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I +have selected this likeness of him in preference to a later photograph, +as the artist has happily caught him in one of his rarely soft moods, +and also, the face being clean shaven, the characteristic chiselling of +the lips can be seen. THE AUTHOR.] + + + + + +"His Hour" is called in England and Russia "When the Hour Came." + + + + +With grateful homage and devotion I dedicate this book to + +Her Imperial Highness +The Grand Duchess Vladimir +Of Russia + +In memory of the happy evenings spent in her gracious presence when +reading to her these pages, which her sympathetic aid, in facilitating +my opportunities for studying the Russian character, enabled me to +write. Her kind appreciation of the finished work is a source of the +deepest gratification to me. + +Elinor Glyn + + +St. Petersburg, May, 1910 + + + + + + +CHAPTER I + + +The Sphinx was smiling its eternal smile. It was two o'clock in the +morning. The tourists had returned to Cairo, and only an Arab or two +lingered near the boy who held Tamara's camel, and then gradually slunk +away; thus, but for Hafis, she was alone--alone with her thoughts and +the Sphinx. + +The strange, mystical face looked straight at her from the elevation +where she sat. Its sensual mocking calm penetrated her brain. The +creature seemed to be laughing at all humanity--and saying--"There is +no beyond--live and enjoy the things of the present--Eat, drink, and be +merry, for to-morrow you die, and I--I who sit here and know, tell you +there is no beyond. The things you can touch and hold to your bodies +are the only ones worth grasping." + +"No, no!" said Tamara, half aloud, "I will not--I will not believe it." + +"Fool," said the Sphinx. "What is your soul? And if you have one, what +have you done with it hitherto? Are you any light in the world?--No, +you have lived upon the orders of others, you have let your +individuality be crushed these twenty-four years--since the day you +could speak. Just an echo it is--that fine thing, your soul! Show it +then, if you have one! Do you possess an opinion? Not a bit of it. You +simply announce platitudes that you have been taught were the right +answers to all questions! Believe me, you have no soul. So take what +you can--a body! You certainly have that, one can see it--well, snatch +what it can bring you, since you have not enough will to try for higher +things. Grasp what you may, poor weakling. That is the wisdom sitting +here for eternity has taught me." + +Tamara stirred her hands in protest--but she knew the indictment was +true. Yes, her life had been one long commonplace vista of following +leads--like a sheep. + +But was it too late to change? Had she the courage? Dared she think for +herself? If not, the mystic message of the Sphinx's smile were better +followed: "Eat, drink, and be merry, for to-morrow you die." + +The blue of the sky seemed to soothe her, and speak of hope. Could any +other country produce a sky of so deep a sapphire as the night sky of +Egypt? All around was intense sensuous warmth and stillness almost as +light as day. + +How wise she had been to break through the conventionality which +surrounded her--and it had required some nerve--so as to be able to +come here alone, on this one of her last nights in Egypt. + +She half smiled when she thought of Millicent Hardcastle's face when +she had first suggested it. + +"My dear Tamara, what--what an extraordinary thing for a woman to do! +Go to the Sphinx all alone at two o'clock in the morning. Would not +people think it very strange?" + +Tamara felt a qualm for a second, but was rebellious. + +"Well, perhaps--but do you know, Millicent, I believe I don't care. +That carven block of stone has had a curious effect upon me. It has +made me think as I have never done before. I want to take the clearest +picture away with me--I must go." + +And even Mrs. Hardcastle's mild assertion that it could equally well be +viewed and studied at a more reasonable hour did not move Tamara, and +while her friend slumbered comfortably in her bed at Mena House, she +had set off, a self-conscious feeling of a truant schoolboy exalting +and yet frightening her. + +Tamara was a widow. James Loraine had been everything that a thoroughly +respectable English husband ought to be. He had treated her with +kindness, he had given her a comfortable home--he had only asked her to +spend ten months of the year in the country, and he had never caused +her a moment's jealousy. + +She could not remember her heart having beaten an atom faster--or +slower--for his coming or going. She had loved him, and her sisters and +brother, and father, all in the same devoted way, and when pneumonia +had carried him off nearly two years before, she had grieved with the +measure the loss of any one of them would have caused her--that was +sincerely and tenderly. + +They were such a nice family, Tamara's! + +For hundreds of years they had lived on the same land, doing their duty +to their neighbors and helping to form that backbone of England of +which we hear so much nowadays, in its passing away. + +They had been members of Parliament, of solid Whig, and later of +Unionist, views. They had been staunch Generals, Chairmen of +Quarter-Sessions, riders to hounds, subscribers to charities, rigid +church-goers, disciplined, orthodox, worthy members of society. + +Underdown was their name, and Underwood their home. + +That Tamara should have been given that Russian appellation, in a group +of Gladys, Mabels and Dorothys, must have surely indicated that fate +meant her to follow a line not quite so mapped out as that of her +sisters'. The very manner of her entry into the world was not in +accordance with the Underdown plan. + +Her mother, Lady Gertrude Underdown, had contracted a friendship with +the wife of the First Secretary of the Russian Embassy. + +Foreigners were not looked upon with favor in the home circle, and +instead of staying only the two months of May and June, as she was +fully entitled to, in London, she had insisted upon remaining for July +as well that year--to be near her friend Vera and enjoy the gay world. + +The Squire had grumbled, but acquiesced, though when afterward a fourth +daughter was presented to him with a request that she might have +Princess Vera for a godmother and a Russian name to be called by, he +felt himself justified in carping at fate. + +"Foreign fandangoes," he designated such ideas. However, Lady Gertrude +was very ill, and had to be humored, so the affair took place, and +Tamara the baby was christened, with due state. + +There were no more Russian suggestions in the family; the son and heir +who arrived a year later became plain Tom, and then Lady Gertrude +Underdown made her bow to the world and retired to the family vault in +Underwood Church. + +They were all estimably brought up by an aunt, and hardly ever left the +country until each one came up in turn to be presented at Court, and go +through a fairly dull season among country neighbors on the same bent. + +Two of them, including Tamara, had secured suitable husbands, and at +the age of twenty-three years the latter had been left a well-dowered +widow. + +She had worn mourning for just the right period, had looked after her +affairs--handed James' place over with a good grace to James' brother +and an unliked sister-in-law, and finally, when she was wearing grays +and mauves, two years almost after her loss, she had allowed herself to +be persuaded into taking a trip to Egypt with her friend, Millicent +Hardcastle, who was recovering from influenza. + +It had caused the greatest flutter at Underwood, this journey abroad! +None of them had been further than Dresden, where each girl had learned +German for a year or so before her presentation. + +And what had Egypt done for Tamara? Lifted just one pretty white +eyelid, perhaps. Stirred something which only once or twice in her life +she had been dimly conscious of. Everything had been a kind of shock to +her. A shock of an agreeable description. And once driving at night in +the orange groves of Ghezireh, after some open-air fête, the heavy +scent and intoxicating atmosphere had made her blood tingle. She felt +it was almost wrong that things should so appeal to her senses. +Anything which appealed deliberately to the senses had always been +considered as more than almost wrong at Underwood Chase. + +The senses were improper things which Aunt Clara for her part never +quite understood why the Almighty should have had the bad taste to +permit in human beings. + +But the Sphinx was again talking to Tamara--only this time in the voice +of a young man--who without a word of warning had risen from a bank of +sand where he had been stretched motionless and unperceived. + +"A fine goddess, is she not, Madame," he said. And to add to the +impertinence of a stranger's addressing her at all, Tamara was further +incensed by the voice being that of a foreigner! + +But it was an extraordinarily pleasant voice, deep and tuneful, and the +"_Insolent_" stood over six feet high and was as slender as Tamara +herself almost--in spite of his shoulders and air of strength. + +She hardly knew what to answer, he had spoken with such ease and +assurance, almost with the tone of one who hails a fellow worshiper and +has a right to exchange sympathy. + +Tamara had been startled, too, by the sudden rising of the man when she +thought she was alone, but at last she answered slowly, "Yes." + +"I often come here at night," he went on, "when those devils of +tourists have gone back in their devil of a tramway. Then you get her +alone--and she says things to you. You think so, too, isn't it?" + +"Yes," again said Tamara, convulsed with wonder at herself for speaking +at all. + +"At first I was angry when I saw your camel against the sky and saw you +come and dismount and sit and look, I like to have her all to myself. +But afterwards when I watched you I saw you meant no harm--you aren't a +tourist, and so you did not matter." + +"Indeed," said Tamara, the fine in her grasping the situation, the +Underdown training resenting its unconventionality. + +"Yes," he continued, unconcerned. "You can't look at that face and feel +we any of us matter much--can you?" + +"No," said Tamara. + +"How many thousand years has she been telling people that? But it +drives me mad, angry, furious, to see the tourists! I want to strangle +them all!" + +He clenched his hand and his eyes flashed. + +Tamara peeped up at him--he was not looking at her--but at the Sphinx. +She saw that he was extremely attractive in spite of having un-English +clothes, which were not worn with ease. Gray flannel of unspeakable +cut, and boots which would have made her brother Tom shriek with +laughter. The Underdown part of her whispered, could he be quite a +gentleman? But when he turned his face full upon her in the moonlight, +that doubt vanished completely. He might even be a very great +gentleman, she thought. + +"Would you like to see a bit of the Arabian Nights?" he asked her. + +Tamara rose. This really ought not to go on, this conversation--and +yet-- + +"Yes, I would," she said. + +"Well, the spell is broken of the Sphinx," he continued. "She can't +talk to me with you there, and she can't talk to you with me near, so +let us go and see something else that is interesting together." + +"What?" asked Tamara. + +"The Sheikh's village down below. Half the people who come don't +realize it is there, and the other half would be afraid to ride through +it at night--but they know me and I will take care of you." + +Without the least further hesitation he called Hafis and the camel, +spoke to them in Arabic, and then stood ready to help Tamara up. She +seemed hypnotized, when she was settled in the high saddle. She began +to realize that she was going into the unknown with a perfect stranger, +but she did not think of turning back. + +"What do you ride?" she asked. + +"See," he said, and he made a strange low whistle, which was instantly +answered by an equally strange low whinny of a horse, and a beautiful +Arab appeared from the foot of the rocks--where all things were in +shadow--led by a little brown boy. + +"I am taking him back with me," he said, "Isn't he a beauty. I only +bought him a week ago, and he already knows me." + +Then he was in the saddle with the lightest bound, and Tamara, who had +always admired Tom on a horse, knew that she had never seen anyone who +seemed so much a part of his mount as this quaint foreigner. "I suppose +he is an Austrian," she said to herself, and then added with English +insular arrogance, "Only Austrians are like us." + +The young man appeared quite indifferent to anything she thought. He +prepared to lead the way down beyond the Sphinx, apparently into the +desert. + +Now that he was in front of her, Tamara could not help admiring the +lines of his figure. He was certainly a very decent shape, and +certainly knew how to ride. + +Then it came to her that this was a most singular adventure, and the +faint pink mounted to her clear cheeks when she remembered how +dreadfully shocked Millicent would be--or any of the family! But it was +her night of rebellion, so things must take their course. + +The young man rode in front until they were on the flat desert, then he +drew rein and waited for her. + +"You see," he said, "we skirt these rocks and then we shall ride +through the village. One can very well imagine it has been the same +always." + +They entered the little town. The streets were extremely narrow and the +dark houses gave an air of mystery--a speculation--what could be going +on behind those closed shutters? Here and there a straight blue-clad +figure slunk away round a corner. There was a deep silence and the +moonlight made the shadows sharp as a knife. Then a shaft of red light +would shoot from some strange low hovel as they passed, and they could +see inside a circle of Arab Bedouins crouching over a fire. There +seemed no hilarity, their faces were solemn as the grave. + +Presently, in the narrowest and darkest street, there was a sound of +tom-toms, strains of weird music and voices, and through the chinks of +the half-opened shutters light streamed across the road--while a small +crowd of Arabs were grouped about the gate in the wall holding donkeys +and a camel. + +"A wedding," said the young man. "They have escorted the bride. What +pleasure to raise a veil and see a black face! But each one to his +taste." + +Tamara looked up at the window. She wondered what could be happening +within--were the other wives there as well? She would have liked to +have asked. + +The young man saw her hesitation and said laconically-- + +"Well?" + +"They are having a party," Tamara replied, with lame obviousness. + +"Of course," said the young man. "Weddings and funerals--equally good +occasions for company. They are so wise they leave all to fate; they do +not tear their eyes out for something they cannot have--and fight after +disappointment. They are philosophers, these Arabs." + +The little crowd round the gate now barred the road, half good +humoredly, half with menace. + +"So, so," said the young man, riding in front. Then he laughed, and +putting his hand in his pocket, brought out a quantity of silver and +flung it among them with merry words in Arabic, while he pointed to the +windows of the house. + +Then he seized the bridle of Tamara's camel and started his horse +forward. The crowd smiled now and began scrambling for the baksheesh, +and so they got through in peace. + +Neither spoke until they were in a silent lane again. + +"Sometimes they can be quite disagreeable," he said, "but it is amusing +to see it all. The Sheikh lives here--he fancies the pyramids belong to +him, just as the Khedive fancies all Egypt is his--life is mostly +imagination." + +Now Tamara could see his face better as he looked up to her superior +height on the camel. He had a little moustache and peculiarly chiseled +lips--too chiseled for a man, she thought for a moment, until she +noticed the firm jaw. His eyes were sleepy--slightly Oriental in their +setting, and looked very dark, and yet something made her think that in +daylight they might be blue or gray. + +He did not smile at all; as he spoke his face was grave, but when +something made him laugh as they turned the next corner, it transformed +him. It was the rippling spontaneous gaiety of a child. + +Two goats had got loose from opposite hovels and were butting at one +another in the middle of the road. + +He pulled up his horse and watched. + +"I like any fight," he said. + +But the goats fled in fear of him, so they went on. + +Tamara was wondering why she felt so stupid. She wanted to ask her +strange companion a number of questions. Who he was? What he was doing +at the Sphinx?--and indeed in Egypt. Why he had spoken to her at +all?--and yet appeared absolutely indifferent as they rode along! He +had not asked her a single question or expressed the least curiosity. +For some reason she felt piqued. + +Presently they emerged at the end of the village where there was a +small lake left by the retirement of the Nile. The moon, almost full, +was mirrored in it. The scene was one of extreme beauty. The pyramids +appeared an old rose pink, and everything else in tones of +sapphire--not the green-blue of moonlight in other countries. All was +breathlessly still and lifeless. Only they two, and the camel boys, +alone in the night. + +The dark line of trees which border the road faced them, and they rode +slowly in that direction. + +"You are going to the hotel, I suppose?" he said. "I will see you +safely to it." + +And they climbed the bank on to the avenue from Cairo. + +"And you?" Tamara could not prevent herself from asking. "Where do you +go?" + +"To hell, sometimes," he answered, and his eyes were full of mist, "but +tonight I shall go to bed for a change." + +Tamara was nonplussed. She felt intensely commonplace. She was even a +little cross with herself. Why had she asked a question? + +The Arab horse now took it into his head to curvet and bound in the air +for no apparent reason, but the young man did not stir an inch--he +laughed. + +"Go on, my beauty," he said. "I like you to be so. It shows you are +alive." + +As they approached the hotel, Tamara began to hope no one would see +them. No one who could tell Millicent that she had a companion. She +bent down and said rather primly to the young man who was again at her +side: + +"I am quite safe now, thank you. I need not trouble you any further. +Good-bye! and I am so obliged to you for showing me a new way home." + +He looked up at her, and his whole face was lit with a whimsical smile. + +"Yes, at the gate," he said. "Don't be nervous. I will go at the gate." + +Tamara did not speak, and presently they came to the turning into the +hotel. Then he stopped. + +"I suppose we shall meet again some day," he said. "They have a proverb +here, 'Meet before dawn--part not till dawn.' They see into the future +in a few drops of water in any hollow thing. Well, good-night"--and +before she could answer he was off beyond the hotel up the road and +then turning to the right on a sand-path, galloped out of sight into +what must be the vast desert. + +Where on earth could he be going to?--possibly the devil--if one knew. + + + + +CHAPTER II + + +When Tamara woke in the morning the recollection of her camel ride +seemed like a dream. She sat for a long time at the window of her room +looking out toward the green world and Cairo. She was trying to adjust +things in her mind. This stranger had certainly produced an effect upon +her. + +She wondered who he was, and how he would look in daylight--and above +all whither he had galloped into the desert. Then she wondered at +herself. The whole thing was so out of her line--so bizarre--in a life +of carefully balanced proprieties. And were the thoughts the Sphinx had +awaked in her brain true? Yes, certainly she had been ruled by others +always--and had never developed her own soul. + +She was very sensitive--that last whimsical smile of the unknown had +humiliated her. She felt he had laughed at her prim propriety in +wishing to get rid of him before the gate. Indeed, she suddenly felt he +might laugh at a good many of the things she did. And this ruffled her +serenity. She put up her slender hands and pushed the thick hair back +from her forehead with an impatient gesture. It all made her +dissatisfied with herself and full of unrest. + +"You don't tell me a thing about your Sphinx excursion last night, +Tamara," Millicent Hardcastle said at breakfast, rather peevishly. They +were sipping coffee together in the latter's room in dressing-gowns. +"Was it nice, and had the tourists quite departed?" + +"It was wonderful!" and Tamara leant back and looked into distance. +"There were no tourists, and it made me think a number of new +things--we seem such ordinary people, Millicent." + +Mrs. Hardcastle glanced up surprised, not to say offended, with coffee +cup poised in the air. + +"Yes--you may wonder, but it is true, Milly--we do the same things +every day, and think the same thoughts, and are just thoroughly +commonplace and uninteresting." + +"And you came to these conclusions from gazing at the Sphinx?" Mrs. +Hardcastle asked. + +"Yes," said Tamara, the pink deepening for a moment in her cheeks. In +her whole life she hardly ever had had a secret. "I sat there, +Millicent, in the sand opposite the strange image, and it seemed to +smile and mock at all little things; it appeared perfectly ridiculous +that we pay so much attention to what the world says or thinks. I could +not help looking back to the time when you and I were at Dresden +together. What dull lives we have both led since! Yours perhaps more +filled than mine has been, because you have children; but really we +have both been browsing like sheep." + +Mrs. Hardcastle now was almost irritated. + +"I cannot agree with you," she said. "Our lives have been full of good +and pleasant things--and I hope, dear, we have both done our duty." + +This, of course, ended the matter! It was so undoubtedly true--each had +done her duty. + +After breakfast they started for a last donkey-ride, as they must +return to Cairo in time for the Khedive's ball that night, which, as +distinguished English ladies, they were being taken to by their +compatriots at the Agency. Then on the morrow they were to start for +Europe. Mrs. Hardcastle could not spare more time away from her babies. +Their visit had only been of four short weeks, and now it was December +27, and home and husband called her. + +For Tamara's part, she could do as she pleased; indeed, for two pins +she would have stayed on in Egypt. + +But that was not the intention of fate! + +"Do let us go up that sand-path, Millicent," she said, when they turned +out of the hotel gate. "We have never been there, and I would like to +see where it leads to--perhaps we shall get quite a new vista from the +top----" + +And so they went. + +What she expected to find she did not ask herself. In any case they +rode on, eventually coming out at a small enclosure where stood a sort +of bungalow in those days--it is probably pulled down now, but then it +stood with a wonderful view over the desert, and over the green world. +Tamara had vaguely observed it in the distance before, but imagined it +to be some water-tower of the hotel, it was so bare and gaunt. It had +been built by some mad Italian, they heard afterward, for rest and +quiet. + +It was a quaint place with tiny windows high up, evidently to light a +studio, and there was a veranda to look at the view towards the Nile. + +When they got fairly close they could see that on this veranda a young +man was stretched at full length. A long wicker chair supported him, +while he read a French novel. They--at least Tamara--could see the +yellow back of the book, and also, one regrets to add, she was +conscious that the young man was only clothed in blue and white striped +silk pyjamas!--the jacket of which was open and showed his chest--and +one foot, stretched out and hanging over the back of another low chair, +was--actually bare! + +Mrs. Hardcastle touched her donkey and hurried past--the path went so +very near this unseemly sight! And Tamara followed, but not before the +young man had time to raise himself and frown with fury. She almost +imagined she heard him saying "Those devils of tourists!" Then with the +corner of her eye ere they got out of sight, she perceived that a +blue-clad Arab brought coffee on a little tray. + +She glowed with annoyance. Did he think she had come to look at him? +Did he--he certainly was quite uninterested, for he must have +recognized her; but perhaps not; people look so different in large +straw hats to what they appear with scarves of chiffon tied over their +heads. But why had she come this way at all? She wished a thousand +times she had suggested going round the pyramids instead. + +"Tamara," said Mrs. Hardcastle, when they were safely descending the +further sand-path, with no unclothed young giant in view, "did you see +there was a _man_ in that chair? What a dreadful person to be lying on +the balcony--undressed!" + +"I never noticed," said Tamara, without a blush. "I am surprised at you +having looked, Millie--when this view is so fine." + +"But, my dear child, I could not possibly help seeing him. How you did +not notice, I can't think; he had pyjamas on, Tamara--and _bare feet!"_ + +Mrs. Hardcastle almost whispered the last terrible words. + +"I suppose he felt hot," said Tamara; "it is a grilling day." + +"But really, dear, no nice people, in any weather, remain--er-- +undressed at twelve o'clock in the day for passers-by to look at--do +they?" + +"Well, perhaps he isn't a nice person," allowed Tamara. "He may be mad. +What was he like, since you saw so much, Millicent?" + +Mrs. Hardcastle glanced over her shoulder reproachfully. "You really +speak as though I had looked on purpose," she said. "He seemed very +long--and not fat. I suppose, as his hair was not very dark, he must be +an Englishman." + +"Oh, dear, no!" exclaimed Tamara. "Not an Englishman." Then seeing her +friend's expression of surprise, "I mean, it isn't likely an Englishman +would lie on his balcony in pyjamas--at least not the ones we see in +Cairo; they--they are too busy, aren't they?" + +This miserably lame explanation seemed to satisfy Millicent. It was too +hot and too disagreeable, she felt, clinging to the donkey while it +descended the steep path, to continue the subject further, having to +turn one's head over the shoulder like that; but when they got on the +broad level she began again: + +"Possibly it was a madman, Tamara, sent here with a keeper--in that +out-of-the-way place. How fortunate we had the donkey boys with us!" + +Tamara laughed. + +"You dear goose, Millie, he couldn't have eaten us up, you know; and he +was not doing the least harm, poor thing. We should not have gone that +way; it may have been his private path." + +"Still, no one should lie about undressed," Mrs. Hardcastle protested. +"It is not at all nice. Girls might have been riding with us, and how +dreadful it would have been then." + +"Let us forget it, pet!" Tamara laughed, "and trot on and get some real +exercise." + +So off they started. + +Just as they were turning out of the hotel gate, late in the same +afternoon, a young man on an Arab horse passed the carriage. He was in +ordinary riding dress, and looked a slim, graceful sight as he trotted +ahead. + +He never glanced their way. But while Tamara felt a sudden emotion of +sorts, Mrs. Hardcastle exclaimed: + +"Look, look! I am sure that is he--the mad man who wore those pyjamas." + + + + +CHAPTER III + + +The Khedive's ball was a fairly fine sight, Tamara thought, but driving +through the streets took such a ridiculously long time, the crowd was +so great. The palace itself was, and probably is still, like all other +palaces that are decorated in that nondescript style of Third Empire +France--not a thing of beauty. But the levée uniforms of the officers +gave an air of brilliance contrasted with the civilians of the +Government of Egypt. Tamara thought their dress very ugly, it reminded +her of a clergyman's at a children's party, where he has been decorated +with caps and sham orders from the crackers to amuse the little guests. +It seemed strange to see the English faces beneath the fez. She and +Millicent Hardcastle walked about and talked to their friends. There +were many smart young gallants in the regiments then quartered in +Cairo, who enjoyed dancing with the slender, youthful widow with the +good jewels and pretty dress, and soon Tamara found herself whirling +with a gay hussar. + +"Let us stop near the Royalties and look at the Russians," he said. +"You know, a Grand Duke arrived to-day, and must be here to-night." + +They came to a standstill close to the little group surrounding the +Khedive, and amid the splendid uniforms of the Grand Duke's suite there +was one of scarlet, the like of which Tamara had never seen before. + +Afterward she learned it was a Cossack of the Emperor's escort, but at +the moment it seemed like a gorgeous fancy dress. The high boots and +long, strangely graceful coat, cut with an Eastern hang, the white +under-dress, the way the loose scarlet sleeves fell at the wrist, +showing the white tight ones, the gold and silver trimmings and the +arms, stuck in the quaint belt, all pleased her eye extremely; and then +she recognized its wearer as the young man of the Sphinx. + +How dress changes a person! she thought. He looked at ease now in this +gorgeous garment, and a very prince for a fairy tale. That accounted +for the dreadful gray flannel--he was a soldier and unaccustomed to +wearing ordinary clothes. She had heard that in foreign countries even +the officers wore their uniforms habitually; not as the English do, +merely as an irksome duty. + +He did not appear to see her, but when she began dancing again, and +paused once more for breath, she was close to him as he stood some way +apart and alone. + +Their eyes met. His had the same whimsical provoking smile in them +which angered and yet attracted her. He made no move to bow to her, nor +did he take any steps to be introduced. She burnt with annoyance. + +"He might at least have been presented; it is too impertinent +otherwise!" she thought. + +She knew she was looking her best: a fair, distinguished woman as young +and fresh as a girl. Hardly a man in the room was unconscious of her +presence. Anger lent an extra brightness to her eyes and cheeks. She +went on dancing wildly. + +The next time she was near the stranger was some half an hour later, +although not once was she able to banish the scarlet form from her +view. He did not dance. He talked now and then to his Prince, and then +he was presented to the official ladies, with the rest of the suite. He +looked bored. + +Tamara would not ask his name, which she could have done with ease, as +every one was interested in the Russians and glad to talk about them. +She avoided the English group of bigwigs where they were standing, and +where she had her place--And when they passed the tall Cossack again +she turned upon him a witheringly unconscious glance. + +However, this was not to continue the whole night, for presently she +was requested by one of the attachés to come and be presented to the +Grand Duke, and when she had made her curtsey the suite came up in +turn. + +"Prince Milaslávski," and she heard one of his friends call him +"Gritzko." The name fell pleasantly on her ears--"Gritzko"! Why was he +such a wretch as to humiliate her so? She felt horribly small. She +ought never to have let him speak to her at the Sphinx. She was being +thoroughly punished for her unconventionality now! + +She said a few words in French to each of the others, and then, as he +still stood there with that provoking smile in his splendid eyes, she +turned away almost biting her lip with shame and rage. + +Before she knew it she was dancing with a fierce count in green and +silver. Their conversation was interesting. + +"You are here since long, Madame?" + +"No, Monsieur, only a few weeks, and I go to-morrow." + +"Ah! you dance beautifully!" + +"Do I? I am glad----" + +The Russian Count held her very tightly, and they stopped quite out of +breath, where the screened windows half-hid the poor ladies of the +harem, who watched the throng from their safe retreat. + +The Count bowed--and Tamara bowed. A section, not the whole dance, was +evidently the Russian custom. + +Then a voice said close to her ear: + +"May I, too, have the honor of a turn, Madame?" and she looked up into +the eyes of the Prince. + +For a second she hesitated. Her first impulse was to scornfully say no, +but she quickly realized that would be undignified and absurd; so she +said yes, coldly, and let him place his arm about her. The band was +playing a particularly sensuous valse, which drove all young people mad +that year, and--if the Count had danced well--this man's movements were +heaven. Tamara did not speak a word. She purposely did not look at him, +but drooped her proud head so that the flashing diamonds of her tiara +were all he could have seen of her. + +He put no special meaning into the way he held her; he just danced +divinely; but there was something in the creature himself of a +perfectly annoying attractiveness--or so it seemed to Tamara. + +They at last paused for a moment, and then he spoke. He made not the +slightest allusion to the Sphinx incident. He spoke gravely of Cairo, +and the polo, and the races, and said that his Grand Duke had arrived +that day. He was not on his staff, but was indeed travelling in Egypt +for his own amusement and delectation, he said. + +He had been there since November, it seemed, and had been up the Nile, +and had fortunately been able to secure a little bungalow at Mena, +where he could spend some hours of peace. + +Then Tamara laughed. She remembered Millicent Hardcastle's +consternation over those unfortunate pyjamas. She wondered if Millicent +would realize that she--Tamara--was dancing with their wearer now! When +she laughed he put his arm around her once more and began dancing. This +time he held her rather closely, and suddenly as she laughed again to +herself provokingly, he clasped her tight. + +"If you laugh like that I will kiss you--here in the room," he said. + +Tamara stopped dead short. She blazed with anger. + +"How dare you be so impertinent?" she said. + +They were up in a corner; everyone's back was turned to them happily, +for in one second he had bent and kissed her neck. It was done with +such incredible swiftness and audacity that even had they been observed +it must only have looked as though he bent to pick up something she had +dropped. But the kiss burned into Tamara's flesh. + +She could hardly keep the tears of outraged pride from her eyes. + +"How dare you! How dare you!" she hissed. "Truly you are making me +ashamed of having let you speak to me last night!" + +"Last night?" he said, while he forcibly drew her hand within his arm +and began walking toward the group of her friends. "Last night you were +afraid some should see me from the hotel, and to-night you dare me. Do +it once more and I will kiss your lips!" + +Tamara went dead white; she felt as if the ground were sinking beneath +her feet; her knees trembled. In all her smooth, conventionally ordered +life she had never experienced such a strong emotion. + +The Prince glanced at her, and the fierceness went out of his eyes. He +bowed gravely with the most courtly homage, and left her standing by +Millicent's side. + +Then Tamara remembered she was a lady, and that tenue was expected of +her; so she turned to her friend gaily and said how she was enjoying +the ball; but her fine nostrils quivered at intervals for the rest of +the night. + +"Thank God!" she said to herself, when a few hours later she got into +bed--"Thank God! we are going tomorrow. I shall never see him again, +and no one shall ever know." + + + + +CHAPTER IV + + +Next day they started, escorted to the station by a troup of gushing +friends. Their compartment was a bower of flowers, and as each moment +went by Tamara's equanimity was restored by the thought that she would +soon be out of the land of her disgrace. + +It is a tiresome journey to Alexandria--dusty and glaring and not of +great interest. They hurried on board the ship when they arrived, +without even glancing at their fellow passengers following in the +gangway. Neither woman was a perfect sailor and both were quite +overcome with fatigue. It promised to be a disagreeable night, too, so +they retired at once to their cabins, and were soon asleep. + +The next day, which was Sunday, the wind blew, but by the afternoon +calmed down again, and Tamara decided to dress and go on deck. + +"Mrs. Hardcastle went up some hours ago; she was ready for luncheon, +ma'am," her maid told her. + +"She left a message for you to join her when you woke." + +The ship was the usual sort of ship that goes from Alexandria to +Trieste, and the two English ladies had secured places for their chairs +in the most protected spot. Tamara rather looked forward to being able +to sit there in the moonlight and enjoy the Mediterranean. + +Her maid preceded her with her rug and cushion and book, and it was not +until she was quite settled that she took cognizance of an empty chair +at her other side. + +"You lazy child!" Millicent Hardcastle said. "To sleep all day like +this! It has been quite beautiful since luncheon, and I have had a most +agreeable time. That extremely polite nice young Russian Prince we met +at the Khedive's ball is here, dear; indeed, that is his chair next +you. He is with Stephen Strong. We have been talking for hours." + +Tamara felt suddenly almost cold. + +"I never saw him in the train or coming on board," she said, with +almost a gasp. + +"Nor did I, and yet he must have been just behind us. Our places at +meals are next him, too. So fortunate he was introduced, because one +could not talk to a strange man, even on a boat. I never can understand +those people who pick up acquaintances promiscuously; can you, dear?" + +"No," said Tamara, feebly. + +She was pondering what to do. She could not decline to know the Prince +without making some explanation to Millicent. She also could not +flatter him so much. She must just be icily cold, and if he should be +further impertinent she could remain in her cabin. + +But what an annoying contretemps! And she had thought she should never +see him again!--and here until Wednesday afternoon, she would be +constantly reminded of the most disgraceful incident in her career. All +brought upon herself, too, by her own action in having lapsed from the +rigid rules in which Aunt Clara had brought her up. + +If she had not answered him at the Sphinx--he could not have--but she +refused to dwell upon the shame of this recollection. + +She had quite half an hour to grow calm before the cause of her unrest +came even into sight, and when he did, it was to walk past in the +company of their old friend, Stephen Strong. + +The Prince raised his cap gravely, and Tamara comforted herself by +noticing again how badly his clothes fitted him! How unsuitable, and +even ridiculous, they were to English eyes--That gave her pleasure! +Also she must have a little fun with Millicent. + +"Has it struck you, Millie, the Prince is the same young man we saw in +the pyjamas on the veranda? I am surprised at your speaking to such a +person, even if he has been introduced!" + +Mrs. Hardcastle raised an aggrieved head. + +"Really, Tamara," she said, "I had altogether forgotten that unpleasant +incident. I wish you had not reminded me of it. He is a most +respectful, modest, unassuming young man. I am sure he would be +dreadfully uncomfortable if he were aware we had seen him so." + +"I think he looked better like that than he does now," Tamara rejoined, +spitefully. "Did you ever see such clothes?" + +Mrs. Hardcastle whisked right round in her chair and stared at her +friend. She was shocked, in the first place, that Tamara should speak +so lightly of a breach of decorum; and, secondly, she was astonished at +another aspect of the case. + +"I thought you never saw him at all that morning!" she exclaimed. + +Tamara was nettled. + +"Your description was so vivid; besides, I looked back!" + +"You _looked back!_ Tamara! after I had told you he wasn't dressed! My +dear, how could you?" + +"Well, I did.--Hush! he is coming toward us," and Tamara hurriedly +opened a book and looked down. + +"At last Mrs. Loraine has arrived on deck," she heard Millicent say; +and then, for convention's sake she was obliged to glance up and bow +coldly. + +The young man did not seem the least impressed; he sat down and pulled +his rug round his knees and gazed out at the sea. The sun had set, and +the moon would soon rise in all her full glory. + +There was hardly twilight and the ship's electric lights were already +being lit. The old Englishman, Stephen Strong, greeted her and took the +chair at Mrs. Hardcastle's other side. That lady was in one of her +chatty moods, when each nicely expressed sentence fell from her lips +directly after the other--all so pleasant and easy to understand. No +one ever felt with Millicent he need use an atom of brain. These are +the women men like. + +Tamara pretended to read her book, but she was conscious of the near +proximity of the Prince. Nothing so magnetic in the way of a +personality had ever crossed her path as yet. + +He sat as still as a statue gazing at the sea. An uncontrollable desire +to look at him shook Tamara, but she dominated it. The discomfort at +last grew so great that she almost trembled. + +Then he spoke: + +"Have you cat's eyes?" he asked. + +Now, when there was a legitimate chance to look at him, she found her +orbs glued to her book. + +"Of course not!" she said, icily. + +"Then of what use to pretend you are reading in this gloom? The +miserable lantern is not good for a gleam." + +Tamara was silent. She even turned a page. She would be irritating, +too! + +"That ball was a sight," he continued. "Did you see the harem ladies +peeping from their cage? They looked fat and ugly enough to be wisely +kept there. What a lot of fools they must have thought us, cavorting +for their amusement." + +"Poor women!" said Tamara. Her voice was the primmest thing in voices +she had ever heard. + +"Why poor women?" he asked. "They have all the pleasures of the body, +and no anxieties; nothing but the little excitement of trying now and +then to poison their rivals! It is the poor Khedive!--Think of his +having to wade through all that fat mass to find one pretty one!" + +The tone of this conversation displeased Tamara. She did not wish to +enter into the ethics of the harem. She wished he would be silent +again, only that deep voice of his was so pleasant! His English was +wonderful, too, with hardly the least accent; and when she did allow +herself to look at him she could not help admiring the way his hair +grew, back from a forehead purely Greek. His nose was short and rather +square, while those too beautifully chiseled lips of his had an +expression of extraordinary charm. His whole personality breathed +attraction, every human being who approached him was conscious of it. +As for his eyes, they were enormous, with broad full lids, mystical, +passionate, and yet unconcerned. Always they suggested something +Eastern, though on the whole he was fair. Tamara's own soft brown hair +was only a shade lighter than his. + +She was not sure yet, but now thought his eyes were gray. + +She could have asked him a number of questions she wanted answered, but +she refrained. He suddenly turned and looked at her full in the face. +He had been gazing fixedly at the sea, and these movements of quickness +were disconcerting, especially as Tamara found herself caught in the +act of studying his features. + +"What on earth made you go to the Sphinx?" he asked. + +Anger rose in Tamara; the inference was not flattering, in his speech, +or the tone in which he uttered it. + +"To count the number of stones the creature is made of, of course," she +said. "Those technical things are what one would go for at that time of +night." + +And now her companion rippled with laughter, infectious, joyous +laughter. + +"Ah, you are not so stupid as I thought!" he said, frankly. "You looked +poetic and fine with that gauze scarf around your head sitting there-- +and then afterwards. Wheugh! It was like a pretty wax doll. I regretted +having wasted the village on you. All that is full of meaning for me." + +Tamara was interested in spite of her will to remain reserved, although +she resented the wax-doll part. + +"Yes?"--he faltered. + +"You can learn all the lessons you want in life from the Sphinx," he +went on. "What paltry atoms you and I are, and how little we matter to +anyone but ourselves! She is cruel, too, and does not hesitate to tear +one in pieces if she wishes and she could make one ready to get drunk +on blood." + +Tamara rounded her sweet eyes. + +"Then the village there, full of men with the passions of animals, +living from father to son forever the same, wailing for a death, +rejoicing at a birth, taking strong physical pleasure in their marriage +rights and their women, and beating them when they are tired; but you +are too civilized in your country to understand any of these things." + +Tamara was stirred; she felt she ought to be shocked. + +Contrary to her determination, she asked a question: + +"Then you are not civilized in yours?" + +"Not nearly so badly," he said. "The primitive forces of life still +give us emotions, when we are not wild; when we are then it is the +jolliest hell." + +Tamara was almost repulsed. How could one be so odd as this man? she +thought. Was he a type, or was he mad, or just only most annoyingly +attractive and different from any one else? She found herself thrilled. +Then with a subtle change he turned and almost tenderly wrapped the +rug, which had blown a little down, more securely round her. + +"You have such a small white face," he said, the words a caress. "One +must see that you are warm and the naughty winds do not blow you away." + +Tamara shivered; she could not have told why. + +After this the conversation became general. + +Millicent joined in with her obvious remarks. The sea was much +smoother; they would be able to eat some dinner; she had heard there +was a gipsy troupe on board in the third-class, and how nice it would +be to have some music! + +And something angered Tamara in the way the Prince assisted in all +this, out-commonplacing her friend in commonplaces with the suavest +politeness, while his grave face betrayed him not even by a twinkle in +the eye. Only when he caught hers; then he laughed a sudden short +laugh, and he whispered: + +"What a perfect woman! everything in the right place. Heaven! at the +best times she would do her knitting, and hand one a child every year! +I'll marry when I can find a wife like that!" + +Tamara was furious. She resented his ridicule of Millicent, and she was +horrified at the whole speech; so, gathering her rug together, she said +she was cold, and asked Mr. Strong to pace the deck with her. Nor would +she take the faintest further notice of the Prince, until they all went +below to the evening meal. + +At dinner he seemed to be practically a stranger again. He was Tamara's +neighbor, but he risked no startling speeches; in fact, he hardly spoke +to her, contenting himself with discussing seafaring matters with the +captain, and an occasional remark to Stephen Strong, who sat beyond +Mrs. Hardcastle. It was unnecessary for her to have decided beforehand +to snub him; he did not give her the chance. + + + + +CHAPTER V + + +On Monday they heard they would arrive at Brindisi on the Tuesday +morning, and Tamara persuaded Mrs. Hardcastle to agree to disembarking +there instead of going on to Trieste. + +"We shall be home all the sooner," she said. And so it was settled. But +there was still all Monday to be got through. + +It was a perfect day, the blue Mediterranean was not belying its name. +Tamara felt in great spirits, as she came on deck at about eleven +o'clock, to find Millicent taking a vigorous walk round and round with +the Russian Prince. They seemed to be laughing and chattering like old +friends. Again Tamara resented it. + +"He is only making fun of poor Millie," she thought, "who never sees a +thing," and she settled herself in her chair and let her eyes feast on +the blue sea---- + +What should she do with her life? This taste of change and foreign +skies had unsettled her. How could she return to Underwood and the +humdrum everyday existence there? She seemed to see it mapped out on a +plain as one who stood on a mountain. She seemed to realize that always +there had been dormant in her some difference from the others. She +remembered now how often she perceived things that none of them saw, +and she knew it was because of this that it had grown into a habit with +her from early childhood to suppress the expression of her thoughts, +and keep them to herself--until outwardly, at all events, she was of +the same stolid mould as her family. The dears! they could not help it. + +But about one point she was determined. She would think and act for +herself in future. Aunt Clara's frown should not prohibit any book or +any action. The world should teach her what it could. + +Tamara had received a solid education; now she would profit by it, and +instead of letting all her knowledge lie like a bulb in a root-house, +she would plant it and tend it, and would hope to see sweet flowers +springing forth. + +"Next summer I shall be twenty-five years old," she said to herself, +"and the whole thing has been a waste." + +Each time the energetic promenaders passed her chair she heard a few +words of their conversation, on hunting often, and the dogs, and the +children, Bertie's cleverness, and Muriel's chickenpox, but always the +Prince seemed interested and polite. + +Presently the old man, Stephen Strong, came up and took Mrs. +Hardcastle's chair. + +"May I disturb your meditations?" he said. "You look so wise." + +"No, I am foolish," Tamara answered. "Now you who know the world must +come and talk and teach me its meaning." + +He was rather a wonderful old man, Stephen Strong, purely English to +look at, and purely cosmopolitan in habits and life. He had been in the +diplomatic service years ago, and had been in Egypt in the gorgeous +Ismail time; then a fortune came his way, and he traveled the earth +over. There were years spent in Vienna and Petersburg and Paris, and +always the early winter back in the land of the Sphinx. + +"The world," he said, as he arranged himself in the chair, "is an +extremely pleasant place if one takes it as it is, and does not quarrel +with it. One must not be intolerant, and one must not be hypercritical. +See it all and make allowances for the weakness of the human beings who +inhabit it." + +"Yes," said Tamara, "I know you are right; but so many of us belong to +a tribe who think their point of view the only one. I do, for instance; +that is why I say I am foolish." + +The walkers passed again. + +"There is a type for you to study," Stephen Strong said. "Prince +Milaslávski. I have known him for many years, since he was a child +almost; he is about twenty-nine or thirty now, and really a rather +interesting personality." + +"Yes," said Tamara, honestly, "I feel that. Tell me about him?" + +Stephen Strong lit a cigar and puffed for a few seconds, then he +settled himself with the air of a person beginning a narrative. + +"He came into his vast fortune rather too young, and lived rather +fiercely. His mother was a Basmanoff; that means a kind of Croesus in +Russia. He is a great favorite with the powers that be, and is in the +Cossacks of the Escort. Something in their wild freedom appealed to him +more than any other corps. He is a Cossack himself on the mother's side, +and the blood is all rather wild, you know." + +Tamara looked as she felt--interested. + +"They tell the most tremendous stories about him," the old man went on, +"hugely exaggerated, of course; but the fact remains, he is a +fascinating, restless, dauntless character." + +"What sort of stories?" asked Tamara, timidly. + +"Not all fit for your ears, gentle lady," laughed Stephen Strong. +"Sheer devilment, mostly. It was the amusement in the beginning to dare +him to anything, the maddest feats. He ran off with a nun once, it is +said, for a bet, and deposited her in the house of the man she had +loved before her vows were taken. That was in Poland. Then he has +orgies sometimes at his country place, when every one is mad for three +days on end. It causes terrible scandal. Then he comes back like a +lamb, and purrs to all the old ladies. They say he obeys neither God +nor the Devil--only the Emperor on this earth." + +"How dreadful!" force of habit made Tamara say, while her thoughts +unconsciously ran into interested fascination. + +"He is absolutely fearless, and as cool as an Englishman, and there are +not any mean things told about him, though," Steven Strong continued, +"and indeed sometimes he lives the simplest country life with his +horses and dogs, and his own people worship him, I believe. But there +is no wildest prank he is incapable of if his blood is up." + +"I think he looks like it," said Tamara. "Is it because he habitually +wears uniform that his ordinary clothes fit so badly? To our eyes he +seems dressed like some commis voyageur." + +"Of course," said Stephen Strong. "And even in Paris I don't suppose +you would approve of him in that respect, but if you could see him in +Petersburg, then I believe you would be like all the rest." + +"All which rest?" asked Tamara. + +"Women. They simply adore him. Bohemians, great ladies, actresses, +dancers, and----" + +He was just going to mention those of another world, when he felt +Tamara would hardly understand him, so he stopped short. + +Something in her rose up in arms. + +"It shows how foolish they are," she said. + +Stephen Strong glanced at her sideways, and if she could have read his +thoughts they were: + +"This sweet Englishwoman is under Gritzko's spell already, and how she +is battling against it! She won't have a chance, though, if he makes up +his mind to win." + +But Tamara, for all her gentle features, was no weakling; only her life +had been a long hibernation; and now the spring had come, and soon the +time of the finding of honey and a new life. + +"What can he be talking about to my friend, Mr. Strong?" she asked, as +the two passed again. "Millicent is one of the last women he can have +anything in common with; she would simply die of horror if she heard +any of these stories--and he can't be interested in a word she says." + +"He always does the unexpected," and Stephen Strong laughed as he said +it. He himself was amused at this ill-matched pair. + +"Mrs. Hardcastle is agreeable to look at, too," he continued. + +Tamara smiled scornfully. + +"That is the lowest view to take. One should be above material +appearance." + +"Charming lady!" said Stephen Strong. "Yes, indeed you do not know the +world." + +Tamara was not angry. She looked at him and smiled, showing her +beautiful teeth. + +"Of course you think me a goose," she said, "but I warned you I was +one. Tell me, shall I ever grow out of it--tell me, you who know?" + +"If the teacher is young and handsome enough to make your heart beat," +said her old companion. And then Millicent and the Prince joined them. + +Mrs. Hardcastle's round blue eyes were flashing brightly, and her fresh +face was aglow with exercise and enjoyment. + +"Tamara dear, you are too incorrigibly lazy. Why do you sit here +instead of taking exercise? and you have no idea of the interesting +things the Prince has been telling me. All about a Russian poet +called--oh, I can't pronounce the name, but who wrote of a devil--not +exactly Faust, you know, though something like it." + +Tamara noticed that amused, whimsical, mocking gleam in the Cossack's +great eyes, but Millicent went gaily on, unconscious of anything but +herself. + +"I mean those mythical, strange sort of devils who come to earth, you +know, and--and--make love to ladies--a sort of Satan like in Marie +Corelli's lovely book. You remember, Tamara, the one you were so funny +about, laughing when you read it." + +"You mean 'The Demon' of Lermontoff, probably, Millicent, don't you?" +Tamara said. "A friend of my mother's translated it into English, and I +have known it since I was a child. I think it must be very fine in the +original," and she looked at the Prince. + +In one moment his face became serious and sympathetic. + +"You know our great poet's work, then?" he said, surprised. "One would +not have thought it!" + +Then again Tamara's anger rose. There was always the insinuation in his +remarks, seemingly unconscious, and therefore the more irritating, that +she was a commonplace fool. + +"Her name--the heroine's--is the same as my own," she said, gravely; +but there was a challenge in her eyes. + +"Tamara!" he said. "Well--it could be--a devil might come your way, but +you would kneel and pray, and eat bonbons, and not listen to him." + +"It would depend upon the devil," she said. + +"Those who live the longest will see the most," and the Prince put back +his head and laughed with real enjoyment at his thoughts, just as he +had done when the two goats had butted at one another in the road. + +Tamara felt her cheeks blaze with rage, but she would not enter the +lists, in spite of the late challenge in her eyes. + +Mr. Strong had vacated Millicent's chair and taken his own. The party +soon settled into their legitimate places, and Tamara again took up her +book. + +"No, don't read," the Prince said. "You get angry at once with me when +we talk, and the red comes into your cheeks, and I like it." + +Exasperation was almost uncontrollable in Tamara. She remained silent, +only the little ear next the Prince burned scarlet. + +"Some day you will come to Russia," he said, "and then you will learn +many things." + +"I have no desire to go there," said Tamara, lying frankly, as it had +always been her great wish, and indeed her godmother, who never forgot +her, had often begged her to visit that northern clime; but Russia!--as +well have suggested the moon at Underwood. + +"It would freeze you, perhaps, or burn you--who can tell?" the Prince +said. "One would see when you got there. I have an old lady, a dear +friend, with white hair and a mole on her cheek--someone who sees +straight. She would be good for your education." + +Tamara thought it would be wiser not to show any further annoyance, so +she said lightly: + +"Yes, I am only sixteen, and have never left the schoolroom; it would +be delightful to be taught how to live." + +He turned and smiled at her. + +"You hardly look any more--twenty, perhaps, and--never kissed!" + +A memory rose up of a scorched neck, and suddenly Tamara's long +eyelashes rested on her cheek. + +Then into his splendid eyes came a fierce, savage, passionate gleam, +which she did not see, but dimly felt, and he said in a low voice a +little thick: + +"And--as--yet--never really kissed." + +"Milly," said Tamara, as calmly as she could, "what time do we get into +Brindisi to-morrow morning? And think of it, on Thursday night we shall +be at home." + +Home seemed so very safe! + +The Prince did not come in to luncheon, something was the matter with +his Arab horse, and he had gone to see to it just before--a concern on +his face as of the news of illness to his nearest kin. + +Tamara was gay and charming, and laughed with Stephen Strong and the +captain in quite an unusual way for her. They both thought her an +adorable woman. Poor Tamara! and so she really was. + +About tea-time Prince Milaslávski turned up again. + +"He is all right now," he said, sure that his listeners were in perfect +sympathy with him. "It was those fools down there. I have made them +suffer, I can say," and then he turned to Stephen Strong. "Among the +steerage there is an Alexandrian gipsy troupe. I have ordered them up +to sing to us to-night, since Madame wished it," and he turned upon +Millicent an air of deep devotion. + +"Common ragged creatures, but one with some ankles and one with a voice. +In any case, we must celebrate these ladies' last night." + +And thus the terrible present end to their acquaintance fell about! + +Nothing could have been more charming than the Prince was until +dinner-time, and indeed through that meal, only he made Stephen Strong +change places with him, so that he might be next Mrs. Hardcastle, much +to that lady's delight. + +"He is really too fascinating," she said, as she came into Tamara's +cabin to fetch her for the evening meal. "I hardly think Henry would +like his devotion to me. What do you think, dear?" + +"I am sure he would be awfully jealous, Milly darling; you really must +be careful," Tamara said. And with a conscious air of complacent +pleasantly tickled virtue Mrs. Hardcastle led the way to the saloon. + +It was not possible, Tamara thought, that anything so terribly +unpleasant as the Prince's having too much champagne at dinner, could +have accounted for his simply scandalous behavior after; and yet surely +that would have been the kindest thing to say. But, no, it was not +that. + +This was, in brief, the scene which was enacted on the upper deck: + +With the permission of the captain, the gipsy troupe were brought, and +began their performance, tame enough at the commencement until the +Prince gave orders for them to be supplied with unlimited champagne, +and then the wildest dancing began. They writhed and gesticulated and +undulated in a manner which made Millicent cling on to her chair, grow +crimson in the face, and finally start to her feet. + +But the worst happened when the Prince rose and, taking a tambourine, +began, with a weird shriek, to beat it wildly, his eyes ablaze and his +lips apart. + +Then, seizing the chief dancer and banging it upon her head, he held +his arm about her heaving breast, as she turned to him with a +serpentine movement of voluptuous delight. + +In a second he had caught hold of her, and had lifted and swung her far +out over the dark blue waters, then, with a swirl to the side, held her +suspended in the air above the open deck below. + +"Ha, ha!" yelled the troupe, in frenzied pleasure, and, nimble as a +cat, one rough dark man rushed down the ladder and caught the hanging +woman in his arms. Then they all clapped and cheered and shrieked with +joy, while the Prince, putting his hands in his pockets, pulled out +heaps of gold and flung it among them. + +"Back to hell, rats!" he shouted, laughing. "See, you have frightened +the ladies. You should all be killed!" + +For Tamara and Millicent had risen, and with stately steps had quitted +the scene. + +It was all too terrible and too vulgarly melodramatic, Tamara thought, +especially that touching of the woman and that flinging of the gold, +the latter caused by the same barbaric instinct which made him throw +the silver in the Sheikh's village by the moonlit Sphinx, only this was +worse a thousandfold. + +The next morning the two ladies left the ship at Brindisi before +either the Prince or Stephen Strong was awake. Both were silent upon +the subject of the night before, until Millicent at last said when they +were in the train: + +"Tamara--you won't tell Henry or your family, will you, dear? Because +really, last night he was so fascinating--but that dancing! I am sure +you feel, with me, we could have died of shame." + + + + +CHAPTER VI + + +When Tamara reached Underwood and saw a letter from her Russian +godmother among the pile which awaited her, she felt it was the finger +of fate, and when she read it and found it contained not only New +Year's wishes, but an invitation couched in affectionate and persuasive +terms that she should visit St. Petersburg, she suddenly, and without +consulting her family, decided she would go. + +"There is something drawing me to Russia," she said to herself. "One +gets into the current of things. I felt it in the air. And why should I +hesitate now I am free? Why should I not accept, just because one +Russian man has horrified me. It is, I suppose, a big city, and perhaps +I shall never see him there." + +So she announced her decision to the dumfounded household, and in less +than a week took the Nord Express. + +"The Court, alas! is in mourning,"--her godmother had written,-- +"so you will see no splendid Court balls, but I daresay we can divert +you otherwise, Tamara, and I am so anxious to make the acquaintance of +my godchild." + +The morning after she left them Aunt Clara expressed herself thus at +breakfast: + +"I see a great and most unwelcome change in dear Tamara since she +returned from Egypt, I had hoped Millicent Hardcastle would be all that +was steadying and well-balanced as a companion for her, but it seems +this modern restlessness has got into her blood. I tremble to think +what ideas she will bring from Russia. Almost savages they are there!-- +She may be sent to Siberia or something dreadful, and we may never see +her again." + +"Oh! come Aunt Clara!" Tom Underdown protested, as he buttered his +toast. "I think you are a little behind the times. There is a Russian +at Oxford with me and he is the decentest chap in the world. You speak +as though they almost lived on raw fish!" + +"My dear Tom," said Miss Underdown, severely. "I was reading only +yesterday, in the 'Christian Clarion,' how one of their Emperors cut +off everyone's head. Dreadful customs they have, it seems; and one of +their Empresses--Catherine, I think; her name was. Well, dear, it is +too shocking to speak of--and most people were sent to the mines!" + +"Oh! hang it all, Aunt Clara, you can't have looked at the date! You +can hunt up just those jolly kind of stories about our Henry VIII. if +you want to, you know, and our Elizabeth wasn't the saint they made +out. And as for Siberia, I am going there myself some day, on the +Trans-Siberian Railway. Tamara will be all right. I wish to heavens she +had taken me with her. We have got dry rot in this house, that is what +is the matter with us!" + +"Tom!" almost gasped Miss Underdown. "Your manners are extremely +displeasing, and the tone of your remarks is far from what one could +wish!" + +Meanwhile Tamara was speeding on her way to the North, her interest and +excitement in her journey deepening with each mile. + +The snow and the vast forests impressed her from the train windows. +Every smallest shade made its effect upon her brain. Tamara was +sensitive to all form and color. She was a person who apprehended +things, and from the habit of keeping all her observations to herself +perhaps the faculty of perception had grown the keener. + +The silence seemed to be the first thing she remarked on reaching the +frontier. The porters were so grave and quiet, with their bearded +kindly faces, many of them like the saints and Biblical characters in +Sunday-school picture books at home. + +And finally she arrived at St. Petersburg, and found her godmother +waiting for her on the platform. They recognized each other +immediately. Tamara had several photographs of the Princess Ardácheff. + +"Welcome, _ma filleule_," that lady cried, while she shook her hand. +"After all these years I can have you in my house." + +They said all sorts of mutually agreeable things on their way thither, +and they looked at each other shyly. + +"She is not beautiful," ran the Princess' comments. "Though she has a +superb air of breeding--that is from her poor mother--but her eyes are +her father's eyes. She is very sweet, and what a lovely skin--yes, and +eyelashes--and probably a figure when one can see beneath the furs-- +tall and very slender in any case. Yes, I am far from disappointed-- +far." + +And Tamara thought: + +"My godmother is a splendid looking lady! I like her bright brown eyes +and that white hair; and what a queer black mole upon her left cheek, +like an early eighteenth-century beauty spot. Where have I heard lately +of someone with a mole------? + +"You fortunately see our city with a fresh mantle of snow, Tamara," the +Princess said, glancing from the automobile window as they sped along. +"It is not, alas! always so white as this." + +It appeared wonderful to Tamara--so quite unlike anything she had +imagined. The tiny sleighs seemingly too ridiculously small for the +enormously padded coachman on the boxes--the good horses with their +sweeping tails--the unusual harness. And, above all, again the silence +caused by the snow. + +Her first remark was almost a childish one of glee and appreciation, +and then she stopped short. What would her godmother think of such an +outburst! She must return to the contained self-repression of the time +before her visit to the Sphinx--surely in this strange land! + +The Princess Ardácheff's frank face was illuminated with a smile. + +"She is extremely young," she thought, "in spite of her widowhood, but +I like her, and I know we shall be friends." + +Just then they arrived at her house in the Serguiefskaia. It had not +appeared to Tamara that they were approaching any particularly +fashionable quarter. A fine habitation seemed the neighbor of quite a +humble one, and here there was even a shop a few doors down, and except +for the very tall windows there was nothing exceptionally imposing on +the outside. But when they entered the first hall and the gaily- +liveried suisse and two footmen had removed their furs, and the +Princess' snow boots, then Tamara perceived she was indeed in a +glorious home. + +Princess Ardácheff's house was, and is, perhaps the most stately in all +Petersburg. + +As they ascended the enormous staircase dividing on the first landing, +and reaching the surrounding galleries above in two sweeps, a grave +major-domo and more footmen met them, and opened wide the doors of a +lofty room. It was full of fine pictures and objets d'art, and though +the furniture dated from the time of Alexander II., and even a little +earlier--when a flood of frightful taste pervaded all Europe--still the +stuffs and the colors were beautiful and rich, and time had softened +their crudity into a harmonious whole. + +Be the decorations of a house what they will, it is the mistress of it +who gives the rooms their soul. If hers is vulgar, so will the rooms +be, even though Monsieur Nelson himself has but just designed them in +purest Louis XVI. But the worst of all are those which look as though +their owner constantly attended bazaars, and brought the superfluous +horrors she secured there back with her. Then there are vapid rooms, +and anaemic rooms, and fiddly, and messy rooms, and there are monuments +of wealth with no individuality at all. + +Tamara felt all these _nuances_ directly, and she knew that here dwelt +a woman of natural refinement and a broad outlook. + +She sank into an old-fashioned sofa, covered with silk a quarter of an +inch thick, and the atmosphere seemed to breathe life and completeness. + +Tea and quantities of different little _bonnes bouches_ awaited them. +But if there was a samovar she did not recognize it as such; in fact, +she had seen nothing which many writers describe as "Russian." + +The Princess talked on in a fashion of perfect simplicity and +directness. She told her that her friends would all welcome her and be +glad that an Englishwoman should really see their country, and find it +was not at all the grotesque place which fancy painted it. + +"We are so far away that you do not even imagine us," she said. "You +English have read that there was an Ivan the Terrible and a Peter the +Great, who crushed through your Evelyn's hedges, and was a giant of +seven foot high! Many of you believe wolves prowl in the streets at +night, and that among the highest society Nihilists stalk, disguised as +heaven knows what! While the sudden disappearance of a member of any +great or small family can be accounted for by a nocturnal visit of +police, and a transportation in chains to Siberian mines! Is it not so, +Tamara?" + +Tamara laughed. "Yes, indeed," she said. "I am sure that is what Aunt +Clara thinks now! Are we not a ridiculously insular people, Marraine?" + +She said the last word timidly and put out her hand. "May I call you +Marraine, Princess?" she asked. "I never knew my mother, and it sounds +nice." + +"Indeed, yes!" the Princess said, and she rose and kissed Tamara. "Your +mother was very dear to me, long ago, before you were born, we spent a +wild season together of youth and happiness. You shall take the place +of my child Tamara, if she had lived." + +Before they had finished drinking their tea, other guests came in--a +tall old General in a beautiful uniform, and two ladies, one young and +the other old. They all spoke English perfectly, and were so agreeable +and _sans façon_, Tamara's first impression was distinctly good. + +Presently she heard the elder lady say to her godmother: + +"Have you seen Gritzko since his return, Vera? One hears he has a wild +fit on and is at Milasláv with------" the rest of the words were almost +whispered. Tamara found herself unpleasantly on the alert--how +ridiculous, though, she thought--Gritzko!--there might be a dozen +Gritzkos in Petersburg. + +"No, he returns tonight," Princess Ardácheff said; "but I never listen +to these tales, and as no matter what he does we all forgive him, and +let him fly back into our good graces as soon as he purses up that +handsome mouth of his--it is superfluous to make critiques upon his +conduct--it seems to me!" + +The lady appeared to agree to this, for she laughed, and they talked of +other things, and soon all left. + +And when they were gone--"Tonight I have one or two of my nicest +friends dining," the Princess said, "whom I wish you to know, so I +thought if you rested now you would not be too tired for a little +society," and she carried Tamara off to her warm comfortable bedroom, +an immense apartment in gorgeous Empire taste, and here was a great +bunch of roses to greet her, and her maid could be seen unpacking in +the anti-chamber beyond. + +The company, ten or twelve of them, were all assembled when Tamara +reached one of the great salons, which opened from the galleries +surrounding the marble hall. She came in--a slender willowy creature, +with a gentle smile of contrition--was she late? + +And then the presentations took place. What struck her first was that +dark or fair, fat-faced or thin, high foreheads or low, all the ladies +wore _coiffées_ exactly the same--the hair brushed up from the forehead +and tightly _ondulés_. It gave a look of universal distinction, but in +some cases was not very becoming. They were beautifully dressed in +mourning, and no one seemed to have much of a complexion, from an +English point of view, but before the end of the evening Tamara felt +she had never met women with such charm. Surely no other country could +produce the same types, perfectly simple in manner--perfectly at ease. +Extremely highly educated, with a wide range of subjects, and a +knowledge of European literature which must be unsurpassed. Afterwards +when she knew them better she realized that here was one place left in +Europe where there were no _parvenues_ and no snobs--or if there were +any, they were beautifully concealed. Such absolute simplicity and +charm can only stay in a society where no one is trying "to arrive," +all being there naturally by birth. There could be no room for the +_métier_ adopted by several impecunious English ladies of title--that +of foisting anyone, however unsuitable, upon society and their friends +for a well-gilded consideration. + +In Russia, at least, it is the round peg in the round hole. No square +peg would have a chance of admission. Thus there are the ease and +elegance of one large and interesting family. + +It seemed to Tamara that each one was endowed with natural fascination. +They made no "frais" for her. There were no compliments or gushing +welcomes. They were just casual and delightful and made her feel at +home and happy with them all. + +They took "Zacouska" in an ante-room. Such quantities of strange +dishes! There seemed enough for a whole meal, and Tamara wondered how +it would be possible to eat anything further! At dinner she sat between +a tall old Prince and a diplomat. The uniforms pleased her and the +glorious pearls of the ladies. Such pearls--worth a king's ransom! + +Then she was interested to see the many different sorts of wine, and +the extreme richness of the food, and finally the shortness of the +meal. + +The pretty custom of the men kissing the hostess' hand as they all left +the dining-room together, she found delightful. + +They were drinking coffee in the blue salon, and most of the party had +retired to the bridge tables laid out, and Tamara, who played too +badly, sat by the fire with her godmother and another lady, when +suddenly the door opened and, with an air of complete insouciance and +assurance, Prince Milaslávski came in. + +"I want some coffee, Tantine," he said, kissing the Princess' hand, +while he nodded to everyone else. "I was passing and so came in to get +it." + +"Gritzko--back again!" the whole company cried, and the Princess, +beaming upon him fond smiles, gave him the coffee, while she murmured +her glad welcome. + +The society now began to chaff him as to his doings, which he took with +the utmost _sang froid_. + +"That old cat of a Marianne Mariuski sets about as usual one of her +stories. I am having an orgie at Milasláv, and this time with a +seraglio of Egyptian houris--the truth being I only brought back by +the merest chance one small troupe of Alexandrian dancers, and two +performing bears. They made us laugh for three days, Serge, Sasha, and +the rest!" + +"Gritzko, will you never learn wisdom," said one lady, the Princess +Shébanoff, plaintively, while the others all laughed. "Were they +pretty, and what were they like?" they asked. + +"The bears?--little angels, especially Fatima,--and with the manners of +Princesses," and he bowed to an old lady who was surveying him severely +through her pince-nez, while she held her cards awry. "Which reminds me +we are failing in ours, Tantine, you have not presented me to the +English lady, who is, I perceive, a stranger." + +During all this Tamara had sat cold and silent. She was angry with +herself that this man's entrance should cause her such emotion--or +rather commotion and sensation. Why should he make her feel nervous and +stupid, unsure of herself, and uncertain what to do. Invariably he +placed her at some disadvantage, and left the settling of their +relations to himself. Whereas all such regulations ought to have been +in her hands. Now she was without choice again, she could only bow +stiffly as her godmother said his name and her name, and Prince +Milaslávski took a chair by her side and began making politenesses as +though he were really a stranger. + +Had she just arrived? Did she find Russia very cold? Was she going to +stay long? etc., etc. + +To all of which Tamara answered in monosyllables, while two bright +spots of rose color burned in her cheeks. + +The Prince was astonishingly good looking in his Cossack's uniform, and +his eyes had a laugh in them, but a shadow round as if bed had not seen +him for several nights. + +His whole manner to Tamara was different from any shade it had formerly +worn. It was as if a courtly Russian were welcoming an honored guest +in his aunt's house. + +He did not mock or tease, or announce startling truths; he was pleasant +and ordinary and serene. + +He and the Princess Ardácheff were no real blood relations; the first +wife of her late husband had been his mother's sister, but the +tradition of aunt had gone on in the family and the Princess loved him +almost as a son. He had always called her "Tantine" as though she had +been his real aunt. + +"What did you think of Gritzko Milaslávski, Tamara?" she asked, when +all the guests were gone, and the two had retired to Tamara's room. "He +is one of the dearest characters when you know him--but a terrible +tease." + +"He seemed very pleasant," Tamara said blankly, while she picked up a +book. Even to speak of him caused her unease. + +"He is not at all the type of an ordinary Russian," the Princess +continued. "He has traveled so much, he is so _fin_ there is almost a +French touch in him. I am afraid you will find our young men rather +dull as a rule. They are very hard worked at their military duties, +and have not much time for _les dames du monde_." + +"No?" said Tamara. "Well, the women seem to make up for it. I have +never met so many clever delightful ones." + +"It is our education," the Princess said. "You see from babyhood we +learn many languages, and thus the literatures of countries are open to +us before we begin to analyze anything, and English especially we know +well, because in that language there are so many books for young +girls." + +"In England," said Tamara, "what may be given to young girls seems to +rule everything, no one is allowed a thought for herself, every idea +almost is brought down to that dead level--one rebels after a while-- +but tell me, Marraine, if I may ask, what makes them all so tired and +gray looking, the people I have seen tonight I mean. Do they sit up +very late at parties, or what is it?" + +"In the season, yes, but it is not that, it is our climate and our hot +closed-up rooms, and the impossibility of taking proper exercise. In +the summer you will not know them for the same faces." + +And then she kissed her goddaughter good-night, but just at the door +she paused. "You were not shocked about the Alexandrian dancers, I +hope, child?" she said. "If one knew the truth, they were poor people +who were starving, probably, and Gritzko paid them money and helped +them out of the kindness of his heart--those are the sort of things he +generally does I find when I investigate, so I never pay attention to +what he says." + +Tamara, left to herself, gazed into the glowing embers of her wood +fire. + +"I wonder--I wonder," she said. But what she wondered she hardly dared +admit--even to herself. + + + + +CHAPTER VII + + +The next day was the last of the Russian old year--the 13th of January +new style--and when Tamara appeared about ten o'clock in her +godmother's own sitting-room, a charming apartment full of the most +interesting miniatures and bibelots collected by the great Ardácheff, +friend of Catherine II., she found the Princess already busy at her +writing table. + +"Good-morning, my child," she said. "You behold me up and working at a +time when most of my countrywomen are not yet in their baths. We keep +late hours here in the winter, while it is dark and cold. You will get +quite accustomed to going to bed at two and rising at ten; but +to-night, if it pleases you to fall in with what is on the tapis for +you, I fear it will be even four in the morning before you sleep. +Prince Milaslávski has telephoned that he gives a party at his house on +the Fontonka, to dine first and then go on to a café to hear the +Bohemians sing. It is a peculiarity of the place these Bohemians--we +shall drink in the New Year and then go. It will not bore you. No? Then +it is decided," and she pressed a lovely little Faberger enamel bell +which lay on the table near, and one of the innumerable servants, who +seemed to be always waiting in the galleries, appeared. She spoke to +him in Russian, and then took up the telephone by her side, and +presently was in communication with the person she had called. + +"It is thou, Gritzko? Awake? Of course she is awake, and here in the +room. Yes, it is arranged--we dine--not until nine o'clock?--you cannot +be in before. Bon. Now promise you will be good.--Indeed, yes.--Of +course any English lady would be shocked at you--So!--I tell you she is +in the room--pray be more discreet," and she smiled at Tamara, and then +continued her conversation. "No, I will not talk in Russian, it is very +rude.--If you are not completely _sage_ at dinner we shall not go on.-- +I am serious! Well, good-bye,"--and with a laugh the Princess put the +receiver down. + +"He says nothing would shock you--he is sure you understand the world! +Well, we must amuse ourselves, and try and restrain him if he grows +too wild." + +"He is often wild, then?" Tamara said. + +The Princess rose and stood by the window looking out on the thickly +falling snow. + +"I am afraid--a little--yes, though never in the wrong situation; above +all things Gritzko is a gentleman; but sometimes I wish he would take +life less as a game. One cannot help speculating how it can end." + +"Has he no family?" Tamara asked. + +"No, everyone is dead. His mother worshipped him, but she died when he +was scarcely eighteen, and his father before that. His mother is his +adored memory. In all the mad scenes which he and his companions, I am +afraid, have enacted in the Fontonka house, there is one set of rooms +no one has dared to enter--her rooms--and he keeps flowers there, and +an ever-burning lamp. There is a strange touch of sentiment and +melancholy in Gritzko, and of religion too. Sometimes I think he is +unhappy, and then he goes off to his castle in the Caucasus or to +Milasláv, and no one sees him for weeks. Last year we hoped he would +marry a charming Polish girl--he quite paid her attention for several +nights; but he said she laughed one day when he felt sad, and answered +seriously when he was gay, and made crunching noises with her teeth +when she eat biscuits!--and her mother was fat and she might grow so +too! And for these serious reasons he could not face her at breakfast +for the rest of his life! Thus that came to an end. No one has any +influence upon him. I have given up trying. One must accept him as he +is, or leave him alone--he will go his own way." + +Tamara had ceased fighting with herself about the interest she took in +conversations relating to the Prince. She could not restrain her desire +to hear of him, but she explained it now by telling herself he was a +rather lurid and unusual foreign character, which must naturally be an +interesting study for a stranger. + +"It was an escape for the girl at least, perhaps," she said, when the +Princess paused. + +"Of that I am not sure; he is so tender to children and animals, and +his soul is full of generosity and poetry--and justice too. Poor +Gritzko," and the Princess sighed. + +Then Tamara remembered their conversation during their night ride from +the Sphinx, and she felt again the humiliating certainty of how +commonplace he must have found her. + +Presently the Princess took her to see the house. Every room filled +with relics of the grand owners who had gone before. There were +portraits of Peter the Great, and the splendid Catherine, in almost +every room. + +"An Empress so much misjudged in your country, Tamara," her godmother +said. "She had the soul and the necessities of a man, but she was truly +great." + +Tamara gazed up at the proud _débonnaire_ face, and she thought how at +home they would think of the most unconventional part of her character, +to the obliteration of all other aspects, and each moment she was +realizing how ridiculous and narrow was the view from the standpoint +from which she had been made to look at life. + +For luncheon quite a number of guests arrived, the Princess, she found +afterward, was hardly ever alone. + +"I don't care to go out, Tamara, as a rule, to déjeuner," she said, +"but I love my house to be filled with young people and mirth." + +The names were very difficult for Tamara to catch, especially as they +all called each other by their _petits noms_--all having been friends +since babyhood, if not, as often was the case, related by ties of +blood; but at last she began to know that "Olga" was the Countess +Gléboff, and "Sonia," the Princess Solentzeff-Zasiekin--both young, +under thirty, and both attractive and quite _sans gêne_. + +"Olga" was little and plump, with an oval face and rather prominent +eyes, but with a way of saying things which enchanted Tamara's ear. Her +manner was casualness itself, and had a wonderful charm; and another +thing struck her now that she saw them in daylight, not a single woman +present--and there were six or seven at least--had even the slightest +powder on her face. They were as nature made them, not the faintest aid +from art in any way. "They cannot be at all coquette like the French," +she thought, "or even like us in England, or they could not all do +their hair like that whether it suits them or no! But what charm they +have--much more than we, or the French, or any one I know." + +They were all so amusing and gay at lunch and talked of teeny scandals +with a whimsical humor at themselves for being so small, which was +delightful, and no one said anything spiteful or mean. Quantities of +pleasant things were planned, and Tamara found her days arranged for a +week ahead. + +That night, as they drove to Prince Milaslávski's dinner, an annoying +sense of excitement possessed Tamara. She refused to ask herself why. +Curiosity to see the house of this strange man--most likely--in any +case, emotion enough to make her eyes bright. + +It was one of the oldest houses in Petersburg, built in the time of +Catherine, about 1768, and although in a highly florid rococo style of +decoration, as though something gorgeous and barbaric had amalgamated +with the Louis XV., still it had escaped the terrible wave of 1850 +vandalism, and stood, except for a few Empire rooms, a monument of its +time. + +Everything about it interested Tamara. The strange Cossack servants in +the hall; the splendid staircase of stone and marble, and then finally +they reached the salons above. + +"One can see no woman lives here," she thought, though the one they +entered was comfortable enough. Huge English leather armchairs elbowed +some massively gilt seats of the time of Nicholas I., and an ugly +English high fender with its padded seat, surrounded the blazing log +fire. + +The guests were all assembled, but host, there was not! + +"What an impertinence to keep them waiting like this," Tamara thought! +However, no one seemed to mind but herself, and they all stood laughing +or sitting on the fender in the best of spirits. + +"I will bet you," said Olga Gléboff, in her attractive voice, "that +Gritzko comes in with no apology, and that we shall none of us be able +to drag from him where he has been!" + +As she spoke he entered the room. + +"Ah! you are all very early," he said, shaking their hands in frank +welcome. "So good of you, dear friends. Perhaps I am a little late, you +will forgive me, I know; and now for Zacouska, a wolf is tearing at my +vitals, I feel, and yours too. It is nine o'clock!" + +Then the dining-room doors at the side opened and they all went in _en +bande_, and gathered round the high table, where they began to eat like +hungry natural people, selecting the dishes they wanted. Some of the +men taking immense spoonfuls of caviare, and spreading them on bread, +like children with jam. All were so joyous and so perfectly without +ceremony. Nothing could be more agreeable than this society, Tamara +thought. + +Some of the men were elderly, and a number the husbands of the various +ladies; there were a few young officers and several diplomats from the +Embassies, too. But young or old, all were gay and ready to enjoy life. + +"You must taste some vodka, Madame," Prince Milaslávski said, pouring a +small glass at Tamara's side. "You will not like it, but it is Russian, +and you must learn. See I take some, too, and drink your health!" + +Tamara bowed and sipped the stuff, which she found very nasty, with a +whiff of ether in it. And then they all trouped to the large table in +this huge dining-hall. + +Tamara sat on her host's right hand, and Princess Sonia on his left. + +To-night his coat was brown and the underdress black, it was quite as +becoming as the others she had seen him in, with the strange belt and +gold and silver trimmings and the Eastern hang of it all, and his great +dark gray-blue eyes blazed at Tamara now and then with a challenge in +them she could hardly withstand. + +"Now tell us, Gritzko, what did you do in Egypt this year?" Princess +Sonia said. "It is the first time that no histories of your ways have +come to our ears--were you ill?--or bored? We feared you were dead." + +"On the contrary, I was greatly alive," he answered gravely. "I was +studying mummies and falling in love with the Sphinx. And just at the +end I had a most interesting kind of experience; I came upon what +looked like a woman, but turned out to be a mummy and later froze into +a block of ice!" + +"Gritzko!" they called in chorus. "Can anyone invent such impossible +stories as you!" + +"I assure you I am speaking the truth. Is it not so, Madame?" And he +looked at Tamara and smiled with fleeting merry mockery in his eyes. +"See," and he again turned to his guests, "Madame has been in Egypt she +tells me, and should be able to vouch for my truth." + +Tamara pulled herself together. + +"I think the Sphinx must have cast a spell over you, Prince," she said, +"so that you could not distinguish the real from the false. I saw no +women who were mummies and then turned into ice!" + +Some one distracted Princess Sonia's attention for a moment, and the +Prince whispered, "One can melt ice!" + +"To find a mummy?" Tamara asked with grave innocence. "That would be +the inverse rotation." + +"And lastly a woman--in one's arms," the Prince said. + +Tamara turned to her neighbor and became engrossed in his conversation +for the rest of the repast. + +All the women, and nearly all the men, spoke English perfectly, and +their good manners were such that even this large party talked in the +strange guest's language among themselves. + +"One must converse now as long as one can," her neighbor told her, +"because the moment we have had coffee everyone will play bridge, and +no further sense will be got out of them. We are a little behind the +rest of the world always in Petersburg, and while in England and Paris +this game has had its day, here we are still in its claws to a point of +madness, as Madame will see." + +And thus it fell about. + +Prince Milaslávski gave Tamara his arm and they found coffee awaiting +them in the salon when they returned there, and at once the rubbers +were made up. And with faces of grave pre-occupation this lately merry +company sat down to their game, leaving only the Prince and one lady +and Tamara unprovided for. + +"Yes, I can play," she had said, when she was asked, "but it bores me +so, and I do it so badly; may I not watch you instead?" + +The lady who made the third had not these ideas, and she sat down near +a table ready to cut in. Thus the host and his English guest were left +practically alone. + +"I did not mean you to play," he said, "I knew you couldn't--I arranged +it like this." + +"Why did you know I couldn't?" Tamara asked. "I am too stupid perhaps +you think!" + +"Yes--too stupid and--too sweet." + +"I am neither stupid--nor sweet!" and her eyes flashed. + +"Probably not, but you seem so to me.--Now don't get angry at once, it +makes our acquaintance so fatiguing, I have each time to be presented +over again." + +Then Tamara laughed. + +"It really is all very funny," she said. + +"And how is the estimable Mrs. Hardcastle?" he asked, when he had +laughed too--his joyous laugh. "This is a safe subject and we can sit +on the fender without your wanting to push me into the fire over it." + +"I am not at all sure of that," answered Tamara. She could not resist +his charm, she could not continue quarrelling with him; somehow it +seemed too difficult here in his own house, so she smiled as she went +on. "If you laugh at my Millicent, I shall get very angry indeed." + +"Laugh at your Millicent! The idea is miles from my brain--did not I +tell you when I could find a wife like that I would marry--what more +can I say!" and the Prince looked at her with supreme gravity. "Did she +tell 'Henry' that a devil of a Russian bear had got drunk and flung a +gipsy into the sea?" + +"Possibly. Why were you so--horrible that night?" + +"Was I horrible?" + +"Probably not, but you seemed so to me," Tamara quoted his late words. + +"I seem horrible--and you seem sweet." + +"Surely the stupid comes in too!" + +"Undoubtedly, but Russia will cure that, you will not go away for a +long time." + +"In less than four weeks." + +"We shall see," and the Prince got up and lit another cigarette. "You +do not smoke either? What a little good prude!" + +"I am not a prude!" Tamara's ire rose again. "I have tried often with +my brother Tom, and it always makes me sick. I would be a fool, not a +prude, to go on, would not I?" + +"I am not forcing you to smoke. I like your pretty teeth best as they +are!" + +Rebellion shook Tamara. It was his attitude toward her--one of supreme +unconcerned command--as though he had a perfect right to take his +pleasure out of her conversation, and play upon her emotions, according +to his mood. She could have boxed his ears. + +"How long ago is it since we danced in Egypt--a fortnight, or more? You +move well, but you don't know anything about dancing," he went on. +"Dancing is either a ridiculous jumping about of fools, who have no +more understanding of its meaning than a parcel of marionettes. Or it +is an expression of some sort of emotion. The Greeks understood that in +their Orchiesis, each feeling had its corresponding movement. For me it +means a number of things. When a woman is slender and pliant and smooth +of step, and if she pleases me otherwise, then it is not waste of +time!--Tonight I shall probably get drunk again," and he flicked the +ash off his cigarette with his little finger; and even though Tamara +was again annoyed with him, she could not help noticing that his hands +were fine and strong. + +"But you were not drunk on the ship--you could not even plead that," +she said, almost shocked at herself for speaking of anything so +horrible. + +"It is the same thing. I feel a mad supercharge of life--an +intoxication of the senses, perhaps. It has only one advantage over the +champagne result. I am steady on my feet, and my voice is not thick!" + +Tamara did not speak. + +"I wonder what this music we shall hear will say to you. Will it make +the milk and water you call blood in your veins race?--it will amuse me +to see." + +"I am not made for your amusement, Prince. How dare you always treat me +as you do?" And Tamara drew herself up haughtily. "And if my veins +contain milk and water, it is at least my own." + +"You dared me once before, Madame," he said, smiling provokingly. "Do +you think it is quite wise of you to try it again?" + +"I do not care if it is wise or no. I hate you!" almost hissed poor +Tamara. + +Then his eyes blazed, as she had never seen them yet. He moved nearer +to her, and spoke in a low concentrated voice. + +"It is a challenge. Good. Now listen to what I say. In a little short +time you shall love me. That haughty little head shall lie here on my +breast without a struggle, and I shall kiss your lips until you cannot +breathe." + +For the second time in her life Tamara went dead white--he saw her pale +even to her lips. And since the moment was not yet, and since his mood +was not now to make her suffer, he bent over with contrition and asked +her to forgive him in a tender voice. + +"Madame--I am only joking--but I am a brute," he said. + +Tamara rose and walked to the bridge tables, furious with herself that +he could have seen his power over her, even though it were only to +cause rage. + +He came up behind her and sat down and began to talk nicely again-- +about the sights to be seen in the capital, and the interesting +museums and collections of pictures and arms. Nothing could be more +correct than his manner, and the bridge players who were within earshot +smiled, while Countess Olga thought. + +"Either Gritzko has just been making love to the Englishwoman, or he is +immensely bored--The latter from his face." + + + + +CHAPTER VIII + + +The company stopped their game about a quarter to twelve, and tables +and champagne and glasses were brought in, and hand in hand they made a +circle and drank in the New Year. + +Tamara took care to stand by Princess Ardácheff, but her host looked at +her as he raised his glass. Then they descended to the hall, and were +wrapped in their furs again to go to the café where the Bohemians were +to sing. + +Tamara and the Princess were already in the latter's coupé when Prince +Milaslávski called out: "Tantine--! take me too--I am slim and can sit +between you, and I want to arrive soon, I have sent my motor on with +Serge and Valonne." + +And without waiting he got in. + +They had to sit very close, and Tamara became incensed with herself, +because in spite of all her late rage with the Prince, she experienced +a sensation which was disturbing and unknown. The magnetic personality +of the man was so strong. He bent and whispered something to the +Princess, and then as though sharing a secret, he leaned the other way, +and whispered to Tamara, too. The words were nothing, only some +ordinary nonsense, of which she took no heed. But as he spoke his lips +touched her ear. A wild thrill ran through her, she almost trembled, so +violent was the emotion the little seemingly accidental caress caused. +A feeling she had never realized in the whole of her life before. Why +did he tease her so. Why did he always behave in this maddening manner! +and choose moments when she was defenseless and could make no move. Of +one thing she was certain, if she should stay on in Russia she must +come to some understanding with him if possible, and prevent any more +of these ways--absolutely insulting to her self-respect. + +So she shrunk back in her corner and gave no reply. + +"Are you angry with me?" he whispered. "It was the shaking of the +automobile which caused me to come too near you. Forgive me, I will try +not to sin again,"--but as he spoke he repeated his offense! + +Tamara clasped her hands together, tightly, and answered in the coldest +voice-- + +"I did not notice anything, Prince, it must be a guilty conscience +which causes you to apologize." + +"In that case then all is well!" and he laughed softly. + +The Princess now joined in the conversation. + +"Gritzko, you must tell Mrs. Loraine how these gipsies are, and what +she will hear--she will think it otherwise so strange." + +He turned to Tamara at once. + +"They are a queer people who dwell in a clan. They sing like the +fiend--one hates it or loves it, but it gets on the nerves, and if a +man should fancy one of them, he must pay the chief, not the girl. Then +they are faithful and money won't tempt them away. But if the man makes +them jealous, they run a knife into his back." + +"It sounds exciting at all events," Tamara said. + +"It is an acquired taste, and if you have a particularly sensitive ear +the music will make you feel inclined to scream. It drives me mad." + +"Gritzko," the Princess whispered to him. "You promise to be _sage_, +dear boy, do you not? Sometimes you alarm me when you go too far." + +"Tantine!" and he kissed her hand. "Your words are law!" + +"Alas! if that were only true," she said with a sigh. + +"Tonight all shall be suited to the eleven thousand virgins!" and he +laughed. "Or shall I say suited to an English _grande dame_--which is +the same!" + +They had crossed the Neva by now, and presently arrived at a building +with a gloomy looking door, and so to a dingy hall, in which a few +waiters were scurrying about. They seemed to go through endless shabby +passages, like those of a lunatic asylum, and finally arrived at a +large and empty room--empty so far as people were concerned--for at the +end there were sofas and a long narrow table, and a few smaller ones +with chairs. + +The tables were already laid, with dishes of raw ham and salted almonds +and various _bonnes bouches_, while brilliant candelabra shone amidst +numerous bottles of champagne. + +The company seemed to have forgotten the gloom that playing bridge had +brought over them, and were as gay again as one could wish, while +divesting themselves of their furs and snow-boots. + +And soon Tamara found herself seated on the middle sofa behind the long +table, Count Gléboff on her right, and the French Secretary, Count +Valonne, at her left, while beyond him was Princess Sonia, and near by +all the rest. + +Their host stood up in front, a brimming glass in his hand. + +Then there filed in about twenty-five of the most unattractive +animal-looking females, dressed in ordinary hideous clothes, who all +took their seats on a row of chairs at the farther end. They wore no +national costume nor anything to attract the eye, but were simply +garbed as concierges or shop-girls might have been; and some were old, +gray-haired women, and one had even a swollen face tied up in a black +scarf! How could it be possible that any of these could be the "fancy" +of a man! + +They were followed by about ten dark, beetle-browed males, who carried +guitars. + +These were the famous Bohemians! Their appearance at all events was +disillusioning enough. Tamara's disappointment was immense. + +But presently when they began to sing she realized that there was +something--something in their music--even though it was of an intense +unrest. + +She found it was the custom for them to sing a weird chant song on the +name of each guest, and every one must drink to this guest's health, +all standing, and quaffing the glasses of champagne down at one +draught. + +That they all remained sober at the end of the evening seemed to do +great credit to their heads, for Tamara, completely unaccustomed to the +smoke and the warm room, feared even to sip at her glass. + +The toasting over, every one sat down, Prince Milaslávski and a Pole +being the only two in front of the table, and they with immense spirit +chaffed the company, and called the tunes. + +The music was of the most wild, a queer metallic sound, and the airs +were full of unexpected harmonies and nerve-racking chords. It fired +the sense, in spite of the hideous singers. + +They all sat there with perfectly immovable faces and entirely still +hands,--singing without gesticulations what were evidently passionate +love-songs! Nothing could have been more incongruous or grotesque! + +But the fascination of it grew and grew. Every one of their ugly faces +remained printed on Tamara's brain. Long afterward she would see them +in dreams. + +How little we yet know of the force of sounds! How little we know of +any of the great currents which affect the world and human life! + +And music above any other art stirs the sense. Probably the Greek myth +of Orpheus and his lute was not a myth after all; perhaps Orpheus had +mastered the occult knowledge of this great power. Surely it would be +worth some learned scientist's while to investigate from a +psychological point of view how it is, and why it is, that certain +chords cause certain emotions, and give base or elevating visions to +human souls. + +The music of these gipsies was of the devil, it seemed to Tamara, and +she was not surprised at the wild look in Prince Milaslávski's eyes, +for she herself--she, well brought up, conventionally crushed English +Tamara,--felt a strange quickening of the pulse. + +After an hour or so of this music, two of the younger Bohemian women +began to dance, not in the least with the movements that had shocked +Mrs. Hardcastle in the Alexandrian troupe on the ship, but a foolish +valsing, while the shoulders rose and fell and quivered like the +flapping wings of some bird. The shoulders seemed the talented part, +not the body or hips. + +And then about three o'clock the entire troupe filed out of the room +for refreshment and rest. The atmosphere was thick with smoke, and +heated to an incredible extent. Some one started to play the piano, and +every one began to dance a wild round--a mazurka, perhaps--and Tamara +found herself clasped tightly in the arms of her Prince. + +She did not know the step, but they valsed to the tune, and all the +time he was whispering mad things in Russian in her ear. She could not +correct him, because she did not know what they might mean. + +"Doushka," he said at last. "So you are awake; so it is not milk and +water after all in those pretty blue veins! God! I will teach you to +live!" + +And Tamara was not angry; she felt nothing except an unreasoning +pleasure and exultation. + +The amateur bandsman came to a stop, and another took his place; but +the spell fortunately was broken, and she could pull herself together +and return to sane ways. + +"I am tired," she said, when the Prince would have gone on, "and I am +almost faint for want of air." So he opened a window and left her for a +moment in peace. + +She danced again with the first man who asked her, going quickly from +one to another so as to avoid having to be too often held by the +Prince. But each time she felt his arm round her, back again would +steal the delicious mad thrill. + +"I hope you are amusing yourself, dear child," her godmother said. +"This is a Russian scene; you would not see it in any other land." + +And indeed Tamara was happy, in spite of her agitation and unrest. + +She sat down now with Olga Gléboff, and they watched the others while +they took breath. The Prince was dancing with Princess Shébanoff, and +her charming face was turned up to him with an adoring smile. + +"Poor Tatiane,--" Countess Olga said low to herself. + +When the gipsies returned, their music grew wilder than ever, and some +of the solos seemed to touch responsive chords in Tamara's very bones. + +The Prince sat next her on the sofa now, and every few moments he would +bend over to take an almond, or light a cigarette, so that he touched +her apparently without intention, but nevertheless with intent. And the +same new and intoxicating sensation would steal through her, and she +would draw her slender figure away and try to be stiff and severe, but +with no effect. + +It was long after five o'clock before it was all done, and they began +to wrap up and say "Goodnight." And the troupe, bowing, went out to +another engagement they had. + +"They sing all night and sleep in the day," Count Gléboff told Tamara, +as they descended the stairs. "At this time of the year they never see +daylight, only sometimes the dawn." + +"Tantine," said the Prince, "order your motor to go back. I sent for my +troika, and it is here. We must show Madame Loraine what a sleigh feels +like." + +And the Princess agreed. + +Oh! the pleasure Tamara found when presently they were flying over the +snow, the side horses galloping with swift, sure feet. And under the +furs she and her godmother felt no cold, while Gritzko, this wild +Prince, sat facing them, his splendid eyes ablaze. + +Presently they stopped and looked out on the Gulf of Finland and a vast +view. Above were countless stars and a young, rising moon. + +It was striking seven as they went to their rooms. + +Such was Tamara's first outing in this land of the North. + + + + +CHAPTER IX + + +Six days went past before Tamara again saw the Prince. Whether he was +busy or kept away because he wished to, she did not know--and would not +ask--but a piqued sensation gradually began to rise as she thought of +him. + +"I must arrange for you to go to Tsarsköi-Sélo to see the ceremony of +the Emperor blessing the waters on the 6th of our January, Tamara," her +godmother said, a day or two after the Bohemian feast. "I have seen it +so often, and I do not wish to stand about in the cold, but Sonia's +husband is one of the aides-de-camp, and, as you know, she lives at +Tsarsköi. Olga is going out there, and will take you with her, and you +three can go on; it will interest you, I am sure." + +And Tamara had gladly acquiesced. + +Tsarsköi-Sélo, which they reached after half an hour's train, seemed +such a quaint place to her. Like some summer resort made up of wooden +villas, only now they were all covered with snow. She and Countess +Olga had gone together to Princess Sonia's house, and from there to the +palace grounds, where they followed snow-cleared paths to a sort of +little temple near the lake, where they were allowed to stand just +outside the line of Cossacks and watch for the coming procession. + +The sky was heavy, and soon the snow began to fall intermittently in +big, fluffy flakes. This background of white showed up the brilliant +scarlet uniforms of the escort. Standing in long rows, they were an +imposing sight. And Tamara admired their attractive faces, many so much +more finely cut than the guards further on. They wore fierce beards, +and they all seemed to be extremely tall and slim, with waists which +would not have disgraced a girl. And, at the end of the line at the +corner where they stood, she suddenly saw the Prince. He was talking to +some other officers, and apparently did not see them. Tamara grew angry +with herself at finding how the very sight of him moved her. The +procession, soon seen advancing, was as a lesser interest, her whole +real concentration being upon one scarlet form. + +From the time the signal was given that the Emperor had started from +the palace all the heads were bare--bare in a temperature many degrees +below freezing and in falling snow! It was the Prince who gave the word +of command, and while he stood at attention she watched his face. It +was severe and rigid, like the face of a statue. On duty he was +evidently a different creature from the wild Gritzko of gipsy suppers. +But there was no use arguing with herself--he attracted her in every +case. + +Then the procession advanced, and she looked at it with growing +amazement. This wonderful nation! so full of superstition and yet of +common sense. It seemed astonishing that grown-up people should +seriously assist at this ceremony of sentiment. + +First came the choir-boys with thick coats covering their scarlet +gowns; then a company of singing men; then the priests in their +magnificent robes of gold and silver, and then the Emperor, alone and +bareheaded. Afterward followed the Grand Dukes and the standard of +every guard regiment and finally all the aides-de-camps. + +When the Emperor passed she glanced again at the Prince. The setness of +his face had given place to a look of devotion. There was evidently a +great love for his master in his strange soul. When the last figure had +moved beyond the little temple corner, the tension of all was relaxed, +and they stood at ease again, and Gritzko appeared to perceive the +party of ladies, and smiled. + +"I am coming to get some hot coffee after lunch, Sonia," he called out. +"I promised Marie." + +"Does it not give them cold?" Tamara asked, as she looked at the +Cossacks' almost shaven bare heads. "And they have no great-coats on! +What can they be made of, poor things?" + +"They get accustomed to it, and it is not at all cold to-day, +fortunately," Countess Olga said. "They would have their furs on if it +were. Don't you think they are splendid men? I love to see them in +their scarlet; they only wear it on special occasions and when they are +with the Emperor, or at Court balls or birthdays. I am so glad you see +Gritzko in his." + +Tamara did not say she had already seen the Prince in the scarlet coat; +none of her new friends were aware that they had met before in Egypt. + +All this time the guns were firing, and soon the ceremony of dipping +the cross in the water was over, and the procession started back again. + +It was the same as when it came, only the priests were wiping the cross +in a napkin, and presently all passed out of sight toward the palace, +and the three ladies walked quickly back to the waiting sleigh, +half-frozen with cold. + +About ten minutes after they had finished lunch, and were sitting at +coffee in Princess Sonia's cosy salon--so fresh and charming and like +an English country house--they heard a good deal of noise in the +passage, and the Prince came in. He was followed by a sturdy boy of +eight, and carried in his arms a tiny girl, whose poor small body +looked wizened, while in her little arms she held a crutch. + +"We met in the hall--my friend Marie and I," he said, as he bent to +kiss Princess Sonia's hand, and then the other two ladies', "and we +have a great deal to say to one another." + +"These are my children, Mrs. Loraine," Princess Sonia said. "They were +coming down to see you; but now Gritzko has appeared we shall receive +no attention, I fear," and she laughed happily, while the little boy +came forward, and with beautiful manners kissed Tamara's hand. + +"You are an English lady," he said, without the slightest accent. "Have +you a little boy, too?" + +Tamara was obliged to own she had no children, which he seemed to think +very unfortunate. + +"Marie always has to have her own way, but while she is with Gritzko +she is generally good," he announced. + +"How splendidly you speak English!" Tamara said. "And only eight years +old! I suppose you can talk French, too, as well as Russian?" + +"Naturally, of course," he replied, with fine contempt. "But I'll tell +you something--German I do very badly. We have a German governess, and +I hate her. Her mouth is too full of teeth." + +"That certainly is a disadvantage," Tamara agreed. + +"When Gritzko gets up with us he makes her in a fine rage! She +spluttered so at him last week the bottom row fell out. We were glad!" + +Princess Sonia now interrupted: "What are you saying, Peter?" she +said. "Poor Fräulein! You know I shall have to forbid Gritzko from +going to tea with you. You are all so naughty when you get together!" + +There was at once a fierce scream from the other side of the room. + +"Maman! we will have Gritzko to tea! I love him!--Je l'aime!" and the +poor crippled tiny Marie nearly strangled her friend with a frantic +embrace. + +"You see, Maman, we defy you!" the Prince said, when he could speak. + +The little boy now joined his sister, and both soon shrieked with +laughter over some impossible tale which was being poured into their +ears; and Princess Sonia said softly to Tamara: + +"He is too wonderful with children--Gritzko--when he happens to like +them--isn't he, Olga? All of ours simply adore him, and I can never +tell you of his goodness and gentleness to Marie last year when she had +her dreadful accident. The poor little one will be well some day, we +hope, and so I do not allow myself to be sad about it; but it was a +terrible grief." + +Tamara looked her sympathy, while she murmured a few words. Princess +Sonia was such a sweet and charming lady. + +More visitors now came in, and they all drank their coffee and tea, but +the Prince paid no attention to any one beyond casual greetings; he +continued his absorbing conversation with his small friends. + +Tamara was surprised at this new side of him. It touched her. And he +was such a gloriously good-looking picture as he sat there in his +scarlet coat, while Marie played with the silver cartridges across his +breast, and Peter with his dagger. + +When she and Countess Olga left to catch an early afternoon train he +came too. He had to be back in Petersburg, he said. Nothing could look +more desolate than the tracts of country seen from the train windows, +so near the capital and yet wild, uncultivated spaces, part almost like +a marsh. There seemed to be nothing living but the lonely soldiers who +guarded the Royal line a hundred yards or so off. It depressed Tamara +as she gazed out, and she unconsciously sighed, while a sad look came +into her eyes. + +The Prince and Countess Olga and another officer, who had joined them, +were all chaffing gaily while they smoked their cigarettes, but Gritzko +appeared to be aware of everything that was passing, for he suddenly +bent over and whispered to Tamara: + +"Madame, when you have been here long enough you will learn never to +see what you do not wish." Then he turned back to the others, and +laughed again. + +What did he mean? she wondered. Were there many things then to which +one must shut one's eyes? + +She now caught part of the conversation that was going on. + +"But why won't you come, Gritzko?" Countess Olga was saying. "It will +be most amusing--and the prizes are lovely, Tatiane, who has seen them, +says." + +"I?--to be glued to a bridge table for three solid evenings. Mon Dieu!" +the Prince cried. "Having to take what partner falls to one's lot! No +choice! My heavens! nothing would drag me. Whatever game I play in +life, I will select my lady myself." + +"You _are_ tiresome!" Countess Olga said. When they got to the station +the Princess's coupé was waiting, as well as the Gléboff sleigh. + +"Good-bye, and a thousand thanks for taking me," Tamara said, and they +waved as Countess Olga drove off. And then the Prince handed her into +the coupé and asked her if she would drop him on the way. + +For some time after they were settled under the furs and rushing along, +he seemed very silent, and when Tamara ventured a few remarks he +answered mechanically. At last after a while: + +"You are going to this bridge tournament at the Varishkine's, I +suppose?" he suddenly said. "It ought to be just your affair." + +"Why my affair?" Tamara asked, annoyed. "I hate bridge." + +"So you do. I forgot. But Tantine will take you, all the same. Perhaps, +if nothing more amusing turns up, I will drop in one night and see; +but--wheugh!" and he stretched himself and spread out his hands--"I +have been impossibly _sage_ for over a fortnight. I believe I must soon +break out." + +"What does that mean, Prince--to 'break out'?" + +"It means to throw off civilized things and be as mad as one is +inclined," and he smiled mockingly while some queer, restless spirit +dwelt in his eyes. "I always break out when things make me think, and +just now--in the train--when you looked at the sad country----" + +"That made you think?" said Tamara, surprised. + +"Well--never mind, good little angel. And now good-bye," and he kissed +her hand lightly and jumped out; they had arrived at his house. + +Tamara drove on to the Serguiefskaia with a great desire to see him +again in her heart. + + * * * * * + +And so the days passed and the hours flew. Tamara had been in Russia +almost three weeks; and since the blessing of the waters the time had +been taken up with a continual round of small entertainments. The Court +mourning prevented as yet any great balls; but there were receptions, +and "bridges" and dinners, and night after night they saw the same +people, and Tamara got to know them fairly well. But after the +excursion to Tsarsköi-Sélo for several days she did not see the +Prince. His military duties took up his whole time, her godmother said. +And when at last he did come it was among a crowd, and there was no +possible chance of speech. + +"This bores me," he announced when he found the room full of people, +and he left in ten minutes, and they did not see him again for a week, +when they met him at a dinner at the English Embassy. + +Then he seemed cool and respectful and almost commonplace, and Tamara +felt none of the satisfaction she should have done from this changed +order of things. + +At the bridge tournament he made no appearance whatever. + +"Why do we see Prince Milaslávski so seldom when we go out, Marraine?" +she asked her godmother one day. "I thought all these people were his +intimate friends!" + +"So they are, dear; but Gritzko is an odd creature," the Princess said. +"He asked me once if I thought he was an _imbécile_ or a performing +monkey, when I reproached him for not being at the balls. He only goes +out when he is so disposed. If some one person amuses him, or if he +suddenly wants to see us all. It is merely by fits and starts--always +from the point of view of if he feels inclined, never from the +observance of any social law, or from obligation." + +"Why on earth do you put up with such manners?" Tamara exclaimed with +irritation. + +"I do not know. We might not in any one else, but Gritzko is a +privileged person," the Princess said. "You can't imagine, of course, +dear, because you do not know him well enough, but he has ways and +_façons_ of coaxing. He will do the most outrageous things, and make me +very angry, and then he will come and put his head in my lap like a +child, and kiss my hands, and call me 'Tantine,' and, old woman as I +am, I cannot resist him. And if one is unhappy or ill, no one can be +more tender and devoted." Then she added dreamily:--"While as a lover I +should think he must be quite divine." + +Tamara took another cup of tea and looked into the fire. She was +ashamed to show how this conversation interested her. + +"Tatiane Shébanoff is madly in love with him, poor thing, and I do not +believe he has ever given her any real encouragement," the Princess +continued. "I have seen him come to a ball, and when all the young +women are longing for him to ask them to dance, he will go off with me, +or old Countess Nivenska, and sit talking half the night, apparently +unaware of any one else's presence." + +"It seems he must be the most exasperating, tiresome person one has +ever heard of, Marraine," Tamara exclaimed. "He rides over you all, and +you cannot even be angry, and continually forgive him." + +"But then he has his serious side," the Princess went on, eager to +defend her favorite. "He is now probably studying some deep military +problem all this time, and that is why we have not seen him,"--and then +noticing the scornful pose of Tamara's head she laughed. "Don't be so +contemptuous, dear child," she--said. "Perhaps you too will understand +some day." + +"That is not very likely," Tamara said. + +But alas! for the Princess' optimistic surmises as to the Prince's +occupations, a rumor spread toward the end of the week of the maddest +orgie which had taken place at the Fontonka house. It sounded like a +phantasmagoria in which unclothed dancers, and wild beasts, and +unheard-of feats seemed to float about. And the Princess sighed as she +refuted the gossip it caused. + +"Oh, my poor Gritzko! if he might only even for a while remain in a +state of grace," she said. + +And Tamara's interest in him, in spite of her shocked contempt, did not +decrease. + +And so the time went on. + +She was gradually growing to know the society better, and to get a peep +at the national point of view. They were a wonderfully uncomplex +people, with the perfect ease which only those at the bottom of the +social ladder who have not started to climb at all, and those who have +reached the top, like these, can have. They were casually friendly when +the strangers pleased them, and completely unimpressed with their +intrinsic worth if they did not. They seemed to see in a moment the +shades in people, and only to select the best. And when Tamara came to +talk seriously with even the most apparently frivolous, she found they +all had the same trace of vague melancholy and mystery, as though they +were grasping in the dark for something spiritual they wished to seize. +Their views and boundaries of principles in action seemed to be +limitless, just as their vast country seems to have no landmarks for +miles. One could imagine the unexpected happening in any of their +lives. And the charm and fascination of them continued to increase. + +It was late one afternoon when Prince Milaslávski again came +prominently into view on Tamara's horizon. + +She was sitting alone reading in the blue salon when he walked +unceremoniously in. + +"Give me some tea, Madame," he said. "The Princess met me in the hall, +and told me I should find you here; so now let us begin by this." + +Tamara poured it out and leaned back in the sofa below the beautiful +Falconet group, which made--and makes--the glory of the blue salon in +the Ardácheff House. She felt serene. These two weeks of unawakened +emotions and just pleasant entertainments since the day at Tsarsköi had +given her fresh poise. + +"And what do you think of us by now, Madame?" he asked. + +"I think you are a strange band," she said. "You are extremely +intellectual, you are brilliant, and yet in five minutes all +intelligence can fade out of your faces, and all interest from your +talks, and you fly to bridge." + +"It is because we are primitive and unspoilt; this is our new toy, and +we must play with it; the excitement will wane, and a fresh one +come----" he paused and then went on in another tone-- + +"You in England have many outlets for your supervitality--you cannot +judge of other nations who have not. You had a magnificent system of +government. It took you about eight hundred years to build up, and it +was the admiration of the world--and now you are allowing your +Socialists and ignorant plebeian place hunters to pull it all to pieces +and throw it away. That is more foolish surely, than even to go crazy +over bridge!" + +Tamara sighed. + +"Have you ever been in England, Prince?" she asked. + +He sat down on the sofa beside her. + +"No--but one day I shall go, Paris is as far as I have got on the road +as yet." + +"You would think us all very dull, I expect, and calculating and +restrained," Tamara said softly. "You might like the hunting, but +somehow I do not see you in the picture there--" + +He got up and moved restlessly to the mantlepiece, where he leaned, +while he stirred his tea absently. There was almost an air of bravado +in the insouciant tone of his next remark-- + +"Do you know, I did a dreadful thing," he said. "And it has grieved me +terribly, and I must have your sympathy. I hurt my Arab horse. You +remember him, Suliman, at the Sphinx?" + +"Yes," said Tamara. + +"I had a little party to some of my friends, and we were rather gay-- +not a party you would have approved of, but one which pleased us all +the same--and they dared me to ride Suliman from the stables to the big +saloon." + +"And I suppose you did?" Tamara's voice was full of contempt. + +He noticed the tone, and went on defiantly: + +"Of course; that was easy; only the devil of a carpet made him trip at +the bottom again, and he has strained two of his beautiful feet. But +you should have seen him!" he went on proudly. "As dainty as the finest +gentleman in and out the chairs, and his great success was putting his +forelegs on the fender seat!" + +"How you have missed your metiér!" Tamara said, and she leant back in +her sofa and surveyed him as he stood, a graceful tall figure in his +blue long coat. "Think of the triumph you would have in a Hippodrome!" + +He straightened himself suddenly, his great eyes flashed, and over his +face came a fierceness she had not guessed. + +"I thought you had melted a little--here in our snow, but I see it is +the mummy there all the same," he said. + +Tamara laughed. For the first time it was she who held the reins. + +"Even to the wrappings,"--and she gently kicked out the soft gray folds +of her skirt. + +He took a step nearer her, and then he stood still, and while the +fierceness remained in his face, his eyes were full of pain. + +She glanced up at him, and over her came almost a sense of indignation +that he should so unworthily pass his time. + +"How you waste your life!" she said. "Oh! think to be a man, and free, +and a great landowner. To have thousands of peasants dependent upon +one's frown. To have the opportunity of lifting them into something +useful and good. And to spend one's hours and find one's pleasure in +such things as this! Riding one's favorite horse at the risk of its and +one's own neck, up and down the stairs. Ah! I congratulate you, +Prince!" + +He drew himself up again, as if she had hit him, and the pain in his +eyes turned to flame. + +"I allow no one to criticize my conduct," he said. "If it amused me to +ride a bear into this room and let it eat you up, I would not +hesitate." + +"I do not doubt it," and Tamara laughed scornfully. "It would be in a +piece with all the rest." + +He raised his head with an angry toss, and then they looked at each +other like two fighting cats, when fortunately the door opened, and the +Princess came in. + +In a moment he had laughed, and resumed his habitually insouciant mien. + +"Madame has been reading me a lecture," he said. "She thinks I am +wasted in the Emperor's escort, and a circus is my place." + +Tamara did not speak. + +"Why do you seem always to quarrel so, Gritzko?" the Princess said, +plaintively. "It really quite upsets me, dear boy." + +"You must not worry, Tantine," and he kissed the Princess' hand. "We +don't quarrel; we are the best of friends; only we tell one another +home truths. I came this afternoon to ask you if you will come to +Milasláv next week. I think Madame ought to see Moscow, and we might +make an excursion from there just for a night," and he looked at Tamara +with a lifting of the brows. + +"Then, Tantine, she could see how I cow my peasants with a knout, and +grind them to starvation. It would be an interesting picture for her to +take back to England." + +"I should enjoy all that immensely, of course," Tamara said, +pleasantly. "Many thanks, Prince." + +"I shall be so honored," and he bowed politely; then, turning to the +Princess: "You will settle it, won't you, Tantine?" + +"I will look at our engagements, dear boy. We will try to arrange it. I +can tell you at the ballet," and the Princess smiled encouragingly up +at him. "My godchild has not seen our national dancing yet, so we go +to-night with Prince Miklefski and Valonne." + +"Then it is au revoir," he said, and kissing their hands he left them. + +When the door was shut and they were alone. + +"Tamara, what had you said to Gritzko to move him so?" the Princess +asked. "I, who know every line of his face, tell you I have not seen +him so moved since his mother's death." + +So Tamara told her, describing the scene. + +"My dear, you touched him in a tender spot," her godmother said. "His +mother was a saint almost to those people at Milasláv; they worshipped +her. She was very beautiful and very sweet, and after her husband's +death she spent nearly all her life there. She started schools to teach +the peasants useful things, and she encouraged them and cared for their +health; and her great wish was that Gritzko should carry out her +schemes. She was no advanced Liberal, the late Princess, but she had +such a tender heart, she longed to bring happiness to those in her +keeping, and teach them to find happiness themselves." + +"And he has let it all slide, I suppose," Tamara said. + +"Well, not exactly that," and the Princess sighed deeply; "but I dare +say these over gay companions of his do not leave him much time for the +arrangement such things require. Ah! if you knew, Tamara," she went on, +"how fond I am of that boy, and how I feel the great and noble parts of +his character are running to waste, you would understand my grief." + +"You are so kind, dear Marraine," Tamara said. "But surely he must be +very weak." + +"No, he is not weak; it is a dare-devil wild strain in him that seems +as if it must out. He has a will of iron, and never breaks his word; +only to get him to be serious, or give his word, is as yet an +unaccomplished task. I sometimes think if a great love could come into +his life it would save him--his whole soul could wake to that." + +Tamara looked down and clasped her hands. + +"But it does not seem likely to happen, does it, Marraine?" + +The Princess sighed again. + +"I would like him to love you, dear child," she said; and then as +Tamara did not answer she went on softly almost to herself: "My brother +Alexis was just such another as Gritzko. That season he spent with me +in London, when your mother and I were young, he played all sorts of +wild pranks. We three were always together. He was killed in a duel +after, you know. It was all very sad." + +Tamara stroked her godmother's hand. + +"Dear, dear Marraine," she said. + +Then they checked sentiment and went to dress for dinner, arm in arm. +They had grown real friends in these three short weeks. + + + + +CHAPTER X + + +The scene at the ballet was most brilliant, as it is always on a Sunday +night. The great auditorium, with its blue silk-curtained boxes, the +mass of glittering uniforms, and the ladies in evening-dress, although +they were all in black, made a gay spectacle almost like a gala night. +Then it is so delightful to have one's eyes pleased with what is on the +stage and yet be able to talk. + +But Tamara, as she sat and looked at it, was not enjoying herself. She +was overcome with a vague feeling of unrest. She hated having to admit +that the Prince was the cause of it. She could not look ahead; she was +full of fear. She knew now that when he was near her she experienced +certain emotion, that he absorbed far too much of her thoughts. He did +not really care for her probably, and if he did, how could one hope to +be happy with such a wild, fierce man? No, she must control herself; +she must conquer his influence over her, and if she could not she +could at least go away. England seemed very uninteresting and calm--and +safe! + +Filled with these sage resolutions she tried to fix her eyes on the +stage, but unconsciously they continually strayed to a tall blue figure +which was seated in the front row of the stalls with a number of +officers of the Chevaliers Gardes. And when the curtain went down,--and +instead of the Prince joining them in the box, as she fully expected he +would do, he calmly leaned against the orchestra division and surveyed +the house with his glasses--she felt a sudden pang, and talked as best +she might to the many friends who thronged to pay the Princess court. + +Gritzko did not even glance their way! he stood laughing with his +comrades, and it would have been impossible to imagine anything more +insouciant and attractive and provoking than the creature looked. + +"No wonder Tatiane Shébanoff is in love with him--or that actress--or-- +the rest!" Tamara thought. + +And then a wave of rage swept over her. She at least would not give in +and join this throng! To be his plaything. _She would_ be mistress of +herself and her thoughts! + +But alas! all these emotions not unmixed with pique, spoilt the +ballet's second act! + +For the interval after it, the two ladies got up and went into the +little ante-chamber beyond the box. Tamara was glad. There she could +not see what this annoying Prince would do. + +What he did do was to open the door in a few minutes and saunter in. He +greeted Tamara with polite indifference, and having calmly displaced +Count Valonne, sat down by the Princess' side. + +Valonne was a charming person, and he and Tamara were great friends. He +chatted on now, and she smiled at him, but with ears preternaturally +sharpened she heard the conversation of the other pair. + +It was this. + +"Tantine, I am feeling the absolute devil tonight. Will you come and +have supper with me after this infernal ballet is over?" + +"Gritzko--what is it? Something has disturbed you!" + +He leant forward and rested his chin on his hands. "Well, your haughty +guest touched me with too sharp a spur, perhaps," he said, "but she was +right. I do waste my life. I have been thinking of my mother. I believe +she might not be pleased with me sometimes. And then I felt mad, and +now I must do something to forget. So if you won't sup--" + +"Oh! Gritzko!" the Princess said. + +"I telephoned home and ordered things to be ready. I know you don't +like a restaurant. Say you will come," and he kissed her hand. "I have +asked all the rest." And the Princess had to consent! + +"You must promise not to quarrel any more with my godchild if we do. I +am sure you frighten and upset her, Gritzko--promise me," she said. He +laughed. + +"I upset her! She is too cold and good to be upset!" + +Tamara still continued to talk to Valonne, and presently they all moved +into the box, and the Prince sat down beside her, and again as he +leaned over in the shaded light that nameless physical thrill crept +over her. Was she really cold, she asked herself. If so, why should she +shiver as she was shivering now? + +"I wonder if you have any heart at all, Madame?" he said. "If under the +mummy's wrappings there is some flesh and blood?" + +Then she turned and answered him with passion. "Of course there is," +she said. + +He bent over still nearer. "Just for to-night, shall we not quarrel or +spar?" he whispered. "See, I will treat you as a sister and friend. I +want to be petted and spoilt--I am sad." + +Tamara, of course, melted at once! His extraordinarily attractive voice +was very deep and had a note in it which touched her heart. + +"Please don't be sad," she said softly. "Perhaps you think I was unkind +to-day, but indeed it was only because--Oh! because it seemed to me +such waste that you--you should be like that." + +"It hurt like the fiend, you know," he said, "the thought of the damned +circus. I think we are particularly sensitive as a race to those sort +of things. If you had been a man I would have killed you." + +"I hated to hear what you told me," and Tamara looked down. "It seemed +so dreadful--so barbaric--and so childish for a man who really has a +brain. If you were just an animal person like some of the others are, +it would not have mattered; but you--please I would like you never to +do any of these mad things again--" + +Then she stopped suddenly and grew tenderly pink. She realized the +inference he must read in her words. + +He did not speak for a moment, only devoured her with his great +blue-gray eyes. Of what he was thinking she did not know. It made her +uncomfortable and a little ashamed. Why had she melted, it was never +any use. So she drew herself up stiffly and leaned back in her seat. + +Then down at the side by the folds of her dress he caught her hand +while he said quite low: + +"Madame, I must know--do you mean that?" + +"Yes," she said, and tried to take away her hand. "Yes, I mean that I +think it dreadful for any human being to throw things away--and Oh! I +would like you to be very great." + +He did not let go her hand, indeed he held it the more tightly. + +"You are a dear after all, and I will try," he said. "And when I have +pleased you you must give me a reward." + +"Alas! What reward could I give you, Prince," she sighed. + +"That I will tell you when the time comes." + +Thus peace seemed to be restored, and soon the curtain fell for the +interval before the last act, and the Prince got up and went out of the +box. + +He did not reappear again, but was waiting for them to start for his +house. + +"I met Stephen Strong, Tantine," he said. "He left me at Trieste, you +know, and only arrived in Petersburg to-day. He has got a cousin with +him, Lord something, so I have asked them both to come along. They will +be a little late they said." + +"It is not Jack Courtray by chance--is it?" Tamara asked, in an +interested voice, as they went. "Mr. Strong has a cousin who lives near +us in the country and he is always traveling about." + +"Yes, I think that is the name--Courtray. So you know him then!" and +the Prince leant forward from the seat which faced them. "An ami +d'enfance?" + +"We used to play cricket and fish and bird's-nest," she said. "Tom--my +brother Tom--was his fag at Eton--he is one of my oldest friends--dear +old Jack." + +"How fortunate I met him to-night!" + +"Indeed, yes." + +Then her attention was diverted, as it always was each time she saw the +blazing braziers and heaped up flaming piles of wood at the corners of +the streets, since she had been in Russia. "How glad I am there is +something to make the poor people warm," she said. + +"When it gets below twelve degrees it is difficult to enjoy life, +certainly," the Prince agreed. "And, indeed, it is hard sometimes not +to freeze." + +It was a strange lurid picture, the Isvostchiks drawn round, while the +patient horses with their sleighs stood quiet some little distance off. + +How hard must existence be to these poor things. + +Supper could not be ready for half an hour, the Prince told them when +they got to the Fontonka House, and as they all arrived more or less +together, they soon paired off for bridge. + +"I am going to show Mrs. Loraine my pictures," the host said. "She +admires our Catherine and Peter the Great." + +And in the salon where they all sat, he began pointing out this one and +that, making comments in a distrait voice. But when they came to the +double doors at the end he opened them wide, and led Tamara into +another great room. + +"This is the ballroom," he said. "It is like all ballrooms, so we shall +not linger over that. I have two Rembrandts in my own apartment beyond +which it may interest you to see, and a few other relics of the past." + +He was perfectly matter of fact, his manner had not a shade of +gallantry in it, and Tamara accepted this new situation and followed +him without a backward thought. + +They seemed to go through several sheet-shrouded salons and came out +into a thoroughly comfortable room. Its general aspect of decoration +had a Byzantine look, and on the floor were several magnificent bear +skins, while around the walls low bookcases with quantities of books +stood. And above them many arms were crossed. Over the mantlepiece a +famous Rembrandt frowned, and another from the opposite wall. But it +was strange there were no photographs of dancers or actresses about as +Tamara would have thought. + +The Prince talked intelligently. He seemed to know of such things as +pictures, and understood their technique. And if he had been an elderly +art critic he could not have been more aloof. + +Presently Tamara noticed underneath the first picture there was hung a +quaint sword. Something in its shape and workmanship attracted her +attention, and she asked its history. + +The Prince took it down and placed it in her hand. + +"That sword belonged to a famous person," he said--"a Cossack--Stenko +Razin was his name--a robber and a brigand and a great chief. He loved +a lady, a Persian Princess whom he had captured, and one day when out +on his yacht on the Volga, being drunk from a present of brandy some +Dutch travellers had brought him, he clasped her in his arms. She was +very beautiful and gentle and full of exquisite caresses, and he loved +her more than all his wealth. But mad thoughts mounted to his brain, +and after making an oration to the Volga for all the riches and plunder +she had brought him, he reproached himself that he had never given this +river anything really valuable in return, and then exclaiming he would +repair his fault, unclasped the clinging arms of his mistress and flung +her overboard." + +"What a horrible brute!" exclaimed Tamara, and she put down the sword. + +The Prince took it up and drew it from its sheath. + +"The Cossacks had a wild strain in them even in those days," he said. +"You must not be too hard on me for merely riding my horse!" + +"Would you be cruel like that, too, Prince?" Tamara asked; and she sat +down for a second on the arm of a carved chair. And when he had put the +sword back in its place, he bent forward and leaned on the back of it. + +"Yes, I could be cruel, I expect," he said. "I could be even brutal if +I were jealous, or the woman I loved played me false, but I would not +be cruel to her while it hurt myself. Razin lost his pleasure for days +through one mad personal act. It would have been more sensible to have +kept her until he was tired of her, or she had grown cold to him. Don't +you agree with me about that?" + +"It is a horrible history and I hate it," Tamara said. "Such ways I do +not understand. For me love means something tender and true which could +never want to injure the thing it loved." + +He looked at her gravely. + +"Lately I have wondered what love could mean for me. Tell me what you +think, Madame," he said. + +She resolved not to allow any emotion to master her, though she was +conscious of a sudden beating of her heart. + +"You would torture sometimes, and then you would caress." + +"I would certainly caress." + +He moved from his position and walked across the room, while he talked +as though the words burst from him. + +"Yes, I should demand unquestioning surrender, and if it were refused +me, then I might be cruel. And if my love were cold or capricious, +_then_ I would leave her. But if she loved me truly--my God, it would +be bliss." + +"Think how it would hurt her when you did those foolish things though," +Tamara said. + +He stopped short in his restless walk. + +"No one does foolish things when he is happy, Madame. All such +outbursts are the froth of a soul in its seething. But if one were +satisfied--" he paused, and then he went on again. "Oh! If you knew!-- +In the desert in Egypt I used to think I had found rest, sometimes. I +am sated with this life here. A quoi bon, Madame!--the same thing year +after year!--and then since I have known you. I have wondered if +perhaps you in your country could teach me peace." + +"So many of you are so déséquilibrés," Tamara said. "You seem to be so +polished and sensible and even great, and then in a moment you are off +at a tangent, displaying that want of discipline that we at home would +not permit in a child." + +"Yes it is true." + +"It seems that you love, and must have, or you hate and must kill. +There are storms and passions, and the gaiety of children and their +irresponsibility, and all on the top is good manners and smiles, but +underneath--I have a feeling I know not what volcano may burst." + +"Tonight I feel one could flame with me." He came up close now and +looked into her eyes, as if he were going to say something, and then he +restrained himself. + +Tamara did not move, she looked at him gravely. + +"You all seem as if you had no aim," she said. "You are not interested +in the politics of your country. You don't seem to do anything but kill +time--Why?" + +"Our country!" he said, and he flung himself into a seat near. "It +would be difficult to make you understand about that. In the old days +of the serfs, it was all very well. One could be a good landlord and +father to them all, but now----" Then he got up restlessly and paced +the room. "Now there are so many questions. If one would think it would +drive one mad, but I am a soldier, Madame, so I do not permit myself to +speculate at all." + +"Things are not then as you would wish?" she asked. + +"As I would wish--no, not as I would wish--but as I told you, I do not +mix myself up with them. I only obey the Emperor and shall to the end +of my life." + +Tamara saw she had stirred too deep waters. His face wore a look of +profound melancholy. She had never felt so drawn toward him. She let +her eyes take in the picture he made. There was something very noble +about his brow and the set of his head. Who could tell what thoughts +were working in his brain. Presently he got up again and knelt by her +side--his movements had the grace and agility of a cat. He took her +hand and kissed it. + +"Madame, please don't make me think," he said. "The question is too +great for one man to help. I do not go with the Liberals or any of the +revolt. Indeed I am far on the other side. Good to this country should +all have come in a different, finer way, and now it must work out its +own salvation as best it may. For me, my only duty is to my master. +Nothing else could count." His eyes which looked into hers seemed +great sombre pools of unrest and pain. + +She did not take away her hand and he kissed it again. + +Then the clock on the mantlepiece chimed one, and she started to her +feet. + +"Oh! Prince, should we not be thinking of supper," she said. "Come, let +us forget we have been serious and go back and eat!" + +He rose. + +"They have probably gone in without us, they know me so well," he said; +"but as you say, we will no more be serious, we will laugh." + +Then he took her hand, and merrily, like two children, they ran through +all the big empty rooms to find exactly what he had predicted had +occurred. The party were at supper quite unconcerned! + +It was such a gay scene. Princess Sonia and Serge Grekoff were busily +cutting raw ham, by their places; while others drank tea or vodka or +champagne, or helped themselves from various dishes the servants had +brought up. There was no ceremony or stiffness, each one did as he +pleased. + +And there sitting by Olga Gléboff, already perfectly at home, was Lord +Courtray; and further down the Princess Ardácheff sat by Stephen +Strong. + +"Gritzko--we could not wait!" Countess Olga said. + +Then both the Englishmen got up and greeted Tamara. + +"Fancy seeing you here, Tamara! What a bit of luck!" Jack Courtray +said. + + + + +CHAPTER XI + + +Jack Courtray was a thoroughly good all-around sportsman, and had an +immense success with women as a rule. His methods were primitive and +direct. When not hunting or shooting, he went straight to the point +with a beautiful simplicity unhampered by sentiment, and then when +wearied with one woman, moved on to the next. + +He was a tremendously good fellow every man said. Just a natural animal +creature, whom grooming and polishing in the family for some hundred or +so of years had made into a gentleman. + +He was as ignorant as he could well be. To him the geography of the +world meant different places for sport. India represented tigers and +elephants. It had no towns or histories that mattered, it had jungles +and forests. Africa said lions. Austria, chamois--and Russia, bears! + +Women were either sisters, or old friends and jolly comrades--like +Tamara. Or they came under the category of sport. A lesser sport, to be +indulged in when the rarer beasts were not obtainable for his gun--but +still sport! + +He found himself in a delightful milieu. The prospect of certain bears +in the near future--a dear old friend to frolic with in the immediate +present, and the problematic joys of a possible affair to be indulged +in meanwhile. No wonder he was in the best of spirits, and when Tamara, +without _arrière pensée_, took the empty place at his side, he +bent over her and filled her plate with the thinnest ham he had been +able to cut, with all the apparent air of a devoted lover. And if she +had looked up she would have seen that the Prince suddenly had begun to +watch her with a fierceness in his eyes. + +"This is a jolly place," Jack Courtray said. He had just the faintest +lisp, which sounded rather attractive, and Tamara, after the storms and +emotions of the past few days, found a distinct pleasure and rest in +his obviousness. + +It is an ill wind which blows no one any good, for presently the Prince +turned and devoted himself to Tatiane Shébanoff. + +She was quite the prettiest of all this little clique, petite and fair +and sweet. Divorced from a brute of a husband a year or so ago, and now +married to an elderly Prince. + +And she loved Gritzko with passion, and while she was silent about it, +her many friends told him so. + +For his part he remained unconcerned, and sometimes troubled himself +about her, and sometimes not. + +And so the evening wore on, and apparently it had no distinct sign that +it was to be one of the finger-posts of fate. + +When all had finished supper, they moved back into another great room. + +"You must notice this, Tamara, it is very Russian," her godmother said. + +It was an immense apartment with a great porcelain stove at one corner, +and panelled with wood, and it suggested to Tamara, for no sane reason, +something of an orthodox church! One end was bare, and the other +carpeted with great Persian rugs, had huge divans spread about; there +was an electric piano and an organ, and there were also crossed foils, +and masks, and everything for a fencing bout. + +The Prince went to the piano and started a valse. Then he came up to +Tamara and asked her to dance. + +There was no trace left of his respectful friendliness! His sleepy eyes +were blazing, he had never looked more oriental, or more savage, or +more intense. + +It was almost with a thrill of fear that Tamara yielded herself to his +request. He clasped her so tightly she could hardly breathe, all she +knew was she seemed to be floating in the air, and to be crushed +against his breast. + +"Prince, please, I am suffocating!" she cried at last. + +Then he swung her off her feet, and stopped by an armchair, and Tamara +subsided into it, panting, not able to speak. And all across her +milk-white chest there were a row of red marks from the heavy silver +cartridges, which cross in two rows in the Cossack dress. + +"I would like those brands of me to last forever," the Prince said. + + +Tamara lay back in the chair a prey to tumultuous emotions. She ought +to be disgusted she supposed, and of course she was--such an +uncivilized horrible thought! but at the same time every nerve was +tingling and her pulse was beating with the strange thrills she had +only lately begun to dream of. + +"Tamara! By jove! What have you done to your neck?" Jack Courtray said, +as he came up. + +And Tamara was glad she had a gauze scarf over her arm, which she +wrapped around carelessly as she said: + +"Nothing, Jack--let's dance!" + +"What an awfully decent chap our host is, isn't he!" Lord Courtray +said, as they ambled along in their valse. "And jolly good-looking +too--for a foreigner. These Russians are men after my own heart!" + +"Yes, he is good-looking," admitted Tamara. "If he weren't so wild; but +don't you think he has a frightfully savage expression, Jack?" + +"If you are intending to play with him, old girl, take my advice, you +had better look out," and he laughed his merry laugh as they stopped +because the piano stopped. + +Meanwhile the Prince had left the room. + +"Gritzko has gone to telephone for a Tzigane band," Princess Sonia +said. "And to the club and to the reception at Madame Sueboffs, and +soon we shall have enough people for a contre-danse--and some real +fun." + +That it was almost three o'clock in the morning never seemed to have +struck anyone! + +"Now, tell me everything, Tamara," Lord Courtray said, as they sat down +on one of the big divans. "Give me a few wrinkles. I can see one wants +to comprehend these tent ropes." + +"Well, first they are the nicest people you could possibly meet, Jack," +Tamara said. "And don't imagine because they skylark like this, and sit +up all night, that they aren't most dignified when they have to be. +That is their charm, this sense of the fitness of things. They have not +got to have any pretence like some of us have. Not one of them has a +scrap of pose. They are nice to you because they like you, or they +leave you entirely alone if they do not. And some days when they are +all together they will whisper and titter and have jokes among +themselves, leaving you completely out in the cold--what would really +be fearful ill-manners with us, but it is not in the least, it is just +they have forgotten you are there, and as likely as not you will be the +center of the whispering in the next minute. They are all like +volcanoes with the most beautiful Faberger enamel on the top." + +"And the men? I suppose they make awful love?" + +"I don't think so," went on Tamara, while she stupidly blushed. "They +all seem to be just merry friends, and the young ones don't go out very +much. I don't mean the quite, quite young who dance with girls, but the +young men. My godmother says they are very hard worked, and in their +leisure they like to have dinners in their regiments--or at +restaurants--with, with other sort of ladies, where they can do what +they please. It seems a little elementary--don't you think so?" + +"Jolly common-sense!" said Jack Courtray. + +"And then, you see, if by chance, when they are in the world, if they +do fall in love, it is possible for the lady to get a divorce here +without any scandal and fuss, and the whole clan stick to their own +member, no matter how much in the wrong she may be, and so all is +arranged, and life seems much simpler and apparently happier than it is +with us. If it is really so I cannot say, I have not been here long +enough to judge." + +"It sounds a kind of Utopia," and Lord Courtray laughed. And just then +the Prince came into the room again, and over to them and they got up +and the two men went off together to examine the foils. + +Presently the band arrived and more guests, and soon the contre-danse +was begun. That grown-up people could seriously take pleasure in this +amazing romp was a new and delightful idea to Tamara. + +It was a sort of enormous quadrille with numerous figures and +farandole, while one sat on a chair between the figures, as at a +cotillon. And toward the end the company stamped and cried, and the +band sang, and nothing could have been more gay and exciting and wild. + +Before they began, the Prince came up to Tamara and said: + +"I want you to dance this with me. I have had it on purpose to show you +a real Russian sight." + +They had moved into the ballroom by then, which was now a blaze of +light, while as if by magic the sheet coverings had been removed from +the chairs. + +And the Prince exerted himself to amuse and please his partner, and did +not again clasp her too tight, only whenever she had turns with her +countryman, his eyes would flame, and he would immediately interrupt +them and carry her off. + +Tamara felt perfectly happy, she was no longer analyzing and +questioning, and she was no longer fighting against her inclination. +She abandoned herself to the rushing stream of life. + +It was about five o'clock when some one suggested supper at the Islands +was now the proper thing. This was the delightful part about them--on +no occasion was there ever a halt for the consideration of ways and +means. They wanted some particular amusement and--had it! Convention, +from an English point of view, remained an unknown quantity.--Now those +who decided to continue the feasting all got into their waiting +conveyances. + +With the thermometer at fifteen degrees Reaumur, a coachman's life is +not one altogether to be envied in Russia, but apparently custom will +make anything endurable. + +"I know you like the troika, Tamara," Princess Ardácheff said. "So you +go with Olga and Gritzko and your friend--only be sure you wrap up your +head." + +And when they were all getting in, the Countess Gléboff said: + +"It is so terribly cold tonight, Gritzko. I am going to sit with my +back to the horses, so as not to get the wind in my face." + +When they were tucked in under the furs this arrangement seemed to Jack +Courtray one of real worth, for he instantly proceeded to take Countess +Olga's hand, while he whispered that he was cold and she could not be +so inhuman as to let a poor stranger freeze! + +It seemed amusing to look from the windows of a private room, down upon +a gay supping throng, in the general salle at the restaurant on the +Islands, while Tziganes played and their supper was being prepared. + +"Who could think it was five o'clock in the morning! What a lesson for +our rotten old County Council in London," Jack Courtray said. "By Jove! +this is the place for me!" and he proceeded to make violent love to +Olga Gléboff, to who's side he remained persistently glued. + +And then the gayest repast began; nothing could have been more +entertaining or full of wild _entrain_, and yet no one over-did +it, or was vulgar or coarse. + +At the last moment, when they were all starting for home about seven +o'clock, Countess Olga decided she could not face the cold of the open +sleigh, and Lord Courtray and she got into her motor instead. + +It was done so quickly, Tamara was already packed into the troika, and +the outside steeds were prancing in their desire to be off. + +"The horses won't stand," the Prince said, and he jumped in beside her +and gave the order to go. Thus Tamara found herself alone with him +flying over the snow under the stars. + +There was a delicious feeling of excitement in her veins. They neither +of them spoke for a while, but the Prince drew nearer and yet nearer, +and presently his arm slipped round her, and he folded her close. + +"Doushka," he whispered. "I hate the Englishman--and life is so short. +Let us taste it while we may," and then he bent and kissed her lips! + +Tamara struggled against the intense intoxicating emotion she was +experiencing. What frightful tide was this which had swept into her +well-ordered life! She vainly put up her arms and tried to push him +away, but with each sign of revolt he held her the tighter. + +"Darling," he said softly in her ear. "My little white soul. Do not +fight, it is perfectly useless, because I _will_ do what I wish. +See, I will be gentle and just caress you, if you do not madden me by +trying to resist!" + +Then he gathered her right into his arms, and again bent and most +tenderly kissed her. All power of movement seemed to desert Tamara. She +only knew that she was wildly happy, that this was heaven, and she +would wish it never to end. + +She ceased struggling and closed her eyes, then he whispered all sorts +of cooing love words in Russian and French, and rubbed his velvet +eyelids against her cheek, and every few seconds his lips would come to +meet her lips. + +At last, when they had crossed the Troitzka bridge, he permitted her to +release herself, and only held her hands under the furs, because dawn +was breaking and they could be observed. + +But when they turned into the wide Serguiefskaia, which seemed +deserted, he bent once more and this time with wildest passion he +seemed to draw her very soul through her lips. + +Then ere she could speak, they drew up at the door, and he lifted her +out, and before the Suisse and the waiting footmen. + +"Good-night, Madame--sleep well," he calmly said. + +But Tamara, trembling with mad emotion, rushed quickly to her room. + + + + +CHAPTER XII + + +In life there comes sometimes a tidal wave in the ebb of which all old +landmarks are washed out. And so it was with Tamara. She had fallen +into bed half dead with fatigue and emotion, but when she woke the +sickly gray light of a Russian winter mid-day pouring into her room, +and saw her maid's stolid face, back rushed the events of the night, +and she drew in her breath with almost a hiss. Yes, nothing could ever +be the same again. "Leave me, Johnson," she said, "I am too tired, I +cannot get up yet." + +And the respectful maid crept from the room. + +Then she lay back in her pillows and forced herself to face the +position, and review what she had done, and what she must now do. + +First of all, she loved Gritzko, that she could no longer argue with +herself about. Secondly, she was an English lady, and could not let +herself be kissed by a man whose habit it was to play with whom he +chose, and then pass on. She was free, and he was free, it followed his +caressing then--divine as it had been--was an absolute insult. If he +wanted her so much he should have asked her to marry him. He had not +done so, therefore the only thing which remained for her to do, was to +go away. The sooner the better. + +Then she thought of all the past. + +From the moment of the good-bye at the Sphinx it had been a humiliation +for her. Always, always, he had been victor of the situation. Had she +been ridiculously weak? What was this fate which had fallen upon her? +What had she done to draw such circumstances? Then even as she lay +there, communing sternly with herself, a thrill swept over her, as her +thoughts went back to that last passionate kiss. And her slender hands +clenched under the clothes. + +"If he really loved me," she sighed, "I would face the uncertain +happiness with him. I know now he causes me emotions of which I never +dreamed and for which I would pay that price. But I have no single +proof that he does really love me. He may be playing in the same way +with Tatiane Shébanoff--and the rest." And at this picture her pride +rose in wild revolt. + +Never, never! should he play with her again at least! + +Then she thought of all her stupid ways, perhaps if she had been +different, not so hampered by prejudice, but natural like all these +women here, perhaps she could have made him really love her.--Ah!--if +so. + +This possibility, however, brought no comfort, only increased regret. + +The first thing now to be done was to restrain herself in an iron +control. To meet him casually. To announce to her godmother that she +must go home, and as soon as the visit to Moscow should be over, she +would return to England. She must not be too sudden, he would think she +was afraid. She would be just stiff and polite and serene, and show him +he was a matter of indifference to her, and that she had no intention +to be trifled with again! + +At last, aching in mind and body, she lay still. Meanwhile, below in +the blue salon, the Princess Ardácheff was conversing with Stephen +Strong. + +"Yes, mon ami," she was saying. "You must come--we go in a week--the +day after my ball, to show Tamara Moscow, and from there to spend a +night at Milasláv. Olga and Sonia and her husband and the Englishman, +and Serge Grekoff and Valonne are coming, and it will be quite +amusing." + +"Think of the travelling and my old bones!" And Stephen Strong smiled. +"But since it is your wish, dear Princess, of course I must come." + +They were old and very intimate friends these two, and with him the +Princess was accustomed to talk over most of her plans. + +He got up and lit a cigarette, then he walked across the room and came +back again, while his hostess surveyed him with surprise. At last he +sat down. + +"Vera, tell me the truth," he said. "How are things going? I confess +last night gave me qualms." + +The Princess gazed at him inquiringly. + +"Why qualms?" + +"You see, Gritzko is quite an exceptional person, he is no type of a +Russian or any other nation that one can reckon with, he is himself, +and he has the most attractive magnetic personality a man could have." + +"Well, then?" + +"And if you knew the simple unsophisticated atmosphere in which your +godchild has been brought up----." + +"Stephen, really,"--and the Princess tapped her foot impatiently. +"Please speak out. Say what you mean." + +"She is no more fitted to cope with him than a baby, that is what I +mean." + +"But why should she cope with him? Are not men tiresome!" and the +Princess sighed. "Can't you see I want them to love one another. It is +just that--if she would not snub and resist him--all would be well." + +"It did not look much like resistance last night," said Stephen Strong. +"And if Gritzko is only playing the fool, and means nothing serious, +then I think it is a shame." + +"You don't suggest, surely, that I should interfere with fate?" + +"Only to the extent of not giving him unlimited opportunities. You +remember that season in London--and your brother Alexis--and her +mother, and what came of that!" + +The Princess put her hands up with a sudden gesture and covered her +eyes. + +"Oh! Stephen! how cruel of you to bring it back to me," she said; "but +this is quite different--they are free--and it is my dearest wish that +Tamara and Gritzko should be united." Then she continued in another +tone. "I think you are quite wrong in any case. My plan is to throw +them together as much as possible--he will see her real worth and +delicate sweetness--and they will get over their quarrelling. It is her +reserve and resistance which drives him mad. Sometimes I do not know +how he will act." + +"No, one can never count upon how he will act!" and Stephen Strong +smiled. "But since you are satisfied I will say no more, only between +you don't break my gentle little countrywoman's heart." + +"You hurt me very much, Stephen!" the Princess said. "You--you--of all +people, who know the tie there is between Tamara and me. You to suggest +even that I would aid in breaking her heart." + +"Dear Vera, forgive me," and he kissed her plump white hand. "I will +suggest nothing, and will leave it all to you, but do not forget a +man's passions, and Gritzko, as we know, is not made of snow!" + +"You all misjudge him, my poor Gritzko," the Princess said, hardly +mollified. "He has the noblest nature underneath, but some day you will +know." + +It was late in the afternoon when Tamara appeared, to find a room full +of guests having tea. Her mind was made up, and she had regained her +calm. + +She would use the whole of her intelligence and play the game. She +would be completely at ease and indifferent to Gritzko and would be +incidentally as nice as possible to Jack. And so get through the short +time before she must go home. "For," she had reasoned with herself +sadly, "If he had loved me really he would never have behaved as he has +done." + +So when the Prince and Lord Courtray came in together presently, her +greeting to both was naturalness itself, and she took Jack off to a +distant sofa with friendly familiarity, and conversed with him upon +their home affairs. + +"By Jove! you know, Tamara, you are awfully improved, my child," Lord +Courtray said, presently. "You've acquired some kind of a look in your +eye! If I wasn't so taken with that darling little Countess Olga I +should feel inclined to make love to you myself." + +"You dear silly old Jack!" Tamara said. + +It was Lord Courtray's fashion, when talking to any woman, even his own +mother, to lean over her with rather a devoted look. And Tamara +glancing up caught sight of Prince Milaslávski's face. It wore an +expression which almost filled her with fear. Of all things she must +provoke no quarrel between him and dear old Jack, who was quite +blameless in the affair. + +At the same time there was a consolation in the knowledge that she +could make him feel. + +She thought it wiser soon to rise and return to the general group, +while Jack, on his own amusement bent, now took his leave. + +She sat down by Stephen Strong, she was in a most gracious mood it +seemed. + +"You have heard of our excursion to Moscow, Mr. Strong," she said. "The +Princess says you must come too, I am looking forward to it immensely." + +"We ought to have a most promising time in front of us," that old cynic +replied, while he puffed rings of smoke. "It all should be as full of +adventure as an egg is full of meat!" + +"I have been reading up the guide books, so as to be thoroughly learned +and teach Jack--he is so terribly ignorant always, worse than Tom!" and +she laughed. + +"We must try and see the whole show, and if the snow lasts, as it +promises to do, we should have a delightful time." + +"Gritzko," Princess Ardácheff said. "How many versts is it from Moscow +to Milasláv?" + +The Prince had been leaning on the mantlepiece without speaking for +some moments, listening to Tamara's conversation, but now he joined in, +and sinking into a chair beside her, answered from there. + +"Thirty versts, Tantine--we shall go in troikas--but you must send your +servants on the night before." + +Then he turned to Tamara, who seemed wonderfully absorbed, almost +whispering to Stephen Strong. "Did you sleep well, Madame?" he said. +There was an expression of mocking defiance in his glance, which +angered Tamara. However, faithful to her resolutions, she kept herself +calm. + +"Never better, thank you, Prince. It was a most interesting evening, +and I am learning the customs of the country," she said. "The thing +which strikes me most is your wonderful chivalry to women--especially +strange women." + +They looked into one another's eyes and measured swords, and if she had +known it she had never so deeply attracted him before. + +She had broached the subject of her return to England to her godmother, +who had laughed the idea to scorn, but now she spoke to Gritzko as if +it were an established fact. + +"I go home from Moscow, you know," she said. + +"You find our country too cold?" he asked. + +"It is too full of contrasts, freezing one moment and thawing the next, +and while outside one is turned to ice, indoors one is consumed with +heat; it is upsetting to the equilibrium." + +"All the same, you will not go," and he leaned back in the chair with +his provoking lazy smile. + +"Indeed, I shall." + +"We shall see. There are a number of things for you to learn yet." + +"What things?" + +The Prince lit a cigarette. "The possibilities of the unknown fires you +have lit," he said. "You remember the night at the Sphinx, when we said +good-bye. I told you a proverb they have there about meeting before +dawn, and not parting until dawn. Well, that dawn has not arrived yet. +And I have no intention--for the moment--that it shall arrive." + +Tamara felt excited, and as ever his tone of +complete omnipotence annoyed her. At the same time to see him sitting +there, his eyes fixed with deep interest on her face, thrilled and +exalted her. Oh! she certainly loved him! Alas! and it would be +dreadfully difficult to say good-bye. But those three words in his +sentence stung her pride--"for the moment." Yes, there was always this +hint of caprice. Always he gave her the sensation of instability, there +was no way to hold him. She must ever guard her emotions and ever be +ready to fence. + +And now that she had taken a resolve to go home, to linger no more, she +was free to tease him as much as she could. To feel that she could, +gave her a fillip, and added a fresh charm to her face. + +"You think you can rule the whole world to your will, Prince," she +said. + +"I can rule the part of it I want, as you will find," he retorted +fiercely. She made a pouting moue and tapped her little foot, then she +laughed. + +"How amusing it would be if you happened to be mistaken this time," she +cooed. Then she rapidly turned to the Princess Sonia, who had just come +in, and they all talked of the great ball which was to take place in +the house in a week. The first after the period of the deep mourning. + +"We cannot yet wear colors, but whites and grays and mauves--and won't +it be a relief from all this black," Princess Sonia said. + +When they had all gone and Tamara was dressing for dinner, she felt +decidedly less depressed. She had succeeded better than she had hoped. +She had contrived to outwit the Prince, when he had plainly shown his +intention was to continue talking to her, she had turned from one to +another, and finally sat down by a handsome Chevalier Garde. In +companies she had a chance, but when they were alone!--however, that +was simple, because she must arrange that they should never be alone. + + + + +CHAPTER XIII + + +It was perhaps a fortunate thing that for three days after this the +Prince was kept at his military duties at Tsarsköi-Sélo, and could not +come to Petersburg, for he was in a mood that could easily mean +mischief. Tamara also was inclined to take things in no docile spirit. + +She felt very unhappy, underneath her gay exterior. It was not +agreeable to her self-respect to realize she was fleeing from a place +because she loved a man whose actions showed he did not entertain the +same degree of feeling for her. No amount of attention from any other +quite salved that ever-constant inward hurt. + +She went often through strange moments. In the middle of a casual +conversation suddenly back would come a wave of remembrance of the dawn +drive in the troika, and she would actually quiver with physical +emotion as the vivid recollection of the bliss of it would sweep over +her. + +Then she would clench her hands and determine more fiercely than ever +to banish such memories. But with all her will, hardly for ten minutes +at a time could she keep Gritzko from her thoughts. His influence over +her was growing into an obsession. + +She wondered why he did not come. She would not ask her godmother. The +three days passed in a feverish, gnawing unrest; and on the third +evening they went to the ballet again. + +Opposite them, in a box, a very dark young woman was seated. She had a +hard, determined face, and she was well dressed, and not too covered +with jewels. + +"That is a celebrated lady," Count Valonne said. "You must look at her, +Madame Loraine; she was one of the best dancers at the ballet, and last +year she tried to commit suicide in a charmingly dramatic way at one of +Gritzko's parties. She was at the time perhaps his _chère amie_-- +one never knows, but in all cases violently in love with him--and is +still, for the matter of that--or so it is said--and in the middle of +rather a wild feast he was giving for her, she suddenly drank off some +poison, after making the terrifying announcement of her intention! We +were all petrified with horror, but he remained quite calm, and, +seizing her, he poured a whole bottle of salad oil down her throat, and +then sent for a doctor!--Of course the poor lady recovered, and the +romantic end was quite _raté!_--She was perfectly furious, one +heard--and married a rich slate merchant the week after. Wasn't it like +Gritzko? He said the affair was vulgar, and he sent her a large diamond +bracelet, and never spoke to her again!" + +Tamara felt her cheeks burn--and her pride galled her more than ever. +So she and the ex-dancer were in the same boat?--but she at least would +not try to commit suicide and be restored by--salad oil! + +"How perfectly ridiculous!" she said, with rather a bitter little +laugh. "What complete bathos!" + +"It was unfortunate, was it not?" Valonne went on, and he glanced at +Tamara sideways. + +He guessed that she was interested in the Prince; but Valonne was a +charming creature with an understanding eye, and in their set was in +great request. He knew exactly the right thing to talk about to each +different person, as a perfect diplomat should, and he was too tactful +and sympathetic to tease poor Tamara. On the contrary, he told her +casually that Gritzko had been on some duty these three days, in case +she did not know it. + +From the beginning Tamara always had liked Valonne. + +Then into the box came the same good-looking Chevalier Garde, Count +Varishkine, whom she had talked to on the last occasion of Gritzko's +visit, and the spirit of hurt pride caused her to be most gracious with +him. Meanwhile the Princess Ardácheff watched her with a faint +sensation of uneasiness, and at last whispered to Stephen Strong: + +"Does not my godchild seem to be developing new characteristics, +Stephen? She is so very stately and quiet; and yet to-night it would +almost seem she is being flirtatious with Boris Varishkine.--I trust we +shall have no complications. What do you think?" + +Mr. Strong laughed. + +"It will depend upon how much it angers Gritzko. It could come to mean +anything--bloodshed, a scandal, or merely bringing things to a crisis +between them.--Let us hope, for the latter." + +"Indeed, yes" + +"You must remember, for an Englishwoman it would be very difficult to +grasp all the possibilities in the character of Gritzko. We are not +accustomed to these tempestuous headlong natures in our calm country." + +"Fortunately Boris and Gritzko are very great friends." + +"I never heard that the warmest friendship prevented jealousy between +men," Stephen Strong said, a little cynically--he had suffered a good +deal in his youth. + +"I am delighted we are going to Moscow. There will be no Boris, and I +shall arrange for my two children to be together as much as possible. I +feel that is the surest way," the Princess answered; and they talked of +other things. + +After the ballet was over the party went on to supper at Cubat's in a +private room, contrary to the Princess' custom. But it was Stephen +Strong's entertainment, and he had no house to invite them to. + +As they passed down the passage to their salon the door of another +opened as a waiter came out, and loud laughter and clatter of glass +burst forth, and above the din one shrill girl's treble screamed: + +"Gritzko! Oh, Gritzko!" + +The food nearly choked Tamara when they reached their room, and supper +began. It was not, of course, a heinous crime for the Prince to be +entertaining ladies of another world. But on the top of everything else +it raised a wild revolt in her heart, and a raging disgust with +herself. Never, never should she unbend to him again. She _would +not_ love him. + +Alas! for the impotency of human wills! Only the demonstrations of love +can be controlled, the emotion itself comes from heaven--or hell, and +is omnipotent. Poor Tamara might as well have determined to keep the +sun from rising as to keep herself from loving Gritzko. + +She was quite aware that men--even the nicest men--like Jack and her +brother Tom, sometimes went out with people she would not care to know; +but to have the fact brought under her very observation disgusted her +fine senses. To realize that the man she loved was at the moment +perhaps kissing some ordinary woman, revolted and galled her +immeasurably. But if she had known it this night, at least, the Prince +was innocent. He had strolled into that room with some brother +officers, and was not the giver of the feast. And a few minutes after +Mr. Strong's party had begun their repast he opened the door. + +"May I come in, Stephen?" he asked. "I heard you were all here, Serge +saw you. I have just arrived from Tsarsköi, and must eat." + +And of course he was warmly welcomed and pressed to take a seat, while +Valonne chaffed him in an undertone about the joys he had precipitately +left. + +Tamara's face was the picture of disdain. But the Prince sat beside her +godmother, apparently unconcerned. He did not trouble to address her +specially, and before the end of supper, in spite of rage and disgust +and anger--and shame, she was longing for him to talk to her. + +The only consolation she had was once when they went out, as she looked +up sweetly at Count Varishkine she caught a fierce expression stealing +over Gritzko's face. + +So even though he did not love her really he could still feel jealous; +that was something, at all events! + +Thus in these paltry rages and irritations, these two human beings +passed the next three days--when their real souls were capable of +something great. + +Prince Milaslávski, to every one's surprise, appeared continuously in +the world. + +Tamara and the Princess met him everywhere, and while the Princess did +her best to throw them together, Tamara maneuvered so that not once +could he speak to her alone, while she was assiduously charming to +every one else. Now it was old Prince Miklefski or Stephen Strong, now +one of the husbands, or Jack, and just often enough to give things a +zest she was bewitching to the handsome Chevalier Garde. + +And the strange, fierce light in Gritzko's eyes did not decrease. + +The night before the Ardácheff ball they were going to a reception at +one of the Embassies for a foreign King and Queen, who were paying a +visit to the Court, and Tamara dressed with unusual care, and fastened +her high tiara in her soft brown hair. + +The Prince should see her especially attractive, she thought. + +But when they arrived at the great house and walked among the brilliant +throng no Prince was to be seen!--It might be he had no intention to +come. + +Presently Tamara went off to the refreshment room with her friend +Valonne. + +The conversation turned to Gritzko with an easy swing. + +He seemed on the brink of one of his maddest fits. Valonne had seen him +in the club just before dinner. + +"If you really go to England I think he will follow you, Madame," he +said. + +"How ridiculous!" and Tamara laughed. "How can it make a difference to +him whether I go or no? We do not exist for one another," and she +fanned herself rather rapidly, while Valonne smiled a fine smile. + +"I should not be quite sure of that," he said. "If I might predict, I +should say you will be lucky if you get away from here without being +the cause of a duel of some sort." + +"A duel!" Tamara was startled. "How dreadful, and how silly! But why? I +thought dueling had quite gone out in all civilized countries; and in +any case, why fight about me? And who should fight? Surely you are only +teasing me, Count Valonne." + +"Duels are real facts here, I am afraid," he said. "Gritzko has already +engaged in two of them. He is not quarrelsome, but just never permits +any one to cross his wishes or interfere with his game." + +"But what _is_ his game? You speak as though it were some kind of +cards or plot. What do you mean?" and Tamara, with heightened color, +lifted her head. + +"The game of Gritzko?" and Count Valonne laughed. "Frankly, I think he +is very much in love with you, Madame," he said. "So by that you can +guess what would be any man's game." + +"You have a vivid imagination, and are talking perfect nonsense." +Tamara laughed nervously. "I refuse to be the least upset by such +ideas!" + +At the moment up came Count Boris Varishkine, and after a while she +went off with him to a sofa by the window, and there was seated in deep +converse when the Prince came in. + +He looked at them for a second and then made straight for the Princess +Ardácheff, who was just about to arrange her rubber of bridge. + +"Tantine, I want to talk to you," he said. + +And the Princess at once left the cardroom and returned with him. They +found a quiet corner opposite Tamara and her Garde, and there sat down. + +"Tantine, I brought you here to look over there.--What does that mean?" + +The Princess put up her glasses to gain time. + +"Nothing, dear boy. Tamara is merely amusing herself like all the rest +of us at a party. Are you jealous, Gritzko?" she asked. + +He looked at her sharply, and for a moment unconsciously fingered the +dagger in his belt. + +"Yes, I believe I am jealous. I am not at all sure that I do not love +your charming friend," he said. + +"Well, why don't you marry her then?" suggested the Princess. + +"Perhaps I shall--if she does not drive me to doing something mad +first. I don't know what I intend. It may be to go off to the Caucasus, +or to stay and make her love me so deeply that she will forgive me--no +matter what I do." + +He paused a moment, and his great eyes filled with mist, and then the +wild light grew. + +"If ever she becomes my Princess, she shall be entirely for me. I will +not let her have a look or thought for any other man. All must be +mine--unshared, and then she shall be my queen." + +Princess Ardácheff leant back and looked at him. He was in his blue +uniform with the scarlet underdress; and even she--old woman and fond +friend--could not help picturing the gorgeous joy such a fate would +give--to have him for a lover! to see his fierce, proud head bent in +devotion, to feel his tender caress. Tamara must be an unutterable fool +if she should hesitate. + +But what he had said was not reassuring in its prospect of calm. She +felt she must put in some small word of admonition. + +"You will be careful won't you, Gritzko?" she ventured to suggest. +"Remember, Tamara is an Englishwoman, and not accustomed to your ways." + +"It will depend upon herself," he said. "If she goes on teasing me I do +not know what I shall do. If she does not--" + +"You will be good?" + +"Possibly. But one thing, Tantine, I will not be interfered with either +by her friend the Englishman or Boris Varishkine." + +At this moment Tamara looked up and caught the two pairs of eyes fixed +upon her. And into her spirit flowed a devilment.--Duels! They were all +nonsense. She should certainly play a little with her new friend. + +In her whole life before she came to Russia she had never been really +flirtatious. She was in no way a coquette, rather a simple creature who +recked little of men. But the simplest woman develops feline qualities +under certain provocation; and her pride was deeply hurt. + +Count Boris Varishkine asked nothing better than to fall in with her +views. He was, however, like most of his countrymen, sincere, and not +merely passing the time. + +Jack Courtray came up, too, and joined them, his Countess Olga had sent +him temporarily from her side. And Tamara scintillated and sparkled as +she talked to them both in a way which surprised herself. + +This society was very diplomatic, and it amused her to watch the +representatives of the different nations--the English and the Russians +standing out as so much the finest men. + +Presently the little group was joined by Stephen Strong. + +"Isn't this an amusing party, Mrs. Loraine?" he said. + +"Yes," said Tamara. "And I am beginning to be able to place the members +of the different countries. Don't you think the Russians look much the +most like us, Mr. Strong?" + +"The Russians, dear lady? When you have traveled a little more you will +see that term covers half the types of the earth--but I agree. What we +see here in Petersburg are very much like us--a trifling difference in +the way the eyes are set, and the way the hair is brushed; and, given +the same uniforms, half these smart young men might be our English +Guards." + +"We do not resemble you in character, though," said Count Varishkine. +"You can feel just what you like, or not at all, whereas we are +storm-tossed, and have not yet learnt the arts of pretence." + +"We're a deuced cold-blooded race, aren't we, Tamara?" Jack Courtray +said, and he grinned his happy grin. + +The little party looked so merry and content Princess Ardácheff hardly +liked to disturb them, but was impelled to by a look in Gritzko's face. + +"Tamara, dear," she said, as she joined them, "I am so very tired after +last night, for once shall we go home reasonably early?" + +And Tamara rose gladly to her feet. + +"Of course, Marraine, I too am dropping with fatigue," she said. + +The Prince spoke a few words to Stephen Strong, and Jack joined in; so +that the three were a pace or so to one side when the two ladies wished +them goodnight. + +"Come and see me early tomorrow, Jack," Tamara said. "I want to show +you Tom's letter from home," and she looked up with an alluring smile, +feeling the Prince was watching her; then, turning to Count Boris, "I am +sure you will regret your bargain in having asked me to dance the Mazurka +tomorrow night," she said. "I do not know a single figure or a step--but I +hope we shall have some fun. I am looking forward to it." + +"More than fun!" the young man said, with devotion, as he kissed her +hand. + +Then they walked to say goodnight to the hostess, and Gritzko seemed to +disappear. But when they got down into the hall they saw him already in +his furs. + +The Princess' footman began to hand Tamara her snowboots and cloak, but +Gritzko almost snatched them from the man's hand. She made no protest, +but let him help her to put them on and wrap her up, while her +godmother thought it advisable to walk toward the door. + +"Tonight was your moment, Madame," he said, in a low voice. "But the +gods are often kind to me, and my hour will come!" + +Tamara summoned everything she knew of provokingness into her face as +she looked up and answered: + +"Tant pis! et bon soir! Monsieur le démon de Lermontoff!" + +Then she felt it prudent to run quickly after the Princess and get into +the automobile! + + + + +CHAPTER XIV + + +It was twenty-four hours later. The night of the Ardácheff ball had +come. The glorious house made the background of a festive scene. The +company waited all round the galleries for the arrival of the Grand +Dukes and the foreign King and Queen. + +And Tamara stood by her godmother's side at the top of the stairs, a +strange excitement flooding her veins. + +Since the night before they had heard nothing of the Prince. And as +each guest came in view, past the splendid footmen grouped like statues +on every six steps, both women watched with quickening pulses for one +insouciant Cossack face. + +The Royalties arrived in a gorgeous train, and yet neither Gritzko nor +Count Varishkine. + +It might mean nothing, but it was curious all the same. The opening +_contre-danse_ was in full swing, and still they never came, and +by the time of the second valse after it Tamara was a prey to a vague +fear. While the Princess' uneasiness grew more than vague. + +Tamara could not enjoy herself. She talked at random, she made her +partners continually promenade through the salons, and her eyes +constantly scanned the doors. + +The immense ballroom, quite two stories high, presented a brilliant +sight with its stately decorations of the time of Alexander I. And all +the magnificent jewels and uniforms, and the flowers. Somehow a riot of +roses takes an extra charm when outside the thermometer measures zero. +And no one would have believed, looking at this dignified throng, that +they could be the same people who could frolic wildly at a Bohemian +supper. + +There is a great deal in breeding, after all, and the knowledge of the +fitness of things which follows in its train. + +Tamara was valsing with Jack Courtray, and they stopped to look at the +world. + +"Are they not a wonderful people, Jack? Could anything be more decorous +and dignified than they are tonight? And yet if you watch, in the +_contre-danse_ their eyes have the same excited look as when we +wildly capered after supper in Prince Milaslávski's house." + +"Which reminds me--why is he not here?" asked Jack. + +"I wish I knew," Tamara said. "Jack, be a dear and go and forage about +and get hold of Serge Grekoff, if you can see him, or Mr. Strong, or +Sasha Basmanoff, or some one who might know--but it seems as if none of +them are here." + +"As interested as that?" and Lord Courtray laughed. "Well, my child, +I'll do my best," so he relinquished her for the next turn and left her +with Valonne, who had just arrived. + +"Apparently I shall have to go partnerless for the Mazurka," Tamara +carelessly said while she watched the Frenchman's face with the corner +of her eye. "I was engaged for it to Count Varishkine, and he has never +turned up. I do wonder what has happened to him. Do you know?" + +"I told you you would be lucky if you got away from here without some +row of sorts, Madame," and Valonne smiled enigmatically. + +"What do you mean? Please tell me?" and Tamara turned pale. + +"I mean nothing; only I fancy you will only see one of them tonight; +which it will be is still on the cards." + +A cold, sick feeling came over Tamara. + +"You are not insinuating that they have been fighting?" she asked, with +a tremble in her voice which she could not control. + +But Valonne reassured her. + +"I am insinuating nothing," he said, with a calm smile. "Let us have +one more turn before this charming valse stops." + +And, limp and nerveless, Tamara allowed herself to be whirled around +the room; nor could she get anything further out of Valonne. + +When it was over she sought in vain for her godmother or Jack or +Stephen Strong. The Princess was engaged with the Royalties and could +not be approached, and neither of the men were to be seen. + +The next half-hour was agony, in which, with a white face and fixed +smile, Tamara played her part, and then just before the Mazurka was +going to begin Gritzko came in. + +It seemed as if her knees gave way under her for a moment, and she sat +down in a seat. The relief was so great. Whatever had happened he at +least was safe. + +She watched him securing two chairs in the best place, and then he +crossed over to where she sat by the door to the refreshment room. + +"Bon soir, Madame," he said. "Will you take me as a substitute for your +partner, Count Varishkine?" and he bowed with a courtly grace which +seemed suited to the scene. "He is, I regret to say, slightly +indisposed, and has asked me to crave your indulgence for him, and let +me fill his place." + +For a moment Tamara hesitated; she seemed to have lost the power of +speech; she felt she must control her anxiety and curiosity, so at last +she answered gravely: + +"I am so very sorry! I hope it is nothing serious. He is so charming, +Count Varishkine." + +"Nothing serious. Shall we take our places? I have two chairs there not +far from Olga and your friend," and the Prince prepared to lead the +way. Tamara, now that the tension was over, almost thought she would +refuse, but the great relief and joy she felt in his presence overcame +her pride, and she meekly followed him across the room. + +They passed the Princess on the way, and as she apparently gave some +laughing reply to the Ambassador she was with, she hurriedly whispered +in Tamara's ear: + +"Pour l'amour de Dieu! Be careful with Gritzko tonight, my child." + +When they were seated waiting for the dance to begin Tamara noticed +that the Prince was very pale, and that his eyes, circled with blue +shadows, seemed to flame. + +The certainty grew upon her that some mysterious tragic thing had taken +place; but, frightened by the Princess' words, she did not question +him. + +She hardly spoke, and he was silent, too. It seemed as though now he +had gained his end and secured her as a partner it was all he meant to +do. + +Presently he turned to her and asked lazily: + +"Have you been amused since the Moravian reception? How have you passed +the time? I have been at Tsarsköi again, and could not come to see +Tantine." + +"We have been quite happy, thanks, Prince," Tamara said. "Jack Courtray +and I have spent the day studying the lovely things in the Hermitage. We +must see what we can before we both go home." + +Gritzko looked at her. + +"I like him--he is a good fellow--your friend," and then he added +reflectively: "But if he spends too much time with you I hope the bears +will eat him!" + +This charitable wish was delivered in a grave, quiet voice, as though +it had been a blessing. + +"How horrible you are!" Tamara flashed. "Jack to be eaten by bears! +Poor dear old Jack! What has he done?" + +"Nothing, I hope,--as yet; but time will tell. Now we must begin to +dance." + +And they rose, called to the center by the Master of the Ceremonies to +assist in a figure. + +While the Prince was doing his part she noticed his movements seemed +languid and not full of his usual wild _entrain_, and her feeling +of unease and dread of she knew not what increased. + +Tamara was very popular, and was hardly left for a moment on her chair +when the flower figures began, so their conversations were disjointed, +and at last almost ceased, and unconsciously a stiff silence grew up +between them, caused, if she had known it, on his side, by severe +physical pain. + +She was surprised that he handed all his flowers to her but did not ask +her to dance, nor did he rise to seek any other woman. He just sat +still, though presently, when magnificent red roses were brought in in +a huge trophy, and Serge Grekoff was seen advancing with a sheaf of +them to claim Tamara, he suddenly asked her to have a turn, and got up +to begin. + +She placed her hand on his arm, and she noticed he drew in his breath +sharply and winced in the slightest degree. But when she asked him if +something hurt him, and what it was, he only laughed and said he was +well, and they must dance; so away they whirled. + +A feverish anxiety and excitement convulsed Tamara. What in heaven's +name had occurred? + +When they had finished and were seated again she plucked up courage to +ask him: + +"Prince, I feel sure Count Varishkine is not really ill. Something has +happened. Tell me what it is." + +"I never intended you to dance the Mazurka with him," was all Gritzko +said. + +"And how have you prevented it?" Tamara asked, and grew pale to her +lips. + +"What does it matter to you?" he said. "Are you nervous about Boris?" + +And now he turned and fully looked at her, and she was deeply moved by +the expression in his face. + +He was suffering extremely, she could distinguish that, but underneath +the pain there was a wild triumph, too. Her whole being was wrung. Love +and fear and solicitude, and, yes, rebellion also had its place. And at +last she said: + +"I am nervous, not for Count Varishkine, but for what you may have +done." + +He leaned back and laughed with almost his old irresponsible mirth. + +"I can take care of my own deeds, thanks, Madame," he said. + +And then anger rose in Tamara beyond sympathy for pain. + +She sat silent, staring in front of her, the strain of the evening was +beginning to tell. She hardly knew what he said, or she said, until +the Mazurka was at an end, all the impression it left with her was one +of tension and fear. Then the polonaise formed, and they went in to +supper. + +Here they were soon seated next their own special friends, and Gritzko +seemed to throw off all restraint. He drank a great deal, and then +poured out a glass of brandy and mixed it with the champagne. + +He had never been more brilliant, and kept the table in a roar, while +much of his conversation was addressed to Tatiane Shébanoff, who sat on +his left hand. + +Tamara appeared as though she were turned into stone. + +And so the night wore on. It was now four o'clock in the morning. The +company all went to the galleries again to watch the departure of the +King and Queen. And, leaning on the marble balustrade next the Prince, +Tamara suddenly noticed a thin crimson stream trickle from under his +sleeve to his glove. + +He saw it, too, and with an impatient exclamation of annoyance he moved +back and disappeared in the crowd. The rest of the ball for Tamara was +a ghastly blank, although they kept it up with immense spirit until +very late. + +She seemed unable to get near the Princess, she was always surrounded, +and when at last she did come upon her in deep converse with Valonne. + +"Tamara, dear," she said, "you must be so dreadfully tired. Slip off to +bed. They will go on until daylight," and there was something in her +face which prevented any questions. + +So, cold and sick with apprehension, poor Tamara crept to her room, +and, dismissing her weary maid, sat and rocked herself over her fire. + +What horrible thing had occurred? + +What was the meaning of that thin stream of blood? + + + + +CHAPTER XV + + +Tamara and her godmother did not meet until nearly lunchtime next day. +A little before that meal the Princess came into her room. Tamara was +still in bed, perfectly exhausted with the strain of the night. The +Princess wore an anxious look of care, as she walked from the window to +the dressing table and then back again. Finally she sat down and took +up a glove which was lying on a cushion near. + +"Tamara, you saw I talked last night with Valonne, and this morning I +sent for Serge Grekoff, but he would not come, so I got Valonne again." +She paused an instant. "I was extremely worried last night about +Gritzko. I dare say you were not to blame, dear, but--" + +"Please tell me, Marraine," and poor Tamara sat up and pushed her hair +back. + +"It appears, as far at I can gather, they all dined at the Fontonka +house--Boris Varishkine and Gritzko have always been great friends--and +at the end of dinner--Valonne imagines, because no one is sure what +took place between them at this stage--Gritzko, it is supposed, said to +Boris in quite an amiable way that he did not wish him to dance the +Mazurka with you, but to relinquish his right in his--Gritzko's-- +favor." + +She paused again, and Tamara's eyes fixed themselves in fascinated fear +on her face. The Princess, after smoothing out the glove in her hand +with a nervous energy, went on: + +"They had all had quite enough champagne, of course, and apparently +Boris refused, and suggested that they should toss up, and whoever won +the toss should have first shot in the dark." + +"Yes," said Tamara faintly. + +"You know, dear, our boys are often very wild, and they have a game +they play when they are at the end of their tether for something to do +when quartered in some hopeless outpost--a kind of blind-man's-buff-- +only it is all in the dark, and the blind man stands in the middle of +the room and the rest clap hands and then dodge, and he fires his +revolver at the point the sound seems to come from, and the object is +not to get shot. You may have noticed Sasha Basmanoff has no left +thumb? He lost it last year on just such a night." + +"Oh! Marraine, how dreadful!" Tamara said. + +"It is perhaps not a very civilized game," the Princess continued, "but +we are not discussing that, I am telling you what occurred. Well, from +this point Valonne and the rest were eyewitnesses. Gritzko and Boris, +still laughing in rather a strained way, said they had some slight +difference of opinion to settle, and had decided to do it in the +ballroom, in the dark. I won't go into details of how many steps to the +right or left, the impromptu seconds arranged, only it was settled when +Sasha at one end and Serge at the other should shut the doors they +should both fire, and if in three times neither was shot, both should +give up their claim." + +"It is too horrible! and for such a trifle," Tamara said, clutching the +bedclothes, and the Princess went on. + +"Valonne said they were both hit in the first round, and all the +company burst into the room. Nothing seemed very serious, and they +laughed and shook hands. So Valonne left to be in time for the ball, +but this morning, he told me, he found Boris Varishkine had had a +shoulder wound which bled very badly and quite prevented his coming, +while Gritzko was shot through the flesh of the right arm, and as soon +as they could bind it up decently, as you know, he came on." + +Tamara's face was as white as her pillow. She clasped her hands with a +movement of anguish. + +"Oh! Marraine, I am too unhappy," she wailed. "Indeed, indeed, I did +nothing to cause this. You heard me, I only said to Count Varishkine I +was looking forward to the dance. He is impossible, Gritzko. Oh! let me +go home!" + +"Alas! my child, what would be the good of that? If you went off +tonight instead of coming to Moscow, it might create a talk; what we +want is to prevent a scandal, to hush everything up. None of these men +will tell, and your name will not be dragged into it. And if we go on +our trip amicably as was arranged it will discountenance rumor. Gritzko +and Boris are quite friends again. And if anything about the shooting +does leak out, if no one has further cause for connecting you with it, +they will generally think it merely one of Gritzko's mad parties. For +heaven's sake let it all blow over, and after Moscow and a reasonable +time, not to appear too hurried, you shall go home." + +"But meanwhile, how can I know that he won't shoot at Jack? or do some +other awful thing! He does not love me really a bit, Marraine. It is +all out of pride and devilment because he wants to win and conquer me +and add me to his scalps, and I won't be conquered. I tell you I +won't!" and Tamara clenched her hands. + +The Princess did not know what to say, she was not perfectly sure in +her own mind as to Gritzko's feelings, and she was too thoroughly +acquainted with his ways to hazard any theory as to his possible acts. +She felt it might not be fair to assure her godchild that he truly +loved her. She could only think of tiding over matters for the time +being. + +"Tamara, dearest, could you at least try to keep the peace on our +trip?" she asked. "Be gentle with him, and do not excite him in any +way." + +Tamara buried her face in her pillows, she was too English to be +dramatic and sob; but when she spoke her soft voice trembled a little +and her eyes glistened with tears. + +"He is horribly cruel, Marraine," she said. + +"Why should he treat me as he does. I won't--I won't bear it." + +The Princess sighed. + +"Tamara, forgive me for asking you, but I must, I feel I must. Do you-- +love him, child?" + +Then passion flamed up in Tamara's white face, her secret was her own, +and she would defend it even from this kind friend--so--"I believe I +hate him!" she said. + +After a while the Princess left her, they having come to the agreement +that Tamara should do all that she could to keep the peace; but when +she was alone she decided to speak to Gritzko as little as possible +herself, and to ignore him completely. There would be no Boris and no +one to make him jealous. She would occupy herself with Stephen Strong, +and the sight-seeing, and even Sonia's husband, who was a bore and old, +too; but the prospect held out no charms for her. She knew that she +loved him deeply--this wild, fierce Gritzko--more deeply than ever +today, and the tears, one after another, trickled down her pale cheeks. + +If there was not a chance of any happiness, at least she must go home +keeping some rag of self-respect. She firmly determined that he should +not see the slightest feeling on her side, it should be restrained or +perhaps capricious even, as his own. + +Their train for Moscow started at nine o'clock, and the whole party had +arranged to dine at the Ardácheff house at seven and then go to the +station. + +Nothing of the scandal of the night seemed to have transpired, for no +one even hinted at anything about it. + +Gritzko was still very pale, but appeared none the worse, and the +atmosphere seemed to have resumed a peaceful note. + +The five sleeping compartments reserved for this party of ten were all +in a row in one carriage, and Tamara and the Princess, on the plea of +fatigue, immediately retired to their berths for the night, Tamara not +having addressed a single direct word to Gritzko. So far, so well. But +when she was comfortably tucked into the top berth, and an hour or so +later was just falling off to sleep, he knocked at the door, and the +Princess believing it to be the ticket-collector opened it, and he put +his head in. The shade was drawn over the lamp and the compartment was +in a blue gloom. Tamara was startled by hearing her godmother say: + +"Gritzko! Thou! What do you want, dear boy, disturbing us like this?" + +"I came to ask you to tie up my arm," he said. "I was practising with a +pistol yesterday, and it went off and the bullet grazed the skin, and +the damned thing has begun bleeding again. I know you are a trained +nurse, Tantine. Serge, who is with me, has tried and made a ridiculous +mess of it, so I brought the bandage to you." + +He now pulled back the shade and they saw he was standing there quite +_sans gêne_ in the same kind of blue silk pyjamas Tamara +remembered to have seen once before, and his eyes, far from being +tragic or serious, had the naughtiest, most mischievous twinkle in +them, while he whispered to the Princess and enlisted her sympathy for +his pain. + +"Gritzko, dearest child, but you are suffering! But let me see! only +wait in the passage until I have my dressing-gown, and then come in +again." + +Tamara now thought it prudent to crouch down in the clothes and +pretend to be asleep, while the kind Princess got up and arranged +herself. + +Then with a gentle tap this poor wounded one came in. + +Tamara was conscious that her godmother was murmuring horrified and +affectionate solicitations, as she busily set to work. She was also +conscious that Gritzko was standing with his shoulder leant against her +berth. He was so tall he could look at her, in spite of her retirement +to the farthest side, and she was horribly conscious of the magnetic +power exercised by his eyes. She longed quite to open hers, she longed +really to look. She felt so nervous she almost gave a silly little +laugh, but her will won, and her long eyelashes remained resting on her +cheek. + +"You darling. You are doing it beautifully!" he presently said, and +then more softly, "I had no idea how pretty your friend is! and how +soundly she sleeps! Do you think I might kiss her, Tantino? I have +always wanted to, only she is of such a severity I have been too +frightened. May I, Tantine?" And his voice sounded coaxing and sweet, +and Tamara felt sure he was caressing the Princess' hair with his free +hand, for that lady kept murmuring. + +"Tais toi!--Gritzko--have done! How can I bind your arm if you conduct +yourself so! Not a moment of stillness! Truly what a naughty child-- +keep still!" Then she spoke more severely to him in Russian, and he +laughed while he answered, and then presently the bandage was done, and +standing on tip-toe he looked full at Tamara. + +"And you think I must not kiss her? Oh! you are a most cruel Tantine! +She is sound asleep and would never know, and it would be just one of +the things which could cool my fever and help my arm." + +But the Princess interposed, sternly, and getting really annoyed with +him, he was forced to go. But first he kissed her hand and thanked her +and purred affection and gratitude with his astonishing charm, and the +Princess' voice grew more and more mollified as she said: "There-- +there--what a boy! Gritzko, dear child, begone!" + +And all this while, with her long eyelashes resting upon her cheek, +Tamara apparently slept peacefully on. + +But when the door was safely shut and bolted, the Princess addressed +her. + +"You are not really asleep, Tamara, I suppose," she said. "You have +heard? Is he not difficult. What is one to do with him? I can never +remain angry long. Those caresses! Mon Dieu! I wish you would love each +other and marry and go and live at Milasláv, and then we others might +have a little peace and calm!" + +"Marry him," and Tamara raised herself in bed. "One might as well marry +a panther in a jungle, it would be quite as safe!" she said. + +But the Princess shook her head. "There you are altogether wrong," she +replied. "Once there were no continuous obstacles to his will, he would +be gentle and adoring, he would be as tender and thoughtful as he is to +me when I am ill." + +Then into Tamara's brain there rushed visions of the unutterable +pleasure this tenderness would mean, and she said: + +"Don't let us talk;--I want to sleep, Marraine." + +And in the morning they arrived at Moscow. + + + + +CHAPTER XVI + + +The whole day of the sight-seeing passed with comparative smoothness, +Tamara persistently remained with Sonia's husband or Stephen Strong, +when any moment came that she should be alone with any man. + +She was apparently indifferent to Gritzko,--considering that she was +throbbing with interest in his every movement and inwardly longing to +talk to him--she kept up the _rôle_ she had set herself to play +very well. It was not an agreeable one, and but for the inward feverish +excitement she would have suffered much pain. + +Gritzko for his part seemed whimsically indifferent for most of the +time, but once now and then the Princess, who watched things as the god +in the car, experienced a sense of uneasiness. And yet she could not +suggest any other line of conduct for Tamara to pursue. But on the +whole the day was a success. + +The two young English guests had both been extremely interested in +what they saw. Stephen Strong was an old hand and knew it intimately, +and the whole party was so merry and gay. The snow fortunately had +held, and they rushed about in little sleighs seeing the quaint +buildings and picturesque streets and the churches with their bright +gilt domes. Moscow was really Russian, Prince Solentzeff-Zasiekin told +them, unlike Petersburg, which at a first glance might be Berlin or +Vienna, or anywhere else; but Moscow is like no other city in the +world. + +"How extremely good you Russians must be," Tamara said. "The quantities +of churches you have, and everywhere the people seem so devout. Look at +them kissing that Ikon in the street! Such faith is beautiful to see." + +"Our faith is our safeguard," her companion said. "When the people +become sufficiently educated to have doubts then, indeed, a sad day +will come." + +"They have such grave patient faces, don't you think?" said Stephen +Strong. "It is not exactly a hopeless expression, it is more one of +resignation. Whenever I come here I feel of what use is strife, and +yet after a while they make one melancholy." + +They were waiting by the house of the Romanoffs, for their guide to +open the door, and just then a batch of beggars passed, their wild hair +and terribly ragged sheepskins making them a queer gruesome sight. They +craved alms with the same patient smile with which they thanked when +money was given. Misery seemed to stalk about a good deal. + +"How could a great family have lived in this tiny house?" Tamara asked. +"Really, people in olden times seem to have been able to double up +anywhere. Pray look at this bedroom and this ridiculous bed!" + +"It will prepare you for what you are coming to at Milasláv," Gritzko +said. "A row of tent stretchers for everyone together in the hall!" + +Tamara made no answer, she contrived to move on directly he spoke, and +her reply now was to the general company, as it had been all day. + +If she had looked back then she would have seen a gleam in his eyes +which boded no peace. She thought she was doing everything for the +best, but each rebuff was adding fuel to that wild fire in his blood. + +By the end of the day, after walks through the Treasury and museums, +and what not, and never having been able to speak to Tamara, his temper +was at boiling point. But he controlled it, and his face wore a mask, +which disarmed even the Princess' fears. + +Their dinner was very gay, and the Russians asked Lord Courtray what +had impressed him most. + +"I like the story of Ivan the Terrible putting his jolly old alpenstock +through the fellow's foot on the stairs when he came with the letter," +Jack said. "Sensible sort of thing to do. Kept the messenger in place." + +Meanwhile Tamara was conversing in a lower voice with Stephen Strong. + +"The more you stay in this country, the more it fascinates you," he +said. "And you feel you have got back to some of the fierce primitive +passions of nature. Here, in Moscow, the whole earth must be stained +with wild orgies and blood, and yet they are full of poetry and +romance. Even Ivan the Terrible had his religious side, and every +creature of them believes in the saints and the priests. It is said the +impostor who posed as Ivan's son might have succeeded had he not been +too kind, he showed clemency to Shuisky and his enemies and did not +have them torn to pieces, so the people would not believe he could be +the Terrible's son! And they chased him to that window you remember we +saw in the old palace of the Kremlin and there he had to throw himself +out." + +"It makes one wonder what can arise from a history of such horrible +crimes," Tamara said. + +"You must not forget that the country is practically three hundred +years behind the times, though," Stephen Strong went on. "No doubt +quite as great horrors marked others if we look at them at an +equivalent stage of development. It is missing this point which makes +most strangers, and many foreign historians, so unjust to Russia and +her people. The national qualities are immeasurably great, but as a +civilized nation they are so very young." + +"I believe one could grow to love them," Tamara said. "I have never had +the feeling that I am among strangers since I have been here." + +Then she wondered vaguely why Stephen Strong smiled softly to himself. + +By the end of dinner, Gritzko's eyes were blazing, and he suggested +every sort of astonishing way to spend the night. But Princess +Ardácheff, as the doyenne of the party, prudently put her foot down, +and insisted upon bed. For had they not a whole morning of sight-seeing +still to do on the morrow, and then their thirty versts in troikas to +arrive at Milasláv. So the ladies all trouped off to rest. + +"Leave your door open into my room, Tamara dear, if you do not mind," +her godmother said. "I am always nervous in hotels--" + +"I trust everything is going quietly," she added to herself, "but one +never can tell." + +Next day the whole sky was leaden with unfallen snow. Nothing more +strange and gloomy and barbaric than Moscow looked could have been +imagined, Tamara thought. It brought out the gilt domes and the unusual +colors of things in a lurid way. + +Their first visit was to the Church of the Assumption, where the +emperors are crowned. Its great beauty and rich colors pleased the +eye. The totally different arrangement of things from any other sort of +church--the shape and the absence of chairs or seats--the hidden altar +behind the doors of the sanctuary--the numerous pictures and frescoed +walls--all gave it a mysterious, wonderful charm, and here again the +two English were struck by the people's simple faith. + +"We would catch every sort of disease kissing those Ikons after filthy +ulcerated beggars," Stephen Strong said to Tamara. "But the belief that +only good can come to them brings only good. The study of these people +makes one less materialistic and full of common sense. One puts more +credence in things occult." + +A service was just beginning, it was some high saint's day, and the +beautiful singing, the boys' angel voices and the deep bass of the +priests, unaccompanied by any instruments or organ, impressed Tamara +far more in this old temple than the services had done in any of the +St. Petersburg churches. + +A peace fell on her soul, and just as the gipsies' music had been of +the devil, so this seemed to come from heaven itself. She felt calmed +and happier when they came out. + +After an early lunch they saw from the hotel windows three troikas +drawn up. Two of them Gritzko's, and one belonging to Prince +Solentzeff Zasiekin, who had also a country place in the neighbourhood. + +The two, which had come a day or so before from Milasláv, were indeed +wonderful turn-outs. The Prince prided himself upon his horses, which +were renowned throughout Europe. + +The graceful shaped sleighs, with the drivers in their quaint liveries +standing up to drive, always unconsciously suggest that their origin +must have been some chariot from Rome. + +Gritzko's colors were a rich greenish-blue, while the reins and velvet +caps and belts of the drivers were a dull cerise; the caps were braided +with silver, while they and the coats and the blue velvet rugs were +lined and bordered with sable. One set of horses was coal black, and +the others a dark gray. Everything seemed in keeping with the +buildings, and the semi-Byzantine scene with its Oriental note of +picturesque grace. + +"Which will you choose to go in, Madame?" Gritzko asked. "Shall you be +drawn by the blacks or the grays?" + +"I would prefer the blacks," Tamara replied. "I always love black +horses, and these are such beautiful ones." And so it was arranged. + +"If you will come with Stephen and me, Tantino," the Prince said, "we +shall be the lighter load and get there first. Madame Loraine and Olga +can go with Serge and Lord Courtray, they will take the blacks; that +leaves Valonne for Sonia and her husband. Will this please everyone?" + +Apparently it did, for thus they started. It was an enchanting drive +over the snow. They seemed to fly along, once they had left the town, +and the weird bleak country, unmarked by any boundaries, impressed both +Tamara and Jack. And while Tamara was speculating upon its mystical +side, Lord Courtray was gauging its possibilities for sport. + +They at last skirted a dark forest, which seemed to stretch for miles, +and then after nearly three hours' drive arrived at the entrance to +Milasláv. + +They went through a wild, rough sort of park, and then came in view of +the house--a great place with tall Ionic pillars supporting the front, +and wings on each side--while beyond, stretching in an irregular mass, +was a wooden structure of a much earlier date. + +It all appeared delightfully incongruous and a trifle makeshift to +Tamara and Jack when they got out of their sleigh and were welcomed by +their host. + +A bare hall, at one side showing discolored marks of mould on the wall, +decorated in what was the Russian Empire style, a beautiful conception +retaining the classic lines of the French and yet with an added +richness of its own. Then on up to a first floor above a low _rez de +chaussée_ by wide stairs. These connecting portions of the house +seemed unfurnished and barren,--walls of stone or plaster with here and +there a dilapidated decoration. It almost would appear as if they were +meant to be shut off from the living rooms, like the hall of a block of +flats. The whole thing struck a strange note. There were quantities of +servants in their quaint liveries about, and when finally they arrived +in a great saloon it was bright and warm, though there was no open +fireplace, only the huge porcelain stove. + +Here the really beautiful, though rather florid Alexander I. style +struggled from the walls with an appalling set of furniture of the +period of Alexander II. But the whole thing had an odd unfinished look, +and a fine portrait of the Prince's grandfather in one panel was +entirely riddled with shot! + +Some splendid skins of bears and wolves were on the floor, and there +was a general air of the room being lived in--though magnificence and +dilapidation mingled everywhere. The very rich brocade on one of the +sofas had the traces of great rents. And while one table held cigarette +cases and cigar boxes in the most exquisitely fine enamel set with +jewels, on another would be things of the roughest wood. And a cabinet +at the side filled with a priceless collection of snuff boxes and +_bon-bonnières_ of Catherine's time had the glass of one door +cracked into a star of splinters. + +Tamara had a sudden sensation of being a million miles away from +England and her family: it all came as a breath of some other life. She +felt strangely nervous, she had not the least notion why. There was a +reckless look about things which caused a weird thrill. + +"If it were only arranged, what capabilities it all has," she thought; +"but as it is, it seems to speak of Gritzko and fierce strife." + +Tea and the usual quantities of _bonnes bouches_ and vodka waited +them and a bowl of hot punch. + +And all three English people, Stephen Strong, Tamara and Jack, admired +their host's gracious welcome, and his courtly manners. Not a trace of +the wild Gritzko seemed left. + +Tamara wondered secretly what their sleeping accommodation would be +like. + +"Tantine, you must act hostess for me. Will you show these ladies their +rooms," the Prince said. "Dinner is at eight o'clock, but you have lots +of time before for a little bridge if you want." + +He took them through the usual amount of reception-rooms--a +billiard-room and library, and small boudoir--and then they came out on +another staircase which led to the floor above. Here he left them and +returned to the men. + +"This was done up by the late Princess, Tamara," her godmother said. +"Even twenty years ago the taste was perfectly awful, as you can see. +The whole house could be made beautiful if only there was someone who +cared--though I expect we shall be comfortable enough." + +The top passage proved to be wide, but only distempered in two colors, +like the walls of a station waiting-room. Not the slightest attempt to +beautify or furnish with carved chairs, and cabinets of china, and +portraits and tapestry on the walls, as in an English house. In the +passage all was as plain as a barrack. + +Tamara's room and the Princess' joined. They were both gorgeously +upholstered in crude blue satin brocade, and full of gilt heavy +furniture, but in each there was a modern brass bed. + +They were immense apartments, and warm and bright, monuments of the +taste of 1878. + +"Is it not incredible, Marraine, that with the beautiful models of the +eighteenth century in front of them, people could have perpetrated +this? Waves of awful taste seem to come, and artists lose their sense +of beauty and produce the grotesque." + +"This is a paradise compared to some," the Princess laughed. "You +should see my sister-in-law's place!" + +One bridge table was made up already when they got back to the saloon, +and Sonia, Serge Grekoff and Valonne, only waited the Princess' advent +to begin their game. + +It seemed to be an understood thing that Gritzko and his English guest +should be left out, and so practically alone. + +"I feel it is my duty to learn to play better," Tamara said, "so I am +going to watch." + +He put down his hand and seized her wrist. "You shall certainly not," +he said. "You cannot be so rude as deliberately to controvert your +host. It is my pleasure that you shall sit here and talk." + +His eyes were flashing, and Tamara's spirit rose. + +"What a savage you are, Prince," she laughed. "Everything must be only +as you wish! That I want to watch the bridge does not enter into your +consideration." + +"Not a bit." + +"Well, then, since I must stay here I shall be disagreeable and not say +a word." + +And she sat down primly and folded her hands. + +He lit a cigarette, and she noticed his hand trembled a little, but his +voice was quite steady, and in fact low as he said: + +"I tell you frankly, if you go on treating me as you have done today, +whatever happens is on your head." + +"Do you mean to strangle me then?--or have me torn up by dogs?" and +Tamara smiled provokingly. With all the others in the room, and almost +within earshot, she felt perfectly safe. + +She had suffered so much, it seemed good to oppose him a little, when +it could not entail a duel with some unoffending man! + +"I do not know yet what I shall be impelled to do, only I warn you, if +you tease me, you will pay the price." And he puffed a cloud of smoke. + +"He can do nothing tonight," Tamara thought, "and tomorrow we are going +back to Moscow, and then I am returning home." A spirit of devilment +was in her. Nearly always it had been he who regulated things, and now +it was her turn. She had been so very unhappy, and had only the outlook +of dullness and regret. Tonight she would retaliate, she would do as +she felt inclined. + +So she leaned back in her chair and smiled, making a tantalizing moue +at him, while she said, mockingly: + +"Aren't you a barbarian, Prince! Only the days of Ivan the Terrible are +over, thank goodness!" + +He took a chair and sat down quietly, but the tone of his voice should +have warned her as he said: + +"You are counting upon the unknown." + +She peeped at him now through half-closed alluring lids, and she +noticed he was very pale. + +In her quiet, well-ordered life she had never come in contact with real +passion. She had not the faintest idea of the vast depths she was +stirring. All she knew was she loved him very much, and the whole thing +galled her pride horribly. It seemed a satisfaction, a salve to her +wounded vanity, to be able to make him feel, to punish him a little for +all her pain. + +"Think! This time next week. I shall be safe in peaceful England, where +we have not to combat the unknown." + +"No?" + +"No. Marraine and I have settled everything. I take the Wednesday's Nord +Express after we get back to Petersburg." + +"And tomorrow is Friday, and there are yet five days. Well, we must +contrive to show you some more scenes of our uncivilized country, and +perhaps after all you won't go." + +Tamara laughed with gay scorn. She put out her little foot and tapped +the edge of the great stove. + +"For once I shall do as I please, Prince. I shall not ask your leave!" + +His eyes seemed to gleam, and he lay perfectly still in his chair like +some panther watching its prey. Tamara's blood was up. She would not be +dominated! She continued mocking and defying him until she drove him +gradually mad. + +But on one thing she had counted rightly, he could do nothing with them +all in the room. + +First one and then another left their game, and joined them for a few +minutes, and then went back. + +And so in this fashion the late afternoon passed and they went up to +dress. + +No one was down in the great saloon when Tamara and the Princess +descended for dinner, but as they entered, Stephen Strong and Valonne +came in from the opposite door and joined them near the stove, and +Tamara and Valonne talked, while the other two wandered to a distant +couch. + +"Have you ever been to any of these wonderful parties one hears have +taken place, Count Valonne?" she asked. + +Valonne smiled his enigmatic smile. "Yes," he said. "I have once or +twice--perhaps you think this room shows traces of some rather violent +amusements, and really on looking round, I believe it does!" + +Tamara shivered slightly. She had the feeling known as a goose walking +over her grave. + +"It is as if wild animals played here--hardly human beings," she said. +"Look at that cabinet, and the sofa, and--and--that picture! One cannot +help reflecting upon what caused those holes. One's imagination can +conjure up extraordinary things." + +"Not more extraordinary than the probable facts," and Valonne laughed +as if at some astonishing recollection. "You have not yet seen our +host's own rooms though, I expect?" + +"Why?" asked Tamara. "But can they possibly be worse than this?" + +"No, that is just it. He had them done up by one of your English firms, +and they are beautifully comfortable and correct. His sitting-room is +full of books, and a few good pictures, and leads into his bedroom and +dressing-room; and as for the bathroom it is as perfect as any the best +American plumber could invent!" + +Valonne had spent years at Washington, and in England too, and spoke +English almost as a native. + +"He is the most remarkable contrast of wildness and civilization I have +ever met." + +"It always seems to me as though he were trying to crush something--to +banish something in himself," said Tamara. "As though he did these wild +things to forget." + +"It is the limitless nature warring against an impossible bar. If he +were an Englishman he would soar to be one of the greatest of your +country, Madame," Valonne said. "You have not perhaps talked to him +seriously; he is extraordinarily well read; and then on some point that +we of the Occident have known as children, he will be completely +ignorant, but he never bores one! Nothing he does makes one feel heavy +like lead!" + +Tamara looked so interested, Valonne went on. + +"These servants down here absolutely idolize him; they have all been in +the house since he or they were born. For them he can do no wrong. He +has a gymnasium, and he keeps two or three of them to exercise him, and +wrestle with him, and last year Basil, the second one, put his master's +shoulder out of joint, and then tried to commit suicide with remorse. +You can't, until you have been here a long time, understand their +strange natures. So easily moved to passion, so fierce and barbaric, +and yet so full of sentiment and fidelity. I firmly believe if he were +to order them to set fire to us all in our beds tonight, they would do +it without a word! He is their personal 'Little Father.' For them there +is a trinity to worship and respect--the Emperor, God, and their +Master." + +Tamara felt extremely moved. A passionate wild regret swept over her. +Oh! why might not fate let him love her really, so that they could be +happy. How she would adore to soothe him, and be tender and gentle and +obedient, and bring him peace! + +But just at that moment, with an air of exasperating insouciant +insolence, he came into the room and began chaffing with Valonne, and +turning to her said something which set her wounded pride again all +aflame, and burning with impotence and indignation she, as the strange +guest, put her hand on his arm to go in to dinner. + +Zacouska was partaken of, and then the serious repast began. Every one +was in the highest spirits. Countess Olga and Lord Courtray looked as +though they were getting on with giant strides. Jack had got to the +whispering stage, which Tamara knew to be a serious one with him. The +whole party became worked up to a point of extra gaiety. On her other +hand sat Sonia's husband, Prince Solentzeff-Zasiekin. But Gritzko +sparkled with brilliancy and seemed to lead the entire table. + +There was something so extremely attractive about him in his character +of host that Tamara felt she dared hardly look at him or she could not +possibly keep up this cold reserve if she did! + +So she turned and talked, and apparently listened, with scarcely a +pause to her right-hand neighbor's endless dissertations upon Moscow, +and while she answered interestedly, her thoughts grew more and more +full of rebellion and unrest. + +It was as if a needle had an independent will, and yet was being drawn +by a magnet against itself. She had to use every bit of her force to +keep her head turned to Prince Solentzeff-Zasiekin, and when Gritzko +did address her, only to answer him in monosyllables, stiffly, but +politely, as a stranger guest should. + +By the end of dinner he was again wild with rage and exasperation. + +When they got back to the great saloon, they found the end of it had +been cleared and a semicircle of chairs arranged for them to sit in and +watch some performance. It proved to be a troupe of Russian dancers and +some Cossacks who made a remarkable display with swords, while +musicians, in their national dress, accompanied the performance. + +Tamara and Lord Courtray had seen this same sort of dancing in London +when Russian troupes gave their "turns," but never executed with such +wonderful fire and passion as this they witnessed now. The feats were +quite extraordinary, and one or two of the women were attractive-looking +creatures. + +Gritzko's attitude toward them was that of the benevolent master to +highly trained valued hounds. Indeed this feeling seemed to be mutual, +the hounds adoring their master with blind devotion, as all his +belongings did. + +During most of the time he sat behind the Princess, and whispered +whatever conversation he had in her ear; but every now and then he +would move to Princess Sonia or Countess Olga, and lastly subsided +close to Tamara, and bending over leaned on the back of her chair. + +He did not speak, but his close proximity caused her to experience the +exquisite physical thrill she feared and dreaded. When her heart beat +like that, and her body tingled with sensation, it was almost +impossible to keep her head. + +His fierceness frightened her, but when he was gentle, she knew she +melted at once, and only longed to be in his arms. So she drew herself +up and shrank forward away from him, and began an excited conversation +with Stephen Strong. + +Gritzko got up abruptly and strode back to the Princess. And soon +tables and supper were brought in, and there was a general move. + +Tamara contrived to outwit him once more when he came up to speak. It +was the only way, she felt. No half-measures would do now. She loved +him too much to be able to unbend an inch with safety. Otherwise it +would be all over with her, and she could not resist. + +They had been standing alone for an instant, and he said, looking +passionately into her eyes: + +"Tamara, do you know you are driving me crazy--do you think it wise?" + +"I really don't care whether my conduct is wise or not, Prince," she +replied. "As I told you, tonight, and from now onward, I shall do as I +please." And she gathered all her forces together to put an indifferent +look on her face. + +"So be it then," he said, and turned instantly away, and for the rest +of the time never addressed her again. + +The long drive in the cold had made every one sleepy, and contrary to +their usual custom, they were all ready for bed soon after one o'clock, +and to their great surprise Gritzko made no protest, but let the +ladies quietly go. + +Tamara's last thoughts before she closed her weary eyes were, what a +failure it all had been! She had succeeded in nothing. She loved him +madly, and she was going back home. And if she had made him suffer, it +was no consolation! She would much rather have been happy in his arms! + +Meanwhile, Gritzko had summoned Ivan, his major domo, and the substance +of his orders to that humble slave was this. That early on the morrow +the stove was to be lit in the hut by the lake, where at the time when +the woodcock came in quantities he sometimes spent the night waiting +for the dawn. + +"And see that there is fodder for the horses," he added. "And that +Stépan drives my troika with the blacks, and let the brown team be +ready, too, but neither of these to come round until the grays have +gone. And in the hut put food--cold food--and some brandy and +champagne." + +The servant bowed in obedience and was preparing to leave the room. + +"Oil the locks and put the key in my overcoat pocket," his master +called again. And then he lit another cigarette and drawing back the +heavy curtains looked out on the night. + +It was inky black, the snow had not yet begun to fall. + +All promised well. + + + + +CHAPTER XVII + + +Tamara had just begun to dress when her godmother came into her room +next day. + +"There is going to be a terrible snow storm, dear," she said. "I think +we should get down fairly early and suggest to Gritzko that we start +back to Moscow before lunch. It is no joke to be caught in this wild +country. I will send you in Katia." + +Tamara's maid had been left in Petersburg, and indeed her godmother's, +an elderly Russian accustomed to these excursions, had been the only +one brought. + +"I won't be more than half an hour dressing," she said. "Don't go down +without me, Marraine." + +And the Princess promised and returned to her room. + +"It has been a real success, our little outing, has it not?" she said, +when later they were descending the stairs. "Gritzko has been so quiet +and nice. I am so happy, dear child, that you can go away now without +that uncomfortable feeling of quarreling. There was one moment when he +got up from behind your chair last night I feared you had angered him +about something, but afterward he was so gentle and charming when we +talked I felt quite reassured." + +"Yes, indeed," feebly responded Tamara. "The party has been positively +tame!" + +They found their host had gone with Jack and the rest of the men to the +stables to inspect his famous teams. But Princess Sonia and Countess +Olga were already down. They were smoking lazily, and had almost +suggested a double dummy of their favorite game. + +They hailed the two with delight, and soon the four began a rubber, and +Tamara, who hated it, had to keep the whole of her attention to try and +avoid making some mistake. + +Thus an hour past, and first Stephen Strong and then the other men came +in. + +Jack Courtray was enthusiastic about the horses, and indeed the whole +thing. He and Gritzko had arranged to go on a bear-hunt the following +week, and everything looked _couleur de rose_--except the sky, +that continued covered with an inky pall. + +The Princess beckoned to Gritzko and took him aside. She explained her +fears about the storm, and the necessity of an earlier start, to which +he agreed. + +"I am going to ask you to let us take Katia with us, we have only the +one maid, and must have her in Moscow when we arrive," she said. + +So thus it was arranged. The Princess and Stephen Strong and Katia were +to start first, and Sonia and her husband would take both Serge and +Valonne, leaving Gritzko to bring Tamara, Olga and Lord Courtray last. + +All through the early lunch, which was now brought in, nothing could +have been more lamblike than their host. He exerted himself to be +sweetly agreeable to every one, and the Princess, generally so alert, +felt tranquil and content, while Tamara almost experienced a sense of +regret. + +Only Count Valonne, if he had been asked, would have suggested--but he +was not officious and kept his ideas to himself. + +The snow now began to fall, just a few thin flakes, but it made them +hurry their departure. + +In the general chatter and chaff no one noticed that Gritzko had never +once spoken directly to Tamara, but she was conscious of it, and +instead of its relieving her, she felt a sudden depression. + +"You will be quite safe with Olga and your friend, dearest," the +Princess whispered to her as she got into the first troika which came +round. "And we shall be only just in front of you." + +So they waved adieu. + +Then Princess Sonia's party started. The cold was intense, and as the +team of blacks had not yet appeared, the host suggested the two ladies +should go back and wait in the saloon. + +"Don't you think our way of herding in parties here is quite +ridiculous," he said to Jack, when Olga and Tamara were gone. "After +the rest get some way on, I'll have round the brown team too. It is +going to be a frightful storm, and we shall go much better with only +two in each sleigh." + +Jack was entirely of his opinion, from his English point of view, a +party of four made two of them superfluous. Countess Olga and himself +were quite enough. So he expressed his hearty approval of this +arrangement, and presently as they smoked on the steps, the three brown +horses trotted up. + +"I'll go and fetch Olga," Gritzko said, and as luck would have it he +met her at the saloon door. + +"I had forgotten my muff," she said, "and had just run up to fetch it." + +Then he explained to her about the storm and the load, and since it was +a question of duty to the poor horses, Countess Olga was delighted to +let pleasure go with it hand in hand. And she allowed herself to be +settled under the furs, with Jack, without going back to speak to +Tamara. Indeed, Gritzko was so matter of fact she started without a +qualm. + +"We shall overtake you in ten minutes," he said. "The blacks are much +the faster team." And they gaily waved as they disappeared beyond the +bend of the trees. Then he spoke to his faithful Ivan. "In a quarter of +an hour let the blacks come round." And there was again the gleam of a +panther in his eyes as he glanced at the snow. + +All this while Tamara, seated by the saloon stove, was almost growing +uneasy at being left so long alone. What could Olga be doing to stay +such a time? + +Then the door opened, and the Prince came in. + +"We must start now," he said, in a coldly polite tone. "The storm is +coming, and four persons made too heavy a load; so Lord Courtray and +Olga have gone on." + +Tamara's heart gave a great bound, but his face expressed nothing, and +her sudden fear calmed. + +He was ceremoniously polite as he helped her in. Nor did he sit too +near her or change his manner one atom as they went along. He hardly +spoke; indeed they both had to crouch down in the furs to shelter from +the blinding snow. And if Tamara had not been so preoccupied with +keeping her woollen scarf tight over her head she would have noticed +that when they left the park gate they turned to the right, in the full +storm, not to the left, where it was clearer and which was the way they +had come. + +At last the Prince said something to the coachman in Russian, and the +man shook his head--the going was terribly heavy. They seemed to be +making tracks for themselves through untrodden snow. + +"Stépan says we cannot possibly go much further, and we must shelter +in the shooting hut," Gritzko announced, gravely; and again Tamara +felt a twinge of fear. + +"But what has become of the others?" she asked. "Why do we not see +their tracks?" + +"They are obliterated in five minutes. You do not understand the +Russian storm," he said. + +Tamara's heart now began to beat again rather wildly, but she reasoned +with herself; she was no coward, and indeed why had she any cause for +alarm? No one could be more aloof than her companion seemed. She was +already numb with cold too, and her common sense told her shelter of +any sort would be acceptable. + +They had turned into the forest by now, and the road--if road it could +be called--was rather more distinct. + +It was a weird scene. The great giant pine trees, and the fine falling +flakes penetrating through, the quickly vanishing daylight, and the +mist rising from the steaming horses as they galloped along; while +Stépan stood there urging them on like some northern pirate at a ship's +prow. + +At last the view showed the white frozen lake, and by it a rough log +hut. They came upon it suddenly, so that Tamara could only realize it +was not large and rather low, when they drew up at the porch. + +At the time she was too frozen and miserable to notice that the Prince +unlocked the door, but afterward she remembered she should have been +struck by the strangeness of his having a key. + +He helped her out, and she almost fell she was so stiff with cold, and +then she found herself, after passing through a little passage, in a +warm, large room. It had a stove at one end, and the walls, distempered +green, had antlers hung round. There was one plain oak table and a +bench behind it, a couple of wooden armchairs, a corner cupboard, and +an immense couch with leather cushions, which evidently did for a bed, +and on the floor were several wolf skins. + +The Prince made no explanation as to why there was a fire, he just +helped her off with her furs without a word; he hung them up on a peg +and then divested himself of his own. + +He wore the brown coat to-day, and was handsome as a god. Then, after +he had examined the stove and looked from the window, he quietly left +the room. + +The contrast of the heat after the intense cold without made a tingling +and singing in Tamara's ears. She was not sure, but thought she heard +the key turn in the lock. She started to her feet from the chair where +she sat and rushed to try the door, and this time her heart again gave +a terrible bound, and she stood sick with apprehension. + +The door was fastened from without. + +For a few awful moments which seemed an eternity, she was conscious of +nothing but an agonized terror. She could not reason or decide how to +act. And then her fine courage came back, and she grew more calm. + +She turned to the window, but that was double, and tightly shut and +fastened up. There was no other exit, only this one door. Finding +escape hopeless, she sat down and waited the turn of events. Perhaps he +only meant to frighten her, perhaps there was some reason why the door +must be barred; perhaps there were bears in this terribly lonely place. + +She sat there reasoning with herself and controlling her nerves for +moments which appeared like hours, and then she heard footsteps in the +passage, breaking the awful silence, and the door opened, and Gritzko +strode into the room. + +He locked it after him, and pocketed the key; then he faced her. What +she saw in his passionate eyes turned her lips gray with fear. + +And now everything of that subtle thing in womankind which resists +capture, came uppermost in Tamara's spirit. She loved him--but even so +she would not be taken. + +She stood holding on to the rough oak table like a deer at bay, her +face deadly white, and her eyes wide and staring. + +Then stealthily the Prince drew nearer, and with a spring seized her +and clasped her in his arms. + +"Now, now, you shall belong to me," he cried. "You are mine at last, +and you shall pay for the hours of pain you have made me suffer!" and +he rained mad kisses on her trembling lips. + +A ghastly terror shook Tamara. This man whom she loved, to whom in +happier circumstances she might have ceded all that he asked, now only +filled her with frantic fear. But she would not give in, she would +rather die than be conquered. + +"Gritzko--oh, Gritzko! please--please don't!" she cried, almost +suffocated. + +But she knew as she looked at him that he was beyond all hearing. + +His splendid eyes blazed with the passion of a wild beast. She knew if +she resisted him he would kill her. Well, better death than this +hideous disgrace. + +He held her from him for a second, and then lifted her in his arms. + +But with the strength of terrified madness she grasped his wounded arm, +and in the second in which he made a sudden wince, she gave an eel-like +twist and slipped from his grasp, and as she did so she seized the +pistol in his belt and stood erect while she placed the muzzle to her +own white forehead. + +"Touch me again, and I will shoot!" she gasped, and sank down on the +bench almost exhausted behind the rough wooden table. + +He made a step forward, but she lifted the pistol again to her head +and leant her arm on the board to steady herself. And thus they glared +at one another, the hunter and the hunted. + +"This is very clever of you, Madame," he said; "but do you think it +will avail you anything? You can sit like that all night, if you wish, +but before dawn I will take you." + +Tamara did not answer. + +Then he flung himself on the couch and lit a cigarette, and all that +was savage and cruel in him flamed from his eyes. + +"My God! what do you think it has been like since the beginning?" he +said. "Your silly prudish fears and airs. And still I loved you--madly +loved you. And since the night when I kissed your sweet lips you have +made me go through hell--cold and provoking and disdainful, and last +night when you defied me, then I determined you should belong to me by +force; and now it is only a question of time. No power in heaven or +earth can save you--Ah! if you had been different, how happy we might +have been! But it is too late; the devil has won, and soon I will do +what I please." + +Tamara never stirred, and the strain of keeping the pistol to her head +made her wrist ache. + +For a long time there was silence, and the great heat caused a mist to +swim before her eyes, and an overpowering drowsiness--Oh, heaven!--if +unconsciousness should come upon her! + +Then the daylight faded quite, and the Prince got up and lit a small +oil lamp and set it on the shelf. He opened the stove and let the glow +from the door flood through the room. + +Then he sat down again. + +A benumbing agony crept over Tamara; her brain grew confused in the +hot, airless room. It seemed as if everything swam round her. All she +saw clearly were Gritzko's eyes. + +There was a deathly silence, but for an occasional moan of the wind in +the pine trees. The drift of snow without showed white as it gradually +blocked the window. + +Were they buried here--under the snow? Ah! she must fight against this +horrible lethargy. + +It was a strange picture. The rough hut room with its skins and +antlers; the fair, civilized woman, delicate and dainty in her soft +silk blouse, sitting there with the grim Cossack pistol at her +head--and opposite her, still as marble, the conquering savage man, +handsome and splendid in his picturesque uniform; and just the dull +glow of the stove and the one oil lamp, and outside the moaning wind +and the snow. + +Presently Tamara's elbow slipped and the pistol jerked forward. In a +second the Prince had sprung into an alert position, but she +straightened herself, and put it back in its place, and he relaxed the +tension, and once more reclined on the couch. + +And now there floated through Tamara's confused brain the thought that +perhaps it would be better to shoot in any case--shoot and have done +with it. But the instinct of her youth stopped her--suicide was a sin, +and while she did not reason, the habit of this belief kept its hold +upon her. + +So an hour passed in silence, then the agonizing certainty came upon +her that there must be an end. Her arm had grown numb. + +Strange lights seemed to flash before her eyes--Yes,--surely--that was +Gritzko coming toward her--! + +She gave a gasping cry and tried to pull the trigger, but it was +stiff, her fingers had gone to sleep and refused to obey her. The +pistol dropped from her nerveless grasp. + +So this was the end! He would win. + +She gave one moan--and fell forward unconscious upon the table. + +With a bound Gritzko leaped up, and seizing her in his arms carried her +into the middle of the room. Then he paused a moment to exult in his +triumph. + +Her little head, with its soft brown hair from which the fur cap had +fallen, lay helpless on his breast. The pathetic white face, with its +childish curves and long eyelashes, resting on her cheek, made no +movement. The faint, sweet scent of a great bunch of violets crushed in +her belt came up to him. + +And as he fiercely bent to kiss her white, unconscious lips, suddenly +he drew back and all the savage exultation went out of him. + +He gazed at her for a moment, and then carried her tenderly to the +couch and laid her down. She never stirred. Was she dead? Oh, God! + +In frightful anguish he put his ear to her heart; it did not seem to +beat. + +In wild fear he tore open her blouse and wrenched apart her fine +underclothing, the better to listen. Yes, now through only the bare +soft skin he heard a faint sound. Ah! saints in heaven! she was not +dead. + +Then he took off her boots and rubbed her cold little silk-stockinged +feet, and her cold damp hands, and presently as he watched, it seemed +as if some color came back to her cheeks, and at last she gave a sigh +and moved her head without opening her eyes--and then he saw that she +was not unconscious now, but sleeping. + +Then the bounds of all his mad passion burst, and as he knelt beside +the couch, great tears suffused his eyes and trickled down his cheeks. + +"My Doushka! my love!" he whispered, brokenly. "Oh, God! and I would +have hurt you!" + +He rose quickly, and going to the window opened the ventilator at the +top, picked up the pistol from the table and replaced it in his belt, +and then he knelt once more beside Tamara, and with deepest reverence +bent down and kissed her feet. + +"Sleep, sleep, my sweet Princess," he said softly, and then crept +stealthily from the room. + + + + +CHAPTER XVIII + + +The light was gray when Tamara awoke, though the lamp still burned-- +more than three parts of the window was darkened by snow--only a peep +of daylight flickered in at the top. + +Where was she! What had happened? Something ghastly--but what? + +Then she perceived her torn blouse, and with a terrible pang +remembrance came back to her. + +She started up, and as she did so realized she was only in her +stockinged feet. + +For a moment she staggered a little and then fell back on the couch. + +The awful certainty--or so it seemed to her--of what had occurred came +upon her, Gritzko had won--she was utterly disgraced. + +The whole training of her youth thundered at her. Of all sins, none had +been thought so great as this which had happened to her. + +She was an outcast. She was no better than poor Mary Gibson whom Aunt +Clara had with harshness turned from her house. + +She--a lady!--a proud English lady! She covered her face with her +hands. What had her anguish of mind been before, when compared with +this! She had suffered hurt to her pride the day after he had kissed +her, but now that seemed as nothing balanced with such hideous +disgrace. + +She moaned and rocked herself to and fro. Wild thoughts came--where was +the pistol? She would end her life. + +She looked everywhere, but it was gone. + +Presently she crouched down in a corner like a cowed dog, too utterly +overcome with shame and despair to move. + +And there she still was when Gritzko entered the room. + +She looked up at him piteously, and with unconscious instinct tried to +pull together her torn blouse. + +In a flash he saw what she thought, and one of those strange shades in +his character made him come to a resolve. Not until she should lie +willingly in his arms--herself given by love--should he tell her her +belief was false. + +He advanced up the room with a grave quiet face. His expression was +inscrutable. She could read nothing from his look. Her sick imagination +told her he was thus serene because he had won, and she covered her +face with her hands, while her cheeks flamed, and she sobbed. + +Her weeping hurt him--he nearly relented--but +as he came near she looked up. + +No! Not in this mood would he win her! and his resolve held. + +She did not make him any reproaches; she just sat there, a crumpled, +pitiful figure in a corner on the floor. + +"The snowstorm is over," he said in a restrained voice; "we can get on +now. Some of my Moujiks got here this morning, and I have been able to +send word to the Princess that she should not be alarmed." + +Then, as Tamara did not move, he put out his hand and helped her up. +She shuddered when he touched her, and her tears burst out afresh. +Where was all her pride gone--it lay trampled in the dust. + +"You are tired and hungry, Madame," he said, "and here is a looking-glass +and a comb and brush," and he opened a door of the tall cupboard +which filled the corner opposite the stove, and took the things out for +her. "Perhaps you might like to arrange yourself while I bring you some +food." + +"How can I face the others,--with this blouse!" she exclaimed +miserably, and then her cheeks crimsoned again, and she looked down. + +He did not make any explanation of how it had got torn--the moment was +a wonderful one between them. + +Over Tamara crept some strange emotion, and he walked to the door +quickly to prevent himself from clasping her in his arms, and kissing +away her fears. + +When she was alone the cunning of all Eve's daughters filled her. Above +all things she must now use her ingenuity to efface these startling +proofs. She darted to the cupboard and searched among the things there, +and eventually found a rough housewife, and chose out a needle and +coarse thread. It was better than nothing, so she hurriedly drew off +the blouse, then she saw her torn underthings--and another convulsive +pang went through her--but she set to work. She knew that however she +might make even the blouse look to the casual eyes of her godmother, +she could never deceive her maid. Then the thought came that +fortunately Johnson was in Petersburg, and all these things could be +left behind at Moscow. Yes, no one need ever know. + +With feverish haste she cobbled up the holes, glancing nervously every +few moments to the door in case Gritzko should come in. Then she put +the garment on again--refastened her brooch and brushed and recoiled +her hair. What she saw in the small looking-glass helped to restore her +nerve. Except that her eyes were red, and she was very pale, she was +tidy and properly clothed. + +She sat down by the table and tried to think. These outside things +could still look right, but nothing could restore her untarnished +pride. + +How could she ever take her blameless place in the world again. + +Once more it hurt Gritzko terribly to see the woebegone, humbled, +hopeless look on her face as he came in and put some food on the table. +He cut up some tempting bits and put them on her plate, while he told +her she must eat--and she obeyed mechanically. Then he poured out a +tumbler of champagne and made her drink it down. It revived her, and +she said she was ready to start. But as she stood he noticed that all +her proud carriage of head was gone. + +"My God! what should I feel like now?" he said to himself, "if it were +really true!" + +He wrapped her in her furs with cold politeness, his manner had resumed +the stiffness of their yesterday's drive. + +Suddenly she felt it was not possible there could be this frightful +secret between them. It must surely be all a dreadful dream. + +She began to speak, and he waited gravely for what she would say; but +the words froze on her lips when she saw the pistol in his belt--that +brought back the reality. She shuddered convulsively and clenched her +hands. He put on his furs quietly and then opened the door. + +He lifted her into the troika which was waiting outside. Stépan's face, +as he stood holding the reins, was as stolid as though nothing unusual +had occurred. + +So they started. + +"I told the messenger to tell Tantine that we were caught in the snow," +he said, "and had to take shelter at the farm.--There is a farm a verst +to the right after one passes the forest. It contains a comfortable +farmer's wife and large family, and though you found it too +confoundedly warm in their kitchen you passed a possible night. + +"Very well," said Tamara with grim meekness. + +Then there was silence. + +Her thoughts became a little confused with the intense cold and the +effect of the champagne, and once or twice she dozed off; and when he +saw this he drew her close to him and let her sleep with her head +against his arm, while he wrapped the furs round her so that she felt +no cold. Then he kept watch over her tenderly, fondest love in his +eyes. She would wake sometimes with a start and draw herself away, but +soon fell off again, and in this fashion, neither speaking, the hours +passed and they gradually drew near Moscow. + +Then she woke completely with a shudder and sat up straight, and so +they came to the hotel and found the Princess and the others anxiously +waiting for them. + +"What an unfortunate contretemps, Tamara, dear child," her godmother +said, "that wicked storm! We only just arrived safely, and poor Olga +and your friend fared no better than you! Imagine! they, too, had to +take shelter in that second village in a most horrible hovel, which +they shared with the cows. It has been too miserable for you all four I +am afraid." + +But Gritzko was obliged to turn quickly away to hide the irrepressible +smile in his eyes--really, sometimes, fate seemed very kind. + +So there was no scandal, only commiseration, and both Countess Olga and +Tamara were petted and spoilt--while, if there was a roguish note in +Valonne's sympathetic condolences, none of them appeared to notice it. + +However, no petting seemed to revive Tamara. + +"You have caught a thorough chill, I fear, dearest," +the Princess said; and as they had missed their sleeping berths engaged +for the night before, and were unable to get accommodation on the train +again for the night, they were forced to remain in Moscow until the +next day, so the Princess insisted upon her godchild going immediately +to bed, while the rest of the party settled down to bridge. + +"It is a jolly thing, a snowstorm!" Lord Courtray said to Gritzko. +"Isn't it? 'Pon my soul I have never enjoyed the smell of cows and hay +so much in my life!" + +But upstairs in the stiff hotel bedroom Tamara sobbed herself to sleep. + + + + +CHAPTER XIX + + +The journey back to Petersburg passed in a numb, hopeless dream for +Tamara. She did her best to be natural and gay, but her white face, +pinched and drawn, caused her godmother to feel anxious about her. + +Gritzko had bidden them goodbye at the train--he was going back to +Milasláv to arrange for his and Jack's bear-hunt--and would not be in +the capital for two more days. That would be the Tuesday, and Tamara +was to leave on Wednesday evening by the Nord Express. + +He had kissed her hand with respectful reverence as he said farewell, +and the last she saw of him was standing there in his gray overcoat and +high fur collar, a light in his eyes as they peered from beneath his +Astrakhan cap. + +The Princess sent for the doctor next day--they arrived late at night +at the Ardácheff house. + +"Your friend has got a chill, and seems to have had a severe shock," +he said when he came from Tamara's room. "Make her rest in bed today, +and then distract her with cheerful society." + +And the Princess pondered as she sat in the blue salon alone. A +shock--what had happened? Could fear of the storm have caused a shock? +She felt very worried. + +And poor Tamara lay limp in her bed; but every now and then she would +clench her hands in anguish as some fresh aspect of things struck her. +The most ghastly moment of all came when she remembered the eventual +fate of Mary Gibson. + +What if she also should have-- + +"No! Oh, no!" she unconsciously screamed aloud; and her godmother, +coming into the room, was really alarmed. + +From this moment onward the horror of this thought took root in her +brain, and she knew no peace. But her will and her breeding came to her +rescue. She would not lie there like an invalid; she would get up and +dress and go down to tea. She would chaff with the others who would all +swarm to see her. No one should pity or speculate about her. And she +made Johnson garb her in her loveliest teagown, and then she went to +the blue salon. + +And amidst the laughter and fun they had talking of their adventure, no +one but Stephen Strong remarked the feverish unrest in her eyes, or the +bright, hectic flush in her cheeks. + +When night came and she was alone again, her thoughts made a hell; she +could not sleep; she paced her room. If Gritzko should not return on +Tuesday. If she should never see him again. What--what would happen-- +if--she--too--like poor Mary Gibson-- + +Next day--the Tuesday--at about eleven o'clock, a servant in the +Milaslávski livery arrived with a letter, a stiff-looking, large, +sealed letter. She had never seen Gritzko's writing before and she +looked at it critically as she tremblingly broke it open. + +It was written from Milasláv the day they had left Moscow. It was short +and to the point, and her eyes dilated as she read. + +It began thus: + +"To Madame Loraine, + +"Madame,--I write to ask you graciously to accord me the honor of your +hand. If you will grant me this favor I will endeavor to make you +happy. + +"I have the honor, Madame, to remain, + +"Your humble and devoted serviteur, + +"Gregoir[Footnote 1: "Gritzko" is the diminutive of "Gregoir."] +Milaslávski." + +And as once before in her life Tamara's knees gave way under her, and +she sat down hurriedly on the bed--all power of thought had left her. + +"The messenger waits, ma'am," her maid said, stolidly, from the door. + +Then she pulled herself together and went to the writing-table. Her +hand trembled, but she steadied it, and wrote her answer. + +"To Prince Milaslávski,-- + +"Monsieur,--I have no choice. I consent + +"Yours truly, + +"Tamara Loraine." + +And she folded it, and placing it in the envelope, she sealed it with +her own little monogram seal, in tender blue wax, and handed it to her +maid, who left the room. + +Then she stared in front of her--her arms crossed on the table--but +she could not have analyzed the emotions which were flooding her being. + +Her godmother found her there still as an image when presently she came +to ask after her health. + +"Tamara! dearest child. You worry me dreadfully. Confide in me, little +one. Tell me what has happened?" and she placed her kind arms around +her goddaughter's shoulders and caressed and comforted her. + +Tamara shivered, and then stood up. "I am going to marry Gritzko, +Marraine," she said. "I have just sent him my answer." + +And the Princess had too much tact to do more than embrace her, and +express her joy, and give her her blessing. All as if the news +contained no flaw, and had come in the most delightful manner. + +Then she left her alone in her room. + +Yes, this was the only thing to be done, and the sooner the ceremony +should be over the better. Lent would come on in a few short weeks; +that would be the excuse to hasten matters, and this idea was all +Tamara was conscious of as she finished dressing. + +At twelve o'clock, with formal ceremony, Prince Milaslávski sent to +ask if the Princess Ardácheff could receive him--and soon after he was +shown up into the first salon, where the hostess awaited him. + +He was dressed in his blue and scarlet uniform, and was groomed with +even extra care, she noticed, as he advanced with none of his habitual +easy familiarity to greet her. + +"I come to ask your consent to my marriage with your goddaughter, +Tantine," he said, with grave courtesy, as he kissed her hand. "She has +graciously promised to become my wife, and I have only to secure your +consent to complete my felicity." + +"Gritzko! my dear boy!" was all the Princess could murmur. "If--if--you +are sure it is for the happiness of you both nothing of course could +give me greater joy; but--" + +"It will be for our happiness," he answered, letting the hinted doubt +pass. + +Then his ceremonious manner melted a little, and he again kissed his +old friend's hand. "Dear Tantine, have no fears. I promise you it shall +be for our happiness." + +The Princess was deeply moved. She knew there must be something +underneath all this, but she was accustomed to believe Gritzko blindly, +and she felt that if he gave his word, things must be right. She would +ask no questions. + +"Will you go and fetch my fiancée like the darling you are," he said +presently, "I want you to give her to me." + +And the Princess, quite overcome with emotion, left the room. + +It was not like a triumphant prospective Princess and bride that Tamara +followed her godmother, when they returned together. She looked a +slender drooping girl, in a clinging dove-colored gown, and she hardly +raised her eyes from the carpet. Her trembling hand was cold as death +when the Princess took it and placed it in Gritzko's, and as they stood +receiving her blessing she kissed them both, and then hurriedly made +her exit. + +When they were alone Tamara remained limp and still, her eyes fixed on +the ground. It was he who broke the silence--as he took her left hand, +and touched it with his lips. + +He drew from her finger her wedding ring and carelessly put it on a +table--while he still held her hand--then he placed his gift in the +wedding ring's place, a glittering thing of an immense diamond and +ruby. + +Tamara shivered. She looked down at her hand, it seemed as if all safe +and solid things were slipping from her with the removal of that plain +gold band. She made no remark as to the beauty of the token of her +engagement, she did not thank him, she remained inert and nerveless. + +"I thank you, Madame, for your consent," he said stiffly, "I will try +to make you not regret it." He used no word of love, nor did he attempt +any caresses, although if she had looked up she would have seen the +passionate tenderness brimming in his eyes, which he could not conceal. +But she did not raise her head, and it all seemed to her part of the +same thing--he knew he had sinned against her, and was making the only +reparation a gentleman could offer. + +And even now with her hand in his, and the knowledge that soon she +would be his Princess, there was no triumph or joy, only the sick sense +of humiliation she felt. Passion, and its result--necessity--not love, +had brought about this situation. + +So she stood there in silence. It required the whole force of Gritzko's +will to prevent him from folding her shrinking pitiful figure in his +strong arms, and raining down kisses and love words upon her. But the +stubborn twist in his nature retained its hold. No, that glorious +moment should come with a blaze of sunlight when all was won, when he +had made her love him in spite of everything. + +Meanwhile nothing but reserved homage, and a settling of details. + +"You will let the marriage take place before Lent, won't you?" he said, +dropping her hand. + +And Tamara answered dully. + +"I will marry you as soon as you wish," and she turned and sat down. + +He leant on the mantlepiece and looked at her. He understood perfectly +the reason which made her consent to any date--and he smiled with some +strange powerful emotion--and yet his eye had a whimsical gleam. + +"You are afraid that something can happen--isn't it?" he said. "Well, +I shall be most pleased when that day comes." + +But poor Tamara could not bear this--the crystalizing of her fears! +With a stifled cry, she buried her face in the cushions. He did not +attempt to comfort her--though he could hardly control his longing to +do so. Instead of which he said gravely, "I suppose you must +communicate with your family? They will come here perhaps for the +wedding? You have not to ask any one's consent by the laws of your +country, have you?--being a widow." + +Tamara with a shamed crimson face half raised her head. + +"I am free to do as I choose," she said, and she looked down in crushed +wretchedness. "Yes, I suppose they will come to the wedding." + +"Lent is such an excellent excuse," he went on. "And all this society +is accustomed to my doing as I please, so there will be no great wonder +over the haste--only I am sorry if it inconveniences you--such hurried +preparation." + +"How long is it before Lent?" Tamara asked without interest. + +"Just under a month--almost four weeks--shall the wedding take place in +about a fortnight? Then we can go south to the sun to spend our +honeymoon." + +"Just as you will;" Tamara agreed in a deadly resigned voice. "I am +always confused with the dates--the difference between the English and +Russian--will you write down what it will be that I may send it to my +father?" + +He picked up a calendar which lay upon the table, and made the +calculations, then he jotted it all down on a card and handed it to +her. + +She took it and never looking at him rose and made a step toward the +door, and as she passed the table where he had put her wedding ring she +surreptitiously secured it. + +"I suppose you are staying for lunch?" she said in the same monotonous +voice. "Can I go now?--do you want to say any more?" + +"Tamara!" he exclaimed, with entreaty in his tone, and then with quick +repression he bowed gravely and once more touched her hand with his +lips--ere he held open the door for her. + +"I will be here when you return--I will await your pleasure." + +So she left the room quietly. And when she was gone he walked wildly up +and down for a moment--then he bent and passionately kissed the cushion +she had leant on. + +Tamara would learn what his love meant--when the day should come. + + + + +CHAPTER XX + + +The lunch passed off with quiet reserve--there was no one present but +Stephen Strong. Tamara endeavored to behave naturally and answered +Gritzko whenever he spoke to her. He, too, played his part, but the +tone of things did not impose upon Stephen Strong. + +As they were leaving the diningroom, on the plea of finding something, +Tamara went to her room, and Gritzko took his leave. + +"I will fetch you for the French plays tonight, Tantine," he said, "and +probably will come back to tea--tell Tamara," and so he left, and the +two old friends were alone. + +They stirred their coffee and then lit cigarettes--there was an awkward +silence for a moment, and then the Princess said: + +"Stephen, I count upon you to help us all over this. I do not, and will +not, even guess what has happened, but of course something has. Only +tell me, do you think he loves her? I cannot bear the idea of Tamara's +being unhappy." + +The old Englishman puffed rings of smoke. + +"If she is prepared never to cross his will, but let him be absolute +master of her body and soul, while he makes continuous love to her, I +should think she will be the happiest woman in the world. She is madly +infatuated with him. She has been ever since we came from Egypt--I saw +the beginning on the boat--and I warned you, as you know, when I +thought he was only fooling." + +"In Egypt!--they had met before then!" the Princess exclaimed, +surprised; "how like Gritzko to pretend he did not know her,--and be +introduced all over again! They had already quarreled, I suppose, and +that accounts for the cat and dog like tone there has always been +between them." + +"Probably," said Stephen Strong; but now I think we can leave it to +chance. You may be certain that to marry her is what he wishes most to +do,--or he would not have asked her." + +"Not even if--he thought he ought to?" + +"No--dear friend. No! I believe I know Gritzko even better than you do. +If there was a sense of obligation, and no desire in the case, he +would simply shoot her and himself, rather than submit to a fate +against his inclination. You may rest in peace about that. Whatever +strain there is between them, it is not of that sort. I believe he +adores her in his odd sort of way, just let them alone now and all will +be well." + +And greatly comforted the Princess was able to go out calling. + +The news was received with every sort of emotion,--surprise, chagrin, +joy, excitement, speculation, and there were even those among them who +averred they had predicted this marriage all along. + +"Fortunately we like her," Countess Olga said. "She is a good sort, and +perhaps she will keep Gritzko quiet, and he may be faithful to her." + +But this idea was laughed to scorn, until Valonne joined in with his +understanding smile. + +"I will make you a bet," he said; "in five years' time they will still +be love-birds. She will be the only one among this party who won't have +been divorced and have moved on to another husband." + +"You horribly spiteful cat!" Princess Sonia laughed. "But I am sure we +all hope they will be happy." + +Meanwhile Jack Courtray had come in at once to see Tamara. + +"Well, upon my word! fancy you marrying a foreigner, old girl!" he +said; "but you have got just about the best chap I have ever met, and I +believe you'll be jolly happy." + +And Tamara bent down so that he should not see the tears which gathered +in her eyes, while she answered softly, "Thank you very much, Jack; but +no one is ever sure of being happy." + +And even though Lord Courtray's perceptions were rather thick he +wondered at her speech--it upset him. + +"Look here, Tamara," he said, "don't you do it then if it is a chancy +sort of thing. Don't go and tie yourself up if you aren't sure you love +him." + +Love him!--good God!-- + +Pent-up feeling overcame Tamara. She answered in a voice her old +playmate had never dreamed she possessed--so concentrated and full of +passion. In their English lives they were so accustomed to controlling +every feeling into a level commonplace that if they had had time to +think, both would have considered this outburst melodramatic. + +"Jack," Tamara said, "you don't know what love is. I tell you I know +now--I love Gritzko so that I would rather be unhappy with him than +happy with any one else on earth. And if they ask you at home, say I +would not care if he were a Greek, or a Turk, or an African nigger, I +would follow him to perdition.--There!"--and she suddenly burst into +tears and buried her face in her hands. + +Yes, it was true. In spite of shame and disgrace, and fear, she loved +him--passionately loved him. + +Of course Jack, who was the kindest-hearted creature, at once put his +arm around her and took out his handkerchief and wiped her eyes, while +he said soothingly: + +"I say, my child--there! there!--this will never do," and he continued +to pet and try to comfort her, but all she could reply was to ask him +to go, and to promise her not to say anything about her outburst of +tears to any one. + +And, horribly distressed, Jack did what she wished, running against +Gritzko in the passage as he went out; but they had met before that +day, so he did not stop, but, nodding in his friendly way, passed down +the stairs. + +Tamara sat where he had left her, the tears still trickling over her +cheeks, while she stared into the fire. The vision she saw there of her +future did not console her. + +To be married to a man whom she knew she would daily grow to love +more--every moment of her time conscious that the tie was one of +sufferance, her pride and self respect in the dust--it was a miserable +picture. + +Gritzko came in so quietly through the anteroom that, lost in her +troubled thoughts, she did not hear him until he was quite close. She +gave a little startled exclamation and then looked at him defiantly-- +she was angry that he saw her tears. + +His face went white and his voice grew hoarse with overmastering +emotion. + +"What has happened between you and your friend, Madame? Tell me the +truth. No man should see you cry! Tell me everything, or I will kill +him." + +And he stood there his eyes blazing. + +Then Tamara rose and drew herself to her full height, while a flash of +her vanished pride returned to her mien, and with great haughtiness she +answered in a cold voice: + +"I beg you to understand one thing, Prince, I will not be insulted by +suspicions and threats against my friends. Lord Courtray and I have +been brought up as brother and sister. We spoke of my home, which I may +never see again, and I told him what he was to say to them there when +they asked about me. If I have cried I am ashamed of my tears, and when +you speak and act as you have just done, it makes me ashamed of the +feeling which caused them." + +He took a step nearer, he admired her courage. + +"What was the feeling which caused them? Tell me, I must know,--" he +said; but as he spoke he chanced to notice she had replaced her wedding +ring, it shone below his glittering ruby. + +"That I will not bear!" he exclaimed, and with almost violence he +seized her wrist and forcibly drew both rings from her finger, and then +replaced his own. + +"There shall be no token of another! No gold band there but mine, and +until then, no jewel but this ruby!" + +Then he dropped her hand and turning, threw the wedding ring with +passion in the fire! + +Tamara made a step forward in protest, and then she stood petrified +while her eyes flashed with anger. + +"Indeed, yes, I am ashamed I cried!" she said at last between her +teeth. + +He made some restless paces, he was very much moved. + +"I must know--" he began. But at that moment the servants came in with +the tea, and Tamara seized the opportunity while they were settling the +tray to get nearer the door, and then fled from the room, leaving +Gritzko extremely disturbed. + +What could she mean? He knew in his calmer moments he had not the least +cause to be jealous of Jack. What was the inference in her words? Two +weeks seemed a long time to wait before he could have all clouds +dispersed, all things explained--as she lay in his arms. And this +thought--to hold her in his arms--drove him wild. He felt inclined to +rush after her, to ask her to forgive him for his anger, to kiss and +caress her, to tell her he loved her madly and was jealous of even the +air she breathed until he should hear her say she loved him. + +He went as far as to write a note. + +"Madame," he began--He determined to keep to the severest formality or +he knew he would never be able to play his part until the end.--"I +regret my passion just now. The situation seemed peculiar as I came in. +I understand there was nothing for me to have been angry about,--please +forgive me. Rest now. I will come and fetch you at quarter to eight. + +"Gritzko." + +And as he went away he had it sent to her room. + +And when Tamara read it the first gleam of comfort she had known since +the night at the hut illumined her thoughts. If he should love her-- +after all!--But no, this could not be so; his behavior was not the +behavior of love. But in spite of the abiding undercurrent of +humiliation and shame, the situation was intensely exciting. She +feverishly looked forward to the evening. Her tears seemed to have +unlocked her heart--she was no longer numb. She was perfectly aware +that no matter what he had done she wildly loved him. He had taken +everything from her, dragged her down from her pedestal, but that last +remnant of self-respect she would keep. He should not know of this +crowning humiliation--that she still loved him. So her manner was like +ice when he came into the room, and the chill of it communicated itself +to him. They hardly spoke on the way to the Théâtre Michel, and when +they entered the box she pretended great interest in the stage, while, +between the acts, all their friends came in to give their +congratulations. + +Tamara asked to be excused from going on to supper and the ball which +was taking place. And she kept close to her godmother while going out, +and so contrived that she did not say a word alone with Gritzko. It was +because he acquiesced fully in this line of conduct that she was able +to carry it through, otherwise he would not have permitted it for a +moment. + +He realized from this night that the situation could only be made +possible if he saw her rarely and before people--alone with her, human +nature would be too strong. So with the most frigid courtesy and +ceremony between them the days wore on, and toward the beginning of the +following week Gritzko went off with Jack Courtray on the bear-hunt. He +could stand no more. + +But after he was gone Tamara loathed the moments. She was overwrought +and overstrung. Harassed by the wailing and expostulations of her +family for what they termed her "rash act," worried by dressmakers and +dozens of letters to write, troubled always with the one dominating +fear, at last she collapsed and for two days lay really ill in a +darkened room. + +Then Gritzko returned, and there were only five days before the +wedding. He had sent her flowers each morning as a lover should, and he +had loaded her with presents,--all of which she received in the same +crushed spirit. With the fixed idea in her brain that he was only +marrying her because as a gentleman he must, none of his gifts gave her +any pleasure. And he, with immense control of passion had played his +part, only his time of probation was illumined by the knowledge of +coming joy. Whereas poor Tamara, as the time wore on, lost all hope, +and grew daily paler and more fragile-looking. + +Her father had a bad attack of the gout, and could not possibly move; +but her brother Tom and her sister, Lady Newbridge, and Millicent +Hardcastle were to arrive three days before the wedding. + + + + +CHAPTER XXI + + +The night of the bear-hunter's return there was to be a small dinner at +the Ardácheff house. The Princess had arranged that there should be a +party of six; so that while the four played bridge the fiancés might +talk to one another. She was growing almost nervous, and indeed it had +required all Stephen Strong's assurance that things eventually would +come right to prevent her from being actually unhappy. + +"Let 'em alone!" the old man said. "Take no notice! you won't regret +it." + +Tamara had only got up from her bed that afternoon and was very pale +and feeble. She wore a white clinging dress and seemed a mere slip of a +girl. The great string of beautiful pearls, Gritzko's latest gift, +which had arrived that morning, was round her neck, and her sweet eyes +glanced up sadly from the blue shadows which encircled them. + +Gritzko was already there when the Princess and Tamara reached the +first salon, and his eyes swam with passionate concern when he saw how +Tamara had been suffering. He could not restrain the feeling in his +voice as he exclaimed: + +"You have been ill!--my sweet lady! Oh! Tantine, why did you not send +for me? How could you let her suffer?" + +And a sudden wave of happiness came over Tamara when he kissed her +hand. She was so weak the least thing could have made her cry. + +But her happiness was short-lived, for Gritzko--afraid yet of showing +what was in his heart--seemed now colder than ever; though he was +exulting within himself at the thought that the moment would come soon +when all this pretence should end. + +Tamara, knowing nothing of these things, felt a new sinking depression. +In five days she would be his wife, and then when he had paid the +honorable price--how would he treat her?-- + +He was looking wildly attractive tonight, his voice had a thousand +tones in it when he addressed the others, he was merry and witty and +gay--and almost made love to the Princess--only to his fiancée did he +seem reserved. + +The food appeared impossible to swallow. She almost felt at last as +though she were going to faint. The hopeless anguish of the situation +weighed upon her more than ever; for alas! she felt she loved him now +beyond any pride, every barrier was broken down. She had no more anger +or resentment for the night at the hut. All his many sins were forgiven. + +Dinner was an impossible penance, and with a feverish excitement she +waited for the time when they should be alone. + +It seemed an eternity before coffee was finished and the four retired +to their bridge. Then the two passed out of the room and on into the +blue salon. + +It was extremely difficult for both of them. The Prince could scarcely +control his mad longing to caress her. Only that strange turn in his +character held him. Also the knowledge that once he were to grant +himself an inch he could never restrain the whole of his wild passion, +and there were yet five days before she should be really his--. + +Tamara looked a white, frozen shape as she almost fell into the sofa +below the Falconet group. Cupid with his laughing eyes peeped down and +mocked her. Gritzko did not sit beside her. He took a chair and leant +on a table near. + +"We had good sport," he said dryly. "Your friend can hit things. We got +two bears." + +"Jack must have been pleased," Tamara answered dully. + +"And your family--they arrive on Monday, isn't it?" he asked. "Your +brother and sister and the estimable Mrs. Hardcastle?" and he laughed +as he always did at the mention of Millicent. "They will wonder, won't +they, why you are marrying this savage! but they will not know." + +"No!" said Tamara. "They must never know." Gritzko's face became +whimsical, a disconcerting, mischievous provoking smile stole into his +eyes. + +"Do you know yourself?" he asked. + +She looked up at him startled. It was her habit now never to meet his +eyes. Indeed, the sense of humiliation under which she lived had +changed all her fearless carriage of head. + +"Why do you ask such questions? I might as well ask you why are you +marrying me. We both know that we cannot help it," and there was a +break in her voice which touched him profoundly. + +"Answer for yourself please, I may have several other reasons," he said +coldly, and got up and walked across the room picking up a bibelot here +and there, and replacing it restlessly. + +Tamara longed to ask him what these reasons were. She was stirred with +a faint hope, but she had not the courage, the intensity of her feeling +made her dumb. + +"They--Tantine--or Sonia--have explained to you all the service, I +suppose," he said at last. "It is different to yours in your country. +It means much more--" + +"And is more easily broken." + +"That is so, but we shall not break ours, except by death," and he +raised his head proudly. "From Wednesday onward the rest of your life +belongs to me." + +Tamara shivered. If she could only overcome this numbness which had +returned--if she could only let her frozen heart speak; this was surely +the moment, but she could not, she remained silent and white and +lifeless. + +He came over to the sofa. + +"Tamara," he said, and his voice vibrated with suppressed passion. +"Will you tell me the truth? Do you hate me,--or what do you feel for +me?" + +She thought he meant only to torture her further; she would not answer +the question. + +"Is it not enough that you have conquered me by force? Why should you +care to know what my feelings are? As you say, after Wednesday I shall +belong to you--You can strangle me at Milasláv if you wish. My body +will be yours, but my soul you shall never soil or touch, you have no +part or lot in that matter, Prince." + +His eyes filled with pain. + +"I will even have your soul," he said. Then, as though restraining +further emotion, he went on coldly. "I have arranged that after the +wedding we go to my house, and do not start for the South until +Saturday. There are some things I wish to show you there. Will that be +as you wish?" + +"I have no wishes, it is as you please," Tamara answered monotonously. + +He gave an impatient shrug, and walked up and down the room, his will +kept its mastery, but it was a tremendous strain. Her words had stung +him, her intense quiet and absence of emotion had produced a faint +doubt. What if after all he should never be able to make her love him. +For the first time in his life a hand of ice clutched his heart. He +knew in those moments of agony that she meant the whole world to him. + +He glanced at her slender graceful figure so listlessly leaning against +the blue cushions, at her pale ethereal face, and then he turned +abruptly away toward the door to the other salon. + +"Come," he said, "it is of no avail to talk further, we will say +goodnight." Tamara rose. The way to her room led from the opposite +side. + +"Goodnight then," she said, "make my adieu to Sonia and the rest. I +shall go to bed," and she walked that way. The whole floor was between +them, as she looked back. He stood rigid by the other door. + +Then with great strides he was beside her, and +had taken her in his arms. + +"Ah! God!" he said, as he fiercely kissed her, and then almost flung +her from him, and strode from the room. + +And Tamara went on to her own, trembling with excitement. + +This was passion truly, but what if some love lurked underneath?--and +when she reached her great white bed she fell upon her knees, and +burying her face in her hands she prayed to God. + + * * * * * + +Now of what use to write of the days that followed--the stiff +restrained days--or of the arrival of Tom Underdown and his sister, and +Millicent Hardcastle--or of the splendid Russian ceremonies in the +church or the quieter ones at the Embassy. All that it concerns us to +know is that Gritzko and Tamara were at last alone on this their +wedding night. Alone with all their future before them. Both their +faces had been grave and solemn through all the vows and prayers, but +afterward his had shone with a wild triumph. And as they had driven to +his house on the Fontonka he had held Tamara's hand but had not spoken. + +It was a strange eventful moment when he led her up the great stairs +between the rows of bowing servants--up into the salons all decorated +with flowers. Then, still never speaking, he opened the ballroom doors, +and when they had walked its great length and came to the rooms +beyond, he merely said: + +"These you must have done by that man in Paris--or how you please," as +though the matter were aloof, and did not interest him. And then +instead of turning into his own sitting-room, he opened a door on the +right, which Tamara did not know, and they entered what had been his +mother's bedroom. It was warmed and lit, but it wore that strange air +of gloom and melancholy which untenanted rooms, consecrated to the +memory of the dead, always have, in spite of blue satin and bright +gilding. + +"Tamara," he said, and he took her hand, "these were my mother's rooms. +I loved her very much, and I always thought I would never let any +woman--even my wife--enter them. I have left them just as she used them +last. But now I know that is not what she would have wished." + +His deep voice trembled a little with a note of feeling in it which was +new, and which touched Tamara's innermost being. + +"I want you to see them now with me, and then while we are in the South +all these things shall be taken away, and they shall be left bare and +white for you to arrange them when we come back, just as you would +like. I want my mother's blessing to rest on us--which it will do--" + +Then he paused, and there was a wonderful silence, and when he went on, +his tones were full of a great tenderness. + +"Little one, in these rooms, some day I will make you happy." + +Tamara trembled so she could hardly stand, the reaction from her misery +was so immense. She swayed a little and put out her hand to steady +herself by the back of a chair. He thought she was going to fall, +seeing her so white, and he put his arm round her as he led her through +the room and into the sitting-room, and then beyond again to a little +sanctuary. Here a lamp swung before the Ikon, and the colors were +subdued and rich, while the virgin's soft eyes looked down upon them. +There were fresh lilies, too, in a vase below, and their scent perfumed +the air. He knelt for a second and whispered a prayer, then he rose, +and they looked into each other's eyes--and their souls met--and all +shadows rolled away. + +"Tamara!" he said, and he held out his arms--and with a little +inarticulate cry almost of pain Tamara fell into them--and he folded +her to his heart--while he bent and kissed her hair. + +Then he held her from him and looked deep into +her eyes. + +"Sweetheart--am I forgiven?" he asked, and when she could speak she +answered: + +"Yes--you are forgiven." + +Then he questioned again. + +"Tamara, do you love me?" + +But he saw the answer in her sweet face, and did not wait for her to +speak, but kissed her mouth. + +Then he lifted her in his arms like a baby and carried her back through +the ghostly rooms to his warm human sitting-room, and there he laid her +tenderly down upon the couch and knelt beside her. + +"Oh, my heart," he said. "What this time has been--since you promised +to marry me!--but I would not change it--I wanted you to love me beyond +everything--beyond anger with me, beyond--fear--beyond your pride. Now +tell me you do. My sweet one. Moia Doushka. I must know. I _must_ know. +You mean my life--tell me?" + +And passion overcame Tamara, and she answered +him in a low voice of vibrating emotion. + +"Gritzko! do you think I care for what you have done or will do! You +know very well I have always loved you!" And she put up her mouth for +him to kiss her. Then he went quite mad for a few moments with joy--he +caressed her as even on the dawn-drive she had never dreamed, and +presently he said with deep earnestness. + +"Darling, we must live for one another--in the world of course for +duty; but our real life shall be alone at Milasláv for only you and me. +You must teach me to be calm and to banish impossible thoughts. You +must make yourself my center--Tamara, you must forget all your former +life, and give yourself to me, sweetheart. My country must be your +country, my body your body, and my soul your soul. I love you better +than heaven or earth--and you are mine now till death do us part." + +Then the glory of paradise seemed to descend upon Tamara, as he bent +and kissed her lips. + +Oh! what did anything else matter in the world since after all he +loved her! This beautiful fierce lover! + +Visions of enchantment presented themselves--a complete intoxication +of joy. + +He held her in his arms, and all the strange passion and mystic depths +which had fascinated her always, now dwelt in his eyes, only +intensified by delirious love. + +"Do you remember, Sweetheart, how you defied and resisted me? Darling! +Heart of mine! but I have conquered you and taken you, in spite of all! +You cannot struggle any more, you are my own. Only you must tell me +that you give me, too, your soul. Ah! you said once I should have no +part or lot in that matter. Tamara, tell me that I have it?" + +And Tamara thrilled with ecstasy as she whispered, "Yes, you have it." + +She cared not at all about pride--she did not wish to struggle, she +adored being conquered. Her entire being was merged in his. + +He held her from him for a second and the old whimsical smile full of +tender mischief stole into his eyes. + +"That night at the hut--when you dropped the pistol when--well, don't +you want to know what really did happen?" he said. + +She buried her face in his scarlet coat. + +"Oh, no, no, no!" she cried. "It is all forgotten and forgiven." + +Then with wild passion he clasped her to his breast. + +"Oh! Love!" he said. "My sweet Princess; the gods are very kind to us, +for all happiness is yet to come--! 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