drifted off.
"This seems to be a home for incurables," said Aileen. "I am sure I
don't know how I shall get through the evening. Gora has a slight sense
of humor, you have quite a keen one, but mine is positively
fiendish.... Oh, Lord!"
Miss Halsey was trailing them, her hand resting lightly on the arm of
another woman.
"Now this is something like," whispered Aileen. "Witch of Endor got up
to look like Carmen."
The oncoming luminary was a singular-looking woman who may have been
considerably less so in the privacy of her dressing-room; she had
evidently expended much thought upon supplementing the niggardliness of
Nature. Her unwashed-looking black hair was dressed very high and stuck
with immense pins. Large, circular, highly colored, imitation jade
rings dangled in tiers from her ear-lobes, and at least eight rows of
colored beads covered the front of her loose, fringed, embroidered,
beaded gown. She had a haggard face, deeply lined and badly painted,
but something, an emanation perhaps, seemed to proclaim that she was
still young.
"This, dear Mrs. Dwight and Miss Lawton, is Alma De Quincey Smith, with
whose work you are of course familiar. She had her reception last week
but was only too glad to come to-night and extend the welcoming hand of
the east to our new daughter of the west."
Miss De Quincey Smith barely gave her time to finish. She darted
forward and grasped Aileen's hand. "Oh, you must let me tell you how
wonderful I think your unique green eyes go with that jade. I've been
watching you!" She spoke with the eager unthinking impulsiveness of a
child, which, oddly, made her look like a very old woman.
"Too nice of you," murmured Aileen, who was determined to behave.
"And you!" she cried, turning to Alexina. "Your eyes simply blaze. You
look like a long white arum lily. And dusky hair, not merely black. Oh,
I do think you are both too wonderful, and I am sure all these splendid
artists here will want to paint you."
Alexina and Aileen were not accustomed to such spontaneous and
unbridled admiration and they thought Miss Smith quite fascinating if
rather queer. But Miss Smith did not number tact among her gifts and
rushed on.
"Gora Dwight is too wonderful looking for words. We are all crazy over
her. All the artists want to paint her already. Her coloring and style
are unique and she suggests tragedy--with those marvelous pale eyes in
that dark face--those heavy dark brows and heavy masses of hair. I have
suggested that Folkes--your greatest portrait painter, you know,--paint
her as Medea, or as the Genius of the Revolution, How proud you must be
of her!"
"So we are," murmured Aileen. "We think she is the only woman writer in
America worth mentioning. Why don't you paint her yourself?"
"I? I am not an artist--with the brush! I am an author, Alma De Quincey
Smith."
"Oh!..." Aileen's voice trailed off vaguely, "What do you write? Plays?
Essays?..."
"I--why, I'm one of the best--my stories appear constantly in the best
magazines." Miss Smith, who had been deserted some time since by Miss
Halsey, looked abject, helpless, and infuriated.
"Oh! We only read the worst. It must be wonderful to be famous. Come,
Alex, we must see the pictures. They're going to have music and supper
later."
V
"Nevertheless," said Alexina, "they are real as far as they go, and
they really do things, good or bad. They work, they aspire; they dream,
and perhaps with reason, of a glorious future, when they will be as
famous and successful as the founders of the club. Even if they fail
they will have had the wonderful dream. Nothing can take that from
them. I envy them--envy them!"
They were standing in a far corner of the room, after having examined
three or four admirable and many passable paintings. Aileen looked at
her in surprise. They had both been remarking upon the comic aspects of
the intellectual life, and Alexina's outburst was unexpected. Aileen
had seldom seen her vehement since they had outgrown their youthful
habit of wrangling. She was still more astonished when she turned from
a view of the Latin-seeming roofs of San Francisco from Twin Peaks, to
Alexina's face. It looked drawn and desperate.
"Well, most of them will fail," she said lightly. "Look at these
pictures! That is what is the matter with California--too much talent.
You must be as individual as a talking monkey to get your head above
the crowd. All these poor devils are doomed to the local reputation."
"Even so they have something to live for, mean something, do something.
What do I mean to myself or anyone? What have I accomplished? The man I
married is a dummy-husband; means nothing to me nor I to him. I have no
children. Even my housekeeping for Maria is a farce; James really does
it all. I mean nothing to society now that I can no longer entertain
it. I haven't even a decent vice. I don't smoke and gamble like you,
nor have lovers like some of the others. I'm simply a
nonentity--nothing!"
"You have personality ... beauty...." Aileen was completely at a loss.
"I hate being banal like that Smith idiot ... but you are the
perfection of a type. That is something. And you cultivate your mind--"
"My mind! What does it amount to? Anybody can pack a brain. I'd like
one of those that gives out something, however little. But I can't help
that. The point is I don't live. I don't care a hang about personality
that doesn't get anywhere, and I care still less about being a finished
type--that's the work of dead and gone ancestors, anyhow, not mine....
I wish I could fall in love with James Kirkpatrick. I'd feel more
justified in my own eyes if I were living with him over in the
Mission--"
"His old mother would chase you out with a broom and use Biblical
language. Of course I know you must be bored, Alex dear. Can't you
manage to go abroad and live for a time?"
"No, I can't, and I don't see what difference that would make. But I'll
tell you what I shall do. If Tom and Maria want to rent the house next
year they can have it but I'll not live there. I'll not be 'held up'
any longer. I'll stand on my own feet--in other words get a job.
No--I've some loose money, I'll start in business."
"Good for you. Perhaps dad'll let me go in with you. Don't imagine I
don't get sick of my racketing life; and when I have a spasm of reform
I nearly take seriously to drink, I'm so bored. Would you have me for
partner?"
"Wouldn't I? That is if you would be serious about it. I am, let me
tell you. The whole family can perform suttee for all I care. I'm going
to do something that will give me a place in the main stream of life."
"Trust me. I have been considering Bob's fifteenth proposal--Mr.
Cheever has promised him a full partnership the day he marries, and it
wouldn't be so bad. Bobby is a good sport, and we'd live the out-door
life at Burlingame instead of the in--sports ... tournaments ... polo
... cut out dissipation. We've both really had enough of it. But I
believe business would be more interesting. After all that's what you
marry for unless you want children--which I don't--to be interested.
What'll we be? Decorators?"
"I suppose so. But all this has only just come to a head, although I
know now that it has been slowly gathering force in my deepest deeps.
If we do I'll take Alice on. She's sick of the game too and she has
simply ripping ideas."
"Perfect. 'Dwight, Thorn--', no, 'Thorndyke, Lawton and Dwight.' I'm
too excited--convicts must feel like that when they tunnel a hole and
get out. It will be our real, our first adventure."
CHAPTER XX
I
But two weeks later Aileen told Alexina that although she had cannily
waited for what she believed to be the propitious moment and told her
father about the great scheme, she had never seen him so upset. She
stormed, argued, wept, but he was adamant. He would give her neither a
cent nor his permission. When she accused him of inconsistency (he had
supported woman's suffrage) he replied that women forced to work needed
the franchise and no fair-minded man would withhold it; and if for no
other reason he would forbid his daughter to go out and compete with
women who must work whether they wanted to or not.
But that was only one point.
What did progress mean if women deliberately dropped from a higher
plane to a lower? What had their ancestors worked for, possibly died
for? It was their manifest duty to their class, to their family, to go
up not down.
Moreover, when women had men to support them and insisted upon forcing
their way into the business world, they made men ridiculous and
undermined society. It was dangerous, damned dangerous. If he had his
way not a woman in any class, outside of nursing and domestic service,
should work. He'd tax every male in the land, according to his income
or wage, to say nothing of the rich women, and keep every last one of
the unportioned in idleness rather than risk the downfall of male
supremacy in the world.
He hated every form of publicity for the women of his class. If he had
his way their names, much less photographs, should never appear in the
public press. Society should be sacrosanct. Its traditions should be
handed on, not lowered.... Charity boards and settlement work, perhaps,
but no further exposure to the vulgar gaze ... he was glad she had
never gone in for the last.
Civilization would be meaningless without that small class at the top
that proved what Earth could accomplish in the way of breeding, the
refinements of life, the beauty of distinction, in making an art of
leisure, of pleasure--quite as much an art as writing books or painting
pictures.
If the men in the younger nations had to work, at least they were able
to prove to the older that the exquisite creatures they bred and
protected were second to none on this planet, at least.
If women had genius that was another question. Let them give it to the
world, by all means. That was their personal gift to civilization....
He was not bigoted like some men, even young men, who thought it a
disgrace for a lady publicly to transfer herself to the artistic plane
and compete with men for laurels.... But when it came to stripping off
the delicate badges that only the higher civilization could confer, and
struggling tooth and nail with the mob for no reason whatever--it was
disloyal, ungrateful and monstrous.
He was no snob. He thought himself better than no man. (Different,
yes.) But in regard to women, the women of his class, the class of his
father before him, and of his father's father, he had his ideals, his
convictions.
That was all.
II
"In short, he's modern but not too modern. My twentieth-century
arguments were brushed aside as mere fads. And yet there's probably not
an important case tried in any court in either hemisphere that he
doesn't read--learn something from if he can. He takes in the leading
newspapers and reviews of America and Europe and even reads the best
modern novels as carefully as he ever read Thackeray and Dickens--says
they are the real social chronicles. He's a profound student of
history, and the history of the present interests him just as much--he
has those Balkans under a microscope; and collects all the data on
every important strike here and elsewhere. And yet where women are
concerned he is a fossil. An American fossil--worst sort. Some of the
young ones are just as bad ... I'll have to give in. I can't break his
heart. I suppose I'll marry Bobby."
III
Alice Thorndyke also shook her head. "I'd like to, Alex, but frankly I
haven't the courage. Your friends all stick to you like perfect dears
when you step down and out and set up shop, and are so kind you feel
like a street walker in a house of refuge. But secretly they hate it
and they don't feel toward you in the same way at all. They may not
know enough to express it, but what they really feel is that you have
threatened the solidity of the order and lowered yourself as well as
them. One day they may have more sense but not in our time, I am
afraid."
Nevertheless, Alexina persisted in her determination. One could succeed
alone. She would not be the first. She was by no means sure, however,
what she wanted to do, and made up her mind to take no step before the
following winter. When the Abbotts returned to Rincona in May they took
James with them. Alexina closed Ballinger House, although Mortimer
slept there and a Filipino came in every morning to make his breakfast
and bed; and took a cottage in Ross with Janet Maynard whose mother had
gone south to visit old lady Bascom, and who craved the wild peace of
Marin County after too much San Francisco and Burlingame.
Marin, with its magnificent redwood forests on the coast, fed by the
fogs of the Pacific, its ancient sunlit woods of oak and madrono and
manzanita, its mountains and rocky hills and peaceful fertile valleys,
is perhaps the most beautiful county in California, and its towns and
villages are still almost primitive in spite of the many fashionable
residents whose homes are close to or in them. The ocean pounds its
western base, Mount Tamalpais is its proudest possession, it has a
haunted looking lake; and a part of it embraces one of the many
ramifications of the Bay of San Francisco, and commands a superb view
of city and island and mountain. But it has a heavy brooding peace that
seems to relax the social conscience. Entertaining is intermittent, and
its inhabitants return to their winter in San Francisco deeply
refreshed. It has its paradoxes like the rest of California. On a stark
little peninsula, jutting out from bare hills into the Bay, is San
Quentin, one of the State's Prisons, and along the edges of the marsh
are Chinese hamlets and shrimp fisheries.
IV
Alexina and Janet purposed to spend the summer reading, idling in the
sweet-scented garden, walking in the early morning, riding horseback in
the late afternoon, taking tea at the club house at San Rafael, or
Belvedere, perhaps, but "cutting out" all social dissipations. Janet
was now twenty-six and beginning to feel the strain as well as
seriously to consider what she should do with the rest of her life. She
had great wealth, she was blasee as a result of doing everything she
chose to do, in public or in private, and she was nearly two
generations younger than Judge Lawton. Nevertheless, she perceived no
allurement in the business world, and the only alternative seemed
marriage. Not in California, however. No surprises there. She might
take her fortune to London and become a peeress of the realm. When
change became imperative better go up than down.
Alexina had never felt the attractions of dissipation and was not
afflicted with moral ennui; but she was tired from much thinking and
brooding and intimate personal contacts. She wanted the deep
refreshment of the summer before girding up for the winter--before
making her plunge into the world of business and toil.
But she was soon to discover that she had girded up her loins, or at
all events brightened up her corpuscles and reposed her brain cells,
for a far different purpose.
CHAPTER XXI
I
It is possible that only two people in California, barring German
spies, leapt instantly to the conclusion that the Sarajevo bomb meant a
European War. The Judge, because he had the historical background and
knew his modern Europe as he knew his chessboard; and Alexina because
she recalled conversations she had had in France the summer before with
people close to the Government, to say nothing of mysterious allusions
in the letters of Olive de Morsigny; who may have thought it wise not
to trust all she knew to the post, or may have been too busy with her
intensive nursing course to enter into particulars.
Janet shrugged her large statuesque shoulders when Alexina communicated
her fears. What was war to her? England at least would have sense
enough to keep out of it. Aileen came over after a convincing talk with
her father looking as worried as if some nation or other were training
their guns on the Golden Gate.
"Dad says it's the world war ... that we'll be dragged in ... that
Germany has had it up her sleeve for years ... believes that bomb was
made in Berlin ... nothing under heaven could have averted this
impending war but a huge standing army in Great Britain ... hasn't Lord
Roberts been crying out for it?.... Dad and I dined at his house one
night in London and the only picture in the dining-room was an oil
painting of the Kaiser in a red uniform, done expressly for Lord
Roberts ... funny world ... and now Britain's got a civil war on her
hands and mutinous officers who won't go over and shoot men of their
own class in Ulster.... Russia hasn't built her strategic railways--all
the money used up in graft.... Oh, Lord! Oh, Lord! who'd have thought
it? ... Twentieth century and all the rest of it."
"Twentieth century ... war ... how utterly absurd.... I don't wish to
be rude ... but really..."
This from every one to whom Alexina and Aileen, or even Judge Lawton,
communicated their fears.
II
One day Alexina and Aileen met in San Francisco by appointment and
telephoned to James Kirkpatrick, asking him to lunch with them at the
California Market. He accepted with alacrity, and laughed genially at
their apprehensions. War? War? Not on your life. There'll never be
another war. Socialists won't permit it. The kaiser? To hell with the
kaiser. (Excuse me.) He, James Kirkpatrick, was in frequent
correspondence with certain German socialists. They would declare
themselves in the coming International Congress for the general strike
if any sovereign--or President--dared to try to put over a war on the
millions of determined socialists, syndicalists, internationalists, and
communists in Great Britain and Europe; he'd get the surprise of his
life. Socialism was determined there should never be another war--the
burden and life-toll of which was always borne by the poor man. He
didn't believe any of those fool sovereigns, not even the crazy kaiser,
would attempt it, knowing what they did; but if they turned out to be
deaf and blind, well, just watch out for the Great Strike. That would
be the most portentous, the most awe-inspiring event in history.
And then he dismissed a prospective European war as unworthy of further
attention and held forth with extreme acrimony on the subject of the
Great Colorado Strike; which rose to passionate denunciation of the
miserable make-shift called civilization which, would permit such a
horror in the very heart of a great and prosperous nation. But with the
new system ... the new system ... there would not be even these
abominable little civil wars ... for that was what we had right here in
our own country ... no need to use up your gray matter bothering about
European states....
He was so convincing that Alexina and Aileen thanked him warmly and
went to their respective destinations lulled and comforted.
Nevertheless, the war made its grand debut on August first, and Mr.
Kirkpatrick, who had started on one of the passenger ships leaving New
York for the International Socialist Congress, climbed ignominiously
over the side and returned to the great ironic city on a tug.
III
Two letters came from Olive to Alexina and one to each of her other old
friends, imploring them to come over and help. They could nurse. They
could run canteens. Oeuvres. She wanted to show France what her
friends, her countrywomen, could do.
But the war would be over in three months.... Only Judge Lawton
believed it would be a long war. Others hardly comprehended there was a
war at all.... Such things don't happen in these days. (Who in that
wondrous smiling land could think upon war anywhere?) ... It would be
too funny if it were not for those dreadful pictures of the Belgian
refugees.... Poor things.... Maria and other good women immediately
began knitting for them ... sat for hours on the verandahs, all in
white, knitting, knitting ... but talking of anything of war.... It
simply was a horrid dream and soon would be over.... Their husbands all
said so ... three months.... German army irresistible ... modern
implements of war must annihilate whole armies very quickly, and the
Germans had the most and the best.... Rotten shame (said Burlingame)
and the Germans not even good sportsmen.
James Kirkpatrick, who avoided his former pupils, consoled himself with
the thought that at least Britain would be licked ... she'd get what
was coming to her, all right, and Ireland would be free.... Anyhow it
would soon be over.... When April nineteen-seventeen came he damned the
socialist party for its attitude and enlisted: "I was a man and an
American first, wasn't I?" he wrote to Alexina. "I guess your flag ...
oh, hell! (Excuse me.)"
IV
In December, nineteen-fourteen, Alexina and Alice Thorndyke (who
grasped the entering wedge with both ruthless white little hands) went
to France. Aileen was not strong enough to nurse so she bade a
passionate good-by to her friends and engaged herself to Bob Cheever.
Jimmie Thorne went to France as an ambulance driver, and Bascom Luning
to join the Lafayette Escadrille. Gora sailed six months later to offer
her services to England. In the case of a nurse there was much red tape
to unravel.
A fair proportion of the women left behind continued to knit. As time
went on branches of certain French war-relief organizations were
formed, and run by such capable women as Mrs. Thornton and Mrs. Hunter,
who had many friends among the American women living in France; now
toiling day and night at their oeuvres.
Alexina and Olive de Morsigny, after a year of nursing, when what
little flesh they had left could stand no more, founded an oeuvre of
their own, and Sibyl Bascom and Aileen Cheever did fairly well with a
branch in San Francisco, Alexina's relatives quite wonderfully in New
York and Boston; although they were already interested in many others.
V
Certain interests in California, notably the orchards and canneries,
were violently anti-British during the first years of the war, as the
blockade shut off their immense exports to Germany, and those that
failed, or closed temporarily, realized the incredible: that a war in
Europe could affect California, even as the Civil War affected the
textile factories of England. To them it was a matter of indifference,
until nineteen-seventeen, who won the war so long as one side smashed
the other and was quick about it.
Owners and directors of copper mines--but let us draw a veil over the
sincere robust instincts of human nature.
The Club of Seven Arts was proudly and vociferously pro-German. Not
that they cared a ha'penny damn really for Germany, but it was a far
more original attitude than all this sobbing over France ... and then
there was Reinhardt, the Secessionist School, the adorable jugendstyl.
And the atrocity stories were all lies anyway. The bourgeois president
resigned, but no one else paid any attention to them.
In nineteen-seventeen a few declared themselves pacifists and
conscientious objectors, and, little recking what they were in for,
marched off triumphantly to a military prison, feeling like Christ and
longing for a public cross.
The others, those that were young enough, shouldered a gun and went to
the front with high hearts and hardened muscles. Democracy ueber alles.
The women enlisted in the Red Cross and the Y.W.C.A., and worked with
grim enthusiasm, either at home or in France.
VI
By this time California, almost on another planet as she was, with her
abundance unchecked, and her skies smiling for at least three-fourths
of the year, admitted there was a real war in the world, as bad (or
worse) as any you could read about in history. The war films in the
motion picture houses were quite wonderful, but too terrible.
They also discussed it, especially on those days when the streets
echoed with the march of departing regiments in khaki, or one's own
son, or one's friend's son enlisted or was drafted, or it was their day
at Red Cross headquarters.
All the older women were at work now, and all but the most
irreclaimably frivolous of the young ones. Even Tom and Maria Abbott
made no protest against Joan's joining the Woman's Motor Corps; and,
dressed in a smart, gray, boyish uniform, she drove her car at all
hours of the day and night. She was not only sincerely anxious to
serve, but she knew, and sheltered girls all over the land knew,--to
say nothing of the younger married women--that this was the beginning
of their real independence, the knell of the old order. They were
freed. Even the reenforced concrete minds of the last generation
imperceptibly crumbled and were as imperceptibly modernized in the
rebuilding.
A good many of the women, old and young, continued to gamble furiously
out of their hours of work; but the majority of the girls did not.
Those with naturally serious minds were absorbed, uplifted, keen,
calculating. They did not even dance. They realized that they had
wonderful futures in a changing world. It was "up to them."
VII
Mortimer was beyond the draft age, but, possibly owing to his gallant
fearless appearance, it was rather expected that he would enlist. He
did not, however, nor did he join the Red Cross or the Y.M.C.A., nor
volunteer for some Government work, as so many of the men of his age
and class were doing as a matter of course.
War news bored him excessively. He was making two or three hundred
dollars a month; he lived at the Club when Maria Abbott occupied
Ballinger House--Tom went to Washington--and he was extremely
comfortable. In the Club he always felt like a blood, forgot for the
time being that he was not a rich man, like the majority of its
members, and there was always a group of nice quiet contented fellows,
glad to play bridge with him in the evening. On the whole, he
congratulated himself, he had not done so badly, although he had
resigned all hope of being a millionaire--unless he made a lucky
strike.... But it did not make so much difference in California ... and
when Alexina had had enough of horrors they would settle down again
very comfortably to the old life.... There was very good dancing at the
restaurants (upstairs) where one met nice girls of sorts who didn't
care a hang about this infernal war ... one of them ... but he was
extremely careful ... he would never be divorced; that was positive ...
as for society he did not miss it particularly ... the dancing at the
restaurants was better and he didn't have to talk ... whether people
stopped asking him or not, now that his wife was away, or whether they
entertained or not, didn't so much matter. He had the Club. That was
the all important pivot of his life, his altar, his fetish ... a lot he
cared what went so long as he had that.
BOOK IV
CHAPTER I
I
The Embassy was a blinding glare of light from the ground floor to the
upper story, visible above the wide staircase. After four years of
legal tenebration it was obvious that the ambassador's intention was to
celebrate the Armistice as well as the visit of his King to Paris with
an almost impish demonstration of the recaptured right to extravagance,
obliterate the dry economical past. The ambassador's country might be
intolerably poor after the war, but like many other prudent nobles he
had invested money in North and South America, and was able to
entertain his sovereign out of his private purse. He had made up his
mind to give the first brilliant function following the sudden end of
La Grande Guerre and one that it would be difficult for even Paris to
eclipse.
All Paris had burst forth into illumination of street and shop after
nightfall, but Alexina had seen no such concentrated blaze as this; and
her eyes, long accustomed to a solitary globe high in the ceiling of
her room, blinked a little, strong as they were. She had come with the
Marquis and Marquise de Morsigny, and after they had passed the long
receiving line where the King in his simple worn uniform stood beside
the resplendent ambassador, her friends' attention had been diverted to
a group of acquaintances chattering excitedly over the startling
munificence that seemed to them prophetic of a swift renaissance.
They moved off unconsciously, and Alexina remained alone near one of
the long windows behind the receiving line; but she felt secure in her
insignificance and quite content to gaze uninterruptedly at the
greatest function she had ever seen. After the bitter hard work, the
long monotonies, the brief terrible excitements, of the past four
years, and the depressed febrile atmosphere of Paris during the last
year when avions dropped their bombs nearly every night, and Big Bertha
struck terror to each quarter in turn, this gay and gorgeous scene
recalled one's most extravagant dreams of fairy-land and Arabia; and
Alexina felt like a very young girl. Even the almost constant sensation
of fatigue, mental and bodily, fell from her as she forgot that she had
worked from nine until six for three years in her oeuvre, often walking
the miles to and from her hotel or pension to avoid the crowded trains;
the distasteful food; the tremors that had shaken even her tempered
soul when the flashing of the German guns, drawing ever nearer, could
be seen at night on the horizon.
And Paris had been so dark!
She reveled almost sensuously in the excessiveness of the contrast,
quite unconcerned that her white gown was several years out of date.
For that matter there were few gowns, in these vast rooms, of this
year's fashion. Although Paris had begun to dance wildly the day the
Armistice was declared, not only in sheer reaction from a long devotion
to its ideal of duty, but that the American officers should have the
opportunity to discover the loveliness and charm of the French maiden,
the women had not yet found time to renew their wardrobes, and the only
gowns in the room less than four years old were worn by the newly
arrived Americans of the Peace Commission and the ladies of the
Embassy. The most striking figures were the French Generals in their
horizon blue uniforms and rows of orders on their hardy chests.
Of jewels there were few. When the German drive in March seemed
irresistible, jewels had been sent to distant estates, or to banks in
Marseilles and Lyons, and there had been no time to retrieve them after
the ambassador sent out his sudden invitations. Alexina smiled as she
recalled Olive de Morsigny's lament over the absence of her tiara.
European women of society take their jewels very seriously, and there
was not a Frenchwoman present who did not possess a tiara, however
old-fashioned.
But the cold luminosity of jewels would have been extinguished to-night
under this really terrific down-pour of light. The tall candelabra
against the tapestried or the white and gold walls were relieved of
duty; Paris had had enough of candlelight; the four immense chandeliers
of this reception room, either of which would have illuminated a
restaurant, had been rewired and blazed like suns. Suspended from the
ceiling, festooned between the candelabra and the chandeliers, were
clusters and loops of glass tupils and roses, each concealing an
electric bulb. Alexina reflected that the soft haze of candles might be
more artistic and becoming, but was grateful nevertheless for this
rather tasteless fury of light, symptomatic as it was; and understood
the ambassador's revolt against the enforced economies of a long war,
his desire to do honor to his unassuming little sovereign.
II
The room, whose lofty ceiling was supported along the center by three
massive pillars, was already crowded, and people entered constantly.
Every embassy was represented, all the grande noblesse of Paris and
even a stray Bourbon and Bonaparte. A few of the guests were the more
distinguished American residents of Paris and their gowns were as out
of date if as inimitably cut as the Frenchwomen's, for they had worked
as hard. But Alexina ceased to notice them. She had become aware that
two American officers, standing still closer to the window, were
talking. One of them had parted the curtains and was looking out.
"By Jove," he said. "Strikes me this is rather risky. Six long windows
opening on the garden, and the King standing directly in front of one
of them. Fine chance for some filthy Bolshevik or anarchist."
"Oh, nonsense," said the other absently; his eyes were roving over the
room. "Wish I could take to one of these French girls ... feel it a
sort of duty to increase the rapport and all that ... but although the
married women and the other sort of girls are a long sight more
fascinating than ours, the upper--"
"American girls for me. But I'm still jumpy, and this sort of
carelessness makes me nervous, particularly as the story is going about
that the King came near being assassinated in the station of his home
town when he was leaving. Man fired point blank at his face, but gun
didn't go off or some one knocked up the man's arm. Did you notice that
he looked about rather apprehensively when he arrived, at the station
yesterday? No wonder, poor devil."
III
Alexina moved off, making her way slowly, but finally was forced to
halt near the row of pillars. She was looking through the opposite door
at the fantastic illuminations of the hall and reception rooms beyond,
when, without a second's warning flicker, every light in the house went
out.
Simultaneously the high clatter of voices ceased as if the old familiar
cry of "_Alerte_" had sounded in the street. Involuntarily, as people
in real life do act, her hands clutched her heart, her mouth opened to
relieve her lungs. A Frenchman whispered beside her. "The King! A plot!"
She waited to hear screams from the women, wild ejaculations from the
men. But the years of war and danger had extinguished the weak and
exalted the strong. Beyond the almost inaudible gasp of her neighbor
Alexina heard nothing. The silence was as profound as the darkness and
that was abysmal; she could not see the white of her gown.
All, she knew, were waiting for the sound of a pistol shot, or of a
groan as the King fell with a knife in his back.
Then she became aware that men were forcing their way through the
crowd; she was almost flung into the arms of a man behind her. Later
she knew that a group of officers had surrounded their King and rushed
him up the room to place him in front of the central pillar, but at the
moment she believed that they were either carrying out his body, or
that a group of anarchists was escaping.
IV
Then one man lit a match. She saw a pale strained face, the eyes roving
excitedly above the flickering flame. Then another match was struck,
then another. Those that had no matches struck their briquets, and
these burned with a tiny yellow flame. One or two took down candles and
lit them. All over the room, in little groups, or widely separated,
Alexina saw face after face, white and anxious, appear. The bodies were
invisible. The faces hung, pallid disks, in the dark.
Her attention was suddenly arrested by a face above the small steady
flame of a briquet. It was a thin worn face, probably that of an
officer recently discharged from hospital. His expression was ironic
and unperturbed and his eyes flashed about the room exhibiting a lively
curiosity. An Englishman, probably; nothing there of the severity of
the American military countenance; although, to be sure, that had
relaxed somewhat these last weeks under the blandishments of Paris.
Nevertheless ... quite apart from the military, there was the curious
unanalyzable difference between the extremely well-bred American face
and the extremely well-bred English face. It might be that the older
civilization did not take itself quite so seriously....
V
Obeying an impulse, which, she assured herself later, was but the
sudden reaction to frivolity from the horror that had possessed her,
she took a match unceremoniously from the hand of a neighbor, lit it
and held it below her own face. The man's eyes met hers instantly,
opened a little wider, then narrowed.
She looked at him steadily ... interested ... something ... somewhere
... stirring. The match burnt her fingers and was hastily extinguished.
At the same time she became aware of a fuller effulgence just beyond
the pillars and that people were moving on, some retreating toward the
hall. She was carried forward and a little later turned her head,
forgetting for a moment the humorous face that still had seemed to
beckon above the white disks that inspired her with no interest
whatever.
Against the central pillar stood the King, and on either side of him
two officers of his suite, as rigid as men in armor, held aloft each a
great candelabra taken from the wall. All the candles in the branches
had been lit and shone down on the composed and somewhat expressionless
face of the King. The strange group looked like a picture in some old
cathedral window.
The scene lasted only a moment. Then the King, bowing courteously, left
the room, still between the candelabra; and, followed by his
ambassador, whose face was far paler than his, ascended the staircase.
VI
A Frenchman beside Alexina cursed softly and she learned the meaning of
the dramatic finale to a superb but rather dull function. There had
been no attempt at assassination. A lead fuse had melted; the
ambassador, who had taxed his imagination to honor his King, had
forgotten to give the order that electricians remain on guard to avert
just such a calamity as this.
As the explanation ran round the room people began to laugh and chatter
rapidly as if they feared the sudden reaction might end in hysteria.
But although all the candles had now been lit, the effort to revive the
mild exhilaration of the evening was fruitless. They wanted to get
away. Many still believed that a plot had been balked, and that the
assassins were lurking in one of the many rooms of the hotel.
Alexina met Olive de Morsigny in the dressing-room, and found her white
and shaking, although for four years she had proved herself a woman of
strong nerves as well as of untiring effort.
"Great heaven!" she whispered, as she helped Alexina on with her wrap.
"If he had been assassinated! In Paris! I thought Andre would faint.
His last wound is barely healed. Come, let us get out of this. Who
knows? ... In Paris!..."
Their car had to wait its turn. As Alexina stood with her silent
friends in the porte cochere the certainty grew that some one was
watching her. That officer! Who else? She flashed her eyes over the
crowd about her, then into the densely packed hall behind. But she
encountered no pair of eyes even remotely humorous, no face in any
degree familiar.... Later she whirled about again.... There was a
pillar ... easy to dodge behind it.... At this moment Andre took her
elbow and gently piloted her into the car.
CHAPTER II
I
Alexina in the weariness of reaction climbed the long stairs of her
pension in Passy.
Sibyl Bascom, whose husband being on government duty in Washington left
her free to go to France, and who rolled bandages all day long in the
great hospital in Neuilly; Janet Maynard and Alice Thorndyke, who ran a
canteen in the environs of Paris, and herself, had lived until the
Armistice in a comfortable hotel not far from the house of Olive de
Morsigny, and found much solace together. But their hotel had been
commandeered for one of the Commissions; Sibyl had taken refuge with
her sister-in-law, and Alexina, Janet, and Alice had found with no
little difficulty vacant rooms in a second-rate pension in Passy. The
food was even worse than at the hotel, the rooms were barely heated,
and as trams at Alexina's hours were airless and jammed, and taxicabs
in swarming Paris as scarce as tiaras, with drivers of an unsurpassable
effrontery, she was forced to walk three miles a day in all weathers.
It is true that she could have rented a limousine for a thousand francs
a month, but it was almost a religion with workers of her class to
economize rigorously and give all their surplus to the oeuvre of their
devotion. Janet and Alice went back and forth in one of the supply
camions of the Y.M.C.A.
II
Alexina passed Janet's room softly. She saw a light under the door and
inferred that she and Alice were playing poker and consuming many
cigarettes, that being their idea of recuperation between one hard
day's work and the next. She was in no mood for talking.
Her room was stuffy as well as cold; the furniture and curtains had
probably not been changed since the second empire. She opened one of
the long windows and stepped out on the balcony. The Seine was nearly
in flood after the heavy rains, but it reflected the stars to-night and
many long banners of light from the almost festive banks.
It was bitterly cold and she closed her window in a moment and moved
about her room. It was too cold to undress. She was inured to
discomforts and thankful that she had been brought up in San Francisco,
which is seldom warm; but she longed for a few creature comforts
nevertheless. During the war she had sustained herself with the thought
of the men in the trenches, but now that their lot was ameliorated she
felt that she had a right to what comforts she could find. The
difficulty was to find them. With Paris overflowing. Generals sleeping
in servants' rooms under the roof, soldiers, even officers, picking up
women on the streets if only to have a bed for the night, and hotel
after hotel being requisitioned for the various Peace Commissions and
their illimitable suites, conditions were likely to grow worse. Olive
de Morsigny had repeatedly offered hospitality, but she preferred her
independence.
To leave was impossible. Her oeuvre must continue for several months.
Sick and wounded men do not recover miraculously with the cessation of
hostilities. No doubt she should be grateful for this refuge, and now
that the war was over it might be possible to buy petrol for an oil
stove.
Then she became aware that it was not only the cold that made her
restless. The rigidly enforced calm of her inner life had received a
shock to-night and not from the imagined assassination of a king.
She went suddenly to her mirror and looked at herself intently ...
shook her head with a frown. She had always been slim; she was now very
thin. The roundness and color had left her cheeks. They were
pale--almost hollow. Janet and Alice had rejoiced in the lack of fats
and sweets, both having a tendency to plumpness had achieved without
effort the most fashionable slenderness that anxious woman could wish.
But she had not had a pound to lose. It seemed to her that she was
almost plain. Her eyes retained their dazzling brilliancy, a trick of
nature that old age alone no doubt could conquer, but there were dark
stains beneath the lower lashes.
She let down her hair. It was the same soft dusky mass as ever. Her
teeth were as even and bright; her lips had not lost their curves, but
they were pink, not red. She was anaemic, no doubt. Why, in heaven's
name, shouldn't she be? Even Olive, whose major domo, driving a Ford,
had paid daily visits to the farms and brought back what eggs, chickens
and other succulences the peasants would part with for coin, had lost
her brilliant color and the full lines of her beautiful figure. She had
rouged to-night and looked as lovely as when Morsigny had captured her,
but her magnificent gown had been too hastily taken in by an elderly
inefficient maid--her young one having patriotically deserted her for
munitions long since, and sagged on her bones as she expressed it.
Sibyl, who was in bed with the flu, had offered to lend her one of the
new ones she had had the forethought to buy in New York before sailing,
and was only a year old, but Olive had feared the critical eyes of
French women who had not replenished their evening wardrobe since
nineteen-fourteen.
Alexina did not feel particularly consoled because others had looked no
better than she. Until to-night she had given little thought to her
looks, but she now felt a renewed interest in herself, and the frown
was as much for this revival as for her wilted beauty.
Her evening wrap was very warm and she sat down in the hard arm-chair
and huddled into its folds, covering the lower part of her body with a
hideous brown quilt. No doubt the sheets were damp, and she knew that
she could not sleep. Why shiver in bed?
III
Was it Gathbroke? It was long since she had thought of him. She had not
even seen his photograph for four or five years. If it were, he had
changed even more since that photograph had been taken than after she
had dismissed him at Rincona.
She was by no means sore that it was he. The light of a briquet was not
precisely searching, and for the most part he had looked like more than
one war-worn British officer she had seen during her long residence in
Paris.... It was something in the eyes ... she could have vowed they
were hazel ... their expression had altered; it was that of a somewhat
ironic man of the world, which had changed as she watched them to the
piercing alertness of a man of action ... but after ... was it perhaps
an emanation of the personality that had so impressed her angry young
soul and refused to be obliterated?
But what of it? He might be married. Love another woman. All officers
and soldiers during the war had looked about eagerly for love, when not
already supplied, and given themselves up to it, indifferent as they
may have been before.... Life seemed shorter every time they went back
to the front.
And if not why should he be attracted to her again! He had loved her
for a moment when she had been in the first flush of her exquisite
youth. That was twelve years ago. She was now thirty. True, thirty,
to-day, was but the beginning of a woman's third youth, and a few weeks
in the California sunshine and nourished by the California abundance
would restore her looks, no doubt of that. But she would look no better
as long as she remained in Paris.... Nor did she wish to return to
California ... and beyond all question he must have forgotten, lost all
interest in her long since.
Still--there had been an eager upspringing light in his eyes ... was it
recognition? ... merely the passing impulse of flirtation over a match
and a briquet? ... No doubt she would never see him again.
CHAPTER III
I
Did she want to?
She had gone through many and extraordinary phases during these years
of close personal contact with the martial history of Europe, as
precisely different from the first twenty-six years of her life as
peace from war.
During those months of nineteen-fifteen when she had worked in
hospitals close to the front as auxiliary nurse, all the high courage
of her nature which she had inherited from a long line of men who had
fought in the Civil War, the Revolution, and in the colonial wars
before that, and the tribal wars that came after, and all that she had
inherited from those foremothers whose courage, as severely tested, had
never failed either their men or their country; in short, the
inheritance of the best American tradition; had risen automatically to
sustain her during that period of incessant danger and horror. She had
been firm and smiling for the consolation of wounded men when under
direct shell fire. She had felt so profound a pity for the mutilated
patient men that it had seemed to cleanse her of every selfish impulse
fostered by a too sheltered life. She had bathed so many helpless
bodies that she lost all sense of sex and felt herself a part of the
eternal motherhood of the world. She had once thrown herself over the
bed of a politely protesting poilu, covering his helpless body with her
own, as a shell from a taube came through the roof.
That had been a wonderful, a noble and exalted (not to say
exhilarating) period; a period that made her almost grateful for a war
that revealed to her such undreamed of possibilities in her soul. She
might smile at it in satiric wonder in the retrospect, but at least it
was ineradicable in her memory.
If it could but have lasted! But it had not. Insensibly she accepted
suffering, sacrifice, pity, as a matter of course, even as danger and
death. It had been the romance of war she had experienced in spite of
its horrors, and no romance lives after novelty has fled. For months
nothing seemed to affect her bodily resistance to fatigue, and as
exaltation dropped, as the monotony of nursing, even of danger, left
her mind more and more free, as war grew more and more to seem, the
normal condition of life, more and more she became conscious of herself.
II
Life at the front is very primitive. Social relations as the world
knows them cease to exist. The habits of the past are almost forgotten.
It is death and blood; shells shrieking, screaming, whining, jangling;
the boom of great guns as if Nature herself were in a constant
electrical orgasm; hideous stench; torn bodies, groans, cries, still
more terrible silences of brave men in torment; incessant
unintermittent danger. Above all, blood, blood, blood. She believed she
should smell it as long as she lived. She knew it in every stage from
the fresh dripping blood of men rushed from the field to the evacuation
hospitals, to the black caked and stinking blood of men rescued from No
Man's Land endless days and nights after they had fallen.
All that was elementary in her strong nature, inherited from strong,
full-blooded, often reckless and ruthless men, gradually welled to the
surface. She was possessed by a savage desire for life, a bitter
inordinate passion for life. Why not, when life might be extinguished
at any moment? What was there in life but life? Farcical that anything
else could ever have mattered.
Civilization--by which men meant the varied and pleasant times of
peace--seemed incredibly insipid and out of date. It had no more
relation to this war-zone than her youth to this swift and terrible
maturity.
She was in many hospitals--rushed where an indomitable and tireless
auxiliary nurse was most in demand--some under the direction of the
noblesse division of the Red Cross, others under the bourgeois; and in
more than one were English and American girls, long resident in France,
or, in the latter case, come from America like herself to serve the
country for which they had a romantic passion. The majority, of course,
were Frenchwomen, young (in their first freedom), middle-aged, elderly.
Of these some were placid, emotionless, extinguished, consistently
noble, selfless, profoundly and simply religious, as correct in every
thought and deed as the best bourgeois peace society of any land.
But others! Alexina had been horrified at first at the wanderings off
after nightfall of women who had nursed like scientific angels by day,
accompanied by men who were never more men than when any moment might
turn them into carrion. But with her mental suppleness she had quickly
readjusted her point of view. There is nothing as sensual as war. It is
the quintessential carnality. Renan once wrote a story of the French
Revolution, "The Abbess Juarre," in which his thesis was that if
warning were given that the world would end in three days the entire
population of the globe would give itself over to an orgy of sex; sex
being life itself. It is the obsession of the doomed consumptive, the
doomed spinster, the last thought of a man with the rope round his neck.
How much more under the terrific stimulation of war, the constant
heedless annihilation of life in its flower and its maturity? Man's
inveterate enemy, death, shrieking its derision in the very shells of
man's one inviolable right, the right to drift into eternity through
the peaceful corridors of old age. War is a monstrous anachronism and a
monstrous miscarriage of justice. The ignorant feel it less. It is the
enlightened, the intelligent, accustomed to the higher delights of
civilization, to the perfecting of such endowments, however modest, as
their ancestors have transmitted and peace has encouraged, with
ambitions and hopes and dreams, that resent however sub-consciously the
constant snarling of death at their heels. All the forces of mind and
body and spirit become formidable in a reckless hatred of the gross
injustice of a fate that individually not one of them has deserved.
But the moment remains. They compress into it the desires of a
lifetime. After years of proud individualism they have learned that
they are atoms, cogs, helpless, the sport of iron and steel and powder
and the ambitions and stupidities of men whose lives are never risked.
Very well, turn the ego loose to find what it can. If all they have
learned from civilization is as useless in this shrieking hell, as
impotent as the dumb resentment of the clod, they can at least be
animals.
To talk of the ennobling influences of war is one of the lies of the
conventionalized mind anxious to avoid the truths of life and to
extract good from all evil--worthy but unintelligent. How can men in
the trenches, foul with dirt and vermin, stench forever in their
nostrils, callous to death and suffering, wallowing like pigs in a
trough, compulsorily obscene, be ennobled? Courage is the commonest
attribute of man, a universal gift of Nature that he may exist in a
world bristling with dangers to frail human life; never to be
commended, only to be remarked when absent. If men lose it in the city,
the sedentary life, they recover it quickly in the camp. The
exceptions, the congenital cowards, slink out of war on any pretext,
but if drafted are likely to acquit themselves decently unless
neurotic. The cases of cowardice in active warfare are extremely rare;
a mechanical chattering of teeth, or shaking of limbs, but practically
never a refusal to obey the command to advance. But it is this very
courage which breeds callousness, and, combined with bestial
conditions, inevitably brutalizes.
When good people (far, oh far, from the zones of danger) can no longer
in the face of accumulating evidence, cling to their sentimental theory
that war ennobles, they take refuge in the vague but plausible
substitute that at least it makes the good better and the bad worse.
Possibly, but it is to be remembered that there is bad in the best even
where there is no good in the worst.
Indubitably it leaves its indelible mark in a collection of hideous
memories, on the just and the unjust, alike; as it is more difficult
(Nature having made human nature in an ironical mood) to recall the
pleasant moments of life than the poignantly unpleasant, so is it far
more difficult to recall the moments of exaltation, of that intense
spiritual desire which visits the high and low alike, to give their all
for the safety of their country and the honor of their flag. Moreover,
the sublime indifference in the face of certain death often has its
origin in a still deeper necessity to relieve the insufferable strain
on scarified nerves, and forever. As for the much vaunted recrudescence
of the religious spirit which is one of the recurring phenomena of war,
it is merely an instinct of the subtle mind, in its subtlest depths
called soul, to indulge in the cowardice of dependence since the body
must know no fear.
If men who have been temperate and moral all their lives, or at the
worst indulging in moderation, spend their leaves of absence from the
front like swine, it is not a reaction from the monotony of trench
life, or from the nerve-racking din of war, but merely an extension of
the fearful stimulation of a purely carnal existence, even where the
directing mind is ever on the alert.
The aggressors of war should be pilloried in life and in history. Men
must defend their country if attacked; to do less would be to sink
lower than the beasts that defend their lairs; and for that reason all
pacifists, and conscientious objectors, are abject, mean, and shabby.
In times of national danger no man has a right to indulge his own
conscience; it merges, if he be a normal courageous man, into the
national conscience. But that very fact lowers the deliberate seekers
of war so far below the high plane of civilization as we know it, that
they should be blotted out of existence.
III
As regards women Alexina was not likely to remain shocked for long at
any erratic manifestations of temperament. Pride and fastidiousness and
the steel armor fused by circumstances had protected her heretofore
from any divagations of her own; nor had crystallized temptation ever
approached her.
But her education had been liberal. Several of her intimate friends and
more that she associated with daily made what she euphemistically
termed a cult of men. The naive deliberate immorality of young things
not only in the best society but in all walks of life is far more
prevalent than the good people of this world will ever believe. Those
with much to lose seldom lose it; the instinct of self-protection
envelops them as a mantle; although in small towns, where concealments
are less simple, the majority of scandals are not about married women
as in a less sophisticated era, but about girls.
Alexina had possessed numerous confidences, helped more than once to
throw dust, amiably replaced the post. She had never approved, but she
was philosophical. She took life as she found it; although the fact
stood out that Aileen, who was indifferent to men, remained always her
favorite friend.
An individualist, she felt it no part of her philosophy to criticize
the acts of women with different desires, weaknesses, temptations,
equipment from her own; all other things being equal. That was the
point. These girls who made use of their most secret and personal
possession as they saw fit were as well-bred as herself, honorable in
all their dealings with one another and with society at large,
generous, tolerant, exquisite in their habits, often highly intelligent
and studious. Sex was an incident.
With the peccadillos of married women who were wives she had little
tolerance as they were a breach of faith, a deliberate violation of
contract, and indecent to boot. She was quite aware that Sibyl for all
her posturings, and avidness for sex admiration, and "acting oriental"
as the phrase went, was entirely devoted to Frank. Such of her married
friends as had severed all but the nominal and public bond with their
legal husbands, she placed in the same category as girls as far as her
personal attitude toward them went.
IV
Therefore not only did she understand these young women driven by the
horrid stimulus of war; women (or girls) heretofore sheltered,
virtuous, romantic, sentimental, now merely filled with the lust of
life. They were, like herself, devoted and meticulous nurses, brave,
high-minded, tender; practically all, if not from the upper, at least
from the educated ranks of life. But they lived under the daily shadow
of death. Even when safe from the shells of the big guns, the murderous
aircraft paid them daily visits, singling out hospitals with diabolical
precision. They were in daily contact with young torn human bodies from
which had gone forever the purpose for which one generation precedes
another. Life was horror. Blood and death and shattered bodies were
their daily portion. No matter how brave, they heard death scream in
every shell. The world beyond existed as a mirage. No wonder they
became primeval.
Alexina had met Alice Thorndyke in one of these hospitals and observed
her with some curiosity. But Alice was, to use her own vernacular, the
best little bourgeoise of them all. She had had her fling. Men repelled
her. She never meant to marry, even for substance. When the war was
over she should live the completely independent life. Nobody would care
what economic liberties a woman took in the new era. The war had
liberalized the most conservative old bunch of relatives a girl was
ever inflicted with.
V
As Alexina sat huddled in her warm coat--the periwinkle blue to which
she was still faithful--her dark fine hair, hanging about her, a mantle
in itself, she recalled those days when she, too, had vibrated to that
savage lust for life; those days of concentrated egoism, of deep and
powerful passions whose existence she had only dimly begun to suspect
after she dismissed her husband.
What had held her back? She had had a no more fastidious inheritance
than most of those women, a no more cultivated intelligence, nor proud
instinct of selection, nor ingrained habit of self-control.
She had put it down at first to fastidiousness, possibly a still
lurking desire to be able to give all to one man; that hope of the
complete mating which no woman relinquishes until toothless, certainly
not in the mere zone of death.
She had concluded that it was neither of these, or at least that they
had but played a part, and alone would never have won. It was a furious
mental revolt at the terrific power of the body, the mind, frightened
and cornered, determined to dominate; a fierce delight in the battle
raging behind her serene and smiling mask to the accompaniment of that
vulgar blare of war where mind over matter was as powerless in the
death throe as incantations during an eruption of Vesuvius.
This internal silent warfare between her long reed-like body as little
sensible to fatigue as if made of flexible steel and her extremely cold
proud chaste-looking head had grown to be of such absorbing interest
that the knowledge of its cessation was almost a shock. It was after a
prolonged experience in a hospital where they were short of nurses and
rest was almost unknown and the inroads upon her vitality so severe and
menacing that she was finally ordered to Paris to rest, and there found
a complete change of habit in an oeuvre founded by the equally
exhausted but always valiant Olive de Morsigny, that she suddenly
realized that somewhere sometime the battle had finished and mind and
body were acting in complete harmony.
VI
To-night she wondered if her imagination, turned loose, stimulated, had
not missed the whole point. There had been no man who had made the
direct irresistible appeal. No concrete temptation.... She had after
all been a degree too civilized ... or ... romantic idealism?
There had been little to stimulate and excite since she had settled
down to office work in the summer of nineteen-sixteen. Her nerves,
always strong, had become too case-hardened to be affected by avions or
the immense uncertainties of Big Bertha; although the light on the
horizon at night during the last German Drive and the bellow of the
guns had shaken her with a sort of reminiscent excitement.
But for the most part she had felt frozen, torpid, a cog in the vast
military machine of France, dedicating herself like hundreds of other
women to the succor of men she never saw. That extraordinary abominable
experience at the front was overlaid, almost forgotten. And such news
as one had in Paris was quite enough to exercise the mind.... There had
been the downfall of the Russian dynasty ... the still more sinister
downfall of the true revolutionists ... the Bolshevik monster
projecting its murderous shadow over all Europe, exposing the
instability of the entire social structure....
VII
Was it? Could such an experience ever be forgotten? The grass might
grow over the dead on the battlefields, but the corruption fed the
wheat, and the peogle of France ate the bread. This uninvited thought
had intruded itself the first time she had driven by the Marne
battlefields and seen the numberless crosses in the rich abundant
fields.
She smiled, a small, secret, ruthless smile.... That was her residue:
ruthlessness. She may have left behind her in the turbulent war-zone
the savage elementary lust for living at any cost, but she had
ineradicably learned the value of life, its brevity at best, the still
more tragic brevity of youth; she had a store of hideous memories which
could only be submerged first in the performance of duty if duty were
imperative; then, duty discharged and finished, in the one thing that
during its brief time gave life any meaning, made this earthly sojourn
bearable. If she met the man she wanted she would have him if she had
to fight for him tooth and nail.
It was four o 'clock. She went to bed.
CHAPTER IV
I
The next day Alexina found herself suddenly free of office duty, A very
handsome and wealthy American woman who had not been able to visit her
beloved Paris since the beginning of the World's War, and finding the
State Department obdurate to the whims of pretty women, had induced
Mrs. Ballinger Groome, on one of whose committees she had worked
faithfully, to ask her sister-in-law to inform the Department of State
that her services at the oeuvre in Paris were indispensable.
Alexina had passed the letter on to the President, Madame de Morsigny,
and forgotten the incident. Olive wrote the necessary letter promptly.
Not only did she believe that the time had come for Alexina to rest,
but she longed for a fresh access of energy in the office that would in
a measure relieve herself. Moreover, Mrs. Wallack was wealthy and had
many wealthy friends. That meant more money for the oeuvre, always in
need of money. Olive had given large sums herself, but the president of
a charity is yet to be found who will not permit its constant demands
to be relieved by the generous public. Mrs. Wallack had not only
promised a substantial donation at once, but a monthly contribution.
This had not been named, but Madame de Morsigny meant that it should be
something more than nominal. She could do so much for Mrs. Wallack
socially, now that it was possible to entertain again, that she felt
reasonably confident of rousing the enthusiasm of any ambitious New
Yorker. Moreover, Olive had a very insinuating way with her.
II
Mrs. Wallack presented herself at the imposing headquarters of the
oeuvre, radiant, fresh, energetic, beautifully dressed. The war had
interested her and commanded her sympathies to some purpose, but
nothing short of personal affliction could subdue that inexhaustible
vitality, and she seemed to bring into the dark and solemn rooms
something of the atmospheric gayety and sunshine of a land that had
done much but suffered little.
By no one was she received with more warmth of welcome than by Alexina.
The sudden release made her realize sharply her lowered vitality.
Moreover, the semi-yearly income which had just arrived from California
was her own now and she could replenish her wardrobe and feel feminine
and irresponsible once more. The reaction was so violent that after
inducting Mrs. Wallack into the mysteries of her desk she remained in
bed, prostrate, for two days. Then, feeling several years younger, she
sallied forth in search of many things.
III
There is no such antidote to the migraines of the woman soul as
clothes. Their only rival is travel and there are cases where they know
none. Sometimes women remember to pity men, that have no such happy
playground.
Alexina for all her ramifications, some of them too deep, had a light
and feminine side. During the following fortnight she gave it full
rein; she was absorbed, almost happy. She spent quite recklessly and
after the years of economy and self-denial this alone gave her an
intense satisfaction. In addition to her income forwarded by Judge
Lawton, who had charge of her affairs, her brother Ballinger, who was
as fond of her as of his own children, and very proud of her--she had
received two decorations--sent her a large check with the mandate to
spend it on herself.
IV
Even so, she was not always in the shops and the dressmakers' ateliers.
She found much amusement in strolling up and down the arcades of the
Rue de Rivoli, watching the odd throngs at which Paris herself seemed,
to bend her head and stare.
Some poet had called Paris the mistress of Europe. She looked like an
old trollop. She was dirty and dreary, unpainted and unwashed. The rain
was almost incessant and the shop windows were soon denuded of the few
attractive novelties scrambled together to meet the sudden demand after
the long drought.
But under the long arcades the curious sauntering throngs were
sheltered from the rain and found all things in Paris novel. Men in the
American khaki, from generals to striplings, were there by the hundred;
endless streams of young women in the uniform of the Red Cross, the
Y.M.C.A., the Salvation Army; British and American nurses; members of
the fashionable oeuvres artlessly watching this novel phase of Paris;
the beautiful violet uniform of Le Bien-Etre du Blesse; girls with worn
faces and relaxed bodies fresh from the front, hundreds of them,
arriving daily in camions and cars, thanking heaven for the sudden
cessation of work, sleeping heaven knew where. The American women of
the Commission, and others who, like Mrs. Wallack, had invented a
plausible excuse to get to Paris and looked almost anachronistic in
their smart gowns, their fresh faces, their bright, curious, glancing
eyes.
There were also officers in the uniform of Britain, and Alexina
regarded them frankly, with no effort to deceive herself. The spirit of
adventure was awake in her, now that the dark mood had passed, or
slept. She hoped to meet the man of the embassy again, whether he were
Gathbroke or another. She had liked his eyes.
She had met many charming and interesting men during the last two and a
half years at Olive de Morsigny's table, especially when Andre,
convalescent, was at home. But their eyes had said nothing to her
whatever, if not for the want of trying. Alexina's imagination, torpid
for many months, ran riot. This man might disappoint her, might have
nothing in him for her, but she refused for more than a moment to
contemplate anything so flat. Something must come of that adventure,
that vital intensely personal moment when their eyes had met above
flames so tiny the wonder was they could see anything but a white blur
on the dark. She was as sure of meeting him again as that she trod on
air after she had ordered a new gown or brought an inordinately
becoming hat. She had forgotten Mortimer's existence.
CHAPTER V
I
One day at the Hotel Crillon she thought she had found him.
She had passed the portals of that fortress with some delay, for the
American Commission protected itself as if it dwelt under the shadow of
imminent assassination and theft; whereas it was merely exclusive. The
sentries at the door demanded her permit, and passed her in with
intense suspicion to the inner guard. This was composed of three polite
but very young lieutenants in smart new uniforms with no blight of war
on them, and flagrantly of the American aristocracy.
With these she had less trouble, for they recognized her social status
and accepted her explanation that she had been invited for tea with one
of the ladies of the Commission. Nevertheless, they knew their duty and
Alexina was followed up to the door of her hostess' suite by another
young guardian who watched her entrance through the sacred door as
carefully as if he suspected her of carrying a bomb in her muff.
II
The party numbered about thirty, and Alexina, after chatting with the
few she knew, was standing apart by a small table drinking a cup of tea
with three lumps of sugar in it and consuming cakes like a greedy
boarding-school girl home for the holidays, when she caught sight of a
man in the British khaki, a major by his insignia, a tall man, thin and
straight, standing with his back to her at the opposite end of the
room. He was talking to the host and a small group of men. She glimpsed
something like half of his profile when he turned from the host for a
moment. Like all men in khaki, when not pronounced brunettes, his
complexion and hair looked the same color as his uniform.
Nevertheless ... if she could only see his eyes ... he turned his full
profile ... she had never glanced at Gathbroke's profile; he had given
her no opportunity! ... Certainly she had not the faintest idea whether
the man of the embassy had had a snub nose or the thin straight feature
of this man who would have attracted her attention in any ease if only
because he did not carry his shoulders with the disillusioning
obliquity of the British Army ... why did he not turn round? Alexina
felt an impulse to throw her cup straight across the room at the back
of that well-shaped head.
Suddenly he shook hands with his host, nodded to the others and left
the room.
III
Alexina set her cup and saucer down on the table, forebore to interrupt
her hostess, who was known to talk steadily in order to avoid
questions, and walked quickly and deliberately out after him. It is a
primitive instinct in woman to chase the male; but civilization having
initiated her into the art of permitting him to chase her, Alexina was
merely bent upon giving this man his chance if the interest had been
mutual and existed beyond the moment.
One lift was descending as she reached the outer corridor and the other
was closed. She ran down the wide staircase as rapidly as a woman in
fashionable skirts may. There was no British uniform in the hall below.
IV
She stood for a quarter of an hour under the arcade before the Crillon
waiting for a taxi, staring out into the dreary mist of rain, at the
round soft blurs of light in the Place de la Concorde, but in no wise
depressed. What did it matter if she had not met him to-day? The
conviction that she should meet him before long was as strong as if she
were ever hopeful sixteen.... That was the real secret of her elation.
She felt very young and entirely carefree. She reflected that if she
had met Gathbroke, or whoever he might be, during the last three years
of the war she would have felt neither joy nor elation, however
interested she might have been. To love and dream and enjoy when men
were falling every minute, writhing in agony, gasping out their life,
would have seemed to her grossly unaesthetic if nothing worse. It was
not in the picture. The primal impulses she had experienced at the
front to that harsh music of Death's orchestra were natural enough; but
safe (comparatively!) in Paris, certainly quiet, the romance of love
would have been as incongruous and heartless as to go out to the great
hospital at Neuilly and tango through a ward of dying men.
But now! She had done her part. She could do no more. Men still must
die, but in every comfort, with every consolation. And there would be
no more recruits.
She was free. She was young, young, young again.
And at this moment her heart emptied itself of song and sank like lead
in her breast. She pressed her muff against her face to hide the sudden
grimace she was sure contorted it; there had been few moments in her
life when she had not been mistress of her features, but this was one
of them.
Gora Dwight was walking rapidly toward her.
CHAPTER VI
I
Gora did not see her sister-in-law for a moment and Alexina had time to
recover her poise and make sharp swift observations. She had not seen
Gora for four years, nor exchanged a line with her. She had almost
forgotten her. The changes were more striking than in herself, who had
been always slight. Gora's superb bust had disappeared; her face was
gaunt, throwing into prominence its width and the high cheek bones. Her
eyes were enormous in her thin brown face; to Alexina's excited
imagination they looked like polar seas under a gray sky brooding above
innumerable dead. There were lines about her handsome mouth, closer and
firmer than ever. How she must have worked, poor thing! What sights,
what suffering, what despair ... four long years of it. But she had
evidently had her discharge. She wore an extremely well-cut brown
tailored suit, good furs, and a small turban with a red wing.
What was she in Paris for? ... What ... what ...
II
Gora saw her and almost ran forward, that brilliant inner light that
had always been her chief attraction breaking through her cold face ...
sunlight sparkling on polar seas ... oh, yes, Gora had her charm!
"Alexina! It isn't possible! I was going to ask at the American Embassy
for your address. I only arrived last night."
Alexina had lowered her muff and her face expressed only the warmest
surprise and welcome. "Gora! It's too wonderful! But I suppose you
couldn't go home without seeing Paris?"
"Rather not! It's the first chance I've had, too. Where can we have a
talk?"
"It's too late for tea. Come out to my pension and spend the night.
Janet and Alice have gone to Nice for a few days' rest. You'll be
hideously uncomfortable--"
"Not any more than where I am--sharing a room with three others. Where
can I telephone? In here?"
"Good heavens, no. Take a liberty with a duke, but with the American
aristocracy, never. Come down to the Meurice. Perhaps we can find a cab
there. This seems to be hopeless. Everybody comes to the Crillon in a
private car or a military automobile. Taxis appear to avoid it."
III
It only took half an hour to get the telephone connection and another
to seize by force a taxi, which, however, deposited them at the Etoile.
The driver explained unamiably that he wanted his dinner; and a bribe,
unless unthinkable, would have been useless. In these days taxi drivers
made fifty francs a day in tips, and, as a Frenchman knows exactly what
he wants and calculates to a nicety when he has enough, valuing rest
and nutriment above even the delights of gouging foolish Americans,
Alexina knew that it would be useless to argue and did not even waste
energy in announcing her opinion of him for taking a fare under false
pretenses. There was no other cab in sight and they walked the rest of
the way. But both were inured to hardships and took their mishap
good-naturedly, trudging the long distance under their umbrellas.
IV
After a very bad dinner in an airless room as frugally lighted they
made themselves comfortable in Alexina's room over the oil stove she
had bought, and supplied through Olive's influence with the higher
powers. She took off her street clothes and put on a thick dressing
gown, giving her sister-in-law a quilted red wrapper of Janet's, which
threw some warmth into Gora's pale cheeks. She looked comfortable,
almost happy, as she smoked her cigarette in the arm-chair.
Alexina curled up on the bed.
"Now, Gora," she said brightly, "give an account of yourself."
Gora did not reply for a moment and Alexina examining her again came to
the conclusion that she had been spared some of the horrors of the
front. As a head nurse her responsibilities had been too heavy for
philanderings, and having the literary imagination rather than the
personal she had no doubt consigned it to a water-tight compartment and
converted herself into a machine.
"I don't know that I can talk about it," she said. "I feel much like
the men. It is too close. I am thankful that I Had the experience: not
only to have been of actual service, indispensable, as every good nurse
was, but to have been a part of that colossal drama. But I am even more
thankful that it is over and if I can possibly avoid it I'll never
nurse again."
"I suppose you have had no time to write?"
"I should think not! During the brief leaves of absence I spent most of
the time in bed. But I have an immense amount of material. I have no
idea how much fiction has been written about the war; there might have
been none, so far as I have had time to discover. I've barely read a
newspaper."
"The only reason I want to go back to America is to hear the news. I
see a New York newspaper once in a while, and it is plain they have it
all. We have next to none in Europe, in France at all events. Shall you
write your stories here or go back to California? That would give you
the necessary perspective, I should think."
Alexina's eyes were fixed upon an execrable print many inches above the
footboard, and Gora, glancing at her, reflected that she was as
beautiful as ever in spite of her loss of flesh and color. Any one
would be with eyes that were like stars when they looked at you and a
Murillo madonna's when she lifted them the fraction of an inch. Astute
as she was she had never penetrated below the surface of Alexina, nor
suspected the use she made of those pliable orbs. Alexina had such an
abundance of surface it occurred to few people that she might be both
subtle and deep.
"I ... don't know.... I rather fear losing the atmosphere ... the
immediate stimulation. Shall you go home, now that you are free?"
"I wonder. Could I stand it? I have longed for a rest--ached would be a
better word.... This last year has been full of both nervous strain and
desperate monotony. Nineteen-seventeen was bad enough in another way:
the internal defeatist campaign, the constant menace of mutiny, soviets
in the army, strikes in the munition towns,--all the rest of it.... But
could one stand California after such an experience? I know they have
done splendid work since we entered the war, but I know also that they
will immediately subside into exactly what they were before, settle
down with a long sigh of relief to enjoy life and forget that war ever
was. It could not be otherwise in that climate. With that abundance.
That remoteness.... There seems no place out there for me. A decorator
after this! What funny little resources we thought out in those
days.... I do not see myself fitting in anywhere. Tom wants to buy
Ballinger House for Maria and I fancy I'll let him have it. I can't
keep it up unaided and I might as well sell as rent it. He and Judge
Lawton would invest the money and I should have quite a decent income.
As for Mortimer I never want to see him again. He has not done one
thing for this war--he is utterly contemptible--
"I've long since given up criticizing Mortimer. My father once sized
him up. He hasn't an ounce of brain. He'd like to be quite different,
but you can stretch Nature's equipment so far and no farther. He
stretched his until it suddenly snapped back and found itself shrunken
to less than half its natural size. Vale Mortimer. Let him rest. Why
don't you divorce him? No doubt he has found some one else--
"I couldn't divorce him on that count, for I told him repeatedly to
console himself. It wouldn't be playing the game. Of course there are
other grounds. It would be easy enough. But our family has a strong
aversion to divorce. And a unique record.... Not that that would stop
me if I found any one I really wanted to marry. Nothing would stop me,
in fact."
Gora glanced at her quickly, arrested by something in her voice. She
had already noticed that Alexina's limpid musical tones had deepened.
Just now they rang with something of the menace of a deep-toned bell.
"Have you found him?" she asked smiling. "If there are obstacles, so
much the more interesting. I don't fancy that romantic streak in your
nature which permitted you to idealize Mortimer has quite dried up.
Once romantic always romantic--I deduce from human nature as I have
studied it."
"Well ... I am rather afraid of romance. Certainly I'd never be blinded
again. A man might be nine parts demi-god and if I knew--and I should
know--that there was no companionship in him for me I wouldn't marry
him."
"That I believe." Alexina was once more regarding the print. Gora
wondered if sex would influence her at all.
"But have you met him? You were always an interesting child and you've
roused my curiosity."
"No ... yes ... I don't know ... later perhaps I'll tell you something.
But I'm far more interested in you. Have you been in France all this
time?"
"Oh, no. I was in Rouen for a year. Then I was in hospitals in England
until the German Drive began in. March when I was sent over again. Oh,
God! what sights! what sounds! what smells!" She huddled into her chair
and stared at the dull flame behind the little door of the stove.
"Oh, I know them all. Think of something else. Surely you met--but
literally--hundreds of officers, and some must have interested you. The
British officer at best is a superb creature--if he would only stand up
straight. I saw one at the Crillon to-day whose good American shoulders
made me stare at him quite rudely."
"Who was he?"
"Haven't the faintest idea. I only saw his back, anyway. Surely you
must have been more than passing interested in one or two."
"I am not susceptible. And nursing is not conducive to romance."
"But you never were romantic, Gora dear. And you are good-looking in
your odd way. And that was your great, chance."
"Well, I'm afraid I was too busy or too tired to take it. Now ...
perhaps ... but I'm afraid I don't inspire men with either romance or
passion. They like me and are grateful--that is, as grateful as an
Englishman can be; they take most things for granted."
"The French are so grateful, poor dears. I loved them all. After all
... Frenchmen...." Her voice grew dreamy.
Again Gora threw her an amused glance. "You must have met many of them
at your friend, Madame de Morsigny's, and under far more attractive
conditions than any man can hope for in a sick bed.... I can't imagine
any more appropriate destiny for you ... you should be Madame la
duchesse at the very least."
"Not money enough, and besides they've all grown so religious, or think
they have, they wouldn't stand for divorce. Anyhow it would be so hard
on 'The Family'! ... Still.... But why, Gora dear, do you depreciate
yourself? It seems to me that you are just the type that a certain sort
of man would appreciate--fall in love with. I've heard even American
men who play about in society comment on your looks, different as you
are from sport and fluff and come-hitherness; and you only need a few
months' rest to look like your old self. I should think that a highly
intelligent Englishman would find you irresistible, especially if you
had shown your womanly side when he had holes in him. I've always had
an idea that Englishmen weren't nearly as afraid of intellectual women
as American men are."
"That's true enough. But I doubt if there are any men more susceptible
to beauty, or quite as lustful after it, no matter how romantic they
may think they are feeling. I've talked to a good many of them in the
past four years, and for six months I was in charge of a convalescent
hospital in Kent. I think I've pretty thoroughly plumbed the
Englishman. They found me sympathetic all right, forgot their racial
shyness and inadvertently gave me much valuable material. But I saw no
indication that I made any sex appeal to them whatever."
"Not one? Not ever?"
Gora gave a slight withdrawing movement as if something sacred had been
touched. But she answered: "Oh ... some day I may have something to
tell you.... You said much the same thing to me a little while ago.
Tell me now."
Alexina turned over on her elbow to beat up her pillows. Then she
answered lightly but firmly: "Not unless you promise to do likewise.
Mine is such a little thing anyhow. I know by the expression of your
face--just now--that, yours is the real thing. Is he in Paris?"
"I'm ... not sure.... Yes, there is something ... the conditions are
very peculiar ... not at all what you think ... there is so much more
to it.... No, I don't think I can tell you."
A fortnight ago Alexina could have lifted her eyes and uttered
Gathbroke's name as if groping through a jungle of memories. But she
could no more force his name through her lips now than she could have
laid bare all that was in her tumultuous soul. It was, in fact, all she
could do to keep from screaming. For a moment her excitement was so
intense that she jumped from the bed and ran over and opened the window.
"This room gets intolerably stuffy. That is the worst of it--freeze or
stifle."
"Oh, I have been cold so long! Please don't leave it open. That's a
darling."
V
Alexina closed it with an amiable smile. "What would you do, Gora, if
you were really mad about a man? Have him at any cost? Annihilate
anything that stood in your way? Anybody, I mean."
An appalling light came into Gora's pale eyes as she turned them, at
first in some surprise, on her sister-in-law: "Yes, if I thought he
cared ... could be made to care if I had the chance ... if another
woman tried to get him away ... yes, I don't fancy I'd stop at
anything.... Even if I finally were forced to believe that he never
could care for me in that way, the only way that counts with men--at
first, anyway ... well, I believe I'd fight to the death just the same.
When you've waited for thirty-four years ... well, you know what you
want! Better die fighting than live on interminably for nothing ...
less than nothing.... I can't tell you any more. Please don't ask me."
"Of course not. I'll tell you my little story." And she gave a rapid
vivid account of the remarkable scene at the Embassy. She concluded
abruptly: "Do you think one could tell that a man's eyes were
hazel--the golden-brown hazel--across a pitch dark room above the flame
of a briquet?"
"Hazel?" Alexina was standing behind Gora. She saw her body stiffen.
"I could have vowed they were hazel. And that he was English. He also
reminded me of some one I must have met somewhere or other ... one
meets so many ... possibly it was only a fancy."
"You didn't see him after the lights went on again?"
"They didn't. Only candles. We were all too anxious to get away,
anyhow. I fancy the King was in a hurry to get the ambassador upstairs
and tell him what he thought of him--"
"Don't be flippant. You always did have a maddening habit of being
flippant at the wrong time. Haven't you seen him again anywhere?"
"I've walked the Rue de Rivoli and lunched at the Ritz looking for him;
but I've never had even a glimpse--unless that was his back I saw at
the Crillon to-day. If I saw his eyes I'd know in a minute."
"Why should you think it was his back?"
"Some men have expression in the back of their head. And I just had an
idea--fantastic, no doubt--that my particular Englishman stands up
straight."
"Yours?"
"Yes, I'm feeling quite too fearfully romantic. I'm sure he's looking
for me as hard as I am for him. And if I find him I'll keep him."
She saw Gora's long brown hands slowly clench until they looked like
steel. She glanced at her own slim white hands. They were quite as
strong if more ornamental. She yawned politely.
"I'm not so romantic as sleepy. I know that you must be dead after your
journey. They say it's more trouble to travel to Paris from London than
from New York. The girls won't be back for a week. You must get your
things to-morrow and come out here. I won't hear of your living in
Paris discomfort with three two empty rooms."
"That is good of you. Yes, I'll come. And perhaps your landlady, or
whatever they call them here, could put me up later. Now that I have
come to Paris I intend to see it. I believe some of the great galleries
and museums are to be reopened."
"Andre will arrange it if they're not. How you will enjoy it with your
sensitiveness to all the arts. Take this candle in ease the bulb is
burnt out. It usually is."
VI
Gora had risen. Her face wore an expression both puzzled and grim; but
she and Alexina as they said good-night looked full into each other's
eyes without faltering. And Alexina had never looked more ingenuous.
Perhaps that dim idea ... that she had thrown down a challenge ... had
come out in the open for a moment ... insolently? ... honestly? ... She
_must_ be completely fagged out after that abominable trip to have such
absurd fancies. She took her candle; and disposed herself in Janet's
bed, between four walls that gave her an unexpected and heavenly
privacy, with a deep sigh of gratitude, dismissing fantasies.
VII
During the next ten days Alexina kept as close to Gora as was possible
in the circumstances. She had made many engagements and not all of them
were social; there were still gowns to be fitted, committee meetings to
attend. Twice Gora appeared to have risen with the dawn, and she
vanished for the day. Nevertheless, it grew increasingly evident to
Alexina's alert and penetrating vision that Gora was neither peaceful
nor happy; therefore it was safe to assume that she had not found
Gathbroke. For some reason she had not inquired at the British Embassy.
Or a letter to its care had failed to reach him. Possibly he was
enjoying himself without formalities.
She took Gora twice to the Ritz to luncheon and on several afternoons
to tea. But it was a mob of Americans and members of the various
Commissions. A brilliant sight, but not in the least satisfactory. It
was quite patent from Gora's ever traveling eyes that she sought and
never found.
Therefore when Olive asked Alexina to go to one of the towns where the
oeuvre had a branch and attend to an important matter that Mrs. Wallack
was far too much of a novice to be entrusted with, she agreed at once.
She experienced a growing desire to get away by herself--away from
Paris--away from Gora. She wanted to think. What if Gora did meet him
first? She would be but the more certain to meet him herself. Moreover
... give Gora a sporting chance.
Janet and Alice had written from Nice that they might be detained for
some time. Gora unpacked her trunk and settled down in the pension with
that air of indestrucible patience that had always made her formidable.
She was not one of Life's favorites, but she had wrung prizes from that
unamiable deity more than once.
Alexina speculated. Gora had all the brains that Mortimer lacked and
commanding traits of character. She was so striking in appearance even
now that people often turned and stared at her. But unless she
possessed the potent spell of woman for man all her gifts would avail
her nothing in this tragic crisis of her life. Did she possess it I No
woman could answer. Certainly Alexina had never seen evidence of it
even in Gora's youth; although to be sure her opportunities had been
few. Still ... when a woman possesses the most subtle and powerful of
all the fascinations men are drawn to it, no matter how dark the sky or
high the barriers. Nothing is keener than the animal essence. Still ...
she had heard that some women developed it later than others. Alexina
feared nothing else.
She fancied that Gora took leave of her with a little indrawn sigh of
relief. It was with difficulty that she repressed her own.
CHAPTER VIII
I
"Can this be Lieutenant James Kirkpatrick?"
Kirkpatrick wheeled about and snatched off his cap.
"Mrs. Dwight, by all that's holy! I never expected any such luck as
this!"
They shook hands warmly in the deserted square which had been a
shambles during the first battle of the Marne, and in the days of Caesar
and Attila, of Napoleon the Great and Napoleon the Little. To-day it
was as gray and peaceful, its houses as aloof and haughty as if war had
never been. It was a false impression, however, for it was the
paralysis of war it expressed, not even the normal peace of a dull
provincial town.
"I've often wondered about you," said Alexina. "But I've been working
with the French Army and had no way of finding out. You don't look as
if you had been wounded."
"Nary scratch, and in the thick of it. My, but it's good to sec you
again." He stared at her, his face flushed and his breath short. Then
he asked abruptly: "When do you think we're goin' home?"
Alexina laughed merrily. "That is the first question every officer or
private I have met since the Armistice has asked me. I should feel
greatly flattered, but I fancy the question, being always on the top of
your minds, simply babbles off."
"You bet. But--Jimminy! I'm glad to see you. You're lookin' thin,
though. Been workin', too, I'll bet."
"Oh, yes--and all your old class has worked; most of them over here.
Mrs. Cheever couldn't come, as her husband is in the army. But she's
worked hard in California."
"I believe you. The women have come up to the scratch, no doubt of
that. Although some of them! Good Lord! This isn't my usual language
when speaking of them. But if some came over to do just about as they
damn please, the others strike the balance, and on the whole I think
more of women than I did."
"That's good news. But you mustn't blame them too severely. I mean
those that really came over with a single purpose and were not proof
against the forcing house of war. As for the others ... well, a good
many followed their men over, others came after excitement, others, as
you say, to do as they pleased, with no questions asked--possibly! I
shouldn't take enough interest in them to criticize them if they hadn't
used the war-relief organizations, from the Red Cross down to the
smallest oeuvre, as a pretext to get over, and then calmly throw us
down--the oeuvres, I mean. Mine was 'done' several times. But let us be
good healthy optimists such as our country loves and remind ourselves
that the worthy outnumber the unworthy--and that the really bad would
have gone the same way sooner or later."
"It goes. Optimism for me for ever more once I get out of France."
II
They had crossed the square and were walking down a narrow crooked
street as gray as if the dust of ages were in its old walls. Alexina
looked at him curiously. He had never had what might be called a soft
and tender countenance, but now it looked like cast-iron covered with
red rust, and his eyes were more like bits of the same metal, blackened
and polished, than ever. His youth had gone. There were deep vertical
lines in his face. His mouth was cynical. His bullet head, shaved until
only a cap of black stiff hair remained on top, and presumably safe
from assault, by no means added to the general attractiveness of his
style. He was straighter, more compact, than before, however, and his
uniform at least did not have the truly abominable cut of the private.
"What do you think of war as war?" she asked.
"Sherman for me. Not that I didn't enjoy sticking Germans with the best
of 'em when my blood was up. But the rest of it--God Almighty!"
They stopped before a solid double door in a high wall. "Will you come
and take tea with me this afternoon? I am staying here for a few days.
I'm afraid I can't offer you sugar, or cakes--"
"I'll bring the sugar along. I'm in barracks just outside and solid
with, the commissary."
"Heavens, what a windfall! You'll be sure to come?"
"Won't I, just? Expect me at four-thirty." He lifted his cap from his
comical head, then sainted, swung on his heel and marched off, swinging
both arms from the shoulders and looking a fine martial figure of a man.
"But still the same old Kirkpatrick," thought Alexina. "I wonder if he
will go Bolshevik?"
III
Her ring was answered by the old woman who toot care of the house and
Alexina entered the wild garden. There was an acre of it, but it had
been so long uncared for that it looked like a jungle caught between
four high gray walls. It was the property of one of the French members
of the oeuvre and was used as a storehouse for hospital supplies and as
headquarters for Alexina when business brought her to this part of the
Marne valley. She had been here several times during the siege of
Verdun in nineteen-sixteen when her bed had quivered all night, and
once a big gun had been trained on the city and a shell had fallen near
the headquarters of the staff. Last night she had lain awake wondering
if she did not miss the sound of the distant guns, as she had in Passy
where there was no noisy traffic to take their place. There is a
certain amount of morbidity in all highly strung imaginative minds, and
although she had developed no love for Big Bertha nor for the sound of
high firing guns attacking avions in the middle of the night, there had
been something in that steady boom of cannon whose glare stained the
horizon that had thrilled and excited her.
IV
On the right of the main hall of the house was the room she used as an
office; the dining-room was opposite; the salon ran the whole length at
the back. This was quite a beautiful room furnished in the style of the
last Bourbons, and its long windows opened upon a stone terrace leading
down into what was still a picturesque garden in spite of its neglect.
There were three fine oaks, and the chestnut trees along the wall shut
off the town from even the upper windows.
The oeuvre always managed to keep a load of wood in the cave and to-day
the concierge had raised the temperature of the salon to sixty-five
degrees Fahrenheit Alexina cleared a table and told the woman to set it
for tea, then went upstairs to change her dress. As she had made her
trip in one of the automobiles belonging to the oeuvre she had been
able to bring her little stove, and her bedroom was also warm.
She had also brought one of her new gowns, knowing that she should
receive visits from several French officers, and she concluded to put
it on for Kirkpatrick. He was worth the delicate compliment; moreover
it almost obliterated the ravages of war, for it was of periwinkle blue
velvet edged with fur about the high square of the neck and at the
wrists of the long sleeves: in these days it was wise to revert to the
fashions of the centuries when palaces and houses alike were cold and
gowns were made for comfort as well as fashion. To complete the
proportions it had a train and the sleeves were slightly puffed.
Alexina was quite aware that she "looked like a picture" in it.
She still wore her hair brushed softly back and coiled low at the base
of her beautiful curved head. Her pearls were the only jewels she had
brought to France and she always wore them. She sighed as she looked at
the vision in the mirror. For Kirkpatrick! But she was used to the
irony of life.
CHAPTER IX
I
He arrived promptly at half-past four and in his capacious hands were
three packages which arrested her eyes at once. He presented them one
by one.
"Sugar. Loaf of white bread. Candy--I'm also solid with one of the
doctors."
"I feel like pinching myself. White bread!--I've only tasted it twice
in two years-both times at the Crillon. And candy--not a sight of it
for more than that. I don't like the heavy French chocolates, which
were all one could get when one could get anything. I shall eat at
least half and take the other half back to Gora."
"Miss Dwight? She's done good work, I'll bet. Just in her line.
Somehow, I don't see you--What did you do?"
He watched her hungrily as she made the tea, sitting in a gilt and
brocaded chair, whose high tarnished back seemed to frame her dark head.
"Oh, Lord!" he sighed.
"What is it?"
"Don't ask me. What've you been doing? Yes, I'll drink tea to please
you."
"I nursed at first--as an auxiliary, of course--what is the matter?"
"Can't bear to think of it. I hope you've not been doin' that for four
years!"
"Oh, no. I've been at work with a war-relief organization in Paris most
of the time. That was too monotonous to talk about, and, thank heaven,
this will probably end my connection with it. I am much more interested
to know how the war has affected you. Are you still a socialist?"
"Ain't I!"
"Not going Bolshevik, I hope."
"Not so's you'd notice it. I want changes all right and more'n ever,
but I've had enough of blood and fury and mix-ups without copying them
murdering skally-wags. That's all they are. Just out for loot and
revenge and not sense enough to know that to-morrow there'll be no
loot, and revenge'll come from the opposite direction. I may have been
in hell but my head's screwed on in the same place."
"I wondered ... I've heard so many stories about the grievances of the
soldiers."
"Every last one of 'em got a grievance. Hate their officers, and often
reason enough. Hate the discipline. Hate the food. Hate the neglect in
hospital when the flu is raging. Hate gettin' no letters, and as like
as not no pay and no tobacco. Hate bein' gouged by the French like they
were by the good Americans when they were in camp on the other side.
Hate every last thing a man just naturally would hate when he is livin'
in a filthy trench, or even camp, and homesick in the bargain.... But
as for mass-dissatisfaction--not a bit of it. Loyal as they make 'em.
Laugh at Bolshevik propaganda just like they laughed at Hun propaganda.
They just naturally seem to hate every other race, allied or enemy, and
that makes them so all-fired American they're fit to bust. Of course
there's plenty of skallywags--caught in the draft--and just waitin' to
get home and turn loose on the community. But in the good old style:
burglars, highwaymen, yeggs. Not a new frill. Europe hasn't a thing on
the good old American criminal brand. They fought well, too. Any man
does who's a man at all. But Lord! they'll cut loose when they get
back. Every wild bad trait they was born with multiplied by one hundred
and fifty ... before I go any further I want to warn you that I'm
liable to break out into bad language any minute. It gets to be a kind
of habit in the army to swear every other word like."
"Don't mind me," said Alexina dryly. "After I was put out of my hotel I
managed to get a room in one of the hotels on the Rue de Rivoli for two
nights before I found my pension in Passy. The walls were thin. The
room next to mine was occupied by two American officers and the one
beyond by two more. They talked back and forth with apparently no
thought of the possibility of being overheard. Such language! And not
only swear words--although one of these to two of any. Such adventures
as they related! Such frankness! Such plain undiluted Anglo-Saxon!
Fancy a girl with all her illusions fresh, and worshiping some heroic
figure in khaki, listening to such a revelation of the nether side of
man's life!"
"Men are hogs, all right. I don't like the idea of your having heard
such things." Kirkpatrick scowled heavily.
"Nor did I. But I had no cotton to put in my ears. I couldn't sleep in
the street. Nor could I ask them to keep quiet and admit I had heard
them."
"Well, I guess you can forget anything you have a mind to. You couldn't
look like you do--a kind of princess out of a fairy tale and an angel
mixed, if you couldn't."
"A black-haired angel! And all the princesses of legend had golden
hair."
"Well, that's just another way you're different." He changed the
subject abruptly. "What you goin' to do now!"
"I wish I knew."
"Goin' back to California?"
"If I knew I would tell you. But I don't. You see.... Well, I shall not
live with Mr. Dwight again. We had been really separated a long while
before I left--and then he has done nothing for the war. That is only
one reason. What should I do there? I had thought of going into
business before I left. But I shall have a good income, and what right
have I to go into business and use my large connection to get customers
away from those that need the money for their actual bread?"
"Not the ghost of an excuse. Farce, I call it. As long as the present
system lasts women of your class better be ornamental and satisfied
with that than take the bread out of mouths that need it."
"I could not settle down to the old life. It isn't that I'm in love
with work. For that matter I'm only too grateful to be able to rest.
But I must fill in, some way. Possibly I could do that better in France
or England, where vita! subjects are always being discussed--and
happening!--where I would not only be interested but possibly useful in
many ways. I should feel rather a brute, knowing the conditions of
Europe as I do, to go back and settle down on the smiling abundance of
California. And bored to death."
"Then you think you'll stay? ... You'd be wasted there--at
present--sure enough."
"Sometimes I think I'll buy this house. I could for a song. Heavens!
_How_ I have longed for solitude in the last four years! I could have
it here with my books, and go to Paris as often as I wished. It would
be an ideal life. I could afford a car, and to make this house very
livable. And that garden ... between those gray high walls ... in there
... that would...."
She had forgotten Kirkpatrick and was staring through the long windows
at the dripping trees and the riot of green. "There is something about
the old world ... in its byways like this ... not in its hateful
capitals...."
"Do you mean there's something you want to forget? That this place
would be consolin' like?"
She met Kirkpatrick's sharp dilated eyes with smiling composure. "This
war, and much that has happened--incidental to it; yes."
"You could forget it easier in California."
"I should forget too much."
"It's awful to think of you not comin' back, though I understand well
enough. Europe suits you all right. But ... but...."
He rose abruptly almost overturning his fragile chair.
"Good-by, and as I guess it _is_ good-by I'll tell you something I
wouldn't if there was any chance of my seein' you like I used to. It's
this: If I'm more of a socialist than ever it's because of _you_! If my
class hatred's blacker than ever _you're_ the cause! _You'd_ have made
me a socialist if I wasn't one before. _Jesus Christ_! When I think
what I might have had if we'd all been born alike! Had the same
chances! If you hadn't been born at the top and I down at the bottom
... common ... not even educated except by myself after I was too old
to get what a boy gets that goes to school long enough. I wouldn't mind
bein' born ugly. There's plenty of men at the top that's ugly enough,
God knows. But just one generation with money irons out the commonness.
That's it! I'm common! Common! Common. _Democracy_! Oh, God!"
He caught up his cap and rushed out of the room,
Alexina ran after him and caught him at the garden door. Like all
beautiful women who have listened to many declarations of love (or
avoided them) she was inclined to be cruel to men that roused no
response in her. But she felt only pity for Kirkpatrick.
She had intended merely to insist upon shaking hands with him, but when
she saw his contorted face she slipped her arm round his neck and
kissed him warmly on the cheek.
Then she pushed him gently through the door and locked it.
CHAPTER X
I
Alexina had finished giving tea to two officers, a surgeon and a
medecin major, and, enchanted almost as much by the sugar and the white
bread as by their hostess, refreshingly beautiful and elegant in her
velvet gown of pervenche blue, they had lingered until nearly six. As
the concierge had gone out on an errand of her own Alexina had opened
the garden door for them, and after they disappeared she stood looking
at the street, which always fascinated her.
It was very narrow and crooked and gray. Her house was the only one
with a garden in front; the others rose perpendicularly from the narrow
pavement, tall and close and rather imposing. Each was heavily
shuttered, the shutters as gray as the walls. The town had been
evacuated during the first Battle of the Marne and only the poor had
returned. The well-to-do provincials in this street had had homes
elsewhere, perhaps a flat in Paris; or they had established themselves
in the south.
The street had an intensely secretive air, brooding, waiting. Soon all
these houses would be reopened, the dull calm life of a provincial town
would flow again, the only difference being that the women who went in
and out of those narrow doors and down this long and twisted street
would wear black; but for the most part they would sit in their gardens
behind, secluded from every eye, as indifferent to their neighbors as
of old, with that ingrained unchangeable bourgeois suspicion and
exclusiveness; and the facades, the street itself, would look little
less secretive than now.
II
Nowhere could she find such seclusion if she wished for it. This house
was the only one in the street that belonged to a member of the
noblesse, and the bourgeoisie had as little "use" for the noblesse as
the noblesse for the bourgeoisie.
For the moment Alexina felt that the house was hers, and the street
itself. She was literally its only inhabitant. As she stood looking up
and down its misty grayness she felt more peaceful than she had felt
for many days. There were certain fierce terrible emotions that she
never wanted to feel again, and one of them was ruthlessness. She had
done much good in the past four years; she had been, for the most part,
high-minded, self-sacrificing, indifferent to the petty things of life,
even to discomfort, and it had given her a sense of elevation--when she
had had time to think about it. It was only certain extraordinary
circumstances that brought other qualities as inherent as life itself
surging to the top. It was demoralizing even to fight them, for that
involved recognition. Better that she protect herself from their
assaults. True, she was young, but she had had her fill of drama. All
her old cravings, never satisfied in the old days of peace without and
insurgence within, had been surfeited by this close personal contact
with the greatest drama in history.
Why return to Paris at all? Why not settle down here at once, live a
life of thought and study, and give abundant help where help was
needed? There were villages within a few miles where the inhabitants
were living in the ruins. (The Germans in their first retreat had been
too hard pressed to linger long enough to set fire to this large town
and they had not been able to reach it during their second drive.)
That had been a last flicker of romance at the embassy ... a last
resurgence of the evil the war had done her, as she sat in her cold
room ... a last blaze of sheer femininity when she discovered that Gora
had come to Paris in search of Gathbroke....
She felt as if she had escaped from a bottomless pit.... Assuredly she
had the will and the character to make herself now into whatever she
chose to be ... let Gora have him if she could find him and keep
him.... Better that than hating herself for the rest of her life ...
love, far from being ennobling, seemed to her the most demoralizing of
the passions ... there had been something ennobling, expanding,
soul-stirring in hating the brutal mediaeval race that had devastated
France ... but in the reaction from her fierce registered vow to snatch
a man from a forlorn unhappy woman no matter what her claims and have
him for her own, she had shrunk from this new revelation of her depths
in horror.... One could not live with that....
III
A man in khaki was walking quickly down the long crooked street. As he
approached she saw the red on his collar. He was a British officer. In
another moment she was shaking hands with Gathbroke.
She was far more composed than he, although she felt as if the world
had turned over, and there was a roar in her ears like the sound of
distant guns. She had a vague impression that the war had begun again.
"You are the last person I should have expected to meet here. There is
no British--"
"I came here to see you. I got your address from Madaine de Morsigny. I
saw her last night at a reception and recognized her. She was at that
ball in San Francisco. I introduced myself at once and asked her if you
were in Paris. I was sure it was you ... that night...."
"Will you come in!"
He followed her into the salon, softly lit by candles. She felt that
fate for once had been kind. It was difficult to imagine surroundings
or conditions in which she would look lovelier, be seen to greater
advantage. But her hands were cold.
"It is too late for tea but perhaps you will share my frugal supper."
"If it won't inconvenience you too much. Thanks."
She sat down in the wide brocaded chair with its tarnished back. He
stood looking at her for a moment, then took a turn up and down the
long room.
Certainly she could not object to him to-day on the score of youth and
freshness. His hair had lost its brightness. His face was very brown
and thin and the lines if not deep were visible even in the candle
light. His nose and mouth had the hard determination that life, more
especially life in war time, develops; it was no casual trick of Nature
with him. His eyes were still the same bright golden hazel, but their
expression was keen and alert, and commanding. She fancied they could
look as hard as those features more susceptible to modeling.
IV
"Smoke if you like."
"Thanks. I don't want to smoke."
Finally when Alexina was gripping the arms of the chair he began to
speak.
"I feel rather an ass. I hardly know how to begin. I'm no longer
twenty-three. I've lived several lifetimes since this war began, and
made up my mind twice that I was going out. I should feel ninety.
Somehow I don't feel vastly different from that day when I grabbed you
like a brute because I wanted you more than anything on earth....
"I don't pretend that I've thought of you ever since. I've forgotten
you for years at a time. But there have been moments when you have
simply projected yourself into me and been closer than any mortal has
ever been. You were there!
"I felt there was some meaning in those sudden secret wonderful visits
of your soul to mine--I hate to say what sounds like sentimental
rotting, but that exactly expresses it. They belonged to some other
plane of consciousness. It takes war to shift a man over the border if
only for a moment. It kept me--lately--from ... never mind that now.
When I saw your eyes above that tiny yellow flame ... it wasn't only
that your eyes are not to be matched anywhere ... it seemed to me that
I saw myself in them, They came as dose as that! Laugh if you like."
He stood defiantly in front of her.
"God! You look as if you never had had an emotion, never could have
one. But you had once, if only for a moment!"
"I have never had one since--for any one, that is. I hear the
concierge. I'll tell her to set a place for you."
V
She left the room and he stared after her. Her words had been full of
meaning but her voice had been even and cold.
She returned and asked: "Are you in any way committed to Gora Dwight?"
"No ... yes ... that is ... why do you ask me that?"
"Are you engaged to her?"
"I am not. But I came very close--that is, of course if she would have
had me. She nursed me after I was wounded and gassed. She was a
wonderful nurse and there was something almost romantic in meeting her
again ... as if she had come straight out of the past. We had an
extraordinary experience as you know. I was not in the least drawn to
her at that time. You filled, possessed me."
He hesitated. But it was a barrier he had not anticipated and it must
go down. Moreover, it was evident that she wouldn't talk, and he was
too excited for silence on his own part.
"She was there ... when a man is weakest ... when he values tenderness
above all things ... when he does little thinking on either the past or
the future.
"She has a queer odd kind of fascination too, and any man must admire a
woman so clever and capable and altogether fine. Several times I almost
proposed to her. But there is no privacy in wards. I was sent back to
England and went to my brother's house in Hertfordshire. It was then
that you began to haunt me. She had rejuvenated that California period
in my mind--resuscitated it ... but both express what I am trying to
say. We had often talked about California and the fire. She alluded to
you, casually, of course, more than once; but as I looked back I
gathered that your marriage had been a mistake and that you had known
it for a long time.
"She did not come to England until four months later, and then she was
in charge of a hospital. I took her out occasionally--she was very much
confined. I liked her as much as ever. But _I didn't want her_. It
seemed tragic. There was one chance in a million that I should ever
meet you again. Once I deliberately drew her on to talk of you and
asked why you did not divorce your husband. She commented satirically
upon the intense conservatism of your family and of your own inflexible
pride. She added that you were the only beautiful woman she had ever
known who seemed to be quite indifferent to men--sexless, she meant!
But no woman knows anything about other women. I knew better!
"As I said it was rather tragic. To be haunted by a chimera! I liked
her so much. Admired her. Who wouldn't? If she had been able to take me
home, to remain with me, there is no doubt in the world that I should
have married her if she would have had me.... I prefer now to believe
that she wouldn't. Why should she, with a great career in front of her?
"No doubt I should have loved her--with what little love I had to give.
But those months had taught me that I could do without her, although I
enjoyed her letters. Even so ...
"It was after she came to London that I felt I had to talk to some one
and I went down, to the country to see Lady Vick-Elton Gwynne's mother.
She had founded a hospital and run it, and was resting, worn out. She
is a hard nut, empty, withered, arid. Nothing left in her but noblesse
oblige. But there is little she doesn't know. She was smoking a black
cigar that would have knocked me down and looked like an old sibyl. I
told her the whole story--all of it, that is that was not too sacred.
She puffed such, a cloud of smoke that I could see nothing but her
hard, bright, wise, old eyes. 'Go after her,' she said. 'Find her.
Divorce her. Marry her. That's where you men have the advantage. You
can stalk straight out into the open and demand what you want point
blank. No scheming, plotting, deceit, being one thing and pretending
another, in other words ice when you are fire. Beastly role, woman's--'
I interrupted to remind her that it was twelve years since I had seen
you; that you had thrown me down as hard as a man ever got it and
married another man. There was no more reason to believe that I could
win you now. Then she asked me what I had come to see her and bore her
to death for when she was trying to rest. 'If you want a thing go for
it and get it, or if you can't get it at least find out that you can't.
Also see her again and find out whether you want her or not, instead of
mooning like a silly ass.'
"The upshot was I made tip my mind to go to California as soon as I
could obtain my discharge. It never occurred to me that you were in
Paris. Then I was sent to Paris with the Commission. I have certain
expert knowledge.... For some reason I didn't tell Miss Dwight.... I
wrote her a hurried note saying that I was obliged to go to Paris for a
few weeks.
"The night after I arrived I saw you at the Embassy. That finished it.
If I hadn't been sent back to England for some papers--twice--I'd have
found you before this."
CHAPTER XI
I
The concierge announced supper. Alexina had brought food with her and
the little meal was good if not abundant. The dining-room was very
dreary, although warmed by the petrol stove. It was a long dark room,
paneled to the ceiling, and the two candles on the table did little
more to define their lineaments to each other than the flames of
briquet and match.
The concierge served and they talked of the Peace Conference and of the
general pessimism that prevailed. Same old diplomacy. Same old
diplomatists. Same old ambitions. Same old European policies. An
idealist had about as much chance with those astute conventionalized
brains dyed in the diplomatic wiles and methods of the centuries as an
unarmed man on foot with a pack of wolves.... At the moment all the
other Commissions were cursing Italy.... She might be the stumbling
block to ultimate peace.... As for the League of Nations, as well ask
for the millenium at once. Human, nature probably inspired the creed:
"As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be," etc. "What we
want" (this, Gathbroke), "is an alliance between Great Britain, and the
United States. They could rule the world. Let the rest of everlastingly
snarling Europe go hang." Elton Gwynne would work for that. He had
already obtained his discharge and returned to America. He, Gathbroke,
'd work for it too. So would anybody else in the two countries that had
any sense and no personal fish to fry.
II
When they returned to the salon he smoked. Alexina was thankful that it
was cigarettes. Mortimer had made her hate cigars. If, like most
Englishmen, he loved his pipe, he had the tact to keep it in his pocket.
It was she who reopened the subject that filled him.
"I feel sorry for Gora. Her life has been a tragedy in a way. Of course
she has had her successes, her compensations. But it isn't quite
everything to be the best of nurses, and I don't know that even writing
could fill a woman's life. Not unless she'd had the other thing first.
I am afraid she'll never be very popular anyhow. There are only small
groups here and there in America than can stand intellect in
fiction.... It seems to me that she would make a great wife. I mean
that. It is a great role and she could fill it greatly. I don't know,
of course, whether she cares for you or not. I am not in her
confidence. She is staying at my pension in Passy and I saw her
constantly for ten days before I came here, but she did not mention
your name.... If she does she's the sort that would never marry any one
else and her life would be spoilt. I don't mean to say she would give
up, but she would just keep going. That seems to me the greatest
tragedy of all....
"No! Why should there be any of this conventional subterfuge. I believe
that she does care for you. I believed so long ago. I was jealous of
her. I don't mean, to say that I was in love with you. I--perhaps
forced myself not to be. It seemed too silly. Too utterly hopeless....
Besides I knew even then the danger of letting myself go ... of the
unbridled imagination. Probably love is all imagination anyhow. French
marriages would seem to prove it. But we--your race and mine--have
fallen into a sublime sort of error, and we'll no more reason ourselves
out of it than out of the sex tyranny itself.... I don't see how I
could be happy with the eternal knowledge that Gora was miserable--that
she would be happy if I had remained in California...."
"I have just told you that I should have gone to California as soon as
I was free."
III
The air between them quivered and their eyes were almost one. But he
remained smoking in his chair and continued:
"I marry you or no one. A man well and a man ill are two different
beings. In illness sex is dormant. When a man is well he wants a woman
or he doesn't want her. It may be neither his fault nor hers. But if
she hasn't the sex pull for him, doesn't make a powerful insistent
demand upon his passion, there is nothing to build on. I haven't come
out alive from that shrieking hell to be satisfied with second-class
emotions. I lay one night under three dead bodies, not one over
twenty-five. I knew them all. Each was deeply in love with a woman....
Well, I knew the value of life that night if I never did before. And
life was given to us, when we can hold on to it, for the highest
happiness of which we are individually capable, no matter what else we
are forced to put up with. Happiness at the highest pitch, not
makeshifts.... The horrors, the obstacles, the very demons in our own
characters were second thoughts on the part of Life either to satisfy
her own spite or to throw her highest purpose into stronger relief.
I'll have the highest or nothing."
"But that is not everything. There must be other things to make it
lasting. Gora would make a great companion."
"Not half so great--to me--as you would and you know it. I hope you
will understand that I dislike extremely to speak of Miss Dwight at
all. If you had not brought her name into it I never should have done
so. But now I feel I must have a complete understanding with you at any
cost."
He dropped his cigarette on the table. He left his chair swiftly and
snatched her from her own. His face was dark and he was trembling even
more than she was.
"I'll have you ... have you...."
She nodded.
CHAPTER XII
I
Gora entered her room at the pension, mechanically lit the oil stove
that Alexina had procured for her, threw her hat on the bed, sat down
in the low chair and thrust her hands info the thick coils of hair
piled as always on top of her head. As she did so she caught sight of
herself in the mirror and wondered absurdly why she should have kept
all her hair and lost so much of her face. She looked more top-heavy
than ever. Her face was a small oblong, her eyes out of all proportion.
She thought herself hideous.
She had heard two hours before that Gathbroke was in Paris attached to
the British Commission. She had met an old acquaintance, a San
Francisco newspaper man, who had taken her to lunch and spoken of him
casually. Gathbroke had good-naturedly given him an Interview when
other members of the Commission had been inaccessible.
Gathbroke had told her nothing of a definite object when he wrote her
that he was off for Paris. Nor had he mentioned it in the note he had
written her after his arrival. This had been merely to tell her that he
was feeling as well as he ever had felt in his life and was enjoying
himself. Polite admonition not to tire herself out. He was always hers
gratefully and her devoted friend.
He had written the note at the Rite Hotel, but when, assuming this was
his address, she had called him up on her arrival, she had received the
information that he was not stopping there, nor had been.
Gora was very proud. But she was also very much in love; and she had
been in love with Gathbroke for twelve years. For the greater part of
that time she had believed it to be hopeless, but it had always been
with her, a sad but not too painful undertone in her busy life. It had
kept her from even a passing interest in another man. She had even felt
a Somewhat ironic gratitude to him and his indifference, for all the
forces of her nature, deprived of their natural outlet, went into her
literary work, informing it with an arresting and a magnetic vitality.
She had believed herself to be without hope, but in the remote feminine
fastnesses of her nature she had hoped, even dreamed--when she had the
time. That was not often. Her life, except when at her desk with her
literary faculty turned loose, had been practical to excess.
She would have offered her services in any case to one of the warring
allies, no doubt of that; the tremendous adventure would have appealed
to her quite aside from the natural desire to place her high
accomplishment as a nurse at the disposal of tortured men. Nevertheless
she was quite aware that she went to the British Army with the distinct
hope of meeting Gathbroke again; quite as, under the cloak of travel,
she would have gone to England long since had she not been swindled by
Mortimer.
Until she found him insensible, apparently at the point of death, after
the terrible disaster of March, nineteen-eighteen, she had only heard
of him once: when she read in the _Times_ he had been awarded the D.S.O.
She knew then where he was and maneuvered to get back to France. She
found him sooner than she had dared to hope. And she believed that she
had saved his life. Not only by her accomplished nursing. Her powerful
will had thrown out its grappling irons about his escaping ego and
dragged it back and held it in its exhausted tenement.
He had believed that also. He had an engaging spontaneity of nature and
he had felt and shown her a lively gratitude. He was restless and
frankly unhappy when she was out of his sight. He had a charming way of
Baying charming things to a woman and he said them to her. But he was
also as full of ironic humor as in his letters and "ragged" her. And he
talked to her eagerly when he was better and she had gone with him to a
hospital far back of the lines. There were intervals when they could
talk, and the other men would listen ... and had taken things for
granted.
So had she. He had not made love to her. There was no privacy.
Moreover, she guessed that his keen sense of the ridiculous would not
permit him to make love to any woman when helpless under her hands.
But how could there be other than one finale to such a story as theirs?
What was fiction but the reflection of life? if she had written a story
with these obvious materials there could have been but one logical
ending--unless, in a sudden spasm of reaction against romance, she had
killed him off.
But he would live; and not be strong enough to return to the front for
mouths ... the war _must_ be over by then.... As for romance, well, she
was in the romantic mood. It was a right of youth that she had missed,
but a woman may be quite as romantic at thirty-four as at eighteen, if
she has sealed her fountain instead of splashing it dry when she was
too young to know its preciousness. Once before she had surrendered to
romance, fleetingly: during the week that followed the night she had
sat on Calvary with Gathbroke and watched a sea of flames.
The mood descended upon her, possessed her. She had other patients.
There were the same old horrors, the same heart-rending duties; but the
mood stayed with her. And after he left, for England. She knew there
could, be but one ending. Her imagination had surrendered to tradition.
Moreover, she was tired of hard work. She wanted to settle down in a
home. She wanted children. She must always write, of course. Writing
was as natural to her as breathing. And she had already proved that a
woman could do two things equally well.
II
She never thought of trying to follow him back to England, to shirk the
increasing terrible duties behind the reorganized but harassed armies.
The wounded seemed to drop through the hospital roof like flies.
Nevertheless when she was abruptly transferred to London she went
without protest! It was then that she began to have misgivings. She was
given charge of a large hospital just outside of London and her duties
were constant and confining. But she managed to go out to lunch with
him twice and once to dine; after which they drove back to the hospital
in a slow and battered old hansom.
She returned a few weeks before the Armistice. She had not seen him for
four months. He was well and expecting to be sent back to the front any
day. At present they were making use of him in London.
If anything he appeared to admire her more than ever, to be more
solicitous for her health. He lamented personally her exacting duties.
But it was the almost exuberant friendliness of one man for another,
for a comrade, a good fellow; although he often paid her quick little
diagnostic compliments. If she hadn't loved him she would have enjoyed
his companionship. He had read and thought and lived. Before the war he
had been in active public life. He had far greater plans for the future.
He had been almost entirely impersonal. It had maddened her. Even the
night they had driven through the dark streets of London out to her
hospital, although he had talked more or less about himself, even
encouraged her to talk about herself, there had not been one instant of
correlation.
But she had made excuses as women do, in self-defense. He assumed that
he might easily go back to the front just in time to get himself
killed, although the end of the war was in sight.... Her utter lack of
experience with men in any sex relation had made her stiff, even in her
letters; afraid of "giving herself away." She had no coquetry. If she
had, pride would have forbidden her to use it. Her ideals were
intensely old-fashioned. She wanted to be pursued, won. The man must do
it all. Her writings had never been in the least romantic. Well, she
was, if romance meant having certain fixed ideals.
One thing puzzled her. When she wrote she manipulated her men and women
in their mutual relations with a master-hand. But she had not the least
idea how to manage her own affair. What was genius? A rotten spot in
the brain, a displacement of particles that operated independently of
personality, of the inherited ego? Possession? Ancestors come to life
for an hour in the subliminal depths? But what did she care for genius
anyhow!
One thing she would have been willing to do as her part, aside from
meeting him mentally at all points and showing a brisk frank pleasure
in his society: give him every chance to woo and win her, to find her
more and more indispensable to his happiness. But she was no woman of
leisure. She could not receive him in charming toilettes in an equally
seductive room. She had nothing for evening wear but an old black satin
gown. After her arrival in London she had found time to buy a smart
enough tailored coat and skirt, and a hat, but nothing more.
And after the Armistice was declared she only saw him once.
Then came his abrupt departure for Paris. His noncommittal note. Even
then she refused to despair. It would be an utterly impossible end to
such a story ... after twelve years ... not for a moment would she
accept that.
III
She applied for her discharge. During her long stay in the British
service she had made influential friends. She had also made a high
record not only for ability but for an untiring fidelity. Her vacations
had been few and brief. She obtained her discharge and went to Paris.
Her pride would permit her to telephone. What more natural? Nothing
would have surprised him more than if she had not. She had little doubt
of his falling into the habit of daily companionship. He knew Paris and
she did not. He would have seen her daily in London if she had been
free.
Something, no doubt of that, held him back. He was discouraged ... or
not sure of himself.... She had assumed as a matter of course that he
was at the Ritz. When she found that he was not, had not been, she
realized that he had omitted to give her an address.
That might have been mere carelessness.... But to find him in Paris!
She had not visualized such swarms of people. She might almost have
passed him on the street and not seen him. But not for a moment did she
waver from her purpose. She held passionately to the belief that were
they together day after day, hours on end....
Unbelievable.
IV
She had telephoned an hour ago to the hotel where he was staying with
other members of the British Commission and been told that he was out
of town, but might return any moment.
There was nothing to do but write him a note and wait. She was not
equal to the humiliation of telephoning a third time. She wrote it at
the hotel where her English friends were staying and sent it by
messenger, having heard of the idiosyncracies of the Paris post.
Hastings, her newspaper friend, had been altogether a bird of ill omen.
He had told her that the American market was glutted with "war stuff."
The public was sick of it. Some of the magazines were advertising that
they would read no more of it. She had told him that her material was
magnificent and he had replied: "Can it. Maybe a year or two from
now--five, more likely. I'm told over here that the war fiction we've
had wished on us by the ton resembles the real thing just about as much
as maneuvers look like the first Battle of the Marne, say, when the
Germans didn't know where they were at; went out quail hunting and
struck a jungle full of tigers.... Why not? When most of 'em were
written by men of middle age snug beside a library fire with mattresses
on the roof--in America not even a Zeppelin to warm up their blood. But
that doesn't matter. The public took it all as gospel. Ate it up. Now
it is fed up and wants something else."
What irony!
And what a future if he--but that she would not face.
CHAPTER XII
I
She heard Janet Maynard, who had returned alone the day before from
Nice, enter the next, room. She kept very still; she had no desire for
conversation. But Janet tapped on her door in a moment and entered
looking very important.
"I've something to tell you," she announced. "You'd never guess in a
thousand years. Don't get up. 111 sit on the bed-used to any old place.
Only too thankful it isn't a box, or to sit down at all. Try one of
mine? Don't you feel well?"
"I've a rotten headache."
"Oh ... mind my smoking?"
"Not a bit. What did you have to tell me?"
"Well, 'way back in ancient times, B.W., nineteen hundred and six, a
young Englishman named Gathbroke came to California after his sister,
who was ill." She was blowing rings and did not see Gora's face. When
she leveled her eyes Gora was unbuttoning her gaiters. "It seems she
died some time during the fire and he had a perfectly horrid experience
getting the body out to the cemetery. But that has nothing to do with
the story. He met Olive and the rest of us--_and Alexina_--the night of
the Hofer ball. I had forgotten the whole thing until Olive reminded me
that we had joked Alex afterward about the way she had bowled him over.
His eyes simply followed her, but Mortimer gave him no chance.
"Then. I remembered something else. Isabel Gwynne once told me that her
husband was sure Gathbroke had proposed to Alex one day when he took
him down to Eincona. He was in a simply awful state of nerves
afterward. John thought he was going out of his mind. Now, here's the
point. Night before last Olive was at a ball and who should come up to
her and introduce himself but Gathbroke. He's changed a lot but she
recognized him. Well, he hardly waited to finish the usual amenities
before he asked her plump out if Alex was in Paris, said he was
positive he had seen her at that embassy ball where all the lights went
out and they expected a riot. He turned white when he did it, but he
was as direct as chain lightning. He wanted her address. Of course he
got it. Olive was thrilled. It's safe to assume that he's with Alex at
the present moment. At any rate Olive called him up this morning
intending to ask him to dinner, and was told he was out of town. Now,
isn't that romance for you?"
"Rather."
"Twelve years! Fancy a man being faithful all that time. Hadn't got
what he wanted, that's probably why. Have you ever heard Alex speak of
him? Think she'll divorce Mortimer?"
"I asked her the other night why she didn't. She said it was against
the traditions of the family. But--I recall--she said--it seemed to me
there was a curious sort of meaning in her voice--that if she wanted to
marry a man nothing would stop her."
"And it wouldn't. Nothing would stop Alexina if anything started her.
The trouble always was to start her. She's indolent and unsusceptible
and fastidious. But deep and intense--Lord! Mark my words, she saw him
at the Embassy. If she did and the thing's mutual she'll give poor old
Maria such a shock that the war will look like ten cents."
"Possibly."
"You look really ill, Gora. No wonder you have headaches with that
hair. It's magnificent--but! Go to bed and I'll send up your dinner.
Got any aspirin?"
"Yes, thanks."
"Au 'voir."
CHAPTER XIII
I
The day was fine and Alexina took advantage of the brief interval of
grace and went for a walk. Gathbroke was in Paris but might come out
any moment. She wore a coat and skirt of heavy white English tweed with
a silk blouse of periwinkle blue. The same soft shade lined her black
velvet hat.
She had a number of notes changed at the bank and struck out for one of
the ruined villages. She was in a mood to distribute happiness, and
only silver coin could carry a ray of light into the dark stupefied
recesses of those miserable wretches living in the ruins of homes
haunted by memories of their dead.
She felt a very torch of happiness herself. Her body and her brain
glowed with it. The currents of her blood seemed to have changed their
pace and their essence. The elixir of life was in them. She felt less
woman than goddess.
She knew now why she had been born, why she had waited. As long as this
terrible war had to be she was thankful for her intimate contact with
the very martyrdom of suffering; never else could she have known to the
full the value of life and youth and health and the power to be
triumphantly happy in love. She would have liked to wave a wand and
make all the world happy, but as this was as little possible as to
remake human nature itself she soared into an ether of her own to revel
in her astounding good fortune.
II
The village she approached was picturesque in its ruin for it climbed
the side of a hill, and although the Germans had set fire deliberately
to every house the shells for the most part remained. Along the low
ridge was a row of brick walls in various stages of gaunt and jagged
transfiguration. They looked less the victims of fire than of
earthquake.
The narrow ascending street was filled with rubble. She picked her way
and peered into the ruins. At first she saw no one; the place seemed to
be deserted. Then some one moved in a dark cellar, and as she stood at
the top of the short flight of steps a very old woman came forward into
the light. There were two children at her heels.
Alexina suddenly felt very awkward. She had always thought the mere
handing out of money the most detestable part of charity. But there was
nothing here to buy. That was obvious.
The old woman however relieved her embarrassment. She extended a skinny
hand. The poor of France are not loquacious, but like all their
compatriots they know what they want, and no doubt feel that life is
simplified when they are in a position to ask for it.
Alexina gratefully handed her a coin and hurried on. Her next
experience was as simple but more delicate. A younger woman had fitted
up a corner of her ruin with a petticoat for roof and a plank supported
by two piles of brick for counter and had laid in a supply of the post
cards that pictured with terrible fidelity the ruins of her village.
Alexina bought the entire stock, "to scatter broadcast in the United
States," and promised to send her friends for more; assuring the woman
that when the tourists came to France once more these ruined villages
would be magnets for gold.
She managed to get rid of her coins without much difficulty, although
comparatively few of the village's inhabitants had returned, and these
by stealth. Many of them had trekked far! Others were still detained at
the hostels in Paris and other cities where they could be looked after
without too much trouble.
Several had set up housekeeping in the cellars in a fashion not unlike
that of their cave dwelling ancestors, and a few had found a piece of
roof above ground to huddle under when it rained. Some talked to her
pleasantly, some were surly, others unutterably sad. None refused her
largesse, and she was amused to look back and see a little procession
making for the town, no doubt with intent to purchase.
In one side street less choked with rubbish small boys were playing at
war. But for the most part the children looked very sober. They had
been spared the horrors of occupation but they had suffered privations
and been surrounded by grief and despair.
III
When she had exhausted her supplies she took refuge in the church. It
was at the end of the long street on the ridge and after she had rested
she could leave the village by its farther end, and by making a long
detour avoid the painful necessity of refusing alms.
There was no roof on the church; otherwise it would have been the
general refuge. Part of it including the steeple was some distance away
and looked as if it had been blown off. The rest had gone down with one
of the walls. It was a charred unlovely ruin. Saints and virgins
sometimes defied the worst that war could do, but all had succumbed
here. The paneless windows in the walls that still remained
precariously erect framed pictures of a quiet and lovely landscape. The
stone walls were intact about the farms in which moved a few old men
and women in faded cotton frocks that looked like soft pastels. The
oaks were majestic and serene. The hills were lavender in the distance.
But the farm houses were in ruins and so was a chateau on a hill.
Alexina could see its black gaping walls through the grove of chestnut
trees withered by the fire.
She wandered about looking for a seat however humble but could find
nothing more inviting than piles of brick and twisted iron. She noticed
an open place in the floor and went over to it and peered down. There
was a flight of steps ending in cimmerian darkness. Doubtless the
vaults of the great families of the neighborhood were down there. She
wondered if the spite of the Huns had driven them to demolish the very
bones of the race they were unable to conquer.
IV
Suddenly she stiffened. A chill ran up her spine. She had an
overwhelming sense of impending danger and stepped swiftly away from
the edge of the aperture; then turned about, and faced Gora Dwight.
CHAPTER XIV
I
"Oh," she said calmly, although her nerves still shuddered. "You must
walk like a fairy. I didn't hear you."
"One must pick one's way through rubbish."
"Ghastly ruin, isn't it?"
"Life is ghastly."
Alexina made no reply lest she deny this assertion out of the wonder of
her own experience. She guessed what Gora had come for and that she was
feeling as elemental as she looked. She herself had recovered from that
sudden access of horror but she moved still further from, that black
and waiting hole.
"Are you going to marry Gathbroke?"
The gauntlet was down and Alexina felt a sharp sense of relief. She was
in no mood for the subtle evasion and she had not the least inclination
to turn up her eyes. She made up her mind however to save Gora's pride
as far as possible.
"Yes," she said.
"You dare say that to me?"
Alexina raised her low curved eyebrows. She seldom raised them but when
she did she looked like all her grandmothers.
"Dare? Did you expect me to lie? Is that what you wish?"
Gora clutched her muff hard against her throat. (Alexina wondered if
she had a pistol in it.) Her eyes looked over it pale and terrible.
Alexina had the advantage of her in apparent calm, but there was no
sign of confusion in those wide baleful irises with their infinitesimal
pupils.
"You knew that I loved him. That I had loved him for twelve years."
"I _knew_ nothing of the sort. You had his picture on your mantel and
you corresponded with him off and on but you never gave me a hint that
you loved him. Twelve years! Good heaven! A friendship extending over
such a period was conceivable; natural enough. But a romance! When such
an idea did cross my mind I dismissed it as fantastic. You always
seemed to me the embodiment of common sense."
"There is no such thing. It is true--that I hardly believed it
then--admitted it. But I knew we should meet again. He never had
married. It looked like destiny when I did meet him. I nursed him--"
She paused and her eyes grew sharp and watchful, Alexina's face showed
no understanding and she went on, still watching.
"I nursed him back to life. Through a part of his convalescence. A
woman _knows_ certain things. He almost loved me then. If we could have
been alone he would have found out--asked me to marry him. We should be
married to-day. If I could have seen him constantly in London it would
have been the same." She burst out violently: "I believe you wrote to
him to come to Paris."
"My dear Gora! Keep your imagination for your fiction. I had forgotten
his existence until I saw him, for a few seconds, at a reception. Don't
forget that he came to Paris under orders from his Government."
"But you recognized him that night. You came down here to meet him, to
get away from me."
"Far from coming here to meet him I had given up all hope of ever
seeing him again. He found out my address and followed me. You also
seem to forget that you never mentioned his name to me in Paris. How
was I to know that you were still interested in him?"
"That first night ... you guessed it ... you threw down a sort of
challenge. Deny that if you can!"
"No! I'll not deny it. I wanted him as badly as you did if with less
reason. Nevertheless ... believe it or not as you like ... I came down
here as much to leave the field clear to you as for my own peace of
mind. I think ... I fancy ... I decided to leave the matter on the
knees of the gods."
"Do you mean to tell me that if I had met him while we were together in
Paris, and you knew the truth, that you would not have tried to win him
away from me?"
"I wonder! I have asked myself that question several times. I like to
think that I should have been noble, and withdrawn. But I am not at all
sure.... Yes, I do believe I should, not from noble unselfishness, oh,
not by a long sight, but from pride--if I saw that he was really in
love with you. I'd never descend to scheming and plotting and pitting
my fascinations against another woman--"
"Oh, damn your aristocratic highfalutin pride. I suppose you mean that
I have no such pride, having no inherited right to it. Perhaps not or I
wouldn't be here to-day. At least I wouldn't be talking to you," she
added, her voice hoarse with significance.
Once more Alexina eyed the muff. "Did you come here to kill me?"
"Yes, I did. No, I haven't a pistol. I couldn't get one. I trusted to
opportunity. When I saw you standing at the edge of that hole I thought
I had it."
Alexina found it impossible to repress a shiver but in spite of those
dreadful eyes she felt no recurrence of fear.
"What good would that have done you? Murderesses get short shrift in
France. There is none of that sickening sentimentalism here that we are
cursed with in our country."
"Murders are not always found out. If you were at the bottom of that
hole it would be long before you were found and there is no reason why
I should be suspected. I didn't come through the village. I didn't even
inquire at your house. I saw you leave it and followed at a distance.
If I'd pushed you down there I'd have followed and killed you if you
were not dead already."
Alexina wondered if she intended to rush her. But she was sure of her
own strength. If one of them went down that hole it would not be she.
Nevertheless she was beginning to feel sorry for Gora. She had never
sensed, not during the most poignant of her contacts with the war, such
stark naked misery in any woman's soul. Its futile diabolism but
accentuated its appeal.
"Well, you missed your chance," she said coldly. Gora was in no mood to
receive sympathy! "And if you hadn't and escaped detection I don't
fancy you would have enjoyed carrying round with you for the next
thirty or forty years the memory of a cowardly murder. Too bad we
aren't men so that we could have it out in a fair fight. My ancestors
were all duellists. No doubt yours were too," she added politely.
"Perhaps you are right." For the first time there was a slight
hesitation in Gora's raucous tones. But she added in a swift access of
anger: "I suppose you mean that your code is higher than mine. That you
are incapable of killing from behind."
"Good heavens! I hope so! ... Still ... I will confess I have had my
black moods. It is possible that I might have let loose my own devil
if--if--things had turned out differently."
"Oh, no, you wouldn't! Not when it came to the point. You would have
elevated your aristocratic nose and walked off." She uttered this
dictum with a certain air of personal pride although her face was
convulsed with hate.
"Gora, you are really making an ass of yourself. If you had taken more
time to think it over you wouldn't have followed me up with any such
melodramatic intention as murder. Good God! Haven't you seen enough of
murder in the past four years? I could readily fancy you going in for
some sort of revenge but I should have expected something more
original--"
"Murder's natural enough when you've seen nothing else as long as I
have. And as for human life--how much value do you suppose I place on
it after four years of war? I had almost reached the point where death
seemed more natural than life."
"Oh, yes ... but later.... There are tremendous reactions after war.
Settled down once more in our smiling land my ghost would be an
extremely unpleasant companion. You see, Gora, you are just now in that
abnormal state of mind known as inhibition. But, unfortunately,
perhaps, in spite of the fact that you have proved yourself to be
possessed of a violence of disposition--that I rather admire--you were
not cut out to be the permanent villain. You have great qualities. And
for thirty-four years of your life you have been a sane and reasonable
member of society. For four of those years you have been an angel of
mercy.... Oh, no. If you had killed me you would have killed yourself
later. You couldn't live with Gathbroke for you couldn't live with
yourself. Silly old tradition perhaps, but we are made up of
traditions.... That was one reason I left Paris, gave up trying to find
him.... I knew that I could have him. But I also knew that you had had
some sort of recent experience with him, that you had come to Paris to
find him, that possibly if left with a clear field you could win him. I
knew--Oh, yes, I knew!--that he would know instantly he was mine if we
met. But ... well, I too have to live with myself. It might be that he
was committed to you, that if he married you, you would both be happy
enough. When he did come nothing would have tempted me to accept him if
I had still believed--"
"Did he tell you? Tell you how close he came? Tell you that I was in
love with him?"
"My dear Gora, I fancy that if he were capable of that you would not be
capable of loving him. I certainly should not." There was a slight
movement in her throat as if she were swallowing the rest of the truth
whole. She had adhered to it where she could but Gora's face must be
saved. "Your name was not mentioned. I asked him no questions about his
past. I am not the heroine of a novel, old style. He told me that he
loved me, that he had never loved any other woman, never asked any
other woman to marry him. That was enough for me. I had no place in my
mind for you or any one else. Perhaps you don't know--how could
you--that years ago, when he was in California, he asked me to marry
him."
"Calf love! If you had not been here now--"
"He would have gone to California as soon as he could get away. He had
made up his mind to that before he came to Paris."
"What!"
Gora's arms dropped to her sides and she stared at the floor. Then she
laughed, "O God, what irony! I talked of you more or Jess as was
natural ... and he remembered ... we had recalled the past vividly
enough.... Why couldn't one of those instincts in which we are
supposed to be prolific have warned me?.... Much fiction is like life!
... Any heroine I could have created would have had it ... had more
sense.... I have botched the thing from beginning to end."
She raised her head and stared at Alexina with somber eyes; the insane
light had died out of them. They took in every detail of that enhanced
beauty, of that inner flame, white hot, that made Alexina glow like a
transparent lamp.
She also recalled that she had watched her pack her bags ... that
pervenche velvet gown ... Alexina had described the quaint old
salon.... Her imagination, flashed out that first interview with
Gathbroke with a tormenting conjuring of detail....
"Yon are one of the favorites of life," she admitted in her bitter
despair. "You have been given everything--"
"I drew Mortimer," Alexina reminded her.
"True. But you dusted him out of your life with an ease and a
thoroughness that has never been surpassed. Think what you might have
drawn. No, you are lucky, lucky! The prixes of life are for your sort.
I am one of the overlooked or the deliberately neglected. Not a fairy
stood at my cradle. All things have come to you unsought. Beauty.
Birth. Position. Sufficient wealth. Power over men and women. An
enchanting personality. All the social graces. You have had ups and
downs merely because after all you are a mortal; and as a matter of
contrast--to heighten your powers of appreciation. No doubt the worst
is over for you. I have had to take life by the throat and wring out of
her what little I have. That is what makes life so hopeless, so
terrible. No genius for social reform will ever eliminate the
inequality of personality, of the inner inheritance. Nature meant for
her own sport that a few should live and the rest should die while
still alive."
"Gora, I don't want to sound like the well-meaning friends who tell a
mother when she loses her child that it is better off, but I can't help
reminding you that a very large and able-bodied fairy presided at your
cradle. You have a great gift that I'd give my two eyes for; and you
know perfectly well--or you will soon--that you will get over this and
forget that Gathbroke ever existed, while you are creating men to suit
yourself." Her incisive mind drove straight to the truth. "You will
write better than ever. Possibly the reason that you have not reached
the great public is because your work lacks humanity, sympathy. You
never lived before. You were all intellect. Now you have had a terrific
upheaval and you seem to have experienced about everything, including
the impulse to murder. Most writers would appear to live uneventful
lives judging from their extremely dull biographies. But they must have
had the most tremendous inner adventures and soul-racking
experiences--the big ones--or they couldn't have written as they
did.... This must be the more true in regard to women."
Gora continued to stare at her. The words sank in. Her clear intellect
appreciated the truth of them but they afforded her no consolation. All
emotion had died out of her. She felt beaten, helpless.
She was obliged to look up as she watched Alexina's subtly transfigured
face, fascinated. It made her feel even her physical insignificance;
the more as she had lost the flesh that had given her short stature a
certain majesty.
"Oh, life is unjust, unjust." She no longer spoke with bitterness,
merely as one forced to state an inescapable fact. "Injustice! The root
of all misfortune."
"Life is a hard school but where she has strong characters to work on
she turns out masterpieces. You will be one of them, Gora. And I fancy
that women born with great gifts were meant to stand alone and to be
trained in that hard school. It is only when women of your sort have a
passing attack of the love germ that they imagine they could go through
life as a half instead of a whole. When you are in the full tide of
your powers with the public for a lover I fancy you will look back upon
this episode with gratitude, if you remember it at all."
"Perhaps. But that, is a long way off! I have just been told that the
order of fiction with which my mind is packed at present is not wanted.
It has been contemptuously rejected by the American public as 'war
stuff.'"
"Good heaven! That _is_ a misfortune!"
For a moment Alexina was aghast. Here was the real tragedy. She almost
prayed for inspiration, for it lay with her to readjust Gora to life.
To no one else would Gora ever give her confidence.
"I don't believe for a moment," she said, "that the intelligent public
will ever reject a great novel or story dealing with the war. The
masterly treatment of any subject, the new point of view, the swift
compelling breathless drama that is your peculiar gift, must triumph
over any mood of the moment. Moreover, when you are back in California
you will see these last four years in a tremendous perspective. And no
contrast under heaven could be so great. You probably won't hear the
war mentioned once a month. No doubt much that crowds your mind now
will cease to interest the productive tract of your brain and you will
write a book with the war as a mere background for your new and
infinitely more complete knowledge of human psychology. No novel of any
consequence for years to come will be written without some relationship
to the war. Stories long enough to be printed in book form perhaps, but
not the novel: which is a memoir of contemporary life in the form of
fiction. No writer with as great a gift as yours could have anything
but a great destiny. Go back to California and bang your typewriter and
find it out for yourself."
For the first time something like a smile flitted over Gora's drawn
face. "Perhaps. I hope you are right. I don't think I could ever really
lose faith in that star." She was thinking: Oh, yes! I'll go back to
California as quickly as I can get there--as a wounded animal crawls
back to its lair.
She would have encircled the globe three times to get to it. _Her
state_. To her it was what family and friends and home and children
were to another. It was literally the only friend she had in the world.
She would have flown to it if she could, sure of its beneficence.
"I shall go as soon as I can get passage," she said. "And you?"
"I must go too unless I can get a divorce here. I shall know that in a
few days."
"Well, we travel on different steamers if you do go! I shall stop off
at Truckee and go to Lake Tahoe. It will be a long while before I go to
any place that reminds me of you. I no longer want to kill you but I
want to forget you. Good-by."
CHAPTER XV
When she reached the foot of the hill she turned and looked back.
Alexina was standing in one of the jagged window casements of the
church. The bright warm sun was overhead in a cloudless sky. Its liquid
careless rays flooded the ruin. Alexina's tall white figure, the soft
blue of her hat forming a halo about her face, was bathed in its light;
a radiant vision in that shattered town whose very stones cried out
against the injustice of life.
Alexina, who was feeling like anything but a madonna in a stained glass
window, waved a questing hand.
"The fortunate of earth!" thought Gora.
She set her lips grimly and walked across the valley with a steady
stride. At least she could be one of the strong.
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