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You can also find out about how to make a +donation to Project Gutenberg, and how to get involved. + + +**Welcome To The World of Free Plain Vanilla Electronic Texts** + +**eBooks Readable By Both Humans and By Computers, Since 1971** + +*****These eBooks Were Prepared By Thousands of Volunteers!***** + + +Title: Be Courteous + +Author: Mrs. M. H. Maxwell + +Release Date: December, 2005 [EBook #9402] +[This file was first posted on September 29, 2003] + +Edition: 10 + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: US-ASCII + +*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK, BE COURTEOUS *** + + + + +E-text prepared by Juliet Sutherland, Tonya Allen, and Project Gutenberg +Distributed Proofreaders + + + + + + + +BE COURTEOUS: + +OR, + +RELIGION THE TRUE REFINER. + +BY MRS. M. H. MAXWELL. + + + + + + + +[Illustration: MARY AND THE SICK CHILD--SEE PAGE 56.] + + + + +PREFACE. + + +The scenes and characters of this story are those once familiar to the +writer. The story itself is but a disconnected diary of one who, early +refined from earthly dross, lived only long enough to show us that +there was both reason and divine authority in the words of an apostle, +when he exhorted Christians to "Be Courteous." + + + + +CONTENTS. + + +CHAPTER I. + +THE PLAIN--THE ISOLATED DWELLING--BLUE-BERRY PARTY--TAKING A +VOTE--TREATMENT OF NEW ACQUAINTANCES--THE FAMILY AT APPLEDALE--THE +YOUNG PEOPLE UPON THE PLAIN----SINCERE MILK OF THE WORD--A CALL AT THE +LOG-HOUSE--THE RIDE HOME--ORIGINAL POETRY + +CHAPTER II. + +THE KIND "GOOD-MORNING "--THE HIGH HILL--UNEXPECTED MEETING--ROMANCE +AND REALITY--THE GOOD FARMER--IMPRESSIONS OF CHILDHOOD--WORSHIPING-- +BEARING THE CROSS + +CHAPTER III + +THE POOR WOMAN OF THE PLAIN--THE NOTE--MOURNFUL MUSINGS--THE CUP OF +TEA--THE STRUGGLE--CHARITY AND SELF--EMMA'S HISTORY + +CHAPTER IV. + +THE LITTLE TIME--HOW IMPROVED--FITNESS FOR REFINED SOCIETY--MORNING +REFLECTIONS--RUTH AND BOAZ--CHARITY AND COURTESY--THE VISIT + +CHAPTER V. + +THE OLD PEDDLER--BITTER WORDS--THE MEEK REPLY--THE EFFECT--ACTING A +PART--SOFTER FEELINGS--THE DEATH-SCENE--THE DAY OF SMALL +THINGS--SIMPLE CHRISTIAN COURTESY + + + + +BE COURTEOUS: + +OR, + +RELIGION THE TRUE REFINER. + + + + +CHAPTER I. + +THE PLAIN--THE ISOLATED DWELLING--BLUE-BERRY PARTY--TAKING A +VOTE--TREATMENT OF NEW ACQUAINTANCES--THE FAMILY AT APPLEDALE--THE +YOUNG PEOPLE UPON THE PLAIN--SINCERE MILK OF THE WORD--A CALL AT THE +LOG-HOUSE--THE RIDE HOME--ORIGINAL POETRY. + + +Not more than a mile and a half from a pleasant village in one of our +eastern States is a plain, extending many miles, and terminated on the +north by a widespread pond. A narrow road runs across the plain; but +the line of green grass bordering the "wheel-track" upon either side, +shows that though the nearest, this road is not the most frequented way +to the pond. Many reasons might be assigned for this. There is a +wearisome monotony in the scenery along this plain. There are no hills, +and but few trees to diversify the almost interminable prospect, +stretching east, west, north, and south, like a broad ocean, without +wave or ripple. The few trees scattered here and there stand alone, +casting long shadows over the plain at nightfall, and adding solemnity +to the mysterious stillness of that isolated place. It is not a place +for human habitation, for the soil is sandy and sterile; neither is it +a place for human hearts, so desolate in winter, and so unsheltered and +dry during the long warm summer. Yet midway between the village and the +pond was once a house, standing with its back turned unceremoniously +upon the narrow road with its border of green. It was a poor thing to +be called a house. Its front door was made, as it seemed, without +reference to anything, for it opened upon the broad ocean-like plain. +No questions had been asked relative to a title-deed of the land upon +which that house stood, or whether "poor Graffam" had a right to pile +up logs in the middle of that plain, and under them to hide a family of +six. Through many a long eastern winter that family had lived there, +little known, and little cared for. Nobody had taken the pains to go on +purpose to see them; yet, during the month of July, and a part of +August, some of the family were often seen. At all times of the year, +in summer's heat and in winter's snow, the children going and returning +from school, were wont to meet "poor Graffam," a short man, with sandy +hair, carrying an ax upon his shoulder, and bearing in his hand a small +pail of "dinner;" for Graffam, when refused employment by others, +usually found something to do at "Motley's Mills," which were about +half a mile from the village. Sad and serious-looking was this poor man +in the morning, and neither extreme civility nor extreme rudeness on +the part of the school children could procure a single word from him at +this time of day. Not thus at evening. "Let us run after Graffam, and +have some fun," the boys would say on returning home; and then it was +wonderful to see the change which had been wrought in this +mournful-looking, taciturn man of the morning. Sometimes he was in a +rage, repaying their assaults with fearful oaths and bitter curses; but +it was a thing more general to find him in merry mood, and then he was +himself a boy, pitching his companions about in the snow, or talking +with them largely and confidentially of landed estates and vast +resources all his own. It is needless to inform my sagacious young +reader, that the cause of this change in the poor man was rum. + +We have referred to the month of July and a part of August; it was +during this season of the year that the plain, on account of the rich +berries tinging its surface with beautiful blue, became a place of much +resort. These berries, hanging in countless clusters upon their low +bushes among the shrubbery, were at least worth going to see. It is the +opinion of most people, however, (an opinion first entertained in +Eden,) that fruit pleasant to the eye is desirable for the taste. Such +was the opinion prevalent in that region; and the sight of merry +"blue-berry companies," sometimes in wagons, sometimes on foot, was +among the most common of our midsummer morning scenes. Equally familiar +was the sight of like companies returning at evening, weary, but better +satisfied; glad that, with well-filled pails and baskets, they were so +near home. This was the time of year when the young Graffams became +visible. The blue-berry companies often encountered them upon the +plain, but found them shy as young partridges, dodging through the +bushes, and skulking away as though kidnappers were in pursuit. + +There was, however, one boy among them, the eldest, (if we remember +rightly,) who was quite familiar with the villagers. He was a little +boy, not more than ten or eleven at the time of which I now write, and +for two or three summers had been in the habit of bringing berries to +the village, and offering them for any small matter, either for food or +clothing. Both the kind-hearted and the curious had plied this little +boy with questions, relative to his manner of life, his mother, +brothers, and sisters; but his answers were far from giving information +upon any of these points. He always declined a proposed visit by +saying, "Mother don't want no company." This seemed true enough; for +when any visitor to the plain called at Graffam's for a drink of water, +they were never invited to enter. The water was handed them through a +small opening, and the mother was seldom visible. + +It was one of the brightest of our July mornings, when a blue-berry +company started from the village before-mentioned. Two wagons filled +with young people passed along the principal street at an early hour, +raising a cloud of dust as they turned the corner where stood a +guide-board pointing out the _plain_ road to the pond. Onward rolled +the two wagons, the tin-pails and dippers dancing and rattling in the +rear, keeping time with the clatter of untamed tongues in the van. +"Shall we call at 'Appledale?'" asked the driver of the first wagon, +coming to a sudden stand. + +"Go along!" laughingly answered a gay girl in the second. "Our horse is +putting his nose into your tin rattletraps." + +The question was repeated. + +"They are strangers to us," replied a black-eyed young lady, "and from +seeing them at church I should think them precise. A refusal would be +mortifying; and if the prim Miss Martha concludes to go, that will be +still worse. We cannot act ourselves, and all the fun will be spoiled. +What say you, Fanny Brighton?" + +Fanny, a bright-looking, but rather reckless girl, replied: "They shall +not go, neither Miss Martha nor Miss Emma; not that I care a +fiddlestring for their primness or their precision; nobody shall +prevent me from thinking, and acting, and doing as I please to-day; +from being, in short, what I was made to be--Fanny Brighton, and nobody +else." + +Fanny spoke with her usual authority, and expected obedience; but to +her surprise Henry Boyd, the young driver of the first wagon, still +hesitated, and stooping down, he whispered to a mild, lovely-looking +girl, who, seated upon a box, was holding her parasol so as to shield +from the sun's rays a sickly little boy. "Take a vote of the company," +whispered the pretty girl, whom he called Mary. + +"If it be your minds," said Henry, rising to his feet, "that we call at +Appledale, and invite Miss Martha and Miss Emma Lindsay to be of our +company, please manifest it by raising the right hand. It is a vote," +he quietly continued, taking his seat. + +"Mary Palmer!" called out Fanny; "you are a simpleton, and so fond of +serving people as to court insult." + +Mary's cheek flushed a little. It was not the first time that she had +been called a simpleton, or some kindred name, by the out-spoken Miss +Fanny; for this young lady prided herself on not being afraid to speak +plainly, and tell people just what she thought of them. + +As we before said, Mary's cheek flushed a little; but she instantly +thought to herself, "It is Fanny, and I won't mind it." So she smiled, +and said very gently, "I am sure, Fanny, that no sensible person will +insult me for trying to be courteous, though I may not exactly +understand the way. It can do the Misses Lindsay no harm to receive +such an invitation from us, and we cannot be injured by a refusal." + +"For my own part," said Henry, "I think that the question whether we +are to be neighbors or not should be settled. They are strangers, and +it is our business to make the first advance toward an acquaintance. If +they decline, we have only hereafter to keep at a respectful distance." + +"Precious little respect will they find in me," said Fanny. "I am too +much of a Yankee to flatter people by subserviency, or to put myself +out of the way to gain acquaintances about whom I care not a fig. But +drive on: while we are prating and voting about the nabobs at Appledale +the sun is growing hot." + +Henry gathered up his reins, and away the wagons clattered down the +long hill, and with a short, thunder-like rumble crossed the bridge +between the Sliver Place and Appledale. Perhaps the writer may be +called to account for this romantic name: he will therefore give it +here. Appledale was once called Snag-Orchard, on account of the old +trees whose fugitive roots often found their way into the road, making +great trouble, and causing great complaint from the citizens, who +yearly worked out a tax there. + +The people of that place would never have thought of calling it +anything else, had it not been for Susan and Margaret Sliver, who +sometimes wrote verses, and thought that Appledale sounded better in +poetry than did Snag-Orchard. These ladies, (they called themselves +young, but we must be truthful, even at the expense of courtesy,) +--these ladies, Margaret and Susan, said that this old place +was decidedly romantic; but the plain people living in that vicinity +knew but little of romance. If they saved time from hard labor to read +their Bible, it was certainly a subject for thankfulness. Most of them +thought that Snag-Orchard was a gloomy place, and that it was a pity +for so much good ground to be taken up with overgrown trees. It suited +Mr. Croswell, however, who was the former proprietor. He had but little +interest in the land belonging to this world, for all his relatives, +nearly every one, had gone to the land that is "very far off." He loved +the trees, and seemed to us like an old tree himself, from which +kindred branch and spray had fallen, leaving him in the world's +wilderness alone. Some thought him melancholy; but he was not: he was +only waiting upon the shore of that river dividing the "blessed land" +from ours; and one spring morning, very suddenly to his neighbors, he +crossed that river, and found more, infinitely more than he had ever +lost. After he was gone, the house was closed for a time; and through +the bright days of the following summer, when the foliage became heavy +upon the old trees, casting so deep a shadow as to make noonday but +twilight there, and when the night breeze sang mournfully among the +pines in the rear of that old house, people coming from the pond by the +way of the plain looked stealthily over their shoulders at +Snag-Orchard: but they knew not why, for nothing was there--nothing but +loneliness and desertion. + +There was a report among the school children that the Croswell house +was haunted; and in his merry moods poor Graffam had told the boys, how +many a time upon a dark night, when going from Motley's Mills to his +house upon the plain, he had seen that house brilliantly illuminated, +and once or twice had heard old Mr. Croswell call to him from the +window, and say, "Beware, Graffam, beware." Little, however, was +thought of these stories, for we all knew that the unhappy man often +went home at night with a fire upon his brain, and had no doubt but +that he got up his own illuminations; and as for the admonition, +"Beware, Graffam, beware," it doubtless came from the frogs, and was +interpreted by his own conscience. Snag-Orchard, however, was evidently +dreaded until the Lindsays came to live there, when it became less +gloomy: for though the old trees with their heavy foliage were still +there, descending in long sentinel-like rows down the hill-slope, until +the last row drooped their branches into the bright waters of the +brook, yet the rank grass around the house, that had so long raised its +seedy head, and looked in at the windows, was mowed down, and +sociable-looking flowers had taken its place; and then at evening, the +traveler returning from the pond by the way of the plain, realized what +had once been but the brilliant phantasy of poor Graffam's brain--for +though Mrs. Lindsay was a widow, she was neither poor nor deserted. The +reason for her coming there was not at that time known among us. A +gentleman who was projecting the plan of a settlement at the pond, in +reference to mill and factory privileges, bargained for the Croswell +place, and early in the spring this family took up a residence there. +Three months had passed away, and they were still strangers. This was +not from any want of sociability upon the part of their neighbors,--or +from studied indifference upon their own part, but from the time of +their first coming they had seemed fully occupied with company. Gay +parties upon horse-back had frequently issued from the large gate, +where in years gone by oxen had walked demurely in, bearing a +three-story load of hay. The long riding-dresses and feathered caps of +these gay riders, inasmuch as they were new in that old-fashioned +place, were judged of according to the several tastes of the farmers' +wives and daughters. Some thought it pretty business for girls to be +figuring about with men's hats, when there was work enough for women +folks within doors: and others thought (very justly too) that the +matter of this riding was no concern of theirs; and having business +enough of their own, they concluded to let Mrs. Lindsay and her guests +do as they pleased. This was a wise conclusion, since it daily became +more and more evident that they had no intention of doing otherwise +than as they pleased. Some of the family always presented themselves at +church on the Lord's day, but among them Miss Emma, and an elderly +woman supposed to be the housekeeper, were the only constant +attendants. Thus much of the new family at Appledale. The reader will +learn more as we progress in our story. + +"I would see Mrs. Lindsay and the young ladies," said Henry Boyd, as +the servant opened the door. Henry was shown into the same room, where +many a time he had sat and talked with old Mr. Croswell, but which now +seemed to him like another place. A handsome carpet now covered the +white oaken floor, and rich curtains partially concealed the windows +once shaded by simple green. Where stood the old "sideboard" was now an +elegant piano, and luxurious chairs and lounges had taken the place of +Mr. Croswell's high-backed, upright-looking furniture. But Henry was +self-possessed; and though there were a number of young ladies in the +room, dressed in handsome morning _dishabille_, he neither stammered +nor turned red, but bowing easily to Mrs. Lindsay, gave Misses Martha +and Emma an invitation to go with him and the young ladies to the +plain. Mrs. Lindsay saw that Martha, on glancing from the window at the +rustic-looking company, could scarcely suppress a smile, so she +courteously thanked Henry, and was about to excuse her daughters, when +Emma entered the room. Henry could not accuse either Mrs. Lindsay or +Martha of impoliteness, but he felt somehow as though there was a great +contrast between this courtesy and that shown him by Emma; for she +offered him her hand, and said, "It is very kind of you to call for us, +and if mamma pleases, I should like to go." + +"I have no objection, my love," said Mrs. Lindsay, "provided you return +before night." + +Henry assured her that they should, Martha respectfully declined the +invitation, and Emma ran up stairs. "I am going," said she joyfully to +the elderly woman with whom she was often seen at church. "I am going, +Dora; and that dear little Mary Palmer is there." Dora arose, and +pinned a thin shawl upon the neck of the delicate girl, and while she +did so, looked affectionately into her white face. + +"Of what are you thinking, Dora?" asked Emma. + +"I was thinking," said she, "that my lily could shed her fragrance +beyond her own garden to-day." + +"O, I am no lily," said Emma, half laughing, "only a poor blighted +thing going out to steal fragrance from other flowers." + +"Well, darling," said Dora, "you can have it without theft, for we can +make for ourselves a garden of spices anywhere, and then you know who +will come in and eat our pleasant fruit." + +Emma smiled, and nodded a good-by, as she left the room. + +"What a singular girl is Emma," said one of the young ladies who looked +from the keeping-room window, as she entered the wagon. "I was glad +that they had the courtesy to offer her a cushioned seat; but she has +refused it, and is riding off upon a box. Dear Mrs. Lindsay, Emma is +excessively polite." + +"_Mysteriously_ polite, I call it," said Mrs. Lindsay. "She seems more +and more to lose sight of herself, in a desire to make others happy; +yet before we left the city she often offended me by her disregard of +fashionable etiquette." + +"Yet Emma never was offensive in her manners, mamma," said Martha. + +"She was truly beloved, I know it, dear," replied the lady; "but her +great truthfulness kept me in constant jeopardy. Just think of her +telling Madam Richards that people considered her too old to dance." + +"Well, it _was_ a shame," answered the first speaker, "for a lady of +such excellent qualities to make herself ridiculous by a single +foible." + +"So Emma thought," said Mrs. Lindsay, "and had the frankness to tell +her so. It turned out well enough in her case, it is true; for she told +me when I went to apologize, that Emma had shown so much heartfelt +interest and concern in the matter of her being a public +laughing-stock, that she was obliged not only to forgive, but to love +her the better for what I called a rudeness. But," continued Mrs. +Lindsay, "singular as she is, I would give worlds to have her----" + +Here the lady paused, and Martha said quickly, "She is better, mother. +She sleeps very well now, and her night-sweats are not so profuse." + +The mother made no answer. It was not because Martha's hopeful words +were unheeded, but because mournful memories were at work in her heart; +and to avoid further conversation she arose and left the room. + +"Mamma will look upon the dark side," said Martha, "but _I_ am much +encouraged. Our physician says, that rambling about in the country, +running in the fields and woods, climbing fences and trees, if she is +disposed, will do wonders for Emma: and I believe it; for how +wonderfully she has improved during these three months--so full of +life, and so full of interest in everybody." + +Emma had refused the cushioned seat, because she saw at a glance that +the young boy occupying that seat was more feeble than herself. The +name of this little boy was Edwin. Emma had met him frequently in the +woods, and down by the brook where he went to fish. They had thus +become pretty well acquainted, and from him Emma had learned the name +of the pretty girl who sat in the pew in front of their own at +church--the little girl who wore a black ribbon upon her bonnet, and +whose manner in the house of prayer was both quiet and devout. Edwin +had told her that the name of this pretty girl was Mary Palmer; that +just before their family came to Appledale she had lost a little +sister; and that since then, though very quiet and kind before, Mary +had been very patient, even with Fanny Brighton. Emma, therefore, was +not wholly unprepared for the off-hand greeting bestowed upon her that +morning by Fanny. On first getting into the wagon, she pressed Mary's +hand without waiting for the ceremony of an introduction, for she knew +her name. Mary loved to have Emma so near her; for though they had +never spoken together before, a mutual affection existed between them; +but the modest girl felt that Henry ought to have given Emma a seat +beside some one who knew more than herself. + +"Fanny Brighton," thought Mary, "is so amusing when she chooses to be; +Alice More is so witty; and the Misses Sliver so learned, Henry ought +to have seen that Emma was where she would be pleasantly entertained; +but I will make amends for this when we get to the plain--I will +introduce her, and leave her with them." + +Emma, however, seemed well satisfied with her company. "I have long +wanted to speak with you," said she. + +"That is very polite," thought Mary; "I suppose it is what well-bred +people generally say. I have _really_ wanted to hear her speak, though +I won't say so, for she will think that I am only trying to be polite." + +Emma took off her sun-bonnet when riding through the woods, and told +Mary how happy it made her to hear the birds sing, and to breathe the +sweet fragrance which came from the hay-meadows; but Mary felt +diffident, and did not reply warmly, as she felt. She called Emma Miss +Lindsay; so Emma felt obliged to call her Miss Palmer, though she +longed to put her arms around her, as they sat upon the box, and call +her _Mary_. + +All this time the company in the rear were talking in this way:-- + +"I suppose," said Fanny Brighton, "that this little chicky-dandy thinks +she has done us a great favor, by condescending to ride in a wagon, and +upon a box. If she shows off any of her aristocratic airs to me, I will +soon make her understand that her room is better than her company." + +"What a milk-and-water looking thing she is," said Alice More; "they +had better have kept their cosset at home; she will be calling, 'ma! +ma!' before night." + +"And we will answer, 'bah!'" said Josh Cheever, as Susan Sliver put her +hand over his mouth, for fear that he would give a sample. + +Arrived at the plains, the wagons were turned a little into the +shrubbery, so as not to obstruct the passage of the narrow road; then +the company alighted, while Henry and Joshua led the horses to one of +the large trees, (of which there were, as we have already said, but +few,) each carrying a bundle of hay under his arm. + +In the mean time Mary introduced the young ladies severally to Emma. +Alice More professed herself very glad to see her; but this profession, +for some reason, seemed to give Emma pain. Fanny made no professions at +all, only coldly nodding a "how-d'ye-do," without appearing to notice +that Emma wished to shake hands. The Misses Sliver were cordial enough, +but too sentimental for the occasion; Miss Susan, using the language of +some novel she had read, said, she hoped to find in Emma a "kindred +spirit;" at which remark Fanny laughed outright, saying she hoped that +"Sliver Crook" and "Snag Orchard" would not become etherialized. + +"I cannot talk in that way," thought Mary; "so I will go by myself, and +pick berries, leaving Miss Lindsay with them." Mary felt, however, that +she should like to be somewhere near Emma; so she only withdrew a +little way, sitting down where she could see her through the bushes. +Alice chattered away very freely for a time, and then wandered off in +pursuit of Fanny, who, from the first, had not addressed a single word +to Emma. But the Misses Sliver kept near her, and seemed to be making +themselves very agreeable. Mary heard them mention at least a dozen +books, of which she had not heard even the titles before, and she was +glad for having left Emma with those who could talk of such matters. +She watched her though, as she bent over the blueberry bushes, and +fancied that she looked sad. Then after a time she saw her sit down +upon a log, looking very languid and weary. Mary had brought a bottle +of nice milk from home that morning, and the thought crossed her mind +that a draught of that milk might be refreshing to Emma; so she took a +bright little dipper from her basket, and ran off toward the wagon. + +"Where are you going, Mary Palmer?" said Alice, whom she met on the +way. + +"Miss Lindsay looks very pale and tired," said Mary. "I am going to +carry her some of my nice milk." + +"I would do no such thing," said Alice; "she is used to having a host +of servants at her heels, and thinks that we country girls will act as +her lackies. If she wants refreshment, tell her where it is, and let +her go for it herself." + +"Why, Alice," replied Mary, "you told her this morning that you were +very glad to see her, and now you have no interest in making her either +comfortable or happy." + +"To be sure," said Alice; "do you suppose that I was going to say, 'I +am not at all glad to see you, Miss Prim--I am mad enough with Henry +Boyd to pull his ears, because he went to your house for you?' You +would not have had me say so; but these were my feelings; so what am I +to do?" + +"I know what _I_ would do," said Mary, firmly. "I would pray to God +until I had better feelings; so that I could say from my _heart_, I am +glad to see you." + +"O good!" exclaimed Alice, laughingly; "you _are_ getting to be +religious, and I shall tell Fanny: so look out, little Miss Courtesy." + +"You are very kind," said Emma, as she took the bright dipper of milk +from Mary. "I ate but little breakfast, and am very fond of milk. This +looks so nice too, so pure and white, in this clean, shining dipper:" +and Emma sat looking at the milk, as though it were a pity to drink it +up; and Mary stood looking at her, until she thought that perhaps it +was not polite to do so, and turned away. + +"Don't go," said Emma, "unless you choose to be by yourself. Sit down +here just a minute. I have queer thoughts about this milk; and since we +are all alone, I will tell you what they are. You read the Bible, +Ma--,--I mean Miss Palmer?" + +"Yes; but call me Mary, if you please. I am not used to being called +Miss." + +"Well then, Mary dear," said Emma, drawing closer to her, as they sat +upon the log, "you remember where the Bible speaks of the _sincere +milk_ of the _word_" Mary smiled; for she was much pleased, and a +little surprised. Mrs. Lindsay and her family, with their Sabbath rides +and evening dancing parties, were not of course considered religious +people. "What do you suppose," continued Emma, "is meant by the sincere +milk of the word?" + +"When a very little girl," replied Mary, "father bought me a small book +called 'Milk for Babes,' and said it was for children who wanted to +learn the first principles of the doctrine of Christ. That little book +was all about _charity_." + +"Was it?" said Emma, with animation, "how strange that I should have +the same thoughts, without knowing anything about it! When you gave me +this milk I thought of that passage, and of the one about the cup of +cold water; and now, Mary, please to say why you took all this pains +for me. Was it just to be polite?" + +"No," replied Mary, smiling; "I was afraid that you might think me +_im_-polite for offering you milk in a tin dipper, but I saw you +looking pale and tired, and thought that it might do you good." + +"That was giving it to me in the name of a disciple," said Emma, in a +low voice, looking at the milk again, as though it was now hallowed and +blessed of God. "It is delicious," said she, taking the cup from her +lips, "and I feel better. I am not so weary; my head aches less, and my +_heart_ is refreshed." + +"Then I have not lost my reward," said Mary. "But here come Fanny and +Alice. They are very entertaining, and the day will be less tedious if +you can manage to keep with them. Fanny is plain spoken, but people +call her a good-hearted girl; and Alice is so funny." + +"If you please," replied Emma, "I had rather be with you. I am not +afraid of plain-spoken people, if they are kind. Dora is very careful +to tell me my faults, but then her manner is such that I can't help +feeling that it is because she loves me so well; so I am neither pained +nor vexed. I used to be very partial to _funny_ people; but I feel +serious now nearly all of the time. I can love Fanny and Alice; but, +Mary dear, I had rather be with you, if you please." + +"O," replied Mary, "I love to have you with me." + +She was prevented from saying more, for Alice now called out, "Forward, +march! Do you hear the drum?" + +"It is not probable," said Fanny, "that a _religious_ person like Mary +Palmer will march to the tune of Yankee Doodle upon a kettle-drum." + +Emma looked at Mary, and saw the deep blush upon her face, and the tear +that, in spite of herself, trembled in her mild blue eye. + +"How unkind," thought Emma, "and so _rude_ too! This plain-spoken girl +has not a good heart, if people do think so. I shall ask Dora about +her." + +"It is the signal for dinner," said Mary, recovering herself in a +minute, and turning with a smile toward Emma. "Henry wants us to go to +the wagons." So they walked along arm-in-arm, while Alice and Fanny +whispered together about this sudden intimacy, and prophesied that hot +love like that would soon be cold. + +"I mean to tell Mary just what I think of it," said Fanny; "for I am +not afraid to speak my mind to anybody." + +"Well," replied Alice, "I cannot imagine what Miss Emma likes in Mary, +or why Mary is so charmed with her. This much I will say, but don't you +name it to any one--neither of them is at all to _my_ fancy." + +It was not wonderful that Alice did not know the secret of that +affection between two who were comparatively strangers to each other. +The reason was not plain even to Emma and Mary, for neither of them yet +knew it by the Scripture name, which is "unity of the Spirit." Each had +loved the other while as yet no word of communication had passed +between them, because each had a portion of that Spirit which binds +heart to heart. Alice would not have understood this had it been told +her, for she had never entertained this gentle Spirit. She might have +done so, for it knocks at every human heart; but there are other +spirits there--spirits that must be cast out, before that which is +long-suffering, meek, and good, will come in and sup with us. Alice +would not cast emulation, pride, envy, and jealousy out of her heart, +that the good Spirit might enter. Would she have done so, she might not +have found it so difficult to understand what Emma and Mary saw in each +other to love. + +The company was now assembled under a large tree near to the roadside. +Henry had constructed a rude table, over which was spread a cloth, and, +assisted by Joshua, he was now bringing the dinner from the wagon, +while the Misses Sliver arranged the dishes. + +"Here is a comfortable seat, Miss Lindsay," said Henry, when the dinner +was ready; and he led her to a rock beside the table, which was covered +with moss. + +"One of nature's verdant cushions," said Susan Sliver. + +"Nature is very polite to the aristocracy," whispered Fanny, loud +enough to be heard; but Emma lifted little Edwin to the rock, saying +that it was just high enough for him. + +Fanny had determined to show that she was not afraid to act herself +anywhere, so she talked about matters not at all interesting to the +company, taking care to think differently from every one who expressed +an opinion. + +Again the question arose in Emma's mind, whether such rudeness could be +the fruit of a good heart; but she quieted herself by saying, "I will +ask Dora about it." + +After the dinner was over, Miss Margaret Sliver began to talk of some +verses that Susan had written for this occasion, and insisted on +drawing them from her pocket. Susan pretended great unwillingness; but +her sister easily possessed herself of the copy, which, with great +pathos of manner, she read to the company. + +"Splendid! elegant!" exclaimed Alice; but at the same time she stepped +upon Fanny's toe, and gave her a merry sidelong glance. "Beautiful! are +they not, Mary Palmer?" + +"I am no judge of poetry," said Mary, modestly; "so my opinion is not +worth having." + +"_You_ cannot say so, Miss Lindsay," continued Alice, "for I heard you +repeating some lines this morning." + +"Did you," asked Emma, coloring a little, "then I think they must have +been from a hymn by James Montgomery, of which I am very fond, and +sometimes repeat unconsciously." + +"Of course," said Fanny, looking suddenly at Emma, "you think Miss +Sliver equal to Montgomery." + +"This is not the place for me to say whether I do or not," replied +Emma, quietly. + +"I know," said Fanny, "that there are some people who think that the +truth is not to be spoken at all times; but I have never yet been +afraid to say what I think." + +"There are things," said Henry, "of which we may not think rightly, +and, understanding this, some are slow to speak." + +"And who is to be the judge of our thoughts," asked Fanny, "whether +they be right or wrong?" + +All were silent now; not because they had no answer for Fanny's +question, but because they were not willing to give the _right_ answer. + +At last, Mary, in a low voice, replied: "The Bible should be our rule, +both for thought and word, and conscience must judge between that and +us." + +"And does the Bible teach you to flatter people with your tongue, while +you are laughing at them in your sleeves?" asked Fanny. + +"No," replied Mary; "but it teaches us to love our neighbor as +ourselves, to be courteous, and pitiful." + +"Then I keep one requirement," said Fanny, jumping over the log, seated +upon which she had eaten her dinner; "for I do pity people who are too +mealy-mouthed to be honest--pity, or _despise_ them, I cannot tell +which." + +All now had withdrawn from the table, except Emma, Mary, Joshua +Cheever, and little Edwin. "Your milk is very nice, Mary," said Eddy, +"but it does not cure my thirst; O I do want some cold water." + +"There is none nearer than the pond," said Joshua, "unless you go to +Graffam's; but they are so piggish, I would choke before I would ask +water of them. The last time I went there, the old woman sent one of +the young ones to tell me that the village folks were an unmannerly +set, and she wanted them to keep their distance. I told the girl to +give my love to her mother, and tell her that she was the sweetest +poppy upon the plain. So you see that it wouldn't do for me to go there +again; I might get my head cracked with one of Graffam's rum-jugs." + +"I am not afraid to go," said Mary. "I have no doubt but that the +blueberry parties are a trouble to Mrs. Graffam." + +"_Mrs_. Graffam!" exclaimed Joshua, laughing. "Nobody else calls her +anything but Moll, and her husband, Pete." + +Emma now lifted Edwin from his seat upon the rock, and taking his hand, +while Mary brought the bright dipper, they started for the log-house, +which looked in the distance like a black stump. + +"It is loving your neighbor _better_ than yourself,"--said the little +boy, looking smilingly up into Emma's face,--"I am sure it is, to come +all this way with me." + +"Well, we ought to love our neighbor better than ourselves," replied +Mary, who was walking behind. "We shall, Eddy, if we are like----" + +"Like Jesus?" asked Eddy. + +"Yes," said Mary. "He didn't love himself at all; but he loved us, even +unto death." + +"How wonderful!" said Emma. "Talk some more about him, Mary dear, if +you please." + +But they were now at the poor door, which swung upon its wooden hinges: +they were about to knock, when they saw a forlorn-looking woman come +from a dark closet, with a sick child in her arms. + +"Poor little thing!" said Mary, going toward her.[*] "What is the +matter with him, Mrs. Graffam?" + +[Footnote *: See Frontispiece.] + +"He is very sick," she replied, glancing from her to the door, when +Emma courtesied politely, and Edwin pulled off his hat. "Walk in," said +Mrs. Graffam; "my children are all out upon the plain, but you can help +yourselves to seats." Then turning to Mary she said again, "He is very +sick, and I cannot tell what is the matter with him, unless it is want +of----." Here she paused, and after a time added, "He is losing all his +flesh, poor thing!" + +"Yes," said Mary, "he looks as my dear little sister did just before +she died!" + +"When did she die?" asked Mrs. Graffam. + +"Just as the grass was getting green," said Mary. "It was a fit time +for her to die, Mrs. Graffam; for she was born in the spring, and it +seemed exactly as though the sweet bud had to go back to the +summer-land before it could bloom." + +"And if your little baby dies, Mrs. Graffam," said Eddy, "he will be a +flower in God's garden; won't he, Mary?" + +"Yes," whispered Mary, while the poor woman's face flushed, and her lip +quivered. Mary glanced at Edwin, and remembered her errand. + +"Mrs. Graffam," said she, "I know that the blue-berry parties must be a +great trouble to you, and we would not have come here for water, only +Eddy is not very well." + +"You are welcome to as much water as you want," interrupted Mrs. +Graffam, "and so is any one who can treat us with civility. We are very +poor, it is true, and that is not our greatest misfortune either; but +it is hard to be despised." + +While Mary was gone for the water, Emma sat looking at the sick baby, +and noticed, that though the weather was warm, its skeleton limbs +looked blue and cold. She was going to advise the mother to wrap it in +flannel, when the thought that perhaps the poor woman had none, +prevented her speaking: for Christian courtesy never says to the poor +"Be ye warmed and clothed," while it provides not the things which are +necessary; and fortunately Emma thought it time enough to speak of what +the poor child needed, when she had _supplied_ that need. Edwin was +greatly refreshed by his drink of cold water, and kissing the sick +child, he thanked Mrs. Graffam, and was ready to go. + +"There is a good old lady living with my mother," said Emma, "who is +used to sickness, and might know what to do for your babe, Mrs. +Graffam; shall I ask her to come with me, and see you?" + +"I shall be glad to see anybody," was the reply, "who is like you or +your little friends;" and bidding the poor woman a good-by, they went +back to the plain. + +Henry Boyd remembered his promise to Mrs. Lindsay, and before the sun +was down the company were on their way home. The talk and clatter of +the morning were now hushed. Joshua whistled, while his horse plodded +lazily along, until Fanny peevishly bade him "hold his tongue." + +"Anybody does that," said Joshua, "when he whistles!" but he +good-naturedly stopped. + +Margaret Sliver undertook to repeat some poetry composed by Susan, upon +the setting sun:-- + + The setting sun is going down + Behind the western hills; + It glitters like a golden crown,---- + +"What is the last line, Susan?" asked Margaret; but Susan was not +flattered by the way her poetry had been handled at the dinner-table, +and now she refused to supply the missing rhyme. + + The setting sun is going down + Behind the western hills, + +pursued Margaret; + + It glitters like a golden crown, + "_On top of Motley's Mills!_" + +added Alice; while Fanny, calling out to Henry Boyd, repeated the whole +verse as Susan's poetry, bidding him ask Miss Lindsay if Montgomery +could beat that. Susan was highly offended, saying that she considered +herself insulted, and chose to walk the remainder of the way. + +"O no, Miss Sliver," said Joshua; "never mind Fanny Brighton--she is +only one of the blunt sort, saying right to your face what other folks +would say behind your back." + +This explanation from Joshua was rather more favorable than Fanny +deserved; for she had not the faithful Christian charity, which, while +it unflinchingly speaks truth to those whom it concerns, is careful to +speak no evil anywhere. It was well known, that though Fanny boasted of +not being afraid to tell to people's faces what she thought of them, +she was not less fearless in talking of the same things in their +absence; so that she differed from common backbiters only in having +more--shall we call it impudence? + +It is a harsh name, but let us analyze the principle. What spirit +possesses the human heart, when it shows a disposition to make others +uncomfortable? Is it frankness--we know that it is sometimes dignified +with that name; though it is little akin to the true Christian +faithfulness, which, always at peace with truth, never offends against +true courtesy. Charity regards the little foibles incident to fallen +human nature with a lenient eye, never pointing them out to the +scornful gaze of another, but remembering that they are to be touched +tenderly, if touched at all; _secretly_, too, apart from the scrutiny +of another, and by disinterested friendship alone. + +"The Sliver girls make fools of themselves, and of each other," said +Fanny, when Margaret and Susan, arrived at their own house, coldly took +leave of the company. + +"I know it," replied Alice. "To think that they will associate with us +girls, pretending to be young, when everybody knows that they are not: +dressing, prinking, reading novels, and making poetry; while their poor +old slave of a mother is making butter and cheese." + +"It provokes me when I think of it," answered Fanny; "and how you can +flatter them so, calling their dresses becoming, and their poetry +beautiful, I cannot imagine, when you know, Alice, that it is all a +lie." + +"Well," said Alice, laughingly, "I do it for fun. It is so amusing to +see their languishing airs; and then, Fanny, to tell the truth, I have +no objection to people's playing the fool, if it makes them feel +better." + +"But I shall hate you, by-and-by," said Fanny, "for being a hypocrite." + +"Guess it won't be any put out to you," replied Joshua; "for you are as +full of hate as an egg is of meat." + + + + +CHAPTER II + +THE KIND "GOOD-MORNING"--THE HIGH HILL--UNEXPECTED MEETING--ROMANCE AND +REALITY--THE GOOD FARMER--IMPRESSIONS OF CHILDHOOD--WORSHIPING--BEARING +THE CROSS. + + +"Good-morning, Mr. Graffam," said Emma, who was in the garden when the +poor man of the plain passed along the road on his way to the mills. + +We have before said that morning was not the time for this man to talk, +and now he felt inclined, as usual, to pass this early salutation +without notice; but it had been a long time since he had been accosted +in that manner. It was no uncommon thing for people to address him in +this way: "Good-morning, Pete! Feel sober after your last night's high, +eh?" But a respectful "Good-morning, Mr. Graffam," now met his ear. "Can +it be," thought the fallen man, "that I am still _Mr._, or are they +mocking me?" He looked up, but saw neither jest nor scorn upon the fair +face looking over the garden-wall. + +"Good-morning, sir," repeated Emma; "it is a fine morning." + +Poor Graffam looked with his dull swollen eyes upon the bright-blue +sky, and then upon the wood-crowned hill, and the shaded dell, where +the waters rippled and murmured, and the birds sang cheerily, and his +heart caught some apprehension of beauty, for he answered slowly, "So +it is, miss,--a very fine morning." + +"And pray, how is your dear little babe, sir?" asked Emma, in a voice +of tender concern. + +This question seemed fully to rouse him. There was a glance both of +surprise and intelligence in his eye, as he replied, "The child is very +sick;" and then repeated, as though it were a fact new to himself, +"Yes, that poor child is very sick indeed." + +"I was at your house yesterday," continued Emma, "and promised Mrs. +Graffam that I would bring a good old lady living with us to see her; +but I am not well enough to go to-day." + +"Sorry if you are sick," murmured Graffam. + +"Thank you," said Emma. "I was going to ask if you would have the +kindness just to call at the gate tonight, and take a small package for +Mrs. Graffam?" + +"I will," said he, with a tone and manner something like self-respect +and respect for his wife,--"I will, miss, with pleasure;" and he pulled +his old hat from his head, and bowed low, while Emma bade him good-by. + +"Go out upon the hills, my love," called Mrs. Lindsay from her window +to Emma; "it will do you no good to be tying-up flowers, and talking +with ragged old men by the roadside. Put on your bonnet, and walk +briskly over the bridge, and let me see you from my window upon the top +of yonder hill." + +Emma cheerfully obeyed, and though she felt extremely languid, +compelled herself to walk briskly as her mother had desired; but coming +to the foot of the hill she paused, and looked doubtfully upon its +steep sides and lofty top. "It reminds me of 'the Hill Difficulty,'" +thought Emma; "but the Christian pilgrim did not allow himself to stop +and think over the difficulties, but 'addressed himself to his +journey.' So must I:" and ceasing to look at the top, but only at the +place for her feet, step by step, she at length gained the summit, and +waved her handkerchief toward the house. The signal was answered from +her mother's window, and then she sat down upon a rock to rest. But the +morning was too dazzlingly beautiful there. She felt oppressed by the +glory of distant mountains, sparkling rivers, and wide-spread fields of +corn and grain; but looking down a gentle slope of the hill she saw a +delightful place--it was a bend of the little brook gliding through the +meadow-ground of Appledale. The pines had cast their spiral leaves +there, so that the hill-side and the borders of the rill looked as +though covered with sunlight, though there was in fact nothing but +shade, for the trees clustered together, and locked their green arms, +as if to shut the brook from day-light; yet close upon the borders of +that brook Emma saw a large flat rock, around which the waters played, +looking so cool and inviting that she longed to be there. She put her +hand into her pocket, and found, to her joy, that the dear companion of +her rambles was there: it was her Bible. Happy for Emma, she had +learned to prize its gentle converse above that of human tongues; and +now, sitting down upon her feet, she smiled to see how glassy the pine +leaves had made the hill-slope, for she could slide along with but +little exertion, and soon found herself upon the broad flat rock. +Taking her little Bible, she was just turning to some passages Dora had +marked, when she heard a deep sigh, and saw, to her surprise, Susan +Sliver seated upon a moss-turf, crying bitterly. + +"I am close to Sliver Crook," thought Emma, now for the first time +noticing the house not far beyond the trees. "This may be Miss Susan's +place of retirement, and I have no right here; but I cannot get away +now without being seen; and then she seems unhappy. I should be glad to +comfort her, if I could without----" + +Just at that moment Susan looked up, and saw Emma, who sprang from the +rock, and running toward her, said: "I was not aware of a trespass upon +your grounds, Miss Sliver. You will pardon me. It looked so inviting +here, that I was constrained to come down from the hill." + +Susan, however, did not appear at all embarrassed at being caught in +tears. + +She wiped her face with her apron, and then Emma saw an open book upon +her knee. "My dear Miss Lindsay," said Susan, "it is no intrusion. I am +glad to find a congenial spirit anywhere. My joy at this meeting is +inexpressible; for now I know that there is one in this cold-hearted +place, one beside my sister Margaret, who can appreciate my feelings." + +Emma was silent; for she did not understand what those feelings were, +or whether she appreciated them or not. + +"Prom my childhood," continued Susan, "I have been among the people of +my race, but not of them. I have stood alone, in a shroud of thoughts, +which were not their thoughts; but few understand me, my dear, for I +live in an ideal world, and whatever calls me back to this gross +creation, makes me perfectly miserable: say, my dear Miss Lindsay, are +these your feelings?" + +"Alas, no," replied Emma; "I love the world too well, and have spent +many wretched, sleepless nights because I was unwilling to leave it: +but that time is passed. If I have any fear now, it is that my work on +earth will not be well done before I am called away." + +Susan turned a wondering eye upon the pale, weary-looking girl, and for +a moment forgot her intense sympathy for herself. "You are sick," said +she, with an expression of real interest and concern. + +"Yes," replied Emma, "that is evident. My friends have tried to hide it +from me, and from themselves. They have sent me from place to place, +but death is following me everywhere. _I_ never felt it so surely as I +do this morning:" and Emma laid her head upon the moss-turf beside +Susan. She looked like a faded lily, as she lay there; her white dress +scarcely more white than the forehead and cheek upon which her dark +damp hair rested heavily. Susan took a handkerchief from her pocket, +and wrung it in the clear, cool waters of the brook, and kneeling upon +the ground beside Emma, wiped her pale face, and tucking up her +sleeves, chafed her poor withered arms, until Emma revived. + +"Thank you," said she; "I was a little faint. Mamma is so desirous for +me to exercise in the open air, that I go every day to the farthest +limit of my strength. I was not able to climb that hill this morning." + +Susan made no reply, but sat looking mournfully into her face. All the +morning she had been weeping over the sorrows of an imaginary being +whom she had found in a novel wandering about, and falling at every +step into the most superlative misery. It was hard for Susan to read, +and not identify herself with this beautiful suffering shadow; but now +she had come from her ideal world, and was forced, for a time, to +forget both the shadow and herself. Close to her father's old +farm-house, and in the woods of Sliver-Crook, she saw what, described +in a romance, would have been pathetic enough, but which, seen in +reality, called out from her heart the good rational sympathy which, +though buried in sentimental rubbish, was not dead. + +"Do you really think," said she, bending over Emma, "that you must----" + +Emma smiled, as she replied, "What difficulty we find in pronouncing +that word! One would think that there was a sting in the very _name_ of +death: and so there is, Miss Sliver, until God gives us the victory, +through Jesus Christ." + +"Jesus was a beautiful character," said Susan, taking up Emma's Bible, +beside which the red-covered novel lay blushing as if in an agony of +shame. "I have often felt," she continued, "a strong desire to visit +the places hallowed by his personal ministry; the garden where he kept +his sad night-watch, Miss Lindsay; the Mount of Olives, and the +clear-gliding Kedron. O," continued Susan, enthusiastically, "I should +like to stand where the Marys stood, on the dreadful day of his +crucifixion, and visit the tomb where they went, bearing sweet spices. +O, wouldn't it be delightful?" + +"Yes," replied Emma, languidly; "but we should not find him there +now,--upon Calvary, or the Mount of Olives; by the sweet-gliding +Kedron, or in the Garden of Gethsemane,--unless we were like him, meek +and lowly, and such can find him anywhere, Miss Sliver. The spirit of +Jesus would hallow _this_ book, making it blessed and holy like the +waters of Kedron; and this high hill might be to us what the Mount of +Olives was to the disciples--for that was sacred only because Jesus +talked with them there. Dora told me last night that the Holy Spirit +could make any place holy." + +Susan was silent. Emma had spoken words to which something within bore +witness as truth, and she knew not what to say. Emma, too, lay musing +for some time; and then raising her head, and resting it upon her hand, +she said: "How wonderfully self-denying Jesus was, Miss Sliver. Nobody +appreciated the Saviour when he was upon earth, not even the disciples; +yet this was nothing to him, for he did not seek his own glory. He went +cheerfully about his Father's work, never thinking of himself, and +never feeling himself degraded by the presence of a poor, sick, sinful +multitude." + +"I know it," said Susan, thoughtfully; "but the world will never see +another Jesus, Miss Lindsay." + +"O, it will, it will," replied Emma, with animation. "When human hearts +are willing to let his Spirit dwell in them, human hands will do the +work which Jesus did; and so his kingdom will come, and the world will +see and acknowledge their King." + +A shrill blast from a horn, at the farm-house across the brook, now +interrupted their conversation. + +"It is time for me to go home," said Susan; "but I shall not consent to +leave you to climb that hill again today--you must go to our house, and +stay until you are rested." + +This kind decision of manner, so unlike anything she had before seen in +Susan Sliver, quite interested Emma. She did not feel averse to a +further acquaintance, and taking her arm they crossed the rustic +bridge, and were soon at the farm-house. An elderly man, wearing a +Quaker hat, had just entered, and Emma heard him talking to a +good-looking old lady, who, both warm and tired, was vehemently beating +a minute pudding. "Thee looks tired, Sarah; where are the girls?" + +"Can't say where Susan is," was the reply. "Margaret is up stairs, +sewing." + +"Well, there is a time for everything, and the girls are old enough to +know it; but here comes Susan. Come, Susan, thee ought to be helping +thy mother these hot days; but who is this friend?" + +"Mrs. Lindsay's daughter," said Susan. + +Emma might have saved her graceful courtesy this time; for the old +gentleman did not return it by taking off his broad-brimmed hat: yet +she felt the sincere politeness of his manner, as, offering his hand, +he said, "I am glad to see thee, child; how is thy mother?" + +"Very well, thank you," said Emma, taking a seat upon the cushioned +chair, which Susan brought and placed near the open door. + +The old lady was not less cordial in her manner toward their visitor; +but she seemed in a great hurry to get dinner upon the table, for the +men were coming from the field, and the sun had crossed the noon-mark. + +Emma was glad to see Susan taking hold to help her mother; and +presently Margaret came down stairs, dressed a little too much, and a +little too girlish, but appearing very kind and good-natured. + +"What shall I call thy name?" asked the old gentleman. + +"Emma, if you please," was the reply. + +"Well, then, Emma," he continued, "thee is welcome to our table; take +thy chair along, and eat dinner with us." + +Emma felt but little appetite for a farmer's dinner; but she saw that +the family would feel more comfortable if she was at the table with +them, and prompted, not by appetite, but by true courtesy, she did as +she was desired. The farmer folded his hands, and the whole family sat +for a moment in rigid silence. Emma was not accustomed to any form of +thanksgiving before meat; but she understood this silent expression, +and sympathized therein. + +"Thee looks delicate," said the old man; "what shall I give thee to +eat, Emma?" + +"Anything, sir," answered Emma, with habitual politeness, though she +did feel a preference for the milk which came up to the very rim of a +large pitcher upon a corner of the table. + +Margaret began to apologize for the coarseness of their meal: but her +father interposed, saying, "It is good enough for well people, and as +good as we generally have; but if thee has anything a little nice for a +poor appetite, bring it to thy friend." + +"Now," thought Emma, "Christian politeness bids me put them at ease in +this respect." So she said frankly, "I would rather have a glass of +your nice milk than anything else." + +"Thy wants are easily supplied then," replied the good man, as he +filled her tumbler, and laid a slice of bread upon her plate. + +Again Emma thought of the "sincere milk of the word," and looking at +the plain old farmer, she wondered if he had not grown to the stature +of a Christian, by means of this simple charity. + +"Has thee been long out of health?" asked the farmer. + +Emma was not startled by this question, though her mother and sister, +had they been present, would have considered it a rudeness. + +"I was very healthy when a little child," replied Emma. "This +feebleness came on me by degrees,--I can scarcely tell when it +commenced." + +"Very likely," replied the farmer. "I lost two sisters by consumption; +they appeared much as thee does." + +"Father!" exclaimed Margaret; and the old gentleman recollected +himself. "I don't conclude from this," said he, "that thy case is one +of consumption:" and he looked kindly into Emma's face, as though +desiring to be both considerate and sincere. + +"It would not alarm me to hear you call it by that name," replied Emma. +"I am in the habit of regarding death as at the door; and wish so to +do, because I am thus constantly reminded that what my hands find to do +must he done with my might." + +"I am glad to hear such a testimony from thee," said the old man, +earnestly. "It is a pity that any of us should forget the work to be +done in this world, and the shortness of time." + +The dinner was now over, and Emma, greatly refreshed, shook hands with +the farmer and his family, promising to call again; and then took the +short way of the main road to her own home. The old man looked after +her, as her white dress glanced through the green trees by the +roadside, until she descended the hill, and was out of sight. + +"What does thee think of that child, Sarah?" he asked, turning to his +wife. + +"Well, Enoch," was the reply; "_I_ think that she is ripening for +glory." + +The good woman was not of the same religious persuasion with her +husband; but this small matter never interrupted the most cordial +interchange of religious sympathy between them; and now his eyes filled +with tears, and he felt as he had often done before, that "the Spirit" +moved Sarah to give this testimony. + +"Margaret," said he, turning to his daughter, "thee can learn a great +deal from that child, though she is much younger than thyself." + +Margaret felt the slight pettishness which always attended a reference +to her age, and was about to ask her father how he knew her to be much +older than Emma Lindsay; but a more rational feeling had been roused in +her heart, and for once it predominated over this folly. + +Margaret was not like her sister in the matter of romance and +abstraction from every-day scenes and pursuits, though she loved to +regard Susan as something wonderful, and show off her literary +productions. Margaret's foible, on the contrary, was too great a love +for the present world. Unfortunately, she had fixed her heart upon what +is too evanescent for the love of an immortal. Youth, beauty, and the +graces of fashion were the shadows at whose shrine she worshiped, +though the substance was gone. Thus precious time was spent in seeking +to repair its own breaches, and she saw not that they widened day by +day--saw not how the cunning device by which she sought to hide the +footprint of years, only left that foot-print more visible. God had +given both Margaret and Susan better food for the immortal mind, but +they, like many others, chose to feed upon the wind. No wonder that +they were ever unsatisfied. The plain people of that region, who +boasted of nothing superior to _common_ sense, regarded the Sliver +girls as curiosities. Some called them _soft_, and thought there was a +lack of head wisdom; many laughed about them; but no one, save Fanny +Brighton, laughed _at_ them. Their parents were highly esteemed; and it +may be a matter of wonder how they came to be what they were. The cast +of human character is usually taken in childhood--an important fact to +those charged with so responsible a trust; and it was during Margaret +and Susan's childhood, that a vain and sentimental lady sojourned for +two summers at their father's house. The unsuspecting farmer and his +wife never thought of examining the stock of books with which she +loaded the old case in the "fore-room." Having no time for reading +except Sundays, uncle Enoch never expected to get through "Barclay's +Apology," without neglecting his Bible, and this he had no intention of +doing. It was not, therefore, to be expected, that he would spend time +to read even the titles of Mrs. Coolbroth's books. But Margaret and +Susan, bright, sensible children then, were beginning to feel the +thirst often felt in childhood--the restless craving of the spirit for +something new: no wonder, then, that they seized the fruit so "pleasant +to the eye," and as it seemed to them "desirable to make one wise." +Thus the poor girls were lured from the plain homely path, which, plain +and homely as it is, always proves at last the way of pleasantness and +the path of peace. They knew that people called them odd, and in this +they gloried. Fanny Brighton they regarded as a rude girl, who, though +she vexed them, never put them out of humor with themselves. But now, +strange as it may appear, the quiet Christian words and manner of Emma +Lindsay had done this, and they could not tell why. Those words and +that manner, so courteous and kind, were not calculated to wound, yet +they felt wounded. Emma had not done it--it was the _truth_ dwelling in +her heart, and showing itself in its most appropriate dress, which is +Christian courtesy of manner. + +Margaret sat down that afternoon, with a desire to redeem some of the +time which, when she thought of Emma, seemed indeed to be passing away; +and Susan, when she meditated on what Emma had said of Him who never +scorned the humble paths of usefulness, and through his life-long went +about doing good, felt that it was time to examine the spirit that +would worship, without _bearing_ the Saviour's cross. + + + + +CHAPTER III. + +THE POOR WOMAN OF THE PLAIN--THE NOTE--MOURNFUL MUSINGS--THE CUP OF +TEA--THE STRUGGLE--CHARITY AND SELF--EMMA'S HISTORY. + + +Seated upon her low door-stone was Mrs. Graffam, the poor woman of the +plain. It was almost night; the sun had gone down, leaving a long red +line upon the western horizon, which cast a lurid ray upon the +gathering twilight. The poor children of that log-house were fast +asleep: for all that day they had been out upon the plain, where the +sun, from a cloudless sky, glared down upon them; and now the evening +shade was beautiful, and so soothing too, that neither the hard pallet +of straw, nor the hungry musquitoes could drive sleep from eyes so +weary. The sick babe was asleep too: all day it had moaned in its +comfortless little cradle, for the mother had work to do--hard work, +and abundant--for a family so large and poor. Heavily sat poor Mrs. +Graffam upon the door-stone, waiting, she could not tell for what. Many +years before she had waited at twilight for her husband's return, and +listened, as the wind rustled the leaves, because she loved to go out +and meet him as he neared their home. But those years were gone, and +with them the lovelight and beauty of both heart and home. The contrast +between that barren, desolate plain and her former home, was not +greater than the contrast between the glad heart of other years, and +the one sinking despairingly as she sat upon the door-stone that night. + +At last she heard a heavy step along the path leading from the narrow +road to that lone hut; but the sound of that step only deepened the +shadow that gloomed around her. She sat motionless; and there was +something in her manner like the resignation of a stricken, but +trusting heart: but it was not that; it was only the sullen gloom of +despair. Nearer and nearer drew the footstep, and she rose from her +seat, that her poor besotted husband might pass to his bed of straw; +but he did not pass in,--he only looked at her for a moment, and then +averted his eye, for very shame because she had perceived that he was +not drunk. The bag which he had carried week after week to the mills +and brought home every night empty, because he deemed rum more +necessary for himself than food for his family, was now filled with +flour; but he said nothing, and she too was silent, as she followed him +into the hut, and took the large basket which he offered her. Opening +this basket, she found a note, and returning to the door, read as +follows:-- + +"MRS. GRAFFAM:--_Dear Madam_,--I was not able to come and fetch our +good Dora to see you to-day; but your husband has kindly promised to +call this evening, and take the little matters which I have put up for +the dear sick baby; and to-morrow, if it please God, we will see you at +your own house. + +"Your friend, EMMA LINDSAY." + +Graffam looked at his wife as she came in with the note, and, +notwithstanding she had lately spoken very harsh words to him, he +pitied her, and somehow felt as though she was not greatly to blame for +calling him an "unfeeling brute." On the other hand, as Mrs. Graffam +took the things from the basket, she glanced toward her husband, and +thought to herself, "He is sober to-night, and it is all owing to the +kind politeness of that dear girl. His self-respect is not entirely +gone, for he would not appear drunk before Emma. If I could command +patience to treat him with civility, there might be some hope in that;" +so turning toward him she asked, "Have you taken supper, Mr. Graffam?" + +The poor man hesitated. He was really hungry; for that which had proved +to him both victuals and drink, was now wanting; but he feared to speak +of his hunger, lest his wife should say, "The children have no rum to +drink, and it takes all the food _I_ can supply, to keep them from +starving." + +"Here is a nice loaf of bread," continued Mrs. Graffam, cheerfully, as +she took the things from the basket, "and a paper of tea; Miss Emma +could not have intended these for poor little Sammy: so, if you please, +Mr. Graffam, just light a fire under the kettle, and I will make you a +cup of tea." + +"And a cup for yourself," said Graffam, as he lighted the dry sticks in +the large stone chimney, and then peered into the corners of the room +in search of his children. + +"They are all asleep," said his wife; and the poor man turned quickly +toward the fire again, for he feared that she would add, "The poor +creatures have been out upon the plains all day: Heaven knows what we +shall do when the berries are gone." But Mrs. Graffam said nothing +more. She set out the pine table, and going to an old chest brought a +white cloth; it was of bird's-eye diaper. Graffam remembered well who +wove it; and a pleasant vision came along with that white table-cloth. +He saw his mother, as in olden times, weaving; while he stood by her +side, wondering at the skill with which she sent the shuttle through +its wiry arch, and noticing how the little matter of adding thread to +thread filled the "cloth beam" little by little, until the long "web" +was done. "Such is life," thought Graffam; "the little by little of +human action goes to fill up the warp of time, and decides the worth of +what we manufacture for eternity." Then he looked sadly over his own +work, and could but say to himself, "It is all loose ends, loose ends. +What a web for eternity!" + +"Supper is ready," said Mrs. Graffam, and the poor man turned toward +the table. The white loaf was there, and a basin of the berries his +little ones had picked from the plain. In a solitary cup (for it was +the only one saved from their wreck of crockery) Graffam saw his tea, +and offered to exchange with his wife for the broken mug, into which +was poured a scanty portion for herself. + +"No, thank you," said she, "this is very well;" and they were seated at +the table. + +It was upon the whole a cheerful meal. It seemed as though each one had +been a long journey, and had just returned; they were pleased with each +other, and talked of old acquaintances, and other days, themes upon +which they had held no converse for a long, long time past. + +As their supper was finished, the little one in the cradle moaned +again, and Mrs. Graffam brought from the basket a long flannel dress, +and put it upon "wee bit," gently rubbing its blue limbs; then, with +something of the freedom and confidence of other days, she laid poor +baby upon its father's knee, and going again to the friendly basket, +brought thence a bottle, from which she dropped a little fine-flavored +cordial into warm water. The babe opened its large eyes upon its +mother, as though wondering what it could be that was so good upon its +poor little tongue and lip; then rubbing its tiny hands up and down the +flannel dress, it looked smilingly into the father's face, and uttered +an expressive "goo!" The parent was not quite dead in that father's +heart, though long buried beneath the waves of selfish indulgence. He +looked upon that poor little creature, and wondered that he could ever +forget one so suffering and dependent. "The baby feels better," said +Graffam to his wife; and he thought to himself, "I too should feel +better, could I break my chains and be a man." + +Through most of that night Graffam thought the same thing, and wondered +if it could be done. "I have dug my own grave," thought he, "and +officious hands have helped me in; they have cast over me the dirt of +scorn and ridicule, until I am well-nigh buried alive. O, if there was +left in others one particle of respect, I might come forth from this +grave! I know that I might, from the little of kindness and civility +shown me this day. I was once respected, and so was my wife; but I have +dragged her down, down with me. It is a shame, for she is worthy a +better fate." Thus thought poor Graffam through many hours of that +night, and in the morning he turned from his hut again, with but little +hope of seeing it as he did then, with open eyes, from which his soul +looked forth; thinking, hoping, fearing, yet ready to struggle once +more for life. + +It was a beautiful morning, and Emma sat beside the open window, less +languid than she had been the day before. Dora was putting things in +order, when Emma asked this question:--"Through what medium do we see +people, Dora, when we discover nothing but their faults?" + +"Through the medium of self," was the ready reply. "If there is +anything offensive in a person, self is nettled on its own account, and +in its excitement sees nothing but the offense." + +"How would charity act toward a person whose manners are extremely +rude?" asked Emma. + +"Charity is always giving," replied Dora, "while it exacts nothing. It +is never jealous of its own dignity. It never behaveth itself unseemly; +but beareth, hopeth, and endureth all things, even from those who know +nothing of its own sweet expression--courtesy." + +"I must see Fanny Brighton again," thought Emma, "and ask Charity to +lend me her eyes, that I may see if there is nothing good in her; or if +I can manage to put out the eyes of self, by seeing nothing through +this medium, perhaps charity will become eyes to the blind." + +It was by the blessing of God upon the humble efforts of that pious old +lady called Dora, that Emma had become what she was. Mrs. Lindsay was a +worldly woman, and the time had been when she had no higher hopes for +her children than to see them richly gifted with worldly +accomplishments. Her two eldest daughters, Helen and Amanda, had been +models in this respect; and for a season the mother rejoiced in this +pride of her eyes. But there is a strange intruder often found where he +is least desired, and never retiring simply because his presence is +deprecated--that is death. Who has not entertained this uninvited +guest? + +When Helen and Amanda began to droop, as Emma now did, Dora was the +oldest servant in Mrs. Lindsay's family, and highly esteemed, both on +account of her fidelity and her pleasing manners. "There is something +peculiar about Dora," Mrs. Lindsay would say, "she is never untruthful +and never impolite; two ideas which, in the eyes of fashionable +etiquette, seem antagonistic. It was not, however, until her daughters +began to show symptoms of decline, that Mrs. Lindsay understood this +peculiarity in Dora. + +"You must turn that religious woman out of your house," said the +physician, "or I cannot save your daughters." And Dora was severely +reprimanded by her mistress for the extreme discourtesy of offering to +read to the young ladies from the Bible. + +"What can she think?" asked Helen, with concern. "The doctor says that +I shall be well in a few days; but Dora looks serious, and offers to +read to me from the Bible. You will not have me deceived, mamma?" + +"No, love," said her mother, trying to persuade her own heart that +there was no cause for alarm. "Dora is religious, and such people +always have fits of being disobliging." + +"She is extremely kind to me in everything else," said the poor girl; +"it is only in this thing that she makes me unhappy." + +"She shall make you unhappy no more; I will forbid her to approach your +room." And so she did. Dora was accused of impertinence, and felt most +keenly that truth and the world's etiquette were at war. + +Days passed on, and there were serious faces, more than one, in that +house where it was impertinent to speak of death and eternity. It is +true, that for a time gay visitors were admitted to Helen's chamber, +and there was hollow laughter there, as they talked of balls, parties, +and new fashions, and told the poor girl that she was looking better +every day: but Dora saw them whisper, and shake their heads to each +other as they passed out; and she saw that every day the mother grew +more fearful as it regarded the daughter, and kinder toward herself. + +At last she was told that Helen wanted her; but she was charged to be +careful, as the poor girl was extremely weak. + +"Dora, Dora," said Helen, "_you_ will tell me the truth. Mother said +that I should not be deceived; but I have been, O, I have been cruelly +deceived." + +Dora talked soothingly of Him who is the resurrection and the life: but +the poor girl had opened her eyes all too suddenly upon the startling +picture of death; and now shrinking from his cold embrace, she could +not hear of hope and comfort. Her dying words were to the mother +fraught with keenest anguish, for she spoke of this cruel deceit unto +the last. Amanda soon followed her young sister to the tomb; but the +mother was spared the self-accusation and bitter sorrow attendant upon +Helen's death. Early in her sickness Amanda was consigned to the care +of Dora. It was in vain that the physician expostulated; Mrs. Lindsay +feared nothing so much as again to hear words of reproof from a dying +child for having deceived her. Dora kept her post with Christian +fidelity, and Amanda entered the dark valley and shadow of death +fearing no evil. + +Emma was at that time five years of age, and Martha ten. "My dear +madam," said Dora, "fashion has robbed you of a great treasure. Your +daughters, predisposed to consumption, cannot safely obey its whimsical +demands." + +"Nonsense, Dora!" replied Mrs. Lindsay. But when alone, she thought +seriously upon what the good woman had said. Memory brought before her +mind pictures from which she could not turn. The thin-soled shoes, and +silken hose, in which fashion had required her delicate daughters to +promenade the damp walks of the city; the flimsy ball-dress, the +prolonged dance, and joined with these, the sudden exposure to a wintry +air, were shades upon the bright picture of pleasures past,--dark +shades indeed, but awfully true. + +"Perhaps Martha and Emma may be spared to me," said the mother to her +fashionable friends; "but how can I think of the conditions!" and her +friends talked over the matter among themselves, and concluded that, +after all, a person's life was of but little value, if they must live +secluded from the world; and they gave Mrs. Lindsay a remote hint, that +it was best to let her daughters live _while_ they lived. + +Mrs. Lindsay, however, had more than once stood upon the threshold of +another life, having followed a husband and two daughters to the silent +tomb: and in her secret heart she suspected the small value of what she +had purchased at so great a cost. It seemed hard indeed to deprive her +beautiful children of a fashionable education, and the struggle was +very severe; but the mother triumphed over worldly vanity, and Monsieur +de la Beaumont was told that his services in the family as +dancing-master were no longer desired. + +"One strange ting!" said monsieur; and the world at large thought the +same. + +Mrs. Lindsay considered herself as having made a great sacrifice to +affection, and sometimes feared that she might live to see the day when +she should wish her little novices out of sight, somewhere. One thing +she determined on, however; and that was to take as much of the world +as she could get herself, and thus solace herself for what she was to +lose in her daughters. It cannot be supposed, that with this resolution +the mother would reserve time for the care and culture of these little +ones, who were given over to Dora with but one hope--the forlorn +one--that she would save them alive. This the old lady could not +promise to do; for she understood that having the sentence of death in +ourselves, we are not to trust human means and precautions, but only +Him who raiseth the dead. She, however, cheerfully undertook the +precious charge committed to her trust; glad from her heart that the +poor lambs had been saved from the slaughter, and praying most +earnestly that they might be claimed by the Great Shepherd, and +gathered to his fold. + +Martha was a very quiet, thoughtful child, with speech and manner much +beyond her years; she was not, therefore, strictly confined to the +nursery, but allowed to mingle freely with her mother's guests. Emma, +on the contrary, was much younger, and full of wayward humors. She +greatly needed a mother; but the sacred writer has declared, "She that +liveth in pleasure is dead while she liveth." How many little hearts +have proved the bitterness of that truth! God in mercy saved little +Emma from this sad experience, by raising up for her infancy and +childhood such a friend as was the pious, faithful Dora. + +"It is a promising bud," thought the good woman, "but it may wither +even without the blight of fashion; so I will try to secure for it an +immortal bloom." + +Thus in the morning Dora sowed her seed, the "good seed" for an +immortal harvest; and soon the tender blade began to appear--a most +ungainly thing in the eyes of her mother; for the first fruit of Dora's +good seed, as shown by little Emma, was a great love of truth--a love +which as yet she knew not how to regulate or apply. She was a beautiful +child; and for a time her mother's vanity was gratified by having her +brought from the nursery to her drawing-rooms, to be caressed, admired, +and praised for her smart speeches; but after a time her truth-telling +propensity became too evident. The polite occupants of the drawing-room +began to whisper among themselves that Miss Emma was a spoiled child, +and had better be kept in the nursery. + +Mrs. Lindsay was soon of the same opinion; for scarcely a day passed +when Emma's truthfulness did not prove a nettle to her own vanity. + +"The child is rude," she would say to Dora,--"insufferably so. She told +Madame A. that she looked like an apple-tree; which might have been +taken for a compliment, had not the saucy little sprite explained +herself by pointing to that old tree in the garden which the flowering +shrubbery has decked with every variety of blossom: Mrs. A. is +extremely fond of fancy colors. And when I took her to Bowker's the +other day, that sick Miss Ellenwood was examining his new French goods, +and called my attention to a splendid piece of muslin, and asked if it +was not of beautiful texture. 'Dear Miss Ellen-wood,' interposed Emma; +'you will not want a _figured_ muslin for a _coffin_ dress.' Think of +that, Dora." + +"Well, my dear madam," replied Dora; "the child heard some of your +friends say that this vain sick girl, who is spending all her slender +income in dress, would want money soon to pay for a shroud." + +"Certainly, Dora, that has frequently been said; but the child should +know better than give such a hint to the young lady herself! Several +ladies were in the store, and I felt extremely mortified and shocked." + +Such complaints were frequent; and at last the good Dora answered all, +by begging the mother to have patience both with herself and with the +child. "This truthfulness," said she, "is of excellent quality, but it +is now rough from the quarry. By-and-by charity will make its rough +places smooth; for love not only refines and purifies, but it +_polishes_ the hewn stone after the similitude of a palace." + +Mrs. Lindsay did not understand these words, and derived but little +comfort therefrom. She could not see how Emma's bluntness was to be +refined, save by putting her into fashion's crucible; and this she more +than once resolved to do, at any risk. With this resolution, however, +there always came a fearfulness, which seemed a warning voice from the +tomb, bidding her "beware;" and to this voice of warning she took +reluctant heed. + +Pursuing a quiet course of study under private tutors, Emma was still +left morally and physically to the care of her pious friend. Dora +planted in hope, and now the precious shoot was caused to spring forth +by Him who giveth the increase. This precious shoot of moral strength, +ungainly, and without form or comeliness to the world, she watered, +tended, and watched, with earnest faith for the Husbandman, whose +pruning knife should convert it into a goodly tree. Emma sometimes came +to her friend with puzzling questions; among those most frequently +asked were the following:-- + +"How mamma could be 'not at home,' when she was in her chamber?" + +"How she could be extremely glad to see people who, she said, were +'bores, and not to be endured?'" + +"Why it was more impolite to tell people what was foolish in their +appearance, than to laugh about this appearance in their absence?" + +It was difficult to answer these questions, without casting a shade +over those whom Dora wished the child to love and respect. Sometimes +she told the little girl that it would often hurt people's feelings and +make them very miserable, to know just what others thought of them. And +yet the child would reply: "You say that if we would listen to God's +little voice in our hearts, it would tell us all that is wrong. Why +does he want to hurt folks' feelings? You had me read in the Bible +about the truth, how, if we come to love it, it would make us free; but +mamma says it is often impolite to speak the truth." + +Dora felt, as many under similar circumstances have felt, the earnest +question pressing upon her heart: "Who is sufficient for these things?" +and with greater trembling was it asked, as Emma grew in stature and +increased in knowledge; for she saw that with the good seeds thorns had +sprung up. Emma began to pride herself upon independent thought and +action, and to show symptoms of haughty disdain toward those who +stooped to the deceit of fashionable etiquette. Dora was often pained +to hear her speak of things done and said, not for truth's sake, but +because it _plagued_ others. It was evident that she was beginning to +exult in the embarrassment which she often occasioned, but saw not the +wicked self hiding beneath her garb of truth. Dora tried hard to point +out this inward foe, but, with the blindness of a natural heart, Emma, +having eyes, saw not; and the good woman knew well, that the child +could not see, unless He that openeth the eyes of the blind should say +unto her, "Receive thy sight." She told her of that charity which +hopeth, believeth, and endureth all things; which, giving no place to +falsehood, still never behaveth itself unseemly. She warned Emma of the +heart's Ishmaelite--that truth which, incased in the armor of human +pride, ever turns its hand against its fellow: but Emma did not fear +this "strong man armed;" so she was led captive by him at his will. + +Thus she was growing up like a beautiful flower thickly set with +thorns. There were, however, some among her mother's fashionable +friends who professed themselves charmed with her wit and originality. + +Martha had passed the age at which her young sisters began to decline, +and gave evidence of established health. She was now allowed to attend +evening parties, and was found very tolerably, though not what the +world calls "highly accomplished." There were those, however, who +thought that Martha's solid education, good judgment, good sense, and +good taste, were accomplishments enough. Mrs. Lindsay could not help +feeling very well satisfied with her discreet, amiable daughter, though +she was not eligible to a place in the ball-room, having never learned +to dance. + +But it was not until people began to call Emma a comical little beauty, +and beg her mother to fetch her to their select evening parties, that +Mrs. Lindsay ceased to feel chagrined at the sacrifice made to +affection. Emma was not long in learning by what pretty names she was +called; and with this knowledge came the strong desire to sustain a +reputation for wit and beauty. Dora saw the canker-worm at the root of +that precious plant for whose perfection she had waited with long +patience. + +Emma sometimes came home and repeated her triumphs and comicalities to +this faithful friend, but receiving no answering smile, but, on the +contrary, a solemn word of reproof or warning, she would often burst +into a flood of peevish tears, saying that Dora was getting cross, and +did not love her as formerly. In this the good woman saw signs less +fearful than those of moral disease, but no less true; saw that this +exposure and excitement were rapidly wearing away the frail foundations +of health; and all that she feared was frankly expressed to the mother: +but Mrs. Lindsay having once more allowed the film of vanity to blind +the maternal eye, saw not the danger. The question, however, came to a +speedy issue; for, attending a party one evening where the rooms were +newly papered, and where, notwithstanding she felt chilly, her mother +would not allow of her being wrapped in a shawl, Emma took a violent +cold, which was immediately followed by a cough, and many other +symptoms of rapid decline. Greatly alarmed, Mrs. Lindsay consulted her +former physicians, and was again flattered with the hope that change of +air, change of scene, and other changes, would speedily produce a +change of health. + +Emma knew the history of her family, and understood well why she was +hurried from land to sea, and from thence to other places remote from +her home. Dora was not allowed to accompany her, because the physician +said that her "long face" would be an incalculable injury; but that +face, always beaming with the soul's deep interest and affection, was +ever present to the sick girl. Through many a night-watch of suffering +and feverish anxiety, those loving, earnest eyes seemed looking into +her own; and Emma would say to her sister Martha, "Dear Dora! how I +long to see her! she loves me, and prays for me; it seems to me that +with Dora near I should not be afraid to die." + +Thus Emma talked; and the sensible, affectionate Martha saw that change +of air and change of scene could not benefit her young sister, while +her mind was so fevered and tossed; she therefore entreated her mother +to return home, and after a time succeeded in making her understand +this to be the best course. + +"O my dear Dora," said the poor weary child, as she found herself once +more in her own room at home, with the good woman at her side, "I am so +glad--_so_ glad to see you. And now I want you to stay with me, and +talk as you used to when I was a little child. O, it makes me miserable +to think how my heart wandered away from you, and from the Saviour, +Dora; for I used to feel when a little girl that he loved me." + +"And he loves you still, dearest," replied the old lady, her heart +swelling with gratitude to God. "He loves you, Emma, and will receive +you freely, dear, without one word of reproach, if you will only come +back." + +"I think so," said Emma, while the tears ran freely down her pale +cheeks. "I did not spend those long dreadful nights, Dora, without +thinking of him; and though ashamed of myself, I ventured to ask him, +over and over again, to pity my wretchedness, and love me still. One +night--it was not long ago--he seemed to come to me, and say the very +same things which you have just said,--that he would not cast me off; +that he loved me, even then." + +What a moment of joy to the faithful Christian, who had sowed in hope, +but whose faith had been so severely tried. + +The tranquillity of mind which followed Emma's return home, operated +favorably upon her health, and in a few weeks she was able to mingle +with the family as formerly. Her mother did not propose her going +abroad for company; but Emma seemed to take pleasure in being one of +their small parties at home. Very different, however, was this pleasure +from that which she had formerly sought and experienced. + +"What a change in Emma Lindsay!" was an exclamation frequent among her +mother's friends. "Her pertness, repartee, and saucy witticisms are all +gone. What have they been doing for her? This winning softness and +grace of manner seems foreign to her nature." + +"I never thought," said another, "that I should come to love Emma +Lindsay; but I do, and cannot help it--she is so lovely, so polite, and +yet so _sincere_." A mystery, indeed, to the worldly wise, how +politeness and sincerity could be made to embrace each other. + +The solemn subjects of death and eternity were matters of frequent and +free conversation between Emma and her pious friend; and now, though +there seemed some respite from the speedy execution of the sentence, +"Thou shalt die, and not live," neither thought of the matter in any +other light than that of a _little_ time given for work important to be +done. Happy for Emma that she took this view of the subject, since it +saved her from that remissness too common among the followers of +Christ. + +"The Lord seems to have need of me," Emma would say to the good Dora; +while she would answer, "Yes, dear, but be ready for him at his coming; +be sure that you are able to say, 'I have _finished_ the work thou +gavest me to do.'" + +Notwithstanding these favorable indications, as it regarded the health +of her daughter, Mrs. Lindsay was sometimes roused from her security by +symptoms less favorable, and at last resolved to follow the advice of +Emma's physician, and take up a permanent residence in the country. + +Hence their removal to Appledale. + + + + +CHAPTER IV. + +THE LITTLE TIME--HOW IMPROVED--FITNESS FOR REFINED SOCIETY--MORNING +REFLECTIONS--RUTH AND BOAZ--CHARITY AND COURTESY--THE VISIT. + + +The little time allotted Emma seemed important, not only as it regarded +her duty to others, but also in respect to herself. She desired a +complete fitness for the refined society which she was about to enter. +She wished, above all things, to become meet for an inheritance with +the saints in light; and for this fitness she strove, using with +diligence every means relative to this end which God had placed within +her reach; and, as a valuable means, she availed herself of the +spiritual perception and Christian fidelity of good Dora, who was +always ready to aid her. + +"Tell me," she would say, "all that you see or _fear_ that is wrong in +me; help me to examine my motives, emotions, and affections:" and Dora +covenanted with Emma to this effect,--a sacred covenant, and one that +should be oftener made among those who would be made perfect. + +It was in accordance with this covenant that Emma had spoken fully of +her feelings and impressions respecting Fanny Brighton; and we have +seen how faithfully this good woman kept her part of this covenant, by +pointing out to Emma the judgment of charity and the judgment of self. + +Emma still sat by the open window, upon that fine morning, thinking and +feeling, as she long had done, of the heart's great depth of +deceitfulness, which no man could know, and no human power could reach, +when she saw Mr. Graffam coming along the road. + +Poor Graffam, though in his sober senses, had been longer crossing the +plain that morning than usual. Far down in the depths of his beclouded +soul there was a love of the beautiful, and that love on this morning +had been stirred within him. His eyes had been open to see the +glittering dewdrops upon the tall wild flowers and green herbage of the +plain, to see the giant trees stretch their green arms toward the sky; +and his ears had been open to hear a sweet concert upon their topmost +branches. Poor buried soul!--how it struggled for a resurrection; now +leaping with joy at the thought of its own affinity for the pure and +beautiful, and now sinking, sinking, sinking with the one blighting +thought of human scorn richly merited. + +Night after night had poor Graffam reeled from side to side of that +grass-tufted road, while the plain seemed to him an interminable lake +of fire, amid whose scalding waves there rolled and tossed poor +wretches like himself; and morning after morning he had returned by the +same road, feeling as though a frost-breath had passed over the lake of +fire, leaving it rough and leaden like a lava-deluged plain. But now, +whence came the wonderful beauty of the widespread landscape? He knew +in part, and brushed his old jacket sleeve across his swollen eyes. He +feared that the vision was fated to pass away, "For my character is +gone," said he; "nobody respects me; they call me 'old Pete,' and I am +doomed." But a new feeling now came over him. He was nearing +Snag-Orchard. The old chimneys were seen among the tree-tops, and +strange to himself, (for years had passed since he had cared for his +personal appearance,) he found his right hand tucking up its brother's +dirty wristband, and adroitly turning the torn part of his old hat-rim +to the side opposite Appledale. + +"Good-morning, good-morning, Mr. Graffam," was the cheerful greeting +coming to him from a chamber window. + +But lo! he has forgotten the torn rim, and now it is flapping most +gracefully, as the hat descends from the head, and is waved toward the +window. + +"Stop, if you please," said Emma; and she ran down the stairway, and +along the garden-walk, toward the gate. + +"Why, who is Emma flying to see?" asked Martha, as she saw her sister's +white dress flitting past the window. + +One of the visitors looked toward the road, and, unable to speak for +laughter, pointed out poor Graffam, who, standing with his crazy hat in +his hand, and his long shaggy hair falling in tangled masses over his +neck and forehead, was now examining his great red hand, to see if it +was clean enough to shake the delicate little hand cordially offered +him. + +"How is your babe this morning?" asked Emma. + +"Better, thank you," replied Graffam; and growing warm-hearted in her +sunlight, he told her how the little thing had smiled, and crowed at +him; or _began_ to tell, and then stopped short, fearing that he should +forfeit her respect. + +"It is a dear child," said Emma; "and perhaps, Mr. Graffam, it may +please God to restore him to health, and he may grow up to bless the +world." + +Graffam started. The idea that a child of his should grow up to bless +the world seemed too marvelous; "and yet," thought he, "I was not made +for a curse." + +"I hope that he may live," said the poor man sincerely; and wondered +how that hope came, for formerly the child's life had been a matter of +utter indifference to him. + +"If it please God," added Emma. + +"It has pleased God," said Graffam, "to lay three of my children +beneath the sod, and perhaps it were better if they were all there, for +we are----" + +"Are what, sir?" + +"Poor and despised, miss." + +"God does not despise the poor," said Emma. "When his Son came to live +among men, the poor of this world were his chosen friends and +companions." + +"Perhaps so," the poor man said, and turned his head mournfully away: +"if poverty were all----" + +"He does not despise the _sinner_ either," said Emma, softly; "so far +from that, he delivered his only Son unto death for their sake." + +Graffam lifted his eyes from the ground, and looked seriously into her +face. + +"There was a time, miss," said he, "when that was a precious thought to +me. Then to know that God was my friend, was enough, and I was happy; +but that time is passed. I parted with his friendship to gain that of +the world, and now I have lost, hopelessly lost all--all!" + +This was said in a tone of deep despair: so deep and sad, that it +called tears of pity to Emma's eyes, as she earnestly replied,-- + +"O do not say that _his_ friendship is hopelessly lost, Mr. Graffam; +for you know, sir, that he does not hate what the world hates. He hates +nothing but sin, and even from that his great mercy separates the +sinner, and makes him an object of love. Jesus, Mr. Graffam, is the +_sinner's friend_." + +"Yes, miss," replied the poor man; though Emma saw that the faith of +this great truth did not enter his heart. There was no room as yet for +so pure a faith. The soul's great idol, whatever it be,--the "man of +sin" sitting in the place of God,--must be dethroned before the Holy +will enter in. Yet Emma's words stirred still more those powers of the +soul which Graffam had felt that morning struggling franticly with +their chains. There was a strange mixture of hope and despair in the +expression of his countenance, as he turned away, bidding her a sad +"good-morning." + +"O," thought Emma, as she looked after him, "is there none to help? +Poor Mr. Graffam might become a good and useful man: his family might +live out among people, and be happy. I pity them from my very heart;" +and thinking over the matter, Emma walked out into the road, wandering +down the hill, across the bridge, beneath which the bright waters +glided very soberly that morning. Here she paused awhile, looking over +the wooden railing at the reflection of her own thin figure and pale +face. "O Emma," she said, "what thou doest, do quickly; for there is +neither work, knowledge, nor device in the grave, to which thou art +hastening." + +Slowly, and somewhat wearily, she ascended the opposite bank, and then +away in his field, working busily, she saw friend Sliver. She knew him +by the broad-brimmed hat, which now and then bobbed up above the wall +as the old man picked up the stones, and then resumed his hoe. + +Intent upon his work, he hoed long with his eyes upon the ground: but +at last he paused, and holding the hoe in one hand, drew a checkered +handkerchief from his pocket, and wiped the perspiration from his face; +in doing this, he glanced toward the road, and saw Emma leaning over +the wall, apparently inspecting his work. + +"Good-morning, Mr. Sliver," said Emma. + +[Illustration: EMMA AND THE QUAKER.] + +"Ah, how does thee do?" replied the good man, with evident pleasure. "I +was not looking for thee in the potato field." + +"I suppose not," replied Emma, smiling. "I am like Ruth, the Moabitess, +who went to glean in the fields of Boaz: only she wanted grain, and I +want counsel." + +Friend Sliver laid down his hoe, and coming up to the wall, asked, +"What is it, child?" + +"You know Mr. Graffam, sir?" + +"Thee means Peter, who lives upon the plains?" + +"Yes, sir." + +"O yes, I have known him some years; given to drink, Emma." + +"I know it," replied Emma; "but need he be lost, sir? He has a wife and +four pretty children; can't he be saved?" + +"I see but one way," replied the old gentleman; "and that is to get him +employment away from the mills. Motley keeps spirit for his hands. I +have tried to help Peter by employing him myself, but he is very sullen +when not in drink." + +"I will tell you the reason of that," said Emma; "the poor man has +naturally great self-esteem, and people irritate and crush him by +showing him no respect." + +"People can't show what they have not," replied friend Sliver, with a +slight twinkle in his bright gray eye. "Can thee respect a drunkard, +Emma?" + +"I can respect a _soul_, sir," replied Emma, warmly,--"a soul made in +the image of God, though it were sunk in the very depths of pollution +and wretchedness; and so can the 'Great and Holy One,' Mr. Sliver, or +he never would have sent his Son to redeem the world." + +The sly twinkle vanished from the good Quaker's eye, and he looked +seriously, earnestly, into the face of that dear girl. "Emma," said he, +"what would thee do for Peter and his family? Can I aid thee in any +way?" + +"You have done so already," said she, "by speaking of the temptations +to which he is exposed. I think that I can persuade mother to employ +him; and Mr. Sliver, as you are acquainted with the people here, you +may do Mr. Graffam a good service, by persuading your neighbors to feel +and to manifest some interest in himself and his family; ask them not +to allow their children to call him 'Old Pete,' 'Old toper,' &c., and +twit him of riding a high horse." + +"I will," replied friend Sliver, "and I will do anything else in my +power to help thee." + +"Thank you," said Emma, smiling, and sliding from the fence; "I am +greatly obliged to you; good-by, Mr. Sliver." + +"Farewell!" replied the old man, as he once more watched her descending +the hill, and thought of what Sarah had said about her "ripening for +glory." + +It was on the afternoon of that day that Dora and Emma set out for a +visit to the plains. "I think," said the former, "that we had better +ride around by 'Snow-Hill,' and inquire at Mr. Cotting's respecting +this family." Mr. Cotting was the minister, and his wife was considered +a very active woman, and such in truth she was. Sewing circles, +Sunday-school exhibitions, donation parties, &c., had been quite +unknown to that community until Mrs. Cotting came. It was said, too, +that she had visited all the poor families around, and fitted out their +children for Sabbath school. + +"If," said Dora, "we succeed in getting this poor family of the plains +to mingle with their fellows, Mrs. Cotting's help will be needed; she +is directress of the sewing circle, and from that can obtain clothing +for the children." + +"Dear Dora," replied Emma, "don't propose any such thing, either to Mr. +Graffam or his wife, now. It won't do--not yet. We will call and see +Mrs. Cotting, if you please. She may know this family, and may be able +to tell us how to manage. Here is the road which goes around by +Snow-Hill: but stop a moment; there is Willie Graffam and his little +sister, just coming from the plain. + +"How do you do, Willie?" continued Emma, as the children, each carrying +a basket of berries, drew nearer. + +"Very well, thank you," said Willie, taking off his hat; and the little +girl courtesied, without lifting her eyes from the ground. + +"We are going over to see your mother," said Emma. + +"Mother will be very glad to see _you_," replied the little boy; at the +same time looking inquiringly at the horse's head which was turned +toward Snow-Hill. + +Dora smiled at the emphasis bestowed upon _you_, and asked Willie "if +his mother would not be glad to see her." + +"I guess so," was the reply; "but----" + +"But what, Willie?" asked Emma. + +The little fellow hung his head, and answered in a lower tone, "Mother +don't want to see the minister's wife, for she has been at our house +once." + +"I am afraid," said Dora, as they passed on, "that this family is one +whom it will be difficult to benefit." + +"You will excuse me for keeping you in waiting so long," said Mrs. +Cotting, as she entered the room where Dora and Emma had been seated +for nearly an hour; "I understood the maid that it was Mrs. Lindsay +herself, and I was in _dishabille_. My duties are so numerous and so +pressing," continued Mrs. Cotting. "One might think that the cares of a +family were sufficient for a wife and mother; but added to this, to +have a whole parish upon one's hands." Here she paused and sighed. + +"Your situation," replied Dora, "is indeed one of earnest duty and +responsibility; but the abundant grace provided for our utmost need is +found, I trust, sufficient for you." + +Mrs. Cotting bowed, and Dora continued: "We will not take your time, +madam, which must be fully occupied. We called to inquire respecting a +family called Graffam, living upon the plain." + +"I know them," said Mrs. Cotting, "as indeed I do every other poor +family in town. These Graffams are very strange people. I called there +with Mrs. Jefferson Motley, the wealthiest lady at the mills. Graffam +had a child at that time lying at the point of death. He was at home, +and, what is a rare thing, was sober; but neither he nor his wife +seemed at all grateful for this attention from myself and Mrs. Motley. +We were at that time hunting up children for the Sabbath school; and in +our charitable work were not unwilling to visit the most degraded. We +told Graffam and his wife so; and told them, moreover, that we were +desirous to rescue their children from ignorance and infamy. I had a +bundle of clothes for the children, which I offered to Mrs. Graffam, on +condition that she would keep them clean; never allowing them to be +worn in their own dirty hut, but saved expressly for the Sabbath +school. Then I talked to her faithfully of her own evil ways, (for I +had heard that she picked berries upon the Sabbath;) and what do you +suppose the poor wretch did? Why she turned from the dying bed of her +child, and looked Mrs. Motley and myself in the face, as though we were +common acquaintances. 'Madam,' said she, 'your religion is not to my +taste. I prefer our present ignorance, and even infamy, to what you +have offered this morning. As for picking berries upon the Sabbath, I +must refer that to Him of whom, I must confess, I know too little; but +my parents taught me that God is just, and I believe that he will +justly judge between the rich who pay their laborers in that which is +neither money nor bread, and the mother who, for lack of bread, must +break the Sabbath.' Think what an impudent thrust at Mrs. Motley!--her +husband allows Graffam to take up the most of his wages in rum, I +suppose. It was evident that this Mrs. Graffam was no subject for +charity--she was too ungrateful and too insolent; so we came away, +bringing the things with us. The child died, and they would not have +Mr. Cotting to attend the funeral. Graffam went for old Mr. Sliver, who +sat in silence with the family for about half an hour, and then was +'moved upon' to pray. The sexton said that Graffam and his wife sobbed +aloud; but I have never ventured there again." + +Dora and Emma now rose to depart, and in going away met Mr. Cotting at +the door. Emma felt herself indebted to her minister, and, with the +cordiality of true Christian friendship, returned his greeting. + +"We are going to visit the family upon the plain," said she, as Mr. +Cotting unfastened their horse, and was about to turn him the other +way. + +"Are you?" inquired he, "that is what I have not done myself, as yet; +Mrs. Cotting received so ungracious a reception, that it rather +discouraged me; if you are upon a visit of charity I hope that you will +be better received." + +"_Charity_ ought to be kindly received everywhere," replied Emma, +"since she is long-suffering and kind herself, not easily provoked, and +certainly not provoking, because she never behaves herself unseemly." + +"No," replied the minister, thoughtfully; "it is strange that true +charity should be distasteful to any one." Then offering his hand, as +he bade them good-by, he said to Emma, "I hope, my dear, that this +charity abounds in you." + +"O no," she replied, "it does not _abound_--although, I trust, it has a +home in my poor heart." + +Emma found the door of poor Graffam's hut open, and the mother sitting +beside the cradle where lay the sick babe asleep. + +"Walk in," said Mrs. Graffam, smiling as she advanced toward the door. + +Dora was surprised at the ease of her manner, and the pleasant +expression of her countenance, as she handed them chairs, and seemed +really glad to see them. + +"The babe is better," said she, as Emma advanced toward the cradle; and +at that moment the little one awoke. + +The good motherly Dora took the "wee bit" into her arms, and talked +with Mrs. Graffam about the best course to be pursued with a feeble +child like that, while Emma unpacked the stores which they brought, +among which were many things not intended for baby, but which she +delicately classed with the rest, calling the whole "medicine." + +Mrs. Graffam was at first somewhat reserved; but as Dora talked to her +as a friend and sister, the frost of her spirit melted away, and she +spoke of her mother now dead, of brothers and sisters, some dead and +some far away: and as she grew thus communicative, and the tears of +fond recollection trembled in her eyes, Dora talked of Him, the dear +unfailing friend, who sticketh closer than a brother; who, in all the +afflictions of his people, is afflicted, and the angel of whose +presence is with them to comfort and to bless. + +Then poor Mrs. Graffam wept much, saying that she needed just such a +friend. And when they went away, she wrapped the babe in a shawl, and, +taking it in her arms, went with them to the road where they had left +their horse. + +"You will come and see me again, won't you?" she asked. + +And Emma replied, "Yes, Mrs. Graffam; _I_ will come as long as I am +able, and when I am not, you must come and see me." + +"I will," was the warm reply; "I would walk miles to see you, if you +were sick." + + + + +CHAPTER V. + +THE OLD PEDDLER--BITTER WORDS--THE MEEK REPLY--THE EFFECT--ACTING A +PART--SOFTER FEELINGS--THE DEATH-SCENE--THE DAY OF SMALL +THINGS--SIMPLE CHRISTIAN COURTESY. + + +"I know," said Fanny Brighton, "that there is not a word of truth in +what you say. Peddlers are always liars. This ring is nothing but +brass, and would turn black with a week's wearing." + +"I bought it for gold," meekly replied the old man, as he placed his +heavy box upon the ground, and wiped the large drops of sweat from his +wrinkled face. + +"What else have you?" inquired Alice, as she turned over a box of +thimbles, and pulled out a large handkerchief. "What a splendid thing!" +said Alice; but at the same time she winked at Fanny, and laughed. + +[Illustration: THE GIRLS AND THE PEDDLER.] + +"Half cotton," said Fanny; "and now pray tell me when you take time to +split your skeins of silk." + +"I never do such a thing!" said the old man, with some spirit. + +"Perhaps not," was the reply; "I suppose your profits are enough to +hire it done; but here is a shawl,--what is the price of it?" + +"Five dollars, miss; and a good bargain at that." "Five dollars! O +what a cheat!" and Fanny laid the shawl, all unfolded, upon the grass, +where scissors, needles, buttons, tape, pins, &c., lay strewed in wild +confusion. Once more the poor man wiped his forehead, and kept his +patience. It is bad policy for the poor to lose their patience. + +"There comes Mary Palmer, and the missionary of Appledale," said Fanny. +"Mr. Cotting will have to give up his office, or take Miss Lindsay as +colleague." + +Fanny knew that Emma was near enough to hear these remarks, but she did +not know for what intent the feeble girl had taxed her strength in +walking so far to see her. + +The old peddler was now sadly putting his things back into his box; and +Fanny, looking at him a moment, felt the injustice of causing him so +much trouble for nothing: so she said to him, "Wait a moment--I will +take some of your knickknacks, though they are not worth buying;" and +she put into his hand a bill to pay for some articles which she hastily +selected. + +The old man thanked her, and his hand trembled as he gave her the +change. Then he took up his heavy box, and Emma handed him the straps +which fastened it upon his shoulders. + +"Is it very heavy?" she asked. + +"Yes," was the reply, "it is; but I am used to heavy burdens." + +"Well, the burden and heat of your life's day is almost over," said +Emma, as, assisted by Mary, she drew the strap firmly into the buckle. +"Then, sir, if you are a Christian, you will _rest_." + +"I know it," said the old man; "I know it, child:" and he looked at +Emma, as though she had given him something better than silver or gold. + +"Call at the large house, among the apple-trees," said Emma, "and tell +the lady that her daughter sent you." + +All this time Fanny stood as if counting her money, while the old +peddler went along. + +"He has cheated himself in making change," said she; "I owe him a +quarter more." + +"Never mind," said Alice; "you paid enough for the things, and that is +clear gain." + +Fanny paid no attention to Alice, but ran after the old man, and gave +him all his due. + +Emma saw this; and the charity in her heart which "rejoiceth not in +iniquity, but in the truth," exulted as one that findeth great spoil. +She forgot the bitter remark which Fanny had made respecting herself; +forgot all, except the one joyful thing that Fanny was not wholly +selfish. + +"We walked over to see you for a little while," said Mary, as Fanny +came back; and Emma was far from feeling it a rudeness, though Fanny +did not say, "I am glad to see you." She, however, invited them into +the house where her grandfather and grandmother lived--for Fanny was an +orphan. + +Emma was very tired, and Fanny brought a pillow, which she placed upon +the old-fashioned lounge, and asked her if she would like to lie down. +She saw that Emma was pale, and this little act of kindness was +prompted by a momentary feeling of pity: yet Fanny was ashamed of this +kindness, and afraid that Mary and Alice would think her anxious to +show Miss Lindsay particular attention; so putting on her old +"care-for-nobody airs," she said, "Don't _you_ undertake to faint, Mary +Palmer. We country girls are neither genteel nor sentimental enough for +that." + +"And not feeble enough, I hope," replied Emma. "You have much to be +thankful for, and so have I; for if it please God to deprive us of +health, he will not leave us comfortless--not if we trust in him." + +Fanny was not naturally a hardhearted girl. Her aged grandparents had +done much toward making her what she was. Left to them when she was but +two years of age, Fanny found herself left also to the full sway of +every selfish passion and desire. The old people believed from their +hearts that such another child never lived--so bright, so witty, so +smart, and fearless. They talked and laughed over her sayings in her +presence, and, in the blindness of their fond affection, saw not that +the child was impudent, even to themselves; yet there was a fountain of +purer water in that young heart, though self-love was rapidly drying it +up. Emma, however, had that day discovered a bright drop from that +better fountain, and she believed that the wasted streams of affection +might be unsealed, even in Fanny's heart; and the rude girl herself +wondered at the feelings which came over her, as Emma replied so meekly +to her unkind remark. "I did not know that you were out of health," +said Fanny; and both Mary and Alice were surprised at the tone of her +voice and the expression of her countenance. She arose too, propped the +pillow under Emma's head, and begged to know if she could do anything +for her. + +"Nothing," said Emma; "only love me: if you can do that, Fanny, I shall +feel better." + +Fanny tried to laugh, though she felt more like crying. "I am not much +like other people," said she; "and those who want to have anything to +do with me, must take me as I am." + +"O yes," replied Emma; "if the Saviour does not refuse to take us just +as we are, I am sure we ought to receive others in the same way, and +love them too, even as he has loved us." + +Very pleasantly did that summer afternoon pass away. Emma, after she +had rested awhile, thought of going home; but Fanny entreated her to +stay. She wanted to show her the bee-house, her grandfather's new +beehive, the flower-garden, and many other things. Mary dearly loved to +be near Emma; but this good little girl possessed the very best kind of +courtesy, because it was the fruit of a pure loving heart--that kind of +heart always forgetting its own wishes, in gratifying the wishes of +another. Mary was always happy, but it was a sweet reflex happiness. +She loved Emma, and dearly loved to hear her talk; but she did not +claim the right of keeping close to her side. She sometimes lingered +far behind, as Fanny and Emma walked arm-in-arm; but there was neither +envy nor jealousy in this. She knew that Fanny was ashamed of being +kind and affectionate, and she thought it best that they should be left +to themselves; so she kept with Alice, and tried to do her good. + +That night, as the sun went down, Fanny might have been seen standing +at the door, where she had bid Mary and Emma good-night. Alice was +preparing to go, but Fanny seemed quite forgetful of her. She was still +looking far down the road, where Mary and Emma, with an arm around each +other's waist, were walking slowly along. Alice prided herself on being +more genteel in her manners than was Fanny Brighton; but she had not +Mary Palmer's self-forgetting courtesy. All the afternoon she had felt +vexed, because she imagined that but little notice had been taken of +herself; and now, as Fanny stood so absent-minded, picking a rose to +pieces, as her eyes wandered far away, Alice hurriedly put on her +bonnet, and said, in a tone of pique, "Good-night, Miss Brighton; I +suppose you would like now to cut acquaintance with me." + +"Nonsense," said Fanny. "Wait a moment, I am going a little way with +you;" and as they walked along, Fanny tried to be herself again. + +"There comes Graffam," said she: "now I hope that he is drunk; if so, +we will make him tell about the times when he was major." + +But in this Fanny was disappointed. Soberly, but sadly, the poor man of +the plain came along, and shrunk from the gaze of those merry girls. + +"O," said Fanny, "Uncle Pete is not tipsy; so we shall not hear from +the major to-night." + +Poor Graffam passed them quickly, for he heard this remark; and a +deeper shade of gloom came over him. "What is the use of this dreadful +struggle?" thought he. "What suffering this self-denial has cost me! +and yet what is gained? Nothing, but to know that I am ridiculed and +despised." + +"It is the first time," said Fanny to herself, as she parted with Alice +that night--"the first time that I have ever acted a part: but I would +not have her suspect my feelings; and why do I feel so?" + +Thus thought Fanny, as she sat down upon a rock by the roadside, and +could not keep back the tears which came from a heart never so sad +before. And why so sad? Fanny had been, for a few hours, in close +converse with one who every day was becoming more and more meet for an +inheritance with the saints in light. She had ridiculed and set at +defiance the most common rules of politeness; but what was she to do +with the self-forgetting, affectionate courtesy which she had seen, not +forced nor constrained, but beaming forth so sweetly, so naturally, +from those young disciples of Christ? Fanny felt that, however +deceitful the world's polite intercourse might be, _this_ was +holy:--and how can sin approach purity without fear and trembling? She +felt this mysterious fear. The reckless girl, whose highest boast had +always been that she feared nothing, now trembled, as in imagination +she changed places with Emma, and stood where she saw her +standing,--upon the brink of the tomb. + +It was on this evening that Emma was summoned to her mother's room. She +found her mother sitting alone with Martha. There was no light there +save moonlight, and Emma was glad, for she knew that her own +countenance was deathly; and she had known that for weeks her mother +had watched her narrowly. + +"Emma, my dear," said Mrs. Lindsay, "you understand the reason of my +coming to this place--that it was solely on your account." + +"Yes, mamma," said Emma. + +"I have invited some of the gayest of our young friends," continued +Mrs. Lindsay, "to keep us company; and all this because I wanted you to +make the most of being in the country. I have them here, my love, to +talk, to ride, to run, and walk with you. This was the advice of your +physician. He said that you would soon become healthy and happy, +provided his directions were faithfully followed: but they are not; and +how can we expect these favorable results? You neither ride nor walk +with suitable company; not that I care much about your present +associations. If they are conducive to health, that is sufficient: but +I have reason to think, dear, that you spend a great part of your time +alone--that you go into the woods, not with your gay young friends (as +the doctor requires) to run and have a good frolic, but to sit down and +read. Is it not so?" + +"Yes, mamma," said Emma, "it is so. I cannot run now, and I get very +tired in walking only a short distance; but it _rests_ me, dear mother, +to read the Bible." + +"But how can I have you go away alone to read your Bible, and think +sadly of--being so weak?" asked her mother. + +"Not sadly," replied Emma; "I do not think sadly, mother, for all the +sadness is gone; and if I have not become healthy, I certainly have +become happy, very happy, since we came to Appledale. It is true that I +see a great deal to be done now, and wish sometimes that those who have +the prospect of years before them would undertake this work." + +"I am glad that you mentioned this," said Mrs. Lindsay; "you have +imbibed some of Dora's strange notions, my dear, about living for +others. You may be assured, Emma, that I have not sacrificed so much +for any object save that of your health. I did not leave the society of +the refined and intelligent for the sake of benefiting the rude and +ignorant; and I would have you remember what _was_ my object. You have +nothing to do with this community only with a view to your health. If +such society amuses you, mingle with it freely, but waste no thoughts +upon the people here. They have always taken care of themselves, and +can do this still without any help from little Emma Lindsay." + +This the mother said playfully, as she kissed her cheek, and added: "I +did not give you a fashionable education, my dear; but it was not +because I intended you for a missionary." + +"My heavenly Father may have intended this," replied Emma; "and you +would not oppose Him, mother, for he has purchased me with a great +price. We may be unwilling to make the smallest sacrifice for our +fellow-creatures, yet God gave his only Son a sacrifice for us." + +"How that child talks," said Mrs. Lindsay, bursting into tears as Emma +left the room. + +"And yet," replied Martha, "if we cannot save her, mother, you would +rather that she should be as she is." + +The mother made no reply, for she knew not what to say. + +Emma's first summer and winter at Appledale had passed away. It was a +beautiful morning in May; Martha Lindsay was sitting beside a low couch +where her young sister was sleeping so sweetly, so gently, that she had +more than once placed her cheek close to those parted lips fearing that +the breath was gone. Dora was in her little room adjoining Emma's, and +with hands uplifted in prayer, was asking this one thing of the Lord, +that as in life so in death, Emma might glorify him. Mrs. Lindsay was +pacing the floor in her own chamber, now weeping as if her heart would +break, and now striving in this hour of deep distress, to do as Emma +had long entreated her to do, namely, to come weary and heavy laden to +Him who in no wise will cast us out. Mr. Graffam was at work in the +garden; but his eye, now clear and intelligent, often rested on the +chamber windows where the curtains were folded so close and solemnly. + +Susan Sliver had watched with Emma many a night, and now she had +retired for a few moments while Emma slept. Susan no longer sighed for +Olivet and Kedron, for in a Christian's earnest daily work she had +found places equally sacred. + +"I have come to hear thy dying testimony, Emma," said friend Sliver, as +drawing his broad-brimmed hat more closely over his eyes, the old man +took his seat beside the bed. + +Emma smiled feebly. "Are any more of my friends here?" she asked. + +"Fanny Brighton is in the keeping-room," said Martha. + +"Call her," whispered Emma; and in a few moments Fanny was kneeling +beside the bed sobbing violently, while Emma pressed her hand, but +could not speak. But there was a bright triumphant smile upon her face +as Mary Palmer came in; and Mary smiled too through her tears. She had +spent many a day with Emma since that first summer at Appledale; and +now, though a little girl, and a young Christian, she felt somewhat as +did Elisha when he awaited the horsemen and chariot which were coming +for Elijah. + +Emma looked around the room and stretched her hand toward her mother, +who had just entered with Dora. Mrs. Lindsay took that cold hand into +her own, and then Emma repeated I Cor. xiii, 13, "And now abideth +faith, hope, charity, these three; but the greatest of these is +charity." + +Emma's breath grew shorter, but she was able to add a verse which she +had often read in Dora's hymn book:-- + +"This is the grace must live and sing + When faith and hope shall cease, +And sound from every joyful string + Through all the realms of bliss." + +These were the last audible words uttered by Emma. When another morning +came it found her cold and silent, dressed for the grave. The spring +blossoms breathed their sweet fragrance into her open window, but Emma +was gone--gone to the land of unfading bloom; yet her life, short and +beautiful as the spring, had left in passing a more enduring fragrance +than that of early blossom and flower. + +Little by little does the husbandman cast the precious seed into the +earth, and drop by drop comes the genial shower upon the green herb, +yet who does not despise the day of small things? Young, feeble +Christian, the world will never do thee justice, for in the great war +of mighty deeds thy meek, noiseless charity is unheard and forgotten; +but fear not, God keeps his own jewels. Do what thou canst, and thus +provide for thyself "a treasure in the heavens that faileth not." + +There are some things spoken of in the town where Emma died, things not +wholly forgotten, but far back in the distance of years. It is said +that Mr. Graffam, who is now a Church-member and a town officer, was +once a complete sot, living in a log-hut upon the plain. So much for +the temperance reform. It is said, too, that the pious, charitable old +lady, Mrs. Lindsay, and her good daughter Martha, now living at +Appledale, were once very thoughtless, fashionable people; that the +gentle, amiable Mrs. Boyd was, when a girl and living with her +grandparents, one of the rudest and most reckless creatures living; +that Susan and Margaret Sliver, now earnest, efficient co-operaters in +every good cause, were once vain, frivolous, and almost hopelessly +sentimental. Many such things are said; but there are but few who trace +the changes that have taken place in those characters to their proper +cause. 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